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Copyright @1994 Seldon-Rush Partners, Ltd.
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Ever since I put away the last freshly washed and dried dish from
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our most recent supper, I have felt a burning need inside of me. I
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don't know why I should feel this way except maybe that He hasn't hurt
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me in days. We've made love. We've been close in all of the other ways
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we know. But He hasn't hurt me - and the need in me has grown steadily
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until now, standing here alone in my kitchen in front of the sparkling
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clean and empty sink, I find that my legs and arms are trembling
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slightly, and my belly quakes with butterflies and tension.
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What I wouldn't do to be alone with Him now! To be able to tell
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Him of my need. To be able to see the fire begin to burn in His eyes as
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He begins to understand and plan His pleasure with me.
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But the children are there in the living room with Him - watching a
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video tape of an old favorite movie that Jason and I approve of. "War
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Games." My little girl doesn't mind it, even enjoys some of the things
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that happen in the movie. But my son loves it. He loves the games, the
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computer, the war simulations. A hawk in a home of doves, yet He is my
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son and I love to see Him enjoying something and being able to discuss
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it with us afterwards.
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And we do, you know, discuss the movies, and the books, and the
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plays we expose our children to. And in discussing these things with
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our children, we learn about them in ways they could never suspect -
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things we would never have guessed.
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But as long as the children are there, my need will continue to
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burn inside of me like a ember glowing hotly, eating away at me, searing
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me.
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I steady myself, with a foolish smile on my face. "Get a grip,
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Jan," and it's almost enough to wake me. I've been drifting, as usual,
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while doing the dishes. It takes no thought to wash dishes and because
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of the way I felt inside, the water in which I did the dishes was a
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little hotter than usual - enough to make my fingers and palms tingle
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with the heat each time I dipped them into it. The feeling of heat, the
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feeling of the pain, sent me drifting off into day dreams about night
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things - and my body responded by getting hungry in spite of the fine
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food we had just eaten.
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"Get a grip", and I moved slowly into the living room to join my
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family in their appreciation of a >fine art.< >grin<
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But the steadiness left me the moment I saw my Husband sitting
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comfortably in His recliner. I took a quick glance at the children,
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smiling to each in turn as they caught my eye, but then I locked eyes
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with my Husband for a moment and, I think, He caught the hesitation in
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my mood.
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"I wish you had let us help you with the dishes, Janni," He said.
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I tossed off my usual refrain to that suggestion and went over to His
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chair, sitting on the floor in front of Him, with my back pressed up
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back against His chair between His legs. The children took no notice -
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mommy wasn't someone who always sat on the couch or chairs, she often
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played with them or sat with them on the floor.
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As we watched the movie, I found myself taking Jason's shoes off
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and massaging His feet one at a time almost absently. I knew He liked
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for me to do that - He spends a lot of time on His feet at work and has
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often either soaked His feet in the evenings, or sat there massaging
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them Himself. He noted my efforts in a quiet way, leaning forward
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slightly to run His fingers through my hair and massaging my scalp the
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way I like for Him to do.
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I guess I must have uttered a little groan - and when I opened my
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eyes, I saw my little girl looking at me and smiling. I could feel the
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heat of an instant blush prickling my ears as I shook myself back to the
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moment.
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"Hm, that feels GOOD, hon. Thank you." Talking to Jason, I was
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really talking to the children. I was embarrassed that I had
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unintentionally made myself known to them that way.
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"For me too, Janni. But don't quit now." I realized I had stopped
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kneading His feet the moment I'd groaned so I resumed my attentions to
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Him hoping to shake myself loose of this feeling before too long.
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I really can't tell you what I did for the next half hour or so. I
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don't remember doing anything consciously except to now and then squeeze
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my Husband's feet a bit during the movie. But whatever happened,
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consciously or unconsciously, He knew that I wasn't comfortable - and
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why.
