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FICTION-ONLINE
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An Internet Literary Magazine
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Volume 5, Number 3
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May-June, 1998
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EDITOR'S NOTE:
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FICTION-ONLINE is a literary magazine publishing
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electronically through e-mail and the Internet on a bimonthly basis.
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The contents include short stories, play scripts or excerpts, excerpts of
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novels or serialized novels, and poems. Some contributors to the
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magazine are members of the Northwest Fiction Group of
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Washington, DC, a group affiliated with Washington Independent
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Writers. However, the magazine is an independent entity and solicits
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and publishes material from the public.
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To subscribe or unsubscribe or for more information, please e-
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mail a brief request to
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ngwazi@clark.net
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the editor or by downloading from the website
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William Ramsay, Editor
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CONTENTS
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Editor's Note
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Contributors
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"Three Poems"
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Tan-jen
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"Portraits," short-shorts
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Marie Kazalia
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"Arnoldo," an excerpt (chapter 8) from
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the novel "Ay, Chucho!"
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William Ramsay
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"Gabriele," part 6 of the play, "Duet"
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Otho Eskin
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CONTRIBUTORS
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MARIE KAZALIA lives in San Francisco and has a BFA degree from
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California College of Arts and Crafts. She spent four expatriate years in
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Asia, living in Japan, India, and Hong Kong and has published both
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poetry and prose in numerous journals
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OTHO ESKIN, former diplomat and consultant on international affairs,
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has published short stories and has had numerous plays read and
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produced in Washington, notably "Act of God." His play "Duet" has
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been produced at the Elizabethan Theater at the Folder Library in
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Washington, and is being performed with some regularity in theaters in
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the United States, Europe, and Australia.
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WILLIAM RAMSAY is a physicist and consultant on Third World
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energy problems. He is also a writer and the coordinator of the
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Northwest Fiction Group. His play, "Strength," recently received a
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reading at the Writers Center in Bethesda, Maryland.
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TAN-JEN is an avid Georgetown (Washington, D.C.) gardener and
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student of Chinese literature. Her verses seek to capture in English the
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spirit and prosody of the classical Chinese lyric poems -- the ancestors
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of the Japanese haiku.
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THREE POEMS
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by Tan-jen
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The Bag Lady
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Months and months I've gathered scraps
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Stray thoughts and bits of dreams
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Waiting deep in memory's hold
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To leap into the pattern of a poem.
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Shells
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Though cast ashore on sands of time
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The inner ear still hears the ocean pulse
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And the lonely soul now longs to curl
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Inside that salt sweet mother sea.
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Prana
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Showers of stars drench the sky
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Spill through the glow over the hills
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Bounce into a million crystals on the lake
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And fly back to dance in our eyes.
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PORTRAITS
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by Marie A. Kazalia
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One Night Stand
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Humorous short guy. Black man. Computer operator at a bank. Forget
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his name. Something with a Y on the end. Keep thinking Pilly but that's
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not it. He took me home with him, in my car, to a once elegant building
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with etched glass entrance doors, faded floral carpeting in the lobby, up
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sagging stairs. Raised us up into a dense musty odor hanging in a warm
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cloud at just the step corresponding to ceiling level. Cooler up above
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up into a darker region. A few more stairs, a narrow hall, he opened his
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apartment door. Head down a reluctance in his step, leading the way
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into a tiny room overwhelmed with enormous furniture left-over from a
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past marriage. His wife got the kids, but he got the orange crushed
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velvet sofa and two matching chairs. A rumpled sheet and blanket on a
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tiny cot shoved against one wall. I GOT MORE STUFF, he says, BUT
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IT'S IN STORAGE. WON'T FIT IN HERE. I had a stunned look on
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my face, for next he asked, WELL WHAT DID YOU EXPECT? I just
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shrugged. What did I care what kind of furniture he had? Entered
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further into the room. Sat down on the long stiff couch. Now I could
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see that the entire wall of rectangular mirror panels folded open and
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closed over closet space. I checked my lipstick. He listened at the door.
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Nervous. Asking, DID YOU EVER HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE
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WHO LIVED IN THE SAME BUILDING YOU DID? THAT'S A
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MISTAKE. Describes a one night stand with a woman in an apartment
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below. How everyday afterward, she listened for his arrival, and the
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second he got home from work she would come up and knock on his
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door. When he tried to get rid of her, she cried and told everyone in the
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building he'd made her pregnant. Sometimes he'd catch her listening at
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his door early in the morning or late at night. When his mother came to
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visit, the woman from down below came up and talked to her. Told his
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mother she was pregnant with his child, though they'd only had sex
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once and he'd used a condom.
