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ooooo ooooo .oooooo. oooooooooooo HOE E'ZINE RELEASE #587
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888 888 888 888 888 "Dear You"
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888ooooo888 888 888 888oooo8
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888 888 888 888 888 " by Mutter
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888 888 `88b d88' 888 o 4/21/99
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o888o o888o `Y8bood8P' o888ooooood8
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It's just cold enough outside for no one in their right mind to be
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sitting on a park bench at midnight smoking a cigarette -- I'm sitting on
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a park bench at midnight smoking a cigarette.
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Dear You,
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it's almost over now.
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When it's time to say goodbye I'll be as introverted and anti-social
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as I was at the beginning. Only difference is before it was because I
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didn't know anyone and now it's because I know everyone too well.
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A one-way road generally leads nowhere I want to go. I'm sorry you
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won't be meeting me halfway. Maybe some other day.
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I do wish the best for everyone I know. I feel everyone I've met in
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the last year will find their own paths (even if I don't agree with them)
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Like I've always told you, I don't judge -- but that's probably the
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biggest lie I tell to myself. My second biggest lie is that I'm not an
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angry hypocrite.
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Today my horoscope said, "You've been known to be brassy and bold,
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and maybe even speak out of turn, and that has sometimes gotten you into
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trouble..." This is the first time I actually read my horoscope and gave
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astrology a double-take. I guess that's the best way I can describe what
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happened. A second of overwhelming emotion, a nervous blurt of words...
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spoken "out of turn" -- when I had no place to say anything. (Damn, I
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really can't see shit without my glasses but maybe that's because there's
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nothing but shit to see.)
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"Today, just the opposite is more likely. By saying it the way you
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see it, with accuracy and honesty, you're more likely to get a
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promotion..." it went on.
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So that's it, I guess. In the end I'll be changed but more the same
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than I thought I would be. I'm really sorry if I made things weirder than
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they usually are and more awkward (if there's one word I'd use to describe
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my world it would be "awkward"). What can I say? My heart still aches
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more than my half-sunburned body. I wish I was Superman so I could turn
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back time, but I'm not... I'm hardly even Clark Kent. So, the globe still
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spins and so will my room when I get too drunk to stand. Oh well.
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- C
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I found contentment just for a second
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(the wronger find it for even longer)
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It has occurred to me that the most powerful phrase in the English
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language is "I love you." People endow words with power and it seems no
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set of words are given more power than those. They are the essence of
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magic. Spoken, they can yield powerful... dare I say almost dangerous
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results. The weak have no business with them. Spoken, they can instantly
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turn the world around you into heaven-on-earth or the deepest pits of hell.
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Speaking the phrase is always a gamble. And, like in any other form of
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gambling, there are those who choose not to play... those who are not
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willing to risk... those who would rather sit by and watch others win
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than risk the hell that losing would bring. They are the cowards, and I am
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"they." So, spin that wheel, put your chips on black, and I'll hope the
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ball doesn't land on red. It's just cold enough outside for no one in
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their right mind to be sitting on a park bench at midnight smoking a
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cigarette...
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[ (c) !LA HOE REVOLUCION PRESS! HOE #587 - WRITTEN BY: MUTTER - 4/21/99 ]
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