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Twenty minutes before the end of the movie, Jason looked over at
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the children for a moment ( I couldn't see Him do so as I was still on
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the floor facing away from Him - but it's something I've seen Him do
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often before when considering what to do next ) and then reach down and
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cup my neck in His hands. Slowly, He massaged my shoulders lightly by
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running His hands along the tops of my shoulders. Once, twice, He
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passed His fingers lightly across them and my skin tingled with instant
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goose flesh at their passage.
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I glanced over at the children and knew that they were still
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engrossed in the video when I felt Jason's fingers grip my neck and
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begin to tighten ever so slightly. My heartbeat jumped several beats
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when He increased the pressure slowly but persistently and when I felt
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the pressure begin to hamper my breathing - I closed my eyes and lowered
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my head slightly in His grip.
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It was enough. It was enough to tell Him exactly what kind of a
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mood I was in and the pressure disappeared slowly and I felt His hands
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come to rest on my shoulders.
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"Janni, we need to get the tax papers together for the weekend.
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Would you mind going through the monthly files and organizing the bills
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for me tonight? I can do some of the accounting after work tomorrow if
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you can give me the numbers to crunch."
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The children weren't paying any attention to us - the computer was
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running war simulations and the nuclear bombs were about to strike out
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bases in Alaska and Nebraska - so I twisted my torso around in my
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sitting position and looked into His eyes. I didn't think. There was
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no time to think. But in the manner I had always had when hearing a
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request from the Man I loved, I said "Sure, hon. Do you want to show me
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how you want me to organize the files for you?"
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"I'll be right back," Jason said to the children. I turned and
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rose to my feet and followed Jason down to the basement where the filing
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cabinet containing our bills, and papers was.
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"Don't say a word," He said to me. And I obeyed.
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All of a sudden, I wished I'd taken a bath earlier, or that I'd
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worn something different, or that I'd in some way prepared myself for
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the possibility I had hoped for so avidly. But I hadn't.
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I stood in the room without moving, without saying anything.
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"You have a need tonight, don't you, Janni?" I didn't answer Him.
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I knew I wasn't supposed to. It was a rhetorical question and all He
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needed to do was look into my eyes to know the truth of His statement.
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"I'll bet you think that because the children are upstairs watching
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television that you won't have to undergo any loving tonight. That's a
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shame, Janni, you couldn't be more wrong. I'm sure we can accommodate
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your need without disturbing the children."
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"Spread your feet."
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He came to me, standing to my side, and He pushed his hand down
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into the waistband of my jeans forcing his fingers down and over my
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mons. Without moving aside the material of my panties, He pushed the
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flat of his finger up on the material forcing it between my labia and I
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looked into his face as his finger pushed the material against my
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clitoris.
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"Does massaging my feet make you this wet, Janni?" I could feel the
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blush spread across my face again but I said nothing.
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He withdrew his hand from my pants and lifting his fingers to his
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nose, he made a show of taking a sniff - making me uncomfortable again -
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and said "You really do smell hot tonight, Janni. Really hot."
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He went over to the desk and pulled the office chair out for
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Himself. Sitting back in it, He told me to slowly take off my shoes and
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pants - but to leave the panties and blouse on. I did as He asked.
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Enjoying greatly the feelings running through me and hoping the same
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kind of hunger was beginning to grow inside of Him. I took my shoes off
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first - then I slipped off my jeans. I roughly folded the jeans up and
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placed them on the floor next to me, shoes on top. I stood there for a
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moment, not knowing what to do with my hands, and waited for Him to tell
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me what He wanted me to do.
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"Just hold your hands at your sides and turn slowly for me," He
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said, and I complied knowing that the sight of me like this always
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turned Him on. I've seen Him look at art in the same way He looks at
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me. As though the looking alone satisfies a need in Him. Slowly, I
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turned a little and stopped, turned a little more and stopped. Again
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and again I would move, stop and pose for Him. Letting Him see me from
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every aspect like this made me feel good inside too. I knew from my
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talks with other women that few men seemed to appreciate their wives as
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much as Jason appreciated me.
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For His part, I've often asked Him to do the same for me. I too,
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enjoyed watching His body standing or sitting, laying or moving this way
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and that.
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"Put your ankle and wrist cuffs on, Janni."
