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ROBINSON CRUSOE
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by Daniel Defoe
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I was born in the year 1632, in the city of York, of a good
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family, though not of that country, my father being a foreigner of
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Bremen, who settled first at Hull. He got a good estate by
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merchandise, and leaving off his trade lived afterward at York, from
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whence he had married my mother, whose relations were named
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Robinson, a good family in that country, and from whom I was called
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Robinson Kreutznear; but by the usual corruption of words in England
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we are now called, nay, we call ourselves, and write our name, Crusoe,
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and so my companions always called me.
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I had two elder brothers, one of which was lieutenant-colonel to
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an English regiment of foot in Flanders, formerly commanded by the
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famous Colonel Lockhart, and was killed at the battle near Dunkirk
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against the Spaniards; what became of my second brother I never
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knew, any more than my father and mother did know what was become of
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me.
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Being the third son of the family, and not bred to any trade, my
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head began to be filled very early with rambling thoughts. My
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father, who was very ancient, had given me a competent share of
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learning, as far as house-education and a country free school
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generally goes, and designed me for the law, but I would be
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satisfied with nothing but going to sea; and my inclination to this
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led me so strongly against the will, nay, the commands, of my
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father, and against all the entreaties and persuasions of my mother
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and other friends, that there seemed to be something fatal in that
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propension of nature tending directly to the life of misery which
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was to befall me.
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My father, a wise and grave man, gave me serious and excellent
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counsel against what he foresaw was my design. He called me one
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morning into his chamber, where he was confined by the gout, and
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expostulated very warmly with me upon this subject. He asked me what
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reasons more than a mere wandering inclination I had for leaving my
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father's house and my native country, where I might be well
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introduced, and had a prospect of raising my fortunes by application
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and industry, with a life of ease and pleasure. He told me it was
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for men of desperate fortunes on one hand, or of aspiring, superior
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fortunes on the other, who went abroad upon adventures, to rise by
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enterprise, and make themselves famous in undertakings of a nature out
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of the common road; that these things were all either too far above
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me, or too far below me; that mine was the middle state, or what might
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be called the upper station of low life, which he had found by long
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experience was the best state in the world, the most suited to human
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happiness, not exposed to the miseries and hardships, the labor and
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sufferings, of the mechanic part of mankind, and not embarrassed
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with the pride, luxury, ambition, and envy of the upper part of
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mankind. He told me I might judge of the happiness of this state by
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one thing, viz., that this was the state of life which all other
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people envied; that kings have frequently lamented the miserable
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consequences of being born to great things, and wished they had been
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placed in the middle of the two extremes, between the mean and the
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great; that the wise man gave his testimony to this as the just
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standard of true felicity, when he prayed to have neither poverty
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nor riches.
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He bid me observe it, and I should always find that the calamities
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of life were shared among the upper and lower part of mankind; but
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that the middle station had the fewest disasters and was not exposed
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to so many vicissitudes as the higher or lower part of mankind. Nay,
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they were not subjected to so many distempers and uneasiness either of
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body or mind as those were who, by vicious living, luxury, and
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extravagancies on one hand, or by hard labor, want of necessaries, and
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mean or insufficient diet on the other hand, bring distempers upon
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themselves by the natural consequences of their way of living; that
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the middle station of life was calculated for all kind of virtues
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and all kind of enjoyments; that peace and plenty were the handmaids
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of a middle fortune; that temperance, moderation, quietness, health,
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society, all agreeable diversions, and all desirable pleasures, were
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the blessings attending the middle station of life; that this way
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men went silently and smoothly through the world, and comfortably
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out of it, not embarrassed with the labors of the hands or of the
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head, not sold to the life of slavery for daily bread, or harassed
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with perplexed circumstances, which rob the soul of peace, and the
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body of rest; not enraged with the passion of envy, or secret
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burning lust of ambition for great things; but in easy circumstances
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sliding gently through the world, and sensibly tasting the sweets of
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living, without the bitter, feeling that they are happy, and
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learning by every day's experience to know it more sensibly.
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After this, he pressed me earnestly, and in the most affectionate
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manner, not to play the young man, not to precipitate myself into
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miseries which Nature and the station of life I was born in seemed
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to have provided against; that I was under no necessity of seeking
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my bread; that he would do well for me, and endeavor to enter me
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fairly into the station of life which he had been just recommending to
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me; and that if I was not very easy and happy in the world it must
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be my mere fate or fault that must hinder it, and that he should
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have nothing to answer for, having thus discharged his duty in warning
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me against measures which he knew would be to my hurt; in a word, that
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as he would do very kind things for me if I would stay and settle at
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home as he directed, so he would not have so much hand in my
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misfortunes, as to give me any encouragement to go away. And to
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close all, he told me I had my elder brother for an example, to whom
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he had used the same earnest persuasions to keep him from going into
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the Low Country wars, but could not prevail, his young desires
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prompting him to run into the army, where he was killed; and though he
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said he would not cease to pray for me, yet he would venture to say to
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me, that if I did take this foolish step, God would not bless me,
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and I would have leisure hereafter to reflect upon having neglected
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his counsel when there might be none to assist in my recovery.
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I observed in this last part of his discourse, which was truly
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prophetic, though I suppose my father did not know it to be so himself
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- I say, I observed the tears run down his face very plentifully,
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and especially when he spoke of my brother who was killed; and that
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when he spoke of my having leisure to repent, and none to assist me,
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he was so moved that he broke off the discourse, and told me his heart
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was so full he could say no more to me.
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I was sincerely affected with this discourse, as indeed who could be
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otherwise? and I resolved not to think of going abroad any more, but
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to settle at home according to my father's desire. But alas! a few
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days wore it all off; and, in short, to prevent any of my father's
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farther importunities, in a few weeks after I resolved to run quite
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away from him. However, I did not act so hastily neither as my first
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heat of resolution prompted, but I took my mother, at a time when I
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thought her a little pleasanter than ordinary, and told her that my
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thoughts were so entirely bent upon seeing the world that I should
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never settle to anything with resolution enough to go through with it,
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and my father had better give me his consent than force me to go
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without it; that I was now eighteen years old, which was too late to
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go apprentice to a trade, or clerk to an attorney; that I was sure
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if I did, I should never serve out my time, and I should certainly run
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away from my master before my time was out, and go to sea; and if
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she would speak to my father to let me go but one voyage abroad, if
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I came home again and did not like it, I would go no more, and I would
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promise by a double diligence to recover that time I had lost.
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This put my mother into a great passion. She told me she knew it
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would be to no purpose to speak to my father upon any such subject;
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that he knew too well what was my interest to give his consent to
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anything so much for my hurt, and that she wondered how I could
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think of any such thing after such a discourse as I had had with my
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father, and such kind and tender expressions as she knew my father had
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used to me; and that, in short, if I would ruin myself there was no
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help for me; but I might depend I should never have their consent to
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it; that for her part, she should not have so much hand in my
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destruction, and I should never have it to say, that my mother was
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willing when my father was not.
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Though my mother refused to move it to my father, yet, as I have
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heard afterwards, she reported all the discourse to him, and that my
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father, after showing a great concern at it, said to her with a
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sigh, "That boy might be happy if he would stay at home, but if he
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goes abroad he will be the miserablest wretch that was ever born: I
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can give no consent to it."
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It was not till almost a year after this that I broke loose,
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though in the meantime I continued obstinately deaf to all proposals
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of settling to business, and frequently expostulating with my father
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and mother about their being so positively determined against what
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they knew my inclinations prompted me to. But being one day at Hull,
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where I went casually, and without any purpose of making an
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elopement that time; but I say, being there, and one of my
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companions being going by sea to London, in his father's ship, and
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prompting me to go with them, with the common allurement of sea-faring
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men, viz., that it should cost me nothing for my passage, I
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consulted neither father nor mother any more, nor so much as sent them
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word of it; but leaving them to hear of it as they might, without
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asking God's blessing, or my father's, without any consideration of
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circumstances or consequences, and in an ill hour, God knows, on the
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first of September, 1651, I went on board a ship bound for London.
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Never any young adventurer's misfortunes, I believe began sooner, or
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continued longer than mine. The ship was no sooner gotten out of the
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Humber, but the wind began to blow, and the waves to rise in a most
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frightful manner; and as I had never been at sea before, I was most
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inexpressibly sick in body, and terrified in my mind. I began now
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seriously to reflect upon what I had done, and how justly I was
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overtaken by the judgment of Heaven for my wicked leaving my
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father's house, and abandoning my duty; all the good counsel of my
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parents, my father's tears and my mother's entreaties, came now
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fresh into my mind, and my conscience, which was not yet come to the
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pitch of hardness which it has been since, reproached me with the
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contempt of advice and the breach of my duty to God and my father.
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All this while the storm increased, and the sea, which I had never
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been upon before, went very high, though nothing like what I have seen
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many times since; no, nor like what I saw a few days after. But it was
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enough to affect me then, who was but a young sailor, and had never
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known anything of the matter. I expected every wave would have
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swallowed us up, and that every time the ship fell down, as I thought,
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in the trough or hollow of the sea, we should never rise more; and
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in this agony of mind I made many vows of resolutions, that if it
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would please God here to spare my life this one voyage, if ever I
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got once my foot upon dry land again, I would go directly home to my
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father, and never set it into a ship again while I lived; that I would
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take his advice, and never run myself into such miseries as these
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any more. Now I saw plainly the goodness of his observations about the
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middle station of life, how easy, how comfortably he had lived all his
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days, and never had been exposed to tempests at sea, or troubles on
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shore; and I resolved that I would, like a true repenting prodigal, go
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home to my father.
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These wise and sober thoughts continued all the while the storm
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continued, and indeed some time after; but the next day the wind was
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abated and the sea calmer, and I began to be a little inured to it.
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However, I was very grave for all that day, being also a little
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sea-sick still; but towards night the weather cleared up, the wind was
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quite over, and a charming fine evening followed; the sun went down
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perfectly clear, and rose so the next morning; and having little or no
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wind, and a smooth sea, the sun shining upon it, the sight was, as I
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thought, the most delightful that ever I saw.
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I had slept well in the night, and was now no more sea-sick but very
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cheerful, looking with wonder upon the sea that was so wrought and
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terrible the day before, and could be so calm and so pleasant in so
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little time after. And now lest my good resolutions should continue,
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my companion, who had indeed enticed me away, comes to me: "Well,
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Bob," says he, clapping me on the shoulder, "how do you do after it? I
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warrant you were frighted, wa'n't you, last night, when it blew but
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a capful of wind?" "A capful, d'you call it?" said I; It was a
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terrible storm." "A storm, you fool you," replied he; "do you call
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that a storm? Why, it was nothing at all; give us but a good ship
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and sea-room, and we think nothing at all; give us but a good ship and
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sea-room, and we think nothing of such a squall of wind as that; but
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you're but a fresh-water sailor, Bob. Come, let us make a bowl of
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punch, and we'll forget all that; d'ye see what charming weather
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'tis now?" To make short this sad part of my story, we went the old
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way of all sailors; the punch was made, and I was made drunk with
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it, and in that one night's wickedness I drowned all my repentance,
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all my reflections upon my past conduct, and all my resolutions for my
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future. In a word, as the sea was returned to its smoothness of
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surface and settled calmness by the abatement of that storm, so the
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hurry of my thoughts being over, my fears and apprehensions of being
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swallowed up by the sea being forgotten, and the current of my
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former desires returned, I entirely forgot the vows and promises
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that I made in my distress. I found indeed some intervals of
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reflection, and the serious thoughts did, as it were, endeavor to
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return again sometime; but I shook them off, and roused myself from
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them as it were from a distemper, and applying myself to drink and
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company, soon mastered the return of those fits, for so I called them,
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and I had in five or six days got as complete a victory over
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conscience as any young fellow that resolved not to be troubled with
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it could desire. But I was to have another trial for it still; and
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Providence, as in such cases generally it does, resolved to leave me
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entirely without excuse. For if I would not take this for a
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deliverance, the next was to be such a one as the worst and most
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hardened wretch among us would confess both the danger and the mercy.
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The sixth day of our being at sea we came into Yarmouth roads; the
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wind having been contrary and the weather calm, we made but little way
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since the storm. Here we were obliged to come to an anchor, and here
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we lay, the wind continuing contrary, viz., at southwest, for seven or
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eight days, during which time a great many ships from Newcastle came
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into the same roads, as the common harbor where the ships might wait
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for a wind for the river.
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We had not, however, rid here so long, but should have tided it up
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the river, but that the wind blew too fresh; and after we had lain
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four or five days, blew very hard. However, the roads .being
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reckoned as good as a harbor, the anchorage good, and our
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ground-tackle very strong, our men were unconcerned, and not in the
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least apprehensive of danger, but spent the time in rest and mirth,
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after the manner of the sea; but the eighth day in the morning the
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wind increased, and we had all hands at work to strike our topmasts,
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and make everything snug and close, that the ship might ride as easy
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as possible. By noon the sea went very high indeed, and our ship rid
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forecastle in, shipped several seas, and we thought once or twice
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our anchor had come home; upon which our master ordered out the
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sheet anchor, so that we rode with two anchors ahead, and the cables
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veered out to the better end.
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By this time it blew a terrible storm indeed, and now I began to see
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terror and amazement in the faces even of the seamen themselves. The
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master, though vigilant to the business of perserving the ship, yet as
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he went in and out of his cabin by me, I could hear him softly to
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himself say several times, "Lord be merciful to us, we shall be all
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lost, we shall be all undone"; and the like. During these first
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hurries I was stupid, lying still in my cabin, which was in the
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steerage, and cannot describe my temper; I could ill reassume the
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first penitence, which I had so apparently trampled upon, and hardened
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myself against; I though the bitterness of death had been past, and
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that this would be nothing too, like the first. But when the master
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himself came by me, as I said just now, and said we should be all
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lost, I was dreadfully frighted; I got up out of my cabin, and
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looked out but such a dismal sight I never saw: the sea went mountains
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high, and broke upon us every three or four minutes; when I could look
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about, I could see nothing but distress round us. Two ships that rid
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near us we found had cut their masts by the board, being deep
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loaden; and our men cried out that a ship which rid about's mile ahead
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of us was foundered. Two more ships being driven from their anchors,
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were run out of the roads to sea at all adventures, and that with
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not a mast standing. The light ships fared the best, as not so much
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laboring in the sea; but two or three of them drove, and came close by
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us, running away with only their sprit-sail out before the wind.
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Towards evening the mate and boatswain begged the master of our ship
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to let them cut away the foremast, which he was very unwilling to. But
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the boatswain, protesting to him that if he did not the ship would
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founder, he consented; and when they had cut away the foremast, the
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mainmast stood so loose, and shook the ship so much, they were obliged
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to cut her away also, and make a clear deck.
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Any one may judge what a condition I must be in all this, who was
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but a young sailor, and who had been in such a fright before at but
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a little. But if I can express at this distance the thoughts I had
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about me at that time, I was in tenfold more horror of mind upon
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account of my former convictions, and then having returned from them
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to the resolutions I had wickedly taken at first, than I was at
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death itself; and these, added to the terror of the storm, put me into
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such a condition that I can by no words describe it. But the worst was
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not come yet; the storm continued with such fury that the seamen
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themselves acknowledged they had never known a worse. We had a good
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ship, but she was deep loaden, and wallowed in the sea, that the
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seamen every now and then cried out she would founder. It was my
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advantage in one respect, that I did not know what they meant by
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founder till I inquired. However, the storm was so violent 'that I saw
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what is not often seen, the master, the boatswain, and some others
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more sensible than the rest, at their prayers, and expecting every
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moment when the ship would go to the bottom. In the middle of the
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night, and under all the rest of our distresses, one of the men that
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had been down on purpose to see, cried out we had sprung a leak;
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another said there was four foot water in the hold. Then all hands
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were called to the pump. At that very word my heart, as I thought,
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died within me, and I fell backwards upon the side of my bed where I
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sat, into the cabin. However, the men aroused me, and told me that
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I, that was able to do nothing before, was as well able to pump as
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another; at which I stirred up and went to the pump and worked very
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heartily. While this was doing, the master seeing some light colliers,
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who, not able to ride out the storm, were obliged to slip and run away
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to sea, and would come near us, ordered to fire a gun as a signal of
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distress. I, who knew nothing what that meant, was so surprised that I
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thought the ship had broke, or some dreadful thing had happened. In
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a word, I was so surprised that I fell down in a swoon. As this was
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a time when everybody had his own life to think of, nobody minded
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me, or what was become of me; but another man stepped up to the
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pump, and thrusting me aside with his foot, let me lie, thinking I had
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been dead; and it was a great while before I came to myself.
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We worked on, but the water increasing in the hold, it was
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apparent that the ship would founder, and though the storm began to
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abate a little, yet as it was not possible she could swim till we
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might run into a port, so the master continued firing guns for help;
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and a light ship, who had rid it out just ahead of us, ventured a boat
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out to help us. It was with the utmost hazard the boat came near us,
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but it was impossible for us to get on board, or for the boat to lie
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near the ship's side, till at last the men rowing very heartily, and
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venturing their lives to save ours, our men cast them a rope over
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the stern with a buoy to it, and then veered it out a great length,
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which they after great labor and hazard took hold of, and we hauled
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them close under our stern, and got all into their boat. It was to
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no purpose for them or us after we were in the boat to think of
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reaching to their own ship, so all agreed to let her drive, and only
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to pull her in towards shore as much as we could, and our master
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promised them that if the boat was staved upon shore he would make
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it good to their master; so partly rowing and partly driving, our boat
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went away to the norward, sloping towards the shore almost as far as
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Winterton Ness.
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We were not much more than a quarter of an hour out of our ship
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but we saw her sink, and then I understood for the first time what was
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meant by a ship foundering in the sea. I must acknowledge I had hardly
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eyes to look up when the seamen told me she was sinking; for from that
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moment they rather put me into the boat than that I might be said to
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go in; my heart was, as it were, dead within me, partly with fright,
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partly with horror of mind and the thoughts of what was yet before me.
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While we were in this condition, the men yet laboring at the oar
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to bring the boat near the shore, we could see, when, our boat,
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mounting the waves, we were able to see the shore" great many people
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running along the shore to assist us when we should come near. But
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we made but slow way towards the shore, nor were we able to reach
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the shore, till being past the lighthouse at Winterton, the shore
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falls off to the westward towards Cromer, and so the land broke off
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a little the violence of the wind. Here we got in, and though not
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without much difficulty got all safe on shore, and walked afterwards
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on foot to Yarmouth, where, as unfortunate men, we were used with
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great humanity as well by the magistrates of the town, who assigned us
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good quarters, as by particular merchants and owners of ships, and had
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money given us sufficient to carry us either to London or back to
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Hull, as we thought fit.
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Had I now had the sense to have gone back to Hull, and have gone
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home, I had been happy, and my father, an emblem of our blessed
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Saviour's parable, had even killed the fatted calf for me; for hearing
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the ship I went away in was cast away in Yarmouth road, it was a great
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while before he had any assurance that I was not drowned.
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But my ill fate pushed me on now with an obstinacy that nothing
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could resist; and though I had several times loud calls from my reason
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and my more composed judgment to get home, yet I had no power to do
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it. I knew not what to call this, nor will I urge that it is a
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secret overruling decree that hurries us on to be the instruments of
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our own destruction, even though it be before us, and that we rush
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upon it with our eyes open. Certainly nothing but some such decreed
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unavoidable misery attending, and which it was impossible for me to
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escape, could have pushed me forward against the calm reasonings and
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persuasions of my most retired thoughts, and against two such
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visible instructions as I had met with in my first attempt.
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My comrade, who had helped to harden me before, and who was the
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master's son, was now less forward than I. The first time he spoke
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to me after we were at Yarmouth, which was not till two or three days,
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for we were separated in the town to several quarters - I say, the
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first time he was me, it appeared his tone was altered, and looking
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very melancholy and shaking his head, asked me how I did, and
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telling his father who I was, and how I had came this voyage only
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for a trial in order to go farther abroad, his father turning to me
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with a very grave and concerned tone, "Young man," says he, "you ought
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never to go to sea any more, you ought to take this for a plain and
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visible token, that you are not to be a seafaring man." "Why, sir,"
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said I, "will you go to sea no more?" "That is another case," said he;
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"it is my calling, and therefore my duty; but as you made this
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voyage for a trial, you see what a task Heaven has given you of what
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you are to expect if you persist; perhaps this is all befallen us on
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your account, like Jonah in the ship of Tarshish. Pray," continues he,
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"what are you? and on what account did you go to sea?" Upon that I
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told him some of my story, at the end of which he burst out with a
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strange kind of passion. "What had I done," says he, "that such an
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unhappy wretch should come into my ship? I would not set my foot in
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the same ship with thee again for a thousand pounds." This, indeed,
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was, as I said, an excursion of his spirits, which were got agitated
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by the sense of his loss, and was farther than he could have authority
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to go. However, he afterwards talked very gravely to me, exhorted me
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to go back to my father, and not tempt Providence to my ruin; told
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me I might see a visible hand of Heaven against me. "And, young
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man," said he, "depend upon it, if you do not go back, wherever you go
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you will meet with nothing but disasters and disappointments, till
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your father's words are fulfilled upon you."
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We parted soon after; for I made him little answer, and I saw him no
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more; which way he went, I know not. As for me, having some money in
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my pocket, I travelled to London by land; and there, as well as on the
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|
road, had many struggles with myself what course of life I should
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take, and whether I should go home or go to sea.
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As to going home, shame opposed the best motions that offered to
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my thoughts; and it immediately occurred to me how I should be laughed
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|
at among the neighbors, and should be ashamed to see, not my father
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and mother only but even everybody else; from whence I have since
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often observed how incongruous and irrational the common temper of
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mankind is, especially of youth, to the reason which ought to guide
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them in such cases, viz., that they are not ashamed to sin, and yet
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are ashamed to repent; not ashamed of the action for which they
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ought justly to be esteemed fools, but are ashamed of the returning,
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which only can make them be esteemed wise men.
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In this state of life, however, I remained some time, uncertain what
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measures to take, and what course of life to lead. An irresistible
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reluctance continued to going home; and as I stayed a while, the
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remembrance of the distress I had been in wore off, and as that
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|
abated, the little motion I had in my desires to a return wore off
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with it, till at last I quite laid aside the thoughts of it, and
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looked out for a voyage.
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That evil influence which carried me first away from my father's
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house, that hurried me into the wild and indigested notion of
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raising my fortune, and that impressed those conceits so forcibly upon
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me as to make me deaf to all good advice, and to the entreaties and
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|
even command of my father - I say, the same influence, whatever it
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was, presented the most unfortunate of all enterprises to my view; and
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I went on board a vessel bound to the coast of Africa, or as our
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sailors vulgarly call it, a voyage to Guinea.
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It was my great misfortune that in all these adventures I did not
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ship myself as a sailor, whereby, though I might indeed have worked
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|
a little harder than ordinary, yet at the same time I had learned
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|
the duty and office of a foremast man, and in time might have
|
|
qualified myself for a mate or lieutenant, if not for a master. But as
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|
it was always my fate to choose for the worse, so I did here; for
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|
having money in my pocket, and good clothes upon my back, I would
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|
always go on board in the habit of a gentleman; and so I neither had
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|
any business in the ship, or learned to do any.
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|
It was my lot first of all to fall into pretty good company in
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|
London, which does not always happen to such loose and misguided young
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|
fellows as I then was; the devil generally not omitting to lay some
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|
snare for them very early; but it was not so with me. I first fell
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|
acquainted with the master of a ship who had been on the coast of
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|
Guinea, and who, having had very good success there, was resolved to
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|
go again; and who, taking a fancy to my conversation, which was not at
|
|
all disagreeable at that time, hearing me say I had a mind to see
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|
the world, told me if I would go the voyage with him I should be at no
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|
expense; I should be his messmate and his companion; and if I could
|
|
carry anything with me, I should have all the advantage of it that the
|
|
trade would admit, and perhaps I might meet with some encouragement.
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|
I embraced the offer; and, entering into a strict friendship with
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|
this captain, who was an honest and plain-dealing man, I went the
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|
voyage with him, and carried a small adventure with me, which by the
|
|
disinterested honesty of my friend the captain, I increased very
|
|
considerably, for I carried about L40 in such toys and trifles as
|
|
the captain directed me to buy. This L40 I had mustered together by
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|
the assistance of some of my relations whom I corresponded with, and
|
|
who, I believe, got my father, or at least my mother, to contribute so
|
|
much as that to my first adventure.
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|
This was the only voyage which I may say was successful in all my
|
|
adventures, and which I owe to the integrity and honesty of my
|
|
friend the captain; under whom also I got a competent knowledge of the
|
|
mathematics and the rules of navigation, learned how to keep an
|
|
account of the ship's course, to take an observation, and, in short,
|
|
to understand some things that were needful to be understood by a
|
|
sailor. For, as he took delight to introduce me, I took delight to
|
|
learn; and, in a word, this voyage made me both a sailor and a
|
|
merchant; for I brought home five pounds nine ounces of gold dust
|
|
for my adventure, which yielded me in London at my return almost L300,
|
|
and this filled me with those aspiring thoughts which have since so
|
|
completed my ruin.
|
|
Yet even in this voyage I had my misfortunes too; particularly, that
|
|
I was continually sick, being thrown into a violent calenture by the
|
|
excessive heat of the climate; our principal trading being upon the
|
|
coast, for the latitude of 15 degrees north even to the line itself.
|
|
I was not set up for a Guinea trader; and my friend, to my great
|
|
misfortune, dying soon after his arrival, I resolved to go the same
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|
voyage again, and I embarked in the same vessel with one who was his
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|
mate in the former voyage, and had now got the command of the ship.
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|
This was the unhappiest voyage that ever man made; for though I did
|
|
not carry quite L100 of my new-gained wealth, so that I had L200 left,
|
|
and which I lodged with my friend's widow, who was very just to me,
|
|
yet I fell into terrible misfortunes in this voyage; and from the
|
|
first was this, viz., our ship making her course towards the Canary
|
|
Islands, or rather between those islands and the African shore, was
|
|
surprised in the gray of the morning by a Turkish rover of Sallee, who
|
|
gave chase to us with all the sail she could make. We crowded also
|
|
as much canvas as our yards would spread, or our masts carry, to
|
|
have got clear; but finding the pirate gained upon us, and would
|
|
certainly come up with us in a few hours, we prepared to fight, our
|
|
ship having twelve guns, and the rogue eighteen. About three in the
|
|
afternoon he came up with us, and bringing to, by mistake, just
|
|
athwart our quarter, instead of athwart our stern, as he intended,
|
|
we brought eight of our guns to bear on that side, and poured in a
|
|
broadside upon him, which made him sheer off again, after returning
|
|
our fire and pouring in also his small-shot from near 200 men which he
|
|
had on board. However, we had not a man touched, all our men keeping
|
|
close. He prepared to attack us again, and we to defend ourselves; but
|
|
laying us on board the next time upon our other quarter, he entered
|
|
sixty men upon our decks, who immediately fell to cutting and
|
|
hacking the decks and rigging. We plied them with small-shot,
|
|
half-pikes, powder-chests, and such like, and cleared our deck of them
|
|
twice. However, to cut short this melancholy part of our story, our
|
|
ship being disabled, and three of our men killed and eight wounded, we
|
|
were obliged to yield, and were carried all prisoners into Sallee, a
|
|
port belonging to the Moors.
|
|
The usage I had there was not so dreadful as at first I had
|
|
apprehended, nor was I carried up the country to the emperor's
|
|
court, as the rest of our men were, but was kept by the captain of the
|
|
rover as his proper prize, and made his slave, being young and nimble,
|
|
and fit for his business. At this surprising change of my
|
|
circumstances from a merchant to a miserable slave, I was perfectly
|
|
overwhelmed; and now I looked back upon my father's prophetic
|
|
discourse to me, that I should be miserable, and have none to
|
|
relieve me, which I thought was now so effectually brought to pass,
|
|
that it could not be worse; that now the hand of Heaven had
|
|
overtaken me, and I was undone without redemption. But alas! this
|
|
was but a taste of the misery I was to go through, as will appear in
|
|
the sequel of this story.
|
|
As my new patron, or master, had taken me home to his house, so I
|
|
was in hopes that he would take me with him when he went to sea again,
|
|
believing that it would some time or other be his fate to be taken
|
|
by a Spanish or Portugal man-of-war; and that then I should be set
|
|
at liberty. But this hope of mine was soon taken away; for when he
|
|
went to sea, he left me on shore to look after his little garden,
|
|
and do the common drudgery of slaves about his house; and when he came
|
|
home again from his cruise, he ordered me to lie in the cabin to
|
|
look after the ship.
|
|
Here I meditated nothing but my escape, and what method I might take
|
|
to effect it, but found no way that had the least probability in it.
|
|
Nothing presented to make the supposition of it rational; for I had
|
|
nobody to communicate it to that would embark with me, no
|
|
fellow-slave, no Englishman, Irishman, or Scotsman there but myself;
|
|
so that for two years, though I often pleased myself with the
|
|
imagination, yet I never had the least encouraging prospect of putting
|
|
it in practice.
|
|
After about two years an odd circumstance presented itself, which
|
|
put the old thought of making some attempt for my liberty again in
|
|
my head. My patron lying at home longer than usual without fitting out
|
|
his ship, which, as I heard, was for want of money, he used
|
|
constantly, once or twice a week, sometimes oftener, if the weather
|
|
was fair, to take the ship's pinnace, and go out into the road
|
|
a-fishing; and as he always took me and a young Maresco with him to
|
|
row the boat, we made him very merry, and I proved very dexterous in
|
|
catching fish; insomuch, that sometimes he would send me with a
|
|
Moor, one of his kinsmen, and the youth the Maresco, as they called
|
|
him, to catch a dish of fish for him.
|
|
It happened one time that, going a-fishing in a stark calm
|
|
morning, a fog rose so thick, that though we were not half a league
|
|
from the shore we lost sight of it; and rowing we knew not whither
|
|
or which way, we labored all day, and all the next night, and when the
|
|
morning came found we were pulled off to sea instead of pulling in for
|
|
the shore; and that we were at least two leagues from the shore.
|
|
However, we got well in again, though with a great deal of labor,
|
|
and some danger, for the wind began to blow pretty fresh in the
|
|
morning; but particularly we were all very hungry.
|
|
But our patron, warned by this disaster, resolved to take more
|
|
care of himself for the future; and having lying by him the longboat
|
|
of our English ship which he had taken, he resolved he would not go
|
|
a-fishing any more without a compass and some provision; so he ordered
|
|
the carpenter of his ship, who was also an English slave, to build a
|
|
little state-room, or cabin, in the middle of the longboat, like
|
|
that of a barge, with a place to stand behind it to steer and haul
|
|
home the main-sheet, and room before for a hand or two to stand and
|
|
work the sails. She sailed with what we call a shoulder-of-mutton
|
|
sail; and the boom jabbed over the top of the cabin, which lay very
|
|
snug and low, and had in it room for him to lie, with a slave or
|
|
two, and a table to eat on, with some small lockers to put in some
|
|
bottles of such liquor as he thought fit to drink; particularly his
|
|
bread, rice, and coffee.
|
|
We went frequently out with this boat a-fishing, and as I was most
|
|
dexterous to catch fish for him, he never went without me. It happened
|
|
that he had appointed to go out in this boat, either for pleasure or
|
|
for fish, with two or three Moors of some distinction in that place,
|
|
and for whom he had provided extraordinarily; and had therefore sent
|
|
on board the boat over night a larger store of provisions than
|
|
ordinary; and had ordered me to get ready three fuzees with powder and
|
|
shot, which were on board his ship, for that they designed some
|
|
sport of fowling as well as fishing.
|
|
I got all things ready as he had directed, and waited the next
|
|
morning with the boat, washed clean, her ancient and pendants out, and
|
|
everything to accommodate his guests; when by and by my patron came on
|
|
board alone, and told me his guests had put off going, upon some
|
|
business that fell out, and ordered me with the man and boy, as usual,
|
|
to go out with the boat and catch them some fish, for that his friends
|
|
were to sup at his house; and commanded that as soon as I had got some
|
|
fish, I should bring it home to his house; all which I prepared to do.
|
|
This moment my former notions of deliverance darted into my
|
|
thoughts, for now I found I was like to have a little ship at my
|
|
command; and my master being gone, I prepared to furnish myself, not
|
|
for a fishing business, but for a voyage; though I knew not, neither
|
|
did I so much as consider, whither I should steer; for anywhere, to
|
|
get out of that place, was my way.
|
|
My first contrivance was to make a pretence to speak to this Moor,
|
|
to get something for our subsistence on board; for I told him we
|
|
must not presume to eat of our patron's bread. He said that was
|
|
true; so he brought a large basket of rusk or biscuit of their kind,
|
|
and three jars with fresh water, into the boat. I knew where my
|
|
patron's case of bottles stood, which it was evident by the make
|
|
were taken out of some English prize; and I conveyed them into the
|
|
boat while the Moor was on shore, as if they had been there before for
|
|
our master. I conveyed also a great lump of beeswax into the boat,
|
|
which weighed above half a hundredweight, with a parcel of twine or
|
|
thread, a hatchet, a saw, and a hammer, all of which were great use to
|
|
us afterwards, especially the wax to make candles. Another trick I
|
|
tried upon him, which he innocently came into also. His name was
|
|
Ishmael, who they call Muly, or Moely; so I called to him, "Moely,"
|
|
said I, "our patron's guns are on board the boat; can you not get a
|
|
little powder and shot? It may be we may kill some alcamies (a fowl
|
|
like our curlews) for ourselves, for I know he keeps the gunner's
|
|
stores in the ship." "Yes," says he, "I'll bring some"; and
|
|
accordingly he brought a great leather pouch which held about a
|
|
pound an a half of powder, or rather more; and another with shot, that
|
|
had five or six pounds, with some bullets, and put all into the
|
|
boat. At the same time I had found some powder of my master's in the
|
|
great cabin, with which I filled one of the large bottles in the case,
|
|
which was almost empty, pouring what was in it into another; and
|
|
thus furnished with everything needful, we sailed out of the port to
|
|
fish. The castle, which is at the entrance of the port, knew who we
|
|
were, and took no notice of us; and we were not above a mile out of
|
|
the port before we hauled in our sail, and set us down to fish. The
|
|
wind blew from the NNE., which was contrary to my desire; for had it
|
|
blown southerly I had been sure to have made the coast of Spain, and
|
|
at least reached to the bay of Cadiz; but my resolutions were, blow
|
|
which way it would, I would be gone from the horrid place where I was,
|
|
and leave the rest to Fate.
|
|
After we had fished some time and catched nothing, for when I had
|
|
fish on my hook I would not pull them up, that he might not see
|
|
them, I said to the Moor, "This will not do; our master will not be
|
|
thus served; we must stand farther off." He, thinking no harm, agreed,
|
|
and being in the head of the boat set the sails; and as I had the helm
|
|
I run the boat out near a league farther, and then brought her to as
|
|
if I would fish; when giving the boy the helm, I stepped forward to
|
|
where the Moor was, and making as if I stooped for something behind
|
|
him, I took him by surprise with my arm under his twist, and tossed
|
|
him clear overboard into the sea. He rose immediately, for he swam
|
|
like a cork, and called to me, begged to be taken in, told me he would
|
|
go all the world over with me. He swam so strong after the boat,
|
|
that he would have reached me very quickly, there being but little
|
|
wind; upon which I stepped into the cabin, and fetching one of the
|
|
fowling-pieces, I presented it at him, and told him I had done him
|
|
no hurt, and if he would be quiet I would do him none. "But, said I,
|
|
"you swim well enough to reach to the shore, and the sea is calm; make
|
|
the best of your way to shore, and I will do you no harm; but if you
|
|
come near the boat I'll shoot you through the head, for I am
|
|
resolved to have my liberty." So he turned himself about, and swam for
|
|
the shore, and I make no doubt but he reached it with ease, for he was
|
|
an excellent swimmer.
|
|
I could have been content to have taken this Moor with me, and
|
|
have drowned the boy, but there was no venturing to trust him. When he
|
|
was gone I turned to the boy, whom they called Xury, and said to
|
|
him, "Xury, if you will be faithful to me I'll make you a great man;
|
|
but if you will not stroke your face to be true to me," this is, swear
|
|
by Mahomet and his father's beard, "I must throw you into the sea
|
|
too." The boy smiled in my face, and spoke so innocently, that I could
|
|
not mistrust him, and swore to be faithful to me, and go all over
|
|
the world with me.
|
|
While I was in view of the Moor that was swimming, I stood out
|
|
directly to sea with the boat, rather stretching to windward, that
|
|
they might think me gone towards the straits' mouth (as indeed any one
|
|
that had been in their wits must have been supposed to do); for who
|
|
would have supposed we were sailed on to the southward to the truly
|
|
barbarian coast, where whole nations of negroes were sure to
|
|
surround us with their canoes, and destroy us; where we could ne'er
|
|
once go on shore but we should be devoured by savage beasts, or more
|
|
merciless savages of humankind?
|
|
But as soon as it grew dusk in the evening, I changed my course, and
|
|
steered directly south and by east, bending my course a little
|
|
toward the east, that I might keep in with the shore; and having a
|
|
fair, fresh gale of wind, and a smooth, quiet sea, I made such sail
|
|
that I believe by the next day at three o'clock in the afternoon, when
|
|
I first made the land, I could not be less than 150 miles south of
|
|
Sallee; quite beyond the Emperor of Morocco's dominions, or indeed
|
|
of any other king thereabouts, for we saw no people.
|
|
Yet such was the fright I had taken at the Moors, and the dreadful
|
|
apprehensions I had of falling into their hands, that I would not
|
|
stop, or go on shore, or come to an anchor, the wind continuing
|
|
fair, till I had sailed in that manner five days; and then the wind
|
|
shifting to the southward, I concluded also that if any of our vessels
|
|
were in chase of me, they also would now give over; so I ventured to
|
|
make to the coast, and came to an anchor in the mouth of a little
|
|
river, I knew not what, or where; neither what latitude, what country,
|
|
what nations, or what river. I neither saw, nor desired to see, any
|
|
people; the principal thing I wanted was fresh water. We came into
|
|
this creek in the evening, resolving to swim on shore as soon as it
|
|
was dark, and discover the country; but as soon as it was quite dark
|
|
we heard such dreadful noises of the barking, roaring, and howling
|
|
of wild creatures, of we knew not what kinds, that the poor boy was
|
|
ready to die with fear, and begged me not to go on shore till day.
|
|
"Well, Xury," said I, "then I won't; but it may be we may see men by
|
|
day, who will be as bad to us as these lions." "Then we give them
|
|
the shoot gun," says Xury, laughing; "make them run 'way." Such
|
|
English Xury spoke by conversing among us slaves. However, I was
|
|
glad to see the boy so cheerful, and I gave him a dram (out of our
|
|
patron's case of bottles) to cheer him up. After all, Xury's advice
|
|
was good, and I took it; we dropped our little anchor and lay still
|
|
all night. I say still, for we slept none; for in two or three hours
|
|
we saw vast great creatures (we knew not what to call them) of many
|
|
sorts come down to the sea-shore and run into the water, wallowing and
|
|
washing themselves for the pleasure of cooling themselves; and they
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made such hideous howlings and yellings, that I never indeed heard the
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like.
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Xury was dreadfully frightened, and indeed so was I too; but we were
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both more frighted when we heard one of these mighty creatures come
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swimming towards our boat; we could not see him, but we might hear him
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by his blowing to be a monstrous huge and furious beast. Xury said
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it was a lion, and it might be so for aught I know; but poor Xury
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cried to me to weigh the anchor and row away. "No," says I, "Xury;
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we can slip our cable with the buoy to it, and go off to sea; they
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cannot follow us far." I had no sooner said so, but I perceived the
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creature (whatever it was) within two oars' length, which something
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surprised me; however, I immediately stepped to the cabin door, and
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taking up my gun, fired at him, upon which he immediately turned about
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and swam towards the shore again.
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But is is impossible to describe the horrible noises, and hideous
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cries and howlings, that were raised, as well upon the edge of the
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shore as higher within the country, upon the noise or report of the
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gun, a thing I have some reason to believe those creatures had never
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heard before. This convinced me that there was no going on shore for
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us in the night upon that coast; and how to venture on shore in the
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day was another question too; for to have fallen into the hands of any
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of the savages, had been as bad as to have fallen into the hands of
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lions and tigers; at least we were equally apprehensive of the
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danger of it.
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Be that as it would, we were obliged to go on shore somewhere or
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other for water, for we had not a pint left in the boat; when or where
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to get to it, was the point. Xury said if I would let him go on
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shore with one the jars, he would find if there was any water, and
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bring some to me. I asked him why he should go? Why I should not go
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and he stay in the boat? The boy answered with so much affection, that
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made me love him ever after. Says he, "If wild mans come, they eat me,
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you go way." "Well, Xury," said I, "we will both go; and if the wild
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mans come, we will kill them, they shall eat neither of us." So I gave
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Xury a piece of rusk bread to eat, and a dram out of our patron's case
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of bottles which I mentioned before; and we hauled in the boat as near
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the shore as we thought was proper, and so waded on shore, carrying
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nothing but our arms and two jars for water.
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I did not care to go out of sight of the boat, fearing the coming of
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canoes with savages down the river; but the boy seeing a low place
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about a mile up the country, rambled to it; and by and by I saw him
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come running towards me. I thought he was pursued by some savage, or
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frighted with some wild beast, and I ran forward towards him to help
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him; but when I came nearer to him, I saw something hanging over his
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shoulders, which was a creature that he had shot, like a hare, but
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different in color, and longer legs. However, we were very glad of it,
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and it was very good meat; but the great joy that poor Xury came
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with was to tell me he had found good water, and seen no wild mans.
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But we found afterwards that we need not take such pains for
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water, for a little higher up the creek where we were we found the
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water fresh when the tide was out, which flowed but a little way up;
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so we filled our jars, and feasted on the hare we had killed, and
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prepared to go on our way, having seen no footsteps of any human
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creatures in that part of the country.
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As I had been one voyage to this coast before, I knew very well that
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the Islands of the Canaries, and the Cape de Verde Islands also, lay
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not far off from the coast. But as I had no instruments to take an
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|
observation to know what latitude we were in, and did not exactly
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know, or at least remember, what latitude they were in, I knew not
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where to look for them, or when to stand off to sea towards them;
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otherwise I might now easily have found some of these islands. But
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my hope was, that if I stood along this coast till I came to that part
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where the English traded, I should find some of their vessels upon
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their usual design of trade, that would relieve and take us in.
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By the best of my calculation, that place where I now was must be
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that country which, lying between the Emperor of Morocco's dominions
|
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and the negroes, lies waste and uninhabited, except by wild beasts;
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the negroes having abandoned it and gone farther south for fear of the
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|
Moors, and the Moors not thinking it worth inhabiting, by reason of
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its barrenness; and indeed both forsaking it because of the prodigious
|
|
number of tigers, lions, leopards, and other furious creatures which
|
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harbor there; so that the Moors use it for their hunting only, where
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they go like an army, two or three thousand men at a time; and
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indeed for near a hundred miles together upon this coast we saw
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nothing but a waste uninhabited country by day, and heard nothing
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but howlings and roarings of wild beasts by night.
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Once or twice in the daytime I thought I saw the Pico of being the
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high top of the Mountain Teneriffe in the Canaries, and had a great
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mind to venture out in hopes of reaching thither; but having tried
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twice, I was forced in again by contrary winds, the sea also going too
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high for my little vessel; so I resolved to pursue my first design,
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and keep along the shore.
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Several times I was obliged to land for fresh water after we had
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|
left this place; and once in particular, being early in the morning,
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we came to an anchor under a little point of land which was pretty
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high; and the tide beginning to flow, we lay still to go farther in.
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Xury, whose eyes were more about them than it seems mine were, calls
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softly to me, and tells me that we had best go farther off the
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shore; "For," says he, "look, yonder lies a dreadful monster on the
|
|
side of that hillock fast asleep." I looked where he pointed, and
|
|
saw a dreadful monster indeed, for it was a terrible great lion that
|
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lay on the side of the shore, under the shade of a piece of the hill
|
|
that hung as it were a little over him. "Xury," says I, "you shall
|
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go on shore and kill him." Xury looked frighted, and said, "Me kill!
|
|
he eat me at one mouth;" one mouthful he meant. However, I said no
|
|
more to the boy, but bade him lie still, and I took our biggest gun,
|
|
which was almost musketbore, and loaded it with a good charge of
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powder, and with two slugs, and laid it down; then I loaded another
|
|
gun with two bullets; and the third (for we had three pieces) I loaded
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|
with five smaller bullets. I took the best aim I could with the
|
|
first piece to have him shot into the head, but he lay so with his leg
|
|
raised a little above his nose, that the slugs hit his leg about the
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|
knee, and broke the bone. He started up growling at first, but finding
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|
his leg broke, fell down again, and then got up upon three legs and
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|
gave the most hideous roar that ever I heard. I was a little surprised
|
|
that I had not hit him on the head. However, I took up the second
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|
piece immediately, and, though he began to move off, fired again,
|
|
and shot him into the head, and had the pleasure to him drop, and make
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|
but little noise, but lay struggling for life. Then Xury took heart,
|
|
and would have me let him go on shore. "Well, go," said I; so the
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|
boy jumped into the water, and taking a little gun in one hand, swam
|
|
to shore with the other hand, and coming close to the creature, put
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|
the muzzle of the piece to his ear, and shot him into the head
|
|
again, which despatched him quite.
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|
This was game indeed to us, but this was no food; and I was very
|
|
sorry to lose three charges of powder and shot upon a creature that
|
|
was good for nothing to us. However, Xury said he would have some of
|
|
him; so he comes on board, and asked me to give him the hatchet.
|
|
"For what, Xury?" said I. "Me cut off his head," said he. However,
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|
Xury could not cut off his head, but he cut off a foot, and brought it
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|
with him, and it was a monstrous great one.
|
|
I bethought myself, however, that perhaps the skin of him might
|
|
one way or other be of some value to us; and I resolved to take off
|
|
his skin if I could. So Xury and I went to work with him; but Xury was
|
|
much the better workman at it, for I knew very ill how to do it.
|
|
Indeed, it took us both the whole day, but at last we got off the hide
|
|
of him, and spreading it on the top of our cabin, the sun
|
|
effectually dried it in two days' time, and it afterwards served me to
|
|
lie upon.
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|
After this stop we made on to the southward continually for ten or
|
|
twelve days, living very sparing on our provisions, which began to
|
|
abate very much, and going no oftener into the shore than we were
|
|
obliged to for fresh water. My design in this was to make the river
|
|
Gambia or Senegal - that is to say, anywhere about the Cape de Verde -
|
|
where I was in hopes to meet with some European ship; and if I did
|
|
not, I knew not what course I had to take, but to seek out for the
|
|
lands, or perish there among the negroes. I knew that all the ships
|
|
from Europe, which sailed either to the coast of Guinea or to
|
|
Brazil, or to the East Indies, made this cape, or those islands; and
|
|
in a word, I put the whole of my fortune upon this single point,
|
|
either that I must meet with some ship, or must perish.
|
|
When I had pursued this resolution about ten days longer, as I
|
|
have said, I began to see that the land was inhabited; and in two or
|
|
three places, as we sailed by, we saw people stand upon the shore to
|
|
look at us; we could also perceive they were quite black, and stark
|
|
naked. I was once inclined to have gone on shore to them; but Xury was
|
|
my better counsellor, and said to me. "No go, no go." However, I
|
|
hauled in nearer the shore that I might talk to them, and I found they
|
|
ran along the shore by me a good way. I observed they had no weapons
|
|
in their hands, except one, who had a long slender stick, which Xury
|
|
said was a lance, and that they would throw them a great way with good
|
|
aim. So I kept a distance, but talked with them by signs as well as
|
|
I could, and particularly made signs for something to eat; they
|
|
beckoned to me to stop my boat, and that they would fetch me some
|
|
meat. Upon this I lowered the top of my sail, and lay by, and two of
|
|
them ran up into the country, and in less than half an hour came back,
|
|
and brought with them two pieces of dried flesh and some corn, such as
|
|
is the produce of their country; but we neither knew what the one or
|
|
the other was. However, we were willing to accept it, but how to
|
|
come at it was our next dispute, for I was not for venturing on
|
|
shore to them, and they were as much afraid to us; but they took a
|
|
safe way for us all, for they brought it to the shore and laid it
|
|
down, and went and stood a great way off till we fetched it on
|
|
board, and then came close to us again.
|
|
We made signs of thanks to them, for we had nothing to make them
|
|
amends. But an opportunity offered that very instant to oblige them
|
|
wonderfully; for while we were lying by the shore came two mighty
|
|
creatures, one pursuing the other (as we took it) with great fury from
|
|
the mountains towards the sea; whether it was the male pursuing the
|
|
female, or whether they were in sport or in rage, we could not tell,
|
|
any more than we could tell whether it was usual or strange, but I
|
|
believe it was the latter; because in the first place, those
|
|
ravenous creatures seldom appear but in the night; and in the second
|
|
place, we found the people terribly frightened, especially the
|
|
women. The man that had the lance or dart did not fly from them, but
|
|
the rest did; however, as the two creatures ran directly into the
|
|
water, they did not seem to offer to fall upon any of the negroes, but
|
|
plunged themselves into the sea, and swam about, as if they had come
|
|
for their diversion. At last, one of them began to come nearer our
|
|
boat than at first I expected; but I lay ready for him, for I had
|
|
loaded my gun with all possible expedition, and bade Xury load both
|
|
the others. As soon as he came fairly within my reach, I fired, and
|
|
shot him directly into the head; immediately he sunk down into the
|
|
water, but rose instantly, and plunged up and down, as if he was
|
|
struggling for life, and so indeed he was. He immediately made to
|
|
the shore; but between the wound, which was his mortal hurt, and the
|
|
strangling of the water, he died just before he reached the shore.
|
|
It is impossible to express the astonishment of these poor
|
|
creatures, at the noise and the fire of my gun; some of them were even
|
|
ready to die for fear, and fell down as dead with the very terror. But
|
|
when they saw the creature dead, and sunk in the water, and that I
|
|
made signs to them to come to the shore, they took heart and came to
|
|
the shore, and began to search for the creature. I found him by his
|
|
blood staining the water: and by the help of a rope, which I slung
|
|
round him, and gave the negroes to haul, they dragged him on the
|
|
shore, and found that it was a most curious leopard, spotted, and fine
|
|
to an admirable degree; and the negroes held up their hands with
|
|
admiration, to think what it was I had killed him with.
|
|
The other creature, frighted with the flash of fire and the noise of
|
|
the gun, swam on shore, and ran directly to the mountains from
|
|
whence they came; nor could I, at that distance, know what it was. I
|
|
found quickly the negroes were for eating the flesh of this
|
|
creature, so I was willing to have them take it as a favor from me;
|
|
which, when I made signs to them that they might take him, they were
|
|
very thankful for. Immediately they fell to work with him; and
|
|
though they had no knife yet, with a sharpened piece of wood, they
|
|
took off his skin as readily, and much more readily, than we could
|
|
have done it with a knife. They offered me some of the flesh, which
|
|
I declined, making as if I would give it them, but made signs for
|
|
the skin, which they gave me very freely, and brought me a great
|
|
deal more of their provision, which, though I did not understand,
|
|
yet I accepted. Then I made signs to them for some water, and held out
|
|
one of my jars to them, turning it bottom upward, to show that it
|
|
was empty, and that I wanted to have it filled. The called immediately
|
|
to some of their friends, and there came two women, and brought a
|
|
great vessel made of earth, and burnt, as I suppose, in the sun;
|
|
this they set down for me, as before, and I sent Xury on shore with my
|
|
jars, and filled them all three. There women were as stark naked as
|
|
the men.
|
|
I was now furnished with roots and corn, such as it was, and
|
|
water; and leaving my friendly negroes, I made forward for about
|
|
eleven days more, without offering to go near the shore, till I saw
|
|
the land run out a great length into the sea, at about the distance of
|
|
four or five leagues before me; and the sea being very calm, I kept
|
|
a large offing, to make this point. At length, doubling the point,
|
|
at about two leagues from the land, I saw plainly land on the other
|
|
side, to seaward; then I concluded, as it was most certain indeed,
|
|
that this was the Cape de Verde, and those the islands, called from
|
|
thence Cape de Verde Islands. However, they were at a great
|
|
distance, and I could not well tell what I had best to do; for if I
|
|
should be taken with a fresh of wind, I might neither reach one or
|
|
other.
|
|
In this dilemma, as I was very pensive, I stepped into the cabin,
|
|
and sat me down, Xury having the helm; when, on a sudden, the boy
|
|
cried out, "Master, master, a ship with a sail!" and the foolish boy
|
|
was frighted out of his wits, thinking it must needs be some of his
|
|
master's ships sent to pursue us, when I knew we were gotten far
|
|
enough out of their reach. I jumped out of the cabin, and
|
|
immediately saw, not only the ship, but what she was, viz., that it
|
|
was a Portuguese ship, and, as I thought, was bound to the coast of
|
|
Guinea, for negroes. But when I observed the course she steered, I was
|
|
soon convinced they were bound some other way, and did not design to
|
|
come any nearer to the shore; upon which I stretched out to sea as
|
|
much as I could, resolving to speak with them, if possible.
|
|
With all the sail I could make, I found I should not be able to come
|
|
in their way, but they would be gone by before I could make any signal
|
|
to them; but after I had crowded to the utmost, and began to
|
|
despair, they, it seems, saw me by the help of their perspective
|
|
glasses, and that it was some European boat, which, as they
|
|
supposed, must belong to some ship that was lost, so they shortened
|
|
sail to let me come up. I was encouraged with this; and as I had my
|
|
patron's ancient on board, I made a waft of it to them for a signal of
|
|
distress, and fired a gun both of which they say; for they told me
|
|
they saw the smoke, though they did not hear the gun. Upon these
|
|
signals they very kindly brought to, and lay by for me; and in about
|
|
three hours' time I came up with them.
|
|
They asked me what I was, in Portuguese, and in Spanish, and in
|
|
French, but I understood none of them; but at last a Scots sailor, who
|
|
was on board, called to me, and I answered him, and told him I was
|
|
an Englishman, that I had made my escape out of slavery from the
|
|
Moors, at Sallee. Then they bade me come on board, and very kindly
|
|
took me in, and all my goods.
|
|
It was an inexpressible joy to me, that any one will believe, that I
|
|
was thus delivered, as I esteemed it, from such a miserable, and
|
|
almost hopeless, condition as I was in; and I immediately offered
|
|
all I had to the captain of the ship, as a return for my
|
|
deliverance. But he generously told me he would take nothing from
|
|
me, but that all I had should be delivered safe to me when I came to
|
|
the Brazils. "For," says he, "I have saved your life on no other terms
|
|
than I would be glad to be saved myself; and it may, one time or
|
|
other, be my lot to be taken up in the same condition. Besides,"
|
|
says he, "when I carry you to the Brazils, so great a way from your
|
|
own country, if I should take from you what you have, you will be
|
|
starved there, and then I only take away that life I have given. No,
|
|
no, Seignior Inglese," says he, "Mr. Englishman, I will carry you
|
|
thither in charity, and those things will help you to buy your
|
|
subsistence there, and your passage home again."
|
|
As he was charitable in his proposal, so he was just in the
|
|
performance to a tittle; for he ordered the seamen that none should
|
|
offer to touch anything I had; then he took everything into his own
|
|
possession, and gave me back an exact inventory of them, that I
|
|
might have them, even so much as my three earthen jars.
|
|
As to my boat, it was a very good one, and that he saw, and told
|
|
me he would buy it of me for the ship's use, and asked me what I would
|
|
have for it? I told him he had been so generous to me in everything,
|
|
that I could not offer to make any price of the boat, but left it
|
|
entirely to him; upon which he told me he would give me a note of
|
|
his hand to pay me eighty pieces of eight for it at Brazil, and when
|
|
it came there, if any one offered to give more, he would make it up.
|
|
He offered me also sixty pieces of eight for my boy Xury, which I
|
|
was loth to take; not that I was not willing to let the captain have
|
|
him, but I was very loth to sell the poor boy's liberty, who had
|
|
assisted me so faithfully in procuring my own. However, when I let him
|
|
know my reason, he owned it to be just, and offered me this medium,
|
|
that he would give the boy an obligation to set him free in ten
|
|
years if he turned Christian. Upon this, and Xury saying he was
|
|
willing to go to him, I let the captain have him.
|
|
We had a very good voyage to the Brazils, and arrived in the Bay
|
|
de Todos los Santos, or All Saints' Bay, in about twenty-one days
|
|
after. And now I was once more delivered from the most miserable of
|
|
all conditions of life; and what to do next with myself I was now to
|
|
consider.
|
|
The generous treatment the captain gave me, I can never enough
|
|
remember. He would take nothing of me for my passage, gave me twenty
|
|
ducats for the leopard's skin, and forty for the lion's skin, which
|
|
I had in my boat, and caused everything I had in the ship to be
|
|
punctually delivered me; and what I was willing to sell he bought,
|
|
such as the case of bottles, two of my guns, and a piece of the lump
|
|
of beeswax, -for I had made candles of the rest; in a word, I made
|
|
about 220 pieces of eight of all my cargo, and with this stock I
|
|
went on shore in the Brazils.
|
|
I had not been long here, but being recommended to the house of a
|
|
good honest man like himself, who had an ingeino as they call it, that
|
|
is, a plantation and a sugar-house, I lived with him some time, and
|
|
acquainted myself by that means with the manner of their planting
|
|
and making of sugar; and seeing how well the planters lived, and how
|
|
they grew rich suddenly, I resolved, if I could get license to
|
|
settle there, I would turn planter among them, resolving in the
|
|
meantime to find out some way to get my money which I had left in
|
|
London remitted to me. To this purpose, getting a kind of a letter
|
|
of naturalization, I purchased as much land that was uncured as my
|
|
money would reach, and formed a plan for my planation and
|
|
settlement, and such a one as might be suitable to the stock which I
|
|
proposed to myself to receive from England.
|
|
I had a neighbor, a Portuguese of Lisbon, but born of English
|
|
parents, whose name was Wells, and in much such circumstances as I
|
|
was. I call him my neighbor, because his plantation lay next to
|
|
mine, and we went on very sociably together. My stock was but low,
|
|
as well as his; and we rather planted for food than anything else, for
|
|
about two years. However, we began to increase, and our land began
|
|
to come into order; so that the third year we planted some tobacco,
|
|
and made each of us a large piece of ground ready for planting canes
|
|
in the year to come. But we both wanted help; and now I found, more
|
|
than before, I had done wrong in parting with my boy Xury.
|
|
But alas! for me to do wrong that never did right was no great
|
|
wonder. I had no remedy but to go on. I was gotten into an
|
|
employment quite remote to my genius, and directly contrary to the
|
|
life I delighted in, and for which I forsook my father's house, and
|
|
broke through all his good advice; nay, I was coming into the very
|
|
middle station, or upper degree of low life, which my father advised
|
|
me to before; and which if I resolved to go on with, I might as well
|
|
have stayed at home, and never have fatigued myself in the world as
|
|
I had done. And I used often to say to myself I could have done this
|
|
as well in England among my friends, as have gone 5,000 miles off to
|
|
do it among strangers and savages, in a wilderness, and at such a
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distance as never to hear from any part of the world that had the
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least knowledge of me.
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In this manner I used to look upon my condition with the utmost
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regret. I had nobody to converse with, but now and then this neighbor;
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no work to be done, but by the labor of my hands; and I used to say, I
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lived just like a man cast away upon some desolate island, that had
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nobody there but himself. But how just has it been! and how should all
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men reflect, that when they compare their present conditions with
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others that are worse, Heaven may oblige them to make the exchange,
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and be convinced of their former felicity by their experience; -I say,
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how just has it been, that the truly solitary life I reflected on in
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an island of mere desolation should be my lot, who had so often
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unjustly compared it with the life which I then led, in which, had I
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continued, I had in all probability been exceeding prosperous and
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rich.
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I was in some degree settled in my measures for carrying on the
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plantation before my kind friend, the captain of the ship that took me
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up at sea, went back; for the ship remained there in providing his
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loading, and preparing for his voyage, near three months; when telling
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him what little stock I had left behind me in London, he gave me
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this friendly and sincere advice: "Seignior Inglese," says he, for
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so he always called me, "if you will give me letters, and a
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procuration here in form to me, with orders to the person who has your
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money in London to send your effects to Lisbon, to such persons as I
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shall direct, and in such goods as are proper for this country, I will
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bring you the produce of them, God willing, at my return. But since
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human affairs are all subject to changes and disasters, I would have
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you give orders but for one hundred pounds sterling, which, you say,
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is half your stock, and let the hazard be run for the first; so that
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if it come safe, you may order the rest the same way; and if it
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miscarry, you may have the other half to have recourse to for your
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supply."
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This was so wholesome advice, and looked so friendly, that I could
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not but be convinced it was the best course I could take; so I
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accordingly prepared letters to the gentlewoman with whom I left my
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money, and a procuration to the Portuguese captain, as he desired.
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I wrote the English captain's widow a full account of all my
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adventures; my slavery, escape, and how I had met with the Portugal
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captain at sea, the humanity of his behavior, and in what consition
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I was now in, with all necessary directions for my supply. And when
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this honest captain came to Lisbon, he found means, by some of the
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English merchants there, to send over not the order only, but a full
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account of my story to a merchant at London, who represented it
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effectually to her; whereupon, she not only delivered the money, but
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out of her own pocket sent the Portugal captain a very handsome
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present for his humanity and charity to me.
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The merchant in London vesting this hundred pounds in English goods,
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such as the captain had writ for, sent them directly to him at Lisbon,
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and he brought them all safe to me to the Brazils; among which,
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without my direction (for I was too young in my business to think of
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them), he had taken care to have all sorts of tools, iron-work, and
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utensils necessary for my plantation, and which were of great use to
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me.
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When this cargo arrived, I thought my fortune made, for I was
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surprised with joy of it; and my good steward, the captain, had laid
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out the five pounds, which my friend had sent him for a present for
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himself, to purchase and bring me over a servant under bond for six
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years' service, and would not accept of any consideration, except a
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little tobacco, which I would have him accept, being of my own
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produce.
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Neither was this all; but my goods being all English manufactures
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such as cloth, stuffs, baise, and things particularly valuable and
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desirable in the country, I found means to sell them to a very great
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advantage; so that I may say I had more than four times the value of
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my first cargo, and was now infinitely beyond my poor neighbor, I mean
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in the advancement of my plantation; for the first thing I did, I
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bought me a negro slave, and a European servant also; I mean another
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besides that which the captain brought me from Lisbon.
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But as abused prosperity is oftentimes made the very means of our
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greatest adversity, so was it with me. I went on the next year with
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great success in my plantation. I raised fifty great rolls of
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tobacco on my own ground, more than I had disposed of for
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necessaries among my neighbors; and these fifty rolls, being each of a
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|
hundredweight, were well cured, and laid by against the return of
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the fleet from Lisbon. And now, increasing in business and in
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|
wealth, my head began to be full of projects and undertakings beyond
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my reach, such as are, indeed, often the ruin of the best heads in
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business.
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Had I continued in the station I was now in, I had room for all
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the happy things to have yet befallen me for which my father so
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earnestly recommended a quiet, retired life, and of which he had so
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|
sensibly described the middle station of life to be full of. But other
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|
things attended me, and I was still to be the willful agent of all
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my own miseries; and particularly to increase my fault and double
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|
the reflections upon myself, which in my future sorrows I should
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|
have leisure to make. All these miscarriages were procured by my
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apparent obstinate adhering to my foolish inclination of wandering
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abroad, and pursuing that inclination in contradiction to the clearest
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|
views of doing myself good in a fair and plain pursuit of those
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|
prospects, and those measures of life, which Nature and Providence
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concurred to present me with, and to make my duty.
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As I had once done thus in my breaking away from my parents, so I
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could not be content now, but I must go and leave the happy view I had
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of being a rich and thriving man in my new plantation, only to
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pursue a rash and immoderate desire of rising faster than the nature
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|
of the thing admitted; and thus I cast myself down again into the
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|
deepest gulf of human misery that ever man fell into, or perhaps could
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|
be consistent with life and a state of health in the world.
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|
To come, then, by the just degrees to the particulars of this part
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|
of my story. You may suppose, that having now lived almost four
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|
years in the Brazils, and beginning to thrive and prosper very well
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|
upon my plantation, I had not only learned the language, but had
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|
contracted acquaintance and friendship among my fellow-planters, as
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|
well as among the merchants at St. Salvador, which was our port, and
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|
that in my discourses among them I had frequently given them an
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|
account of my two voyages to the coast of Guinea, the manner of
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|
trading with the negroes there, and how easy it was to purchase upon
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|
the coast for trifles - such as beads, toys, knives, scissors,
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|
hatchets, bits of glass, and the like - not only gold-dust, Guinea
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|
grains, elephants' teeth, etc. but negroes, for the service of the
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|
Brazils in great numbers.
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|
They listened always very attentively to my discourses on these
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|
heads, but especially to that part which related to the buying
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|
negroes; which was a trade, at that time, not only not far entered
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|
into, but, as far as it was, had been carried on by the assiento, or
|
|
permission, of the Kings of Spain and Portugal, and engrossed in the
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|
public, so that few negroes were brought, and those excessive dear.
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|
It happened, being in company with some merchants and planters of my
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|
acquaintance, and talking of those things very earnestly, three of
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|
them came to ne the next morning, and told me they had been musing
|
|
very much upon what I had discoursed with them of, the last night, and
|
|
they came to make a secret proposal to me. And after enjoining me
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|
secrecy, they told me that they had a mind to fit out a ship to go
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|
to Guinea; that they had all plantations as well as I, and were
|
|
straitened for nothing so much as servants; that as it was a trade
|
|
that could not be carried on because they could not publicly sell
|
|
the negroes when they came home, so they desired to make but one
|
|
voyage, to bring the negroes on shore privately, and divide them among
|
|
their own plantations; and, in a word, the question was, whether I
|
|
would go their supercargo in the ship, to manage the trading part upon
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|
the coast of Guinea; and they offered me that I should have my equal
|
|
share of the negroes without providing any part of the stock.
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|
This was a fair proposal, it must be confessed, had it been made
|
|
to any one that had not a settlement and plantation of his own to look
|
|
after, which was in a fair way of coming to be very considerable,
|
|
and with a good stock upon it. But for me, that was thus entered and
|
|
established, and had nothing to do but go on as I had begun, for three
|
|
or four years more, and to have sent for the other hundred pounds from
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|
England; and who, in that time, and with that little addition, could
|
|
scarce have failed of being worth three or four thousand pounds
|
|
sterling, and that increasing too - for me to think of such a
|
|
voyage, was the most preposterous thing that ever man, in such
|
|
circumstances, could be guilty of.
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|
But I, that was born to be my own destroyer, could no more resist
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|
the offer than I could restrain my first rambling designs, when my
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|
father's good counsel was lost upon me. In a word, I told them I would
|
|
go with all my heart, if they would undertake to look after my
|
|
plantation in my absence, and would dispose of it to such as I
|
|
should direct if I miscarried. This they all engaged to do, and
|
|
entered into writings or covenants to do so; and I made a formal
|
|
will disposing of my plantation and effect, in case of my death;
|
|
making the captain of the ship that had saved my life, as before, my
|
|
universal heir, but obliging him to dispose of my effects as I had
|
|
directed in my will; one-half of the produce being to himself, and the
|
|
other to be shipped to England.
