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From: Alara Rogers <ajer@delphi.com>
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Newsgroups: alt.startrek.creative
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Subject: Dance of Chameleon and Mirror (repost) (with APOSTROPHES!)
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Date: Fri, 2 Sep 94 20:06:57 -0500
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Organization: Delphi (info@delphi.com email, 800-695-4005 voice)
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Message-ID: <5iyx+Q5.ajer@delphi.com>
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NNTP-Posting-Host: bos1b.delphi.com
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I posted this a few days ago, and in a fit of vanity read it when
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it finally came up on the net. Imagine my horror when I discovered
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it had no apostrophes! So much for Microsoft Word's SmartQuotes;
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they don't translate into ASCII. I've fixed the problem and reposted
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the story. Enjoy!
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I've been working off and on (mostly off) on the following vignette
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for months. Recently I read the Generations script and realized it
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contradicts the entire premise of this story, so I had to rush to
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finish it before it became moot (it's not contradicted yet;
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nothing's canon until we see it on our screens!) So here we are.
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Despite the fact that they are using different names, the main
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characters in this are TNG characters. One is even a semi-regular.
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I promise.
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Dance of Chameleon and Mirror
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Mairi was in her office in the Library, trimming the profuse
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bushes that grew around her seat, when she sensed his arrival.
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She turned slowly. The entity had changed his form; gone
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was the attractive male of her own species, replaced by an
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implacable and improbable being of glowing ice in humanoid shape.
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And it had been close to fifty years since she'd last sensed him.
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But she knew who he was.
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"You."
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"Me," he replied, in a mocking cold voice.
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Mairi set down the pruning laser. "What do you want?"
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"What do I want?" he repeated. "Why, what makes you think I
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want anything? Perhaps I just came to visit. After all we meant
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to each other, are you saying I can't visit?"
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"I'm saying you should go. Now." Her hands came up in a
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gesture she hadn't used in fifty years.
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The entity shook his head. "You won't catch me with that
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trick again, my dear."
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"I know more than one trick, Ashke."
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"As do I." He circled her slowly, the amused tone gone from
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his voice. "I came to give you a warning, actually."
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This was highly unlikely. Mairi shook her head. "I may be
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younger than you. That doesn't mean I was born yesterday."
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"Oh, but it's true." He stroked a palely glowing hand over
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her bushes. Deep within the glow she could see darkness, and
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stars. It was one of the more ostentatious of his forms. "Such
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care you take with these. Such pride. Almost as if you had
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personally created them."
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"By the terms of the Questioners' treaty with my people, you
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can't touch us. That includes our property," Mairi said coolly.
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"Leave my plants alone."
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"Would I stoop to destroying harmless plants? Your plants
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are nothing to me." He turned back to her. "You changed your
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name again."
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"Mairi." It meant "decision-maker". "I grew out of the old
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one."
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"I liked the old one better. Do your people change their
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names every fifty years?"
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"Whenever we change roles," she said. "And I should have
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given you a new one, too."
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He shrugged. "I like Ashke."
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"It doesn't fit you anymore. If it ever did."
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When he had first come to her, fifty years ago, he had
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identified himself as a Questioner-- a poor translation of an
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untranslatable concept that defined his species' name, as well as
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the name their individuals used in dealing with mortals. Mairi
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had thought it was rather impersonal to call an individual by his
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species' name, so she had named him Ashke-- a trickster god from
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one of the many mythologies her people had had. At the time, it
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had seemed appropriate. Ashke was a harmless trickster whose
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games were generally aimed at gaining or imparting knowledge, and
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so Ashke of the Questioners had first appeared. By the time she
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understood how malicious, how thoughtless and arrogant, he could
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be, he had grown used to the name. "You should have been Diir,"
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she said now, using a word for a force of implacable chaos.
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"Such trivialities," he said. "We're here discussing names,
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when the future of your entire species is at stake."
