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man's
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subliminal
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god
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hermies
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purrbuckets
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contents
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introduction
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1. man is a disease
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2. woman is a paradox
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3. child is the victim
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4. the beast
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5. anxiety
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6. mysticism
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7. paranoia
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8. food
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9. self-loathing
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10. society
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11. technology
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12. culture
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13. murder
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14. intelligence
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15. economy
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16. addiction
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17. sex
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18. hell
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19. suicide
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20. man's subliminal god
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bibiliography
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introduction
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"The tragedy, the true catastrophe, is that humanity continues..."
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-Louis Wolfson
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Somewhere along the line, man got the notion that he, and his life, were
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essentially positive manifestations of phenomena. Perhaps faced with the
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elemental void of death, primitive man turned to his immediate experience and
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clung to it for dear life.
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Perhaps, in lieu of any abiding reason or causality, man simply felt
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himself justified to "be." With the inevitable momentum of procreation, each
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subsequent generation was coddled or bludgeoned into adapting the affirmative
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stance of their ancestors.
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Man, even primitive man, has tended to take life for granted. Death was the
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unnatural thing, the result of malice or mistake, the after-message of the
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gods, or, in the Christian world, the result of the Fall from the garden...
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[21]
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Scientific man now sees that death is the most natural thing in the world,
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the omega to life's alpha and a necessary precursor to further life. He
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compulsively examines the inherent biological customs of innumerable flora and
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fauna, and chronicles in rapt fascination his own, dreary natural cycles.
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Curiously, though, as man's season becomes more problematic, stalked from
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within and without by environmental decay and psychological breakdown, he
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rarely considers his own death as a viable alternative to an existence devoid
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of meaning or rescue.
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Contrarily, man seems obsessed with clinging to life at all costs, greedily
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devouring all resources within reach and pumping out as many clones of himself
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as possible. He seems determined to affirm his life in a vehement act of
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self-sabotage, creating in the process a habitat of truly avernal proportions.
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Some, however, have seen the runaway essence of the whole damn thing:
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You are among the many passengers of a large bus careening wildly down a
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twisted mountain road. The bus is being driven by a drunk who is half blind. He
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and those near the front are also suffering from some sort of intoxication from
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gaseous emissions. They are also drinking. It is night; not even the moon is
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out to provide lighting. The main lights of the bus are broken from
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near-brushes with the steadily deteriorating old guardrails that are the only
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thing between the bus and a 2500 foot plunge off a sheer face cliff. [18]
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This allegory illuminates the predicament an enlightened creature
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encounters when waking one day to find himself woefully alive. Its author, a
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suicide, sees that the true remedy to this hapless traveler's woes is the one
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thing that is taboo:
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You want to stop the bus and get out, but you cannot. To no one else has it
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occurred to stop the bus. And it seems that those in favor of speeding up the
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bus are gaining the upper hand... [18]
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Indeed, not only is death ignored as the way out, but man makes the very
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thought of it a crime, substituting instead a barrage of neurotic, insular and
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wholly insupportable life affirmations.
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man is a disease
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"Human life must be some form of mistake."
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-Arthur Schopenhauer
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Man is a disease. As Schopenhauer once declared, man's existence must be a
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mistake. He is a germ who thinks himself a king. To any problem, there is only
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one cause: man, and only one cure: annihilation. That this truth is ignored,
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mocked and despised is staunch proof of its character.
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The simple and pure answer to all man's ills is too great for the living
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coward to ponder, so he hides in hovels of shit and waits for the reaper to
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take him away after all. How pathetic the sight of a person clinging to life,
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how laughable the arrogance of the being who brays to the heavens that he is
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actually glad to be alive!
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CONTROL
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When one looks at this piteous parade of crazed cuckoos, one instantly
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thinks of the word "control." What avernal force keeps these retarded vermin
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from crashing into, or killing each other off?
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The evil elite's control of the mass is highly effective, largely
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invisible, always a source of vainglory for the purveyors of pain and a scourge
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to the moral sheep-dip writhing in torment below.
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For one to deny this world view as paranoid proves only that the denier is
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an oblivious dolt and his opinion hopelessly naive. There is no way to prove
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that the secret workings of the power-mad are not what the lunatic fringe
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posits them to be.
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LIVING IN HELL
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For the enlightened one, who sees life as the torture that it is,
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overcoming inertia, loneliness and isolation on this heartless plane is a tall
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order, ultimately unsuccessful but a challenging struggle nonetheless.
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Living in a toxic environment tends to undermine any will to be healthy,
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creative or constructive. For the visionary meek, the tasks of finding someone
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to care for and the opportunity to care, being accepted by an idiotic
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population becomes, by definition, problematic. We will see that the miseries
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suffered the unique are based on a false premise, but the need to feel worthy
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and loved is natural nonetheless.
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WOLF AND SHEEP
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It is said that in this sad, mad world, there are only two kinds of people:
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those who hurt others and those who suffer. This infantile wolf/sheep
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philosophy is certainly insulting to the sheep, who by implication are urged to
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accept this cruel dynamic as some sort of "natural law," both inevitable and
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essential. It appears, however, that this maxim is not only noxious, but
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untrue.
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If there are only two basic manifestations of the disease called man, then
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it must be rewritten that there are those who hurt others, and those who hurt
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themselves. Those who are hurt accept the hurt by remaining alive.
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The pained one, contrary to popular myth, does not have to accept suffering
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from others. He can either fight back or leave. Since fighting back is
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problematic for timid souls, escape from the tormentor's lair would seem to be
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the sane decision.
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As the vast majority of humanity are mean, belligerent ignoramuses, the
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enlightened soul would be well-advised to give up the ghost and get out.
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Unfortunately, most don't see this option, or deny it in favor of more moaning
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and gnashing, masquerading under the cloak of "a purposeful life."
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woman is a paradox
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"Don't feed males. Don't breed males."
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-Andrea Dworkin
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Woman is a paradox. She is the obvious better of her male correlate in
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everything: intelligence, compassion, longevity, creativity. This is made all
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the more evident by the brutal, fear-filled persecution and subjugation of
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woman throughout history by the paranoid, terrified male.
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Man fears woman because she is the magician of procreation, and by
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extension, holds the key to his own existence. One might think this would
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persuade man to adore and worship woman. It seems, however, to evoke more
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curious reactions: degradation, rape and murder.
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On the other hand, woman is a traitor to the truth because she is breeder
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of the disease called man, the bringer of innocent life into this criminal
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world. What would make informed creatures ignore the data and perpetuate the
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affliction of life?
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It seems clear from the testaments of advised female thinkers that the
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enduring identification of woman with the mythos of breeder is primarily a male
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creation, promoted for inadvisable self-perpetuation. Sadly, man has
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successfully brainwashed the majority of womankind into believing that their
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identity and worth is tied up solely in this barbaric, negative act.
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The ability to bring forth life is the one act that man cannot perform, the
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one power he covets more than anything else. Obsessed with his own
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reproduction, he forces this deadly job on the woman, to the exclusion of all
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her invaluable talents.
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Woman's myriad aptitudes, including unequaled capacity for government,
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business and art, remain sad potentialities for the majority throughout their
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lives. It is disheartening in these days of reputed female emancipation, to see
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how many young, bright women succumb to the knee-jerk malady of childbirth,
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thusly abdicating responsibility for a life abused, unfocused, thrown away.
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BIRTH CONTROL
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If a woman cannot remove herself from the race voluntarily, and will not
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refrain from dangerous procreative activities, (an absurd request in the
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present atmosphere of metaphysical decay), then conscious, political birth
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control, in the form of tubal ligation, is essential. The woman can then
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express her sexuality without fear of accident or subterfuge, knowing that
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amongst her crimes on this planet will not be replication of the pig she melded
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with.
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ABORTION
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Regarding abortion: man should kill himself. In lieu of that, he should
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kill his children. In lieu of that, he should refrain from all sexual
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intercourse. In lieu of that, he should stubbornly refuse to perpetuate this
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sorry race of goons, by practicing permanent birth control in the form of
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vasectomy.
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If all of these roads have been abandoned, and one is left with the hideous
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beast growing in womb, the only sane measure left is to immediately eradicate
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it from the uninviting face of the earth.
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To those who opt for adoption, crying, "If you don't want your child, we
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do!" one must quickly retort, "By what plea of insanity, having forsaken the
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sorry role of parent to this misbegotten, would I entrust its cursed existence
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to a gaggle of demented christian hoods? I'd rather feed my newborn directly to
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ravenous lions than expose it to the lunatic hypocrisy of you foul goons!"
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child is the victim
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"They all disowned their parents long ago, the way you are supposed to."
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-Margaret Atwood
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Parents are by definition criminals, saddling the punishment of being on
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unsullied souls. Parents are also murderers of their own offspring since it was
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their haughty act that condemned each charge to the terrifying sentence of
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death.
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Therefore, all children have the right and obligation to murder their
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forbearers, though few have the courage and insight to take on the task.
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There is much more than an infantile "eye for an eye" dynamic at work
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here; it is much more subtle. Children, having suffered existence, earn the
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opportunity to relieve their tormentors of life. Each fool who idiotically
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clings to life, and recklessly drags another victim into it unasked, has proven
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himself unworthy of further existence by the gravity of his carnal blunder.