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|
In short, I took all possible caution to preserve my effects and
|
|
keep up my plantation. Had I used half as much prudence to have looked
|
|
into my own interest, and have made a judgment of what I ought to have
|
|
done and not to have done, I had certainly never gone away from so
|
|
prosperous an undertaking, leaving all the probably views of a
|
|
thriving circumstance, and gone upon a voyage to sea, attended with
|
|
all its common hazards, to say nothing of the reasons I had to
|
|
expect particular misfortunes to myself.
|
|
But I was hurried on, and obeyed blindly the dictates of my fancy
|
|
rather than my reason. And accordingly, the ship being fitted out, and
|
|
the cargo furnished, and all things done as by agreement by my
|
|
partners in the voyage, I went on board in an evil hour, the (first)
|
|
of (September, 1659), being the same day eight year that I went from
|
|
my father and mother at Hull, in order to act the rebel to their
|
|
authority, and the fool to my own interest.
|
|
Our ship was about 120 tons burthen, carried six guns and fourteen
|
|
men, besides the master, his boy, and myself. We had on board no large
|
|
cargo of goods, except of such toys as were fit for our trade with the
|
|
negroes - such as beads, bits of glass, shells, and odd trifles,
|
|
especially little looking-glasses, knives, scissors, hatchets, and the
|
|
like.
|
|
The same day I went on board we set sail, standing away to the
|
|
northward upon our own coast, with design to stretch over for the
|
|
African coast, when they came about 10 or 12 degrees of northern
|
|
latitude, which, it seems, was the manner of their course in those
|
|
days. We had very good weather, only excessive hot, all the way upon
|
|
our own coast, till we came the height of Cape St. Augustino, from
|
|
whence, keeping farther off at sea, we lost sight of land, and steered
|
|
as if we was bound for the Isle Fernando de Noronha, holding our
|
|
course NE. by N., and leaving those isles on the east. In this
|
|
course we passed the line in about twelve days' time, and were, by our
|
|
last observation, in 7 degrees 22 minutes northern latitude, when a
|
|
violent tornado, or hurricane, took us quite out of our knowledge.
|
|
It began from the south-east, came about to the north-west, and then
|
|
settled into the north-east, from whence it blew in such a terrible
|
|
manner, that for twelve days together we could do nothing but drive,
|
|
and, scudding away before it, let it carry us wherever fate and the
|
|
fury of the winds directed; and during these twelve days I need not
|
|
say that I expected every day to be swallowed up, nor, indeed, did any
|
|
in the ship expect to save their lives.
|
|
In this distress we had, besides the terror of the storm, one of our
|
|
men died of the calenture, and one man and the boy washed overboard.
|
|
About the twelfth day, the weather abating a little, the master made
|
|
an observation as well as he could, and found that he was in about
|
|
11 degrees north latitude, but that he was 22 degrees of longitude
|
|
difference west from Cape St. Augustino; so that he found he was
|
|
gotten upon the coast of Guiana, or the north part of Brazil, beyond
|
|
the river Amazon, toward that of the River Orinoco, commonly called
|
|
the Great River, and began to consult with me what course he should
|
|
take, for the ship was leaky and very much disabled, and he was
|
|
going directly back to the coast of Brazil.
|
|
I was positively against that; and looking over the charts of the
|
|
sea-coast of America with him, we concluded there was no inhabited
|
|
country for us to have recourse to till we came within the circle of
|
|
the Caribbee Islands, and, therefore, resolved to stand away for
|
|
Barbadoes, which by keeping off at sea, to avoid the indraft of the
|
|
Bay or Gulf of Mexico, we might easily perform, as we hoped, in
|
|
about fifteen days' sail; whereas we could not possibly make our
|
|
voyage to the coast of Africa without some assistance, both to our
|
|
ship and to ourselves.
|
|
With this design we changed our course, and steered away NW. by W.
|
|
in order to reach some of our English islands, where I hoped for
|
|
relief; but our voyage was otherwise determined; for being in the
|
|
latitude of 12 degrees 18 minutes, a second storm came upon us which
|
|
carried us away with the same impetuosity westward, and drove us so
|
|
out of the very way of all human commerce, that had all our lives been
|
|
saved, as to the sea, we were rather in danger of being devoured by
|
|
savages than ever returning to our own country.
|
|
In this distress, the wind still blowing very hard, one of our men
|
|
early in the morning cried out, "Land!" and we had no sooner ran out
|
|
of the cabin to look out, in the hopes of seeing whereabouts in the
|
|
world we were, but the ship struck upon a sand, and in a moment, her
|
|
motion being so stopped, the sea broke over her in such a manner, that
|
|
we expected we should all have perished immediately; and we were
|
|
immediately driven into our close quarters, to shelter us from the
|
|
very foam and spray of the sea.
|
|
It is not easy for any one, who has not been in the like
|
|
condition, to describe or conceive the consternation of men in such
|
|
circumstances. We knew nothing where we were, or upon what land it was
|
|
we were driven, whether an island or the main, whether inhabited or
|
|
not inhabited; and as the rage of the wind was still great, though
|
|
rather less than at first, we could not so much as hope to have the
|
|
ship hold many minutes without breaking in pieces, unless the winds,
|
|
by a kind of miracle, should turn immediately about. In a word, we sat
|
|
looking one upon another, and expecting death every moment, and
|
|
every man acting accordingly, as preparing for another world; for
|
|
there was little or nothing more for us to do in this. That which
|
|
was our present comfort, and all the comfort we had, was that,
|
|
contrary to our expectation, the ship did not break yet, and that
|
|
the master said the wind began to abate.
|
|
Now, though we thought that the wind did a little abate, yet the
|
|
ship having thus struck upon the sand, and sticking too fast for us to
|
|
expect her getting off, we were in a dreadful condition indeed, and
|
|
had nothing to do but to think of saving our lives as well as we
|
|
could. We had a boat at our stern just before the storm, but she was
|
|
first staved by dashing against the ship's rudder, and in the next
|
|
place, she broke away, and either sunk, or was driven off to sea, so
|
|
there was no hope from her; we had another boat on board, but how to
|
|
get her off into the sea, was a doubtful thing. However, there was
|
|
no room to debate, for we fancied the ship would break to pieces every
|
|
minute, and some told us she was actually broken already.
|
|
In this distress, the mate of our vessel lays hold of the boat,
|
|
and with the help of the rest of the men they got her slung over the
|
|
ship's side; and getting all into her, let go, and committed
|
|
ourselves, being eleven in number, to God's mercy, and the wild sea;
|
|
for though the storm was abated considerably, yet the sea went
|
|
dreadful high upon the shore, and might well be called den wild zee,
|
|
as the Dutch call the sea in a storm.
|
|
And now our case was very dismal indeed, for we all saw plainly that
|
|
the sea went so high, that the boat could not live, and that we should
|
|
be inevitably drowned. As to making sail, we had none; nor, if we had,
|
|
could we have done anything with it; so we worked at the oar towards
|
|
the land, though with heavy hearts, like men going to execution, for
|
|
we all knew that when the boat came nearer the shore, she would be
|
|
dashed in a thousand pieces by the breach of the sea. However, we
|
|
committed our souls to God in the most earnest manner; and the wind
|
|
driving us towards the shore, we hastened our destruction with our own
|
|
hands, pulling as well as we could towards land.
|
|
What the shore was, whether rock or sand, whether steep or shoal, we
|
|
knew not; the only hope that could rationally give us the least shadow
|
|
of expectation was, if we might happen into some bay or gulf, or the
|
|
mouth of some river, where by great chance we might have run our
|
|
boat in, or got under the lee of the land, and perhaps made smooth
|
|
water. But there was nothing of this appeared; but as we made nearer
|
|
and nearer the shore, the land looked more frightful than the sea.
|
|
After we had rowed, or rather driven, about a league and a half,
|
|
as we reckoned it, a raging wave, mountain-like, came rolling astern
|
|
of us, and plainly bade us expect the coup de grace. In a word, it
|
|
took us with such a fury, that it overset the boat at once; and
|
|
separating us, as well from the boat as from one another, gave us
|
|
not time hardly to say, "O God!" for we were all swallowed up in a
|
|
moment.
|
|
Nothing can describe the confusion of thought which I felt when I
|
|
sunk into the water; for though I swam very well, yet I could not
|
|
deliver myself from the waves so as to draw breath, till that wave
|
|
having driven me, or rather carried me, a vast way on towards the
|
|
shore, and having spent itself, went back, and left me upon the land
|
|
almost dry, but half dead with the water I took in. I had so much
|
|
presence of mind, as well as breath left, that seeing myself nearer
|
|
the mainland than I expected, I got upon my feet, and endeavored to
|
|
make on towards the land as fast as I could, before another wave
|
|
should return and take me up again. But I soon found it was impossible
|
|
to avoid it; for I saw the sea come after me as high as a great
|
|
hill, and as furious as an enemy, which I had no means or strength
|
|
to contend with. My business was to hold my breath, and raise myself
|
|
upon the water, if I could; and so, by swimming, to preserve my
|
|
breathing, and pilot myself towards the shore, if possible: my
|
|
greatest concern now being, that the sea, as it would carry me a great
|
|
way towards the shore when it came on, might not carry me back again
|
|
with it when it gave back towards the sea.
|
|
The wave that came upon me again, buried me at once 20 or 30 feet
|
|
deep in its own body, and I could feel myself carried with a mighty
|
|
force and swiftness towards the shore a very great way; but I held
|
|
my breath, and assisted myself to swim still forward with all my
|
|
might. I was ready to burst with holding my breath, when, as I felt
|
|
myself rising up, so, to my immediate relief, I found my head and
|
|
hands shoot out above the surface of the water; and though it was
|
|
not two seconds of time that I could keep myself so, yet it relieved
|
|
me greatly, gave me breath and new courage. I was covered again with
|
|
water a good while, but not so long but I held it out; and finding the
|
|
water had spent itself, and began to return, I struck forward
|
|
against the return of the waves, and felt ground again with my feet. I
|
|
stood still a few moments to recover breath, and till the water went
|
|
from me, and then took to my heels and ran with what strength I had
|
|
farther towards the shore. But neither would this deliver me from
|
|
the fury of the sea, which came pouring in after me again, and twice
|
|
more I was lifted up by the waves and carried forwards as before,
|
|
the shore being very flat.
|
|
The last time of these two had well near been fatal to me; for the
|
|
sea, having hurried me along as before, landed me, or rather dashed
|
|
me, against a piece of a rock, and that with such force, as it left me
|
|
senseless, and indeed helpless, as to my own deliverance; for the blow
|
|
taking my side and breast, beat the breath, as it were, quite out of
|
|
my body; and had it returned again immediately, I must have been
|
|
strangled in the water. But I recovered a little before the return
|
|
of the waves, and seeing I should be covered again with the water, I
|
|
resolved to hold fast by a piece of the rock, and so to hold my
|
|
breath, if possible, till the wave went back. Now, as the waves were
|
|
not so high as at first, being near land, I held my hold till the wave
|
|
abated, and then fetched another run, which brought me so near the
|
|
shore, that the next wave, though it went over me, yet did not so
|
|
swallow me up as to carry me away, and the next run I took I got to
|
|
the mainland, where, to my great comfort, I clambered up the cliffs of
|
|
the shore, and sat me down upon the grass, free from danger, and quite
|
|
out of the reach of the water.
|
|
I was now landed, and safe on shore, and began to look up and
|
|
thank God that my life was saved in a case wherein there was some
|
|
minutes before scarce any room to hope. I believe it is impossible
|
|
to express to the life what the ecstacies and transports of the soul
|
|
are when it is so saved, as I may say, out of the very grave; and do
|
|
not wonder now at the custom, viz., that when a malefactor, who has
|
|
the halter about his neck, is tied up, and just going to be turned
|
|
off, and has a reprieve brought to him - I say, I do not wonder that
|
|
they bring a surgeon with it, to let him blood that very moment they
|
|
tell him of it, that the surprise may not drive the animal spirits
|
|
from the heart, and overwhelm him:
|
|
|
|
"For sudden joys, like griefs, confound at first."
|
|
|
|
I walked about on the shore, lifting up my hands, and my whole
|
|
being, as I may say, wrapt up in the contemplation of my
|
|
deliverance, making a thousand gestures and motions which I cannot
|
|
describe, reflecting upon all my comrades that were drowned, and
|
|
that there should not be one soul saved by myself; for, as for them, I
|
|
never saw them afterwards, or any sign of them except three of their
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hats, one cap, and two shoes that were not fellows.
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I cast my eyes to the stranded vessel, when the breach and froth
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of the sea being so big, I could hardly see it, it lay so far off, and
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considered, Lord! how was it possible I could get on shore?
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After I had solaced my mind with the comfortable part of my
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condition, I began to look round me to see what kind of place I was
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in, and what was next to be done, and I soon found my comforts
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abate, and that, in a word, I had a dreadful deliverance; for I was
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wet, had no clothes to shift me, nor anything either to eat or drink
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to comfort me, neither did I see any prospect before me but that of
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perishing with hunger, of being devoured by wild beasts; and that
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which was particularly afflicting to me was that I had no weapon
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either to hunt and kill any creature for my sustenance, or to defend
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myself against any other creature that might desire to kill me for
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theirs. In a word, I had nothing about me but a knife, a tobacco-pipe,
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and a little tobacco in a box. This was all my provision; and this
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threw me into terrible agonies of mind, that for a while I ran about
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like a madman. Night coming upon me, I began, with a heavy heart, to
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consider what would be my lot if there were any ravenous beasts in
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that country, seeing at night they always come abroad for their prey.
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All the remedy that offered to my thoughts at that time was to get
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up into a thick bushy tree like a fir, but thorny, which grew near me,
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and where I resolved to sit all night, and consider the next day
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what death I should die, for as yet I saw no prospect of life. I
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walked about a furlong from the shore to see if I could find my
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fresh water to drink, which I did, to my great joy; having drank,
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and put a little tobacco in my mouth to prevent hunger, I went to
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the tree, and getting up into it, endeavored to place myself so as
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that if I should sleep I might not fall; and having cut me a short
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stick, like a truncheon, for my defence, I took up my lodging, and
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having been excessively fatigued, I fell fast asleep, and slept as
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comfortably as, I believe, few could have done in my condition, and
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found myself the most refreshed with it that I think I ever was on
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such an occasion.
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When I waked it was broad day, the weather clear, and the storm
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abated, so that the sea did not rage and swell as before. But that
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which surprised me most was, that the ship was lifted off in the night
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from the sand where she lay, by the swelling of the tide, and was
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driven up almost as far as the rock which I first mentioned, where I
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had been so bruised by the dashing me against it. This being within
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about a mile from the shore where I was, and the ship seeming to stand
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upright still, I wished myself on board, that, at least, I might
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have some necessary things for my use.
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When I came down from my apartment in the tree I looked about me
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again, and the first thing I found was the boat, which lay as the wind
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and the sea had tossed her up upon the land, about two miles on my
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right hand. I walked as far as I could upon the shore to have got to
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her, but found a neck or inlet of water between me and the boat, which
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was about half a mile broad; so I came back for the present, being
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more intent upon getting at the ship, where I hoped to find
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something for my present subsistence.
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A little after noon I found the sea very calm, and the tide ebbed so
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far out, that I could come within a quarter of a mile of the ship; and
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here I found a fresh renewing of my grief, for I saw evidently, that
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if we had kept on board we had been all safe, that is to say, we had
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all got safe on shore, and I had not been so miserable as to be left
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entirely destitute of all comfort and company, and I now was. This
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forced tears from my eyes again; but as there was little relief in
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that, I resolved, if possible, to get to the ship; so I pulled off
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my clothes, for the weather was hot to extremity, and took the
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water. But when I came to the ship, my difficulty was still greater to
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know how to get on board; for as she lay aground, and high out of
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the water, there was nothing within my reach to lay hold of. I swam
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round her twice, and the second time I spied a small piece of rope,
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which I wondered I did not see at first, hang down by the
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fore-chains so low as that with great difficulty I got hold of it, and
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by the help of that rope got up into the forecastle of the ship.
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|
Here I found that the ship was bulged, and had a great deal of water
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in her hold, but that she lay so on the side of a bank of hard sand,
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or rather earth, that her stern lay lifted up upon the bank, and her
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|
head low almost to the water. By this means all her quarter was
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free, and all that was in that part was dry; for you may be sure my
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first work was to search and to see what was spoiled and what was
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free. And first I found that all the ship's provisions were dry and
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|
untouched by the water; and being very well disposed to eat, I went to
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the bread-room and filled my pockets with biscuit, and eat it as I
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|
went about other things, for I had no time to lose. I also found
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some rum in the great cabin, of which I took a large dram, and which I
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|
had indeed need enough of to spirit me for what was before me. Now I
|
|
wanted nothing but a boat, to furnish myself with many things which
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|
I foresaw would be very necessary to me.
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|
It was in vain to sit still and wish for what was not to be had, and
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|
this extremity roused my application. We had several spare yards,
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|
and two or three large spars of wood, and a spare topmast or two in
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the ship. I resolved to fall to work with these, and flung as many
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of them overboard as I could manage for their weight, tying every
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one with a rope, that they might not drive away. When this was done
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|
I went down the ship's side, and, pulling them to me, I tied four of
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them fast together at both ends as well as I could, in the form of a
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|
raft; and laying two or three short pieces of plank upon them,
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|
crossways, I found I could walk upon it very well, but that it was not
|
|
able to bear any great weight, the pieces being too light. So I went
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|
to work, and with the carpenter's saw I cut up a spare topmast into
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|
three lengths, and added them to my raft, with a great deal of labor
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|
and pains; but hope of furnishing myself with necessaries encouraged
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|
me to go beyond what I should have been able to have done upon another
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|
occasion.
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|
My raft was not strong enough to bear any reasonable weight. My next
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|
care was what to load it with, and how to preserve what I laid upon it
|
|
from the surf of the sea; but I was not long considering this. I first
|
|
laid all the planks or boards upon it that I could get, and having
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|
considered well what I most wanted, I first got three of the
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|
seamen's chests, which I had broken open and emptied, and lowered them
|
|
down upon my raft. The first of these I filled with provisions,
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|
viz., bread, rice, three Dutch cheeses, five pieces of dried goat's
|
|
flesh, which we lived much upon, and a little remainder of European
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|
corn, which had been laid by for some fowls which we brought to sea
|
|
with us, but the fowls were killed. There had been some barley and
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|
wheat together, but, to my great disappointment, I found afterwards
|
|
that the rats had eaten or spoiled it all. As for liquors, I found
|
|
several cases of bottles belonging to our skipper, in which were
|
|
some cordial waters, and, in all, about five or six gallons of rack.
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|
These I stowed by themselves, there being no need to put them into the
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|
chest, nor no room for them. While I was doing this, I found the
|
|
tide began to flow, though very calm, and I had the mortification to
|
|
see my coat, shirt, and waistcoat, which I had left on shore upon
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|
the sand, swim away; as for my breeches, which were only linen, and
|
|
open-kneed, I swam on board in them, and my stockings. However, this
|
|
put me upon rummaging for clothes, of which I found enough, but took
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|
no more than I wanted for present use; for I had other things which my
|
|
eye was more upon, as first tools to work with on shore; and it was
|
|
after long searching that I found out the carpenter's chest, which was
|
|
indeed a very useful prize to me, and much more valuable than a
|
|
ship-loading of gold would have been at that time. I got it down to my
|
|
raft, even whole as it was, without losing time to look into it, for I
|
|
knew in general what it contained.
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|
My next care was for some ammunition and arms; there were two very
|
|
good fowling-pieces in the great cabin, and two pistols; these I
|
|
secured first, with some powder-horns, and a small bag of shot, and
|
|
two old rusty swords. I knew there were three barrels of powder in the
|
|
ship, but knew not where our gunner had stowed them; but with much
|
|
search I found them, two of them dry and good, third had taken
|
|
water; those two I got to my raft with the arms. And now I thought
|
|
myself pretty well frighted, and began to think how I should get to
|
|
shore with them, having neither sail, oar, nor rudder; and the least
|
|
capful of wind would have overset all my navigation.
|
|
I had three encouragements. 1. A smooth, calm sea. 2. The tide
|
|
rising and setting in to the shore. 3. What little wind there was blew
|
|
me towards the land. And thus, having found two or three broken oars
|
|
belonging to the boat, and besides the tools which were in the
|
|
chest, I found two saws, an axe, and a hammer, and with this cargo I
|
|
put to sea. For a mile or thereabouts my raft went very well, only
|
|
that I found it drive a little distant from the place where I had
|
|
landed before, by which I perceived that there was some indraft of
|
|
water, and consequently I hoped to find some creek or river there,
|
|
which I might make use of as a port to get to land with my cargo.
|
|
As I imagined, so it was; there appeared before me a little
|
|
opening of the land, and I found a strong current of the tide set into
|
|
it, so I guided my raft as well as I could to keep in the middle of
|
|
the stream. But here I had like to have suffered a second shipwreck,
|
|
which, if I had, I think verily would have broke my heart, for knowing
|
|
nothing of the coast, my raft ran aground at one end of it upon a
|
|
shoal, and not being aground at the other end, it wanted but a
|
|
little that all my cargo had slipped off towards that end that was
|
|
afloat, and so fallen into the water. I did my utmost by setting my
|
|
back against the chests to keep them in their places, but could not
|
|
thrust off the raft with all my strength, neither durst I stir from
|
|
the posture I was in, but holding up the chests with all my might,
|
|
stood in that manner near half an hour, in which time the rising of
|
|
the water brought me a little more upon a level; and a little after,
|
|
the water still rising, my raft floated again, and I thrust her off
|
|
with the oar I had into the channel, and then driving up higher, I
|
|
at length found myself in the mouth of a little river, with land on
|
|
both sides, and a strong current or tide running up. I looked on
|
|
both sides for a proper place to get to shore, for I was not willing
|
|
to be driven too high up the river, hoping in time to see some ship at
|
|
sea, and therefore resolved to place myself as near the coast as I
|
|
could.
|
|
At length I spied a little cove on the right shore of the creek,
|
|
to which, with great pain and difficulty, I guided my raft, and at
|
|
last got so near, as that, reaching ground with my oar, I could thrust
|
|
her directly in; but here I had like to have dipped all my cargo in
|
|
the sea again; for that shore lying pretty steep, that is to say,
|
|
sloping, there was no place to land but where one end of my float,
|
|
if it run on shore, would lie so high and the other sink lower, as
|
|
before, that it would endanger my cargo again. All that I could do was
|
|
to wait till the tide was at the highest, keeping the raft with my oar
|
|
like an anchor to hold the side of it fast to the shore, near a flat
|
|
piece of ground, which I expected the water would flow over; and so it
|
|
did. As soon as I found water enough, for my raft drew about a foot of
|
|
water, I thrust her on upon that flat piece of ground, and there
|
|
fastened or moored her by sticking my two broken oars into the ground;
|
|
one on one side near the end, and one on the other side near the other
|
|
end; and thus I lay till the water ebbed away, and left my raft and
|
|
all my cargo safe on shore.
|
|
My next work was to view the country, and seek a proper place for my
|
|
habitation, and where to stow my goods to secure them from whatever
|
|
might happen. Where I was, I yet knew not; whether on the continent,
|
|
or on an island; whether inhabited, or not inhabited; whether in
|
|
danger of wild beasts, or not. There was a hill, not above a mile from
|
|
me, which rose up very steep and high, and which seemed to overtop
|
|
some other hills, which lay as in a ridge from it, northward. I took
|
|
out one of the fowling-pieces and one of the pistols, and a horn of
|
|
powder; and thus armed, I travelled for discovery up to the top of
|
|
that hill, where, after I had with great labor and difficulty got
|
|
to the top, I saw my fate to my great affliction, viz., that I was
|
|
in an island environed every way with the sea, no land to be seen,
|
|
except some rocks which lay a great way off, and two small islands
|
|
less than this, which lay about three leagues to the west.
|
|
I found also that the island I was in was barren, and, as I saw good
|
|
reason to believe, uninhabited, except by wild beasts, of whom,
|
|
however, I saw none; yet I saw abundance of fowls, but knew not
|
|
their kind; neither, when I killed them, could I tell what was fit for
|
|
food, and what not. At my coming back, I shot at a great bird which
|
|
I saw sitting upon a tree on the side of a great wood. I believe it
|
|
was the first gun that had been fired there since the creation of
|
|
the world. I had no sooner fired, but from all the parts of the wood
|
|
there arose an innumerable number of fowls of many sorts, making a
|
|
confused screaming, and crying, every one according to his usual note;
|
|
but not one of them of any kind that I knew. As for the creature I
|
|
killed, I took it to be a kind of a hawk, its color and beak
|
|
resembling it, but had no talons or claws more than common; its
|
|
flesh was carrion, and fit for nothing.
|
|
Contented with this discovery, I came back to raft, and fell to work
|
|
to bring my cargo on shore, which took me up the rest of that day; and
|
|
what to do with myself at night, I knew not, or, indeed, where to
|
|
rest; for I was afraid to lie down on the ground, not knowing but some
|
|
wild beast might devour me, though, as I afterwards found, there was
|
|
really no need for those fears. However, as well as I could, I
|
|
barricaded myself round with the chests and boards that I had
|
|
brought on shore, and made a kind of a hut for that night's lodging;
|
|
as for food, I yet saw not which way to supply myself, except that I
|
|
had seen two or three creatures like hares run out of the wood where I
|
|
shot the fowl.
|
|
I now began to consider that I might yet get a great many things out
|
|
of the ship, which would be useful to me, and particularly some of the
|
|
rigging and sails, and such other things as might come to land; and
|
|
I resolved to make another voyage on board the vessel, if possible.
|
|
And as I knew that the first storm that blew must necessarily break
|
|
her all in pieces, I resolved to set all other things apart till I got
|
|
everything out of the ship that I could get. Then I called a
|
|
council, that is to say, in my thoughts, whether I should take back
|
|
the raft, but this appeared impracticable; so I resolved to go as
|
|
before, when the tide was down: and I did so, only that I stripped
|
|
before I went from my hut, having nothing on but a checkered shirt and
|
|
a pair of linen drawers, and a pair of pumps on my feet.
|
|
I got on board the ship as before, and prepared a second raft, and
|
|
having had experience of the first, I neither made this so unwieldy,
|
|
nor loaded it so hard; but yet I brought away several things very
|
|
useful to me; as, at first, in the carpenter's stores I found two or
|
|
three bags full of nails and spikes, a great screw-jack, a dozen or
|
|
two of hatchets, and above all, that most useful thing called a
|
|
grindstone. All these I secured, together with several things
|
|
belonging to the gunner, particularly two or three iron crows, and two
|
|
barrels of musket bullets, seven muskets, and another fowling-piece,
|
|
with some small quantity of powder more; a large bag full of
|
|
small-shot, and a great roll of sheet-lead; but this last was so
|
|
heavy, I could not hoist it up to get it over the ship's side. Besides
|
|
these things, I took all the men's clothes that I could find, and a
|
|
spare foretop sail, a hammock, and some bedding; and with this I
|
|
loaded my second raft, and brought them all safe on shore, to my
|
|
very great comfort.
|
|
I was under some apprehensions during my absence from the land, that
|
|
at least my provisions might be devoured on shore; but when I came
|
|
back, I found no sign of any visitor, only there sat a creature like a
|
|
wild cat upon one of the chests, which, when I came towards it, ran
|
|
away a little distance, and then stood still. She sat very composed
|
|
and unconcerned, and looked full in my face, as if she had a mind to
|
|
be acquainted with me. I presented my gun at her; but as she did not
|
|
understand it, she was perfectly unconcerned at it, nor did she
|
|
offer to stir away; upon which I tossed her a bit of biscuit,
|
|
though, by the way, I was not very free of it, for my store was not
|
|
great. However, I spared her a bit, I say, and she went to it, smelled
|
|
of it, and ate it, and looked (as pleased) for more; but I thanked
|
|
her, and could spare no more, so she marched off.
|
|
Having got my second cargo on shore, though I was fain to open the
|
|
barrels of powder and bring them by parcels, for they were too
|
|
heavy, being large casks, I went to work to make me a little tent with
|
|
the sail and some poles which I cut for that purpose; and into this
|
|
tent I brought everything that I knew would spoil either with rain
|
|
or sun; and I piled all the empty chests and casks up in a circle
|
|
round the tent, to fortify it from any sudden attempt, either from man
|
|
or beast.
|
|
When I has done this I blocked up the door of the tent with some
|
|
boards within, and an empty chest set up on end without; and spreading
|
|
one of the beds upon the ground, laying my two pistols just at my
|
|
head, and my gun at length by me, I went to bed for the first time,
|
|
and slept very quietly all night, for I was very weary and heavy;
|
|
for the night before I had slept little, and had labored very hard all
|
|
day, as well to fetch all those things from the ship, as to get them
|
|
on shore.
|
|
I had the biggest magazine of all kinds now that ever was laid up, I
|
|
believe, for one man; but I was not satisfied still, for while the
|
|
ship sat upright in that posture, I thought I ought to get
|
|
everything out of her that I could. So every day at low water I went
|
|
on board, and brought away something or other; but, particularly,
|
|
the third time I went I brought away as much of the rigging as I
|
|
could, as also all the small ropes and rope-twine I could get, with
|
|
a piece of spare canvas, which was to mend the sails upon occasion,
|
|
the barrel of wet gunpowder; in a word, I brought away all the sails
|
|
first and last; only that I was fain to cut them in pieces, and
|
|
bring as much at a time as I could; for they were no more useful to be
|
|
sails, but as mere canvas only.
|
|
But that which comforted me more still was, that at last of all,
|
|
after I had made five or six such voyages as these, and thought I
|
|
had nothing more to expect from the ship that was worth my meddling
|
|
with; I say, after all this, I found a great hogshead of bread, and
|
|
three large runlets of rum or spirits, and a box of sugar, and a
|
|
barrel of fine flour; this was surprising to me, because I had given
|
|
over expecting any more provisions, except what was spoilt by the
|
|
water. I soon emptied the hogshead of that bread, and wrapped it up
|
|
parcel by parcel in pieces of the sails, which I cut out; and, in a
|
|
word, I got all this safe on shore also.
|
|
The next day I made another voyage. And now, having plundered the
|
|
ship of what was portable and fit to hand out, I began with the
|
|
cables; and cutting the great cable into pieces, such as I could move,
|
|
I got two cables and a hawser on shore, with all the iron-work I could
|
|
get; and having cut down the spritsail-yard, and the mizzen-yard,
|
|
and everything I could to make a large raft, I loaded it with all
|
|
those heavy goods, and came away. But my good luck began now to
|
|
leave me; for this raft was so unwieldy, and so overladen, that
|
|
after I was entered the little cove where I had landed the rest of
|
|
my goods, not being able to guide it so handily as I did the other, it
|
|
overset, and, threw me and all my cargo into the water. As for myself,
|
|
it was no great harm, for I was near the shore; but as to my cargo, it
|
|
was great part of it lost, especially the iron, which I expected would
|
|
have been great use to me. However, when the tide was out I got most
|
|
of the pieces of cable ashore, and some of the iron, though with
|
|
infinite labor; for I was fain to dip for it into the water, a work
|
|
which fatigued me very much. After this I went every day on board, and
|
|
brought away what I could get.
|
|
I have been now thirteen days on shore, and had been eleven times on
|
|
board the ship; in which time I had brought away all that one pair
|
|
of hands could well be supposed capable to bring, though I believe
|
|
verily, had the calm weather held, I should have brought away the
|
|
whole ship piece by piece. But preparing the twelfth time to go on
|
|
board, I found the wind begin to rise. However, at low water I went on
|
|
board, and though I thought I had rummaged the cabin so effectually as
|
|
that nothing more could be found, yet I discovered a locker with
|
|
drawers in it, in one of which I found two or three razors, and one
|
|
pair of large scissors, with some ten or a dozen of good knives and
|
|
forks; in another, I found some thirty-six pounds value in money, some
|
|
European coin, some Brazil, some pieces of eight, some gold, some
|
|
silver.
|
|
I smiled to myself at the sight of this money. "O drug!" said I
|
|
aloud, "what art thou good for? Thou art not worth to me, no, not
|
|
the taking off of the ground; one of those knives is worth all this
|
|
heap. I have no manner of use for thee; even remain where thou art,
|
|
and go to the bottom as a creature whose life is not worth saving."
|
|
However, upon second thoughts, I took it away; and wrapping all this
|
|
in a piece of canvas, I began to think of making another raft; but
|
|
while I was preparing this, I found the sky overcast, and the wind
|
|
began to rise, and in a quarter of an hour it blew a fresh gale from
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the shore. It presently occurred to me that it was in vain to
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pretend to make a raft with the wind off shore, and that it was my
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business to be gone before the tide of flood began, otherwise I
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might not be able to reach the shore at all. Accordingly I let
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myself down into the water, and swam across the channel, which lay
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between the ship and the sands, and even that with difficulty
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enough, partly with the weight of the things I had about me, and
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partly the roughness of the water; for the wind rose very hastily, and
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before it was quite high water it blew a storm.
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But I was gotten home to my little tent, where I lay with all my
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wealth about me very secure. It blew very hard all that night, and
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in the morning, when I looked out, behold, no more ship was to be
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seen. I was a little surprised, but recovered myself with this
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satisfactory reflection, viz., that I had lost no time, nor abated
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no diligence, to get everything out of her that could be useful to me,
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and that indeed there was little left in her that I was able to
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bring away if I had had more time.
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I now gave over any more thoughts of the ship, or of anything out of
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her, except what might drive on there from her wreck, as indeed divers
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pieces of her afterwards did; but those things were of small use to
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me.
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My thoughts were now wholly employed about securing myself against
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either savages, if any should appear, or wild beasts, if any were in
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the island; and I had many thoughts of the method how to do this,
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and what kind of dwelling to make, whether I should make me a cave
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in the earth, or a tent upon the earth; and, in short, I resolved upon
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both, the manner and description of which it may not be improper to
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give an account of.
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I soon found the place I was in was not for my settlement,
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particularly because it was upon a low moorish ground near the sea,
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and I believed would not be wholesome; and more particularly because
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there was no fresh water near it. So I resolved to find a more healthy
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and more convenient spot of ground.
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I consulted several things in my situation, which I found would be
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proper for me. First, health and fresh water, I just now mentioned.
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Secondly, shelter from the heat of the sun. Thirdly security from
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ravenous creatures, whether men or beasts. Fourthly, a view to the
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sea, that if God sent any ship in sight I might not lose any advantage
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for my deliverance, of which I was not willing to banish all my
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expectation yet.
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In search of a place proper for this, I found a little plain on
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the side of a rising hill, whose front towards this little plain was
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steep as a house-side, so that nothing could come down upon me from
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the top; on the side of this rock there was a hollow place, worn a
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little way in, like the entrance or door of a cave; but there was
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not really any cave, or way into the rock at all.
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On the flat of the green, just before this hollow place, I
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resolved to pitch my tent. This plain was not above a hundred yards
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broad, and about twice as long, and lay like a green before my door,
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and at the end of it descended irregularly every way down into the low
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grounds by the seaside. It was on the NNW. side of the hill, so that I
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was sheltered from the heat every day, till it came to a W. and by
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S. sun, or thereabouts, which in those countries is near setting.
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Before I set up my tent, I drew a half circle before the hollow
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place, which took in about ten yards in its semi-diameter from the
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rock, and twenty yards in its diameter from its beginning and
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ending. In this half circle I pitched two rows of strong stakes,
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driving them into the ground till they stood very firm like piles, the
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biggest end being out of the ground about five feet and a half, and
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sharpened on the top. The two rows did not stand above six inches from
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one another.
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Then I took the pieces of cable which I had cut in the ship, and
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laid them in rows one upon another, within the circle, between these
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two rows of stakes, up to the top, placing other stakes in the
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inside leaning against them, about two feet and a half high, like a
|
|
spur to a post; and this fence was so strong that neither man or beast
|
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could get into it, or over it. This cost me a great deal of time and
|
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labor, especially to cut the piles in the woods, bring them to the
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place, and drive them into the earth.
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|
The entrance into this place I made to be not by a door, but by a
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short ladder to go over the top; which ladder, when I was in, I lifted
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over after me, and so I was completely fenced in, and fortified, as
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|
I thought, from all the world, and consequently slept secure in the
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night, which otherwise I could not have done; though as it appeared
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afterward, there was no need of all this caution from the enemies that
|
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I apprehended danger from.
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|
Into this fence or fortress, with infinite labor, I carried all my
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riches, all my provisions, ammunition, and stores, of which you have
|
|
the account above; and I made me a large tent, which, to preserve me
|
|
from the rains that in one part of the year are very violent there,
|
|
I made double, viz., one smaller tent within, and one larger tent
|
|
above it, and covered the uppermost with a large tarpaulin, which I
|
|
had saved among the sails. And now I lay no more for a while in the
|
|
bed which I had brought on shore, but in a hammock, which was indeed a
|
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very good one, and belonged to the mate of the ship.
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|
Into this tent I brought all my provisions, and everything that
|
|
would spoil by the wet; and having thus enclosed all my goods I made
|
|
up the entrance, which, till now, I had left open, and so passed and
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|
repassed, as I said, by a short ladder.
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|
When I had done this, I began to work my way into the rock; and
|
|
bringing all the earth and stones that I dug down out through my tent,
|
|
I laid them up within my fence in the nature of a terrace, so that
|
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it raised the ground within about a foot and a half; and thus I made
|
|
me a cave just behind my tent, which served me like a cellar to my
|
|
house.
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|
It cost me much labor, and many days, before all these things were
|
|
brought to perfection, and therefore I must go back to some other
|
|
things which took up some of my thoughts. At the same time it
|
|
happened, after I had laid my scheme for the setting up my tent, and
|
|
making the cave, that a storm of rain falling from a thick dark cloud,
|
|
a sudden flash of lightning happened, and after that a great clap of
|
|
thunder, as is naturally the effect of it. I was not so much surprised
|
|
with the lightning, as I was with a thought which darted into my
|
|
mind as swift as the lightning itself. O my powder! My very heart sunk
|
|
within me when I thought that at one blast all my powder might be
|
|
destroyed, on which, not my defence only, but the providing me food,
|
|
as I thought, entirely depended. I was nothing near so anxious about
|
|
my own danger; though had the powder took fire, I had never known
|
|
who had hurt me.
|
|
Such impression did this make upon me, that after the storm was over
|
|
I laid aside all my works, my building, and fortifying, and applied
|
|
myself to make bags and boxes to separate the powder, and keep it a
|
|
little and a little in a parcel, in hope that whatever might come it
|
|
might not all take fire at once, and to keep it so apart that it
|
|
should not be possible to make one part fire another. I finished
|
|
this work in about a fortnight; and I think my powder, which in all
|
|
was about 240 pounds weight, was divided in not less than a hundred
|
|
parcels. As to the barrel that had been wet, I did not apprehend any
|
|
danger from that, so I placed it in my new cave, which in my fancy I
|
|
called my kitchen, and the rest I hid up and down and in holes among
|
|
the rocks, so that no wet might come to it, marking very carefully
|
|
where I laid it.
|
|
In the interval of time while this was doing, I went out once, at
|
|
least, every day with my gun, as well to divert myself, as to see if I
|
|
could kill anything fit for food, and as near as I could to acquaint
|
|
myself with what the island produced. The first time I went out, I
|
|
presently discovered that there were goats in the island, which was
|
|
a great satisfaction to me; but then it was attended with this
|
|
misfortune to me, viz., that they were so shy, so subtle, and so swift
|
|
of foot, that it was the difficultest thing in the world to come at
|
|
them. But I was not discouraged at this, not doubting but I might
|
|
now and then shoot one, as it soon happened; for after I had found
|
|
their haunts a little, I laid wait in this manner for them. I observed
|
|
if they saw me in the valleys, though they were upon the rocks, they
|
|
would run away as in a terrible fright; but if they were feeding in
|
|
the valleys, and I was upon the rocks, they took no notice of me, from
|
|
whence I concluded that, by the position of their optics, their
|
|
sight was so directed downward, that they did not readily see
|
|
objects that were above them. So afterward I took this method: I
|
|
always climbed the rocks first to get above them, and then had
|
|
frequently a fair mark. The first shot I made among these creatures
|
|
I killed a she-goat, which had a little kid by her, which she gave
|
|
suck to, which grieved me heartily; but when the old one fell, the kid
|
|
stood stock still by her till I came and took her up; and not only so,
|
|
but when I carried the old one with me upon my shoulders, the kid
|
|
followed me quite to my enclosure; upon which I laid down the dam, and
|
|
took the kid in my arms, and carried it over my pale, in hopes to have
|
|
bred it up tame; but it would not eat, so I was forced to kill it, and
|
|
eat it myself. These two supplied me with flesh a great while, for I
|
|
eat sparingly, and saved my provisions, my bread especially, as much
|
|
as possibly I could.
|
|
Having now fixed my habitation, I found it absolutely necessary to
|
|
provide a place to make a fire in, and fuel to burn; and what I did
|
|
for that, as also how I enlarged my cave, and what conveniences I
|
|
made, I shall give a full account of in its place. But I must first
|
|
give some little account of myself, and of my thoughts about living,
|
|
which it may well be supposed were not a few. I had a dismal
|
|
prospect of my condition; for as I was not cast away upon that
|
|
island without being driven, as is said, by a violent storm, quite out
|
|
of the course of our intended voyage, and a great way, viz., some
|
|
hundreds of leagues out of the ordinary course of the trade of
|
|
mankind, I had great reason to consider it as a determination of
|
|
Heaven, that in this desolate place, and in this desolate manner, I
|
|
should end my life. The tears would run plentifully down face when I
|
|
made these reflections, and sometimes I would expostulate with myself,
|
|
why Providence should thus completely ruin its creatures, and render
|
|
them so absolutely miserable, so without help abandoned, so entirely
|
|
depressed, that it could hardly be rational to be thankful for such
|
|
a life.
|
|
But something always returned swift upon me to check these thoughts,
|
|
and to reprove me; and particularly one day, walking with my gun in my
|
|
hand by the seaside, I was very pensive upon the subject of my present
|
|
condition, when reason, as it were, expostulated with me t'other
|
|
way, thus: "Well, you are in a desolate condition it is true, but pray
|
|
remember, where are the rest of you? Did not you come eleven of you in
|
|
the boat? Where are the ten? Why were not they saved, and you lost?
|
|
Why were you singled out? Is it better to be here, or there?" And then
|
|
I pointed to the sea. All evils are to be considered with the good
|
|
that is in them, and with what worse attends them.
|
|
Then it occurred to me again, how well I was furnished for my
|
|
subsistence, and what would have been my case if it had not
|
|
happened, which was a hundred thousand to one, that the ship had
|
|
floated from the place where she first struck and was driven so near
|
|
to the shore that I had time to get all these things out of her;
|
|
what would have been my case, if I had been to have lived in the
|
|
condition in which I first came on shore, without necessaries of life,
|
|
or necessaries to supply and procure them? "Particularly," said I
|
|
aloud (though to myself), "what should I have done without a gun,
|
|
without ammunition, without any tools to make anything or to work
|
|
with, without clothes, bedding, a tent, or any manner of covering?"
|
|
and that now I had all these to a sufficient quantity, and was in a
|
|
fair way to provide myself in such a manner, as to live without my gun
|
|
when my ammunition was spent; so that I had a tolerable view of
|
|
subsisting without any want as long as I lived. For I considered
|
|
from the beginning how I would provide for the accidents that might
|
|
happen, and for the time that was to come, even not only after my
|
|
ammunition should be spent, but even after my health or strength
|
|
should decay.
|
|
I confess I had not entertained any notion of my ammunition being
|
|
destroyed at one blast - I mean, my powder being blown up by
|
|
lightning; and this made the thoughts of it so surprising to me when
|
|
it lightened and thundered, as I observed just now.
|
|
And now being to enter into a melancholy relation of a scene of
|
|
silent life, such, perhaps, as was never heard of in the world before,
|
|
I shall take it from its beginning and continue it in its order. It
|
|
was by my account, the 30th of September when, in the manner as
|
|
above said, I first set foot upon this horrid island, when the sun
|
|
being to us in its autumnal equinox, was almost just over my head, for
|
|
I reckoned myself, by observation, to be in the latitude of 9
|
|
degrees 22 minutes north of the line.
|
|
After I had been there about ten or twelve days it came into my
|
|
thoughts that I should lose my reckoning of time for want of books and
|
|
pen and ink, and should even forget the Sabbath days from the
|
|
working days; but to prevent this, I cut it with my knife upon a large
|
|
post, in capital letters; and making it into a great cross, I set it
|
|
up on the shore where I first landed, viz., "I came on shore here
|
|
the 30th of September 1659." Upon the sides of this square post I
|
|
cut every day a notch with my knife, and every seventh notch was as
|
|
long again as the rest, and every first day of the month as long again
|
|
as that long one; and thus I kept my calendar, or weekly, monthly, and
|
|
yearly reckoning of time.
|
|
In the next place we are to observe that among the many things which
|
|
I brought out of the ship in the several voyages, which, as above
|
|
mentioned, I made to it, I got several things of less value, but not
|
|
all less useful to me, which I omitted setting down before; as in
|
|
particular, pens, ink, and paper, several parcels in the captain's,
|
|
mate's, gunner's, and carpenter's keeping, three or four compasses,
|
|
some mathematical instruments, dials, perspectives, charts, and
|
|
books of navigation, all of which I huddled together, whether I
|
|
might want them or no. Also I found three very good Bibles, which came
|
|
to me in my cargo from England and which I had packed up among my
|
|
things; some Portuguese books, also, and among them two or three
|
|
Popish prayer-books, and several other books, all of which I carefully
|
|
secured. And I must not forget, that we had in the ship a dog and
|
|
two cats, of whose eminent history I may have occasion to say
|
|
something in its place; for I carried both the cats with me; and as
|
|
for the dog he jumped out of the ship of himself, and swam on shore to
|
|
me the day after I went on shore with my first cargo, and was a trusty
|
|
servant to me many years. I wanted nothing that he could fetch me, nor
|
|
any company that he could make up to me; I only wanted to have him
|
|
talk to me, but that would not do. As I observed before, I found
|
|
pen, ink, and paper, and I husbanded them to the utmost; and I shall
|
|
show that while my ink lasted, I kept things very exact; but after
|
|
that was gone, I could not, for I could not make any ink by any
|
|
means that I could devise.
|
|
And this put me in mind that I wanted many things, notwithstanding
|
|
all that I had amassed together; and of these, this of ink was one, as
|
|
also spade, pick-axe, and shovel, to dig or remove the earth, needles,
|
|
pins, and thread; as for linen, I soon learned to want that without
|
|
much difficulty.
|
|
This want of tools made every work I did go on heavily; and it was
|
|
near a whole year before I had entirely finished my little pale or
|
|
surrounded habitation. The piles or stakes, which were as heavy as I
|
|
could well lift, were a long time in cutting and preparing in the
|
|
woods, and more by far in bringing home; so that I spent sometimes two
|
|
days in cutting and bringing home one of those posts, and a third
|
|
day in driving it into the ground; for which purpose I got a heavy
|
|
piece of wood at first, but at last bethought myself of one of the
|
|
iron crows, which, however, though I found it, yet it made driving
|
|
those posts or piles very laborious and tedious work.
|
|
But what need I have been concerned at the tediousness of anything I
|
|
had to do, seeing I had time enough to do it in? Nor had I any other
|
|
employment, if that had been over, at least that I could foresee,
|
|
except the ranging the island to seek for food, which I did more or
|
|
less every day.
|
|
I now began to consider seriously my condition, and the circumstance
|
|
I was reduced to; and I drew up the state of my affairs in writing;
|
|
not so much to leave them to any that were to come after me, for I was
|
|
like to have but few heirs, as to deliver my thoughts from daily
|
|
poring upon them; and afflicting my mind. And as my reason began now
|
|
to master my despondency, I began to comfort myself as well as I
|
|
could, and to set the good against the evil, that I might have
|
|
something to distinguish my case from worse; and I stated it very
|
|
impartially, like a debtor and creditor, the comforts I enjoyed
|
|
against the miseries I suffered, thus:
|
|
|
|
Evil
|
|
I am cast upon a horrible desolate island, void of all hope of
|
|
recovery.
|
|
Good
|
|
But I am alive, and not drowned, as all my ship's company was.
|
|
Evil
|
|
I am singled out and separated, as it were, from all the world to be
|
|
miserable.
|
|
Good
|
|
But I am singled out, too, from all the ship's crew to be spared
|
|
from death; and He that miraculously saved me from death, can
|
|
deliver me from this condition.
|
|
Evil
|
|
I am divided from mankind, a solitaire, one banished from human
|
|
society.
|
|
Good
|
|
But I am not starved and perishing on a barren place, affording no
|
|
sustenance.
|
|
Evil
|
|
I have not clothes to cover me.
|
|
Good
|
|
But I am in a hot climate, where if I had clothes I could hardly
|
|
wear them.
|
|
Evil
|
|
I am without any defence or means to resist any violence of man or
|
|
beast.
|
|
Good
|
|
But I am cast on an island, where I see no wild beasts to hurt me,
|
|
as I saw on the coast of Africa; and what if I had been shipwrecked
|
|
there?
|
|
Evil
|
|
I have no soul to speak to, or relieve me.
|
|
Good
|
|
But God wonderfully sent the ship in near enough to the shore,
|
|
that I have gotten out so many necessary things as will either
|
|
supply my wants, or enable me to supply myself even as long as I live.
|
|
|
|
Upon the whole, here was an undoubted testimony, that there was
|
|
scarce any condition in the world so miserable but there was something
|
|
negative or something positive to be thankful for in it; and let
|
|
this stand as a direction from the experience of the most miserable of
|
|
all conditions in this world, that we may always find in it
|
|
something to comfort ourselves from, and to set in the description
|
|
of good and evil on the credit side of the account.
|
|
Having now brought my mind a little to relish my condition, and
|
|
given over looking out to sea, to see if I could spy a ship; I say,
|
|
giving over these things, I began to apply myself to accomodate my way
|
|
of living, and to make things as easy to me as I could.
|
|
I have already described my habitation, which was a tent under the
|
|
side of a rock, surrounded with a strong pale of posts and cables; but
|
|
I might now rather call it a wall, for I raised a kind of wall up
|
|
against it of turfs, about two feet thick on the outside, and after
|
|
some time - I think it was a year and a half - I raised rafters from
|
|
it leaning to the rock, and thatched or covered it with boughs of
|
|
trees and such things as I could get to keep out the rain, which I
|
|
found at some times of the year very violent.
|
|
I have already observed how I brought all my goods into this pale,
|
|
and into the cave which I had made behind me. But I must observe, too,
|
|
that at first this was a confused heap of goods, which as they lay
|
|
in no order, so they took up all my place; I had no room to turn
|
|
myself. So I set myself to enlarge my cave and works farther into
|
|
the earth; for it was a loose sandy rock which yielded easily to the
|
|
labor I bestowed on it. And so, when I found I was pretty safe as to
|
|
beasts of prey, I worked sideways to the right hand into the rock; and
|
|
then, turning to the right again, working quite out, and made me a
|
|
door to come out on the outside of my pale or fortification. This gave
|
|
me not only egress and regress, as it were a back-way to my tent and
|
|
to my storehouse, but gave me room to stow my goods.
|
|
And now I began to apply myself to make such necessary things as I
|
|
found I most wanted, as particularly a chair and a table; for
|
|
without these I was not able to enjoy the few comforts I had in the
|
|
world. I could not write or eat, or do several things with so much
|
|
pleasure without a table.
|
|
So I went to work: and here I must needs observe, that as reason
|
|
is the substance and original of the mathematics, so by stating and
|
|
squaring everything by reason, and by making the most rational
|
|
judgment of things, every man may be in time master of every
|
|
mechanic art. I had never handled a tool in my life; and yet in
|
|
time, by labor, application, and contrivance, I found at last that I
|
|
wanted nothing but I could have made it, especially if I had had
|
|
more tools. However, I made abundance of things even without tools,
|
|
and some with no more tools than an adze and a hatchet, which,
|
|
perhaps, were never made that way before, and that with infinite
|
|
labor. For example, if I wanted a board, I had no other way but to cut
|
|
down a tree, set it on an edge before me, and hew it flat on either
|
|
side with my axe, till I had brought it to be thick as a plank, and
|
|
then dub it smooth with my adze. It is true, by this method I could
|
|
make but one board out of a whole tree; but this I had no remedy for
|
|
but patience, any more than I had for the prodigious deal of time
|
|
and labor which it took me up to make a plank or board. But my time or
|
|
labor was little worth, and so it was as well employed one way as
|
|
another.
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However, I made me a table and a chair, as I observed above, in
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the first place, and this I did out of the short pieces of boards that
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I brought on my raft from the ship. But when I had wrought out some
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boards, as above, I made large shelves of the breadth of a foot and
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a half one over another, all along one side of my cave, to lay all
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my tools, nails, and ironwork; and, in a word, to separate
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everything at large in their places, that I might come easily at them.
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I knocked pieces into the wall of the rock to hang my guns and all
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things that would hang up; so that had my cave been to be seen, it
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looked like a general magazine of all necessary things; and I had
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everything so ready at my hand, that it was a great pleasure to me
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to see all my goods in such order, and especially to find my stock
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of all necessaries so great.
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And now it was when I began to keep a journal of every day's
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employment; for, indeed, at first, I was in too much hurry, and not
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only hurry as to labor, but in too much discomposure of mind; and my
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journal would have been full of many dull things. For example, I
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must have said thus: September the 30th. -After I got to shore, and
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had escaped drowning, instead of being thankful to God for my
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deliverance, having first vomited with the great quantity of salt
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water which was gotten into my stomach, and recovering myself a
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little, I ran about the shore, wringing my hands, and beating my
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head and face, exclaiming at my misery, and crying out, I was
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undone, undone, till, tired and faint, I was forced to lie down on the
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ground to repose; but durst not sleep, for fear of being devoured.
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Some days after this, and after I had been on board the ship and got
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all that I could out of her, yet I could not forbear getting up to the
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top of a little mountain, and looking out to sea, in hopes of seeing a
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ship; then fancy at a vast distance I spied a sail, please myself with
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the hopes of it, and then, after looking steadily till I was almost
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blind, lose it quite, and sit down and weep like a child, and thus
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increase my misery by my folly.
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But having gotten over these things in some measure, and having
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settled my household stuff and habitation, made me a table and a
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chair, and all as handsome about me as I could, I began to keep my
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journal, of which I shall here give you the copy (though in it will be
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told all these particulars over again) as long as it lasted; for,
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having no more ink, I was forced to leave it off.
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THE JOURNAL
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September 30, 1659. - I, poor miserable Robinson Crusoe, being
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shipwrecked, during a dreadful storm, in the offing, came on shore
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in this dismal unfortunate island, which I called the Island of
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Despair, all the rest of the ship's company being drowned, and
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myself almost dead.
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All the rest of that day I spent in afflicting myself at the
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dismal circumstances I was brought to, viz., I had neither food,
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house, clothes, weapon, or place to fly to; and in despair of any
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relief, saw nothing but death before me; either that I should be
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devoured by wild beasts, murdered by savages, or starved to death
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for want of food. At the approach of night, I slept in a tree for fear
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of wild creatures, but slept soundly, though it rained all night.
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October 1. - In the morning I saw, to my great surprise, the ship
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had floated with the high tide, and was driven on shore again much
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nearer the island; which, as it was some comfort on one hand, for
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seeing her sit upright, and not broken to pieces, I hoped, if the wind
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abated, I might get on board, and get some food and necessaries out of
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her for my relief; so, on the other hand, it renewed my grief at the
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loss of my comrades, who, I imagined, if we had all stayed on board,
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might have saved the ship, or at least that they would not have been
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all drowned as they were; and that had the men been saved, we might
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perhaps have built us a boat out of the ruins of the ship, to have
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carried us to some other part of the world. I spent great part of this
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day in perplexing myself on these things; but at length seeing the
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ship almost dry, I went upon the sand as near as I could, and then
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swam on board; this day also it continued raining, though with no wind
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at all.
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From the 1st of October to the 24th. - All these days entirely spent
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in many several voyages to get all I could out of the ship, which I
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brought on shore, every tide of flood, upon rafts. Much rain also in
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these days, though with some intervals of fair weather; but, it seems,
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this was the rainy season.
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October 20. - I overset my raft, and all the goods I had got upon
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it; but being in shoal water, and the things being chiefly heavy, I
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recovered many of them when the tide was out.
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October 25. - It rained all night and all day, with some gusts of
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wind, during which time the ship broke in pieces, the wind blowing a
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little harder than before, and was no more to be seen, except the
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wreck of her, and that only at low water. I spent this day in covering
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and securing the goods which I had saved, that the rain might not
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spoil them.
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October 26. - I walked about the shore almost all day to find out
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a place to fix my habitation, greatly concerned to secure myself
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from an attack in the night, either from wild beasts or men. Towards
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night I fixed upon a proper place under a rock, and marked out a
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semicircle for my encampment, which I resolved to strengthen with a
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work, wall, or fortification made of double piles, lined within with
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cables, and without with turf.
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From the 26th to the 30th I worked very hard in carrying all my
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goods to my new habitation, though some part of the time it rained
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exceeding hard.
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The 31st, in the morning, I went out into the island with my gun
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to see for some food, and discover the country; when I killed a
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she-goat, and her kid followed me home, which I afterwards killed
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also, because it would not feed.
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November 1. - I set up my tent under a rock, and lay there for the
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first night, making it as large as I could, with stakes driven in to
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swing my hammock upon.
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November 2. - I set up all my chests and boards, and the pieces of
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timber which made my rafts, and with them formed a fence round me, a
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little within the place I had marked out for my fortification.
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November 3. - I went out with my gun, and killed two fowls like
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ducks, which were very good food. In the afternoon went to work to
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make me a table.
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November 4. - This morning I began to order my times of work, of
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going out with my gun, time of sleep, and time of diversion, viz.,
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every morning I walked out with my gun for two or three hours, if it
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did not rain; then employed myself to work till about eleven
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o'clock; then eat what I had to live on; and from twelve to two I
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lay down to sleep, the weather being excessive hot; and then in the
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evening to work again. The working part of this day and of the next
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were wholly employed in making my table; for I was yet but a very
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sorry workman, though time and necessity made me a complete natural
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mechanic soon after, as I believe it would do any one else.
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November 5. - This day went abroad with my gun and my dog, and
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killed a wild-cat; her skin pretty soft, but her flesh good for
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nothing. Every creature I killed, I took off the skins and preserved
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them. Coming back by the seashore, I saw many sorts of seafowls, which
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I did not understand; but was surprised, and almost frighted, with two
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or three seals, which, while I was gazing at, not well knowing what
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they were, got into the sea, and escaped me for that time.
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November 6. - After my morning walk I went to work with my table
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again, and finished it, though not to my liking; nor was it long
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before I learned to mend it.
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November 7. - Now it began to be settled fair weather. The 7th, 8th,
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9th, 10th, and part of the 12th (for the 11th was Sunday) I took
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wholly up to make me a chair, and with much ado, brought it to a
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tolerable shape, but never to please me; and even in the making I
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pulled it to pieces several times. Note, I soon neglected my keeping
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Sundays; for, omitting my mark for them on my post, I forgot which was
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which.
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November 13. - This day it rained, which refreshed me exceedingly,
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and cooled the earth; but it was accompanied with terrible thunder and
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lightning, which frighted me dreadfully, for fear of my powder. As
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soon as it was over, I resolved to separate my stock of powder into as
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many little parcels as possible, that it might not be in danger.
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November 14, 15, 16. - These three days I spent in making little
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square chests or boxes, which might hold about a pound, or two pound
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at most, of powder; and so putting the powder in, I stowed it in
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places as secure and remote from one another as possible. On one of
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these three days I killed a large bird that was good to eat, but I
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know not what to call it.
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November 17. - This day I began to dig behind my tent into the rock,
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to make room for my farther conveniency. Note, three things I wanted
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exceeding for this work, viz., a pick-axe, a shovel, and a wheelbarrow
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or basket; so I desisted from my work, and began to consider how to
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supply that want, and make me some tools. As for a pick-axe, I made
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use of the iron crows, which were proper enough, though heavy; but the
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next thing was a shovel or spade. This was so absolutely necessary,
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that indeed I could no nothing effectually without it; but what kind
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of one to make, I knew not.
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November 18. - The next day, in searching the woods, I found a
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tree of that wood, or like it, which in the Brazils they call the iron
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tree, for its exceeding hardness; of this, with great labor, and
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almost spoiling my axe, I cut a piece, and brought it home, too, was
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difficulty enough, for it was exceeding heavy.
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The excessive hardness of the wood, and having no other way, made me
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a long while upon this machine, for I worked it effectually, by little
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|
and little, into the form of a shovel or spade, the handle exactly
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shaped like ours in England, only that the broad part having no iron
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shod upon it at bottom, it would not last me so long. However, it
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served well enough for the uses which I had occasion to put it to; but
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never was a shovel, I believe, made after that fashion, or so long
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a-making.
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I was still deficient, for I wanted a basket or a wheel-barrow. A
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basket I could not make by any means, having no such things as twigs
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that would bend to make wicker ware, at least none yet found out.
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And as to a wheelbarrow, I fancied I could make all but the wheel, but
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|
that I had no notion of, neither did I know how to go about it;
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|
besides, I had no possible way to make the iron gudgeons for the
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spindle or axis of the wheel to run in, so I gave it over; and so
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|
for carrying away the earth which I dug out of the cave, I made me a
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|
thing like a hod which the laborers carry mortar in, when they serve
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the bricklayers.
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This was not so difficult to me as the making the shovel; and yet
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this, and the shovel, and the attempt which I made in vain to make a
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wheelbarrow, took me up no less than four days; I mean always,
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|
excepting my morning walk with my gun, which I seldom failed, and very
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|
seldom failed also bringing home something fit to eat.
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November 23. - My other work having now stood still because of my
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|
making these tools, when they were finished I went on, and working
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every day, as my strength and time allowed, I spent eighteen days
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|
entirely in widening and deepening my cave, that it might hold my
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|
goods commodiously.
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Note: During all this time I worked to make this room or cave
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|
spacious enough to accomodate me as a warehouse or magazine, a
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|
kitchen, a dining-room, and a cellar; as for my lodging, I kept to the
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tent, except that sometimes in the wet season of the year it rained so
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|
hard that I could not keep myself dry, which caused me afterwards to
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|
cover all my place within my pale with long poles, in the form of
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|
rafters, leaning against the rock, and load them with flags and
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|
large leaves of trees, like a thatch.
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December 10. - I began now to think my cave or vault finished when
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|
on a sudden (it seems I had made it too large) a great quantity of
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|
earth fell down from the top and one side, so much, that, in short, it
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|
frighted me, and not without reason too; for if I had been under it, I
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|
had never wanted a grave-digger. Upon this disaster I had a great deal
|
|
of work to do over again; for I had the loose earth to carry out; and,
|
|
which was of more importance, I had the ceiling to prop up, so that
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|
I might be sure no more would come down.
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|
December 11. - This day I went to work with it accordingly, and
|
|
got two shores or posts pitched upright to the top, with two pieces of
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|
boards across over each post. This I finished the next day; and
|
|
setting more posts up with boards, in about a week more I had the roof
|
|
secured; and the posts standing in rows, served me for partitions to
|
|
part of my house.
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|
December 17. - From this day to the twentieth I placed shelves,
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|
and knocked up nails on the posts to hang everything up that could
|
|
be hung up; and now I began to be in some order within doors.
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|
December 20. - Now I carried everything into the cave, and began
|
|
to furnish my house, and set up some pieces of boards, like a dresser,
|
|
to order my victuals upon; but boards began to be very scarce with me;
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|
also I made me another table.
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|
December 24. - Much rain all night and all day; no stirring out.
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|
December 25. - Rain all day.
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|
December 26. - No rain, and the earth much cooler than before, and
|
|
pleasanter.
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|
December 27. - Killed a young goat, and lamed another, so that I
|
|
catched it, and led it home in a string. When I had it home, I bound
|
|
and splintered up its leg, which was broke. N.B. - I took such care of
|
|
it, that it lived; and the leg grew well and as strong as ever; but by
|
|
my nursing it so long it grew tame, and fed upon the little green at
|
|
my door, and would not go away. This was the first time that I
|
|
entertained a thought of breed up some tame creatures, that I might
|
|
have food when my powder and shot was all spent.
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|
December 28, 29, 30. - Great heats and no breeze, so that there
|
|
was no stirring abroad, except in the evening, for food. This time I
|
|
spent in putting all my things in order within doors.
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|
January 1. - Very hot still, but I went abroad early and late with
|
|
my gun, and lay still in the middle of the day. This evening, going
|
|
farther into the valleys which lay towards the centre of the island, I
|
|
found there was plenty of goats, though exceeding shy, and hard to
|
|
come at. However, I resolved to try if I could not bring my dog to
|
|
hunt them down.
|
|
January 2. - Accordingly, the next day, I went out with my dog,
|
|
and set him upon the goats; but I was mistaken, for they all faced
|
|
about upon the dog; and he knew his danger too well, for he would
|
|
not come near them.
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|
January 3. - I began my fence or wall; which being still jealous
|
|
of my being attacked by somebody, I resolved to make very thick and
|
|
strong.
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N.B. - This wall being described before, I purposely omit what was
|
|
said in the journal. It is sufficient to observe that I was no less
|
|
time than from the 3rd of January to the 14th of April working,
|
|
finishing, and perfecting this wall, though it was no more than
|
|
about twenty-four yards in length, being a half circle from one
|
|
place in the rock to another place about eight yards from it, the door
|
|
of the cave being in the centre behind it.
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All this time I worked very hard, the rains hindering me many
|
|
days, nay, sometimes weeks together; but I thought I should never be
|
|
perfectly secure till this wall was finished. And it is scarce
|
|
credible what inexpressible labor everything was done with, especially
|
|
the bringing piles of the woods, and driving them into the ground; for
|
|
I made them much bigger than I need to have done.
|
|
When this wall was finished, and the outside double-fenced with a
|
|
turf-wall raised up close to it, I persuaded myself that if any people
|
|
were to come on shore there, they would not perceive anything like a
|
|
habitation; and it was very well I did so, as may be observed
|
|
hereafter upon a very remarkable occasion.
|
|
During this time, I made my round in the woods for game every day,
|
|
when the rain admitted me, and made frequent discoveries in these
|
|
walks of something or other to my advantage; particularly I found a
|
|
kind of wild pigeons, who built, not as wood pigeons in a tree, but
|
|
rather as house pigeons, in the holes of the rocks. And taking some
|
|
young ones, I endeavored to breed them up tame, and did so; but when
|
|
they grew older they flew all away, which, perhaps, was at first for
|
|
want of feeding them, for I had nothing to give them. However, I
|
|
frequently found their nests, and got their young ones, which were
|
|
very good meat.
|
|
And now in the managing my household affairs I found myself
|
|
wanting in many things, which I thought at first it was impossible for
|
|
me to make, as indeed, as to some of them, it was. For instance, I
|
|
could never make a cask to be hooped; I had a small runlet or two,
|
|
as I observed before, but I could never arrive to the capacity of
|
|
making one of them, though I spent many weeks about it. I could
|
|
neither put in the heads, nor joint the staves so true to one
|
|
another as to make them hold water; so I gave that also over.
|
|
In the next place, I was at a great loss for candle; so that as soon
|
|
as ever it was dark, which was generally by seven o'clock, I was
|
|
obliged to go to bed. I remembered the lump of beeswax with which I
|
|
made candles in my African adventure, but I had none of that now.
|
|
The only remedy I had was, that when I had killed a goat I saved the
|
|
tallow, and with a little dish made of clay, which I baked in the sun,
|
|
to which I added a wick of some oakum, I made me a lamp; and this gave
|
|
me light, though not a clear steady light like a candle.
|
|
In the middle of all my labors it happened that rummaging my things,
|
|
I found a little bag, which, as I hinted before, had been filled
|
|
with corn for the feeding of poultry, not for this voyage, but before,
|
|
as I suppose, when the ship came from Lisbon. What little remainder of
|
|
corn had been in the bag was all devoured with the rats, and I saw
|
|
nothing in the bag but husks and dust; and being willing to have the
|
|
bag for some other use, I think it was to put powder in, when I
|
|
divided it for fear of the lightning, or some such use, I shook the
|
|
husks of corn out of it on one side of my fortification, under the
|
|
rock. It was a little before the great rains, just now mentioned, that
|
|
I threw this stuff away, taking no notice of anything there; when,
|
|
about a month after, or thereabout, I saw some few stalks of something
|
|
green shooting out of the ground, which I fancied might be some
|
|
plant I had not seen; but I was surprised, and perfectly astonished,
|
|
when, after a little longer time, I saw about ten or twelve ears
|
|
come out, which were perfect green barley of the same kind as or
|
|
European, nay, as our English barley.
|
|
It is impossible to express the astonishment and confusion of my
|
|
thoughts on this occasion. I had hitherto acted upon no religious
|
|
foundation at all; indeed, I had very few notions of religion in my
|
|
head, or had entertained any sense of anything that had befallen me
|
|
otherwise than as a chance, or as we lightly say, what pleases God;
|
|
without so much as inquiring into the end of Providence in these
|
|
things, or His order in governing events in the world. But after I saw
|
|
barley grow there in a climate which I knew was not proper for corn,
|
|
and especially that I knew not how it came there, it startled me
|
|
strangely, and I began to suggest that God had miraculously caused
|
|
this grain to grow without any help of seed sown, and it was so
|
|
directed purely for my sustenance on that wild miserable place.
|
|
This touched my heart a little, and brought tears out of my eyes;
|
|
and I began to bless myself, that such a prodigy of Nature should
|
|
happen upon my account, and this was the more strange to me, because I
|
|
saw near it still, all along by the side of the rock, some other
|
|
straggling stalks, which proved to be stalks of rice, and which I
|
|
knew, because I had seen it grow in Africa, when I was ashore there.
|
|
I not only thought these the pure productions of Providence for my
|
|
support, but, not doubting but that there was more in the place, I
|
|
went all over that part of the island where I had been before, peering
|
|
in every corner, and under every rock, to see for more of it; but I
|
|
could not find any. At last it occurred to my thoughts that I had
|
|
shook a bag of chicken's meat out in that place, and then the wonder
|
|
began to cease; and I must confess, my religious thankfulness to God's
|
|
providence began to abate too, upon the discovering that all this
|
|
was nothing but what was common; I ought to have been as thankful
|
|
for so strange and unforseen providence, as if it had been miraculous;
|
|
for it was really the work of Providence as to me, that should order
|
|
or appoint, that ten or twelve grains of corn should remain
|
|
unspoiled (when the rats had destroyed all the rest), as if it had
|
|
been dropped from heaven; as also that I should throw it out in that
|
|
particular place, where, it being in the shade of a high rock, it
|
|
sprang up immediately; whereas, if I had thrown it anywhere else at
|
|
that time, it had been burnt up and destroyed.
|
|
I carefully saved the ears of this corn, you may be sure, in their
|
|
season, which was about the end of June; and laying up every corn, I
|
|
resolved to sow them all again, hoping in time to have some quantity
|
|
sufficient to supply me with bread. But it was not till the fourth
|
|
year that I could allow myself the least grain of this corn to eat,
|
|
and even then but sparingly, as I shall say afterwards in its order;
|
|
for I lost all that I sowed the first season, by not observing the
|
|
proper time; for I sowed it just before the dry season, so that it
|
|
never came up at all, at least not as it would have done; of which
|
|
in its place.
|
|
Besides this barley, there was, as above, twenty or thirty stalks of
|
|
rice, which I preserved with the same care, and whose use was of the
|
|
same kind, or to the same purpose, viz., to make me bread, or rather
|
|
food; for I found ways to cook it up without baking, though I did that
|
|
also after some time. But to return to my journal.
|
|
I worked excessive hard these three or four months to get my wall
|
|
done; and the 14th of April I closed it up, contriving to go into
|
|
it, not by a door, but over the wall by a ladder, that there might
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be no sign in the outside of my habitation.
