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AGRIPPA
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(A Book of The Dead)
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Text by William Gibson
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Etchings by Dennis Ashbaugh
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(C)1992 Kevin Begos Publishing
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1411 York Ave.
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New York, NY
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All Rights Reserved
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I hesitated
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before untying the bow
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that bound this book together.
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A black book:
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ALBUMS
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CA. AGRIPPA
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Order Extra Leaves
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By Letter and Name
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A Kodak album of time-burned
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black construction paper
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The string he tied
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Has been unravelled by years
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and the dry weather of trunks
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Like a lady's shoestring from the First World War
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Its metal ferrules eaten by oxygen
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Until they resemble cigarette-ash
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Inside the cover he inscribed something in soft graphite
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Now lost
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Then his name
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W.F. Gibson Jr.
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and something, comma,
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1924
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Then he glued his Kodak prints down
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And wrote under them
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In chalk-like white pencil:
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"Papa's saw mill, Aug. 1919."
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A flat-roofed shack
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Against a mountain ridge
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In the foreground are tumbled boards and offcuts
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He must have smelled the pitch, In August
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The sweet hot reek
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Of the electric saw
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Biting into decades
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Next the spaniel Moko
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"Moko 1919"
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Poses on small bench or table
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Before a backyard tree
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His coat is lustrous
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The grass needs cutting
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Beyond the tree,
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In eerie Kodak clarity,
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Are the summer backstairs of Wheeling,
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West Virginia
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Someone's left a wooden stepladder out
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"Aunt Fran and [obscured]"
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Although he isn't, this gent
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He has a "G" belt-buckle
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A lapel-device of Masonic origin
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A patent propelling-pencil
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A fountain-pen
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And the flowers they pose behind so solidly
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Are rooted in an upright length of whitewashed
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concrete sewer-pipe.
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Daddy had a horse named Dixie
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"Ford on Dixie 1917"
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A saddle-blanket marked with a single star
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Corduroy jodpurs
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A western saddle
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And a cloth cap
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Proud and happy
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As any boy could be
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"Arthur and Ford fishing 1919"
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Shot by an adult
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(Witness the steady hand
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that captures the wildflowers
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the shadows on their broad straw hats
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reflections of a split-rail fence)
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standing opposite them,
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on the far side of the pond,
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amid the snake-doctors and the mud,
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Kodak in hand,
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Ford Sr.?
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And "Moma July, 1919"
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strolls beside the pond,
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in white big city shoes,
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Purse tucked behind her,
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While either Ford or Arthur, still straw-hatted,
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approaches a canvas-topped touring car.
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"Moma and Mrs. Graham at fish hatchery 1919"
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Moma and Mrs. G. sit atop a graceful concrete
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arch.
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"Arthur on Dixie", likewise 1919,
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rather ill at ease.
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On the roof behind the barn, behind him,
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can be made out this cryptic mark:
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H.V.J.M.[?]
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"Papa's Mill 1919", my grandfather most regal amid a wrack of
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cut lumber,
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might as easily be the record
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of some later demolition, and
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His cotton sleeves are rolled
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to but not past the elbow,
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striped, with a white neckband
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for the attachment of a collar.
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Behind him stands a cone of sawdust some thirty feet in height.
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(How that feels to tumble down,
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or smells when it is wet)
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II.
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The mechanism: stamped black tin,
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Leatherette over cardboard, bits of boxwood,
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A lens
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The shutter falls
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Forever
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Dividing that from this.
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Now in high-ceiling bedrooms,
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unoccupied, unvisited,
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in the bottom drawers of veneered bureaus
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in cool chemical darkness curl commemorative
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montages of the country's World War dead,
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just as I myself discovered
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one other summer in an attic trunk,
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and beneath that every boy's best treasure
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of tarnished actual ammunition
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real little bits of war
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but also
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the mechanism
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itself.
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The blued finish of firearms
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is a process, controlled, derived from common
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rust, but there
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under so rare and uncommon a patina
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that many years untouched
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until I took it up
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and turning, entranced, down the unpainted
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stair,
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to the hallway where I swear
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I never heard the first shot.
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The copper-jacketed slug recovered
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from the bathroom's cardboard cylinder of
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Morton's Salt
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was undeformed
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save for the faint bright marks of lands
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and grooves
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so hot, stilled energy,
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it blistered my hand.
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The gun lay on the dusty carpet.
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Returning in utter awe I took it so carefully up
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That the second shot, equally unintended,
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notched the hardwood bannister and brought
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a strange bright smell of ancient sap to life
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in a beam of dusty sunlight.
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Absolutely alone
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in awareness of the mechanism.
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Like the first time you put your mouth
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on a woman.
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III.
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"Ice Gorge at Wheeling
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1917"
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Iron bridge in the distance,
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Beyond it a city.
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Hotels where pimps went about their business
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on the sidewalks of a lost world.
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But the foreground is in focus,
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this corner of carpenter's Gothic,
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these backyards running down to the freeze.
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"Steamboat on Ohio River",
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its smoke foul and dark,
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its year unknown,
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beyond it the far bank
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overgrown with factories.
