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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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love
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who would have thought, that the world could be so cold.
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i was walking along a dark alley. the time had slipped
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away into the mist and all that was left was a slight
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bit of sanity and the urge to follow my soul. i came to
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a point of intersection. not knowing which way to take
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i flipped a coin. suddenly a man appeared from beyond a
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garbage can, "it's too bad the little things never
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mattered in the end!" he shouted and then disappeared.
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not realizing it, the coin feel to the ground and
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landed hard on tails. i looked left and saw my world
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below the fingertips. "this way to your grave." said an
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old man wearing a top hat and a frown. behind me a
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naughty word was spoken, "love! love!" and i turned to
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see myself, standing before myself in a robe of black.
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the man once again appeared from beyond the waste of
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humanity "it doesn't really matter anyway! both roads
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lead you to the same destiny!" fearing the man's words i
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turned to love and followed my soul beyond myself where
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i once stood. this time, life felt real, or was it the
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way the cold wind as it beat against my heart. i poured
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out onto a street where i plummeted against her. she
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stood there in her long black gown with her long dark
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hair looking as beautiful as she did the first moment i
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ever laid my eyes upon her. "i miss you." she said
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with a frown impaled across her skin. i wrapped my arms
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around her and took her home, took her to love. sitting
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down on her couch, resting her body across it's
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comfort, she said "thank you for being such a great
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friend." and my heart swooped into nothingness. i wish
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that my heart were a tangible thing, so that i may
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throw it into a pit a lava and feel it hurt. only then
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can i feel the amount of pain i receive from just
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thinking about your glory and my absence from it. i
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said thank you and excused myself to the bathroom. i
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put my hands under the sweet water emerging from the
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faucet and then rubbed them across my face. i looked in
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the mirror, water dripping from my form. "beyond what
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light lives greater men than i? but, in the darkness,
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they number in the thousands and do march about in my
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head." madness, that is the keyword for this life. the
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point at which nothing really seems and all seems at
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once. curling up my bleeding fist i march back into the
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living room which was empty to the breath. searching
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around i found myself in her bedroom where i saw my one
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true life long love laid stretched out against her
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stomach, resting on the bed. she was half asleep and
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could barely mutter "could you rub my shoulders?"
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nothing pleased me more than making her happy. nothing
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on this planet fills me with more joy than knowing she
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is well. i crawled onto the bed and began exercising my
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strength into her muscles. my cold hands caressed her
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warm body with ever ounce of love i could muster. and
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her, just laying there as if she is just getting a good
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massage from her best friend while quickly falling
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asleep. "mmmm, this is so great, don't stop." she
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quietly moaned. "yes, my hands can bring pleasure to
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any woman, and my tongue more, and the rest of me even
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more, but my heart and love only bring distance and
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solitude." i said trying to bring some ounce of
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understanding to her. "mmmm.. ok..." she replied, not
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hearing a word i spoke. once she stopped responding to
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my hails i rubbed up and down her back once more and
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then a rabbit crawl out from behind the pillows "she is
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just a woman!" she shouted. "she has but flesh and
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soul! two things you can find upon the skeleton of any
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one of us!" "yes," i replied "but the world just seems
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so empty without this one, every woman i set eyes on
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fails to amount up to a grain of salt next to this one
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true love of mine." i calmly replied. "you are such a
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fool!" cried a clown standing over my shoulder. "LOOK
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AT HER! do you think she can actually develop one ounce
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of feeling towards you that you have towards her? NO!"
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and my heart sobbed. meanwhile the lizard gardener was
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whispering into her ear "...love you. so the time has
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come to decide the fate of humanity. feel his pain
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which is love, and feel your pain which is life. his
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pain and yours, when combined, could bring you so much
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happiness. feel the way he makes you happy now. you
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could feel like this for the rest of your life, the
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time he would spend with you, if you would only accept
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him." then the whispering stopped and in a flash as she
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awoke and turned to me in a fright, "did you here
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something?" she panicked. "something about the way
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your tears fall to the earth?" and understanding became
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her. she looked at me with sad eyes and a tear rolled
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off her cheek. "i understand, but you have to realize i
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am forever alone. it doesn't matter if you are sincere
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or the best thing for me. all that matters is that i
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cannot get hurt any more. i cannot open myself up to
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someone, only to have them fill me with pain and
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suffering." she said with sad lips. "i am not like
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that." i responded as i stood up, "i am not like that,
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and you will never know what you will miss because you
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never want to find out the pleasure i could bring you.
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as for me, i will always know what i am missing. never
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again will i know happiness as that which i feel from
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just glancing upon your face, or thinking about your
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beauty. from now until the day i die i shall carry
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around with me a sad face, weighted heart and a
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tortured soul." i dropped a grey rose on to the bed and
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left the house never to return.
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years later, in a city far distant from the previous, i
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was walking along a dark alley. the time had slipped
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away into the mist and all that was left was a slight
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bit of sanity and the urge to follow my soul. i came to
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a point of intersection. not knowing which way to take
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i flipped a coin. suddenly a man appeared from beyond a
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garbage can, "i told you, only the foolish can be swept
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up by love, it leads nowhere but to a painful death
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filled with sorrow." i could only think about how right
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he was as i stared so coldly down the alley to my left.
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"it is time." said the old man wearing a top hat and a
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smile. so i began my walk down the path of death when i
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suddenly felt a gentle tapping on my shoulder. quickly
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turning around i saw myself standing before myself
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again. "she is waiting." i said to myself. with not a
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moments thought i began running as fast as possible to
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my right. i feel out onto a street, looking up i saw a
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woman stare down at me and say "are you alright?"
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standing up i brushed myself off and replied with a
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"yes." then our eyes met and she stared hard into my
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bones. "i have missed you." she said with a sadness
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that only i could understand. she kissed me with all
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the deep passion of love and the world feel to dust
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around us. we stood alone in the universe, just holding
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each other. my life for yours k, forever until the day
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i die.
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who would have thought, that the world could be so warm.
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rage-303
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