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Her eyes narrowed. "You aren't permitted to touch my
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people."
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"Did I say I would touch them? I don't intend to harm a
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single cell on their miserable mortal bodies. But I'm not the
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only danger in the universe, Mairi."
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"No. You're not." She picked up the pruning laser and bent
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over her bushes again.
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"Listen to me!" He caught her hand. His touch burned--
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Mairi yanked her hand away.
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"Don't touch me."
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"As you wish. But listen to me."
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"Why?"
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"Because your pathetic species is about to be destroyed.
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And by sparing me a few minutes out of your undoubtedly pressing
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schedule, perhaps you can avoid it. I'm sure those plants will
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live if you stop pruning them for half an hour."
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She turned to face him. "If you want to talk to me, take a
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form I can look at without hurting my eyes."
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Ashke vanished in a brilliant splash of light, reforming in
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the image of her father. His sardonic smile would never have
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been seen on her father's face, though. "Is this better?"
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"Not if you want me to listen to you."
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With an ostentatious sigh, he transformed again, taking the
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handsome male form he had worn when first she knew him. "Enough
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games, Mairi," he said. "I have a purpose here. And if I get
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bored, and leave before I've achieved my purpose, it won't be me
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that suffers."
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She faced him, arms folded. "I'm listening."
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"Are you?" Now that he had her agreement, he seemed in no
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hurry to get to the point. "I wonder. For someone who makes a
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living at that, you do it so poorly. Or is it merely me that you
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cannot listen to?"
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"It's hard to listen when nobody's talking."
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"Oh, is that what happened?" He stared at her a moment, the
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intensity of his gaze frightening. Mairi merely gazed back
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evenly, until he looked away. "Well. It's of no consequence
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now, I suppose." He began to pace. "This is the warning, and I
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grant it only once, so listen closely. Within a century, a
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disaster will occur. Your civilization will topple and your race
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will be destroyed."
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Mairi frowned. "That's helpful," she said, meaning that it
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wasn't. "What kind of disaster?"
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He spun suddenly to face her, a huge malicious grin
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splitting his face. "Sorry! The Questioners' treaty with your
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people forbids me to interfere. I can't tell you anything else,"
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he caroled.
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Mairi's face tightened. "Then why did you tell me what you
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did?"
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"Because it's no more than you could determine for yourself,
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if you chose to look," Ashke said coldly. His eyes narrowed.
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"You think this is a game, don't you? That I'm making this up to
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torment you? Check it for yourself."
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"Is this another elaborate attempt to get me to use my
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powers?" She stepped closer to him, staring into his face.
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"You're still fascinated with my people and our abilities, aren't
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you?"
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Ashke shrugged elaborately. "In the sense that a hideous
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accident is fascinating, perhaps," he said. "And no, this is not
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an elaborate attempt to see you use your powers. I saw them
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quite well enough last time."
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"Yes. You did." She put as much quiet menace into the
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words as possible.
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His eyes narrowed again at the implied threat, but he didn't
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speak of it. "Check it or don't, Mairi. I really don't care.
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Should you choose to examine for yourself, I will wait right
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here." In a flash of light, he was sitting in a previously
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nonexistent rocking chair, over by a table full of books.
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"Why wait? If you can't tell me anything more, and you
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don't care if I believe you or not..."
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"Oh, but I do care." He smiled oh-so-slightly. "I want to
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see the expression on your face when you realize I'm right. And
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I haven't yet made my offer."
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Whatever his offer, she didn't want to hear it. Gifts from
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Ashke were always suspect. But it was unlike him to lie in an
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obvious fashion, and she could in fact check it. She supposed,
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on the chance that he was telling the truth, that she had to.
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Some of the Adepts of her people used tools for this, foci.
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Crystal balls. Glowing candles. Drugs to aid in meditative
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trancing.