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"Our Wytheville
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House Sept. 1921"
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They have moved down from Wheeling and my father wears his
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city clothes. Main Street is unpaved and an electric streetlamp is
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slung high in the frame, centered above the tracked dust on a
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slack wire, suggesting the way it might pitch in a strong wind,
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the shadows that might throw.
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The house is heavy, unattractive, sheathed in stucco, not native
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to the region. My grandfather, who sold supplies to contractors,
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was prone to modern materials, which he used with
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wholesaler's enthusiasm. In 1921 he replaced the section of brick
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sidewalk in front of his house with the broad smooth slab of poured
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concrete, signing this improvement with a flourish, "W.F.
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Gibson 1921". He believed in concrete and plywood
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particularly. Seventy years later his signature remains, the slab
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floating perfectly level and charmless between mossy stretches of
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sweet uneven brick that knew the iron shoes of Yankee horses.
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"Mama Jan. 1922" has come out to sweep the concrete with a
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broom. Her boots are fastened with buttons requiring a special instrument.
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Ice gorge again, the Ohio, 1917. The mechanism closes. A
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torn clipping offers a 1957 DeSOTO FIREDOME, 4-door Sedan,
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torqueflite radio, heater and power steering and brakes, new
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w.s.w. premium tires. One owner. $1,595.
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IV
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He made it to the age of torqueflite radio
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but not much past that, and never in that town.
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That was mine to know, Main Street lined with
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Rocket Eighty-eights,
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the dimestore floored with wooden planks
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pies under plastic in the Soda Shop,
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and the mystery untold, the other thing,
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sensed in the creaking of a sign after midnight
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when nobody else was there.
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In the talc-fine dust beneath the platform of the
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Norfolk & Western
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lay indian-head pennies undisturbed since
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the dawn of man.
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In the banks and courthouse, a fossil time
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prevailed, limestone centuries.
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When I went up to Toronto
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in the draft,
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my Local Board was there on Main Street,
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above a store that bought and sold pistols.
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I'd once traded that man a derringer for a
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Walther P-38.
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The pistols were in the window
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behind an amber roller-blind
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like sunglasses.
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I was seventeen or so but basically I guess
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you just had to be a white boy.
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I'd hike out to a shale pit and run
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ten dollars worth of 9mm
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through it, so worn you hardly
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had to pull the trigger.
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Bored, tried shooting
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down into a distant stream but
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one of them came back at me
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off a round of river rock
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clipping walnut twigs from a branch
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two feet above my head.
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So that I remembered the mechanism.
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V.
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In the all night bus station
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they sold scrambled eggs to state troopers
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the long skinny clasp-knives called fruit knives
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which were pearl handled watermelon-slicers
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and hillbilly novelties in brown varnished wood
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which were made in Japan.
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First I'd be sent there at night only
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if Mom's carton of Camels ran out,
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but gradually I came to value
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the submarine light, the alien reek
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of the long human haul, the strangers
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straight down from Port Authority
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headed for Nashville, Memphis, Miami.
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Sometimes the Sheriff watched them get off
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making sure they got back on.
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When the colored restroom
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was no longer required
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they knocked open the cinderblock
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and extended the magazine rack
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to new dimensions,
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a cool fluorescent cave of dreams
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smelling faintly and forever of disinfectant,
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perhaps as well of the travelled fears
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of those dark uncounted others who,
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moving as though contours of hot iron,
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were made thus to dance
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or not to dance
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as the law saw fit.
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There it was that I was marked out as a writer,
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having discovered in that alcove
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copies of certain magazines
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esoteric and precious, and, yes,
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I knew then, knew utterly,
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the deal done in my heart forever,
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though how I knew not,
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nor ever have.
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Walking home
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through all the streets unmoving
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so quiet I could hear the timers of the traffic lights a block away:
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the mechanism.
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Nobody else, just the silence
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spreading out
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to where the long trucks groaned
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on the highway
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their vast brute souls in want.
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VI.
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There must have been a true last time
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I saw the station but I don't remember
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I remember the stiff black horsehide coat
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gift in Tucson of a kid named Natkin
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I remember the cold
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I remember the Army duffle
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that was lost and the black man in Buffalo
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trying to sell me a fine diamond ring,
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and in the coffee shop in Washington
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I'd eavesdropped on a man wearing a black tie
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embroidered with red roses
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that I have looked for ever since.
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They must have asked me something
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at the border
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I was admitted
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somehow
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and behind me swung the stamped tin shutter
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across the very sky
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and I went free
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to find myself
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mazed in Victorian brick
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amid sweet tea with milk
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and smoke from a cigarette called a Black Cat
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and every unknown brand of chocolate
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and girls with blunt-cut bangs
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not even Americans
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looking down from high narrow windows
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on the melting snow
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of the city undreamed
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and on the revealed grace
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of the mechanism,
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no round trip.
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They tore down the bus station
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there's chainlink there
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no buses stop at all
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and I'm walking through Chiyoda-ku
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in a typhoon
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the fine rain horizontal
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umbrella everted in the storm's Pacific breath
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tonight red lanterns are battered,
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laughing,
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in the mechanism.
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