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April 16. - I finished the ladder, so I went up with the ladder to
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the top, and then pulled it up after me, and let it down on the
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inside. This was a complete enclosure to me; for within I had room
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enough, and nothing could come at me from without, unless it could
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first mount my wall.
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The very next day after this wall was finished, I had almost had all
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my labor overthrown at once, and myself killed. The case was thus:
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As I was busy in the inside of it, behind my tent, just in the
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entrance into my cave, I was terribly frightened with a most
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dreadful surprising thing indeed; for all on a sudden I found the
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earth come crumbling down from the roof of my cave, and from the
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edge of the hill over my head, and two of the posts I had set up in
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the cave cracked in a frightful manner. I was heartily scared, but
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thought nothing of what was really the cause, only thinking that the
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top of my cave was falling in, as some of it had done before; and
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for fear I should be buried in it, I ran forward to my ladder; and not
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thinking myself safe there neither, I got over my wall for fear of the
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pieces of the hill which I expected might roll down upon me. I was
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no sooner stepped down upon the firm ground, but I plainly saw it
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was a terrible earthquake; for the ground I stood on shook three times
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at about eight minutes' distance, with three such shocks as would have
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overturned the strongest building that could be supposed to have stood
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on the earth; and a great piece of the top of a rock which stood about
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half a mile from me next the sea, fell down with such a terrible
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noise, as I never heard in all my life. I perceived also the very
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sea was put into violent motion by it; and I believe the shocks were
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stronger under the water than on the island.
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I was so amazed with the thing itself, having never felt the like,
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or discoursed with any one that had, that I was like one dead or
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stupefied; and the motion of the earth made my stomach sick, like
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one that was tossed at sea. But the noise of the falling of the rock
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awaked me, as it were, and rousing me from the stupefied condition I
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was in, filled me with horror, and I thought of nothing then but the
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hill falling upon my tent and all my household goods, and burying
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all at once; and this sunk my very soul within me a second time.
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After the third shock was over, and I felt no more for some time,
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I began to take courage; and yet I had not heart enough to go over
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my wall again, for fear of being buried alive, but sat still upon
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the ground, greatly cast down and disconsolate, not knowing what to
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do. All this while I had not the least serious religious thought,
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nothing but the common, "Lord, have mercy upon me!" and when it was
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over, that went away too.
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While I sat thus, I found the air overcast, and grow cloudy, as if
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it would rain. Soon after that the wind rose by little and little,
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so that in less than half an hour it blew a most dreadful hurricane.
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The sea was all on a sudden covered over with foam and froth; the
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shore was covered with the breach of the water; the trees were torn up
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by the roots; and a terrible storm it was: and this held about three
|
|
hours, and then began to abate; and in two hours more it was stark
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calm, and began to rain very hard.
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All this while I sat upon the ground, very much terrified and
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dejected; when on a sudden it came into my thoughts, that these
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winds and rain being the consequences of the earthquake, the
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earthquake itself was spent and over, and I might venture into my cave
|
|
again. With this thought my spirits began to revive; and the rain also
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|
helping to persuade me, I went in and sat down in my tent. But the
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|
rain was so violent that my tent was ready to be beaten down with
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it, and I was forced to go into my cave, though very much afraid and
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uneasy, for fear it should fall on my head.
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This violent rain forced me to a new work, viz., to cut a hole
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through my new fortification, like a sink, to let the water go out,
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which would else have drowned my cave. After I had been in my cave
|
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some time, and found still no more shocks of the earthquake follow,
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I began to be more composed. And now to support my spirits, which
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indeed wanted it very much, I went to my little store, and took a
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small sup of rum, which, however, I did then, and always, very
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sparingly, knowing I could have no more when that was gone.
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|
It continued raining all that night and a great part of the next
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day, so that I could not stir abroad; but my mind being more composed,
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I began to think of what I had best do, concluding that if the
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island was subject to these earthquakes, there would be no living
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for me in a cave, but I must consider of building me some little hut
|
|
in an open place, which I might surround with a wall, as I had done
|
|
here, and so make myself secure from wild beasts or men; but
|
|
concluded, if I stayed where I was, I should certainly, one time or
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another be buried alive.
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|
With these thoughts I resolved to remove my tent from the place
|
|
where it stood, which was just under the hanging precipice of the
|
|
hill, and which, if it should be shaken again, would certainly fall
|
|
upon my tent; and I spent the two next days, being the 19th and 20th
|
|
of April, in contriving where and how to remove my habitation.
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|
The fear of being swallowed up alive made me that I never slept in
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|
quiet; and yet the apprehension of lying abroad without any fence
|
|
was almost equal to it. But still, when I looked about and saw how
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|
everything was put in order, how pleasantly concealed I was, and how
|
|
safe from danger, it made me very loth to remove.
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|
In the meantime it occurred to me that it would require a vast
|
|
deal of time for me to do this, and that I must be contented to run
|
|
the venture where I was, till I had formed a camp for myself, and
|
|
had secured it so as to remove to it. So with this resolution I
|
|
composed myself for a time, and resolved that I would go to work
|
|
with all speed to build me a wall with piles and cables, etc., in a
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|
circle as before, and set my tent up in it when it was finished, but
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|
that I would venture to stay where I was till it was finished, and fit
|
|
to remove to. this was the 21st.
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April 22. - The next morning I began to consider of means to put
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|
this resolve in execution; but I was at a great loss about my tools. I
|
|
had three large axes, and abundance of hatchets (for we carried the
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|
hatchets for traffic with the Indians), but with much chopping and
|
|
cutting knotty hard wood, they were all full of notches and dull;
|
|
and though I had a grindstone, I could not turn it and grind my
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|
tools too. This cost me as much thought as a statesman would have
|
|
bestowed upon a grand point of politics, or a judge upon the life
|
|
and death of a man. At length I contrived a wheel with a string, to
|
|
turn it with my foot, that I might have both my hands at liberty.
|
|
Note, I had never seen any such thing in England, or at least not to
|
|
take notice how it was done, though since I have observed it is very
|
|
common there; besides that, my grindstone was very large and heavy.
|
|
This machine cost me a full week's work to bring it to perfection.
|
|
April 28, 29. - These two whole days I took up in grinding my tools,
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|
my machine for turning my grindstone performing very well.
|
|
April 30. - Having perceived my bread had been low a great while,
|
|
now I took a survey of it, and reduced myself to one biscuit-cake a
|
|
day, which made my heart very heavy.
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|
May 1. - In the morning, looking towards the seaside, the tide being
|
|
low, I saw something lie on the shore bigger than ordinary, and it
|
|
looked like a cask. When I came to it, I found a small barrel, and two
|
|
or three pieces of the wreck of the ship, which were driven on shore
|
|
by the late hurricane; and looking towards the wreck itself, I thought
|
|
it seemed to lie higher out of the water than it used to do. I
|
|
examined the barrel which was driven on shore, and soon found it was a
|
|
barrel of gunpowder; but it had taken water, and the powder was
|
|
caked as hard as a stone. However, I rolled it farther on shore for
|
|
the present, and went on upon the sands as near as could to the
|
|
wreck of the ship to look for more.
|
|
When I came down to the ship I found it strangely removed. The
|
|
forecastle, which lay before buried in sand, was heaved up at least
|
|
six feet; and the stern, which was broken to pieces, and parted from
|
|
the rest by the force of the sea soon after I had left rummaging
|
|
her, was tossed, as it were, up, and cast on one side, and the sand
|
|
was thrown so high on that side next her stern, that whereas there was
|
|
a great place of water before, so that I could not come within a
|
|
quarter of a mile of the wreck without swimming, I could now walk
|
|
quite up to her when the tide was out. I was surprised with this at
|
|
first, but soon concluded it must be done by the earthquake. And as by
|
|
this violence the ship was more broken open than formerly, so many
|
|
things came daily on shore, which the sea had loosened, and which
|
|
the winds and water rolled by degrees to the land.
|
|
This wholly diverted my thoughts from the design of removing my
|
|
habitation; and I busied myself mightily, that day especially, in
|
|
searching whether I could make any way into the ship. But I found
|
|
nothing was to be expected of that kind, for that all inside of the
|
|
ship was choked up with sand. However, as I had learned not to despair
|
|
of anything, I resolved to pull everything to pieces that I could of
|
|
the ship, concluding that everything I could get from her would be
|
|
of some use or other to me.
|
|
May 3. - I began with my saw, and cut a piece of a beam through,
|
|
which I thought held some of the upper part or quarter-deck
|
|
together; and when I had cut it through, I cleared away the sand as
|
|
well as I could from the side which lay highest; but the tide coming
|
|
in, I was obliged to give over for that time.
|
|
May 4. - I went a-fishing, but caught not one fish that I durst
|
|
eat of, till I was weary of my sport; when, just going to leave off
|
|
I caught a young dolphin. I had made me a long line of some rope-yarn,
|
|
but I had no hooks; yet I frequently caught fish enough, as much as
|
|
I cared to eat; all which I dried in the sun, and eat them dry.
|
|
May 5. - Worked on the wreck, cut another beam asunder, and
|
|
brought three great fir-planks off from the decks, which I tied
|
|
together, and made swim on shore, when the tide of flood came on.
|
|
May 6. - Worked on the wreck, got several iron bolts out of her, and
|
|
other pieces of iron-work; worked very hard, and came home very much
|
|
tired, and had thoughts of giving it over.
|
|
May 7. - Went to the wreck again, but with an intent not to work,
|
|
but found the weight of the wreck had broke itself down, the beams
|
|
being cut; that several pieces of the ship seemed to lie loose, and
|
|
the inside of the hold lay so open that I could see into it, but
|
|
almost full of water and sand.
|
|
May 8. - Went to the wreck, and carried an iron crow to wrench up
|
|
the deck, which lay now quite clear of the water or sand. I wrenched
|
|
open two planks, and brought them on shore also with the tide. I
|
|
left the iron crow in the wreck for next day.
|
|
May 9. - Went to the wreck, and with the crow made way into the body
|
|
of the wreck, and felt several casks, and loosened them with the crow,
|
|
but could not break them up. I felt also the roll of English lead, and
|
|
could stir it, but it was too heavy to remove.
|
|
May 10, 11, 12, 13, 14. - Went every day to the wreck, and got a
|
|
great deal of pieces of timber, and boards, or plank, and two or three
|
|
hundredweight of iron.
|
|
May 15. - I carried two hatchets to try if I could not cut a piece
|
|
off of the roll of lead, by placing the edge of one hatchet, and
|
|
driving it with the other; but, as it lay about a foot and a half in
|
|
the water, I could not make any blow to drive the hatchet.
|
|
May 16. - It had blowed hard in the night, and the wreck appeared
|
|
more broken by the force of the water; but I stayed so long in the
|
|
woods to get pigeons for food, that the tide prevented me going to the
|
|
wreck that day.
|
|
May 17. - I saw some pieces of the wreck blown on shore, at a
|
|
great distance, near two miles off me, but resolved to see what they
|
|
were, and found it was a piece of the head, but too heavy for me to
|
|
bring away.
|
|
May 24. - Every day to this day I worked on the wreck, and with hard
|
|
labor I loosened some things so much with the crow that the first
|
|
blowing tide several casks floated out, and two of the seamen's
|
|
chests. But the wind blowing from the shore, nothing came to land that
|
|
day but pieces of timber, and a hogshead, which had some brazil pork
|
|
in it, but the salt water and the sand had spoiled it.
|
|
I continued this work every day to the 15th of June, except the time
|
|
necessary to get food, which I always appointed, during this part of
|
|
my employment, to be when the tide was up, that I might be ready
|
|
when it was ebbed out. And by this time I had gotten timber, and
|
|
plank, and iron-work enough to have builded a good boat, if I had
|
|
known how; and also, I got at several times, and in several pieces,
|
|
near one hundredweight of the sheet-lead.
|
|
June 16. - Going down to the seaside, I found a large tortoise, or
|
|
turtle. This was the first I had seen, which it seems was only my
|
|
misfortune, not any defect of the place, or scarcity; for had I
|
|
happened to be on the other side of the island, I might have had
|
|
hundreds of them every day, as I found afterwards; but, perhaps, had
|
|
paid dear enough for them.
|
|
June 17. - I spent in cooking the turtle. I found in her three-score
|
|
eggs; and her flesh was to me, at that time, the most savory and
|
|
pleasant that ever I tasted in my life, having had no flesh, but of
|
|
goats and fowls, since I landed in this horrid place.
|
|
June 18. - Rained all day, and I stayed within. I thought at this
|
|
time the rain felt cold, and I was something chilly, which I knew
|
|
was not usual in that latitude.
|
|
June 19. - Very ill, and shivering, as if the weather had been cold.
|
|
June 20. - No rest all night; violent pains in my head, and
|
|
feverish.
|
|
June 21. - Very ill, frighted almost to death with the apprehensions
|
|
of my sad condition, to be sick, and no help. Prayed to God for the
|
|
first time since the storm off of Hull, but scarce knew what I said,
|
|
or why; my thoughts being all confused.
|
|
June 22. - A little better, but under dreadful apprehensions of
|
|
sickness.
|
|
June 23. - Very bad again; cold and shivering, and then a violent
|
|
headache.
|
|
June 24. - Much better.
|
|
June 25. - An ague very violent; the fit held me seven hours; cold
|
|
fit, and hot, with faint sweats after it.
|
|
June 26. - Better; and having no victuals to eat, took my gun, but
|
|
found myself very weak. However, I killed a she-goat, and with much
|
|
difficulty got it home, and broiled some of it, and eat. I would
|
|
fain have stewed it, and made some broth, but had no pot.
|
|
June 27. - The ague again so violent that I lay abed all day, and
|
|
neither eat nor drank. I was ready to perish for thirst; but so
|
|
weak, I had not strength to stand up, or to get myself any water to
|
|
drink. Prayed to God again, but was light-headed; and when I was
|
|
not, I was so ignorant that I knew not what to say; only I lay and
|
|
cried, "Lord, look upon me! Lord, pity me! Lord, have mercy upon
|
|
me!" I suppose I did nothing else for two or three hours, till the fit
|
|
wearing off, I fell asleep and did not wake till far in the night.
|
|
When I waked, I found myself much refreshed, but weak, and exceedingly
|
|
thirsty. However, as I had no water in my whole habitation, I was
|
|
forced to lie till morning, and went to sleep again. In this second
|
|
sleep I had this terrible dream.
|
|
I thought that I was sitting on the ground, on the outside of my
|
|
wall, where I sat when the storm blew after the earthquake, and that I
|
|
saw a man descend from a great black cloud, in a bright flame of fire,
|
|
and light upon the ground. He was all over as bright as a flame, so
|
|
that I could but just bear to look towards him. His countenance was
|
|
most inexpressibly dreadful, impossible for words to describe. When he
|
|
stepped upon the ground with his feet, I thought the earth trembled,
|
|
just as it had done before in the earthquake, and all the air
|
|
looked, to my apprehension, as if it had been filled with flashes of
|
|
fire.
|
|
He was no sooner landed upon the earth, but he moved forward towards
|
|
me, with a long spear or weapon in his hand, to kill me; and when he
|
|
came to a rising ground, at some distance, he spoke to me, or I
|
|
heard a voice so terrible that it is impossible to express the
|
|
terror of it. All that I can say I understood was this: "Seeing all
|
|
these things have not brought thee to repentance, now thou shalt die;"
|
|
at which words I thought he lifted up the spear that was in his hand
|
|
to kill me.
|
|
No one that shall ever read this account, will expect that I
|
|
should be able to describe the horrors of my soul at this terrible
|
|
vision; I mean, that even while it was a dream, I even dreamed of
|
|
those horrors; nor is it any more possible to describe the
|
|
impression that remained upon my mind when I awaked and found it was
|
|
but a dream.
|
|
I had, alas! no divine knowledge; what I had received by the good
|
|
instruction of my father was then worn out, by an uninterrupted
|
|
series, for eight years, of seafaring wickedness, and a constant
|
|
conversation with nothing but such as were, like myself, wicked and
|
|
profane to the last degree. I do not remember that I had, in all
|
|
that time, one thought that so much as tended either to looking
|
|
upwards toward God, or inwards towards a reflection upon my ways;
|
|
but a certain stupidity of soul, without desire of good, or conscience
|
|
of evil, had entirely over-whelmed me; and I was all that the most
|
|
hardened, unthinking, wicked creature among our common sailors can
|
|
be supposed to be; not having the least sense, either of the fear of
|
|
God, in danger, or of thankfulness to God, in deliverances.
|
|
In the relating what is already past of my story, this will be the
|
|
more easily believed, when I shall add, that through all the variety
|
|
of miseries that had to this day befallen me, I never had so much as
|
|
one thought of it being the hand of God, or that it was a just
|
|
punishment for my sin; my rebellious behavior against my father, or my
|
|
present sins, which were great; or so much as a punishment for the
|
|
general course of my wicked life. When I was on the desperate
|
|
expedition on the desert shores of Africa, I never had so much as
|
|
one thought of what would become of me; or one wish to God to direct
|
|
me whither I should go, or to keep me from the danger which apparently
|
|
surrounded me, as well from voracious creatures as cruel savages.
|
|
But I was merely thoughtless of a God or a Providence; acted like a
|
|
mere brute from the principles of Nature, and by the dictates of
|
|
common sense only, and indeed hardly that.
|
|
When I was delivered and taken up at sea by the Portugal captain,
|
|
well used, and dealt justly and honorably with, as well as charitably,
|
|
I had not the least thankfulness in my thoughts. When again I was
|
|
shipwrecked, ruined, and in danger of drowning on this island, I was
|
|
as far from remorse, or looking on it as a judgment; I only said to
|
|
myself often, that I was an unfortunate dog, and born to be always
|
|
miserable.
|
|
It is true, when I got on shore first here, and found all my
|
|
ship's crew drowned, and myself spared, I was surprised with a kind of
|
|
ecstasy, and some transports of soul, which, had the grace of God
|
|
assisted, might have come up to true thankfulness; but it ended
|
|
where it begun, in a mere common flight of joy, or, as I may say,
|
|
being glad I was alive, without the least reflection upon the
|
|
distinguishing goodness of the Hand which had preserved me, and had
|
|
singled me out to be preserved, when all the rest were destroyed; or
|
|
an inquiry why Providence had been thus merciful to me; even just
|
|
the same common sort of joy which seamen generally have after they are
|
|
got safe ashore from a shipwreck, which they drown all in the next
|
|
bowl of punch, and forget almost as soon as it is over, and all the
|
|
rest of my life was like it.
|
|
Even when I was afterwards, on due consideration, made sensible of
|
|
my condition, how I was cast on this dreadful place, out of the
|
|
reach of human kind, out of all hope of relief, or prospect of
|
|
redemption, as soon as I saw but a prospect of living, and that I
|
|
should not starve and perish for hunger, all the sense of my
|
|
affliction wore off, and I began to be very easy, applied myself to
|
|
the works proper for my preservation and supply, and was far enough
|
|
from being afflicted at my condition, as a judgment from heaven, or as
|
|
the hand of God against me; these were thoughts which very seldom
|
|
entered my head.
|
|
The growing up of the corn, as is hinted in my journal, had at first
|
|
some little influence upon me, and began to affect me with
|
|
seriousness, as long as I thought it had something miraculous in it;
|
|
but as soon as ever that part of the thought was removed, all the
|
|
impression which was raised from it wore off also, as I have noted
|
|
already.
|
|
Even the earthquake, though nothing could be more terrible in its
|
|
nature, or more immediately directing to the invisible Power, which
|
|
alone directs such things, yet no sooner was the first fright over,
|
|
but the impression it had made went off also. I had no more sense of
|
|
God or His judgments, much less of the present affliction of my
|
|
circumstances being from His Hand, than if had been in the most
|
|
prosperous condition of life.
|
|
But now, when I began to be sick, and a leisurely view of the
|
|
miseries of death came to place itself before me; when my spirits
|
|
began to sink under the burden of a strong distemper, and Nature was
|
|
exhausted with the violence of the fever; conscience, that had slept
|
|
so long, began to awake, and I began to reproach myself with my past
|
|
life, in which I had so evidently, by uncommon wickedness, provoked
|
|
the justice of God to lay me under uncommon strokes, and to deal
|
|
with me in so vindictive a manner.
|
|
These reflections oppressed me for the second or third day of my
|
|
distemper; and in the violence, as well of the fever as of the
|
|
dreadful reproaches of my conscience, extorted some words from me,
|
|
like praying to God, though I cannot say they were either a prayer
|
|
attended with desires or with hopes; it was rather the voice of mere
|
|
fright and distress. My thoughts were confused, the convictions
|
|
great upon my mind, and the horror of dying in such a miserable
|
|
condition, raised vapors into my head with the mere apprehensions; and
|
|
in these hurries of my soul, I know not what my tongue might
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express; but it was rather exclamation, such as, "Lord! what a
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miserable creature am I! If I should be sick, I shall certainly die
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for want of help; and what will become of me?" Then the tears burst
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out of my eyes, and I could say no more for a good while.
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In this interval, the good advice of my father came to my mind,
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and presently his prediction, which I mentioned at the beginning of
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this story, viz., that if I did take this foolish step, God would
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not bless me, and I would have leisure hereafter to reflect upon
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having neglected his counsel, when there might be none to assist in my
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recovery. "Now," said I aloud, "my dear father's words are come to
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pass; God's justice has overtaken me, and I have none to help or
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hear me. I rejected the voice of Providence, which had mercifully
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put me in a posture or station of life wherein I might have been happy
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and easy; but I would neither see it myself nor learn to know the
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blessing of it from my parents. I left them to mourn over my folly,
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and now I am left to mourn under the consequences of it. I refused
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their help and assistance, who would have lifted me into the world,
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and would have made everything easy to me; and now I have difficulties
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to struggle with, too great for even Nature itself to support, and
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no assistance, no help, no comfort, no advice." Then I cried out,
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"Lord, be my help, for I am in great distress."
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This was the first prayer, if I may call it so, that I had made
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for many years. But I return to my journal.
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June 28. - Having been somewhat refreshed with the sleep I had
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had, and the fit being entirely off, I got up; and though the fright
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and terror of my -dream was very great, yet I considered that the
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fit of the ague would return again the next day, and now was my time
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to get something to refresh and support myself when I should be ill.
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And the first thing I did I filled a large square case-bottle with
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water, and set it upon my table in reach of my bed; and to take off
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the chill or aguish disposition of the water, I put about a quarter of
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a pint of rum into it, and mixed them together. Then I got me a
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piece of the goat's flesh, and broiled it on the coals, but could
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eat very little. I walked about, but was very weak, and withal very
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sad and heavy-hearted in the sense of my miserable condition, dreading
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the return of my distemper the next day. At night I made my supper
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of three of the turtle's eggs, which I roasted in the ashes, and
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eat, as we call it, in the shell; and this was the first bit of meat I
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had ever asked God's blessing to, even as I could remember, in my
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whole life.
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After I had eaten, I tried to walk, but found myself so weak that
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I could hardly carry the gun (for I never went out without that); so I
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went but a little way, and sat down upon the ground, looking out
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upon the sea, which was just before me, and very calm and smooth. As I
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sat here, some such thoughts as these occurred to me.
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What is this earth and sea, of which I have seen so much? Whence
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is it produced? And what am I, and all the other creatures, wild and
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tame, human and brutal, whence are we? Sure we are all made by some
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secret Power, who formed the earth and sea, the air and sky. And who
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is that?
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Then it followed most naturally, It is God that has made it all.
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Well, but then it came on strangely, if God has made all these things,
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He guides and governs them all, and all things that concern them;
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for the Power that could make all things, must certainly have power to
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guide and direct them.
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If so, nothing can happen in the great circuit of His works,
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either without His knowledge or appointment. And if nothing happens
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without His knowledge, He knows that I am here, and am in this
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dreadful condition. And if nothing happens without His appointment, He
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has appointed all this to befall me.
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Nothing occurred to my thoughts to contradict any of these
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conclusions; and therefore it rested upon me with the greater force,
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that it must needs be that God has appointed all this to befall me;
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that I was brought to this miserable circumstance by His direction, He
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having the sole power, not of me only, but of everything that happened
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in the world. Immediately it followed, Why has God done this to me?
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What have I done to be thus used?
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My conscience presently checked me in that inquiry, as if I had
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blasphemed, and methough it spoke to me like a voice: Wretch! dost
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thou ask what thou hast done? Look back upon a dreadful misspent life,
|
|
and ask thyself what thou hast done? Ask, why is it that thou wert not
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long ago destroyed? Why wert thou not drowned in Yarmouth Roads;
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killed in the fight when the ship was taken by the Sallee
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|
man-of-war; devoured by the wild beasts on the coast of Africa; or
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drowned here, when all the crew perished but thyself Dost thou ask,
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What have I done?
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I was struck dumb with these reflections, as one astonished, and had
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|
not a word to say, no, not to answer to myself, but rose up pensive
|
|
and sad, walked back to my retreat, and went up over my wall, as if
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|
I had been going to bed. But my thoughts were sadly disturbed, and I
|
|
had no inclination to sleep; so I sat down in my chair, and lighted my
|
|
lamp, for it began to be dark. Now, as the apprehension of the
|
|
return of my distemper terrified me very much, it occurred to my
|
|
thought that the Brazilians take no physic but their tobacco for
|
|
almost all distempers; and I had a piece of a roll of tobacco in one
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|
of the chests, which was quite cured, and some also that was green,
|
|
and not quite cured.
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|
I went, directed by Heaven no doubt; for in this chest I found a
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cure both for soul and body. I opened the chest, and found what I
|
|
looked for, viz., the tobacco, and as the few books I had saved lay
|
|
there too, I took out one of the Bibles which I mentioned before,
|
|
and which to this time I had not found leisure, or so much as
|
|
inclination, to look into. I say, I took it out, and brought both that
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|
and the tobacco with me to the table.
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|
What use to make of the tobacco I knew not, as to my distemper, or
|
|
whether it was good for it or no; but I tried several experiments with
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|
it, as if I was resolved it should hit one way or other. I first
|
|
took a piece of a leaf, and chewed it in my mouth, which indeed at
|
|
first almost stupefied my brain, the tobacco being green and strong,
|
|
and that I had not been much used to it. Then I took some and
|
|
steeped it an hour or two in some rum, and resolved to take dose of it
|
|
when I lay down. And lastly, I burnt some upon a pan of coals, and
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|
held my nose close over the smoke of it as long as I could bear it, as
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|
well for the heat, as almost for suffocation.
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|
In the interval of this operation, I took up the Bible, and began to
|
|
read, but my head was too much disturbed with the tobacco to bear
|
|
reading, at least that time; only having opened the book casually, the
|
|
first words that occurred to me were these, "Call on Me in the day
|
|
of trouble, and I will deliver, and thou shalt glorify Me."
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|
The words were very apt to my case, and made some impression upon my
|
|
thoughts at the time of reading them, though not so much as they did
|
|
afterwards; for as for being delivered, the word had no sound, as I
|
|
may say, to me, the thing was so remote, so impossible in my
|
|
apprehension of things, that I began to say, as the children of Israel
|
|
did when they were promised flesh to eat, "Can God spread a table in
|
|
the wilderness?" so I began to say, Can God Himself deliver me from
|
|
this place? And as it was not for many years that any hope appeared,
|
|
this prevailed very often upon my thoughts. But, however, the words
|
|
made a great impression upon me, and I mused upon them very often.
|
|
It grew now late, and the tobacco had, as I said, dozed my head so
|
|
much, that I inclined to sleep; so I left my lamp burning in the cave,
|
|
lest I should want anything in the night, and went to bed. But
|
|
before I lay down, I did what I never had done in all my life: I
|
|
kneeled down and prayed to God to fulfill the promise to me, that if I
|
|
called upon Him in the day of trouble, He would deliver me. After my
|
|
broken and imperfect prayer was over, I drank the rum in which I had
|
|
steeped the tobacco; which was so strong and rank of the tobacco
|
|
that indeed I could scarcely get it down. Immediately upon this I went
|
|
to bed. I found presently it flew up in my head violently; but I
|
|
fell into a sound sleep, and waked no more till, by the sun, it must
|
|
necessarily be near three o'clock in the afternoon the next day.
|
|
Nay, to his hour I am partly of the opinion that I slept all the
|
|
next day and night, and till almost three that day after; for
|
|
otherwise I know not how I should lose a day out of my reckoning in
|
|
the days of the week, as it appeared some years after had done. For if
|
|
I had lost it by crossing and recrossing the line, I should have
|
|
lost more than one day. But certainly I lost a day in my account,
|
|
and never knew which way.
|
|
Be that, however, one way or the other, when I awaked I found myself
|
|
exceedingly refreshed, and my spirits lively and cheerful. I got up, I
|
|
was stronger than I was the day before, and my stomach better, for I
|
|
was hungry; and, in short, I had no fit the next day, but continued
|
|
much altered for the better. This was the 29th.
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|
The 30th was my well day, of course, and I went abroad with my
|
|
gun, but did not care to travel too far. I killed a sea-fowl or two,
|
|
something like a brand-goose, and brought them home, but was not
|
|
very forward to eat them; so I eat some more of the turtle's eggs,
|
|
which were very good. This evening I renewed the medicine, which I had
|
|
supposed did me good the day before, viz., the tobacco steeped in rum;
|
|
only I did not take so much as before, nor did I chew any of the leaf,
|
|
or hold my head over the smoke. However, I was not so well the next
|
|
day, which was the first of July, as I hoped I should have been; for I
|
|
had a little spice of the cold fit, but it was not much.
|
|
July 2. - I renewed the medicine all the three ways; and dosed
|
|
myself with it as at first, and doubled the quantity which I drank.
|
|
July 2. - I missed the fit for good and all, though I did not
|
|
recover my full strength for some weeks after. While I was thus
|
|
gathering strength, my thoughts ran exceedingly upon this Scripture,
|
|
"I will deliver thee;" and the impossibility of my deliverance lay
|
|
much upon my mind, in bar of my ever expecting it. But as I was
|
|
discouraging myself with such thoughts, it occurred to my mind that
|
|
I pored so much upon my deliverance from the main affliction, that I
|
|
disregarded the deliverance I had received; and I was, as it were,
|
|
made to ask myself such questions as these, viz., Have I not been
|
|
delivered, and wonderfully too, from sickness? from the most
|
|
distressed condition that could be, and that was so frightful to me?
|
|
and what notice I had taken of it? Had I done my part? God had
|
|
delivered me, but I had not glorified Him; that is to say, I had not
|
|
owned and been thankful for that as a deliverance; and how could I
|
|
expect greater deliverance?
|
|
This touched my heart very much; and immediately I kneeled down, and
|
|
gave God thanks aloud for my recovery from my sickness.
|
|
July 4. - In the morning I took the Bible; and beginning at the
|
|
new Testament, I began seriously to read it, and imposed upon myself
|
|
to read awhile every morning and every night, not tying myself to
|
|
the number of chapters, but as long as my thoughts should engage me.
|
|
It was not long afer I set seriously to this work, but I found my
|
|
heart more deeply and sincerely affected with the wickedness of my
|
|
past life. The impression of my dream revived, and the words, "All
|
|
these things have not brought thee to repentance," ran seriously in my
|
|
thought. I was earnestly begging of God to give me repentance, when it
|
|
happened providentially, the very day, that, reading the I came to
|
|
these words, "He is exalted a Prince and a Saviour, to give
|
|
repentance, and to give remission." I threw down the book; and with my
|
|
heart as well as my hands lifted up to heaven, in a kind of ecstasy of
|
|
joy, I cried out aloud, "Jesus, Thou son of David! Jesus, Thou exalted
|
|
Prince and Saviour, give me repentance!"
|
|
This was the first time that I could say, in the true sense of the
|
|
words, that I prayed in all my life; for now I prayed with a sense
|
|
of my condition, and with a true Scripture view of hope founded on the
|
|
encouragement of the Word of God; and from this time, I may say, I
|
|
began to have hope that God would hear me.
|
|
Now I began to construe the words mentioned above, "Call on Me,
|
|
and I will deliver you," in a different sense from what I had ever
|
|
done before; for then I had no notion of anything being called
|
|
deliverance but my being delivered from the captivity I was in; for
|
|
though I was indeed at large in the place, yet the island was
|
|
certainly a prison to me, and that in the worst sense in the world.
|
|
But now I learned to take it in another sense; now I looked back
|
|
upon my past life with such horror, and my sins appeared so
|
|
dreadful, that my soul sought nothing of God but deliverance from
|
|
the load of guilt that bore down all my comfort. As for my solitary
|
|
life, it was nothing; I did not so much as pray to be delivered from
|
|
it, or think of it; it was all of no consideration, in comparison to
|
|
this. And I add this part here, to hint to whoever shall read it, that
|
|
whenever they come to a true sense of things, they will find
|
|
deliverance from a sin a much greater blessing than deliverance from
|
|
affliction.
|
|
But leaving this part, I return to my journal.
|
|
My condition began now to be, though not less miserable as to my way
|
|
of living, yet much easier to my mind; and my thoughts being directed,
|
|
by a constant reading the Scripture, and praying to God, to things
|
|
of a higher nature, I had a great deal of comfort within, which,
|
|
till now, I knew nothing of. Also, as my health and strength returned,
|
|
I bestirred myself to furnish myself with everything that I wanted,
|
|
and make my way of living as regular as I could.
|
|
From the 4th of July to the 14th I was chiefly employed in walking
|
|
about with my gun in my hand, a little and a little at a time, as a
|
|
man that was gathering up his strength after a fit of sickness; for it
|
|
is hardly to be imagined how low I was, and to what weakness I was
|
|
reduced. The application which I made use of was perfectly new, and
|
|
perhaps what had never cured an ague before; neither can I recommend
|
|
it to any one to practise, by this experiment; and though it did carry
|
|
off the fit, yet it rather contributed to weakening me; for I had
|
|
frequent convulsions in my nerves and limbs for some time.
|
|
I learnt from it also this, in particular, that being abroad in
|
|
the rain season was the most pernicious thing to my health that
|
|
could be, especially in those rains which came attended with storms
|
|
and hurricanes of wind; for as the rain which came in the dry season
|
|
was always most accompanied with such storms, so I found that rain was
|
|
much more dangerous than the rain which fell in September and October.
|
|
I had been now on this unhappy island above ten months; all
|
|
possibility of deliverance from this condition seemed to be entirely
|
|
taken from me; and I firmly believed that no human shape had ever
|
|
set foot upon that place. Having now secured my habitation, as I
|
|
thought, fully to my mind, I had a great desire to make a more perfect
|
|
discovery of the island, and to see what other productions I might
|
|
find, which I yet knew nothing of.
|
|
It was the 15th of July that I began to take a more particular
|
|
survey of the island itself. I went up the creek first, where, as I
|
|
hinted, I brought my rafts on shore. I found, after I came about two
|
|
miles up, that the tide did not flow any higher, and that it was no
|
|
more than a little brook of running water, and very fresh and good;
|
|
but this being the dry season, there was hardly any water in some
|
|
parts of it, at least, not enough to run in any stream, so as it could
|
|
be perceived.
|
|
On the bank of this brook I found many pleasant savannas or meadows,
|
|
plain, smooth, and covered with grass; and on the water, as might be
|
|
supposed, never overflowed, I found a great deal of tobacco, green,
|
|
and growing to a great and very strong stalk. There were diverse other
|
|
plants, which I had no notion of, or understanding about, and might,
|
|
perhaps, have virtues of their own which I could not find out.
|
|
I searched for the cassava root, which the Indians, in all that
|
|
climate, make their bread of, but I could find none. I saw large
|
|
plants of aloes, but did not then understand them. I saw several
|
|
sugar-canes, but wild, and, for want of cultivation, imperfect. I
|
|
contented myself with these discoveries for this time, and came
|
|
back, musing with myself what course I might take to know the virtue
|
|
and goodness of any of the fruits or plants which I should discover;
|
|
but could bring it to no conclusion; for, in short, I had made so
|
|
little observation while I was in the Brazils, that I knew little of
|
|
the plants in the field, at least very little that might serve me to
|
|
any purpose now in my distress.
|
|
The next day, the 16th, I went up the same way again; and after
|
|
going something farther than I had gone the day before, I found the
|
|
brook and the savannas began to cease, and the country became more
|
|
woody than before. In this part I found different fruits, and
|
|
particularly I found melons upon the ground in great abundance, and
|
|
grapes upon the trees. The vines had spread indeed over the trees, and
|
|
the clusters of grapes were just now in their prime, very ripe and
|
|
rich. This was a surprising discovery, and I was exceeding glad of
|
|
them; but I was warned by my experience to eat sparingly of them,
|
|
remembering that when I was ashore in Barbary the eating of grapes
|
|
killed several of our Englishmen, who were slaves there, by throwing
|
|
them into fluxes and fevers. But I found an excellent use of these
|
|
grapes; and that was, to cure or dry them in the sun, and keep them as
|
|
dried grapes or raisins are kept, which I thought would be, as
|
|
indeed they were, as wholesome as agreeable to eat, when no grapes;
|
|
might be to be had.
|
|
I spent all that evening there, and went not back to my
|
|
habitation; which, by the way, was the first night, as I might say,
|
|
I had lain from home. In the night, I took my first contrivance, and
|
|
got up into a tree, where I slept well; and the next morning proceeded
|
|
upon my discovery, travelling near four miles, as I might judge by the
|
|
length of the valley, keeping still due north, with a ridge of hills
|
|
on the south and north side of me.
|
|
At the end of this march I came to an opening, where the country
|
|
seemed to descend to the west; and a little spring of fresh water,
|
|
which issued out of the side of the hill by me, ran the other way,
|
|
that is, due east; and the country appeared so fresh, so green, so
|
|
flourishing, everything being in a constant verdure or flourish of
|
|
spring, that it looked like a planted garden.
|
|
I descended a little on the side of that delicious vale, surveying
|
|
it with a secret kind of pleasure, though mixed with my other
|
|
afflicting thoughts, to think that this was all my own; and I was king
|
|
and lord of all this country indefeasibly, and had a right of
|
|
possession; and, if I could convey it, I might have it in
|
|
inheritance as completely as any lord of a manor in England. I saw
|
|
here abundance of cocoa trees, orange, and lemon, and citron trees;
|
|
but all wild, and very few bearing any fruit, at least not then.
|
|
However, the green limes that I gathered were not only pleasant to
|
|
eat, but very wholesome; and I mixed their juice afterwards with
|
|
water, which made it very wholesome, and very cool and refreshing.
|
|
I found now I had business enough to gather and carry home; and I
|
|
resolved to lay up a store, as well of grapes as limes and lemons to
|
|
furnish myself for the wet season, which I knew was approaching.
|
|
In order to this, I gathered a great heap of grapes in one place,
|
|
and a lesser heap in another place; and a great parcel of limes and
|
|
lemons in another place; and taking a few of each with me, I travelled
|
|
homeward; and resolved to come again, and bring a bag or sack, or what
|
|
I could make, to carry the rest home.
|
|
Accordingly, having spent three days in this journey, I came home
|
|
(so I must now call my tent and my cave); but before I got thither,
|
|
the grapes were spoiled; the richness of the fruits, and the weight of
|
|
the juice, having broken them and bruised them, they were good for
|
|
little or nothing: as to the limes, they were good, but I could
|
|
bring but a few.
|
|
The next day, being the 19th, I went back, having made me two
|
|
small bags to bring home my harvest; but I was surprised, when, coming
|
|
to my heap of grapes, which were so rich and fine when I gathered
|
|
them, I found them all spread about, trod to pieces, and dragged
|
|
about, some here, some there, and abundance eaten and devoured. By
|
|
this I concluded there were some wild creatures thereabouts, which had
|
|
done this; but what they were, I knew not.
|
|
However, as I found that there was no laying them up on heaps, and
|
|
no carrying them away in a sack, but that one way they would be
|
|
destroyed, and the other way they would be crushed with their own
|
|
weight, I took another course; for I gathered a large quantity of
|
|
the grapes, and hung them up upon the out-branches of the trees,
|
|
that they might cure and dry in the sun; and as for the limes and
|
|
lemons, I carried as many back as I could well stand under.
|
|
When I came home from this journey, I contemplated with great
|
|
pleasure the fruitfulness of that valley, and the pleasantness of
|
|
the situation; the security from storms on that side, the water and
|
|
the wood; and concluded that I had pitched upon a place to fix my
|
|
abode, which was by far the worst part of the country. Upon the whole,
|
|
I began to consider of removing my habitation, and to look out for a
|
|
place equally safe as where I now was situate, if possible, in that
|
|
pleasant fruitful part of the island.
|
|
This thought ran long in my head, and I was exceeding fond of it for
|
|
some time, the pleasantness of the place tempting me; but when I
|
|
came to a nearer view of it, and to consider that I was now by the
|
|
seaside, where it was at least possible that something might happen to
|
|
my advantage, and, by the same ill fate that brought me hither,
|
|
might bring some other unhappy wretches to the same place; and
|
|
though it was scarce probable that any such thing should ever
|
|
happen, yet to enclose myself among the hills and woods in the
|
|
centre of the island, was to anticipate my bondage, and to render such
|
|
an affair not only improbable, but impossible; and that therefore I
|
|
ought not by any means to remove.
|
|
However, I was so enamored of this place that I spent much of my
|
|
time there for the whole remaining part of the month of July; and
|
|
though, upon second thoughts, I resolved as above, not to remove,
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yet I built me a little kind of bower, and surrounded it at a distance
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with a strong fence, being a double hedge as high as I could reach,
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well staked, and filled between with brushwood. And here I lay very
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secure, sometimes two or three nights together, always going over it
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with a ladder, as before; so that I fancied now I had my country-house
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and my sea-coast house; and this work took me up to the beginning of
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August.
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I had but newly finished my fence, and began to enjoy my labor,
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but the rains came on, and made me stick close to my first habitation;
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for though I had made me a tent like the other, with a piece of a
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sail, and spread it very well, yet I had not the shelter of a hill
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to keep me from storms, nor a cave behind me to retreat into when
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the rains were extraordinary.
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About the beginning of August, as I said, I had finished my bower,
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and began to enjoy myself. The 3rd of August I found the grapes I
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had hung up were perfectly dried, and indeed were excellent good
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raisins of the sun; so I began to take them down from the trees. And
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it was very happy that I do so, for the rains which followed would
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have spoiled them, and I had lost the best part of my winter food; for
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I had above two hundred large bunches of them. No sooner had I taken
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them all down, and carried most of them home to my cave, but it
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began to rain; and from hence, which was the 14th of August, it
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rained, more or less, every day till the middle of October, and
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sometimes so violently, that I could not stir out of my cave for
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several days.
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In this season, I was much surprised with the increase of my family.
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I had been much concerned for the loss of one of my cats, who run away
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from me, or, as I thought, had been dead, and I heard no more tale
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or tidings of her, still, to my astonishment, she came home about
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the end of August with three kittens. This was the more strange to me,
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because, though I had killed a wildcat, as I called it, with my gun,
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yet I thought it was a quite different kind from our European cats;
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yet the young cats were the same kind of house-breed like the old one;
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and both my cats being females, I thought it very strange. But from
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these three cats I afterwards came to be so pestered with cats, that I
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was forced to kill them like vermin, or wild beasts, and to drive them
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from my house as much as possible.
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From the 14th of August to the 26th, incessant rain, so that I could
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not stir, and was now very careful not to be much wet. In this
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confinement, I began to be straitened for food; but venturing out
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twice, I one day killed a goat, and the last day, which was the
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26th, found a very large tortoise, which was a treat to me, and my
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food was regulated thus: I eat a bunch of raisins for my breakfast,
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a piece of the goat's flesh, or of the turtle, for my dinner, broiled;
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for, to my great misfortune, I had no vessel to boil or stew anything;
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and two or three of the turtle's eggs for my supper.
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During this confinement in my cover by the rain, I worked daily
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two or three hours at enlarging my cave, and by degrees worked it on
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towards one side, till I came to the outside of the hill, and made a
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door, or way out, which came beyond my fence or wall; and so I came in
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and out this way. But I was not perfectly easy at lying so open; for
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as I had managed myself before, I was in a perfect enclosure;
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whereas now, I thought I lay exposed, and open for anything to come in
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upon me; and yet I could not perceive that there was any living
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thing to fear, the biggest creature that I had yet seen upon the
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island being a goat.
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September 20. - I was now come to the unhappy anniversary of my
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landing. I cast up the notches on my post, and found I had been on
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shore three hundred and sixty-five days. I kept this day as a solemn
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fast, setting it apart to religious exercise, prostrating myself on
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the ground with the most serious humiliation, confessing my sins to
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God, acknowledging His righteous judgments upon me, and praying to Him
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|
to have mercy on me through Jesus Christ; and having not tasted the
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least refreshment for twelve hours, even till the going down of the
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sun, I then eat a biscuit-cake and a bunch of grapes and went to
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bed, finishing the day as I began it.
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I had all this time observed no Sabbath day, for as at first I had
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no sense of religion upon my mind, I had, after some time, omitted
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to distinguish the weeks, by making a longer notch than ordinary for
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the Sabbath day, and so did not really know what any of the days were.
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But now, having cast up the days, as above, I found I had been there a
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|
year, so I divided it into weeks, and set apart every seventh day
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for a Sabbath; though I found at the end of my account, I had lost a
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|
day or two in my reckoning.
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A little after this my ink began to fail me, and so I contented
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|
myself to use it more sparingly, and to write down only the most
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|
remarkable events of my life, without continuing a daily memorandum of
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|
other things.
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|
The rainy season and the dry season began now to appear regular to
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|
me, and I learned to divide them so as to provide for them
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|
accordingly; but I bought all my experience before I had it, and
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this I am going to relate was one of the most discouraging experiments
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|
that I made at all. I have mentioned that I had saved the few ears
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of barley and rice, which I had so surprisingly found spring up, as
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I thought, of themselves, and believe there were about thirty stalks
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|
of rice, and about twenty of barley; and now I thought it a proper
|
|
time to sow it after the rains, the sun being in its southern
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|
position, going from me.
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|
Accordingly I dug up a piece of ground as well as I could with my
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wooden spade, and dividing it into two parts, I sowed my grain; but as
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|
I was sowing it, it casually occurred to my thoughts that I would
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|
not sow it all at first, because I did not know when was the proper
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|
time for it, so I sowed about two-thirds of the seed, leaving about
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a handful of each.
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It was a great comfort to me afterwards that I did so, for not one
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|
grain of that I sowed this time came to anything, for the dry months
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|
following, the earth having had no rain after the seed was sown, it
|
|
had no moisture to assist its growth, and never came up at all till
|
|
the wet season had come again, and then it grew as if it had been
|
|
but newly sown.
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|
Finding my first seed did not grow, which I easily imagined was by
|
|
the drought, I sought for a moister piece of ground to make another
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|
trial in, and I dug up a piece of ground near my new bower, and
|
|
sowed the rest of my seed in February, a little before the vernal
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|
equinox. And this having the rainy months of March and April to
|
|
water it, sprung up very pleasantly, and yielded a very good crop; but
|
|
having part of the seed left only, and not daring to sow all that I
|
|
had, I had but a small quantity at last, my whole crop not amounting
|
|
to above half a peck of each kind. But by this experiment I was made
|
|
master of my business, and knew exactly when the proper season was
|
|
to sow, and that I might expect two seed-times and two harvests
|
|
every year.
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|
While this corn was growing, I made a little discovery, which was of
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|
use to me afterwards. As soon as the rains were over, and the
|
|
weather began to settle, which was about the month of November, I made
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|
a visit up the country to my bower, where, though I had not been
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|
some months, yet I found all things just as I left them. The circle or
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|
double hedge that I had made was not only firm and entire, but the
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|
stakes which I had cut out of some trees that grew hereabouts were all
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|
shot out, and grown with long branches, as much as a willow-tree
|
|
usually shoots the first year after loping its head. I could not
|
|
tell what tree to call it that these stakes were cut from. I was
|
|
surprised, and yet very well pleased to see the young trees grow,
|
|
and I pruned them, and led them up to grow as much alike as I could.
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|
And it is scarce credible how beautiful a figure they grew into in
|
|
three years; so that though the hedge made a circle of about
|
|
twenty-five yards in diameter, yet the trees, for such I might now
|
|
call them, soon covered it, and it was a complete shade, sufficient to
|
|
lodge under all the dry season.
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|
This made me resolve to cut some more stakes, and make me a hedge
|
|
like this, in a semicircle round my wall (I mean that of my first
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|
dwelling, which I did; and placing the trees or stakes in a double
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|
row, at about eight yards distance from my first fence, they grew
|
|
presently, and were at first a fine cover to my habitation, and
|
|
afterward served for defence also, as I shall observe in its order.
|
|
I found now that the seasons of the year might generally be divided,
|
|
not into summer and winter, as in Europe, but into the rainy seasons
|
|
and the dry seasons; which were generally thus:
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|
|
|
Half February, March, half April: Rainy, the sun being then on, or
|
|
near the equinox.
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|
|
|
Half April, May, June, July, half August: Dry, the sun being then to
|
|
the north of the line.
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|
|
|
Half August, September, half October: Rainy, the sun being then come
|
|
back.
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|
|
|
Half October, November, December, January, half February: Dry, the
|
|
sun being then to the south of the line.
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|
|
|
The rainy season sometimes held longer or shorter as the winds
|
|
happened to blow, but this was the general observation I made. After I
|
|
had found by experience the ill consequence of being abroad in the
|
|
rain, I took care to furnish myself with provisions beforehand, that I
|
|
might not be obliged to go out; and I sat within doors, as much as
|
|
possible during the wet months.
|
|
In this time I found much employment, and very suitable also to
|
|
the time, for I found great occasion of many things which I had no way
|
|
to furnish myself with but by hard labor and constant application;
|
|
particularly, I tried many ways to make myself a basket; but all the
|
|
twigs I could get for the purpose proved so brittle, that they would
|
|
do nothing. It proved of excellent advantage to me now, that when I
|
|
was a boy I used to take great delight in standing at a basket maker's
|
|
in the town where my father lived, to see them make their wicker-ware;
|
|
and being, as boys usually are, very officious to help, and a great
|
|
observer of the manner how they work those things, and sometimes
|
|
lending a hand, I had by this means full knowledge of the methods of
|
|
it. That I wanted nothing but the materials; when it came into my mind
|
|
that the twigs of that tree from whence I cut my stakes that grew
|
|
might possibly be as tough as the sallows, and willows, and osiers
|
|
in England, and I resolved to try.
|
|
Accordingly, the next day, I went to my country-house, as I called
|
|
it; and cutting some of the smaller twigs, I found them to my
|
|
purpose as much as I could desire; whereupon I came the next time
|
|
prepared with a hatchet to cut down a quantity, which I soon found,
|
|
for there was great plenty of them. These I set up to dry within my
|
|
circle or hedge, and when they were fit for use, I carried them to
|
|
my cave; and here during the next season I employed myself in
|
|
making, as well as I could, a great many baskets, both to carry earth,
|
|
or to carry or lay up anything as I had occasion. And though I did not
|
|
finish them very handsomely, yet I made them sufficiently
|
|
serviceable for my purpose. And thus, afterwards, I took care never to
|
|
be without them; and as my wicker-ware decayed, I made more;
|
|
especially I made strong deep baskets to place my corn in, instead
|
|
of sacks, when I should come to have any quantity of it.
|
|
Having mastered this difficulty, and employed a world of time
|
|
about it, I bestirred myself to see, if possible, how to supply two
|
|
wants. I had no vessels to hold anything that was liquid, except two
|
|
runlets, which were almost full of rum, and some glass bottles, some
|
|
of the common size, and others which were case-bottles square, for the
|
|
holding of waters, spirits, etc. I had not so much as a pot to boil
|
|
anything except a great kettle, which I saved out of the ship, and
|
|
which was too big for such use as I desired it, viz., to make broth,
|
|
and stew a bit of meat by itself. The second thing I would fain have
|
|
had was a tobacco-pipe; but it was impossible to me to make one.
|
|
However, I found contrivance for that, too, at last.
|
|
I employed myself in planting my second rows of stakes or piles, and
|
|
in this wicker-working all the summer or dry season, when another
|
|
business took me up more time that it could be imagined I could spare.
|
|
I mentioned before that I had a great mind to see the whole
|
|
island, and that I had travelled up the brook, and so on to where I
|
|
built my bower, and where I had an opening quite to the sea, on the
|
|
other side of the island. I now resolved to travel quite across to the
|
|
seashore on that side; so taking my gun, a hatchet, and my dog, and
|
|
a larger quantity of powder and shot than usual, with two
|
|
biscuit-cakes and a great bunch of raisins in my pouch for my store, I
|
|
began my journey. When I had passed the vale where my bower stood,
|
|
as above, I came within view of the sea to the west; and it being a
|
|
very clear day, I fairly descried land, whether an island or a
|
|
continent I could not tell; but it lay very high, extending from the
|
|
west to the WSW. at a very great distance; by my guess, it could not
|
|
be less than fifteen or twenty leagues off.
|
|
I could not tell what part of the world this might be, otherwise
|
|
than that I know it must be part of America, and, as I concluded, by
|
|
all my observations, must be near the Spanish dominions, and perhaps
|
|
was all inhabited by savages, where, if I should have landed, I had
|
|
been in a worse condition than I was now; and therefore I acquiesced
|
|
in the dispositions of Providence which I began now to own and to
|
|
believe ordered everything for the best. I say, I quieted my mind with
|
|
this, and left afflicting myself with fruitless wishes of being there.
|
|
Besides, after some pause upon this affair, I considered that if
|
|
this land was the Spanish coast I should certainly, one time or other,
|
|
see some vessel pass or repass one way or other; but if not, then it
|
|
was the savage coast between the Spanish country and Brazils, which
|
|
are indeed the worst of savages; for they are cannibals or men-eaters,
|
|
and fail not to murder and devour all the human bodies that fall
|
|
into their hands.
|
|
With these considerations I walked very leisurely forward. I found
|
|
that side of the island, where I now was, much pleasanter than mine,
|
|
the open or savanna fields sweet, adorned with flowers and grass,
|
|
and full of very fine woods.
|
|
I saw abundance of parrots, and fain would have caught one, if
|
|
possible, to have kept it to be tame, and taught it to speak to me.
|
|
I did, after some painstaking, catch a young parrot, for I knocked
|
|
it down with a stick, and having recovered it, I brought it home;
|
|
but it was some years before I could make him speak. However, at
|
|
last I taught him to call me by my name very familiarly. But the
|
|
accident that followed, though it be a trifle, will be very
|
|
diverting in its place.
|
|
I was exceedingly diverted with this journey. I found in the low
|
|
grounds bares, as I thought them to be, and foxes; but they differed
|
|
greatly from all the other kinds I had met with, nor could I satisfy
|
|
myself to eat them, though I killed several. But I had no need to be
|
|
venturous, for I had no want of food, and of that which was very
|
|
good too; especially these three sorts, viz., goats, pigeons, and
|
|
turtle, or tortoise; which, added to my grapes, Leadenhall Market
|
|
could not have furnished a table better than I, in proportion to the
|
|
company. And though my case was deplorable enough, yet I had great
|
|
cause for thankfulness, and that I was not driven to any extremities
|
|
for food, rather plenty, even to dainties.
|
|
I never travelled in this journey above two miles outright in a day,
|
|
or thereabouts; but I took so many turns and returns, to see what
|
|
discoveries I could make, that I came weary enough to the place
|
|
where I resolved to sit down for all night; and then I either
|
|
reposed myself in a tree, or surrounded myself with a row of stakes,
|
|
set upright in the ground, either from one tree to another, or so as
|
|
no wild creature could come at me without waking me.
|
|
As soon as I came to the seashore, I was surprised to see that I had
|
|
taken up my lot on the worst side of the island, for here indeed the
|
|
shore was covered with innumerable turtles; whereas, on the other
|
|
side, I had found but three in a year and a half. Here was also an
|
|
infinite number of fowls of many kinds, some which I had seen, and
|
|
some which I had not see of before, and many of them were very good
|
|
meat, but such as I knew not the names of, except those called
|
|
penguins.
|
|
I could have shot as many as I pleased, but was very sparing of my
|
|
powder and shot, and therefore had more mind to kill a she-goat, if
|
|
I could, which I could better feed on; and though there were many
|
|
goats here, more than on my side the island, yet it was with much more
|
|
difficulty that I could come near them, the country being flat and
|
|
even, and they saw me much sooner then when I was on the hill.
|
|
I confess this side of the country was much pleasanter than mine;
|
|
but yet I had not the least inclination to remove, for as I was
|
|
fixed in my habitation, it became natural to me, and I seemed all
|
|
the while I was here to be as it were upon a journey, and from home.
|
|
However, I travelled along the shore of the sea towards the east, I
|
|
suppose about twelve miles, and then setting up a great pole upon
|
|
the shore for a mark, I concluded I would go home again; and that
|
|
the next journey I took should be on the other side of the island,
|
|
east from my dwelling, and so round till I came to my post again; of
|
|
which in its place.
|
|
I took another way to come back than that I went, thinking I could
|
|
easily keep all the island so much in my view that I could not miss
|
|
finding my first dwelling by viewing the country. But I found myself
|
|
mistaken; for being come about two or three miles, I found myself
|
|
descended into a very large valley, but so surrounded with hills,
|
|
and those hill covered with wood, that I could not see which was my
|
|
way by any direction but that of the sun, nor even then, unless I knew
|
|
very well the position of the sun at that time of the day.
|
|
It happened to my farther misfortune that the weather proved hazy
|
|
for three or four days while I was in this valley; and not being
|
|
able to see the sun, I wandered about very uncomfortably, and at
|
|
last was obliged to find out the seaside, look for my post, and come
|
|
back the same way I went; and then by easy journeys I turned homeward,
|
|
the weather being exceeding hot, and my gun, ammunition, hatchet,
|
|
and other things very heavy.
|
|
In this journey my dog surprised a young kid, and seized upon it,
|
|
and I running in to take hold of it, caught it, and saved it alive
|
|
from the dog. I had a great mind to bring it home if I could, for I
|
|
had often been musing whether it might not be possible to get a kid or
|
|
two, and so raise a breed of tame goats, which might supply me when my
|
|
powder and shot should be all spent.
|
|
I made a collar to this little creature, and with a string, which
|
|
I made of some rope-yarn, which I always carried about me, I led him
|
|
along, though with some difficulty, till I came to my bower, and
|
|
there I enclosed him and left him, for I was very impatient to be at
|
|
home, from whence I had been absent above a month.
|
|
I cannot express what a satisfaction it was to me to come into my
|
|
old hutch, and lie down in my hammock-bed. This little wandering
|
|
journey, without settled place of abode, had been so unpleasant to me,
|
|
that my own house, as I called it to myself, was a perfect
|
|
settlement to me compared to that; and it rendered everything about me
|
|
so comfortable, that I resolved I would never go a great way from it
|
|
again, while it should be my lot to stay on the island.
|
|
I reposed myself here a week, to rest and regale myself af after
|
|
my long journey; during which most of the time was taken up in the
|
|
weighty affair of making a cage for my Poll, who began now to be a
|
|
mere domestic, and to be mighty well acquainted with me. Then I
|
|
began to think of the poor kid which I had penned in within my
|
|
little circle, and resolved to go and fetch it home, or give it some
|
|
food. Accordingly I went, and found it where I left it, for indeed
|
|
it could not get out, but almost starved for want of food. I went
|
|
out and cut boughs of trees, and branches of such shrubs as I could
|
|
find, and threw it over, and having fed it, I tied it as I did before,
|
|
to lead it away; but it was so tame with being hungry, that I had no
|
|
need to have tied it, for it followed me like a dog. And as I
|
|
continually fed it, the creature became so loving, so gentle, and so
|
|
fond, that it became from that time one of my domestics also, and
|
|
would never leave me afterwards.
|
|
The rainy season of the autumnal equinox was now come, and I kept
|
|
the 30th of September in the same solemn manner as before, being the
|
|
anniversary of my landing on the island, having now been there two
|
|
years, and no more prospect of being delivered than the first day I
|
|
came there. I spent the whole day in humble and thankful
|
|
acknowledgments of the many wonderful mercies which my solitary
|
|
condition was attended with, and without which it might have been
|
|
infinitely more miserable. I gave humble and hearty thanks that God
|
|
had been pleased to discover to me even that it was possible I might
|
|
be more happy in this solitary condition, than I should have been in a
|
|
liberty of society, and in all the pleasures of the world; that He
|
|
could fully make up to me the deficiences of my solitary state, and
|
|
the want of human society, by His presence, and the communication of
|
|
His grace to my soul, supporting, comforting, and encouraging me to
|
|
depend upon His providence here, and hope for His eternal presence
|
|
hereafter.
|
|
It was now that I began sensibly to feel how much more happy this
|
|
life I now led was, with all its miserable circumstances, than the
|
|
wicked, cursed, abominable life I led all the past part of my days.
|
|
And now I changed both my sorrows and my joys; my very desires
|
|
altered, my affections changed their gusts, and my delights were
|
|
perfectIy new from what they were at my first coming, or indeed for
|
|
the two years past.
|
|
Before, as I walked about, either on my hunting, or for viewing
|
|
the country, the anguish of my soul at my condition would break out
|
|
upon me on a sudden, and my very heart would die within me, to think
|
|
of the woods, the mountains, the deserts I was in, and how I was a
|
|
prisoner, locked up with the eternal bars and bolts of the ocean, in
|
|
an uninhibited wilderness, without redemption. In the midst of the
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greatest composures of my mind, this would break out upon me like a
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storm, and make me wring my hands and weep like a child. Sometimes
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it would take me in the middle of my work, and I would immediately sit
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down and sigh, and look upon the ground for an hour or two together;
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and this was still worse to me, for if I could burst out into tears,
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or vent myself by words, it would go off, and the grief, having
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exhausted itself, would abate.
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But now I began to exercise myself with new thoughts. I daily read
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the Word of God, and applied all the comforts of it to my present
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state. One morning, being very sad, I opened the Bible upon these
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words, "I will never, never leave thee, nor forsake thee." Immediately
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it occurred that these words were to me; why else should they be
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directed in such a manner, just at the moment when I was mourning over
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my condition, as one forsake of God and man? "Well, then," said I, "if
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God does not forsake me, of what ill consequence can it be, or what
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matters it, though the world should all forsake me, seeing on the
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other hand, if I had all the world, and should lose the favor and
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blessing of God, there would be no comparison in the loss?"
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From this moment I began to conclude in my mind that it was possible
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for me to be more happy in this forsaken solitary condition, that it
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was probable I should ever have been in any other particular state
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in the world, and with this thought I was going to give thanks to
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God for bringing me to this place.
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I know not what it was, but something shocked my mind at that
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thought, and I durst not speak the words. "How canst thou be such a
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hypocrite," said I, even audibly, "to pretend to be thankful for a
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condition which, however thou mayest endeavor to be contented with,
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thou wouldest rather pray heartily to be delivered from?" So I stopped
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there; but though I could not say I thanked God for being there, yet I
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sincerely gave thanks to God for opening my eyes, by whatever
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afflicting providences, to see the former condition of my life, and to
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mourn for my wickedness, and repent. I never opened the Bible, or shut
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it, but my very soul within me blessed God for directing my friend
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in England, without any order of mine, to pack it up among my goods,
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and for assisting me afterwards to save it out of the wreck of the
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ship.
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Thus, and in this disposition of mind, I began my third year; and
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though I have not given the reader the trouble of so particular
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account of my works this year as the first, yet in general it may be
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observed, that I was very seldom idle, but having regularly divided my
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time, according to the several daily employments that were before
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me, such as, first my duty to God, and the reading the Scriptures,
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which I constantly set apart some time for, thrice every day;
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secondly, the going abroad with my gun for food, which generally
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took me up three hours in every morning, when it did not rain;
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thirdly, the ordering, curing, preserving, and cooking what I had
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killed or catched for my supply; these took up great part of the
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day; also it is to be considered that the middle of the day, when
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the sun was in the zenith, the violence of the heat was too great to
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stir out; so that about four hours in the evening was all the time I
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could be supposed to work in, with this exception, that sometimes I
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changed my hours of hunting and working, and went to work in the
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morning, and abroad with my gun in the afternoon.
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To this short time allowed for labor, desire may be added the
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exceeding laboriousness of my work; the many hours which, for want
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of tools, want of help, and want of skill, everything I did took up
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out of my time. For example, I was full two and forty days making me a
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board for a long shelf, which I wanted in my cave; whereas two
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sawyers, with their tools and a saw-pit, would have cut six of them
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out of the same tree in half a day.
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My case was this: it was to be a large tree which was to be cut
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down, because my board was to be a broad one. This tree I was three
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days a-cutting down, and two more cutting off the boughs, and reducing
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it to a log, or piece of timber. With inexpressible hacking and
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hewing, I reduced both sides of it into chips till it begun to be
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light enough to move; then I turned it, and made one side of it smooth
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and flat as a board from end to end; then turning that side
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downward, cut the other side, till I brought the plank to be about
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three inches thick, and smooth on both sides. Any one may judge the
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labor of my hands in such a piece of work; but labor and patience
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carried me through that, and many other things. I only observe this in
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particular, to show the reason why so much of my time went away with
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so little work, viz., that what might be a little to be done with help
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and tools, was a vast labor, and required a prodigious time to do
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alone, and by hand. But not withstanding this, with patience and
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labor, I went through many things, and, indeed, everything that my
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circumstances made necessary to me to do, as will appear by what
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follows.
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I was now, in the months of November and December, expecting my crop
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of barley and rice. The ground I had manured or dug up for them was
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not great; for as I observed, my seed of each was not above the
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quantity of half a peck; for I had lost one whole crop by sowing in
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the dry season. But now my crop promised very well, when on a sudden I
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found I was in danger of losing it all again by enemies of several
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sorts, which it was scarce possible to keep from it; as, first the
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goats and wild creatures which I called hares, who, tasting the
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sweetness of the blade, lay in it night and day, as soon as it came
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up, and eat it so close, that it could get no time to shoot up into
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stalk.
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This I saw no remedy for but by making an enclosure about it with
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a hedge, which I did with a great deal of toil, and the more,
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because it required speed. However, as my arable land was small,
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suited to my crop, I got it totally well fenced in about three
|
|
weeks' time, and shooting some of the creatures in the daytime, I
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set my dog to guard it in the night, tying him up to a stake at the
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gate, where he would stand and bark all night long; so in a little
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|
time the enemies forsook the place, and the corn grew very strong
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|
and well, and began to ripen apace.
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|
But as the beasts ruined me before while my corn was in the blade,
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|
so the birds were as likely to ruin me now when it was in the ear; for
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going along by the place to see how it throve, I saw my little crop
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|
surrounded with fowls, of I know not how many sorts, who stood, as
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it were, watching till I should be gone. I immediately let fly among
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them, for I always had my gun with me. I had no sooner shot, but there
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rose up a little cloud of fowls, which I had not seen at all, from
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among the corn itself.
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|
This touched me sensibly, for I foresaw that in a few days they
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|
would devour all my hopes, that I should be starved, and never be able
|
|
to raise a crop at all, and what to do I could not tell. However, I
|
|
resolved not to lose my corn, if possible, though I should watch it
|
|
night and day. In the first place, I went among it to see what
|
|
damage was already done, and found they had spoiled a good deal of it;
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|
but that as it was yet too green for them, the loss was not so great
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|
but that the remainder was like to be a good crop if it could be
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|
saved.
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|
I stayed by it to load my gun, and then coming away, I could
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|
easily see the thieves sitting upon all the trees about me, as if they
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|
only waited till I was gone away. And the event proved it to be so;
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|
for as I walked off, as if I was gone, I was no sooner out of their
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|
sight but they dropped down, one by one, into the corn again. I was so
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|
provoked, that I could not have patience to stay till more came on,
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|
knowing that every grain that they eat now was, as it might be said, a
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|
peck-loaf to me in the consequence; but coming up to the hedge, I
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|
fired again, and killed three of them. This was what I wished for;
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|
so I took them up, and served them as we serve notorious thieves in
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|
England, viz., hanged them in chains, for a terror to others. It is
|
|
impossible to imagine almost that this should have such an effect as
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|
it had, for the fowls would not only not come at the corn, but, in
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|
short, they forsook all that part of the island, and I could never see
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|
a bird near the place as long as my scare-crows hung there.
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|
This I was very glad of, you may be sure; and about the latter end
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|
of December, which was our second harvest of the year, I reaped my
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|
crop.