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And though I always preferred for Him to do this to me, I did what
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I was told.
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From my most distant memories, I'd always tied myself up in various
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ways to experience bondage when there was no one in my life to do these
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things to me. It never failed to turn me on. It never failed to
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satisfy on some level the cravings inside of me.
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But the moment I had someone else to bind me, binding myself lost
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much of its magic. Just Jason's touch on my wrist before adding the
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leather, or the rope, or the metal cuff could send me into a swoon.
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And always, the first touch of the material that would hold me made
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me weak and defenseless. I remembered again the first time that Jason
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had hesitantly taken one of his neckties and looped it loosely around my
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wrist. He had hesitated, looking at me deeply to see if this was really
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what I wanted, and what He saw had shocked Him. The touch of the
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material had transformed me so completely that I actually LOOKED
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different to Him.
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And inside, I felt completely different. The touch of the silk had
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turned me into a slave inside - and it was a feeling that I relished.
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I took the leather cuffs out of the drawers of the chest we'd
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stored in the basement for the purpose of holding our bondage supplies.
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It was an old, cedar four drawer clothes chest that served our purposes
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well - and could be >locked< up (again Jason's ingenuity had turned it
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into a kind of filing cabinet like case that could be effectively locked
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by a bar slipped through the handles and locked at the top) so the
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children couldn't get into it.
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Sitting down on the floor in front of my Husband, I first put the
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thicker, wider leather cuffs around each ankle, tightening them securely
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in place. Then with a little more difficulty, I placed the leather
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cuffs around my wrists and tightened them too.
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Getting up onto my knees, I turned myself around so that I was
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kneeling sideways to Jason and I sat back on my ankles and laid my body
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down over my lap, putting my face sideways on the floor as I crossed my
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wrists in the small of my back. In this position of submission, I
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waited.
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Jason got up out of his chair, going over to the chest of drawers
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and opening up the bottom drawer. My heart jumped - the bottom drawer
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held many of the paddles with which Jason had beaten me in the past. My
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heart was correct, I saw Him withdraw one of the longer, heavier paddles
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- almost the size of a cricket bat - and when He slid the drawer closed
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and came walking over to me, I felt the first real tinges of fear deep
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inside of me.
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Jason walked around behind me where I couldn't see Him.
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"Don't move." That was all He said. And I didn't. I waited and I
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waited. I could feel Him watching me, but I heard nothing but the
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loudness of my own heartbeat and the susurration of my own breathing.
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When I felt the first rustle of his clothing, I almost physically
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braced myself against the expected impact - but the impact didn't come.
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From the sounds I heard, I thought Jason might have gotten down to the
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floor behind me, but I couldn't tell. When I felt the touch of His hand
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smoothing the material of my panties over the mounds of my buttocks, I
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moaned out loud with the sensation that his touch brought me. In a
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circular motion, he moved his hands over both hemispheres of my bottom,
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giving me pleasure and warming my body. When He slipped his hands under
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me to feel my pussy - I felt myself actually oozing fluids into my
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panties.
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"Pick your bottom up for me."
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Without moving my knees, or my face, I straightened my legs raised
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my bottom up into the air and exposing my rump for Jason's pleasure, and
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the touch of the paddle. Again the rustling of clothes, but this time
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the rustling obviously moved away from me.
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"You will stay there until I return", He said and He walked past me
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out the door and up the stairs to the first floor.
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AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!
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I had been ready for anything. I had dreaded anything. I had
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wanted everything. And He had simply LEFT ME HERE!!!
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I obeyed Him though. I stayed exactly as He had left me. Not
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because I was afraid of what He might do or think if He returned to find
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me in another position - but because I loved Him and wanted to do
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anything He told me to do as part of my fantasy and lovestyle.
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I help my position, feeling the chill on my labia as the wet
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material of my panties cooled and dried in the air of our basement.
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Wanting very badly to touch myself there, I fought the need with every
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fiber of my being. I am not allowed to touch myself EVER without His
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permission and I had not broken that rule for quite a while now. I was
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learning discipline at His hands, and I was beginning to appreciate the
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joy that such deprivation could bring me.
