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| There Ain't No Justice |
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- Flashback 3: Persistance of Vision -
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by Tal Meta
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...And she'd called me by a name I wouldn't use for eight more years.
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The next thing I knew the world had rotated itself ninety degrees, and I
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could taste dirt and grass in my mouth. Blackness welled up and swallowed what
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was left of my view.
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---
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Someone told me once that your body can always tell when you're waking
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up in your own bed. This wasn't one of those mornings, if it _was_ morning. But
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I've spent so many nights of my life lying in hospital beds that I can tell
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when I'm in one of those, too. I sat straight up in the bed, tearing two or
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three intraveneous tubes and electrical leads as I did so, as the cry escaped
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my lips... I'd been dreaming again; a nightmare, really. I'd been in my old car,
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the '87 Chevy Spectrum, and it was raining bricks.
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Suddenly I realized... that wasn't a dream: it was a memory.
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A memory I hadn't possessed the 'day' before. I'd just picked up another
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two whole years. Had that rain of bricks somehow made all this possible, I
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wondered? I'd been driving through Philadelphia, on my way to the University
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Library, when a load of construction materials, suspended fifteen stories
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overhead, had broken loose and rained down onto the street below. Eleven people
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had died... I'd been left wishing I had, too.
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2001 had started out a fairly good year. All the loose ends of my life
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had been neatly tidied up, I was single, she was single, and we were due to be
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married in another six months. Everything looked so perfect, you know? I'd
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always joked that I had lousy timing, always in the wrong place at the right
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time, and all that, but this was just a bit ridiculous.
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By the time they cleared away the debris and got me out of what was left
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of my car, it'd been too late to save my legs, and the doctors told me that even
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if they had, the damage to my spine would have left them useless anyway. That...
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was more than I was ready for.
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It's complicated. I'd spent the first five years of my life in and out
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of wheelchairs. I hadn't minded, then.... it was fun. But this was forever...
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My self-reflections were disturbed by a pair of nurses who burst into
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the room to respond to the monitors that were protesting the lack of feedback
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from the tubes and leads I'd shorn off when my nightmare had awoken me. They
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bustled about as I dragged myself back to the present. Well, 1978, anyway. It
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was still 1978, wasn't it? I asked for a newspaper, which they brought me. I'd
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been out for a couple of days, that was all.
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---
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They day before I was discharged, I got an interesting phone call...
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from Michele.
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"They're releasing you tomorrow. We need to talk." she said in a hushed
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voice, as if she were afraid of being overheard.
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"You betcha", I replied, "got any plans on how we're going to manage it?"
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"You're the genius, remember? Figure something out. I've got to go."
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CLICK.
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My "solution" to the problem turned out to be relatively simple,
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although somewhat risky. I walked out into the woods and recovered the attache
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case for 1985, and withdrew five $100 bills. Using a razor, I cut out the serial
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numbers, dates, and signitures from one of them, rode my bike into Lakehurst,
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and simply asked the bank teller if the bill was still "good" in that condition.
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It was, as it turned out. So I got change, acquired a Freehold area phonebook
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from the local library, got her father's business address, and called a cab.
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Calling ahead didn't seem to be on my list of options. My last encounter
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with her family had left me expecting a less than hearty welcome should I turn
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up on their doorstep. So I decided to lurk at the back of the property and see
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the lay of the land, which proved to be an education in itself. Lady was there!
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She recognised me almost instantly, and was barking excitedly around my heels
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as I dodged among the trees with her, laughing to myself.
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The tone of Lady's barks must have alerted Michele, because she soon
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joined us. We practically fell into one another's arms and kissed, and almost as
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suddenly as we were together, she shoved me away from her and practically
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screamed at me "What the hell happened to us, Tal?! What are we doing in 1978?
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And whose bright idea was it to stick me back living under my PARENTS?!?"
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"I haven't the slighted idea, chipmunk," I added playfully, "but I've
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got to admit, I'm glad we're both here. Both here, and whole! Oh, sweetheart! I
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can walk again! Everything WORKS! We can make it all happen differently this
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time. And we're rich! Ummm, when did you, ah, arrive, anyway?"
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"About a week and a half ago," she replied, "and just how long have
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-you- been here?"
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"Since '75. I'm not sure why, or how, but I arrived early enough to stop
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you from being raped." I paused for a moment, to draw a shuddering breath. "I
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thought I'd lost you forever, you know. It didn't turn out quite the way I
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expected it would... you wound up hating me, and fearing me like I was the devil
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himself."