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Mairi used none of those things. She was one of the most
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powerful Adepts of her time, and all she needed was a quiet mind
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and few distractions to be able to see inside. In an adjoining
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room, she sat at a plain wooden table, studying the grain, trying
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to shut out the intrusive sense of Ashke's presence in the
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Library garden. The grain formed loops and lines, like the lines
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under the fabric of reality, like the lines of each life
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stretching forward and backward and sideways through time. She
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stared at the lines until they took on a life of their own, until
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she knew she was looking at the lines of those closest to her and
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not the wood grain at all.
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Backward, backward, toward the roots where all her people's
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lines emanated from. She saw her race as a branching tree, lines
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growing in profusion from the thick trunklike source that was the
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combined line of all her race. That line she scanned forward,
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into what those who were not Adepts would call the future. Thick
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branches, green leaves, the implacable force of growth-- and then
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a break, a charred stop, as if lightning had hit the tree of
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life. She stared in horror, scanning the line forward. The
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trunk of her race tapered to a slender thread, the lines
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emanating from it pruned down to a mere few thousand out of
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billions.
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In theory she could have scanned sideways-- time, like
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space, was multi-dimensional, and the lines she saw were not the
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only ones possible. In theory she could have checked to see if
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there were any temporal dimensions where the lines of her people
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continued on, and perhaps she could even have spun the tree,
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wrenched things over so that it was *her* people, her existence,
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that would continue. But the latter was an abuse of power
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anathema to her, and the former required a quiet mind... so the
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horror of seeing the end of her people took the sight away. She
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could not regain the equilibrium she needed to see again.
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For several seconds she sat, staring at the woodgrain in
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horror. Ashke had not lied. Her people were going to die,
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billions of them cut down by the lightning bolt of sudden
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genocide. She took several deep breaths, trying to center
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herself again, and failing. She had thought she'd seen horrors,
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in close to eight hundred years of life. She had seen nothing at
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all.
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Mairi stood up and went back into the Library garden. Ashke
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turned to look at her. A satisfied smirk spread across his face,
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and she wanted to hit him, to physically wipe the smirk away.
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She wondered what he'd do if she spun his line now, if she locked
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him out of the universe as she'd once threatened.
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"What is going to happen?" she demanded.
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He shrugged. "Can't tell you. That would be interference.
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By the rules of *your* treaty."
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Her eyes went very small, very focused. "Is that all you
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came here for? To give me a useless warning?"
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"Perhaps," he said casually. "Why, do you think you deserve
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more than that?"
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"You still think you have reason to hate me."
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"Think? I wouldn't call it 'think', my dear. I'd put it in
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the category of immutable physical law."
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"All I did was hold up a mirror. It wasn't my fault you
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didn't like what you saw."
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"I don't think so." Ashke stood up, the rocking chair
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vanishing behind him. "What color is a chameleon on a mirror,
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Mairi?" He walked over to her. "I merely matched your
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expectations."
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"I didn't expect you to do what you did."
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"Nor did I expect what *you* did."
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"I know. You didn't think anyone could threaten you."
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He stared at her. Softly he said, "I admit, I didn't
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realize you could threaten me, but the fact that you could was
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not what surprised me. It was the fact that you did."
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"What else did you expect me to do, after what you did? I
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had to protect my people."
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"Yes, yes, your people, your people, your marvelous people.
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I'm truly sorry you were too stupid to understand what I was
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trying to say, and that you were too primitive to do other than
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resort to treachery to deal with it--"
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"Treachery?" She frowned at him. "What are you talking
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about?"
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"If you don't know, then there's no point in my telling
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you."
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Mairi shook her head. Treachery was not the term she would
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have used. Treachery implied that he had trusted her, that he
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had considered her a friend. That was not the way she remembered
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things. If he *had* considered her a friend, he had a downright
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psychotic way of showing it. But then, considering what she knew
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him to have done to friends, perhaps that wasn't so unbelievable
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after all. "We're talking at cross purposes, Ashke. What are
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you still here for?"
