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1881
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THE PORTRAIT OF A LADY
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by Henry James
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1881
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CHAPTER 1
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Under certain circumstances there are few hours in life more
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agreeable than the hour dedicated to the ceremony known as afternoon
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tea. There are circumstances in which, whether you partake of the
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tea or not- some people of course never do- the situation is in itself
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delightful. Those that I have in mind in beginning to unfold this
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simple history offered an admirable setting to an innocent pastime.
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The implements of the little feast had been disposed upon the lawn
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of an old English country-house, in what I should call the perfect
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middle of a splendid summer afternoon. Part of the afternoon had
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waned, but much of it was left, and what was left was of the finest
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and rarest quality. Real dusk would not arrive for many hours; but the
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flood of summer light had begun to ebb, the air had grown mellow,
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the shadows were long upon the smooth, dense turf. They lengthened
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slowly, however, and the scene expressed that sense of leisure still
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to come which is perhaps the chief source of one's enjoyment of such a
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scene at such an hour. From five o'clock to eight is on certain
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occasions a little eternity; but on such an occasion as this the
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interval could be only an eternity of pleasure. The persons
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concerned in it were taking their pleasure quietly, and they were
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not of the sex which is supposed to furnish the regular votaries of
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the ceremony I have mentioned. The shadows on the perfect lawn were
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straight and angular; they were the shadows of an old man sitting in a
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deep wicker-chair near the low table on which the tea had been served,
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and of two younger men strolling to and fro, in desultory talk, in
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front of him. The old man had his cup in his hand; it was an unusually
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large cup, of a different pattern from the rest of the set and painted
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in brilliant colours. He disposed of its contents with much
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circumspection, holding it for a long time close to his chin, with his
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face turned to the house. His companions had either finished their tea
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or were indifferent to their privilege; they smoked cigarettes as they
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continued to stroll. One of them, from time to time, as he passed,
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looked with a certain attention at the elder man, who, unconscious
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of observation, rested his eyes upon the rich red front of his
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dwelling. The house that rose beyond the lawn was a structure to repay
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such consideration and was the most characteristic object in the
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peculiarly English picture I have attempted to sketch.
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It stood upon a low hill, above the river- the river being the
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Thames at some forty miles from London. A long gabled front of red
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brick, with the complexion of which time and the weather had played
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all sorts of pictorial tricks, only, however, to improve and refine
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it, presented to the lawn its patches of ivy, its clustered
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chimneys, its windows smothered in creepers. The house had a name
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and a history; the old gentleman taking his tea would have been
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delighted to tell you these things: how it had been built under Edward
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the Sixth, had offered a night's hospitality to the great Elizabeth
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(whose august person had extended itself upon a huge, magnificent, and
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terribly angular bed which still formed the principal honour of the
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sleeping apartments), had been a good deal bruised and defaced in
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Cromwell's wars, and then, under the Restoration, repaired and much
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enlarged; and how, finally, after having been remodelled and
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disfigured in the eighteenth century, it had passed into the careful
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keeping of a shrewd American banker, who had bought it originally
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because (owing to circumstances too complicated to set forth) it was
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offered at a great bargain: bought it with much grumbling at its
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ugliness, its antiquity, its incommodity, and who now, at the end of
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twenty years, had become conscious of a real aesthetic passion for it,
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so that he knew all its points and would tell you just where to
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stand to see them in combination and just the hour when the shadows of
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its various protuberances- which fell so softly upon the warm, weary
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brickwork- were of the right measure. Besides this, as I have said, he
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could have counted off most of the successive owners and occupants,
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several of whom were known to general fame; doing so, however, with an
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undemonstrative conviction that the latest phase of its destiny was
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not the least honourable. The front of the house overlooking that
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portion of the lawn with which we are concerned was not the
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entrance-front; this was in quite another quarter. Privacy here
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reigned supreme, and the wide carpet of turf that covered the level
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hill-top seemed but the extension of a luxurious interior. The great
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still oaks and beeches flung down a shade as dense as that of velvet
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curtains; and the place was furnished, like a room, with cushioned
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seats, with rich-coloured rugs, with the books and papers that lay
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upon the grass. The river was at some distance; where the ground began
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to slope, the lawn, properly speaking, ceased. But it was none the
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less a charming walk down to the water.
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The old gentleman at the tea-table, who had come from America thirty
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years before, had brought with him, at the top of his baggage, his
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American physiognomy; and he had not only brought it with him, but
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he had kept it in the best order, so that, if necessary, he might have
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taken it back to his own country with perfect confidence. At
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present, obviously, nevertheless, he was not likely to displace
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himself; his journeys were over, and he was taking the rest that
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precedes the great rest. He had a narrow, clean-shaven face, with
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features evenly distributed and an expression of placid acuteness.
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It was evidently a face in which the range of representation was not
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large, so that the air of contented shrewdness was all the more of a
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merit. It seemed to tell that he had been successful in life, yet it
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seemed to tell also that his success had not been exclusive and
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invidious, but had had much of the inoffensiveness of failure. He
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had certainly had a great experience of men, but there was an almost
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rustic simplicity in the faint smile that played upon his lean,
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spacious cheek and lighted up his humorous eye as he at last slowly
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and carefully deposited his big tea-cup upon the table. He was
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neatly dressed, in well-brushed black; but a shawl was folded upon his
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knees, and his feet were encased in thick, embroidered slippers. A
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beautiful collie dog lay upon the grass near his chair, watching the
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master's face almost as tenderly as the master took in the still
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more magisterial physiognomy of the house; and a little bristling,
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bustling terrier bestowed a desultory attendance upon the other
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gentlemen.
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One of these was a remarkably well-made man of five-and-thirty, with
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a face as English as that of the old gentleman I have just sketched
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was something else; a noticeably handsome face, fresh-coloured, fair
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and frank, with firm, straight features, a lively grey eye and the
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rich adornment of a chestnut beard. This person had a certain
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fortunate, brilliant exceptional look- the air of a happy
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temperament fertilized by a high civilization- which would have made
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almost any observer envy him at a venture. He was booted and
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spurred, as if he had dismounted from a long ride; he wore a white
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hat, which looked too large for him; he held his two hands behind him,
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and in one of them- a large, white, well-shaped fist- was crumpled a
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pair of soiled dog-skin gloves.
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His companion, measuring the length of the lawn beside him, was a
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person of quite a different pattern, who, although he might have
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excited grave curiosity, would not, like the other, have provoked
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you to wish yourself, almost blindly, in his place. Tall, lean,
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loosely and feebly put together, he had an ugly, sickly, witty,
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charming face, furnished, but by no means decorated, with a straggling
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moustache and whisker. He looked clever and ill- a combination by no
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means felicitous; and he wore a brown velvet jacket. He carried his
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hands in his pockets, and there was something in the way he did it
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that showed the habit was inveterate. His gait had a shambling,
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wandering quality; he was not very firm on his legs. As I have said,
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whenever he passed the old man in the chair he rested his eyes upon
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him; and at this moment, with their faces brought into relation, you
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would easily have seen they were father and son. The father caught his
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son's eye at last and gave him a mild, responsive smile.
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"I'm getting on very well," he said.
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"Have you drunk your tea?" asked the son.
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"Yes, and enjoyed it."
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"Shall I give you some more?"
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The old man considered, placidly. "Well, I guess I'll wait and see."
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He had, in speaking, the American tone.
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"Are you cold?" the son enquired.
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The father slowly rubbed his legs. "Well, I don't know. I can't tell
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till I feel."
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"Perhaps some one might feel for you," said the younger man,
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laughing.
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"Oh, I hope some one will always feel for me! Don't you feel for me,
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Lord Warburton?"
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"Oh yes, immensely," said the gentleman addressed as Lord Warburton,
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promptly. "I'm bound to say you look wonderfully comfortable."
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"Well, I suppose I am, in most respects." And the old man looked
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down at his green shawl and smoothed it over his knees. "The fact is
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I've been comfortable so many years that I suppose I've got so used to
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it I don't know it."
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"Yes, that's the bore of comfort," said Lord Warburton. "We only
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know when we're uncomfortable."
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"It strikes me we're rather particular," his companion remarked.
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"Oh yes, there's no doubt we're particular," Lord Warburton
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murmured. And then the three men remained silent a while; the two
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younger ones standing looking down at the other, who presently asked
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for more tea. "I should think you would be very unhappy with that
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shawl," Lord Warburton resumed while his companion filled the old
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man's cup again.
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"Oh no, he must have the shawl!" cried the gentleman in the velvet
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coat. "Don't put such ideas as that into his head."
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"It belongs to my wife," said the old man simply.
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"Oh, if it's for sentimental reasons-" And Lord Warburton made a
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gesture of apology.
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"I suppose I must give it to her when she comes," the old man went
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on.
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"You'll please to do nothing of the kind. You'll keep it to cover
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your poor old legs."
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"Well, you mustn't abuse my legs," said the old man. "I guess they
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are as good as yours."
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"Oh, you're perfectly free to abuse mine," his son replied, giving
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him his tea.
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"Well, we're two lame ducks; I don't think there's much difference."
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"I'm much obliged to you for calling me a duck. How's your tea?"
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"Well, it's rather hot."
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"That's intended to be a merit."
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"Ah, there's a great deal of merit," murmured the old man, kindly.
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"He's a very good nurse, Lord Warburton."
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"Isn't he a bit clumsy?" asked his lordship.
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"Oh no, he's not clumsy- considering that he's an invalid himself.
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He's a very good nurse- for a sick-nurse. I call him my sick-nurse
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because he's sick himself."
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"Oh, come, daddy!" the ugly young man exclaimed.
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"Well, you are; I wish you weren't. But I suppose you can't help
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it."
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"I might try: that's an idea," said the young man.
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"Were you ever sick, Lord Warburton?" his father asked.
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Lord Warburton considered a moment. "Yes, sir, once, in the
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Persian Gulf."
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He's making light of you, daddy," said the other young man.
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"That's a sort of joke."
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"Well, there seem to be so many sorts now," daddy replied, serenely.
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"You don't look as if you had been sick, any way, Lord Warburton."
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"He's sick of life; he was just telling me so; going on fearfully
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about it," said Lord Warburton's friend.
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"Is that true, sir?" asked the old man gravely.
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"If it is, your son gave me no consolation. He's a wretched fellow
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to talk to- a regular cynic. He doesn't seem to believe in anything."
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"That's another sort of joke," said the person accused of cynicism.
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"It's because his health is so poor," his father explained to Lord
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Warburton. "It affects his mind and colours his way of looking at
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things; he seems to feel as if he had never had a chance. But it's
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almost entirely theoretical, you know; it doesn't seem to affect his
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spirits. I've hardly ever seen him when he wasn't cheerful- about as
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he is at present. He often cheers me up."
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The young man so described looked at Lord Warburton and laughed. "Is
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it a glowing eulogy or an accusation of levity? Should you like me
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to carry out my theories, daddy?"
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"By Jove, we should see some queer things!" cried Lord Warburton.
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"I hope you haven't taken up that sort of tone," said the old man.
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"Warburton's tone is worse than mine; he pretends to be bored. I'm
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not in the least bored; I find life only too interesting."
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"Ah, too interesting; you shouldn't allow it to be that, you know!"
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"I'm never bored when I come here," said Lord Warburton. "One gets
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such uncommonly good talk."
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"Is that another sort of joke?" asked the old man. "You've no excuse
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for being bored anywhere. When I was your age I had never heard of
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such a thing."
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"You must have developed very late."
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"No, I developed very quick; that was just the reason. When I was
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twenty years old I was very highly developed indeed. I was working
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tooth and nail. You wouldn't be bored if you had something to do;
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but all you young men are too idle. You think too much of your
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pleasure. You're too fastidious, and too indolent, and too rich."
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"Oh, I say," cried Lord Warburton, "you're hardly the person to
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accuse a fellow-creature of being too rich!"
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"Do you mean because I'm a banker?" asked the old man.
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"Because of that, if you like; and because you have- haven't you?-
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such unlimited means."
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"He isn't very rich," the other young man mercifully pleaded. "He
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has given away an immense deal of money."
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"Well, I suppose it was his own," said Lord Warburton; "and in
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that case could there be a better proof of wealth? Let not a public
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benefactor talk of one's being too fond of pleasure."
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"Daddy's very fond of pleasure- of other people's."
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The old man shook his head. "I don't pretend to have contributed
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anything to the amusement of my contemporaries."
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"My dear father, you're too modest!"
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"That's a kind of joke, sir," said Lord Warburton.
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"You young men have too many jokes. When there are no jokes you've
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nothing left."
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"Fortunately there are always more jokes," the ugly young man
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remarked.
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"I don't believe it- I believe things are getting more serious.
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You young men will find that out."
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"The increasing seriousness of things, then- that's the great
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opportunity of jokes."
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"They'll have to be grim jokes," said the old man. "I'm convinced
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there will be great changes; and not all for the better."
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"I quite agree with you, sir," Lord Warburton declared. "I'm very
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sure there will be great changes, and that all sorts of queer things
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will happen. That's why I find so much difficulty in applying your
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advice; you know you told me the other day that I ought to 'take hold'
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of something. One hesitates to take hold of a thing that may the
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next moment be knocked sky-high."
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"You ought to take hold of a pretty woman," said his companion.
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"He's trying hard to fall in love," he added, by way of explanation,
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to his father.
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"The pretty women themselves may be sent flying!" Lord Warburton
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exclaimed.
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"No, no, they'll be firm," the old man rejoined; "they'll not be
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affected by the social and political changes I just referred to."
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"You mean they won't be abolished? Very well, then, I'll lay my
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hands on one as soon as possible and tie her round my neck as a
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life-preserver."
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"The ladies will save us," said the old man; "that is the best of
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them will- for I make a difference between them. Make up to a good one
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and marry her, and your life will become much more interesting."
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A momentary silence marked perhaps on the part of his auditors a
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sense of the magnanimity of this speech, for it was a secret neither
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for his son nor for his visitor that his own experiment in matrimony
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had not been a happy one. As he said, however, he made a difference;
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and these words may have been intended as a confession of personal
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error; though of course it was not in place for either of his
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companions to remark that apparently the lady of his choice had not
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been one of the best.
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"If I marry an interesting woman I shall be interested: is that what
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you say?" Lord Warburton asked. "I'm not at all keen about marrying-
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your son misrepresented me; but there's no knowing what an interesting
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woman might do with me."
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"I should like to see your idea of an interesting woman," said his
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friend.
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"My dear fellow, you can't see ideas- especially such highly
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ethereal ones as mine. If I could only see myself- that would be a
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great step in advance."
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"Well, you may fall in love with whomsoever you please; but you
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mustn't fall in love with my niece," said the old man.
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His son broke into a laugh. "He'll think you mean that as a
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provocation! My dear father, you've lived with the English for
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thirty years, and you've picked up a good many of the things they say.
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But you've never learned the things they don't say!"
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"I say what I please," the old man returned with all his serenity.
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"I haven't the honour of knowing your niece," Lord Warburton said.
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"I think it's the first time I've heard of her."
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"She's a niece of my wife's; Mrs. Touchett brings her to England."
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Then young Mr. Touchett explained. "My mother, you know, has been
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spending the winter in America, and we're expecting her back. She
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writes that she has discovered a niece and that she has invited her to
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come out with her."
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"I see- very kind of her," said Lord Warburton. "Is the young lady
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interesting?"
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"We hardly know more about her than you; my mother has not gone into
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details. She chiefly communicates with us by means of telegrams, and
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her telegrams are rather inscrutable. They say women don't know how to
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write them, but my mother has thoroughly mastered the art of
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condensation. 'Tired America, hot weather awful, return England with
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niece, first steamer decent cabin.' That's the sort of message we
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get from her- that was the last that came. But there had been
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another before, which I think contained the first mention of the
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niece. 'Changed hotel, very bad, impudent clerk, address here. Taken
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sister's girl, died last year, go to Europe, two sisters, quite
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independent.' Over that my father and I have scarcely stopped
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puzzling; it seems to admit of so many interpretations."
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"There's one thing very clear in it," said the old man; "she has
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given the hotel-clerk a dressing."
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"I'm not sure even of that, since he has driven her from the
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field. We thought at first that the sister mentioned might be the
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sister of the clerk; but the subsequent mention of a niece seems to
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prove that the allusion is to one of my aunts. There there was a
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question as to whose the two other sisters were; they are probably two
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of my late aunt's daughters. But who's 'quite independent,' and in
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what sense is the term used?- that point's not yet settled. Does the
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expression apply more particularly to the young lady my mother has
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adopted, or does it characterize her sisters equally?- and is it
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used in a moral or in a financial sense? Does it mean that they've
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been left well off, or that they wish to be under no obligations? or
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does it simply mean that they're fond of their own way?"
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"Whatever else it means, it's pretty sure to mean that," Mr.
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Touchett remarked.
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"You'll see for yourself," said Lord Warburton. "When does Mrs.
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Touchett arrive?"
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"We're quite in the dark; as soon as she can find a decent cabin.
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She may be waiting for it yet; on the other hand she may already
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have disembarked in England."
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"In that case she would probably have telegraphed to you."
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"She never telegraphs when you would expect it- only when you
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don't," said the old man. "She likes to drop in on me suddenly; she
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thinks she'll find me doing something wrong. She has never done so
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yet, but she's not discouraged."
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"It's her share in the family trait, the independence she speaks
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of." Her son's appreciation of the matter was more favourable.
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"Whatever the high spirit of those young ladies may be, her own is a
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match for it. She likes to do everything for herself and has no belief
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in any one's power to help her. She thinks me of no more use than a
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postage-stamp without gum, and she would never forgive me if I
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should presume to go to Liverpool to meet her."
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"Will you at least let me know when your cousin arrives?" Lord
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Warburton asked.
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"Only on the condition I've mentioned- that you don't fall in love
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with her!" Mr. Touchett replied.
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"That strikes me as hard. Don't you think me good enough?"
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"I think you too good- because I shouldn't like her to marry you.
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She hasn't come here to look for a husband, I hope; so many young
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ladies are doing that, as if there were no good ones at home. Then
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she's probably engaged; American girls are usually engaged, I believe.
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Moreover I'm not sure, after all, that you'd be a remarkable husband."
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"Very likely she's engaged; I've known a good many American girls,
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and they always were; but I could never see that it made any
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difference, upon my word! As for my being a good husband," Mr.
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Touchett's visitor pursued, "I'm not sure of that either. One can
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but try!"
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"Try as much as you please, but don't try on my niece," smiled the
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old man, whose opposition to the idea was broadly humorous.
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"Ah, well," said Lord Warburton with a humour broader still,
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"perhaps after all, she's not worth trying on!"
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CHAPTER 2
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While this exchange of pleasantries took place between the two Ralph
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Touchett wandered away a little, with his usual slouching gait, his
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hands in his pockets and his little rowdyish terrier at his heels. His
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face was turned toward the house, but his eyes were bent musingly on
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the lawn; so that he had been an object of observation to a person who
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had just made her appearance in the ample doorway for some moments
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before he perceived her. His attention was called to her by the
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conduct of his dog, who had suddenly darted forward with a little
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volley of shrill barks, in which the note of welcome, however, was
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more sensible than that of defiance. The person in question was a
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young lady, who seemed immediately to interpret the greeting of the
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small beast. He advanced with great rapidity and stood at her feet,
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looking up and barking hard; whereupon, without hesitation, she
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stooped and caught him in her hands, holding him face to face while he
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continued his quick chatter. His master now had had time to follow and
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to see that Bunchie's new friend was a tall girl in a black dress, who
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at first sight looked pretty. She was bareheaded, as if she were
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staying in the house- a fact which conveyed perplexity to the son of
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its master, conscious of that immunity from visitors which had for
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some time been rendered necessary by the latter's ill-health. Meantime
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the two other gentlemen had also taken note of the new-comer.
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"Dear me, who's that strange woman?" Mr. Touchett had asked.
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"Perhaps it's Mrs. Touchett's niece- the independent young lady,"
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Lord Warburton suggested. "I think she must be, from the way she
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handles the dog."
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The collie, too, had now allowed his attention to be diverted, and
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he trotted toward the young lady in the doorway, slowly setting his
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tail in motion as he went.
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"But where's my wife then?" murmured the old man.
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"I suppose the young lady has left her somewhere: that's a part of
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the independence."
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The girl spoke to Ralph, smiling, while she still held up the
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terrier. "Is this your little dog, sir?"
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"He was mine a moment ago; but you've suddenly acquired a remarkable
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air of property in him."
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"Couldn't we share him?" asked the girl. "He's such a perfect little
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darling."
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Ralph looked at her a moment; she was unexpectedly pretty. "You
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may have him altogether," he then replied.
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The young lady seemed to have a great deal of confidence, both in
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herself and in others; but this abrupt generosity made her blush. "I
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ought to tell you that I'm probably your cousin," she brought out,
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putting down the dog. "And here's another!" she added quickly, as
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the collie came up.
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"Probably?" the young man exclaimed, laughing. "I supposed it was
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quite settled! Have you arrived with my mother?
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"Yes, half an hour ago."
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"And has she deposited you and departed again?"
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"No, she went straight to her room, and she told me that, if I
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should see you, I was to say to you that you must come to her there at
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a quarter to seven."
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The young man looked at his watch. "Thank you very much; I shall
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be punctual." And then he looked at his cousin. "You're very welcome
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here. I'm delighted to see you."
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She was looking at everything, with an eye that denoted clear
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perception- at her companion, at the two dogs, at the two gentlemen
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under the trees, at the beautiful scene that surrounded her. "I've
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never seen anything so lovely as this place. I've been all over the
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house; it's too enchanting."
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"I"m sorry you should have been here so long without our knowing
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it."
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"Your mother told me that in England people arrived very quietly; so
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I thought it was all right. Is one of those gentlemen your father?"
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"Yes, the elder one- the one sitting down," said Ralph.
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The girl gave a laugh. "I don't suppose it's the other. Who's the
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other?"
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"He's a friend of ours- Lord Warburton."
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"Oh, I hoped there would be a lord; it's just like a novel!" And
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then, "Oh you adorable creature!" she suddenly cried, stooping down
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and picking up the small dog again.
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She remained standing where they had met, making no offer to advance
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or to speak to Mr. Touchett, and while she lingered so near the
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threshold, slim and charming, her interlocutor wondered if she
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expected the old man to come and pay her his respects. American
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girls were used to a great deal of deference, and it had been
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intimated that this one had a high spirit. Indeed, Ralph could see
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that in her face.
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"Won't you come and make acquaintance with my father?" he
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nevertheless ventured to ask. "He's old and infirm- he doesn't leave
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his chair."
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"Ah, poor man, I'm very sorry!" the girl exclaimed, immediately
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moving forward. "I got the impression from your mother that he was
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rather- rather intensely active."
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Ralph Touchett was silent a moment. "She hasn't seen him for a
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year."
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"Well, he has a lovely place to sit. Come along, little hound."
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"It's a dear old place," said the young man, looking sidewise at his
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neighbour.
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"What's his name?" she asked, her attention having again reverted to
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the terrier.
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"My father's name?"
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"Yes," said the young lady with amusement; "but don't tell him I
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asked you.
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They had come by this time to where old Mr. Touchett was sitting,
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and he slowly got up from his chair to introduce himself.
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"My mother has arrived," said Ralph, "and this is Miss Archer."
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The old man placed his two hands on her shoulders, looked at her a
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moment with extreme benevolence and then gallantly kissed her. "It's a
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great pleasure to me to see you here; but I wish you had given us a
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chance to receive you."
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"Oh, we were received," said the girl. "There were about a dozen
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servants in the hall. And there was an old woman curtseying at the
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gate."
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"We can do better than that- if we have notice!" And the old man
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stood there smiling, rubbing his hands and slowly shaking his head
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|
at her. "But Mrs. Touchett doesn't like receptions."
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"She went straight to her room."
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"Yes- and locked herself in. She always does that. Well, I suppose I
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shall see her next week." And Mrs. Touchett's husband slowly resumed
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his former posture.
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"Before that," said Miss Archer. "She's coming down to dinner- at
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eight o'clock. Don't you forget a quarter to seven," she added,
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turning with a smile to Ralph.
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"What's to happen at a quarter to seven?"
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"I'm to see my mother," said Ralph.
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"Ah, happy boy!" the old man commented. "You must sit down- you must
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have some tea," he observed to his wife's niece.
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"They gave me some tea in my room the moment I got there," this
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young lady answered. "I'm sorry you're out of health," she added,
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|
resting her eyes upon her venerable host.
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"Oh, I'm an old man, my dear; it's time for me to be old. But I
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|
shall be the better for having you here."
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She had been looking all round her again- at the lawn, the great
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trees, the reedy, silvery Thames, the beautiful old house; and while
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|
engaged in this survey she had made room in it for her companions; a
|
|
comprehensiveness of observation easily conceivable on the part of a
|
|
young woman who was evidently both intelligent and excited. She had
|
|
seated herself and had put away the little dog; her white hands, in
|
|
her lap, were folded upon her black dress; her head was erect, her eye
|
|
lighted, her flexible figure turned itself easily this way and that,
|
|
in sympathy with the alertness with which she evidently caught
|
|
impressions. Her impressions were numerous, and they were all
|
|
reflected in a clear, still smile. "I've never seen anything so
|
|
beautiful as this."
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|
|
|
"It's looking very well," said Mr. Touchett. "I know the way it
|
|
strikes you. I've been through all that. But you're very beautiful
|
|
yourself," he added with a politeness by no means crudely jocular
|
|
and with the happy consciousness that his advanced age gave him the
|
|
privilege of saying such things- even to young persons who might
|
|
possibly take alarm at them.
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|
|
|
What degree of alarm this young person took need not be exactly
|
|
measured; she instantly rose, however, with a blush which was not a
|
|
refutation. "Oh yes, of course I'm lovely!" she returned with a
|
|
quick laugh. "How old is your house? Is it Elizabethan?"
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|
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|
"It's early Tudor," said Ralph Touchett.
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|
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|
She turned toward him, watching his face. "Early Tudor? How very
|
|
delightful! And I suppose there are a great many others."
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|
|
|
"There are many much better ones."
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|
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|
"Don't say that, my son!" the old man protested. "There's nothing
|
|
better than this."
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|
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|
"I've got a very good one; I think in some respects it's rather
|
|
better," said Lord Warburton, who as yet had not spoken, but who had
|
|
kept an attentive eye upon Miss Archer. He slightly inclined
|
|
himself, smiling; he had an excellent manner with women. The girl
|
|
appreciated it in an instant; she had not forgotten that this was Lord
|
|
Warburton. "I should like very much to show it to you," he added.
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|
|
|
"Don't believe him," cried the old man; "don't look at it! It's a
|
|
wretched old barrack- not to be compared with this."
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|
|
|
"I don't know- I can't judge," said the girl, smiling at Lord
|
|
Warburton.
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|
|
|
In this discussion Ralph Touchett took no interest whatever; he
|
|
stood with his hands in his pockets, looking greatly as if he should
|
|
like to renew his conversation with his new-found cousin. "Are you
|
|
very fond of dogs?" he enquired by way of beginning. He seemed to
|
|
recognize that it was an awkward beginning for a clever man.
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|
|
|
"Very fond of them indeed."
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|
|
|
"You must keep the terrier, you know," he went on, still awkwardly.
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|
|
|
"I'll keep him while I'm here, with pleasure."
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|
|
|
"That will be for a long time, I hope."
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|
|
|
"You're very kind. I hardly know. My aunt must settle that."
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|
|
|
"I'll settle it with her- at a quarter to seven." And Ralph looked
|
|
at his watch again.
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|
|
|
"I'm glad to be here at all," said the girl.
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|
|
|
"I don't believe you allow things to be settled for you."
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|
|
|
"Oh yes; if they're settled as I like them."
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|
|
"I shall settle this as I like it," said Ralph. "It's most
|
|
unaccountable that we should never have known you."
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|
|
|
"I was there- you had only to come and see me."
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|
|
|
"There? Where do you mean?"
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|
|
|
"In the United States: in New York and Albany and other American
|
|
places."
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|
|
|
"I've been there- all over, but I never saw you. I can't make it
|
|
out."
|
|
|
|
Miss Archer just hesitated. "It was because there had been some
|
|
disagreement between your mother and my father, after my mother's
|
|
death, which took place when I was a child. In consequence of it we
|
|
never expected to see you."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, but I don't embrace all my mother's quarrels- heaven forbid!"
|
|
the young man cried. "You've lately lost your father?" he went on more
|
|
gravely.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, more than a year ago. After that my aunt was very kind to
|
|
me; she came to see me and proposed that I should come with her to
|
|
Europe."
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|
|
|
"I see," said Ralph. "She has adopted you."
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|
|
|
"Adopted me?" The girl stared, and her blush came back to her,
|
|
together with a momentary look of pain which gave her interlocutor
|
|
some alarm. He had underestimated the effect of his words. Lord
|
|
Warburton, who appeared constantly desirous of a nearer view of Miss
|
|
Archer, strolled toward the two cousins at the moment, and as he did
|
|
so she rested her wider eyes on him. "Oh no; she has not adopted me.
|
|
I'm not a candidate for adoption."
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|
|
|
"I beg a thousand pardons," Ralph murmured. "I meant- I meant-" He
|
|
hardly knew what he meant.
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|
|
|
"You meant she has taken me up. Yes; she likes to take people up.
|
|
She has been very kind to me; but," she added with a certain visible
|
|
eagerness of desire to be explicit, "I'm very fond of my liberty."
|
|
|
|
"Are you talking about Mrs. Touchett?" the old man called out from
|
|
his chair. "Come here, my dear, and tell me about her. I'm always
|
|
thankful for information."
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|
|
|
The girl hesitated again, smiling. "She's really very benevolent,"
|
|
she answered; after which she went over to her uncle, whose mirth
|
|
was excited by her words.
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton was left standing with Ralph Touchett, to whom in a
|
|
moment he said: "You wished a while ago to see my idea of an
|
|
interesting woman. There it is!"
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|
|
|
CHAPTER 3
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|
|
|
Mrs. Touchett was certainly a person of many oddities, of which
|
|
her behaviour on returning to her husband's house after many months
|
|
was a noticeable specimen. She had her own way of doing all that she
|
|
did, and this is the simplest description of a character which,
|
|
although by no means without liberal motions, rarely succeeded in
|
|
giving an impression of suavity. Mrs. Touchett might do a great deal
|
|
of good, but she never pleased. This way of her own, of which she
|
|
was so fond, was not intrinsically offensive- it was just
|
|
unmistakeably distinguished from the ways of others. The edges of
|
|
her conduct were so very clear-cut that for susceptible persons it
|
|
sometimes had a knife-like effect. That hard fineness came out in
|
|
her deportment during the first hours of her return from America,
|
|
under circumstances in which it might have seemed that her first act
|
|
would have been to exchange greetings with her husband and son. Mrs.
|
|
Touchett, for reasons which she deemed excellent, always retired on
|
|
such occasions into impenetrable seclusion, postponing the more
|
|
sentimental ceremony until she had repaired the disorder of dress with
|
|
a completeness which had the less reason to be of high importance as
|
|
neither beauty nor vanity were concerned in it. She was a
|
|
plain-faced old woman, without graces and without any great
|
|
elegance, but with an extreme respect for her own motives. She was
|
|
usually prepared to explain these- when the explanation was asked as a
|
|
favour; and in such a case they proved totally different from those
|
|
that had been attributed to her. She was virtually separated from
|
|
her husband, but she appeared to perceive nothing irregular in the
|
|
situation. It had become clear, at an early stage of their
|
|
community, that they should never desire the same thing at the same
|
|
moment, and this appearance had prompted her to rescue disagreement
|
|
from the vulgar realm of accident. She did what she could to erect
|
|
it into a law- a much more edifying aspect of it- by going to live
|
|
in Florence, where she bought a house and established herself; and
|
|
by leaving her husband to take care of the English branch of his bank.
|
|
This arrangement greatly pleased her; it was so felicitously definite.
|
|
It struck her husband in the same light, in a foggy square in
|
|
London, where it was at times the most definite fact he discerned; but
|
|
he would have preferred that such unnatural things should have a
|
|
greater vagueness. To agree to disagree had cost him an effort; he was
|
|
ready to agree to almost anything but that, and saw no reason why
|
|
either assent or dissent should be so terribly consistent. Mrs.
|
|
Touchett indulged in no regrets nor speculations, and usually came
|
|
once a year to spend a month with her husband, a period during which
|
|
she apparently took pains to convince him that she had adopted the
|
|
right system. She was not fond of the English style of life, and had
|
|
three or four reasons for it to which she currently alluded; they bore
|
|
upon minor points of that ancient order, but for Mrs. Touchett they
|
|
amply justified non-residence. She detested bread-sauce, which, as she
|
|
said, looked like a poultice and tasted like soap; she objected to the
|
|
consumption of beer by her maid-servants; and she affirmed that the
|
|
British laundress (Mrs. Touchett was very particular about the
|
|
appearance of her linen) was not a mistress of her art. At fixed
|
|
intervals she paid a visit to her own country; but this last had
|
|
been longer than any of its predecessors.
|
|
|
|
She had taken up her niece- there was little doubt of that. One
|
|
wet afternoon, some four months earlier than the occurrence lately
|
|
narrated, this young lady had been seated alone with a book. To say
|
|
she was so occupied is to say that her solitude did not press upon
|
|
her; for her love of knowledge had a fertilizing quality and her
|
|
imagination was strong. There was at this time, however, a want of
|
|
fresh taste in her situation which the arrival of an unexpected
|
|
visitor did much to correct. The visitor had not been announced; the
|
|
girl heard her at last walking about the adjoining room. It was in
|
|
an old house at Albany, a large, square, double house, with a notice
|
|
of sale in the windows of one of the lower apartments. There were
|
|
two entrances, one of which had long been out of use but had never
|
|
been removed. They were exactly alike- large white doors, with an
|
|
arched frame and wide side-lights, perched upon little "stoops" of red
|
|
stone, which descended sidewise to the brick pavement of the street.
|
|
The two houses together formed a single dwelling, the party-wall
|
|
having been removed and the rooms placed in communication. These
|
|
rooms, above-stairs, were extremely numerous, and were painted all
|
|
over exactly alike, in a yellowish white which had grown sallow with
|
|
time. On the third floor there was a sort of arched passage,
|
|
connecting the two sides of the house, which Isabel and her sisters
|
|
used in their childhood to call the tunnel and which, though it was
|
|
short and well-lighted, always seemed to the girl to be strange and
|
|
lonely, especially on winter afternoons. She had been in the house, at
|
|
different periods, as a child; in those days her grandmother lived
|
|
there. Then there had been an absence of ten years, followed by a
|
|
return to Albany before her father's death. Her grandmother, old
|
|
Mrs. Archer, had exercised, chiefly within the limits of the family, a
|
|
large hospitality in the early period, and the little girls often
|
|
spent weeks under her roof- weeks of which Isabel had the happiest
|
|
memory. The manner of life was different from that of her own home-
|
|
larger, more plentiful, practically more festal; the discipline of the
|
|
nursery was delightfully vague and the opportunity of listening to the
|
|
conversation of one's elders (which with Isabel was a highly-valued
|
|
pleasure) almost unbounded. There was a constant coming and going; her
|
|
grandmother's sons and daughters and their children appeared to be
|
|
in the enjoyment of standing invitations to arrive and remain, so that
|
|
the house offered to a certain extent the appearance of a bustling
|
|
provincial inn kept by a gentle old landlady who sighed a great deal
|
|
and never presented a bill.
|
|
|
|
Isabel of course knew nothing about bills; but even as a child she
|
|
thought her grandmother's home romantic. There was a covered piazza
|
|
behind it, furnished with a swing which was a source of tremulous
|
|
interest; and beyond this was a long garden, sloping down to the
|
|
stable and containing peach-trees of barely credible familiarity.
|
|
Isabel had stayed with her grandmother at various seasons, but somehow
|
|
all her visits had a flavour of peaches. On the other side, across the
|
|
street, was an old house that was called the Dutch House- a peculiar
|
|
structure dating from the earliest colonial time, composed of bricks
|
|
that had been painted yellow, crowned with a gable that was pointed
|
|
out to strangers, defended by a rickety wooden paling and standing
|
|
sidewise to the street. It was occupied by a primary school for
|
|
children of both sexes, kept or rather let go, by a demonstrative lady
|
|
of whom Isabel's chief recollection was that her hair was fastened
|
|
with strange bedroomy combs at the temples and that she was the
|
|
widow of some one of consequence. The little girl had been offered the
|
|
opportunity of laying a foundation of knowledge in this establishment;
|
|
but having spent a single day in it, she had protested against its
|
|
laws and had been allowed to stay at home, where, in the September
|
|
days, when the windows of the Dutch House were open, she used to
|
|
hear the hum of childish voices repeating the multiplication-table- an
|
|
incident in which the elation of liberty and the pain of exclusion
|
|
were indistinguishably mingled. The foundation of her knowledge was
|
|
really laid in the idleness of her grandmother's house, where, as most
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of the other inmates were not reading people, she had uncontrolled use
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of a library full of books with frontispieces, which she used to climb
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upon a chair to take down. When she had found one to her taste- she
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was guided in the selection chiefly by the frontispiece- she carried
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it into a mysterious apartment which lay beyond the library and
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which was called, traditionally, no one knew why, the office. Whose
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office it had been and at what period it had flourished, she never
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learned; it was enough for her that it contained an echo and a
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pleasant musty smell and that it was a chamber of disgrace for old
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pieces of furniture whose infirmities were not always apparent (so
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that the disgrace seemed unmerited and rendered them victims of
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injustice) and with which, in the manner of children, she had
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established relations almost human, certainly dramatic. There was an
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old haircloth sofa in especial, to which she had confided a hundred
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childish sorrows. The place owed much of its mysterious melancholy
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to the fact that it was properly entered from the second door of the
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house, the door that had been condemned, and that it was secured by
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bolts which a particularly slender little girl found it impossible
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to slide. She knew that this silent, motionless portal opened into the
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street; if the sidelights had not been filled with green paper she
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might have looked out upon the little brown stoop and the well-worn
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brick pavement. But she had no wish to look out, for this would have
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interfered with her theory that there was a strange, unseen place on
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the other side- a place which became to the child's imagination,
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according to its different moods, a region of delight of terror.
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It was in the "office" still that Isabel was sitting on that
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melancholy afternoon of early spring which I have just mentioned. At
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this time she might have had the whole house to choose from, and the
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room she had selected was the most depressed of its scenes. She had
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never opened the bolted door nor removed the green paper (renewed by
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other hands) from its sidelights; she had never assured herself that
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the vulgar street lay beyond. A crude, cold rain fell heavily; the
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spring-time was indeed an appeal- and it seemed a cynical, insincere
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appeal- to patience. Isabel, however, gave as little heed as
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possible to cosmic treacheries; she kept her eyes on her book and
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tried to fix her mind. It had lately occurred to her that her mind was
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a good deal of a vagabond, and she had spent much ingenuity in
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training it to a military step and teaching it to advance, to halt, to
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retreat, to perform even more complicated manoeuvres, at the word of
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command. Just now she had given it marching orders and it had been
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trudging over the sandy plains of a history of German Thought.
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Suddenly she became aware of a step very different from her own
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intellectual pace; she listened a little and perceived that some one
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was moving in the library, which communicated with the office. It
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struck her first as the step of a person from whom she was looking for
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a visit, then almost immediately announced itself as the tread of a
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woman and a stranger- her possible visitor being neither. It had an
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inquisitive, experimental quality which suggested that it would not
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stop short of the threshold of the office; and in fact the doorway
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of this apartment was presently occupied by a lady who paused there
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and looked very hard at our heroine. She was a plain, elderly woman,
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dressed in a comprehensive waterproof mantle; she had a face with a
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good deal of rather violent point.
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"Oh," she began, "is that where you usually sit?" She looked about
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at the heterogeneous chairs and tables.
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"Not when I have visitors," said Isabel, getting up to receive the
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intruder.
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She directed their course back to the library while the visitor
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continued to look about her. "You seem to have plenty of other
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rooms; they're in rather better condition. But everything's
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immensely worn."
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"Have you come to look at the house?" Isabel asked. "The servant
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will show it to you."
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"Send her away; I don't want to buy it. She has probably gone to
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look for you and is wandering about upstairs; she didn't seem at all
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intelligent. You had better tell her it's no matter." And then,
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since the girl stood there hesitating and wondering, this unexpected
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critic said to her abruptly: "I suppose you're one of the daughters?"
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Isabel thought she had very strange manners. "It depends upon
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whose daughters you mean."
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"The late Mr. Archer's- and my poor sister's."
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"Ah," said Isabel slowly, "you must be our crazy Aunt Lydia!"
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"Is that what your father told you to call me? I'm your Aunt
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Lydia, but I'm not at all crazy: I haven't a delusion! And which of
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the daughters are you?"
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"I'm the youngest of the three, and my name's Isabel."
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"Yes; the others are Lilian and Edith. And are you the prettiest?"
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"I haven't the least idea," said the girl.
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"I think you must be." And in this way the aunt and the niece made
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friends. The aunt had quarrelled years before with her brother-in-law,
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after the death of her sister, taking him to task for the manner in
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|
which he brought up his three girls. Being a high-tempered man he
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|
had requested her to mind her own business, and she had taken him at
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|
his word. For many years she held no communication with him and
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|
after his death had addressed not a word to his daughters, who had
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|
been bred in that disrespectful view of her which we have just seen
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|
Isabel betray. Mrs. Touchett's behaviour was, as usual, perfectly
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|
deliberate. She intended to go to America to look after her
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|
investments (with which her husband, in spite of his great financial
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|
position, had nothing to do) and would take advantage of this
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|
opportunity to enquire into the condition of her nieces. There was
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|
no need of writing, for she should attach no importance to any account
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|
of them she should elicit by letter; she believed, always, in seeing
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|
for one's self. Isabel found, however, that she knew a good deal about
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|
them, and knew about the marriage of the two elder girls; knew that
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their poor father had left very little money, but that the house in
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Albany, which had passed into his hands, was to be sold for their
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|
benefit; knew, finally, that Edmund Ludlow, Lilian's husband, had
|
|
taken upon himself to attend to this matter, in consideration of which
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|
the young couple, who had come to Albany during Mr. Archer's
|
|
illness, were remaining there for the present and, as well as Isabel
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|
herself, occupying the old place.
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"How much money do you expect for it?" Mrs. Touchett asked of her
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|
companion, who had brought her to sit in the front parlour, which
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she had inspected without enthusiasm.
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"I haven't the least idea," said the girl.
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"That's the second time you have said that to me," her aunt
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|
rejoined. "And yet you don't look at all stupid."
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"I'm not stupid; but I don't know anything about money."
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|
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"Yes, that's the way you were brought up- as if you were to
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|
inherit a million. What have you in point of fact inherited?"
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"I really can't tell you. You must ask Edmund and Lilian; they'll be
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|
back in half an hour."
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"In Florence we should call it a very bad house," said Mrs.
|
|
Touchett; "but here, I dare say, it will bring a high price. It
|
|
ought to make a considerable sum for each of you. In addition to
|
|
that you must have something else; it's most extraordinary your not
|
|
knowing. The position's of value, and they'll probably pull it down
|
|
and make a row of shops. I wonder you don't do that yourself; you
|
|
might let the shops to great advantage."
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|
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Isabel stared; the idea of letting shops was new to her. "I hope
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they won't pull it down," she said; "I'm extremely fond of it."
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|
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"I don't see what makes you fond of it; your father died here."
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|
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"Yes, but I don't dislike it for that," the girl rather strangely
|
|
returned. "I like places in which things have happened- even if
|
|
they're sad things. A great many people have died here; the place
|
|
has been full of life."
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|
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|
"Is that what you call being full of life?"
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|
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"I mean full of experience- of people's feelings and sorrows. And
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not of their sorrows only, for I've been very happy here as a child."
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|
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"You should go to Florence if you like houses in which things have
|
|
happened- especially deaths. I live in an old palace in which three
|
|
people have been murdered; three that were known and I don't know
|
|
how many more besides."
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|
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"In an old palace?" Isabel repeated.
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|
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|
"Yes, my dear; a very different affair from this. This is very
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|
bourgeois."
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|
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Isabel felt some emotion, for she had always thought highly of her
|
|
grandmother's house. But the emotion was of a kind which led her to
|
|
say: "I should like very much to go to Florence."
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|
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"Well, if you'll be very good, and do everything I tell you I'll
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|
take you there," Mrs. Touchett declared.
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|
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|
Our young woman's emotion deepened; she flushed a little and
|
|
smiled at her aunt in silence. "Do everything you tell me? I don't
|
|
think I can promise that."
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|
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"No, you don't look like a person of that sort. You're fond of
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|
your own way; but it's not for me to blame you."
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|
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"And yet, to go to Florence," the girl exclaimed in a moment, "I'd
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|
promise almost anything!"
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|
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|
Edmund and Lilian were slow to return, and Mrs. Touchett had an
|
|
hour's uninterrupted talk with her niece, who found her a strange
|
|
and interesting figure: a figure essentially- almost the first she had
|
|
ever met. She was as eccentric as Isabel had always supposed; and
|
|
hitherto, whenever the girl had heard people described as eccentric,
|
|
she had thought of them as offensive or alarming. The term had
|
|
always suggested to her something grotesque and even sinister. But her
|
|
aunt made it a matter of high but easy irony, or comedy, and led her
|
|
to ask herself if the common tone, which was all she had known, had
|
|
ever been as interesting. No one certainly had on any occasion so held
|
|
her as this little thin-lipped, bright-eyed, foreign-looking woman,
|
|
who retrieved an insignificant appearance by a distinguished manner
|
|
and, sitting there in a well-worn waterproof, talked with striking
|
|
familiarity of the courts of Europe. There was nothing flighty about
|
|
Mrs. Touchett, but she recognized no social superiors, and, judging
|
|
the great ones of the earth in a way that spoke of this, enjoyed the
|
|
consciousness of making an impression on a candid and susceptible
|
|
mind. Isabel at first had answered a good many questions, and it was
|
|
from her answers apparently that Mrs. Touchett derived a high
|
|
opinion of her intelligence. But after this she had asked a good many,
|
|
and her aunt's answers, whatever turn they took, struck her as food
|
|
for deep reflexion. Mrs. Touchett waited for the return of her other
|
|
niece as long as she thought reasonable, but as at six o'clock Mrs.
|
|
Ludlow bad not come in she prepared to take her departure.
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|
|
|
"Your sister must be a great gossip. Is she accustomed to staying
|
|
out so many hours?"
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|
|
|
"You've been out almost as long as she," Isabel replied; "she can
|
|
have left the house but a short time before you came in."
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|
|
|
Mrs. Touchett looked at the girl without resentment; she appeared to
|
|
enjoy a bold retort and to be disposed to be gracious. "Perhaps she
|
|
hasn't had so good an excuse as I. Tell her at any rate that she
|
|
must come and see me this evening at that horrid hotel. She may
|
|
bring her husband if she likes, but she needn't bring you. I shall see
|
|
plenty of you later."
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|
CHAPTER 4
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|
Mrs. Ludlow was the eldest of the three sisters, and was usually
|
|
thought the most sensible; the classification being in general that
|
|
Lilian was the practical one, Edith the beauty and Isabel the
|
|
"intellectual" superior. Mrs. Keyes, the second of the group, was
|
|
the wife of an officer of the United States Engineers, and as our
|
|
history is not further concerned with her it will suffice that she was
|
|
indeed very pretty and that she formed the ornament of those various
|
|
military stations, chiefly in the unfashionable West, to which, to her
|
|
deep chagrin, her husband was successively relegated. Lilian had
|
|
married a New York lawyer, a young man with a loud voice and an
|
|
enthusiasm for his profession; the match was not brilliant, any more
|
|
than Edith's, but Lilian had occasionally been spoken of as a young
|
|
woman who might be thankful to marry at all- she was so much plainer
|
|
than her sisters. She was, however, very happy, and now, as the mother
|
|
of two peremptory little boys and the mistress of a wedge of brown
|
|
stone violently driven into Fifty-third Street, seemed to exult in her
|
|
condition as in a bold escape. She was short and solid, and her
|
|
claim to figure was questioned, but she was conceded presence,
|
|
though not majesty; she had moreover, as people said, improved since
|
|
her marriage, and the two things in life of which she was most
|
|
distinctly conscious were her husband's force in argument and her
|
|
sister Isabel's originality. "I've never kept up with Isabel- it would
|
|
have taken all my time," she had often remarked; in spite of which,
|
|
however, she held her rather wistfully in sight; watching her as a
|
|
motherly spaniel might watch a free greyhound. "I want to see her
|
|
safely married- that's what I want to see," she frequently noted to
|
|
her husband.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I must say I should have no particular desire to marry
|
|
her," Edmund Ludlow was accustomed to answer in an extremely audible
|
|
tone.
|
|
|
|
"I know you say that for argument; you always take the opposite
|
|
ground. I don't see what you've against her except that she's so
|
|
original."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I don't like originals; I like translations," Mr. Ludlow
|
|
had more than once replied. "Isabel's written in a foreign tongue. I
|
|
can't make her out. She ought to marry an Armenian or a Portuguese."
|
|
|
|
"That's just what I'm afraid she'll do!" cried Lilian, who thought
|
|
Isabel capable of anything.
|
|
|
|
She listened with great interest to the girl's account of Mrs.
|
|
Touchett's appearance and in the evening prepared to comply with their
|
|
aunt's commands. Of what Isabel then said no report has remained,
|
|
but her sister's words had doubtless prompted a word spoken to her
|
|
husband as the two were making ready for their visit. "I do hope
|
|
immensely she'll do something handsome for Isabel; she has evidently
|
|
taken a great fancy to her."
|
|
|
|
"What is it you wish her to do?" Edmund Ludlow asked. "Make her a
|
|
big present?"
|
|
|
|
"No indeed; nothing of the sort. But take an interest in her-
|
|
sympathize with her. She's evidently just the sort of person to
|
|
appreciate her. She has lived so much in foreign society; she told
|
|
Isabel all about it. You know you've always thought Isabel rather
|
|
foreign."
|
|
|
|
"You want her to give her a little foreign sympathy, eh? Don't you
|
|
think she gets enough at home?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, she ought to go abroad," said Mrs. Ludlow. "She's just the
|
|
person to go abroad."
|
|
|
|
"And you want the old lady to take her, is that it?"
|
|
|
|
"She has offered to take her- she's dying to have Isabel go. But
|
|
what I want her to do when she gets her there is to give her all the
|
|
advantages. I'm sure all we've got to do," said Mrs. Ludlow, "is to
|
|
give her a chance."
|
|
|
|
"A chance for what?"
|
|
|
|
"A chance to develop."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, Moses!" Edmund Ludlow exclaimed. "I hope she isn't going to
|
|
develop any more!"
|
|
|
|
"If I were not sure you only said that for argument I should feel
|
|
very badly," his wife replied. "But you know you love her."
|
|
|
|
"Do you know I love you?" the young man said, jocosely, to Isabel
|
|
a little later, while he brushed his hat.
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure I don't care whether you do or not!" exclaimed the girl;
|
|
whose voice and smile, however, were less haughty than her words.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, she feels so grand since Mrs. Touchett's visit," said her
|
|
sister.
|
|
|
|
But Isabel challenged this assertion with a good deal of
|
|
seriousness. "You must not say that, Lily. I don't feel grand at all."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure there's no harm," said the conciliatory Lily.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, but there's nothing in Mrs. Touchett's visit to make one feel
|
|
grand."
|
|
|
|
"Oh," exclaimed Ludlow, "she's grander than ever!"
|
|
|
|
"Whenever I feel grand," said the girl, "it will be for a better
|
|
reason."
|
|
|
|
Whether she felt grand or no, she at any rate felt different, felt
|
|
as if something had happened to her. Left to herself for the evening
|
|
she sat a while under the lamp, her hands empty, her usual
|
|
avocations unheeded. Then she rose and moved about the room, and
|
|
from one room to another, preferring the places where the vague
|
|
lamplight expired. She was restless and even agitated; at moments
|
|
she trembled a little. The importance of what had happened was out
|
|
of proportion to its appearance; there had really been a change in her
|
|
life. What it would bring with it was as yet extremely indefinite; but
|
|
Isabel was in a situation that gave a value to any change. She had a
|
|
desire to leave the past behind her and, as she said to herself, to
|
|
begin afresh. This desire indeed was not a birth of the present
|
|
occasion; it was as familiar as the sound of the rain upon the
|
|
window and it had led to her beginning afresh a great many times.
|
|
She closed her eyes as she sat in one of the dusky corners of the
|
|
quiet parlour; but it was not with a desire for dozing
|
|
forgetfulness. It was on the contrary because she felt too wide-eyed
|
|
and wished to check the sense of seeing too many things at once. Her
|
|
imagination was by habit ridiculously active; when the door was not
|
|
open it jumped out of the window. She was not accustomed indeed to
|
|
keep it behind bolts; and at important moments, when she would have
|
|
been thankful to make use of her judgement alone, she paid the penalty
|
|
of having given undue encouragement to the faculty of seeing without
|
|
judging. At present, with her sense that the note of change had been
|
|
struck, came gradually a host of images of the things she was
|
|
leaving behind her. The years and hours of her life came back to
|
|
her, and for a long time, in a stillness broken only by the ticking of
|
|
the big bronze clock, she passed them in review. It had been a very
|
|
happy life and she had been a very fortunate person- this was the
|
|
truth that seemed to emerge most vividly. She had had the best of
|
|
everything, and in a world in which the circumstances of so many
|
|
people made them unenviable it was an advantage never to have known
|
|
anything particularly unpleasant. It appeared to Isabel that the
|
|
unpleasant had been even too absent from her knowledge, for she had
|
|
gathered from her acquaintance with literature that it was often a
|
|
source of interest and even of instruction. Her father had kept it
|
|
away from her- her handsome, much-loved father, who always had such an
|
|
aversion to it. It was a great felicity to have been his daughter;
|
|
Isabel rose even to pride in her parentage. Since his death she had
|
|
seemed to see him as turning his braver side to his children and as
|
|
not having managed to ignore the ugly quite so much in practice as
|
|
in aspiration. But this only made her tenderness for him greater; it
|
|
was scarcely even painful to have to suppose him too generous, too
|
|
good-natured, too indifferent to sordid considerations. Many persons
|
|
had held that he carried this indifference too far, especially the
|
|
large number of those to whom he owed money. Of their opinions
|
|
Isabel was never very definitely informed; but it may interest the
|
|
reader to know that, while they had recognized in the late Mr.
|
|
Archer a remarkably handsome head and a very taking manner (indeed, as
|
|
one of them had said, he was always taking something), they had
|
|
declared that he was making a very poor use of his life. He had
|
|
squandered a substantial fortune, he had been deplorably convivial, he
|
|
was known to have gambled freely. A few very harsh critics went so far
|
|
as to say that he had not even brought up his daughters. They had
|
|
had no regular education and no permanent home; they had been at
|
|
once spoiled and neglected; they had lived with nursemaids and
|
|
governesses (usually very bad ones) or had been sent to superficial
|
|
schools, kept by the French, from which, at the end of a month, they
|
|
had been removed in tears. This view of the matter would have
|
|
excited Isabel's indignation, for to her own sense her opportunities
|
|
had been large. Even when her father had left his daughters for
|
|
three months at Neufchatel with a French bonne who had eloped with a
|
|
Russian nobleman staying at the same hotel- even in this irregular
|
|
situation (an incident of the girl's eleventh year) she had been
|
|
neither frightened nor ashamed, but had thought it a romantic
|
|
episode in a liberal education. Her father had a large way of
|
|
looking at life, of which his restlessness and even his occasional
|
|
incoherency of conduct had been only a proof. He wished his daughters,
|
|
even as children, to see as much of the world as possible; and it
|
|
was for this purpose that, before Isabel was fourteen, he had
|
|
transported them three times across the Atlantic, giving them on
|
|
each occasion, however, but a few months' view of the subject
|
|
proposed: a course which had whetted our heroine's curiosity without
|
|
enabling her to satisfy it. She ought to have been a partisan of her
|
|
father, for she was the member of his trio who most "made up" to him
|
|
for the disagreeables he didn't mention. In his last days his
|
|
general willingness to take leave of a world in which the difficulty
|
|
of doing as one liked appeared to increase as one grew older had
|
|
been sensibly modified by the pain of separation from his clever,
|
|
his superior, his remarkable girl. Later, when the journeys to
|
|
Europe ceased, he still had shown his children all sorts of
|
|
indulgence, and if he had been troubled about money-matters nothing
|
|
ever disturbed their irreflective consciousness of many possessions.
|
|
Isabel, though she danced very well, had not the recollection of
|
|
having been in New York a successful member of the choregraphic
|
|
circle; her sister Edith was, as every one said, so very much more
|
|
fetching. Edith was so striking an example of success that Isabel
|
|
could have no illusions as to what constituted this advantage, or as
|
|
to the limits of her own power to frisk and jump and shriek- above all
|
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with rightness of effect. Nineteen persons out of twenty (including
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the younger sister herself pronounced Edith infinitely the prettier of
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the two; but the twentieth, besides reversing this judgement, had
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the entertainment of thinking all the others aesthetic vulgarians.
