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6 - Come on Everybody, Let's Dance
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I knew I wasn't the only man in the world having sex with his daughter.
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Although I'd never come across any data on the subject, you heard enough
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stories to conclude that it wasn't all that unusual. Still, it shocked me to
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learn that someone right there in our neighborhood was doing it, too. What
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really got to me though, was that Mindy had broken an important rule, perhaps
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the most important rule I'd ever laid down for her. What to do about it? For
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sure I couldn't punish her. How would I ever justify such a thing to Sue?
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What was done was done. All I could do now was find out how far the
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information had spread and then wait for the storm to break. Once Sue found
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out, I'd be in big trouble.
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"You're sure about this? She actually told you that her father was doing it
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to her?"
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"Yes."
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"And you told her about us, didn't you?"
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Mindy turned her eyes down, not wanting to look at me. "Yes."
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"God damn it!" There was absolutely nothing I could do and that, more than
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anything else, was fueling my anger. "Why in hell did you tell her? Do you
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realize we could be in a lot of trouble? Do you want to see me in jail?"
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She was scared stiff and started to cry. It nearly killed me. We’d just had
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intercourse. Her jeans and panties were still down around her knees, my semen
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was drying on her and she was bawling like a baby. My anger melted away and I
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just held her in my arms. Eventually, she cried herself out and we just lay
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there, together, not saying anything.
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Finally. "We better get things straightened up. Mom and the kids will be home
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soon . . . Come on, babe. Don't cry anymore. It'll be all right. I'm sorry I
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shouted at you . . . Please forgive me."
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"OK."
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Mindy ducked into the bathroom to clean herself up and I straightened up the
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bed. Fine. No one would suspect what had just gone on in here. Maybe I would
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get caught but I wasn't going to leave any evidence around to help them
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convict me.
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I was in a hurry as I waited in the hall for Mindy to come out of the
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bathroom. "Let's go downstairs. I want to know exactly what you told Vanessa,
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but I don't want Mom to see us up here."
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Mindy followed me down to the family room where I turned on the TV. We
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weren't going to watch it, but it made a good excuse for us to be together in
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the room. I was concerned about appearances. On several occasions Sue had
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walked in when Mindy and I were together and my wife had given us a funny
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look. We hadn't been doing anything but it must have looked odd to Sue. She
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remarked that Mindy and I seemed to be spending a lot of time together and
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wasn't it nice that the girl and I got along so well. Unless Mindy had told
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her, Sue didn't know what we were up to, but I believed her suspicions had
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been aroused.
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"Now. Tell me. How many people have you talked to about us?"
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"Nobody but Vanessa . . . and I don't think she's told anyone else."
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"How can you be sure? This is supposed to be our secret. Not even Mom is
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supposed to know."
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"I'm sorry, Dad. I didn't think . . . She caught me off guard and I was
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confused."
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"OK. Tell me what happened."
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"Well, remember that weekend it snowed, and I spent the night at her house?"
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That was good news, of a sort. Mindy had let the cat out of the bag months
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ago and there hadn't been any repercussions. Maybe it would be all right,
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after all. The memory clicked into place. I recalled the weekend and the snow
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bunny who came around to get Mindy. Of course, it was Vanessa, but on that
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cold, blustery day I had no idea what she was hiding under her clothes. She
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seemed like just another kid in the neighborhood and I didn't pay much
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attention to her. Besides, it was right after Christmas, and quite early in
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my affair with Mindy. At the time I only had eyes for her. Any other girl
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would have had to be naked before I'd noticed her.
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Then, the rest of the picture began to fill in for me. Mindy and this girl
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were close friends. I hadn't realized it until now. I began to recall other
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times when Vanessa had been around the house. She just seemed like another
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cute kid and I didn't pay any particular attention to her. What a dummy I'd
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been. If Mindy wasn't talking to Vanessa she'd be talking about her. Mindy
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associated with lots of girls, of course, but it was more Vanessa than anyone
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else. Mindy must have mentioned the name Vanessa dozens of times in
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conversations and I had simply tuned her out. It was Mindy's other life
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stuff, her little girl stuff that until now, I wasn't concerned about. I
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guess I was just so wrapped up in my own affairs that I was oblivious to what
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Mindy was doing with herself. An error that wouldn't be repeated.
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"Yeah. Wasn't that something?" It had been a record breaking snowfall and
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people were still talking about it.
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"Right. Well, Van and I were up in her room. It seemed like it was going to
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snow forever, and we got under the covers to stay warm. Like, we were talking
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about boys and stuff, you know?"
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I could imagine. "I know. Go on."
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"So. We were talking about boys and, uh . . . like, about doing it."
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The little girl in her had taken over. She looked at me to see how I would
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react to this piece of news. In another time and another place I might be
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upset at such a disclosure but this was here and now. I said nothing and just
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waited for Mindy to go on. She gave me a funny look.
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"Yeah. Right . . . Well I was being really careful, because, like I didn't
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want her to catch on that I knew too much. Like, she'd want to know how I
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knew all that stuff."
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I was flabbergasted. It had never occurred to me that, because of what we
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were doing, Mindy had an advantage over her girlfriends. It was likely that
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none of her young friends had the first hand knowledge of sex that Mindy had.
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She realized it, though, and had taken pains not to appear too knowing in
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front of them. My admiration for my daughter soared.
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Talking to Mindy could sometimes be maddening, though. Like her mother, she
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had a way of not getting right to the point. "So, tell me what happened."
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"Well, it was hard, like I said, not letting on what I really knew,
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especially with Van. She and I don't have many secrets from each other. She's
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my best friend. Like she tells me everything that happens to her and I tell
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her everything that happens to me. If a boy kisses her it's like I'm there
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with her when it happens."