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Shame
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She walks on the dusty streets of Taipei losing weight, starving--on her
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way to a job interview to teach English as a second language--A job she
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didn't want--The strap on her Joan & Davids broke--the flat heel of the
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shoe slapping-up at a long odd rhythm falling back down too
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heavily--no longer matching its mate on the right foot--she limped
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along like this for several blocks until she came to a covered walk-way
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and an old man with a shoe repair service, out of a wooden box on the
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sidewalk. She sat on a stool and removed the bad shoe--speaking a few
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words of Mandarin with the old man and one of his old cronies as he
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glued and nailed her shoe. When it came time to pay the old man didn't
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know how to say 15NT (New Taiwan dollars) in English so held up his
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full hand to mean 5, pushed it forward 3 times--"FIFTY?" she asks in
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Mandarin. He nods yes. Dropping his eyes in shame, takes the
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money--Later he buys a sweet rice cake and takes it to the temple as an
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offering to the gods--incense burning-- placing it on the offering table
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beside two large Domino's Pizzas in delivery boxes--
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Time
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I enjoy going and seeing the Director--having a scotch or a beer,
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whatever he offers---some good "home cooked" food; dinner his cooks
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make --- after a little conversation and shared food & drinks, smoking a
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cigarette ---then I feel better---I'm not as frantic or urgent ---I don't
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want to grab the night and choke the living shit out of it; kick it and
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bash it around just to try and get as much out of it as I can, as the clock
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ticks---Instead I look back I sit back, and then, I comeback to my room
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and write--I look around I sit down I relax I see the possibilities and I
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go for them--slowly--carefully--systematically -- after that, after I start
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and I begin and I move forward-- that urge to strangle and choke
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myself get tangled up in it all, isn't there... and I just ease right past
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all that kind of nonsense then have something when I'm finished.
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Isn't there more?
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ARNOLDO
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by William Ramsay
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(Note: This is an excerpt, Chapter 8, from the novel "<22>Ay, Chucho!")
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So there I was, running around Havana under an alias, trying to get
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two prisoners -- my eccentric old man and the unknown Mr. Pillo
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out of a pretty damned formidable hoosegow, all by myself. Oh, the
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Salvadorans read the C.I.A. had provided me with a contact
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address in the Cayo Hueso _barrio_, and they said they might be able
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to help me get a boat or a light plane out of the country once I had
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succeeded in getting their friend Pillo out. But that was about it. First
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success, then help and forgiveness.
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The next day, my friend Pierre -- Waldemar visited me in my
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hotel room.
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"Au revoir, Felipe. Off on business," he had told me, stroking
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Kropotkin and smiling as he whispered his conspiratorial good-byes.
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"Lots of business in the Socialist Paradise. VCR's, very big now. Also
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Roseanne and Madonna tapes. Also Barbara Bush photos. And her
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dog."
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I bid him good-bye, wishing him success wheeling and dealing --
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and hoping that if the police caught him that he wouldn't feel obliged
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to mention his colleague "Felipe Elizalde."
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That left me with one less person around who knew who I really
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was. But it also left me all alone and in over my head. I can only
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suppose that's why, that first week in Havana, my prick started to take
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over from my brains.
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It all started with Valeska the night I gave a little party for her
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and Arnoldo. We were in the Tropicana -- it was a dollar place, and I
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was treating Valeska and Arnoldo with the Association's -- or the
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C.I.A.'s expense money. In the outer lobby, there were placards with
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anti-imperialist cartoons, a pot- bellied Uncle Sam pulling a steel net
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labeled "embargo" around a poor Cuban woman, while a Cuban soldier
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in camouflage pointed an automatic weapon at him: "We know how to
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defend ourselves," it said. Inside the club itself, it was a welcome
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return to bourgeois degeneracy. Aerialists swung from ropes and
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teetered on high wires above the giant stage of the nightclub. Chorines
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that looked as if they had stepped out of a Las Vegas revue of the
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Fifties extended long sequin-stockinged legs in every which direction.
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Arnoldo was in a surly mood -- as usual. He wanted to bitch about
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how INDER, the ministry in charge of sports, gave all its support to
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track and field, _futbol_, and boxing. "_Jai-alai_ isn't an Olympic
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sport, so they're not interested. Socialism!" I was willing to share his
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feelings about socialism -- but not to listen to him go on and on about
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it. I was feeling starved for capitalistic degeneracy, and I tuned out his
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diatribe as I watched the show. The music swelled into a sweep of
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violins and then a ripple of marimbas. In the background, I was aware
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of Valeska's voice and a few harsh-sounding syllables from Arnoldo.
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Finally Arnoldo stood up. "Deodorants!" he said.
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"What do I ever get from you?" said Valeska. The stomach and
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groin area of Arnold's tight trousers were bathed in a spotlight.
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"What the hell do you mean?" said Arnoldo.