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Isabel had in the depths of her nature an even more unquenchable
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desire to please than Edith; but the depths of this young lady's
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nature were a very out-of-the-way place, between which and the surface
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communication was interrupted by a dozen capricious forces. She saw
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the young men who came in large numbers to see her sister; but as a
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general thing they were afraid of her; they had a belief that some
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special preparation was required for talking with her. Her
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reputation of reading a great deal hung about her like the cloudy
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envelope of a goddess in an epic; it was supposed to engender
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difficult questions and to keep the conversation at a low temperature.
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The poor girl liked to be thought clever, but she hated to be
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thought bookish; she used to read in secret and, though her memory was
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excellent, to abstain from showy reference. She had a great desire for
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knowledge, but she really preferred almost any source of information
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to the printed page; she had an immense curiosity about life and was
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constantly staring and wondering. She carried within herself a great
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fund of life, and her deepest enjoyment was to feel the continuity
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between the movements of her own soul and the agitations of the world.
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For this reason she was fond of seeing great crowds and large
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stretches of country, of reading about revolutions and wars, of
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looking at historical pictures- a class of efforts as to which she had
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often committed the conscious solecism of forgiving them much bad
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painting for the sake of the subject. While the Civil War went on
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she was still a very young girl; but she passed months of this long
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period in a state of almost passionate excitement, in which she felt
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herself at times (to her extreme confusion) stirred almost
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indiscriminately by the valour of either army. Of course the
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circumspection of suspicious swains had never gone the length of
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making her a social proscript; for the number of those whose hearts,
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as they approached her, beat only just fast enough to remind them they
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had heads as well, had kept her unacquainted with the supreme
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discipline of her sex and age. She had had everything a girl could
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have: kindness, admiration, bonbons, bouquets, the sense of
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exclusion from none of the privileges of the world she lived in,
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abundant opportunity for dancing, plenty of new dresses, the London
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|
Spectator, the latest publications, the music of Gounod, the poetry of
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Browning, the prose of George Eliot.
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These things now, as memory played over them, resolved themselves
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into a multitude of scenes and figures. Forgotten things came back
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to her; many others, which she had lately thought of great moment,
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dropped out of sight. The result was kaleidoscopic, but the movement
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of the instrument was checked at last by the servant's coming in
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with the name of a gentleman. The name of the gentleman was Caspar
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Goodwood; he was a straight young man from Boston, who had known
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Miss Archer for the last twelvemonth and who, thinking her the most
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beautiful young woman of her time, had pronounced the time,
|
|
according to the rule I have hinted at, a foolish period of history.
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|
He sometimes wrote to her and had within a week or two written from
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New York. She had thought it very possible he would come in- had
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indeed all the rainy day been vaguely expecting him. Now that she
|
|
learned he was there, nevertheless, she felt no eagerness to receive
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|
him. He was the finest young man she had ever seen, was indeed quite a
|
|
splendid young man; he inspired her with a sentiment of high, of
|
|
rare respect. She had never felt equally moved to it by any other
|
|
person. He was supposed by the world in general to wish to marry
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|
her, but this of course was between themselves. It at least may be
|
|
affirmed that he had travelled from New York to Albany expressly to
|
|
see her; having learned in the former city, where he was spending a
|
|
few days and where he had hoped to find her, that she was still at the
|
|
State capital. Isabel delayed for some minutes to go to him; she moved
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|
about the room with a new sense of complications. But at last she
|
|
presented herself and found him standing near the lamp. He was tall,
|
|
strong and somewhat stiff; he was also lean and brown. He was not
|
|
romantically, he was much rather obscurely, handsome; but his
|
|
physiognomy had an air of requesting your attention, which it rewarded
|
|
according to the charm you found in blue eyes of remarkable fixedness,
|
|
the eyes of a complexion other than his own, and a jaw of the somewhat
|
|
angular mould which is supposed to bespeak resolution. Isabel said
|
|
to herself that it bespoke resolution to-night; in spite of which,
|
|
in half an hour, Caspar Goodwood, who had arrived hopeful as well as
|
|
resolute, took his way back to his lodging with the feeling of a man
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defeated. He was not, it may be added, a man weakly to accept defeat.
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CHAPTER 5
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Ralph Touchett was a philosopher, but nevertheless he knocked at his
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mother's door (at a quarter to seven) with a good deal of eagerness.
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|
Even philosophers have their preferences, and it must be admitted that
|
|
of his progenitors his father ministered most to his sense of the
|
|
sweetness of filial dependence. His father, as he had often said to
|
|
himself, was the more motherly; his mother, on the other hand, was
|
|
paternal, and even, according to the slang of the day,
|
|
gubernatorial. She was nevertheless very fond of her only child and
|
|
had always insisted on his spending three months of the year with her.
|
|
Ralph rendered perfect justice to her affection and knew that in her
|
|
thoughts and her thoroughly arranged and servanted life his turn
|
|
always came after the other nearest subjects of her solicitude, the
|
|
various punctualities of performance of the workers of her will. He
|
|
found her completely dressed for dinner, but she embraced her boy with
|
|
her gloved hands and made him sit on the sofa beside her. She enquired
|
|
scrupulously about her husband's health and about the young man's own,
|
|
and, receiving no very brilliant account of either, remarked that
|
|
she was more than ever convinced of her wisdom in not exposing herself
|
|
to the English climate. In this case she also might have given way.
|
|
Ralph smiled at the idea of his mother's giving way, but made no point
|
|
of reminding her that his own infirmity was not the result of the
|
|
English climate, from which he absented himself for a considerable
|
|
part of each year.
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He had been a very small boy when his father, Daniel Tracy Touchett,
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|
a native of Rutland, in the State of Vermont, came to England as
|
|
subordinate partner in a banking-house where some ten years later he
|
|
gained preponderant control. Daniel Touchett saw before him a
|
|
life-long residence in his adopted country, of which, from the
|
|
first, he took a simple, sane and accommodating view. But, as he
|
|
said to himself, he had no intention of dis-americanizing, nor had
|
|
he a desire to teach his only son any such subtle art. It had been for
|
|
himself so very soluble a problem to live in England assimilated yet
|
|
unconverted that it seemed to him equally simple his lawful heir
|
|
should after his death carry on the grey old bank in the white
|
|
American light. He was at pains to intensify this light, however, by
|
|
sending the boy home for his education. Ralph spent several terms at
|
|
an American school and took a degree at an American university,
|
|
after which, as he struck his father on his return as even redundantly
|
|
native, he was placed for some three years in residence at Oxford.
|
|
Oxford swallowed up Harvard, and Ralph became at last English
|
|
enough. His outward conformity to the manners that surrounded him
|
|
was none the less the mask of a mind that greatly enjoyed its
|
|
independence, on which nothing long imposed itself, and which,
|
|
naturally inclined to adventure and irony, indulged in a boundless
|
|
liberty of appreciation. He began with being a young man of promise;
|
|
at Oxford he distinguished himself, to his father's ineffable
|
|
satisfaction, and the people about him said it was a thousand pities
|
|
so clever a fellow should be shut out from a career. He might have had
|
|
a career by returning to his own country (though this point is
|
|
shrouded in uncertainty) and even if Mr. Touchett had been willing
|
|
to part with him (which was not the case) it would have gone hard with
|
|
him to put a watery waste permanently between himself and the old
|
|
man whom he regarded as his best friend. Ralph was not only fond of
|
|
his father, he admired him- he enjoyed the opportunity of observing
|
|
him. Daniel Touchett, to his perception, was a man of genius, and
|
|
though he himself had no aptitude for the banking mystery he made a
|
|
point of learning enough of it to measure the great figure his
|
|
father had played. It was not this, however, he mainly relished; it
|
|
was the fine ivory surface, polished as by the English air, that the
|
|
old man had opposed to possibilities of penetration. Daniel Touchett
|
|
had been neither at Harvard nor at Oxford, and it was his own fault if
|
|
he had placed in his son's hands the key to modern criticism. Ralph,
|
|
whose head was full of ideas which his father had never guessed, had a
|
|
high esteem for the latter's originality. Americans, rightly or
|
|
wrongly, are commended for the ease with which they adapt themselves
|
|
to foreign conditions; but Mr. Touchett had made of the very limits of
|
|
his pliancy half the ground of his general success. He had retained in
|
|
their freshness most of his marks of primary pressure; his tone, as
|
|
his son always noted with pleasure, was that of the more luxuriant
|
|
parts of New England. At the end of his life he had become, on his own
|
|
ground, as mellow as he was rich; he combined consummate shrewdness
|
|
with the disposition superficially to fraternize, and his "social
|
|
position," on which he had never wasted a care, had the firm
|
|
perfection of an unthumbed fruit. It was perhaps his want of
|
|
imagination and of what is called the historic consciousness; but to
|
|
many of the impressions usually made by English life upon the
|
|
cultivated stranger his sense was completely closed. There were
|
|
certain differences he had never perceived, certain habits he had
|
|
never formed, certain obscurities he had never sounded. As regards
|
|
these latter, on the day he had sounded them his son would have
|
|
thought less well of him.
|
|
|
|
Ralph, on leaving Oxford, had spent a couple of years in travelling;
|
|
after which he had found himself perched on a high stool in his
|
|
father's bank. The responsibility and honour of such positions is not,
|
|
I believe, measured by the height of the stool, which depends upon
|
|
other considerations: Ralph, indeed, who had very long legs, was
|
|
fond of standing, and even of walking about, at his work. To this
|
|
exercise, however, he was obliged to devote but a limited period,
|
|
for at the end of some eighteen months he had become aware of his
|
|
being seriously out of health. He had caught a violent cold, which
|
|
fixed itself on his lungs and threw them into dire confusion. He had
|
|
to give up work and apply, to the letter, the sorry injunction to take
|
|
care of himself. At first he slighted the task; it appeared to him
|
|
it was not himself in the least he was taking care of, but an
|
|
uninteresting and uninterested person with whom he had nothing in
|
|
common. This person, however, improved on acquaintance, and Ralph grew
|
|
at last to have a certain grudging tolerance, even an
|
|
undemonstrative respect, for him. Misfortune makes strange bedfellows,
|
|
and our young man, feeling that he had something at stake in the
|
|
matter- it usually struck him as his reputation for ordinary wit-
|
|
devoted to his graceless charge an amount of attention of which note
|
|
was duly taken and which had at least the effect of keeping the poor
|
|
fellow alive. One of his lungs began to heal, the other promised to
|
|
follow its example, and he was assured he might outweather a dozen
|
|
winters if he would betake himself to those climates in which
|
|
consumptives chiefly congregate. As he had grown extremely fond of
|
|
London, he cursed the flatness of exile: but at the same time that
|
|
he cursed he conformed, and gradually, when he found his sensitive
|
|
organ grateful even for grim favours, he conferred them with a lighter
|
|
hand. He wintered abroad, as the phrase is; basked in the sun, stopped
|
|
at home when the wind blew, went to bed when it rained, and once or
|
|
twice, when it had snowed overnight, almost never got up again.
|
|
|
|
A secret hoard of indifference- like a thick cake a fond old nurse
|
|
might have slipped into his first school outfit- came to his aid and
|
|
helped to reconcile him to sacrifice; since at the best he was too ill
|
|
for aught but that arduous game. As he said to himself, there was
|
|
really nothing he had wanted very much to do, so that he had at
|
|
least not renounced the field of valour. At present, however, the
|
|
fragrance of forbidden fruit seemed occasionally to float past him and
|
|
remind him that the finest of pleasures is the rush of action.
|
|
Living as he now lived was like reading a good book in a poor
|
|
translation- a meagre entertainment for a young man who felt that he
|
|
might have been an excellent linguist. He had good winters and poor
|
|
winters, and while the former lasted he was sometimes the sport of a
|
|
vision of virtual recovery. But this vision was dispelled some three
|
|
years before the occurrence of the incidents with which this history
|
|
opens: he had on that occasion remained later than usual in England
|
|
and had been overtaken by bad weather before reaching Algiers. He
|
|
arrived more dead than alive and lay there for several weeks between
|
|
life and death. His convalescence was a miracle, but the first use
|
|
he made of it was to assure himself that such miracles happen but
|
|
once. He said to himself that his hour was in sight and that it
|
|
behoved him to keep his eyes upon it, yet that it was also open to him
|
|
to spend the interval as agreeably as might be consistent with such
|
|
a preoccupation. With the prospect of losing them the simple use of
|
|
his faculties became an exquisite pleasure; it seemed to him the
|
|
joys of contemplation had never been sounded. He was far from the time
|
|
when he had found it hard that he should be obliged to give up the
|
|
idea of distinguishing himself; an idea none the less importunate
|
|
for being vague and none the less delightful for having had to
|
|
struggle in the same breast with bursts of inspiring self-criticism.
|
|
His friends at present judged him more cheerful, and attributed it
|
|
to a theory, over which they shook their heads knowingly, that he
|
|
would recover his health. His serenity was but the array of wild
|
|
flowers niched in his ruin.
|
|
|
|
It was very probably this sweet-tasting property of the observed
|
|
thing in itself that was mainly concerned in Ralph's quickly-stirred
|
|
interest in the advent of a young lady who was evidently not
|
|
insipid. If he was consideringly disposed, something told him, here
|
|
was occupation enough for a succession of days. It may be added, in
|
|
summary fashion, that the imagination of loving- as distinguished from
|
|
that of being loved- had still a place in his reduced sketch. He had
|
|
only forbidden himself the riot of expression. However, he shouldn't
|
|
inspire his cousin with a passion, nor would she be able, even
|
|
should she try, to help him to one. "And now tell me about the young
|
|
lady," he said to his mother. "What do you mean to do with her?"
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Touchett was prompt. "I mean to ask your father to invite her
|
|
to stay three or four weeks at Gardencourt."
|
|
|
|
"You needn't stand on any such ceremony as that," said Ralph. "My
|
|
father will ask her as a matter of course."
|
|
|
|
"I don't know about that. She's my niece; she's not his."
|
|
|
|
"Good Lord, dear mother; what a sense of property! That's all the
|
|
more reason for his asking her. But after that- I mean after three
|
|
months (for it's absurd asking the poor girl to remain but for three
|
|
or four paltry weeks)- what do you mean to do with her?"
|
|
|
|
"I mean to take her to Paris. I mean to get her clothing."
|
|
|
|
"Ah yes, that's of course. But independently of that?"
|
|
|
|
"I shall invite her to spend the autumn with me in Florence."
|
|
|
|
"You don't rise above detail, dear mother," said Ralph. "I should
|
|
like to know what you mean to do with her in a general way."
|
|
|
|
"My duty!" Mrs. Touchett declared. "I suppose you pity her very
|
|
much," she added.
|
|
|
|
"No, I don't think I pity her. She doesn't strike me as inviting
|
|
compassion. I think I envy her. Before being sure, however, give me
|
|
a hint of where you see your duty."
|
|
|
|
"In showing her four European countries- I shall leave her the
|
|
choice of two of them- and in giving her the opportunity of perfecting
|
|
herself in French, which she already knows very well."
|
|
|
|
Ralph frowned a little. "That sounds rather dry- even allowing her
|
|
the choice of two of the countries."
|
|
|
|
"If it's dry," said his mother with a laugh, "you can leave Isabel
|
|
alone to water it! She is as good as a summer rain, any day."
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean she's a gifted being?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know whether she's a gifted being, but she's a clever girl-
|
|
with a strong will and a high temper. She has no idea of being bored."
|
|
|
|
"I can imagine that," said Ralph; and then he added abruptly: "How
|
|
do you two get on?"
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean by that that I'm a bore? I don't think she finds me
|
|
one. Some girls might, I know; but Isabel's too clever for that. I
|
|
think I greatly amuse her. We get on because I understand her; I
|
|
know the sort of girl she is. She's very frank, and I'm very frank: we
|
|
know just what to expect of each other."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, dear mother," Ralph exclaimed, "one always knows what to expect
|
|
of you! You've never surprised me but once, and that's to-day- in
|
|
presenting me with a pretty cousin whose existence I had never
|
|
suspected."
|
|
|
|
"Do you think her so very pretty?"
|
|
|
|
"Very pretty indeed; but I don't insist upon that. It's her
|
|
general air of being some one in particular that strikes me. Who is
|
|
this rare creature, and what is she? Where did you find her, and how
|
|
did you make her acquaintance?"
|
|
|
|
"I found her in an old house at Albany, sitting in a dreary room
|
|
on a rainy day, reading a heavy book and boring herself to death.
|
|
She didn't know she was bored, but when I left her no doubt of it
|
|
she seemed very grateful for the service. You may say I shouldn't have
|
|
enlightened her- I should have let her alone. There's a good deal in
|
|
that, but I acted conscientiously; I thought she was meant for
|
|
something better. It occurred to me that it would be a kindness to
|
|
take her about and introduce her to the world. She thinks she knows
|
|
a great deal of it- like most American girls; but like most American
|
|
girls she's ridiculously mistaken. If you want to know, I thought
|
|
she would do me credit. I like to be well thought of, and for a
|
|
woman of my age there's no greater convenience, in some ways, than
|
|
an attractive niece. You know I had seen nothing of my sister's
|
|
children for years; I disapproved entirely of the father. But I always
|
|
meant to do something for them when he should have gone to his reward.
|
|
I ascertained where they were to be found and, without any
|
|
preliminaries, went and introduced myself. There are two others of
|
|
them, both of whom are married; but I saw only the elder, who has,
|
|
by the way, a very uncivil husband. The wife, whose name is Lily,
|
|
jumped at the idea of my taking an interest in Isabel; she said it was
|
|
just what her sister needed- that some one should take an interest
|
|
in her. She spoke of her as you might speak of some young person of
|
|
genius- in want of encouragement and patronage. It may be that
|
|
Isabel's a genius; but in that case I've not yet learned her special
|
|
line. Mrs. Ludlow was especially keen about my taking her to Europe;
|
|
they all regard Europe over there as a land of emigration, of
|
|
rescue, a refuge for their superfluous population. Isabel herself
|
|
seemed very glad to come, and the thing was easily arranged. There was
|
|
a little difficulty about the money-question, as she seemed averse
|
|
to being under pecuniary obligations. But she has a small income and
|
|
she supposes herself to be travelling at her own expense."
|
|
|
|
Ralph had listened attentively to this judicious report, by which
|
|
his interest in the subject of it was not impaired. "Ah, if she's a
|
|
genius," he said, "we must find out her special line. Is it by
|
|
chance for flirting?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't think so. You may suspect that at first, but you'll be
|
|
wrong. You won't, I think, in any way, be easily right about her."
|
|
|
|
"Warburton's wrong then!" Ralph rejoicingly exclaimed. "He
|
|
flatters himself he has made that discovery."
|
|
|
|
His mother shook her head. "Lord Warburton won't understand her.
|
|
He needn't try."
|
|
|
|
"He's very intelligent," said Ralph; "but it's right he should be
|
|
puzzled once in a while."
|
|
|
|
"Isabel will enjoy puzzling a lord," Mrs. Touchett remarked.
|
|
|
|
Her son frowned a little. "What does she know about lords?"
|
|
|
|
"Nothing at all: that will puzzle him all the more."
|
|
|
|
Ralph greeted these words with a laugh and looked out of the window.
|
|
Then, "Are you not going down to see my father?" he asked.
|
|
|
|
"At a quarter to eight," said Mrs. Touchett.
|
|
|
|
Her son looked at his watch. "You've another quarter of an hour
|
|
then. Tell me some more about Isabel." After which, as Mrs. Touchett
|
|
declined his invitation, declaring that he must find out for
|
|
himself, "Well," he pursued, "she'll certainly do you credit. But
|
|
won't she also give you trouble?"
|
|
|
|
"I hope not; but if she does I shall not shrink from it. I never
|
|
do that."
|
|
|
|
"She strikes me as very natural," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"Natural people are not the most trouble."
|
|
|
|
"No," said Ralph; "you yourself are a proof of that. You're
|
|
extremely natural, and I'm sure you have never troubled any one. It
|
|
takes trouble to do that. But tell me this; it just occurs to me. Is
|
|
Isabel capable of making herself disagreeable?"
|
|
|
|
"Ah," cried his mother, "you ask too many questions! Find that out
|
|
for yourself."
|
|
|
|
His questions, however, were not exhausted. "All this time," he
|
|
said, "you've not told me what you intend to do with her."
|
|
|
|
"Do with her? You talk as if she were a yard of calico. I shall do
|
|
absolutely nothing with her, and she herself will do everything she
|
|
chooses. She gave me notice of that."
|
|
|
|
"What you meant then, in your telegram, was that her character's
|
|
independent."
|
|
|
|
"I never know what I mean in my telegrams- especially those I send
|
|
from America. Clearness is too expensive. Come down to your father."
|
|
|
|
"It's not yet a quarter to eight," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"I must allow for his impatience," Mrs. Touchett answered.
|
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Ralph knew what to think of his father's impatience; but, making
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no rejoinder, he offered his mother his arm. This put it in his power,
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as they descended together, to stop her a moment on the middle landing
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of the staircase- the broad, low, wide-armed staircase of
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time-blackened oak which was one of the most striking features of
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Gardencourt. "You've no plan of marrying her?" he smiled.
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"Marrying her? I should be sorry to play her such a trick! But apart
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from that, she's perfectly able to marry herself. She has every
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facility."
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"Do you mean to say she has a husband picked out?"
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"I don't know about a husband, but there's a young man in Boston-!"
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Ralph went on; he had no desire to hear about the young man in
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Boston. "As my father says, they're always engaged!"
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His mother had told him that he must satisfy his curiosity at the
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source, and it soon became evident he should not want for occasion. He
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had a good deal of talk with his young kinswoman when the two had been
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left together in the drawing-room. Lord Warburton, who had ridden over
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from his own house, some ten miles distant, remounted and took his
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departure before dinner; and an hour after this meal was ended Mr. and
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Mrs. Touchett, who appeared to have quite emptied the measure of their
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forms, withdrew, under the valid pretext of fatigue, to their
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respective apartments. The young man spent an hour with his cousin;
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though she had been travelling half the day she appeared in no
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degree spent. She was really tired; she knew it, and knew she should
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pay for it on the morrow; but it was her habit at this period to carry
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exhaustion to the furtherest point and confess to it only when
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dissimulation broke down. A fine hypocrisy was for the present
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possible; she was interested; she was, as she said to herself,
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floated. She asked Ralph to show her the pictures; there were a
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great many in the house, most of them of his own choosing. The best
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were arranged in an oaken gallery, of charming proportions, which
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had a sitting-room at either end of it and which in the evening was
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usually lighted. The light was insufficient to show the pictures to
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advantage, and the visit might have stood over to the morrow. This
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suggestion Ralph had ventured to make; but Isabel looked disappointed-
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smiling still, however- and said: "If you please I should like to
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see them just a little." She was eager, she knew she was eager and now
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seemed so; she couldn't help it. "She doesn't take suggestions," Ralph
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said to himself; but he said it without irritation; her pressure
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amused and even pleased him. The lamps were on brackets, at intervals,
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and if the light was imperfect it was genial. It fell upon the vague
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squares of rich colour and on the faded gilding of heavy frames; it
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made a sheen on the polished floor of the gallery. Ralph took a
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candlestick and moved about, pointing out the things he liked; Isabel,
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inclining to one picture after another, indulged in little
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exclamations and murmurs. She was evidently a judge; she had a natural
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taste; he was struck with that. She took a candlestick herself and
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held it slowly here and there; she lifted it high, and as she did so
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he found himself pausing in the middle of the place and bending his
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eyes much less upon the pictures than on her presence. He lost
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nothing, in truth, by these wandering glances, for she was better
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worth looking at than most works of art. She was undeniably spare, and
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ponderably light, and proveably tall; when people had wished to
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distinguish her from the other two Miss Archers they had always called
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her the willowy one. Her hair, which was dark even to blackness, had
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been an object of envy to many women; her light grey eyes, a little
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too firm perhaps in her graver moments, had an enchanting range of
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concession. They walked slowly up one side of the gallery and down the
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other, and then she said:
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"Well, now I know more than I did when I began!"
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"You apparently have a great passion for knowledge," her cousin
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returned.
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"I think I have; most girls are horridly ignorant."
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"You strike me as different from most girls."
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"Ah, some of them would- but the way they're talked to!" murmured
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Isabel, who preferred not to dilate just yet on herself. Then in a
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moment, to change the subject, "Please tell me- isn't there a
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ghost?" she went on.
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"A ghost?"
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"A castle-spectre, a thing that appears. We call them ghosts in
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America."
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"So we do here, when we see them."
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"You do see them then? You ought to, in this romantic old house."
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"It's not a romantic old house," said Ralph. "You'll be disappointed
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if you count on that. It's a dismally prosaic one; there's no
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romance here but what you may have brought with you."
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"I've brought a great deal; but it seems to me I've brought it to
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the right place."
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"To keep it out of harm, certainly; nothing will ever happen to it
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here, between my father and me."
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Isabel looked at him a moment. "Is there never any one here but your
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father and you?"
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"My mother, of course."
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"Oh, I know your mother; she's not romantic. Haven't you other
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people?"
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"Very few."
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"I'm sorry for that; I like so much to see people."
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"Oh, we'll invite all the county to amuse you," said Ralph.
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"Now you're making fun of me," the girl answered rather gravely.
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"Who was the gentleman on the lawn when I arrived?"
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"A county neighbour; he doesn't come very often."
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"I'm sorry for that; I liked him," said Isabel.
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"Why, it seemed to me that you barely spoke to him," Ralph objected.
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"Never mind, I like him all the same. I like your father too,
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immensely."
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"You can't do better than that. He's the dearest of the dear."
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"I'm so sorry he is ill," said Isabel.
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"You must help me to nurse him; you ought to be a good nurse."
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"I don't think I am; I've been told I'm not; I'm said to have too
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many theories. But you haven't told me about the ghost," she added.
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Ralph, however, gave no heed to this observation. "You like my
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father and you like Lord Warburton. I infer also that you like my
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mother."
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"I like your mother very much, because- because-" And Isabel found
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herself attempting to assign a reason for her affection for Mrs.
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Touchett.
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"Ah, we never know why!" said her companion, laughing.
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"I always know why," the girl answered. "It's because she doesn't
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expect one to like her. She doesn't care whether one does or not."
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"So you adore her- out of perversity? Well, I take greatly after
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my mother," said Ralph.
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"I don't believe you do at all. You wish people to like you, and you
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try to make them do it."
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"Good heavens, how you see through one!" he cried with a dismay that
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was not altogether jocular.
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"But I like you all the same," his cousin went on. "The way to
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clinch the matter will be to show me the ghost."
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Ralph shook his head sadly. "I might show it to you, but you'd never
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see it. The privilege isn't given to every one; it's not enviable.
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It has never been seen by a young, happy, innocent person like you.
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You must have suffered first, have suffered greatly, have gained
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some miserable knowledge. In that way your eyes are opened to it. I
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saw it long ago," said Ralph.
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"I told you just now I'm very fond of knowledge," Isabel answered.
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"Yes, of happy knowledge- of pleasant knowledge. But you haven't
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suffered, and you're not made to suffer. I hope you'll never see the
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ghost!"
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She had listened to him attentively, with a smile on her lips, but
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with a certain gravity in her eyes. Charming as he found her, she
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|
had struck him as rather presumptuous- indeed it was a part of her
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|
charm; and he wondered what she would say. "I'm not afraid, you know,"
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she said: which seemed quite presumptuous enough.
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"You're not afraid of suffering?"
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"Yes, I'm afraid of suffering. But I'm not afraid of ghosts. And I
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think people suffer too easily," she added.
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"I don't believe you do," said Ralph, looking at her with his
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hands in his pockets.
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"I don't think that's a fault," she answered. "It's not absolutely
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necessary to suffer; we were not made for that."
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"You were not, certainly."
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"I'm not speaking of myself." And she wandered off a little.
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"No, it isn't a fault," said her cousin. "It's a merit to be
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strong."
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"Only, if you don't suffer they call you hard," Isabel remarked.
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They passed out of the smaller drawing-room, into which they had
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|
returned from the gallery, and paused in the hall, at the foot of
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the staircase. Here Ralph presented his companion with her bedroom
|
|
candle, which he had taken from a niche. "Never mind what they call
|
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you. When you do suffer they call you an idiot. The great point's to
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|
be as happy as possible."
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She looked at him a little; she had taken her candle and placed
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her foot on the oaken stair. "Well," she said, "that's what I came
|
|
to Europe for, to be as happy as possible. Good-night."
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"Good-night! I wish you all success, and shall be very glad to
|
|
contribute to it!"
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She turned away, and he watched her as she slowly ascended. Then,
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|
with his hands always in his pockets, he went back to the empty
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drawing-room.
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CHAPTER 6
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Isabel Archer was a young person of many theories; her imagination
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|
was remarkably active. It had been her fortune to possess a finer mind
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|
than most of the persons among whom her lot was cast; to have a larger
|
|
perception of surrounding facts and to care for knowledge that was
|
|
tinged with the unfamiliar. It is true that among her contemporaries
|
|
she passed for a young woman of extraordinary profundity; for these
|
|
excellent people never withheld their admiration from a reach of
|
|
intellect of which they themselves were not conscious, and spoke of
|
|
Isabel as a prodigy of learning, a creature reported to have read
|
|
the classic authors- in translations. Her paternal aunt, Mrs.
|
|
Varian, once spread the rumour that Isabel was writing a book- Mrs.
|
|
Varian having a reverence for books, and averred that the girl would
|
|
distinguish herself in print. Mrs. Varian thought highly of
|
|
literature, for which she entertained that esteem that is connected
|
|
with a sense of privation. Her own large house, remarkable for its
|
|
assortment of mosaic tables and decorated ceilings, was unfurnished
|
|
with a library, and in the way of printed volumes contained nothing
|
|
but half a dozen novels in paper on a shelf in the apartment of one of
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|
the Miss Varians. Practically, Mrs. Varian's acquaintance with
|
|
literature was confined to The New York Interviewer; as she very
|
|
justly said, after you had read the Interviewer you had lost all faith
|
|
in culture. Her tendency, with this, was rather to keep the
|
|
Interviewer out of the way of her daughters; she was determined to
|
|
bring them up properly, and they read nothing at all. Her impression
|
|
with regard to Isabel's labours was quite illusory; the girl had never
|
|
attempted to write a book and had no desire for the laurels of
|
|
authorship. She had no talent for expression and too little of the
|
|
consciousness of genius; she only had a general idea that people
|
|
were right when they treated her as if she were rather superior.
|
|
Whether or no she were superior, people were right in admiring her
|
|
if they thought her so; for it seemed to her often that her mind moved
|
|
more quickly than theirs, and this encouraged an impatience that might
|
|
easily be confounded with superiority. It may be affirmed without
|
|
delay that Isabel was probably very liable to the sin of
|
|
self-esteem; she often surveyed with complacency the field of her
|
|
own nature; she was in the habit of taking for granted, on scanty
|
|
evidence, that she was right; she treated herself to occasions of
|
|
homage. Meanwhile her errors and delusions were frequently such as a
|
|
biographer interested in preserving the dignity of his subject must
|
|
shrink from specifying. Her thoughts were a tangle of vague outlines
|
|
which had never been corrected by the judgement of people speaking
|
|
with authority. In matters of opinion she had had her own way, and
|
|
it had led her into a thousand ridiculous zigzags. At moments she
|
|
discovered she was grotesquely wrong, and then she treated herself
|
|
to a week of passionate humility. After this she held her head
|
|
higher than ever again; for it was of no use, she had an
|
|
unquenchable desire to think well of herself. She had a theory that it
|
|
was only under this provision life was worth living; that one should
|
|
be one of the best, should be conscious of a fine organization (she
|
|
couldn't help knowing her organization was fine), should move in a
|
|
realm of light, of natural wisdom, of happy impulse, of inspiration
|
|
gracefully chronic. It was almost as unnecessary to cultivate doubt of
|
|
one's self as to cultivate doubt of one's best friend: one should
|
|
try to be one's own best friend and to give one's self, in this
|
|
manner, distinguished company. The girl had a certain nobleness of
|
|
imagination which rendered her a good many services and played her a
|
|
great many tricks. She spent half her time in thinking of beauty and
|
|
bravery and magnanimity; she had a fixed determination to regard the
|
|
world as a place of brightness, of free expansion, of irresistible
|
|
action: she held it must be detestable to be afraid or ashamed. She
|
|
had an infinite hope that she should never do anything wrong. She
|
|
had resented so strongly, after discovering them, her mere errors of
|
|
feeling (the discovery always made her tremble as if she had escaped
|
|
from a trap which might have caught her and smothered her) that the
|
|
chance of inflicting a sensible injury upon another person,
|
|
presented only as a contingency, caused her at moments to hold her
|
|
breath. That always struck her as the worst thing that could happen to
|
|
her. On the whole, reflectively, she was in no uncertainty about the
|
|
things that were wrong. She had no love of their look, but when she
|
|
fixed them hard she recognized them. It was wrong to be mean, to be
|
|
jealous, to be false, to be cruel; she had seen very little of the
|
|
evil of the world, but she had seen women who lied and who tried to
|
|
hurt each other. Seeing such things had quickened her high spirit;
|
|
it seemed indecent not to scorn them. Of course the danger of a high
|
|
spirit was the danger of inconsistency- the danger of keeping up the
|
|
flag after the place has surrendered; a sort of behaviour so crooked
|
|
as to be almost a dishonour to the flag. But Isabel, who knew little
|
|
of the sorts of artillery to which young women are exposed,
|
|
flattered herself that such contradictions would never be noted in her
|
|
own conduct. Her life should always be in harmony with the most
|
|
pleasing impression she should produce; she would be what she
|
|
appeared, and she would appear what she was. Sometimes she went so far
|
|
as to wish that she might find herself some day in a difficult
|
|
position, so that she should have the pleasure of being as heroic as
|
|
the occasion demanded. Altogether, with her meagre knowledge, her
|
|
inflated ideals, her confidence at once innocent and dogmatic, her
|
|
temper at once exacting and indulgent, her mixture of curiosity and
|
|
fastidiousness, of vivacity and indifference, her desire to look
|
|
very well and to be if possible even better, her determination to see,
|
|
to try, to know, her combination of the delicate, desultory,
|
|
flame-like spirit and the eager and personal creature of conditions:
|
|
she would be an easy victim of scientific criticism if she were not
|
|
intended to awaken on the reader's part an impulse more tender and
|
|
more purely expectant.
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|
|
|
It was one of her theories that Isabel Archer was very fortunate
|
|
in being independent, and that she ought to make some very enlightened
|
|
use of that state. She never called it the state of solitude, much
|
|
less of singleness; she thought such descriptions weak, and,
|
|
besides, her sister Lily constantly urged her to come and abide. She
|
|
had a friend whose acquaintance she had made shortly before her
|
|
father's death, who offered so high an example of useful activity that
|
|
Isabel always thought of her as a model. Henrietta Stackpole had the
|
|
advantage of an admired ability; she was thoroughly launched in
|
|
journalism, and her letters to the Interviewer, from Washington,
|
|
Newport, the White Mountains and other places, were universally
|
|
quoted. Isabel pronounced them with confidence "ephemeral," but she
|
|
esteemed the courage, energy and good-humour of the writer, who,
|
|
without parents and without property, had adopted three of the
|
|
children of an infirm and widowed sister and was paying their
|
|
school-bills out of the proceeds of her literary labour. Henrietta was
|
|
in the van of progress and had clear-cut views on most subjects; her
|
|
cherished desire had long been to come to Europe and write a series of
|
|
letters to the Interviewer from the radical point of view- an
|
|
enterprise the less difficult as she knew perfectly in advance what
|
|
her opinions would be and to how many objections most European
|
|
institutions lay open. When she heard that Isabel was coming she
|
|
wished to start at once; thinking, naturally, that it would be
|
|
delightful the two should travel together. She had been obliged,
|
|
however, to postpone this enterprise. She thought Isabel a glorious
|
|
creature, and had spoken of her covertly in some of her letters,
|
|
though she never mentioned the fact to her friend, who would not
|
|
have taken pleasure in it and was not a regular student of the
|
|
Interviewer. Henrietta, for Isabel, was chiefly a proof that a woman
|
|
might suffice to herself and be happy. Her resources were of the
|
|
obvious kind; but even if one had not the journalistic talent and a
|
|
genius for guessing, as Henrietta said, what the public was going to
|
|
want, one was not therefore to conclude that one had no vocation, no
|
|
beneficent aptitude of any sort, and resign one's self to being
|
|
frivolous and hollow. Isabel was stoutly determined not to be
|
|
hollow. If one should wait with the right patience one would find some
|
|
happy work to one's hand. Of course, among her theories, this young
|
|
lady was not without a collection of views on the subject of marriage.
|
|
The first on the list was a conviction of the vulgarity of thinking
|
|
too much of it. From lapsing into eagerness on this point she
|
|
earnestly prayed she might be delivered; she held that a woman ought
|
|
to be able to live to herself, in the absence of exceptional
|
|
flimsiness, and that it was perfectly possible to be happy without the
|
|
society of a more or less coarse-minded person of another sex. The
|
|
girl's prayer was very sufficiently answered; something pure and proud
|
|
that there was in her- something cold and dry an unappreciated
|
|
suitor with a taste for analysis might have called it- had hitherto
|
|
kept her from any great vanity of conjecture on the article of
|
|
possible husbands. Few of the men she saw seemed worth a ruinous
|
|
expenditure, and it made her smile to think that one of them should
|
|
present himself as an incentive to hope and a reward of patience. Deep
|
|
in her soul- it was the deepest thing there- lay a belief that if a
|
|
certain light should dawn she could give herself completely; but
|
|
this image, on the whole, was too formidable to be attractive.
|
|
Isabel's thoughts hovered about it, but they seldom rested on it long;
|
|
after a little it ended in alarms. It often seemed to her that she
|
|
thought too much about herself; you could have made her colour, any
|
|
day in the year, by calling her a rank egoist. She was always planning
|
|
out her development, desiring her perfection, observing her
|
|
progress. Her nature had, in her conceit, a certain garden-like
|
|
quality, a suggestion of perfume and murmuring boughs, of shady bowers
|
|
and lengthening vistas, which made her feel that introspection was,
|
|
after all, an exercise in the open air, and that a visit to the
|
|
recesses of one's spirit was harmless when one returned from it with a
|
|
lapful of roses. But she was often reminded that there were other
|
|
gardens in the world than those of her remarkable soul, and that there
|
|
were moreover a great many places which were not gardens at all-
|
|
only dusky pestiferous tracts, planted thick with ugliness and misery.
|
|
In the current of that repaid episode on curiosity on which she had
|
|
lately been floating, which had conveyed her to this beautiful old
|
|
England and might carry her much further still, she often checked
|
|
herself with the thought of the thousands of people who were less
|
|
happy than herself- a thought which for the moment made her fine, full
|
|
consciousness appear a kind of immodesty. What should one do with
|
|
the misery of the world in a scheme of the agreeable for one's self?
|
|
It must be confessed that this question never held her long. She was
|
|
too young, too impatient to live, too unacquainted with pain. She
|
|
always returned to her theory that a young woman whom after all
|
|
every one thought clever should begin by getting a general
|
|
impression of life. This impression was necessary to prevent mistakes,
|
|
and after it should be secured she might make the unfortunate
|
|
condition of others a subject of special attention.
|
|
|
|
England was a revelation to her, and she found herself as diverted
|
|
as a child at a pantomime. In her infantine excursions to Europe she
|
|
had seen only the Continent, and seen it from the nursery window;
|
|
Paris, not London, was her father's Mecca, and into many of his
|
|
interests there his children had naturally not entered. The images
|
|
of that time moreover had grown faint and remote, and the old-world
|
|
quality in everything that she now saw had all the charm of
|
|
strangeness. Her uncle's house seemed a picture made real; no
|
|
refinement of the agreeable was lost upon Isabel; the rich
|
|
perfection of Gardencourt at once revealed a world and gratified a
|
|
need. The large, low rooms, with brown ceilings and dusky corners, the
|
|
deep embrasures and curious casements, the quiet light on dark,
|
|
polished panels, the deep greenness outside, that seemed always
|
|
peeping in, the sense of well-ordered privacy in the centre of a
|
|
"property"- a place where sounds were felicitously accidental, where
|
|
the tread was muffled by the earth itself and in the thick mild air
|
|
all friction dropped out of contact and all shrillness out of talk-
|
|
these things were much to the taste of our young lady, whose taste
|
|
played a considerable part in her emotions. She formed a fast
|
|
friendship with her uncle, and often sat by his chair when he had
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had it moved out to the lawn. He passed hours in the open air, sitting
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with folded hands like a placid, homely household god, a god of
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service, who had done his work and received his wages and was trying
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to grow used to weeks and months made up only of off-days. Isabel
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amused him more than she suspected- the effect she produced upon
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people was often different from what she supposed- and he frequently
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gave himself the pleasure of making her chatter. It was by this term
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that he qualified her conversation, which had much of the "point"
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observable in that of the young ladies of her country, to whom the ear
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of the world is more directly presented than to their sisters in other
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lands. Like the mass of American girls Isabel had been encouraged to
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express herself; her remarks had been attended to; she had been
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expected to have emotions and opinions. Many of her opinions had
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doubtless but a slender value, many of her emotions passed away in the
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utterance; but they had left a trace in giving her the habit of
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seeming at least to feel and think, and in imparting moreover to her
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words when she was really moved that prompt vividness which so many
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people had regarded as a sign of superiority. Mr. Touchett used to
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think that she reminded him of his wife when his wife was in her
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teens. It was because she was fresh and natural and quick to
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understand, to speak- so many characteristics of her niece- that he
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had fallen in love with Mrs. Touchett. He never expressed this analogy
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to the girl herself, however; for if Mrs. Touchett had once been
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like Isabel, Isabel was not at all like Mrs. Touchett. The old man was
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full of kindness for her; it was a long time, as he said, since they
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had had any young life in the house; and our rustling, quickly-moving,
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clear-voiced heroine was as agreeable to his sense as the sound of
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flowing water. He wanted to do something for her and wished she
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would ask it of him. She would ask nothing but questions; it is true
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that of these she asked a quantity. Her uncle had a great fund of
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answers, though her pressure sometimes came in forms that puzzled him.
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She questioned him immensely about England, about the British
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constitution, the English character, the state of politics, the
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manners and customs of the royal family, the peculiarities of the
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aristocracy, the way of living and thinking of his neighbours; and
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in begging to be enlightened on these points she usually enquired
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whether they corresponded with the descriptions in the books. The
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old man always looked at her a little with his fine dry smile while he
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smoothed down the shawl spread across his legs.
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"The books?" he once said; "well, I don't know much about the books.
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You must ask Ralph about that. I've always ascertained for myself- got
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my information in the natural form. I never asked many questions even;
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I just kept quiet and took notice. Of course I've had very good
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opportunities- better than what a young lady would naturally have. I'm
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of an inquisitive disposition, though you mightn't think it if you
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were to watch me: however much you might watch me I should be watching
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you more. I've been watching these people for upwards of thirty-five
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|
years, and I don't hesitate to say that I've acquired considerable
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information. It's a very fine country on the whole- finer perhaps than
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what we give it credit for on the other side. There are several
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improvements I should like to see introduced; but the necessity of
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them doesn't seem to be generally felt as yet. When the necessity of a
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thing is generally felt they usually manage to accomplish it; but they
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seem to feel pretty comfortable about waiting till then. I certainly
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feel more at home among them than I expected to when I first came
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over; I suppose it's because I've had a considerable degree of
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success. When you're successful you naturally feel more at home."
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"Do you suppose that if I'm successful I shall feel at home?" Isabel
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asked.
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"I should think it very probable, and you certainly will be
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successful. They like American young ladies very much over here;
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they show them a great deal of kindness. But you mustn't feel too much
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at home, you know."
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"Oh, I'm by no means sure it will satisfy me," Isabel judicially
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emphasized. "I like the place very much, but I'm not sure I shall like
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the people."
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"The people are very good people; especially if you like them."
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"I've no doubt they're good," Isabel rejoined; "but are they
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pleasant in society? They won't rob me nor beat me; but will they make
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themselves agreeable to me? That's what I like people to do. I don't
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hesitate to say so, because I always appreciate it. I don't believe
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they're very nice to girls; they're not nice to them in the novels."
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"I don't know about the novels," said Mr. Touchett. "I believe the
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novels have a great deal of ability, but I don't suppose they're
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very accurate. We once had a lady who wrote novels staying here; she
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was a friend of Ralph's and he asked her down. She was very
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|
positive, quite up to everything; but she was not the sort of person
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you could depend on for evidence. Too free a fancy- I suppose that was
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|
it. She afterwards published a work of fiction in which she was
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understood to have given a representation- something in the nature
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|
of a caricature, as you might say- of my unworthy self. I didn't
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read it, but Ralph just handed me the book with the principal passages
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|
marked. It was understood to be a description of my conversation;
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|
American peculiarities, nasal twang, Yankee notions, stars and
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|
stripes. Well, it was not at all accurate; she couldn't have
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|
listened very attentively. I had no objection to her giving a report
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|
of my conversation, if she liked; but I didn't like the idea that
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|
she hadn't taken the trouble to listen to it. Of course I talk like an
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|
American- I can't talk like a Hottentot. However I talk, I've made
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|
them understand me pretty well over here. But I don't talk like the
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|
old gentleman in that lady's novel. He wasn't an American; we wouldn't
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|
have him over there at any price. I just mention that fact to show you
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|
that they're not always accurate. Of course, as I've no daughters, and
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|
as Mrs. Touchett resides in Florence, I haven't had much chance to
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|
notice about the young ladies. It sometimes appears as if the young
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|
women in the lower class were not very well treated; but I guess their
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|
position is better in the upper and even to some extent in the
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|
middle."
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"Gracious," Isabel exclaimed; "how many classes have they? About
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|
fifty, I suppose."
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"Well, I don't know that I ever counted them. I never took much
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|
notice of the classes. That's the advantage of being an American here;
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|
you don't belong to any class."
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"I hope so," said Isabel. "Imagine one's belonging to an English
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|
class!"
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"Well, I guess some of them are pretty comfortable- especially
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|
towards the top. But for me there are only two classes: the people I
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|
trust and the people I don't. Of those two, my dear Isabel, you belong
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|
to the first."
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"I'm much obliged to you," said the girl quickly. Her way of
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|
taking compliments seemed sometimes rather dry; she got rid of them as
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|
rapidly as possible. But as regards this she was sometimes
|
|
misjudged, she was thought insensible to them, whereas in fact she was
|
|
simply unwilling to show how infinitely they pleased her. To show that
|
|
was to show too much. "I'm sure the English are very conventional,"
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|
she added.
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"They've got everything pretty well fixed," Mr. Touchett admitted.
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|
"It's all settled beforehand- they don't leave it to the last moment."
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"I don't like to have everything settled beforehand," said the girl.
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|
"I like more unexpectedness."
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Her uncle seemed amused at her distinctness of preference. "Well,
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|
it's settled beforehand that you'll have great success," he
|
|
rejoined. "I suppose you'll like that."
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"I shall not have success if they're too stupidly conventional.
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I'm not in the least stupidly conventional. I'm just the contrary.
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That's what they won't like."
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"No, no, you're all wrong," said the old man. "You can't tell what
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|
they'll like. They're very inconsistent; that's their principal
|
|
interest."
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|
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"Ah well," said Isabel, standing before her uncle with her hands
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|
clasped about the belt of her black dress and looking up and down
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the lawn- "that will suit me perfectly!"
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CHAPTER 7
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The two amused themselves, time and again, with talking of the
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|
attitude of the British public as if the young lady had been in a
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|
position to appeal to it; but in fact the British public remained
|
|
for the present profoundly indifferent to Miss Isabel Archer, whose
|
|
fortune had dropped her, as her cousin said, into the dullest house in
|
|
England. Her gouty uncle received very little company, and Mrs.
|
|
Touchett, not having cultivated relations with her husband's
|
|
neighbours, was not warranted in expecting visits from them. She
|
|
had, however, a peculiar taste; she liked to receive cards. For what
|
|
is usually called social intercourse she had very little relish; but
|
|
nothing pleased her more than to find her hall-table whitened with
|
|
oblong morsels of symbolic pasteboard. She flattered herself that
|
|
she was a very just woman, and had mastered the sovereign truth that
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|
nothing in this world is got for nothing. She had played no social
|
|
part as mistress of Gardencourt, and it was not to be supposed that,
|
|
in the surrounding country, a minute account should be kept of her
|
|
comings and goings. But it is by no means certain that she did not
|
|
feel it to be wrong that so little notice was taken of them and that
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|
her failure (really very gratuitous) to make herself important in
|
|
the neighbourhood had, not much to do with the acrimony of her
|
|
allusions to her husband's adopted country. Isabel presently found
|
|
herself in the singular situation of defending the British
|
|
constitution against her aunt; Mrs. Touchett having formed the habit
|
|
of sticking pins into this venerable instrument. Isabel always felt an
|
|
impulse to pull out the pins; not that she imagined they inflicted any
|
|
damage on the tough old parchment, but because it seemed to her aunt
|
|
might make better use of her sharpness. She was very critical herself-
|
|
it was incidental to her age, her sex and her nationality; but she was
|
|
very sentimental as well, and there was something in Mrs. Touchett's
|
|
dryness that set her own moral fountains flowing.
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|
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|
"Now what's your point of view?" she asked of her aunt. "When you
|
|
criticize everything here you should have a point of view. Yours
|
|
doesn't seem to be American- you thought everything over there so
|
|
disagreeable. When I criticize I have mine; it's thoroughly American!"
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|
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|
"My dear young lady," said Mrs. Touchett, "there are as many
|
|
points of view in the world as there are people of sense to take them.
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|
You may say that doesn't make them very numerous! American? Never in
|
|
the world; that's shockingly narrow. My point of view, thank God, is
|
|
personal!"
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|
|
|
Isabel thought this a better answer than she admitted; it was a
|
|
tolerable description of her own manner of judging, but it would not
|
|
have sounded well for her to say so. On the lips of a person less
|
|
advanced in life and less enlightened by experience than Mrs. Touchett
|
|
such a declaration would savour of immodesty, even of arrogance. She
|
|
risked it nevertheless in talking with Ralph, with whom she talked a
|
|
great deal and with whom her conversation was of a sort that gave a
|
|
large license to extravagance. Her cousin used, as the phrase is, to
|
|
chaff her; he very soon established with her a reputation for treating
|
|
everything as a joke, and he was not a man to neglect the privileges
|
|
such a reputation conferred. She accused him of an odious want of
|
|
seriousness, of laughing at all things, beginning with himself. Such
|
|
slender faculty of reverence as he possessed centred wholly upon his
|
|
father; for the rest, he exercised his wit indifferently upon his
|
|
father's son, this gentleman's weak lungs, his useless life, his
|
|
fantastic mother, his friends (Lord Warburton in especial), his
|
|
adopted, and his native country, his charming new-found cousin. "I
|
|
keep a band of music in my ante-room," he said once to her. "It has
|
|
orders to play without stopping; it renders me two excellent services.
|
|
It keeps the sounds of the world from reaching the private apartments,
|
|
and it makes the world think that dancing's going on within." It was
|
|
dance-music indeed that you usually heard when you came within
|
|
ear-shot of Ralph's band; the liveliest waltzes seemed to float upon
|
|
the air. Isabel often found herself irritated by this perpetual
|
|
fiddling; she would have liked to pass through the ante-room, as her
|
|
cousin called it, and enter the private apartments. It mattered little
|
|
that he had assured her they were a very dismal place; she would
|
|
have been glad to undertake to sweep them and set them in order. It
|
|
was but half-hospitality to let her remain outside; to punish him
|
|
for which Isabel administered innumerable taps with the ferule of
|
|
her straight young wit. It must be said that her wit was exercised
|
|
to a large extent in self-defence, for her cousin amused himself
|
|
with calling her "Columbia" and accusing her of a patriotism so heated
|
|
that it scorched. He drew a caricature of her in which she was
|
|
represented as a very pretty young woman dressed, on the lines of
|
|
the prevailing fashion, in the folds of the national banner.
|
|
Isabel's chief dread in life at this period of her development was
|
|
that she should appear narrow-minded; what she feared next
|
|
afterwards was that she should really be so. But she nevertheless made
|
|
no scruple of abounding in her cousin's sense and pretending to sigh
|
|
for the charms of her native land. She would be as American as it
|
|
pleased him to regard her, and if he chose to laugh at her she would
|
|
give him plenty of occupation. She defended England against his
|
|
mother, but when Ralph sang its praises on purpose, as she said, to
|
|
work her up, she found herself able to differ from him on a variety of
|
|
points. In fact, the quality of this small ripe country seemed as
|
|
sweet to her as the taste of an October pear; and her satisfaction was
|
|
at the root of the good spirits which enabled her to take her cousin's
|
|
chaff and return it in kind. If her good-humour flagged at moments
|
|
it was not because she thought herself ill-used, but because she
|
|
suddenly felt sorry for Ralph. It seemed to her he was talking as a
|
|
blind and had little heart in what he said.
|
|
|
|
"I don't know what's the matter with you," she observed to him once;
|
|
"but I suspect you're a great humbug."
|
|
|
|
"That's your privilege," Ralph answered, who had not been used to
|
|
being so crudely addressed.
|
|
|
|
"I don't know what you care for; I don't think you care for
|
|
anything. You don't really care for England when you praise it; you
|
|
don't care for America even when you pretend to abuse it."
|
|
|
|
"I care for nothing but you, dear cousin," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"If I could believe even that, I should be very glad."
|
|
|
|
"Ah well, I should hope so!" the young man exclaimed.
|
|
|
|
Isabel might have believed it and not have been far from the
|
|
truth. He thought a great deal about her; she was constantly present
|
|
to his mind. At a time when his thoughts had been a good deal of a
|
|
burden to him her sudden arrival, which promised nothing and was an
|
|
open-handed gift of fate, had refreshed and quickened them, given them
|
|
wings and something to fly for. Poor Ralph had been for many weeks
|
|
steeped in melancholy; his outlook, habitually sombre, lay under the
|
|
shadow of a deeper cloud. He had grown anxious about his father, whose
|
|
gout, hitherto confined to his legs, had begun to ascend into
|
|
regions more vital. The old man had been gravely ill in the spring,
|
|
and the doctors had whispered to Ralph that another attack would be
|
|
less easy to deal with. Just now he appeared disburdened of pain,
|
|
but Ralph could not rid himself of a suspicion that this was a
|
|
subterfuge of the enemy, who was waiting to take him off his guard. If
|
|
the manoeuvre should succeed there would be little hope of any great
|
|
resistance. Ralph had always taken for granted that his father would
|
|
survive him- that his own name would be the first grimly called. The
|
|
father and son had been close companions, and the idea of being left
|
|
alone with the remnant of a tasteless life on his hands was not
|
|
gratifying to the young man, who had always and tacitly counted upon
|
|
his elder's help in making the best of a poor business. At the
|
|
prospect of losing his great motive Ralph lost indeed his one
|
|
inspiration. If they might die at the same time it would be all very
|
|
well; but without the encouragement of his father's society he
|
|
should barely have patience to await his own turn. He had not the
|
|
incentive of feeling that he was indispensable to his mother; it was a
|
|
rule with his mother to have no regrets. He bethought himself of
|
|
course that it had been a small kindness to his father to wish that,
|
|
of the two, the active rather than the passive party should know the
|
|
felt wound; he remembered that the old man had always treated his
|
|
own forecast of an early end as a clever fallacy, which he should be
|
|
delighted to discredit so far as he might by dying first. But of the
|
|
two triumphs, that of refuting a sophistical son and that of holding
|
|
on a while longer to a state of being which, with all abatements, he
|
|
enjoyed, Ralph deemed it no sin to hope the latter might be vouchsafed
|
|
to Mr. Touchett.
|
|
|
|
These were nice questions, but Isabel's arrival put a stop to his
|
|
puzzling over them. It even suggested there might be a compensation
|
|
for the intolerable ennui of surviving his genial sire. He wondered
|
|
whether he were harbouring "love" for this spontaneous young woman
|
|
from Albany; but he judged that on the whole he was not. After he
|
|
had known her for a week he quite made up his mind to this, and
|
|
every day he felt a little more sure. Lord Warburton had been right
|
|
about her; she was a really interesting little figure. Ralph
|
|
wondered how their neighbour had found it out so soon; and then he
|
|
said it was only another proof of his friend's high abilities, which
|
|
he had always greatly admired. If his cousin were to be nothing more
|
|
than an entertainment to him, Ralph was conscious she was an
|
|
entertainment of a high order. "A character like that," he said to
|
|
himself,- "a real little passionate force to see at play is the finest
|
|
thing in nature." It's finer than the finest work of art- than a Greek
|
|
bas-relief, than a great Titian, than a Gothic cathedral. It's very
|
|
pleasant to be so well treated where one had least looked for it. I
|
|
had never been more blue, more bored, than for a week before she came;
|
|
I had never expected less that anything pleasant would happen.
|
|
Suddenly I receive a Titian, by the post, to hang on my wall- a
|
|
Greek bas-relief to stick over my chimney-piece. The key of a
|
|
beautiful edifice is thrust into my hand, and I'm told to walk in
|
|
and admire. My poor boy, you've been sadly ungrateful, and now you had
|
|
better keep very quiet and never grumble again." The sentiment of
|
|
these reflexions was very just; but it was not exactly true that Ralph
|
|
Touchett had had a key put into his hand. His cousin was a very
|
|
brilliant girl, who would take, as he said, a good deal of knowing;
|
|
but she needed the knowing, and his attitude with regard to her,
|
|
though it was contemplative and critical, was not judicial. He
|
|
surveyed the edifice from the outside and admired it greatly; he
|
|
looked in at the windows and received an impression of proportions
|
|
equally fair. But he felt that he saw it only by glimpses and that
|
|
he had not yet stood under the roof. The door was fastened, and though
|
|
he had keys in his pocket he had a conviction that none of them
|
|
would fit. She was intelligent and generous; it was a fine free
|
|
nature; but what was she going to do with herself? This question was
|
|
irregular, for with most women one had no occasion to ask it. Most
|
|
women did with themselves nothing at all; they waited, attitudes
|
|
more or less gracefully passive, for a man to come that way and
|
|
furnish them with a destiny. Isabel's originality was that she gave
|
|
one an impression of having intentions of her own. "Whenever she
|
|
executes them," said Ralph, "may I be there to see!"
|
|
|
|
It devolved upon him of course to do the honours of the place. Mr.
|
|
Touchett was confined to his chair, and his wife's position was that
|
|
of rather a grim visitor; so that in the line of conduct that opened
|
|
itself to Ralph duty and inclination were harmoniously mixed. He was
|
|
not a great walker, but he strolled about the grounds with his cousin-
|
|
a pastime for which the weather remained favourable with a persistency
|
|
not allowed for in Isabel's somewhat lugubrious prevision of the
|
|
climate; and in the long afternoons, of which the length was but the
|
|
measure of her gratified eagerness, they took a boat on the river, the
|
|
dear little river, as Isabel called it, where the opposite shore
|
|
seemed still a part of the foreground of the landscape; or drove
|
|
over the country in a phaeton- a low, capacious, thick-wheeled phaeton
|
|
formerly much used by Mr. Touchett, but which he had now ceased to
|
|
enjoy. Isabel enjoyed it largely and, handling the reins in a manner
|
|
which approved itself to the groom as "knowing," was never weary of
|
|
driving her uncle's capital horses through winding lanes and byways
|
|
full of the rural incidents she had confidently expected to find; past
|
|
cottages thatched and timbered, past ale-houses latticed and sanded,
|
|
past patches of ancient common and glimpses of empty parks, between
|
|
hedgerows made thick by midsummer. When they reached home they usually
|
|
found tea had been served on the lawn and that Mrs. Touchett had not
|
|
shrunk from the extremity of handing her husband his cup. But the
|
|
two for the most part sat silent; the old man with his head back and
|
|
his eyes closed, his wife occupied with her knitting and wearing
|
|
that appearance of rare profundity with which some ladies consider the
|
|
movement of their needles.
|
|
|
|
One day, however, a visitor had arrived. The two young persons,
|
|
after spending an hour on the river, strolled back to the house and
|
|
perceived Lord Warburton sitting under the trees and engaged in
|
|
conversation, of which even at a distance the desultory character
|
|
was appreciable, with Mrs. Touchett. He had driven over from his own
|
|
place with a portmanteau and had asked, as the father and son often
|
|
invited him to do, for a dinner and a lodging. Isabel, seeing him
|
|
for half an hour on the day of her arrival, had discovered in this
|
|
brief space that she liked him; he had indeed rather sharply
|
|
registered himself on her fine sense and she had thought of him
|
|
several times. She had hoped she should see him again- hoped too
|
|
that she should see a few others. Gardencourt was not dull; the
|
|
place itself was sovereign, her uncle was more and more a sort of
|
|
golden grandfather, and Ralph was unlike any cousin she had ever
|
|
encountered- her idea of cousins having tended to gloom. Then her
|
|
impressions were still so fresh and so quickly renewed that there
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was as yet hardly a hint of vacancy in the view. But Isabel had need
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to remind herself that she was interested in human nature and that her
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foremost hope in coming abroad had been that she should see a great
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many people. When Ralph said to her, as he had done several times,
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"I wonder you find this endurable; you ought to see some of the
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neighbours and some of our friends, because we have really got a
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few, though you would never suppose it"- when he offered to invite
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what he called a "lot of people" and make her acquainted with
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English society, she encouraged the hospitable impulse and promised in
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advance to hurl herself into the fray. Little, however, for the
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present, had come of his offers, and it may be confided to the
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reader that if the young man delayed to carry them out it was
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because he found the labour of providing for his companion by no means
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so severe as to require extraneous help. Isabel had spoken to him very
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often about "specimens"; it was a word that played a considerable part
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in her vocabulary; she had given him to understand that she wished
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to see English society illustrated by eminent cases.