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When He returned about fifteen minutes later, He picked up the
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paddle quickly and walked over to me without preamble.
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"Cross your ankles, Janni, and spread your knees as far as you can.
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Good. Now put your arms through between your thighs and grip your
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ankles."
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When I got my hands close to my ankles, He snapped the rings of my
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wrist cuffs together to my ankle cuffs locking me into this butt upright
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exposed position. When He stood back up, I knew my waiting was coming
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to an end.
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"Do you have to go to the bathroom?", He asked. For just a moment,
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I hesitated thinking that I really SHOULD have gone first and so, in
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spite of my desire to be here doing this, I said "Yes" meekly.
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"Tough shit!" He retorted abruptly and at that moment I heard the
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loud swish of the paddle just a split second before I felt the power of
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the impact on my bottom.
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"Ahhh!" Unintentionally, I found myself rolling over onto my side
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with the pain of the impact. Unbelievable pain seared through me as the
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wood struck and it was all I could do not to scream out loud.
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I could never have expected this! With the children awake and only
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a floor away I surely didn't expect my Husband to hit me so hard and so
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painfully. I found myself whimpering instantly over the pain and
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discomfort but the moment passed quickly.
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"Stay right there, little my pain cushion. I'll take care of the
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children and be back in a little while. Tonight, Jan, I'm going to give
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you >exactly< what you want." And off He went.
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<20> Time passes slowly when I'm bound and throbbing from a
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<20> paddle strike..... But I love the feeling of it all....
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When He returned and hour or more later, He found me still lying on
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my side on the carpeted floor. I had, after a fashion, napped lightly
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going in and out of a sleep reality dream sequence in which I was beaten
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repeatedly by Him who had captured me.
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Jason unsnapped my wrists from ankles and helped me to slowly stand
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up. I was a little cramped up because of my tightly bound position for
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so long, but my muscles responded correctly to all of the orders my
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brain sent, and I found myself standing before my Husband, hands at my
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sides, as He began to unbutton my blouse.
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The lethargy of my rest began to leave me quickly. And now that I
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was standing, the muscles of my buttocks echoed mildly with the
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throbbing pain they'd known only recently. I was still wet down under.
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Even in my napping, I had continued to flow with the juices of
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excitement that my bonds engendered.
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Slipping my blouse off my shoulders, Jason undressed me slowly like
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a loving parent taking care of a pre-school child. And I, with my head
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bowed forward, allowed my body to be bared at His whim. He unfastened
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my bra and as He pushed the straps over my shoulders, I shrugged the
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garment off for Him and saw Him place it on the pile of clothes on the
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floor next to us.
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The panties He left on me. He has told me before that in many ways
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He found me as erotically attractive with clothes as without and
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sometimes He would ask me to keep various articles of clothing on even
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as we made soft love in bed. I knew this kind of teasing to be very
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effective on Him and so I catered to it at every opportunity.
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He moved to the center of the room where the pulleys and ropes of
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our suspension devices were centered. Crooking a finger in my
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direction, he motioned me over with his digit and when I came to His
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side, He positioned me under the pulleys in the way He liked best.
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"Sit." The command told me how I would be suspended - basically.
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If I were to be suspended upright, He would simply have lowered the
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ropes and snaps and affixed them to my wrists. Having to sit under the
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pulleys meant that He would suspend me in an inverted position, raising
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my feet off the floor first and raising my body upward that way.
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When He pulled the ropes down through the side-placed pulleys above
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us, I knew that I wouldn't be held simply straight up. He affixed the
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snaps onto the rings of my leather ankle cuffs and I knew I would be
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suspended with my legs spread. The paddle had not been put away, so my
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body began to tremble with the real fear of the pain that was to come.
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Moving behind me, He snapped my wrist cuffs together and told me to
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lay down. I did so, reclining back onto my cuffed wrists, arching my
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back to accommodate them. My legs splayed out in front of me, I watched
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Jason pick up the remote control for the pulley motors and I heard the
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whirr of the motors begin as the ropes began to inch their way back up
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toward the ceiling, through the eyes of the pulleys, and to the sides of
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the room where the winch motor was located.
