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The Strength of Love
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As I was just going to see if steph wanted to go to the basket ball courts,
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Her door was unlocked.I knockedm first but nothing,no alarm,silence until I
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heard a scream.All my fear andf anxioties filled me.I went in.no 1 was home.
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I stared upstair and I heard a crash in stephs room and the door was shut.I
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ran upstairs and put my ear to her door.I heard a struggle but I made sure
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to be sure;its not nice to barg in on something.I opened the door to hell.
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Robert was sit on top of half nude steph holding her down and hitting her.
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She was tied to the bed sumhow and her bra was ripped.He was hitting to her.
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she was practially unconicous.I jumped on him and swung hard into his back.
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I knew I had to get him towards the stairs 4 the win.he tripped and got offa
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steph and on to the ground his pants were unzipped and he grabbed my legs and
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tripped me into steph's dressor and I hit my head pretty good.I wrested with
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him 4 a while until I hit his head against Luey's(Steph's fish) table.Luey's
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Bowl fell and crash bingo on Roberts head sum blood but sum of the glass got
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on me too.I got up and pushed robert out into the hall.he got up and slugged
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me 1 in the stomach.I worked towards the hall.I got infront of the stairs
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waiting for him to take a swing and then I'd dodge it but my reflex weren't
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the best and I landed lucky on the upper stairs and rolled all the way down
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on to the marble he almost came with me.this was the second time I had hit
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my head.it was throbbing and I could barely see anything ,I was disorintented.
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He was still at the top recovering.I layed there the longest 10 sec of my
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life wondering if it could be me last and then sum magicly forced pushed me
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up and I ran up the stairs full power.I was amaze and so was robert
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unexpecting it and I lowerd my head like a bull and I hit him in the groin so
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hard he fell across the hall and hit his head on the wall blood splattered
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and he was messed up.I grabbed him and rolled him down the stairs.He got up
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and out the door so fast,I tripped down the stairs again landing on the
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platform where the stairs turned.I wanting to go to sleep so bad.i was so
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tired.I couldn't think straight after 10mins laying there.I gathered enough
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will power to get up and help steph.I climb 2 stairs and felt very woozy and
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threw up on the stairs.when I finally got to the top I saw a Knife at the
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foot of the wall where all the blood was.It must of have been roberts.It
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made me worry about steph and I limbed up to her room.There she was peaceful
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and quiet.I got a sick feeling.I went over to the foot of the bed and untied
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her arms and feet and I check her pulse,she was still alive probably in
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shock.she was passed out.She had a black eye and she was barely breathing.I
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got to the bottom of the bed and folded my hands and prayed 4 her and me.I
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wasn't too good myself.I couldn't get off my knees.I started thinking about
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what of happened.how robert came over and Y her parents were gone.I go over
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all the time when her parents aren't there but they know me.I stayed on my
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knees,folded hands,just thinking 4 it seem an a hour but was probably only
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10-20mins.She stirred.I smiled but couldn't move.I managed to say "U owe
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me." I wanted to say r u alright but was too distorted to think and she
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started to cry and say "even".Then I asked if she was alright,long pause,she
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didn't answer.I guess it was a stupid question.I managed to get up and grab
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her a shirt outta her drawer and I zipped up her short jeans.I put the shirt
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on her.she was in pain.I was too but I had too B strong.I was in a house
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with bloody walls and broken glass and I was guilty 4 the mess.I said
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"Welcome" and I picked up luey.he was in a broken semi sphere piece of
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glass enough to hold sum water.he would be alright.I picked up what was
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left of the fish bowl and filled it with sum water and put him back in.I
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felt that was enough 4 the cleaning.I would never finish b4 her parents
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got home.Her parents what they think? oh shit that made me wonder what
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really happened but I was too tired and so was steph to talk.I got on the
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bed next her her and held her in my arms.I figured I deserved that much.I
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tryed to look 2 her 4 approval or disapproval but nothing.We fell asleep 4
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at least an hour.all of sudden I was picked up and was slugged int he
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stomach and thrown in the closest wall.He wait 4 me to respond but I was so
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messed up I wanted him to do me in.Steph woke up and yelled told him to
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stop.then all lot of shouting and I passed out.It was her dad.I woke up to
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an ice pack.He wasn't sure what had happened but steph convinced him to not
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hurt me anymore.He had herd what had happen b4 i got there but he or steph
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didn't know about the fight.I was too out of it to think what to censor but
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I told the hole thing the whole truth.I knew I shoulnd't have but I didn't
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have the time to think.I think he brought it.He took us to the hospital and
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he called my parents.Steph had 2 broken ribs and I had 1 broken rib and a
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serious concousion.we were treated and released the same day.We went back to
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her house.I was feeling much better.I didn't want to leave steph.I asked if
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I could talked to her alone and her dad left.I asked her how she was.It was
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strange.She answered.I had to ask this but I didn't want to "What happened?"
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She told me her parents left to go shopping and she invited him over w/o
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them knowing and they were downstairs watching a movie and he put his arm
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around her and basicly the moves.and after wards she said wanna go upstairs
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like me and her do and play games and write letters and talk but he got the
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wrong idea and when they got up there he put her on the bed and she pause
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and started to cry I was numb "Did he?" the big question and she said "I
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want to say no so bad but Yes he Raped me."A girls worst nightmare true.I
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always knew girl had life just a bit harder than boys but this was totally
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unfair.The next day I planned to go kill the bastard.I ahte him with all my
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heart.I'd hated him b4 but now I hated with with everything I could.Steph
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was bawling.I knew i should of said sumthing to comfort her but I was empty
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and she started to cry even more.I knew it was bcuz I didn't comfort her.