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The child who is forced by brainwashing or cowardice to remain on the
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planet, should then certainly benefit from as much of the parent's resources as
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possible, be it financial, social, or emotional. Even something as simple as
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killing off one's parents can afford the survivor more air, food and water, and
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this possibility should not be ruled out.
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Magician/philosopher E.E. Rehmus expresses the crass arrogance of the
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parental mindset succinctly:
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Human life grows cheaper with every mewling, puking infant that is born. Any
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form of birth control, no matter how unjust or extreme, is preferable to that
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tyranny exercised so criminally now by those who, in their filth, stupidity,
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rut and obnoxious lust, blindly and selfishly birth endlessly forth their
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disgusting progeny in chaotic, cancerous growth, shoving and forcing the guilty
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in with the innocent in this already over-stuffed planetary rat-box of
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accelerating madness and asphyxation. [17]
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CATHARI
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Rehmus also reminds us of the Cathari, a 12th century religious sect who
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saw this world as hell, and condemned reproduction. The conspiratorial nature
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of man's self-perpetuation is stunningly revealed in historical cover-up:
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It is most curious that contemporary mention of this sect almost always ignores
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(their) insistence that human reproduction or procreation is the only
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unforgivable sin. Since this world is hell, to foist existence on innocent
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beings is a crime. [17]
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The Cathari were exterminated by the murderous, moronic Catholic church,
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vile promoters of man at all costs.
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CHILDHOOD
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From the moment an infant is tossed into this chamber of horrors, we can
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see, if we look closely, his horror and despair. The child cries incessantly,
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and is brutally trained to shut up and face its horrible fate.
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As the child grows into teenhood and reaches the age of reason, awareness
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(and anger) of his situation grows. It is usually countered by the criminal
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parents' inevitable distancing from the child, now declaring, "I owe you
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nothing. I cannot field your anger." The anger, of course, is a perfectly
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natural and healthy response to the awareness that one has been tricked in the
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most monstrous way.
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The rest of its life is spent maintaining as much distance as possible from
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the terror of life, through meaningless activity and numbing addictive
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substances.
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From the time a person leaves its mother's womb, its every effort is directed
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toward building, maintaining and withdrawing into artificial wombs, various
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sorts of substitute protective devices or shells. [11]
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Absurdity stacked upon absurdity, this creature, hiding from his own
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shadow, wanting more than anything to crawl back into the oblivion of the
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mother, is successfully duped into declaring that he loves life!
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FAMILY DYSFUNCTION
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Returning to the disgusting notion of the parent, observe how many
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dysfunctional scum have tried to bolster a rotten, doomed relationship by
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criminally invoking a tortured soul, thinking this sorry child could hide or
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heal its creators' fathomless defects.
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What actually transpires is that the child, in addition to inheriting the
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irredeemable psychic burden of life, also suffers the tormenting despair of the
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parents who, wallowing in their pitiful familial remorse, sense now that they
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are not only criminals, but abject failures as human beings.
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ZPG
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The most cursory glance at this runaway nightmare should lead even the
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least intelligent amongst men to passionately declare, "No more breeding! No
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more babies! No more people!"
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Alas, this is not the case. Man pumps out defective, cursed clones of
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himself in complete negation of sanity. Any mention of curtailing population,
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even in this era of sweeping social disintegration, is met with indignant
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stares and charges of genocide.
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This incredible disparity between the obvious and the accepted can lead to
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only one conclusion: Man is out of his fucking skull.
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the beast
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"I felt a kind of forlorn sense of being lost in a world of incredibly stupid
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and malicious dwarfs."
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-Aleister Crowley
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Schopenhauer called it "The Will to Live," that irrational, insatiable
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force that leads man to perpetual despair, constantly striving for and never
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achieving complete and permanent dominance over his environment. This will to
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live is, curiously, best expressed as well as extinguished by suicide, though
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Schopenhauer turned cowardly moral at this juncture, perhaps fearing popular
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outrage.
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The successful suicide is the most powerful, indeed the only valid,
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expression of total dominance over one's environment. By eradicating one's
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environment, one certainly conquers it.
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WAR OF WILLS
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Man's blissful self-delusions to the contrary, life amongst men has always
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been, and must always be, a terrifying war of wills between demented beasts.
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The early primitive struggles of killing to save one's self, and competing with
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other savages for food, shelter and safety has been insidiously transmuted into
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the less overt, but equally as life-threatening principles of economic
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competition, academic achievement, social popularity, and mental health.
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The man who cannot get a decent life for himself due to low intelligence,
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mental handicaps, economic deprivations, timidity, inability to maintain
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employment, social phobias, etc. is left to rot by those who have conquered
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these ills and gotten the goods that each poor victim of life needs and
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deserves.
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A decent, humane world would equally distribute the riches of man's labor
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and earth's abundance to all, regardless of wit or need, but the world is a pig
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and man's inventions are savage by definition.
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Capitalism is the law of the jungle functioning in extreme sublimity. If
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one can outsmart you and steal your money, possession or opportunity, he will,
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with society's blessing.
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If his success prompts your failure, this is well and good, and he is under
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no obligation to lessen his efforts or help you regardless of how badly you
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fail or how this threatens your livelihood or even existence.
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Through it all, you are both obliged to call it "good business" and shake
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hands at the end of the battle. This is cruel and insane, but just "natural"
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for man. The insane part is to call it acceptable.
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Life, as accepted by most, is merely a state of big fish-little fish,
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bullies and victims, the strong tormenting, exploiting and eventually devouring
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the weak. To prove this, ask any bully if he believes in this theory, and he
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will deny it angrily.
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All big fish feel justified in eating you, and no bully considers himself
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such. Al Capone felt himself a victim to the end of his life. This
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self-righteousness is part of man's inherent blindness. The terror of life
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convinces the strong that it is perfectly okay to rip the weak to shreds.
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Perhaps the cruelest part is the largely successful campaign to harass the
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weak into believing that this constant persecution is part of what makes a
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cogent civilization.
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DEFECTIVE
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Man is destructive because he is defective. He is spirit, pure and egoless,
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that has become trapped in a merciless gown of flesh by some metaphysical curse
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or boo-boo. Thus afflicted, man is an unbalanced, irreparable thing. The spirit
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cries for ascendancy and release, but the retarded, terrified ego wants nothing
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less than impossible, total control of its environment.
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Thus spirit and ego are mutually exclusive, in fact confrontational, having
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entirely different agenda. They war continually against the other, often in the
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guise of intellect versus emotion, diametrically opposed in their needs and
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positions, fueling a tendency towards outward destruction and internal
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disintegration.
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Man appears to be the first thing created that is consciously aware of
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himself, and thus of his inevitable demise. Upon registering this fact, he is
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struck immediately insane. His entire life is spent in a futile escape from the
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one true fact: he is doomed.
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DELUSIONS
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Even within man's grand delusion of life being a positive phenomenon, man's
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defective brain fills his stilted life with layer upon layer of sub-delusion.
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He refuses to see, to the end of his days, his personal and collective decline.
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He ignores his body's decay by increasing indulgence or grotesque attempts at
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hiding death with the mask of youth.
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As a race, he gleefully assaults his planet with the most perverted barrage
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of alchemical toxins and fails to see the connection when the food, water and
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air that supports him becomes irremediably diseased.
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His total ignorance of the resplendency of death leads to comical lifelong,
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planetwide attempts to forsake it. Thus he makes his playpen a pigpen, and
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increases his sorrows. Still he cannot see that he is his own tormentor, that
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humanity is its own crime!
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Yet there are signs that man seems to sense that the whole thing is a bad
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idea. Educators, for instance, are generally defensive, angry and paranoid, for
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they know at root that they are perpetuating an inferior product. So too with
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health-care "professionals," and most others in the service economy, who smile
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at the client but whisper, "Worm!" as they walk out the door.
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Everyone hates somebody, and most appear to hate many. The epidemic
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delusion that one's personal friends are the only "good" people, and everyone
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else is shit, reveals a partial truth. Everyone is shit. Man is shit.
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anxiety
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"Human beings make death the great boogey."
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-Alan Watts
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Chronic anxiety is the repression of the notion that one shouldn't be here.
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One should be dead. Death is the natural state and life is the intrusive
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misstep upon that state. Anxiety is a mephitic cartel of fear and guilt,
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unresolved except by death.
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The feeling that death, either voluntary or involuntary, lies at the
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doorstep of man's each future second, creates a terminally unsettling
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atmosphere for the loathsome creature, and whispers disturbing questions:
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"Should one impulsively embrace death, or systematically avoid it? How long can
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one ignore one's ultimate destiny? How long can one justify the hunger, greed
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and shame that perpetuate this sorry song?
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HATRED
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Anxiety surfaces in man when he senses how much other men hate him, their
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hatred being self-loathing projected. He realizes that, their individual
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death-wish suppressed, other men wish to kill him.