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I smiled inwardly as I remembered the way Jason and my son had come
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down here in the beginning to put the pulley system in together. And
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later, when Jason and my oldest boy used the winch to raise our son's go
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cart up off the floor in order to work on its underside "like the real
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garages do", I had been impressed by my Husband's ability to cover our
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activities with plausible explanations.
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I felt the tug on my ankles as the ropes took up the slack and my
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feet began to rise toward the ceiling. When my legs were up high enough
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to begin lifting my bottom from the floor, Jason stepped in behind me
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and lifted my torso upward as my legs rose. I could feel the extra pull
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on my groin and crotch as my legs went higher and were split by the
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separating pulleys, exposing me and forcing my body to uncover its
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secrets.
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Jason let my shoulders go gently as my body rose high enough and I
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felt myself dangling at the ends of the ropes still rising from the
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floor. When I was high enough, Jason stopped the motors and I hung
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there waiting for his next pleasure.
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Taking the bolts from a box on the desk, Jason began to screw the
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big eye-bolts into holes He had made in the flooring earlier. This the
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one thing we could leave in the floor all of the time, the bolts had to
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be removed after every session because they were a hazard and because we
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hadn't been able to come up with an explanation for their presence to
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the children.
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It took Him only a few moments to place them into the floor and
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when He was done, He unfastened my wrists and attached specially made
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elastic bands from each wrist to each of the floor bolts. Then, using
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the winch once more, He raised my legs even higher so that any slack in
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the elastic bands would be taken up and I would actually be stretched in
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all four directions at once in a giant human X shape.
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If I pulled with all of my strength, I could pull on my wrists for
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only an inch or two, that's how tight the bands were. Yet, the pull was
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not overly painful to my joints and my legs were in superb shape and my
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weight and the added pull of the bands didn't bother them at all.
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With my body stretched out before Him, Jason began to consider His
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next move. I knew that most of this was an act - I think He always knew
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exactly what He wanted to do before He started. It was a trait I had
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seen in Him in many aspects of our life. He planned things out in
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advance, then could adapt as the situation changed. But He never
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started anything He didn't know how He was going to proceed.
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So I waited and looked at Him from my strange vantage point,
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slightly twisting in my bonds in order to alleviate some of my inner
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tension - and in some way excite some of that same tension in Him. He
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enjoyed watching my body flex this way and that - that's what He always
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told me - and I liked doing anything that made Him feel good.
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Kneeling down in front of my torso, Jason put his arms around my
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upper body and pulled me to Himself as He covered my breasts with kisses
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and light bites. He needn't have bothered, I was already as ready as my
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body could be but the love bites on my tender flesh sent shivers of
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pleasure through me.
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Concentrating for a little while on my nipples, Jason first pulled
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at them with his lips - sucking each in turn for a few seconds to make
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them as tall as possible - then He bit down on them, with some pressure,
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that made me cry out slightly with the desired pain. Twice, He bit each
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of my nipples with enough force to make me cry out and I realized as I
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did so that He was gaging the pressure of his bite and its effect by my
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reaction. If I had been able to keep my silence, the strength of his
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bite would be greater.
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And I was ashamed to admit to myself that I wouldn't find myself
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holding back my reactions to get more pain. At least not yet. >grin<
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Rising to his feet, Jason rubbed his hand across my belly in a
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circular motion that He knew I loved so much. A relaxing, warming
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sensation, his touch eased the memory of the pain on my nipples though
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they still tingled with the memory of his teeth pinching them tightly.
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He raised both of his hands to my legs then rubbing the outside,
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front and back of them up and down from mid-calf to hip and back. I
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think He savored the feel of my skin and it was as pleasant for Him as
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it was for me. I loved the way his hands would warm the skin they
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touched and move on. It was a feeling so reassuring I couldn't imagine
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ever living without it again.
