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A Pair of Blue Eyes
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by Thomas Hardy
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'A violet in the youth of primy nature,
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Forward, not permanent, sweet not lasting,
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The perfume and suppliance of a minute;
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No more.'
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PREFACE
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The following chapters were written at a time when the craze for
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indiscriminate church-restoration had just reached the remotest
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nooks of western England, where the wild and tragic features of
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the coast had long combined in perfect harmony with the crude
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Gothic Art of the ecclesiastical buildings scattered along it,
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throwing into extraordinary discord all architectural attempts at
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newness there. To restore the grey carcases of a mediaevalism
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whose spirit had fled, seemed a not less incongruous act than to
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set about renovating the adjoining crags themselves.
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Hence it happened that an imaginary history of three human hearts,
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whose emotions were not without correspondence with these material
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circumstances, found in the ordinary incidents of such church-
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renovations a fitting frame for its presentation.
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The shore and country about 'Castle Boterel' is now getting well
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known, and will be readily recognized. The spot is, I may add,
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the furthest westward of all those convenient corners wherein I
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have ventured to erect my theatre for these imperfect little
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dramas of country life and passions; and it lies near to, or no
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great way beyond, the vague border of the Wessex kingdom on that
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side, which, like the westering verge of modern American
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settlements, was progressive and uncertain.
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This, however, is of little importance. The place is pre-
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eminently (for one person at least) the region of dream and
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mystery. The ghostly birds, the pall-like sea, the frothy wind,
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the eternal soliloquy of the waters, the bloom of dark purple
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cast, that seems to exhale from the shoreward precipices, in
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themselves lend to the scene an atmosphere like the twilight of a
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night vision.
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One enormous sea-bord cliff in particular figures in the
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narrative; and for some forgotten reason or other this cliff was
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described in the story as being without a name. Accuracy would
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require the statement to be that a remarkable cliff which
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resembles in many points the cliff of the description bears a name
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that no event has made famous.
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T. H.
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March 1899
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THE PERSONS
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ELFRIDE SWANCOURT a young Lady
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CHRISTOPHER SWANCOURT a Clergyman
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STEPHEN SMITH an Architect
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HENRY KNIGHT a Reviewer and Essayist
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CHARLOTTE TROYTON a rich Widow
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GERTRUDE JETHWAY a poor Widow
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SPENSER HUGO LUXELLIAN a Peer
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LADY LUXELLIAN his Wife
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MARY AND KATE two little Girls
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WILLIAM WORM a dazed Factotum
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JOHN SMITH a Master-mason
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JANE SMITH his Wife
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MARTIN CANNISTER a Sexton
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UNITY a Maid-servant
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Other servants, masons, labourers, grooms, nondescripts, etc., etc.
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THE SCENE
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Mostly on the outskirts of Lower Wessex.
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Chapter I
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'A fair vestal, throned in the west'
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Elfride Swancourt was a girl whose emotions lay very near the
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surface. Their nature more precisely, and as modified by the
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creeping hours of time, was known only to those who watched the
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circumstances of her history.
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Personally, she was the combination of very interesting
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particulars, whose rarity, however, lay in the combination itself
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rather than in the individual elements combined. As a matter of
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fact, you did not see the form and substance of her features when
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conversing with her; and this charming power of preventing a
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material study of her lineaments by an interlocutor, originated
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not in the cloaking effect of a well-formed manner (for her manner
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was childish and scarcely formed), but in the attractive crudeness
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of the remarks themselves. She had lived all her life in
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retirement--the monstrari gigito of idle men had not flattered
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her, and at the age of nineteen or twenty she was no further on in
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social consciousness than an urban young lady of fifteen.
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One point in her, however, you did notice: that was her eyes. In
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them was seen a sublimation of all of her; it was not necessary to
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look further: there she lived.
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These eyes were blue; blue as autumn distance--blue as the blue we
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see between the retreating mouldings of hills and woody slopes on
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a sunny September morning. A misty and shady blue, that had no
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beginning or surface, and was looked INTO rather than AT.
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As to her presence, it was not powerful; it was weak. Some women
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can make their personality pervade the atmosphere of a whole
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banqueting hall; Elfride's was no more pervasive than that of a
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kitten.
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Elfride had as her own the thoughtfulness which appears in the
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face of the Madonna della Sedia, without its rapture: the warmth
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and spirit of the type of woman's feature most common to the
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beauties--mortal and immortal--of Rubens, without their insistent
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fleshiness. The characteristic expression of the female faces of
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Correggio--that of the yearning human thoughts that lie too deep
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for tears--was hers sometimes, but seldom under ordinary
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conditions.
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The point in Elfride Swancourt's life at which a deeper current
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may be said to have permanently set in, was one winter afternoon
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when she found herself standing, in the character of hostess, face
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to face with a man she had never seen before--moreover, looking at
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him with a Miranda-like curiosity and interest that she had never
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yet bestowed on a mortal.
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On this particular day her father, the vicar of a parish on the
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sea-swept outskirts of Lower Wessex, and a widower, was suffering
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from an attack of gout. After finishing her household
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supervisions Elfride became restless, and several times left the
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room, ascended the staircase, and knocked at her father's chamber-
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door.
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'Come in!' was always answered in a hearty out-of-door voice from
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the inside.
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'Papa,' she said on one occasion to the fine, red-faced, handsome
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man of forty, who, puffing and fizzing like a bursting bottle, lay
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on the bed wrapped in a dressing-gown, and every now and then
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enunciating, in spite of himself, about one letter of some word or
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words that were almost oaths; 'papa, will you not come downstairs
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this evening?' She spoke distinctly: he was rather deaf.
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'Afraid not--eh-hh !--very much afraid I shall not, Elfride.
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Piph-ph-ph! I can't bear even a handkerchief upon this deuced toe
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of mine, much less a stocking or slipper--piph-ph-ph! There 'tis
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again! No, I shan't get up till to-morrow.'
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'Then I hope this London man won't come; for I don't know what I
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should do, papa.'
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'Well, it would be awkward, certainly.'
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'I should hardly think he would come to-day.'
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'Why?'
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'Because the wind blows so.'
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'Wind! What ideas you have, Elfride! Who ever heard of wind
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stopping a man from doing his business? The idea of this toe of
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mine coming on so suddenly!...If he should come, you must send him
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up to me, I suppose, and then give him some food and put him to
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bed in some way. Dear me, what a nuisance all this is!'
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'Must he have dinner?'
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'Too heavy for a tired man at the end of a tedious journey.'
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'Tea, then?'
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'Not substantial enough.'
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'High tea, then? There is cold fowl, rabbit-pie, some pasties, and
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things of that kind.'
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'Yes, high tea.'
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'Must I pour out his tea, papa?'
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'Of course; you are the mistress of the house.'
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'What! sit there all the time with a stranger, just as if I knew
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him, and not anybody to introduce us?'
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'Nonsense, child, about introducing; you know better than that. A
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practical professional man, tired and hungry, who has been
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travelling ever since daylight this morning, will hardly be
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inclined to talk and air courtesies to-night. He wants food and
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shelter, and you must see that he has it, simply because I am
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suddenly laid up and cannot. There is nothing so dreadful in
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that, I hope? You get all kinds of stuff into your head from
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reading so many of those novels.'
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'Oh no; there is nothing dreadful in it when it becomes plainly a
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case of necessity like this. But, you see, you are always there
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when people come to dinner, even if we know them; and this is some
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strange London man of the world, who will think it odd, perhaps.'
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'Very well; let him.'
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'Is he Mr. Hewby's partner?'
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'I should scarcely think so: he may be.'
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'How old is he, I wonder?'
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'That I cannot tell. You will find the copy of my letter to Mr.
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Hewby, and his answer, upon the table in the study. You may read
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them, and then you'll know as much as I do about our visitor.'
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'I have read them.'
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'Well, what's the use of asking questions, then? They contain all
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I know. Ugh-h-h!...Od plague you, you young scamp! don't put
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anything there! I can't bear the weight of a fly.'
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'Oh, I am sorry, papa. I forgot; I thought you might be cold,'
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she said, hastily removing the rug she had thrown upon the feet of
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the sufferer; and waiting till she saw that consciousness of her
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offence had passed from his face, she withdrew from the room, and
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retired again downstairs.
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Chapter II
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'Twas on the evening of a winter's day.'
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When two or three additional hours had merged
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the same afternoon in evening, some moving outlines might have
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been observed against the sky on the summit of a wild lone hill in
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that district. They circumscribed two men, having at present the
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aspect of silhouettes, sitting in a dog-cart and pushing along in
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the teeth of the wind. Scarcely a solitary house or man had been
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visible along the whole dreary distance of open country they were
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traversing; and now that night had begun to fall, the faint
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twilight, which still gave an idea of the landscape to their
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observation, was enlivened by the quiet appearance of the planet
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Jupiter, momentarily gleaming in intenser brilliancy in front of
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them, and by Sirius shedding his rays in rivalry from his position
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over their shoulders. The only lights apparent on earth were some
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spots of dull red, glowing here and there upon the distant hills,
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which, as the driver of the vehicle gratuitously remarked to the
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hirer, were smouldering fires for the consumption of peat and
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gorse-roots, where the common was being broken up for agricultural
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purposes. The wind prevailed with but little abatement from its
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daytime boisterousness, three or four small clouds, delicate and
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pale, creeping along under the sky southward to the Channel.
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Fourteen of the sixteen miles intervening between the railway
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terminus and the end of their journey had been gone over, when
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they began to pass along the brink of a valley some miles in
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extent, wherein the wintry skeletons of a more luxuriant
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vegetation than had hitherto surrounded them proclaimed an
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increased richness of soil, which showed signs of far more careful
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enclosure and management than had any slopes they had yet passed.
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A little farther, and an opening in the elms stretching up from
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this fertile valley revealed a mansion.
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'That's Endelstow House, Lord Luxellian's,' said the driver.
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'Endelstow House, Lord Luxellian's,' repeated the other
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mechanically. He then turned himself sideways, and keenly
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scrutinized the almost invisible house with an interest which the
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indistinct picture itself seemed far from adequate to create.
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'Yes, that's Lord Luxellian's,' he said yet again after a while,
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as he still looked in the same direction.
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'What, be we going there?'
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'No; Endelstow Vicarage, as I have told you.'
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'I thought you m't have altered your mind, sir, as ye have stared
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that way at nothing so long.'
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'Oh no; I am interested in the house, that's all.'
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'Most people be, as the saying is.'
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'Not in the sense that I am.'
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'Oh!...Well, his family is no better than my own, 'a b'lieve.'
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'How is that?'
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'Hedgers and ditchers by rights. But once in ancient times one of
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'em, when he was at work, changed clothes with King Charles the
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Second, and saved the king's life. King Charles came up to him
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like a common man, and said off-hand, "Man in the smock-frock, my
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name is Charles the Second, and that's the truth on't. Will you
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lend me your clothes?" "I don't mind if I do," said Hedger
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Luxellian; and they changed there and then. "Now mind ye," King
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Charles the Second said, like a common man, as he rode away, "if
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ever I come to the crown, you come to court, knock at the door,
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and say out bold, 'Is King Charles the Second at home?' Tell your
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name, and they shall let you in, and you shall be made a lord."
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Now, that was very nice of Master Charley?'
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'Very nice indeed.'
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'Well, as the story is, the king came to the throne; and some
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years after that, away went Hedger Luxellian, knocked at the
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king's door, and asked if King Charles the Second was in. "No, he
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isn't," they said. "Then, is Charles the Third?" said Hedger
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Luxellian. "Yes," said a young feller standing by like a common
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man, only he had a crown on, "my name is Charles the Third." And----'
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'I really fancy that must be a mistake. I don't recollect
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anything in English history about Charles the Third,' said the
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other in a tone of mild remonstrance.
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'Oh, that's right history enough, only 'twasn't prented; he was
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rather a queer-tempered man, if you remember.'
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'Very well; go on.'
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'And, by hook or by crook, Hedger Luxellian was made a lord, and
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everything went on well till some time after, when he got into a
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most terrible row with King Charles the Fourth
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'I can't stand Charles the Fourth. Upon my word, that's too
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much.'
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'Why? There was a George the Fourth, wasn't there?'
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'Certainly.'
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'Well, Charleses be as common as Georges. However I'll say no
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more about it....Ah, well! 'tis the funniest world ever I lived
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in--upon my life 'tis. Ah, that such should be!'
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The dusk had thickened into darkness while they thus conversed,
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and the outline and surface of the mansion gradually disappeared.
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The windows, which had before been as black blots on a lighter
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expanse of wall, became illuminated, and were transfigured to
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squares of light on the general dark body of the night landscape
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as it absorbed the outlines of the edifice into its gloomy
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monochrome.
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Not another word was spoken for some time, and they climbed a
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hill, then another hill piled on the summit of the first. An
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additional mile of plateau followed, from which could be discerned
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two light-houses on the coast they were nearing, reposing on the
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horizon with a calm lustre of benignity. Another oasis was
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reached; a little dell lay like a nest at their feet, towards
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which the driver pulled the horse at a sharp angle, and descended
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a steep slope which dived under the trees like a rabbit's burrow.
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They sank lower and lower.
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'Endelstow Vicarage is inside here,' continued the man with the
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reins. 'This part about here is West Endelstow; Lord Luxellian's
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is East Endelstow, and has a church to itself. Pa'son Swancourt
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is the pa'son of both, and bobs backward and forward. Ah, well!
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'tis a funny world. 'A b'lieve there was once a quarry where this
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house stands. The man who built it in past time scraped all the
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glebe for earth to put round the vicarage, and laid out a little
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paradise of flowers and trees in the soil he had got together in
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this way, whilst the fields he scraped have been good for nothing
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ever since.'
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'How long has the present incumbent been here?'
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'Maybe about a year, or a year and half: 'tisn't two years; for
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they don't scandalize him yet; and, as a rule, a parish begins to
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scandalize the pa'son at the end of two years among 'em familiar.
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But he's a very nice party. Ay, Pa'son Swancourt knows me pretty
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well from often driving over; and I know Pa'son Swancourt.'
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They emerged from the bower, swept round in a curve, and the
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chimneys and gables of the vicarage became darkly visible. Not a
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light showed anywhere. They alighted; the man felt his way into
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the porch, and rang the bell.
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At the end of three or four minutes, spent in patient waiting
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without hearing any sounds of a response, the stranger advanced
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and repeated the call in a more decided manner. He then fancied
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he heard footsteps in the hall, and sundry movements of the door-
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knob, but nobody appeared.
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'Perhaps they beant at home,' sighed the driver. 'And I promised
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myself a bit of supper in Pa'son Swancourt's kitchen. Sich lovely
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mate-pize and figged keakes, and cider, and drops o' cordial that
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they do keep here!'
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'All right, naibours! Be ye rich men or be ye poor men, that ye
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must needs come to the world's end at this time o' night?'
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exclaimed a voice at this instant; and, turning their heads, they
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saw a rickety individual shambling round from the back door with a
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horn lantern dangling from his hand.
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'Time o' night, 'a b'lieve! and the clock only gone seven of 'em.
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Show a light, and let us in, William Worm.'
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'Oh, that you, Robert Lickpan?'
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'Nobody else, William Worm.'
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'And is the visiting man a-come?'
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'Yes,' said the stranger. 'Is Mr. Swancourt at home?'
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'That 'a is, sir. And would ye mind coming round by the back way?
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The front door is got stuck wi' the wet, as he will do sometimes;
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and the Turk can't open en. I know I am only a poor wambling man
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that 'ill never pay the Lord for my making, sir; but I can show
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the way in, sir.'
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The new arrival followed his guide through a little door in a
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wall, and then promenaded a scullery and a kitchen, along which he
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passed with eyes rigidly fixed in advance, an inbred horror of
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prying forbidding him to gaze around apartments that formed the
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back side of the household tapestry. Entering the hall, he was
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|
about to be shown to his room, when from the inner lobby of the
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front entrance, whither she had gone to learn the cause of the
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delay, sailed forth the form of Elfride. Her start of amazement
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at the sight of the visitor coming forth from under the stairs
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proved that she had not been expecting this surprising flank
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movement, which had been originated entirely by the ingenuity of
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William Worm.
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She appeared in the prettiest of all feminine guises, that is to
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say, in demi-toilette, with plenty of loose curly hair tumbling
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down about her shoulders. An expression of uneasiness pervaded
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her countenance; and altogether she scarcely appeared woman enough
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for the situation. The visitor removed his hat, and the first
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|
words were spoken; Elfride prelusively looking with a deal of
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interest, not unmixed with surprise, at the person towards whom
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she was to do the duties of hospitality.
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'I am Mr. Smith,' said the stranger in a musical voice.
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'I am Miss Swancourt,' said Elfride.
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Her constraint was over. The great contrast between the reality
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she beheld before her, and the dark, taciturn, sharp, elderly man
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of business who had lurked in her imagination--a man with clothes
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smelling of city smoke, skin sallow from want of sun, and talk
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|
flavoured with epigram--was such a relief to her that Elfride
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smiled, almost laughed, in the new-comer's face.
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Stephen Smith, who has hitherto been hidden from us by the
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darkness, was at this time of his life but a youth in appearance,
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|
and barely a man in years. Judging from his look, London was the
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|
last place in the world that one would have imagined to be the
|
|
scene of his activities: such a face surely could not be nourished
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amid smoke and mud and fog and dust; such an open countenance
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|
could never even have seen anything of 'the weariness, the fever,
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|
and the fret' of Babylon the Second.
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His complexion was as fine as Elfride's own; the pink of his
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|
cheeks as delicate. His mouth as perfect as Cupid's bow in form,
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|
and as cherry-red in colour as hers. Bright curly hair; bright
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|
sparkling blue-gray eyes; a boy's blush and manner; neither
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|
whisker nor moustache, unless a little light-brown fur on his
|
|
upper lip deserved the latter title: this composed the London
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|
professional man, the prospect of whose advent had so troubled
|
|
Elfride.
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Elfride hastened to say she was sorry to tell him that Mr.
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Swancourt was not able to receive him that evening, and gave the
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|
reason why. Mr. Smith replied, in a voice boyish by nature and
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|
manly by art, that he was very sorry to hear this news; but that
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|
as far as his reception was concerned, it did not matter in the
|
|
least.
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|
|
Stephen was shown up to his room. In his absence Elfride
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|
stealthily glided into her father's.
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'He's come, papa. Such a young man for a business man!'
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'Oh, indeed!'
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'His face is--well--PRETTY; just like mine.'
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'H'm! what next?'
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'Nothing; that's all I know of him yet. It is rather nice, is it
|
|
not?'
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'Well, we shall see that when we know him better. Go down and
|
|
give the poor fellow something to eat and drink, for Heaven's
|
|
sake. And when he has done eating, say I should like to have a
|
|
few words with him, if he doesn't mind coming up here.'
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The young lady glided downstairs again, and whilst she awaits
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young Smith's entry, the letters referring to his visit had better
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|
be given.
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1.--MR. SWANCOURT TO MR. HEWBY.
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'ENDELSTOW VICARAGE, Feb. 18, 18--.
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'SIR,--We are thinking of restoring the tower and aisle of the
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|
church in this parish; and Lord Luxellian, the patron of the
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|
living, has mentioned your name as that of a trustworthy architect
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|
whom it would be desirable to ask to superintend the work.
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'I am exceedingly ignorant of the necessary preliminary steps.
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|
Probably, however, the first is that (should you be, as Lord
|
|
Luxellian says you are, disposed to assist us) yourself or some
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|
member of your staff come and see the building, and report
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|
thereupon for the satisfaction of parishioners and others.
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'The spot is a very remote one: we have no railway within fourteen
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|
miles; and the nearest place for putting up at--called a town,
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|
though merely a large village--is Castle Boterel, two miles
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|
further on; so that it would be most convenient for you to stay at
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|
the vicarage--which I am glad to place at your disposal--instead
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|
of pushing on to the hotel at Castle Boterel, and coming back
|
|
again in the morning.
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'Any day of the next week that you like to name for the visit will
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|
find us quite ready to receive you.--Yours very truly, CHRISTOPHER
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SWANCOURT.
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2.--MR. HEWBY TO MR. SWANCOURT.
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"PERCY PLACE, CHARING CROSS, Feb. 20, 18--.
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'DEAR SIR,--Agreeably to your request of the 18th instant, I have
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|
arranged to survey and make drawings of the aisle and tower of
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|
your parish church, and of the dilapidations which have been
|
|
suffered to accrue thereto, with a view to its restoration.
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'My assistant, Mr. Stephen Smith, will leave London by the early
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|
train to-morrow morning for the purpose. Many thanks for your
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|
proposal to accommodate him. He will take advantage of your
|
|
offer, and will probably reach your house at some hour of the
|
|
evening. You may put every confidence in him, and may rely upon
|
|
his discernment in the matter of church architecture.
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'Trusting that the plans for the restoration, which I shall
|
|
prepare from the details of his survey, will prove satisfactory to
|
|
yourself and Lord Luxellian, I am, dear sir, yours faithfully,
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WALTER HEWBY.'
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Chapter III
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'Melodious birds sing madrigals'
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That first repast in Endelstow Vicarage was a very agreeable one
|
|
to young Stephen Smith. The table was spread, as Elfride had
|
|
suggested to her father, with the materials for the heterogeneous
|
|
meal called high tea--a class of refection welcome to all when
|
|
away from men and towns, and particularly attractive to youthful
|
|
palates. The table was prettily decked with winter flowers and
|
|
leaves, amid which the eye was greeted by chops, chicken, pie,
|
|
&c., and two huge pasties overhanging the sides of the dish with a
|
|
cheerful aspect of abundance.
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At the end, towards the fireplace, appeared the tea-service, of
|
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old-fashioned Worcester porcelain, and behind this arose the
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slight form of Elfride, attempting to add matronly dignity to the
|
|
movement of pouring out tea, and to have a weighty and concerned
|
|
look in matters of marmalade, honey, and clotted cream. Having
|
|
made her own meal before he arrived, she found to her
|
|
embarrassment that there was nothing left for her to do but talk
|
|
when not assisting him. She asked him if he would excuse her
|
|
finishing a letter she had been writing at a side-table, and,
|
|
after sitting down to it, tingled with a sense of being grossly
|
|
rude. However, seeing that he noticed nothing personally wrong in
|
|
her, and that he too was embarrassed when she attentively watched
|
|
his cup to refill it, Elfride became better at ease; and when
|
|
furthermore he accidentally kicked the leg of the table, and then
|
|
nearly upset his tea-cup, just as schoolboys did, she felt herself
|
|
mistress of the situation, and could talk very well. In a few
|
|
minutes ingenuousness and a common term of years obliterated all
|
|
recollection that they were strangers just met. Stephen began to
|
|
wax eloquent on extremely slight experiences connected with his
|
|
professional pursuits; and she, having no experiences to fall back
|
|
upon, recounted with much animation stories that had been related
|
|
to her by her father, which would have astonished him had he heard
|
|
with what fidelity of action and tone they were rendered. Upon
|
|
the whole, a very interesting picture of Sweet-and-Twenty was on
|
|
view that evening in Mr. Swancourt's house.
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|
|
Ultimately Stephen had to go upstairs and talk loud to the vicar,
|
|
receiving from him between his puffs a great many apologies for
|
|
calling him so unceremoniously to a stranger's bedroom. 'But,'
|
|
continued Mr. Swancourt, 'I felt that I wanted to say a few words
|
|
to you before the morning, on the business of your visit. One's
|
|
patience gets exhausted by staying a prisoner in bed all day
|
|
through a sudden freak of one's enemy--new to me, though--for I
|
|
have known very little of gout as yet. However, he's gone to my
|
|
other toe in a very mild manner, and I expect he'll slink off
|
|
altogether by the morning. I hope you have been well attended to
|
|
downstairs?'
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|
'Perfectly. And though it is unfortunate, and I am sorry to see
|
|
you laid up, I beg you will not take the slightest notice of my
|
|
being in the house the while.'
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|
'I will not. But I shall be down to-morrow. My daughter is an
|
|
excellent doctor. A dose or two of her mild mixtures will fetch
|
|
me round quicker than all the drug stuff in the world. Well, now
|
|
about the church business. Take a seat, do. We can't afford to
|
|
stand upon ceremony in these parts as you see, and for this
|
|
reason, that a civilized human being seldom stays long with us;
|
|
and so we cannot waste time in approaching him, or he will be gone
|
|
before we have had the pleasure of close acquaintance. This tower
|
|
of ours is, as you will notice, entirely gone beyond the
|
|
possibility of restoration; but the church itself is well enough.
|
|
You should see some of the churches in this county. Floors
|
|
rotten: ivy lining the walls.'
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|
|
'Dear me!'
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|
'Oh, that's nothing. The congregation of a neighbour of mine,
|
|
whenever a storm of rain comes on during service, open their
|
|
umbrellas and hold them up till the dripping ceases from the roof.
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|
Now, if you will kindly bring me those papers and letters you see
|
|
lying on the table, I will show you how far we have got.'
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|
Stephen crossed the room to fetch them, and the vicar seemed to
|
|
notice more particularly the slim figure of his visitor.
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|
'I suppose you are quite competent?' he said.
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'Quite,' said the young man, colouring slightly.
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'You are very young, I fancy--I should say you are not more than
|
|
nineteen?'
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|
I am nearly twenty-one.'
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|
'Exactly half my age; I am forty-two.'
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|
'By the way,' said Mr. Swancourt, after some conversation, 'you
|
|
said your whole name was Stephen Fitzmaurice, and that your
|
|
grandfather came originally from Caxbury. Since I have been
|
|
speaking, it has occurred to me that I know something of you. You
|
|
belong to a well-known ancient county family--not ordinary Smiths
|
|
in the least.'
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|
'I don't think we have any of their blood in our veins.'
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|
'Nonsense! you must. Hand me the "Landed Gentry." Now, let me
|
|
see. There, Stephen Fitzmaurice Smith--he lies in St. Mary's
|
|
Church, doesn't he? Well, out of that family Sprang the
|
|
Leaseworthy Smiths, and collaterally came General Sir Stephen
|
|
Fitzmaurice Smith of Caxbury----'
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|
|
'Yes; I have seen his monument there,' shouted Stephen. 'But
|
|
there is no connection between his family and mine: there cannot
|
|
be.'
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|
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|
'There is none, possibly, to your knowledge. But look at this, my
|
|
dear sir,' said the vicar, striking his fist upon the bedpost for
|
|
emphasis. 'Here are you, Stephen Fitzmaurice Smith, living in
|
|
London, but springing from Caxbury. Here in this book is a
|
|
genealogical tree of the Stephen Fitzmaurice Smiths of Caxbury
|
|
Manor. You may be only a family of professional men now--I am not
|
|
inquisitive: I don't ask questions of that kind; it is not in me
|
|
to do so--but it is as plain as the nose in your face that there's
|
|
your origin! And, Mr. Smith, I congratulate you upon your blood;
|
|
blue blood, sir; and, upon my life, a very desirable colour, as
|
|
the world goes.'
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|
'I wish you could congratulate me upon some more tangible
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quality,' said the younger man, sadly no less than modestly.
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'Nonsense! that will come with time. You are young: all your life
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is before you. Now look--see how far back in the mists of
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antiquity my own family of Swancourt have a root. Here, you see,'
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he continued, turning to the page, 'is Geoffrey, the one among my
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ancestors who lost a barony because he would cut his joke. Ah,
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it's the sort of us! But the story is too long to tell now. Ay,
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I'm a poor man--a poor gentleman, in fact: those I would be
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friends with, won't be friends with me; those who are willing to
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be friends with me, I am above being friends with. Beyond dining
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with a neighbouring incumbent or two. and an occasional chat--
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sometimes dinner--with Lord Luxellian, a connection of mine, I am
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in absolute solitude--absolute.'
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'You have your studies, your books, and your--daughter.'
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'Oh yes, yes; and I don't complain of poverty. Canto coram
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latrone. Well, Mr. Smith, don't let me detain you any longer in a
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sick room. Ha! that reminds me of a story I once heard in my
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younger days.' Here the vicar began a series of small private
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laughs, and Stephen looked inquiry. 'Oh, no, no! it is too bad--
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too bad to tell!' continued Mr. Swancourt in undertones of grim
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mirth. 'Well, go downstairs; my daughter must do the best she can
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with you this evening. Ask her to sing to you--she plays and
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sings very nicely. Good-night; I feel as if I had known you for
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five or six years. I'll ring for somebody to show you down.'
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'Never mind,' said Stephen, 'I can find the way.' And he went
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downstairs, thinking of the delightful freedom of manner in the
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remoter counties in comparison with the reserve of London.
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'I forgot to tell you that my father was rather deaf,' said
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Elfride anxiously, when Stephen entered the little drawing-room.
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'Never mind; I know all about it, and we are great friends,' the
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man of business replied enthusiastically. 'And, Miss Swancourt,
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will you kindly sing to me?'
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To Miss Swancourt this request seemed, what in fact it was,
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exceptionally point-blank; though she guessed that her father had
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some hand in framing it, knowing, rather to her cost, of his
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unceremonious way of utilizing her for the benefit of dull
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sojourners. At the same time, as Mr. Smith's manner was too frank
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to provoke criticism, and his age too little to inspire fear, she
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was ready--not to say pleased--to accede. Selecting from the
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canterbury some old family ditties, that in years gone by had been
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played and sung by her mother, Elfride sat down to the pianoforte,
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and began, "Twas on the evening of a winter's day,' in a pretty
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contralto voice.
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'Do you like that old thing, Mr. Smith?' she said at the end.
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'Yes, I do much,' said Stephen--words he would have uttered, and
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sincerely, to anything on earth, from glee to requiem, that she
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might have chosen.
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'You shall have a little one by De Leyre, that was given me by a
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young French lady who was staying at Endelstow House:
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'"Je l'ai plante, je l'ai vu naitre,
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Ce beau rosier ou les oiseaux," &c.;
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and then I shall want to give you my own favourite for the very
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last, Shelley's "When the lamp is shattered," as set to music by
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my poor mother. I so much like singing to anybody who REALLY
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cares to hear me.'
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Every woman who makes a permanent impression on a man is usually
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recalled to his mind's eye as she appeared in one particular
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scene, which seems ordained to be her special form of
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manifestation throughout the pages of his memory. As the patron
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Saint has her attitude and accessories in mediaeval illumination,
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so the sweetheart may be said to have hers upon the table of her
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true Love's fancy, without which she is rarely introduced there
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except by effort; and this though she may, on further
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acquaintance, have been observed in many other phases which one
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would imagine to be far more appropriate to love's young dream.
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Miss Elfride's image chose the form in which she was beheld during
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these minutes of singing, for her permanent attitude of visitation
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to Stephen's eyes during his sleeping and waking hours in after
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days. The profile is seen of a young woman in a pale gray silk
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dress with trimmings of swan's-down, and opening up from a point
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in front, like a waistcoat without a shirt; the cool colour
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contrasting admirably with the warm bloom of her neck and face.
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The furthermost candle on the piano comes immediately in a line
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with her head, and half invisible itself, forms the accidentally
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frizzled hair into a nebulous haze of light, surrounding her crown
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like an aureola. Her hands are in their place on the keys, her
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lips parted, and trilling forth, in a tender diminuendo, the
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closing words of the sad apostrophe:
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'O Love, who bewailest
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The frailty of all things here,
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Why choose you the frailest
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For your cradle, your home, and your bier!'
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Her head is forward a little, and her eyes directed keenly upward
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to the top of the page of music confronting her. Then comes a
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rapid look into Stephen's face, and a still more rapid look back
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again to her business, her face having dropped its sadness, and
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acquired a certain expression of mischievous archness the while;
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which lingered there for some time, but was never developed into a
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positive smile of flirtation.
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Stephen suddenly shifted his position from her right hand to her
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left, where there was just room enough for a small ottoman to
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stand between the piano and the corner of the room. Into this
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nook he squeezed himself, and gazed wistfully up into Elfride's
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face. So long and so earnestly gazed he, that her cheek deepened
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to a more and more crimson tint as each line was added to her
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song. Concluding, and pausing motionless after the last word for
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a minute or two, she ventured to look at him again. His features
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wore an expression of unutterable heaviness.
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'You don't hear many songs, do you, Mr. Smith, to take so much
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notice of these of mine?'
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'Perhaps it was the means and vehicle of the song that I was
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noticing: I mean yourself,' he answered gently.
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'Now, Mr. Smith!'
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'It is perfectly true; I don't hear much singing. You mistake
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what I am, I fancy. Because I come as a stranger to a secluded
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spot, you think I must needs come from a life of bustle, and know
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|
the latest movements of the day. But I don't. My life is as
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quiet as yours, and more solitary; solitary as death.'
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'The death which comes from a plethora of life? But seriously, I
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can quite see that you are not the least what I thought you would
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be before I saw you. You are not critical, or experienced, or--
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much to mind. That's why I don't mind singing airs to you that I
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only half know.' Finding that by this confession she had vexed him
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in a way she did not intend, she added naively, 'I mean, Mr.
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Smith, that you are better, not worse, for being only young and
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not very experienced. You don't think my life here so very tame
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and dull, I know.'
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'I do not, indeed,' he said with fervour. 'It must be
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delightfully poetical, and sparkling, and fresh, and----'
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'There you go, Mr. Smith! Well, men of another kind, when I get
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them to be honest enough to own the truth, think just the reverse:
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that my life must be a dreadful bore in its normal state, though
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|
pleasant for the exceptional few days they pass here.'
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'I could live here always!' he said, and with such a tone and look
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|
of unconscious revelation that Elfride was startled to find that
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her harmonies had fired a small Troy, in the shape of Stephen's
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heart. She said quickly:
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'But you can't live here always.'
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'Oh no.' And he drew himself in with the sensitiveness of a snail.
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Elfride's emotions were sudden as his in kindling, but the least
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of woman's lesser infirmities--love of admiration--caused an
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|
inflammable disposition on his part, so exactly similar to her
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|
own, to appear as meritorious in him as modesty made her own seem
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culpable in her.
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Chapter IV
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'Where heaves the turf in many a mould'ring heap.'
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For reasons of his own, Stephen Smith was stirring a short time
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|
after dawn the next morning. From the window of his room he could
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see, first, two bold escarpments sloping down together like the
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|
letter V. Towards the bottom, like liquid in a funnel, appeared
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|
the sea, gray and small. On the brow of one hill, of rather
|
|
greater altitude than its neighbour, stood the church which was to
|
|
be the scene of his operations. The lonely edifice was black and
|
|
bare, cutting up into the sky from the very tip of the hill. It
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|
had a square mouldering tower, owning neither battlement nor
|
|
pinnacle, and seemed a monolithic termination, of one substance
|
|
with the ridge, rather than a structure raised thereon. Round the
|
|
church ran a low wall; over-topping the wall in general level was
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|
the graveyard; not as a graveyard usually is, a fragment of
|
|
landscape with its due variety of chiaro-oscuro, but a mere
|
|
profile against the sky, serrated with the outlines of graves and
|
|
a very few memorial stones. Not a tree could exist up there:
|
|
nothing but the monotonous gray-green grass.
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|
Five minutes after this casual survey was made his bedroom was
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|
empty, and its occupant had vanished quietly from the house.
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At the end of two hours he was again in the room, looking warm and
|
|
glowing. He now pursued the artistic details of dressing, which
|
|
on his first rising had been entirely omitted. And a very
|
|
blooming boy he looked, after that mysterious morning scamper.
|
|
His mouth was a triumph of its class. It was the cleanly-cut,
|
|
piquantly pursed-up mouth of William Pitt, as represented in the
|
|
well or little known bust by Nollekens--a mouth which is in itself
|
|
a young man's fortune, if properly exercised. His round chin,
|
|
where its upper part turned inward, still continued its perfect
|
|
and full curve, seeming to press in to a point the bottom of his
|
|
nether lip at their place of junction.
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|
Once he murmured the name of Elfride. Ah, there she was! On the
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|
lawn in a plain dress, without hat or bonnet, running with a boy's
|
|
velocity, superadded to a girl's lightness, after a tame rabbit
|
|
she was endeavouring to capture, her strategic intonations of
|
|
coaxing words alternating with desperate rushes so much out of
|
|
keeping with them, that the hollowness of such expressions was but
|
|
too evident to her pet, who darted and dodged in carefully timed
|
|
counterpart.
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|
The scene down there was altogether different from that of the
|
|
hills. A thicket of shrubs and trees enclosed the favoured spot
|
|
from the wilderness without; even at this time of the year the
|
|
grass was luxuriant there. No wind blew inside the protecting
|
|
belt of evergreens, wasting its force upon the higher and stronger
|
|
trees forming the outer margin of the grove.
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|
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|
Then he heard a heavy person shuffling about in slippers, and
|
|
calling 'Mr. Smith!' Smith proceeded to the study, and found Mr.
|
|
Swancourt. The young man expressed his gladness to see his host
|
|
downstairs.
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|
|
|
'Oh yes; I knew I should soon be right again. I have not made the
|
|
acquaintance of gout for more than two years, and it generally
|
|
goes off the second night. Well, where have you been this
|
|
morning? I saw you come in just now, I think!'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; I have been for a walk.'
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'Start early?'
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'Yes.'
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|
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|
'Very early, I think?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, it was rather early.'
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|
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|
'Which way did you go? To the sea, I suppose. Everybody goes
|
|
seaward.'
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|
|
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'No; I followed up the river as far as the park wall.'
|
|
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|
'You are different from your kind. Well, I suppose such a wild
|
|
place is a novelty, and so tempted you out of bed?'
|
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|
|
'Not altogether a novelty. I like it.'
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|
The youth seemed averse to explanation.
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|
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|
'You must, you must; to go cock-watching the morning after a
|
|
journey of fourteen or sixteen hours. But there's no accounting
|
|
for tastes, and I am glad to see that yours are no meaner. After
|
|
breakfast, but not before, I shall be good for a ten miles' walk,
|
|
Master Smith.'
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|
Certainly there seemed nothing exaggerated in that assertion. Mr.
|
|
Swancourt by daylight showed himself to be a man who, in common
|
|
with the other two people under his roof, had really strong claims
|
|
to be considered handsome,--handsome, that is, in the sense in
|
|
which the moon is bright: the ravines and valleys which, on a
|
|
close inspection, are seen to diversify its surface being left out
|
|
of the argument. His face was of a tint that never deepened upon
|
|
his cheeks nor lightened upon his forehead, but remained uniform
|
|
throughout; the usual neutral salmon-colour of a man who feeds
|
|
well--not to say too well--and does not think hard; every pore
|
|
being in visible working order. His tout ensemble was that of a
|
|
highly improved class of farmer, dressed up in the wrong clothes;
|
|
that of a firm-standing perpendicular man, whose fall would have
|
|
been backwards indirection if he had ever lost his balance.
|
|
|
|
The vicar's background was at present what a vicar's background
|
|
should be, his study. Here the consistency ends. All along the
|
|
chimneypiece were ranged bottles of horse, pig, and cow medicines,
|
|
and against the wall was a high table, made up of the fragments of
|
|
an old oak Iychgate. Upon this stood stuffed specimens of owls,
|
|
divers, and gulls, and over them bunches of wheat and barley ears,
|
|
labelled with the date of the year that produced them. Some cases
|
|
and shelves, more or less laden with books, the prominent titles
|
|
of which were Dr. Brown's 'Notes on the Romans,' Dr. Smith's
|
|
'Notes on the Corinthians,' and Dr. Robinson's 'Notes on the
|
|
Galatians, Ephesians, and Philippians,' just saved the character
|
|
of the place, in spite of a girl's doll's-house standing above
|
|
them, a marine aquarium in the window, and Elfride's hat hanging
|
|
on its corner.
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|
|
|
'Business, business!' said Mr. Swancourt after breakfast. He began
|
|
to find it necessary to act the part of a fly-wheel towards the
|
|
somewhat irregular forces of his visitor.
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|
|
|
They prepared to go to the church; the vicar, on second thoughts,
|
|
mounting his coal-black mare to avoid exerting his foot too much
|
|
at starting. Stephen said he should want a man to assist him.
|
|
'Worm!' the vicar shouted.
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|
|
A minute or two after a voice was heard round the corner of the
|
|
building, mumbling, 'Ah, I used to be strong enough, but 'tis
|
|
altered now! Well, there, I'm as independent as one here and
|
|
there, even if they do write 'squire after their names.'
|
|
|
|
'What's the matter?' said the vicar, as William Worm appeared;
|
|
when the remarks were repeated to him.
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|
|
|
'Worm says some very true things sometimes,' Mr. Swancourt said,
|
|
turning to Stephen. 'Now, as regards that word "esquire." Why,
|
|
Mr. Smith, that word "esquire" is gone to the dogs,--used on the
|
|
letters of every jackanapes who has a black coat. Anything else,
|
|
Worm?'
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|
|
|
'Ay, the folk have begun frying again!'
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|
|
|
'Dear me! I'm sorry to hear that.'
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|
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|
'Yes,' Worm said groaningly to Stephen, 'I've got such a noise in
|
|
my head that there's no living night nor day. 'Tis just for all
|
|
the world like people frying fish: fry, fry, fry, all day long in
|
|
my poor head, till I don't know whe'r I'm here or yonder. There,
|
|
God A'mighty will find it out sooner or later, I hope, and relieve
|
|
me.'
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|
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|
'Now, my deafness,' said Mr. Swancourt impressively, 'is a dead
|
|
silence; but William Worm's is that of people frying fish in his
|
|
head. Very remarkable, isn't it?'
|
|
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|
'I can hear the frying-pan a-fizzing as naterel as life,' said
|
|
Worm corroboratively.
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|
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|
'Yes, it is remarkable,' said Mr. Smith.
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|
|
|
'Very peculiar, very peculiar,' echoed the vicar; and they all
|
|
then followed the path up the hill, bounded on each side by a
|
|
little stone wall, from which gleamed fragments of quartz and
|
|
blood-red marbles, apparently of inestimable value, in their
|
|
setting of brown alluvium. Stephen walked with the dignity of a
|
|
man close to the horse's head, Worm stumbled along a stone's throw
|
|
in the rear, and Elfride was nowhere in particular, yet
|
|
everywhere; sometimes in front, sometimes behind, sometimes at the
|
|
sides, hovering about the procession like a butterfly; not
|
|
definitely engaged in travelling, yet somehow chiming in at points
|
|
with the general progress.
|
|
|
|
The vicar explained things as he went on: 'The fact is, Mr. Smith,
|
|
I didn't want this bother of church restoration at all, but it was
|
|
necessary to do something in self-defence, on account of those d----
|
|
dissenters: I use the word in its scriptural meaning, of
|
|
course, not as an expletive.'
|
|
|
|
'How very odd!' said Stephen, with the concern demanded of serious
|
|
friendliness.
|
|
|
|
'Odd? That's nothing to how it is in the parish of Twinkley. Both
|
|
the churchwardens are----; there, I won't say what they are; and
|
|
the clerk and the sexton as well.'
|
|
|
|
'How very strange!' said Stephen.
|
|
|
|
'Strange? My dear sir, that's nothing to how it is in the parish
|
|
of Sinnerton. However, as to our own parish, I hope we shall make
|
|
some progress soon.'
|
|
|
|
'You must trust to circumstances.'
|
|
|
|
'There are no circumstances to trust to. We may as well trust in
|
|
Providence if we trust at all. But here we are. A wild place,
|
|
isn't it? But I like it on such days as these.'
|
|
|
|
The churchyard was entered on this side by a stone stile, over
|
|
which having clambered, you remained still on the wild hill, the
|
|
within not being so divided from the without as to obliterate the
|
|
sense of open freedom. A delightful place to be buried in,
|
|
postulating that delight can accompany a man to his tomb under any
|
|
circumstances. There was nothing horrible in this churchyard, in
|
|
the shape of tight mounds bonded with sticks, which shout
|
|
imprisonment in the ears rather than whisper rest; or trim garden-
|
|
flowers, which only raise images of people in new black crape and
|
|
white handkerchiefs coming to tend them; or wheel-marks, which
|
|
remind us of hearses and mourning coaches; or cypress-bushes,
|
|
which make a parade of sorrow; or coffin-boards and bones lying
|
|
behind trees, showing that we are only leaseholders of our graves.
|
|
No; nothing but long, wild, untutored grass, diversifying the
|
|
forms of the mounds it covered,--themselves irregularly shaped,
|
|
with no eye to effect; the impressive presence of the old mountain
|
|
that all this was a part of being nowhere excluded by disguising
|
|
art. Outside were similar slopes and similar grass; and then the
|
|
serene impassive sea, visible to a width of half the horizon, and
|
|
meeting the eye with the effect of a vast concave, like the
|
|
interior of a blue vessel. Detached rocks stood upright afar, a
|
|
collar of foam girding their bases, and repeating in its whiteness
|
|
the plumage of a countless multitude of gulls that restlessly
|
|
hovered about.
|
|
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|
'Now, Worm!' said Mr. Swancourt sharply; and Worm started into an
|
|
attitude of attention at once to receive orders. Stephen and
|
|
himself were then left in possession, and the work went on till
|
|
early in the afternoon, when dinner was announced by Unity of the
|
|
vicarage kitchen running up the hill without a bonnet.
|
|
|
|
|
|
Elfride did not make her appearance inside the building till late
|
|
in the afternoon, and came then by special invitation from Stephen
|
|
during dinner. She looked so intensely LIVING and full of
|
|
movement as she came into the old silent place, that young Smith's
|
|
world began to be lit by 'the purple light' in all its
|
|
definiteness. Worm was got rid of by sending him to measure the
|
|
height of the tower.
|
|
|
|
What could she do but come close--so close that a minute arc of
|
|
her skirt touched his foot--and asked him how he was getting on
|
|
with his sketches, and set herself to learn the principles of
|
|
practical mensuration as applied to irregular buildings? Then she
|
|
must ascend the pulpit to re-imagine for the hundredth time how it
|
|
would seem to be a preacher.
|
|
|
|
Presently she leant over the front of the pulpit.
|
|
|
|
'Don't you tell papa, will you, Mr. Smith, if I tell you
|
|
something?' she said with a sudden impulse to make a confidence.
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, that I won't,' said he, staring up.
|
|
|
|
'Well, I write papa's sermons for him very often, and he preaches
|
|
them better than he does his own; and then afterwards he talks to
|
|
people and to me about what he said in his sermon to-day, and
|
|
forgets that I wrote it for him. Isn't it absurd?'
|
|
|
|
'How clever you must be!' said Stephen. 'I couldn't write a
|
|
sermon for the world.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, it's easy enough,' she said, descending from the pulpit and
|
|
coming close to him to explain more vividly. 'You do it like
|
|
this. Did you ever play a game of forfeits called "When is it?
|
|
where is it? what is it?"'
|
|
|
|
'No, never.'
|
|
|
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'Ah, that's a pity, because writing a sermon is very much like
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playing that game. You take the text. You think, why is it? what
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is it? and so on. You put that down under "Generally." Then you
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proceed to the First, Secondly, and Thirdly. Papa won't have
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Fourthlys--says they are all my eye. Then you have a final
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Collectively, several pages of this being put in great black
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brackets, writing opposite, "LEAVE THIS OUT IF THE FARMERS ARE
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FALLING ASLEEP." Then comes your In Conclusion, then A Few Words
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And I Have Done. Well, all this time you have put on the back of
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each page, "KEEP YOUR VOICE DOWN"--I mean,' she added, correcting
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herself, 'that's how I do in papa's sermon-book, because otherwise
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he gets louder and louder, till at last he shouts like a farmer up
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a-field. Oh, papa is so funny in some things!'
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Then, after this childish burst of confidence, she was frightened,
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as if warned by womanly instinct, which for the moment her ardour
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had outrun, that she had been too forward to a comparative
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stranger.
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Elfride saw her father then, and went away into the wind, being
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caught by a gust as she ascended the churchyard slope, in which
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gust she had the motions, without the motives, of a hoiden; the
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grace, without the self-consciousness, of a pirouetter. She
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conversed for a minute or two with her father, and proceeded
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homeward, Mr. Swancourt coming on to the church to Stephen. The
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wind had freshened his warm complexion as it freshens the glow of
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a brand. He was in a mood of jollity, and watched Elfride down
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the hill with a smile.
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'You little flyaway! you look wild enough now,' he said, and
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turned to Stephen. 'But she's not a wild child at all, Mr. Smith.
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As steady as you; and that you are steady I see from your
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diligence here.'
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'I think Miss Swancourt very clever,' Stephen observed.
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'Yes, she is; certainly, she is,' said papa, turning his voice as
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much as possible to the neutral tone of disinterested criticism.
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'Now, Smith, I'll tell you something; but she mustn't know it for
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the world--not for the world, mind, for she insists upon keeping
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it a dead secret. Why, SHE WRITES MY SERMONS FOR ME OFTEN, and a
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very good job she makes of them!'
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'She can do anything.'
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'She can do that. The little rascal has the very trick of the
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trade. But, mind you, Smith, not a word about it to her, not a
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single word!'
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'Not a word,' said Smith.
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'Look there,' said Mr. Swancourt. 'What do you think of my
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roofing?' He pointed with his walking-stick at the chancel roof
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'Did you do that, sir?'
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'Yes, I worked in shirt-sleeves all the time that was going on. I
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pulled down the old rafters, fixed the new ones, put on the
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battens, slated the roof, all with my own hands, Worm being my
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assistant. We worked like slaves, didn't we, Worm?'
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'Ay, sure, we did; harder than some here and there--hee, hee!'
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|
said William Worm, cropping up from somewhere. 'Like slaves, 'a
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b'lieve--hee, hee! And weren't ye foaming mad, sir, when the nails
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wouldn't go straight? Mighty I! There, 'tisn't so bad to cuss and
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keep it in as to cuss and let it out, is it, sir?'
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'Well--why?'
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'Because you, sir, when ye were a-putting on the roof, only used
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to cuss in your mind, which is, I suppose, no harm at all.'
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'I don't think you know what goes on in my mind, Worm.'
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'Oh, doan't I, sir--hee, hee! Maybe I'm but a poor wambling thing,
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sir, and can't read much; but I can spell as well as some here and
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|
there. Doan't ye mind, sir, that blustrous night when ye asked me
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|
to hold the candle to ye in yer workshop, when you were making a
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|
new chair for the chancel?'
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'Yes; what of that?'
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'I stood with the candle, and you said you liked company, if 'twas
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only a dog or cat--maning me; and the chair wouldn't do nohow.'
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'Ah, I remember.'
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'No; the chair wouldn't do nohow. 'A was very well to look at;
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but, Lord!----'
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'Worm, how often have I corrected you for irreverent speaking?'
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'--'A was very well to look at, but you couldn't sit in the chair
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nohow. 'Twas all a-twist wi' the chair, like the letter Z,
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directly you sat down upon the chair. "Get up, Worm," says you,
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when you seed the chair go all a-sway wi' me. Up you took the
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chair, and flung en like fire and brimstone to t'other end of your
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shop--all in a passion. "Damn the chair!" says I. "Just what I
|
|
was thinking," says you, sir. "I could see it in your face, sir,"
|
|
says I, "and I hope you and God will forgi'e me for saying what
|
|
you wouldn't." To save your life you couldn't help laughing, sir,
|
|
at a poor wambler reading your thoughts so plain. Ay, I'm as wise
|
|
as one here and there.'
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'I thought you had better have a practical man to go over the
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church and tower with you,' Mr. Swancourt said to Stephen the
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|
following morning, 'so I got Lord Luxellian's permission to send
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|
for a man when you came. I told him to be there at ten o'clock.
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|
He's a very intelligent man, and he will tell you all you want to
|
|
know about the state of the walls. His name is John Smith.'
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Elfride did not like to be seen again at the church with Stephen.
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|
'I will watch here for your appearance at the top of the tower,'
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|
she said laughingly. 'I shall see your figure against the sky.'
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'And when I am up there I'll wave my handkerchief to you, Miss
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|
Swancourt,' said Stephen. 'In twelve minutes from this present
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|
moment,' he added, looking at his watch, 'I'll be at the summit
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and look out for you.'
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She went round to the corner of the sbrubbery, whence she could
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|
watch him down the slope leading to the foot of the hill on which
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|
the church stood. There she saw waiting for him a white spot--a
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|
mason in his working clothes. Stephen met this man and stopped.
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|
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|
To her surprise, instead of their moving on to the churchyard,
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|
they both leisurely sat down upon a stone close by their meeting-
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|
place, and remained as if in deep conversation. Elfride looked at
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|
the time; nine of the twelve minutes had passed, and Stephen
|
|
showed no signs of moving. More minutes passed--she grew cold
|
|
with waiting, and shivered. It was not till the end of a quarter
|
|
of an hour that they began to slowly wend up the hill at a snail's
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|
pace.
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'Rude and unmannerly!' she said to herself, colouring with pique.
|
|
'Anybody would think he was in love with that horrid mason instead
|
|
of with----'
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|
The sentence remained unspoken, though not unthought.
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|
She returned to the porch.
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|
'Is the man you sent for a lazy, sit-still, do-nothing kind of
|
|
man?' she inquired of her father.
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|
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|
'No,' he said surprised; 'quite the reverse. He is Lord
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|
Luxellian's master-mason, John Smith.'
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|
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'Oh,' said Elfride indifferently, and returned towards her bleak
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|
station, and waited and shivered again. It was a trifle, after
|
|
all--a childish thing--looking out from a tower and waving a
|
|
handkerchief. But her new friend had promised, and why should he
|
|
tease her so? The effect of a blow is as proportionate to the
|
|
texture of the object struck as to its own momentum; and she had
|
|
such a superlative capacity for being wounded that little hits
|
|
struck her hard.
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|
|
|
It was not till the end of half an hour that two figures were seen
|
|
above the parapet of the dreary old pile, motionless as bitterns
|
|
on a ruined mosque. Even then Stephen was not true enough to
|
|
perform what he was so courteous to promise, and he vanished
|
|
without making a sign.
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|
|
|
He returned at midday. Elfride looked vexed when unconscious that
|
|
his eyes were upon her; when conscious, severe. However, her
|
|
attitude of coldness had long outlived the coldness itself, and
|
|
she could no longer utter feigned words of indifference.
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|
|
|
'Ah, you weren't kind to keep me waiting in the cold, and break
|
|
your promise,' she said at last reproachfully, in tones too low
|
|
for her father's powers of hearing.
|
|
|
|
'Forgive, forgive me!' said Stephen with dismay. 'I had
|
|
forgotten--quite forgotten! Something prevented my remembering.'
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|
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|
'Any further explanation?' said Miss Capricious, pouting.
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|
|
|
He was silent for a few minutes, and looked askance.
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|
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'None,' he said, with the accent of one who concealed a sin.
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|
Chapter V
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'Bosom'd high in tufted trees.'
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It was breakfast time.
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|
As seen from the vicarage dining-room, which took a warm tone of
|
|
light from the fire, the weather and scene outside seemed to have
|
|
stereotyped themselves in unrelieved shades of gray. The long-
|
|
armed trees and shrubs of juniper, cedar, and pine varieties, were
|
|
grayish black; those of the broad-leaved sort, together with the
|
|
herbage, were grayish-green; the eternal hills and tower behind
|
|
them were grayish-brown; the sky, dropping behind all, gray of the
|
|
purest melancholy.
|
|
|
|
Yet in spite of this sombre artistic effect, the morning was not
|
|
one which tended to lower the spirits. It was even cheering. For
|
|
it did not rain, nor was rain likely to fall for many days to
|
|
come.
|
|
|
|
Elfride had turned from the table towards the fire and was idly
|
|
elevating a hand-screen before her face, when she heard the click
|
|
of a little gate outside.
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|
|
|
'Ah, here's the postman!' she said, as a shuffling, active man
|
|
came through an opening in the shrubbery and across the lawn. She
|
|
vanished, and met him in the porch, afterwards coming in with her
|
|
hands behind her back.
|
|
|
|
'How many are there? Three for papa, one for Mr. Smith, none for
|
|
Miss Swancourt. And, papa, look here, one of yours is from--whom
|
|
do you think?--Lord Luxellian. And it has something HARD in it--a
|
|
lump of something. I've been feeling it through the envelope, and
|
|
can't think what it is.'
|
|
|
|
'What does Luxellian write for, I wonder?' Mr. Swancourt had said
|
|
simultaneously with her words. He handed Stephen his letter, and
|
|
took his own, putting on his countenance a higher class of look
|
|
than was customary, as became a poor gentleman who was going to
|
|
read a letter from a peer.
|
|
|
|
Stephen read his missive with a countenance quite the reverse of
|
|
the vicar's.
|
|
|
|
|
|
'PERCY PLACE, Thursday Evening.
|
|
'DEAR SMITH,--Old H. is in a towering rage with you for being so
|
|
long about the church sketches. Swears you are more trouble than
|
|
you are worth. He says I am to write and say you are to stay no
|
|
longer on any consideration--that he would have done it all in
|
|
three hours very easily. I told him that you were not like an
|
|
experienced hand, which he seemed to forget, but it did not make
|
|
much difference. However, between you and me privately, if I were
|
|
you I would not alarm myself for a day or so, if I were not
|
|
inclined to return. I would make out the week and finish my
|
|
spree. He will blow up just as much if you appear here on
|
|
Saturday as if you keep away till Monday morning.--Yours very
|
|
truly,
|
|
'SIMPKINS JENKINS.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
'Dear me--very awkward!' said Stephen, rather en l'air, and
|
|
confused with the kind of confusion that assails an understrapper
|
|
when he has been enlarged by accident to the dimensions of a
|
|
superior, and is somewhat rudely pared down to his original size.
|
|
|
|
'What is awkward?' said Miss Swancourt.
|
|
|
|
Smith by this time recovered his equanimity, and with it the
|
|
professional dignity of an experienced architect.
|
|
|
|
'Important business demands my immediate presence in London, I
|
|
regret to say,' he replied.
|
|
|
|
'What! Must you go at once?' said Mr. Swancourt, looking over the
|
|
edge of his letter. 'Important business? A young fellow like you
|
|
to have important business!'
|
|
|
|
'The truth is,' said Stephen blushing, and rather ashamed of
|
|
having pretended even so slightly to a consequence which did not
|
|
belong to him,--'the truth is, Mr. Hewby has sent to say I am to
|
|
come home; and I must obey him.'
|
|
|
|
'I see; I see. It is politic to do so, you mean. Now I can see
|
|
more than you think. You are to be his partner. I booked you for
|
|
that directly I read his letter to me the other day, and the way
|
|
he spoke of you. He thinks a great deal of you, Mr. Smith, or he
|
|
wouldn't be so anxious for your return.'
|
|
|
|
Unpleasant to Stephen such remarks as these could not sound; to
|
|
have the expectancy of partnership with one of the largest-
|
|
practising architects in London thrust upon him was cheering,
|
|
however untenable he felt the idea to be. He saw that, whatever
|
|
Mr. Hewby might think, Mr. Swancourt certainly thought much of him
|
|
to entertain such an idea on such slender ground as to be
|
|
absolutely no ground at all. And then, unaccountably, his
|
|
speaking face exhibited a cloud of sadness, which a reflection on
|
|
the remoteness of any such contingency could hardly have sufficed
|
|
to cause.
|
|
|
|
Elfride was struck with that look of his; even Mr. Swancourt
|
|
noticed it.
|
|
|
|
'Well,' he said cheerfully, 'never mind that now. You must come
|
|
again on your own account; not on business. Come to see me as a
|
|
visitor, you know--say, in your holidays--all you town men have
|
|
holidays like schoolboys. When are they?'
|
|
|
|
'In August, I believe.'
|
|
|
|
'Very well; come in August; and then you need not hurry away so.
|
|
I am glad to get somebody decent to talk to, or at, in this
|
|
outlandish ultima Thule. But, by the bye, I have something to
|
|
say--you won't go to-day?'
|
|
|
|
'No; I need not,' said Stephen hesitatingly. 'I am not obliged to
|
|
get back before Monday morning.'
|
|
|
|
'Very well, then, that brings me to what I am going to propose.
|
|
This is a letter from Lord Luxellian. I think you heard me speak
|
|
of him as the resident landowner in this district, and patron of
|
|
this living?'
|
|
|
|
'I--know of him.'
|
|
|
|
'He is in London now. It seems that he has run up on business for
|
|
a day or two, and taken Lady Luxellian with him. He has written
|
|
to ask me to go to his house, and search for a paper among his
|
|
private memoranda, which he forgot to take with him.'
|
|
|
|
'What did he send in the letter?' inquired Elfride.
|
|
|
|
'The key of a private desk in which the papers are. He doesn't
|
|
like to trust such a matter to any body else. I have done such
|
|
things for him before. And what I propose is, that we make an
|
|
afternoon of it--all three of us. Go for a drive to Targan Bay,
|
|
come home by way of Endelstow House; and whilst I am looking over
|
|
the documents you can ramble about the rooms where you like. I
|
|
have the run of the house at any time, you know. The building,
|
|
though nothing but a mass of gables outside, has a splendid hall,
|
|
staircase, and gallery within; and there are a few good pictures.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, there are,' said Stephen.
|
|
|
|
'Have you seen the place, then?
|
|
|
|
'I saw it as I came by,' he said hastily.
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes; but I was alluding to the interior. And the church--St.
|
|
Eval's--is much older than our St. Agnes' here. I do duty in that
|
|
and this alternately, you know. The fact is, I ought to have some
|
|
help; riding across that park for two miles on a wet morning is
|
|
not at all the thing. If my constitution were not well seasoned,
|
|
as thank God it is,'--here Mr. Swancourt looked down his front, as
|
|
if his constitution were visible there,--'I should be coughing and
|
|
barking all the year round. And when the family goes away, there
|
|
are only about three servants to preach to when I get there.
|
|
Well, that shall be the arrangement, then. Elfride, you will like
|
|
to go?'
|
|
|
|
Elfride assented; and the little breakfast-party separated.
|
|
Stephen rose to go and take a few final measurements at the
|
|
church, the vicar following him to the door with a mysterious
|
|
expression of inquiry on his face.
|
|
|
|
'You'll put up with our not having family prayer this morning, I
|
|
hope?' he whispered.
|
|
|
|
'Yes; quite so,' said Stephen.
|
|
|
|
'To tell you the truth,' he continued in the same undertone, 'we
|
|
don't make a regular thing of it; but when we have strangers
|
|
visiting us, I am strongly of opinion that it is the proper thing
|
|
to do, and I always do it. I am very strict on that point. But
|
|
you, Smith, there is something in your face which makes me feel
|
|
quite at home; no nonsense about you, in short. Ah, it reminds me
|
|
of a splendid story I used to hear when I was a helter-skelter
|
|
young fellow--such a story! But'--here the vicar shook his head
|
|
self-forbiddingly, and grimly laughed.
|
|
|
|
'Was it a good story?' said young Smith, smiling too.
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes; but 'tis too bad--too bad! Couldn't tell it to you for
|
|
the world!'
|
|
|
|
Stephen went across the lawn, hearing the vicar chuckling
|
|
privately at the recollection as he withdrew.
|
|
|
|
|
|
They started at three o'clock. The gray morning had resolved
|
|
itself into an afternoon bright with a pale pervasive sunlight,
|
|
without the sun itself being visible. Lightly they trotted along--
|
|
the wheels nearly silent, the horse's hoofs clapping, almost
|
|
ringing, upon the hard, white, turnpike road as it followed the
|
|
level ridge in a perfectly straight line, seeming to be absorbed
|
|
ultimately by the white of the sky.
|
|
|
|
Targan Bay--which had the merit of being easily got at--was duly
|
|
visited. They then swept round by innumerable lanes, in which not
|
|
twenty consecutive yards were either straight or level, to the
|
|
domain of Lord Luxellian. A woman with a double chin and thick
|
|
neck, like Queen Anne by Dahl, threw open the lodge gate, a little
|
|
boy standing behind her.
|
|
|
|
'I'll give him something, poor little fellow,' said Elfride,
|
|
pulling out her purse and hastily opening it. From the interior
|
|
of her purse a host of bits of paper, like a flock of white birds,
|
|
floated into the air, and were blown about in all directions.
|
|
|
|
'Well, to be sure!' said Stephen with a slight laugh.
|
|
|
|
'What the dickens is all that?' said Mr. Swancourt. 'Not halves
|
|
of bank-notes, Elfride?'
|
|
|
|
Elfride looked annoyed and guilty. 'They are only something of
|
|
mine, papa,' she faltered, whilst Stephen leapt out, and, assisted
|
|
by the lodge-keeper's little boy, crept about round the wheels and
|
|
horse's hoofs till the papers were all gathered together again.
|
|
He handed them back to her, and remounted.
|
|
|
|
'I suppose you are wondering what those scraps were?' she said, as
|
|
they bowled along up the sycamore avenue. 'And so I may as well
|
|
tell you. They are notes for a romance I am writing.'
|
|
|
|
She could not help colouring at the confession, much as she tried
|
|
to avoid it.
|
|
|
|
'A story, do you mean?' said Stephen, Mr. Swancourt half
|
|
listening, and catching a word of the conversation now and then.
|
|
|
|
'Yes; THE COURT OF KELLYON CASTLE; a romance of the fifteenth
|
|
century. Such writing is out of date now, I know; but I like
|
|
doing it.'
|
|
|
|
'A romance carried in a purse! If a highwayman were to rob you, he
|
|
would be taken in.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; that's my way of carrying manuscript. The real reason is,
|
|
that I mostly write bits of it on scraps of paper when I am on
|
|
horseback; and I put them there for convenience.'
|
|
|
|
'What are you going to do with your romance when you have written
|
|
it?' said Stephen.
|
|
|
|
'I don't know,' she replied, and turned her head to look at the
|
|
prospect.
|
|
|
|
For by this time they had reached the precincts of Endelstow
|
|
House. Driving through an ancient gate-way of dun-coloured stone,
|
|
spanned by the high-shouldered Tudor arch, they found themselves
|
|
in a spacious court, closed by a facade on each of its three
|
|
sides. The substantial portions of the existing building dated
|
|
from the reign of Henry VIII.; but the picturesque and sheltered
|
|
spot had been the site of an erection of a much earlier date. A
|
|
licence to crenellate mansum infra manerium suum was granted by
|
|
Edward II. to 'Hugo Luxellen chivaler;' but though the faint
|
|
outline of the ditch and mound was visible at points, no sign of
|
|
the original building remained.
|
|
|
|
The windows on all sides were long and many-mullioned; the roof
|
|
lines broken up by dormer lights of the same pattern. The apex
|
|
stones of these dormers, together with those of the gables, were
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|
surmounted by grotesque figures in rampant, passant, and couchant
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variety. Tall octagonal and twisted chimneys thrust themselves
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high up into the sky, surpassed in height, however, by some
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poplars and sycamores at the back, which showed their gently
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rocking summits over ridge and parapet. In the corners of the
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court polygonal bays, whose surfaces were entirely occupied by
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buttresses and windows, broke into the squareness of the
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enclosure; and a far-projecting oriel, springing from a fantastic
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series of mouldings, overhung the archway of the chief entrance to
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the house.
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As Mr. Swancourt had remarked, he had the freedom of the mansion
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in the absence of its owner. Upon a statement of his errand they
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were all admitted to the library, and left entirely to themselves.
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Mr. Swancourt was soon up to his eyes in the examination of a heap
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of papers he had taken from the cabinet described by his
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correspondent. Stephen and Elfride had nothing to do but to
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wander about till her father was ready.
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Elfride entered the gallery, and Stephen followed her without
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seeming to do so. It was a long sombre apartment, enriched with
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fittings a century or so later in style than the walls of the
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mansion. Pilasters of Renaissance workmanship supported a cornice
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from which sprang a curved ceiling, panelled in the awkward twists
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and curls of the period. The old Gothic quarries still remained
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in the upper portion of the large window at the end, though they
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had made way for a more modern form of glazing elsewhere.
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Stephen was at one end of the gallery looking towards Elfride, who
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stood in the midst, beginning to feel somewhat depressed by the
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society of Luxellian shades of cadaverous complexion fixed by
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Holbein, Kneller, and Lely, and seeming to gaze at and through her
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in a moralizing mood. The silence, which cast almost a spell upon
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them, was broken by the sudden opening of a door at the far end.
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Out bounded a pair of little girls, lightly yet warmly dressed.
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Their eyes were sparkling; their hair swinging about and around;
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their red mouths laughing with unalloyed gladness.
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'Ah, Miss Swancourt: dearest Elfie! we heard you. Are you going
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to stay here? You are our little mamma, are you not--our big mamma
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is gone to London,' said one.
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'Let me tiss you,' said the other, in appearance very much like
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the first, but to a smaller pattern.
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Their pink cheeks and yellow hair were speedily intermingled with
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the folds of Elfride's dress; she then stooped and tenderly
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embraced them both.
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'Such an odd thing,' said Elfride, smiling, and turning to
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Stephen. 'They have taken it into their heads lately to call me
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"little mamma," because I am very fond of them, and wore a dress
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the other day something like one of Lady Luxellian's.'
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These two young creatures were the Honourable Mary and the
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Honourable Kate--scarcely appearing large enough as yet to bear
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the weight of such ponderous prefixes. They were the only two
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children of Lord and Lady Luxellian, and, as it proved, had been
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left at home during their parents' temporary absence, in the
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custody of nurse and governess. Lord Luxellian was dotingly fond
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of the children; rather indifferent towards his wife, since she
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|
had begun to show an inclination not to please him by giving him a
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boy.
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All children instinctively ran after Elfride, looking upon her
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more as an unusually nice large specimen of their own tribe than
|
|
as a grown-up elder. It had now become an established rule, that
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whenever she met them--indoors or out-of-doors, weekdays or
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Sundays--they were to be severally pressed against her face and
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|
bosom for the space of a quarter of a minute, and other--wise made
|
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much of on the delightful system of cumulative epithet and caress
|
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to which unpractised girls will occasionally abandon themselves.
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A look of misgiving by the youngsters towards the door by which
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they had entered directed attention to a maid-servant appearing
|
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from the same quarter, to put an end to this sweet freedom of the
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poor Honourables Mary and Kate.
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'I wish you lived here, Miss Swancourt,' piped one like a
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melancholy bullfinch.
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'So do I,' piped the other like a rather more melancholy
|
|
bullfinch. 'Mamma can't play with us so nicely as you do. I
|
|
don't think she ever learnt playing when she was little. When
|
|
shall we come to see you?'
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'As soon as you like, dears.'
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'And sleep at your house all night? That's what I mean by coming
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|
to see you. I don't care to see people with hats and bonnets on,
|
|
and all standing up and walking about.'
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'As soon as we can get mamma's permission you shall come and stay
|
|
as long as ever you like. Good-bye!'
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|
The prisoners were then led off, Elfride again turning her
|
|
attention to her guest, whom she had left standing at the remote
|
|
end of the gallery. On looking around for him he was nowhere to
|
|
be seen. Elfride stepped down to the library, thinking he might
|
|
have rejoined her father there. But Mr. Swancourt, now cheerfully
|
|
illuminated by a pair of candles, was still alone, untying packets
|
|
of letters and papers, and tying them up again.
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|
|
|
As Elfride did not stand on a sufficiently intimate footing with
|
|
the object of her interest to justify her, as a proper young lady,
|
|
to commence the active search for him that youthful impulsiveness
|
|
prompted, and as, nevertheless, for a nascent reason connected
|
|
with those divinely cut lips of his, she did not like him to be
|
|
absent from her side, she wandered desultorily back to the oak
|
|
staircase, pouting and casting her eyes about in hope of
|
|
discerning his boyish figure.
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|
|
|
Though daylight still prevailed in the rooms, the corridors were
|
|
in a depth of shadow--chill, sad, and silent; and it was only by
|
|
looking along them towards light spaces beyond that anything or
|
|
anybody could be discerned therein. One of these light spots she
|
|
found to be caused by a side-door with glass panels in the upper
|
|
part. Elfride opened it, and found herself confronting a
|
|
secondary or inner lawn, separated from the principal lawn front
|
|
by a shrubbery.
|
|
|
|
And now she saw a perplexing sight. At right angles to the face
|
|
of the wing she had emerged from, and within a few feet of the
|
|
door, jutted out another wing of the mansion, lower and with less
|
|
architectural character. Immediately opposite to her, in the wall
|
|
of this wing, was a large broad window, having its blind drawn
|
|
down, and illuminated by a light in the room it screened.
|
|
|
|
On the blind was a shadow from somebody close inside it--a person
|
|
in profile. The profile was unmistakably that of Stephen. It was
|
|
just possible to see that his arms were uplifted, and that his
|
|
hands held an article of some kind. Then another shadow appeared--
|
|
also in profile--and came close to him. This was the shadow of a
|
|
woman. She turned her back towards Stephen: he lifted and held
|
|
out what now proved to be a shawl or mantle--placed it carefully--
|
|
so carefully--round the lady; disappeared; reappeared in her
|
|
front--fastened the mantle. Did he then kiss her? Surely not.
|
|
Yet the motion might have been a kiss. Then both shadows swelled
|
|
to colossal dimensions--grew distorted--vanished.
|
|
|
|
Two minutes elapsed.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, Miss Swancourt! I am so glad to find you. I was looking for
|
|
you,' said a voice at her elbow--Stephen's voice. She stepped
|
|
into the passage.
|
|
|
|
'Do you know any of the members of this establishment?' said she.
|
|
|
|
'Not a single one: how should I?' he replied.
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|
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|
Chapter VI
|
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|
|
'Fare thee weel awhile!'
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|
|
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|
|
Simultaneously with the conclusion of Stephen's remark, the sound
|
|
of the closing of an external door in their immediate
|
|
neighbourhood reached Elfride's ears. It came from the further
|
|
side of the wing containing the illuminated room. She then
|
|
discerned, by the aid of the dusky departing light, a figure,
|
|
whose sex was undistinguishable, walking down the gravelled path
|
|
by the parterre towards the river. The figure grew fainter, and
|
|
vanished under the trees.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Swancourt's voice was heard calling out their names from a
|
|
distant corridor in the body of the building. They retraced their
|
|
steps, and found him with his coat buttoned up and his hat on,
|
|
awaiting their advent in a mood of self-satisfaction at having
|
|
brought his search to a successful close. The carriage was
|
|
brought round, and without further delay the trio drove away from
|
|
the mansion, under the echoing gateway arch, and along by the
|
|
leafless sycamores, as the stars began to kindle their trembling
|
|
lights behind the maze of branches and twigs.
|
|
|
|
No words were spoken either by youth or maiden. Her unpractised
|
|
mind was completely occupied in fathoming its recent acquisition.
|
|
The young man who had inspired her with such novelty of feeling,
|
|
who had come directly from London on business to her father,
|
|
having been brought by chance to Endelstow House had, by some
|
|
means or other, acquired the privilege of approaching some lady he
|
|
had found therein, and of honouring her by petits soins of a
|
|
marked kind,--all in the space of half an hour.
|
|
|
|
What room were they standing in? thought Elfride. As nearly as
|
|
she could guess, it was Lord Luxellian's business-room, or office.
|
|
What people were in the house? None but the governess and
|
|
servants, as far as she knew, and of these he had professed a
|
|
total ignorance. Had the person she had indistinctly seen leaving
|
|
the house anything to do with the performance? It was impossible
|
|
to say without appealing to the culprit himself, and that she
|
|
would never do. The more Elfride reflected, the more certain did
|
|
it appear that the meeting was a chance rencounter, and not an
|
|
appointment. On the ultimate inquiry as to the individuality of
|
|
the woman, Elfride at once assumed that she could not be an
|
|
inferior. Stephen Smith was not the man to care about passages-
|
|
at-love with women beneath him. Though gentle, ambition was
|
|
visible in his kindling eyes; he evidently hoped for much; hoped
|
|
indefinitely, but extensively. Elfride was puzzled, and being
|
|
puzzled, was, by a natural sequence of girlish sensations, vexed
|
|
with him. No more pleasure came in recognizing that from liking
|
|
to attract him she was getting on to love him, boyish as he was
|
|
and innocent as he had seemed.
|
|
|
|
They reached the bridge which formed a link between the eastern
|
|
and western halves of the parish. Situated in a valley that was
|
|
bounded outwardly by the sea, it formed a point of depression from
|
|
which the road ascended with great steepness to West Endelstow and
|
|
the Vicarage. There was no absolute necessity for either of them
|
|
to alight, but as it was the vicar's custom after a long journey
|
|
to humour the horse in making this winding ascent, Elfride, moved
|
|
by an imitative instinct, suddenly jumped out when Pleasant had
|
|
just begun to adopt the deliberate stalk he associated with this
|
|
portion of the road.
|
|
|
|
The young man seemed glad of any excuse for breaking the silence.
|
|
'Why, Miss Swancourt, what a risky thing to do!' he exclaimed,
|
|
immediately following her example by jumping down on the other
|
|
side.
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, not at all,' replied she coldly; the shadow phenomenon at
|
|
Endelstow House still paramount within her.
|
|
|
|
Stephen walked along by himself for two or three minutes, wrapped
|
|
in the rigid reserve dictated by her tone. Then apparently
|
|
thinking that it was only for girls to pout, he came serenely
|
|
round to her side, and offered his arm with Castilian gallantry,
|
|
to assist her in ascending the remaining three-quarters of the
|
|
steep.
|
|
|
|
Here was a temptation: it was the first time in her life that
|
|
Elfride had been treated as a grown-up woman in this way--offered
|
|
an arm in a manner implying that she had a right to refuse it.
|
|
Till to-night she had never received masculine attentions beyond
|
|
those which might be contained in such homely remarks as 'Elfride,
|
|
give me your hand;' 'Elfride, take hold of my arm,' from her
|
|
father. Her callow heart made an epoch of the incident; she
|
|
considered her array of feelings, for and against. Collectively
|
|
they were for taking this offered arm; the single one of pique
|
|
determined her to punish Stephen by refusing.
|
|
|
|
'No, thank you, Mr. Smith; I can get along better by myself'
|
|
|
|
It was Elfride's first fragile attempt at browbeating a lover.
|
|
Fearing more the issue of such an undertaking than what a gentle
|
|
young man might think of her waywardness, she immediately
|
|
afterwards determined to please herself by reversing her
|
|
statement.
|
|
|
|
'On second thoughts, I will take it,' she said.
|
|
|
|
They slowly went their way up the hill, a few yards behind the
|
|
carriage.
|
|
|
|
'How silent you are, Miss Swancourt!' Stephen observed.
|
|
|
|
'Perhaps I think you silent too,' she returned.
|
|
|
|
'I may have reason to be.'
|
|
|
|
'Scarcely; it is sadness that makes people silent, and you can
|
|
have none.'
|
|
|
|
'You don't know: I have a trouble; though some might think it less
|
|
a trouble than a dilemma.'
|
|
|
|
'What is it?' she asked impulsively.
|
|
|
|
Stephen hesitated. 'I might tell,' he said; 'at the same time,
|
|
perhaps, it is as well----'
|
|
|
|
She let go his arm and imperatively pushed it from her, tossing
|
|
her head. She had just learnt that a good deal of dignity is lost
|
|
by asking a question to which an answer is refused, even ever so
|
|
politely; for though politeness does good service in cases of
|
|
requisition and compromise, it but little helps a direct refusal.
|
|
'I don't wish to know anything of it; I don't wish it,' she went
|
|
on. 'The carriage is waiting for us at the top of the hill; we
|
|
must get in;' and Elfride flitted to the front. 'Papa, here is
|
|
your Elfride!' she exclaimed to the dusky figure of the old
|
|
gentleman, as she sprang up and sank by his side without deigning
|
|
to accept aid from Stephen.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, yes!' uttered the vicar in artificially alert tones, awaking
|
|
from a most profound sleep, and suddenly preparing to alight.
|
|
|
|
'Why, what are you doing, papa? We are not home yet.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, no; of course not; we are not at home yet,' Mr. Swancourt
|
|
said very hastily, endeavouring to dodge back to his original
|
|
position with the air of a man who had not moved at all. 'The
|
|
fact is I was so lost in deep meditation that I forgot whereabouts
|
|
we were.' And in a minute the vicar was snoring again.
|
|
|
|
|
|
That evening, being the last, seemed to throw an exceptional shade
|
|
of sadness over Stephen Smith, and the repeated injunctions of the
|
|
vicar, that he was to come and revisit them in the summer,
|
|
apparently tended less to raise his spirits than to unearth some
|
|
misgiving.
|
|
|
|
He left them in the gray light of dawn, whilst the colours of
|
|
earth were sombre, and the sun was yet hidden in the east. Elfride
|
|
had fidgeted all night in her little bed lest none of the
|
|
household should be awake soon enough to start him, and also lest
|
|
she might miss seeing again the bright eyes and curly hair, to
|
|
which their owner's possession of a hidden mystery added a deeper
|
|
tinge of romance. To some extent--so soon does womanly interest
|
|
take a solicitous turn--she felt herself responsible for his safe
|
|
conduct. They breakfasted before daylight; Mr. Swancourt, being
|
|
more and more taken with his guest's ingenuous appearance, having
|
|
determined to rise early and bid him a friendly farewell. It was,
|
|
however, rather to the vicar's astonishment, that he saw Elfride
|
|
walk in to the breakfast-table, candle in hand.
|
|
|
|
Whilst William Worm performed his toilet (during which performance
|
|
the inmates of the vicarage were always in the habit of waiting
|
|
with exemplary patience), Elfride wandered desultorily to the
|
|
summer house. Stephen followed her thither. The copse-covered
|
|
valley was visible from this position, a mist now lying all along
|
|
its length, hiding the stream which trickled through it, though
|
|
the observers themselves were in clear air.
|
|
|
|
They stood close together, leaning over the rustic balustrading
|
|
which bounded the arbour on the outward side, and formed the crest
|
|
of a steep slope beneath Elfride constrainedly pointed out some
|
|
features of the distant uplands rising irregularly opposite. But
|
|
the artistic eye was, either from nature or circumstance, very
|
|
faint in Stephen now, and he only half attended to her
|
|
description, as if he spared time from some other thought going on
|
|
within him.
|
|
|
|
'Well, good-bye,' he said suddenly; 'I must never see you again, I
|
|
suppose, Miss Swancourt, in spite of invitations.'
|
|
|
|
His genuine tribulation played directly upon the delicate chords
|
|
of her nature. She could afford to forgive him for a concealment
|
|
or two. Moreover, the shyness which would not allow him to look
|
|
her in the face lent bravery to her own eyes and tongue.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, DO come again, Mr. Smith!' she said prettily.
|
|
|
|
'I should delight in it; but it will be better if I do not.'
|
|
|
|
'Why?'
|
|
|
|
'Certain circumstances in connection with me make it undesirable.
|
|
Not on my account; on yours.'
|
|
|
|
'Goodness! As if anything in connection with you could hurt me,'
|
|
she said with serene supremacy; but seeing that this plan of
|
|
treatment was inappropriate, she tuned a smaller note. 'Ah, I
|
|
know why you will not come. You don't want to. You'll go home to
|
|
London and to all the stirring people there, and will never want
|
|
to see us any more!'
|
|
|
|
'You know I have no such reason.'
|
|
|
|
'And go on writing letters to the lady you are engaged to, just as
|
|
before.'
|
|
|
|
'What does that mean? I am not engaged.'
|
|
|
|
'You wrote a letter to a Miss Somebody; I saw it in the letter-
|
|
rack.'
|
|
|
|
'Pooh! an elderly woman who keeps a stationer's shop; and it was
|
|
to tell her to keep my newspapers till I get back.'
|
|
|
|
'You needn't have explained: it was not my business at all.' Miss
|
|
Elfride was rather relieved to hear that statement, nevertheless.
|
|
'And you won't come again to see my father?' she insisted.
|
|
|
|
'I should like to--and to see you again, but----'
|
|
|
|
'Will you reveal to me that matter you hide?' she interrupted
|
|
petulantly.
|
|
|
|
'No; not now.'
|
|
|
|
She could not but go on, graceless as it might seem.
|
|
|
|
'Tell me this,' she importuned with a trembling mouth. 'Does any
|
|
meeting of yours with a lady at Endelstow Vicarage clash with--any
|
|
interest you may take in me?'
|
|
|
|
He started a little. 'It does not,' he said emphatically; and
|
|
looked into the pupils of her eyes with the confidence that only
|
|
honesty can give, and even that to youth alone.
|
|
|
|
The explanation had not come, but a gloom left her. She could not
|
|
but believe that utterance. Whatever enigma might lie in the
|
|
shadow on the blind, it was not an enigma of underhand passion.
|
|
|
|
She turned towards the house, entering it through the
|
|
conservatory. Stephen went round to the front door. Mr.
|
|
Swancourt was standing on the step in his slippers. Worm was
|
|
adjusting a buckle in the harness, and murmuring about his poor
|
|
head; and everything was ready for Stephen's departure.
|
|
|
|
'You named August for your visit. August it shall be; that is, if
|
|
you care for the society of such a fossilized Tory,' said Mr.
|
|
Swancourt.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Smith only responded hesitatingly, that he should like to come
|
|
again.
|
|
|
|
'You said you would, and you must,' insisted Elfride, coming to
|
|
the door and speaking under her father's arm.
|
|
|
|
Whatever reason the youth may have had for not wishing to enter
|
|
the house as a guest, it no longer predominated. He promised, and
|
|
bade them adieu, and got into the pony-carriage, which crept up
|
|
the slope, and bore him out of their sight.
|
|
|
|
'I never was so much taken with anybody in my life as I am with
|
|
that young fellow--never! I cannot understand it--can't understand
|
|
it anyhow,' said Mr. Swancourt quite energetically to himself; and
|
|
went indoors.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter VII
|
|
|
|
'No more of me you knew, my love!'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Stephen Smith revisited Endelstow Vicarage, agreeably to his
|
|
promise. He had a genuine artistic reason for coming, though no
|
|
such reason seemed to be required. Six-and-thirty old seat ends,
|
|
of exquisite fifteenth-century workmanship, were rapidly decaying
|
|
in an aisle of the church; and it became politic to make drawings
|
|
of their worm-eaten contours ere they were battered past
|
|
recognition in the turmoil of the so-called restoration.
|
|
|
|
He entered the house at sunset, and the world was pleasant again
|
|
to the two fair-haired ones. A momentary pang of disappointment
|
|
had, nevertheless, passed through Elfride when she casually
|
|
discovered that he had not come that minute post-haste from
|
|
London, but had reached the neighbourhood the previous evening.
|
|
Surprise would have accompanied the feeling, had she not
|
|
remembered that several tourists were haunting the coast at this
|
|
season, and that Stephen might have chosen to do likewise.
|
|
|
|
They did little besides chat that evening, Mr. Swancourt beginning
|
|
to question his visitor, closely yet paternally, and in good part,
|
|
on his hopes and prospects from the profession he had embraced.
|
|
Stephen gave vague answers. The next day it rained. In the
|
|
evening, when twenty-four hours of Elfride had completely
|
|
rekindled her admirer's ardour, a game of chess was proposed
|
|
between them.
|
|
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The game had its value in helping on the developments of their
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future.
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Elfride soon perceived that her opponent was but a learner. She
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next noticed that he had a very odd way of handling the pieces
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when castling or taking a man. Antecedently she would have
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supposed that the same performance must be gone through by all
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players in the same manner; she was taught by his differing action
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that all ordinary players, who learn the game by sight,
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unconsciously touch the men in a stereotyped way. This impression
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of indescribable oddness in Stephen's touch culminated in speech
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when she saw him, at the taking of one of her bishops, push it
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aside with the taking man instead of lifting it as a preliminary
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to the move.
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'How strangely you handle the men, Mr. Smith!'
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'Do I? I am sorry for that.'
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'Oh no--don't be sorry; it is not a matter great enough for
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sorrow. But who taught you to play?'
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'Nobody, Miss Swancourt,' he said. 'I learnt from a book lent me
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by my friend Mr. Knight, the noblest man in the world.'
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'But you have seen people play?'
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'I have never seen the playing of a single game. This is the
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first time I ever had the opportunity of playing with a living
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opponent. I have worked out many games from books, and studied
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the reasons of the different moves, but that is all.'
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This was a full explanation of his mannerism; but the fact that a
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man with the desire for chess should have grown up without being
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able to see or engage in a game astonished her not a little. She
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pondered on the circumstance for some time, looking into vacancy
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and hindering the play.
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Mr. Swancourt was sitting with his eyes fixed on the board, but
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apparently thinking of other things. Half to himself he said,
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pending the move of Elfride:
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'"Quae finis aut quod me manet stipendium?"'
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Stephen replied instantly:
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'"Effare: jussas cum fide poenas luam."'
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'Excellent--prompt--gratifying!' said Mr. Swancourt with feeling,
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bringing down his hand upon the table, and making three pawns and
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a knight dance over their borders by the shaking. 'I was musing
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on those words as applicable to a strange course I am steering--
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but enough of that. I am delighted with you, Mr. Smith, for it is
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so seldom in this desert that I meet with a man who is gentleman
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and scholar enough to continue a quotation, however trite it may
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be.'
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'I also apply the words to myself,' said Stephen quietly.
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'You? The last man in the world to do that, I should have
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thought.'
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'Come,' murmured Elfride poutingly, and insinuating herself
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between them, 'tell me all about it. Come, construe, construe!'
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Stephen looked steadfastly into her face, and said slowly, and in
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a voice full of a far-off meaning that seemed quaintly premature
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in one so young:
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'Quae finis WHAT WILL BE THE END, aut OR, quod stipendium WHAT
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FINE, manet me AWAITS ME? Effare SPEAK OUT; luam I WILL PAY, cum
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fide WITH FAITH, jussas poenas THE PENALTY REQUIRED.'
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The vicar, who had listened with a critical compression of the
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lips to this school-boy recitation, and by reason of his imperfect
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hearing had missed the marked realism of Stephen's tone in the
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English words, now said hesitatingly: 'By the bye, Mr. Smith (I
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know you'll excuse my curiosity), though your translation was
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unexceptionably correct and close, you have a way of pronouncing
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your Latin which to me seems most peculiar. Not that the
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pronunciation of a dead language is of much importance; yet your
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accents and quantities have a grotesque sound to my ears. I
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thought first that you had acquired your way of breathing the
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vowels from some of the northern colleges; but it cannot be so
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with the quantities. What I was going to ask was, if your
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instructor in the classics could possibly have been an Oxford or
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Cambridge man?'