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"That much I gathered. Imagine my shock when I awoke in a strange room
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in a strange house! And no scar!" she paused for a moment, tossing her hair over
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her sholder. "I tried reading my diary, but it was like reading something
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written by someone else." A wicked smile played across her face, the kind of
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smile that almost always preceded trouble.
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She slipped into my arms again, and while we kissed, her hands roved up
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and down the length of my back. With a sudden movement, she drew them back
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between us, aiming for one of my ticklish spots. In moments, our embrace had
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turned into a wrestling match, with each of us trying to reach the others
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"spots" while simultaneously protecting our own. Just as suddenly, she broke
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away, and fled towards the barn that sat at the southwest corner of the
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property.
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I suppose I could have overtaken her easily (my legs were longer than
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hers), but I had a feeling I knew where we were going. The weather for late
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October was crisp, but not exactly chilly; and the run was warming both of us up
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quite efficiently. We both stopped quickly once inside the barn, and we gave
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Lady a chance to catch up before closing the door behind us.
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With a shy but knowing smile, she led me up into the loft.
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We spent the next few months connected mostly by telephone, with
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occasional weekend visits as our parental schedules allowed. On the phone we
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spent most of our time catching up on what we each remembered, or did not
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remember, of our lives before we awoke in the past. Michele remembered more than
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I did; perhaps because she didn't travel as far back as I had. My memory only
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reached as far as November of 2002, while my lawyers were still in court seeking
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to sue the construction company responsible for my accident for as much money as
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possible.
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Michele's memory stretched further, well into May of 2007, by which time
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my case had been settled out of court for the grand sum of $110,000,000. By the
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time I was finished paying the doctors, the lawyers, and the government, the
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grand sum of $27,000,000 was left for me to continue my life with. After
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establishing a decent sized college fund for my daughter Moire, Michele and I
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had gotten married, despite my repeated appeals to her to forget me and find a
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life with someone "whole".
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I suppose that my desire for Michele to find someone else and forget me
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was mostly selfish; with her around there was literally no way I could manage to
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simmer in my own self pity. We'd always served as a kind of sounding board for
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each other, and part of me deep down inside was deeply releived when she
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continued to stand by my side despite my injuries. That was 2005.
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In the twenty-six years we'd known each other by that point, we'd never,
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ever, made love to one another. We'd either been too young, too apart, too
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married (to other people) or too far apart to find the opportunity. When we'd
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finally both been single again, I'd used the argument (jokingly, at the time)
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that the only way I'd ever be sure that she'd definitely be there the next
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morning would be if I had a "legal contract" requiring her to be there. Some
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proposal, huh?
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But like the old song says, love kept us together. We'd been friends for
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so many years that just being together was enough. I went back to college,
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pursuing my BAs in engineering & computer programming, and she did volunteer and
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religious missionary work in the inner city. At the edges of Michele's memory
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was my imminent graduation, with my intentions to continue my education with a
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MA in physics, with an eye towards an eventual PhD. in mathematics.
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That was a beginning anyway. Sometimes, lying together between the
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coarse blankets in the hayloft, we'd speculate as to whether we were really here
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at all, and if this wasn't just the latest thing in VR; or if my eventual
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delving into the workings of the physical universe hadn't uncovered some
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loophole that had allowed us to once again be young, whole, and together.
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---
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The months continued to roll by until at long last it was summer again.
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My beard was finally beginning to form, but the summer brought an even bigger
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surprise to Michele... she reached menarche.
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Yes, this came as a surprise. While it is not unusual for a fifteen year
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old girl to get her first period, for Michele it was a _big deal_. In that other
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life, she hadn't had hers until she was eighteen. I speculated that perhaps her
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injury had caused this late development, and that with it gone, her body had
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simply matured naturally. This of course made us both much more cautious in
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regards to our sex life; we were playing with live wires, now.
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Michele's only real worry was how long she could survive in the same
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house as her brother and parents; she had hated it silently, when she was a
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child. The grown woman wearing that child's body found it completely
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intolerable. Already there had been heated arguments between her and her mother,
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and with her father as well. She was used to the freedom of living by her own
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rules; to be subject to theirs again was purgatory.
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---
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About mid-June, I had a very, very strange dream. It had the qualities
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of a memory, but it was just too strange to be real.
