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$$$$$$$$$$$ hogz of entropy #149
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>> "Sleep Deprivation" <<
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by -> Sonia
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I found myself unable to sleep lastnight. It was odd for me because
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I'm usually such a sleep oriented person. I pondered my mind for answers on
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why I could not sleep. I thought and thought. I finally came to the
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conclusion that I my mind was fumbling for answers on why I hadn't heard
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from my lover, Matthew.
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It was a long distance affair and he was suppose to visit me for the
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weekend but, friday went by with no word from him, then saturday, then
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sunday, and then me weeping from his lack of comunication. It was wensday
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now and I still hadn't heard from him. This worried me a bit. I wrote him
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email on friday and I never got a response. I don't want to seem like I'm a
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nag but this is getting a little rediculous. Part of me misses him greatly
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and yet another part of me wishes he wasn't in my life. I fear that I am
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falling in love with him.
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What scares me is his terrible lack of communication. So I lay in
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bed thinking what I should do. I wonder if I should just send him a sweet
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card sprayed with my purfume and a picture of me or, just not send him
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anything. I decide to wait for him to write me.
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Now that I have that decided I feel that I shall sleep well, but that
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is not so. I toss and turn and can not sleep at all. I wonder "why?", "why
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is this happening to me?" I say to myself. I stare at my netting that
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surrounds my bed. I feel like I need to cry but, I can't.
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I put on some music to divert my mind. I find that this just
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disturbs me more. All the music I listen to reminds me of Matthew. Which
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bothers me more.
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I shut the cd off and pull the blankets over my head. I try to
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sleep. I try to clear my mind. I try to tell myself that I don't need
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Matthew. I then think about that fact that everything that is in my room
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was once just a dream in someones head. I find this very fascinating but,
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it isn't helping me sleep.
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My bladder now feels very full and is hinting to me that I need to go
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to the bathroom. So with that I open my eyes wide and get out of bed. I go
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to the bathroom and swear out loud because there is no toliet paper in the
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bathroom. I then run up stairs and get some toliet paper and finish going
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to the bathroom in the up stairs bathroom. Then I go back down to my room
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and try to go to sleep once again.
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This time I get all comfortable in my bed and snuggle in my covers
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and find that I am terribly cold. My whole body feels terribly cold. I try
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to warm myself up with another comforter which works well. I then realize
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why I have had so much trouble sleeping. I was still in my jeans. I laugh
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at myself. I feel so stupid. Jeans are so uncomfortable. I've never
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really seen the point of them. I myself would rather wear skirts everyday.
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So I take off my jeans hop into bed and then I find that I am
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comfortable but still I can not sleep. So I decide to try to count the glow
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and the dark stars that are on my wall. So I begin to count and then before
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I knew it I started to yawn and get rather sleepy.
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So I shut my eyes and then all I can see in my mind is, Matthew. So
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I scream out "I give up, I am not going to sleep tonight." so I sit up and
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pick up a book. I begin to read Isaac Asimov's "The Relativity Of Wrong"
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and before I know it I'm fast asleep.
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I guess Isaac Asimov's books are good for something.
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* (c) HoE publications. HoE #149 -- written by Sonia -- 12/12/97 *
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