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'Yes; he was an Oxford man--Fellow of St. Cyprian's.'
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'Really?'
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'Oh yes; there's no doubt about it.
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'The oddest thing ever I heard of!' said Mr. Swancourt, starting
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with astonishment. 'That the pupil of such a man----'
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'The best and cleverest man in England!' cried Stephen
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enthusiastically.
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'That the pupil of such a man should pronounce Latin in the way
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you pronounce it beats all I ever heard. How long did he instruct
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you?'
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'Four years.'
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'Four years!'
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'It is not so strange when I explain,' Stephen hastened to say.
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'It was done in this way--by letter. I sent him exercises and
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construing twice a week, and twice a week he sent them back to me
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corrected, with marginal notes of instruction. That is how I
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learnt my Latin and Greek, such as it is. He is not responsible
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for my scanning. He has never heard me scan a line.'
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'A novel case, and a singular instance of patience!' cried the
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vicar.
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'On his part, not on mine. Ah, Henry Knight is one in a thousand!
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I remember his speaking to me on this very subject of
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pronunciation. He says that, much to his regret, he sees a time
|
|
coming when every man will pronounce even the common words of his
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|
own tongue as seems right in his own ears, and be thought none the
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|
worse for it; that the speaking age is passing away, to make room
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for the writing age.'
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Both Elfride and her father had waited attentively to hear Stephen
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go on to what would have been the most interesting part of the
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|
story, namely, what circumstances could have necessitated such an
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unusual method of education. But no further explanation was
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|
volunteered; and they saw, by the young man's manner of
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|
concentrating himself upon the chess-board, that he was anxious to
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|
drop the subject.
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The game proceeded. Elfride played by rote; Stephen by thought.
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|
It was the cruellest thing to checkmate him after so much labour,
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|
she considered. What was she dishonest enough to do in her
|
|
compassion? To let him checkmate her. A second game followed; and
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|
being herself absolutely indifferent as to the result (her playing
|
|
was above the average among women, and she knew it), she allowed
|
|
him to give checkmate again. A final game, in which she adopted
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|
the Muzio gambit as her opening, was terminated by Elfride's
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|
victory at the twelfth move.
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Stephen looked up suspiciously. His heart was throbbing even more
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|
excitedly than was hers, which itself had quickened when she
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|
seriously set to work on this last occasion. Mr. Swancourt had
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|
left the room.
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'You have been trifling with me till now!' he exclaimed, his face
|
|
flushing. 'You did not play your best in the first two games?'
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Elfride's guilt showed in her face. Stephen became the picture of
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|
vexation and sadness, which, relishable for a moment, caused her
|
|
the next instant to regret the mistake she had made.
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'Mr. Smith, forgive me!' she said sweetly. 'I see now, though I
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|
did not at first, that what I have done seems like contempt for
|
|
your skill. But, indeed, I did not mean it in that sense. I
|
|
could not, upon my conscience, win a victory in those first and
|
|
second games over one who fought at such a disadvantage and so
|
|
manfully.'
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He drew a long breath, and murmured bitterly, 'Ah, you are
|
|
cleverer than I. You can do everything--I can do nothing! O Miss
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|
Swancourt!' he burst out wildly, his heart swelling in his throat,
|
|
'I must tell you how I love you! All these months of my absence I
|
|
have worshipped you.'
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|
He leapt from his seat like the impulsive lad that he was, slid
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|
round to her side, and almost before she suspected it his arm was
|
|
round her waist, and the two sets of curls intermingled.
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|
So entirely new was full-blown love to Elfride, that she trembled
|
|
as much from the novelty of the emotion as from the emotion
|
|
itself. Then she suddenly withdrew herself and stood upright,
|
|
vexed that she had submitted unresistingly even to his momentary
|
|
pressure. She resolved to consider this demonstration as
|
|
premature.
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|
'You must not begin such things as those,' she said with
|
|
coquettish hauteur of a very transparent nature 'And--you must not
|
|
do so again--and papa is coming.'
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|
'Let me kiss you--only a little one,' he said with his usual
|
|
delicacy, and without reading the factitiousness of her manner.
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'No; not one.'
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|
'Only on your cheek?'
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'No.'
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|
'Forehead?'
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|
'Certainly not.'
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|
'You care for somebody else, then? Ah, I thought so!'
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|
'I am sure I do not.'
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|
'Nor for me either?'
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|
'How can I tell?' she said simply, the simplicity lying merely in
|
|
the broad outlines of her manner and speech. There were the
|
|
semitone of voice and half-hidden expression of eyes which tell
|
|
the initiated how very fragile is the ice of reserve at these
|
|
times.
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|
Footsteps were heard. Mr. Swancourt then entered the room, and
|
|
their private colloquy ended.
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|
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|
The day after this partial revelation, Mr. Swancourt proposed a
|
|
drive to the cliffs beyond Targan Bay, a distance of three or four
|
|
miles.
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|
|
|
Half an hour before the time of departure a crash was heard in the
|
|
back yard, and presently Worm came in, saying partly to the world
|
|
in general, part]y to himself, and slightly to his auditors:
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|
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|
'Ay, ay, sure! That frying of fish will be the end of William
|
|
Worm. They be at it again this morning--same as ever--fizz, fizz,
|
|
fizz!'
|
|
|
|
'Your head bad again, Worm?' said Mr. Swancourt. 'What was that
|
|
noise we heard in the yard?'
|
|
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|
'Ay, sir, a weak wambling man am I; and the frying have been going
|
|
on in my poor head all through the long night and this morning as
|
|
usual; and I was so dazed wi' it that down fell a piece of leg-
|
|
wood across the shaft of the pony-shay, and splintered it off.
|
|
"Ay," says I, "I feel it as if 'twas my own shay; and though I've
|
|
done it, and parish pay is my lot if I go from here, perhaps I am
|
|
as independent as one here and there."'
|
|
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|
'Dear me, the shaft of the carriage broken!' cried Elfride. She
|
|
was disappointed: Stephen doubly so. The vicar showed more warmth
|
|
of temper than the accident seemed to demand, much to Stephen's
|
|
uneasiness and rather to his surprise. He had not supposed so
|
|
much latent sternness could co-exist with Mr. Swancourt's
|
|
frankness and good-nature.
|
|
|
|
'You shall not be disappointed,' said the vicar at length. 'It is
|
|
almost too long a distance for you to walk. Elfride can trot down
|
|
on her pony, and you shall have my old nag, Smith.'
|
|
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|
Elfride exclaimed triumphantly, 'You have never seen me on
|
|
horseback--Oh, you must!' She looked at Stephen and read his
|
|
thoughts immediately. 'Ah, you don't ride, Mr. Smith?'
|
|
|
|
'I am sorry to say I don't.'
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|
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|
'Fancy a man not able to ride!' said she rather pertly.
|
|
|
|
The vicar came to his rescue. 'That's common enough; he has had
|
|
other lessons to learn. Now, I recommend this plan: let Elfride
|
|
ride on horseback, and you, Mr. Smith, walk beside her.'
|
|
|
|
The arrangement was welcomed with secret delight by Stephen. It
|
|
seemed to combine in itself all the advantages of a long slow
|
|
ramble with Elfride, without the contingent possibility of the
|
|
enjoyment being spoilt by her becoming weary. The pony was
|
|
saddled and brought round.
|
|
|
|
'Now, Mr. Smith,' said the lady imperatively, coming downstairs,
|
|
and appearing in her riding-habit, as she always did in a change
|
|
of dress, like a new edition of a delightful volume, 'you have a
|
|
task to perform to-day. These earrings are my very favourite
|
|
darling ones; but the worst of it is that they have such short
|
|
hooks that they are liable to be dropped if I toss my head about
|
|
much, and when I am riding I can't give my mind to them. It would
|
|
be doing me knight service if you keep your eyes fixed upon them,
|
|
and remember them every minute of the day, and tell me directly I
|
|
drop one. They have had such hairbreadth escapes, haven't they,
|
|
Unity?' she continued to the parlour-maid who was standing at the
|
|
door.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, miss, that they have!' said Unity with round-eyed
|
|
commiseration.
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|
|
|
'Once 'twas in the lane that I found one of them,' pursued Elfride
|
|
reflectively.
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|
|
|
'And then 'twas by the gate into Eighteen Acres,' Unity chimed in.
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|
'And then 'twas on the carpet in my own room,' rejoined Elfride
|
|
merrily.
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|
|
|
'And then 'twas dangling on the embroidery of your petticoat,
|
|
miss; and then 'twas down your back, miss, wasn't it? And oh, what
|
|
a way you was in, miss, wasn't you? my! until you found it!'
|
|
|
|
Stephen took Elfride's slight foot upon his hand: 'One, two,
|
|
three, and up!' she said.
|
|
|
|
Unfortunately not so. He staggered and lifted, and the horse
|
|
edged round; and Elfride was ultimately deposited upon the ground
|
|
rather more forcibly than was pleasant. Smith looked all
|
|
contrition.
|
|
|
|
'Never mind,' said the vicar encouragingly; 'try again! 'Tis a
|
|
little accomplishment that requires some practice, although it
|
|
looks so easy. Stand closer to the horse's head, Mr. Smith.'
|
|
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|
'Indeed, I shan't let him try again,' said she with a microscopic
|
|
look of indignation. 'Worm, come here, and help me to mount.'
|
|
Worm stepped forward, and she was in the saddle in a trice.
|
|
|
|
Then they moved on, going for some distance in silence, the hot
|
|
air of the valley being occasionally brushed from their faces by a
|
|
cool breeze, which wound its way along ravines leading up from the
|
|
sea.
|
|
|
|
'I suppose,' said Stephen, 'that a man who can neither sit in a
|
|
saddle himself nor help another person into one seems a useless
|
|
incumbrance; but, Miss Swancourt, I'll learn to do it all for your
|
|
sake; I will, indeed.'
|
|
|
|
'What is so unusual in you,' she said, in a didactic tone
|
|
justifiable in a horsewoman's address to a benighted walker, 'is
|
|
that your knowledge of certain things should be combined with your
|
|
ignorance of certain other things.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen lifted his eyes earnestly to hers.
|
|
|
|
'You know,' he said, 'it is simply because there are so many other
|
|
things to be learnt in this wide world that I didn't trouble about
|
|
that particular bit of knowledge. I thought it would be useless
|
|
to me; but I don't think so now. I will learn riding, and all
|
|
connected with it, because then you would like me better. Do you
|
|
like me much less for this?'
|
|
|
|
She looked sideways at him with critical meditation tenderly
|
|
rendered.
|
|
|
|
'Do I seem like LA BELLE DAME SANS MERCI?' she began suddenly,
|
|
without replying to his question. 'Fancy yourself saying, Mr.
|
|
Smith:
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|
|
|
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|
"I sat her on my pacing steed,
|
|
And nothing else saw all day long,
|
|
For sidelong would she bend, and sing
|
|
A fairy's song,
|
|
She found me roots of relish sweet,
|
|
And honey wild, and manna dew; "
|
|
|
|
|
|
and that's all she did.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no,' said the young man stilly, and with a rising colour.
|
|
|
|
|
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|
|
'"And sure in language strange she said,
|
|
I love thee true."'
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
'Not at all,' she rejoined quickly. 'See how I can gallop. Now,
|
|
Pansy, off!' And Elfride started; and Stephen beheld her light
|
|
figure contracting to the dimensions of a bird as she sank into
|
|
the distance--her hair flowing.
|
|
|
|
He walked on in the same direction, and for a considerable time
|
|
could see no signs of her returning. Dull as a flower without the
|
|
sun he sat down upon a stone, and not for fifteen minutes was any
|
|
sound of horse or rider to be heard. Then Elfride and Pansy
|
|
appeared on the hill in a round trot.
|
|
|
|
'Such a delightful scamper as we have had!' she said, her face
|
|
flushed and her eyes sparkling. She turned the horse's head,
|
|
Stephen arose, and they went on again.
|
|
|
|
'Well, what have you to say to me, Mr. Smith, after my long
|
|
absence?'
|
|
|
|
'Do you remember a question you could not exactly answer last
|
|
night--whether I was more to you than anybody else?' said he.
|
|
|
|
'I cannot exactly answer now, either.'
|
|
|
|
'Why can't you?'
|
|
|
|
'Because I don't know if I am more to you than any one else.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, indeed, you are!' he exclaimed in a voice of intensest
|
|
appreciation, at the same time gliding round and looking into her
|
|
face.
|
|
|
|
'Eyes in eyes,' he murmured playfully; and she blushingly obeyed,
|
|
looking back into his.
|
|
|
|
'And why not lips on lips?' continued Stephen daringly.
|
|
|
|
'No, certainly not. Anybody might look; and it would be the death
|
|
of me. You may kiss my hand if you like.'
|
|
|
|
He expressed by a look that to kiss a hand through a glove, and
|
|
that a riding-glove, was not a great treat under the
|
|
circumstances.
|
|
|
|
'There, then; I'll take my glove off. Isn't it a pretty white
|
|
hand? Ah, you don't want to kiss it, and you shall not now!'
|
|
|
|
'If I do not, may I never kiss again, you severe Elfride! You know
|
|
I think more of you than I can tell; that you are my queen. I
|
|
would die for you, Elfride!'
|
|
|
|
A rapid red again filled her cheeks, and she looked at him
|
|
meditatively. What a proud moment it was for Elfride then! She
|
|
was ruling a heart with absolute despotism for the first time in
|
|
her life.
|
|
|
|
Stephen stealthily pounced upon her hand.
|
|
|
|
'No; I won't, I won't!' she said intractably; 'and you shouldn't
|
|
take me by surprise.'
|
|
|
|
There ensued a mild form of tussle for absolute possession of the
|
|
much-coveted hand, in which the boisterousness of boy and girl was
|
|
far more prominent than the dignity of man and woman. Then Pansy
|
|
became restless. Elfride recovered her position and remembered
|
|
herself.
|
|
|
|
'You make me behave in not a nice way at all!' she exclaimed, in a
|
|
tone neither of pleasure nor anger, but partaking of both. 'I
|
|
ought not to have allowed such a romp! We are too old now for that
|
|
sort of thing.'
|
|
|
|
'I hope you don't think me too--too much of a creeping-round sort
|
|
of man,' said he in a penitent tone, conscious that he too had
|
|
lost a little dignity by the proceeding.
|
|
|
|
'You are too familiar; and I can't have it! Considering the
|
|
shortness of the time we have known each other, Mr. Smith, you
|
|
take too much upon you. You think I am a country girl, and it
|
|
doesn't matter how you behave to me!'
|
|
|
|
'I assure you, Miss Swancourt, that I had no idea of freak in my
|
|
mind. I wanted to imprint a sweet--serious kiss upon your hand;
|
|
and that's all.'
|
|
|
|
'Now, that's creeping round again! And you mustn't look into my
|
|
eyes so,' she said, shaking her head at him, and trotting on a few
|
|
paces in advance. Thus she led the way out of the lane and across
|
|
some fields in the direction of the cliffs. At the boundary of
|
|
the fields nearest the sea she expressed a wish to dismount. The
|
|
horse was tied to a post. and they both followed an irregular
|
|
path, which ultimately terminated upon a flat ledge passing round
|
|
the face of the huge blue-black rock at a height about midway
|
|
between the sea and the topmost verge. There, far beneath and
|
|
before them, lay the everlasting stretch of ocean; there, upon
|
|
detached rocks, were the white screaming gulls, seeming ever
|
|
intending to settle, and yet always passing on. Right and left
|
|
ranked the toothed and zigzag line of storm-torn heights, forming
|
|
the series which culminated in the one beneath their feet.
|
|
|
|
Behind the youth and maiden was a tempting alcove and seat, formed
|
|
naturally in the beetling mass, and wide enough to admit two or
|
|
three persons. Elfride sat down, and Stephen sat beside her.
|
|
|
|
'I am afraid it is hardly proper of us to be here, either,' she
|
|
said half inquiringly. 'We have not known each other long enough
|
|
for this kind of thing, have we!'
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes,' he replied judicially; 'quite long enough.'
|
|
|
|
'How do you know?'
|
|
|
|
'It is not length of time, but the manner in which our minutes
|
|
beat, that makes enough or not enough in our acquaintanceship.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, I see that. But I wish papa suspected or knew what a VERY
|
|
NEW THING I am doing. He does not think of it at all.'
|
|
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'Darling Elfie, I wish we could be married! It is wrong for me to
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say it--I know it is--before you know more; but I wish we might
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be, all the same. Do you love me deeply, deeply?'
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'No!' she said in a fluster.
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At this point-blank denial, Stephen turned his face away
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decisively, and preserved an ominous silence; the only objects of
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interest on earth for him being apparently the three or four-score
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sea-birds circling in the air afar off.
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'I didn't mean to stop you quite,' she faltered with some alarm;
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and seeing that he still remained silent, she added more
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anxiously, 'If you say that again, perhaps, I will not be quite--
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quite so obstinate--if--if you don't like me to be.'
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'Oh, my Elfride!' he exclaimed, and kissed her.
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It was Elfride's first kiss. And so awkward and unused was she;
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full of striving--no relenting. There was none of those apparent
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struggles to get out of the trap which only results in getting
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further in: no final attitude of receptivity: no easy close of
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shoulder to shoulder, hand upon hand, face upon face, and, in
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spite of coyness, the lips in the right place at the supreme
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moment. That graceful though apparently accidental falling into
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position, which many have noticed as precipitating the end and
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making sweethearts the sweeter, was not here. Why? Because
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experience was absent. A woman must have had many kisses before
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she kisses well.
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In fact, the art of tendering the lips for these amatory salutes
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follows the principles laid down in treatises on legerdemain for
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performing the trick called Forcing a Card. The card is to be
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shifted nimbly, withdrawn, edged under, and withal not to be
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offered till the moment the unsuspecting person's hand reaches the
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pack; this forcing to be done so modestly and yet so coaxingly,
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that the person trifled with imagines he is really choosing what
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is in fact thrust into his hand.
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Well, there were no such facilities now; and Stephen was conscious
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of it--first with a momentary regret that his kiss should be
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spoilt by her confused receipt of it, and then with the pleasant
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perception that her awkwardness was her charm.
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'And you do care for me and love me?' said he.
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'Yes.'
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'Very much?'
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'Yes.'
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'And I mustn't ask you if you'll wait for me, and be my wife some
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day?'
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'Why not?' she said naively.
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'There is a reason why, my Elfride.'
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'Not any one that I know of.'
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'Suppose there is something connected with me which makes it
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almost impossible for you to agree to be my wife, or for your
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father to countenance such an idea?'
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'Nothing shall make me cease to love you: no blemish can be found
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upon your personal nature. That is pure and generous, I know; and
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having that, how can I be cold to you?'
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'And shall nothing else affect us--shall nothing beyond my nature
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be a part of my quality in your eyes, Elfie?'
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'Nothing whatever,' she said with a breath of relief. 'Is that
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all? Some outside circumstance? What do I care?'
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'You can hardly judge, dear, till you know what has to be judged.
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For that, we will stop till we get home. I believe in you, but I
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cannot feel bright.'
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'Love is new, and fresh to us as the dew; and we are together. As
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the lover's world goes, this is a great deal. Stephen, I fancy I
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see the difference between me and you--between men and women
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generally, perhaps. I am content to build happiness on any
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accidental basis that may lie near at hand; you are for making a
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world to suit your happiness.'
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'Elfride, you sometimes say things which make you seem suddenly to
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become five years older than you are, or than I am; and that
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remark is one. I couldn't think so OLD as that, try how I
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might....And no lover has ever kissed you before?'
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'Never.'
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'I knew that; you were so unused. You ride well, but you don't
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kiss nicely at all; and I was told once, by my friend Knight, that
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that is an excellent fault in woman.'
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'Now, come; I must mount again, or we shall not be home by dinner-
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time.' And they returned to where Pansy stood tethered. 'Instead
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of entrusting my weight to a young man's unstable palm,' she
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continued gaily, 'I prefer a surer "upping-stock" (as the
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villagers call it), in the form of a gate. There--now I am myself
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again.'
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They proceeded homeward at the same walking pace.
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Her blitheness won Stephen out of his thoughtfulness, and each
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forgot everything but the tone of the moment.
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'What did you love me for?' she said, after a long musing look at
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a flying bird.
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'I don't know,' he replied idly.
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'Oh yes, you do,' insisted Elfride.
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'Perhaps, for your eyes.'
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'What of them?--now, don't vex me by a light answer. What of my
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eyes?'
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'Oh, nothing to be mentioned. They are indifferently good.'
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'Come, Stephen, I won't have that. What did you love me for?'
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'It might have been for your mouth?'
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'Well, what about my mouth?'
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'I thought it was a passable mouth enough----'
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'That's not very comforting.'
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'With a pretty pout and sweet lips; but actually, nothing more
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than what everybody has.'
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'Don't make up things out of your head as you go on, there's a
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dear Stephen. Now--what--did--you--love--me--for?'
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'Perhaps, 'twas for your neck and hair; though I am not sure: or
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for your idle blood, that did nothing but wander away from your
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cheeks and back again; but I am not sure. Or your hands and arms,
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that they eclipsed all other hands and arms; or your feet, that
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they played about under your dress like little mice; or your
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tongue, that it was of a dear delicate tone. But I am not
|
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altogether sure.'
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'Ah, that's pretty to say; but I don't care for your love, if it
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|
made a mere flat picture of me in that way, and not being sure,
|
|
and such cold reasoning; but what you FELT I was, you know,
|
|
Stephen' (at this a stealthy laugh and frisky look into his face),
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'when you said to yourself, "I'll certainly love that young
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|
lady."'
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'I never said it.'
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'When you said to yourself, then, "I never will love that young
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|
lady."'
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'I didn't say that, either.'
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'Then was it, "I suppose I must love that young lady?"'
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'No.'
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'What, then?'
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''Twas much more fluctuating--not so definite.'
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'Tell me; do, do.'
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'It was that I ought not to think about you if I loved you truly.'
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|
'Ah, that I don't understand. There's no getting it out of you.
|
|
And I'll not ask you ever any more--never more--to say out of the
|
|
deep reality of your heart what you loved me for.'
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|
|
|
'Sweet tantalizer, what's the use? It comes to this sole simple
|
|
thing: That at one time I had never seen you, and I didn't love
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|
you; that then I saw you, and I did love you. Is that enough?'
|
|
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|
'Yes; I will make it do....I know, I think, what I love you for.
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|
You are nice-looking, of course; but I didn't mean for that. It
|
|
is because you are so docile and gentle.'
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|
|
|
'Those are not quite the correct qualities for a man to be loved
|
|
for,' said Stephen, in rather a dissatisfied tone of self-
|
|
criticism. 'Well, never mind. I must ask your father to allow us
|
|
to be engaged directly we get indoors. It will be for a long
|
|
time.'
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|
|
|
'I like it the better....Stephen, don't mention it till to-
|
|
morrow.'
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|
|
|
'Why?'
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|
|
|
'Because, if he should object--I don't think he will; but if he
|
|
should--we shall have a day longer of happiness from our
|
|
ignorance....Well, what are you thinking of so deeply?'
|
|
|
|
'I was thinking how my dear friend Knight would enjoy this scene.
|
|
I wish he could come here.'
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|
|
|
'You seem very much engrossed with him,' she answered, with a
|
|
jealous little toss. 'He must be an interesting man to take up so
|
|
much of your attention.'
|
|
|
|
'Interesting!' said Stephen, his face glowing with his fervour;
|
|
'noble, you ought to say.'
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|
|
|
'Oh yes, yes; I forgot,' she said half satirically. 'The noblest
|
|
man in England, as you told us last night.'
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|
|
|
'He is a fine fellow, laugh as you will, Miss Elfie.'
|
|
|
|
'I know he is your hero. But what does he do? anything?'
|
|
|
|
'He writes.'
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|
|
|
'What does he write? I have never heard of his name.'
|
|
|
|
'Because his personality, and that of several others like him, is
|
|
absorbed into a huge WE, namely, the impalpable entity called the
|
|
PRESENT--a social and literary Review.'
|
|
|
|
'Is he only a reviewer?'
|
|
|
|
'ONLY, Elfie! Why, I can tell you it is a fine thing to be on the
|
|
staff of the PRESENT. Finer than being a novelist considerably.'
|
|
|
|
'That's a hit at me, and my poor COURT OF KELLYON CASTLE.'
|
|
|
|
'No, Elfride,' he whispered; 'I didn't mean that. I mean that he
|
|
is really a literary man of some eminence, and not altogether a
|
|
reviewer. He writes things of a higher class than reviews, though
|
|
he reviews a book occasionally. His ordinary productions are
|
|
social and ethical essays--all that the PRESENT contains which is
|
|
not literary reviewing.'
|
|
|
|
'I admit he must be talented if he writes for the PRESENT. We
|
|
have it sent to us irregularly. I want papa to be a subscriber,
|
|
but he's so conservative. Now the next point in this Mr. Knight--
|
|
I suppose he is a very good man.'
|
|
|
|
'An excellent man. I shall try to be his intimate friend some
|
|
day.'
|
|
|
|
'But aren't you now?'
|
|
|
|
'No; not so much as that,' replied Stephen, as if such a
|
|
supposition were extravagant. 'You see, it was in this way--he
|
|
came originally from the same place as I, and taught me things;
|
|
but I am not intimate with him. Shan't I be glad when I get
|
|
richer and better known, and hob and nob with him!' Stephen's eyes
|
|
sparkled.
|
|
|
|
A pout began to shape itself upon Elfride's soft lips. 'You think
|
|
always of him, and like him better than you do me!'
|
|
|
|
'No, indeed, Elfride. The feeling is different quite. But I do
|
|
like him, and he deserves even more affection from me than I
|
|
give.'
|
|
|
|
'You are not nice now, and you make me as jealous as possible!'
|
|
she exclaimed perversely. 'I know you will never speak to any
|
|
third person of me so warmly as you do to me of him.'
|
|
|
|
'But you don't understand, Elfride,' he said with an anxious
|
|
movement. 'You shall know him some day. He is so brilliant--no,
|
|
it isn't exactly brilliant; so thoughtful--nor does thoughtful
|
|
express him--that it would charm you to talk to him. He's a most
|
|
desirable friend, and that isn't half I could say.'
|
|
|
|
'I don't care how good he is; I don't want to know him, because he
|
|
comes between me and you. You think of him night and day, ever so
|
|
much more than of anybody else; and when you are thinking of him,
|
|
I am shut out of your mind.'
|
|
|
|
'No, dear Elfride; I love you dearly.'
|
|
|
|
'And I don't like you to tell me so warmly about him when you are
|
|
in the middle of loving me. Stephen, suppose that I and this man
|
|
Knight of yours were both drowning, and you could only save one of
|
|
us----'
|
|
|
|
'Yes--the stupid old proposition--which would I save?
|
|
|
|
'Well, which? Not me.'
|
|
|
|
'Both of you,' he said, pressing her pendent hand.
|
|
|
|
'No, that won't do; only one of us.'
|
|
|
|
'I cannot say; I don't know. It is disagreeable--quite a horrid
|
|
idea to have to handle.'
|
|
|
|
'A-ha, I know. You would save him, and let me drown, drown,
|
|
drown; and I don't care about your love!'
|
|
|
|
She had endeavoured to give a playful tone to her words, but the
|
|
latter speech was rather forced in its gaiety.
|
|
|
|
At this point in the discussion she trotted off to turn a corner
|
|
which was avoided by the footpath, the road and the path reuniting
|
|
at a point a little further on. On again making her appearance
|
|
she continually managed to look in a direction away from him, and
|
|
left him in the cool shade of her displeasure. Stephen was soon
|
|
beaten at this game of indifference. He went round and entered
|
|
the range of her vision.
|
|
|
|
'Are you offended, Elfie? Why don't you talk?'
|
|
|
|
'Save me, then, and let that Mr. Clever of yours drown. I hate
|
|
him. Now, which would you?'
|
|
|
|
'Really, Elfride, you should not press such a hard question. It
|
|
is ridiculous.'
|
|
|
|
'Then I won't be alone with you any more. Unkind, to wound me
|
|
so!' She laughed at her own absurdity but persisted.
|
|
|
|
'Come, Elfie, let's make it up and be friends.'
|
|
|
|
'Say you would save me, then, and let him drown.'
|
|
|
|
'I would save you--and him too.'
|
|
|
|
'And let him drown. Come, or you don't love me!' she teasingly
|
|
went on.
|
|
|
|
'And let him drown,' he ejaculated despairingly.
|
|
|
|
'There; now I am yours!' she said, and a woman's flush of triumph
|
|
lit her eyes.
|
|
|
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|
|
|
|
'Only one earring, miss, as I'm alive,' said Unity on their
|
|
entering the hall.
|
|
|
|
With a face expressive of wretched misgiving, Elfride's hand flew
|
|
like an arrow to her ear.
|
|
|
|
'There!' she exclaimed to Stephen, looking at him with eyes full
|
|
of reproach.
|
|
|
|
'I quite forgot, indeed. If I had only remembered!' he answered,
|
|
with a conscience-stricken face.
|
|
|
|
She wheeled herself round, and turned into the shrubbery. Stephen
|
|
followed.
|
|
|
|
'If you had told me to watch anything, Stephen, I should have
|
|
religiously done it,' she capriciously went on, as soon as she
|
|
heard him behind her.
|
|
|
|
'Forgetting is forgivable.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, you will find it, if you want me to respect you and be
|
|
engaged to you when we have asked papa.' She considered a moment,
|
|
and added more seriously, 'I know now where I dropped it, Stephen.
|
|
It was on the cliff. I remember a faint sensation of some change
|
|
about me, but I was too absent to think of it then. And that's
|
|
where it is now, and you must go and look there.'
|
|
|
|
'I'll go at once.'
|
|
|
|
And he strode away up the valley, under a broiling sun and amid
|
|
the deathlike silence of early afternoon. He ascended, with
|
|
giddy-paced haste, the windy range of rocks to where they had sat,
|
|
felt and peered about the stones and crannies, but Elfride's stray
|
|
jewel was nowhere to be seen. Next Stephen slowly retraced his
|
|
steps, and, pausing at a cross-road to reflect a while, he left
|
|
the plateau and struck downwards across some fields, in the
|
|
direction of Endelstow House.
|
|
|
|
He walked along the path by the river without the slightest
|
|
hesitation as to its bearing, apparently quite familiar with every
|
|
inch of the ground. As the shadows began to lengthen and the
|
|
sunlight to mellow, he passed through two wicket-gates, and drew
|
|
near the outskirts of Endelstow Park. The river now ran along
|
|
under the park fence, previous to entering the grove itself, a
|
|
little further on.
|
|
|
|
Here stood a cottage, between the fence and the stream, on a
|
|
slightly elevated spot of ground, round which the river took a
|
|
turn. The characteristic feature of this snug habitation was its
|
|
one chimney in the gable end, its squareness of form disguised by
|
|
a huge cloak of ivy, which had grown so luxuriantly and extended
|
|
so far from its base, as to increase the apparent bulk of the
|
|
chimney to the dimensions of a tower. Some little distance from
|
|
the back of the house rose the park boundary, and over this were
|
|
to be seen the sycamores of the grove, making slow inclinations to
|
|
the just-awakening air.
|
|
|
|
Stephen crossed the little wood bridge in front, went up to the
|
|
cottage door, and opened it without knock or signal of any kind.
|
|
|
|
Exclamations of welcome burst from some person or persons when the
|
|
door was thrust ajar, followed by the scrape of chairs on a stone
|
|
floor, as if pushed back by their occupiers in rising from a
|
|
table. The door was closed again, and nothing could now be heard
|
|
from within, save a lively chatter and the rattle of plates.
|
|
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|
|
Chapter VIII
|
|
|
|
'Allen-a-Dale is no baron or lord.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
The mists were creeping out of pools and swamps for their
|
|
pilgrimages of the night when Stephen came up to the front door of
|
|
the vicarage. Elfride was standing on the step illuminated by a
|
|
lemon-hued expanse of western sky.
|
|
|
|
'You never have been all this time looking for that earring?' she
|
|
said anxiously.
|
|
|
|
'Oh no; and I have not found it.'
|
|
|
|
'Never mind. Though I am much vexed; they are my prettiest. But,
|
|
Stephen, what ever have you been doing--where have you been? I
|
|
have been so uneasy. I feared for you, knowing not an inch of the
|
|
country. I thought, suppose he has fallen over the cliff! But now
|
|
I am inclined to scold you for frightening me so.'
|
|
|
|
'I must speak to your father now,' he said rather abruptly; 'I
|
|
have so much to say to him--and to you, Elfride.'
|
|
|
|
'Will what you have to say endanger this nice time of ours, and is
|
|
it that same shadowy secret you allude to so frequently, and will
|
|
it make me unhappy?'
|
|
|
|
'Possibly.'
|
|
|
|
She breathed heavily, and looked around as if for a prompter.
|
|
|
|
'Put it off till to-morrow,' she said.
|
|
|
|
He involuntarily sighed too.
|
|
|
|
'No; it must come to-night. Where is your father, Elfride?'
|
|
|
|
'Somewhere in the kitchen garden, I think,' she replied. 'That is
|
|
his favourite evening retreat. I will leave you now. Say all
|
|
that's to be said--do all there is to be done. Think of me
|
|
waiting anxiously for the end.' And she re-entered the house.
|
|
|
|
She waited in the drawing-room, watching the lights sink to
|
|
shadows, the shadows sink to darkness, until her impatience to
|
|
know what had occurred in the garden could no longer be
|
|
controlled. She passed round the shrubbery, unlatched the garden
|
|
door, and skimmed with her keen eyes the whole twilighted space
|
|
that the four walls enclosed and sheltered: they were not there.
|
|
She mounted a little ladder, which had been used for gathering
|
|
fruit, and looked over the wall into the field. This field
|
|
extended to the limits of the glebe, which was enclosed on that
|
|
side by a privet-hedge. Under the hedge was Mr. Swancourt,
|
|
walking up and down, and talking aloud--to himself, as it sounded
|
|
at first. No: another voice shouted occasional replies ; and this
|
|
interlocutor seemed to be on the other side of the hedge. The
|
|
voice, though soft in quality, was not Stephen's.
|
|
|
|
The second speaker must have been in the long-neglected garden of
|
|
an old manor-house hard by, which, together with a small estate
|
|
attached, had lately been purchased by a person named Troyton,
|
|
whom Elfride had never seen. Her father might have struck up an
|
|
acquaintanceship with some member of that family through the
|
|
privet-hedge, or a stranger to the neighbourhood might have
|
|
wandered thither.
|
|
|
|
Well, there was no necessity for disturbing him.
|
|
|
|
And it seemed that, after all, Stephen had not yet made his
|
|
desired communication to her father. Again she went indoors,
|
|
wondering where Stephen could be. For want of something better to
|
|
do, she went upstairs to her own little room. Here she sat down
|
|
at the open window, and, leaning with her elbow on the table and
|
|
her cheek upon her hand, she fell into meditation.
|
|
|
|
It was a hot and still August night. Every disturbance of the
|
|
silence which rose to the dignity of a noise could be heard for
|
|
miles, and the merest sound for a long distance. So she remained,
|
|
thinking of Stephen, and wishing he had not deprived her of his
|
|
company to no purpose, as it appeared. How delicate and sensitive
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he was, she reflected; and yet he was man enough to have a private
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mystery, which considerably elevated him in her eyes. Thus,
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looking at things with an inward vision, she lost consciousness of
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the flight of time.
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Strange conjunctions of circumstances, particularly those of a
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trivial everyday kind, are so frequent in an ordinary life, that
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we grow used to their unaccountableness, and forget the question
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whether the very long odds against such juxtaposition is not
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almost a disproof of it being a matter of chance at all. What
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occurred to Elfride at this moment was a case in point. She was
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vividly imagining, for the twentieth time, the kiss of the
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morning, and putting her lips together in the position another
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such a one would demand, when she heard the identical operation
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performed on the lawn, immediately beneath her window.
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A kiss--not of the quiet and stealthy kind, but decisive, loud,
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and smart.
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Her face flushed and she looked out, but to no purpose. The dark
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rim of the upland drew a keen sad line against the pale glow of
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the sky, unbroken except where a young cedar on the lawn, that had
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outgrown its fellow trees, shot its pointed head across the
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horizon, piercing the firmamental lustre like a sting.
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It was just possible that, had any persons been standing on the
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grassy portions of the lawn, Elfride might have seen their dusky
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forms. But the shrubs, which once had merely dotted the glade,
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had now grown bushy and large, till they hid at least half the
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enclosure containing them. The kissing pair might have been
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behind some of these; at any rate, nobody was in sight.
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Had no enigma ever been connected with her lover by his hints and
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absences, Elfride would never have thought of admitting into her
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mind a suspicion that he might be concerned in the foregoing
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enactment. But the reservations he at present insisted on, while
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they added to the mystery without which perhaps she would never
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have seriously loved him at all, were calculated to nourish doubts
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of all kinds, and with a slow flush of jealousy she asked herself,
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might he not be the culprit?
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Elfride glided downstairs on tiptoe, and out to the precise spot
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on which she had parted from Stephen to enable him to speak
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privately to her father. Thence she wandered into all the nooks
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around the place from which the sound seemed to proceed--among the
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huge laurestines, about the tufts of pampas grasses, amid the
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variegated hollies, under the weeping wych-elm--nobody was there.
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Returning indoors she called 'Unity!'
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'She is gone to her aunt's, to spend the evening,' said Mr.
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Swancourt, thrusting his head out of his study door, and letting
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the light of his candles stream upon Elfride's face--less
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revealing than, as it seemed to herself, creating the blush of
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uneasy perplexity that was burning upon her cheek.
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'I didn't know you were indoors, papa,' she said with surprise.
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'Surely no light was shining from the window when I was on the
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lawn?' and she looked and saw that the shutters were still open.
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'Oh yes, I am in,' he said indifferently. 'What did you want
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Unity for? I think she laid supper before she went out.'
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'Did she?--I have not been to see--I didn't want her for that.'
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Elfride scarcely knew, now that a definite reason was required,
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what that reason was. Her mind for a moment strayed to another
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subject, unimportant as it seemed. The red ember of a match was
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lying inside the fender, which explained that why she had seen no
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rays from the window was because the candles had only just been
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lighted.
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'I'll come directly,' said the vicar. 'I thought you were out
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somewhere with Mr. Smith.'
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Even the inexperienced Elfride could not help thinking that her
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father must be wonderfully blind if he failed to perceive what was
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the nascent consequence of herself and Stephen being so
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unceremoniously left together; wonderfully careless, if he saw it
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and did not think about it; wonderfully good, if, as seemed to her
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by far the most probable supposition, he saw it and thought about
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it and approved of it. These reflections were cut short by the
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appearance of Stephen just outside the porch, silvered about the
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head and shoulders with touches of moonlight, that had begun to
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creep through the trees.
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'Has your trouble anything to do with a kiss on the lawn?' she
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asked abruptly, almost passionately.
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'Kiss on the lawn?'
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'Yes!' she said, imperiously now.
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'I didn't comprehend your meaning, nor do I now exactly. I
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certainly have kissed nobody on the lawn, if that is really what
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you want to know, Elfride.'
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'You know nothing about such a performance?'
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'Nothing whatever. What makes you ask?'
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'Don't press me to tell; it is nothing of importance. And,
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Stephen, you have not yet spoken to papa about our engagement?'
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'No,' he said regretfully, 'I could not find him directly; and
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then I went on thinking so much of what you said about objections,
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refusals--bitter words possibly--ending our happiness, that I
|
|
resolved to put it off till to-morrow; that gives us one more day
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of delight--delight of a tremulous kind.'
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'Yes; but it would be improper to be silent too long, I think,'
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she said in a delicate voice, which implied that her face had
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grown warm. 'I want him to know we love, Stephen. Why did you
|
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adopt as your own my thought of delay?'
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'I will explain; but I want to tell you of my secret first--to
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tell you now. It is two or three hours yet to bedtime. Let us
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walk up the hill to the church.'
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Elfride passively assented, and they went from the lawn by a side
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wicket, and ascended into the open expanse of moonlight which
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streamed around the lonely edifice on the summit of the hill.
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The door was locked. They turned from the porch, and walked hand
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|
in hand to find a resting-place in the churchyard. Stephen chose
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a flat tomb, showing itself to be newer and whiter than those
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|
around it, and sitting down himself, gently drew her hand towards
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him.
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'No, not there,' she said.
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'Why not here?'
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'A mere fancy; but never mind.' And she sat down.
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'Elfie, will you love me, in spite of everything that may be said
|
|
against me?'
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'O Stephen, what makes you repeat that so continually and so
|
|
sadly? You know I will. Yes, indeed,' she said, drawing closer,
|
|
'whatever may be said of you--and nothing bad can be--I will cling
|
|
to you just the same. Your ways shall be my ways until I die.'
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'Did you ever think what my parents might be, or what society I
|
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originally moved in?'
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'No, not particularly. I have observed one or two little points
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in your manners which are rather quaint--no more. I suppose you
|
|
have moved in the ordinary society of professional people.'
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'Supposing I have not--that none of my family have a profession
|
|
except me?'
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'I don't mind. What you are only concerns me.'
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'Where do you think I went to school--I mean, to what kind of
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school?'
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'Dr. Somebody's academy,' she said simply.
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'No. To a dame school originally, then to a national school.'
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'Only to those! Well, I love you just as much, Stephen, dear
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|
Stephen,' she murmured tenderly, 'I do indeed. And why should you
|
|
tell me these things so impressively? What do they matter to me?'
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He held her closer and proceeded:
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'What do you think my father is--does for his living, that is to
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|
say?'
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'He practises some profession or calling, I suppose.'
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'No; he is a mason.'
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'A Freemason?'
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'No; a cottager and journeyman mason.'
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Elfride said nothing at first. After a while she whispered:
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|
'That is a strange idea to me. But never mind; what does it
|
|
matter?'
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'But aren't you angry with me for not telling you before?'
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'No, not at all. Is your mother alive?'
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'Yes.'
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|
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|
'Is she a nice lady?'
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|
'Very--the best mother in the world. Her people had been well-to-
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|
do yeomen for centuries, but she was only a dairymaid.'
|
|
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|
'O Stephen!' came from her in whispered exclamation.
|
|
|
|
'She continued to attend to a dairy long after my father married
|
|
her,' pursued Stephen, without further hesitation. 'And I
|
|
remember very well how, when I was very young, I used to go to the
|
|
milking, look on at the skimming, sleep through the churning, and
|
|
make believe I helped her. Ah, that was a happy time enough!'
|
|
|
|
'No, never--not happy.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, it was.'
|
|
|
|
'I don't see how happiness could be where the drudgery of dairy-
|
|
work had to be done for a living--the hands red and chapped, and
|
|
the shoes clogged....Stephen, I do own that it seems odd to regard
|
|
you in the light of--of--having been so rough in your youth, and
|
|
done menial things of that kind.' (Stephen withdrew an inch or two
|
|
from her side.) 'But I DO LOVE YOU just the same,' she continued,
|
|
getting closer under his shoulder again, 'and I don't care
|
|
anything about the past; and I see that you are all the worthier
|
|
for having pushed on in the world in such a way.'
|
|
|
|
'It is not my worthiness; it is Knight's, who pushed me.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, always he--always he!'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, and properly so. Now, Elfride, you see the reason of his
|
|
teaching me by letter. I knew him years before he went to Oxford,
|
|
but I had not got far enough in my reading for him to entertain
|
|
the idea of helping me in classics till he left home. Then I was
|
|
sent away from the village, and we very seldom met; but he kept up
|
|
this system of tuition by correspondence with the greatest
|
|
regularity. I will tell you all the story, but not now. There is
|
|
nothing more to say now, beyond giving places, persons, and
|
|
dates.' His voice became timidly slow at this point.
|
|
|
|
'No; don't take trouble to say more. You are a dear honest fellow
|
|
to say so much as you have; and it is not so dreadful either. It
|
|
has become a normal thing that millionaires commence by going up
|
|
to London with their tools at their back, and half-a-crown in
|
|
their pockets. That sort of origin is getting so respected,' she
|
|
continued cheerfully, 'that it is acquiring some of the odour of
|
|
Norman ancestry.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, if I had MADE my fortune, I shouldn't mind. But I am only a
|
|
possible maker of it as yet.'
|
|
|
|
'It is quite enough. And so THIS is what your trouble was?'
|
|
|
|
'I thought I was doing wrong in letting you love me without
|
|
telling you my story; and yet I feared to do so, Elfie. I dreaded
|
|
to lose you, and I was cowardly on that account.'
|
|
|
|
'How plain everything about you seems after this explanation! Your
|
|
peculiarities in chess-playing, the pronunciation papa noticed in
|
|
your Latin, your odd mixture of book-knowledge with ignorance of
|
|
ordinary social accomplishments, are accounted for in a moment.
|
|
And has this anything to do with what I saw at Lord Luxellian's?'
|
|
|
|
'What did you see?'
|
|
|
|
'I saw the shadow of yourself putting a cloak round a lady. I was
|
|
at the side door; you two were in a room with the window towards
|
|
me. You came to me a moment later.'
|
|
|
|
'She was my mother.'
|
|
|
|
'Your mother THERE!' She withdrew herself to look at him silently
|
|
in her interest.
|
|
|
|
'Elfride,' said Stephen, 'I was going to tell you the remainder
|
|
to-morrow--I have been keeping it back--I must tell it now, after
|
|
all. The remainder of my revelation refers to where my parents
|
|
are. Where do you think they live? You know them--by sight at any
|
|
rate.'
|
|
|
|
'I know them!' she said in suspended amazement.
|
|
|
|
'Yes. My father is John Smith, Lord Luxellian's master-mason, who
|
|
lives under the park wall by the river.'
|
|
|
|
'O Stephen! can it be?'
|
|
|
|
'He built--or assisted at the building of the house you live in,
|
|
years ago. He put up those stone gate piers at the lodge entrance
|
|
to Lord Luxellian's park. My grandfather planted the trees that
|
|
belt in your lawn; my grandmother--who worked in the fields with
|
|
him--held each tree upright whilst he filled in the earth: they
|
|
told me so when I was a child. He was the sexton, too, and dug
|
|
many of the graves around us.'
|
|
|
|
'And was your unaccountable vanishing on the first morning of your
|
|
arrival, and again this afternoon, a run to see your father and
|
|
mother?...I understand now; no wonder you seemed to know your way
|
|
about the village!'
|
|
|
|
'No wonder. But remember, I have not lived here since I was nine
|
|
years old. I then went to live with my uncle, a blacksmith, near
|
|
Exonbury, in order to be able to attend a national school as a day
|
|
scholar; there was none on this remote coast then. It was there I
|
|
met with my friend Knight. And when I was fifteen and had been
|
|
fairly educated by the school-master--and more particularly by
|
|
Knight--I was put as a pupil in an architect's office in that
|
|
town, because I was skilful in the use of the pencil. A full
|
|
premium was paid by the efforts of my mother and father, rather
|
|
against the wishes of Lord Luxellian, who likes my father,
|
|
however, and thinks a great deal of him. There I stayed till six
|
|
months ago, when I obtained a situation as improver, as it is
|
|
called, in a London office. That's all of me.'
|
|
|
|
'To think YOU, the London visitor, the town man, should have been
|
|
born here, and have known this village so many years before I did.
|
|
How strange--how very strange it seems to me!' she murmured.
|
|
|
|
'My mother curtseyed to you and your father last Sunday,' said
|
|
Stephen, with a pained smile at the thought of the incongruity.
|
|
'And your papa said to her, "I am glad to see you so regular at
|
|
church, JANE."'
|
|
|
|
'I remember it, but I have never spoken to her. We have only been
|
|
here eighteen months, and the parish is so large.'
|
|
|
|
'Contrast with this,' said Stephen, with a miserable laugh, 'your
|
|
father's belief in my "blue blood," which is still prevalent in
|
|
his mind. The first night I came, he insisted upon proving my
|
|
descent from one of the most ancient west-county families, on
|
|
account of my second Christian name; when the truth is, it was
|
|
given me because my grandfather was assistant gardener in the
|
|
Fitzmaurice-Smith family for thirty years. Having seen your face,
|
|
my darling, I had not heart to contradict him, and tell him what
|
|
would have cut me off from a friendly knowledge of you.'
|
|
|
|
She sighed deeply. 'Yes, I see now how this inequality may be
|
|
made to trouble us,' she murmured, and continued in a low, sad
|
|
whisper, 'I wouldn't have minded if they had lived far away. Papa
|
|
might have consented to an engagement between us if your
|
|
connection had been with villagers a hundred miles off; remoteness
|
|
softens family contrasts. But he will not like--O Stephen,
|
|
Stephen! what can I do?'
|
|
|
|
'Do?' he said tentatively, yet with heaviness. 'Give me up; let
|
|
me go back to London, and think no more of me.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no; I cannot give you up! This hopelessness in our affairs
|
|
makes me care more for you....I see what did not strike me at
|
|
first. Stephen, why do we trouble? Why should papa object? An
|
|
architect in London is an architect in London. Who inquires
|
|
there? Nobody. We shall live there, shall we not? Why need we be
|
|
so alarmed?'
|
|
|
|
'And Elfie,' said Stephen, his hopes kindling with hers, 'Knight
|
|
thinks nothing of my being only a cottager's son; he says I am as
|
|
worthy of his friendship as if I were a lord's; and if I am worthy
|
|
of his friendship, I am worthy of you, am I not, Elfride?'
|
|
|
|
'I not only have never loved anybody but you,' she said, instead
|
|
of giving an answer, 'but I have not even formed a strong
|
|
friendship, such as you have for Knight. I wish you hadn't. It
|
|
diminishes me.'
|
|
|
|
'Now, Elfride, you know better,' he said wooingly. 'And had you
|
|
really never any sweetheart at all?'
|
|
|
|
'None that was ever recognized by me as such.'
|
|
|
|
'But did nobody ever love you?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes--a man did once; very much, he said.'
|
|
|
|
'How long ago?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, a long time.'
|
|
|
|
'How long, dearest?
|
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|
|
'A twelvemonth.'
|
|
|
|
'That's not VERY long' (rather disappointedly).
|
|
|
|
'I said long, not very long.'
|
|
|
|
'And did he want to marry you?'
|
|
|
|
'I believe he did. But I didn't see anything in him. He was not
|
|
good enough, even if I had loved him.'
|
|
|
|
'May I ask what he was?'
|
|
|
|
'A farmer.'
|
|
|
|
'A farmer not good enough--how much better than my family!'
|
|
Stephen murmured.
|
|
|
|
'Where is he now?' he continued to Elfride.
|
|
|
|
'HERE.'
|
|
|
|
'Here! what do you mean by that?'
|
|
|
|
'I mean that he is here.'
|
|
|
|
'Where here?'
|
|
|
|
'Under us. He is under this tomb. He is dead, and we are sitting
|
|
on his grave.'
|
|
|
|
'Elfie,' said the young man, standing up and looking at the tomb,
|
|
'how odd and sad that revelation seems! It quite depresses me for
|
|
the moment.'
|
|
|
|
'Stephen! I didn't wish to sit here; but you would do so.'
|
|
|
|
'You never encouraged him?'
|
|
|
|
'Never by look, word, or sign,' she said solemnly. 'He died of
|
|
consumption, and was buried the day you first came.'
|
|
|
|
'Let us go away. I don't like standing by HIM, even if you never
|
|
loved him. He was BEFORE me.'
|
|
|
|
'Worries make you unreasonable,' she half pouted, following
|
|
Stephen at the distance of a few steps. 'Perhaps I ought to have
|
|
told you before we sat down. Yes; let us go.'
|
|
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|
|
Chapter IX
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|
|
'Her father did fume'
|
|
|
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|
|
Oppressed, in spite of themselves, by a foresight of impending
|
|
complications, Elfride and Stephen returned down the hill hand in
|
|
hand. At the door they paused wistfully, like children late at
|
|
school.
|
|
|
|
Women accept their destiny more readily than men. Elfride had now
|
|
resigned herself to the overwhelming idea of her lover's sorry
|
|
antecedents; Stephen had not forgotten the trifling grievance that
|
|
Elfride had known earlier admiration than his own.
|
|
|
|
'What was that young man's name?' he inquired.
|
|
|
|
'Felix Jethway; a widow's only son.'
|
|
|
|
'I remember the family.'
|
|
|
|
'She hates me now. She says I killed him.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen mused, and they entered the porch.
|
|
|
|
'Stephen, I love only you,' she tremulously whispered. He pressed
|
|
her fingers, and the trifling shadow passed away, to admit again
|
|
the mutual and more tangible trouble.
|
|
|
|
The study appeared to be the only room lighted up. They entered,
|
|
each with a demeanour intended to conceal the inconcealable fact
|
|
that reciprocal love was their dominant chord. Elfride perceived
|
|
a man, sitting with his back towards herself, talking to her
|
|
father. She would have retired, but Mr. Swancourt had seen her.
|
|
|
|
'Come in,' he said; 'it is only Martin Cannister, come for a copy
|
|
of the register for poor Mrs. Jethway.'
|
|
|
|
Martin Cannister, the sexton, was rather a favourite with Elfride.
|
|
He used to absorb her attention by telling her of his strange
|
|
experiences in digging up after long years the bodies of persons
|
|
he had known, and recognizing them by some little sign (though in
|
|
reality he had never recognized any). He had shrewd small eyes
|
|
and a great wealth of double chin, which compensated in some
|
|
measure for considerable poverty of nose.
|
|
|
|
The appearance of a slip of paper in Cannister's hand, and a few
|
|
shillings lying on the table in front of him, denoted that the
|
|
business had been transacted, and the tenor of their conversation
|
|
went to show that a summary of village news was now engaging the
|
|
attention of parishioner and parson.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Cannister stood up and touched his forehead over his eye with
|
|
his finger, in respectful salutation of Elfride, gave half as much
|
|
salute to Stephen (whom he, in common with other villagers, had
|
|
never for a moment recognized), then sat down again and resumed
|
|
his discourse.
|
|
|
|
'Where had I got on to, sir?'
|
|
|
|
'To driving the pile,' said Mr. Swancourt.
|
|
|
|
'The pile 'twas. So, as I was saying, Nat was driving the pile in
|
|
this manner, as I might say.' Here Mr. Cannister held his walking-
|
|
stick scrupulously vertical with his left hand, and struck a blow
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with great force on the knob of the stick with his right. 'John
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was steadying the pile so, as I might say.' Here he gave the stick
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a slight shake, and looked firmly in the various eyes around to
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see that before proceeding further his listeners well grasped the
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subject at that stage. 'Well, when Nat had struck some half-dozen
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blows more upon the pile, 'a stopped for a second or two. John,
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thinking he had done striking, put his hand upon the top o' the
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pile to gie en a pull, and see if 'a were firm in the ground.' Mr.
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Cannister spread his hand over the top of the stick, completely
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covering it with his palm. 'Well, so to speak, Nat hadn't maned
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to stop striking, and when John had put his hand upon the pile,
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the beetle----'
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'Oh dreadful!' said Elfride.
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'The beetle was already coming down, you see, sir. Nat just
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caught sight of his hand, but couldn't stop the blow in time.
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Down came the beetle upon poor John Smith's hand, and squashed en
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to a pummy.'
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'Dear me, dear me! poor fellow!' said the vicar, with an
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intonation like the groans of the wounded in a pianoforte
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performance of the 'Battle of Prague.'
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'John Smith, the master-mason?' cried Stephen hurriedly.
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'Ay, no other; and a better-hearted man God A'mighty never made.'
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'Is he so much hurt?'
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'I have heard,' said Mr. Swancourt, not noticing Stephen, 'that he
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has a son in London, a very promising young fellow.'
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'Oh, how he must be hurt!' repeated Stephen.
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'A beetle couldn't hurt very little. Well, sir, good-night t'ye;
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and ye, sir; and you, miss, I'm sure.'
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Mr. Cannister had been making unnoticeable motions of withdrawal,
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and by the time this farewell remark came from his lips he was
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just outside the door of the room. He tramped along the hall,
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stayed more than a minute endeavouring to close the door properly,
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and then was lost to their hearing.
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Stephen had meanwhile turned and said to the vicar:
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'Please excuse me this evening! I must leave. John Smith is my
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father.'
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The vicar did not comprehend at first.
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'What did you say?' he inquired.
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'John Smith is my father,' said Stephen deliberately.
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A surplus tinge of redness rose from Mr. Swancourt's neck, and
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came round over his face, the lines of his features became more
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firmly defined, and his lips seemed to get thinner. It was
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evident that a series of little circumstances, hitherto unheeded,
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were now fitting themselves together, and forming a lucid picture
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in Mr. Swancourt's mind in such a manner as to render useless
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further explanation on Stephen's part.
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'Indeed,' the vicar said, in a voice dry and without inflection.
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This being a word which depends entirely upon its tone for its
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meaning, Mr. Swancourt's enunciation was equivalent to no
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expression at all.
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'I have to go now,' said Stephen, with an agitated bearing, and a
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movement as if he scarcely knew whether he ought to run off or
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stay longer. 'On my return, sir, will you kindly grant me a few
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minutes' private conversation?'
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'Certainly. Though antecedently it does not seem possible that
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there can be anything of the nature of private business between
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us.'
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Mr. Swancourt put on his straw hat, crossed the drawing-room, into
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which the moonlight was shining, and stepped out of the French
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window into the verandah. It required no further effort to
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perceive what, indeed, reasoning might have foretold as the
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natural colour of a mind whose pleasures were taken amid
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genealogies, good dinners, and patrician reminiscences, that Mr.
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Swancourt's prejudices were too strong for his generosity, and
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that Stephen's moments as his friend and equal were numbered, or
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had even now ceased.
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Stephen moved forward as if he would follow the vicar, then as if
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he would not, and in absolute perplexity whither to turn himself,
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went awkwardly to the door. Elfride followed lingeringly behind
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him. Before he had receded two yards from the doorstep, Unity and
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Ann the housemaid came home from their visit to the village.
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'Have you heard anything about John Smith? The accident is not so
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bad as was reported, is it?' said Elfride intuitively.
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'Oh no; the doctor says it is only a bad bruise.'
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'I thought so!' cried Elfride gladly.
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'He says that, although Nat believes he did not check the beetle
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as it came down, he must have done so without knowing it--checked
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it very considerably too; for the full blow would have knocked his
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hand abroad, and in reality it is only made black-and-blue like.'
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'How thankful I am!' said Stephen.
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The perplexed Unity looked at him with her mouth rather than with
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her eyes.
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'That will do, Unity,' said Elfride magisterially; and the two
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maids passed on.
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'Elfride, do you forgive me?' said Stephen with a faint smile.
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'No man is fair in love;' and he took her fingers lightly in his
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own.
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With her head thrown sideways in the Greuze attitude, she looked a
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tender reproach at his doubt and pressed his hand. Stephen
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returned the pressure threefold, then hastily went off to his
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father's cottage by the wall of Endelstow Park.
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'Elfride, what have you to say to this?' inquired her father,
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coming up immediately Stephen had retired.
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With feminine quickness she grasped at any straw that would enable
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her to plead his cause. 'He had told me of it,' she faltered; 'so
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that it is not a discovery in spite of him. He was just coming in
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to tell you.'
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'COMING to tell! Why hadn't he already told? I object as much, if
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not more, to his underhand concealment of this, than I do to the
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fact itself. It looks very much like his making a fool of me, and
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of you too. You and he have been about together, and
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corresponding together, in a way I don't at all approve of--in a
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most unseemly way. You should have known how improper such
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conduct is. A woman can't be too careful not to be seen alone
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with I-don't-know-whom.'
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'You saw us, papa, and have never said a word.'
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'My fault, of course; my fault. What the deuce could I be
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thinking of! He, a villager's son; and we, Swancourts, connections
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of the Luxellians. We have been coming to nothing for centuries,
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and now I believe we have got there. What shall I next invite
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here, I wonder!'
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Elfride began to cry at this very unpropitious aspect of affairs.
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'O papa, papa, forgive me and him! We care so much for one
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another, papa--O, so much! And what he was going to ask you is, if
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you will allow of an engagement between us till he is a gentleman
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as good as you. We are not in a hurry, dear papa; we don't want
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in the least to marry now; not until he is richer. Only will you
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|
let us be engaged, because I love him so, and he loves me?'
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Mr. Swancourt's feelings were a little touched by this appeal, and
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he was annoyed that such should be the case. 'Certainly not!' he
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|
replied. He pronounced the inhibition lengthily and sonorously,
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so that the 'not' sounded like 'n-o-o-o-t!'
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'No, no, no; don't say it!'
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'Foh! A fine story. It is not enough that I have been deluded and
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|
disgraced by having him here,--the son of one of my village
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|
peasants,--but now I am to make him my son-in-law! Heavens above
|
|
us, are you mad, Elfride?'
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'You have seen his letters come to me ever since his first visit,
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|
papa, and you knew they were a sort of--love-letters; and since he
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|
has been here you have let him be alone with me almost entirely;
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|
and you guessed, you must have guessed, what we were thinking of,
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|
and doing, and you didn't stop him. Next to love-making comes
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|
love-winning, and you knew it would come to that, papa.'
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|
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The vicar parried this common-sense thrust. 'I know--since you
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|
press me so--I know I did guess some childish attachment might
|
|
arise between you; I own I did not take much trouble to prevent
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|
it; but I have not particularly countenanced it; and, Elfride, how
|
|
can you expect that I should now? It is impossible; no father in
|
|
England would hear of such a thing.'
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|
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|
'But he is the same man, papa; the same in every particular; and
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|
how can he be less fit for me than he was before?'
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|
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|
'He appeared a young man with well-to-do friends, and a little
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|
property; but having neither, he is another man.'
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|
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|
'You inquired nothing about him?'
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|
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|
'I went by Hewby's introduction. He should have told me. So
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|
should the young man himself; of course he should. I consider it
|
|
a most dishonourable thing to come into a man's house like a
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|
treacherous I-don't-know-what.'
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|
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|
'But he was afraid to tell you, and so should I have been. He
|
|
loved me too well to like to run the risk. And as to speaking of
|
|
his friends on his first visit, I don't see why he should have
|
|
done so at all. He came here on business: it was no affair of
|
|
ours who his parents were. And then he knew that if he told you
|
|
he would never be asked here, and would perhaps never see me
|
|
again. And he wanted to see me. Who can blame him for trying, by
|
|
any means, to stay near me--the girl he loves? All is fair in
|
|
love. I have heard you say so yourself, papa; and you yourself
|
|
would have done just as he has--so would any man.'
|
|
|
|
'And any man, on discovering what I have discovered, would also do
|
|
as I do, and mend my mistake; that is, get shot of him again, as
|
|
soon as the laws of hospitality will allow.' But Mr. Swancourt
|
|
then remembered that he was a Christian. 'I would not, for the
|
|
world, seem to turn him out of doors,' he added; 'but I think he
|
|
will have the tact to see that he cannot stay long after this,
|
|
with good taste.'
|
|
|
|
'He will, because he's a gentleman. See how graceful his manners
|
|
are,' Elfride went on; though perhaps Stephen's manners, like the
|
|
feats of Euryalus, owed their attractiveness in her eyes rather to
|
|
the attractiveness of his person than to their own excellence.
|
|
|
|
'Ay; anybody can be what you call graceful, if he lives a little
|
|
time in a city, and keeps his eyes open. And he might have picked
|
|
up his gentlemanliness by going to the galleries of theatres, and
|
|
watching stage drawing-room manners. He reminds me of one of the
|
|
worst stories I ever heard in my life.'
|
|
|
|
'What story was that?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, thank you! I wouldn't tell you such an improper matter for
|
|
the world!'
|
|
|
|
'If his father and mother had lived in the north or east of
|
|
England,' gallantly persisted Elfride, though her sobs began to
|
|
interrupt her articulation, 'anywhere but here--you--would have--
|
|
only regarded--HIM, and not THEM! His station--would have--been
|
|
what--his profession makes it,--and not fixed by--his father's
|
|
humble position--at all; whom he never lives with--now. Though
|
|
John Smith has saved lots of money, and is better off than we are,
|
|
they say, or he couldn't have put his son to such an expensive
|
|
profession. And it is clever and--honourable--of Stephen, to be
|
|
the best of his family.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes. "Let a beast be lord of beasts, and his crib shall stand at
|
|
the king's mess."'
|
|
|
|
'You insult me, papa!' she burst out. 'You do, you do! He is my
|
|
own Stephen, he is!'
|
|
|
|
'That may or may not be true, Elfride,' returned her father, again
|
|
uncomfortably agitated in spite of himself 'You confuse future
|
|
probabilities with present facts,--what the young man may be with
|
|
what he is. We must look at what he is, not what an improbable
|
|
degree of success in his profession may make him. The case is
|
|
this: the son of a working-man in my parish who may or may not be
|
|
able to buy me up--a youth who has not yet advanced so far into
|
|
life as to have any income of his own deserving the name, and
|
|
therefore of his father's degree as regards station--wants to be
|
|
engaged to you. His family are living in precisely the same spot
|
|
in England as yours, so throughout this county--which is the world
|
|
to us--you would always be known as the wife of Jack Smith the
|
|
mason's son, and not under any circumstances as the wife of a
|
|
London professional man. It is the drawback, not the compensating
|
|
fact, that is talked of always. There, say no more. You may
|
|
argue all night, and prove what you will; I'll stick to my words.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride looked silently and hopelessly out of the window with
|
|
large heavy eyes and wet cheeks.
|
|
|
|
'I call it great temerity--and long to call it audacity--in
|
|
Hewby,' resumed her father. 'I never heard such a thing--giving
|
|
such a hobbledehoy native of this place such an introduction to me
|
|
as he did. Naturally you were deceived as well as I was. I don't
|
|
blame you at all, so far.' He went and searched for Mr. Hewby's
|
|
original letter. 'Here's what he said to me: "Dear Sir,--
|
|
Agreeably to your request of the 18th instant, I have arranged to
|
|
survey and make drawings," et cetera. "My assistant, Mr. Stephen
|
|
Smith"--assistant, you see he called him, and naturally I
|
|
understood him to mean a sort of partner. Why didn't he say
|
|
"clerk"?'
|
|
|
|
'They never call them clerks in that profession, because they do
|
|
not write. Stephen--Mr. Smith--told me so. So that Mr. Hewby
|
|
simply used the accepted word.'
|
|
|
|
'Let me speak, please, Elfride! "My assistant, Mr. Stephen Smith,
|
|
will leave London by the early train to-morrow morning...MANY
|
|
THANKS FOR YOUR PROPOSAL TO ACCOMMODATE HIM...YOU MAY PUT EVERY
|
|
CONFIDENCE IN HIM, and may rely upon his discernment in the matter
|
|
of church architecture." Well, I repeat that Hewby ought to be
|
|
ashamed of himself for making so much of a poor lad of that sort.'
|
|
|
|
'Professional men in London,' Elfride argued, 'don't know anything
|
|
about their clerks' fathers and mothers. They have assistants who
|
|
come to their offices and shops for years, and hardly even know
|
|
where they live. What they can do--what profits they can bring
|
|
the firm--that's all London men care about. And that is helped in
|
|
him by his faculty of being uniformly pleasant.'
|
|
|
|
'Uniform pleasantness is rather a defect than a faculty. It shows
|
|
that a man hasn't sense enough to know whom to despise.'
|
|
|
|
'It shows that he acts by faith and not by sight, as those you
|
|
claim succession from directed.'
|
|
|
|
'That's some more of what he's been telling you, I suppose! Yes, I
|
|
was inclined to suspect him, because he didn't care about sauces
|
|
of any kind. I always did doubt a man's being a gentleman if his
|
|
palate had no acquired tastes. An unedified palate is the
|
|
irrepressible cloven foot of the upstart. The idea of my bringing
|
|
out a bottle of my '40 Martinez--only eleven of them left now--to
|
|
a man who didn't know it from eighteenpenny! Then the Latin line
|
|
he gave to my quotation; it was very cut-and-dried, very; or I,
|
|
who haven't looked into a classical author for the last eighteen
|
|
years, shouldn't have remembered it. Well, Elfride, you had
|
|
better go to your room; you'll get over this bit of tomfoolery in
|
|
time.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no, no, papa,' she moaned. For of all the miseries attaching
|
|
to miserable love, the worst is the misery of thinking that the
|
|
passion which is the cause of them all may cease.
|
|
|
|
'Elfride,' said her father with rough friendliness, 'I have an
|
|
excellent scheme on hand, which I cannot tell you of now. A
|
|
scheme to benefit you and me. It has been thrust upon me for some
|
|
little time--yes, thrust upon me--but I didn't dream of its value
|
|
till this afternoon, when the revelation came. I should be most
|
|
unwise to refuse to entertain it.'
|
|
|
|
'I don't like that word,' she returned wearily. 'You have lost so
|
|
much already by schemes. Is it those wretched mines again?'
|
|
|
|
'No; not a mining scheme.'
|
|
|
|
'Railways?'
|
|
|
|
'Nor railways. It is like those mysterious offers we see
|
|
advertised, by which any gentleman with no brains at all may make
|
|
so much a week without risk, trouble, or soiling his fingers.
|
|
However, I am intending to say nothing till it is settled, though
|
|
I will just say this much, that you soon may have other fish to
|
|
fry than to think of Stephen Smith. Remember, I wish, not to be
|
|
angry, but friendly, to the young man; for your sake I'll regard
|
|
him as a friend in a certain sense. But this is enough; in a few
|
|
days you will be quite my way of thinking. There, now, go to your
|
|
bedroom. Unity shall bring you up some supper. I wish you not to
|
|
be here when he comes back.'
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|
|
Chapter X
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|
|
|
'Beneath the shelter of an aged tree.'
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|
|
|
|
|
Stephen retraced his steps towards the cottage he had visited only
|
|
two or three hours previously. He drew near and under the rich
|
|
foliage growing about the outskirts of Endelstow Park, the spotty
|
|
lights and shades from the shining moon maintaining a race over
|
|
his head and down his back in an endless gambol. When he crossed
|
|
the plank bridge and entered the garden-gate, he saw an
|
|
illuminated figure coming from the enclosed plot towards the house
|
|
on the other side. It was his father, with his hand in a sling,
|
|
taking a general moonlight view of the garden, and particularly of
|
|
a plot of the youngest of young turnips, previous to closing the
|
|
cottage for the night.
|
|
|
|
He saluted his son with customary force. 'Hallo, Stephen! We
|
|
should ha' been in bed in another ten minutes. Come to see what's
|
|
the matter wi' me, I suppose, my lad?'
|
|
|
|
The doctor had come and gone, and the hand had been pronounced as
|
|
injured but slightly, though it might possibly have been
|
|
considered a far more serious case if Mr. Smith had been a more
|
|
important man. Stephen's anxious inquiry drew from his father
|
|
words of regret at the inconvenience to the world of his doing
|
|
nothing for the next two days, rather than of concern for the pain
|
|
of the accident. Together they entered the house.
|
|
|
|
John Smith--brown as autumn as to skin, white as winter as to
|
|
clothes--was a satisfactory specimen of the village artificer in
|
|
stone. In common with most rural mechanics, he had too much
|
|
individuality to be a typical 'working-man'--a resultant of that
|
|
beach-pebble attrition with his kind only to be experienced in
|
|
large towns, which metamorphoses the unit Self into a fraction of
|
|
the unit Class.
|
|
|
|
There was not the speciality in his labour which distinguishes the
|
|
handicraftsmen of towns. Though only a mason, strictly speaking,
|
|
he was not above handling a brick, if bricks were the order of the
|
|
day; or a slate or tile, if a roof had to be covered before the
|
|
wet weather set in, and nobody was near who could do it better.
|
|
Indeed, on one or two occasions in the depth of winter, when frost
|
|
peremptorily forbids all use of the trowel, making foundations to
|
|
settle, stones to fly, and mortar to crumble, he had taken to
|
|
felling and sawing trees. Moreover, he had practised gardening in
|
|
his own plot for so many years that, on an emergency, he might
|
|
have made a living by that calling.
|
|
|
|
Probably our countryman was not such an accomplished artificer in
|
|
a particular direction as his town brethren in the trades. But he
|
|
was, in truth, like that clumsy pin-maker who made the whole pin,
|
|
and who was despised by Adam Smith on that account and respected
|
|
by Macaulay, much more the artist nevertheless.
|
|
|
|
Appearing now, indoors, by the light of the candle, his stalwart
|
|
healthiness was a sight to see. His beard was close and knotted
|
|
as that of a chiselled Hercules; his shirt sleeves were partly
|
|
rolled up, his waistcoat unbuttoned; the difference in hue between
|
|
the snowy linen and the ruddy arms and face contrasting like the
|
|
white of an egg and its yolk. Mrs. Smith, on hearing them enter,
|
|
advanced from the pantry.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Smith was a matron whose countenance addressed itself to the
|
|
mind rather than to the eye, though not exclusively. She retained
|
|
her personal freshness even now, in the prosy afternoon-time of
|
|
her life; but what her features were primarily indicative of was a
|
|
sound common sense behind them; as a whole, appearing to carry
|
|
with them a sort of argumentative commentary on the world in
|
|
general.
|
|
|
|
The details of the accident were then rehearsed by Stephen's
|
|
father, in the dramatic manner also common to Martin Cannister,
|
|
other individuals of the neighbourhood, and the rural world
|
|
generally. Mrs. Smith threw in her sentiments between the acts,
|
|
as Coryphaeus of the tragedy, to make the description complete.
|
|
The story at last came to an end, as the longest will, and Stephen
|
|
directed the conversation into another channel.
|
|
|
|
'Well, mother, they know everything about me now,' he said
|
|
quietly.
|
|
|
|
'Well done!' replied his father; 'now my mind's at peace.'
|
|
|
|
'I blame myself--I never shall forgive myself--for not telling
|
|
them before,' continued the young man.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Smith at this point abstracted her mind from the former
|
|
subject. 'I don't see what you have to grieve about, Stephen,'
|
|
she said. 'People who accidentally get friends don't, as a first
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stroke, tell the history of their families.'
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'Ye've done no wrong, certainly,' said his father.
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'No; but I should have spoken sooner. There's more in this visit
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of mine than you think--a good deal more.'
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'Not more than I think,' Mrs. Smith replied, looking
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contemplatively at him. Stephen blushed; and his father looked
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from one to the other in a state of utter incomprehension.
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'She's a pretty piece enough,' Mrs. Smith continued, 'and very
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lady-like and clever too. But though she's very well fit for you
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as far as that is, why, mercy 'pon me, what ever do you want any
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woman at all for yet?'
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John made his naturally short mouth a long one, and wrinkled his
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forehead, 'That's the way the wind d'blow, is it?' he said.
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'Mother,' exclaimed Stephen, 'how absurdly you speak! Criticizing
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whether she's fit for me or no, as if there were room for doubt on
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the matter! Why, to marry her would be the great blessing of my
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life--socially and practically, as well as in other respects. No
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such good fortune as that, I'm afraid; she's too far above me.
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Her family doesn't want such country lads as I in it.'
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'Then if they don't want you, I'd see them dead corpses before I'd
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want them, and go to better families who do want you.'
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'Ah, yes; but I could never put up with the distaste of being
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welcomed among such people as you mean, whilst I could get
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indifference among such people as hers.'
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'What crazy twist o' thinking will enter your head next?' said his
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mother. 'And come to that, she's not a bit too high for you, or
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you too low for her. See how careful I be to keep myself up. I'm
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sure I never stop for more than a minute together to talk to any
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journeymen people; and I never invite anybody to our party o'
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Christmases who are not in business for themselves. And I talk to
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several toppermost carriage people that come to my lord's without
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saying ma'am or sir to 'em, and they take it as quiet as lambs.'
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'You curtseyed to the vicar, mother; and I wish you hadn't.'
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'But it was before he called me by my Christian name, or he would
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have got very little curtseying from me!' said Mrs. Smith,
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bridling and sparkling with vexation. 'You go on at me, Stephen,
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as if I were your worst enemy! What else could I do with the man
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to get rid of him, banging it into me and your father by side and
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by seam, about his greatness, and what happened when he was a
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young fellow at college, and I don't know what-all; the tongue o'
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en flopping round his mouth like a mop-rag round a dairy. That 'a
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did, didn't he, John?'
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'That's about the size o't,' replied her husband.
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'Every woman now-a-days,' resumed Mrs. Smith, 'if she marry at
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all, must expect a father-in-law of a rank lower than her father.
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The men have gone up so, and the women have stood still. Every
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man you meet is more the dand than his father; and you are just
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level wi' her.'
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'That's what she thinks herself.'
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'It only shows her sense. I knew she was after 'ee, Stephen--I
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knew it.'
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'After me! Good Lord, what next!'
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'And I really must say again that you ought not to be in such a
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hurry, and wait for a few years. You might go higher than a
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bankrupt pa'son's girl then.'
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'The fact is, mother,' said Stephen impatiently, 'you don't know
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anything about it. I shall never go higher, because I don't want
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to, nor should I if I lived to be a hundred. As to you saying
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that she's after me, I don't like such a remark about her, for it
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implies a scheming woman, and a man worth scheming for, both of
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which are not only untrue, but ludicrously untrue, of this case.
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Isn't it so, father?'
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'I'm afraid I don't understand the matter well enough to gie my
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opinion,' said his father, in the tone of the fox who had a cold
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and could not smell.
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'She couldn't have been very backward anyhow, considering the
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short time you have known her,' said his mother. 'Well I think
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that five years hence you'll be plenty young enough to think of
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such things. And really she can very well afford to wait, and
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will too, take my word. Living down in an out-step place like
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this, I am sure she ought to be very thankful that you took notice
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of her. She'd most likely have died an old maid if you hadn't
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turned up.'
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'All nonsense,' said Stephen, but not aloud.
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'A nice little thing she is,' Mrs. Smith went on in a more
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complacent tone now that Stephen had been talked down; 'there's
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not a word to say against her, I'll own. I see her sometimes
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decked out like a horse going to fair, and I admire her for't. A
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perfect little lady. But people can't help their thoughts, and if
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she'd learnt to make figures instead of letters when she was at
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school 'twould have been better for her pocket; for as I said,
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there never were worse times for such as she than now.'
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'Now, now, mother!' said Stephen with smiling deprecation.
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'But I will!' said his mother with asperity. 'I don't read the
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papers for nothing, and I know men all move up a stage by
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marriage. Men of her class, that is, parsons, marry squires'
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daughters; squires marry lords' daughters; lords marry dukes'
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daughters; dukes marry queens' daughters. All stages of gentlemen
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mate a stage higher; and the lowest stage of gentlewomen are left
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single, or marry out of their class.'
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'But you said just now, dear mother----' retorted Stephen, unable
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to resist the temptation of showing his mother her inconsistency.
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Then he paused.
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'Well, what did I say?' And Mrs. Smith prepared her lips for a new
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campaign.
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Stephen, regretting that he had begun, since a volcano might be
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the consequence, was obliged to go on.
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'You said I wasn't out of her class just before.'
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'Yes, there, there! That's you; that's my own flesh and blood.
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I'll warrant that you'll pick holes in everything your mother
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says, if you can, Stephen. You are just like your father for
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that; take anybody's part but mine. Whilst I am speaking and
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talking and trying and slaving away for your good, you are waiting
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to catch me out in that way. So you are in her class, but 'tis
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what HER people would CALL marrying out of her class. Don't be so
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quarrelsome, Stephen!'
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Stephen preserved a discreet silence, in which he was imitated by
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his father, and for several minutes nothing was heard but the
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ticking of the green-faced case-clock against the wall.
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'I'm sure,' added Mrs. Smith in a more philosophic tone, and as a
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terminative speech, 'if there'd been so much trouble to get a
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husband in my time as there is in these days--when you must make a
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god-almighty of a man to get en to hae ye--I'd have trod clay for
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bricks before I'd ever have lowered my dignity to marry, or
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there's no bread in nine loaves.'
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The discussion now dropped, and as it was getting late, Stephen
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bade his parents farewell for the evening, his mother none the
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less warmly for their sparring; for although Mrs. Smith and
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Stephen were always contending, they were never at enmity.
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'And possibly,' said Stephen, 'I may leave here altogether to-
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morrow; I don't know. So that if I shouldn't call again before
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returning to London, don't be alarmed, will you?'
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'But didn't you come for a fortnight?' said his mother. 'And
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haven't you a month's holiday altogether? They are going to turn
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you out, then?'
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'Not at all. I may stay longer; I may go. If I go, you had
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better say nothing about my having been here, for her sake. At
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what time of the morning does the carrier pass Endelstow lane?'
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'Seven o'clock.'
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And then he left them. His thoughts were, that should the vicar
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permit him to become engaged, to hope for an engagement, or in any
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|
way to think of his beloved Elfride, he might stay longer. Should
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he be forbidden to think of any such thing, he resolved to go at
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once. And the latter, even to young hopefulness, seemed the more
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probable alternative.
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Stephen walked back to the vicarage through the meadows, as he had
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come, surrounded by the soft musical purl of the water through
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little weirs, the modest light of the moon, the freshening smell
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of the dews out-spread around. It was a time when mere seeing is
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|
meditation, and meditation peace. Stephen was hardly philosopher
|
|
enough to avail himself of Nature's offer. His constitution was
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made up of very simple particulars; was one which, rare in the
|
|
spring-time of civilizations, seems to grow abundant as a nation
|
|
gets older, individuality fades, and education spreads; that is,
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|
his brain had extraordinary receptive powers, and no great
|
|
creativeness. Quickly acquiring any kind of knowledge he saw
|
|
around him, and having a plastic adaptability more common in woman
|
|
than in man, he changed colour like a chameleon as the society he
|
|
found himself in assumed a higher and more artificial tone. He
|
|
had not many original ideas, and yet there was scarcely an idea to
|
|
which, under proper training, he could not have added a
|
|
respectable co-ordinate.
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|
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|
He saw nothing outside himself to-night; and what he saw within
|
|
was a weariness to his flesh. Yet to a dispassionate observer,
|
|
his pretensions to Elfride, though rather premature, were far from
|
|
absurd as marriages go, unless the accidental proximity of simple
|
|
but honest parents could be said to make them so.
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|
The clock struck eleven when he entered the house. Elfride had
|
|
been waiting with scarcely a movement since he departed. Before
|
|
he had spoken to her she caught sight of him passing into the
|
|
study with her father. She saw that he had by some means obtained
|
|
the private interview he desired.
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|
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|
A nervous headache had been growing on the excitable girl during
|
|
the absence of Stephen, and now she could do nothing beyond going
|
|
up again to her room as she had done before. Instead of lying
|
|
down she sat again in the darkness without closing the door, and
|
|
listened with a beating heart to every sound from downstairs. The
|
|
servants had gone to bed. She ultimately heard the two men come
|
|
from the study and cross to the dining-room, where supper had been
|
|
lingering for more than an hour. The door was left open, and she
|
|
found that the meal, such as it was, passed off between her father
|
|
and her lover without any remark, save commonplaces as to
|
|
cucumbers and melons, their wholesomeness and culture, uttered in
|
|
a stiff and formal way. It seemed to prefigure failure.
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|
|
|
Shortly afterwards Stephen came upstairs to his bedroom, and was
|
|
almost immediately followed by her father, who also retired for
|
|
the night. Not inclined to get a light, she partly undressed and
|
|
sat on the bed, where she remained in pained thought for some
|
|
time, possibly an hour. Then rising to close her door previously
|
|
to fully unrobing, she saw a streak of light shining across the
|
|
landing. Her father's door was shut, and he could be heard
|
|
snoring regularly. The light came from Stephen's room, and the
|
|
slight sounds also coming thence emphatically denoted what he was
|
|
doing. In the perfect silence she could hear the closing of a lid
|
|
and the clicking of a lock,--he was fastening his hat-box. Then
|
|
the buckling of straps and the click of another key,--he was
|
|
securing his portmanteau. With trebled foreboding she opened her
|
|
door softly, and went towards his. One sensation pervaded her to
|
|
distraction. Stephen, her handsome youth and darling, was going
|
|
away, and she might never see him again except in secret and in
|
|
sadness--perhaps never more. At any rate, she could no longer
|
|
wait till the morning to hear the result of the interview, as she
|
|
had intended. She flung her dressing-gown round her, tapped
|
|
lightly at his door, and whispered 'Stephen!' He came instantly,
|
|
opened the door, and stepped out.
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|
|
|
'Tell me; are we to hope?'
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|
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|
He replied in a disturbed whisper, and a tear approached its
|
|
outlet, though none fell.
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|
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|
'I am not to think of such a preposterous thing--that's what he
|
|
said. And I am going to-morrow. I should have called you up to
|
|
bid you good-bye.'
|
|
|
|
'But he didn't say you were to go--O Stephen, he didn't say that?'
|
|
|
|
'No; not in words. But I cannot stay.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, don't, don't go! Do come and let us talk. Let us come down
|
|
to the drawing-room for a few minutes; he will hear us here.'
|
|
|
|
She preceded him down the staircase with the taper light in her
|
|
hand, looking unnaturally tall and thin in the long dove-coloured
|
|
dressing-gown she wore. She did not stop to think of the
|
|
propriety or otherwise of this midnight interview under such
|
|
circumstances. She thought that the tragedy of her life was
|
|
beginning, and, for the first time almost, felt that her existence
|
|
might have a grave side, the shade of which enveloped and rendered
|
|
invisible the delicate gradations of custom and punctilio.
|
|
Elfride softly opened the drawing-room door and they both went in.
|
|
When she had placed the candle on the table, he enclosed her with
|
|
his arms, dried her eyes with his handkerchief, and kissed their
|
|
lids.
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|
|
|
'Stephen, it is over--happy love is over; and there is no more
|
|
sunshine now!'
|
|
|
|
'I will make a fortune, and come to you, and have you. Yes, I
|
|
will!'
|
|
|
|
'Papa will never hear of it--never--never! You don't know him. I
|
|
do. He is either biassed in favour of a thing, or prejudiced
|
|
against it. Argument is powerless against either feeling.'
|
|
|
|
'No; I won't think of him so,' said Stephen. 'If I appear before
|
|
him some time hence as a man of established name, he will accept
|
|
me--I know he will. He is not a wicked man.'
|
|
|
|
'No, he is not wicked. But you say "some time hence," as if it
|
|
were no time. To you, among bustle and excitement, it will be
|
|
comparatively a short time, perhaps; oh, to me, it will be its
|
|
real length trebled! Every summer will be a year--autumn a year--
|
|
winter a year! O Stephen! and you may forget me!'
|
|
|
|
Forget: that was, and is, the real sting of waiting to fond-
|
|
hearted woman. The remark awoke in Stephen the converse fear.
|
|
'You, too, may be persuaded to give me up, when time has made me
|
|
fainter in your memory. For, remember, your love for me must be
|
|
nourished in secret; there will be no long visits from me to
|
|
support you. Circumstances will always tend to obliterate me.'
|
|
|
|
'Stephen,' she said, filled with her own misgivings, and unheeding
|
|
his last words, 'there are beautiful women where you live--of
|
|
course I know there are--and they may win you away from me.' Her
|
|
tears came visibly as she drew a mental picture of his
|
|
faithlessness. 'And it won't be your fault,' she continued,
|
|
looking into the candle with doleful eyes. 'No! You will think
|
|
that our family don't want you, and get to include me with them.
|
|
And there will be a vacancy in your heart, and some others will be
|
|
let in.'
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|
|
|
'I could not, I would not. Elfie, do not be so full of
|
|
forebodings.'
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|
|
|
'Oh yes, they will,' she replied. 'And you will look at them, not
|
|
caring at first, and then you will look and be interested, and
|
|
after a while you will think, "Ah, they know all about city life,
|
|
and assemblies, and coteries, and the manners of the titled, and
|
|
poor little Elfie, with all the fuss that's made about her having
|
|
me, doesn't know about anything but a little house and a few
|
|
cliffs and a space of sea, far away." And then you'll be more
|
|
interested in them, and they'll make you have them instead of me,
|
|
on purpose to be cruel to me because I am silly, and they are
|
|
clever and hate me. And I hate them, too; yes, I do!'
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|
|
|
Her impulsive words had power to impress him at any rate with the
|
|
recognition of the uncertainty of all that is not accomplished.
|
|
And, worse than that general feeling, there of course remained the
|
|
sadness which arose from the special features of his own case.
|
|
However remote a desired issue may be, the mere fact of having
|
|
entered the groove which leads to it, cheers to some extent with a
|
|
sense of accomplishment. Had Mr. Swancourt consented to an
|
|
engagement of no less length than ten years, Stephen would have
|
|
been comparatively cheerful in waiting; they would have felt that
|
|
they were somewhere on the road to Cupid's garden. But, with a
|
|
possibility of a shorter probation, they had not as yet any
|
|
prospect of the beginning; the zero of hope had yet to be reached.
|
|
Mr. Swancourt would have to revoke his formidable words before the
|
|
waiting for marriage could even set in. And this was despair.
|
|
|
|
'I wish we could marry now,' murmured Stephen, as an impossible
|
|
fancy.
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|
|
|
'So do I,' said she also, as if regarding an idle dream. ''Tis
|
|
the only thing that ever does sweethearts good!'
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|
|
'Secretly would do, would it not, Elfie?'
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|
|
'Yes, secretly would do; secretly would indeed be best,' she said,
|
|
and went on reflectively: 'All we want is to render it absolutely
|
|
impossible for any future circumstance to upset our future
|
|
intention of being happy together; not to begin being happy now.'
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|
|
|
'Exactly,' he murmured in a voice and manner the counterpart of
|
|
hers. 'To marry and part secretly, and live on as we are living
|
|
now; merely to put it out of anybody's power to force you away
|
|
from me, dearest.'
|
|
|
|
'Or you away from me, Stephen.'