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I was old in this dream; older by far than I had ever imagined myself
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being. I was perhaps 60 or so, with my legs intact, and I was wearing a white
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lab coat. A variety of computer equipment surrounded me, as well as some
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decidedly strange looking apparatus whose function eluded me. Several younger
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people (assistants? students?) bustled about, and a small cluster of clean
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shaven gents in uniforms and suits looked on as I brought the whole apparatus up
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to speed. One of them gently tossed a glass paperweight from hand to hand.
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All of us are closely monitoring a computer countdown. On the stroke of
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12:00 exactly, another glass paperweight suddenly appears inside a glass case
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that is attached to the rest of the machinery in the room. Everyone present
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applauds, although the suits still look skeptical. I remove the paperweight
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from the case, and hand it to one of the assistants, who also takes the other
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paperweight and begins to perform a series of tests on them both. "Identical!"
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she exclaims.
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For the next hour, we warm up the lab equipment. One of the assistants
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seats herself in a comfortable chair, and dons an circlet bristling with
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electrodes. As she sits there, she begins a low chanting, and is quickly in a
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light meditative trance. The original paperweight is placed inside the glass
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case, and I bend over the young girl and whisper into her ear "12:00, August
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14th, 2044. Execute clearance Meta Alpha Zero Naught."
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The paperweight in the case vanishes. Everyone applauds again.
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The next morning, I called Michele to tell her about the dream. While
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she hadn't remembered anything new about our future, she did feel that there was
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something "wrong" about the dream I'd had. Later in the conversation, I heard
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what I thought was a faint click, but thought nothing of it. When we hung up an
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hour later, the phone clicked twice when she hung up.
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The clicks on that phonecall were forgotten by the time the weekend
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rolled around. Michele and I spent the afternoon horseback riding before
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returning, as we often did, to the hayloft. This time, however, we were rudely
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interrupted by her brother Louis, and her father, Larry.
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"There! I told you she would be with HIM!" Louis cried, as Michele and I
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scrambled to get ourselves properly attired for receiving 'guests'.
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Flight not being an option, I tried to duck behind one of the hay bales.
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The shotgun roared, and I felt a pellet or two sting my rump as I rolled behind
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it. "Can't we talk about this!?" I ventured, as the second blast rocked the bale
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I had been hiding behind. Michele was screaming for him to stop, pleading with
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him for my life as I maneuvered from bale to bale, looking for an exit. There
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were none. No easy escapes this time, I thought to myself. Time to stand my
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ground. After the fourth shot, I heard him crack open the shotgun to reload...
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and I walked out from behind the bales and stood next to Michele.
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Larry snapped the gun closed, and drew a fresh bead on me. Michele tried
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to interpose herself between me and the gun, but I pushed her aside and held her
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there. Larry and I just stood there, glaring at one another over the barrel of
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his gun, taking one another's measure for the first time. He hated me, naturally
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enough, but something in the look in my eyes was bringing something like
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fear/respect as well. I reached out with my mind, and -pushed- the fear back
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into the recesses of his mind, and was working on the hatred when Louis threw a
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rock at my head.
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I'd always loved to watch things fall; it's even more interesting when
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you're the one who's falling...
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---
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It was a different hospital room I awoke in this time; and despite the
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pains in my neck, back and head I felt somehow more clearheaded than ever.
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I remembered EVERYTHING. All of it, and more than even I had guessed at.
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I didn't shoot bolt upright this time, but my laughter did awaken my mother, who
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had been sleeping in the chair next to my bedside. After I had assured her that
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everything was fine, we both went back to sleep. The next time I awoke that
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night, I _did_ almost leap out of the bed. Where the hell was my jeep?!?
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I'd been unconscious for two days, and babbling some pretty outrageous
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things. Dr. Karen stopped by to see me the first day I was awake, and we had a
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plesant chat about this and that. The police had some questions for me the next
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day, but thankfully the words 'stautory rape' were never mentioned (Michele
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and I were, afterall, only fifteen!). They were more concerned with whether I
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wanted to press any charges against Larry or Louis, which, all things
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considered, I was willing to let pass. I didn't realize the leverage I'd given
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up until after I was released from the hospital.
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Michele's phone number was disconnected. Social engineering the Freehold
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Middle School's office staff revealed that her parents had taken her records,
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and were planning to send her to a 'private' school in September. I snuck out
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of the house the next night, and rode my bicycle all 11 miles to her house for
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some late night recon, only to discover I was already too late.
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She was already gone.
