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ggg "Life" ggg
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$$$ by -> Lil' Taz $$$
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$$$ $$$
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$$$ (* HOE E'ZINE RELEASE #905 -- 11/29/99 *) .,$$$
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Okay, so here's the thing, my life fucking sucks. Plain and
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simple. And I'm not just bitching. It really does suck.
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The run down.
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8 yrs old - raped.
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12 yrs old - raped again.
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14 yrs old - first true sexual experience.
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14-present age (20) - living with the stereotypical female nympho
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bullshit.
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okay, got that out, now understand, even with this bullshit that
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happened in the beginning of my life, I'm not upset at that or the fact
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that it happened. I maybe a bit sad at times that my innocents wasn't mine
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to give, but now as i see it i' a lot stronger.
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After my first experience when i was 14, i started craving sex.
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not like you crave a candy bar or a cigarette, but a craving like i had
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never felt before. like it controlled my life. drove me to insanity a
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time or two... seriously i thought my mom was gonna put me in a mental
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ward once. but anyways, as i said it drove me. and before i knew it, i
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was classified as a "SLUT" or "WHORE." and it just made me laugh. well
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not in the beginning. i cried until it hurt to cry, then i grew up. people
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are mean. thats all there is to it, you get past that, and you get past
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just bout anything.
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well i have had a lot of partners, and i guess now, if i looked
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back i was a slut. but i was always protected, even when i conceived my
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son. whom now is 3 yrs old. i was 16 at the time of his birth. and it was
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hell. but again, i am off the subject I'm trying to get out here.
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i don't get where people get off being so high and mighty.
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classifying everyone and everything that they aren't. it fucking pisses me
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off. god, if they only knew what it was like to be in my shoes once. when
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i was lil' and ignorant of what was happening to me.
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i think that that was what really has the biggest impact on my
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life, i mean, i didn't care about sex as an intimate thing between two
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people who cared about each other, it was a drug. something i just had to
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get.
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i always want to be different, try to be at all times. and so when
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people criticize me now, i laugh. its funny to me to be called a slut. i
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mean, my normal remark is, "yer just jealous cause your not getting as
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much as i am." and then sometimes, i still go home lock myself in my
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room and cry.
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why should anyone have to deal with this pain? why should people
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be able to get away with this torture? now you know my life story. well
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my life sucks. plain and simple. if you don't agree, eat me. i live in
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this hell, the hell others created for me.
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[ (c) !LA HOE REVOLUCION PRESS! HOE #905 - WRITTEN BY: LIL' TAZ - 11/29/99 ]
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