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|
|
|
'Or me from you. It is possible to conceive a force of
|
|
circumstance strong enough to make any woman in the world marry
|
|
against her will: no conceivable pressure, up to torture or
|
|
starvation, can make a woman once married to her lover anybody
|
|
else's wife.'
|
|
|
|
Now up to this point the idea of an immediate secret marriage had
|
|
been held by both as an untenable hypothesis, wherewith simply to
|
|
beguile a miserable moment. During a pause which followed
|
|
Stephen's last remark, a fascinating perception, then an alluring
|
|
conviction, flashed along the brain of both. The perception was
|
|
that an immediate marriage COULD be contrived; the conviction that
|
|
such an act, in spite of its daring, its fathomless results, its
|
|
deceptiveness, would be preferred by each to the life they must
|
|
lead under any other conditions.
|
|
|
|
The youth spoke first, and his voice trembled with the magnitude
|
|
of the conception he was cherishing. 'How strong we should feel,
|
|
Elfride! going on our separate courses as before, without the fear
|
|
of ultimate separation! O Elfride! think of it; think of it!'
|
|
|
|
It is certain that the young girl's love for Stephen received a
|
|
fanning from her father's opposition which made it blaze with a
|
|
dozen times the intensity it would have exhibited if left alone.
|
|
Never were conditions more favourable for developing a girl's
|
|
first passing fancy for a handsome boyish face--a fancy rooted in
|
|
inexperience and nourished by seclusion--into a wild unreflecting
|
|
passion fervid enough for anything. All the elements of such a
|
|
development were there, the chief one being hopelessness--a
|
|
necessary ingredient always to perfect the mixture of feelings
|
|
united under the name of loving to distraction.
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|
|
|
'We would tell papa soon, would we not?' she inquired timidly.
|
|
'Nobody else need know. He would then be convinced that hearts
|
|
cannot be played with; love encouraged be ready to grow, love
|
|
discouraged be ready to die, at a moment's notice. Stephen, do
|
|
you not think that if marriages against a parent's consent are
|
|
ever justifiable, they are when young people have been favoured up
|
|
to a point, as we have, and then have had that favour suddenly
|
|
withdrawn?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes. It is not as if we had from the beginning acted in
|
|
opposition to your papa's wishes. Only think, Elfie, how pleasant
|
|
he was towards me but six hours ago! He liked me, praised me,
|
|
never objected to my being alone with you.'
|
|
|
|
'I believe he MUST like you now,' she cried. 'And if he found
|
|
that you irremediably belonged to me, he would own it and help
|
|
you. 'O Stephen, Stephen,' she burst out again, as the
|
|
remembrance of his packing came afresh to her mind, 'I cannot bear
|
|
your going away like this! It is too dreadful. All I have been
|
|
expecting miserably killed within me like this!'
|
|
|
|
Stephen flushed hot with impulse. 'I will not be a doubt to you--
|
|
thought of you shall not be a misery to me!' he said. 'We will be
|
|
wife and husband before we part for long!'
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|
|
|
She hid her face on his shoulder. 'Anything to make SURE!' she
|
|
whispered.
|
|
|
|
'I did not like to propose it immediately,' continued Stephen.
|
|
'It seemed to me--it seems to me now--like trying to catch you--a
|
|
girl better in the world than I.'
|
|
|
|
'Not that, indeed! And am I better in worldly station? What's the
|
|
use of have beens? We may have been something once; we are nothing
|
|
now.'
|
|
|
|
Then they whispered long and earnestly together; Stephen
|
|
hesitatingly proposing this and that plan, Elfride modifying them,
|
|
with quick breathings, and hectic flush, and unnaturally bright
|
|
eyes. It was two o'clock before an arrangement was finally
|
|
concluded.
|
|
|
|
She then told him to leave her, giving him his light to go up to
|
|
his own room. They parted with an agreement not to meet again in
|
|
the morning. After his door had been some time closed he heard
|
|
her softly gliding into her chamber.
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Chapter XI
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'Journeys end in lovers meeting.'
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Stephen lay watching the Great Bear; Elfride was regarding a
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monotonous parallelogram of window blind. Neither slept that
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night.
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Early the next morning--that is to say, four hours after their
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stolen interview, and just as the earliest servant was heard
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moving about--Stephen Smith went downstairs, portmanteau in hand.
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Throughout the night he had intended to see Mr. Swancourt again,
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but the sharp rebuff of the previous evening rendered such an
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interview particularly distasteful. Perhaps there was another and
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less honest reason. He decided to put it off. Whatever of moral
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timidity or obliquity may have lain in such a decision, no
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perception of it was strong enough to detain him. He wrote a note
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in his room, which stated simply that he did not feel happy in the
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house after Mr. Swancourt's sudden veto on what he had favoured a
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few hours before; but that he hoped a time would come, and that
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soon, when his original feelings of pleasure as Mr. Swancourt's
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guest might be recovered.
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He expected to find the downstairs rooms wearing the gray and
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cheerless aspect that early morning gives to everything out of the
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sun. He found in the dining room a breakfast laid, of which
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somebody had just partaken.
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Stephen gave the maid-servant his note of adieu. She stated that
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Mr. Swancourt had risen early that morning, and made an early
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breakfast. He was not going away that she knew of.
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Stephen took a cup of coffee, left the house of his love, and
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turned into the lane. It was so early that the shaded places
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still smelt like night time, and the sunny spots had hardly felt
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the sun. The horizontal rays made every shallow dip in the ground
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to show as a well-marked hollow. Even the channel of the path was
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enough to throw shade, and the very stones of the road cast
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tapering dashes of darkness westward, as long as Jael's tent-nail.
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At a spot not more than a hundred yards from the vicar's residence
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the lane leading thence crossed the high road. Stephen reached
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the point of intersection, stood still and listened. Nothing
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could be heard save the lengthy, murmuring line of the sea upon
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the adjacent shore. He looked at his watch, and then mounted a
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gate upon which he seated himself, to await the arrival of the
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carrier. Whilst he sat he heard wheels coming in two directions.
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The vehicle approaching on his right he soon recognized as the
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carrier's. There were the accompanying sounds of the owner's
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voice and the smack of his whip, distinct in the still morning
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air, by which he encouraged his horses up the hill.
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The other set of wheels sounded from the lane Stephen had just
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traversed. On closer observation, he perceived that they were
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moving from the precincts of the ancient manor-house adjoining the
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vicarage grounds. A carriage then left the entrance gates of the
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house, and wheeling round came fully in sight. It was a plain
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travelling carriage, with a small quantity of luggage, apparently
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a lady's. The vehicle came to the junction of the four ways half-
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a-minute before the carrier reached the same spot, and crossed
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directly in his front, proceeding by the lane on the other side.
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Inside the carriage Stephen could just discern an elderly lady
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with a younger woman, who seemed to be her maid. The road they
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had taken led to Stratleigh, a small watering-place sixteen miles
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north.
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He heard the manor-house gates swing again, and looking up saw
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another person leaving them, and walking off in the direction of
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the parsonage. 'Ah, how much I wish I were moving that way!' felt
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he parenthetically. The gentleman was tall, and resembled Mr.
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Swancourt in outline and attire. He opened the vicarage gate and
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went in. Mr. Swancourt, then, it certainly was. Instead of
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remaining in bed that morning Mr. Swancourt must have taken it
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into his head to see his new neighbour off on a journey. He must
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have been greatly interested in that neighbour to do such an
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unusual thing.
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The carrier's conveyance had pulled up, and Stephen now handed in
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his portmanteau and mounted the shafts. 'Who is that lady in the
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carriage?' he inquired indifferently of Lickpan the carrier.
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'That, sir, is Mrs. Troyton, a widder wi' a mint o' money. She's
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the owner of all that part of Endelstow that is not Lord
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Luxellian's. Only been here a short time; she came into it by
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law. The owner formerly was a terrible mysterious party--never
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lived here--hardly ever was seen here except in the month of
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September, as I might say.'
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The horses were started again, and noise rendered further
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discourse a matter of too great exertion. Stephen crept inside
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under the tilt, and was soon lost in reverie.
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Three hours and a half of straining up hills and jogging down
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brought them to St. Launce's, the market town and railway station
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nearest to Endelstow, and the place from which Stephen Smith had
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journeyed over the downs on the, to him, memorable winter evening
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at the beginning of the same year. The carrier's van was so timed
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as to meet a starting up-train, which Stephen entered. Two or
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three hours' railway travel through vertical cuttings in
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metamorphic rock, through oak copses rich and green, stretching
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over slopes and down delightful valleys, glens, and ravines,
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sparkling with water like many-rilled Ida, and he plunged amid the
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hundred and fifty thousand people composing the town of Plymouth.
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There being some time upon his hands he left his luggage at the
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cloak-room, and went on foot along Bedford Street to the nearest
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church. Here Stephen wandered among the multifarious tombstones
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and looked in at the chancel window, dreaming of something that
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was likely to happen by the altar there in the course of the
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coming month. He turned away and ascended the Hoe, viewed the
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magnificent stretch of sea and massive promontories of land, but
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without particularly discerning one feature of the varied
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perspective. He still saw that inner prospect--the event he hoped
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for in yonder church. The wide Sound, the Breakwater, the light-
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house on far-off Eddystone, the dark steam vessels, brigs,
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barques, and schooners, either floating stilly, or gliding with
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tiniest motion, were as the dream, then; the dreamed-of event was
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as the reality.
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Soon Stephen went down from the Hoe, and returned to the railway
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station. He took his ticket, and entered the London train.
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That day was an irksome time at Endelstow vicarage. Neither
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father nor daughter alluded to the departure of Stephen. Mr.
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Swancourt's manner towards her partook of the compunctious
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kindness that arises from a misgiving as to the justice of some
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previous act.
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Either from lack of the capacity to grasp the whole coup d'oeil,
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or from a natural endowment for certain kinds of stoicism, women
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are cooler than men in critical situations of the passive form.
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Probably, in Elfride's case at least, it was blindness to the
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|
greater contingencies of the future she was preparing for herself,
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which enabled her to ask her father in a quiet voice if he could
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give her a holiday soon, to ride to St. Launce's and go on to
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Plymouth.
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Now, she had only once before gone alone to Plymouth, and that was
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in consequence of some unavoidable difficulty. Being a country
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girl, and a good, not to say a wild, horsewoman, it had been her
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|
delight to canter, without the ghost of an attendant, over the
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fourteen or sixteen miles of hard road intervening between their
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|
home and the station at St. Launce's, put up the horse, and go on
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|
the remainder of the distance by train, returning in the same
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|
manner in the evening. It was then resolved that, though she had
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successfully accomplished this journey once, it was not to be
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|
repeated without some attendance.
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But Elfride must not be confounded with ordinary young feminine
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|
equestrians. The circumstances of her lonely and narrow life made
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it imperative that in trotting about the neighbourhood she must
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|
trot alone or else not at all. Usage soon rendered this perfectly
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|
natural to herself. Her father, who had had other experiences,
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|
did not much like the idea of a Swancourt, whose pedigree could be
|
|
as distinctly traced as a thread in a skein of silk, scampering
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|
over the hills like a farmer's daughter, even though he could
|
|
habitually neglect her. But what with his not being able to
|
|
afford her a regular attendant, and his inveterate habit of
|
|
letting anything be to save himself trouble, the circumstance grew
|
|
customary. And so there arose a chronic notion in the villagers'
|
|
minds that all ladies rode without an attendant, like Miss
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|
Swancourt, except a few who were sometimes visiting at Lord
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|
Luxellian's.
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'I don't like your going to Plymouth alone, particularly going to
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St. Launce's on horseback. Why not drive, and take the man?'
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'It is not nice to be so overlooked.' Worm's company would not
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seriously have interfered with her plans, but it was her humour to
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go without him.
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'When do you want to go?' said her father.
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She only answered, 'Soon.'
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'I will consider,' he said.
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Only a few days elapsed before she asked again. A letter had
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|
reached her from Stephen. It had been timed to come on that day
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|
by special arrangement between them. In it he named the earliest
|
|
morning on which he could meet her at Plymouth. Her father had
|
|
been on a journey to Stratleigh, and returned in unusual buoyancy
|
|
of spirit. It was a good opportunity; and since the dismissal of
|
|
Stephen her father had been generally in a mood to make small
|
|
concessions, that he might steer clear of large ones connected
|
|
with that outcast lover of hers.
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|
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'Next Thursday week I am going from home in a different
|
|
direction,' said her father. 'In fact, I shall leave home the
|
|
night before. You might choose the same day, for they wish to
|
|
take up the carpets, or some such thing, I think. As I said, I
|
|
don't like you to be seen in a town on horseback alone; but go if
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|
you will.'
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Thursday week. Her father had named the very day that Stephen
|
|
also had named that morning as the earliest on which it would be
|
|
of any use to meet her; that was, about fifteen days from the day
|
|
on which he had left Endelstow. Fifteen days--that fragment of
|
|
duration which has acquired such an interesting individuality from
|
|
its connection with the English marriage law.
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|
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She involuntarily looked at her father so strangely, that on
|
|
becoming conscious of the look she paled with embarrassment. Her
|
|
father, too, looked confused. What was he thinking of?
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|
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|
There seemed to be a special facility offered her by a power
|
|
external to herself in the circumstance that Mr. Swancourt had
|
|
proposed to leave home the night previous to her wished-for day.
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|
Her father seldom took long journeys; seldom slept from home
|
|
except perhaps on the night following a remote Visitation. Well,
|
|
she would not inquire too curiously into the reason of the
|
|
opportunity, nor did he, as would have been natural, proceed to
|
|
explain it of his own accord. In matters of fact there had
|
|
hitherto been no reserve between them, though they were not
|
|
usually confidential in its full sense. But the divergence of
|
|
their emotions on Stephen's account had produced an estrangement
|
|
which just at present went even to the extent of reticence on the
|
|
most ordinary household topics.
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|
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|
Elfride was almost unconsciously relieved, persuading herself that
|
|
her father's reserve on his business justified her in secrecy as
|
|
regarded her own--a secrecy which was necessarily a foregone
|
|
decision with her. So anxious is a young conscience to discover a
|
|
palliative, that the ex post facto nature of a reason is of no
|
|
account in excluding it.
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|
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|
The intervening fortnight was spent by her mostly in walking by
|
|
herself among the shrubs and trees, indulging sometimes in
|
|
sanguine anticipations; more, far more frequently, in misgivings.
|
|
All her flowers seemed dull of hue; her pets seemed to look
|
|
wistfully into her eyes, as if they no longer stood in the same
|
|
friendly relation to her as formerly. She wore melancholy
|
|
jewellery, gazed at sunsets, and talked to old men and women. It
|
|
was the first time that she had had an inner and private world
|
|
apart from the visible one about her. She wished that her father,
|
|
instead of neglecting her even more than usual, would make some
|
|
advance--just one word; she would then tell all, and risk
|
|
Stephen's displeasure. Thus brought round to the youth again, she
|
|
saw him in her fancy, standing, touching her, his eyes full of sad
|
|
affection, hopelessly renouncing his attempt because she had
|
|
renounced hers; and she could not recede.
|
|
|
|
On the Wednesday she was to receive another letter. She had
|
|
resolved to let her father see the arrival of this one, be the
|
|
consequences what they might: the dread of losing her lover by
|
|
this deed of honesty prevented her acting upon the resolve. Five
|
|
minutes before the postman's expected arrival she slipped out, and
|
|
down the lane to meet him. She met him immediately upon turning a
|
|
sharp angle, which hid her from view in the direction of the
|
|
vicarage. The man smilingly handed one missive, and was going on
|
|
to hand another, a circular from some tradesman.
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|
|
|
'No,' she said; 'take that on to the house.'
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|
|
|
'Why, miss, you are doing what your father has done for the last
|
|
fortnight.'
|
|
|
|
She did not comprehend.
|
|
|
|
'Why, come to this corner, and take a letter of me every morning,
|
|
all writ in the same handwriting, and letting any others for him
|
|
go on to the house.' And on the postman went.
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|
|
|
No sooner had he turned the corner behind her back than she heard
|
|
her father meet and address the man. She had saved her letter by
|
|
two minutes. Her father audibly went through precisely the same
|
|
performance as she had just been guilty of herself.
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|
|
|
This stealthy conduct of his was, to say the least, peculiar.
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|
|
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|
|
Given an impulsive inconsequent girl, neglected as to her inner
|
|
life by her only parent, and the following forces alive within
|
|
her; to determine a resultant:
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|
First love acted upon by a deadly fear of separation from its
|
|
object: inexperience, guiding onward a frantic wish to prevent the
|
|
above-named issue: misgivings as to propriety, met by hope of
|
|
ultimate exoneration: indignation at parental inconsistency in
|
|
first encouraging, then forbidding: a chilling sense of
|
|
disobedience, overpowered by a conscientious inability to brook a
|
|
breaking of plighted faith with a man who, in essentials, had
|
|
remained unaltered from the beginning: a blessed hope that
|
|
opposition would turn an erroneous judgement: a bright faith that
|
|
things would mend thereby, and wind up well.
|
|
|
|
Probably the result would, after all, have been nil, had not the
|
|
following few remarks been made one day at breakfast.
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|
|
|
Her father was in his old hearty spirits. He smiled to himself at
|
|
stories too bad to tell, and called Elfride a little scamp for
|
|
surreptitiously preserving some blind kittens that ought to have
|
|
been drowned. After this expression, she said to him suddenly:
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|
|
|
If Mr. Smith had been already in the family, you would not have
|
|
been made wretched by discovering he had poor relations?'
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|
|
|
'Do you mean in the family by marriage?' he replied inattentively,
|
|
and continuing to peel his egg.
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|
|
|
The accumulating scarlet told that was her meaning, as much as the
|
|
affirmative reply.
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|
|
|
'I should have put up with it, no doubt,' Mr. Swancourt observed.
|
|
|
|
'So that you would not have been driven into hopeless melancholy,
|
|
but have made the best of him?'
|
|
|
|
Elfride's erratic mind had from her youth upwards been constantly
|
|
in the habit of perplexing her father by hypothetical questions,
|
|
based on absurd conditions. The present seemed to be cast so
|
|
precisely in the mould of previous ones that, not being given to
|
|
syntheses of circumstances, he answered it with customary
|
|
complacency.
|
|
|
|
'If he were allied to us irretrievably, of course I, or any
|
|
sensible man, should accept conditions that could not be altered;
|
|
certainly not be hopelessly melancholy about it. I don't believe
|
|
anything in the world would make me hopelessly melancholy. And
|
|
don't let anything make you so, either.'
|
|
|
|
'I won't, papa,' she cried, with a serene brightness that pleased
|
|
him.
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|
|
|
Certainly Mr. Swancourt must have been far from thinking that the
|
|
brightness came from an exhilarating intention to hold back no
|
|
longer from the mad action she had planned.
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|
|
|
In the evening he drove away towards Stratleigh, quite alone. It
|
|
was an unusual course for him. At the door Elfride had been again
|
|
almost impelled by her feelings to pour out all.
|
|
|
|
'Why are you going to Stratleigh, papa?' she said, and looked at
|
|
him longingly.
|
|
|
|
'I will tell you to-morrow when I come back,' he said cheerily;
|
|
'not before then, Elfride. Thou wilt not utter what thou dost not
|
|
know, and so far will I trust thee, gentle Elfride.'
|
|
|
|
She was repressed and hurt.
|
|
|
|
'I will tell you my errand to Plymouth, too, when I come back,'
|
|
she murmured.
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|
|
|
He went away. His jocularity made her intention seem the lighter,
|
|
as his indifference made her more resolved to do as she liked.
|
|
|
|
It was a familiar September sunset, dark-blue fragments of cloud
|
|
upon an orange-yellow sky. These sunsets used to tempt her to
|
|
walk towards them, as any beautiful thing tempts a near approach.
|
|
She went through the field to the privet hedge, clambered into the
|
|
middle of it, and reclined upon the thick boughs. After looking
|
|
westward for a considerable time, she blamed herself for not
|
|
looking eastward to where Stephen was, and turned round.
|
|
Ultimately her eyes fell upon the ground.
|
|
|
|
A peculiarity was observable beneath her. A green field spread
|
|
itself on each side of the hedge, one belonging to the glebe, the
|
|
other being a part of the land attached to the manor-house
|
|
adjoining. On the vicarage side she saw a little footpath, the
|
|
distinctive and altogether exceptional feature of which consisted
|
|
in its being only about ten yards long; it terminated abruptly at
|
|
each end.
|
|
|
|
A footpath, suddenly beginning and suddenly ending, coming from
|
|
nowhere and leading nowhere, she had never seen before.
|
|
|
|
Yes, she had, on second thoughts. She had seen exactly such a
|
|
path trodden in the front of barracks by the sentry.
|
|
|
|
And this recollection explained the origin of the path here. Her
|
|
father had trodden it by pacing up and down, as she had once seen
|
|
him doing.
|
|
|
|
Sitting on the hedge as she sat now, her eyes commanded a view of
|
|
both sides of it. And a few minutes later, Elfride looked over to
|
|
the manor side.
|
|
|
|
Here was another sentry path. It was like the first in length,
|
|
and it began and ended exactly opposite the beginning and ending
|
|
of its neighbour, but it was thinner, and less distinct.
|
|
|
|
Two reasons existed for the difference. This one might have been
|
|
trodden by a similar weight of tread to the other, exercised a
|
|
less number of times; or it might have been walked just as
|
|
frequently, but by lighter feet.
|
|
|
|
Probably a gentleman from Scotland-yard, had he been passing at
|
|
the time, might have considered the latter alternative as the more
|
|
probable. Elfride thought otherwise, so far as she thought at
|
|
all. But her own great To-Morrow was now imminent; all thoughts
|
|
inspired by casual sights of the eye were only allowed to exercise
|
|
themselves in inferior corners of her brain, previously to being
|
|
banished altogether.
|
|
|
|
Elfride was at length compelled to reason practically upon her
|
|
undertaking. All her definite perceptions thereon, when the
|
|
emotion accompanying them was abstracted, amounted to no more than
|
|
these:
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|
|
|
'Say an hour and three-quarters to ride to St. Launce's.
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|
|
|
'Say half an hour at the Falcon to change my dress.
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|
|
|
'Say two hours waiting for some train and getting to Plymouth.
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|
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|
'Say an hour to spare before twelve o'clock.
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|
|
|
'Total time from leaving Endelstow till twelve o'clock, five
|
|
hours.
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|
|
|
'Therefore I shall have to start at seven.'
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|
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|
No surprise or sense of unwontedness entered the minds of the
|
|
servants at her early ride. The monotony of life we associate
|
|
with people of small incomes in districts out of the sound of the
|
|
railway whistle, has one exception, which puts into shade the
|
|
experience of dwellers about the great centres of population--that
|
|
is, in travelling. Every journey there is more or less an
|
|
adventure; adventurous hours are necessarily chosen for the most
|
|
commonplace outing. Miss Elfride had to leave early--that was
|
|
all.
|
|
|
|
Elfride never went out on horseback but she brought home
|
|
something--something found, or something bought. If she trotted
|
|
to town or village, her burden was books. If to hills, woods, or
|
|
the seashore, it was wonderful mosses, abnormal twigs, a
|
|
handkerchief of wet shells or seaweed.
|
|
|
|
Once, in muddy weather, when Pansy was walking with her down the
|
|
street of Castle Boterel, on a fair-day, a packet in front of her
|
|
and a packet under her arm, an accident befell the packets, and
|
|
they slipped down. On one side of her, three volumes of fiction
|
|
lay kissing the mud; on the other numerous skeins of polychromatic
|
|
wools lay absorbing it. Unpleasant women smiled through windows
|
|
at the mishap, the men all looked round, and a boy, who was
|
|
minding a ginger-bread stall whilst the owner had gone to get
|
|
drunk, laughed loudly. The blue eyes turned to sapphires, and the
|
|
cheeks crimsoned with vexation.
|
|
|
|
After that misadventure she set her wits to work, and was
|
|
ingenious enough to invent an arrangement of small straps about
|
|
the saddle, by which a great deal could be safely carried thereon,
|
|
in a small compass. Here she now spread out and fastened a plain
|
|
dark walking-dress and a few other trifles of apparel. Worm
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opened the gate for her, and she vanished away.
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One of the brightest mornings of late summer shone upon her. The
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heather was at its purplest, the furze at its yellowest, the
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grasshoppers chirped loud enough for birds, the snakes hissed like
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little engines, and Elfride at first felt lively. Sitting at ease
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upon Pansy, in her orthodox riding-habit and nondescript hat, she
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looked what she felt. But the mercury of those days had a trick
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of falling unexpectedly. First, only for one minute in ten had
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she a sense of depression. Then a large cloud, that had been
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hanging in the north like a black fleece, came and placed itself
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between her and the sun. It helped on what was already
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inevitable, and she sank into a uniformity of sadness.
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She turned in the saddle and looked back. They were now on an
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open table-land, whose altitude still gave her a view of the sea
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by Endelstow. She looked longingly at that spot.
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During this little revulsion of feeling Pansy had been still
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advancing, and Elfride felt it would be absurd to turn her little
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mare's head the other way. 'Still,' she thought, 'if I had a
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mamma at home I WOULD go back!'
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And making one of those stealthy movements by which women let
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their hearts juggle with their brains, she did put the horse's
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head about, as if unconsciously, and went at a hand-gallop towards
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home for more than a mile. By this time, from the inveterate
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habit of valuing what we have renounced directly the alternative
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is chosen, the thought of her forsaken Stephen recalled her, and
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she turned about, and cantered on to St. Launce's again.
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This miserable strife of thought now began to rage in all its
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wildness. Overwrought and trembling, she dropped the rein upon
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Pansy's shoulders, and vowed she would be led whither the horse
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would take her.
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Pansy slackened her pace to a walk, and walked on with her
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agitated burden for three or four minutes. At the expiration of
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this time they had come to a little by-way on the right, leading
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down a slope to a pool of water. The pony stopped, looked towards
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the pool, and then advanced and stooped to drink.
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Elfride looked at her watch and discovered that if she were going
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to reach St. Launce's early enough to change her dress at the
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Falcon, and get a chance of some early train to Plymouth--there
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were only two available--it was necessary to proceed at once.
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She was impatient. It seemed as if Pansy would never stop
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drinking; and the repose of the pool, the idle motions of the
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insects and flies upon it, the placid waving of the flags, the
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leaf-skeletons, like Genoese filigree, placidly sleeping at the
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bottom, by their contrast with her own turmoil made her impatience
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greater.
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Pansy did turn at last, and went up the slope again to the high-
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road. The pony came upon it, and stood cross-wise, looking up and
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down. Elfride's heart throbbed erratically, and she thought,
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'Horses, if left to themselves, make for where they are best fed.
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Pansy will go home.'
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Pansy turned and walked on towards St. Launce's
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Pansy at home, during summer, had little but grass to live on.
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After a run to St. Launce's she always had a feed of corn to
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support her on the return journey. Therefore, being now more than
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half way, she preferred St. Launce's.
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But Elfride did not remember this now. All she cared to recognize
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was a dreamy fancy that to-day's rash action was not her own. She
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was disabled by her moods, and it seemed indispensable to adhere
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to the programme. So strangely involved are motives that, more
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than by her promise to Stephen, more even than by her love, she
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was forced on by a sense of the necessity of keeping faith with
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herself, as promised in the inane vow of ten minutes ago.
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She hesitated no longer. Pansy went, like the steed of Adonis, as
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if she told the steps. Presently the quaint gables and jumbled
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roofs of St. Launce's were spread beneath her, and going down the
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hill she entered the courtyard of the Falcon. Mrs. Buckle, the
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landlady, came to the door to meet her.
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The Swancourts were well known here. The transition from
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equestrian to the ordinary guise of railway travellers had been
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more than once performed by father and daughter in this
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establishment.
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In less than a quarter of an hour Elfride emerged from the door in
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her walking dress, and went to the railway. She had not told Mrs.
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Buckle anything as to her intentions, and was supposed to have
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gone out shopping.
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An hour and forty minutes later, and she was in Stephen's arms at
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the Plymouth station. Not upon the platform--in the secret
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retreat of a deserted waiting-room.
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Stephen's face boded ill. He was pale and despondent.
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What is the matter?' she asked.
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'We cannot be married here to-day, my Elfie! I ought to have known
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it and stayed here. In my ignorance I did not. I have the
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licence, but it can only be used in my parish in London. I only
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came down last night, as you know.'
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'What shall we do?' she said blankly.
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'There's only one thing we can do, darling.'
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'What's that?'
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'Go on to London by a train just starting, and be married there
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to-morrow.'
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'Passengers for the 11.5 up-train take their seats!' said a
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guard's voice on the platform.
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'Will you go, Elfride?'
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'I will.'
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In three minutes the train had moved off, bearing away with it
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Stephen and Elfride.
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Chapter XII
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'Adieu! she cries, and waved her lily hand.'
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The few tattered clouds of the morning enlarged and united, the
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sun withdrew behind them to emerge no more that day, and the
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evening drew to a close in drifts of rain. The water-drops beat
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like duck shot against the window of the railway-carriage
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containing Stephen and Elfride.
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The journey from Plymouth to Paddington, by even the most headlong
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express, allows quite enough leisure for passion of any sort to
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cool. Elfride's excitement had passed off, and she sat in a kind
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of stupor during the latter half of the journey. She was aroused
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|
by the clanging of the maze of rails over which they traced their
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way at the entrance to the station.
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Is this London?' she said.
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'Yes, darling,' said Stephen in a tone of assurance he was far
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from feeling. To him, no less than to her, the reality so greatly
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differed from the prefiguring.
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She peered out as well as the window, beaded with drops, would
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allow her, and saw only the lamps, which had just been lit,
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blinking in the wet atmosphere, and rows of hideous zinc chimney-
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pipes in dim relief against the sky. She writhed uneasily, as
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when a thought is swelling in the mind which must cause much pain
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at its deliverance in words. Elfride had known no more about the
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stings of evil report than the native wild-fowl knew of the
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effects of Crusoe's first shot. Now she saw a little further, and
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a little further still.
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The train stopped. Stephen relinquished the soft hand he had held
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all the day, and proceeded to assist her on to the platform.
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This act of alighting upon strange ground seemed all that was
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wanted to complete a resolution within her.
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She looked at her betrothed with despairing eyes.
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'O Stephen,' she exclaimed, 'I am so miserable! I must go home
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again--I must--I must! Forgive my wretched vacillation. I don't
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|
like it here--nor myself--nor you!'
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Stephen looked bewildered, and did not speak.
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'Will you allow me to go home?' she implored. 'I won't trouble
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you to go with me. I will not be any weight upon you; only say
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you will agree to my returning; that you will not hate me for it,
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Stephen! It is better that I should return again; indeed it is,
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Stephen.'
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'But we can't return now,' he said in a deprecatory tone.
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'I must! I will!'
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'How? When do you want to go?'
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'Now. Can we go at once?'
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The lad looked hopelessly along the platform.
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'If you must go, and think it wrong to remain, dearest,' said he
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sadly, 'you shall. You shall do whatever you like, my Elfride.
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But would you in reality rather go now than stay till to-morrow,
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and go as my wife?'
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'Yes, yes--much--anything to go now. I must; I must!' she cried.
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'We ought to have done one of two things,' he answered gloomily.
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'Never to have started, or not to have returned without being
|
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married. I don't like to say it, Elfride--indeed I don't; but you
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|
must be told this, that going back unmarried may compromise your
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good name in the eyes of people who may hear of it.'
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'They will not; and I must go.'
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'O Elfride! I am to blame for bringing you away.'
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'Not at all. I am the elder.'
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'By a month; and what's that? But never mind that now.' He looked
|
|
around. 'Is there a train for Plymouth to-night?' he inquired of
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|
a guard. The guard passed on and did not speak.
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'Is there a train for Plymouth to-night?' said Elfride to another.
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'Yes, miss; the 8.10--leaves in ten minutes. You have come to the
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|
wrong platform; it is the other side. Change at Bristol into the
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night mail. Down that staircase, and under the line.'
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They ran down the staircase--Elfride first--to the booking-office,
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and into a carriage with an official standing beside the door.
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'Show your tickets, please.' They are locked in--men about the
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|
platform accelerate their velocities till they fly up and down
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like shuttles in a loom--a whistle--the waving of a flag--a human
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|
cry--a steam groan--and away they go to Plymouth again, just
|
|
catching these words as they glide off:
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|
'Those two youngsters had a near run for it, and no mistake!'
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Elfride found her breath.
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'And have you come too, Stephen? Why did you?'
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'I shall not leave you till I see you safe at St. Launce's. Do
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|
not think worse of me than I am, Elfride.'
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|
And then they rattled along through the night, back again by the
|
|
way they had come. The weather cleared, and the stars shone in
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|
upon them. Their two or three fellow-passengers sat for most of
|
|
the time with closed eyes. Stephen sometimes slept; Elfride alone
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|
was wakeful and palpitating hour after hour.
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|
The day began to break, and revealed that they were by the sea.
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Red rocks overhung them, and, receding into distance, grew livid
|
|
in the blue grey atmosphere. The sun rose, and sent penetrating
|
|
shafts of light in upon their weary faces. Another hour, and the
|
|
world began to be busy. They waited yet a little, and the train
|
|
slackened its speed in view of the platform at St. Launce's.
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She shivered, and mused sadly.
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|
'I did not see all the consequences,' she said. 'Appearances are
|
|
wofully against me. If anybody finds me out, I am, I suppose,
|
|
disgraced.'
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'Then appearances will speak falsely; and how can that matter,
|
|
even if they do? I shall be your husband sooner or later, for
|
|
certain, and so prove your purity.'
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|
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|
'Stephen, once in London I ought to have married you,' she said
|
|
firmly. 'It was my only safe defence. I see more things now than
|
|
I did yesterday. My only remaining chance is not to be
|
|
discovered; and that we must fight for most desperately.'
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They stepped out. Elfride pulled a thick veil over her face.
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|
A woman with red and scaly eyelids and glistening eyes was sitting
|
|
on a bench just inside the office-door. She fixed her eyes upon
|
|
Elfride with an expression whose force it was impossible to doubt,
|
|
but the meaning of which was not clear; then upon the carriage
|
|
they had left. She seemed to read a sinister story in the scene.
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Elfride shrank back, and turned the other way.
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'Who is that woman?' said Stephen. 'She looked hard at you.'
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|
|
'Mrs. Jethway--a widow, and mother of that young man whose tomb we
|
|
sat on the other night. Stephen, she is my enemy. Would that God
|
|
had had mercy enough upon me to have hidden this from HER!'
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|
|
|
'Do not talk so hopelessly,' he remonstrated. 'I don't think she
|
|
recognized us.'
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'I pray that she did not.'
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|
He put on a more vigorous mood.
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|
'Now, we will go and get some breakfast.'
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'No, no!' she begged. 'I cannot eat. I MUST get back to
|
|
Endelstow.'
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|
|
|
Elfride was as if she had grown years older than Stephen now.
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|
|
|
'But you have had nothing since last night but that cup of tea at
|
|
Bristol.'
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|
|
|
'I can't eat, Stephen.'
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|
|
|
'Wine and biscuit?'
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|
|
|
'No.'
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|
|
|
'Nor tea, nor coffee?'
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|
|
|
'No.'
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|
|
|
'A glass of water?'
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|
|
|
'No. I want something that makes people strong and energetic for
|
|
the present, that borrows the strength of to-morrow for use to-
|
|
day--leaving to-morrow without any at all for that matter; or even
|
|
that would take all life away to-morrow, so long as it enabled me
|
|
to get home again now. Brandy, that's what I want. That woman's
|
|
eyes have eaten my heart away!'
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|
|
|
'You are wild; and you grieve me, darling. Must it be brandy?'
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|
|
'Yes, if you please.'
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|
|
|
'How much?'
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|
|
|
'I don't know. I have never drunk more than a teaspoonful at
|
|
once. All I know is that I want it. Don't get it at the Falcon.'
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|
|
|
He left her in the fields, and went to the nearest inn in that
|
|
direction. Presently he returned with a small flask nearly full,
|
|
and some slices of bread-and-butter, thin as wafers, in a paper-
|
|
bag. Elfride took a sip or two.
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|
|
|
'It goes into my eyes,' she said wearily. 'I can't take any more.
|
|
Yes, I will; I will close my eyes. Ah, it goes to them by an
|
|
inside route. I don't want it; throw it away.'
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|
|
|
However, she could eat, and did eat. Her chief attention was
|
|
concentrated upon how to get the horse from the Falcon stables
|
|
without suspicion. Stephen was not allowed to accompany her into
|
|
the town. She acted now upon conclusions reached without any aid
|
|
from him: his power over her seemed to have departed.
|
|
|
|
'You had better not be seen with me, even here where I am so
|
|
little known. We have begun stealthily as thieves, and we must
|
|
end stealthily as thieves, at all hazards. Until papa has been
|
|
told by me myself, a discovery would be terrible.'
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|
|
|
Walking and gloomily talking thus they waited till nearly nine
|
|
o'clock, at which time Elfride thought she might call at the
|
|
Falcon without creating much surprise. Behind the railway-station
|
|
was the river, spanned by an old Tudor bridge, whence the road
|
|
diverged in two directions, one skirting the suburbs of the town,
|
|
and winding round again into the high-road to Endelstow. Beside
|
|
this road Stephen sat, and awaited her return from the Falcon.
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|
|
|
He sat as one sitting for a portrait, motionless, watching the
|
|
chequered lights and shades on the tree-trunks, the children
|
|
playing opposite the school previous to entering for the morning
|
|
lesson, the reapers in a field afar off. The certainty of
|
|
possession had not come, and there was nothing to mitigate the
|
|
youth's gloom, that increased with the thought of the parting now
|
|
so near.
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|
|
|
At length she came trotting round to him, in appearance much as on
|
|
the romantic morning of their visit to the cliff, but shorn of the
|
|
radiance which glistened about her then. However, her comparative
|
|
immunity from further risk and trouble had considerably composed
|
|
her. Elfride's capacity for being wounded was only surpassed by
|
|
her capacity for healing, which rightly or wrongly is by some
|
|
considered an index of transientness of feeling in general.
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|
|
|
'Elfride, what did they say at the Falcon?'
|
|
|
|
'Nothing. Nobody seemed curious about me. They knew I went to
|
|
Plymouth, and I have stayed there a night now and then with Miss
|
|
Bicknell. I rather calculated upon that.'
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|
|
|
And now parting arose like a death to these children, for it was
|
|
imperative that she should start at once. Stephen walked beside
|
|
her for nearly a mile. During the walk he said sadly:
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|
|
|
'Elfride, four-and-twenty hours have passed, and the thing is not
|
|
done.'
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|
|
|
'But you have insured that it shall be done.'
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|
|
|
'How have I?'
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|
|
|
'O Stephen, you ask how! Do you think I could marry another man on
|
|
earth after having gone thus far with you? Have I not shown beyond
|
|
possibility of doubt that I can be nobody else's? Have I not
|
|
irretrievably committed myself?--pride has stood for nothing in
|
|
the face of my great love. You misunderstood my turning back, and
|
|
I cannot explain it. It was wrong to go with you at all; and
|
|
though it would have been worse to go further, it would have been
|
|
better policy, perhaps. Be assured of this, that whenever you
|
|
have a home for me--however poor and humble--and come and claim
|
|
me, I am ready.' She added bitterly, 'When my father knows of this
|
|
day's work, he may be only too glad to let me go.'
|
|
|
|
'Perhaps he may, then, insist upon our marriage at once!' Stephen
|
|
answered, seeing a ray of hope in the very focus of her remorse.
|
|
'I hope he may, even if we had still to part till I am ready for
|
|
you, as we intended.'
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|
|
|
Elfride did not reply.
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|
|
|
'You don't seem the same woman, Elfie, that you were yesterday.'
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|
|
|
'Nor am I. But good-bye. Go back now.' And she reined the horse
|
|
for parting. 'O Stephen,' she cried, 'I feel so weak! I don't
|
|
know how to meet him. Cannot you, after all, come back with me?'
|
|
|
|
'Shall I come?'
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|
|
|
Elfride paused to think.
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|
|
|
'No; it will not do. It is my utter foolishness that makes me say
|
|
such words. But he will send for you.'
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|
|
|
'Say to him,' continued Stephen, 'that we did this in the absolute
|
|
despair of our minds. Tell him we don't wish him to favour us--
|
|
only to deal justly with us. If he says, marry now, so much the
|
|
better. If not, say that all may be put right by his promise to
|
|
allow me to have you when I am good enough for you--which may be
|
|
soon. Say I have nothing to offer him in exchange for his
|
|
treasure--the more sorry I; but all the love, and all the life,
|
|
and all the labour of an honest man shall be yours. As to when
|
|
this had better be told, I leave you to judge.'
|
|
|
|
His words made her cheerful enough to toy with her position.
|
|
|
|
'And if ill report should come, Stephen,' she said smiling, 'why,
|
|
the orange-tree must save me, as it saved virgins in St. George's
|
|
time from the poisonous breath of the dragon. There, forgive me
|
|
for forwardness: I am going.'
|
|
|
|
Then the boy and girl beguiled themselves with words of half-
|
|
parting only.
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|
|
|
'Own wifie, God bless you till we meet again!'
|
|
|
|
'Till we meet again, good-bye!'
|
|
|
|
And the pony went on, and she spoke to him no more. He saw her
|
|
figure diminish and her blue veil grow gray--saw it with the
|
|
agonizing sensations of a slow death.
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|
|
|
After thus parting from a man than whom she had known none greater
|
|
as yet, Elfride rode rapidly onwards, a tear being occasionally
|
|
shaken from her eyes into the road. What yesterday had seemed so
|
|
desirable, so promising, even trifling, had now acquired the
|
|
complexion of a tragedy.
|
|
|
|
She saw the rocks and sea in the neighbourhood of Endelstow, and
|
|
heaved a sigh of relief
|
|
|
|
When she passed a field behind the vicarage she heard the voices
|
|
of Unity and William Worm. They were hanging a carpet upon a
|
|
line. Unity was uttering a sentence that concluded with 'when
|
|
Miss Elfride comes.'
|
|
|
|
'When d'ye expect her?'
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|
|
|
'Not till evening now. She's safe enough at Miss Bicknell's,
|
|
bless ye.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride went round to the door. She did not knock or ring; and
|
|
seeing nobody to take the horse, Elfride led her round to the
|
|
yard, slipped off the bridle and saddle, drove her towards the
|
|
paddock, and turned her in. Then Elfride crept indoors, and
|
|
looked into all the ground-floor rooms. Her father was not there.
|
|
|
|
On the mantelpiece of the drawing-room stood a letter addressed to
|
|
her in his handwriting. She took it and read it as she went
|
|
upstairs to change her habit.
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STRATLEIGH, Thursday.
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'DEAR ELFRIDE,--On second thoughts I will not return to-day, but
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only come as far as Wadcombe. I shall be at home by to-morrow
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afternoon, and bring a friend with me.--Yours, in haste,
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C. S.'
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After making a quick toilet she felt more revived, though still
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suffering from a headache. On going out of the door she met Unity
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at the top of the stair.
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'O Miss Elfride! I said to myself 'tis her sperrit! We didn't
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dream o' you not coming home last night. You didn't say anything
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about staying.'
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'I intended to come home the same evening, but altered my plan. I
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wished I hadn't afterwards. Papa will be angry, I suppose?'
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'Better not tell him, miss,' said Unity.
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'I do fear to,' she murmured. 'Unity, would you just begin
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telling him when he comes home?'
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'What! and get you into trouble?'
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'I deserve it.'
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'No, indeed, I won't,' said Unity. 'It is not such a mighty
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matter, Miss Elfride. I says to myself, master's taking a
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hollerday, and because he's not been kind lately to Miss Elfride,
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she----'
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'Is imitating him. Well, do as you like. And will you now bring
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me some luncheon?'
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After satisfying an appetite which the fresh marine air had given
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her in its victory over an agitated mind, she put on her hat and
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went to the garden and summer-house. She sat down, and leant with
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her head in a corner. Here she fell asleep.
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Half-awake, she hurriedly looked at the time. She had been there
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three hours. At the same moment she heard the outer gate swing
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together, and wheels sweep round the entrance; some prior noise
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from the same source having probably been the cause of her
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awaking. Next her father's voice was heard calling to Worm.
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Elfride passed along a walk towards the house behind a belt of
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shrubs. She heard a tongue holding converse with her father,
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which was not that of either of the servants. Her father and the
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stranger were laughing together. Then there was a rustling of
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silk, and Mr. Swancourt and his companion, or companions, to all
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seeming entered the door of the house, for nothing more of them
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was audible. Elfride had turned back to meditate on what friends
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these could be, when she heard footsteps, and her father
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exclaiming behind her:
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'O Elfride, here you are! I hope you got on well?'
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Elfride's heart smote her, and she did not speak.
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'Come back to the summer-house a minute,' continued Mr. Swancourt;
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'I have to tell you of that I promised to.'
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They entered the summer-house, and stood leaning over the knotty
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woodwork of the balustrade.
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'Now,' said her father radiantly, 'guess what I have to say.' He
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seemed to be regarding his own existence so intently, that he took
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no interest in nor even saw the complexion of hers.
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'I cannot, papa,' she said sadly.
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'Try, dear.'
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'I would rather not, indeed.'
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'You are tired. You look worn. The ride was too much for you.
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Well, this is what I went away for. I went to be married!'
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'Married!' she faltered, and could hardly check an involuntary 'So
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did I.' A moment after and her resolve to confess perished like a
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bubble.
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'Yes; to whom do you think? Mrs. Troyton, the new owner of the
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estate over the hedge, and of the old manor-house. It was only
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finally settled between us when I went to Stratleigh a few days
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ago.' He lowered his voice to a sly tone of merriment. 'Now, as
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to your stepmother, you'll find she is not much to look at, though
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a good deal to listen to. She is twenty years older than myself,
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for one thing.'
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'You forget that I know her. She called here once, after we had
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been, and found her away from home.'
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'Of course, of course. Well, whatever her looks are, she's as
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excellent a woman as ever breathed. She has had lately left her
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as absolute property three thousand five hundred a year, besides
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the devise of this estate--and, by the way, a large legacy came to
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her in satisfaction of dower, as it is called.'
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'Three thousand five hundred a year!'
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'And a large--well, a fair-sized--mansion in town, and a pedigree
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as long as my walking-stick; though that bears evidence of being
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rather a raked-up affair--done since the family got rich--people
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do those things now as they build ruins on maiden estates and cast
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antiques at Birmingham.'
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Elfride merely listened and said nothing.
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He continued more quietly and impressively. 'Yes, Elfride, she is
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wealthy in comparison with us, though with few connections.
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However, she will introduce you to the world a little. We are
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going to exchange her house in Baker Street for one at Kensington,
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for your sake. Everybody is going there now, she says. At
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Easters we shall fly to town for the usual three months--I shall
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have a curate of course by that time. Elfride, I am past love,
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you know, and I honestly confess that I married her for your sake.
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Why a woman of her standing should have thrown herself away upon
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me, God knows. But I suppose her age and plainness were too
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pronounced for a town man. With your good looks, if you now play
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your cards well, you may marry anybody. Of course, a little
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contrivance will be necessary; but there's nothing to stand
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between you and a husband with a title, that I can see. Lady
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Luxellian was only a squire's daughter. Now, don't you see how
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foolish the old fancy was? But come, she is indoors waiting to see
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you. It is as good as a play, too,' continued the vicar, as they
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walked towards the house. 'I courted her through the privet hedge
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yonder: not entirely, you know, but we used to walk there of an
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evening--nearly every evening at last. But I needn't tell you
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details now; everything was terribly matter-of-fact, I assure you.
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At last, that day I saw her at Stratleigh, we determined to settle
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it off-hand.'
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'And you never said a word to me,' replied Elfride, not
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reproachfully either in tone or thought. Indeed, her feeling was
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the very reverse of reproachful. She felt relieved and even
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thankful. Where confidence had not been given, how could
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confidence be expected?
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Her father mistook her dispassionateness for a veil of politeness
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over a sense of ill-usage. 'I am not altogether to blame,' he
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said. 'There were two or three reasons for secrecy. One was the
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recent death of her relative the testator, though that did not
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apply to you. But remember, Elfride,' he continued in a stiffer
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tone, 'you had mixed yourself up so foolishly with those low
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people, the Smiths--and it was just, too, when Mrs. Troyton and
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myself were beginning to understand each other--that I resolved to
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say nothing even to you. How did I know how far you had gone with
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them and their son? You might have made a point of taking tea with
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them every day, for all that I knew.'
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Elfride swallowed her feelings as she best could, and languidly
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though flatly asked a question.
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'Did you kiss Mrs. Troyton on the lawn about three weeks ago? That
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evening I came into the study and found you had just had candles
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in?'
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Mr. Swancourt looked rather red and abashed, as middle-aged lovers
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are apt to do when caught in the tricks of younger ones.
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'Well, yes; I think I did,' he stammered; 'just to please her, you
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know.' And then recovering himself he laughed heartily.
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'And was this what your Horatian quotation referred to?'
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'It was, Elfride.'
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They stepped into the drawing-room from the verandah. At that
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moment Mrs. Swancourt came downstairs, and entered the same room
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by the door.
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'Here, Charlotte, is my little Elfride,' said Mr. Swancourt, with
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the increased affection of tone often adopted towards relations
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when newly produced.
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Poor Elfride, not knowing what to do, did nothing at all; but
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stood receptive of all that came to her by sight, hearing, and
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touch.
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Mrs. Swancourt moved forward, took her step-daughter's hand, then
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kissed her.
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'Ah, darling!' she exclaimed good-humouredly, 'you didn't think
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when you showed a strange old woman over the conservatory a month
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or two ago, and explained the flowers to her so prettily, that she
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would so soon be here in new colours. Nor did she, I am sure.'
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The new mother had been truthfully enough described by Mr.
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Swancourt. She was not physically attractive. She was dark--very
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dark--in complexion, portly in figure, and with a plentiful
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residuum of hair in the proportion of half a dozen white ones to
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half a dozen black ones, though the latter were black indeed. No
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further observed, she was not a woman to like. But there was more
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to see. To the most superficial critic it was apparent that she
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made no attempt to disguise her age. She looked sixty at the
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first glance, and close acquaintanceship never proved her older.
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Another and still more winning trait was one attaching to the
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corners of her mouth. Before she made a remark these often
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twitched gently: not backwards and forwards, the index of
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nervousness; not down upon the jaw, the sign of determination; but
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palpably upwards, in precisely the curve adopted to represent
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mirth in the broad caricatures of schoolboys. Only this element
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in her face was expressive of anything within the woman, but it
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was unmistakable. It expressed humour subjective as well as
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objective--which could survey the peculiarities of self in as
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whimsical a light as those of other people.
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This is not all of Mrs. Swancourt. She had held out to Elfride
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hands whose fingers were literally stiff with rings, signis
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auroque rigentes, like Helen's robe. These rows of rings were not
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worn in vanity apparently. They were mostly antique and dull,
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though a few were the reverse.
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RIGHT HAND.
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1st. Plainly set oval onyx, representing a devil's head. 2nd.
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Green jasper intaglio, with red veins. 3rd. Entirely gold,
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bearing figure of a hideous griffin. 4th. A sea-green monster
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diamond, with small diamonds round it. 5th. Antique cornelian
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intaglio of dancing figure of a satyr. 6th. An angular band
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chased with dragons' heads. 7th. A facetted carbuncle accompanied
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by ten little twinkling emeralds; &c. &c.
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LEFT HAND.
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1st. A reddish-yellow toadstone. 2nd. A heavy ring enamelled in
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colours, and bearing a jacynth. 3rd. An amethystine sapphire.
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4th. A polished ruby, surrounded by diamonds. 5th. The engraved
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ring of an abbess. 6th. A gloomy intaglio; &c. &c.
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Beyond this rather quaint array of stone and metal Mrs. Swancourt
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wore no ornament whatever.
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Elfride had been favourably impressed with Mrs. Troyton at their
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meeting about two months earlier; but to be pleased with a woman
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as a momentary acquaintance was different from being taken with
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her as a stepmother. However, the suspension of feeling was but
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for a moment. Elfride decided to like her still.
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Mrs. Swancourt was a woman of the world as to knowledge, the
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reverse as to action, as her marriage suggested. Elfride and the
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lady were soon inextricably involved in conversation, and Mr.
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Swancourt left them to themselves.
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'And what do you find to do with yourself here?' Mrs. Swancourt
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said, after a few remarks about the wedding. 'You ride, I know.'
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'Yes, I ride. But not much, because papa doesn't like my going
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alone.'
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'You must have somebody to look after you.'
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'And I read, and write a little.'
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'You should write a novel. The regular resource of people who
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don't go enough into the world to live a novel is to write one.'
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'I have done it,' said Elfride, looking dubiously at Mrs.
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Swancourt, as if in doubt whether she would meet with ridicule
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there.
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'That's right. Now, then, what is it about, dear?'
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'About--well, it is a romance of the Middle Ages.'
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'Knowing nothing of the present age, which everybody knows about,
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for safety you chose an age known neither to you nor other people.
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That's it, eh? No, no; I don't mean it, dear.'
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'Well, I have had some opportunities of studying mediaeval art and
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manners in the library and private museum at Endelstow House, and
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I thought I should like to try my hand upon a fiction. I know the
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time for these tales is past; but I was interested in it, very
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much interested.'
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'When is it to appear?'
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'Oh, never, I suppose.'
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'Nonsense, my dear girl. Publish it, by all means. All ladies do
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that sort of thing now; not for profit, you know, but as a
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guarantee of mental respectability to their future husbands.'
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'An excellent idea of us ladies.'
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'Though I am afraid it rather resembles the melancholy ruse of
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throwing loaves over castle-walls at besiegers, and suggests
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desperation rather than plenty inside.'
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'Did you ever try it?'
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'No; I was too far gone even for that.'
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'Papa says no publisher will take my book.'
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'That remains to be proved. I'll give my word, my dear, that by
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this time next year it shall be printed.'
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'Will you, indeed?' said Elfride, partially brightening with
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pleasure, though she was sad enough in her depths. 'I thought
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brains were the indispensable, even if the only, qualification for
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admission to the republic of letters. A mere commonplace creature
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like me will soon be turned out again.'
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'Oh no; once you are there you'll be like a drop of water in a
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piece of rock-crystal--your medium will dignify your commonness.'
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'It will be a great satisfaction,' Elfride murmured, and thought
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of Stephen, and wished she could make a great fortune by writing
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romances, and marry him and live happily.
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'And then we'll go to London, and then to Paris,' said Mrs.
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Swancourt. 'I have been talking to your father about it. But we
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have first to move into the manor-house, and we think of staying
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at Torquay whilst that is going on. Meanwhile, instead of going
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on a honeymoon scamper by ourselves, we have come home to fetch
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you, and go all together to Bath for two or three weeks.'
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Elfride assented pleasantly, even gladly; but she saw that, by
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this marriage, her father and herself had ceased for ever to be
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the close relations they had been up to a few weeks ago. It was
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impossible now to tell him the tale of her wild elopement with
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Stephen Smith.
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He was still snugly housed in her heart. His absence had regained
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for him much of that aureola of saintship which had been nearly
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abstracted during her reproachful mood on that miserable journey
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from London. Rapture is often cooled by contact with its cause,
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especially if under awkward conditions. And that last experience
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with Stephen had done anything but make him shine in her eyes.
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His very kindness in letting her return was his offence. Elfride
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had her sex's love of sheer force in a man, however ill-directed;
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and at that critical juncture in London Stephen's only chance of
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retaining the ascendancy over her that his face and not his parts
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had acquired for him, would have been by doing what, for one
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thing, he was too youthful to undertake--that was, dragging her by
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the wrist to the rails of some altar, and peremptorily marrying
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her. Decisive action is seen by appreciative minds to be
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frequently objectless, and sometimes fatal; but decision, however
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suicidal, has more charm for a woman than the most unequivocal
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Fabian success.
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However, some of the unpleasant accessories of that occasion were
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now out of sight again, and Stephen had resumed not a few of his
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fancy colours.
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Chapter XIII
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'He set in order many proverbs.'
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It is London in October--two months further on in the story.
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Bede's Inn has this peculiarity, that it faces, receives from, and
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discharges into a bustling thoroughfare speaking only of wealth
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and respectability, whilst its postern abuts on as crowded and
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poverty-stricken a network of alleys as are to be found anywhere
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in the metropolis. The moral consequences are, first, that those
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who occupy chambers in the Inn may see a great deal of shirtless
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humanity's habits and enjoyments without doing more than look down
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from a back window; and second they may hear wholesome though
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unpleasant social reminders through the medium of a harsh voice,
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an unequal footstep, the echo of a blow or a fall, which
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originates in the person of some drunkard or wife-beater, as he
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crosses and interferes with the quiet of the square. Characters
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of this kind frequently pass through the Inn from a little foxhole
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of an alley at the back, but they never loiter there.
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It is hardly necessary to state that all the sights and movements
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proper to the Inn are most orderly. On the fine October evening
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on which we follow Stephen Smith to this place, a placid porter is
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sitting on a stool under a sycamore-tree in the midst, with a
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little cane in his hand. We notice the thick coat of soot upon
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the branches, hanging underneath them in flakes, as in a chimney.
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The blackness of these boughs does not at present improve the
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tree--nearly forsaken by its leaves as it is--but in the spring
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their green fresh beauty is made doubly beautiful by the contrast.
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Within the railings is a flower-garden of respectable dahlias and
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chrysanthemums, where a man is sweeping the leaves from the grass.
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Stephen selects a doorway, and ascends an old though wide wooden
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staircase, with moulded balusters and handrail, which in a country
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manor-house would be considered a noteworthy specimen of
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Renaissance workmanship. He reaches a door on the first floor,
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over which is painted, in black letters, 'Mr. Henry Knight'--
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'Barrister-at-law' being understood but not expressed. The wall
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is thick, and there is a door at its outer and inner face. The
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outer one happens to be ajar: Stephen goes to the other, and taps.
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'Come in!' from distant penetralia.
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First was a small anteroom, divided from the inner apartment by a
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wainscoted archway two or three yards wide. Across this archway
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hung a pair of dark-green curtains, making a mystery of all within
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the arch except the spasmodic scratching of a quill pen. Here was
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grouped a chaotic assemblage of articles--mainly old framed prints
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and paintings--leaning edgewise against the wall, like roofing
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slates in a builder's yard. All the books visible here were
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folios too big to be stolen--some lying on a heavy oak table in
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one corner, some on the floor among the pictures, the whole
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intermingled with old coats, hats, umbrellas, and walking-sticks.
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Stephen pushed aside the curtain, and before him sat a man writing
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away as if his life depended upon it--which it did.
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A man of thirty in a speckled coat, with dark brown hair, curly
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beard, and crisp moustache: the latter running into the beard on
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each side of the mouth, and, as usual, hiding the real expression
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of that organ under a chronic aspect of impassivity.
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'Ah, my dear fellow, I knew 'twas you,' said Knight, looking up
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with a smile, and holding out his hand.
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Knight's mouth and eyes came to view now. Both features were
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good, and had the peculiarity of appearing younger and fresher
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than the brow and face they belonged to, which were getting
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sicklied o'er by the unmistakable pale cast. The mouth had not
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quite relinquished rotundity of curve for the firm angularities of
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middle life; and the eyes, though keen, permeated rather than
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penetrated: what they had lost of their boy-time brightness by a
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dozen years of hard reading lending a quietness to their gaze
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which suited them well.
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A lady would have said there was a smell of tobacco in the room: a
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man that there was not.
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Knight did not rise. He looked at a timepiece on the mantelshelf,
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then turned again to his letters, pointing to a chair.
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'Well, I am glad you have come. I only returned to town
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yesterday; now, don't speak, Stephen, for ten minutes; I have just
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that time to the late post. At the eleventh minute, I'm your man.'
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Stephen sat down as if this kind of reception was by no means new,
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and away went Knight's pen, beating up and down like a ship in a
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storm.
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Cicero called the library the soul of the house; here the house
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was all soul. Portions of the floor, and half the wall-space,
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were taken up by book-shelves ordinary and extraordinary; the
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remaining parts, together with brackets, side-tables, &c., being
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occupied by casts, statuettes, medallions, and plaques of various
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descriptions, picked up by the owner in his wanderings through
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France and Italy.
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One stream only of evening sunlight came into the room from a
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window quite in the corner, overlooking a court. An aquarium
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stood in the window. It was a dull parallelopipedon enough for
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living creatures at most hours of the day; but for a few minutes
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in the evening, as now, an errant, kindly ray lighted up and
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warmed the little world therein, when the many-coloured zoophytes
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opened and put forth their arms, the weeds acquired a rich
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transparency, the shells gleamed of a more golden yellow, and the
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timid community expressed gladness more plainly than in words.
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Within the prescribed ten minutes Knight flung down his pen, rang
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for the boy to take the letters to the post, and at the closing of
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the door exclaimed, 'There; thank God, that's done. Now, Stephen,
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pull your chair round, and tell me what you have been doing all
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this time. Have you kept up your Greek?'
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'No.'
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'How's that?'
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'I haven't enough spare time.'
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'That's nonsense.'
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'Well, I have done a great many things, if not that. And I have
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done one extraordinary thing.'
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Knight turned full upon Stephen. 'Ah-ha! Now, then, let me look
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into your face, put two and two together, and make a shrewd
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guess.'
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Stephen changed to a redder colour.
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'Why, Smith,' said Knight, after holding him rigidly by the
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shoulders, and keenly scrutinising his countenance for a minute in
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silence, 'you have fallen in love.'
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'Well--the fact is----'
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'Now, out with it.' But seeing that Stephen looked rather
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distressed, he changed to a kindly tone. 'Now Smith, my lad, you
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know me well enough by this time, or you ought to; and you know
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very well that if you choose to give me a detailed account of the
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phenomenon within you, I shall listen; if you don't, I am the last
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man in the world to care to hear it.'
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'I'll tell this much: I HAVE fallen in love, and I want to be
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MARRIED.'
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Knight looked ominous as this passed Stephen's lips.
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'Don't judge me before you have heard more,' cried Stephen
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anxiously, seeing the change in his friend's countenance.
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'I don't judge. Does your mother know about it?'
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'Nothing definite.'
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'Father?'
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'No. But I'll tell you. The young person----'
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'Come, that's dreadfully ungallant. But perhaps I understand the
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frame of mind a little, so go on. Your sweetheart----'
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'She is rather higher in the world than I am.'
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'As it should be.'
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'And her father won't hear of it, as I now stand.'
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'Not an uncommon case.'
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'And now comes what I want your advice upon. Something has
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happened at her house which makes it out of the question for us to
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ask her father again now. So we are keeping silent. In the
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meantime an architect in India has just written to Mr. Hewby to
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ask whether he can find for him a young assistant willing to go
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over to Bombay to prepare drawings for work formerly done by the
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engineers. The salary he offers is 350 rupees a month, or about
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35 Pounds. Hewby has mentioned it to me, and I have been to Dr.
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Wray, who says I shall acclimatise without much illness. Now,
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would you go?'
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'You mean to say, because it is a possible road to the young
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lady.'
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'Yes; I was thinking I could go over and make a little money, and
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then come back and ask for her. I have the option of practising
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for myself after a year.'
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'Would she be staunch?'
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'Oh yes! For ever--to the end of her life!'
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'How do you know?'
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'Why, how do people know? Of course, she will.'
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Knight leant back in his chair. 'Now, though I know her
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thoroughly as she exists in your heart, Stephen, I don't know her
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in the flesh. All I want to ask is, is this idea of going to
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India based entirely upon a belief in her fidelity?'
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'Yes; I should not go if it were not for her.'
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'Well, Stephen, you have put me in rather an awkward position. If
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I give my true sentiments, I shall hurt your feelings; if I don't,
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I shall hurt my own judgment. And remember, I don't know much
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about women.'
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'But you have had attachments, although you tell me very little
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about them.'
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'And I only hope you'll continue to prosper till I tell you more.'
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Stephen winced at this rap. 'I have never formed a deep
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attachment,' continued Knight. 'I never have found a woman worth
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it. Nor have I been once engaged to be married.'
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'You write as if you had been engaged a hundred times, if I may be
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allowed to say so,' said Stephen in an injured tone.
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'Yes, that may be. But, my dear Stephen, it is only those who
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half know a thing that write about it. Those who know it
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thoroughly don't take the trouble. All I know about women, or men
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either, is a mass of generalities. I plod along, and occasionally
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lift my eyes and skim the weltering surface of mankind lying
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between me and the horizon, as a crow might; no more.'
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Knight stopped as if he had fallen into a train of thought, and
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Stephen looked with affectionate awe at a master whose mind, he
|
|
believed, could swallow up at one meal all that his own head
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|
contained.
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There was affective sympathy, but no great intellectual
|
|
fellowship, between Knight and Stephen Smith. Knight had seen his
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young friend when the latter was a cherry-cheeked happy boy, had
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been interested in him, had kept his eye upon him, and generously
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|
helped the lad to books, till the mere connection of patronage
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grew to acquaintance, and that ripened to friendship. And so,
|
|
though Smith was not at all the man Knight would have deliberately
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|
chosen as a friend--or even for one of a group of a dozen friends--
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he somehow was his friend. Circumstance, as usual, did it all.
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How many of us can say of our most intimate alter ego, leaving
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alone friends of the outer circle, that he is the man we should
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|
have chosen, as embodying the net result after adding up all the
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|
points in human nature that we love, and principles we hold, and
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|
subtracting all that we hate? The man is really somebody we got to
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|
know by mere physical juxtaposition long maintained, and was taken
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|
into our confidence, and even heart, as a makeshift.
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'And what do you think of her?' Stephen ventured to say, after a
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|
silence.
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'Taking her merits on trust from you,' said Knight, 'as we do
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|
those of the Roman poets of whom we know nothing but that they
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lived, I still think she will not stick to you through, say, three
|
|
years of absence in India.'
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'But she will!' cried Stephen desperately. 'She is a girl all
|
|
delicacy and honour. And no woman of that kind, who has committed
|
|
herself so into a man's hands as she has into mine, could possibly
|
|
marry another.'
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'How has she committed herself?' asked Knight cunously.
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Stephen did not answer. Knight had looked on his love so
|
|
sceptically that it would not do to say all that he had intended
|
|
to say by any means.
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|
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|
'Well, don't tell,' said Knight. 'But you are begging the
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|
question, which is, I suppose, inevitable in love.'
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'And I'll tell you another thing,' the younger man pleaded. 'You
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|
remember what you said to me once about women receiving a kiss.
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|
Don't you? Why, that instead of our being charmed by the
|
|
fascination of their bearing at such a time, we should immediately
|
|
doubt them if their confusion has any GRACE in it--that awkward
|
|
bungling was the true charm of the occasion, implying that we are
|
|
the first who has played such a part with them.'
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'It is true, quite,' said Knight musingly.
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|
It often happened that the disciple thus remembered the lessons of
|
|
the master long after the master himself had forgotten them.
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'Well, that was like her!' cried Stephen triumphantly. 'She was
|
|
in such a flurry that she didn't know what she was doing.'
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'Splendid, splendid!' said Knight soothingly. 'So that all I have
|
|
to say is, that if you see a good opening in Bombay there's no
|
|
reason why you should not go without troubling to draw fine
|
|
distinctions as to reasons. No man fully realizes what opinions
|
|
he acts upon, or what his actions mean.'
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|
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'Yes; I go to Bombay. I'll write a note here, if you don't mind.'
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|
'Sleep over it--it is the best plan--and write to-morrow.
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|
Meantime, go there to that window and sit down, and look at my
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|
Humanity Show. I am going to dine out this evening, and have to
|
|
dress here out of my portmanteau. I bring up my things like this
|
|
to save the trouble of going down to my place at Richmond and back
|
|
again.'
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|
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|
Knight then went to the middle of the room and flung open his
|
|
portmanteau, and Stephen drew near the window. The streak of
|
|
sunlight had crept upward, edged away, and vanished; the zoophytes
|
|
slept: a dusky gloom pervaded the room. And now another volume of
|
|
light shone over the window.
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|
|
|
'There!' said Knight, 'where is there in England a spectacle to
|
|
equal that? I sit there and watch them every night before I go
|
|
home. Softly open the sash.'
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|
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|
Beneath them was an alley running up to the wall, and thence
|
|
turning sideways and passing under an arch, so that Knight's back
|
|
window was immediately over the angle, and commanded a view of the
|
|
alley lengthwise. Crowds--mostly of women--were surging,
|
|
bustling, and pacing up and down. Gaslights glared from butchers'
|
|
stalls, illuminating the lumps of flesh to splotches of orange and
|
|
vermilion, like the wild colouring of Turner's later pictures,
|
|
whilst the purl and babble of tongues of every pitch and mood was
|
|
to this human wild-wood what the ripple of a brook is to the
|
|
natural forest.
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|
|
|
Nearly ten minutes passed. Then Knight also came to the window.
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|
|
|
'Well, now, I call a cab and vanish down the street in the
|
|
direction of Berkeley Square,' he said, buttoning his waistcoat
|
|
and kicking his morning suit into a corner. Stephen rose to
|
|
leave.
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|
|
|
'What a heap of literature!' remarked the young man, taking a
|
|
final longing survey round the room, as if to abide there for ever
|
|
would be the great pleasure of his life, yet feeling that he had
|
|
almost outstayed his welcome-while. His eyes rested upon an arm-
|
|
chair piled full of newspapers, magazines, and bright new volumes
|
|
in green and red.
|
|
|
|
'Yes,' said Knight, also looking at them and breathing a sigh of
|
|
weariness; 'something must be done with several of them soon, I
|
|
suppose. Stephen, you needn't hurry away for a few minutes, you
|
|
know, if you want to stay; I am not quite ready. Overhaul those
|
|
volumes whilst I put on my coat, and I'll walk a little way with
|
|
you.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen sat down beside the arm-chair and began to tumble the
|
|
books about. Among the rest he found a novelette in one volume,
|
|
THE COURT OF KELLYON CASTLE. By Ernest Field.
|
|
|
|
'Are you going to review this?' inquired Stephen with apparent
|
|
unconcern, and holding up Elfride's effusion.
|
|
|
|
'Which? Oh, that! I may--though I don't do much light reviewing
|
|
now. But it is reviewable.'
|
|
|
|
'How do you mean?'
|
|
|
|
Knight never liked to be asked what he meant. 'Mean! I mean that
|
|
the majority of books published are neither good enough nor bad
|
|
enough to provoke criticism, and that that book does provoke it.'
|
|
|
|
'By its goodness or its badness?' Stephen said with some anxiety
|
|
on poor little Elfride's score.
|
|
|
|
'Its badness. It seems to be written by some girl in her teens.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen said not another word. He did not care to speak plainly
|
|
of Elfride after that unfortunate slip his tongue had made in
|
|
respect of her having committed herself; and, apart from that,
|
|
Knight's severe--almost dogged and self-willed--honesty in
|
|
criticizing was unassailable by the humble wish of a youthful
|
|
friend like Stephen.
|
|
|
|
Knight was now ready. Turning off the gas, and slamming together
|
|
the door, they went downstairs and into the street.
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|
Chapter XIV
|
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|
|
'We frolic while 'tis May.'
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|
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|
|
It has now to be realized that nearly three-quarters of a year
|
|
have passed away. In place of the autumnal scenery which formed a
|
|
setting to the previous enactments, we have the culminating blooms
|
|
of summer in the year following.
|
|
|
|
Stephen is in India, slaving away at an office in Bombay;
|
|
occasionally going up the country on professional errands, and
|
|
wondering why people who had been there longer than he complained
|
|
so much of the effect of the climate upon their constitutions.
|
|
Never had a young man a finer start than seemed now to present
|
|
itself to Stephen. It was just in that exceptional heyday of
|
|
prosperity which shone over Bombay some few years ago, that he
|
|
arrived on the scene. Building and engineering partook of the
|
|
general impetus. Speculation moved with an accelerated velocity
|
|
every successive day, the only disagreeable contingency connected
|
|
with it being the possibility of a collapse.
|
|
|
|
Elfride had never told her father of the four-and-twenty-hours'
|
|
escapade with Stephen, nor had it, to her knowledge, come to his
|
|
ears by any other route. It was a secret trouble and grief to the
|
|
girl for a short time, and Stephen's departure was another
|
|
ingredient in her sorrow. But Elfride possessed special
|
|
facilities for getting rid of trouble after a decent interval.
|
|
Whilst a slow nature was imbibing a misfortune little by little,
|
|
she had swallowed the whole agony of it at a draught and was
|
|
brightening again. She could slough off a sadness and replace it
|
|
by a hope as easily as a lizard renews a diseased limb.
|
|
|
|
And two such excellent distractions had presented themselves. One
|
|
was bringing out the romance and looking for notices in the
|
|
papers, which, though they had been significantly short so far,
|
|
had served to divert her thoughts. The other was migrating from
|
|
the vicarage to the more commodious old house of Mrs. Swancourt's,
|
|
overlooking the same valley. Mr. Swancourt at first disliked the
|
|
idea of being transplanted to feminine soil, but the obvious
|
|
advantages of such an accession of dignity reconciled him to the
|
|
change. So there was a radical 'move;' the two ladies staying at
|
|
Torquay as had been arranged, the vicar going to and fro.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Swancourt considerably enlarged Elfride's ideas in an
|
|
aristocratic direction, and she began to forgive her father for
|
|
his politic marriage. Certainly, in a worldly sense, a handsome
|
|
face at three-and-forty had never served a man in better stead.
|
|
|
|
|
|
The new house at Kensington was ready, and they were all in town.
|
|
|
|
The Hyde Park shrubs had been transplanted as usual, the chairs
|
|
ranked in line, the grass edgings trimmed, the roads made to look
|
|
as if they were suffering from a heavy thunderstorm; carriages had
|
|
been called for by the easeful, horses by the brisk, and the Drive
|
|
and Row were again the groove of gaiety for an hour. We gaze upon
|
|
the spectacle, at six o'clock on this midsummer afternoon, in a
|
|
melon-frame atmosphere and beneath a violet sky. The Swancourt
|
|
equipage formed one in the stream.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Swancourt was a talker of talk of the incisive kind, which
|
|
her low musical voice--the only beautiful point in the old woman--
|
|
prevented from being wearisome.
|
|
|
|
'Now,' she said to Elfride, who, like AEneas at Carthage, was full
|
|
of admiration for the brilliant scene, 'you will find that our
|
|
companionless state will give us, as it does everybody, an
|
|
extraordinary power in reading the features of our fellow-
|
|
creatures here. I always am a listener in such places as these--
|
|
not to the narratives told by my neighbours' tongues, but by their
|
|
faces--the advantage of which is, that whether I am in Row,
|
|
Boulevard, Rialto, or Prado, they all speak the same language. I
|
|
may have acquired some skill in this practice through having been
|
|
an ugly lonely woman for so many years, with nobody to give me
|
|
information; a thing you will not consider strange when the
|
|
parallel case is borne in mind,--how truly people who have no
|
|
clocks will tell the time of day.'
|
|
|
|
'Ay, that they will,' said Mr. Swancourt corroboratively. 'I have
|
|
known labouring men at Endelstow and other farms who had framed
|
|
complete systems of observation for that purpose. By means of
|
|
shadows, winds, clouds, the movements of sheep and oxen, the
|
|
singing of birds, the crowing of cocks, and a hundred other sights
|
|
and sounds which people with watches in their pockets never know
|
|
the existence of, they are able to pronounce within ten minutes of
|
|
the hour almost at any required instant. That reminds me of an
|
|
old story which I'm afraid is too bad--too bad to repeat.' Here
|
|
the vicar shook his head and laughed inwardly.
|
|
|
|
'Tell it--do!' said the ladies.
|
|
|
|
'I mustn't quite tell it.'
|
|
|
|
'That's absurd,' said Mrs. Swancourt.
|
|
|
|
'It was only about a man who, by the same careful system of
|
|
observation, was known to deceive persons for more than two years
|
|
into the belief that he kept a barometer by stealth, so exactly
|
|
did he foretell all changes in the weather by the braying of his
|
|
ass and the temper of his wife.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride laughed.
|
|
|
|
'Exactly,' said Mrs. Swancourt. 'And in just the way that those
|
|
learnt the signs of nature, I have learnt the language of her
|
|
illegitimate sister--artificiality; and the fibbing of eyes, the
|
|
contempt of nose-tips, the indignation of back hair, the laughter
|
|
of clothes, the cynicism of footsteps, and the various emotions
|
|
lying in walking-stick twirls, hat-liftings, the elevation of
|
|
parasols, the carriage of umbrellas, become as A B C to me.
|
|
|
|
'Just look at that daughter's sister class of mamma in the
|
|
carriage across there,' she continued to Elfride, pointing with
|
|
merely a turn of her eye. 'The absorbing self-consciousness of
|
|
her position that is shown by her countenance is most humiliating
|
|
to a lover of one's country. You would hardly believe, would you,
|
|
that members of a Fashionable World, whose professed zero is far
|
|
above the highest degree of the humble, could be so ignorant of
|
|
the elementary instincts of reticence.'
|
|
|
|
'How?'
|
|
|
|
'Why, to bear on their faces, as plainly as on a phylactery, the
|
|
inscription, "Do, pray, look at the coronet on my panels."'
|
|
|
|
'Really, Charlotte,' said the vicar, 'you see as much in faces as
|
|
Mr. Puff saw in Lord Burleigh's nod.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride could not but admire the beauty of her fellow
|
|
countrywomen, especially since herself and her own few
|
|
acquaintances had always been slightly sunburnt or marked on the
|
|
back of the hands by a bramble-scratch at this time of the year.
|
|
|
|
'And what lovely flowers and leaves they wear in their bonnets!'
|
|
she exclaimed.
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes,' returned Mrs. Swancourt. 'Some of them are even more
|
|
striking in colour than any real ones. Look at that beautiful
|
|
rose worn by the lady inside the rails. Elegant vine-tendrils
|
|
introduced upon the stem as an improvement upon prickles, and all
|
|
growing so naturally just over her ear--I say growing advisedly,
|
|
for the pink of the petals and the pink of her handsome cheeks are
|
|
equally from Nature's hand to the eyes of the most casual
|
|
observer.'
|
|
|
|
'But praise them a little, they do deserve it!' said generous
|
|
Elfride.
|
|
|
|
'Well, I do. See how the Duchess of----waves to and fro in her
|
|
seat, utilizing the sway of her landau by looking around only when
|
|
her head is swung forward, with a passive pride which forbids a
|
|
resistance to the force of circumstance. Look at the pretty pout
|
|
on the mouths of that family there, retaining no traces of being
|
|
arranged beforehand, so well is it done. Look at the demure close
|
|
of the little fists holding the parasols; the tiny alert thumb,
|
|
sticking up erect against the ivory stem as knowing as can be, the
|
|
satin of the parasol invariably matching the complexion of the
|
|
face beneath it, yet seemingly by an accident, which makes the
|
|
thing so attractive. There's the red book lying on the opposite
|
|
seat, bespeaking the vast numbers of their acquaintance. And I
|
|
particularly admire the aspect of that abundantly daughtered woman
|
|
on the other side--I mean her look of unconsciousness that the
|
|
girls are stared at by the walkers, and above all the look of the
|
|
girls themselves--losing their gaze in the depths of handsome
|
|
men's eyes without appearing to notice whether they are observing
|
|
masculine eyes or the leaves of the trees. There's praise for
|
|
you. But I am only jesting, child--you know that.'
|
|
|
|
'Piph-ph-ph--how warm it is, to be sure!' said Mr. Swancourt, as
|
|
if his mind were a long distance from all he saw. 'I declare that
|
|
my watch is so hot that I can scarcely bear to touch it to see
|
|
what the time is, and all the world smells like the inside of a
|
|
hat.'
|
|
|
|
'How the men stare at you, Elfride!' said the elder lady. 'You
|
|
will kill me quite, I am afraid.'
|
|
|
|
'Kill you?'
|
|
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'As a diamond kills an opal in the same setting.'
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'I have noticed several ladies and gentlemen looking at me,' said
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Elfride artlessly, showing her pleasure at being observed.
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'My dear, you mustn't say "gentlemen" nowadays,' her stepmother
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answered in the tones of arch concern that so well became her
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ugliness. 'We have handed over "gentlemen" to the lower middle
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class, where the word is still to be heard at tradesmen's balls
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and provincial tea-parties, I believe. It is done with here.'
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'What must I say, then?'
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'"Ladies and MEN" always.'
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At this moment appeared in the stream of vehicles moving in the
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contrary direction a chariot presenting in its general surface the
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rich indigo hue of a midnight sky, the wheels and margins being
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picked out in delicate lines of ultramarine; the servants'
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liveries were dark-blue coats and silver lace, and breeches of
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neutral Indian red. The whole concern formed an organic whole,
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and moved along behind a pair of dark chestnut geldings, who
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advanced in an indifferently zealous trot, very daintily
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performed, and occasionally shrugged divers points of their veiny
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surface as if they were rather above the business.
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In this sat a gentleman with no decided characteristics more than
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that he somewhat resembled a good-natured commercial traveller of
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the superior class. Beside him was a lady with skim-milky eyes
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and complexion, belonging to the "interesting" class of women,
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where that class merges in the sickly, her greatest pleasure being
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apparently to enjoy nothing. Opposite this pair sat two little
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girls in white hats and blue feathers.
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The lady saw Elfride, smiled and bowed, and touched her husband's
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elbow, who turned and received Elfride's movement of recognition
|
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with a gallant elevation of his hat. Then the two children held
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up their arms to Elfride, and laughed gleefully.
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'Who is that?'
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'Why, Lord Luxellian, isn't it?' said Mrs. Swancourt, who with the
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vicar had been seated with her back towards them.
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'Yes,' replied Elfride. 'He is the one man of those I have seen
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here whom I consider handsomer than papa.'
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'Thank you, dear,' said Mr. Swancourt.
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'Yes; but your father is so much older. When Lord Luxellian gets
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a little further on in life, he won't be half so good-looking as
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our man.'
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'Thank you, dear, likewise,' said Mr. Swancourt.
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'See,' exclaimed Elfride, still looking towards them, 'how those
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little dears want me! Actually one of them is crying for me to
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come.'
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'We were talking of bracelets just now. Look at Lady
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Luxellian's,' said Mrs. Swancourt, as that baroness lifted up her
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|
arm to support one of the children. 'It is slipping up her arm--
|
|
too large by half. I hate to see daylight between a bracelet and
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a wrist; I wonder women haven't better taste.'
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'It is not on that account, indeed,' Elfride expostulated. 'It is
|
|
that her arm has got thin, poor thing. You cannot think how much
|
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she has altered in this last twelvemonth.'
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The carriages were now nearer together, and there was an exchange
|
|
of more familiar greetings between the two families. Then the
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Luxellians crossed over and drew up under the plane-trees, just in
|
|
the rear of the Swancourts. Lord Luxellian alighted, and came
|
|
forward with a musical laugh.
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|
It was his attraction as a man. People liked him for those tones,
|
|
and forgot that he had no talents. Acquaintances remembered Mr.
|
|
Swancourt by his manner; they remembered Stephen Smith by his
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|
face, Lord Luxellian by his laugh.
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|
|
|
Mr. Swancourt made some friendly remarks--among others things upon
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|
the heat.
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|
'Yes,' said Lord Luxellian, 'we were driving by a furrier's window
|
|
this afternoon, and the sight filled us all with such a sense of
|
|
suffocation that we were glad to get away. Ha-ha!' He turned to
|
|
Elfride. 'Miss Swancourt, I have hardly seen or spoken to you
|
|
since your literary feat was made public. I had no idea a chiel
|
|
was taking notes down at quiet Endelstow, or I should certainly
|
|
have put myself and friends upon our best behaviour. Swancourt,
|
|
why didn't you give me a hint!'
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|
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|
Elfride fluttered, blushed, laughed, said it was nothing to speak
|
|
of, &c. &c.
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|
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|
'Well, I think you were rather unfairly treated by the PRESENT, I
|
|
certainly do. Writing a heavy review like that upon an elegant
|
|
trifle like the COURT OF KELLYON CASTLE was absurd.'
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|
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|
'What?' said Elfride, opening her eyes. 'Was I reviewed in the
|
|
PRESENT?'
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|
|
'Oh yes; didn't you see it? Why, it was four or five months ago!'
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|
'No, I never saw it. How sorry I am! What a shame of my
|
|
publishers! They promised to send me every notice that appeared.'
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|
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|
'Ah, then, I am almost afraid I have been giving you disagreeable
|
|
information, intentionally withheld out of courtesy. Depend upon
|
|
it they thought no good would come of sending it, and so would not
|
|
pain you unnecessarily.'
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|
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|
'Oh no; I am indeed glad you have told me, Lord Luxellian. It is
|
|
quite a mistaken kindness on their part. Is the review so much
|
|
against me?' she inquired tremulously.
|
|
|
|
'No, no; not that exactly--though I almost forget its exact
|
|
purport now. It was merely--merely sharp, you know--ungenerous, I
|
|
might say. But really my memory does not enable me to speak
|
|
decidedly.'
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|
|
|
'We'll drive to the PRESENT office, and get one directly; shall
|
|
we, papa?'
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|
|
|
'If you are so anxious, dear, we will, or send. But to-morrow
|
|
will do.'
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|
|
|
'And do oblige me in a little matter now, Elfride,' said Lord
|
|
Luxellian warmly, and looking as if he were sorry he had brought
|
|
news that disturbed her. 'I am in reality sent here as a special
|
|
messenger by my little Polly and Katie to ask you to come into our
|
|
carriage with them for a short time. I am just going to walk
|
|
across into Piccadilly, and my wife is left alone with them. I am
|
|
afraid they are rather spoilt children; but I have half promised
|
|
them you shall come.'
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|
|
|
The steps were let down, and Elfride was transferred--to the
|
|
intense delight of the little girls, and to the mild interest of
|
|
loungers with red skins and long necks, who cursorily eyed the
|
|
performance with their walking-sticks to their lips, occasionally
|
|
laughing from far down their throats and with their eyes, their
|
|
mouths not being concerned in the operation at all. Lord
|
|
Luxellian then told the coachman to drive on, lifted his hat,
|
|
smiled a smile that missed its mark and alighted on a total
|
|
stranger, who bowed in bewilderment. Lord Luxellian looked long
|
|
at Elfride.