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"Why, I've come to offer you aid. To show you that I can
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let bygones be bygones." His tone hardened. "Or at least, to
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prevent your people from suffering the consequences of your
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actions."
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"My actions will bring the disaster?"
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"Your actions prevent me-- or anyone else-- from moving to
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help you." He moved away from her and began to pace again. "As
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lower species go, yours is an intriguing one. Arrogant, self-
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centered, immature and know-it-all--"
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"Are you sure you're not speaking of your own kind?"
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He ignored the interruption. "--but interesting, for all
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that. I'd *rather* not see it destroyed. But I can only take
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action if specifically invited to by one of your species-- one
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who understands the consequences, and is willing to pay the
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required price. You, in fact."
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"So you want something from me. What's the price?"
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Abruptly he was standing in front of her, leaning down into
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her face. "*You* are the price, my dear Mairi."
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"Me. In what sense, me?" She looked up at him, firmly
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standing her ground.
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"Grant me permission to save your people and release
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yourself from the terms of the treaty. Give yourself over to me,
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and I'll save them."
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His body language could almost have spoken of sexual desire,
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but she was fairly sure that wasn't what he wanted her for.
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"Give myself over to you for what?"
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"For whatever I want to do to you," he said coldly. "You
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betrayed me, Mairi. My price... is that you pay me back for
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that."
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Now Mairi stepped backward, twisting her head from him in
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disgust. She knew what Ashke's idea of vengeance entailed. She
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had helped one of his own kind, one who had been his best friend,
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recover from suicidal despair because Ashke had "paid her back"
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for the crime of loving a mortal man more than she'd loved him.
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"You are a twisted, spoiled brat," she said. "You imagine that
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trivial injuries are terrible ones and demand a far
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disproportionate vengeance, like a child who wants his mommy dead
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because she won't give him a toy. You think for a minute I'll
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hand myself over to you?"
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He looked taken aback. "On what basis do you say that?"
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"On the basis of Azi Martikale." She saw his face change.
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"I met her, Ashke. The one you mentioned had betrayed you. I
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found out what her so-called 'crime' was, and what you did to her
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in revenge. You didn't tell me that part of the story, did you?"
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"I told you almost none of the story, and it was a mistake
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to tell you as much as I did. I was advised that you could
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help... obviously a cruel practical joke on my advisor's part."
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"*I* could help *you?* You already had your revenge. You
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destroyed an innocent person's life because your best friend had
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the temerity to decide she wanted a part to her life that didn't
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include you."
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His face was white, with rage, she thought. "Is that what
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Azi told you? Is that what you believe?"
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"She was in too shattered a condition to lie. Who am I
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supposed to believe, you?"
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"Obviously you've made up your narrow little mind without
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knowing all the facts. Which is typical of you, and I should
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hardly expect any differently."
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"So what's the other part of the story, then? What's your
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personal justification for what you did?"
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Ashke turned away from her. "None of your business," he
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said softly. "You believe whatever you like, Mairi. The point
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is. Whether or not I am a 'twisted, spoiled brat', I have the
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power to save your people. You don't. So, shall you nobly
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sacrifice yourself to me to rescue them? Or shall you refuse me,
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because the idea that I should desire revenge on you offends you
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morally-- or simply because you don't want to get hurt-- and doom
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them all?"
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"If we have to rely on you for help, we're already doomed,"
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Mairi said quietly.
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She knew what he wanted. She knew Ashke too well. In his
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script, she would accept-- because she'd have to; he knew
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perfectly well that if it came down to a choice between her own
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life or her entire race's, she would sacrifice herself. And he
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would keep her alive, in some kind of subtle torment, while he
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rescued her people. And then he would show her what he had done.
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And she would see that in the process of saving their lives, he
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had destroyed all that was good and valuable about them, and she
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would know that the blame was hers for giving him permission.
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And then he would release her, to spend the rest of her long
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life blaming herself.