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Banging my head against the wall didn't produce much except a headache,
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and at this point I was pretty certain that I didn't have any new memories to
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regain. Left with nothing better to do with my time, I booted up the old
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'mainframe' (my private name for the 986 computer I'd built into a console TV
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cabinet) and unlocked at last the C:\DIARY\TM_MEMORIES.ASC file. It didn't hold
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any surprises for me, as I remembered writing the damn thing now. Using my
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daughter Moire's PGP passcode simply hadn't occurred to either of us, I guess.
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If anything, it held -less- than what I remembered now, which no longer
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surprised me much. But reading things I'd written in the 'past' always gave me a
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warm feeling... it was like I could somehow reach out and touch the past that
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way. Which I knew was about half the solution to why and how I came to be here.
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That night in my dreams I saw Michele at her parent's house, arguing
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with them furiously. I couldn't hear the words, but the emotions of all the
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participants were quite clear. Michele was fed up with being dictated to by
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her parents, her mother was positively aghast at this sudden assertiveness
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her daughter was displaying. Larry and Louis were somehow smug, in a
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predatious, creepy way; they had a secret they were getting ready to spring.
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Michele almost exploded when her father dropped a group of brochoures on the
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coffee table; each one displaying a beautiful tree lined campus surrounding what
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amounted to... a prison.
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When I awoke the next morning, I suddenly re-remembered the jeep. It
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_should_ have arrived with the computer & finances. But who knows? Nothing had
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arrived quite when it was supposed to, which troubled me a little... my time
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machine was usually pretty well calibrated. Besides, someone could have stolen
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it... although an '80 Jeep Cherokee should have aroused some comment locally. I
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went looking for it the next morning, but couldn't even find evidence that it
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had ever been there. Oh well. I was sure it'd turn up eventually.
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It was time for a little B&E.
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___
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I couldn't exactly pick my time... eleven miles wasn't a trek I was
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going to make every day until it 'looked right'. So I decided to take the
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daylight route... Larry would be at work, Louis might be anywhere, and Carol,
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their mother, would probably be inside somewhere.
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Couldn't be helped.
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As luck would have it, Larry and Carol were both out. Louis, however,
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was in. I could almost feel sorry for him. Almost.
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I could have beaten the information out of him, of course. But why? That
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would just lead to trouble later on, and as far as I was concerned at the
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moment, he and i were even. So I settled for hogtieing him, dragging him out to
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the barn, and suspending him a good fifteen feet off the ground. Then I went
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back inside to ransack the house.
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I was reasonably certain that wherever they'd sent Michele, it was
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costing them money. So I went looking for the checkbook. I almost didn't find
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it, locked away in a roll top desk, but a little work with a nail file was
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enough to bring it to light. Cross checking the log against the collection of
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brouchoures gave me the name and address I'd been seeking.
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Wincliff Sanitarium, Collinsport, Maine.
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___
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Getting to Maine was not going to be easy. Given my past history, I had
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every reason to believe that the police would be there ahead of me, not even
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bothering to try and intercept me enroute. I had to figure out a way of getting
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there quickly enough not only to outrun pursuit, but to have sufficient
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operating time before the authorities would even know to start questioning my
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whereabouts.
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That would require an airplane, I imagined. No problem, I chuckled to
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myself. Easiest thing in the world.
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I had alot of years under my belt. I'd served four years in the USAF as
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an inflight refuler, and at one point I'd held a private pilot's license. I'd
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been a data thief, a scientist, hell, I'd even been a politician for awhile
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(in actual, public office, as well as the collegiate-level tenure & grant
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approval style.)
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Steal a plane? Heh.
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___
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I landed 'my' Cessna at Collinsport Airport rather late in the evening,
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and stored the plane at the end of the field. I'd only packed a few essentials;
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a set of lockpicks, telco handset, pliers, laptop, you know, the usual vandal's
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friends. The bulkiest thing I carred along was a 3' x 6' piece of shag carpet;
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useful for crossing barbed & concertina wire. It was twenty-three miles from
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the airport to the sanitarium... I liberated a car and went there directly.
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Since the walls were designed to keep people in, not out, they posed no
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problem to cross. At that hour of the night nobody was on the grounds except a
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few security guards... none of whom even suspected I was there. I made my way to
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the main administrative building, and traced the phone wires into the basement.
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Once down in the basement I took about an hour familiarizing myself with
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the layout of the internal phone network, and monitored all the traffic between
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the various offices and nursing stations. The sanitarium was still on a paper
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record system, so I'd have to wait a few hours before the shift got dead enough
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for me to venture upstairs and have a look.