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|
|
|
The look was a manly, open, and genuine look of admiration; a
|
|
momentary tribute of a kind which any honest Englishman might have
|
|
paid to fairness without being ashamed of the feeling, or
|
|
permitting it to encroach in the slightest degree upon his
|
|
emotional obligations as a husband and head of a family. Then
|
|
Lord Luxellian turned away, and walked musingly to the upper end
|
|
of the promenade.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Swancourt had alighted at the same time with Elfride, crossing
|
|
over to the Row for a few minutes to speak to a friend he
|
|
recognized there; and his wife was thus left sole tenant of the
|
|
carriage.
|
|
|
|
Now, whilst this little act had been in course of performance,
|
|
there stood among the promenading spectators a man of somewhat
|
|
different description from the rest. Behind the general throng, in
|
|
the rear of the chairs, and leaning against the trunk of a tree,
|
|
he looked at Elfride with quiet and critical interest.
|
|
|
|
Three points about this unobtrusive person showed promptly to the
|
|
exercised eye that he was not a Row man pur sang. First, an
|
|
irrepressible wrinkle or two in the waist of his frock-coat--
|
|
denoting that he had not damned his tailor sufficiently to drive
|
|
that tradesman up to the orthodox high pressure of cunning
|
|
workmanship. Second, a slight slovenliness of umbrella,
|
|
occasioned by its owner's habit of resting heavily upon it, and
|
|
using it as a veritable walking-stick, instead of letting its
|
|
point touch the ground in the most coquettish of kisses, as is the
|
|
proper Row manner to do. Third, and chief reason, that try how
|
|
you might, you could scarcely help supposing, on looking at his
|
|
face, that your eyes were not far from a well-finished mind,
|
|
instead of the well-finished skin et praeterea nihil, which is by
|
|
rights the Mark of the Row.
|
|
|
|
The probability is that, had not Mrs. Swancourt been left alone in
|
|
her carriage under the tree, this man would have remained in his
|
|
unobserved seclusion. But seeing her thus, he came round to the
|
|
front, stooped under the rail, and stood beside the carriage-door.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Swancourt looked reflectively at him for a quarter of a
|
|
minute, then held out her hand laughingly:
|
|
|
|
'Why, Henry Knight--of course it is! My--second--third--fourth
|
|
cousin--what shall I say? At any rate, my kinsman.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, one of a remnant not yet cut off. I scarcely was certain of
|
|
you, either, from where I was standing.'
|
|
|
|
'I have not seen you since you first went to Oxford; consider the
|
|
number of years! You know, I suppose, of my marriage?'
|
|
|
|
And there sprang up a dialogue concerning family matters of birth,
|
|
death, and marriage, which it is not necessary to detail. Knight
|
|
presently inquired:
|
|
|
|
'The young lady who changed into the other carriage is, then, your
|
|
stepdaughter?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, Elfride. You must know her.'
|
|
|
|
'And who was the lady in the carriage Elfride entered; who had an
|
|
ill-defined and watery look, as if she were only the reflection of
|
|
herself in a pool?'
|
|
|
|
'Lady Luxellian; very weakly, Elfride says. My husband is
|
|
remotely connected with them; but there is not much intimacy on
|
|
account of----. However, Henry, you'll come and see us, of
|
|
course. 24 Chevron Square. Come this week. We shall only be in
|
|
town a week or two longer.'
|
|
|
|
'Let me see. I've got to run up to Oxford to-morrow, where I
|
|
shall be for several days; so that I must, I fear, lose the
|
|
pleasure of seeing you in London this year.'
|
|
|
|
'Then come to Endelstow; why not return with us?'
|
|
|
|
'I am afraid if I were to come before August I should have to
|
|
leave again in a day or two. I should be delighted to be with you
|
|
at the beginning of that month; and I could stay a nice long time.
|
|
I have thought of going westward all the summer.'
|
|
|
|
'Very well. Now remember that's a compact. And won't you wait
|
|
now and see Mr. Swancourt? He will not be away ten minutes
|
|
longer.'
|
|
|
|
'No; I'll beg to be excused; for I must get to my chambers again
|
|
this evening before I go home; indeed, I ought to have been there
|
|
now--I have such a press of matters to attend to just at present.
|
|
You will explain to him, please. Good-bye.'
|
|
|
|
'And let us know the day of your appearance as soon as you can.'
|
|
|
|
'I will'
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter XV
|
|
|
|
'A wandering voice.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Though sheer and intelligible griefs are not charmed away by being
|
|
confided to mere acquaintances, the process is a palliative to
|
|
certain ill-humours. Among these, perplexed vexation is one--a
|
|
species of trouble which, like a stream, gets shallower by the
|
|
simple operation of widening it in any quarter.
|
|
|
|
On the evening of the day succeeding that of the meeting in the
|
|
Park, Elfride and Mrs. Swancourt were engaged in conversation in
|
|
the dressing-room of the latter. Such a treatment of such a case
|
|
was in course of adoption here.
|
|
|
|
Elfride had just before received an affectionate letter from
|
|
Stephen Smith in Bombay, which had been forwarded to her from
|
|
Endelstow. But since this is not the case referred to, it is not
|
|
worth while to pry further into the contents of the letter than to
|
|
discover that, with rash though pardonable confidence in coming
|
|
times, he addressed her in high spirits as his darling future
|
|
wife. Probably there cannot be instanced a briefer and surer rule-
|
|
of-thumb test of a man's temperament--sanguine or cautious--than
|
|
this: did he or does he ante-date the word wife in corresponding
|
|
with a sweet-heart he honestly loves?
|
|
|
|
She had taken this epistle into her own room, read a little of it,
|
|
then SAVED the rest for to-morrow, not wishing to be so
|
|
extravagant as to consume the pleasure all at once. Nevertheless,
|
|
she could not resist the wish to enjoy yet a little more, so out
|
|
came the letter again, and in spite of misgivings as to
|
|
prodigality the whole was devoured. The letter was finally
|
|
reperused and placed in her pocket.
|
|
|
|
What was this? Also a newspaper for Elfride, which she had
|
|
overlooked in her hurry to open the letter. It was the old number
|
|
of the PRESENT, containing the article upon her book, forwarded as
|
|
had been requested.
|
|
|
|
Elfride had hastily read it through, shrunk perceptibly smaller,
|
|
and had then gone with the paper in her hand to Mrs. Swancourt's
|
|
dressing-room, to lighten or at least modify her vexation by a
|
|
discriminating estimate from her stepmother.
|
|
|
|
She was now looking disconsolately out of the window.
|
|
|
|
'Never mind, my child,' said Mrs. Swancourt after a careful
|
|
perusal of the matter indicated. 'I don't see that the review is
|
|
such a terrible one, after all. Besides, everybody has forgotten
|
|
about it by this time. I'm sure the opening is good enough for
|
|
any book ever written. Just listen--it sounds better read aloud
|
|
than when you pore over it silently: "THE COURT OF KELLYON CASTLE.
|
|
A ROMANCE OF THE MIDDLE AGES. BY ERNEST FIELD. In the belief
|
|
that we were for a while escaping the monotonous repetition of
|
|
wearisome details in modern social scenery, analyses of
|
|
uninteresting character, or the unnatural unfoldings of a
|
|
sensation plot, we took this volume into our hands with a feeling
|
|
of pleasure. We were disposed to beguile ourselves with the fancy
|
|
that some new change might possibly be rung upon donjon keeps,
|
|
chain and plate armour, deeply scarred cheeks, tender maidens
|
|
disguised as pages, to which we had not listened long ago." Now,
|
|
that's a very good beginning, in my opinion, and one to be proud
|
|
of having brought out of a man who has never seen you.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, yes,' murmured Elfride wofully. 'But, then, see further on!'
|
|
|
|
'Well the next bit is rather unkind, I must own,' said Mrs.
|
|
Swancourt, and read on. '"Instead of this we found ourselves in
|
|
the hands of some young lady, hardly arrived at years of
|
|
discretion, to judge by the silly device it has been thought worth
|
|
while to adopt on the title-page, with the idea of disguising her
|
|
sex."'
|
|
|
|
'I am not "silly"!' said Elfride indignantly. 'He might have
|
|
called me anything but that.'
|
|
|
|
'You are not, indeed. Well:--"Hands of a young lady...whose
|
|
chapters are simply devoted to impossible tournaments, towers, and
|
|
escapades, which read like flat copies of like scenes in the
|
|
stories of Mr. G. P. R. James, and the most unreal portions of
|
|
IVANHOE. The bait is so palpably artificial that the most
|
|
credulous gudgeon turns away." Now, my dear, I don't see overmuch
|
|
to complain of in that. It proves that you were clever enough to
|
|
make him think of Sir Walter Scott, which is a great deal.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes; though I cannot romance myself, I am able to remind him
|
|
of those who can!' Elfride intended to hurl these words
|
|
sarcastically at her invisible enemy, but as she had no more
|
|
satirical power than a wood-pigeon, they merely fell in a pretty
|
|
murmur from lips shaped to a pout.
|
|
|
|
'Certainly: and that's something. Your book is good enough to be
|
|
bad in an ordinary literary manner, and doesn't stand by itself in
|
|
a melancholy position altogether worse than assailable.--"That
|
|
interest in an historical romance may nowadays have any chance of
|
|
being sustained, it is indispensable that the reader find himself
|
|
under the guidance of some nearly extinct species of legendary,
|
|
who, in addition to an impulse towards antiquarian research and an
|
|
unweakened faith in the mediaeval halo, shall possess an inventive
|
|
faculty in which delicacy of sentiment is far overtopped by a
|
|
power of welding to stirring incident a spirited variety of the
|
|
elementary human passions." Well, that long-winded effusion
|
|
doesn't refer to you at all, Elfride, merely something put in to
|
|
fill up. Let me see, when does he come to you again;...not till
|
|
the very end, actually. Here you are finally polished off:
|
|
|
|
'"But to return to the little work we have used as the text of
|
|
this article. We are far from altogether disparaging the author's
|
|
powers. She has a certain versatility that enables her to use
|
|
with effect a style of narration peculiar to herself, which may be
|
|
called a murmuring of delicate emotional trifles, the particular
|
|
gift of those to whom the social sympathies of a peaceful time are
|
|
as daily food. Hence, where matters of domestic experience, and
|
|
the natural touches which make people real, can be introduced
|
|
without anachronisms too striking, she is occasionally felicitous;
|
|
and upon the whole we feel justified in saying that the book will
|
|
bear looking into for the sake of those portions which have
|
|
nothing whatever to do with the story."
|
|
|
|
'Well, I suppose it is intended for satire; but don't think
|
|
anything more of it now, my dear. It is seven o'clock.' And Mrs.
|
|
Swancourt rang for her maid.
|
|
|
|
Attack is more piquant than concord. Stephen's letter was
|
|
concerning nothing but oneness with her: the review was the very
|
|
reverse. And a stranger with neither name nor shape, age nor
|
|
appearance, but a mighty voice, is naturally rather an interesting
|
|
novelty to a lady he chooses to address. When Elfride fell asleep
|
|
that night she was loving the writer of the letter, but thinking
|
|
of the writer of that article.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter XVI
|
|
|
|
'Then fancy shapes--as fancy can.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
On a day about three weeks later, the Swancourt trio were sitting
|
|
quietly in the drawing-room of The Crags, Mrs. Swancourt's house
|
|
at Endelstow, chatting, and taking easeful survey of their
|
|
previous month or two of town--a tangible weariness even to people
|
|
whose acquaintances there might be counted on the fingers.
|
|
|
|
A mere season in London with her practised step-mother had so
|
|
advanced Elfride's perceptions, that her courtship by Stephen
|
|
seemed emotionally meagre, and to have drifted back several years
|
|
into a childish past. In regarding our mental experiences, as in
|
|
visual observation, our own progress reads like a dwindling of
|
|
that we progress from.
|
|
|
|
She was seated on a low chair, looking over her romance with
|
|
melancholy interest for the first time since she had become
|
|
acquainted with the remarks of the PRESENT thereupon.
|
|
|
|
'Still thinking of that reviewer, Elfie?'
|
|
|
|
'Not of him personally; but I am thinking of his opinion. Really,
|
|
on looking into the volume after this long time has elapsed, he
|
|
seems to have estimated one part of it fairly enough.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no; I wouldn't show the white feather now! Fancy that of all
|
|
people in the world the writer herself should go over to the
|
|
enemy. How shall Monmouth's men fight when Monmouth runs away?'
|
|
|
|
'I don't do that. But I think he is right in some of his
|
|
arguments, though wrong in others. And because he has some claim
|
|
to my respect I regret all the more that he should think so
|
|
mistakenly of my motives in one or two instances. It is more
|
|
vexing to be misunderstood than to be misrepresented; and he
|
|
misunderstands me. I cannot be easy whilst a person goes to rest
|
|
night after night attributing to me intentions I never had.'
|
|
|
|
'He doesn't know your name, or anything about you. And he has
|
|
doubtless forgotten there is such a book in existence by this
|
|
time.'
|
|
|
|
'I myself should certainly like him to be put right upon one or
|
|
two matters,' said the vicar, who had hitherto been silent. 'You
|
|
see, critics go on writing, and are never corrected or argued
|
|
with, and therefore are never improved.'
|
|
|
|
'Papa,' said Elfride brightening, 'write to him!'
|
|
|
|
'I would as soon write to him as look at him, for the matter of
|
|
that,' said Mr. Swancourt.
|
|
|
|
'Do! And say, the young person who wrote the book did not adopt a
|
|
masculine pseudonym in vanity or conceit, but because she was
|
|
afraid it would be thought presumptuous to publish her name, and
|
|
that she did not mean the story for such as he, but as a sweetener
|
|
of history for young people, who might thereby acquire a taste for
|
|
what went on in their own country hundreds of years ago, and be
|
|
tempted to dive deeper into the subject. Oh, there is so much to
|
|
explain; I wish I might write myself!'
|
|
|
|
'Now, Elfie, I'll tell you what we will do,' answered Mr.
|
|
Swancourt, tickled with a sort of bucolic humour at the idea of
|
|
criticizing the critic. 'You shall write a clear account of what
|
|
he is wrong in, and I will copy it and send it as mine.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, now, directly!' said Elfride, jumping up. 'When will you
|
|
send it, papa? '
|
|
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'Oh, in a day or two, I suppose,' he returned. Then the vicar
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paused and slightly yawned, and in the manner of elderly people
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began to cool from his ardour for the undertaking now that it came
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to the point. 'But, really, it is hardly worth while,' he said.
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'O papa!' said Elfride, with much disappointment. 'You said you
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would, and now you won't. That is not fair!'
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'But how can we send it if we don't know whom to send it to?'
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'If you really want to send such a thing it can easily be done,'
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said Mrs. Swancourt, coming to her step-daughter's rescue. 'An
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envelope addressed, "To the Critic of THE COURT OF KELLYON CASTLE,
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care of the Editor of the PRESENT," would find him.'
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'Yes, I suppose it would.'
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'Why not write your answer yourself, Elfride?' Mrs. Swancourt
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inquired.
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'I might,' she said hesitatingly; 'and send it anonymously: that
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would be treating him as he has treated me.'
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'No use in the world!'
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'But I don't like to let him know my exact name. Suppose I put my
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initials only? The less you are known the more you are thought
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of.'
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'Yes; you might do that.'
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Elfride set to work there and then. Her one desire for the last
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fortnight seemed likely to be realized. As happens with sensitive
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and secluded minds, a continual dwelling upon the subject had
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magnified to colossal proportions the space she assumed herself to
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occupy or to have occupied in the occult critic's mind. At noon
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and at night she had been pestering herself with endeavours to
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perceive more distinctly his conception of her as a woman apart
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from an author: whether he really despised her; whether he thought
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more or less of her than of ordinary young women who never
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ventured into the fire of criticism at all. Now she would have
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the satisfaction of feeling that at any rate he knew her true
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intent in crossing his path, and annoying him so by her
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performance, and be taught perhaps to despise it a little less.
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Four days later an envelope, directed to Miss Swancourt in a
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strange hand, made its appearance from the post-bag.
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'0h,' said Elfride, her heart sinking within her. 'Can it be from
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that man--a lecture for impertinence? And actually one for Mrs.
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Swancourt in the same hand-writing!' She feared to open hers.
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'Yet how can he know my name? No; it is somebody else.'
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'Nonsense!' said her father grimly. 'You sent your initials, and
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the Directory was available. Though he wouldn't have taken the
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trouble to look there unless he had been thoroughly savage with
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you. I thought you wrote with rather more asperity than simple
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literary discussion required.' This timely clause was introduced
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to save the character of the vicar's judgment under any issue of
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affairs.
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'Well, here I go,' said Elfride, desperately tearing open the
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seal.
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'To be sure, of course,' exclaimed Mrs. Swancourt; and looking up
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from her own letter. 'Christopher, I quite forgot to tell you,
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when I mentioned that I had seen my distant relative, Harry
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Knight, that I invited him here for whatever length of time he
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could spare. And now he says he can come any day in August.'
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'Write, and say the first of the month,' replied the
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indiscriminate vicar.
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She read om 'Goodness me--and that isn't all. He is actually the
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reviewer of Elfride's book. How absurd, to be sure! I had no idea
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he reviewed novels or had anything to do with the PRESENT. He is
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a barrister--and I thought he only wrote in the Quarterlies. Why,
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Elfride, you have brought about an odd entanglement! What does he
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say to you?'
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Elfride had put down her letter with a dissatisfied flush on her
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face. 'I don't know. The idea of his knowing my name and all
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about me!...Why, he says nothing particular, only this--
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'"MY DEAR MADAM,--Though I am sorry that my remarks should have
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seemed harsh to you, it is a pleasure to find that they have been
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the means of bringing forth such an ingeniously argued reply.
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Unfortunately, it is so long since I wrote my review, that my
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memory does not serve me sufficiently to say a single word in my
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defence, even supposing there remains one to be said, which is
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doubtful. You, will find from a letter I have written to Mrs.
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Swancourt, that we are not such strangers to each other as we have
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been imagining. Possibly, I may have the pleasure of seeing you
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soon, when any argument you choose to advance shall receive all
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the attention it deserves."
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'That is dim sarcasm--I know it is.'
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'Oh no, Elfride.'
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'And then, his remarks didn't seem harsh--I mean I did not say
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so.'
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'He thinks you are in a frightful temper,' said Mr. Swancourt,
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chuckling in undertones.
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'And he will come and see me, and find the authoress as
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contemptible in speech as she has been impertinent in manner. I
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do heartily wish I had never written a word to him!'
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'Never mind,' said Mrs. Swancourt, also laughing in low quiet
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jerks; 'it will make the meeting such a comical affair, and afford
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splendid by-play for your father and myself. The idea of our
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running our heads against Harry Knight all the time! I cannot get
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|
over that.'
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The vicar had immediately remembered the name to be that of
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Stephen Smith's preceptor and friend; but having ceased to concern
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himself in the matter he made no remark to that effect,
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consistently forbearing to allude to anything which could restore
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|
recollection of the (to him) disagreeable mistake with regard to
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poor Stephen's lineage and position. Elfride had of course
|
|
perceived the same thing, which added to the complication of
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relationship a mesh that her stepmother knew nothing of.
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The identification scarcely heightened Knight's attractions now,
|
|
though a twelvemonth ago she would only have cared to see him for
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|
the interest he possessed as Stephen's friend. Fortunately for
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Knight's advent, such a reason for welcome had only begun to be
|
|
awkward to her at a time when the interest he had acquired on his
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|
own account made it no longer necessary.
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These coincidences, in common with all relating to him, tended to
|
|
keep Elfride's mind upon the stretch concerning Knight. As was
|
|
her custom when upon the horns of a dilemma, she walked off by
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|
herself among the laurel bushes, and there, standing still and
|
|
splitting up a leaf without removing it from its stalk, fetched
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|
back recollections of Stephen's frequent words in praise of his
|
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friend, and wished she had listened more attentively. Then, still
|
|
pulling the leaf, she would blush at some fancied mortification
|
|
that would accrue to her from his words when they met, in
|
|
consequence of her intrusiveness, as she now considered it, in
|
|
writing to him.
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The next development of her meditations was the subject of what
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this man's personal appearance might be--was he tall or short,
|
|
dark or fair, gay or grim? She would have asked Mrs. Swancourt but
|
|
for the risk she might thereby incur of some teasing remark being
|
|
returned. Ultimately Elfride would say, 'Oh, what a plague that
|
|
reviewer is to me!' and turn her face to where she imagined India
|
|
lay, and murmur to herself, 'Ah, my little husband, what are you
|
|
doing now? Let me see, where are you--south, east, where? Behind
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that hill, ever so far behind!'
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Chapter XVII
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'Her welcome, spoke in faltering phrase.'
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'There is Henry Knight, I declare!' said Mrs. Swancourt one day.
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They were gazing from the jutting angle of a wild enclosure not
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|
far from The Crags, which almost overhung the valley already
|
|
described as leading up from the sea and little port of Castle
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|
Boterel. The stony escarpment upon which they stood had the
|
|
contour of a man's face, and it was covered with furze as with a
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|
beard. People in the field above were preserved from an
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|
accidental roll down these prominences and hollows by a hedge on
|
|
the very crest, which was doing that kindly service for Elfride
|
|
and her mother now.
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|
Scrambling higher into the hedge and stretching her neck further
|
|
over the furze, Elfride beheld the individual signified. He was
|
|
walking leisurely along the little green path at the bottom,
|
|
beside the stream, a satchel slung upon his left hip, a stout
|
|
walking-stick in his hand, and a brown-holland sun-hat upon his
|
|
head. The satchel was worn and old, and the outer polished
|
|
surface of the leather was cracked and peeling off.
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|
Knight having arrived over the hills to Castle Boterel upon the
|
|
top of a crazy omnibus, preferred to walk the remaining two miles
|
|
up the valley, leaving his luggage to be brought on.
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Behind him wandered, helter-skelter, a boy of whom Knight had
|
|
briefly inquired the way to Endelstow; and by that natural law of
|
|
physics which causes lesser bodies to gravitate towards the
|
|
greater, this boy had kept near to Knight, and trotted like a
|
|
little dog close at his heels, whistling as he went, with his eyes
|
|
fixed upon Knight's boots as they rose and fell.
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|
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|
When they had reached a point precisely opposite that in which
|
|
Mrs. and Miss Swancourt lay in ambush, Knight stopped and turned
|
|
round.
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|
'Look here, my boy,' he said.
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|
The boy parted his lips, opened his eyes, and answered nothing.
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|
'Here's sixpence for you, on condition that you don't again come
|
|
within twenty yards of my heels, all the way up the valley.'
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|
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|
The boy, who apparently had not known he had been looking at
|
|
Knight's heels at all, took the sixpence mechanically, and Knight
|
|
went on again, wrapt in meditation.
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|
|
|
'A nice voice,' Elfride thought; 'but what a singular temper!'
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|
|
|
'Now we must get indoors before he ascends the slope,' said Mrs.
|
|
Swancourt softly. And they went across by a short cut over a
|
|
stile, entering the lawn by a side door, and so on to the house.
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|
|
|
Mr. Swancourt had gone into the village with the curate, and
|
|
Elfride felt too nervous to await their visitor's arrival in the
|
|
drawing-room with Mrs. Swancourt. So that when the elder lady
|
|
entered, Elfride made some pretence of perceiving a new variety of
|
|
crimson geranium, and lingered behind among the flower beds.
|
|
|
|
There was nothing gained by this, after all, she thought; and a
|
|
few minutes after boldly came into the house by the glass side-
|
|
door. She walked along the corridor, and entered the drawing-
|
|
room. Nobody was there.
|
|
|
|
A window at the angle of the room opened directly into an
|
|
octagonal conservatory, enclosing the corner of the building.
|
|
From the conservatory came voices in conversation--Mrs.
|
|
Swancourt's and the stranger's.
|
|
|
|
She had expected him to talk brilliantly. To her surprise he was
|
|
asking questions in quite a learner's manner, on subjects
|
|
connected with the flowers and shrubs that she had known for
|
|
years. When after the lapse of a few minutes he spoke at some
|
|
length, she considered there was a hard square decisiveness in the
|
|
shape of his sentences, as if, unlike her own and Stephen's, they
|
|
were not there and then newly constructed, but were drawn forth
|
|
from a large store ready-made. They were now approaching the
|
|
window to come in again.
|
|
|
|
'That is a flesh-coloured variety,' said Mrs. Swancourt. 'But
|
|
oleanders, though they are such bulky shrubs, are so very easily
|
|
wounded as to be unprunable--giants with the sensitiveness of
|
|
young ladies. Oh, here is Elfride!'
|
|
|
|
Elfride looked as guilty and crestfallen as Lady Teazle at the
|
|
dropping of the screen. Mrs. Swancourt presented him half
|
|
comically, and Knight in a minute or two placed himself beside the
|
|
young lady.
|
|
|
|
A complexity of instincts checked Elfride's conventional smiles of
|
|
complaisance and hospitality; and, to make her still less
|
|
comfortable, Mrs. Swancourt immediately afterwards left them
|
|
together to seek her husband. Mr. Knight, however, did not seem
|
|
at all incommoded by his feelings, and he said with light
|
|
easefulness:
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|
|
|
'So, Miss Swancourt, I have met you at last. You escaped me by a
|
|
few minutes only when we were in London.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes. I found that you had seen Mrs. Swancourt.'
|
|
|
|
'And now reviewer and reviewed are face to face,' he added
|
|
unconcernedly.
|
|
|
|
'Yes: though the fact of your being a relation of Mrs. Swancourt's
|
|
takes off the edge of it. It was strange that you should be one
|
|
of her family all the time.' Elfride began to recover herself now,
|
|
and to look into Knight's face. 'I was merely anxious to let you
|
|
know my REAL meaning in writing the book--extremely anxious.'
|
|
|
|
'I can quite understand the wish; and I was gratified that my
|
|
remarks should have reached home. They very seldom do, I am
|
|
afraid.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride drew herself in. Here he was, sticking to his opinions as
|
|
firmly as if friendship and politeness did not in the least
|
|
require an immediate renunciation of them.
|
|
|
|
'You made me very uneasy and sorry by writing such things!' she
|
|
murmured, suddenly dropping the mere cacueterie of a fashionable
|
|
first introduction, and speaking with some of the dudgeon of a
|
|
child towards a severe schoolmaster.
|
|
|
|
'That is rather the object of honest critics in such a case. Not
|
|
to cause unnecessary sorrow, but: "To make you sorry after a
|
|
proper manner, that ye may receive damage by us in nothing," as a
|
|
powerful pen once wrote to the Gentiles. Are you going to write
|
|
another romance?'
|
|
|
|
'Write another?' she said. 'That somebody may pen a condemnation
|
|
and "nail't wi' Scripture" again, as you do now, Mr. Knight?'
|
|
|
|
'You may do better next time,' he said placidly: 'I think you
|
|
will. But I would advise you to confine yourself to domestic
|
|
scenes.'
|
|
|
|
'Thank you. But never again!'
|
|
|
|
'Well, you may be right. That a young woman has taken to writing
|
|
is not by any means the best thing to hear about her.'
|
|
|
|
'What is the best?'
|
|
|
|
'I prefer not to say.'
|
|
|
|
'Do you know? Then, do tell me, please.'
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|
|
|
'Well'--(Knight was evidently changing his meaning)--'I suppose to
|
|
hear that she has married.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride hesitated. 'And what when she has been married?' she said
|
|
at last, partly in order to withdraw her own person from the
|
|
argument.
|
|
|
|
'Then to hear no more about her. It is as Smeaton said of his
|
|
lighthouse: her greatest real praise, when the novelty of her
|
|
inauguration has worn off, is that nothing happens to keep the
|
|
talk of her alive.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, I see,' said Elfride softly and thoughtfully. 'But of
|
|
course it is different quite with men. Why don't you write
|
|
novels, Mr. Knight?'
|
|
|
|
'Because I couldn't write one that would interest anybody.'
|
|
|
|
'Why?'
|
|
|
|
'For several reasons. It requires a judicious omission of your
|
|
real thoughts to make a novel popular, for one thing.'
|
|
|
|
'Is that really necessary? Well, I am sure you could learn to do
|
|
that with practice,' said Elfride with an ex-cathedra air, as
|
|
became a person who spoke from experience in the art. 'You would
|
|
make a great name for certain,' she continued.
|
|
|
|
'So many people make a name nowadays, that it is more
|
|
distinguished to remain in obscurity.'
|
|
|
|
'Tell me seriously--apart from the subject--why don't you write a
|
|
volume instead of loose articles?' she insisted.
|
|
|
|
'Since you are pleased to make me talk of myself, I will tell you
|
|
seriously,' said Knight, not less amused at this catechism by his
|
|
young friend than he was interested in her appearance. 'As I have
|
|
implied, I have not the wish. And if I had the wish, I could not
|
|
now concentrate sufficiently. We all have only our one cruse of
|
|
energy given us to make the best of. And where that energy has
|
|
been leaked away week by week, quarter by quarter, as mine has for
|
|
the last nine or ten years, there is not enough dammed back behind
|
|
the mill at any given period to supply the force a complete book
|
|
on any subject requires. Then there is the self-confidence and
|
|
waiting power. Where quick results have grown customary, they are
|
|
fatal to a lively faith in the future.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, I comprehend; and so you choose to write in fragments?'
|
|
|
|
'No, I don't choose to do it in the sense you mean; choosing from
|
|
a whole world of professions, all possible. It was by the
|
|
constraint of accident merely. Not that I object to the
|
|
accident.'
|
|
|
|
'Why don't you object--I mean, why do you feel so quiet about
|
|
things?' Elfride was half afraid to question him so, but her
|
|
intense curiosity to see what the inside of literary Mr. Knight
|
|
was like, kept her going on.
|
|
|
|
Knight certainly did not mind being frank with her. Instances of
|
|
this trait in men who are not without feeling, but are reticent
|
|
from habit, may be recalled by all of us. When they find a
|
|
listener who can by no possibility make use of them, rival them,
|
|
or condemn them, reserved and even suspicious men of the world
|
|
become frank, keenly enjoying the inner side of their frankness.
|
|
|
|
'Why I don't mind the accidental constraint,' he replied, 'is
|
|
because, in making beginnings, a chance limitation of direction is
|
|
often better than absolute freedom.'
|
|
|
|
'I see--that is, I should if I quite understood what all those
|
|
generalities mean.'
|
|
|
|
'Why, this: That an arbitrary foundation for one's work, which no
|
|
length of thought can alter, leaves the attention free to fix
|
|
itself on the work itself, and make the best of it.'
|
|
|
|
'Lateral compression forcing altitude, as would be said in that
|
|
tongue,' she said mischievously. 'And I suppose where no limit
|
|
exists, as in the case of a rich man with a wide taste who wants
|
|
to do something, it will be better to choose a limit capriciously
|
|
than to have none.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes,' he said meditatively. 'I can go as far as that.'
|
|
|
|
'Well,' resumed Elfride, 'I think it better for a man's nature if
|
|
he does nothing in particular.'
|
|
|
|
'There is such a case as being obliged to.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, yes; I was speaking of when you are not obliged for any
|
|
other reason than delight in the prospect of fame. I have thought
|
|
many times lately that a thin widespread happiness, commencing
|
|
now, and of a piece with the days of your life, is preferable to
|
|
an anticipated heap far away in the future, and none now.'
|
|
|
|
'Why, that's the very thing I said just now as being the principle
|
|
of all ephemeral doers like myself.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, I am sorry to have parodied you,' she said with some
|
|
confusion. 'Yes, of course. That is what you meant about not
|
|
trying to be famous.' And she added, with the quickness of
|
|
conviction characteristic of her mind: 'There is much littleness
|
|
in trying to be great. A man must think a good deal of himself,
|
|
and be conceited enough to believe in himself, before he tries at
|
|
all.'
|
|
|
|
'But it is soon enough to say there is harm in a man's thinking a
|
|
good deal of himself when it is proved he has been thinking wrong,
|
|
and too soon then sometimes. Besides, we should not conclude that
|
|
a man who strives earnestly for success does so with a strong
|
|
sense of his own merit. He may see how little success has to do
|
|
with merit, and his motive may be his very humility.'
|
|
|
|
This manner of treating her rather provoked Elfride. No sooner
|
|
did she agree with him than he ceased to seem to wish it, and took
|
|
the other side. 'Ah,' she thought inwardly, 'I shall have nothing
|
|
to do with a man of this kind, though he is our visitor.'
|
|
|
|
'I think you will find,' resumed Knight, pursuing the conversation
|
|
more for the sake of finishing off his thoughts on the subject
|
|
than for engaging her attention, 'that in actual life it is merely
|
|
a matter of instinct with men--this trying to push on. They awake
|
|
to a recognition that they have, without premeditation, begun to
|
|
try a little, and they say to themselves, "Since I have tried thus
|
|
much, I will try a little more." They go on because they have
|
|
begun.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride, in her turn, was not particularly attending to his words
|
|
at this moment. She had, unconsciously to herself, a way of
|
|
seizing any point in the remarks of an interlocutor which
|
|
interested her, and dwelling upon it, and thinking thoughts of her
|
|
own thereupon, totally oblivious of all that he might say in
|
|
continuation. On such occasions she artlessly surveyed the person
|
|
speaking; and then there was a time for a painter. Her eyes
|
|
seemed to look at you, and past you, as you were then, into your
|
|
future; and past your future into your eternity--not reading it,
|
|
but gazing in an unused, unconscious way--her mind still clinging
|
|
to its original thought.
|
|
|
|
This is how she was looking at Knight.
|
|
|
|
Suddenly Elfride became conscious of what she was doing, and was
|
|
painfully confused.
|
|
|
|
'What were you so intent upon in me?' he inquired.
|
|
|
|
'As far as I was thinking of you at all, I was thinking how clever
|
|
you are,' she said, with a want of premeditation that was
|
|
startling in its honesty and simplicity.
|
|
|
|
Feeling restless now that she had so unwittingly spoken, she arose
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and stepped to the window, having heard the voices of her father
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and Mrs. Swancourt coming up below the terrace. 'Here they are,'
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she said, going out. Knight walked out upon the lawn behind her.
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She stood upon the edge of the terrace, close to the stone
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balustrade, and looked towards the sun, hanging over a glade just
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now fair as Tempe's vale, up which her father was walking.
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Knight could not help looking at her. The sun was within ten
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degrees of the horizon, and its warm light flooded her face and
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heightened the bright rose colour of her cheeks to a vermilion
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red, their moderate pink hue being only seen in its natural tone
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where the cheek curved round into shadow. The ends of her hanging
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hair softly dragged themselves backwards and forwards upon her
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shoulder as each faint breeze thrust against or relinquished it.
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Fringes and ribbons of her dress, moved by the same breeze, licked
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like tongues upon the parts around them, and fluttering forward
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from shady folds caught likewise their share of the lustrous
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orange glow.
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Mr. Swancourt shouted out a welcome to Knight from a distance of
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about thirty yards, and after a few preliminary words proceeded to
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a conversation of deep earnestness on Knight's fine old family
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name, and theories as to lineage and intermarriage connected
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therewith. Knight's portmanteau having in the meantime arrived,
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they soon retired to prepare for dinner, which had been postponed
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two hours later than the usual time of that meal.
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An arrival was an event in the life of Elfride, now that they were
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again in the country, and that of Knight necessarily an engrossing
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one. And that evening she went to bed for the first time without
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thinking of Stephen at all.
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Chapter XVIII
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'He heard her musical pants.'
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The old tower of West Endelstow Church had reached the last weeks
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of its existence. It was to be replaced by a new one from the
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designs of Mr. Hewby, the architect who had sent down Stephen.
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Planks and poles had arrived in the churchyard, iron bars had been
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thrust into the venerable crack extending down the belfry wall to
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the foundation, the bells had been taken down, the owls had
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forsaken this home of their forefathers, and six iconoclasts in
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white fustian, to whom a cracked edifice was a species of Mumbo
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Jumbo, had taken lodgings in the village previous to beginning the
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actual removal of the stones.
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This was the day after Knight's arrival. To enjoy for the last
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time the prospect seaward from the summit, the vicar, Mrs.
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Swancourt, Knight, and Elfride, all ascended the winding turret--
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Mr. Swancourt stepping forward with many loud breaths, his wife
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struggling along silently, but suffering none the less. They had
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hardly reached the top when a large lurid cloud, palpably a
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reservoir of rain, thunder, and lightning, was seen to be
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advancing overhead from the north.
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The two cautious elders suggested an immediate return, and
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proceeded to put it in practice as regarded themselves.
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'Dear me, I wish I had not come up,' exclaimed Mrs. Swancourt.
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'We shall be slower than you two in going down,' the vicar said
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over his shoulder, 'and so, don't you start till we are nearly at
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the bottom, or you will run over us and break our necks somewhere
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in the darkness of the turret.'
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Accordingly Elfride and Knight waited on the leads till the
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staircase should be clear. Knight was not in a talkative mood
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that morning. Elfride was rather wilful, by reason of his
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inattention, which she privately set down to his thinking her not
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worth talking to. Whilst Knight stood watching the rise of the
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cloud, she sauntered to the other side of the tower, and there
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remembered a giddy feat she had performed the year before. It was
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to walk round upon the parapet of the tower--which was quite
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without battlement or pinnacle, and presented a smooth flat
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surface about two feet wide, forming a pathway on all the four
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sides. Without reflecting in the least upon what she was doing
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she now stepped upon the parapet in the old way, and began walking
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along.
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'We are down, cousin Henry,' cried Mrs. Swancourt up the turret.
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'Follow us when you like.'
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Knight turned and saw Elfride beginning her elevated promenade.
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His face flushed with mingled concern and anger at her rashness.
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'I certainly gave you credit for more common sense,' he said.
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She reddened a little and walked on.
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'Miss Swancourt, I insist upon your coming down,' he exclaimed.
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'I will in a minute. I am safe enough. I have done it often.'
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At that moment, by reason of a slight perturbation his words had
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caused in her, Elfride's foot caught itself in a little tuft of
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grass growing in a joint of the stone-work, and she almost lost
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her balance. Knight sprang forward with a face of horror. By
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what seemed the special interposition of a considerate Providence
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she tottered to the inner edge of the parapet instead of to the
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outer, and reeled over upon the lead roof two or three feet below
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the wall.
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Knight seized her as in a vice, and he said, panting, 'That ever I
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should have met a woman fool enough to do a thing of that kind!
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Good God, you ought to be ashamed of yourself!'
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The close proximity of the Shadow of Death had made her sick and
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pale as a corpse before he spoke. Already lowered to that state,
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his words completely over-powered her, and she swooned away as he
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held her.
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Elfride's eyes were not closed for more than forty seconds. She
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opened them, and remembered the position instantly. His face had
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altered its expression from stern anger to pity. But his severe
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remarks had rather frightened her, and she struggled to be free.
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'If you can stand, of course you may,' he said, and loosened his
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arms. 'I hardly know whether most to laugh at your freak or to
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chide you for its folly.'
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She immediately sank upon the lead-work. Knight lifted her again.
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'Are you hurt?' he said.
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She murmured an incoherent expression, and tried to smile; saying,
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with a fitful aversion of her face, 'I am only frightened. Put me
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down, do put me down!'
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'But you can't walk,' said Knight.
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'You don't know that; how can you? I am only frightened, I tell
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you,' she answered petulantly, and raised her hand to her
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forehead. Knight then saw that she was bleeding from a severe cut
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in her wrist, apparently where it had descended upon a salient
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corner of the lead-work. Elfride, too, seemed to perceive and
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feel this now for the first time, and for a minute nearly lost
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consciousness again. Knight rapidly bound his handkerchief round
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the place, and to add to the complication, the thundercloud he had
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been watching began to shed some heavy drops of rain. Knight
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looked up and saw the vicar striding towards the house, and Mrs.
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Swancourt waddling beside him like a hard-driven duck.
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'As you are so faint, it will be much better to let me carry you
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down,' said Knight; 'or at any rate inside out of the rain.' But
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her objection to be lifted made it impossible for him to support
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her for more than five steps.
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'This is folly, great folly,' he exclaimed, setting her down.
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'Indeed!' she murmured, with tears in her eyes. 'I say I will not
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be carried, and you say this is folly!'
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'So it is.'
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'No, it isn't!'
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'It is folly, I think. At any rate, the origin of it all is.'
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'I don't agree to it. And you needn't get so angry with me; I am
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not worth it.'
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'Indeed you are. You are worth the enmity of princes, as was said
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of such another. Now, then, will you clasp your hands behind my
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neck, that I may carry you down without hurting you?'
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'No, no.'
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'You had better, or I shall foreclose.'
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'What's that!'
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'Deprive you of your chance.'
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Elfride gave a little toss.
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'Now, don't writhe so when I attempt to carry you.'
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'I can't help it.'
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'Then submit quietly.'
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'I don't care. I don't care,' she murmured in languid tones and
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with closed eyes.
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He took her into his arms, entered the turret, and with slow and
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cautious steps descended round and round. Then, with the
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gentleness of a nursing mother, he attended to the cut on her arm.
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During his progress through the operations of wiping it and
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binding it up anew, her face changed its aspect from pained
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indifference to something like bashful interest, interspersed with
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small tremors and shudders of a trifling kind.
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In the centre of each pale cheek a small red spot the size of a
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wafer had now made its appearance, and continued to grow larger.
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Elfride momentarily expected a recurrence to the lecture on her
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foolishness, but Knight said no more than this--
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'Promise me NEVER to walk on that parapet again.'
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'It will be pulled down soon: so I do.' In a few minutes she
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|
continued in a lower tone, and seriously, 'You are familiar of
|
|
course, as everybody is, with those strange sensations we
|
|
sometimes have, that our life for the moment exists in duplicate.'
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'That we have lived through that moment before?'
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'Or shall again. Well, I felt on the tower that something similar
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|
to that scene is again to be common to us both.'
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'God forbid!' said Knight. 'Promise me that you will never again
|
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walk on any such place on any consideration.'
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'I do.'
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|
'That such a thing has not been before, we know. That it shall
|
|
not be again, you vow. Therefore think no more of such a foolish
|
|
fancy.'
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There had fallen a great deal of rain, but unaccompanied by
|
|
lightning. A few minutes longer, and the storm had ceased.
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|
'Now, take my arm, please.'
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'Oh no, it is not necessary.' This relapse into wilfulness was
|
|
because he had again connected the epithet foolish with her.
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|
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|
'Nonsense: it is quite necessary; it will rain again directly, and
|
|
you are not half recovered.' And without more ado Knight took her
|
|
hand, drew it under his arm, and held it there so firmly that she
|
|
could not have removed it without a struggle. Feeling like a colt
|
|
in a halter for the first time, at thus being led along, yet
|
|
afraid to be angry, it was to her great relief that she saw the
|
|
carriage coming round the corner to fetch them.
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|
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|
Her fall upon the roof was necessarily explained to some extent
|
|
upon their entering the house; but both forbore to mention a word
|
|
of what she had been doing to cause such an accident. During the
|
|
remainder of the afternoon Elfride was invisible; but at dinner-
|
|
time she appeared as bright as ever.
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|
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|
In the drawing-room, after having been exclusively engaged with
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. Swancourt through the intervening hour, Knight again
|
|
found himself thrown with Elfride. She had been looking over a
|
|
chess problem in one of the illustrated periodicals.
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|
|
|
'You like chess, Miss Swancourt?'
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|
'Yes. It is my favourite scientific game; indeed, excludes every
|
|
other. Do you play?'
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|
'I have played; though not lately.'
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|
'Challenge him, Elfride,' said the vicar heartily. 'She plays
|
|
very well for a lady, Mr. Knight.'
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|
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|
'Shall we play?' asked Elfride tentatively.
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'Oh, certainly. I shall be delighted.'
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|
The game began. Mr. Swancourt had forgotten a similar performance
|
|
with Stephen Smith the year before. Elfride had not; but she had
|
|
begun to take for her maxim the undoubted truth that the necessity
|
|
of continuing faithful to Stephen, without suspicion, dictated a
|
|
fickle behaviour almost as imperatively as fickleness itself; a
|
|
fact, however, which would give a startling advantage to the
|
|
latter quality should it ever appear.
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|
|
|
Knight, by one of those inexcusable oversights which will
|
|
sometimes afflict the best of players, placed his rook in the arms
|
|
of one of her pawns. It was her first advantage. She looked
|
|
triumphant--even ruthless.
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|
|
|
'By George! what was I thinking of?' said Knight quietly; and then
|
|
dismissed all concern at his accident.
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|
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|
'Club laws we'll have, won't we, Mr. Knight?' said Elfride
|
|
suasively.
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|
'Oh yes, certainly,' said Mr. Knight, a thought, however, just
|
|
occurring to his mind, that he had two or three times allowed her
|
|
to replace a man on her religiously assuring him that such a move
|
|
was an absolute blunder.
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|
|
|
She immediately took up the unfortunate rook and the contest
|
|
proceeded, Elfride having now rather the better of the game. Then
|
|
he won the exchange, regained his position, and began to press her
|
|
hard. Elfride grew flurried, and placed her queen on his
|
|
remaining rook's file.
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|
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|
'There--how stupid! Upon my word, I did not see your rook. Of
|
|
course nobody but a fool would have put a queen there knowingly!'
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|
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|
She spoke excitedly, half expecting her antagonist to give her
|
|
back the move.
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|
|
|
'Nobody, of course,' said Knight serenely, and stretched out his
|
|
hand towards his royal victim.
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|
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|
'It is not very pleasant to have it taken advantage of, then,' she
|
|
said with some vexation.
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|
|
|
'Club laws, I think you said?' returned Knight blandly, and
|
|
mercilessly appropriating the queen.
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|
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|
She was on the brink of pouting, but was ashamed to show it; tears
|
|
almost stood in her eyes. She had been trying so hard--so very
|
|
hard--thinking and thinking till her brain was in a whirl; and it
|
|
seemed so heartless of him to treat her so, after all.
|
|
|
|
'I think it is----' she began.
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|
|
|
'What?'
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|
--'Unkind to take advantage of a pure mistake I make in that way.'
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|
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|
'I lost my rook by even a purer mistake,' said the enemy in an
|
|
inexorable tone, without lifting his eyes.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, but----' However, as his logic was absolutely unanswerable,
|
|
she merely registered a protest. 'I cannot endure those cold-
|
|
blooded ways of clubs and professional players, like Staunton and
|
|
Morphy. Just as if it really mattered whether you have raised
|
|
your fingers from a man or no!'
|
|
|
|
Knight smiled as pitilessly as before, and they went on in
|
|
silence.
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|
|
|
'Checkmate,' said Knight.
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|
|
|
'Another game,' said Elfride peremptorily, and looking very warm.
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|
'With all my heart,' said Knight.
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|
|
|
'Checkmate,' said Knight again at the end of forty minutes.
|
|
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|
'Another game,' she returned resolutely.
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|
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|
'I'll give you the odds of a bishop,' Knight said to her kindly.
|
|
|
|
'No, thank you,' Elfride replied in a tone intended for courteous
|
|
indifference; but, as a fact, very cavalier indeed.
|
|
|
|
'Checkmate,' said her opponent without the least emotion.
|
|
|
|
Oh, the difference between Elfride's condition of mind now, and
|
|
when she purposely made blunders that Stephen Smith might win!
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|
|
|
It was bedtime. Her mind as distracted as if it would throb
|
|
itself out of her head, she went off to her chamber, full of
|
|
mortification at being beaten time after time when she herself was
|
|
the aggressor. Having for two or three years enjoyed the
|
|
reputation throughout the globe of her father's brain--which
|
|
almost constituted her entire world--of being an excellent player,
|
|
this fiasco was intolerable; for unfortunately the person most
|
|
dogged in the belief in a false reputation is always that one, the
|
|
possessor, who has the best means of knowing that it is not true.
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|
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|
In bed no sleep came to soothe her; that gentle thing being the
|
|
very middle-of-summer friend in this respect of flying away at the
|
|
merest troublous cloud. After lying awake till two o'clock an
|
|
idea seemed to strike her. She softly arose, got a light, and
|
|
fetched a Chess Praxis from the library. Returning and sitting up
|
|
in bed, she diligently studied the volume till the clock struck
|
|
five, and her eyelids felt thick and heavy. She then extinguished
|
|
the light and lay down again.
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|
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|
'You look pale, Elfride,' said Mrs. Swancourt the next morning at
|
|
breakfast. 'Isn't she, cousin Harry?'
|
|
|
|
A young girl who is scarcely ill at all can hardly help becoming
|
|
so when regarded as such by all eyes turning upon her at the table
|
|
in obedience to some remark. Everybody looked at Elfride. She
|
|
certainly was pale.
|
|
|
|
'Am I pale?' she said with a faint smile. 'I did not sleep much.
|
|
I could not get rid of armies of bishops and knights, try how I
|
|
would.'
|
|
|
|
'Chess is a bad thing just before bedtime; especially for
|
|
excitable people like yourself, dear. Don't ever play late
|
|
again.'
|
|
|
|
'I'll play early instead. Cousin Knight,' she said in imitation
|
|
of Mrs. Swancourt, 'will you oblige me in something?'
|
|
|
|
'Even to half my kingdom.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, it is to play one game more.'
|
|
|
|
'When?'
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|
|
|
'Now, instantly; the moment we have breakfasted.'
|
|
|
|
'Nonsense, Elfride,' said her father. 'Making yourself a slave to
|
|
the game like that.'
|
|
|
|
'But I want to, papa! Honestly, I am restless at having been so
|
|
ignominiously overcome. And Mr. Knight doesn't mind. So what
|
|
harm can there be?'
|
|
|
|
'Let us play, by all means, if you wish it,' said Knight.
|
|
|
|
So, when breakfast was over, the combatants withdrew to the quiet
|
|
of the library, and the door was closed. Elfride seemed to have
|
|
an idea that her conduct was rather ill-regulated and startlingly
|
|
free from conventional restraint. And worse, she fancied upon
|
|
Knight's face a slightly amused look at her proceedings.
|
|
|
|
'You think me foolish, I suppose,' she said recklessly; 'but I
|
|
want to do my very best just once, and see whether I can overcome
|
|
you.'
|
|
|
|
'Certainly: nothing more natural. Though I am afraid it is not
|
|
the plan adopted by women of the world after a defeat.'
|
|
|
|
'Why, pray?'
|
|
|
|
'Because they know that as good as overcoming is skill in effacing
|
|
recollection of being overcome, and turn their attention to that
|
|
entirely.'
|
|
|
|
'I am wrong again, of course.'
|
|
|
|
'Perhaps your wrong is more pleasing than their right.'
|
|
|
|
'I don't quite know whether you mean that, or whether you are
|
|
laughing at me,' she said, looking doubtingly at him, yet
|
|
inclining to accept the more flattering interpretation. 'I am
|
|
almost sure you think it vanity in me to think I am a match for
|
|
you. Well, if you do, I say that vanity is no crime in such a
|
|
case.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, perhaps not. Though it is hardly a virtue.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes, in battle! Nelson's bravery lay in his vanity.'
|
|
|
|
'Indeed! Then so did his death.'
|
|
|
|
Oh no, no! For it is written in the book of the prophet
|
|
Shakespeare--
|
|
|
|
|
|
"Fear and be slain? no worse can come to fight;
|
|
And fight and die, is death destroying death!"
|
|
|
|
|
|
And down they sat, and the contest began, Elfride having the first
|
|
move. The game progressed. Elfride's heart beat so violently
|
|
that she could not sit still. Her dread was lest he should hear
|
|
it. And he did discover it at last--some flowers upon the table
|
|
being set throbbing by its pulsations.
|
|
|
|
'I think we had better give over,' said Knight, looking at her
|
|
gently. 'It is too much for you, I know. Let us write down the
|
|
position, and finish another time.'
|
|
|
|
'No, please not,' she implored. 'I should not rest if I did not
|
|
know the result at once. It is your move.'
|
|
|
|
Ten minutes passed.
|
|
|
|
She started up suddenly. 'I know what you are doing?' she cried,
|
|
an angry colour upon her cheeks, and her eyes indignant. 'You
|
|
were thinking of letting me win to please me!'
|
|
|
|
'I don't mind owning that I was,' Knight responded phlegmatically,
|
|
and appearing all the more so by contrast with her own turmoil.
|
|
|
|
'But you must not! I won't have it.'
|
|
|
|
'Very well.'
|
|
|
|
'No, that will not do; I insist that you promise not to do any
|
|
such absurd thing. It is insulting me!'
|
|
|
|
'Very well, madam. I won't do any such absurd thing. You shall
|
|
not win.'
|
|
|
|
'That is to be proved!' she returned proudly; and the play went
|
|
on.
|
|
|
|
Nothing is now heard but the ticking of a quaint old timepiece on
|
|
the summit of a bookcase. Ten minutes pass; he captures her
|
|
knight; she takes his knight, and looks a very Rhadamanthus.
|
|
|
|
More minutes tick away; she takes his pawn and has the advantage,
|
|
showing her sense of it rather prominently.
|
|
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Five minutes more: he takes her bishop: she brings things even by
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taking his knight.
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Three minutes: she looks bold, and takes his queen: he looks
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placid, and takes hers.
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Eight or ten minutes pass: he takes a pawn; she utters a little
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pooh! but not the ghost of a pawn can she take in retaliation.
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Ten minutes pass: he takes another pawn and says, 'Check!' She
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flushes, extricates herself by capturing his bishop, and looks
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triumphant. He immediately takes her bishop: she looks surprised.
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Five minutes longer: she makes a dash and takes his only remaining
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bishop; he replies by taking her only remaining knight.
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Two minutes: he gives check; her mind is now in a painful state of
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tension, and she shades her face with her hand.
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Yet a few minutes more: he takes her rook and checks again. She
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literally trembles now lest an artful surprise she has in store
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for him shall be anticipated by the artful surprise he evidently
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has in store for her.
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Five minutes: 'Checkmate in two moves!' exclaims Elfride.
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'If you can,' says Knight.
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'Oh, I have miscalculated; that is cruel!'
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'Checkmate,' says Knight; and the victory is won.
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Elfride arose and turned away without letting him see her face.
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Once in the hall she ran upstairs and into her room, and flung
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herself down upon her bed, weeping bitterly.
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'Where is Elfride?' said her father at luncheon.
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Knight listened anxiously for the answer. He had been hoping to
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see her again before this time.
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'She isn't well, sir,' was the reply.
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Mrs. Swancourt rose and left the room, going upstairs to Elfride's
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apartment.
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At the door was Unity, who occupied in the new establishment a
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position between young lady's maid and middle-housemaid.
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'She is sound asleep, ma'am,' Unity whispered.
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Mrs. Swancourt opened the door. Elfride was lying full-dressed on
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the bed, her face hot and red, her arms thrown abroad. At
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intervals of a minute she tossed restlessly from side to side, and
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indistinctly moaned words used in the game of chess.
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Mrs. Swancourt had a turn for doctoring, and felt her pulse. It
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was twanging like a harp-string, at the rate of nearly a hundred
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and fifty a minute. Softly moving the sleeping girl to a little
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less cramped position, she went downstairs again.
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'She is asleep now,' said Mrs. Swancourt. 'She does not seem very
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well. Cousin Knight, what were you thinking of? her tender brain
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won't bear cudgelling like your great head. You should have
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strictly forbidden her to play again.'
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In truth, the essayist's experience of the nature of young women
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was far less extensive than his abstract knowledge of them led
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himself and others to believe. He could pack them into sentences
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like a workman, but practically was nowhere.
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'I am indeed sorry,' said Knight, feeling even more than he
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expressed. 'But surely, the young lady knows best what is good
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for her!'
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'Bless you, that's just what she doesn't know. She never thinks
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of such things, does she, Christopher? Her father and I have to
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command her and keep her in order, as you would a child. She will
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say things worthy of a French epigrammatist, and act like a robin
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in a greenhouse. But I think we will send for Dr. Granson--there
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can be no harm.'
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A man was straightway despatched on horseback to Castle Boterel,
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and the gentleman known as Dr. Granson came in the course of the
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afternoon. He pronounced her nervous system to be in a decided
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state of disorder; forwarded some soothing draught, and gave
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orders that on no account whatever was she to play chess again.
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The next morning Knight, much vexed with himself, waited with a
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curiously compounded feeling for her entry to breakfast. The
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women servants came in to prayers at irregular intervals, and as
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each entered, he could not, to save his life, avoid turning his
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head with the hope that she might be Elfride. Mr. Swancourt began
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reading without waiting for her. Then somebody glided in
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noiselessly; Knight softly glanced up: it was only the little
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kitchen-maid. Knight thought reading prayers a bore.
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He went out alone, and for almost the first time failed to
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recognize that holding converse with Nature's charms was not
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solitude. On nearing the house again he perceived his young
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friend crossing a slope by a path which ran into the one he was
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following in the angle of the field. Here they met. Elfride was
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at once exultant and abashed: coming into his presence had upon
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her the effect of entering a cathedral.
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Knight had his note-book in his hand, and had, in fact, been in
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the very act of writing therein when they came in view of each
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other. He left off in the midst of a sentence, and proceeded to
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inquire warmly concerning her state of health. She said she was
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perfectly well, and indeed had never looked better. Her health
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was as inconsequent as her actions. Her lips were red, WITHOUT
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the polish that cherries have, and their redness margined with the
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white skin in a clearly defined line, which had nothing of jagged
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confusion in it. Altogether she stood as the last person in the
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world to be knocked over by a game of chess, because too
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ephemeral-looking to play one.
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'Are you taking notes?' she inquired with an alacrity plainly
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|
arising less from interest in the subject than from a wish to
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divert his thoughts from herself.
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'Yes; I was making an entry. And with your permission I will
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complete it.' Knight then stood still and wrote. Elfride remained
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beside him a moment, and afterwards walked on.
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'I should like to see all the secrets that are in that book,' she
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gaily flung back to him over her shoulder.
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'I don't think you would find much to interest you.'
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'I know I should.'
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'Then of course I have no more to say.'
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'But I would ask this question first. Is it a book of mere facts
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|
concerning journeys and expenditure, and so on, or a book of
|
|
thoughts?'
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'Well, to tell the truth, it is not exactly either. It consists
|
|
for the most part of jottings for articles and essays, disjointed
|
|
and disconnected, of no possible interest to anybody but myself.'
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'It contains, I suppose, your developed thoughts in embryo?'
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'Yes.'
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'If they are interesting when enlarged to the size of an article,
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what must they be in their concentrated form? Pure rectified
|
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spirit, above proof; before it is lowered to be fit for human
|
|
consumption: "words that burn" indeed.'
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'Rather like a balloon before it is inflated: flabby, shapeless,
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|
dead. You could hardly read them.'
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'May I try?' she said coaxingly. 'I wrote my poor romance in that
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|
way--I mean in bits, out of doors--and I should like to see
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|
whether your way of entering things is the same as mine.'
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'Really, that's rather an awkward request. I suppose I can hardly
|
|
refuse now you have asked so directly; but----'
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|
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'You think me ill-mannered in asking. But does not this justify
|
|
me--your writing in my presence, Mr. Knight? If I had lighted upon
|
|
your book by chance, it would have been different; but you stand
|
|
before me, and say, "Excuse me," without caring whether I do or
|
|
not, and write on, and then tell me they are not private facts but
|
|
public ideas.'
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|
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|
'Very well, Miss Swancourt. If you really must see, the
|
|
consequences be upon your own head. Remember, my advice to you is
|
|
to leave my book alone.'
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|
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'But with that caution I have your permission?'
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|
'Yes.'
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|
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She hesitated a moment, looked at his hand containing the book,
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|
then laughed, and saying, 'I must see it,' withdrew it from his
|
|
fingers.
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Knight rambled on towards the house, leaving her standing in the
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|
path turning over the leaves. By the time he had reached the
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|
wicket-gate he saw that she had moved, and waited till she came
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|
up.
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|
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Elfride had closed the note-book, and was carrying it disdainfully
|
|
by the corner between her finger and thumb; her face wore a
|
|
nettled look. She silently extended the volume towards him,
|
|
raising her eyes no higher than her hand was lifted.
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|
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|
'Take it,' said Elfride quickly. 'I don't want to read it.'
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|
'Could you understand it?' said Knight.
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|
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|
'As far as I looked. But I didn't care to read much.'
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|
|
|
'Why, Miss Swancourt?'
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|
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|
'Only because I didn't wish to--that's all.'
|
|
|
|
'I warned you that you might not.'
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|
|
|
'Yes, but I never supposed you would have put me there.'
|
|
|
|
'Your name is not mentioned once within the four corners.'
|
|
|
|
'Not my name--I know that.'
|
|
|
|
'Nor your description, nor anything by which anybody would
|
|
recognize you.'
|
|
|
|
'Except myself. For what is this?' she exclaimed, taking it from
|
|
him and opening a page. 'August 7. That's the day before
|
|
yesterday. But I won't read it,' Elfride said, closing the book
|
|
again with pretty hauteur. 'Why should I? I had no business to
|
|
ask to see your hook, and it serves me right.'
|
|
|
|
Knight hardly recollected what he had written, and turned over the
|
|
book to see. He came to this:
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|
|
|
'Aug. 7. Girl gets into her teens, and her self-consciousness is
|
|
born. After a certain interval passed in infantine helplessness
|
|
it begins to act. Simple, young, and inexperienced at first.
|
|
Persons of observation can tell to a nicety how old this
|
|
consciousness is by the skill it has acquired in the art necessary
|
|
to its success--the art of hiding itself. Generally begins career
|
|
by actions which are popularly termed showing-off. Method adopted
|
|
depends in each case upon the disposition, rank, residence, of the
|
|
young lady attempting it. Town-bred girl will utter some moral
|
|
paradox on fast men, or love. Country miss adopts the more
|
|
material media of taking a ghastly fence, whistling, or making
|
|
your blood run cold by appearing to risk her neck. (MEM. On
|
|
Endelstow Tower.)
|
|
|
|
'An innocent vanity is of course the origin of these displays.
|
|
"Look at me," say these youthful beginners in womanly artifice,
|
|
without reflecting whether or not it be to their advantage to show
|
|
so very much of themselves. (Amplify and correct for paper on
|
|
Artless Arts.)'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, I remember now,' said Knight. 'The notes were certainly
|
|
suggested by your manoeuvre on the church tower. But you must not
|
|
think too much of such random observations,' he continued
|
|
encouragingly, as he noticed her injured looks. 'A mere fancy
|
|
passing through my head assumes a factitious importance to you,
|
|
because it has been made permanent by being written down. All
|
|
mankind think thoughts as bad as those of people they most love on
|
|
earth, but such thoughts never getting embodied on paper, it
|
|
becomes assumed that they never existed. I daresay that you
|
|
yourself have thought some disagreeable thing or other of me,
|
|
which would seem just as bad as this if written. I challenge you,
|
|
now, to tell me.'
|
|
|
|
'The worst thing I have thought of you?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes.'
|
|
|
|
'I must not.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes.'
|
|
|
|
'I thought you were rather round-shouldered.'
|
|
|
|
Knight looked slightly redder.
|
|
|
|
'And that there was a little bald spot on the top of your head.'
|
|
|
|
'Heh-heh! Two ineradicable defects,' said Knight, there being a
|
|
faint ghastliness discernible in his laugh. 'They are much worse
|
|
in a lady's eye than being thought self-conscious, I suppose.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, that's very fine,' she said, too inexperienced to perceive
|
|
her hit, and hence not quite disposed to forgive his notes. 'You
|
|
alluded to me in that entry as if I were such a child, too.
|
|
Everybody does that. I cannot understand it. I am quite a woman,
|
|
you know. How old do you think I am?'
|
|
|
|
'How old? Why, seventeen, I should say. All girls are seventeen.'
|
|
|
|
'You are wrong. I am nearly nineteen. Which class of women do
|
|
you like best, those who seem younger, or those who seem older
|
|
than they are?'
|
|
|
|
'Off-hand I should be inclined to say those who seem older.'
|
|
|
|
So it was not Elfride's class.
|
|
|
|
'But it is well known,' she said eagerly, and there was something
|
|
touching in the artless anxiety to be thought much of which she
|
|
revealed by her words, 'that the slower a nature is to develop,
|
|
the richer the nature. Youths and girls who are men and women
|
|
before they come of age are nobodies by the time that backward
|
|
people have shown their full compass.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes,' said Knight thoughtfully. 'There is really something in
|
|
that remark. But at the risk of offence I must remind you that
|
|
you there take it for granted that the woman behind her time at a
|
|
given age has not reached the end of her tether. Her backwardness
|
|
may be not because she is slow to develop, but because she soon
|
|
exhausted her capacity for developing.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride looked disappointed. By this time they were indoors.
|
|
Mrs. Swancourt, to whom match-making by any honest means was meat
|
|
and drink, had now a little scheme of that nature concerning this
|
|
pair. The morning-room, in which they both expected to find her,
|
|
was empty; the old lady having, for the above reason, vacated it
|
|
by the second door as they entered by the first.
|
|
|
|
Knight went to the chimney-piece, and carelessly surveyed two
|
|
portraits on ivory.
|
|
|
|
'Though these pink ladies had very rudimentary features, judging
|
|
by what I see here,' he observed, 'they had unquestionably
|
|
beautiful heads of hair.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; and that is everything,' said Elfride, possibly conscious of
|
|
her own, possibly not.
|
|
|
|
'Not everything; though a great deal, certainly.'
|
|
|
|
'Which colour do you like best?' she ventured to ask.
|
|
|
|
'More depends on its abundance than on its colour.'
|
|
|
|
'Abundances being equal, may I inquire your favourite colour?'
|
|
|
|
'Dark.'
|
|
|
|
'I mean for women,' she said, with the minutest fall of
|
|
countenance, and a hope that she had been misunderstood.
|
|
|
|
'So do I,' Knight replied.
|
|
|
|
It was impossible for any man not to know the colour of Elfride's
|
|
hair. In women who wear it plainly such a feature may be
|
|
overlooked by men not given to ocular intentness. But hers was
|
|
always in the way. You saw her hair as far as you could see her
|
|
sex, and knew that it was the palest brown. She knew instantly
|
|
that Knight, being perfectly aware of this, had an independent
|
|
standard of admiration in the matter.
|
|
|
|
Elfride was thoroughly vexed. She could not but be struck with
|
|
the honesty of his opinions, and the worst of it was, that the
|
|
more they went against her, the more she respected them. And now,
|
|
like a reckless gambler, she hazarded her last and best treasure.
|
|
Her eyes: they were her all now.
|
|
|
|
'What coloured eyes do you like best, Mr. Knight?' she said
|
|
slowly.
|
|
|
|
'Honestly, or as a compliment?'
|
|
|
|
'Of course honestly; I don't want anybody's compliment!'
|
|
|
|
And yet Elfride knew otherwise: that a compliment or word of
|
|
approval from that man then would have been like a well to a
|
|
famished Arab.
|
|
|
|
'I prefer hazel,' he said serenely.
|
|
|
|
She had played and lost again.
|
|
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|
|
Chapter XIX
|
|
|
|
'Love was in the next degree.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Knight had none of those light familiarities of speech which, by
|
|
judicious touches of epigrammatic flattery, obliterate a woman's
|
|
recollection of the speaker's abstract opinions. So no more was
|
|
said by either on the subject of hair, eyes, or development.
|
|
Elfride's mind had been impregnated with sentiments of her own
|
|
smallness to an uncomfortable degree of distinctness, and her
|
|
discomfort was visible in her face. The whole tendency of the
|
|
conversation latterly had been to quietly but surely disparage
|
|
her; and she was fain to take Stephen into favour in self-defence.
|
|
He would not have been so unloving, she said, as to admire an
|
|
idiosyncrasy and features different from her own. True, Stephen
|
|
had declared he loved her: Mr. Knight had never done anything of
|
|
the sort. Somehow this did not mend matters, and the sensation of
|
|
her smallness in Knight's eyes still remained. Had the position
|
|
been reversed--had Stephen loved her in spite of a differing
|
|
taste, and had Knight been indifferent in spite of her resemblance
|
|
to his ideal, it would have engendered far happier thoughts. As
|
|
matters stood, Stephen's admiration might have its root in a
|
|
blindness the result of passion. Perhaps any keen man's judgment
|
|
was condemnatory of her.
|
|
|
|
During the remainder of Saturday they were more or less thrown
|
|
with their seniors, and no conversation arose which was
|
|
exclusively their own. When Elfride was in bed that night her
|
|
thoughts recurred to the same subject. At one moment she insisted
|
|
that it was ill-natured of him to speak so decisively as he had
|
|
done; the next, that it was sterling honesty.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, what a poor nobody I am!' she said, sighing. 'People like
|
|
him, who go about the great world, don't care in the least what I
|
|
am like either in mood or feature.'
|
|
|
|
Perhaps a man who has got thoroughly into a woman's mind in this
|
|
manner, is half way to her heart; the distance between those two
|
|
stations is proverbially short.
|
|
|
|
'And are you really going away this week?' said Mrs. Swancourt to
|
|
Knight on the following evening, which was Sunday.
|
|
|
|
They were all leisurely climbing the hill to the church, where a
|
|
last service was now to be held at the rather exceptional time of
|
|
evening instead of in the afternoon, previous to the demolition of
|
|
the ruinous portions.
|
|
|
|
'I am intending to cross to Cork from Bristol,' returned Knight;
|
|
'and then I go on to Dublin.'
|
|
|
|
'Return this way, and stay a little longer with us,' said the
|
|
vicar. 'A week is nothing. We have hardly been able to realize
|
|
your presence yet. I remember a story which----'
|
|
|
|
The vicar suddenly stopped. He had forgotten it was Sunday, and
|
|
would probably have gone on in his week-day mode of thought had
|
|
not a turn in the breeze blown the skirt of his college gown
|
|
within the range of his vision, and so reminded him. He at once
|
|
diverted the current of his narrative with the dexterity the
|
|
occasion demanded.
|
|
|
|
'The story of the Levite who journeyed to Bethlehem-judah, from
|
|
which I took my text the Sunday before last, is quite to the
|
|
point,' he continued, with the pronunciation of a man who, far
|
|
from having intended to tell a week-day story a moment earlier,
|
|
had thought of nothing but Sabbath matters for several weeks.
|
|
'What did he gain after all by his restlessness? Had he remained
|
|
in the city of the Jebusites, and not been so anxious for Gibeah,
|
|
none of his troubles would have arisen.'
|
|
|
|
'But he had wasted five days already,' said Knight, closing his
|
|
eyes to the vicar's commendable diversion. 'His fault lay in
|
|
beginning the tarrying system originally.'
|
|
|
|
'True, true; my illustration fails.'
|
|
|
|
'But not the hospitality which prompted the story.'
|
|
|
|
'So you are to come just the same,' urged Mrs. Swancourt, for she
|
|
had seen an almost imperceptible fall of countenance in her
|
|
stepdaughter at Knight's announcement.
|
|
|
|
Knight half promised to call on his return journey; but the
|
|
uncertainty with which he spoke was quite enough to fill Elfride
|
|
with a regretful interest in all he did during the few remaining
|
|
hours. The curate having already officiated twice that day in the
|
|
two churches, Mr. Swancourt had undertaken the whole of the
|
|
evening service, and Knight read the lessons for him. The sun
|
|
streamed across from the dilapidated west window, and lighted all
|
|
the assembled worshippers with a golden glow, Knight as he read
|
|
being illuminated by the same mellow lustre. Elfride at the organ
|
|
regarded him with a throbbing sadness of mood which was fed by a
|
|
sense of being far removed from his sphere. As he went
|
|
deliberately through the chapter appointed--a portion of the
|
|
history of Elijah--and ascended that magnificent climax of the
|
|
wind, the earthquake, the fire, and the still small voice, his
|
|
deep tones echoed past with such apparent disregard of her
|
|
existence, that his presence inspired her with a forlorn sense of
|
|
unapproachableness, which his absence would hardly have been able
|
|
to cause.
|
|
|
|
At the same time, turning her face for a moment to catch the glory
|
|
of the dying sun as it fell on his form, her eyes were arrested by
|
|
the shape and aspect of a woman in the west gallery. It was the
|
|
bleak barren countenance of the widow Jethway, whom Elfride had
|
|
not seen much of since the morning of her return with Stephen
|
|
Smith. Possessing the smallest of competencies, this unhappy
|
|
woman appeared to spend her life in journeyings between Endelstow
|
|
Churchyard and that of a village near Southampton, where her
|
|
father and mother were laid.
|
|
|
|
She had not attended the service here for a considerable time, and
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she now seemed to have a reason for her choice of seat. From the
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gallery window the tomb of her son was plainly visible--standing
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as the nearest object in a prospect which was closed outwardly by
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the changeless horizon of the sea.
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The streaming rays, too, flooded her face, now bent towards
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Elfride with a hard and bitter expression that the solemnity of
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the place raised to a tragic dignity it did not intrinsically
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possess. The girl resumed her normal attitude with an added
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disquiet.
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Elfride's emotion was cumulative, and after a while would assert
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itself on a sudden. A slight touch was enough to set it free--a
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poem, a sunset, a cunningly contrived chord of music, a vague
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imagining, being the usual accidents of its exhibition. The
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longing for Knight's respect, which was leading up to an incipient
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yearning for his love, made the present conjuncture a sufficient
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one. Whilst kneeling down previous to leaving, when the sunny
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streaks had gone upward to the roof, and the lower part of the
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church was in soft shadow, she could not help thinking of
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Coleridge's morbid poem 'The Three Graves,' and shuddering as she
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wondered if Mrs. Jethway were cursing her, she wept as if her
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heart would break.
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They came out of church just as the sun went down, leaving the
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landscape like a platform from which an eloquent speaker has
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retired, and nothing remains for the audience to do but to rise
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and go home. Mr. and Mrs. Swancourt went off in the carriage,
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Knight and Elfride preferring to walk, as the skilful old
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matchmaker had imagined. They descended the hill together.
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'I liked your reading, Mr. Knight,' Elfride presently found
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herself saying. 'You read better than papa.'
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'I will praise anybody that will praise me. You played
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excellently, Miss Swancourt, and very correctly.'
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'Correctly--yes.'
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'It must be a great pleasure to you to take an active part in the
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service.'
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'I want to be able to play with more feeling. But I have not a
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good selection of music, sacred or secular. I wish I had a nice
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little music-library--well chosen, and that the only new pieces
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sent me were those of genuine merit.'
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'I am glad to hear such a wish from you. It is extraordinary how
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many women have no honest love of music as an end and not as a
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means, even leaving out those who have nothing in them. They
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mostly like it for its accessories. I have never met a woman who
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loves music as do ten or a dozen men I know.'
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'How would you draw the line between women with something and
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women with nothing in them?'
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'Well,' said Knight, reflecting a moment, 'I mean by nothing in
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them those who don't care about anything solid. This is an
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instance: I knew a man who had a young friend in whom he was much
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interested; in fact, they were going to be married. She was
|
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seemingly poetical, and he offered her a choice of two editions of
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the British poets, which she pretended to want badly. He said,
|
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"Which of them would you like best for me to send?" She said, "A
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pair of the prettiest earrings in Bond Street, if you don't mind,
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would be nicer than either." Now I call her a girl with not much
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in her but vanity; and so do you, I daresay.'
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'Oh yes,' replied Elfride with an effort.
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Happening to catch a glimpse of her face as she was speaking, and
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noticing that her attempt at heartiness was a miserable failure,
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he appeared to have misgivings.
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'You, Miss Swancourt, would not, under such circumstances, have
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preferred the nicknacks?'
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'No, I don't think I should, indeed,' she stammered.
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'I'll put it to you,' said the inflexible Knight. 'Which will you
|
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have of these two things of about equal value--the well-chosen
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little library of the best music you spoke of--bound in morocco,
|
|
walnut case, lock and key--or a pair of the very prettiest
|
|
earrings in Bond Street windows?'
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'Of course the music,' Elfride replied with forced earnestness.
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'You are quite certain?' he said emphatically.
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'Quite,' she faltered; 'if I could for certain buy the earrings
|
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afterwards.'
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Knight, somewhat blamably, keenly enjoyed sparring with the
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palpitating mobile creature, whose excitable nature made any such
|
|
thing a species of cruelty.
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He looked at her rather oddly, and said, 'Fie!'
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'Forgive me,' she said, laughing a little, a little frightened,
|
|
and blushing very deeply.
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|
'Ah, Miss Elfie, why didn't you say at first, as any firm woman
|
|
would have said, I am as bad as she, and shall choose the same?'
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|
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'I don't know,' said Elfride wofully, and with a distressful
|
|
smile.
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|
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'I thought you were exceptionally musical?'
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|
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|
'So I am, I think. But the test is so severe--quite painful.'
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'I don't understand.'
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|
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'Music doesn't do any real good, or rather----'
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|
'That IS a thing to say, Miss Swancourt! Why, what----'
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'You don't understand! you don't understand!'
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|
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'Why, what conceivable use is there in jimcrack jewellery?'
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'No, no, no, no!' she cried petulantly; 'I didn't mean what you
|
|
think. I like the music best, only I like----'
|
|
|
|
'Earrings better--own it!' he said in a teasing tone. 'Well, I
|
|
think I should have had the moral courage to own it at once,
|
|
without pretending to an elevation I could not reach.'
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|
|
|
Like the French soldiery, Elfride was not brave when on the
|
|
defensive. So it was almost with tears in her eyes that she
|
|
answered desperately:
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|
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|
'My meaning is, that I like earrings best just now, because I lost
|
|
one of my prettiest pair last year, and papa said he would not buy
|
|
any more, or allow me to myself, because I was careless; and now I
|
|
wish I had some like them--that's what my meaning is--indeed it
|
|
is, Mr. Knight.'
|
|
|
|
'I am afraid I have been very harsh and rude,' said Knight, with a
|
|
look of regret at seeing how disturbed she was. 'But seriously,
|
|
if women only knew how they ruin their good looks by such
|
|
appurtenances, I am sure they would never want them.'
|
|
|
|
'They were lovely, and became me so!'
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|
|
|
'Not if they were like the ordinary hideous things women stuff
|
|
their ears with nowadays--like the governor of a steam-engine, or
|
|
a pair of scales, or gold gibbets and chains, and artists'
|
|
palettes, and compensation pendulums, and Heaven knows what
|
|
besides.'
|
|
|
|
'No; they were not one of those things. So pretty--like this,'
|
|
she said with eager animation. And she drew with the point of her
|
|
parasol an enlarged view of one of the lamented darlings, to a
|
|
scale that would have suited a giantess half-a-mile high.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, very pretty--very,' said Knight dryly. 'How did you come to
|
|
lose such a precious pair of articles?'
|
|
|
|
'I only lost one--nobody ever loses both at the same time.'
|
|
|
|
She made this remark with embarrassment, and a nervous movement of
|
|
the fingers. Seeing that the loss occurred whilst Stephen Smith
|
|
was attempting to kiss her for the first time on the cliff, her
|
|
confusion was hardly to be wondered at. The question had been
|
|
awkward, and received no direct answer.
|
|
|
|
Knight seemed not to notice her manner.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, nobody ever loses both--I see. And certainly the fact that
|
|
it was a case of loss takes away all odour of vanity from your
|
|
choice.'
|
|
|
|
'As I never know whether you are in earnest, I don't now,' she
|
|
said, looking up inquiringly at the hairy face of the oracle. And
|
|
coming gallantly to her own rescue, 'If I really seem vain, it is
|
|
that I am only vain in my ways--not in my heart. The worst women
|
|
are those vain in their hearts, and not in their ways.'
|
|
|
|
'An adroit distinction. Well, they are certainly the more
|
|
objectionable of the two,' said Knight.
|
|
|
|
'Is vanity a mortal or a venial sin? You know what life is: tell
|
|
me.'
|
|
|
|
'I am very far from knowing what life is. A just conception of
|
|
life is too large a thing to grasp during the short interval of
|
|
passing through it.'
|
|
|
|
'Will the fact of a woman being fond of jewellery be likely to
|
|
make her life, in its higher sense, a failure?'
|
|
|
|
'Nobody's life is altogether a failure.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, you know what I mean, even though my words are badly
|
|
selected and commonplace,' she said impatiently. 'Because I utter
|
|
commonplace words, you must not suppose I think only commonplace
|
|
thoughts. My poor stock of words are like a limited number of
|
|
rough moulds I have to cast all my materials in, good and bad; and
|
|
the novelty or delicacy of the substance is often lost in the
|
|
coarse triteness of the form.'
|
|
|
|
'Very well; I'll believe that ingenious representation. As to the
|
|
subject in hand--lives which are failures--you need not trouble
|
|
yourself. Anybody's life may be just as romantic and strange and
|
|
interesting if he or she fails as if he or she succeed. All the
|
|
difference is, that the last chapter is wanting in the story. If
|
|
a man of power tries to do a great deed, and just falls short of
|
|
it by an accident not his fault, up to that time his history had
|
|
as much in it as that of a great man who has done his great deed.
|
|
It is whimsical of the world to hold that particulars of how a lad
|
|
went to school and so on should be as an interesting romance or as
|
|
nothing to them, precisely in proportion to his after renown.'
|
|
|
|
They were walking between the sunset and the moonrise. With the
|
|
dropping of the sun a nearly full moon had begun to raise itself.
|
|
Their shadows, as cast by the western glare, showed signs of
|
|
becoming obliterated in the interest of a rival pair in the
|
|
opposite direction which the moon was bringing to distinctness.
|
|
|
|
'I consider my life to some extent a failure,' said Knight again
|
|
after a pause, during which he had noticed the antagonistic
|
|
shadows.
|
|
|
|
'You! How?'
|
|
|
|
'I don't precisely know. But in some way I have missed the mark.'
|
|
|
|
'Really? To have done it is not much to be sad about, but to feel
|
|
that you have done it must be a cause of sorrow. Am I right?'
|
|
|
|
'Partly, though not quite. For a sensation of being profoundly
|
|
experienced serves as a sort of consolation to people who are
|
|
conscious of having taken wrong turnings. Contradictory as it
|
|
seems, there is nothing truer than that people who have always
|
|
gone right don't know half as much about the nature and ways of
|
|
going right as those do who have gone wrong. However, it is not
|
|
desirable for me to chill your summer-time by going into this.'
|
|
|
|
'You have not told me even now if I am really vain.'
|
|
|
|
'If I say Yes, I shall offend you; if I say No, you'll think I
|
|
don't mean it,' he replied, looking curiously into her face.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, well,' she replied, with a little breath of distress, '"That
|
|
which is exceeding deep, who will find it out?" I suppose I must
|
|
take you as I do the Bible--find out and understand all I can; and
|
|
on the strength of that, swallow the rest in a lump, by simple
|
|
faith. Think me vain, if you will. Worldly greatness requires so
|
|
much littleness to grow up in, that an infirmity more or less is
|
|
not a matter for regret.'
|
|
|
|
'As regards women, I can't say,' answered Knight carelessly; 'but
|
|
it is without doubt a misfortune for a man who has a living to
|
|
get, to be born of a truly noble nature. A high soul will bring a
|
|
man to the workhouse; so you may be right in sticking up for
|
|
vanity.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no, I don't do that,' she said regretfully.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Knight, when you are gone, will you send me something you have
|
|
written? I think I should like to see whether you write as you
|
|
have lately spoken, or in your better mood. Which is your true
|
|
self--the cynic you have been this evening, or the nice
|
|
philosopher you were up to to-night?'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, which? You know as well as I.'
|
|
|
|
Their conversation detained them on the lawn and in the portico
|
|
till the stars blinked out. Elfride flung back her head, and said
|
|
idly--
|
|
|
|
'There's a bright star exactly over me.'
|
|
|
|
'Each bright star is overhead somewhere.'
|
|
|
|
'Is it? Oh yes, of course. Where is that one?' and she pointed
|
|
with her finger.
|
|
|
|
'That is poised like a white hawk over one of the Cape Verde
|
|
Islands.'
|
|
|
|
'And that?'
|
|
|
|
'Looking down upon the source of the Nile.'
|
|
|
|
'And that lonely quiet-looking one?'
|
|
|
|
'He watches the North Pole, and has no less than the whole equator
|
|
for his horizon. And that idle one low down upon the ground, that
|
|
we have almost rolled away from, is in India--over the head of a
|
|
young friend of mine, who very possibly looks at the star in our
|
|
zenith, as it hangs low upon his horizon, and thinks of it as
|
|
marking where his true love dwells.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride glanced at Knight with misgiving. Did he mean her? She
|
|
could not see his features; but his attitude seemed to show
|
|
unconsciousness.
|
|
|
|
'The star is over MY head,' she said with hesitation.
|
|
|
|
'Or anybody else's in England.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes, I see:' she breathed her relief.
|
|
|
|
'His parents, I believe, are natives of this county. I don't know
|
|
them, though I have been in correspondence with him for many years
|
|
till lately. Fortunately or unfortunately for him he fell in
|
|
love, and then went to Bombay. Since that time I have heard very
|
|
little of him.'
|
|
|
|
Knight went no further in his volunteered statement, and though
|
|
Elfride at one moment was inclined to profit by the lessons in
|
|
honesty he had just been giving her, the flesh was weak, and the
|
|
intention dispersed into silence. There seemed a reproach in
|
|
Knight's blind words, and yet she was not able to clearly define
|
|
any disloyalty that she had been guilty of.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter XX
|
|
|
|
'A distant dearness in the hill.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Knight turned his back upon the parish of Endelstow, and crossed
|
|
over to Cork.
|
|
|
|
One day of absence superimposed itself on another, and
|
|
proportionately weighted his heart. He pushed on to the Lakes of
|
|
Killarney, rambled amid their luxuriant woods, surveyed the
|
|
infinite variety of island, hill, and dale there to be found,
|
|
listened to the marvellous echoes of that romantic spot; but
|
|
altogether missed the glory and the dream he formerly found in
|
|
such favoured regions.
|
|
|
|
Whilst in the company of Elfride, her girlish presence had not
|
|
perceptibly affected him to any depth. He had not been conscious
|
|
that her entry into his sphere had added anything to himself; but
|
|
now that she was taken away he was very conscious of a great deal
|
|
being abstracted. The superfluity had become a necessity, and
|
|
Knight was in love.
|
|
|
|
Stephen fell in love with Elfride by looking at her: Knight by
|
|
ceasing to do so. When or how the spirit entered into him he knew
|
|
not: certain he was that when on the point of leaving Endelstow he
|
|
had felt none of that exquisite nicety of poignant sadness natural
|
|
to such severances, seeing how delightful a subject of
|
|
contemplation Elfride had been ever since. Had he begun to love
|
|
her when she met his eye after her mishap on the tower? He had
|
|
simply thought her weak. Had he grown to love her whilst standing
|
|
on the lawn brightened all over by the evening sun? He had thought
|
|
her complexion good: no more. Was it her conversation that had
|
|
sown the seed? He had thought her words ingenious, and very
|
|
creditable to a young woman, but not noteworthy. Had the chess-
|
|
playing anything to do with it? Certainly not: he had thought her
|
|
at that time a rather conceited child.
|
|
|
|
Knight's experience was a complete disproof of the assumption that
|
|
love always comes by glances of the eye and sympathetic touches of
|
|
the fingers: that, like flame, it makes itself palpable at the
|
|
moment of generation. Not till they were parted, and she had
|
|
become sublimated in his memory, could he be said to have even
|
|
attentively regarded her.
|
|
|
|
Thus, having passively gathered up images of her which his mind
|
|
did not act upon till the cause of them was no longer before him,
|
|
he appeared to himself to have fallen in love with her soul, which
|
|
had temporarily assumed its disembodiment to accompany him on his
|
|
way.
|
|
|
|
She began to rule him so imperiously now that, accustomed to
|
|
analysis, he almost trembled at the possible result of the
|
|
introduction of this new force among the nicely adjusted ones of
|
|
his ordinary life. He became restless: then he forgot all
|
|
collateral subjects in the pleasure of thinking about her.
|
|
|
|
Yet it must be said that Knight loved philosophically rather than
|
|
with romance.
|
|
|
|
He thought of her manner towards him. Simplicity verges on
|
|
coquetry. Was she flirting? he said to himself. No forcible
|
|
translation of favour into suspicion was able to uphold such a
|
|
theory. The performance had been too well done to be anything but
|
|
real. It had the defects without which nothing is genuine. No
|
|
actress of twenty years' standing, no bald-necked lady whose
|
|
earliest season 'out' was lost in the discreet mist of evasive
|
|
talk, could have played before him the part of ingenuous girl as
|
|
Elfride lived it. She had the little artful ways which partly
|
|
make up ingenuousness.
|
|
|
|
There are bachelors by nature and bachelors by circumstance:
|
|
spinsters there doubtless are also of both kinds, though some
|
|
think only those of the latter. However, Knight had been looked
|
|
upon as a bachelor by nature. What was he coming to? It was very
|
|
odd to himself to look at his theories on the subject of love, and
|
|
reading them now by the full light of a new experience, to see how
|
|
much more his sentences meant than he had felt them to mean when
|
|
they were written. People often discover the real force of a
|
|
trite old maxim only when it is thrust upon them by a chance
|
|
adventure; but Knight had never before known the case of a man who
|
|
learnt the full compass of his own epigrams by such means.
|
|
|
|
He was intensely satisfied with one aspect of the affair. Inbred
|
|
in him was an invincible objection to be any but the first comer
|
|
in a woman's heart. He had discovered within himself the
|
|
condition that if ever he did make up his mind to marry, it must
|
|
be on the certainty that no cropping out of inconvenient old
|
|
letters, no bow and blush to a mysterious stranger casually met,
|
|
should be a possible source of discomposure. Knight's sentiments
|
|
were only the ordinary ones of a man of his age who loves
|
|
genuinely, perhaps exaggerated a little by his pursuits. When men
|
|
first love as lads, it is with the very centre of their hearts,
|
|
nothing else being concerned in the operation. With added years,
|
|
more of the faculties attempt a partnership in the passion, till
|
|
at Knight's age the understanding is fain to have a hand in it.
|
|
It may as well be left out. A man in love setting up his brains
|
|
as a gauge of his position is as one determining a ship's
|
|
longitude from a light at the mast-head.
|
|
|
|
Knight argued from Elfride's unwontedness of manner, which was
|
|
matter of fact, to an unwontedness in love, which was matter of
|
|
inference only. Incredules les plus credules. 'Elfride,' he
|
|
said, 'had hardly looked upon a man till she saw me.'
|
|
|
|
He had never forgotten his severity to her because she preferred
|
|
ornament to edification, and had since excused her a hundred times
|
|
by thinking how natural to womankind was a love of adornment, and
|
|
how necessary became a mild infusion of personal vanity to
|
|
complete the delicate and fascinating dye of the feminine mind.
|
|
So at the end of the week's absence, which had brought him as far
|
|
as Dublin, he resolved to curtail his tour, return to Endelstow,
|
|
and commit himself by making a reality of the hypothetical offer
|
|
of that Sunday evening.
|
|
|
|
Notwithstanding that he had concocted a great deal of paper theory
|
|
on social amenities and modern manners generally, the special
|
|
ounce of practice was wanting, and now for his life Knight could
|
|
not recollect whether it was considered correct to give a young
|
|
lady personal ornaments before a regular engagement to marry had
|
|
been initiated. But the day before leaving Dublin he looked
|
|
around anxiously for a high-class jewellery establishment, in
|
|
which he purchased what he considered would suit her best.
|
|
|
|
It was with a most awkward and unwonted feeling that after
|
|
entering and closing the door of his room he sat down, opened the
|
|
morocco case, and held up each of the fragile bits of gold-work
|
|
before his eyes. Many things had become old to the solitary man
|
|
of letters, but these were new, and he handled like a child an
|
|
outcome of civilization which had never before been touched by his
|
|
fingers. A sudden fastidious decision that the pattern chosen
|
|
would not suit her after all caused him to rise in a flurry and
|
|
tear down the street to change them for others. After a great
|
|
deal of trouble in reselecting, during which his mind became so
|
|
bewildered that the critical faculty on objects of art seemed to
|
|
have vacated his person altogether, Knight carried off another
|
|
pair of ear-rings. These remained in his possession till the
|
|
afternoon, when, after contemplating them fifty times with a
|
|
growing misgiving that the last choice was worse than the first,
|
|
he felt that no sleep would visit his pillow till he had improved
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|
upon his previous purchases yet again. In a perfect heat of
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vexation with himself for such tergiversation, he went anew to the
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shop-door, was absolutely ashamed to enter and give further
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trouble, went to another shop, bought a pair at an enormously
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increased price, because they seemed the very thing, asked the
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goldsmiths if they would take the other pair in exchange, was told
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that they could not exchange articles bought of another maker,
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paid down the money, and went off with the two pairs in his
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possession, wondering what on earth to do with the superfluous
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pair. He almost wished he could lose them, or that somebody would
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steal them, and was burdened with an interposing sense that, as a
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capable man, with true ideas of economy, he must necessarily sell
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them somewhere, which he did at last for a mere song. Mingled
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with a blank feeling of a whole day being lost to him in running
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about the city on this new and extraordinary class of errand, and
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of several pounds being lost through his bungling, was a slight
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sense of satisfaction that he had emerged for ever from his
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antediluvian ignorance on the subject of ladies' jewellery, as
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well as secured a truly artistic production at last. During the
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remainder of that day he scanned the ornaments of every lady he
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met with the profoundly experienced eye of an appraiser.
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Next morning Knight was again crossing St. George's Channel--not
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returning to London by the Holyhead route as he had originally
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intended, but towards Bristol--availing himself of Mr. and Mrs.
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Swancourt's invitation to revisit them on his homeward journey.
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We flit forward to Elfride.
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Woman's ruling passion--to fascinate and influence those more
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powerful than she--though operant in Elfride, was decidedly
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purposeless. She had wanted her friend Knight's good opinion from
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the first: how much more than that elementary ingredient of
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friendship she now desired, her fears would hardly allow her to
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think. In originally wishing to please the highest class of man
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she had ever intimately known, there was no disloyalty to Stephen
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Smith. She could not--and few women can--realize the possible
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vastness of an issue which has only an insignificant begetting.
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Her letters from Stephen were necessarily few, and her sense of
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fidelity clung to the last she had received as a wrecked mariner
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clings to flotsam. The young girl persuaded herself that she was
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glad Stephen had such a right to her hand as he had acquired (in
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her eyes) by the elopement. She beguiled herself by saying,
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'Perhaps if I had not so committed myself I might fall in love
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with Mr. Knight.'
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All this made the week of Knight's absence very gloomy and
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distasteful to her. She retained Stephen in her prayers, and his
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old letters were re-read--as a medicine in reality, though she
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deceived herself into the belief that it was as a pleasure.
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These letters had grown more and more hopeful. He told her that
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he finished his work every day with a pleasant consciousness of
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having removed one more stone from the barrier which divided them.
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Then he drew images of what a fine figure they two would cut some
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|
day. People would turn their heads and say, 'What a prize he has
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won!' She was not to be sad about that wild runaway attempt of
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theirs (Elfride had repeatedly said that it grieved her).