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"No, Ashke. I see through you. If we're fated to die, then
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whatever you do to save us will end up destroying us somehow.
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And if there's some way we can survive, accepting help from you
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instead of working through it ourselves will damage us." She
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shook her head. "It's wrong to go around manipulating the cosmos
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the way you do. It's wrong for you to impose your will on
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reality like you do. And if we participate in that wrongness, we
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become no better than you-- and that opens the door for us to
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abuse the power *we* have. Better we all die than that."
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"I see." He studied her, expressionless. "Then so be it.
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I leave you to your fate."
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In a blinding flash of light, he vanished.
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For several seconds, Mairi stared into the space where he
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had been. Finally she turned and left the garden, left the
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Library entirely, and headed for the sprawling, interconnected
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complex of houses which was her family's home.
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Mairi's people liked to live with their families, given a
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chance. They were also immensely long-lived. The complex
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included over ten main houses, with additions and wings and
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refurbished attics piled on as homes for returning adult
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children, interconnected underground by a maze of tunnels and
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additional living quarters. For this marriage, Mairi had asked
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that her husband come to live at her family home-- she had lived
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in the two previous husbands', but she felt she'd done enough
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traveling for now.
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Her current husband, a biologist, was working. She peered
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in on him as he used various instruments to study a tissue
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sample, occasionally turning to dangle a toy in front of their
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infant daughter's face. The baby, happy in her basket by her
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father, laughed delightedly.
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Both of them would probably die, Mairi thought, and the pain
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of it wrenched at her heart. *Little one, have I failed you? To
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bring a child into the world is to make a pact with her that the
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world will not end, that she will live to grow up. If I'm seeing
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the lines right, you'll still be a baby when the end comes...*
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But she hadn't failed yet. Mairi turned away before either
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of them could see her and headed to the center of the house,
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where her father lived.
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Father was an ancient Listener/Adept, ancient and wise. All
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her life Mairi had tried to be like him. In terms of Adeptitude
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she had surpassed him centuries ago-- it was why she had been
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chosen to watch Ashke when he'd first come to their world, that
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she was one of the most powerful Adepts currently alive. But
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power was nothing without wisdom. As old as she herself was, as
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wise in the ways of guiding others, Mairi needed her father's
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reassurance that she had done the right thing.
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The old man looked up as she entered. His dark brown skin
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had started to become leathery with great age, and his hair had
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turned brittle and white, but his eyes were still bright and
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sharp. "Antay," he greeted her with her childhood name. "It's
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been a while since you've come down to see your old father."
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"Too long, Tada." She kissed him on the cheek, then sat
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down in a plush formchair in front of him. "I just had a visit
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from Ashke."
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"Didn't he do enough damage the last time?"
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"Apparently he didn't think so. He came to give me a
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warning, Tada. He said our people would be wiped out within a
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century." She grew somber. "I checked, and it's true."
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Her father drew inward, thinking. "So."
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Quickly, leaving nothing out, Mairi explained to him the
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full details of the encounter, of Ashke's offer and her refusal.
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She did not ask her father to validate her decision. If he
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thought it worth validating, he would tell her so.
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"Well." Her father considered for several minutes. "You've
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become a spokesperson for our people since the whole thing with
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Ashke first began, Mairi. I thought it was good for you. About
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time someone recognized your abilities. And I think you're good
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at it. But you're not happy making decisions that affect the
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lives of others, are you?"
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She wasn't sure what this had to do with their predicament,
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but she knew very well that Listeners rarely came straight to the
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point. "Not really. But it wouldn't have mattered in this case-
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- whether I was Decision-Maker or not, it still would've been me
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Ashke came to."
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Her father nodded. "That's true... it was written from the
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basis of your last encounter." He gazed at her evenly. "Do you
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ever think perhaps you handled that one badly?"