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|
I was sadly put to it for a scythe or a sickle to cut it down, and
|
|
all I could do was to make one as well as I could out of one of the
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|
broadswords, or cutlasses, which I saved among the arms out of the
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|
ship. However, as my first crop of corn was but small, I had no
|
|
great difficulty to cut it down; in short, I reaped it my way, for I
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|
cut nothing off but the ears, and carried it away in a great basket
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|
which I had made, and so rubbed it out with my hands; and at the end
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|
of all my harvesting, I found that out of my half peck of seed I had
|
|
near two bushels of rice, and above two bushels and a half of
|
|
barley, that is to say, by my guess, for I had no measure at that
|
|
time.
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|
However, this was a great encouragement to me, and I foresaw that,
|
|
in time, it would please God to supply me with bread. And yet here I
|
|
was perplexed again, for I neither knew how to grind or make meal of
|
|
my corn, or indeed how to clean it and part it; nor, if made into
|
|
meal, how to make bread of it, and if how to make it, yet I knew not
|
|
how to bake it. These things being added to my desire of having a good
|
|
quantity for store, and to secure a constant supply, I resolved not to
|
|
taste any of this crop, but to preserve it all for seed against the
|
|
next season, and, in the meantime, to employ all my study and hours of
|
|
working to accomplish this great work of providing myself with corn
|
|
and bread.
|
|
It might be truly said, that now I worked for my bread. 'Tis a
|
|
little wonderful, and what I believe few people have thought upon,
|
|
viz., the strange multitude of little things necessary in the
|
|
providing, producing, curing, dressing, making, and finishing this one
|
|
article of bread.
|
|
I, that was reduced to a mere state of nature, found this to my
|
|
daily discouragement, and was made more and more sensible of it
|
|
every hour, even after I had got the first handful of seedcorn, which,
|
|
as I have said, came up unexpectedly, and indeed, to a surprise.
|
|
First, I had no plough to turn up the earth, no spade or shovel to
|
|
dig it. Well, this I conquered by making a wooden spade, as I observed
|
|
before, but this did my work in but a wooden manner; and though it
|
|
cost me a great many days to make it, yet, for want of iron, it not
|
|
only wore out the sooner, but made my work the harder, and made it
|
|
be performed much worse.
|
|
However, this I bore with, and was content to work it out with
|
|
patience, and bear with the badness of the performance. When the
|
|
corn was sowed, I had no harrow, but was forced to go over it
|
|
myself, and drag a great heavy bough of a tree over it, to scratch it,
|
|
as it may be called, rather than rake or harrow it.
|
|
When it was growing and grown, I have observed already how many
|
|
things I wanted to fence it, secure it, mow or reap it, cure and carry
|
|
it home, thrash, part it from the chaff, and save it. Then I wanted
|
|
a mill to grind it, sieves to dress it, yeast and salt to make it into
|
|
bread, and an oven to bake it, and yet all these things I did without,
|
|
as shall be observed; and yet the corn was an inestimable comfort
|
|
and advantage to me too. All this, as I said, made everything
|
|
laborious and tedious to me, but that there was no help for; neither
|
|
was my time so much loss to me, because, as I had divided it, a
|
|
certain part of it was every day appointed to these works, and as I
|
|
resolved to use none of the corn for bread till I had a greater
|
|
quantity by me, I had the next six months to apply myself wholly, by
|
|
labor and invention, to furnish myself with utensils proper for the
|
|
performing all the operations necessary for the making the corn,
|
|
when I had it, fit for my use.
|
|
But first I was to prepare more land, for I had now seed enough to
|
|
sow above an acre of ground. Before I did this, I had a week's work at
|
|
least to make me a spade, which, when it was done, was but a sorry one
|
|
indeed, and very heavy, and required double labor to work with it.
|
|
However, I went through that, and sowed my seed in two large flat
|
|
pieces of ground, as near my house as I could find them to my mind,
|
|
and fenced them in with a good hedge, the stakes of which were all cut
|
|
of that wood which I had set before, and knew it would grow; so that
|
|
in one year's time I knew I should have a quick or living hedge,
|
|
that would want but little repair. This work was not so little as to
|
|
take me up less than three months, because great part of that time was
|
|
of the wet season, when I could not go abroad.
|
|
Within doors, that is, when it rained, and I could not go out, I
|
|
found employment on the following occasions; always observing, that
|
|
all the while I was at work, I diverted myself with talking to my
|
|
parrot, and teaching him to speak, and I quickly learned him to know
|
|
his own name, and at last to speak it out pretty loud, "Poll," which
|
|
was the first word I ever heard spoken in the island by any mouth
|
|
but my own. This, therefore, was not my work, but an assistant to my
|
|
work; for now, as I said, I had a great employment upon my hands, as
|
|
follows, viz., I had long studied, by some means or other, to make
|
|
myself some earthern vessels, which indeed I wanted sorely, but knew
|
|
not where to come at them. However, considering the heat of the
|
|
climate, I did not doubt but if I could find out any such clay, I
|
|
might botch up some such a pot as might, being dried in the sun, be
|
|
hard enough and strong enough to bear handling, and to hold anything
|
|
that was dry, and required to be kept so; and as this was necessary in
|
|
the preparing corn, meal, etc., which was the thing I was upon, I
|
|
resolved to make some as large as I could, and fit only to stand
|
|
like jars, to hold what should be put into them.
|
|
It would make the reader pity me, or rather laugh at me, to tell how
|
|
many awkward ways I took to raise this paste; what odd, misshapen,
|
|
ugly things I made; how many of them fell in, and how many fell out,
|
|
the clay not being stiff enough to bear its own weight; how many
|
|
cracked by the over-violent heat of the sun, being set out too
|
|
hastily; and how many fell in pieces with only removing, as well
|
|
before as after they were dried; and, in a word, how, after having
|
|
labored hard to find the clay, to dig it, to temper it, to bring it
|
|
home, and work it, I could not make above two large earthen ugly
|
|
things (I cannot call them jars) in about two months' labor.
|
|
However, as the sun baked these two very dry and hard, I lifted them
|
|
very gently up, and set them down again in two great wicker baskets,
|
|
which I had made on purpose for them, that they might not break; and
|
|
as between the pot and the basket there was a little room to spare,
|
|
I stuffed it full of the rice and barley straw, and these two pots
|
|
being to stand always dry, I thought would hold my dry corn, and
|
|
perhaps the meal, when the corn was bruised.
|
|
Though I miscarried so much in my design for large pots, yet I
|
|
made several smaller things with better success; such as little
|
|
round pots, flat dishes, pitchers, and pipkins, and any things my hand
|
|
turned to; and the heat of the sun baked them strangely hard. But
|
|
all this would not answer my end, which was to get an earthen pot to
|
|
hold what was liquid, and bear the fire, which none of these could do.
|
|
It happened after some time, making a pretty large fire for cooking my
|
|
meat, when I went to put it out after I had done with it, I found a
|
|
broken piece of one of my earthenware vessels in the fire, burnt as
|
|
hard as a stone, and red as a tile. I was agreeably surprised to see
|
|
it, and said to myself, that certainly they might be made to burn
|
|
whole, if they would burn broken.
|
|
This set me to studying how to order my fire, so as to make it
|
|
burn me some pots. I had no notion of a kiln, such as the potters burn
|
|
in, or of glazing them with lead, though I had some lead to do it
|
|
with; but I placed three large pigskins, and two or three pots in a
|
|
pile, one upon another, and placed my firewood all round it, with a
|
|
great heap of embers under them. I plied the fire with fresh fuel
|
|
round the outside, and upon the top, till I saw the pots in the inside
|
|
re-hot quite through, and observed that they did not crack at all.
|
|
When I saw them clear red, I let them stand in that heat about five or
|
|
six hours, till I found one of them, though it did not crack, did melt
|
|
or run, for the sand which was mixed with the clay melted by the
|
|
violence of the heat, and would have run into glass, if I had gone on;
|
|
so I slacked my fire gradually till the pots began to abate of the red
|
|
color; and watching them all night, that I might not let the fire
|
|
abate too fast, in the morning I had three very good, I will not say
|
|
handsome, pigskins, and two other earthen pots, as hard burnt as could
|
|
be desired, and one of them perfectly glazed with the running of the
|
|
sand.
|
|
After this experiment, I need not say that I wanted no sort of
|
|
earthenware for my use; but I must needs say, as to the shapes of
|
|
them, they were very indifferent, as any one may suppose, when I had
|
|
no way of making them but as the children make dirt pies, or as a
|
|
woman would make pies that had never learned to raise paste.
|
|
No joy at a thing of so mean a nature was ever equal to mine, when I
|
|
found I had made an earthen pot that would bear the fire; and I had
|
|
hardly patience to stay till they were cold, before I set one upon the
|
|
fire again, with some water in it, to boil me some meat, which it
|
|
did admirably well; and with a piece of a kid I made some very good
|
|
broth, though I wanted oatmeal and several other ingredients requisite
|
|
to make it so good as I would have had it been.
|
|
My next concern was to get me a stone mortar to stamp or beat some
|
|
corn in; for as to the mill, there was no thought at arriving to
|
|
that perfection of art with one pair of hands. To supply this want I
|
|
was at a great loss; for, of all trades in the world, I was as
|
|
perfectly unqualified for a stone-cutter as for any whatever;
|
|
neither had I any tools to go about it with. I spent many a day to
|
|
find out a great stone big enough to cut hollow, and make fit for a
|
|
mortar, and could find none at all, except what was in the solid rock,
|
|
and which I had no way to dig or cut out; nor, indeed, were the
|
|
rocks in the island of hardness sufficient, but were all of a sandy
|
|
crumbling stone, which neither would bear the weight of a heavy
|
|
pestle, or would break the corn without filling it with sand. So,
|
|
after a great deal of time lost in searching for a stone, I gave it
|
|
over, and resolved to look out for a great block of hard wood, which I
|
|
found indeed much easier; and getting one as big as I had strength
|
|
to stir, I rounded it, and formed it in the outside with my axe and
|
|
hatchet, and then, with the help of fire, and infinite labor, made a
|
|
hollow place in it, as the Indians in Brazil make their canoes.
|
|
After this, I made a great heavy pestle, or beater, of the wood called
|
|
the iron-wood; and this I prepared and laid by against I had my next
|
|
crop of corn, when I proposed to myself to grind, or rather pound,
|
|
my corn into meal, to make my bread.
|
|
My next difficulty was to make a sieve, or search, to dress my meal,
|
|
and to part it from the bran and the husk, without which I did not see
|
|
it possible I could have any bread. This was a most difficult thing,
|
|
so much as but to think on, for to be sure I had nothing like the
|
|
necessary thing to make it; I mean fine thin canvas or stuff, to
|
|
search the meal through. And here I was at a full stop for many
|
|
months, nor did I really know what to do; linen I had none left, but
|
|
what was mere rags; I had goats'-hair, but neither knew I how to weave
|
|
it or spin it; and had I known how, here was no tools to work it with.
|
|
All the remedy that I found for this was, that at last I did
|
|
remember I had, among the seamen's clothes which were saved out of the
|
|
ship, some neckcloths of calico or muslin; and with some pieces of
|
|
these I made three small sieves, but proper enough for the work; and
|
|
thus I made shift for some years. How I did afterwards, I shall show
|
|
in its place.
|
|
The baking part was the next thing to be considered, and how I
|
|
should make bread when I came to have corn; for, first, I had no
|
|
yeast. As to that part, as there was no supplying the want, so I did
|
|
not concern myself much about it; but for an oven I was indeed in
|
|
great pain. At length I found out an experiment for that also, which
|
|
was this: I made some earthen vessels very broad, but not deep, that
|
|
is to say, about two feet diameter, and not above nine inches deep;
|
|
these I burned in the fire, as I had done the other, and laid them by;
|
|
and when I wanted to bake, I made a great fire upon my hearth, which I
|
|
had paved with some square tiles, of my own making and burning also;
|
|
but I should not call them square.
|
|
When the firewood was burned pretty much into embers, or live coals,
|
|
I drew them forward upon this hearth, so as to cover it all over,
|
|
and there I let them lie till the hearth was very hot; then sweeping
|
|
away all the embers, I set down my loaf, or loaves, and whelming
|
|
down the earthen pot upon them, drew the embers all round the
|
|
outside of the pot, to keep in and add to the heat. And thus, as
|
|
well as in the best oven in the world, I baked my barley-loaves, and
|
|
became; in a little time, a mere pastry-cook into the bargain; for I
|
|
made myself several cakes of the rice, and puddings; indeed, I made no
|
|
pies, neither had I anything to put into them, supposing I had, except
|
|
the flesh either of fowls or goats.
|
|
It need not be wondered at, if all these things took me up most part
|
|
of the third year of my abode here; for it is to be observed, that
|
|
in the intervals of these things I had my new harvest and husbandry to
|
|
manage; for I reaped my corn in its season, and carried it home as
|
|
well as I could, and laid it up in the ear, in my large baskets,
|
|
till I had time to rub it out, for I had no floor to thrash it on,
|
|
or instrument to thrash it with.
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And now, indeed, my stock of corn increasing, I really wanted to
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build my barns bigger. I wanted a place to lay it up in, for the
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increase of the corn now yielded me so much that I had of the barley
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about twenty bushels, and of the rice as much, or more, insomuch
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that now I resolved to begin to use it freely; for my bread had been
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quite gone a great while; also, I resolved to see what quantity
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would be sufficient for me a whole year, and to sow but once a year.
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Upon the whole, I found that the forty bushels of barley and rice
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was much more than I could consume in a year; so I resolved to sow
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just the same quantity every year that I sowed the last, in hopes that
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such a quantity would fully provide me with bread, etc.
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All the while these things were doing, you may be sure my thoughts
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run many times upon the prospect of land which I had seen from the
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other side of the island, and I was not without secret wishes that I
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were on shore there, fancying the seeing the mainland, and in an
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inhabited country, I might find some way or other to convey myself
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farther, and perhaps at last find some means of escape.
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But all this while I made no allowance for the dangers of such a
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condition, and how I might fall into the hands of savages, and perhaps
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such as I might have reason to think far worse than the lions and
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tigers of Africa; that if I once came into their power, I should run a
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hazard more than a thousand to one of being killed, and perhaps of
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being eaten; for I had heard that the people of the Caribbean coasts
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were cannibals, or maneaters, and I knew by the latitude that I
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could not be far off from that shore. That supposed they were not
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cannibals, yet that they might kill me, as many Europeans who had
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fallen into their hands had been served, even when they had been often
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or twenty together, much more I, that was but one, and could make
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little or no defence; all these things, I say, which I ought to have
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considered well of, and did cast up in my thoughts afterwards, yet
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took up none of my apprehensions at first, but my head ran mightily
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upon the thought of getting over to the shore.
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Now I wished for my boy Xury, and the longboat with the
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shoulder-of-mutton sail, with which I sailed above a thousand miles on
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the coast of Africa; but this was in vain. Then I thought I would go
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and look at our ship's boat, which, as I have said, was blown up
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upon the shore a great way, in the storm, when we were first cast
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away. She lay almost where she did at first, but not quite; and was
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turned, by the force of the waves and the winds, almost bottom side
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upward, against a high ridge of beachy rough sand, but no water
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about her, as before.
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If I had had hands to have refitted her, and to have launched her
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into the water, the boat would have done well enough, and I might have
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gone back into the Brazils with her easily enough; but I might have
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foreseen that I could no more turn her and set her upright upon her
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bottom, that I could remove the island. However, I went to the
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woods, and cut levers and rollers, and brought them to the boat,
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resolved to try what I could do; suggesting to myself that if I
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could but turn her down, I might easily repair the damage she had
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received, and she would be a very good boat, and I might go to sea
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in her very easily.
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I spared no pains, indeed, in this piece of fruitless toil, and
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spent, I think, three of four weeks about it. At last finding it
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impossible to heave it up with my little strength, I fell to digging
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away the sand, to undermine it, and so make it fall down, setting
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pieces of wood to thrust and guide it right in the fall. But when I
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had done this, I was unable to stir it up again, or to get under it,
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much less to move it forward towards the water; so I was forced to
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give it over. And yet, though I gave over the hopes of the boat, my
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desire to venture over for the main increased, rather than
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|
decreased, as the means for it seemed impossible.
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|
This at length put me upon thinking whether it was not possible to
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make myself a canoe, or periagua, such as the natives of those
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climates make, even without tools, or, as I might say, without
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hands, viz., of the trunk of a great tree. This I not only thought
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|
possible but easy, and pleased myself extremely with the thoughts of
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|
making it, and with my having much more convenience for it than any of
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the negroes or Indians; but not at all considering the particular
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|
inconveniences which I lay under more than the Indians did, viz., want
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of hands to move it, when it was made, into the water, a difficulty
|
|
much harder for me to surmount than all the consequences of want of
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tools could be to them. For what was it to me, that when I had
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chosen a vast tree in the woods, I might with much trouble cut it
|
|
down, if, after I might be able with my tools to hew and dub the
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|
outside into the proper shape of a boat, and burn or cut out the
|
|
inside to make it hollow, so to make a boat of it; if, after this, I
|
|
must leave it just there where I found it, and was not able to
|
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launch it into the water?
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|
One would have thought I could not have had the least reflection
|
|
upon my mind of my circumstance while I was making this boat, but I
|
|
should have immediately thought how I should get it into the sea;
|
|
but my thoughts were so intent upon my voyage over the sea in it, that
|
|
I never once considered how I should get it off the land; and it was
|
|
really, in its own nature, more easy for me to guide it over
|
|
forty-five miles of sea, than about forty-five fathoms of land,
|
|
where it lay, to set it afloat in the water.
|
|
I went to work upon this boat the most like a fool that ever man did
|
|
who had any of his senses awake. I pleased myself with the design,
|
|
without determining whether I was ever able to undertake it. Not but
|
|
that the difficulty of launching my boat came often into my head;
|
|
but I put a stop to my own inquiries into it, by this foolish answer
|
|
which I gave myself, "Let's first make it; I'll warrant I'll find some
|
|
way or other to get it along when 't is done."
|
|
This was a most preposterous method; but the eagerness of my fancy
|
|
prevailed, and to work I went. I felled a cedar tree: I questioned
|
|
much whether Solomon ever had such a one for the building of the
|
|
Temple at Jerusalem. It was five feet often inches diameter at the
|
|
lower part next the stump, and four feet eleven inches diameter at the
|
|
end of twenty-two feet, after which it lessened for awhile, and then
|
|
parted into branches. It was not without infinite labor that I
|
|
felled this tree. I was twenty days hacking and hewing at it at the
|
|
bottom; I was fourteen more getting the branches and limbs, and the
|
|
vast spreading head of it cut off, which I hacked and hewed through
|
|
with axe and hatchet, and inexpressible labor. After this, it cost
|
|
me a month to shape it and dub it to a proportion, and to something
|
|
like the bottom of a boat, that it might swim upright as it ought to
|
|
do. It cost me near three months more to clear the inside, and work it
|
|
so as to make an exact boat of it. This I did, indeed, without fire,
|
|
by mere mallet and chisel, and by the dint of hard labor, till I had
|
|
brought it to be a very handsome periagua, and big enough to have
|
|
carried six and twenty men, and consequently big enough to have
|
|
carried me and my cargo.
|
|
When I had, gone through this work, I was extremely delighted with
|
|
it. The boat was really much bigger than I ever saw a canoe or
|
|
periagua, that was made of one tree, in my life. Many a weary stroke
|
|
it had cost, you may be sure; and there remained nothing but to get it
|
|
into the water; and.had I gotten it into the water, I made no question
|
|
but I should have begun the maddest voyage, and the most unlikely to
|
|
be performed, that ever was undertaken.
|
|
But all my devices to get it into the water failed me, they cost
|
|
me infinite labor, too. It lay about one hundred yards from the water,
|
|
and not more; but the first inconvenience was, it was uphill towards
|
|
the creek. Well, to take away this discouragement, I resolved to dig
|
|
into the surface of the earth, and so make a declivity. This I
|
|
began, and it cost me a prodigious deal of pains; but who grudges
|
|
pains, that have their deliverance in view? But when this was worked
|
|
through, and this difficulty managed, it was still much at one, for
|
|
I could no more stir the canoe than I could the other boat.
|
|
Then measured the distance of ground, and resolved to cut a dock
|
|
or canal, to bring the water up to the canoe, seeing I could not bring
|
|
the canoe down to the water. Well, I began this work; and when I began
|
|
to enter into it, and calculate how deep it was to be dug, how
|
|
broad, how the stuff to be thrown out, I found that by the number of
|
|
hands I had, being none but my own, it must have been often or
|
|
twelve years before should have gone through with it; for the shore
|
|
lay high, so that at the upper end it must have been at least twenty
|
|
feet deep; so at length, though with great reluctancy, I gave this
|
|
attempt over also.
|
|
This grieved me heartily; and now I saw, though too late, the
|
|
folly of beginning a work before we count the cost, and, before we
|
|
judge rightly of our own strength to go through with it.
|
|
In the middle of this work I finished my fourth year in this
|
|
place, and kept my anniversary with the same devotion, and with as
|
|
much comfort as ever before; for, by a constant study and serious
|
|
application of the Word of God, and by the assistance of His grace,
|
|
I gained a different knowledge from what I had before. I entertained
|
|
different notions of things. I looked now upon the world as a thing
|
|
remote, which I had nothing to do with, no expectation from, and,
|
|
indeed, no desires about. In a word, I had nothing indeed to do with
|
|
it, nor was ever like to have; so I thought it looked, as we may
|
|
perhaps look upon it hereafter, viz., as a place I had lived in, but
|
|
was come out of it; and well might I say, as father Abraham to
|
|
Dives, "Between me and thee is a great gulf fixed."
|
|
In the first place, I was removed from all the wickedness of the
|
|
world here. I had neither the lust of the flesh, the lust of the
|
|
eye, or the pride of life. I had nothing to covet, for I had all
|
|
that I was now capable of enjoying. I was lord of the whole manor; or,
|
|
if I pleased, I might call myself king or emperor over the whole
|
|
country which I had possession of. There were no rivals: I had no
|
|
competitor, none to dispute sovereignty or command with me. I might
|
|
have raised ship-loadings of corn, but I had no use for it; so I let
|
|
as little grow as I thought enough for my occasion. I had tortoise
|
|
or turtles enough, but now and then one was as much as I could put
|
|
to any use. I had timber enough to have built a fleet of ships. I
|
|
had grapes enough to have made wine, or to have cured into raisins, to
|
|
have loaded that fleet when they had been built.
|
|
But all I could make use of was all that was valuable. I had
|
|
enough to eat and to supply my wants, and what was all the rest to me?
|
|
If I killed more flesh than I could eat, the dog must eat it, or the
|
|
vermin. If I sowed more corn than I could eat, it must be spoiled. The
|
|
trees that I cut down were lying to rot on the ground; I could make no
|
|
more use of them than for fuel, and that I had no occasion for but
|
|
to dress my food.
|
|
In a word, the nature and experience of things dictated to me,
|
|
upon just reflection, that all the good things of this world are no
|
|
farther good to us than they are for our use; and that whatever we may
|
|
heap up indeed to give others, we enjoy just as much as we can use,
|
|
and no more. The most covetous griping miser in the world would have
|
|
been cured of the vice of covetousness, if he had been in my case; for
|
|
I possessed infinitely more than I knew what to do with. I had no room
|
|
for desire, except it was of things which I had not, and they were but
|
|
trifles, through indeed of great use to me. I had, as I hinted before,
|
|
a parcel of money, as well gold as silver, about thirty-six pounds
|
|
sterling. Alas! There the nasty, sorry, useless stuff lay; I had no
|
|
manner of business for it; and I often thought with myself, that I
|
|
would have given a handful of it for a gross of tobacco-pipes, or
|
|
for a hand-mill to grind my corn; nay, I would have given it all for
|
|
sixpenny-worth of turnip and carrot seed out of England, or for a
|
|
handful of peas and beans, and a bottle of ink. As it was, I had not
|
|
the least advantage by it, or benefit from it; but there it lay in a
|
|
drawer, and grew mouldy with the damp of the cave in the wet season;
|
|
and if I had had the drawer full of diamonds, it had been the same
|
|
case, and they had been of no manner of value to me because of no use.
|
|
I had now brought my state of life to be much easier in itself
|
|
than it was at first, and much easier to my mind, as well as to my
|
|
body. I frequently sat down to my meat with thankfulness, and
|
|
admired the hand of God's providence, which had thus spread my table
|
|
in the wilderness. I learned to look more upon the bright side of my
|
|
condition, and less upon the dark side, and to consider what I
|
|
enjoyed, rather than what I wanted; and this gave me sometimes such
|
|
secret comforts, that I cannot express them; and which I take notice
|
|
of here, to put those discontented people in mind of it, who cannot
|
|
enjoy comfortably what God has given them, because they see and
|
|
covet something that He has not given them. All our discontents
|
|
about what we want appeared to me to spring from the want of
|
|
thankfulness for what we have.
|
|
Another reflection was of great use to me, and doubtless would be so
|
|
to any that should fall into such distress as mine was; and this
|
|
was, to compare my present condition with what I at first expected
|
|
it should be; nay, with what it would certainly have been, if the good
|
|
providence of God had not wonderfully ordered the ship to be cast up
|
|
nearer to the shore; where I not only could come at her, but could
|
|
bring what I got out of her to the shore, for my relief and comfort;
|
|
without which I had wanted for tools to work, weapons for defence,
|
|
or gunpowder and shot for getting my food.
|
|
I spent whole hours, I may say whole days, in representing to
|
|
myself, in the most lively colors, how I must have acted if I had
|
|
got nothing out of the ship. How I could not have so much as got any
|
|
food, except fish and turtles; and that as it was long before I
|
|
found any of them, I must have perished first; that I should have
|
|
lived, if I had not perished, like a mere savage; that if I had killed
|
|
a goat or a fowl, by any contrivance, I had no way to flay or open
|
|
them, or part the flesh from the skin and the bowels, or to cut it up;
|
|
but must gnaw it with my teeth, and pull it with my claws, like a
|
|
beast.
|
|
These reflections made me very sensible of the goodness of
|
|
Providence to me, and very thankful for my present condition, with all
|
|
its hardships and misfortunes; and this part also I cannot but
|
|
recommend to the reflection of those who are apt, in their misery,
|
|
to say, Is any affliction like mine? Let them consider how much
|
|
worse the cases of some people are, and their case might have been, if
|
|
Providence had thought fit.
|
|
I had another reflection, which assisted me also to comfort my
|
|
mind with hopes; and this was, comparing my present condition with
|
|
what I had deserved, and had therefore reason to expect from the
|
|
hand of Providence. I had lived a dreadful life, perfectly destitute
|
|
of the knowledge and fear of God. I had been well instructed by father
|
|
and mother; neither had they been wanting to me in their early
|
|
endeavors to infuse a religious awe of God into my mind, a sense of.
|
|
my duty, and of what the nature and end of my being required of me.
|
|
But, alas! falling early into the seafaring life, which, of all the
|
|
lives, is the most destitute of the fear of God, though His terrors
|
|
are always before them; I say, falling early into the seafaring
|
|
life, and into seafaring company, all that little sense of religion
|
|
which I had entertained was laughed out of me by my messmates; by a
|
|
hardened despising of dangers, and the views of death, which grew
|
|
habitual to me; by my long absence from all manner of opportunities to
|
|
converse with anything but what was like myself, or to hear anything
|
|
that was good, or tended towards it.
|
|
So void was I of everything that was good, or of the least sense
|
|
of what I was, or was to be, that in the greatest deliverances I
|
|
enjoyed, such as my escape from Sallee; my being taken up by the
|
|
Portuguese master of the ship; my being planted so well in the
|
|
Brazils; my receiving the cargo from England, and the like; I never
|
|
had once the words "Thank God," so much as on my mind, or in my mouth;
|
|
nor in the greatest distress had I so much as thought to pray to
|
|
Him, or so much as to say, "Lord, have mercy upon me!" no, nor to
|
|
mention the name of God, unless it was to swear by and blaspheme it.
|
|
I had terrible reflections upon my mind for many months, as I have
|
|
already observed, on the account of my wicked and hardened life
|
|
past; and when I looked about me and considered what particular
|
|
providences had attended me since coming into the place, and how God
|
|
had dealt bountifully with me, had not only punished me less than my
|
|
iniquity had deserved, but had so plentifully provided for me; this
|
|
gave me great hopes that my repentance was accepted, and that God
|
|
had yet mercy in store for me.
|
|
With these reflections, I worked my mind up, not only to resignation
|
|
to the will of God in the present disposition of my circumstances, but
|
|
even to a sincere thankfulness for my condition; and that I, who was
|
|
yet a living man, ought not to complain, seeing I had not the due
|
|
punishment of my sins; that I enjoyed so many mercies, which I had
|
|
no reason to have expected in that place; that I ought nevermore to
|
|
repine at my condition, but to rejoice, and to give daily thanks for
|
|
that daily bread, which nothing but a crowd of wonders could have
|
|
brought; that I ought to consider I had been fed even by miracle, even
|
|
as great as that of feeding Elijah by ravens; nay, by a long series of
|
|
miracles; and that I could hardly have named a place in the
|
|
unhabitable part of the world where I could have been cast more to
|
|
my advantage; a place where, as I had no society, which was my
|
|
affliction on one had, so I found no ravenous beasts, no furious
|
|
wolves or tigers, to threaten my life; no venomous creatures, or
|
|
poisonous, which I might feed on to my hurt; no savages to murder
|
|
and devour me.
|
|
In a word, as my life was a life of sorrow one way, so it was a life
|
|
of mercy another; and I wanted nothing to make it a life of comfort;
|
|
but to be able to make my sense of God's goodness to me, and care over
|
|
me in this condition, be my daily consolation; and after I did make
|
|
a just improvement of these things, I went away, and was no more sad.
|
|
I had now been here so long that many -things which I brought on
|
|
shore for my help were either quite gone, or very much wasted, and
|
|
near spent. My ink, as I observed, had been gone for some time, all
|
|
but a very little, which I eked out with water, a little and a little,
|
|
till it was so pale it scarce left any appearance of black upon the
|
|
paper. As long as it lasted, I made use of it to minute down the
|
|
days of the month on which any remarkable thing happened to me. And,
|
|
first, by casting up times past, I remember that there was a strange
|
|
concurrence of days in the various providences which befell me, and
|
|
which, if I had been superstitiously inclined to observe days as fatal
|
|
or fortunate, I might have had reason to have looked upon with a great
|
|
deal of curiosity.
|
|
First, I had observed that the same day that I broke away from my
|
|
father and my friends, and run away to Hull, in order to go to sea,
|
|
the same day afterwards I was taken by the Sallee man-of-war, and made
|
|
a slave.
|
|
The same day of the year that I escaped out of the wreck of that
|
|
ship in Yarmouth Roads, that same day-year afterwards I made my escape
|
|
from Sallee in the boat.
|
|
The same day of the year I was born on viz., the 30th of
|
|
September, that same day I had my life so miraculously saved
|
|
twenty-six years after, when I was cast on the shore in this island;
|
|
so that my wicked life and my solitary life began both on a day.
|
|
The next thing to my ink's being wasted, was that of my bread; I
|
|
mean the biscuit, which I brought out of the ship. This I had
|
|
husbanded to the last degree, allowing myself but one cake of bread
|
|
a day for above a year; and yet I was quite without bread for near a
|
|
year before I got any corn of my own; and great reason I had to be
|
|
thankful that I had any at all, the getting it being, as has been
|
|
already observed, next to miraculous.
|
|
My clothes began to decay, too, mightily. As to linen, I had none
|
|
a good while, except some checkered shirts which I found in the chests
|
|
of the other seamen, and which I carefully preserved, because many
|
|
times I could bear no other clothes on but a shirt; and it was a great
|
|
great help to me that I had, among all the men's clothes of the
|
|
ship, almost three dozen of shirts. There were also several thick
|
|
watch-coats of the seamen's which were left indeed, but they were
|
|
too hot to wear; and though it is true that the weather was so violent
|
|
hot that there was no need of clothes, yet I could not go quite naked,
|
|
no, though I had been inclined to it, which I was not, nor could abide
|
|
the thoughts of it, though I was all alone.
|
|
The reason why I could not go quite naked was, I could not bear
|
|
the heat of the sun so well when quite naked as with some clothes
|
|
on; nay, the very heat frequently blistered my skin; whereas, with a
|
|
shirt on, the air itself made some motion, and whistling under that
|
|
shirt, was twofold cooler than without it. No more could I ever
|
|
bring myself to go out in the heat of the sun without a cap or a
|
|
hat. The heat of the sun beating with such violence, as it does in
|
|
that place, would give me the headache presently, by darting so
|
|
directly on my head, without a cap or hat on, so that I could not bear
|
|
it; whereas, if I put on my hat, it would presently go away.
|
|
Upon those views, I began to consider about putting the few rags I
|
|
had, which I called clothes, into some order. I had worn out all the
|
|
waistcoats I had, and my business was not to try if I could not make
|
|
jackets out of the great watch-coats which I had by me, and with
|
|
such other materials as I had; so I set to work a-tailoring, or
|
|
rather, indeed, a-botching, for I made most piteous work of it.
|
|
However, I made shift to make two or three new waistcoats, which I
|
|
hoped would serve me a great while. As for breeches or drawers, I made
|
|
but a very sorry shift indeed till afterward.
|
|
I have mentioned that I saved the skins of all the creatures that
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|
I killed, I mean four-footed ones, and I had hung them up stretched
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out with sticks in the sun, by which means some of them were so dry
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and hard that they were fit for little, but others it seems were
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very useful. The first thing I made of these was a great cap for my
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head, with the hair on the outside, to shoot off the rain; and this
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I performed so well, that after this I made me a suit of clothes
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wholly of these skins, that is to say, a waistcoat, and breeches
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open at knees, and both loose, for they were rather wanting to keep me
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cool than to keep me warm. I must not omit to acknowledge that they
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were wretchedly made; for if I was a bad carpenter, I was a worse
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tailor. However, they were such as I made very good shift with; and
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when I was abroad, if it happened to rain, the hair of my waistcoat
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and cap being outermost, I was kept very dry.
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After this I spent a great deal of time and pains to make me an
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umbrella. I was indeed in great want of one, and had a great mind to
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make one. I had seen them made in the Brazils, where they are very
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useful in the great heats which are there; and I felt the heats
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every jot as great here, and greater too, being nearer the equinox.
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Besides, as I was obliged to be much abroad, it was a most useful
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thing to me, as well for the rains as the heats. I took a world of
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pains at it, and was a great while before I could make anything likely
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to hold; nay, after I thought I had hit the way, I spoiled two or
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three before I made one to my mind; but at last I made one that
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answered indifferently well. The main difficulty I found was to make
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it to let down. I could make it to spread; but if it did not let it
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down too, and draw in, it was not portable for me any way but just
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over my head, which would not do. However, at last, as I said, I
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made one to answer, and covered with skins, the hair upwards, so
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that it cast off the rains like a pent-house, and kept off the sun
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so effectually that I could walk out in the hottest of the weather
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with greater advantage than I could before in the coolest; and when
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I had no need of it, could close it, and carry it under my arm.
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Thus I lived mighty comfortably, my mind being entirely composed
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by resigning to the will of God, and throwing myself wholly upon the
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disposal of His providence. This made my life better than sociable;
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for when I began to regret the want of conversation, I would ask
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myself whether thus conversing mutually with my own thoughts, and,
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as I hope I may say, with even God Himself, by ejaculations, was not
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better than the utmost enjoyment of human society in the world?
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I cannot say that after this, for five years, any extraordinary
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|
thing happened to me; but I lived on in the same course, in the same
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posture and place, just as before. The chief things I was employed in,
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besides my yearly labor of planting my barley and rice, and curing
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my raisins, of both which I always kept up just enough to have
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sufficient stock of one year's provisions beforehand - I say,
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besides this yearly labor, and my daily labor of going out with my
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|
gun, I had one labor, to make me a canoe, which at last I finished; so
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|
that by digging a canal to it of six feet wide, and four feet deep,
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|
I brought it into the creek, almost half a mile. As for the first,
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which was so vastly big, as I made it without considering
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beforehand, as I ought to do, how I should be able to launch it; so,
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|
never being able to bring it to the water, or bring the water to it, I
|
|
was obliged to let it lie where it was, as a memorandum to teach me to
|
|
be wiser next time. Indeed, the next time, though I could not get a
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|
tree proper for it, and in a place where I could not get the water
|
|
to it at any less distance than, as I have said, near half a mile, yet
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|
as I saw it was at last, I never gave it over; and though I was near
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|
two years about it, yet I never grudged my labor, in hopes of having a
|
|
boat to go off to sea at last.
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|
However, though my little periagua was finished, yet the size of
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|
it was not at all answerable to the design which I had in view when
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I made the first; I mean, of venturing over to the terra firma,
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where it was above forty miles broad. Accordingly, the smallness of my
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|
boat assisted to put an end to that design, and now I thought no
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|
more of it. But as I had a boat, my next design was to make a tour
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|
round the island; for as I had been on the other side in one place,
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|
crossing, as I have already described it, over the land, so the
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|
discoveries I made in that little journey made me very eager to see
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other parts of the coast; and now I had a boat, I thought of nothing
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|
but sailing round the island.
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|
For this purpose, that I might do everything with discretion and
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|
consideration, I fitted up a little mast to my boat, and made a sail
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|
to it out of some of the pieces of the ship's sail, which lay in
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|
store, and of which I had a great stock by me.
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|
Having fitted my mast and sail, and tried the boat, I found she
|
|
would sail very well. Then I made little lockers, or boxes, at
|
|
either end of my boat, to put provisions, necessaries, and ammunition,
|
|
etc., into, to be kept dry, either from rain or the spray of the
|
|
sea; and a little long hollow place I cut in the inside of the boat,
|
|
where I could lay my gun, making a flap to hang down over it to keep
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it dry.
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|
I fixed my umbrella also in a step at the stern, like a mast, to
|
|
stand over my head, and keep the heat of the sun off of me, like an
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|
awning; and thus I every now and then took a little voyage upon the
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|
sea, but never went far out, nor far from the little creek. But at
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|
last, being eager to view the circumference of my little kingdom, I
|
|
resolved upon my tour; and accordingly I victualled my ship for the
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|
voyage, putting in two dozen of my loaves (cakes I should rather
|
|
call them) of barley bread, an earthen pot full of parched rice, a
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|
food I eat a great deal of, a little bottle of rum, half a goat, and
|
|
powder and shot for killing more, and two large watch-coats, of
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|
those which, as I mentioned before, I had saved out of the seamen's
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|
chests; these I took, one to lie upon, and the other to cover me in
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|
the night.
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|
It was the 6th of November, in the sixth year of my reign, or my
|
|
captivity, which you please, that I set out on this voyage, and I
|
|
found it much longer than I expected; for though the island itself was
|
|
not very large, yet when I came to the east side of it I found a great
|
|
ledge of rocks lie out above two leagues into the sea, some above
|
|
water, some under it, and beyond that a shoal of sand, lying dry
|
|
half a league more; so that I was obliged to go a great way out to sea
|
|
to double the point.
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|
When first I discovered them, I was going to give over my
|
|
enterprise, and come back again, not knowing how far it might oblige
|
|
me to go out to sea, and, above all, doubting how I should get back
|
|
again, so I came to an anchor; for I had made me a kind of an anchor
|
|
with a piece of broken grappling which I got out of the ship.
|
|
Having secured my boat, I took my gun and went on shore, climbing up
|
|
upon a hill, which seemed to overlook that point, where I saw the full
|
|
extent of it, and resolved to venture.
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|
In my viewing the sea from that hill, where I stood, I perceived a
|
|
strong, and indeed a most furious current, which run to the east,
|
|
and even came close to the point; and I took the more notice of
|
|
because I saw there might be some danger that when I came into it I
|
|
might be carried out to sea by the strength of it, and not be able
|
|
to make the island again. And indeed, had I not gotten first up upon
|
|
this hill, I believe it would have been so; for there was the same
|
|
current on the other side of the island, only that it set off at a
|
|
farther distance; and I saw there was a strong eddy under the shore;
|
|
so I had nothing to do but to get in out of the first current, and I
|
|
should presently be in an eddy.
|
|
I lay here, however, two days; because the wind, blowing pretty
|
|
fresh at ESE., and that being just contrary to the said current,
|
|
made a great breach of the sea upon the point; so that it was not safe
|
|
for me to keep too close to the shore for the breach, nor to go too
|
|
far off because of the stream.
|
|
The third day, in the morning, the wind having abated over-night,
|
|
the sea was calm, and I ventured. But I am a warning piece again to
|
|
all rash and ignorant pilots; for no sooner was I come to the point,
|
|
when even I was not my boat's length from the shore, but I found
|
|
myself in a great depth of water, and a current like the sluice of a
|
|
mill. It carried my boat along with it with such violence, that all
|
|
I could do could not keep her so much as on the edge of it, but I
|
|
found it hurried me farther and farther out from the eddy, which was
|
|
on my left hand. There was no wind stirring to help me, and all I
|
|
could do with my paddlers signified nothing. And now I began to give
|
|
myself over for lost; for, as the current was on both sides the
|
|
island, I knew in a few leagues distance they must join again, and
|
|
then I was irrecoverably gone. Nor did I see any possibility of
|
|
avoiding it; so that I had no prospect before me but of perishing; not
|
|
by the sea, for that was calm enough, but of starving for hunger. I
|
|
had indeed found a tortoise on the shore, as big almost as I could
|
|
lift, and had tossed it into the boat; and I had a great jar of
|
|
fresh water, that is to say, one of my earthen pots; but what was
|
|
all this to being driven into the vast ocean, where, to be sure, there
|
|
was no shore, no mainland or island, for a thousand leagues at least.
|
|
And now I saw how easy it was for the providence of God to make
|
|
the most miserable condition mankind could be in worse. Now I looked
|
|
back upon my desolate solitary island as the most pleasant place in
|
|
the world, and all the happiness my heart could wish for was to be but
|
|
there again. I stretched out my hands to it, with eager wishes. "O
|
|
happy desert!" said I, "I shall never see thee more. O miserable
|
|
creature," said I, "whither am I going?" Then I reproached myself with
|
|
my unthankful temper, and how I had repined at my solitary
|
|
condition; and now what would I give to be on shore there again.
|
|
Thus we never see the true state of our condition till it is
|
|
illustrated to us by its contraries; nor know how to value what we
|
|
enjoy, but by the want of it. It is scarce possible to imagine the
|
|
consternation I was now in, being driven from my beloved island (for
|
|
so it appeared to me now to be) into the wide ocean, almost two
|
|
leagues, and in the utmost despair of ever recovering it again.
|
|
However, I worked hard, till indeed my strength was almost
|
|
exhausted, and kept my boat as much to the northward, that is, towards
|
|
the side of the current which the eddy lay on, as possibly I could;
|
|
when about noon, as the sun passed the meridian, I thought I felt a
|
|
little breeze of wind in my face, springing up from the SSE. This
|
|
cheered my heart a little, and especially when, in about an hour more,
|
|
it blew a pretty small gentle gale. By this time I was gotten at a
|
|
frightful distance from the island; and had the least cloud or hazy
|
|
weather intervened, I had been undone another way too; for I had no
|
|
compass on board, and should never have known how to have steered
|
|
towards the island if I had but once lost sight of it. But the weather
|
|
continuing clear, I applied myself to get up my mast again, and spread
|
|
my sail, standing away to the north as much as possible, to get out of
|
|
the current.
|
|
Just as I had set my mast and sail, and the boat began to stretch
|
|
away, I saw even by clearness of the water some alteration of the
|
|
current was near; for where the current was so strong, the water was
|
|
foul. But perceiving the water clear, I found the current abate, and
|
|
presently I found to the east, at about half a mile, a breach of the
|
|
sea upon some rocks. These rocks I found caused the current to part
|
|
again; and as the main stress of it ran away more southerly, leaving
|
|
the rocks to the north-east, so the other returned by the repulse of
|
|
the rocks, and made a strong eddy, which ran back again to the
|
|
north-west with a very sharp stream.
|
|
They who know what it is to have a reprieve brought to them upon the
|
|
ladder, or to be rescued from thieves just going to murder them, or
|
|
who have been in such like extremities, may guess what my present
|
|
surprise of joy was, and how gladly I put my boat into the stream of
|
|
this eddy; and the wind also freshening, how gladly I spread my sail
|
|
to it, running cheerfully before the wind, and with a strong tide or
|
|
eddy under foot.
|
|
This eddy carried me about a league in my way back again, directly
|
|
towards the island, but about two leagues more to the northward than
|
|
the current which carried me away at first; so that when I came near
|
|
the island, I found myself open to the northern shore of it, that is
|
|
to say, the other end of the island, opposite to that which I went out
|
|
from.
|
|
When I had made something more than a league of way by the help of
|
|
this current or eddy, I found it was spent, and served me no
|
|
farther. However, I found that being between the two great currents,
|
|
viz., that on the south side, which had hurried me away, and that on
|
|
the north, which lay about a league on the other side; I say,
|
|
between these two, in the wake of the island, I found the water at
|
|
least still, and running no way; and having still a breeze of wind
|
|
fair for me, I kept on steering directly for the island, though not
|
|
making such fresh way as I did before.
|
|
About four o'clock in the evening, being then within about a
|
|
league of the island, I found the point of the rocks which
|
|
occasioned this disaster stretching out, as is described before, to
|
|
the southward, and casting off the current more southwardly had, of
|
|
course, made another eddy to the north, and this I found very
|
|
strong, but not directly setting the way my course lay, which was
|
|
due west, but almost full north. However, having a fresh gale, I
|
|
stretched across this eddy, slanting north-west; and in about an
|
|
hour came within about a mile of the shore, where, it being smooth
|
|
water, I soon got to land.
|
|
When I was on shore, I fell on my knees, and gave God thanks for
|
|
my deliverance, resolving to lay aside all thoughts of my
|
|
deliverance by my boat; and refreshing myself with such things as I
|
|
had, I brought my boat close to the shore, in a little cove that I had
|
|
spied under some trees, and laid me down to sleep, being quite spent
|
|
with the labor and fatigue of the voyage.
|
|
I was now at a great loss which way to get home with my coat. I
|
|
had run so much hazard, and knew too much the case, to think of
|
|
attempting it by the way I went out; and what might be at the other
|
|
side (I mean the west side) I knew not, nor had I any mind to run
|
|
any more ventures. So I only resolved in the morning to make my way
|
|
westward along the shore, and to see if there was no creek where I
|
|
might lay up my frigate in safety, so as to have her again if I wanted
|
|
her. In about three miles, or thereabouts, coasting the shore, I
|
|
came to a very good inlet or bay, about a mile over, which narrowed
|
|
till it came to a very little rivulet or brook, where I found a very
|
|
convenient harbor for my boat, and where she lay as if she had been in
|
|
a little dock made on purpose her. Here I put in, and having stowed my
|
|
boat very safe, I went on shore to look about me, and see where I was.
|
|
I soon found I had but a little passed by the place where I had been
|
|
before, when I travelled on foot to that shore; so taking nothing
|
|
out of my boat but my gun and my umbrella, for it was exceedingly hot,
|
|
I began my march. The way it was comfortable enough after such a
|
|
voyage as I had been upon, and I reach my old bower in the evening,
|
|
where I found everything standing as I left it; for I always kept it
|
|
in good order, being, as I said before, my country-house.
|
|
I got over the fence, and laid me down in the shade to rest my
|
|
limbs, for I was very weary, and fell asleep. But judge you, if you
|
|
can, that read my story, what a surprise I must be in, when I was
|
|
waked out of my sleep by a voice calling me by my name several
|
|
times, "Robin, Robin, Robin Crusoe, poor Robin Crusoe! Where are
|
|
you, Robin Crusoe? Where are you? Where have you been?"
|
|
I was so dead asleep at first, being fatigued with rowing, or
|
|
paddling, as it is called, the first part of the day, and with walking
|
|
the latter part, that I did not wake thoroughly; but dozing between
|
|
sleeping and waking, thought I dreamed that somebody spoke to me.
|
|
But as the voice continued to repeat, "Robin Crusoe, Robin Crusoe," at
|
|
last I began to wake more perfectly, and was at first dreadfully
|
|
frighted, and started up in the utmost consternation. But no sooner
|
|
were my eyes open, but I saw my Poll sitting on the top of the
|
|
hedge, and immediately knew that it was he that spoke to me; for
|
|
just in such bemoaning language I had used to talk to him, and teach
|
|
him; and he had learned it so perfectIy, that he would sit upon my
|
|
finger, and lay his bill close to my face, and cry, "Poor Robin.
|
|
Crusoe! Where are you? Where have you been? How come you here?" and
|
|
such things as I had taught him.
|
|
However, even though I knew it was the parrot, and that indeed it
|
|
could be nobody else, it was a good while before I could compose
|
|
myself. First I was amazed how the creature got thither, and then, how
|
|
he should just keep about the place, and nowhere else. But as I was
|
|
well satisfied it could be nobody but honest Poll, I got it over;
|
|
and holding out my hand, and calling him by name, Poll, the sociable
|
|
creature came to me, and sat upon my thumb, as he used to do, and
|
|
continued talking to me, "Poor Robin Crusoe! and how did I come
|
|
here? and where had I been?" just as if he had been overjoyed to see
|
|
me again; and so I carried him home along with me.
|
|
I had now had enough of rambling to sea for some time, and had
|
|
enough to do for many days to sit still and reflect upon the danger
|
|
I had been in. I would have been very glad to have had my boat again
|
|
on my side of the island; but I knew not how it was practicable to get
|
|
it about. As to the east side of the island, which I had gone round, I
|
|
knew well enough there was no venturing that way; my very heart
|
|
would shrink and my very blood run chill, but to think of it. And as
|
|
to the other side of the island, I did not know how it might be there;
|
|
but supposing the current ran with the same force against the shore at
|
|
the east as it passed by it on the other, I might run the same risks
|
|
of being driven down the stream, and carried by the island, as I had
|
|
been before of being carried away from it. So, with these thoughts,
|
|
I contented myself to be without any boat, though it had been the
|
|
product of so many months' labor to make it, and of so many more to
|
|
get it into the sea.
|
|
In this government of my temper I remained near a year, lived a very
|
|
sedate, retired life, as you may well suppose; and my thoughts being
|
|
very much composed as to my condition, and fully comforted in
|
|
resigning myself to the dispositions of Providence, I thought I
|
|
lived really very happily in all things, except that of society.
|
|
I improved myself in this time in all the mechanic exercises which
|
|
my necessities put me upon applying myself to, and I believe could,
|
|
upon occasion, make a very good carpenter, especially considering
|
|
how few tools I had. Besides this, I arrived at an unexpected
|
|
perfection in my earthenware, and contrived well enough to make them
|
|
with a wheel, which I found infinitely easier and better, because I
|
|
made things round and shapable which before were filthy things
|
|
indeed to look on. But I think I was never more vain of my own
|
|
performance, or more joyful for anything I found out, than for my
|
|
being able to make a tobacco-pipe. And though it was a very ugly,
|
|
clumsy thing when it was done, and only burnt red, like other
|
|
earthenware, yet as it was hard and firm, and would draw the smoke,
|
|
I was exceedingly comforted with it; for I had been always used to
|
|
smoke, and there were pipes in the ship, but I forgot them at first,
|
|
not knowing that there was tobacco in the island; and afterwards, when
|
|
I searched the ship again, I could not come at any pipes at all.
|
|
In my wickerware also I improved much, and made abundance of
|
|
necessary baskets, as well as my invention showed me; though not
|
|
very handsome, yet they were such as were very handy and convenient
|
|
for my laying things up in, or fetching things home in. For example,
|
|
if I killed a goat abroad, I could hang it up in a tree, flay it,
|
|
and dress it, and cut it in pieces, and bring it home in a basket; and
|
|
the like by a turtle; I could cut it up, take out the eggs, and a
|
|
piece or two of the flesh, which was enough for me, and bring them
|
|
home in a basket, and leave the rest behind me. Also, large deep
|
|
baskets were my receivers for my corn, which I always rubbed out as
|
|
soon as it was dry, and cured, and kept it in great baskets.
|
|
I began now to perceive my powder abated considerably, and this
|
|
was a want which it was impossible for me to supply, and I began
|
|
seriously to consider what I must do when I should have no more
|
|
powder; that is to say, how I should do to kill any goats. I had, as
|
|
it observed, in the third year of my being here, kept a young kid, and
|
|
bred her up tame, and I was in hope of getting a he-goat. But I
|
|
could not by any means bring it to pass, till my kid grew an old goat;
|
|
and I could never find it in my heart to kill her, till she dies at
|
|
last of mere age.
|
|
But being now in the eleventh year of my residence, and, as I have
|
|
said, my ammunition growing low, I set myself to study some art to
|
|
trap and snare the goats, to see whether I could not catch some of
|
|
them alive; and particularly, I wanted a she-goat great with young.
|
|
To this purpose, I made snares to hamper them, and I do believe they
|
|
were more than once taken in them: but my tackle was not good, for I
|
|
had no wire, and I always found them broken, and my bait devoured.
|
|
At length I resolved to try a pitfall; so I dug several large pits
|
|
in the earth, in places where I had observed the goats used to feed,
|
|
and over these pits I placed hurdles, of my own making too, with a
|
|
great weight upon them; and several times I put ears of barley and dry
|
|
rice, without setting the trap, and I could easily perceive that the
|
|
goats had gone in and eaten up the corn, for I could see the mark of
|
|
their feet. At length I set three traps in one night, and going the
|
|
next morning, I found them all standing, and yet the bait eaten and
|
|
gone; this was very discouraging. However, I altered my trap; and, not
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to trouble you with particulars, going one morning to see my trap, I
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found in one of them a large old he-goat, and in one of the other
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three kids, a male and two females.
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As to the old one, I knew not what to do with him, he was so
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fierce I durst not go into the pit to him; that is to say, to go about
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to bring him away alive, which was what I wanted. I could have
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killed him, but that was not my business, nor would it answer my
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end; so I even let him out, and he ran away, as if he had been
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frighted out of his wits. But I had forgot then what I learned
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afterwards, that hunger will tame a lion. If I had let him stay
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there three or four days without food, and then have carried him
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some water to drink, and then a little corn, he would have been as
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tame as one of the kids, for they are mighty sagacious, tractable
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creatures where they are well used.
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However, for the present I let him go, knowing no better at that
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time. Then I went to the three kids, and taking them one by one, I
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tied them with strings together, and with some difficulty brought them
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all home.
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It was a good while before they would feed, but throwing them some
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sweet corn, it tempted them, and they began to be tame. And now I
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found that if I expected to supply myself with goat-flesh when I had
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no powder or shot left, breeding some up tame was my only way, when
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perhaps I might have them about my house like a flock of sheep.
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But then it presently occurred to me that I must keep the tame
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from the wild, or else they would always run wild when they grew up;
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and the only way for this was to have some enclosed piece of ground,
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well fenced either with hedge or pale, to keep them in so
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effectually that those within might not break out, or those without
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break in.
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This was a great undertaking for one pair of hands; yet as I saw
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there was an absolute necessity of doing it, my first piece of work
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was to find out a proper piece of ground, viz., where there was likely
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to be herbage for them to eat, water for them to drink, and cover to
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keep them from the sun.
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Those who understand such enclosures will think I had very little
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contrivance when I pitched upon a place very proper for all these,
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being a plain open piece of meadow land, or savanna (as our people
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call it in the western colonies), which had two or three little drills
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of fresh water in it, and at one end was very woody; I say, they
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will smile at my forecast, when I shall tell them I began my enclosing
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of this piece of ground in such a manner, that my hedge or pale must
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have been at least two miles about. Nor was the madness of it so great
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as to the compass, for if it was often miles about, I was like to have
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time enough to do it in. But I did not consider that my goats would be
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as wild in so much compass as if they had had the whole island and I
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should have so much room to chase them in that I should never catch
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them.
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My hedge was begun and carried on, I believe, about fifty yards,
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when this thought occurred to me, so I presently stopped short, and,
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for the first beginning, I resolved to enclose a piece of about 150
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yards in length, and 100 yards in breadth; which, as it would maintain
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as many as should have in any reasonable time, so, as my flock
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increased, I could add more ground to my enclosure.
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This was acting with some prudence, and I went to work with courage.
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I was about three months hedging in the first piece, and, till I had
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done it, I tethered the three kids in the best part of it, and used
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them to feed as near me as possible, to make them familiar; and very
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often I would go and carry them some ears of barley, or a handful of
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rice, and feed them out of my hand; so that after my enclosure was
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finished, and I let them loose, they would follow me up and down,
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bleating after me for a handful of corn.
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This answered my end, and in about a year and a half I had a flock
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of about twelve goats, kids and all; and in two years more I had three
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and forty, besides several that I took and killed for my food. And
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after that I enclosed five several pieces of ground to feed them in,
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and with little pens to drive them into, to take them as I wanted, and
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gates out of one piece of ground into another.
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But this was not all, for now I not only had goat's flesh to feed on
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when I pleased, but milk, too, a thing which, indeed, in my beginning,
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I did not so much as think of, and which, when it came into my
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thoughts, was really an agreeable surprise. For now I set up my dairy,
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and had sometimes a gallon or two of milk in a day; and as Nature, who
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gives supplies of food to every creature, dictates even naturally
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how to make use of it, so I, that had never milked a cow, much less
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a goat, or seen butter or cheese made, very readily and handily,
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though after a great many essays and miscarriages, made me both butter
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and cheese last, and never wanted it afterwards.
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How mercifully can our great Creator treat His creatures, even in
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those conditions in which they seemed to be overwhelmed in
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destruction! How can He sweeten the bitterest providences, and give us
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cause to praise Him for dungeons and prisons! What a table was here
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spread for me in a wilderness, where I saw nothing at first but to
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perish for hunger!
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It would have made a stoic smile, to have seen me and my little
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family sit down to dinner. There was my majesty, the prince and lord
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of the whole island; I had the lives of all my subjects at my absolute
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command. I could hang, draw, give liberty, and take it away; and no
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rebels among all my subjects.
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Then to see how like a king I dined, too, all alone, attended by
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my servants. Poll, as if he had been my favorite, was the only
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person permitted to talk to me. My dog, who was now grown very old and
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crazy, and had found no species to multiply his kind upon, sat
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always at my right hand, and two cats, one on one side and table,
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and one on the other, expecting now and then a bit form my hand, as
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a mark of special favor.
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But these were not the two cats which I brought on shore at first,
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for they were both of them dead, and had been interred near my
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habitation, by my own hand. But one of them having multiplied by I
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know not what kind of creature, these were two which I had preserved
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tame, whereas the rest run wild in the woods, and became indeed
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troublesome to me at last; for they would often come into my house,
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and plunder me too, till at last I was obliged to shoot them, and
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|
did kill a great many; at length they left me. With this attendance,
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|
and in this plentiful manner, I lived; neither could I be said to want
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anything but society; and of that in some time after this, I was
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like to have too much.
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|
I was something impatient, as I have observed, to have the use of my
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boat, though very loth to run any more hazards; and therefore
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|
sometimes I sat contriving ways to get her about the island, which I
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drew together with two thongs of the same, instead of buckles; and
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|
in a kind of a frog on either side of this, instead of a sword and a
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|
dagger, hung a little saw and a hatchet, one on one side, one on the
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|
other. I had another belt, not so broad, and fastened in the same
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|
manner, which hung over my shoulder; and at the end of it, under my
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left arm, hung two pouches, both made of goat's skin, too; in one of
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|
which hung my powder, in the other my shot. At my back I carried my
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|
basket, on my shoulder my gun, and over my head a. great clumsy ugly
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|
goat-skin umbrella, but which, after all, was the most necessary thing
|
|
I had about me, next to my gun. As for my face, the color of it was
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|
really not so mulatto-like as one might expect from a man not at all
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|
careful of it, and living within nineteen degrees of the equinox. My
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|
beard I had once suffered to grow till it was about a quarter of a
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|
yard long; but as I had both scissors and razors sufficient, I had cut
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|
it pretty short, except what grew on my upper lip, which I had trimmed
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|
into a large pair of Mahometan whiskers, such as I had seen worn by
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|
some Turks whom I saw at Sallee; for the Moors did not wear such,
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|
though the Turks did. Of these mustachios or whiskers I will not say
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|
they were long enough to hang my hat upon them, but they were of a
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|
length and shape monstrous enough, and such as, in England, would have
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|
passed for frightful.
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|
But all this is by-the-bye; for, as to my figure, I had so few to
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|
observe me, that it was of no manner of consequence; so I say no
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|
more to that part. In this kind of figure I went my new journey, and
|
|
was out five or six days. I travelled first along the sea-shore,
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|
directly to the place where I first brought my boat to an anchor, to
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|
get upon the rocks. And having no boat flow to take care of, I went
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|
over the land, a nearer way, to the same height that I was upon
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|
before; when, looking forward to the point of the rocks which lay out,
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|
and which I was obliged to double with my boat, as is said above, I
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|
was surprised to see the sea all smooth and quiet, no rippling, no
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|
motion, no current, any more there than in any other places.
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|
I was at a strange loss to understand this, and resolved to spend
|
|
some time in the observing it, to see if nothing from the sets of
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|
the tide had occasioned it. But I was presently convinced how it
|
|
was, viz., that the tide of ebb setting from the west, and joining
|
|
with the current of waters from some great river on the shore, must be
|
|
the occasion of this current; and that according as the wind blew more
|
|
forcibly from the west, or from the north, this current came near,
|
|
or went farther from the shore; for waiting thereabouts till
|
|
evening, I went up to the rock again, and then the tide of ebb being
|
|
made, I plainly saw the current again as before, only that it run
|
|
farther off, being near half a league from the shore; whereas in my
|
|
case it set close upon the shore, and hurried me and my canoe along
|
|
with it, which, at another time, it would not have done.
|
|
This observation convinced me that I had nothing to do but to
|
|
observe the ebbing and the flowing of the tide, and I might very
|
|
easily bring my boat about the island again. But when I began to think
|
|
of putting it in practice, I had such a terror upon my spirits at
|
|
the remembrance of the danger I had been in, that I could not think of
|
|
it again with any patience; but, on the contrary, I took up another
|
|
resolution, which was more safe, though more laborious; and this
|
|
was, that I would build, or rather make me another periagua or
|
|
canoe; and so have one for one side of the island, and one for the
|
|
other.
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|
You are to understand that now I had, as I may call it, two
|
|
plantations in the island; one, my little fortification or tent,
|
|
with the wall about it, under the rock, with the cave behind me,
|
|
which, by this time, I had enlarged into several apartments or
|
|
caves, one within another. One of these, which was the driest and
|
|
largest, and had a door out beyond my wall or fortification, that is
|
|
to say, beyond where my wall joined to the rock, was all filled up
|
|
with the large earthen pots, of which I have given an account, and
|
|
with fourteen or fifteen great baskets, which would hold five or six
|
|
bushels each, where I laid up my stores of provision, especially my
|
|
corn, some in the ear, cut off short from the straw, and the other
|
|
rubbed out with my hand.
|
|
As for my wall, made, as before, with long stakes or piles, those
|
|
piles grew all like trees, and were by this time grown so big, and
|
|
spread so very much, that there was not the least appearance, to any
|
|
one's view, of any habitation behind them.
|
|
Near this dwelling of mine, but a little farther within the land,
|
|
and upon lower ground, lay my two pieces of corn ground, which I
|
|
kept duly cultivated and sowed, and which duly yielded me their
|
|
harvest in its season; and whenever I had occasion for more corn, I
|
|
had more land adjoining as fit as that.
|
|
Besides this, I had my country seat, and I had now a tolerable
|
|
plantation there also; for, first, I had my little bower, as I
|
|
called it, which I kept in repair; that is to say, I kept the hedge
|
|
which circled it in constantly fitted up to its usual height, the
|
|
ladder standing always in the inside. I kept the trees, which at first
|
|
were no more than my stakes, but were now grown very firm and tall,
|
|
I kept them always so cut, that they might spread and grow thick and
|
|
wild, and make the more agreeable shade, which they did effectually to
|
|
my mind. In the middle of this, I had my tent always standing, being a
|
|
piece of a sail spread over poles, set up for that purpose, and
|
|
which never wanted any repair or renewing; and under this I had made
|
|
me a squab or couch, with the skins of the creatures I had killed, and
|
|
with other soft things, and a blanket laid on them, such as belonged
|
|
to our sea-bedding, which I had saved, and a great watch-coat to cover
|
|
me; and here, whenever I had occasion to be absent from my chief seat,
|
|
I took up my country habitation.
|
|
Adjoining to this I had my enclosure for my cattle, that is to
|
|
say, my goats. And as I had taken an inconceivable deal of pains to
|
|
fence and enclose this ground, so I was uneasy to see it kept
|
|
entire, less the goats should break through, that I never left off
|
|
till, with infinite labor, I had struck the outside of the hedge so
|
|
full of small stakes, and so near to one another, that it was rather a
|
|
pale than a hedge, and there was scarce room to put a hand through
|
|
them; which afterwards, when those stakes grew, as they all did in the
|
|
next rainy season, made the enclosure strong like a wall, indeed,
|
|
stronger than any wall.
|
|
This will testify for me that I was not idle, and that I spared no
|
|
pains to bring to pass whatever appeared necessary for my
|
|
comfortable support; for I considered the keeping up a breed of tame
|
|
creatures thus at my hand would be a living magazine of flesh, milk,
|
|
butter, and cheese for me as long as I lived in the place, if it
|
|
were to be forty years; and that keeping them in my reach depended
|
|
entirely upon my perfecting my enclosures to such a degree that I
|
|
might be sure of keeping them together; which, by this method, indeed,
|
|
I so effectually secured that when these little stakes began to
|
|
grow, I had planted them so very thick I was forced to pull some of
|
|
them up again.
|
|
In this place also I had my grapes growing, which I principally
|
|
depended on for my winter store of raisins, and which I never failed
|
|
to preserve very carefully, as the best and most agreeable dainty of
|
|
my whole diet. And indeed they were not agreeable only, but
|
|
physical, wholesome, nourishing, and refreshing to the last degree.
|
|
As this was also about half-way between my other habitation and
|
|
the place where I had laid up my boat, I generally stayed and lay here
|
|
in my way thither; for I used frequently to visit my boat, and I
|
|
kept all things about, or belonging to her, in very good order.
|
|
Sometimes I went out in her to divert myself, but no more hazardous
|
|
voyages would I go, nor scarce ever above a stone's cast or two from
|
|
the shore, I was so apprehensive of being hurried out of my
|
|
knowledge again by the currents or winds, or any other accident. But
|
|
now I come to a new scene of my life.
|
|
It happened one day, about noon, going towards my boat, I was
|
|
exceedingly surprised with the print of a man's naked foot on the
|
|
shore, which was very plain to be seen in the sand. I stood like one
|
|
thunder-struck, or as if I had seen an apparition. I listened, I
|
|
looked round me, I could hear nothing, nor see anything. I went up
|
|
to a rising ground, to look farther. I went up the shore, and down the
|
|
shore, but it was all one; I could see no other impression but that
|
|
one, I went to it again to see if there were any more, and to
|
|
observe if it might not be my fancy; but there was no room for that,
|
|
for there was exactly the very print of a foot - toes, heel, and every
|
|
part of a foot. How it came thither I knew not, nor could in the least
|
|
imagine. But after innumerable fluttering thoughts, like a man
|
|
perfectly confused and out of myself, I came home to my fortification,
|
|
not feeling, as we say, the ground I went on, but terrified to the
|
|
last degree, looking behind me at every two or three steps,
|
|
mistaking every bush and tree, and fancying every stump at a
|
|
distance to be a man; nor is it possible to describe how many
|
|
various shapes affrighted imagination represented things to me in, how
|
|
many wild ideas were found every moment in my fancy, and what
|
|
strange unaccountable whimsies came into my thoughts by the way.
|
|
When I came to my castle, for so I think I called it ever after
|
|
this, I fled into it like one pursued. Whether I went over by the
|
|
ladder, as first contrived, or went in at the hole in the rock,
|
|
which I called a door, I cannot remember; no, nor could I remember the
|
|
next morning, for never frighted hare fled to cover, or fox to
|
|
earth, with more terror of mind than I to this retreat.
|
|
I slept none that night. The farther I was from the occasion of my
|
|
fright, the greater my apprehensions were; which is something contrary
|
|
to the nature of such things, and especially to the usual practice
|
|
of all creatures in fear. But I was so embarrassed with my own
|
|
frightful ideas of the thing, that I formed nothing but dismal
|
|
imaginations to myself, even though I was now a great way off it.
|
|
Sometimes I fancied it must be the devil, and reason joined in with me
|
|
upon this supposition; for how should any other thing in human shape
|
|
come into the place? Where was the vessel that brought them? What
|
|
was there of any other footsteps? And how was it possible a man should
|
|
come there? But then to think that Satan should take human shape
|
|
upon him in such a place, where there could be no manner of occasion
|
|
for it, but to leave the print of his foot behind him, that even for
|
|
no purpose too, for he could not be sure I should see it; this was
|
|
an amusement the other way. I considered that the devil might have
|
|
found out abundance of other ways to have terrified me than this of
|
|
the single print of a foot; that as I lived quite on the other side of
|
|
the island, he would never have been so simple to leave a mark in a
|
|
place where it was often thousand to one whether I should ever see
|
|
it or not, and in the sand, too, which the first surge of the sea,
|
|
upon a high wind, would have defaced entirely. All this seemed
|
|
inconsistent with the thing itself, and with all the notions we
|
|
usually entertain of the subtilty of the devil.
|
|
Abundance of such things as these assisted to argue me out of all
|
|
apprehensions of its being the devil; and I presently concluded
|
|
then, that it must be some more dangerous creature, viz., that it must
|
|
be some of the savages of the mainland over against me, who had
|
|
wandered out to sea in their canoes, and, either driven by the
|
|
currents or by contrary winds, had made the island, and had been on
|
|
shore, but were gone away again to sea, being as loth, perhaps, to
|
|
have stayed in this desolate island as I would have been to have had
|
|
them.
|
|
While these reflections were rolling upon my mind, I was very
|
|
thankful in my thoughts that I was so happy as not to be thereabouts
|
|
at that time, or that they did not see my boat, by which they would
|
|
have concluded that some inhabitants had been in the place, and
|
|
perhaps have searched farther for me. Then terrible thoughts racked my
|
|
imagination about their having found my boat, and that there were
|
|
people here; and that if so, I should certainly have them come again
|
|
in greater numbers, and devour me; that if it should happen so that
|
|
they should not find me, yet they would find my enclosure, destroy all
|
|
my corn, carry away all my flock of tame goats, and I should perish at
|
|
last for mere want.
|
|
Thus my fear banished all my religious hope. All that former
|
|
confidence in God, which was founded upon such wonderful experience as
|
|
I had had of His goodness, now vanished, as if He that had fed me by
|
|
miracle hitherto could not preserve, by His power, the provision which
|
|
He had made for me by His goodness. I reproached myself with my
|
|
easiness, that would not sow any more corn one year than would just
|
|
serve me till the next season, as if no accident could intervene to
|
|
prevent my enjoying the crop that was upon the ground. And this I
|
|
thought so just a reproof that I resolved for the future to have two
|
|
or three years' corn beforehand, so that, whatever might come, I might
|
|
not perish for want of bread.
|
|
How strange a checker-work of Providence is the life of man! and
|
|
by what secret differing springs are the affections hurried about as
|
|
differing circumstances present! To-day we love what to-morrow we
|
|
hate; to-day we seek what to-morrow we shun; to-day we desire what
|
|
tomorrow we fear; nay, even tremble at the apprehensions of. This
|
|
was exemplified in me at this time, in the most lively manner
|
|
imaginable; for I, whose only affliction was that I seemed banished
|
|
from Human society, that I was alone, circumscribed by the boundless
|
|
ocean, cut off from mankind, and condemned to what I called silent
|
|
life; that I was as one whom Heaven thought not worthy to be
|
|
numbered among the living, or to appear among the rest of His
|
|
creatures; that to have seen one of my own species would have seemed
|
|
to me a raising me from death to life, and the greatest blessing
|
|
that Heaven itself, next to the supreme blessing of salvation, could
|
|
bestow; I say, that I should now tremble at the very apprehensions
|
|
of seeing a man, and was ready to sink into the ground at but the
|
|
shadow or silent appearance of a man's having set his foot in the
|
|
island!
|
|
Such is the uneven state of human life; and it afforded me a great
|
|
many curious speculations afterwards, when I had a little recovered my
|
|
first surprise. I considered that this was the station of life the
|
|
infinitely wise and good providence of God had determined for me;
|
|
that, as I could not forsee what the ends of Divine wisdom might be in
|
|
all this, so I was not to dispute His sovereignty, who, as I was His
|
|
creature, had an undoubted right, by creation, to govern and dispose
|
|
of me absolutely as He thought fit, and who, as I was a creature who
|
|
had offended Him, had likewise a judicial right to condemn me to
|
|
what punishment He thought fit; and that it was my part to submit to
|
|
bear His indignation, because I had sinned against Him.
|
|
I then reflected that God, who was not only righteous, but
|
|
omnipotent, as He had thought fit thus to punish and afflict me, so He
|
|
was able to deliver me; that if He did not think fit to do it, It
|
|
was my unquestioned duty to resign myself absolutely and entirely to
|
|
His will; and, on the other hand, it was my duty also to hope in
|
|
Him, pray to Him, and quietly to attend the dictates and directions of
|
|
His daily providence.
|
|
These thoughts took me up many hours, days, nay, I may say, weeks
|
|
and months; and one particular effect of my cogitations of this
|
|
occasion I cannot omit, viz., one morning early, lying in my bed,
|
|
and filled with thought about my danger from the appearance of
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savages, I found it discomposed me very much; upon which those words
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of the Scripture came into my thoughts, "Call upon Me in the day of
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trouble, and I will deliver, and thou shalt glorify Me."
