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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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I Am Okay
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Hi. It's been awhile since I've written anything that hasn't
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been assigned to me by a teacher to improve my grades. It's been awhile
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since I've even felt motivated to write a piece about what has been
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going on in my head. I've updated my online journal periodically, but
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I haven't really written anything that I feel should be publicly
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released. Until now.
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Over the past couple of months, my life has changed a great
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deal. I have moved away from my friends and entered Western Reserve
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Academy, a prestigious boarding school in Hudson, Ohio. This school is
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for the most part guaranteed to make my future bright and to bring in
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mad cash flow as my adolescent years turn into adulthood.
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But, it's not to say that there hasn't been some struggle with
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this change. Indeed, there has been a great deal of it.
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First off was saying bye to my friends. Though I knew I'd see
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them again, nearly every weekend actually, I knew that I'd be missing
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seeing their faces daily. Right now the impact of them not being around
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has really settled in and I know that I miss seeing the familiarity
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and complacency that I once held such contemptuous scorn for. I long for
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the days when things were 'normal.' Things aren't quite so 'normal' anymore.
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For better or for worse.
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A few days before going up to school, I seized the day and
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tried to start a relationship with a girl I'd been scoping out for
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nearly 6 months. A few days after school started, the thing blew up
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in my face. Needless to say, we are no longer together.
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At first all of these changes totally ripped me apart. I was
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away from and distanced from everyone and everything I loved. But I
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figured out that there is a changeless core inside of me. A sense of
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value and direction has overtaken my life and I am actively pursuing
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setting roles and goals in my life, and coming through with commitments
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to myself. The long term goal is mastery of self, and public victory.
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A sense of honor is building inside of myself.
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It would be easy to blame my environment for what was happening
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to me and to let myself deteriorate into nothing. But I have chosen a
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responsible stance and have come back with a vengeance. I will not let
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my feelings control me, I will empower myself to act in the correct manner,
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and I will become a better person because of it. Most people let others
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act upon them without ever realizing that they hold the key to their
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own happiness. I lived that way for too long.
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So if right now you're kind of in a lull and you feel like you
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are slipping towards depression, remember this. You are in charge of your
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own destiny. You control your own life. Act or be acted upon. And finally,
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remember, you are fundamentally okay. We are in charge of our own happiness.
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-dropcomm
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= Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, Submissions =
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