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Whatever any other person who knew of it might think, he knew well
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|
enough the modesty of her nature. The only reproach was a gentle
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one for not having written quite so devotedly during her visit to
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London. Her letter had seemed to have a liveliness derived from
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other thoughts than thoughts of him.
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Knight's intention of an early return to Endelstow having
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originally been faint, his promise to do so had been fainter. He
|
|
was a man who kept his words well to the rear of his possible
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|
actions. The vicar was rather surprised to see him again so soon:
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Mrs. Swancourt was not. Knight found, on meeting them all, after
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his arrival had been announced, that they had formed an intention
|
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to go to St. Leonards for a few days at the end of the month.
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No satisfactory conjuncture offered itself on this first evening
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of his return for presenting Elfride with what he had been at such
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|
pains to procure. He was fastidious in his reading of
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|
opportunities for such an intended act. The next morning chancing
|
|
to break fine after a week of cloudy weather, it was proposed and
|
|
decided that they should all drive to Barwith Strand, a local lion
|
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which neither Mrs. Swancourt nor Knight had seen. Knight scented
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romantic occasions from afar, and foresaw that such a one might be
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expected before the coming night.
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The journey was along a road by neutral green hills, upon which
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hedgerows lay trailing like ropes on a quay. Gaps in these
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|
uplands revealed the blue sea, flecked with a few dashes of white
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|
and a solitary white sail, the whole brimming up to a keen horizon
|
|
which lay like a line ruled from hillside to hillside. Then they
|
|
rolled down a pass, the chocolate-toned rocks forming a wall on
|
|
both sides, from one of which fell a heavy jagged shade over half
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the roadway. A spout of fresh water burst from an occasional
|
|
crevice, and pattering down upon broad green leaves, ran along as
|
|
a rivulet at the bottom. Unkempt locks of heather overhung the
|
|
brow of each steep, whence at divers points a bramble swung forth
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into mid-air, snatching at their head-dresses like a claw.
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They mounted the last crest, and the bay which was to be the end
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of their pilgrimage burst upon them. The ocean blueness deepened
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its colour as it stretched to the foot of the crags, where it
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|
terminated in a fringe of white--silent at this distance, though
|
|
moving and heaving like a counterpane upon a restless sleeper.
|
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The shadowed hollows of the purple and brown rocks would have been
|
|
called blue had not that tint been so entirely appropriated by the
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water beside them.
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The carriage was put up at a little cottage with a shed attached,
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and an ostler and the coachman carried the hamper of provisions
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down to the shore.
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Knight found his opportunity. 'I did not forget your wish,' he
|
|
began, when they were apart from their friends.
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Elfride looked as if she did not understand.
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'And I have brought you these,' he continued, awkwardly pulling
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|
out the case, and opening it while holding it towards her.
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'O Mr. Knight!' said Elfride confusedly, and turning to a lively
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|
red; 'I didn't know you had any intention or meaning in what you
|
|
said. I thought it a mere supposition. I don't want them.'
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|
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A thought which had flashed into her mind gave the reply a greater
|
|
decisiveness than it might otherwise have possessed. To-morrow
|
|
was the day for Stephen's letter.
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|
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'But will you not accept them?' Knight returned, feeling less her
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|
master than heretofore.
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'I would rather not. They are beautiful--more beautiful than any
|
|
I have ever seen,' she answered earnestly, looking half-wishfully
|
|
at the temptation, as Eve may have looked at the apple. 'But I
|
|
don't want to have them, if you will kindly forgive me, Mr.
|
|
Knight.'
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|
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|
'No kindness at all,' said Mr. Knight, brought to a full stop at
|
|
this unexpected turn of events.
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|
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|
A silence followed. Knight held the open case, looking rather
|
|
wofully at the glittering forms he had forsaken his orbit to
|
|
procure; turning it about and holding it up as if, feeling his
|
|
gift to be slighted by her, he were endeavouring to admire it very
|
|
much himself.
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|
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|
'Shut them up, and don't let me see them any longer--do!' she said
|
|
laughingly, and with a quaint mixture of reluctance and entreaty.
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|
|
|
'Why, Elfie?'
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|
|
|
'Not Elfie to you, Mr. Knight. Oh, because I shall want them.
|
|
There, I am silly, I know, to say that! But I have a reason for
|
|
not taking them--now.' She kept in the last word for a moment,
|
|
intending to imply that her refusal was finite, but somehow the
|
|
word slipped out, and undid all the rest.
|
|
|
|
'You will take them some day?'
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|
|
|
'I don't want to.'
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|
|
|
'Why don't you want to, Elfride Swancourt?'
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|
|
|
'Because I don't. I don't like to take them.'
|
|
|
|
'I have read a fact of distressing significance in that,' said
|
|
Knight. 'Since you like them, your dislike to having them must be
|
|
towards me?'
|
|
|
|
'No, it isn't.'
|
|
|
|
'What, then? Do you like me?'
|
|
|
|
Elfride deepened in tint, and looked into the distance with
|
|
features shaped to an expression of the nicest criticism as
|
|
regarded her answer.
|
|
|
|
'I like you pretty well,' she at length murmured mildly.
|
|
|
|
'Not very much?'
|
|
|
|
'You are so sharp with me, and say hard things, and so how can I?'
|
|
she replied evasively.
|
|
|
|
'You think me a fogey, I suppose?'
|
|
|
|
'No, I don't--I mean I do--I don't know what I think you, I mean.
|
|
Let us go to papa,' responded Elfride, with somewhat of a flurried
|
|
delivery.
|
|
|
|
'Well, I'll tell you my object in getting the present,' said
|
|
Knight, with a composure intended to remove from her mind any
|
|
possible impression of his being what he was--her lover. 'You see
|
|
it was the very least I could do in common civility.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride felt rather blank at this lucid statement.
|
|
|
|
Knight continued, putting away the case: 'I felt as anybody
|
|
naturally would have, you know, that my words on your choice the
|
|
other day were invidious and unfair, and thought an apology should
|
|
take a practical shape.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes.'
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|
|
|
Elfride was sorry--she could not tell why--that he gave such a
|
|
legitimate reason. It was a disappointment that he had all the
|
|
time a cool motive, which might be stated to anybody without
|
|
raising a smile. Had she known they were offered in that spirit,
|
|
she would certainly have accepted the seductive gift. And the
|
|
tantalizing feature was that perhaps he suspected her to imagine
|
|
them offered as a lover's token, which was mortifying enough if
|
|
they were not.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Swancourt came now to where they were sitting, to select a
|
|
flat boulder for spreading their table-cloth upon, and, amid the
|
|
discussion on that subject, the matter pending between Knight and
|
|
Elfride was shelved for a while. He read her refusal so certainly
|
|
as the bashfulness of a girl in a novel position, that, upon the
|
|
whole, he could tolerate such a beginning. Could Knight have been
|
|
told that it was a sense of fidelity struggling against new love,
|
|
whilst no less assuring as to his ultimate victory, it might have
|
|
entirely abstracted the wish to secure it.
|
|
|
|
At the same time a slight constraint of manner was visible between
|
|
them for the remainder of the afternoon. The tide turned, and
|
|
they were obliged to ascend to higher ground. The day glided on
|
|
to its end with the usual quiet dreamy passivity of such
|
|
occasions--when every deed done and thing thought is in
|
|
endeavouring to avoid doing and thinking more. Looking idly over
|
|
the verge of a crag, they beheld their stone dining-table
|
|
gradually being splashed upon and their crumbs and fragments all
|
|
washed away by the incoming sea. The vicar drew a moral lesson
|
|
from the scene; Knight replied in the same satisfied strain. And
|
|
then the waves rolled in furiously--the neutral green-and-blue
|
|
tongues of water slid up the slopes, and were metamorphosed into
|
|
foam by a careless blow, falling back white and faint, and leaving
|
|
trailing followers behind.
|
|
|
|
The passing of a heavy shower was the next scene--driving them to
|
|
shelter in a shallow cave--after which the horses were put in, and
|
|
they started to return homeward. By the time they reached the
|
|
higher levels the sky had again cleared, and the sunset rays
|
|
glanced directly upon the wet uphill road they had climbed. The
|
|
ruts formed by their carriage-wheels on the ascent--a pair of
|
|
Liliputian canals--were as shining bars of gold, tapering to
|
|
nothing in the distance. Upon this also they turned their backs,
|
|
and night spread over the sea.
|
|
|
|
The evening was chilly, and there was no moon. Knight sat close
|
|
to Elfride, and, when the darkness rendered the position of a
|
|
person a matter of uncertainty, particularly close. Elfride edged
|
|
away.
|
|
|
|
'I hope you allow me my place ungrudgingly?' he whispered.
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes; 'tis the least I can do in common civility,' she said,
|
|
accenting the words so that he might recognize them as his own
|
|
returned.
|
|
|
|
Both of them felt delicately balanced between two possibilities.
|
|
Thus they reached home.
|
|
|
|
To Knight this mild experience was delightful. It was to him a
|
|
gentle innocent time--a time which, though there may not be much
|
|
in it, seldom repeats itself in a man's life, and has a peculiar
|
|
dearness when glanced at retrospectively. He is not
|
|
inconveniently deep in love, and is lulled by a peaceful sense of
|
|
being able to enjoy the most trivial thing with a childlike
|
|
enjoyment. The movement of a wave, the colour of a stone,
|
|
anything, was enough for Knight's drowsy thoughts of that day to
|
|
precipitate themselves upon. Even the sermonizing platitudes the
|
|
vicar had delivered himself of--chiefly because something seemed
|
|
to be professionally required of him in the presence of a man of
|
|
Knight's proclivities--were swallowed whole. The presence of
|
|
Elfride led him not merely to tolerate that kind of talk from the
|
|
necessities of ordinary courtesy; but he listened to it--took in
|
|
the ideas with an enjoyable make-believe that they were proper and
|
|
necessary, and indulged in a conservative feeling that the face of
|
|
things was complete.
|
|
|
|
Entering her room that evening Elfride found a packet for herself
|
|
on the dressing-table. How it came there she did not know. She
|
|
tremblingly undid the folds of white paper that covered it. Yes;
|
|
it was the treasure of a morocco case, containing those treasures
|
|
of ornament she had refused in the daytime.
|
|
|
|
Elfride dressed herself in them for a moment, looked at herself in
|
|
the glass, blushed red, and put them away. They filled her dreams
|
|
all that night. Never had she seen anything so lovely, and never
|
|
was it more clear that as an honest woman she was in duty bound to
|
|
refuse them. Why it was not equally clear to her that duty
|
|
required more vigorous co-ordinate conduct as well, let those who
|
|
dissect her say.
|
|
|
|
The next morning glared in like a spectre upon her. It was
|
|
Stephen's letter-day, and she was bound to meet the postman--to
|
|
stealthily do a deed she had never liked, to secure an end she now
|
|
had ceased to desire.
|
|
|
|
But she went.
|
|
|
|
There were two letters.
|
|
|
|
One was from the bank at St. Launce's, in which she had a small
|
|
private deposit--probably something about interest. She put that
|
|
in her pocket for a moment, and going indoors and upstairs to be
|
|
safer from observation, tremblingly opened Stephen's.
|
|
|
|
What was this he said to her?
|
|
|
|
She was to go to the St. Launce's Bank and take a sum of money
|
|
which they had received private advices to pay her.
|
|
|
|
The sum was two hundred pounds.
|
|
|
|
There was no check, order, or anything of the nature of guarantee.
|
|
In fact the information amounted to this: the money was now in the
|
|
St. Launce's Bank, standing in her name.
|
|
|
|
She instantly opened the other letter. It contained a deposit-
|
|
note from the bank for the sum of two hundred pounds which had
|
|
that day been added to her account. Stephen's information, then,
|
|
was correct, and the transfer made.
|
|
|
|
'I have saved this in one year,' Stephen's letter went on to say,
|
|
'and what so proper as well as pleasant for me to do as to hand it
|
|
over to you to keep for your use? I have plenty for myself,
|
|
independently of this. Should you not be disposed to let it lie
|
|
idle in the bank, get your father to invest it in your name on
|
|
good security. It is a little present to you from your more than
|
|
betrothed. He will, I think, Elfride, feel now that my
|
|
pretensions to your hand are anything but the dream of a silly boy
|
|
not worth rational consideration.'
|
|
|
|
With a natural delicacy, Elfride, in mentioning her father's
|
|
marriage, had refrained from all allusion to the pecuniary
|
|
resources of the lady.
|
|
|
|
Leaving this matter-of-fact subject, he went on, somewhat after
|
|
his boyish manner:
|
|
|
|
'Do you remember, darling, that first morning of my arrival at
|
|
your house, when your father read at prayers the miracle of
|
|
healing the sick of the palsy--where he is told to take up his bed
|
|
and walk? I do, and I can now so well realize the force of that
|
|
passage. The smallest piece of mat is the bed of the Oriental,
|
|
and yesterday I saw a native perform the very action, which
|
|
reminded me to mention it. But you are better read than I, and
|
|
perhaps you knew all this long ago....One day I bought some small
|
|
native idols to send home to you as curiosities, but afterwards
|
|
finding they had been cast in England, made to look old, and
|
|
shipped over, I threw them away in disgust.
|
|
|
|
'Speaking of this reminds me that we are obliged to import all our
|
|
house-building ironwork from England. Never was such foresight
|
|
required to be exercised in building houses as here. Before we
|
|
begin, we have to order every column, lock, hinge, and screw that
|
|
will be required. We cannot go into the next street, as in
|
|
London, and get them cast at a minute's notice. Mr. L. says
|
|
somebody will have to go to England very soon and superintend the
|
|
selection of a large order of this kind. I only wish I may be the
|
|
man.'
|
|
|
|
There before her lay the deposit-receipt for the two hundred
|
|
pounds, and beside it the elegant present of Knight. Elfride grew
|
|
cold--then her cheeks felt heated by beating blood. If by
|
|
destroying the piece of paper the whole transaction could have
|
|
been withdrawn from her experience, she would willingly have
|
|
sacrificed the money it represented. She did not know what to do
|
|
in either case. She almost feared to let the two articles lie in
|
|
juxtaposition: so antagonistic were the interests they represented
|
|
that a miraculous repulsion of one by the other was almost to be
|
|
expected.
|
|
|
|
That day she was seen little of. By the evening she had come to a
|
|
resolution, and acted upon it. The packet was sealed up--with a
|
|
tear of regret as she closed the case upon the pretty forms it
|
|
contained--directed, and placed upon the writing-table in Knight's
|
|
room. And a letter was written to Stephen, stating that as yet
|
|
she hardly understood her position with regard to the money sent;
|
|
but declaring that she was ready to fulfil her promise to marry
|
|
him. After this letter had been written she delayed posting it--
|
|
although never ceasing to feel strenuously that the deed must be
|
|
done.
|
|
|
|
Several days passed. There was another Indian letter for Elfride.
|
|
Coming unexpectedly, her father saw it, but made no remark--why,
|
|
she could not tell. The news this time was absolutely
|
|
overwhelming. Stephen, as he had wished, had been actually chosen
|
|
as the most fitting to execute the iron-work commission he had
|
|
alluded to as impending. This duty completed he would have three
|
|
months' leave. His letter continued that he should follow it in a
|
|
week, and should take the opportunity to plainly ask her father to
|
|
permit the engagement. Then came a page expressive of his delight
|
|
and hers at the reunion; and finally, the information that he
|
|
would write to the shipping agents, asking them to telegraph and
|
|
tell her when the ship bringing him home should be in sight--
|
|
knowing how acceptable such information would be.
|
|
|
|
Elfride lived and moved now as in a dream. Knight had at first
|
|
become almost angry at her persistent refusal of his offering--and
|
|
no less with the manner than the fact of it. But he saw that she
|
|
began to look worn and ill--and his vexation lessened to simple
|
|
perplexity.
|
|
|
|
He ceased now to remain in the house for long hours together as
|
|
before, but made it a mere centre for antiquarian and geological
|
|
excursions in the neighbourhood. Throw up his cards and go away
|
|
he fain would have done, but could not. And, thus, availing
|
|
himself of the privileges of a relative, he went in and out the
|
|
premises as fancy led him--but still lingered on.
|
|
|
|
'I don't wish to stay here another day if my presence is
|
|
distasteful,' he said one afternoon. 'At first you used to imply
|
|
that I was severe with you; and when I am kind you treat me
|
|
unfairly.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no. Don't say so.'
|
|
|
|
The origin of their acquaintanceship had been such as to render
|
|
their manner towards each other peculiar and uncommon. It was of
|
|
a kind to cause them to speak out their minds on any feelings of
|
|
objection and difference: to be reticent on gentler matters.
|
|
|
|
'I have a good mind to go away and never trouble you again,'
|
|
continued Knight.
|
|
|
|
She said nothing, but the eloquent expression of her eyes and wan
|
|
face was enough to reproach him for harshness.
|
|
|
|
'Do you like me to be here, then?' inquired Knight gently.
|
|
|
|
'Yes,' she said. Fidelity to the old love and truth to the new
|
|
were ranged on opposite sides, and truth virtuelessly prevailed.
|
|
|
|
'Then I'll stay a little longer,' said Knight.
|
|
|
|
'Don't be vexed if I keep by myself a good deal, will you? Perhaps
|
|
something may happen, and I may tell you something.'
|
|
|
|
'Mere coyness,' said Knight to himself; and went away with a
|
|
lighter heart. The trick of reading truly the enigmatical forces
|
|
at work in women at given times, which with some men is an
|
|
unerring instinct, is peculiar to minds less direct and honest
|
|
than Knight's.
|
|
|
|
The next evening, about five o'clock, before Knight had returned
|
|
from a pilgrimage along the shore, a man walked up to the house.
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He was a messenger from Camelton, a town a few miles off, to which
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place the railway had been advanced during the summer.
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'A telegram for Miss Swancourt, and three and sixpence to pay for
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the special messenger.' Miss Swancourt sent out the money, signed
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the paper, and opened her letter with a trembling hand. She read:
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'Johnson, Liverpool, to Miss Swancourt, Endelstow, near Castle
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Boterel.
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'Amaryllis telegraphed off Holyhead, four o'clock. Expect will
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dock and land passengers at Canning's Basin ten o'clock to-morrow
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morning.'
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Her father called her into the study.
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'Elfride, who sent you that message?' he asked suspiciously.
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'Johnson.'
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'Who is Johnson, for Heaven's sake?'
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'I don't know.'
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'The deuce you don't! Who is to know, then?'
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'I have never heard of him till now.'
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'That's a singular story, isn't it.'
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'I don't know.'
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'Come, come, miss! What was the telegram?'
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'Do you really wish to know, papa?'
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'Well, I do.'
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'Remember, I am a full-grown woman now.'
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'Well, what then?'
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'Being a woman, and not a child, I may, I think, have a secret or
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two.'
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'You will, it seems.'
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'Women have, as a rule.'
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'But don't keep them. So speak out.'
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'If you will not press me now, I give my word to tell you the
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meaning of all this before the week is past.'
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'On your honour?'
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'On my honour.'
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'Very well. I have had a certain suspicion, you know; and I shall
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be glad to find it false. I don't like your manner lately.'
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'At the end of the week, I said, papa.'
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Her father did not reply, and Elfride left the room.
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She began to look out for the postman again. Three mornings later
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he brought an inland letter from Stephen. It contained very
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little matter, having been written in haste; but the meaning was
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bulky enough. Stephen said that, having executed a commission in
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Liverpool, he should arrive at his father's house, East Endelstow,
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at five or six o'clock that same evening; that he would after dusk
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walk on to the next village, and meet her, if she would, in the
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church porch, as in the old time. He proposed this plan because
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he thought it unadvisable to call formally at her house so late in
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the evening; yet he could not sleep without having seen her. The
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minutes would seem hours till he clasped her in his arms.
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Elfride was still steadfast in her opinion that honour compelled
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her to meet him. Probably the very longing to avoid him lent
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additional weight to the conviction; for she was markedly one of
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those who sigh for the unattainable--to whom, superlatively, a
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hope is pleasing because not a possession. And she knew it so
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well that her intellect was inclined to exaggerate this defect in
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herself.
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So during the day she looked her duty steadfastly in the face;
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read Wordsworth's astringent yet depressing ode to that Deity;
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committed herself to her guidance; and still felt the weight of
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chance desires.
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But she began to take a melancholy pleasure in contemplating the
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sacrifice of herself to the man whom a maidenly sense of propriety
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compelled her to regard as her only possible husband. She would
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meet him, and do all that lay in her power to marry him. To guard
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against a relapse, a note was at once despatched to his father's
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cottage for Stephen on his arrival, fixing an hour for the
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interview.
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Chapter XXI
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'On thy cold grey stones, O sea!'
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Stephen had said that he should come by way of Bristol, and thence
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by a steamer to Castle Boterel, in order to avoid the long journey
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over the hills from St. Launce's. He did not know of the
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extension of the railway to Camelton.
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During the afternoon a thought occurred to Elfride, that from any
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cliff along the shore it would be possible to see the steamer some
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hours before its arrival.
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She had accumulated religious force enough to do an act of
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supererogation. The act was this--to go to some point of land and
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watch for the ship that brought her future husband home.
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It was a cloudy afternoon. Elfride was often diverted from a
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purpose by a dull sky; and though she used to persuade herself
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that the weather was as fine as possible on the other side of the
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clouds, she could not bring about any practical result from this
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fancy. Now, her mood was such that the humid sky harmonized with
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it.
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Having ascended and passed over a hill behind the house, Elfride
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came to a small stream. She used it as a guide to the coast. It
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was smaller than that in her own valley, and flowed altogether at
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a higher level. Bushes lined the slopes of its shallow trough;
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but at the bottom, where the water ran, was a soft green carpet,
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in a strip two or three yards wide.
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In winter, the water flowed over the grass; in summer, as now, it
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trickled along a channel in the midst.
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Elfride had a sensation of eyes regarding her from somewhere. She
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turned, and there was Mr. Knight. He had dropped into the valley
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from the side of the hill. She felt a thrill of pleasure, and
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rebelliously allowed it to exist.
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'What utter loneliness to find you in!'
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'I am going to the shore by tracking the stream. I believe it
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empties itself not far off, in a silver thread of water, over a
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cascade of great height.'
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'Why do you load yourself with that heavy telescope?'
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'To look over the sea with it,' she said faintly.
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'I'll carry it for you to your journey's end.' And he took the
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glass from her unresisting hands. 'It cannot be half a mile
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further. See, there is the water.' He pointed to a short fragment
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of level muddy-gray colour, cutting against the sky.
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Elfride had already scanned the small surface of ocean visible,
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and had seen no ship.
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They walked along in company, sometimes with the brook between
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them--for it was no wider than a man's stride--sometimes close
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together. The green carpet grew swampy, and they kept higher up.
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One of the two ridges between which they walked dwindled lower and
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became insignificant. That on the right hand rose with their
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advance, and terminated in a clearly defined edge against the
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light, as if it were abruptly sawn off. A little further, and the
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bed of the rivulet ended in the same fashion.
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They had come to a bank breast-high, and over it the valley was no
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longer to be seen. It was withdrawn cleanly and completely. In
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its place was sky and boundless atmosphere; and perpendicularly
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down beneath them--small and far off--lay the corrugated surface
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of the Atlantic.
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The small stream here found its death. Running over the precipice
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it was dispersed in spray before it was half-way down, and falling
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like rain upon projecting ledges, made minute grassy meadows of
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them. At the bottom the water-drops soaked away amid the debris
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of the cliff. This was the inglorious end of the river.
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'What are you looking for? said Knight, following the direction of
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her eyes.
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She was gazing hard at a black object--nearer to the shore than to
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the horizon--from the summit of which came a nebulous haze,
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stretching like gauze over the sea.
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'The Puffin, a little summer steamboat--from Bristol to Castle
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Boterel,' she said. 'I think that is it--look. Will you give me
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the glass?'
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Knight pulled open the old-fashioned but powerful telescope, and
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handed it to Elfride, who had looked on with heavy eyes.
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'I can't keep it up now,' she said.
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'Rest it on my shoulder.'
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'It is too high.'
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'Under my arm.'
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'Too low. You may look instead,' she murmured weakly.
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Knight raised the glass to his eye, and swept the sea till the
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Puffin entered its field.
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'Yes, it is the Puffin--a tiny craft. I can see her figure-head
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distinctly--a bird with a beak as big as its head.'
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'Can you see the deck?'
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"Wait a minute; yes, pretty clearly. And I can see the black
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forms of the passengers against its white surface. One of them
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has taken something from another--a glass, I think--yes, it is--
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and he is levelling it in this direction. Depend upon it we are
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conspicuous objects against the sky to them. Now, it seems to
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rain upon them, and they put on overcoats and open umbrellas.
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They vanish and go below--all but that one who has borrowed the
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glass. He is a slim young fellow, and still watches us.'
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Elfride grew pale, and shifted her little feet uneasily.
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Knight lowered the glass.
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'I think we had better return,' he said. 'That cloud which is
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raining on them may soon reach us. Why, you look ill. How is
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that?'
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'Something in the air affects my face.'
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'Those fair cheeks are very fastidious, I fear,' returned Knight
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tenderly. 'This air would make those rosy that were never so
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before, one would think--eh, Nature's spoilt child?'
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Elfride's colour returned again.
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'There is more to see behind us, after all,' said Knight.
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She turned her back upon the boat and Stephen Smith, and saw,
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towering still higher than themselves, the vertical face of the
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hill on the right, which did not project seaward so far as the bed
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of the valley, but formed the back of a small cove, and so was
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visible like a concave wall, bending round from their position
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towards the left.
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The composition of the huge hill was revealed to its backbone and
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marrow here at its rent extremity. It consisted of a vast
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stratification of blackish-gray slate, unvaried in its whole
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|
height by a single change of shade.
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It is with cliffs and mountains as with persons; they have what is
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called a presence, which is not necessarily proportionate to their
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|
actual bulk. A little cliff will impress you powerfully; a great
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one not at all. It depends, as with man, upon the countenance of
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the cliff.
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'I cannot bear to look at that cliff,' said Elfride. 'It has a
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horrid personality, and makes me shudder. We will go.'
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'Can you climb?' said Knight. 'If so, we will ascend by that path
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over the grim old fellow's brow.'
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'Try me,' said Elfride disdainfully. 'I have ascended steeper
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slopes than that.'
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From where they had been loitering, a grassy path wound along
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|
inside a bank, placed as a safeguard for unwary pedestrians, to
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the top of the precipice, and over it along the hill in an inland
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|
direction.
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'Take my arm, Miss Swancourt,' said Knight.
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'I can get on better without it, thank you.'
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When they were one quarter of the way up, Elfride stopped to take
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|
breath. Knight stretched out his hand.
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She took it, and they ascended the remaining slope together.
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|
Reaching the very top, they sat down to rest by mutual consent.
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'Heavens, what an altitude!' said Knight between his pants, and
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|
looking far over the sea. The cascade at the bottom of the slope
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|
appeared a mere span in height from where they were now.
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|
Elfride was looking to the left. The steamboat was in full view
|
|
again, and by reason of the vast surface of sea their higher
|
|
position uncovered it seemed almost close to the shore.
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'Over that edge,' said Knight, 'where nothing but vacancy appears,
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|
is a moving compact mass. The wind strikes the face of the rock,
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|
runs up it, rises like a fountain to a height far above our heads,
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|
curls over us in an arch, and disperses behind us. In fact, an
|
|
inverted cascade is there--as perfect as the Niagara Falls--but
|
|
rising instead of falling, and air instead of water. Now look
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|
here.'
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Knight threw a stone over the bank, aiming it as if to go onward
|
|
over the cliff. Reaching the verge, it towered into the air like
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|
a bird, turned back, and alighted on the ground behind them. They
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|
themselves were in a dead calm.
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'A boat crosses Niagara immediately at the foot of the falls,
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where the water is quite still, the fallen mass curving under it.
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We are in precisely the same position with regard to our
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atmospheric cataract here. If you run back from the cliff fifty
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|
yards, you will be in a brisk wind. Now I daresay over the bank
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is a little backward current.'
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Knight rose and leant over the bank. No sooner was his head above
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it than his hat appeared to be sucked from his head--slipping over
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his forehead in a seaward direction.
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'That's the backward eddy, as I told you,' he cried, and vanished
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|
over the little bank after his hat.
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Elfride waited one minute; he did not return. She waited another,
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and there was no sign of him.
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|
A few drops of rain fell, then a sudden shower.
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She arose, and looked over the bank. On the other side were two
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or three yards of level ground--then a short steep preparatory
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|
slope--then the verge of the precipice.
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On the slope was Knight, his hat on his head. He was on his hands
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and knees, trying to climb back to the level ground. The rain had
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|
wetted the shaly surface of the incline. A slight superficial
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wetting of the soil hereabout made it far more slippery to stand
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on than the same soil thoroughly drenched. The inner substance
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was still hard, and was lubricated by the moistened film.
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'I find a difficulty in getting back,' said Knight.
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Elfride's heart fell like lead.
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'But you can get back?' she wildly inquired.
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|
Knight strove with all his might for two or three minutes, and the
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|
drops of perspiration began to bead his brow.
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'No, I am unable to do it,' he answered.
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Elfride, by a wrench of thought, forced away from her mind the
|
|
sensation that Knight was in bodily danger. But attempt to help
|
|
him she must. She ventured upon the treacherous incline, propped
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herself with the closed telescope, and gave him her hand before he
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|
saw her movements.
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'O Elfride! why did you?' said he. 'I am afraid you have only
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|
endangered yourself.'
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And as if to prove his statement, in making an endeavour by her
|
|
assistance they both slipped lower, and then he was again stayed.
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|
His foot was propped by a bracket of quartz rock, balanced on the
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|
verge of the precipice. Fixed by this, he steadied her, her head
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|
being about a foot below the beginning of the slope. Elfride had
|
|
dropped the glass; it rolled to the edge and vanished over it into
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a nether sky.
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'Hold tightly to me,' he said.
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She flung her arms round his neck with such a firm grasp that
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|
whilst he remained it was impossible for her to fall.
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'Don't be flurried,' Knight continued. 'So long as we stay above
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this block we are perfectly safe. Wait a moment whilst I consider
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|
what we had better do.'
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He turned his eyes to the dizzy depths beneath them, and surveyed
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the position of affairs.
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Two glances told him a tale with ghastly distinctness. It was
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that, unless they performed their feat of getting up the slope
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|
with the precision of machines, they were over the edge and
|
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whirling in mid-air.
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For this purpose it was necessary that he should recover the
|
|
breath and strength which his previous efforts had cost him. So
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|
he still waited, and looked in the face of the enemy.
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|
The crest of this terrible natural facade passed among the
|
|
neighbouring inhabitants as being seven hundred feet above the
|
|
water it overhung. It had been proved by actual measurement to be
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|
not a foot less than six hundred and fifty.
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|
That is to say, it is nearly three times the height of
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|
Flamborough, half as high again as the South Foreland, a hundred
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|
feet higher than Beachy Head--the loftiest promontory on the east
|
|
or south side of this island--twice the height of St. Aldhelm's,
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|
thrice as high as the Lizard, and just double the height of St.
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|
Bee's. One sea-bord point on the western coast is known to
|
|
surpass it in altitude, but only by a few feet. This is Great
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|
Orme's Head, in Caernarvonshire.
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|
And it must be remembered that the cliff exhibits an intensifying
|
|
feature which some of those are without--sheer perpendicularity
|
|
from the half-tide level.
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|
Yet this remarkable rampart forms no headland: it rather walls in
|
|
an inlet--the promontory on each side being much lower. Thus, far
|
|
from being salient, its horizontal section is concave. The sea,
|
|
rolling direct from the shores of North America, has in fact eaten
|
|
a chasm into the middle of a hill, and the giant, embayed and
|
|
unobtrusive, stands in the rear of pigmy supporters. Not least
|
|
singularly, neither hill, chasm, nor precipice has a name. On
|
|
this account I will call the precipice the Cliff without a Name.*
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|
* See Preface
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|
What gave an added terror to its height was its blackness. And
|
|
upon this dark face the beating of ten thousand west winds had
|
|
formed a kind of bloom, which had a visual effect not unlike that
|
|
of a Hambro' grape. Moreover it seemed to float off into the
|
|
atmosphere, and inspire terror through the lungs.
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|
'This piece of quartz, supporting my feet, is on the very nose of
|
|
the cliff,' said Knight, breaking the silence after his rigid
|
|
stoical meditation. 'Now what you are to do is this. Clamber up
|
|
my body till your feet are on my shoulders: when you are there you
|
|
will, I think, be able to climb on to level ground.'
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|
'What will you do?'
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|
'Wait whilst you run for assistance.'
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|
'I ought to have done that in the first place, ought I not?'
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|
|
'I was in the act of slipping, and should have reached no stand-
|
|
point without your weight, in all probability. But don't let us
|
|
talk. Be brave, Elfride, and climb.'
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|
|
|
She prepared to ascend, saying, 'This is the moment I anticipated
|
|
when on the tower. I thought it would come!'
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|
|
'This is not a time for superstition,' said Knight. 'Dismiss all
|
|
that.'
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|
'I will,' she said humbly.
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|
|
'Now put your foot into my hand: next the other. That's good--
|
|
well done. Hold to my shoulder.'
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|
|
She placed her feet upon the stirrup he made of his hand, and was
|
|
high enough to get a view of the natural surface of the hill over
|
|
the bank.
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|
|
|
'Can you now climb on to level ground?'
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|
|
|
'I am afraid not. I will try.'
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|
|
'What can you see?'
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|
|
'The sloping common.'
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|
|
|
'What upon it?'
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|
|
'Purple heather and some grass.'
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|
|
'Nothing more--no man or human being of any kind?'
|
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|
'Nobody.'
|
|
|
|
'Now try to get higher in this way. You see that tuft of sea-pink
|
|
above you. Get that well into your hand, but don't trust to it
|
|
entirely. Then step upon my shoulder, and I think you will reach
|
|
the top.'
|
|
|
|
With trembling limbs she did exactly as he told her. The
|
|
preternatural quiet and solemnity of his manner overspread upon
|
|
herself, and gave her a courage not her own. She made a spring
|
|
from the top of his shoulder, and was up.
|
|
|
|
Then she turned to look at him.
|
|
|
|
By an ill fate, the force downwards of her bound, added to his own
|
|
weight, had been too much for the block of quartz upon which his
|
|
feet depended. It was, indeed, originally an igneous protrusion
|
|
into the enormous masses of black strata, which had since been
|
|
worn away from the sides of the alien fragment by centuries of
|
|
frost and rain, and now left it without much support.
|
|
|
|
It moved. Knight seized a tuft of sea-pink with each hand.
|
|
|
|
The quartz rock which had been his salvation was worse than
|
|
useless now. It rolled over, out of sight, and away into the same
|
|
nether sky that had engulfed the telescope.
|
|
|
|
One of the tufts by which he held came out at the root, and Knight
|
|
began to follow the quartz. It was a terrible moment. Elfride
|
|
uttered a low wild wail of agony, bowed her head, and covered her
|
|
face with her hands.
|
|
|
|
Between the turf-covered slope and the gigantic perpendicular rock
|
|
intervened a weather-worn series of jagged edges, forming a face
|
|
yet steeper than the former slope. As he slowly slid inch by inch
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upon these, Knight made a last desperate dash at the lowest tuft
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of vegetation--the last outlying knot of starved herbage ere the
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rock appeared in all its bareness. It arrested his further
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descent. Knight was now literally suspended by his arms; but the
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incline of the brow being what engineers would call about a
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quarter in one, it was sufficient to relieve his arms of a portion
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of his weight, but was very far from offering an adequately flat
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face to support him.
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In spite of this dreadful tension of body and mind, Knight found
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time for a moment of thankfulness. Elfride was safe.
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She lay on her side above him--her fingers clasped. Seeing him
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again steady, she jumped upon her feet.
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'Now, if I can only save you by running for help!' she cried.
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'Oh, I would have died instead! Why did you try so hard to deliver
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me?' And she turned away wildly to run for assistance.
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'Elfride, how long will it take you to run to Endelstow and back?'
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'Three-quarters of an hour.'
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'That won't do; my hands will not hold out ten minutes. And is
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there nobody nearer?'
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'No; unless a chance passer may happen to be.'
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'He would have nothing with him that could save me. Is there a
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pole or stick of any kind on the common?'
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She gazed around. The common was bare of everything but heather
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and grass.
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A minute--perhaps more time--was passed in mute thought by both.
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On a sudden the blank and helpless agony left her face. She
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vanished over the bank from his sight.
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Knight felt himself in the presence of a personalized lonliness.
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Chapter XXII
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'A woman's way.'
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Haggard cliffs, of every ugly altitude, are as common as sea-fowl
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along the line of coast between Exmoor and Land's End; but this
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outflanked and encompassed specimen was the ugliest of them all.
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Their summits are not safe places for scientific experiment on the
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principles of air-currents, as Knight had now found, to his
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dismay.
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He still clutched the face of the escarpment--not with the
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frenzied hold of despair, but with a dogged determination to make
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the most of his every jot of endurance, and so give the longest
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possible scope to Elfride's intentions, whatever they might be.
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He reclined hand in hand with the world in its infancy. Not a
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blade, not an insect, which spoke of the present, was between him
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and the past. The inveterate antagonism of these black precipices
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to all strugglers for life is in no way more forcibly suggested
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than by the paucity of tufts of grass, lichens, or confervae on
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their outermost ledges.
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Knight pondered on the meaning of Elfride's hasty disappearance,
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but could not avoid an instinctive conclusion that there existed
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but a doubtful hope for him. As far as he could judge, his sole
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chance of deliverance lay in the possibility of a rope or pole
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being brought; and this possibility was remote indeed. The soil
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upon these high downs was left so untended that they were
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unenclosed for miles, except by a casual bank or dry wall, and
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were rarely visited but for the purpose of collecting or counting
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the flock which found a scanty means of subsistence thereon.
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At first, when death appeared improbable, because it had never
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visited him before, Knight could think of no future, nor of
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anything connected with his past. He could only look sternly at
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Nature's treacherous attempt to put an end to him, and strive to
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thwart her.
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From the fact that the cliff formed the inner face of the segment
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of a huge cylinder, having the sky for a top and the sea for a
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bottom, which enclosed the cove to the extent of more than a
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semicircle, he could see the vertical face curving round on each
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side of him. He looked far down the facade, and realized more
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thoroughly how it threatened him. Grimness was in every feature,
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and to its very bowels the inimical shape was desolation.
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By one of those familiar conjunctions of things wherewith the
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inanimate world baits the mind of man when he pauses in moments of
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suspense, opposite Knight's eyes was an imbedded fossil, standing
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forth in low relief from the rock. It was a creature with eyes.
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The eyes, dead and turned to stone, were even now regarding him.
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It was one of the early crustaceans called Trilobites. Separated
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by millions of years in their lives, Knight and this underling
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seemed to have met in their death. It was the single instance
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within reach of his vision of anything that had ever been alive
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and had had a body to save, as he himself had now.
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The creature represented but a low type of animal existence, for
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never in their vernal years had the plains indicated by those
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numberless slaty layers been traversed by an intelligence worthy
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of the name. Zoophytes, mollusca, shell-fish, were the highest
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developments of those ancient dates. The immense lapses of time
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each formation represented had known nothing of the dignity of
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man. They were grand times, but they were mean times too, and
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mean were their relics. He was to be with the small in his death.
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Knight was a geologist; and such is the supremacy of habit over
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occasion, as a pioneer of the thoughts of men, that at this
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dreadful juncture his mind found time to take in, by a momentary
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sweep, the varied scenes that had had their day between this
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creature's epoch and his own. There is no place like a cleft
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landscape for bringing home such imaginings as these.
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Time closed up like a fan before him. He saw himself at one
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extremity of the years, face to face with the beginning and all
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the intermediate centuries simultaneously. Fierce men, clothed in
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the hides of beasts, and carrying, for defence and attack, huge
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clubs and pointed spears, rose from the rock, like the phantoms
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before the doomed Macbeth. They lived in hollows, woods, and mud
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huts--perhaps in caves of the neighbouring rocks. Behind them
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stood an earlier band. No man was there. Huge elephantine forms,
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the mastodon, the hippopotamus, the tapir, antelopes of monstrous
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size, the megatherium, and the myledon--all, for the moment, in
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juxtaposition. Further back, and overlapped by these, were
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perched huge-billed birds and swinish creatures as large as
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horses. Still more shadowy were the sinister crocodilian
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outlines--alligators and other uncouth shapes, culminating in the
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colossal lizard, the iguanodon. Folded behind were dragon forms
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and clouds of flying reptiles: still underneath were fishy beings
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of lower development; and so on, till the lifetime scenes of the
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fossil confronting him were a present and modern condition of
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things. These images passed before Knight's inner eye in less
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than half a minute, and he was again considering the actual
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present. Was he to die? The mental picture of Elfride in the
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world, without himself to cherish her, smote his heart like a
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whip. He had hoped for deliverance, but what could a girl do? He
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dared not move an inch. Was Death really stretching out his hand?
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The previous sensation, that it was improbable he would die, was
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fainter now.
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However, Knight still clung to the cliff.
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To those musing weather-beaten West-country folk who pass the
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greater part of their days and nights out of doors, Nature seems
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to have moods in other than a poetical sense: predilections for
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certain deeds at certain times, without any apparent law to govern
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or season to account for them. She is read as a person with a
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curious temper; as one who does not scatter kindnesses and
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cruelties alternately, impartially, and in order, but heartless
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severities or overwhelming generosities in lawless caprice. Man's
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case is always that of the prodigal's favourite or the miser's
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pensioner. In her unfriendly moments there seems a feline fun in
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her tricks, begotten by a foretaste of her pleasure in swallowing
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the victim.
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Such a way of thinking had been absurd to Knight, but he began to
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adopt it now. He was first spitted on to a rock. New tortures
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followed. The rain increased, and persecuted him with an
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exceptional persistency which he was moved to believe owed its
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|
cause to the fact that he was in such a wretched state already.
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An entirely new order of things could be observed in this
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introduction of rain upon the scene. It rained upwards instead of
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down. The strong ascending air carried the rain-drops with it in
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|
its race up the escarpment, coming to him with such velocity that
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they stuck into his flesh like cold needles. Each drop was
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|
virtually a shaft, and it pierced him to his skin. The water-
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shafts seemed to lift him on their points: no downward rain ever
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|
had such a torturing effect. In a brief space he was drenched,
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except in two places. These were on the top of his shoulders and
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on the crown of his hat.
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The wind, though not intense in other situations was strong here.
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It tugged at his coat and lifted it. We are mostly accustomed to
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look upon all opposition which is not animate, as that of the
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stolid, inexorable hand of indifference, which wears out the
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patience more than the strength. Here, at any rate, hostility did
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not assume that slow and sickening form. It was a cosmic agency,
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active, lashing, eager for conquest: determination; not an
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insensate standing in the way.
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Knight had over-estimated the strength of his hands. They were
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|
getting weak already. 'She will never come again; she has been
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|
gone ten minutes,' he said to himself.
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This mistake arose from the unusual compression of his experiences
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just now: she had really been gone but three.
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'As many more minutes will be my end,' he thought.
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|
Next came another instance of the incapacity of the mind to make
|
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comparisons at such times.
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'This is a summer afternoon,' he said, 'and there can never have
|
|
been such a heavy and cold rain on a summer day in my life
|
|
before.'
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He was again mistaken. The rain was quite ordinary in quantity;
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|
the air in temperature. It was, as is usual, the menacing
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attitude in which they approached him that magnified their powers.
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|
He again looked straight downwards, the wind and the water-dashes
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|
lifting his moustache, scudding up his cheeks, under his eyelids,
|
|
and into his eyes. This is what he saw down there: the surface of
|
|
the sea--visually just past his toes, and under his feet; actually
|
|
one-eighth of a mile, or more than two hundred yards, below them.
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|
We colour according to our moods the objects we survey. The sea
|
|
would have been a deep neutral blue, had happier auspices attended
|
|
the gazer it was now no otherwise than distinctly black to his
|
|
vision. That narrow white border was foam, he knew well; but its
|
|
boisterous tosses were so distant as to appear a pulsation only,
|
|
and its plashing was barely audible. A white border to a black
|
|
sea--his funeral pall and its edging.
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|
The world was to some extent turned upside down for him. Rain
|
|
descended from below. Beneath his feet was aerial space and the
|
|
unknown; above him was the firm, familiar ground, and upon it all
|
|
that he loved best.
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|
Pitiless nature had then two voices, and two only. The nearer was
|
|
the voice of the wind in his ears rising and falling as it mauled
|
|
and thrust him hard or softly. The second and distant one was the
|
|
moan of that unplummetted ocean below and afar--rubbing its
|
|
restless flank against the Cliff without a Name.
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|
Knight perseveringly held fast. Had he any faith in Elfride?
|
|
Perhaps. Love is faith, and faith, like a gathered flower, will
|
|
rootlessly live on.
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|
|
|
Nobody would have expected the sun to shine on such an evening as
|
|
this. Yet it appeared, low down upon the sea. Not with its
|
|
natural golden fringe, sweeping the furthest ends of the
|
|
landscape, not with the strange glare of whiteness which it
|
|
sometimes puts on as an alternative to colour, but as a splotch of
|
|
vermilion red upon a leaden ground--a red face looking on with a
|
|
drunken leer.
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|
Most men who have brains know it, and few are so foolish as to
|
|
disguise this fact from themselves or others, even though an
|
|
ostentatious display may be called self-conceit. Knight, without
|
|
showing it much, knew that his intellect was above the average.
|
|
And he thought--he could not help thinking--that his death would
|
|
be a deliberate loss to earth of good material; that such an
|
|
experiment in killing might have been practised upon some less
|
|
developed life.
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|
|
|
A fancy some people hold, when in a bitter mood, is that
|
|
inexorable circumstance only tries to prevent what intelligence
|
|
attempts. Renounce a desire for a long-contested position, and go
|
|
on another tack, and after a while the prize is thrown at you,
|
|
seemingly in disappointment that no more tantalizing is possible.
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|
Knight gave up thoughts of life utterly and entirely, and turned
|
|
to contemplate the Dark Valley and the unknown future beyond.
|
|
Into the shadowy depths of these speculations we will not follow
|
|
him. Let it suffice to state what ensued.
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|
At that moment of taking no more thought for this life, something
|
|
disturbed the outline of the bank above him. A spot appeared. It
|
|
was the head of Elfride.
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|
|
Knight immediately prepared to welcome life again.
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|
The expression of a face consigned to utter loneliness, when a
|
|
friend first looks in upon it, is moving in the extreme. In
|
|
rowing seaward to a light-ship or sea-girt lighthouse, where,
|
|
without any immediate terror of death, the inmates experience the
|
|
gloom of monotonous seclusion, the grateful eloquence of their
|
|
countenances at the greeting, expressive of thankfulness for the
|
|
visit, is enough to stir the emotions of the most careless
|
|
observer.
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|
|
|
Knight's upward look at Elfride was of a nature with, but far
|
|
transcending, such an instance as this. The lines of his face had
|
|
deepened to furrows, and every one of them thanked her visibly.
|
|
His lips moved to the word 'Elfride,' though the emotion evolved
|
|
no sound. His eyes passed all description in their combination of
|
|
the whole diapason of eloquence, from lover's deep love to fellow-
|
|
man's gratitude for a token of remembrance from one of his kind.
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|
|
Elfride had come back. What she had come to do he did not know.
|
|
She could only look on at his death, perhaps. Still, she had come
|
|
back, and not deserted him utterly, and it was much.
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|
|
It was a novelty in the extreme to see Henry Knight, to whom
|
|
Elfride was but a child, who had swayed her as a tree sways a
|
|
bird's nest, who mastered her and made her weep most bitterly at
|
|
her own insignificance, thus thankful for a sight of her face.
|
|
She looked down upon him, her face glistening with rain and tears.
|
|
He smiled faintly.
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|
|
'How calm he is!' she thought. 'How great and noble he is to be
|
|
so calm!' She would have died ten times for him then.
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|
|
The gliding form of the steamboat caught her eye: she heeded it no
|
|
longer.
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|
|
'How much longer can you wait?' came from her pale lips and along
|
|
the wind to his position.
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|
|
'Four minutes,' said Knight in a weaker voice than her own.
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|
|
'But with a good hope of being saved?'
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|
|
'Seven or eight.'
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|
|
He now noticed that in her arms she bore a bundle of white linen,
|
|
and that her form was singularly attenuated. So preternaturally
|
|
thin and flexible was Elfride at this moment, that she appeared to
|
|
bend under the light blows of the rain-shafts, as they struck into
|
|
her sides and bosom, and splintered into spray on her face. There
|
|
is nothing like a thorough drenching for reducing the
|
|
protuberances of clothes, but Elfride's seemed to cling to her
|
|
like a glove.
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|
|
|
Without heeding the attack of the clouds further than by raising
|
|
her hand and wiping away the spirts of rain when they went more
|
|
particularly into her eyes, she sat down and hurriedly began
|
|
rending the linen into strips. These she knotted end to end, and
|
|
afterwards twisted them like the strands of a cord. In a short
|
|
space of time she had formed a perfect rope by this means, six or
|
|
seven yards long.
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|
|
'Can you wait while I bind it?' she said, anxiously extending her
|
|
gaze down to him.
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|
|
'Yes, if not very long. Hope has given me a wonderful instalment
|
|
of strength.'
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|
|
Elfride dropped her eyes again, tore the remaining material into
|
|
narrow tape-like ligaments, knotted each to each as before, but on
|
|
a smaller scale, and wound the lengthy string she had thus formed
|
|
round and round the linen rope, which, without this binding, had a
|
|
tendency to spread abroad.
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|
|
'Now,' said Knight, who, watching the proceedings intently, had by
|
|
this time not only grasped her scheme, but reasoned further on, 'I
|
|
can hold three minutes longer yet. And do you use the time in
|
|
testing the strength of the knots, one by one.'
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|
|
|
She at once obeyed, tested each singly by putting her foot on the
|
|
rope between each knot, and pulling with her hands. One of the
|
|
knots slipped.
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|
|
'Oh, think! It would have broken but for your forethought,'
|
|
Elfride exclaimed apprehensively.
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|
|
She retied the two ends. The rope was now firm in every part.
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|
|
'When you have let it down,' said Knight, already resuming his
|
|
position of ruling power, 'go back from the edge of the slope, and
|
|
over the bank as far as the rope will allow you. Then lean down,
|
|
and hold the end with both hands.'
|
|
|
|
He had first thought of a safer plan for his own deliverance, but
|
|
it involved the disadvantage of possibly endangering her life.
|
|
|
|
'I have tied it round my waist,' she cried, 'and I will lean
|
|
directly upon the bank, holding with my hands as well.'
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|
|
It was the arrangement he had thought of, but would not suggest.
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|
|
|
'I will raise and drop it three times when I am behind the bank,'
|
|
she continued, 'to signify that I am ready. Take care, oh, take
|
|
the greatest care, I beg you!'
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|
|
|
She dropped the rope over him, to learn how much of its length it
|
|
would be necessary to expend on that side of the bank, went back,
|
|
and disappeared as she had done before.
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|
|
The rope was trailing by Knight's shoulders. In a few moments it
|
|
twitched three times.
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|
|
He waited yet a second or two, then laid hold.
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|
|
|
The incline of this upper portion of the precipice, to the length
|
|
only of a few feet, useless to a climber empty-handed, was
|
|
invaluable now. Not more than half his weight depended entirely
|
|
on the linen rope. Half a dozen extensions of the arms,
|
|
alternating with half a dozen seizures of the rope with his feet,
|
|
brought him up to the level of the soil.
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|
|
He was saved, and by Elfride.
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|
|
|
He extended his cramped limbs like an awakened sleeper, and sprang
|
|
over the bank.
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|
|
|
At sight of him she leapt to her feet with almost a shriek of joy.
|
|
Knight's eyes met hers, and with supreme eloquence the glance of
|
|
each told a long-concealed tale of emotion in that short half-
|
|
moment. Moved by an impulse neither could resist, they ran
|
|
together and into each other's arms.
|
|
|
|
At the moment of embracing, Elfride's eyes involuntarily flashed
|
|
towards the Puffin steamboat. It had doubled the point, and was
|
|
no longer to be seen.
|
|
|
|
An overwhelming rush of exultation at having delivered the man she
|
|
revered from one of the most terrible forms of death, shook the
|
|
gentle girl to the centre of her soul. It merged in a defiance of
|
|
duty to Stephen, and a total recklessness as to plighted faith.
|
|
Every nerve of her will was now in entire subjection to her
|
|
feeling--volition as a guiding power had forsaken her. To remain
|
|
passive, as she remained now, encircled by his arms, was a
|
|
sufficiently complete result--a glorious crown to all the years of
|
|
her life. Perhaps he was only grateful, and did not love her. No
|
|
matter: it was infinitely more to be even the slave of the greater
|
|
than the queen of the less. Some such sensation as this, though
|
|
it was not recognized as a finished thought, raced along the
|
|
impressionable soul of Elfride.
|
|
|
|
Regarding their attitude, it was impossible for two persons to go
|
|
nearer to a kiss than went Knight and Elfride during those minutes
|
|
of impulsive embrace in the pelting rain. Yet they did not kiss.
|
|
Knight's peculiarity of nature was such that it would not allow
|
|
him to take advantage of the unguarded and passionate avowal she
|
|
had tacitly made.
|
|
|
|
Elfride recovered herself, and gently struggled to be free.
|
|
|
|
He reluctantly relinquished her, and then surveyed her from crown
|
|
to toe. She seemed as small as an infant. He perceived whence
|
|
she had obtained the rope.
|
|
|
|
'Elfride, my Elfride!' he exclaimed in gratified amazement.
|
|
|
|
'I must leave you now,' she said, her face doubling its red, with
|
|
an expression between gladness and shame 'You follow me, but at
|
|
some distance.'
|
|
|
|
'The rain and wind pierce you through; the chill will kill you.
|
|
God bless you for such devotion! Take my coat and put it on.'
|
|
|
|
'No; I shall get warm running.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride had absolutely nothing between her and the weather but her
|
|
exterior robe or 'costume.' The door had been made upon a woman's
|
|
wit, and it had found its way out. Behind the bank, whilst Knight
|
|
reclined upon the dizzy slope waiting for death, she had taken off
|
|
her whole clothing, and replaced only her outer bodice and skirt.
|
|
Every thread of the remainder lay upon the ground in the form of a
|
|
woollen and cotton rope.
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|
|
|
'I am used to being wet through,' she added. 'I have been
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drenched on Pansy dozens of times. Good-bye till we meet, clothed
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and in our right minds, by the fireside at home!'
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She then ran off from him through the pelting rain like a hare; or
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more like a pheasant when, scampering away with a lowered tail, it
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has a mind to fly, but does not. Elfride was soon out of sight.
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Knight felt uncomfortably wet and chilled, but glowing with
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fervour nevertheless. He fully appreciated Elfride's girlish
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delicacy in refusing his escort in the meagre habiliments she
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wore, yet felt that necessary abstraction of herself for a short
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half-hour as a most grievous loss to him.
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He gathered up her knotted and twisted plumage of linen, lace, and
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embroidery work, and laid it across his arm. He noticed on the
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ground an envelope, limp and wet. In endeavouring to restore this
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to its proper shape, he loosened from the envelope a piece of
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paper it had contained, which was seized by the wind in falling
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from Knight's hand. It was blown to the right, blown to the left--
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it floated to the edge of the cliff and over the sea, where it
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was hurled aloft. It twirled in the air, and then flew back over
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his head.
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Knight followed the paper, and secured it. Having done so, he
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looked to discover if it had been worth securing.
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The troublesome sheet was a banker's receipt for two hundred
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pounds, placed to the credit of Miss Swancourt, which the
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impractical girl had totally forgotten she carried with her.
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Knight folded it as carefully as its moist condition would allow,
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put it in his pocket, and followed Elfride.
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Chapter XXIII
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'Should auld acquaintance be forgot?'
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By this time Stephen Smith had stepped out upon the quay at Castle
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Boterel, and breathed his native air.
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A darker skin, a more pronounced moustache, and an incipient
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beard, were the chief additions and changes noticeable in his
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appearance.
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In spite of the falling rain, which had somewhat lessened, he took
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a small valise in his hand, and, leaving the remainder of his
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luggage at the inn, ascended the hills towards East Endelstow.
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This place lay in a vale of its own, further inland than the west
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village, and though so near it, had little of physical feature in
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common with the latter. East Endelstow was more wooded and
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fertile: it boasted of Lord Luxellian's mansion and park, and was
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free from those bleak open uplands which lent such an air of
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desolation to the vicinage of the coast--always excepting the
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small valley in which stood the vicarage and Mrs. Swancourt's old
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house, The Crags.
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Stephen had arrived nearly at the summit of the ridge when the
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rain again increased its volume, and, looking about for temporary
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shelter, he ascended a steep path which penetrated dense hazel
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bushes in the lower part of its course. Further up it emerged
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upon a ledge immediately over the turnpike-road, and sheltered by
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an overhanging face of rubble rock, with bushes above. For a
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reason of his own he made this spot his refuge from the storm, and
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turning his face to the left, conned the landscape as a book.
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He was overlooking the valley containing Elfride's residence.
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From this point of observation the prospect exhibited the
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peculiarity of being either brilliant foreground or the subdued
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tone of distance, a sudden dip in the surface of the country
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lowering out of sight all the intermediate prospect. In apparent
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contact with the trees and bushes growing close beside him
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appeared the distant tract, terminated suddenly by the brink of
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the series of cliffs which culminated in the tall giant without a
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name--small and unimportant as here beheld. A leaf on a bough at
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Stephen's elbow blotted out a whole hill in the contrasting
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district far away; a green bunch of nuts covered a complete upland
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there, and the great cliff itself was outvied by a pigmy crag in
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the bank hard by him. Stephen had looked upon these things
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hundreds of times before to-day, but he had never viewed them with
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such tenderness as now.
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Stepping forward in this direction yet a little further, he could
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see the tower of West Endelstow Church, beneath which he was to
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meet his Elfride that night. And at the same time he noticed,
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coming over the hill from the cliffs, a white speck in motion. It
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seemed first to be a sea-gull flying low, but ultimately proved to
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be a human figure, running with great rapidity. The form flitted
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on, heedless of the rain which had caused Stephen's halt in this
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place, dropped down the heathery hill, entered the vale, and was
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out of sight.
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Whilst he meditated upon the meaning of this phenomenon, he was
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surprised to see swim into his ken from the same point of
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departure another moving speck, as different from the first as
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well could be, insomuch that it was perceptible only by its
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blackness. Slowly and regularly it took the same course, and
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there was not much doubt that this was the form of a man. He,
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too, gradually descended from the upper levels, and was lost in
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the valley below.
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The rain had by this time again abated, and Stephen returned to
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the road. Looking ahead, he saw two men and a cart. They were
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soon obscured by the intervention of a high hedge. Just before
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they emerged again he heard voices in conversation.
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''A must soon be in the naibourhood, too, if so be he's a-coming,'
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said a tenor tongue, which Stephen instantly recognized as Martin
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Cannister's.
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''A must 'a b'lieve,' said another voice--that of Stephen's
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father.
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Stephen stepped forward, and came before them face to face. His
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father and Martin were walking, dressed in their second best
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suits, and beside them rambled along a grizzel horse and brightly
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painted spring-cart.
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'All right, Mr. Cannister; here's the lost man!' exclaimed young
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Smith, entering at once upon the old style of greeting. 'Father,
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here I am.'
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'All right, my sonny; and glad I be for't!' returned John Smith,
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overjoyed to see the young man. 'How be ye? Well, come along
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home, and don't let's bide out here in the damp. Such weather
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must be terrible bad for a young chap just come from a fiery
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nation like Indy; hey, naibour Cannister?'
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'Trew, trew. And about getting home his traps? Boxes, monstrous
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bales, and noble packages of foreign description, I make no
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doubt?'
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'Hardly all that,' said Stephen laughing.
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'We brought the cart, maning to go right on to Castle Boterel
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afore ye landed,' said his father. '"Put in the horse," says
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Martin. "Ay," says I, "so we will;" and did it straightway. Now,
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maybe, Martin had better go on wi' the cart for the things, and
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you and I walk home-along.'
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'And I shall be back a'most as soon as you. Peggy is a pretty
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step still, though time d' begin to tell upon her as upon the rest
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o' us.'
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Stephen told Martin where to find his baggage, and then continued
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his journey homeward in the company of his father.
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'Owing to your coming a day sooner than we first expected,' said
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John, 'you'll find us in a turk of a mess, sir--"sir," says I to
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my own son! but ye've gone up so, Stephen. We've killed the pig
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this morning for ye, thinking ye'd be hungry, and glad of a morsel
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of fresh mate. And 'a won't be cut up till to-night. However, we
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can make ye a good supper of fry, which will chaw up well wi' a
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dab o' mustard and a few nice new taters, and a drop of shilling
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ale to wash it down. Your mother have scrubbed the house through
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because ye were coming, and dusted all the chimmer furniture, and
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bought a new basin and jug of a travelling crockery-woman that
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came to our door, and scoured the cannel-sticks, and claned the
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winders! Ay, I don't know what 'a ha'n't a done. Never were such
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a steer, 'a b'lieve.'
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Conversation of this kind and inquiries of Stephen for his
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mother's wellbeing occupied them for the remainder of the journey.
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When they drew near the river, and the cottage behind it, they
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could hear the master-mason's clock striking off the bygone hours
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of the day at intervals of a quarter of a minute, during which
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intervals Stephen's imagination readily pictured his mother's
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forefinger wandering round the dial in company with the minute-
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hand.
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'The clock stopped this morning, and your mother in putting en
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right seemingly,' said his father in an explanatory tone; and they
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went up the garden to the door.
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When they had entered, and Stephen had dutifully and warmly
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greeted his mother--who appeared in a cotton dress of a dark-blue
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ground, covered broadcast with a multitude of new and full moons,
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stars, and planets, with an occasional dash of a comet-like aspect
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to diversify the scene--the crackle of cart-wheels was heard
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outside, and Martin Cannister stamped in at the doorway, in the
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form of a pair of legs beneath a great box, his body being nowhere
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visible. When the luggage had been all taken down, and Stephen
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had gone upstairs to change his clothes, Mrs. Smith's mind seemed
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to recover a lost thread.
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'Really our clock is not worth a penny,' she said, turning to it
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and attempting to start the pendulum.
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'Stopped again?' inquired Martin with commiseration.
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'Yes, sure,' replied Mrs. Smith; and continued after the manner of
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certain matrons, to whose tongues the harmony of a subject with a
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casual mood is a greater recommendation than its pertinence to the
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occasion, 'John would spend pounds a year upon the jimcrack old
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thing, if he might, in having it claned, when at the same time you
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may doctor it yourself as well. "The clock's stopped again,
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John," I say to him. "Better have en claned," says he. There's
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five shillings. "That clock grinds again," I say to en. "Better
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have en claned," 'a says again. "That clock strikes wrong, John,"
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says I. "Better have en claned," he goes on. The wheels would
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have been polished to skeletons by this time if I had listened to
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en, and I assure you we could have bought a chainey-faced beauty
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wi' the good money we've flung away these last ten years upon this
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old green-faced mortal. And, Martin, you must be wet. My son is
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gone up to change. John is damper than I should like to be, but
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'a calls it nothing. Some of Mrs. Swancourt's servants have been
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here--they ran in out of the rain when going for a walk--and I
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assure you the state of their bonnets was frightful.'
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'How's the folks? We've been over to Castle Boterel, and what wi'
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running and stopping out of the storms, my poor head is beyond
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everything! fizz, fizz fizz; 'tis frying o' fish from morning to
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|
night,' said a cracked voice in the doorway at this instant.
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'Lord so's, who's that?' said Mrs. Smith, in a private
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exclamation, and turning round saw William Worm, endeavouring to
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make himself look passing civil and friendly by overspreading his
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|
face with a large smile that seemed to have no connection with the
|
|
humour he was in. Behind him stood a woman about twice his size,
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|
with a large umbrella over her head. This was Mrs. Worm,
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William's wife.
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'Come in, William,' said John Smith. 'We don't kill a pig every
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|
day. And you, likewise, Mrs. Worm. I make ye welcome. Since ye
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|
left Parson Swancourt, William, I don't see much of 'ee.'
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'No, for to tell the truth, since I took to the turn-pike-gate
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|
line, I've been out but little, coming to church o' Sundays not
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|
being my duty now, as 'twas in a parson's family, you see.
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|
However, our boy is able to mind the gate now, and I said, says I,
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|
"Barbara, let's call and see John Smith."'
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'I am sorry to hear yer pore head is so bad still.'
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'Ay, I assure you that frying o' fish is going on for nights and
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days. And, you know, sometimes 'tisn't only fish, but rashers o'
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bacon and inions. Ay, I can hear the fat pop and fizz as nateral
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as life; can't I, Barbara?'
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Mrs. Worm, who had been all this time engaged in closing her
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umbrella, corroborated this statement, and now, coming indoors,
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|
showed herself to be a wide-faced, comfortable-looking woman, with
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a wart upon her cheek, bearing a small tuft of hair in its centre.
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'Have ye ever tried anything to cure yer noise, Maister Worm?'
|
|
inquired Martin Cannister.
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'Oh ay; bless ye, I've tried everything. Ay, Providence is a
|
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merciful man, and I have hoped He'd have found it out by this
|
|
time, living so many years in a parson's family, too, as I have,
|
|
but 'a don't seem to relieve me. Ay, I be a poor wambling man,
|
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and life's a mint o' trouble!'
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'True, mournful true, William Worm. 'Tis so. The world wants
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looking to, or 'tis all sixes and sevens wi' us.'
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'Take your things off, Mrs. Worm,' said Mrs. Smith. 'We be rather
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in a muddle, to tell the truth, for my son is just dropped in from
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Indy a day sooner than we expected, and the pig-killer is coming
|
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presently to cut up.'
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Mrs. Barbara Worm, not wishing to take any mean advantage of
|
|
persons in a muddle by observing them, removed her bonnet and
|
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mantle with eyes fixed upon the flowers in the plot outside the
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|
door.
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'What beautiful tiger-lilies!' said Mrs. Worm.
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'Yes, they be very well, but such a trouble to me on account of
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the children that come here. They will go eating the berries on
|
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the stem, and call 'em currants. Taste wi' junivals is quite
|
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fancy, really.'
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'And your snapdragons look as fierce as ever.'
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'Well, really,' answered Mrs. Smith, entering didactically into
|
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the subject, 'they are more like Christians than flowers. But
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|
they make up well enough wi' the rest, and don't require much
|
|
tending. And the same can be said o' these miller's wheels. 'Tis
|
|
a flower I like very much, though so simple. John says he never
|
|
cares about the flowers o' 'em, but men have no eye for anything
|
|
neat. He says his favourite flower is a cauliflower. And I
|
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assure you I tremble in the springtime, for 'tis perfect murder.'
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'You don't say so, Mrs. Smith!'
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'John digs round the roots, you know. In goes his blundering
|
|
spade, through roots, bulbs, everything that hasn't got a good
|
|
show above ground, turning 'em up cut all to slices. Only the
|
|
very last fall I went to move some tulips, when I found every bulb
|
|
upside down, and the stems crooked round. He had turned 'em over
|
|
in the spring, and the cunning creatures had soon found that
|
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heaven was not where it used to be.'
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'What's that long-favoured flower under the hedge?'
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'They? O Lord, they are the horrid Jacob's ladders! Instead of
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|
praising 'em, I be mad wi' 'em for being so ready to bide where
|
|
they are not wanted. They be very well in their way, but I do not
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|
care for things that neglect won't kill. Do what I will, dig,
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drag, scrap, pull, I get too many of 'em. I chop the roots: up
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they'll come, treble strong. Throw 'em over hedge; there they'll
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grow, staring me in the face like a hungry dog driven away, and
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|
creep back again in a week or two the same as before. 'Tis
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Jacob's ladder here, Jacob's ladder there, and plant 'em where
|
|
nothing in the world will grow, you get crowds of 'em in a month
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|
or two. John made a new manure mixen last summer, and he said,
|
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"Maria, now if you've got any flowers or such like, that you don't
|
|
want, you may plant 'em round my mixen so as to hide it a bit,
|
|
though 'tis not likely anything of much value will grow there." I
|
|
thought, "There's them Jacob's ladders; I'll put them there, since
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they can't do harm in such a place; "and I planted the Jacob's
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ladders sure enough. They growed, and they growed, in the mixen
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and out of the mixen, all over the litter, covering it quite up.
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When John wanted to use it about the garden, 'a said, "Nation
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seize them Jacob's ladders of yours, Maria! They've eat the
|
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goodness out of every morsel of my manure, so that 'tis no better
|
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than sand itself!" Sure enough the hungry mortals had. 'Tis my
|
|
belief that in the secret souls o' 'em, Jacob's ladders be weeds,
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and not flowers at all, if the truth was known.'
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Robert Lickpan, pig-killer and carrier, arrived at this moment.
|
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The fatted animal hanging in the back kitchen was cleft down the
|
|
middle of its backbone, Mrs. Smith being meanwhile engaged in
|
|
cooking supper.
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Between the cutting and chopping, ale was handed round, and Worm
|
|
and the pig-killer listened to John Smith's description of the
|
|
meeting with Stephen, with eyes blankly fixed upon the table-
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cloth, in order that nothing in the external world should
|
|
interrupt their efforts to conjure up the scene correctly.
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Stephen came downstairs in the middle of the story, and after the
|
|
little interruption occasioned by his entrance and welcome, the
|
|
narrative was again continued, precisely as if he had not been
|
|
there at all, and was told inclusively to him, as to somebody who
|
|
knew nothing about the matter.
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'"Ay," I said, as I catched sight o' en through the brimbles,
|
|
"that's the lad, for I d' know en by his grand-father's walk; "for
|
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'a stapped out like poor father for all the world. Still there
|
|
was a touch o' the frisky that set me wondering. 'A got closer,
|
|
and I said, "That's the lad, for I d' know en by his carrying a
|
|
black case like a travelling man." Still, a road is common to all
|
|
the world, and there be more travelling men than one. But I kept
|
|
my eye cocked, and I said to Martin, "'Tis the boy, now, for I d'
|
|
know en by the wold twirl o' the stick and the family step." Then
|
|
'a come closer, and a' said, "All right." I could swear to en
|
|
then.'
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|
|
Stephen's personal appearance was next criticised.
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'He d' look a deal thinner in face, surely, than when I seed en at
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the parson's, and never knowed en, if ye'll believe me,' said
|
|
Martin.
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'Ay, there,' said another, without removing his eyes from
|
|
Stephen's face, 'I should ha' knowed en anywhere. 'Tis his
|
|
father's nose to a T.'
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|
'It has been often remarked,' said Stephen modestly.
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|
'And he's certainly taller,' said Martin, letting his glance run
|
|
over Stephen's form from bottom to top.
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|
'I was thinking 'a was exactly the same height,' Worm replied.
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|
'Bless thy soul, that's because he's bigger round likewise.' And
|
|
the united eyes all moved to Stephen's waist.
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|
'I be a poor wambling man, but I can make allowances,' said
|
|
William Worm. 'Ah, sure, and how he came as a stranger and
|
|
pilgrim to Parson Swancourt's that time, not a soul knowing en
|
|
after so many years! Ay, life's a strange picter, Stephen: but I
|
|
suppose I must say Sir to ye?'
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|
|
|
'Oh, it is not necessary at present,' Stephen replied, though
|
|
mentally resolving to avoid the vicinity of that familiar friend
|
|
as soon as he had made pretensions to the hand of Elfride.
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|
'Ah, well,' said Worm musingly, 'some would have looked for no
|
|
less than a Sir. There's a sight of difference in people.'
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|
|
'And in pigs likewise,' observed John Smith, looking at the halved
|
|
carcass of his own.
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|
|
|
Robert Lickpan, the pig-killer, here seemed called upon to enter
|
|
the lists of conversation.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, they've got their particular naters good-now,' he remarked
|
|
initially. 'Many's the rum-tempered pig I've knowed.'
|
|
|
|
'I don't doubt it, Master Lickpan,' answered Martin, in a tone
|
|
expressing that his convictions, no less than good manners,
|
|
demanded the reply.
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|
|
|
'Yes,' continued the pig-killer, as one accustomed to be heard.
|
|
'One that I knowed was deaf and dumb, and we couldn't make out
|
|
what was the matter wi' the pig. 'A would eat well enough when 'a
|
|
seed the trough, but when his back was turned, you might a-rattled
|
|
the bucket all day, the poor soul never heard ye. Ye could play
|
|
tricks upon en behind his back, and a' wouldn't find it out no
|
|
quicker than poor deaf Grammer Cates. But a' fatted well, and I
|
|
never seed a pig open better when a' was killed, and 'a was very
|
|
tender eating, very; as pretty a bit of mate as ever you see; you
|
|
could suck that mate through a quill.
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|
|
|
'And another I knowed,' resumed the killer, after quietly letting
|
|
a pint of ale run down his throat of its own accord, and setting
|
|
down the cup with mathematical exactness upon the spot from which
|
|
he had raised it--'another went out of his mind.'
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|
'How very mournful!' murmured Mrs. Worm.
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'Ay, poor thing, 'a did! As clean out of his mind as the cleverest
|
|
Christian could go. In early life 'a was very melancholy, and
|
|
never seemed a hopeful pig by no means. 'Twas Andrew Stainer's
|
|
pig--that's whose pig 'twas.'
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|
'I can mind the pig well enough,' attested John Smith.
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|
'And a pretty little porker 'a was. And you all know Farmer
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Buckle's sort? Every jack o' em suffer from the rheumatism to this
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day, owing to a damp sty they lived in when they were striplings,
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as 'twere.'
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'Well, now we'll weigh,' said John.
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'If so be he were not so fine, we'd weigh en whole: but as he is,
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we'll take a side at a time. John, you can mind my old joke, ey?'
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'I do so; though 'twas a good few years ago I first heard en.'
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'Yes,' said Lickpan, 'that there old familiar joke have been in
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our family for generations, I may say. My father used that joke
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regular at pig-killings for more than five and forty years--the
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time he followed the calling. And 'a told me that 'a had it from
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his father when he was quite a chiel, who made use o' en just the
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same at every killing more or less; and pig-killings were pig-
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killings in those days.'
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'Trewly they were.'
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'I've never heard the joke,' said Mrs. Smith tentatively.
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'Nor I,' chimed in Mrs. Worm, who, being the only other lady in
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the room, felt bound by the laws of courtesy to feel like Mrs.
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Smith in everything.
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'Surely, surely you have,' said the killer, looking sceptically at
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the benighted females. 'However, 'tisn't much--I don't wish to
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say it is. It commences like this: "Bob will tell the weight of
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your pig, 'a b'lieve," says I. The congregation of neighbours
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think I mane my son Bob, naturally; but the secret is that I mane
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the bob o' the steelyard. Ha, ha, ha!'
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'Haw, haw, haw!' laughed Martin Cannister, who had heard the
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explanation of this striking story for the hundredth time.
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'Huh, huh, huh!' laughed John Smith, who had heard it for the
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thousandth.
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'Hee, hee, hee!' laughed William Worm, who had never heard it at
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all, but was afraid to say so.
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'Thy grandfather, Robert, must have been a wide-awake chap to make
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that story,' said Martin Cannister, subsiding to a placid aspect
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of delighted criticism.
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'He had a head, by all account. And, you see, as the first-born
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of the Lickpans have all been Roberts, they've all been Bobs, so
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the story was handed down to the present day.'
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'Poor Joseph, your second boy, will never be able to bring it out
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in company, which is rather unfortunate,' said Mrs. Worm
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thoughtfully.
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''A won't. Yes, grandfer was a clever chap, as ye say; but I
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knowed a cleverer. 'Twas my uncle Levi. Uncle Levi made a snuff-
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box that should be a puzzle to his friends to open. He used to
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hand en round at wedding parties, christenings, funerals, and in
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other jolly company, and let 'em try their skill. This
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extraordinary snuff-box had a spring behind that would push in and
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out--a hinge where seemed to be the cover; a slide at the end, a
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screw in front, and knobs and queer notches everywhere. One man
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would try the spring, another would try the screw, another would
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try the slide; but try as they would, the box wouldn't open. And
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they couldn't open en, and they didn't open en. Now what might
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you think was the secret of that box?'
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All put on an expression that their united thoughts were
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inadequate to the occasion.
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'Why the box wouldn't open at all. 'A were made not to open, and
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ye might have tried till the end of Revelations, 'twould have been
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as naught, for the box were glued all round.'
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'A very deep man to have made such a box.'
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'Yes. 'Twas like uncle Levi all over.'
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''Twas. I can mind the man very well. Tallest man ever I seed.'
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''A was so. He never slept upon a bedstead after he growed up a
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hard boy-chap--never could get one long enough. When 'a lived in
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that little small house by the pond, he used to have to leave open
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his chamber door every night at going to his bed, and let his feet
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poke out upon the landing.'
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'He's dead and gone now, nevertheless, poor man, as we all shall,'
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observed Worm, to fill the pause which followed the conclusion of
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Robert Lickpan's speech.
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The weighing and cutting up was pursued amid an animated discourse
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on Stephen's travels; and at the finish, the first-fruits of the
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day's slaughter, fried in onions, were then turned from the pan
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into a dish on the table, each piece steaming and hissing till it
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reached their very mouths.
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It must be owned that the gentlemanly son of the house looked
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|
rather out of place in the course of this operation. Nor was his
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|
mind quite philosophic enough to allow him to be comfortable with
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these old-established persons, his father's friends. He had never
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|
lived long at home--scarcely at all since his childhood. The
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|
presence of William Worm was the most awkward feature of the case,
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|
for, though Worm had left the house of Mr. Swancourt, the being
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|
hand-in-glove with a ci-devant servitor reminded Stephen too
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|
forcibly of the vicar's classification of himself before he went
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|
from England. Mrs. Smith was conscious of the defect in her
|
|
arrangements which had brought about the undesired conjunction.
|
|
She spoke to Stephen privately.
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'I am above having such people here, Stephen; but what could I do?
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And your father is so rough in his nature that he's more mixed up
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|
with them than need be.'
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'Never mind, mother,' said Stephen; 'I'll put up with it now.'
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'When we leave my lord's service, and get further up the country--
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|
as I hope we shall soon--it will be different. We shall be among
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|
fresh people, and in a larger house, and shall keep ourselves up a
|
|
bit, I hope.'
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'Is Miss Swancourt at home, do you know?' Stephen inquired
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'Yes, your father saw her this morning.'
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'Do you often see her?'
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'Scarcely ever. Mr. Glim, the curate, calls occasionally, but the
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|
Swancourts don't come into the village now any more than to drive
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|
through it. They dine at my lord's oftener than they used. Ah,
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|
here's a note was brought this morning for you by a boy.'
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|
Stephen eagerly took the note and opened it, his mother watching
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|
him. He read what Elfride had written and sent before she started
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|
for the cliff that afternoon:
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'Yes; I will meet you in the church at nine to-night.--E. S.'
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'I don't know, Stephen,' his mother said meaningly, 'whe'r you
|
|
still think about Miss Elfride, but if I were you I wouldn't
|
|
concern about her. They say that none of old Mrs. Swancourt's
|
|
money will come to her step-daughter.'
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|
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|
'I see the evening has turned out fine; I am going out for a
|
|
little while to look round the place,' he said, evading the direct
|
|
query. 'Probably by the time I return our visitors will be gone,
|
|
and we'll have a more confidential talk.'
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|
Chapter XXIV
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'Breeze, bird, and flower confess the hour.'
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The rain had ceased since the sunset, but it was a cloudy night;
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|
and the light of the moon, softened and dispersed by its misty
|
|
veil, was distributed over the land in pale gray.
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|
A dark figure stepped from the doorway of John Smith's river-side
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|
cottage, and strode rapidly towards West Endelstow with a light
|
|
footstep. Soon ascending from the lower levels he turned a
|
|
corner, followed a cart-track, and saw the tower of the church he
|
|
was in quest of distinctly shaped forth against the sky. In less
|
|
than half an hour from the time of starting he swung himself over
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|
the churchyard stile.
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|
The wild irregular enclosure was as much as ever an integral part
|
|
of the old hill. The grass was still long, the graves were shaped
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|
precisely as passing years chose to alter them from their orthodox
|
|
form as laid down by Martin Cannister, and by Stephen's own
|
|
grandfather before him.
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|
A sound sped into the air from the direction in which Castle
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|
Boterel lay. It was the striking of the church clock, distinct in
|
|
the still atmosphere as if it had come from the tower hard by,
|
|
which, wrapt in its solitary silentness, gave out no such sounds
|
|
of life.
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|
'One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine.' Stephen
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|
carefully counted the strokes, though he well knew their number
|
|
beforehand. Nine o'clock. It was the hour Elfride had herself
|
|
named as the most convenient for meeting him.
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|
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|
Stephen stood at the door of the porch and listened. He could
|
|
have heard the softest breathing of any person within the porch;
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|
nobody was there. He went inside the doorway, sat down upon the
|
|
stone bench, and waited with a beating heart.
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|
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|
The faint sounds heard only accentuated the silence. The rising
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|
and falling of the sea, far away along the coast, was the most
|
|
important. A minor sound was the scurr of a distant night-hawk.
|
|
Among the minutest where all were minute were the light settlement
|
|
of gossamer fragments floating in the air, a toad humbly labouring
|
|
along through the grass near the entrance, the crackle of a dead
|
|
leaf which a worm was endeavouring to pull into the earth, a waft
|
|
of air, getting nearer and nearer, and expiring at his feet under
|
|
the burden of a winged seed.
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|
|
|
Among all these soft sounds came not the only soft sound he cared
|
|
to hear--the footfall of Elfride.
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|
|
|
For a whole quarter of an hour Stephen sat thus intent, without
|
|
moving a muscle. At the end of that time he walked to the west
|
|
front of the church. Turning the corner of the tower, a white
|
|
form stared him in the face. He started back, and recovered
|
|
himself. It was the tomb of young farmer Jethway, looking still
|
|
as fresh and as new as when it was first erected, the white stone
|
|
in which it was hewn having a singular weirdness amid the dark
|
|
blue slabs from local quarries, of which the whole remaining
|
|
gravestones were formed.
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|
|
|
He thought of the night when he had sat thereon with Elfride as
|
|
his companion, and well remembered his regret that she had
|
|
received, even unwillingly, earlier homage than his own. But his
|
|
present tangible anxiety reduced such a feeling to sentimental
|
|
nonsense in comparison; and he strolled on over the graves to the
|
|
border of the churchyard, whence in the daytime could be clearly
|
|
seen the vicarage and the present residence of the Swancourts. No
|
|
footstep was discernible upon the path up the hill, but a light
|
|
was shining from a window in the last-named house.
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|
|
|
Stephen knew there could be no mistake about the time or place,
|
|
and no difficulty about keeping the engagement. He waited yet
|
|
longer, passing from impatience into a mood which failed to take
|
|
any account of the lapse of time. He was awakened from his
|
|
reverie by Castle Boterel clock.
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|
|
|
One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, TEN .
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|
|
|
One little fall of the hammer in addition to the number it had
|
|
been sharp pleasure to hear, and what a difference to him!
|
|
|
|
He left the churchyard on the side opposite to his point of
|
|
entrance, and went down the hill. Slowly he drew near the gate of
|
|
her house. This he softly opened, and walked up the gravel drive
|
|
to the door. Here he paused for several minutes.
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|
|
|
At the expiration of that time the murmured speech of a manly
|
|
voice came out to his ears through an open window behind the
|
|
corner of the house. This was responded to by a clear soft laugh.
|
|
It was the laugh of Elfride.
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|
|
|
Stephen was conscious of a gnawing pain at his heart. He
|
|
retreated as he had come. There are disappointments which wring
|
|
us, and there are those which inflict a wound whose mark we bear
|
|
to our graves. Such are so keen that no future gratification of
|
|
the same desire can ever obliterate them: they become registered
|
|
as a permanent loss of happiness. Such a one was Stephen's now:
|
|
the crowning aureola of the dream had been the meeting here by
|
|
stealth; and if Elfride had come to him only ten minutes after he
|
|
had turned away, the disappointment would have been recognizable
|
|
still.
|
|
|
|
When the young man reached home he found there a letter which had
|
|
arrived in his absence. Believing it to contain some reason for
|
|
her non-appearance, yet unable to imagine one that could justify
|
|
her, he hastily tore open the envelope.
|
|
|
|
The paper contained not a word from Elfride. It was the deposit-
|
|
note for his two hundred pounds. On the back was the form of a
|
|
cheque, and this she had filled up with the same sum, payable to
|
|
the bearer.
|
|
|
|
Stephen was confounded. He attempted to divine her motive.
|
|
Considering how limited was his knowledge of her later actions, he
|
|
guessed rather shrewdly that, between the time of her sending the
|
|
note in the morning and the evening's silent refusal of his gift,
|
|
something had occurred which had caused a total change in her
|
|
attitude towards him.
|
|
|
|
He knew not what to do. It seemed absurd now to go to her father
|
|
next morning, as he had purposed, and ask for an engagement with
|
|
her, a possibility impending all the while that Elfride herself
|
|
would not be on his side. Only one course recommended itself as
|
|
wise. To wait and see what the days would bring forth; to go and
|
|
execute his commissions in Birmingham; then to return, learn if
|
|
anything had happened, and try what a meeting might do; perhaps
|
|
her surprise at his backwardness would bring her forward to show
|
|
latent warmth as decidedly as in old times.
|
|
|
|
This act of patience was in keeping only with the nature of a man
|
|
precisely of Stephen's constitution. Nine men out of ten would
|
|
perhaps have rushed off, got into her presence, by fair means or
|
|
foul, and provoked a catastrophe of some sort. Possibly for the
|
|
better, probably for the worse.
|
|
|
|
He started for Birmingham the next morning. A day's delay would
|
|
have made no difference; but he could not rest until he had begun
|
|
and ended the programme proposed to himself. Bodily activity will
|
|
sometimes take the sting out of anxiety as completely as assurance
|
|
itself.
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|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter XXV
|
|
|
|
'Mine own familiar friend.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
During these days of absence Stephen lived under alternate
|
|
conditions. Whenever his emotions were active, he was in agony.
|
|
Whenever he was not in agony, the business in hand had driven out
|
|
of his mind by sheer force all deep reflection on the subject of
|
|
Elfride and love.
|
|
|
|
By the time he took his return journey at the week's end, Stephen
|
|
had very nearly worked himself up to an intention to call and see
|
|
her face to face. On this occasion also he adopted his favourite
|
|
route--by the little summer steamer from Bristol to Castle
|
|
Boterel; the time saved by speed on the railway being wasted at
|
|
junctions, and in following a devious course.
|
|
|
|
It was a bright silent evening at the beginning of September when
|
|
Smith again set foot in the little town. He felt inclined to
|
|
linger awhile upon the quay before ascending the hills, having
|
|
formed a romantic intention to go home by way of her house, yet
|
|
not wishing to wander in its neighbourhood till the evening shades
|
|
should sufficiently screen him from observation.
|
|
|
|
And thus waiting for night's nearer approach, he watched the
|
|
placid scene, over which the pale luminosity of the west cast a
|
|
sorrowful monochrome, that became slowly embrowned by the dusk. A
|
|
star appeared, and another, and another. They sparkled amid the
|
|
yards and rigging of the two coal brigs lying alangside, as if
|
|
they had been tiny lamps suspended in the ropes. The masts rocked
|
|
sleepily to the infinitesimal flux of the tide, which clucked and
|
|
gurgled with idle regularity in nooks and holes of the harbour
|
|
wall.
|
|
|
|
The twilight was now quite pronounced enough for his purpose; and
|
|
as, rather sad at heart, he was about to move on, a little boat
|
|
containing two persons glided up the middle of the harbour with
|
|
the lightness of a shadow. The boat came opposite him, passed on,
|
|
and touched the landing-steps at the further end. One of its
|
|
occupants was a man, as Stephen had known by the easy stroke of
|
|
the oars. When the pair ascended the steps, and came into greater
|
|
prominence, he was enabled to discern that the second personage
|
|
was a woman; also that she wore a white decoration--apparently a
|
|
feather--in her hat or bonnet, which spot of white was the only
|
|
distinctly visible portion of her clothing.
|
|
|
|
Stephen remained a moment in their rear, and they passed on, when
|
|
he pursued his way also, and soon forgot the circumstance. Having
|
|
crossed a bridge, forsaken the high road, and entered the footpath
|
|
which led up the vale to West Endelstow, he heard a little wicket
|
|
click softly together some yards ahead. By the time that Stephen
|
|
had reached the wicket and passed it, he heard another click of
|
|
precisely the same nature from another gate yet further on.
|
|
Clearly some person or persons were preceding him along the path,
|
|
their footsteps being rendered noiseless by the soft carpet of
|
|
turf. Stephen now walked a little quicker, and perceived two
|
|
forms. One of them bore aloft the white feather he had noticed in
|
|
the woman's hat on the quay: they were the couple he had seen in
|
|
the boat. Stephen dropped a little further to the rear.
|
|
|
|
From the bottom of the valley, along which the path had hitherto
|
|
lain, beside the margin of the trickling streamlet, another path
|
|
now diverged, and ascended the slope of the left-hand hill. This
|
|
footway led only to the residence of Mrs. Swancourt and a cottage
|
|
or two in its vicinity. No grass covered this diverging path in
|
|
portions of its length, and Stephen was reminded that the pair in
|
|
front of him had taken this route by the occasional rattle of
|
|
loose stones under their feet. Stephen climbed in the same
|
|
direction, but for some undefined reason he trod more softly than
|
|
did those preceding him. His mind was unconsciously in exercise
|
|
upon whom the woman might be--whether a visitor to The Crags, a
|
|
servant, or Elfride. He put it to himself yet more forcibly;
|
|
could the lady be Elfride? A possible reason for her unaccountable
|
|
failure to keep the appointment with him returned with painful
|
|
force.
|
|
|
|
They entered the grounds of the house by the side wicket, whence
|
|
the path, now wide and well trimmed, wound fantastically through
|
|
the shrubbery to an octagonal pavilion called the Belvedere, by
|
|
reason of the comprehensive view over the adjacent district that
|
|
its green seats afforded. The path passed this erection and went
|
|
on to the house as well as to the gardener's cottage on the other
|
|
side, straggling thence to East Endelstow; so that Stephen felt no
|
|
hesitation in entering a promenade which could scarcely be called
|
|
private.
|
|
|
|
He fancied that he heard the gate open and swing together again
|
|
behind him. Turning, he saw nobody.
|
|
|
|
The people of the boat came to the summer-house. One of them
|
|
spoke.
|
|
|
|
'I am afraid we shall get a scolding for being so late.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen instantly recognised the familiar voice, richer and fuller
|
|
now than it used to be. 'Elfride!' he whispered to himself, and
|
|
held fast by a sapling, to steady himself under the agitation her
|
|
presence caused him. His heart swerved from its beat; he shunned
|
|
receiving the meaning he sought.
|
|
|
|
'A breeze is rising again; how the ash tree rustles!' said
|
|
Elfride. 'Don't you hear it? I wonder what the time is.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen relinquished the sapling.
|
|
|
|
I will get a light and tell you. Step into the summer-house; the
|
|
air is quiet there.'
|
|
|
|
The cadence of that voice--its peculiarity seemed to come home to
|
|
him like that of some notes of the northern birds on his return to
|
|
his native clime, as an old natural thing renewed, yet not
|
|
particularly noticed as natural before that renewal.
|
|
|
|
They entered the Belvedere. In the lower part it was formed of
|
|
close wood-work nailed crosswise, and had openings in the upper by
|
|
way of windows.
|
|
|
|
The scratch of a striking light was heard, and a bright glow
|
|
radiated from the interior of the building. The light gave birth
|
|
to dancing leaf-shadows, stem-shadows, lustrous streaks, dots,
|
|
sparkles, and threads of silver sheen of all imaginable variety
|
|
and transience. It awakened gnats, which flew towards it,
|
|
revealed shiny gossamer threads, disturbed earthworms. Stephen
|
|
gave but little attention to these phenomena, and less time. He
|
|
saw in the summer-house a strongly illuminated picture.
|
|
|
|
First, the face of his friend and preceptor Henry Knight, between
|
|
whom and himself an estrangement had arisen, not from any definite
|
|
causes beyond those of absence, increasing age, and diverging
|
|
sympathies.
|
|
|
|
Next, his bright particular star, Elfride. The face of Elfride
|
|
was more womanly than when she had called herself his, but as
|
|
clear and healthy as ever. Her plenteous twines of beautiful hair
|
|
were looking much as usual, with the exception of a slight
|
|
modification in their arrangement in deference to the changes of
|
|
fashion.
|
|
|
|
Their two foreheads were close together, almost touching, and both
|
|
were looking down. Elfride was holding her watch, Knight was
|
|
holding the light with one hand, his left arm being round her
|
|
waist. Part of the scene reached Stephen's eyes through the
|
|
horizontal bars of woodwork, which crossed their forms like the
|
|
ribs of a skeleton.
|
|
|
|
Knight's arm stole still further round the waist of Elfride.
|
|
|
|
'It is half-past eight,' she said in a low voice, which had a
|
|
peculiar music in it, seemingly born of a thrill of pleasure at
|
|
the new proof that she was beloved.
|
|
|
|
The flame dwindled down, died away, and all was wrapped in a
|
|
darkness to which the gloom before the illumination bore no
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comparison in apparent density. Stephen, shattered in spirit and
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sick to his heart's centre, turned away. In turning, he saw a
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shadowy outline behind the summer-house on the other side. His
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eyes grew accustomed to the darkness. Was the form a human form,
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or was it an opaque bush of juniper?