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"Sit down!" yelled someone. Arnoldo frowned but sat down.
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"You're impossible," said Valeska. "It was nice of Felipe to get
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me some things from the dollar store."
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Poor kid, I thought, she had been forced, like so many other
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Cubans, to use milk of magnesia as a replacement for Right Guard. In
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the dollar store on La Rampa, I had also found her two Italian bikinis
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and some Cadbury chocolates -- the kid had a sweet tooth that
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wouldn't stop.
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Arnold stood up again, backing into another spotlight, which lit his
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narrow Moorish face like a covering of white paint.
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"Sit down!" yelled the same voice. But Arnold didn't move.
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Valeska turned to me. "I saw a beautiful pearl bracelet with little
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diamonds and a little gold star in the center in the store window," she
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said in a clear and incisive voice.
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"I have my pride," said Arnoldo even more loudly.
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"Sit down and shut up," came a yell from behind us. Arnoldo's
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mouth moved into a pout that would end all pouts. He leapt out of the
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light and into the darkness behind our table.
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"What the hell?" I heard, and then the sound of chairs falling and
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bodies thumping. The long streaky cones of flashlights appeared and
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two big waiters came up. One flashlight showed Arnoldo was down
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on the floor, tangled up with a waiter. The music from the orchestra
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was very loud now, with lots of percussion. A glass hit the floor next
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to me, and droplets of something landed on my shirtfront. I put my
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arm around Valeska's shoulder and tried to pull her away. She leaned
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the other way and swung her foot, trying to kick either Arnoldo or the
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waiter.
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"Little shit," she said. The waiter was a big guy; I guess she had
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Arnoldo in mind.
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Arnoldo managed to stand up. He reached out an arm toward
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Valeska. "I love you."
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"Oh, for God's sake," said Valeska.
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The waiters started to hustle him away. "I love you," he yelled
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again. A spotlight turned in his direction, illumining his face. The
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waiters stopped shoving him "I love you."
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There was scattered applause.
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"Arnoldo!" said Valeska.
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The spotlight moved to her. She blinked, then she smiled and
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waved. More applause. Somebody shouted, "_Viva_ _el_ _amor_!"
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The waiters had gotten Arnoldo moving again and he was near the
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door. "I love you," came his shout. More applause. A last flicker of
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the searchlight lit up his face, and then he was gone.
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People came over to the table. Valeska signed autographs with the
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aid of a waiter's flashlight. She posed for photos.
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After a few minutes, the room settled down. "Let's get out of
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here," Valeska said.
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"O.K. Where to?"
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"I'm beat, I need to lie down."
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"Lie down," I said. "Oh." We paid the bill, grabbed a Turistaxi
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out front, and went back to the Presidente.
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The attendant on my floor tried to stop us in the hallway, thinking
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that Valeska was one of the quasi-official whores _jinetas_ who
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frequented the hotel. Knowing Valeska's life-style, I was worried for a
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moment. But she yanked her identity card out from her bodice and
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flipped it in the attendant's face. He apologized. I had glanced at the
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card. "Cigar factory worker?" I said as I opened the door of my room.
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She sniffed. "I used to sit there rolling cigars at H. Upmann's, 8 to
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5, with some jerk reading editorials from _Granma_ out to us. I took
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it for almost three years, when the baby was small, then I got smart."
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She yawned. "I'm tired."
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"Go ahead, lie down," I said.
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She took off her shoes but left her dress on. "You can lie down
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too."
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"O.K." I said. My prick stirred slightly. I lay down beside her.
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"This life stinks too. Cuba is no good. Turn the light off."
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I put one hand on the breast nearest me. She grasped my hand firmly, her
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long fingernails eating into my palm, and pulled it off. "Just lie down, I
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said," she said sharply.
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"Oh, sorry." I lay back and tried to think cold-shower thoughts.
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Later, I awakened, feeling groggy. I gradually woke up completely as
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I felt a hand pulling down the zipper on my fly.
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Me: I thought you said...
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Her: I can't get it down.
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Me: Let me help.
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I did help and she found my candlewick erect and ready. Too
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ready.
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Me: Don't, be careful!
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Her: Why?
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Me: Because...no, no.
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Her: (easing up with her hand): You know that pearl bracelet?
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Me: First thing in the morning. Oh. God no! Stop, stop! Yikes.
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Oh. Oh.
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It turned out it was a good thing I was only twenty-nine years old.
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If I had been fifty, my evening fun might have been ended then and
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there. But those African lips brought me back to life quickly. As it
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was, when she left about 3:30, my body was trembling as if I had had a
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an evening of ten daiquiris instead of two, and I could hardly raise my
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eyelids, much less my prick.
