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'##::::'##:::'#####:::'########: VIVA LA REVOLUCION! CERDO DEL CAPITALISTA!!
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##:::: ##:'##:::: ##: ##::::::: THE HELOTS OF ECSTASY PRESS RELEASE #374 !!
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#########: ##:::: ##: ######::: ZIEGO VUANTAR SHALL BE MUCH VICTORIOUS! !!
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##:::: ##:. ##:: ##:: ##::::::: "Jesse's Self-destructive Methods" !!
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##:::: ##::. #####::: ########: by -> The Jester !!
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..:::::..::::.....::::........:: 12/22/98 !!
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!!========================================================================!!
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he blinked slowly as he got into the car. he turned it on and
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gave one last look back at he house. the lights were all out except one.
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hers. the saddest single light in the known world at the time. it was
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saying, go, just from the looks of it.
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he slowly drove around the neighborhood. he was thinking back at
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all the times he had spent with her. even as a friend, he felt as if
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there was something more, but he never knew.
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dana had been his only source of feelings for so long. he was
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numbed from a life of change and, although she caused pain as well as
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joy, it was better than apathy.
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he remembered when his ex-girlfriend, staring at her, then
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staring at dana. it was a worthless relationship that ended by his
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leaving for escape of boredom. as was the case quite often.
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but dana was different. her seemingly coolness to him was better
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than any adoration of another girl. it provided him with feelings
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unknown to him.
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his friends told him she wasn't in love with him. he knew, and
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didn't care. he'd rather be despised by her than loved by someone who
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cared.
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"hate is the cure of my pains," he rationalized "because i am so
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tolerant to all forms of love. my joy comes only in self-destructive
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forms because i am in love with something i don't relate to."
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he experience moments of self realization. he understood that
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his one true love was the person he hadn't spoken to in years.
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"lauren," he felt himself cheering up, "i have to go see lauren."
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as he accelerated at improper speeds he found his mind open up
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and he was in a world he hadn't known for years. lauren. the word
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brought him comfort in and of itself.
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"one right, a left, 2 rights, and a left.. ok." he was
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suprisingly comfortable, whereas he normally had no composure at all.
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he had no anxiety and the world was clear. he understood.
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he parallel parked got out of the car and knocked on the door.
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"hello?"
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"lauren?"
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"yes?"
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"its jesse."
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"oh, wow, hold on a second, let me unlock the door."
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as she unlocked the door he finally felt the nervousness kick in,
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and he felt the urge to go run away, but he stood there and awaited her.
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"how have you been?" she asked, in his opinion, too formally.
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"good, and you?"
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"great! have you talked to anyone from school lately?"
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as he shrugged, he said "eh, well, a few people. actually, i came
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over because i had to tell you something."
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she was utterly confused, and silent, so he continued. "although
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we really haven't been in touch the past couple years, i have missed you
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an incredible ammount and, well ...."
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she just stared.
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"i think i lo--"
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"stop. i know what you are going to say."
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it was his turn to stare.
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"i think i want to get to know you again."
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"not exactly the answer i was looking for, but ok," he thought
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to himself. he smiled.
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"i have been wanting to tell you that for so long. so you want
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to go out... when?" he didn't want to seem too pushy.
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"how about next friday?"
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"sure, give me a call. here's my number. i'll talk to you soon."
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she gave him a slight kiss on the cheek and said bye, and went
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back inside.
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as he drove away happy, she went inside sad. she knew what had
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been going on in his life, and just felt a little pity for him, but she
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knew.
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she blinked slowly as she went inside.
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!!========================================================================!!
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!! (c) !LA HOE REVOLUCION PRESS! #374 - WRITTEN BY: THE JESTER - 12/22/98 !!
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