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Upon this, rising cheerfully out of my bed, my heart was not only
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comforted, but I was guided and encouraged to pray earnestly to God
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for deliverance. When I had done praying, I took up my Bible, and
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opening it to read, the first words that presented to me were, "Wait
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on the Lord, and be of good cheer, and He shall strengthen thy
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heart; wait, I say, on the Lord." It is impossible to express the
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comfort this gave me. In answer, I thankfully laid down the book,
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and was no more sad, at least, not on that occasion.
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In the middle of these cogitations, apprehensions, and
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reflections, it came into my thought one day, that all this might be a
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mere chimera of my own; and that this foot might be the print of my
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own foot, when I came on shore from my boat. This cheered me up a
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little too, and I began to persuade myself it was all a delusion, that
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it was nothing else but my own foot; and why might not I come that way
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from the boat, as well as I was going that way to the boat? Again, I
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considered also, that I could by no means tell, for certain, where I
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had trod, and where I had not; and that if, at last, this was only the
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print of my own foot, I had played the part of these fools who
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strive to make stories of spectre and apparitions, and then are
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frighted at them more than anybody.
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Now I began to take courage, and to peep abroad again, for I had not
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stirred out of my castle for three days and nights, so that I began to
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starve for provision; for I had little or nothing within doors but
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some barley-cakes and water. Then I knew that my goats wanted to be
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milked too, which usually was my evening diversion; and the poor
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creatures were in great pain and inconvenience for want of it; and,
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indeed, it almost spoiled some of them, and almost dried up their
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milk.
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Heartening myself, therefore, with the belief that this was
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nothing but the print of one of my own feet, and so I might be truly
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said to start at my own shadow, I began to go abroad again, and went
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to my country-house to milk my flock. But to see with what fear I went
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forward, how often I looked behind me, how I was ready, every now
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and then, to lay down my basket, and run for my life, it would have
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made any one have thought I was haunted with an evil conscience, or
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that I had been lately most terribly frighted; and so, indeed, I had.
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However, as I went down thus two or three days, and having seen
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nothing, I began to be a little bolder, and to think there was
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really nothing in it but my own imagination. But I could not
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persuade myself fully of this till I should go down to the shore
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again, and see this print of a foot, and measure it by my own, and see
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if there was any similitude or fitness, that I might be assured it was
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my own foot. But when I came to the place, first, it appeared
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evidently to me, that when I laid up my boat, I could not possibly
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be on shore anywhere thereabout; secondly, when I came to measure
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the mark with my own foot, I found my foot not so large by a great
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deal. Both these things filled my head with new imaginations, and gave
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me the vapors again to the highest degree; so that I shook with
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cold, like one in an ague; and I went home again, filled with the
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belief that some man or men had been on shore there; for, in short,
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that the island was inhabited, and I might be surprised before I was
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aware. And what course to take for my security, I knew not.
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Oh, what ridiculous resolution men take when possessed with fear! It
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deprives them of the use of those means which reason offers for
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their relief. The first thing I proposed to myself was to throw down
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my enclosures, and turn all my tame cattle wild into the woods, that
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the enemy might not find them, and then frequent the island in
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prospect of the same or the like booty; then to the simple thing of
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digging up my two cornfields, that they might not find such a grain
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there, and still be prompted to frequent the island then to demolish
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my bower and tent, that they might not see any vestiges of habitation,
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and be prompted to look farther, in order to find out the persons
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inhabiting.
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These were the subject of the first night's cogitation, after I
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was come home again, while the apprehensions which had so overrun my
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mind were fresh upon me, and my head was full of vapors, as above.
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Thus fear of danger is often thousand times more terrifying than
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danger itself when apparent to the eyes; and we find the burden of
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anxiety greater, by much, than the evil which we are anxious about;
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and, which was worse than all this, I had not that relief in this
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trouble from the resignation I used to practice, that I hoped to have.
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I looked, I thought, like Saul, who complained not only that the
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Philistines were upon him, but that God had forsaken him; for I did
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|
not now take due ways to compose my mind, by crying to God in my
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distress, and resting upon His providence, as I had done before, for
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|
my defence and deliverance; which, if I had done, I had at least
|
|
been more cheerfully supported under this new surprise, and perhaps
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|
carried through it with more resolution.
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This confusion of my thoughts kept me waking all night, but in the
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morning I fell asleep; and having, by the amusement of my mind,
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been, as it were, tired, and my spirits exhausted, I slept very
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soundly, and waked much better composed than I had ever been before.
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And now I began to think sedately; and upon the utmost debate with
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myself, I concluded that this island, which was so exceeding pleasant,
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|
fruitful, and no farther from the mainland than as I had seen, was not
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so entirely abandoned as I might imagine; that although there were
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no stated inhabitants who lived on the spot, yet that there might
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sometimes come boats off from the shore, who, either with design, or
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|
perhaps never but when they were driven by cross-winds, might come
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|
to this place; that I had lived here fifteen years now, and had not
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|
met with the least shadow or figure of any people yet; and that if
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|
at any time they should be driven here, it was probable they went away
|
|
again as soon as ever they could, seeing they had never thought fit to
|
|
fix there upon any occasion to this time; that the most I could
|
|
suggest any danger from, was from any such casual accidental landing
|
|
of straggling people from the main, who, as it was likely, if they
|
|
were driven hither, were here against their wills; so they made no
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|
stay here, but went off again with all possible speed, seldom
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|
staying one night on shore, lest they should not have the help of
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|
the tides and daylight back again; and that, therefore, I had
|
|
nothing to do but to consider of some safe retreat, in case I should
|
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see any savages land upon the spot.
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|
Now I began sorely to repent that I had dug my cave so large as to
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bring a door through again, which door, as I said, came out beyond
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|
where my fortification joined to the rock. Upon maturely considering
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|
this, therefore, I resolved to draw me a second fortification, in
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|
the same manner of a semicircle, at a distance from my wall, just
|
|
where I had planted a double row of trees about twelve years before,
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|
of which I made mention. These trees having been planted so thick
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|
before, they wanted but a few piles to be driven between them, that
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they should be thicker and stronger, and my wall would be soon
|
|
finished.
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So that I had now a double wall; and my outer wall was thickened
|
|
with pieces of timber, old cables, and everything I could think of, to
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|
make it strong, having in it seven little holes, about as big as I
|
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might put my arm out at. In the inside of this I thickened my wall
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|
to above often feet thick, with continual bringing earth out of my
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|
cave, and laying it at the foot of the wall, and walking upon it;
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|
and through the seven holes I contrived to plant the muskets, of which
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|
I took notice that I got seven on shore out of the ship. These, I say,
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I planted like my cannon, and fitted them into frames that held them
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|
like a carriage, that so I could fire all the seven guns in two
|
|
minutes' time. This wall I was many a weary month afinishing, and
|
|
yet never thought myself safe till it was done.
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|
When this was done, I stuck all the ground without my wall, for a
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|
great way every way, as full with stakes, or sticks, of the osier-like
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|
wood, which I found so apt to grow, as they could well stand;
|
|
insomuch, that I believe I might set in near twenty thousand of
|
|
them, leaving a pretty large space between them and my wall, that I
|
|
might have room to see an enemy, and they might have no shelter from
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|
the young trees, if they attempted to approach my outer wall.
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|
Thus in two years' time I had a thick grove; and in five or six
|
|
years' time I had a wood before my dwelling, growing so monstrous
|
|
thick and strong, that it was indeed perfectly impassable; and no men,
|
|
of what kind soever, would ever imagine that there was anything beyond
|
|
it, much less a habitation. As for the way which I proposed to
|
|
myself to go in and out, for I left no avenue, it was by setting two
|
|
ladders, one to a part of the rock which was low, and then broke in,
|
|
and left room to place another ladder upon that; so when the two
|
|
ladders were taken down, no man living could come down to me without
|
|
mischieving himself; and if they had come down, they were still on the
|
|
outside of my outer wall.
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|
Thus I took all the measures human prudence could suggest for my own
|
|
preservation; and it will be seen, at length, that they were not
|
|
altogether without just reason; though I foresaw nothing at that
|
|
time more than my mere fear suggested to me.
|
|
While this was doing, I was not altogether careless of my other
|
|
affairs; for I had a great concern upon me for my little herd of
|
|
goats. They were not only a present supply to me upon every
|
|
occasion, and began to be sufficient to me, without the expense of
|
|
powder and shot, but also without the fatigue of hunting after the
|
|
wild ones; and I was loth to lose the advantage of them, and to have
|
|
them all to nurse up over again.
|
|
To this purpose, after long consideration, I could think of but
|
|
two ways to preserve them. One was, to find another convenient place
|
|
to dig a cave under ground, and to drive them into it every night; and
|
|
the other was, to enclose two or three little bits of land, remote
|
|
from one another, and as much concealed as I could, where I might keep
|
|
about half a dozen young goats in each place; so that if any
|
|
disaster happened to the flock in general, I might be able to raise
|
|
them again with little trouble and time. And this, though it would
|
|
require a great deal of time and labor, I thought was the most
|
|
rational design.
|
|
Accordingly I spent some time to find out the most retired parts
|
|
of the island; and I pitched upon one which was as private indeed as
|
|
my heart could wish for. It was a little damp piece of ground, in
|
|
the middle fo the hollow and thick woods, where, as is observed, I
|
|
almost lost myself once before, endeavoring to come back that way from
|
|
the eastern part of the island. Here I found a clear piece of land,
|
|
near three acres, so surrounded with woods that it was almost an
|
|
enclosure by Nature; at least, it did not want near so much labor to
|
|
make it as the other pieces of ground I had worked so hard at.
|
|
I immediately went to work with this piece of ground, and in less
|
|
than a month's time I had so fenced it round that my flock, or herd,
|
|
call it which you please, who were not so wild now as at first they
|
|
might be supposed to be, were well enough secured in it. So, without
|
|
any farther delay, I removed often young she-goats and two he-goats to
|
|
this piece. And when they were there, I continued to perfect the
|
|
fence, till I had made it as secure as the other, which, however, I
|
|
did at more leisure, and it took me up more time by a great deal.
|
|
All this labor I was at the expense of, purely from my apprehensions
|
|
on the account of the print of a man's foot which I had seen; for,
|
|
as yet, I never saw any human creature come near the island. And I had
|
|
now lived two years under these uneasinesses, which, indeed, made my
|
|
life much less comfortable than it was before, as may well be imagined
|
|
by any who know what it is to live in the constant snare of the fear
|
|
of man. And this I must observe, with grief, too, that the
|
|
discomposure of my mind had too great impressions also upon the
|
|
religious part of my thoughts; for the dread and terror of falling
|
|
into the hands of savages and cannibals lay so upon my spirits, that I
|
|
seldom found myself in a due temper for application to my Maker, at
|
|
least not with the sedate calmness and resignation of soul which I was
|
|
wont to do. I rather prayed to God as under great affliction and
|
|
pressure of mind, surrounded with danger, and in expectation every
|
|
night of being murdered and devoured before morning; and I must
|
|
testify from my experience, that a temper of peace, thankfulness,
|
|
love, and affection, is much more the proper frame for prayer than
|
|
that of terror and discomposure; and that under the dread of
|
|
mischief impending, a man is no more fit for a comforting
|
|
performance of the duty of praying to God than he is for repentance on
|
|
a sicklied. For these discomposures affect the mind, as the others
|
|
do the body; and the discomposure of the mind must necessarily be as
|
|
great a disability as that of the body, and much greater, praying to
|
|
God being properly an act of the mind, not of the body.
|
|
But to go on. After I had thus secured one part of my little
|
|
living stock, I went about the whole island, searching for another
|
|
private place to make such another deposit; when, wandering more the
|
|
the west point of the island than I had ever done yet, and looking out
|
|
to sea, I thought I saw a boat upon the sea, at a great distance. I
|
|
had found a prospective glass or two in one of the seamen's chests,
|
|
which I saved out of our ship, but I had it not about me; and this was
|
|
so remote that I could not tell what to make of it, though I looked at
|
|
it till my eyes were not able to hold to look any longer. Whether it
|
|
was a boat or not, I do not know; but as I descended from the hill,
|
|
I could see no more of it, so I gave it over; only I resolved to go no
|
|
more out without a prospective glass in my pocket.
|
|
When I was come down the hill to the end of the island, where,
|
|
indeed, I had never been before, I was presently convinced that the
|
|
seeing the print of a man's foot was not such a strange thing in the
|
|
island as I imagined. And, but that it was a special providence that I
|
|
was cast upon the side of the island where the savages never came, I
|
|
should easily have known that nothing was more frequent than for the
|
|
canoes from the main, when they happened to be a little too far out at
|
|
sea, to shoot over to that side of the island for harbor; likewise, as
|
|
they often met and fought in their canoes, the victors having taken
|
|
any prisoners would bring them over to this shore, wherer according to
|
|
their dreadful customs, being all cannibals, they would kill and eat
|
|
them; of which hereafter.
|
|
When I was come down the hill to the shore, as I said above, being
|
|
the SW. point of the island, I was perfectly confounded and amazed;
|
|
nor is it possible for me to express the horror of my mind at seeing
|
|
the shore spread with skulls, hands, feet, and other bones of human
|
|
bodies; and particularly, I observed place where there had been a fire
|
|
made, and a circle dug in the earth, like a cockpit, where it is
|
|
supposed the savage wretches sat down to their inhuman feastings
|
|
upon the bodies of their fellow-creatures.
|
|
I was so astonished with the sight of these things that I
|
|
entertained no notion of any danger to myself from it for a long
|
|
while. All my apprehensions were buried in the thoughts of such a
|
|
pitch of inhuman, hellish brutality, and the horror of the
|
|
degeneracy of human nature which, though I had heard of often, yet I
|
|
never had so near a view of before. In short, I turned away my face
|
|
from the horrid spectacle. My stomach grew sick, and I was just at the
|
|
point of fainting, when Nature discharged the disorder from my
|
|
stomach. And having vomited with an uncommon violence, I was a
|
|
little relieved, but could not bear to stay in the place a moment;
|
|
so I got me up the hill again with all the speed I could, and walked
|
|
on towards my own habitation.
|
|
When I came a little out of that part of the island, I stood still a
|
|
while as amazed; and then recovering myself, I looked up with the
|
|
utmost affection of my soul, and with a flood of tears in my eyes,
|
|
gave God thanks, that had cast my first lot in a part of the world
|
|
where I was distinguished from such dreadful creatures as these; and
|
|
that, though I had esteemed my present condition very miserable, had
|
|
yet given me so many comforts in it, that I had still more to give
|
|
thanks for than to complain of; and this is above all, that I had,
|
|
even in this miserable condition, been comforted with the knowledge of
|
|
Himself, and the hope of His blessing; which was a felicity more
|
|
than sufficiently equivalent to all the misery which I had suffered,
|
|
or could suffer.
|
|
In this frame of thankfulness I went home to my castle, and began to
|
|
be much easier now, as to the safety of my circumstances, than ever
|
|
I was before; for I observed that these wretches never came to this
|
|
island in search of what they could get; perhaps not seeking, not
|
|
wanting, or not expecting, anything here; and having often, no
|
|
doubt, been up in the covered, woody part of it, without finding
|
|
anything to their purpose. I knew I had been here now almost
|
|
eighteen years, and never saw the least footsteps of human creature
|
|
there before; and I might be here eighteen more as entirely
|
|
concealed as I was now, if I did not discover myself to them, which
|
|
I had no manner of occasion to do; it being my only business to keep
|
|
myself entirely concealed where I was, unless I found a better sort of
|
|
creatures than cannibals to make myself known to.
|
|
Yet I entertained such an abhorrence of the savage wretches that I
|
|
have been speaking of, and of the wretched inhuman custom of their
|
|
devouring and eating one another up, that I continued pensive and sad,
|
|
and kept close within my own circle for almost two years after this.
|
|
When I say my own circle, I mean by it my three plantations, viz.,
|
|
my castle, my country seat, which I called my bower, and my
|
|
enclosure in the woods. Nor did I look after this for any other use
|
|
than as an enclosure for my goats; for the aversion which Nature
|
|
gave me to these hellish wretches was such that I was fearful of
|
|
seeing them as of seeing the devil himself. Nor did I so much as go to
|
|
look after my boat in all this time, but began rather to think of
|
|
making me another; for I could not think of ever making any more
|
|
attempts to bring the other boat round the island to me, lest I should
|
|
meet with some of these creatures at sea, in which, if I had
|
|
happened to have fallen into their hands, I knew what would have
|
|
been my lot.
|
|
Time, however, and the satisfaction I had that I was in no danger of
|
|
being discovered by these people, began to wear off my uneasiness
|
|
about them; and I began to live just in the same composed manner as
|
|
before; only with this difference, that I used more caution, and
|
|
kept my eyes more about me, than I did before, lest I should happen to
|
|
be seen by any of them; and particularly, I was more cautious of
|
|
firing my gun, lest any of them being on the island should happen to
|
|
hear of it. And it was, therefore, a very good providence to me that I
|
|
had furnished myself with a tame breed of goats, that needed not
|
|
hunt any more about the woods, or shoot at them. And if I did catch
|
|
any of them after this, it was by traps and snares, and I had done
|
|
before; so that for two years after this I believe I never fired my
|
|
gun once off, though I never went out without it; and, which was more,
|
|
as I had saved three pistols out of the ship, I always carried them
|
|
out with me, or at least two of them, sticking them in my goat-skin
|
|
belt. Also I furbished up one of the great cutlasses that I had out of
|
|
the ship, and made me a belt to put it on also; so that I was now a
|
|
most formidable fellow to look at when I went abroad, if you add to
|
|
the former description of myself the particular of two pistols and a
|
|
great broadsword hanging at my side in a belt, but without a scabbard.
|
|
Things going on thus, as I have said, for some time, I seemed,
|
|
excepting these cautions, to be reduced to my former calm, sedate
|
|
way of living. All these things tended to showing me, more and more,
|
|
how far my condition was from being miserable, compared to some
|
|
others; nay, to many other particulars of life, which it might have
|
|
pleased God to have made my lot. It put me upon reflecting how
|
|
little repining there would be among mankind at any condition of life,
|
|
if people would rather compare their condition with those that are
|
|
worse, in order to be thankful, than be always comparing them with
|
|
those which are better, to assist their murmurings and complainings.
|
|
As in my present condition there were not really many things which I
|
|
wanted, so indeed I thought that the frights I had been in about these
|
|
savage wretches, and the concern I had been in for my own
|
|
preservation, had taken off the edge of my invention for my own
|
|
conveniences. And I had dropped a good design, which I had once bent
|
|
my thoughts too much upon; and that was, to try if I could not make
|
|
some of my barley into malt, and then try to brew myself some beer.
|
|
This was really a whimsical thought, and I reproved myself often for
|
|
the simplicity of it; for I presently saw there would be the want of
|
|
several things necessary to the making my beer that it would be
|
|
impossible for me to supply. As, first, casks to preserve it in, which
|
|
was a thing that, as I have observed already, I could never compass;
|
|
no, though I spent not many days, but weeks, nay, months, in
|
|
attempting it, but to no purpose. In the next place, I had no hops
|
|
to make it keep, no yeast to make it work, no copper or kettle to make
|
|
it boil; and yet all these things notwithstanding, I verily believe,
|
|
had not these things intervened, I mean the frights and terrors I
|
|
was in about the savages, I had undertaken it, and perhaps brought
|
|
it to pass, too; for I seldom gave anything over without accomplishing
|
|
it when I once had it in my head enough to begin it.
|
|
But my invention now run quite another way; for, night and day I
|
|
could think of nothing but how I might destroy some of these
|
|
monsters in their cruel, bloody entertainment, and, if possible,
|
|
save the victim they should bring hither to destroy. It would take
|
|
up a larger volume than this whole work is intended to be, to set down
|
|
all the contrivances I hatched, or rather brooded upon, in my thought,
|
|
for the destroying these creatures, or at least fighting them so as to
|
|
prevent their coming hither any more. But all was abortive; nothing
|
|
could be possible to take effect, unless I was to be there to do it
|
|
myself. And what could one man do among them, when perhaps there might
|
|
be twenty or thirty of them together, with their darts, or their
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|
bows and arrows, with which they could shoot as true to a mark as I
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could with my gun.
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Sometimes I contrived to dig a hole under the place where they
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made their fire, and put in five or six pounds of gunpowder, which,
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when they kindled their fire, would consequently take fire, and blow
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up all that was near it. But as, in the first place, I should be
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very loth to waste so much powder upon them, my store being now within
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the quantity of one barrel, so neither I be sure of its going off at
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any certain time, when it might surprise them; and, at best, that it
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would do little more than just blow the fire about their ears, and
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fright them, but not sufficient to make them forsake the place. So I
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laid it aside, and then proposed that I would place myself in ambush
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in some convenient place, with my three guns all double-loaded, and,
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in the middle of their bloody ceremony, let fly at them, when I should
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be sure to kill or wound perhaps two or three at every shot; and
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then falling in upon them with my three pistols and my sword, I made
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no doubt but that if there was twenty I should kill them all. This
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fancy pleased my thoughts for some weeks; and I was so full of it that
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I often dreamed of it, and sometimes that I was just going to let
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fly at them in my sleep.
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I went so far with it in my imagination that I employed myself
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several days to find out proper places to put myself in ambuscade,
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as I said, to watch for them; and I went frequently to the place
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itself, which was now grown more familiar to me; and especially
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while my mind was thus filled with thoughts of revenge, and of a
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bloody putting twenty or thirty of them to the sword, as I may call
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it, the horror I had at the place, and at the signals of the barbarous
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wretches devouring one another, abated my malice.
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Well, at length I found a place in the side of the hill, where I was
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satisfied I might securely wait till I saw any of their boats
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coming; and might then, even before they would be ready to come on
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shore, convey myself, unseen, into thickets of trees, in one of
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which there was a hollow large enough to conceal me entirely; and
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where I might sit and observe all their bloody doings, and take my
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full aim at their heads, when they were so close together, as that
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it would be next to impossible that I should miss my shot, or that I
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could fail wounding three of four of them at first shot.
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In this place, then, I resolved to fix my design; and,
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accordingly, I prepared two muskets and my ordinary fowling-piece. The
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two muskets I loaded with a brace of slugs each, and four or five
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smaller bullets, about the size of pistol-bullets; and the
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fowling-piece I loaded with near a handful of swan-shot, of the
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largest size. I also loaded my pistols with about four bullets each;
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and in this posture, well provided with ammunition for a second and
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third charge, I prepared myself for my expedition.
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After I had thus laid the scheme of my design, and in my imagination
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put it in practice, I continually made my tour every morning up to the
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top of the hill, which was from my castle, as I called it, about three
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miles, or more, to see if I could observe any boats upon the sea
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coming near the island, or standing over two or three months,
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constantly kept my watch, but came always back without any
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discovery; there having not, in all that time, been the appearance,
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not only on or near the shore, but not on the whole ocean, so far as
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my eyes or glasses could reach every way.
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As long as I kept up my daily tour to the hill to look out, so
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long also I kept up the vigor of my design, and my spirits seemed to
|
|
be all the while in a suitable form for so outrageous an execution
|
|
as the killing twenty or thirty naked savages for an offence which I
|
|
had not at all entered into a discussion of in my thoughts, any
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farther than my passions were at first fired by the horror I conceived
|
|
at the unnatural custom of that people of the country; who, it
|
|
seems, had-been suffered by Providence, in His wise disposition of the
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|
world, to have no other guide than that of their own abominable and
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vitiated passions; and consequently were left, and perhaps had been so
|
|
for some ages, to act such horrid things, and receive such dreadful
|
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customs, as nothing but nature entirely abandoned of Heaven, and acted
|
|
by some hellish degeneracy, could have run them into. But now when, as
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|
I have said, I began to be weary of the fruitless excursion which I
|
|
had made so long and so far every morning in vain, so my opinion of
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the action itself began to alter; and I began, with cooler and
|
|
calmer thoughts, to consider what it was I was going to engage in.
|
|
What authority or call I had to pretend to be judge and executioner
|
|
upon these men as criminals, whom Heaven had thought fit, for so
|
|
many ages, to suffer, unpunished, to go on, and to be, as it were, the
|
|
executioners of His judgments one upon another. How far these people
|
|
were offenders against me, and what right I had to engage in the
|
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quarrel of that blood which they shed promiscuously one upon
|
|
another. I debated this very often with myself, thus: How do I know
|
|
what God Himself judges in this particular case? It is certain these
|
|
people either do not commit this as a crime; it is not against their
|
|
own consciences' reproving, or their light reproaching them. They do
|
|
not know it to be an off and then commit it in defiance of Divine
|
|
justice, as we do in almost all the sins we commit. They think it no
|
|
more a crime to kill a captive taken in war than we do to kill an
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ox; nor to eat human flesh than we do to eat mutton.
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|
When I had considered this a little; it followed necessarily that
|
|
I was certainly in the wrong in it; that these people were not
|
|
murderers in the sense that I had before condemned them in my
|
|
thoughts, any more than those Christians were murderers who often
|
|
put to death the prisoners taken in battle; or more frequently, upon
|
|
many occasions, put whole troops of men to the sword, without giving
|
|
quarter, though they threw down their arms and submitted.
|
|
In the next place it occurred to me, that albeit the usage they thus
|
|
give one another was thus brutish and inhuman, yet it was really
|
|
nothing to me; these people had done me no injury. That if they
|
|
attempted me, or I saw it necessary for my immediate preservation to
|
|
fall upon them, something might be said for it; but that as I was
|
|
yet out of their power, and they had really no knowledge of me, and
|
|
consequently no design upon me, and therefore it could not be just for
|
|
me to fall upon them. That this would justify the conduct of the
|
|
Spaniards in all their barbarities practised in America, and where
|
|
they destroyed millions of these people; who, however they were
|
|
idolaters and barbarians, and had several bloody and barbarous rites
|
|
in their customs, such as sacrificing human bodies to their idols,
|
|
were yet, as to the Spaniards, very innocent people; and that the
|
|
rooting them out of the country is spoken of with the utmost
|
|
abhorrence and detestation by even the Spaniards themselves at this
|
|
time, and by all other Christian nations of Europe, as a mere
|
|
butchery, a bloody and unnatural piece of cruelty, unjustifiable
|
|
either to God or man; and such, as for which the very name of a
|
|
Spaniard is reckoned to be frightful and terrible to all people of
|
|
humanity, or of Christian compassion; as if the kingdom of Spain
|
|
were particularly eminent for the product of a race of men who were
|
|
without principles of tenderness, or the common bowels of pity to
|
|
the miserable, which is reckoned to be a mark of generous temper in
|
|
the mind.
|
|
These considerations really put me to a pause, and to a kind of a
|
|
full stop; and I began, by little and little, to be off of my
|
|
design, and to conclude I had taken wrong measures in my resolutions
|
|
to attack the savages; that it was not my business to meddle with
|
|
them, unless they first attacked me; and this it was my business, if
|
|
possible, to prevent; but that if I were discovered and attacked, then
|
|
I knew my duty.
|
|
On the other hand, I argued with myself that this really was the way
|
|
not to deliver myself, but entirely to ruin and destroy myself; for
|
|
unless I was sure to kill every one that not only should be on shore
|
|
at that time, but that should ever come on shore afterwards, if but
|
|
one of them escaped to tell their country people what had happened,
|
|
they would come over again by thousands to revenge the death of
|
|
their fellows, and I should only bring upon myself a certain
|
|
destruction, which, at present, I had no manner of occasion for.
|
|
Upon the whole, I concluded that neither in principles nor in policy
|
|
I ought, one way or other, to concern myself in this affair. That my
|
|
business was, by all possible means, to conceal myself from them,
|
|
and not to leave the last signal to them to guess by that there were
|
|
any living creatures upon the island; I mean of human shape.
|
|
Religion joined in with this prudential, and I was convinced now,
|
|
many ways, that I was perfectly out of my duty when I was laying all
|
|
my bloody schemes for the destruction of innocent creatures; I mean
|
|
innocent as to me. As to the crimes they were guilty of towards one
|
|
another, I had nothing to do with them. They were national, and I
|
|
ought to leave them to the justice of God, who is the Governor of
|
|
nations, and knows how, by national punishments, to make a just
|
|
retribution for national of and to bring public judgments upon those
|
|
who offend in a public manner by such ways as best pleases Him.
|
|
This appeared so clear to me now, that nothing was a greater
|
|
satisfaction to me than that I had not been suffered to do a thing
|
|
which I now saw so much reason to believe would have been no less a
|
|
sin than that of willful murder, if I had committed it. And I gave
|
|
most humble thanks on my knees to God, that had thus delivered me from
|
|
blood-guiltiness; beseeching Him to grant me the protection of His
|
|
providence, that I might not fall into the hands of the barbarians, or
|
|
that I might not lay my hands upon them, unless I had a more clear
|
|
call from Heaven to do it, in defence of my own life.
|
|
In this disposition I continued for near a year after this; and so
|
|
far was I from desiring an occasion for falling upon these wretches,
|
|
that in all that time I never once went up the hill to see whether
|
|
there were any of them in sight, or to know whether any of them had
|
|
been on shore there, or not, that I might not be tempted to renew
|
|
any of my contrivances against them, or be provided, by any
|
|
advantage which might present itself, to fall upon them. Only this I
|
|
did, I went and removed my boat, which I had on the other side the
|
|
island, and carried it down to the east end of the whole island, where
|
|
I ran it into a little cove, which I found under some high rocks,
|
|
and where I knew, by reason of the currents, the savages durst not, at
|
|
least would not come, with their boats, upon any account whatsoever.
|
|
With my boat I carried away everything that I had left there
|
|
belonging to her, though not necessary for the bare going thither,
|
|
viz., a mast and sail which I had made for her, and a thing like an
|
|
anchor, but indeed which could not be called either anchor or
|
|
grappling; however, it was the best I could make of its kind. All
|
|
these I removed, that there might not be the least shadow of any
|
|
discovery, or any appearance of any boat, or of any human
|
|
habitation, upon the island.
|
|
Besides this, I kept myself, as I said, more retired than ever,
|
|
and seldom went from my cell, other than upon my constant
|
|
employment, viz., to milk my she-goats, and manage my little flock
|
|
in the wood, which, as it was quite on the other part of the island,
|
|
was quite out of danger; for certain it is, that these savage
|
|
people, who sometimes haunted this island, never came with any
|
|
thoughts of finding anything here, and consequently never wandered off
|
|
from the coast; and I doubt not but they might have been several times
|
|
on shore after my apprehensions of them had made me cautious, as
|
|
well as before; and indeed, I looked back with some horror upon the
|
|
thoughts of what my condition would have been if I had chopped upon
|
|
them and been discovered before that, when, naked and unarmed,
|
|
except with one gun, and that loaded often only with small shot, I
|
|
walked everywhere, peeping and peeping about the island to see what
|
|
I could get. What a surprise should I have been in if, when I
|
|
discovered the print of a man's foot, I had, instead of that, seen
|
|
fifteen or twenty savages, and found them pursuing me, and by the
|
|
swiftness of their running, no possibility of my escaping them!
|
|
The thoughts of this sometimes sunk my very soul within me, and
|
|
distressed my mind so much, that I could not soon recover it, to think
|
|
what I should have done, and how I not only should not have been
|
|
able to resist them, but even should not have had presence of mind
|
|
enough to do what I might have done, much less what now, after so much
|
|
consideration and preparation, I might be able to do. Indeed, after
|
|
serious thinking of these things, I should be very melancholy, and
|
|
sometimes it would last a great while; but I resolved it, at last, all
|
|
into thankfulness to that Providence which had delivered me from so
|
|
many unseen dangers, and had kept me from those mischiefs which I
|
|
could no way have been the agent in delivering myself from, because
|
|
I had not the least notion of any such thing depending, or the least
|
|
supposition of it being possible.
|
|
This renewed a contemplation which often had come to my thoughts
|
|
in former time, when first I began to see the merciful dispositions of
|
|
Heaven, in the dangers we run through in this life. How wonderfully we
|
|
are delivered when we know nothing of it! How, when we are in a
|
|
quandary, as we call it, a doubt or hesitation, whether to go this
|
|
way, or that way, a secret hint shall direct us this way, when we
|
|
intended to go that way; nay, when sense, our own inclination, and
|
|
perhaps business, has called to go the other way, yet a strange
|
|
impression upon the mind, from we know not what springs, and by we
|
|
know not what power, shall overrule us to go this way; and it shall
|
|
afterwards appear that had we gone that way which we should have gone,
|
|
and even to our imagination ought to have gone, we should have been
|
|
ruined and lost. Upon these and many like reflections I afterwards
|
|
made it a certain rule with me, that whenever I found those secret
|
|
hints or pressings of my mind to doing, or not doing, anything that
|
|
presented, or to going this way or that way, I never failed to obey
|
|
the secret dictate, though I knew no other reason for it than that
|
|
such a pressure, or such a hint, hung upon my mind. I could give
|
|
many examples of the success of this conduct in the course of my life,
|
|
but more especially in the latter part of my inhabiting this unhappy
|
|
island; besides many occasions which it is very likely I might have
|
|
taken notice of, if I had seen with the same eyes that I saw with now.
|
|
But It is never too late to be wise; and I cannot but advise all
|
|
considering men, whose lives are attended with such extraordinary
|
|
incidents as mine, or even though not so extraordinary, not to
|
|
slight such secret intimations of Providence, let them come from
|
|
what invisible intelligence they will. That I shall not discuss, and
|
|
perhaps cannot account for; but certainly they are a proof of the
|
|
converse of spirits, and the secret communication between those
|
|
embodied and those unembodied, and such a proof as can never be
|
|
withstood, of which I shall have occasion to give some very remarkable
|
|
instances in the remainder of my solitary residence in this dismal
|
|
place.
|
|
I believe the reader of this will not think strange if I confess
|
|
that these anxieties, these constant dangers I lived in, and the
|
|
concern that was now upon me, put an end to all invention, and to
|
|
all the contrivances that I had laid for my future accommodations
|
|
and conveniences. I had the care of my safety more now upon my hands
|
|
than that of my food. I cared not to drive a nail, or chop a stick
|
|
of wood now, for fear the noise I should make should be heard; much
|
|
less would I fire a gun, for the same reason; and, above all, I was
|
|
intolerably uneasy at making any fire, lest the smoke, which is
|
|
visible at a great distance in the day, should betray me; and for this
|
|
reason I removed that part of my business which required fire, such as
|
|
burning of pots and pipes, etc., into my new apartment in the woods;
|
|
where, after I had been some time, I found, to my unspeakable
|
|
consolation, a more natural cave in the earth, which went in a vast
|
|
way, and where, I dare say, no savage, had he been at the mouth of it,
|
|
would be so hardy as to venture in; nor, indeed, would any man else,
|
|
but one who, like me, wanted nothing so much as a safe retreat.
|
|
The mouth of this hollow was at the bottom of a great rock, where,
|
|
mere accident I would say (ifI did not see abundant reason to
|
|
ascribe all such things now to Providence), I was cutting down some
|
|
thick branches of trees to make charcoal; and before I go on, I must
|
|
observe the reason of my making this charcoal, which was thus.
|
|
I was afraid of making a smoke about my habitation, as I said
|
|
before; and yet I could not live there without baking my bread,
|
|
cooking my meat, etc. So I contrived to burn some wood here, as I
|
|
had seen done in England under turf, till it became chark, or dry
|
|
cool; and then putting the fire out, I preserved the coal to carry
|
|
home, and perform the other services which fire was wanting for at
|
|
home, without danger of smoke.
|
|
But this is by-the-bye. While I was cutting down some wood here, I
|
|
perceived that behind a very thick branch of low brush-wood, or
|
|
underwood, there was a kind of hollow place. I was curious to look
|
|
into it; and getting with difficulty into the mouth of it, I found
|
|
it was pretty large; that is to say, sufficient for me to stand
|
|
upright in it, and perhaps another with me. But I must confess to
|
|
you I made more haste out than I did in when, looking farther into the
|
|
place, and which was perfectly dark, I saw two broad shining eyes of
|
|
some creature, whether devil or man I knew not, which twinkled like
|
|
two stars, the dim light from the cave's mouth shining directly in,
|
|
and making the reflection.
|
|
However, after some pause I recovered myself, and began to call
|
|
myself a thousand fools, and tell myself that he that was afraid to
|
|
see the devil was not fit to live twenty years in an island all alone,
|
|
and that I durst to believe there was nothing in this cave that was
|
|
more frightful than myself. Upon this, plucking up my courage, I
|
|
took up a great firebrand, and in I rushed again, with the stick
|
|
flaming in my hand. I had not gone three steps in, but I was almost as
|
|
much frighted as I was before; for I heard a very loud sigh like
|
|
that of a man in some pain, and it was followed by a broken noise,
|
|
as if of words half expressed, and then a deep sigh again. I stepped
|
|
back, and was indeed struck with such a surprise that it put me into a
|
|
cold sweat; and if I had had a hat on my head, I will not answer for
|
|
it, that my hair might not have lifted it off. But still plucking up
|
|
my spirits as well as I could, and encouraging myself a little with
|
|
considering that the power and presence of God was everywhere, and was
|
|
able to protect me, upon this I stepped forward again, and by the
|
|
light of the firebrand, holding it up a little over my head, I saw
|
|
lying on the ground a most monstrous, frightful, old he-goat, just
|
|
making his will, as we say, and gasping for life; and dying, indeed,
|
|
of mere old age.
|
|
I stirred him a little to see if I could get him out, and he essayed
|
|
to get up, but was not able to raise himself; and I thought with
|
|
myself he might even lie there; for if he had frighted me so, he would
|
|
certainly fright any of the savages, if any of them should be so hardy
|
|
as to come in there while he had any life in him.
|
|
I was now recovered from my surprise, and began to look round me,
|
|
when I found the cave was but very small; that is to say, it might
|
|
be about twelve feet over, but in no manner of shape, either round
|
|
or square, no hands having every been employed in making it but
|
|
those of mere Nature. I observed also that there was a place at the
|
|
farther side of it that went in farther, but was so low that it
|
|
required me to creep upon my hands and knees to go into it, and
|
|
whither I went I knew not; so having no candle, I gave it over for
|
|
some time, but resolved to come again the next day, provided with
|
|
candles and a tinderbox, which I had made of the lock of one of the
|
|
muskets, with some wild-fire in the pan.
|
|
Accordingly, the next day I came provided with six large candles
|
|
of my own making, for I made very good candles now of goat's tallow;
|
|
and going into this low place, I was obliged to creep upon all
|
|
fours, as I have said, almost often yards; which, by the way, I
|
|
thought was a venture bold enough, considering that I knew not how far
|
|
it might go, nor what was beyond it. When I was got through the
|
|
strait, I found the roof rose higher up, I believe near twenty feet.
|
|
But never was such a glorious sight seen in the island, I dare say, as
|
|
it was, to look round the sides and roof of this vault or cave; the
|
|
walls reflected a hundred thousand lights to me from my two candles.
|
|
What it was in the rock, whether diamonds, or any other precious
|
|
stones, or gold, which I rather supposed it to be, I knew not.
|
|
The place I was in was a most delightful cavity or grotto of its
|
|
kind, as could be expected, though perfectly dark. The floor was dry
|
|
and level, and had a sort of small, loose gravel upon it, so that
|
|
there was no nauseous or venomous creature to be seen; neither was
|
|
there any damp or wet on the sides or roof. The only difficulty in
|
|
it was the entrance, which, however, as it was a place of security,
|
|
and such a retreat as I wanted, I thought that was a convenience; so
|
|
that I was really rejoiced at the discovery, and resolved, without any
|
|
delay, to bring some of those things which I was most anxious about to
|
|
this place; particularly, I resolved to bring hither my magazine of
|
|
powder, and my spare arms, viz., two fowling-pieces, for I had three
|
|
in all, and three muskets, for of them I had eight in all. So I kept
|
|
at my castle only five, which stood ready-mounted, like pieces of
|
|
cannon, on my outmost fence; and were ready also to take out upon
|
|
any expedition.
|
|
Upon this occasion of removing my ammunition, I took occasion to
|
|
open the barrel of powder, which I took up out of the sea, and which
|
|
had been wet; and I found that the water had penetrated about three of
|
|
four inches into the powder on every side, which caking, and growing
|
|
hard, had preserved the inside like a kernel in a shell; so that I had
|
|
near sixty pounds of very good powder in the centre of the cask. And
|
|
this was an agreeable discovery to me at that time; so I carried all
|
|
away thither, never keeping above two or three pounds of powder with
|
|
me in my castle, for fear of a surprise of any kind. I also carried
|
|
thither all the lead I had left for bullets.
|
|
I fancied myself now like one of the ancient giants, which were said
|
|
to live in caves and holes in the rocks, where none could come at
|
|
them; for I persuaded myself, while I was here, if five hundred
|
|
savages were to hunt me, they could never find me out; or, if they
|
|
did, they would not venture to attack me here.
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The old goat, whom I found expiring, died in the mouth of the cave
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the next day after I made this discovery; and I found it much easier
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to dig a great hole there, and throw him in and cover him with
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earth, than to drag him out; so I interred him there, to prevent the
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offence to my nose.
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I was now in my twenty-third year of residence in this island; and
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was so naturalized to the place, and to the manner of living, that
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could I have but enjoyed the certainty that no savages would come to
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the place to disturb me, I could have been content to have capitulated
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for spending the rest of my time there, even to the last moment,
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till I had laid me down and died, like the old goat in the cave. I had
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also arrived to some little diversions and amusements, which made
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the time pass more pleasantly with me a great deal than it did before.
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As, first, I had taught my Poll, as I noted before, to speak; and he
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did it so familiarly, and talked so articulately and plain, that it
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was very pleasant to me; and he lived with me no less than six and
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twenty years. How long he might live afterwards I know not, though I
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know they have a notion in the Brazils that they live a hundred years.
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Perhaps poor Poll may be alive there still, calling after poor Robin
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Crusoe to this day. I wish no Englishman the ill luck to come there
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and hear him; but if he did, he would certainly believe it was the
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devil. My dog was a very pleasant and loving companion to me for no
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less than sixteen years of my time, and then died of mere old age.
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As for my cats, they multiplied, as I had observed, to that degree
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that I was obliged to shoot several of them at first to keep them from
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devouring me and all I had; but at length, when the two old ones I
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brought with me were gone, and after some time continually driving
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them from me, and letting them have no provision with me, they all ran
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wild into the woods, except two or three favorites, which I kept tame,
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and whose young, when they had any, I always drowned; and these were
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part of my family. Besides these, I always kept two or three household
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kids about me, whom I taught to feed out of my hand. And I had two
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more parrots, which talked pretty well, and would all call "Robin
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Crusoe," but none like my first; nor, indeed, did I take the pains
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with any of them that I had done with him. I had also several tame
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seafowls, whose names I know not, whom I caught upon the shore, and
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cut their wings; and the little stakes which I had planted before my
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castle wall being now grown up to a good thick grove, these fowls
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all lived among these low trees, and bred there, which was very
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agreeable to me; so that, as I said above, I began to be very well
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contented with the life I led, if it might but have been secured
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from the dread of the savages.
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But it is otherwise directed; and it may not be amiss for all people
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who shall meet with my story, to make this just observation from it,
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viz., how frequently, in the course of our lives, the evil which in
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itself we seek most to shun, and which, when we are fallen into it, is
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the most dreadful to us, is oftentimes the very means or door of our
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deliverance, by which alone we can be raised again from the
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afflictions we are fallen into. I could give many examples of this
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|
in the course of my unaccountable life; but in nothing was it more
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|
particularly remarkable than in the circumstances of my last years
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|
of solitary residence in this island.
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It was now the month of December, as I said above, in my
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twenty-third year; and this, being the southern solstice (for winter I
|
|
cannot call it), was the particular time of my harvest, and required
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|
my being pretty much abroad in the fields, when, going out pretty
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|
early in the morning, even before it was thorough daylight, I was
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surprised with seeing a light of some fire upon the shore, at a
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|
distance from me of about two miles, towards the end of the island,
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|
where I -had observed some savages had been, as before. But not on the
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other side; but, to my great affliction, it was on my side of the
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|
island.
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I was indeed terribly surprised at the sight, and stepped short
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within my grove, not daring to go out lest I might be surprised; and
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yet I had no more peace within, from the apprehensions I had that if
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these savages, in rambling over the island, should find my corn
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standing or cut, or any of works and improvements, they would
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immediately conclude that there were people in the place, and would
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then never give over till they had found me out. In this extremity I
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went back directly to my castle, pulled up the ladder after me, and
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made all things without look as wild and natural as I could.
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|
Then I prepared myself within, putting myself in a posture of
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|
defence. I loaded all cannon, as I called them, that is to say, my
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muskets, which were mounted upon my new fortification, and all my
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|
pistols, and resolved to defend myself to the last gasp; not
|
|
forgetting seriously to commend myself to the Divine protection, and
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|
earnestly to pray to God to deliver me out of the hands of the
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barbarians. And in this posture I continued about two hours; but began
|
|
to be mighty impatient for intelligence abroad, for I had no spies
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|
to send out.
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|
After sitting a while longer, and musing what I should do in this
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|
case, I was not able to bear sitting in ignorance any longer; so
|
|
setting up my ladder to the side of the hill where there was a flat
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|
place, as I observed before, and then pulling the ladder up after
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|
me, I set it up again, and mounted to the top of the hill; and pulling
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out my perspective-glass, which I had taken on purpose, I laid me down
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|
flat on my belly on the ground, and began to look for the place. I
|
|
presently found there was no less than nine naked savages sitting
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round a small fire they had made, not to warm them, for they had no
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|
need of that, the weather being extreme hot, but, as I supposed, to
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|
dress some of their barbarous diet of human flesh which they had
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|
brought with them, whether alive or dead, I could not know.
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|
They had two canoes with them, which they had hauled up upon the
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|
shore; and as it was then tide of ebb, they seemed to me to wait for
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|
the return of the flood to go away again. It is not easy to imagine
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|
what confusion this sight put me into, especially seeing them come
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|
on my side the island, and so near me too. But when I observed their
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|
coming must be always with the current of the ebb, I began
|
|
afterwards to more sedate in my mind, being satisfied that I might
|
|
go abroad with safety all the time of the tide of flood, if they
|
|
were not on shore before; and having made this observation, I went
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|
abroad about my harvest-work with the more composure.
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|
As I expected, so it proved; for as soon as the tide made to the
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|
westward, I saw them all take boat, and row (or paddle, as we call it)
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|
all away. I should have observed, that for an hour and more before
|
|
they went off, they went to dancing; and I could easily discern
|
|
their postures and gestures by my glasses. I could not perceive, by my
|
|
nicest observation but that they were stark naked, and had not the
|
|
least covering upon them; but whether they were men or women, that I
|
|
could not distinguish.
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|
As soon as I saw them shipped and gone, I took two guns upon my
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|
shoulders, and two pistols at my girdle, and my great sword by my
|
|
side, without a scabbard, and with all the speed I was able to make
|
|
I went away to the hill where I had discovered the first appearance of
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|
all. And as soon as I got thither, which was not less than two hours
|
|
(for I could not go apace, being so loaden with arms as I was), I
|
|
perceived there had been three canoes more of savages on that place;
|
|
and looking out farther, I saw they were all at sea together, making
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|
over for the main.
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|
This was a dreadful sight to me, especially when, going down to
|
|
the shore, I could see the marks of horror which the dismal work
|
|
they had been about had left behind it, viz., the blood, the bones,
|
|
and part of the flesh of human bodies, eaten and devoured by those
|
|
wretches with merriment and sport. I was so filled with indignation at
|
|
the sight, that I began now to premeditate the destruction of the next
|
|
that I saw there, let them be who or how many soever.
|
|
It seemed evident to me that the visits which they thus made to this
|
|
island are not very frequent, for it was above fifteen months before
|
|
any more of them came on shore there again; that is to say, I
|
|
neither saw them, or any footsteps or signals of them, in all that
|
|
time; for, as to the rainy seasons, then they are sure not to come
|
|
abroad, at least not so far. Yet all this while I lived
|
|
uncomfortably by reason of the constant apprehensions I was in of
|
|
their coming upon me by surprise; from whence I observe, that the
|
|
expectation of evil is more bitter than the suffering, especially if
|
|
there is no room to shake off that expectation, or those
|
|
apprehensions.
|
|
During all this time I was in the murdering humor, and took up
|
|
most of my hours, which should have been better employed, in
|
|
contriving how to circumvent and fall upon them the very next time I
|
|
should see them; especially if they should be divided, as they were
|
|
the last time, into two parties. Nor did I consider at all that if I
|
|
killed one party, suppose often or a dozen, I was still the next
|
|
day, or week, or month, to kill another, and so another, even ad
|
|
infinitum, till I should be at length no less a murderer than they
|
|
were in being man-eaters, and perhaps more so.
|
|
I spent my days now in great perplexity and anxiety of mind,
|
|
expecting that I should, one day or other, fall into the hands of
|
|
these merciless creatures; and if I did at any time venture abroad, it
|
|
was not without looking round me with the greatest care and caution
|
|
imaginable. And now I found, to my great comfort, how happy it was
|
|
that I provided for a tame flock or herd of goats; for I durst not,
|
|
upon any account, fire my gun, especially near that side of the island
|
|
where they usually came, lest I should alarm the savages. And if
|
|
they had fled from me now, I was sure to have them come back again,
|
|
with perhaps two or three hundred canoes with them, in a few days, and
|
|
then I knew what to expect.
|
|
However, I wore out a year and three months more before I ever saw
|
|
any more of the savages, and then I found them again, as I shall
|
|
soon observe. It is true they might have been there once or twice, but
|
|
either they made no stay, or at least I did not hear them; but in
|
|
the month of May, as near as I could calculate, and in my four and
|
|
twentieth year, I had a very strange encounter with them; of which
|
|
in its place.
|
|
The perturbation of my mind, during this fifteen or sixteen
|
|
months' interval, was very great. I slept unquiet, dreamed always
|
|
frightful dreams, and often started out of my sleep in the night. In
|
|
the day great troubles overwhelmed my mind, and in the night I
|
|
deamed often of killing the savages, and of the reasons why I might
|
|
justify the doing of it. But, to waive all this for a while, it was
|
|
the middle of May, on the sixteenth day, I think, as well as my poor
|
|
wooden calendar would reckon, for I marked all upon the post still;
|
|
I say, it was the sixteenth of May that it blew a very great storm
|
|
of wind all day, with a great deal of lightning and thunder, and a
|
|
very foul night it was after it. I know not what was the particular
|
|
occasion of it, but as I was reading in the Bible, and taken up with
|
|
very serious thoughts about my present condition, I was surprised with
|
|
a noise of a gun, as I thought, fired at sea.
|
|
This was, to be sure, a surprise of a quite different nature from
|
|
any I had met with before; for the notions this put into my thoughts
|
|
were quite of another kind. I started up in the greatest haste
|
|
imaginable and, in a trice, clapped my ladder to the middle place of
|
|
the rock, and pulled it after me; and mounting it the second time, got
|
|
to the top of the hill the very moment that a flash of fire bid me
|
|
listen for a second gun, which accordingly, in about half a minute,
|
|
I heard; and, by the sound, knew that it was from the part of the
|
|
sea where I was driven down the current in my boat.
|
|
I immediately considered that this must be some ship in distress,
|
|
and that they had some comrade, or some other ship in company, and
|
|
fired these gun for signals of distress, and to obtain help. I had
|
|
this presence of mind, at that minute, as to think that though I could
|
|
not help them, it might be that they might help me; so I brought
|
|
together all the dry wood I could get at hand, and, making a good
|
|
handsome pile, I set it on fire upon the hill. The wood was dry, and
|
|
blazed freely; and though the wind blew very hard, yet it burnt fairly
|
|
out; so that I was certain, if there was any such thing as a ship,
|
|
they must needs see it, and no doubt they did; for as soon as ever
|
|
my fire blazed up I heard another gun, and after that several
|
|
others, all from the same quarter. I plied my fire all night long till
|
|
day broke; and when it was broad day, and the air cleared up, I saw
|
|
something at a great distance at sea, full east of the island, whether
|
|
a sail or a hull I could not distinguish, no, not with my glasses, the
|
|
distance was so great, and the weather still something hazy also; at
|
|
least it was so out at sea.
|
|
I looked at it all that day, and soon perceived that it did not
|
|
move; so I presently concluded that it was a ship at an anchor. And
|
|
being eager, you may be sure, to be satisfied, I took my gun in hand
|
|
and ran toward the south side of the island, to the rocks where I
|
|
had formerly been carried away with the current; and getting up there,
|
|
the weather by this time being perfectly clear, I could plainly see,
|
|
to my great sorrow, the wreck of a ship, cast away in the night upon
|
|
those concealed rocks which I found when I was out in my boat; and
|
|
which rocks, as they checked the violence of the stream, and made a
|
|
kind of counter-stream or eddy, were the occasion of my recovering
|
|
from the most desperate, hopeless condition that ever I had been in in
|
|
all my life.
|
|
Thus, what is one man's safety is another man's destruction; for
|
|
it seems these men, whoever they were, being out of their knowledge,
|
|
and the rocks being wholly under water, had been driven upon them in
|
|
the night, the wind blowing hard at E. and ENE. Had they seen the
|
|
island, as I must necessarily suppose they did not, they must, as I
|
|
thought, have endeavored to have saved themselves on shore by the help
|
|
of their boat; but their firing of guns for help, especially when they
|
|
saw, as I imagined, my fire, filled me with man thoughts. First, I
|
|
imagined that upon seeing my light, they might have put themselves
|
|
into their boat, and have endeavored to make the shore; but that the
|
|
sea going very high, they might have been cast away. Other times I
|
|
imagined that they might have lost their boat before, as might be
|
|
the case many ways; as, particularly, by the breaking of the sea
|
|
upon their ship, which many times obliges men to stave, or take in
|
|
pieces of their boat, and sometimes to throw it overboard with their
|
|
own hands. Other times I imagined they had some other ship or ships in
|
|
company, who, upon the signals of distress they had made, had taken
|
|
them up and carried them off. Other whiles I fancied they were all
|
|
gone off to sea in their boat, and being hurried away by the current
|
|
that I had been-formerly in, were carried out into the great ocean,
|
|
where there was nothing but misery and perishing and that, perhaps,
|
|
they might by this time think of starving, and of being in a condition
|
|
to eat one another.
|
|
All these were but conjectures at best, so, in the condition I was
|
|
in, I could no no more than look on upon the misery of the poor men,
|
|
and pity them; which had still this good effect on my side, that it
|
|
gave me more and more cause to give thanks to God, who had so
|
|
happily and comfortably provided for me in my desolate condition;
|
|
and that of two ships' companies who were now cast away upon this part
|
|
of the world, not one life should be spared but mine. I learned here
|
|
again to observe, that it is very rare that the providence of God
|
|
casts us into any condition of life so low, or any misery so great,
|
|
but we may see something or other to be thankful for, and may see
|
|
other in worse circumstances than our own.
|
|
Such certainly was the case of these men, of whom I could not so
|
|
much as see room to suppose any of them were saved. Nothing could make
|
|
it rational so much as to wish or expect that they did not all
|
|
perish there, except the possibility only of their being taken up by
|
|
another ship in company; and this was but mere possibility indeed, for
|
|
I saw not the least signal or appearance of any such thing.
|
|
I cannot explain, by any possible energy of words, what a strange
|
|
longing or hankering of desires. I felt in my soul upon this sight,
|
|
breaking out sometimes thus: "Oh that there had been but one or two,
|
|
nay, or but one soul, saved out of this ship, to have escaped to me,
|
|
that I might but have had one companion, one fellow-creature, to
|
|
have spoken to me, and to have conversed with!" In all the time of
|
|
my solitary life I never felt so earnest, so strong a desire after the
|
|
society of my fellow-creatures, or so deep a regret at the want of it.
|
|
There are some secret moving springs in the affections which, when
|
|
they are set agoing by some object in view, or be it some object,
|
|
though not in view, yet rendered present to the mind by the power of
|
|
imagination, that motion carries out the soul by its impetuosity to
|
|
such violent, eager embracings of the object, that the absence of it
|
|
is insupportable.
|
|
Such were these earnest wishings that but one man had been saved!
|
|
"Oh that it had been but one!" I believe I repeated the words, "Oh
|
|
that it had been one!" a thousand times; and the desires were so moved
|
|
by it, that when I spoke the words my hands would clinch together, and
|
|
my fingers press the palms of my hands, that if I had had any soft
|
|
thing in my hand, it would have crushed it involuntarily; and my teeth
|
|
in my head would strike together, and set against one another so
|
|
strong that for some time I could not part them again.
|
|
Let the naturalists explain these things and the reason and manner
|
|
of them. All I can say to them is to describe the fact, which was even
|
|
surprising to me when I found it, though I knew not from what it
|
|
should proceed. It was doubtless the effect of ardent wishes, and of
|
|
strong ideas formed in my mind, realizing the comfort which the
|
|
conversation of one of my fellow-Christians would have been to me.
|
|
But it was not to be. Either their fate or mine, or both, forbid it;
|
|
for, till the last year of my being on this island, I never knew
|
|
whether any were saved out of that ship or no; and had only the
|
|
affliction, some days after, to see the corpse of a drowned boy come
|
|
on shore at the end of the island which was next the shipwreck. He had
|
|
on no clothes but a seaman's waistcoat, a pair of open-kneed linen
|
|
drawers, and a blue linen shirt; but nothing to direct me so much as
|
|
to guess what nation he was of. He had nothing in his pocket but two
|
|
pieces of eight and a tobacco-pipe. The last was to me of often
|
|
times more value than the first.
|
|
It was now calm, and I had a great mind to venture out in my boat to
|
|
this wreck, not doubting but I might find something on board that
|
|
might be useful to me. But that did not altogether press me so much as
|
|
the possibility that there might be yet some living creature on board,
|
|
whose life I might not only save, but might, by saving that life,
|
|
comfort my own to the last degree. And this thought clung so to my
|
|
heart that I could not be quiet night or day, but I must venture out
|
|
in my boat on board this wreck; and committing the rest to God's
|
|
providence I thought, the impression was so strong upon my mind that
|
|
it could not be resisted, that it must come from some invisible
|
|
direction, and that I should be wanting to myself if I did not go.
|
|
Under the power of this impression, I hastened back to my castle,
|
|
prepared everything for my voyage, took a quantity of bread, a great
|
|
pot for fresh water, a compass to steer by, a bottle of rum (for I had
|
|
still a great deal of that left), a basket full of raisins. And
|
|
thus, loading myself with everything necessary, I went down to my
|
|
boat, got the water out of her, and got her afloat, loaded all my
|
|
cargo in her, and then went home again for more. My second cargo was a
|
|
great bag full of rice, the umbrella to set up over my head for shade,
|
|
another large pot full of fresh water, and about two dozen of my small
|
|
loaves, or barley-cakes, more than before, with a bottle of goat's
|
|
milk and a cheese; all which, with great labor and sweat, I brought to
|
|
my boat. And praying to God to direct my voyage, I put out; and
|
|
rowing, or paddling, the canoe along the shore, I came at last to
|
|
the utmost point of the island on that side, viz., NE. And now I was
|
|
to launch out into the ocean, and either to venture or not to venture.
|
|
I looked on the rapid currents which ran constantly on both sides of
|
|
the island at a distance, and which were very terrible to me, from the
|
|
remembrance of the hazard I had been in before, and my heart began
|
|
to fail me; for I foresaw that if I was driven into either of those
|
|
currents, I should be carried a vast way out to sea, and perhaps out
|
|
of my reach, or sight of the island again; and that then, as my boat
|
|
was but small, if any little gale of wind should rise, I should be
|
|
inevitable lost.
|
|
These thoughts so oppressed my mind that I began to give over my
|
|
enterprise; and having hauled my boat into a little creek on the
|
|
shore, I stepped out, and sat me down a little rising bit of ground,
|
|
very pensive and anxious, between fear and desire, about my voyage;
|
|
when, as I was musing, I could perceive that the tide was turned,
|
|
and the flood come on; upon which my going was for so many hours
|
|
impracticable. Upon this, presently it occurred to me that I should go
|
|
up to the highest piece of ground I could find and observe, if I
|
|
could, how the sets of the tide, or currents, lay when the flood
|
|
came in, that I might judge whether, if I was driven one way out, I
|
|
might not expect to be driven another way home, with the same
|
|
rapidness of the currents. This thought was no sooner in my head but I
|
|
cast my eye upon a little hill, which sufficiently overlooked the
|
|
sea both ways, and from whence I had a clear view of the currents,
|
|
or sets of the tide, and which way I was to guide myself in my return.
|
|
Here I found, that as the current of the ebb set out close by the
|
|
south point of the island, so the current of the flood set in close by
|
|
the shore of the north side; and that I had nothing to do but to
|
|
keep to the north of the island in my return, and I should do well
|
|
enough.
|
|
Encouraged with this observation, I resolved the next morning to set
|
|
out with the first of the tide, and reposing myself for the night in
|
|
the canoe, under the great watch-coat I mentioned, I launched out. I
|
|
made first a little out to sea, full north, till I began to feel the
|
|
benefit of the current which set eastward, and which carried me at a
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|
great rate; and yet did not so hurry me as the southern side current
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had done before, and so as to take from me all government of the boat;
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but having a strong steerage with my paddle, I went at a great rate
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directly for the wreck, and less than two hours I came up to it.
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It was a dismal sight to look at. The ship, which, by its
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building, was Spanish, stuck fast, jammed in between two rocks. All
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the stern and quarter of her was beaten to pieces with the sea; and as
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her forecastle, which stuck in the rocks, had run on with violence,
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her mainmast were brought by the board; that is to say broken short
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off; but her bowsprit was sound, and the head and bow appeared firmer.
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When I came close to her a dog appeared upon her, who, seeing me
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coming, yelped and cried; and as soon as I called him, jumped into the
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sea to come to me, and I took him into the boat, but found him
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almost dead for hunger and thirst. I gave him a cake of my bread,
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and he eat it like a ravenous wolf that had been starving a
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fortnight in the snow. I then gave the poor creature some fresh water,
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with which, if I would have let him, he would have burst himself.
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After this I went on board; but the first sight I met with was two
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men drowned in the cookroom, or forecastle of the ship, with their
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arms fast about one another. I concluded, as is indeed probable,
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that when the ship struck, it being in a storm, the sea broke so high,
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and so continually over her, that the men were not able to bear it,
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and were strangled with the constant rushing in of the water, as
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much as if they had been under water. Besides the dog, there was
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nothing left in the ship that had life, nor any goods that I could see
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but what were spoiled by the water. There were some casks of liquor,
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whether wine or brand I knew not, which lay lower in the hold, and
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which, the water being ebbed out, I could see; but they were too big
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to meddle with. I saw several chests, which I believed belonged to
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some of the seamen; and I got two of them into the boat, without
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examining what was in them.
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Had the stern of the ship been fixed, and the fore-part broken
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off, I am persuaded I might have made a good voyage; for by what I
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found in these two chests, I had room to suppose the ship had a
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great deal of wealth on board; and if I may guess by the course she
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steered, she must have been bound from the Buenos Ayres, or the Rio de
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la Plata, in the south part of America, beyond the Brazils, to the
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Havana, in the Gulf of Mexico, and so perhaps to Spain. She had, no
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doubt, a great treasure in her, but of no use, at that time, to
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anybody; and what became of the rest of her people, I then knew not.
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I found, besides these chests, a little cask full of liquor, of
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about twenty gallons, which I got into my boat with much difficulty.
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There were several muskets in a cabin, and a great powderhorn, with
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about four pounds of powder in it. As for the muskets, I had no
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occasion for them, so I left them, but took the powder-horn. I took
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a fire-hovel and tongs, which I wanted extremely; as also two little
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brass kettles, a copper pot to make chocolate, and a gridiron. And
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with this cargo, and the dog, I came away, the tide beginning to
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make home again; and the same evening, about an hour within night, I
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reached the island again, weary and fatigued to the last degree.
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I reposed that night in the boat; and in the morning I resolved to
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harbor what I had gotten in my new cave, not to carry it home to my
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castle. After refreshing myself, I got all my cargo on shore, and
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began to examine the particulars. The cask of liquor I found to be a
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kind of rum, but not such as we had at the Brazils, and, in a word,
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not at all good. But when I came to open the chests, I found several
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|
things of great use to me. For example, I found in one a fine case
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of bottles, of an extraordinary kind, and filled with cordial
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waters, fine, and very good; the bottles held about three pints
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each, and were tipped with silver. I found two pots of very good
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succades, or sweetmeats, so fastened also on top, that the salt
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water had not hurt them; and two more of the same, which the water had
|
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spoiled. I found some very good shirts, which were very welcome to me;
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and about a dozen and half of linen white handkerchiefs and colored
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neckcloths. The former were also very welcome, being exceeding
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refreshing to wipe my face in a hot day. Besides this, when I came
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to the till in the chest, I found there three great bags of pieces
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of eight, which held out about eleven hundred pieces in all; and in
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one of them, wrapped up in a paper, six doubloons of gold, and some
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small bars or wedges of gold. I suppose they might all weigh near a
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pound.