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Man sees nothing but death in another man's eyes, and realizes he would be
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murdered if at all possible. The frightened creature would embrace, not reject,
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this overture, if he saw what a blessing death would actually be!
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FEAR AND SHAME
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Man's activities with other men, their neurotic friendships, toxic bonds
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and conspiratorial groupings, are based on a fear reflex to befriend those who
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scare them. If another man is your buddy, maybe he won't rape or kill you.
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It is thus laughable to see groups of men together. They bray and cackle
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and posture strength, but signal their great cowardice by their choice of
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company.
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Man tries to shame his fellows into both productivity and passivity by
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asserting that modern life is a gift, an adventure, a "piece of cake," while
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granting that historical life was hard for the primitive man:
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When threatened by a wild animal, by fire or flood, primitive man felt terror
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and fled, driven by nature's most powerful instinct: the instinct for survival.
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When attacked by beast or man, he felt anger and fought to destroy his enemy.
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When blocked in the satisfaction of his hunger drive, sex drive, drive to
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dominate others and to keep from being dominated by others, he felt rage and
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fought to destroy the object or creature that stood in his way. [21]
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How sad that the author does not acknowledge that these primal appetites
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and reactions still function in modern man as well, twisted and sublimated into
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neurosis, psychosis and physical affliction, causing him untold emotional
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torment as he chases windmills and swings at ghosts in a ludicrous shadow play
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of primitive survival!
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DISTRACTION
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One of the most subversive effects of anxiety is that it makes creative and
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logical thinking harder for the already defective thinker. For man to assess
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his situation intelligently, he would need space to think, and a safe
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environment to do so.
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Man, at root not wanting he or his fellows to think clearly about his
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predicament, has always made sure that his cultural environment was one of
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distraction, compulsion, and stress, to keep him on a course of mass-think and
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goal-oriented competition.
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Society instills anxiety in its captives in many ways. Overpopulation leads
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to crowding and increased competition, thus promoting fear, anger and
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alienation. Conscious and subliminal messages from the incessant media maintain
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a fever pitch of psychic paranoia and confrontation.
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Creepy behavioral modification techniques, like promoting clothing that is
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too tight, create a feeling of claustrophobia that the wearer then projects
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onto the world and his mind, the net result being a reduction in his power and
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freedom over his surroundings.
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Food is primarily designed to evoke anxiety reactions, laced as it is with
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sugar, salt and fat, all leading to over-stimulation of the brain, high blood
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pressure, and a tendency towards bodily inertia. That these ingredients are
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also highly addictive leads to consumptive eating habits and the resultant
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general tendency towards mental paralysis.
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6
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mysticism
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"Creation myths are not about the origins of the world at all, but about the
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origins of patriarchy which has claimed itself as the world."
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-Jane Caputi
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All mystical attempts at describing and harnessing life miss the mark
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entirely, for their general purpose is to affirm life, that is, find a system
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for staying in life, whereas exiting life is the only true revelation.
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Turning spiritually inward to escape the brutal face of reality is a
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cowardly, and ultimately unsuccessful act, but spiritual detachment from
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material reality can perform a desirable function.
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Through intense awareness of the numbing lethargy of existence, man can
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lessen his learned, neurotic attachment to it, and increase the self's
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emotional withdrawal from this plane in preparation for a voluntary denial of
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life.
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The meditator, if he is wise, will go beyond the infantile "contemplation
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of naval" antics of superficial gurus and see the profound nothing that life
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is, learning to not fear its eventual annihilation.
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Man, fearing the true bliss of death, attempts to placate himself with
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intricately woven, ludicrous "mysteries of life," such as gods, demons,
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saviors, reincarnation, karma, nirvana, transcendence, repentance, and soul
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pit-stops like heaven and hell.
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To entice fools into accepting this life sentence is dangerous folly, for
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not only are these myths wrong, they hinder the individual's sacred attempt to
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seek the truth within himself and discover the stunning, beautiful nature of
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the gift of death lain before him.
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The atheist declares that religion is vile superstition that has caused
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untold misery to its creator, man. Thus, the atheist is half-right: he sees the
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hideous lunacy of man's fabricated gods, but oddly, he still believes in man...
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RELIGION IS WRONG
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To see how wrong all religions and philosophies are, one need merely apply
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a simple two-question test.
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1/ Are they life-affirming? If yes, then they deny the truth of death.
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2/ Do they accept suicide, the sacred possession of one's own life, as a
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valid option for the enlightened? Certainly not.
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The enlightened one can and must immediately discard all religion and
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philosophy as evil inanity. All are conscript, deadly to the soul, fodder for
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the coward masses, pure poison for the individual. Banish them from your house
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if you seek truth!
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SPIRIT IS ETERNAL
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Man, as manifest on earth, is shit, but his spirit is pure, eternal. The
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spirit is trapped in the body, imprisoned in hell. The spirit fears leaving the
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body, though it would be infinitely better back in the primordial void.
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The closer man gets to some kind of perceived success in this life, the
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more traumatized his spirit. Most men seek success in the blind eyes of their
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deluded peers. Thus, most men have crippled spirits.
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What meditation on death reveals is that failure on the physical plane is
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the doorway to eternal release. Failure in life is the spirit's great victory.
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A conscious and visible deterioration is purer than all the vain competition
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amongst the idiot masses, who rot anyway but refuse to admit it.
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THE BUM IS GOD
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The bum on the street is the closest thing man has to a god, a shining
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example of his ultimate truth, and this is why he is hated and mocked.
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The "failed" man represents the specter of death physically manifest, man's
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immutable destiny walking amongst men, and man's simultaneous pity and
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revulsion merely illuminates the complete misunderstanding of his spiritual
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objective.
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Man's purpose on earth is to leave it, to realize his spirit demands
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immediate release. Hell awaits all men who refuse this vital truth. Thus, hell
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awaits virtually every man.
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7
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paranoia
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"Death is not an evil."
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-Epicurus
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Who can trust anyone, knowing full well that the loathsome thoughts which
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lurk in one's own mind must also dwell in others, that evil punctuates man's
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every move on earth?
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Paranoia is a natural state of perception, as it acknowledges the potential
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negative truth about the universe. It is another subliminal manifestation of
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the specter of death, an inappropriate, neurotic attempt to repress that
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awareness.
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Behind the mask of paranoia, as behind all neurosis, lies the face of
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death, hiding but always watching, guiding perception through strange mental
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filters. Paranoia declares that the end result of all eventuality is death.
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Neurosis begins with the desire to suppress that fact.
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Man's problems accrue with the inability to balance theoretical scenarios
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with their objective plausibilities. Mental health and successful functioning
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lie in knowing the difference between what others can do to you and what they
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probably will.
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Paranoia whispers that each of us, in our darkest moment, is rotten,
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because we see the rottenness in ourselves and our actions. It suggests that
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each of us at core feels utterly powerless against the beasts surrounding us.
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Paranoia projects how we really feel about others; how we wish harm or
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death on those we love; how we cheat, lie and plot. It also suggests the
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negative potential of any situation. Your next-door neighbor could in fact be a
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CIA agent hired to spy on you; somebody's is.
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People have plotted and murdered innocent strangers throughout history. You
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could be next. The challenge with paranoia is to avoid untoward obsession on
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negative potentiality. It causes grief and paralysis in those afflicted with
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this heightened state of awareness.
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It is essential one believe they will survive any conspiracy directed at
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them; even better, knowing death to be an aim not a calamity, if one doesn't
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care.
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CREATIVE PARANOIA
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Steven Starker called paranoia "the opposite of creative thinking," whereas
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it is the epitome of creative thinking, the moreso as it tends not to be
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life-affirming or comforting, taking to its logical conclusion the negative
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potential of a situation.
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The psychological benefits of paranoia are many. A successful trial with
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paranoia reveals how fragile that delusion called "reality" actually is, how
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|
thin the line between consensus reality and one's personal flights of fancy,
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|
and in the long run, how insignificant that difference.
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|
The successful paranoid learns not to rationalize or repress his fears,
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|
which would be like bailing out an endless flood, but to function fully with
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|
those fears, with the notion that reality may be the thing he believes, or
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|
something wholly different.
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MADNESS
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Paranoia's demand for psychological flexibility leads many to madness, for
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man's defective mind by nature cries for rigid structure. Nothing is what is
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|
appears to be, especially man's errant view of himself. To see this without
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|
psychic collapse is a profound challenge.
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|
Madness, however, traps many souls into that alternate reality which
|
|
neither seeks death nor accepts it, and sadly, the insane are invariably
|
|
dependent on abusive, ill-advised caretakers to perpetuate and enhance their
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|
sorry state. Accepting all reality, including death, as valid and positive, is
|
|
the only cure for madness, save for death itself.
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8
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food
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"Eating is a process of possession, incorporating a part of the world into
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yourself."
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-Don Gerrard
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|
The conspiracy of man against the individual rears its ugly head in the
|
|
vicious machinations of the food-manufacturing and distribution conglomerates.
