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Persuasion by Jane Austen (1818)
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Chapter 1
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Sir Walter Elliot, of Kellynch Hall, in Somersetshire, was a man who,
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for his own amusement, never took up any book but the Baronetage;
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there he found occupation for an idle hour, and consolation in a
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distressed one; there his faculties were roused into admiration and
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respect, by contemplating the limited remnant of the earliest patents;
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there any unwelcome sensations, arising from domestic affairs
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changed naturally into pity and contempt as he turned over
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the almost endless creations of the last century; and there,
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if every other leaf were powerless, he could read his own history
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with an interest which never failed. This was the page at which
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the favorite volume always opened:
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"ELLIOT OF KELLYNCH HALL.
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"Walter Elliot, born March 1, 1760, married, July 15, 1784, Elizabeth,
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daughter of James Stevenson, Esq. of South Park, in the county of
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Gloucester, by which lady (who died 1800) he has issue Elizabeth,
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born June 1, 1785; Anne, born August 9, 1787; a still-born son,
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November 5, 1789; Mary, born November 20, 1791."
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Precisely such had the paragraph originally stood from the printer's hands;
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but Sir Walter had improved it by adding, for the information of
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himself and his family, these words, after the date of Mary's birth--
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"Married, December 16, 1810, Charles, son and heir of Charles
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Musgrove, Esq. of Uppercross, in the county of Somerset,"
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and by inserting most accurately the day of the month on which
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he had lost his wife.
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Then followed the history and rise of the ancient and respectable family,
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in the usual terms; how it had been first settled in Cheshire;
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how mentioned in Dugdale, serving the office of high sheriff,
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representing a borough in three successive parliaments,
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exertions of loyalty, and dignity of baronet, in the first year
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of Charles II, with all the Marys and Elizabeths they had married;
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forming altogether two handsome duodecimo pages, and concluding with
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the arms and motto:--"Principal seat, Kellynch Hall, in the county
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of Somerset," and Sir Walter's handwriting again in this finale:--
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"Heir presumptive, William Walter Elliot, Esq., great grandson of
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the second Sir Walter."
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Vanity was the beginning and the end of Sir Walter Elliot's character;
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vanity of person and of situation. He had been remarkably handsome
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in his youth; and, at fifty-four, was still a very fine man.
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Few women could think more of their personal appearance than he did,
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nor could the valet of any new made lord be more delighted with
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the place he held in society. He considered the blessing of beauty
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as inferior only to the blessing of a baronetcy; and the Sir Walter Elliot,
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who united these gifts, was the constant object of his warmest respect
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and devotion.
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His good looks and his rank had one fair claim on his attachment;
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since to them he must have owed a wife of very superior character
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to any thing deserved by his own. Lady Elliot had been an excellent woman,
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sensible and amiable; whose judgement and conduct, if they might be
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pardoned the youthful infatuation which made her Lady Elliot,
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had never required indulgence afterwards.--She had humoured,
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or softened, or concealed his failings, and promoted his real
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respectability for seventeen years; and though not the very happiest
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being in the world herself, had found enough in her duties, her friends,
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and her children, to attach her to life, and make it no matter of
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indifference to her when she was called on to quit them.
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--Three girls, the two eldest sixteen and fourteen, was an awful legacy
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for a mother to bequeath, an awful charge rather, to confide to
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the authority and guidance of a conceited, silly father.
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She had, however, one very intimate friend, a sensible, deserving woman,
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who had been brought, by strong attachment to herself, to settle
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close by her, in the village of Kellynch; and on her kindness and advice,
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Lady Elliot mainly relied for the best help and maintenance of
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the good principles and instruction which she had been anxiously
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giving her daughters.
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This friend, and Sir Walter, did not marry, whatever might have been
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anticipated on that head by their acquaintance. Thirteen years
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had passed away since Lady Elliot's death, and they were still
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near neighbours and intimate friends, and one remained a widower,
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the other a widow.
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That Lady Russell, of steady age and character, and extremely
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well provided for, should have no thought of a second marriage,
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needs no apology to the public, which is rather apt to be unreasonably
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discontented when a woman does marry again, than when she does not;
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but Sir Walter's continuing in singleness requires explanation.
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Be it known then, that Sir Walter, like a good father, (having met with
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one or two private disappointments in very unreasonable applications),
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prided himself on remaining single for his dear daughters' sake.
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For one daughter, his eldest, he would really have given up any thing,
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which he had not been very much tempted to do. Elizabeth had succeeded,
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at sixteen, to all that was possible, of her mother's rights
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and consequence; and being very handsome, and very like himself,
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her influence had always been great, and they had gone on together
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most happily. His two other children were of very inferior value.
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Mary had acquired a little artificial importance, by becoming
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Mrs Charles Musgrove; but Anne, with an elegance of mind and sweetness
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of character, which must have placed her high with any people
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of real understanding, was nobody with either father or sister;
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her word had no weight, her convenience was always to give way--
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she was only Anne.
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To Lady Russell, indeed, she was a most dear and highly valued
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god-daughter, favourite, and friend. Lady Russell loved them all;
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but it was only in Anne that she could fancy the mother to revive again.
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A few years before, Anne Elliot had been a very pretty girl,
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but her bloom had vanished early; and as even in its height,
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her father had found little to admire in her, (so totally different
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were her delicate features and mild dark eyes from his own),
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there could be nothing in them, now that she was faded and thin,
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to excite his esteem. He had never indulged much hope, he had now none,
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of ever reading her name in any other page of his favourite work.
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All equality of alliance must rest with Elizabeth, for Mary had merely
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connected herself with an old country family of respectability and
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large fortune, and had therefore given all the honour and received none:
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Elizabeth would, one day or other, marry suitably.
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It sometimes happens that a woman is handsomer at twenty-nine than
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she was ten years before; and, generally speaking, if there has been
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neither ill health nor anxiety, it is a time of life at which scarcely any
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charm is lost. It was so with Elizabeth, still the same handsome
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Miss Elliot that she had begun to be thirteen years ago, and Sir Walter
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might be excused, therefore, in forgetting her age, or, at least,
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be deemed only half a fool, for thinking himself and Elizabeth
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as blooming as ever, amidst the wreck of the good looks of everybody else;
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for he could plainly see how old all the rest of his family and
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acquaintance were growing. Anne haggard, Mary coarse, every face
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in the neighbourhood worsting, and the rapid increase of the crow's foot
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about Lady Russell's temples had long been a distress to him.
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Elizabeth did not quite equal her father in personal contentment.
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Thirteen years had seen her mistress of Kellynch Hall, presiding and
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directing with a self-possession and decision which could never have given
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the idea of her being younger than she was. For thirteen years had
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she been doing the honours, and laying down the domestic law at home,
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and leading the way to the chaise and four, and walking immediately after
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Lady Russell out of all the drawing-rooms and dining-rooms in the country.
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Thirteen winters' revolving frosts had seen her opening every ball
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of credit which a scanty neighbourhood afforded, and thirteen springs
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shewn their blossoms, as she travelled up to London with her father,
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for a few weeks' annual enjoyment of the great world. She had
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the remembrance of all this, she had the consciousness of being
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nine-and-twenty to give her some regrets and some apprehensions;
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she was fully satisfied of being still quite as handsome as ever,
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but she felt her approach to the years of danger, and would have rejoiced
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to be certain of being properly solicited by baronet-blood within
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the next twelvemonth or two. Then might she again take up
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the book of books with as much enjoyment as in her early youth,
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but now she liked it not. Always to be presented with the date of
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her own birth and see no marriage follow but that of a youngest sister,
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made the book an evil; and more than once, when her father had left it
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open on the table near her, had she closed it, with averted eyes,
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and pushed it away.
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She had had a disappointment, moreover, which that book,
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and especially the history of her own family, must ever present
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the remembrance of. The heir presumptive, the very William Walter
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Elliot, Esq., whose rights had been so generously supported
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by her father, had disappointed her.
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She had, while a very young girl, as soon as she had known him to be,
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in the event of her having no brother, the future baronet,
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meant to marry him, and her father had always meant that she should.
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He had not been known to them as a boy; but soon after Lady Elliot's death,
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Sir Walter had sought the acquaintance, and though his overtures
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had not been met with any warmth, he had persevered in seeking it,
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making allowance for the modest drawing-back of youth; and, in one of
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their spring excursions to London, when Elizabeth was in her first bloom,
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Mr Elliot had been forced into the introduction.
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He was at that time a very young man, just engaged in the study of the law;
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and Elizabeth found him extremely agreeable, and every plan in his favour
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was confirmed. He was invited to Kellynch Hall; he was talked of
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and expected all the rest of the year; but he never came.
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The following spring he was seen again in town, found equally agreeable,
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again encouraged, invited, and expected, and again he did not come;
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and the next tidings were that he was married. Instead of pushing
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his fortune in the line marked out for the heir of the house of Elliot,
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he had purchased independence by uniting himself to a rich woman
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of inferior birth.
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Sir Walter has resented it. As the head of the house, he felt that
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he ought to have been consulted, especially after taking the young man
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so publicly by the hand; "For they must have been seen together,"
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he observed, "once at Tattersal's, and twice in the lobby of
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the House of Commons." His disapprobation was expressed,
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but apparently very little regarded. Mr Elliot had attempted no apology,
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and shewn himself as unsolicitous of being longer noticed by the family,
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as Sir Walter considered him unworthy of it: all acquaintance between
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them had ceased.
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This very awkward history of Mr Elliot was still, after an interval
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of several years, felt with anger by Elizabeth, who had liked the man
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for himself, and still more for being her father's heir, and whose
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strong family pride could see only in him a proper match for Sir Walter
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Elliot's eldest daughter. There was not a baronet from A to Z whom
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her feelings could have so willingly acknowledged as an equal.
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Yet so miserably had he conducted himself, that though she was
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at this present time (the summer of 1814) wearing black ribbons
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for his wife, she could not admit him to be worth thinking of again.
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The disgrace of his first marriage might, perhaps, as there was
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no reason to suppose it perpetuated by offspring, have been got over,
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had he not done worse; but he had, as by the accustomary intervention
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of kind friends, they had been informed, spoken most disrespectfully
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of them all, most slightingly and contemptuously of the very blood
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he belonged to, and the honours which were hereafter to be his own.
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This could not be pardoned.
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Such were Elizabeth Elliot's sentiments and sensations; such the cares
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to alloy, the agitations to vary, the sameness and the elegance,
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the prosperity and the nothingness of her scene of life;
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such the feelings to give interest to a long, uneventful residence
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in one country circle, to fill the vacancies which there were no habits
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of utility abroad, no talents or accomplishments for home, to occupy.
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But now, another occupation and solicitude of mind was beginning to be
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added to these. Her father was growing distressed for money.
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She knew, that when he now took up the Baronetage, it was to drive
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the heavy bills of his tradespeople, and the unwelcome hints of
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Mr Shepherd, his agent, from his thoughts. The Kellynch property was good,
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but not equal to Sir Walter's apprehension of the state required
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in its possessor. While Lady Elliot lived, there had been method,
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moderation, and economy, which had just kept him within his income;
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but with her had died all such right-mindedness, and from that period
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he had been constantly exceeding it. It had not been possible
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for him to spend less; he had done nothing but what Sir Walter Elliot
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|
was imperiously called on to do; but blameless as he was, he was
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not only growing dreadfully in debt, but was hearing of it so often,
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that it became vain to attempt concealing it longer, even partially,
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from his daughter. He had given her some hints of it the last spring
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in town; he had gone so far even as to say, "Can we retrench?
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Does it occur to you that there is any one article in which
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we can retrench?" and Elizabeth, to do her justice, had, in the first
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ardour of female alarm, set seriously to think what could be done,
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|
and had finally proposed these two branches of economy, to cut off
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some unnecessary charities, and to refrain from new furnishing
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the drawing-room; to which expedients she afterwards added
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|
the happy thought of their taking no present down to Anne,
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|
as had been the usual yearly custom. But these measures,
|
|
however good in themselves, were insufficient for the real extent
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|
of the evil, the whole of which Sir Walter found himself obliged
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|
to confess to her soon afterwards. Elizabeth had nothing to propose
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|
of deeper efficacy. She felt herself ill-used and unfortunate,
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|
as did her father; and they were neither of them able to devise
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any means of lessening their expenses without compromising their dignity,
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or relinquishing their comforts in a way not to be borne.
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There was only a small part of his estate that Sir Walter could dispose of;
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|
but had every acre been alienable, it would have made no difference.
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|
He had condescended to mortgage as far as he had the power,
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|
but he would never condescend to sell. No; he would never disgrace
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|
his name so far. The Kellynch estate should be transmitted whole
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|
and entire, as he had received it.
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Their two confidential friends, Mr Shepherd, who lived in
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the neighbouring market town, and Lady Russell, were called to advise them;
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|
and both father and daughter seemed to expect that something should be
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struck out by one or the other to remove their embarrassments
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|
and reduce their expenditure, without involving the loss of
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any indulgence of taste or pride.
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Chapter 2
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Mr Shepherd, a civil, cautious lawyer, who, whatever might be his hold
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|
or his views on Sir Walter, would rather have the disagreeable
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prompted by anybody else, excused himself from offering the slightest hint,
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|
and only begged leave to recommend an implicit reference to
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|
the excellent judgement of Lady Russell, from whose known good sense
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|
he fully expected to have just such resolute measures advised as
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|
he meant to see finally adopted.
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Lady Russell was most anxiously zealous on the subject, and gave it
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|
much serious consideration. She was a woman rather of sound than of
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|
quick abilities, whose difficulties in coming to any decision
|
|
in this instance were great, from the opposition of two leading principles.
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|
She was of strict integrity herself, with a delicate sense of honour;
|
|
but she was as desirous of saving Sir Walter's feelings, as solicitous
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|
for the credit of the family, as aristocratic in her ideas of what
|
|
was due to them, as anybody of sense and honesty could well be.
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|
She was a benevolent, charitable, good woman, and capable of
|
|
strong attachments, most correct in her conduct, strict in her notions
|
|
of decorum, and with manners that were held a standard of good-breeding.
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|
She had a cultivated mind, and was, generally speaking,
|
|
rational and consistent; but she had prejudices on the side of ancestry;
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|
she had a value for rank and consequence, which blinded her a little
|
|
to the faults of those who possessed them. Herself the widow of
|
|
only a knight, she gave the dignity of a baronet all its due;
|
|
and Sir Walter, independent of his claims as an old acquaintance,
|
|
an attentive neighbour, an obliging landlord, the husband of her
|
|
very dear friend, the father of Anne and her sisters, was,
|
|
as being Sir Walter, in her apprehension, entitled to a great deal
|
|
of compassion and consideration under his present difficulties.
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|
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|
They must retrench; that did not admit of a doubt. But she was
|
|
very anxious to have it done with the least possible pain to him
|
|
and Elizabeth. She drew up plans of economy, she made exact calculations,
|
|
and she did what nobody else thought of doing: she consulted Anne,
|
|
who never seemed considered by the others as having any interest
|
|
in the question. She consulted, and in a degree was influenced by her
|
|
in marking out the scheme of retrenchment which was at last submitted
|
|
to Sir Walter. Every emendation of Anne's had been on the side of
|
|
honesty against importance. She wanted more vigorous measures,
|
|
a more complete reformation, a quicker release from debt,
|
|
a much higher tone of indifference for everything but justice and equity.
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|
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|
"If we can persuade your father to all this," said Lady Russell,
|
|
looking over her paper, "much may be done. If he will adopt
|
|
these regulations, in seven years he will be clear; and I hope
|
|
we may be able to convince him and Elizabeth, that Kellynch Hall has
|
|
a respectability in itself which cannot be affected by these reductions;
|
|
and that the true dignity of Sir Walter Elliot will be very far from
|
|
lessened in the eyes of sensible people, by acting like a man of principle.
|
|
What will he be doing, in fact, but what very many of our first families
|
|
have done, or ought to do? There will be nothing singular in his case;
|
|
and it is singularity which often makes the worst part of our suffering,
|
|
as it always does of our conduct. I have great hope of prevailing.
|
|
We must be serious and decided; for after all, the person who
|
|
has contracted debts must pay them; and though a great deal is due to
|
|
the feelings of the gentleman, and the head of a house, like your father,
|
|
there is still more due to the character of an honest man."
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|
|
|
This was the principle on which Anne wanted her father to be proceeding,
|
|
his friends to be urging him. She considered it as an act
|
|
of indispensable duty to clear away the claims of creditors with
|
|
all the expedition which the most comprehensive retrenchments
|
|
could secure, and saw no dignity in anything short of it.
|
|
She wanted it to be prescribed, and felt as a duty. She rated
|
|
Lady Russell's influence highly; and as to the severe degree
|
|
of self-denial which her own conscience prompted, she believed
|
|
there might be little more difficulty in persuading them to a complete,
|
|
than to half a reformation. Her knowledge of her father
|
|
and Elizabeth inclined her to think that the sacrifice of one pair
|
|
of horses would be hardly less painful than of both, and so on,
|
|
through the whole list of Lady Russell's too gentle reductions.
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|
|
|
How Anne's more rigid requisitions might have been taken
|
|
is of little consequence. Lady Russell's had no success at all:
|
|
could not be put up with, were not to be borne. "What! every comfort
|
|
of life knocked off! Journeys, London, servants, horses, table--
|
|
contractions and restrictions every where! To live no longer
|
|
with the decencies even of a private gentleman! No, he would sooner
|
|
quit Kellynch Hall at once, than remain in it on such disgraceful terms."
|
|
|
|
"Quit Kellynch Hall." The hint was immediately taken up by Mr Shepherd,
|
|
whose interest was involved in the reality of Sir Walter's retrenching,
|
|
and who was perfectly persuaded that nothing would be done without
|
|
a change of abode. "Since the idea had been started in the very quarter
|
|
which ought to dictate, he had no scruple," he said, "in confessing
|
|
his judgement to be entirely on that side. It did not appear to him
|
|
that Sir Walter could materially alter his style of living in a house
|
|
which had such a character of hospitality and ancient dignity to support.
|
|
In any other place Sir Walter might judge for himself; and would
|
|
be looked up to, as regulating the modes of life in whatever way
|
|
he might choose to model his household."
|
|
|
|
Sir Walter would quit Kellynch Hall; and after a very few days more
|
|
of doubt and indecision, the great question of whither he should go
|
|
was settled, and the first outline of this important change made out.
|
|
|
|
There had been three alternatives, London, Bath, or another house
|
|
in the country. All Anne's wishes had been for the latter.
|
|
A small house in their own neighbourhood, where they might still have
|
|
Lady Russell's society, still be near Mary, and still have the pleasure
|
|
of sometimes seeing the lawns and groves of Kellynch, was the object
|
|
of her ambition. But the usual fate of Anne attended her,
|
|
in having something very opposite from her inclination fixed on.
|
|
She disliked Bath, and did not think it agreed with her;
|
|
and Bath was to be her home.
|
|
|
|
Sir Walter had at first thought more of London; but Mr Shepherd felt
|
|
that he could not be trusted in London, and had been skillful enough
|
|
to dissuade him from it, and make Bath preferred. It was a much safer
|
|
place for a gentleman in his predicament: he might there be important
|
|
at comparatively little expense. Two material advantages of Bath
|
|
over London had of course been given all their weight: its more convenient
|
|
distance from Kellynch, only fifty miles, and Lady Russell's spending
|
|
some part of every winter there; and to the very great satisfaction
|
|
of Lady Russell, whose first views on the projected change had been
|
|
for Bath, Sir Walter and Elizabeth were induced to believe that
|
|
they should lose neither consequence nor enjoyment by settling there.
|
|
|
|
Lady Russell felt obliged to oppose her dear Anne's known wishes.
|
|
It would be too much to expect Sir Walter to descend into a small house
|
|
in his own neighbourhood. Anne herself would have found
|
|
the mortifications of it more than she foresaw, and to Sir Walter's
|
|
feelings they must have been dreadful. And with regard to Anne's
|
|
dislike of Bath, she considered it as a prejudice and mistake arising,
|
|
first, from the circumstance of her having been three years
|
|
at school there, after her mother's death; and secondly,
|
|
from her happening to be not in perfectly good spirits the only winter
|
|
which she had afterwards spent there with herself.
|
|
|
|
Lady Russell was fond of Bath, in short, and disposed to think
|
|
it must suit them all; and as to her young friend's health,
|
|
by passing all the warm months with her at Kellynch Lodge,
|
|
every danger would be avoided; and it was in fact, a change which must
|
|
do both health and spirits good. Anne had been too little from home,
|
|
too little seen. Her spirits were not high. A larger society
|
|
would improve them. She wanted her to be more known.
|
|
|
|
The undesirableness of any other house in the same neighbourhood
|
|
for Sir Walter was certainly much strengthened by one part,
|
|
and a very material part of the scheme, which had been happily
|
|
engrafted on the beginning. He was not only to quit his home,
|
|
but to see it in the hands of others; a trial of fortitude,
|
|
which stronger heads than Sir Walter's have found too much.
|
|
Kellynch Hall was to be let. This, however, was a profound secret,
|
|
not to be breathed beyond their own circle.
|
|
|
|
Sir Walter could not have borne the degradation of being known
|
|
to design letting his house. Mr Shepherd had once mentioned the word
|
|
"advertise," but never dared approach it again. Sir Walter spurned
|
|
the idea of its being offered in any manner; forbad the slightest hint
|
|
being dropped of his having such an intention; and it was only on
|
|
the supposition of his being spontaneously solicited by some most
|
|
unexceptionable applicant, on his own terms, and as a great favour,
|
|
that he would let it at all.
|
|
|
|
How quick come the reasons for approving what we like! Lady Russell had
|
|
another excellent one at hand, for being extremely glad that Sir Walter
|
|
and his family were to remove from the country. Elizabeth had been
|
|
lately forming an intimacy, which she wished to see interrupted.
|
|
It was with the daughter of Mr Shepherd, who had returned,
|
|
after an unprosperous marriage, to her father's house, with
|
|
the additional burden of two children. She was a clever young woman,
|
|
who understood the art of pleasing--the art of pleasing, at least,
|
|
at Kellynch Hall; and who had made herself so acceptable to Miss Elliot,
|
|
as to have been already staying there more than once, in spite of all
|
|
that Lady Russell, who thought it a friendship quite out of place,
|
|
could hint of caution and reserve.
|
|
|
|
Lady Russell, indeed, had scarcely any influence with Elizabeth,
|
|
and seemed to love her, rather because she would love her,
|
|
than because Elizabeth deserved it. She had never received from her more
|
|
than outward attention, nothing beyond the observances of complaisance;
|
|
had never succeeded in any point which she wanted to carry,
|
|
against previous inclination. She had been repeatedly very earnest
|
|
in trying to get Anne included in the visit to London, sensibly open
|
|
to all the injustice and all the discredit of the selfish arrangements
|
|
which shut her out, and on many lesser occasions had endeavoured
|
|
to give Elizabeth the advantage of her own better judgement and experience;
|
|
but always in vain: Elizabeth would go her own way; and never had she
|
|
pursued it in more decided opposition to Lady Russell than in
|
|
this selection of Mrs Clay; turning from the society of so deserving
|
|
a sister, to bestow her affection and confidence on one who ought
|
|
to have been nothing to her but the object of distant civility.
|
|
|
|
From situation, Mrs Clay was, in Lady Russell's estimate, a very unequal,
|
|
and in her character she believed a very dangerous companion;
|
|
and a removal that would leave Mrs Clay behind, and bring a choice
|
|
of more suitable intimates within Miss Elliot's reach, was therefore
|
|
an object of first-rate importance.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter 3
|
|
|
|
|
|
"I must take leave to observe, Sir Walter," said Mr Shepherd
|
|
one morning at Kellynch Hall, as he laid down the newspaper,
|
|
"that the present juncture is much in our favour. This peace will
|
|
be turning all our rich naval officers ashore. They will be
|
|
all wanting a home. Could not be a better time, Sir Walter,
|
|
for having a choice of tenants, very responsible tenants.
|
|
Many a noble fortune has been made during the war. If a rich admiral
|
|
were to come in our way, Sir Walter--"
|
|
|
|
"He would be a very lucky man, Shepherd," replied Sir Walter;
|
|
"that's all I have to remark. A prize indeed would Kellynch Hall
|
|
be to him; rather the greatest prize of all, let him have taken
|
|
ever so many before; hey, Shepherd?"
|
|
|
|
Mr Shepherd laughed, as he knew he must, at this wit, and then added--
|
|
|
|
"I presume to observe, Sir Walter, that, in the way of business,
|
|
gentlemen of the navy are well to deal with. I have had a little knowledge
|
|
of their methods of doing business; and I am free to confess that they
|
|
have very liberal notions, and are as likely to make desirable tenants
|
|
as any set of people one should meet with. Therefore, Sir Walter,
|
|
what I would take leave to suggest is, that if in consequence of
|
|
any rumours getting abroad of your intention; which must be contemplated
|
|
as a possible thing, because we know how difficult it is to keep
|
|
the actions and designs of one part of the world from the notice
|
|
and curiosity of the other; consequence has its tax; I, John Shepherd,
|
|
might conceal any family-matters that I chose, for nobody would think it
|
|
worth their while to observe me; but Sir Walter Elliot has eyes upon him
|
|
which it may be very difficult to elude; and therefore, thus much
|
|
I venture upon, that it will not greatly surprise me if,
|
|
with all our caution, some rumour of the truth should get abroad;
|
|
in the supposition of which, as I was going to observe, since applications
|
|
will unquestionably follow, I should think any from our wealthy
|
|
naval commanders particularly worth attending to; and beg leave to add,
|
|
that two hours will bring me over at any time, to save you
|
|
the trouble of replying."
|
|
|
|
Sir Walter only nodded. But soon afterwards, rising and pacing the room,
|
|
he observed sarcastically--
|
|
|
|
"There are few among the gentlemen of the navy, I imagine, who would
|
|
not be surprised to find themselves in a house of this description."
|
|
|
|
"They would look around them, no doubt, and bless their good fortune,"
|
|
said Mrs Clay, for Mrs Clay was present: her father had driven her over,
|
|
nothing being of so much use to Mrs Clay's health as a drive to Kellynch:
|
|
"but I quite agree with my father in thinking a sailor might be
|
|
a very desirable tenant. I have known a good deal of the profession;
|
|
and besides their liberality, they are so neat and careful
|
|
in all their ways! These valuable pictures of yours, Sir Walter,
|
|
if you chose to leave them, would be perfectly safe. Everything in
|
|
and about the house would be taken such excellent care of!
|
|
The gardens and shrubberies would be kept in almost as high order
|
|
as they are now. You need not be afraid, Miss Elliot, of your own
|
|
sweet flower gardens being neglected."
|
|
|
|
"As to all that," rejoined Sir Walter coolly, "supposing I were induced
|
|
to let my house, I have by no means made up my mind as to the privileges
|
|
to be annexed to it. I am not particularly disposed to favour a tenant.
|
|
The park would be open to him of course, and few navy officers,
|
|
or men of any other description, can have had such a range;
|
|
but what restrictions I might impose on the use of the pleasure-grounds,
|
|
is another thing. I am not fond of the idea of my shrubberies being
|
|
always approachable; and I should recommend Miss Elliot to be on her guard
|
|
with respect to her flower garden. I am very little disposed
|
|
to grant a tenant of Kellynch Hall any extraordinary favour,
|
|
I assure you, be he sailor or soldier."
|
|
|
|
After a short pause, Mr Shepherd presumed to say--
|
|
|
|
"In all these cases, there are established usages which
|
|
make everything plain and easy between landlord and tenant.
|
|
Your interest, Sir Walter, is in pretty safe hands. Depend upon me
|
|
for taking care that no tenant has more than his just rights.
|
|
I venture to hint, that Sir Walter Elliot cannot be half so jealous
|
|
for his own, as John Shepherd will be for him."
|
|
|
|
Here Anne spoke--
|
|
|
|
"The navy, I think, who have done so much for us, have at least
|
|
an equal claim with any other set of men, for all the comforts and
|
|
all the privileges which any home can give. Sailors work hard enough
|
|
for their comforts, we must all allow."
|
|
|
|
"Very true, very true. What Miss Anne says, is very true,"
|
|
was Mr Shepherd's rejoinder, and "Oh! certainly," was his daughter's;
|
|
but Sir Walter's remark was, soon afterwards--
|
|
|
|
"The profession has its utility, but I should be sorry to see
|
|
any friend of mine belonging to it."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed!" was the reply, and with a look of surprise.
|
|
|
|
"Yes; it is in two points offensive to me; I have two strong grounds
|
|
of objection to it. First, as being the means of bringing persons
|
|
of obscure birth into undue distinction, and raising men to honours
|
|
which their fathers and grandfathers never dreamt of; and secondly,
|
|
as it cuts up a man's youth and vigour most horribly; a sailor grows old
|
|
sooner than any other man. I have observed it all my life.
|
|
A man is in greater danger in the navy of being insulted by the rise
|
|
of one whose father, his father might have disdained to speak to,
|
|
and of becoming prematurely an object of disgust himself, than in
|
|
any other line. One day last spring, in town, I was in company
|
|
with two men, striking instances of what I am talking of;
|
|
Lord St Ives, whose father we all know to have been a country curate,
|
|
without bread to eat; I was to give place to Lord St Ives,
|
|
and a certain Admiral Baldwin, the most deplorable-looking personage
|
|
you can imagine; his face the colour of mahogany, rough and rugged
|
|
to the last degree; all lines and wrinkles, nine grey hairs of a side,
|
|
and nothing but a dab of powder at top. `In the name of heaven,
|
|
who is that old fellow?' said I to a friend of mine who was standing near,
|
|
(Sir Basil Morley). `Old fellow!' cried Sir Basil, `it is Admiral Baldwin.
|
|
What do you take his age to be?' `Sixty,' said I, `or perhaps sixty-two.'
|
|
`Forty,' replied Sir Basil, `forty, and no more.' Picture to yourselves
|
|
my amazement; I shall not easily forget Admiral Baldwin.
|
|
I never saw quite so wretched an example of what a sea-faring life can do;
|
|
but to a degree, I know it is the same with them all: they are all
|
|
knocked about, and exposed to every climate, and every weather,
|
|
till they are not fit to be seen. It is a pity they are not knocked
|
|
on the head at once, before they reach Admiral Baldwin's age."
|
|
|
|
"Nay, Sir Walter," cried Mrs Clay, "this is being severe indeed.
|
|
Have a little mercy on the poor men. We are not all born to be handsome.
|
|
The sea is no beautifier, certainly; sailors do grow old betimes;
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I have observed it; they soon lose the look of youth. But then,
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is not it the same with many other professions, perhaps most other?
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Soldiers, in active service, are not at all better off: and even in
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the quieter professions, there is a toil and a labour of the mind,
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if not of the body, which seldom leaves a man's looks to the natural
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effect of time. The lawyer plods, quite care-worn; the physician
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is up at all hours, and travelling in all weather; and even
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the clergyman--" she stopt a moment to consider what might
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do for the clergyman;--"and even the clergyman, you know is obliged
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to go into infected rooms, and expose his health and looks to
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all the injury of a poisonous atmosphere. In fact, as I have
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long been convinced, though every profession is necessary and honourable
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in its turn, it is only the lot of those who are not obliged to follow any,
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who can live in a regular way, in the country, choosing their own hours,
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following their own pursuits, and living on their own property,
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without the torment of trying for more; it is only their lot, I say,
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to hold the blessings of health and a good appearance to the utmost:
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I know no other set of men but what lose something of their personableness
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when they cease to be quite young."
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It seemed as if Mr Shepherd, in this anxiety to bespeak
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Sir Walter's good will towards a naval officer as tenant,
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had been gifted with foresight; for the very first application
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for the house was from an Admiral Croft, with whom he shortly afterwards
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fell into company in attending the quarter sessions at Taunton; and indeed,
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he had received a hint of the Admiral from a London correspondent.
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By the report which he hastened over to Kellynch to make,
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Admiral Croft was a native of Somersetshire, who having acquired
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a very handsome fortune, was wishing to settle in his own country,
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and had come down to Taunton in order to look at some advertised places
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in that immediate neighbourhood, which, however, had not suited him;
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that accidentally hearing--(it was just as he had foretold,
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Mr Shepherd observed, Sir Walter's concerns could not be kept a secret,)--
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accidentally hearing of the possibility of Kellynch Hall being to let,
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and understanding his (Mr Shepherd's) connection with the owner,
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he had introduced himself to him in order to make particular inquiries,
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and had, in the course of a pretty long conference, expressed as strong
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an inclination for the place as a man who knew it only by description
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could feel; and given Mr Shepherd, in his explicit account of himself,
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every proof of his being a most responsible, eligible tenant.
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"And who is Admiral Croft?" was Sir Walter's cold suspicious inquiry.
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Mr Shepherd answered for his being of a gentleman's family,
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and mentioned a place; and Anne, after the little pause which followed,
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added--
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"He is a rear admiral of the white. He was in the Trafalgar action,
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and has been in the East Indies since; he was stationed there,
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I believe, several years."
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"Then I take it for granted," observed Sir Walter, "that his face
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is about as orange as the cuffs and capes of my livery."
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Mr Shepherd hastened to assure him, that Admiral Croft was a very hale,
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hearty, well-looking man, a little weather-beaten, to be sure,
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but not much, and quite the gentleman in all his notions and behaviour;
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not likely to make the smallest difficulty about terms, only wanted
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a comfortable home, and to get into it as soon as possible;
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knew he must pay for his convenience; knew what rent a ready-furnished
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house of that consequence might fetch; should not have been surprised
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if Sir Walter had asked more; had inquired about the manor;
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would be glad of the deputation, certainly, but made no great point of it;
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said he sometimes took out a gun, but never killed; quite the gentleman.
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Mr Shepherd was eloquent on the subject; pointing out all
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the circumstances of the Admiral's family, which made him
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peculiarly desirable as a tenant. He was a married man,
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and without children; the very state to be wished for. A house was
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never taken good care of, Mr Shepherd observed, without a lady:
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he did not know, whether furniture might not be in danger of suffering
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as much where there was no lady, as where there were many children.
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A lady, without a family, was the very best preserver of furniture
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in the world. He had seen Mrs Croft, too; she was at Taunton
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with the admiral, and had been present almost all the time they were
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talking the matter over.
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"And a very well-spoken, genteel, shrewd lady, she seemed to be,"
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continued he; "asked more questions about the house, and terms,
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and taxes, than the Admiral himself, and seemed more conversant
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with business; and moreover, Sir Walter, I found she was not quite
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unconnected in this country, any more than her husband; that is to say,
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she is sister to a gentleman who did live amongst us once;
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she told me so herself: sister to the gentleman who lived
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a few years back at Monkford. Bless me! what was his name?
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At this moment I cannot recollect his name, though I have heard it so lately.
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Penelope, my dear, can you help me to the name of the gentleman
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who lived at Monkford: Mrs Croft's brother?"
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But Mrs Clay was talking so eagerly with Miss Elliot, that she did not
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hear the appeal.
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"I have no conception whom you can mean, Shepherd; I remember
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no gentleman resident at Monkford since the time of old Governor Trent."
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"Bless me! how very odd! I shall forget my own name soon, I suppose.
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A name that I am so very well acquainted with; knew the gentleman
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so well by sight; seen him a hundred times; came to consult me once,
|
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I remember, about a trespass of one of his neighbours; farmer's man
|
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breaking into his orchard; wall torn down; apples stolen;
|
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caught in the fact; and afterwards, contrary to my judgement,
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submitted to an amicable compromise. Very odd indeed!"
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After waiting another moment--
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"You mean Mr Wentworth, I suppose?" said Anne.
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Mr Shepherd was all gratitude.
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"Wentworth was the very name! Mr Wentworth was the very man.
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He had the curacy of Monkford, you know, Sir Walter, some time back,
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for two or three years. Came there about the year ---5, I take it.
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You remember him, I am sure."
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"Wentworth? Oh! ay,--Mr Wentworth, the curate of Monkford.
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You misled me by the term gentleman. I thought you were speaking of
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some man of property: Mr Wentworth was nobody, I remember;
|
|
quite unconnected; nothing to do with the Strafford family.
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One wonders how the names of many of our nobility become so common."
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As Mr Shepherd perceived that this connexion of the Crofts did them
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no service with Sir Walter, he mentioned it no more; returning,
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with all his zeal, to dwell on the circumstances more indisputably
|
|
in their favour; their age, and number, and fortune; the high idea
|
|
they had formed of Kellynch Hall, and extreme solicitude for
|
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the advantage of renting it; making it appear as if they ranked
|
|
nothing beyond the happiness of being the tenants of Sir Walter Elliot:
|
|
an extraordinary taste, certainly, could they have been supposed in
|
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the secret of Sir Walter's estimate of the dues of a tenant.
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It succeeded, however; and though Sir Walter must ever look with
|
|
an evil eye on anyone intending to inhabit that house, and think them
|
|
infinitely too well off in being permitted to rent it on the highest terms,
|
|
he was talked into allowing Mr Shepherd to proceed in the treaty,
|
|
and authorising him to wait on Admiral Croft, who still remained
|
|
at Taunton, and fix a day for the house being seen.
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|
|
Sir Walter was not very wise; but still he had experience enough
|
|
of the world to feel, that a more unobjectionable tenant,
|
|
in all essentials, than Admiral Croft bid fair to be, could hardly offer.
|
|
So far went his understanding; and his vanity supplied a little
|
|
additional soothing, in the Admiral's situation in life, which was just
|
|
high enough, and not too high. "I have let my house to Admiral Croft,"
|
|
would sound extremely well; very much better than to any mere Mr--;
|
|
a Mr (save, perhaps, some half dozen in the nation,) always needs
|
|
a note of explanation. An admiral speaks his own consequence,
|
|
and, at the same time, can never make a baronet look small.
|
|
In all their dealings and intercourse, Sir Walter Elliot must ever
|
|
have the precedence.
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|
|
|
Nothing could be done without a reference to Elizabeth:
|
|
but her inclination was growing so strong for a removal,
|
|
that she was happy to have it fixed and expedited by a tenant at hand;
|
|
and not a word to suspend decision was uttered by her.
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|
|
|
Mr Shepherd was completely empowered to act; and no sooner had
|
|
such an end been reached, than Anne, who had been a most attentive listener
|
|
to the whole, left the room, to seek the comfort of cool air for her
|
|
flushed cheeks; and as she walked along a favourite grove, said,
|
|
with a gentle sigh, "A few months more, and he, perhaps,
|
|
may be walking here."
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Chapter 4
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He was not Mr Wentworth, the former curate of Monkford,
|
|
however suspicious appearances may be, but a Captain Frederick Wentworth,
|
|
his brother, who being made commander in consequence of the action
|
|
off St Domingo, and not immediately employed, had come into Somersetshire,
|
|
in the summer of 1806; and having no parent living, found a home
|
|
for half a year at Monkford. He was, at that time, a remarkably fine
|
|
young man, with a great deal of intelligence, spirit, and brilliancy;
|
|
and Anne an extremely pretty girl, with gentleness, modesty, taste,
|
|
and feeling. Half the sum of attraction, on either side, might have
|
|
been enough, for he had nothing to do, and she had hardly anybody to love;
|
|
but the encounter of such lavish recommendations could not fail.
|
|
They were gradually acquainted, and when acquainted, rapidly and
|
|
deeply in love. It would be difficult to say which had seen
|
|
highest perfection in the other, or which had been the happiest:
|
|
she, in receiving his declarations and proposals, or he in
|
|
having them accepted.
|
|
|
|
A short period of exquisite felicity followed, and but a short one.
|
|
Troubles soon arose. Sir Walter, on being applied to, without actually
|
|
withholding his consent, or saying it should never be, gave it all
|
|
the negative of great astonishment, great coldness, great silence,
|
|
and a professed resolution of doing nothing for his daughter.
|
|
He thought it a very degrading alliance; and Lady Russell, though with
|
|
more tempered and pardonable pride, received it as a most unfortunate one.
|
|
|
|
Anne Elliot, with all her claims of birth, beauty, and mind,
|
|
to throw herself away at nineteen; involve herself at nineteen
|
|
in an engagement with a young man, who had nothing but himself
|
|
to recommend him, and no hopes of attaining affluence, but in the chances
|
|
of a most uncertain profession, and no connexions to secure
|
|
even his farther rise in the profession, would be, indeed, a throwing away,
|
|
which she grieved to think of! Anne Elliot, so young; known to so few,
|
|
to be snatched off by a stranger without alliance or fortune;
|
|
or rather sunk by him into a state of most wearing, anxious,
|
|
youth-killing dependence! It must not be, if by any fair interference
|
|
of friendship, any representations from one who had almost a mother's love,
|
|
and mother's rights, it would be prevented.
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth had no fortune. He had been lucky in his profession;
|
|
but spending freely, what had come freely, had realized nothing.
|
|
But he was confident that he should soon be rich: full of life and ardour,
|
|
he knew that he should soon have a ship, and soon be on a station
|
|
that would lead to everything he wanted. He had always been lucky;
|
|
he knew he knew he should be so still. Such confidence, powerful
|
|
in its own warmth, and bewitching in the wit which often expressed it,
|
|
must have been enough for Anne; but Lady Russell saw it very differently.
|
|
His sanguine temper, and fearlessness of mind, operated very differently
|
|
on her. She saw in it but an aggravation of the evil. It only added
|
|
a dangerous character to himself. He was brilliant, he was headstrong.
|
|
Lady Russell had little taste for wit, and of anything approaching to
|
|
imprudence a horror. She deprecated the connexion in every light.
|
|
|
|
Such opposition, as these feelings produced, was more than
|
|
Anne could combat. Young and gentle as she was, it might yet
|
|
have been possible to withstand her father's ill-will,
|
|
though unsoftened by one kind word or look on the part of her sister;
|
|
but Lady Russell, whom she had always loved and relied on, could not,
|
|
with such steadiness of opinion, and such tenderness of manner,
|
|
be continually advising her in vain. She was persuaded to believe
|
|
the engagement a wrong thing: indiscreet, improper, hardly capable
|
|
of success, and not deserving it. But it was not a merely selfish caution,
|
|
under which she acted, in putting an end to it. Had she not
|
|
imagined herself consulting his good, even more than her own,
|
|
she could hardly have given him up. The belief of being prudent,
|
|
and self-denying, principally for his advantage, was her chief consolation,
|
|
under the misery of a parting, a final parting; and every consolation
|
|
was required, for she had to encounter all the additional pain of opinions,
|
|
on his side, totally unconvinced and unbending, and of his feeling himself
|
|
ill used by so forced a relinquishment. He had left the country
|
|
in consequence.
|
|
|
|
A few months had seen the beginning and the end of their acquaintance;
|
|
but not with a few months ended Anne's share of suffering from it.
|
|
Her attachment and regrets had, for a long time, clouded every
|
|
enjoyment of youth, and an early loss of bloom and spirits
|
|
had been their lasting effect.
|
|
|
|
More than seven years were gone since this little history
|
|
of sorrowful interest had reached its close; and time had
|
|
softened down much, perhaps nearly all of peculiar attachment to him,
|
|
but she had been too dependent on time alone; no aid had been given
|
|
in change of place (except in one visit to Bath soon after the rupture),
|
|
or in any novelty or enlargement of society. No one had ever
|
|
come within the Kellynch circle, who could bear a comparison with
|
|
Frederick Wentworth, as he stood in her memory. No second attachment,
|
|
the only thoroughly natural, happy, and sufficient cure,
|
|
at her time of life, had been possible to the nice tone of her mind,
|
|
the fastidiousness of her taste, in the small limits of the society
|
|
around them. She had been solicited, when about two-and-twenty,
|
|
to change her name, by the young man, who not long afterwards found
|
|
a more willing mind in her younger sister; and Lady Russell had
|
|
lamented her refusal; for Charles Musgrove was the eldest son of a man,
|
|
whose landed property and general importance were second in that country,
|
|
only to Sir Walter's, and of good character and appearance;
|
|
and however Lady Russell might have asked yet for something more,
|
|
while Anne was nineteen, she would have rejoiced to see her at twenty-two
|
|
so respectably removed from the partialities and injustice of
|
|
her father's house, and settled so permanently near herself.
|
|
But in this case, Anne had left nothing for advice to do;
|
|
and though Lady Russell, as satisfied as ever with her own discretion,
|
|
never wished the past undone, she began now to have the anxiety
|
|
which borders on hopelessness for Anne's being tempted, by some man
|
|
of talents and independence, to enter a state for which she held her
|
|
to be peculiarly fitted by her warm affections and domestic habits.
|
|
|
|
They knew not each other's opinion, either its constancy or its change,
|
|
on the one leading point of Anne's conduct, for the subject was never
|
|
alluded to; but Anne, at seven-and-twenty, thought very differently
|
|
from what she had been made to think at nineteen. She did not blame
|
|
Lady Russell, she did not blame herself for having been guided by her;
|
|
but she felt that were any young person, in similar circumstances,
|
|
to apply to her for counsel, they would never receive any of such
|
|
certain immediate wretchedness, such uncertain future good.
|
|
She was persuaded that under every disadvantage of disapprobation at home,
|
|
and every anxiety attending his profession, all their probable fears,
|
|
delays, and disappointments, she should yet have been a happier woman
|
|
in maintaining the engagement, than she had been in the sacrifice of it;
|
|
and this, she fully believed, had the usual share, had even more than
|
|
the usual share of all such solicitudes and suspense been theirs,
|
|
without reference to the actual results of their case, which,
|
|
as it happened, would have bestowed earlier prosperity than
|
|
could be reasonably calculated on. All his sanguine expectations,
|
|
all his confidence had been justified. His genius and ardour
|
|
had seemed to foresee and to command his prosperous path.
|
|
He had, very soon after their engagement ceased, got employ:
|
|
and all that he had told her would follow, had taken place.
|
|
He had distinguished himself, and early gained the other step in rank,
|
|
and must now, by successive captures, have made a handsome fortune.
|
|
She had only navy lists and newspapers for her authority,
|
|
but she could not doubt his being rich; and, in favour of his constancy,
|
|
she had no reason to believe him married.
|
|
|
|
How eloquent could Anne Elliot have been! how eloquent, at least,
|
|
were her wishes on the side of early warm attachment, and a cheerful
|
|
confidence in futurity, against that over-anxious caution which
|
|
seems to insult exertion and distrust Providence! She had been forced
|
|
into prudence in her youth, she learned romance as she grew older:
|
|
the natural sequel of an unnatural beginning.
|
|
|
|
With all these circumstances, recollections and feelings,
|
|
she could not hear that Captain Wentworth's sister was likely
|
|
to live at Kellynch without a revival of former pain; and many a stroll,
|
|
and many a sigh, were necessary to dispel the agitation of the idea.
|
|
She often told herself it was folly, before she could harden her nerves
|
|
sufficiently to feel the continual discussion of the Crofts
|
|
and their business no evil. She was assisted, however, by that
|
|
perfect indifference and apparent unconsciousness, among the only three
|
|
of her own friends in the secret of the past, which seemed almost to deny
|
|
any recollection of it. She could do justice to the superiority
|
|
of Lady Russell's motives in this, over those of her father and Elizabeth;
|
|
she could honour all the better feelings of her calmness;
|
|
but the general air of oblivion among them was highly important
|
|
from whatever it sprung; and in the event of Admiral Croft's really
|
|
taking Kellynch Hall, she rejoiced anew over the conviction which
|
|
had always been most grateful to her, of the past being known to
|
|
those three only among her connexions, by whom no syllable,
|
|
she believed, would ever be whispered, and in the trust that among his,
|
|
the brother only with whom he had been residing, had received
|
|
any information of their short-lived engagement. That brother had been
|
|
long removed from the country and being a sensible man, and, moreover,
|
|
a single man at the time, she had a fond dependence on no human creature's
|
|
having heard of it from him.
|
|
|
|
The sister, Mrs Croft, had then been out of England, accompanying
|
|
her husband on a foreign station, and her own sister, Mary,
|
|
had been at school while it all occurred; and never admitted by
|
|
the pride of some, and the delicacy of others, to the smallest knowledge
|
|
of it afterwards.
|
|
|
|
With these supports, she hoped that the acquaintance between herself
|
|
and the Crofts, which, with Lady Russell, still resident in Kellynch,
|
|
and Mary fixed only three miles off, must be anticipated,
|
|
need not involve any particular awkwardness.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter 5
|
|
|
|
|
|
On the morning appointed for Admiral and Mrs Croft's seeing Kellynch Hall,
|
|
Anne found it most natural to take her almost daily walk to Lady Russell's,
|
|
and keep out of the way till all was over; when she found it most natural
|
|
to be sorry that she had missed the opportunity of seeing them.
|
|
|
|
This meeting of the two parties proved highly satisfactory,
|
|
and decided the whole business at once. Each lady was previously
|
|
well disposed for an agreement, and saw nothing, therefore,
|
|
but good manners in the other; and with regard to the gentlemen,
|
|
there was such an hearty good humour, such an open, trusting liberality
|
|
on the Admiral's side, as could not but influence Sir Walter,
|
|
who had besides been flattered into his very best and most polished
|
|
behaviour by Mr Shepherd's assurances of his being known, by report,
|
|
to the Admiral, as a model of good breeding.
|
|
|
|
The house and grounds, and furniture, were approved, the Crofts
|
|
were approved, terms, time, every thing, and every body, was right;
|
|
and Mr Shepherd's clerks were set to work, without there having been
|
|
a single preliminary difference to modify of all that
|
|
"This indenture sheweth."
|
|
|
|
Sir Walter, without hesitation, declared the Admiral to be
|
|
the best-looking sailor he had ever met with, and went so far as to say,
|
|
that if his own man might have had the arranging of his hair,
|
|
he should not be ashamed of being seen with him any where;
|
|
and the Admiral, with sympathetic cordiality, observed to his wife
|
|
as they drove back through the park, "I thought we should soon
|
|
come to a deal, my dear, in spite of what they told us at Taunton.
|
|
The Baronet will never set the Thames on fire, but there seems to be
|
|
no harm in him." reciprocal compliments, which would have been
|
|
esteemed about equal.
|
|
|
|
The Crofts were to have possession at Michaelmas; and as Sir Walter
|
|
proposed removing to Bath in the course of the preceding month,
|
|
there was no time to be lost in making every dependent arrangement.
|
|
|
|
Lady Russell, convinced that Anne would not be allowed to be of any use,
|
|
or any importance, in the choice of the house which they were
|
|
going to secure, was very unwilling to have her hurried away so soon,
|
|
and wanted to make it possible for her to stay behind till she might
|
|
convey her to Bath herself after Christmas; but having engagements
|
|
of her own which must take her from Kellynch for several weeks,
|
|
she was unable to give the full invitation she wished, and Anne
|
|
though dreading the possible heats of September in all the white glare
|
|
of Bath, and grieving to forego all the influence so sweet and so sad
|
|
of the autumnal months in the country, did not think that,
|
|
everything considered, she wished to remain. It would be most right,
|
|
and most wise, and, therefore must involve least suffering
|
|
to go with the others.
|
|
|
|
Something occurred, however, to give her a different duty.
|
|
Mary, often a little unwell, and always thinking a great deal
|
|
of her own complaints, and always in the habit of claiming Anne
|
|
when anything was the matter, was indisposed; and foreseeing
|
|
that she should not have a day's health all the autumn, entreated,
|
|
or rather required her, for it was hardly entreaty, to come to
|
|
Uppercross Cottage, and bear her company as long as she should want her,
|
|
instead of going to Bath.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot possibly do without Anne," was Mary's reasoning;
|
|
and Elizabeth's reply was, "Then I am sure Anne had better stay,
|
|
for nobody will want her in Bath."
|
|
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To be claimed as a good, though in an improper style, is at least
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better than being rejected as no good at all; and Anne, glad to
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be thought of some use, glad to have anything marked out as a duty,
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and certainly not sorry to have the scene of it in the country,
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and her own dear country, readily agreed to stay.
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This invitation of Mary's removed all Lady Russell's difficulties,
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and it was consequently soon settled that Anne should not go to Bath
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till Lady Russell took her, and that all the intervening time
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should be divided between Uppercross Cottage and Kellynch Lodge.
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So far all was perfectly right; but Lady Russell was almost startled
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by the wrong of one part of the Kellynch Hall plan, when it burst on her,
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which was, Mrs Clay's being engaged to go to Bath with Sir Walter
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and Elizabeth, as a most important and valuable assistant to the latter
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in all the business before her. Lady Russell was extremely sorry
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that such a measure should have been resorted to at all, wondered,
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grieved, and feared; and the affront it contained to Anne,
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in Mrs Clay's being of so much use, while Anne could be of none,
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was a very sore aggravation.
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Anne herself was become hardened to such affronts; but she felt
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the imprudence of the arrangement quite as keenly as Lady Russell.
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With a great deal of quiet observation, and a knowledge,
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which she often wished less, of her father's character, she was
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sensible that results the most serious to his family from the intimacy
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were more than possible. She did not imagine that her father
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had at present an idea of the kind. Mrs Clay had freckles,
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and a projecting tooth, and a clumsy wrist, which he was continually
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making severe remarks upon, in her absence; but she was young,
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and certainly altogether well-looking, and possessed, in an acute mind
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and assiduous pleasing manners, infinitely more dangerous attractions
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than any merely personal might have been. Anne was so impressed
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by the degree of their danger, that she could not excuse herself
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from trying to make it perceptible to her sister. She had little hope
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of success; but Elizabeth, who in the event of such a reverse would be
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so much more to be pitied than herself, should never, she thought,
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have reason to reproach her for giving no warning.