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The other chest I found had some clothes in it, but of little value;
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|
but by the circumstances, it must have belonged to the gunner's
|
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mate; though there was no powder in it, but about two pounds of fine
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glazed powder, in three small flasks, kept, I suppose, for charging
|
|
their fowling-pieces on occasion. Upon the whole, I got very little by
|
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this voyage that was of any use to me; for as to the money, I had no
|
|
manner of occasion for it; It was to me as the dirt under my feet; and
|
|
I would have given it all for three or four pair of English shoes
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|
and stocking, which were things I greatly wanted, but had not had on
|
|
my feet now for many years. I had indeed gotten two pair of shoes now,
|
|
which I took off of the feet of the two drowned men whom I saw in
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|
the wreck, and I found two pair more in one of the chests, which
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|
were very welcome to me; but they were not like our English shoes,
|
|
either for ease or service, being rather what we call pumps than
|
|
shoes. I found in the seaman's chest about fifty pieces of eight in
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royals, but no gold. I suppose this belonged to a poorer man than
|
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the other, which seemed to belong to some officer.
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Well, however, I lugged this money home to my cave, and laid it
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|
up, as I had done that before which I brought from our own ship; but
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|
it was a great pity, as I said, that the other part of this ship had
|
|
not come to my share, for I am satisfied I might have loaded my
|
|
canoe several times over with money, which, if I had ever escaped to
|
|
England, would have lain here safe enough till I might have come again
|
|
and fetched it.
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|
Having now brough all my things on shore, and secured them, I went
|
|
back to my boat, and rowed or paddled her along the shore to her old
|
|
harbor, where I laid her up, and made the best of my way to my old
|
|
habitation, where I found everything safe and quiet. So I began to
|
|
repose myself, live after my old fashion, and take care of my family
|
|
affairs; and, for a while, I lived easy enough, only that I was more
|
|
vigilant than I used to be, looked out oftener, and did not go
|
|
abroad so much; and if at any time I did stir with any freedom, it was
|
|
always to the east part of the island, where I was pretty well
|
|
satisfied the savages never came, and where I could go without so many
|
|
precautions, and such a load of arms and ammunition as I always
|
|
carried with me if I went the other way.
|
|
I lived in this condition near two years more; but my unlucky
|
|
head, that was always to let me know if it was born to make my body
|
|
miserable, was all of this two years filled with projects and designs,
|
|
how, if it were possible, I might get away from this island; for
|
|
sometimes I was for making another voyage to the wreck, though my
|
|
reason told me that there was nothing left there worth the hazard of
|
|
my voyage; sometimes for a ramble one way, sometimes another; and I
|
|
believe verily, if I had had the boat that I went from Sallee in, I
|
|
should have ventured to sea, bound anywhere, I knew not whither.
|
|
I have been, in all my circumstances, a memento to those who are
|
|
touched with the general plague of mankind, whence, for aught I
|
|
know, one-half of their miseries flow; I mean, that of not being
|
|
satisfied with the station wherein God and Nature had placed them; for
|
|
not to look back upon my primitive condition, and the excellent advice
|
|
of my father, the opposition to which was, as I may call it, my
|
|
original sin, my subsequent mistakes of the same kind had been the
|
|
means of my coming into this miserable condition; for had that
|
|
Providence, which so happily had seated me at the Brazils as a
|
|
planter, blessed me with confined desires, and I could have been
|
|
contented to have gone on gradually, I might have been, by this
|
|
time, I mean in the time of my being in this island, one of the most
|
|
considerable planters in the brazils; nay, I am persuaded that by
|
|
the improvements I had made in that little time I lived there, and the
|
|
increase I should probably have made if I had stayed, I might have
|
|
been worth a hundred thousand moidores. And what business had I to
|
|
leave a settle fortune, a well-stocked plantation, improving and
|
|
increasing, to turn supercargo to Guinea to fetch negroes, when
|
|
patience and time would so have increased our stock at home, that we
|
|
could have bought them at our own door from those whose business it
|
|
was to fetch them; and though it had cost us something more, yet the
|
|
difference of that price was by no means worth saving at so great a
|
|
hazard.
|
|
But as this is ordinarily the fate of yourn heads, so reflection
|
|
upon the folly of it is as ordinarily the exercise of more years, or
|
|
the dear-bought experience of time; and so it was with me now. And
|
|
yet, so deep had the mistake taken root in my temper, that I could not
|
|
satisfy myself in my station, but was continually poring upon the
|
|
means and possibility of my escape from this place. And that I may,
|
|
with the greater pleasure to the reader, bring on the remaining part
|
|
of my story, it may not be improper to give some account of my first
|
|
conceptions on the subject of this foolish scheme for my escape, and
|
|
how and upon what foundation I acted.
|
|
I am now to be supposed retired into my castle, after my late voyage
|
|
to the wreck, my frigate laid up and secured under water, as usual,
|
|
and my condition restored to what it was before. I had more wealth,
|
|
indeed, that I had before, but was not at all the richer; for I had no
|
|
more use for it than the Indians of Peru had before the Spaniards came
|
|
there.
|
|
It was one of the nights in the rainy season in March, the four
|
|
and twentieth year of my first setting foot in this island of
|
|
solitariness. I was lying in my bed, or hammock, awake, very well in
|
|
health, had no pain, no distemper, no uneasiness of body, no, nor
|
|
any uneasiness of mind, more than ordinary, but could by no means
|
|
close my eyes, that is, so as to sleep; no, not a wink all night long,
|
|
otherwise than as follows.
|
|
It is as impossible, as needless, to set down the innumerable
|
|
crowd of thoughts that whirled through that great throughfare of the
|
|
brain, the memory, in this night's time. I ran over the whole
|
|
history of my life in miniature, or by abridgment, as I may call it,
|
|
to my coming to this island, and also of the part of my life since I
|
|
came to this island. In my reflections upon the state of my case since
|
|
I came on shore on this island, I was comparing the happy posture of
|
|
my affairs in the first years of my habitation here compared to the
|
|
life of anxiety, fear, and care which I had lived ever since I had
|
|
seen the print of a foot in the sand; nor that I did not believe the
|
|
savages had frequented the island even all the while, and might have
|
|
been several hundreds of them at times on shore there; but I had never
|
|
known it, and was incapable of any apprehensions about it. My
|
|
satisfaction was perfect, though my danger was the same; and I was
|
|
as happy in not knowing my danger, as if I had never really been
|
|
exposed to it. This furnished my thoughts with many very profitable
|
|
reflections, and particularly this one: how infinitely good that
|
|
Providence is which has provided, in its government of mankind, such
|
|
narrow bounds to his sight and knowledge of things; and though he
|
|
walks in the midst of so many thousand dangers, the sight of which, if
|
|
discovered to him, would distract his mind and sink his spirits, he is
|
|
kept serene and calm, by having the events of things hid from his
|
|
eyes, and knowing nothing of the dangers which surround him.
|
|
After these thoughts had for some time entertained me, I came to
|
|
reflect seriously upon the real danger I had been in for so many years
|
|
in this very island, and how I had walked about in the greatest
|
|
security, and with all possible tranquillity, even when perhaps
|
|
nothing but a brow of a hill, a great tree, or the casual approach
|
|
of night had been between me and the worst kind of destruction,
|
|
viz., that of failing into the hands of cannibals and savages, who
|
|
would have seized on me with the same view as I did of a goat or a
|
|
turtle, and have thought it no more a crime to kill and devour me than
|
|
I did of a pigeon or a curlew. I would unjustly slander myself if I
|
|
should say I was not sincerely thankful to my great Preserver, to
|
|
whose singular protection I acknowledged, with great humility, that
|
|
all these unknown deliverances were due, and without which I must
|
|
inevitably have fallen into their merciless hands.
|
|
When these thoughts were over, my head was for some time take up
|
|
in considering the nature of these wretched creatures, I mean the
|
|
savages, and how it came to pass in the world that the wise Governor
|
|
of all things should give up any of His creatures to such
|
|
inhumanity; nay, to something so much below even brutality itself,
|
|
as to devour its own kind. But as this ended in some (at that time
|
|
fruitless) speculations, it occurred to me to inquire what part of the
|
|
world these wretches lived in? How far off the coast was from whence
|
|
they came? What they ventured over so far from home for? What kind
|
|
of boats they had? And why I might not order myself and my business
|
|
so, that I might be able to go over thither as they were to come to
|
|
me.
|
|
I never so much as troubled myself to consider what I should do with
|
|
myself when I came thither; what would become of me, if I fell into
|
|
the hands of the savages; or how I should escape from them, if they
|
|
attempted me; no, nor so much as how it was possible for me to reach
|
|
the coast, and not be attempted by some or other of them, without
|
|
any possibility of delivering myself; and if I should not fall into
|
|
their hands, what I should do for provision, or whither I should
|
|
bend my course. None of these thoughts, I say, so much as came in my
|
|
way; but my mind was wholly bent upon the notion of my passing over in
|
|
my boat to the mainland. I looked back upon my present condition as
|
|
the most miserable that could possibly be; that I was not able to
|
|
throw myself into anything, but death, that could be called worse;
|
|
that if I reached the shore of the main, I might perhaps meet with
|
|
relief, or I might coast along, as I did on the shore of Africa,
|
|
till I came to some inhabited country, and where I might find some
|
|
Christian ship that might take me in; and if the worse came to the
|
|
worst, I could but die, which would put an end to all these miseries
|
|
at once. Pray note, all this was the fruit of a disturbed mind, an
|
|
impatient temper, made, as it were, desperate by the long
|
|
continuance of my troubles, and the disappointments I had met in the
|
|
work I had been on board of, and where I had been so near the
|
|
obtaining what I so earnestly longed for, viz., somebody to speak
|
|
to, and to learn some knowledge from the place where I was, and of the
|
|
probable means of my deliverance. I say, I was agitated wholly by
|
|
these thoughts. All my calm of mind, in my resignation to
|
|
Providence, and waiting the issue of the dispositions of Heaven,
|
|
seemed to be suspended; and I had, as it were, no power to turn my
|
|
thoughts to anything but to the project of a voyage to the main, which
|
|
came upon me with such force, and such an impetuosity of desire,
|
|
that it was not to be resisted.
|
|
When this had agitated my thoughts for two hours, or more, with such
|
|
violence that it set my very blood into a ferment, and my pulse beat
|
|
as high as if I had been in a fever, merely with the extraordinary
|
|
of my mind about it, Nature, as if I had been fatigued and exhausted
|
|
with the very thought of it, threw me into a sound sleep. One would
|
|
have thought I should have dreamed of it, but I did not, nor of
|
|
anything relating to it; but I dreamed that as I was going out in
|
|
the morning, as usual, from my castle, I saw upon the shore two canoes
|
|
and eleven savages coming to land, and that they brought with them
|
|
another savage, whom they were going to kill in order to eat him;
|
|
when, on a sudden, the savage that they were going to kill jumped
|
|
away, and ran for his life. And I thought, in my sleep, that he came
|
|
running into my little thick grove before my fortification to hide
|
|
himself; and that I, seeing him alone, and not perceiving that the
|
|
other sought him that way, showed myself to him, and smiling upon him,
|
|
encouraged him; that he kneeled down to me, seeming to pray me to
|
|
assist him; upon which I showed my ladder, made him go up, and carried
|
|
him into my cave, and he became my servant; and that as soon as I
|
|
had gotten this man, I said to myself, "Now I may certainly venture to
|
|
the mainland; for this fellow will serve me as a pilot, and will
|
|
tell me what to do, and whither to go for provisions, and whither
|
|
not to go for fear of being devoured; what places to venture into, and
|
|
what to escape." I waked with this thought, and was under such
|
|
inexpressible impressions of joy at the prospect of my escape in my
|
|
dream, that the disappointments which I felt upon coming to myself and
|
|
finding it was no more than a dream were equally extravagant the other
|
|
way, and threw me into a very great dejection of spirit.
|
|
Upon this, however, I made this conclusion: that my only way to go
|
|
about an attempt for an escape was, if possible, to get a savage
|
|
into my possession; and, if possible, it should be one of their
|
|
prisoners whom they had condemned to be eaten, and should bring
|
|
thither to kill. But these thoughts were attended with this
|
|
difficulty, that it was impossible to effect this without attacking
|
|
a whole caravan of them, and killing them all; and this was not only a
|
|
very desperate attempt, and might miscarry; but, on the other hand,
|
|
I had greatly scrupled the lawfulness of it to me; and my heart
|
|
trembled at the thoughts of shedding so much blood, though it was
|
|
for my deliverance. I need not repeat the arguments which occurred
|
|
to me against this, they being the same mentioned before. But though I
|
|
had other reasons to offer now, viz., that those men were enemies to
|
|
my life, and would devour me if they could; that it was
|
|
self-preservation, in the highest degree, to deliver myself from
|
|
this death of a life, and was acting in my own defence as much as if
|
|
they were actually assaulting me, and the like; I say, though these
|
|
things argued for it, yet the thoughts of shedding human blood for
|
|
my deliverance were very terrible to me, and such as I could by no
|
|
means reconcile myself to a great while.
|
|
However, at last, after many secret disputes with myself, and
|
|
after great perplexities about it, for all these arguments, one way
|
|
and another, struggled in my head a long time, the eager prevailing
|
|
desire of deliverance at length mastered all the rest, and I resolved,
|
|
if possible, to get one of those savages into my hands, cost what it
|
|
would. My next thing, then was to contrive how to do it, and this
|
|
indeed was very difficulty to resolve on. But as I could pitch upon no
|
|
probable means for it, so I resolved to put myself upon the watch,
|
|
to see them when they came on shore, and leave the rest to the
|
|
event, taking such measures as the opportunity should present, let
|
|
be what would be.
|
|
With these resolutions in my thoughts, I set myself upon the scout
|
|
as often as possible, and indeed so often, till I was heartily tired
|
|
of it; for it was above a year and half that I waited; and for great
|
|
part of that time went out to the west end, and to the south-west
|
|
corner of the island, almost every day to see for canoes, but none
|
|
appeared. This was very discouraging, and began to trouble me much;
|
|
though I cannot say that it did in this case, as it had done some time
|
|
before that, viz., wear off the edge of my desire to the thing. But
|
|
the longer it seemed to be delayed, the more eager I was for it. In
|
|
a word, I was not at first so careful to shun the sight of these
|
|
savages, and avoid being seen by them, as I was now eager to be upon
|
|
them.
|
|
Besides, I fancied myself able to manage one, nay, two or three
|
|
savages, if I had them, so as to make them entirely slaves to me, to
|
|
do whatever I should direct them, and to prevent their being able at
|
|
anytime to do me any hurt. It was a great while that I pleased
|
|
myself with this affair; but nothing still presented. All my fancies
|
|
and schemes came to nothing, for no savages came near me for a great
|
|
while.
|
|
About a year and half after I had entertained these notions, and
|
|
by long musing had, as it were, resolved them all into nothing, for
|
|
want of an occasion to put them in execution, I was surprised, one
|
|
morning early, with seeing no less than five canoes all on shore
|
|
together on my side the island, and the people who belonged to them
|
|
all landed, and out of my sight. The number of them broke all my
|
|
measures; for seeing so many, and knowing that they always came
|
|
four, or six, or sometimes more in a boat, I could not tell what to
|
|
think of it, or how to take my measures to attack twenty or thirty men
|
|
single-handed; so I lay still in my castle, perplexed and
|
|
discomforted. However, I put myself into all the same postures for
|
|
an attack that I had formerly provided, and was just ready for
|
|
action if anything had presented. Having waited a good while,
|
|
listening to hear if they made any noise, at length, begin very
|
|
impatient, I set my guns at the foot of my ladder, and clambered up to
|
|
the top of the hill, by my two stages, as usual; standing so, however,
|
|
that my head did not appear above the hill, so that they could not
|
|
perceive me by any means. Here I observed, by the help of my
|
|
perspective glass, that they were no less than thirty in number,
|
|
that they had a fire kindled, that they had had meat dressed. How they
|
|
had cooked it, that I knew not, or what it was; but they were all
|
|
dancing, in I know not how many barbarous gestures and figures,
|
|
their own way, round the fire.
|
|
While I was thus looking on them, I perceived by my perspective
|
|
two miserable wretches dragged from the boats, where, it seems, they
|
|
were laid by, and were now brought out for the slaughter. I
|
|
perceived one of them immediately fell, being knocked down, I suppose,
|
|
with a club or wooden sword, for that was their way, and two or
|
|
three others were at work immediately, cutting him open for their
|
|
cookery, while the other victim was left standing by himself, till
|
|
they should be ready for him. In that very moment this poor wretch
|
|
seeing himself a little at liberty, Nature inspired him with hopes
|
|
of life, and he started away from them, and ran with incredible
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swiftness along the sands directly towards me, I mean towards that
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part of the coast where my habitation was.
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I was dreadfully frighted (that I must acknowledge) when I perceived
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him to run my way, and especially when, as I thought, I saw him
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pursued by the whole body; and now I expected that part of my dream
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was coming to pass, and that he would certainly take shelter in my
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grove; but I could not depend, by any means, upon my dream for the
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rest of it, viz., that the other savages would not pursue him thither,
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and find him there. However, I kept my station, and my spirits began
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to recover when I found that there was not above three men that
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followed him; and still more was I encouraged when I found that he
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outstripped them exceedingly in running, and gained ground of them; so
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that if he could but hold it for half an hour, I saw easily he would
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fairly get away from them all.
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There was between them and my castle the creek, which I mentioned
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often at the first part of my story, when I landed my cargoes out of
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the ship; and this I saw plainly he must necessarily swim over, or the
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poor wretch would be taken there. But when the savage escaping came
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thither he made nothing of it, though the tide was then up; but
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plunging in, swam through in about thirty strokes or thereabouts,
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landed, and ran on with exceeding strength and swiftness. When the
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three persons came to the creek, I found that two of them could
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swim, but the third could not, and that, standing on the other side,
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he looked at the other, but went no further, and soon after went
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softly back, which, as it happened, was very well for him in the main.
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I observed that the two who swam were yet more than twice as long
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swimming over the creek as the fellow was that fled from them. It came
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now very warmly upon my thoughts, and indeed, irresistibly, that now
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was my time to get me a servant, and perhaps a companion assistant,
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and that I was called plainly by Providence to save this poor
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creature's life. I immediately run down the ladders with all
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possible expedition, fetched my two guns, for they were both but at
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the foot of the ladders, as I observed above, and getting up again,
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with the same haste, to the top of the hill, I crossed towards the
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sea, and having a very short cut, and all down hill, clapped myself in
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the way between the pursuers and the pursued, hallooing aloud to him
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that fled, who, looking back, was at first perhaps as much frighted at
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me as at them; but I beckoned with my hands to him to come back;
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and, in the meantime, I slowly advanced toward the two that
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followed; then rushing at once upon the foremost, I knocked him down
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with the stock of my piece. I was loth to fire, because I would not
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have the rest hear; though, at that distance, it would not have been
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easily heard, and being out of sight of the smoke too, they would
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not have easily known what to make of it. Having knocked this fellow
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down, the other who pursued with him stopped, as if he had been
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frighted, and I advanced a pace towards him; but as I came nearer, I
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perceived presently he had a bow and arrow, and was fitting it to
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shoot at me; so I was then necessitated to shoot at him first, which I
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did, and killed him at the first shot.
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The poor savage who fled, but had stopped, though he saw both his
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enemies fallen and killed, as he thought, yet was so frighted with the
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fire and noise of my piece, that he stood stock-still, and neither
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came forward nor went backward, though he seemed rather inclined to
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fly still than to come on. I hallooed again to him, and made signs
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to come forward, which he easily understood, and came a little way,
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then stopped again, and then a little further; and stopped again;
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and I could then perceive that he stood trembling, as if he had been
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taken prisoner, and had just been to be killed, as his two enemies
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were. I beckoned him again to come to me, and gave him all the signs
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of encouragement that I could think of; and he came nearer and nearer,
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kneeling down every often or twelve steps, in token of
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acknowledgment for my saving his life. I smiled at him, and look
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pleasantly, and beckoned to him to come still nearer. At length he
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came close to me, and then he kneeled down again, kissed the ground,
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and laid his head upon the ground, and taking me by the foot, set my
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foot upon his head. This, it seems, was in token of swearing to be
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my slave forever. I took him up, and made much of him, and
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encouraged him all I could. But there was more work to do yet; for I
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perceived the savage whom I knocked down was not killed, but stunned
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with the blow, and began to come to himself; so I pointed to him,
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and showing him the savage, that he was not dead, upon this he spoke
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some words to me; and though I could not understand them, yet I
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thought they were pleasant to hear; for they were the first sound of a
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man's voice that I had heard, my own excepted, for above twenty-five
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years. But there was no time for such reflections now. The savage
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who was knocked down recovered himself so far as to sit up upon the
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ground, and I perceived that my savage began to be afraid; but when
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I was that, I presented my other piece at the man, as if I would shoot
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him. Upon this my savage, for so I call him now, made a motion to me
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to lend him my sword, which hung naked in a belt by my side; so I did.
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He no sooner had it but he runs to his enemy, and, at one blow, cut
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off his head as cleverly, no executioner in Germany could have done it
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sooner or better; which I thought very strange for one who, I had
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reason to believe, never saw a sword in his life before, except
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their own wooden swords. However, it seems, as I learned afterwards,
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they make their wooden swords so sharp, so heavy, and the wood is so
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hard, that they will cut off heads even with them, ay, and arms, and
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that at one blow too. When he had done this, he comes laughing to me
|
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in sign of triumph, and brought me the sword again, and with abundance
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of gestures, which I did not understand, laid it down, with the head
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of the savage that he had killed, just before me.
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|
But that which astonished him most, was to know how I had killed the
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other Indian so far off; so pointing to him, he made signs to me to
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let him go to him; so I bade him go, as well as I could. When he
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came to him, he stood like one amazed, looking at him, turned him
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|
first on one side, then t' other, looked at the wound the bullet had
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|
made, which, it seems, was just in his breast, where it had made a
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|
hole, and no great quantity of blood had followed; but he had bled
|
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inwardly, for he was quite dead. He took up his bow and arrows, and
|
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came back; so I turned to away, and beckoned to him to follow me,
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making signs to him that more might come after them.
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|
Upon this he signed to me that he should bury them with sand, that
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they might not be seen by the rest if they followed; and so I made
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|
signs again to him to do so. He fell to work, and in an instant he had
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scraped a hole in the sand with his hands big enough to bury the first
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in, and then dragged him into it, and covered him, and did so also
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|
by the other. I believe he had buried them both in a quarter of an
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|
hour. Then calling him away, I carried him, not to my castle, but
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quite away to my cave, on the farther part of the island; so I did not
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|
let my dream come to pass in that part, viz., that he came into my
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grove for shelter.
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|
Here I gave him bread and a bunch of raisins to eat, and a draught
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|
of water, which I found he was indeed in great distress for, by his
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running; and having refreshed him, I made signs for him to go lie down
|
|
and sleep, pointing to a place where I had laid a great parcel of
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rice-straw, and a blanket upon it, which I used to sleep upon myself
|
|
sometimes; so the poor creature laid down, and went to sleep.
|
|
He was a comely, handsome fellow, perfectly well made, with
|
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straight, strong limbs, not too large, tall, and well-shaped, and,
|
|
as I reckoned, about twenty-six years of age. He had a very good
|
|
countenance, not a fierce and surly aspect, but seemed to have
|
|
something very manly in his face; and yet he had all the sweetness and
|
|
softness of an European in his countenance too, especially when he
|
|
smiled. His hair was long and black, not curled like wool; his
|
|
forehead very high and large; and a great vivacity and sparkling
|
|
sharpness in his eyes. The color of his skin was not quite black,
|
|
but very tawny; and yet not of an ugly, yellow, nauseous tawny, as the
|
|
Brazilians and Virginians, and other natives of America are, but of
|
|
a bright kind of a dun olive color, that had in it something very
|
|
agreeable, though not very easy to describe. His face was round and
|
|
plump; his nose small, not flat like the negroes; a very good mouth,
|
|
thin lips, and his fine teeth well set, and white as ivory.
|
|
After he had slumbered, rather than slept, about half an hour, he
|
|
waked again, and comes out of the cave to me, for I had been milking
|
|
my goats, which I had in the enclosure just by. When he espied me,
|
|
he came running to me, laying himself down again upon the ground, with
|
|
all the possible signs of an humble, thankful disposition, making as
|
|
many antic gestures to show it. At last he lays his head flat upon the
|
|
ground, close to my foot, and sets my other foot upon his head, as
|
|
he had done before, and after this made all the signs to me of
|
|
subjection, servitude, and submission imaginable, to let me know how
|
|
he would serve me as long as he lived. I understood him in many
|
|
things, and let him know I was very well pleased with him. In a little
|
|
time I began to speak to him, and teach him to speak to me; and,
|
|
first, I made him know his name should be Friday, which was the day
|
|
I saved his life. I called him so for the memory of the time. I
|
|
likewise taught him to say master, and then let him know that was to
|
|
be my name. I likewise taught him to say Yes and No, and to know the
|
|
meaning of them. I gave him some milk in an earthen pot, and let him
|
|
see me drink it before him, and sop my bread in it; and I gave him a
|
|
cake of bread to do the like, which he quickly complied with, and made
|
|
signs that it was very good for him.
|
|
I kept there with him all that night; but as soon as it was day, I
|
|
beckoned to him to come with me, and let him know I would give him
|
|
some clothes; at which he seemed very glad, for he was stark naked. As
|
|
we went by the place where he had buried the two men, he pointed
|
|
exactly to the place, and showed me the marks that he had made to find
|
|
them again, making signs to me that we should dig them up again, and
|
|
eat them. At this I appeared very angry, expressed my abhorrence of
|
|
it, made as if I would vomit at the thoughts of it, and beckoned
|
|
with my hand to him to come away; which he did immediately, with great
|
|
submission. I then led him up to the top of the hill, to see if his
|
|
enemies were gone; and pulling out my glass, I looked, and saw plainly
|
|
the place where they had been, but no appearance of them or of their
|
|
canoes; so that it was plain that they were gone, and had left their
|
|
two comrades behind them, without any search after them.
|
|
But I was not content with this discovery; but having now more
|
|
courage, and consequently more curiosity, I take my man Friday with
|
|
me, giving him the sword in his hand, with the bow and arrows at his
|
|
back, which I found he could use very dexterously, making him carry
|
|
one gun for me, and I two for myself, and away we marched to the place
|
|
where these creatures had been; for I had a mind now to get some
|
|
fuller intelligence of them. When I came to the place, my very blood
|
|
ran chill in my veins, and my heart sunk within me, at the horror of
|
|
the spectacle. Indeed, it was a dreadful sight, at least it was so
|
|
to me, though Friday made nothing of it. The place was covered with
|
|
human bones, the ground dyed with their blood, great pieces of flesh
|
|
left here and there, half-eaten, mangled and scorched; and, in
|
|
short, all the tokens of the triumphant feast they had been making
|
|
there, after a victory of their enemies. I saw three skulls, five
|
|
hands, and the bones of three or four legs and feet, and abundance
|
|
of other parts of the bodies; and Friday, by his signs, made me
|
|
understand that they brought over four prisoners to feast upon; that
|
|
three of them were eaten up, and that he, pointing to himself, was the
|
|
fourth; that there had been a great battle between them and their next
|
|
king, whose subjects it seems he had been one of, and that they had
|
|
taken a great number of prisoners; all which were carried to several
|
|
places, by those who had taken them in the fight, in order to feast
|
|
upon them, as was done here by these wretches upon those they
|
|
brought hither.
|
|
I cause Friday to gather all the skulls, bones, flesh, and
|
|
whatever remained, and lay them together on a heap, and make a great
|
|
fire upon it, and burn them all to ashes. I found Friday had still a
|
|
hankering stomach after some of the flesh, and was still a cannibal in
|
|
his nature; but I discovered so much abhorrence at the very thoughts
|
|
of it, and at the least appearance of it, that he durst not discover
|
|
it; for I had, by some means, let him know that I would kill him if he
|
|
offered it.
|
|
When we had done this we came back to our castle, and there I fell
|
|
to work for my man Friday; and, first of all, I gave him-a pair of
|
|
linen drawers, which I had out of the poor gunner's chest I mentioned,
|
|
and which I found in the wreck; and which, with a little alteration,
|
|
fitted him very well. Then I made him a jerkin of goat's-skin, as well
|
|
as my skill would allow, and I was now grown a tolerable good
|
|
tailor; and I gave him a cap, which I had made of a hare-skin, very
|
|
convenient and fashionable enough; and thus he was clothed for the
|
|
present tolerably well, and was mighty well pleased to see himself
|
|
almost as well clothed as his master. It is true he went awkwardly
|
|
in these things at first; wearing the drawers was very awkward to him,
|
|
and the sleeves of the waistcoat galled his shoulders, and the
|
|
inside of his arms; but a little easing them where he complained
|
|
they hurt him, using himself to them, at length he took to them very
|
|
well.
|
|
The next day after I came home to my hutch with him, I began to
|
|
consider where I should lodge him. And that I might do well for him,
|
|
and yet be perfectly easy myself, I made a little tent for him in
|
|
the vacant place between my two fortifications, in the inside of the
|
|
last and in the outside of the first; and as there was a door or
|
|
entrance there into my cave, I made a formal framed doorcase, and a
|
|
door to it of boards, and set it up in the passage, a little within
|
|
the entrance; and causing the door to open on the inside, I barred
|
|
it up in the night, taking in my ladders, too; so that Friday could no
|
|
way come at me in the inside of my innermost wall without making so
|
|
much noise in getting over that it must needs waken me; for my first
|
|
wall had now a complete roof over it of long poles, covering all my
|
|
tent, and leaning up to the side of the hill, which was again laid
|
|
across with smaller sticks instead of laths, and then thatched over
|
|
a great thickness with the rice-straw, which was strong, like reeds;
|
|
and at the hole or place which was left to go in or out by the ladder,
|
|
I had placed a kind of trap-door, which, if it had been attempted on
|
|
the outside, would not have open at all, but would have fallen down,
|
|
and made a great noise; and as to weapons, I took them all in to my
|
|
side every night.
|
|
But I needed none of all this precaution; for never man had a more
|
|
faithful, loving, sincere servant than Friday was to me; without
|
|
passions, sullenness, or designs, perfectly obliged and engaged; his
|
|
very affections were tied to me like those of a child to a father; and
|
|
I dare say he would have sacrificed his life for the saving mine, upon
|
|
any occasion whatsoever. The many testimonies he gave me of this put
|
|
it out of doubt, and soon convinced me that I needed to use no
|
|
precautions as to my safety on his account.
|
|
This frequently gave me occasion to observe, and that with wonder,
|
|
that however it had pleased God, in His providence, and in the
|
|
government of the works of His hands, to take from so great a part
|
|
of the world of His creatures the best uses to which their faculties
|
|
and the powers of their soul are adapted, yet that He has bestowed
|
|
upon them the same powers, the same reason, the same affections, the
|
|
same sentiments of kindness and obligation, the same passions and
|
|
resentments of wrongs, the same sense of gratitude, sincerity,
|
|
fidelity, and all the capacities of doing good, and receiving good,
|
|
that He has give to us; and that when He pleases to offer to them
|
|
occasions of exerting these, they are as ready, nay, more ready, to
|
|
apply them to the right uses for which they were bestowed that we are.
|
|
And this made me very melancholy sometimes, in reflecting, as the
|
|
several occasions presented, how mean a use we make of all these, even
|
|
though we have these powers enlightened by the great lamp of
|
|
instruction, the Spirit of God, and by the knowledge of His Word added
|
|
to our understanding; and why it has pleased God to hide the like
|
|
saving knowledge from so many millions of souls, who, if I might judge
|
|
by this poor savage, would make a much better use of it than we did.
|
|
From hence, I sometimes was led too far to invade the sovereignity
|
|
of Providence, and, as it were, arraign the justice of so arbitrary
|
|
a disposition of things that should hide that light from some, and
|
|
reveal it to others, and yet expect a like duty from both. But I
|
|
shut it up, and checked my thoughts with this conclusion: first,
|
|
that we did not know by what light and law these should be
|
|
condemned; but that God was necessarily, and, by the nature of His
|
|
being, infinitely holy and just, so it could not be but that if
|
|
these creatures were all sentenced to absence from Himself, it was
|
|
on account of sinning against that light, which, as the Scripture
|
|
says, was a law to themselves, and by such rules as their
|
|
consciences would acknowledge to be just, though the foundation was
|
|
not discovered to us; and, second, that still, as we are all the
|
|
clay in the hand of the potter, no vessel could say to Him, "Why
|
|
hast Thou formed me thus?"
|
|
But to return to my new companion. I was greatly delighted with him,
|
|
and made it my business to teach him everything that was proper to
|
|
make him useful, handy, and helpful; but especially to make him speak,
|
|
and understand me when I spake. And he was the aptest scholar that
|
|
ever was; and particularly was so merry, so constantly diligent, and
|
|
so pleased when he could but understand me, or make me understand him,
|
|
that it was very pleasant to me to talk to him. And now my life
|
|
began to be so easy that I began to say to myself, that could I but
|
|
have been safe from more savages, I cared not if I was never to remove
|
|
from the place while I lived.
|
|
After I had been two or three days returned to my castle, I
|
|
thought that, in order to bring Friday off from his horrid way of
|
|
feeding, and from the relish of a cannibal's stomach, I ought to let
|
|
him taste other flesh; so I took him out with me one morning to the
|
|
woods. I went, indeed, intending to kill a kid out of my own flock,
|
|
and bring him home and dress it; but as I was going, I saw a
|
|
she-goat lying down in the shade, and two young kids sitting by her. I
|
|
catched hold of Friday. "Hold," says I, "stand still," and made
|
|
signs to him not to stir. Immediately I presented my piece, shot and
|
|
killed one of the kids. The poor creature, who had, at a distance
|
|
indeed, seen me kill the savage, his enemy, but did not know, or could
|
|
imagine, how it was done, was sensibly surprised, trembled and
|
|
shook, and looked so amazed, that I thought he would have sunk down.
|
|
He did not see the kid I had shot at, or perceive I had killed it, but
|
|
ripped up his waistcoat to feel if he was not wounded; and, as I found
|
|
presently, thought I was resolved to kill him; for he came and kneeled
|
|
down to me, and embracing my knees, said a great many things I did not
|
|
understand; but I could easily see that the meaning was to pray me not
|
|
to kill him.
|
|
I soon found a way to convince him that I would do him no harm;
|
|
and taking him up by the hand, laughed at him, and pointing to the kid
|
|
which I had killed, beckoned to him to run and fetch it, which he did;
|
|
and while he was wondering, and looking to see how the creature was
|
|
killed, I loaded my gun again; and by and by I saw a great fowl,
|
|
like a hawk, sit upon a tree, within shot; so, to let Friday
|
|
understand a little what I would do, I called him to me again,
|
|
pointing at the fowl, which was indeed a parrot, though I thought it
|
|
had been a hawk; I say, pointing to the parrot, and to my gun, and
|
|
to the ground under the parrot, to let him see I would make it fall, I
|
|
made him understand that I would shoot and kill that bird. Accordingly
|
|
I fired, and bade him look, and immediately he saw the parrot fall. He
|
|
stood like one frighted again, notwithstanding all I had said to
|
|
him; and I found he was the more amazed, because he did not see me put
|
|
anything into the gun, but thought that there must be some wonderful
|
|
fund of death and destruction in that thing, able to kill man,
|
|
beast, bird, or anything near or far off and the astonishment this
|
|
created in him was such as could not wear off for a long time; and I
|
|
believe, if I would have let him, he would have worshipped me and my
|
|
gun. As for the gun itself, he would not so much as touch it for
|
|
several days after; but would speak to it, and talk to it, as if it
|
|
had answered him, when he was by himself; which, as I afterwards
|
|
learned of him, was to desire it not to kill him.
|
|
Well, after his astonishment was a little over at this, I pointed to
|
|
him to run and fetch the bird I had shot, which he did, but stayed
|
|
some time; for the parrot, not being quite dead, was fluttered a
|
|
good way off from where she fell. However, he found her, took her
|
|
up, and brought her to me; and as I had perceived his ignorance
|
|
about the gun before, I took this advantage to charge the gun again,
|
|
and not let him see me do it, that I might be ready for any other mark
|
|
that might present. But nothing more offered at that time; so I
|
|
brought home the kid, and the same evening I took the skin off, and
|
|
cut it out as well as I could; and having a pot for that purpose, I
|
|
boiled or stewed some of the flesh, and made some very good broth; and
|
|
after I had begun to eat some, I gave some to my man, who seemed
|
|
very glad of it, and liked it very well; but that which was
|
|
strangest to him, was to see me eat salt with it. He made a sign to me
|
|
that the salt was not good to eat, and putting a little into his own
|
|
mouth, he seemed to nauseate it, and would spit and sputter at it,
|
|
washing his mouth with fresh water after it. On the other hand, I took
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some meat in my mouth without salt, and I pretended to spit and
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sputter for want of salt, as fast as he had done at the salt. But it
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would not do; he would never care for salt with his meat or in his
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broth; at least, not a great while, and then but very little.
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Having thus fed him with boiled meat and broth, I was resolved to
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feast him the next day with roasting a piece of the kid. This I did by
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hanging it before the fire in a string, as I had seen many people do
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in England, setting two poles up, one on each side of the fire, and
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one across on the top, and tying the string to the cross stick,
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letting the meat turn continually. This Friday admired very much.
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But when he came to taste the flesh, he took so many ways to tell me
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how well he liked it, that I could not but understand him; and at last
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he told me he would never eat man's flesh any more, which I was very
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glad to hear.
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The next day I set him to work to beating some corn out, and sifting
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it in the manner I used to do, as I observed before; and he soon
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understood how to do it as well as I, especially after he had seen
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what the meaning of it was, and that it was to make bread of; for
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after that I let him see me make my bread, and bake it too; and in a
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little time Friday was able to do all the work for me, as well as I
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could do it myself.
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I began now to consider that, having two mouths to feed instead of
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one, I must provide more ground for my harvest, and plant a larger
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quantity of corn than I used to do; so I marked out a larger piece
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of land, and began to fence in the same manner before, in which Friday
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not only worked very willingly and very hard, but did it very
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cheerfully; and I told him what it was for; that it was for corn to
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make more bread, because he was now with me, and that I might have
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enough for him and myself too. He appeared very sensible of that part,
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and let me know that he thought I had much more labor upon me on his
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account than I had for myself; and that he would work the harder for
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me, if I would tell him what to do.
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This was the pleasantest year of all the life I led in this place.
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Friday began to talk pretty well, and understand the names of almost
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everything I had occasion to call for, and of every place I had to
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send him to, and talk a great deal to me; so that, in short, I began
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now to have some use for my tongue again, which, indeed, I had very
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little occasion for before, that is to say, about speech. Besides
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the pleasure of talking to him, I had a singular satisfaction in the
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|
fellow himself. His simple, unfeigned honesty appeared to me more
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and more every day, and I began really to love the creature; and, on
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his side, I believe he loved me more than it was possible for him ever
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to love anything before.
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I had a mind once to try if he had any hankering inclination to
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his own country again; and having learned him English so well that
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he could answer me almost any questions, I asked him whether the
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nation that he belonged to never conquered in battle? At which he
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smiled, and said, "Yes, yes, we always fight the better;" that is,
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he meant, always get the better in fight; and so we began the
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following discourse: "You always fight the better," said I. "How
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came you to be taken prisoner then, Friday?"
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Friday. - My nation beat much for all that.
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Master. - How beat? If your nation beat them, how came you to be
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taken?
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Friday. - They more many than my nation in the place where me was;
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they take one, two, three, and me. My nation overbeat them in the
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yonder place, where me no was; there my nation take one, two, great
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thousand.
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Master. - But why did not your side recover you from the hands of
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your enemies, then?
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Friday. - They run one, two, three, and me, and make go in the
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canoe; my nation have no canoe that time.
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Master. - Well, Friday, and what does your nation do with the men
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they take? Do they carry them away and eat them, as these did?
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Friday. - Yes, my nation eat mans too; eat all up.
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Master. - Where do they carry them?
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Friday. - Go to other place, where they think.
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Master. - Do they come hither?
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Friday. - Yes, yes, they come hither; come other else place.
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Master. - Have you been here with them?
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Friday. - Yes, I been here. (Points to the NW. side of the island,
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which, it seems, was their side.)
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By this I understood that my man Friday had formerly been among
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the savages who used to come on shore on the farther part of the
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|
island, on the same man-eating occasions that he was now brought
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for; and, some time after, when I took the courage to carry him to
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|
that side, being the same I formerly mentioned, he presently knew
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the place, and told me he was there once when they eat up twenty
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men, two women, and one child. He could not tell twenty in English,
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but he numbered them by laying so many stones on a row, and pointing
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to me to tell them over.
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I have told this passage, because it introduces what follows: that
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after I had had this discourse with him, I asked him how far it was
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from our island to the shore, and whether the canoes were not often
|
|
lost. He told me there was no danger, no canoes ever lost; but that,
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|
after a little way out to the sea, there was a current and a wind,
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always one way in the morning, the other in the afternoon.
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|
This I understood to be no more than the sets of the tide, as
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|
going out or coming in; but I afterwards understood it was
|
|
occasioned by the great draught and reflux of the mighty river
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Oroonoko, in the mouth or the gulf of which river, as I found
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|
afterwards, our island lay; and this land which I perceived to the
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W. and NW. was the great island Trinidad, on the north point of the
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|
mouth of the river. I asked Friday a thousand questions about the
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|
country, the inhabitants, the sea, the coast, and what nations were
|
|
near. He told me all he knew, with the greatest openness imaginable. I
|
|
asked him the names of the several nations of his sort of people,
|
|
but could get no other name than Caribs; from whence I easily
|
|
understood that these were the Caribbees, which our maps place on
|
|
the part of America which reaches from the mouth of the River Oroonoko
|
|
to Guiana, and onwards to St. Martha. He told me that up a great way
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|
beyond the moon, that was, beyond the setting of the moon, which
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|
must be W. from their country, there dwelt white-bearded men, like me,
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|
and pointed to my great whiskers, which I mentioned before; and they
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|
had killed much mans, that was his word; by all which I understood
|
|
he meant the Spaniards, whose cruelties in America had been spread
|
|
over the whole countries, and was remember by all the nations father
|
|
to son.
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|
I inquired if he could tell me how I might come from this island and
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|
get among those white men. He told me, "Yes, yes, I might go in two
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|
canoe." I could riot understand what he meant, or make him describe to
|
|
me what he meant by two canoe; till at last, with great difficulty,
|
|
I found he meant it must be in a large great boat, as big as two
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|
canoes.
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|
This part of Friday's discourse began to relish with me very well;
|
|
and from this time I entertained some hopes that, one time or other, I
|
|
might find an opportunity to make my escape from this place, and
|
|
that this poor savage might be a means to help me to do it.
|
|
During the long time that Friday had now been with me, and that he
|
|
began to sepak to me, and understand me, I was not wanting to lay a
|
|
foundation of religious knowledge in his mind; particularly I asked
|
|
him one time, Who made him? The poor creature did not understand me at
|
|
all, but thought I had asked who was his father. But I took it by
|
|
another handle, and asked him who made the sea, the ground we walked
|
|
on, and the hills and woods? He told me it was one old Benamuckee,
|
|
that lived beyond all. He could describe nothing of this great person,
|
|
but that he was very old, much older, he said, than the sea or the
|
|
land, than the moon or the stars, I asked him then, if this old person
|
|
had made all things, why did not all things worship him? He looked
|
|
very grave, and with a perfect look of innocence said, "All things
|
|
do say O to him." I asked him if the people who die in his country
|
|
went away anywhere? He said, "Yes, they all went to Benamuckee."
|
|
Then I asked him whether these they eat up went thither too? He said
|
|
"Yes."
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|
From these things I began to instruct him in the knowledge of the
|
|
true God. I told him that the great Maker of all things lived up
|
|
there, pointing up towards heaven; that He governs the world by the
|
|
same power and providence by which he made it; that he was omnipotent,
|
|
could do everything for us, give everything to us, take everything
|
|
from us; and thus, by degrees, I opened his eyes. He listened with
|
|
great attention, and received with pleasure the notion of Jesus Christ
|
|
being sent to redeem us, and of the manner of making our prayers to
|
|
God, and His being able to hear us, even into heaven. He told me one
|
|
day that if our God could hear us up beyond the sun, He must needs
|
|
be a greater God than their Benamuckee, who lived but a little way
|
|
off, and yet could not hear till they went up to the great mountains
|
|
where he dwelt to speak to him. I asked him if he ever went thither to
|
|
speak to him? He said, "No;" they never went that were young men; none
|
|
went but the old men, whom he called their Oowokakee, that is, as I
|
|
made him explain it to me, their religious or clergy; and that they
|
|
went to say O (so he called saying prayers), and then came back, and
|
|
told them what Benamuckee said. By this I observed that there is
|
|
priest-craft even amongst the most blinded, ignorant pagans in the
|
|
world; and the policy of making a secret religion in order to preserve
|
|
the veneration of the people to the clergy is not only to be found
|
|
in the Roman, but perhaps among all religions in the world, even among
|
|
the most brutish and barbarous savages.
|
|
I endeavored to clear up this fraud to my man Friday, and told him
|
|
that the pretence of their old men going up to the mountains to say
|
|
O to their god Benamuckee was a cheat, and their bringing word from
|
|
thence what he said was much more so; that if they met with any
|
|
answer, or spoke with any one there, it must be with an evil spirit;
|
|
and then I entered into a long discourse with him about the devil, the
|
|
original of him, his rebellion against God, his enmity to man, the
|
|
reason of it, his setting himself up in the dark parts of the world to
|
|
be worshipped instead of God, and as God, and the many stratagems he
|
|
made use of to delude mankind to their ruin; how he had a secret
|
|
access to our passions and to our affections, to adapt his snares so
|
|
to our inclinations, as to cause us even to be our own tempters, and
|
|
to run upon our destruction by our own choice.
|
|
I found it was not so easy to imprint right notions in his mind
|
|
about the devil, as it was about the being of a God. Nature assisted
|
|
all my arguments to evidence to him even the necessity of a great
|
|
First Cause and overruling, governing Power, a secret directing
|
|
Providence, and of the 6quity and justice of paying homage to Him that
|
|
made us, and the like. But there appeared nothing of all this in the
|
|
notion of an evil spirit; of his original, his being, his nature,
|
|
and above all, of his inclination to do evil, and to draw us in to
|
|
do so too; and the poor creature puzzled me once in such a manner by a
|
|
question merely natural and innocent, that I scarcely knew what to say
|
|
to him. I had been talking a great deal to him of the power of God,
|
|
His omnipotence, His dreadful aversion to sin, His being a consuming
|
|
fire to the workers of iniquity; how, as He had made us all, He
|
|
could destroy us and all the world in a moment; and he listened with
|
|
great seriousness to me all the while.
|
|
After this I had been telling him how the devil was God's enemy in
|
|
the hearts of men, and used all his malice and skill to defeat the
|
|
good designs of Providence, and to ruin the kingdom of Christ in the
|
|
world, and the like. "Well," says Friday, "but you say God is so
|
|
strong, so great; is He not much strong, much might as the devil?"
|
|
"Yes, yes," says I, "Friday, God is stronger than the devil; God is
|
|
above the devil, and therefore we pray to God to tread him down
|
|
under our feet, and enable us to resist his temptations, and quench
|
|
his fiery darts." "But," says he again, "ifGod much strong, much might
|
|
as the devil, why God no kill the devil, so make him no more do
|
|
wicked?"
|
|
I was strangely surprised at his question; and after all, though I
|
|
was now an old man, yet I was but a young doctor, and ill enough
|
|
qualified for a causist, or a solver of difficulties; and at first I
|
|
could not tell what to say; so I pretended not to hear him, and
|
|
asked him what he said. But he was too earnest for an answer to forget
|
|
his question, so that he repeated it in the very same broken words
|
|
as above. By this time I had recovered myself a little, and I said,
|
|
"God will punish him severely; he is reserved for the judgment, and is
|
|
to be cast into the bottomless pit, to dwell with everlasting fire."
|
|
This did not satisfy Friday; but he returns upon me, repeating my
|
|
words, "Reserve at last! me no understand; but why not kill the
|
|
devil now? not kill great ago?" "You may as well ask me," said I, "why
|
|
God does not kill you and I, when we do wicked things here that offend
|
|
Him; we are preserved to repent and be pardoned." He muses awhile at
|
|
this. "Well, well," says he, mighty affectionately, "that well; so
|
|
you, I, devil, all wicked, all preserve, repent, God pardon all." Here
|
|
I was run down again by him to the last degree, and it was a testimony
|
|
to me how the mere notions of nature, though they will guide
|
|
reasonable creatures to the knowledge of a God, and of a worship or
|
|
homage due to the supreme being of God, as the consequence of our
|
|
nature, yet nothing by Divine revelation can from the knowledge of
|
|
Jesus Christ, and of a redemption purchased for us, of a Mediator of
|
|
the new covenant, and of an Intercessor at the footstool of God's
|
|
throne; I say, nothing but a revelation from heaven can form these
|
|
in the soul, and that therefore the Gospel of our Lord and Saviour
|
|
Jesus Christ, I mean the Word of God, and the Spirit of God,
|
|
promised for the guide and sanctifier of His people, are the
|
|
absolutely necessary instructors of the souls of men in the saving
|
|
knowledge of God, and the means of salvation.
|
|
I therefore diverted the present discourse between me and my man,
|
|
rising up hastily, as upon some sudden occasion of going out; then
|
|
sending him for something a good way off, I seriously prayed to God
|
|
that He would enable me to instruct savingly this poor savage,
|
|
assisting, by His Spirit, the heart of the poor ignorant creature to
|
|
receive the light of the knowledge of God in Christ, reconciling him
|
|
to Himself, and would guide me to speak so to him from the Word of God
|
|
as his conscience might be convinced, his eyes opened, and his soul
|
|
saved. When he came again to me, I entered into a long discourse
|
|
with him upon the subject of redemption of man by the Saviour of the
|
|
world, and of the doctrine of the Gospel preached from heaven, viz.,
|
|
of repentance towards God, and faith in our blessed Lord Jesus. I then
|
|
explained to him as well as I could why our blessed Redeemer took
|
|
not on Him the nature of angels, but the seed of Abraham; and how, for
|
|
that reason, the fallen angels had no share in the redemption; that He
|
|
came only to the lost sheep of the house of Israel, and the like.
|
|
I had, God knows, more sincerity than knowledge in all the methods I
|
|
took for this poor creature's instruction, and must acknowledge,
|
|
what I believe all that act upon the same principle will find, that in
|
|
laying things open to him, I really informed and instructed myself
|
|
in many things that either I did not know, or had not fully considered
|
|
before, but which occurred naturally to my mind upon searching into
|
|
them for the information of this poor savage. And I had more affection
|
|
in my inquiry after things upon this occasion than ever I felt before;
|
|
so that whether this poor wild wretch was the better for me or no, I
|
|
had great reason to be thankful that ever he came to me. My grief
|
|
set lighter upon me, my habitation grew comfortable to me beyond
|
|
measure; and when I reflected that in this solitary life which I had
|
|
been confined to, I had not only been moved myself to look up to
|
|
heaven, and to seek to the Hand that had brought me there, but was now
|
|
to be made an instrument, under Providence, to save the life, and, for
|
|
aught I know, the soul of a poor savage, and bring him to the true
|
|
knowledge of religion, and of the Christian doctrine, that he might
|
|
know Christ Jesus, to know whom is life eternal; -I say, when I
|
|
reflected upon all these things, a secret joy run through every part
|
|
of my soul, and I frequently rejoiced that ever I was brought to
|
|
this place, which I had so often thought the most dreadful of all
|
|
afflictions that could possibly have befallen me.
|
|
In this thankful frame I continued all the remainder of my time, and
|
|
the conversation which employed the hours between Friday and I was
|
|
such as made the three years which we lived there together perfectly
|
|
and completely happy, if any such thing as complete happiness can be
|
|
formed in a sublunary state. The savage was now a good Christian, a
|
|
much better than I; though I have reason to hope, and bless God for
|
|
it, that we were equally penitent, and comforted, restored
|
|
penitents. We had here the Word of God to read, and no farther off
|
|
from His Spirit to instruct than if we had been in England.
|
|
I always applied myself to reading the Scripture, to let him know,
|
|
as well as I could, the meaning of what I read; and he again, by his
|
|
serious inquiries and questions, made me, as I said before, a much
|
|
better scholar in the Scripture-knowledge than I should ever have been
|
|
by my own private mere reading. Another thing I cannot refrain from
|
|
observing here also, from the experience in this retired part of my
|
|
life, viz., how infinite and inexpressible a blessing it is that the
|
|
knowledge of God, and the doctrine of salvation of Christ Jesus, is so
|
|
plainly laid down in the Word of God, so easy to be received and
|
|
understood; that as the bare reading the Scripture made me capable
|
|
of understanding enough of my duty to carry me directly on to the
|
|
great work of sincere repentance for my sins, and laying hold of a
|
|
Saviour for life and salvation, to a stated reformation in practice,
|
|
and obedience to all God's commands, and this without any teacher or
|
|
instructor (I mean human); so the same plain instruction
|
|
sufficiently served to the enlightening this savage creature, and
|
|
bringing him to be such a Christian, as I have known few equal to
|
|
him in my life.
|
|
As to all the disputes, wranglings, strife, and contention which has
|
|
happened in the world about religion, whether niceties in doctrines or
|
|
schemes of Church government, they were all perfectly useless to us;
|
|
as, for aught I can yet see, they have been to all the rest in the
|
|
world. We had the sure guide to heaven, viz., the Word of God; and
|
|
we had, blessed by God! comfortable views of the Spirit of God
|
|
teaching and instructing us by His Word, leading us into all truth,
|
|
and making us both willing and obedient to the instruction of His
|
|
Word; and I cannot see the least use that the greatest knowledge of
|
|
the disputed points in religion, which have made such confusions in
|
|
the world, would have been to us if we could have obtained it. But I
|
|
must go on with the historical part of things, and take every part
|
|
in its order.
|
|
After Friday and I became more intimately acquainted, and that he
|
|
could understand almost all I said to him, and speak fluently,
|
|
though in broken English, to me, I acquainted him with my own story,
|
|
or at least so much of it as related to my coming into the place;
|
|
how I had lived there, and how long. I let him into the mystery, for
|
|
such it was to him, of gunpowder and bullet, and taught him how to
|
|
shoot; I gave him a knife, which he was wonderfully delighted with,
|
|
and I made him a belt, with a frog hanging to it, such as in England
|
|
we wear hangers in; and in the frog, instead of a hanger, I gave him a
|
|
hatchet, which was not only as good a weapon, in some cases, but
|
|
much more useful upon other occasions.
|
|
I described to him the country of Europe, and particularly
|
|
England, which I came from; how we lived, how we worshipped God, how
|
|
we behaved to one another, and how we traded in ships to all parts
|
|
of the world. I gave him an account of the wreck which I had been on
|
|
board of, and showed him, as near as I could, the place where she lay;
|
|
but she was all beaten in pieces before, and gone.
|
|
I showed him the ruins of our boat, which we lost when we escaped,
|
|
and which I could not stir with my whole strength then, but was now
|
|
fallen almost all to pieces. Upon seeing this boat, Friday stood
|
|
musing a great while, and said nothing. I asked him what it was he
|
|
studied upon. At last says he, "Me see such boat like come to place at
|
|
my nation."
|
|
I did not understand him a good while; but at last, when I had
|
|
examined further into it, I understood by him that a boat such as that
|
|
had been, came on shore upon the country where he lived; that is, as
|
|
he explained it, was driven thither by stress of weather. I
|
|
presently imagined that some European ship must have been cast away
|
|
upon their coast, and the boat might get loose and drive ashore; but
|
|
was so dull that I never once thought of men making escape from a
|
|
wreck thither, much less whence they might come; so I only inquired
|
|
after a description of the boat.
|
|
Friday described the boat to me well enough; but brought me better
|
|
to understand him when he added with some warmth, "We save the white
|
|
mans from drown." Then I presently asked him if there was any white
|
|
mans, as he called them, in the boat. "Yes," he said, "the boat full
|
|
of white mans." I asked him how many. He told upon his fingers
|
|
seventeen. I asked him then what became of them. He told me, "They
|
|
live, they dwell at my nation."
|
|
This put new thoughts into my head; for I presently imagined that
|
|
these might be the men belonging to the ship that was cast away in
|
|
sight of my island, as I now call it; and who, after the ship was
|
|
struck on the rock, and they saw her inevitably lost, had saved
|
|
themselves in their boat, and were landed upon that wild shore among
|
|
the savages.
|
|
Upon this I inquired of him more critically what was become of them.
|
|
He assured me they lived still there; that they had been there about
|
|
four years; that the savages let them alone, and gave them victuals to
|
|
live. I asked him how it came to pass they did not kill them, and
|
|
eat them. He said, "No, they make brother with them;" that is, as I
|
|
understood him, a truce; and then he added, "They no eat mans but when
|
|
make the war fight;" that is to say, they never eat any men but such
|
|
as come to fight with them and are taken in battle.
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It was after this some considerable time that being on the top of
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the hill, at the east side of the island (from whence, as I have said,
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I had in a clear day, discovered the main or continent of America),
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Friday, the weather being very serene, looks very earnestly towards
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the mainland, and, in a kind of surprise, falls a-jumping and dancing,
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and calls out to me, for I was at some distance from him. I asked
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him what was the matter. "O joy!" says he, "O glad! there see my
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country, there my nation."
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I observed an extraordinary sense of pleasure appeared in his
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face, and his eyes sparkled, and his countenance discovered a
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strange eagerness, as if he had a mind to be in his own country again;
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and this observation of mine put a great many thoughts into me,
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which made me at first not so easy about my new man Friday as I was
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before; and I made no doubt but that if Friday could get back to his
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own nation again, he would not only forget all his religion, but all
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his obligation to me; and woud be forward enough to give his
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countrymen an account of me, and come back perhaps with a hundred or
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two of them, and make a feast upon me, at which he might be as merry
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as he used to be with those of his enemies, when they were taken in
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war.
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But I wronged the poor honest creature very much, for which I was
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very sorry afterwards. However, as my jealousy increased, and held
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me some weeks, I was a little more circumspect, and not so familiar
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and kind to him as before; in which I was certainly in the wrong
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too, the honest, grateful creature having no thought about it but what
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consisted with the best principles, both as a religious Christian
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and as a grateful friend, as appeared afterwards to my full
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satisfaction.
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While my jealousy of him lasted, you may be sure I was every day
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pumping him, to see if he would discover any of the new thoughts which
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I suspected were in him; but I found everything he said was so
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honest and so innocent that I could find nothing to nourish my
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suspicion; and, in spite of all my uneasiness, he made me at last
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entirely his own again, nor did he in the least perceive that I was
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uneasy, and therefore I could not suspect him of deceit.
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One day, walking up the same hill, but the weather being hazy at
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sea, so that we could not see the continent, I called to him, and
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said, "Friday, do not you wish yourself in your own country, your
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own nation?" "Yes," he said, "I be much O glad to be at my own
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nation." What would you do there?" said I. "Would you turn wild again,
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eat men's flesh again, and be a savage as you were before?" He
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looked full of concern, and shaking his head said, "No, no; Friday
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tell them to live good; tell them to pray God; tell them to eat
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corn-bread, cattle flesh, milk, no eat man again." "Why then," said
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I to him, "they will kill you." He looked grave at that, and then
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said, "No, they no kill me, they willing love learn." He meant by this
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they would be willing to learn. He added, they learned much of the
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bearded mans that come in the boat. Then I asked him if he would go
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back to them. He smiled at that, and told me he could not swim so far.
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I told him I would make a canoe for him. He told me he would go, if
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I would go with him. "I go!" says I; "why, they will eat me if I
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come there." "No, no," says he, "me make they no eat you; me make they
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much love you." He meant, he would tell them how I killed his enemies,
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and saved his life, and so he would make them love me. Then he told
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me, as well as he could, how kind they were to seventeen white men, or
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bearded men, as he called them, who came on shore there in distress.
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From this time I confess I had a mind to venture over, and see if
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I could possibly join with these bearded men, who, I made on doubt,
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were Spanish or Portuguese; not doubting but, if I could, we might
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find some method to escape from thence, being upon the continent,
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and a good company together, better than I could from an island
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forty miles off the shore, and alone, without help. So, after some
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days, I took Friday to work again, by way of discourse, and told him I
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would give him a boat to go back to his own nation; and accordingly
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I carried him to my frigate, which lay on the other side of the
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island, and having cleared it of water, for I always kept it sunk in
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the water, I brought it out, showed it to him, and we both went into
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it.
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I found he was a most dexterous fellow at managing it, would make it
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go almost as swift and fast again as I could. So when he was in I said
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to him, "Well now, Friday, shall we go to your nation?" He looked very
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dull at my saying so, which, it seems, was because he thought the boat
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too small to go so far. I told him then I had a bigger; so the next
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day I went to the place where the first boat lay which I had made, but
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which I could not get into water. He said that was big enough; but
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then, as I had taken no care of it, and it had lain two or three and
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twenty years there, the sun had split and dried it, that it was in a
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manner rotten. Friday told me such a boat would do very well, and
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would carry "much enough victual, drink, bread;" that was his way of
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talking.
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Upon the whole, I was by this time so fixed upon my design of
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going over with him to the continent that I told him we would go and
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make one as big as that, and he should go home in it. He answered
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not one word, but looked very grave and sad. I asked him what was
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the matter with him. He asked me again thus: "Why you angry mad with
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Friday? What me done?" I asked him what he meant. I told him I was not
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angry with him at all. "No angry! no angry!" says he, repeated the
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words several times. "Why send Friday home away to my nation?"
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"Why," says I, "Friday, did you not say you wished you were there?"
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"Yes, yes," says he, "wish be both there, no wish Friday there, no
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master there." In a word, he would not think of going there without
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me. "I go there, Friday!" says I; "what shall I do there?" He turned
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very quick upon me at this. "You do great deal much good," says he;
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"you teach wild mans to be good, sober, tame mans; you tell them
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know God, pray God, and live new life." "Alas! Friday," says I,
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"thou knowest not what thou sayest. I am but an ignorant man
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myself." "Yes, yes," says he, "you teachee me good, you teachee them
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good." "No, no, Friday," says I, "you shall go without me; leave me
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here to live by myself, as I did before." He looked confused again
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at that word, and running to one of the hatchets which he used to
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wear, he takes it up hastily, comes and gives it to me. "What must I
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do with this?" says I to him. "You take kill Friday," says he. "What
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must I kill you for?" said I again. He returns very quick, "What you
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|
send Friday away for? Take kill Friday, no send Friday away." This
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he spoke so earnestly that I saw tears stand in his eyes. In a word, I
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so plainly discovered the utmost affection in him to me, and a firm
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|
resolution in him, that I told him then, and often after, that I would
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never send him away from me if he was willing to stay with me.
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Upon the whole, as I found by all his discourse a settled
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|
affection to me, and that nothing should part him from me, so I
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|
found all the foundation of his desire to go to his own country was
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laid in his ardent affection to the people, and his hopes of my
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|
doing them good; a thing which, as I had no notion of myself, so I had
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|
not the least thought or intention or desire of undertaking it. But
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|
still I found a strong inclination to my attempting an escape, as
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|
above, founded on the supposition gathered from the discourse, viz.,
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|
that there were seventeen bearded men there; and, therefore, without
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|
any more delay I went to work with Friday, to find out a great tree
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|
proper to fell, and make a large periagua, or canoe, to undertake
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|
the voyage. There were trees enough in the island to have built a
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|
little fleet, not of periaguas and canoes, but even of good large
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|
vessels. But the main thing I looked at was, to get one so near the
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|
water that we might launch it when it was made, to avoid the mistake I
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|
committed at first.