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|
The goal of corporate food-mongers is to horde earth's edible resources,
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|
killing it, processing it so that all nutrition is gone, and adding addictive
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|
substances to make its ingestion more a sensory than a sustenance experience.
|
|
The resultant crap is then sold to the individual en masse at ludicrously
|
|
inflated prices, with packaging and advertising proclaiming it to be a healthy
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|
product, when it is in fact lifeless garbage. It is disturbing that so many
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|
actually believe in the nutritional validity of something as paradoxical, say,
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|
as a "fat-free" donut.
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|
CARNIVORE MYTH
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|
A widely perpetuated and accepted myth is that man is a carnivore and needs
|
|
meat to live. This is absurd and demonstrably untrue, merely another proof that
|
|
the virulent, homicidal germ self-named man needs to torture and devour any
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|
living creature he can lay hands on:
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|
It is obvious that our natural instincts are non-carnivorous. Most people have
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|
other people kill their meat for them and would be sickened if they had to do
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|
the killing themselves. Instead of eating raw meat as all flesh-eating animals
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|
do, humans boil, bake or fry it and disguise it with all kinds of sauces and
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|
spices so that it bears no resemblance to its raw state. [16]
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FOOD FIX
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|
Man's foodstuffs are designed with addiction in mind. His inability to
|
|
function intelligently can be seen in the infantile, insurmountable addiction
|
|
to edibles. Rather than change faulty, life-threatening eating habits by
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|
avoiding the offending substance, man, purveyor to his own despair, spends
|
|
enormous time and energy promoting synthetic imitations of the coveted
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|
contraband.
|
|
Consider the sad addict who eats organic, overpriced sesame chips because
|
|
he was never able to conquer his craving for greasy potato chips, or the poor
|
|
fool whose disgusting love of bacon leads him to eat laughably tasteless,
|
|
chemically dangerous parodies of the execrable strips of slain pork fat. Having
|
|
never been able to remove the addiction, man is prone to absurd and foolhardy
|
|
surrogates of the cherished object of addiction.
|
|
Likewise, food staples are often not what they appear to be.
|
|
Carbohydrates, touted as the givers of energy, are addictive in quality and
|
|
inflame man's neurotic gluttony.
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|
BEHAVIOR MOD BREAKFAST
|
|
Breakfast cereal is a big source of poisoning and subliminal programming.
|
|
An ominous, relatively new addition into mass-market cereals is the raisin.
|
|
A disgusting, pustular piece of mock-meat stuck into the unnatural purity
|
|
of sterilized, processed grain, the raisin sticks out like a sore thumb. Can it
|
|
be just a whim of manufacturers to insert a piece of revolting fruit to make
|
|
the cereal appear more healthy, more organic? Unlikely.
|
|
The reason for the raisin's epidemic appearance in cereal is to get the
|
|
population used to eating flesh-like items, for the days shortly after nuclear
|
|
Armageddon when the masses must eat others' flesh to live.
|
|
Part of the elite's master plan of population reduction and societal
|
|
reorganization is for brother to eat brother and man to eat child. The
|
|
power-mongers know that man is not by nature a carnivore, but he has been
|
|
trained since birth to think as a beast, to believe he is king of the beasts.
|
|
Any sober observer of the feasting beast will tell you man is king of nothing.
|
|
The one feature man ignores is the one feature, in fact the only feature
|
|
which separates him from the animals, a gift of sorts from the accident of
|
|
evolution: the power to negate, to doubt and refuse, to negate a premise, to
|
|
negate his existence. Given this gift, he abandons it, preferring to be just
|
|
another dumb swine.
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9
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|
self-loathing
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|
|
|
"That's it! We're all the same schmuck!"
|
|
-Lenny Bruce
|
|
|
|
Man loathes himself. He is so phobic about his body, he demands it be
|
|
covered. Whether from a natural revulsion of the offending carriage, or fear
|
|
that he is so unstable that the sight of his own flesh will make him fuck or
|
|
kill everything in sight, man asserts thusly his grave defect to the universe.
|
|
The loathing of self is a natural, if uncomfortable, state of being where
|
|
one takes the horror of existence, the anger at being aware that one exists,
|
|
and turns it self-ward, upon the victim of the crime.
|
|
It is very difficult to focus one's anger on the real culprits of one's
|
|
pain: the parents, the society before them that brainwashed parents into
|
|
thinking that birth was a gift not a curse, one's mythical gods, or even
|
|
nature.
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|
|
|
PROJECTION
|
|
Since the experience of having taken one's rage at the world and turning it
|
|
upon one's self is basically unpleasant, the average person, after emotional
|
|
assimilation, projects his self-loathing onto his peers and acquaintances, (not
|
|
the cause of his problem, but the nearest objects for scorn), and thus becomes
|
|
the generic, garden-variety misanthrope which comprises 99% of civilization.
|
|
The religious or addictive personality turns his self-loathing onto the
|
|
ontological self, either flagellating himself with guilt and self-punishment,
|
|
or destroying his psyche slowly through the curse of addictive mythical
|
|
delusion (i.e. new-age philosophies, organized religion, etc).
|
|
Self-destructive behavior is by nature self-loathing acted out, but man
|
|
misreads it as reinforcement of early parental dictates that one was unworthy
|
|
of love. Self-loathing is a chronic punishment of self for remaining in life,
|
|
when at heart one knows that death is the better place.
|
|
The enlightened one throws his entire burden of self-loathing onto its
|
|
rightful heirs; its creators, be they his gods and cosmos, the retarded
|
|
machinations of nature, or his actual tormentors, parents and society.
|
|
Realizing that he is the innocent victim of a cosmic mistake, the
|
|
enlightened sees that his every action is by definition blameless. He despises
|
|
not himself or others, but the whole process in general which leads to this
|
|
hideous state of hypnosis, and seeks its erasure first in self-knowledge, and
|
|
then in self-eradication.
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|
|
|
MATURITY
|
|
Man deems it a sign of great maturity to move beyond the anger of being
|
|
born by forgiving one's parents and embracing with gusto and thanks the putrid
|
|
gift one was bequeathed. This notion is not only psychologically unsound, it is
|
|
spiritually deadly. To repress and abandon one's primal life issue is to assure
|
|
self-hatred and intellectual stillbirth, leading to soul-death and mass-think.
|
|
All that transpires from the forced espousing of life is self-loathing ad
|
|
nauseam and suffering eternal.
|
|
Psychologists tell us that maturation consists not of resisting, but of
|
|
understanding, molding and oftimes accepting one's natural (negative)
|
|
inclinations. As man progresses through his sordid and hopeless life, he learns
|
|
ways of adapting to and coping with increasing numbers of difficult situations.
|
|
Given enough time, certain men might come up with systems for any
|
|
contingency, but what's the point? Either his or others self-loathing will
|
|
sabotage and mangle all that his "better" self has struggled to wrought.
|
|
There will always be the sudden act of violence, the parasitic human
|
|
bacteria one is ill-prepared for, the conspiratorial eventuality one never
|
|
dreamt of. Assuredly, these negative events will overwhelm the soul afflicted.
|
|
Man's self-loathing, actually the very simple confession of a mistake,
|
|
could be so easily vaporized by recognition of the simplest truth. Death
|
|
remains, through all the struggle and futile psychic maneuvers, the unwavering
|
|
punch line to the ever-recurring joke called life.
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|
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|
10
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|
society
|
|
|
|
"It seems as if there were no progress in the human race, only repetition. We
|
|
can almost hear then, if we listen, singing the same old song..."
|
|
-Virginia Woolf
|
|
|
|
Were one to describe phenomena through the foggy lens of superstition, one
|
|
would have to say that life is the invocation of demons. Since rising above
|
|
superstition is the highest goal of intellect, one must revise that thought and
|
|
state that life is merely a mistake befallen man.
|
|
Man, despising himself, bands into groups of men, calls it society, and
|
|
worships the notion of man that this group of fools suggests. Loathed and
|
|
forgotten even in the self, the individual does not exist. His voice counts for
|
|
nothing, and society, only a sinister conspiracy of individuals, is a
|
|
tyrannical, dangerous illusion.
|
|
While many have noted that society persecutes and ostracizes the
|
|
individual, few have gleaned the true reason. Society, that is, other people,
|
|
hate the individual, the pure incidence of specific "man," simply because he
|
|
exists.
|
|
All know at root that existence is a crime and a folly, and all secretly
|
|
seek to end it. Society, therefore, punishes the individual for existing, for
|
|
having the cowardice and audacity to exist. Other men punish a man by
|
|
terrorizing and tyrannizing him, mocking and hounding his every move.
|
|
|
|
PREJUDICE
|
|
Prejudice is man's crown. No matter what one says or does concerning a
|
|
person or group of people, it is all for naught if the subjects(s) in question
|
|
simply do not like them.
|
|
Though man pretends to be compassionate and democratic, bestowing all with
|
|
equal rights, everyone knows of situations where they were rejected by the
|
|
group solely on personal grounds. This occurs from the gutter to the highest
|
|
floors of science, academia and politics. If you are not liked, you are
|
|
excluded or destroyed.
|
|
There is nothing mental, material or spiritual which an individual
|
|
possesses that society does not devalue, destroy or steal. The congregation of
|
|
men, being a congregation of cowards and fools, must of necessity be a toxic
|
|
union, a danger to all souls. Woe to the soul who is imprisoned by men he
|
|
thought his friends! Woe to us all!
|
|
|
|
RESOURCES
|
|
To see the folly of man's evolution into this mass of writhing worms, to
|
|
see that it is essentially a bad idea, one need merely look at how incompatible
|
|
his existence has been with the health and growth of the planet onto which he
|
|
clings.
|
|
Extremely clever at extracting the available resources of the planet, he
|
|
has been less adroit at abstaining from eradication of these finite assets, and
|
|
of limiting his own growth to maintain that delicate balance between nature's
|
|
need and his own.
|
|
The planet is dying. The only reason is man's existence. Greed, gluttony
|
|
and indifference have poisoned every inch of the globe, and many precious
|
|
necessities of life are now terminally threatened.
|
|
Soon, the very oxygen and water needed to sustain life at even the most
|
|
minimal level will become contaminated to the point of uselessness, and then
|
|
the parasite may see his own machinations end his life, a suicide of sorts, but
|
|
one for which he can take no credit.