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Using the sound card in my laptop, I'd taken a voice sample of Nurse
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Jeleco, who seemed to be the senior nurse on duty. Using the sample, I patched
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into the phone network and informed the nurse at the duty station upstairs to
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expect a young orderly to be coming along to pickup the records of some of the
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more recent arrivals for review. I could be reasonably sure that Cally Jeleco
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wouldn't be along to interrupt me; I'd built the sample from a conversation
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between her and a nurse named Sally planning a rondezvous in one of the
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unoccupied rooms.
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The laundry was located down in the basement, so I located a uniform
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that looked as if it'd fit me well enough, and ventured upstairs. The nurse at
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the admissions desk didn't even look me over; she even had the records waiting
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for me. I thanked her and took them right back to the little closet I'd staked
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out as my command post and began to look for Michele's records.
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Didn't take long to find them, of course. She was in the Jostler Annex,
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which could be any of the buildings on the grounds. According to her records,
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she'd been diagnosed paranoid-schizophrenic and was on a diet of barbituates to
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calm her down. While I was relaxing, reading over the doctor's appraisal of her
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condition, the phones at ALL the nurses stations started ringing, and I could
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hear alarms going off in the distance.
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One of the patients in the Jostler Annex had just broken out of their
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room, and was loose on the grounds! I had a feeling I knew who it was...
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---
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I quickly gathered up my bag of tricks, pausing only to run my knife
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blade across the telephone bus, squashing internal communications. I slipped
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back out the window I'd come in through,and made a break for a nearby stand of
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trees. I raced along the wall, heading towards the excitement, figuring that if
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she was still free, she'd be heading away from it. By pure luck I found her
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before the guards did, the only one who thought the same way I did I tackled
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from behind and subdued quietly.
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We left the same way I entered, by tossing the carpet over the wire at
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the top of the wall, and climbing it... although as groggy as she was, I had to
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push her half the way, and carry her the rest. It was a short jog to the car I'd
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brought. Twenty short minutes brought us back to the airport.
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Two hours later, we were in the air.
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---
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I flew low over the hills, as Michele slept in the seat beside me. I
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reflected to myself on the bridges I'd burned to reach this far. My 986 and all
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it's peripherals were a heap of plastic slag out in the sand pits behind my
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mother's house... I wouldn't be returning there. The money I'd buried even
|
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deeper, as something told me it would be years before I saw that again, either.
|
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Before I'd burned the computer, I'd used the printer to forge documents for
|
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Michele and myself; to all except the most rigorous examinations, we were now of
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legal age, with valid social security numbers and everything. A full selection
|
||
of diplomas traced our education through High School.
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When she awoke, I introduced her to her new self, and she squeezed my
|
||
hand tightly when she realized that we were, at last, truly free. I took the
|
||
time to return the plane to it's original owner, fairly sure that he'd never
|
||
even know it had been gone. A bit of hair dye for us both, a cab and a bus,
|
||
and we were on our way out into the world once more.
|
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|
||
|
||
---
|
||
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|
||
We settled in Oregon, her taking a job as a receptionist and I with a
|
||
small electronics repair shop. As time passed, I spun out the story, the full
|
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story of how I remembered my journey to this time, and this place.
|
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|
||
It had all began, as most stories do, with my birth, and meandered
|
||
through my upbringing and young life. I had known her then, and loved her, but
|
||
had foolishly thrown away any chance of a relationship. My career goals had
|
||
led me into science, with all its attendant sacrifices.
|
||
|
||
In 2019, I met and married a fellow scientist, a neurologist whose
|
||
expertise centered on the workings of the human brain. Nancy would later become
|
||
known as the mother of the science of psionics, and her work in that field was
|
||
instrumental to my own... the study of time.
|
||
|
||
Conventional time travel was a messy affair, requiring feats of
|
||
engineering quite beyond the human race for the forseeable future. The fusion
|
||
of my wife's studies and my own led me to a more elegant solution, and one that
|
||
required far less energy than say... a whole star's worth.
|
||
|
||
For many years, I'd worked on perfecting my own theories, sparing no
|
||
avenue of investigation. My wife passed away in 2037, of lymphoid cancer, and I
|
||
mourned her deeply. My work was at an impasse; inanimate objects would travel
|
||
normally; live subjects simply vanished.
|
||
|
||
I took a year off from the university, and travelled. I visited many of
|
||
the lands I'd visited as a child and younger man, and while visiting a cliffside
|
||
in Portugal, I had the vision, eppiphany, breakthrough, call it what you will,
|
||
that I'd been looking for.
