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51 lines
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NotebookThree.UnNumbered.birthday_thoughts_90
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by j z provo
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1 oct 90
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12h49
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one day before my 'birthday'.
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one day before i am suddenly older.
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one day for much work to be done.
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one more day to realize what has yet to be done
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...what has been undone.
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one more day of broken dreams,
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supressed desires,
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and buried regrets.
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near five years since
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Death
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shook me Awake;
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near five years since
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Love
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opened my eyes.
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near five years
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I have been alternately
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Remembering
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and
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Rejecting
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these Gifts.
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near five years of alcoholic haze,
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edited memories,
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erased nightmares,
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and piss-poor 'art'.
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The Immortals look down upon me in anger.
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I am pummeled, beaten,
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bruised and abused;
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They try to kick me to action...
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...and i just sit.
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my blood flows as my name;
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eyes nose mouth chest arms
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become a pulsating crimson
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river of pain. Within it i
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find my solace: drowned in
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my own blood.
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