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When his hands moved to the inside of my legs and slowly worked
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their way up and down (going slightly lower each time the moved
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downward) I felt the teasing beginning to drive me over the edge.
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Without even having Him touch my pussy, I was feeling myself climbing to
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the plateau of sexual tension that would inevitably result in orgasm.
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Up and up I went as his hands went down and down on me. When He finally
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did put one of his hands flat across my panty covered lips, I arched my
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back and strained every muscle in my legs clenching myself up against
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his hand trying to increase the pressure of his touch.
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His chuckle at my frustration brought a smile to my face too, but I
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didn't speak. I hadn't been given permission to do so and I wouldn't do
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so until told I could.
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"Ok, my little cheating slut, (ever since Harry had had me, Jason
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had used that word in our love making to goad me on), you asked for it."
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And with that, He picked up the heavy paddle once more and walked
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around to my left side. Standing with his feet straddling the elastic
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band holding my left arm stretched to the floor behind Him, Jason put
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the paddle gently against my bottom gauging the distance and angles
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involved, then He pulled back and was (I thought) about to take a swing
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at me when He abruptly stopped and said "Oh, sorry, forgot something."
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Then He showed me the gag and told me to open my mouth and spoke
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again. "Wouldn't want the children to hear, now, would we?" He even had
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a smile on His face - something that now I found frightening from the
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Man I once thought too gentle to slap me across the face let alone beat
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me with a wooden paddle!
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The soft rubber ball filled my mouth and effectively stopped me
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from voicing any protests, or sounds of pain. It didn't take Him long,
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He had grown expert in applying this device to my body, and He was up
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and standing ready again when I took my last free and easy breath and
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turned my head away from Him so that I wouldn't have to see the first
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impact coming.
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I jerked involuntarily when He again touched me gently with the
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cool wood of the paddle, and when the touch stopped, I braced myself for
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the imminent pain.
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THWACK!
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The pain was not as great as it had been the first time He had
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struck me tonight. Or is it that I was much more prepared for the Pain
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and in much greater excitation? Though the impact on my bottom actually
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||
pushed me forward in my bonds with its force, the pain of the first hit
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||
was surprisingly easy to assimilate. I was marvelling at the apparent
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discrepancy in what I expected and what I received when the second
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impact flamed my behind. A third, and a fourth came rapidly in
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succession and washed away all thoughts of how easy I seemed to be
|
||
getting off.
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The pain filled me. Washed over and through me. Made me clench
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every muscle in my body in the hopes of unfocusing my attention from my
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bottom where all of the hurt was centered. He hit me ten times. Ten
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times as inexorable as any punishment I had ever felt. Not nine times,
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not eleven times. Though I hadn't counted the swings, I could
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immediately recall and describe each and every one of them. Ten swats
|
||
of a heavy wooden paddle that had shocked and hurt me - and had sent me
|
||
right into the first of my night's orgasms with four swats to spare.
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||
|
||
How shameful I felt! Again, pain had given me physical, sexual
|
||
release in ways I could never explain. And no matter how painful, every
|
||
stroke that came after the beginning of my orgasm brought pure pleasure
|
||
to me. Unbelievable that pain could so be transmuted into pleasure, but
|
||
it was happening to me again and again at my Husband's touch.
|
||
|
||
My eyes clenched tightly shut, I never heard my Husband move until
|
||
I felt his hand on my sex. Slipping his fingers under the material of
|
||
my panties, I felt Him touch my clitoris holding his finger there,
|
||
waiting. I felt another reflexive spasm of pleasure hurtle through me
|
||
and I knew that he now knew what I knew. His finger could sense the
|
||
pulsations of my orgasm as clearly as though I were telling Him of my
|
||
pleasure.
|
||
|
||
"Very nice, Janni, very nice."