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She spoke, and seemed only to offend. Elizabeth could not conceive
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how such an absurd suspicion should occur to her, and indignantly
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answered for each party's perfectly knowing their situation.
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"Mrs Clay," said she, warmly, "never forgets who she is;
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and as I am rather better acquainted with her sentiments than you can be,
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I can assure you, that upon the subject of marriage they are
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particularly nice, and that she reprobates all inequality of condition
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and rank more strongly than most people. And as to my father,
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I really should not have thought that he, who has kept himself single
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so long for our sakes, need be suspected now. If Mrs Clay were
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a very beautiful woman, I grant you, it might be wrong to have her
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so much with me; not that anything in the world, I am sure,
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would induce my father to make a degrading match, but he might
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be rendered unhappy. But poor Mrs Clay who, with all her merits,
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can never have been reckoned tolerably pretty, I really think poor
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Mrs Clay may be staying here in perfect safety. One would imagine
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you had never heard my father speak of her personal misfortunes,
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though I know you must fifty times. That tooth of her's
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and those freckles. Freckles do not disgust me so very much
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as they do him. I have known a face not materially disfigured by a few,
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but he abominates them. You must have heard him notice
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Mrs Clay's freckles."
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"There is hardly any personal defect," replied Anne,
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"which an agreeable manner might not gradually reconcile one to."
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"I think very differently," answered Elizabeth, shortly;
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"an agreeable manner may set off handsome features, but can never
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alter plain ones. However, at any rate, as I have a great deal more
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at stake on this point than anybody else can have, I think it
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rather unnecessary in you to be advising me."
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Anne had done; glad that it was over, and not absolutely hopeless
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of doing good. Elizabeth, though resenting the suspicion,
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might yet be made observant by it.
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The last office of the four carriage-horses was to draw Sir Walter,
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Miss Elliot, and Mrs Clay to Bath. The party drove off
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in very good spirits; Sir Walter prepared with condescending bows
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for all the afflicted tenantry and cottagers who might have had a hint
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|
to show themselves, and Anne walked up at the same time,
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in a sort of desolate tranquility, to the Lodge, where she was to spend
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the first week.
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Her friend was not in better spirits than herself. Lady Russell felt this
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break-up of the family exceedingly. Their respectability was
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as dear to her as her own, and a daily intercourse had become
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precious by habit. It was painful to look upon their deserted grounds,
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|
and still worse to anticipate the new hands they were to fall into;
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|
and to escape the solitariness and the melancholy of so altered a village,
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|
and be out of the way when Admiral and Mrs Croft first arrived,
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|
she had determined to make her own absence from home begin
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|
when she must give up Anne. Accordingly their removal was made together,
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and Anne was set down at Uppercross Cottage, in the first stage
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of Lady Russell's journey.
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Uppercross was a moderate-sized village, which a few years back
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|
had been completely in the old English style, containing only
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two houses superior in appearance to those of the yeomen and labourers;
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|
the mansion of the squire, with its high walls, great gates, and old trees,
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|
substantial and unmodernized, and the compact, tight parsonage,
|
|
enclosed in its own neat garden, with a vine and a pear-tree
|
|
trained round its casements; but upon the marriage of the young 'squire,
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|
it had received the improvement of a farm-house elevated into a cottage,
|
|
for his residence, and Uppercross Cottage, with its veranda,
|
|
French windows, and other prettiness, was quite as likely to catch
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|
the traveller's eye as the more consistent and considerable aspect
|
|
and premises of the Great House, about a quarter of a mile farther on.
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|
Here Anne had often been staying. She knew the ways of Uppercross
|
|
as well as those of Kellynch. The two families were so continually meeting,
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|
so much in the habit of running in and out of each other's house
|
|
at all hours, that it was rather a surprise to her to find Mary alone;
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|
but being alone, her being unwell and out of spirits was almost
|
|
a matter of course. Though better endowed than the elder sister,
|
|
Mary had not Anne's understanding nor temper. While well, and happy,
|
|
and properly attended to, she had great good humour and excellent spirits;
|
|
but any indisposition sunk her completely. She had no resources
|
|
for solitude; and inheriting a considerable share of the Elliot
|
|
self-importance, was very prone to add to every other distress
|
|
that of fancying herself neglected and ill-used. In person, she was
|
|
inferior to both sisters, and had, even in her bloom, only reached
|
|
the dignity of being "a fine girl." She was now lying on the faded sofa
|
|
of the pretty little drawing-room, the once elegant furniture of which
|
|
had been gradually growing shabby, under the influence of four summers
|
|
and two children; and, on Anne's appearing, greeted her with--
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|
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|
"So, you are come at last! I began to think I should never see you.
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|
I am so ill I can hardly speak. I have not seen a creature
|
|
the whole morning!"
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|
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|
"I am sorry to find you unwell," replied Anne. "You sent me
|
|
such a good account of yourself on Thursday!"
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|
|
|
"Yes, I made the best of it; I always do: but I was very far from well
|
|
at the time; and I do not think I ever was so ill in my life
|
|
as I have been all this morning: very unfit to be left alone, I am sure.
|
|
Suppose I were to be seized of a sudden in some dreadful way,
|
|
and not able to ring the bell! So, Lady Russell would not get out.
|
|
I do not think she has been in this house three times this summer."
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|
|
|
Anne said what was proper, and enquired after her husband.
|
|
"Oh! Charles is out shooting. I have not seen him since seven o'clock.
|
|
He would go, though I told him how ill I was. He said he should not
|
|
stay out long; but he has never come back, and now it is almost one.
|
|
I assure you, I have not seen a soul this whole long morning."
|
|
|
|
"You have had your little boys with you?"
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|
|
|
"Yes, as long as I could bear their noise; but they are so unmanageable
|
|
that they do me more harm than good. Little Charles does not mind
|
|
a word I say, and Walter is growing quite as bad."
|
|
|
|
"Well, you will soon be better now," replied Anne, cheerfully.
|
|
"You know I always cure you when I come. How are your neighbours
|
|
at the Great House?"
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|
|
|
"I can give you no account of them. I have not seen one of them to-day,
|
|
except Mr Musgrove, who just stopped and spoke through the window,
|
|
but without getting off his horse; and though I told him how ill I was,
|
|
not one of them have been near me. It did not happen to suit
|
|
the Miss Musgroves, I suppose, and they never put themselves
|
|
out of their way."
|
|
|
|
"You will see them yet, perhaps, before the morning is gone.
|
|
It is early."
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|
|
|
"I never want them, I assure you. They talk and laugh a great deal
|
|
too much for me. Oh! Anne, I am so very unwell! It was quite unkind
|
|
of you not to come on Thursday."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Mary, recollect what a comfortable account you sent me of yourself!
|
|
You wrote in the cheerfullest manner, and said you were perfectly well,
|
|
and in no hurry for me; and that being the case, you must be aware
|
|
that my wish would be to remain with Lady Russell to the last:
|
|
and besides what I felt on her account, I have really been so busy,
|
|
have had so much to do, that I could not very conveniently have
|
|
left Kellynch sooner."
|
|
|
|
"Dear me! what can you possibly have to do?"
|
|
|
|
"A great many things, I assure you. More than I can recollect
|
|
in a moment; but I can tell you some. I have been making
|
|
a duplicate of the catalogue of my father's books and pictures.
|
|
I have been several times in the garden with Mackenzie,
|
|
trying to understand, and make him understand, which of Elizabeth's plants
|
|
are for Lady Russell. I have had all my own little concerns
|
|
to arrange, books and music to divide, and all my trunks to repack,
|
|
from not having understood in time what was intended as to the waggons:
|
|
and one thing I have had to do, Mary, of a more trying nature:
|
|
going to almost every house in the parish, as a sort of take-leave.
|
|
I was told that they wished it. But all these things took up
|
|
a great deal of time."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! well!" and after a moment's pause, "but you have never asked me
|
|
one word about our dinner at the Pooles yesterday."
|
|
|
|
"Did you go then? I have made no enquiries, because I concluded
|
|
you must have been obliged to give up the party."
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes! I went. I was very well yesterday; nothing at all
|
|
the matter with me till this morning. It would have been strange
|
|
if I had not gone."
|
|
|
|
"I am very glad you were well enough, and I hope you had a pleasant party."
|
|
|
|
"Nothing remarkable. One always knows beforehand what the dinner will be,
|
|
and who will be there; and it is so very uncomfortable not having
|
|
a carriage of one's own. Mr and Mrs Musgrove took me, and we were
|
|
so crowded! They are both so very large, and take up so much room;
|
|
and Mr Musgrove always sits forward. So, there was I, crowded into
|
|
the back seat with Henrietta and Louise; and I think it very likely
|
|
that my illness to-day may be owing to it."
|
|
|
|
A little further perseverance in patience and forced cheerfulness
|
|
on Anne's side produced nearly a cure on Mary's. She could soon
|
|
sit upright on the sofa, and began to hope she might be able
|
|
to leave it by dinner-time. Then, forgetting to think of it,
|
|
she was at the other end of the room, beautifying a nosegay;
|
|
then, she ate her cold meat; and then she was well enough
|
|
to propose a little walk.
|
|
|
|
"Where shall we go?" said she, when they were ready. "I suppose
|
|
you will not like to call at the Great House before they have
|
|
been to see you?"
|
|
|
|
"I have not the smallest objection on that account," replied Anne.
|
|
"I should never think of standing on such ceremony with people I know
|
|
so well as Mrs and the Miss Musgroves."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! but they ought to call upon you as soon as possible.
|
|
They ought to feel what is due to you as my sister. However,
|
|
we may as well go and sit with them a little while, and when we
|
|
have that over, we can enjoy our walk."
|
|
|
|
Anne had always thought such a style of intercourse highly imprudent;
|
|
but she had ceased to endeavour to check it, from believing that,
|
|
though there were on each side continual subjects of offence,
|
|
neither family could now do without it. To the Great House accordingly
|
|
they went, to sit the full half hour in the old-fashioned square parlour,
|
|
with a small carpet and shining floor, to which the present
|
|
daughters of the house were gradually giving the proper air of confusion
|
|
by a grand piano-forte and a harp, flower-stands and little tables
|
|
placed in every direction. Oh! could the originals of the portraits
|
|
against the wainscot, could the gentlemen in brown velvet and
|
|
the ladies in blue satin have seen what was going on, have been conscious
|
|
of such an overthrow of all order and neatness! The portraits themselves
|
|
seemed to be staring in astonishment.
|
|
|
|
The Musgroves, like their houses, were in a state of alteration,
|
|
perhaps of improvement. The father and mother were in the old
|
|
English style, and the young people in the new. Mr and Mrs Musgrove
|
|
were a very good sort of people; friendly and hospitable,
|
|
not much educated, and not at all elegant. Their children had
|
|
more modern minds and manners. There was a numerous family;
|
|
but the only two grown up, excepting Charles, were Henrietta and Louisa,
|
|
young ladies of nineteen and twenty, who had brought from school at Exeter
|
|
all the usual stock of accomplishments, and were now like thousands
|
|
of other young ladies, living to be fashionable, happy, and merry.
|
|
Their dress had every advantage, their faces were rather pretty,
|
|
their spirits extremely good, their manner unembarrassed and pleasant;
|
|
they were of consequence at home, and favourites abroad.
|
|
Anne always contemplated them as some of the happiest creatures
|
|
of her acquaintance; but still, saved as we all are, by some
|
|
comfortable feeling of superiority from wishing for the possibility
|
|
of exchange, she would not have given up her own more elegant
|
|
and cultivated mind for all their enjoyments; and envied them nothing
|
|
but that seemingly perfect good understanding and agreement together,
|
|
that good-humoured mutual affection, of which she had known
|
|
so little herself with either of her sisters.
|
|
|
|
They were received with great cordiality. Nothing seemed amiss
|
|
on the side of the Great House family, which was generally,
|
|
as Anne very well knew, the least to blame. The half hour was
|
|
chatted away pleasantly enough; and she was not at all surprised
|
|
at the end of it, to have their walking party joined by both
|
|
the Miss Musgroves, at Mary's particular invitation.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter 6
|
|
|
|
|
|
Anne had not wanted this visit to Uppercross, to learn that a removal
|
|
from one set of people to another, though at a distance of only three miles,
|
|
will often include a total change of conversation, opinion, and idea.
|
|
She had never been staying there before, without being struck by it,
|
|
or without wishing that other Elliots could have her advantage
|
|
in seeing how unknown, or unconsidered there, were the affairs
|
|
which at Kellynch Hall were treated as of such general publicity
|
|
and pervading interest; yet, with all this experience, she believed
|
|
she must now submit to feel that another lesson, in the art of knowing
|
|
our own nothingness beyond our own circle, was become necessary for her;
|
|
for certainly, coming as she did, with a heart full of the subject
|
|
which had been completely occupying both houses in Kellynch for many weeks,
|
|
she had expected rather more curiosity and sympathy than she found
|
|
in the separate but very similar remark of Mr and Mrs Musgrove:
|
|
"So, Miss Anne, Sir Walter and your sister are gone; and what part of Bath
|
|
do you think they will settle in?" and this, without much
|
|
waiting for an answer; or in the young ladies' addition of,
|
|
"I hope we shall be in Bath in the winter; but remember, papa,
|
|
if we do go, we must be in a good situation: none of your
|
|
Queen Squares for us!" or in the anxious supplement from Mary, of--
|
|
"Upon my word, I shall be pretty well off, when you are all gone away
|
|
to be happy at Bath!"
|
|
|
|
She could only resolve to avoid such self-delusion in future,
|
|
and think with heightened gratitude of the extraordinary blessing
|
|
of having one such truly sympathising friend as Lady Russell.
|
|
|
|
The Mr Musgroves had their own game to guard, and to destroy,
|
|
their own horses, dogs, and newspapers to engage them, and the females
|
|
were fully occupied in all the other common subjects of housekeeping,
|
|
neighbours, dress, dancing, and music. She acknowledged it to be
|
|
very fitting, that every little social commonwealth should dictate
|
|
its own matters of discourse; and hoped, ere long, to become
|
|
a not unworthy member of the one she was now transplanted into.
|
|
With the prospect of spending at least two months at Uppercross,
|
|
it was highly incumbent on her to clothe her imagination, her memory,
|
|
and all her ideas in as much of Uppercross as possible.
|
|
|
|
She had no dread of these two months. Mary was not so repulsive
|
|
and unsisterly as Elizabeth, nor so inaccessible to all influence of hers;
|
|
neither was there anything among the other component parts
|
|
of the cottage inimical to comfort. She was always on friendly terms
|
|
with her brother-in-law; and in the children, who loved her nearly as well,
|
|
and respected her a great deal more than their mother, she had
|
|
an object of interest, amusement, and wholesome exertion.
|
|
|
|
Charles Musgrove was civil and agreeable; in sense and temper he was
|
|
undoubtedly superior to his wife, but not of powers, or conversation,
|
|
or grace, to make the past, as they were connected together,
|
|
at all a dangerous contemplation; though, at the same time,
|
|
Anne could believe, with Lady Russell, that a more equal match
|
|
might have greatly improved him; and that a woman of real understanding
|
|
might have given more consequence to his character, and more usefulness,
|
|
rationality, and elegance to his habits and pursuits. As it was,
|
|
he did nothing with much zeal, but sport; and his time was otherwise
|
|
trifled away, without benefit from books or anything else.
|
|
He had very good spirits, which never seemed much affected by
|
|
his wife's occasional lowness, bore with her unreasonableness
|
|
sometimes to Anne's admiration, and upon the whole, though there was
|
|
very often a little disagreement (in which she had sometimes more share
|
|
than she wished, being appealed to by both parties), they might pass
|
|
for a happy couple. They were always perfectly agreed in the want
|
|
of more money, and a strong inclination for a handsome present
|
|
from his father; but here, as on most topics, he had the superiority,
|
|
for while Mary thought it a great shame that such a present was not made,
|
|
he always contended for his father's having many other uses for his money,
|
|
and a right to spend it as he liked.
|
|
|
|
As to the management of their children, his theory was much better
|
|
than his wife's, and his practice not so bad. "I could manage them
|
|
very well, if it were not for Mary's interference," was what
|
|
Anne often heard him say, and had a good deal of faith in;
|
|
but when listening in turn to Mary's reproach of "Charles spoils
|
|
the children so that I cannot get them into any order," she never had
|
|
the smallest temptation to say, "Very true."
|
|
|
|
One of the least agreeable circumstances of her residence there
|
|
was her being treated with too much confidence by all parties,
|
|
and being too much in the secret of the complaints of each house.
|
|
Known to have some influence with her sister, she was continually requested,
|
|
or at least receiving hints to exert it, beyond what was practicable.
|
|
"I wish you could persuade Mary not to be always fancying herself ill,"
|
|
was Charles's language; and, in an unhappy mood, thus spoke Mary:
|
|
"I do believe if Charles were to see me dying, he would not think
|
|
there was anything the matter with me. I am sure, Anne, if you would,
|
|
you might persuade him that I really am very ill--a great deal worse
|
|
than I ever own."
|
|
|
|
Mary's declaration was, "I hate sending the children to the Great House,
|
|
though their grandmamma is always wanting to see them, for she humours
|
|
and indulges them to such a degree, and gives them so much trash
|
|
and sweet things, that they are sure to come back sick and cross
|
|
for the rest of the day." And Mrs Musgrove took the first opportunity
|
|
of being alone with Anne, to say, "Oh! Miss Anne, I cannot help wishing
|
|
Mrs Charles had a little of your method with those children.
|
|
They are quite different creatures with you! But to be sure,
|
|
in general they are so spoilt! It is a pity you cannot put your sister
|
|
in the way of managing them. They are as fine healthy children
|
|
as ever were seen, poor little dears! without partiality;
|
|
but Mrs Charles knows no more how they should be treated--!
|
|
Bless me! how troublesome they are sometimes. I assure you, Miss Anne,
|
|
it prevents my wishing to see them at our house so often as
|
|
I otherwise should. I believe Mrs Charles is not quite pleased
|
|
with my not inviting them oftener; but you know it is very bad
|
|
to have children with one that one is obligated to be checking
|
|
every moment; "don't do this," and "don't do that;" or that one can
|
|
only keep in tolerable order by more cake than is good for them."
|
|
|
|
She had this communication, moreover, from Mary. "Mrs Musgrove thinks
|
|
all her servants so steady, that it would be high treason
|
|
to call it in question; but I am sure, without exaggeration,
|
|
that her upper house-maid and laundry-maid, instead of being
|
|
in their business, are gadding about the village, all day long.
|
|
I meet them wherever I go; and I declare, I never go twice into my nursery
|
|
without seeing something of them. If Jemima were not the trustiest,
|
|
steadiest creature in the world, it would be enough to spoil her;
|
|
for she tells me, they are always tempting her to take a walk with them."
|
|
And on Mrs Musgrove's side, it was, "I make a rule of never interfering
|
|
in any of my daughter-in-law's concerns, for I know it would not do;
|
|
but I shall tell you, Miss Anne, because you may be able to set things
|
|
to rights, that I have no very good opinion of Mrs Charles's nursery-maid:
|
|
I hear strange stories of her; she is always upon the gad; and from
|
|
my own knowledge, I can declare, she is such a fine-dressing lady,
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that she is enough to ruin any servants she comes near.
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Mrs Charles quite swears by her, I know; but I just give you this hint,
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that you may be upon the watch; because, if you see anything amiss,
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you need not be afraid of mentioning it."
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Again, it was Mary's complaint, that Mrs Musgrove was very apt
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not to give her the precedence that was her due, when they dined
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at the Great House with other families; and she did not see any reason
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why she was to be considered so much at home as to lose her place.
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And one day when Anne was walking with only the Musgroves, one of them
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after talking of rank, people of rank, and jealousy of rank, said,
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"I have no scruple of observing to you, how nonsensical some persons are
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about their place, because all the world knows how easy and indifferent
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you are about it; but I wish anybody could give Mary a hint that
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it would be a great deal better if she were not so very tenacious,
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especially if she would not be always putting herself forward to take
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place of mamma. Nobody doubts her right to have precedence of mamma,
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but it would be more becoming in her not to be always insisting on it.
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It is not that mamma cares about it the least in the world,
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but I know it is taken notice of by many persons."
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How was Anne to set all these matters to rights? She could do little more
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than listen patiently, soften every grievance, and excuse each
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to the other; give them all hints of the forbearance necessary
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between such near neighbours, and make those hints broadest
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which were meant for her sister's benefit.
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In all other respects, her visit began and proceeded very well.
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Her own spirits improved by change of place and subject,
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by being removed three miles from Kellynch; Mary's ailments lessened
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by having a constant companion, and their daily intercourse
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with the other family, since there was neither superior affection,
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confidence, nor employment in the cottage, to be interrupted by it,
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was rather an advantage. It was certainly carried nearly as far as possible,
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for they met every morning, and hardly ever spent an evening asunder;
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but she believed they should not have done so well without the sight
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of Mr and Mrs Musgrove's respectable forms in the usual places,
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or without the talking, laughing, and singing of their daughters.
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She played a great deal better than either of the Miss Musgroves,
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but having no voice, no knowledge of the harp, and no fond parents,
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to sit by and fancy themselves delighted, her performance was
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little thought of, only out of civility, or to refresh the others,
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as she was well aware. She knew that when she played she was
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giving pleasure only to herself; but this was no new sensation.
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Excepting one short period of her life, she had never, since the age
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of fourteen, never since the loss of her dear mother, know the happiness
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of being listened to, or encouraged by any just appreciation or real taste.
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In music she had been always used to feel alone in the world;
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and Mr and Mrs Musgrove's fond partiality for their own daughters'
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performance, and total indifference to any other person's,
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gave her much more pleasure for their sakes, than mortification
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for her own.
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The party at the Great House was sometimes increased by other company.
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The neighbourhood was not large, but the Musgroves were visited
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by everybody, and had more dinner-parties, and more callers,
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more visitors by invitation and by chance, than any other family.
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There were more completely popular.
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The girls were wild for dancing; and the evenings ended, occasionally,
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in an unpremeditated little ball. There was a family of cousins
|
|
within a walk of Uppercross, in less affluent circumstances,
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who depended on the Musgroves for all their pleasures: they would come
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at any time, and help play at anything, or dance anywhere; and Anne,
|
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very much preferring the office of musician to a more active post,
|
|
played country dances to them by the hour together; a kindness which
|
|
always recommended her musical powers to the notice of Mr and Mrs Musgrove
|
|
more than anything else, and often drew this compliment;--
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"Well done, Miss Anne! very well done indeed! Lord bless me!
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how those little fingers of yours fly about!"
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So passed the first three weeks. Michaelmas came; and now Anne's heart
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|
must be in Kellynch again. A beloved home made over to others;
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all the precious rooms and furniture, groves, and prospects,
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|
beginning to own other eyes and other limbs! She could not
|
|
think of much else on the 29th of September; and she had this
|
|
sympathetic touch in the evening from Mary, who, on having occasion
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|
to note down the day of the month, exclaimed, "Dear me, is not this
|
|
the day the Crofts were to come to Kellynch? I am glad I did not
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|
think of it before. How low it makes me!"
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|
The Crofts took possession with true naval alertness, and were
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|
to be visited. Mary deplored the necessity for herself.
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|
"Nobody knew how much she should suffer. She should put it off
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|
as long as she could;" but was not easy till she had talked Charles
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|
into driving her over on an early day, and was in a very animated,
|
|
comfortable state of imaginary agitation, when she came back.
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|
Anne had very sincerely rejoiced in there being no means of her going.
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|
She wished, however to see the Crofts, and was glad to be within
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|
when the visit was returned. They came: the master of the house
|
|
was not at home, but the two sisters were together; and as it chanced
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|
that Mrs Croft fell to the share of Anne, while the Admiral sat by Mary,
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|
and made himself very agreeable by his good-humoured notice
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|
of her little boys, she was well able to watch for a likeness,
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|
and if it failed her in the features, to catch it in the voice,
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|
or in the turn of sentiment and expression.
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|
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Mrs Croft, though neither tall nor fat, had a squareness,
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|
uprightness, and vigour of form, which gave importance to her person.
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|
She had bright dark eyes, good teeth, and altogether an agreeable face;
|
|
though her reddened and weather-beaten complexion, the consequence
|
|
of her having been almost as much at sea as her husband, made her seem to
|
|
have lived some years longer in the world than her real eight-and-thirty.
|
|
Her manners were open, easy, and decided, like one who had
|
|
no distrust of herself, and no doubts of what to do; without any
|
|
approach to coarseness, however, or any want of good humour.
|
|
Anne gave her credit, indeed, for feelings of great consideration
|
|
towards herself, in all that related to Kellynch, and it pleased her:
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|
especially, as she had satisfied herself in the very first half minute,
|
|
in the instant even of introduction, that there was not the smallest
|
|
symptom of any knowledge or suspicion on Mrs Croft's side, to give a bias
|
|
of any sort. She was quite easy on that head, and consequently
|
|
full of strength and courage, till for a moment electrified by
|
|
Mrs Croft's suddenly saying,--
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|
|
|
"It was you, and not your sister, I find, that my brother had
|
|
the pleasure of being acquainted with, when he was in this country."
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|
|
|
Anne hoped she had outlived the age of blushing; but the age of emotion
|
|
she certainly had not.
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|
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|
"Perhaps you may not have heard that he is married?" added Mrs Croft.
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|
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|
She could now answer as she ought; and was happy to feel,
|
|
when Mrs Croft's next words explained it to be Mr Wentworth
|
|
of whom she spoke, that she had said nothing which might not do
|
|
for either brother. She immediately felt how reasonable it was,
|
|
that Mrs Croft should be thinking and speaking of Edward,
|
|
and not of Frederick; and with shame at her own forgetfulness
|
|
applied herself to the knowledge of their former neighbour's
|
|
present state with proper interest.
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|
|
|
The rest was all tranquillity; till, just as they were moving,
|
|
she heard the Admiral say to Mary--
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|
|
|
"We are expecting a brother of Mrs Croft's here soon; I dare say
|
|
you know him by name."
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|
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|
He was cut short by the eager attacks of the little boys,
|
|
clinging to him like an old friend, and declaring he should not go;
|
|
and being too much engrossed by proposals of carrying them away
|
|
in his coat pockets, &c., to have another moment for finishing
|
|
or recollecting what he had begun, Anne was left to persuade herself,
|
|
as well as she could, that the same brother must still be in question.
|
|
She could not, however, reach such a degree of certainty,
|
|
as not to be anxious to hear whether anything had been said on the subject
|
|
at the other house, where the Crofts had previously been calling.
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|
|
|
The folks of the Great House were to spend the evening of this day
|
|
at the Cottage; and it being now too late in the year for such visits
|
|
to be made on foot, the coach was beginning to be listened for,
|
|
when the youngest Miss Musgrove walked in. That she was coming
|
|
to apologize, and that they should have to spend the evening by themselves,
|
|
was the first black idea; and Mary was quite ready to be affronted,
|
|
when Louisa made all right by saying, that she only came on foot,
|
|
to leave more room for the harp, which was bringing in the carriage.
|
|
|
|
"And I will tell you our reason," she added, "and all about it.
|
|
I am come on to give you notice, that papa and mamma are
|
|
out of spirits this evening, especially mamma; she is thinking so much
|
|
of poor Richard! And we agreed it would be best to have the harp,
|
|
for it seems to amuse her more than the piano-forte. I will tell you
|
|
why she is out of spirits. When the Crofts called this morning,
|
|
(they called here afterwards, did not they?), they happened to say,
|
|
that her brother, Captain Wentworth, is just returned to England,
|
|
or paid off, or something, and is coming to see them almost directly;
|
|
and most unluckily it came into mamma's head, when they were gone,
|
|
that Wentworth, or something very like it, was the name of
|
|
poor Richard's captain at one time; I do not know when or where,
|
|
but a great while before he died, poor fellow! And upon looking over
|
|
his letters and things, she found it was so, and is perfectly sure
|
|
that this must be the very man, and her head is quite full of it,
|
|
and of poor Richard! So we must be as merry as we can, that she may not
|
|
be dwelling upon such gloomy things."
|
|
|
|
The real circumstances of this pathetic piece of family history were,
|
|
that the Musgroves had had the ill fortune of a very troublesome,
|
|
hopeless son; and the good fortune to lose him before he reached
|
|
his twentieth year; that he had been sent to sea because he was stupid
|
|
and unmanageable on shore; that he had been very little cared for
|
|
at any time by his family, though quite as much as he deserved;
|
|
seldom heard of, and scarcely at all regretted, when the intelligence
|
|
of his death abroad had worked its way to Uppercross, two years before.
|
|
|
|
He had, in fact, though his sisters were now doing all they could for him,
|
|
by calling him "poor Richard," been nothing better than a thick-headed,
|
|
unfeeling, unprofitable Dick Musgrove, who had never done anything
|
|
to entitle himself to more than the abbreviation of his name,
|
|
living or dead.
|
|
|
|
He had been several years at sea, and had, in the course of those removals
|
|
to which all midshipmen are liable, and especially such midshipmen
|
|
as every captain wishes to get rid of, been six months on board
|
|
Captain Frederick Wentworth's frigate, the Laconia; and from the Laconia
|
|
he had, under the influence of his captain, written the only two letters
|
|
which his father and mother had ever received from him during the whole
|
|
of his absence; that is to say, the only two disinterested letters;
|
|
all the rest had been mere applications for money.
|
|
|
|
In each letter he had spoken well of his captain; but yet,
|
|
so little were they in the habit of attending to such matters,
|
|
so unobservant and incurious were they as to the names of men or ships,
|
|
that it had made scarcely any impression at the time; and that Mrs Musgrove
|
|
should have been suddenly struck, this very day, with a recollection
|
|
of the name of Wentworth, as connected with her son, seemed one of those
|
|
extraordinary bursts of mind which do sometimes occur.
|
|
|
|
She had gone to her letters, and found it all as she supposed;
|
|
and the re-perusal of these letters, after so long an interval,
|
|
her poor son gone for ever, and all the strength of his faults forgotten,
|
|
had affected her spirits exceedingly, and thrown her into
|
|
greater grief for him than she had know on first hearing of his death.
|
|
Mr Musgrove was, in a lesser degree, affected likewise; and when
|
|
they reached the cottage, they were evidently in want, first,
|
|
of being listened to anew on this subject, and afterwards,
|
|
of all the relief which cheerful companions could give them.
|
|
|
|
To hear them talking so much of Captain Wentworth, repeating his name
|
|
so often, puzzling over past years, and at last ascertaining that it might,
|
|
that it probably would, turn out to be the very same Captain Wentworth
|
|
whom they recollected meeting, once or twice, after their coming back
|
|
from Clifton--a very fine young man--but they could not say whether
|
|
it was seven or eight years ago, was a new sort of trial to Anne's nerves.
|
|
She found, however, that it was one to which she must inure herself.
|
|
Since he actually was expected in the country, she must teach herself
|
|
to be insensible on such points. And not only did it appear that
|
|
he was expected, and speedily, but the Musgroves, in their warm gratitude
|
|
for the kindness he had shewn poor Dick, and very high respect
|
|
for his character, stamped as it was by poor Dick's having been
|
|
six months under his care, and mentioning him in strong,
|
|
though not perfectly well-spelt praise, as "a fine dashing felow,
|
|
only two perticular about the schoolmaster," were bent on
|
|
introducing themselves, and seeking his acquaintance, as soon as
|
|
they could hear of his arrival.
|
|
|
|
The resolution of doing so helped to form the comfort of their evening.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter 7
|
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|
|
|
|
A very few days more, and Captain Wentworth was known to be at Kellynch,
|
|
and Mr Musgrove had called on him, and come back warm in his praise,
|
|
and he was engaged with the Crofts to dine at Uppercross,
|
|
by the end of another week. It had been a great disappointment
|
|
to Mr Musgrove to find that no earlier day could be fixed,
|
|
so impatient was he to shew his gratitude, by seeing Captain Wentworth
|
|
under his own roof, and welcoming him to all that was strongest
|
|
and best in his cellars. But a week must pass; only a week,
|
|
in Anne's reckoning, and then, she supposed, they must meet;
|
|
and soon she began to wish that she could feel secure even for a week.
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth made a very early return to Mr Musgrove's civility,
|
|
and she was all but calling there in the same half hour.
|
|
She and Mary were actually setting forward for the Great House,
|
|
where, as she afterwards learnt, they must inevitably have found him,
|
|
when they were stopped by the eldest boy's being at that moment
|
|
brought home in consequence of a bad fall. The child's situation
|
|
put the visit entirely aside; but she could not hear of her escape
|
|
with indifference, even in the midst of the serious anxiety
|
|
which they afterwards felt on his account.
|
|
|
|
His collar-bone was found to be dislocated, and such injury
|
|
received in the back, as roused the most alarming ideas.
|
|
It was an afternoon of distress, and Anne had every thing to do at once;
|
|
the apothecary to send for, the father to have pursued and informed,
|
|
the mother to support and keep from hysterics, the servants to control,
|
|
the youngest child to banish, and the poor suffering one to attend
|
|
and soothe; besides sending, as soon as she recollected it,
|
|
proper notice to the other house, which brought her an accession
|
|
rather of frightened, enquiring companions, than of very useful assistants.
|
|
|
|
Her brother's return was the first comfort; he could take best care
|
|
of his wife; and the second blessing was the arrival of the apothecary.
|
|
Till he came and had examined the child, their apprehensions were
|
|
the worse for being vague; they suspected great injury, but knew not where;
|
|
but now the collar-bone was soon replaced, and though Mr Robinson
|
|
felt and felt, and rubbed, and looked grave, and spoke low words
|
|
both to the father and the aunt, still they were all to hope the best,
|
|
and to be able to part and eat their dinner in tolerable ease of mind;
|
|
and then it was, just before they parted, that the two young aunts
|
|
were able so far to digress from their nephew's state, as to give
|
|
the information of Captain Wentworth's visit; staying five minutes behind
|
|
their father and mother, to endeavour to express how perfectly delighted
|
|
they were with him, how much handsomer, how infinitely more agreeable
|
|
they thought him than any individual among their male acquaintance,
|
|
who had been at all a favourite before. How glad they had been
|
|
to hear papa invite him to stay dinner, how sorry when he said
|
|
it was quite out of his power, and how glad again when he had promised
|
|
in reply to papa and mamma's farther pressing invitations to come
|
|
and dine with them on the morrow--actually on the morrow;
|
|
and he had promised it in so pleasant a manner, as if he felt
|
|
all the motive of their attention just as he ought. And in short,
|
|
he had looked and said everything with such exquisite grace,
|
|
that they could assure them all, their heads were both turned by him;
|
|
and off they ran, quite as full of glee as of love, and apparently
|
|
more full of Captain Wentworth than of little Charles.
|
|
|
|
The same story and the same raptures were repeated, when the two girls came
|
|
with their father, through the gloom of the evening, to make enquiries;
|
|
and Mr Musgrove, no longer under the first uneasiness about his heir,
|
|
could add his confirmation and praise, and hope there would be now
|
|
no occasion for putting Captain Wentworth off, and only be sorry to think
|
|
that the cottage party, probably, would not like to leave the little boy,
|
|
to give him the meeting. "Oh no; as to leaving the little boy,"
|
|
both father and mother were in much too strong and recent alarm
|
|
to bear the thought; and Anne, in the joy of the escape,
|
|
could not help adding her warm protestations to theirs.
|
|
|
|
Charles Musgrove, indeed, afterwards, shewed more of inclination;
|
|
"the child was going on so well, and he wished so much to be introduced
|
|
to Captain Wentworth, that, perhaps, he might join them in the evening;
|
|
he would not dine from home, but he might walk in for half an hour."
|
|
But in this he was eagerly opposed by his wife, with "Oh! no, indeed,
|
|
Charles, I cannot bear to have you go away. Only think if anything
|
|
should happen?"
|
|
|
|
The child had a good night, and was going on well the next day.
|
|
It must be a work of time to ascertain that no injury had been
|
|
done to the spine; but Mr Robinson found nothing to increase alarm,
|
|
and Charles Musgrove began, consequently, to feel no necessity
|
|
for longer confinement. The child was to be kept in bed and amused
|
|
as quietly as possible; but what was there for a father to do?
|
|
This was quite a female case, and it would be highly absurd in him,
|
|
who could be of no use at home, to shut himself up. His father
|
|
very much wished him to meet Captain Wentworth, and there being
|
|
no sufficient reason against it, he ought to go; and it ended in his
|
|
making a bold, public declaration, when he came in from shooting,
|
|
of his meaning to dress directly, and dine at the other house.
|
|
|
|
"Nothing can be going on better than the child," said he;
|
|
"so I told my father, just now, that I would come, and he thought me
|
|
quite right. Your sister being with you, my love, I have no scruple at all.
|
|
You would not like to leave him yourself, but you see I can be of no use.
|
|
Anne will send for me if anything is the matter."
|
|
|
|
Husbands and wives generally understand when opposition will be vain.
|
|
Mary knew, from Charles's manner of speaking, that he was
|
|
quite determined on going, and that it would be of no use to teaze him.
|
|
She said nothing, therefore, till he was out of the room,
|
|
but as soon as there was only Anne to hear--
|
|
|
|
"So you and I are to be left to shift by ourselves, with this
|
|
poor sick child; and not a creature coming near us all the evening!
|
|
I knew how it would be. This is always my luck. If there is
|
|
anything disagreeable going on men are always sure to get out of it,
|
|
and Charles is as bad as any of them. Very unfeeling! I must say
|
|
it is very unfeeling of him to be running away from his poor little boy.
|
|
Talks of his being going on so well! How does he know that he is
|
|
going on well, or that there may not be a sudden change half an hour hence?
|
|
I did not think Charles would have been so unfeeling. So here he is to
|
|
go away and enjoy himself, and because I am the poor mother,
|
|
I am not to be allowed to stir; and yet, I am sure, I am more unfit
|
|
than anybody else to be about the child. My being the mother
|
|
is the very reason why my feelings should not be tried. I am not at all
|
|
equal to it. You saw how hysterical I was yesterday."
|
|
|
|
"But that was only the effect of the suddenness of your alarm--
|
|
of the shock. You will not be hysterical again. I dare say we shall have
|
|
nothing to distress us. I perfectly understand Mr Robinson's directions,
|
|
and have no fears; and indeed, Mary, I cannot wonder at your husband.
|
|
Nursing does not belong to a man; it is not his province.
|
|
A sick child is always the mother's property: her own feelings
|
|
generally make it so."
|
|
|
|
"I hope I am as fond of my child as any mother, but I do not know
|
|
that I am of any more use in the sick-room than Charles,
|
|
for I cannot be always scolding and teazing the poor child when it is ill;
|
|
and you saw, this morning, that if I told him to keep quiet,
|
|
he was sure to begin kicking about. I have not nerves
|
|
for the sort of thing."
|
|
|
|
"But, could you be comfortable yourself, to be spending
|
|
the whole evening away from the poor boy?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; you see his papa can, and why should not I? Jemima is so careful;
|
|
and she could send us word every hour how he was. I really think
|
|
Charles might as well have told his father we would all come.
|
|
I am not more alarmed about little Charles now than he is.
|
|
I was dreadfully alarmed yesterday, but the case is very different to-day."
|
|
|
|
"Well, if you do not think it too late to give notice for yourself,
|
|
suppose you were to go, as well as your husband. Leave little Charles
|
|
to my care. Mr and Mrs Musgrove cannot think it wrong while I remain
|
|
with him."
|
|
|
|
"Are you serious?" cried Mary, her eyes brightening. "Dear me!
|
|
that's a very good thought, very good, indeed. To be sure,
|
|
I may just as well go as not, for I am of no use at home--am I?
|
|
and it only harasses me. You, who have not a mother's feelings,
|
|
are a great deal the properest person. You can make little Charles
|
|
do anything; he always minds you at a word. It will be a great deal better
|
|
than leaving him only with Jemima. Oh! I shall certainly go;
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I am sure I ought if I can, quite as much as Charles, for they want me
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excessively to be acquainted with Captain Wentworth, and I know
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you do not mind being left alone. An excellent thought of yours,
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indeed, Anne. I will go and tell Charles, and get ready directly.
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You can send for us, you know, at a moment's notice, if anything
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is the matter; but I dare say there will be nothing to alarm you.
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I should not go, you may be sure, if I did not feel quite at ease
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about my dear child."
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The next moment she was tapping at her husband's dressing-room door,
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and as Anne followed her up stairs, she was in time for
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the whole conversation, which began with Mary's saying,
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in a tone of great exultation--
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"I mean to go with you, Charles, for I am of no more use at home
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than you are. If I were to shut myself up for ever with the child,
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I should not be able to persuade him to do anything he did not like.
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Anne will stay; Anne undertakes to stay at home and take care of him.
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It is Anne's own proposal, and so I shall go with you, which will be
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a great deal better, for I have not dined at the other house since Tuesday."
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"This is very kind of Anne," was her husband's answer, "and I should be
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very glad to have you go; but it seems rather hard that she should be
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left at home by herself, to nurse our sick child."
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Anne was now at hand to take up her own cause, and the sincerity
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of her manner being soon sufficient to convince him, where conviction
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was at least very agreeable, he had no farther scruples as to her being
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left to dine alone, though he still wanted her to join them in the evening,
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when the child might be at rest for the night, and kindly urged her
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to let him come and fetch her, but she was quite unpersuadable;
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and this being the case, she had ere long the pleasure of seeing them
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set off together in high spirits. They were gone, she hoped,
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to be happy, however oddly constructed such happiness might seem;
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as for herself, she was left with as many sensations of comfort,
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as were, perhaps, ever likely to be hers. She knew herself to be
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of the first utility to the child; and what was it to her
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if Frederick Wentworth were only half a mile distant, making himself
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agreeable to others?
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She would have liked to know how he felt as to a meeting.
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Perhaps indifferent, if indifference could exist under such circumstances.
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He must be either indifferent or unwilling. Had he wished
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ever to see her again, he need not have waited till this time;
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he would have done what she could not but believe that in his place
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she should have done long ago, when events had been early giving him
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the independence which alone had been wanting.
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Her brother and sister came back delighted with their new acquaintance,
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and their visit in general. There had been music, singing,
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talking, laughing, all that was most agreeable; charming manners
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in Captain Wentworth, no shyness or reserve; they seemed all
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to know each other perfectly, and he was coming the very next morning
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to shoot with Charles. He was to come to breakfast, but not at the Cottage,
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though that had been proposed at first; but then he had been pressed
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to come to the Great House instead, and he seemed afraid of being
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in Mrs Charles Musgrove's way, on account of the child, and therefore,
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somehow, they hardly knew how, it ended in Charles's being to meet him
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to breakfast at his father's.
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Anne understood it. He wished to avoid seeing her. He had inquired
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after her, she found, slightly, as might suit a former slight acquaintance,
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seeming to acknowledge such as she had acknowledged, actuated, perhaps,
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by the same view of escaping introduction when they were to meet.
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The morning hours of the Cottage were always later than those
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of the other house, and on the morrow the difference was so great
|
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that Mary and Anne were not more than beginning breakfast when
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Charles came in to say that they were just setting off, that he was
|
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come for his dogs, that his sisters were following with Captain Wentworth;
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his sisters meaning to visit Mary and the child, and Captain Wentworth
|
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proposing also to wait on her for a few minutes if not inconvenient;
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and though Charles had answered for the child's being in no such state
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as could make it inconvenient, Captain Wentworth would not be satisfied
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without his running on to give notice.
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Mary, very much gratified by this attention, was delighted to receive him,
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while a thousand feelings rushed on Anne, of which this was
|
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the most consoling, that it would soon be over. And it was soon over.
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In two minutes after Charles's preparation, the others appeared;
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they were in the drawing-room. Her eye half met Captain Wentworth's,
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a bow, a curtsey passed; she heard his voice; he talked to Mary,
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said all that was right, said something to the Miss Musgroves,
|
|
enough to mark an easy footing; the room seemed full, full of persons
|
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and voices, but a few minutes ended it. Charles shewed himself
|
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at the window, all was ready, their visitor had bowed and was gone,
|
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the Miss Musgroves were gone too, suddenly resolving to walk
|
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to the end of the village with the sportsmen: the room was cleared,
|
|
and Anne might finish her breakfast as she could.
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"It is over! it is over!" she repeated to herself again and again,
|
|
in nervous gratitude. "The worst is over!"
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Mary talked, but she could not attend. She had seen him.
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They had met. They had been once more in the same room.
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|
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Soon, however, she began to reason with herself, and try to be feeling less.
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|
Eight years, almost eight years had passed, since all had been given up.
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How absurd to be resuming the agitation which such an interval
|
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had banished into distance and indistinctness! What might not
|
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eight years do? Events of every description, changes, alienations,
|
|
removals--all, all must be comprised in it, and oblivion of the past--
|
|
how natural, how certain too! It included nearly a third part
|
|
of her own life.
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Alas! with all her reasoning, she found, that to retentive feelings
|
|
eight years may be little more than nothing.
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Now, how were his sentiments to be read? Was this like
|
|
wishing to avoid her? And the next moment she was hating herself
|
|
for the folly which asked the question.
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On one other question which perhaps her utmost wisdom
|
|
might not have prevented, she was soon spared all suspense;
|
|
for, after the Miss Musgroves had returned and finished their visit
|
|
at the Cottage she had this spontaneous information from Mary: --
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|
|
"Captain Wentworth is not very gallant by you, Anne, though he was
|
|
so attentive to me. Henrietta asked him what he thought of you,
|
|
when they went away, and he said, `You were so altered he should not
|
|
have known you again.'"
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|
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Mary had no feelings to make her respect her sister's in a common way,
|
|
but she was perfectly unsuspicious of being inflicting any peculiar wound.
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|
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"Altered beyond his knowledge." Anne fully submitted, in silent,
|
|
deep mortification. Doubtless it was so, and she could take no revenge,
|
|
for he was not altered, or not for the worse. She had already
|
|
acknowledged it to herself, and she could not think differently,
|
|
let him think of her as he would. No: the years which had destroyed
|
|
her youth and bloom had only given him a more glowing, manly,
|
|
open look, in no respect lessening his personal advantages.
|
|
She had seen the same Frederick Wentworth.
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|
|
|
"So altered that he should not have known her again!" These were words
|
|
which could not but dwell with her. Yet she soon began to rejoice
|
|
that she had heard them. They were of sobering tendency;
|
|
they allayed agitation; they composed, and consequently must
|
|
make her happier.
|
|
|
|
Frederick Wentworth had used such words, or something like them,
|
|
but without an idea that they would be carried round to her.
|
|
He had thought her wretchedly altered, and in the first moment of appeal,
|
|
had spoken as he felt. He had not forgiven Anne Elliot.
|
|
She had used him ill, deserted and disappointed him; and worse,
|
|
she had shewn a feebleness of character in doing so, which his own decided,
|
|
confident temper could not endure. She had given him up to oblige others.
|
|
It had been the effect of over-persuasion. It had been
|
|
weakness and timidity.
|
|
|
|
He had been most warmly attached to her, and had never seen a woman since
|
|
whom he thought her equal; but, except from some natural sensation
|
|
of curiosity, he had no desire of meeting her again. Her power with him
|
|
was gone for ever.
|
|
|
|
It was now his object to marry. He was rich, and being turned on shore,
|
|
fully intended to settle as soon as he could be properly tempted;
|
|
actually looking round, ready to fall in love with all the speed
|
|
which a clear head and a quick taste could allow. He had a heart
|
|
for either of the Miss Musgroves, if they could catch it; a heart,
|
|
in short, for any pleasing young woman who came in his way,
|
|
excepting Anne Elliot. This was his only secret exception,
|
|
when he said to his sister, in answer to her suppositions:--
|
|
|
|
"Yes, here I am, Sophia, quite ready to make a foolish match.
|
|
Anybody between fifteen and thirty may have me for asking.
|
|
A little beauty, and a few smiles, and a few compliments to the navy,
|
|
and I am a lost man. Should not this be enough for a sailor,
|
|
who has had no society among women to make him nice?"
|
|
|
|
He said it, she knew, to be contradicted. His bright proud eye
|
|
spoke the conviction that he was nice; and Anne Elliot was
|
|
not out of his thoughts, when he more seriously described
|
|
the woman he should wish to meet with. "A strong mind,
|
|
with sweetness of manner," made the first and the last of the description.
|
|
|
|
"That is the woman I want," said he. "Something a little inferior
|
|
I shall of course put up with, but it must not be much. If I am a fool,
|
|
I shall be a fool indeed, for I have thought on the subject
|
|
more than most men."