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The lovers arose, brushed against the laurestines, and pursued
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their way to the house. The indistinct figure had moved, and now
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passed across Smith's front. So completely enveloped was the
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person, that it was impossible to discern him or her any more than
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as a shape. The shape glided noiselessly on.
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Stephen stepped forward, fearing any mischief was intended to the
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other two. 'Who are you?' he said.
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'Never mind who I am,' answered a weak whisper from the enveloping
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folds. 'WHAT I am, may she be! Perhaps I knew well--ah, so well!--
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a youth whose place you took, as he there now takes yours. Will
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you let her break your heart, and bring you to an untimely grave,
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as she did the one before you?'
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'You are Mrs. Jethway, I think. What do you do here? And why do
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you talk so wildly?'
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'Because my heart is desolate, and nobody cares about it. May
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hers be so that brought trouble upon me!'
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'Silence!' said Stephen, staunch to Elfride in spite of himself
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'She would harm nobody wilfully, never would she! How do you come
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here?'
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'I saw the two coming up the path, and wanted to learn if she were
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not one of them. Can I help disliking her if I think of the past?
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Can I help watching her if I remember my boy? Can I help ill-
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wishing her if I well-wish him?'
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The bowed form went on, passed through the wicket, and was
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enveloped by the shadows of the field.
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Stephen had heard that Mrs. Jethway, since the death of her son,
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had become a crazed, forlorn woman; and bestowing a pitying
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thought upon her, he dismissed her fancied wrongs from his mind,
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but not her condemnation of Elfride's faithlessness. That entered
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into and mingled with the sensations his new experience had
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begotten. The tale told by the little scene he had witnessed ran
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parallel with the unhappy woman's opinion, which, however baseless
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it might have been antecedently, had become true enough as
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regarded himself.
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A slow weight of despair, as distinct from a violent paroxysm as
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starvation from a mortal shot, filled him and wrung him body and
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soul. The discovery had not been altogether unexpected, for
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throughout his anxiety of the last few days since the night in the
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churchyard, he had been inclined to construe the uncertainty
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unfavourably for himself. His hopes for the best had been but
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periodic interruptions to a chronic fear of the worst.
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A strange concomitant of his misery was the singularity of its
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form. That his rival should be Knight, whom once upon a time he
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had adored as a man is very rarely adored by another in modern
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times, and whom he loved now, added deprecation to sorrow, and
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cynicism to both. Henry Knight, whose praises he had so
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frequently trumpeted in her ears, of whom she had actually been
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jealous, lest she herself should be lessened in Stephen's love on
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account of him, had probably won her the more easily by reason of
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those very praises which he had only ceased to utter by her
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command. She had ruled him like a queen in that matter, as in all
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others. Stephen could tell by her manner, brief as had been his
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observation of it, and by her words, few as they were, that her
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position was far different with Knight. That she looked up at and
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adored her new lover from below his pedestal, was even more
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perceptible than that she had smiled down upon Stephen from a
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height above him.
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The suddenness of Elfride's renunciation of himself was food for
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more torture. To an unimpassioned outsider, it admitted of at
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least two interpretations--it might either have proceeded from an
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endeavour to be faithful to her first choice, till the lover seen
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absolutely overpowered the lover remembered, or from a wish not to
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lose his love till sure of the love of another. But to Stephen
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Smith the motive involved in the latter alternative made it
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untenable where Elfride was the actor.
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He mused on her letters to him, in which she had never mentioned a
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syllable concerning Knight. It is desirable, however, to observe
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that only in two letters could she possibly have done so. One was
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written about a week before Knight's arrival, when, though she did
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not mention his promised coming to Stephen, she had hardly a
|
|
definite reason in her mind for neglecting to do it. In the next
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she did casually allude to Knight. But Stephen had left Bombay
|
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long before that letter arrived.
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Stephen looked at the black form of the adjacent house, where it
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cut a dark polygonal notch out of the sky, and felt that he hated
|
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the spot. He did not know many facts of the case, but could not
|
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help instinctively associating Elfride's fickleness with the
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marriage of her father, and their introduction to London society.
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He closed the iron gate bounding the shrubbery as noiselessly as
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he had opened it, and went into the grassy field. Here he could
|
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see the old vicarage, the house alone that was associated with the
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sweet pleasant time of his incipient love for Elfride. Turning
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sadly from the place that was no longer a nook in which his
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thoughts might nestle when he was far away, he wandered in the
|
|
direction of the east village, to reach his father's house before
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they retired to rest.
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The nearest way to the cottage was by crossing the park. He did
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not hurry. Happiness frequently has reason for haste, but it is
|
|
seldom that desolation need scramble or strain. Sometimes he
|
|
paused under the low-hanging arms of the trees, looking vacantly
|
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on the ground.
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Stephen was standing thus, scarcely less crippled in thought than
|
|
he was blank in vision, when a clear sound permeated the quiet air
|
|
about him, and spread on far beyond. The sound was the stroke of
|
|
a bell from the tower of East Endelstow Church, which stood in a
|
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dell not forty yards from Lord Luxellian's mansion, and within the
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park enclosure. Another stroke greeted his ear, and gave
|
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character to both: then came a slow succession of them.
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'Somebody is dead,' he said aloud.
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The death-knell of an inhabitant of the eastern parish was being
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tolled.
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An unusual feature in the tolling was that it had not been begun
|
|
according to the custom in Endelstow and other parishes in the
|
|
neighbourhood. At every death the sex and age of the deceased
|
|
were announced by a system of changes. Three times three strokes
|
|
signified that the departed one was a man; three times two, a
|
|
woman; twice three, a boy; twice two, a girl. The regular
|
|
continuity of the tolling suggested that it was the resumption
|
|
rather than the beginning of a knell--the opening portion of which
|
|
Stephen had not been near enough to hear.
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|
The momentary anxiety he had felt with regard to his parents
|
|
passed away. He had left them in perfect health, and had any
|
|
serious illness seized either, a communication would have reached
|
|
him ere this. At the same time, since his way homeward lay under
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|
the churchyard yews, he resolved to look into the belfry in
|
|
passing by, and speak a word to Martin Cannister, who would be
|
|
there.
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Stephen reached the brow of the hill, and felt inclined to
|
|
renounce his idea. His mood was such that talking to any person
|
|
to whom he could not unburden himself would be wearisome.
|
|
However, before he could put any inclination into effect, the
|
|
young man saw from amid the trees a bright light shining, the rays
|
|
from which radiated like needles through the sad plumy foliage of
|
|
the yews. Its direction was from the centre of the churchyard.
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|
Stephen mechanically went forward. Never could there be a greater
|
|
contrast between two places of like purpose than between this
|
|
graveyard and that of the further village. Here the grass was
|
|
carefully tended, and formed virtually a part of the manor-house
|
|
lawn; flowers and shrubs being planted indiscriminately over both,
|
|
whilst the few graves visible were mathematically exact in shape
|
|
and smoothness, appearing in the daytime like chins newly shaven.
|
|
There was no wall, the division between God's Acre and Lord
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|
Luxellian's being marked only by a few square stones set at
|
|
equidistant points. Among those persons who have romantic
|
|
sentiments on the subject of their last dwelling-place, probably
|
|
the greater number would have chosen such a spot as this in
|
|
preference to any other: a few would have fancied a constraint in
|
|
its trim neatness, and would have preferred the wild hill-top of
|
|
the neighbouring site, with Nature in her most negligent attire.
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|
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|
The light in the churchyard he next discovered to have its source
|
|
in a point very near the ground, and Stephen imagined it might
|
|
come from a lantern in the interior of a partly-dug grave. But a
|
|
nearer approach showed him that its position was immediately under
|
|
the wall of the aisle, and within the mouth of an archway. He
|
|
could now hear voices, and the truth of the whole matter began to
|
|
dawn upon him. Walking on towards the opening, Smith discerned on
|
|
his left hand a heap of earth, and before him a flight of stone
|
|
steps which the removed earth had uncovered, leading down under
|
|
the edifice. It was the entrance to a large family vault,
|
|
extending under the north aisle.
|
|
|
|
Stephen had never before seen it open, and descending one or two
|
|
steps stooped to look under the arch. The vault appeared to be
|
|
crowded with coffins, with the exception of an open central space,
|
|
which had been necessarily kept free for ingress and access to the
|
|
sides, round three of which the coffins were stacked in stone bins
|
|
or niches.
|
|
|
|
The place was well lighted with candles stuck in slips of wood
|
|
that were fastened to the wall. On making the descent of another
|
|
step the living inhabitants of the vault were recognizable. They
|
|
were his father the master-mason, an under-mason, Martin
|
|
Cannister, and two or three young and old labouring-men. Crowbars
|
|
and workmen's hammers were scattered about. The whole company,
|
|
sitting round on coffins which had been removed from their places,
|
|
apparently for some alteration or enlargement of the vault, were
|
|
eating bread and cheese, and drinking ale from a cup with two
|
|
handles, passed round from each to each.
|
|
|
|
'Who is dead?' Stephen inquired, stepping down.
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|
Chapter XXVI
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'To that last nothing under earth.'
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|
All eyes were turned to the entrance as Stephen spoke, and the
|
|
ancient-mannered conclave scrutinized him inquiringly.
|
|
|
|
'Why, 'tis our Stephen!' said his father, rising from his seat;
|
|
and, still retaining the frothy mug in his left hand, he swung
|
|
forward his right for a grasp. 'Your mother is expecting ye--
|
|
thought you would have come afore dark. But you'll wait and go
|
|
home with me? I have all but done for the day, and was going
|
|
directly.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, 'tis Master Stephy, sure enough. Glad to see you so soon
|
|
again, Master Smith,' said Martin Cannister, chastening the
|
|
gladness expressed in his words by a strict neutrality of
|
|
countenance, in order to harmonize the feeling as much as possible
|
|
with the solemnity of a family vault.
|
|
|
|
'The same to you, Martin; and you, William,' said Stephen, nodding
|
|
around to the rest, who, having their mouths full of bread and
|
|
cheese, were of necessity compelled to reply merely by compressing
|
|
their eyes to friendly lines and wrinkles.
|
|
|
|
'And who is dead?' Stephen repeated.
|
|
|
|
'Lady Luxellian, poor gentlewoman, as we all shall, said the
|
|
under-mason. 'Ay, and we be going to enlarge the vault to make
|
|
room for her.'
|
|
|
|
'When did she die?'
|
|
|
|
'Early this morning,' his father replied, with an appearance of
|
|
recurring to a chronic thought. 'Yes, this morning. Martin hev
|
|
been tolling ever since, almost. There, 'twas expected. She was
|
|
very limber.'
|
|
|
|
'Ay, poor soul, this morning,' resumed the under-mason, a
|
|
marvellously old man, whose skin seemed so much too large for his
|
|
body that it would not stay in position. 'She must know by this
|
|
time whether she's to go up or down, poor woman.'
|
|
|
|
'What was her age?'
|
|
|
|
'Not more than seven or eight and twenty by candlelight. But,
|
|
Lord! by day 'a was forty if 'a were an hour.'
|
|
|
|
'Ay, night-time or day-time makes a difference of twenty years to
|
|
rich feymels,' observed Martin.
|
|
|
|
'She was one and thirty really,' said John Smith. 'I had it from
|
|
them that know.'
|
|
|
|
'Not more than that!'
|
|
|
|
''A looked very bad, poor lady. In faith, ye might say she was
|
|
dead for years afore 'a would own it.'
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|
|
|
'As my old father used to say, "dead, but wouldn't drop down."'
|
|
|
|
'I seed her, poor soul,' said a labourer from behind some removed
|
|
coffins, 'only but last Valentine's-day of all the world. 'A was
|
|
arm in crook wi' my lord. I says to myself, "You be ticketed
|
|
Churchyard, my noble lady, although you don't dream on't."'
|
|
|
|
'I suppose my lord will write to all the other lords anointed in
|
|
the nation, to let 'em know that she that was is now no more?'
|
|
|
|
''Tis done and past. I see a bundle of letters go off an hour
|
|
after the death. Sich wonderful black rims as they letters had--
|
|
half-an-inch wide, at the very least.'
|
|
|
|
'Too much,' observed Martin. 'In short, 'tis out of the question
|
|
that a human being can be so mournful as black edges half-an-inch
|
|
wide. I'm sure people don't feel more than a very narrow border
|
|
when they feels most of all.'
|
|
|
|
'And there are two little girls, are there not?' said Stephen.
|
|
|
|
'Nice clane little faces!--left motherless now.'
|
|
|
|
'They used to come to Parson Swancourt's to play with Miss Elfride
|
|
when I were there,' said William Worm. 'Ah, they did so's!' The
|
|
latter sentence was introduced to add the necessary melancholy to
|
|
a remark which, intrinsically, could hardly be made to possess
|
|
enough for the occasion. 'Yes,' continued Worm, 'they'd run
|
|
upstairs, they'd run down; flitting about with her everywhere.
|
|
Very fond of her, they were. Ah, well!'
|
|
|
|
'Fonder than ever they were of their mother, so 'tis said here and
|
|
there,' added a labourer.
|
|
|
|
'Well, you see, 'tis natural. Lady Luxellian stood aloof from 'em
|
|
so--was so drowsy-like, that they couldn't love her in the jolly-
|
|
companion way children want to like folks. Only last winter I
|
|
seed Miss Elfride talking to my lady and the two children, and
|
|
Miss Elfride wiped their noses for em' SO careful--my lady never
|
|
once seeing that it wanted doing; and, naturally, children take to
|
|
people that's their best friend.'
|
|
|
|
'Be as 'twill, the woman is dead and gone, and we must make a
|
|
place for her,' said John. 'Come, lads, drink up your ale, and
|
|
we'll just rid this corner, so as to have all clear for beginning
|
|
at the wall, as soon as 'tis light to-morrow.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen then asked where Lady Luxellian was to lie.
|
|
|
|
'Here,' said his father. 'We are going to set back this wall and
|
|
make a recess; and 'tis enough for us to do before the funeral.
|
|
When my lord's mother died, she said, "John, the place must be
|
|
enlarged before another can be put in." But 'a never expected
|
|
'twould be wanted so soon. Better move Lord George first, I
|
|
suppose, Simeon?'
|
|
|
|
He pointed with his foot to a heavy coffin, covered with what had
|
|
originally been red velvet, the colour of which could only just be
|
|
distinguished now.
|
|
|
|
'Just as ye think best, Master John,' replied the shrivelled
|
|
mason. 'Ah, poor Lord George!' he continued, looking
|
|
contemplatively at the huge coffin; 'he and I were as bitter
|
|
enemies once as any could be when one is a lord and t'other only a
|
|
mortal man. Poor fellow! He'd clap his hand upon my shoulder and
|
|
cuss me as familial and neighbourly as if he'd been a common chap.
|
|
Ay, 'a cussed me up hill and 'a cussed me down; and then 'a would
|
|
rave out again, and the goold clamps of his fine new teeth would
|
|
glisten in the sun like fetters of brass, while I, being a small
|
|
man and poor, was fain to say nothing at all. Such a strappen
|
|
fine gentleman as he was too! Yes, I rather liked en sometimes.
|
|
But once now and then, when I looked at his towering height, I'd
|
|
think in my inside, "What a weight you'll be, my lord, for our
|
|
arms to lower under the aisle of Endelstow Church some day!"'
|
|
|
|
'And was he?' inquired a young labourer.
|
|
|
|
'He was. He was five hundredweight if 'a were a pound. What with
|
|
his lead, and his oak, and his handles, and his one thing and
|
|
t'other'--here the ancient man slapped his hand upon the cover
|
|
with a force that caused a rattle among the bones inside--'he half
|
|
broke my back when I took his feet to lower en down the steps
|
|
there. "Ah," saith I to John there--didn't I, John?--"that ever
|
|
one man's glory should be such a weight upon another man!" But
|
|
there, I liked my lord George sometimes.'
|
|
|
|
''Tis a strange thought,' said another, 'that while they be all
|
|
here under one roof, a snug united family o' Luxellians, they be
|
|
really scattered miles away from one another in the form of good
|
|
sheep and wicked goats, isn't it?'
|
|
|
|
'True; 'tis a thought to look at.'
|
|
|
|
'And that one, if he's gone upward, don't know what his wife is
|
|
doing no more than the man in the moon if she's gone downward.
|
|
And that some unfortunate one in the hot place is a-hollering
|
|
across to a lucky one up in the clouds, and quite forgetting their
|
|
bodies be boxed close together all the time.'
|
|
|
|
'Ay, 'tis a thought to look at, too, that I can say "Hullo!" close
|
|
to fiery Lord George, and 'a can't hear me.'
|
|
|
|
'And that I be eating my onion close to dainty Lady Jane's nose,
|
|
and she can't smell me.'
|
|
|
|
'What do 'em put all their heads one way for?' inquired a young
|
|
man.
|
|
|
|
'Because 'tis churchyard law, you simple. The law of the living
|
|
is, that a man shall be upright and down-right, and the law of the
|
|
dead is, that a man shall be east and west. Every state of society
|
|
have its laws.'
|
|
|
|
'We must break the law wi' a few of the poor souls, however.
|
|
Come, buckle to,' said the master-mason.
|
|
|
|
And they set to work anew.
|
|
|
|
The order of interment could be distinctly traced by observing the
|
|
appearance of the coffins as they lay piled around. On those
|
|
which had been standing there but a generation or two the
|
|
trappings still remained. Those of an earlier period showed bare
|
|
wood, with a few tattered rags dangling therefrom. Earlier still,
|
|
the wood lay in fragments on the floor of the niche, and the
|
|
coffin consisted of naked lead alone; whilst in the case of the
|
|
very oldest, even the lead was bulging and cracking in pieces,
|
|
revealing to the curious eye a heap of dust within. The shields
|
|
upon many were quite loose, and removable by the hand, their
|
|
lustreless surfaces still indistinctly exhibiting the name and
|
|
title of the deceased.
|
|
|
|
Overhead the groins and concavities of the arches curved in all
|
|
directions, dropping low towards the walls, where the height was
|
|
no more than sufficient to enable a person to stand upright.
|
|
|
|
The body of George the fourteenth baron, together with two or
|
|
three others, all of more recent date than the great bulk of
|
|
coffins piled there, had, for want of room, been placed at the end
|
|
of the vault on tressels, and not in niches like the others.
|
|
These it was necessary to remove, to form behind them the chamber
|
|
in which they were ultimately to be deposited. Stephen, finding
|
|
the place and proceedings in keeping with the sombre colours of
|
|
his mind, waited there still.
|
|
|
|
'Simeon, I suppose you can mind poor Lady Elfride, and how she ran
|
|
away with the actor?' said John Smith, after awhile. 'I think it
|
|
fell upon the time my father was sexton here. Let us see--where
|
|
is she?'
|
|
|
|
'Here somewhere,' returned Simeon, looking round him.
|
|
|
|
'Why, I've got my arms round the very gentlewoman at this moment.'
|
|
He lowered the end of the coffin he was holding, wiped his face,
|
|
and throwing a morsel of rotten wood upon another as an indicator,
|
|
continued: 'That's her husband there. They was as fair a couple
|
|
as you should see anywhere round about; and a good-hearted pair
|
|
likewise. Ay, I can mind it, though I was but a chiel at the
|
|
time. She fell in love with this young man of hers, and their
|
|
banns were asked in some church in London; and the old lord her
|
|
father actually heard 'em asked the three times, and didn't notice
|
|
her name, being gabbled on wi' a host of others. When she had
|
|
married she told her father, and 'a fleed into a monstrous rage,
|
|
and said she shouldn' hae a farthing. Lady Elfride said she
|
|
didn't think of wishing it; if he'd forgie her 'twas all she
|
|
asked, and as for a living, she was content to play plays with her
|
|
husband. This frightened the old lord, and 'a gie'd 'em a house
|
|
to live in, and a great garden, and a little field or two, and a
|
|
carriage, and a good few guineas. Well, the poor thing died at
|
|
her first gossiping, and her husband--who was as tender-hearted a
|
|
man as ever eat meat, and would have died for her--went wild in
|
|
his mind, and broke his heart (so 'twas said). Anyhow, they were
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buried the same day--father and mother--but the baby lived. Ay,
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my lord's family made much of that man then, and put him here with
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his wife, and there in the corner the man is now. The Sunday
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after there was a funeral sermon: the text was, "Or ever the
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silver cord be loosed, or the golden bowl be broken;" and when
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'twas preaching the men drew their hands across their eyes several
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times, and every woman cried out loud.'
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'And what became of the baby?' said Stephen, who had frequently
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heard portions of the story.
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'She was brought up by her grandmother, and a pretty maid she
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were. And she must needs run away with the curate--Parson
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Swancourt that is now. Then her grandmother died, and the title
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and everything went away to another branch of the family
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altogether. Parson Swancourt wasted a good deal of his wife's
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money, and she left him Miss Elfride. That trick of running away
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seems to be handed down in families, like craziness or gout. And
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they two women be alike as peas.'
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'Which two?'
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'Lady Elfride and young Miss that's alive now. The same hair and
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eyes: but Miss Elfride's mother was darker a good deal.'
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'Life's a strangle bubble, ye see,' said William Worm musingly.
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'For if the Lord's anointment had descended upon women instead of
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men, Miss Elfride would be Lord Luxellian--Lady, I mane. But as
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it is, the blood is run out, and she's nothing to the Luxellian
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family by law, whatever she may be by gospel.'
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'I used to fancy,' said Simeon, 'when I seed Miss Elfride hugging
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the little ladyships, that there was a likeness; but I suppose
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'twas only my dream, for years must have altered the old family
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shape.'
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'And now we'll move these two, and home-along,' interposed John
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Smith, reviving, as became a master, the spirit of labour, which
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had showed unmistakable signs of being nearly vanquished by the
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spirit of chat, 'The flagon of ale we don't want we'll let bide
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here till to-morrow; none of the poor souls will touch it 'a
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b'lieve.'
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So the evening's work was concluded, and the party drew from the
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abode of the quiet dead, closing the old iron door, and shooting
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the lock loudly into the huge copper staple--an incongruous act of
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imprisonment towards those who had no dreams of escape.
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Chapter XXVII
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'How should I greet thee?'
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Love frequently dies of time alone--much more frequently of
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displacement. With Elfride Swancourt, a powerful reason why the
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displacement should be successful was that the new-comer was a
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greater man than the first. By the side of the instructive and
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piquant snubbings she received from Knight, Stephen's general
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agreeableness seemed watery; by the side of Knight's spare love-
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making, Stephen's continual outflow seemed lackadaisical. She had
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begun to sigh for somebody further on in manhood. Stephen was
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hardly enough of a man.
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Perhaps there was a proneness to inconstancy in her nature--a
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nature, to those who contemplate it from a standpoint beyond the
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influence of that inconstancy, the most exquisite of all in its
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plasticity and ready sympathies. Partly, too, Stephen's failure
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to make his hold on her heart a permanent one was his too timid
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habit of dispraising himself beside her--a peculiarity which,
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exercised towards sensible men, stirs a kindly chord of attachment
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that a marked assertiveness would leave untouched, but inevitably
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leads the most sensible woman in the world to undervalue him who
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practises it. Directly domineering ceases in the man, snubbing
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begins in the woman; the trite but no less unfortunate fact being
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that the gentler creature rarely has the capacity to appreciate
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fair treatment from her natural complement. The abiding
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perception of the position of Stephen's parents had, of course, a
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little to do with Elfride's renunciation. To such girls poverty
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may not be, as to the more worldly masses of humanity, a sin in
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itself; but it is a sin, because graceful and dainty manners
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seldom exist in such an atmosphere. Few women of old family can
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be thoroughly taught that a fine soul may wear a smock-frock, and
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an admittedly common man in one is but a worm in their eyes. John
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Smith's rough hands and clothes, his wife's dialect, the necessary
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narrowness of their ways, being constantly under Elfride's notice,
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were not without their deflecting influence.
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On reaching home after the perilous adventure by the sea-shore,
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Knight had felt unwell, and retired almost immediately. The young
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lady who had so materially assisted him had done the same, but she
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reappeared, properly clothed, about five o'clock. She wandered
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restlessly about the house, but not on account of their joint
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narrow escape from death. The storm which had torn the tree had
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merely bowed the reed, and with the deliverance of Knight all deep
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|
thought of the accident had left her. The mutual avowal which it
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had been the means of precipitating occupied a far longer length
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of her meditations.
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Elfride's disquiet now was on account of that miserable promise to
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meet Stephen, which returned like a spectre again and again. The
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perception of his littleness beside Knight grew upon her
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alarmingly. She now thought how sound had been her father's
|
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advice to her to give him up, and was as passionately desirous of
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following it as she had hitherto been averse. Perhaps there is
|
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nothing more hardening to the tone of young minds than thus to
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discover how their dearest and strongest wishes become gradually
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attuned by Time the Cynic to the very note of some selfish policy
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which in earlier days they despised.
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The hour of appointment came, and with it a crisis; and with the
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crisis a collapse.
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'God forgive me--I can't meet Stephen!' she exclaimed to herself.
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'I don't love him less, but I love Mr. Knight more!'
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Yes: she would save herself from a man not fit for her--in spite
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of vows. She would obey her father, and have no more to do with
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Stephen Smith. Thus the fickle resolve showed signs of assuming
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the complexion of a virtue.
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The following days were passed without any definite avowal from
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Knight's lips. Such solitary walks and scenes as that witnessed
|
|
by Smith in the summer-house were frequent, but he courted her so
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|
intangibly that to any but such a delicate perception as Elfride's
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|
it would have appeared no courtship at all. The time now really
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|
began to be sweet with her. She dismissed the sense of sin in her
|
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past actions, and was automatic in the intoxication of the moment.
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The fact that Knight made no actual declaration was no drawback.
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Knowing since the betrayal of his sentiments that love for her
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really existed, she preferred it for the present in its form of
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|
essence, and was willing to avoid for awhile the grosser medium of
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words. Their feelings having been forced to a rather premature
|
|
demonstration, a reaction was indulged in by both.
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But no sooner had she got rid of her troubled conscience on the
|
|
matter of faithlessness than a new anxiety confronted her. It was
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|
lest Knight should accidentally meet Stephen in the parish, and
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that herself should be the subject of discourse.
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Elfride, learning Knight more thoroughly, perceived that, far
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|
from having a notion of Stephen's precedence, he had no idea that
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she had ever been wooed before by anybody. On ordinary occasions
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she had a tongue so frank as to show her whole mind, and a mind so
|
|
straightforward as to reveal her heart to its innermost shrine.
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But the time for a change had come. She never alluded to even a
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|
knowledge of Knight's friend. When women are secret they are
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secret indeed; and more often than not they only begin to be
|
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secret with the advent of a second lover.
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The elopement was now a spectre worse than the first, and, like
|
|
the Spirit in Glenfinlas, it waxed taller with every attempt to
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|
lay it. Her natural honesty invited her to confide in Knight, and
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|
trust to his generosity for forgiveness: she knew also that as
|
|
mere policy it would be better to tell him early if he was to be
|
|
told at all. The longer her concealment the more difficult would
|
|
be the revelation. But she put it off. The intense fear which
|
|
accompanies intense love in young women was too strong to allow
|
|
the exercise of a moral quality antagonistic to itself:
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'Where love is great, the littlest doubts are fear;
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|
Where little fears grow great, great love grows there.'
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The match was looked upon as made by her father and mother. The
|
|
vicar remembered her promise to reveal the meaning of the telegram
|
|
she had received, and two days after the scene in the summer-
|
|
house, asked her pointedly. She was frank with him now.
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'I had been corresponding with Stephen Smith ever since he left
|
|
England, till lately,' she calmly said.
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'What!' cried the vicar aghast; 'under the eyes of Mr. Knight,
|
|
too?'
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'No; when I found I cared most for Mr. Knight, I obeyed you.'
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|
'You were very kind, I'm sure. When did you begin to like Mr.
|
|
Knight?'
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'I don't see that that is a pertinent question, papa; the telegram
|
|
was from the shipping agent, and was not sent at my request. It
|
|
announced the arrival of the vessel bringing him home.'
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|
|
'Home! What, is he here?'
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'Yes; in the village, I believe.'
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|
|
|
'Has he tried to see you?'
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|
|
'Only by fair means. But don't, papa, question me so! It is
|
|
torture.'
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|
|
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'I will only say one word more,' he replied. 'Have you met him?'
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|
'I have not. I can assure you that at the present moment there is
|
|
no more of an understanding between me and the young man you so
|
|
much disliked than between him and you. You told me to forget
|
|
him; and I have forgotten him.'
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|
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|
'Oh, well; though you did not obey me in the beginning, you are a
|
|
good girl, Elfride, in obeying me at last.'
|
|
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|
'Don't call me "good," papa,' she said bitterly; 'you don't know--
|
|
and the less said about some things the better. Remember, Mr.
|
|
Knight knows nothing about the other. Oh, how wrong it all is! I
|
|
don't know what I am coming to.'
|
|
|
|
'As matters stand, I should be inclined to tell him; or, at any
|
|
rate, I should not alarm myself about his knowing. He found out
|
|
the other day that this was the parish young Smith's father lives
|
|
in--what puts you in such a flurry?'
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|
|
|
'I can't say; but promise--pray don't let him know! It would be my
|
|
ruin!'
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|
|
|
'Pooh, child. Knight is a good fellow and a clever man; but at
|
|
the same time it does not escape my perceptions that he is no
|
|
great catch for you. Men of his turn of mind are nothing so
|
|
wonderful in the way of husbands. If you had chosen to wait, you
|
|
might have mated with a much wealthier man. But remember, I have
|
|
not a word to say against your having him, if you like him.
|
|
Charlotte is delighted, as you know.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, papa,' she said, smiling hopefully through a sigh, 'it is
|
|
nice to feel that in giving way to--to caring for him, I have
|
|
pleased my family. But I am not good; oh no, I am very far from
|
|
that!'
|
|
|
|
'None of us are good, I am sorry to say,' said her father blandly;
|
|
'but girls have a chartered right to change their minds, you know.
|
|
It has been recognized by poets from time immemorial. Catullus
|
|
says, "Mulier cupido quod dicit amanti, in vento--' What a memory
|
|
mine is! However, the passage is, that a woman's words to a lover
|
|
are as a matter of course written only on wind and water. Now
|
|
don't be troubled about that, Elfride.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, you don't know!'
|
|
|
|
They had been standing on the lawn, and Knight was now seen
|
|
lingering some way down a winding walk. When Elfride met him, it
|
|
was with a much greater lightness of heart; things were more
|
|
straightforward now. The responsibility of her fickleness seemed
|
|
partly shifted from her own shoulders to her father's. Still,
|
|
there were shadows.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, could he have known how far I went with Stephen, and yet have
|
|
said the same, how much happier I should be!' That was her
|
|
prevailing thought.
|
|
|
|
In the afternoon the lovers went out together on horseback for an
|
|
hour or two; and though not wishing to be observed, by reason of
|
|
the late death of Lady Luxellian, whose funeral had taken place
|
|
very privately on the previous day, they yet found it necessary to
|
|
pass East Endelstow Church.
|
|
|
|
The steps to the vault, as has been stated, were on the outside of
|
|
the building, immediately under the aisle wall. Being on
|
|
horseback, both Knight and Elfride could overlook the shrubs which
|
|
screened the church-yard.
|
|
|
|
'Look, the vault seems still to be open,' said Knight.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, it is open,' she answered
|
|
|
|
'Who is that man close by it? The mason, I suppose?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes.'
|
|
|
|
'I wonder if it is John Smith, Stephen's father?'
|
|
|
|
'I believe it is,' said Elfride, with apprehension.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, and can it be? I should like to inquire how his son, my
|
|
truant protege', is going on. And from your father's description
|
|
of the vault, the interior must be interesting. Suppose we go
|
|
in.'
|
|
|
|
'Had we better, do you think? May not Lord Luxellian be there?'
|
|
|
|
'It is not at all likely.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride then assented, since she could do nothing else. Her
|
|
heart, which at first had quailed in consternation, recovered
|
|
itself when she considered the character of John Smith. A quiet
|
|
unassuming man, he would be sure to act towards her as before
|
|
those love passages with his son, which might have given a more
|
|
pretentious mechanic airs. So without much alarm she took
|
|
Knight's arm after dismounting, and went with him between and over
|
|
the graves. The master-mason recognized her as she approached,
|
|
and, as usual, lifted his hat respectfully.
|
|
|
|
'I know you to be Mr. Smith, my former friend Stephen's father,'
|
|
said Knight, directly he had scanned the embrowned and ruddy
|
|
features of John.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, sir, I b'lieve I be.'
|
|
|
|
'How is your son now? I have only once heard from him since he
|
|
went to India. I daresay you have heard him speak of me--Mr.
|
|
Knight, who became acquainted with him some years ago in
|
|
Exonbury.'
|
|
|
|
'Ay, that I have. Stephen is very well, thank you, sir, and he's
|
|
in England; in fact, he's at home. In short, sir, he's down in
|
|
the vault there, a-looking at the departed coffins.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride's heart fluttered like a butterfly.
|
|
|
|
Knight looked amazed. 'Well, that is extraordinary.' he murmured.
|
|
'Did he know I was in the parish?'
|
|
|
|
'I really can't say, sir,' said John, wishing himself out of the
|
|
entanglement he rather suspected than thoroughly understood.
|
|
|
|
'Would it be considered an intrusion by the family if we went into
|
|
the vault?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, bless ye, no, sir; scores of folk have been stepping down.
|
|
'Tis left open a-purpose.'
|
|
|
|
'We will go down, Elfride.'
|
|
|
|
'I am afraid the air is close,' she said appealingly.
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, ma'am,' said John. 'We white-limed the walls and arches
|
|
the day 'twas opened, as we always do, and again on the morning of
|
|
the funeral; the place is as sweet as a granary.
|
|
|
|
'Then I should like you to accompany me, Elfie; having originally
|
|
sprung from the family too.'
|
|
|
|
'I don't like going where death is so emphatically present. I'll
|
|
stay by the horses whilst you go in; they may get loose.'
|
|
|
|
'What nonsense! I had no idea your sentiments were so flimsily
|
|
formed as to be perturbed by a few remnants of mortality; but stay
|
|
out, if you are so afraid, by all means.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, I am not afraid; don't say that.'
|
|
|
|
She held miserably to his arm, thinking that, perhaps, the
|
|
revelation might as well come at once as ten minutes later, for
|
|
Stephen would be sure to accompany his friend to his horse.
|
|
|
|
At first, the gloom of the vault, which was lighted only by a
|
|
couple of candles, was too great to admit of their seeing anything
|
|
distinctly; but with a further advance Knight discerned, in front
|
|
of the black masses lining the walls, a young man standing, and
|
|
writing in a pocket-book.
|
|
|
|
Knight said one word: 'Stephen!'
|
|
|
|
Stephen Smith, not being in such absolute ignorance of Knight's
|
|
whereabouts as Knight had been of Smith's instantly recognized his
|
|
friend, and knew by rote the outlines of the fair woman standing
|
|
behind him.
|
|
|
|
Stephen came forward and shook him by the hand, without speaking.
|
|
|
|
'Why have you not written, my boy?' said Knight, without in any
|
|
way signifying Elfride's presence to Stephen. To the essayist,
|
|
Smith was still the country lad whom he had patronized and tended;
|
|
one to whom the formal presentation of a lady betrothed to himself
|
|
would have seemed incongruous and absurd.
|
|
|
|
'Why haven't you written to me?' said Stephen.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, yes. Why haven't I? why haven't we? That's always the query
|
|
which we cannot clearly answer without an unsatisfactory sense of
|
|
our inadequacies. However, I have not forgotten you, Smith. And
|
|
now we have met; and we must meet again, and have a longer chat
|
|
than this can conveniently be. I must know all you have been
|
|
doing. That yon have thriven, I know, and you must teach me the
|
|
way.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride stood in the background. Stephen had read the position at
|
|
a glance, and immediately guessed that she had never mentioned his
|
|
name to Knight. His tact in avoiding catastrophes was the chief
|
|
quality which made him intellectually respectable, in which
|
|
quality he far transcended Knight; and he decided that a tranquil
|
|
issue out of the encounter, without any harrowing of the feelings
|
|
of either Knight or Elfride, was to be attempted if possible. His
|
|
old sense of indebtedness to Knight had never wholly forsaken him;
|
|
his love for Elfride was generous now.
|
|
|
|
As far as he dared look at her movements he saw that her bearing
|
|
towards him would be dictated by his own towards her; and if he
|
|
acted as a stranger she would do likewise as a means of
|
|
deliverance. Circumstances favouring this course, it was
|
|
desirable also to be rather reserved towards Knight, to shorten
|
|
the meeting as much as possible.
|
|
|
|
'I am afraid that my time is almost too short to allow even of
|
|
such a pleasure,' he said. 'I leave here to-morrow. And until I
|
|
start for the Continent and India, which will be in a fortnight, I
|
|
shall have hardly a moment to spare.'
|
|
|
|
Knight's disappointment and dissatisfied looks at this reply sent
|
|
a pang through Stephen as great as any he had felt at the sight of
|
|
Elfride. The words about shortness of time were literally true,
|
|
but their tone was far from being so. He would have been
|
|
gratified to talk with Knight as in past times, and saw as a dead
|
|
loss to himself that, to save the woman who cared nothing for him,
|
|
he was deliberately throwing away his friend.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, I am sorry to hear that,' said Knight, in a changed tone.
|
|
'But of course, if you have weighty concerns to attend to, they
|
|
must not be neglected. And if this is to be our first and last
|
|
meeting, let me say that I wish you success with all my heart!'
|
|
Knight's warmth revived towards the end; the solemn impressions he
|
|
was beginning to receive from the scene around them abstracting
|
|
from his heart as a puerility any momentary vexation at words.
|
|
'It is a strange place for us to meet in,' he continued, looking
|
|
round the vault.
|
|
|
|
Stephen briefly assented, and there was a silence. The blackened
|
|
coffins were now revealed more clearly than at first, the whitened
|
|
walls and arches throwing them forward in strong relief. It was a
|
|
scene which was remembered by all three as an indelible mark in
|
|
their history. Knight, with an abstracted face, was standing
|
|
between his companions, though a little in advance of them,
|
|
Elfride being on his right hand, and Stephen Smith on his left.
|
|
The white daylight on his right side gleamed faintly in, and was
|
|
toned to a blueness by contrast with the yellow rays from the
|
|
candle against the wall. Elfride, timidly shrinking back, and
|
|
nearest the entrance, received most of the light therefrom, whilst
|
|
Stephen was entirely in candlelight, and to him the spot of outer
|
|
sky visible above the steps was as a steely blue patch, and
|
|
nothing more.
|
|
|
|
'I have been here two or three times since it was opened,' said
|
|
Stephen. 'My father was engaged in the work, you know.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes. What are you doing?' Knight inquired, looking at the note-
|
|
book and pencil Stephen held in his hand.
|
|
|
|
'I have been sketching a few details in the church, and since then
|
|
I have been copying the names from some of the coffins here.
|
|
Before I left England I used to do a good deal of this sort of
|
|
thing.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; of course. Ah, that's poor Lady Luxellian, I suppose.'
|
|
Knight pointed to a coffin of light satin-wood, which stood on the
|
|
stone sleepers in the new niche. 'And the remainder of the family
|
|
are on this side. Who are those two, so snug and close together?'
|
|
|
|
Stephen's voice altered slightly as he replied 'That's Lady
|
|
Elfride Kingsmore--born Luxellian, and that is Arthur, her
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husband. I have heard my father say that they--he--ran away with
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her, and married her against the wish of her parents.'
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'Then I imagine this to be where you got your Christian name, Miss
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Swancourt?' said Knight, turning to her. 'I think you told me it
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was three or four generations ago that your family branched off
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from the Luxellians?'
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'She was my grandmother,' said Elfride, vainly endeavouring to
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moisten her dry lips before she spoke. Elfride had then the
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conscience-stricken look of Guido's Magdalen, rendered upon a more
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childlike form. She kept her face partially away from Knight and
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Stephen, and set her eyes upon the sky visible outside, as if her
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salvation depended upon quickly reaching it. Her left hand rested
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lightly within Knight's arm, half withdrawn, from a sense of shame
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at claiming him before her old lover, yet unwilling to renounce
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him; so that her glove merely touched his sleeve. '"Can one be
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pardoned, and retain the offence?"' quoted Elfride's heart then.
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Conversation seemed to have no self-sustaining power, and went on
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in the shape of disjointed remarks. 'One's mind gets thronged
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with thoughts while standing so solemnly here,' Knight said, in a
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measured quiet voice. 'How much has been said on death from time
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to time! how much we ourselves can think upon it! We may fancy
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each of these who lie here saying:
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'For Thou, to make my fall more great,
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Didst lift me up on high.'
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What comes next, Elfride? It is the Hundred-and-second Psalm I am
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thinking of.'
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'Yes, I know it,' she murmured, and went on in a still lower
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voice, seemingly afraid for any words from the emotional side of
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her nature to reach Stephen:
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'"My days, just hastening to their end,
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Are like an evening shade;
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My beauty doth, like wither'd grass,
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With waning lustre fade."'
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'Well,' said Knight musingly, 'let us leave them. Such occasions
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as these seem to compel us to roam outside ourselves, far away
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from the fragile frame we live in, and to expand till our
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perception grows so vast that our physical reality bears no sort
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of proportion to it. We look back upon the weak and minute stem
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on which this luxuriant growth depends, and ask, Can it be
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possible that such a capacity has a foundation so small? Must I
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again return to my daily walk in that narrow cell, a human body,
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where worldly thoughts can torture me? Do we not?'
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'Yes,' said Stephen and Elfride.
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'One has a sense of wrong, too, that such an appreciative breadth
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as a sentient being possesses should be committed to the frail
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casket of a body. What weakens one's intentions regarding the
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future like the thought of this?...However, let us tune ourselves
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to a more cheerful chord, for there's a great deal to be done yet
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by us all.'
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As Knight meditatively addressed his juniors thus, unconscious of
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the deception practised, for different reasons, by the severed
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hearts at his side, and of the scenes that had in earlier days
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united them, each one felt that he and she did not gain by
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contrast with their musing mentor. Physically not so handsome as
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either the youthful architect or the vicar's daughter, the
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thoroughness and integrity of Knight illuminated his features with
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a dignity not even incipient in the other two. It is difficult to
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frame rules which shall apply to both sexes, and Elfride, an
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undeveloped girl, must, perhaps, hardly be laden with the moral
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responsibilities which attach to a man in like circumstances. The
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charm of woman, too, lies partly in her subtleness in matters of
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love. But if honesty is a virtue in itself, Elfride, having none
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of it now, seemed, being for being, scarcely good enough for
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Knight. Stephen, though deceptive for no unworthy purpose, was
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deceptive after all; and whatever good results grace such strategy
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if it succeed, it seldom draws admiration, especially when it
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fails.
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On an ordinary occasion, had Knight been even quite alone with
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Stephen, he would hardly have alluded to his possible relationship
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to Elfride. But moved by attendant circumstances Knight was
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impelled to be confiding.
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'Stephen,' he said, 'this lady is Miss Swancourt. I am staying at
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her father's house, as you probably know.' He stepped a few paces
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nearer to Smith, and said in a lower tone: 'I may as well tell you
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that we are engaged to be married.'
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Low as the words had been spoken, Elfride had heard them, and
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awaited Stephen's reply in breathless silence, if that could be
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called silence where Elfride's dress, at each throb of her heart,
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shook and indicated it like a pulse-glass, rustling also against
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the wall in reply to the same throbbing. The ray of daylight
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which reached her face lent it a blue pallor in comparison with
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those of the other two.
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'I congratulate you,' Stephen whispered; and said aloud, 'I know
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Miss Swancourt--a little. You must remember that my father is a
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parishioner of Mr. Swancourt's.'
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'I thought you might possibly not have lived at home since they
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have been here.'
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'I have never lived at home, certainly, since that time.'
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'I have seen Mr. Smith,' faltered Elfride.
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'Well, there is no excuse for me. As strangers to each other I
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ought, I suppose, to have introduced you: as acquaintances, I
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should not have stood so persistently between you. But the fact
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is, Smith, you seem a boy to me, even now.'
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Stephen appeared to have a more than previous consciousness of the
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intense cruelty of his fate at the present moment. He could not
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repress the words, uttered with a dim bitterness:
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'You should have said that I seemed still the rural mechanic's son
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I am, and hence an unfit subject for the ceremony of
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introductions.'
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'Oh, no, no! I won't have that.' Knight endeavoured to give his
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reply a laughing tone in Elfride's ears, and an earnestness in
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Stephen's: in both which efforts he signally failed, and produced
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a forced speech pleasant to neither. 'Well, let us go into the
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open air again; Miss Swancourt, you are particularly silent. You
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mustn't mind Smith. I have known him for years, as I have told
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you.'
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'Yes, you have,' she said.
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'To think she has never mentioned her knowledge of me!' Smith
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|
murmured, and thought with some remorse how much her conduct
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|
resembled his own on his first arrival at her house as a stranger
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|
to the place.
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They ascended to the daylight, Knight taking no further notice of
|
|
Elfride's manner, which, as usual, he attributed to the natural
|
|
shyness of a young woman at being discovered walking with him on
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|
terms which left not much doubt of their meaning. Elfride stepped
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a little in advance, and passed through the churchyard.
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'You are changed very considerably, Smith,' said Knight, 'and I
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|
suppose it is no more than was to be expected. However, don't
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|
imagine that I shall feel any the less interest in you and your
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|
fortunes whenever you care to confide them to me. I have not
|
|
forgotten the attachment you spoke of as your reason for going
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|
away to India. A London young lady, was it not? I hope all is
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|
prosperous?'
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'No: the match is broken off.'
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It being always difficult to know whether to express sorrow or
|
|
gladness under such circumstances--all depending upon the
|
|
character of the match--Knight took shelter in the safe words: 'I
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|
trust it was for the best.'
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'I hope it was. But I beg that you will not press me further: no,
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|
you have not pressed me--I don't mean that--but I would rather not
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|
speak upon the subject.'
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Stephen's words were hurried.
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|
Knight said no more, and they followed in the footsteps of
|
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Elfride, who still kept some paces in advance, and had not heard
|
|
Knight's unconscious allusion to her. Stephen bade him adieu at
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|
the churchyard-gate without going outside, and watched whilst he
|
|
and his sweetheart mounted their horses.
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|
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|
'Good heavens, Elfride,' Knight exclaimed, 'how pale you are! I
|
|
suppose I ought not to have taken you into that vault. What is
|
|
the matter?'
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'Nothing,' said Elfride faintly. 'I shall be myself in a moment.
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|
All was so strange and unexpected down there, that it made me
|
|
unwell.'
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'I thought you said very little. Shall I get some water?'
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'No, no.'
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'Do you think it is safe for you to mount?'
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'Quite--indeed it is,' she said, with a look of appeal.
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'Now then--up she goes!' whispered Knight, and lifted her tenderly
|
|
into the saddle.
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|
Her old lover still looked on at the performance as he leant over
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|
the gate a dozen yards off. Once in the saddle, and having a firm
|
|
grip of the reins, she turned her head as if by a resistless
|
|
fascination, and for the first time since that memorable parting
|
|
on the moor outside St. Launce's after the passionate attempt at
|
|
marriage with him, Elfride looked in the face of the young man she
|
|
first had loved. He was the youth who had called her his
|
|
inseparable wife many a time, and whom she had even addressed as
|
|
her husband. Their eyes met. Measurement of life should be
|
|
proportioned rather to the intensity of the experience than to its
|
|
actual length. Their glance, but a moment chronologically, was a
|
|
season in their history. To Elfride the intense agony of reproach
|
|
in Stephen's eye was a nail piercing her heart with a deadliness
|
|
no words can describe. With a spasmodic effort she withdrew her
|
|
eyes, urged on the horse, and in the chaos of perturbed memories
|
|
was oblivious of any presence beside her. The deed of deception
|
|
was complete.
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|
|
|
Gaining a knoll on which the park transformed itself into wood and
|
|
copse, Knight came still closer to her side, and said, 'Are you
|
|
better now, dearest?'
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|
|
|
'Oh yes.' She pressed a hand to her eyes, as if to blot out the
|
|
image of Stephen. A vivid scarlet spot now shone with
|
|
preternatural brightness in the centre of each cheek, leaving the
|
|
remainder of her face lily-white as before.
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|
|
|
'Elfride,' said Knight, rather in his old tone of mentor, 'you
|
|
know I don't for a moment chide you, but is there not a great deal
|
|
of unwomanly weakness in your allowing yourself to be so
|
|
overwhelmed by the sight of what, after all, is no novelty? Every
|
|
woman worthy of the name should, I think, be able to look upon
|
|
death with something like composure. Surely you think so too?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; I own it.'
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|
|
|
His obtuseness to the cause of her indisposition, by evidencing
|
|
his entire freedom from the suspicion of anything behind the
|
|
scenes, showed how incapable Knight was of deception himself,
|
|
rather than any inherent dulness in him regarding human nature.
|
|
This, clearly perceived by Elfride, added poignancy to her self-
|
|
reproach, and she idolized him the more because of their
|
|
difference. Even the recent sight of Stephen's face and the sound
|
|
of his voice, which for a moment had stirred a chord or two of
|
|
ancient kindness, were unable to keep down the adoration re-
|
|
existent now that he was again out of view.
|
|
|
|
She had replied to Knight's question hastily, and immediately went
|
|
on to speak of indifferent subjects. After they had reached home
|
|
she was apart from him till dinner-time. When dinner was over,
|
|
and they were watching the dusk in the drawing-room, Knight
|
|
stepped out upon the terrace. Elfride went after him very
|
|
decisively, on the spur of a virtuous intention.
|
|
|
|
'Mr. Knight, I want to tell you something,' she said, with quiet
|
|
firmness.
|
|
|
|
'And what is it about?' gaily returned her lover. 'Happiness, I
|
|
hope. Do not let anything keep you so sad as you seem to have
|
|
been to-day.'
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|
|
|
'I cannot mention the matter until I tell you the whole substance
|
|
of it,' she said. 'And that I will do to-morrow. I have been
|
|
reminded of it to-day. It is about something I once did, and
|
|
don't think I ought to have done.'
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|
|
|
This, it must be said, was rather a mild way of referring to a
|
|
frantic passion and flight, which, much or little in itself, only
|
|
accident had saved from being a scandal in the public eye.
|
|
|
|
Knight thought the matter some trifle, and said pleasantly:
|
|
|
|
'Then I am not to hear the dreadful confession now?'
|
|
|
|
'No, not now. I did not mean to-night,' Elfride responded, with a
|
|
slight decline in the firmness of her voice. 'It is not light as
|
|
you think it--it troubles me a great deal.' Fearing now the
|
|
effect of her own earnestness, she added forcedly, 'Though,
|
|
perhaps, you may think it light after all.'
|
|
|
|
'But you have not said when it is to be?'
|
|
|
|
'To-morrow morning. Name a time, will you, and bind me to it? I
|
|
want you to fix an hour, because I am weak, and may otherwise try
|
|
to get out of it.' She added a little artificial laugh, which
|
|
showed how timorous her resolution was still.
|
|
|
|
'Well, say after breakfast--at eleven o'clock.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, eleven o'clock. I promise you. Bind me strictly to my
|
|
word.'
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|
|
Chapter XXVIII
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|
|
|
'I lull a fancy, trouble-tost.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Miss Swancourt, it is eleven o'clock.'
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|
|
|
She was looking out of her dressing-room window on the first
|
|
floor, and Knight was regarding her from the terrace balustrade,
|
|
upon which he had been idly sitting for some time--dividing the
|
|
glances of his eye between the pages of a book in his hand, the
|
|
brilliant hues of the geraniums and calceolarias, and the open
|
|
window above-mentioned.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, it is, I know. I am coming.'
|
|
|
|
He drew closer, and under the window.
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|
|
|
'How are you this morning, Elfride? You look no better for your
|
|
long night's rest.'
|
|
|
|
She appeared at the door shortly after, took his offered arm, and
|
|
together they walked slowly down the gravel path leading to the
|
|
river and away under the trees.
|
|
|
|
Her resolution, sustained during the last fifteen hours, had been
|
|
to tell the whole truth, and now the moment had come.
|
|
|
|
Step by step they advanced, and still she did not speak. They
|
|
were nearly at the end of the walk, when Knight broke the silence.
|
|
|
|
'Well, what is the confession, Elfride?'
|
|
|
|
She paused a moment, drew a long breath; and this is what she
|
|
said:
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|
|
|
'I told you one day--or rather I gave you to understand--what was
|
|
not true. I fancy you thought me to mean I was nineteen my next
|
|
birthday, but it was my last I was nineteen.'
|
|
|
|
The moment had been too much for her. Now that the crisis had
|
|
come, no qualms of conscience, no love of honesty, no yearning to
|
|
make a confidence and obtain forgiveness with a kiss, could string
|
|
Elfride up to the venture. Her dread lest he should be
|
|
unforgiving was heightened by the thought of yesterday's artifice,
|
|
which might possibly add disgust to his disappointment. The
|
|
certainty of one more day's affection, which she gained by
|
|
silence, outvalued the hope of a perpetuity combined with the risk
|
|
of all.
|
|
|
|
The trepidation caused by these thoughts on what she had intended
|
|
to say shook so naturally the words she did say, that Knight never
|
|
for a moment suspected them to be a last moment's substitution.
|
|
He smiled and pressed her hand warmly.
|
|
|
|
'My dear Elfie--yes, you are now--no protestation--what a winning
|
|
little woman you are, to be so absurdly scrupulous about a mere
|
|
iota! Really, I never once have thought whether your nineteenth
|
|
year was the last or the present. And, by George, well I may not;
|
|
for it would never do for a staid fogey a dozen years older to
|
|
stand upon such a trifle as that.'
|
|
|
|
'Don't praise me--don't praise me! Though I prize it from your
|
|
lips, I don't deserve it now.'
|
|
|
|
But Knight, being in an exceptionally genial mood, merely saw this
|
|
distressful exclamation as modesty. 'Well,' he added, after a
|
|
minute, 'I like you all the better, you know, for such moral
|
|
precision, although I called it absurd.' He went on with tender
|
|
earnestness: 'For, Elfride, there is one thing I do love to see in
|
|
a woman--that is, a soul truthful and clear as heaven's light. I
|
|
could put up with anything if I had that--forgive nothing if I had
|
|
it not. Elfride, you have such a soul, if ever woman had; and
|
|
having it, retain it, and don't ever listen to the fashionable
|
|
theories of the day about a woman's privileges and natural right
|
|
to practise wiles. Depend upon it, my dear girl, that a noble
|
|
woman must be as honest as a noble man. I specially mean by
|
|
honesty, fairness not only in matters of business and social
|
|
detail, but in all the delicate dealings of love, to which the
|
|
licence given to your sex particularly refers.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride looked troublously at the trees.
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|
|
|
'Now let us go on to the river, Elfie.'
|
|
|
|
'I would if I had a hat on,' she said with a sort of suppressed
|
|
woe.
|
|
|
|
'I will get it for you,' said Knight, very willing to purchase her
|
|
companionship at so cheap a price. 'You sit down there a minute.'
|
|
And he turned and walked rapidly back to the house for the article
|
|
in question.
|
|
|
|
Elfride sat down upon one of the rustic benches which adorned this
|
|
portion of the grounds, and remained with her eyes upon the grass.
|
|
She was induced to lift them by hearing the brush of light and
|
|
irregular footsteps hard by. Passing along the path which
|
|
intersected the one she was in and traversed the outer
|
|
shrubberies, Elfride beheld the farmer's widow, Mrs. Jethway.
|
|
Before she noticed Elfride, she paused to look at the house,
|
|
portions of which were visible through the bushes. Elfride,
|
|
shrinking back, hoped the unpleasant woman might go on without
|
|
seeing her. But Mrs. Jethway, silently apostrophizing the house,
|
|
with actions which seemed dictated by a half-overturned reason,
|
|
had discerned the girl, and immediately came up and stood in front
|
|
of her.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, Miss Swancourt! Why did you disturb me? Mustn't I trespass
|
|
here?'
|
|
|
|
'You may walk here if you like, Mrs. Jethway. I do not disturb
|
|
you.'
|
|
|
|
'You disturb my mind, and my mind is my whole life; for my boy is
|
|
there still, and he is gone from my body.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, poor young man. I was sorry when he died.'
|
|
|
|
'Do you know what he died of? '
|
|
|
|
'Consumption.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, no!' said the widow. 'That word "consumption" covers a
|
|
good deal. He died because you were his own well-agreed
|
|
sweetheart, and then proved false--and it killed him. Yes, Miss
|
|
Swancourt,' she said in an excited whisper, 'you killed my son!'
|
|
|
|
'How can you be so wicked and foolish!' replied Elfride, rising
|
|
indignantly. But indignation was not natural to her, and having
|
|
been so worn and harrowed by late events, she lost any powers of
|
|
defence that mood might have lent her. 'I could not help his
|
|
loving me, Mrs. Jethway!'
|
|
|
|
'That's just what you could have helped. You know how it began,
|
|
Miss Elfride. Yes: you said you liked the name of Felix better
|
|
than any other name in the parish, and you knew it was his name,
|
|
and that those you said it to would report it to him.'
|
|
|
|
'I knew it was his name--of course I did; but I am sure, Mrs.
|
|
Jethway, I did not intend anybody to tell him.'
|
|
|
|
'But you knew they would.'
|
|
|
|
'No, I didn't.'
|
|
|
|
'And then, after that, when you were riding on Revels-day by our
|
|
house, and the lads were gathered there, and you wanted to
|
|
dismount, when Jim Drake and George Upway and three or four more
|
|
ran forward to hold your pony, and Felix stood back timid, why did
|
|
you beckon to him, and say you would rather he held it? '
|
|
|
|
'O Mrs. Jethway, you do think so mistakenly! I liked him best--
|
|
that's why I wanted him to do it. He was gentle and nice--I
|
|
always thought him so--and I liked him.'
|
|
|
|
'Then why did you let him kiss you?'
|
|
|
|
'It is a falsehood; oh, it is, it is!' said Elfride, weeping with
|
|
desperation. 'He came behind me, and attempted to kiss me; and
|
|
that was why I told him never to let me see him again.'
|
|
|
|
'But you did not tell your father or anybody, as you would have if
|
|
you had looked upon it then as the insult you now pretend it was.'
|
|
|
|
'He begged me not to tell, and foolishly enough I did not. And I
|
|
wish I had now. I little expected to be scourged with my own
|
|
kindness. Pray leave me, Mrs. Jethway.' The girl only
|
|
expostulated now.
|
|
|
|
'Well, you harshly dismissed him, and he died. And before his
|
|
body was cold, you took another to your heart. Then as carelessly
|
|
sent him about his business, and took a third. And if you
|
|
consider that nothing, Miss Swancourt,' she continued, drawing
|
|
closer; 'it led on to what was very serious indeed. Have you
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forgotten the would-be runaway marriage? The journey to London,
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and the return the next day without being married, and that
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there's enough disgrace in that to ruin a woman's good name far
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less light than yours? You may have: I have not. Fickleness
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towards a lover is bad, but fickleness after playing the wife is
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wantonness.'
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'Oh, it's a wicked cruel lie! Do not say it; oh, do not! '
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'Does your new man know of it? I think not, or he would be no man
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of yours! As much of the story as was known is creeping about the
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neighbourhood even now; but I know more than any of them, and why
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should I respect your love?'
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'I defy you!' cried Elfride tempestuously. 'Do and say all you
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can to ruin me; try; put your tongue at work; I invite it! I defy
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you as a slanderous woman! Look, there he comes.' And her voice
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trembled greatly as she saw through the leaves the beloved form of
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Knight coming from the door with her hat in his hand. 'Tell him
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at once; I can bear it.'
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'Not now,' said the woman, and disappeared down the path.
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The excitement of her latter words had restored colour to
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Elfride's cheeks; and hastily wiping her eyes, she walked farther
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on, so that by the time her lover had overtaken her the traces of
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emotion had nearly disappeared from her face. Knight put the hat
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upon her head, took her hand, and drew it within his arm.
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It was the last day but one previous to their departure for St.
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Leonards; and Knight seemed to have a purpose in being much in her
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company that day. They rambled along the valley. The season was
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that period in the autumn when the foliage alone of an ordinary
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plantation is rich enough in hues to exhaust the chromatic
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combinations of an artist's palette. Most lustrous of all are the
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beeches, graduating from bright rusty red at the extremity of the
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boughs to a bright yellow at their inner parts; young oaks are
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still of a neutral green; Scotch firs and hollies are nearly blue;
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whilst occasional dottings of other varieties give maroons and
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purples of every tinge.
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The river--such as it was--here pursued its course amid flagstones
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as level as a pavement, but divided by crevices of irregular
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width. With the summer drought the torrent had narrowed till it
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was now but a thread of crystal clearness, meandering along a
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central channel in the rocky bed of the winter current. Knight
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scrambled through the bushes which at this point nearly covered
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the brook from sight, and leapt down upon the dry portion of the
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river bottom.
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'Elfride, I never saw such a sight!' he exclaimed. 'The hazels
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overhang the river's course in a perfect arch, and the floor is
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beautifully paved. The place reminds one of the passages of a
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cloister. Let me help you down.'
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He assisted her through the marginal underwood and down to the
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stones. They walked on together to a tiny cascade about a foot
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wide and high, and sat down beside it on the flags that for nine
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|
months in the year were submerged beneath a gushing bourne. From
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their feet trickled the attenuated thread of water which alone
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remained to tell the intent and reason of this leaf-covered aisle,
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and journeyed on in a zigzag line till lost in the shade.
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Knight, leaning on his elbow, after contemplating all this, looked
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critically at Elfride.
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'Does not such a luxuriant head of hair exhaust itself and get
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thin as the years go on from eighteen to eight-and-twenty?' he
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|
asked at length.
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'Oh no!' she said quickly, with a visible disinclination to
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harbour such a thought, which came upon her with an unpleasantness
|
|
whose force it would be difficult for men to understand. She
|
|
added afterwards, with smouldering uneasiness, 'Do you really
|
|
think that a great abundance of hair is more likely to get thin
|
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than a moderate quantity?'
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'Yes, I really do. I believe--am almost sure, in fact--that if
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|
statistics could be obtained on the subject, you would find the
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|
persons with thin hair were those who had a superabundance
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|
originally, and that those who start with a moderate quantity
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|
retain it without much loss.'
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Elfride's troubles sat upon her face as well as in her heart.
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|
Perhaps to a woman it is almost as dreadful to think of losing her
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|
beauty as of losing her reputation. At any rate, she looked quite
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|
as gloomy as she had looked at any minute that day.
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'You shouldn't be so troubled about a mere personal adornment,'
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said Knight, with some of the severity of tone that had been
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|
customary before she had beguiled him into softness.
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'I think it is a woman's duty to be as beautiful as she can. If I
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|
were a scholar, I would give you chapter and verse for it from one
|
|
of your own Latin authors. I know there is such a passage, for
|
|
papa has alluded to it.'
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"'Munditiae, et ornatus, et cultus," &c.--is that it? A passage in
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|
Livy which is no defence at all.'
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'No, it is not that.'
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'Never mind, then; for I have a reason for not taking up my old
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|
cudgels against you, Elfie. Can you guess what the reason is?'
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'No; but I am glad to hear it,' she said thankfully. 'For it is
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|
dreadful when you talk so. For whatever dreadful name the
|
|
weakness may deserve, I must candidly own that I am terrified to
|
|
think my hair may ever get thin.'
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'Of course; a sensible woman would rather lose her wits than her
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|
beauty.'
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'I don't care if you do say satire and judge me cruelly. I know
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|
my hair is beautiful; everybody says so.'
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|
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|
'Why, my dear Miss Swancourt,' he tenderly replied, 'I have not
|
|
said anything against it. But you know what is said about
|
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handsome being and handsome doing.'
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|
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'Poor Miss Handsome-does cuts but a sorry figure beside Miss
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|
Handsome-is in every man's eyes, your own not excepted, Mr.
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|
Knight, though it pleases you to throw off so,' said Elfride
|
|
saucily. And lowering her voice: 'You ought not to have taken so
|
|
much trouble to save me from falling over the cliff, for you don't
|
|
think mine a life worth much trouble evidently.'
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'Perhaps you think mine was not worth yours.'
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'It was worth anybody's!'
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|
Her hand was plashing in the little waterfall, and her eyes were
|
|
bent the same way.
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|
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|
'You talk about my severity with you, Elfride. You are unkind to
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|
me, you know.'
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|
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|
'How?' she asked, looking up from her idle occupation.
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|
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|
'After my taking trouble to get jewellery to please you, you
|
|
wouldn't accept it.'
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|
'Perhaps I would now; perhaps I want to.'
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'Do!' said Knight.
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|
And the packet was withdrawn from his pocket and presented the
|
|
third time. Elfride took it with delight. The obstacle was rent
|
|
in twain, and the significant gift was hers.
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|
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|
'I'll take out these ugly ones at once,' she exclaimed, 'and I'll
|
|
wear yours--shall I?'
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|
'I should be gratified.'
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|
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|
Now, though it may seem unlikely, considering how far the two had
|
|
gone in converse, Knight had never yet ventured to kiss Elfride.
|
|
Far slower was he than Stephen Smith in matters like that. The
|
|
utmost advance he had made in such demonstrations had been to the
|
|
degree witnessed by Stephen in the summer-house. So Elfride's
|
|
cheek being still forbidden fruit to him, he said impulsively.
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|
|
|
'Elfie, I should like to touch that seductive ear of yours. Those
|
|
are my gifts; so let me dress you in them.'
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|
She hesitated with a stimulating hesitation.
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|
|
|
'Let me put just one in its place, then?'
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|
Her face grew much warmer.
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|
|
|
'I don't think it would be quite the usual or proper course,' she
|
|
said, suddenly turning and resuming her operation of plashing in
|
|
the miniature cataract.
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|
|
|
The stillness of things was disturbed by a bird coming to the
|
|
streamlet to drink. After watching him dip his bill, sprinkle
|
|
himself, and fly into a tree, Knight replied, with the courteous
|
|
brusqueness she so much liked to hear--
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|
|
|
'Elfride, now you may as well be fair. You would mind my doing it
|
|
but little, I think; so give me leave, do.'
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|
|
|
'I will be fair, then,' she said confidingly, and looking him full
|
|
in the face. It was a particular pleasure to her to be able to do
|
|
a little honesty without fear. 'I should not mind your doing so--
|
|
I should like such an attention. My thought was, would it be
|
|
right to let you?'
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|
|
|
'Then I will!' he rejoined, with that singular earnestness about a
|
|
small matter--in the eyes of a ladies' man but a momentary peg for
|
|
flirtation or jest--which is only found in deep natures who have
|
|
been wholly unused to toying with womankind, and which, from its
|
|
unwontedness, is in itself a tribute the most precious that can be
|
|
rendered, and homage the most exquisite to be received.
|
|
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|
'And you shall,' she whispered, without reserve, and no longer
|
|
mistress of the ceremonies. And then Elfride inclined herself
|
|
towards him, thrust back her hair, and poised her head sideways.
|
|
In doing this her arm and shoulder necessarily rested against his
|
|
breast.
|
|
|
|
At the touch, the sensation of both seemed to be concentrated at
|
|
the point of contact. All the time he was performing the delicate
|
|
manoeuvre Knight trembled like a young surgeon in his first
|
|
operation.
|
|
|
|
'Now the other,' said Knight in a whisper.
|
|
|
|
'No, no.'
|
|
|
|
'Why not?'
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|
|
|
'I don't know exactly.'
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|
|
|
'You must know.'
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|
|
|
'Your touch agitates me so. Let us go home.'
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|
|
|
'Don't say that, Elfride. What is it, after all? A mere nothing.
|
|
Now turn round, dearest.'
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|
|
|
She was powerless to disobey, and turned forthwith; and then,
|
|
without any defined intention in either's mind, his face and hers
|
|
drew closer together; and he supported her there, and kissed her.
|
|
|
|
Knight was at once the most ardent and the coolest man alive.
|
|
When his emotions slumbered he appeared almost phlegmatic; when
|
|
they were moved he was no less than passionate. And now, without
|
|
having quite intended an early marriage, he put the question
|
|
plainly. It came with all the ardour which was the accumulation
|
|
of long years behind a natural reserve.
|
|
|
|
'Elfride, when shall we be married?'
|
|
|
|
The words were sweet to her; but there was a bitter in the sweet.
|
|
These newly-overt acts of his, which had culminated in this plain
|
|
question, coming on the very day of Mrs. Jethway's blasting
|
|
reproaches, painted distinctly her fickleness as an enormity.
|
|
Loving him in secret had not seemed such thorough-going
|
|
inconstancy as the same love recognized and acted upon in the face
|
|
of threats. Her distraction was interpreted by him at her side as
|
|
the outward signs of an unwonted experience.
|
|
|
|
'I don't press you for an answer now, darling,' he said, seeing
|
|
she was not likely to give a lucid reply. 'Take your time.'
|
|
|
|
Knight was as honourable a man as was ever loved and deluded by
|
|
woman. It may be said that his blindness in love proved the
|
|
point, for shrewdness in love usually goes with meanness in
|
|
general. Once the passion had mastered him, the intellect had
|
|
gone for naught. Knight, as a lover, was more single-minded and
|
|
far simpler than his friend Stephen, who in other capacities was
|
|
shallow beside him.
|
|
|
|
Without saying more on the subject of their marriage, Knight held
|
|
her at arm's length, as if she had been a large bouquet, and
|
|
looked at her with critical affection.
|
|
|
|
'Does your pretty gift become me?' she inquired, with tears of
|
|
excitement on the fringes of her eyes.
|
|
|
|
'Undoubtedly, perfectly!' said her lover, adopting a lighter tone
|
|
to put her at her ease. 'Ah, you should see them; you look
|
|
shinier than ever. Fancy that I have been able to improve you!'
|
|
|
|
'Am I really so nice? I am glad for your sake. I wish I could see
|
|
myself.'
|
|
|
|
'You can't. You must wait till we get home.'
|
|
|
|
'I shall never be able,' she said, laughing. 'Look: here's a
|
|
way.'
|
|
|
|
'So there is. Well done, woman's wit!'
|
|
|
|
'Hold me steady!'
|
|
|
|
'Oh yes.'
|
|
|
|
'And don't let me fall, will you?'
|
|
|
|
'By no means.'
|
|
|
|
Below their seat the thread of water paused to spread out into a
|
|
smooth small pool. Knight supported her whilst she knelt down and
|
|
leant over it.
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|
|
|
'I can see myself. Really, try as religiously as I will, I cannot
|
|
help admiring my appearance in them.'
|
|
|
|
'Doubtless. How can you be so fond of finery? I believe you are
|
|
corrupting me into a taste for it. I used to hate every such
|
|
thing before I knew you.'
|
|
|
|
'I like ornaments, because I want people to admire what you
|
|
possess, and envy you, and say, "I wish I was he." '
|
|
|
|
'I suppose I ought not to object after that. And how much longer
|
|
are you going to look in there at yourself?'
|
|
|
|
'Until you are tired of holding me? Oh, I want to ask you
|
|
something.' And she turned round. 'Now tell truly, won't you?
|
|
What colour of hair do you like best now?'
|
|
|
|
Knight did not answer at the moment.
|
|
|
|
'Say light, do!' she whispered coaxingly. 'Don't say dark, as you
|
|
did that time.'
|
|
|
|
'Light-brown, then. Exactly the colour of my sweetheart's.'
|
|
|
|
'Really?' said Elfride, enjoying as truth what she knew to be
|
|
flattery.
|
|
|
|
'Yes.'
|
|
|
|
'And blue eyes, too, not hazel? Say yes, say yes!'
|
|
|
|
'One recantation is enough for to-day.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no.'
|
|
|
|
'Very well, blue eyes.' And Knight laughed, and drew her close and
|
|
kissed her the second time, which operations he performed with the
|
|
carefulness of a fruiterer touching a bunch of grapes so as not to
|
|
disturb their bloom.
|
|
|
|
Elfride objected to a second, and flung away her face, the
|
|
movement causing a slight disarrangement of hat and hair. Hardly
|
|
thinking what she said in the trepidation of the moment, she
|
|
exclaimed, clapping her hand to her ear--
|
|
|
|
'Ah, we must be careful! I lost the other earring doing like
|
|
this.'
|
|
|
|
No sooner did she realise the significant words than a troubled
|
|
look passed across her face, and she shut her lips as if to keep
|
|
them back.
|
|
|
|
'Doing like what?' said Knight, perplexed.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, sitting down out of doors,' she replied hastily.
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|
|
Chapter XXIX
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|
|
'Care, thou canker.'
|
|
|
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|
|
It is an evening at the beginning of October, and the mellowest of
|
|
autumn sunsets irradiates London, even to its uttermost eastern
|
|
end. Between the eye and the flaming West, columns of smoke stand
|
|
up in the still air like tall trees. Everything in the shade is
|
|
rich and misty blue.
|
|
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. Swancourt and Elfride are looking at these lustrous
|
|
and lurid contrasts from the window of a large hotel near London
|
|
Bridge. The visit to their friends at St. Leonards is over, and
|
|
they are staying a day or two in the metropolis on their way home.
|
|
|
|
Knight spent the same interval of time in crossing over to
|
|
Brittany by way of Jersey and St. Malo. He then passed through
|
|
Normandy, and returned to London also, his arrival there having
|
|
been two days later than that of Elfride and her parents.
|
|
|
|
So the evening of this October day saw them all meeting at the
|
|
above-mentioned hotel, where they had previously engaged
|
|
apartments. During the afternoon Knight had been to his lodgings
|
|
at Richmond to make a little change in the nature of his baggage;
|
|
and on coming up again there was never ushered by a bland waiter
|
|
into a comfortable room a happier man than Knight when shown to
|
|
where Elfride and her step-mother were sitting after a fatiguing
|
|
day of shopping.
|
|
|
|
Elfride looked none the better for her change: Knight was as brown
|
|
as a nut. They were soon engaged by themselves in a corner of the
|
|
room. Now that the precious words of promise had been spoken, the
|
|
young girl had no idea of keeping up her price by the system of
|
|
reserve which other more accomplished maidens use. Her lover was
|
|
with her again, and it was enough: she made her heart over to him
|
|
entirely.
|
|
|
|
Dinner was soon despatched. And when a preliminary round of
|
|
conversation concerning their doings since the last parting had
|
|
been concluded, they reverted to the subject of to-morrow's
|
|
journey home.
|
|
|
|
'That enervating ride through the myrtle climate of South Devon--
|
|
how I dread it to-morrow!' Mrs. Swancourt was saying. 'I had
|
|
hoped the weather would have been cooler by this time.'
|
|
|
|
'Did you ever go by water?' said Knight.
|
|
|
|
'Never--by never, I mean not since the time of railways.'
|
|
|
|
'Then if you can afford an additional day, I propose that we do
|
|
it,' said Knight. 'The Channel is like a lake just now. We
|
|
should reach Plymouth in about forty hours, I think, and the boats
|
|
start from just below the bridge here' (pointing over his shoulder
|
|
eastward).
|
|
|
|
'Hear, hear!' said the vicar.
|
|
|
|
'It's an idea, certainly,' said his wife.
|
|
|
|
'Of course these coasters are rather tubby,' said Knight. 'But
|
|
you wouldn't mind that?'
|
|
|
|
'No: we wouldn't mind.'
|
|
|
|
'And the saloon is a place like the fishmarket of a ninth-rate
|
|
country town, but that wouldn't matter?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh dear, no. If we had only thought of it soon enough, we might
|
|
have had the use of Lord Luxellian's yacht. But never mind, we'll
|
|
go. We shall escape the worrying rattle through the whole length
|
|
of London to-morrow morning--not to mention the risk of being
|
|
killed by excursion trains, which is not a little one at this time
|
|
of the year, if the papers are true.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride, too, thought the arrangement delightful; and accordingly,
|
|
ten o'clock the following morning saw two cabs crawling round by
|
|
the Mint, and between the preternaturally high walls of
|
|
Nightingale Lane towards the river side.
|
|
|
|
The first vehicle was occupied by the travellers in person, and
|
|
the second brought up the luggage, under the supervision of Mrs.
|
|
Snewson, Mrs. Swancourt's maid--and for the last fortnight
|
|
Elfride's also; for although the younger lady had never been
|
|
accustomed to any such attendant at robing times, her stepmother
|
|
forced her into a semblance of familiarity with one when they were
|
|
away from home.
|
|
|
|
Presently waggons, bales, and smells of all descriptions increased
|
|
to such an extent that the advance of the cabs was at the slowest
|
|
possible rate. At intervals it was necessary to halt entirely,
|
|
that the heavy vehicles unloading in front might be moved aside, a
|
|
feat which was not accomplished without a deal of swearing and
|
|
noise. The vicar put his head out of the window.
|
|
|
|
'Surely there must be some mistake in the way,' he said with great
|
|
concern, drawing in his head again. 'There's not a respectable
|
|
conveyance to be seen here except ours. I've heard that there are
|
|
strange dens in this part of London, into which people have been
|
|
entrapped and murdered--surely there is no conspiracy on the part
|
|
of the cabman?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, no. It is all right,' said Mr. Knight, who was as placid
|
|
as dewy eve by the side of Elfride.
|
|
|
|
'But what I argue from,' said the vicar, with a greater emphasis
|
|
of uneasiness, 'are plain appearances. This can't be the highway
|
|
from London to Plymouth by water, because it is no way at all to
|
|
any place. We shall miss our steamer and our train too--that's
|
|
what I think.'
|
|
|
|
'Depend upon it we are right. In fact, here we are.'
|
|
|
|
'Trimmer's Wharf,' said the cabman, opening the door.
|
|
|
|
No sooner had they alighted than they perceived a tussle going on
|
|
between the hindmost cabman and a crowd of light porters who had
|
|
charged him in column, to obtain possession of the bags and boxes,
|
|
Mrs. Snewson's hands being seen stretched towards heaven in the
|
|
midst of the melee. Knight advanced gallantly, and after a hard
|
|
struggle reduced the crowd to two, upon whose shoulders and trucks
|
|
the goods vanished away in the direction of the water's edge with
|
|
startling rapidity.
|
|
|
|
Then more of the same tribe, who had run on ahead, were heard
|
|
shouting to boatmen, three of whom pulled alongside, and two being
|
|
vanquished, the luggage went tumbling into the remaining one.
|
|
|
|
'Never saw such a dreadful scene in my life--never!' said Mr.
|
|
Swancourt, floundering into the boat. 'Worse than Famine and
|
|
Sword upon one. I thought such customs were confined to
|
|
continental ports. Aren't you astonished, Elfride?'
|
|
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'Oh no,' said Elfride, appearing amid the dingy scene like a
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rainbow in a murky sky. 'It is a pleasant novelty, I think.'
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'Where in the wide ocean is our steamer?' the vicar inquired. 'I
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can see nothing but old hulks, for the life of me.'
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'Just behind that one,' said Knight; 'we shall soon be round under
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her.'
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The object of their search was soon after disclosed to view--a
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great lumbering form of inky blackness, which looked as if it had
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never known the touch of a paint-brush for fifty years. It was
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lying beside just such another, and the way on board was down a
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narrow lane of water between the two, about a yard and a half wide
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at one end, and gradually converging to a point. At the moment of
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their entry into this narrow passage, a brilliantly painted rival
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paddled down the river like a trotting steed, creating such a
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series of waves and splashes that their frail wherry was tossed
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like a teacup, and the vicar and his wife slanted this way and
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that, inclining their heads into contact with a Punch-and-Judy air
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and countenance, the wavelets striking the sides of the two hulls,
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and flapping back into their laps.
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'Dreadful! horrible!' Mr. Swancourt murmured privately; and said
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aloud, I thought we walked on board. I don't think really I
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should have come, if I had known this trouble was attached to it.'
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'If they must splash, I wish they would splash us with clean
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water,' said the old lady, wiping her dress with her handkerchief.
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'I hope it is perfectly safe,' continued the vicar.
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'O papa! you are not very brave,' cried Elfride merrily.
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'Bravery is only obtuseness to the perception of contingencies,'
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Mr. Swancourt severely answered.
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Mrs. Swancourt laughed, and Elfride laughed, and Knight laughed,
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in the midst of which pleasantness a man shouted to them from some
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position between their heads and the sky, and they found they were
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close to the Juliet, into which they quiveringly ascended.
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It having been found that the lowness of the tide would prevent
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their getting off for an hour, the Swancourts, having nothing else
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to do, allowed their eyes to idle upon men in blue jerseys
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performing mysterious mending operations with tar-twine; they
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turned to look at the dashes of lurid sunlight, like burnished
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copper stars afloat on the ripples, which danced into and
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tantalized their vision; or listened to the loud music of a steam-
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crane at work close by; or to sighing sounds from the funnels of
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passing steamers, getting dead as they grew more distant; or to
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shouts from the decks of different craft in their vicinity, all of
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them assuming the form of 'Ah-he-hay!'
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Half-past ten: not yet off. Mr. Swancourt breathed a breath of
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weariness, and looked at his fellow-travellers in general. Their
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faces were certainly not worth looking at. The expression
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'Waiting' was written upon them so absolutely that nothing more
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could be discerned there. All animation was suspended till
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Providence should raise the water and let them go.
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'I have been thinking,' said Knight, 'that we have come amongst
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the rarest class of people in the kingdom. Of all human
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characteristics, a low opinion of the value of his own time by an
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individual must be among the strangest to find. Here we see
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numbers of that patient and happy species. Rovers, as distinct
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from travellers.'
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'But they are pleasure-seekers, to whom time is of no importance.'
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'Oh no. The pleasure-seekers we meet on the grand routes are more
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anxious than commercial travellers to rush on. And added to the
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loss of time in getting to their journey's end, these exceptional
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people take their chance of sea-sickness by coming this way.'
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'Can it be?' inquired the vicar with apprehension. 'Surely not,
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Mr. Knight, just here in our English Channel--close at our doors,
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as I may say.'
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'Entrance passages are very draughty places, and the Channel is
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like the rest. It ruins the temper of sailors. It has been
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calculated by philosophers that more damns go up to heaven from
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the Channel, in the course of a year, than from all the five
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|
oceans put together.'
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They really start now, and the dead looks of all the throng come
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|
to life immediately. The man who has been frantically hauling in
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a rope that bade fair to have no end ceases his labours, and they
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glide down the serpentine bends of the Thames.
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Anything anywhere was a mine of interest to Elfride, and so was
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this.
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'It is well enough now,' said Mrs. Swancourt, after they had
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passed the Nore, 'but I can't say I have cared for my voyage
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|
hitherto.' For being now in the open sea a slight breeze had
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sprung up, which cheered her as well as her two younger
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|
companions. But unfortunately it had a reverse effect upon the
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|
vicar, who, after turning a sort of apricot jam colour,
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|
interspersed with dashes of raspberry, pleaded indisposition, and
|
|
vanished from their sight.
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The afternoon wore on. Mrs. Swancourt kindly sat apart by herself
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|
reading, and the betrothed pair were left to themselves. Elfride
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clung trustingly to Knight's arm, and proud was she to walk with
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|
him up and down the deck, or to go forward, and leaning with him
|
|
against the forecastle rails, watch the setting sun gradually
|
|
withdrawing itself over their stern into a huge bank of livid
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|
cloud with golden edges that rose to meet it.
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She was childishly full of life and spirits, though in walking up
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|
and down with him before the other passengers, and getting noticed
|
|
by them, she was at starting rather confused, it being the first
|
|
time she had shown herself so openly under that kind of
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|
protection. 'I expect they are envious and saying things about
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|
us, don't you?' she would whisper to Knight with a stealthy smile.
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'Oh no,' he would answer unconcernedly. 'Why should they envy us,
|
|
and what can they say?'
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'Not any harm, of course,' Elfride replied, 'except such as this:
|
|
"How happy those two are! she is proud enough now." What makes it
|
|
worse,' she continued in the extremity of confidence, 'I heard
|
|
those two cricketing men say just now, "She's the nobbiest girl on
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|
the boat." But I don't mind it, you know, Harry.'
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'I should hardly have supposed you did, even if you had not told
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|
me,' said Knight with great blandness.
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|
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|
She was never tired of asking her lover questions and admiring his
|
|
answers, good, bad, or indifferent as they might be. The evening
|
|
grew dark and night came on, and lights shone upon them from the
|
|
horizon and from the sky.
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|
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|
'Now look there ahead of us, at that halo in the air, of silvery
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|
brightness. Watch it, and you will see what it comes to.'
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|
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|
She watched for a few minutes, when two white lights emerged from
|
|
the side of a hill, and showed themselves to be the origin of the
|
|
halo.
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|
'What a dazzling brilliance! What do they mark?'
|
|
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|
'The South Foreland: they were previously covered by the cliff.'
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|
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|
'What is that level line of little sparkles--a town, I suppose?'
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|
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|
'That's Dover.'
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|
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|
All this time, and later, soft sheet lightning expanded from a
|
|
cloud in their path, enkindling their faces as they paced up and
|
|
down, shining over the water, and, for a moment, showing the
|
|
horizon as a keen line.
|
|
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|
Elfride slept soundly that night. Her first thought the next
|
|
morning was the thrilling one that Knight was as close at hand as
|
|
when they were at home at Endelstow, and her first sight, on
|
|
looking out of the cabin window, was the perpendicular face of
|
|
Beachy Head, gleaming white in a brilliant six-o'clock-in-the-
|
|
morning sun. This fair daybreak, however, soon changed its
|
|
aspect. A cold wind and a pale mist descended upon the sea, and
|
|
seemed to threaten a dreary day.
|
|
|
|
When they were nearing Southampton, Mrs. Swancourt came to say
|
|
that her husband was so ill that he wished to be put on shore
|
|
here, and left to do the remainder of the journey by land. 'He
|
|
will be perfectly well directly he treads firm ground again.
|
|
Which shall we do--go with him, or finish our voyage as we
|
|
intended?'
|
|
|
|
Elfride was comfortably housed under an umbrella which Knight was
|
|
holding over her to keep off the wind. 'Oh, don't let us go on
|
|
shore!' she said with dismay. 'It would be such a pity!'
|
|
|
|
'That's very fine,' said Mrs. Swancourt archly, as to a child.
|
|
'See, the wind has increased her colour, the sea her appetite and
|
|
spirits, and somebody her happiness. Yes, it would be a pity,
|
|
certainly.'
|
|
|
|
''Tis my misfortune to be always spoken to from a pedestal,'
|
|
sighed Elfride.
|
|
|
|
'Well, we will do as you like, Mrs. Swancourt,' said Knight, 'but----'
|
|
|
|
'I myself would rather remain on board,' interrupted the elder
|
|
lady. 'And Mr. Swancourt particularly wishes to go by himself.
|
|
So that shall settle the matter.'
|
|
|
|
The vicar, now a drab colour, was put ashore, and became as well
|
|
as ever forthwith.
|
|
|
|
Elfride, sitting alone in a retired part of the vessel, saw a
|
|
veiled woman walk aboard among the very latest arrivals at this
|
|
port. She was clothed in black silk, and carried a dark shawl
|
|
upon her arm. The woman, without looking around her, turned to
|
|
the quarter allotted to the second-cabin passengers. All the
|
|
carnation Mrs. Swancourt had complimented her step-daughter upon
|
|
possessing left Elfride's cheeks, and she trembled visibly.
|
|
|
|
She ran to the other side of the boat, where Mrs. Swancourt was
|
|
standing.
|
|
|
|
'Let us go home by railway with papa, after all,' she pleaded
|
|
earnestly. 'I would rather go with him--shall we?'