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|
At last Friday pitched upon a tree, for I found he knew much
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|
better than I what kind of wood was fittest for it; nor can I tell, to
|
|
this day, what wood to call the tree we cut down, except that it was
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|
very like the tree we call fustic, or between that and the Nicaragua
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|
wood, for it was much of the same color and smell. Friday was for
|
|
burning the hollow or cavity of this tree out, to make it for a
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|
boat, but I showed him how rather to cut it out with tools; which,
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|
after I had showed him how to use, he did very handily; and in about a
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|
month's hard labor we finished it, and made it very handsome;
|
|
especially when, with our axes, which I showed him how to handle, we
|
|
cut and hewed the outside into the true shape of a boat. After this,
|
|
however, it cost us near a fortnight's time to get her along, as it
|
|
were, inch by inch, upon great rollers into the water; but when she
|
|
was in, she would have carried twenty men with great ease.
|
|
When she was in the water, and though she was so big, it amazed me
|
|
to see with what dexterity, and how swift my man Friday would manage
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|
her, turn her, and paddle her along. So I asked him if he would, and
|
|
if we might venture over in her. "Yes," he said, "he venture over in
|
|
her very well, though great blow wind." However, I had a farther
|
|
design that he knew nothing of, and that was to make a mast and
|
|
sail, and to fit her with an anchor and cable. As to a mast, that
|
|
was easy enough to get; so I pitched upon a straight young cedar-tree,
|
|
which I found near the place, and which there was great plenty of in
|
|
the island; and I set Friday to work to cut it down, and gave him
|
|
directions how to shape and order it. But as to the sail, that was
|
|
my particular care. I knew I had old sails, or rather pieces of old
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|
sails enough; but as I had had them now twenty-six years by me, and
|
|
had not been very careful to preserve them, not imagining that I
|
|
should ever have this kind of use for them, I did not doubt but they
|
|
were all rotten, and, indeed, most of them were so. However, I found
|
|
two pieces which appeared pretty good, and with these I went to
|
|
work, and with a great deal of pains, and awkward tedious stitching
|
|
(you may be sure) for want of needles, I, at length, made a
|
|
three-cornered ugly thing, like what we call in England a
|
|
shoulder-of-mutton sail, to go with a boom at bottom, and a little
|
|
short sprit at the top, such as usually our ship's longboats sail
|
|
with, and such as best knew how to manage; because it was such a one
|
|
as I had to the boat in which I made my escape from Barbary, as
|
|
related in the first part of my story.
|
|
I was near two months performing this last work, viz., rigging and
|
|
fitting my masts and sails; for I finished them very complete,
|
|
making a small stay, and a sail, or foresail, to it, to assist, if
|
|
we should turn to windward; and, which was more than all, I fixed a
|
|
rudder to the stern of her to steer with; and though I was but a
|
|
bungling shipwright, yet as I knew the usefulness, and even necessity,
|
|
of such a thing, I applied myself with so much pains to do it, that at
|
|
last I brought it to pass; though, considering the many dull
|
|
contrivances I had for it that failed, I think it cost me almost as
|
|
much labor as making the boat.
|
|
After all this was done, too, I had my man Friday to teach as to
|
|
what belonged to the navigation of my boat; for though he knew very
|
|
well how to paddle a canoe, he knew nothing what belonged to a sail
|
|
and a rudder; and was the most amazed when he saw me work the boat
|
|
to and again in the sea by the rudder, and how the sail jabbed, and
|
|
filled this way, or that way, as the course we sailed changed; I
|
|
say, when he saw this, he stood like one astonished and amazed.
|
|
However, with a little use I made all these things familiar to him,
|
|
and he became an expert sailor, except that as to the compass I
|
|
could make him understand very little of that. On the other hand, as
|
|
there was very little cloudy weather, and seldom or never any fogs
|
|
in those parts, there was the less occasion for a compass, seeing
|
|
the stars were always to be seen by night, and the shore by day,
|
|
except in the rainy season, and then nobody cared to stir abroad,
|
|
either by land or sea.
|
|
I was now entered on the seven and twentieth year of my captivity in
|
|
this place; though the three last years that I had this creature
|
|
with me ought rather to be left out of the account, my habitation
|
|
being quite of another kind than in all the rest of the time. I kept
|
|
the anniversary of my landing here with the same thankfulness to God
|
|
for His mercies as at first; and if I had such cause of acknowledgment
|
|
at first, I had much more so now, having such additional testimonies
|
|
of the care of Providence over me, and the great hopes I had of
|
|
being effectually and speedily delivered; for I had an invincible
|
|
impression upon my thoughts that my deliverance was at hand, and
|
|
that I should not be another year in this place. However, I went on
|
|
with my husbandry, digging, planting, fencing, as usual. I gathered
|
|
and cured my grapes, and did every necessary thing as before.
|
|
The rainy season was, in the meantime, upon me, when I kept more
|
|
within doors than at any other times; so I had stowed our new vessel
|
|
as secure as we could, bringing her up into the creek, where, as I
|
|
said in the beginning, I landed my rafts from the ship; and hauling
|
|
her up to the shore at high-water mark, I made my man Friday dig a
|
|
little dock, just big enough to hold her, and just deep enough to give
|
|
her water enough to float in, and then, when the tide was out, we made
|
|
a strong dam across the end of it, to keep the water out; and so she
|
|
lay dry, as to the tide, from the sea; and to keep the rain off, we
|
|
laid a great many boughs of trees, so thick, that she was well
|
|
thatched as a house; and thus we waited for the month of November
|
|
and December, in which I designed to make my adventure.
|
|
When the settled season began to come in, as the thought of my
|
|
designed returned with the fair weather, I was preparing daily for the
|
|
voyage; and the first thing I did was to lay by a certain quantity
|
|
of provisions, being the stores for our voyage; and intended, in a
|
|
week or a fortnight's time, to open the dock, and launch out our boat.
|
|
I was busy one morning upon something of this kind, when I called to
|
|
Friday, and bid him go to the sea-shore and see if he could find a
|
|
turtle, or tortoise, a thing which we generally got once a week, for
|
|
the sake of the eggs as well as the flesh. Friday had not been long
|
|
gone when he came running back, and flew over my outer wall, or fence,
|
|
like one that felt not the ground, or the steps he set his feet on;
|
|
and before I had time to speak to him, he cries out to me, "O
|
|
master! O master! O sorrow! O bad!" "What's the matter, Friday?"
|
|
says I. "O yonder, there," says he, "one, two, three canoe! one,
|
|
two, three!" By his way of speaking, I concluded there were six; but
|
|
on inquiry, I found it was but three. "Well, Friday," says I, "do
|
|
not be frighted." So I heartened him up as well as I could. However, I
|
|
saw the poor fellow was most terribly scared; for nothing ran in his
|
|
head but that they were come to look for him, and would cut him in
|
|
pieces, and eat him; and the poor fellow trembled so that I scarce
|
|
knew what to do with him. I comforted him as well as I could, and told
|
|
him I was in as much danger as he, and that they would eat me as
|
|
well as him. "But," says I, "Friday, we must resolve to fight them.
|
|
Can you fight, Friday?" "Me shoot," say he; "but there come many great
|
|
number." No matter for that," said I again; "our guns will fright them
|
|
that we do not kill." So I asked him whether, if I resolved to
|
|
defend him, he would defend me, and stand by me, and do just as I
|
|
bid him. He said, "Me die when you bid die, master." So I went and
|
|
fetched a good dram of rum, and gave him; for I had been so good a
|
|
husband of my rum that I had a great deal left. When he had drank
|
|
it, I made him take the two fowling-pieces, which we always carried,
|
|
and load them with large swan-shot, as big as small pistol-bullets.
|
|
Then I took four muskets, and loaded them with two slugs and five
|
|
small bullets each; and my two pistols I loaded with a brace of
|
|
bullets each. I hung my great sword, as usual, naked, by my side,
|
|
and gave Friday his hatchet.
|
|
When I had thus prepared myself, I took my perspective-glass and
|
|
went up to the side of the hill to see what I could discover; and I
|
|
found quickly, by my glass, that there were one-and-twenty savages,
|
|
three prisoners, and three canoes, and that their whole business
|
|
seemed to be the triumphant banquet upon these three human bodies; a
|
|
barbarous feast indeed, but nothing more than, as I had observed,
|
|
was usual with them.
|
|
I observed also that they were landed, not where they had done
|
|
when Friday made his escape, but nearer to my creek, where the shore
|
|
was low, and where a thick wood came close almost down to the sea.
|
|
This, with the abhorrence of the inhuman errand these wretches came
|
|
about, filled me with such indignation that I came down again to
|
|
Friday, and told him I was resolved to go down to them, and kill
|
|
them all, and asked him if he would stand by me. He was now gotten
|
|
over his fright, and his spirits being a little raised with the dram I
|
|
had given him, he was very cheerful, and told me, as before, he
|
|
would die when I bid die.
|
|
In this fit of fury, I took first and divided the arms which I had
|
|
charge, as before, between us. I gave Friday one pistol to stick in
|
|
his girdle, and three guns upon his shoulder; and I took one pistol,
|
|
and the other three myself, and in this posture we marched out. I took
|
|
a small bottle of rum in my pocket, and gave Friday a large bag with
|
|
more powder and bullet; and as to orders I charged him to keep close
|
|
behind me, and not to stir, or shoot, or do anything, till I bid
|
|
him, and in the meantime not to speak a word. In this posture I
|
|
fetched a compass to my right hand of near a mile, as well to got over
|
|
the creek as to get into the wood, so that I might come within shot of
|
|
them before I should be discovered, which I had seen, by my glass,
|
|
it was easy to do.
|
|
While I was making this march, my former thoughts returning, I began
|
|
to abate my resolution. I do not mean that I entertained any fear of
|
|
their number; for as they were naked, unarmed wretches, It is
|
|
certain I was superior to them; nay, though I had been alone. But it
|
|
occurred to my thoughts what call, what occasion, much less what
|
|
necessity, I was in to go and dip my hands in blood, to attack
|
|
people who had neither done or intended me any wrong; who, as to me,
|
|
were innocent, and whose barbarous customs were their own disaster;
|
|
being in them a token, indeed, of God's having left them, with the
|
|
other nations of that part of the world, to such stupidity, and to
|
|
such inhuman courses; but did not call me to take upon me to be a
|
|
judge of their actions, much less an executioner of His justice;
|
|
that whenever He thought fit, He would take the cause into His own
|
|
hands, and by national vengeance, punish them, as a people, for
|
|
national crimes; but that, in the meantime, it was none of my
|
|
business; that, it was true, Friday might justify it, because he was a
|
|
declared enemy, and in a state of war with those very particular
|
|
people, and it was lawful for him to attack them; but I could not
|
|
say the same with respect to me. These things were so warmly pressed
|
|
upon my thoughts all the way as I went, that I resolved I would only
|
|
go and place myself near them, that I might observe their barbarous
|
|
feast, and that I would act then as God should direct; but that,
|
|
unless something offered that was more a call to me than yet I knew
|
|
of, I would not meddle with them.
|
|
With this resolution I entered the wood, and with all possible
|
|
wariness and silence, Friday following close at my heels, I marched
|
|
till I came to the skirt the wood, on the side which was next to them;
|
|
only that one corner of the wood lay between me and them. Here I
|
|
called softly to Friday, and showing him a great tree, which was
|
|
just at the corner of the wood, I bade him go to the tree and bring me
|
|
word if he could see there plainly what they were doing. He did so,
|
|
and came immediately back to me, and told me they might be plainly
|
|
viewed there; that they were all about their fire, eating the flesh of
|
|
one of their prisoners, and that another lay bound upon the sand, a
|
|
little from them, which, he said, they would kill next, and, which
|
|
fired all the very soul within me, he told me it was not one of
|
|
their nation, but one of the bearded men, whom he had told me of, that
|
|
came to their country in the boat. I was filled with horror at the
|
|
very naming the white, bearded man; and, going to the tree, I saw
|
|
plainly, by my glass, a white man, who lay upon the beach of the
|
|
sea, with his hands and feet tied with flags, or things like rushes,
|
|
and that he was a European, and had clothes on.
|
|
There was another tree, and a little thicket beyond it, about
|
|
fifty years nearer to them than the place where I was, which, by going
|
|
a little way about, I saw I might come at undiscovered, and that
|
|
then I should be within half shot of them; so I withheld my passion,
|
|
though I was indeed enraged to the highest degree; and going back
|
|
about twenty paces, I got behind some bushes, which held all the way
|
|
till I came to the other tree; and then I came to a little rising
|
|
ground, which gave me a full view of them, at the distance of about
|
|
eighty yards.
|
|
I had now not a moment to lose, for nineteen of the dreadful
|
|
wretches sat upon the ground, all close huddled together, and had just
|
|
sent the other two to butcher the poor Christian, and bring him,
|
|
perhaps limb by limb, to their fire; and they were stooped down to
|
|
untie the bands at this feet. I turned to Friday. "Now, Friday,"
|
|
said I, "do as I bid thee." Friday said he would. "Then, Friday," says
|
|
I, "do exactly as you see me do; fail in nothing." So I set down one
|
|
of the muskets and the fowling-piece upon the ground, and Friday did
|
|
the like by his; and with the other musket took my aim at the savages,
|
|
bidding him do the like. Then asking him if he was ready, he said,
|
|
"Yes." "Then fire at them," said I; and the same moment I fired also.
|
|
Friday took his aim so much better than I that on the side that he
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shot he killed two of them, and wounded three more; and on my side I
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killed one and wounded two. They were, you may be sure, in a
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dreadful consternation; and all of them who were not hurt jumped up
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upon their feet, but did not immediately know which way to run, or
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which way to look, for they knew not from whence their destruction
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came. Friday kept his eyes close upon me, that, as I had bid him, he
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might observe what I did; so as soon as the first shot was made I
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threw down the piece, and took up the fowling-piece, and Friday did
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the like. He sees me cock and present; he did the same again. "Are you
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ready, Friday?" said I. "Yes," says he. "Let fly, then," says I, "in
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the name of God!" and with that I fired again among the amazed
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wretches, and so did Friday; and as our pieces were now loaded with
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what I called swan-shot, or small pistol-bullets, were found only
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two drop, but so many were wounded that they ran about yelling and
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screaming like mad creatures, all bloody, and miserably wounded most
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of them; whereof three more fell quickly after, though not quite dead.
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"Now, Friday," says I, laying down the discharged pieces, and taking
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up the musket which was yet loaded, "follow me," says I, which he
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did with a great deal of courage; upon which I rushed out of the wood,
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and showed myself, and Friday close at my foot. As soon as I perceived
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they saw me, I shouted as loud as I could, and bade Friday to do so
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too; and running as fast as I could, which, by the way, was not very
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fast, being loaden with arms as I was, I made directly towards the
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poor victim, who was, as I said, lying upon the beach, or shore,
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between the place where they sat and the sea. The two butchers, who
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were just going to work with him, had left him at the surprise of
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our first fire, and fled in a terrible fright to the seaside, and
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had jumped into a canoe, and three more of the rest made the same way.
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I turned to Friday, and bid him step forwards and fire at them. He
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understood me immediately, and running about forty yards, to be near
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them, he shot at them, and I thought he had killed them all, for I saw
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them all fall of a heap into the boat; though I saw two of them up
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again quickly. However, he killed two of them and wounded the third,
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so that he lay down in the bottom of the boat as if he had been dead.
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While my man Friday fired at them, I pulled out my knife and cut the
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flags that bound the poor victim; and loosing his hands and feet, I
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lifted him up, and asked him in the Portuguese tongue what he was.
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He answered in Latin, Christianus; but was so weak and faint that he
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could scarce stand or speak. I took my bottle out of my pocket and
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gave it him, making signs that he should drink, which he did; and I
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gave him a piece of bread, which he eat. Then I asked him what
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countryman he was; and he said, Espagniole; and being a little
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recovered, let me know, by all the signs he could possibly make, how
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much he was in my debt for his deliverance. "Seignior," said I, with
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as much Spanish as I could make up, "we will talk afterwards, but we
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must fight now. If you have any strength left, take this pistol and
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sword, and lay about you." He took them very thankfully, and no sooner
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had he the arms in his hands but, as if they had put new vigor into
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him, he flew upon his murderers like a fury, and had cut two of them
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in pieces in an instant; for the truth is, as the whole was a surprise
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|
to them, so the poor creatures were so much frighted with the noise of
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our pieces that they fell down for mere amazement and fear, and had no
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power to attempt their own escape than their flesh had to resist our
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shot; and that was the case of those five that Friday shot at in the
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boat; for as three of them fell with the hurt they received, so the
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other two fell with the fright.
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I kept my piece in my hand still without firing, being willing to
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keep my charge ready, because I had given the Spaniard my pistol and
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sword. So I called to Friday, and bade him run up to the tree from
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whence we first fired, and fetch the arms which lay there that had
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been discharged, which he did with great swiftness; and then giving
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him my musket, I sat down myself to load all the rest again, and
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bade them come to me when they wanted. While I was loading these
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pieces, there happened a fierce engagement between the Spaniard and
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one of the savages, who made at him with one of their great wooden
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swords, the same weapon that was to have killed him before if I had
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not prevented it. The Spaniard, who was as bold and brave as could
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be imagined, though weak, had fought this Indian a good while, and had
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cut him two great wounds on his head; but the savage being a stout,
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lusty fellow, closing in with him, had thrown him down, being faint,
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and was wringing my sword out of his hand, when the Spaniard, though
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undermost, wisely quitting the sword, drew the pistol from his girdle,
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shot the savage through the body, and killed him upon the spot, before
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I, who was running to help him, could come near him.
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|
Friday being now left to his liberty, pursued the flying wretches
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|
with no weapon in his hand but his hatchet; and with that he
|
|
despatched those three who, as I said before, were wounded at first,
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|
and fallen, and all the rest he could come up with; and the Spaniard
|
|
coming to me for a gun, I gave him one of the fowling-pieces, with
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|
which he pursued two of the savages, and wounded them both; but as
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he was not able to run, they both got from him into the wood, where
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|
Friday pursued them, and killed one of them; but the other was too
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|
nimble for him, and though he was wounded, yet had plunged himself
|
|
into the sea, and swam with all his might off to those two who were
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|
left in the canoe; which three in the canoe, with one wounded, who
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|
we know not whether he died or no, were all that escaped our hands
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|
of one and twenty. The account of the rest is as follows:
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3 killed at our first shot from the tree.
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2 killed at the next shot.
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2 killed by Friday in the boat.
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2 killed by ditto, of those at first wounded.
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|
1 killed by ditto in the wood.
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|
3 killed by the Spaniard.
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|
4 killed, being found dropped here and there of
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|
their wounds, or killed by Friday in his chase of them.
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|
4 escaped in the boat, whereof one wounded, if not dead.
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|
--
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21 in all.
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Those that were in the canoe worked hard to get out of gunshot;
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|
and though Friday made two or three shots at them, I did not find that
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|
he hit any of them. Friday would fain have had me take one of their
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|
canoes, and pursue them; and, indeed, I was very anxious about their
|
|
escape, lest carrying the news home to their people they should come
|
|
back perhaps with two or three hundred of their canoes, and devour
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|
us by mere multitude. So I consented to pursue them by sea, and
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|
running to one of their canoes I jumped in, and bade Friday to
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|
follow me. But when I was in the canoe, I was surprised to find
|
|
another poor creature lie there alive, bound hand and foot, as the
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|
Spaniard was, for the slaughter, and almost dead with fear, not
|
|
knowing what the matter was; for he had not been able to look up
|
|
over the side of the boat, he was tied so hard, neck and heels, and
|
|
had been tied so long, that he had really but little life in him.
|
|
I immediately cut the twisted flags or rushes, which they had
|
|
bound him with, and would have helped him up; but he could not stand
|
|
or speak, but groaned most piteously, believing, it seems, still
|
|
that he was only unbound in order to be killed.
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|
When Friday came to him, I bade him speak to him, and tell him of
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|
his deliverance; and pulling out my bottle, made him give the poor
|
|
wretch a dram; which, with the news of his being delivered, revived
|
|
him, and he sat up in the boat. But when Friday came to hear him
|
|
speak, and look in his face, it would have moved any one to tears to
|
|
have seen how Friday kissed him, embraced him, hugged him, cried,
|
|
laughed, hallooed, jumped about, danced, sung; then cried again, wrung
|
|
his hands, beat his own face and head, and then sung and jumped
|
|
about again, like a distracted creature. It was a good while before
|
|
I could make him speak to me, or tell me what was the matter; but when
|
|
he came a little to himself, he told me that it was his father.
|
|
It was not easy for me to express how it moved me to see what
|
|
ecstasy and filial affection had worked in this poor savage at the
|
|
sight of his father, and of his being delivered from death; nor,
|
|
indeed, can I describe half the extravagancies of his affection
|
|
after this; for he went into the boat, and out of the boat, a great
|
|
many times. When he went in to him, he would sit down by him, open his
|
|
breast, and hold his father's head close to his bosom, half an hour
|
|
together, to nourish it; then he took his arms and ankles, which
|
|
were numbed and stiff with the binding, and chafed and rubbed them
|
|
with his hands; and I, perceiving what the case was, gave him some rum
|
|
out of my bottle to rub them with, which did them a great deal of
|
|
good.
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|
This action put an end to our pursuit of the canoe with the other
|
|
savages who were now gotten almost out of sight; and it was happy
|
|
for us that we did not, for it blew so hard within two hours after,
|
|
and before they could be gotten a quarter of their way, and
|
|
continued blowing so hard all night, and that from the north-west,
|
|
which was against them, that I could not suppose their boat could
|
|
live, or that they ever reached to their own coast.
|
|
But to return to Friday. He was so busy about his father that I
|
|
could not find in my heart to take him off for some time; but after
|
|
I thought he could leave him a little, I called him to me, and he came
|
|
jumping and laughing, and pleased to the highest extreme. Then I asked
|
|
him if he had given his father any bread. He shook his head, and said,
|
|
"None; ugly dog eat all up self." So I gave him a cake of bread out of
|
|
a little pouch I carried on purpose. I also gave him a dram for
|
|
himself, but he would not taste it, but carried it to his father. I
|
|
had in my pocket also two or three bunches of my raisins, so I gave
|
|
him a handful of them for his father. He had no sooner given his
|
|
father these raisins, but I saw him come out of the boat and run away,
|
|
as if he had been bewitched, he ran as such a rate; for he was the
|
|
swiftest fellow of his foot that ever I saw. I say, he run at such a
|
|
rate that he was out of sight, as it were, in an instant; and though I
|
|
called, and hallooed, too, after him, it was all one, away he went;
|
|
and in a quarter of an hour saw him come back again, though not so
|
|
fast as he went; and as he came nearer, I found his pace was
|
|
slacker, because he had something in his hand.
|
|
When he came up to me, I found he had been quite home for an earthen
|
|
jug, or pot, to bring his father some fresh water, and that he had got
|
|
two more cakes or loaves of bread. The bread he gave me, but the water
|
|
he carried to his father. However, as I was very thirsty too, I took a
|
|
little sip of it. This water revived his father more than all the
|
|
rum or spirits I had given him, for he was just fainting with thirst.
|
|
When his father had drank, I called to him to know if there was
|
|
any water left. He said, "Yes;" and I bade him give it to the poor
|
|
Spaniard, who was in as much want of it as his father; and I sent
|
|
one of the cakes, that Friday brought, to the Spaniard, too, who was
|
|
indeed very weak, and was reposing himself upon a green place under
|
|
the shade of a tree; and whose limbs were also very stiff, and very
|
|
much swelled with the rude bandage he been tied with. When I saw
|
|
that upon Friday's coming to him with the water he sat up and drank,
|
|
and took the bread, and began to eat. I went to him, and gave him a
|
|
handful of raisins. He looked up in my face with all the tokens of
|
|
gratitude and thankfulness that could appear in any countenance; but
|
|
was so weak, notwithstanding he had so exerted himself in the fight,
|
|
that he could not stand up upon his feet. He tried to do it two or
|
|
three times, but was really not able, his ankles were so swelled and
|
|
so painful to him; so I bade him sit still, and caused Friday to rub
|
|
his ankles, and bathe them with rum, as he had done his father's.
|
|
I observed the poor affectionate creature, every two minutes, or
|
|
perhaps less, all the while he was here, turn his head about to see if
|
|
his father was in the same place and posture as he left him sitting;
|
|
and at last he found he was not to be seen; at which he started up,
|
|
and without speaking a word, flew with that swiftness to him, that one
|
|
could scarce perceive his feet to touch the ground as he went. But
|
|
when he came, he only found he had laid himself down to ease his
|
|
limbs; so Friday came back to me presently, and I then spoke to the
|
|
Spaniard to let Friday help him up, if he could, and lead him to the
|
|
boat, and then he should carry him to our dwelling, where I would take
|
|
care of him. But Friday, a lusty strong fellow, took the Spaniard
|
|
quite up upon his back, and carried him away to the boat, and set
|
|
him down softly upon the side of gunnel of the canoe, with his feet in
|
|
the inside of it, and then lifted him quite in, and set him close to
|
|
his father; and presently stepping out again, launched the boat off,
|
|
and paddled it along the shore faster than I could walk, though the
|
|
wind blew pretty hard, too. So he brought them both safe into our
|
|
creek, and leaving them in the boat, runs away to fetch the other
|
|
canoe. As he passed me, I spoke to him, and asked him whither he went.
|
|
He told me, "Go fetch more boat." So away he went like the wind, for
|
|
sure never man or horse ran like him; and he had the other canoe in
|
|
the creek almost as soon as I got to it by land; so he waf ted me
|
|
over, and then went to help our new guests out of the boat, which he
|
|
did; but they were neither of them able to walk, so that poor Friday
|
|
knew not what to do.
|
|
To remedy this I went to work in my thought, and calling to Friday
|
|
to bid them sit down on the bank while he came to me, I soon made a
|
|
kind of hand-barrow to lay them on, and Friday and I carried them up
|
|
both together upon it between us. But when we got them to the
|
|
outside of our wall, or fortification, we were at a worse loss than
|
|
before, for it was impossible to get them over, and I was resolved not
|
|
to break it down. So I set to work again; and Friday and I, in about
|
|
two hours' time, made a very handsome tent, covered with old sails,
|
|
and above that with boughs of trees, being in the space without our
|
|
outward fence, and between that and the grove of young wood which I
|
|
had planted; and here we made them two beds of such things as I had,
|
|
viz., of good rice-straw, with blankets laid upon it to lie on, and
|
|
another to cover them, on each bed.
|
|
My island was now peopled, and I thought myself very rich in
|
|
subjects; and it was a merry reflection, which I frequently made,
|
|
how like a king I looked. First of all, the whole country was my own
|
|
mere property, so that I had an undoubted right of dominion. Secondly,
|
|
my people were perfectly subjected. I was absolute lord and
|
|
lawgiver; they all owned their lives to me, and were ready to lay down
|
|
their lives, if there had been occasion of it, for me. It was
|
|
remarkable, too, we had but three subjects, and they were of three
|
|
different religions. My man Friday was a Protestant, his father was
|
|
a pagan and a cannibal, and the Spaniard was a papist. However, I
|
|
allowed liberty of conscience throughout my dominions. But this is
|
|
by the way.
|
|
As soon as I had secured my two weak rescued prisoners, and given
|
|
them shelter and a place to rest them upon, I began to think of making
|
|
some provision for them; and the first thing I did, I ordered Friday
|
|
to take a yearling goat, betwixt a kid and a goat, out of my
|
|
particular flock, to be killed; when I cut off the hinder-quarter, and
|
|
chopping it into small pieces. I set Friday to work to boiling and
|
|
stewing, and made them a very good dish, I assure you, of flesh and
|
|
broth, having put some barley and rice also into the broth; and as I
|
|
cooked it without doors, for I made no fire within my inner wall, so I
|
|
carried it all into the new tent, and having set a table there for
|
|
them, I sat down and ate my own dinner also with them, and as well
|
|
as I could cheered them, and encouraged them; Friday being my
|
|
interpreter, especially to his father, and, indeed, to the Spaniard
|
|
too; for the Spaniard spoke the language of the savages pretty well.
|
|
After we had dined, or rather supped, I ordered Friday to take one
|
|
of the canoes and go and fetch our muskets and other fire-arms, which,
|
|
for want of time, we had left upon the place of battle; and the next
|
|
day I ordered him to go and bury the dead bodies of the savages,
|
|
whch lay open to the sun, and would presently be offensive; and I also
|
|
ordered him to bury the horrid remains of their barbarous feast, which
|
|
I knew were pretty much, and which I could not think of doing
|
|
myself; nay, I could not bear to see them, if I went that way. All
|
|
which he punctually performed, and defaced the very appearance of
|
|
the savages being there; so that when I went again I could scarce know
|
|
where it was, otherwise than by. the corner of the wood pointing to
|
|
the place.
|
|
I then began to enter into a little conversation with my two new
|
|
subjects; and first, I set Friday to inquire of his father what he
|
|
thought of the escape of the savages in that canoe, and whether we
|
|
might expect a return of them, with a power too great for us to
|
|
resist. His first opinion was, that the savages in the boat never
|
|
could live out the storm which blew that night they went off, but
|
|
must, of necessity, be drowned, or driven south to those other shores,
|
|
where they were as sure to be devoured as they were to be drowned if
|
|
they were cast away. But as to what they would do if they came safe on
|
|
shore, he said he knew not; but it was his opinion that they were so
|
|
dreadfully frightened with the manner of their being attacked, the
|
|
noise, and the fire, that he believed they would tell their people
|
|
they were all killed by thunder and lightning, not by the. hand of
|
|
man; and that the two which appeared, viz., Friday and me, were two
|
|
heavenly spirits, or furies, come down to destroy them, and not men
|
|
with weapons. This, he said, he knew, because he heard them all cry
|
|
out so in their language to one another; for it was impossible to them
|
|
to conceive that a man could dart fire, and speak thunder, and kill at
|
|
a distance without lifting up the hand, as was done now. And this
|
|
old savage was in the right; for, as I understood since by other
|
|
hands, the savages never attempted to go over to the island
|
|
afterwards. They were so terrified with the accounts given by those
|
|
four men (for, it seems, they did escape the sea) that they believed
|
|
whoever went to that enchanted island would be destroyed with fire
|
|
from the gods.
|
|
This however, I knew not, and therefore was under continual
|
|
apprehensions for a good while, and kept always upon my guard, me
|
|
and all my army; for as we were now four of us, I would have
|
|
ventured upon a hundred of them, fairly in the open field, at any
|
|
time.
|
|
In a little time, however, no more canoes appearing, the fear of
|
|
their coming wore off, and I began to take my former thoughts of a
|
|
voyage to the main into consideration; being likewise assured by
|
|
Friday's father that I might depend upon good usage from their nation,
|
|
on his account, if I would go.
|
|
But my thoughts were a little suspended when I had a serious
|
|
discourse with the Spaniard, and when I understood that there were
|
|
sixteen more of his countrymen and Portuguese, who, having been cast
|
|
away, and made their escape to that side, lived there at peace,
|
|
indeed, with the savages, but were very sore put to it for
|
|
necessaries, and indeed for life. I asked him all the particulars of
|
|
their voyage, and found they were a Spanish ship bound from the Rio de
|
|
la Plata to the Havana, being directed to leave their loading there,
|
|
which was chiefly hides and silver, and to bring back what European
|
|
goods they could meet with there; that they had five Portuguese seamen
|
|
on board, whom they took out of another wreck; that five of their
|
|
own men were drowned when the first ship was lost, and that these
|
|
escaped, through infinite dangers and hazards, and arrived, almost
|
|
starved, on the cannibal coast, where they expected to have been
|
|
devoured every moment.
|
|
He told me they had some arms with them, but they were perfectly
|
|
useless, for that they had neither powder nor ball, the washing of the
|
|
sea having spoiled all their powder but a little, which they used,
|
|
at their first landing, to provide themselves some food.
|
|
I asked him what he thought would become of them there, and if
|
|
they had formed no design of making any escape. He said they had
|
|
many consultations about it; but that having neither vessel, or
|
|
tools to build one, or provisions of any kind, their councils always
|
|
ended in tears and despair.
|
|
I asked him how he thought they would receive a proposal from me,
|
|
which might tend towards an escape; and whether, if they were all
|
|
here, it might not be done. I told him with freedom, I feared mostly
|
|
their treachery and ill-usage of me if I put my life in their hands;
|
|
for that gratitude was no inherent virtue in the nature of man, nor
|
|
did men always square their dealings by the obligations they had
|
|
received, so much as they did by the advantages they expected. I
|
|
told him it would be very hard that I should be the instrument of
|
|
their deliverance, and that they should afterwards make me their
|
|
prisoner in New Spain, where an Englishman was certain to be made a
|
|
sacrifice, what necessity or what accident soever brought him thither;
|
|
and that I had rather be delivered up to the savages, and be
|
|
devoured alive, than fall into the merciless claws of the priests, and
|
|
be carried into the Inquisition. I added, that otherwise I was
|
|
persuaded, if they were all here, we might, with so many hands,
|
|
build a bark large enough to carry us all away, either to the Brazils,
|
|
southward, or to the islands, or Spanish coast, northward; but that
|
|
if, in requital, they should when I had put weapons into their
|
|
hands, carry me by force among their own people, I might be ill used
|
|
for my kindness to them, and make my case worse than it was before.
|
|
He answered, with a great deal of candor and ingenuity, that their
|
|
condition was so miserable, and they were so sensible of it, that he
|
|
believed they would abhor the thought of using any man unkindly that
|
|
should contribute to their deliverance; and that, if pleased, he would
|
|
go to them with the old man, and discourse with them about it, and
|
|
return again, and bring me their answer; that he would make conditions
|
|
with them upon their solemn oath that they should be absolutely
|
|
under my leading, as their commander and captain; and that they should
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swear upon the holy sacraments and the gospel to be true to me, and to
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go to such Christian country as that I should agree to, and no
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other, and to be directed wholly and absolutely by my orders till they
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were landed safely in such country as I intended; and that he would
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bring a contract from them, under their hands, for that purpose.
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Then he told me he would first swear to me himself that he would
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never stir from me as long as he lived till I gave him orders; and
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that he would take my side to the last drop of his blood, if there
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should happen the least breach of faith among his countrymen.
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He told me they were all of them very civil, honest men, and they
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were under the greatest distress imaginable, having neither weapons
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nor clothes, nor any food, but at the mercy and discretion of the
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savages; out of all hopes of ever returning to their own country;
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and that he was sure, if I would undertake their relief, they would
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live and die by me.
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Upon these assurances, I resolved to venture to relieve them, if
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possible, and to send the old savage and this Spaniard over to them to
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treat. But when we had gotten all things in a readiness to go, the
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Spaniard himself started an objection, which had so much prudence in
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it on one hand, and so much sincerity on the other hand, that I
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could not but be very well satisfied in it, and by his advice put
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off the deliverance of his comrades for at least half a year. The case
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was thus:
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He had been with us now about a month, during which time I had let
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him see in what manner I had provided, with the assistance of
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Providence, for my support; and he saw evidently what stock of corn
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and rice I had laid up; which, as it was more than sufficient for
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myself, so it was not sufficient, at least without good husbandry, for
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my family, now it was increased to number four; but much less would it
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be sufficient if his countrymen, who were, as he said, fourteen, still
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alive, should come over; and least of all would it be sufficient to
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victual our vessel, if we should build one for a voyage to any of
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the Christian colonies of America. So he told me he thought it would
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be more advisable to let him and the two others dig and cultivate some
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more land, as much as I could spare seed to sow; and that we should
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wait another harvest, that we might have a supply of corn for his
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countrymen when they should come; for want might be a temptation to
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them to disagree, or not to think themselves delivered, otherwise than
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out of one difficulty into another. "You know," says he, "the children
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of Israel, though they rejoiced at first for their being delivered out
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of Egypt, yet rebelled even against God Himself, that delivered
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them, when they came to want bread in the wilderness."
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His caution was so reasonable, and his advice so good, that I
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could not but be very well pleased with his proposal, as well as I was
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satisfied with his fidelity. So we fell to digging all four of us,
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as well as the wooden tools we were furnished with permitted; and in
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about a month's time, by the end of which it was seed-time, we had
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gotten as much land cured and trimmed up as we sowed twenty-two
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bushels of barley on, and sixteen jars of rice; which was, in short,
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all the seed we had to spare; nor, indeed, did we leave ourselves
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barley sufficient for our own food for the six months that we had to
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expect our crop; that is to say, reckoning from the time we set our
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seed aside for sowing; for it is not to be supposed it is six months
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in the ground in that country.
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Having now society enough, and our numbers being sufficient to put
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us out of fear of the savages, if they had come, unless their number
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had-been very great, we went freely all over the island, wherever we
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found occasion; and as here we had our escape or deliverance upon
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our thoughts, it was impossible, at least for me, to have the means of
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it out of mine. To this purpose, I marked out several trees which I
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|
thought fit for our work, and I set Friday and his father to cutting
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them down; and then I caused the Spaniard, to whom I imparted my
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|
thought on that affair, to oversee and direct their work. I showed
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them with what indefatigable pains I had hewed a large tree into
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single planks, and I caused them to do the like, till they had made
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about a dozen large planks of good oak, near two feet broad,
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thirty-five feet long, and from two inches to four inches thick.
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What prodigious labor it took up, any one may imagine.
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At the same time I contrived to increase my little flock of tame
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goats as much as I could; and to this purpose I made Friady and the
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Spaniard go out one day, and myself with Friday the next day, for we
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took our turns, and by this means we got above twenty young kids to
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breed up with the rest; for whenever we shot the dam, we saved the
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kids, and added them to our flock. But above all, the season for
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curing the grapes coming on, I caused such a prodigious quantity to be
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hung up in the sun, that I believe had we been at Alicant, where the
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raisins of the sun are cured, we could have filled sixty or eighty
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barrels; and these, with our bread, was a great part of our food,
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and very good living too, I assure you; for it is an exceeding
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nourishing food.
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|
It was now harvest, and our crop in good order. It was not the
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|
most plentiful increase I had seen in the island, but however, it
|
|
was enough to answer our end; for from our twenty-two bushels of
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|
barley we brought in and thrashed out above two hundred and twenty
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|
bushels, and the like in proportion of the rice; which was store
|
|
enough for our food to the next harvest, though all the sixteen
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|
Spaniards had been on shore with me; or if we had been ready for a
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|
voyage, it would very plentifully have victualled our ship to have
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|
carried us to any part of the world, that is to say, of America.
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|
When we had thus housed and secured our magazine of corn, we fell to
|
|
work to make more wicker-work, viz., great baskets, in which we kept
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|
it; and the Spaniard was very handy and dextrous at this part, and
|
|
often blamed me that I did not make some things for defence of this
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|
kind of work; but I saw no need of it.
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|
And now having a full supply of food for all the guests I
|
|
expected, I gave the Spaniard leave to go over to the main, to see
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|
what he could do with those he had left behind him there. I gave him
|
|
strict charge in writing not to bring any man with him who would not
|
|
first swear, in the presence of himself and of the old savage, that he
|
|
would no way injure, fight with, or attack the person he should find
|
|
in the island, who was so kind to send for them in order to their
|
|
deliverance; but that they would stand by and defend him against all
|
|
such attempts, and they went would be entirely under and subjected
|
|
to his commands; and that this should be put in writing, and signed
|
|
with their hands. How we were to have this done, when I knew they
|
|
had neither pen nor ink, that indeed was a question which we never
|
|
asked.
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|
Under these instructions, the Spaniard and the old savage, the
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|
father of Friday, went away in one of the canoes which they might be
|
|
said to come in, or rather were brought in, when they came as
|
|
prisoners to be devoured by the savages.
|
|
I gave each of them a musket, with a firelock on it, and about eight
|
|
charges of powder and ball, charging them to be very good husbands
|
|
of both, and not to use either of them but upon urgent occasion.
|
|
This was a cheerful work, being the first measures used by me, in
|
|
view of my deliverance, for now twenty-seven years and some days. I
|
|
gave them provisions of bread and of dried grapes sufficient for
|
|
themselves for many days, and sufficient for all their countrymen
|
|
for about eight days' time; and wishing them a good voyage, I see them
|
|
go, agreeing with them about a signal they should hang out at their
|
|
return, by which I should know them again, when they came back, at a
|
|
distance, before they came on shore.
|
|
They went away with a fair gale on the day that the moon was at
|
|
full, by my account in the month of October, but as for an exact
|
|
reckoning of days, after I had once lost it, I could never recover
|
|
it again; nor had I kept even the number of years so punctually as
|
|
to be sure that I was right, though as it proved, when I afterwards
|
|
examined my account, I found I had kept a true reckoning of years.
|
|
It was no less than eight days I had waited for them, when a strange
|
|
and unforeseen accident intervened, of which the like has not
|
|
perhaps been heard of in history. I was fast asleep in my hutch one
|
|
morning, when my man Friday came running in to me, and called aloud,
|
|
"Master, master, they are come, they are come!"
|
|
I jumped up, and regardless of danger, I went out as soon as I could
|
|
get my clothes on, through my little grove, which, by the way, was
|
|
by this time grown to be a very thick wood; I say, regardless of
|
|
danger, I went without my arms, which was not my custom to do; but I
|
|
was surprised when, turning my eyes to the sea, I presently saw a boat
|
|
at about a league and half's distance standing in for the shore,
|
|
with a shoulder-of-mutton sail, as they call it, and the wind
|
|
blowing pretty fair to bring them in; also I observed presently that
|
|
they did not come from that side which the shore lay on, but from
|
|
the southernmost end of the island. Upon this I called Friday in,
|
|
and bid him lie close, for these were not the people we looked for,
|
|
and that we might not know yet whether they were friends or enemies.
|
|
In the next place, I went in to fetch my perspective-glass, to see
|
|
what I could make of them; and having taken the ladder out, I
|
|
climbed up to the top of the hill, as I used to do when I was
|
|
apprehensive of anything, and to take my view the plainer, without
|
|
being discovered.
|
|
I had scarce set my foot on the hill, when my eye plainly discovered
|
|
a ship lying at an anchor at about two leagues and a half's distance
|
|
from me, south-southeast, but not above a league and a half from the
|
|
shore. By my observation, it appeared plainly to be an English ship,
|
|
and the boat appeared to be an English longboat.
|
|
I cannot express confusion I was in; though the joy of seeing a
|
|
ship, and one who I had reason to believe was manned by my own
|
|
countrymen, and consequently friends, was such as I cannot describe.
|
|
But yet I had some secret doubts hung about me, I cannot tell from
|
|
whence they came, bidding me keep upon my guard. In the first place,
|
|
it occurred to me to consider what business an English ship could have
|
|
in that part of the world, since it was not the way to or from any
|
|
part of the world where the English had any traffic; I knew there
|
|
had been no storms to drive them in there, as in distress; and that if
|
|
they were English really, it was most probable that they were here
|
|
upon no good design, and that I had better continue as I was than fall
|
|
into the hands of thieves and murderers.
|
|
Let no man despise he secret hints and notices of danger which
|
|
sometimes are given him when he may think there is no possibility of
|
|
its being real. That such hints and notices are given us, I believe
|
|
few that have made any observations of things can deny; that they
|
|
are certain discoveries of an invisible world, and a converse of
|
|
spirits, we cannot doubt; and if the tendency of them seems to be warn
|
|
us of danger, why should we not suppose they are from some friendly
|
|
agent, whether surperme, or inferior and subordinate, is not the
|
|
question, and that they are given for our good?
|
|
The present question abundantly confirms me in the justice of this
|
|
reasoning; for had I not been made cautious by this secret admonition,
|
|
come it from whence it will, I had been undone inevitably, and in a
|
|
far worse condition than before, as you will see presently.
|
|
I had not kept myself long in this posture, but I saw the boat
|
|
draw near the shore, as if they looked for a creek to thrust in at,
|
|
for the convenience of landing. However, as they did not come quite
|
|
far enough, they did not see the little inlet where I formerly
|
|
landed my rafts; but run their boat on shore upon the beach, at
|
|
about half a mile from me, which was very happy for me; for
|
|
otherwise they would have landed just, as I may say, at my door, and
|
|
would soon have beaten me out of my castle, and perhaps have plundered
|
|
me of all I had.
|
|
When they were on shore, I was fully satisfied that they were
|
|
Englishmen, at least most of them; one or two I thought were Dutch,
|
|
but it did not prove so. There were in all eleven men, whereof three
|
|
of them I found were unarmed, and, as I thought, bound; and when the
|
|
first four or five of them were jumped on shore, they took those three
|
|
out of the boat, as prisoners. One of the three I could perceive using
|
|
the most passionate gestures of entreaty, affliction, and despair,
|
|
even to a kind of extravagance; the other two, I could perceive,
|
|
lifted up their hands sometimes, and appeared concerned indeed, but
|
|
not to such a degree as the first.
|
|
I was perfectly confounded at the sight, and knew not what the
|
|
meaning of it should be. Friday called out to me in English as well as
|
|
he could, "O master! you see English mans eat prisoner as well as
|
|
savage mans." "Why," says I, "Friday, do you think they are agoing
|
|
to eat them then?" "Yes," says Friday, "they will eat them." "No, no,"
|
|
says I, "Friday, I am afraid they will murder them indeed, but you may
|
|
be sure they will not eat them."
|
|
All this while I had no thought of what the matter really was, but
|
|
stood trembling with the horror of the sight, expecting every moment
|
|
when the three prisoners should be killed; nay, once I saw one of
|
|
the villains lift up his arm with a great cutlass, as the seamen
|
|
call it, or sword, to strike one of the poor men; and I expected to
|
|
see him fall every moment, at which all the blood in my body seemed to
|
|
run chill in my veins.
|
|
I wished heartily now for my Spaniard, and the savage that was
|
|
gone with him; or that I had any way to have come undiscovered
|
|
within shot of them, that I might have rescued the three men, for I
|
|
saw no fire-arms they had among them; but it fell out to my mind
|
|
another way.
|
|
After I had observed the outrageous usage of the three men by the
|
|
insolent seamen, I observed the fellows run scattering about the land,
|
|
as if they wanted to see the country. I observed that the three
|
|
other men had liberty to go also where they pleased; but they sat down
|
|
all three upon the ground, very pensive, and looked like men in
|
|
despair.
|
|
This put me in mind of the first time when I came on shore, and
|
|
began to look about me; how I gave myself over for lost; how wildly
|
|
I looked round me; what dreadful apprehensions I had; and how I lodged
|
|
in the tree all night, for fear of being devoured by wild beasts.
|
|
As I knew nothing that night of the supply I was to receive by the
|
|
providential driving of the ship nearer the land by the storms and
|
|
tide, by which I have since been so long nourished and supported; so
|
|
these three poor desolate men knew nothing how certain of
|
|
deliverance and supply they were, how near it was to them, and how
|
|
effectually and really they were in a condition of safety, at the same
|
|
time that they thought themselves lost, and their case desperate.
|
|
So little do we see before us in the world, and so much reason
|
|
have we to depend cheerfully upon the great Maker of the world, that
|
|
He does not leave His creatures so absolutely destitute, but that,
|
|
in the worst circumstances, they have always something to be
|
|
thankful for, and sometimes are nearer their deliverance than they
|
|
imagine; nay, are even brought to their deliverance by the means by
|
|
which they seem to be brought to their destruction.
|
|
It was just at the top of high-water when these people came on
|
|
shore; and while partly they stood parleying with the prisoners they
|
|
brought, and partly while they rambled about to see what kind of a
|
|
place they were in, they had carelessly stayed till the tide was
|
|
spent, and the water was ebbed considerably away, leaving their boat
|
|
aground.
|
|
They had left two men in the boat, who, as I found afterwards,
|
|
having drank a little too much brandy, fell asleep. However, one of
|
|
them waking sooner than the other, and finding the boat too fast
|
|
aground for him to stir it, hallooed for the rest, who were straggling
|
|
about, upon which they all soon came to the boat; but it was past
|
|
all their strength to launch her, the boat being very heavy, and the
|
|
shore on that side being a soft oozy sand, almost like a quicksand.
|
|
In this condition, like true seamen, who are perhaps the least of
|
|
all mankind given to forethought, they gave it over, and away they
|
|
strolled about the country again; and I heard one of them say aloud to
|
|
another, calling them off from the boat, "Why, let her alone, Jack,
|
|
can't ye? she will float next tide;" by which I was fully confirmed in
|
|
the main inquiry of what countrymen they were.
|
|
All this while I kept myself very close, not once daring to stir out
|
|
of my castle, any farther than to my place of observation near the top
|
|
of the hill; and very glad I was to think how well it was fortified. I
|
|
knew it was no less than often hours before the boat could be on float
|
|
again, and by that time it would be dark, and I might be at more
|
|
liberty to see their motions, and to hear their discourse, if they had
|
|
any.
|
|
In the meantime, I fitted myself up for a battle, as before,
|
|
though with more caution, knowing I had to do with another kind of
|
|
enemy than I had at first. I ordered Friday also, whom I had an
|
|
excellent marksman with his gun, to load himself with arms. I took
|
|
myself two fowling-pieces, and I gave him three muskets. My figure,
|
|
indeed, was very fierce. I had my formidable goat-skin coat on, with
|
|
the great cap I have mentioned, a naked sword by my side, two
|
|
pistols in my belt, and a gun upon each shoulder.
|
|
It was my design, as I said above, not to have made any attempt till
|
|
it was dark; but about two o'clock, being the heat of the day, I found
|
|
that, in short, they were all gone straggling into the woods, and,
|
|
as I thought, were laid down to sleep. The three poor distressed
|
|
men, too anxious for their condition to get any sleep, were,
|
|
however, set down under the shelter of a great tree, at about a
|
|
quarter of a mile from me, and, as I thought, out of sight of any of
|
|
the rest.
|
|
Upon this I resolved to discover myself to them, and learn something
|
|
of their condition. Immediately I marched in the figure as above, my
|
|
man Friday at a good distance behind me, as formidable for his arms as
|
|
I, but not making quite so staring a spectre-like figure as I did.
|
|
I came as near them undiscovered as I could, and then, before any of
|
|
them saw me, I called aloud to them in Spanish, "What are ye,
|
|
gentlemen?"
|
|
They started up at the noise, but were often times more confounded
|
|
when they saw me, and the uncouth figure that I made. They made no
|
|
answer at all, but I thought I perceived them just going to fly from
|
|
me, when I spoke to them in English. "Gentlemen," said I, "do not be
|
|
surprised at me; perhaps you may have a friend near you, when you
|
|
did not expect it." "He must be sent directly from heaven, then," said
|
|
one of them very gravely to me, and pulling off his hat at the same
|
|
time to me, "for our condition is past the help of man." "All help
|
|
is from heaven, sir," said I. "But can you put a stranger in the way
|
|
how to help you, for you seem to me to be in some great distress? I
|
|
saw you when you landed; and when you seemed to make applications to
|
|
the brutes that came with you, I saw one of them lift up his sword
|
|
to kill you."
|
|
The poor man, with tears running down his face, and trembling,
|
|
looking like one astonished, returned, "Am I talking to God, or man?
|
|
Is it a real man, or an angel?" "Be in no fear about that, sir,"
|
|
said I. "If God had sent an angel to relieve you, he would have come
|
|
better clothed, and armed after another manner than you see me in.
|
|
Pray lay aside your fears; I am a man, an Englishman, and disposed
|
|
to assist you, you see. I have one servant only; we have arms and
|
|
ammunition; tell us freely, can we serve you? What is your case?"
|
|
"Our case," said he, "sir, is too long to tell you while our
|
|
murderers are so near; but in short, sir, I was commander of that
|
|
ship; my men have mutinied against me, they have been hardly prevailed
|
|
on not to murder me; and at last have set me on shore in this desolate
|
|
place, with these two men with me, one my mate, the other a passenger,
|
|
where we expected to perish, believing the place to be uninhabited,
|
|
and know not yet what to think of it."
|
|
"Where are those brutes, your enemies?" said I. "Do you know where
|
|
they are gone?" "There they lie, sir," said he, pointing to a
|
|
thicket of trees. "My heart trembles for fear they have seen us, and
|
|
heard you speak. If they have, they will certainly murder us all."
|
|
"Have they any fire-arms?" said I. He answered they had only two
|
|
pieces, and one which they left in the boat. "Well then," said I,
|
|
"leave the rest to me, I see they are all asleep; it is an easy
|
|
thing to kill them all; but shall we rather take them prisoners?" He
|
|
told me there were two desperate villains among them that it was
|
|
scarce safe to show any mercy to; but if they were secured, he
|
|
believed all the rest would return to their duty. I asked him which
|
|
they were. He told me he could not at that distance describe them, but
|
|
he would obey my order in anything I would direct. "Well," says I,
|
|
"let us retreat out of their view or hearing, lest they awake, and
|
|
we will resolve further." So they willingly went back with me, till
|
|
the woods covered us from them.
|
|
"Look you, sir," said I, "if I venture upon your deliverance, are
|
|
you willing to make two conditions with me?" He anticipated my
|
|
proposals by telling me that both he and the ship, if recovered,
|
|
should be wholly directed and commanded by me in everything; and if
|
|
the ship was not recovered he would live and die with me in what
|
|
part of the world soever I would send him; and the two other men
|
|
said the same.
|
|
"Well," says I, "my conditions are but two. 1. That while you stay
|
|
on this island with me, you will not pretend to any authority here;
|
|
and if I put arms into your hands, you will, upon all occasions,
|
|
give them up to me, and do no prejudice to me or mine upon this
|
|
island; and in the meantime be governed by my orders. 2. That if the
|
|
ship is, or may be, recovered, you will carry me and my man to
|
|
England, passage free."
|
|
He gave me all the assurances that the invention and faith of man
|
|
could devise that he would comply with these most reasonable
|
|
demands; and, besides, would owe his life to me, and acknowledge it
|
|
upon all occasions, as long as lived.
|
|
"Well then," said I, "here are three muskets for you, with powder
|
|
and ball; tell me next what you think is proper to be done." He showed
|
|
all the testimony of his gratitude that he was able, but offered to be
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|
wholly guided by me. I told him I thought it was hard venturing
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anything; but the best method I could think of was to fire upon them
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at once, as they lay; and if any was not killed at the first volley,
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and offered to submit, we might save them, and so put it wholly upon
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God's providence to direct the shot.
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He said very modestly that he was loth to kill them if he could help
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it, but that those two were incorrigible villains, and had been the
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authors of all the mutiny in the ship, and if they escaped, we
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should be undone still; for they would go on board and bring the whole
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ship's company, and destroy us all. "Well then," says I, "necessity
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legitimates my advice, for it is the only way to save our lives."
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However, seeing him still cautious of shedding blood, I told him
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they should go themselves, and manage as they found convenient.
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In the middle of this discourse we heard some of them awake, and
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soon after we saw two of them on their feet. I asked him if either
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of them were of the men who he had said were the heads of the
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mutiny. He said, "No." "Well then," said I, "you may let them
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escape; and Providence seems to have wakened them on purpose to save
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themselves. Now," says I, "if the rest escape you, it is your fault."
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Animated with this, he took the musket I had given him in his
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hand, and a pistol in his belt, and his two comrades with him, with
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each man a piece in his hand. The two men who were with him going
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first made some noise, at which one of the seamen who was awake turned
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about, and seeing them coming cried out to the rest; but it was too
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late then, for the moment he cried out they fired, I mean the two men,
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the captain wisely reserving his own piece. They had so well aimed
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their shot at the men they knew, that one of them was killed on the
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spot, and the other very much wounded; but not being dead, he
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started up upon his feet, and called eagerly for help to the other.
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But the captain stepping to him, told him It was too late to cry for
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help, he should call upon God to forgive his villainy; and with that
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word knocked him down with the stock of his musket, so that he never
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spoke more. There were three more in the company, and one of them
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was also slightly wounded. By this time I was come; and when they
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saw their danger, and that it was in vain to resist, they begged for
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mercy. The captain told them he would spare their lives if they
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would give him any assurance of their abhorrence of the treachery they
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had been guilty of, and would swear to be faithful him in recovering
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the ship, and afterwards in carrying her back to Jamaica, from
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whence they came. They gave him all the protestations of their
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sincerity that could be desired, and he was willing to believe them,
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and spare their lives, which I was not against, only I obliged him
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to keep them bound hand and foot while they were upon the island.
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While this was doing, I sent Friday with the captain's mate to the
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boat, with orders to secure her, and bring away the oars and sail,
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which they did; and by and by three straggling men that were
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(happily for them) parted from the rest, came back upon hearing the
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guns fired; and seeing their captain, who before was their prisoner,
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now their conqueror, they submitted to be bound also, and so our
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victory was complete.
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It now remained that the captain and I should inquire into one
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another's circumstances. I began first, and told him my whole history,
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|
which he heard with an attention even to amazement; and particularly
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|
at the wonderful manner of my being furnished with provisions and
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ammunition; and, indeed, as my story is a whole collection of wonders,
|
|
it affected him deeply. But when he reflected from thence upon
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himself, and how I seemed to have been preserved there on purpose to
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save his life, the tears ran down his face, and he could not speak a
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|
word more.
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After this communication was at an end I carried him and his two men
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into my apartment, leading them in just where I came out, viz., at the
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top of the house, where I refreshed them with such provisions as I
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had, and showed them all the contrivances I had made during my long,
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long inhabiting that place.
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All I showed them, all I said to them, was perfectly amazing; but
|
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above all, the captain admired my fortification, and how perfectly I
|
|
had concealed my retreat with a grove of trees, which, having been now
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|
planted near twenty years, and the trees growing much faster than in
|
|
England, was become a little wood, and so thick that it was unpassable
|
|
in any part of it but at that one side where I had reserved my
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|
little winding passage into it. I told him this was my castle and my
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|
residence, but that I had a seat in the country, as most princes have,
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|
whither I could retreat upon occasion, and I would show him that, too,
|
|
another time; but at present our business was to consider how to
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|
recover the ship. He agreed with me as to that, but told me he was
|
|
perfectly at a loss what measures to take, for that there were still
|
|
six and twenty hands on board, who having entered into a cursed
|
|
conspiracy, by which-they had all forfeited their lives to the law,
|
|
would be hardened in it now by desperation, and would carry it on,
|
|
knowing that if they were reduced they should be brought to the
|
|
gallows as soon as they came to England, or to any of the English
|
|
colonies; and that therefore there would be no attacking them with
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|
so small a number as we were.
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|
I mused for some time upon what he said, and found it was a very
|
|
rational conclusion, and that therefore something was to be resolved
|
|
on very speedily, as well to draw the men on board into some snare for
|
|
their surprise as to prevent their landing upon us, and destroying us.
|
|
Upon this it presently occurred to me that in a while the ship's crew,
|
|
wondering what was become of their comrades and of the boat, would
|
|
certainly come on shore in their other boat to see for them; and
|
|
that then, perhaps, they might come armed, and be too strong for us.
|
|
This he allowed was rational.
|
|
Upon this, I told him the first thing we had to do was to stave
|
|
the boat, which lay upon the beach, so that they might not carry her
|
|
off; and taking everything out of her, leave her so far useless as not
|
|
to be fit to swim. Accordingly we went on board, took the arms which
|
|
were left on board out of her, and whatever else we found there, which
|
|
was a bottle of brandy, and another of rum, a few biscuit-cakes, a
|
|
horn of powder, and a great lump of sugar in a piece of canvas- the
|
|
sugar was five or six pounds; all which was very welcome to me,
|
|
especially the brandy and sugar, of which I had had none left for many
|
|
years.
|
|
When we had carried all these things on shore (the oars, mast, sail,
|
|
and rudder of the boat were carried away before, as above), we knocked
|
|
a great hole in her bottom that if they had come strong enough to
|
|
master us, yet they could not carry off the boat.
|
|
Indeed, it was not much in my thoughts that we could be able to
|
|
recover the ship; but my view was, that if they went away without
|
|
the boat I did not much question to make her fit again to carry us
|
|
away to the Leeward Islands, and call upon our friends the Spaniards
|
|
in my way; for I had them still in my thoughts.
|
|
While we were thus preparing our designs, and had first, by main
|
|
strength, heaved the boat up upon the beach so high that the tide
|
|
would not fleet her off at high-water mark; and besides, had broke a
|
|
hole in her bottom too big to be quickly stopped, and were sat down
|
|
musing what we should do, we heard the ship fire a gun, and saw her
|
|
make a waft with her ancient as a signal for the boat to come on
|
|
board. But no boat stirred; and they fired several times, making other
|
|
signals for the boat.
|
|
At last, when all their signals and firings proved fruitless, and
|
|
they found the boat did not stir, we saw them, by the help of my
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|
glasses, hoist another boat out, and row towards the shore; and we
|
|
found, as they approached, that there was no less than often men in
|
|
her, and that they had fire-arms with them.
|
|
As the ship lay almost two leagues from the shore, we had a full
|
|
view of them" as they came, and a plain sight of the men, even of
|
|
their faces; because the tide having set them a little to the east
|
|
of the other boat, they rowed up under shore, to come to the same
|
|
place where the other had landed, and where the boat lay.
|
|
By this means, I say, we had a full view of them, and the captain
|
|
knew the persons and characters of all the men in the boat, of whom he
|
|
said that there were three very honest fellows, who, he was sure, were
|
|
led into this conspiracy by the rest, being overpowered and
|
|
frighted; but that was for the boatswain who, it seems, was the
|
|
chief officer among them, and all the rest, they were as outrageous as
|
|
any of the ship's crew, and were no doubt made desperate in their
|
|
new enterprise; and terribly apprehensive he was that they would be
|
|
too powerful for us.
|
|
I smiled at him, and told him that men in our circumstances were
|
|
past the operation of fear; that seeing almost every condition that
|
|
could be was better than that which we were supposed to be in, we
|
|
ought to expect that the consequence, whether death or life, would
|
|
be sure to be a deliverance. I asked him what he thought of the
|
|
circumstances of my life, and whether a deliverance were not worth
|
|
venturing for. "And where, sir," said I, "is your belief of my being
|
|
preserved here on purpose to save your life, which elevated you a
|
|
little while ago? For my part," said I, "there seems to be but one
|
|
thing amiss in all the prospect of it." "What's that?" says he. "Why,"
|
|
said I, It is that, as you say, there are three or four honest fellows
|
|
among them which should be spared; had they been all of the wicked
|
|
part of the crew I should have thought God's providence had singled
|
|
them out to deliver them into your hands; for depend upon it, every
|
|
man of them that comes ashore are our own, and shall die or live as
|
|
they behave to us."
|
|
As I spoke this with a raised voice and cheerful countenance, I
|
|
found it greatly encouraged him; so we set vigorously to our business.
|
|
We had, upon the first appearance of the boat's coming from the
|
|
ship, considered of separating our prisoners, and had, indeed, secured
|
|
them effectually.
|
|
Two of them, of whom the captain was less assured than ordinary, I
|
|
sent with Friday and one of the three delivered men to my cave,
|
|
where they were remote enough, and out of danger of being heard or
|
|
discovered, or of finding their way out of the woods, if they could
|
|
have delivered themselves. Here they left them bound, but gave them
|
|
provisions, and promised them, if they continued there quietly, to
|
|
give them their liberty in a day or two; but that if they attempted
|
|
their escape, they should be put to death without mercy. They promised
|
|
faithfully to bear their confinement with patience, and were very
|
|
thankful that they had such good usage as to have provisions and a
|
|
light left them; for Friday gave them candles (such as we made
|
|
ourselves) for their comfort; and they did not know but that he
|
|
stood sentinel over them at the entrance.
|
|
The other prisoners had better usage. Two of them were kept
|
|
pinioned, indeed, because the captain was not free to trust them;
|
|
but the other two were taken into my service, upon the captain's
|
|
recommendation, and upon their solemnly engaging to live and die
|
|
with us; so with them and the three honest men we were seven men
|
|
well armed; and I made no doubt we should be able to deal well
|
|
enough with the ten that were a-coming, considering that the Captain
|
|
had said there were three or four honest men among them also.
|
|
As soon as they got to the place where their other boat lay, they
|
|
ran their boat into the beach, and came all on shore, hauling the boat
|
|
up after them, which I was glad to see; for I was afraid they would
|
|
rather have left the boat at an anchor some distance from the shore,
|
|
with some hands in her to guard her, and so we should not be able to
|
|
seize the boat.
|
|
Being on shore, the first thing they did they ran all to their other
|
|
boat; and it was easy to see that they were under a great surprise
|
|
to find her, stripped, as above, of all that was in her, and a great
|
|
hole in her bottom.
|
|
After they had mused a while upon this, they set up two or three
|
|
great shouts, hallooing with all their might, to try if they could
|
|
make their companions hear; but all was to no purpose. Then they
|
|
came all close in a ring, and fired a volley of their small-arms,
|
|
which, indeed, we heard, and the echoes made the woods ring. But it
|
|
was all one; those in the cave we were sure could not hear, and
|
|
those in our keeping, though they heard it well enough, yet durst give
|
|
no answer to them.
|
|
They were so astonished at the surprise of this, that, as they
|
|
told us afterwards, they resolved to go all on board again, to their
|
|
ship, and let them know there that the men were all murdered, and
|
|
the longboat staved. Accordingly, they immediately launched their boat
|
|
again, and got all of them on board.
|
|
The captain was terribly amazed, and even confounded at this,
|
|
believing they would go on board the ship again, and set sail,
|
|
giving their comrades for lost, and so he should still lose the
|
|
ship, which he was in hopes we should have recovered; but he was
|
|
quickly as much frighted the other way.
|
|
They had not been long put off with the boat but we perceived them
|
|
all coming on shore again; but with this new measure in their conduct,
|
|
which it seems they consulted together upon, viz., to leave three
|
|
men in the boat, and the rest to go on shore, and go up into the
|
|
country to look for their fellows.
|
|
This was a great disappointment to us, for now we were at a loss
|
|
what to do; for our seizing those seven men on shore would be no
|
|
advantage to us if we let the boat escape, because they would then row
|
|
away to the ship, and then the rest of them would be sure to weigh and
|
|
set sail, and so our recovering the ship would be lost. However, we
|
|
had no remedy but to wait and see what the issue of things might
|
|
present. The seven men came on shore, and the three who remained in
|
|
the boat put her off to a good distance from the shore, and came to an
|
|
anchor to wait for them; so that it was impossible for us to come at
|
|
them in the boat.
|
|
Those that came on shore kept close together, marching towards the
|
|
top of the little hill under which my habitation lay; and we could see
|
|
them plainly, though they could not perceive us. We could have been
|
|
very glad they would have come nearer to us, so that we might have
|
|
fired at them, or that they would have gone farther off, that we might
|
|
have come abroad.
|
|
But when they were come to the brow of the hill, where they could
|
|
see a great way into the valleys and woods which lay towards the
|
|
northeast part, and where the island lay lowest, they shouted and
|
|
hallooed till they were weary; and not caring, it seems, to venture
|
|
far from the shore, nor far from one another, they sat down together
|
|
under a tree, to consider of it. Had they thought fit to have gone
|
|
to sleep there, as the other party of them had done, they had done the
|
|
job for us; but they were too full of apprehensions of danger to
|
|
venture to go to sleep, though they could not tell what the danger was
|
|
they had to fear neither.
|
|
The captain made a very just proposal to me upon this consultation
|
|
of theirs, viz., that perhaps they would all fire a volley again, to
|
|
endeavor to make their fellows hear, and that we should all sally upon
|
|
them, just at the juncture when their pieces were all discharged,
|
|
and they would certainly yield, and we should have them without
|
|
bloodshed. I liked the proposal, provided it was done while we were
|
|
near enough to come up to them before they could load their pieces
|
|
again.
|
|
But this event did not happen, and we lay still a long time, very
|
|
irresolute what course to take. At length I told them there would be
|
|
nothing to be done, in my opinion, till night; and then, if they did
|
|
not return to the boat, perhaps we might find a way to get between
|
|
them and the shore, and so might use some stratagem with them in the
|
|
boat to get them on shore.
|
|
We waited a great while, though very impatient for their removing;
|
|
and were very uneasy when, after long consultations, we saw them start
|
|
all up, and march down towards the sea. It seems they had such
|
|
dreadful apprehensions upon them of the danger of the place that
|
|
they resolved to go on board the ship again, give their companions
|
|
over for lost, and so go on with their intended voyage with the ship.
|
|
As soon as I perceived them go towards the shore, I imagined it to
|
|
be, as it really was, that they had given over their search, and
|
|
were for going back again; and the captain, as soon as I told him my
|
|
thoughts, was ready to sink at the apprehensions of it; but I
|
|
presently thought of a stratagem to fetch them back again, and which
|
|
answered my end to a tittle.
|
|
I ordered Friday and the captain's mate to go over the little
|
|
creek westward, towards the place where the savages came on shore when
|
|
Friday was rescued, and as soon as they came to a little rising
|
|
ground, at about half a mile distance. I bade them halloo as loud as
|
|
they could, and wait till they found the seamen heard them; that as
|
|
soon as ever they heard the seamen answer them, they should return
|
|
it again; and then keeping out of sight, take a round, always
|
|
answering when the other hallooed, to draw them as far into the
|
|
island, and among the woods, as possible, and then wheel about again
|
|
to me by such ways as I directed them.
|
|
They were just going into the boat when Friday and the mate
|
|
hallooed; and they presently heard them, and answering, run along
|
|
the shore westward, towards the voice they heard, when they were
|
|
presently stopped by the creek, where the water being up, they could
|
|
not get over, and called for the boat to come up and set them over,
|
|
as, indeed, I expected.
|
|
When they hid set themselves over, I observed that the boat being
|
|
gone up a good way into the creek, and, as it were, in a harbor within
|
|
the land, they took one of the three men out of her to go along with
|
|
them, and left only two in the boat, having fastened her to the
|
|
stump of a little tree on the shore.
|
|
This was what I wished for; and immediately leaving Friday and the
|
|
captain's mate to their business, I took the rest with me, and
|
|
crossing the creek out of their sight, we surprised the two men before
|
|
they were aware; one of them lying on shore, and the other being in
|
|
the boat. The fellow on shore was between sleeping and waking, and
|
|
going to start up. The captain, who was foremost, ran in upon him, and
|
|
knocked him down, and then called out to him in the boat to yield,
|
|
or he was a dead man.
|
|
There needed very few arguments to persuade a single man to yield
|
|
when he saw five men upon him, and his comrade knocked down;
|
|
besides, this was, it seems, one of the three who were not so hearty
|
|
in the mutiny as the rest of the crew, and therefore was easily
|
|
persuaded, not only to yield, but afterwards to join very sincerely
|
|
with us.
|
|
In the meantime, Friday and the captain's mate so well managed their
|
|
business with the rest, that they drew them, by hallooing and
|
|
answering, from one hill to another, and from one wood to another,
|
|
till they not only heartily tired them, but left them where they
|
|
were very sure they could not reach back to the boat before it was
|
|
dark; and, indeed, they were heartily tired themselves also by the
|
|
time they came back to us.
|
|
We had nothing now to do but to watch for them in the dark, and to
|
|
fall upon them, so as to make sure work with them.
|
|
It was several hours after Friday came back to me before they came
|
|
back to their boat; and we could hear the foremost of them, long
|
|
before they came quite up, calling to those behind to come along,
|
|
and could also hear them answer and complain how lame and tired they
|
|
were, and not able to come any faster; which was very welcome to us.
|
|
At length they came up to the boat; but It is impossible to
|
|
express their confusion when they found the boat fast aground in the
|
|
creek, the tide ebbed out, and their two men gone. We could hear
|
|
them call to one another in a most lamentable manner, telling one
|
|
another they were gotten into an enchanted island; that either there
|
|
were inhabitants in it, and they should all be murdered, or else there
|
|
were devils and spirits in it, and they should all be carried away and
|
|
devoured.
|
|
They hallooed again, and called their two comrades by their names
|
|
a great many times; but no answer. After some time we could see
|
|
them, by the little light there was, run about, wringing their hands
|
|
like men in despair, and that sometimes they would go and sit down
|
|
in the boat to rest themselves; then come ashore again and walk
|
|
about again, and so the same thing over again.
|
|
My men would fain have me give them leave to fall upon them at
|
|
once in the dark; but I was willing to take them at some advantage, so
|
|
to spare them, and kill as few of them as I could; and especially I
|
|
was unwilling to hazard the killing any of our own men, knowing the
|
|
other were very well armed. I resolved to wait, to see if they did not
|
|
separate; and, therefore, to make sure of them, I drew my ambuscade
|
|
nearer, and ordered Friday and the captain to creep upon their hands
|
|
and feet, as close to the ground as they could, that they might not be
|
|
discovered, and get as near them as they could possibly, before they
|
|
offered to fire.
|
|
They had not been long in that posture but that the boatswain, who
|
|
was the principal ringleader of the mutiny, and had now shown
|
|
himself the most dejected and dispirited of all the rest, came walking
|
|
towards them, with two more of their crew. The captain was so eager,
|
|
as having this principal rogue so much in his power that he could
|
|
hardly have patience to let him come so near as to be sure of him, for
|
|
they only heard his tongue before, but when they came nearer, the
|
|
captain and Friday, starting up on their feet, let fly at them.
|
|
The boatswain was killed upon the spot; the next man was shot into
|
|
the body, and fell just by him, though he did not die till an hour
|
|
or two after; and the third ran for it.
|
|
At the noise of the fire I immediately advanced with my whole
|
|
army, which was now eight men, viz., myself, generalissimo, Friday, my
|
|
lieutenant-general; the captain and his two men, and the three
|
|
prisoners of war, whom we had trusted with arms.
|
|
We came upon them, indeed, in the dark, so that they could not see
|
|
our number; and I made the man we had left in the boat, who was now
|
|
one of us, call to them by name, to try if I could bring them to a
|
|
parley, and so might perhaps reduce them to terms, which fell out just
|
|
as we desired; for indeed it was easy to think, as their condition
|
|
then was, they would be very willing to capitulate. So he calls out as
|
|
loud as he could to one of them, "Tom Smith! Tom Smith!" Tom Smith
|
|
answered immediatelys "Who's that? Robinson?" For it seems he knew his
|
|
voice. The other answered, "Ay, ay; for God's sake, Tom Smith, throw
|
|
down your arms and yield, or you are all dead men this moment."
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|
"Who must we yield to? What are they?" says Smith again. "Here
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they are," says he; "here's our captain and fifty men with him, have
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been hunting you this two hours; the boatswain is killed, Will Frye is
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wounded, and I am a prisoner; and if you do not yield, you are all
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lost."
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"Will they give us quarter, then," says Tom Smith, "and we will
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yield?" "I'll go and ask, if you promise to yield," says Robinson.
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So he asked the captain, and the captain then calls himself out, "You,
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Smith, you know my voice, if you lay down your arms immediately and
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submit, you shall have your lives, all but Will Atkins."