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I awoke to a sudden silence. The air conditioner had stopped
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abruptly, along with the light in the bathroom -- a routine socialist
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power outage. I pushed the light on my Casio -- 5:15. It would be
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light soon, pale blue streaks were already showing above the still
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gurgling blob of refrigeration machinery blocking the lower part of the
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window. What a night. Making it with a sexy woman beats watching
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reruns on TV -- and since it was Havana, there wouldn't have been any
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TV after eleven anyway. Besides, it does something for your ego
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when it's a woman who might have charged you for the evening, and
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didn't. I know, I know, a small point, maybe. But face it, I, Jesus
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Revueltos, was important, interesting, charming enough to pull a
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freebie from a high class "girl" like Valeska.
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Well, there was the pearl bracelet -- but a present between friends
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is not the same thing at all as paying for it -- nobody can tell me
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different about that. Besides, the prices at the dollar stores were pretty
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reasonable, considering.
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I began to see more of Valeska. She usually managed to find a
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night or two a week free for me -- and fortunately the dollar stores
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never ran out of jewelry, chocolates -- or Chinese condoms. And two
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days later I ran into Pierre too. I was surprised to discover that I was
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glad to see him again. He was back, staying at a house on the Malecon
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near the hotel and busy with "business." A knowing smile when he
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saw me with Valeska. "Dear Felipe, and dearest Valeska, my favorite
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people, such good friends."
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In between I went to lots of movies. There was one place that
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showed the classics from the thirties that I love -- Garbo as Queen
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Christina, Ninotchka and Jimmy Cagney, who is quite a culture hero
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in macho-conscious Cuba. Besides, the TV had two channels,
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afternoons and evenings, that showed reels and reels of old American
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films from the thirties and forties. My idea of heaven. Sometimes a
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speech of Fidel's preempted the flicks. Him and that repulsive brother
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of his, Raul. Like Napoleon, Fidel believed in family -- wimpy-looking
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little Raul standing beside and slightly behind his big brother, poor little
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number two.
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One day Valeska and I sat down to order coffee and ice cream in
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The Pigeon's Nest on the Rampa, the chic area for all the socialist
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gilded youth of Havana.
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I looked up from the menu and saw Arnoldo. A giant chocolate
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sundae was in front of him. He was with a group of other young men
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and three postgraduate nymphet types. He stared at me. Valeska's
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back was to him. He dug his spoon heavily into the sundae and stuck
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it, filled with ice cream, into his mouth. He ate, then he puffed out his
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cheeks. He began stabbing the sundae with the spoon, aimlessly.
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"There's Arnoldo," I said, pointing.
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Valeska turned around, smiled very briefly at Arnold, then turned
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back toward me. Arnoldo jabbed the spoon hard into the sundae. It
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slipped, and a big gob of ice cream landed on his forehead. Chocolate
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sauce dripped down over one eye. He looked like he was going to
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explode. One of the nymphets took a napkin and began to clean off his
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face. With a swipe of his hand, he knocked several dishes of ice cream
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off the table. A waiter hurried over, the a manager type. Arnoldo's
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friends urged his to his feet and they put their arms around him and
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shepherded him toward the door.
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"No one knows what love is," he yelled.
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The cafe grew silent.
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"Love is hell," he said and he and his friends left. Applause. "You
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can say that again," said someone. Laughter.
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"I hate vulgarity," said Valeska, digging into her banana split.
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On the far wall, the bearded likeness of Fidel Castro grinned down
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paternally on the scene.
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Fidel. I was still nowhere getting my promised interview with the
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maximum leader. In principle, Fidel was accessible to everyone -- but
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that apparently meant accessible only if and when he felt like it. I had
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no luck with Pepita's contact on his staff, and I went back to MININT
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to try there. Comrade Menendez, pulling on the jowls below his fat
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cheeks, squirmed in his swivel chair. "The Comandante," he said,
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making a tent with his hands, "is extremely conscious of the obligations
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of the Cuban Revolution to the struggling democratic forces in other
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nations. Especially Czechoslovakia."
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"El Salvador," I said.
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"El Salvador? I thought it was Czechoslovakia. Or was it
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Albania?"
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"El Salvador."
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"But El Salvador is under the heel of the imperialists."
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"I'm with the FMLN."
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He looked puzzled.
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"The socialists, the other side."
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"Of course you are." His wide mouth split his face in a
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pumpkin-like smile. "Of course."
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"We will notify you as soon as we get an opening." Big smile. "I
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hope you are enjoying your stay in Cuba. Have you been fishing out of
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Mariel?" he said. I told him I hadn't.