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|
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|
|
Chapter 8
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|
|
From this time Captain Wentworth and Anne Elliot were repeatedly
|
|
in the same circle. They were soon dining in company together
|
|
at Mr Musgrove's, for the little boy's state could no longer
|
|
supply his aunt with a pretence for absenting herself; and this was
|
|
but the beginning of other dinings and other meetings.
|
|
|
|
Whether former feelings were to be renewed must be brought to the proof;
|
|
former times must undoubtedly be brought to the recollection of each;
|
|
they could not but be reverted to; the year of their engagement
|
|
could not but be named by him, in the little narratives or descriptions
|
|
which conversation called forth. His profession qualified him,
|
|
his disposition lead him, to talk; and "That was in the year six;"
|
|
"That happened before I went to sea in the year six," occurred
|
|
in the course of the first evening they spent together:
|
|
and though his voice did not falter, and though she had no reason
|
|
to suppose his eye wandering towards her while he spoke,
|
|
Anne felt the utter impossibility, from her knowledge of his mind,
|
|
that he could be unvisited by remembrance any more than herself.
|
|
There must be the same immediate association of thought,
|
|
though she was very far from conceiving it to be of equal pain.
|
|
|
|
They had no conversation together, no intercourse but what
|
|
the commonest civility required. Once so much to each other!
|
|
Now nothing! There had been a time, when of all the large party
|
|
now filling the drawing-room at Uppercross, they would have found it
|
|
most difficult to cease to speak to one another. With the exception,
|
|
perhaps, of Admiral and Mrs Croft, who seemed particularly attached
|
|
and happy, (Anne could allow no other exceptions even among
|
|
the married couples), there could have been no two hearts so open,
|
|
no tastes so similar, no feelings so in unison, no countenances so beloved.
|
|
Now they were as strangers; nay, worse than strangers, for they could
|
|
never become acquainted. It was a perpetual estrangement.
|
|
|
|
When he talked, she heard the same voice, and discerned the same mind.
|
|
There was a very general ignorance of all naval matters throughout the party;
|
|
and he was very much questioned, and especially by the two Miss Musgroves,
|
|
who seemed hardly to have any eyes but for him, as to the manner
|
|
of living on board, daily regulations, food, hours, &c., and their surprise
|
|
at his accounts, at learning the degree of accommodation and arrangement
|
|
which was practicable, drew from him some pleasant ridicule,
|
|
which reminded Anne of the early days when she too had been ignorant,
|
|
and she too had been accused of supposing sailors to be living on board
|
|
without anything to eat, or any cook to dress it if there were,
|
|
or any servant to wait, or any knife and fork to use.
|
|
|
|
From thus listening and thinking, she was roused by a whisper
|
|
of Mrs Musgrove's who, overcome by fond regrets, could not help saying--
|
|
|
|
"Ah! Miss Anne, if it had pleased Heaven to spare my poor son,
|
|
I dare say he would have been just such another by this time."
|
|
|
|
Anne suppressed a smile, and listened kindly, while Mrs Musgrove
|
|
relieved her heart a little more; and for a few minutes, therefore,
|
|
could not keep pace with the conversation of the others.
|
|
|
|
When she could let her attention take its natural course again,
|
|
she found the Miss Musgroves just fetching the Navy List
|
|
(their own navy list, the first that had ever been at Uppercross),
|
|
and sitting down together to pore over it, with the professed view
|
|
of finding out the ships that Captain Wentworth had commanded.
|
|
|
|
"Your first was the Asp, I remember; we will look for the Asp."
|
|
|
|
"You will not find her there. Quite worn out and broken up.
|
|
I was the last man who commanded her. Hardly fit for service then.
|
|
Reported fit for home service for a year or two, and so I was sent off
|
|
to the West Indies."
|
|
|
|
The girls looked all amazement.
|
|
|
|
"The Admiralty," he continued, "entertain themselves now and then,
|
|
with sending a few hundred men to sea, in a ship not fit to be employed.
|
|
But they have a great many to provide for; and among the thousands
|
|
that may just as well go to the bottom as not, it is impossible
|
|
for them to distinguish the very set who may be least missed."
|
|
|
|
"Phoo! phoo!" cried the Admiral, "what stuff these young fellows talk!
|
|
Never was a better sloop than the Asp in her day. For an old built sloop,
|
|
you would not see her equal. Lucky fellow to get her! He knows there
|
|
must have been twenty better men than himself applying for her
|
|
at the same time. Lucky fellow to get anything so soon,
|
|
with no more interest than his."
|
|
|
|
"I felt my luck, Admiral, I assure you;" replied Captain Wentworth,
|
|
seriously. "I was as well satisfied with my appointment as you can desire.
|
|
It was a great object with me at that time to be at sea;
|
|
a very great object, I wanted to be doing something."
|
|
|
|
"To be sure you did. What should a young fellow like you do ashore
|
|
for half a year together? If a man had not a wife, he soon wants
|
|
to be afloat again."
|
|
|
|
"But, Captain Wentworth," cried Louisa, "how vexed you must have been
|
|
when you came to the Asp, to see what an old thing they had given you."
|
|
|
|
"I knew pretty well what she was before that day;" said he, smiling.
|
|
"I had no more discoveries to make than you would have as to
|
|
the fashion and strength of any old pelisse, which you had seen
|
|
lent about among half your acquaintance ever since you could remember,
|
|
and which at last, on some very wet day, is lent to yourself.
|
|
Ah! she was a dear old Asp to me. She did all that I wanted.
|
|
I knew she would. I knew that we should either go to the bottom together,
|
|
or that she would be the making of me; and I never had two days
|
|
of foul weather all the time I was at sea in her; and after
|
|
taking privateers enough to be very entertaining, I had the good luck
|
|
in my passage home the next autumn, to fall in with the very French frigate
|
|
I wanted. I brought her into Plymouth; and here another instance of luck.
|
|
We had not been six hours in the Sound, when a gale came on,
|
|
which lasted four days and nights, and which would have done for
|
|
poor old Asp in half the time; our touch with the Great Nation
|
|
not having much improved our condition. Four-and-twenty hours later,
|
|
and I should only have been a gallant Captain Wentworth,
|
|
in a small paragraph at one corner of the newspapers; and being lost
|
|
in only a sloop, nobody would have thought about me." Anne's shudderings
|
|
were to herself alone; but the Miss Musgroves could be as open
|
|
as they were sincere, in their exclamations of pity and horror.
|
|
|
|
"And so then, I suppose," said Mrs Musgrove, in a low voice,
|
|
as if thinking aloud, "so then he went away to the Laconia, and there
|
|
he met with our poor boy. Charles, my dear," (beckoning him to her),
|
|
"do ask Captain Wentworth where it was he first met with your poor brother.
|
|
I always forgot."
|
|
|
|
"It was at Gibraltar, mother, I know. Dick had been left ill at Gibraltar,
|
|
with a recommendation from his former captain to Captain Wentworth."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! but, Charles, tell Captain Wentworth, he need not be afraid
|
|
of mentioning poor Dick before me, for it would be rather a pleasure
|
|
to hear him talked of by such a good friend."
|
|
|
|
Charles, being somewhat more mindful of the probabilities of the case,
|
|
only nodded in reply, and walked away.
|
|
|
|
The girls were now hunting for the Laconia; and Captain Wentworth
|
|
could not deny himself the pleasure of taking the precious volume
|
|
into his own hands to save them the trouble, and once more read aloud
|
|
the little statement of her name and rate, and present
|
|
non-commissioned class, observing over it that she too had been
|
|
one of the best friends man ever had.
|
|
|
|
"Ah! those were pleasant days when I had the Laconia! How fast I
|
|
made money in her. A friend of mine and I had such a lovely cruise
|
|
together off the Western Islands. Poor Harville, sister!
|
|
You know how much he wanted money: worse than myself. He had a wife.
|
|
Excellent fellow. I shall never forget his happiness. He felt it all,
|
|
so much for her sake. I wished for him again the next summer,
|
|
when I had still the same luck in the Mediterranean."
|
|
|
|
"And I am sure, Sir." said Mrs Musgrove, "it was a lucky day for us,
|
|
when you were put captain into that ship. We shall never forget
|
|
what you did."
|
|
|
|
Her feelings made her speak low; and Captain Wentworth,
|
|
hearing only in part, and probably not having Dick Musgrove at all
|
|
near his thoughts, looked rather in suspense, and as if waiting for more.
|
|
|
|
"My brother," whispered one of the girls; "mamma is thinking
|
|
of poor Richard."
|
|
|
|
"Poor dear fellow!" continued Mrs Musgrove; "he was grown so steady,
|
|
and such an excellent correspondent, while he was under your care!
|
|
Ah! it would have been a happy thing, if he had never left you.
|
|
I assure you, Captain Wentworth, we are very sorry he ever left you."
|
|
|
|
There was a momentary expression in Captain Wentworth's face at this speech,
|
|
a certain glance of his bright eye, and curl of his handsome mouth,
|
|
which convinced Anne, that instead of sharing in Mrs Musgrove's kind wishes,
|
|
as to her son, he had probably been at some pains to get rid of him;
|
|
but it was too transient an indulgence of self-amusement to be detected
|
|
by any who understood him less than herself; in another moment
|
|
he was perfectly collected and serious, and almost instantly afterwards
|
|
coming up to the sofa, on which she and Mrs Musgrove were sitting,
|
|
took a place by the latter, and entered into conversation with her,
|
|
in a low voice, about her son, doing it with so much sympathy
|
|
and natural grace, as shewed the kindest consideration for all
|
|
that was real and unabsurd in the parent's feelings.
|
|
|
|
They were actually on the same sofa, for Mrs Musgrove had
|
|
most readily made room for him; they were divided only by Mrs Musgrove.
|
|
It was no insignificant barrier, indeed. Mrs Musgrove was of
|
|
a comfortable, substantial size, infinitely more fitted by nature
|
|
to express good cheer and good humour, than tenderness and sentiment;
|
|
and while the agitations of Anne's slender form, and pensive face,
|
|
may be considered as very completely screened, Captain Wentworth
|
|
should be allowed some credit for the self-command with which
|
|
he attended to her large fat sighings over the destiny of a son,
|
|
whom alive nobody had cared for.
|
|
|
|
Personal size and mental sorrow have certainly no necessary proportions.
|
|
A large bulky figure has as good a right to be in deep affliction,
|
|
as the most graceful set of limbs in the world. But, fair or not fair,
|
|
there are unbecoming conjunctions, which reason will patronize in vain--
|
|
which taste cannot tolerate--which ridicule will seize.
|
|
|
|
The Admiral, after taking two or three refreshing turns about the room
|
|
with his hands behind him, being called to order by his wife,
|
|
now came up to Captain Wentworth, and without any observation
|
|
of what he might be interrupting, thinking only of his own thoughts,
|
|
began with--
|
|
|
|
"If you had been a week later at Lisbon, last spring, Frederick,
|
|
you would have been asked to give a passage to Lady Mary Grierson
|
|
and her daughters."
|
|
|
|
"Should I? I am glad I was not a week later then."
|
|
|
|
The Admiral abused him for his want of gallantry. He defended himself;
|
|
though professing that he would never willingly admit any ladies
|
|
on board a ship of his, excepting for a ball, or a visit,
|
|
which a few hours might comprehend.
|
|
|
|
"But, if I know myself," said he, "this is from no want of gallantry
|
|
towards them. It is rather from feeling how impossible it is,
|
|
with all one's efforts, and all one's sacrifices, to make
|
|
the accommodations on board such as women ought to have.
|
|
There can be no want of gallantry, Admiral, in rating the claims of women
|
|
to every personal comfort high, and this is what I do. I hate to hear
|
|
of women on board, or to see them on board; and no ship under my command
|
|
shall ever convey a family of ladies anywhere, if I can help it."
|
|
|
|
This brought his sister upon him.
|
|
|
|
"Oh! Frederick! But I cannot believe it of you. --All idle refinement!
|
|
--Women may be as comfortable on board, as in the best house in England.
|
|
I believe I have lived as much on board as most women, and I know
|
|
nothing superior to the accommodations of a man-of-war. I declare
|
|
I have not a comfort or an indulgence about me, even at Kellynch Hall,"
|
|
(with a kind bow to Anne), "beyond what I always had in most of
|
|
the ships I have lived in; and they have been five altogether."
|
|
|
|
"Nothing to the purpose," replied her brother. "You were living
|
|
with your husband, and were the only woman on board."
|
|
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"But you, yourself, brought Mrs Harville, her sister, her cousin,
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and three children, round from Portsmouth to Plymouth. Where was this
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superfine, extraordinary sort of gallantry of yours then?"
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"All merged in my friendship, Sophia. I would assist any
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brother officer's wife that I could, and I would bring anything
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of Harville's from the world's end, if he wanted it. But do not imagine
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that I did not feel it an evil in itself."
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"Depend upon it, they were all perfectly comfortable."
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"I might not like them the better for that perhaps. Such a number
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of women and children have no right to be comfortable on board."
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"My dear Frederick, you are talking quite idly. Pray, what would
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become of us poor sailors' wives, who often want to be conveyed to
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one port or another, after our husbands, if everybody had your feelings?"
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"My feelings, you see, did not prevent my taking Mrs Harville
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and all her family to Plymouth."
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"But I hate to hear you talking so like a fine gentleman,
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and as if women were all fine ladies, instead of rational creatures.
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We none of us expect to be in smooth water all our days."
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"Ah! my dear," said the Admiral, "when he had got a wife,
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he will sing a different tune. When he is married, if we have
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the good luck to live to another war, we shall see him do as you and I,
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and a great many others, have done. We shall have him very thankful
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to anybody that will bring him his wife."
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"Ay, that we shall."
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"Now I have done," cried Captain Wentworth. "When once married
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people begin to attack me with,--`Oh! you will think very differently,
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when you are married.' I can only say, `No, I shall not;' and then
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they say again, `Yes, you will,' and there is an end of it."
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He got up and moved away.
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"What a great traveller you must have been, ma'am!" said Mrs Musgrove
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to Mrs Croft.
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"Pretty well, ma'am in the fifteen years of my marriage;
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though many women have done more. I have crossed the Atlantic
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four times, and have been once to the East Indies, and back again,
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and only once; besides being in different places about home:
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Cork, and Lisbon, and Gibraltar. But I never went beyond the Streights,
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and never was in the West Indies. We do not call Bermuda or Bahama,
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you know, the West Indies."
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Mrs Musgrove had not a word to say in dissent; she could not accuse herself
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of having ever called them anything in the whole course of her life.
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"And I do assure you, ma'am," pursued Mrs Croft, "that nothing can exceed
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the accommodations of a man-of-war; I speak, you know, of the higher rates.
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When you come to a frigate, of course, you are more confined;
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though any reasonable woman may be perfectly happy in one of them;
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and I can safely say, that the happiest part of my life has been spent
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on board a ship. While we were together, you know, there was nothing
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to be feared. Thank God! I have always been blessed with
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excellent health, and no climate disagrees with me. A little disordered
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always the first twenty-four hours of going to sea, but never knew
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what sickness was afterwards. The only time I ever really suffered
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in body or mind, the only time that I ever fancied myself unwell,
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or had any ideas of danger, was the winter that I passed by myself at Deal,
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when the Admiral (Captain Croft then) was in the North Seas.
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I lived in perpetual fright at that time, and had all manner of
|
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imaginary complaints from not knowing what to do with myself,
|
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or when I should hear from him next; but as long as we could be together,
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nothing ever ailed me, and I never met with the smallest inconvenience."
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"Aye, to be sure. Yes, indeed, oh yes! I am quite of your opinion,
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Mrs Croft," was Mrs Musgrove's hearty answer. "There is nothing so bad
|
|
as a separation. I am quite of your opinion. I know what it is,
|
|
for Mr Musgrove always attends the assizes, and I am so glad when
|
|
they are over, and he is safe back again."
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The evening ended with dancing. On its being proposed,
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Anne offered her services, as usual; and though her eyes would sometimes
|
|
fill with tears as she sat at the instrument, she was extremely glad
|
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to be employed, and desired nothing in return but to be unobserved.
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It was a merry, joyous party, and no one seemed in higher spirits
|
|
than Captain Wentworth. She felt that he had every thing to elevate
|
|
him which general attention and deference, and especially the attention
|
|
of all the young women, could do. The Miss Hayters, the females
|
|
of the family of cousins already mentioned, were apparently admitted
|
|
to the honour of being in love with him; and as for Henrietta and Louisa,
|
|
they both seemed so entirely occupied by him, that nothing but
|
|
the continued appearance of the most perfect good-will between themselves
|
|
could have made it credible that they were not decided rivals.
|
|
If he were a little spoilt by such universal, such eager admiration,
|
|
who could wonder?
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These were some of the thoughts which occupied Anne, while her fingers
|
|
were mechanically at work, proceeding for half an hour together,
|
|
equally without error, and without consciousness. Once she felt
|
|
that he was looking at herself, observing her altered features,
|
|
perhaps, trying to trace in them the ruins of the face which had once
|
|
charmed him; and once she knew that he must have spoken of her;
|
|
she was hardly aware of it, till she heard the answer; but then she was
|
|
sure of his having asked his partner whether Miss Elliot never danced?
|
|
The answer was, "Oh, no; never; she has quite given up dancing.
|
|
She had rather play. She is never tired of playing." Once, too,
|
|
he spoke to her. She had left the instrument on the dancing being over,
|
|
and he had sat down to try to make out an air which he wished
|
|
to give the Miss Musgroves an idea of. Unintentionally she returned
|
|
to that part of the room; he saw her, and, instantly rising,
|
|
said, with studied politeness--
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|
|
"I beg your pardon, madam, this is your seat;" and though she immediately
|
|
drew back with a decided negative, he was not to be induced
|
|
to sit down again.
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Anne did not wish for more of such looks and speeches.
|
|
His cold politeness, his ceremonious grace, were worse than anything.
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Chapter 9
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Captain Wentworth was come to Kellynch as to a home, to stay
|
|
as long as he liked, being as thoroughly the object of
|
|
the Admiral's fraternal kindness as of his wife's. He had intended,
|
|
on first arriving, to proceed very soon into Shropshire,
|
|
and visit the brother settled in that country, but the attractions
|
|
of Uppercross induced him to put this off. There was so much
|
|
of friendliness, and of flattery, and of everything most bewitching
|
|
in his reception there; the old were so hospitable, the young so agreeable,
|
|
that he could not but resolve to remain where he was, and take all
|
|
the charms and perfections of Edward's wife upon credit a little longer.
|
|
|
|
It was soon Uppercross with him almost every day. The Musgroves
|
|
could hardly be more ready to invite than he to come, particularly
|
|
in the morning, when he had no companion at home, for the Admiral
|
|
and Mrs Croft were generally out of doors together, interesting themselves
|
|
in their new possessions, their grass, and their sheep, and dawdling about
|
|
in a way not endurable to a third person, or driving out in a gig,
|
|
lately added to their establishment.
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|
|
|
Hitherto there had been but one opinion of Captain Wentworth
|
|
among the Musgroves and their dependencies. It was unvarying,
|
|
warm admiration everywhere; but this intimate footing was not more
|
|
than established, when a certain Charles Hayter returned among them,
|
|
to be a good deal disturbed by it, and to think Captain Wentworth
|
|
very much in the way.
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|
|
|
Charles Hayter was the eldest of all the cousins, and a very amiable,
|
|
pleasing young man, between whom and Henrietta there had been
|
|
a considerable appearance of attachment previous to Captain Wentworth's
|
|
introduction. He was in orders; and having a curacy in the neighbourhood,
|
|
where residence was not required, lived at his father's house,
|
|
only two miles from Uppercross. A short absence from home
|
|
had left his fair one unguarded by his attentions at this critical period,
|
|
and when he came back he had the pain of finding very altered manners,
|
|
and of seeing Captain Wentworth.
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|
|
|
Mrs Musgrove and Mrs Hayter were sisters. They had each had money,
|
|
but their marriages had made a material difference in
|
|
their degree of consequence. Mr Hayter had some property of his own,
|
|
but it was insignificant compared with Mr Musgrove's; and while
|
|
the Musgroves were in the first class of society in the country,
|
|
the young Hayters would, from their parents' inferior, retired,
|
|
and unpolished way of living, and their own defective education,
|
|
have been hardly in any class at all, but for their connexion
|
|
with Uppercross, this eldest son of course excepted, who had chosen
|
|
to be a scholar and a gentleman, and who was very superior
|
|
in cultivation and manners to all the rest.
|
|
|
|
The two families had always been on excellent terms, there being no pride
|
|
on one side, and no envy on the other, and only such a consciousness
|
|
of superiority in the Miss Musgroves, as made them pleased
|
|
to improve their cousins. Charles's attentions to Henrietta
|
|
had been observed by her father and mother without any disapprobation.
|
|
"It would not be a great match for her; but if Henrietta liked him,"--
|
|
and Henrietta did seem to like him.
|
|
|
|
Henrietta fully thought so herself, before Captain Wentworth came;
|
|
but from that time Cousin Charles had been very much forgotten.
|
|
|
|
Which of the two sisters was preferred by Captain Wentworth was
|
|
as yet quite doubtful, as far as Anne's observation reached.
|
|
Henrietta was perhaps the prettiest, Louisa had the higher spirits;
|
|
and she knew not now, whether the more gentle or the more lively character
|
|
were most likely to attract him.
|
|
|
|
Mr and Mrs Musgrove, either from seeing little, or from
|
|
an entire confidence in the discretion of both their daughters,
|
|
and of all the young men who came near them, seemed to leave everything
|
|
to take its chance. There was not the smallest appearance of solicitude
|
|
or remark about them in the Mansion-house; but it was different
|
|
at the Cottage: the young couple there were more disposed
|
|
to speculate and wonder; and Captain Wentworth had not been above
|
|
four or five times in the Miss Musgroves' company, and Charles Hayter
|
|
had but just reappeared, when Anne had to listen to the opinions
|
|
of her brother and sister, as to which was the one liked best.
|
|
Charles gave it for Louisa, Mary for Henrietta, but quite agreeing
|
|
that to have him marry either could be extremely delightful.
|
|
|
|
Charles "had never seen a pleasanter man in his life; and from what
|
|
he had once heard Captain Wentworth himself say, was very sure that
|
|
he had not made less than twenty thousand pounds by the war.
|
|
Here was a fortune at once; besides which, there would be the chance
|
|
of what might be done in any future war; and he was sure Captain Wentworth
|
|
was as likely a man to distinguish himself as any officer in the navy.
|
|
Oh! it would be a capital match for either of his sisters."
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word it would," replied Mary. "Dear me! If he should
|
|
rise to any very great honours! If he should ever be made a baronet!
|
|
`Lady Wentworth' sounds very well. That would be a noble thing,
|
|
indeed, for Henrietta! She would take place of me then, and Henrietta
|
|
would not dislike that. Sir Frederick and Lady Wentworth!
|
|
It would be but a new creation, however, and I never think much
|
|
of your new creations."
|
|
|
|
It suited Mary best to think Henrietta the one preferred
|
|
on the very account of Charles Hayter, whose pretensions she wished
|
|
to see put an end to. She looked down very decidedly upon the Hayters,
|
|
and thought it would be quite a misfortune to have the existing connection
|
|
between the families renewed--very sad for herself and her children.
|
|
|
|
"You know," said she, "I cannot think him at all a fit match for Henrietta;
|
|
and considering the alliances which the Musgroves have made,
|
|
she has no right to throw herself away. I do not think any young woman
|
|
has a right to make a choice that may be disagreeable and inconvenient
|
|
to the principal part of her family, and be giving bad connections
|
|
to those who have not been used to them. And, pray, who is Charles Hayter?
|
|
Nothing but a country curate. A most improper match for Miss Musgrove
|
|
of Uppercross."
|
|
|
|
Her husband, however, would not agree with her here; for besides having
|
|
a regard for his cousin, Charles Hayter was an eldest son,
|
|
and he saw things as an eldest son himself.
|
|
|
|
"Now you are taking nonsense, Mary," was therefore his answer.
|
|
"It would not be a great match for Henrietta, but Charles has
|
|
a very fair chance, through the Spicers, of getting something from
|
|
the Bishop in the course of a year or two; and you will please to remember,
|
|
that he is the eldest son; whenever my uncle dies, he steps into very
|
|
pretty property. The estate at Winthrop is not less than
|
|
two hundred and fifty acres, besides the farm near Taunton,
|
|
which is some of the best land in the country. I grant you,
|
|
that any of them but Charles would be a very shocking match for Henrietta,
|
|
and indeed it could not be; he is the only one that could be possible;
|
|
but he is a very good-natured, good sort of a fellow; and whenever Winthrop
|
|
comes into his hands, he will make a different sort of place of it,
|
|
and live in a very different sort of way; and with that property,
|
|
he will never be a contemptible man--good, freehold property. No, no;
|
|
Henrietta might do worse than marry Charles Hayter; and if she has him,
|
|
and Louisa can get Captain Wentworth, I shall be very well satisfied."
|
|
|
|
"Charles may say what he pleases," cried Mary to Anne, as soon as
|
|
he was out of the room, "but it would be shocking to have Henrietta
|
|
marry Charles Hayter; a very bad thing for her, and still worse
|
|
for me; and therefore it is very much to be wished that Captain Wentworth
|
|
may soon put him quite out of her head, and I have very little doubt
|
|
that he has. She took hardly any notice of Charles Hayter yesterday.
|
|
I wish you had been there to see her behaviour. And as to
|
|
Captain Wentworth's liking Louisa as well as Henrietta, it is nonsense
|
|
to say so; for he certainly does like Henrietta a great deal the best.
|
|
But Charles is so positive! I wish you had been with us yesterday,
|
|
for then you might have decided between us; and I am sure you
|
|
would have thought as I did, unless you had been determined
|
|
to give it against me."
|
|
|
|
A dinner at Mr Musgrove's had been the occasion when all these things
|
|
should have been seen by Anne; but she had staid at home,
|
|
under the mixed plea of a headache of her own, and some return
|
|
of indisposition in little Charles. She had thought only of avoiding
|
|
Captain Wentworth; but an escape from being appealed to as umpire
|
|
was now added to the advantages of a quiet evening.
|
|
|
|
As to Captain Wentworth's views, she deemed it of more consequence
|
|
that he should know his own mind early enough not to be endangering
|
|
the happiness of either sister, or impeaching his own honour,
|
|
than that he should prefer Henrietta to Louisa, or Louisa to Henrietta.
|
|
Either of them would, in all probability, make him an affectionate,
|
|
good-humoured wife. With regard to Charles Hayter, she had delicacy
|
|
which must be pained by any lightness of conduct in a well-meaning
|
|
young woman, and a heart to sympathize in any of the sufferings
|
|
it occasioned; but if Henrietta found herself mistaken in the nature
|
|
of her feelings, the alternation could not be understood too soon.
|
|
|
|
Charles Hayter had met with much to disquiet and mortify him
|
|
in his cousin's behaviour. She had too old a regard for him
|
|
to be so wholly estranged as might in two meetings extinguish
|
|
every past hope, and leave him nothing to do but to keep away
|
|
from Uppercross: but there was such a change as became very alarming,
|
|
when such a man as Captain Wentworth was to be regarded as
|
|
the probable cause. He had been absent only two Sundays,
|
|
and when they parted, had left her interested, even to the height
|
|
of his wishes, in his prospect of soon quitting his present curacy,
|
|
and obtaining that of Uppercross instead. It had then seemed the object
|
|
nearest her heart, that Dr Shirley, the rector, who for more than
|
|
forty years had been zealously discharging all the duties of his office,
|
|
but was now growing too infirm for many of them, should be quite fixed
|
|
on engaging a curate; should make his curacy quite as good
|
|
as he could afford, and should give Charles Hayter the promise of it.
|
|
The advantage of his having to come only to Uppercross, instead of going
|
|
six miles another way; of his having, in every respect, a better curacy;
|
|
of his belonging to their dear Dr Shirley, and of dear, good Dr Shirley's
|
|
being relieved from the duty which he could no longer get through
|
|
without most injurious fatigue, had been a great deal, even to Louisa,
|
|
but had been almost everything to Henrietta. When he came back, alas!
|
|
the zeal of the business was gone by. Louisa could not listen at all
|
|
to his account of a conversation which he had just held with Dr Shirley:
|
|
she was at a window, looking out for Captain Wentworth; and even Henrietta
|
|
had at best only a divided attention to give, and seemed to have forgotten
|
|
all the former doubt and solicitude of the negotiation.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I am very glad indeed: but I always thought you would have it;
|
|
I always thought you sure. It did not appear to me that--in short,
|
|
you know, Dr Shirley must have a curate, and you had secured his promise.
|
|
Is he coming, Louisa?"
|
|
|
|
One morning, very soon after the dinner at the Musgroves,
|
|
at which Anne had not been present, Captain Wentworth walked into
|
|
the drawing-room at the Cottage, where were only herself and the little
|
|
invalid Charles, who was lying on the sofa.
|
|
|
|
The surprise of finding himself almost alone with Anne Elliot,
|
|
deprived his manners of their usual composure: he started,
|
|
and could only say, "I thought the Miss Musgroves had been here:
|
|
Mrs Musgrove told me I should find them here," before he walked
|
|
to the window to recollect himself, and feel how he ought to behave.
|
|
|
|
"They are up stairs with my sister: they will be down in a few moments,
|
|
I dare say," had been Anne's reply, in all the confusion that was natural;
|
|
and if the child had not called her to come and do something for him,
|
|
she would have been out of the room the next moment, and released
|
|
Captain Wentworth as well as herself.
|
|
|
|
He continued at the window; and after calmly and politely saying,
|
|
"I hope the little boy is better," was silent.
|
|
|
|
She was obliged to kneel down by the sofa, and remain there
|
|
to satisfy her patient; and thus they continued a few minutes,
|
|
when, to her very great satisfaction, she heard some other person
|
|
crossing the little vestibule. She hoped, on turning her head,
|
|
to see the master of the house; but it proved to be one
|
|
much less calculated for making matters easy--Charles Hayter,
|
|
probably not at all better pleased by the sight of Captain Wentworth
|
|
than Captain Wentworth had been by the sight of Anne.
|
|
|
|
She only attempted to say, "How do you do? Will you not sit down?
|
|
The others will be here presently."
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth, however, came from his window, apparently
|
|
not ill-disposed for conversation; but Charles Hayter soon put an end
|
|
to his attempts by seating himself near the table, and taking up
|
|
the newspaper; and Captain Wentworth returned to his window.
|
|
|
|
Another minute brought another addition. The younger boy,
|
|
a remarkable stout, forward child, of two years old, having got the door
|
|
opened for him by some one without, made his determined appearance
|
|
among them, and went straight to the sofa to see what was going on,
|
|
and put in his claim to anything good that might be giving away.
|
|
|
|
There being nothing to eat, he could only have some play;
|
|
and as his aunt would not let him tease his sick brother,
|
|
he began to fasten himself upon her, as she knelt, in such a way that,
|
|
busy as she was about Charles, she could not shake him off.
|
|
She spoke to him, ordered, entreated, and insisted in vain.
|
|
Once she did contrive to push him away, but the boy had
|
|
the greater pleasure in getting upon her back again directly.
|
|
|
|
"Walter," said she, "get down this moment. You are extremely troublesome.
|
|
I am very angry with you."
|
|
|
|
"Walter," cried Charles Hayter, "why do you not do as you are bid?
|
|
Do not you hear your aunt speak? Come to me, Walter, come to
|
|
cousin Charles."
|
|
|
|
But not a bit did Walter stir.
|
|
|
|
In another moment, however, she found herself in the state of
|
|
being released from him; some one was taking him from her,
|
|
though he had bent down her head so much, that his little sturdy hands
|
|
were unfastened from around her neck, and he was resolutely borne away,
|
|
before she knew that Captain Wentworth had done it.
|
|
|
|
Her sensations on the discovery made her perfectly speechless.
|
|
She could not even thank him. She could only hang over little Charles,
|
|
with most disordered feelings. His kindness in stepping forward
|
|
to her relief, the manner, the silence in which it had passed,
|
|
the little particulars of the circumstance, with the conviction soon
|
|
forced on her by the noise he was studiously making with the child,
|
|
that he meant to avoid hearing her thanks, and rather sought
|
|
to testify that her conversation was the last of his wants,
|
|
produced such a confusion of varying, but very painful agitation,
|
|
as she could not recover from, till enabled by the entrance of Mary
|
|
and the Miss Musgroves to make over her little patient to their cares,
|
|
and leave the room. She could not stay. It might have been
|
|
an opportunity of watching the loves and jealousies of the four--
|
|
they were now altogether; but she could stay for none of it.
|
|
It was evident that Charles Hayter was not well inclined towards
|
|
Captain Wentworth. She had a strong impression of his having said,
|
|
in a vext tone of voice, after Captain Wentworth's interference,
|
|
"You ought to have minded me, Walter; I told you not to teaze your aunt;"
|
|
and could comprehend his regretting that Captain Wentworth should do
|
|
what he ought to have done himself. But neither Charles Hayter's feelings,
|
|
nor anybody's feelings, could interest her, till she had a little better
|
|
arranged her own. She was ashamed of herself, quite ashamed
|
|
of being so nervous, so overcome by such a trifle; but so it was,
|
|
and it required a long application of solitude and reflection
|
|
to recover her.
|
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|
|
Chapter 10
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|
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Other opportunities of making her observations could not fail to occur.
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Anne had soon been in company with all the four together often enough
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to have an opinion, though too wise to acknowledge as much at home,
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where she knew it would have satisfied neither husband nor wife;
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for while she considered Louisa to be rather the favourite,
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she could not but think, as far as she might dare to judge from memory
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and experience, that Captain Wentworth was not in love with either.
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They were more in love with him; yet there it was not love.
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It was a little fever of admiration; but it might, probably must,
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end in love with some. Charles Hayter seemed aware of being slighted,
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and yet Henrietta had sometimes the air of being divided between them.
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Anne longed for the power of representing to them all what they were about,
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and of pointing out some of the evils they were exposing themselves to.
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She did not attribute guile to any. It was the highest satisfaction
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to her to believe Captain Wentworth not in the least aware
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of the pain he was occasioning. There was no triumph, no pitiful triumph
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in his manner. He had, probably, never heard, and never thought of
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any claims of Charles Hayter. He was only wrong in accepting
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the attentions (for accepting must be the word) of two young women at once.
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After a short struggle, however, Charles Hayter seemed to quit the field.
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Three days had passed without his coming once to Uppercross;
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a most decided change. He had even refused one regular invitation to dinner;
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and having been found on the occasion by Mr Musgrove with some large books
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before him, Mr and Mrs Musgrove were sure all could not be right,
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and talked, with grave faces, of his studying himself to death.
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It was Mary's hope and belief that he had received a positive dismissal
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from Henrietta, and her husband lived under the constant dependence
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of seeing him to-morrow. Anne could only feel that Charles Hayter
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was wise.
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One morning, about this time Charles Musgrove and Captain Wentworth
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being gone a-shooting together, as the sisters in the Cottage
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were sitting quietly at work, they were visited at the window
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by the sisters from the Mansion-house.
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It was a very fine November day, and the Miss Musgroves came
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through the little grounds, and stopped for no other purpose than to say,
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that they were going to take a long walk, and therefore concluded
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Mary could not like to go with them; and when Mary immediately replied,
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with some jealousy at not being supposed a good walker, "Oh, yes,
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I should like to join you very much, I am very fond of a long walk;"
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Anne felt persuaded, by the looks of the two girls, that it was precisely
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what they did not wish, and admired again the sort of necessity
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which the family habits seemed to produce, of everything being
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to be communicated, and everything being to be done together,
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however undesired and inconvenient. She tried to dissuade Mary from going,
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but in vain; and that being the case, thought it best to accept
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the Miss Musgroves' much more cordial invitation to herself to go likewise,
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as she might be useful in turning back with her sister, and lessening
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the interference in any plan of their own.
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"I cannot imagine why they should suppose I should not like a long walk,"
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said Mary, as she went up stairs. "Everybody is always supposing
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that I am not a good walker; and yet they would not have been pleased,
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if we had refused to join them. When people come in this manner
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on purpose to ask us, how can one say no?"
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Just as they were setting off, the gentlemen returned. They had taken out
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a young dog, who had spoilt their sport, and sent them back early.
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Their time and strength, and spirits, were, therefore, exactly ready
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for this walk, and they entered into it with pleasure. Could Anne
|
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have foreseen such a junction, she would have staid at home; but,
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from some feelings of interest and curiosity, she fancied now that it was
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too late to retract, and the whole six set forward together
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in the direction chosen by the Miss Musgroves, who evidently
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considered the walk as under their guidance.
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Anne's object was, not to be in the way of anybody; and where
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the narrow paths across the fields made many separations necessary,
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to keep with her brother and sister. Her pleasure in the walk
|
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must arise from the exercise and the day, from the view of
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the last smiles of the year upon the tawny leaves, and withered hedges,
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and from repeating to herself some few of the thousand poetical
|
|
descriptions extant of autumn, that season of peculiar and
|
|
inexhaustible influence on the mind of taste and tenderness,
|
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that season which had drawn from every poet, worthy of being read,
|
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some attempt at description, or some lines of feeling.
|
|
She occupied her mind as much as possible in such like musings
|
|
and quotations; but it was not possible, that when within reach
|
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of Captain Wentworth's conversation with either of the Miss Musgroves,
|
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she should not try to hear it; yet she caught little very remarkable.
|
|
It was mere lively chat, such as any young persons, on an intimate footing,
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|
might fall into. He was more engaged with Louisa than with Henrietta.
|
|
Louisa certainly put more forward for his notice than her sister.
|
|
This distinction appeared to increase, and there was one speech
|
|
of Louisa's which struck her. After one of the many praises of the day,
|
|
which were continually bursting forth, Captain Wentworth added: --
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|
|
|
"What glorious weather for the Admiral and my sister! They meant to take
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a long drive this morning; perhaps we may hail them from
|
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some of these hills. They talked of coming into this side of the country.
|
|
I wonder whereabouts they will upset to-day. Oh! it does happen
|
|
very often, I assure you; but my sister makes nothing of it;
|
|
she would as lieve be tossed out as not."
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|
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|
"Ah! You make the most of it, I know," cried Louisa, "but if it were
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|
really so, I should do just the same in her place. If I loved a man,
|
|
as she loves the Admiral, I would always be with him, nothing should ever
|
|
separate us, and I would rather be overturned by him, than driven safely
|
|
by anybody else."
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|
|
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It was spoken with enthusiasm.
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|
|
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"Had you?" cried he, catching the same tone; "I honour you!"
|
|
And there was silence between them for a little while.
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|
|
|
Anne could not immediately fall into a quotation again. The sweet scenes
|
|
of autumn were for a while put by, unless some tender sonnet,
|
|
fraught with the apt analogy of the declining year, with declining
|
|
happiness, and the images of youth and hope, and spring, all gone together,
|
|
blessed her memory. She roused herself to say, as they struck by order
|
|
into another path, "Is not this one of the ways to Winthrop?"
|
|
But nobody heard, or, at least, nobody answered her.
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|
|
|
Winthrop, however, or its environs--for young men are, sometimes
|
|
to be met with, strolling about near home--was their destination;
|
|
and after another half mile of gradual ascent through large enclosures,
|
|
where the ploughs at work, and the fresh made path spoke the farmer
|
|
counteracting the sweets of poetical despondence, and meaning
|
|
to have spring again, they gained the summit of the most considerable hill,
|
|
which parted Uppercross and Winthrop, and soon commanded a full view
|
|
of the latter, at the foot of the hill on the other side.
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|
|
|
Winthrop, without beauty and without dignity, was stretched before them
|
|
an indifferent house, standing low, and hemmed in by the barns and
|
|
buildings of a farm-yard.
|
|
|
|
Mary exclaimed, "Bless me! here is Winthrop. I declare I had no idea!
|
|
Well now, I think we had better turn back; I am excessively tired."
|
|
|
|
Henrietta, conscious and ashamed, and seeing no cousin Charles
|
|
walking along any path, or leaning against any gate, was ready
|
|
to do as Mary wished; but "No!" said Charles Musgrove, and "No, no!"
|
|
cried Louisa more eagerly, and taking her sister aside, seemed to be
|
|
arguing the matter warmly.
|
|
|
|
Charles, in the meanwhile, was very decidedly declaring his resolution
|
|
of calling on his aunt, now that he was so near; and very evidently,
|
|
though more fearfully, trying to induce his wife to go too.
|
|
But this was one of the points on which the lady shewed her strength;
|
|
and when he recommended the advantage of resting herself a quarter
|
|
of an hour at Winthrop, as she felt so tired, she resolutely answered,
|
|
"Oh! no, indeed! walking up that hill again would do her more harm
|
|
than any sitting down could do her good;" and, in short,
|
|
her look and manner declared, that go she would not.
|
|
|
|
After a little succession of these sort of debates and consultations,
|
|
it was settled between Charles and his two sisters, that he
|
|
and Henrietta should just run down for a few minutes, to see their aunt
|
|
and cousins, while the rest of the party waited for them at the top
|
|
of the hill. Louisa seemed the principal arranger of the plan;
|
|
and, as she went a little way with them, down the hill, still talking
|
|
to Henrietta, Mary took the opportunity of looking scornfully around her,
|
|
and saying to Captain Wentworth--
|
|
|
|
"It is very unpleasant, having such connexions! But, I assure you,
|
|
I have never been in the house above twice in my life."
|
|
|
|
She received no other answer, than an artificial, assenting smile,
|
|
followed by a contemptuous glance, as he turned away, which Anne
|
|
perfectly knew the meaning of.
|
|
|
|
The brow of the hill, where they remained, was a cheerful spot:
|
|
Louisa returned; and Mary, finding a comfortable seat for herself
|
|
on the step of a stile, was very well satisfied so long as the others
|
|
all stood about her; but when Louisa drew Captain Wentworth away,
|
|
to try for a gleaning of nuts in an adjoining hedge-row,
|
|
and they were gone by degrees quite out of sight and sound,
|
|
Mary was happy no longer; she quarrelled with her own seat,
|
|
was sure Louisa had got a much better somewhere, and nothing could
|
|
prevent her from going to look for a better also. She turned through
|
|
the same gate, but could not see them. Anne found a nice seat
|
|
for her, on a dry sunny bank, under the hedge-row, in which
|
|
she had no doubt of their still being, in some spot or other.
|
|
Mary sat down for a moment, but it would not do; she was sure Louisa
|
|
had found a better seat somewhere else, and she would go on
|
|
till she overtook her.
|
|
|
|
Anne, really tired herself, was glad to sit down; and she very soon heard
|
|
Captain Wentworth and Louisa in the hedge-row, behind her, as if
|
|
making their way back along the rough, wild sort of channel, down the
|
|
centre. They were speaking as they drew near. Louisa's voice was
|
|
the first distinguished. She seemed to be in the middle of some
|
|
eager speech. What Anne first heard was--
|
|
|
|
"And so, I made her go. I could not bear that she should be frightened
|
|
from the visit by such nonsense. What! would I be turned back from
|
|
doing a thing that I had determined to do, and that I knew to be right,
|
|
by the airs and interference of such a person, or of any person I may say?
|
|
No, I have no idea of being so easily persuaded. When I have
|
|
made up my mind, I have made it; and Henrietta seemed entirely
|
|
to have made up hers to call at Winthrop to-day; and yet, she was as near
|
|
giving it up, out of nonsensical complaisance!"
|
|
|
|
"She would have turned back then, but for you?"
|
|
|
|
"She would indeed. I am almost ashamed to say it."
|
|
|
|
"Happy for her, to have such a mind as yours at hand! After the hints
|
|
you gave just now, which did but confirm my own observations,
|
|
the last time I was in company with him, I need not affect
|
|
to have no comprehension of what is going on. I see that more than
|
|
a mere dutiful morning visit to your aunt was in question;
|
|
and woe betide him, and her too, when it comes to things of consequence,
|
|
when they are placed in circumstances requiring fortitude and
|
|
strength of mind, if she have not resolution enough to resist
|
|
idle interference in such a trifle as this. Your sister is
|
|
an amiable creature; but yours is the character of decision and firmness,
|
|
I see. If you value her conduct or happiness, infuse as much
|
|
of your own spirit into her as you can. But this, no doubt,
|
|
you have been always doing. It is the worst evil of too yielding
|
|
and indecisive a character, that no influence over it can be depended on.
|
|
You are never sure of a good impression being durable; everybody
|
|
may sway it. Let those who would be happy be firm. Here is a nut,"
|
|
said he, catching one down from an upper bough. "to exemplify:
|
|
a beautiful glossy nut, which, blessed with original strength,
|
|
has outlived all the storms of autumn. Not a puncture, not
|
|
a weak spot anywhere. This nut," he continued, with playful solemnity,
|
|
"while so many of his brethren have fallen and been trodden under foot,
|
|
is still in possession of all the happiness that a hazel nut can be
|
|
supposed capable of." Then returning to his former earnest tone--
|
|
"My first wish for all whom I am interested in, is that they should be firm.
|
|
If Louisa Musgrove would be beautiful and happy in her November of life,
|
|
she will cherish all her present powers of mind."
|
|
|
|
He had done, and was unanswered. It would have surprised Anne if Louisa
|
|
could have readily answered such a speech: words of such interest,
|
|
spoken with such serious warmth! She could imagine what Louisa was feeling.
|
|
For herself, she feared to move, lest she should be seen.
|
|
While she remained, a bush of low rambling holly protected her,
|
|
and they were moving on. Before they were beyond her hearing,
|
|
however, Louisa spoke again.
|
|
|
|
"Mary is good-natured enough in many respects," said she;
|
|
"but she does sometimes provoke me excessively, by her nonsense
|
|
and pride--the Elliot pride. She has a great deal too much
|
|
of the Elliot pride. We do so wish that Charles had married Anne instead.
|
|
I suppose you know he wanted to marry Anne?"
|
|
|
|
After a moment's pause, Captain Wentworth said--
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean that she refused him?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! yes; certainly."
|
|
|
|
"When did that happen?"
|
|
|
|
"I do not exactly know, for Henrietta and I were at school at the time;
|
|
but I believe about a year before he married Mary. I wish she had
|
|
accepted him. We should all have liked her a great deal better;
|
|
and papa and mamma always think it was her great friend
|
|
Lady Russell's doing, that she did not. They think Charles
|
|
might not be learned and bookish enough to please Lady Russell,
|
|
and that therefore, she persuaded Anne to refuse him."
|
|
|
|
The sounds were retreating, and Anne distinguished no more.
|
|
Her own emotions still kept her fixed. She had much to recover from,
|
|
before she could move. The listener's proverbial fate was
|
|
not absolutely hers; she had heard no evil of herself, but she had heard
|
|
a great deal of very painful import. She saw how her own character
|
|
was considered by Captain Wentworth, and there had been just that degree
|
|
of feeling and curiosity about her in his manner which must give her
|
|
extreme agitation.
|
|
|
|
As soon as she could, she went after Mary, and having found,
|
|
and walked back with her to their former station, by the stile,
|
|
felt some comfort in their whole party being immediately afterwards
|
|
collected, and once more in motion together. Her spirits wanted
|
|
the solitude and silence which only numbers could give.
|
|
|
|
Charles and Henrietta returned, bringing, as may be conjectured,
|
|
Charles Hayter with them. The minutiae of the business Anne
|
|
could not attempt to understand; even Captain Wentworth did not seem
|
|
admitted to perfect confidence here; but that there had been a withdrawing
|
|
on the gentleman's side, and a relenting on the lady's, and that they
|
|
were now very glad to be together again, did not admit a doubt.
|
|
Henrietta looked a little ashamed, but very well pleased;--
|
|
Charles Hayter exceedingly happy: and they were devoted to each other
|
|
almost from the first instant of their all setting forward for Uppercross.
|
|
|
|
Everything now marked out Louisa for Captain Wentworth;
|
|
nothing could be plainer; and where many divisions were necessary,
|
|
or even where they were not, they walked side by side nearly as much
|
|
as the other two. In a long strip of meadow land, where there was
|
|
ample space for all, they were thus divided, forming three distinct parties;
|
|
and to that party of the three which boasted least animation,
|
|
and least complaisance, Anne necessarily belonged. She joined Charles
|
|
and Mary, and was tired enough to be very glad of Charles's other arm;
|
|
but Charles, though in very good humour with her, was out of temper
|
|
with his wife. Mary had shewn herself disobliging to him,
|
|
and was now to reap the consequence, which consequence was
|
|
his dropping her arm almost every moment to cut off the heads
|
|
of some nettles in the hedge with his switch; and when Mary began
|
|
to complain of it, and lament her being ill-used, according to custom,
|
|
in being on the hedge side, while Anne was never incommoded on the other,
|
|
he dropped the arms of both to hunt after a weasel which he had
|
|
a momentary glance of, and they could hardly get him along at all.
|
|
|
|
This long meadow bordered a lane, which their footpath, at the end of it
|
|
was to cross, and when the party had all reached the gate of exit,
|
|
the carriage advancing in the same direction, which had been
|
|
some time heard, was just coming up, and proved to be Admiral Croft's gig.
|
|
He and his wife had taken their intended drive, and were returning home.
|
|
Upon hearing how long a walk the young people had engaged in,
|
|
they kindly offered a seat to any lady who might be particularly tired;
|
|
it would save her a full mile, and they were going through Uppercross.
|
|
The invitation was general, and generally declined. The Miss Musgroves
|
|
were not at all tired, and Mary was either offended, by not being asked
|
|
before any of the others, or what Louisa called the Elliot pride
|
|
could not endure to make a third in a one horse chaise.
|
|
|
|
The walking party had crossed the lane, and were surmounting an
|
|
opposite stile, and the Admiral was putting his horse in motion again,
|
|
when Captain Wentworth cleared the hedge in a moment to say something
|
|
to his sister. The something might be guessed by its effects.
|
|
|
|
"Miss Elliot, I am sure you are tired," cried Mrs Croft.
|
|
"Do let us have the pleasure of taking you home. Here is excellent room
|
|
for three, I assure you. If we were all like you, I believe we might
|
|
sit four. You must, indeed, you must."
|
|
|
|
Anne was still in the lane; and though instinctively beginning to decline,
|
|
she was not allowed to proceed. The Admiral's kind urgency
|
|
came in support of his wife's; they would not be refused;
|
|
they compressed themselves into the smallest possible space
|
|
to leave her a corner, and Captain Wentworth, without saying a word,
|
|
turned to her, and quietly obliged her to be assisted into the carriage.
|
|
|
|
Yes; he had done it. She was in the carriage, and felt that he had
|
|
placed her there, that his will and his hands had done it,
|
|
that she owed it to his perception of her fatigue, and his resolution
|
|
to give her rest. She was very much affected by the view of
|
|
his disposition towards her, which all these things made apparent.
|
|
This little circumstance seemed the completion of all that had gone before.
|
|
She understood him. He could not forgive her, but he could not
|
|
be unfeeling. Though condemning her for the past, and considering it
|
|
with high and unjust resentment, though perfectly careless of her,
|
|
and though becoming attached to another, still he could not see her suffer,
|
|
without the desire of giving her relief. It was a remainder
|
|
of former sentiment; it was an impulse of pure, though unacknowledged
|
|
friendship; it was a proof of his own warm and amiable heart,
|
|
which she could not contemplate without emotions so compounded
|
|
of pleasure and pain, that she knew not which prevailed.
|
|
|
|
Her answers to the kindness and the remarks of her companions
|
|
were at first unconsciously given. They had travelled half their way
|
|
along the rough lane, before she was quite awake to what they said.
|
|
She then found them talking of "Frederick."
|
|
|
|
"He certainly means to have one or other of those two girls, Sophy,"
|
|
said the Admiral; "but there is no saying which. He has been
|
|
running after them, too, long enough, one would think, to make up his mind.
|
|
Ay, this comes of the peace. If it were war now, he would have
|
|
settled it long ago. We sailors, Miss Elliot, cannot afford to make
|
|
long courtships in time of war. How many days was it, my dear,
|
|
between the first time of my seeing you and our sitting down together
|
|
in our lodgings at North Yarmouth?"
|
|
|
|
"We had better not talk about it, my dear," replied Mrs Croft, pleasantly;
|
|
"for if Miss Elliot were to hear how soon we came to an understanding,
|
|
she would never be persuaded that we could be happy together.
|
|
I had known you by character, however, long before."
|
|
|
|
"Well, and I had heard of you as a very pretty girl, and what were we
|
|
to wait for besides? I do not like having such things so long in hand.
|
|
I wish Frederick would spread a little more canvass, and bring us home
|
|
one of these young ladies to Kellynch. Then there would always
|
|
be company for them. And very nice young ladies they both are;
|
|
I hardly know one from the other."
|
|
|
|
"Very good humoured, unaffected girls, indeed," said Mrs Croft,
|
|
in a tone of calmer praise, such as made Anne suspect that
|
|
her keener powers might not consider either of them as quite worthy
|
|
of her brother; "and a very respectable family. One could not be
|
|
connected with better people. My dear Admiral, that post!
|
|
we shall certainly take that post."
|
|
|
|
But by coolly giving the reins a better direction herself they happily
|
|
passed the danger; and by once afterwards judiciously putting out
|
|
her hand they neither fell into a rut, nor ran foul of a dung-cart;
|
|
and Anne, with some amusement at their style of driving,
|
|
which she imagined no bad representation of the general guidance
|
|
of their affairs, found herself safely deposited by them at the Cottage.
|
|
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|
Chapter 11
|
|
|
|
|
|
The time now approached for Lady Russell's return: the day was even fixed;
|
|
and Anne, being engaged to join her as soon as she was resettled,
|
|
was looking forward to an early removal to Kellynch, and beginning
|
|
to think how her own comfort was likely to be affected by it.
|
|
|
|
It would place her in the same village with Captain Wentworth,
|
|
within half a mile of him; they would have to frequent the same church,
|
|
and there must be intercourse between the two families.
|
|
This was against her; but on the other hand, he spent so much of his time
|
|
at Uppercross, that in removing thence she might be considered rather
|
|
as leaving him behind, than as going towards him; and, upon the whole,
|
|
she believed she must, on this interesting question, be the gainer,
|
|
almost as certainly as in her change of domestic society,
|
|
in leaving poor Mary for Lady Russell.
|
|
|
|
She wished it might be possible for her to avoid ever seeing
|
|
Captain Wentworth at the Hall: those rooms had witnessed
|
|
former meetings which would be brought too painfully before her;
|
|
but she was yet more anxious for the possibility of Lady Russell and
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Captain Wentworth never meeting anywhere. They did not like each other,
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and no renewal of acquaintance now could do any good; and were Lady Russell
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to see them together, she might think that he had too much self-possession,
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and she too little.
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These points formed her chief solicitude in anticipating
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her removal from Uppercross, where she felt she had been stationed
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quite long enough. Her usefulness to little Charles would always
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give some sweetness to the memory of her two months' visit there,
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but he was gaining strength apace, and she had nothing else to stay for.
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The conclusion of her visit, however, was diversified in a way
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which she had not at all imagined. Captain Wentworth, after being unseen
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and unheard of at Uppercross for two whole days, appeared again among them
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to justify himself by a relation of what had kept him away.
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A letter from his friend, Captain Harville, having found him out at last,
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had brought intelligence of Captain Harville's being settled
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with his family at Lyme for the winter; of their being therefore,
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quite unknowingly, within twenty miles of each other. Captain Harville
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had never been in good health since a severe wound which he received
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two years before, and Captain Wentworth's anxiety to see him
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had determined him to go immediately to Lyme. He had been there
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for four-and-twenty hours. His acquittal was complete,
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his friendship warmly honoured, a lively interest excited for his friend,
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and his description of the fine country about Lyme so feelingly attended to
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by the party, that an earnest desire to see Lyme themselves,
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and a project for going thither was the consequence.
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The young people were all wild to see Lyme. Captain Wentworth talked
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of going there again himself, it was only seventeen miles from Uppercross;
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though November, the weather was by no means bad; and, in short,
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Louisa, who was the most eager of the eager, having formed
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the resolution to go, and besides the pleasure of doing as she liked,
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being now armed with the idea of merit in maintaining her own way,
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bore down all the wishes of her father and mother for putting it off
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till summer; and to Lyme they were to go--Charles, Mary, Anne, Henrietta,
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Louisa, and Captain Wentworth.
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The first heedless scheme had been to go in the morning and return at night;
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but to this Mr Musgrove, for the sake of his horses, would not consent;
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and when it came to be rationally considered, a day in
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the middle of November would not leave much time for seeing a new place,
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after deducting seven hours, as the nature of the country required,
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for going and returning. They were, consequently, to stay the night there,
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and not to be expected back till the next day's dinner. This was felt
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to be a considerable amendment; and though they all met at the Great House
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at rather an early breakfast hour, and set off very punctually,
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it was so much past noon before the two carriages, Mr Musgrove's coach
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containing the four ladies, and Charles's curricle, in which
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he drove Captain Wentworth, were descending the long hill into Lyme,
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and entering upon the still steeper street of the town itself,
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that it was very evident they would not have more than time
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for looking about them, before the light and warmth of the day were gone.
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After securing accommodations, and ordering a dinner at one of the inns,
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the next thing to be done was unquestionably to walk directly
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down to the sea. They were come too late in the year for any amusement
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or variety which Lyme, as a public place, might offer. The rooms
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were shut up, the lodgers almost all gone, scarcely any family
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but of the residents left; and, as there is nothing to admire
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in the buildings themselves, the remarkable situation of the town,
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the principal street almost hurrying into the water, the walk to the Cobb,
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skirting round the pleasant little bay, which, in the season,
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is animated with bathing machines and company; the Cobb itself,
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its old wonders and new improvements, with the very beautiful
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line of cliffs stretching out to the east of the town, are what
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the stranger's eye will seek; and a very strange stranger it must be,
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who does not see charms in the immediate environs of Lyme,
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to make him wish to know it better. The scenes in its neighbourhood,
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Charmouth, with its high grounds and extensive sweeps of country,
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and still more, its sweet, retired bay, backed by dark cliffs,
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where fragments of low rock among the sands, make it the happiest spot
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for watching the flow of the tide, for sitting in unwearied contemplation;
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the woody varieties of the cheerful village of Up Lyme; and, above all,
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Pinny, with its green chasms between romantic rocks, where
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the scattered forest trees and orchards of luxuriant growth,
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declare that many a generation must have passed away since the first
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partial falling of the cliff prepared the ground for such a state,
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where a scene so wonderful and so lovely is exhibited, as may
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more than equal any of the resembling scenes of the far-famed
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Isle of Wight: these places must be visited, and visited again,
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to make the worth of Lyme understood.