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Swancourt looked around for a moment, as if unable to decide.
|
|
'Ah,' she exclaimed, 'it is too late now. Why did not you say so
|
|
before, when we had plenty of time?'
|
|
|
|
The Juliet had at that minute let go, the engines had started, and
|
|
they were gliding slowly away from the quay. There was no help
|
|
for it but to remain, unless the Juliet could be made to put back,
|
|
and that would create a great disturbance. Elfride gave up the
|
|
idea and submitted quietly. Her happiness was sadly mutilated
|
|
now.
|
|
|
|
The woman whose presence had so disturbed her was exactly like
|
|
Mrs. Jethway. She seemed to haunt Elfride like a shadow. After
|
|
several minutes' vain endeavour to account for any design Mrs.
|
|
Jethway could have in watching her, Elfride decided to think that,
|
|
if it were the widow, the encounter was accidental. She
|
|
remembered that the widow in her restlessness was often visiting
|
|
the village near Southampton, which was her original home, and it
|
|
was possible that she chose water-transit with the idea of saving
|
|
expense.
|
|
|
|
'What is the matter, Elfride?' Knight inquired, standing before
|
|
her.
|
|
|
|
'Nothing more than that I am rather depressed.'
|
|
|
|
'I don't much wonder at it; that wharf was depressing. We seemed
|
|
underneath and inferior to everything around us. But we shall be
|
|
in the sea breeze again soon, and that will freshen you, dear.'
|
|
|
|
The evening closed in and dusk increased as they made way down
|
|
Southampton Water and through the Solent. Elfride's disturbance
|
|
of mind was such that her light spirits of the foregoing four and
|
|
twenty hours had entirely deserted her. The weather too had grown
|
|
more gloomy, for though the showers of the morning had ceased, the
|
|
sky was covered more closely than ever with dense leaden clouds.
|
|
How beautiful was the sunset when they rounded the North Foreland
|
|
the previous evening! now it was impossible to tell within half an
|
|
hour the time of the luminary's going down. Knight led her about,
|
|
and being by this time accustomed to her sudden changes of mood,
|
|
overlooked the necessity of a cause in regarding the conditions--
|
|
impressionableness and elasticity.
|
|
|
|
Elfride looked stealthily to the other end of the vessel. Mrs.
|
|
Jethway, or her double, was sitting at the stern--her eye steadily
|
|
regarding Elfride.
|
|
|
|
'Let us go to the forepart,' she said quickly to Knight. 'See
|
|
there--the man is fixing the lights for the night.'
|
|
|
|
Knight assented, and after watching the operation of fixing the
|
|
red and the green lights on the port and starboard bows, and the
|
|
hoisting of the white light to the masthead, he walked up and down
|
|
with her till the increase of wind rendered promenading difficult.
|
|
Elfride's eyes were occasionally to be found furtively gazing
|
|
abaft, to learn if her enemy were really there. Nobody was
|
|
visible now.
|
|
|
|
'Shall we go below?' said Knight, seeing that the deck was nearly
|
|
deserted.
|
|
|
|
'No,' she said. 'If you will kindly get me a rug from Mrs.
|
|
Swancourt, I should like, if you don't mind, to stay here.' She
|
|
had recently fancied the assumed Mrs. Jethway might be a first-
|
|
class passenger, and dreaded meeting her by accident.
|
|
|
|
Knight appeared with the rug, and they sat down behind a weather-
|
|
cloth on the windward side, just as the two red eyes of the
|
|
Needles glared upon them from the gloom, their pointed summits
|
|
rising like shadowy phantom figures against the sky. It became
|
|
necessary to go below to an eight-o'clock meal of nondescript
|
|
kind, and Elfride was immensely relieved at finding no sign of
|
|
Mrs. Jethway there. They again ascended, and remained above till
|
|
Mrs. Snewson staggered up to them with the message that Mrs.
|
|
Swancourt thought it was time for Elfride to come below. Knight
|
|
accompanied her down, and returned again to pass a little more
|
|
time on deck.
|
|
|
|
Elfride partly undressed herself and lay down, and soon became
|
|
unconscious, though her sleep was light How long she had lain, she
|
|
knew not, when by slow degrees she became cognizant of a
|
|
whispering in her ear.
|
|
|
|
'You are well on with him, I can see. Well, provoke me now, but
|
|
my day will come, you will find.' That seemed to be the utterance,
|
|
or words to that effect.
|
|
|
|
Elfride became broad awake and terrified. She knew the words, if
|
|
real, could be only those of one person, and that person the widow
|
|
Jethway.
|
|
|
|
The lamp had gone out and the place was in darkness. In the next
|
|
berth she could hear her stepmother breathing heavily, further on
|
|
Snewson breathing more heavily still. These were the only other
|
|
legitimate occupants of the cabin, and Mrs. Jethway must have
|
|
stealthily come in by some means and retreated again, or else she
|
|
had entered an empty berth next Snewson's. The fear that this was
|
|
the case increased Elfride's perturbation, till it assumed the
|
|
dimensions of a certainty, for how could a stranger from the other
|
|
end of the ship possibly contrive to get in? Could it have been a
|
|
dream?
|
|
|
|
Elfride raised herself higher and looked out of the window. There
|
|
was the sea, floundering and rushing against the ship's side just
|
|
by her head, and thence stretching away, dim and moaning, into an
|
|
expanse of indistinctness; and far beyond all this two placid
|
|
lights like rayless stars. Now almost fearing to turn her face
|
|
inwards again, lest Mrs. Jethway should appear at her elbow,
|
|
Elfride meditated upon whether to call Snewson to keep her
|
|
company. 'Four bells ' sounded, and she heard voices, which gave
|
|
her a little courage. It was not worth while to call Snewson.
|
|
|
|
At any rate Elfride could not stay there panting longer, at the
|
|
risk of being again disturbed by that dreadful whispering. So
|
|
wrapping herself up hurriedly she emerged into the passage, and by
|
|
the aid of a faint light burning at the entrance to the saloon
|
|
found the foot of the stairs, and ascended to the deck. Dreary
|
|
the place was in the extreme. It seemed a new spot altogether in
|
|
contrast with its daytime self. She could see the glowworm light
|
|
from the binnacle, and the dim outline of the man at the wheel;
|
|
also a form at the bows. Not another soul was apparent from stem
|
|
to stern.
|
|
|
|
Yes, there were two more--by the bulwarks. One proved to be her
|
|
Harry, the other the mate. She was glad indeed, and on drawing
|
|
closer found they were holding a low slow chat about nautical
|
|
affairs. She ran up and slipped her hand through Knight's arm,
|
|
partly for love, partly for stability.
|
|
|
|
'Elfie! not asleep?' said Knight, after moving a few steps aside
|
|
with her.
|
|
|
|
'No: I cannot sleep. May I stay here? It is so dismal down there,
|
|
and--and I was afraid. Where are we now?'
|
|
|
|
'Due south of Portland Bill. Those are the lights abeam of us:
|
|
look. A terrible spot, that, on a stormy night. And do you see a
|
|
very small light that dips and rises to the right? That's a light-
|
|
ship on the dangerous shoal called the Shambles, where many a good
|
|
vessel has gone to pieces. Between it and ourselves is the Race--
|
|
a place where antagonistic currents meet and form whirlpools--a
|
|
spot which is rough in the smoothest weather, and terrific in a
|
|
wind. That dark, dreary horizon we just discern to the left is
|
|
the West Bay, terminated landwards by the Chesil Beach.'
|
|
|
|
'What time is it, Harry?'
|
|
|
|
'Just past two.'
|
|
|
|
'Are you going below?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh no; not to-night. I prefer pure air.'
|
|
|
|
She fancied he might be displeased with her for coming to him at
|
|
this unearthly hour. 'I should like to stay here too, if you will
|
|
allow me,' she said timidly.
|
|
|
|
'I want to ask you things.'
|
|
|
|
'Allow you, Elfie!' said Knight, putting his arm round her and
|
|
drawing her closer. 'I am twice as happy with you by my side.
|
|
Yes: we will stay, and watch the approach of day.'
|
|
|
|
So they again sought out the sheltered nook, and sitting down
|
|
wrapped themselves in the rug as before.
|
|
|
|
'What were you going to ask me?' he inquired, as they undulated up
|
|
and down.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, it was not much--perhaps a thing I ought not to ask,' she
|
|
said hesitatingly. Her sudden wish had really been to discover at
|
|
once whether he had ever before been engaged to be married. If he
|
|
had, she would make that a ground for telling him a little of her
|
|
conduct with Stephen. Mrs. Jethway's seeming words had so
|
|
depressed the girl that she herself now painted her flight in the
|
|
darkest colours, and longed to ease her burdened mind by an
|
|
instant confession. If Knight had ever been imprudent himself, he
|
|
might, she hoped, forgive all.
|
|
|
|
'I wanted to ask you,' she went on, 'if--you had ever been engaged
|
|
before.' She added tremulously, 'I hope you have--I mean, I don't
|
|
mind at all if you have.'
|
|
|
|
'No, I never was,' Knight instantly and heartily replied.
|
|
'Elfride'--and there was a certain happy pride in his tone--'I am
|
|
twelve years older than you, and I have been about the world, and,
|
|
in a way, into society, and you have not. And yet I am not so
|
|
unfit for you as strict-thinking people might imagine, who would
|
|
assume the difference in age to signify most surely an equal
|
|
addition to my practice in love-making.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride shivered.
|
|
|
|
'You are cold--is the wind too much for you?'
|
|
|
|
'No,' she said gloomily. The belief which had been her sheet-
|
|
anchor in hoping for forgiveness had proved false. This account
|
|
of the exceptional nature of his experience, a matter which would
|
|
have set her rejoicing two years ago, chilled her now like a
|
|
frost.
|
|
|
|
'You don't mind my asking you?' she continued.
|
|
|
|
'Oh no--not at all.'
|
|
|
|
'And have you never kissed many ladies?' she whispered, hoping he
|
|
would say a hundred at the least.
|
|
|
|
The time, the circumstances, and the scene were such as to draw
|
|
confidences from the most reserved. 'Elfride,' whispered Knight
|
|
in reply, 'it is strange you should have asked that question. But
|
|
I'll answer it, though I have never told such a thing before. I
|
|
have been rather absurd in my avoidance of women. I have never
|
|
given a woman a kiss in my life, except yourself and my mother.'
|
|
The man of two and thirty with the experienced mind warmed all
|
|
over with a boy's ingenuous shame as he made the confession.
|
|
|
|
'What, not one?' she faltered.
|
|
|
|
'No; not one.'
|
|
|
|
'How very strange!'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, the reverse experience may be commoner. And yet, to those
|
|
who have observed their own sex, as I have, my case is not
|
|
remarkable. Men about town are women's favourites--that's the
|
|
postulate--and superficial people don't think far enough to see
|
|
that there may be reserved, lonely exceptions.'
|
|
|
|
'Are you proud of it, Harry?'
|
|
|
|
'No, indeed. Of late years I have wished I had gone my ways and
|
|
trod out my measure like lighter-hearted men. I have thought of
|
|
how many happy experiences I may have lost through never going to
|
|
woo.'
|
|
|
|
'Then why did you hold aloof?'
|
|
|
|
'I cannot say. I don't think it was my nature to: circumstance
|
|
hindered me, perhaps. I have regretted it for another reason.
|
|
This great remissness of mine has had its effect upon me. The
|
|
older I have grown, the more distinctly have I perceived that it
|
|
was absolutely preventing me from liking any woman who was not as
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unpractised as I; and I gave up the expectation of finding a
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nineteenth-century young lady in my own raw state. Then I found
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you, Elfride, and l felt for the first time that my fastidiousness
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was a blessing. And it helped to make me worthy of you. I felt
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at once that, differing as we did in other experiences, in this
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matter I resembled you. Well, aren't you glad to hear it,
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Elfride?'
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'Yes, I am,' she answered in a forced voice. 'But I always had
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thought that men made lots of engagements before they married--
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especially if they don't marry very young.'
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'So all women think, I suppose--and rightly, indeed, of the
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majority of bachelors, as I said before. But an appreciable
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minority of slow-coach men do not--and it makes them very awkward
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when they do come to the point. However, it didn't matter in my
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case.'
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'Why?' she asked uneasily.
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'Because you know even less of love-making and matrimonial
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prearrangement than I, and so you can't draw invidious comparisons
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if I do my engaging improperly.'
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'I think you do it beautifully!'
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'Thank you, dear. But,' continued Knight laughingly, 'your
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opinion is not that of an expert, which alone is of value.'
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Had she answered, 'Yes, it is,' half as strongly as she felt it,
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Knight might have been a little astonished.
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'If you had ever been engaged to be married before,' he went on,
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'I expect your opinion of my addresses would be different. But
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then, I should not----'
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'Should not what, Harry?'
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'Oh, I was merely going to say that in that case I should never
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have given myself the pleasure of proposing to you, since your
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freedom from that experience was your attraction, darling.'
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'You are severe on women, are you not?'
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'No, I think not. I had a right to please my taste, and that was
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for untried lips. Other men than those of my sort acquire the
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taste as they get older--but don't find an Elfride----'
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'What horrid sound is that we hear when we pitch forward?'
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'Only the screw--don't find an Elfride as I did. To think that I
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should have discovered such an unseen flower down there in the
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West--to whom a man is as much as a multitude to some women, and a
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trip down the English Channel like a voyage round the world!'
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'And would you,' she said, and her voice was tremulous, 'have
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given up a lady--if you had become engaged to her--and then found
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she had had ONE kiss before yours--and would you have--gone away
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and left her?'
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'One kiss,--no, hardly for that.'
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'Two?'
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'Well--I could hardly say inventorially like that. Too much of
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that sort of thing certainly would make me dislike a woman. But
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let us confine our attention to ourselves, not go thinking of
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might have beens.'
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So Elfride had allowed her thoughts to 'dally with false surmise,'
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and every one of Knight's words fell upon her like a weight.
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After this they were silent for a long time, gazing upon the black
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mysterious sea, and hearing the strange voice of the restless
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wind. A rocking to and fro on the waves, when the breeze is not
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too violent and cold, produces a soothing effect even upon the
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most highly-wrought mind. Elfride slowly sank against Knight, and
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looking down, he found by her soft regular breathing that she had
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fallen asleep. Not wishing to disturb her, he continued still,
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and took an intense pleasure in supporting her warm young form as
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it rose and fell with her every breath.
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Knight fell to dreaming too, though he continued wide awake. It
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was pleasant to realize the implicit trust she placed in him, and
|
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to think of the charming innocence of one who could sink to sleep
|
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in so simple and unceremonious a manner. More than all, the
|
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musing unpractical student felt the immense responsibility he was
|
|
taking upon himself by becoming the protector and guide of such a
|
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trusting creature. The quiet slumber of her soul lent a quietness
|
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to his own. Then she moaned, and turned herself restlessly.
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Presently her mutterings became distinct:
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'Don't tell him--he will not love me....I did not mean any
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disgrace--indeed I did not, so don't tell Harry. We were going to
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be married--that was why I ran away....And he says he will not
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have a kissed woman....And if you tell him he will go away, and I
|
|
shall die. I pray have mercy--Oh!'
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Elfride started up wildly.
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The previous moment a musical ding-dong had spread into the air
|
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from their right hand, and awakened her.
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'What is it?' she exclaimed in terror.
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'Only "eight bells,"' said Knight soothingly. 'Don't be
|
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frightened, little bird, you are safe. What have you been
|
|
dreaming about?'
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'I can't tell, I can't tell!' she said with a shudder. 'Oh, I
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|
don't know what to do!'
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'Stay quietly with me. We shall soon see the dawn now. Look, the
|
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morning star is lovely over there. The clouds have completely
|
|
cleared off whilst you have been sleeping. What have you been
|
|
dreaming of?'
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'A woman in our parish.'
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'Don't you like her?'
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'I don't. She doesn't like me. Where are we?'
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'About south of the Exe.'
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Knight said no more on the words of her dream. They watched the
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|
sky till Elfride grew calm, and the dawn appeared. It was mere
|
|
wan lightness first. Then the wind blew in a changed spirit, and
|
|
died away to a zephyr. The star dissolved into the day.
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'That's how I should like to die,' said Elfride, rising from her
|
|
seat and leaning over the bulwark to watch the star's last
|
|
expiring gleam.
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|
'As the lines say,' Knight replied----
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'"To set as sets the morning star, which goes
|
|
Not down behind the darken'd west, nor hides
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|
Obscured among the tempests of the sky,
|
|
But melts away into the light of heaven."'
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'Oh, other people have thought the same thing, have they? That's
|
|
always the case with my originalities--they are original to nobody
|
|
but myself.'
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|
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|
'Not only the case with yours. When I was a young hand at
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reviewing I used to find that a frightful pitfall--dilating upon
|
|
subjects I met with, which were novelties to me, and finding
|
|
afterwards they had been exhausted by the thinking world when I
|
|
was in pinafores.'
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|
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|
'That is delightful. Whenever I find you have done a foolish
|
|
thing I am glad, because it seems to bring you a little nearer to
|
|
me, who have done many.' And Elfride thought again of her enemy
|
|
asleep under the deck they trod.
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|
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|
All up the coast, prominences singled themselves out from
|
|
recesses. Then a rosy sky spread over the eastern sea and behind
|
|
the low line of land, flinging its livery in dashes upon the thin
|
|
airy clouds in that direction. Every projection on the land
|
|
seemed now so many fingers anxious to catch a little of the liquid
|
|
light thrown so prodigally over the sky, and after a fantastic
|
|
time of lustrous yellows in the east, the higher elevations along
|
|
the shore were flooded with the same hues. The bluff and bare
|
|
contours of Start Point caught the brightest, earliest glow of
|
|
all, and so also did the sides of its white lighthouse, perched
|
|
upon a shelf in its precipitous front like a mediaeval saint in a
|
|
niche. Their lofty neighbour Bolt Head on the left remained as
|
|
yet ungilded, and retained its gray.
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|
|
|
Then up came the sun, as it were in jerks, just to seaward of the
|
|
easternmost point of land, flinging out a Jacob's-ladder path of
|
|
light from itself to Elfride and Knight, and coating them with
|
|
rays in a few minutes. The inferior dignitaries of the shore--
|
|
Froward Point, Berry Head, and Prawle--all had acquired their
|
|
share of the illumination ere this, and at length the very
|
|
smallest protuberance of wave, cliff, or inlet, even to the
|
|
innermost recesses of the lovely valley of the Dart, had its
|
|
portion; and sunlight, now the common possession of all, ceased to
|
|
be the wonderful and coveted thing it had been a short half hour
|
|
before.
|
|
|
|
After breakfast, Plymouth arose into view, and grew distincter to
|
|
their nearing vision, the Breakwater appearing like a streak of
|
|
phosphoric light upon the surface of the sea. Elfride looked
|
|
furtively around for Mrs. Jethway, but could discern no shape like
|
|
hers. Afterwards, in the bustle of landing, she looked again with
|
|
the same result, by which time the woman had probably glided upon
|
|
the quay unobserved. Expanding with a sense of relief, Elfride
|
|
waited whilst Knight looked to their luggage, and then saw her
|
|
father approaching through the crowd, twirling his walking-stick
|
|
to catch their attention. Elbowing their way to him they all
|
|
entered the town, which smiled as sunny a smile upon Elfride as it
|
|
had done between one and two years earlier, when she had entered
|
|
it at precisely the same hour as the bride-elect of Stephen Smith.
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|
Chapter XXX
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|
|
'Vassal unto Love.'
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|
|
|
|
Elfride clung closer to Knight as day succeeded day. Whatever
|
|
else might admit of question, there could be no dispute that the
|
|
allegiance she bore him absorbed her whole soul and existence. A
|
|
greater than Stephen had arisen, and she had left all to follow
|
|
him.
|
|
|
|
The unreserved girl was never chary of letting her lover discover
|
|
how much she admired him. She never once held an idea in
|
|
opposition to any one of his, or insisted on any point with him,
|
|
or showed any independence, or held her own on any subject. His
|
|
lightest whim she respected and obeyed as law, and if, expressing
|
|
her opinion on a matter, he took up the subject and differed from
|
|
her, she instantly threw down her own opinion as wrong and
|
|
untenable. Even her ambiguities and espieglerie were but media of
|
|
the same manifestation; acted charades, embodying the words of her
|
|
prototype, the tender and susceptible daughter-in-law of Naomi:
|
|
'Let me find favour in thy sight, my lord; for that thou hast
|
|
comforted me, and for that thou hast spoken friendly unto thine
|
|
handmaid.'
|
|
|
|
She was syringing the plants one wet day in the greenhouse.
|
|
Knight was sitting under a great passion-flower observing the
|
|
scene. Sometimes he looked out at the rain from the sky, and then
|
|
at Elfride's inner rain of larger drops, which fell from trees and
|
|
shrubs, after having previously hung from the twigs like small
|
|
silver fruit.
|
|
|
|
'I must give you something to make you think of me during this
|
|
autumn at your chambers,' she was saying. 'What shall it be?
|
|
Portraits do more harm than good, by selecting the worst
|
|
expression of which your face is capable. Hair is unlucky. And
|
|
you don't like jewellery.'
|
|
|
|
'Something which shall bring back to my mind the many scenes we
|
|
have enacted in this conservatory. I see what I should prize very
|
|
much. That dwarf myrtle tree in the pot, which you have been so
|
|
carefully tending.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride looked thoughtfully at the myrtle.
|
|
|
|
'I can carry it comfortably in my hat box,' said Knight. 'And I
|
|
will put it in my window, and so, it being always before my eyes,
|
|
I shall think of you continually.'
|
|
|
|
It so happened that the myrtle which Knight had singled out had a
|
|
peculiar beginning and history. It had originally been a twig
|
|
worn in Stephen Smith's button-hole, and he had taken it thence,
|
|
stuck it into the pot, and told her that if it grew, she was to
|
|
take care of it, and keep it in remembrance of him when he was far
|
|
away.
|
|
|
|
She looked wistfully at the plant, and a sense of fairness to
|
|
Smith's memory caused her a pang of regret that Knight should have
|
|
asked for that very one. It seemed exceeding a common
|
|
heartlessness to let it go.
|
|
|
|
'Is there not anything you like better?' she said sadly. 'That is
|
|
only an ordinary myrtle.'
|
|
|
|
'No: I am fond of myrtle.' Seeing that she did not take kindly to
|
|
the idea, he said again, 'Why do you object to my having that?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh no--I don't object precisely--it was a feeling.--Ah, here's
|
|
another cutting lately struck, and just as small--of a better
|
|
kind, and with prettier leaves--myrtus microphylla.'
|
|
|
|
'That will do nicely. Let it be put in my room, that I may not
|
|
forget it. What romance attaches to the other?'
|
|
|
|
'It was a gift to me.'
|
|
|
|
The subject then dropped. Knight thought no more of the matter
|
|
till, on entering his bedroom in the evening, he found the second
|
|
myrtle placed upon his dressing-table as he had directed. He
|
|
stood for a moment admiring the fresh appearance of the leaves by
|
|
candlelight, and then he thought of the transaction of the day.
|
|
|
|
Male lovers as well as female can be spoilt by too much kindness,
|
|
and Elfride's uniform submissiveness had given Knight a rather
|
|
exacting manner at crises, attached to her as he was. 'Why should
|
|
she have refused the one I first chose?' he now asked himself.
|
|
Even such slight opposition as she had shown then was exceptional
|
|
enough to make itself noticeable. He was not vexed with her in
|
|
the least: the mere variation of her way to-day from her usual
|
|
ways kept him musing on the subject, because it perplexed him.
|
|
'It was a gift'--those were her words. Admitting it to be a gift,
|
|
he thought she could hardly value a mere friend more than she
|
|
valued him as a lover, and giving the plant into his charge would
|
|
have made no difference. 'Except, indeed, it was the gift of a
|
|
lover,' he murmured.
|
|
|
|
'I wonder if Elfride has ever had a lover before?' he said aloud,
|
|
as a new idea, quite. This and companion thoughts were enough to
|
|
occupy him completely till he fell asleep--rather later than
|
|
usual.
|
|
|
|
The next day, when they were again alone, he said to her rather
|
|
suddenly--
|
|
|
|
'Do you love me more or less, Elfie, for what I told you on board
|
|
the steamer?'
|
|
|
|
'You told me so many things,' she returned, lifting her eyes to
|
|
his and smiling.
|
|
|
|
'I mean the confession you coaxed out of me--that I had never been
|
|
in the position of lover before.'
|
|
|
|
'It is a satisfaction, I suppose, to be the first in your heart,'
|
|
she said to him, with an attempt to continue her smiling.
|
|
|
|
'I am going to ask you a question now,' said Knight, somewhat
|
|
awkwardly. 'I only ask it in a whimsical way, you know: not with
|
|
great seriousness, Elfride. You may think it odd, perhaps.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride tried desperately to keep the colour in her face. She
|
|
could not, though distressed to think that getting pale showed
|
|
consciousness of deeper guilt than merely getting red.
|
|
|
|
'Oh no--I shall not think that,' she said, because obliged to say
|
|
something to fill the pause which followed her questioner's
|
|
remark.
|
|
|
|
'It is this: have you ever had a lover? I am almost sure you have
|
|
not; but, have you?'
|
|
|
|
'Not, as it were, a lover; I mean, not worth mentioning, Harry,'
|
|
she faltered.
|
|
|
|
Knight, overstrained in sentiment as he knew the feeling to be,
|
|
felt some sickness of heart.
|
|
|
|
'Still, he was a lover?'
|
|
|
|
'Well, a sort of lover, I suppose,' she responded tardily.
|
|
|
|
'A man, I mean, you know.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; but only a mere person, and----'
|
|
|
|
'But truly your lover?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; a lover certainly--he was that. Yes, he might have been
|
|
called my lover.'
|
|
|
|
Knight said nothing to this for a minute or more, and kept silent
|
|
time with his finger to the tick of the old library clock, in
|
|
which room the colloquy was going on.
|
|
|
|
'You don't mind, Harry, do you?' she said anxiously, nestling
|
|
close to him, and watching his face.
|
|
|
|
'Of course, I don't seriously mind. In reason, a man cannot
|
|
object to such a trifle. I only thought you hadn't--that was
|
|
all.'
|
|
|
|
However, one ray was abstracted from the glory about her head.
|
|
But afterwards, when Knight was wandering by himself over the bare
|
|
and breezy hills, and meditating on the subject, that ray suddenly
|
|
returned. For she might have had a lover, and never have cared in
|
|
the least for him. She might have used the word improperly, and
|
|
meant 'admirer' all the time. Of course she had been admired; and
|
|
one man might have made his admiration more prominent than that of
|
|
the rest--a very natural case.
|
|
|
|
They were sitting on one of the garden seats when he found
|
|
occasion to put the supposition to the test. 'Did you love that
|
|
lover or admirer of yours ever so little, Elfie?'
|
|
|
|
She murmured reluctantly, 'Yes, I think I did.'
|
|
|
|
Knight felt the same faint touch of misery. 'Only a very little?'
|
|
he said.
|
|
|
|
'I am not sure how much.'
|
|
|
|
'But you are sure, darling, you loved him a little?'
|
|
|
|
'I think I am sure I loved him a little.'
|
|
|
|
'And not a great deal, Elfie?'
|
|
|
|
'My love was not supported by reverence for his powers.'
|
|
|
|
'But, Elfride, did you love him deeply?' said Knight restlessly.
|
|
|
|
'I don't exactly know how deep you mean by deeply.'
|
|
|
|
'That's nonsense.'
|
|
|
|
'You misapprehend; and you have let go my hand!' she cried, her
|
|
eyes filling with tears. 'Harry, don't be severe with me, and
|
|
don't question me. I did not love him as I do you. And could it
|
|
be deeply if I did not think him cleverer than myself? For I did
|
|
not. You grieve me so much--you can't think.'
|
|
|
|
'I will not say another word about it.'
|
|
|
|
'And you will not think about it, either, will you? I know you
|
|
think of weaknesses in me after I am out of your sight; and not
|
|
knowing what they are, I cannot combat them. I almost wish you
|
|
were of a grosser nature, Harry; in truth I do! Or rather, I wish
|
|
I could have the advantages such a nature in you would afford me,
|
|
and yet have you as you are.'
|
|
|
|
'What advantages would they be?'
|
|
|
|
'Less anxiety, and more security. Ordinary men are not so
|
|
delicate in their tastes as you; and where the lover or husband is
|
|
not fastidious, and refined, and of a deep nature, things seem to
|
|
go on better, I fancy--as far as I have been able to observe the
|
|
world.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; I suppose it is right. Shallowness has this advantage, that
|
|
you can't be drowned there.'
|
|
|
|
'But I think I'll have you as you are; yes, I will!' she said
|
|
winsomely. 'The practical husbands and wives who take things
|
|
philosophically are very humdrum, are they not? Yes, it would kill
|
|
me quite. You please me best as you are.'
|
|
|
|
'Even though I wish you had never cared for one before me?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes. And you must not wish it. Don't!'
|
|
|
|
'I'll try not to, Elfride.'
|
|
|
|
So she hoped, but her heart was troubled. If he felt so deeply on
|
|
this point, what would he say did he know all, and see it as Mrs.
|
|
Jethway saw it? He would never make her the happiest girl in the
|
|
world by taking her to be his own for aye. The thought enclosed
|
|
her as a tomb whenever it presented itself to her perturbed brain.
|
|
She tried to believe that Mrs. Jethway would never do her such a
|
|
cruel wrong as to increase the bad appearance of her folly by
|
|
innuendoes; and concluded that concealment, having been begun,
|
|
must be persisted in, if possible. For what he might consider as
|
|
bad as the fact, was her previous concealment of it by strategy.
|
|
|
|
But Elfride knew Mrs. Jethway to be her enemy, and to hate her.
|
|
It was possible she would do her worst. And should she do it, all
|
|
might be over.
|
|
|
|
Would the woman listen to reason, and be persuaded not to ruin one
|
|
who had never intentionally harmed her?
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
It was night in the valley between Endelstow Crags and the shore.
|
|
The brook which trickled that way to the sea was distinct in its
|
|
murmurs now, and over the line of its course there began to hang a
|
|
white riband of fog. Against the sky, on the left hand of the
|
|
vale, the black form of the church could be seen. On the other
|
|
rose hazel-bushes, a few trees, and where these were absent, furze
|
|
tufts--as tall as men--on stems nearly as stout as timber. The
|
|
shriek of some bird was occasionally heard, as it flew terror-
|
|
stricken from its first roost, to seek a new sleeping-place, where
|
|
it might pass the night unmolested.
|
|
|
|
In the evening shade, some way down the valley, and under a row of
|
|
scrubby oaks, a cottage could still be discerned. It stood
|
|
absolutely alone. The house was rather large, and the windows of
|
|
some of the rooms were nailed up with boards on the outside, which
|
|
gave a particularly deserted appearance to the whole erection.
|
|
From the front door an irregular series of rough and misshapen
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steps, cut in the solid rock, led down to the edge of the
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streamlet, which, at their extremity, was hollowed into a basin
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through which the water trickled. This was evidently the means of
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water supply to the dweller or dwellers in the cottage.
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A light footstep was heard descending from the higher slopes of
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the hillside. Indistinct in the pathway appeared a moving female
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shape, who advanced and knocked timidly at the door. No answer
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being returned the knock was repeated, with the same result, and
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it was then repeated a third time. This also was unsuccessful.
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From one of the only two windows on the ground floor which were
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not boarded up came rays of light, no shutter or curtain obscuring
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the room from the eyes of a passer on the outside. So few walked
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that way after nightfall that any such means to secure secrecy
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were probably deemed unnecessary.
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The inequality of the rays falling upon the trees outside told
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that the light had its origin in a flickering fire only. The
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visitor, after the third knocking, stepped a little to the left in
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order to gain a view of the interior, and threw back the hood from
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her face. The dancing yellow sheen revealed the fair and anxious
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countenance of Elfride.
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Inside the house this firelight was enough to illumine the room
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distinctly, and to show that the furniture of the cottage was
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superior to what might have been expected from so unpromising an
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exterior. It also showed to Elfride that the room was empty.
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Beyond the light quiver and flap of the flames nothing moved or
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was audible therein.
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She turned the handle and entered, throwing off the cloak which
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enveloped her, under which she appeared without hat or bonnet, and
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in the sort of half-toilette country people ordinarily dine in.
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Then advancing to the foot of the staircase she called distinctly,
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but somewhat fearfully, 'Mrs. Jethway!'
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No answer.
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With a look of relief and regret combined, denoting that ease came
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to the heart and disappointment to the brain, Elfride paused for
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several minutes, as if undecided how to act. Determining to wait,
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she sat down on a chair. The minutes drew on, and after sitting
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on the thorns of impatience for half an hour, she searched her
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pocket, took therefrom a letter, and tore off the blank leaf.
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Then taking out a pencil she wrote upon the paper:
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'DEAR MRS. JETHWAY,--I have been to visit you. I wanted much to
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see you, but I cannot wait any longer. I came to beg you not to
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execute the threats you have repeated to me. Do not, I beseech
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you, Mrs. Jethway, let any one know I ran away from home! It would
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ruin me with him, and break my heart. I will do anything for you,
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if you will be kind to me. In the name of our common womanhood,
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do not, I implore you, make a scandal of me.--Yours, E.
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SWANCOURT.'
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She folded the note cornerwise, directed it, and placed it on the
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table. Then again drawing the hood over her curly head she
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emerged silently as she had come.
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Whilst this episode had been in action at Mrs. Jethway's cottage,
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Knight had gone from the dining-room into the drawing-room, and
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found Mrs. Swancourt there alone.
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'Elfride has vanished upstairs or somewhere,' she said.
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'And I have been reading an article in an old number of the
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PRESENT that I lighted on by chance a short time ago; it is an
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article you once told us was yours. Well, Harry, with due
|
|
deference to your literary powers, allow me to say that this
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effusion is all nonsense, in my opinion.'
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'What is it about?' said Knight, taking up the paper and reading.
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'There: don't get red about it. Own that experience has taught
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you to be more charitable. I have never read such unchivalrous
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sentiments in my life--from a man, I mean. There, I forgive you;
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it was before you knew Elfride.'
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'Oh yes,' said Knight, looking up. 'I remember now. The text of
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that sermon was not my own at all, but was suggested to me by a
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young man named Smith--the same whom I have mentioned to you as
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coming from this parish. I thought the idea rather ingenious at
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the time, and enlarged it to the weight of a few guineas, because
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I had nothing else in my head.'
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'Which idea do you call the text? I am curious to know that.'
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'Well, this,' said Knight, somewhat unwillingly. 'That experience
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teaches, and your sweetheart, no less than your tailor, is
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|
necessarily very imperfect in her duties, if you are her first
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|
patron: and conversely, the sweetheart who is graceful under the
|
|
initial kiss must be supposed to have had some practice in the
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trade.'
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'And do you mean to say that you wrote that upon the strength of
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another man's remark, without having tested it by practice?'
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'Yes--indeed I do.'
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'Then I think it was uncalled for and unfair. And how do you know
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it is true? I expect you regret it now.'
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'Since you bring me into a serious mood, I will speak candidly. I
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do believe that remark to be perfectly true, and, having written
|
|
it, I would defend it anywhere. But I do often regret having ever
|
|
written it, as well as others of the sort. I have grown older
|
|
since, and I find such a tone of writing is calculated to do harm
|
|
in the world. Every literary Jack becomes a gentleman if he can
|
|
only pen a few indifferent satires upon womankind: women
|
|
themselves, too, have taken to the trick; and so, upon the whole,
|
|
I begin to be rather ashamed of my companions.'
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'Ah, Henry, you have fallen in love since and it makes a
|
|
difference,' said Mrs. Swancourt with a faint tone of banter.
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'That's true; but that is not my reason.'
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'Having found that, in a case of your own experience, a so-called
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goose was a swan, it seems absurd to deny such a possibility in
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other men's experiences.'
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'You can hit palpably, cousin Charlotte,' said Knight. 'You are
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|
like the boy who puts a stone inside his snowball, and I shall
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|
play with you no longer. Excuse me--I am going for my evening
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|
stroll.'
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Though Knight had spoken jestingly, this incident and conversation
|
|
had caused him a sudden depression. Coming, rather singularly,
|
|
just after his discovery that Elfride had known what it was to
|
|
love warmly before she had known him, his mind dwelt upon the
|
|
subject, and the familiar pipe he smoked, whilst pacing up and
|
|
down the shrubbery-path, failed to be a solace. He thought again
|
|
of those idle words--hitherto quite forgotten--about the first
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|
kiss of a girl, and the theory seemed more than reasonable. Of
|
|
course their sting now lay in their bearing on Elfride.
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Elfride, under Knight's kiss, had certainly been a very different
|
|
woman from herself under Stephen's. Whether for good or for ill,
|
|
she had marvellously well learnt a betrothed lady's part; and the
|
|
fascinating finish of her deportment in this second campaign did
|
|
probably arise from her unreserved encouragement of Stephen.
|
|
Knight, with all the rapidity of jealous sensitiveness, pounced
|
|
upon some words she had inadvertently let fall about an earring,
|
|
which he had only partially understood at the time. It was during
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|
that 'initial kiss' by the little waterfall:
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'We must be careful. I lost the other by doing this!'
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A flush which had in it as much of wounded pride as of sorrow,
|
|
passed over Knight as he thought of what he had so frequently said
|
|
to her in his simplicity. 'I always meant to be the first comer
|
|
in a woman's heart, fresh lips or none for me.' How childishly
|
|
blind he must have seemed to this mere girl! How she must have
|
|
laughed at him inwardly! He absolutely writhed as he thought of
|
|
the confession she had wrung from him on the boat in the darkness
|
|
of night. The one conception which had sustained his dignity when
|
|
drawn out of his shell on that occasion--that of her charming
|
|
ignorance of all such matters--how absurd it was!
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|
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|
This man, whose imagination had been fed up to preternatural size
|
|
by lonely study and silent observations of his kind--whose
|
|
emotions had been drawn out long and delicate by his seclusion,
|
|
like plants in a cellar--was now absolutely in pain. Moreover,
|
|
several years of poetic study, and, if the truth must be told,
|
|
poetic efforts, had tended to develop the affective side of his
|
|
constitution still further, in proportion to his active faculties.
|
|
It was his belief in the absolute newness of blandishment to
|
|
Elfride which had constituted her primary charm. He began to
|
|
think it was as hard to be earliest in a woman's heart as it was
|
|
to be first in the Pool of Bethesda.
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|
|
|
That Knight should have been thus constituted: that Elfride's
|
|
second lover should not have been one of the great mass of
|
|
bustling mankind, little given to introspection, whose good-nature
|
|
might have compensated for any lack of appreciativeness, was the
|
|
chance of things. That her throbbing, self-confounding,
|
|
indiscreet heart should have to defend itself unaided against the
|
|
keen scrutiny and logical power which Knight, now that his
|
|
suspicions were awakened, would sooner or later be sure to
|
|
exercise against her, was her misfortune. A miserable incongruity
|
|
was apparent in the circumstance of a strong mind practising its
|
|
unerring archery upon a heart which the owner of that mind loved
|
|
better than his own.
|
|
|
|
Elfride's docile devotion to Knight was now its own enemy.
|
|
Clinging to him so dependently, she taught him in time to presume
|
|
upon that devotion--a lesson men are not slow to learn. A slight
|
|
rebelliousness occasionally would have done him no harm, and would
|
|
have been a world of advantage to her. But she idolized him, and
|
|
was proud to be his bond-servant.
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|
Chapter XXXI
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|
|
'A worm i' the bud.'
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|
One day the reviewer said, 'Let us go to the cliffs again,
|
|
Elfride;' and, without consulting her wishes, he moved as if to
|
|
start at once.
|
|
|
|
'The cliff of our dreadful adventure?' she inquired, with a
|
|
shudder. 'Death stares me in the face in the person of that
|
|
cliff.'
|
|
|
|
Nevertheless, so entirely had she sunk her individuality in his
|
|
that the remark was not uttered as an expostulation, and she
|
|
immediately prepared to accompany him.
|
|
|
|
'No, not that place,' said Knight. 'It is ghastly to me, too.
|
|
That other, I mean; what is its name?--Windy Beak.'
|
|
|
|
Windy Beak was the second cliff in height along that coast, and,
|
|
as is frequently the case with the natural features of the globe
|
|
no less than with the intellectual features of men, it enjoyed the
|
|
reputation of being the first. Moreover, it was the cliff to
|
|
which Elfride had ridden with Stephen Smith, on a well-remembered
|
|
morning of his summer visit.
|
|
|
|
So, though thought of the former cliff had caused her to shudder
|
|
at the perils to which her lover and herself had there been
|
|
exposed, by being associated with Knight only it was not so
|
|
objectionable as Windy Beak. That place was worse than gloomy, it
|
|
was a perpetual reproach to her.
|
|
|
|
But not liking to refuse, she said, 'It is further than the other
|
|
cliff.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; but you can ride.'
|
|
|
|
'And will you too?'
|
|
|
|
'No, I'll walk.'
|
|
|
|
A duplicate of her original arrangement with Stephen. Some
|
|
fatality must be hanging over her head. But she ceased objecting.
|
|
|
|
'Very well, Harry, I'll ride,' she said meekly.
|
|
|
|
A quarter of an hour later she was in the saddle. But how
|
|
different the mood from that of the former time. She had, indeed,
|
|
given up her position as queen of the less to be vassal of the
|
|
greater. Here was no showing off now; no scampering out of sight
|
|
with Pansy, to perplex and tire her companion; no saucy remarks on
|
|
LA BELLE DAME SANS MERCI. Elfride was burdened with the very
|
|
intensity of her love.
|
|
|
|
Knight did most of the talking along the journey. Elfride
|
|
silently listened, and entirely resigned herself to the motions of
|
|
the ambling horse upon which she sat, alternately rising and
|
|
sinking gently, like a sea bird upon a sea wave.
|
|
|
|
When they had reached the limit of a quadruped's possibilities in
|
|
walking, Knight tenderly lifted her from the saddle, tied the
|
|
horse, and rambled on with her to the seat in the rock. Knight
|
|
sat down, and drew Elfride deftly beside him, and they looked over
|
|
the sea.
|
|
|
|
Two or three degrees above that melancholy and eternally level
|
|
line, the ocean horizon, hung a sun of brass, with no visible
|
|
rays, in a sky of ashen hue. It was a sky the sun did not
|
|
illuminate or enkindle, as is usual at sunsets. This sheet of sky
|
|
was met by the salt mass of gray water, flecked here and there
|
|
with white. A waft of dampness occasionally rose to their faces,
|
|
which was probably rarefied spray from the blows of the sea upon
|
|
the foot of the cliff.
|
|
|
|
Elfride wished it could be a longer time ago that she had sat
|
|
there with Stephen as her lover, and agreed to be his wife. The
|
|
significant closeness of that time to the present was another item
|
|
to add to the list of passionate fears which were chronic with her
|
|
now.
|
|
|
|
Yet Knight was very tender this evening, and sustained her close
|
|
to him as they sat.
|
|
|
|
Not a word had been uttered by either since sitting down, when
|
|
Knight said musingly, looking still afar--
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|
|
|
'I wonder if any lovers in past years ever sat here with arms
|
|
locked, as we do now. Probably they have, for the place seems
|
|
formed for a seat.'
|
|
|
|
Her recollection of a well-known pair who had, and the much-
|
|
talked-of loss which had ensued therefrom, and how the young man
|
|
had been sent back to look for the missing article, led Elfride to
|
|
glance down to her side, and behind her back. Many people who
|
|
lose a trinket involuntarily give a momentary look for it in
|
|
passing the spot ever so long afterwards. They do not often find
|
|
it. Elfride, in turning her head, saw something shine weakly from
|
|
a crevice in the rocky sedile. Only for a few minutes during the
|
|
day did the sun light the alcove to its innermost rifts and slits,
|
|
but these were the minutes now, and its level rays did Elfride the
|
|
good or evil turn of revealing the lost ornament.
|
|
|
|
Elfride's thoughts instantly reverted to the words she had
|
|
unintentionally uttered upon what had been going on when the
|
|
earring was lost. And she was immediately seized with a misgiving
|
|
that Knight, on seeing the object, would be reminded of her words.
|
|
Her instinctive act therefore was to secure it privately.
|
|
|
|
It was so deep in the crack that Elfride could not pull it out
|
|
with her hand, though she made several surreptitious trials.
|
|
|
|
'What are you doing, Elfie?' said Knight, noticing her attempts,
|
|
and looking behind him likewise.
|
|
|
|
She had relinquished the endeavour, but too late.
|
|
|
|
Knight peered into the joint from which her hand had been
|
|
withdrawn, and saw what she had seen. He instantly took a
|
|
penknife from his pocket, and by dint of probing and scraping
|
|
brought the earring out upon open ground.
|
|
|
|
'It is not yours, surely?' he inquired.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, it is,' she said quietly.
|
|
|
|
'Well, that is a most extraordinary thing, that we should find it
|
|
like this!' Knight then remembered more circumstances; 'What, is
|
|
it the one you have told me of?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes.'
|
|
|
|
The unfortunate remark of hers at the kiss came into his mind, if
|
|
eyes were ever an index to be trusted. Trying to repress the
|
|
words he yet spoke on the subject, more to obtain assurance that
|
|
what it had seemed to imply was not true than from a wish to pry
|
|
into bygones.
|
|
|
|
'Were you really engaged to be married to that lover?' he said,
|
|
looking straight forward at the sea again.
|
|
|
|
'Yes--but not exactly. Yet I think I was.'
|
|
|
|
'O Elfride, engaged to be married!' he murmured.
|
|
|
|
'It would have been called a--secret engagement, I suppose. But
|
|
don't look so disappointed; don't blame me.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no.'
|
|
|
|
'Why do you say "No, no," in such a way? Sweetly enough, but so
|
|
barely?'
|
|
|
|
Knight made no direct reply to this. 'Elfride, I told you once,'
|
|
he said, following out his thoughts, 'that I never kissed a woman
|
|
as a sweetheart until I kissed you. A kiss is not much, I
|
|
suppose, and it happens to few young people to be able to avoid
|
|
all blandishments and attentions except from the one they
|
|
afterwards marry. But I have peculiar weaknesses, Elfride; and
|
|
because I have led a peculiar life, I must suffer for it, I
|
|
suppose. I had hoped--well, what I had no right to hope in
|
|
connection with you. You naturally granted your former lover the
|
|
privileges you grant me.'
|
|
|
|
A 'yes' came from her like the last sad whisper of a breeze.
|
|
|
|
'And he used to kiss you--of course he did.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes.'
|
|
|
|
'And perhaps you allowed him a more free manner in his love-making
|
|
than I have shown in mine.'
|
|
|
|
'No, I did not.' This was rather more alertly spoken.
|
|
|
|
'But he adopted it without being allowed?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes.'
|
|
|
|
'How much I have made of you, Elfride, and how I have kept aloof!'
|
|
said Knight in deep and shaken tones. 'So many days and hours as
|
|
I have hoped in you--I have feared to kiss you more than those two
|
|
times. And he made no scruples to...'
|
|
|
|
She crept closer to him and trembled as if with cold. Her dread
|
|
that the whole story, with random additions, would become known to
|
|
him, caused her manner to be so agitated that Knight was alarmed
|
|
and perplexed into stillness. The actual innocence which made her
|
|
think so fearfully of what, as the world goes, was not a great
|
|
matter, magnified her apparent guilt. It may have said to Knight
|
|
that a woman who was so flurried in the preliminaries must have a
|
|
dreadful sequel to her tale.
|
|
|
|
'I know,' continued Knight, with an indescribable drag of manner
|
|
and intonation,--'I know I am absurdly scrupulous about you--that
|
|
I want you too exclusively mine. In your past before you knew me--
|
|
from your very cradle--I wanted to think you had been mine. I
|
|
would make you mine by main force. Elfride,' he went on
|
|
vehemently, 'I can't help this jealousy over you! It is my nature,
|
|
and must be so, and I HATE the fact that you have been caressed
|
|
before: yes hate it!'
|
|
|
|
She drew a long deep breath, which was half a sob. Knight's face
|
|
was hard, and he never looked at her at all, still fixing his gaze
|
|
far out to sea, which the sun had now resigned to the shade. In
|
|
high places it is not long from sunset to night, dusk being in a
|
|
measure banished, and though only evening where they sat, it had
|
|
been twilight in the valleys for half an hour. Upon the dull
|
|
expanse of sea there gradually intensified itself into existence
|
|
the gleam of a distant light-ship.
|
|
|
|
'When that lover first kissed you, Elfride was it in such a place
|
|
as this?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, it was.'
|
|
|
|
'You don't tell me anything but what I wring out of you. Why is
|
|
that? Why have you suppressed all mention of this when casual
|
|
confidences of mine should have suggested confidence in return? On
|
|
board the Juliet, why were you so secret? It seems like being made
|
|
a fool of, Elfride, to think that, when I was teaching you how
|
|
desirable it was that we should have no secrets from each other,
|
|
you were assenting in words, but in act contradicting me.
|
|
Confidence would have been so much more promising for our
|
|
happiness. If you had had confidence in me, and told me
|
|
willingly, I should--be different. But you suppress everything,
|
|
and I shall question you. Did you live at Endelstow at that
|
|
time?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes,' she said faintly.
|
|
|
|
'Where were you when he first kissed you?'
|
|
|
|
'Sitting in this seat.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, I thought so!' said Knight, rising and facing her.
|
|
|
|
'And that accounts for everything--the exclamation which you
|
|
explained deceitfully, and all! Forgive the harsh word, Elfride--
|
|
forgive it.' He smiled a surface smile as he continued: 'What a
|
|
poor mortal I am to play second fiddle in everything and to be
|
|
deluded by fibs!'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, don't say it; don't, Harry!'
|
|
|
|
'Where did he kiss you besides here?'
|
|
|
|
'Sitting on--a tomb in the--churchyard--and other places,' she
|
|
answered with slow recklessness.
|
|
|
|
'Never mind, never mind,' he exclaimed, on seeing her tears and
|
|
perturbation. 'I don't want to grieve you. I don't care.'
|
|
|
|
But Knight did care.
|
|
|
|
'It makes no difference, you know,' he continued, seeing she did
|
|
not reply.
|
|
|
|
'I feel cold,' said Elfride. 'Shall we go home?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; it is late in the year to sit long out of doors: we ought to
|
|
be off this ledge before it gets too dark to let us see our
|
|
footing. I daresay the horse is impatient.'
|
|
|
|
Knight spoke the merest commonplace to her now. He had hoped to
|
|
the last moment that she would have volunteered the whole story of
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her first attachment. It grew more and more distasteful to him
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that she should have a secret of this nature. Such entire
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confidence as he had pictured as about to exist between himself
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and the innocent young wife who had known no lover's tones save
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his--was this its beginning? He lifted her upon the horse, and
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they went along constrainedly. The poison of suspicion was doing
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its work well.
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An incident occurred on this homeward journey which was long
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remembered by both, as adding shade to shadow. Knight could not
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keep from his mind the words of Adam's reproach to Eve in PARADISE
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LOST, and at last whispered them to himself--
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'Fool'd and beguiled: by him thou, I by thee!'
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'What did you say?' Elfride inquired timorously.
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'It was only a quotation.'
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They had now dropped into a hollow, and the church tower made its
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appearance against the pale evening sky, its lower part being
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hidden by some intervening trees. Elfride, being denied an
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answer, was looking at the tower and trying to think of some
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contrasting quotation she might use to regain his tenderness.
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After a little thought she said in winning tones--
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"Thou hast been my hope, and a strong tower for me against the
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enemy."'
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They passed on. A few minutes later three or four birds were seen
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to fly out of the tower.
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'The strong tower moves,' said Knight, with surprise.
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A corner of the square mass swayed forward, sank, and vanished. A
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loud rumble followed, and a cloud of dust arose where all had
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previously been so clear.
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'The church restorers have done it!' said Elfride.
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At this minute Mr. Swancourt was seen approaching them. He came
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up with a bustling demeanour, apparently much engrossed by some
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business in hand.
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'We have got the tower down!' he exclaimed. 'It came rather
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quicker than we intended it should. The first idea was to take it
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down stone by stone, you know. In doing this the crack widened
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considerably, and it was not believed safe for the men to stand
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upon the walls any longer. Then we decided to undermine it, and
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three men set to work at the weakest corner this afternoon. They
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had left off for the evening, intending to give the final blow to-
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morrow morning, and had been home about half an hour, when down it
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came. A very successful job--a very fine job indeed. But he was
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a tough old fellow in spite of the crack.' Here Mr. Swancourt
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wiped from his face the perspiration his excitement had caused
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him.
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'Poor old tower!' said Elfride.
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'Yes, I am sorry for it,' said Knight. 'It was an interesting
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piece of antiquity--a local record of local art.'
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'Ah, but my dear sir, we shall have a new one, expostulated Mr.
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Swancourt; 'a splendid tower--designed by a first-rate London man--
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in the newest style of Gothic art, and full of Christian
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feeling.'
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'Indeed!' said Knight.
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'Oh yes. Not in the barbarous clumsy architecture of this
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neighbourhood; you see nothing so rough and pagan anywhere else in
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England. When the men are gone, I would advise you to go and see
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the church before anything further is done to it. You can now sit
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in the chancel, and look down the nave through the west arch, and
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through that far out to sea. In fact,' said Mr. Swancourt
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significantly, 'if a wedding were performed at the altar to-morrow
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morning, it might be witnessed from the deck of a ship on a voyage
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to the South Seas, with a good glass. However, after dinner, when
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the moon has risen, go up and see for yourselves.'
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Knight assented with feverish readiness. He had decided within
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the last few minutes that he could not rest another night without
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further talk with Elfride upon the subject which now divided them:
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he was determined to know all, and relieve his disquiet in some
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way. Elfride would gladly have escaped further converse alone
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with him that night, but it seemed inevitable.
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Just after moonrise they left the house. How little any
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expectation of the moonlight prospect--which was the ostensible
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reason of their pilgrimage--had to do with Knight's real motive in
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getting the gentle girl again upon his arm, Elfride no less than
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himself well knew.
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Chapter XXXII
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'Had I wist before I kist'
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It was now October, and the night air was chill. After looking to
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see that she was well wrapped up, Knight took her along the
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hillside path they had ascended so many times in each other's
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company, when doubt was a thing unknown. On reaching the church
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they found that one side of the tower was, as the vicar had
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stated, entirely removed, and lying in the shape of rubbish at
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their feet. The tower on its eastern side still was firm, and
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might have withstood the shock of storms and the siege of
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battering years for many a generation even now. They entered by
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the side-door, went eastward, and sat down by the altar-steps.
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The heavy arch spanning the junction of tower and nave formed to-
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night a black frame to a distant misty view, stretching far
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westward. Just outside the arch came the heap of fallen stones,
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then a portion of moonlit churchyard, then the wide and convex sea
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behind. It was a coup-d'oeil which had never been possible since
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the mediaeval masons first attached the old tower to the older
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church it dignified, and hence must be supposed to have had an
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interest apart from that of simple moonlight on ancient wall and
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sea and shore--any mention of which has by this time, it is to be
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feared, become one of the cuckoo-cries which are heard but not
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|
regarded. Rays of crimson, blue, and purple shone upon the twain
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from the east window behind them, wherein saints and angels vied
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with each other in primitive surroundings of landscape and sky,
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and threw upon the pavement at the sitters' feet a softer
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reproduction of the same translucent hues, amid which the shadows
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of the two living heads of Knight and Elfride were opaque and
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prominent blots. Presently the moon became covered by a cloud,
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and the iridescence died away.
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'There, it is gone!' said Knight. 'I've been thinking, Elfride,
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that this place we sit on is where we may hope to kneel together
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soon. But I am restless and uneasy, and you know why.'
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Before she replied the moonlight returned again, irradiating that
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portion of churchyard within their view. It brightened the near
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part first, and against the background which the cloud-shadow had
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not yet uncovered stood, brightest of all, a white tomb--the tomb
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of young Jethway.
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Knight, still alive on the subject of Elfride's secret, thought of
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her words concerning the kiss that it once had occurred on a tomb
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in this churchyard.
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'Elfride,' he said, with a superficial archness which did not half
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|
cover an undercurrent of reproach, 'do you know, I think you might
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have told me voluntarily about that past--of kisses and
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betrothing--without giving me so much uneasiness and trouble. Was
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that the tomb you alluded to as having sat on with him?'
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She waited an instant. 'Yes,' she said.
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The correctness of his random shot startled Knight; though,
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|
considering that almost all the other memorials in the churchyard
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were upright headstones upon which nobody could possibly sit, it
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|
was not so wonderful.
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Elfride did not even now go on with the explanation her exacting
|
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lover wished to have, and her reticence began to irritate him as
|
|
before. He was inclined to read her a lecture.
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'Why don't you tell me all?' he said somewhat indignantly.
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|
'Elfride, there is not a single subject upon which I feel more
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|
strongly than upon this--that everything ought to be cleared up
|
|
between two persons before they become husband and wife. See how
|
|
desirable and wise such a course is, in order to avoid
|
|
disagreeable contingencies in the form of discoveries afterwards.
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|
For, Elfride, a secret of no importance at all may be made the
|
|
basis of some fatal misunderstanding only because it is
|
|
discovered, and not confessed. They say there never was a couple
|
|
of whom one had not some secret the other never knew or was
|
|
intended to know. This may or may not be true; but if it be true,
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|
some have been happy in spite rather than in consequence of it.
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|
If a man were to see another man looking significantly at his
|
|
wife, and she were blushing crimson and appearing startled, do you
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|
think he would be so well satisfied with, for instance, her
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|
truthful explanation that once, to her great annoyance, she
|
|
accidentally fainted into his arms, as if she had said it
|
|
voluntarily long ago, before the circumstance occurred which
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|
forced it from her? Suppose that admirer you spoke of in
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|
connection with the tomb yonder should turn up, and bother me. It
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|
would embitter our lives, if I were then half in the dark, as I am
|
|
now!'
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|
Knight spoke the latter sentences with growing force.
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'It cannot be,' she said.
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'Why not?' he asked sharply.
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|
Elfride was distressed to find him in so stern a mood, and she
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|
trembled. In a confusion of ideas, probably not intending a
|
|
wilful prevarication, she answered hurriedly--
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'If he's dead, how can you meet him?'
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'Is he dead? Oh, that's different altogether!' said Knight,
|
|
immensely relieved. 'But, let me see--what did you say about that
|
|
tomb and him?'
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'That's his tomb,' she continued faintly.
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|
'What! was he who lies buried there the man who was your lover?'
|
|
Knight asked in a distinct voice.
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|
'Yes; and I didn't love him or encourage him.'
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|
'But you let him kiss you--you said so, you know, Elfride.'
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She made no reply.
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|
|
|
'Why,' said Knight, recollecting circumstances by degrees, 'you
|
|
surely said you were in some degree engaged to him--and of course
|
|
you were if he kissed you. And now you say you never encouraged
|
|
him. And I have been fancying you said--I am almost sure you did--
|
|
that you were sitting with him ON that tomb. Good God!' he
|
|
cried, suddenly starting up in anger, 'are you telling me
|
|
untruths? Why should you play with me like this? I'll have the
|
|
right of it. Elfride, we shall never be happy! There's a blight
|
|
upon us, or me, or you, and it must be cleared off before we
|
|
marry.' Knight moved away impetuously as if to leave her.
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|
|
|
She jumped up and clutched his arm
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|
|
|
'Don't go, Harry--don't!
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|
|
|
'Tell me, then,' said Knight sternly. 'And remember this, no more
|
|
fibs, or, upon my soul, I shall hate you. Heavens! that I should
|
|
come to this, to be made a fool of by a girl's untruths----'
|
|
|
|
'Don't, don't treat me so cruelly! O Harry, Harry, have pity, and
|
|
withdraw those dreadful words! I am truthful by nature--I am--and
|
|
I don't know how I came to make you misunderstand! But I was
|
|
frightened!' She quivered so in her perturbation that she shook
|
|
him with her {Note: sentence incomplete in text.}
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|
|
|
'Did you say you were sitting on that tomb?' he asked moodily.
|
|
|
|
'Yes; and it was true.'
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|
|
|
'Then how, in the name of Heaven, can a man sit upon his own
|
|
tomb?'
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|
|
|
'That was another man. Forgive me, Harry, won't you?'
|
|
|
|
'What, a lover in the tomb and a lover on it?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh--Oh--yes!'
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|
|
|
'Then there were two before me?
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|
|
|
'I--suppose so.'
|
|
|
|
'Now, don't be a silly woman with your supposing--I hate all
|
|
that,' said Knight contemptuously almost. 'Well, we learn strange
|
|
things. I don't know what I might have done--no man can say into
|
|
what shape circumstances may warp him--but I hardly think I should
|
|
have had the conscience to accept the favours of a new lover
|
|
whilst sitting over the poor remains of the old one; upon my soul,
|
|
I don't.' Knight, in moody meditation, continued looking towards
|
|
the tomb, which stood staring them in the face like an avenging
|
|
ghost.
|
|
|
|
'But you wrong me--Oh, so grievously!" she cried. 'I did not
|
|
meditate any such thing: believe me, Harry, I did not. It only
|
|
happened so--quite of itself.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, I suppose you didn't INTEND such a thing,' he said.
|
|
'Nobody ever does,' he sadly continued.
|
|
|
|
'And him in the grave I never once loved.'
|
|
|
|
'I suppose the second lover and you, as you sat there, vowed to be
|
|
faithful to each other for ever?'
|
|
|
|
Elfride only replied by quick heavy breaths, showing she was on
|
|
the brink of a sob.
|
|
|
|
'You don't choose to be anything but reserved, then?' he said
|
|
imperatively.
|
|
|
|
'Of course we did,' she responded.
|
|
|
|
'"Of course!" You seem to treat the subject very lightly?'
|
|
|
|
'It is past, and is nothing to us now.'
|
|
|
|
'Elfride, it is a nothing which, though it may make a careless man
|
|
laugh, cannot but make a genuine one grieve. It is a very gnawing
|
|
pain. Tell me straight through--all of it.'
|
|
|
|
'Never. O Harry! how can you expect it when so little of it makes
|
|
you so harsh with me?'
|
|
|
|
'Now, Elfride, listen to this. You know that what you have told
|
|
only jars the subtler fancies in one, after all. The feeling I
|
|
have about it would be called, and is, mere sentimentality; and I
|
|
don't want you to suppose that an ordinary previous engagement of
|
|
a straightforward kind would make any practical difference in my
|
|
love, or my wish to make you my wife. But you seem to have more
|
|
to tell, and that's where the wrong is. Is there more?'
|
|
|
|
'Not much more,' she wearily answered.
|
|
|
|
Knight preserved a grave silence for a minute. '"Not much more,"'
|
|
he said at last. 'I should think not, indeed!' His voice assumed
|
|
a low and steady pitch. 'Elfride, you must not mind my saying a
|
|
strange-sounding thing, for say it I shall. It is this: that if
|
|
there WERE much more to add to an account which already includes
|
|
all the particulars that a broken marriage engagement could
|
|
possibly include with propriety, it must be some exceptional thing
|
|
which might make it impossible for me or any one else to love you
|
|
and marry you.'
|
|
|
|
Knight's disturbed mood led him much further than he would have
|
|
gone in a quieter moment. And, even as it was, had she been
|
|
assertive to any degree he would not have been so peremptory; and
|
|
had she been a stronger character--more practical and less
|
|
imaginative--she would have made more use of her position in his
|
|
heart to influence him. But the confiding tenderness which had
|
|
won him is ever accompanied by a sort of self-committal to the
|
|
stream of events, leading every such woman to trust more to the
|
|
kindness of fate for good results than to any argument of her own.
|
|
|
|
'Well, well,' he murmured cynically; 'I won't say it is your
|
|
fault: it is my ill-luck, I suppose. I had no real right to
|
|
question you--everybody would say it was presuming. But when we
|
|
have misunderstood, we feel injured by the subject of our
|
|
misunderstanding. You never said you had had nobody else here
|
|
making love to you, so why should I blame you? Elfride, I beg your
|
|
pardon.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no! I would rather have your anger than that cool aggrieved
|
|
politeness. Do drop that, Harry! Why should you inflict that upon
|
|
me? It reduces me to the level of a mere acquaintance.'
|
|
|
|
'You do that with me. Why not confidence for confidence?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; but I didn't ask you a single question with regard to your
|
|
past: I didn't wish to know about it. All I cared for was that,
|
|
wherever you came from, whatever you had done, whoever you had
|
|
loved, you were mine at last. Harry, if originally you had known
|
|
I had loved, would you never have cared for me?'
|
|
|
|
'I won't quite say that. Though I own that the idea of your
|
|
inexperienced state had a great charm for me. But I think this:
|
|
that if I had known there was any phase of your past love you
|
|
would refuse to reveal if I asked to know it, I should never have
|
|
loved you.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride sobbed bitterly. 'Am I such a--mere characterless toy--as
|
|
to have no attrac--tion in me, apart from--freshness? Haven't I
|
|
brains? You said--I was clever and ingenious in my thoughts, and--
|
|
isn't that anything? Have I not some beauty? I think I have a
|
|
little--and I know I have--yes, I do! You have praised my voice,
|
|
and my manner, and my accomplishments. Yet all these together are
|
|
so much rubbish because I--accidentally saw a man before you!'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, come, Elfride. "Accidentally saw a man" is very cool. You
|
|
loved him, remember.'
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|
|
|
--'And loved him a little!'
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|
|
|
'And refuse now to answer the simple question how it ended. Do
|
|
you refuse still, Elfride?'
|
|
|
|
'You have no right to question me so--you said so. It is unfair.
|
|
Trust me as I trust you.'
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|
|
|
'That's not at all.'
|
|
|
|
'I shall not love you if you are so cruel. It is cruel to me to
|
|
argue like this.'
|
|
|
|
'Perhaps it is. Yes, it is. I was carried away by my feeling for
|
|
you. Heaven knows that I didn't mean to; but I have loved you so
|
|
that I have used you badly.'
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|
|
|
'I don't mind it, Harry!' she instantly answered, creeping up and
|
|
nestling against him; 'and I will not think at all that you used
|
|
me harshly if you will forgive me, and not be vexed with me any
|
|
more? I do wish I had been exactly as you thought I was, but I
|
|
could not help it, you know. If I had only known you had been
|
|
coming, what a nunnery I would have lived in to have been good
|
|
enough for you!'
|
|
|
|
'Well, never mind,' said Knight; and he turned to go. He
|
|
endeavoured to speak sportively as they went on. 'Diogenes
|
|
Laertius says that philosophers used voluntarily to deprive
|
|
themselves of sight to be uninterrupted in their meditations.
|
|
Men, becoming lovers, ought to do the same thing.'
|
|
|
|
'Why?--but never mind--I don't want to know. Don't speak
|
|
laconically to me,' she said with deprecation.
|
|
|
|
'Why? Because they would never then be distracted by discovering
|
|
their idol was second-hand.'
|
|
|
|
She looked down and sighed; and they passed out of the crumbling
|
|
old place, and slowly crossed to the churchyard entrance. Knight
|
|
was not himself, and he could not pretend to be. She had not told
|
|
all.
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|
|
|
He supported her lightly over the stile, and was practically as
|
|
attentive as a lover could be. But there had passed away a glory,
|
|
and the dream was not as it had been of yore. Perhaps Knight was
|
|
not shaped by Nature for a marrying man. Perhaps his lifelong
|
|
constraint towards women, which he had attributed to accident, was
|
|
not chance after all, but the natural result of instinctive acts
|
|
so minute as to be undiscernible even by himself. Or whether the
|
|
rough dispelling of any bright illusion, however imaginative,
|
|
depreciates the real and unexaggerated brightness which appertains
|
|
to its basis, one cannot say. Certain it was that Knight's
|
|
disappointment at finding himself second or third in the field, at
|
|
Elfride's momentary equivoque, and at her reluctance to be candid,
|
|
brought him to the verge of cynicism.
|
|
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|
|
|
|
|
Chapter XXXIII
|
|
|
|
'O daughter of Babylon, wasted with misery.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
A habit of Knight's, when not immediately occupied with Elfride--
|
|
to walk by himself for half an hour or so between dinner and
|
|
bedtime--had become familiar to his friends at Endelstow, Elfride
|
|
herself among them. When he had helped her over the stile, she
|
|
said gently, 'If you wish to take your usual turn on the hill,
|
|
Harry, I can run down to the house alone.'
|
|
|
|
'Thank you, Elfie; then I think I will.'
|
|
|
|
Her form diminished to blackness in the moonlight, and Knight,
|
|
after remaining upon the churchyard stile a few minutes longer,
|
|
turned back again towards the building. His usual course was now
|
|
to light a cigar or pipe, and indulge in a quiet meditation. But
|
|
to-night his mind was too tense to bethink itself of such a
|
|
solace. He merely walked round to the site of the fallen tower,
|
|
and sat himself down upon some of the large stones which had
|
|
composed it until this day, when the chain of circumstance
|
|
originated by Stephen Smith, while in the employ of Mr. Hewby, the
|
|
London man of art, had brought about its overthrow.
|
|
|
|
Pondering on the possible episodes of Elfride's past life, and on
|
|
how he had supposed her to have had no past justifying the name,
|
|
he sat and regarded the white tomb of young Jethway, now close in
|
|
front of him. The sea, though comparatively placid, could as
|
|
usual be heard from this point along the whole distance between
|
|
promontories to the right and left, floundering and entangling
|
|
itself among the insulated stacks of rock which dotted the water's
|
|
edge--the miserable skeletons of tortured old cliffs that would
|
|
not even yet succumb to the wear and tear of the tides.
|
|
|
|
As a change from thoughts not of a very cheerful kind, Knight
|
|
attempted exertion. He stood up, and prepared to ascend to the
|
|
summit of the ruinous heap of stones, from which a more extended
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outlook was obtainable than from the ground. He stretched out his
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arm to seize the projecting arris of a larger block than ordinary,
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and so help himself up, when his hand lighted plump upon a
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substance differing in the greatest possible degree from what he
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had expected to seize--hard stone. It was stringy and entangled,
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and trailed upon the stone. The deep shadow from the aisle wall
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prevented his seeing anything here distinctly, and he began
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guessing as a necessity. 'It is a tressy species of moss or
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lichen,' he said to himself.
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But it lay loosely over the stone.
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'It is a tuft of grass,' he said.
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But it lacked the roughness and humidity of the finest grass.
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'It is a mason's whitewash-brush.'
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Such brushes, he remembered, were more bristly; and however much
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used in repairing a structure, would not be required in pulling
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one down.
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He said, 'It must be a thready silk fringe.'
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He felt further in. It was somewhat warm. Knight instantly felt
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somewhat cold.
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To find the coldness of inanimate matter where you expect warmth
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is startling enough; but a colder temperature than that of the
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body being rather the rule than the exception in common
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substances, it hardly conveys such a shock to the system as
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finding warmth where utter frigidity is anticipated.
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'God only knows what it is,' he said.
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He felt further, and in the course of a minute put his hand upon a
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human head. The head was warm, but motionless. The thready mass
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was the hair of the head--long and straggling, showing that the
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head was a woman's.
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Knight in his perplexity stood still for a moment, and collected
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his thoughts. The vicar's account of the fall of the tower was
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that the workmen had been undermining it all the day, and had left
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in the evening intending to give the finishing stroke the next
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morning. Half an hour after they had gone the undermined angle
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came down. The woman who was half buried, as it seemed, must have
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been beneath it at the moment of the fall.
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Knight leapt up and began endeavouring to remove the rubbish with
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his hands. The heap overlying the body was for the most part fine
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and dusty, but in immense quantity. It would be a saving of time
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to run for assistance. He crossed to the churchyard wall, and
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hastened down the hill.
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A little way down an intersecting road passed over a small ridge,
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which now showed up darkly against the moon, and this road here
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formed a kind of notch in the sky-line. At the moment that Knight
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arrived at the crossing he beheld a man on this eminence, coming
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towards him. Knight turned aside and met the stranger.
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'There has been an accident at the church,' said Knight, without
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preface. 'The tower has fallen on somebody, who has been lying
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there ever since. Will you come and help?'
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'That I will,' said the man.
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'It is a woman,' said Knight, as they hurried back, 'and I think
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we two are enough to extricate her. Do you know of a shovel?'
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'The grave-digging shovels are about somewhere. They used to stay
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in the tower.'
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'And there must be some belonging to the workmen.'
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They searched about, and in an angle of the porch found three
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carefully stowed away. Going round to the west end Knight
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signified the spot of the tragedy.
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'We ought to have brought a lantern,' he exclaimed. 'But we may
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be able to do without.' He set to work removing the superincumbent
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mass.
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The other man, who looked on somewhat helplessly at first, now
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|
followed the example of Knight's activity, and removed the larger
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|
stones which were mingled with the rubbish. But with all their
|
|
efforts it was quite ten minutes before the body of the
|
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unfortunate creature could be extricated. They lifted her as
|
|
carefully as they could, breathlessly carried her to Felix
|
|
Jethway's tomb, which was only a few steps westward, and laid her
|
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thereon.
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'Is she dead indeed?' said the stranger.
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'She appears to be,' said Knight. 'Which is the nearest house?
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The vicarage, I suppose.'
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'Yes; but since we shall have to call a surgeon from Castle
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Boterel, I think it would be better to carry her in that
|
|
direction, instead of away from the town.'
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'And is it not much further to the first house we come to going
|
|
that way, than to the vicarage or to The Crags?'
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'Not much,' the stranger replied.
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'Suppose we take her there, then. And I think the best way to do
|
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it would be thus, if you don't mind joining hands with me.'
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'Not in the least; I am glad to assist.'
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Making a kind of cradle, by clasping their hands crosswise under
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the inanimate woman, they lifted her, and walked on side by side
|
|
down a path indicated by the stranger, who appeared to know the
|
|
locality well.
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'I had been sitting in the church for nearly an hour,' Knight
|
|
resumed, when they were out of the churchyard. 'Afterwards I
|
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walked round to the site of the fallen tower, and so found her.
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It is painful to think I unconsciously wasted so much time in the
|
|
very presence of a perishing, flying soul.'
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'The tower fell at dusk, did it not? quite two hours ago, I
|
|
think?'
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'Yes. She must have been there alone. What could have been her
|
|
object in visiting the churchyard then?
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'It is difficult to say.' The stranger looked inquiringly into the
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|
reclining face of the motionless form they bore. 'Would you turn
|
|
her round for a moment, so that the light shines on her face?' he
|
|
said.
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|
They turned her face to the moon, and the man looked closer into
|
|
her features. 'Why, I know her!' he exclaimed.
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'Who is she?'
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'Mrs. Jethway. And the cottage we are taking her to is her own.
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She is a widow; and I was speaking to her only this afternoon. I
|
|
was at Castle Boterel post-office, and she came there to post a
|
|
letter. Poor soul! Let us hurry on.'
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'Hold my wrist a little tighter. Was not that tomb we laid her on
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the tomb of her only son?'
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'Yes, it was. Yes, I see it now. She was there to visit the
|
|
tomb. Since the death of that son she has been a desolate,
|
|
desponding woman, always bewailing him. She was a farmer's wife,
|
|
very well educated--a governess originally, I believe.'
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|
|
|
Knight's heart was moved to sympathy. His own fortunes seemed in
|
|
some strange way to be interwoven with those of this Jethway
|
|
family, through the influence of Elfride over himself and the
|
|
unfortunate son of that house. He made no reply, and they still
|
|
walked on.
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|
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|
'She begins to feel heavy,' said the stranger, breaking the
|
|
silence.
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|
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|
'Yes, she does,' said Knight; and after another pause added, 'I
|
|
think I have met you before, though where I cannot recollect. May
|
|
I ask who you are?'
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|
'Oh yes. I am Lord Luxellian. Who are you?'
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|
|
|
'I am a visitor at The Crags--Mr. Knight.'
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|
|
|
'I have heard of you, Mr. Knight.'
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|
'And I of you, Lord Luxellian. I am glad to meet you.'
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|
|
'I may say the same. I am familiar with your name in print.'
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|
|
'And I with yours. Is this the house?'
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|
'Yes.'
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|
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|
The door was locked. Knight, reflecting a moment, searched the
|
|
pocket of the lifeless woman, and found therein a large key which,
|
|
on being applied to the door, opened it easily. The fire was out,
|
|
but the moonlight entered the quarried window, and made patterns
|
|
upon the floor. The rays enabled them to see that the room into
|
|
which they had entered was pretty well furnished, it being the
|
|
same room that Elfride had visited alone two or three evenings
|
|
earlier. They deposited their still burden on an old-fashioned
|
|
couch which stood against the wall, and Knight searched about for
|
|
a lamp or candle. He found a candle on a shelf, lighted it, and
|
|
placed it on the table.
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|
|
|
Both Knight and Lord Luxellian examined the pale countenance
|
|
attentively, and both were nearly convinced that there was no
|
|
hope. No marks of violence were visible in the casual examination
|
|
they made.
|
|
|
|
'I think that as I know where Doctor Granson lives,' said Lord
|
|
Luxellian, 'I had better run for him whilst you stay here.'
|
|
|
|
Knight agreed to this. Lord Luxellian then went off, and his
|
|
hurrying footsteps died away. Knight continued bending over the
|
|
body, and a few minutes longer of careful scrutiny perfectly
|
|
satisfied him that the woman was far beyond the reach of the
|
|
lancet and the drug. Her extremities were already beginning to
|
|
get stiff and cold. Knight covered her face, and sat down.
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|
|
|
The minutes went by. The essayist remained musing on all the
|
|
occurrences of the night. His eyes were directed upon the table,
|
|
and he had seen for some time that writing-materials were spread
|
|
upon it. He now noticed these more particularly: there were an
|
|
inkstand, pen, blotting-book, and note-paper. Several sheets of
|
|
paper were thrust aside from the rest, upon which letters had been
|
|
begun and relinquished, as if their form had not been satisfactory
|
|
to the writer. A stick of black sealing-wax and seal were there
|
|
too, as if the ordinary fastening had not been considered
|
|
sufficiently secure. The abandoned sheets of paper lying as they
|
|
did open upon the table, made it possible, as he sat, to read the
|
|
few words written on each. One ran thus:
|
|
|
|
|
|
'SIR,--As a woman who was once blest with a dear son of her own, I
|
|
implore you to accept a warning----'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Another:
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|
|
|
|
|
'SIR,--If you will deign to receive warning from a stranger before
|
|
it is too late to alter your course, listen to----'
|
|
|
|
|
|
The third:
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|
|
|
|
|
'SIR,--With this letter I enclose to you another which, unaided by
|
|
any explanation from me, tells a startling tale. I wish, however,
|
|
to add a few words to make your delusion yet more clear to you----
|
|
'
|
|
|
|
|
|
It was plain that, after these renounced beginnings, a fourth
|
|
letter had been written and despatched, which had been deemed a
|
|
proper one. Upon the table were two drops of sealing-wax, the
|
|
stick from which they were taken having been laid down overhanging
|
|
the edge of the table; the end of it drooped, showing that the wax
|
|
was placed there whilst warm. There was the chair in which the
|
|
writer had sat, the impression of the letter's address upon the
|
|
blotting-paper, and the poor widow who had caused these results
|
|
lying dead hard by. Knight had seen enough to lead him to the
|
|
conclusion that Mrs. Jethway, having matter of great importance to
|
|
communicate to some friend or acquaintance, had written him a very
|
|
careful letter, and gone herself to post it; that she had not
|
|
returned to the house from that time of leaving it till Lord
|
|
Luxellian and himself had brought her back dead.
|
|
|
|
The unutterable melancholy of the whole scene, as he waited on,
|
|
silent and alone, did not altogether clash with the mood of
|
|
Knight, even though he was the affianced of a fair and winning
|
|
girl, and though so lately he had been in her company. Whilst
|
|
sitting on the remains of the demolished tower he had defined a
|
|
new sensation; that the lengthened course of inaction he had
|
|
lately been indulging in on Elfride's account might probably not
|
|
be good for him as a man who had work to do. It could quickly be
|
|
put an end to by hastening on his marriage with her.
|
|
|
|
Knight, in his own opinion, was one who had missed his mark by
|
|
excessive aiming. Having now, to a great extent, given up ideal
|
|
ambitions, he wished earnestly to direct his powers into a more
|
|
practical channel, and thus correct the introspective tendencies
|
|
which had never brought himself much happiness, or done his
|
|
fellow-creatures any great good. To make a start in this new
|
|
direction by marriage, which, since knowing Elfride, had been so
|
|
entrancing an idea, was less exquisite to-night. That the
|
|
curtailment of his illusion regarding her had something to do with
|
|
the reaction, and with the return of his old sentiments on wasting
|
|
time, is more than probable. Though Knight's heart had so greatly
|
|
mastered him, the mastery was not so complete as to be easily
|
|
maintained in the face of a moderate intellectual revival.
|
|
|
|
His reverie was broken by the sound of wheels, and a horse's
|
|
tramp. The door opened to admit the surgeon, Lord Luxellian, and
|
|
a Mr. Coole, coroner for the division (who had been attending at
|
|
Castle Boterel that very day, and was having an after-dinner chat
|
|
with the doctor when Lord Luxellian arrived); next came two female
|
|
nurses and some idlers.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Granson, after a cursory examination, pronounced the woman
|
|
dead from suffocation, induced by intense pressure on the
|
|
respiratory organs; and arrangements were made that the inquiry
|
|
should take place on the following morning, before the return of
|
|
the coroner to St. Launce's.
|
|
|
|
Shortly afterwards the house of the widow was deserted by all its
|
|
living occupants, and she abode in death, as she had in her life
|
|
during the past two years, entirely alone.
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|
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|
|
Chapter XXXIV
|
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|
|
'Yea, happy shall he be that rewardeth thee as thou hast served us.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Sixteen hours had passed. Knight was entering the ladies' boudoir
|
|
at The Crags, upon his return from attending the inquest touching
|
|
the death of Mrs. Jethway. Elfride was not in the apartment.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Swancourt made a few inquiries concerning the verdict and
|
|
collateral circumstances. Then she said--
|
|
|
|
'The postman came this morning the minute after you left the
|
|
house. There was only one letter for you, and I have it here.'
|
|
|
|
She took a letter from the lid of her workbox, and handed it to
|
|
him. Knight took the missive abstractedly, but struck by its
|
|
appearance murmured a few words and left the room.
|
|
|
|
The letter was fastened with a black seal, and the handwriting in
|
|
which it was addressed had lain under his eyes, long and
|
|
prominently, only the evening before.
|
|
|
|
Knight was greatly agitated, and looked about for a spot where he
|
|
might be secure from interruption. It was the season of heavy
|
|
dews, which lay on the herbage in shady places all the day long;
|
|
nevertheless, he entered a small patch of neglected grass-plat
|
|
enclosed by the shrubbery, and there perused the letter, which he
|
|
had opened on his way thither.
|
|
|
|
The handwriting, the seal, the paper, the introductory words, all
|
|
had told on the instant that the letter had come to him from the
|
|
hands of the widow Jethway, now dead and cold. He had instantly
|
|
understood that the unfinished notes which caught his eye
|
|
yesternight were intended for nobody but himself. He had
|
|
remembered some of the words of Elfride in her sleep on the
|
|
steamer, that somebody was not to tell him of something, or it
|
|
would be her ruin--a circumstance hitherto deemed so trivial and
|
|
meaningless that he had well-nigh forgotten it. All these things
|
|
infused into him an emotion intense in power and supremely
|
|
distressing in quality. The paper in his hand quivered as he
|
|
read:
|
|
|
|
|
|
'THE VALLEY, ENDELSTOW.
|
|
|
|
'SIR,--A woman who has not much in the world to lose by any
|
|
censure this act may bring upon her, wishes to give you some hints
|
|
concerning a lady you love. If you will deign to accept a warning
|
|
before it is too late, you will notice what your correspondent has
|
|
to say.
|
|
|
|
'You are deceived. Can such a woman as this be worthy?
|
|
|
|
'One who encouraged an honest youth to love her, then slighted
|
|
him, so that he died.
|
|
|
|
'One who next took a man of no birth as a lover, who was forbidden
|
|
the house by her father.
|
|
|
|
'One who secretly left her home to be married to that man, met
|
|
him, and went with him to London.
|
|
|
|
'One who, for some reason or other, returned again unmarried.
|
|
|
|
'One who, in her after-correspondence with him, went so far as to
|
|
address him as her husband.
|
|
|
|
'One who wrote the enclosed letter to ask me, who better than
|
|
anybody else knows the story, to keep the scandal a secret.
|
|
|
|
'I hope soon to be beyond the reach of either blame or praise.
|
|
But before removing me God has put it in my power to avenge the
|
|
death of my son.
|
|
|
|
'GERTRUDE JETHWAY.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
The letter enclosed was the note in pencil that Elfride had
|
|
written in Mrs. Jethway's cottage:
|
|
|
|
|
|
'DEAR MRS. JETHWAY,--I have been to visit you. I wanted much to
|
|
see you, but I cannot wait any longer. I came to beg you not to
|
|
execute the threats you have repeated to me. Do not, I beseech
|
|
you, Mrs. Jethway, let any one know I ran away from home! It would
|
|
ruin me with him, and break my heart. I will do anything for you,
|
|
if you will be kind to me. In the name of our common womanhood,
|
|
do not, I implore you, make a scandal of me.--Yours,
|
|
'E. SWANCOURT.
|
|
|
|
|
|
Knight turned his head wearily towards the house. The ground rose
|
|
rapidly on nearing the shrubbery in which he stood, raising it
|
|
almost to a level with the first floor of The Crags. Elfride's
|
|
dressing-room lay in the salient angle in this direction, and it
|
|
was lighted by two windows in such a position that, from Knight's
|
|
standing-place, his sight passed through both windows, and raked
|
|
the room. Elfride was there; she was pausing between the two
|
|
windows, looking at her figure in the cheval-glass. She regarded
|
|
herself long and attentively in front; turned, flung back her
|
|
head, and observed the reflection over her shoulder.
|
|
|
|
Nobody can predicate as to her object or fancy; she may have done
|
|
the deed in the very abstraction of deep sadness. She may have
|
|
been moaning from the bottom of her heart, 'How unhappy am I!' But
|
|
the impression produced on Knight was not a good one. He dropped
|
|
his eyes moodily. The dead woman's letter had a virtue in the
|
|
accident of its juncture far beyond any it intrinsically
|
|
exhibited. Circumstance lent to evil words a ring of pitiless
|
|
justice echoing from the grave. Knight could not endure their
|
|
possession. He tore the letter into fragments.
|
|
|
|
He heard a brushing among the bushes behind, and turning his head
|
|
he saw Elfride following him. The fair girl looked in his face
|
|
with a wistful smile of hope, too forcedly hopeful to displace the
|
|
firmly established dread beneath it. His severe words of the
|
|
previous night still sat heavy upon her.
|
|
|
|
'I saw you from my window, Harry,' she said timidly.
|
|
|
|
'The dew will make your feet wet,' he observed, as one deaf.
|
|
|
|
'I don't mind it.'
|
|
|
|
'There is danger in getting wet feet.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes...Harry, what is the matter?'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, nothing. Shall I resume the serious conversation I had with
|
|
you last night? No, perhaps not; perhaps I had better not.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, I cannot tell! How wretched it all is! Ah, I wish you were
|
|
your own dear self again, and had kissed me when I came up! Why
|
|
didn't you ask me for one? why don't you now?'
|
|
|
|
'Too free in manner by half,' he heard murmur the voice within
|
|
him.
|
|
|
|
'It was that hateful conversation last night,' she went on. 'Oh,
|
|
those words! Last night was a black night for me.'
|
|
|
|
'Kiss!--I hate that word! Don't talk of kissing, for God's sake! I
|
|
should think you might with advantage have shown tact enough to
|
|
keep back that word "kiss," considering those you have accepted.'
|
|
|
|
She became very pale, and a rigid and desolate charactery took
|
|
possession of her face. That face was so delicate and tender in
|
|
appearance now, that one could fancy the pressure of a finger upon
|
|
it would cause a livid spot.
|
|
|
|
Knight walked on, and Elfride with him, silent and unopposing. He
|
|
opened a gate, and they entered a path across a stubble-field.
|
|
|
|
'Perhaps I intrude upon you?' she said as he closed the gate.
|
|
'Shall I go away?'
|
|
|
|
'No. Listen to me, Elfride.' Knight's voice was low and unequal.
|
|
'I have been honest with you: will you be so with me? If any--
|
|
strange--connection has existed between yourself and a predecessor
|
|
of mine, tell it now. It is better that I know it now, even
|
|
though the knowledge should part us, than that I should discover
|
|
it in time to come. And suspicions have been awakened in me. I
|
|
think I will not say how, because I despise the means. A
|
|
discovery of any mystery of your past would embitter our lives.'
|
|
|
|
Knight waited with a slow manner of calmness. His eyes were sad
|
|
and imperative. They went farther along the path.
|
|
|
|
'Will you forgive me if I tell you all?' she exclaimed
|
|
entreatingly.
|
|
|
|
'I can't promise; so much depends upon what you have to tell.'
|
|
|
|
Elfride could not endure the silence which followed.
|
|
|
|
'Are you not going to love me?' she burst out. 'Harry, Harry,
|
|
love me, and speak as usual! Do; I beseech you, Harry!'
|
|
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'Are you going to act fairly by me?' said Knight, with rising
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anger; 'or are you not? What have I done to you that I should be
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put off like this? Be caught like a bird in a springe; everything
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intended to be hidden from me! Why is it, Elfride? That's what I
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ask you.'