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"Well now, there's a specimen," he said to her as they walked up
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from the riverside and he recognized Lord Warburton.
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"A specimen of what?" asked the girl.
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"A specimen of an English gentleman."
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"Do you mean they're all like him?"
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"Oh no; they're not all like him."
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"He's a favourable specimen then," said Isabel; "because I'm sure
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he's nice."
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"Yes, he's very nice. And he's very fortunate."
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The fortunate Lord Warburton exchanged a handshake with our
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heroine and hoped she was very well. "But I needn't ask that," he
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said, "since you've been handling the oars."
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"I've been rowing a little," Isabel answered; "but how should you
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know it?"
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"Oh, I know he doesn't row; he's too lazy," said his lordship,
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indicating Ralph Touchett with a laugh.
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"He has a good excuse for his laziness," Isabel rejoined, lowering
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her voice a little.
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"Ah, he has a good excuse for everything!" cried Lord Warburton,
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still with his sonorous mirth.
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"My excuse for not rowing is that my cousin rows so well," said
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Ralph. "She does everything well. She touches nothing that she doesn't
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adorn!"
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"It makes one want to be touched, Miss Archer," Lord Warburton
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declared.
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"Be touched in the right sense and you'll never look the worse for
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it," said Isabel, who, if it pleased her to hear it said that her
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accomplishments were numerous, was happily able to reflect that such
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complacency was not the indication of a feeble mind, inasmuch as there
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were several things in which she excelled. Her desire to think well of
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herself had at least the element of humility that it always needed
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to be supported by proof.
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Lord Warburton not only spent the night at Gardencourt, but he was
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persuaded to remain over the second day; and when the second day was
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ended he determined to postpone his departure till the morrow.
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During this period he addressed many of his remarks to Isabel, who
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accepted this evidence of his esteem with a very good grace. She found
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herself liking him extremely; the first impression he had made on
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her had had weight, but at the end of an evening spent in his
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society she scarce fell short of seeing him- though quite without
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luridity- as a hero of romance. She retired to rest with a sense of
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good fortune, with a quickened consciousness of possible felicities.
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"It's very nice to know two such charming people as those," she
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said, meaning by "those" her cousin and her cousin's friend. It must
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be added moreover that an incident had occurred which might have
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seemed to put her good-humour to the test. Mr. Touchett went to bed at
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half-past nine o'clock, but his wife remained in the drawing-room with
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the other members of the party. She prolonged her vigil for
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something less than an hour, and then, rising, observed to Isabel that
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it was time they should bid the gentlemen good-night. Isabel had as
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yet no desire to go to bed; the occasion wore, to her sense, a festive
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character, and feasts were not in the habit of terminating so early.
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So, without further thought, she replied, very simply-
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"Need I go, dear aunt? I'll come up in half an hour."
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"It's impossible I should wait for you," Mrs. Touchett answered.
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"Ah, you needn't wait! Ralph will light my candle," Isabel gaily
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engaged.
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"I'll light your candle; do let me light your candle, Miss
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Archer!" Lord Warburton exclaimed. "Only I beg it shall not be
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before midnight."
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Mrs. Touchett fixed her bright little eyes upon him a moment and
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transferred them coldly to her niece. "You can't stay alone with the
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gentlemen. You're not- you're not at your blest Albany, my dear."
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Isabel rose, blushing. "I wish I were," she said.
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"Oh, I say, mother!" Ralph broke out.
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"My dear Mrs. Touchett!" Lord Warburton murmured.
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"I didn't make your country, my lord," Mrs. Touchett said
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majestically. "I must take it as I find it."
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"Can't I stay with my own cousin?" Isabel enquired.
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"I'm not aware that Lord Warburton is your cousin."
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"Perhaps I had better go to bed!" the visitor suggested. "That
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will arrange it."
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Mrs. Touchett gave a little look of despair and sat down again. "Oh,
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if it's necessary I'll stay up till midnight."
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Ralph meanwhile handed Isabel her candlestick. He had been
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watching her; it had seemed to him her temper was involved- an
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accident that might be interesting. But if he had expected anything of
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a flare he was disappointed, for the girl simply laughed a little,
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nodded good-night and withdrew accompanied by her aunt. For himself he
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was annoyed at his mother, though he thought she was right.
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Above-stairs the two ladies separated at Mrs. Touchett's door.
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Isabel had said nothing on her way up.
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"Of course you're vexed at my interfering with you," said Mrs.
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Touchett.
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Isabel considered. "I'm not vexed, but I'm surprised- and a good
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deal mystified. Wasn't it proper I should remain in the drawing-room?"
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"Not in the least. Young girls here- in decent houses- don't sit
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alone with the gentlemen late at night."
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"You were very right to tell me then," said Isabel. "I don't
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understand it, but I'm very glad to know it."
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"I shall always tell you," her aunt answered, "whenever I see you
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taking what seems to me too much liberty."
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"Pray do; but I don't say I shall always think your remonstrance
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just."
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"Very likely not. You're too fond of your own ways."
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"Yes, I think I'm very fond of them. But I always want to know the
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things one shouldn't do."
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"So as to do them?" asked her aunt.
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"So as to choose," said Isabel.
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CHAPTER 8
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As she was devoted to romantic effects Lord Warburton ventured to
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express a hope that she would come some day and see his house, a
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very curious old place. He extracted from Mrs. Touchett a promise that
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she bring her niece to Lockleigh, and Ralph signified his
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willingness to attend the ladies if his father should be able to spare
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him. Lord Warburton assured our heroine that in the mean time his
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sisters, would come and see her. She knew something about his sisters,
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having sounded him, during the hours they spent together while he
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was at Gardencourt, on many points connected with his family. When
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Isabel was interested she asked a great many questions, and as her
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companion was a copious talker she urged him on this occasion by no
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means in vain. He told her he had four sisters and two brothers and
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had lost both his parents. The brothers and sisters were very good
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people- "not particularly clever, you know," he said, "but very decent
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and pleasant"; and he was so good as to hope Miss Archer might know
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them well. One of the brothers was in the Church, settled in the
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family living, that of Lockleigh, which was a heavy, sprawling parish,
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and was an excellent fellow in spite of his thinking differently
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from himself on every conceivable topic. And then Lord Warburton
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mentioned some of the opinions held by his brother, which were
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opinions Isabel had often heard expressed and that she supposed to
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be entertained by a considerable portion of the human family. Many
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of them indeed she supposed she had held herself, till he assured
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her she was quite mistaken, that it was really impossible, that she
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had doubtless imagined she entertained them, but that she might depend
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that, if she thought them over a little, she would find there was
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nothing in them. When she answered that she had already thought
|
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several of the questions involved over very attentively he declared
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|
that she was only another example of what he had often been struck
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|
with- the fact that, of all the people in the world, the Americans
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were the most grossly superstitious. They were rank Tories and bigots,
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|
every one of them; there were no conservatives like American
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|
conservatives. Her uncle and her cousin were there to prove it;
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|
nothing could be more mediaeval than many of their views; they had
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ideas that people in England nowadays were ashamed to confess to;
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|
and they had the impudence moreover, said his lordship, laughing, to
|
|
pretend they knew more about the needs and dangers of this poor dear
|
|
stupid old England than he who was born in it and owned a considerable
|
|
slice of it- the more shame to him! From all of which Isabel
|
|
gathered that Lord Warburton was a nobleman of the newest pattern, a
|
|
reformer, a radical, a contemner of ancient ways. His other brother,
|
|
who was in the army in India, was rather wild and pig-headed and had
|
|
not been of much use as yet but to make debts for Warburton to pay-
|
|
one of the most precious privileges of an elder brother. "I don't
|
|
think I shall pay any more," said her friend; "he lives a monstrous
|
|
deal better than I do, enjoys unheard-of luxuries and thinks himself a
|
|
much finer gentleman than I. As I'm a consistent radical I go in
|
|
only for equality; I don't go in for the superiority of the younger
|
|
brothers." Two of his four sisters, the second and fourth, were
|
|
married, one of them having done very well, as they said, the other
|
|
only so-so. The husband of the elder, Lord Haycock, was a very good
|
|
fellow, but unfortunately a horrid Tory; and his wife, like all good
|
|
English wives, was worse than her husband. The other had espoused a
|
|
smallish squire in Norfolk and, though married but the other day,
|
|
had already five children. This information and much more Lord
|
|
Warburton imparted to his young American listener, taking pains to
|
|
make many things clear and to lay bare to her apprehension the
|
|
peculiarities of English life. Isabel was often amused at his
|
|
explicitness and at the small allowance he seemed to make either for
|
|
her own experience or for her imagination. "He thinks I'm a
|
|
barbarian," she said, "and that I've never seen forks and spoons"; and
|
|
she used to ask him artless questions for the pleasure of hearing
|
|
him answer seriously. Then when he had fallen into the trap, "It's a
|
|
pity you can't see me in my war-paint and feathers," she remarked; "if
|
|
I had known how kind you are to the poor savages I would have
|
|
brought over my native costume!" Lord Warburton had travelled
|
|
through the United States and knew much more about them than Isabel;
|
|
he was so good as to say that America was the most charming country in
|
|
the world, but his recollections of it appeared to encourage the
|
|
idea that Americans in England would need to have a great many
|
|
things explained to them. "If I had only had you to explain things
|
|
to me in America!" he said. "I was rather puzzled in your country;
|
|
in fact I was quite bewildered, and the trouble was that the
|
|
explanations only puzzled me more. You know I think they often gave me
|
|
the wrong ones on purpose; they're rather clever about that over
|
|
there. But when I explain you can trust me; about what I tell you
|
|
there's no mistake." There was no mistake at least about his being
|
|
very intelligent and cultivated and knowing almost everything in the
|
|
world. Although he gave the most interesting and thrilling glimpses
|
|
Isabel felt he never did it to exhibit himself, and though he had
|
|
had rare chances and had tumbled in, as she put it, for high prizes,
|
|
he was as far as possible from making a merit of it. He had enjoyed
|
|
the best things of life, but they had not spoiled his sense of
|
|
proportion. His quality was a mixture of the effect of rich
|
|
experienced, so easily come by!- with a modesty at times almost
|
|
boyish; the sweet and wholesome savour of which- it was as agreeable
|
|
as something tasted- lost nothing from the addition of a tone of
|
|
responsible kindness.
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|
|
|
"I like your specimen English gentleman very much," Isabel said to
|
|
Ralph after Lord Warburton had gone.
|
|
|
|
"I like him too- I love him well," Ralph returned. "But I pity him
|
|
more."
|
|
|
|
Isabel looked at him askance. "Why, that seems to me his only fault-
|
|
that one can't pity him a little. He appears to have everything, to
|
|
know everything, to be everything."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, he's in a bad way!" Ralph insisted.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose you don't mean in health?"
|
|
|
|
"No, as to that he's detestably sound. What I mean is that he's a
|
|
man with a great position who's playing all sorts of tricks with it.
|
|
He doesn't take himself seriously."
|
|
|
|
"Does he regard himself as a joke?"
|
|
|
|
"Much worse; he regards himself as an imposition- as an abuse."
|
|
|
|
"Well, perhaps he is," said Isabel.
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|
|
|
"Perhaps he is- though on the whole I don't think so. But in that
|
|
case what's more pitiable than a sentient, self-conscious abuse
|
|
planted by other hands, deeply rooted but aching with a sense of its
|
|
injustice? For me, in his place, I could be as solemn as a statue of
|
|
Buddha. He occupies a position that appeals to my imagination. Great
|
|
responsibilities, great opportunities, great consideration, great
|
|
wealth, great power, a natural share in the public affairs of a
|
|
great country. But he's all in a muddle about himself, his position,
|
|
his power, and indeed about everything in the world. He's the victim
|
|
of a critical age; he has ceased to believe in himself and he
|
|
doesn't know what to believe in. When I attempt to tell him (because
|
|
if I were he I know very well what I should believe in) he calls me
|
|
a pampered bigot. I believe he seriously thinks me an awful
|
|
Philistine; he says I don't understand my time. I understand it
|
|
certainly better than he, who can neither abolish himself as a
|
|
nuisance nor maintain himself as an institution."
|
|
|
|
"He doesn't look very wretched," Isabel observed.
|
|
|
|
"Possibly not; though, being a man of a good deal of charming taste,
|
|
I think he often has uncomfortable hours. But what is it to say of a
|
|
being of his opportunities that he's not miserable? Besides, I believe
|
|
he is."
|
|
|
|
"I don't," said Isabel.
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|
|
|
"Well," her cousin rejoined, "if he isn't he ought to be!"
|
|
|
|
In the afternoon she spent an hour with her uncle on the lawn, where
|
|
the old man sat, as usual, with his shawl over his legs and his
|
|
large cup of diluted tea in his hands. In the course of conversation
|
|
he asked her what she thought of their late visitor.
|
|
|
|
Isabel was prompt. "I think he's charming."
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|
|
|
"He's a nice person," said Mr. Touchett, "but I don't recommend
|
|
you to fall in love with him."
|
|
|
|
"I shall not do it then; I shall never fall in love but on your
|
|
recommendation. Moreover," Isabel added, "my cousin gives me rather
|
|
a sad account of Lord Warburton."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, indeed? I don't know what there may be to say, but you must
|
|
remember that Ralph must talk."
|
|
|
|
"He thinks your friend's too subversive- or not subversive enough! I
|
|
don't quite understand which," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
The old man shook his head slowly, smiled and put down his cup. "I
|
|
don't know which either. He goes very far, but it's quite possible
|
|
he doesn't go far enough. He seems to want to do away with a good many
|
|
things, but he seems to want to remain himself. I suppose that's
|
|
natural, but rather inconsistent."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I hope he'll remain himself," said Isabel. "If he were to be
|
|
done away with his friends would miss him sadly."
|
|
|
|
"Well," said the old man, "I guess he'll stay and amuse his friends.
|
|
I should certainly miss him very much here at Gardencourt. He always
|
|
amuses me when he comes over, and I think he amuses himself as well.
|
|
There's a considerable number like him, round in society; they're very
|
|
fashionable just now. I don't know what they're trying to do-
|
|
whether they're trying to get up a revolution. I hope at any rate
|
|
they'll put it off till after I'm gone. You see they want to
|
|
disestablish everything; but I'm a pretty big landowner here, and I
|
|
don't want to be disestablished. I wouldn't have come over if I had
|
|
thought they were going to behave like that," Mr. Touchett went on
|
|
with expanding hilarity. "I came over because I thought England was
|
|
a safe country. I call it a regular fraud if they are going to
|
|
introduce any considerable changes; there'll be a large number
|
|
disappointed in that case."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I do hope they'll make a revolution!" Isabel exclaimed "I
|
|
should delight in seeing a revolution."
|
|
|
|
"Let me see," said her uncle, with a humorous intention; "I forget
|
|
whether you're on the side of the old or on the side of the new.
|
|
I've heard you take such opposite views."
|
|
|
|
"I'm on the side of both. I guess I'm a little on the side of
|
|
everything. In a revolution- after it was well begun- I think I should
|
|
be a high, proud loyalist. One sympathizes more with them, and they've
|
|
a chance to behave so exquisitely. I mean so picturesquely."
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|
|
|
"I don't know that I understand what you mean by behaving
|
|
picturesquely, but it seems to me that you do that always, my dear."
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|
|
"Oh, you lovely man, if I could believe that!" the girl interrupted.
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid, after all, you won't have the pleasure of going
|
|
gracefully to the guillotine here just now," Mr. Touchett went on. "If
|
|
you want to see a big outbreak you must pay us a long visit. You
|
|
see, when you come to the point it wouldn't suit them to be taken at
|
|
their word."
|
|
|
|
"Of whom are you speaking?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, I mean Lord Warburton and his friends- the radicals of the
|
|
upper class. Of course I only know the way it strikes me. They talk
|
|
about the changes, but I don't think they quite realize. You and I,
|
|
you know, we know what it is to have lived under democratic
|
|
institutions: I always thought them very comfortable, but I was used
|
|
to them from the first. And then I ain't a lord; you're a lady, my
|
|
dear, but I ain't a lord. Now over here I don't think it quite comes
|
|
home to them. It's a matter of every day and every hour, and I don't
|
|
think many of them would find it as pleasant as what they've got. Of
|
|
course if they want to try, it's their own business; but I expect they
|
|
won't try very hard."
|
|
|
|
"Don't you think they're sincere?" Isabel asked.
|
|
|
|
"Well, they want to feel earnest," Mr. Touchett allowed; "but it
|
|
seems as if they took it out in theories mostly. Their radical views
|
|
are a kind of amusement; they've got to have some amusement, and
|
|
they might have coarser tastes than that. You see they're very
|
|
luxurious, and these progressive ideas are about their biggest luxury.
|
|
They make them feel moral and yet don't damage their position. They
|
|
think a great deal of their position; don't let one of them ever
|
|
persuade you he doesn't, for if you were to proceed on that basis
|
|
you'd be pulled up very short."
|
|
|
|
Isabel followed her uncle's argument, which he unfolded with his
|
|
quaint distinctness, most attentively, and though she wag unacquainted
|
|
with the British aristocracy she found it in harmony with her
|
|
general impressions of human nature. But she felt moved to put in a
|
|
protest on Lord Warburton's behalf. "I don't believe Lord
|
|
Warburton's a humbug; I don't care what the others are. I should
|
|
like to see Lord Warburton put to the test."
|
|
|
|
"Heaven deliver me from my friends!" Mr. Touchett answered. "Lord
|
|
Warburton's a very amiable young man- a very fine young man. He has
|
|
a hundred thousand a year. He owns fifty thousand acres of the soil of
|
|
this little island and ever so many other things besides. He has
|
|
half a dozen houses to live in. He has a seat in Parliament as I
|
|
have one at my own dinner-table. He has elegant tastes- cares for
|
|
literature, for art, for science, for charming young ladies. The
|
|
most elegant is his taste for the new views. It affords him a great
|
|
deal of pleasure- more perhaps than anything else, except the young
|
|
ladies. His old house over there- what does he call it, Lockleigh?- is
|
|
very attractive; but I don't think it's as pleasant as this. That
|
|
doesn't matter, however- he has so many others. His views don't hurt
|
|
any one as far as I can see; they certainly don't hurt himself. And if
|
|
there were to be a revolution he would come off very easily. They
|
|
wouldn't touch him, they'd leave him as he is: he's too much liked."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, he couldn't be a martyr even if he wished!" Isabel sighed.
|
|
"That's a very poor position."
|
|
|
|
"He'll never be a martyr unless you make him one," said the old man.
|
|
|
|
Isabel shook her head; there might have been something laughable
|
|
in the fact that she did it with a touch of melancholy. "I shall never
|
|
make any one a martyr."
|
|
|
|
"You'll never be one, I hope."
|
|
|
|
"I hope not. But you don't pity Lord Warburton then as Ralph does?
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Her uncle looked at her a while with genial acuteness. "Yes, I do,
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after all!"
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CHAPTER 9
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The two Misses Molyneux, this nobleman's sisters, came presently
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to call upon her, and Isabel took a fancy to the young ladies, who
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appeared to her to show a most original stamp. It is true that when
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she described them to her cousin by that term he declared that no
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epithet could be less applicable than this to the two Misses Molyneux,
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since there were fifty thousand young women in England who exactly
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resembled them. Deprived of this advantage, however, Isabel's visitors
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retained that of an extreme sweetness and shyness of demeanour, and of
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having, as she thought, eyes like the balanced basins, the circles
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of "ornamental water," set, in parterres, among the geraniums.
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"They're not morbid, at any rate, whatever they are," our heroine
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said to herself; and she deemed this a great charm, for two or three
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of the friends of her girlhood had been regrettably open to the charge
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(they would have been so nice without it), to say nothing of
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Isabel's having occasionally suspected it as a tendency of her own.
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The Misses Molyneux were not in their first youth, but they had
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bright, fresh complexions and something of the smile of childhood.
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Yes, their eyes, which Isabel admired, were round, quiet and
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contented, and their figures, also of a generous roundness, were
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encased in sealskin jackets. Their friendliness was great, so great
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that they were almost embarrassed to show it; they seemed somewhat
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afraid of the young lady from the other side of the world and rather
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looked than spoke their good wishes. But they made it clear to her
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that they hoped she would come to luncheon at Lockleigh, where they
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lived with their brother, and then they might see her very, very
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often. They wondered if she wouldn't come over some day and sleep:
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they were expecting some people on the twenty-ninth, so perhaps she
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would come while the people were there.
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"I'm afraid it isn't any one very remarkable," said the elder
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sister; "but I dare say you'll take us as you find us."
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"I shall find you delightful; I think you're enchanting just as
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you are," replied Isabel, who often praised profusely.
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Her visitors flushed, and her cousin told her, after they were gone,
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that if she said such things to those poor girls they would think
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she was in some wild, free manner practising on them: he was sure it
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was the first time they had been called enchanting.
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"I can't help it," Isabel answered. "I think it's lovely to be so
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quiet and reasonable and satisfied. I should like to be like that."
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"Heaven forbid!" cried Ralph with ardour.
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"I mean to try and imitate them," said Isabel. "I want very much
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to see them at home."
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She had this pleasure a few days later, when, with Ralph and his
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mother, she drove over to Lockleigh. She found the Misses Molyneux
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sitting in a vast drawing-room (she perceived afterwards it was one of
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several) in a wilderness of faded chintz; they were dressed on this
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occasion in black velveteen. Isabel liked them even better at home
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than she had done at Gardencourt, and was more than ever struck with
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the fact that they were not morbid. It had seemed to her before that
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if they had a fault it was a want of play of mind; but she presently
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saw they were capable of deep emotion. Before luncheon she was alone
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with them for some time, on one side of the room, while Lord
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Warburton, at a distance, talked to Mrs. Touchett.
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"Is it true your brother's such a great radical?" Isabel asked.
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She knew it was true, but we have seen that her interest in human
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nature was keen, and she had a desire to draw the Misses Molyneux out.
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"Oh dear, yes; he's immensely advanced," said Mildred, the younger
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sister.
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"At the same time Warburton's very reasonable." Miss Molyneux
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observed.
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Isabel watched him a moment at the other side of the room; he was
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clearly trying hard to make himself agreeable to Mrs. Touchett.
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Ralph had met the frank advances of one of the dogs before the fire
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that the temperature of an English August, in the ancient expanses,
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had not made an impertinence. "Do you suppose your brother's sincere?"
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Isabel enquired with a smile.
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"Oh, he must be, you know!" Mildred exclaimed quickly, while the
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elder sister gazed at our heroine in silence.
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"Do you think he would stand the test?"
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"The test?"
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"I mean for instance having to give up all this."
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"Having to give up Lockleigh?" said Miss Molyneux, finding her
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voice.
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"Yes, and the other places; what are they called?"
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The two sisters exchanged an almost frightened glance. "Do you mean-
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do you mean on account of the expense?" the younger one asked.
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"I dare say he might let one or two of his houses," said the other.
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"Let them for nothing?" Isabel demanded.
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"I can't fancy his giving up his property," said Miss Molyneux.
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"Ah, I'm afraid he is an impostor!" Isabel returned. "Don't you
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think it's a false position?"
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Her companions, evidently, had lost themselves. "My brother
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position?" Miss Molyneux enquired.
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"It's thought a very good position," said the younger sister.
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"It's the first position in this part of the country."
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"I dare say you think me very irreverent," Isabel took occasion to
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remark. "I suppose you revere your brother and are rather afraid of
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him."
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"Of course one looks up to one's brother," said Miss Molyneux
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simply.
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"If you do that he must be very good- because you, evidently, are
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beautifully good."
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"He's most kind. It will never be known, the good he does."
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"His ability is known," Mildred added; "every one thinks it's
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immense."
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"Oh, I can see that," said Isabel. "But if I were he I should wish
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to fight to the death: I mean for the heritage of the past. I should
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hold it tight."
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"I think one ought to be liberal," Mildred argued gently. "We've
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always been so, even from the earliest times."
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"Ah well," said Isabel, "you've made a great success of it; I
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don't wonder you like it. I see you're very fond of crewels."
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When Lord Warburton showed her the house, after luncheon, seemed
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to her a matter of course that it should be a noble picture. Within,
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it had been a good deal modernized- some of its best points had lost
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their purity; but as they saw it from the gardens, a stout grey
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pile, of the softest, deepest, most weather-fretted hue, rising from a
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broad, still moat, it affected the young visitor as a castle in a
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legend. The day was cool and rather lustreless; the first note of
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autumn had been struck, and the watery sunshine rested on the walls in
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blurred and desultory gleams, washing them, as it were, in places
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tenderly chosen, where the ache of antiquity was keenest. Her host's
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brother, the Vicar, had come to luncheon, and Isabel had had five
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minutes' talk with him- time enough to institute a search for a rich
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ecclesiasticism and give it up as vain. The marks of the Vicar of
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Lockleigh were a big, athletic figure, a candid, natural
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countenance, a capacious appetite and a tendency to indiscriminate
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laughter. Isabel learned afterwards from her cousin that before taking
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orders he had been a mighty wrestler and that he was still, on
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occasion- in the privacy of the family circle as it were- quite
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capable of flooring his man. Isabel liked him- she was in the mood for
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liking everything; but her imagination was a good deal taxed to
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think of him as a source of spiritual aid. The whole party, on leaving
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lunch, went to walk in the grounds; but Lord Warburton exercised
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some ingenuity in engaging his least familiar guest in a stroll
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apart from the others.
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"I wish you to see the place properly, seriously," he said. "You
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can't do so if your attention is distracted by irrelevant gossip." His
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own conversation (though he told Isabel a good deal about the house,
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which had a very curious history) was not purely archaeological; he
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reverted at intervals to matters more personal- matters personal to
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the young lady as well as to himself. But at last, after a pause of
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some duration, returning for a moment to their ostensible theme,
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"Ah, well," he said, "I'm very glad indeed you like the old barrack. I
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wish you could see more of it- that you could stay here a while. My
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sisters have taken an immense fancy to you- if that would be any
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inducement."
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"There's no want of inducements," Isabel answered; "but I'm afraid I
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can't make engagements. I'm quite in my aunt's hands."
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"Ah, pardon me if I say I don't exactly believe that. I'm pretty
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sure you can do whatever you want."
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"I'm sorry if I make that impression on you; I don't think it's a
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nice impression to make."
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"It has the merit of permitting me to hope." And Lord Warburton
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paused a moment.
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"To hope what?"
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"That in future I may see you often."
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"Ah," said Isabel, "to enjoy that pleasure I needn't be so
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terribly emancipated."
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"Doubtless not; and yet, at the same time, I don't think your
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uncle likes me."
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"You're very much mistaken. I've heard him speak very highly of
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you."
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"I'm glad you have talked about me," said Lord Warburton. "But, I
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nevertheless don't think he'd like me to keep coming to Gardencourt."
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"I can't answer for my uncle's tastes," the girl rejoined, "though I
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ought as far as possible to take them into account. But for myself I
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shall be very glad to see you."
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"Now that's what I like to hear you say. I'm charmed when you say
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that."
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"You're easily charmed, my lord," said Isabel.
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"No, I'm not easily charmed!" And then he stopped a moment. "But
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you've charmed me, Miss Archer."
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These words were uttered with an indefinable sound which startled
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the girl; it struck her as the prelude to something grave: she had
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heard the sound before and she recognized it. She had no wish,
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however, that for the moment such a prelude should have a sequel,
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and she said as gaily as possible and as quickly as an appreciable
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|
degree of agitation would allow her: "I'm afraid there's no prospect
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|
of my being able to come here again."
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"Never?" said Lord Warburton.
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"I won't say 'never'; I should feel very melodramatic."
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"May I come and see you then some day next week?"
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"Most assuredly. What is there to prevent it?"
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"Nothing tangible. But with you I never feel safe. I've a sort of
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sense that you're always summing people up."
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"You don't of necessity lose by that."
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"It's very kind of you to say so; but, even if I gain, stern justice
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|
is not what I most love. Is Mrs. Touchett going to take you abroad?"
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"I hope so."
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"Is England not good enough for you?"
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"That's a very Machiavellian speech; it doesn't deserve an answer. I
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want to see as many countries as I can."
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"Then you'll go on judging, I suppose."
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"Enjoying, I hope, too."
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"Yes, that's what you enjoy most; I can't make out what you're up
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to," said Lord Warburton. "You strike me as having mysterious
|
|
purposes- vast designs."
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"You're so good as to have a theory about me which I don't at all
|
|
fill out. Is there anything mysterious in a purpose entertained and
|
|
executed every year, in the most public manner, by fifty thousand of
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|
my fellow-countrymen- the purpose of improving one's mind by foreign
|
|
travel?"
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"You can't improve your mind, Miss Archer," her companion
|
|
declared. "It's already a most formidable instrument. It looks down on
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us all; it despises us."
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"Despises you? You're making fun of me," said Isabel seriously.
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"Well, you think us 'quaint'- that's the same thing. I won't be
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thought 'quaint,' to begin with; I'm not so in the least. I protest."
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"That protest is one of the quaintest things I've ever heard,"
|
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Isabel answered with a smile.
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Lord Warburton was briefly silent. "You judge only from the outside-
|
|
you don't care," he said presently. "You only care to amuse yourself."
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The note she had heard in his voice a moment before reappeared, and
|
|
mixed with it now was an audible strain of bitterness- a bitterness so
|
|
abrupt and inconsequent that the girl was afraid she had hurt him. She
|
|
had often heard that the English are a highly eccentric people, and
|
|
she had even read in some ingenious author that they are at bottom the
|
|
most romantic of races. Was Lord Warburton suddenly turning
|
|
romantic- was he going to make her a scene, in his own house, only the
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|
third time they had met? She was reassured quickly enough by her sense
|
|
of his great good manners, which was not impaired by the fact that
|
|
he had already touched the furthest limit of good taste in
|
|
expressing his admiration of a young lady who had confided in his
|
|
hospitality. She was right in trusting to his good manners, for he
|
|
presently went on, laughing a little and without a trace of the accent
|
|
that had discomposed her: "I don't mean of course that you amuse
|
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yourself with trifles. You select great materials; the foibles, the
|
|
afflictions of human nature, the peculiarities of nations!"
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"As regards that," said Isabel, "I should find in my own nation
|
|
entertainment for a lifetime. But we've a long drive, and my aunt will
|
|
soon wish to start." She turned back toward the others and Lord
|
|
Warburton walked beside her in silence. But before they reached the
|
|
others, "I shall come and see you next week," he said.
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She had received an appreciable shock, but as it died away she
|
|
felt that she couldn't pretend to herself that it was altogether a
|
|
painful one. Nevertheless she made answer to his declaration, coldly
|
|
enough, "Just as you please." And her coldness was not the calculation
|
|
of her effect- a game she played in a much smaller degree than would
|
|
have seemed probable to many critics. It came from a certain fear.
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CHAPTER 10
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The day after her visit to Lockleigh she received a note from her
|
|
friend Miss Stackpole- a note of which the envelope, exhibiting in
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|
conjunction the postmark of Liverpool and the neat calligraphy of
|
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the quick-fingered Henrietta, caused her some liveliness of emotion.
|
|
"Here I am, my lovely friend," Miss Stackpole wrote; "I managed to get
|
|
off at last. I decided only the night before I left New York- the
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|
Interviewer having come round to my figure. I put a few things into
|
|
a bag, like a veteran journalist, and came down to the steamer in a
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|
street-car. Where are you and where can we meet? I suppose you're
|
|
visiting at some castle or other and have already acquired the correct
|
|
accent. Perhaps even you have married a lord; I almost hope you
|
|
have, for I want some introductions to the first people and shall
|
|
count on you for a few. The Interviewer wants some light on the
|
|
nobility. My first impressions (of the people at large) are not
|
|
rose-coloured; but I wish to talk them over with you, and you know
|
|
that, whatever I am, at least I'm not superficial. I've also something
|
|
very particular to tell you. Do appoint a meeting as quickly as you
|
|
can; come to London (I should like so much to visit the sights with
|
|
you) or else let me come to you, wherever you are. I will do so with
|
|
pleasure; for you know everything interests me and I wish to see as
|
|
much as possible of the inner life."
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|
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Isabel judged best not to show this letter to her uncle; but she
|
|
acquainted him with its purport, and, as she expected, he begged her
|
|
instantly to assure Miss Stackpole, in his name, that he should be
|
|
delighted to receive her at Gardencourt. "Though she's a literary
|
|
lady," he said, "I suppose that, being an American, she won't show
|
|
me up, as that other one did. She has seen others like me."
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"She has seen no other so delightful!" Isabel answered; but she
|
|
was not altogether at ease about Henrietta's reproductive instincts,
|
|
which belonged to that side of her friend's character which she
|
|
regarded with least complacency. She wrote to Miss Stackpole, however,
|
|
that she would be very welcome under Mr. Touchett's roof; and this
|
|
alert young woman lost no time in announcing her prompt approach.
|
|
She had gone up to London, and it was from that centre that she took
|
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the train for the station nearest to Gardencourt, where Isabel and
|
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Ralph were in waiting to receive her.
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|
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"Shall I love her or shall I hate her?" Ralph asked while they moved
|
|
along the platform.
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|
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"Whichever you do will matter very little to her," said Isabel. "She
|
|
doesn't care a straw what men think of her."
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|
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"As a man I'm bound to dislike her then. She must be a kind of
|
|
monster. Is she very ugly?"
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|
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"No, she's decidedly pretty."
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|
|
"A female interviewer- a reporter in petticoats? I'm very curious to
|
|
see her," Ralph conceded.
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"It's very easy to laugh at her but it is not easy to be as brave as
|
|
she."
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"I should think not; crimes of violence and attacks on the person
|
|
require more or less pluck. Do you suppose she'll interview me?"
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"Never in the world. She'll not think you of enough importance."
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"You'll see," said Ralph. "She'll send a description of us all,
|
|
including Bunchie, to her newspaper."
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"I shall ask her not to," Isabel answered.
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"You think she's capable of it then?"
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"Perfectly."
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"And yet you've made her your bosom-friend?"
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|
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"I've not made her my bosom-friend; but I like her in spite of her
|
|
faults."
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|
|
"Ah well," said Ralph, "I'm afraid I shall dislike her in spite of
|
|
her merits."
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|
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"You'll probably fall in love with her at the end of three days."
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|
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"And have my love-letters published in the Interviewer? Never!"
|
|
cried the young man.
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|
|
The train presently arrived, and Miss Stackpole, promptly
|
|
descending, proved, as Isabel had promised, quite delicately, even
|
|
though rather provincially, fair. She was a neat, plump person, of
|
|
medium stature, with a round face, a small mouth, a delicate
|
|
complexion, a bunch of light brown ringlets at the back of her head
|
|
and a peculiarly open, surprised-looking eye. The most striking
|
|
point in her appearance was the remarkable fixedness of this organ,
|
|
which rested without impudence or defiance, but as if in conscientious
|
|
exercise of a natural right, upon every object it happened to
|
|
encounter. It rested in this manner upon Ralph himself, a little
|
|
arrested by Miss Stackpole's gracious and comfortable aspect, which
|
|
hinted that it wouldn't be so easy as he had assumed to disapprove
|
|
of her. She rustled, she shimmered, in fresh, dove-coloured draperies,
|
|
and Ralph saw at a glance that she was as crisp and new and
|
|
comprehensive as a first issue before the folding. From top to toe she
|
|
had probably no misprint. She spoke in a clear, high voice- a voice
|
|
not rich but loud; yet after she had taken her place with her
|
|
companions in Mr. Touchett's carriage she struck him as not all in the
|
|
large type, the type of horrid "headings," that he had expected. She
|
|
answered the enquiries made of her by Isabel, however, and in which
|
|
the young man ventured to join, with copious lucidity; and later, in
|
|
the library at Gardencourt, when she had made the acquaintance of
|
|
Mr. Touchett (his wife not having thought it necessary to appear)
|
|
did more to give the measure of her confidence in her powers.
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|
|
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"Well, I should like to know whether you consider yourselves
|
|
American or English," she broke out. "If once I knew I could talk to
|
|
you accordingly."
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|
|
"Talk to us anyhow and we shall be thankful," Ralph liberally
|
|
answered.
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|
|
|
She fixed her eyes on him, and there was something in their
|
|
character that reminded him of large polished buttons- buttons that
|
|
might have fixed the elastic loops of some tense receptacle: he seemed
|
|
to see the reflection of surrounding objects on the pupil. The
|
|
expression of a button is not usually deemed human, but there was
|
|
something in Miss Stackpole's gaze that made him, as a very modest
|
|
man, feel vaguely embarrassed- less inviolate, more dishonoured,
|
|
than he liked. This sensation, it must be added, after he had spent
|
|
a day or two in her company, sensibly diminished, though it never
|
|
wholly lapsed. "I don't suppose that you're going to undertake to
|
|
persuade me that you're an American," she said.
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|
|
"To please you I'll be an Englishman, I'll be a Turk!"
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|
|
"Well, if you can change about that way you're very welcome," Miss
|
|
Stackpole returned.
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|
|
|
"I'm sure you understand everything and that differences of
|
|
nationality are no barrier to you," Ralph went on.
|
|
|
|
Miss Stackpole gazed at him still. "Do you mean the foreign
|
|
languages?"
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|
|
"The languages are nothing. I mean the spirit- the genius."
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|
|
"I'm not sure that I understand you," said the correspondent of
|
|
the Interviewer; "but I expect I shall before I leave."
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"He's what's called a cosmopolite," Isabel suggested.
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"That means he's a little of everything and not much of any. I
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must say I think patriotism is like charity- it begins at home."
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"Ah, but where does home begin, Miss Stackpole?" Ralph enquired.
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"I don't know where it begins, but I know where it ends. It ended
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a long time before I got here."
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"Don't you like it over here?" asked Mr. Touchett with his aged,
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innocent voice.
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"Well, sir, I haven't quite made up my mind what ground I shall
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take. I feel a good deal cramped. I felt it on the journey from
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Liverpool to London."
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"Perhaps you were in a crowded carriage," Ralph suggested.
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"Yes, but it was crowded with friends- a party of Americans whose
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acquaintance I had made upon the steamer; a lovely group from Little
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Rock, Arkansas. In spite of that I felt cramped- I felt something
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pressing upon me; I couldn't tell what it was. I felt at the very
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commencement as if I were not going to accord with the atmosphere. But
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I suppose I shall make my own atmosphere. That's the true way- then
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you can breathe. Your surroundings seem very attractive."
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"Ah, we too are a lovely group!" said Ralph. "Wait a little and
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you'll see.
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Miss Stackpole showed every disposition to wait and evidently was
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prepared to make a considerable stay at Gardencourt. She occupied
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herself in the mornings with literary labour; but in spite of this
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Isabel spent many hours with her friend, who, once her daily task
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performed, deprecated, in fact defied, isolation. Isabel speedily
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found occasion to desire her to desist from celebrating the charms
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of their common sojourn in print, having discovered, on the second
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morning of Miss Stackpole's visit, that she was engaged on a letter to
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the Interviewer, of which the title, in her exquisitely neat and
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legible hand (exactly that of the copybooks which our heroine
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remembered at school) was "Americans and Tudors- Glimpses of
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Gardencourt." Miss Stackpole, with the best conscience in the world,
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offered to read her letter to Isabel, who immediately put in her
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protest.
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"I don't think you ought to do that. I don't think you ought to
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describe the place."
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Henrietta gazed at her as usual. "Why, it's just what the people
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want, and it's a lovely place."
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"It's too lovely to be put in the newspapers, and it's not what my
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uncle wants."
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"Don't you believe that!" cried Henrietta. "They're always delighted
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afterwards."
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"My uncle won't be delighted- nor my cousin either. They'll consider
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it a breach of hospitality."
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Miss Stackpole showed no sense of confusion; she simply wiped her
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pen, very neatly, upon an elegant little implement which she kept
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for the purpose, and put away her manuscript. "Of course if you
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don't approve I won't do it; but I sacrifice a beautiful subject."
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"There are plenty of other subjects, there are subjects all round
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you. We'll take some drives; I'll show you some charming scenery."
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"Scenery's not my department; I always need a human interest. You
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know I'm deeply human, Isabel; I always was," Miss Stackpole rejoined.
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"I was going to bring in your cousin- the alienated American.
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There's a great demand just now for the alienated American, and your
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cousin's a beautiful specimen. I should have handled him severely."
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"He would have died of it!" Isabel exclaimed. "Not of the
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severity, but of the publicity."
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"Well, I should have liked to kill him a little. And I should have
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delighted to do your uncle, who seems to me a much nobler type- the
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American faithful still. He's a grand old man; I don't see how he
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can object to my paying him honour."
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Isabel looked at her companion in much wonderment; it struck her
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as strange that a nature in which she found so much to esteem should
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break down so in spots. "My poor Henrietta," she said, "you've no
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sense of privacy."
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Henrietta coloured deeply, and for a moment her brilliant eyes
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were suffused, while Isabel found her more than ever inconsequent.
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"You do me great injustice," said Miss Stackpole with dignity. "I've
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never written a word about myself!"
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"I'm very sure of that; but it seems to me one should be modest
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for others also!"
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"Ah, that's very good!" cried Henrietta, seizing her pen again.
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"Just let me make a note of it and I'll put it in somewhere." She
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was a thoroughly good-natured woman, and half an hour later she was in
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as cheerful a mood as should have been looked for in a
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newspaper-lady in want of matter. "I've promised to do the social
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side," she said to Isabel; "and how can I do it unless I get ideas? If
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I can't describe this place don't you know some place I can describe?"
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Isabel promised she would bethink herself, and the next day, in
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conversation with her friend, she happened to mention her visit to
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Lord Warburton's ancient house. "Ah, you must take me there- that's
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just the place for me!" Miss Stackpole cried. "I must get a glimpse of
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the nobility."
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"I can't take you," said Isabel; "but Lord Warburton's coming
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here, and you'll have a chance to see him and observe him. Only if you
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intend to repeat his conversation I shall certainly give him warning."
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"Don't do that," her companion pleaded; "I want him to be natural."
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"An Englishman's never so natural as when he's holding his
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tongue," Isabel declared.
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It was not apparent, at the end of three days, that her cousin
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had, according to her prophecy, lost his heart to their visitor,
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though he had spent a good deal of time in her society. They
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strolled about the park together and sat under the trees, and in the
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afternoon, when it was delightful to float along the Thames, Miss
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Stackpole occupied a place in the boat in which hitherto Ralph had had
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but a single companion. Her presence proved somehow less irreducible
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to soft particles than Ralph had expected in the natural
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perturbation of his sense of the perfect solubility of that of his
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cousin; for the correspondent of the Interviewer prompted mirth in
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him, and he had long since decided that the crescendo of mirth
|
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should be the flower of his declining days. Henrietta, on her side,
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failed a little to justify Isabel's declaration with regard to her
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indifference to masculine opinion; for poor Ralph appeared to have
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presented himself to her as an irritating problem, which it would be
|
|
almost immoral not to work out.
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"What does he do for a living?" she asked of Isabel the evening of
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her arrival. "Does he go round all day with his hands in his pockets?"
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"He does nothing," smiled Isabel; "he's a gentleman of large
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leisure."
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"Well, I call that a shame- when I have to work like a
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car-conductor," Miss Stackpole replied. "I should like to show him
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up."
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"He's in wretched health; he's quite unfit for work," Isabel urged.
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"Pshaw! don't you believe it. I work when I'm sick," cried her
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friend. Later, when she stepped into the boat on joining the
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water-party, she remarked to Ralph that she supposed he hated her
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and would like to drown her.
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"Ah no," said Ralph, "I keep my victims for a slower torture. And
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you'd be such an interesting one!"
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"Well, you do torture me; I may say that. But I shock all your
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prejudices; that's one comfort."
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"My prejudices? I haven't a prejudice to bless myself with.
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There's intellectual poverty for you."
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"The more shame to you; I've some delicious ones. Of course I
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spoil your flirtation, or whatever it is you call it, with your
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cousin; but I don't care for that, as I render her the service of
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|
drawing you out. She'll see how thin you are."
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"Ah, do draw me out!" Ralph exclaimed. "So few people will take
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the trouble."
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Miss Stackpole, in this undertaking, appeared to shrink from no
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|
effort; resorting largely, whenever the opportunity offered, to the
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|
natural expedient of interrogation. On the following day the weather
|
|
was bad, and in the afternoon the young man, by way of providing
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|
indoor amusement, offered to show her the pictures. Henrietta strolled
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|
through the long gallery in his society, while he pointed out its
|
|
principal ornaments and mentioned the painters and subjects. Miss
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|
Stackpole looked at the pictures in perfect silence, committing
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|
herself to no opinion, and Ralph was gratified by the fact that she
|
|
delivered herself of none of the little ready-made ejaculations of
|
|
delight of which the visitors to Gardencourt were so frequently
|
|
lavish. This young lady indeed, to do her justice, was but little
|
|
addicted to the use of conventional terms; there was something earnest
|
|
and inventive in her tone, which at times, in its strained
|
|
deliberation, suggested a person of high culture speaking a foreign
|
|
language. Ralph Touchett subsequently learned that she had at one time
|
|
officiated as art-critic to a journal of the other world; but she
|
|
appeared, in spite of this fact, to carry in her pocket none of the
|
|
small change of admiration. Suddenly, just after he had called her
|
|
attention to a charming Constable, she turned and looked at him as
|
|
if he himself had been a picture.
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|
"Do you always spend your time like this?" she demanded.
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"I seldom spend it so agreeably."
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"Well, you know what I mean- without any regular occupation."
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"Ah," said Ralph, "I'm the idlest man living."
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|
|
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Miss Stackpole directed her gaze to the Constable again, and Ralph
|
|
bespoke her attention for a small Lancret hanging near it, which
|
|
represented a gentleman in a pink doublet and hose and a ruff, leaning
|
|
against the pedestal of the statue of a nymph in a garden and
|
|
playing the guitar to two ladies seated on the grass. "That's my ideal
|
|
of a regular occupation," he said.
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|
|
|
Miss Stackpole turned to him again, and, though her eyes had
|
|
rested upon the picture, he saw she had missed the subject. She was
|
|
thinking of something much more serious. "I don't see how you can
|
|
reconcile it to your conscience."
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|
|
|
"My dear lady, I have no conscience!"
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|
|
|
"Well, I advise you to cultivate one. You'll need it the next time
|
|
you go to America."
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|
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"I shall probably never go again."
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|
|
|
"Are you ashamed to show yourself?"
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|
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Ralph meditated with a mild smile. "I suppose that if one has no
|
|
conscience one has no shame."
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|
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|
"Well, you've got plenty of assurance," Henrietta declared. "Do
|
|
you consider it right to give up your country?"
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|
|
|
"Ah, one doesn't give up one's country any more than one gives up
|
|
one's grandmother. They're both antecedent to choice- elements of
|
|
one's composition that are not to be eliminated."
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|
|
|
"I suppose that means that you've tried and been worsted. What do
|
|
they think of you over here?"
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|
|
|
"They delight in me."
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|
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|
"That's because you truckle to them."
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|
|
|
"Ah, set it down a little to my natural charm!" Ralph sighed.
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|
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|
"I don't know anything about your natural charm. If you've got any
|
|
charm it's quite unnatural. It's wholly acquired- or at least you've
|
|
tried hard to acquire it, living over here. I don't say you've
|
|
succeeded. It's a charm that I don't appreciate, anyway. Make yourself
|
|
useful in some way, and then we'll talk about it."
|
|
|
|
"Well, now, tell me what I shall do," said Ralph.
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|
|
|
"Go right home, to begin with."
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|
|
|
"Yes, I see. And then?"
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|
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|
"Take right hold of something."
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|
|
|
"Well, now, what sort of thing?"
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|
|
|
"Anything you please, so long as you take hold. Some new idea,
|
|
some big work."
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|
|
|
"Is it very difficult to take hold?" Ralph enquired.
|
|
|
|
"Not if you put your heart into it."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, my heart," said Ralph. "If it depends upon my heart-!"
|
|
|
|
"Haven't you got a heart?"
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|
|
|
"I had one a few days ago, but I've lost it since."
|
|
|
|
"You're not serious," Miss Stackpole remarked; "that's what's the
|
|
matter with you." But for all this, in a day or two, she again
|
|
permitted him to fix her attention and on the later occasion
|
|
assigned a different cause to her mysterious perversity.
|
|
|
|
"I know what's the matter with you, Mr. Touchett," she said. "You
|
|
think you're too good to get married."
|
|
|
|
"I thought so till I knew you, Miss Stackpole," Ralph answered; "and
|
|
then I suddenly changed my mind."
|
|
|
|
"Oh pshaw!" Henrietta groaned.
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|
|
|
"Then it seemed to me," said Ralph, "that I was not good enough."
|
|
|
|
"It would improve you. Besides, it's your duty."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," cried the young man, "one has so many duties! Is that a duty
|
|
too?"
|
|
|
|
"Of course it is- did you never know that before? It's every one's
|
|
duty to get married."
|
|
|
|
Ralph meditated a moment; he was disappointed. There was something
|
|
in Miss Stackpole he had begun to like; it seemed to him that if she
|
|
was not a charming woman she was at least a very good "sort." She
|
|
was wanting in distinction, but, as Isabel had said, she was brave:
|
|
she went into cages, she flourished lashes, like a spangled
|
|
lion-tamer. He had not supposed her to be capable of vulgar arts,
|
|
but these last words struck him as a false note. When a marriageable
|
|
young woman urges matrimony on an unencumbered young man the most
|
|
obvious explanation of her conduct is not the altruistic impulse.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, well now, there's a good deal to be said about that," Ralph
|
|
rejoined.
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|
|
|
"There may be, but that's the principal thing. I must say I think it
|
|
looks very exclusive, going round all alone, as if you thought no
|
|
woman was good enough for you. Do you think you're better than any one
|
|
else in the world? In America it's usual for people to marry."
|
|
|
|
"If it's my duty," Ralph asked, "is it not, by analogy, yours as
|
|
well?"
|
|
|
|
Miss Stackpole's ocular surfaces unwinkingly caught the sun. "Have
|
|
you the fond hope of finding a flaw in my reasoning? Of course I've as
|
|
good a right to marry as any one else."
|
|
|
|
"Well then," said Ralph, "I won't say it vexes me to see you single.
|
|
It delights me rather."
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|
|
|
"You're not serious yet. You never will be."
|
|
|
|
"Shall you not believe me to be so on the day I tell you I desire to
|
|
give up the practice of going around alone?"
|
|
|
|
Miss Stackpole looked at him for a moment in a manner which seemed
|
|
to announce a reply that might technically be called encouraging.
|
|
But to his great surprise this expression suddenly resolved itself
|
|
into an appearance of alarm and even of resentment. "No, not even
|
|
then," she answered dryly. After which she walked away.
|
|
|
|
"I've not conceived a passion for your friend," Ralph said that
|
|
evening to Isabel, "though we talked some time this morning about it."
|
|
|
|
"And you said something she didn't like," the girl replied.
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|
|
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Ralph stared. "Has she complained of me?"
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|
|
|
"She told me she thinks there's something very low in the tone of
|
|
Europeans towards women."
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|
|
|
"Does she call me a European?"
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|
|
|
"One of the worst. She told me you had said to her something that an
|
|
American never would have said. But she didn't repeat it."
|
|
|
|
Ralph treated himself to a luxury of laughter. "She's an
|
|
extraordinary combination. Did she think I was making love to her?"
|
|
|
|
"No; I believe even Americans do that. But she apparently thought
|
|
you mistook the intention of something she had said, and put an unkind
|
|
construction on it."
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|
|
|
"I thought she was proposing marriage to me and I accepted her.
|
|
Was that unkind?"
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|
|
|
Isabel smiled. "It was unkind to me. I don't want you to marry."
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|
|
|
"My dear cousin, what's one to do among you all?" Ralph demanded.
|
|
"Miss Stackpole tells me it's my bounden duty, and that it's hers,
|
|
in general, to see I do mine!"
|
|
|
|
"She has a great sense of duty," said Isabel gravely. "She has
|
|
indeed, and it's the motive of everything she says. That's what I like
|
|
her for. She thinks it's unworthy of you to keep so many things to
|
|
yourself. That's what she wanted to express. If you thought she was
|
|
trying to- to attract you, you were very wrong."
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|
|
|
"It's true it was an odd way, but I did think she was trying to
|
|
attract me. Forgive my depravity."
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|
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|
"You're very conceited. She had no interested views, and never
|
|
supposed you would think she had."
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|
|
|
"One must be very modest then to talk with such women," Ralph said
|
|
humbly. "But it's a very strange type. She's too personal- considering
|
|
that she expects other people not to be. She walks in without knocking
|
|
at the door."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," Isabel admitted, "she doesn't sufficiently recognize the
|
|
existence of knockers; and indeed I'm not sure that she doesn't
|
|
think them rather a pretentious ornament. She thinks one's door should
|
|
stand ajar. But I persist in liking her."
|
|
|
|
"I persist in thinking her too familiar," Ralph rejoined,
|
|
naturally somewhat uncomfortable under the sense of having been doubly
|
|
deceived in Miss Stackpole.
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Isabel, smiling, "I'm afraid it's because she's
|
|
rather vulgar that I like her."
|
|
|
|
"She would be flattered by your reason!"
|
|
|
|
"If I should tell her I wouldn't express it in that way. I should
|
|
say it's because there's something of the 'people' in her."
|
|
|
|
"What do you know about the people? and what does she, for that
|
|
matter?"