|
||
|
||
Inanimate objects had no 'self' in the past. They could exist alongside
|
||
themselves, for they had no point from which to observe the universe. But a
|
||
living subject was another matter; it had memories of the time it was being sent
|
||
to. Upon my return to the university, I embarked on a fresh set of experiemts,
|
||
using myself as the first subject.
|
||
|
||
Yes, it was Frankenstein-like, but if i was wrong, how could I justify
|
||
putting another's life in danger?
|
||
|
||
|
||
---
|
||
|
||
|
||
It was a success. I sent myself back three days on the first experiment,
|
||
and didn't realize the memory problems because i wasn't travelling far enough
|
||
backwards for the gaps to become appearant. When I informed my superiors of the
|
||
breakthrough I'd made, they were quietly aghast. The very next day I was met at
|
||
home by a pair of gentlemen in well-tailored suits, and whisked off to a
|
||
military base in Colorado.
|
||
|
||
It seemed that one of the major grant providers for my project had been
|
||
the DSI, popularly known as The Shop. With their aid, I built a bigger, even
|
||
more elaborate device, capable, I soon realized, of sending -troops- back into
|
||
the past.
|
||
|
||
Only then did I begin to seriously question the uses to which my
|
||
research was going to be put. I decided that the only way to put a stop to it
|
||
was to make it 'not happen'. But I knew the kind of people I was now working for
|
||
well enough never to let my superiors suspect I had anything but the highest
|
||
loyalty to their adgenda.
|
||
|
||
Several nights later, I infected the facility's computer with a
|
||
tapeworm, erasing all of the data relevant to my project, and locked myself in
|
||
the lab with a few chemicals from the lab down the hall. In the early dawn I set
|
||
the timer on my cobbled together explosive, seated myself inside the transfer
|
||
chamber, donned the control helmet, and sent myself back to 1970, almost
|
||
seventy-five years into my own past. I imagine that the bomb went off on
|
||
schedule; there was no way to check.
|
||
|
||
|
||
---
|
||
|
||
|
||
Of course, a journey this far back erased nearly every memory I had of
|
||
the years I'd just lost. I was left with nothing except a vague unease, and a
|
||
feeling that something had been lost; that my life was a kind of dream.
|
||
|
||
My life meandered along much as it had before, but at various times I
|
||
was haunted by recollections of opportunities I'd let slip by in my first life.
|
||
I started exploring those options, which led me into the military instead of
|
||
college, and to getting back in touch with Michele instead of concentrating on
|
||
unravelling the workings of the universe.
|
||
|
||
After the accident left me in a wheelchair, I once again set my life
|
||
along a path very similar to the one I'd followed before, earning many of the
|
||
same degrees. It was only after several years that my memory of that first life
|
||
began returning, but by 2015 I had enough of it back to start the whole project
|
||
over.
|
||
|
||
This time I built it in our basement... no more cloak and dagger
|
||
gymnastics for me.
|
||
|
||
---
|
||
|
||
|
||
"But what went wrong this time?" Michele asked, "If the time machine
|
||
worked as well as you claim, shouldn't we have arrived when we'd planned, in
|
||
1985?"
|
||
|
||
"Well, that's partially my fault." I replied. "If you'll recall, the
|
||
original idea was for us to both arrive in March of 1985. You'd recover the jeep
|
||
and equipment, and drive down south to meet me in Louisiana." I paused for a sip
|
||
of coke before continuing, "But while the machine was warming up, I started
|
||
having second thoughts... I think my last conscious thought before throwing the
|
||
switch was 'Maybe I could go back far enough to save her from Roger.'".
|
||
|
||
"So why did we arrive so far apart?" she asked.
|
||
|
||
"If you think about it, it's obvious. Even though you weren't in the
|
||
command circuit for the time machine, that phrase had just as much meaning for
|
||
you as it did for me. Remember Tabitha, your cousin? Roger raped her, too."
|
||
|
||
"You're right; I arrived a few weeks before that happened originally!"
|
||
|
||
"But of course, with him already taken care of, she wasn't in any danger
|
||
afterall." I added.
|
||
|
||
"So, whatever happened to the jeep?" she asked me.
|
||
|
||
"Dunno. I guess it'll turn up eventually. Maybe when we go back for the
|
||
money in '85, it'll be there waiting for us."
|
||
|
||
At that point, our daughter Cassilda began crying in her basinet.
|
||
Whatever other surprises the future held for us, we were finally together for
|
||
good at last...
|
||
|
||
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