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Upon this Will Atkins cried out, "For God's sake, captain, give me
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quarter; what have I done? They have been all as bad as I;" which,
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by the way, was not true neither; for it seems this Will Atkins was
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the first man that laid hold of the captain when they first
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mutinied, and used him barbarously, in tying his hands, and giving him
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injurious language. However, the captain told him he must lay down his
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arms at discretion, and trust to the governor's mercy; by which he
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meant me, for they all called me governor.
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In a word, they all laid down their arms, and begged their lives;
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and I sent the man that had parleyed with them and two more, who bound
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them all; and then my great army of fifty men, which, particularly
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with those three, were all but eight, came up and seized upon them
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all, and upon their boat; only that I kept myself and one more out
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of sight for reasons of state.
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Our next work was to repair the boat, and think of seizing the ship;
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and as for the captain, now he had leisure to parley with them, he
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expostulated with them upon the villainy of their practices with
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him, and at length upon the farther wickedness of their design, and
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how certainly it must bring them to misery and distress in the end,
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and perhaps to the gallows.
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They all appeared very penitent, and begged hard for their lives. As
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for that, he told them they were none of his prisoners, but the
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commander of the island; that they thought they had set him on shore
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in a barren, uninhabited island; but it had pleased God so to direct
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them that the island was inhabited, and that the governor was an
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Englishman; that he might hang them all there, if he pleased; but as
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he had given them all quarter, he supposed he would send them to
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England, to be dealt with there as justice required, except Atkins,
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whom he was commanded by the governor to advise to prepare for
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death, for that he would be hanged in the morning.
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Though this was all a fiction of his own, yet it had its desired
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effect. Atkins fell upon his knees, to beg the captain to intercede
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with the governor for his life; and all the rest begged of him, for
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God's sake, that they might not be sent to England.
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It now occurred to me that the time of our deliverance was come, and
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that it would be a most easy thing to bring these fellows in to be
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hearty in getting possession of the ship; so I retired in the dark
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from them, that they might not see what kind of a governor they had,
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and called the captain to me. When I called, as at a good distance,
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one of the men was ordered to speak again, and say to the captain,
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"Captain, the commander calls for you." And presently the captain
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replied, "Tell his excellency I am just a-coming." This more perfectly
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amused them, and they all believed that the commander was just by with
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his fifty men.
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Upon the captain's coming to me, I told him my project for seizing
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the ship, which he liked of wonderfully well, and resolved to put it
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in execution the next morning. But in order to execute it with more
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|
art, and secure of success, I told him we must divide the prisoners,
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and that they should go and take Atkins and two more of the worst of
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them, and send them pinioned to the cave where the others lay. This
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was committed to Friday and the two men who came on shore with the
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captain.
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They conveyed them to the cave, as to a prison. And it was,
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indeed, a dismal place, especially to men in their condition. The
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others I ordered to my bower, as I called it, of which I have given
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a full description; and as it was fenced in, and they pinioned, the
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place was secure enough, considering they were upon their behavior.
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|
To these in the morning I sent the captain, who was to enter into
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a parley with them; in a word, to try them, and tell me whether he
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|
thought they might be trusted or not to go on board and surprise the
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|
ship. He talked to them of the injury done him, of the condition
|
|
they were brought to; and that though the governor had given them
|
|
quarter for their lives as to the present action, yet that if they
|
|
were sent to England they would also he hanged in chains, to be
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|
sure; but that if they would join so just an attempt as to recover the
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|
ship, he would have the governor's engagement for their pardon.
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|
Any one may guess how readily such a proposal would be accepted by
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|
men in their condition. They fell down on their knees to the
|
|
captain, and promised, with the deepest imprecations, that they
|
|
would be faithful to him to the last drop, and that they should owe
|
|
their lives to him, and would go with him all over the world; that
|
|
they would own him for a father to them as long as they lived.
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|
"Well," says the captain, "I must go and tell the governor what
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|
you say, and see what I can do to bring him to consent to it." So he
|
|
brought me an account of the temper he found them in, and that he
|
|
verily believed they would be faithful.
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|
However, that we might be very secure, I told him he should go
|
|
back again and choose out five of them, and tell them they might see
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|
that he did not want men, that he would take out those five to be
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|
his assistants, and that the governor would keep the other two and the
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|
three that were sent prisoners to the castle, my cave, as hostages for
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|
the fidelity of those five; and that if they proved unfaithful in
|
|
the execution, the five hostages should be hanged in chains alive upon
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|
the shore.
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|
This looked severe, and convinced them that the governor was in
|
|
earnest. However, they had no way left them but to accept it; and it
|
|
was now the business of the prisoners, as much as of the captain, to
|
|
persuade the other five to do their duty.
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|
Our strength was now thus ordered for the expedition. 1. The
|
|
captain, his mate, and passenger. 2. Then the two prisoners of the
|
|
first gang, to whom, having their characters from the captain, I had
|
|
given their liberty, and trusted them with arms. 3. The other two whom
|
|
I had kept till now in my bower, pinioned, but upon the captain's
|
|
motion had now released. 4. These five released at last; so that
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|
they were twelve in all, besides five we kept prisoners in the cave
|
|
for hostages.
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|
I asked the captain if he was willing to venture with these hands on
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|
board the ship; for as for me and my man Friday, I did not think it
|
|
was proper for us to stir, having seven men left behind, and it was
|
|
employment enough for us to keep them asunder and supply them with
|
|
victuals. As to the five in the cave, I resolved to keep them fast;
|
|
but Friday went in twice a day to them, to supply them with
|
|
necessaries, and I made the other two carry provisions to a certain
|
|
distance, where Friday was to take it.
|
|
When I showed myself to the two hostages, it was with the captain,
|
|
who told them I was the person the governor had ordered to look
|
|
after them, and that it was the governor's pleasure they should not
|
|
stir anywhere but by my direction; that if they did, they should be
|
|
fetched into the castle, and be laid in irons; so that as we never
|
|
suffered them to see me as governor, so I now appeared as another
|
|
person, and spoke of the governor, the garrison, the castle, and the
|
|
like, upon all occasions.
|
|
The captain now had no difficulty before him but to furnish his
|
|
two boats, stop the breach of one, and man them. He made his passenger
|
|
captain of one, with four other men; and himself, and his mate, and
|
|
five more went in the other; and they contrived their business very
|
|
well, for they came up to the ship about midnight. As soon as they
|
|
came within call of the ship, he made Robinson hail them, and tell
|
|
them they had brought off the men and the boat, but that it was a long
|
|
time before they had found them, and the like, holding them in a
|
|
chat till they came to the ship's side; when the captain and the
|
|
mate entering first, with their arms, immediately knocked down the
|
|
second mate and carpenter with the butt-end of their muskets, being
|
|
very faithfully seconded by their men. They secured all the rest
|
|
that were upon the main and quarter decks, and began to fasten the
|
|
hatches to keep them down who were below; when the other boat and
|
|
their men entering at the fore-chains, secured the forecastle of the
|
|
ship, and the scuttle which went down into the cook-room, making three
|
|
men they found there prisoners.
|
|
When this was done, and all safe upon deck, the captain ordered
|
|
the mate, with three men, to break into the round-house, where the new
|
|
rebel captain lay, and having taken the alarm was gotten up, and
|
|
with two men and a boy had gotten fire-arms in their hands; and when
|
|
the mate with a crow split open the door, the new captain and his
|
|
men fired boldly among them, and wounded the mate with a
|
|
musket-ball, which broke his arm, and wounded two more of the men, but
|
|
killed nobody.
|
|
The mate calling for help, rushed, however, into the round-house
|
|
wounded as he was, and with his pistol shot the new captain through
|
|
the head, the bullet entering at his mouth and came out again behind
|
|
one of his ears, so that he never spoke a word; upon which the rest
|
|
yielded, and the ship was taken effectually, without any more lives
|
|
lost.
|
|
As soon as the ship was thus secured, the captain ordered seven guns
|
|
to be fired, which was the signal agreed upon with me to give me
|
|
notice of his success, which you may be sure I was very glad to
|
|
hear, having sat watching upon the shore for it till near two of the
|
|
clock in the morning.
|
|
Having thus heard the signal plainly, I laid me down; and it
|
|
having been a day of great fatigue to me I slept very sound, till I
|
|
was something surprised with the noise of a gun; and presently
|
|
starting up, I heard a man call me by the name of "Governor,"
|
|
"Governor," and presently I knew the captain's voice; when climbing up
|
|
to the top of the hill, there he stood, and pointing to the ship he
|
|
embraced me in his arms. "My dear friend and deliverer," says he,
|
|
"there's your ship, for she is all yours, and so are we, and all
|
|
that belong to her." I cast my eyes to the ship, and there she rode
|
|
within little more than half a mile of the shore; for they had weighed
|
|
her anchor as soon as they were masters of her, and the weather
|
|
being fair had brought her to an anchor just against the mouth of
|
|
the little creek, and the tide being up, the captain had brought the
|
|
pinnace in near the place where I at first landed my rafts, and so
|
|
landed just at my door.
|
|
I was at first ready to sink down with the surprise; for I saw my
|
|
deliverance, indeed, visibly put into my hands, all things easy, and a
|
|
large ship just ready to carry me away whither I pleased to go. At
|
|
first, for some time, I was not able to answer him one word; but as he
|
|
had taken me in his arms, I held fast by him, or I should have
|
|
fallen to the ground.
|
|
He perceived the surprise, and immediately pulls a bottle out of his
|
|
pocket, and gave me a dram of cordial, which he had brought on purpose
|
|
for me. After I had drank it, I sat down upon the ground; and though
|
|
it brought me to myself, yet it was a good while before I could
|
|
speak a word to him.
|
|
All this while the poor man was in as great an ecstasy as I, only
|
|
not under any surprise, as I was; and he said a thousand kind,
|
|
tender things to me, to compose me and bring me to myself. But such
|
|
was the flood of joy in my breast that it put all my spirits into
|
|
confusion. At last it broke out into tears, and in a little while
|
|
after I recovered my speech.
|
|
Then I took my turn, and embraced him as my deliverer, and we
|
|
rejoiced together. I told him I looked upon him as a man sent from
|
|
heaven to deliver me, and that the whole transaction seemed to be a
|
|
chain of wonders; that such things as these were the testimonies we
|
|
had of a secret hand of Providence governing the world, and an
|
|
evidence that the eyes of an infinite Power could search into the
|
|
remotest corner of the world, and send help to the miserable
|
|
whenever He pleased.
|
|
I forgot not to lift up my heart in thankfulness to heaven; and what
|
|
heart could forbear to bless Him, who had not only in a miraculous
|
|
power provided for one in such a wilderness, and in such a desolate
|
|
condition, but from whom every deliverance must always be acknowledged
|
|
to proceed?
|
|
When we had talked a while, the captain told me he had brought me
|
|
some little refreshment, such as the ship afforded, and such as the
|
|
wretches that had been so long his masters had not plundered him of.
|
|
Upon this he called aloud to the boat, and bid his men bring the
|
|
things ashore that were for the governor; and, indeed, it was a
|
|
present as if I had been one, not that was to be carried away along
|
|
with them, but as if I had been to dwell upon the island still, and
|
|
they were to go without me.
|
|
First, he had brought me a case of bottles full of excellent cordial
|
|
waters, six large bottles of Madeira wine (the bottles held two quarts
|
|
a-piece), two pounds of excellent good tobacco, twelve good pieces
|
|
of the ship's beef, and six pieces of pork, with a bag of peas, and
|
|
about a hundredweight of biscuit.
|
|
He brought me also a box of sugar, a box of flour, a bag full of
|
|
lemons, and two bottles of lime-juice, and abundance of other
|
|
things; but besides these, and what was a thousand times more useful
|
|
to me, he brought me six clean new shirts, six very good
|
|
neck-cloths, two pair of gloves, one pair of shoes, a hat, and one
|
|
pair of stockings, and a very good suit of clothes of his own, which
|
|
had been worn but very little; in a word, he clothed me from head to
|
|
foot.
|
|
It was a very kind and agreeable present, as any one may imagine, to
|
|
one in my circumstances; but never was anything in the world of that
|
|
kind so unpleasant, awkward, and uneasy, as it was to me to wear
|
|
such clothes at their first putting on.
|
|
After these ceremonies passed, and after all his good things were
|
|
brought into my little apartment, we began to consult what was to be
|
|
done with the prisoners we had; for it was worth considering whether
|
|
we might venture to take them away with us or no, especially two of
|
|
them, whom we knew to be incorrigible and refractory to the last
|
|
degree; and the captain said he knew they were such rogues that
|
|
there was no obliging them; and if he did carry them away, it must
|
|
be in irons, as malefactors, to be delivered over to justice at the
|
|
first English colony he could come at; and I found that the captain
|
|
himself was very anxious about it.
|
|
Upon this I told him that, if he desired it, I durst undertake to
|
|
bring the two men he spoke of to make it their own request that he
|
|
should leave them upon the island. "I should be very glad of that,"
|
|
says the captain, "with all my heart."
|
|
"Well," says I, "I will send for them up, and talk with them for
|
|
you." So I cause Friday and the two hostages, for they were now
|
|
discharged, their comrades having performed their promise; I say, I
|
|
cause them to go to the cave and bring up the five men, pinioned as
|
|
they were, to the bower, and keep them there till I came.
|
|
After some time I came thither, dressed in my new habit; and now I
|
|
was called governor again. Being all met, and the captain with me, I
|
|
caused the men to be brought before me, and I told them I had had a
|
|
full account of their villainous behavior to the captain, and how they
|
|
had run away with the ship, and were preparing to commit farther
|
|
robberies, but that Providence had ensnared them in their own ways,
|
|
and that they were fallen into the pit which they had digged for
|
|
others.
|
|
I let them know that by my direction the ship had been seized,
|
|
that she lay now in the road, and they might see, by and by, that
|
|
their new captain had received the reward of his villainy, for that
|
|
they might see him hanging at the yardarm; that as to them, I wanted
|
|
to know what they had to say why I should not execute them as pirates,
|
|
taken in the fact, as by my commission they could not doubt I had
|
|
authority to do.
|
|
One of them answered in the name of the rest that they had nothing
|
|
to say but this, that when they were taken the captain promised them
|
|
their lives, and they humbly implored my mercy. But I told them I knew
|
|
no what mercy to show them; for as for myself, I had resolved to
|
|
quit the island with all my men, and had taken passage with the
|
|
captain to go for England. And as for the captain, he could not
|
|
carry them to England other than as prisoners in irons, to be tried
|
|
for mutiny, and running away with the ship; the consequence of
|
|
which, they must needs know, would be the gallows; so that I could not
|
|
tell which was best for them, unless they had a mind to take their
|
|
fate in the island. If they desired that, I did not care, as I had
|
|
liberty to leave it. I had some inclination to give them their
|
|
lives, if they thought they could shift on shore.
|
|
They seemed very thankful for it, said they would much rather
|
|
venture to stay there than to be carried to England to be hanged; so I
|
|
left it on that issue.
|
|
However, the captain seemed to make some difficulty of it, as if
|
|
he durst not leave them there. Upon this I seemed a little angry
|
|
with the captain, and told him that they were my prisoners, not his;
|
|
and that seeing I had offered them so much favor, I would be as good
|
|
as my word; and that if he did not think fit to consent to it, I would
|
|
set them at liberty, as I found them; and if he did not like it, he
|
|
might take them again if he could catch them.
|
|
Upon this they appeared very thankful, and I accordingly set them at
|
|
liberty, and bade them retire into the woods to the place whence
|
|
they came, and I would leave them some fire-arms, some ammunition, and
|
|
some directions how they should live very will, if they thought fit.
|
|
Upon this I prepared to go on board the ship, but told the captain
|
|
that I would stay that night to prepare my things, and desired him
|
|
to go on board in the meantime, and keep all right in the ship, and
|
|
send the boat on shore the next day for me; ordering him, in the
|
|
meantime, to cause the new captain, who was killed, to be hanged at
|
|
the yard-arm, that these men might see him.
|
|
When the captain was gone, I sent for the men up to me to my
|
|
apartment, and entered seriously into discourse with them of their
|
|
circumstances. I told them I thought they had made a right choice;
|
|
that if the captain carried them away, they would certainly be hanged.
|
|
I showed them the new captain hanging at the yard-arm of the ship, and
|
|
told them they had nothing less to expect.
|
|
When they had all declared their willingness to stay, I then told
|
|
them I would let them into the story of my living there, and put
|
|
them into the way of making it easy to them. Accordingly I gave them
|
|
the whole history of the place, and of my coming to it, showed them my
|
|
fortifications, the way I made my bread, planted my corn, cured my
|
|
grapes; and in a word, all that was necessary to make them easy. I
|
|
told them the story also of the sixteen Spaniards that were to be
|
|
expected, for whom I left a letter, and made them promise to treat
|
|
them in common with themselves.
|
|
I left them my fire-arms, viz., five muskets, three
|
|
fowling-pieces, and three swords. I had above a barrel and half of
|
|
powder left; for after the first year or two I used but little, and
|
|
wasted none. I gave them a description of the way I managed the goats,
|
|
and directions to milk and fatten them, and to make both butter and
|
|
cheese.
|
|
In a word, I gave them every part of my own story, and I told them I
|
|
would prevail with the captain to leave them two barrels of
|
|
gunpowder more, and some garden seeds, which I told them I would
|
|
have been very glad of. Also I gave them the bag of peas which the
|
|
captain had brought me to eat, and bade them be sure to sow and
|
|
increase them.
|
|
Having done all this, I left them the next day, and went on board
|
|
the ship. We prepared immediately to sail, but did not weigh that
|
|
night. The next morning early two of the five men came swimming to the
|
|
ship's side, and making a most lamentable complaint of the other
|
|
three, begged to be taken into the ship for God's sake, for they
|
|
should be murdered, and begged the captain to take them on board,
|
|
though he hanged them immediately.
|
|
Upon this the captain pretended to have no power without me; but
|
|
after some difficulty, and after their solemn promises of amendment,
|
|
they were taken on board, and were some time after soundly whipped and
|
|
pickled, after which they proved very honest and quiet fellows.
|
|
Some time after this the boat was ordered on shore, the tide being
|
|
up, with the things promised to the men, to which the captain, at my
|
|
intercession, caused their chests and clothes to be added, which
|
|
they took, and were very thankful for. I also encouraged them by
|
|
telling them that if it lay in my way to send any vessel to take
|
|
them in, I would not forget them.
|
|
When I took leave of this island, I carried on board, for relics,
|
|
the great goat-skin cap I had made, my umbrella, and my parrot; also I
|
|
forgot not to take the money I formerly mentioned, which had lain me
|
|
so long useless that it was grown rusty or tarnished, and could
|
|
hardly; as also the money I found in the wreck of the Spanish ship.
|
|
And thus I left the island, the 19th of December, as I found by
|
|
the ship's account, in the year 1686, after I had been upon it eight
|
|
and twenty years, two months, and nineteen days, being delivered
|
|
from this second captivity the same day of the month that I first made
|
|
my escape in the barco-longo, from among the Moors of Sallee.
|
|
In this vessel, after a long voyage, I arrived in England, the
|
|
11th of June, in the year 1687, having been thirty and five years
|
|
absent.
|
|
When I came to England I was a perfect a stranger to all the world
|
|
as if I had never been known there. My benefactor and faithful
|
|
steward, whom I had left in trust with my money, was alive, but had
|
|
had great misfortunes in the world, was become a widow the second
|
|
time, and very low in the world. I made her easy as to what she owed
|
|
me, assuring her that I would give her no trouble; but on the
|
|
contrary, in gratitude to her former care and faithfulness to me, I
|
|
relieved her as my little stock would afford; which, at that time,
|
|
would indeed allow me to do but little for her; but I assured her I
|
|
would never forget her former kindness to me, nor did I forget her
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when I had sufficient to help her, as shall be observed in its place.
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I went down afterwards into Yorkshire; but my father was dead, and
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my mother and all the family extinct, except that I found two sisters,
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and two of the children of one of my brothers; and as I had been
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long ago given over for dead, there had been no provision made for me;
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so that, in a word, I found nothing to relieve or assist me; and
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that little money I had would not do much for me as to settling in the
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world.
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I met with one piece of gratitude, indeed, which I did not expect;
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and this was, that the master of the ship whom I had so happily
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delivered, and by the same means saved the ship and cargo, having
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given a very handsome account to the owners of the manner how I had
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saved the lives of the men, and the ship, they invited me to meet
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them, and some other merchants concerned, and all together made me a
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very handsome compliment upon the subject, and a present of almost
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L200 sterling.
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But after making several reflections upon the circumstances of my
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life, and how little way this would go towards settling me in the
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world, I resolved to go to Lisbon, and see if I might not come by some
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information of the state of my plantation in the Brazils, and of
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what was become of my partner, who I had reason to suppose had some
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years now given me over for dead.
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With this view I took shipping for Lisbon, where I arrived in
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April following; my man Friday accompanying me very honestly in all
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these ramblings, and proving a most faithful servant upon all
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occasions.
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When I came to Lisbon, I found out, by inquiry, and to my particular
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satisfaction, my old friend, the captain of the ship who first took me
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up at sea off the shore of Africa. He was now grown old, and had
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left off the sea, having put his son, who was far from a young man,
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into his ship, and who still used the Brazil trade. The old man did
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not know me; and, indeed, I hardly knew him; but I soon brought him to
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my remembrance, and as soon brought myself to his remembrance when I
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told him who I was.
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After some passionate expressions of the old acquaintance, I
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inquired, you may be sure, after my plantation and my partner. The old
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man told me he had not been in the Brazils for about nine years; but
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that he could assure me that, when he came away, my partner was
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living; but the trustees, whom I had joined with him to take
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cognizance of my part, were both dead. That, however, he believed that
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I would have a very good account of the improvement of the plantation;
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for that upon the general belief of my being cast away and drowned, my
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trustees had given in the account of the produce of my part of the
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plantation to the procurator-fiscal, who had appropriated it, in
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case I never came to claim it, one-third to the king, and two-thirds
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to the monastery of St. Augustine, to be expended for the benefit of
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the poor, and for the conversion of the Indians to the Catholic faith;
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but that if I appeared, or any one for me, to claim the inheritance,
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it should be restored; only that the improvement or annual production,
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being distributed to charitable uses, could not be restored. But he
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assured me that the steward of the king's revenue from lands, and
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the provedidore, or steward of the monastery, had taken great care all
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along that the incumbent, that is to say, my partner, gave every
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year a faithful account of the produce, of which they received duly my
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moiety.
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I asked him if he knew to what height of improvement he had
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brought the plantation, and whether he thought it might be worth
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looking after; or whether, on my going thither, I should meet with
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no obstruction to my possessing my just right in the moiety.
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He told me he could not tell exactly to what degree the plantation
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was improved; but this he knew, that my partner was grown exceeding
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rich upon the enjoying but one-half of it; and that, to the best of
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his remembrance, he had heard that the king's third of my part,
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which was, it seems, granted away to some other monastery or religious
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house, amounted to above two hundred moidores a year. That as to my
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being restored to a quiet possession of it, there was no question to
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be made of that, my partner being alive to witness my title, and my
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name being also enrolled in the register of the country. Also he
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told me that the survivors of my two trustees were very fair, honest
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people, and very wealthy; and he believed I would not only have
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their assistance for putting me in possession, but would find a very
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considerable sum of money in their hands for my account, being the
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produce of the farm while their father held the trust, and before it
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was given up, as above; which, as he remember, was for about twelve
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years.
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I showed myself a little concerned and uneasy at this account, and
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inquired of the old captain how it came to pass that the trustees
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should thus dispose my effects, when he knew that I had made my
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will, and had made him, the Portuguese captain, my universal heir, &c.
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He told me, that was true; but that as there was no proof of my
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being dead, he could not act as executor until some certain account
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|
should come of my death; and that besides, he was not willing to
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intermeddle with a thing so remote; that it was true he had registered
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my will, and put in his claim; and could he have given any account
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of my being dead or alive, he would have acted by procuration, and
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taken possession of the ingenio, so they called the sugar-house, and
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had given his son, who was now at the Brazils, order to do it.
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"But," says the old man, "I have one piece of news to tell you,
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which perhaps may not be so acceptable to you as the rest; and that
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is, that believing you were lost, and all the world believing so also,
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your partner and trustees did offer to account to me, in your name,
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for six or eight of the first years of profits, which I received;
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but there being at that time," says he, "great disbursements for
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|
increasing the works, building an ingenio, and buying slaves, it did
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|
not amount to near so much as afterwards it produced. However," says
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the old man, "I shall give you a true account of what I have
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received in all, and how I have disposed of it."
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After a few days' farther conference with this ancient friend, he
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brought me an account of the six first years' income of my plantation,
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signed by my partner and the merchant-trustees, being always delivered
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in goods, viz., tobacco in roll, and sugar in chests, besides rum,
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|
molasses, etc. which is the consequence of a sugar-work; and I
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|
found, by this account, that every year the income considerably
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|
increased; but, as above, the disbursement being large, the sum at
|
|
first was small. However, the old man let me see that he was debtor to
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|
me 470 moidores of gold, besides 60 chests of sugar, and 15 double
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|
rolls of tobacco, which were lost in his ship, he having been
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|
shipwrecked coming home to Lisbon, about eleven years after my leaving
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the place.
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|
The good man then began to complain of his misfortunes, and how he
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|
had been obliged to make use of my money to recover his losses, and
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|
buy him a share in a new ship. "However, my old friend," says he, "you
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|
shall not want a supply in your necessity; and as soon as my son
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|
returns, you shall be fully satisfied."
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|
Upon this he pulls out an old pouch, and gives me 160 Portugal
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|
moidores in gold; and giving me the writing of his title to the
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|
ship, which his son was gone to the Brazils in, of which he was a
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|
quarter-part owner, and his son another, he puts them both into my
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|
hands for security of the rest.
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|
I was too much moved with the honesty and kindness of the poor man
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|
to be able to bear this; and remembering what he had done for me,
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|
how he had taken me up at sea, and how generously he had used me on
|
|
all occasions, and particularly how sincere a friend he was now to me,
|
|
I could hardly refrain weeping at what he said to me; therefore
|
|
first I asked him in his circumstances admitted him to spare so much
|
|
money at that time, and if it would not straiten him. He told me he
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|
could not say but it might straiten him a little; but, however, it was
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|
my money, and I might want it more than he.
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|
Everything the good man said was full of affection, and I could
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|
hardly refrain from tears while he spoke; in short, I took 100 of
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|
the moidores, and called for a pen and ink to give him a receipt for
|
|
them. Then I returned him the rest, and told him if ever I had
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|
possession of the plantation, I would return the other to him also,
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|
as, indeed, I afterwards did; and that as to the bill of sale of his
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|
part in his son's ship, I would not take it by any means; but that
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|
if I wanted the money, I found he was honest enough to pay me; and
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|
if I did not, but came to receive what he gave me reason to expect,
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|
I would never have a penny more from him.
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|
When this was passed, the old man began to ask me if he should put
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|
me into a method to make my claim to my plantation. I told him I
|
|
thought to go over it myself. He said I might do so if I pleased;
|
|
but that if I did not, there were ways enough to secure my right,
|
|
and immediately to appropriate the profits to my use; and as there
|
|
were ships in the river of Lisbon just ready to go away to Brazil,
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|
he made me enter my name in a public register, with his affidavit,
|
|
affirming, upon oath, that I was alive, and that I was the same person
|
|
who took up the land for the planting the said plantation at first.
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|
This being regularly attested by a notary, and a procuration
|
|
affixed, he directed me to send it, with a letter of his writing, to a
|
|
merchant of his acquaintance at the place, and then proposed my
|
|
staying with him till an account came of the return.
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|
Never anything was more honorable than the proceedings upon this
|
|
procuration; for in less than seven months I received a large packet
|
|
from the survivors of my trustees, the merchants, for whose account
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|
I went to sea, in which were the following particular letters and
|
|
papers enclosed.
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|
First, there was the account-current of the produce of my farm or
|
|
plantation from the year when their fathers had balanced with my old
|
|
Portugal captain, being for six years; the balance appeared to be
|
|
1,174 moidores in my favor.
|
|
Secondly, there was the account of four years more, while they
|
|
kept the effects in their hands, before the government claimed the
|
|
administration, as being the effects of a person not to be found,
|
|
which they called civil death; and the balance of this, the value of
|
|
the plantation increasing, amounted to 38,892 crusadoes, which made
|
|
3,241 moidores.
|
|
Thirdly, there was the prior of the Augustines' account, who had
|
|
received the profits for above fourteen years; but not being able to
|
|
account for what was disposed to the hospital, very honestly
|
|
declared he had 872 moidores not distributed, which he acknowledged to
|
|
my account; as to the king's part, that refunded nothing.
|
|
There was a letter of my partner's, congratulating me very
|
|
affectionately upon my being alive, giving me an account how the
|
|
estate was improved, and what it produced a year, with a particular of
|
|
the number of squares or acres that it contained; how planted, how
|
|
many slaves there were upon it, and making two and twenty crosses
|
|
for blessings, told me he had said so many Ave Marias to thank the
|
|
blessed Virgin that I was alive; inviting me very passionately to come
|
|
over and take possession of my own; and in the meantime, to give him
|
|
orders to whom he should deliver my effects, if I did not come myself;
|
|
concluding with a hearty tender of his friendship, and that of his
|
|
family; and sent me as a present seven fine leopards' skins, which
|
|
he had, it seems, received from Africa by some other ship which he had
|
|
sent thither, and who, it seems, had made a better voyage than I. He
|
|
sent me also five chests of excellent sweetmeats, and a hundred pieces
|
|
of gold uncoined, not quite so large as moidores. By the same fleet,
|
|
my two merchant trustees shipped me 1,200 chest of sugar, 800 rolls of
|
|
tobacco, and the rest of the whole account in gold.
|
|
I might well say now, indeed, that the latter end of Job better than
|
|
the beginning. It is impossible to express the flutterings of my
|
|
very heart when I looked over these letters, and especially when I
|
|
found all my wealth about me; for as the Brazil ship come all in
|
|
fleets, the same ships which brought my letters brought my goods,
|
|
and the effects were safe in the river before the letters came to my
|
|
hand. In a word, I turned pale, and grew sick; and had not the old man
|
|
run and fetched me a cordial, I believe the sudden surprise of joy had
|
|
overset Nature, and I had died upon the spot.
|
|
Nay, after that I continued very ill, and was so some hours, till
|
|
a physician being sent for, and something of the real cause of my
|
|
illness being known, he ordered me to be let blood, after which I
|
|
had relief, and grew well; but I verily believe, if it had not been
|
|
eased by a vent given in the manner to the spirits, I should have
|
|
died.
|
|
I was now master, all on a sudden, of above L5,000 sterling in
|
|
money, and had an estate, as I might well call it, in the Brazils,
|
|
of above a thousand pounds a year, as sure as an estate of lands in
|
|
England; and in a word, I was in a condition which I scarce knew how
|
|
to understand, or how to compose myself for the enjoyment of it.
|
|
The first thing I did was to recompense my original benefactor, my
|
|
good old captain, who had been first charitable to me in my
|
|
distress, kind to me in my beginning, and honest to me at the end. I
|
|
showed him all that was sent me. I told him that, next to the
|
|
providence of Heaven, which disposes all things, it was owing to
|
|
him; and that it now lay on me to reward him, which I would do a
|
|
hundredfold. So I first returned to him the hundred moidores I had
|
|
received of him; then I sent for a notary, and caused him to draw up a
|
|
general release or discharge for the 470 moidores which he had
|
|
acknowledged he owed me in the fullest and firmest manner possible;
|
|
after which I cause a procuration to be drawn, empowering him to be my
|
|
receiver of the annual profits of my plantation, and appointing my
|
|
partner to account to him, and make the returns by the usual fleets to
|
|
him in my name; and a clause in the end, being a grant of 100 moidores
|
|
a year to him, during his life, out of the effects, and 50 moidores
|
|
a year to his son after for his life; and thus I requited my old man.
|
|
I was now to consider which way to steer my course next, and what to
|
|
do with the estate that Providence has thus put into my hands; and,
|
|
indeed, I had more care upon my head now than I had in my silent state
|
|
of life in the island, where I wanted nothing but what I had, and
|
|
had nothing but what I wanted; where as I had now a great charge
|
|
upon me, and my business was how to secure it. I had neer a cave now
|
|
to hide my money in, or a place where it might lie without lock or key
|
|
till it grew mouldy and tarnished before anybody would meddle with it.
|
|
On the contrary, I knew not where to put it, or whom to trust with it.
|
|
My old patron, the captain, indeed, was honest, and that was the
|
|
only refuge I had.
|
|
In the next place, my interest in the Brazils seemed to summon me
|
|
thither; but now I could not tell how to think of going thither till I
|
|
had settled my affairs, and left my affects in some safe hands
|
|
behind me. At first I thought of my old friend the widow who I knew
|
|
was honest, and would be just to me; but then she was in years, and
|
|
but poor, and for aught I knew might be in debt; so that, in a word, I
|
|
had no way but to go back to England myself, and take my effects
|
|
with me.
|
|
It was some months, however, before I resolved upon this; and
|
|
therefore, as I had rewarded the old captain fully, and to his
|
|
satisfaction, who had been my former benefactor, so I began to think
|
|
of my poor widow, whose husband had been my first benefactor, and she,
|
|
while it was in her power, my faithful steward and instructor. So
|
|
the first thing I did, I got a merchant in Lisbon to write his
|
|
correspondent in London, not only to pay a bill, but to go find her
|
|
out, and carry her in money a hundred pounds from me, and to talk with
|
|
her, and comfort her in her poverty, by telling her she should, if I
|
|
lived, have a further supply. At the same time I sent my two sisters
|
|
in the country each of them an hundred pounds, they being, though
|
|
not in want, yet not in very good circumstances; one having been
|
|
married, and left a widow; and the other having a husband not so
|
|
kind to her as he should be.
|
|
But among all my relations or acquaintances, I could not yet pitch
|
|
upon one to whom I durst commit the gross of my stock, that I might go
|
|
away to the Brazils, and leave things safe behind me; and this greatly
|
|
perplexed me.
|
|
I had once a mind to have gone to the Brazils and have settled
|
|
myself there, for I was, as it were, naturalized to the place. But I
|
|
had some little scruple in my mind about religion, which insensibly
|
|
drew me back, of which I shall say more presently. However, it was not
|
|
religion that kept me from going there for the present; and as I had
|
|
made no scruple of being openly of the religion of the country all the
|
|
while I was among them, so neither did I yet; only that, now and then,
|
|
having the late thought more of than formerly, when I began to think
|
|
of living and dying among them, I began to regret my having
|
|
professed myself a papist, and thought it might not be the best
|
|
religion to die with.
|
|
But, as I have said, this was not the main thing that kept me from
|
|
going to the Brazils, but that really I did not know with whom to
|
|
leave my effects beind me; so I resolved, at last, to go to England
|
|
with it, where, if arrived, I concluded I should make some
|
|
acquaintance, or find some relations, that would be faithful to me;
|
|
and accordingly I prepared to go for England, with all my wealth.
|
|
In order to prepare things for my going home, I first, the Brazil
|
|
fleet being just going away, resolved to give answers suitable to
|
|
the just and faithful account of things I had from thence. And
|
|
first, to the prior of St. Augustine I wrote a letter full of thanks
|
|
for their just dealings, and the offer of the 872 moidores which was
|
|
undisposed of, which I desired might be given, 500 to the monastery,
|
|
and 372 to the poor, as the prior should direct, desiring the good
|
|
padre's prayers for me, and the like.
|
|
I wrote next a letter of thanks to my two trustees, with all the
|
|
acknowledgment that so much justice and honesty called for. As for
|
|
sending them any present, they were far above having any occasion of
|
|
it.
|
|
Lastly, I wrote to my partner, acknowledging his industry in the
|
|
improving the plantation, and his integrity in increasing the stock of
|
|
the works, giving him instructions for his future government of my
|
|
part, according to the powers I had left with my old patron, to whom I
|
|
desired him to send whatever became due to me till he should hear from
|
|
me more particularly; assuring him that it was my intention not only
|
|
to come to him, but to settle myself there for the remainder of my
|
|
life. To this I added a very handsome present of some Italian silks
|
|
for his wife and two daughters, for such the captain's son informed me
|
|
he had, with two pieces of fine English broadcloth, and best I could
|
|
get in Lisbon, five pieces of black baize, and some Flanders lace of a
|
|
good value.
|
|
Having thus settled my affairs, sold my cargo, and turned all my
|
|
effects into good bills of exchange, my next difficulty was which
|
|
was to go to England. I had been accustomed enough to the sea, and yet
|
|
I had a strange aversion to going to England by sea at that time;
|
|
and though I could give no reason for it, yet the difficulty increased
|
|
upon me so much, that though I had once shipped my baggage in order to
|
|
go, yet I altered my mind, and that not once, but two or three times.
|
|
It is true that I had been very unfortunate by sea, and this might
|
|
be some of the reason; but let no man slight the strong impulses of
|
|
his own thoughts in cases of such moment. Two of the ships which I had
|
|
singled out to go in, I mean more particularly singled out than any
|
|
other, that is to say, so as in one of them to put my things on board,
|
|
and in the other way to have agreed with the captain; I say, two of
|
|
these ships miscarried, viz., one was taken by the Algerines, and
|
|
the other was cast away on the Start, near Torbay, and all the
|
|
people drowned except three; so that in either of those vessels I
|
|
had been made miserable; and in which most, it was hard to say.
|
|
Having been thus harassed in my thoughts, my old pilot, to whom I
|
|
communicated everything, pressed me earnestly not to go by sea, but
|
|
either to go by land to the Groyne, and cross over the Bay of Biscay
|
|
to Rochelle, from whence it was an easy and safe journey by land to
|
|
Paris, and so to Calais and Dover; or to go up to Madrid, and so all
|
|
the way by land through France.
|
|
In a word, I was so prepossessed against my going by sea at all,
|
|
except from Calais to Dover, that I resolved to travel all the way
|
|
by land; which as I was not in haste, and did not value the charge,
|
|
was by much the pleasanter way. And to make it more so, my old captain
|
|
brought an English gentleman, the son of a merchant in Lisbon, who was
|
|
willing to travel with me; after which we picked up two or more
|
|
English merchants also, and two young Portuguese gentlemen, the last
|
|
going to Paris only; so that we were in all six of us, and five
|
|
servants, besides my man Friday, who was too much a stranger to be
|
|
capable of supplying the place of a servant on the road.
|
|
In this manner I set out from Lisbon; and our company being all very
|
|
well mounted and armed, we made a little troop, whereof they did me
|
|
the honor to call me captain, as well because I was the oldest man, as
|
|
because I had two servants, and indeed was the original of the whole
|
|
journey.
|
|
As I have troubled you with none of my sea journals, so I shall
|
|
trouble you now with none of my land journal; but some adventures that
|
|
happened to us in this tedious and difficult journey I must not omit.
|
|
When we came to Madrid, we being all of us strangers to Spain,
|
|
were willing to stay some time to the court of Spain, and to see
|
|
what was worth observing; but it being the latter part of the summer
|
|
we hastened away, and set out from Madrid about the middle of October;
|
|
but when we came to the edge of Navarre, we were alarmed at several
|
|
towns on the way with an account that so much snow was fallen on the
|
|
French side of the mountains that several travelers were obliged to
|
|
come back to Pampeluna, after having attempted, at an extreme
|
|
hazard, to pass on.
|
|
When we came to Pampeluna itself, we found it so indeed; and to
|
|
me, that had been always used to a hot climate, and indeed to
|
|
countries where we could scarce bear any clothes on, the cold was
|
|
insufferable; nor indeed was it more painful than it was surprising to
|
|
come but often days before out of the old Castile, where the weather
|
|
was not only warm, but very hot, and immediately to feel a wind from
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the Pyrenean mountains so very keen, so severely cold, as to be
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intolerable, and to endanger benumbing and perishing of our fingers
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and toes.
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Poor Friday was really frightened when he saw the mountains all
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covered with snow, and felt cold weather, which he had never seen or
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felt before in his life.
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To mend the matter, when we came to Pampeluna it continued snowing
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with so much violence, and so long, that the people said winter was
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come before its time; and the roads, which were difficult before, were
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now quite impassable; for, in a word, the snow lay in some places
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too thick for us to travel, and being not hard frozen, as is the
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case in northern countries, there was no going without being in danger
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of being buried alive every step. We stayed no less than twenty days
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at Pampeluna; when seeing the winter coming on, and no likelihood of
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its being better, for it was the severest winter all over Europe
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that had been known in the memory of man, I proposed that we should
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all go away to Fontarabia, and there take shipping for which was a
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very little voyage.
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But while we were considering this, there came in four French
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gentlemen, who having been stopped on the French side of the passes,
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as we were on the Spanish, had found out a guide, who, traversing
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the country near the head of Languedoc, had brought them over the
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mountains by such ways that they were not much incommoded by the snow;
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and were they met with snow in any quantity, they said it was frozen
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hard enough to bear them and their horses.
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We sent for his guide, who told us he would undertake to carry us
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the same way with no hazard from the snow, provided we were armed
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sufficiently to protect us from wild beasts; for he said, upon these
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great snows it was frequent for some wolves to show themselves at
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the foot of the mountains, being made ravenous for want of food, the
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ground being covered with snow. We told him we were well enough
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prepared for such creatures as they were, if he would ensure us from a
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kind of two-legged wolves, which, we were told, we were in the most
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danger from, especially on the French side of the mountains.
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He satisfied us there was no danger of that kind in the way that
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we were to go; so we readily agreed to follow him, as did also
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twelve other gentlemen, with their servants, some French, some
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Spanish, who, as I said, had attempted to go, and were obliged to come
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back again.
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Accordingly, we all set out from Pampeluna, with our guide, on the
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15th of November; and, indeed, I was surprised when, instead of
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going forward, he came directly back with us on the same road that
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we came from Madrid, above twenty miles; when being passed two rivers,
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and come into the plain country, we found ourselves in a warm
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climate again, where the country was pleasant, and no snow to be seen;
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but on a sudden, turning to his left, he approached the mountains
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another way; and though it is true the hills and precipices looked
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dreadful, yet he made so many tours, such meanders, and led us by such
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winding ways, that we were insensibly passed the height of the
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mountains without being much encumbered with the snow; and all on a
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sudden he showed us the pleasant fruitful provinces of Languedoc and
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Gascogn, all green and flourishing, though, indeed, it was at a
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great distance, and we had some rough way to pass yet.
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We were a little uneasy, however, when we found it snowed one
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whole day and a night so fast that we could not travel; but he bid
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us be easy, we should soon be past it all. We found, indeed, that we
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began to descend every day, and to come more north than before; and
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so, depending upon our guide, we went on.
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It was about two hours before night when, our guide being
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something before us, and not just in sight, out rushed three monstrous
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wolves, and after them a bear, out of a hollow way adjoining to a
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thick wood. Two of the wolves flew upon the guide, and had he been
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half a mile before us he had been devoured, indeed, before we could
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have helped him. One of them fastened upon his horse, and the other
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attacked the man with that violence that he had not time, or not
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presence of mind enough, to draw his pistol, but hallooed and cried
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out to us most lustily. My man Friday being next to me, I bid him ride
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up, and see what was the matter. As soon as Friday came in sight of
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the man, he hallooed as loud as t' other, "O master! O master!" but,
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like a bold fellow, rode directly up to the poor man, and with his
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pistol shot the wolf that attacked him into the head.
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It was happy for the poor man that it was my man Friday, for he
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having been used to that kind of creature in his country, had no
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fear upon him, but went close up to him and shot him, as above;
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whereas any of us would have fired at a farther distance, and have
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perhaps either missed the wolf, or endangered shooting the man.
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But it was enough to have terrified a bolder man than I; and,
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|
indeed, it alarmed all our company, when, with the noise of Friday's
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pistol, we heard on both sides the dismallest howling of wolves; and
|
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the noise, redoubled by the echo of the mountains, that it was to us
|
|
as if there had been a prodigious multitude of them; and perhaps
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|
indeed there was not such a few as that we had no cause of
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apprehensions.
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However, as Friday had killed this wolf, the other that had fastened
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upon the horse left him immediately and fled, having happily
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fastened upon his head, where the bosses of the bridle had stuck in
|
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his teeth, so that he had not done him much hurt. The man, indeed, was
|
|
most hurt; for the raging creature had bit him twice, once on the arm,
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|
and the other time a little above his knee; and he was just, as it
|
|
were, tumbling down by the disorder of his horse, when Friday came
|
|
up and shot the wolf.
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|
It is easy to suppose that at the noise of Friday's pistol we all
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mended our pace, and rid up as fast as the way, which was very
|
|
difficult, should give us leave, to see what was the matter. As soon
|
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as we came clear of the trees, which blinded us before, we saw clearly
|
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what had been the case, and how Friday had disengaged the poor
|
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guide, though we did not presently discern what kind of creature it
|
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was he had killed.
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But never was a fight managed so hardily, and in such a surprising
|
|
manner, as that which followed between Friday and the bear, which gave
|
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us all, though at first we were surprised and afraid for him, the
|
|
greatest diversion imaginable. As the bear is a heavy, clumsy
|
|
creature, and does not gallop as the wolf does, who is swift and
|
|
light, as he has two particular qualities, which generally are the
|
|
rule of his actions; first, as to men, who are not his proper prey;
|
|
I say, not his proper prey, because, though I cannot say what
|
|
excessive hunger might do, which was now their case, the ground
|
|
being all covered with snow; but as to men, he does not usually
|
|
attempt them, unless they first attack him. On the contrary, if you
|
|
meet him in the woods, if you don't meddle with him, he won't meddle
|
|
with you; but then you must take care to be very civil to him, and
|
|
give him the road, for he is a very nice gentleman. He won't go a step
|
|
out of his way for a prince; nay, if you are really afraid, your
|
|
best way is to look another way, and keep going on; for sometimes if
|
|
you stop, and stand still, and look steadily at him, he takes it for
|
|
an affront; but if you throw or toss anything at him, and it hits him,
|
|
though it were but a bit of a stick as big as your finger, he takes it
|
|
for an affront, and set all his other business aside to pursue his
|
|
revenge; for he will have satisfaction in point of honor. That is
|
|
his first quality; the next is, that if he be once affronted, he
|
|
will never leave you, night or day, till he has his revenge, but
|
|
follows, at a good round rate, till he overtakes you.
|
|
My man Friday had delivered our guide, and when we came up to him he
|
|
was helping him off from his horse; for the man was both hurt and
|
|
frighted, and indeed the last more than the first; when, on the
|
|
sudden, we spied the bear come out of the wood, and a vast monstrous
|
|
one it was, the biggest by far that ever I saw. We were all a little
|
|
surprised when we saw him; but when Friday saw him, it was easy to see
|
|
joy and courage in the fellow's countenance. "O! O! O!" says Friday,
|
|
three times pointing to him. "O master! you give me the leave; me
|
|
shakee the hand with him; me make you good laugh."
|
|
I was surprised to see the fellow so pleased. "You fool you," says
|
|
I, "he will eat you up." "Eatee me up! eatee me up!" says Friday,
|
|
twice over again; "me eatee him up; me make you good laugh; you all
|
|
stay here, me show you good laugh." So down he sits, and gets his
|
|
boots off in a moment, and put on a pair of pumps, as we call the flat
|
|
shoes they wear, and which he had in his pocket, gives my other
|
|
servant his horse, and with his gun away he flew, swift like the wind.
|
|
The bear was walking softly on, and offered to meddle with nobody
|
|
till Friday, coming pretty near, calls to him, as if the bear could
|
|
understand him, "Hark ye, hark ye," says Friday, "me speakee wit you."
|
|
We followed at a distance; for now being come down on the Gascogn side
|
|
of the mountains, we were entered a vast great forest., where the
|
|
country was plain and pretty open, though many trees in it scattered
|
|
here and there.
|
|
Friday, who had, as we say, the heels of the bear, came up with
|
|
him quickly, and takes up a great stone and throws at him, and hit him
|
|
just on the head, but did him no harm than if he had thrown it against
|
|
a wall. But it answered Friday's end, for the rogue was so void of
|
|
fear, that he did it purely to make the bear follow him, and show us
|
|
some laugh, as he called it.
|
|
As soon as the bear felt the stone, and saw him, he turns about, and
|
|
comes after him, taking devilish long strides, and shuffling along
|
|
at a strange rate, so as would have put a horse to a middling
|
|
gallop. Away runs Friday, and takes his course as if he run towards us
|
|
for help; so we all resolved to fire at once upon the bear, and
|
|
deliver my man; though I was angry at him heartily for bringing the
|
|
bear back upon us, when he was going about his own business another
|
|
way; and especially I was angry that he had turned the bear upon us,
|
|
and then run away; and I called out, "You dog," said I, "is this
|
|
your making us laugh? Come away, and take your horse, that we may
|
|
shoot the creature." He hears me, and cries out, "No shoot, no
|
|
shoot; stand still, you get much laugh." And as the nimble creature
|
|
run two feet for the beast's one, he turned on a sudden, on one side
|
|
of us, and seeing a great oak tree fit for his purpose, he beckoned to
|
|
us to follow; and doubling his pace, he get nimbly up the tree, laying
|
|
his gun down upon the ground, at about five or six yards from the
|
|
bottom of the tree.
|
|
The bear soon came to the tree, and we followed at a distance. The
|
|
first thing he did, he stopped at the gun, smelt to it, but let it
|
|
lie, and up he scrambles into the tree, climbing like a cat, though so
|
|
monstrously heavy. I was amazed at the folly, as I though it, of my
|
|
man, and could not for my life see anything to laugh at yet, till
|
|
seeing the bear get up the tree, we all rode nearer to him.
|
|
When we came to the tree, there was Friday got out to the small
|
|
end of a large limb of the tree, and the bear got about half way to
|
|
him. As soon as the bear got out to that part where the limb of the
|
|
tree was weaker, "Ha!" says he to us, "now you see me teachee the bear
|
|
dance." So he falls a-jumping and shaking the bough, at which the bear
|
|
began to totter, but stood still, and began to look behind him, to see
|
|
how he should get back. Then, indeed, we did laugh heartily. But
|
|
Friday had not done with him again, as if he had supposed the bear
|
|
could speak English, "What, you no come farther? pray you come
|
|
farther;" so he left jumping and shaking the tree; and the bear,
|
|
just as if he had understood what he said, did come a little
|
|
farther; then he fell a-jumping again, and the bear stopped again.
|
|
We thought now was a good time to knock him on the head, and I
|
|
called to Friday to stand still, and we would shoot the bear; but he
|
|
cried out earnestly, "O pray! O pray! no shoot, me shoot by and then;"
|
|
he would have said by and by. However, to shorten the story, Friday
|
|
danced so much, and the bear stood so ticklish, that we had laughing
|
|
enough indeed, but still could not imagine what the fellow would do;
|
|
for first we thought he depended upon shaking the bear off; and we
|
|
found the bear was too cunning for that too; for he would not go out
|
|
far enough to be thrown down, but clings fast with his great broad
|
|
claws and feet, so that we could not imagine what would be the end
|
|
of it, and where the jest would be at last.
|
|
But Friday put us out of doubt quickly; for seeing the bear cling
|
|
fast to the bough, and that he would not be persuaded to come any
|
|
farther, "Well, well," says Friday, "you no come farther, me go, me
|
|
go; you no come to me, me go come to you;" and upon this he goes out
|
|
to the smallest end of the bough, where it would bend with his weight,
|
|
and gently lets himself down by it, sliding down the bough till he
|
|
came near enough to jump down on his feet, and away he ran to his gun,
|
|
takes it up, and stands still.
|
|
"Well," said I to him, "Friday, what will you do now? Why don't
|
|
you shoot him?" "No shoot," says Friday, "no yet; me shoot now, me
|
|
no kill; me stay, give you one more laugh." And, indeed, so he did, as
|
|
you will see presently; for when the bear sees his enemy gone, he
|
|
comes back from the bough where he stood, but did it mighty leisurely,
|
|
looking behind him every step, and coming backward till he got into
|
|
the body of the tree; then with the same hinder end foremost he
|
|
comes down the tree, grasping it with his claws, and moving one foot
|
|
at a time, very leisurely. At this juncture, and just before he
|
|
could set his hind feet upon the ground, Friday stepped up close to
|
|
him, clapped the muzzle of his piece into his ear, and shot him dead
|
|
as a stone.
|
|
Then the rogue turned about to see if we did not laugh; and when
|
|
he saw we were pleased by our looks, he falls a-laughing himself
|
|
very loud. "So we kill bear in my country," says Friday. "So you
|
|
kill them?" says I; "why, you have no guns." "No," says he, "no gun,
|
|
but shoot great much long arrow."
|
|
This was indeed a good diversion to us; but we were still in a
|
|
wild place, and our guide very much hurt, and what to do we hardly
|
|
knew. The howling of the wolves ran much in my head; and indeed,
|
|
except the noise I once heard on the shore of Africa, of which I
|
|
have said something already, I never heard anything that filled me
|
|
with so much horror.
|
|
These things, and the approach of night, called us off, or else,
|
|
as Friday would have had us, we should certainly have taken the skin
|
|
of this monstrous creature off, which was worth saving; but we had
|
|
three leagues to go, and our guide hastened us; so we left him, and
|
|
went forward on our journey.
|
|
The ground was still covered with snow, though not so deep and
|
|
dangerous as on the mountains; and the ravenous creatures, as we heard
|
|
afterwards, were come down into the forest and plain country,
|
|
pressed by hunger, to seek for food, and had done a great deal of
|
|
mischief in the villages, where they surprised the country people,
|
|
killed a great many of their sheep and horses, and some people, too.
|
|
We had one dangerous place to pass, which our guide told us if there
|
|
were any more wolves in the country we should find them there; and
|
|
this was in a small plain, surrounded with woods on every side, and
|
|
a long narrow defile, or lane, which we were to pass to get through
|
|
the wood, and then we should come to the village where we were to
|
|
lodge.
|
|
It was within half an hour of sunset when we entered the first wood,
|
|
and a little after sunset when we came into the plain. We met with
|
|
nothing in the first wood, except that, in a little plain within the
|
|
wood, which was not above two furlongs over, we saw five great
|
|
wolves cross the road, full speed, one after another, as if they had
|
|
been in chase of some prey, and had it in view; they took no notice of
|
|
us, and were gone and out of our sight in a few moments. Upon this our
|
|
guide, who, by the way, was a wretched fainthearted fellow, bid us
|
|
keep in a ready posture, for he believed there were more wolves
|
|
a-coming.
|
|
We kept our arms ready, and our eyes about us; but we saw no more
|
|
wolves till we came through that wood, which was near half a league,
|
|
and entered the plain. As soon as we came into the plain, we had
|
|
occasion enough to look about us. The first object we met with was a
|
|
dead horse, that is to say, a poor horse which the wolves had
|
|
killed, and at least a dozen of them at work; we could not say
|
|
eating of him, but picking of his bones rather, for they had eaten
|
|
up all the flesh before.
|
|
We did not think fit to disturb them at their feast, neither did
|
|
they take much notice of us. Friday would have let fly at them, but
|
|
I would not suffer him by any means, for I found we were like to
|
|
have more business upon our hands than we were aware of. We were not
|
|
gone half over the plain, but we began to hear the wolves howl in
|
|
the wood on our left in a frightful manner, and presently after we saw
|
|
about a hundred coming on directly towards us, all in a body, and most
|
|
of them in a line, as regularly as an army drawn up by experienced
|
|
officers. I scarce knew in what manner to receive them, but found to
|
|
draw ourselves in a close line was the only way; so we formed in
|
|
moment; but that we might not have too much interval, I ordered that
|
|
only every other man should fire, and that the others who had not
|
|
fired should stand ready to give them a second volley immediately,
|
|
if they continued to advance upon us; and that then those who had
|
|
fired at first should not pretend to load their fuses again, but stand
|
|
ready with every one a pistol, for we were all armed with a fusee
|
|
and a pair of pistols each man; so we were, by this method, able to
|
|
fire six volleys, half of us at a time. However, at present we had
|
|
no necessity; for upon firing the first volley the enemy made a full
|
|
stop, being terrified as well with the noise as with the fire. Four of
|
|
them being shot into the head, dropped; several others were wounded,
|
|
and went bleeding off, as we could see by the snow. I found they
|
|
stopped, but did not immediately retreat; whereupon, remembering
|
|
that I had been told that the fiercest creatures were terrified at the
|
|
voice of a man, I cause all our company to halloo as loud as we could,
|
|
and I found the notion not altogether mistaken, for upon our shout
|
|
they began to retire and turn about. Then I ordered a second volley to
|
|
be fired in their rear, which put them to the gallop, and away they
|
|
went to the woods.
|
|
This gave us leisure to charge our pieces again; and that we might
|
|
lose no time we kept going. But we had but little more than loaded our
|
|
fusees, and put ourselves into a readiness, when we heard a terrible
|
|
noise in the same wood, on our left, only, that it was farther onward,
|
|
the same way we were to go.
|
|
The night was coming on, and the light began to be dusky, which made
|
|
it worse on our side; but the noise increasing, we could easily
|
|
perceive that it was the howling and yelling of those hellish
|
|
creatures; and on a sudden, we perceived two or three troops of
|
|
wolves, one on our left, one behind us, and one on our front, so
|
|
that we seemed to be surrounded with them. However, as they did not
|
|
fall upon us we kept our way forward as fast as we could make our
|
|
horses go, which, the way being very rough, was only a good large
|
|
trot, and in this manner we came in view of the of a wood, though
|
|
which we were to pass, at the farther side of the plain; but we were
|
|
greatly surprised when, coming nearer the lane, or pass, we saw a
|
|
confused number of wolves standing just at the entrance.
|
|
On a sudden, at another opening of the wood, we heard the noise of a
|
|
gun, and looking that way, out rushed a horse, with a saddle and a
|
|
bridle on him, flying like the wind, and sixteen or seventeen wolves
|
|
after him, full speed; indeed, the horse had the heels of them; but as
|
|
we supposed that he could not hold it at that rate, we doubted not but
|
|
they would get up with him at last, and no question but they did.
|
|
But here we had a most horrible sight; for riding up to the entrance
|
|
where the horse came out, we found the carcass of another horse and of
|
|
two men, devoured by the ravenous creatures; and one of the men was no
|
|
doubt that same whom we heard fire the gun, for there lay a gun just
|
|
by him fired off; but as to the man, his head and the upper part of
|
|
his body was eaten up.
|
|
This filled us with horror, and we knew not what course to take; but
|
|
the creatures resolved us soon, for they gathered about us presently
|
|
in hopes of prey, and I verily believe there were three hundred of
|
|
them. It happened very much to our advantage that, at the entrance
|
|
into the wood, but a little was from it, there lay some large
|
|
timber-trees, which had been cut down the summer before, and I suppose
|
|
lay there for carriage. I drew my little troop in among those trees,
|
|
and placing ourselves in a line behind one long tree, I advised them
|
|
all to light, and keeping that tree before us for a breastwork, to
|
|
stand in a triangle or three fronts, enclosing our horses in the
|
|
centre.
|
|
We did so, and it was well we did; for never was a more furious
|
|
charge than the creatures made upon us in the place. They came on us
|
|
with a growling kind of a noise, and mounted the piece of timber,
|
|
which, as I said, was our breastwork, as if they were only rushing
|
|
upon their prey; and this fury of theirs, it seems, was principally
|
|
occasioned by their seeing our horses behind us, which was the prey
|
|
they aimed at. I ordered our men to fire as before, every other man;
|
|
and they took their aim so sure that indeed they killed several of the
|
|
wolves at the first volley; but there was a necessity to keep a
|
|
continual firing, for they came on like devils, those behind pushing
|
|
on those before.
|
|
When we had fired our second volley of our fusees, we thought they
|
|
stopped a little, and I hoped they would have gone off but it was
|
|
but a moment, for others came forward again; so we fired two volleys
|
|
of our pistols; and I believe in these four firings we had killed
|
|
seventeen or eighteen of them, and lamed twice as many, yet they
|
|
came on again.
|
|
I was loth to spend our last shot too hastily; so I called my
|
|
servant, not my man Friday, for he was better employed, for with the
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greatest dexterity imaginable he had charged my fusee and his own
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while we were engaged; but as I said, I called my other man, and
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giving him a horn of powder, I bade him lay a train all along the
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piece of timber, and let it be a large train. He did so, and had but
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just time to get away when the wolves came up to it, and some were got
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up upon it, when I, snapping an uncharged pistol close to the
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powder, set it on fire. Those that were upon the timber were
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scorched with it, and six or seven of them fell, or rather jumped,
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in among us with the force and fright of the fire. We despatched these
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in an instant, and the rest were so frighted with the light, which the
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night, for it was now very near dark, made mare terrible, that they
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drew back a little; upon which I ordered our last pistol to be fired
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off in one volley, and after that we gave a shout. Upon this the
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wolves turned tail, and we sallied immediately upon near twenty lame
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ones, whom we found struggling on the ground, and fell a-cutting
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them with our swords, which answered our expectation; for the crying
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and howling they made was better understood by their fellows, so
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that they all fled and left us.
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We had, first and last, killed about three score of them, and had it
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been daylight we had killed many more. The field of battle being
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thus cleared, we made forward again, for we had still near a league to
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go. We heard the ravenous creatures howl and yell in the woods as we
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went several times, and sometimes we fancied we saw some of them,
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but the snow dazzling our eyes, we were not certain. So in about an
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hour more we came to the town where we were to lodge, which we found
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in a terrible fright, and all in arms; for it seems that the night
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before the wolves and some bears had broke into the village in the
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night, and put them into a terrible fright; and they were obliged to
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keep guard night and day, but especially in the night, to preserve
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their cattle, and, indeed, their people.
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The next morning our guide was so ill, and his limbs swelled with
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the rankling of his two wounds, that he could go no farther; so we
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were obliged to take a new guide there, and go to Toulouse, where we
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found a warm climate, a fruitful, pleasant country, and no snow, no
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wolves, or anything like them. But when we told our story at Toulouse,
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they told us it was nothing but what was ordinary in the great
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forest at the foot of the mountains, especially when the snow lay on
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the ground; but they inquired much what kind of a guide we had
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gotten that would venture to bring us that way in such a severe
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season, and told us it was very much we were not all devoured. When we
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told them how we placed ourselves, and the horses in the middle,
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they blamed us exceedingly, and told us it was a fifty to one but we
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had been all destroyed; for it was the sight of the horses which
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made the wolves so furious, seeing their prey; and that, at other
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times, they are really afraid of a gun; but the being excessive
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hungry, and raging on that account, the eagerness to come at the
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horses had made them senseless of danger and that if we had not, by
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the continued fire, and at last by the stratagem of the train of
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powder, mastered them, it had been great odds but that we had been
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torn to pieces; whereas had we been content to have sat still on
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horseback, and fired as horsemen, they would not have taken the horses
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for so much their own, when men were on their backs, as otherwise; and
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withal they told us, that at last, if we had stood all together, and
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left our horses, they would have been so eager to have devoured
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them, that we might have come off safe, especially having our
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fire-arms in our hands, and being so many in number.
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For my part, I was never so sensible of danger in my life; for
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seeing above three hundred devils come roaring and open-mouthed to
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devour us, and having nothing to shelter us or retreat to, I gave
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myself over for lost; and as it was, I believe I shall never care to
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cross those mountains again. I think I would much rather go a thousand
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leagues by sea, though I were sure to meet with a storm once a week.
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I have nothing uncommon to take notice of in my passage through
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France; nothing but what other travellers have given an account of
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with much more advantage than I can. I travelled from Toulouse to
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Paris, and without any considerable stay came to Calais, and landed
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safe at Dover, the 14 of January, after having had a severe cold
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season to travel in.
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I was now come to the centre of my travels, and had in a little time
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all my new-discovered estate safe about me, the bills of exchange
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which I brought with me having been very currently paid.
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My principal guide and privy councillor was my good ancient widow;
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who, in gratitude for the money I had sent her, thought no pains too
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much, or care too great, to employ for her; and I trusted her so
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entirely with everything that I was perfectly easy as to the
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security of my effects; and indeed I was very happy from my beginning,
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and now to the end, in the unspotted integrity of this good
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gentlewoman.
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And now I began to think of leaving my effects with this woman and
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setting out for Lisbon, and so to the Brazils. But now another scruple
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came in my way, and that was religion; for I had entertained some
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doubts about the Roman religion even while I was abroad, especially in
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my state of solitude, so I knew there was no going to the Brazils
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for me, much less going to settle there, unless I resolved to
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embrace the Roman Catholic religion without any reserve; unless on the
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other hand I resolved to be a sacrifice to my principles, be a
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martyr for religion, and die in the Inquisition. So I resolved to stay
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at home, and if I could find means for it, to dispose of my
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plantation.
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To this purpose I wrote to my old friend at Lisbon, who in return
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gave me notice that he could easily dispose of it there; but that if I
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thought fit to give him leave to offer it in my name to the two
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merchants, the survivors of my trustees, who lived in the Brazils, who
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most fully understand the value of it, who lived just upon the spot,
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and whom I knew were very rich, so that he believed they would be fond
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of buying it, he did not doubt but I should make 4,000 or 5,000 pieces
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of eight the more of it.
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Accordingly I agreed, gave him order to offer it to them, and he did
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so; and in about eight months more, the ship being then returned, he
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sent me an account that they had accepted the offer, and had
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remitted 33,000 pieces of eight to a correspondent of theirs at Lisbon
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to pay for it.
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In return, I signed the instrument of sale in the form which they
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sent from Lisbon, and sent it to my old man, who sent me bills of
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exchange for 32,800 pieces of eight to me, for the estate; reserving
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the payment of 100 moidores a year to him, the old man, during his
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life, and 50 moidores afterwards to his son for this life, which I had
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promised them, which the plantation was to make good as a rent-charge.
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And thus I have given the first part of a life of fortune and
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adventure, a life of Providence's checker-worker, and of a variety the
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world will seldom be able to show the like of; beginning foolishly,
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but closing much more happily than any part of it ever gave me leave
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so much as to hope for.
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Any one would think that in this state of complicated good fortune I
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was past running any more hazards; and so indeed I had been, if other
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circumstances had concurred. But I was inured to a wandering life, had
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no family, not many relations, nor, however rich, had I contracted
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much acquaintance; and though I had sold my estate in the Brazils, yet
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I could not keep the country out of my head, and had a great mind to
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be upon the wing again; especially I could not resist the strong
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inclination I had to see my island, and to know if the poor Spaniards
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were in being there, and how the rogues I left there had used them.
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My true friend, the widow, earnestly dissuaded me from it, and so
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far prevailed with me, that for almost seven years she prevented my
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running abroad, during which time I took my two nephews, the
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children of one of my brothers, into my care. The eldest having
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something of his own, I bred up as a gentleman, and gave him a
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settlement of some addition to his estate after my decease. The
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other I put out to a captain of a ship, and after five years,
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finding him a sensible, bold, enterprising young fellow, I put him
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into a good ship, and sent him to sea; and this young fellow
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afterwards drew me in, as old as I was, to farther adventures myself.
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In the meantime, I in part settled myself here; for, first of all, I
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married, and that not either to my disadvantage or dissatisfaction,
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and had three children, two sons and one daughter; but my wife
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dying, and my nephew coming home with good success from a voyage to
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Spain, my inclination to go abroad, and his importunity, prevailed,
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and engaged me to go in his ship as a private trader to the East
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Indies. This was in the year 1694.
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In this voyage I visited my new colony in the island, saw my
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successors the Spaniards, had the whole story of lives, and of the
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villains I left there; how at first they insulted the poor
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Spaniards, how they afterwards agreed, disagreed, united, separated,
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and how at last the Spaniards were obliged to use violence with
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them; how they were subjected to the Spaniards; how honestly the
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Spaniards used them; a history, if it were entered into, as full of
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variety and wonderful accidents as my own part; particularly also as
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to their battles with the Caribbeans, who landed several times upon
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the island, and as to the improvement they made upon the island, and
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as to the improvement they made upon the island itself; and how five
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of them made an attempt upon the mainland, and brought away eleven men
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and five women prisoners, by which, at my coming, I found about twenty
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young children on the island.
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Here I stayed about twenty days, left them supplies of all necessary
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things, and particularly of arms, powder, shot, clothes, tools, and
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two workmen, which I brought from England with me, viz., a carpenter
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and a smith.
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Besides this, I shared the island into parts with them, reserved
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to myself the property of the whole, but gave them such parts
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respectively as they agreed on; and having settled all things with
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them, and engaged them not to leave the place, I left them there.
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From thence I touched at the Brazils, from whence I sent a bark,
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which I bought there, with more people, to the island; and in it,
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besides other supplies, I sent seven women, being such as I found
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proper for service, or for wives to such as would take them. As to the
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Englishmen, I promised them to send them some women from England, with
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a good cargo of necessaries, if they would apply themselves to
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planting; which I afterwards performed; and the fellows proved very
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honest and diligent after they were mastered, and had their properties
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set apart for them. I sent them also from the Brazils five cows, three
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of them being big with calf, some sheep, and some hogs, which, when
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I came again, were considerably increased.
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But all these things, with an account how three hundred Caribbees
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|
came and invaded them, and ruined their plantations, and how they
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|
fought with that whole number twice, and were at first defeated and
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|
three of them killed; but at last a storm destroying their enemies'
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|
canoes, they famished or destroyed almost all the rest, and renewed
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and recovered the possession of their plantation, and still lived upon
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the island; -all these things, with some very surprising incidents, in
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some new adventures of my own, for often years more, I may perhaps
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give a farther account of hereafter. - THE END -
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