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|
|
|
"She knows a great deal, and I know enough to feel that she's a kind
|
|
of emanation of the great democracy- of the continent, the country,
|
|
the nation. I don't say that she sums it all up, that would be too
|
|
much to ask of her. But she suggests it; she vividly figures it."
|
|
|
|
"You like her then for patriotic reasons. I'm afraid it is on
|
|
those very grounds I object to her."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Isabel with a kind of joyous sigh, "I like so many
|
|
things! If a thing strikes me with a certain intensity I accept it.
|
|
I don't want to swagger, but I suppose I'm rather versatile. I like
|
|
people to be totally different from Henrietta- in the style of Lord
|
|
Warburton's sisters for instance. So long as I look at the Misses
|
|
Molyneux they seem to me to answer a kind of ideal. Then Henrietta
|
|
presents herself, and I'm straightway convinced by her; not so much in
|
|
respect to herself as in respect to what masses behind her."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, you mean the back view of her," Ralph suggested.
|
|
|
|
"What she says is true," his cousin answered; "you'll never be
|
|
serious. I like the great country stretching away beyond the rivers
|
|
and across the prairies, blooming and smiling, and spreading till it
|
|
stops at the green Pacific! A strong, sweet, fresh odour seems to rise
|
|
from it, and Henrietta- pardon my simile- has something of that
|
|
odour in her garments."
|
|
|
|
Isabel blushed a little as she concluded this speech, and the blush,
|
|
together with the momentary ardour she had thrown into it, was so
|
|
becoming to her that Ralph stood smiling at her for a moment after she
|
|
had ceased speaking. "I'm not sure the Pacific's so green as that," he
|
|
said; "but you're a young woman of imagination. Henrietta, however,
|
|
does smell of the Future- it almost knocks one down!"
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CHAPTER 11
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|
|
He took a resolve after this not to misinterpret her words even when
|
|
Miss Stackpole appeared to strike the personal note most strongly.
|
|
He bethought himself that persons, in her view, were simple and
|
|
homogeneous organisms, and that he, for his own part, was too
|
|
perverted a representative of the nature of man to have a right to
|
|
deal with her in strict reciprocity. He carried out his resolve with a
|
|
great deal of tact, and the young lady found in renewed contact with
|
|
him no obstacle to the exercise of her genius for unshrinking enquiry,
|
|
the general application of her confidence. Her situation at
|
|
Gardencourt therefore, appreciated as we have seen her to be by Isabel
|
|
and full of appreciation herself of that free play of intelligence
|
|
which, to her sense, rendered Isabel's character a sister-spirit,
|
|
and of the easy venerableness of Mr. Touchett, whose noble tone, as
|
|
she said, met with her full approval- her situation at Gardencourt
|
|
would have been perfectly comfortable had she not conceived an
|
|
irresistible mistrust of the little lady for whom she had at first
|
|
supposed herself obliged to "allow" as mistress of the house. She
|
|
presently discovered, in truth, that this obligation was of the
|
|
lightest and that Mrs. Touchett cared very little how Miss Stackpole
|
|
behaved. Mrs. Touchett had defined her to Isabel as both an
|
|
adventuress and a bore- adventuresses usually giving one more of a
|
|
thrill; she had expressed some surprise at her niece's having selected
|
|
such a friend, yet had immediately added that she knew Isabel's
|
|
friends were her own affair and that she had never undertaken to
|
|
like them all or to restrict the girl to those she liked.
|
|
|
|
"If you could see none but the people I like, my dear, you'd have
|
|
a very small society," Mrs. Touchett frankly admitted; "and I don't
|
|
think I like any man or woman well enough to recommend them to you.
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When it comes to recommending it's a serious affair. I don't like Miss
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Stackpole- everything about her displeases me; she talks so much too
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loud and looks at one as if one wanted to look at her- which one
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doesn't. I'm sure she has lived all her life in a boarding-house,
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and I detest the manners and the liberties of such places. If you
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ask me if I prefer my own manners, which you doubtless think very bad,
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I'll tell you that I prefer them immensely. Miss Stackpole knows I
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detest boarding-house civilization, and she detests me for detesting
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it, because she thinks it the highest in the world. She'd like
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Gardencourt a great deal better if it were a boarding-house. For me, I
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find it almost too much of one! We shall never get on together
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therefore, and there's no use trying."
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Mrs. Touchett was right in guessing that Henrietta disapproved of
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her, but she had not quite put her finger on the reason. A day or
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two after Miss Stackpole's arrival she had made some invidious
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reflexions on American hotels, which excited a vein of counterargument
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on the part of the correspondent of the Interviewer, who in the
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exercise of her profession had acquainted herself, in the western
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world, with every form of caravansary. Henrietta expressed the opinion
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that American hotels were the best in the world, and Mrs. Touchett,
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fresh from a renewed struggle with them, recorded a conviction that
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they were the worst. Ralph, with his experimental geniality,
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suggested, by way of healing the breach, that the truth lay between
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the two extremes and that the establishments in question ought to be
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described as fair middling. This contribution to the discussion,
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however, Miss Stackpole rejected with scorn. Middling indeed! If
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they were not the best in the world they were the worst, but there was
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nothing middling about an American hotel.
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"We judge from different points of view, evidently," said Mrs.
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Touchett. "I like to be treated as an individual; you like to be
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treated as a 'party.'"
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"I don't know what you mean," Henrietta replied. "I like to be
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treated as an American lady."
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"Poor American ladies!" cried Mrs. Touchett with a laugh. "They're
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the slaves of slaves."
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"They're the companions of freemen," Henrietta retorted.
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"They're the companions of their servants- the Irish chambermaid and
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the negro waiter. They share their work."
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"Do you call the domestics in an American household 'slaves'?"
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Miss Stackpole enquired. "If that's the way you desire to treat
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them, no wonder you don't like America."
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"If you've not good servants you're miserable," Mrs. Touchett
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serenely said. "They're very bad in America, but I've five perfect
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ones in Florence."
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"I don't see what you want with five," Henrietta couldn't help
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observing. "I don't think I should like to see five persons
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surrounding me in that menial position."
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"I like them in that position better than in some others,"
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proclaimed Mrs. Touchett with much meaning.
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"Should you like me better if I were your butler, dear?" her husband
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asked.
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"I don't think I should: you wouldn't at all have the tenue."
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"The companions of freemen- I like that, Miss Stackpole," said
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Ralph. "It's a beautiful description."
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"When I said freemen I didn't mean you, sir!"
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And this was the only reward that Ralph got for his compliment. Miss
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Stackpole was baffled; she evidently thought there was something
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treasonable in Mrs. Touchett's appreciation of a class which she
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privately judged to be a mysterious survival of feudalism. It was
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perhaps because her mind was oppressed with this image that she
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suffered some days to elapse before she took occasion to say to
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Isabel: "My dear friend, I wonder if you're growing faithless."
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"Faithless? Faithless to you, Henrietta?"
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"No, that would be a great pain; but it's not that."
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"Faithless to my country then?"
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"Ah, that I hope will never be. When I wrote to you from Liverpool I
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said I had something particular to tell you. You've never asked me
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what it is. Is it because you've suspected?"
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"Suspected what? As a rule I don't think I suspect," said Isabel. "I
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remember now that phrase in your letter, but I confess I had forgotten
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it. What have you to tell me?"
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Henrietta looked disappointed, and her steady gaze betrayed it. "You
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don't ask that right- as if you thought it important. You're
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changed- you're thinking of other things."
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"Tell me what you mean, and I'll think of that."
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"Will you really think of it? That's what I wish to be sure of."
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"I've not much control of my thoughts, but I'll do my best," said
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Isabel. Henrietta gazed at her, in silence, for a period which tried
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Isabel's patience, so that our heroine added at last: "Do you mean
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that you're going to be married?"
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"Not till I've seen Europe!" said Miss Stackpole. "What are you
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laughing at?" she went on. "What I mean is that Mr. Goodwood came
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out in the steamer with me."
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"Ah!" Isabel responded.
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"You say that right. I had a good deal of talk with him; he has come
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after you."
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"Did he tell you so?"
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"No, he told me nothing; that's how I knew it," said Henrietta
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cleverly. "He said very little about you, but I spoke of you a good
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deal."
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Isabel waited. At the mention of Mr. Goodwood's name she had
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turned a little pale. "I'm very sorry you did that," she observed at
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last.
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"It was a pleasure to me, and I liked the way he listened. I could
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have talked a long time to such a listener; he was so quiet, so
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intense; he drank it all in."
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"What did you say about me?" Isabel asked.
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"I said you were on the whole the finest creature I know."
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"I'm very sorry for that. He thinks too well of me already; he
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oughtn't to be encouraged."
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"He's dying for a little encouragement. I see his face now, and
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his earnest absorbed look while I talked. I never saw an ugly man look
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so handsome."
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"He's very simple-minded," said Isabel. "And he's not so ugly."
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"There's nothing so simplifying as a grand passion."
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"It's not a grand passion; I'm very sure it's not that."
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"You don't say that as if you were sure."
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Isabel gave rather a cold smile. "I shall say it better to Mr.
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Goodwood himself."
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"He'll soon give you a chance," said Henrietta. Isabel offered no
|
|
answer to this assertion, which her companion made with an air of
|
|
great confidence. "He'll find you changed," the latter pursued.
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"You've been affected by your new surroundings."
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"Very likely. I'm affected by everything."
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"By everything but Mr. Goodwood!" Miss Stackpole exclaimed with a
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slightly harsh hilarity.
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Isabel failed even to smile back and in a moment she said: "Did he
|
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ask you to speak to me?"
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"Not in so many words. But his eyes asked it- and his handshake,
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when he bade me good-bye."
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"Thank you for doing so." And Isabel turned away.
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"Yes, you're changed; you've got new ideas over here," her friend
|
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continued.
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"I hope so," said Isabel; "one should get as many new ideas as
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possible."
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"Yes; but they shouldn't interfere with the old ones when the old
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ones have been the right ones."
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|
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Isabel turned about again. "If you mean that I had any idea with
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regard to Mr. Goodwood-!" But she faltered before her friend's
|
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implacable glitter.
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|
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"My dear child, you certainly encouraged him."
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Isabel made for the moment as if to deny this charge; instead of
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|
which, however, she presently answered: "It's very true. I did
|
|
encourage him." And then she asked if her companion had learned from
|
|
Mr. Goodwood what he intended to do. It was a concession to her
|
|
curiosity, for she disliked discussing the subject and found Henrietta
|
|
wanting in delicacy.
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|
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"I asked him, and he said he meant to do nothing," Miss Stackpole
|
|
answered. "But I don't believe that; he's not a man to do nothing.
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He is a man of high, bold action. Whatever happens to him he'll always
|
|
do something, and whatever he does will always be right."
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"I quite believe that." Henrietta might be wanting in delicacy,
|
|
but it touched the girl, all the same, to hear this declaration.
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"Ah, you do care for him!" her visitor rang out.
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"Whatever he does will always be right," Isabel repeated. "When a
|
|
man's of that infallible mould what does it matter to him what one
|
|
feels?"
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"It may not matter to him, but it matters to one's self."
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"Ah, what it matters to me- that's not what we're discussing,"
|
|
said Isabel with a cold smile.
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|
|
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This time her companion was grave. "Well, I don't care; you have
|
|
changed. You're not the girl you were a few short weeks ago, and Mr.
|
|
Goodwood will see it. I expect him here any day."
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"I hope he'll hate me then," said Isabel.
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|
"I believe you hope it about as much as I believe him capable of
|
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it."
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|
To this observation our heroine made no return; she was absorbed
|
|
in the alarm given her by Henrietta's intimation that Caspar
|
|
Goodwood would present himself at Gardencourt. She pretended to
|
|
herself, however, that she thought the event impossible, and, later,
|
|
she communicated her disbelief to her friend. For the next forty-eight
|
|
hours, nevertheless, she stood prepared to hear the young man's name
|
|
announced. The feeling pressed upon her; it made the air sultry, as if
|
|
there were to be a change of weather; and the weather, socially
|
|
speaking, had been so agreeable during Isabel's stay at Gardencourt
|
|
that any change would be for the worse. Her suspense indeed was
|
|
dissipated the second day. She had walked into the park in company
|
|
with the sociable Bunchie, and after strolling about for some time, in
|
|
a manner at once listless and restless, had seated herself on a garden
|
|
bench, within sight of the house, beneath a spreading beech, where, in
|
|
a white dress ornamented with black ribbons, she formed among the
|
|
flickering shadows a graceful and harmonious image. She entertained
|
|
herself for some moments with talking to the little terrier, as to
|
|
whom the proposal of an ownership divided with her cousin had been
|
|
applied as impartially as possible- impartially as Bunchie's own
|
|
somewhat fickle and inconstant sympathies would allow. But she was
|
|
notified for the first time, on this occasion, of the finite character
|
|
of Bunchie's intellect; hitherto she had been mainly struck with its
|
|
extent. It seemed to her at last that she would do well to take a
|
|
book; formerly, when heavy-hearted, she had been able, with the help
|
|
of some well-chosen volume, to transfer the seat of consciousness to
|
|
the organ of pure reason. Of late, it was not to be denied, literature
|
|
had seemed a fading light, and even after she had reminded herself
|
|
that her uncle's library was provided with a complete set of those
|
|
authors which no gentleman's collection should be without, she sat
|
|
motionless and empty-handed, her eyes bent on the cool green turf of
|
|
the lawn. Her meditations were presently interrupted by the arrival of
|
|
a servant who handed her a letter. The letter bore the London postmark
|
|
and was addressed in a hand she knew- that came into her vision,
|
|
already so held by him, with the vividness of the writer's voice or
|
|
his face. This document proved short and may be given entire.
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|
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|
MY DEAR MISS ARCHER- I don't know whether you will have heard of
|
|
my coming to England, but even if you have not it will scarcely be a
|
|
surprise to you. You will remember that when you gave me my
|
|
dismissal at Albany, three months ago, I did not accept it. I
|
|
protested against it. You in fact appeared to accept my protest and to
|
|
admit that I had the right on my side. I had come to see you with
|
|
the hope that you would let me bring you over to my conviction; my
|
|
reasons for entertaining this hope had been of the best. But you
|
|
disappointed it; I found you changed, and you were able to give me
|
|
no reason for the change. You admitted that you were unreasonable, and
|
|
it was the only concession you would make; but it was a very cheap
|
|
one, because that's not your character. No, you are not, and you never
|
|
will be, arbitrary or capricious. Therefore it is that I believe you
|
|
will let me see you again. You told me that I'm not disagreeable to
|
|
you, and I believe it; for I don't see why that should be. I shall
|
|
always think of you; I shall never think of any one else. I came to
|
|
England simply because you are here; I couldn't stay at home after you
|
|
had gone: I hated the country because you were not in it. If I like
|
|
this country at present it is only because it holds you. I have been
|
|
to England before, but have never enjoyed it much. May I not come
|
|
and see you for half an hour? This at present is the dearest wish of
|
|
yours faithfully
|
|
|
|
CASPAR GOODWOOD
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|
|
Isabel read this missive with such deep attention that she had not
|
|
perceived an approaching tread on the soft grass. Looking up, however,
|
|
as she mechanically folded it she saw Lord Warburton standing before
|
|
her.
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|
|
|
CHAPTER 12
|
|
|
|
She put the letter into her pocket and offered her visitor a smile
|
|
of welcome, exhibiting no trace of discomposure and half surprised
|
|
at her coolness.
|
|
|
|
"They told me you were out here," said Lord Warburton; "and as there
|
|
was no one in the drawing-room and it's really you that I wish to see,
|
|
I came out with no more ado."
|
|
|
|
Isabel had got up; she felt a wish, for the moment, that he should
|
|
not sit down beside her. "I was just going indoors."
|
|
|
|
"Please don't do that; it's much jollier here; I've ridden over from
|
|
Lockleigh; it's a lovely day." His smile was peculiarly friendly and
|
|
pleasing, and his whole person seemed to emit that radiance of
|
|
good-feeling and good fare which had formed the charm of the girl's
|
|
first impression of him. It surrounded him like a zone of fine June
|
|
weather.
|
|
|
|
"We'll walk about a little then," said Isabel, who could not
|
|
divest herself of the sense of an intention on the part of her visitor
|
|
and who wished both to elude the intention and to satisfy her
|
|
curiosity about it. It had flashed upon her vision once before, and it
|
|
had given her on that occasion, as we know, a certain alarm. This
|
|
alarm was composed of several elements, not all of which were
|
|
disagreeable; she had indeed spent some days in analyzing them and had
|
|
succeeded in separating the pleasant part of the idea of Lord
|
|
Warburton's "making up" to her from the painful. It may appear to some
|
|
readers that the young lady was both precipitate and unduly
|
|
fastidious; but the latter of these facts, if the charge be true,
|
|
may serve to exonerate her from the discredit of the former. She was
|
|
not eager to convince herself that a territorial magnate, as she had
|
|
heard Lord Warburton called, was smitten with her charms; the fact
|
|
of a declaration from such a source carrying with it really more
|
|
questions than it would answer. She had received a strong impression
|
|
of his being a "personage," and she had occupied herself in
|
|
examining the image so conveyed. At the risk of adding to the evidence
|
|
of her self-sufficiency it must be said that there had been moments
|
|
when this possibility of admiration by a personage represented to
|
|
her an aggression almost to the degree of an affront, quite to the
|
|
degree of an inconvenience. She had never yet known a personage; there
|
|
had been no personages, in this sense, in her life; there were
|
|
probably none such at all in her native land. When she had thought
|
|
of individual eminence she had thought of it on the basis of character
|
|
and wit- of what one might like in a gentleman's mind and in his talk.
|
|
She herself was a character- she couldn't help being aware of that;
|
|
and hitherto her visions of a completed consciousness had connected
|
|
themselves largely with moral images- things as to which the
|
|
question would be whether they pleased her sublime soul. Lord
|
|
Warburton loomed up before her, largely and brightly, as a
|
|
collection of attributes and powers which were not to be measured by
|
|
this simple rule, but which demanded a different sort of appreciation-
|
|
an appreciation that the girl, with her habit of judging quickly and
|
|
freely, felt she lacked patience to bestow. He appeared to demand of
|
|
her something that no one else, as it were, had presumed to do. What
|
|
she felt was that a territorial, a political, a social magnate had
|
|
conceived the design of drawing her into the system in which he rather
|
|
invidiously lived and moved. A certain instinct, not imperious, but
|
|
persuasive, told her to resist- murmured to her that virtually she had
|
|
a system and an orbit of her own. It told her other things besides-
|
|
things which both contradicted and confirmed each other; that a girl
|
|
might do much worse than trust herself to such a man and that it would
|
|
be very interesting to see something of his system from his own
|
|
point of view; that on the other hand, however, there was evidently
|
|
a great deal of it which she should regard only as a complication of
|
|
every hour, and that even in the whole there was something stiff and
|
|
stupid which would make it a burden. Furthermore there was a young man
|
|
lately come from America who had no system at all, but who had a
|
|
character of which it was useless for her to try to persuade herself
|
|
that the impression on her mind had been light. The letter she carried
|
|
in her pocket all sufficiently reminded her of the contrary. Smile
|
|
not, however, I venture to repeat, at this simple young woman from
|
|
Albany who debated whether she should accept an English peer before he
|
|
had offered himself and who was disposed to believe that on the
|
|
whole she could do better. She was a person of great good faith, and
|
|
if there was a great deal of folly in her wisdom those who judge her
|
|
severely may have the satisfaction of finding that, later, she
|
|
became consistently wise only at the cost of an amount of folly
|
|
which will constitute almost a direct appeal to charity.
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton seemed quite ready to walk, to sit or to do
|
|
anything that Isabel should propose, and he gave her this assurance
|
|
with his usual air of being particularly pleased to exercise a
|
|
social virtue. But he was, nevertheless, not in command of his
|
|
emotions, and as he strolled beside her for a moment, in silence,
|
|
looking at her without letting her know it, there was something
|
|
embarrassed in his glance and his misdirected laughter. Yes,
|
|
assuredly- as we have touched on the point, we may return to it for
|
|
a moment again- the English are the most romantic people in the
|
|
world and Lord Warburton was about to give an example of it. He was
|
|
about to take a step which would astonish all his friends and
|
|
displease a great many of them, and which had superficially nothing to
|
|
recommend it. The young lady who trod the turf beside him had come
|
|
from a queer country across the sea which he knew a good deal about;
|
|
her antecedents, her associations were very vague to his mind except
|
|
in so far as they were generic, and in this sense they showed as
|
|
distinct and unimportant. Miss Archer had neither a fortune nor the
|
|
sort of beauty that justifies a man to the multitude, and he
|
|
calculated that he had spent about twenty-six hours in her company. He
|
|
had summed up all this- the perversity of the impulse, which had
|
|
declined to avail itself of the most liberal opportunities to subside,
|
|
and the judgement of mankind, as exemplified particularly in the
|
|
more quickly-judging half of it: he had looked these things well in
|
|
the face and then had dismissed them from his thoughts. He cared no
|
|
more for them than for the rosebud in his buttonhole. It is the good
|
|
fortune of a man who for the greater part of a lifetime has
|
|
abstained without effort from making himself disagreeable to his
|
|
friends, that when the need comes for such a course it is not
|
|
discredited by irritating associations.
|
|
|
|
"I hope you had a pleasant ride," said Isabel, who observed her
|
|
companion's hesitancy.
|
|
|
|
"It would have been pleasant if for nothing else than that it
|
|
brought me here."
|
|
|
|
"Are you so fond of Gardencourt?" the girl asked, more and more sure
|
|
that he meant to make some appeal to her; wishing not to challenge him
|
|
if he hesitated, and yet to keep all the quietness of her reason if he
|
|
proceeded. It suddenly came upon her that her situation was one
|
|
which a few weeks ago she would have deemed deeply romantic: the
|
|
park of an old English country-house, with the foreground
|
|
embellished by a "great" (as she supposed) nobleman in the act of
|
|
making love to a young lady who, on careful inspection, should be
|
|
found to present remarkable analogies with herself. But if she was now
|
|
the heroine of the situation she succeeded scarcely the less in
|
|
looking at it from the outside.
|
|
|
|
"I care nothing for Gardencourt," said her companion. "I care only
|
|
for you.
|
|
|
|
"You've known me too short a time to have a right to say that, and I
|
|
can't believe you're serious."
|
|
|
|
These words of Isabel's were not perfectly sincere, for she had no
|
|
doubt whatever that he himself was. They were simply a tribute to
|
|
the fact, of which she was perfectly aware, that those he had just
|
|
uttered would have excited surprise on the part of a vulgar world.
|
|
And, moreover, if anything beside the sense she had already acquired
|
|
that Lord Warburton was not a loose thinker had been needed to
|
|
convince her, the tone in which he replied would quite have served the
|
|
purpose.
|
|
|
|
"One's right in such a matter is not measured by the time, Miss
|
|
Archer; it's measured by the feeling itself. If I were to wait three
|
|
months it would make no difference; I shall not be more sure of what I
|
|
mean than I am to-day. Of course I've seen you very little, but my
|
|
impression dates from the very first hour we met. I lost no time, I
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fell in love with you then. It was at first sight, as the novels
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say; I know now that's not a fancy-phrase, and I shall think better of
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novels for evermore. Those two days I spent here settled it; I don't
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know whether you suspected I was doing so, but I paid- mentally
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speaking I mean- the greatest possible attention to you. Nothing you
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said, nothing you did, was lost upon me. When you came to Lockleigh
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the other day- or rather when you went away- I was perfectly sure.
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Nevertheless I made up my mind to think it over and to question myself
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narrowly. I've done so; all these days I've done nothing else. I don't
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make mistakes about such things; I'm a very judicious animal. I
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don't go off easily, but when I'm touched, it's for life. It's for
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life, Miss Archer, it's for life," Lord Warburton repeated in the
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kindest, tenderest, pleasantest voice Isabel had ever heard, and
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looking at her with eyes charged with the light of a passion that
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had sifted itself clear of the baser parts of emotion- the heat, the
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violence, the unreason- and that burned as steadily as a lamp in a
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windless place.
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By tacit consent, as he talked, they had walked more and more
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slowly, and at last they stopped and he took her hand. "Ah, Lord
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Warburton, how little you know me!" Isabel said very gently. Gently
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too she drew her hand away.
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"Don't taunt me with that, that I don't know you better makes me
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unhappy enough already; it's all my loss. But that's what I want,
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and it seems to me I'm taking the best way. If you'll be my wife, then
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I shall know you, and when I tell you all the good I think of you
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you'll not be able to say it's from ignorance."
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"If you know me little I know you even less," said Isabel.
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"You mean that, unlike yourself, I may not improve on
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acquaintance? Ah, of course that's very possible. But think, to
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speak to you as I do, how determined I must be to try and give
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satisfaction! You do like me rather, don't you?"
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"I like you very much, Lord Warburton," she answered; and at this
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moment she liked him immensely.
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"I thank you for saying that; it shows you don't regard me as a
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stranger. I really believe I've filled all the other relations of life
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very creditably, and I don't see why I shouldn't fill this one- in
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which I offer myself to you- seeing that I care so much more about it.
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Ask the people who know me well; I've friends who'll speak for me."
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"I don't need the recommendation of your friends," said Isabel.
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"Ah now, that's delightful of you. You believe in me yourself."
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"Completely," Isabel declared. She quite glowed there, inwardly,
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with the pleasure of feeling she did.
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The light in her companion's eyes turned into a smile, and he gave a
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long exhalation of joy. "If you're mistaken, Miss Archer, let me
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lose all I possess!"
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She wondered whether he meant this for a reminder that he was
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rich, and, on the instant, felt sure that he didn't. He was sinking
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that, as he would have said himself; and indeed he might safely
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leave it to the memory of any interlocutor, especially of one to
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whom he was offering his hand. Isabel had prayed that she might not be
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agitated, and her mind was tranquil enough, even while she listened
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and asked herself what it was best she should say, to indulge in
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this incidental criticism. What she should say, had she asked herself?
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Her foremost wish was to say something if possible not less kind
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than what he had said to her. His words had carried perfect conviction
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with them; she felt she did, all so mysteriously, matter to him. "I
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thank you more than I can say for your offer," she returned at last.
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"It does me great honour."
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"Ah, don't say that!" he broke out. "I was afraid you'd say
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something like that. I don't see what you've to do with that sort of
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thing. I don't see why you should thank me- it's I who ought to
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thank you for listening to me: a man you know so little coming down to
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you with such a thumper! Of course it's a great question; I must
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tell you that I'd rather ask it than have it to answer myself. But the
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way you've listened- or at least your having listened at all- gives me
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some hope."
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"Don't hope too much," Isabel said.
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"Oh, Miss Archer!" her companion murmured, smiling again, in his
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seriousness, as if such a warning might perhaps be taken but as the
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play of high spirits, the exuberance of elation.
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"Should you be greatly surprised if I were to beg you not to hope at
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all?" Isabel asked.
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"Surprised? I don't know what you mean by surprise. It wouldn't be
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that; it would be a feeling very much worse."
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Isabel walked on again; she was silent for some minutes. "I'm very
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sure that, highly as I already think of you, my opinion of you, if I
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should know you well, would only rise. But I'm by no means sure that
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you wouldn't be disappointed. And I say that not in the least out of
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conventional modesty; it's perfectly sincere."
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"I'm willing to risk it, Miss Archer," her companion replied.
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"It's a great question, as you say. It's a very difficult question."
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"I don't expect you of course to answer it outright. Think it over
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as long as may be necessary. If I can gain by waiting I'll gladly wait
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a long time. Only remember that in the end my dearest happiness
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depends on your answer."
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"I should be very sorry to keep you in suspense," said Isabel.
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"Oh, don't mind. I'd much rather have a good answer six months hence
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than a bad one to-day."
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"But it's very probable that even six months hence I shouldn't be
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able to give you one that you'd think good."
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"Why not, since you really like me?"
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"Ah, you must never doubt that," said Isabel.
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"Well then, I don't see what more you ask!"
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"It's not what I ask; it's what I can give. I don't think I should
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suit you; I really don't think I should."
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"You needn't worry about that. That's my affair. You needn't be a
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better royalist than the king."
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"It's not only that," said Isabel; "but I'm not sure I wish to marry
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any one."
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"Very likely you don't. I've no doubt a great many women begin
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that way," said his lordship, who, be it averred, did not in the least
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believe in the axiom he thus beguiled his anxiety by uttering. "But
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they're frequently persuaded."
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"Ah, that's because they want to be!" And Isabel lightly laughed.
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Her suitor's countenance fell, and he looked at her for a while in
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silence. "I'm afraid it's my being an Englishman that makes you
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hesitate," he said presently. "I know your uncle thinks you ought to
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marry in your own country."
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Isabel listened to this assertion with some interest; it had never
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|
occurred to her that Mr. Touchett was likely to discuss her
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|
matrimonial prospects with Lord Warburton. "Has he told you that?"
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"I remember his making the remark. He spoke perhaps of Americans
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generally."
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"He appears himself to have found it very pleasant to live in
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England." Isabel spoke in a manner that might have seemed a little
|
|
perverse, but which expressed both her constant perception of her
|
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uncle's outward felicity and her general disposition to elude any
|
|
obligation to take a restricted view.
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It gave her companion hope, and he immediately cried with warmth:
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"Ah, my dear Miss Archer, old England's a very good sort of country,
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|
you know! And it will be still better when we've furbished it up a
|
|
little."
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|
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"Oh, don't furbish it, Lord Warburton; leave it alone. I like it
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this way.
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"Well then, if you like it, I'm more and more unable to see your
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|
objection to what I propose."
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"I'm afraid I can't make you understand."
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"You ought at least to try. I've a fair intelligence. Are you
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afraid- afraid of the climate? We can easily live elsewhere, you know.
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You can pick out your climate, the whole world over."
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|
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These words were uttered with a breadth of candour that was like the
|
|
embrace of strong arms- that was like the fragrance straight in her
|
|
face, and by his clean, breathing lips, of she knew not what strange
|
|
gardens, what charged airs. She would have given her little finger
|
|
at that moment to feel strongly and simply the impulse to answer:
|
|
"Lord Warburton, it's impossible for me to do better in this wonderful
|
|
world, I think, than commit myself, very gratefully, to your loyalty."
|
|
But though she was lost in admiration of her opportunity she managed
|
|
to move back into the deepest shade of it, even as some wild, caught
|
|
creature in a vast cage. The "splendid" security so offered her was
|
|
not the greatest she could conceive. What she finally bethought
|
|
herself of saying was something very different- something that
|
|
deferred the need of really facing her crisis. "Don't think me
|
|
unkind if I ask you to say no more about this to-day."
|
|
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|
"Certainly, certainly!" her companion cried. "I wouldn't bore you
|
|
for the world."
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"You've given me a great deal to think about, and I promise you to
|
|
do it justice."
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|
|
"That's all I ask of you, of course- and that you'll remember how
|
|
absolutely my happiness is in your hands."
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|
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|
Isabel listened with extreme respect to this admonition, but she
|
|
said after a minute: "I must tell you that what I shall think about is
|
|
some way of letting you know that what you ask is impossible-
|
|
letting you know it without making you miserable."
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|
|
|
"There's no way to do that, Miss Archer. I won't say that if you
|
|
refuse me you'll kill me; I shall not die of it. But I shall do worse;
|
|
I shall live to no purpose.
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|
|
|
"You'll live to marry a better woman than I."
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|
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|
"Don't say that, please," said Lord Warburton very gravely.
|
|
"That's fair to neither of us."
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|
"To marry a worse one then."
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|
|
|
"If there are better women than you I prefer the bad ones. That's
|
|
all I can say," he went on with the same earnestness. "There's no
|
|
accounting for tastes."
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|
|
|
His gravity made her feel equally grave, and she showed it by
|
|
again requesting him to drop the subject for the present. "I'll
|
|
speak to you myself- very soon. Perhaps I shall write to you."
|
|
|
|
"At your convenience, yes," he replied. "Whatever time you take,
|
|
it must seem to me long, and I suppose I must make the best of that."
|
|
|
|
"I shall not keep you in suspense; I only want to collect my mind
|
|
a little."
|
|
|
|
He gave a melancholy sigh and stood looking at her a moment, with
|
|
his hands behind him, giving short nervous shakes to his hunting-crop.
|
|
"Do you know I'm very much afraid of it- of that remarkable mind of
|
|
yours?"
|
|
|
|
Our heroine's biographer can scarcely tell why, but the question
|
|
made her start and brought a conscious blush to her cheek. She
|
|
returned his look a moment, and then with a note in her voice that
|
|
might almost have appealed to his compassion, "So am I, my lord!"
|
|
she oddly exclaimed.
|
|
|
|
His compassion was not stirred, however; all he possessed of the
|
|
faculty of pity was needed at home. "Ah! be merciful, be merciful," he
|
|
murmured.
|
|
|
|
"I think you had better go," said Isabel. "I'll write to you."
|
|
|
|
"Very good; but whatever you write I'll come and see you, you know."
|
|
And then he stood reflecting, his eyes fixed on the observant
|
|
countenance of Bunchie, who had the air of having understood all
|
|
that had been said and of pretending to carry off the indiscretion
|
|
by a simulated fit of curiosity as to the roots of an ancient oak.
|
|
"There's one thing more," he went on. "You know, if you don't like
|
|
Lockleigh- if you think it's damp or anything of that sort- you need
|
|
never go within fifty miles of it. It's not damp, by the way; I've had
|
|
the house thoroughly examined; it's perfectly safe and right. But if
|
|
you shouldn't fancy it you needn't dream of living in it. There's no
|
|
difficulty whatever about that; there are plenty of houses. I
|
|
thought I'd just mention it; some people don't like a moat, you
|
|
know. Good-bye."
|
|
|
|
"I adore a moat," said Isabel. "Good-bye."
|
|
|
|
He held out his hand, and she gave him hers a moment- a moment
|
|
long enough for him to bend his handsome bared head and kiss it. Then,
|
|
still agitating, in his mastered emotion, his implement of the
|
|
chase, he walked rapidly away. He was evidently much upset.
|
|
|
|
Isabel herself was upset, but she had not been affected as she would
|
|
have imagined. What she felt was not a great responsibility, a great
|
|
difficulty of choice; it appeared to her there had been no choice in
|
|
the question. She couldn't marry Lord Warburton; the idea failed to
|
|
support any enlightened prejudice in favour of the free exploration of
|
|
life that she had hitherto entertained or was now capable of
|
|
entertaining. She must write this to him, she must convince him, and
|
|
that duty was comparatively simple. But what disturbed her, in the
|
|
sense that it struck her with wonderment, was this very fact that it
|
|
cost her so little to refuse a magnificent "chance." With whatever
|
|
qualifications one would, Lord Warburton had offered her a great
|
|
opportunity; the situation might have discomforts, might contain
|
|
oppressive, might contain narrowing elements, might prove really but a
|
|
stupefying anodyne; but she did her sex no injustice in believing that
|
|
nineteen women out of twenty would have accommodated themselves to
|
|
it without a pang. Why then upon her also should it not irresistibly
|
|
impose itself? Who was she, what was she, that she should hold herself
|
|
superior? What view of life, what design upon fate, what conception of
|
|
happiness, had she that pretended to be larger than these large, these
|
|
fabulous occasions? If she wouldn't do such a thing as that then she
|
|
must do great things, she must do something greater. Poor Isabel found
|
|
ground to remind herself from time to time that she must not be too
|
|
proud, and nothing could be more sincere than her prayer to be
|
|
delivered from such a danger: the isolation and loneliness of pride
|
|
had for her mind the horror of a desert place. If it had been pride
|
|
that interfered with her accepting Lord Warburton such a betise was
|
|
singularly misplaced; and she was so conscious of liking him that
|
|
she ventured to assure herself it was the very softness, and the
|
|
fine intelligence, of sympathy. She liked him too much to marry him,
|
|
that was the truth; something assured her there was a fallacy
|
|
somewhere in the glowing logic of the proposition- as he saw it-
|
|
even though she mightn't put her very finest finger-point on it; and
|
|
to inflict upon a man who offered so much a wife with a tendency to
|
|
criticize would be a peculiarly discreditable act. She had promised
|
|
him she would consider his question, and when, after he had left
|
|
her, she wandered back to the bench where he had found her and lost
|
|
herself in meditation, it might have seemed that she was keeping her
|
|
vow. But this was not the case; she was wondering if she were not a
|
|
cold, hard, priggish person, and, on her at last getting up and
|
|
going rather quickly back to the house, felt, as she had said to her
|
|
friend, really frightened at herself.
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|
|
|
CHAPTER 13
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|
|
It was this feeling and not the wish to ask advice- she had no
|
|
desire whatever for that- that led her to speak to her uncle of what
|
|
had taken place. She wished to speak to some one; she should feel more
|
|
natural, more human, and her uncle, for this purpose, presented
|
|
himself in a more attractive light than either her aunt or her
|
|
friend Henrietta. Her cousin of course was a possible confidant; but
|
|
she would have had to do herself violence to air this special secret
|
|
to Ralph. So the next day, after breakfast, she sought her occasion.
|
|
Her uncle never left his apartment till the afternoon, but he received
|
|
his cronies, as he said, in his dressing-room. Isabel had quite
|
|
taken her place in the class so designated, which, for the rest,
|
|
included the old man's son, his physician, his personal servant, and
|
|
even Miss Stackpole. Mrs. Touchett did not figure in the list, and
|
|
this was an obstacle the less to Isabel's finding her host alone. He
|
|
sat in a complicated mechanical chair, at the open window of his room,
|
|
looking westward over the park and the river, with his newspapers
|
|
and letters piled up beside him, his toilet freshly and minutely made,
|
|
and his smooth, speculative face composed to benevolent expectation.
|
|
|
|
She approached her point directly. "I think I ought to let you
|
|
know that Lord Warburton has asked me to marry him. I suppose I
|
|
ought to tell my aunt; but it seems best to tell you first."
|
|
|
|
The old man expressed no surprise, but thanked her for the
|
|
confidence she showed him.
|
|
|
|
"Do you mind telling me whether you accepted him?" he then enquired.
|
|
|
|
"I've not answered him definitely yet; I've taken a little time to
|
|
think of it, because that seems more respectful. But I shall not
|
|
accept him."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Touchett made no comment upon this; he had the air of thinking
|
|
that, whatever interest he might take in the matter from the point
|
|
of view of sociability, he had no active voice in it. "Well, I told
|
|
you you'd be a success over here. Americans are highly appreciated."
|
|
|
|
"Very highly indeed," said Isabel. "But at the cost of seeming
|
|
both tasteless and ungrateful, I don't think I can marry Lord
|
|
Warburton."
|
|
|
|
"Well," her uncle went on, "of course an old man can't judge for a
|
|
young lady. I'm glad you didn't ask me before you made up your mind. I
|
|
suppose I ought to tell you," he added slowly, but as it were not of
|
|
much consequence, "that I've known all about it these three days."
|
|
|
|
"About Lord Warburton's state of mind?"
|
|
|
|
"About his intentions, as they say here. He wrote me a very pleasant
|
|
letter, telling me all about them. Should you like to see his letter?"
|
|
the old man obligingly asked.
|
|
|
|
"Thank you; I don't think I care about that. But I'm glad he wrote
|
|
to you; it was right that he should, and he would be certain to do
|
|
what was right."
|
|
|
|
"Ah well, I guess you do like him!" Mr. Touchett declared. "You
|
|
needn't pretend you don't."
|
|
|
|
"I like him extremely; I'm very free to admit that. But I don't wish
|
|
to marry any one just now."
|
|
|
|
"You think some one may come along whom you may like better. Well,
|
|
that's very likely," said Mr. Touchett, who appeared to wish to show
|
|
his kindness to the girl by easing off her decision, as it were, and
|
|
finding cheerful reasons for it.
|
|
|
|
"I don't care if I don't meet any one else. I like Lord Warburton
|
|
quite well enough." She fell into that appearance of a sudden change
|
|
of point of view with which she sometimes startled and even displeased
|
|
her interlocutors.
|
|
|
|
Her uncle, however, seemed proof against either of these
|
|
impressions. "He's a very fine man," he resumed in a tone which
|
|
might have passed for that of encouragement. "His letter was one of
|
|
the pleasantest I've received for some weeks. I suppose one of the
|
|
reasons I like it was that it was all about you; that is all except
|
|
the part that was about himself. I suppose he told you all that."
|
|
|
|
"He would have told me everything I wished to ask him," Isabel said.
|
|
|
|
"But you didn't feel curious?"
|
|
|
|
"My curiosity would have been idle- once I had determined to decline
|
|
his offer."
|
|
|
|
"You didn't find it sufficiently attractive?" Mr. Touchett enquired.
|
|
|
|
She was silent a little. "I suppose it was that," she presently
|
|
admitted. "But I don't know why."
|
|
|
|
"Fortunately ladies are not obliged to give reasons," said her
|
|
uncle. "There's a great deal that's attractive about such an idea; but
|
|
I don't see why the English should want to entice us away from our
|
|
native land. I know that we try to attract them over there, but that's
|
|
because our population is insufficient. Here, you know, they're rather
|
|
crowded. However, I presume there's room for charming young ladies
|
|
everywhere."
|
|
|
|
"There seems to have been room here for you," said Isabel, whose
|
|
eyes had been wandering over the large pleasure-spaces of the park.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Touchett gave a shrewd, conscious smile. "There's room
|
|
everywhere, my dear, if you'll pay for it. I sometimes think I've paid
|
|
too much for this. Perhaps you also might have to pay too much."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps I might," the girl replied.
|
|
|
|
That suggestion gave her something more definite to rest on than she
|
|
had found in her own thoughts, and the fact of this association of her
|
|
uncle's mild acuteness with her dilemma seemed to prove that she was
|
|
concerned with the natural and reasonable emotions of life and not
|
|
altogether a victim to intellectual eagerness and vague ambitions-
|
|
ambitions reaching beyond Lord Warburton's beautiful appeal,
|
|
reaching to something indefinable and possibly not commendable. In
|
|
so far as the indefinable had an influence upon Isabel's behaviour
|
|
at this juncture, it was not the conception, even unformulated, of a
|
|
union with Caspar Goodwood; for however she might have resisted
|
|
conquest at her English suitor's large quiet hands she was at least as
|
|
far removed from the disposition to let the young man from Boston take
|
|
positive possession of her. The sentiment in which she sought refuge
|
|
after reading his letter was a critical view of his having come
|
|
abroad; for it was part of the influence he had upon her that he
|
|
seemed to deprive her of the sense of freedom. There was a
|
|
disagreeably strong push, a kind of hardness of presence, in his way
|
|
of rising before her. She had been haunted at moments by the image, by
|
|
the danger, of his disapproval and had wondered- a consideration she
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had never paid in equal degree to any one else- whether he would
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like what she did. The difficulty was that more than any man she had
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ever known, more than poor Lord Warburton (she had begun now to give
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his lordship the benefit of this epithet), Caspar Goodwood expressed
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for her an energy- and she had already felt it as a power- that was of
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his very nature. It was in no degree a matter of his "advantages"-
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it was a matter of the spirit that sat in his clear-burning eyes
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like some tireless watcher at a window. She might like it or not,
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but he insisted, ever, with his whole weight and force: even in
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one's usual contact with him one had to reckon with that. The idea
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of a diminished liberty was particularly disagreeable to her at
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present, since she had just given a sort of personal accent to her
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independence by looking so straight at Lord Warburton's big bribe
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and yet turning away from it. Sometimes Caspar Goodwood had seemed
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to range himself on the side of her destiny, to be the stubbornest
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fact she knew; she said to herself at such moments that she might
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evade him for a time, but that she must make terms with him at last-
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terms which would be certain to be favourable to himself. Her
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impulse had been to avail herself of the things that helped her to
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resist such an obligation; and this impulse had been much concerned in
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her eager acceptance of her aunt's invitation, which had come to her
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at an hour when she expected from day to day to see Mr. Goodwood and
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when she was glad to have an answer ready for something she was sure
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he would say to her. When she had told him at Albany, on the evening
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of Mrs. Touchett's visit, that she couldn't then discuss difficult
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questions, dazzled as she was by the great immediate opening of her
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aunt's offer of "Europe," he declared that this was no answer at
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all; and it was now to obtain a better one that he was following her
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across the sea. To say to herself that he was a kind of grim fate
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was well enough for a fanciful young woman who was able to take much
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for granted in him; but the reader has a right to a nearer and a
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clearer view.
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He was the son of a proprietor of well-known cotton-mills in
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Massachusetts- a gentleman who had accumulated a considerable
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fortune in the exercise of this industry. Caspar at present managed
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the works, and with a judgement and a temper which, in spite of keen
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competition and languid years, had kept their prosperity from
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dwindling. He had received the better part of his education at Harvard
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College, where, however, he had gained renown rather as a gymnast
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and an oarsman than as a gleaner of more dispersed knowledge. Later on
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he had learned that the finer intelligence too could vault and pull
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and strain- might even, breaking the record, treat itself to rare
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exploits. He had thus discovered in himself a sharp eye for the
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mystery of mechanics, and had invented an improvement in the
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cotton-spinning process which was now largely used and was known by
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his name. You might have seen it in the newspapers in connection
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with this fruitful contrivance; assurance of which he had given to
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Isabel by showing her in the columns of the New York Interviewer an
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exhaustive article on the Goodwood patent- an article not prepared
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by Miss Stackpole, friendly as she had proved herself to his more
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sentimental interests. There were intricate, bristling things he
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rejoiced in; he liked to organize, to contend, to administer; he could
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make people work his will, believe in him, march before him and
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justify him. This was the art, as they said, of managing men- which
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rested, in him, further, on a bold though brooding ambition. It struck
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those who knew him well that he might do greater things than carry
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on a cotton-factory; there was nothing cottony about Caspar
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Goodwood, and his friends took for granted that he would somehow and
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somewhere write himself in bigger letters. But it was as if
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something large and confused, something dark and ugly, would have to
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call upon him: he was not after all in harmony with mere smug peace
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and greed and gain, an order of things of which the vital breath was
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ubiquitous advertisement. It pleased Isabel to believe that he might
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have ridden, on a plunging steed, the whirlwind of a great war- a
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war like the Civil strife that had overdarkened her conscious
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childhood and his ripening youth.
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She liked at any rate this idea of his being by character and in
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fact a mover of men- liked it much better than some other points in
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his nature and aspect. She cared nothing for his cotton-mill- the
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Goodwood patent left her imagination absolutely cold. She wished him
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no ounce less of his manhood, but she sometimes thought he would be
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rather nicer if he looked, for instance, a little differently. His jaw
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was too square and set and his figure too straight and stiff: these
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|
things suggested a want of easy consonance with the deeper rhythms
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of life. Then she viewed with reserve a habit he had of dressing
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always in the same manner; it was not apparently that he wore the same
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clothes continually, for, on the contrary, his garments had a way of
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looking rather too new. But they all seemed of the same piece; the
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figure, the stuff, was so drearily usual. She had reminded herself
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|
more than once that this was a frivolous objection to a person of
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his importance; and then she had amended the rebuke by saying that
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it would be a frivolous objection only if she were in love with him.
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She was not in love with him and therefore might criticize his small
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defects as well as his great- which latter consisted in the collective
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|
reproach of his being too serious, or, rather, not of his being so,
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|
since one could never be, but certainly of his seeming so. He showed
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his appetites and designs too simply and artlessly; when one was alone
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|
with him he talked too much about the same subject, and when other
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|
people were present he talked too little about anything. And yet he
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was of supremely strong, clean make- which was so much: she saw the
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different fitted parts of him as she had seen, in museums and
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|
portraits, the different fitted parts of armoured warriors- in
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|
plates of steel handsomely inlaid with gold. It was very strange:
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|
where, ever, was any tangible link between her impression and her act?
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Caspar Goodwood had never corresponded to her idea of a delightful
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person, and she supposed that this was why he left her so harshly
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critical. When, however, Lord Warburton, who not only did correspond
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|
with it, but gave an extension to the term, appealed to her
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|
approval, she found herself still unsatisfied. It was certainly
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strange.
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The sense of her incoherence was not a help to answering Mr.
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Goodwood's letter, and Isabel determined to leave it a while
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|
unhonoured. If he had determined to persecute her he must take the
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|
consequences; foremost among which was his being left to perceive
|
|
how little it charmed her that he should come down to Gardencourt. She
|
|
was already liable to the incursions of one suitor at this place,
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|
and though it might be pleasant to be appreciated in opposite quarters
|
|
there was a kind of grossness in entertaining two such passionate
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|
pleaders at once, even in a case where the entertainment should
|
|
consist of dismissing them. She made no reply to Mr. Goodwood; but
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at the end of three days she wrote to Lord Warburton, and the letter
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belongs to our history.
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DEAR LORD WARBURTON- A great deal of earnest thought has not led me
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to change my mind about the suggestion you were so kind as to make
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me the other day. I am not, I am really and truly not, able to
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|
regard you in the light of a companion for life; or to think of your
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|
home- your various homes- as settled seat of my existence. These
|
|
things cannot be reasoned about, and I very earnestly entreat you
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|
not to return to the subject we discussed so exhaustively. We see
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our lives from our own point of view; that is the privilege of the
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|
weakest and humblest of us; and I shall never be able to see mine in
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|
the manner you proposed. Kindly let this suffice you, and do me the
|
|
justice to believe that I have given your proposal the deeply
|
|
respectful consideration it deserves. It is with this very great
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|
regard that I remain sincerely yours,
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ISABEL ARCHER
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While the author of this missive was making up her mind to
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|
despatch it Henrietta Stackpole formed a resolve which was accompanied
|
|
by no demur. She invited Ralph Touchett to take a walk with her in the
|
|
garden, and when he had assented with that alacrity which seemed
|
|
constantly to testify to his high expectations, she informed him
|
|
that she had a favour to ask of him. It may be admitted that at this
|
|
information the young man flinched; for we know that Miss Stackpole
|
|
had struck him as apt to push an advantage. The alarm was
|
|
unreasoned, however; for he was clear about the area of her
|
|
indiscretion as little as advised of its vertical depth, and he made a
|
|
very civil profession of the desire to serve her. He was afraid of her
|
|
and presently told her so. "When you look at me in a certain way my
|
|
knees knock together, my faculties desert me; I'm filled with
|
|
trepidation and I ask only for strength to execute your commands.
|
|
You've an address that I've never encountered in any woman."
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"Well," Henrietta replied good-humouredly, "if I had not known
|
|
before that you were trying somehow to abash me I should know it
|
|
now. Of course I'm easy game- I was brought up with such different
|
|
customs and ideas. I'm not used to your arbitrary standards, and
|
|
I've never been spoken to in America as you have spoken to me. If a
|
|
gentleman conversing with me over there were to speak to me like
|
|
that I shouldn't know what to make of it. We take everything more
|
|
naturally over there, and, after all, we're a great deal more
|
|
simple. I admit that; I'm very simple myself. Of course if you
|
|
choose to laugh at me for it you're very welcome; but I think on the
|
|
whole I would rather be myself than you. I'm quite content to be
|
|
myself; I don't want to change. There are plenty of people that
|
|
appreciate me just as I am. It's true they're nice fresh free-born
|
|
Americans!" Henrietta had lately taken up the tone of helpless
|
|
innocence and large concession. "I want you to assist me a little,"
|
|
she went on. "I don't care in the least whether I amuse you while
|
|
you do so; or, rather, I'm perfectly willing your amusement should
|
|
be your reward. I want you to help me about Isabel."
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|
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|
"Has she injured you?" Ralph asked.
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|
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|
"If she had I shouldn't mind, and I should never tell you. What
|
|
I'm afraid of is that she'll injure herself."
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|
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"I think that's very possible," said Ralph.
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|
|
|
His companion stopped in the garden-walk, fixing on him perhaps
|
|
the very gaze that unnerved him. "That too would amuse you, I suppose.
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|
The way you do things! I never heard any one so indifferent."
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|
|
|
"To Isabel? Ah, not that!"
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|
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|
"Well, you're not in love with her, I hope."
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|
|
|
"How can that be, when I'm in love with Another?"
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|
|
|
"You're in love with yourself, that's the Other!" Miss Stackpole
|
|
declared. "Much good may it do you! But if you wish to be serious once
|
|
in your life here's a chance; and if you really care for your cousin
|
|
here's an opportunity to prove it. I don't expect you to understand
|
|
her; that's too much to ask. But you needn't do that to grant my
|
|
favour. I'll supply the necessary intelligence."
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|
|
|
"I shall enjoy that immensely!" Ralph exclaimed. "I'll be Caliban
|
|
and you shall be Ariel."
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|
|
|
"You're not at all like Caliban, because you're sophisticated, and
|
|
Caliban was not. But I'm not talking about imaginary characters; I'm
|
|
talking about Isabel. Isabel's intensely real. What I wish to tell you
|
|
is that I find her fearfully changed."
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|
|
|
"Since you came, do you mean?"
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|
|
|
"Since I came and before I came. She's not the same as she once so
|
|
beautifully was."
|
|
|
|
"As she was in America?"
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|
|
|
"Yes, in America. I suppose you know she comes from there. She can't
|
|
help it, but she does."
|
|
|
|
"Do you want to change her back again?"
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|
|
|
"Of course I do, and I want you to help me."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Ralph, "I'm only Caliban; I'm not Prospero."
|
|
|
|
"You were Prospero enough to make her what she has become. You've
|
|
acted on Isabel Archer since she came here, Mr. Touchett."
|
|
|
|
"I, my dear Miss Stackpole? Never in the world. Isabel Archer has
|
|
acted on me- yes; she acts on every one. But I've been absolutely
|
|
passive."
|
|
|
|
"You're too passive then. You had better stir yourself and be
|
|
careful. Isabel's changing every day; she's drifting away- right out
|
|
to sea. I've watched her and I can see it. She's not the bright
|
|
American girl she was. She's taking different views, a different
|
|
colour, and turning away from her old ideals. I want to save those
|
|
ideals, Mr. Touchett, and that's where you come in."
|
|
|
|
"Not surely as an ideal?"
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|
|
|
"Well, I hope not," Henrietta replied promptly. "I've got a fear
|
|
in my heart that she's going to marry one of these fell Europeans, and
|
|
I want to prevent it."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, I see," cried Ralph; "and to prevent it you want me to step
|
|
in and marry her?"
|
|
|
|
"Not quite; that remedy would be as bad as the disease, for you're
|
|
the typical, the fell European from whom I wish to rescue her. No; I
|
|
wish you to take an interest in another person- a young man to whom
|
|
she once gave great encouragement and whom she now doesn't seem to
|
|
think good enough. He's a thoroughly grand man and a very dear
|
|
friend of mine, and I wish very much you would invite him to pay a
|
|
visit here."
|
|
|
|
Ralph was puzzled by this appeal, and it is perhaps not to the
|
|
credit of his purity of mind that he failed to look at it at first
|
|
in the simplest light. It wore, to his eyes, a tortuous air, and his
|
|
fault was that he was not quite sure that anything in the world
|
|
could really be as candid as this request of Miss Stackpole's
|
|
appeared. That a young woman should demand that a gentleman whom she
|
|
described as her very dear friend should be furnished with an
|
|
opportunity to make himself agreeable to another young woman, a
|
|
young woman whose attention had wandered and whose charms were
|
|
greater- this was an anomaly which for the moment challenged all his
|
|
ingenuity of interpretation. To read between the lines was easier than
|
|
to follow the text, and to suppose that Miss Stackpole wished the
|
|
gentleman invited to Gardencourt on her own account was the sign not
|
|
so much of a vulgar as of an embarrassed mind. Even from this venial
|
|
act of vulgarity, however, Ralph was saved, and saved by a force
|
|
that I can only speak of as inspiration. With no more outward light on
|
|
the subject than he already possessed he suddenly acquired the
|
|
conviction that it would be a sovereign injustice to the correspondent
|
|
of the Interviewer to assign a dishonourable motive to any act of
|
|
hers. This conviction passed into his mind with extreme rapidity; it
|
|
was perhaps kindled by the pure radiance of the young lady's
|
|
imperturbable gaze. He returned this challenge a moment,
|
|
consciously, resisting an inclination to frown as one frowns in the
|
|
presence of larger luminaries. "Who's the gentleman you speak of?"