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And not having much else to do after the runaround I'd gotten
|
||
from him, the next day I did join a day charter. At anchor, the boat had
|
||
a rotting oily fish aroma that mixed in nicely with the iodine-salt smell
|
||
of the breeze off Punta Rubalcava. Underway, the ancient engine
|
||
contributed hydrocarbon smells that overwhelmed all other odors.
|
||
Sitting as far forward out of the fumes as I could, I managed to survive
|
||
the cruise, catching one medium albacore, a two-foot shark, and a
|
||
quite usable twenty-one-inch bicycle tire. The only thing that made me
|
||
the day tolerable was watching one of the big Soviet-built fishing
|
||
factory ships going by and being glad I wasn't one of the poor slobs
|
||
that had to spend three or four months at sea on a socialist vessel. On
|
||
the way back, I tried to scrunch down in the plastic chair, pull my hat
|
||
over my eyes, and take a nap. I thought about Valeska. How did you
|
||
get a name like that? I had finally asked her. It was my mother's idea,
|
||
she told me. Later Pierre told me that Maria Walewska was
|
||
Napoleon's mistress. "Give you any ideas, Felipe, darling?" he said.
|
||
I opened my eyes as the boat came in. We were passing a small
|
||
blue and white fishing boat. A man in the cockpit looked familiar. He
|
||
ducked his head. His blue coat fit him like a sack. He looked familiar.
|
||
He raised his head again. It was Mr. Marcus. Instead of the floppy
|
||
sports shirts and _guayaberas_ he favored in El Salvador, he was
|
||
wearing under the blue coat a striped shirt, trying to look like Spencer
|
||
Tracy in "Captains Courageous," I suppose. He saluted me and
|
||
grinned. Then he disappeared into the cabin of the boat. Mr. Marcus
|
||
in Cuba! I supposed he was making sure that I didn't try to leave the
|
||
country by boat until "the mission" had been accomplished. His
|
||
presence didn't make me feel any better at all.
|
||
That night Valeska's mother had gone on a visit to relatives in what
|
||
used to be Oriente province, and we were lolling on the murphy bed in
|
||
Valeska's cramped little apartment in Casablanca, across the harbor
|
||
from downtown. Strictly speaking, I was the one who was lolling,
|
||
trying to forget about Cuban bureaucrats, the Cuban police, the
|
||
Association -- and Mr. Marcus. I had just come in from fetching a pail
|
||
of water from the hydrant -- Valeska's block only had running water
|
||
from 11-12 and 2-4. Valeska was sitting with her son in the other
|
||
"room," where her mother and seven-year-old Pedro slept: the "room"
|
||
lay behind a sheet that had been thrown up on a clothesline running
|
||
through the middle of the apartment. She was trying to keep him
|
||
amused -- he had built a tent out of his bedclothes, but had then taken
|
||
a pair of scissors to the sheets to improve the design. She came back
|
||
to the main "room" and kitchen to put on the fish croquettes and check
|
||
the rice and the potatoes. In Cuba, complex carbohydrates were all the
|
||
rage -- lots of them, every meal. "What the hell are you really up to
|
||
here in Cuba, Felipe?" she said. "Something crooked, I suppose."
|
||
I asked her why she said that.
|
||
"Friends of Pierre are always into crazy things, usually crooked.
|
||
He's crazy," she said.
|
||
Pedro yelled "Mama!"
|
||
"Shut up!" she replied, calmly and hardly raising her voice.
|
||
"I want some pineapple!"
|
||
'No."
|
||
"Yes! _Pinita_!"
|
||
She slammed the wall with her fist. There was absolute silence
|
||
from the other side of the sheet. "He'll be quiet now."
|
||
"I'm working for the Party back in El Salvador."
|
||
"'Party.' That's what Pierre always says. And the only 'Party' he's
|
||
concerned with is himself." She smiled, evidently thinking of past
|
||
pleasures. "He knows how to take care of himself. But he's a good
|
||
pal."
|
||
"Yeah?"
|
||
"He doesn't bother women. That's good."
|
||
A low humming could be heard from the other side.
|
||
"Quiet!" she yelled.
|
||
A modest but clear "no" made itself heard. Then the humming
|
||
resumed.
|
||
"I've still got a few bureaucrats to see here," I said. The
|
||
humming grew louder.
|
||
"That drives me crazy, he gets it from next door."
|
||
"Next door?"
|
||
"That Indian creep Gupta, always sitting around humming. It's like
|
||
_santeria_, I don't like it."
|
||
"Sounds like meditation," I said. "Maybe transcendental."
|
||
"Don't hum!" she yelled. "Seeing bureaucrats, huh?" she said to me.
|
||
"Yeah."
|
||
She said she hadn't noticed my seeing anybody but her and a bunch
|
||
of fishermen and some films with movie stars from the stone ages.
|
||
"Well. I'm waiting to see Fidel."