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The party from Uppercross passing down by the now deserted
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and melancholy looking rooms, and still descending, soon found themselves
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on the sea-shore; and lingering only, as all must linger and gaze
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on a first return to the sea, who ever deserved to look on it at all,
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proceeded towards the Cobb, equally their object in itself
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and on Captain Wentworth's account: for in a small house,
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near the foot of an old pier of unknown date, were the Harvilles settled.
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Captain Wentworth turned in to call on his friend; the others walked on,
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and he was to join them on the Cobb.
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They were by no means tired of wondering and admiring; and not even Louisa
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seemed to feel that they had parted with Captain Wentworth long,
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when they saw him coming after them, with three companions,
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all well known already, by description, to be Captain and Mrs Harville,
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and a Captain Benwick, who was staying with them.
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Captain Benwick had some time ago been first lieutenant of the Laconia;
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and the account which Captain Wentworth had given of him,
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on his return from Lyme before, his warm praise of him as
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an excellent young man and an officer, whom he had always valued highly,
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which must have stamped him well in the esteem of every listener,
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had been followed by a little history of his private life,
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which rendered him perfectly interesting in the eyes of all the ladies.
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He had been engaged to Captain Harville's sister, and was now
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mourning her loss. They had been a year or two waiting for fortune
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and promotion. Fortune came, his prize-money as lieutenant being great;
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promotion, too, came at last; but Fanny Harville did not live to know it.
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She had died the preceding summer while he was at sea. Captain Wentworth
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believed it impossible for man to be more attached to woman
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than poor Benwick had been to Fanny Harville, or to be more deeply
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|
afflicted under the dreadful change. He considered his disposition
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|
as of the sort which must suffer heavily, uniting very strong feelings
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with quiet, serious, and retiring manners, and a decided taste for reading,
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and sedentary pursuits. To finish the interest of the story,
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the friendship between him and the Harvilles seemed, if possible,
|
|
augmented by the event which closed all their views of alliance,
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|
and Captain Benwick was now living with them entirely. Captain Harville
|
|
had taken his present house for half a year; his taste, and his health,
|
|
and his fortune, all directing him to a residence inexpensive,
|
|
and by the sea; and the grandeur of the country, and the retirement
|
|
of Lyme in the winter, appeared exactly adapted to Captain Benwick's
|
|
state of mind. The sympathy and good-will excited towards Captain Benwick
|
|
was very great.
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|
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"And yet," said Anne to herself, as they now moved forward
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|
to meet the party, "he has not, perhaps, a more sorrowing heart
|
|
than I have. I cannot believe his prospects so blighted for ever.
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|
He is younger than I am; younger in feeling, if not in fact;
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|
younger as a man. He will rally again, and be happy with another."
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They all met, and were introduced. Captain Harville was a tall,
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|
dark man, with a sensible, benevolent countenance; a little lame;
|
|
and from strong features and want of health, looking much older
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|
than Captain Wentworth. Captain Benwick looked, and was,
|
|
the youngest of the three, and, compared with either of them,
|
|
a little man. He had a pleasing face and a melancholy air,
|
|
just as he ought to have, and drew back from conversation.
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|
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Captain Harville, though not equalling Captain Wentworth in manners,
|
|
was a perfect gentleman, unaffected, warm, and obliging.
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|
Mrs Harville, a degree less polished than her husband, seemed, however,
|
|
to have the same good feelings; and nothing could be more pleasant
|
|
than their desire of considering the whole party as friends of their own,
|
|
because the friends of Captain Wentworth, or more kindly hospitable
|
|
than their entreaties for their all promising to dine with them.
|
|
The dinner, already ordered at the inn, was at last, though unwillingly,
|
|
accepted as a excuse; but they seemed almost hurt that Captain Wentworth
|
|
should have brought any such party to Lyme, without considering it
|
|
as a thing of course that they should dine with them.
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|
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|
There was so much attachment to Captain Wentworth in all this,
|
|
and such a bewitching charm in a degree of hospitality so uncommon,
|
|
so unlike the usual style of give-and-take invitations, and dinners
|
|
of formality and display, that Anne felt her spirits not likely to be
|
|
benefited by an increasing acquaintance among his brother-officers.
|
|
"These would have been all my friends," was her thought;
|
|
and she had to struggle against a great tendency to lowness.
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|
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|
On quitting the Cobb, they all went in-doors with their new friends,
|
|
and found rooms so small as none but those who invite from the heart
|
|
could think capable of accommodating so many. Anne had
|
|
a moment's astonishment on the subject herself; but it was soon lost
|
|
in the pleasanter feelings which sprang from the sight of all
|
|
the ingenious contrivances and nice arrangements of Captain Harville,
|
|
to turn the actual space to the best account, to supply the deficiencies
|
|
of lodging-house furniture, and defend the windows and doors
|
|
against the winter storms to be expected. The varieties in
|
|
the fitting-up of the rooms, where the common necessaries
|
|
provided by the owner, in the common indifferent plight,
|
|
were contrasted with some few articles of a rare species of wood,
|
|
excellently worked up, and with something curious and valuable
|
|
from all the distant countries Captain Harville had visited,
|
|
were more than amusing to Anne; connected as it all was with his profession,
|
|
the fruit of its labours, the effect of its influence on his habits,
|
|
the picture of repose and domestic happiness it presented,
|
|
made it to her a something more, or less, than gratification.
|
|
|
|
Captain Harville was no reader; but he had contrived
|
|
excellent accommodations, and fashioned very pretty shelves,
|
|
for a tolerable collection of well-bound volumes, the property of
|
|
Captain Benwick. His lameness prevented him from taking much exercise;
|
|
but a mind of usefulness and ingenuity seemed to furnish him with
|
|
constant employment within. He drew, he varnished, he carpentered,
|
|
he glued; he made toys for the children; he fashioned new netting-needles
|
|
and pins with improvements; and if everything else was done,
|
|
sat down to his large fishing-net at one corner of the room.
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|
|
|
Anne thought she left great happiness behind her when they
|
|
quitted the house; and Louisa, by whom she found herself walking,
|
|
burst forth into raptures of admiration and delight on the character
|
|
of the navy; their friendliness, their brotherliness, their openness,
|
|
their uprightness; protesting that she was convinced of sailors having
|
|
more worth and warmth than any other set of men in England;
|
|
that they only knew how to live, and they only deserved to be
|
|
respected and loved.
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|
|
|
They went back to dress and dine; and so well had the scheme
|
|
answered already, that nothing was found amiss; though its being
|
|
"so entirely out of season," and the "no thoroughfare of Lyme,"
|
|
and the "no expectation of company," had brought many apologies
|
|
from the heads of the inn.
|
|
|
|
Anne found herself by this time growing so much more hardened
|
|
to being in Captain Wentworth's company than she had at first imagined
|
|
could ever be, that the sitting down to the same table with him now,
|
|
and the interchange of the common civilities attending on it
|
|
(they never got beyond), was become a mere nothing.
|
|
|
|
The nights were too dark for the ladies to meet again till the morrow,
|
|
but Captain Harville had promised them a visit in the evening;
|
|
and he came, bringing his friend also, which was more than
|
|
had been expected, it having been agreed that Captain Benwick
|
|
had all the appearance of being oppressed by the presence of
|
|
so many strangers. He ventured among them again, however,
|
|
though his spirits certainly did not seem fit for the mirth
|
|
of the party in general.
|
|
|
|
While Captains Wentworth and Harville led the talk on one side of the room,
|
|
and by recurring to former days, supplied anecdotes in abundance
|
|
to occupy and entertain the others, it fell to Anne's lot to be placed
|
|
rather apart with Captain Benwick; and a very good impulse
|
|
of her nature obliged her to begin an acquaintance with him.
|
|
He was shy, and disposed to abstraction; but the engaging mildness of
|
|
her countenance, and gentleness of her manners, soon had their effect;
|
|
and Anne was well repaid the first trouble of exertion.
|
|
He was evidently a young man of considerable taste in reading,
|
|
though principally in poetry; and besides the persuasion of having
|
|
given him at least an evening's indulgence in the discussion of subjects,
|
|
which his usual companions had probably no concern in, she had the hope
|
|
of being of real use to him in some suggestions as to the duty and
|
|
benefit of struggling against affliction, which had naturally grown out
|
|
of their conversation. For, though shy, he did not seem reserved;
|
|
it had rather the appearance of feelings glad to burst their
|
|
usual restraints; and having talked of poetry, the richness of
|
|
the present age, and gone through a brief comparison of opinion
|
|
as to the first-rate poets, trying to ascertain whether Marmion
|
|
or The Lady of the Lake were to be preferred, and how ranked the Giaour
|
|
and The Bride of Abydos; and moreover, how the Giaour was to be pronounced,
|
|
he showed himself so intimately acquainted with all the tenderest songs
|
|
of the one poet, and all the impassioned descriptions of hopeless agony
|
|
of the other; he repeated, with such tremulous feeling, the various lines
|
|
which imaged a broken heart, or a mind destroyed by wretchedness,
|
|
and looked so entirely as if he meant to be understood,
|
|
that she ventured to hope he did not always read only poetry,
|
|
and to say, that she thought it was the misfortune of poetry to be
|
|
seldom safely enjoyed by those who enjoyed it completely;
|
|
and that the strong feelings which alone could estimate it truly
|
|
were the very feelings which ought to taste it but sparingly.
|
|
|
|
His looks shewing him not pained, but pleased with this allusion
|
|
to his situation, she was emboldened to go on; and feeling in herself
|
|
the right of seniority of mind, she ventured to recommend
|
|
a larger allowance of prose in his daily study; and on being requested
|
|
to particularize, mentioned such works of our best moralists,
|
|
such collections of the finest letters, such memoirs of characters
|
|
of worth and suffering, as occurred to her at the moment
|
|
as calculated to rouse and fortify the mind by the highest precepts,
|
|
and the strongest examples of moral and religious endurances.
|
|
|
|
Captain Benwick listened attentively, and seemed grateful for
|
|
the interest implied; and though with a shake of the head,
|
|
and sighs which declared his little faith in the efficacy of any books
|
|
on grief like his, noted down the names of those she recommended,
|
|
and promised to procure and read them.
|
|
|
|
When the evening was over, Anne could not but be amused at the idea
|
|
of her coming to Lyme to preach patience and resignation to a young man
|
|
whom she had never seen before; nor could she help fearing,
|
|
on more serious reflection, that, like many other great moralists
|
|
and preachers, she had been eloquent on a point in which her own conduct
|
|
would ill bear examination.
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Chapter 12
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|
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Anne and Henrietta, finding themselves the earliest of the party
|
|
the next morning, agreed to stroll down to the sea before breakfast.
|
|
They went to the sands, to watch the flowing of the tide,
|
|
which a fine south-easterly breeze was bringing in with all the grandeur
|
|
which so flat a shore admitted. They praised the morning;
|
|
gloried in the sea; sympathized in the delight of the fresh-feeling
|
|
breeze--and were silent; till Henrietta suddenly began again with--
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|
|
|
"Oh! yes,--I am quite convinced that, with very few exceptions,
|
|
the sea-air always does good. There can be no doubt of its having been
|
|
of the greatest service to Dr Shirley, after his illness,
|
|
last spring twelve-month. He declares himself, that coming to Lyme
|
|
for a month, did him more good than all the medicine he took;
|
|
and, that being by the sea, always makes him feel young again.
|
|
Now, I cannot help thinking it a pity that he does not live
|
|
entirely by the sea. I do think he had better leave Uppercross entirely,
|
|
and fix at Lyme. Do not you, Anne? Do not you agree with me,
|
|
that it is the best thing he could do, both for himself and Mrs Shirley?
|
|
She has cousins here, you know, and many acquaintance, which would
|
|
make it cheerful for her, and I am sure she would be glad
|
|
to get to a place where she could have medical attendance at hand,
|
|
in case of his having another seizure. Indeed I think it quite melancholy
|
|
to have such excellent people as Dr and Mrs Shirley, who have been
|
|
doing good all their lives, wearing out their last days in a place
|
|
like Uppercross, where, excepting our family, they seem shut out
|
|
from all the world. I wish his friends would propose it to him.
|
|
I really think they ought. And, as to procuring a dispensation,
|
|
there could be no difficulty at his time of life, and with his character.
|
|
My only doubt is, whether anything could persuade him to leave his parish.
|
|
He is so very strict and scrupulous in his notions; over-scrupulous
|
|
I must say. Do not you think, Anne, it is being over-scrupulous?
|
|
Do not you think it is quite a mistaken point of conscience,
|
|
when a clergyman sacrifices his health for the sake of duties,
|
|
which may be just as well performed by another person? And at Lyme too,
|
|
only seventeen miles off, he would be near enough to hear,
|
|
if people thought there was anything to complain of."
|
|
|
|
Anne smiled more than once to herself during this speech,
|
|
and entered into the subject, as ready to do good by entering into
|
|
the feelings of a young lady as of a young man, though here it was good
|
|
of a lower standard, for what could be offered but general acquiescence?
|
|
She said all that was reasonable and proper on the business;
|
|
felt the claims of Dr Shirley to repose as she ought; saw how very
|
|
desirable it was that he should have some active, respectable young man,
|
|
as a resident curate, and was even courteous enough to hint at
|
|
the advantage of such resident curate's being married.
|
|
|
|
"I wish," said Henrietta, very well pleased with her companion,
|
|
"I wish Lady Russell lived at Uppercross, and were intimate
|
|
with Dr Shirley. I have always heard of Lady Russell as a woman of
|
|
the greatest influence with everybody! I always look upon her as able
|
|
to persuade a person to anything! I am afraid of her, as I have
|
|
told you before, quite afraid of her, because she is so very clever;
|
|
but I respect her amazingly, and wish we had such a neighbour
|
|
at Uppercross."
|
|
|
|
Anne was amused by Henrietta's manner of being grateful,
|
|
and amused also that the course of events and the new interests
|
|
of Henrietta's views should have placed her friend at all in favour
|
|
with any of the Musgrove family; she had only time, however,
|
|
for a general answer, and a wish that such another woman
|
|
were at Uppercross, before all subjects suddenly ceased,
|
|
on seeing Louisa and Captain Wentworth coming towards them.
|
|
They came also for a stroll till breakfast was likely to be ready;
|
|
but Louisa recollecting, immediately afterwards that she had something
|
|
to procure at a shop, invited them all to go back with her into the town.
|
|
They were all at her disposal.
|
|
|
|
When they came to the steps, leading upwards from the beach, a gentleman,
|
|
at the same moment preparing to come down, politely drew back,
|
|
and stopped to give them way. They ascended and passed him;
|
|
and as they passed, Anne's face caught his eye, and he looked at her
|
|
with a degree of earnest admiration, which she could not be insensible of.
|
|
She was looking remarkably well; her very regular, very pretty features,
|
|
having the bloom and freshness of youth restored by the fine wind
|
|
which had been blowing on her complexion, and by the animation of eye
|
|
which it had also produced. It was evident that the gentleman,
|
|
(completely a gentleman in manner) admired her exceedingly.
|
|
Captain Wentworth looked round at her instantly in a way which
|
|
shewed his noticing of it. He gave her a momentary glance,
|
|
a glance of brightness, which seemed to say, "That man is struck with you,
|
|
and even I, at this moment, see something like Anne Elliot again."
|
|
|
|
After attending Louisa through her business, and loitering about
|
|
a little longer, they returned to the inn; and Anne, in passing afterwards
|
|
quickly from her own chamber to their dining-room, had nearly run against
|
|
the very same gentleman, as he came out of an adjoining apartment.
|
|
She had before conjectured him to be a stranger like themselves,
|
|
and determined that a well-looking groom, who was strolling about
|
|
near the two inns as they came back, should be his servant.
|
|
Both master and man being in mourning assisted the idea.
|
|
It was now proved that he belonged to the same inn as themselves;
|
|
and this second meeting, short as it was, also proved again
|
|
by the gentleman's looks, that he thought hers very lovely,
|
|
and by the readiness and propriety of his apologies, that he was
|
|
a man of exceedingly good manners. He seemed about thirty,
|
|
and though not handsome, had an agreeable person. Anne felt that
|
|
she should like to know who he was.
|
|
|
|
They had nearly done breakfast, when the sound of a carriage,
|
|
(almost the first they had heard since entering Lyme) drew half the party
|
|
to the window. It was a gentleman's carriage, a curricle,
|
|
but only coming round from the stable-yard to the front door;
|
|
somebody must be going away. It was driven by a servant in mourning.
|
|
|
|
The word curricle made Charles Musgrove jump up that he might
|
|
compare it with his own; the servant in mourning roused Anne's curiosity,
|
|
and the whole six were collected to look, by the time the owner
|
|
of the curricle was to be seen issuing from the door amidst the bows
|
|
and civilities of the household, and taking his seat, to drive off.
|
|
|
|
"Ah!" cried Captain Wentworth, instantly, and with half a glance at Anne,
|
|
"it is the very man we passed."
|
|
|
|
The Miss Musgroves agreed to it; and having all kindly watched him
|
|
as far up the hill as they could, they returned to the breakfast table.
|
|
The waiter came into the room soon afterwards.
|
|
|
|
"Pray," said Captain Wentworth, immediately, "can you tell us the name
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of the gentleman who is just gone away?"
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"Yes, Sir, a Mr Elliot, a gentleman of large fortune, came in last night
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from Sidmouth. Dare say you heard the carriage, sir, while you were
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at dinner; and going on now for Crewkherne, in his way to Bath
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and London."
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"Elliot!" Many had looked on each other, and many had repeated the name,
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before all this had been got through, even by the smart rapidity
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of a waiter.
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"Bless me!" cried Mary; "it must be our cousin; it must be our Mr Elliot,
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it must, indeed! Charles, Anne, must not it? In mourning, you see,
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just as our Mr Elliot must be. How very extraordinary!
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In the very same inn with us! Anne, must not it be our Mr Elliot?
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my father's next heir? Pray sir," turning to the waiter,
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"did not you hear, did not his servant say whether he belonged
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to the Kellynch family?"
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"No, ma'am, he did not mention no particular family; but he said
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his master was a very rich gentleman, and would be a baronight some day."
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"There! you see!" cried Mary in an ecstasy, "just as I said!
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Heir to Sir Walter Elliot! I was sure that would come out,
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if it was so. Depend upon it, that is a circumstance which his servants
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take care to publish, wherever he goes. But, Anne, only conceive
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how extraordinary! I wish I had looked at him more. I wish we had
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been aware in time, who it was, that he might have been introduced to us.
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What a pity that we should not have been introduced to each other!
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Do you think he had the Elliot countenance? I hardly looked at him,
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I was looking at the horses; but I think he had something
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of the Elliot countenance, I wonder the arms did not strike me!
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Oh! the great-coat was hanging over the panel, and hid the arms,
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so it did; otherwise, I am sure, I should have observed them,
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and the livery too; if the servant had not been in mourning,
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one should have known him by the livery."
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"Putting all these very extraordinary circumstances together,"
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said Captain Wentworth, "we must consider it to be the arrangement
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of Providence, that you should not be introduced to your cousin."
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When she could command Mary's attention, Anne quietly tried
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to convince her that their father and Mr Elliot had not, for many years,
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been on such terms as to make the power of attempting an introduction
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at all desirable.
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At the same time, however, it was a secret gratification to herself
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to have seen her cousin, and to know that the future owner of Kellynch
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was undoubtedly a gentleman, and had an air of good sense.
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She would not, upon any account, mention her having met with him
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the second time; luckily Mary did not much attend to their having
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passed close by him in their earlier walk, but she would have felt
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quite ill-used by Anne's having actually run against him in the passage,
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and received his very polite excuses, while she had never been
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near him at all; no, that cousinly little interview must remain
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a perfect secret.
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"Of course," said Mary, "you will mention our seeing Mr Elliot,
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the next time you write to Bath. I think my father certainly
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ought to hear of it; do mention all about him."
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Anne avoided a direct reply, but it was just the circumstance
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which she considered as not merely unnecessary to be communicated,
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but as what ought to be suppressed. The offence which had been given
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her father, many years back, she knew; Elizabeth's particular share in it
|
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she suspected; and that Mr Elliot's idea always produced irritation in both
|
|
was beyond a doubt. Mary never wrote to Bath herself; all the toil
|
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of keeping up a slow and unsatisfactory correspondence with Elizabeth
|
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fell on Anne.
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Breakfast had not been long over, when they were joined by Captain
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and Mrs Harville and Captain Benwick; with whom they had appointed
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to take their last walk about Lyme. They ought to be setting off
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for Uppercross by one, and in the mean while were to be all together,
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and out of doors as long as they could.
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Anne found Captain Benwick getting near her, as soon as they were all
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fairly in the street. Their conversation the preceding evening
|
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did not disincline him to seek her again; and they walked together
|
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some time, talking as before of Mr Scott and Lord Byron,
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and still as unable as before, and as unable as any other two readers,
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to think exactly alike of the merits of either, till something
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occasioned an almost general change amongst their party, and instead of
|
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Captain Benwick, she had Captain Harville by her side.
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|
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"Miss Elliot," said he, speaking rather low, "you have done a good deed
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in making that poor fellow talk so much. I wish he could have
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such company oftener. It is bad for him, I know, to be shut up as he is;
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but what can we do? We cannot part."
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|
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"No," said Anne, "that I can easily believe to be impossible;
|
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but in time, perhaps--we know what time does in every case of affliction,
|
|
and you must remember, Captain Harville, that your friend
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|
may yet be called a young mourner--only last summer, I understand."
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"Ay, true enough," (with a deep sigh) "only June."
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"And not known to him, perhaps, so soon."
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|
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"Not till the first week of August, when he came home from the Cape,
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just made into the Grappler. I was at Plymouth dreading to hear of him;
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he sent in letters, but the Grappler was under orders for Portsmouth.
|
|
There the news must follow him, but who was to tell it? not I.
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|
I would as soon have been run up to the yard-arm. Nobody could do it,
|
|
but that good fellow" (pointing to Captain Wentworth.) "The Laconia
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|
had come into Plymouth the week before; no danger of her
|
|
being sent to sea again. He stood his chance for the rest;
|
|
wrote up for leave of absence, but without waiting the return,
|
|
travelled night and day till he got to Portsmouth, rowed off
|
|
to the Grappler that instant, and never left the poor fellow for a week.
|
|
That's what he did, and nobody else could have saved poor James.
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|
You may think, Miss Elliot, whether he is dear to us!"
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|
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|
Anne did think on the question with perfect decision, and said as much
|
|
in reply as her own feeling could accomplish, or as his seemed
|
|
able to bear, for he was too much affected to renew the subject,
|
|
and when he spoke again, it was of something totally different.
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|
|
|
Mrs Harville's giving it as her opinion that her husband would have
|
|
quite walking enough by the time he reached home, determined the direction
|
|
of all the party in what was to be their last walk; they would
|
|
accompany them to their door, and then return and set off themselves.
|
|
By all their calculations there was just time for this; but as they drew
|
|
near the Cobb, there was such a general wish to walk along it once more,
|
|
all were so inclined, and Louisa soon grew so determined,
|
|
that the difference of a quarter of an hour, it was found,
|
|
would be no difference at all; so with all the kind leave-taking,
|
|
and all the kind interchange of invitations and promises which
|
|
may be imagined, they parted from Captain and Mrs Harville
|
|
at their own door, and still accompanied by Captain Benwick,
|
|
who seemed to cling to them to the last, proceeded to make
|
|
the proper adieus to the Cobb.
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|
|
|
Anne found Captain Benwick again drawing near her. Lord Byron's
|
|
"dark blue seas" could not fail of being brought forward by
|
|
their present view, and she gladly gave him all her attention as long as
|
|
attention was possible. It was soon drawn, perforce another way.
|
|
|
|
There was too much wind to make the high part of the new Cobb pleasant
|
|
for the ladies, and they agreed to get down the steps to the lower,
|
|
and all were contented to pass quietly and carefully down the steep flight,
|
|
excepting Louisa; she must be jumped down them by Captain Wentworth.
|
|
In all their walks, he had had to jump her from the stiles;
|
|
the sensation was delightful to her. The hardness of the pavement
|
|
for her feet, made him less willing upon the present occasion;
|
|
he did it, however. She was safely down, and instantly,
|
|
to show her enjoyment, ran up the steps to be jumped down again.
|
|
He advised her against it, thought the jar too great; but no,
|
|
he reasoned and talked in vain, she smiled and said, "I am determined
|
|
I will:" he put out his hands; she was too precipitate by half a second,
|
|
she fell on the pavement on the Lower Cobb, and was taken up lifeless!
|
|
There was no wound, no blood, no visible bruise; but her eyes were closed,
|
|
she breathed not, her face was like death. The horror of the moment
|
|
to all who stood around!
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth, who had caught her up, knelt with her in his arms,
|
|
looking on her with a face as pallid as her own, in an agony of silence.
|
|
"She is dead! she is dead!" screamed Mary, catching hold of her
|
|
husband, and contributing with his own horror to make him immoveable;
|
|
and in another moment, Henrietta, sinking under the conviction, lost
|
|
her senses too, and would have fallen on the steps, but for Captain
|
|
Benwick and Anne, who caught and supported her between them.
|
|
|
|
"Is there no one to help me?" were the first words which
|
|
burst from Captain Wentworth, in a tone of despair, and as if
|
|
all his own strength were gone.
|
|
|
|
"Go to him, go to him," cried Anne, "for heaven's sake go to him.
|
|
I can support her myself. Leave me, and go to him. Rub her hands,
|
|
rub her temples; here are salts; take them, take them."
|
|
|
|
Captain Benwick obeyed, and Charles at the same moment,
|
|
disengaging himself from his wife, they were both with him;
|
|
and Louisa was raised up and supported more firmly between them,
|
|
and everything was done that Anne had prompted, but in vain;
|
|
while Captain Wentworth, staggering against the wall for his support,
|
|
exclaimed in the bitterest agony--
|
|
|
|
"Oh God! her father and mother!"
|
|
|
|
"A surgeon!" said Anne.
|
|
|
|
He caught the word; it seemed to rouse him at once, and saying only--
|
|
"True, true, a surgeon this instant," was darting away,
|
|
when Anne eagerly suggested--
|
|
|
|
"Captain Benwick, would not it be better for Captain Benwick?
|
|
He knows where a surgeon is to be found."
|
|
|
|
Every one capable of thinking felt the advantage of the idea,
|
|
and in a moment (it was all done in rapid moments) Captain Benwick had
|
|
resigned the poor corpse-like figure entirely to the brother's care,
|
|
and was off for the town with the utmost rapidity.
|
|
|
|
As to the wretched party left behind, it could scarcely be said
|
|
which of the three, who were completely rational, was suffering most:
|
|
Captain Wentworth, Anne, or Charles, who, really a very affectionate
|
|
brother, hung over Louisa with sobs of grief, and could only turn his eyes
|
|
from one sister, to see the other in a state as insensible,
|
|
or to witness the hysterical agitations of his wife, calling on him
|
|
for help which he could not give.
|
|
|
|
Anne, attending with all the strength and zeal, and thought,
|
|
which instinct supplied, to Henrietta, still tried, at intervals,
|
|
to suggest comfort to the others, tried to quiet Mary, to animate Charles,
|
|
to assuage the feelings of Captain Wentworth. Both seemed to look to her
|
|
for directions.
|
|
|
|
"Anne, Anne," cried Charles, "What is to be done next?
|
|
What, in heaven's name, is to be done next?"
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth's eyes were also turned towards her.
|
|
|
|
"Had not she better be carried to the inn? Yes, I am sure:
|
|
carry her gently to the inn."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes, to the inn," repeated Captain Wentworth, comparatively
|
|
collected, and eager to be doing something. "I will carry her myself.
|
|
Musgrove, take care of the others."
|
|
|
|
By this time the report of the accident had spread among the workmen
|
|
and boatmen about the Cobb, and many were collected near them,
|
|
to be useful if wanted, at any rate, to enjoy the sight of
|
|
a dead young lady, nay, two dead young ladies, for it proved twice as fine
|
|
as the first report. To some of the best-looking of these good people
|
|
Henrietta was consigned, for, though partially revived,
|
|
she was quite helpless; and in this manner, Anne walking by her side,
|
|
and Charles attending to his wife, they set forward, treading back
|
|
with feelings unutterable, the ground, which so lately, so very lately,
|
|
and so light of heart, they had passed along.
|
|
|
|
They were not off the Cobb, before the Harvilles met them.
|
|
Captain Benwick had been seen flying by their house, with a countenance
|
|
which showed something to be wrong; and they had set off immediately,
|
|
informed and directed as they passed, towards the spot.
|
|
Shocked as Captain Harville was, he brought senses and nerves
|
|
that could be instantly useful; and a look between him and his wife
|
|
decided what was to be done. She must be taken to their house;
|
|
all must go to their house; and await the surgeon's arrival there.
|
|
They would not listen to scruples: he was obeyed; they were all
|
|
beneath his roof; and while Louisa, under Mrs Harville's direction,
|
|
was conveyed up stairs, and given possession of her own bed,
|
|
assistance, cordials, restoratives were supplied by her husband
|
|
to all who needed them.
|
|
|
|
Louisa had once opened her eyes, but soon closed them again,
|
|
without apparent consciousness. This had been a proof of life,
|
|
however, of service to her sister; and Henrietta, though perfectly
|
|
incapable of being in the same room with Louisa, was kept,
|
|
by the agitation of hope and fear, from a return of her own insensibility.
|
|
Mary, too, was growing calmer.
|
|
|
|
The surgeon was with them almost before it had seemed possible.
|
|
They were sick with horror, while he examined; but he was not hopeless.
|
|
The head had received a severe contusion, but he had seen greater injuries
|
|
recovered from: he was by no means hopeless; he spoke cheerfully.
|
|
|
|
That he did not regard it as a desperate case, that he did not say
|
|
a few hours must end it, was at first felt, beyond the hope of most;
|
|
and the ecstasy of such a reprieve, the rejoicing, deep and silent,
|
|
after a few fervent ejaculations of gratitude to Heaven had been offered,
|
|
may be conceived.
|
|
|
|
The tone, the look, with which "Thank God!" was uttered
|
|
by Captain Wentworth, Anne was sure could never be forgotten by her;
|
|
nor the sight of him afterwards, as he sat near a table, leaning over it
|
|
with folded arms and face concealed, as if overpowered by
|
|
the various feelings of his soul, and trying by prayer and reflection
|
|
to calm them.
|
|
|
|
Louisa's limbs had escaped. There was no injury but to the head.
|
|
|
|
It now became necessary for the party to consider what was best to be done,
|
|
as to their general situation. They were now able to speak to each other
|
|
and consult. That Louisa must remain where she was, however distressing
|
|
to her friends to be involving the Harvilles in such trouble,
|
|
did not admit a doubt. Her removal was impossible. The Harvilles
|
|
silenced all scruples; and, as much as they could, all gratitude.
|
|
They had looked forward and arranged everything before the others
|
|
began to reflect. Captain Benwick must give up his room to them,
|
|
and get another bed elsewhere; and the whole was settled.
|
|
They were only concerned that the house could accommodate no more;
|
|
and yet perhaps, by "putting the children away in the maid's room,
|
|
or swinging a cot somewhere," they could hardly bear to think of not
|
|
finding room for two or three besides, supposing they might wish to stay;
|
|
though, with regard to any attendance on Miss Musgrove, there need not be
|
|
the least uneasiness in leaving her to Mrs Harville's care entirely.
|
|
Mrs Harville was a very experienced nurse, and her nursery-maid,
|
|
who had lived with her long, and gone about with her everywhere,
|
|
was just such another. Between these two, she could want
|
|
no possible attendance by day or night. And all this was said
|
|
with a truth and sincerity of feeling irresistible.
|
|
|
|
Charles, Henrietta, and Captain Wentworth were the three in consultation,
|
|
and for a little while it was only an interchange of perplexity and terror.
|
|
"Uppercross, the necessity of some one's going to Uppercross;
|
|
the news to be conveyed; how it could be broken to Mr and Mrs Musgrove;
|
|
the lateness of the morning; an hour already gone since they
|
|
ought to have been off; the impossibility of being in tolerable time."
|
|
At first, they were capable of nothing more to the purpose
|
|
than such exclamations; but, after a while, Captain Wentworth,
|
|
exerting himself, said--
|
|
|
|
"We must be decided, and without the loss of another minute.
|
|
Every minute is valuable. Some one must resolve on being off
|
|
for Uppercross instantly. Musgrove, either you or I must go."
|
|
|
|
Charles agreed, but declared his resolution of not going away.
|
|
He would be as little incumbrance as possible to Captain and Mrs Harville;
|
|
but as to leaving his sister in such a state, he neither ought, nor would.
|
|
So far it was decided; and Henrietta at first declared the same.
|
|
She, however, was soon persuaded to think differently. The usefulness
|
|
of her staying! She who had not been able to remain in Louisa's room,
|
|
or to look at her, without sufferings which made her worse than helpless!
|
|
She was forced to acknowledge that she could do no good,
|
|
yet was still unwilling to be away, till, touched by the thought
|
|
of her father and mother, she gave it up; she consented,
|
|
she was anxious to be at home.
|
|
|
|
The plan had reached this point, when Anne, coming quietly
|
|
down from Louisa's room, could not but hear what followed,
|
|
for the parlour door was open.
|
|
|
|
"Then it is settled, Musgrove," cried Captain Wentworth,
|
|
"that you stay, and that I take care of your sister home.
|
|
But as to the rest, as to the others, if one stays to assist Mrs Harville,
|
|
I think it need be only one. Mrs Charles Musgrove will, of course,
|
|
wish to get back to her children; but if Anne will stay, no one so proper,
|
|
so capable as Anne."
|
|
|
|
She paused a moment to recover from the emotion of hearing herself
|
|
so spoken of. The other two warmly agreed with what he said,
|
|
and she then appeared.
|
|
|
|
"You will stay, I am sure; you will stay and nurse her;" cried he,
|
|
turning to her and speaking with a glow, and yet a gentleness,
|
|
which seemed almost restoring the past. She coloured deeply,
|
|
and he recollected himself and moved away. She expressed herself
|
|
most willing, ready, happy to remain. "It was what she had been
|
|
thinking of, and wishing to be allowed to do. A bed on the floor
|
|
in Louisa's room would be sufficient for her, if Mrs Harville
|
|
would but think so."
|
|
|
|
One thing more, and all seemed arranged. Though it was rather desirable
|
|
that Mr and Mrs Musgrove should be previously alarmed by some
|
|
share of delay; yet the time required by the Uppercross horses
|
|
to take them back, would be a dreadful extension of suspense;
|
|
and Captain Wentworth proposed, and Charles Musgrove agreed,
|
|
that it would be much better for him to take a chaise from the inn,
|
|
and leave Mr Musgrove's carriage and horses to be sent home
|
|
the next morning early, when there would be the farther advantage
|
|
of sending an account of Louisa's night.
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth now hurried off to get everything ready on his part,
|
|
and to be soon followed by the two ladies. When the plan was
|
|
made known to Mary, however, there was an end of all peace in it.
|
|
She was so wretched and so vehement, complained so much of injustice
|
|
in being expected to go away instead of Anne; Anne, who was
|
|
nothing to Louisa, while she was her sister, and had the best right
|
|
to stay in Henrietta's stead! Why was not she to be as useful as Anne?
|
|
And to go home without Charles, too, without her husband!
|
|
No, it was too unkind. And in short, she said more than her husband
|
|
could long withstand, and as none of the others could oppose
|
|
when he gave way, there was no help for it; the change of Mary for Anne
|
|
was inevitable.
|
|
|
|
Anne had never submitted more reluctantly to the jealous
|
|
and ill-judging claims of Mary; but so it must be, and they set off
|
|
for the town, Charles taking care of his sister, and Captain Benwick
|
|
attending to her. She gave a moment's recollection, as they hurried along,
|
|
to the little circumstances which the same spots had witnessed
|
|
earlier in the morning. There she had listened to Henrietta's schemes
|
|
for Dr Shirley's leaving Uppercross; farther on, she had
|
|
first seen Mr Elliot; a moment seemed all that could now be given
|
|
to any one but Louisa, or those who were wrapt up in her welfare.
|
|
|
|
Captain Benwick was most considerately attentive to her; and,
|
|
united as they all seemed by the distress of the day, she felt
|
|
an increasing degree of good-will towards him, and a pleasure even
|
|
in thinking that it might, perhaps, be the occasion of continuing
|
|
their acquaintance.
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth was on the watch for them, and a chaise and four in waiting,
|
|
stationed for their convenience in the lowest part of the street;
|
|
but his evident surprise and vexation at the substitution of one sister
|
|
for the other, the change in his countenance, the astonishment,
|
|
the expressions begun and suppressed, with which Charles was listened to,
|
|
made but a mortifying reception of Anne; or must at least convince her
|
|
that she was valued only as she could be useful to Louisa.
|
|
|
|
She endeavoured to be composed, and to be just. Without emulating
|
|
the feelings of an Emma towards her Henry, she would have
|
|
attended on Louisa with a zeal above the common claims of regard,
|
|
for his sake; and she hoped he would not long be so unjust
|
|
as to suppose she would shrink unnecessarily from the office of a friend.
|
|
|
|
In the mean while she was in the carriage. He had handed them both in,
|
|
and placed himself between them; and in this manner, under these
|
|
circumstances, full of astonishment and emotion to Anne, she quitted Lyme.
|
|
How the long stage would pass; how it was to affect their manners;
|
|
what was to be their sort of intercourse, she could not foresee.
|
|
It was all quite natural, however. He was devoted to Henrietta;
|
|
always turning towards her; and when he spoke at all, always with the view
|
|
of supporting her hopes and raising her spirits. In general,
|
|
his voice and manner were studiously calm. To spare Henrietta
|
|
from agitation seemed the governing principle. Once only,
|
|
when she had been grieving over the last ill-judged, ill-fated
|
|
walk to the Cobb, bitterly lamenting that it ever had been thought of,
|
|
he burst forth, as if wholly overcome--
|
|
|
|
"Don't talk of it, don't talk of it," he cried. "Oh God! that I had
|
|
not given way to her at the fatal moment! Had I done as I ought!
|
|
But so eager and so resolute! Dear, sweet Louisa!"
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Anne wondered whether it ever occurred to him now, to question the justness
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of his own previous opinion as to the universal felicity and advantage
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of firmness of character; and whether it might not strike him that,
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like all other qualities of the mind, it should have its proportions
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and limits. She thought it could scarcely escape him to feel
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that a persuadable temper might sometimes be as much in favour of happiness
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as a very resolute character.
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They got on fast. Anne was astonished to recognise the same hills
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and the same objects so soon. Their actual speed, heightened by
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some dread of the conclusion, made the road appear but half as long
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as on the day before. It was growing quite dusk, however,
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before they were in the neighbourhood of Uppercross, and there had been
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total silence among them for some time, Henrietta leaning back
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in the corner, with a shawl over her face, giving the hope of her
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having cried herself to sleep; when, as they were going up their last hill,
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Anne found herself all at once addressed by Captain Wentworth.
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In a low, cautious voice, he said: --
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"I have been considering what we had best do. She must not
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appear at first. She could not stand it. I have been thinking whether
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you had not better remain in the carriage with her, while I go in
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and break it to Mr and Mrs Musgrove. Do you think this is a good plan?"
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She did: he was satisfied, and said no more. But the remembrance
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of the appeal remained a pleasure to her, as a proof of friendship,
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and of deference for her judgement, a great pleasure; and when it became
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a sort of parting proof, its value did not lessen.
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When the distressing communication at Uppercross was over,
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and he had seen the father and mother quite as composed as could be hoped,
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and the daughter all the better for being with them, he announced
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his intention of returning in the same carriage to Lyme;
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and when the horses were baited, he was off.
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(End of volume one.)
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Chapter 13
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The remainder of Anne's time at Uppercross, comprehending only two days,
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was spent entirely at the Mansion House; and she had the satisfaction
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of knowing herself extremely useful there, both as an immediate companion,
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and as assisting in all those arrangements for the future, which,
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in Mr and Mrs Musgrove's distressed state of spirits, would have
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been difficulties.
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They had an early account from Lyme the next morning. Louisa was
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much the same. No symptoms worse than before had appeared.
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Charles came a few hours afterwards, to bring a later and
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more particular account. He was tolerably cheerful. A speedy cure
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must not be hoped, but everything was going on as well
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as the nature of the case admitted. In speaking of the Harvilles,
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he seemed unable to satisfy his own sense of their kindness,
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especially of Mrs Harville's exertions as a nurse. "She really left
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nothing for Mary to do. He and Mary had been persuaded to go early
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to their inn last night. Mary had been hysterical again this morning.
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When he came away, she was going to walk out with Captain Benwick,
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which, he hoped, would do her good. He almost wished she had been
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prevailed on to come home the day before; but the truth was,
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that Mrs Harville left nothing for anybody to do."
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Charles was to return to Lyme the same afternoon, and his father
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had at first half a mind to go with him, but the ladies could not consent.
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It would be going only to multiply trouble to the others,
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and increase his own distress; and a much better scheme followed
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and was acted upon. A chaise was sent for from Crewkherne,
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and Charles conveyed back a far more useful person in the old nursery-maid
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of the family, one who having brought up all the children,
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and seen the very last, the lingering and long-petted Master Harry,
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sent to school after his brothers, was now living in her deserted nursery
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to mend stockings and dress all the blains and bruises she could
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get near her, and who, consequently, was only too happy in being
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allowed to go and help nurse dear Miss Louisa. Vague wishes of
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getting Sarah thither, had occurred before to Mrs Musgrove and Henrietta;
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but without Anne, it would hardly have been resolved on,
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and found practicable so soon.
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They were indebted, the next day, to Charles Hayter, for all
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the minute knowledge of Louisa, which it was so essential to obtain
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every twenty-four hours. He made it his business to go to Lyme,
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and his account was still encouraging. The intervals of sense
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and consciousness were believed to be stronger. Every report agreed
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in Captain Wentworth's appearing fixed in Lyme.
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Anne was to leave them on the morrow, an event which they all dreaded.
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"What should they do without her? They were wretched comforters
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for one another." And so much was said in this way, that Anne thought
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she could not do better than impart among them the general inclination
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to which she was privy, and persuaded them all to go to Lyme at once.
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She had little difficulty; it was soon determined that they would go;
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go to-morrow, fix themselves at the inn, or get into lodgings,
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as it suited, and there remain till dear Louisa could be moved.
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They must be taking off some trouble from the good people she was with;
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they might at least relieve Mrs Harville from the care of her own children;
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and in short, they were so happy in the decision, that Anne was delighted
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with what she had done, and felt that she could not spend her
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last morning at Uppercross better than in assisting their preparations,
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and sending them off at an early hour, though her being left
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to the solitary range of the house was the consequence.
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She was the last, excepting the little boys at the cottage,
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she was the very last, the only remaining one of all that had filled
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and animated both houses, of all that had given Uppercross
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its cheerful character. A few days had made a change indeed!
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If Louisa recovered, it would all be well again. More than
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former happiness would be restored. There could not be a doubt,
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to her mind there was none, of what would follow her recovery.
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A few months hence, and the room now so deserted, occupied but by
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her silent, pensive self, might be filled again with all that was happy
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and gay, all that was glowing and bright in prosperous love,
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all that was most unlike Anne Elliot!
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An hour's complete leisure for such reflections as these,
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on a dark November day, a small thick rain almost blotting out
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the very few objects ever to be discerned from the windows, was enough
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to make the sound of Lady Russell's carriage exceedingly welcome;
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and yet, though desirous to be gone, she could not quit the Mansion House,
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or look an adieu to the Cottage, with its black, dripping and
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comfortless veranda, or even notice through the misty glasses
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the last humble tenements of the village, without a saddened heart.
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Scenes had passed in Uppercross which made it precious.
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It stood the record of many sensations of pain, once severe,
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but now softened; and of some instances of relenting feeling,
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some breathings of friendship and reconciliation, which could
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never be looked for again, and which could never cease to be dear.
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She left it all behind her, all but the recollection that
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such things had been.
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Anne had never entered Kellynch since her quitting Lady Russell's house
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in September. It had not been necessary, and the few occasions of
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its being possible for her to go to the Hall she had contrived to evade
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and escape from. Her first return was to resume her place in the modern
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and elegant apartments of the Lodge, and to gladden the eyes
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of its mistress.
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There was some anxiety mixed with Lady Russell's joy in meeting her.
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She knew who had been frequenting Uppercross. But happily,
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either Anne was improved in plumpness and looks, or Lady Russell
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fancied her so; and Anne, in receiving her compliments on the occasion,
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had the amusement of connecting them with the silent admiration
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of her cousin, and of hoping that she was to be blessed with
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a second spring of youth and beauty.
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When they came to converse, she was soon sensible of some mental change.
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The subjects of which her heart had been full on leaving Kellynch,
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and which she had felt slighted, and been compelled to smother
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among the Musgroves, were now become but of secondary interest.
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She had lately lost sight even of her father and sister and Bath.
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Their concerns had been sunk under those of Uppercross;
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and when Lady Russell reverted to their former hopes and fears,
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and spoke her satisfaction in the house in Camden Place,
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which had been taken, and her regret that Mrs Clay should still
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be with them, Anne would have been ashamed to have it known
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how much more she was thinking of Lyme and Louisa Musgrove,
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and all her acquaintance there; how much more interesting to her
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was the home and the friendship of the Harvilles and Captain Benwick,
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than her own father's house in Camden Place, or her own sister's intimacy
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with Mrs Clay. She was actually forced to exert herself
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to meet Lady Russell with anything like the appearance of equal solicitude,
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on topics which had by nature the first claim on her.
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There was a little awkwardness at first in their discourse
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on another subject. They must speak of the accident at Lyme.
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Lady Russell had not been arrived five minutes the day before,
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when a full account of the whole had burst on her; but still it must
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be talked of, she must make enquiries, she must regret the imprudence,
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lament the result, and Captain Wentworth's name must be mentioned by both.
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Anne was conscious of not doing it so well as Lady Russell.
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She could not speak the name, and look straight forward to
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Lady Russell's eye, till she had adopted the expedient of telling her
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briefly what she thought of the attachment between him and Louisa.
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When this was told, his name distressed her no longer.
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Lady Russell had only to listen composedly, and wish them happy,
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but internally her heart revelled in angry pleasure, in pleased contempt,
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that the man who at twenty-three had seemed to understand somewhat
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of the value of an Anne Elliot, should, eight years afterwards,
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be charmed by a Louisa Musgrove.
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The first three or four days passed most quietly, with no circumstance
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to mark them excepting the receipt of a note or two from Lyme,
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which found their way to Anne, she could not tell how, and brought
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a rather improving account of Louisa. At the end of that period,
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Lady Russell's politeness could repose no longer, and the fainter
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self-threatenings of the past became in a decided tone,
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"I must call on Mrs Croft; I really must call upon her soon.
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Anne, have you courage to go with me, and pay a visit in that house?
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It will be some trial to us both."
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Anne did not shrink from it; on the contrary, she truly felt as she said,
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in observing--
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"I think you are very likely to suffer the most of the two;
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your feelings are less reconciled to the change than mine.
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By remaining in the neighbourhood, I am become inured to it."
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She could have said more on the subject; for she had in fact
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so high an opinion of the Crofts, and considered her father
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so very fortunate in his tenants, felt the parish to be so sure
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of a good example, and the poor of the best attention and relief,
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that however sorry and ashamed for the necessity of the removal,
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she could not but in conscience feel that they were gone
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who deserved not to stay, and that Kellynch Hall had passed
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into better hands than its owners'. These convictions must unquestionably
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have their own pain, and severe was its kind; but they precluded
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that pain which Lady Russell would suffer in entering the house again,
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and returning through the well-known apartments.
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In such moments Anne had no power of saying to herself,
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"These rooms ought to belong only to us. Oh, how fallen
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in their destination! How unworthily occupied! An ancient family
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to be so driven away! Strangers filling their place!"
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No, except when she thought of her mother, and remembered where
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she had been used to sit and preside, she had no sigh of that description
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to heave.
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Mrs Croft always met her with a kindness which gave her the pleasure
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of fancying herself a favourite, and on the present occasion,
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receiving her in that house, there was particular attention.
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The sad accident at Lyme was soon the prevailing topic,
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and on comparing their latest accounts of the invalid, it appeared
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that each lady dated her intelligence from the same hour of yestermorn;
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that Captain Wentworth had been in Kellynch yesterday (the first time
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since the accident), had brought Anne the last note, which she had
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not been able to trace the exact steps of; had staid a few hours
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and then returned again to Lyme, and without any present intention
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of quitting it any more. He had enquired after her, she found,
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particularly; had expressed his hope of Miss Elliot's not being
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the worse for her exertions, and had spoken of those exertions as great.
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This was handsome, and gave her more pleasure than almost anything else
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could have done.
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As to the sad catastrophe itself, it could be canvassed only in one style
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by a couple of steady, sensible women, whose judgements had to work
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on ascertained events; and it was perfectly decided that it had been
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the consequence of much thoughtlessness and much imprudence;
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that its effects were most alarming, and that it was frightful to think,
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how long Miss Musgrove's recovery might yet be doubtful, and how liable
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she would still remain to suffer from the concussion hereafter!
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The Admiral wound it up summarily by exclaiming--
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"Ay, a very bad business indeed. A new sort of way this,
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for a young fellow to be making love, by breaking his mistress's head,
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is not it, Miss Elliot? This is breaking a head and giving a plaster,
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truly!"
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Admiral Croft's manners were not quite of the tone to suit Lady Russell,
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but they delighted Anne. His goodness of heart and simplicity
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of character were irresistible.
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"Now, this must be very bad for you," said he, suddenly rousing from
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a little reverie, "to be coming and finding us here. I had not
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recollected it before, I declare, but it must be very bad.
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But now, do not stand upon ceremony. Get up and go over all the rooms
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in the house if you like it."
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"Another time, Sir, I thank you, not now."
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"Well, whenever it suits you. You can slip in from the shrubbery
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at any time; and there you will find we keep our umbrellas hanging up
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by that door. A good place is not it? But," (checking himself),
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"you will not think it a good place, for yours were always kept
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in the butler's room. Ay, so it always is, I believe.
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One man's ways may be as good as another's, but we all like our own best.
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And so you must judge for yourself, whether it would be better for you
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to go about the house or not."
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Anne, finding she might decline it, did so, very gratefully.
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"We have made very few changes either," continued the Admiral,
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after thinking a moment. "Very few. We told you about the laundry-door,
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at Uppercross. That has been a very great improvement.
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The wonder was, how any family upon earth could bear with the inconvenience
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of its opening as it did, so long! You will tell Sir Walter
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what we have done, and that Mr Shepherd thinks it the greatest improvement
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the house ever had. Indeed, I must do ourselves the justice to say,
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that the few alterations we have made have been all very much
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for the better. My wife should have the credit of them, however.
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I have done very little besides sending away some of the large
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looking-glasses from my dressing-room, which was your father's.
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A very good man, and very much the gentleman I am sure:
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but I should think, Miss Elliot," (looking with serious reflection),
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"I should think he must be rather a dressy man for his time of life.
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Such a number of looking-glasses! oh Lord! there was no getting away
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from one's self. So I got Sophy to lend me a hand, and we soon
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shifted their quarters; and now I am quite snug, with my
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little shaving glass in one corner, and another great thing
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that I never go near."
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Anne, amused in spite of herself, was rather distressed for an answer,
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and the Admiral, fearing he might not have been civil enough,
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took up the subject again, to say--
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"The next time you write to your good father, Miss Elliot,
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pray give him my compliments and Mrs Croft's, and say that we are
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settled here quite to our liking, and have no fault at all to find
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with the place. The breakfast-room chimney smokes a little,
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I grant you, but it is only when the wind is due north and blows hard,
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which may not happen three times a winter. And take it altogether,
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now that we have been into most of the houses hereabouts and can judge,
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there is not one that we like better than this. Pray say so,
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with my compliments. He will be glad to hear it."
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Lady Russell and Mrs Croft were very well pleased with each other:
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but the acquaintance which this visit began was fated not to proceed
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far at present; for when it was returned, the Crofts announced
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themselves to be going away for a few weeks, to visit their connexions
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in the north of the county, and probably might not be at home again
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before Lady Russell would be removing to Bath.
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So ended all danger to Anne of meeting Captain Wentworth at Kellynch Hall,
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or of seeing him in company with her friend. Everything was safe enough,
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and she smiled over the many anxious feelings she had wasted
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on the subject.
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Chapter 14
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Though Charles and Mary had remained at Lyme much longer after
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Mr and Mrs Musgrove's going than Anne conceived they could have been
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at all wanted, they were yet the first of the family to be at home again;
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and as soon as possible after their return to Uppercross
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they drove over to the Lodge. They had left Louisa beginning to sit up;
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but her head, though clear, was exceedingly weak, and her nerves
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susceptible to the highest extreme of tenderness; and though
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she might be pronounced to be altogether doing very well,
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it was still impossible to say when she might be able to bear
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the removal home; and her father and mother, who must return
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in time to receive their younger children for the Christmas holidays,
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had hardly a hope of being allowed to bring her with them.
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They had been all in lodgings together. Mrs Musgrove had
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got Mrs Harville's children away as much as she could, every possible
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supply from Uppercross had been furnished, to lighten the inconvenience
|
|
to the Harvilles, while the Harvilles had been wanting them
|
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to come to dinner every day; and in short, it seemed to have been
|
|
only a struggle on each side as to which should be most disinterested
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and hospitable.
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Mary had had her evils; but upon the whole, as was evident
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by her staying so long, she had found more to enjoy than to suffer.