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She considered. "Occasionally," she admitted. "Angering
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Ashke probably wasn't the smartest thing I could have done-- but
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what was I supposed to do, give in to him? You remember what he
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demanded, what he was like..."
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"I remember," her father said, nodding. "He was arrogant,
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obnoxious, self-centered, demanding... all the signs of a spoiled
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child. Or else the signs of a child in pain. He never did tell
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you why he came, did he?"
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"He dropped some hints, but when I tried to draw him out he
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wouldn't come. I thought I'd wait for him to come to me... and
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then things went sour long before that happened." She took a
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deep breath. "You're right, I know. Ashke's a kid. I shouldn't
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have let him get to me... but he's a kid with a lot of power, and
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a lot of knowledge, and a lot of experience in hurting people.
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Were we all supposed to obey the demands of a spoiled child just
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because he has power?"
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"Is threatening him the way to educate and guide a spoiled
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child?"
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"I just don't see what else I could have done. I tried,
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Tada. I was reasonable with him for years, but he just got worse
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and worse... And you didn't meet the one whose life he destroyed.
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Ashke's capable of tremendous evil. I didn't know just what he
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was capable of at the time. I know now. And if I hadn't
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escalated it to the point where his hands were bound by the
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treaty... who knows what might have happened?"
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Her father nodded again. "If you believe that, then you can
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feel confident that you did all you can do. I believe you
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handled this situation well, given the lines behind it; if you
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directed those lines in the only way possible, then no blame can
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attach to you for anything."
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"But did I direct them the only way possible?"
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"You must answer that, Mairi. As you've answered it to me,
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and to others, you must answer it to your own heart."
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She nodded. She'd known that, but every so often even a
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Listener needed to hear it again.
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"As for the other... we're not defeated yet, Mairi. We can
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tell the Council, and we'll research the possibility of a natural
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disaster."
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"Right. And I can go offworld and keep my ears open. If
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there's a powerful conquering race coming this way, there'll be
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refugees, advance travelers, and a lot of rumors."
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"Yes." He smiled at her. "We'll find a way to survive,
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Antay. Even if it means we leave our world behind, our people
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will survive."
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Three weeks later she was in space.
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Most of her children had agreed to help, traveling offworld
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in various directions to try to find evidence of a hostile power
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moving their way. Only her baby Raina had been left behind,
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staying in the care of her father. Mairi wondered if she would
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ever see the child again, and if she did, would Raina still be a
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child? Her people were long-lived; childhood lasted fifty years.
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But she could easily be away fifty years.
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Over the next ten years Mairi traveled, tending bar in one
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place, teaching language in another, working as a volunteer
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counselor in a third-- low-paying, low-status professions where
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she could keep her head down and hear all the rumors. She heard
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about the expansion of the people from Earth, whom she knew she
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|
was destined to meet again someday, and their growing Federation
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|
of peace. She heard about the arrested development of the
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Klingon Empire, as internal troubles and a godlike race kept them
|
|
from warring on the Federation. She heard about the
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adventuresome people of Willic, moving out from their tiny world
|
|
into the grand galaxy, and about the growing economic power of
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the Ferengi Alliance. She heard nothing at all about a new
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conqueror race.
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|
Until finally she sensed it, from a thousand light-years
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away. She was working as a journalist at the time, and was in
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the middle of an interview. Hastily she ended the interview and
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booked passage on a charter ship, making her way back across the
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stars she'd passed. It was close to a year of fits and starts
|
|
before she reached her home.
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Nothing remained.
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|
From orbit, she stared in horror at the viewscreen, that
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|
showed her huge gouged-out tracts, craters where the cities of
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her people had been. She scanned the planet for sentient life
|
|
and found none. There were huge carbon deposits, showing areas
|
|
where millions of bodies had been vaporized, and there were
|
|
skeletons exposed to the air, picked clean. There were birds
|
|
still, and plants, and trees. But no sentient life, none of her
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|
people alive.