|
||
|
||
Walking back to the dresser, I could hear Jason putting the paddle
|
||
back in the bottom drawer, and heard Him rummaging around looking for
|
||
something. When He returned to me, He stood in front of me and I saw
|
||
the short leather thonged whip He had fashioned for me out of leather
|
||
shoe laces and I quivered with the memory of the feel of that instrument
|
||
against my skin. Each thong, thin and cut out of leather hide, was
|
||
square cut so that each thong had four edges with which to bite into my
|
||
skin. Of all of the whips that Jason and I had found, bought, or made -
|
||
this one was the only one that stung and left marks each time we used
|
||
it. Lightly, or forcefully, the edges always seemed to redden the skin
|
||
and if used too forcefully, could cut the skin.
|
||
|
||
I watched Him as He drew the thongs through His left hand, and I
|
||
wondered at where He would touch me with his new toy.
|
||
|
||
I didn't have too long to wonder. With my sopping panties my only
|
||
cover and defense, I saw Him raise the whip and bring it gently down
|
||
between my legs onto my sex. There was not enough strength in my arms
|
||
or legs to fight against the pull of the elastic bands and gravity and
|
||
all I could do was flex my thigh muscles and twist my wrists and ankles
|
||
in their restraints as I felt the leather trace across me. No pain,
|
||
just the touch.
|
||
|
||
The next time He brought the whip down on my sex He wasn't as
|
||
gentle and I felt one of the thongs bite into the soft area between my
|
||
labia and my leg. Still, the force was mild and I felt the surge of
|
||
sexual tension at my expectations of what I expected to follow.
|
||
|
||
When the whip went up for the third time, I braced myself inwardly
|
||
- Jason never warmed up more than twice - and it wasn't as much of a
|
||
shock when the whip landed on my body trailing strands of fire across my
|
||
labia.
|
||
|
||
"Do you like that, Jan? I'm glad, because I have a real need to
|
||
take those panties off of you with this......"
|
||
|
||
I couldn't believe my ears. For a moment, I think I actually
|
||
believed that he was going to tear the panties off my my bottom with a
|
||
whip! But rational thought took over and I knew that no matter how bad
|
||
it would get, Jason was not the kind of man to cut me up with a leather
|
||
whip.
|
||
|
||
The fourth lash of the whip changed my mind! God it hurt!!
|
||
|
||
"Let's say ten lashes, my little slut, what do you say?"
|
||
|
||
One, two, three, four, etc. One after another, with equal force to
|
||
the last, each of the thongs bit into me on every strike and when three
|
||
times, the thongs chanced to find their way through my spread lips and
|
||
directly onto my clitoris, I came violently and forcefully with my own
|
||
release!
|
||
|
||
I felt the fluid of my lust trickling out of me and back over my
|
||
little hole. I knew that if it hadn't been for the panties, my cum
|
||
would now by flowing down my back in a rivulets snaking their tickling
|
||
way down my body.
|
||
|
||
Again the magic number ten must have come up because I heard the
|
||
silence settle when the whip stopped flying through the air.
|
||
|
||
Again, Jason slipped his fingers into my now sodden panties and
|
||
felt the evidence of my pleasure even as the last gasps of my last
|
||
orgasm throbbed through my clit.
|
||
|
||
I felt the tug on my gag before I realized He had moved around
|
||
behind me. I admit it, I was in a daze. The relief of the orgasms that
|
||
had gone through me was complete and my eyes closed more than they
|
||
opened as I savored the feelings moving through me. He unfastened the
|
||
gag from behind my head, then carefully helped me to remove the rubber
|
||
ball from my mouth. I gingerly worked my jaw enough to restore its
|
||
natural range of motion again, then I croaked out "I love you, Jason,
|
||
thank you my darling."
|
||
|
||
"What? You think I'm finished?" The tone in his voice was
|
||
absolutely straight and I couldn't know whether He was serious or not
|
||
but to me, and to my body, either option was enjoyable and I would go
|
||
with whatever He chose to do.
|
||
|
||
Bringing the office chair around to me, He sat down in front of me
|
||
and took the remote to activate the winch again. This time lowering me,
|
||
I saw his intention even before He voiced it to me. Lowering my body
|
||
enough to put my face in line with the chair, He unfastened his pants
|
||
and took them off, baring Himself from the waist down. Then pushing his
|
||
bottom out to the edge of the chair, He pushed his upturned penis out
|
||
and into my mouth where I hungrily took Him in and begin to do
|
||
everything I could manage to give him pleasure.