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Charles Hayter had been at Lyme oftener than suited her; and when
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they dined with the Harvilles there had been only a maid-servant to wait,
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and at first Mrs Harville had always given Mrs Musgrove precedence;
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but then, she had received so very handsome an apology from her
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on finding out whose daughter she was, and there had been so much
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going on every day, there had been so many walks between their lodgings
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and the Harvilles, and she had got books from the library,
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and changed them so often, that the balance had certainly been
|
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much in favour of Lyme. She had been taken to Charmouth too,
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and she had bathed, and she had gone to church, and there were a great many
|
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more people to look at in the church at Lyme than at Uppercross;
|
|
and all this, joined to the sense of being so very useful,
|
|
had made really an agreeable fortnight.
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Anne enquired after Captain Benwick, Mary's face was clouded directly.
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Charles laughed.
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"Oh! Captain Benwick is very well, I believe, but he is
|
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a very odd young man. I do not know what he would be at.
|
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We asked him to come home with us for a day or two: Charles undertook
|
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to give him some shooting, and he seemed quite delighted, and, for my part,
|
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I thought it was all settled; when behold! on Tuesday night,
|
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he made a very awkward sort of excuse; `he never shot' and he had
|
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`been quite misunderstood,' and he had promised this and he had
|
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promised that, and the end of it was, I found, that he did not mean to come.
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I suppose he was afraid of finding it dull; but upon my word
|
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I should have thought we were lively enough at the Cottage
|
|
for such a heart-broken man as Captain Benwick."
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Charles laughed again and said, "Now Mary, you know very well
|
|
how it really was. It was all your doing," (turning to Anne.)
|
|
"He fancied that if he went with us, he should find you close by:
|
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he fancied everybody to be living in Uppercross; and when he discovered
|
|
that Lady Russell lived three miles off, his heart failed him,
|
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and he had not courage to come. That is the fact, upon my honour,
|
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Mary knows it is."
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But Mary did not give into it very graciously, whether from
|
|
not considering Captain Benwick entitled by birth and situation
|
|
to be in love with an Elliot, or from not wanting to believe
|
|
Anne a greater attraction to Uppercross than herself, must be
|
|
left to be guessed. Anne's good-will, however, was not to be lessened
|
|
by what she heard. She boldly acknowledged herself flattered,
|
|
and continued her enquiries.
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"Oh! he talks of you," cried Charles, "in such terms--"
|
|
Mary interrupted him. "I declare, Charles, I never heard him
|
|
mention Anne twice all the time I was there. I declare, Anne,
|
|
he never talks of you at all."
|
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|
|
"No," admitted Charles, "I do not know that he ever does, in a general
|
|
way; but however, it is a very clear thing that he admires you exceedingly.
|
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His head is full of some books that he is reading upon your recommendation,
|
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and he wants to talk to you about them; he has found out something or other
|
|
in one of them which he thinks--oh! I cannot pretend to remember it,
|
|
but it was something very fine--I overheard him telling Henrietta
|
|
all about it; and then `Miss Elliot' was spoken of in the highest terms!
|
|
Now Mary, I declare it was so, I heard it myself, and you were
|
|
in the other room. `Elegance, sweetness, beauty.' Oh! there was no end
|
|
of Miss Elliot's charms."
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|
|
"And I am sure," cried Mary, warmly, "it was a very little to his credit,
|
|
if he did. Miss Harville only died last June. Such a heart
|
|
is very little worth having; is it, Lady Russell? I am sure
|
|
you will agree with me."
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"I must see Captain Benwick before I decide," said Lady Russell, smiling.
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"And that you are very likely to do very soon, I can tell you, ma'am,"
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said Charles. "Though he had not nerves for coming away with us,
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and setting off again afterwards to pay a formal visit here,
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he will make his way over to Kellynch one day by himself,
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you may depend on it. I told him the distance and the road,
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and I told him of the church's being so very well worth seeing;
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for as he has a taste for those sort of things, I thought that would
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be a good excuse, and he listened with all his understanding and soul;
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and I am sure from his manner that you will have him calling here soon.
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So, I give you notice, Lady Russell."
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"Any acquaintance of Anne's will always be welcome to me,"
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was Lady Russell's kind answer.
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"Oh! as to being Anne's acquaintance," said Mary, "I think he is rather
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my acquaintance, for I have been seeing him every day this last fortnight."
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"Well, as your joint acquaintance, then, I shall be very happy
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to see Captain Benwick."
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"You will not find anything very agreeable in him, I assure you, ma'am.
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He is one of the dullest young men that ever lived. He has walked with me,
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sometimes, from one end of the sands to the other, without saying a word.
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He is not at all a well-bred young man. I am sure you will not like him."
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"There we differ, Mary," said Anne. "I think Lady Russell would like him.
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I think she would be so much pleased with his mind, that she would
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very soon see no deficiency in his manner."
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"So do I, Anne," said Charles. "I am sure Lady Russell would like him.
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He is just Lady Russell's sort. Give him a book, and he will
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read all day long."
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"Yes, that he will!" exclaimed Mary, tauntingly. "He will sit poring
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over his book, and not know when a person speaks to him, or when one
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drop's one's scissors, or anything that happens. Do you think
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Lady Russell would like that?"
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Lady Russell could not help laughing. "Upon my word," said she,
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"I should not have supposed that my opinion of any one could have
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admitted of such difference of conjecture, steady and matter of fact
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as I may call myself. I have really a curiosity to see the person
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who can give occasion to such directly opposite notions.
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I wish he may be induced to call here. And when he does, Mary,
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you may depend upon hearing my opinion; but I am determined
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not to judge him beforehand."
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"You will not like him, I will answer for it."
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Lady Russell began talking of something else. Mary spoke with animation
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of their meeting with, or rather missing, Mr Elliot so extraordinarily.
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"He is a man," said Lady Russell, "whom I have no wish to see.
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His declining to be on cordial terms with the head of his family,
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has left a very strong impression in his disfavour with me."
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This decision checked Mary's eagerness, and stopped her short
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in the midst of the Elliot countenance.
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With regard to Captain Wentworth, though Anne hazarded no enquiries,
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there was voluntary communication sufficient. His spirits had been
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greatly recovering lately as might be expected. As Louisa improved,
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he had improved, and he was now quite a different creature
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from what he had been the first week. He had not seen Louisa;
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and was so extremely fearful of any ill consequence to her
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from an interview, that he did not press for it at all; and,
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on the contrary, seemed to have a plan of going away for a week
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or ten days, till her head was stronger. He had talked of going
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down to Plymouth for a week, and wanted to persuade Captain Benwick
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to go with him; but, as Charles maintained to the last, Captain Benwick
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seemed much more disposed to ride over to Kellynch.
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There can be no doubt that Lady Russell and Anne were both
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occasionally thinking of Captain Benwick, from this time.
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Lady Russell could not hear the door-bell without feeling that it might
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be his herald; nor could Anne return from any stroll of solitary indulgence
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in her father's grounds, or any visit of charity in the village,
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without wondering whether she might see him or hear of him.
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Captain Benwick came not, however. He was either less disposed for it
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than Charles had imagined, or he was too shy; and after giving him
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a week's indulgence, Lady Russell determined him to be unworthy
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of the interest which he had been beginning to excite.
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The Musgroves came back to receive their happy boys and girls from school,
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bringing with them Mrs Harville's little children, to improve the noise
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of Uppercross, and lessen that of Lyme. Henrietta remained with Louisa;
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but all the rest of the family were again in their usual quarters.
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Lady Russell and Anne paid their compliments to them once,
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when Anne could not but feel that Uppercross was already quite alive again.
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Though neither Henrietta, nor Louisa, nor Charles Hayter,
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nor Captain Wentworth were there, the room presented as strong a contrast
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as could be wished to the last state she had seen it in.
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Immediately surrounding Mrs Musgrove were the little Harvilles,
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whom she was sedulously guarding from the tyranny of the two children
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from the Cottage, expressly arrived to amuse them. On one side
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was a table occupied by some chattering girls, cutting up silk
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and gold paper; and on the other were tressels and trays,
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bending under the weight of brawn and cold pies, where riotous boys
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were holding high revel; the whole completed by a roaring Christmas fire,
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which seemed determined to be heard, in spite of all the noise
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of the others. Charles and Mary also came in, of course,
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during their visit, and Mr Musgrove made a point of paying his respects
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to Lady Russell, and sat down close to her for ten minutes,
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talking with a very raised voice, but from the clamour of the children
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on his knees, generally in vain. It was a fine family-piece.
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Anne, judging from her own temperament, would have deemed
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such a domestic hurricane a bad restorative of the nerves,
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which Louisa's illness must have so greatly shaken. But Mrs Musgrove,
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who got Anne near her on purpose to thank her most cordially,
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again and again, for all her attentions to them, concluded
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a short recapitulation of what she had suffered herself by observing,
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with a happy glance round the room, that after all she had gone through,
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nothing was so likely to do her good as a little quiet cheerfulness
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at home.
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Louisa was now recovering apace. Her mother could even think of her
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being able to join their party at home, before her brothers and sisters
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went to school again. The Harvilles had promised to come with her
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and stay at Uppercross, whenever she returned. Captain Wentworth was gone,
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for the present, to see his brother in Shropshire.
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"I hope I shall remember, in future," said Lady Russell, as soon as
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they were reseated in the carriage, "not to call at Uppercross
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in the Christmas holidays."
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Everybody has their taste in noises as well as in other matters;
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and sounds are quite innoxious, or most distressing, by their sort
|
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rather than their quantity. When Lady Russell not long afterwards,
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was entering Bath on a wet afternoon, and driving through
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the long course of streets from the Old Bridge to Camden Place,
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amidst the dash of other carriages, the heavy rumble of carts and drays,
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the bawling of newspapermen, muffin-men and milkmen, and the ceaseless
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clink of pattens, she made no complaint. No, these were noises
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|
which belonged to the winter pleasures; her spirits rose
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|
under their influence; and like Mrs Musgrove, she was feeling,
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though not saying, that after being long in the country, nothing could be
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so good for her as a little quiet cheerfulness.
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Anne did not share these feelings. She persisted in a very determined,
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|
though very silent disinclination for Bath; caught the first dim view
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of the extensive buildings, smoking in rain, without any wish
|
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of seeing them better; felt their progress through the streets to be,
|
|
however disagreeable, yet too rapid; for who would be glad to see her
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when she arrived? And looked back, with fond regret, to the bustles
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of Uppercross and the seclusion of Kellynch.
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Elizabeth's last letter had communicated a piece of news of some interest.
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|
Mr Elliot was in Bath. He had called in Camden Place; had called
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a second time, a third; had been pointedly attentive. If Elizabeth
|
|
and her father did not deceive themselves, had been taking much pains
|
|
to seek the acquaintance, and proclaim the value of the connection,
|
|
as he had formerly taken pains to shew neglect. This was very wonderful
|
|
if it were true; and Lady Russell was in a state of very agreeable
|
|
curiosity and perplexity about Mr Elliot, already recanting the sentiment
|
|
she had so lately expressed to Mary, of his being "a man whom she had
|
|
no wish to see." She had a great wish to see him. If he really sought
|
|
to reconcile himself like a dutiful branch, he must be forgiven
|
|
for having dismembered himself from the paternal tree.
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Anne was not animated to an equal pitch by the circumstance,
|
|
but she felt that she would rather see Mr Elliot again than not,
|
|
which was more than she could say for many other persons in Bath.
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She was put down in Camden Place; and Lady Russell then drove
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to her own lodgings, in Rivers Street.
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Chapter 15
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Sir Walter had taken a very good house in Camden Place,
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a lofty dignified situation, such as becomes a man of consequence;
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and both he and Elizabeth were settled there, much to their satisfaction.
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Anne entered it with a sinking heart, anticipating an imprisonment
|
|
of many months, and anxiously saying to herself, "Oh! when shall I
|
|
leave you again?" A degree of unexpected cordiality, however,
|
|
in the welcome she received, did her good. Her father and sister
|
|
were glad to see her, for the sake of shewing her the house and furniture,
|
|
and met her with kindness. Her making a fourth, when they
|
|
sat down to dinner, was noticed as an advantage.
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Mrs Clay was very pleasant, and very smiling, but her courtesies and smiles
|
|
were more a matter of course. Anne had always felt that she would
|
|
pretend what was proper on her arrival, but the complaisance of the others
|
|
was unlooked for. They were evidently in excellent spirits,
|
|
and she was soon to listen to the causes. They had no inclination
|
|
to listen to her. After laying out for some compliments of being
|
|
deeply regretted in their old neighbourhood, which Anne could not pay,
|
|
they had only a few faint enquiries to make, before the talk must be
|
|
all their own. Uppercross excited no interest, Kellynch very little:
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|
it was all Bath.
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They had the pleasure of assuring her that Bath more than answered
|
|
their expectations in every respect. Their house was undoubtedly
|
|
the best in Camden Place; their drawing-rooms had many decided advantages
|
|
over all the others which they had either seen or heard of,
|
|
and the superiority was not less in the style of the fitting-up,
|
|
or the taste of the furniture. Their acquaintance was
|
|
exceedingly sought after. Everybody was wanting to visit them.
|
|
They had drawn back from many introductions, and still were
|
|
perpetually having cards left by people of whom they knew nothing.
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|
Here were funds of enjoyment. Could Anne wonder that her father
|
|
and sister were happy? She might not wonder, but she must sigh
|
|
that her father should feel no degradation in his change, should see
|
|
nothing to regret in the duties and dignity of the resident landholder,
|
|
should find so much to be vain of in the littlenesses of a town;
|
|
and she must sigh, and smile, and wonder too, as Elizabeth threw open
|
|
the folding-doors and walked with exultation from one drawing-room
|
|
to the other, boasting of their space; at the possibility of that woman,
|
|
who had been mistress of Kellynch Hall, finding extent to be proud of
|
|
between two walls, perhaps thirty feet asunder.
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|
|
But this was not all which they had to make them happy.
|
|
They had Mr Elliot too. Anne had a great deal to hear of Mr Elliot.
|
|
He was not only pardoned, they were delighted with him.
|
|
He had been in Bath about a fortnight; (he had passed through Bath
|
|
in November, in his way to London, when the intelligence of
|
|
Sir Walter's being settled there had of course reached him,
|
|
though only twenty-four hours in the place, but he had not been able
|
|
to avail himself of it;) but he had now been a fortnight in Bath,
|
|
and his first object on arriving, had been to leave his card
|
|
in Camden Place, following it up by such assiduous endeavours to meet,
|
|
and when they did meet, by such great openness of conduct,
|
|
such readiness to apologize for the past, such solicitude to be received
|
|
as a relation again, that their former good understanding
|
|
was completely re-established.
|
|
|
|
They had not a fault to find in him. He had explained away
|
|
all the appearance of neglect on his own side. It had originated
|
|
in misapprehension entirely. He had never had an idea of
|
|
throwing himself off; he had feared that he was thrown off,
|
|
but knew not why, and delicacy had kept him silent. Upon the hint
|
|
of having spoken disrespectfully or carelessly of the family
|
|
and the family honours, he was quite indignant. He, who had ever boasted
|
|
of being an Elliot, and whose feelings, as to connection,
|
|
were only too strict to suit the unfeudal tone of the present day.
|
|
He was astonished, indeed, but his character and general conduct
|
|
must refute it. He could refer Sir Walter to all who knew him;
|
|
and certainly, the pains he had been taking on this, the first opportunity
|
|
of reconciliation, to be restored to the footing of a relation
|
|
and heir-presumptive, was a strong proof of his opinions on the subject.
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|
|
|
The circumstances of his marriage, too, were found to admit of
|
|
much extenuation. This was an article not to be entered on by himself;
|
|
but a very intimate friend of his, a Colonel Wallis, a highly
|
|
respectable man, perfectly the gentleman, (and not an ill-looking man,
|
|
Sir Walter added), who was living in very good style in Marlborough
|
|
Buildings, and had, at his own particular request, been admitted
|
|
to their acquaintance through Mr Elliot, had mentioned one or two things
|
|
relative to the marriage, which made a material difference
|
|
in the discredit of it.
|
|
|
|
Colonel Wallis had known Mr Elliot long, had been well acquainted
|
|
also with his wife, had perfectly understood the whole story.
|
|
She was certainly not a woman of family, but well educated,
|
|
accomplished, rich, and excessively in love with his friend.
|
|
There had been the charm. She had sought him. Without that attraction,
|
|
not all her money would have tempted Elliot, and Sir Walter was,
|
|
moreover, assured of her having been a very fine woman.
|
|
Here was a great deal to soften the business. A very fine woman
|
|
with a large fortune, in love with him! Sir Walter seemed to admit it
|
|
as complete apology; and though Elizabeth could not see the circumstance
|
|
in quite so favourable a light, she allowed it be a great extenuation.
|
|
|
|
Mr Elliot had called repeatedly, had dined with them once,
|
|
evidently delighted by the distinction of being asked, for they
|
|
gave no dinners in general; delighted, in short, by every proof
|
|
of cousinly notice, and placing his whole happiness in being
|
|
on intimate terms in Camden Place.
|
|
|
|
Anne listened, but without quite understanding it. Allowances,
|
|
large allowances, she knew, must be made for the ideas of those who spoke.
|
|
She heard it all under embellishment. All that sounded extravagant
|
|
or irrational in the progress of the reconciliation might have no origin
|
|
but in the language of the relators. Still, however, she had
|
|
the sensation of there being something more than immediately appeared,
|
|
in Mr Elliot's wishing, after an interval of so many years,
|
|
to be well received by them. In a worldly view, he had nothing to gain
|
|
by being on terms with Sir Walter; nothing to risk by a state of variance.
|
|
In all probability he was already the richer of the two,
|
|
and the Kellynch estate would as surely be his hereafter as the title.
|
|
A sensible man, and he had looked like a very sensible man,
|
|
why should it be an object to him? She could only offer one solution;
|
|
it was, perhaps, for Elizabeth's sake. There might really have been
|
|
a liking formerly, though convenience and accident had drawn him
|
|
a different way; and now that he could afford to please himself,
|
|
he might mean to pay his addresses to her. Elizabeth was certainly
|
|
very handsome, with well-bred, elegant manners, and her character
|
|
might never have been penetrated by Mr Elliot, knowing her but in public,
|
|
and when very young himself. How her temper and understanding
|
|
might bear the investigation of his present keener time of life
|
|
was another concern and rather a fearful one. Most earnestly did she wish
|
|
that he might not be too nice, or too observant if Elizabeth
|
|
were his object; and that Elizabeth was disposed to believe herself so,
|
|
and that her friend Mrs Clay was encouraging the idea, seemed apparent
|
|
by a glance or two between them, while Mr Elliot's frequent visits
|
|
were talked of.
|
|
|
|
Anne mentioned the glimpses she had had of him at Lyme, but without
|
|
being much attended to. "Oh! yes, perhaps, it had been Mr Elliot.
|
|
They did not know. It might be him, perhaps." They could not listen
|
|
to her description of him. They were describing him themselves;
|
|
Sir Walter especially. He did justice to his very gentlemanlike
|
|
appearance, his air of elegance and fashion, his good shaped face,
|
|
his sensible eye; but, at the same time, "must lament his being
|
|
very much under-hung, a defect which time seemed to have increased;
|
|
nor could he pretend to say that ten years had not altered
|
|
almost every feature for the worse. Mr Elliot appeared to think
|
|
that he (Sir Walter) was looking exactly as he had done when
|
|
they last parted;" but Sir Walter had "not been able to return
|
|
the compliment entirely, which had embarrassed him. He did not mean
|
|
to complain, however. Mr Elliot was better to look at than most men,
|
|
and he had no objection to being seen with him anywhere."
|
|
|
|
Mr Elliot, and his friends in Marlborough Buildings, were talked of
|
|
the whole evening. "Colonel Wallis had been so impatient to be
|
|
introduced to them! and Mr Elliot so anxious that he should!"
|
|
and there was a Mrs Wallis, at present known only to them by description,
|
|
as she was in daily expectation of her confinement; but Mr Elliot
|
|
spoke of her as "a most charming woman, quite worthy of being known
|
|
in Camden Place," and as soon as she recovered they were to be acquainted.
|
|
Sir Walter thought much of Mrs Wallis; she was said to be
|
|
an excessively pretty woman, beautiful. "He longed to see her.
|
|
He hoped she might make some amends for the many very plain faces
|
|
he was continually passing in the streets. The worst of Bath was
|
|
the number of its plain women. He did not mean to say that there were
|
|
no pretty women, but the number of the plain was out of all proportion.
|
|
He had frequently observed, as he walked, that one handsome face
|
|
would be followed by thirty, or five-and-thirty frights; and once,
|
|
as he had stood in a shop on Bond Street, he had counted
|
|
eighty-seven women go by, one after another, without there being
|
|
a tolerable face among them. It had been a frosty morning,
|
|
to be sure, a sharp frost, which hardly one woman in a thousand
|
|
could stand the test of. But still, there certainly were
|
|
a dreadful multitude of ugly women in Bath; and as for the men!
|
|
they were infinitely worse. Such scarecrows as the streets were full of!
|
|
It was evident how little the women were used to the sight of anything
|
|
tolerable, by the effect which a man of decent appearance produced.
|
|
He had never walked anywhere arm-in-arm with Colonel Wallis
|
|
(who was a fine military figure, though sandy-haired) without observing
|
|
that every woman's eye was upon him; every woman's eye was sure to be
|
|
upon Colonel Wallis." Modest Sir Walter! He was not allowed
|
|
to escape, however. His daughter and Mrs Clay united in hinting
|
|
that Colonel Wallis's companion might have as good a figure
|
|
as Colonel Wallis, and certainly was not sandy-haired.
|
|
|
|
"How is Mary looking?" said Sir Walter, in the height of his good humour.
|
|
"The last time I saw her she had a red nose, but I hope that may not
|
|
happen every day."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no, that must have been quite accidental. In general she has been
|
|
in very good health and very good looks since Michaelmas."
|
|
|
|
"If I thought it would not tempt her to go out in sharp winds,
|
|
and grow coarse, I would send her a new hat and pelisse."
|
|
|
|
Anne was considering whether she should venture to suggest that a gown,
|
|
or a cap, would not be liable to any such misuse, when a knock at the door
|
|
suspended everything. "A knock at the door! and so late!
|
|
It was ten o'clock. Could it be Mr Elliot? They knew he was to dine
|
|
in Lansdown Crescent. It was possible that he might stop in his way home
|
|
to ask them how they did. They could think of no one else.
|
|
Mrs Clay decidedly thought it Mr Elliot's knock." Mrs Clay was right.
|
|
With all the state which a butler and foot-boy could give,
|
|
Mr Elliot was ushered into the room.
|
|
|
|
It was the same, the very same man, with no difference but of dress.
|
|
Anne drew a little back, while the others received his compliments,
|
|
and her sister his apologies for calling at so unusual an hour,
|
|
but "he could not be so near without wishing to know that neither she
|
|
nor her friend had taken cold the day before," &c. &c; which was
|
|
all as politely done, and as politely taken, as possible, but her part
|
|
must follow then. Sir Walter talked of his youngest daughter;
|
|
"Mr Elliot must give him leave to present him to his youngest daughter"
|
|
(there was no occasion for remembering Mary); and Anne, smiling and
|
|
blushing, very becomingly shewed to Mr Elliot the pretty features
|
|
which he had by no means forgotten, and instantly saw, with amusement
|
|
at his little start of surprise, that he had not been at all aware
|
|
of who she was. He looked completely astonished, but not more astonished
|
|
than pleased; his eyes brightened! and with the most perfect alacrity
|
|
he welcomed the relationship, alluded to the past, and entreated
|
|
to be received as an acquaintance already. He was quite as good-looking
|
|
as he had appeared at Lyme, his countenance improved by speaking,
|
|
and his manners were so exactly what they ought to be, so polished,
|
|
so easy, so particularly agreeable, that she could compare them
|
|
in excellence to only one person's manners. They were not the same,
|
|
but they were, perhaps, equally good.
|
|
|
|
He sat down with them, and improved their conversation very much.
|
|
There could be no doubt of his being a sensible man. Ten minutes
|
|
were enough to certify that. His tone, his expressions,
|
|
his choice of subject, his knowing where to stop; it was all
|
|
the operation of a sensible, discerning mind. As soon as he could,
|
|
he began to talk to her of Lyme, wanting to compare opinions
|
|
respecting the place, but especially wanting to speak of the circumstance
|
|
of their happening to be guests in the same inn at the same time;
|
|
to give his own route, understand something of hers, and regret that
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he should have lost such an opportunity of paying his respects to her.
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She gave him a short account of her party and business at Lyme.
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His regret increased as he listened. He had spent his whole
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solitary evening in the room adjoining theirs; had heard voices,
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mirth continually; thought they must be a most delightful set of people,
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longed to be with them, but certainly without the smallest suspicion
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of his possessing the shadow of a right to introduce himself.
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If he had but asked who the party were! The name of Musgrove would
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have told him enough. "Well, it would serve to cure him of
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an absurd practice of never asking a question at an inn,
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which he had adopted, when quite a young man, on the principal
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of its being very ungenteel to be curious.
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"The notions of a young man of one or two and twenty," said he,
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"as to what is necessary in manners to make him quite the thing,
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are more absurd, I believe, than those of any other set of beings
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in the world. The folly of the means they often employ
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is only to be equalled by the folly of what they have in view."
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But he must not be addressing his reflections to Anne alone:
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he knew it; he was soon diffused again among the others,
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and it was only at intervals that he could return to Lyme.
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His enquiries, however, produced at length an account of the scene
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she had been engaged in there, soon after his leaving the place.
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Having alluded to "an accident," he must hear the whole.
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When he questioned, Sir Walter and Elizabeth began to question also,
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but the difference in their manner of doing it could not be unfelt.
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She could only compare Mr Elliot to Lady Russell, in the wish
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of really comprehending what had passed, and in the degree of concern
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for what she must have suffered in witnessing it.
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He staid an hour with them. The elegant little clock on the mantel-
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piece had struck "eleven with its silver sounds," and the watchman
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was beginning to be heard at a distance telling the same tale,
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before Mr Elliot or any of them seemed to feel that he had been there long.
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Anne could not have supposed it possible that her first evening in
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Camden Place could have passed so well!
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Chapter 16
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There was one point which Anne, on returning to her family,
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would have been more thankful to ascertain even than Mr Elliot's
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being in love with Elizabeth, which was, her father's not being
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in love with Mrs Clay; and she was very far from easy about it,
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when she had been at home a few hours. On going down to breakfast
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the next morning, she found there had just been a decent pretence
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on the lady's side of meaning to leave them. She could imagine Mrs Clay
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to have said, that "now Miss Anne was come, she could not suppose herself
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at all wanted;" for Elizabeth was replying in a sort of whisper,
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"That must not be any reason, indeed. I assure you I feel it none.
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She is nothing to me, compared with you;" and she was in full time
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to hear her father say, "My dear madam, this must not be. As yet,
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you have seen nothing of Bath. You have been here only to be useful.
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You must not run away from us now. You must stay to be acquainted
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with Mrs Wallis, the beautiful Mrs Wallis. To your fine mind,
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I well know the sight of beauty is a real gratification."
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He spoke and looked so much in earnest, that Anne was not surprised
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to see Mrs Clay stealing a glance at Elizabeth and herself.
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Her countenance, perhaps, might express some watchfulness;
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but the praise of the fine mind did not appear to excite a thought
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in her sister. The lady could not but yield to such joint entreaties,
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and promise to stay.
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In the course of the same morning, Anne and her father chancing to be
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alone together, he began to compliment her on her improved looks;
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he thought her "less thin in her person, in her cheeks; her skin,
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her complexion, greatly improved; clearer, fresher. Had she been
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using any thing in particular?" "No, nothing." "Merely Gowland,"
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he supposed. "No, nothing at all." "Ha! he was surprised at that;"
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and added, "certainly you cannot do better than to continue as you are;
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you cannot be better than well; or I should recommend Gowland,
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the constant use of Gowland, during the spring months. Mrs Clay has been
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using it at my recommendation, and you see what it has done for her.
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You see how it has carried away her freckles."
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If Elizabeth could but have heard this! Such personal praise
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might have struck her, especially as it did not appear to Anne
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that the freckles were at all lessened. But everything must
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take its chance. The evil of a marriage would be much diminished,
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if Elizabeth were also to marry. As for herself, she might always
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command a home with Lady Russell.
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Lady Russell's composed mind and polite manners were put to some trial
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on this point, in her intercourse in Camden Place. The sight of Mrs Clay
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in such favour, and of Anne so overlooked, was a perpetual provocation
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to her there; and vexed her as much when she was away, as a person in Bath
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who drinks the water, gets all the new publications, and has
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a very large acquaintance, has time to be vexed.
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As Mr Elliot became known to her, she grew more charitable,
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or more indifferent, towards the others. His manners were
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an immediate recommendation; and on conversing with him she found
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the solid so fully supporting the superficial, that she was at first,
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as she told Anne, almost ready to exclaim, "Can this be Mr Elliot?"
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and could not seriously picture to herself a more agreeable
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or estimable man. Everything united in him; good understanding,
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correct opinions, knowledge of the world, and a warm heart.
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He had strong feelings of family attachment and family honour,
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without pride or weakness; he lived with the liberality of a man of fortune,
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without display; he judged for himself in everything essential,
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without defying public opinion in any point of worldly decorum.
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He was steady, observant, moderate, candid; never run away with by spirits
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or by selfishness, which fancied itself strong feeling; and yet,
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with a sensibility to what was amiable and lovely, and a value
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for all the felicities of domestic life, which characters of
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fancied enthusiasm and violent agitation seldom really possess.
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She was sure that he had not been happy in marriage. Colonel Wallis
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said it, and Lady Russell saw it; but it had been no unhappiness
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to sour his mind, nor (she began pretty soon to suspect) to prevent his
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thinking of a second choice. Her satisfaction in Mr Elliot
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outweighed all the plague of Mrs Clay.
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It was now some years since Anne had begun to learn that she
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and her excellent friend could sometimes think differently;
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and it did not surprise her, therefore, that Lady Russell
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should see nothing suspicious or inconsistent, nothing to require
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more motives than appeared, in Mr Elliot's great desire of a reconciliation.
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In Lady Russell's view, it was perfectly natural that Mr Elliot,
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at a mature time of life, should feel it a most desirable object,
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and what would very generally recommend him among all sensible people,
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to be on good terms with the head of his family; the simplest process
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in the world of time upon a head naturally clear, and only erring
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in the heyday of youth. Anne presumed, however, still to smile about it,
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and at last to mention "Elizabeth." Lady Russell listened, and looked,
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and made only this cautious reply:--"Elizabeth! very well;
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time will explain."
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It was a reference to the future, which Anne, after a little observation,
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felt she must submit to. She could determine nothing at present.
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In that house Elizabeth must be first; and she was in the habit
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of such general observance as "Miss Elliot," that any particularity
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of attention seemed almost impossible. Mr Elliot, too,
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it must be remembered, had not been a widower seven months.
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A little delay on his side might be very excusable. In fact,
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Anne could never see the crape round his hat, without fearing that
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she was the inexcusable one, in attributing to him such imaginations;
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for though his marriage had not been very happy, still it had existed
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so many years that she could not comprehend a very rapid recovery
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from the awful impression of its being dissolved.
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However it might end, he was without any question their
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pleasantest acquaintance in Bath: she saw nobody equal to him;
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and it was a great indulgence now and then to talk to him about Lyme,
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which he seemed to have as lively a wish to see again, and to see more of,
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as herself. They went through the particulars of their first meeting
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a great many times. He gave her to understand that he had
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looked at her with some earnestness. She knew it well;
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and she remembered another person's look also.
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They did not always think alike. His value for rank and connexion
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she perceived was greater than hers. It was not merely complaisance,
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it must be a liking to the cause, which made him enter warmly
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into her father and sister's solicitudes on a subject which
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she thought unworthy to excite them. The Bath paper one morning
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announced the arrival of the Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple,
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and her daughter, the Honourable Miss Carteret; and all the comfort
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of No.--, Camden Place, was swept away for many days; for the Dalrymples
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(in Anne's opinion, most unfortunately) were cousins of the Elliots;
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and the agony was how to introduce themselves properly.
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Anne had never seen her father and sister before in contact with nobility,
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and she must acknowledge herself disappointed. She had hoped
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better things from their high ideas of their own situation in life,
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and was reduced to form a wish which she had never foreseen;
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a wish that they had more pride; for "our cousins Lady Dalrymple
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and Miss Carteret;" "our cousins, the Dalrymples," sounded in her ears
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all day long.
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Sir Walter had once been in company with the late viscount,
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but had never seen any of the rest of the family; and the difficulties
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of the case arose from there having been a suspension of all intercourse
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by letters of ceremony, ever since the death of that said late viscount,
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when, in consequence of a dangerous illness of Sir Walter's
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at the same time, there had been an unlucky omission at Kellynch.
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No letter of condolence had been sent to Ireland. The neglect
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|
had been visited on the head of the sinner; for when poor Lady Elliot
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died herself, no letter of condolence was received at Kellynch,
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and, consequently, there was but too much reason to apprehend
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that the Dalrymples considered the relationship as closed.
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How to have this anxious business set to rights, and be admitted
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as cousins again, was the question: and it was a question which,
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in a more rational manner, neither Lady Russell nor Mr Elliot
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thought unimportant. "Family connexions were always worth preserving,
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good company always worth seeking; Lady Dalrymple had taken a house,
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for three months, in Laura Place, and would be living in style.
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She had been at Bath the year before, and Lady Russell had heard her
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spoken of as a charming woman. It was very desirable that
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the connexion should be renewed, if it could be done, without any
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|
compromise of propriety on the side of the Elliots."
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Sir Walter, however, would choose his own means, and at last wrote
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a very fine letter of ample explanation, regret, and entreaty,
|
|
to his right honourable cousin. Neither Lady Russell nor Mr Elliot
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could admire the letter; but it did all that was wanted,
|
|
in bringing three lines of scrawl from the Dowager Viscountess.
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"She was very much honoured, and should be happy in their acquaintance."
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The toils of the business were over, the sweets began. They visited
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in Laura Place, they had the cards of Dowager Viscountess Dalrymple,
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and the Honourable Miss Carteret, to be arranged wherever they might
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be most visible: and "Our cousins in Laura Place,"--"Our cousin,
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Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret," were talked of to everybody.
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Anne was ashamed. Had Lady Dalrymple and her daughter even been
|
|
very agreeable, she would still have been ashamed of the agitation
|
|
they created, but they were nothing. There was no superiority of manner,
|
|
accomplishment, or understanding. Lady Dalrymple had acquired
|
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the name of "a charming woman," because she had a smile and a civil answer
|
|
for everybody. Miss Carteret, with still less to say, was so plain
|
|
and so awkward, that she would never have been tolerated in Camden Place
|
|
but for her birth.
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Lady Russell confessed she had expected something better; but yet
|
|
"it was an acquaintance worth having;" and when Anne ventured to speak
|
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her opinion of them to Mr Elliot, he agreed to their being nothing
|
|
in themselves, but still maintained that, as a family connexion,
|
|
as good company, as those who would collect good company around them,
|
|
they had their value. Anne smiled and said,
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|
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"My idea of good company, Mr Elliot, is the company of clever,
|
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well-informed people, who have a great deal of conversation;
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that is what I call good company."
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"You are mistaken," said he gently, "that is not good company;
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that is the best. Good company requires only birth, education,
|
|
and manners, and with regard to education is not very nice.
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Birth and good manners are essential; but a little learning is
|
|
by no means a dangerous thing in good company; on the contrary,
|
|
it will do very well. My cousin Anne shakes her head.
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She is not satisfied. She is fastidious. My dear cousin"
|
|
(sitting down by her), "you have a better right to be fastidious
|
|
than almost any other woman I know; but will it answer?
|
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Will it make you happy? Will it not be wiser to accept the society
|
|
of those good ladies in Laura Place, and enjoy all the advantages
|
|
of the connexion as far as possible? You may depend upon it,
|
|
that they will move in the first set in Bath this winter,
|
|
and as rank is rank, your being known to be related to them
|
|
will have its use in fixing your family (our family let me say)
|
|
in that degree of consideration which we must all wish for."
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|
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"Yes," sighed Anne, "we shall, indeed, be known to be related to them!"
|
|
then recollecting herself, and not wishing to be answered, she added,
|
|
"I certainly do think there has been by far too much trouble taken
|
|
to procure the acquaintance. I suppose" (smiling) "I have more pride
|
|
than any of you; but I confess it does vex me, that we should be
|
|
so solicitous to have the relationship acknowledged, which we may
|
|
be very sure is a matter of perfect indifference to them."
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|
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"Pardon me, dear cousin, you are unjust in your own claims.
|
|
In London, perhaps, in your present quiet style of living,
|
|
it might be as you say: but in Bath; Sir Walter Elliot and his family
|
|
will always be worth knowing: always acceptable as acquaintance."
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|
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"Well," said Anne, "I certainly am proud, too proud to enjoy a welcome
|
|
which depends so entirely upon place."
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|
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"I love your indignation," said he; "it is very natural.
|
|
But here you are in Bath, and the object is to be established here
|
|
with all the credit and dignity which ought to belong to Sir Walter Elliot.
|
|
You talk of being proud; I am called proud, I know, and I shall not wish
|
|
to believe myself otherwise; for our pride, if investigated,
|
|
would have the same object, I have no doubt, though the kind may seem
|
|
a little different. In one point, I am sure, my dear cousin,"
|
|
(he continued, speaking lower, though there was no one else in the room)
|
|
"in one point, I am sure, we must feel alike. We must feel that
|
|
every addition to your father's society, among his equals or superiors,
|
|
may be of use in diverting his thoughts from those who are beneath him."
|
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|
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He looked, as he spoke, to the seat which Mrs Clay had been
|
|
lately occupying: a sufficient explanation of what he particularly meant;
|
|
and though Anne could not believe in their having the same sort of pride,
|
|
she was pleased with him for not liking Mrs Clay; and her conscience
|
|
admitted that his wishing to promote her father's getting
|
|
great acquaintance was more than excusable in the view of defeating her.
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Chapter 17
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While Sir Walter and Elizabeth were assiduously pushing their
|
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good fortune in Laura Place, Anne was renewing an acquaintance
|
|
of a very different description.
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|
|
She had called on her former governess, and had heard from her
|
|
of there being an old school-fellow in Bath, who had the two strong claims
|
|
on her attention of past kindness and present suffering. Miss Hamilton,
|
|
now Mrs Smith, had shewn her kindness in one of those periods of her life
|
|
when it had been most valuable. Anne had gone unhappy to school,
|
|
grieving for the loss of a mother whom she had dearly loved,
|
|
feeling her separation from home, and suffering as a girl of fourteen,
|
|
of strong sensibility and not high spirits, must suffer at such a time;
|
|
and Miss Hamilton, three years older than herself, but still from the want
|
|
of near relations and a settled home, remaining another year at school,
|
|
had been useful and good to her in a way which had considerably lessened
|
|
her misery, and could never be remembered with indifference.
|
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|
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Miss Hamilton had left school, had married not long afterwards,
|
|
was said to have married a man of fortune, and this was all
|
|
that Anne had known of her, till now that their governess's account
|
|
brought her situation forward in a more decided but very different form.
|
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|
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She was a widow and poor. Her husband had been extravagant;
|
|
and at his death, about two years before, had left his affairs
|
|
dreadfully involved. She had had difficulties of every sort
|
|
to contend with, and in addition to these distresses had been afflicted
|
|
with a severe rheumatic fever, which, finally settling in her legs,
|
|
had made her for the present a cripple. She had come to Bath
|
|
on that account, and was now in lodgings near the hot baths,
|
|
living in a very humble way, unable even to afford herself
|
|
the comfort of a servant, and of course almost excluded from society.
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|
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Their mutual friend answered for the satisfaction which a visit
|
|
from Miss Elliot would give Mrs Smith, and Anne therefore
|
|
lost no time in going. She mentioned nothing of what she had heard,
|
|
or what she intended, at home. It would excite no proper interest there.
|
|
She only consulted Lady Russell, who entered thoroughly into her sentiments,
|
|
and was most happy to convey her as near to Mrs Smith's lodgings
|
|
in Westgate Buildings, as Anne chose to be taken.
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|
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The visit was paid, their acquaintance re-established, their interest
|
|
in each other more than re-kindled. The first ten minutes
|
|
had its awkwardness and its emotion. Twelve years were gone
|
|
since they had parted, and each presented a somewhat different person
|
|
from what the other had imagined. Twelve years had changed Anne
|
|
from the blooming, silent, unformed girl of fifteen, to the elegant
|
|
little woman of seven-and-twenty, with every beauty except bloom,
|
|
and with manners as consciously right as they were invariably gentle;
|
|
and twelve years had transformed the fine-looking, well-grown Miss Hamilton,
|
|
in all the glow of health and confidence of superiority, into a poor,
|
|
infirm, helpless widow, receiving the visit of her former protegee
|
|
as a favour; but all that was uncomfortable in the meeting had soon
|
|
passed away, and left only the interesting charm of remembering
|
|
former partialities and talking over old times.
|
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|
|
Anne found in Mrs Smith the good sense and agreeable manners which
|
|
she had almost ventured to depend on, and a disposition to converse
|
|
and be cheerful beyond her expectation. Neither the dissipations
|
|
of the past--and she had lived very much in the world--nor the restrictions
|
|
of the present, neither sickness nor sorrow seemed to have
|
|
closed her heart or ruined her spirits.
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|
|
In the course of a second visit she talked with great openness,
|
|
and Anne's astonishment increased. She could scarcely imagine
|
|
a more cheerless situation in itself than Mrs Smith's. She had been
|
|
very fond of her husband: she had buried him. She had been
|
|
used to affluence: it was gone. She had no child to connect her
|
|
with life and happiness again, no relations to assist in the arrangement
|
|
of perplexed affairs, no health to make all the rest supportable.
|
|
Her accommodations were limited to a noisy parlour, and a dark bedroom
|
|
behind, with no possibility of moving from one to the other without
|
|
assistance, which there was only one servant in the house to afford,
|
|
and she never quitted the house but to be conveyed into the warm bath.
|
|
Yet, in spite of all this, Anne had reason to believe that she had
|
|
moments only of languor and depression, to hours of occupation
|
|
and enjoyment. How could it be? She watched, observed, reflected,
|
|
and finally determined that this was not a case of fortitude
|
|
or of resignation only. A submissive spirit might be patient,
|
|
a strong understanding would supply resolution, but here was something more;
|
|
here was that elasticity of mind, that disposition to be comforted,
|
|
that power of turning readily from evil to good, and of finding employment
|
|
which carried her out of herself, which was from nature alone.
|
|
It was the choicest gift of Heaven; and Anne viewed her friend
|
|
as one of those instances in which, by a merciful appointment,
|
|
it seems designed to counterbalance almost every other want.
|
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|
|
There had been a time, Mrs Smith told her, when her spirits
|
|
had nearly failed. She could not call herself an invalid now,
|
|
compared with her state on first reaching Bath. Then she had, indeed,
|
|
been a pitiable object; for she had caught cold on the journey,
|
|
and had hardly taken possession of her lodgings before she was again
|
|
confined to her bed and suffering under severe and constant pain;
|
|
and all this among strangers, with the absolute necessity of having
|
|
a regular nurse, and finances at that moment particularly unfit
|
|
to meet any extraordinary expense. She had weathered it, however,
|
|
and could truly say that it had done her good. It had increased
|
|
her comforts by making her feel herself to be in good hands.
|
|
She had seen too much of the world, to expect sudden or disinterested
|
|
attachment anywhere, but her illness had proved to her that her landlady
|
|
had a character to preserve, and would not use her ill; and she had been
|
|
particularly fortunate in her nurse, as a sister of her landlady,
|
|
a nurse by profession, and who had always a home in that house
|
|
when unemployed, chanced to be at liberty just in time to attend her.
|
|
"And she," said Mrs Smith, "besides nursing me most admirably,
|
|
has really proved an invaluable acquaintance. As soon as I could
|
|
use my hands she taught me to knit, which has been a great amusement;
|
|
and she put me in the way of making these little thread-cases,
|
|
pin-cushions and card-racks, which you always find me so busy about,
|
|
and which supply me with the means of doing a little good
|
|
to one or two very poor families in this neighbourhood.
|
|
She had a large acquaintance, of course professionally, among those
|
|
who can afford to buy, and she disposes of my merchandize.
|
|
She always takes the right time for applying. Everybody's heart is open,
|
|
you know, when they have recently escaped from severe pain,
|
|
or are recovering the blessing of health, and Nurse Rooke
|
|
thoroughly understands when to speak. She is a shrewd, intelligent,
|
|
sensible woman. Hers is a line for seeing human nature; and she has
|
|
a fund of good sense and observation, which, as a companion, make her
|
|
infinitely superior to thousands of those who having only received
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`the best education in the world,' know nothing worth attending to.
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Call it gossip, if you will, but when Nurse Rooke has half an hour's
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leisure to bestow on me, she is sure to have something to relate
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that is entertaining and profitable: something that makes one
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know one's species better. One likes to hear what is going on,
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to be au fait as to the newest modes of being trifling and silly.
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To me, who live so much alone, her conversation, I assure you, is a treat."
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Anne, far from wishing to cavil at the pleasure, replied,
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"I can easily believe it. Women of that class have great opportunities,
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and if they are intelligent may be well worth listening to.
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Such varieties of human nature as they are in the habit of witnessing!
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And it is not merely in its follies, that they are well read;
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for they see it occasionally under every circumstance that can be
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most interesting or affecting. What instances must pass before them
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of ardent, disinterested, self-denying attachment, of heroism, fortitude,
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patience, resignation: of all the conflicts and all the sacrifices
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that ennoble us most. A sick chamber may often furnish
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the worth of volumes."
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"Yes," said Mrs Smith more doubtingly, "sometimes it may,
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though I fear its lessons are not often in the elevated style you describe.
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Here and there, human nature may be great in times of trial;
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but generally speaking, it is its weakness and not its strength
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that appears in a sick chamber: it is selfishness and impatience
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rather than generosity and fortitude, that one hears of.
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There is so little real friendship in the world! and unfortunately"
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(speaking low and tremulously) "there are so many who forget
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to think seriously till it is almost too late."
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Anne saw the misery of such feelings. The husband had not been
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what he ought, and the wife had been led among that part of mankind
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which made her think worse of the world than she hoped it deserved.
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It was but a passing emotion however with Mrs Smith; she shook it off,
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and soon added in a different tone--
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"I do not suppose the situation my friend Mrs Rooke is in at present,
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will furnish much either to interest or edify me. She is only nursing
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Mrs Wallis of Marlborough Buildings; a mere pretty, silly, expensive,
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fashionable woman, I believe; and of course will have nothing to report
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but of lace and finery. I mean to make my profit of Mrs Wallis, however.
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She has plenty of money, and I intend she shall buy all
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the high-priced things I have in hand now."
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Anne had called several times on her friend, before the existence
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of such a person was known in Camden Place. At last, it became necessary
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to speak of her. Sir Walter, Elizabeth and Mrs Clay, returned one morning
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from Laura Place, with a sudden invitation from Lady Dalrymple
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for the same evening, and Anne was already engaged, to spend that evening
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in Westgate Buildings. She was not sorry for the excuse.
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|
They were only asked, she was sure, because Lady Dalrymple being
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kept at home by a bad cold, was glad to make use of the relationship
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|
which had been so pressed on her; and she declined on her own account
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with great alacrity--"She was engaged to spend the evening
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|
with an old schoolfellow." They were not much interested in anything
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|
relative to Anne; but still there were questions enough asked,
|
|
to make it understood what this old schoolfellow was; and Elizabeth
|
|
was disdainful, and Sir Walter severe.
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"Westgate Buildings!" said he, "and who is Miss Anne Elliot
|
|
to be visiting in Westgate Buildings? A Mrs Smith. A widow Mrs Smith;
|
|
and who was her husband? One of five thousand Mr Smiths whose names
|
|
are to be met with everywhere. And what is her attraction?
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|
That she is old and sickly. Upon my word, Miss Anne Elliot,
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|
you have the most extraordinary taste! Everything that revolts
|
|
other people, low company, paltry rooms, foul air, disgusting associations
|
|
are inviting to you. But surely you may put off this old lady
|
|
till to-morrow: she is not so near her end, I presume,
|
|
but that she may hope to see another day. What is her age? Forty?"
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|
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|
"No, sir, she is not one-and-thirty; but I do not think I can
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|
put off my engagement, because it is the only evening for some time
|
|
which will at once suit her and myself. She goes into the warm bath
|
|
to-morrow, and for the rest of the week, you know, we are engaged."
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|
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"But what does Lady Russell think of this acquaintance?" asked Elizabeth.
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|
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"She sees nothing to blame in it," replied Anne; "on the contrary,
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|
she approves it, and has generally taken me when I have
|
|
called on Mrs Smith.
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|
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|
"Westgate Buildings must have been rather surprised by the appearance
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|
of a carriage drawn up near its pavement," observed Sir Walter.
|
|
"Sir Henry Russell's widow, indeed, has no honours to distinguish her arms,
|
|
but still it is a handsome equipage, and no doubt is well known
|
|
to convey a Miss Elliot. A widow Mrs Smith lodging in Westgate Buildings!
|
|
A poor widow barely able to live, between thirty and forty;
|
|
a mere Mrs Smith, an every-day Mrs Smith, of all people and all names
|
|
in the world, to be the chosen friend of Miss Anne Elliot,
|
|
and to be preferred by her to her own family connections among the nobility
|
|
of England and Ireland! Mrs Smith! Such a name!"
|
|
|
|
Mrs Clay, who had been present while all this passed, now thought it
|
|
advisable to leave the room, and Anne could have said much,
|
|
and did long to say a little in defense of her friend's
|
|
not very dissimilar claims to theirs, but her sense of personal respect
|
|
to her father prevented her. She made no reply. She left it
|
|
to himself to recollect, that Mrs Smith was not the only widow
|
|
in Bath between thirty and forty, with little to live on,
|
|
and no sirname of dignity.