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In their agitation they had left the path, and were wandering
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among the wet and obstructive stubble, without knowing or heeding
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it.
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'What have I done?' she faltered.
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'What? How can you ask what, when you know so well? You KNOW that
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I have designedly been kept in ignorance of something attaching to
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you, which, had I known of it, might have altered all my conduct;
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and yet you say, what?'
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She drooped visibly, and made no answer.
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'Not that I believe in malicious letter-writers and whisperers;
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not I. I don't know whether I do or don't: upon my soul, I can't
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tell. I know this: a religion was building itself upon you in my
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heart. I looked into your eyes, and thought I saw there truth and
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innocence as pure and perfect as ever embodied by God in the flesh
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of woman. Perfect truth is too much to expect, but ordinary truth
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I WILL HAVE or nothing at all. Just say, then; is the matter you
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keep back of the gravest importance, or is it not?'
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'I don't understand all your meaning. If I have hidden anything
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from you, it has been because I loved you so, and I feared--
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feared--to lose you.'
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'Since you are not given to confidence, I want to ask you some
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plain questions. Have I your permission?'
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'Yes,' she said, and there came over her face a weary resignation.
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'Say the harshest words you can; I will bear them!'
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'There is a scandal in the air concerning you, Elfride; and I
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cannot even combat it without knowing definitely what it is. It
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may not refer to you entirely, or even at all.' Knight trifled in
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the very bitterness of his feeling. 'In the time of the French
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Revolution, Pariseau, a ballet-master, was beheaded by mistake for
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Parisot, a captain of the King's Guard. I wish there was another
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"E. Swancourt" in the neighbourhood. Look at this.'
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He handed her the letter she had written and left on the table at
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Mrs. Jethway's. She looked over it vacantly.
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'It is not so much as it seems!' she pleaded. 'It seems wickedly
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deceptive to look at now, but it had a much more natural origin
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than you think. My sole wish was not to endanger our love. O
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Harry! that was all my idea. It was not much harm.'
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'Yes, yes; but independently of the poor miserable creature's
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remarks, it seems to imply--something wrong.'
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'What remarks?'
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'Those she wrote me--now torn to pieces. Elfride, DID you run
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away with a man you loved?--that was the damnable statement. Has
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such an accusation life in it--really, truly, Elfride?'
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'Yes,' she whispered.
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Knight's countenance sank. 'To be married to him?' came huskily
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from his lips.
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'Yes. Oh, forgive me! I had never seen you, Harry.'
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'To London?'
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'Yes; but I----'
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'Answer my questions; say nothing else, Elfride Did you ever
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deliberately try to marry him in secret?'
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'No; not deliberately.'
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'But did you do it?'
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A feeble red passed over her face.
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'Yes,' she said.
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'And after that--did you--write to him as your husband; and did he
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address you as his wife?'
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'Listen, listen! It was----'
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'Do answer me; only answer me!'
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'Then, yes, we did.' Her lips shook; but it was with some little
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dignity that she continued: 'I would gladly have told you; for I
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knew and know I had done wrong. But I dared not; I loved you too
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well. Oh, so well! You have been everything in the world to me--
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and you are now. Will you not forgive me?'
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It is a melancholy thought, that men who at first will not allow
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the verdict of perfection they pronounce upon their sweethearts or
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wives to be disturbed by God's own testimony to the contrary,
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will, once suspecting their purity, morally hang them upon
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evidence they would be ashamed to admit in judging a dog.
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The reluctance to tell, which arose from Elfride's simplicity in
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thinking herself so much more culpable than she really was, had
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been doing fatal work in Knight's mind. The man of many ideas,
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now that his first dream of impossible things was over, vibrated
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too far in the contrary direction; and her every movement of
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feature--every tremor--every confused word--was taken as so much
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proof of her unworthiness.
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'Elfride, we must bid good-bye to compliment,' said Knight: 'we
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must do without politeness now. Look in my face, and as you
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believe in God above, tell me truly one thing more. Were you away
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alone with him?'
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'Yes.'
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'Did you return home the same day on which you left it?'
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'No.'
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The word fell like a bolt, and the very land and sky seemed to
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suffer. Knight turned aside. Meantime Elfride's countenance wore
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a look indicating utter despair of being able to explain matters
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so that they would seem no more than they really were,--a despair
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which not only relinquishes the hope of direct explanation, but
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wearily gives up all collateral chances of extenuation.
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The scene was engraved for years on the retina of Knight's eye:
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the dead and brown stubble, the weeds among it, the distant belt
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of beeches shutting out the view of the house, the leaves of which
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were now red and sick to death.
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'You must forget me,' he said. 'We shall not marry, Elfride.'
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How much anguish passed into her soul at those words from him was
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told by the look of supreme torture she wore.
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'What meaning have you, Harry? You only say so, do you?'
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She looked doubtingly up at him, and tried to laugh, as if the
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unreality of his words must be unquestionable.
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'You are not in earnest, I know--I hope you are not? Surely I
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belong to you, and you are going to keep me for yours?'
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'Elfride, I have been speaking too roughly to you; I have said
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what I ought only to have thought. I like you; and let me give
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you a word of advice. Marry your man as soon as you can. However
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|
weary of each other you may feel, you belong to each other, and I
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|
am not going to step between you. Do you think I would--do you
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think I could for a moment? If you cannot marry him now, and
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another makes you his wife, do not reveal this secret to him after
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marriage, if you do not before. Honesty would be damnation then.'
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Bewildered by his expressions, she exclaimed--
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'No, no; I will not be a wife unless I am yours; and I must be
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yours!'
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'If we had married----'
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'But you don't MEAN--that--that--you will go away and leave me,
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and not be anything more to me--oh, you don't!'
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Convulsive sobs took all nerve out of her utterance. She checked
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them, and continued to look in his face for the ray of hope that
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was not to be found there.
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'I am going indoors,' said Knight. 'You will not follow me,
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Elfride; I wish you not to.'
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'Oh no; indeed, I will not.'
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'And then I am going to Castle Boterel. Good-bye.'
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He spoke the farewell as if it were but for the day--lightly, as
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|
he had spoken such temporary farewells many times before--and she
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|
seemed to understand it as such. Knight had not the power to tell
|
|
her plainly that he was going for ever; he hardly knew for certain
|
|
that he was: whether he should rush back again upon the current of
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an irresistible emotion, or whether he could sufficiently conquer
|
|
himself, and her in him, to establish that parting as a supreme
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|
farewell, and present himself to the world again as no woman's.
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|
Ten minutes later he had left the house, leaving directions that
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|
if he did not return in the evening his luggage was to be sent to
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his chambers in London, whence he intended to write to Mr.
|
|
Swancourt as to the reasons of his sudden departure. He descended
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the valley, and could not forbear turning his head. He saw the
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|
stubble-field, and a slight girlish figure in the midst of it--up
|
|
against the sky. Elfride, docile as ever, had hardly moved a
|
|
step, for he had said, Remain. He looked and saw her again--he
|
|
saw her for weeks and months. He withdrew his eyes from the
|
|
scene, swept his hand across them, as if to brush away the sight,
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|
breathed a low groan, and went on.
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Chapter XXXV
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'And wilt thou leave me thus?--say nay--say nay!'
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The scene shifts to Knight's chambers in Bede's Inn. It was late
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|
in the evening of the day following his departure from Endelstow.
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|
A drizzling rain descended upon London, forming a humid and dreary
|
|
halo over every well-lighted street. The rain had not yet been
|
|
prevalent long enough to give to rapid vehicles that clear and
|
|
distinct rattle which follows the thorough washing of the stones
|
|
by a drenching rain, but was just sufficient to make footway and
|
|
roadway slippery, adhesive, and clogging to both feet and wheels.
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|
|
|
Knight was standing by the fire, looking into its expiring embers,
|
|
previously to emerging from his door for a dreary journey home to
|
|
Richmond. His hat was on, and the gas turned off. The blind of
|
|
the window overlooking the alley was not drawn down; and with the
|
|
light from beneath, which shone over the ceiling of the room,
|
|
came, in place of the usual babble, only the reduced clatter and
|
|
quick speech which were the result of necessity rather than
|
|
choice.
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|
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|
Whilst he thus stood, waiting for the expiration of the few
|
|
minutes that were wanting to the time for his catching the train,
|
|
a light tapping upon the door mingled with the other sounds that
|
|
reached his ears. It was so faint at first that the outer noises
|
|
were almost sufficient to drown it. Finding it repeated Knight
|
|
crossed the lobby, crowded with books and rubbish, and opened the
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|
door.
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A woman, closely muffled up, but visibly of fragile build, was
|
|
standing on the landing under the gaslight. She sprang forward,
|
|
flung her arms round Knight's neck, and uttered a low cry--
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|
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|
'O Harry, Harry, you are killing me! I could not help coming.
|
|
Don't send me away--don't! Forgive your Elfride for coming--I love
|
|
you so!'
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|
|
|
Knight's agitation and astonishment mastered him for a few
|
|
moments.
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|
|
|
'Elfride!' he cried, 'what does this mean? What have you done?'
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|
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|
'Do not hurt me and punish me--Oh, do not! I couldn't help coming;
|
|
it was killing me. Last night, when you did not come back, I
|
|
could not bear it--I could not! Only let me be with you, and see
|
|
your face, Harry; I don't ask for more.'
|
|
|
|
Her eyelids were hot, heavy, and thick with excessive weeping, and
|
|
the delicate rose-red of her cheeks was disfigured and inflamed by
|
|
the constant chafing of the handkerchief in wiping her many tears.
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|
|
|
'Who is with you? Have you come alone?' he hurriedly inquired.
|
|
|
|
'Yes. When you did not come last night, I sat up hoping you would
|
|
come--and the night was all agony--and I waited on and on, and you
|
|
did not come! Then when it was morning, and your letter said you
|
|
were gone, I could not endure it; and I ran away from them to St.
|
|
Launce's, and came by the train. And I have been all day
|
|
travelling to you, and you won't make me go away again, will you,
|
|
Harry, because I shall always love you till I die?'
|
|
|
|
'Yet it is wrong for you to stay. O Elfride! what have you
|
|
committed yourself to? It is ruin to your good name to run to me
|
|
like this! Has not your first experience been sufficient to keep
|
|
you from these things?'
|
|
|
|
'My name! Harry, I shall soon die, and what good will my name be
|
|
to me then? Oh, could I but be the man and you the woman, I would
|
|
not leave you for such a little fault as mine! Do not think it was
|
|
so vile a thing in me to run away with him. Ah, how I wish you
|
|
could have run away with twenty women before you knew me, that I
|
|
might show you I would think it no fault, but be glad to get you
|
|
after them all, so that I had you! If you only knew me through and
|
|
through, how true I am, Harry. Cannot I be yours? Say you love me
|
|
just the same, and don't let me be separated from you again, will
|
|
you? I cannot bear it--all the long hours and days and nights
|
|
going on, and you not there, but away because you hate me!'
|
|
|
|
'Not hate you, Elfride,' he said gently, and supported her with
|
|
his arm. 'But you cannot stay here now--just at present, I mean.'
|
|
|
|
'I suppose I must not--I wish I might. I am afraid that if--you
|
|
lose sight of me--something dark will happen, and we shall not
|
|
meet again. Harry, if I am not good enough to be your wife, I
|
|
wish I could be your servant and live with you, and not be sent
|
|
away never to see you again. I don't mind what it is except
|
|
that!'
|
|
|
|
'No, I cannot send you away: I cannot. God knows what dark future
|
|
may arise out of this evening's work; but I cannot send you away!
|
|
You must sit down, and I will endeavour to collect my thoughts and
|
|
see what had better be done.
|
|
|
|
At that moment a loud knocking at the house door was heard by
|
|
both, accompanied by a hurried ringing of the bell that echoed
|
|
from attic to basement. The door was quickly opened, and after a
|
|
few hasty words of converse in the hall, heavy footsteps ascended
|
|
the stairs.
|
|
|
|
The face of Mr. Swancourt, flushed, grieved, and stern, appeared
|
|
round the landing of the staircase. He came higher up, and stood
|
|
beside them. Glancing over and past Knight with silent
|
|
indignation, he turned to the trembling girl.
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|
|
|
'O Elfride! and have I found you at last? Are these your tricks,
|
|
madam? When will you get rid of your idiocies, and conduct
|
|
yourself like a decent woman? Is my family name and house to be
|
|
disgraced by acts that would be a scandal to a washerwoman's
|
|
daughter? Come along, madam; come!'
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|
|
|
'She is so weary!' said Knight, in a voice of intensest anguish.
|
|
'Mr. Swancourt, don't be harsh with her--let me beg of you to be
|
|
tender with her, and love her!'
|
|
|
|
'To you, sir,' said Mr. Swancourt, turning to him as if by the
|
|
sheer pressure of circumstances, 'I have little to say. I can
|
|
only remark, that the sooner I can retire from your presence the
|
|
better I shall be pleased. Why you could not conduct your
|
|
courtship of my daughter like an honest man, I do not know. Why
|
|
she--a foolish inexperienced girl--should have been tempted to
|
|
this piece of folly, I do not know. Even if she had not known
|
|
better than to leave her home, you might have, I should think.'
|
|
|
|
'It is not his fault: he did not tempt me, papa! I came.'
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|
|
|
'If you wished the marriage broken off, why didn't you say so
|
|
plainly? If you never intended to marry, why could you not leave
|
|
her alone? Upon my soul, it grates me to the heart to be obliged
|
|
to think so ill of a man I thought my friend!'
|
|
|
|
Knight, soul-sick and weary of his life, did not arouse himself to
|
|
utter a word in reply. How should he defend himself when his
|
|
defence was the accusation of Elfride? On that account he felt a
|
|
miserable satisfaction in letting her father go on thinking and
|
|
speaking wrongfully. It was a faint ray of pleasure straying into
|
|
the great gloominess of his brain to think that the vicar might
|
|
never know but that he, as her lover, tempted her away, which
|
|
seemed to be the form Mr. Swancourt's misapprehension had taken.
|
|
|
|
'Now, are you coming?' said Mr. Swancourt to her again. He took
|
|
her unresisting hand, drew it within his arm, and led her down the
|
|
stairs. Knight's eyes followed her, the last moment begetting in
|
|
him a frantic hope that she would turn her head. She passed on,
|
|
and never looked back.
|
|
|
|
He heard the door open--close again. The wheels of a cab grazed
|
|
the kerbstone, a murmured direction followed. The door was
|
|
slammed together, the wheels moved, and they rolled away.
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|
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|
|
From that hour of her reappearance a dreadful conflict raged
|
|
within the breast of Henry Knight. His instinct, emotion,
|
|
affectiveness--or whatever it may be called--urged him to stand
|
|
forward, seize upon Elfride, and be her cherisher and protector
|
|
through life. Then came the devastating thought that Elfride's
|
|
childlike, unreasoning, and indiscreet act in flying to him only
|
|
proved that the proprieties must be a dead letter with her; that
|
|
the unreserve, which was really artlessness without ballast, meant
|
|
indifference to decorum; and what so likely as that such a woman
|
|
had been deceived in the past? He said to himself, in a mood of
|
|
the bitterest cynicism: 'The suspicious discreet woman who
|
|
imagines dark and evil things of all her fellow-creatures is far
|
|
too shrewd to be deluded by man: trusting beings like Elfride are
|
|
the women who fall.'
|
|
|
|
Hours and days went by, and Knight remained inactive. Lengthening
|
|
time, which made fainter the heart-awakening power of her
|
|
presence, strengthened the mental ability to reason her down.
|
|
Elfride loved him, he knew, and he could not leave off loving her
|
|
but marry her he would not. If she could but be again his own
|
|
Elfride--the woman she had seemed to be--but that woman was dead
|
|
and buried, and he knew her no more! And how could he marry this
|
|
Elfride, one who, if he had originally seen her as she was, would
|
|
have been barely an interesting pitiable acquaintance in his eyes--
|
|
no more?
|
|
|
|
It cankered his heart to think he was confronted by the closest
|
|
instance of a worse state of things than any he had assumed in the
|
|
pleasant social philosophy and satire of his essays.
|
|
|
|
The moral rightness of this man's life was worthy of all praise;
|
|
but in spite of some intellectual acumen, Knight had in him a
|
|
modicum of that wrongheadedness which is mostly found in
|
|
scrupulously honest people. With him, truth seemed too clean and
|
|
pure an abstraction to be so hopelessly churned in with error as
|
|
practical persons find it. Having now seen himself mistaken in
|
|
supposing Elfride to be peerless, nothing on earth could make him
|
|
believe she was not so very bad after all.
|
|
|
|
He lingered in town a fortnight, doing little else than vibrate
|
|
between passion and opinions. One idea remained intact--that it
|
|
was better Elfride and himself should not meet.
|
|
|
|
When he surveyed the volumes on his shelves--few of which had been
|
|
opened since Elfride first took possession of his heart--their
|
|
untouched and orderly arrangement reproached him as an apostate
|
|
from the old faith of his youth and early manhood. He had
|
|
deserted those never-failing friends, so they seemed to say, for
|
|
an unstable delight in a ductile woman, which had ended all in
|
|
bitterness. The spirit of self-denial, verging on asceticism,
|
|
which had ever animated Knight in old times, announced itself as
|
|
having departed with the birth of love, with it having gone the
|
|
self-respect which had compensated for the lack of self-
|
|
gratification. Poor little Elfride, instead of holding, as
|
|
formerly, a place in his religion, began to assume the hue of a
|
|
temptation. Perhaps it was human and correctly natural that
|
|
Knight never once thought whether he did not owe her a little
|
|
sacrifice for her unchary devotion in saving his life.
|
|
|
|
With a consciousness of having thus, like Antony, kissed away
|
|
kingdoms and provinces, he next considered how he had revealed his
|
|
higher secrets and intentions to her, an unreserve he would never
|
|
have allowed himself with any man living. How was it that he had
|
|
not been able to refrain from telling her of adumbrations
|
|
heretofore locked in the closest strongholds of his mind?
|
|
|
|
Knight's was a robust intellect, which could escape outside the
|
|
atmosphere of heart, and perceive that his own love, as well as
|
|
other people's, could be reduced by change of scene and
|
|
circumstances. At the same time the perception was a superimposed
|
|
sorrow:
|
|
|
|
|
|
'O last regret, regret can die!'
|
|
|
|
|
|
But being convinced that the death of this regret was the best
|
|
thing for him, he did not long shrink from attempting it. He
|
|
closed his chambers, suspended his connection with editors, and
|
|
left London for the Continent. Here we will leave him to wander
|
|
without purpose, beyond the nominal one of encouraging
|
|
obliviousness of Elfride.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter XXXVI
|
|
|
|
'The pennie's the jewel that beautifies a'.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
'I can't think what's coming to these St. Launce's people at all
|
|
at all.'
|
|
|
|
'With their "How-d'ye-do's," do you mean?'
|
|
|
|
'Ay, with their "How-d'ye-do's," and shaking of hands, asking me
|
|
in, and tender inquiries for you, John.'
|
|
|
|
These words formed part of a conversation between John Smith and
|
|
his wife on a Saturday evening in the spring which followed
|
|
Knight's departure from England. Stephen had long since returned
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to India; and the persevering couple themselves had migrated from
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Lord Luxellian's park at Endelstow to a comfortable roadside
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dwelling about a mile out of St. Launce's, where John had opened a
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small stone and slate yard in his own name.
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'When we came here six months ago,' continued Mrs. Smith, 'though
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I had paid ready money so many years in the town, my friskier
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shopkeepers would only speak over the counter. Meet 'em in the
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street half-an-hour after, and they'd treat me with staring
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ignorance of my face.'
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'Look through ye as through a glass winder?'
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'Yes, the brazen ones would. The quiet and cool ones would glance
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over the top of my head, past my side, over my shoulder, but never
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meet my eye. The gentle-modest would turn their faces south if I
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were coming east, flit down a passage if I were about to halve the
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pavement with them. There was the spruce young bookseller would
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play the same tricks; the butcher's daughters; the upholsterer's
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young men. Hand in glove when doing business out of sight with
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you; but caring nothing for a' old woman when playing the genteel
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away from all signs of their trade.'
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'True enough, Maria.'
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'Well, to-day 'tis all different. I'd no sooner got to market
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than Mrs. Joakes rushed up to me in the eyes of the town and said,
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"My dear Mrs. Smith, now you must be tired with your walk! Come in
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and have some lunch! I insist upon it; knowing you so many years
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as I have! Don't you remember when we used to go looking for owls'
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feathers together in the Castle ruins?" There's no knowing what
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you may need, so I answered the woman civilly. I hadn't got to
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the corner before that thriving young lawyer, Sweet, who's quite
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the dandy, ran after me out of breath. "Mrs. Smith," he says,
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"excuse my rudeness, but there's a bramble on the tail of your
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dress, which you've dragged in from the country; allow me to pull
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it off for you." If you'll believe me, this was in the very front
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of the Town Hall. What's the meaning of such sudden love for a'
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old woman?'
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'Can't say; unless 'tis repentance.'
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'Repentance! was there ever such a fool as you. John? Did anybody
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ever repent with money in's pocket and fifty years to live?'
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'Now, I've been thinking too,' said John, passing over the query
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as hardly pertinent, 'that I've had more loving-kindness from
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folks to-day than I ever have before since we moved here. Why,
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old Alderman Tope walked out to the middle of the street where I
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was, to shake hands with me--so 'a did. Having on my working
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clothes, I thought 'twas odd. Ay, and there was young
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Werrington.'
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'Who's he?'
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'Why, the man in Hill Street, who plays and sells flutes,
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trumpets, and fiddles, and grand pehanners. He was talking to
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Egloskerry, that very small bachelor-man with money in the funds.
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I was going by, I'm sure, without thinking or expecting a nod from
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men of that glib kidney when in my working clothes----'
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'You always will go poking into town in your working clothes. Beg
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you to change how I will, 'tis no use.'
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'Well, however, I was in my working clothes. Werrington saw me.
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"Ah, Mr. Smith! a fine morning; excellent weather for building,"
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says he, out as loud and friendly as if I'd met him in some deep
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hollow, where he could get nobody else to speak to at all. 'Twas
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odd: for Werrington is one of the very ringleaders of the fast
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class.'
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At that moment a tap came to the door. The door was immediately
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opened by Mrs. Smith in person.
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'You'll excuse us, I'm sure, Mrs. Smith, but this beautiful spring
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weather was too much for us. Yes, and we could stay in no longer;
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and I took Mrs. Trewen upon my arm directly we'd had a cup of tea,
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and out we came. And seeing your beautiful crocuses in such a
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bloom, we've taken the liberty to enter. We'll step round the
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garden, if you don't mind.'
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'Not at all,' said Mrs. Smith; and they walked round the garden.
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She lifted her hands in amazement directly their backs were
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turned. 'Goodness send us grace!'
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Who be they?' said her husband.
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'Actually Mr. Trewen, the bank-manager, and his wife.'
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John Smith, staggered in mind, went out of doors and looked over
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the garden gate, to collect his ideas. He had not been there two
|
|
minutes when wheels were heard, and a carriage and pair rolled
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along the road. A distinguished-looking lady, with the demeanour
|
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of a duchess, reclined within. When opposite Smith's gate she
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|
turned her head, and instantly commanded the coachman to stop.
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'Ah, Mr. Smith, I am glad to see you looking so well. I could not
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help stopping a moment to congratulate you and Mrs. Smith upon the
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happiness you must enjoy. Joseph, you may drive on.'
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And the carriage rolled away towards St. Launce's.
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Out rushed Mrs. Smith from behind a laurel-bush, where she had
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stood pondering.
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'Just going to touch my hat to her,' said John; 'just for all the
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|
world as I would have to poor Lady Luxellian years ago.'
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'Lord! who is she?'
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'The public-house woman--what's her name? Mrs.--Mrs.--at the
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Falcon.'
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'Public-house woman. The clumsiness of the Smith family! You
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|
MIGHT say the landlady of the Falcon Hotel, since we are in for
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|
politeness. The people are ridiculous enough, but give them their
|
|
due.'
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|
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The possibility is that Mrs. Smith was getting mollified, in spite
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|
of herself, by these remarkably friendly phenomena among the
|
|
people of St. Launce's. And in justice to them it was quite
|
|
desirable that she should do so. The interest which the
|
|
unpractised ones of this town expressed so grotesquely was genuine
|
|
of its kind, and equal in intrinsic worth to the more polished
|
|
smiles of larger communities.
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|
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|
By this time Mr. and Mrs. Trewen were returning from the garden.
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'I'll ask 'em flat,' whispered John to his wife. 'I'll say, "We
|
|
be in a fog--you'll excuse my asking a question, Mr. and Mrs.
|
|
Trewen. How is it you all be so friendly to-day?" Hey? 'Twould
|
|
sound right and sensible, wouldn't it?'
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|
|
|
'Not a word! Good mercy, when will the man have manners!'
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|
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|
'It must be a proud moment for you, I am sure, Mr. and Mrs. Smith,
|
|
to have a son so celebrated,' said the bank-manager advancing.
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|
|
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'Ah, 'tis Stephen--I knew it!' said Mrs. Smith triumphantly to
|
|
herself.
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'We don't know particulars,' said John.
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|
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'Not know!'
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|
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|
'No.'
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|
|
'Why, 'tis all over town. Our worthy Mayor alluded to it in a
|
|
speech at the dinner last night of the Every-Man-his-own-Maker
|
|
Club.'
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|
|
|
'And what about Stephen?' urged Mrs. Smith.
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|
|
|
'Why, your son has been feted by deputy-governors and Parsee
|
|
princes and nobody-knows-who in India; is hand in glove with
|
|
nabobs, and is to design a large palace, and cathedral, and
|
|
hospitals, colleges, halls, and fortifications, by the general
|
|
consent of the ruling powers, Christian and Pagan alike.'
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|
|
|
''Twas sure to come to the boy,' said Mr. Smith unassumingly.
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|
|
|
''Tis in yesterday's St. Launce's Chronicle; and our worthy Mayor
|
|
in the chair introduced the subject into his speech last night in
|
|
a masterly manner.'
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|
|
|
''Twas very good of the worthy Mayor in the chair I'm sure,' said
|
|
Stephen's mother. 'I hope the boy will have the sense to keep
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|
what he's got; but as for men, they are a simple sex. Some woman
|
|
will hook him.'
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|
|
|
'Well, Mr. and Mrs. Smith, the evening closes in, and we must be
|
|
going; and remember this, that every Saturday when you come in to
|
|
market, you are to make our house as your own. There will be
|
|
always a tea-cup and saucer for you, as you know there has been
|
|
for months, though you may have forgotten it. I'm a plain-
|
|
speaking woman, and what I say I mean.'
|
|
|
|
When the visitors were gone, and the sun had set, and the moon's
|
|
rays were just beginning to assert themselves upon the walls of
|
|
the dwelling, John Smith and his wife sat dawn to the newspaper
|
|
they had hastily procured from the town. And when the reading was
|
|
done, they considered how best to meet the new social requirements
|
|
settling upon them, which Mrs. Smith considered could be done by
|
|
new furniture and house enlargement alone.
|
|
|
|
'And, John, mind one thing,' she said in conclusion. 'In writing
|
|
to Stephen, never by any means mention the name of Elfride
|
|
Swancourt again. We've left the place, and know no more about her
|
|
except by hearsay. He seems to be getting free of her, and glad
|
|
am I for it. It was a cloudy hour for him when he first set eyes
|
|
upon the girl. That family's been no good to him, first or last;
|
|
so let them keep their blood to themselves if they want to. He
|
|
thinks of her, I know, but not so hopelessly. So don't try to
|
|
know anything about her, and we can't answer his questions. She
|
|
may die out of his mind then.'
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|
|
|
'That shall be it,' said John.
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|
Chapter XXXVII
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'After many days.'
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|
Knight roamed south, under colour of studying Continental
|
|
antiquities.
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|
|
|
He paced the lofty aisles of Amiens, loitered by Ardennes Abbey,
|
|
climbed into the strange towers of Laon, analyzed Noyon and
|
|
Rheims. Then he went to Chartres, and examined its scaly spires
|
|
and quaint carving then he idled about Coutances. He rowed
|
|
beneath the base of Mont St. Michel, and caught the varied skyline
|
|
of the crumbling edifices encrusting it. St. Ouen's, Rouen, knew
|
|
him for days; so did Vezelay, Sens, and many a hallowed monument
|
|
besides. Abandoning the inspection of early French art with the
|
|
same purposeless haste as he had shown in undertaking it, he went
|
|
further, and lingered about Ferrara, Padua, and Pisa. Satiated
|
|
with mediaevalism, he tried the Roman Forum. Next he observed
|
|
moonlight and starlight effects by the bay of Naples. He turned
|
|
to Austria, became enervated and depressed on Hungarian and
|
|
Bohemian plains, and was refreshed again by breezes on the
|
|
declivities of the Carpathians.
|
|
|
|
Then he found himself in Greece. He visited the plain of
|
|
Marathon, and strove to imagine the Persian defeat; to Mars Hill,
|
|
to picture St. Paul addressing the ancient Athenians; to
|
|
Thermopylae and Salamis, to run through the facts and traditions
|
|
of the Second Invasion--the result of his endeavours being more or
|
|
less chaotic. Knight grew as weary of these places as of all
|
|
others. Then he felt the shock of an earthquake in the Ionian
|
|
Islands, and went to Venice. Here he shot in gondolas up and down
|
|
the winding thoroughfare of the Grand Canal, and loitered on calle
|
|
and piazza at night, when the lagunes were undisturbed by a
|
|
ripple, and no sound was to be heard but the stroke of the
|
|
midnight clock. Afterwards he remained for weeks in the museums,
|
|
galleries, and libraries of Vienna, Berlin, and Paris; and thence
|
|
came home.
|
|
|
|
Time thus rolls us on to a February afternoon, divided by fifteen
|
|
months from the parting of Elfride and her lover in the brown
|
|
stubble field towards the sea.
|
|
|
|
Two men obviously not Londoners, and with a touch of foreignness
|
|
in their look, met by accident on one of the gravel walks leading
|
|
across Hyde Park. The younger, more given to looking about him
|
|
than his fellow, saw and noticed the approach of his senior some
|
|
time before the latter had raised his eyes from the ground, upon
|
|
which they were bent in an abstracted gaze that seemed habitual
|
|
with him.
|
|
|
|
'Mr. Knight--indeed it is!' exclaimed the younger man.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, Stephen Smith!' said Knight.
|
|
|
|
Simultaneous operations might now have been observed progressing
|
|
in both, the result being that an expression less frank and
|
|
impulsive than the first took possession of their features. It
|
|
was manifest that the next words uttered were a superficial
|
|
covering to constraint on both sides.
|
|
|
|
'Have you been in England long?' said Knight.
|
|
|
|
'Only two days,' said Smith. India ever since?'
|
|
|
|
'Nearly ever since.'
|
|
|
|
'They were making a fuss about you at St. Launce's last year. I
|
|
fancy I saw something of the sort in the papers.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; I believe something was said about me.'
|
|
|
|
'I must congratulate you on your achievements.'
|
|
|
|
'Thanks, but they are nothing very extraordinary. A natural
|
|
professional progress where there was no opposition.'
|
|
|
|
There followed that want of words which will always assert itself
|
|
between nominal friends who find they have ceased to be real ones,
|
|
and have not yet sunk to the level of mere acquaintance. Each
|
|
looked up and down the Park. Knight may possibly have borne in
|
|
mind during the intervening months Stephen's manner towards him
|
|
the last time they had met, and may have encouraged his former
|
|
interest in Stephen's welfare to die out of him as misplaced.
|
|
Stephen certainly was full of the feelings begotten by the belief
|
|
that Knight had taken away the woman he loved so well.
|
|
|
|
Stephen Smith then asked a question, adopting a certain
|
|
recklessness of manner and tone to hide, if possible, the fact
|
|
that the subject was a much greater one to him than his friend had
|
|
ever supposed.
|
|
|
|
'Are you married?'
|
|
|
|
'I am not.'
|
|
|
|
Knight spoke in an indescribable tone of bitterness that was
|
|
almost moroseness.
|
|
|
|
'And I never shall be,' he added decisively. 'Are you?'
|
|
|
|
'No,' said Stephen, sadly and quietly, like a man in a sick-room.
|
|
Totally ignorant whether or not Knight knew of his own previous
|
|
claims upon Elfride, he yet resolved to hazard a few more words
|
|
upon the topic which had an aching fascination for him even now.
|
|
|
|
'Then your engagement to Miss Swancourt came to nothing,' he said.
|
|
'You remember I met you with her once?'
|
|
|
|
Stephen's voice gave way a little here, in defiance of his firmest
|
|
will to the contrary. Indian affairs had not yet lowered those
|
|
emotions down to the point of control.
|
|
|
|
'It was broken off,' came quickly from Knight. 'Engagements to
|
|
marry often end like that--for better or for worse.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes; so they do. And what have you been doing lately?'
|
|
|
|
'Doing? Nothing.'
|
|
|
|
'Where have you been?'
|
|
|
|
'I can hardly tell you. In the main, going about Europe; and it
|
|
may perhaps interest you to know that I have been attempting the
|
|
serious study of Continental art of the Middle Ages. My notes on
|
|
each example I visited are at your service. They are of no use to
|
|
me.'
|
|
|
|
'I shall be glad with them....Oh, travelling far and near!'
|
|
|
|
'Not far,' said Knight, with moody carelessness. 'You know, I
|
|
daresay, that sheep occasionally become giddy--hydatids in the
|
|
head, 'tis called, in which their brains become eaten up, and the
|
|
animal exhibits the strange peculiarity of walking round and round
|
|
in a circle continually. I have travelled just in the same way--
|
|
round and round like a giddy ram.'
|
|
|
|
The reckless, bitter, and rambling style in which Knight talked,
|
|
as if rather to vent his images than to convey any ideas to
|
|
Stephen, struck the young man painfully. His former friend's days
|
|
had become cankered in some way: Knight was a changed man. He
|
|
himself had changed much, but not as Knight had changed.
|
|
|
|
'Yesterday I came home,' continued Knight, 'without having, to the
|
|
best of my belief, imbibed half-a-dozen ideas worth retaining.'
|
|
|
|
'You out-Hamlet Hamlet in morbidness of mood,' said Stephen, with
|
|
regretful frankness.
|
|
|
|
Knight made no reply.
|
|
|
|
'Do you know,' Stephen continued, 'I could almost have sworn that
|
|
you would be married before this time, from what I saw?'
|
|
|
|
Knight's face grew harder. 'Could you?' he said.
|
|
|
|
Stephen was powerless to forsake the depressing, luring subject.
|
|
|
|
'Yes; and I simply wonder at it.'
|
|
|
|
'Whom did you expect me to marry?'
|
|
|
|
'Her I saw you with.'
|
|
|
|
'Thank you for that wonder.'
|
|
|
|
'Did she jilt you?'
|
|
|
|
'Smith, now one word to you,' Knight returned steadily. 'Don't
|
|
you ever question me on that subject. I have a reason for making
|
|
this request, mind. And if you do question me, you will not get
|
|
an answer.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, I don't for a moment wish to ask what is unpleasant to you--
|
|
not I. I had a momentary feeling that I should like to explain
|
|
something on my side, and hear a similar explanation on yours.
|
|
But let it go, let it go, by all means.'
|
|
|
|
'What would you explain?'
|
|
|
|
'I lost the woman I was going to marry: you have not married as
|
|
you intended. We might have compared notes.'
|
|
|
|
'I have never asked you a word about your case.'
|
|
|
|
'I know that.'
|
|
|
|
'And the inference is obvious.'
|
|
|
|
'Quite so.'
|
|
|
|
'The truth is, Stephen, I have doggedly resolved never to allude
|
|
to the matter--for which I have a very good reason.'
|
|
|
|
'Doubtless. As good a reason as you had for not marrying her.'
|
|
|
|
'You talk insidiously. I had a good one--a miserably good one!'
|
|
|
|
Smith's anxiety urged him to venture one more question.
|
|
|
|
'Did she not love you enough?' He drew his breath in a slow and
|
|
attenuated stream, as he waited in timorous hope for the answer.
|
|
|
|
'Stephen, you rather strain ordinary courtesy in pressing
|
|
questions of that kind after what I have said. I cannot
|
|
understand you at all. I must go on now.'
|
|
|
|
'Why, good God!' exclaimed Stephen passionately, 'you talk as if
|
|
you hadn't at all taken her away from anybody who had better
|
|
claims to her than you!'
|
|
|
|
'What do you mean by that?' said Knight, with a puzzled air.
|
|
'What have you heard?'
|
|
|
|
'Nothing. I too must go on. Good-day.'
|
|
|
|
'If you will go,' said Knight, reluctantly now, 'you must, I
|
|
suppose. I am sure I cannot understand why you behave so.'
|
|
|
|
'Nor I why you do. I have always been grateful to you, and as far
|
|
as I am concerned we need never have become so estranged as we
|
|
have.'
|
|
|
|
'And have I ever been anything but well-disposed towards you,
|
|
Stephen? Surely you know that I have not! The system of reserve
|
|
began with you: you know that.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no! You altogether mistake our position. You were always
|
|
from the first reserved to me, though I was confidential to you.
|
|
That was, I suppose, the natural issue of our differing positions
|
|
in life. And when I, the pupil, became reserved like you, the
|
|
master, you did not like it. However, I was going to ask you to
|
|
come round and see me.'
|
|
|
|
'Where are you staying?'
|
|
|
|
'At the Grosvenor Hotel, Pimlico.'
|
|
|
|
'So am I.'
|
|
|
|
'That's convenient, not to say odd. Well, I am detained in London
|
|
for a day or two; then I am going down to see my father and
|
|
mother, who live at St. Launce's now. Will you see me this
|
|
evening?'
|
|
|
|
'I may; but I will not promise. I was wishing to be alone for an
|
|
hour or two; but I shall know where to find you, at any rate.
|
|
Good-bye.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter XXXVIII
|
|
|
|
'Jealousy is cruel as the grave.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Stephen pondered not a little on this meeting with his old friend
|
|
and once-beloved exemplar. He was grieved, for amid all the
|
|
distractions of his latter years a still small voice of fidelity
|
|
to Knight had lingered on in him. Perhaps this staunchness was
|
|
because Knight ever treated him as a mere disciple--even to
|
|
snubbing him sometimes; and had at last, though unwittingly,
|
|
inflicted upon him the greatest snub of all, that of taking away
|
|
his sweetheart. The emotional side of his constitution was built
|
|
rather after a feminine than a male model; and that tremendous
|
|
wound from Knight's hand may have tended to keep alive a warmth
|
|
which solicitousness would have extinguished altogether.
|
|
|
|
Knight, on his part, was vexed, after they had parted, that he had
|
|
not taken Stephen in hand a little after the old manner. Those
|
|
words which Smith had let fall concerning somebody having a prior
|
|
claim to Elfride, would, if uttered when the man was younger, have
|
|
provoked such a query as, 'Come, tell me all about it, my lad,'
|
|
from Knight, and Stephen would straightway have delivered himself
|
|
of all he knew on the subject.
|
|
|
|
Stephen the ingenuous boy, though now obliterated externally by
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Stephen the contriving man, returned to Knight's memory vividly
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that afternoon. He was at present but a sojourner in London; and
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after attending to the two or three matters of business which
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remained to be done that day, he walked abstractedly into the
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gloomy corridors of the British Museum for the half-hour previous
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to their closing. That meeting with Smith had reunited the
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present with the past, closing up the chasm of his absence from
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England as if it had never existed, until the final circumstances
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of his previous time of residence in London formed but a yesterday
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to the circumstances now. The conflict that then had raged in him
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concerning Elfride Swancourt revived, strengthened by its sleep.
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Indeed, in those many months of absence, though quelling the
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intention to make her his wife, he had never forgotten that she
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was the type of woman adapted to his nature; and instead of trying
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to obliterate thoughts of her altogether, he had grown to regard
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them as an infirmity it was necessary to tolerate.
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Knight returned to his hotel much earlier in the evening than he
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would have done in the ordinary course of things. He did not care
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to think whether this arose from a friendly wish to close the gap
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that had slowly been widening between himself and his earliest
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acquaintance, or from a hankering desire to hear the meaning of
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the dark oracles Stephen had hastily pronounced, betokening that
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he knew something more of Elfride than Knight had supposed.
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He made a hasty dinner, inquired for Smith, and soon was ushered
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into the young man's presence, whom he found sitting in front of a
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comfortable fire, beside a table spread with a few scientific
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periodicals and art reviews.
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'I have come to you, after all,' said Knight. 'My manner was odd
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this morning, and it seemed desirable to call; but that you had
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too much sense to notice, Stephen, I know. Put it down to my
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wanderings in France and Italy.'
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'Don't say another word, but sit down. I am only too glad to see
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you again.'
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Stephen would hardly have cared to tell Knight just then that the
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minute before Knight was announced he had been reading over some
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old letters of Elfride's. They were not many; and until to-night
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had been sealed up, and stowed away in a corner of his leather
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trunk, with a few other mementoes and relics which had accompanied
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him in his travels. The familiar sights and sounds of London, the
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meeting with his friend, had with him also revived that sense of
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abiding continuity with regard to Elfride and love which his
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absence at the other side of the world had to some extent
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suspended, though never ruptured. He at first intended only to
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look over these letters on the outside; then he read one; then
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another; until the whole was thus re-used as a stimulus to sad
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memories. He folded them away again, placed them in his pocket,
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and instead of going on with an examination into the state of the
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artistic world, had remained musing on the strange circumstance
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that he had returned to find Knight not the husband of Elfride
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after all.
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The possibility of any given gratification begets a cumulative
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sense of its necessity. Stephen gave the rein to his imagination,
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and felt more intensely than he had felt for many months that,
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without Elfride, his life would never be any great pleasure to
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himself, or honour to his Maker.
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They sat by the fire, chatting on external and random subjects,
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neither caring to be the first to approach the matter each most
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longed to discuss. On the table with the periodicals lay two or
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three pocket-books, one of them being open. Knight seeing from
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the exposed page that the contents were sketches only, began
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turning the leaves over carelessly with his finger. When, some
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time later, Stephen was out of the room, Knight proceeded to pass
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the interval by looking at the sketches more carefully.
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The first crude ideas, pertaining to dwellings of all kinds, were
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roughly outlined on the different pages. Antiquities had been
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copied; fragments of Indian columns, colossal statues, and
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outlandish ornament from the temples of Elephanta and Kenneri,
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were carelessly intruded upon by outlines of modern doors,
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windows, roofs, cooking-stoves, and household furniture;
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everything, in short, which comes within the range of a practising
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architect's experience, who travels with his eyes open. Among
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these occasionally appeared rough delineations of mediaeval
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subjects for carving or illumination--heads of Virgins, Saints,
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and Prophets.
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Stephen was not professedly a free-hand draughtsman, but he drew
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the human figure with correctness and skill. In its numerous
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repetitions on the sides and edges of the leaves, Knight began to
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notice a peculiarity. All the feminine saints had one type of
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feature. There were large nimbi and small nimbi about their
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drooping heads, but the face was always the same. That profile--
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how well Knight knew that profile!
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Had there been but one specimen of the familiar countenance, he
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might have passed over the resemblance as accidental; but a
|
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repetition meant more. Knight thought anew of Smith's hasty words
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earlier in the day, and looked at the sketches again and again.
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On the young man's entry, Knight said with palpable agitation--
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'Stephen, who are those intended for?'
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Stephen looked over the book with utter unconcern, 'Saints and
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angels, done in my leisure moments. They were intended as designs
|
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for the stained glass of an English church.'
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'But whom do you idealize by that type of woman you always adopt
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for the Virgin?'
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'Nobody.'
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And then a thought raced along Stephen's mind and he looked up at
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his friend.
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|
The truth is, Stephen's introduction of Elfride's lineaments had
|
|
been so unconscious that he had not at first understood his
|
|
companion's drift. The hand, like the tongue, easily acquires the
|
|
trick of repetition by rote, without calling in the mind to assist
|
|
at all; and this had been the case here. Young men who cannot
|
|
write verses about their Loves generally take to portraying them,
|
|
and in the early days of his attachment Smith had never been weary
|
|
of outlining Elfride. The lay-figure of Stephen's sketches now
|
|
initiated an adjustment of many things. Knight had recognized
|
|
her. The opportunity of comparing notes had come unsought.
|
|
|
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'Elfride Swancourt, to whom I was engaged,' he said quietly.
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'Stephen!'
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'I know what you mean by speaking like that.'
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'Was it Elfride? YOU the man, Stephen?'
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'Yes; and you are thinking why did I conceal the fact from you
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that time at Endelstow, are you not?'
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'Yes, and more--more.'
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'I did it for the best; blame me if you will; I did it for the
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best. And now say how could I be with you afterwards as I had
|
|
been before?'
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|
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'I don't know at all; I can't say.'
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|
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Knight remained fixed in thought, and once he murmured--
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|
'I had a suspicion this afternoon that there might be some such
|
|
meaning in your words about my taking her away. But I dismissed
|
|
it. How came you to know her?' he presently asked, in almost a
|
|
peremptory tone.
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'I went down about the church; years ago now.'
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|
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'When you were with Hewby, of course, of course. Well, I can't
|
|
understand it.' His tones rose. 'I don't know what to say, your
|
|
hoodwinking me like this for so long!'
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|
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'I don't see that I have hoodwinked you at all.'
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'Yes, yes, but'----
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|
Knight arose from his seat, and began pacing up and down the room.
|
|
His face was markedly pale, and his voice perturbed, as he said--
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'You did not act as I should have acted towards you under those
|
|
circumstances. I feel it deeply; and I tell you plainly, I shall
|
|
never forget it!'
|
|
|
|
'What?'
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|
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'Your behaviour at that meeting in the family vault, when I told
|
|
you we were going to be married. Deception, dishonesty,
|
|
everywhere; all the world's of a piece!'
|
|
|
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Stephen did not much like this misconstruction of his motives,
|
|
even though it was but the hasty conclusion of a friend disturbed
|
|
by emotion.
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|
|
|
'I could do no otherwise than I did, with due regard to her,' he
|
|
said stiffly.
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|
|
|
'Indeed!' said Knight, in the bitterest tone of reproach. 'Nor
|
|
could you with due regard to her have married her, I suppose! I
|
|
have hoped--longed--that HE, who turns out to be YOU, would
|
|
ultimately have done that.'
|
|
|
|
'I am much obliged to you for that hope. But you talk very
|
|
mysteriously. I think I had about the best reason anybody could
|
|
have had for not doing that.'
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|
|
|
'Oh, what reason was it?'
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|
|
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'That I could not.'
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|
|
|
'You ought to have made an opportunity; you ought to do so now, in
|
|
bare justice to her, Stephen!' cried Knight, carried beyond
|
|
himself. 'That you know very well, and it hurts and wounds me
|
|
more than you dream to find you never have tried to make any
|
|
reparation to a woman of that kind--so trusting, so apt to be run
|
|
away with by her feelings--poor little fool, so much the worse for
|
|
her!'
|
|
|
|
'Why, you talk like a madman! You took her away from me, did you
|
|
not?'
|
|
|
|
'Picking up what another throws down can scarcely be called
|
|
"taking away." However, we shall not agree too well upon that
|
|
subject, so we had better part.'
|
|
|
|
'But I am quite certain you misapprehend something most
|
|
grievously,' said Stephen, shaken to the bottom of his heart.
|
|
'What have I done; tell me? I have lost Elfride, but is that such
|
|
a sin?'
|
|
|
|
'Was it her doing, or yours?'
|
|
|
|
'Was what?'
|
|
|
|
'That you parted.'
|
|
|
|
'I will tell you honestly. It was hers entirely, entirely.'
|
|
|
|
'What was her reason?'
|
|
|
|
'I can hardly say. But I'll tell the story without reserve.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen until to-day had unhesitatingly held that she grew tired
|
|
of him and turned to Knight; but he did not like to advance the
|
|
statement now, or even to think the thought. To fancy otherwise
|
|
accorded better with the hope to which Knight's estrangement had
|
|
given birth: that love for his friend was not the direct cause,
|
|
but a result of her suspension of love for himself.
|
|
|
|
'Such a matter must not be allowed to breed discord between us,'
|
|
Knight returned, relapsing into a manner which concealed all his
|
|
true feeling, as if confidence now was intolerable. 'I do see
|
|
that your reticence towards me in the vault may have been dictated
|
|
by prudential considerations.' He concluded artificially, 'It was
|
|
a strange thing altogether; but not of much importance, I suppose,
|
|
at this distance of time; and it does not concern me now, though I
|
|
don't mind hearing your story.'
|
|
|
|
These words from Knight, uttered with such an air of renunciation
|
|
and apparent indifference, prompted Smith to speak on--perhaps
|
|
with a little complacency--of his old secret engagement to
|
|
Elfride. He told the details of its origin, and the peremptory
|
|
words and actions of her father to extinguish their love.
|
|
|
|
Knight persevered in the tone and manner of a disinterested
|
|
outsider. It had become more than ever imperative to screen his
|
|
emotions from Stephen's eye; the young man would otherwise be less
|
|
frank, and their meeting would be again embittered. What was the
|
|
use of untoward candour?
|
|
|
|
Stephen had now arrived at the point in his ingenuous narrative
|
|
where he left the vicarage because of her father's manner.
|
|
Knight's interest increased. Their love seemed so innocent and
|
|
childlike thus far.
|
|
|
|
'It is a nice point in casuistry,' he observed, 'to decide whether
|
|
you were culpable or not in not telling Swancourt that your
|
|
friends were parishioners of his. It was only human nature to
|
|
hold your tongue under the circumstances. Well, what was the
|
|
result of your dismissal by him?'
|
|
|
|
'That we agreed to be secretly faithful. And to insure this we
|
|
thought we would marry.'
|
|
|
|
Knight's suspense and agitation rose higher when Stephen entered
|
|
upon this phase of the subject.
|
|
|
|
'Do you mind telling on?' he said, steadying his manner of speech.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, not at all.'
|
|
|
|
Then Stephen gave in full the particulars of the meeting with
|
|
Elfride at the railway station; the necessity they were under of
|
|
going to London, unless the ceremony were to be postponed. The
|
|
long journey of the afternoon and evening; her timidity and
|
|
revulsion of feeling; its culmination on reaching London; the
|
|
crossing over to the down-platform and their immediate departure
|
|
again, solely in obedience to her wish; the journey all night;
|
|
their anxious watching for the dawn; their arrival at St. Launce's
|
|
at last--were detailed. And he told how a village woman named
|
|
Jethway was the only person who recognized them, either going or
|
|
coming; and how dreadfully this terrified Elfride. He told how he
|
|
waited in the fields whilst this then reproachful sweetheart went
|
|
for her pony, and how the last kiss he ever gave her was given a
|
|
mile out of the town, on the way to Endelstow.
|
|
|
|
These things Stephen related with a will. He believed that in
|
|
doing so he established word by word the reasonableness of his
|
|
claim to Elfride.
|
|
|
|
'Curse her! curse that woman!--that miserable letter that parted
|
|
us! O God!'
|
|
|
|
Knight began pacing the room again, and uttered this at further
|
|
end.
|
|
|
|
'What did you say?' said Stephen, turning round.
|
|
|
|
'Say? Did I say anything? Oh, I was merely thinking about your
|
|
story, and the oddness of my having a fancy for the same woman
|
|
afterwards. And that now I--I have forgotten her almost; and
|
|
neither of us care about her, except just as a friend, you know,
|
|
eh?'
|
|
|
|
Knight still continued at the further end of the room, somewhat in
|
|
shadow.
|
|
|
|
'Exactly,' said Stephen, inwardly exultant, for he was really
|
|
deceived by Knight's off-hand manner.
|
|
|
|
Yet he was deceived less by the completeness of Knight's disguise
|
|
than by the persuasive power which lay in the fact that Knight had
|
|
never before deceived him in anything. So this supposition that
|
|
his companion had ceased to love Elfride was an enormous
|
|
lightening of the weight which had turned the scale against him.
|
|
|
|
'Admitting that Elfride COULD love another man after you,' said
|
|
the elder, under the same varnish of careless criticism, 'she was
|
|
none the worse for that experience.'
|
|
|
|
'The worse? Of course she was none the worse.'
|
|
|
|
'Did you ever think it a wild and thoughtless thing for her to
|
|
do?'
|
|
|
|
'Indeed, I never did,' said Stephen. 'I persuaded her. She saw
|
|
no harm in it until she decided to return, nor did I; nor was
|
|
there, except to the extent of indiscretion.'
|
|
|
|
'Directly she thought it was wrong she would go no further?'
|
|
|
|
'That was it. I had just begun to think it wrong too.'
|
|
|
|
'Such a childish escapade might have been misrepresented by any
|
|
evil-disposed person, might it not?'
|
|
|
|
'It might; but I never heard that it was. Nobody who really knew
|
|
all the circumstances would have done otherwise than smile. If
|
|
all the world had known it, Elfride would still have remained the
|
|
only one who thought her action a sin. Poor child, she always
|
|
persisted in thinking so, and was frightened more than enough.'
|
|
|
|
'Stephen, do you love her now?'
|
|
|
|
'Well, I like her; I always shall, you know,' he said evasively,
|
|
and with all the strategy love suggested. 'But I have not seen
|
|
her for so long that I can hardly be expected to love her. Do you
|
|
love her still?'
|
|
|
|
'How shall I answer without being ashamed? What fickle beings we
|
|
men are, Stephen! Men may love strongest for a while, but women
|
|
love longest. I used to love her--in my way, you know.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, I understand. Ah, and I used to love her in my way. In
|
|
fact, I loved her a good deal at one time; but travel has a
|
|
tendency to obliterate early fancies.'
|
|
|
|
'It has--it has, truly.'
|
|
|
|
Perhaps the most extraordinary feature in this conversation was
|
|
the circumstance that, though each interlocutor had at first his
|
|
suspicions of the other's abiding passion awakened by several
|
|
little acts, neither would allow himself to see that his friend
|
|
might now be speaking deceitfully as well as he.
|
|
|
|
'Stephen.' resumed Knight, 'now that matters are smooth between
|
|
us, I think I must leave you. You won't mind my hurrying off to
|
|
my quarters?'
|
|
|
|
'You'll stay to some sort of supper surely? didn't you come to
|
|
dinner!'
|
|
|
|
'You must really excuse me this once.'
|
|
|
|
'Then you'll drop in to breakfast to-morrow.'
|
|
|
|
'I shall be rather pressed for time.'
|
|
|
|
'An early breakfast, which shall interfere with nothing?'
|
|
|
|
'I'll come,' said Knight, with as much readiness as it was
|
|
possible to graft upon a huge stock of reluctance. 'Yes, early;
|
|
eight o'clock say, as we are under the same roof.'
|
|
|
|
'Any time you like. Eight it shall be.'
|
|
|
|
And Knight left him. To wear a mask, to dissemble his feelings as
|
|
he had in their late miserable conversation, was such torture that
|
|
he could support it no longer. It was the first time in Knight's
|
|
life that he had ever been so entirely the player of a part. And
|
|
the man he had thus deceived was Stephen, who had docilely looked
|
|
up to him from youth as a superior of unblemished integrity.
|
|
|
|
He went to bed, and allowed the fever of his excitement to rage
|
|
uncontrolled. Stephen--it was only he who was the rival--only
|
|
Stephen! There was an anti-climax of absurdity which Knight,
|
|
wretched and conscience-stricken as he was, could not help
|
|
recognizing. Stephen was but a boy to him. Where the great grief
|
|
lay was in perceiving that the very innocence of Elfride in
|
|
reading her little fault as one so grave was what had fatally
|
|
misled him. Had Elfride, with any degree of coolness, asserted
|
|
that she had done no harm, the poisonous breath of the dead Mrs.
|
|
Jethway would have been inoperative. Why did he not make his
|
|
little docile girl tell more? If on that subject he had only
|
|
exercised the imperativeness customary with him on others, all
|
|
might have been revealed. It smote his heart like a switch when
|
|
he remembered how gently she had borne his scourging speeches,
|
|
never answering him with a single reproach, only assuring him of
|
|
her unbounded love.
|
|
|
|
Knight blessed Elfride for her sweetness, and forgot her fault.
|
|
He pictured with a vivid fancy those fair summer scenes with her.
|
|
He again saw her as at their first meeting, timid at speaking, yet
|
|
in her eagerness to be explanatory borne forward almost against
|
|
her will. How she would wait for him in green places, without
|
|
showing any of the ordinary womanly affectations of indifference!
|
|
How proud she was to be seen walking with him, bearing legibly in
|
|
her eyes the thought that he was the greatest genius in the world!
|
|
|
|
He formed a resolution; and after that could make pretence of
|
|
slumber no longer. Rising and dressing himself, he sat down and
|
|
waited for day.
|
|
|
|
That night Stephen was restless too. Not because of the
|
|
unwontedness of a return to English scenery; not because he was
|
|
about to meet his parents, and settle down for awhile to English
|
|
cottage life. He was indulging in dreams, and for the nonce the
|
|
warehouses of Bombay and the plains and forts of Poonah were but a
|
|
shadow's shadow. His dream was based on this one atom of fact:
|
|
Elfride and Knight had become separated, and their engagement was
|
|
as if it had never been. Their rupture must have occurred soon
|
|
after Stephen's discovery of the fact of their union; and, Stephen
|
|
went on to think, what so probable as that a return of her errant
|
|
affection to himself was the cause?
|
|
|
|
Stephen's opinions in this matter were those of a lover, and not
|
|
the balanced judgment of an unbiassed spectator. His naturally
|
|
sanguine spirit built hope upon hope, till scarcely a doubt
|
|
remained in his mind that her lingering tenderness for him had in
|
|
some way been perceived by Knight, and had provoked their parting.
|
|
|
|
To go and see Elfride was the suggestion of impulses it was
|
|
impossible to withstand. At any rate, to run down from St.
|
|
Launce's to Castle Poterel, a distance of less than twenty miles,
|
|
and glide like a ghost about their old haunts, making stealthy
|
|
inquiries about her, would be a fascinating way of passing the
|
|
first spare hours after reaching home on the day after the morrow.
|
|
|
|
He was now a richer man than heretofore, standing on his own
|
|
bottom; and the definite position in which he had rooted himself
|
|
nullified old local distinctions. He had become illustrious, even
|
|
sanguine clarus, judging from the tone of the worthy Mayor of St.
|
|
Launce's.
|
|
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|
|
Chapter XXXIX
|
|
|
|
'Each to the loved one's side.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
The friends and rivals breakfasted together the next morning. Not
|
|
a word was said on either side upon the matter discussed the
|
|
previous evening so glibly and so hollowly. Stephen was absorbed
|
|
the greater part of the time in wishing he were not forced to stay
|
|
in town yet another day.
|
|
|
|
'I don't intend to leave for St. Launce's till to-morrow, as you
|
|
know,' he said to Knight at the end of the meal. 'What are you
|
|
going to do with yourself to-day?'
|
|
|
|
'I have an engagement just before ten,' said Knight deliberately;
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'and after that time I must call upon two or three people.'
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'I'll look for you this evening,' said Stephen.
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'Yes, do. You may as well come and dine with me; that is, if we
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can meet. I may not sleep in London to-night; in fact, I am
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absolutely unsettled as to my movements yet. However, the first
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thing I am going to do is to get my baggage shifted from this
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place to Bede's Inn. Good-bye for the present. I'll write, you
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know, if I can't meet you.'
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It now wanted a quarter to nine o'clock. When Knight was gone,
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Stephen felt yet more impatient of the circumstance that another
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day would have to drag itself away wearily before he could set out
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for that spot of earth whereon a soft thought of him might perhaps
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be nourished still. On a sudden he admitted to his mind the
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possibility that the engagement he was waiting in town to keep
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might be postponed without much harm.
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It was no sooner perceived than attempted. Looking at his watch,
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he found it wanted forty minutes to the departure of the ten
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o'clock train from Paddington, which left him a surplus quarter of
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an hour before it would be necessary to start for the station.
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Scribbling a hasty note or two--one putting off the business
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meeting, another to Knight apologizing for not being able to see
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him in the evening--paying his bill, and leaving his heavier
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luggage to follow him by goods-train, he jumped into a cab and
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rattled off to the Great Western Station.
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Shortly afterwards he took his seat in the railway carriage.
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The guard paused on his whistle, to let into the next compartment
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to Smith's a man of whom Stephen had caught but a hasty glimpse as
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he ran across the platform at the last moment.
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Smith sank back into the carriage, stilled by perplexity. The man
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was like Knight--astonishingly like him. Was it possible it could
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be he? To have got there he must have driven like the wind to
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Bede's Inn, and hardly have alighted before starting again. No,
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it could not be he; that was not his way of doing things.
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During the early part of the journey Stephen Smith's thoughts
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busied themselves till his brain seemed swollen. One subject was
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concerning his own approaching actions. He was a day earlier than
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his letter to his parents had stated, and his arrangement with
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them had been that they should meet him at Plymouth; a plan which
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pleased the worthy couple beyond expression. Once before the same
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engagement had been made, which he had then quashed by ante-dating
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his arrival. This time he would go right on to Castle Boterel;
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ramble in that well-known neighbourhood during the evening and
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next morning, making inquiries; and return to Plymouth to meet
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them as arranged--a contrivance which would leave their cherished
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project undisturbed, relieving his own impatience also.
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At Chippenham there was a little waiting, and some loosening and
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attaching of carriages.
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Stephen looked out. At the same moment another man's head emerged
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from the adjoining window. Each looked in the other's face.
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Knight and Stephen confronted one another.
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'You here!' said the younger man.
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'Yes. It seems that you are too,' said Knight, strangely.
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'Yes.'
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The selfishness of love and the cruelty of jealousy were fairly
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exemplified at this moment. Each of the two men looked at his
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friend as he had never looked at him before. Each was TROUBLED at
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the other's presence.
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'I thought you said you were not coming till to-morrow,' remarked
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Knight.
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'I did. It was an afterthought to come to-day. This journey was
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your engagement, then?'
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'No, it was not. This is an afterthought of mine too. I left a
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note to explain it, and account for my not being able to meet you
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this evening as we arranged.'
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'So did I for you.'
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'You don't look well: you did not this morning.'
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'I have a headache. You are paler to-day than you were.'
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'I, too, have been suffering from headache. We have to wait here
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a few minutes, I think.'
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They walked up and down the platform, each one more and more
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embarrassingly concerned with the awkwardness of his friend's
|
|
presence. They reached the end of the footway, and paused in
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sheer absent-mindedness. Stephen's vacant eyes rested upon the
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operations of some porters, who were shifting a dark and curious-
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|
looking van from the rear of the train, to shunt another which was
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|
between it and the fore part of the train. This operation having
|
|
been concluded, the two friends returned to the side of their
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carriage.
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'Will you come in here?' said Knight, not very warmly.
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'I have my rug and portmanteau and umbrella with me: it is rather
|
|
bothering to move now,' said Stephen reluctantly. 'Why not you
|
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come here?'
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'I have my traps too. It is hardly worth while to shift them, for
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I shall see you again, you know.'
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'Oh, yes.'
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And each got into his own place. Just at starting, a man on the
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platform held up his hands and stopped the train.
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|
Stephen looked out to see what was the matter.
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One of the officials was exclaiming to another, 'That carriage
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|
should have been attached again. Can't you see it is for the main
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|
line? Quick! What fools there are in the world!'
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|
'What a confounded nuisance these stoppages are!' exclaimed Knight
|
|
impatiently, looking out from his compartment. 'What is it?'
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'That singular carriage we saw has been unfastened from our train
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|
by mistake, it seems,' said Stephen.
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|
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|
He was watching the process of attaching it. The van or carriage,
|
|
which he now recognized as having seen at Paddington before they
|
|
started, was rich and solemn rather than gloomy in aspect. It
|
|
seemed to be quite new, and of modern design, and its impressive
|
|
personality attracted the notice of others beside himself. He
|
|
beheld it gradually wheeled forward by two men on each side:
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slower and more sadly it seemed to approach: then a slight
|
|
concussion, and they were connected with it, and off again.
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|
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|
Stephen sat all the afternoon pondering upon the reason of
|
|
Knight's unexpected reappearance. Was he going as far as Castle
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|
Boterel? If so, he could only have one object in view--a visit to
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|
Elfride. And what an idea it seemed!
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|
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|
At Plymouth Smith partook of a little refreshment, and then went
|
|
round to the side from which the train started for Camelton, the
|
|
new station near Castle Boterel and Endelstow.
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|
Knight was already there.
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|
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|
Stephen walked up and stood beside him without speaking. Two men
|
|
at this moment crept out from among the wheels of the waiting
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|
train.
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|
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|
'The carriage is light enough,' said one in a grim tone. 'Light
|
|
as vanity; full of nothing.'
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|
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|
'Nothing in size, but a good deal in signification,' said the
|
|
other, a man of brighter mind and manners.
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|
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|
Smith then perceived that to their train was attached that same
|
|
carriage of grand and dark aspect which had haunted them all the
|
|
way from London.
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|
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|
'You are going on, I suppose?' said Knight, turning to Stephen,
|
|
after idly looking at the same object.
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|
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|
'Yes.'
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|
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|
'We may as well travel together for the remaining distance, may we
|
|
not?'
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'Certainly we will;' and they both entered the same door.
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|
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|
Evening drew on apace. It chanced to be the eve of St.
|
|
Valentine's--that bishop of blessed memory to youthful lovers--and
|
|
the sun shone low under the rim of a thick hard cloud, decorating
|
|
the eminences of the landscape with crowns of orange fire. As the
|
|
train changed its direction on a curve, the same rays stretched in
|
|
through the window, and coaxed open Knight's half-closed eyes.
|
|
|
|
'You will get out at St. Launce's, I suppose?' he murmured.
|
|
|
|
'No,' said Stephen, 'I am not expected till to-morrow.' Knight was
|
|
silent.
|
|
|
|
'And you--are you going to Endelstow?' said the younger man
|
|
pointedly.
|
|
|
|
'Since you ask, I can do no less than say I am, Stephen,'
|
|
continued Knight slowly, and with more resolution of manner than
|
|
he had shown all the day. 'I am going to Endelstow to see if
|
|
Elfride Swancourt is still free; and if so, to ask her to be my
|
|
wife.'
|
|
|
|
'So am I,' said Stephen Smith.
|
|
|
|
'I think you'll lose your labour,' Knight returned with decision.
|
|
|
|
'Naturally you do.' There was a strong accent of bitterness in
|
|
Stephen's voice. 'You might have said HOPE instead of THINK,' he
|
|
added.
|
|
|
|
'I might have done no such thing. I gave you my opinion. Elfride
|
|
Swancourt may have loved you once, no doubt, but it was when she
|
|
was so young that she hardly knew her own mind.'
|
|
|
|
'Thank you,' said Stephen laconically. 'She knew her mind as well
|
|
as I did. We are the same age. If you hadn't interfered----'
|
|
|
|
'Don't say that--don't say it, Stephen! How can you make out that
|
|
I interfered? Be just, please!'
|
|
|
|
'Well,' said his friend, 'she was mine before she was yours--you
|
|
know that! And it seemed a hard thing to find you had got her, and
|
|
that if it had not been for you, all might have turned out well
|
|
for me.' Stephen spoke with a swelling heart, and looked out of
|
|
the window to hide the emotion that would make itself visible upon
|
|
his face.
|
|
|
|
'It is absurd,' said Knight in a kinder tone, 'for you to look at
|
|
the matter in that light. What I tell you is for your good. You
|
|
naturally do not like to realize the truth--that her liking for
|
|
you was only a girl's first fancy, which has no root ever.'
|
|
|
|
'It is not true!' said Stephen passionately. 'It was you put me
|
|
out. And now you'll be pushing in again between us, and depriving
|
|
me of my chance again! My right, that's what it is! How ungenerous
|
|
of you to come anew and try to take her away from me! When you had
|
|
won her, I did not interfere; and you might, I think, Mr. Knight,
|
|
do by me as I did by you!'
|
|
|
|
'Don't "Mr." me; you are as well in the world as I am now.'
|
|
|
|
'First love is deepest; and that was mine.'
|
|
|
|
'Who told you that?' said Knight superciliously.
|
|
|
|
'I had her first love. And it was through me that you and she
|
|
parted. I can guess that well enough.'
|
|
|
|
'It was. And if I were to explain to you in what way that
|
|
operated in parting us, I should convince you that you do quite
|
|
wrong in intruding upon her--that, as I said at first, your labour
|
|
will be lost. I don't choose to explain, because the particulars
|
|
are painful. But if you won't listen to me, go on, for Heaven's
|
|
sake. I don't care what you do, my boy.'
|
|
|
|
'You have no right to domineer over me as you do. Just because,
|
|
when I was a lad, I was accustomed to look up to you as a master,
|
|
and you helped me a little, for which I was grateful to you and
|
|
have loved you, you assume too much now, and step in before me.
|
|
It is cruel--it is unjust--of you to injure me so!'
|
|
|
|
Knight showed himself keenly hurt at this. 'Stephen, those words
|
|
are untrue and unworthy of any man, and they are unworthy of you.
|
|
You know you wrong me. If you have ever profited by any
|
|
instruction of mine, I am only too glad to know it. You know it
|
|
was given ungrudgingly, and that I have never once looked upon it
|
|
as making you in any way a debtor to me.'
|
|
|
|
Stephen's naturally gentle nature was touched, and it was in a
|
|
troubled voice that he said, 'Yes, yes. I am unjust in that--I
|
|
own it.'
|
|
|
|
'This is St. Launce's Station, I think. Are you going to get
|
|
out?'
|
|
|
|
Knight's manner of returning to the matter in hand drew Stephen
|
|
again into himself. 'No; I told you I was going to Endelstow,' he
|
|
resolutely replied.
|
|
|
|
Knight's features became impassive, and he said no more. The
|
|
train continued rattling on, and Stephen leant back in his corner
|
|
and closed his eyes. The yellows of evening had turned to browns,
|
|
the dusky shades thickened, and a flying cloud of dust
|
|
occasionally stroked the window--borne upon a chilling breeze
|
|
which blew from the north-east. The previously gilded but now
|
|
dreary hills began to lose their daylight aspects of rotundity,
|
|
and to become black discs vandyked against the sky, all nature
|
|
wearing the cloak that six o'clock casts over the landscape at
|
|
this time of the year.
|
|
|
|
Stephen started up in bewilderment after a long stillness, and it
|
|
was some time before he recollected himself.
|
|
|
|
'Well, how real, how real!' he exclaimed, brushing his hand across
|
|
his eyes.
|
|
|
|
'What is?' said Knight.
|
|
|
|
'That dream. I fell asleep for a few minutes, and have had a
|
|
dream--the most vivid I ever remember.'
|
|
|
|
He wearily looked out into the gloom. They were now drawing near
|
|
to Camelton. The lighting of the lamps was perceptible through
|
|
the veil of evening--each flame starting into existence at
|
|
intervals, and blinking weakly against the gusts of wind.
|
|
|
|
'What did you dream?' said Knight moodily.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, nothing to be told. 'Twas a sort of incubus. There is never
|
|
anything in dreams.'
|
|
|
|
'I hardly supposed there was.'
|
|
|
|
'I know that. However, what I so vividly dreamt was this, since
|
|
you would like to hear. It was the brightest of bright mornings
|
|
at East Endelstow Church, and you and I stood by the font. Far
|
|
away in the chancel Lord Luxellian was standing alone, cold and
|
|
impassive, and utterly unlike his usual self: but I knew it was
|
|
he. Inside the altar rail stood a strange clergyman with his book
|
|
open. He looked up and said to Lord Luxellian, "Where's the
|
|
bride?" Lord Luxellian said, "There's no bride." At that moment
|
|
somebody came in at the door, and I knew her to be Lady Luxellian
|
|
who died. He turned and said to her, "I thought you were in the
|
|
vault below us; but that could have only been a dream of mine.
|
|
Come on." Then she came on. And in brushing between us she
|
|
chilled me so with cold that I exclaimed, "The life is gone out of
|
|
me!" and, in the way of dreams, I awoke. But here we are at
|
|
Camelton.'
|
|
|
|
They were slowly entering the station.
|
|
|
|
'What are you going to do?' said Knight. 'Do you really intend to
|
|
call on the Swancourts?'
|
|
|
|
'By no means. I am going to make inquiries first. I shall stay
|
|
at the Luxellian Arms to-night. You will go right on to
|
|
Endelstow, I suppose, at once?'
|
|
|
|
'I can hardly do that at this time of the day. Perhaps you are
|
|
not aware that the family--her father, at any rate--is at variance
|
|
with me as much as with you.
|
|
|
|
'I didn't know it.'
|
|
|
|
'And that I cannot rush into the house as an old friend any more
|
|
than you can. Certainly I have the privileges of a distant
|
|
relationship, whatever they may be.'
|
|
|
|
Knight let down the window, and looked ahead. 'There are a great
|
|
many people at the station,' he said. 'They seem all to be on the
|
|
look-out for us.'
|
|
|
|
When the train stopped, the half-estranged friends could perceive
|
|
by the lamplight that the assemblage of idlers enclosed as a
|
|
kernel a group of men in black cloaks. A side gate in the
|
|
platform railing was open, and outside this stood a dark vehicle,
|
|
which they could not at first characterize. Then Knight saw on
|
|
its upper part forms against the sky like cedars by night, and
|
|
knew the vehicle to be a hearse. Few people were at the carriage
|
|
doors to meet the passengers--the majority had congregated at this
|
|
upper end. Knight and Stephen alighted, and turned for a moment
|
|
in the same direction.
|
|
|
|
The sombre van, which had accompanied them all day from London,
|
|
now began to reveal that their destination was also its own. It
|
|
had been drawn up exactly opposite the open gate. The bystanders
|
|
all fell back, forming a clear lane from the gateway to the van,
|
|
and the men in cloaks entered the latter conveyance.
|
|
|
|
'They are labourers, I fancy,' said Stephen. 'Ah, it is strange;
|
|
but I recognize three of them as Endelstow men. Rather remarkable
|
|
this.'
|
|
|
|
Presently they began to come out, two and two; and under the rays
|
|
of the lamp they were seen to bear between them a light-coloured
|
|
coffin of satin-wood, brightly polished, and without a nail. The
|
|
eight men took the burden upon their shoulders, and slowly crossed
|
|
with it over to the gate.
|
|
|
|
Knight and Stephen went outside, and came close to the procession
|
|
as it moved off. A carriage belonging to the cortege turned round
|
|
close to a lamp. The rays shone in upon the face of the vicar of
|
|
Endelstow, Mr. Swancourt--looking many years older than when they
|
|
had last seen him. Knight and Stephen involuntarily drew back.
|
|
|
|
Knight spoke to a bystander. 'What has Mr. Swancourt to do with
|
|
that funeral?'
|
|
|
|
'He is the lady's father,' said the bystander.
|
|
|
|
'What lady's father?' said Knight, in a voice so hollow that the
|
|
man stared at him.
|
|
|
|
'The father of the lady in the coffin. She died in London, you
|
|
know, and has been brought here by this train. She is to be taken
|
|
home to-night, and buried to-morrow.'
|
|
|
|
Knight stood staring blindly at where the hearse had been; as if
|
|
he saw it, or some one, there. Then he turned, and beheld the
|
|
lithe form of Stephen bowed down like that of an old man. He took
|
|
his young friend's arm, and led him away from the light.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Chapter XL
|
|
|
|
'Welcome, proud lady.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
Half an hour has passed. Two miserable men are wandering in the
|
|
darkness up the miles of road from Camelton to Endelstow.
|
|
|
|
'Has she broken her heart?' said Henry Knight. 'Can it be that I
|
|
have killed her? I was bitter with her, Stephen, and she has died!
|
|
And may God have NO mercy upon me!'
|
|
|
|
'How can you have killed her more than I?'
|
|
|
|
'Why, I went away from her--stole away almost--and didn't tell her
|
|
I should not come again; and at that last meeting I did not kiss
|
|
her once, but let her miserably go. I have been a fool--a fool! I
|
|
wish the most abject confession of it before crowds of my
|
|
countrymen could in any way make amends to my darling for the
|
|
intense cruelty I have shown her!'
|
|
|
|
'YOUR darling!' said Stephen, with a sort of laugh. 'Any man can
|
|
say that, I suppose; any man can. I know this, she was MY darling
|
|
before she was yours; and after too. If anybody has a right to
|
|
call her his own, it is I.'
|
|
|
|
'You talk like a man in the dark; which is what you are. Did she
|
|
ever do anything for you? Risk her name, for instance, for you?'
|
|
|
|
Yes, she did,' said Stephen emphatically.
|
|
|
|
'Not entirely. Did she ever live for you--prove she could not
|
|
live without you--laugh and weep for you?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes.'
|
|
|
|
'Never! Did she ever risk her life for you--no! My darling did for
|
|
me.'
|
|
|
|
'Then it was in kindness only. When did she risk her life for
|
|
you?'
|
|
|
|
'To save mine on the cliff yonder. The poor child was with me
|
|
looking at the approach of the Puffin steamboat, and I slipped
|
|
down. We both had a narrow escape. I wish we had died there!'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, but wait,' Stephen pleaded with wet eyes. 'She went on that
|
|
cliff to see me arrive home: she had promised it. She told me she
|
|
would months before. And would she have gone there if she had not
|
|
cared for me at all?'
|
|
|
|
'You have an idea that Elfride died for you, no doubt,' said
|
|
Knight, with a mournful sarcasm too nerveless to support itself.
|
|
|
|
'Never mind. If we find that--that she died yours, I'll say no
|
|
more ever.'
|
|
|
|
'And if we find she died yours, I'll say no more.'
|
|
|
|
'Very well--so it shall be.'
|
|
|
|
The dark clouds into which the sun had sunk had begun to drop rain
|
|
in an increasing volume.
|
|
|
|
'Can we wait somewhere here till this shower is over?' said
|
|
Stephen desultorily.
|
|
|
|
'As you will. But it is not worth while. We'll hear the
|
|
particulars, and return. Don't let people know who we are. I am
|
|
not much now.'
|
|
|
|
They had reached a point at which the road branched into two--just
|
|
outside the west village, one fork of the diverging routes passing
|
|
into the latter place, the other stretching on to East Endelstow.
|
|
Having come some of the distance by the footpath, they now found
|
|
that the hearse was only a little in advance of them.
|
|
|
|
'I fancy it has turned off to East Endelstow. Can you see?'
|
|
|
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'I cannot. You must be mistaken.'
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Knight and Stephen entered the village. A bar of fiery light lay
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across the road, proceeding from the half-open door of a smithy,
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in which bellows were heard blowing and a hammer ringing. The
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rain had increased, and they mechanically turned for shelter
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towards the warm and cosy scene.
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Close at their heels came another man, without over-coat or
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umbrella, and with a parcel under his arm.
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'A wet evening,' he said to the two friends, and passed by them.
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They stood in the outer penthouse, but the man went in to the
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fire.
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The smith ceased his blowing, and began talking to the man who had
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entered.
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'I have walked all the way from Camelton,' said the latter. 'Was
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obliged to come to-night, you know.'
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He held the parcel, which was a flat one, towards the firelight,
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to learn if the rain had penetrated it. Resting it edgewise on
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the forge, he supported it perpendicularly with one hand, wiping
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his face with the handkerchief he held in the other.
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'I suppose you know what I've got here?' he observed to the smith.
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'No, I don't,' said the smith, pausing again on his bellows.
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'As the rain's not over, I'll show you,' said the bearer.
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He laid the thin and broad package, which had acute angles in
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different directions, flat upon the anvil, and the smith blew up
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the fire to give him more light. First, after untying the
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package, a sheet of brown paper was removed: this was laid flat.
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Then he unfolded a piece of baize: this also he spread flat on the
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paper. The third covering was a wrapper of tissue paper, which
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was spread out in its turn. The enclosure was revealed, and he
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held it up for the smith's inspection.
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'Oh--I see!' said the smith, kindling with a chastened interest,
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and drawing close. 'Poor young lady--ah, terrible melancholy
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thing--so soon too!'
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Knight and Stephen turned their heads and looked.
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'And what's that?' continued the smith.
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'That's the coronet--beautifully finished, isn't it? Ah, that cost
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some money!'
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''Tis as fine a bit of metal work as ever I see--that 'tis.'
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'It came from the same people as the coffin, you know, but was not
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ready soon enough to be sent round to the house in London
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yesterday. I've got to fix it on this very night.'
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The carefully-packed articles were a coffin-plate and coronet.
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Knight and Stephen came forward. The undertaker's man, on seeing
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them look for the inscription, civilly turned it round towards
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them, and each read, almost at one moment, by the ruddy light of
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the coals:
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E L F R I D E,
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Wife of Spenser Hugo Luxellian,
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Fifteenth Baron Luxellian:
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Died February 10, 18--.
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They read it, and read it, and read it again--Stephen and Knight--
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as if animated by one soul. Then Stephen put his hand upon
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Knight's arm, and they retired from the yellow glow, further,
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further, till the chill darkness enclosed them round, and the
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quiet sky asserted its presence overhead as a dim grey sheet of
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blank monotony.
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'Where shall we go?' said Stephen.
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'I don't know.'
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A long silence ensued....'Elfride married!' said Stephen then in a
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thin whisper, as if he feared to let the assertion loose on the
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world.
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'False,' whispered Knight.
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'And dead. Denied us both. I hate "false"--I hate it!'
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Knight made no answer.
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Nothing was heard by them now save the slow measurement of time by
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their beating pulses, the soft touch of the dribbling rain upon
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their clothes, and the low purr of the blacksmith's bellows hard
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by.
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'Shall we follow Elfie any further?' Stephen said.
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'No: let us leave her alone. She is beyond our love, and let her
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be beyond our reproach. Since we don't know half the reasons that
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made her do as she did, Stephen, how can we say, even now, that
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she was not pure and true in heart?' Knight's voice had now become
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mild and gentle as a child's. He went on: 'Can we call her
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ambitious? No. Circumstance has, as usual, overpowered her
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purposes--fragile and delicate as she--liable to be overthrown in
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a moment by the coarse elements of accident. I know that's it,--
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don't you?'
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'It may be--it must be. Let us go on.'
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They began to bend their steps towards Castle Boterel, whither
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they had sent their bags from Camelton. They wandered on in
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silence for many minutes. Stephen then paused, and lightly put
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his hand within Knight's arm.
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'I wonder how she came to die,' he said in a broken whisper.
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'Shall we return and learn a little more?'
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They turned back again, and entering Endelstow a second time, came
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to a door which was standing open. It was that of an inn called
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the Welcome Home, and the house appeared to have been recently
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repaired and entirely modernized. The name too was not that of
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the same landlord as formerly, but Martin Cannister's.
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Knight and Smith entered. The inn was quite silent, and they
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followed the passage till they reached the kitchen, where a huge
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fire was burning, which roared up the chimney, and sent over the
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floor, ceiling, and newly-whitened walls a glare so intense as to
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make the candle quite a secondary light. A woman in a white apron
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and black gown was standing there alone behind a cleanly-scrubbed
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deal table. Stephen first, and Knight afterwards, recognized her
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as Unity, who had been parlour-maid at the vicarage and young
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lady's-maid at the Crags.
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'Unity,' said Stephen softly, 'don't you know me?'
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She looked inquiringly a moment, and her face cleared up.
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'Mr. Smith--ay, that it is!' she said. 'And that's Mr. Knight. I
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beg you to sit down. Perhaps you know that since I saw you last I
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have married Martin Cannister.'
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'How long have you been married?'
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'About five months. We were married the same day that my dear
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Miss Elfie became Lady Luxellian.' Tears appeared in Unity's eyes,
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and filled them, and fell down her cheek, in spite of efforts to
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the contrary.
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The pain of the two men in resolutely controlling themselves when
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thus exampled to admit relief of the same kind was distressing.
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They both turned their backs and walked a few steps away.
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Then Unity said, 'Will you go into the parlour, gentlemen?'
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'Let us stay here with her,' Knight whispered, and turning said,
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'No; we will sit here. We want to rest and dry ourselves here for
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a time, if you please.'
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That evening the sorrowing friends sat with their hostess beside
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the large fire, Knight in the recess formed by the chimney breast,
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where he was in shade. And by showing a little confidence they
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won hers, and she told them what they had stayed to hear--the
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latter history of poor Elfride.
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'One day--after you, Mr. Knight, left us for the last time--she
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was missed from the Crags, and her father went after her, and
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brought her home ill. Where she went to, I never knew--but she
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was very unwell for weeks afterwards. And she said to me that she
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didn't care what became of her, and she wished she could die.
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When she was better, I said she would live to be married yet, and
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she said then, "Yes; I'll do anything for the benefit of my
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family, so as to turn my useless life to some practical account."
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Well, it began like this about Lord Luxellian courting her. The
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first Lady Luxellian had died, and he was in great trouble because
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the little girls were left motherless. After a while they used to
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come and see her in their little black frocks, for they liked her
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as well or better than their own mother---that's true. They used
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to call her "little mamma." These children made her a shade
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livelier, but she was not the girl she had been--I could see that--
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and she grew thinner a good deal. Well, my lord got to ask the
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Swancourts oftener and oftener to dinner--nobody else of his
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acquaintance--and at last the vicar's family were backwards and
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forwards at all hours of the day. Well, people say that the
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little girls asked their father to let Miss Elfride come and live
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with them, and that he said perhaps he would if they were good
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children. However, the time went on, and one day I said, "Miss
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Elfride, you don't look so well as you used to; and though nobody
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else seems to notice it I do." She laughed a little, and said, "I
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shall live to be married yet, as you told me."
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'"Shall you, miss? I am glad to hear that," I said.
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'"Whom do you think I am going to be married to?" she said again.
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'"Mr. Knight, I suppose," said I.
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'"Oh!" she cried, and turned off so white, and afore I could get
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to her she had sunk down like a heap of clothes, and fainted away.
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Well, then, she came to herself after a time, and said, "Unity,
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now we'll go on with our conversation."
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'"Better not to-day, miss," I said.
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'"Yes, we will," she said. "Whom do you think I am going to be
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married to?"
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'"I don't know," I said this time.
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'"Guess," she said.
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'"'Tisn't my lord, is it?" says I.
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'"Yes, 'tis," says she, in a sick wild way.
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'"But he don't come courting much," I said.
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"'Ah! you don't know," she said, and told me 'twas going to be in
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October. After that she freshened up a bit--whether 'twas with
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the thought of getting away from home or not, I don't know. For,
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perhaps, I may as well speak plainly, and tell you that her home
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was no home to her now. Her father was bitter to her and harsh
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upon her; and though Mrs. Swancourt was well enough in her way,
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'twas a sort of cold politeness that was not worth much, and the
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little thing had a worrying time of it altogether. About a month
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before the wedding, she and my lord and the two children used to
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ride about together upon horseback, and a very pretty sight they
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were; and if you'll believe me, I never saw him once with her
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unless the children were with her too--which made the courting so
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strange-looking. Ay, and my lord is so handsome, you know, so
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that at last I think she rather liked him; and I have seen her
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smile and blush a bit at things he said. He wanted her the more
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because the children did, for everybody could see that she would
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be a most tender mother to them, and friend and playmate too. And
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my lord is not only handsome, but a splendid courter, and up to
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all the ways o't. So he made her the beautifullest presents; ah,
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one I can mind--a lovely bracelet, with diamonds and emeralds.
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Oh, how red her face came when she saw it! The old roses came back
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to her cheeks for a minute or two then. I helped dress her the
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day we both were married--it was the last service I did her, poor
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child! When she was ready, I ran upstairs and slipped on my own
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wedding gown, and away they went, and away went Martin and I; and
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no sooner had my lord and my lady been married than the parson
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married us. It was a very quiet pair of weddings--hardly anybody
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knew it. Well, hope will hold its own in a young heart, if so be
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it can; and my lady freshened up a bit, for my lord was SO
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handsome and kind.'
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'How came she to die--and away from home?' murmured Knight.
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'Don't you see, sir, she fell off again afore they'd been married
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long, and my lord took her abroad for change of scene. They were
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coming home, and had got as far as London, when she was taken very
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ill and couldn't be moved, and there she died.'
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'Was he very fond of her?'
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'What, my lord? Oh, he was!'
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'VERY fond of her?'
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'VERY, beyond everything. Not suddenly, but by slow degrees.
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'Twas her nature to win people more when they knew her well. He'd
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have died for her, I believe. Poor my lord, he's heart-broken
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now!'
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'The funeral is to-morrow?'
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'Yes; my husband is now at the vault with the masons, opening the
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steps and cleaning down the walls.'
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The next day two men walked up the familiar valley from Castle
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Boterel to East Endelstow Church. And when the funeral was over,
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and every one had left the lawn-like churchyard, the pair went
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softly down the steps of the Luxellian vault, and under the low-
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groined arches they had beheld once before, lit up then as now.
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In the new niche of the crypt lay a rather new coffin, which had
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lost some of its lustre, and a newer coffin still, bright and
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untarnished in the slightest degree.
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Beside the latter was the dark form of a man, kneeling on the damp
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floor, his body flung across the coffin, his hands clasped, and
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his whole frame seemingly given up in utter abandonment to grief.
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He was still young--younger, perhaps, than Knight--and even now
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showed how graceful was his figure and symmetrical his build. He
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murmured a prayer half aloud, and was quite unconscious that two
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others were standing within a few yards of him.
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Knight and Stephen had advanced to where they once stood beside
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Elfride on the day all three had met there, before she had herself
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gone down into silence like her ancestors, and shut her bright
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blue eyes for ever. Not until then did they see the kneeling
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figure in the dim light. Knight instantly recognized the mourner
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as Lord Luxellian, the bereaved husband of Elfride.
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They felt themselves to be intruders. Knight pressed Stephen
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back, and they silently withdrew as they had entered.
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'Come away,' he said, in a broken voice. 'We have no right to be
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there. Another stands before us--nearer to her than we!'
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And side by side they both retraced their steps down the grey
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still valley to Castle Boterel.
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The End of the Project Gutenberg Etext of Hardy's A Pair of Blue Eyes
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