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|
She dove inside herself to study the lines, and saw that
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some had escaped. Some lived. Even some of her own children.
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But the line of her smallest child was too small to see, and her
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last husband was dead, along with her father, along with her
|
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family, her species... On a plain of her world, deeply buried,
|
|
someone had left a message crystal. Mairi went there.
|
|
The message crystal had recorded the last moments of its
|
|
owner. Standing on the gouged-out ground, holding it in her
|
|
hand, Mairi saw black-clad cyborgs, soulless and empty, pour
|
|
across the land, killing and consuming all that stood in their
|
|
path. Entire cities were gouged out and carried to their giant
|
|
cubical ships, sinister, unnatural black moons in low enough
|
|
orbits to be seen in the sky. Thousands of people were
|
|
transformed, their souls cored out and replaced with hard
|
|
machinery, but their memories intact and used against those they
|
|
loved. The maker of the crystal had been an Adept. When the
|
|
soulless ones, the Borg, came for him, he had suicided rather
|
|
than allowing the possibility that the Borg could use an Adept's
|
|
powers once they'd taken his soul.
|
|
Despair, horror, shock overwhelmed Mairi as the message
|
|
ended with its maker's death. She sat down heavily on the empty
|
|
ground and began to weep hopelessly for her lost people.
|
|
Then she sensed him. And she stood, and wiped the tears
|
|
away, and brought her hands up in a gesture of power. "Show
|
|
yourself!" she snarled.
|
|
Ashke appeared, no different than she'd seen him ten years
|
|
ago, in a brilliant flash of light. "Happy now?" he whispered.
|
|
"Bring them back," she said. She knew it was wrong, knew
|
|
what she was asking was an obscenity, against all the laws of her
|
|
people, and she didn't care. What had consumed them was also an
|
|
obscenity. "Bring them back, Ashke. I accept your offer."
|
|
"It's a little late for that."
|
|
She shook her head wildly. "Time means nothing to you. I
|
|
know that. You can stop it from happening now as easily as you
|
|
could have before. Bring them back!"
|
|
"Oh, Mairi." He chuckled. "What would your people say if
|
|
they could hear you now? How the mighty have fallen."
|
|
"You want me to beg?" She fell to her knees in the dirt,
|
|
looking up at him with burning eyes. "You want me to grovel? To
|
|
crawl? I'll do anything. This shouldn't have happened, it
|
|
couldn't have happened, it's too horrible, I'll do anything,
|
|
Ashke, anything. *Please!* Please, if there's any decency in
|
|
you..."
|
|
"But I made the offer. And you refused me." He smiled
|
|
coldly. "My own people's laws forbid me to interfere now."
|
|
"You *have* to!"
|
|
"I don't *have* to do anything." H knelt down in front of
|
|
her and took her chin in his hands, cruelly gentle. "You killed
|
|
them, Mairi," he said softly. "You had the opportunity to save
|
|
them all, and you refused it out of pride. You'll never know,
|
|
now, what I would have demanded of you. Perhaps it wouldn't have
|
|
been so bad. Perhaps I wouldn't have hurt you badly at all,
|
|
certainly no worse than what this has done to you. But you'll
|
|
never know." He stood. "Did you know, I saw your daughter in
|
|
the garden, as the Borg raped the Library. Her father was
|
|
already dead, gutshot by a disruptor blast. She was so small, so
|
|
fragile and terrified. And such power in one untrained-- you
|
|
know, she saw me? I wasn't even manifested, but she sensed me
|
|
there. She pleaded with me to save her, but..." he shrugged. "I
|
|
had to tell her that her mother had forced me to agree not to
|
|
interfere with her people. If there had been an adult there,
|
|
someone capable of giving informed consent to release me from the
|
|
treaty, well... but there wasn't. She was too young to give
|
|
consent. Nothing I could do." He shrugged sadly. "And then the
|
|
Borg broke in..."