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Ever since I became Best friends with her,I wanted to comfort her in her
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time of need and I didn't.I felt hella bad.I opened my mouth to say anything
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but was interupted as she said "Go Away" like a Time's Up buzzer in my head
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and I knew the line was drawn.She now hated all boys including me.I started
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to leave when my plan form perfectly.I turned around and said "R U sure?Do U
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really want me to Leave?" and I sat down beside her.That was what she wanted
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sumthing to showed I cared.I put my arm around her and she said "Yes".That
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wasn't in the plan.I got up and left the room and leaned against the wall
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not caring it was all bloody and I went back in to her room and sat down
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next to her and said "All I ever wanted was to protect u and to keep you
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safe and now this I let u down once and I'm not doing it again" and I said
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it like a movie star struting his stuff like in the movies and I knew it was
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kinda cliche but it worked she put her arms around me and I held her and
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keeped telling her everything would be alright.Her dad yelled that he had to
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go get her mom and He told me if anything happen while he was gonna he'd
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kill me and he went in to his room and pulled out a gun to show that he was
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very serious.I almost shitted my pants.I went back to steph who had stop
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crying.I wrapped my arms around her again.she said "Thanx." I smiled and
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said "anytime".She said "I love U" and I backed off.No way,thats totally
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unfair.I fell in love with her already and she said she didn't like me and
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just wanted to be friends.I don't know,but how could u use rape as an excuse
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to fall in love.I'll take the prize of a hero but nothing more.I said "Y? O
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all of sudden U can love me now?".she thought 4 a sec she said "I didn't
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mean to say that it slipped.I...I...I did like u back then but I couldn't
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let us become more then friends" and I interupted and said "Well I can't
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let us become more then friends now." and we both stoped to think and I
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realize that this was probably the end of our relationship;they'll probably
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move away and we'll never see each other and even if they don't the courts
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and her parents will stop us from being friends I thought.In the sileince I
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said "I love u too." and I wish so much to B friends 4ever but If this was
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the end I rather bemore then friends.Earlier we both tought being more than
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friends would destroy the relationship but now the relationship was destroy
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but we didn't destroy it.we might as well let our feeling take over instead
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of our thoughts and with all this thinking a tear came to my eye.Steph shook
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her head and I let go of our embrace and I grab her remote 4 her stereo and
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I turned it on cd # 2 which I knew was boyz ][ men hit song 9 and ask her if
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she would liked to dance.She had owed me a dance 4 a while actually I had
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never danced with her.the whole 4 mins was amazing.it wasn't like at the 8th
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grade te`e with all the light,I was in her bedroom with the broken glass and
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the bloody wall but it didn't matter I was holding her.we let the cd go to
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# 10 as well kept dancing.We looked into each other eys and I knew that she
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had never french b4 and I or we took the chance.It wsa slow and sweet.Oh how
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I wanted too 4 so long to kiss her sweet lips and feel her togue with mine.
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Oh god I didn't care if her dad came back and shot me.I felt like if i had
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served my purpose of life.and In disbelief she lead me too her bed and told
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me to make love to her.She was raped yesterday and now she wanted me to have
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sex with her.Something wasn't right but I wanted too so much and I didn't
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mind a bullet in the head it had already been worth it.We both strip and
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the cd hit #11.It was my first time and her second but everything went
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perfect.It was sweet again worht every last second.afterward we stay in bed
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holding each other.I'd marry her if I could and I ask if she would and she
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said yes but the chance of that happening.were pass the quintillions but
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things were different.she told her if I didn't want my head to be blown off
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We had to get up and clean up but I would have rather stayed in ber with her
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the rest of my life which would be 15min but she got mad and start crying
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again so I didn't.It didn't take long and when we went downstairs we were
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confused.her mom & dad were back already,I guess we didn't notice them we
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were in own which we had earned 4 so long.Luckly tha obvisously didn't know
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what we had done because the gun was put away.I knew it was time 4 me to go
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back yo my house and I did.I left.My parent were so worried I just shut
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myself up in my room 4 the rest of the night.I sat at my computer.I was off
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my high.I watched people logon and off of my board.not moving.I just sat
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there listening to my boyz ][ men cd reacting ach monment in my mind so
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slowly and so sweet. until it think it was 2:00 am knock knock It scared
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the sh!t outta me.It was steph at my window and she didn't look too good.I
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poped off my screen.I was expecting her sumhow.she came in and held me.when
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she let go she said she was moving and as my empire fell I was glad it was
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over.I was expecting this already but in my life there was 3 things that
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kept me going my computer(skills),music,and her.I couldn't listen to music
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w/o her and I wired her in my texts and computer already.I knew after she
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was gone I had nothing left and I had a plan to kill myself.She told me
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that she sneaked outta her room window and ran down here.She said that they
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were leaving tommorrow and she wanted to spend her last night in Napa with
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me.I smiled made sure my parents were asleep.I made her room on the bed and
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we started to spent the night together.We both striped to our birthday suits
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and got int he bed but we didn't want to make love I held her and she held
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me.I told her about my plan to kill myself and she said "Don't" and thats
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all she said.We both couldn't sleep we just keeped tossing and turning hold
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each other tight and dear.I never planned on seeing her again.I got my money
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and bought $100 worth of 40's and started to drink my problem away even
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though I can stand alcohol.I woke up went home again and I slept a month
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w/o waking up,not even going to school.She was gone and as far as I go,I
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was dead.Then Life started crepping back into me and after a few year
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Stephanie Berger was just a memory and after a few more that memory died.I
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had married a girl I met in college and I owned a Successful computer store.
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Steph had just became that best friend u have in junior high liek every1
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else had but somewhere in memories tucked way far back there in the smallest
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corner I knew that she was more than just that.
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I loved U,steph, with all my heart
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-Ryan
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