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|
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|
11
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|
technology
|
|
|
|
"The glut of information was dulling awareness, not aiding it."
|
|
-Jerry Mander
|
|
|
|
Man's insidious obsession on technology and progress in every field of
|
|
endeavor has only one goal in mind, again revealing his misanthropic nature.
|
|
Each new development diminishes his dependency on other men.
|
|
Man, despising men, despises his dependence on them. The further he can get
|
|
from other men by technological advance, the better he feels.
|
|
Most advances in science and industry have the conscious aim of easing
|
|
man's physical and cerebral burden. The subconscious desire is to make others
|
|
obsolete.
|
|
Man is not happy unless he has made life harder for the next man. His ideal
|
|
goal is to disempower all others, and make himself self-sufficient and
|
|
omnipotent. Each man has this dream. Only the most clever few achieve anything
|
|
close to it.
|
|
The law of the jungle is supremely evident in the elitist nature of power
|
|
distributed by those who own, create and develop technology, and those who must
|
|
defer to it, purchase it, or seek new means of survival because of it.
|
|
Man looks proudly at himself, his tedious evolution, his minuscule
|
|
advances, his pathetic discoveries, and asks us to marvel at his progress, his
|
|
ability to extend the suffering of life and simplify man's task to the point of
|
|
stultifying ennui.
|
|
What these foul ghouls can't accept is that all man's delusory progress
|
|
achieved is for naught as long as man himself remains a feckless, irresponsible
|
|
beast.
|
|
As long as one man amongst men is unsafe from his brother's deranged hands,
|
|
life is a bad idea. Since man will always be a primal threat to himself, life
|
|
remains a folly until it is no more.
|
|
|
|
COMPUTERS
|
|
Contrary to the big lie, technology removes jobs. Computers, for instance,
|
|
have created a world of men physically isolated from one another. Software
|
|
technology, employing the very fortunate few, has sent millions of
|
|
tradespersons, from typists to mathematicians, graphic artists to accountants,
|
|
scrambling for fewer, more specialized jobs.
|
|
|
|
CONSUMER RADIATION
|
|
There is a microcosmic amount of radiation purposefully placed into many
|
|
health and beauty products such as deodorant, to increase tolerance for
|
|
radiation, as the nuclear reactors around the globe burst and decay and feed
|
|
man deadly daily doses of atomic death. This is also good preparation for the
|
|
coming holocaust.
|
|
Learning to live with radiation is also the goal of the patently dangerous
|
|
microwave oven, now a staple in the middle-class home. It seems duly curious
|
|
that a mere decade after microwave technology was declared by numerous
|
|
thinktanks to be too toxic for the mass market, the planet was flooded with the
|
|
boxes of death. Soon, all will own one.
|
|
Did they make the microwave safer? Certainly not. They just made them more
|
|
palatable to forgetful mass man. Even today, should one mention toxic radiation
|
|
to a microwave owner, he will laugh in your face even as his skin twitches from
|
|
a secret atomic scourge.
|
|
|
|
ELECTRICITY
|
|
Electricity, the invisible force all around us, is one of the great secret
|
|
contributors to man's post-modern anxiety and lethargy. It is all the more
|
|
insidious as it is invisible and all-pervasive.
|
|
One look will show how hopelessly addicted man is to it, his primary means
|
|
of propping up his pathetic cardboard culture. Man's addiction to electricity
|
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is not merely to the products of its service, but also an actual addiction to
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the seductive electro-magnetic force of alternating current.
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Man sits mesmerized in his easy chair, vaguely aware of a buzzing in his
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veins, a ringing in his ears, a sense of being gently invaded. This is not
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fancy, but a subliminal sensing of the bombardment of the body by radio and
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electrical impulses that prowl every inch of man's tainted habitat.
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12
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culture
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"The happiest man was the one who came nearest to killing the obvious human
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desires, hopes and aspirations; the soaring, starving poet."
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-H.L. Mencken
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Culture, that cloudy mirror of man's self-delusion, is as sickly as he is.
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Science and business offer nothing but reinforcement of man's basic defects,
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magnified ingloriously.
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That malignant label for man's communal distractions, "pop culture," is
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little more than an expression of man's inexhaustible infantility.
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Note man's fixation on the music, icons and fashion of his youth. Supposed
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"adults" strut about in sneakers and baseball caps, whistling songs from their
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teenhood, looking like third-world street urchins or expressionist autisms.
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Their laughable image suggests they are pickled in eternal adolescence, a
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situation ripe for exploitation by the elite.
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Different avenues of culture offer a variety of dead ends, some of which
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afford a modicum of interest. All show the great zest with which man tries
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vainly to distract himself from his enigmatic place in his world, and his
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inability to sit still long enough to intelligently ponder his fate.
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Art is the closest one can get to death without dying. In great art, one
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can sense the life process unfolding to its logical conclusion, see the artist
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evolve into a spiritual being.
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Art is a powerful expression of the ambiguity of the life experience, the
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grappling of the inner mind with the incompatibility of life and death, and
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though it is a cheat because it is not death, great art opens the door of the
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mind to the efficiency of death that is more powerful than any intellectual or
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dogmatic caper.
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Art then functions like a kind of universal awareness practice, not unlike the
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mindfulness of southern Buddhism or the 'Attention!' of Zen. [7]
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ALIENS
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All of the recent crap about fools recalling abductions by curious
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somnambulist aliens is one of many signs of man's imminent crack-up. These and
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other delusions are the expected psychotic reactions resulting from man's
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suppression of the disturbing truth that he is insane, and his world is dying.
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NEAR-DEATH
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The same is true of the epidemic of "near-death" experiences, fortunate
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survivors telling of white lights and tunnels of love. These phenomena have
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been traced to universally experienced chemical processes in the brain, and
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have no more supernatural import than the average case of indigestion.
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Again, the deranged and terrified individual seeks to adopt some
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comforting, infantile worldview that will take the edge off the internal terror
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threatening to erupt at any moment. These anxiety-fueled delusions act as
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panacea for those who cannot bear the pain of their folly and their doom
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without the trappings of myth and fantasy.
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TELEVISION
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Television is an insidious, highly-addictive brainwashing device. It
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destroys one's thoughts. Man indiscriminately, passively absorbs ludicrous
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amounts of informational imagery, then arrogantly claims that negative
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propaganda has no effect on him, that he can pick and choose what is being fed
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into his mind. This is like claiming that one can devour a feast of foodstuffs
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and not digest that which is bad for him.
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The planet disintegrates daily, yet man focuses all his energy on his
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immediate ego-needs. He is blind to the realities of life like overpopulation,
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crime, disease, pollution, economic collapse, environmental disaster, and his
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own foul stupidity.
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MUSIC
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Popular music is designed to be a surrogate thought process, constantly
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droning in one's head even after the recording stops, seducing man with
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deceptively banal messages, all life-affirming and group-oriented.
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In a neurotic attempt to fill the unbearable void of silence, man clings to
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music and other media until it becomes impossible to think one's own thoughts.
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Most don't miss them.
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RADIO
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Rock music stations have one goal in mind: the degeneration of brain cells,
|
|
to facilitate mass-think in zombie men. Rock stations solicit and conquer
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already low-mentality, dysfunctional flotsam, primarily teens and mental
|
|
defectives, and further degenerate their feeble brains with an assault of
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earsplitting dissonance and sophisticated subliminal messagry.
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The basic aim is to create a non-thinking, reactionary individual, who
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merely responds to the stimuli of his life and culture, rather than taking
|
|
control of it and thinking for himself. These brain-dead goons make
|
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hard-fucking, hard-working citizens, and in conglomerate they make mean armies
|
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too. Thus the preponderance of rock and roll "fans" in the military, and in the
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construction industries.
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13
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murder
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"The universe is an intelligence test."