|
|
"*Stop it!*" she screamed at him, her mind filling with
|
|
horror at his tale. Raina wouldn't have understood why the
|
|
treaty was made or what it was intended to bind. She would have
|
|
known only fear and need and a man telling her that he couldn't
|
|
save her because her mother had forbidden it, her mother who had
|
|
abandoned her to die... She grabbed him around the waist,
|
|
tugging at his clothing. "What do you want? You want to torture
|
|
me? To kill me? I give you permission, anything you want, if
|
|
you'll save them..."
|
|
And he smiled, and flowed out of her embrace as if he were a
|
|
mirage. "No, my dear. I think I have what I want."
|
|
And he was gone.
|
|
For seconds Mairi stared after him, the brilliant flash of
|
|
his departure imprinted on her retinas, turning the gray world
|
|
red. And then she folded over onto the ground and wept
|
|
hysterically, as tides of darkness crashed over her mind and she
|
|
longed to die.
|
|
|
|
After some time she was spent, the tears gone, the darkness
|
|
receded. The world was gray and cold now, no warmth or color
|
|
inside it. She was wise enough to know that that would change
|
|
someday if she lived, that the color would return and she would
|
|
find joy in life again. But for now, she needed a cold reason to
|
|
survive.
|
|
She understood now what Ashke's goal had always been. He
|
|
had known she would refuse his offer-- he had not given her
|
|
enough information to do otherwise. If she'd known what would
|
|
happen... If she had known her people were facing, not merely
|
|
death, but consumption by a soulless overmind... perhaps she
|
|
would have made a different choice. Or perhaps she would not
|
|
have, but she would have known what the choices were. Ashke had
|
|
made the offer because she would refuse it, and because her
|
|
refusal would torment her once the disaster occurred. It had
|
|
been an exquisitely planned revenge. It deserved an exquisitely
|
|
planned response.
|
|
With incredible focus, she sought out Ashke's line. It was
|
|
impossible to miss, once she sought for it, a thick steely line,
|
|
impervious to the sideways splitting of mortal lines, impervious
|
|
to the possibility of death. It extended backwards farther than
|
|
she could see, into the dim reaches of prehistory. When she
|
|
scanned it forward, however, she found a tiny hairline weakness,
|
|
within the possible range of her lifespan.
|
|
Slowly, carefully now, she worked on that weakness, rotating
|
|
his line through the realms of possibility. He would notice, if
|
|
she tried to lock him out of the universe again. He would notice
|
|
if she did anything overt, anything sudden. But while he *could*
|
|
see the future, his powers were only active, only direct-- he
|
|
could see nothing if he did not actively look for it. And he had
|
|
no reason to believe his future would hold anything the past did
|
|
not.
|
|
His line thinned at the weak point and shattered, splitting
|
|
off into the thousand possibilities of mortality, and she smiled.
|
|
There were places where it recovered, where he survived what she
|
|
had just done. There were places where it did not. All she had
|
|
done was alter the probabilities of an event in his future, so
|
|
what had been unlikely now became almost certain.
|
|
Almost as an afterthought, she moved her line to intersect
|
|
his there. They would meet again, during the period of Ashke's
|
|
greatest vulnerability, and she would see then what fate moved
|
|
her to do. Perhaps she would have an opportunity to pay him
|
|
back. Or perhaps by that time she would feel no desire for
|
|
revenge, and regret what she had done to him. This was, after
|
|
all, not the act of a wise and responsible creature. Someday
|
|
maybe she would regret.
|
|
Right now she didn't care.
|
|
Her name would have to change, she thought. She would not
|
|
again make a decision for another than herself. The name she'd
|
|
used in young womanhood struck her, the name that simply meant
|
|
"listener", and she nodded. As she had been once, so she would
|
|
be again.
|
|
She stood up and touched the automatic transporter device on
|
|
her waist. A moment later there was a shimmer in the air of her
|
|
world, and then the last sentient life was gone from the world
|
|
forever.
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