|
||
The humming grew louder, into almost a screech. "Shut the hell
|
||
up!" she yelled. Sobbing. "Please, darling," she said to the hanging
|
||
sheet. Then she frowned at me and asked why seeing Fidel was such a
|
||
big problem. I explained my frustrations with the bureaucracy.
|
||
"What bullshit," she said. "Why didn't you say something? My
|
||
friend Doris has this special friend of hers that works on the staff of the
|
||
Council of Ministers. Very generous with presents from the dollar
|
||
stores. A new color TV, a camera that does everything, rolls the film
|
||
by itself, flashes like a regular lightning storm."
|
||
"Can he help me?"
|
||
"Lie back," she said. "I'm getting kind of hungry."
|
||
I looked toward the pots on the propane burner. "Is it ready
|
||
yet?" "Not that kind of hungry."
|
||
"I'm hungry too," came Pedro's small voice.
|
||
"But can your friend help?" I said, trying to raise myself up.
|
||
"Lie back!" She drew her lips together and frowned. I lay back
|
||
on the sofa and opened my fly. "Don't forget the amethyst ring I told
|
||
you about, will you, Flip?"
|
||
I shook my head. Her lips prodded into my groin. A broken
|
||
spring reached up out of the sofa and jabbed me in the ass. Then a
|
||
voice said, "What are you doing, _mamaita_?"
|
||
I tried to zip my fly and caught it in my penis. Ouch.
|
||
"Go away and play, Pedrito," she said. "Don't pay any attention
|
||
to him," she said to me.
|
||
A small face poked around the edge of the sheet. I turned away to
|
||
hide myself. "Mama!"
|
||
"_Queridito_, come see, there's nothing here." She motioned to
|
||
me and then got up and took him by the hand to bring him over. I
|
||
hurriedly undid my zipper and got my prick back in. "You see, it's
|
||
nothing." Pedro stared at my crotch. He looked disappointed. "See,
|
||
nothing."
|
||
"What have you got there?" he said to me, pointing at my fly.
|
||
She reached into the table drawer, scooped out a piece of hard
|
||
candy, and handed it to him. "Go!"
|
||
He popped the candy in his mouth. His eyes popped out too. She
|
||
shoved him and he trotted back to his "room."
|
||
We got back to business. As she eased herself onto me again, I
|
||
heard a voice from the other side of the sheet, singing: "He's got a little
|
||
weewee, a little weewee, he's got a little weewee, weewee, wee...."
|
||
My "weewee" felt smaller and smaller with each chorus. She
|
||
raised her head. "Don't pay any attention." She smiled. You should
|
||
see that ring, it's lovely."
|
||
"...little weewee..."
|
||
"Shit," I said loudly.
|
||
"_Senor_," said a small voice.
|
||
Her lips had hardened. Another "Shut up" was coming. "Yes," I
|
||
said, gasping.
|
||
"For one of those chocolate bars like you got _mamaita_, I could
|
||
stop singing."
|
||
"Go outside and play and I'll give you two," I said. Inside of
|
||
twenty seconds the door slammed. Inside sixty seconds, I came. And
|
||
the next morning I was the first in line at the dollar store, buying an
|
||
amethyst ring and a three month's supply of chocolate bars. By dinner
|
||
time Doris' friend had gotten me an appointment with Fidel Castro.
|
||
================================================
|
||
|
||
GABRIELE
|
||
|
||
By Otho Eskin
|
||
|
||
(Note: this is part 6 of the play "Duet")
|
||
|
||
CHARACTERS
|
||
(In order of appearance)
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA DUSE
|
||
|
||
SARAH BERNHARDT
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
|
||
SETTING
|
||
|
||
Backstage of the Syria Theatre, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.
|
||
|
||
TIME
|
||
|
||
April 5, 1924 Evening.
|
||
|
||
SCENE
|
||
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Sarah Bernhardt has said I should come to Paris?
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Of course, my dear. You are welcome. As a sign of my good will, I will
|
||
allow you to use my own theater.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
How generous!
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I'm not so sure.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
What a noble soul the Great Sarah has to make such an offer. You can't
|
||
refuse.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I couldn't refuse.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
It's settled! That Italian woman will perform in Paris.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Paris talks of nothing else. The press is ecstatic over the Divine Sarah's
|
||
generous offer to stand as the champion of La Duse her only rival.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Everyone described it as an act of unprecedented generosity.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Not every one.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Some questioned my motives.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Some suggest it was done for publicity. Some suggest that Sarah is
|
||
luring this young woman to Paris so that Sarah might devour her.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
How absurd! I would never dream of such a thing.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I need something new something fresh to perform in Paris. I will
|
||
perform your new play, Gabriele The Dead City. I will make it the
|
||
greatest theatrical work of our time.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
I cannot allow you perform The Dead City.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
But, my love, you wrote it for me.