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-Timothy Leary
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|
Murder is an unnatural act, since it is a deflection of one's true goal,
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|
self-annihilation. It is an extremely understandable act, however, inasmuch as
|
|
it flexes a powerful innate desire to extinguish life.
|
|
As one is unable to see the wisdom, nay necessity, in extinguishing life,
|
|
the moreso he desires to extinguish others, not out of mercy, but an empathic
|
|
projection of one's own loathing.
|
|
The escalation of murder for no reason at all shows that man's eternally
|
|
suppressed self-loathing is reaching a peak, ready to burst in a blood bath of
|
|
long-overdue genocide. That this death is called for and timely is
|
|
unquestioned. That it need be perpetrated on others rather than initiated
|
|
voluntarily by the self is unfortunate.
|
|
Man's obsessive monologue about murder, demanding death penalties for
|
|
criminals and shallow tears over the "untimely" death of innocent children,
|
|
reveals a neurotic expression of one's personal death wish. The sympathy or
|
|
anger expressed at murder or unsolicited death badly masks envy, a wish to take
|
|
the dead one's place.
|
|
If life had been essentially a good idea, needing only time and love to
|
|
perfect it, one might look to the history of the world to see signs of moral
|
|
evolution, trends suggesting a decrease in man's insatiable interest in
|
|
annihilation. Such is not the case.
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|
WAR
|
|
War continues unabated, aided now by bestial technological advances manned
|
|
by drooling idiots who massacre thousands with a grisly stroke of the
|
|
scientific wand and blithely salver, "It saved many lives..."
|
|
War is a curious murder, as it is motivated, at least officially, from
|
|
without, and has as its targets, primarily anonymous others. As with the thrill
|
|
kill, the victim of war suffers because he has caught the momentary gleam of
|
|
hate in the killer's eye.
|
|
Unlike the thrill kill victim, war casualties usually share not even a
|
|
modicum of parallel with their killers. War, as all killing, is self-loathing
|
|
projected, a partially cruel act of self-punishment, giving the other what one
|
|
wants most himself, that is, death.
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|
|
|
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE
|
|
Domestic squabbles fueled by alcohol and mental defect continually turn
|
|
into death sentences for one or both parties. And the relatively recent ascent
|
|
of the thrill murder, man torturing and slaying an often smaller and weaker
|
|
specimen than himself just for fame, kicks or sexual release, suggests a
|
|
species gone sicker by the minute, begging his illusory "gods" to intervene and
|
|
exterminate.
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|
|
|
MERCY KILLING
|
|
Mercy killing is an entirely different matter, a rare act of great courage
|
|
and hopefully, with all of the belated focus on euthanasia, an increasing
|
|
trend. Ideally, parents en masse will soon realize their grievous error and put
|
|
an end to the life of their misbegotten, bestowing the great gift of nonentity
|
|
on them and recovering a tiny fraction of the psychic damage rent on their
|
|
tortured little souls.
|
|
But one should not weep long over the cause of one's departure from this
|
|
fey barnacle. Murder, suicide or natural cause all have the same releasing
|
|
effect. Death is death, pure, and very simple. It is the blissful,
|
|
eternally-awaited release of the spotless spirit from the stinking, deformed
|
|
entrapment of matter.
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|
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14
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|
intelligence
|
|
|
|
"His mind was contaminated with nothingness."
|
|
-Gil Brewer
|
|
|
|
What passes for intelligence on this psychotic plane is merely an exercise
|
|
in cerebral auto-eroticism, insular arguments of a faulty brain rationalizing
|
|
the existence of its defective owner.
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|
|
|
THOUGHT CRIME
|
|
Those who are cursed enough to be ahead of their time are mocked, ignored
|
|
and reviled if lucky. If not, they are harassed, persecuted, exterminated.
|
|
Man's consensus of collective denial must be upheld at all costs; thus all
|
|
seers or visionaries who dare speak the truth must be slaughtered to preserve
|
|
the fragile insanity of the whole.
|
|
Enlightened beings have always had a rough time of it amongst men of
|
|
ignorance, but this conflict reveals not one but two truths. That great minds
|
|
are summarily dismissed by the mass of pigs with a flippant, "Wow, what a
|
|
cunt!" reveals not merely the lack of intelligence in the speaker, but the
|
|
inherent defect in man's cherished process called "thinking".
|
|
Since man can never successfully separate logical thinking from subjective,
|
|
self-interested thinking, cannot honestly delineate where his own knowledge
|
|
ends and opinion, assumption or wish proceeds, there is no way in which man can
|
|
draw a rational conclusion to anything. Man's thinking is always poisoned by
|
|
his fears, hopes and dreams.
|
|
|
|
FAULTY
|
|
Man's insular arguments to the contrary, it is disheartening to see how two
|
|
brains, given exactly the same problem to solve, will invariably come up with
|
|
entirely different, in fact antithetical, conclusions. While cute as a parlor
|
|
game on a slow night, it does certainly suggest a grave defect in the
|
|
apparatus.
|
|
This disparity has nothing whatever to do with always-cherished "original"
|
|
thought. Creative thoughts emanating from a fertile mind will have no parallel.
|
|
Given a problem to solve, however, man should be able to achieve a similar
|
|
conclusion as his fellows. As he does not, we doubt the machine.
|
|
|
|
THOUGHT CONTROL
|
|
Seers know at heart that the mass of men is in conspiracy against the
|
|
thought processes of the individual, flawed as it is:
|
|
|
|
It is certainly possible that the future of human thought is this: that it will
|
|
be swamped under a flood of human silliness.... It is possible for clever
|
|
cynical men to control (the many) by supplying them with drugs, by keeping them
|
|
from reading good books or thinking original thoughts, changing them ultimately
|
|
into idiots by giving them a good time. [10]
|
|
|
|
This "conspiracy" has always existed against original thought, especially
|
|
applicable to the taboo of suicide:
|
|
|
|
The aim of those who try to control thought is always the same. They find one
|
|
single explanation of the world, one system of thought and action that will
|
|
(they believe) cover everything; and then they try to impose that on all
|
|
thinking people. [10]
|
|
|
|
This can be tested simply. If one does not have the right to exterminate
|
|
one's self at any given moment for any given reason, he lives in a thought
|
|
control prison and must rebel.
|
|
|
|
MASS THINK
|
|
Man, suspicious of his mental capacity, is terminally defensive about his
|
|
opinions. Knowing he's probably wrong on any count, he desperately seeks to
|
|
align his opinion with that of the masses. It's as if he's been told somewhere
|
|
that his opinions must conform to mass opinion, and is thusly ill-prepared when
|
|
called upon to think for himself. Thinking for one's self is, at root, a
|
|
subversive act.
|
|
|
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|
|
15
|
|
economy
|
|
|
|
"Capitalism is founded on greed and envy."
|
|
-Charles Long
|
|
|
|
The powerful elite who run the world are full of self-loathing for being
|
|
too cowardly to die. They turn that loathing onto those weaker than they,
|
|
namely the masses, and achieve endless delight devising ways to manipulate and
|
|
torture the poor fools below who don't get the joke.
|
|
|
|
MEDIA
|
|
Notice firstly how all media, though violent and nihilistic, is essentially
|
|
life-affirming and non-conspiratorial, rarely giving even the faintest clue as
|
|
to the error of existence, the emancipating power of individual or collective
|
|
suicide, and the wholesale exploitation of the sorry hordes by a ruthless
|
|
elite.
|
|
The media focus energy on consumption, comedy, sports, melodrama and all
|
|
the other effluvia of man's little life, as if it meant anything, even to its
|
|
owner. The "big" events, if covered at all, are mentioned with ever-ascending
|
|
ambiguity. One never hears the truth of any given situation.
|
|
The economy of a free-market society exists for one reason: to enslave the
|
|
mass of men and keep them groveling for peanuts to paste over their heads on
|
|
rainy nights. What poor sap has not succumbed in at least one dark moment of
|
|
his life, to the absurd fascist notion, "I gotta work if I wanna eat!"
|
|
|
|
SLAVERY
|
|
The vast majority of humans work for shit, and those with great power don't
|
|
work at all. They just take.
|
|
Who has not heard of some poor lunkhead who, having suffered divorce or
|
|
other economic setback, solemnly shuffles off to two or three jobs a day just
|
|
to keep the bills and alimony coming, because he sees himself as "a good man?"
|
|
That man probably gets drunk at night in front of the TV and goes to church
|
|
on Sunday to reaffirm this inner tyranny, yet still somehow views his life as
|
|
essentially "good."
|
|
How the evil brainwashers of man must laugh down from their ivory towers on
|
|
this fool's wormlike stupidity, seeing the magnificent trick they've pulled on
|
|
the poor orphan. Someone should kill that man and give him the peace and glory
|
|
he deserves!
|
|
|
|
ECONOMIC GUINEA PIGS
|
|
The economy is manipulated by the evil ones to maintain a state of
|
|
unbalanced stupor amongst the hoi polloi, sometimes withdrawing a commodity
|
|
like coffee or gasoline just for the fun of seeing all the worms cry and
|
|
wriggle in withdrawal.
|
|
Economic engineers achieve the same result (shock testing) in studying the
|
|
behavior of the economy and the consumer public by carefully selecting a staple
|
|
commodity such as beef, coffee, gasoline or sugar, and then causing a sudden
|
|
change or shock in its price or availability, thus kicking everybody's budget
|
|
and buying habits out of shape. Then they observe the shock waves which result
|
|
by monitoring the changes in advertising, prices and sales of that and other
|
|
commodities.