|
||
|
||
From my angle, I ran my tongue along the bottom of his penis and
|
||
around and over his glans. Without being able to use my hands, I had to
|
||
depend on Him to hold Himself in my mouth and to move Himself when it
|
||
suited Him. I took him in as deeply as I could, and I worked my lips
|
||
and tongue against Him in every way I had ever learned.
|
||
|
||
With my eyes looking only at his scrotum and bottom, I didn't know
|
||
it when he again picked up the little thonged whip but I found out about
|
||
it abruptly when He once again brought it down against my sex from his
|
||
sitting position. My small bite on his penis when I reacted to the pain
|
||
of the thongs told Him something He should have guessed before - never
|
||
surprise a woman that way when you've got your penis between her teeth!
|
||
|
||
I can smile about it now, but I was terrified for a moment when I
|
||
reacted to the pain and then reacted to the realization that in clamping
|
||
my teeth together I could really have hurt my Husband. I must not have
|
||
hurt Him, though, because I felt another impact on my flesh without
|
||
pause. Then another and another. I felt myself working hard to
|
||
concentrate on HIS pleasure while He was giving so much of MY pleasure.
|
||
In my attentions to him, I sucked harder and harder on his cock trying
|
||
to make Him give up some of his life fluid to me. I found myself
|
||
hungering for the slightly salty, slightly sour taste of Him and I
|
||
worked diligently to be given my reward.
|
||
|
||
The whip on my pussy continued throughout my oral sex on Him and
|
||
more than once I felt close to cumming again, but each time I thought
|
||
the next stroke would put me over the edge, the stroke didn't come.
|
||
Thinking about it all now, I can't imagine that Jason could read my body
|
||
so well that He knew when to strike and not to strike, but whether
|
||
through his remarkable perceptions, or plain serendipity - my orgasms
|
||
were thwarted and I felt myself building up again to higher and higher
|
||
levels of want.
|
||
|
||
And this time, the want was not assuaged. I had felt my last
|
||
orgasm for the night, but I didn't know it then. I felt my Husband's
|
||
muscles tense and for a moment I was gagged by his thrusting forward
|
||
into my mouth but I help my own and continued to suck on Him as I felt
|
||
the first drops of sperm spurt spasmodically into my mouth. Holding Him
|
||
with the only thing I could, my mouth, I clenched my lips around the
|
||
circumference of Him and pulled on Him, sucking, emptying, swallowing
|
||
his essence and making myself the receptacle of his manhood for now and
|
||
forever.
|
||
|
||
Through the moments that I felt Him cumming into my mouth, I also
|
||
heard his sighs and grunts of relief. It has always been these animal
|
||
sounds that I have loved the most about my quiet, reserved and proper
|
||
Husband. >grin<
|
||
|
||
"Again, Janni, very nice. Very nice. I hope this evening has been
|
||
as good for you as it has been for me - I'm going to go take a shower
|
||
now. Why don't you just hang loose for a while (smile) and I'll be back
|
||
for you later."
|
||
|
||
I could hear Him lock the door leading downstairs when He closed it
|
||
behind him and left me hanging there in the darkness. I suppose that
|
||
there is some logic in turning out the lights on a woman who is
|
||
suspended - it's not like she's going to bump into anything - right?
|
||
|
||
So I hung there. For an unknown length of time I hung from the
|
||
ceiling savoring all that had happened to me so far and dreaming of what
|
||
might still be in store. Though I knew that the next day was a work
|
||
day, my Husband never ceased to surprise me and I couldn't help but
|
||
think that I was still not through for the evening.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
Copyright @1994 Seldon-Rush Partners, Ltd.
|
||
Presented for your enjoyment
|
||
With permission from my Husband who loves me
|
||
And my Master, Harry Seldon, who has dominion over my body
|
||
And my Master, Bill Majors, who possesses my heart and soul.
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