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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Escape vs. Running Away
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"Do you ever think about just disappearing?"
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"Yeah ... and in a few years, I probably will."
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* * *
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Pros, cons, how-to's, when, and why. How many times have you thought about
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'if only I could just disappear ... "? I know I have thought about it too
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many times to count!
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Is it possible to disappear? Yes.
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Is it wise to disappear? Maybe.
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Is it right for you? Maybe.
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Is it the same as running away? It shouldn't be.
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* * *
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-Pros-
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- You are able to start over.
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- You do not need to deal with the same people.
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- You do not need to do the same things as you once did.
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- You can go somewhere else, do something else, be someone else.
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-Cons-
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- You do not stay close with anyone that you may or may not be close
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with now.
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- You lose a part of what could be, someday.
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- If you're doing it because of something you, yourself did or had apart in,
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you will never leave that behind. Even though, you may not have to deal
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with all the responsibility of having taken part in whatever.
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-How-Tos-
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- Pack up all the things you think you will need, bare essentials.
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- Tie up any loose ends.
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- Hop in a car, in a plane, boat, or other source of transportation, and
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you are on your way to your new life.
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-When-
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When is the right time to just 'disappear'? That is debatable. But,
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something only you, yourself can decide.
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-Why-
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Why is something that only you should be able to figure out, and know ... and
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be something that is so long lasting, that it truly would have an effect on
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the rest of your life if you stayed or disappeared.
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-Possibility-
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The possibility of being able to successfully disappear is more and more
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easier, and because of that, at least for me, more and more appealing.
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Appealing not because it is easier, just because I know it is something I
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could seriously do and make it work.
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-Wise-
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Are you going to be missed? Yes. By who? Maybe someone you know really
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well and maybe someone you basically do not even know, but you will be
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missed, no matter how few of people you believe care about you. The question
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is, can you honestly leave everything behind? Not have any contact with them
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again, except through anonymous channels, and most likely never see them face
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to face again, without running the risk of being discovered. Can you
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honestly do that? A decision that cannot be made logically, without
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rationally taking time and thinking and carefully considering all other
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possibilities.
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-Right-
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Is leading a life of disappearance something you can live with? Not knowing,
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and just getting up and leaving someday. Is it something that you would
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be okay with having done, and would be able to do again, without running away
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from anything.
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-Running Away-
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Disappearing and running away are the -not- the same thing.
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What's the difference?
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The difference is simple. Running away, you are running because you do not
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want to necessarily face something, deal with something, or do something.
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Whereas if you disappear, you are merely starting over. Able to start over
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and do things right, or at least differently. Not having to put up with the
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crap from the same people ...
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-Idea-
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The idea to write this file was suggested by the person that I had, had the
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above conversation with, and now that I have been writing it, there are some
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additional things that need to be said.
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Maybe disappearing -is- possible, and maybe there are cases where disappearing
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-is- the right thing to do. The questions above need to be thought about,
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and the facts have to be considered. Also, though it is most important to
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know that even though if you disappear you will not be dealing with the same
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people and their crap, there will be other people and other things you will
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not like to have to deal with, are you going to then disappear, again? How
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many times are you willing to disappear? How many times can you disappear
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before it really is just running away? Or is running away really the same
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thing as disappearing?
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The difference lies in this: When you pull a disappearing act, you do not
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necessarily leave the area that you are residing in, etc. You may just leave
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the 'scene' or 'world' that you have come to live in and be known in ... in
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essence just changing the way you have been living, and staking your claims
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back to your life, and not claiming other parts of it. And, the reasons for
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doing that still fall under the same above questions, but when you are talking
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about disappearing from the 'scene' or or 'world', that is one thing, and that
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is -not- the same as running away. That is more moving on with your life, or
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starting over. However, when you disappear from everything and start a new
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life, even though that may be the only way you can start a true new life then
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that is what you need to do. But, if you disappear because you are sick of
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dealing with something, that is more just because you are unwilling to stand
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up for yourself, or stake your own life and take it back, then that is when
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you are running away, and that is when you will always keep on running from
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that point onward, if you start.
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Before you disappear, make sure you know if you are just merely disappearing
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or if you are just merely running away. Because, there is a difference, the
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difference is larger then you may ever realize, until it is too late, if you
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do not take the time to figure out "Disappearance vs. Running Away".
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-Kamira
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December 26th, 1997
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kamira@sekurity.org
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www.sekurity.org/~kamira
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