|
|
And, one might add, a change in occurrence of murder, violence, depression
|
|
and alcoholism. Man is so dependent on his fellows in such pivotal, pathetic
|
|
ways, it is sobering to think how easily the elite could pull the string and
|
|
watch the vermin eat each other alive. Birds in a cage die without seed.
|
|
|
|
|
|
16
|
|
addiction
|
|
|
|
"What do you mourn with your tears?"
|
|
-Marj
|
|
|
|
Addiction is an easy and popular delusional "escape" from life's ills,
|
|
based on the false assumption that a pleasurable stimulus can be obtained
|
|
without its depressive and debilitating antithesis.
|
|
The dependent fixation on drugs, alcohol, food, sex, material possession,
|
|
or dogma is a trap every being alive has fallen into countless times.
|
|
Immeasurable suffering emanates from the attainment of one's supposed desires.
|
|
The lesson one learns from addiction is that one cannot escape life except
|
|
through death. The difficulty in attempting to escape life while alive is so
|
|
great that none but the strongest few can control intake of the addictive
|
|
substance, and the vast majority of addicts constantly fear the specter of
|
|
overdose.
|
|
The logical conclusion of an overdose being, of course, the long-sought
|
|
death experience itself, it is obvious that all addicts, like all essentially
|
|
healthy beings, seek death, but due to personal cowardice and societal
|
|
brainwashing believe what they really need is a "pain-free" life.
|
|
What becomes addiction often begins as something quite humble, evolving
|
|
into a neurotic reaction to basic needs. Addiction disguises a hunger that can
|
|
ultimately only be quenched with primal things.
|
|
|
|
COFFEE
|
|
Man seems to have a fiendish knack for extracting and obsessing on just
|
|
those natural substances which cause him the greatest psychic harm. Coffee, for
|
|
instance, creates physiological schizophrenia. Acting as a stimulant, it
|
|
overworks the brain; as a diuretic, it depletes the body of nutrients and
|
|
energy.
|
|
Coffee raises the mind up and debilitates the body simultaneously, a feat
|
|
also performed efficiently by alcohol. Of course the end result of indulgence
|
|
in either substance is total disintegration of all functions.
|
|
|
|
ALCOHOL
|
|
Alcoholism is often a toxic reaction to mere thirst, mutated over the years
|
|
by society's enforcing of strange, toxic beverages to the individual who, as a
|
|
biological being, needs and craves only water. By the time the average moron is
|
|
full-grown, his thirst has been so twisted that he sees it as a
|
|
sensuous/aesthetic appetite, not a biological one.
|
|
This conditioning by society, along with the individual's obvious
|
|
predilection to self-destruction, explains the apparently retarded behavior of
|
|
many who will, even on the hottest day of the year, spend their last dollar on
|
|
a beer and ignore a free water-fountain nearby.
|
|
One must constantly remind one's self what it really is that is needed, as
|
|
one toys with the idea of adapting harmful behavior. As most have painfully
|
|
learned, addiction often starts as a choice and ends up as a necessity,
|
|
dragging pain, fear and decay along with it.
|
|
|
|
CONSPIRACY
|
|
The conspiratorial nature of an addiction-oriented culture is transparently
|
|
evident by the amount of wealth and energy spent on reinforcing the addictive
|
|
life-style. Compare the energy spent and revenue garnered from mass alcohol
|
|
consumption with the minuscule pittance spent on education and rehabilitation
|
|
of same addicts.
|
|
Rehabilitation programs are few and far between, hideously understaffed and
|
|
under-funded, located in ghetto hovels or dangerous, inaccessible medical
|
|
labyrinths. This disparity is not an accident, or the reflex of an economic
|
|
principle.
|
|
Man wants his fellows addicted, to not think clearly, and certainly not to
|
|
rebel against their macabre existence. So addiction is made painfully easy.
|
|
The obstacles to rehabilitation act as a deterrent, shaming or befuddling
|
|
the potential rescue to remain in the numbing netherworld of "managed"
|
|
addiction, ideally neither succumbing to overdose, nor struggling hard enough
|
|
to seek release from the infernal disease.
|
|
|
|
|
|
17
|
|
sex
|
|
|
|
"Sex is unclean, not because of the pleasure, but because of the suffering it
|
|
brings..."
|
|
-Theodore Roeszak
|
|
|
|
Sex is a vile, disgusting act, all the moreso as it is so addictive. All
|
|
sexual acts derive from a toxic urge to beget other beings, to summon innocent
|
|
creatures to the fever of birth. The act of sex is the invocation of a demon,
|
|
the demon that imprisons souls on the nightmare physical plane.
|
|
Man, living in a state of high hypnosis from virtually the moment of birth,
|
|
seeks sex above all else as he approaches puberty. To the average miscreant,
|
|
sex is the alpha-omega of existence. To him, it means ego, love, companionship,
|
|
power, acceptance, conformity, holiness, all form of psychological nonsense.
|
|
Sex is the prime hallucination which taunts man. Man fucks woman, and
|
|
immediately is rendered insane by fear of other men fucking her. Because his
|
|
pact with her is tentative, he fears the loss of power that the loss of access
|
|
to her fuckhole would invoke.
|
|
There is no more miserable man on earth than one who cannot have sex,
|
|
though he should be the happiest man alive. That is how completely twisted the
|
|
universe has made the insane derelict "man".
|
|
|
|
GAY/LESBIAN
|
|
It matters not if the sex act be straight or gay, and no seed need be
|
|
germinated. The intent of sex is its crime. No amount of cum-sucking or
|
|
ass-fucking can disguise the spiritual import of the act, which is evil and
|
|
murderous.
|
|
Some whine that it makes sense, since procreation is a sin, to opt for
|
|
alternative sexual life-styles such as gay and lesbian. While procreation is
|
|
missed in most gay/lesbian sex acts, the gesture of begetting, even in a
|
|
sterile example, still invokes the demon of soul-killer to earth, and
|
|
strengthens his power.
|
|
Thus, the case against alternative sexual life-style is not based on
|
|
morality, and is an absurd hallucination. It is based on the metaphysical
|
|
principle that one invokes by gesture, and the physical product, even in
|
|
potential, is totally irrelevant to the spiritual intent:
|
|
|
|
It is not because it is pleasurable that sex is a sin, it is because it makes
|
|
the babies. More souls for hell.... feeding the devil. [19]
|
|
|
|
OMNIPRESENT
|
|
Unfortunately, sex is a universal tool of attraction and also the object of
|
|
that attraction, the force behind all gender-based action. The amount of energy
|
|
spent obsessing on the sexual is pathetic and disheartening, energy that should
|
|
be spent on assuring one's imminent demise.
|
|
Indeed, a false sense of security prevails in contemporary society, so
|
|
deep is the conspiracy to keep man ignorant of his curse and cure. Man seems
|
|
intent on pretending to the very end, and the dying beast continues to pump out
|
|
little monsters at an alarming rate, even as individual and societal psyches
|
|
collapse into dust.
|
|
Even the weakest couples are aware of the dire chances for familial
|
|
survival. With an 80% divorce rate, it seems that no-one really expects their
|
|
tawdry little bond to flourish, yet it stops no-one from trying.
|
|
At times, a macabre fascination with destruction seems to actually fuel the
|
|
sex drive, and as man is innately destructive, sex will remain one of man's
|
|
cardinal infirmities.
|
|
|
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|
|
18
|
|
hell
|
|
|
|
"For this world which thou dost inhabit is itself the realm of darkness and
|
|
this very flesh is thy perdition."
|
|
-Ecclesiastes
|
|
|
|
Is life truly hell, or merely purgatory? Certainly no-one with half a
|
|
brain, or a heart, could see this pathetic zoo of despair as anything even
|
|
remotely positive, but many argue whether this experience of life is in fact,
|
|
the worst of all possible worlds, the actual, temporal hell, or merely an
|
|
anticipation of the sentence that may await the ever-so-unfortunate cosmic
|
|
traveler.
|
|
If this life is purgatory, then it is merely the potential of hell, showing
|
|
the sniveling coward all of the terrors that could befall him, and giving each
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just enough terror so that they remain in a perpetual state of panic and
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submission.
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But is not the constant, mad dread of calamity, in fact, the calamity
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itself? Is not the potential of hell indeed hell? Is drowning, or the constant
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fear of drowning, the more soul-deadening experience? Isn't the fear of pain
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equal to the pain?
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Purveyors of myth try to convince man that life is not hell, merely a
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metaphor, a purgatory, a karmic training ground for possible future
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destinations. This is a dangerous and absurd lie. There can be no worse
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situation than the one man finds himself in.
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Life is hell, because every birth is an accident, an unconscious act of the
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borne. Not one soul breathing desired to be here, and a choice made by others
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is assuredly a prison.
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CHILDHOOD HELL
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Aside from the family by definition being the murderer of its charges, one
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can easily recall a personal experience of one's self or a close acquaintance
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where the family unit, far from providing a safe harbor for the individual to
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grow and prosper, was a living hell of mental, emotional and often physical
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torment, the youth's loved ones the source of interminable grief and pain.