|
||
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
You may not perform it now. Not in Paris. Not yet.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I was devastated. I wanted more than anything else in life to perform
|
||
that play. I knew
|
||
it would be an event of transcendent beauty. I could not understand.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
It is not for you to understand. Appear in La Dame aux camelias
|
||
instead.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Impossible! That is Sarah's play.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Face the tigress in her lair. Perform in the role she is most known for.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
And so I went to Paris. And so I finally met the Divine Sarah face to
|
||
face.
|
||
|
||
(SARAH and ELEONORA rush toward
|
||
one another, arms outstretched, and fling
|
||
themselves into one another's arms in an
|
||
extravagant, and unconvincing, gesture
|
||
of warmth and friendship.)
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
The two greatest actresses of their time together at last. This was not a
|
||
meeting it was a collision.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
My dear, welcome to Paris! Welcome to my modest home.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Madame, I am honored.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
You are too kind.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
This is the culmination of years of hope to meet at last the
|
||
incomparable Sarah herself.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
I have heard many fine things about you...
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
You have been my inspiration since I was a child.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
(Coolly)
|
||
I have not had the pleasure of meeting your companion.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Madame, my I present Gabriele D'Annunzio.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Enchant<EFBFBD>.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
(Full of charm, flirtatious)
|
||
My delight is to be doubled I see.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Madame, your beauty exceeds all rumor. I am at your feet.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
I am an admirer of your poetry, Signor.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Gabriele is also a distinguished playwright.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
How wonderful! I hope one day I will have the honor of appearing in
|
||
one of your works.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
The honor would be mine.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
(To ELEONORA)
|
||
Now, my dear, tell me what will you perform for your debut in
|
||
Paris?
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I have decided to play the role of Marguerite in La Dame aux camelias.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
You cannot be serious!
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Cher, Madame...
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
The effrontery!
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I mean this as a tribute to your genius.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
You mean to challenge me. You mean to lay claim to the title of
|
||
greatest actress of Europe. What treachery! What deceit!
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I don't need to appear in one of your old war horses to prove myself.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
I have welcomed you to Paris. I have offered you the hospitality of my
|
||
home. And how do you repay me? You have stabbed me through the
|
||
heart! I lie upon the floor, bleeding, the last breath of my life escaping
|
||
in a sigh. I will not allow you.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Madame, I will do as I please.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
You dare contradict me!
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I will not be told what I can or cannot perform. If that causes you grief,
|
||
that can't be helped.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
It causes me more than grief. I have lived with grief all my life. It is no
|
||
stranger to me. What you have done causes me something much graver
|
||
it causes me disappointment. I had thought you had more honor than
|
||
to betray your benefactor.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
You are not my benefactor.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
I have given you my own theater for you to use.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
And you refused me the courtesy of your dressing room although
|
||
you used mine when you performed in Turin years ago. If you wish to
|
||
withdraw the offer of your theater you may. I will have no difficulty in
|
||
finding another.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Without my endorsement, nobody will come.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Everybody will come.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Please, dear ladies, do not spoil this happy this historic occasion
|
||
by quarreling...
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Quiet!
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
This is between us.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Why are you angry, Madame? Are you afraid the people of Paris will
|
||
see that this role can be interpreted by someone beside you? Will they
|
||
see how old and stale your vaunted technique is? Will they feel fresh air
|
||
once more in the theater?
|
||
|
||
(Long pause)
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
You are, of course, quite right, my dear. You may select any play you
|
||
wish. Including La Dame aux camelias. I am sure you will do
|
||
splendidly.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
You are most gracious, Madame.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
I insist that you call me Sarah.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
Sarah.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Eleonora.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
See! Wasn't that easy. Everyone is happy. I am so pleased.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Eleonora, the more that I think about it, the more I am convinced La
|
||
Dame aux camelias is perfect for you.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Didn't I tell you the same thing?
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I will confess, I have had doubts about that...
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Nonsense! You must do it.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
You must.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
I insist.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
She insists.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
She insists.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
You will be a great triumph.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
A fabulous success.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
You will be magnificent. The event of the season. I will attend your
|
||
debut myself.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
The Great Sarah will attend your debut. What an honor! And Sarah did
|
||
attend.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
She sat in her loge, her disheveled hair enveloped in a wreath of roses.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
No one in the audience could take their eyes from the Divine Sarah.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I am terrified. Never have I felt so unsure of myself.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
There is no need to be anxious, my saint.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
This play is a mistake. I should never have agreed to do La Dame aux
|
||
camelias. Everyone will compare me to Sarah.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
You will be brilliant.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
We must cancel the performance.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Impossible!