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Caspar Goodwood- of Boston. He has been extremely attentive
|
|
to Isabel- just as devoted to her as he can live. He has followed
|
|
her out here and he's at present in London. I don't know his
|
|
address, but I guess I can obtain it."
|
|
|
|
"I've never heard of him," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I suppose you haven't heard of every one. I don't believe
|
|
he has ever heard of you; but that's no reason why Isabel shouldn't
|
|
marry him."
|
|
|
|
Ralph gave a mild ambiguous laugh. "What a rage you have for
|
|
marrying people! Do you remember how you wanted to marry me the
|
|
other day?"
|
|
|
|
"I've got over that. You don't know how to take such ideas. Mr.
|
|
Goodwood does, however; and that's what I like about him. He's a
|
|
splendid man and a perfect gentleman, and Isabel knows it."
|
|
|
|
"Is she very fond of him?"
|
|
|
|
"If she isn't she ought to be. He's simply wrapped up in her."
|
|
|
|
"And you wish me to ask him here," said Ralph reflectively.
|
|
|
|
"It would be an act of true hospitality."
|
|
|
|
"Caspar Goodwood," Ralph continued- "it's rather a striking name."
|
|
|
|
"I don't care anything about his name. It might be Ezekiel
|
|
Jenkins, and I should say the same. He's the only man I have ever seen
|
|
whom I think worthy of Isabel."
|
|
|
|
"You're a very devoted friend," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"Of course I am. If you say that to pour scorn on me I don't care."
|
|
|
|
"I don't say it to pour scorn on you; I'm very much struck with it."
|
|
|
|
"You're more satiric than ever, but I advise you not to laugh at Mr.
|
|
Goodwood."
|
|
|
|
"I assure you I'm very serious; you ought to understand that,"
|
|
said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
In a moment his companion understood it. "I believe you are; now
|
|
you're too serious."
|
|
|
|
"You're difficult to please."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, you're very serious indeed. You won't invite Mr. Goodwood."
|
|
|
|
"I don't know," said Ralph. "I'm capable of strange things. Tell
|
|
me a little about Mr. Goodwood. What's he like?"
|
|
|
|
"He's just the opposite of you. He's at the head of a
|
|
cotton-factory; a very fine one."
|
|
|
|
"Has he pleasant manners?" asked Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"Splendid manners- in the American style."
|
|
|
|
"Would he be an agreeable member of our little circle?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't think he'd care much about our little circle. He'd
|
|
concentrate on Isabel."
|
|
|
|
"And how would my cousin like that?"
|
|
|
|
"Very possibly not at all. But it will be good for her. It will call
|
|
back her thoughts."
|
|
|
|
"Call them back- from where?"
|
|
|
|
"From foreign parts and other unnatural places. Three months ago she
|
|
gave Mr. Goodwood every reason to suppose he was acceptable to her,
|
|
and it's not worthy of Isabel to go back on a real friend simply
|
|
because she has changed the scene. I've changed the scene too, and the
|
|
effect of it has been to make me care more for my old associations
|
|
than ever. It's my belief that the sooner Isabel changes it back again
|
|
the better. I know her well enough to know that she would never be
|
|
truly happy over here, and I wish her to form some strong American tie
|
|
that will act as a preservative."
|
|
|
|
"Aren't you perhaps a little too much in a hurry?" Ralph enquired.
|
|
"Don't you think you ought to give her more of a chance in poor old
|
|
England?"
|
|
|
|
"A chance to ruin her bright young life? One's never too much in a
|
|
hurry to save a precious human creature from drowning."
|
|
|
|
"As I understand it then," said Ralph, "you wish me to push Mr.
|
|
Goodwood overboard after her. Do you know," he added, "that I've never
|
|
heard her mention his name?"
|
|
|
|
Henrietta gave a brilliant smile. "I'm delighted to hear that; it
|
|
proves how much she thinks of him."
|
|
|
|
Ralph appeared to allow that there was a good deal in this, and he
|
|
surrendered to thought while his companion watched him askance. "If
|
|
I should invite Mr. Goodwood," he finally said, "it would be to
|
|
quarrel with him."
|
|
|
|
"Don't do that; he'd prove the better man."
|
|
|
|
"You certainly are doing your best to make me hate him! I really
|
|
don't think I can ask him. I should be afraid of being rude to, him."
|
|
|
|
"It's just as you please," Henrietta returned. "I had no idea you
|
|
were in love with her yourself."
|
|
|
|
"Do you really believe that?" the young man asked with lifted
|
|
eyebrows.
|
|
|
|
"That's the most natural speech I've ever heard you make! Of
|
|
course I believe it," Miss Stackpole ingeniously said.
|
|
|
|
"Well," Ralph concluded, "to prove to you that you're wrong I'll
|
|
invite him. It must be of course as a friend of yours."
|
|
|
|
"It will not be as a friend of mine that he'll come; and it will not
|
|
be to prove to me that I'm wrong that you'll ask him- but to prove
|
|
it to yourself!"
|
|
|
|
These last words of Miss Stackpole's (on which the two presently
|
|
separated) contained an amount of truth which Ralph Touchett was
|
|
obliged to recognize; but it so far took the edge from too sharp a
|
|
recognition that, in spite of his suspecting it would be rather more
|
|
indiscreet to keep than to break his promise, he wrote Mr. Goodwood
|
|
a note of six lines, expressing the pleasure it would give Mr.
|
|
Touchett the elder that he should join a little party at
|
|
Gardencourt, of which Miss Stackpole was a valued member. Having
|
|
sent his letter (to the care of a banker whom Henrietta suggested)
|
|
he waited in some suspense. He had heard this fresh formidable
|
|
figure named for the first time; for when his mother had mentioned
|
|
on her arrival that there was a story about the girl's having an
|
|
"admirer" at home, the idea had seemed deficient in reality and he had
|
|
taken no pains to ask questions the answers to which would involve
|
|
only the vague or the disagreeable. Now, however, the native
|
|
admiration of which his cousin was the object had become more
|
|
concrete; it took the form of a young man who had followed her to
|
|
London, who was interested in a cotton-mill and had manners in the
|
|
most splendid of the American styles. Ralph had two theories about
|
|
this intervener. Either his passion was a sentimental fiction of
|
|
Miss Stackpole's (there was always a sort of tacit understanding among
|
|
women, born of the solidarity of the sex, that they should discover or
|
|
invent lovers for each other), in which case he was not to be feared
|
|
and would probably not accept the invitation; or else he would
|
|
accept the invitation and in this event prove himself a creature too
|
|
irrational to demand further consideration. The latter clause of
|
|
Ralph's argument might have seemed incoherent; but it embodied his
|
|
conviction that if Mr. Goodwood were interested in Isabel in the
|
|
serious manner described by Miss Stackpole he would not care to
|
|
present himself at Gardencourt on a summons from the latter lady.
|
|
"On this supposition," said Ralph, "he must regard her as a thorn on
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the stem of his rose; as an intercessor he must find her wanting in
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tact."
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Two days after he had sent his invitation he received a very short
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note from Caspar Goodwood, thanking him for it, regretting that
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other engagements made a visit to Gardencourt impossible and
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presenting many compliments to Miss Stackpole. Ralph handed the note
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to Henrietta, who, when she had read it, exclaimed: "Well, I never
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have heard of anything so stiff!"
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"I'm afraid he doesn't care so much about my cousin as you suppose,"
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Ralph observed.
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"No, it's not that; it's some subtler motive. His nature's very
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deep. But I'm determined to fathom it, and I shall write to him to
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know what he means."
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His refusal of Ralph's overtures was vaguely disconcerting; from the
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moment he declined to come to Gardencourt our friend began to think
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him of importance. He asked himself what it signified to him whether
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Isabel's admirers should be desperadoes or laggards; they were not
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rivals of his and were perfectly welcome to act out their genius.
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Nevertheless he felt much curiosity as to the result of Miss
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Stackpole's promised enquiry into the causes of Mr. Goodwood's
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stiffness- a curiosity for the present ungratified, inasmuch as when
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he asked her three days later if she had written to London she was
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obliged to confess she had written in vain. Mr. Goodwood had not
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replied.
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"I suppose he's thinking it over," she said; "he thinks everything
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over; he's not really at all impetuous. But I'm accustomed to having
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my letters answered the same day." She presently proposed to Isabel,
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at all events, that they should make an excursion to London
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together. "If I must tell the truth," she observed, "I'm not seeing
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much at this place, and I shouldn't think you were either. I've not
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even seen that aristocrat- what's his name?- Lord Washburton. He seems
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to let you severely alone."
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"Lord Warburton's coming to-morrow, I happen to know," replied her
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friend, who had received a note from the master of Lockleigh in answer
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to her own letter. "You'll have every opportunity of turning him
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inside out."
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"Well, he may do for one letter, but what's one letter when you want
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to write fifty? I've described all the scenery in this vicinity and
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raved about all the old women and donkeys. You may say what you
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please, scenery doesn't make a vital letter. I must go back to
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London and get some impressions of real life. I was there but three
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days before I came away, and that's hardly time to get in touch."
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As Isabel, on her journey from New York to Gardencourt, had seen
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even less of the British capital than this, it appeared a happy
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suggestion of Henrietta's that the two should go thither on a visit of
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pleasure. The idea struck Isabel as charming; she was curious of the
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thick detail of London, which had always loomed large and rich to her.
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They turned over their schemes together and indulged in visions of
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romantic hours. They would stay at some picturesque old inn- one of
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the inns described by Dickens- and drive over the town in those
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delightful hansoms. Henrietta was a literary woman, and the great
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advantage of being a literary woman was that you could go everywhere
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and do everything. They would dine at a coffee-house and go afterwards
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to the play; they would frequent the Abbey and the British Museum
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and find out where Doctor Johnson had lived, and Goldsmith and
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Addison. Isabel grew eager and presently unveiled the bright vision to
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Ralph, who burst into a fit of laughter which scarce expressed the
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sympathy she had desired.
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"It's a delightful plan," he said. "I advise you to go to the Duke's
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Head in Covent Garden, an easy, informal, old-fashioned place, and
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I'll have you put down at my club."
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"Do you mean it's improper?" Isabel asked. "Dear me, isn't
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anything proper here? With Henrietta surely I may go anywhere; she
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isn't hampered in that way. She has travelled over the whole
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American continent and can at least find her way about this minute
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island."
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"Ah then," said Ralph, "let me take advantage of her protection to
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go up to town as well. I may never have a chance to travel so safely!"
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CHAPTER 14
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Miss Stackpole would have prepared to start immediately; but Isabel,
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as we have seen, had been notified that Lord Warburton would come
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again to Gardencourt, and she believed it her duty to remain there and
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see him. For four or five days he had made no response to her
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letter; then he had written, very briefly, to say he would come to
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luncheon two days later. There was something in these delays and
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|
postponements that touched the girl and renewed her sense of his
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desire to be considerate and patient, not to appear to urge her too
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grossly; a consideration the more studied that she was so sure he
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"really liked" her. Isabel told her uncle she had written to him,
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mentioning also his intention of coming; and the old man, in
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consequence, left his room earlier than usual and made his
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|
appearance at the two o'clock repast. This was by no means an act of
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vigilance on his part, but the fruit of a benevolent belief that his
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being of the company might help to cover any conjoined straying away
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|
in case Isabel should give their noble visitor another hearing. That
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personage drove over from Lockleigh and brought the elder of his
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sisters with him, a measure presumably dictated by reflexions of the
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|
same order as Mr. Touchett's. The two visitors were introduced to Miss
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Stackpole, who, at luncheon, occupied a seat adjoining Lord
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Warburton's. Isabel, who was nervous and had no relish for the
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|
prospect of again arguing the question he had so prematurely opened,
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|
could not help admiring his good-humoured self-possession, which quite
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|
disguised the symptoms of that preoccupation with her presence it
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|
was natural she should suppose him to feel. He neither looked at her
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|
nor spoke to her, and the only sign of his emotion was that he avoided
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|
meeting her eyes. He had plenty of talk for the others, however, and
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|
he appeared to eat his luncheon with discrimination and appetite. Miss
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|
Molyneux, who had a smooth, nun-like forehead and wore a large
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|
silver cross suspended from her neck, was evidently preoccupied with
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|
Henrietta Stackpole, upon whom her eyes constantly rested in a
|
|
manner suggesting a conflict between deep alienation and yearning
|
|
wonder. Of the two ladies from Lockleigh she was the one Isabel had
|
|
liked best; there was such a world of hereditary quiet in her.
|
|
Isabel was sure moreover that her mild forehead and silver cross
|
|
referred to some weird Anglican mystery- some delightful reinstitution
|
|
perhaps of the quaint office of the canoness. She wondered what Miss
|
|
Molyneux would think of her if she knew Miss Archer had refused her
|
|
brother; and then she felt sure that Miss Molyneux would never know-
|
|
that Lord Warburton never told her such things. He was fond of her and
|
|
kind to her, but on the whole he told her little. Such, at least,
|
|
was Isabel's theory; when, at table, she was not occupied in
|
|
conversation she was usually occupied in forming theories about her
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|
neighbours. According to Isabel, if Miss Molyneux should ever learn
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|
what had passed between Miss Archer and Lord Warburton she would
|
|
probably be shocked at such a girl's failure to rise; or no, rather
|
|
(this was our heroine's last position) she would impute to the young
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|
American but a due consciousness of inequality.
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Whatever Isabel might have made of her opportunities, at all events,
|
|
Henrietta Stackpole was by no means disposed to neglect those in which
|
|
she now found herself immersed. "Do you know you're the first lord
|
|
I've ever seen?" she said very promptly to her neighbour. "I suppose
|
|
you think I'm awfully benighted."
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"You've escaped seeing some very ugly men," Lord Warburton answered,
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|
looking a trifle absently about the table.
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"Are they very ugly? They try to make us believe in America that
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|
they're all handsome and magnificent and that they wear wonderful
|
|
robes and crowns."
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|
"Ah, the robes and crowns are gone out of fashion," said Lord
|
|
Warburton, "like your tomahawks and revolvers."
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|
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|
"I'm sorry for that; I think an aristocracy ought to be splendid,"
|
|
Henrietta declared. "If it's not that, what is it?"
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"Oh, you know, it isn't much, at the best," her neighbour allowed.
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|
"Won't you have a potato?"
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"I don't care much for these European potatoes. I shouldn't know you
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|
from an ordinary American gentleman."
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"Do talk to me as if I were one," said Lord Warburton. "I don't
|
|
see how you manage to get on without potatoes; you must find so few
|
|
things to eat over here."
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Henrietta was silent a little; there was a chance he was not
|
|
sincere. "I've had hardly any appetite since I've been here," she went
|
|
on at last; "so it doesn't much matter. I don't approve of you, you
|
|
know; I feel as if I ought to tell you that."
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|
"Don't approve of me?"
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"Yes; I don't suppose any one ever said such a thing to you
|
|
before, did they? I don't approve of lords as an institution. I
|
|
think the world has got beyond them- far beyond."
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|
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"Oh, so do I. I don't approve of myself in the least. Sometimes it
|
|
comes over me- how I should object to myself if I were not myself,
|
|
don't you know? But that's rather good, by the way- not to be
|
|
vainglorious."
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|
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|
"Why don't you give it up then?" Miss Stackpole enquired.
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"Give up- a-?" asked Lord Warburton, meeting her harsh inflexion
|
|
with a very mellow one.
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"Give up being a lord."
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"Oh, I'm so little of one! One would really forget all about it if
|
|
you wretched Americans were not constantly reminding one. However, I
|
|
do think of giving it up, the little there is left of it, one of these
|
|
days."
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|
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"I should like to see you do it!" Henrietta exclaimed rather grimly.
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"I'll invite you to the ceremony; we'll have a supper and a dance."
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"Well," said Miss Stackpole, "I like to see all sides. I don't
|
|
approve of a privileged class, but I like to hear what they have to
|
|
say for themselves."
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|
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"Mighty little, as you see!"
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|
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"I should like to draw you out a little more," Henrietta
|
|
continued. "But you're always looking away. You're afraid of meeting
|
|
my eye. I see you want to escape me."
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|
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"No, I'm only looking for those despised potatoes."
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"Please explain about that young lady- your sister- then. I don't
|
|
understand about her. Is she a Lady?"
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"She's a capital good girl."
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|
|
|
"I don't like the way you say that- as if you wanted to change the
|
|
subject. Is her position inferior to yours?"
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|
|
|
"We neither of us have any position to speak of; but she's better
|
|
off than I, because she has none of the bother."
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|
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|
"Yes, she doesn't look as if she had much bother. I wish I had as
|
|
little bother as that. You do produce quiet people over here, whatever
|
|
else you may do."
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|
|
|
"Ah, you see one takes life easily, on the whole," said Lord
|
|
Warburton. "And then you know we're very dull. Ah, we can be dull when
|
|
we try!"
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|
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"I should advise you to try something else. I shouldn't know what to
|
|
talk to your sister about; she looks so different. Is that silver
|
|
cross a badge?"
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|
|
|
"A badge?"
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|
|
|
"A sign of rank."
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|
|
|
Lord Warburton's glance had wandered a good deal, but at this it met
|
|
the gaze of his neighbour. "Oh yes," he answered in a moment; "the
|
|
women go in for those things. The silver cross is worn by the eldest
|
|
daughters of Viscounts." Which was his harmless revenge for having
|
|
occasionally had his credulity too easily engaged in America. After
|
|
luncheon he proposed to Isabel to come into the gallery and look at
|
|
the pictures; and though she knew he had seen the pictures twenty
|
|
times she complied without criticizing this pretext. Her conscience
|
|
now was very easy; ever since she sent him her letter she had felt
|
|
particularly light of spirit. He walked slowly to the end of the
|
|
gallery, staring at its contents and saying nothing; and then he
|
|
suddenly broke out: "I hoped you wouldn't write to me that way."
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|
|
|
"It was the only way, Lord Warburton," said the girl. "Do try and
|
|
believe that."
|
|
|
|
"If I could believe it of course I should let you alone. But we
|
|
can't believe by willing it; and I confess I don't understand. I could
|
|
understand your disliking me; that I could understand well. But that
|
|
you should admit you do-"
|
|
|
|
"What have I admitted?" Isabel interrupted, turning slightly pale.
|
|
|
|
"That you think me a good fellow; isn't that it?" She said
|
|
nothing, and he went on: "You don't seem to have any reason, and
|
|
that gives me a sense of injustice."
|
|
|
|
"I have a reason, Lord Warburton." She said it in a tone that made
|
|
his heart contract.
|
|
|
|
"I should like very much to know it."
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|
|
|
"I'll tell you some day when there's more to show for it."
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|
|
|
"Excuse my saying that in the mean time I must doubt of it."
|
|
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|
"You make me very unhappy," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"I'm not sorry for that; it may help you to know how I feel. Will
|
|
you kindly answer me a question?" Isabel made no audible assent, but
|
|
he apparently saw in her eyes something that gave him courage to go
|
|
on. "Do you prefer some one else?"
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|
|
|
"That's a question I'd rather not answer."
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|
|
|
"Ah, you do then!" her suitor murmured with bitterness.
|
|
|
|
The bitterness touched her, and she cried out: "You're mistaken! I
|
|
don't."
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|
|
|
He sat down on a bench, unceremoniously, doggedly, like a man in
|
|
trouble; leaning his elbows on his knees and staring at the floor.
|
|
"I can't even be glad of that," he said at last, throwing himself back
|
|
against the wall; "for that would be an excuse."
|
|
|
|
She raised her eyebrows in surprise. "An excuse? Must I excuse
|
|
myself?"
|
|
|
|
He paid, however, no answer to the question. Another idea had come
|
|
into his head. "Is it my political opinions? Do you think I go too
|
|
far?"
|
|
|
|
"I can't object to your political opinions, because I don't
|
|
understand them."
|
|
|
|
"You don't care what I think!" he cried, getting up. "It's all the
|
|
same to you.
|
|
|
|
Isabel walked to the other side of the gallery and stood there
|
|
showing him her charming back, her light slim figure, the length of
|
|
her white neck as she bent her head, and the density of her dark
|
|
braids. She stopped in front of a small picture as if for the
|
|
purpose of examining it; and there was something so young and free
|
|
in her movement that her very pliancy seemed to mock at him. Her eyes,
|
|
however, saw nothing; they had suddenly been suffused with tears. In a
|
|
moment he followed her, and by this time she had brushed her tears
|
|
away; but when she turned round her face was pale and the expression
|
|
of her eyes strange. "That reason that I wouldn't tell you- I'll
|
|
tell it you after all. It's that I can't escape my fate."
|
|
|
|
"Your fate?"
|
|
|
|
"I should try to escape it if I were to marry you."
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|
|
|
"I don't understand. Why should not that be your fate as well as
|
|
anything else?"
|
|
|
|
"Because it's not," said Isabel femininely. "I know it's not. It's
|
|
not my fate to give up- I know it can't be."
|
|
|
|
Poor Lord Warburton stared, an interrogative point in either eye.
|
|
"Do you call marrying me giving up?"
|
|
|
|
"Not in the usual sense. It's getting- getting- getting a great
|
|
deal. But it's giving up other chances."
|
|
|
|
"Other chances for what?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't mean chances to marry," said Isabel, her colour quickly
|
|
coming back to her. And then she stopped, looking down with a deep
|
|
frown, as if it were hopeless to attempt to make her meaning clear.
|
|
|
|
"I don't think it presumptuous in me to suggest that you'll gain
|
|
more than you'll lose," her companion observed.
|
|
|
|
"I can't escape unhappiness," said Isabel. "In marrying you I
|
|
shall be trying to."
|
|
|
|
"I don't know whether you'd try to, but you certainly would: that
|
|
I must in candour admit!" he exclaimed with an anxious laugh.
|
|
|
|
"I mustn't- I can't!" cried the girl.
|
|
|
|
"Well, if you're bent on being miserable I don't see why you
|
|
should make me so. Whatever charms a life of misery may have for
|
|
you, it has none for me."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not bent on a life of misery," said Isabel. "I've always been
|
|
intensely determined to be happy, and I've often believed I should be.
|
|
I've told people that; you can ask them. But it comes over me every
|
|
now and then that I can never be happy in any extraordinary way; not
|
|
by turning away, by separating myself."
|
|
|
|
"By separating yourself from what?"
|
|
|
|
"From life. From the usual chances and dangers, from what most
|
|
people know and suffer."
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton broke into a smile that almost denoted hope. "Why, my
|
|
dear Miss Archer," he began to explain with the most considerate
|
|
eagerness, "I don't offer you any exoneration from life or from any
|
|
chances or dangers whatever. I wish I could; depend upon it I would!
|
|
For what do you take me, pray? Heaven help me, I'm not the Emperor
|
|
of China! All I offer you is the chance of taking the common lot in
|
|
a comfortable sort of way. The common lot? Why, I'm devoted to the
|
|
common lot! Strike an alliance with me, and I promise you that you
|
|
shall have plenty of it. You shall separate from nothing whatever- not
|
|
even from your friend Miss Stackpole."
|
|
|
|
"She'd never approve of it," said Isabel, trying to smile and take
|
|
advantage of this side-issue; despising herself too, not a little, for
|
|
doing so.
|
|
|
|
"Are we speaking of Miss Stackpole?" his lordship asked impatiently.
|
|
"I never saw a person judge things on such theoretic grounds."
|
|
|
|
"Now I suppose you're speaking of me," said Isabel with humility;
|
|
and she turned away again, for she saw Miss Molyneux enter the
|
|
gallery, accompanied by Henrietta and by Ralph.
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton's sister addressed him with a certain timidity and
|
|
reminded him she ought to return home in time for tea, as she was
|
|
expecting company to partake of it. He made no answer- apparently
|
|
not having heard her; he was preoccupied, and with good reason. Miss
|
|
Molyneux- as if he had been Royalty- stood like a lady-in-waiting.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I never, Miss Molyneux!" said Henrietta Stackpole. "If I
|
|
wanted to go he'd have to go. If I wanted my brother to do a thing
|
|
he'd have to do it."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, Warburton does everything one wants," Miss Molyneux answered
|
|
with a quick, shy laugh. "How very many pictures you have!" she went
|
|
on, turning to Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"They look a good many, because they're all put together," said
|
|
Ralph. "But it's really a bad way."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I think it's so nice. I wish we had a gallery at Lockleigh. I'm
|
|
so very fond of pictures," Miss Molyneux went on, persistently, to
|
|
Ralph, as if she were afraid Miss Stackpole would address her again.
|
|
Henrietta appeared at once to fascinate and to frighten her.
|
|
|
|
"Ah yes, pictures are very convenient," said Ralph, who appeared
|
|
to know better what style of reflexion was acceptable to her.
|
|
|
|
"They're so very pleasant when it rains," the young lady
|
|
continued. "It has rained of late so very often."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sorry you're going away, Lord Warburton," said Henrietta. "I
|
|
wanted to get a great deal more out of you."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not going away," Lord Warburton answered.
|
|
|
|
"Your sister says you must. In America the gentlemen obey the
|
|
ladies."
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid we have some people to tea," said Miss Molyneux, looking
|
|
at her brother.
|
|
|
|
"Very good, my dear. We'll go."
|
|
|
|
"I hoped you would resist!" Henrietta exclaimed. "I wanted to see
|
|
what Miss Molyneux would do."
|
|
|
|
"I never do anything," said this young lady.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose in your position it's sufficient for you to exist!"
|
|
Miss Stackpole returned. "I should like very much to see you at home."
|
|
|
|
"You must come to Lockleigh again," said Miss Molyneux, very
|
|
sweetly, to Isabel, ignoring this remark of Isabel's friend.
|
|
|
|
Isabel looked into her quiet eyes a moment, and for that moment
|
|
seemed to see in their grey depths the reflexion of everything she had
|
|
rejected in rejecting Lord Warburton- the peace, the kindness, the
|
|
honour, the possessions, a deep security and a great exclusion. She
|
|
kissed Miss Molyneux and then she said: "I'm afraid I can never come
|
|
again."
|
|
|
|
"Never again?"
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid I'm going away."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I'm so very sorry," said Miss Molyneux. "I think that's so very
|
|
wrong of you."
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton watched this little passage; then he turned away
|
|
and stared at a picture. Ralph, leaning against the rail before the
|
|
picture with his hands in his pockets, had for the moment been
|
|
watching him.
|
|
|
|
"I should like to see you at home," said Henrietta, whom Lord
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Warburton found beside him. "I should like an hour's talk with you;
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there are a great many questions I wish to ask you."
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"I shall be delighted to see you," the proprietor of Lockleigh
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answered; "but I'm certain not to be able to answer many of your
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questions. When will you come?"
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"Whenever Miss Archer will take me. We're thinking of going to
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London, but we'll go and see you first. I'm determined to get some
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satisfaction out of you."
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"If it depends upon Miss Archer I'm afraid you won't get much. She
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won't come to Lockleigh; she doesn't like the place."
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"She told me it was lovely!" said Henrietta.
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Lord Warburton hesitated. "She won't come, all the same. You had
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better come alone," he added.
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Henrietta straightened herself, and her large eyes expanded.
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"Would you make that remark to an English lady?" she enquired with
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soft asperity.
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Lord Warburton stared. "Yes, if I liked her enough."
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"You'd be careful not to like her enough. If Miss Archer won't visit
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your place again it's because she doesn't want to take me. I know what
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she thinks of me, and I suppose you think the same- that I oughtn't to
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bring in individuals." Lord Warburton was at a loss; he had not been
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made acquainted with Miss Stackpole's professional character and
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failed to catch her allusion. "Miss Archer has been warning you!"
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she therefore went on.
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"Warning me?"
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"Isn't that why she came off alone with you here- to put you on your
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guard?"
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"Oh dear, no," said Lord Warburton brazenly; "our talk had no such
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solemn character as that."
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"Well, you've been on your guard- intensely. I suppose it's
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natural to you; that's just what I wanted to observe. And so, too,
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Miss Molyneux- she wouldn't commit herself. You have been warned,
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anyway," Henrietta continued, addressing this young lady; "but for you
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it wasn't necessary."
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"I hope not," said Miss Molyneux vaguely.
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"Miss Stackpole takes notes," Ralph soothingly explained. "She's a
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great satirist; she sees through us all and she works us up."
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"Well, I must say I never have had such a collection of had
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material!" Henrietta declared, looking from Isabel to Lord Warburton
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and from this nobleman to his sister and to Ralph. "There's
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something the matter with you all; you're as dismal as if you had
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got a bad cable."
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"You do see through us, Miss Stackpole," said Ralph in a low tone,
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giving her a little intelligent nod as he led the party out of the
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gallery. "There's something the matter with us all."
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Isabel came behind these two; Miss Molyneux, who decidedly liked her
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immensely, had taken her arm, to walk beside her over the polished
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floor. Lord Warburton strolled on the other side with his hands behind
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him and his eyes lowered. For some moments he said nothing; and
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then, "Is it true you're going to London?" he asked.
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"I believe it has been arranged."
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"And when shall you come back?"
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"In a few days; but probably for a very short time. I'm going to
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Paris with my aunt."
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"When, then, shall I see you again?"
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"Not for a good while," said Isabel. "But some day or other, I
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hope."
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"Do you really hope it?"
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"Very much."
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He went a few steps in silence; then he stopped and put out his
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hand. "Good-bye."
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"Good-bye," said Isabel.
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Miss Molyneux kissed her again, and she let the two depart. After
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it, without rejoining Henrietta and Ralph, she retreated to her own
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room; in which apartment, before dinner, she was found by Mrs.
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Touchett, who had stopped on her way to the saloon. "I may as well
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tell you," said that lady, "that your uncle has informed me of your
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relations with Lord Warburton."
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Isabel considered. "Relations? They're hardly relations. That's
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the strange part of it: he has seen me but three or four times."
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"Why did you tell your uncle rather than me?" Mrs. Touchett
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dispassionately asked.
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Again the girl hesitated. "Because he knows Lord Warburton better."
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"Yes, but I know you better."
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"I'm not sure of that," said Isabel, smiling.
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"Neither am I, after all; especially when you give me that rather
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conceited look. One would think you were awfully pleased with yourself
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and had carried off a prize! I suppose that when you refuse an offer
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like Lord Warburton's it's because you expect to do something better."
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"Ah, my uncle didn't say that!" cried Isabel, smiling still.
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CHAPTER 15
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It had been arranged that the two young ladies should proceed to
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London under Ralph's escort, though Mrs. Touchett looked with little
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favour on the plan. It was just the sort of plan, she said, that
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Miss Stackpole would be sure to suggest, and she enquired if the
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correspondent of the Interviewer was to take the party to stay at a
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boarding-house.
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"I don't care where she takes us to stay, so long as there's local
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colour," said Isabel. "That's what we're going to London for."
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"I suppose that after a girl has refused an English lord she may
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do anything," her aunt rejoined. "After that one needn't stand on
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trifles."
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"Should you have liked me to marry Lord Warburton?" Isabel enquired.
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"Of course I should."
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"I thought you disliked the English so much."
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"So I do; but it's all the greater reason for making use of them."
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"Is that your idea of marriage?" And Isabel ventured to add that her
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aunt appeared to her to have made very little use of Mr. Touchett.
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"Your uncle's not an English nobleman," said Mrs. Touchett,
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"though even if he had been I should still probably have taken up my
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residence in Florence."
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"Do you think Lord Warburton could make me any better than I am?"
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the girl asked with some animation. "I don't mean I'm too good to
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improve. I mean- I mean that I don't love Lord Warburton enough to
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marry him."
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"You did right to refuse him then," said Mrs. Touchett in her
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smallest, sparest voice. "Only, the next great offer you get, I hope
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you'll manage to come up to your standard."
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"We had better wait till the offer comes before we talk about it.
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I hope very much I may have no more offers for the present. They upset
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me completely."
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"You probably won't be troubled with them if you adopt permanently
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the Bohemian manner of life. However, I've promised Ralph not to
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criticize."
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"I'll do whatever Ralph says is right," Isabel returned. "I've
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unbounded confidence in Ralph."
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"His mother's much obliged to you!" this lady dryly laughed.
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"It seems to me indeed she ought to feel it!" Isabel irrepressibly
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answered.
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Ralph had assured her that there would be no violation of decency in
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their paying a visit- the little party of three- to the sights of
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the metropolis; but Mrs. Touchett took a different view. Like many
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ladies of her country who had lived a long time in Europe, she had
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completely lost her native tact on such points, and in her reaction,
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not in itself deplorable, against the liberty allowed to young persons
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beyond the seas, had fallen into gratuitous and exaggerated
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scruples. Ralph accompanied their visitors to town and established
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them at a quiet inn in a street that ran at right angles to
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Piccadilly. His first idea had been to take them to his father's house
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in Winchester Square, a large, dull mansion which at this period of
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the year was shrouded in silence and brown holland; but he bethought
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himself that, the cook being at Gardencourt, there was no one in the
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house to get them their meals, and Pratt's Hotel accordingly became
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their resting-place. Ralph, on his side, found quarters in
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Winchester Square, having a "den" there of which he was very fond
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and being familiar with deeper fears than that of a cold kitchen. He
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|
availed himself largely indeed of the resources of Pratt's Hotel,
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beginning his day with an early visit to his fellow travellers, who
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had Mr. Pratt in person, in a large bulging white waistcoat, to remove
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their dishcovers. Ralph turned up, as he said, after breakfast, and
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the little party made out a scheme of entertainment for the day. As
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London wears in the month of September a face blank but for its smears
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of prior service, the young man, who occasionally took an apologetic
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tone, was obliged to remind his companion, to Miss Stackpole's high
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derision, that there wasn't a creature in town.
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"I suppose you mean the aristocracy are absent," Henrietta answered;
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"but I don't think you could have a better proof that if they were
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absent altogether they wouldn't be missed. It seems to me the place is
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about as full as it can be. There's no one here, of course, but
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|
three or four millions of people. What is it you call them- the
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|
lower-middle class? They're only the population of London, and
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that's of no consequence."
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Ralph declared that for him the aristocracy left no void that Miss
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|
Stackpole herself didn't fill, and that a more contented man was
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|
nowhere at that moment to be found. In this he spoke the truth, for
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|
the stale September days, in the huge half-empty town, had a charm
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|
wrapped in them as a coloured gem might be wrapped in a dusty cloth.
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|
When he went home at night to the empty house in Winchester Square,
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|
after a chain of hours with his comparatively ardent friends, he
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|
wandered into the big dusky dining-room, where the candle he took from
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the hall-table, after letting himself in, constituted the only
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|
illumination. The square was still, the house was still; when he
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|
raised one of the windows of the dining-room to let in the air he
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|
heard the slow creak of the boots of a lone constable. His own step,
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|
in the empty place, seemed loud and sonorous; some of the carpets
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|
had been raised, and whenever he moved he roused a melancholy echo. He
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|
sat down in one of the armchairs; the big dark dining table twinkled
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|
here and there in the small candle-light; the pictures on the wall,
|
|
all of them very brown, looked vague and incoherent. There was a
|
|
ghostly presence as of dinners long since digested, of table-talk that
|
|
had lost its actuality. This hint of the supernatural perhaps had
|
|
something to do with the fact that his imagination took a flight and
|
|
that he remained in his chair a long time beyond the hour at which
|
|
he should have been in bed; doing nothing, not even reading the
|
|
evening paper. I say he did nothing, and I maintain the phrase in
|
|
the face of the fact that he thought at these moments of Isabel. To
|
|
think of Isabel could only be for him an idle pursuit, leading to
|
|
nothing and profiting little to any one. His cousin had not yet seemed
|
|
to him so charming as during these days spent in sounding,
|
|
tourist-fashion, the deeps and shallows of the metropolitan element.
|
|
Isabel was full of premises, conclusions, emotions; if she had come in
|
|
search of local colour she found it everywhere. She asked more
|
|
questions than he could answer, and launched brave theories, as to
|
|
historic cause and social effect, that he was equally unable to accept
|
|
or to refute. The party went more than once to the British Museum
|
|
and to that brighter palace of art which reclaims for antique
|
|
variety so large an area of a monotonous suburb; they spent a
|
|
morning in the Abbey and went on a penny-steamer to the Tower; they
|
|
looked at pictures both in public and private collections and sat on
|
|
various occasions beneath the great trees in Kensington Gardens.
|
|
Henrietta proved an indestructible sight-seer and a more lenient judge
|
|
than Ralph had ventured to hope. She had indeed many
|
|
disappointments, and London at large suffered from her vivid
|
|
remembrance of the strong points of the American civic idea; but she
|
|
made the best of its dingy dignities and only heaved an occasional
|
|
sigh and uttered a desultory "Well!" which led no further and lost
|
|
itself in retrospect. The truth was that, as she said herself, she was
|
|
not in her element. "I've not a sympathy with inanimate objects,"
|
|
she remarked to Isabel at the National Gallery; and she continued to
|
|
suffer from the meagreness of the glimpse that had as yet been
|
|
vouchsafed to her of the inner life. Landscapes by Turner and Assyrian
|
|
bulls were a poor substitute for the literary dinner-parties at
|
|
which she had hoped to meet the genius and renown of Great Britain.
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|
|
|
"Where are your public men, where are your men and women of
|
|
intellect?" she enquired of Ralph, standing in the middle of Trafalgar
|
|
Square as if she had supposed this to be a place where she would
|
|
naturally meet a few. "That's one of them on the top of the column,
|
|
you say- Lord Nelson? Was he a lord too? Wasn't he high enough, that
|
|
they had to stick him a hundred feet in the air? That's the past- I
|
|
don't care about the past; I want to see some of the leading minds
|
|
of the present. I won't say of the future, because I don't believe
|
|
much in your future." Poor Ralph had few leading minds among his
|
|
acquaintance and rarely enjoyed the pleasure of button-holing a
|
|
celebrity; a state of things which appeared to Miss Stackpole to
|
|
indicate a deplorable want of enterprise. "If I were on the other side
|
|
I should call," she said, "and tell the gentleman, whoever he might
|
|
be, that I had heard a great deal about him and had come to see for
|
|
myself. But I gather from what you say that this is not the custom
|
|
here. You seem to have plenty of meaningless customs, but none of
|
|
those that would help along. We are in advance, certainly. I suppose I
|
|
shall have to give up the social side altogether"; and Henrietta,
|
|
though she went about with her guidebook and pencil and wrote a letter
|
|
to the Interviewer about the Tower (in which she described the
|
|
execution of Lady Jane Grey), had a sad sense of falling below her
|
|
mission.
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|
|
|
The incident that had preceded Isabel's departure from Gardencourt
|
|
left a painful trace in our young woman's mind: when she felt again in
|
|
her face, as from a recurrent wave, the cold breath of her last
|
|
suitor's surprise, she could only muffle her head till the air
|
|
cleared. She could not have done less than what she did; this was
|
|
certainly true. But her necessity, all the same, had been as graceless
|
|
as some physical act in a strained attitude, and she felt no desire to
|
|
take credit for her conduct. Mixed with this imperfect pride,
|
|
nevertheless, was a feeling of freedom which in itself was sweet and
|
|
which, as she wandered through the great city with her ill-matched
|
|
companions, occasionally throbbed into odd demonstrations. When she
|
|
walked in Kensington Gardens she stopped the children (mainly of the
|
|
poorer sort) whom she saw playing on the grass; she asked them their
|
|
names and gave them sixpence and, when they were pretty, kissed
|
|
them. Ralph noticed these quaint charities; he noticed everything
|
|
she did. One afternoon, that his companions might pass the time, he
|
|
invited them to tea in Winchester Square, and he had the house set
|
|
in order as much as possible for their visit. There was another
|
|
guest to meet them, an amiable bachelor, an old friend of Ralph's
|
|
who happened to be in town and for whom prompt commerce with Miss
|
|
Stackpole appeared to have neither difficulty nor dread. Mr. Bantling,
|
|
a stout, sleek, smiling man of forty, wonderfully dressed, universally
|
|
informed and incoherently amused, laughed immoderately at everything
|
|
Henrietta said, gave her several cups of tea, examined in her
|
|
society the bric-a-brac, of which Ralph had a considerable collection,
|
|
and afterwards, when the host proposed they should go out into the
|
|
square and pretend it was a fete-champetre, walked round the limited
|
|
enclosure several times with her and, at a dozen turns of their
|
|
talk, bounded responsive- as with a positive passion for argument-
|
|
to her remarks upon the inner life.
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"Oh, I see; I dare say you found it very quiet at Gardencourt.
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|
Naturally there's not much going on there when there's such a lot of
|
|
illness about. Touchett's very bad, you know; the doctors have
|
|
forbidden his being in England at all, and he has only come back to
|
|
take care of his father. The old man, I believe, has half a dozen
|
|
things the matter with him. They call it gout, but to my certain
|
|
knowledge he has organic disease so developed that you may depend upon
|
|
it he'll go, some day soon, quite quickly. Of course that sort of
|
|
thing makes a dreadfully dull house; I wonder they have people when
|
|
they can do so little for them. Then I believe Mr. Touchett's always
|
|
squabbling with his wife; she lives away from her husband, you know,
|
|
in that extraordinary American way of yours. If you want a house where
|
|
there's always something going on, I recommend you to go down and stay
|
|
with my sister, Lady Pensil, in Bedfordshire. I'll write to her
|
|
tomorrow and I'm sure she'll be delighted to ask you. I know just what
|
|
you want- you want a house where they go in for theatricals and
|
|
picnics and that sort of thing. My sister's just that sort of woman;
|
|
she's always getting up something or other and she's always glad to
|
|
have the sort of people who help her. I'm sure she'll ask you down
|
|
by return of post: she's tremendously fond of distinguished people and
|
|
writers. She writes herself, you know; but I haven't read everything
|
|
she has written. It's usually poetry, and I don't go in much for
|
|
poetry- unless it's Byron. I suppose you think a great deal of Byron
|
|
in America," Mr. Bantling continued, expanding in the stimulating
|
|
air of Miss Stackpole's attention, bringing up his sequences
|
|
promptly and changing his topic with an easy turn of hand. Yet he none
|
|
the less gracefully kept in sight of the idea, dazzling to
|
|
Henrietta, of her going to stay with Lady Pensil in Bedfordshire. "I
|
|
understand what you want; you want to see some genuine English
|
|
sport. The Touchetts aren't English at all, you know; they have
|
|
their own habits, their own language, their own food- some odd
|
|
religion even, I believe, of their own. The old man thinks it's wicked
|
|
to hunt, I'm told. You must get down to my sister's in time for the
|
|
theatricals, and I'm sure she'll be glad to give you a part. I'm
|
|
sure you act well; I know you're very clever. My sister's forty
|
|
years old and has seven children, but she's going to play the
|
|
principal part. Plain as she is she makes up awfully well- I will
|
|
say for her. Of course you needn't act if you don't want to."
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|
In this manner Mr. Bantling delivered himself while they strolled
|
|
over the grass in Winchester Square, which, although it had been
|
|
peppered by the London soot, invited the tread to linger. Henrietta
|
|
thought her blooming, easy-voiced bachelor, with his impressibility to
|
|
feminine merit and his splendid range of suggestion, a very
|
|
agreeable man, and she valued the opportunity he offered her. "I don't
|
|
know but I would go, if your sister should ask me. I think it would be
|
|
my duty. What do you call her name?"
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"Pensil. It's an odd name, but it isn't a bad one."
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|
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"I think one name's as good as another. But what's her rank?"
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"Oh, she's a baron's wife; a convenient sort of rank. You're fine
|
|
enough and you're not too fine."
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"I don't know but what she'd be too fine for me. What do you call
|
|
the place she lives in- Bedfordshire?"
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"She lives away in the northern corner of it. It's a tiresome
|
|
country, but I dare say you won't mind it. I'll try and run down while
|
|
you're there."
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|
|
|
All this was very pleasant to Miss Stackpole, and she was sorry to
|
|
be obliged to separate from Lady Pensil's obliging brother. But it
|
|
happened that she had met the day before, in Piccadilly, some
|
|
friends whom she had not seen for a year: the Miss Climbers, two
|
|
ladies from Wilmington, Delaware, who had been travelling on the
|
|
Continent and were now preparing to re-embark. Henrietta had had a
|
|
long interview with them on the Piccadilly pavement, and though the
|
|
three ladies all talked at once they had not exhausted their store. It
|
|
had been agreed therefore that Henrietta should come and dine with
|
|
them in their lodgings in Jermyn Street at six o'clock on the
|
|
morrow, and she now bethought herself of this engagement. She prepared
|
|
to start for Jermyn Street, taking leave first of Ralph Touchett and
|
|
Isabel, who, seated on garden chairs in another part of the enclosure,
|
|
were occupied- if the term may be used- with an exchange of
|
|
amenities less pointed than the practical colloquy of Miss Stackpole
|
|
and Mr. Bantling. When it had been settled between Isabel and her
|
|
friend that they should be reunited at some reputable hour at
|
|
Pratt's Hotel, Ralph remarked that the latter must have a cab. She
|
|
couldn't walk all the way to Jermyn Street.
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|
|
|
"I suppose you mean it's improper for me to walk alone!" Henrietta
|
|
exclaimed. "Merciful powers, have I come to this?"
|
|
|
|
"There's not the slightest need of your walking alone," Mr. Bantling
|
|
gaily interposed. "I should be greatly pleased to go with you."
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|
|
|
"I simply meant that you'd be late for dinner," Ralph returned.
|
|
"Those poor ladies may easily believe that we refuse, at the last,
|
|
to spare you."
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|
|
|
"You had better have a hansom, Henrietta," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"I'll get you a hansom if you'll trust me," Mr. Bantling went on.
|
|
"We might walk a little till we meet one."
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|
|
|
"I don't see why I shouldn't trust him, do you?" Henrietta
|
|
enquired of Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"I don't see what Mr. Bantling could do to you," Isabel obligingly
|
|
answered; "but, if you like, we'll walk with you till you find your
|
|
cab."
|
|
|
|
"Never mind; we'll go alone. Come on, Mr. Bantling, and take care
|
|
you get me a good one."
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|
|
|
Mr. Bantling promised to do his best, and the two took their
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departure, leaving the girl and her cousin together in the square,
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over which a clear September twilight had now begun to gather. It
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was perfectly still; the wide quadrangle of dusky houses showed lights
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in none of the windows, where the shutters and blinds were closed; the
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pavements were a vacant expanse, and, putting aside two small children
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from a neighbouring slum, who, attracted by symptoms of abnormal
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animation in the interior, poked their faces between the rusty rails
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of the enclosure, the most vivid object within sight was the big red
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pillar-post on the southeast corner.
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"Henrietta will ask him to get into the cab and go with her to
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Jermyn Street," Ralph observed. He always spoke of Miss Stackpole as
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Henrietta.
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"Very possibly," said his companion.
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"Or rather, no, she won't," he went on. "But Bantling will ask leave
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to get in."
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"Very likely again. I'm very glad they're such good friends."
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"She has made a conquest. He thinks her a brilliant woman. It may go
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far," said Ralph.
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Isabel was briefly silent. "I call Henrietta a very brilliant woman,
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but I don't think it will go far. They would never really know each
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other. He has not the least idea what she really is, and she has no
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just comprehension of Mr. Bantling."
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"There's no more usual basis of union than a mutual
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misunderstanding. But it ought not to be so difficult to understand
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Bob Bantling," Ralph added. "He is a very simple organism."
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"Yes, but Henrietta's a simpler one still. And, pray, what am I to
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do?" Isabel asked, looking about her through the fading light, in
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which the limited landscape-gardening of the square took on a large
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and effective appearance. "I don't imagine that you'll propose that
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you and I, for our amusement, shall drive about London in a hansom."
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"There's no reason we shouldn't stay here- if you don't dislike
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it. It's very warm; there will be half an hour yet before dark; and if
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you permit it I'll light a cigarette."
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"You may do what you please," said Isabel, "if you'll amuse me
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till seven o'clock. I propose at that hour to go back and partake of a
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simple and solitary repast- two poached eggs and a muffin- at
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Pratt's Hotel."
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"Mayn't I dine with you?" Ralph asked.
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"No, you'll dine at your club."
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They had wandered back to their chairs in the centre of the square
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again, and Ralph had lighted his cigarette. It would have given him
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extreme pleasure to be present in person at the modest little feast
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she had sketched; but in default of this he liked even being
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forbidden. For the moment, however, he liked immensely being alone
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with her, in the thickening dusk, in the centre of the multitudinous
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town; it made her seem to depend upon him and to be in his power. This
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power he could exert but vaguely; the best exercise of it was to
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accept her decisions submissively- which indeed there was already an
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emotion in doing. "Why won't you let me dine with you?" he demanded
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after a pause.
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"Because I don't care for it."
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"I suppose you're tired of me."
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"I shall be an hour hence. You see I have the gift of
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foreknowledge."
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"Oh, I shall be delightful meanwhile," said Ralph. But he said
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nothing more, and as she made no rejoinder they sat sometime in a
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stillness which seemed to contradict his promise of entertainment.
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It seemed to him she was preoccupied, and he wondered what she was
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thinking about; there were two or three very possible subjects. At
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last he spoke again. "Is your objection to my society this evening
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caused by your expectation of another visitor?"
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She turned her head with a glance of her clear, fair eyes.
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"Another visitor? What visitor should I have?"
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He had none to suggest; which made his question seem to himself
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silly as well as brutal. "You've a great many friends that I don't
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know. You've a whole past from which I was perversely excluded."
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"You were reserved for my future. You must remember that my past
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is over there across the water. There's none of it here in London."
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"Very good, then, since your future is seated beside you. Capital
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thing to have your future so handy." And Ralph lighted another
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cigarette and reflected that Isabel probably meant she had received
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news that Mr. Caspar Goodwood had crossed to Paris. After he had
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lighted his cigarette he puffed it a while, and then he resumed. "I
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promised just now to be very amusing; but you see I don't come up to
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the mark, and the fact is there's a good deal of temerity in one's
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undertaking to amuse a person like you. What do you care for my feeble
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attempts? You've grand ideas- you've a high standard in such
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matters. I ought at least to bring in a band of music or a company
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of mountebanks."
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"One mountebank's enough, and you do very well. Pray go on, and in
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another ten minutes I shall begin to laugh."
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"I assure you I'm very serious," said Ralph. "You do really ask a
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great deal."
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"I don't know what you mean. I ask nothing!"
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"You accept nothing," said Ralph. She coloured, and now suddenly
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it seemed to her that she guessed his meaning. But why should he speak
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to her of such things? He hesitated a little and then he continued:
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"There's something I should like very much to say to you. It's a
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question I wish to ask. It seems to me I've a right to ask it, because
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I've a kind of interest in the answer."
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"Ask what you will," Isabel replied gently, "and I'll try to satisfy
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you."
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"Well then, I hope you won't mind my saying that Warburton has
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told me of something that has passed between you."
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Isabel suppressed a start; he sat looking at her open fan. "Very
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good; I suppose it was natural he should tell you."
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"I have his leave to let you know he has done so. He has some hope
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still," said Ralph.
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"Still?"
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"He had it a few days ago."
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"I don't believe he has any now," said the girl.
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"I'm very sorry for him then; he's such an honest man."
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"Pray, did he ask you to talk to me?"
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"No, not that. But he told me because he couldn't help it. We're old
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friends, and he was greatly disappointed. He sent me a line asking
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me to come and see him, and I drove over to Lockleigh the day before
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he and his sister lunched with us. He was very heavy-hearted; he had
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just got a letter from you."
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"Did he show you the letter?" asked Isabel with momentary loftiness.
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"By no means. But he told me it was a neat refusal. I was very sorry
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for him," Ralph repeated.
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For some moments Isabel said nothing; then at last, "Do you know how
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often he had seen me?" she enquired. "Five or six times."
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"That's to your glory."
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"It's not for that I say it."
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"What then do you say it for? Not to prove that poor Warburton's
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state of mind's superficial, because I'm pretty sure you don't think
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that."
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Isabel certainly was unable to say she thought it but presently
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|
she said something else. "If you've not been requested by Lord
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|
Warburton to argue with me, then you're doing it disinterestedly- or
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for the love of argument."
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"I've no wish to argue with you at all. I only wish to leave you
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|
alone. I'm simply greatly interested in your own sentiments."
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"I'm greatly obliged to you!" cried Isabel with a slightly nervous
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laugh.
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"Of course you mean that I'm meddling in what doesn't concern me.
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But why shouldn't I speak to you of this matter without annoying you
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or embarrassing myself? What's the use of being your cousin if I can't
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have a few privileges? What's the use of adoring you without hope of a
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|
reward if I can't have a few compensations? What's the use of being
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ill and disabled and restricted to mere spectatorship at the game of
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|
life if I really can't see the show when I've paid so much for my
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|
ticket? Tell me this," Ralph went on while she listened to him with
|
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quickened attention. "What had you in mind when you refused Lord
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|
Warburton?"
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"What had I in mind?"
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"What was the logic- the view of your situation- that dictated so
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remarkable an act?"
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"I didn't wish to marry him- if that's logic."
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"No, that's not logic- and I knew that before. It's really
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|
nothing, you know. What was it you said to yourself? You certainly
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|
said more than that?"
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Isabel reflected a moment, then answered with a question of her own.
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"Why do you call it a remarkable act? That's what your mother thinks
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|
too.
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"Warburton's such a thorough good sort; as a man, I consider he
|
|
has hardly a fault. And then he's what they call here no end of a
|
|
swell. He has immense possessions, and his wife would be thought a
|
|
superior being. He unites the intrinsic and the extrinsic advantages."
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Isabel watched her cousin as to see how far he would go. "I
|
|
refused him because he was too perfect then. I'm not perfect myself,
|
|
and he's too good for me. Besides, his perfection would irritate me."
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|
"That's ingenious rather than candid," said Ralph. "As a fact you
|
|
think nothing in the world too perfect for you."
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|
"Do you think I'm so good?"
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"No, but you're exacting, all the same, without the excuse of
|
|
thinking yourself good. Nineteen women out of twenty, however, even of
|
|
the most exacting sort, would have managed to do with Warburton.
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|
Perhaps you don't know how he has been stalked."
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|
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|
"I don't wish to know. But it seems to me," said Isabel, "that one
|
|
day when we talked of him you mentioned odd things in him."
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|
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Ralph smokingly considered. "I hope that what I said then had no
|
|
weight with you; for they were not faults, the things I spoke of: they
|
|
were simply peculiarities of his position. If I had known he wished to
|
|
marry you I'd never have alluded to them. I think I said that as
|
|
regards that position he was rather a sceptic. It would have been in
|
|
your power to make him a believer."
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|
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|
"I think not. I don't understand the matter, and I'm not conscious
|
|
of any mission of that sort. You're evidently disappointed," Isabel
|
|
added, looking at her cousin with rueful gentleness. "You'd have liked
|
|
me to make such a marriage."
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|
|
|
"Not in the least. I'm absolutely without a wish on the subject. I
|
|
don't pretend to advise you, and I content myself with watching you-
|
|
with the deepest interest."
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|
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|
She gave rather a conscious sigh. "I wish I could be as
|
|
interesting to myself as I am to you!"
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|
|
|
"There you're not candid again; you're extremely interesting to
|
|
yourself. Do you know, however," said Ralph, "that if you've really
|
|
given Warburton his final answer I'm rather glad it has been what it
|
|
was. I don't mean I'm glad for you, and still less of course for
|
|
him. I'm glad for myself."
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|
|
|
"Are you thinking of proposing to me?"
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|
|
|
"By no means. From the point of view I speak of that would be fatal;
|
|
I should kill the goose that supplies me with the material of my
|
|
inimitable omelettes. I use that animal as the symbol of my insane
|
|
illusions. What I mean is that I shall have the thrill of seeing
|
|
what a young lady does who won't marry Lord Warburton."
|
|
|
|
"That's what your mother counts upon too," said Isabel.
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|
|
|
"Ah, there will be plenty of spectators! We shall hang on the rest
|
|
of your career. I shall not see all of it, but I shall probably see
|
|
the most interesting years. Of course if you were to marry our
|
|
friend you'd still have a career- a very decent, in fact a very
|
|
brilliant one. But relatively speaking it would be a little prosaic.
|
|
It would be definitely marked out in advance; it would be wanting in
|
|
the unexpected. You know I'm extremely fond of the unexpected, and now
|
|
that you've kept the game in your hands I depend on your giving us
|
|
some grand example of it."
|
|
|
|
"I don't understand you very well," said Isabel, "but I do so well
|
|
enough to be able to say that if you look for grand examples of
|
|
anything from me I shall disappoint you."
|
|
|
|
"You'll do so only by disappointing yourself- and that will go
|
|
hard with you!"
|
|
|
|
To this she made no direct reply; there was an amount of truth in it
|
|
that would bear consideration. At last she said abruptly: "I don't see
|
|
what harm there is in my wishing not to tie myself. I don't want to
|
|
begin life by marrying. There are other things a woman can do."
|
|
|
|
"There's nothing she can do so well. But you're of course so
|
|
many-sided."
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|
|
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"If one's two-sided it's enough," said Isabel.
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|
|
|
"You're the most charming of polygons!" her companion broke out.
|
|
At a glance from his companion, however, he became grave, and to prove
|
|
it went on: "You want to see life- you'll be hanged if you don't, as
|
|
the young men say.
|
|
|
|
"I don't think I want to see it as the young men want to see it. But
|
|
I do want to look about me."
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|
|
|
"You want to drain the cup of experience."
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|
|
|
"No, I don't wish to touch the cup of experience. It's a poisoned
|
|
drink! I only want to see for myself."
|
|
|
|
"You want to see, but not to feel," Ralph remarked.
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|
|
|
"I don't think that if one's a sentient being one can make the
|
|
distinction. I'm a good deal like Henrietta. The other day when I
|
|
asked her if she wished to marry she said: 'Not till I've seen
|
|
Europe!' I too don't wish to marry till I've seen Europe."
|
|
|
|
"You evidently expect a crowned head will be struck with you."
|
|
|
|
"No, that would be worse than marrying Lord Warburton. But it's
|
|
getting very dark," Isabel continued, "and I must go home." She rose
|
|
from her place, but Ralph only sat still and looked at her. As he
|
|
remained there she stopped, and they exchanged a gaze that was full on
|
|
either side, but especially on Ralph's, of utterances too vague for
|
|
words.
|
|
|
|
"You've answered my question," he said at last. "You've told me what
|
|
I wanted. I'm greatly obliged to you."
|
|
|
|
"It seems to me I've told you very little."
|
|
|
|
"You've told me the great thing: that the world interests you and
|
|
that you want to throw yourself into it."
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|
|
|
Her silvery eyes shone a moment in the dusk. "I never said that."