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|
|
|
Anne kept her appointment; the others kept theirs, and of course
|
|
she heard the next morning that they had had a delightful evening.
|
|
She had been the only one of the set absent, for Sir Walter
|
|
and Elizabeth had not only been quite at her ladyship's service themselves,
|
|
but had actually been happy to be employed by her in collecting others,
|
|
and had been at the trouble of inviting both Lady Russell and Mr Elliot;
|
|
and Mr Elliot had made a point of leaving Colonel Wallis early,
|
|
and Lady Russell had fresh arranged all her evening engagements
|
|
in order to wait on her. Anne had the whole history of all that
|
|
such an evening could supply from Lady Russell. To her,
|
|
its greatest interest must be, in having been very much talked of
|
|
between her friend and Mr Elliot; in having been wished for, regretted,
|
|
and at the same time honoured for staying away in such a cause.
|
|
Her kind, compassionate visits to this old schoolfellow,
|
|
sick and reduced, seemed to have quite delighted Mr Elliot.
|
|
He thought her a most extraordinary young woman; in her temper, manners,
|
|
mind, a model of female excellence. He could meet even Lady Russell
|
|
in a discussion of her merits; and Anne could not be given to understand
|
|
so much by her friend, could not know herself to be so highly rated
|
|
by a sensible man, without many of those agreeable sensations
|
|
which her friend meant to create.
|
|
|
|
Lady Russell was now perfectly decided in her opinion of Mr Elliot.
|
|
She was as much convinced of his meaning to gain Anne in time as of
|
|
his deserving her, and was beginning to calculate the number of weeks
|
|
which would free him from all the remaining restraints of widowhood,
|
|
and leave him at liberty to exert his most open powers of pleasing.
|
|
She would not speak to Anne with half the certainty she felt on the subject,
|
|
she would venture on little more than hints of what might be hereafter,
|
|
of a possible attachment on his side, of the desirableness of the alliance,
|
|
supposing such attachment to be real and returned. Anne heard her,
|
|
and made no violent exclamations; she only smiled, blushed,
|
|
and gently shook her head.
|
|
|
|
"I am no match-maker, as you well know," said Lady Russell,
|
|
"being much too well aware of the uncertainty of all human events
|
|
and calculations. I only mean that if Mr Elliot should some time hence
|
|
pay his addresses to you, and if you should be disposed to accept him,
|
|
I think there would be every possibility of your being happy together.
|
|
A most suitable connection everybody must consider it, but I think
|
|
it might be a very happy one."
|
|
|
|
"Mr Elliot is an exceedingly agreeable man, and in many respects
|
|
I think highly of him," said Anne; "but we should not suit."
|
|
|
|
Lady Russell let this pass, and only said in rejoinder, "I own that
|
|
to be able to regard you as the future mistress of Kellynch,
|
|
the future Lady Elliot, to look forward and see you occupying
|
|
your dear mother's place, succeeding to all her rights,
|
|
and all her popularity, as well as to all her virtues, would be
|
|
the highest possible gratification to me. You are your mother's self
|
|
in countenance and disposition; and if I might be allowed to fancy you
|
|
such as she was, in situation and name, and home, presiding and blessing
|
|
in the same spot, and only superior to her in being more highly valued!
|
|
My dearest Anne, it would give me more delight than is often felt
|
|
at my time of life!"
|
|
|
|
Anne was obliged to turn away, to rise, to walk to a distant table,
|
|
and, leaning there in pretended employment, try to subdue the feelings
|
|
this picture excited. For a few moments her imagination and her heart
|
|
were bewitched. The idea of becoming what her mother had been;
|
|
of having the precious name of "Lady Elliot" first revived in herself;
|
|
of being restored to Kellynch, calling it her home again,
|
|
her home for ever, was a charm which she could not immediately resist.
|
|
Lady Russell said not another word, willing to leave the matter
|
|
to its own operation; and believing that, could Mr Elliot at that moment
|
|
with propriety have spoken for himself!--she believed, in short,
|
|
what Anne did not believe. The same image of Mr Elliot speaking
|
|
for himself brought Anne to composure again. The charm of Kellynch
|
|
and of "Lady Elliot" all faded away. She never could accept him.
|
|
And it was not only that her feelings were still adverse to any man
|
|
save one; her judgement, on a serious consideration of the possibilities
|
|
of such a case was against Mr Elliot.
|
|
|
|
Though they had now been acquainted a month, she could not be satisfied
|
|
that she really knew his character. That he was a sensible man,
|
|
an agreeable man, that he talked well, professed good opinions,
|
|
seemed to judge properly and as a man of principle, this was all
|
|
clear enough. He certainly knew what was right, nor could she fix
|
|
on any one article of moral duty evidently transgressed; but yet she would
|
|
have been afraid to answer for his conduct. She distrusted the past,
|
|
if not the present. The names which occasionally dropt
|
|
of former associates, the allusions to former practices and pursuits,
|
|
suggested suspicions not favourable of what he had been.
|
|
She saw that there had been bad habits; that Sunday travelling
|
|
had been a common thing; that there had been a period of his life
|
|
(and probably not a short one) when he had been, at least,
|
|
careless in all serious matters; and, though he might now think
|
|
very differently, who could answer for the true sentiments of a clever,
|
|
cautious man, grown old enough to appreciate a fair character?
|
|
How could it ever be ascertained that his mind was truly cleansed?
|
|
|
|
Mr Elliot was rational, discreet, polished, but he was not open.
|
|
There was never any burst of feeling, any warmth of indignation or delight,
|
|
at the evil or good of others. This, to Anne, was a decided imperfection.
|
|
Her early impressions were incurable. She prized the frank,
|
|
the open-hearted, the eager character beyond all others.
|
|
Warmth and enthusiasm did captivate her still. She felt that she could
|
|
so much more depend upon the sincerity of those who sometimes looked
|
|
or said a careless or a hasty thing, than of those whose presence of mind
|
|
never varied, whose tongue never slipped.
|
|
|
|
Mr Elliot was too generally agreeable. Various as were the tempers
|
|
in her father's house, he pleased them all. He endured too well,
|
|
stood too well with every body. He had spoken to her with some
|
|
degree of openness of Mrs Clay; had appeared completely to see
|
|
what Mrs Clay was about, and to hold her in contempt; and yet
|
|
Mrs Clay found him as agreeable as any body.
|
|
|
|
Lady Russell saw either less or more than her young friend,
|
|
for she saw nothing to excite distrust. She could not imagine
|
|
a man more exactly what he ought to be than Mr Elliot; nor did she
|
|
ever enjoy a sweeter feeling than the hope of seeing him receive
|
|
the hand of her beloved Anne in Kellynch church, in the course of
|
|
the following autumn.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter 18
|
|
|
|
|
|
It was the beginning of February; and Anne, having been a month in Bath,
|
|
was growing very eager for news from Uppercross and Lyme.
|
|
She wanted to hear much more than Mary had communicated.
|
|
It was three weeks since she had heard at all. She only knew
|
|
that Henrietta was at home again; and that Louisa, though considered to be
|
|
recovering fast, was still in Lyme; and she was thinking of them all
|
|
very intently one evening, when a thicker letter than usual from Mary
|
|
was delivered to her; and, to quicken the pleasure and surprise,
|
|
with Admiral and Mrs Croft's compliments.
|
|
|
|
The Crofts must be in Bath! A circumstance to interest her.
|
|
They were people whom her heart turned to very naturally.
|
|
|
|
"What is this?" cried Sir Walter. "The Crofts have arrived in Bath?
|
|
The Crofts who rent Kellynch? What have they brought you?"
|
|
|
|
"A letter from Uppercross Cottage, Sir."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! those letters are convenient passports. They secure an introduction.
|
|
I should have visited Admiral Croft, however, at any rate.
|
|
I know what is due to my tenant."
|
|
|
|
Anne could listen no longer; she could not even have told how
|
|
the poor Admiral's complexion escaped; her letter engrossed her.
|
|
It had been begun several days back.
|
|
|
|
|
|
"February 1st.
|
|
|
|
"My dear Anne,--I make no apology for my silence, because I know
|
|
how little people think of letters in such a place as Bath.
|
|
You must be a great deal too happy to care for Uppercross, which,
|
|
as you well know, affords little to write about. We have had
|
|
a very dull Christmas; Mr and Mrs Musgrove have not had one dinner party
|
|
all the holidays. I do not reckon the Hayters as anybody.
|
|
The holidays, however, are over at last: I believe no children ever had
|
|
such long ones. I am sure I had not. The house was cleared yesterday,
|
|
except of the little Harvilles; but you will be surprised to hear
|
|
they have never gone home. Mrs Harville must be an odd mother
|
|
to part with them so long. I do not understand it. They are
|
|
not at all nice children, in my opinion; but Mrs Musgrove seems to
|
|
like them quite as well, if not better, than her grandchildren.
|
|
What dreadful weather we have had! It may not be felt in Bath,
|
|
with your nice pavements; but in the country it is of some consequence.
|
|
I have not had a creature call on me since the second week in January,
|
|
except Charles Hayter, who had been calling much oftener than was welcome.
|
|
Between ourselves, I think it a great pity Henrietta did not remain at Lyme
|
|
as long as Louisa; it would have kept her a little out of his way.
|
|
The carriage is gone to-day, to bring Louisa and the Harvilles to-morrow.
|
|
We are not asked to dine with them, however, till the day after,
|
|
Mrs Musgrove is so afraid of her being fatigued by the journey,
|
|
which is not very likely, considering the care that will be taken of her;
|
|
and it would be much more convenient to me to dine there to-morrow.
|
|
I am glad you find Mr Elliot so agreeable, and wish I could be acquainted
|
|
with him too; but I have my usual luck: I am always out of the way
|
|
when any thing desirable is going on; always the last of my family
|
|
to be noticed. What an immense time Mrs Clay has been staying
|
|
with Elizabeth! Does she never mean to go away? But perhaps
|
|
if she were to leave the room vacant, we might not be invited.
|
|
Let me know what you think of this. I do not expect my children
|
|
to be asked, you know. I can leave them at the Great House very well,
|
|
for a month or six weeks. I have this moment heard that the Crofts
|
|
are going to Bath almost immediately; they think the Admiral gouty.
|
|
Charles heard it quite by chance; they have not had the civility
|
|
to give me any notice, or of offering to take anything.
|
|
I do not think they improve at all as neighbours. We see nothing of them,
|
|
and this is really an instance of gross inattention. Charles joins me
|
|
in love, and everything proper. Yours affectionately,
|
|
|
|
"Mary M---.
|
|
|
|
"I am sorry to say that I am very far from well; and Jemima has
|
|
just told me that the butcher says there is a bad sore-throat
|
|
very much about. I dare say I shall catch it; and my sore-throats,
|
|
you know, are always worse than anybody's."
|
|
|
|
|
|
So ended the first part, which had been afterwards put into an envelope,
|
|
containing nearly as much more.
|
|
|
|
|
|
"I kept my letter open, that I might send you word how Louisa
|
|
bore her journey, and now I am extremely glad I did, having a great deal
|
|
to add. In the first place, I had a note from Mrs Croft yesterday,
|
|
offering to convey anything to you; a very kind, friendly note indeed,
|
|
addressed to me, just as it ought; I shall therefore be able to
|
|
make my letter as long as I like. The Admiral does not seem very ill,
|
|
and I sincerely hope Bath will do him all the good he wants.
|
|
I shall be truly glad to have them back again. Our neighbourhood
|
|
cannot spare such a pleasant family. But now for Louisa.
|
|
I have something to communicate that will astonish you not a little.
|
|
She and the Harvilles came on Tuesday very safely, and in the evening
|
|
we went to ask her how she did, when we were rather surprised
|
|
not to find Captain Benwick of the party, for he had been invited
|
|
as well as the Harvilles; and what do you think was the reason?
|
|
Neither more nor less than his being in love with Louisa,
|
|
and not choosing to venture to Uppercross till he had had an answer
|
|
from Mr Musgrove; for it was all settled between him and her
|
|
before she came away, and he had written to her father by Captain Harville.
|
|
True, upon my honour! Are not you astonished? I shall be surprised
|
|
at least if you ever received a hint of it, for I never did.
|
|
Mrs Musgrove protests solemnly that she knew nothing of the matter.
|
|
We are all very well pleased, however, for though it is not equal to her
|
|
marrying Captain Wentworth, it is infinitely better than Charles Hayter;
|
|
and Mr Musgrove has written his consent, and Captain Benwick
|
|
is expected to-day. Mrs Harville says her husband feels a good deal
|
|
on his poor sister's account; but, however, Louisa is a great favourite
|
|
with both. Indeed, Mrs Harville and I quite agree that we love her
|
|
the better for having nursed her. Charles wonders what Captain Wentworth
|
|
will say; but if you remember, I never thought him attached to Louisa;
|
|
I never could see anything of it. And this is the end, you see,
|
|
of Captain Benwick's being supposed to be an admirer of yours.
|
|
How Charles could take such a thing into his head was always
|
|
incomprehensible to me. I hope he will be more agreeable now.
|
|
Certainly not a great match for Louisa Musgrove, but a million times better
|
|
than marrying among the Hayters."
|
|
|
|
|
|
Mary need not have feared her sister's being in any degree prepared
|
|
for the news. She had never in her life been more astonished.
|
|
Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! It was almost too wonderful
|
|
for belief, and it was with the greatest effort that she could remain
|
|
in the room, preserve an air of calmness, and answer the common questions
|
|
of the moment. Happily for her, they were not many. Sir Walter
|
|
wanted to know whether the Crofts travelled with four horses,
|
|
and whether they were likely to be situated in such a part of Bath
|
|
as it might suit Miss Elliot and himself to visit in; but had
|
|
little curiosity beyond.
|
|
|
|
"How is Mary?" said Elizabeth; and without waiting for an answer,
|
|
"And pray what brings the Crofts to Bath?"
|
|
|
|
"They come on the Admiral's account. He is thought to be gouty."
|
|
|
|
"Gout and decrepitude!" said Sir Walter. "Poor old gentleman."
|
|
|
|
"Have they any acquaintance here?" asked Elizabeth.
|
|
|
|
"I do not know; but I can hardly suppose that, at Admiral Croft's
|
|
time of life, and in his profession, he should not have many acquaintance
|
|
in such a place as this."
|
|
|
|
"I suspect," said Sir Walter coolly, "that Admiral Croft
|
|
will be best known in Bath as the renter of Kellynch Hall.
|
|
Elizabeth, may we venture to present him and his wife in Laura Place?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, no! I think not. Situated as we are with Lady Dalrymple, cousins,
|
|
we ought to be very careful not to embarrass her with acquaintance
|
|
she might not approve. If we were not related, it would not signify;
|
|
but as cousins, she would feel scrupulous as to any proposal of ours.
|
|
We had better leave the Crofts to find their own level.
|
|
There are several odd-looking men walking about here, who,
|
|
I am told, are sailors. The Crofts will associate with them."
|
|
|
|
This was Sir Walter and Elizabeth's share of interest in the letter;
|
|
when Mrs Clay had paid her tribute of more decent attention,
|
|
in an enquiry after Mrs Charles Musgrove, and her fine little boys,
|
|
Anne was at liberty.
|
|
|
|
In her own room, she tried to comprehend it. Well might Charles wonder
|
|
how Captain Wentworth would feel! Perhaps he had quitted the field,
|
|
had given Louisa up, had ceased to love, had found he did not love her.
|
|
She could not endure the idea of treachery or levity, or anything
|
|
akin to ill usage between him and his friend. She could not endure
|
|
that such a friendship as theirs should be severed unfairly.
|
|
|
|
Captain Benwick and Louisa Musgrove! The high-spirited,
|
|
joyous-talking Louisa Musgrove, and the dejected, thinking,
|
|
feeling, reading, Captain Benwick, seemed each of them everything
|
|
that would not suit the other. Their minds most dissimilar!
|
|
Where could have been the attraction? The answer soon presented itself.
|
|
It had been in situation. They had been thrown together several weeks;
|
|
they had been living in the same small family party: since Henrietta's
|
|
coming away, they must have been depending almost entirely on each other,
|
|
and Louisa, just recovering from illness, had been in an interesting state,
|
|
and Captain Benwick was not inconsolable. That was a point which Anne
|
|
had not been able to avoid suspecting before; and instead of drawing
|
|
the same conclusion as Mary, from the present course of events,
|
|
they served only to confirm the idea of his having felt some
|
|
dawning of tenderness toward herself. She did not mean, however,
|
|
to derive much more from it to gratify her vanity, than Mary
|
|
might have allowed. She was persuaded that any tolerably pleasing
|
|
young woman who had listened and seemed to feel for him would have
|
|
received the same compliment. He had an affectionate heart.
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He must love somebody.
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She saw no reason against their being happy. Louisa had fine
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naval fervour to begin with, and they would soon grow more alike.
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He would gain cheerfulness, and she would learn to be an enthusiast
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for Scott and Lord Byron; nay, that was probably learnt already;
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of course they had fallen in love over poetry. The idea of
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Louisa Musgrove turned into a person of literary taste,
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and sentimental reflection was amusing, but she had no doubt
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of its being so. The day at Lyme, the fall from the Cobb,
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might influence her health, her nerves, her courage, her character to
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the end of her life, as thoroughly as it appeared to have
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influenced her fate.
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The conclusion of the whole was, that if the woman who had been sensible
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of Captain Wentworth's merits could be allowed to prefer another man,
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there was nothing in the engagement to excite lasting wonder;
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and if Captain Wentworth lost no friend by it, certainly nothing
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to be regretted. No, it was not regret which made Anne's heart
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beat in spite of herself, and brought the colour into her cheeks
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when she thought of Captain Wentworth unshackled and free.
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She had some feelings which she was ashamed to investigate.
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They were too much like joy, senseless joy!
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She longed to see the Crofts; but when the meeting took place,
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it was evident that no rumour of the news had yet reached them.
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The visit of ceremony was paid and returned; and Louisa Musgrove
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was mentioned, and Captain Benwick, too, without even half a smile.
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The Crofts had placed themselves in lodgings in Gay Street,
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perfectly to Sir Walter's satisfaction. He was not at all ashamed
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of the acquaintance, and did, in fact, think and talk a great deal more
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about the Admiral, than the Admiral ever thought or talked about him.
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The Crofts knew quite as many people in Bath as they wished for,
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and considered their intercourse with the Elliots as a mere matter of form,
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and not in the least likely to afford them any pleasure.
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They brought with them their country habit of being almost always together.
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He was ordered to walk to keep off the gout, and Mrs Croft
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seemed to go shares with him in everything, and to walk
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for her life to do him good. Anne saw them wherever she went.
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Lady Russell took her out in her carriage almost every morning,
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and she never failed to think of them, and never failed to see them.
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Knowing their feelings as she did, it was a most attractive picture
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of happiness to her. She always watched them as long as she could,
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delighted to fancy she understood what they might be talking of,
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as they walked along in happy independence, or equally delighted
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to see the Admiral's hearty shake of the hand when he encountered
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an old friend, and observe their eagerness of conversation
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when occasionally forming into a little knot of the navy, Mrs Croft
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looking as intelligent and keen as any of the officers around her.
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Anne was too much engaged with Lady Russell to be often walking herself;
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but it so happened that one morning, about a week or ten days
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after the Croft's arrival, it suited her best to leave her friend,
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or her friend's carriage, in the lower part of the town,
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and return alone to Camden Place, and in walking up Milsom Street
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she had the good fortune to meet with the Admiral. He was standing
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by himself at a printshop window, with his hands behind him,
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in earnest contemplation of some print, and she not only might have
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passed him unseen, but was obliged to touch as well as address him
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before she could catch his notice. When he did perceive and
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acknowledge her, however, it was done with all his usual frankness
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and good humour. "Ha! is it you? Thank you, thank you.
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This is treating me like a friend. Here I am, you see,
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staring at a picture. I can never get by this shop without stopping.
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But what a thing here is, by way of a boat! Do look at it.
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Did you ever see the like? What queer fellows your fine painters must be,
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to think that anybody would venture their lives in such a shapeless
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old cockleshell as that? And yet here are two gentlemen
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stuck up in it mightily at their ease, and looking about them at the rocks
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and mountains, as if they were not to be upset the next moment,
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which they certainly must be. I wonder where that boat was built!"
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(laughing heartily); "I would not venture over a horsepond in it.
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Well," (turning away), "now, where are you bound? Can I go anywhere
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for you, or with you? Can I be of any use?"
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"None, I thank you, unless you will give me the pleasure of your company
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the little way our road lies together. I am going home."
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"That I will, with all my heart, and farther, too. Yes, yes
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we will have a snug walk together, and I have something to tell you
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as we go along. There, take my arm; that's right; I do not
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feel comfortable if I have not a woman there. Lord! what a boat it is!"
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taking a last look at the picture, as they began to be in motion.
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"Did you say that you had something to tell me, sir?"
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"Yes, I have, presently. But here comes a friend, Captain Brigden;
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I shall only say, `How d'ye do?' as we pass, however. I shall not stop.
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`How d'ye do?' Brigden stares to see anybody with me but my wife.
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She, poor soul, is tied by the leg. She has a blister on one of her heels,
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as large as a three-shilling piece. If you look across the street,
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you will see Admiral Brand coming down and his brother. Shabby fellows,
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both of them! I am glad they are not on this side of the way.
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Sophy cannot bear them. They played me a pitiful trick once:
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got away with some of my best men. I will tell you the whole story
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|
another time. There comes old Sir Archibald Drew and his grandson.
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Look, he sees us; he kisses his hand to you; he takes you for my wife.
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Ah! the peace has come too soon for that younker. Poor old Sir Archibald!
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|
How do you like Bath, Miss Elliot? It suits us very well.
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|
We are always meeting with some old friend or other; the streets
|
|
full of them every morning; sure to have plenty of chat;
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|
and then we get away from them all, and shut ourselves in our lodgings,
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and draw in our chairs, and are snug as if we were at Kellynch,
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ay, or as we used to be even at North Yarmouth and Deal.
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We do not like our lodgings here the worse, I can tell you,
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for putting us in mind of those we first had at North Yarmouth.
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The wind blows through one of the cupboards just in the same way."
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When they were got a little farther, Anne ventured to press again
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|
for what he had to communicate. She hoped when clear of Milsom Street
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|
to have her curiosity gratified; but she was still obliged to wait,
|
|
for the Admiral had made up his mind not to begin till they had
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|
gained the greater space and quiet of Belmont; and as she was
|
|
not really Mrs Croft, she must let him have his own way.
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|
As soon as they were fairly ascending Belmont, he began--
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"Well, now you shall hear something that will surprise you.
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|
But first of all, you must tell me the name of the young lady
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I am going to talk about. That young lady, you know, that we have
|
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all been so concerned for. The Miss Musgrove, that all this has been
|
|
happening to. Her Christian name: I always forget her Christian name."
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Anne had been ashamed to appear to comprehend so soon as she really
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|
did; but now she could safely suggest the name of "Louisa."
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"Ay, ay, Miss Louisa Musgrove, that is the name. I wish young ladies
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|
had not such a number of fine Christian names. I should never be out
|
|
if they were all Sophys, or something of that sort. Well,
|
|
this Miss Louisa, we all thought, you know, was to marry Frederick.
|
|
He was courting her week after week. The only wonder was,
|
|
what they could be waiting for, till the business at Lyme came;
|
|
then, indeed, it was clear enough that they must wait till her brain
|
|
was set to right. But even then there was something odd in their
|
|
way of going on. Instead of staying at Lyme, he went off to Plymouth,
|
|
and then he went off to see Edward. When we came back from Minehead
|
|
he was gone down to Edward's, and there he has been ever since.
|
|
We have seen nothing of him since November. Even Sophy could
|
|
not understand it. But now, the matter has take the strangest turn of all;
|
|
for this young lady, the same Miss Musgrove, instead of being
|
|
to marry Frederick, is to marry James Benwick. You know James Benwick."
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"A little. I am a little acquainted with Captain Benwick."
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"Well, she is to marry him. Nay, most likely they are married already,
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for I do not know what they should wait for."
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"I thought Captain Benwick a very pleasing young man," said Anne,
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|
"and I understand that he bears an excellent character."
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"Oh! yes, yes, there is not a word to be said against James Benwick.
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He is only a commander, it is true, made last summer, and these are
|
|
bad times for getting on, but he has not another fault that I know of.
|
|
An excellent, good-hearted fellow, I assure you; a very active,
|
|
zealous officer too, which is more than you would think for, perhaps,
|
|
for that soft sort of manner does not do him justice."
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"Indeed you are mistaken there, sir; I should never augur want of spirit
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from Captain Benwick's manners. I thought them particularly pleasing,
|
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and I will answer for it, they would generally please."
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|
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"Well, well, ladies are the best judges; but James Benwick is rather too
|
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piano for me; and though very likely it is all our partiality,
|
|
Sophy and I cannot help thinking Frederick's manners better than his.
|
|
There is something about Frederick more to our taste."
|
|
|
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Anne was caught. She had only meant to oppose the too common idea
|
|
of spirit and gentleness being incompatible with each other,
|
|
not at all to represent Captain Benwick's manners as the very best
|
|
that could possibly be; and, after a little hesitation,
|
|
she was beginning to say, "I was not entering into any comparison
|
|
of the two friends," but the Admiral interrupted her with--
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|
|
|
"And the thing is certainly true. It is not a mere bit of gossip.
|
|
We have it from Frederick himself. His sister had a letter
|
|
from him yesterday, in which he tells us of it, and he had just had it
|
|
in a letter from Harville, written upon the spot, from Uppercross.
|
|
I fancy they are all at Uppercross."
|
|
|
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This was an opportunity which Anne could not resist; she said, therefore,
|
|
"I hope, Admiral, I hope there is nothing in the style of Captain
|
|
Wentworth's letter to make you and Mrs Croft particularly uneasy.
|
|
It did seem, last autumn, as if there were an attachment between him
|
|
and Louisa Musgrove; but I hope it may be understood to have worn out
|
|
on each side equally, and without violence. I hope his letter
|
|
does not breathe the spirit of an ill-used man."
|
|
|
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"Not at all, not at all; there is not an oath or a murmur
|
|
from beginning to end."
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|
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Anne looked down to hide her smile.
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|
|
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"No, no; Frederick is not a man to whine and complain; he has
|
|
too much spirit for that. If the girl likes another man better,
|
|
it is very fit she should have him."
|
|
|
|
"Certainly. But what I mean is, that I hope there is nothing
|
|
in Captain Wentworth's manner of writing to make you suppose
|
|
he thinks himself ill-used by his friend, which might appear,
|
|
you know, without its being absolutely said. I should be very sorry
|
|
that such a friendship as has subsisted between him and Captain Benwick
|
|
should be destroyed, or even wounded, by a circumstance of this sort."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes, I understand you. But there is nothing at all of that nature
|
|
in the letter. He does not give the least fling at Benwick;
|
|
does not so much as say, `I wonder at it, I have a reason of my own
|
|
for wondering at it.' No, you would not guess, from his way of writing,
|
|
that he had ever thought of this Miss (what's her name?) for himself.
|
|
He very handsomely hopes they will be happy together; and there is
|
|
nothing very unforgiving in that, I think."
|
|
|
|
Anne did not receive the perfect conviction which the Admiral meant
|
|
to convey, but it would have been useless to press the enquiry farther.
|
|
She therefore satisfied herself with common-place remarks or quiet
|
|
attention, and the Admiral had it all his own way.
|
|
|
|
"Poor Frederick!" said he at last. "Now he must begin all over again
|
|
with somebody else. I think we must get him to Bath. Sophy must write,
|
|
and beg him to come to Bath. Here are pretty girls enough, I am sure.
|
|
It would be of no use to go to Uppercross again, for that other
|
|
Miss Musgrove, I find, is bespoke by her cousin, the young parson.
|
|
Do not you think, Miss Elliot, we had better try to get him to Bath?"
|
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|
Chapter 19
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While Admiral Croft was taking this walk with Anne, and expressing
|
|
his wish of getting Captain Wentworth to Bath, Captain Wentworth
|
|
was already on his way thither. Before Mrs Croft had written,
|
|
he was arrived, and the very next time Anne walked out, she saw him.
|
|
|
|
Mr Elliot was attending his two cousins and Mrs Clay. They were
|
|
in Milsom Street. It began to rain, not much, but enough to
|
|
make shelter desirable for women, and quite enough to make it
|
|
very desirable for Miss Elliot to have the advantage of being
|
|
conveyed home in Lady Dalrymple's carriage, which was seen waiting
|
|
at a little distance; she, Anne, and Mrs Clay, therefore,
|
|
turned into Molland's, while Mr Elliot stepped to Lady Dalrymple,
|
|
to request her assistance. He soon joined them again, successful,
|
|
of course; Lady Dalrymple would be most happy to take them home,
|
|
and would call for them in a few minutes.
|
|
|
|
Her ladyship's carriage was a barouche, and did not hold
|
|
more than four with any comfort. Miss Carteret was with her mother;
|
|
consequently it was not reasonable to expect accommodation
|
|
for all the three Camden Place ladies. There could be no doubt
|
|
as to Miss Elliot. Whoever suffered inconvenience, she must suffer none,
|
|
but it occupied a little time to settle the point of civility
|
|
between the other two. The rain was a mere trifle, and Anne was
|
|
most sincere in preferring a walk with Mr Elliot. But the rain was also
|
|
a mere trifle to Mrs Clay; she would hardly allow it even to drop at all,
|
|
and her boots were so thick! much thicker than Miss Anne's;
|
|
and, in short, her civility rendered her quite as anxious to be left
|
|
to walk with Mr Elliot as Anne could be, and it was discussed between them
|
|
with a generosity so polite and so determined, that the others were
|
|
obliged to settle it for them; Miss Elliot maintaining that Mrs Clay
|
|
had a little cold already, and Mr Elliot deciding on appeal,
|
|
that his cousin Anne's boots were rather the thickest.
|
|
|
|
It was fixed accordingly, that Mrs Clay should be of the party
|
|
in the carriage; and they had just reached this point, when Anne,
|
|
as she sat near the window, descried, most decidedly and distinctly,
|
|
Captain Wentworth walking down the street.
|
|
|
|
Her start was perceptible only to herself; but she instantly felt that
|
|
she was the greatest simpleton in the world, the most unaccountable
|
|
and absurd! For a few minutes she saw nothing before her;
|
|
it was all confusion. She was lost, and when she had scolded
|
|
back her senses, she found the others still waiting for the carriage,
|
|
and Mr Elliot (always obliging) just setting off for Union Street
|
|
on a commission of Mrs Clay's.
|
|
|
|
She now felt a great inclination to go to the outer door;
|
|
she wanted to see if it rained. Why was she to suspect herself
|
|
of another motive? Captain Wentworth must be out of sight.
|
|
She left her seat, she would go; one half of her should not be always
|
|
so much wiser than the other half, or always suspecting the other
|
|
of being worse than it was. She would see if it rained.
|
|
She was sent back, however, in a moment by the entrance of
|
|
Captain Wentworth himself, among a party of gentlemen and ladies,
|
|
evidently his acquaintance, and whom he must have joined
|
|
a little below Milsom Street. He was more obviously struck
|
|
and confused by the sight of her than she had ever observed before;
|
|
he looked quite red. For the first time, since their renewed acquaintance,
|
|
she felt that she was betraying the least sensibility of the two.
|
|
She had the advantage of him in the preparation of the last few moments.
|
|
All the overpowering, blinding, bewildering, first effects
|
|
of strong surprise were over with her. Still, however,
|
|
she had enough to feel! It was agitation, pain, pleasure,
|
|
a something between delight and misery.
|
|
|
|
He spoke to her, and then turned away. The character of his manner
|
|
was embarrassment. She could not have called it either cold or friendly,
|
|
or anything so certainly as embarrassed.
|
|
|
|
After a short interval, however, he came towards her, and spoke again.
|
|
Mutual enquiries on common subjects passed: neither of them, probably,
|
|
much the wiser for what they heard, and Anne continuing fully sensible
|
|
of his being less at ease than formerly. They had by dint of being
|
|
so very much together, got to speak to each other with a considerable
|
|
portion of apparent indifference and calmness; but he could not do it now.
|
|
Time had changed him, or Louisa had changed him. There was consciousness
|
|
of some sort or other. He looked very well, not as if he had been
|
|
suffering in health or spirits, and he talked of Uppercross,
|
|
of the Musgroves, nay, even of Louisa, and had even a momentary look
|
|
of his own arch significance as he named her; but yet it was
|
|
Captain Wentworth not comfortable, not easy, not able to feign that he was.
|
|
|
|
It did not surprise, but it grieved Anne to observe that Elizabeth
|
|
would not know him. She saw that he saw Elizabeth, that Elizabeth saw him,
|
|
that there was complete internal recognition on each side;
|
|
she was convinced that he was ready to be acknowledged as an acquaintance,
|
|
expecting it, and she had the pain of seeing her sister turn away
|
|
with unalterable coldness.
|
|
|
|
Lady Dalrymple's carriage, for which Miss Elliot was growing
|
|
very impatient, now drew up; the servant came in to announce it.
|
|
It was beginning to rain again, and altogether there was a delay,
|
|
and a bustle, and a talking, which must make all the little crowd
|
|
in the shop understand that Lady Dalrymple was calling to convey
|
|
Miss Elliot. At last Miss Elliot and her friend, unattended but
|
|
by the servant, (for there was no cousin returned), were walking off;
|
|
and Captain Wentworth, watching them, turned again to Anne,
|
|
and by manner, rather than words, was offering his services to her.
|
|
|
|
"I am much obliged to you," was her answer, "but I am not going with them.
|
|
The carriage would not accommodate so many. I walk: I prefer walking."
|
|
|
|
"But it rains."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! very little, Nothing that I regard."
|
|
|
|
After a moment's pause he said: "Though I came only yesterday,
|
|
I have equipped myself properly for Bath already, you see,"
|
|
(pointing to a new umbrella); "I wish you would make use of it,
|
|
if you are determined to walk; though I think it would be more prudent
|
|
to let me get you a chair."
|
|
|
|
She was very much obliged to him, but declined it all, repeating
|
|
her conviction, that the rain would come to nothing at present,
|
|
and adding, "I am only waiting for Mr Elliot. He will be here in a moment,
|
|
I am sure."
|
|
|
|
She had hardly spoken the words when Mr Elliot walked in.
|
|
Captain Wentworth recollected him perfectly. There was no difference
|
|
between him and the man who had stood on the steps at Lyme,
|
|
admiring Anne as she passed, except in the air and look and manner
|
|
of the privileged relation and friend. He came in with eagerness,
|
|
appeared to see and think only of her, apologised for his stay,
|
|
was grieved to have kept her waiting, and anxious to get her away
|
|
without further loss of time and before the rain increased;
|
|
and in another moment they walked off together, her arm under his,
|
|
a gentle and embarrassed glance, and a "Good morning to you!"
|
|
being all that she had time for, as she passed away.
|
|
|
|
As soon as they were out of sight, the ladies of Captain Wentworth's party
|
|
began talking of them.
|
|
|
|
"Mr Elliot does not dislike his cousin, I fancy?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no, that is clear enough. One can guess what will happen there.
|
|
He is always with them; half lives in the family, I believe.
|
|
What a very good-looking man!"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, and Miss Atkinson, who dined with him once at the Wallises,
|
|
says he is the most agreeable man she ever was in company with."
|
|
|
|
"She is pretty, I think; Anne Elliot; very pretty, when one comes
|
|
to look at her. It is not the fashion to say so, but I confess
|
|
I admire her more than her sister."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! so do I."
|
|
|
|
"And so do I. No comparison. But the men are all wild after Miss Elliot.
|
|
Anne is too delicate for them."
|
|
|
|
Anne would have been particularly obliged to her cousin, if he would have
|
|
walked by her side all the way to Camden Place, without saying a word.
|
|
She had never found it so difficult to listen to him, though nothing
|
|
could exceed his solicitude and care, and though his subjects
|
|
were principally such as were wont to be always interesting:
|
|
praise, warm, just, and discriminating, of Lady Russell,
|
|
and insinuations highly rational against Mrs Clay. But just now
|
|
she could think only of Captain Wentworth. She could not understand
|
|
his present feelings, whether he were really suffering much
|
|
from disappointment or not; and till that point were settled,
|
|
she could not be quite herself.
|
|
|
|
She hoped to be wise and reasonable in time; but alas! alas!
|
|
she must confess to herself that she was not wise yet.
|
|
|
|
Another circumstance very essential for her to know, was how long
|
|
he meant to be in Bath; he had not mentioned it, or she could not
|
|
recollect it. He might be only passing through. But it was more probable
|
|
that he should be come to stay. In that case, so liable as every body was
|
|
to meet every body in Bath, Lady Russell would in all likelihood
|
|
see him somewhere. Would she recollect him? How would it all be?
|
|
|
|
She had already been obliged to tell Lady Russell that Louisa Musgrove
|
|
was to marry Captain Benwick. It had cost her something to encounter
|
|
Lady Russell's surprise; and now, if she were by any chance
|
|
to be thrown into company with Captain Wentworth, her imperfect knowledge
|
|
of the matter might add another shade of prejudice against him.
|
|
|
|
The following morning Anne was out with her friend, and for the first hour,
|
|
in an incessant and fearful sort of watch for him in vain; but at last,
|
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in returning down Pulteney Street, she distinguished him
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on the right hand pavement at such a distance as to have him in view
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the greater part of the street. There were many other men about him,
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many groups walking the same way, but there was no mistaking him.
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She looked instinctively at Lady Russell; but not from any mad idea
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of her recognising him so soon as she did herself. No, it was
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not to be supposed that Lady Russell would perceive him till they
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were nearly opposite. She looked at her however, from time to time,
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anxiously; and when the moment approached which must point him out,
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though not daring to look again (for her own countenance she knew
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was unfit to be seen), she was yet perfectly conscious of
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Lady Russell's eyes being turned exactly in the direction for him--
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of her being, in short, intently observing him. She could thoroughly
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comprehend the sort of fascination he must possess over Lady Russell's mind,
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the difficulty it must be for her to withdraw her eyes, the astonishment
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she must be feeling that eight or nine years should have passed over him,
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and in foreign climes and in active service too, without robbing him
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of one personal grace!
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At last, Lady Russell drew back her head. "Now, how would she
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speak of him?"
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"You will wonder," said she, "what has been fixing my eye so long;
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but I was looking after some window-curtains, which Lady Alicia and
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Mrs Frankland were telling me of last night. They described
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the drawing-room window-curtains of one of the houses on this
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side of the way, and this part of the street, as being the handsomest
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and best hung of any in Bath, but could not recollect the exact number,
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and I have been trying to find out which it could be; but I confess
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I can see no curtains hereabouts that answer their description."
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Anne sighed and blushed and smiled, in pity and disdain,
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either at her friend or herself. The part which provoked her most,
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was that in all this waste of foresight and caution, she should have
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lost the right moment for seeing whether he saw them.
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A day or two passed without producing anything. The theatre or the rooms,
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where he was most likely to be, were not fashionable enough
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for the Elliots, whose evening amusements were solely in the
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elegant stupidity of private parties, in which they were getting
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more and more engaged; and Anne, wearied of such a state of stagnation,
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sick of knowing nothing, and fancying herself stronger because
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her strength was not tried, was quite impatient for the concert evening.
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It was a concert for the benefit of a person patronised by Lady Dalrymple.
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Of course they must attend. It was really expected to be a good one,
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and Captain Wentworth was very fond of music. If she could only have
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a few minutes conversation with him again, she fancied she should
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be satisfied; and as to the power of addressing him, she felt all over
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courage if the opportunity occurred. Elizabeth had turned from him,
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Lady Russell overlooked him; her nerves were strengthened
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by these circumstances; she felt that she owed him attention.
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She had once partly promised Mrs Smith to spend the evening with her;
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but in a short hurried call she excused herself and put it off,
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with the more decided promise of a longer visit on the morrow.
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Mrs Smith gave a most good-humoured acquiescence.
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"By all means," said she; "only tell me all about it, when you do come.
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Who is your party?"
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Anne named them all. Mrs Smith made no reply; but when she was
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leaving her said, and with an expression half serious, half arch,
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"Well, I heartily wish your concert may answer; and do not fail me
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to-morrow if you can come; for I begin to have a foreboding
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that I may not have many more visits from you."
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Anne was startled and confused; but after standing in a moment's suspense,
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was obliged, and not sorry to be obliged, to hurry away.
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Chapter 20
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Sir Walter, his two daughters, and Mrs Clay, were the earliest
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of all their party at the rooms in the evening; and as Lady Dalrymple
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must be waited for, they took their station by one of the fires
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in the Octagon Room. But hardly were they so settled, when the door
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opened again, and Captain Wentworth walked in alone. Anne was
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the nearest to him, and making yet a little advance, she instantly spoke.
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He was preparing only to bow and pass on, but her gentle "How do you do?"
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brought him out of the straight line to stand near her, and make enquiries
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in return, in spite of the formidable father and sister in the back ground.
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Their being in the back ground was a support to Anne; she knew nothing
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of their looks, and felt equal to everything which she believed
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right to be done.
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While they were speaking, a whispering between her father and Elizabeth
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caught her ear. She could not distinguish, but she must guess the subject;
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and on Captain Wentworth's making a distant bow, she comprehended
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that her father had judged so well as to give him that
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simple acknowledgement of acquaintance, and she was just in time
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by a side glance to see a slight curtsey from Elizabeth herself.
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This, though late, and reluctant, and ungracious, was yet
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better than nothing, and her spirits improved.
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After talking, however, of the weather, and Bath, and the concert,
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their conversation began to flag, and so little was said at last,
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that she was expecting him to go every moment, but he did not;
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he seemed in no hurry to leave her; and presently with renewed spirit,
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with a little smile, a little glow, he said--
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"I have hardly seen you since our day at Lyme. I am afraid you must have
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suffered from the shock, and the more from its not overpowering you
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at the time."
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She assured him that she had not.
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"It was a frightful hour," said he, "a frightful day!" and he
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passed his hand across his eyes, as if the remembrance were still
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too painful, but in a moment, half smiling again, added,
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"The day has produced some effects however; has had some consequences
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which must be considered as the very reverse of frightful.
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When you had the presence of mind to suggest that Benwick would be
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the properest person to fetch a surgeon, you could have little idea
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of his being eventually one of those most concerned in her recovery."
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"Certainly I could have none. But it appears--I should hope it would be
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a very happy match. There are on both sides good principles
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and good temper."
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"Yes," said he, looking not exactly forward; "but there, I think,
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ends the resemblance. With all my soul I wish them happy, and rejoice
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over every circumstance in favour of it. They have no difficulties
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to contend with at home, no opposition, no caprice, no delays.
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The Musgroves are behaving like themselves, most honourably and kindly,
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only anxious with true parental hearts to promote their daughter's comfort.
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All this is much, very much in favour of their happiness;
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more than perhaps--"
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He stopped. A sudden recollection seemed to occur, and to give him
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some taste of that emotion which was reddening Anne's cheeks
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and fixing her eyes on the ground. After clearing his throat, however,
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he proceeded thus--
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"I confess that I do think there is a disparity, too great a disparity,
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and in a point no less essential than mind. I regard Louisa Musgrove
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as a very amiable, sweet-tempered girl, and not deficient in understanding,
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but Benwick is something more. He is a clever man, a reading man;
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and I confess, that I do consider his attaching himself to her
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with some surprise. Had it been the effect of gratitude,
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had he learnt to love her, because he believed her to be preferring him,
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it would have been another thing. But I have no reason to suppose it so.
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It seems, on the contrary, to have been a perfectly spontaneous,
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untaught feeling on his side, and this surprises me. A man like him,
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in his situation! with a heart pierced, wounded, almost broken!
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Fanny Harville was a very superior creature, and his attachment to her
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was indeed attachment. A man does not recover from such
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a devotion of the heart to such a woman. He ought not; he does not."
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Either from the consciousness, however, that his friend had recovered,
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or from other consciousness, he went no farther; and Anne who,
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in spite of the agitated voice in which the latter part had been uttered,
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and in spite of all the various noises of the room, the almost ceaseless
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slam of the door, and ceaseless buzz of persons walking through,
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had distinguished every word, was struck, gratified, confused,
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and beginning to breathe very quick, and feel an hundred things
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in a moment. It was impossible for her to enter on such a subject;
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and yet, after a pause, feeling the necessity of speaking,
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and having not the smallest wish for a total change, she only deviated
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so far as to say--
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"You were a good while at Lyme, I think?"
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"About a fortnight. I could not leave it till Louisa's doing well
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was quite ascertained. I had been too deeply concerned in the mischief
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to be soon at peace. It had been my doing, solely mine.
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She would not have been obstinate if I had not been weak.
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The country round Lyme is very fine. I walked and rode a great deal;
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and the more I saw, the more I found to admire."
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"I should very much like to see Lyme again," said Anne.
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"Indeed! I should not have supposed that you could have found
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anything in Lyme to inspire such a feeling. The horror and distress
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you were involved in, the stretch of mind, the wear of spirits!
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I should have thought your last impressions of Lyme must have been
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strong disgust."
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"The last hours were certainly very painful," replied Anne;
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"but when pain is over, the remembrance of it often becomes a pleasure.
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One does not love a place the less for having suffered in it,
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unless it has been all suffering, nothing but suffering, which was
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by no means the case at Lyme. We were only in anxiety and distress
|
|
during the last two hours, and previously there had been a great deal
|
|
of enjoyment. So much novelty and beauty! I have travelled so little,
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|
that every fresh place would be interesting to me; but there is real beauty
|
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at Lyme; and in short" (with a faint blush at some recollections),
|
|
"altogether my impressions of the place are very agreeable."
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As she ceased, the entrance door opened again, and the very party appeared
|
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for whom they were waiting. "Lady Dalrymple, Lady Dalrymple,"
|
|
was the rejoicing sound; and with all the eagerness compatible
|
|
with anxious elegance, Sir Walter and his two ladies stepped forward
|
|
to meet her. Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret, escorted by Mr Elliot
|
|
and Colonel Wallis, who had happened to arrive nearly at the same instant,
|
|
advanced into the room. The others joined them, and it was
|
|
a group in which Anne found herself also necessarily included.
|
|
She was divided from Captain Wentworth. Their interesting,
|
|
almost too interesting conversation must be broken up for a time,
|
|
but slight was the penance compared with the happiness which brought it on!
|
|
She had learnt, in the last ten minutes, more of his feelings
|
|
towards Louisa, more of all his feelings than she dared to think of;
|
|
and she gave herself up to the demands of the party, to the needful
|
|
civilities of the moment, with exquisite, though agitated sensations.
|
|
She was in good humour with all. She had received ideas which
|
|
disposed her to be courteous and kind to all, and to pity every one,
|
|
as being less happy than herself.
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The delightful emotions were a little subdued, when on stepping back
|
|
from the group, to be joined again by Captain Wentworth, she saw
|
|
that he was gone. She was just in time to see him turn into
|
|
the Concert Room. He was gone; he had disappeared, she felt
|
|
a moment's regret. But "they should meet again. He would look for her,
|
|
he would find her out before the evening were over, and at present,
|
|
perhaps, it was as well to be asunder. She was in need of
|
|
a little interval for recollection."
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|
|
Upon Lady Russell's appearance soon afterwards, the whole party
|
|
was collected, and all that remained was to marshal themselves,
|
|
and proceed into the Concert Room; and be of all the consequence
|
|
in their power, draw as many eyes, excite as many whispers,
|
|
and disturb as many people as they could.
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|
|
Very, very happy were both Elizabeth and Anne Elliot as they walked in.
|
|
Elizabeth arm in arm with Miss Carteret, and looking on the broad back
|
|
of the dowager Viscountess Dalrymple before her, had nothing to wish for
|
|
which did not seem within her reach; and Anne--but it would be
|
|
an insult to the nature of Anne's felicity, to draw any comparison
|
|
between it and her sister's; the origin of one all selfish vanity,
|
|
of the other all generous attachment.
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|
|
Anne saw nothing, thought nothing of the brilliancy of the room.
|
|
Her happiness was from within. Her eyes were bright and her cheeks glowed;
|
|
but she knew nothing about it. She was thinking only of
|
|
the last half hour, and as they passed to their seats, her mind took
|
|
a hasty range over it. His choice of subjects, his expressions,
|
|
and still more his manner and look, had been such as she could see
|
|
in only one light. His opinion of Louisa Musgrove's inferiority,
|
|
an opinion which he had seemed solicitous to give, his wonder
|
|
at Captain Benwick, his feelings as to a first, strong attachment;
|
|
sentences begun which he could not finish, his half averted eyes
|
|
and more than half expressive glance, all, all declared that he had
|
|
a heart returning to her at least; that anger, resentment, avoidance,
|
|
were no more; and that they were succeeded, not merely by friendship
|
|
and regard, but by the tenderness of the past. Yes, some share of
|
|
the tenderness of the past. She could not contemplate the change
|
|
as implying less. He must love her.
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|
|
These were thoughts, with their attendant visions, which occupied
|
|
and flurried her too much to leave her any power of observation;
|
|
and she passed along the room without having a glimpse of him,
|
|
without even trying to discern him. When their places were determined on,
|
|
and they were all properly arranged, she looked round to see
|
|
if he should happen to be in the same part of the room, but he was not;
|
|
her eye could not reach him; and the concert being just opening,
|
|
she must consent for a time to be happy in a humbler way.
|
|
|
|
The party was divided and disposed of on two contiguous benches:
|
|
Anne was among those on the foremost, and Mr Elliot had manoeuvred so well,
|
|
with the assistance of his friend Colonel Wallis, as to have a seat by her.
|
|
Miss Elliot, surrounded by her cousins, and the principal object
|
|
of Colonel Wallis's gallantry, was quite contented.
|
|
|
|
Anne's mind was in a most favourable state for the entertainment
|
|
of the evening; it was just occupation enough: she had feelings for
|
|
the tender, spirits for the gay, attention for the scientific,
|
|
and patience for the wearisome; and had never liked a concert better,
|
|
at least during the first act. Towards the close of it,
|
|
in the interval succeeding an Italian song, she explained
|
|
the words of the song to Mr Elliot. They had a concert bill between them.
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|
|
"This," said she, "is nearly the sense, or rather the meaning of the words,
|
|
for certainly the sense of an Italian love-song must not be talked of,
|
|
but it is as nearly the meaning as I can give; for I do not pretend
|
|
to understand the language. I am a very poor Italian scholar."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes, I see you are. I see you know nothing of the matter.
|
|
You have only knowledge enough of the language to translate at sight
|
|
these inverted, transposed, curtailed Italian lines, into clear,
|
|
comprehensible, elegant English. You need not say anything more
|
|
of your ignorance. Here is complete proof."
|
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|
|
"I will not oppose such kind politeness; but I should be sorry to be
|
|
examined by a real proficient."
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|
|
|
"I have not had the pleasure of visiting in Camden Place so long,"
|
|
replied he, "without knowing something of Miss Anne Elliot;
|
|
and I do regard her as one who is too modest for the world in general
|
|
to be aware of half her accomplishments, and too highly accomplished
|
|
for modesty to be natural in any other woman."
|
|
|
|
"For shame! for shame! this is too much flattery. I forget what we are
|
|
to have next," turning to the bill.
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|
|
"Perhaps," said Mr Elliot, speaking low, "I have had a longer acquaintance
|
|
with your character than you are aware of."
|
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|
|
"Indeed! How so? You can have been acquainted with it only since
|
|
I came to Bath, excepting as you might hear me previously spoken of
|
|
in my own family."
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|
|
"I knew you by report long before you came to Bath. I had heard you
|
|
described by those who knew you intimately. I have been acquainted
|
|
with you by character many years. Your person, your disposition,
|
|
accomplishments, manner; they were all present to me."
|
|
|
|
Mr Elliot was not disappointed in the interest he hoped to raise.
|
|
No one can withstand the charm of such a mystery. To have been
|
|
described long ago to a recent acquaintance, by nameless people,
|
|
is irresistible; and Anne was all curiosity. She wondered,
|
|
and questioned him eagerly; but in vain. He delighted in being asked,
|
|
but he would not tell.
|
|
|
|
"No, no, some time or other, perhaps, but not now. He would mention
|
|
no names now; but such, he could assure her, had been the fact.
|
|
He had many years ago received such a description of Miss Anne Elliot
|
|
as had inspired him with the highest idea of her merit, and excited
|
|
the warmest curiosity to know her."
|
|
|
|
Anne could think of no one so likely to have spoken with
|
|
partiality of her many years ago as the Mr Wentworth of Monkford,
|
|
Captain Wentworth's brother. He might have been in Mr Elliot's company,
|
|
but she had not courage to ask the question.
|
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|
|
"The name of Anne Elliot," said he, "has long had an interesting sound to me.
|
|
Very long has it possessed a charm over my fancy; and, if I dared,
|
|
I would breathe my wishes that the name might never change."
|
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|
|
Such, she believed, were his words; but scarcely had she
|
|
received their sound, than her attention was caught by other sounds
|
|
immediately behind her, which rendered every thing else trivial.
|
|
Her father and Lady Dalrymple were speaking.
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|
|
|
"A well-looking man," said Sir Walter, "a very well-looking man."
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|
|
"A very fine young man indeed!" said Lady Dalrymple. "More air
|
|
than one often sees in Bath. Irish, I dare say."
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|
|
"No, I just know his name. A bowing acquaintance. Wentworth;
|
|
Captain Wentworth of the navy. His sister married my tenant
|
|
in Somersetshire, the Croft, who rents Kellynch."
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|
|
|
Before Sir Walter had reached this point, Anne's eyes had caught
|
|
the right direction, and distinguished Captain Wentworth standing
|
|
among a cluster of men at a little distance. As her eyes fell on him,
|
|
his seemed to be withdrawn from her. It had that appearance.
|
|
It seemed as if she had been one moment too late; and as long as she
|
|
dared observe, he did not look again: but the performance
|
|
was recommencing, and she was forced to seem to restore her attention
|
|
to the orchestra and look straight forward.
|
|
|
|
When she could give another glance, he had moved away. He could not have
|
|
come nearer to her if he would; she was so surrounded and shut in:
|
|
but she would rather have caught his eye.
|
|
|
|
Mr Elliot's speech, too, distressed her. She had no longer
|
|
any inclination to talk to him. She wished him not so near her.
|
|
|
|
The first act was over. Now she hoped for some beneficial change;
|
|
and, after a period of nothing-saying amongst the party, some of them
|
|
did decide on going in quest of tea. Anne was one of the few who
|
|
did not choose to move. She remained in her seat, and so did Lady Russell;
|
|
but she had the pleasure of getting rid of Mr Elliot; and she did not mean,
|
|
whatever she might feel on Lady Russell's account, to shrink from
|
|
conversation with Captain Wentworth, if he gave her the opportunity.
|
|
She was persuaded by Lady Russell's countenance that she had seen him.
|
|
|
|
He did not come however. Anne sometimes fancied she discerned him
|
|
at a distance, but he never came. The anxious interval
|
|
wore away unproductively. The others returned, the room filled again,
|
|
benches were reclaimed and repossessed, and another hour of pleasure
|
|
or of penance was to be sat out, another hour of music was to give
|
|
delight or the gapes, as real or affected taste for it prevailed.
|
|
To Anne, it chiefly wore the prospect of an hour of agitation.
|
|
She could not quit that room in peace without seeing Captain Wentworth
|
|
once more, without the interchange of one friendly look.
|
|
|
|
In re-settling themselves there were now many changes, the result of which
|
|
was favourable for her. Colonel Wallis declined sitting down again,
|
|
and Mr Elliot was invited by Elizabeth and Miss Carteret, in a manner
|
|
not to be refused, to sit between them; and by some other removals,
|
|
and a little scheming of her own, Anne was enabled to place herself
|
|
much nearer the end of the bench than she had been before,
|
|
much more within reach of a passer-by. She could not do so,
|
|
without comparing herself with Miss Larolles, the inimitable Miss Larolles;
|
|
but still she did it, and not with much happier effect;
|
|
though by what seemed prosperity in the shape of an early abdication
|
|
in her next neighbours, she found herself at the very end of the bench
|
|
before the concert closed.
|
|
|
|
Such was her situation, with a vacant space at hand, when Captain Wentworth
|
|
was again in sight. She saw him not far off. He saw her too;
|
|
yet he looked grave, and seemed irresolute, and only by very slow degrees
|
|
came at last near enough to speak to her. She felt that something
|
|
must be the matter. The change was indubitable. The difference
|
|
between his present air and what it had been in the Octagon Room
|
|
was strikingly great. Why was it? She thought of her father,
|
|
of Lady Russell. Could there have been any unpleasant glances?
|
|
He began by speaking of the concert gravely, more like the Captain
|
|
Wentworth of Uppercross; owned himself disappointed, had expected singing;
|
|
and in short, must confess that he should not be sorry when it was over.
|
|
Anne replied, and spoke in defense of the performance so well,
|
|
and yet in allowance for his feelings so pleasantly, that his countenance
|
|
improved, and he replied again with almost a smile. They talked
|
|
for a few minutes more; the improvement held; he even looked down
|
|
towards the bench, as if he saw a place on it well worth occupying;
|
|
when at that moment a touch on her shoulder obliged Anne to turn round.
|
|
It came from Mr Elliot. He begged her pardon, but she must be applied to,
|
|
to explain Italian again. Miss Carteret was very anxious to have
|
|
a general idea of what was next to be sung. Anne could not refuse;
|
|
but never had she sacrificed to politeness with a more suffering spirit.
|
|
|
|
A few minutes, though as few as possible, were inevitably consumed;
|
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and when her own mistress again, when able to turn and look
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as she had done before, she found herself accosted by Captain Wentworth,
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in a reserved yet hurried sort of farewell. "He must wish her good night;
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he was going; he should get home as fast as he could."
