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Underground eXperts United
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[ Depression ] [ By The GNN ]
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DEPRESSION
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by THE GNN/DC/uXu
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It's 2.10 in the morning. I'm looking at the screen. My hands are typing.
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DON'T READ THIS FILE!
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This file doesn't contain anything interesting! It was written because
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i'm so fucking bored at the moment. I had to do something. And I did
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this, yes, this, another file, completely uninteresting. Just a journey
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through the deepest boredom found on planet earth...
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How bad can life get? School begins tomorrow after the x-mas holiday...
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The Chief is gone for a whole year and closes Info Addict during that
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time... My phone bill is rated "roof buster" and will send my modem to
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hell when my parents sees it... I can't get rid of my ugly girlfriend...
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I live in a small town in the middle of Sweden a long way from any
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kind of civilization...
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(etc etc)
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CAN LIFE GET ANY WORSE?
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(no)
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Sometimes I think of start smoking...just to have something to do.
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Or why not build an unstable explosive? Just to feel that i'm alive.
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If i had a gun I'd place one bullet inside it and play russian roulette.
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JUST TO FEEL THAT I'M STILL ALIVE!
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However.
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I don't know if anyone is reading this. I write files, I send them to
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The Chief and he sends them to the other side of the Atlantic. And?
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Of course, he tells me now and then that they are being dowloaded but
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so what? That doesn't mean that anyone is reading this file.
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Do You believe in "god"?
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I don't. But sometimes I think of it. Just to have something to do.
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Freud once said the the biggest sickness of the human race was that he
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preferred to believe in non-existing things. To feel safe.
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I believe in Freud.
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I believe in myself.
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I think of spraying myself with tear-gas.
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I don't know why.
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I think of throwing acid into my face.
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Oh, if society only was ruled by anarchy! Then I would be free.
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You say "Idiot, doesn't he understand that democracy is the ultimate
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freedom!". Is it? I mean, we are forced to go to school. We are forced
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to get a job. We live and we die. But what do we do?
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NOTHING!
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We do as we are told all the time! You think you are free, free to
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"plan" your life. Wrong! You don't choose to go to school. You don't
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choose to get a job. You just do it because that's what everybody else
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is doing and that must be the right way in life! (?)
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End of this crap. I hate politics. Especially when people think I'm
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talking about it. I am not! I am talking about anarchy - a life WITHOUT
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any politics, no democracy, no left, no right... just plain life.
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Well...I suddenly remember something nice. Phearless is opening his
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board later this week. Could be interesting to see what will happen.
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Will he be raided by the police the first day or will they wait until
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he feel secure? You never know. Ha-ha. (low budget humor, another proof
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of extreme depression).
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I'm looking at my modem. Maybe it's time to upload this file now and go
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to bed and sleep? No...then time would fly. I must take care of these
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few golden hours before school starts again.
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Or maybe...maybe I just should clear this file and forget all about it?
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But I remember. I remember once when a drunk old man asked me what I
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did "in mah schpare ti-time?". I said "I write".
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He looked at me and continued "Ah...scho you are writing...writing a
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...book (hic!)? That's interesting!"
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"No. I'm just writing..."
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"Ah...", he said. I walked past him and away. But he turned around and
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talked to me again.
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"But kid! Remember to schow people (hic!) what you write! It's not
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healthy to write things and then hi-hide it!"
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I think he was right. Always remember:
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"It's not healthy to write things and then hide it"
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Call INFO ADDICT - Home of Underground eXperts United +46-###-####
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XXX ONLY OPEN ON WEEKENDS FROM JAN 10 -> DEC 24 1992 XXX
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