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|
|
|
"I think you meant it. Don't repudiate it. It's so fine!"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know what you're trying to fasten upon me, for I'm not in
|
|
the least an adventurous spirit. Women are not like men."
|
|
|
|
Ralph slowly rose from his seat and they walked together to the gate
|
|
of the square. "No," he said; "women rarely boast of their courage.
|
|
Men do so with a certain frequency."
|
|
|
|
"Men have it to boast of!
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|
|
|
"Women have it too. You've a great deal."
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|
|
"Enough to go home in a cab to Pratt's Hotel, but not more."
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|
|
|
Ralph unlocked the gate, and after they had passed out he fastened
|
|
it. "We'll find your cab," he said; and as they turned toward a
|
|
neighbouring street in which this quest might avail he asked her again
|
|
if he mightn't see her safely to the inn.
|
|
|
|
"By no means," she answered; "you're very tired; you must go home
|
|
and go to bed."
|
|
|
|
The cab was found, and he helped her into it, standing a moment at
|
|
the door. "When people forget I'm a poor creature I'm often
|
|
incommoded," he said. "But it's worse when they remember it!"
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|
CHAPTER 16
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|
|
She had had no hidden motive in wishing him not to take her home; it
|
|
simply struck her that for some days past she had consumed an
|
|
inordinate quantity of his time, and the independent spirit of the
|
|
American girl whom extravagance of aid places in an attitude that
|
|
she ends by finding "affected" had made her decide that for these
|
|
few hours she must suffice to herself. She had moreover a great
|
|
fondness for intervals of solitude, which since her arrival in England
|
|
had been but meagrely met. It was a luxury she could always command at
|
|
home and she had wittingly missed it. That evening, however, an
|
|
incident occurred which- had there been a critic to note it- would
|
|
have taken all colour from the theory that the wish to be quite by
|
|
herself had caused her to dispense with her cousin's attendance.
|
|
Seated toward nine o'clock in the dim illumination of Pratt's Hotel
|
|
and trying with the aid of two tall candles to lose herself in a
|
|
volume she had brought from Gardencourt, she succeeded only to the
|
|
extent of reading other words than those printed on the page- words
|
|
that Ralph had spoken to her that afternoon. Suddenly the well-muffled
|
|
knuckle of the waiter was applied to the door, which presently gave
|
|
way to his exhibition, even as a glorious trophy, of the card of a
|
|
visitor. When this memento had offered to her fixed sight the name
|
|
of Mr. Caspar Goodwood she let the man stand before her without
|
|
signifying her wishes.
|
|
|
|
"Shall I show the gentleman up, ma'am?" he asked with a slightly
|
|
encouraging inflexion.
|
|
|
|
Isabel hesitated still and while she hesitated glanced at the
|
|
mirror. "He may come in," she said at last; and waited for him not
|
|
so much smoothing her hair as girding her spirit.
|
|
|
|
Caspar Goodwood was accordingly the next moment shaking hands with
|
|
her, but saying nothing till the servant had left the room. "Why
|
|
didn't you answer my letter?" he then asked in a quick, full, slightly
|
|
peremptory tone- the tone of a man whose questions were habitually
|
|
pointed and who was capable of much insistence.
|
|
|
|
She answered by a ready question, "How did you know I was here?"
|
|
|
|
"Miss Stackpole let me know," said Caspar Goodwood. "She told me you
|
|
would probably be at home alone this evening and would be willing to
|
|
see me."
|
|
|
|
"Where did she see you- to tell you that?"
|
|
|
|
"She didn't see me; she wrote to me." Isabel was silent; neither had
|
|
sat down; they stood there with an air of defiance, or at least of
|
|
contention. "Henrietta never told me she was writing to you," she said
|
|
at last. "This is not kind of her."
|
|
|
|
"Is it so disagreeable to you to see me?" asked the young man.
|
|
|
|
"I didn't expect it. I don't like such surprises."
|
|
|
|
"But you knew I was in town; it was natural we should meet."
|
|
|
|
"Do you call this meeting? I hoped I shouldn't see you. In so big
|
|
a place as London it seemed very possible."
|
|
|
|
"It was apparently repugnant to you even to write to me," her
|
|
visitor went on.
|
|
|
|
Isabel made no reply; the sense of Henrietta Stackpole's
|
|
treachery, as she momentarily qualified it, was strong within her.
|
|
"Henrietta's certainly not a model of all the delicacies!" she
|
|
exclaimed with bitterness: "It was a great liberty to take."
|
|
|
|
"I suppose I'm not a model either- of those virtues or of any
|
|
others. The fault's mine as much as hers."
|
|
|
|
As Isabel looked at him it seemed to her that his jaw had never been
|
|
more square. This might have displeased her, but she took a
|
|
different turn. "No, it's not your fault so much as hers. What
|
|
you've done was inevitable, I suppose, for you."
|
|
|
|
"It was indeed!" cried Caspar Goodwood with a voluntary laugh.
|
|
"And now that I've come, at any rate, mayn't I stay?"
|
|
|
|
"You may sit down, certainly."
|
|
|
|
She went back to her chair again, while her visitor took the first
|
|
place that offered, in the manner of a man accustomed to pay little
|
|
thought to that sort of furtherance. "I've been hoping every day for
|
|
an answer to my letter. You might have written me a few lines."
|
|
|
|
"It wasn't the trouble of writing that prevented me; I could as
|
|
easily have written you four pages as one. But my silence was an
|
|
intention," Isabel said. "I thought it the best thing."
|
|
|
|
He sat with his eyes fixed on hers while she spoke; then he
|
|
lowered them and attached them to a spot in the carpet as if he were
|
|
making a strong effort to say nothing but what he ought. He was a
|
|
strong man in the wrong, and he was acute enough to see that an
|
|
uncompromising exhibition of his strength would only throw the falsity
|
|
of his position into relief. Isabel was not incapable of tasting any
|
|
advantage of position over a person of this quality, and though little
|
|
desirous to flaunt it in his face she could enjoy being able to say
|
|
"You know you oughtn't to have written to me yourself!" and to say
|
|
it with an air of triumph.
|
|
|
|
Caspar Goodwood raised his eyes to her own again; they seemed to
|
|
shine through the vizard of a helmet. He had a strong sense of justice
|
|
and was ready any day in the year- over and above this- to argue the
|
|
question of his rights. "You said you hoped never to hear from me
|
|
again; I know that. But I never accepted any such rule as my own. I
|
|
warned you that you should hear very soon."
|
|
|
|
"I didn't say I hoped never to hear from you," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"Not for five years then; for ten years; twenty years. It's the same
|
|
thing."
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"Do you find it so? It seems to me there's a great difference. I can
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imagine that at the end of ten years we might have a very pleasant
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correspondence. I shall have matured my epistolary style."
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She looked away while she spoke these words, knowing them of so much
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less earnest a cast than the countenance of her listener. Her eyes,
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however, at last came back to him, just as he said very
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irrelevantly: "Are you enjoying your visit to your uncle?"
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"Very much indeed." She dropped, but then she broke out. "What
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good do you expect to get by insisting?
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"The good of not losing you."
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"You've no right to talk of losing what's not yours. And even from
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your own point of view," Isabel added, "you ought to know when to
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let one alone."
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"I disgust you very much," said Caspar Goodwood gloomily; not as
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if to provoke her to compassion for a man conscious of this
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blighting fact, but as if to set it well before himself, so that he
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might endeavour to act with his eyes on it.
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"Yes, you don't at all delight me, you don't fit in, not in any way,
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just now, and the worst is that your putting it to the proof in this
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manner is quite unnecessary." It wasn't certainly as if his nature had
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been soft, so that pin-pricks would draw blood from it; and from the
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first of her acquaintance with him, and of her having to defend
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herself against a certain air that he had of knowing better what was
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good for her than she knew herself, she had recognized the fact that
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perfect frankness was her best weapon. To attempt to spare his
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sensibility or to escape from him edgewise, as one might do from a man
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who had barred the way less sturdily- this, in dealing with Caspar
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Goodwood, who would grasp at everything of every sort that one might
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give him, was wasted agility. It was not that he had not
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susceptibilities, but his passive surface, as well as his active,
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was large and hard, and he might always be trusted to dress his
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wounds, so far as they required it, himself. She came back, even for
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her measure of possible pangs and aches in him, to her old sense
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that he was naturally plated and steeled, armed essentially for
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aggression.
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"I can't reconcile myself to that," he simply said. There was a
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dangerous liberality about it; for she felt how open it was to him
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to make the point that he had not always disgusted her.
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"I can't reconcile myself to it either, and it's not the state of
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things that ought to exist between us. If you'd only try to banish
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me from your mind for a few months we should be on good terms again."
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"I see. If I should cease to think of you at all for a prescribed
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time, I should find I could keep it up indefinitely."
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"Indefinitely is more than I ask. It's more even than I should
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like."
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"You know that what you ask is impossible," said the young man,
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taking his adjective for granted in a manner she found irritating.
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"Aren't you capable of making a calculated effort?" she demanded.
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"You're strong for everything else; why shouldn't you be strong for
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that?"
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"An effort calculated for what?" And then as she hung fire, "I'm
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capable of nothing with regard to you," he went on, "but just of being
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infernally in love with you. If one's strong one loves only the more
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strongly."
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"There's a good deal in that"; and indeed our young lady felt the
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force of it- felt it thrown off, into the vast of truth and poetry, as
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practically a bait to her imagination. But she promptly came round.
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"Think of me or not, as you find most possible; only leave me alone."
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"Until when?"
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"Well, for a year or two."
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"Which do you mean? Between one year and two there's all the
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difference in the world."
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"Call it two then," said Isabel with a studied effect of eagerness.
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"And what shall I gain by that?" her friend asked with no sign of
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wincing.
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"You'll have obliged me greatly."
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"And what will be my reward?"
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"Do you need a reward for an act of generosity?"
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"Yes, when it involves a great sacrifice."
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"There's no generosity without some sacrifice. Men don't
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understand such things. If you make the sacrifice you'll have all my
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admiration."
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"I don't care a cent for your admiration- not one straw, with
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nothing to show for it. When will you marry me? That's the only
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question."
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"Never- if you go on making me feel only as I feel at present."
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"What do I gain then by not trying to make you feel otherwise?"
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"You'll gain quite as much as by worrying me to death!" Caspar
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Goodwood bent his eyes again and gazed a while into the crown of his
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hat. A deep flush overspread his face; she could see her sharpness had
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at last penetrated. This immediately had a value- classic, romantic,
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redeeming, what did she know?- for her; "the strong man in pain" was
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one of the categories of the human appeal, little charm as he might
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exert in the given case. "Why do you make me say such things to
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you?" she cried in a trembling voice. "I only want to be gentle- to be
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thoroughly kind. It's not delightful to me to feel people care for
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me and yet to have to try and reason them out of it. I think others
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also ought to be considerate; we have each to judge for ourselves. I
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know you're considerate, as much as you can be; you've good reasons
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for what you do. But I really don't want to marry, or to talk about it
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at all now. I shall probably never do it- no, never. I've a perfect
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right to feel that way, and it's no kindness to a woman to press her
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so hard, to urge her against her will. If I give you pain I can only
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say I'm very sorry. It's not my fault; I can't marry you simply to
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please you. I won't say that I shall always remain your friend,
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because when women say that, in these situations, it passes, I
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believe, for a sort of mockery. But try me some day."
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Caspar Goodwood, during this speech, had kept his eyes fixed upon
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the name of his hatter, and it was not until some time after she had
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ceased speaking that he raised them. When he did so the sight of a
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rosy, lovely eagerness in Isabel's face threw some confusion into
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his attempt to analyze her words. "I'll go home- I'll go to-morrow-
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I'll leave you alone," he brought out at last. "Only," he heavily
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said, "I hate to lose sight of you!"
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"Never fear. I shall do no harm."
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"You'll marry some one else, as sure as I sit here," Caspar Goodwood
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declared.
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"Do you think that a generous charge?"
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"Why not? Plenty of men will try to make you."
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"I told you just now that I don't wish to marry and that I almost
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certainly never shall."
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"I know you did, and I like your 'almost certainly'! I put no
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faith in what you say."
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"Thank you very much. Do you accuse me of lying to shake you off?
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You say very delicate things."
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"Why should I not say that? You've given me no pledge of anything at
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all."
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"No, that's all that would be wanting!"
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"You may perhaps even believe you're safe- from wishing to be. But
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you're not," the young man went on as if preparing himself for the
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worst.
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"Very well then. We'll put it that I'm not safe. Have it as you
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please."
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"I don't know, however," said Caspar Goodwood, "that my keeping
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you in sight would prevent it."
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"Don't you indeed? I'm after all very much afraid of you. Do you
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think I'm so very easily pleased?" she asked suddenly, changing her
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tone.
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"No- I don't; I shall try to console myself with that. But there are
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a certain number of very dazzling men in the world, no doubt; and if
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there were only one it would be enough. The most dazzling of all
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will make straight for you. You'll be sure to take no one who isn't
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dazzling."
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"If you mean by dazzling brilliantly clever," Isabel said- "and I
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|
can't imagine what else you mean- I don't need the aid of a clever man
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to teach me how to live. I can find it out for myself."
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"Find out how to live alone? I wish that, when you have, you'd teach
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me!"
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She looked at him a moment; then with a quick smile, "Oh, you
|
|
ought to marry!" she said.
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He might be pardoned if for an instant this exclamation seemed to
|
|
him to sound the infernal note, and it is not on record that her
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|
motive for discharging such a shaft had been of the clearest. He
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|
oughtn't to stride about lean and hungry, however- she certainly
|
|
felt that for him. "God forgive you!" he murmured between his teeth as
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he turned away.
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Her accent had put her slightly in the wrong, and after a moment she
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|
felt the need to right herself. The easiest way to do it was to
|
|
place him where she had been. "You do me great injustice- you say what
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you don't know!" she broke out. "I shouldn't be an easy victim- I've
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proved it."
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"Oh, to me, perfectly."
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"I've proved it to others as well." And she paused a moment. "I
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|
refused a proposal of marriage last week; what they call- no doubt-
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a dazzling one."
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"I'm very glad to hear it," said the young man gravely.
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"It was a proposal many girls would have accepted; it had everything
|
|
to recommend it." Isabel had not proposed to herself to tell this
|
|
story, but, now she had begun, the satisfaction of speaking it out and
|
|
doing herself justice took possession of her. "I was offered a great
|
|
position and a great fortune- by a person whom I like extremely."
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Caspar watched her with intense interest. "Is he an Englishman?"
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"He's an English nobleman," said Isabel.
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|
Her visitor received this announcement at first in silence, but at
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|
last said: "I'm glad he's disappointed."
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|
"Well then, as you have companions in misfortune, make the best of
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|
it."
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"I don't call him a companion," said Caspar grimly.
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"Why not- since I declined his offer absolutely?"
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"That doesn't make him my companion. Besides, he's an Englishman."
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"And pray isn't an Englishman a human being?" Isabel asked.
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|
"Oh, those people? They're not of my humanity, and I don't care what
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|
becomes of them."
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|
"You're very angry," said the girl. "We've discussed this matter
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|
quite enough."
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|
"Oh yes, I'm very angry. I plead guilty to that!"
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|
She turned away from him, walked to the open window and stood a
|
|
moment looking into the dusky void of the street, where a turbid
|
|
gaslight alone represented social animation. For some time neither
|
|
of these young persons spoke; Caspar lingered near the chimney-piece
|
|
with eyes gloomily attached. She had virtually requested him to go- he
|
|
knew that; but at the risk of making himself odious he kept his
|
|
ground. She was too nursed a need to be easily renounced, and he had
|
|
crossed the sea all to wring from her some scrap of a vow. Presently
|
|
she left the window and stood again before him. "You do me very little
|
|
justice- after my telling you what I told you just now. I'm sorry I
|
|
told you- since it matters so little to you."
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|
|
"Ah," cried the young man, "if you were thinking of me when you
|
|
did it!" And then he paused with the fear that she might contradict so
|
|
happy a thought.
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|
|
"I was thinking of you a little," said Isabel.
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|
|
|
"A little? I don't understand. If the knowledge of what I feel for
|
|
you had any weight with you at all, calling it a 'little' is a poor
|
|
account of it."
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|
Isabel shook her head as if to carry off a blunder. "I've refused
|
|
a most kind, noble gentleman. Make the most of that."
|
|
|
|
"I thank you then," said Caspar Goodwood gravely. "I thank you
|
|
immensely."
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|
|
|
"And now you had better go home."
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|
|
|
"May I not see you again?" he asked.
|
|
|
|
"I think it's better not. You'll be sure to talk of this, and you
|
|
see it leads to nothing."
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|
"I promise you not to say a word that will annoy you."
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|
|
Isabel reflected and then answered: "I return in a day or two to
|
|
my uncle's, and I can't propose to you to come there. It would be
|
|
too inconsistent."
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|
|
|
Caspar Goodwood, on his side, considered. "You must do me justice
|
|
too. I received an invitation to your uncle's more than a week ago,
|
|
and I declined it."
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|
|
|
She betrayed surprise. "From whom was your invitation?"
|
|
|
|
"From Mr. Ralph Touchett, whom I suppose to be your cousin. I
|
|
declined it because I had not your authorization to accept it. The
|
|
suggestion that Mr. Touchett should invite me appeared to have come
|
|
from Miss Stackpole."
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|
|
"It certainly never did from me. Henrietta really goes very far,"
|
|
Isabel added.
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|
|
"Don't be too hard on her- that touches me."
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|
|
"No; if you declined you did quite right, and I thank you for it."
|
|
And she gave a little shudder of dismay at the thought that Lord
|
|
Warburton and Mr. Goodwood might have met at Gardencourt: it would
|
|
have been so awkward for Lord Warburton.
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|
|
|
"When you leave your uncle where do you go?" her companion asked.
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|
|
"I go abroad with my aunt- to Florence and other places."
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|
The serenity of this announcement struck a chill to the young
|
|
man's heart; he seemed to see her whirled away into circles from which
|
|
he was inexorably excluded. Nevertheless he went on quickly with his
|
|
questions. "And when shall you come back to America?"
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|
"Perhaps not for a long time. I'm very happy here."
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|
|
"Do you mean to give up your country?"
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"Don't be an infant!"
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|
|
|
"Well, you'll be out of my sight indeed!" said Caspar Goodwood.
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|
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|
"I don't know," she answered rather grandly. "The world- with all
|
|
these places so arranged and so touching each other- comes to strike
|
|
one as rather small."
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|
|
|
"It's a sight too big for me!" Caspar exclaimed with a simplicity
|
|
our young lady might have found touching if her face had not been
|
|
set against concessions.
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|
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|
This attitude was part of a system, a theory, that she had lately
|
|
embraced, and to be thorough she said after a moment: "Don't think
|
|
me unkind if I say it's just that- being out of your sight- that I
|
|
like. If you were in the same place I should feel you were watching
|
|
me, and I don't like that- I like my liberty too much. If there's a
|
|
thing in the world I'm fond of," she went on with a slight
|
|
recurrence of grandeur, "it's my personal independence."
|
|
|
|
But whatever there might be of the too superior in this speech moved
|
|
Caspar Goodwood's admiration; there was nothing he winced at in the
|
|
large air of it. He had never supposed she hadn't wings and the need
|
|
of beautiful free movements- he wasn't, with his own long arms and
|
|
strides, afraid of any force in her. Isabel's words, if they had
|
|
been meant to shock him, failed of the mark and only made him smile
|
|
with the sense that here was common ground. "Who would wish less to
|
|
curtail your liberty than I? What can give me greater pleasure than to
|
|
see you perfectly independent- doing whatever you like? It's to make
|
|
you independent that I want to marry you.
|
|
|
|
"That's a beautiful sophism," said the girl with a smile more
|
|
beautiful still.
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|
|
|
"An ummarried woman- a girl of your age- isn't independent. There
|
|
are all sorts of things she can't do. She's hampered at every step."
|
|
|
|
"That's as she looks at the question," Isabel answered with much
|
|
spirit. not in my first youth- I can do what I choose- I belong
|
|
quite to the independent class. I've neither father nor mother; I'm
|
|
poor and of a serious disposition; I'm not pretty. I therefore am
|
|
not bound to be timid and conventional; indeed I can't afford such
|
|
luxuries. Besides, I try to judge things for myself; to judge wrong, I
|
|
think, is more honourable than not to judge at all. I don't wish to be
|
|
a mere sheep in the flock; I wish to choose my fate and know something
|
|
of human affairs beyond what other people think it compatible with
|
|
propriety to tell me." She paused a moment, but not long enough for
|
|
her companion to reply. He was apparently on the point of doing so
|
|
when she went on: "Let me say this to you, Mr. Goodwood. You're so
|
|
kind as to speak of being afraid of my marrying. If you should hear
|
|
a rumour that I'm on the point of doing so- girls are liable to have
|
|
such things said about them- remember what I have told you about my
|
|
love of liberty and venture to doubt it."
|
|
|
|
There was something passionately positive in the tone in which she
|
|
gave him this advice, and he saw a shining candour in her eyes that
|
|
helped him to believe her. On the whole he felt reassured, and you
|
|
might have perceived it by the manner in which he said, quite eagerly:
|
|
"You want simply to travel for two years? I'm quite willing to wait
|
|
two years, and you may do what you like in the interval. If that's all
|
|
you want, pray say so. I don't want you to be conventional; do I
|
|
strike you as conventional myself? Do you want to improve your mind?
|
|
Your mind's quite good enough for me; but if it interests you to
|
|
wander about a while and see different countries I shall be
|
|
delighted to help you in any way in my power."
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|
|
"You're very generous; that's nothing new to me. The best way to
|
|
help me will be to put as many hundred miles of sea between us as
|
|
possible."
|
|
|
|
"One would think you were going to commit some atrocity!" said
|
|
Caspar Goodwood.
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|
|
|
"Perhaps I am. I wish to be free even to do that if the fancy
|
|
takes me."
|
|
|
|
"Well then," he said slowly, "I'll go home." And he put out his
|
|
hand, trying to look contented and confident.
|
|
|
|
Isabel's confidence in him, however, was greater than any he could
|
|
feel in her. Not that he thought her capable of committing an
|
|
atrocity; but, turn it over as he would, there was something ominous
|
|
in the way she reserved her option. As she took his hand she felt a
|
|
great respect for him; she knew how much he cared for her and she
|
|
thought him magnanimous. They stood so for a moment, looking at each
|
|
other, united by a hand-clasp which was not merely passive on her
|
|
side. "That's right," she said very kindly, almost tenderly. "You'll
|
|
lose nothing by being a reasonable man."
|
|
|
|
"But I'll come back, wherever you are, two years hence," he returned
|
|
with characteristic grimness.
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|
|
|
We have seen that our young lady was inconsequent, and at this she
|
|
suddenly changed her note. "Ah, remember, I promise nothing-
|
|
absolutely nothing!" Then more softly, as if to help him to leave her:
|
|
"And remember too that I shall not be an easy victim!"
|
|
|
|
"You'll get very sick of your independence."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps I shall; it's even very probable. When that day comes I
|
|
shall be very glad to see you."
|
|
|
|
She had laid her hand on the knob of the door that led into her
|
|
room, and she waited a moment to see whether her visitor would not
|
|
take his departure. But he appeared unable to move; there was still an
|
|
immense unwillingness in his attitude and a sore remonstrance in his
|
|
eyes. "I must leave you now," said Isabel; and she opened the door and
|
|
passed into the other room.
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|
|
|
This apartment was dark, but the darkness was tempered by a vague
|
|
radiance sent up through the window from the court of the hotel, and
|
|
Isabel could make out the masses of the furniture, the dim shining
|
|
of the mirror and the looming of the big four-posted bed. She stood
|
|
still a moment, listening, and at last she heard Caspar Goodwood
|
|
walk out of the sitting-room and close the door behind him. She
|
|
stood still a little longer, and then, by an irresistible impulse,
|
|
dropped on her knees before her bed and hid her face in her arms.
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CHAPTER 17
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|
|
She was not praying; she was trembling- trembling all over.
|
|
Vibration was easy to her, was in fact too constant with her, and
|
|
she found herself now humming like a smitten harp. She only asked,
|
|
however, to put on the cover, to case herself again in brown
|
|
holland, but she wished to resist her excitement, and the attitude
|
|
of devotion, which she kept for some time, seemed to help her to be
|
|
still. She intensely rejoiced that Caspar Goodwood was gone; there was
|
|
something in having thus got rid of him that was like the payment, for
|
|
a stamped receipt, of some debt too long on her mind. As she felt
|
|
the glad relief she bowed her head a little lower; the sense was
|
|
there, throbbing in her heart; it was part of her emotion, but it
|
|
was a thing to be ashamed of- it was profane and out of place. It
|
|
was not for some ten minutes that she rose from her knees, and even
|
|
when she came back to the sitting-room her tremor had not quite
|
|
subsided. It had had, verily, two causes: part of it was to be
|
|
accounted for by her long discussion with Mr. Goodwood, but it might
|
|
be feared that the rest was simply the enjoyment she found in the
|
|
exercise of her power. She sat down in the same chair again and took
|
|
up her book, but without going through the form of opening the volume.
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She leaned back, with that low, soft, aspiring murmur with which she
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often uttered her response to accidents of which the brighter side was
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not superficially obvious, and yielded to the satisfaction of having
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refused two ardent suitors in a fortnight. That love of liberty of
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which she had given Caspar Goodwood so bold a sketch was as yet almost
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exclusively theoretic; she had not been able to indulge it on a
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large scale. But it appeared to her she had done something; she had
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tasted of the delight, if not of battle, at least of victory; she
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had done what was truest to her plan. In the glow of this
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consciousness the image of Mr. Goodwood taking his sad walk homeward
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through the dingy town presented itself with a certain reproachful
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force; so that, as at the same moment the door of the room was opened,
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she rose with an apprehension that he had come back. But it was only
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Henrietta Stackpole returning from her dinner.
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Miss Stackpole immediately saw that our young lady had been
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"through" something, and indeed the discovery demanded no great
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penetration. She went straight up to her friend, who received her
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without a greeting. Isabel's elation in having sent Caspar Goodwood
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back to America presupposed her being in a manner glad he had come
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to see her; but at the same time she perfectly remembered Henrietta
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had had no right to set a trap for her. "Has he been here, dear?"
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the latter yearningly asked.
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Isabel turned away and for some moments answered nothing. "You acted
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very wrongly," she declared at last.
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"I acted for the best. I only hope you acted as well."
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"You're not the judge. I can't trust you," said Isabel.
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This declaration was unflattering, but Henrietta was much too
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unselfish to heed the charge it conveyed; she cared only for what it
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intimated with regard to her friend. "Isabel Archer," she observed
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with equal abruptness and solemnity, "if you marry one of these people
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I'll never speak to you again!"
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"Before making so terrible a threat you had better wait till I'm
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asked," Isabel replied. Never having said a word to Miss Stackpole
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about Lord Warburton's overtures, she had now no impulse whatever to
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justify herself to Henrietta by telling her that she had refused
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that nobleman.
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"Oh, you'll be asked quick enough, once you get off on the
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Continent. Annie Climber was asked three times in Italy- poor plain
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little Annie."
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"Well, if Annie Climber wasn't captured why should I be?"
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"I don't believe Annie was pressed; but you'll be."
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"That's a flattering conviction," said Isabel without alarm.
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"I don't flatter you, Isabel, I tell you the truth!" cried her
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friend. "I hope you don't mean to tell me that you didn't give Mr.
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Goodwood some hope."
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"I don't see why I should tell you anything; as I said to you just
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now, I can't trust you. But since you're so much interested in Mr.
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Goodwood I won't conceal from you that he returns immediately to
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America."
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"You don't mean to say you've sent him off? " Henrietta almost
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shrieked.
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"I asked him to leave me alone; and I ask you the same,
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Henrietta." Miss Stackpole glittered for an instant with dismay and
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then passed to the mirror over the chimney-piece and took off her
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bonnet. "I hope you've enjoyed your dinner," Isabel went on.
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But her companion was not to be diverted by frivolous
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propositions. "Do you know where you're going, Isabel Archer?"
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"Just now I'm going to bed," said Isabel with persistent frivolity.
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"Do you know where you're drifting?" Henrietta pursued, holding
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out her bonnet delicately.
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"No, I haven't the least idea, and I find it very pleasant not to
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know. A swift carriage, of a dark night, rattling with four horses
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over roads that one can't see- that's my idea of happiness."
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"Mr. Goodwood certainly didn't teach you to say such things as that-
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like the heroine of an immoral novel," said Miss Stackpole. "You're
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drifting to some great mistake."
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Isabel was irritated by her friend's interference, yet she still
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tried to think what truth this declaration could represent. She
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could think of nothing that diverted her from saying: "You must be
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very fond of me, Henrietta, to be willing to be so aggressive."
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"I love you intensely, Isabel," said Miss Stackpole with feeling.
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"Well, if you love me intensely let me as intensely alone. I asked
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that of Mr. Goodwood, and I must also ask it of you."
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"Take care you're not let alone too much."
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"That's what Mr. Goodwood said to me. I told him I must take the
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risks."
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"You're a creature of risks- you make me shudder!" cried
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Henrietta. "When does Mr. Goodwood return to America?"
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"I don't know- he didn't tell me."
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"Perhaps you didn't enquire," said Henrietta with the note of
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righteous irony.
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"I gave him too little satisfaction to have the right to ask
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questions of him."
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This assertion seemed to Miss Stackpole for a moment to bid defiance
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to comment; but at last she exclaimed: "Well, Isabel, if I didn't know
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you I might think you were heartless!"
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"Take care," said Isabel; "you're spoiling me."
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"I'm afraid I've done that already. I hope, at least," Miss
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Stackpole added, "that he may cross with Annie Climber!"
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Isabel learned from her the next morning that she had determined not
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to return to Gardencourt (where old Mr. Touchett had promised her a
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|
renewed welcome), but to await in London the arrival of the invitation
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|
that Mr. Bantling had promised her from his sister Lady Pensil. Miss
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|
Stackpole related very freely her conversation with Ralph Touchett's
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sociable friend and declared to Isabel that she really believed she
|
|
had now got hold of something that would lead to something. On the
|
|
receipt of Lady Pensil's letter- Mr. Bantling had virtually guaranteed
|
|
the arrival of this document- she would immediately depart for
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Bedfordshire, and if Isabel cared to look out for her impressions in
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|
the Interviewer she would certainly find them. Henrietta was evidently
|
|
going to see something of the inner life this time.
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"Do you know where you're drifting, Henrietta Stackpole?" Isabel
|
|
asked, imitating the tone in which her friend had spoken the night
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|
before.
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"I'm drifting to a big position- that of the Queen of American
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|
Journalism. If my next letter isn't copied all over the West I'll
|
|
swallow my pen-wiper!"
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|
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|
She had arranged with her friend Miss Annie Climber, the young
|
|
lady of the continental offers, that they should go together to make
|
|
those purchases which were to constitute Miss Climber's farewell to
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|
a hemisphere in which she at least had been appreciated; and she
|
|
presently repaired to Jermyn Street to pick up her companion.
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|
Shortly after her departure Ralph Touchett was announced, and as
|
|
soon as he came in Isabel saw he had something on his mind. He very
|
|
soon took his cousin into his confidence. He had received from his
|
|
mother a telegram to the effect that his father had had a sharp attack
|
|
of his old malady, that she was much alarmed and that she begged he
|
|
would instantly return to Gardencourt. On this occasion at least
|
|
Mrs. Touchett's devotion to the electric wire was not open to
|
|
criticism.
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|
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|
"I've judged it best to see the great doctor, Sir Matthew Hope,
|
|
first," Ralph said; "by great good luck he's in town. He's to see me
|
|
at half-past twelve, and I shall make sure of his coming down to
|
|
Gardencourt- which he will do the more readily as he has already
|
|
seen my father several times, both there and in London. There's an
|
|
express at two-forty-five, which I shall take; and you'll come back
|
|
with me or remain here a few days longer, exactly as you prefer."
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|
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|
"I shall certainly go with you," Isabel returned. "I don't suppose I
|
|
can be of any use to my uncle, but if he's ill I shall like to be near
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|
him."
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|
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|
"I think you're fond of him," said Ralph with a certain shy pleasure
|
|
in his face. "You appreciate him, which all the world hasn't done. The
|
|
quality's too fine."
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|
"I quite adore him," Isabel after a moment said.
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|
"That's very well. After his son he's your greatest admirer."
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|
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|
She welcomed this assurance, but she gave secretly a small sigh of
|
|
relief at the thought that Mr. Touchett was one of those admirers
|
|
who couldn't propose to marry her. This, however, was not what she
|
|
spoke; she went on to inform Ralph that there were other reasons for
|
|
her not remaining in London. She was tired of it and wished to leave
|
|
it; and then Henrietta was going away- going to stay in Bedfordshire.
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|
|
|
"In Bedfordshire?"
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|
|
|
"With Lady Pensil, the sister of Mr. Bantling, who has answered
|
|
for an invitation."
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|
|
|
Ralph was feeling anxious, but at this he broke into a laugh.
|
|
Suddenly, none the less, his gravity returned. "Bantling's a man of
|
|
courage. But if the invitation should get lost on the way?"
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|
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|
"I thought the British post-office was impeccable."
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|
|
|
"The good Homer sometimes nods," said Ralph. "However," he went on
|
|
more brightly, "the good Bantling never does, and, whatever happens,
|
|
he'll take care of Henrietta."
|
|
|
|
Ralph went to keep his appointment with Sir Matthew Hope, and Isabel
|
|
made her arrangements for quitting Pratt's Hotel. Her uncle's danger
|
|
touched her nearly, and while she stood before her open trunk, looking
|
|
about her vaguely for what she should put into it, the tears
|
|
suddenly rose to her eyes. It was perhaps for this reason that when
|
|
Ralph came back at two o'clock to take her to the station she was
|
|
not yet ready. He found Miss Stackpole, however, in the
|
|
sitting-room, where she had just risen from her luncheon, and this
|
|
lady immediately expressed her regret at his father's illness.
|
|
|
|
"He's a grand old man," she said; "he's faithful to the last. If
|
|
it's really to be the last- pardon my alluding to it, but you must
|
|
often have thought of the possibility- I'm sorry that I shall not be
|
|
at Gardencourt."
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|
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|
"You'll amuse yourself much more in Bedfordshire."
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|
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|
"I shall be sorry to amuse myself at such a time," said Henrietta
|
|
with much propriety. But she immediately added: "I should like so to
|
|
commemorate the closing scene."
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|
|
|
"My father may live a long time," said Ralph simply. Then, adverting
|
|
to topics more cheerful, he interrogated Miss Stackpole as to her
|
|
own future.
|
|
|
|
Now that Ralph was in trouble she addressed him in a tone of
|
|
larger allowance and told him that she was much indebted to him for
|
|
having made her acquainted with Mr. Bantling. "He has told me just the
|
|
things I want to know," she said; "all the society-items and all about
|
|
the royal family. I can't make out that what he tells me about the
|
|
royal family is much to their credit; but he says that's only my
|
|
peculiar way of looking at it. Well, all I want is that he should give
|
|
me the facts; I can put them together quick enough, once I've got
|
|
them." And she added that Mr. Bantling had been so good as to
|
|
promise to come and take her out that afternoon.
|
|
|
|
"To take you where?" Ralph ventured to enquire.
|
|
|
|
"To Buckingham Palace. He's going to show me over it, so that I
|
|
may get some idea how they live."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Ralph, "we leave you in good hands. The first thing we
|
|
shall hear is that you're invited to Windsor Castle."
|
|
|
|
"If they ask me, I shall certainly go. Once I get started I'm not
|
|
afraid. But for all that," Henrietta added in a moment, "I'm not
|
|
satisfied; I'm not at peace about Isabel."
|
|
|
|
"What is her last misdemeanour?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, I've told you before, and I suppose there's no harm in my
|
|
going on. I always finish a subject that I take up. Mr. Goodwood was
|
|
here last night."
|
|
|
|
Ralph opened his eyes; he even blushed a little- his blush being the
|
|
sign of an emotion somewhat acute. He remembered that Isabel, in
|
|
separating from him in Winchester Square, had repudiated his
|
|
suggestion that her motive in doing so was the expectation of a
|
|
visitor at Prates Hotel, and it was a new pang to him to have to
|
|
suspect her of duplicity. On the other hand, he quickly said to
|
|
himself, what concern was it of his that she should have made an
|
|
appointment with a lover? Had it not been thought graceful in every
|
|
age that young ladies should make a mystery of such appointments?
|
|
Ralph gave Miss Stackpole a diplomatic answer. "I should have
|
|
thought that, with the views you expressed to me the other day, this
|
|
would satisfy you perfectly."
|
|
|
|
"That he should come to see her? That was very well, as far as it
|
|
went. It was a little plot of mine; I let him know that we were in
|
|
London, and when it had been arranged that I should spend the
|
|
evening out I sent him a word- the word we just utter to the 'wise.' I
|
|
hoped he would find her alone; I won't pretend I didn't hope that
|
|
you'd be out of the way. He came to see her, but he might as well have
|
|
stayed away."
|
|
|
|
"Isabel was cruel?"- and Ralph's face lighted with the relief of his
|
|
cousin's not having shown duplicity.
|
|
|
|
"I don't exactly know what passed between them. But she gave him
|
|
no satisfaction- she sent him back to America."
|
|
|
|
"Poor Mr. Goodwood!" Ralph sighed.
|
|
|
|
"Her only idea seems to be to get rid of him," Henrietta went on.
|
|
|
|
"Poor Mr. Goodwood!" Ralph repeated. The exclamation, it must be
|
|
confessed, was automatic; it failed exactly to express his thoughts,
|
|
which were taking another line.
|
|
|
|
"You don't say that as if you felt it. I don't believe you care."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Ralph, "you must remember that I don't know this
|
|
interesting young man- that I've never seen him."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I shall see him, and I shall tell him not to give up. If I
|
|
didn't believe Isabel would come round," Miss Stackpole added-
|
|
"well, I'd give up myself. I mean I'd give her up!"
|
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|
CHAPTER 18
|
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|
|
It had occurred to Ralph that, in the conditions, Isabel's parting
|
|
with her friend might be of a slightly embarrassed nature, and he went
|
|
down to the door of the hotel in advance of his cousin, who, after a
|
|
slight delay, followed with the traces of an unaccepted
|
|
remonstrance, as he thought, in her eyes. The two made the journey
|
|
to Gardencourt in almost unbroken silence, and the servant who met
|
|
them at the station had no better news to give them of Mr. Touchett- a
|
|
fact which caused Ralph to congratulate himself afresh on Sir
|
|
Matthew Hope's having promised to come down in the five o'clock
|
|
train and spend the night. Mrs. Touchett, he learned, on reaching
|
|
home, had been constantly with the old man and was with him at that
|
|
moment; and this fact made Ralph say to himself that, after all,
|
|
what his mother wanted was just easy occasion. The finer natures
|
|
were those that shone at the larger times. Isabel went to her own
|
|
room, noting throughout the house that perceptible hush which precedes
|
|
a crisis. At the end of an hour, however, she came downstairs in
|
|
search of her aunt, whom she wished to ask about Mr. Touchett. She
|
|
went into the library, but Mrs. Touchett was not there, and as the
|
|
weather, which had been damp and chill, was now altogether spoiled, it
|
|
was not probable she had gone for her usual walk in the grounds.
|
|
Isabel was on the point of ringing to send a question to her room,
|
|
when this purpose quickly yielded to an unexpected sound- the sound of
|
|
low music proceeding apparently from the saloon. She knew her aunt
|
|
never touched the piano, and the musician was therefore probably
|
|
Ralph, who played for his own amusement. That he should have
|
|
resorted to this recreation at the present time indicated apparently
|
|
that his anxiety about his father had been relieved; so that the
|
|
girl took her way, almost with restored cheer, toward the source of
|
|
the harmony. The drawing-room at Gardencourt was an apartment of great
|
|
distances, and, as the piano was placed at the end of it furthest
|
|
removed from the door at which she entered, her arrival was not
|
|
noticed by the person seated before the instrument. This person was
|
|
neither Ralph nor his mother; it was a lady whom Isabel immediately
|
|
saw to be a stranger to herself, though her back was presented to
|
|
the door. This back- an ample and well-dressed one- Isabel viewed
|
|
for some moments with surprise. The lady was of course a visitor who
|
|
had arrived during her absence and who had not been mentioned by
|
|
either of the servants- one of them her aunt's maid- of whom she had
|
|
had speech since her return. Isabel had already learned, however, with
|
|
what treasures of reserve the function of receiving orders may be
|
|
accompanied, and she was particularly conscious of having been treated
|
|
with dryness by her aunt's maid, through whose hands she had slipped
|
|
perhaps a little too mistrustfully and with an effect of plumage but
|
|
the more lustrous.
|
|
|
|
The advent of a guest was in itself far from disconcerting; she
|
|
had not yet divested herself of a young faith that each new
|
|
acquaintance would exert some momentous influence on her life. By
|
|
the time she had made these reflexions she became aware that the
|
|
lady at the piano played remarkably well. She was playing something of
|
|
Schubert's- Isabel knew not what, but recognized Schubert- and she
|
|
touched the piano with a discretion of her own. It showed skill, it
|
|
showed feeling; Isabel sat down noiselessly on the nearest chair and
|
|
waited till the end of the piece. When it was finished she felt a
|
|
strong desire to thank the player, and rose from her seat to do so,
|
|
while at the same time the stranger turned quickly round, as if but
|
|
just aware of her presence.
|
|
|
|
"That's very beautiful, and your playing makes it more beautiful
|
|
still," said Isabel with all the young radiance with which she usually
|
|
uttered a truthful rapture.
|
|
|
|
"You don't think I disturbed Mr. Touchett then?" the musician
|
|
answered as sweetly as this compliment deserved. "The house is so
|
|
large and his room so far away that I thought I might venture,
|
|
especially as I played just- just du bout des doigts."
|
|
|
|
"She's a Frenchwoman," Isabel said to herself; "she says that as
|
|
if she were French." And this supposition made the visitor more
|
|
interesting to our speculative heroine. "I hope my uncle's doing
|
|
well," Isabel added. "I should think that to hear such lovely music as
|
|
that would really make him feel better."
|
|
|
|
The lady smiled and discriminated. "I'm afraid there are moments
|
|
in life when even Schubert has nothing to say to us. We must admit,
|
|
however, that they are our worst."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not in that state now then," said Isabel. "On the contrary I
|
|
should be so glad if you would play something more."
|
|
|
|
"If it will give you pleasure- delighted." And this obliging
|
|
person took her place again and struck a few chords, while Isabel
|
|
sat down nearer the instrument. Suddenly the new-comer stopped with
|
|
her hands on the keys, half-turning and looking over her shoulder. She
|
|
was forty years old and not pretty, though her expression charmed.
|
|
"Pardon me," she said; "but are you the niece- the young American?"
|
|
|
|
"I'm my aunt's niece," Isabel replied with simplicity.
|
|
|
|
The lady at the piano sat still a moment longer, casting her air
|
|
of interest over her shoulder. "That's very well; we're
|
|
compatriots." And then she began to play.
|
|
|
|
"Ah then she's not French," Isabel murmured; and as the opposite
|
|
supposition had made her romantic it might have seemed that this
|
|
revelation would have marked a drop. But such was not the fact;
|
|
rarer even than to be French seemed it to be American on such
|
|
interesting terms.
|
|
|
|
The lady played in the same manner as before, softly and solemnly,
|
|
and while she played the shadows deepened in the room. The autumn
|
|
twilight gathered in, and from her place Isabel could see the rain,
|
|
which had now begun in earnest, washing the cold-looking lawn and
|
|
the wind shaking the great trees. At last, when the music had
|
|
ceased, her companion got up and, coming nearer with a smile, before
|
|
Isabel had time to thank her again, said: "I'm very glad you've come
|
|
back; I've heard a great deal about you."
|
|
|
|
Isabel thought her a very attractive person, but nevertheless
|
|
spoke with a certain abruptness in reply to this speech. "From whom
|
|
have you heard about me?"
|
|
|
|
The stranger hesitated a single moment and then, "From your
|
|
uncle," she answered. "I've been here three days, and the first day he
|
|
let me come and pay him a visit in his room. Then he talked constantly
|
|
of you."
|
|
|
|
"As you didn't know me that must rather have bored you."
|
|
|
|
"It made me want to know you. All the more that since then- your
|
|
aunt being so much with Mr. Touchett- I've been quite alone and have
|
|
got rather tired of my own society. I've not chosen a good moment
|
|
for my visit."
|
|
|
|
A servant had come in with lamps and was presently followed by
|
|
another bearing the tea-tray. On the appearance of this repast Mrs.
|
|
Touchett had apparently been notified, for she now arrived and
|
|
addressed herself to the tea-pot. Her greeting to her niece did not
|
|
differ materially from her manner of raising the lid of this
|
|
receptacle in order to glance at the contents: in neither act was it
|
|
becoming to make a show of avidity. Questioned about her husband she
|
|
was unable to say he was better; but the local doctor was with him,
|
|
and much light was expected from this gentleman's consultation with
|
|
Sir Matthew Hope.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose you two ladies have made acquaintance," she pursued.
|
|
"If you haven't I recommend you to do so; for so long as we
|
|
continue- Ralph and I- to cluster about Mr. Touchett's bed you're
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not likely to have much society but each other."
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"I know nothing about you but that you're a great musician,"
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Isabel said to the visitor.
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"There's a good deal more than that to know," Mrs. Touchett affirmed
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in her little dry tone.
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"A very little of it, I am sure, will content Miss Archer!" the lady
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exclaimed with a light laugh. "I'm an old friend of your aunt's.
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I've lived much in Florence. I'm Madame Merle." She made this last
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announcement as if she were referring to a person of tolerably
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distinct identity. For Isabel, however, it represented little; she
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could only continue to feel that Madame Merle had as charming a manner
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as any she had ever encountered.
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"She's not a foreigner in spite of her name," said Mrs. Touchett.
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"She was born- I always forget where you were born."
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"It's hardly worth while then I should tell you."
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"On the contrary," said Mrs. Touchett, who rarely missed a logical
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point; "if I remembered your telling me would be quite superfluous."
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Madame Merle glanced at Isabel with a sort of world-wide smile, a
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thing that over-reached frontiers. "I was born under the shadow of the
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national banner."
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"She's too fond of mystery," said Mrs. Touchett; "that's her great
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fault."
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"Ah," exclaimed Madame Merle, "I've great faults, but I don't
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think that's one of them; it certainly isn't the greatest. I came into
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the world in the Brooklyn navy-yard. My father was a high officer in
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the United States Navy, and had a post- a post of responsibility- in
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that establishment at the time. I suppose I ought to love the sea, but
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I hate it. That's why I don't return to America. I love the land;
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the great thing is to love something."
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Isabel, as a dispassionate witness, had not been struck with the
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force of Mrs. Touchett's characterization of her visitor, who had an
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expressive, communicative, responsive face, by no means of the sort
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which, to Isabel's mind, suggested a secretive disposition. It was a
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face that told of an amplitude of nature and of quick and free motions
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and, though it had no regular beauty, was in the highest degree
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engaging and attaching. Madame Merle was a tall, fair, smooth woman;
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everything in her person was round and replete, though without those
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accumulations which suggest heaviness. Her features were thick but
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in perfect proportion and harmony, and her complexion had a healthy
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clearness. Her grey eyes were small but full of light and incapable of
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stupidity- incapable, according to some people, even of tears; she had
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a liberal, full-rimmed mouth which when she smiled drew itself
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upward to the left side in a manner that most people thought very odd,
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some very affected and a few very graceful. Isabel inclined to range
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herself in the last category. Madame Merle had thick, fair hair,
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arranged somehow "classically" and as if she were a Bust, Isabel
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judged- a Juno or a Niobe; and large white hands, of a perfect
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shape, a shape so perfect that their possessor, preferring to leave
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them unadorned, wore no jewelled rings. Isabel had taken her at first,
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as we have seen, for a Frenchwoman; but extended observation might
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have ranked her as a German- a German of high degree, perhaps an
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Austrian, a baroness, a countess, a princess. It would never have been
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supposed she had come into the world in Brooklyn- though one could
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doubtless not have carried through any argument that the air of
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distinction marking her in so eminent a degree was inconsistent with
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such a birth. It was true that the national banner had floated
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immediately over her cradle, and the breezy freedom of the stars and
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stripes might have shed an influence upon the attitude she there
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|
took towards life. And yet she had evidently nothing of the fluttered,
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flapping quality of a morsel of bunting in the wind; her manner
|
|
expressed the repose and confidence which come from a large
|
|
experience. Experience, however, had not quenched her youth; it had
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simply made her sympathetic and supple. She was in a word a woman of
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strong impulses kept in admirable order. This commended itself to
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Isabel as an ideal combination.
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The girl made these reflections while the three ladies sat at
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their tea, but that ceremony was interrupted before long by the
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arrival of the great doctor from London, who had been immediately
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ushered into the drawing-room. Mrs. Touchett took him off to the
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library for a private talk; and then Madame Merle and Isabel parted,
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|
to meet again at dinner. The idea of seeing more of this interesting
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woman did much to mitigate Isabel's sense of the sadness now
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|
settling on Gardencourt.
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When she came into the drawing-room before dinner she found the
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place empty; but in the course of a moment Ralph arrived. His
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anxiety about his father had been lightened; Sir Matthew Hope's view
|
|
of his condition was less depressed than his own had been. The
|
|
doctor recommended that the nurse alone should remain with the old man
|
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for the next three or four hours; so that Ralph, his mother and the
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|
great physician himself were free to dine at table. Mrs. Touchett
|
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and Sir Matthew appeared; Madame Merle was the last.
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Before she came Isabel spoke of her to Ralph, who was standing
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before the fireplace. "Pray who is this Madame Merle?"
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"The cleverest woman I know, not excepting yourself," said Ralph.
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"I thought she seemed very pleasant."
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"I was sure you'd think her very pleasant."
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"Is that why you invited her?"
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"I didn't invite her, and when we came back from London I didn't
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know she was here. No one invited her. She's a friend of my
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|
mother's, and just after you and I went to town my mother got a note
|
|
from her. She had arrived in England (she usually lives abroad, though
|
|
she has first and last spent a good deal of time here), and asked
|
|
leave to come down for a few days. She's a woman who can make such
|
|
proposals with perfect confidence; she's so welcome wherever she goes.
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And with my mother there could be no question of hesitating; she's the
|
|
one person in the world whom my mother very much admires. If she
|
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were not herself (which she after all much prefers), she would like to
|
|
be Madame Merle. It would indeed be a great change."
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"Well, she's very charming," said Isabel. "And she plays
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beautifully."
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"She does everything beautifully. She's complete."
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Isabel looked at her cousin a moment. "You don't like her."
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"On the contrary, I was once in love with her."
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"And she didn't care for you, and that's why you don't like her."
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"How can we have discussed such things? Monsieur Merle was then
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living."
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"Is he dead now?"
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"So she says."
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"Don't you believe her?"
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"Yes, because the statement agrees with the probabilities. The
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husband of Madame Merle would be likely to pass away."
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Isabel gazed at her cousin again. "I don't know what you mean. You
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|
mean something- that you don't mean. What was Monsieur Merle?"
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"The husband of Madame."
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"You're very odious. Has she any children?"
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"Not the least little child- fortunately."
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"Fortunately?"
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"I mean fortunately for the child. She'd be sure to spoil it."
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Isabel was apparently on the point of assuring her cousin for the
|
|
third time that he was odious; but the discussion was interrupted by
|
|
the arrival of the lady who was the topic of it. She came rustling
|
|
in quickly, apologizing for being late, fastening a bracelet,
|
|
dressed in dark blue satin, which exposed a white bosom that was
|
|
ineffectually covered by a curious silver necklace. Ralph offered
|
|
her his arm with the exaggerated alertness of a man who was no
|
|
longer a lover.
