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Though I was mainlining it, the triptophan was slow to kick in. I
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needed to get tired quickly and the triptophan was all I could do in a
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hurry. Triptophan is the stuff in turkey that makes you all loggy after a
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Thanksgiving meal, it also comes in little bottles that you can easily steal
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from a college chemistry locker if you tell the professor that you took off
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your watch to do an experiment and need to get it back and you'll only be a
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moment in the classroom if he can unlock the door.
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[15 minutes later]
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I realise now that I made a serious mistake in mainlining the
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triptophan; it makes you tired and sleepy but it does not put you to sleep,
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at least in the quantity I took -- quite a bit more than you get after even
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the biggest turkey meal -- instead it makes the heart beat really hard and
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keeps you quite awake but really tired. I feel like a trucker who has been
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up for 36 hours yet has drunk four cups of caffeine. I need to mix in
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something else to take off the rush and let the tripto take me off to sleep.
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[45 minutes later]
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My hands have swollen up and I am no longer sure how to breathe.
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Actifed seemed like a good thing to add to the mix, mellow me out a little,
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but I had forgotten that the sleep it induces is quite light and without
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dreams. Mixed with the triptophan my brain barely functions.
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[an hour later]
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Skiers.
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You know those extreme skiers on ESPN-2? They ski down a mountain
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that is too steep to even climb, and these skiers do not so much ski as they
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fall, the skis sometimes touch the snow and sometimes only air, but somehow
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they keep out-of-control together enough that they don't get overtaken by
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the avalanch, and they don't spin out and flip like a rag doll and they make
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it down the mountain. Right now that is my brain. The thoughts sometimes
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kick in and I can process them and other times fly off free from my grasp
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and I fight to keep it all barely under control.
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One thing about triptophan is that not only does it take forever to
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kick in -- even mainlined -- but it takes forever to wear off.
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[next day]
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I am not sure what exactly happened last night but I lost part of
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myself. I don't know what that something is but something vital that is
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normally part of my mind, some lost piece and now I need to go looking for
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it.
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I have a bottle of pure DM cough syrup and I am going to use it to go
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back into my mind and find that missing part.
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[three days later]
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Freebasing St John's Wort has no effects you can categorize as
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positive.
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A little St John's Wort looks smokeable when you open up the capsules
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and see the ground up leaves -- or whatever it is -- but does not burn well
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without the ether used in freebasing.
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The herbal guide says that St John's Wort gives you a sense of
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well-being if you take it every day for over a month. I can testify that an
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effort to jump start the process through freebasing gives you a horribly dry
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mouth and makes your fingers ache and crackle when you try to make a fist.
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But you will never be able to make a fist, you are too weak and in too much
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pain. Any movement of fingers or feet is like you are breaking a bone. Lie
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still and pray for it to pass.
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Time, after you have freebased St. John's Wort, is weird in that it
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does not slow down or speed up but when you have a thought, it zooms through
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your mind at a hundred miles an hour. If you just sit back and clear all
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thoughts then there is no time. You feel each moment as part of a bigger
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moment as part of a bigger sort of now with no future or past. At least
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until a thought comes, which feels like a subway train through your living
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room.
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I could not hold a pen to write the above while it was happening, but
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the images of freebased St. John's Wort were all clear enough this morning.
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The effects wore off in four hours.
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[a few days later]
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Okay, it has been a few days of me taking only conventional drugs and
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now I have just eaten a handful of nighshade berries. I know that they are
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posisonous, but the herbal guide said that in small amounts they are not
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fatal, and though it said to avoid, I read between the lines and saw a nice
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trip in the sub-lethal levels.
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To insure a good buzz I also sprayed Windex on a rag and I inhale
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every few minutes, but still I have no major effects. The nightshade must
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take a long while to kick in. You'd think a poison would work faster.
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[15 minutes later]
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I think it is the Windex which is making me feel this way. I keep
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thinking of all the times in my life I have cried. Not just times I was
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sad, but really let it out and cried. I can reach out with my current self
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and touch each of my past selves. My arm is really long, and stretches back
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years, and when I touch one of my crying selves, a number pops up over my
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head. They are not normal numbers, but I still know how to read them and
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now the nightshade must be kicking in too, I feel really sick.
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[later]
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I threw up and the floor is all spongy. I can see that everything is
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made of sponge material. Walking is hard on a giant sponge but it helps
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that my shoes are made of sponge too.
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[the following week]
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I spent a little time in the hospital and I seem to have a little
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liver damage from the nightshade. The doctor says that if I stay off the
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drugs I can still lead a fairly normal and healthy life.
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But I don't see how a mixture of flour with shavings of Ivory soap
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could be considered in any way to be a drug, so I light up and am off on
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another trip. Bon voyage.
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[ (c) !LA HOE REVOLUCION PRESS! HOE #880 - WRITTEN BY: OREGANO - 10/16/99 ]
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