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"Is not this song worth staying for?" said Anne, suddenly struck
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by an idea which made her yet more anxious to be encouraging.
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"No!" he replied impressively, "there is nothing worth my staying for;"
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and he was gone directly.
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Jealousy of Mr Elliot! It was the only intelligible motive.
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Captain Wentworth jealous of her affection! Could she have believed it
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a week ago; three hours ago! For a moment the gratification was exquisite.
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But, alas! there were very different thoughts to succeed.
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How was such jealousy to be quieted? How was the truth to reach him?
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How, in all the peculiar disadvantages of their respective situations,
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would he ever learn of her real sentiments? It was misery to think
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of Mr Elliot's attentions. Their evil was incalculable.
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Chapter 21
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Anne recollected with pleasure the next morning her promise
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of going to Mrs Smith, meaning that it should engage her from home
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at the time when Mr Elliot would be most likely to call; for to avoid
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Mr Elliot was almost a first object.
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She felt a great deal of good-will towards him. In spite of
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the mischief of his attentions, she owed him gratitude and regard,
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perhaps compassion. She could not help thinking much of the extraordinary
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circumstances attending their acquaintance, of the right which
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he seemed to have to interest her, by everything in situation,
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by his own sentiments, by his early prepossession. It was altogether
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very extraordinary; flattering, but painful. There was much to regret.
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How she might have felt had there been no Captain Wentworth in the case,
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was not worth enquiry; for there was a Captain Wentworth;
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and be the conclusion of the present suspense good or bad,
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her affection would be his for ever. Their union, she believed,
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could not divide her more from other men, than their final separation.
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Prettier musings of high-wrought love and eternal constancy,
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could never have passed along the streets of Bath, than Anne
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was sporting with from Camden Place to Westgate Buildings.
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It was almost enough to spread purification and perfume all the way.
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She was sure of a pleasant reception; and her friend seemed this morning
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particularly obliged to her for coming, seemed hardly to have expected her,
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though it had been an appointment.
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An account of the concert was immediately claimed; and Anne's recollections
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of the concert were quite happy enough to animate her features
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and make her rejoice to talk of it. All that she could tell
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she told most gladly, but the all was little for one who had been there,
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and unsatisfactory for such an enquirer as Mrs Smith, who had
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already heard, through the short cut of a laundress and a waiter,
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rather more of the general success and produce of the evening
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than Anne could relate, and who now asked in vain for several particulars
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of the company. Everybody of any consequence or notoriety in Bath
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was well know by name to Mrs Smith.
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"The little Durands were there, I conclude," said she, "with their mouths
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open to catch the music, like unfledged sparrows ready to be fed.
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They never miss a concert."
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"Yes; I did not see them myself, but I heard Mr Elliot say they were
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in the room."
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"The Ibbotsons, were they there? and the two new beauties,
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with the tall Irish officer, who is talked of for one of them."
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"I do not know. I do not think they were."
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"Old Lady Mary Maclean? I need not ask after her. She never misses,
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I know; and you must have seen her. She must have been in your own circle;
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for as you went with Lady Dalrymple, you were in the seats of grandeur,
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round the orchestra, of course."
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"No, that was what I dreaded. It would have been very unpleasant to me
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in every respect. But happily Lady Dalrymple always chooses
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to be farther off; and we were exceedingly well placed, that is,
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for hearing; I must not say for seeing, because I appear to have seen
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very little."
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"Oh! you saw enough for your own amusement. I can understand.
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There is a sort of domestic enjoyment to be known even in a crowd,
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and this you had. You were a large party in yourselves,
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and you wanted nothing beyond."
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"But I ought to have looked about me more," said Anne, conscious
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while she spoke that there had in fact been no want of looking about,
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that the object only had been deficient.
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"No, no; you were better employed. You need not tell me that you
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had a pleasant evening. I see it in your eye. I perfectly see
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how the hours passed: that you had always something agreeable
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to listen to. In the intervals of the concert it was conversation."
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Anne half smiled and said, "Do you see that in my eye?"
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"Yes, I do. Your countenance perfectly informs me that you were
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in company last night with the person whom you think the most agreeable
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in the world, the person who interests you at this present time
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more than all the rest of the world put together."
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A blush overspread Anne's cheeks. She could say nothing.
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"And such being the case," continued Mrs Smith, after a short pause,
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"I hope you believe that I do know how to value your kindness
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in coming to me this morning. It is really very good of you
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to come and sit with me, when you must have so many pleasanter demands
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upon your time."
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Anne heard nothing of this. She was still in the astonishment and
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confusion excited by her friend's penetration, unable to imagine
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how any report of Captain Wentworth could have reached her.
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After another short silence--
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"Pray," said Mrs Smith, "is Mr Elliot aware of your acquaintance with me?
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Does he know that I am in Bath?"
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"Mr Elliot!" repeated Anne, looking up surprised. A moment's reflection
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shewed her the mistake she had been under. She caught it instantaneously;
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and recovering her courage with the feeling of safety, soon added,
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more composedly, "Are you acquainted with Mr Elliot?"
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"I have been a good deal acquainted with him," replied Mrs Smith, gravely,
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"but it seems worn out now. It is a great while since we met."
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"I was not at all aware of this. You never mentioned it before.
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Had I known it, I would have had the pleasure of talking to him about you."
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"To confess the truth," said Mrs Smith, assuming her usual
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air of cheerfulness, "that is exactly the pleasure I want you to have.
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I want you to talk about me to Mr Elliot. I want your interest with him.
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He can be of essential service to me; and if you would have the goodness,
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my dear Miss Elliot, to make it an object to yourself,
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of course it is done."
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"I should be extremely happy; I hope you cannot doubt my willingness
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to be of even the slightest use to you," replied Anne; "but I suspect
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that you are considering me as having a higher claim on Mr Elliot,
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a greater right to influence him, than is really the case.
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I am sure you have, somehow or other, imbibed such a notion.
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You must consider me only as Mr Elliot's relation. If in that light
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there is anything which you suppose his cousin might fairly ask of him,
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I beg you would not hesitate to employ me."
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Mrs Smith gave her a penetrating glance, and then, smiling, said--
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"I have been a little premature, I perceive; I beg your pardon.
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I ought to have waited for official information, But now, my dear
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Miss Elliot, as an old friend, do give me a hint as to when I may speak.
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Next week? To be sure by next week I may be allowed to
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think it all settled, and build my own selfish schemes on
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Mr Elliot's good fortune."
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"No," replied Anne, "nor next week, nor next, nor next.
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I assure you that nothing of the sort you are thinking of
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will be settled any week. I am not going to marry Mr Elliot.
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I should like to know why you imagine I am?"
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Mrs Smith looked at her again, looked earnestly, smiled,
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shook her head, and exclaimed--
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"Now, how I do wish I understood you! How I do wish I knew
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what you were at! I have a great idea that you do not design to be cruel,
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when the right moment occurs. Till it does come, you know,
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we women never mean to have anybody. It is a thing of course among us,
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that every man is refused, till he offers. But why should you be cruel?
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Let me plead for my--present friend I cannot call him, but for
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my former friend. Where can you look for a more suitable match?
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Where could you expect a more gentlemanlike, agreeable man?
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Let me recommend Mr Elliot. I am sure you hear nothing but good of him
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from Colonel Wallis; and who can know him better than Colonel Wallis?"
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"My dear Mrs Smith, Mr Elliot's wife has not been dead much above
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half a year. He ought not to be supposed to be paying his addresses
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to any one."
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"Oh! if these are your only objections," cried Mrs Smith, archly,
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"Mr Elliot is safe, and I shall give myself no more trouble about him.
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Do not forget me when you are married, that's all. Let him know me to be
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a friend of yours, and then he will think little of the trouble required,
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which it is very natural for him now, with so many affairs and engagements
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of his own, to avoid and get rid of as he can; very natural, perhaps.
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Ninety-nine out of a hundred would do the same. Of course,
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he cannot be aware of the importance to me. Well, my dear Miss Elliot,
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I hope and trust you will be very happy. Mr Elliot has sense
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to understand the value of such a woman. Your peace will not be
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shipwrecked as mine has been. You are safe in all worldly matters,
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and safe in his character. He will not be led astray; he will not be
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misled by others to his ruin."
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"No," said Anne, "I can readily believe all that of my cousin.
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He seems to have a calm decided temper, not at all open
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to dangerous impressions. I consider him with great respect.
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I have no reason, from any thing that has fallen within my observation,
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to do otherwise. But I have not known him long; and he is not a man,
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I think, to be known intimately soon. Will not this manner
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of speaking of him, Mrs Smith, convince you that he is nothing to me?
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Surely this must be calm enough. And, upon my word, he is nothing to me.
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Should he ever propose to me (which I have very little reason to imagine
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he has any thought of doing), I shall not accept him. I assure you
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I shall not. I assure you, Mr Elliot had not the share which
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you have been supposing, in whatever pleasure the concert
|
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of last night might afford: not Mr Elliot; it is not Mr Elliot that--"
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She stopped, regretting with a deep blush that she had implied so much;
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but less would hardly have been sufficient. Mrs Smith would hardly
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have believed so soon in Mr Elliot's failure, but from the perception
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of there being a somebody else. As it was, she instantly submitted,
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and with all the semblance of seeing nothing beyond; and Anne,
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eager to escape farther notice, was impatient to know why Mrs Smith
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should have fancied she was to marry Mr Elliot; where she could have
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received the idea, or from whom she could have heard it.
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"Do tell me how it first came into your head."
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"It first came into my head," replied Mrs Smith, "upon finding how much
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you were together, and feeling it to be the most probable thing
|
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in the world to be wished for by everybody belonging to either of you;
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and you may depend upon it that all your acquaintance have disposed of you
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in the same way. But I never heard it spoken of till two days ago."
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"And has it indeed been spoken of?"
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"Did you observe the woman who opened the door to you when
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you called yesterday?"
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"No. Was not it Mrs Speed, as usual, or the maid? I observed
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no one in particular."
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"It was my friend Mrs Rooke; Nurse Rooke; who, by-the-bye,
|
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had a great curiosity to see you, and was delighted to be in the way
|
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to let you in. She came away from Marlborough Buildings only on Sunday;
|
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and she it was who told me you were to marry Mr Elliot.
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She had had it from Mrs Wallis herself, which did not seem bad authority.
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She sat an hour with me on Monday evening, and gave me the whole history."
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"The whole history," repeated Anne, laughing. "She could not make
|
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a very long history, I think, of one such little article
|
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of unfounded news."
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Mrs Smith said nothing.
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"But," continued Anne, presently, "though there is no truth in my having
|
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this claim on Mr Elliot, I should be extremely happy to be of use to you
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in any way that I could. Shall I mention to him your being in Bath?
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Shall I take any message?"
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"No, I thank you: no, certainly not. In the warmth of the moment,
|
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and under a mistaken impression, I might, perhaps, have endeavoured
|
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to interest you in some circumstances; but not now. No, I thank you,
|
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I have nothing to trouble you with."
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"I think you spoke of having known Mr Elliot many years?"
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"I did."
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"Not before he was married, I suppose?"
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"Yes; he was not married when I knew him first."
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"And--were you much acquainted?"
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"Intimately."
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"Indeed! Then do tell me what he was at that time of life.
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I have a great curiosity to know what Mr Elliot was as a very young man.
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Was he at all such as he appears now?"
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"I have not seen Mr Elliot these three years," was Mrs Smith's answer,
|
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given so gravely that it was impossible to pursue the subject farther;
|
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and Anne felt that she had gained nothing but an increase of curiosity.
|
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They were both silent: Mrs Smith very thoughtful. At last--
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"I beg your pardon, my dear Miss Elliot," she cried, in her
|
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natural tone of cordiality, "I beg your pardon for the short answers
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I have been giving you, but I have been uncertain what I ought to do.
|
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I have been doubting and considering as to what I ought to tell you.
|
|
There were many things to be taken into the account. One hates
|
|
to be officious, to be giving bad impressions, making mischief.
|
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Even the smooth surface of family-union seems worth preserving,
|
|
though there may be nothing durable beneath. However, I have determined;
|
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I think I am right; I think you ought to be made acquainted
|
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with Mr Elliot's real character. Though I fully believe that,
|
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at present, you have not the smallest intention of accepting him,
|
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there is no saying what may happen. You might, some time or other,
|
|
be differently affected towards him. Hear the truth, therefore,
|
|
now, while you are unprejudiced. Mr Elliot is a man without heart
|
|
or conscience; a designing, wary, cold-blooded being, who thinks
|
|
only of himself; whom for his own interest or ease, would be guilty
|
|
of any cruelty, or any treachery, that could be perpetrated without
|
|
risk of his general character. He has no feeling for others.
|
|
Those whom he has been the chief cause of leading into ruin,
|
|
he can neglect and desert without the smallest compunction.
|
|
He is totally beyond the reach of any sentiment of justice or compassion.
|
|
Oh! he is black at heart, hollow and black!"
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Anne's astonished air, and exclamation of wonder, made her pause,
|
|
and in a calmer manner, she added,
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"My expressions startle you. You must allow for an injured, angry woman.
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But I will try to command myself. I will not abuse him.
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I will only tell you what I have found him. Facts shall speak.
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He was the intimate friend of my dear husband, who trusted and loved him,
|
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and thought him as good as himself. The intimacy had been formed
|
|
before our marriage. I found them most intimate friends; and I, too,
|
|
became excessively pleased with Mr Elliot, and entertained
|
|
the highest opinion of him. At nineteen, you know, one does not
|
|
think very seriously; but Mr Elliot appeared to me quite as good as others,
|
|
and much more agreeable than most others, and we were almost
|
|
always together. We were principally in town, living in very good style.
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He was then the inferior in circumstances; he was then the poor one;
|
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he had chambers in the Temple, and it was as much as he could do
|
|
to support the appearance of a gentleman. He had always a home
|
|
with us whenever he chose it; he was always welcome; he was like a brother.
|
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My poor Charles, who had the finest, most generous spirit in the world,
|
|
would have divided his last farthing with him; and I know that his purse
|
|
was open to him; I know that he often assisted him."
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"This must have been about that very period of Mr Elliot's life,"
|
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said Anne, "which has always excited my particular curiosity.
|
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It must have been about the same time that he became known to
|
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my father and sister. I never knew him myself; I only heard of him;
|
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but there was a something in his conduct then, with regard to
|
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my father and sister, and afterwards in the circumstances of his marriage,
|
|
which I never could quite reconcile with present times. It seemed
|
|
to announce a different sort of man."
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"I know it all, I know it all," cried Mrs Smith. "He had been
|
|
introduced to Sir Walter and your sister before I was acquainted with him,
|
|
but I heard him speak of them for ever. I know he was invited
|
|
and encouraged, and I know he did not choose to go. I can satisfy you,
|
|
perhaps, on points which you would little expect; and as to his marriage,
|
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I knew all about it at the time. I was privy to all the fors and againsts;
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I was the friend to whom he confided his hopes and plans; and though
|
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I did not know his wife previously, her inferior situation in society,
|
|
indeed, rendered that impossible, yet I knew her all her life afterwards,
|
|
or at least till within the last two years of her life, and can answer
|
|
any question you may wish to put."
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"Nay," said Anne, "I have no particular enquiry to make about her.
|
|
I have always understood they were not a happy couple. But I should
|
|
like to know why, at that time of his life, he should slight
|
|
my father's acquaintance as he did. My father was certainly disposed
|
|
to take very kind and proper notice of him. Why did Mr Elliot draw back?"
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"Mr Elliot," replied Mrs Smith, "at that period of his life,
|
|
had one object in view: to make his fortune, and by a rather quicker
|
|
process than the law. He was determined to make it by marriage.
|
|
He was determined, at least, not to mar it by an imprudent marriage;
|
|
and I know it was his belief (whether justly or not, of course
|
|
I cannot decide), that your father and sister, in their civilities
|
|
and invitations, were designing a match between the heir
|
|
and the young lady, and it was impossible that such a match
|
|
should have answered his ideas of wealth and independence.
|
|
That was his motive for drawing back, I can assure you.
|
|
He told me the whole story. He had no concealments with me.
|
|
It was curious, that having just left you behind me in Bath,
|
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my first and principal acquaintance on marrying should be your cousin;
|
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and that, through him, I should be continually hearing of your father
|
|
and sister. He described one Miss Elliot, and I thought
|
|
very affectionately of the other."
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|
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"Perhaps," cried Anne, struck by a sudden idea, "you sometimes
|
|
spoke of me to Mr Elliot?"
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|
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"To be sure I did; very often. I used to boast of my own Anne Elliot,
|
|
and vouch for your being a very different creature from--"
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|
|
She checked herself just in time.
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|
|
"This accounts for something which Mr Elliot said last night,"
|
|
cried Anne. "This explains it. I found he had been used to hear of me.
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|
I could not comprehend how. What wild imaginations one forms where
|
|
dear self is concerned! How sure to be mistaken! But I beg your pardon;
|
|
I have interrupted you. Mr Elliot married then completely for money?
|
|
The circumstances, probably, which first opened your eyes
|
|
to his character."
|
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|
|
Mrs Smith hesitated a little here. "Oh! those things are too common.
|
|
When one lives in the world, a man or woman's marrying for money
|
|
is too common to strike one as it ought. I was very young,
|
|
and associated only with the young, and we were a thoughtless,
|
|
gay set, without any strict rules of conduct. We lived for enjoyment.
|
|
I think differently now; time and sickness and sorrow have given me
|
|
other notions; but at that period I must own I saw nothing reprehensible
|
|
in what Mr Elliot was doing. `To do the best for himself,'
|
|
passed as a duty."
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|
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"But was not she a very low woman?"
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"Yes; which I objected to, but he would not regard. Money, money,
|
|
was all that he wanted. Her father was a grazier, her grandfather
|
|
had been a butcher, but that was all nothing. She was a fine woman,
|
|
had had a decent education, was brought forward by some cousins,
|
|
thrown by chance into Mr Elliot's company, and fell in love with him;
|
|
and not a difficulty or a scruple was there on his side,
|
|
with respect to her birth. All his caution was spent in being secured
|
|
of the real amount of her fortune, before he committed himself.
|
|
Depend upon it, whatever esteem Mr Elliot may have for his own situation
|
|
in life now, as a young man he had not the smallest value for it.
|
|
His chance for the Kellynch estate was something, but all the honour
|
|
of the family he held as cheap as dirt. I have often heard him declare,
|
|
that if baronetcies were saleable, anybody should have his
|
|
for fifty pounds, arms and motto, name and livery included;
|
|
but I will not pretend to repeat half that I used to hear him say
|
|
on that subject. It would not be fair; and yet you ought to have proof,
|
|
for what is all this but assertion, and you shall have proof."
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|
|
"Indeed, my dear Mrs Smith, I want none," cried Anne. "You have asserted
|
|
nothing contradictory to what Mr Elliot appeared to be some years ago.
|
|
This is all in confirmation, rather, of what we used to hear and believe.
|
|
I am more curious to know why he should be so different now."
|
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|
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"But for my satisfaction, if you will have the goodness to ring for Mary;
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stay: I am sure you will have the still greater goodness of
|
|
going yourself into my bedroom, and bringing me the small inlaid box
|
|
which you will find on the upper shelf of the closet."
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|
|
Anne, seeing her friend to be earnestly bent on it, did as she was desired.
|
|
The box was brought and placed before her, and Mrs Smith, sighing over it
|
|
as she unlocked it, said--
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"This is full of papers belonging to him, to my husband;
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a small portion only of what I had to look over when I lost him.
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The letter I am looking for was one written by Mr Elliot to him
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before our marriage, and happened to be saved; why, one can hardly imagine.
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But he was careless and immethodical, like other men, about those things;
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and when I came to examine his papers, I found it with others
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still more trivial, from different people scattered here and there,
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while many letters and memorandums of real importance had been destroyed.
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Here it is; I would not burn it, because being even then very little
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satisfied with Mr Elliot, I was determined to preserve every document
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of former intimacy. I have now another motive for being glad
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that I can produce it."
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This was the letter, directed to "Charles Smith, Esq. Tunbridge Wells,"
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and dated from London, as far back as July, 1803: --
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"Dear Smith,--I have received yours. Your kindness almost overpowers me.
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I wish nature had made such hearts as yours more common, but I have
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lived three-and-twenty years in the world, and have seen none like it.
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At present, believe me, I have no need of your services,
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being in cash again. Give me joy: I have got rid of Sir Walter and Miss.
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They are gone back to Kellynch, and almost made me swear to visit them
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this summer; but my first visit to Kellynch will be with a surveyor,
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to tell me how to bring it with best advantage to the hammer.
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The baronet, nevertheless, is not unlikely to marry again;
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he is quite fool enough. If he does, however, they will leave me in peace,
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which may be a decent equivalent for the reversion. He is worse
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than last year.
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"I wish I had any name but Elliot. I am sick of it. The name of Walter
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I can drop, thank God! and I desire you will never insult me
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with my second W. again, meaning, for the rest of my life,
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to be only yours truly,--Wm. Elliot."
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Such a letter could not be read without putting Anne in a glow;
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and Mrs Smith, observing the high colour in her face, said--
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"The language, I know, is highly disrespectful. Though I have forgot
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the exact terms, I have a perfect impression of the general meaning.
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But it shows you the man. Mark his professions to my poor husband.
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Can any thing be stronger?"
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Anne could not immediately get over the shock and mortification
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of finding such words applied to her father. She was obliged to recollect
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that her seeing the letter was a violation of the laws of honour,
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that no one ought to be judged or to be known by such testimonies,
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that no private correspondence could bear the eye of others,
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before she could recover calmness enough to return the letter
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which she had been meditating over, and say--
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"Thank you. This is full proof undoubtedly; proof of every thing
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you were saying. But why be acquainted with us now?"
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"I can explain this too," cried Mrs Smith, smiling.
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"Can you really?"
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"Yes. I have shewn you Mr Elliot as he was a dozen years ago,
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and I will shew him as he is now. I cannot produce written proof again,
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but I can give as authentic oral testimony as you can desire, of what
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he is now wanting, and what he is now doing. He is no hypocrite now.
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He truly wants to marry you. His present attentions to your family
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are very sincere: quite from the heart. I will give you my authority:
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his friend Colonel Wallis."
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"Colonel Wallis! you are acquainted with him?"
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"No. It does not come to me in quite so direct a line as that;
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it takes a bend or two, but nothing of consequence. The stream
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is as good as at first; the little rubbish it collects in the turnings
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is easily moved away. Mr Elliot talks unreservedly to Colonel Wallis
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of his views on you, which said Colonel Wallis, I imagine to be,
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in himself, a sensible, careful, discerning sort of character;
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but Colonel Wallis has a very pretty silly wife, to whom
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he tells things which he had better not, and he repeats it all to her.
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She in the overflowing spirits of her recovery, repeats it all
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to her nurse; and the nurse knowing my acquaintance with you,
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very naturally brings it all to me. On Monday evening, my good friend
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Mrs Rooke let me thus much into the secrets of Marlborough Buildings.
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When I talked of a whole history, therefore, you see I was
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not romancing so much as you supposed."
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"My dear Mrs Smith, your authority is deficient. This will not do.
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Mr Elliot's having any views on me will not in the least account
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for the efforts he made towards a reconciliation with my father.
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That was all prior to my coming to Bath. I found them on
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the most friendly terms when I arrived."
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"I know you did; I know it all perfectly, but--"
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"Indeed, Mrs Smith, we must not expect to get real information
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in such a line. Facts or opinions which are to pass through the hands
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of so many, to be misconceived by folly in one, and ignorance in another,
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can hardly have much truth left."
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"Only give me a hearing. You will soon be able to judge of
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the general credit due, by listening to some particulars
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which you can yourself immediately contradict or confirm.
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Nobody supposes that you were his first inducement. He had seen you
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indeed, before he came to Bath, and admired you, but without
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knowing it to be you. So says my historian, at least. Is this true?
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Did he see you last summer or autumn, `somewhere down in the west,'
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to use her own words, without knowing it to be you?"
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"He certainly did. So far it is very true. At Lyme.
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I happened to be at Lyme."
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"Well," continued Mrs Smith, triumphantly, "grant my friend the credit
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due to the establishment of the first point asserted. He saw you then
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at Lyme, and liked you so well as to be exceedingly pleased
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to meet with you again in Camden Place, as Miss Anne Elliot,
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and from that moment, I have no doubt, had a double motive
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in his visits there. But there was another, and an earlier,
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which I will now explain. If there is anything in my story which you know
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to be either false or improbable, stop me. My account states,
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that your sister's friend, the lady now staying with you,
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whom I have heard you mention, came to Bath with Miss Elliot and Sir Walter
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as long ago as September (in short when they first came themselves),
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and has been staying there ever since; that she is a clever, insinuating,
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handsome woman, poor and plausible, and altogether such in situation
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and manner, as to give a general idea, among Sir Walter's acquaintance,
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of her meaning to be Lady Elliot, and as general a surprise
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that Miss Elliot should be apparently, blind to the danger."
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Here Mrs Smith paused a moment; but Anne had not a word to say,
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and she continued--
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"This was the light in which it appeared to those who knew the family,
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long before you returned to it; and Colonel Wallis had his eye
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upon your father enough to be sensible of it, though he did not then
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visit in Camden Place; but his regard for Mr Elliot gave him an interest
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in watching all that was going on there, and when Mr Elliot came to Bath
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for a day or two, as he happened to do a little before Christmas,
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Colonel Wallis made him acquainted with the appearance of things,
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and the reports beginning to prevail. Now you are to understand,
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that time had worked a very material change in Mr Elliot's opinions
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as to the value of a baronetcy. Upon all points of blood and connexion
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he is a completely altered man. Having long had as much money
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as he could spend, nothing to wish for on the side of avarice
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or indulgence, he has been gradually learning to pin his happiness
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upon the consequence he is heir to. I thought it coming on
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before our acquaintance ceased, but it is now a confirmed feeling.
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He cannot bear the idea of not being Sir William. You may guess,
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therefore, that the news he heard from his friend could not be
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very agreeable, and you may guess what it produced; the resolution
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of coming back to Bath as soon as possible, and of fixing himself here
|
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for a time, with the view of renewing his former acquaintance,
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and recovering such a footing in the family as might give him the means
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of ascertaining the degree of his danger, and of circumventing the lady
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if he found it material. This was agreed upon between the two friends
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as the only thing to be done; and Colonel Wallis was to assist
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in every way that he could. He was to be introduced, and Mrs Wallis
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was to be introduced, and everybody was to be introduced.
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Mr Elliot came back accordingly; and on application was forgiven,
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as you know, and re-admitted into the family; and there it was
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his constant object, and his only object (till your arrival
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|
added another motive), to watch Sir Walter and Mrs Clay.
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He omitted no opportunity of being with them, threw himself in their way,
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called at all hours; but I need not be particular on this subject.
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You can imagine what an artful man would do; and with this guide,
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perhaps, may recollect what you have seen him do."
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"Yes," said Anne, "you tell me nothing which does not accord with
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what I have known, or could imagine. There is always something offensive
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in the details of cunning. The manoeuvres of selfishness and duplicity
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must ever be revolting, but I have heard nothing which really surprises me.
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I know those who would be shocked by such a representation of Mr Elliot,
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|
who would have difficulty in believing it; but I have never been satisfied.
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I have always wanted some other motive for his conduct than appeared.
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I should like to know his present opinion, as to the probability
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of the event he has been in dread of; whether he considers the danger
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|
to be lessening or not."
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"Lessening, I understand," replied Mrs Smith. "He thinks Mrs Clay
|
|
afraid of him, aware that he sees through her, and not daring to proceed
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as she might do in his absence. But since he must be absent
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some time or other, I do not perceive how he can ever be secure
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while she holds her present influence. Mrs Wallis has an amusing idea,
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as nurse tells me, that it is to be put into the marriage articles
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when you and Mr Elliot marry, that your father is not to marry Mrs Clay.
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A scheme, worthy of Mrs Wallis's understanding, by all accounts;
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but my sensible nurse Rooke sees the absurdity of it. `Why, to be sure,
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ma'am,' said she, `it would not prevent his marrying anybody else.'
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And, indeed, to own the truth, I do not think nurse, in her heart,
|
|
is a very strenuous opposer of Sir Walter's making a second match.
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She must be allowed to be a favourer of matrimony, you know;
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|
and (since self will intrude) who can say that she may not have
|
|
some flying visions of attending the next Lady Elliot, through
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Mrs Wallis's recommendation?"
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"I am very glad to know all this," said Anne, after a little
|
|
thoughtfulness. "It will be more painful to me in some respects
|
|
to be in company with him, but I shall know better what to do.
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|
My line of conduct will be more direct. Mr Elliot is evidently
|
|
a disingenuous, artificial, worldly man, who has never had
|
|
any better principle to guide him than selfishness."
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But Mr Elliot was not done with. Mrs Smith had been carried away
|
|
from her first direction, and Anne had forgotten, in the interest
|
|
of her own family concerns, how much had been originally implied
|
|
against him; but her attention was now called to the explanation
|
|
of those first hints, and she listened to a recital which,
|
|
if it did not perfectly justify the unqualified bitterness of Mrs Smith,
|
|
proved him to have been very unfeeling in his conduct towards her;
|
|
very deficient both in justice and compassion.
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|
She learned that (the intimacy between them continuing unimpaired
|
|
by Mr Elliot's marriage) they had been as before always together,
|
|
and Mr Elliot had led his friend into expenses much beyond his fortune.
|
|
Mrs Smith did not want to take blame to herself, and was most tender
|
|
of throwing any on her husband; but Anne could collect that their income
|
|
had never been equal to their style of living, and that from the first
|
|
there had been a great deal of general and joint extravagance.
|
|
From his wife's account of him she could discern Mr Smith to have been
|
|
a man of warm feelings, easy temper, careless habits, and not strong
|
|
understanding, much more amiable than his friend, and very unlike him,
|
|
led by him, and probably despised by him. Mr Elliot, raised by
|
|
his marriage to great affluence, and disposed to every gratification
|
|
of pleasure and vanity which could be commanded without involving himself,
|
|
(for with all his self-indulgence he had become a prudent man),
|
|
and beginning to be rich, just as his friend ought to have found himself
|
|
to be poor, seemed to have had no concern at all for that friend's
|
|
probable finances, but, on the contrary, had been prompting and
|
|
encouraging expenses which could end only in ruin; and the Smiths
|
|
accordingly had been ruined.
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|
The husband had died just in time to be spared the full knowledge of it.
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|
They had previously known embarrassments enough to try the friendship
|
|
of their friends, and to prove that Mr Elliot's had better not be tried;
|
|
but it was not till his death that the wretched state of his affairs
|
|
was fully known. With a confidence in Mr Elliot's regard,
|
|
more creditable to his feelings than his judgement, Mr Smith had
|
|
appointed him the executor of his will; but Mr Elliot would not act,
|
|
and the difficulties and distress which this refusal had heaped on her,
|
|
in addition to the inevitable sufferings of her situation, had been such
|
|
as could not be related without anguish of spirit, or listened to
|
|
without corresponding indignation.
|
|
|
|
Anne was shewn some letters of his on the occasion, answers to
|
|
urgent applications from Mrs Smith, which all breathed the same
|
|
stern resolution of not engaging in a fruitless trouble, and,
|
|
under a cold civility, the same hard-hearted indifference
|
|
to any of the evils it might bring on her. It was a dreadful picture
|
|
of ingratitude and inhumanity; and Anne felt, at some moments,
|
|
that no flagrant open crime could have been worse. She had a great deal
|
|
to listen to; all the particulars of past sad scenes, all the minutiae
|
|
of distress upon distress, which in former conversations had been
|
|
merely hinted at, were dwelt on now with a natural indulgence.
|
|
Anne could perfectly comprehend the exquisite relief, and was only
|
|
the more inclined to wonder at the composure of her friend's
|
|
usual state of mind.
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|
|
There was one circumstance in the history of her grievances
|
|
of particular irritation. She had good reason to believe
|
|
that some property of her husband in the West Indies, which had been
|
|
for many years under a sort of sequestration for the payment of
|
|
its own incumbrances, might be recoverable by proper measures;
|
|
and this property, though not large, would be enough to make her
|
|
comparatively rich. But there was nobody to stir in it.
|
|
Mr Elliot would do nothing, and she could do nothing herself,
|
|
equally disabled from personal exertion by her state of bodily weakness,
|
|
and from employing others by her want of money. She had no
|
|
natural connexions to assist her even with their counsel,
|
|
and she could not afford to purchase the assistance of the law.
|
|
This was a cruel aggravation of actually streightened means.
|
|
To feel that she ought to be in better circumstances, that a little trouble
|
|
in the right place might do it, and to fear that delay might be
|
|
even weakening her claims, was hard to bear.
|
|
|
|
It was on this point that she had hoped to engage Anne's good offices
|
|
with Mr Elliot. She had previously, in the anticipation
|
|
of their marriage, been very apprehensive of losing her friend by it;
|
|
but on being assured that he could have made no attempt of that nature,
|
|
since he did not even know her to be in Bath, it immediately occurred,
|
|
that something might be done in her favour by the influence of the woman
|
|
he loved, and she had been hastily preparing to interest Anne's feelings,
|
|
as far as the observances due to Mr Elliot's character would allow,
|
|
when Anne's refutation of the supposed engagement changed
|
|
the face of everything; and while it took from her the new-formed hope
|
|
of succeeding in the object of her first anxiety, left her at least
|
|
the comfort of telling the whole story her own way.
|
|
|
|
After listening to this full description of Mr Elliot, Anne could not but
|
|
express some surprise at Mrs Smith's having spoken of him so favourably
|
|
in the beginning of their conversation. "She had seemed to recommend
|
|
and praise him!"
|
|
|
|
"My dear," was Mrs Smith's reply, "there was nothing else to be done.
|
|
I considered your marrying him as certain, though he might not yet
|
|
have made the offer, and I could no more speak the truth of him,
|
|
than if he had been your husband. My heart bled for you,
|
|
as I talked of happiness; and yet he is sensible, he is agreeable,
|
|
and with such a woman as you, it was not absolutely hopeless.
|
|
He was very unkind to his first wife. They were wretched together.
|
|
But she was too ignorant and giddy for respect, and he had never loved her.
|
|
I was willing to hope that you must fare better."
|
|
|
|
Anne could just acknowledge within herself such a possibility
|
|
of having been induced to marry him, as made her shudder at the idea
|
|
of the misery which must have followed. It was just possible that
|
|
she might have been persuaded by Lady Russell! And under such
|
|
a supposition, which would have been most miserable, when time had
|
|
disclosed all, too late?
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|
|
It was very desirable that Lady Russell should be no longer deceived;
|
|
and one of the concluding arrangements of this important conference,
|
|
which carried them through the greater part of the morning,
|
|
was, that Anne had full liberty to communicate to her friend
|
|
everything relative to Mrs Smith, in which his conduct was involved.
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Chapter 22
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Anne went home to think over all that she had heard. In one point,
|
|
her feelings were relieved by this knowledge of Mr Elliot.
|
|
There was no longer anything of tenderness due to him. He stood as
|
|
opposed to Captain Wentworth, in all his own unwelcome obtrusiveness;
|
|
and the evil of his attentions last night, the irremediable mischief
|
|
he might have done, was considered with sensations unqualified, unperplexed.
|
|
Pity for him was all over. But this was the only point of relief.
|
|
In every other respect, in looking around her, or penetrating forward,
|
|
she saw more to distrust and to apprehend. She was concerned
|
|
for the disappointment and pain Lady Russell would be feeling;
|
|
for the mortifications which must be hanging over her father and sister,
|
|
and had all the distress of foreseeing many evils, without knowing
|
|
how to avert any one of them. She was most thankful for her own
|
|
knowledge of him. She had never considered herself as entitled to reward
|
|
for not slighting an old friend like Mrs Smith, but here was
|
|
a reward indeed springing from it! Mrs Smith had been able to tell her
|
|
what no one else could have done. Could the knowledge have
|
|
been extended through her family? But this was a vain idea.
|
|
She must talk to Lady Russell, tell her, consult with her,
|
|
and having done her best, wait the event with as much composure
|
|
as possible; and after all, her greatest want of composure would be
|
|
in that quarter of the mind which could not be opened to Lady Russell;
|
|
in that flow of anxieties and fears which must be all to herself.
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|
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She found, on reaching home, that she had, as she intended,
|
|
escaped seeing Mr Elliot; that he had called and paid them
|
|
a long morning visit; but hardly had she congratulated herself,
|
|
and felt safe, when she heard that he was coming again in the evening.
|
|
|
|
"I had not the smallest intention of asking him," said Elizabeth,
|
|
with affected carelessness, "but he gave so many hints;
|
|
so Mrs Clay says, at least."
|
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|
|
"Indeed, I do say it. I never saw anybody in my life spell harder
|
|
for an invitation. Poor man! I was really in pain for him;
|
|
for your hard-hearted sister, Miss Anne, seems bent on cruelty."
|
|
|
|
"Oh!" cried Elizabeth, "I have been rather too much used to the game
|
|
to be soon overcome by a gentleman's hints. However, when I found
|
|
how excessively he was regretting that he should miss my father
|
|
this morning, I gave way immediately, for I would never really omit
|
|
an opportunity of bring him and Sir Walter together. They appear to
|
|
so much advantage in company with each other. Each behaving so pleasantly.
|
|
Mr Elliot looking up with so much respect."
|
|
|
|
"Quite delightful!" cried Mrs Clay, not daring, however,
|
|
to turn her eyes towards Anne. "Exactly like father and son!
|
|
Dear Miss Elliot, may I not say father and son?"
|
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|
|
"Oh! I lay no embargo on any body's words. If you will have such
|
|
ideas! But, upon my word, I am scarcely sensible of his attentions
|
|
being beyond those of other men."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Miss Elliot!" exclaimed Mrs Clay, lifting her hands and eyes,
|
|
and sinking all the rest of her astonishment in a convenient silence.
|
|
|
|
"Well, my dear Penelope, you need not be so alarmed about him.
|
|
I did invite him, you know. I sent him away with smiles.
|
|
When I found he was really going to his friends at Thornberry Park
|
|
for the whole day to-morrow, I had compassion on him."
|
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|
|
Anne admired the good acting of the friend, in being able to shew
|
|
such pleasure as she did, in the expectation and in the actual arrival
|
|
of the very person whose presence must really be interfering with
|
|
her prime object. It was impossible but that Mrs Clay must hate
|
|
the sight of Mr Elliot; and yet she could assume a most obliging,
|
|
placid look, and appear quite satisfied with the curtailed license
|
|
of devoting herself only half as much to Sir Walter as she would have
|
|
done otherwise.
|
|
|
|
To Anne herself it was most distressing to see Mr Elliot enter the room;
|
|
and quite painful to have him approach and speak to her.
|
|
She had been used before to feel that he could not be always quite sincere,
|
|
but now she saw insincerity in everything. His attentive deference
|
|
to her father, contrasted with his former language, was odious;
|
|
and when she thought of his cruel conduct towards Mrs Smith,
|
|
she could hardly bear the sight of his present smiles and mildness,
|
|
or the sound of his artificial good sentiments.
|
|
|
|
She meant to avoid any such alteration of manners as might provoke
|
|
a remonstrance on his side. It was a great object to her to escape
|
|
all enquiry or eclat; but it was her intention to be as decidedly cool
|
|
to him as might be compatible with their relationship; and to retrace,
|
|
as quietly as she could, the few steps of unnecessary intimacy she had
|
|
been gradually led along. She was accordingly more guarded,
|
|
and more cool, than she had been the night before.
|
|
|
|
He wanted to animate her curiosity again as to how and where
|
|
he could have heard her formerly praised; wanted very much
|
|
to be gratified by more solicitation; but the charm was broken:
|
|
he found that the heat and animation of a public room was necessary
|
|
to kindle his modest cousin's vanity; he found, at least, that it was
|
|
not to be done now, by any of those attempts which he could hazard
|
|
among the too-commanding claims of the others. He little surmised
|
|
that it was a subject acting now exactly against his interest,
|
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bringing immediately to her thoughts all those parts of his conduct
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which were least excusable.
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She had some satisfaction in finding that he was really going out of Bath
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the next morning, going early, and that he would be gone the greater part
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of two days. He was invited again to Camden Place the very evening of
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his return; but from Thursday to Saturday evening his absence was certain.
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It was bad enough that a Mrs Clay should be always before her;
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but that a deeper hypocrite should be added to their party,
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seemed the destruction of everything like peace and comfort.
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It was so humiliating to reflect on the constant deception practiced
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on her father and Elizabeth; to consider the various sources
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of mortification preparing for them! Mrs Clay's selfishness was
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not so complicate nor so revolting as his; and Anne would have compounded
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for the marriage at once, with all its evils, to be clear of Mr Elliot's
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subtleties in endeavouring to prevent it.
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On Friday morning she meant to go very early to Lady Russell,
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and accomplish the necessary communication; and she would have gone
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directly after breakfast, but that Mrs Clay was also going out
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on some obliging purpose of saving her sister trouble, which
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determined her to wait till she might be safe from such a companion.
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She saw Mrs Clay fairly off, therefore, before she began to talk
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of spending the morning in Rivers Street.
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"Very well," said Elizabeth, "I have nothing to send but my love.
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Oh! you may as well take back that tiresome book she would lend me,
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and pretend I have read it through. I really cannot be plaguing myself
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for ever with all the new poems and states of the nation that come out.
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Lady Russell quite bores one with her new publications.
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You need not tell her so, but I thought her dress hideous the other night.
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I used to think she had some taste in dress, but I was ashamed of her
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at the concert. Something so formal and arrange in her air!
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and she sits so upright! My best love, of course."
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"And mine," added Sir Walter. "Kindest regards. And you may say,
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that I mean to call upon her soon. Make a civil message;
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but I shall only leave my card. Morning visits are never fair
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by women at her time of life, who make themselves up so little.
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If she would only wear rouge she would not be afraid of being seen;
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but last time I called, I observed the blinds were let down immediately."
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While her father spoke, there was a knock at the door. Who could it be?
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Anne, remembering the preconcerted visits, at all hours, of Mr Elliot,
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would have expected him, but for his known engagement seven miles off.
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After the usual period of suspense, the usual sounds of approach were heard,
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and "Mr and Mrs Charles Musgrove" were ushered into the room.
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Surprise was the strongest emotion raised by their appearance;
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but Anne was really glad to see them; and the others were not so sorry
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but that they could put on a decent air of welcome; and as soon
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as it became clear that these, their nearest relations, were not arrived
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with an views of accommodation in that house, Sir Walter and Elizabeth
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were able to rise in cordiality, and do the honours of it very well.
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They were come to Bath for a few days with Mrs Musgrove, and were
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at the White Hart. So much was pretty soon understood;
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but till Sir Walter and Elizabeth were walking Mary into
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the other drawing-room, and regaling themselves with her admiration,
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Anne could not draw upon Charles's brain for a regular history
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of their coming, or an explanation of some smiling hints
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of particular business, which had been ostentatiously dropped by Mary,
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as well as of some apparent confusion as to whom their party consisted of.
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She then found that it consisted of Mrs Musgrove, Henrietta,
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and Captain Harville, beside their two selves. He gave her a very plain,
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intelligible account of the whole; a narration in which she saw
|
|
a great deal of most characteristic proceeding. The scheme
|
|
had received its first impulse by Captain Harville's wanting to
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come to Bath on business. He had begun to talk of it a week ago;
|
|
and by way of doing something, as shooting was over, Charles had proposed
|
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coming with him, and Mrs Harville had seemed to like the idea of it
|
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very much, as an advantage to her husband; but Mary could not bear
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to be left, and had made herself so unhappy about it, that for a day or two
|
|
everything seemed to be in suspense, or at an end. But then,
|
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it had been taken up by his father and mother. His mother had
|
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some old friends in Bath whom she wanted to see; it was thought
|
|
a good opportunity for Henrietta to come and buy wedding-clothes
|
|
for herself and her sister; and, in short, it ended in being
|
|
his mother's party, that everything might be comfortable and easy
|
|
to Captain Harville; and he and Mary were included in it
|
|
by way of general convenience. They had arrived late the night before.
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Mrs Harville, her children, and Captain Benwick, remained with
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Mr Musgrove and Louisa at Uppercross.
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|
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Anne's only surprise was, that affairs should be in forwardness enough
|
|
for Henrietta's wedding-clothes to be talked of. She had imagined
|
|
such difficulties of fortune to exist there as must prevent
|
|
the marriage from being near at hand; but she learned from Charles that,
|
|
very recently, (since Mary's last letter to herself), Charles Hayter
|
|
had been applied to by a friend to hold a living for a youth
|
|
who could not possibly claim it under many years; and that
|
|
on the strength of his present income, with almost a certainty
|
|
of something more permanent long before the term in question,
|
|
the two families had consented to the young people's wishes,
|
|
and that their marriage was likely to take place in a few months,
|
|
quite as soon as Louisa's. "And a very good living it was,"
|
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Charles added: "only five-and-twenty miles from Uppercross,
|
|
and in a very fine country: fine part of Dorsetshire.
|
|
In the centre of some of the best preserves in the kingdom,
|
|
surrounded by three great proprietors, each more careful and jealous
|
|
than the other; and to two of the three at least, Charles Hayter might get
|
|
a special recommendation. Not that he will value it as he ought,"
|
|
he observed, "Charles is too cool about sporting. That's the worst of him."
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|
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|
"I am extremely glad, indeed," cried Anne, "particularly glad
|
|
that this should happen; and that of two sisters, who both deserve
|
|
equally well, and who have always been such good friends,
|
|
the pleasant prospect of one should not be dimming those of the other--
|
|
that they should be so equal in their prosperity and comfort.
|
|
I hope your father and mother are quite happy with regard to both."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! yes. My father would be well pleased if the gentlemen were richer,
|
|
but he has no other fault to find. Money, you know, coming down with
|
|
money--two daughters at once--it cannot be a very agreeable operation,
|
|
and it streightens him as to many things. However, I do not mean to say
|
|
they have not a right to it. It is very fit they should have
|
|
daughters' shares; and I am sure he has always been a very kind,
|
|
liberal father to me. Mary does not above half like Henrietta's match.
|
|
She never did, you know. But she does not do him justice,
|
|
nor think enough about Winthrop. I cannot make her attend to
|
|
the value of the property. It is a very fair match, as times go;
|
|
and I have liked Charles Hayter all my life, and I shall not leave off now."
|
|
|
|
"Such excellent parents as Mr and Mrs Musgrove," exclaimed Anne,
|
|
"should be happy in their children's marriages. They do everything
|
|
to confer happiness, I am sure. What a blessing to young people
|
|
to be in such hands! Your father and mother seem so totally free
|
|
from all those ambitious feelings which have led to so much misconduct
|
|
and misery, both in young and old. I hope you think Louisa
|
|
perfectly recovered now?"
|
|
|
|
He answered rather hesitatingly, "Yes, I believe I do; very much recovered;
|
|
but she is altered; there is no running or jumping about, no laughing
|
|
or dancing; it is quite different. If one happens only to shut the door
|
|
a little hard, she starts and wriggles like a young dab-chick in the water;
|
|
and Benwick sits at her elbow, reading verses, or whispering to her,
|
|
all day long."
|
|
|
|
Anne could not help laughing. "That cannot be much to your taste,
|
|
I know," said she; "but I do believe him to be an excellent young man."
|
|
|
|
"To be sure he is. Nobody doubts it; and I hope you do not think
|
|
I am so illiberal as to want every man to have the same objects and
|
|
pleasures as myself. I have a great value for Benwick; and when one can
|
|
but get him to talk, he has plenty to say. His reading has done him
|
|
no harm, for he has fought as well as read. He is a brave fellow.
|
|
I got more acquainted with him last Monday than ever I did before.
|
|
We had a famous set-to at rat-hunting all the morning in
|
|
my father's great barns; and he played his part so well
|
|
that I have liked him the better ever since."
|
|
|
|
Here they were interrupted by the absolute necessity of Charles's
|
|
following the others to admire mirrors and china; but Anne had
|
|
heard enough to understand the present state of Uppercross,
|
|
and rejoice in its happiness; and though she sighed as she rejoiced,
|
|
her sigh had none of the ill-will of envy in it. She would certainly
|
|
have risen to their blessings if she could, but she did not want
|
|
to lessen theirs.
|
|
|
|
The visit passed off altogether in high good humour. Mary was
|
|
in excellent spirits, enjoying the gaiety and the change,
|
|
and so well satisfied with the journey in her mother-in-law's carriage
|
|
with four horses, and with her own complete independence of Camden Place,
|
|
that she was exactly in a temper to admire everything as she ought,
|
|
and enter most readily into all the superiorities of the house,
|
|
as they were detailed to her. She had no demands on her father or sister,
|
|
and her consequence was just enough increased by their handsome
|
|
drawing-rooms.
|
|
|
|
Elizabeth was, for a short time, suffering a good deal.
|
|
She felt that Mrs Musgrove and all her party ought to be asked
|
|
to dine with them; but she could not bear to have the difference of style,
|
|
the reduction of servants, which a dinner must betray, witnessed by those
|
|
who had been always so inferior to the Elliots of Kellynch.
|
|
It was a struggle between propriety and vanity; but vanity got the better,
|
|
and then Elizabeth was happy again. These were her internal persuasions:
|
|
"Old fashioned notions; country hospitality; we do not profess
|
|
to give dinners; few people in Bath do; Lady Alicia never does;
|
|
did not even ask her own sister's family, though they were here a month:
|
|
and I dare say it would be very inconvenient to Mrs Musgrove;
|
|
put her quite out of her way. I am sure she would rather not come;
|
|
she cannot feel easy with us. I will ask them all for an evening;
|
|
that will be much better; that will be a novelty and a treat.
|
|
They have not seen two such drawing rooms before. They will be delighted
|
|
to come to-morrow evening. It shall be a regular party, small,
|
|
but most elegant." And this satisfied Elizabeth: and when the invitation
|
|
was given to the two present, and promised for the absent,
|
|
Mary was as completely satisfied. She was particularly asked
|
|
to meet Mr Elliot, and be introduced to Lady Dalrymple and Miss Carteret,
|
|
who were fortunately already engaged to come; and she could not
|
|
have received a more gratifying attention. Miss Elliot was to have
|
|
the honour of calling on Mrs Musgrove in the course of the morning;
|
|
and Anne walked off with Charles and Mary, to go and see her
|
|
and Henrietta directly.
|
|
|
|
Her plan of sitting with Lady Russell must give way for the present.
|
|
They all three called in Rivers Street for a couple of minutes;
|
|
but Anne convinced herself that a day's delay of the intended communication
|
|
could be of no consequence, and hastened forward to the White Hart,
|
|
to see again the friends and companions of the last autumn,
|
|
with an eagerness of good-will which many associations contributed to form.
|
|
|
|
They found Mrs Musgrove and her daughter within, and by themselves,
|
|
and Anne had the kindest welcome from each. Henrietta was exactly
|
|
in that state of recently-improved views, of fresh-formed happiness,
|
|
which made her full of regard and interest for everybody she had
|
|
ever liked before at all; and Mrs Musgrove's real affection had been won
|
|
by her usefulness when they were in distress. It was a heartiness,
|
|
and a warmth, and a sincerity which Anne delighted in the more,
|
|
from the sad want of such blessings at home. She was entreated
|
|
to give them as much of her time as possible, invited for every day
|
|
and all day long, or rather claimed as part of the family; and, in return,
|
|
she naturally fell into all her wonted ways of attention and assistance,
|
|
and on Charles's leaving them together, was listening to Mrs Musgrove's
|
|
history of Louisa, and to Henrietta's of herself, giving opinions
|
|
on business, and recommendations to shops; with intervals of every help
|
|
which Mary required, from altering her ribbon to settling her accounts;
|
|
from finding her keys, and assorting her trinkets, to trying
|
|
to convince her that she was not ill-used by anybody; which Mary,
|
|
well amused as she generally was, in her station at a window
|
|
overlooking the entrance to the Pump Room, could not but have
|
|
her moments of imagining.
|
|
|
|
A morning of thorough confusion was to be expected. A large party
|
|
in an hotel ensured a quick-changing, unsettled scene. One five minutes
|
|
brought a note, the next a parcel; and Anne had not been there
|
|
half an hour, when their dining-room, spacious as it was,
|
|
seemed more than half filled: a party of steady old friends
|
|
were seated around Mrs Musgrove, and Charles came back with
|
|
Captains Harville and Wentworth. The appearance of the latter
|
|
could not be more than the surprise of the moment. It was impossible
|
|
for her to have forgotten to feel that this arrival of their
|
|
common friends must be soon bringing them together again.
|
|
Their last meeting had been most important in opening his feelings;
|
|
she had derived from it a delightful conviction; but she feared
|
|
from his looks, that the same unfortunate persuasion, which had
|
|
hastened him away from the Concert Room, still governed.
|
|
He did not seem to want to be near enough for conversation.
|
|
|
|
She tried to be calm, and leave things to take their course,
|
|
and tried to dwell much on this argument of rational dependence:--
|
|
"Surely, if there be constant attachment on each side, our hearts
|
|
must understand each other ere long. We are not boy and girl,
|
|
to be captiously irritable, misled by every moment's inadvertence,
|
|
and wantonly playing with our own happiness." And yet,
|
|
a few minutes afterwards, she felt as if their being in company
|
|
with each other, under their present circumstances, could only be
|
|
exposing them to inadvertencies and misconstructions of the most
|
|
mischievous kind.
|
|
|
|
"Anne," cried Mary, still at her window, "there is Mrs Clay,
|
|
I am sure, standing under the colonnade, and a gentleman with her.
|
|
I saw them turn the corner from Bath Street just now. They seemed
|
|
deep in talk. Who is it? Come, and tell me. Good heavens! I recollect.
|
|
It is Mr Elliot himself."
|
|
|
|
"No," cried Anne, quickly, "it cannot be Mr Elliot, I assure you.
|
|
He was to leave Bath at nine this morning, and does not come back
|
|
till to-morrow."
|
|
|
|
As she spoke, she felt that Captain Wentworth was looking at her,
|
|
the consciousness of which vexed and embarrassed her, and made her regret
|
|
that she had said so much, simple as it was.
|
|
|
|
Mary, resenting that she should be supposed not to know her own cousin,
|
|
began talking very warmly about the family features, and protesting
|
|
still more positively that it was Mr Elliot, calling again upon Anne
|
|
to come and look for herself, but Anne did not mean to stir,
|
|
and tried to be cool and unconcerned. Her distress returned,
|
|
however, on perceiving smiles and intelligent glances pass between
|
|
two or three of the lady visitors, as if they believed themselves
|
|
quite in the secret. It was evident that the report concerning her
|
|
had spread, and a short pause succeeded, which seemed to ensure
|
|
that it would now spread farther.
|
|
|
|
"Do come, Anne" cried Mary, "come and look yourself. You will be too late
|
|
if you do not make haste. They are parting; they are shaking hands.
|
|
He is turning away. Not know Mr Elliot, indeed! You seem to have
|
|
forgot all about Lyme."
|
|
|
|
To pacify Mary, and perhaps screen her own embarrassment,
|
|
Anne did move quietly to the window. She was just in time to ascertain
|
|
that it really was Mr Elliot, which she had never believed,
|
|
before he disappeared on one side, as Mrs Clay walked quickly off
|
|
on the other; and checking the surprise which she could not but feel
|
|
at such an appearance of friendly conference between two persons
|
|
of totally opposite interest, she calmly said, "Yes, it is Mr Elliot,
|
|
certainly. He has changed his hour of going, I suppose, that is all,
|
|
or I may be mistaken, I might not attend;" and walked back to her chair,
|
|
recomposed, and with the comfortable hope of having acquitted herself well.
|
|
|
|
The visitors took their leave; and Charles, having civilly seen them off,
|
|
and then made a face at them, and abused them for coming, began with--
|
|
|
|
"Well, mother, I have done something for you that you will like.
|
|
I have been to the theatre, and secured a box for to-morrow night.
|
|
A'n't I a good boy? I know you love a play; and there is room for us all.
|
|
It holds nine. I have engaged Captain Wentworth. Anne will
|
|
not be sorry to join us, I am sure. We all like a play.
|
|
Have not I done well, mother?"
|
|
|
|
Mrs Musgrove was good humouredly beginning to express her perfect readiness
|
|
for the play, if Henrietta and all the others liked it, when Mary
|
|
eagerly interrupted her by exclaiming--
|
|
|
|
"Good heavens, Charles! how can you think of such a thing?
|
|
Take a box for to-morrow night! Have you forgot that we are engaged
|
|
to Camden Place to-morrow night? and that we were most particularly asked
|
|
to meet Lady Dalrymple and her daughter, and Mr Elliot, and all
|
|
the principal family connexions, on purpose to be introduced to them?
|
|
How can you be so forgetful?"
|
|
|
|
"Phoo! phoo!" replied Charles, "what's an evening party?
|
|
Never worth remembering. Your father might have asked us to dinner,
|
|
I think, if he had wanted to see us. You may do as you like,
|
|
but I shall go to the play."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! Charles, I declare it will be too abominable if you do,
|
|
when you promised to go."
|
|
|
|
"No, I did not promise. I only smirked and bowed, and said the word
|
|
`happy.' There was no promise."
|
|
|
|
"But you must go, Charles. It would be unpardonable to fail.
|
|
We were asked on purpose to be introduced. There was always
|
|
such a great connexion between the Dalrymples and ourselves.
|
|
Nothing ever happened on either side that was not announced immediately.
|
|
We are quite near relations, you know; and Mr Elliot too,
|
|
whom you ought so particularly to be acquainted with! Every attention
|
|
is due to Mr Elliot. Consider, my father's heir: the future
|
|
representative of the family."
|
|
|
|
"Don't talk to me about heirs and representatives," cried Charles.
|
|
"I am not one of those who neglect the reigning power to bow
|
|
to the rising sun. If I would not go for the sake of your father,
|
|
I should think it scandalous to go for the sake of his heir.
|
|
What is Mr Elliot to me?" The careless expression was life to Anne,
|
|
who saw that Captain Wentworth was all attention, looking and
|
|
listening with his whole soul; and that the last words brought
|
|
his enquiring eyes from Charles to herself.
|
|
|
|
Charles and Mary still talked on in the same style; he, half serious
|
|
and half jesting, maintaining the scheme for the play, and she,
|
|
invariably serious, most warmly opposing it, and not omitting
|
|
to make it known that, however determined to go to Camden Place herself,
|
|
she should not think herself very well used, if they went to the play
|
|
without her. Mrs Musgrove interposed.
|
|
|
|
"We had better put it off. Charles, you had much better go back
|
|
and change the box for Tuesday. It would be a pity to be divided,
|
|
and we should be losing Miss Anne, too, if there is a party at her father's;
|
|
and I am sure neither Henrietta nor I should care at all for the play,
|
|
if Miss Anne could not be with us."
|
|
|
|
Anne felt truly obliged to her for such kindness; and quite as much
|
|
so for the opportunity it gave her of decidedly saying--
|
|
|
|
"If it depended only on my inclination, ma'am, the party at home
|
|
(excepting on Mary's account) would not be the smallest impediment.
|
|
I have no pleasure in the sort of meeting, and should be too happy
|
|
to change it for a play, and with you. But, it had better
|
|
not be attempted, perhaps." She had spoken it; but she trembled
|
|
when it was done, conscious that her words were listened to,
|
|
and daring not even to try to observe their effect.
|
|
|
|
It was soon generally agreed that Tuesday should be the day;
|
|
Charles only reserving the advantage of still teasing his wife,
|
|
by persisting that he would go to the play to-morrow if nobody else would.