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|
Even if this had still been his condition, however, Ralph had
|
|
other things to think about. The great doctor spent the night at
|
|
Gardencourt and, returning to London on the morrow, after another
|
|
consultation with Mr. Touchett's own medical adviser, concurred in
|
|
Ralph's desire that he should see the patient again on the day
|
|
following. On the day following Sir Matthew Hope reappeared at
|
|
Gardencourt, and now took a less encouraging view of the old man,
|
|
who had grown worse in the twenty-four hours. His feebleness was
|
|
extreme, and to his son, who constantly sat by his bedside, it often
|
|
seemed that his end must be at hand. The local doctor, a very
|
|
sagacious man, in whom Ralph had secretly more confidence than in
|
|
his distinguished colleague, was constantly in attendance, and Sir
|
|
Matthew Hope came back several times. Mr. Touchett was much of the
|
|
time unconscious; he slept a great deal; he rarely spoke. Isabel had a
|
|
great desire to be useful to him and was allowed to watch with him
|
|
at hours when his other attendants (of whom Mrs. Touchett was not
|
|
the least regular) went to take rest. He never seemed to know her, and
|
|
she always said to herself, "Suppose he should die while I'm sitting
|
|
here"; an idea which excited her and kept her awake. Once he opened
|
|
his eyes for a while and fixed them upon her intelligently, but when
|
|
she went to him, hoping he would recognize her, he closed them and
|
|
relapsed into stupor. The day after this, however, he revived for a
|
|
longer time; but on this occasion Ralph only was with him. The old man
|
|
began to talk, much to his son's satisfaction, who assured him that
|
|
they should presently have him sitting up.
|
|
|
|
"No, my boy," said Mr. Touchett, "not unless you bury me in a
|
|
sitting posture, as some of the ancients- was it the ancients?- used
|
|
to do."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, daddy, don't talk about that," Ralph murmured. "You mustn't
|
|
deny that you're getting better."
|
|
|
|
"There will be no need of my denying it if you don't say it," the
|
|
old man answered. "Why should we prevaricate just at the last? We
|
|
never prevaricated before. I've got to die some time, and it's
|
|
better to die when one's sick than when one's well. I'm very sick-
|
|
as sick as I shall ever be. I hope you don't want to prove that I
|
|
shall ever be worse than this? That would be too bad. You don't?
|
|
Well then."
|
|
|
|
Having made this excellent point he became quiet; but the next
|
|
time that Ralph was with him he again addressed himself to
|
|
conversation. The nurse had gone to her supper and Ralph was alone
|
|
in charge, having just relieved Mrs. Touchett, who had been on guard
|
|
since dinner. The room was lighted only by the flickering fire,
|
|
which of late had become necessary, and Ralph's tall shadow was
|
|
projected over wall and ceiling with an outline constantly varying but
|
|
always grotesque.
|
|
|
|
"Who's that with me- is it my son?" the old man asked.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it's your son, daddy."
|
|
|
|
"And is there no one else?"
|
|
|
|
"No one else."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Touchett said nothing for a while; and then, "I want to talk a
|
|
little," he went on.
|
|
|
|
"Won't it tire you?" Ralph demurred.
|
|
|
|
"It won't matter if it does. I shall have a long rest. I want to
|
|
talk about you.
|
|
|
|
Ralph had drawn nearer to the bed; he sat leaning forward with his
|
|
hand on his father's. "You had better select a brighter topic."
|
|
|
|
"You were always bright; I used to be proud of your brightness. I
|
|
should like so much to think you'd do something."
|
|
|
|
"If you leave us," said Ralph, "I shall do nothing but miss you."
|
|
|
|
"That's just what I don't want; it's what I want to talk about.
|
|
You must get a new interest."
|
|
|
|
"I don't want a new interest, daddy. I have more old ones than I
|
|
know what to do with."
|
|
|
|
The old man lay there looking at his son; his face was the face of
|
|
the dying, but his eyes were the eyes of Daniel Touchett. He seemed to
|
|
be reckoning over Ralph's interests. "Of course you have your mother,"
|
|
he said at last. "You'll take care of her."
|
|
|
|
"My mother will always take care of herself," Ralph returned.
|
|
|
|
"Well," said his father, "perhaps as she grows older she'll need a
|
|
little help."
|
|
|
|
"I shall not see that. She'll outlive me."
|
|
|
|
"Very likely she will; but that's no reason-!" Mr. Touchett let
|
|
his phrase die away in a helpless but not quite querulous sigh and
|
|
remained silent again.
|
|
|
|
"Don't trouble yourself about us," said his son. "My mother and I
|
|
get on very well together, you know."
|
|
|
|
"You get on by always being apart; that's not natural."
|
|
|
|
"If you leave us we shall probably see more of each other."
|
|
|
|
"Well," the old man observed with wandering irrelevance, "it can't
|
|
be said that my death will make much difference in your mother's
|
|
life."
|
|
|
|
"It will probably make more than you think."
|
|
|
|
"Well, she'll have more money," said Mr. Touchett. "I've left her
|
|
a good wife's portion, just as if she had been a good wife."
|
|
|
|
"She has been one, daddy, according to her own theory. She has never
|
|
troubled you."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, some troubles are pleasant," Mr. Touchett murmured. "Those
|
|
you've given me for instance. But your mother has been less- less-
|
|
what shall I call it? less out of the way since I've been ill. I
|
|
presume she knows I've noticed it."
|
|
|
|
"I shall certainly tell her so; I'm so glad you mention it."
|
|
|
|
"It won't make any difference to her; she doesn't do it to please
|
|
me. She does it to please- to please-" And he lay a while trying to
|
|
think why she did it. "She does it because it suits her. But that's
|
|
not what I want to talk about," he added. "It's about you. You'll be
|
|
very well off."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said Ralph, "I know that. But I hope you've not forgotten the
|
|
talk we had a year ago- when I told you exactly what money I should
|
|
need and begged you to make some good use of the rest."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes, I remember. I made a new will- in a few days. I suppose
|
|
it was the first time such a thing had happened- a young man trying to
|
|
get a will made against him."
|
|
|
|
"It is not against me," said Ralph. "It would be against me to
|
|
have a large property to take care of. It's impossible for a man in my
|
|
state of health to spend much money, and enough is as good as a
|
|
feast."
|
|
|
|
"Well, you'll have enough- and something over. There will be more
|
|
than enough for one- there will be enough for two."
|
|
|
|
"That's too much," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, don't say that. The best thing you can do, when I'm gone,
|
|
will be to marry."
|
|
|
|
Ralph had foreseen what his father was coming to, and this
|
|
suggestion was by no means fresh. It had long been Mr. Touchett's most
|
|
ingenious way of taking the cheerful view of his son's possible
|
|
duration. Ralph had usually treated it facetiously; but present
|
|
circumstances proscribed the facetious. He simply fell back in his
|
|
chair and returned his father's appealing gaze.
|
|
|
|
"If I, with a wife who hasn't been very fond of me, have had a
|
|
very happy life," said the old man, carrying his ingenuity further
|
|
still, "what a life mightn't you have if you should marry a person
|
|
different from Mrs. Touchett. There are more different from her than
|
|
there are like her." Ralph still said nothing; and after a pause his
|
|
father resumed softly: "What do you think of your cousin?"
|
|
|
|
At this Ralph started, meeting the question with a strained smile.
|
|
"Do I understand you to propose that I should marry Isabel?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, that's what it comes to in the end. Don't you like Isabel?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, very much." And Ralph got up from his chair and wandered
|
|
over to the fire. He stood before it an instant and then he stooped
|
|
and stirred it mechanically.
|
|
|
|
"I like Isabel very much," he repeated.
|
|
|
|
"Well," said his father, "I know she likes you. She has told me
|
|
how much she likes you."
|
|
|
|
"Did she remark that she would like to marry me?"
|
|
|
|
"No, but she can't have anything against you. And she's the most
|
|
charming young lady I've ever seen. And she would be good to you. I
|
|
have thought a great deal about it."
|
|
|
|
"So have I," said Ralph, coming back to the bedside again. "I
|
|
don't mind telling you that."
|
|
|
|
"You are in love with her then? I should think you would be. It's as
|
|
if she came over on purpose."
|
|
|
|
"No, I'm not in love with her; but I should be if- if certain things
|
|
were different."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, things are always different from what they might be," said
|
|
the old man. "If you wait for them to change you'll never do anything.
|
|
I don't know whether you know," he went on; "but I suppose there's
|
|
no harm in my alluding to it at such an hour as this: there was some
|
|
one wanted to marry Isabel the other day, and she wouldn't have him."
|
|
|
|
"I know she refused Warburton: he told me himself."
|
|
|
|
"Well, that proves there's a chance for somebody else."
|
|
|
|
"Somebody else took his chance the other day in London- and got
|
|
nothing by it."
|
|
|
|
"Was it you?" Mr. Touchett eagerly asked.
|
|
|
|
"No, it was an older friend; a poor gentleman who came over from
|
|
America to see about it."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I'm sorry for him, whoever he was. But it only proves what
|
|
I say- that the way's open to you."
|
|
|
|
"If it is, dear father, it's all the greater pity that I'm unable to
|
|
tread it. I haven't many convictions; but I have three or four that
|
|
I hold strongly. One is that people, on the whole, had better not
|
|
marry their cousins. Another is that people in an advanced stage of
|
|
pulmonary disorder had better not marry at all."
|
|
|
|
The old man raised his weak hand and moved it to and fro before
|
|
his face. "What do you mean by that? You look at things in a way
|
|
that would make everything wrong. What sort of a cousin is a cousin
|
|
that you had never seen for more than twenty years of her life?
|
|
We're all each other's cousins, and if we stopped at that the human
|
|
race would die out. It's just the same with your bad lung. You're a
|
|
great deal better than you used to be. All you want is to lead a
|
|
natural life. It is a great deal more natural to marry a pretty
|
|
young lady that you're in love with than it is to remain single on
|
|
false principles."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not in love with Isabel," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"You said just now that you would be if you didn't think it wrong. I
|
|
want to prove to you that it isn't wrong."
|
|
|
|
"It will only tire you, dear daddy," said Ralph, who marvelled at
|
|
his father's tenacity and at his finding strength to insist. "Then
|
|
where shall we all be?"
|
|
|
|
"Where shall you be if I don't provide for you? You won't have
|
|
anything to do with the bank, and you won't have me to take care of.
|
|
You say you've so many interests; but I can't make them out."
|
|
|
|
Ralph leaned back in his chair with folded arms; his eyes were fixed
|
|
for some time in meditation. At last, with the air of a man fairly
|
|
mustering courage, "I take a great interest in my cousin," he said,
|
|
"but not the sort of interest you desire. I shall not live many years;
|
|
but I hope I shall live long enough to see what she does with herself.
|
|
She's entirely independent of me; I can exercise very little influence
|
|
upon her life. But I should like to do something for her."
|
|
|
|
"What should you like to do?"
|
|
|
|
"I should like to put a little wind in her sails."
|
|
|
|
"What do you mean by that?"
|
|
|
|
"I should like to put it into her power to do some of the things she
|
|
wants. She wants to see the world for instance. I should like to put
|
|
money in her purse."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, I'm glad you've thought of that," said the old man. "But I've
|
|
thought of it too. I've left her a legacy- five thousand pounds."
|
|
|
|
"That's capital; it's very kind of you. But I should like to do a
|
|
little more."
|
|
|
|
Something of that veiled acuteness with which it had been on
|
|
Daniel Touchett's part the habit of a lifetime to listen to a
|
|
financial proposition still lingered in the face in which the
|
|
invalid had not obliterated the man of happiness. "I shall be happy to
|
|
consider it," he said softly.
|
|
|
|
"Isabel's poor then. My mother tells me that she has but a few
|
|
hundred dollars a year. I should like to make her rich."
|
|
|
|
"What do you mean by rich?"
|
|
|
|
"I call people rich when they're able to meet the requirements of
|
|
their imagination. Isabel has a great deal of imagination."
|
|
|
|
"So have you, my son," said Mr. Touchett, listening very attentively
|
|
but a little confusedly.
|
|
|
|
"You tell me I shall have money enough for two. What I want is
|
|
that you should kindly relieve me of my superfluity and make it over
|
|
to Isabel. Divide my inheritance into two equal halves and give her
|
|
the second."
|
|
|
|
"To do what she likes with?"
|
|
|
|
"Absolutely what she likes."
|
|
|
|
"And without an equivalent?"
|
|
|
|
"What equivalent could there be?"
|
|
|
|
"The one I've already mentioned."
|
|
|
|
"Her marrying- some one or other? It's just to do away with anything
|
|
of that sort that I make my suggestion. If she has an easy income
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she'll never have to marry for a support. That's what I want cannily
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to prevent. She wishes to be free, and your bequest will make her
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free."
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"Well, you seem to have thought it out," said Mr. Touchett. "But I
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don't see why you appeal to me. The money will be yours, and you can
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easily give it to her yourself."
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Ralph openly stared. "Ah, dear father, I can't offer Isabel money!"
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The old man gave a groan. "Don't tell me you're not in love with
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her! Do you want me to have the credit of it?"
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"Entirely. I should like it simply to be a clause in your will,
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without the slightest reference to me."
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"Do you want me to make a new will then?"
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"A few words will do it; you can attend to it the next time you feel
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a little lively."
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"You must telegraph to Mr. Hilary then. I'll do nothing without my
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solicitor."
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"You shall see Mr. Hilary to-morrow."
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"He'll think we've quarrelled, you and I," said the old man.
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"Very probably; I shall like him to think it," said Ralph,
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smiling; "and, to carry out the idea, I give you notice that I shall
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be very sharp, quite horrid and strange, with you."
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The humour of this appeared to touch his father, who lay a little
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while taking it in. "I'll do anything you like," Mr. Touchett said
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at last; "but I'm not sure it's right. You say you want to put wind in
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her sails; but aren't you afraid of putting too much?"
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"I should like to see her going before the breeze!" Ralph answered.
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"You speak as if it were for your mere amusement."
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"So it is, a good deal."
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"Well, I don't think I understand," said Mr. Touchett with a sigh.
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"Young men are very different from what I was. When I cared for a
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girl- when I was young- I wanted to do more than look at her. You've
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scruples that I shouldn't have had, and you've ideas that I
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shouldn't have had either. You say Isabel wants to be free, and that
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her being rich will keep her from marrying for money. Do you think
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that she's a girl to do that?"
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"By no means. But she has less money than she has ever had before.
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Her father then gave her everything, because he used to spend his
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capital. She has nothing but the crumbs of that feast to live on,
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and she doesn't really know how meagre they are- she has yet to
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learn it. My mother has told me all about it. Isabel will learn it
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when she's really thrown upon the world, and it would be very
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painful to me to think of her coming to the consciousness of a lot
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of wants she should be unable to satisfy."
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"I've left her five thousand pounds. She can satisfy a good many
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wants with that."
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"She can indeed. But she would probably spend it in two or three
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years."
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"You think she'd be extravagant then?"
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"Most certainly," said Ralph, smiling serenely.
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Poor Mr. Touchett's acuteness was rapidly giving place to pure
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confusion. "It would merely be a question of time then, her spending
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the larger sum?"
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"No- though at first I think she'd plunge into that pretty freely:
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she'd probably make over a part of it to each of her sisters. But
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after that she'd come to her senses, remember she has still a lifetime
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before her, and live within her means."
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"Well, you have worked it out," said the old man helplessly. "You do
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take an interest in her, certainly."
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"You can't consistently say I go too far. You wished me to go
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further."
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"Well, I don't know," Mr. Touchett answered. "I don't think I
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enter into your spirit. It seems to me immoral."
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"Immoral, dear daddy?"
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"Well, I don't know that it's right to make everything so easy for a
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person."
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"It surely depends upon the person. When the person's good, your
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making things easy is all to the credit of virtue. To facilitate the
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execution of good impulses, what can be a nobler act?"
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This was a little difficult to follow, and Mr. Touchett considered
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it for a while. At last he said: "Isabel's a sweet young thing; but do
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you think she's so good as that?"
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"She's as good as her best opportunities," Ralph returned.
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"Well," Mr. Touchett declared, "she ought to get a great many
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opportunities for sixty thousand pounds."
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"I've no doubt she will."
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"Of course I'll do what you want," said the old man. "I only want to
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understand it a little."
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"Well, dear daddy, don't you understand it now?" his son caressingly
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asked. "If you don't we won't take any more trouble about it. We'll
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leave it alone."
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Mr. Touchett lay a long time still. Ralph supposed he had given up
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the attempt to follow. But at last, quite lucidly, he began again.
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"Tell me this first. Doesn't it occur to you that a young lady with
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sixty thousand pounds may fall a victim to the fortune-hunters?"
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"She'll hardly fall a victim to more than one."
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"Well, one's too many."
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"Decidedly. That's a risk, and it has entered into my calculation. I
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think it's appreciable, but I think it's small, and I'm prepared to
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take it."
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Poor Mr. Touchett's acuteness had passed into perplexity, and his
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perplexity now passed into admiration. "Well, you have gone into
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it!" he repeated. "But I don't see what good you're to get of it."
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Ralph leaned over his father's pillows and gently smoothed them;
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he was aware their talk had been unduly prolonged. "I shall get just
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the good I said a few moments ago I wished to put into Isabel's reach-
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that of having met the requirements of my imagination. But it's
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scandalous, the way I've taken advantage of you!"
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CHAPTER 19
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As Mrs. Touchett had foretold, Isabel and Madame Merle were thrown
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much together during the illness of their host, so that if they had
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not become intimate it would have been almost a breach of good
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manners. Their manners were of the best, but in addition to this
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they happened to please each other. It is perhaps too much to say that
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they swore an eternal friendship, but tacitly at least they called the
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future to witness. Isabel did so with a perfectly good conscience,
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though she would have hesitated to admit she was intimate with her new
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friend in the high sense she privately attached to this term. She
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often wondered indeed if she ever had been, or ever could be, intimate
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with any one. She had an ideal of friendship as well as of several
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other sentiments, which it failed to seem to her in this case- it
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|
had not seemed to her in other cases- that the actual completely
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expressed. But she often reminded herself that there were essential
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reasons why one's ideal could never become concrete. It was a thing to
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believe in, not to see- a matter of faith, not of experience.
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Experience, however, might supply us with very creditable imitations
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of it, and the part of wisdom was to make the best of these.
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Certainly, on the whole, Isabel had never encountered a more agreeable
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and interesting figure than Madame Merle; she had never met a person
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having less of that fault which is the principal obstacle to
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friendship- the air of reproducing the more tiresome, the stale, the
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too-familiar parts of one's own character. The gates of the girl's
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confidence were opened wider than they had ever been; she said
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things to this amiable auditress that she had not yet said to any one.
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Sometimes she took alarm at her candour: it was as if she had given to
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a comparative stranger the key to her cabinet of jewels. These
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spiritual gems were the only ones of any magnitude that Isabel
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possessed, but there was all the greater reason for their being
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|
carefully guarded. Afterwards, however, she always remembered that one
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|
should never regret a generous error and that if Madame Merle had
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|
not the merits she attributed to her, so much the worse for Madame
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|
Merle. There was no doubt she had great merits- she was charming,
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sympathetic, intelligent, cultivated. More than this (for it had not
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|
been Isabel's ill-fortune to go through life without meeting in her
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own sex several persons of whom no less could fairly be said), she was
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rare, superior and preeminent. There are many amiable people in the
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|
world, and Madame Merle was far from being vulgarly good natured and
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restlessly witty. She knew how to think- an accomplishment rare in
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|
women; and she had thought to very good purpose. Of course, too, she
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|
knew how to feel; Isabel couldn't have spent a week with her without
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|
being sure of that. This was indeed Madame Merle's great talent, her
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|
most perfect gift. Life had told upon her; she had felt it strongly,
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|
and it was part of the satisfaction to be taken in her society that
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|
when the girl talked of what she was pleased to call serious matters
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|
this lady understood her so easily and quickly. Emotion, it is true,
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|
had become with her rather historic; she made no secret of the fact
|
|
that the fount of passion, thanks to having been rather violently
|
|
tapped at one period, didn't flow quite so freely as of yore. She
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|
proposed moreover, as well as expected, to cease feeling; she freely
|
|
admitted that of old she had been a little mad, and now she
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|
pretended to be perfectly sane.
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"I judge more than I used to," she said to Isabel, "but it seems
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|
to me one has earned the right. One can't judge till one's forty;
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|
before that we're too eager, too hard, too cruel, and in addition much
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|
too ignorant. I'm sorry for you; it will be a long time before
|
|
you're forty. But every gain's a loss of some kind; I often think that
|
|
after forty one can't really feel. The freshness, the quickness have
|
|
certainly gone. You'll keep them longer than most people; it will be a
|
|
great satisfaction to me to see you some years hence. I want to see
|
|
what life makes of you. One thing's certain- it can't spoil you. It
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|
may pull you about horribly, but I defy it to break you up."
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Isabel received this assurance as a young soldier, still panting
|
|
from a slight skirmish in which he has come off with honour, might
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|
receive a pat on the shoulder from his colonel. Like such a
|
|
recognition of merit it seemed to come with authority. How could the
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|
lightest word do less on the part of a person who was prepared to say,
|
|
of almost everything Isabel told her, "Oh, I've been in that, my dear;
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|
it passes, like everything else." On many of her interlocutors
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|
Madame Merle might have produced an irritating effect; it was
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|
disconcertingly difficult to surprise her. But Isabel, though by no
|
|
means incapable of desiring to be effective, had not at present this
|
|
impulse. She was too sincere, too interested in her judicious
|
|
companion. And then moreover Madame Merle never said such things in
|
|
the tone of triumph or of boastfulness; they dropped from her like
|
|
cold confessions.
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|
A period of bad weather had settled upon Gardencourt; the days
|
|
grew shorter and there was an end to the pretty tea-parties on the
|
|
lawn. But our young woman had long indoor conversations with her
|
|
fellow visitor, and in spite of the rain the two ladies often
|
|
sallied forth for a walk, equipped with the defensive apparatus
|
|
which the English climate and the English genius have between them
|
|
brought to such perfection. Madame Merle liked almost everything,
|
|
including the English rain. "There's always a little of it and never
|
|
too much at once," she said; "and it never wets you and it always
|
|
smells good." She declared that in England the pleasures of smell were
|
|
great- that in this inimitable island there was a certain mixture of
|
|
fog and beer and soot which, however odd it might sound, was the
|
|
national aroma, and was most agreeable to the nostril; and she used to
|
|
lift the sleeve of her British overcoat and bury her nose in it,
|
|
inhaling the clear, fine scent of the wool. Poor Ralph Touchett, as
|
|
soon as the autumn had begun to define itself, became almost a
|
|
prisoner; in bad weather he was unable to step out of the house, and
|
|
he used sometimes to stand at one of the windows with his hands in his
|
|
pockets and, from a countenance half-rueful, half-critical, watch
|
|
Isabel and Madame Merle as they walked down the avenue under a pair of
|
|
umbrellas. The roads about Gardencourt were so firm, even in the worst
|
|
weather, that the two ladies always came back with a healthy glow in
|
|
their cheeks, looking at the soles of their neat, stout boots and
|
|
declaring that their walk had done them inexpressible good. Before
|
|
luncheon, always, Madame Merle was engaged; Isabel admired and
|
|
envied her rigid possession of her morning. Our heroine had always
|
|
passed for a person of resources and had taken a certain pride in
|
|
being one; but she wandered, as by the wrong side of the wall of a
|
|
private garden, round the enclosed talents, accomplishments, aptitudes
|
|
of Madame Merle. She found herself desiring to emulate them, and in
|
|
twenty such ways this lady presented herself as a model. "I should
|
|
like awfully to be so!" Isabel secretly exclaimed, more than once,
|
|
as one after another of her friend's fine aspects caught the light,
|
|
and before long she knew that she had learned a lesson from a high
|
|
authority. It took no great time indeed for her to feel herself, as
|
|
the phrase is, under an influence. "What's the harm," she wondered,
|
|
"so long as it's a good one? The more one's under a good influence the
|
|
better. The only thing is to see our steps as we take them- to
|
|
understand them as we go. That, no doubt, I shall always do. I needn't
|
|
be afraid of becoming too pliable; isn't it my fault that I'm not
|
|
pliable enough?" It is said that imitation is the sincerest
|
|
flattery; and if Isabel was sometimes moved to gape at her friend
|
|
aspiringly and despairingly it was not so much because she desired
|
|
herself to shine as because she wished to hold up the lamp for
|
|
Madame Merle. She liked her extremely, but was even more dazzled
|
|
than attracted. She sometimes asked herself what Henrietta Stackpole
|
|
would say to her thinking so much of this perverted product of their
|
|
common soil, and had a conviction that it would be severely judged.
|
|
Henrietta would not at all subscribe to Madame Merle; for reasons
|
|
she could not have defined this truth came home to the girl. On the
|
|
other hand she was equally sure that, should the occasion offer, her
|
|
new friend would strike off some happy view of her old: Madame Merle
|
|
was too humorous, too observant, not to do justice to Henrietta, and
|
|
on becoming acquainted with her would probably give the measure of a
|
|
tact which Miss Stackpole couldn't hope to emulate. She appeared to
|
|
have in her experience a touchstone for everything, and somewhere in
|
|
the capacious pocket of her genial memory she would find the key to
|
|
Henrietta's value. "That's the great thing," Isabel solemnly pondered;
|
|
"that's the supreme good fortune: to be in a better position for
|
|
appreciating people than they are for appreciating you." And she added
|
|
that such, when one considered it, was simply the essence of the
|
|
aristocratic situation. In this light, if in none other, one should
|
|
aim at the aristocratic situation.
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|
|
|
I may not count over all the links in the chain which led Isabel
|
|
to think of Madame Merle's situation as aristocratic- a view of it
|
|
never expressed in any reference made to it by that lady herself.
|
|
She had known great things and great people, but she had never
|
|
played a great part. She was one of the small ones of the earth; she
|
|
had not been born to honours; she knew the world too well to nourish
|
|
fatuous illusions on the article of her own place in it. She had
|
|
encountered many of the fortunate few and was perfectly aware of those
|
|
points at which their fortune differed from hers. But if by her
|
|
informed measure she was no figure for a high scene, she had yet to
|
|
Isabel's imagination a sort of greatness. To be so cultivated and
|
|
civilized, so wise and so easy, and still make so light of it- that
|
|
was really to be a great lady, especially when one so carried and
|
|
presented one's self. It was as if somehow she had all society under
|
|
contribution, and all the arts and graces it practised- or was the
|
|
effect rather that of charming uses found for her, even from a
|
|
distance, subtle service rendered by her to a clamorous world wherever
|
|
she might be? After breakfast she wrote a succession of letters, as
|
|
those arriving for her appeared innumerable: her correspondence was
|
|
a source of surprise to Isabel when they sometimes walked together
|
|
to the village post-office to deposit Madame Merle's offering to the
|
|
mail. She knew more people, as she told Isabel, than she knew what
|
|
to do with, and something was always turning up to be written about.
|
|
Of painting she was devotedly fond, and made no more of brushing in
|
|
a sketch than of pulling off her gloves. At Gardencourt she was
|
|
perpetually taking advantage of an hour's sunshine to go out with a
|
|
camp-stool and a box of water-colours. That she was a brave musician
|
|
we have already perceived, and it was evidence of the fact that when
|
|
she seated herself at the piano, as she always did in the evening, her
|
|
listeners resigned themselves without a murmur to losing the grace
|
|
of her talk. Isabel, since she had known her, felt ashamed of her
|
|
own facility, which she now looked upon as basely inferior; and
|
|
indeed, though she had been thought rather a prodigy at home, the loss
|
|
to society when, in taking her place upon the music-stool, she
|
|
turned her back to the room, was usually deemed greater than the gain.
|
|
When Madame Merle was neither writing, nor painting, nor touching
|
|
the piano, she was usually employed upon wonderful tasks of rich
|
|
embroidery, cushions, curtains, decorations for the chimney-piece;
|
|
an art in which her bold, free invention was as noted as the agility
|
|
of her needle. She was never idle, for when engaged in none of the
|
|
ways I have mentioned she was either reading (she appeared to Isabel
|
|
to read "everything important"), or walking out, or playing patience
|
|
with the cards, or talking with her fellow inmates. And with all
|
|
this she had always the social quality, was never rudely absent and
|
|
yet never too seated. She laid down her pastimes as easily as she took
|
|
them up; she worked and talked at the same time, and appeared to
|
|
impute scant worth to anything she did. She gave away her sketches and
|
|
tapestries; she rose from the piano or remained there, according to
|
|
the convenience of her auditors, which she always unerringly
|
|
divined. She was in short the most comfortable, profitable, amenable
|
|
person to live with. If for Isabel she had a fault it was that she was
|
|
not natural; by which the girl meant, not that she was either affected
|
|
or pretentious, since from these vulgar vices no woman could have been
|
|
more exempt, but that her nature had been too much overlaid by
|
|
custom and her angles too much rubbed away. She had become too
|
|
flexible, too useful, was too ripe and too final. She was in a word
|
|
too perfectly the social animal that man and woman are supposed to
|
|
have been intended to be; and she had rid herself of every remnant
|
|
of that tonic wildness which we may assume to have belonged even to
|
|
the most amiable persons in the ages before country-house life was the
|
|
fashion. Isabel found it difficult to think of her in any detachment
|
|
or privacy, she existed only in her relations, direct or indirect,
|
|
with her fellow mortals. One might wonder what commerce she could
|
|
possibly hold with her own spirit. One always ended, however, by
|
|
feeling that a charming surface doesn't necessarily prove one
|
|
superficial; this was an illusion in which, in one's youth, one had
|
|
but just escaped being nourished. Madame Merle was not superficial-
|
|
not she. She was deep, and her nature spoke none the less in her
|
|
behaviour because it spoke a conventional tongue. "What's language
|
|
at all but a convention?" said Isabel. "She has the good taste not
|
|
to pretend, like some people I've met, to express herself by
|
|
original signs."
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid you've suffered much," she once found occasion to say to
|
|
her friend in response to some allusion that had appeared to reach
|
|
far.
|
|
|
|
"What makes you think that?" Madame Merle asked with the amused
|
|
smile of a person seated at a game of guesses. "I hope I haven't too
|
|
much the droop of the misunderstood."
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|
|
|
"No; but you sometimes say things that I think people who have
|
|
always been happy wouldn't have found out."
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|
|
|
"I haven't always been happy," said Madame Merle, smiling still, but
|
|
with a mock gravity, as if she were telling a child a secret. "Such
|
|
a wonderful thing!"
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|
|
|
But Isabel rose to the irony. "A great many people give me the
|
|
impression of never having for a moment felt anything."
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|
|
|
"It's very true; there are many more iron pots certainly than
|
|
porcelain. But you may depend on it that every one bears some mark;
|
|
even the hardest iron pots have a little bruise, a little hole
|
|
somewhere. I flatter myself that I'm rather stout, but if I must
|
|
tell you the truth I've been shockingly chipped and cracked. I do very
|
|
well for service yet, because I've been cleverly mended; and I try
|
|
to remain in the cupboard- the quiet, dusky cupboard where there's
|
|
an odour of stale spices- as much as I can. But when I've to come
|
|
out and into a strong light- then, my dear, I'm a horror!"
|
|
|
|
I know not whether it was on this occasion or on some other that
|
|
when the conversation had taken the turn I have just indicated she
|
|
said to Isabel that she would some day a tale unfold. Isabel assured
|
|
her she should delight to listen to one, and reminded her more than
|
|
once of this engagement. Madame Merle, however, begged repeatedly
|
|
for a respite, and at last frankly told her young companion that
|
|
they must wait till they knew each other better. This would be sure to
|
|
happen; a long friendship so visibly lay before them. Isabel assented,
|
|
but at the same time enquired if she mightn't be trusted- if she
|
|
appeared capable of a betrayal of confidence.
|
|
|
|
"It's not that I'm afraid of your repeating what I say," her
|
|
fellow visitor answered; "I'm afraid, on the contrary, of your
|
|
taking it too much to yourself. You'd judge me too harshly; you're
|
|
of the cruel age." She preferred for the present to talk to Isabel
|
|
of Isabel, and exhibited the greatest interest in our heroine's
|
|
history, sentiments, opinions, prospects. She made her chatter and
|
|
listened to her chatter infinite good nature. This flattered and
|
|
quickened the girl, who was struck with all the distinguished people
|
|
her friend had known and with her having lived, as Mrs. Touchett said,
|
|
in the best company in Europe. Isabel thought the better of herself
|
|
for enjoying the favour of a person who had so large a field of
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comparison; and it was perhaps partly to gratify the sense of
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profiting by comparison that she often appealed to these stores of
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reminiscence. Madame Merle had been a dweller in many lands and had
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social ties in a dozen different countries. "I don't pretend to be
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educated," she would say, "but I think I know my Europe"; and she
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spoke one day of going to Sweden to stay with an old friend, and
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another of proceeding to Malta to follow up a new acquaintance. With
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England, where she had often dwelt, she was thoroughly familiar, and
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for Isabel's benefit threw a great deal of light upon the customs of
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the country and the character of the people, who "after all," as she
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was fond of saying, were the most convenient in the world to live
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with.
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"You mustn't think it strange her remaining here at such a time as
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this, when Mr. Touchett's passing away," that gentleman's wife
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remarked to her niece. "She is incapable of a mistake; she's the
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most tactful woman I know. It's a favour to me that she stays; she's
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putting off a lot of visits at great houses," said Mrs. Touchett,
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who never forgot that when she herself was in England her social value
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sank two or three degrees in the scale. "She has her pick of places;
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she's not in want of a shelter. But I've asked her to put in this time
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because I wish you to know her. I think it will be a good thing for
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you. Serena Merle hasn't a fault."
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"If I didn't already like her very much that description might alarm
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me," Isabel returned.
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"She's never the least little bit 'off.' I've brought you out here
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and I wish to do the best for you. Your sister Lily told me she
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hoped I would give you plenty of opportunities. I give you one in
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putting you in relation with Madame Merle. She's one of the most
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brilliant women in Europe."
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"I like her better than I like your description of her," Isabel
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persisted in saying.
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"Do you flatter yourself that you'll ever feel her open to
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criticism? I hope you'll let me know when you do."
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"That will be cruel- to you," said Isabel.
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"You needn't mind me. You won't discover a fault in her."
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"Perhaps not. But I dare say I shan't miss it."
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"She knows absolutely everything on earth there is to know," said
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Mrs. Touchett.
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Isabel after this observed to their companion that she hoped she
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knew Mrs. Touchett considered she hadn't a speck on her perfection. On
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which "I'm obliged to you," Madame Merle replied, "but I'm afraid your
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aunt imagines, or at least alludes to, no aberrations that the
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clock-face doesn't register."
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"So that you mean you've a wild side that's unknown to her?"
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"Ah no, I fear my darkest sides are my tamest. I mean that having no
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faults, for your aunt, means that one's never late for dinner- that is
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for her dinner. I was not late, by the way, the other day, when you
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came back from London; the clock was just at eight when I came into
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the drawing-room; it was the rest of you that were before the time. It
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means that one answers a letter the day one gets it and that when
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one comes to stay with her one doesn't bring too much luggage and is
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careful not to be taken ill. For Mrs. Touchett those things constitute
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virtue; it's a blessing to be able to reduce it to its elements."
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Madame Merle's own conversation, it will be perceived, was
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enriched with bold, free touches of criticism, which, even when they
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had a restrictive effect, never struck Isabel as ill-natured. It
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couldn't occur to the girl for instance that Mrs. Touchett's
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accomplished guest was abusing her; and this for very good reasons. In
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the first place Isabel rose eagerly to the sense of her shades; in the
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second Madame Merle implied that there was a great deal more to say;
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and it was clear in the third that for a person to speak to one
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without ceremony of one's near relations was an agreeable sign of that
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person's intimacy with one's self. These signs of deep communion
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multiplied as the days elapsed, and there was none of which Isabel was
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more sensible than of her companion's preference for making Miss
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Archer herself a topic. Though she referred frequently to the
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incidents of her own career she never lingered upon them; she was as
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little of a gross egotist as she was of a flat gossip.
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"I'm old and stale and faded," she said more than once; "I'm of no
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|
more interest than last week's newspaper. You're young and fresh and
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of to-day; you've the great thing- you've actuality. I once had it- we
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all have it for an hour. You, however, will have it for longer. Let us
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talk about you then; you can say nothing I shall not care to hear.
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It's a sign that I'm growing old- that I like to talk with younger
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people. I think it's a very pretty compensation. If we can't have
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youth within us we can have it outside, and I really think we see it
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|
and feel it better that way. Of course we must be in sympathy with it-
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that I shall always be. I don't know that I shall ever be
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ill-natured with old people- I hope not; there are certainly some
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|
old people I adore. But I shall never be anything but abject with
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the young; they touch me and appeal to me too much. I give you carte
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|
blanche then; you can even be impertinent if you like; I shall let
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it pass and horribly spoil you. I speak as if I were a hundred years
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|
old, you say? Well, I am, if you please; I was born before the
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|
French Revolution. Ah, my dear, je viens de loin; I belong to the old,
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|
old world. But it's not of that I want to talk; I want to talk about
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the new. You must tell me more about America; you never tell me
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|
enough. Here I've been since I was brought here as a helpless child,
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|
and it's ridiculous, or rather it's scandalous, how little I know
|
|
about that splendid, dreadful, funny country- surely the greatest
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|
and drollest of them all. There are a great many of us like that in
|
|
these parts, and I must say I think we're a wretched set of people.
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|
You should live in your own land; whatever it may be you have your
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|
natural place there. If we're not good Americans we're certainly
|
|
poor Europeans; we've no natural place here. We're mere parasites,
|
|
crawling over the surface; we haven't our feet in the soil. At least
|
|
one can know it and not have illusions. A woman perhaps can get on;
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|
a woman, it seems to me, has no natural place anywhere; wherever she
|
|
finds herself she has to remain on the surface and, more or less, to
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|
crawl. You protest, my dear? you're horrified? you declare you'll
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|
never crawl? It's very true that I don't see you crawling; you stand
|
|
more upright than a good many poor creatures. Very good; on the whole,
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|
I don't think you'll crawl. But the men, the Americans; je vous
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|
demande un peu, what do they make of it over here? I don't envy them
|
|
trying to arrange themselves. Look at poor Ralph Touchett: what sort
|
|
of a figure do you call that? Fortunately he has a consumption; I
|
|
say fortunately, because it gives him something to do. His
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|
consumption's his carriere; it's a kind of position. You can say:
|
|
'Oh Mr. Touchett, he takes care of his lungs, he knows a great deal
|
|
about climates.' But without that who would he be, what would he
|
|
represent? 'Mr. Ralph Touchett: an American who lives in Europe.' That
|
|
signifies absolutely nothing- it's impossible anything should
|
|
signify less. 'He's very cultivated,' they say: 'he has a very
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|
pretty collection of old snuff-boxes.' The collection is all that's
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|
wanted to make it pitiful. I'm tired of the sound of the word; I think
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it's grotesque. With the poor old father it's different; he has his
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|
identity, and it's rather a massive one. He represents a great
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|
financial house, and that, in our day, is as good as anything else.
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|
For an American, at any rate, that will do very well. But I persist in
|
|
thinking your cousin very lucky to have a chronic malady so long as he
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|
doesn't die of it. It's much better than the snuff-boxes. If he
|
|
weren't ill, you say, he'd do something?- he'd take his father's place
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|
in the house. My poor child, I doubt it; I don't think he's at all
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|
fond of the house. However, you know him better than I, though I
|
|
used to know him rather well, and he may have the benefit of the
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|
doubt. The worst case, I think, is a friend of mine, a countryman of
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|
ours, who lives in Italy (where he also was brought before he knew
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|
better), and who is one of the most delightful men I know. Some day
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|
you must know him. I'll bring you together and then you'll see what
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|
I mean. He's Gilbert Osmond- he lives in Italy; that's all one can say
|
|
about him or make of him. He's exceedingly clever, a man made to be
|
|
distinguished; but, as I tell you, you exhaust the description when
|
|
you say he's Mr. Osmond who lives tout betement in Italy. No career,
|
|
no name, no position, no fortune, no past, no future, no anything.
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|
Oh yes, he paints, if you please- paints in water-colours; like me,
|
|
only better than I. His painting's pretty bad; on the whole I'm rather
|
|
glad of that. Fortunately he's very indolent, so indolent that it
|
|
amounts to a sort of position. He can say, 'Oh, I do nothing; I'm
|
|
too deadly lazy. You can do nothing to-day unless you get up at five
|
|
o'clock in the morning.' In that way he becomes a sort of exception;
|
|
you feel he might do something if he'd only rise early. He never
|
|
speaks of his painting- to people at large; he's too clever for
|
|
that. But he has a little girl- a dear little girl; he does speak of
|
|
her. He's devoted to her, and if it were a career to be an excellent
|
|
father he'd be very distinguished. But I'm afraid that's no better
|
|
than the snuff-boxes; perhaps not even so good. Tell me what they do
|
|
in America," pursued Madame Merle, who, it must be observed
|
|
parenthetically, did not deliver herself all at once of these
|
|
reflexions, which are presented in a cluster for the convenience of
|
|
the reader. She talked of Florence, where Mr. Osmond lived and where
|
|
Mrs. Touchett occupied a mediaeval palace; she talked of Rome, where
|
|
she herself had a little pied-a-terre with some rather good old
|
|
damask. She talked of places, of people and even, as the phrase is, of
|
|
"subjects"; and from time to time she talked of their kind old host
|
|
and of the prospect of his recovery. From the first she had thought
|
|
this prospect small, and Isabel had been struck with the positive,
|
|
discriminating, competent way in which she took the measure of his
|
|
remainder of life. One evening she announced definitely that he
|
|
wouldn't live.
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|
|
|
"Sir Matthew Hope told me so as plainly as was proper," she said;
|
|
"standing there, near the fire, before dinner. He makes himself very
|
|
agreeable, the great doctor. I don't mean his saying that has anything
|
|
to do with it. But he says such things with great tact. I had told him
|
|
I felt ill at my ease, staying here at such a time; it seemed to me so
|
|
indiscreet- it wasn't as if I could nurse. 'You must remain, you
|
|
must remain,' he answered; 'your office will come later.' Wasn't
|
|
that a very delicate way of saying both that poor Mr. Touchett would
|
|
go and that I might be of some use as a consoler? In fact, however,
|
|
I shall not be of the slightest use. Your aunt will console herself;
|
|
she, and she alone, knows just how much consolation she'll require. It
|
|
would be a very delicate matter for another person to undertake to
|
|
administer the dose. With your cousin it will be different; he'll miss
|
|
his father immensely. But I should never presume to condole with Mr.
|
|
Ralph; we're not on those terms." Madame Merle had alluded more than
|
|
once to some undefined incongruity in her relations with Ralph
|
|
Touchett; so Isabel took this occasion of asking her if they were
|
|
not good friends.
|
|
|
|
"Perfectly, but he doesn't like me."
|
|
|
|
"What have you done to him?"
|
|
|
|
"Nothing whatever. But one has no need of a reason for that."
|
|
|
|
"For not liking you? I think one has need of a very good reason."
|
|
|
|
"You're very kind. Be sure you have one ready for the day you
|
|
begin."
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|
|
|
"Begin to dislike you? I shall never begin."
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|
|
|
"I hope not; because if you do you'll never end. That's the way with
|
|
your cousin; he doesn't get over it. It's an antipathy of nature- if I
|
|
can call it that when it's all on his side. I've nothing whatever
|
|
against him and don't bear him the least little grudge for not doing
|
|
me justice. Justice is all I want. However, one feels that he's a
|
|
gentleman and would never say anything underhand about one. Cartes sur
|
|
table," Madame Merle subjoined in a moment, "I'm not afraid of him."
|
|
|
|
"I hope not indeed," said Isabel, who added something about his
|
|
being the kindest creature living. She remembered, however, that on
|
|
her first asking him about Madame Merle he had answered her in a
|
|
manner which this lady might have thought injurious without being
|
|
explicit. There was something between them, Isabel said to herself,
|
|
but she said nothing more than this. If it were something of
|
|
importance it should inspire respect; if it were not it was not
|
|
worth her curiosity. With all her love of knowledge she had a
|
|
natural shrinking from raising curtains and looking into unlighted
|
|
corners. The love of knowledge coexisted in her mind with the finest
|
|
capacity for ignorance.
|
|
|
|
But Madame Merle sometimes said things that startled her, made her
|
|
raise her clear eyebrows at the time and think of the words
|
|
afterwards. "I'd give a great deal to be your age again," she broke
|
|
out once with a bitterness which, though diluted in her customary
|
|
amplitude of ease, was imperfectly disguised by it. "If I could only
|
|
begin again- if I could have my life before me!"
|
|
|
|
"Your life's before you yet," Isabel answered gently, for she was
|
|
vaguely awe-struck.
|
|
|
|
"No; the best part's gone, and gone for nothing."
|
|
|
|
"Surely not for nothing," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"Why not- what have I got? Neither husband, nor child, nor
|
|
fortune, nor position, nor the traces of a beauty that I never had."
|
|
|
|
"You have many friends, dear lady."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not so sure!" cried Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, you're wrong. You have memories, graces, talents-"
|
|
|
|
But Madame Merle interrupted her. "What have my talents brought
|
|
me? Nothing but the need of using them still, to get through the
|
|
hours, the years, to cheat myself with some pretence of movement, of
|
|
unconsciousness. As for my graces and memories the less said about
|
|
them the better. You'll be my friend till you find a better use for
|
|
your friendship."
|
|
|
|
"It will be for you to see that I don't then," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"Yes; I would make an effort to keep you." And her companion
|
|
looked at her gravely. "When I say I should like to be your age I mean
|
|
with your qualities- frank, generous, sincere like you. In that case I
|
|
should have made something better of my life."
|
|
|
|
"What should you have liked to do that you've not done?"
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle took a sheet of music- she was seated at the piano
|
|
and had abruptly wheeled about on the stool when she first spoke-
|
|
and mechanically turned the leaves. "I'm very ambitious!" she at
|
|
last replied.
|
|
|
|
"And your ambitions have not been satisfied? They must have been
|
|
great."
|
|
|
|
"They were great. I should make myself ridiculous by talking of
|
|
them."
|
|
|
|
Isabel wondered what they could have been- whether Madame Merle
|
|
had aspired to wear a crown. "I don't know what your idea of success
|
|
may be, but you seem to me to have been successful. To me indeed
|
|
you're a vivid image of success."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle tossed away the music with a smile. "What's your idea
|
|
of success?"
|
|
|
|
"You evidently think it must be a very tame one. It's to see some
|
|
dream of one's youth come true."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," Madame Merle exclaimed, "that I've never seen! But my dreams
|
|
were so great- so preposterous. Heaven forgive me, I'm dreaming
|
|
now!" And she turned back to the piano and began grandly to play. On
|
|
the morrow she said to Isabel that her definition of success had
|
|
been very pretty, yet frightfully sad. Measured in that way, who had
|
|
succeeded? The dreams of one's youth, why they were enchanting, they
|
|
were divine! Who had ever seen such things come to pass?
|
|
|
|
"I myself- a few of them," Isabel ventured to answer.
|
|
|
|
"Already? They must have been dreams of yesterday."
|
|
|
|
"I began to dream very young," Isabel smiled.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, if you mean the aspirations of your childhood- that of having a
|
|
pink sash and a doll that could close her eyes."
|
|
|
|
"No, I don't mean that."
|
|
|
|
"Or a young man with a fine moustache going down on his knees to
|
|
you."
|
|
|
|
"No, nor that either," Isabel declared with still more emphasis.
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle appeared to note this eagerness. "I suspect that's what
|
|
you do mean. We've all had the young man with the moustache. He's
|
|
the inevitable young man; he doesn't count."
|
|
|
|
Isabel was silent a little but then spoke with extreme and
|
|
characteristic inconsequence. "Why shouldn't he count? There are young
|
|
men and young men."
|
|
|
|
"And yours was a paragon- is that what you mean?" asked her friend
|
|
with a laugh. "If you've had the identical young man you dreamed of,
|
|
then that was success, and I congratulate you with all my heart.
|
|
Only in that case why didn't you fly with him to his castle in the
|
|
Apennines?"
|
|
|
|
"He has no castle in the Apennines."
|
|
|
|
"What has he? An ugly brick house in Fortieth Street? Don't tell
|
|
me that; I refuse to recognize that as an ideal."
|
|
|
|
"I don't care anything about his house," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"That's very crude of you. When you've lived as long as I you'll see
|
|
that every human being has his shell and that you must take the
|
|
shell into account. By the shell I mean the whole envelope of
|
|
circumstances. There's no such thing as an isolated man or woman;
|
|
we're each of us made up of some cluster of appurtenances. What
|
|
shall we call our 'self'? Where does it begin? where does it end? It
|
|
overflows into everything that belongs to us- and then it flows back
|
|
again. I know a large part of myself is in the clothes I choose to
|
|
wear. I've a great respect for things! One's self- for other people-
|
|
is one's expression of one's self; and one's house, one's furniture,
|
|
one's garments, the books one reads, the company one keeps- these
|
|
things are all expressive."
|
|
|
|
This was very metaphysical; not more so, however, than several
|
|
observations Madame Merle had already made. Isabel was fond of
|
|
metaphysics, but was unable to accompany her friend into this bold
|
|
analysis of the human personality. "I don't agree with you. I think
|
|
just the other way. I don't know whether I succeed in expressing
|
|
myself, but I know that nothing else expresses me. Nothing that
|
|
belongs to me is any measure of me; everything's on the contrary a
|
|
limit, a barrier, and a perfectly arbitrary one. Certainly the clothes
|
|
which, as you say, I choose to wear, don't express me; and heaven
|
|
forbid they should!"
|
|
|
|
"You dress very well," Madame Merle lightly interposed.
|
|
|
|
"Possibly; but I don't care to be judged by that. My clothes may
|
|
express the dressmaker, but they don't express me. To begin with
|
|
it's not my own choice that I wear them; they're imposed upon me by
|
|
society."
|
|
|
|
"Should you prefer to go without them?" Madame Merle enquired in a
|
|
tone which virtually terminated the discussion.
|
|
|
|
I am bound to confess, though it may cast some discredit on the
|
|
sketch I have given of the youthful loyalty practiced by our heroine
|
|
toward this accomplished woman, that Isabel had said nothing
|
|
whatever to her about Lord Warburton and had been equally reticent
|
|
on the subject of Caspar Goodwood. She had not, however, concealed the
|
|
fact that she had had opportunities of marrying and had even let her
|
|
friend know of how advantageous a kind they had been. Lord Warburton
|
|
had left Lockleigh and was gone to Scotland, taking his sisters with
|
|
him; and though he had written to Ralph more than once to ask about
|
|
Mr. Touchett's health the girl was not liable to the embarrassment
|
|
of such enquiries as, had he still been in the neighbourhood, he would
|
|
probably have felt bound to make in person. He had excellent ways, but
|
|
she felt sure that if he had come to Gardencourt he would have seen
|
|
Madame Merle, and that if he had seen her he would have liked her
|
|
and betrayed to her that he was in love with her young friend. It so
|
|
happened that during this lady's previous visits to Gardencourt-
|
|
each of them much shorter than the present- he had either not been
|
|
at Lockleigh or had not called at Mr. Touchett's. Therefore, though
|
|
she knew him by name as the great man of that country, she had no
|
|
cause to suspect him as a suitor of Mrs. Touchett's freshly-imported
|
|
niece.
|
|
|
|
"You've plenty of time," she had said to Isabel in return for the
|
|
mutilated confidences which our young woman made her and which
|
|
didn't pretend to be perfect, though we have seen that at moments
|
|
the girl had compunctions at having said so much. "I'm glad you've
|
|
done nothing yet- that you have it still to do. It's a very good thing
|
|
for a girl to have refused a few good offers- so long of course as
|
|
they are not the best she's likely to have. Pardon me if my tone seems
|
|
horribly corrupt; one must take the worldly view sometimes. Only don't
|
|
keep on refusing for the sake of refusing. It's a pleasant exercise of
|
|
power; but accepting's after all an exercise of power as well. There's
|
|
always the danger of refusing once too often. It was not the one I
|
|
fell into- I didn't refuse often enough. You're an exquisite creature,
|
|
and I should like to see you married to a prime minister. But speaking
|
|
strictly, you know, you're not what is technically called a parti.
|
|
You're extremely good-looking and extremely clever; in yourself you're
|
|
quite exceptional. You appear to have the vaguest ideas about your
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earthly possessions; but from what I can make out you're not
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embarrassed with an income. I wish you had a little money."
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"I wish I had!" said Isabel, simply, apparently forgetting for the
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moment that her poverty had been a venial fault for two gallant
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gentlemen.
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In spite of Sir Matthew Hope's benevolent recommendation Madame
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Merle did not remain to the end, as the issue of poor Mr. Touchett's
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malady had now come frankly to be designated. She was under pledges to
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other people which had at last to be redeemed, and she left
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Gardencourt with the understanding that she should in any event see
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Mrs. Touchett there again, or else in town, before quitting England.
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Her parting with Isabel was even more like the beginning of a
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friendship than their meeting had been. "I'm going to six places in
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succession, but I shall see no one I like so well as you. They'll
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all be old friends, however; one doesn't make new friends at my age.
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I've made a great exception for you. You must remember that and must
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think as well of me as possible. You must reward me by believing in
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me."
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By way of answer Isabel kissed her, and, though some women kiss with
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facility, there are kisses and kisses, and this embrace was
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satisfactory to Madame Merle. Our young lady, after this, was much
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alone; she saw her aunt and cousin only at meals, and discovered
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that of the hours during which Mrs. Touchett was invisible only a
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minor portion was now devoted to nursing her husband. She spent the
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rest in her own apartments, to which access was not allowed even to
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her niece, apparently occupied there with mysterious and inscrutable
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exercises. At table she was grave and silent; but her solemnity was
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not an attitude- Isabel could see it was a conviction. She wondered if
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her aunt repented of having taken her own way so much; but there was
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no visible evidence of this- no tears, no sighs, no exaggeration of
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a zeal always to its own sense adequate. Mrs. Touchett seemed simply
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to feel the need of thinking things over and summing them up; she
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had a little moral account-book- with columns unerringly ruled and a
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sharp steel clasp- which she kept with exemplary neatness. Uttered
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reflection had with her ever, at any rate, a practical ring. "If I had
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foreseen this I'd not have proposed your coming abroad now," she
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said to Isabel after Madame Merle had left the house. "I'd have waited
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and sent for you next year."
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"So that perhaps I should never have known my uncle? It's a great
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happiness to me to have come now."
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"That's very well. But it was not that you might know your uncle
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that I brought you to Europe." A perfectly veracious speech; but, as
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Isabel thought, not as perfectly timed. She had leisure to think of
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this and other matters. She took a solitary walk every day and spent
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vague hours in turning over books in the library. Among the subjects
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that engaged her attention were the adventures of her friend Miss
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Stackpole, with whom she was in regular correspondence. Isabel liked
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her friend's private epistolary style better than her public; that
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is she felt her public letters would have been excellent if they had
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not been printed. Henrietta's career, however, was not so
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successful, as might have been wished even in the interest of her
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private felicity; that view of the inner life of Great Britain which
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she was so eager to take appeared to dance before her like an ignis
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fatuus. The invitation from Lady Pensil, for mysterious reasons, had
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never arrived; and poor Mr. Bantling himself, with all his friendly
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ingenuity, had been unable to explain so grave a dereliction on the
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part of a missive that had obviously been sent. He had evidently taken
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Henrietta's affairs much to heart, and believed that he owed her a
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set-off to this illusory visit to Bedfordshire. "He says he should
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think I would go to the Continent," Henrietta wrote; and as he
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thinks of going there himself I suppose his advice is sincere. He
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wants to know why I don't take a view of French life; and it's a
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fact that I want very much to see the new Republic. Mr. Bantling
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doesn't care much about the Republic, but he thinks of going over to
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Paris anyway. I must say he's quite as attentive as I could wish,
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and at least I shall have seen one polite Englishman. I keep telling
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Mr. Bantling that he ought to have been an American, and you should
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see how that pleases him. Whenever I say so he always breaks out
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with the same exclamation- 'Ah, but really, come now!'" A few days
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later she wrote that she had decided to go to Paris at the end of
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the week and that Mr. Bantling had promised to see her off perhaps
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even would go as far as Dover with her. She would wait in Paris till
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Isabel should arrive, Henrietta added; speaking quite as if Isabel
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were to start on her continental journey alone and making no
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allusion to Mrs. Touchett. Bearing in mind his interest in their
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late companion, our heroine communicated several passages from this
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correspondence to Ralph, who followed with an emotion akin to suspense
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the career of the representative of the Interviewer.
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"It seems to me she's doing very well," he said, "going over to
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Paris with an ex-Lancer! If she wants something to write about she has
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only to describe that episode."
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"It's not conventional, certainly," Isabel answered; "but if you
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mean that- as far as Henrietta is concerned- it's not perfectly
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innocent, you're very much mistaken. You'll never understand
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Henrietta."
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"Pardon me, I understand her perfectly. I didn't at all at first,
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but now I've the point of view. I'm afraid, however, that Bantling
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hasn't; he may have some surprises. Oh, I understand Henrietta as well
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as if I had made her!"
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Isabel was by no means sure of this, but she abstained from
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expressing further doubt, for she was disposed in these days to extend
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a great charity to her cousin. One afternoon less than a week after
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Madame Merle's departure she was seated in the library with a volume
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to which her attention was not fastened. She had placed herself in a
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deep window-bench, from which she looked out into the dull, damp park;
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and as the library stood at right angles to the entrance-front of
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the house she could see the doctor's brougham, which had been
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waiting for the last two hours before the door. She was struck with
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his remaining so long, but at last she saw him appear in the
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portico, stand a moment slowly drawing on his gloves and looking at
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the knees of his horse, and then get into the vehicle and roll away.
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Isabel kept her place for half an hour; there was a great stillness in
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the house. It was so great that when she at last heard a soft, slow
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step on the deep carpet of the room she was almost startled by the
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|
sound. She turned quickly away from the window and saw Ralph
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Touchett standing there with his hands still in his pockets, but
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|
with a face absolutely void of its usual latent smile. She got up
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and her movement and glance were a question.
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"It's all over," said Ralph.
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"Do you mean that my uncle-?" And Isabel stopped.
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"My dear father died an hour ago."
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"Ah, my poor Ralph!" she gently wailed, putting out her two hands to
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him.
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CHAPTER 20
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Some fortnight after this Madame Merle drove up in a hansom cab to
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the house in Winchester Square. As she descended from her vehicle
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she observed, suspended between the dining-room windows, a large,
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neat, wooden tablet, on whose fresh black ground were inscribed in
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white paint the words- "This noble freehold mansion to be sold";
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with the name of the agent to whom application should be made. "They
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|
certainly lose no time," said the visitor as, after sounding the big
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brass knocker, she waited to be admitted; "it's a practical
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|
country!" And within the house, as she ascended to the drawing-room,
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|
she perceived numerous signs of abdication; pictures removed from
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the walls and placed upon sofas, windows undraped and floors laid
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|
bare. Mrs. Touchett presently received her and intimated in a few
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|
words that condolences might be taken for granted.
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"I know what you're going to say- he was a very good man. But I know
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it better than any one, because I gave him more chance to show it.
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In that I think I was a good wife." Mrs. Touchett added that at the
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|
end her husband apparently recognized this fact. "He has treated me
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|
most liberally," she said; "I won't say more liberally than I
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|
expected, because I didn't expect. You know that as a general thing
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|
I don't expect. But he chose, I presume, to recognize the fact that
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though I lived much abroad and mingled- you may say freely- in foreign
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|
life, I never exhibited the smallest preference for any one else."
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"For any one but yourself," Madame Merle mentally observed; but
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the reflexion was perfectly inaudible.
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"I never sacrificed my husband to another," Mrs. Touchett
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continued with her stout curtness.
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"Oh no," thought Madame Merle; "you never did anything for another!"
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There was a certain cynicism in these mute comments which demands an
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|
explanation; the more so as they are not in accord either with the
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|
view- somewhat superficial perhaps- that we have hitherto enjoyed of
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|
Madame Merle's character or with the literal facts of Mrs.
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|
Touchett's history; the more so, too, as Madame Merle had a
|
|
well-founded conviction that her friend's last remark was not in the
|
|
least to be construed as a side-thrust at herself. The truth is that
|
|
the moment she had crossed the threshold she received an impression
|
|
that Mr. Touchett's death had had subtle consequences and that these
|
|
consequences had been profitable to a little circle of persons among
|
|
whom she was not numbered. Of course it was an event which would
|
|
naturally have consequences; her imagination had more than once rested
|
|
upon this fact during her stay at Gardencourt. But it had been one
|
|
thing to foresee such a matter mentally and another to stand among its
|
|
massive records. The idea of a distribution of property- she would
|
|
almost have said of spoils- just now pressed upon her senses and
|
|
irritated her with a sense of exclusion. I am far from wishing to
|
|
picture her as one of the hungry mouths or envious hearts of the
|
|
general herd, but we have already learned of her having desires that
|
|
had never been satisfied. If she had been questioned, she would of
|
|
course have admitted- with a fine proud smile- that she had not the
|
|
faintest claim to a share in Mr. Touchett's relics. "There was never
|
|
anything in the world between us," she would have said. "There was
|
|
never that, poor man!"- with a fillip of her thumb and her third
|
|
finger. I hasten to add, moreover, that if she couldn't at the present
|
|
moment keep from quite perversely yearning she was careful not to
|
|
betray herself. She had after all as much sympathy for Mrs. Touchett's
|
|
gain as for her losses.
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|
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|
"He has left me this house," the newly-made widow said; "but of
|
|
course I shall not live in it; I've a much better one in Florence. The
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|
will was opened only three days since, but I've already offered the
|
|
house for sale. I've also a share in the bank; but I don't yet
|
|
understand if I'm obliged to leave it there. If not I shall
|
|
certainly take it out. Ralph, of course, has Gardencourt; but I'm
|
|
not sure that he'll have means to keep up the place. He's naturally
|
|
left very well off, but his father has given away an immense deal of
|
|
money; there are bequests to a string of third cousins in Vermont.
|
|
Ralph, however, is very fond of Gardencourt and would be quite capable
|
|
of living there- in summer- with a maid-of-all-work and a gardener's
|
|
boy. There's one remarkable clause in my husband's will," Mrs.
|
|
Touchett added. "He has left my niece a fortune."
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"A fortune!" Madame Merle softly repeated.
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|
"Isabel steps into something like seventy thousand pounds."
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Madame Merle's hands were clasped in her lap; at this she raised
|
|
them, still clasped, and held them a moment against her bosom while
|
|
her eyes, a little dilated, fixed themselves on those of her friend.
|
|
"Ah," she cried, "the clever creature!"
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|
|
|
Mrs. Touchett gave her a quick look. "What do you mean by that?"
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|
For an instant Madame Merle's colour rose and she dropped her
|
|
eyes. "It certainly is clever to achieve such results- without an
|
|
effort!"