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I'm too nervous to perform. She is out there, watching me. I can't go
|
||
on.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
You must. This is your chance to prove yourself Sarah's equal. If you
|
||
cancel the performance, everyone will say you are frightened of Sarah.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I am frightened of her.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Tout Paris is here tonight. You will be brilliant.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
You will be fantastic.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Fabulous.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Glorious.
|
||
|
||
(BEAT)
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I was a disaster.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Catastrophe.
|
||
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Horrible.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I saw her from the stage the only one I saw beautiful,
|
||
transcendent roses in her hair. She smiled at me from time to time.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Everyone in the audience watched for Sarah's reaction.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I knew it was not working. I felt her eyes on me at all times. I wanted
|
||
to die.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
At the first intermission my admirers came to my loge.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Madame, you have nothing to fear from La Duse. Your crown is secure
|
||
forever.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
They told me her reputation was inflated. She was only considered
|
||
good because she had never appeared in Paris. The only place that
|
||
really matters.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Not up to Paris standards.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
There was general agreement.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
No make up. Dull costumes. Not as good as our Sarah.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
It was awful.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
I was re-affirmed by the critics and the public as supreme.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Another triumph for the Great Sarah.
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
A time of triumph and I was in despair. The mob saw a woman not
|
||
using the stylized acting techniques they were used to. I saw something
|
||
else. I saw a new style of acting more natural, more felt, than
|
||
anything I'd ever experienced. I saw an artist who was as good as I
|
||
was. I saw genius. And that night I saw a woman fifteen years younger
|
||
than I playing my role. I felt mortality. And I never forgave that.
|
||
|
||
ELEONORA
|
||
I was a failure.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
You were terrible, Eleonora.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Disappointing.
|
||
|
||
MAN
|
||
Inadequate. Very.
|
||
|
||
SARAH
|
||
Not up to Paris standards, my dear.
|
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MAN
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You should never have appeared in La Dame aux camelias. You were
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a fool even to think of such a thing. A fool.
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ELEONORA
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I should never have performed that play.
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SARAH
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You should not have performed that play. Not in Paris.
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ELEONORA
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Why didn't you let me use your new play, Gabriele? The play which I
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inspired.
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MAN
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You made a fool of yourself, Eleonora. Worse you made a fool of
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me.
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SARAH
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(To MAN)
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Your lovely mistress was not a great success last night, I'm afraid.
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MAN
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I realize now I have been wrong about her. I was bewitched by her
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beauty. I now know she can never be your equal. Forgive me for
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thinking so.
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SARAH
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I always forgive men who are blinded by love. Have I told you about
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the coffin I keep in my bedroom, Gabriele? One of my lovers gave it to
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me. He would have me lie in it, surrounded by burning tapers, and
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watch me for hours. Then we would make love. In the coffin. Perhaps
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you would like to see my coffin?
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MAN
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I would be enchanted.
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SARAH
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I am told you have written a new play.
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MAN
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A great poetic tragedy.
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SARAH
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Tell me about it, Gabriele.
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MAN
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It is called The Dead City and it is set on the hot plain outside of the
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ancient ruins of Mycenae. It involves adultery and incest..
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SARAH
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Adultery and incest. How wonderful! I am sure I will adore it. I wish to
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produce and star in it myself.
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MAN
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That would be a great honor, Sarah, but...
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SARAH
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Is there something wrong?
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MAN
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Nothing would give me greater pleasure...
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SARAH
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What is it, my dear Gabriele?
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MAN
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I wrote that play for Eleonora.
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SARAH
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So? What is the problem?
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MAN
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I promised The Dead City to her.
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SARAH
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Promises are made to be broken. You were young. Your experience
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was limited. Now, tonight, it can be unlimited.
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MAN
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I'm certain that, with you to inspire me, my genius will know no
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bounds.
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SARAH
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We have a great deal in common, you and I. We're both charlatans. I
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wonder how much more we have in common.
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ELEONORA
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(Furious)
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You did what?! You gave your play to Bernhardt!? To that that
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woman! How could you? She has nothing to do with our dreams.
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Nothing to do with our new theater. She's from the past. She is the
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past. We are the future. How dare you! The Dead City is my play. You
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wrote it for me. I want my play.
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MAN
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I have signed a contract and Sarah will perform it next year.
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ELEONORA
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You betrayed me.
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MAN
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Infidelity gives love an intoxicating novelty.
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(ELEONORA moves threateningly
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toward the MAN who backs away
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quickly.)
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ELEONORA
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You gave away your art for a night of rutting! You've cheapened your
|
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art. You've cheapened yourself. You've cheapened me! (SHE snatches
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up some heavy object.) You worm! You slug. I'll cut out your heart.
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(The MAN slips into the shadows and
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ELEONORA slumps into a chair.)
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