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth left his seat, and walked to the fire-place;
|
|
probably for the sake of walking away from it soon afterwards,
|
|
and taking a station, with less bare-faced design, by Anne.
|
|
|
|
"You have not been long enough in Bath," said he, "to enjoy
|
|
the evening parties of the place."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! no. The usual character of them has nothing for me.
|
|
I am no card-player."
|
|
|
|
"You were not formerly, I know. You did not use to like cards;
|
|
but time makes many changes."
|
|
|
|
"I am not yet so much changed," cried Anne, and stopped, fearing she
|
|
hardly knew what misconstruction. After waiting a few moments
|
|
he said, and as if it were the result of immediate feeling,
|
|
"It is a period, indeed! Eight years and a half is a period."
|
|
|
|
Whether he would have proceeded farther was left to Anne's imagination
|
|
to ponder over in a calmer hour; for while still hearing the sounds
|
|
he had uttered, she was startled to other subjects by Henrietta,
|
|
eager to make use of the present leisure for getting out,
|
|
and calling on her companions to lose no time, lest somebody else
|
|
should come in.
|
|
|
|
They were obliged to move. Anne talked of being perfectly ready,
|
|
and tried to look it; but she felt that could Henrietta have known
|
|
the regret and reluctance of her heart in quitting that chair,
|
|
in preparing to quit the room, she would have found, in all her own
|
|
sensations for her cousin, in the very security of his affection,
|
|
wherewith to pity her.
|
|
|
|
Their preparations, however, were stopped short. Alarming sounds
|
|
were heard; other visitors approached, and the door was thrown open
|
|
for Sir Walter and Miss Elliot, whose entrance seemed to give
|
|
a general chill. Anne felt an instant oppression, and wherever she looked
|
|
saw symptoms of the same. The comfort, the freedom, the gaiety
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of the room was over, hushed into cold composure, determined silence,
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or insipid talk, to meet the heartless elegance of her father and sister.
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How mortifying to feel that it was so!
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Her jealous eye was satisfied in one particular. Captain Wentworth
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was acknowledged again by each, by Elizabeth more graciously than before.
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She even addressed him once, and looked at him more than once.
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Elizabeth was, in fact, revolving a great measure. The sequel
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explained it. After the waste of a few minutes in saying
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the proper nothings, she began to give the invitation which
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was to comprise all the remaining dues of the Musgroves.
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"To-morrow evening, to meet a few friends: no formal party."
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It was all said very gracefully, and the cards with which she had
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provided herself, the "Miss Elliot at home," were laid on the table,
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with a courteous, comprehensive smile to all, and one smile and
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one card more decidedly for Captain Wentworth. The truth was,
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that Elizabeth had been long enough in Bath to understand
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the importance of a man of such an air and appearance as his.
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The past was nothing. The present was that Captain Wentworth
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would move about well in her drawing-room. The card was pointedly given,
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and Sir Walter and Elizabeth arose and disappeared.
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The interruption had been short, though severe, and ease and animation
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returned to most of those they left as the door shut them out,
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but not to Anne. She could think only of the invitation she had
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with such astonishment witnessed, and of the manner in which
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it had been received; a manner of doubtful meaning, of surprise rather
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than gratification, of polite acknowledgement rather than acceptance.
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She knew him; she saw disdain in his eye, and could not venture to believe
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that he had determined to accept such an offering, as an atonement
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for all the insolence of the past. Her spirits sank. He held the card
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in his hand after they were gone, as if deeply considering it.
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"Only think of Elizabeth's including everybody!" whispered Mary
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very audibly. "I do not wonder Captain Wentworth is delighted!
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You see he cannot put the card out of his hand."
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Anne caught his eye, saw his cheeks glow, and his mouth form itself
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into a momentary expression of contempt, and turned away,
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that she might neither see nor hear more to vex her.
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The party separated. The gentlemen had their own pursuits,
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the ladies proceeded on their own business, and they met no more while
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Anne belonged to them. She was earnestly begged to return and dine,
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and give them all the rest of the day, but her spirits had been
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so long exerted that at present she felt unequal to more,
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and fit only for home, where she might be sure of being as silent
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as she chose.
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Promising to be with them the whole of the following morning, therefore,
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she closed the fatigues of the present by a toilsome walk to Camden Place,
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there to spend the evening chiefly in listening to the busy arrangements
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of Elizabeth and Mrs Clay for the morrow's party, the frequent enumeration
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of the persons invited, and the continually improving detail of all
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the embellishments which were to make it the most completely elegant
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of its kind in Bath, while harassing herself with the never-ending
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question, of whether Captain Wentworth would come or not? They were
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reckoning him as certain, but with her it was a gnawing solicitude
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never appeased for five minutes together. She generally thought
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he would come, because she generally thought he ought; but it was a case
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which she could not so shape into any positive act of duty or discretion,
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as inevitably to defy the suggestions of very opposite feelings.
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She only roused herself from the broodings of this restless agitation,
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to let Mrs Clay know that she had been seen with Mr Elliot
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three hours after his being supposed to be out of Bath,
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for having watched in vain for some intimation of the interview
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from the lady herself, she determined to mention it, and it seemed to her
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there was guilt in Mrs Clay's face as she listened. It was transient:
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cleared away in an instant; but Anne could imagine she read there
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the consciousness of having, by some complication of mutual trick,
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or some overbearing authority of his, been obliged to attend
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(perhaps for half an hour) to his lectures and restrictions on her designs
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on Sir Walter. She exclaimed, however, with a very tolerable
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imitation of nature: --
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"Oh! dear! very true. Only think, Miss Elliot, to my great surprise
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I met with Mr Elliot in Bath Street. I was never more astonished.
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He turned back and walked with me to the Pump Yard. He had been prevented
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setting off for Thornberry, but I really forget by what;
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for I was in a hurry, and could not much attend, and I can only answer
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for his being determined not to be delayed in his return.
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He wanted to know how early he might be admitted to-morrow.
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He was full of `to-morrow,' and it is very evident that I have been
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full of it too, ever since I entered the house, and learnt the extension
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of your plan and all that had happened, or my seeing him could never have
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gone so entirely out of my head."
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Chapter 23
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One day only had passed since Anne's conversation with Mrs Smith;
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but a keener interest had succeeded, and she was now so little touched
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by Mr Elliot's conduct, except by its effects in one quarter,
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that it became a matter of course the next morning, still to defer
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her explanatory visit in Rivers Street. She had promised to be
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with the Musgroves from breakfast to dinner. Her faith was plighted,
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and Mr Elliot's character, like the Sultaness Scheherazade's head,
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must live another day.
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She could not keep her appointment punctually, however;
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the weather was unfavourable, and she had grieved over the rain
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on her friends' account, and felt it very much on her own,
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before she was able to attempt the walk. When she reached the White Hart,
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and made her way to the proper apartment, she found herself
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neither arriving quite in time, nor the first to arrive.
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The party before her were, Mrs Musgrove, talking to Mrs Croft,
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and Captain Harville to Captain Wentworth; and she immediately heard
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that Mary and Henrietta, too impatient to wait, had gone out the moment
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it had cleared, but would be back again soon, and that the strictest
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injunctions had been left with Mrs Musgrove to keep her there
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till they returned. She had only to submit, sit down,
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be outwardly composed, and feel herself plunged at once
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in all the agitations which she had merely laid her account of
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|
tasting a little before the morning closed. There was no delay,
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no waste of time. She was deep in the happiness of such misery,
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or the misery of such happiness, instantly. Two minutes after
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her entering the room, Captain Wentworth said--
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"We will write the letter we were talking of, Harville, now,
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if you will give me materials."
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Materials were at hand, on a separate table; he went to it,
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and nearly turning his back to them all, was engrossed by writing.
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Mrs Musgrove was giving Mrs Croft the history of her eldest
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daughter's engagement, and just in that inconvenient tone of voice
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which was perfectly audible while it pretended to be a whisper.
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Anne felt that she did not belong to the conversation, and yet,
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as Captain Harville seemed thoughtful and not disposed to talk,
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she could not avoid hearing many undesirable particulars; such as,
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"how Mr Musgrove and my brother Hayter had met again and again
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to talk it over; what my brother Hayter had said one day,
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and what Mr Musgrove had proposed the next, and what had occurred
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to my sister Hayter, and what the young people had wished, and what
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I said at first I never could consent to, but was afterwards persuaded
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to think might do very well," and a great deal in the same style
|
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of open-hearted communication: minutiae which, even with every advantage
|
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of taste and delicacy, which good Mrs Musgrove could not give,
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could be properly interesting only to the principals. Mrs Croft
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was attending with great good-humour, and whenever she spoke at all,
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it was very sensibly. Anne hoped the gentlemen might each be
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too much self-occupied to hear.
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"And so, ma'am, all these thing considered," said Mrs Musgrove,
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in her powerful whisper, "though we could have wished it different,
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yet, altogether, we did not think it fair to stand out any longer,
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for Charles Hayter was quite wild about it, and Henrietta was
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pretty near as bad; and so we thought they had better marry at once,
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and make the best of it, as many others have done before them.
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At any rate, said I, it will be better than a long engagement."
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"That is precisely what I was going to observe," cried Mrs Croft.
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"I would rather have young people settle on a small income at once,
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and have to struggle with a few difficulties together, than be
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involved in a long engagement. I always think that no mutual--"
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"Oh! dear Mrs Croft," cried Mrs Musgrove, unable to let her
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finish her speech, "there is nothing I so abominate for young people
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as a long engagement. It is what I always protested against
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for my children. It is all very well, I used to say, for young people
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to be engaged, if there is a certainty of their being able to marry
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in six months, or even in twelve; but a long engagement--"
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"Yes, dear ma'am," said Mrs Croft, "or an uncertain engagement,
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an engagement which may be long. To begin without knowing
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that at such a time there will be the means of marrying,
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I hold to be very unsafe and unwise, and what I think all parents
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should prevent as far as they can."
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Anne found an unexpected interest here. She felt its application
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to herself, felt it in a nervous thrill all over her; and at the same
|
|
moment that her eyes instinctively glanced towards the distant table,
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Captain Wentworth's pen ceased to move, his head was raised, pausing,
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listening, and he turned round the next instant to give a look,
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one quick, conscious look at her.
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The two ladies continued to talk, to re-urge the same admitted truths,
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and enforce them with such examples of the ill effect of
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a contrary practice as had fallen within their observation,
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but Anne heard nothing distinctly; it was only a buzz of words in her ear,
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her mind was in confusion.
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Captain Harville, who had in truth been hearing none of it,
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now left his seat, and moved to a window, and Anne seeming to watch him,
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though it was from thorough absence of mind, became gradually sensible
|
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that he was inviting her to join him where he stood. He looked at her
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with a smile, and a little motion of the head, which expressed,
|
|
"Come to me, I have something to say;" and the unaffected,
|
|
easy kindness of manner which denoted the feelings of an older acquaintance
|
|
than he really was, strongly enforced the invitation. She roused herself
|
|
and went to him. The window at which he stood was at the other end
|
|
of the room from where the two ladies were sitting, and though nearer
|
|
to Captain Wentworth's table, not very near. As she joined him,
|
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Captain Harville's countenance re-assumed the serious, thoughtful
|
|
expression which seemed its natural character.
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"Look here," said he, unfolding a parcel in his hand, and displaying
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a small miniature painting, "do you know who that is?"
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"Certainly: Captain Benwick."
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"Yes, and you may guess who it is for. But," (in a deep tone,)
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"it was not done for her. Miss Elliot, do you remember our
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walking together at Lyme, and grieving for him? I little thought then--
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|
but no matter. This was drawn at the Cape. He met with
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a clever young German artist at the Cape, and in compliance with a promise
|
|
to my poor sister, sat to him, and was bringing it home for her;
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and I have now the charge of getting it properly set for another!
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|
It was a commission to me! But who else was there to employ?
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I hope I can allow for him. I am not sorry, indeed, to make it
|
|
over to another. He undertakes it;" (looking towards Captain Wentworth,)
|
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"he is writing about it now." And with a quivering lip he wound up
|
|
the whole by adding, "Poor Fanny! she would not have forgotten him so soon!"
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"No," replied Anne, in a low, feeling voice. "That I can easily believe."
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"It was not in her nature. She doted on him."
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"It would not be the nature of any woman who truly loved."
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Captain Harville smiled, as much as to say, "Do you claim that
|
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for your sex?" and she answered the question, smiling also,
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"Yes. We certainly do not forget you as soon as you forget us.
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It is, perhaps, our fate rather than our merit. We cannot help ourselves.
|
|
We live at home, quiet, confined, and our feelings prey upon us.
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|
You are forced on exertion. You have always a profession, pursuits,
|
|
business of some sort or other, to take you back into the world immediately,
|
|
and continual occupation and change soon weaken impressions."
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"Granting your assertion that the world does all this so soon for men
|
|
(which, however, I do not think I shall grant), it does not apply
|
|
to Benwick. He has not been forced upon any exertion. The peace
|
|
turned him on shore at the very moment, and he has been living with us,
|
|
in our little family circle, ever since."
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"True," said Anne, "very true; I did not recollect; but what shall
|
|
we say now, Captain Harville? If the change be not from
|
|
outward circumstances, it must be from within; it must be nature,
|
|
man's nature, which has done the business for Captain Benwick."
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|
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"No, no, it is not man's nature. I will not allow it to be more
|
|
man's nature than woman's to be inconstant and forget those they do love,
|
|
or have loved. I believe the reverse. I believe in a true analogy
|
|
between our bodily frames and our mental; and that as our bodies are
|
|
the strongest, so are our feelings; capable of bearing most rough usage,
|
|
and riding out the heaviest weather."
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|
|
"Your feelings may be the strongest," replied Anne, "but the same spirit
|
|
of analogy will authorise me to assert that ours are the most tender.
|
|
Man is more robust than woman, but he is not longer lived;
|
|
which exactly explains my view of the nature of their attachments.
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|
Nay, it would be too hard upon you, if it were otherwise.
|
|
You have difficulties, and privations, and dangers enough to struggle with.
|
|
You are always labouring and toiling, exposed to every risk and hardship.
|
|
Your home, country, friends, all quitted. Neither time, nor health,
|
|
nor life, to be called your own. It would be hard, indeed"
|
|
(with a faltering voice), "if woman's feelings were to be
|
|
added to all this."
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|
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"We shall never agree upon this question," Captain Harville
|
|
was beginning to say, when a slight noise called their attention
|
|
to Captain Wentworth's hitherto perfectly quiet division of the room.
|
|
It was nothing more than that his pen had fallen down; but Anne was
|
|
startled at finding him nearer than she had supposed, and half inclined
|
|
to suspect that the pen had only fallen because he had been
|
|
occupied by them, striving to catch sounds, which yet she did not think
|
|
he could have caught.
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|
|
|
"Have you finished your letter?" said Captain Harville.
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|
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"Not quite, a few lines more. I shall have done in five minutes."
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|
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"There is no hurry on my side. I am only ready whenever you are.
|
|
I am in very good anchorage here," (smiling at Anne,) "well supplied,
|
|
and want for nothing. No hurry for a signal at all. Well, Miss Elliot,"
|
|
(lowering his voice,) "as I was saying we shall never agree,
|
|
I suppose, upon this point. No man and woman, would, probably.
|
|
But let me observe that all histories are against you--all stories,
|
|
prose and verse. If I had such a memory as Benwick, I could bring you
|
|
fifty quotations in a moment on my side the argument, and I do not think
|
|
I ever opened a book in my life which had not something to say
|
|
upon woman's inconstancy. Songs and proverbs, all talk
|
|
of woman's fickleness. But perhaps you will say, these were all
|
|
written by men."
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|
|
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"Perhaps I shall. Yes, yes, if you please, no reference to examples
|
|
in books. Men have had every advantage of us in telling their own story.
|
|
Education has been theirs in so much higher a degree; the pen has
|
|
been in their hands. I will not allow books to prove anything."
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|
|
"But how shall we prove anything?"
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|
|
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"We never shall. We never can expect to prove any thing upon such a point.
|
|
It is a difference of opinion which does not admit of proof.
|
|
We each begin, probably, with a little bias towards our own sex;
|
|
and upon that bias build every circumstance in favour of it
|
|
which has occurred within our own circle; many of which circumstances
|
|
(perhaps those very cases which strike us the most) may be precisely such
|
|
as cannot be brought forward without betraying a confidence,
|
|
or in some respect saying what should not be said."
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|
"Ah!" cried Captain Harville, in a tone of strong feeling,
|
|
"if I could but make you comprehend what a man suffers when he takes
|
|
a last look at his wife and children, and watches the boat
|
|
that he has sent them off in, as long as it is in sight,
|
|
and then turns away and says, `God knows whether we ever meet again!'
|
|
And then, if I could convey to you the glow of his soul when he does
|
|
see them again; when, coming back after a twelvemonth's absence,
|
|
perhaps, and obliged to put into another port, he calculates how soon
|
|
it be possible to get them there, pretending to deceive himself,
|
|
and saying, `They cannot be here till such a day,' but all the while
|
|
hoping for them twelve hours sooner, and seeing them arrive at last,
|
|
as if Heaven had given them wings, by many hours sooner still!
|
|
If I could explain to you all this, and all that a man can bear and do,
|
|
and glories to do, for the sake of these treasures of his existence!
|
|
I speak, you know, only of such men as have hearts!" pressing his own
|
|
with emotion.
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|
"Oh!" cried Anne eagerly, "I hope I do justice to all that is felt by you,
|
|
and by those who resemble you. God forbid that I should undervalue
|
|
the warm and faithful feelings of any of my fellow-creatures!
|
|
I should deserve utter contempt if I dared to suppose that true attachment
|
|
and constancy were known only by woman. No, I believe you capable
|
|
of everything great and good in your married lives. I believe you equal
|
|
to every important exertion, and to every domestic forbearance,
|
|
so long as--if I may be allowed the expression--so long as you have
|
|
an object. I mean while the woman you love lives, and lives for you.
|
|
All the privilege I claim for my own sex (it is not a very enviable one;
|
|
you need not covet it), is that of loving longest, when existence
|
|
or when hope is gone."
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|
|
She could not immediately have uttered another sentence; her heart
|
|
was too full, her breath too much oppressed.
|
|
|
|
"You are a good soul," cried Captain Harville, putting his hand
|
|
on her arm, quite affectionately. "There is no quarreling with you.
|
|
And when I think of Benwick, my tongue is tied."
|
|
|
|
Their attention was called towards the others. Mrs Croft was taking leave.
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|
|
|
"Here, Frederick, you and I part company, I believe," said she.
|
|
"I am going home, and you have an engagement with your friend.
|
|
To-night we may have the pleasure of all meeting again at your party,"
|
|
(turning to Anne.) "We had your sister's card yesterday,
|
|
and I understood Frederick had a card too, though I did not see it;
|
|
and you are disengaged, Frederick, are you not, as well as ourselves?"
|
|
|
|
Captain Wentworth was folding up a letter in great haste, and either
|
|
could not or would not answer fully.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said he, "very true; here we separate, but Harville and I
|
|
shall soon be after you; that is, Harville, if you are ready,
|
|
I am in half a minute. I know you will not be sorry to be off.
|
|
I shall be at your service in half a minute."
|
|
|
|
Mrs Croft left them, and Captain Wentworth, having sealed his letter
|
|
with great rapidity, was indeed ready, and had even a hurried,
|
|
agitated air, which shewed impatience to be gone. Anne know not how
|
|
to understand it. She had the kindest "Good morning, God bless you!"
|
|
from Captain Harville, but from him not a word, nor a look!
|
|
He had passed out of the room without a look!
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|
|
|
She had only time, however, to move closer to the table where
|
|
he had been writing, when footsteps were heard returning;
|
|
the door opened, it was himself. He begged their pardon,
|
|
but he had forgotten his gloves, and instantly crossing the room
|
|
to the writing table, he drew out a letter from under the scattered paper,
|
|
placed it before Anne with eyes of glowing entreaty fixed on her
|
|
for a time, and hastily collecting his gloves, was again out of the room,
|
|
almost before Mrs Musgrove was aware of his being in it:
|
|
the work of an instant!
|
|
|
|
The revolution which one instant had made in Anne, was almost
|
|
beyond expression. The letter, with a direction hardly legible,
|
|
to "Miss A. E.--," was evidently the one which he had been folding
|
|
so hastily. While supposed to be writing only to Captain Benwick,
|
|
he had been also addressing her! On the contents of that letter
|
|
depended all which this world could do for her. Anything was possible,
|
|
anything might be defied rather than suspense. Mrs Musgrove had
|
|
little arrangements of her own at her own table; to their protection
|
|
she must trust, and sinking into the chair which he had occupied,
|
|
succeeding to the very spot where he had leaned and written,
|
|
her eyes devoured the following words:
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"I can listen no longer in silence. I must speak to you by such means
|
|
as are within my reach. You pierce my soul. I am half agony,
|
|
half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings
|
|
are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart
|
|
even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years
|
|
and a half ago. Dare not say that man forgets sooner than woman,
|
|
that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you.
|
|
Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been,
|
|
but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath.
|
|
For you alone, I think and plan. Have you not seen this?
|
|
Can you fail to have understood my wishes? I had not waited even
|
|
these ten days, could I have read your feelings, as I think you must have
|
|
penetrated mine. I can hardly write. I am every instant hearing
|
|
something which overpowers me. You sink your voice, but I can
|
|
distinguish the tones of that voice when they would be lost on others.
|
|
Too good, too excellent creature! You do us justice, indeed.
|
|
You do believe that there is true attachment and constancy among men.
|
|
Believe it to be most fervent, most undeviating, in F. W.
|
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|
|
"I must go, uncertain of my fate; but I shall return hither,
|
|
or follow your party, as soon as possible. A word, a look,
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will be enough to decide whether I enter your father's house
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this evening or never."
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Such a letter was not to be soon recovered from. Half and hour's solitude
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and reflection might have tranquillized her; but the ten minutes only
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which now passed before she was interrupted, with all the restraints
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of her situation, could do nothing towards tranquillity. Every moment
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rather brought fresh agitation. It was overpowering happiness.
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And before she was beyond the first stage of full sensation,
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Charles, Mary, and Henrietta all came in.
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The absolute necessity of seeming like herself produced then
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an immediate struggle; but after a while she could do no more.
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She began not to understand a word they said, and was obliged
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to plead indisposition and excuse herself. They could then see
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that she looked very ill, were shocked and concerned, and would not
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stir without her for the world. This was dreadful. Would they only
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have gone away, and left her in the quiet possession of that room
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it would have been her cure; but to have them all standing or
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waiting around her was distracting, and in desperation,
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she said she would go home.
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"By all means, my dear," cried Mrs Musgrove, "go home directly,
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and take care of yourself, that you may be fit for the evening.
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I wish Sarah was here to doctor you, but I am no doctor myself.
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Charles, ring and order a chair. She must not walk."
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But the chair would never do. Worse than all! To lose the possibility
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of speaking two words to Captain Wentworth in the course of her quiet,
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solitary progress up the town (and she felt almost certain of meeting him)
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could not be borne. The chair was earnestly protested against,
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and Mrs Musgrove, who thought only of one sort of illness,
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having assured herself with some anxiety, that there had been no fall
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in the case; that Anne had not at any time lately slipped down,
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and got a blow on her head; that she was perfectly convinced of having
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had no fall; could part with her cheerfully, and depend on
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finding her better at night.
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Anxious to omit no possible precaution, Anne struggled, and said--
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"I am afraid, ma'am, that it is not perfectly understood.
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Pray be so good as to mention to the other gentlemen that we hope
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to see your whole party this evening. I am afraid there had been
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some mistake; and I wish you particularly to assure Captain Harville
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and Captain Wentworth, that we hope to see them both."
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"Oh! my dear, it is quite understood, I give you my word.
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Captain Harville has no thought but of going."
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"Do you think so? But I am afraid; and I should be so very sorry.
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Will you promise me to mention it, when you see them again?
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You will see them both this morning, I dare say. Do promise me."
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"To be sure I will, if you wish it. Charles, if you see Captain Harville
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anywhere, remember to give Miss Anne's message. But indeed, my dear,
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you need not be uneasy. Captain Harville holds himself quite engaged,
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I'll answer for it; and Captain Wentworth the same, I dare say."
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Anne could do no more; but her heart prophesied some mischance
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to damp the perfection of her felicity. It could not be very lasting,
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however. Even if he did not come to Camden Place himself,
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it would be in her power to send an intelligible sentence
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by Captain Harville. Another momentary vexation occurred.
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Charles, in his real concern and good nature, would go home with her;
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there was no preventing him. This was almost cruel. But she could not
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be long ungrateful; he was sacrificing an engagement at a gunsmith's,
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to be of use to her; and she set off with him, with no feeling
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but gratitude apparent.
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They were on Union Street, when a quicker step behind, a something
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of familiar sound, gave her two moments' preparation for the sight
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of Captain Wentworth. He joined them; but, as if irresolute
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whether to join or to pass on, said nothing, only looked.
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Anne could command herself enough to receive that look,
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and not repulsively. The cheeks which had been pale now glowed,
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and the movements which had hesitated were decided. He walked by her side.
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Presently, struck by a sudden thought, Charles said--
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"Captain Wentworth, which way are you going? Only to Gay Street,
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or farther up the town?"
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"I hardly know," replied Captain Wentworth, surprised.
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"Are you going as high as Belmont? Are you going near Camden Place?
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Because, if you are, I shall have no scruple in asking you
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to take my place, and give Anne your arm to her father's door.
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She is rather done for this morning, and must not go so far without help,
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and I ought to be at that fellow's in the Market Place.
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He promised me the sight of a capital gun he is just going to send off;
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said he would keep it unpacked to the last possible moment,
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that I might see it; and if I do not turn back now, I have no chance.
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By his description, a good deal like the second size double-barrel of mine,
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which you shot with one day round Winthrop."
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There could not be an objection. There could be only the most
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proper alacrity, a most obliging compliance for public view;
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and smiles reined in and spirits dancing in private rapture.
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In half a minute Charles was at the bottom of Union Street again,
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and the other two proceeding together: and soon words enough had passed
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between them to decide their direction towards the comparatively quiet
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and retired gravel walk, where the power of conversation would make
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the present hour a blessing indeed, and prepare it for all
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the immortality which the happiest recollections of their own future lives
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could bestow. There they exchanged again those feelings
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and those promises which had once before seemed to secure everything,
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but which had been followed by so many, many years of division
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and estrangement. There they returned again into the past,
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more exquisitely happy, perhaps, in their re-union, than when
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it had been first projected; more tender, more tried, more fixed
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in a knowledge of each other's character, truth, and attachment;
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more equal to act, more justified in acting. And there, as they slowly
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paced the gradual ascent, heedless of every group around them,
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seeing neither sauntering politicians, bustling housekeepers,
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flirting girls, nor nursery-maids and children, they could indulge in
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those retrospections and acknowledgements, and especially in
|
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those explanations of what had directly preceded the present moment,
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which were so poignant and so ceaseless in interest. All the little
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|
variations of the last week were gone through; and of yesterday
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|
and today there could scarcely be an end.
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She had not mistaken him. Jealousy of Mr Elliot had been
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the retarding weight, the doubt, the torment. That had begun to operate
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in the very hour of first meeting her in Bath; that had returned,
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after a short suspension, to ruin the concert; and that had influenced him
|
|
in everything he had said and done, or omitted to say and do,
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|
in the last four-and-twenty hours. It had been gradually yielding
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|
to the better hopes which her looks, or words, or actions
|
|
occasionally encouraged; it had been vanquished at last by
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those sentiments and those tones which had reached him while she talked
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with Captain Harville; and under the irresistible governance of which
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he had seized a sheet of paper, and poured out his feelings.
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Of what he had then written, nothing was to be retracted or qualified.
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|
He persisted in having loved none but her. She had never been supplanted.
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|
He never even believed himself to see her equal. Thus much indeed
|
|
he was obliged to acknowledge: that he had been constant unconsciously,
|
|
nay unintentionally; that he had meant to forget her, and believed it
|
|
to be done. He had imagined himself indifferent, when he had only
|
|
been angry; and he had been unjust to her merits, because he had been
|
|
a sufferer from them. Her character was now fixed on his mind
|
|
as perfection itself, maintaining the loveliest medium of fortitude
|
|
and gentleness; but he was obliged to acknowledge that only at Uppercross
|
|
had he learnt to do her justice, and only at Lyme had he begun
|
|
to understand himself. At Lyme, he had received lessons
|
|
of more than one sort. The passing admiration of Mr Elliot
|
|
had at least roused him, and the scenes on the Cobb and at
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|
Captain Harville's had fixed her superiority.
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|
|
|
In his preceding attempts to attach himself to Louisa Musgrove
|
|
(the attempts of angry pride), he protested that he had for ever
|
|
felt it to be impossible; that he had not cared, could not care,
|
|
for Louisa; though till that day, till the leisure for reflection
|
|
which followed it, he had not understood the perfect excellence
|
|
of the mind with which Louisa's could so ill bear a comparison,
|
|
or the perfect unrivalled hold it possessed over his own.
|
|
There, he had learnt to distinguish between the steadiness of principle
|
|
and the obstinacy of self-will, between the darings of heedlessness
|
|
and the resolution of a collected mind. There he had seen everything
|
|
to exalt in his estimation the woman he had lost; and there begun
|
|
to deplore the pride, the folly, the madness of resentment,
|
|
which had kept him from trying to regain her when thrown in his way.
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|
|
|
From that period his penance had become severe. He had no sooner
|
|
been free from the horror and remorse attending the first few days
|
|
of Louisa's accident, no sooner begun to feel himself alive again,
|
|
than he had begun to feel himself, though alive, not at liberty.
|
|
|
|
"I found," said he, "that I was considered by Harville an engaged man!
|
|
That neither Harville nor his wife entertained a doubt of our
|
|
mutual attachment. I was startled and shocked. To a degree,
|
|
I could contradict this instantly; but, when I began to reflect
|
|
that others might have felt the same--her own family, nay,
|
|
perhaps herself--I was no longer at my own disposal. I was hers in honour
|
|
if she wished it. I had been unguarded. I had not thought seriously
|
|
on this subject before. I had not considered that my excessive intimacy
|
|
must have its danger of ill consequence in many ways; and that I had
|
|
no right to be trying whether I could attach myself to either of the girls,
|
|
at the risk of raising even an unpleasant report, were there no other
|
|
ill effects. I had been grossly wrong, and must abide the consequences."
|
|
|
|
He found too late, in short, that he had entangled himself;
|
|
and that precisely as he became fully satisfied of his not caring
|
|
for Louisa at all, he must regard himself as bound to her,
|
|
if her sentiments for him were what the Harvilles supposed.
|
|
It determined him to leave Lyme, and await her complete recovery elsewhere.
|
|
He would gladly weaken, by any fair means, whatever feelings or
|
|
speculations concerning him might exist; and he went, therefore,
|
|
to his brother's, meaning after a while to return to Kellynch,
|
|
and act as circumstances might require.
|
|
|
|
"I was six weeks with Edward," said he, "and saw him happy.
|
|
I could have no other pleasure. I deserved none. He enquired after you
|
|
very particularly; asked even if you were personally altered,
|
|
little suspecting that to my eye you could never alter."
|
|
|
|
Anne smiled, and let it pass. It was too pleasing a blunder
|
|
for a reproach. It is something for a woman to be assured,
|
|
in her eight-and-twentieth year, that she has not lost one charm
|
|
of earlier youth; but the value of such homage was inexpressibly increased
|
|
to Anne, by comparing it with former words, and feeling it to be
|
|
the result, not the cause of a revival of his warm attachment.
|
|
|
|
He had remained in Shropshire, lamenting the blindness of his own pride,
|
|
and the blunders of his own calculations, till at once released from Louisa
|
|
by the astonishing and felicitous intelligence of her engagement
|
|
with Benwick.
|
|
|
|
"Here," said he, "ended the worst of my state; for now I could at least
|
|
put myself in the way of happiness; I could exert myself;
|
|
I could do something. But to be waiting so long in inaction,
|
|
and waiting only for evil, had been dreadful. Within the first
|
|
five minutes I said, `I will be at Bath on Wednesday,' and I was.
|
|
Was it unpardonable to think it worth my while to come? and to arrive
|
|
with some degree of hope? You were single. It was possible that
|
|
you might retain the feelings of the past, as I did; and one encouragement
|
|
happened to be mine. I could never doubt that you would be loved and
|
|
sought by others, but I knew to a certainty that you had refused one man,
|
|
at least, of better pretensions than myself; and I could not help
|
|
often saying, `Was this for me?'"
|
|
|
|
Their first meeting in Milsom Street afforded much to be said,
|
|
but the concert still more. That evening seemed to be made up
|
|
of exquisite moments. The moment of her stepping forward
|
|
in the Octagon Room to speak to him: the moment of Mr Elliot's appearing
|
|
and tearing her away, and one or two subsequent moments,
|
|
marked by returning hope or increasing despondency, were dwelt on
|
|
with energy.
|
|
|
|
"To see you," cried he, "in the midst of those who could not be
|
|
my well-wishers; to see your cousin close by you, conversing and smiling,
|
|
and feel all the horrible eligibilities and proprieties of the match!
|
|
To consider it as the certain wish of every being who could hope
|
|
to influence you! Even if your own feelings were reluctant or indifferent,
|
|
to consider what powerful supports would be his! Was it not enough
|
|
to make the fool of me which I appeared? How could I look on
|
|
without agony? Was not the very sight of the friend who sat behind you,
|
|
was not the recollection of what had been, the knowledge of her influence,
|
|
the indelible, immoveable impression of what persuasion had once done--
|
|
was it not all against me?"
|
|
|
|
"You should have distinguished," replied Anne. "You should not have
|
|
suspected me now; the case is so different, and my age is so different.
|
|
If I was wrong in yielding to persuasion once, remember that
|
|
it was to persuasion exerted on the side of safety, not of risk.
|
|
When I yielded, I thought it was to duty, but no duty could be called
|
|
in aid here. In marrying a man indifferent to me, all risk
|
|
would have been incurred, and all duty violated."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps I ought to have reasoned thus," he replied, "but I could not.
|
|
I could not derive benefit from the late knowledge I had acquired
|
|
of your character. I could not bring it into play; it was overwhelmed,
|
|
buried, lost in those earlier feelings which I had been smarting under
|
|
year after year. I could think of you only as one who had yielded,
|
|
who had given me up, who had been influenced by any one rather than by me.
|
|
I saw you with the very person who had guided you in that year of misery.
|
|
I had no reason to believe her of less authority now. The force of habit
|
|
was to be added."
|
|
|
|
"I should have thought," said Anne, "that my manner to yourself
|
|
might have spared you much or all of this."
|
|
|
|
"No, no! your manner might be only the ease which your engagement
|
|
to another man would give. I left you in this belief; and yet,
|
|
I was determined to see you again. My spirits rallied with the morning,
|
|
and I felt that I had still a motive for remaining here."
|
|
|
|
At last Anne was at home again, and happier than any one in that house
|
|
could have conceived. All the surprise and suspense, and every other
|
|
painful part of the morning dissipated by this conversation,
|
|
she re-entered the house so happy as to be obliged to find an alloy
|
|
in some momentary apprehensions of its being impossible to last.
|
|
An interval of meditation, serious and grateful, was the best corrective
|
|
of everything dangerous in such high-wrought felicity; and she went
|
|
to her room, and grew steadfast and fearless in the thankfulness
|
|
of her enjoyment.
|
|
|
|
The evening came, the drawing-rooms were lighted up, the company assembled.
|
|
It was but a card party, it was but a mixture of those who had
|
|
never met before, and those who met too often; a commonplace business,
|
|
too numerous for intimacy, too small for variety; but Anne had never found
|
|
an evening shorter. Glowing and lovely in sensibility and happiness,
|
|
and more generally admired than she thought about or cared for,
|
|
she had cheerful or forbearing feelings for every creature around her.
|
|
Mr Elliot was there; she avoided, but she could pity him.
|
|
The Wallises, she had amusement in understanding them. Lady Dalrymple
|
|
and Miss Carteret--they would soon be innoxious cousins to her.
|
|
She cared not for Mrs Clay, and had nothing to blush for in
|
|
the public manners of her father and sister. With the Musgroves,
|
|
there was the happy chat of perfect ease; with Captain Harville,
|
|
the kind-hearted intercourse of brother and sister; with Lady Russell,
|
|
attempts at conversation, which a delicious consciousness cut short;
|
|
with Admiral and Mrs Croft, everything of peculiar cordiality and
|
|
fervent interest, which the same consciousness sought to conceal;
|
|
and with Captain Wentworth, some moments of communications
|
|
continually occurring, and always the hope of more, and always
|
|
the knowledge of his being there.
|
|
|
|
It was in one of these short meetings, each apparently occupied
|
|
in admiring a fine display of greenhouse plants, that she said--
|
|
|
|
"I have been thinking over the past, and trying impartially
|
|
to judge of the right and wrong, I mean with regard to myself;
|
|
and I must believe that I was right, much as I suffered from it,
|
|
that I was perfectly right in being guided by the friend whom
|
|
you will love better than you do now. To me, she was in the place
|
|
of a parent. Do not mistake me, however. I am not saying
|
|
that she did not err in her advice. It was, perhaps, one of those cases
|
|
in which advice is good or bad only as the event decides;
|
|
and for myself, I certainly never should, in any circumstance
|
|
of tolerable similarity, give such advice. But I mean, that I was right
|
|
in submitting to her, and that if I had done otherwise, I should have
|
|
suffered more in continuing the engagement than I did even in giving it up,
|
|
because I should have suffered in my conscience. I have now,
|
|
as far as such a sentiment is allowable in human nature, nothing
|
|
to reproach myself with; and if I mistake not, a strong sense of duty
|
|
is no bad part of a woman's portion."
|
|
|
|
He looked at her, looked at Lady Russell, and looking again at her,
|
|
replied, as if in cool deliberation--
|
|
|
|
"Not yet. But there are hopes of her being forgiven in time.
|
|
I trust to being in charity with her soon. But I too have been
|
|
thinking over the past, and a question has suggested itself,
|
|
whether there may not have been one person more my enemy
|
|
even than that lady? My own self. Tell me if, when I returned
|
|
to England in the year eight, with a few thousand pounds,
|
|
and was posted into the Laconia, if I had then written to you,
|
|
would you have answered my letter? Would you, in short,
|
|
have renewed the engagement then?"
|
|
|
|
"Would I!" was all her answer; but the accent was decisive enough.
|
|
|
|
"Good God!" he cried, "you would! It is not that I did not think of it,
|
|
or desire it, as what could alone crown all my other success;
|
|
but I was proud, too proud to ask again. I did not understand you.
|
|
I shut my eyes, and would not understand you, or do you justice.
|
|
This is a recollection which ought to make me forgive every one
|
|
sooner than myself. Six years of separation and suffering
|
|
might have been spared. It is a sort of pain, too, which is new to me.
|
|
I have been used to the gratification of believing myself to earn
|
|
every blessing that I enjoyed. I have valued myself on honourable toils
|
|
and just rewards. Like other great men under reverses," he added,
|
|
with a smile. "I must endeavour to subdue my mind to my fortune.
|
|
I must learn to brook being happier than I deserve."
|
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|
Chapter 24
|
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|
|
Who can be in doubt of what followed? When any two young people
|
|
take it into their heads to marry, they are pretty sure by perseverance
|
|
to carry their point, be they ever so poor, or ever so imprudent,
|
|
or ever so little likely to be necessary to each other's ultimate comfort.
|
|
This may be bad morality to conclude with, but I believe it to be truth;
|
|
and if such parties succeed, how should a Captain Wentworth and
|
|
an Anne Elliot, with the advantage of maturity of mind,
|
|
consciousness of right, and one independent fortune between them,
|
|
fail of bearing down every opposition? They might in fact,
|
|
have borne down a great deal more than they met with, for there was
|
|
little to distress them beyond the want of graciousness and warmth.
|
|
Sir Walter made no objection, and Elizabeth did nothing worse
|
|
than look cold and unconcerned. Captain Wentworth, with five-and-twenty
|
|
thousand pounds, and as high in his profession as merit and activity
|
|
could place him, was no longer nobody. He was now esteemed quite worthy
|
|
to address the daughter of a foolish, spendthrift baronet,
|
|
who had not had principle or sense enough to maintain himself
|
|
in the situation in which Providence had placed him, and who could
|
|
give his daughter at present but a small part of the share
|
|
of ten thousand pounds which must be hers hereafter.
|
|
|
|
Sir Walter, indeed, though he had no affection for Anne,
|
|
and no vanity flattered, to make him really happy on the occasion,
|
|
was very far from thinking it a bad match for her. On the contrary,
|
|
when he saw more of Captain Wentworth, saw him repeatedly by daylight,
|
|
and eyed him well, he was very much struck by his personal claims,
|
|
and felt that his superiority of appearance might be not unfairly balanced
|
|
against her superiority of rank; and all this, assisted by
|
|
his well-sounding name, enabled Sir Walter at last to prepare his pen,
|
|
with a very good grace, for the insertion of the marriage
|
|
in the volume of honour.
|
|
|
|
The only one among them, whose opposition of feeling could excite
|
|
any serious anxiety was Lady Russell. Anne knew that Lady Russell
|
|
must be suffering some pain in understanding and relinquishing Mr Elliot,
|
|
and be making some struggles to become truly acquainted with,
|
|
and do justice to Captain Wentworth. This however was what
|
|
Lady Russell had now to do. She must learn to feel that she had
|
|
been mistaken with regard to both; that she had been unfairly influenced
|
|
by appearances in each; that because Captain Wentworth's manners
|
|
had not suited her own ideas, she had been too quick in suspecting them
|
|
to indicate a character of dangerous impetuosity; and that because
|
|
Mr Elliot's manners had precisely pleased her in their propriety
|
|
and correctness, their general politeness and suavity, she had been
|
|
too quick in receiving them as the certain result of the most correct
|
|
opinions and well-regulated mind. There was nothing less
|
|
for Lady Russell to do, than to admit that she had been
|
|
pretty completely wrong, and to take up a new set of opinions
|
|
and of hopes.
|
|
|
|
There is a quickness of perception in some, a nicety in the discernment
|
|
of character, a natural penetration, in short, which no experience
|
|
in others can equal, and Lady Russell had been less gifted
|
|
in this part of understanding than her young friend. But she was
|
|
a very good woman, and if her second object was to be sensible
|
|
and well-judging, her first was to see Anne happy. She loved Anne
|
|
better than she loved her own abilities; and when the awkwardness
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of the beginning was over, found little hardship in attaching herself
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as a mother to the man who was securing the happiness of her other child.
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Of all the family, Mary was probably the one most immediately gratified
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by the circumstance. It was creditable to have a sister married,
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and she might flatter herself with having been greatly instrumental
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to the connexion, by keeping Anne with her in the autumn;
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and as her own sister must be better than her husband's sisters,
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it was very agreeable that Captain Wentworth should be a richer man than
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either Captain Benwick or Charles Hayter. She had something to suffer,
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perhaps, when they came into contact again, in seeing Anne restored
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to the rights of seniority, and the mistress of a very pretty landaulette;
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but she had a future to look forward to, of powerful consolation.
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Anne had no Uppercross Hall before her, no landed estate,
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no headship of a family; and if they could but keep Captain Wentworth
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from being made a baronet, she would not change situations with Anne.
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It would be well for the eldest sister if she were equally satisfied
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with her situation, for a change is not very probable there.
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She had soon the mortification of seeing Mr Elliot withdraw,
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and no one of proper condition has since presented himself to raise
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even the unfounded hopes which sunk with him.
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The news of his cousins Anne's engagement burst on Mr Elliot
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most unexpectedly. It deranged his best plan of domestic happiness,
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his best hope of keeping Sir Walter single by the watchfulness
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which a son-in-law's rights would have given. But, though discomfited
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and disappointed, he could still do something for his own interest
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and his own enjoyment. He soon quitted Bath; and on Mrs Clay's
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quitting it soon afterwards, and being next heard of as established
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under his protection in London, it was evident how double a game
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he had been playing, and how determined he was to save himself
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from being cut out by one artful woman, at least.
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Mrs Clay's affections had overpowered her interest, and she had sacrificed,
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for the young man's sake, the possibility of scheming longer
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for Sir Walter. She has abilities, however, as well as affections;
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and it is now a doubtful point whether his cunning, or hers,
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may finally carry the day; whether, after preventing her from being
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the wife of Sir Walter, he may not be wheedled and caressed at last
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into making her the wife of Sir William.
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It cannot be doubted that Sir Walter and Elizabeth were shocked
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and mortified by the loss of their companion, and the discovery of
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their deception in her. They had their great cousins, to be sure,
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to resort to for comfort; but they must long feel that to flatter
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and follow others, without being flattered and followed in turn,
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is but a state of half enjoyment.
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Anne, satisfied at a very early period of Lady Russell's meaning
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to love Captain Wentworth as she ought, had no other alloy
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to the happiness of her prospects than what arose from the consciousness
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of having no relations to bestow on him which a man of sense could value.
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There she felt her own inferiority very keenly. The disproportion
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in their fortune was nothing; it did not give her a moment's regret;
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but to have no family to receive and estimate him properly,
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nothing of respectability, of harmony, of good will to offer
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in return for all the worth and all the prompt welcome which met her
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in his brothers and sisters, was a source of as lively pain
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as her mind could well be sensible of under circumstances of otherwise
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strong felicity. She had but two friends in the world to add to his list,
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Lady Russell and Mrs Smith. To those, however, he was very well disposed
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to attach himself. Lady Russell, in spite of all her former transgressions,
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he could now value from his heart. While he was not obliged to say
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that he believed her to have been right in originally dividing them,
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he was ready to say almost everything else in her favour,
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and as for Mrs Smith, she had claims of various kinds to recommend her
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quickly and permanently.
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Her recent good offices by Anne had been enough in themselves,
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and their marriage, instead of depriving her of one friend,
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secured her two. She was their earliest visitor in their settled life;
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and Captain Wentworth, by putting her in the way of recovering
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her husband's property in the West Indies, by writing for her,
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acting for her, and seeing her through all the petty difficulties
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of the case with the activity and exertion of a fearless man
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and a determined friend, fully requited the services which
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she had rendered, or ever meant to render, to his wife.
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Mrs Smith's enjoyments were not spoiled by this improvement of income,
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with some improvement of health, and the acquisition of such friends
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to be often with, for her cheerfulness and mental alacrity did not
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fail her; and while these prime supplies of good remained, she might have
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bid defiance even to greater accessions of worldly prosperity.
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She might have been absolutely rich and perfectly healthy,
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and yet be happy. Her spring of felicity was in the glow
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of her spirits, as her friend Anne's was in the warmth of her heart.
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Anne was tenderness itself, and she had the full worth of it
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in Captain Wentworth's affection. His profession was all that could ever
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make her friends wish that tenderness less, the dread of a future war
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all that could dim her sunshine. She gloried in being a sailor's wife,
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but she must pay the tax of quick alarm for belonging to that profession
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which is, if possible, more distinguished in its domestic virtues
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than in its national importance.
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Finis
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