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Many a child was raped and beaten by their guardians, and virtually all the
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remaining waifs suffered extreme trauma and panic as a result of internal
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discord between two (or more) dysfunctional apes, or the more direct assault of
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hatred, mental anguish, emotional neglect and abuse.
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The world holds a taboo against obsessing on how terrible one's childhood
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was, preaching instead to forgive one's villains and focus on the present. But
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the world is a pig, a lunatic brute blind with fear and rage at its karmic
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capture, and must be aggressively ignored if one is to ever see the light.
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Stories of drunken-brute fathers and spineless-whore mothers, or
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psychotic-murderous mothers and distant-abandoning fathers are legion, and a
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strong yet sometimes unfocused anger towards one's parents is the rule.
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Certainly, the real reason for the anger is the smoldering hatred one by
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nature must have for the venomous buffoons who gave one life. Too often,
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unfortunately, it comes out in diluted ways, and even years of therapy rarely
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brings one to the revelation of the truth.
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THE ONE TABOO
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It is a crime and conspiracy against your fellow man to actively, vocally
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wish one's self never born. In fact, it may be the one taboo left in this age
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of "everything goes."
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Even the fool who actively decries people and says life is a joke
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immediately adds that he has some interests or projects that keep him going.
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To acknowledge that you aggressively hate life is seen as a sign of
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weakness or mental illness, so thorough is the brainwashing of your ancestors,
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so tight the lid of secrecy on the one truly enlightening fact of the whole
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universe: "Life is hell; you have nothing to fear from death; so go!"
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BULLIES
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One finds many goons who bray that they love life. These men are fools, so
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deluded they know not what they say. Or they are bullies, the ones whose
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self-despair is so great that they successfully cause harm and grief to weaker
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mortals, and get their pleasure and relief off those who suffer profound karmic
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torment.
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We are all bullies in degree. Those who would not or could not harass
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another human being would gladly strangle a kitten if they got a chance. It is
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a natural reaction to suppressing one's primal rage at life, to wish imminent
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harm on anyone weaker than yourself.
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suicide
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"Ah, that death would annihilate it, it would be infinitely preferable to the
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world as it is. Ah, but there lies the rub!"
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-Shakespeare
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Suicide is the only unique and positive act an intelligent individual can
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make in this mockery of an existence. It is the only sane answer to the cosmic
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mess man finds himself in.
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The only answer to all man's problems, individually and collectively, is to
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achieve his utter demise. That one has not killed one's self yet is a sign that
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he is a coward, a dullard, a failed human being, unless possibly he takes his
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life tomorrow. Thus, everyone currently on the planet, including author and
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reader, is a total and abject failure.
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The ideal state of affairs at some point in the near future, when the
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enlightened see finally the futility, horror and greed of existence and the
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approach of intolerable social and economic conditions on this raped planet,
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would be for people to band together under the banner of "the emancipated," and
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to collectively take each other into the state of bliss so long awaited, so
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foolishly denied.
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The individual feels fear, doubt and confusion regarding his own demise.
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Surrounded by friends of like mind, joining hands, strengthened by the resolve
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of the group, they could all lose their fear and perform one final, beautiful
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act, perhaps shining a light of sanity on the terminally dull, who may
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eventually get it after all.
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THE SECRET OF LIFE
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The secret of life is to deny it, not by the mental or spiritual tricks
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that gutless philosophers and unfocused mystics constantly invent, but to
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physically and defiantly end the cursed, worthless thing.
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Certain enlightened ancients perceived suicide as an intelligent and
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enlightened spiritual gesture, and as life on this planet becomes more absurd,
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painful and dangerous, one would hope that masses of semi-intelligent might
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have the same idea at the same time.
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FEAR AND DOUBT
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Why not end it this minute, the reader asks? He already knows the answers:
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fear and doubt. The ending of anything takes courage and intelligence, and the
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crossing of any bridge requires a certain elusive bravado.
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Most men have none of these qualities, and for many it takes a lifetime to
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summon up the courage to shuffle through another pathetic day. Very few have
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the clarity to see that the only way out of life is death, and there is no
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palpable reason to wait for fate to pull the string.
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Doubt about our "purpose," (an absurd notion,) or our "eventuality," (a
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worthless consideration,) poison almost every mind against its only pure goal:
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his own destruction. No man alive has not at some point realized he would be
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better off dead; and the tiniest fraction of them then had the nerve and
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character to follow this train of thought to its transcendent conclusion.
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No-one is immune to fear and doubt; thus, the earth is hell merely by the
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fact that not one soul living on it desired to be born, or desires, at heart,
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to be alive. What possible solidarity could exist amongst such a motley crew?
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DESTRUCTION
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Man is mystified by destruction, sensing subliminally its primordial
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appeal. We have learned a great deal about the how of things. The why, however,
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eludes us, and as long as this is the case, we will have a yearning for the
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marvelous, the explosive event in history.
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This is because man sees, usually at a repressed level, that there is no
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"why" to his existence. It is a mistake that he spends endless time and energy
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trying to rationalize.
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Thus, the morbid lure of destruction, the end of existence in object and
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animal, holds powerful charisma for him, as he projects his own, secretly
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desired demise onto the cataclysm. [7]
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Man wants to kill experience. He wants to kill himself. This book will never be
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heard, but perhaps the idea behind it will ascend into consciousness at some
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lucent moment in time.
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man's subliminal god
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"Man cannot, and will not, face reality."
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-George Gurdjeff
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Man's subliminal god is the invisible force that guides his actions and
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thoughts, unrevealed until the end of his sorry days. It functions perfectly
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beneath consciousness, rarely showing its face except in protracted venues and
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sterilized postures, primarily in the safe venting of harmless levels of
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dysfunction.
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Man's subliminal god is his darkest secret, the one truth shared by all his
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fellows, his greatest terror, his worst nightmare. Man's subliminal god is
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fear.
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Not merely fear of man, for that is articulated in war, addiction and
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hatred. Not merely fear of death, for that is exploited consciously in every
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stream of life. Man's deepest dread is of fear itself, the crippling awareness
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that he is powerless against all forces in the universe, including his destiny.
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FEAR INCURS MADNESS
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Fear is the inevitable psychological dysfunction that occurs to each man
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upon realizing that he is alive with no reason, and will die without warning.
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It is the germ of neurosis that ensures that his every move will be dictated by
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unfocused insanity.
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Fear robs men's souls of their freedom to hear the truth within. Fear is
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not a lofty metaphysical abstraction, nor is it a groveling peasant's
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boogeyman. It is a label for the negative force that inhabits and cripples the
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host.
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That it is a curse is arguable; that is it crippling, assured. Its
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ontological origin is of no import. One need not know the history of a virus to
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fight it.
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AWAKENING
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The mystic's and philosopher's cry for "resignation of will" is the babble
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men scream while erroneously clinging to life. When will man awaken and realize
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this hideous game with no rules and no winners must be, was designed to be,
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ended in one pure, conscious gesture of self-negation, being as it is the alpha
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and omega of existence, the one genuine concord twixt emotion and intellect,
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the most profound resignation, the most noble assertion of all?
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There are those who would argue that suicide is not a taboo at all; that it
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has been around, and utilized by many, since man began his giant fumble on
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earth. Suicide as a phenomenon has indeed been around since the dawn of
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suffering, but primarily as anomaly, an unfortunate stab against dire
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circumstance, a tardy means of escape from protracted illness, an emancipation
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for those under extreme political or sexual oppression, or as a resolution in
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various states of mental illness. Always, these reactions to unbearable
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|
circumstance were condemned as evil, tragic, unnecessary.
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Suicide needs to be finally seen as the metaphysical savior it really is; a
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healthy, valid option for any individual, of any age, at any stage of life,
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under any circumstances, and most importantly, for any reason at all, even the
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most impulsive. If suicide is not accepted as a sound "life-style choice" given
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any situation, it is still taboo, and must be challenged.
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In addition, suicide should be a concept positively presented to youth as
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early as possible, and potential suicides should be counseled and supported in
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their decision by society, the act assisted whenever possible.
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This will alleviate the messy, tragic and wholly unnecessary specter of
|
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failed attempts, which result in neither life nor death but a deformed revision
|
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of hell for the sorry escapee.
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Sadly, there are those who would shout at this argument, "But if suicide
|
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were available to everyone as an immediate, healthy way out of one's problems,
|
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then everyone would do it!" The obvious answer to this naive rant would be,
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"Hallelujah! That is the whole point! For everyone to die! For man's reign to
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cease!"
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At this point, most turn and run from the image of their own pitiful
|
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nonexistence. The enlightened, however, see that this vision of non-extant
|
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humanity, and a planet finally free from torment, rather than being the
|
|
malevolent nightmare most fools fear, would be the most sublime utopia one
|
|
could possibly imagine.
|
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If man were a positive phenomenon, he wouldn't cause himself such
|
|
unbearable suffering. His existence is a mistake. He must see this clearly,
|
|
embrace his true destiny, and shed forever his rotten carcass to become what he
|
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was all along: spirit, immortal and pure.
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