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Another scary thought. Did Mindy have a boyfriend? Was some kid from up the
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street sharing my sugar?
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"So, then we started playing this game. It's silly but we do it a lot. We
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take turns mentioning a boy's name and the other person has to say if she
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likes him or not. We would say `cute', `real cute' or `no cute'. We were
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working through all the boys we knew from school and around the neighborhood.
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Sometimes I'd mention the name of a really nice boy and Van would make this
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deep growl sound in her throat and roll her hips around, like this."
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Mindy gave a quick demonstration. "You know what this means, don't you?"
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"Perfectly." It was a provocative gesture and there was no doubt about the
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meaning. It was fascinating to learn what young girls did when they thought
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no adults were around.
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"Well, I knew what it meant, too. Van never did that before but it didn't
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surprise me when she did. Right from the first time I met her she seemed a
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little crazy. Know what I mean? And then . . . after a while it got funny and
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I started to giggle. Pretty soon she was doing it no matter what boy's name I
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said, you know, just to make me laugh, and then we were both laughing. We had
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just about run out of boys we knew when all of a sudden Van said, `Your
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father.' That caught me by surprise. I got scared because I thought that
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somehow she'd figured out what you and I were doing."
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"And that's how you got onto the subject?"
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"Uh, yeah, except there's a little more to it . . . If I tell you, will you
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promise not to get mad at me?"
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She had me. "Go ahead. It can't be any worse than what I've already heard."
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Mindy flashed me a `wanna bet?' smile and I knew I was about to be taken for
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a ride. I wondered where Sue and the girls were. They should have been home
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by now.
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"Well, I figured that she's just being silly. Only when I didn't laugh, Van
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got this real serious look and she said, `What's wrong? I can't mention your
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father?' I guess I must have looked like my teeth were about to drop out, or
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something. Anyway, that's when she told me."
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"What exactly did she say? How did she put it?"
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"She said that you were `real cute', you know, our little game . . . and that
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you could do it to her anytime you wanted."
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Can you spell SHOCK? "She actually said that?"
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"Yep . . . "
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"Jesus Christ!" I seldom swore in front of Mindy but she had blown me away
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with her story.
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"There's more. I have to tell you everything, now."
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"Go on, but be quick. Your mom will be here, soon"
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"Right. Then she told me that her dad thought I was cute and that he wanted
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to do it to me!"
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"Whoa!" I didn't like the sound of that, at all. "Has he ever touched you,
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any way at all?"
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"No dad. He hasn't. Whenever I go over there, he's very nice to me but
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nothing has ever happened between us. After Van told me, it was kind of
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weird. I was embarrassed to be around him, knowing that he wanted to do it to
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me. I was even a little scared . . . It's OK now, though. Like I said,
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nothing has happened and I'm used to it. I don't much think about it anymore.
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He's really very nice."
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I absolutely had never heard such a story before in my life. Maybe you
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haven't either but I assure you it's true. This stuff really happened. If the
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house had caught fire, I wouldn't have let Mindy break off her
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strange tale. I had to know everything, now.
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"So, what happened then? What else did she say?"
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"Well, I can't remember the exact words. See, I was nervous talking about it
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because of us. I was afraid I'd say the wrong thing and Van would figure out
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that we were doing it. Anyway, up to this point she'd only said that she
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liked you and that her father was interested in me. That's all. So then I
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asked her if she'd ever actually done it with someone, and she said `Yes'. So
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naturally, I had to know, and I asked her who with. That's when she told me
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it was her father."
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I felt like my teeth were going to drop out. What a story! "So then, you told
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her about us?"
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"Well, not right away. Van put her face right up to mine and told me that I
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was never to reveal what I was hearing from her. She told me some more stuff,
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and then made me promise to keep it a secret. So far you're the only one I've
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ever told . . . "
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She paused to catch her breath and went on. "Anyway, that's when I told her!
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See, she told me all this stuff about her and her dad, and then she asked me
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if I'd ever done it. Well, I didn't know what to say and she was looking at
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me kind of funny, like she already knew about us but she was just waiting for
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me to say it. That's when it came out. I didn't want to tell her but I
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couldn't help myself."
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"Do you think she's told anyone else about this?"
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"I really don't think so, Dad. I don't think you have to worry about Van."
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"Well, I am worried . . . and what other stuff did she tell you?"
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Now came another bombshell.
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"Uh, do you really want to know?"
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After a response like that, what else could I do? Staring at Mindy, I waited.
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After what I'd just heard, nothing could be more shocking.
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"Van told me that she's also done it with some other dads."
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"You mean boys, don't you? She's done it with other boys?"
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"No, dad. Van's done it with other dads."
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Was that an atomic bomb I just heard go off?
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"She's done it with some other men, men that her father knows."
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This was getting stranger and stranger. I absolutely could not believe what I
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was hearing. "You're not getting away, now, until I know everything. I want
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the whole story."
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"Well, there isn't much more. I've told you just about everything I know. Van
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said she really wasn't supposed to talk about it, and she didn't give me much
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information, anyway. She told me that her and her father sometimes go to this
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place, and there are other girls there with their fathers, and . . . well, .
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. . they all kind of, do it . . . I guess. She's been there a couple of
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times since last winter. It's always on a weekend and they usually stay
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overnight. When they go away she tells me that it's one of those special
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times but that's about it. Sometimes I don't even know she's going. I'll call
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her and she won't be home, and then she'll tell me later that she was away
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for a special weekend with her dad.
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