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|
|
|
"There assuredly was no effort. Don't call it an achievement."
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|
|
|
Madame Merle was seldom guilty of the awkwardness of retracting what
|
|
she had said; her wisdom was shown rather in maintaining it and
|
|
placing it in a favourable light. "My dear friend, Isabel would
|
|
certainly not have had seventy thousand pounds left her if she had not
|
|
been the most charming girl in the world. Her charm includes great
|
|
cleverness."
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|
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|
"She never dreamed, I'm sure, of my husband's doing anything for
|
|
her; and I never dreamed of it either, for he never spoke to me of his
|
|
intention," Mrs. Touchett said. "She had no claim upon him whatever;
|
|
it was no great recommendation to him that she was my niece.
|
|
Whatever she achieved she achieved unconsciously."
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|
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|
"Ah," rejoined Madame Merle, "those are the greatest strokes!"
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|
|
|
Mrs. Touchett reserved her opinion. "The girl's fortunate; I don't
|
|
deny that. But for the present she's simply stupefied."
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|
|
|
"Do you mean that she doesn't know what to do with the money?"
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|
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|
"That, I think, she has hardly considered. She doesn't know what
|
|
to think about the matter at all. It has been as if a big gun were
|
|
suddenly fired off behind her; she's feeling herself to see if she
|
|
be hurt. It's but three days since she received a visit from the
|
|
principal executor, who came in person, very gallantly, to notify her.
|
|
He told me afterwards that when he had made his little speech she
|
|
suddenly burst into tears. The money's to remain in the affairs of the
|
|
bank, and she's to draw the interest."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle shook her head with a wise and now quite benignant
|
|
smile. "How very delicious! After she has done that two or three times
|
|
she'll get used to it." Then after a silence, "What does your son
|
|
think of it?" she abruptly asked.
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|
|
|
"He left England before the will was read- used up by his fatigue
|
|
and anxiety and hurrying off to the south. He's on his way to the
|
|
Riviera and I've not yet heard from him. But it's not likely he'll
|
|
ever object to anything done by his father."
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|
|
|
"Didn't you say his own share had been cut down?"
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|
|
|
"Only at his wish. I know that he urged his father to do something
|
|
for the people in America. He's not in the least addicted to looking
|
|
after number one."
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|
|
|
"It depends upon whom he regards as number one!" said Madame
|
|
Merle. And she remained thoughtful a moment, her eyes bent on the
|
|
floor. "Am I not to see your happy niece?" she asked at last as she
|
|
raised them.
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|
|
|
"You may see her; but you'll not be struck with her being happy. She
|
|
has looked as solemn, these three days, as a Cimabue Madonna!" And
|
|
Mrs. Touchett rang for a servant.
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|
|
|
Isabel came in shortly after the footman had been sent to call
|
|
her; and Madame Merle thought, as she appeared, that Mrs. Touchett's
|
|
comparison had its force. The girl was pale and grave- an effect not
|
|
mitigated by her deeper mourning; but the smile of her brightest
|
|
moments came into her face as she saw Madame Merle, who went
|
|
forward, laid her hand on our heroine's shoulder and, after looking at
|
|
her a moment, kissed her as if she were returning the kiss she had
|
|
received from her at Gardencourt. This was the only allusion the
|
|
visitor, in her great good taste, made for the present to her young
|
|
friend's inheritance.
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|
|
|
Mrs. Touchett had no purpose of awaiting in London the sale of her
|
|
house. After selecting from among its furniture the objects she wished
|
|
to transport to her other abode, she left the rest of its contents
|
|
to be disposed of by the auctioneer and took her departure for the
|
|
Continent. She was of course accompanied on this journey by her niece,
|
|
who now had plenty of leisure to measure and weigh and otherwise
|
|
handle the windfall on which Madame Merle had covertly congratulated
|
|
her. Isabel thought very often of the fact of her accession of
|
|
means, looking at it in a dozen different lights; but we shall not now
|
|
attempt to follow her train of thought or to explain exactly why her
|
|
new consciousness was at first oppressive. This failure to rise to
|
|
immediate joy was indeed but brief; the girl presently made up her
|
|
mind that to be rich was a virtue because it was to be able to do, and
|
|
that to do could only be sweet. It was the graceful contrary of the
|
|
stupid side of weakness- especially the feminine variety. To be weak
|
|
was, for a delicate young person, rather graceful, but, after all,
|
|
as Isabel said to herself, there was a larger grace than that. Just
|
|
now, it is true, there was not much to do- once she had sent off a
|
|
cheque to Lily, and another to poor Edith; but she was thankful for
|
|
the quiet months which her mourning robes and her aunt's fresh
|
|
widowhood compelled them to spend together. The acquisition of power
|
|
made her serious; she scrutinized her power with a kind of tender
|
|
ferocity, but was not eager to exercise it. She began to do so
|
|
during a stay of some weeks which she eventually made with her aunt in
|
|
Paris, though in ways that will inevitably present themselves as
|
|
trivial. They were the ways most naturally imposed in a city in
|
|
which the shops are the admiration of the world, and that were
|
|
prescribed unreservedly by the guidance of Mrs. Touchett, who took a
|
|
rigidly practical view of the transformation of her niece from a
|
|
poor girl to a rich one. "Now that you're a young woman of fortune you
|
|
must know how to play the part- I mean to play it well," she said to
|
|
Isabel once for all; and she added that the girl's first duty was to
|
|
have everything handsome. "You don't know how to take care of your
|
|
things, but you must learn," she went on; this was Isabel's second
|
|
duty. Isabel submitted, but for the present her imagination was not
|
|
kindled; she longed for opportunities, but these were not the
|
|
opportunities she meant.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Touchett rarely changed her plans, and, having intended
|
|
before her husband's death to spend a part of the winter in Paris, saw
|
|
no reason to deprive herself- still less to deprive her companion-
|
|
of this advantage. Though they would live in great retirement she
|
|
might still present her niece, informally, to the little circle of her
|
|
fellow countrymen dwelling upon the skirts of the Champs Elysees. With
|
|
many of these amiable colonists Mrs. Touchett was intimate; she shared
|
|
their expatriation, their convictions, their pastimes, their ennui.
|
|
Isabel saw them arrive with a good deal of assiduity at her aunt's
|
|
hotel, and pronounced on them with a trenchancy doubtless to be
|
|
accounted for by the temporary exaltation of her sense of human
|
|
duty. She made up her mind that their lives were, though luxurious,
|
|
inane, and incurred some disfavour by expressing this view on bright
|
|
Sunday afternoons, when the American absentees were engaged in calling
|
|
on each other. Though her listeners passed for people kept exemplarily
|
|
genial by their cooks and dressmakers, two or three of them thought
|
|
her cleverness, which was generally admitted, inferior to that of
|
|
the new theatrical pieces. "You all live here this way, but what
|
|
does it lead to?" she was pleased to ask. "It doesn't seem to lead
|
|
to anything, and I should think you'd get very tired of it."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Touchett thought the question worthy of Henrietta Stackpole.
|
|
The two ladies had found Henrietta in Paris, and Isabel constantly saw
|
|
her; so that Mrs. Touchett had some reason for saying to herself
|
|
that if her niece were not clever enough to originate almost anything,
|
|
she might be suspected of having borrowed that style of remark from
|
|
her journalistic friend. The first occasion on which Isabel had spoken
|
|
was that of a visit paid by the two ladies to Mrs. Luce, an old friend
|
|
of Mrs. Touchett's and the only person in Paris she now went to see.
|
|
Mrs. Luce had been living in Paris since the days of Louis Philippe;
|
|
she used to say jocosely that she was one of the generation of 1830- a
|
|
joke of which the point was not always taken. When it failed Mrs. Luce
|
|
used to explain- "Oh yes, I'm one of the romantics"; her French had
|
|
never become quite perfect. She was always at home on Sunday
|
|
afternoons and surrounded by sympathetic compatriots, usually the
|
|
same. In fact she was at home at all times, and reproduced with
|
|
wondrous truth in her well-cushioned little corner of the brilliant
|
|
city, the domestic tone of her native Baltimore. This reduced Mr.
|
|
Luce, her worthy husband, a tall, lean, grizzled, well-brushed
|
|
gentleman who wore a gold eye-glass and carried his hat a little too
|
|
much on the back of his head, to mere platonic praise of the
|
|
"distractions" of Paris- they were his great word- since you would
|
|
never have guessed from what cares he escaped to them. One of them was
|
|
that he went every day to the American banker's, where he found a
|
|
post-office that was almost as sociable and colloquial an
|
|
institution as in an American country town. He passed an hour (in fine
|
|
weather) in a chair in the Champs Elysees, and he dined uncommonly
|
|
well at his own table, seated above a waxed floor which it was Mrs.
|
|
Luce's happiness to believe had a finer polish than any other in the
|
|
French capital. Occasionally he dined with a friend or two at the Cafe
|
|
Anglais, where his talent for ordering a dinner was a source of
|
|
felicity to his companions and an object of admiration even to the
|
|
headwaiter of the establishment. These were his only known pastimes,
|
|
but they had beguiled his hours for upwards of half a century, and
|
|
they doubtless justified his frequent declaration that there was no
|
|
place like Paris. In no other place, on these terms, could Mr. Luce
|
|
flatter himself that he was enjoying life. There was nothing like
|
|
Paris, but it must be confessed that Mr. Luce thought less highly of
|
|
this scene of his dissipations than in earlier days. In the list of
|
|
his resources his political reflections should not be omitted, for
|
|
they were doubtless the animating principle of many hours that
|
|
superficially seemed vacant. Like many of his fellow colonists Mr.
|
|
Luce was a high- or rather a deep- conservative, and gave no
|
|
countenance to the government lately established in France. He had
|
|
no faith in its duration and would assure you from year to year that
|
|
its end was close at hand. "They want to be kept down, sir, to be kept
|
|
down; nothing but the strong hand- the iron heel- will do for them,"
|
|
he would frequently say of the French people; and his ideal of a
|
|
fine showy clever rule was that of the superseded Empire. "Paris is
|
|
much less attractive than in the days of the Emperor; he knew how to
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make a city pleasant," Mr. Luce had often remarked to Mrs. Touchett,
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who was quite of his own way of thinking and wished to know what one
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had crossed that odious Atlantic for but to get away from republics.
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"Why, madam, sitting in the Champs Elysees, opposite to the Palace
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of Industry, I've seen the court-carriages from the Tuileries pass
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up and down as many as seven times a day. I remember one occasion when
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they went as high as nine. What do you see now? It's no use talking,
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the style's all gone. Napoleon knew what the French people want, and
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there'll be a dark cloud over Paris, our Paris, till they get the
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Empire back again."
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Among Mrs. Luce's visitors on Sunday afternoons was a young man with
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whom Isabel had had a good deal of conversation and whom she found
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full of valuable knowledge. Mr. Edward Rosier- Ned Rosier as he was
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called- was native to New York and had been brought up in Paris,
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living there under the eye of his father who, as it happened, had been
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an early and intimate friend of the late Mr. Archer. Edward Rosier
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remembered Isabel as a little girl; it had been his father who came to
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the rescue of the small Archers at the inn at Neufchatel (he was
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travelling that way with the boy and had stopped at the hotel by
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chance), after their bonne had gone off with the Russian prince and
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when Mr. Archer's whereabouts remained for some days a mystery. Isabel
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remembered perfectly the neat little male child whose hair smelt of
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a delicious cosmetic and who had a bonne all his own, warranted to
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lose sight of him under no provocation. Isabel took a walk with the
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pair beside the lake and thought little Edward as pretty as an
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angel- a comparison by no means conventional in her mind, for she
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had a very definite conception of a type of features which she
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supposed to be angelic and which her new friend perfectly illustrated.
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A small pink face surmounted by a blue velvet bonnet and set off by
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a stiff embroidered collar had become the countenance of her
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childish dreams; and she had firmly believed for some time
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afterwards that the heavenly hosts conversed among themselves in a
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queer little dialect of French-English, expressing the properest
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sentiments, as when Edward told her that he was "defended" by his
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bonne to go near the edge of the lake, and that one must always obey
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to one's bonne. Ned Rosier's English had improved; at least it
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exhibited in a less degree the French variation. His father was dead
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and his bonne dismissed, but the young man still conformed to the
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spirit of their teaching- he never went to the edge of the lake. There
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was still something agreeable to the nostrils about him and
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something not offensive to nobler organs. He was a very gentle and
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gracious youth, with what are called cultivated tastes- an
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acquaintance with old china, with good wine, with the bindings of
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books, with the Almanach de Gotha, with the best shops, the best
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hotels, the hours of railway-trains. He could order a dinner almost as
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well as Mr. Luce, and it was probable that as his experience
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accumulated he would be a worthy successor to that gentleman, whose
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rather grim politics he also advocated in a soft and innocent voice.
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He had some charming rooms in Paris, decorated with old Spanish
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altar-lace, the envy of his female friends, who declared that his
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chimney-piece was better draped than the high shoulders of many a
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duchess. He usually, however, spent a part of every winter at Pau, and
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had once passed a couple of months in the United States.
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He took a great interest in Isabel and remembered perfectly the walk
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at Neufchatel, when she would persist in going so near the edge. He
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seemed to recognize this same tendency in the subversive enquiry
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that I quoted a moment ago, and set himself to answer our heroine's
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question with greater urbanity than it perhaps deserved. "What does it
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lead to, Miss Archer? Why Paris leads everywhere. You can't go
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anywhere unless you come here first. Every one that comes to Europe
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has got to pass through. You don't mean it in that sense so much?
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You mean what good it does you? Well, how can you penetrate
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futurity? How can you tell what lies ahead? If it's a pleasant road
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I don't care where it leads. I like the road, Miss Archer; I like
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the dear old asphalte. You can't get tired of it- you can't if you
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try. You think you would, but you wouldn't; there's always something
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new and fresh. Take the Hotel Drouot, now; they sometimes have three
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and four sales a week. Where can you get such things as you can
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here? In spite of all they say I maintain they're cheaper too, if
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you know the right places. I know plenty of places, but I keep them to
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myself. I'll tell you, if you like, as a particular favour; only you
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mustn't tell any one else. Don't you go anywhere without asking me
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first; I want you to promise me that. As a general thing avoid the
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Boulevards; there's very little to be done on the Boulevards. Speaking
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conscientiously- sans blague- I don't believe any one knows Paris
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better than I. You and Mrs. Touchett must come and breakfast with me
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some day, and I'll show you my things; je ne vous dis que ca! There
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has been a great deal of talk about London of late; it's the fashion
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to cry up London. But there's nothing in it- you can't do anything
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in London. No Louis Quinze- nothing of the First Empire; nothing but
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their eternal Queen Anne. It's good for one's bed-room, Queen Anne-
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|
for one's washing-room; but it isn't proper for a salon. Do I spend my
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life at the auctioneer's?" Mr. Rosier pursued in answer to another
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question of Isabel's. "Oh no; I haven't the means. I wish I had. You
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think I'm a mere trifler; I can tell by the expression of your face-
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you've got a wonderfully expressive face. I hope you don't mind my
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saying that; I mean it as a kind of warning. You think I ought to do
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something, and so do I, so long as you leave it vague. But when you
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come to the point you see you have to stop. I can't go home and be a
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shopkeeper. You think I'm very well fitted? Ah, Miss Archer, you
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|
overrate me. I can buy very well, but I can't sell; you should see
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|
when I sometimes try to get rid of my things. It takes much more
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ability to make other people buy than to buy yourself. When I think
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how clever they must be, the people who make me buy! Ah no; I couldn't
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be a shopkeeper. I can't be a doctor; it's a repulsive business. I
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can't be a clergyman; I haven't got convictions. And then I can't
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pronounce the names right in the Bible. They're very difficult, in the
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Old Testament particularly. I can't be a lawyer; I don't understand-
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|
how do you call it?- the American procedure. Is there anything else?
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There's nothing for a gentleman in America. I should like to be a
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diplomatist; but American diplomacy- that's not for gentlemen
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|
either. I'm sure if you had seen the last min-"
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Henrietta Stackpole, who was often with her friend when Mr.
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Rosier, coming to pay his compliments late in the afternoon, expressed
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|
himself after the fashion I have sketched, usually interrupted the
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young man at this point and read him a lecture on the duties of the
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American citizen. She thought him most unnatural; he was worse than
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|
poor Ralph Touchett. Henrietta, however, was at this time more than
|
|
ever addicted to fine criticism, for her conscience had been freshly
|
|
alarmed as regards Isabel. She had not congratulated this young lady
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|
on her augmentations and begged to be excused from doing so.
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"If Mr. Touchett had consulted me about leaving you the money,"
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she frankly asserted, "I'd have said to him 'Never!"
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"I see," Isabel had answered, "You think it will prove a curse in
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disguise. Perhaps it will."
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"Leave it to some one you care less for- that's what I should have
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said."
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"To yourself for instance?" Isabel suggested jocosely. And then, "Do
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|
you really believe it will ruin me?" she asked in quite another tone.
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|
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"I hope it won't ruin you; but it will certainly confirm your
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|
dangerous tendencies."
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"Do you mean the love of luxury- of extravagance?"
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"No, no," said Henrietta; "I mean your exposure on the moral side. I
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|
approve of luxury; I think we ought to be as elegant as possible. Look
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|
at the luxury of our western cities; I've seen nothing over here to
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|
compare with it. I hope you'll never become grossly sensual; but I'm
|
|
not afraid of that. The peril for you is that you live too much in the
|
|
world of your own dreams. You're not enough in contact with reality-
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|
with the toiling, striving, suffering, I may even say sinning, world
|
|
that surrounds you. You're too fastidious; you've too many graceful
|
|
illusions. Your newly-acquired thousands will shut you up more and
|
|
more to the society of a few selfish and heartless people who will
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|
be interested in keeping them up."
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|
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Isabel's eyes expanded as she gazed at this lurid scene. "What are
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|
my illusions?" she asked. "I try so hard not to have any."
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"Well," said Henrietta, "you think you can lead a romantic life,
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|
that you can live by pleasing yourself and pleasing others. You'll
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|
find you're mistaken. Whatever life you lead you must put your soul in
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|
it- to make any sort of success of it; and from the moment you do that
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|
it ceases to be romance, I assure you: it becomes grim reality! And
|
|
you can't always please yourself; you must sometimes please other
|
|
people. That, I admit, you're very ready to do; but there's another
|
|
thing that's still more important- you must often displease others.
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|
You must always be ready for that- you must never shrink from it. That
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|
doesn't suit you at all- you're too fond of admiration, you like to be
|
|
thought well of. You think we can escape disagreeable duties by taking
|
|
romantic views- that's your great illusion, my dear. But we can't. You
|
|
must be prepared on many occasions in life to please no one at all-
|
|
not even yourself."
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|
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Isabel shook her head sadly; she looked troubled and frightened.
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|
"This, for you, Henrietta," she said, "must be one of those
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|
occasions!"
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It was certainly true that Miss Stackpole, during her visit to
|
|
Paris, which had been professionally more remunerative than her
|
|
English sojourn, had not been living in the world of dreams. Mr.
|
|
Bantling, who had now returned to England, was her companion for the
|
|
first four weeks of her stay; and about Mr. Bantling there was nothing
|
|
dreamy. Isabel learned from her friend that the two had led a life
|
|
of great personal intimacy and that this had been a peculiar advantage
|
|
to Henrietta, owing to the gentleman's remarkable knowledge of
|
|
Paris. He had explained everything, shown her everything, been her
|
|
constant guide and interpreter. They had breakfasted together, dined
|
|
together, gone to the theatre together, supped together, really in a
|
|
manner quite lived together. He was a true friend, Henrietta more than
|
|
once assured our heroine; and she had never supposed that she could
|
|
like any Englishman so well. Isabel could not have told you why, but
|
|
she found something that ministered to mirth in the alliance the
|
|
correspondent of the Interviewer had struck with Lady Pensil's
|
|
brother; her amusement moreover subsisted in face of the fact that she
|
|
thought it a credit to each of them. Isabel couldn't rid herself of
|
|
a suspicion that they were playing somehow at cross-purposes- that the
|
|
simplicity of each had been entrapped. But this simplicity was on
|
|
either side none the less honourable. It was as graceful on
|
|
Henrietta's part to believe that Mr. Bantling took an interest in
|
|
the diffusion of lively journalism and in consolidating the position
|
|
of lady-correspondents as it was on the part of his companion to
|
|
suppose that the cause of the Interviewer- a periodical of which he
|
|
never formed a very definite conception- was, if subtly analyzed (a
|
|
task to which Mr. Bantling felt himself quite equal), but the cause of
|
|
Miss Stackpole's need of demonstrative affection. Each of these
|
|
groping celibates supplied at any rate a want of which the other was
|
|
impatiently conscious. Mr. Bantling, who was of rather a slow and a
|
|
discursive habit, relished a prompt, keen, positive woman, who charmed
|
|
him by the influence of a shining, challenging eye and a kind of
|
|
bandbox freshness, and who kindled a perception of raciness in a
|
|
mind to which the usual fare of life seemed unsalted. Henrietta, on
|
|
the other hand, enjoyed the society of a gentleman who appeared
|
|
somehow, in his way, made, by expensive, roundabout, almost "quaint"
|
|
processes, for her use, and whose leisured state, though generally
|
|
indefensible, was a decided boon to a breathless mate, and who was
|
|
furnished with an easy, traditional, though by no means exhaustive,
|
|
answer to almost any social or practical question that could come
|
|
up. She often found Mr. Bantling's answers very convenient, and in the
|
|
press of catching the American post would largely and showily
|
|
address them to publicity. It was to be feared that she was indeed
|
|
drifting toward those abysses of sophistication as to which Isabel,
|
|
wishing for a good-humoured retort, had warned her. There might be
|
|
danger in store for Isabel; but it was scarcely to be hoped that
|
|
Miss Stackpole, on her side, would find permanent rest in any adoption
|
|
of the views of a class pledged to all the old abuses. Isabel
|
|
continued to warn her good-humouredly; Lady Pensil's obliging
|
|
brother was sometimes, on our heroine's lips, an object of
|
|
irreverent and facetious allusion. Nothing, however, could exceed
|
|
Henrietta's amiability on this point; she used to abound in the
|
|
sense of Isabel's irony and to enumerate with elation the hours she
|
|
had spent with this perfect man of the world- a term that had ceased
|
|
to make with her, as previously, for opprobrium. Then, a few moments
|
|
later, she would forget that they had been talking jocosely and
|
|
would mention with impulsive earnestness some expedition she had
|
|
enjoyed in his company. She would say: "Oh, I know all about
|
|
Versailles; I went there with Mr. Bantling. I was bound to see it
|
|
thoroughly- I warned him when we went out there that I was thorough:
|
|
so we spent three days at the hotel and wandered all over the place.
|
|
It was lovely weather- a kind of Indian summer, only not so good. We
|
|
just lived in that park. Oh yes; you can't tell me anything about
|
|
Versailles." Henrietta appeared to have made arrangements to meet
|
|
her gallant friend during the spring in Italy.
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CHAPTER 21
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|
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Mrs. Touchett, before arriving in Paris, had fixed the day for her
|
|
departure and by the middle of February had begun to travel southward.
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|
She interrupted her journey to pay a visit to her son, who at San
|
|
Remo, on the Italian shore of the Mediterranean, had been spending a
|
|
dull, bright winter beneath a slow-moving white umbrella. Isabel
|
|
went with her aunt as a matter of course, though Mrs. Touchett, with
|
|
homely, customary logic, had laid before her a pair of alternatives.
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|
|
|
"Now, of course, you're completely your own mistress and are as free
|
|
as the bird on the bough. I don't mean you were not so before, but
|
|
you're at present on a different footing- property erects a kind of
|
|
barrier. You can do a great many things if you're rich which would
|
|
be severely criticized if you were poor. You can go and come, you
|
|
can travel alone, you can have your own establishment: I mean of
|
|
course if you'll take a companion- some decayed gentlewoman, with a
|
|
darned cashmere and dyed hair, who paints on velvet. You don't think
|
|
you'd like that? Of course you can do as you please; I only want you
|
|
to understand how much you're at liberty. You might take Miss
|
|
Stackpole as your dame de compagnie; she'd keep people off very
|
|
well. I think, however, that it's a great deal better you should
|
|
remain with me, in spite of there being no obligation. It's better for
|
|
several reasons, quite apart from your liking it. I shouldn't think
|
|
you'd like it, but I recommend you to make the sacrifice. Of course
|
|
whatever novelty there may have been at first in my society has
|
|
quite passed away, and you see me as I am- a dull, obstinate,
|
|
narrow-minded old woman."
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|
|
|
"I don't think you're at all dull," Isabel had replied to this.
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|
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|
"But you do think I'm obstinate and narrow-minded? I told you so!"
|
|
said Mrs. Touchett with much elation at being justified.
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|
|
|
Isabel remained for the present with her aunt, because, in spite
|
|
of eccentric impulses, she had a great regard for what was usually
|
|
deemed decent, and a young gentlewoman without visible relations had
|
|
always struck her as a flower without foliage. It was true that Mrs.
|
|
Touchett's conversation had never again appeared so brilliant as
|
|
that first afternoon in Albany, when she sat in her damp waterproof
|
|
and sketched the opportunities that Europe would offer to a young
|
|
person of taste. This, however, was in a great measure the girl's
|
|
own fault; she had got a glimpse of her aunt's experience, and her
|
|
imagination constantly anticipated the judgements and emotions of a
|
|
woman who had very little of the same faculty. Apart from this, Mrs.
|
|
Touchett had a great merit; she was as honest as a pair of
|
|
compasses. There was a comfort in her stiffness and firmness; you knew
|
|
exactly where to find her and were never liable to chance encounters
|
|
and concussions. On her own ground she was perfectly present, but
|
|
was never over-inquisitive as regards the territory of her
|
|
neighbour. Isabel came at last to have a kind of undemonstrable pity
|
|
for her; there seemed something so dreary in the condition of a person
|
|
whose nature had, as it were, so little surface- offered so limited
|
|
a face to the accretions of human contact. Nothing tender, nothing
|
|
sympathetic, had ever had a chance to fasten upon it- no wind-sown
|
|
blossom, no familiar softening moss. Her offered, her passive
|
|
extent, in other words, was about that of a knife-edge. Isabel had
|
|
reason to believe none the less that as she advanced in life she
|
|
made more of those concessions to the sense of something obscurely
|
|
distinct from convenience- more of them than she independently
|
|
exacted. She was learning to sacrifice consistency to considerations
|
|
of that inferior order for which the excuse must be found in the
|
|
particular case. It was not to the credit of her absolute rectitude
|
|
that she should have gone the longest way round to Florence in order
|
|
to spend a few weeks with her invalid son; since in former years it
|
|
had been one of her most definite convictions that when Ralph wished
|
|
to see her he was at liberty to remember that Palazzo Crescentini
|
|
contained a large apartment known as the quarter of the signorino.
|
|
|
|
"I want to ask you something," Isabel said to this young man the day
|
|
after her arrival at San Remo- "something I've thought more than
|
|
once of asking you by letter, but that I've hesitated on the whole
|
|
to write about. Face to face, nevertheless, my question seems easy
|
|
enough. Did you know your father intended to leave me so much money?"
|
|
|
|
Ralph stretched his legs a little further than usual and gazed a
|
|
little more fixedly at the Mediterranean. "What does it matter, my
|
|
dear Isabel, whether I knew? My father was very obstinate."
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|
|
|
"So," said the girl, "you did know."
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|
|
|
"Yes; he told me. We even talked it over a little."
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|
|
"What did he do it for?" asked Isabel abruptly.
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|
|
|
"Why, as a kind of compliment."
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|
|
"A compliment on what?"
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|
|
"On your so beautifully existing."
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|
"He liked me too much," she presently declared.
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|
|
"That's a way we all have."
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|
|
|
"If I believed that I should be very unhappy. Fortunately I don't
|
|
believe it. I want to be treated with justice; I want nothing but
|
|
that."
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|
|
|
"Very good. But you must remember that justice to a lovely being
|
|
is after all a florid sort of sentiment."
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|
|
|
"I'm not a lovely being. How can you say that, at the very moment
|
|
when I'm asking such odious questions? I must seem to you delicate!"
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|
|
"You seem to me troubled," said Ralph.
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|
|
"I am troubled."
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|
|
"About what?"
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|
|
For a moment she answered nothing; then she broke out: "Do you think
|
|
it good for me suddenly to be made so rich? Henrietta doesn't."
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|
|
|
"Oh, hang Henrietta!" said Ralph coarsely. "If you ask me I'm
|
|
delighted at it."
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|
|
|
"Is that why your father did it- for your amusement?"
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|
|
|
"I differ with Miss Stackpole," Ralph went on more gravely. "I think
|
|
it very good for you to have means."
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|
|
|
Isabel looked at him with serious eyes. "I wonder whether you know
|
|
what's good for me- or whether you care."
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|
|
|
"If I know depend upon it I care. Shall I tell you what it is? Not
|
|
to torment yourself."
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|
|
|
"Not to torment you, I suppose you mean."
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|
|
|
"You can't do that; I'm proof. Take things more easily. Don't ask
|
|
yourself so much whether this or that is good for you. Don't
|
|
question your conscience so much- it will get out of tune like a
|
|
strummed piano. Keep it for great occasions. Don't try so much to form
|
|
your character- it's like trying to pull open a tight, tender young
|
|
rose. Live as you like best, and your character will take care of
|
|
itself. Most things are good for you; the exceptions are very rare,
|
|
and a comfortable income's not one of them." Ralph paused, smiling;
|
|
Isabel had listened quickly. "You've too much power of thought-
|
|
above all too much conscience," Ralph added. "It's out of all
|
|
reason, the number of things you think wrong. Put back your watch.
|
|
Diet your fever. Spread your wings; rise above the ground. It's
|
|
never wrong to do that."
|
|
|
|
She had listened eagerly, as I say; and it was her nature to
|
|
understand quickly. "I wonder if you appreciate what you say. If you
|
|
do, you take a great responsibility."
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|
|
|
"You frighten me a little, but I think I'm right," said Ralph,
|
|
persisting in cheer.
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|
|
|
"All the same what you say is very true," Isabel pursued. "You could
|
|
say nothing more true. I'm absorbed in myself- I look at life too much
|
|
as a doctor's prescription. Why indeed should we perpetually be
|
|
thinking whether things are good for us, as if we were patients
|
|
lying in a hospital? Why should I be so afraid of not doing right?
|
|
As if it mattered to the world whether I do right or wrong!"
|
|
|
|
"You're a capital person to advise," said Ralph; "you take the
|
|
wind out of my sails!"
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|
|
|
She looked at him as if she had not heard him- though she was
|
|
following out the train of reflexion which he himself had kindled.
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"I try to care more about the world than about myself- but I always
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come back to myself. It's because I'm afraid." She stopped; her
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voice had trembled a little. "Yes, I'm afraid; I can't tell you. A
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large fortune means freedom, and I'm afraid of that. It's such a
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fine thing, and one should make such a good use of it. If one
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shouldn't one would be ashamed. And one must keep thinking; it's a
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constant effort. I'm not sure it's not a greater happiness to be
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powerless."
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"For weak people I've no doubt it's a greater happiness. For weak
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people the effort not to be contemptible must be great."
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"And how do you know I'm not weak?" Isabel asked.
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"Ah," Ralph answered with a flush that the girl noticed, "if you are
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I'm awfully sold!"
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The charm of the Mediterranean coast only deepened for our heroine
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on acquaintance, for it was the threshold of Italy, the gate of
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admirations. Italy, as yet imperfectly seen and felt, stretched before
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her as a land of promise, a land in which a love of the beautiful
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might be comforted by endless knowledge. Whenever she strolled upon
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the shore with her cousin- and she was the companion of his daily
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walk- she looked across the sea, with longing eyes, to where she
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knew that Genoa lay. She was glad to pause, however, on the edge of
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this larger adventure; there was such a thrill even in the preliminary
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hovering. It affected her moreover as a peaceful interlude, as a
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hush of the drum and fife in a career which she had little warrant
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as yet for regarding as agitated, but which nevertheless she was
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constantly picturing to herself by the light of her hopes, her
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fears, her fancies, her ambitions, her predilections, and which
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reflected these subjective accidents in a manner sufficiently
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dramatic. Madame Merle had predicted to Mrs. Touchett that after their
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young friend had put her hand into her pocket half a dozen times she
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would be reconciled to the idea that it had been filled by a
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munificent uncle; and the event justified, as it had so often
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justified before, that lady's perspicacity. Ralph Touchett had praised
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his cousin for being morally inflammable, that is for being quick to
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take a hint that was meant as good advice. His advice had perhaps
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helped the matter; she had at any rate before leaving San Remo grown
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used to feeling rich. The consciousness in question found a proper
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place in rather a dense little group of ideas that she had about
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herself, and often it was by no means the least agreeable. It took
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perpetually for granted a thousand good intentions. She lost herself
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in a maze of visions; the fine things to be done by a rich,
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independent, generous girl who took a large human view of occasions
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and obligations were sublime in the mass. Her fortune therefore became
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to her mind a part of her better self; it gave her importance, gave
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her even, to her own imagination, a certain ideal beauty. What it
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did for her in the imagination of others is another affair, and on
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this point we must also touch in time. The visions I have just
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spoken of were mixed with other debates. Isabel liked better to
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think of the future than of the past; but at times, as she listened to
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the murmur of the Mediterranean waves, her glance took a backward
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flight. It rested upon two figures which, in spite of increasing
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distance, were still sufficiently salient; they were recognizable
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without difficulty as those of Caspar Goodwood and Lord Warburton.
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It was strange how quickly these images of energy had fallen into
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the background of our young lady's life. It was in her disposition
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at all times to lose faith in the reality of absent things; she
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could summon back her faith, in case of need, with an effort, but
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the effort was often painful even when the reality had been
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pleasant. The past was apt to look dead and its revival rather to show
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the livid light of a judgement-day. The girl moreover was not prone to
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take for granted that she herself lived in the mind of others- she had
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not the fatuity to believe she left indelible traces. She was
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capable of being wounded by the discovery that she had been forgotten;
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but of all liberties the one she herself found sweetest was the
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liberty to forget. She had not given her last shilling,
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sentimentally speaking, either to Caspar Goodwood or to Lord
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Warburton, and yet couldn't but feel them appreciably in debt to
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her. She had of course reminded herself that she was to hear from
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Mr. Goodwood again; but this was not to be for another year and a
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half, and in that time a great many things might happen. She had
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indeed failed to say to herself that her American suitor might find
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some other girl more comfortable to woo; because, though it was
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certain many other girls would prove so, she had not the smallest
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|
belief that this merit would attract him. But she reflected that she
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herself might know the humiliation of change, might really, for that
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|
matter, come to the end of the things that were not Caspar (even
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though there appeared so many of them), and find rest in those very
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|
elements of his presence which struck her now as impediments to the
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finer respiration. It was conceivable that these impediments should
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some day prove a sort of blessing in disguise- a clear and quiet
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harbour enclosed by a brave granite breakwater. But that day could
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only come in its order, and she couldn't wait for it with folded
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hands. That Lord Warburton should continue to cherish her image seemed
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to her more than a noble humility or an enlightened pride ought to
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|
wish to reckon with. She had so definitely undertaken to preserve no
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|
record of what had passed between them that a corresponding effort
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on his own part would be eminently just. This was not, as it may seem,
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merely a theory tinged with sarcasm. Isabel candidly believed that his
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|
lordship would, in the usual phrase, get over his disappointment. He
|
|
had been deeply affected- this she believed, and she was still capable
|
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of deriving pleasure from the belief; but it was absurd that a man
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both so intelligent and so honourably dealt with should cultivate a
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scar out of proportion to any wound. Englishmen liked moreover to be
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comfortable, said Isabel, and there could be little comfort for Lord
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|
Warburton, in the long run, in brooding over a self-sufficient
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|
American girl who had been but a casual acquaintance. She flattered
|
|
herself that, should she hear from one day to another that he had
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|
married some young woman of his own country who had done more to
|
|
deserve him, she should receive the news without a pang even of
|
|
surprise. It would have proved that he believed she was firm- which
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|
was what she wished to seem to him. That alone was grateful to her
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pride.
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CHAPTER 22
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On one of the first days of May, some six months after old Mr.
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Touchett's death, a small group that might have been described by a
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|
painter as composing well was gathered in one of the many rooms of
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|
an ancient villa crowning an olive-muffled hill outside of the Roman
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|
gate of Florence. The villa was a long, rather blank-looking
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|
structure, with the far-projecting roof which Tuscany loves and which,
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|
on the hills that encircle Florence, when considered from a
|
|
distance, make so harmonious a rectangle with the straight, dark,
|
|
definite cypresses that usually rise in groups of three or four beside
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|
it. The house had a front upon a little grassy, empty, rural piazza
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|
which occupied a part of the hill-top; and this front, pierced with
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|
a few windows in irregular relations and furnished with a stone
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|
bench lengthily adjusted to the base of the structure and useful as
|
|
a lounging-place to one or two persons wearing more or less of that
|
|
air of undervalued merit which in Italy, for some reason or other,
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|
always gracefully invests any one who confidently assumes a
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|
perfectly passive attitude- this antique, solid, weather-worn, yet
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|
imposing front had a somewhat incommunicative character. It was the
|
|
mask, not the face of the house. It had heavy lids, but no eyes; the
|
|
house in reality looked another way- looked off behind, into
|
|
splendid openness and the range of the afternoon light. In that
|
|
quarter the villa overhung the slope of its hill and the long valley
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|
of the Arno, hazy with Italian colour. It had a narrow garden, in
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|
the manner of a terrace, productive chiefly of tangles of wild roses
|
|
and other old stone benches, mossy and sun-warmed. The parapet of
|
|
the terrace was just the height to lean upon, and beneath it the
|
|
ground declined into the vagueness of olive-crops and vineyards. It is
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|
not, however, with the outside of the place that we are concerned;
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|
on this bright morning of ripened spring its tenants had reason to
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|
prefer the shady side of the wall. The windows of the ground-floor, as
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|
you saw them from the piazza, were, in their noble proportions,
|
|
extremely architectural; but their function seemed less to offer
|
|
communication with the world than to defy the world to look in. They
|
|
were massively cross-barred, and placed at such a height that
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|
curiosity, even on tiptoe, expired before it reached them. In an
|
|
apartment lighted by a row of three of these jealous apertures- one of
|
|
the several distinct apartments into which the villa was divided and
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|
which were mainly occupied by foreigners of random race long
|
|
resident in Florence- a gentleman was seated in company with a young
|
|
girl and two good sisters from a religious house. The room was,
|
|
however, less sombre than our indications may have represented, for it
|
|
had a wide, high door, which now stood open into the tangled garden
|
|
behind; and the tall iron lattices admitted on occasion more than
|
|
enough of the Italian sunshine. It was moreover a seat of ease, indeed
|
|
of luxury, telling of arrangements subtly studied and refinements
|
|
frankly proclaimed, and containing a variety of those faded hangings
|
|
of damask and tapestry, those chests and cabinets of carved and
|
|
time-polished oak, those angular specimens of pictorial art in
|
|
frames as pedantically primitive, those perverse looking relics of
|
|
mediaeval brass and pottery, of which Italy has long been the not
|
|
quite exhausted storehouse. These things kept terms with articles of
|
|
modern furniture in which large allowance had been made for a lounging
|
|
generation; it was to be noticed that all the chairs were deep and
|
|
well padded and that much space was occupied by a writing-table of
|
|
which the ingenious perfection bore the stamp of London and the
|
|
nineteenth century. There were books in profusion and magazines and
|
|
newspapers, and a few small, odd, elaborate pictures, chiefly in
|
|
water-colour. One of these productions stood on a drawing-room easel
|
|
before which, at the moment we begin to be concerned with her, the
|
|
young girl I have mentioned had placed herself. She was looking at the
|
|
picture in silence.
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Silence- absolute silence- had not fallen upon her companions; but
|
|
their talk had an appearance of embarrassed continuity. The two good
|
|
sisters had not settled themselves in their respective chairs; their
|
|
attitude expressed a final reserve and their faces showed the glaze of
|
|
prudence. They were plain, ample, mild-featured women, with a kind
|
|
of business-like modesty to which the impersonal aspect of their
|
|
stiffened linen and of the serge that draped them as if nailed on
|
|
frames gave an advantage. One of them, a person of a certain age, in
|
|
spectacles, with a fresh complexion and a full cheek, had a more
|
|
discriminating manner than her colleague, as well as the
|
|
responsibility of their errand, which apparently related to the
|
|
young girl. This object of interest wore her hat- an ornament of
|
|
extreme simplicity and not at variance with her plain muslin gown, too
|
|
short for her years, though it must already have been "let out." The
|
|
gentleman who might have been supposed to be entertaining the two nuns
|
|
was perhaps conscious of the difficulties of his function, it being in
|
|
its way as arduous to converse with the very meek as with the very
|
|
mighty. At the same time he was clearly much occupied with their quiet
|
|
charge, and while she turned her back to him his eyes rested gravely
|
|
on her slim, small figure. He was a man of forty, with a high but
|
|
well-shaped head, on which the hair, still dense, but prematurely
|
|
grizzled, had been cropped close. He had a fine, narrow, extremely
|
|
modelled and composed face, of which the only fault was just this
|
|
effect of its running a trifle too much to points; an appearance to
|
|
which the shape of the beard contributed not a little. This beard, cut
|
|
in the manner of the portraits of the sixteenth century and surmounted
|
|
by a fair moustache, of which the ends had a romantic upward flourish,
|
|
gave its wearer a foreign, traditionary look and suggested that he was
|
|
a gentleman who studied style. His conscious, curious eyes, however,
|
|
eyes at once vague and penetrating, intelligent and hard, expressive
|
|
of the observer as well as of the dreamer, would have assured you that
|
|
he studied it only within well-chosen limits, and that in so far as he
|
|
sought it he found it. You would have been much at a loss to determine
|
|
his original clime and country; he had none of the superficial signs
|
|
that usually render the answer to this question an insipidly easy one.
|
|
If he had English blood in his veins it had probably received some
|
|
French or Italian commixture; but he suggested, fine gold coin as he
|
|
was, no stamp nor emblem of the common mintage that provides for
|
|
general circulation; he was the elegant complicated medal struck off
|
|
for a special occasion. He had a light, lean, rather languid-looking
|
|
figure, and was apparently neither tall nor short. He was dressed as a
|
|
man dresses who takes little other trouble about it than to have no
|
|
vulgar things.
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|
|
|
"Well, my dear, what do you think of it?" he asked the young girl.
|
|
He used the Italian tongue, and used it with perfect ease; but this
|
|
would not have convinced you he was Italian.
|
|
|
|
The child turned her head earnestly to one side and the other. "It's
|
|
very pretty, papa. Did you make it yourself?"
|
|
|
|
"Certainly I made it. Don't you think I'm clever?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, papa, very clever; I also have learned to make pictures."
|
|
And she turned round and showed a small, fair face painted with a
|
|
fixed and intensely sweet smile.
|
|
|
|
"You should have brought me a specimen of your powers."
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|
|
|
"I've brought a great many; they're in my trunk."
|
|
|
|
"She draws very- very carefully," the elder of the nuns remarked,
|
|
speaking in French.
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|
|
|
"I'm glad to hear it. Is it you who have instructed her?"
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|
|
|
"Happily no," said the good sister, blushing a little. "Ce n'est pas
|
|
ma partie. I teach nothing; I leave that to those who are wiser. We've
|
|
an excellent drawing-master, Mr.- Mr.- what is his name?" she asked of
|
|
her companion.
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|
|
|
Her companion looked about at the carpet. "It's a German name,"
|
|
she said in Italian, as if it needed to be translated.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," the other went on. "he's a German, and we've had him many
|
|
years."
|
|
|
|
The young girl, who was not heeding the conversation, had wandered
|
|
away to the open door of the large room and stood looking into the
|
|
garden. "And you, my sister, are French," said the gentleman.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, sir," the visitor gently replied. "I speak to the pupils in my
|
|
own tongue. I know no other. But we have sisters of other countries-
|
|
English, German, Irish. They all speak their proper language."
|
|
|
|
The gentleman gave a smile. "Has my daughter been under the care
|
|
of one of the Irish ladies?" And then, as he saw that his visitors
|
|
suspected a joke, though failing to understand it, "You're very
|
|
complete," he instantly added.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes, we're complete. We've everything, and everything's of
|
|
the best."
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|
|
|
"We have gymnastics," the Italian sister ventured to remark. "But
|
|
not dangerous."
|
|
|
|
"I hope not. Is that your branch?" A question which provoked much
|
|
candid hilarity on the part of the two ladies; on the subsidence of
|
|
which their entertainer, glancing at his daughter, remarked that she
|
|
had grown.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, but I think she has finished. She'll remain- not big," said
|
|
the French sister.
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|
|
|
"I'm not sorry. I prefer women like books- very good and not too
|
|
long. But I know," the gentleman said, "no particular reason why my
|
|
child should be short."
|
|
|
|
The nun gave a temperate shrug, as if to intimate that such things
|
|
might be beyond our knowledge. "She's in very good health; that's
|
|
the best thing."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, she looks sound." And the young girl's father watched her a
|
|
moment. "What do you see in the garden?" he asked in French.
|
|
|
|
"I see many flowers," she replied in a sweet, small voice and with
|
|
an accent as good as his own.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, but not many good ones. However, such as they are, go out
|
|
and gather some for ces dames."
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|
|
|
The child turned to him with her smile heightened by pleasure.
|
|
"May I truly?"
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|
|
|
"Ah, when I tell you," said her father.
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|
|
|
The girl glanced at the elder of the nuns. "May I, truly, ma mere?"
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|
|
"Obey monsieur your father, my child," said the sister, blushing
|
|
again.
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|
|
|
The child, satisfied with this authorization, descended from the
|
|
threshold and was presently lost to sight. "You don't spoil them,"
|
|
said her father gaily.
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|
|
|
"For everything they must ask leave. That's our system. Leave is
|
|
freely granted, but they must ask it."
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|
|
|
"Oh, I don't quarrel with your system; I've no doubt it's excellent.
|
|
I sent you my daughter to see what you'd make of her. I had faith."
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|
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|
"One must have faith," the sister blandly rejoined, gazing through
|
|
her spectacles.
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|
|
|
"Well, has my faith been rewarded? What have you made of her?"
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|
|
The sister dropped her eyes a moment. "A good Christian, monsieur."
|
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|
|
Her host dropped his eyes as well; but it was probable that the
|
|
movement had in each case a different spring. "Yes, and what else?"
|
|
|
|
He watched the lady from the convent, probably thinking she would
|
|
say that a good Christian was everything; but for all her simplicity
|
|
she was not so crude as that. "A charming young lady- a real little
|
|
woman- a daughter in whom you will have nothing but contentment."
|
|
|
|
"She seems to me very gentille," said the father. "She's really
|
|
pretty."
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|
|
|
"She's perfect. She has no faults."
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|
|
"She never had any as a child, and I'm glad you have given her
|
|
none."
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|
|
|
"We love her too much," said the spectacled sister with dignity.
|
|
"And as for faults, how can we give what we have not? Le couvent n'est
|
|
pas comme le monde, monsieur. She's our daughter, as you may say.
|
|
We've had her since she was so small."
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|
|
|
"Of all those we shall lose this year she's the one we shall miss
|
|
most," the younger woman murmured deferentially.
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|
|
|
"Ah, yes, we shall talk long of her," said the other. "We shall hold
|
|
her up to the new ones." And at this the good sister appeared to
|
|
find her spectacles dim; while her companion, after fumbling a moment,
|
|
presently drew forth a pocket-handkerchief of durable texture.
|
|
|
|
"It's not certain you'll lose her; nothing's settled yet," their
|
|
host rejoined quickly; not as if to anticipate their tears, but in the
|
|
tone of a man saying what was most agreeable to himself.
|
|
|
|
"We should be very happy to believe that. Fifteen is very young to
|
|
leave us."
|
|
|
|
"Oh," exclaimed the gentleman with more vivacity than he had yet
|
|
used, "it is not I who wish to take her away. I wish you could keep
|
|
her always!"
|
|
|
|
"Ah, monsieur," said the elder sister, smiling and getting up, "good
|
|
as she is, she's made for the world. Le monde y gagnera."
|
|
|
|
"If all the good people were hidden away in convents how would the
|
|
world get on?" her companion softly enquired, rising also.
|
|
|
|
This was a question of a wider bearing than the good woman
|
|
apparently supposed; and the lady in spectacles took a harmonizing
|
|
view by saying comfortably: "Fortunately there are good people
|
|
everywhere."
|
|
|
|
"If you're going there will be two less here," her host remarked
|
|
gallantly.
|
|
|
|
For this extravagant sally his simple visitors had no answer, and
|
|
they simply looked at each other in decent deprecation; but their
|
|
confusion was speedily covered by the return of the young girl with
|
|
two large bunches of roses- one of them all white, the other red.
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|
|
|
"I give you your choice, Mamman Catherine," said the child. "It's
|
|
only the colour that's different, Mamman Justine; there are just as
|
|
many roses in one bunch as in the other."
|
|
|
|
The two sisters turned to each other, smiling and hesitating, with
|
|
"Which will you take?" and "No, it's for you to choose."
|
|
|
|
"I'll take the red, thank you," said mother Catherine in the
|
|
spectacles. I'm so red myself. They'll comfort us on our way back to
|
|
Rome."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, they won't last," cried the young girl. "I wish I could give
|
|
you something that would last!"
|
|
|
|
"You've given us a good memory of yourself, my daughter. That will
|
|
last!"
|
|
|
|
"I wish nuns could wear pretty things. I would give you my blue
|
|
beads," the child went on.
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|
|
|
"And do you go back to Rome to-night?" her father enquired.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, we take the train again. We've so much to do la-bas."
|
|
|
|
"Are you not tired?"
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|
|
"We are never tired."
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|
|
|
"Ah, my sister, sometimes," murmured the junior votaress.
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|
|
|
"Not to-day, at any rate. We have rested too well here. Que Dieu
|
|
vous garde, ma fille."
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|
|
|
Their host, while they exchanged kisses with his daughter, went
|
|
forward to open the door through which they were to pass; but as he
|
|
did so he gave a slight exclamation, and stood looking beyond. The
|
|
door opened into a vaulted ante-chamber, as high as a chapel and paved
|
|
with red tiles; and into this ante-chamber a lady had just been
|
|
admitted by a servant, a lad in shabby livery, who was now ushering
|
|
her toward the apartment in which our friends were grouped. The
|
|
gentleman at the door, after dropping his exclamation, remained
|
|
silent; in silence too the lady advanced. He gave her no further
|
|
audible greeting and offered her no hand, but stood aside to let her
|
|
pass into the saloon. At the threshold she hesitated. "Is there any
|
|
one?" she asked.
|
|
|
|
"Some one you may see."
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|
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She went in and found herself confronted with the two nuns and their
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pupil, who was coming forward, between them, with a hand in the arm of
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each. At the sight of the new visitor they all paused, and the lady,
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who had also stopped, stood looking at them. The young girl gave a
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little soft cry:
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"Ah, Madame Merle!"
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The visitor had been slightly startled, but her manner the next
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instant was none the less gracious. "Yes, it's Madame Merle, come to
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welcome you home." And she held out two hands to the girl, who
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immediately came up to her, presenting her forehead to be kissed.
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Madame Merle saluted this portion of her charming little person and
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then stood smiling at the two nuns. They acknowledged her smile with a
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decent obeisance, but permitted themselves no direct scrutiny of
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this imposing, brilliant woman, who seemed to bring in with her
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something of the radiance of the outer world.
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"These ladies have brought my daughter home, and now they return
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to the convent," the gentleman explained.
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"Ah, you go back to Rome? I've lately come from there. It's very
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lovely now," said Madame Merle.
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The good sisters, standing with their hands folded into their
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sleeves, accepted this statement uncritically; and the master of the
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house asked his new visitor how long it was since she had left Rome.
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"She came to see me at the convent," said the young girl before the
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lady addressed had time to reply.
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"I've been more than once, Pansy," Madame Merle declared. "Am I
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not your great friend in Rome?"
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"I remember the last time best," said Pansy, "because you told me
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I should come away."
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"Did you tell her that?" the child's father asked.
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"I hardly remember. I told her what I thought would please her. I've
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been in Florence a week. I hoped you would come to see me."
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"I should have done so if I had known you were there. One doesn't
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know such things by inspiration- though I suppose one ought. You had
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better sit down."
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These two speeches were made in a particular tone of voice- a tone
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half-lowered and carefully quiet, but as from habit rather than from
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any definite need. Madame Merle looked about her, choosing her seat.
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"You're going to the door with these women? Let me of course not
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interrupt the ceremony. Je vous salue, mesdames," she added, in
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French, to the nuns, as if to dismiss them.
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"This lady's a great friend of ours; you will have seen her at the
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convent," said their entertainer. "We've much faith in her
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judgement, and she'll help me to decide whether my daughter shall
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return to you at the end of the holidays."
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"I hope you'll decide in our favour, madame," the sister in
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spectacles ventured to remark.
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"That's Mr. Osmond's pleasantry; I decide nothing," said Madame
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Merle, but also as in pleasantry. "I believe you've a very good
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school, but Miss Osmond's friends must remember that she's very
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naturally meant for the world."
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"That's what I've told monsieur," sister Catherine answered. "It's
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precisely to fit her for the world," she murmured, glancing at
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Pansy, who stood, at a little distance, attentive to Madame Merle's
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elegant apparel.
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"Do you hear that, Pansy? You're very naturally meant for the
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world," said Pansy's father.
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The child fixed him an instant with her pure young eyes. "Am I not
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meant for you, papa?"
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Papa gave a quick, light laugh. "That doesn't prevent it! I'm of the
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world, Pansy."
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"Kindly permit us to retire," said sister Catherine. "Be good and
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wise and happy in any case, my daughter."
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"I shall certainly come back and see you," Pansy returned,
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recommencing her embraces, which were presently interrupted by
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Madame Merle.
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"Stay with me, dear child," she said, "while your father takes the
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good ladies to the door."
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Pansy stared, disappointed, yet not protesting. She was evidently
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impregnated with the idea of submission, which was due to any one
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who took the tone of authority; and she was a passive spectator of the
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operation of her fate. "May I not see Mamman Catherine get into the
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carriage?" she nevertheless asked very gently.
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"It would please me better if you'd remain with me," said Madame
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Merle, while Mr. Osmond and his companions, who had bowed low again to
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the other visitor, passed into the ante-chamber.
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"Oh yes, I'll stay," Pansy answered; and she stood near Madame
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Merle, surrendering her little hand, which this lady took. She
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stared out of the window; her eyes had filled with tears.
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"I'm glad they've taught you to obey," said Madame Merle. "That's
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what good little girls should do."
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"Oh yes, I obey very well," cried Pansy with soft eagerness,
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almost with boastfulness, as if she had been speaking of her
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piano-playing. And then she gave a faint, just audible sigh.
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Madame Merle, holding her hand, drew it across her own fine palm and
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looked at it. The gaze was critical, but it found nothing to
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deprecate; the child's small hand was delicate and fair. "I hope
|
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they always see that you wear gloves," she said in a moment. "Little
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girls usually dislike them."
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"I used to dislike them, but I like them now," the child made
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answer.
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"Very good, I'll make you a present of a dozen."
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"I thank you very much. What colours will they be?" Pansy demanded
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with interest.
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Madame Merle meditated. "Useful colours."
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"But very pretty?"
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"Are you very fond of pretty things?"
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"Yes; but- but not too fond," said Pansy with a trace of asceticism.
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"Well, they won't be too pretty," Madame Merle returned with a
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laugh. She took the child's other hand and drew her nearer; after
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which, looking at her a moment, "Shall you miss mother Catherine?" she
|
|
went on.
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"Yes- when I think of her."
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"Try then not to think of her. Perhaps some day," added Madame
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Merle, "you'll have another mother."
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"I don't think that's necessary," Pansy said, repeating her little
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|
soft conciliatory sigh. "I had more than thirty mothers at the
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convent."
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|
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|
Her father's step sounded again in the ante-chamber, and Madame
|
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Merle got up, releasing the child. Mr. Osmond came in and closed the
|
|
door; then, without looking at Madame Merle, he pushed one or two
|
|
chairs back into their places. His visitor waited a moment for him
|
|
to speak, watching him as he moved about. Then at last she said: "I
|
|
hoped you'd have come to Rome. I thought it possible you'd have wished
|
|
yourself to fetch Pansy away."
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|
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|
"That was a natural supposition; but I'm afraid it's not the first
|
|
time I've acted in defiance of your calculations."
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"Yes," said Madame Merle, "I think you very perverse."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Osmond busied himself for a moment in the room- there was plenty
|
|
of space in it to move about- in the fashion of a man mechanically
|
|
seeking pretexts for not giving an attention which may be
|
|
embarrassing. Presently, however, he had exhausted his pretexts; there
|
|
was nothing left for him- unless he took up a book- but to stand
|
|
with his hands behind him looking at Pansy. "Why didn't you come and
|
|
see the last of Mamman Catherine?" he asked of her abruptly in French.
|
|
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|
Pansy hesitated a moment, glancing at Madame Merle. "I asked her
|
|
to stay with me," said this lady, who had seated herself again in
|
|
another place.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, that was better," Osmond conceded. With which he dropped into a
|
|
chair and sat looking at Madame Merle; bent forward a little, his
|
|
elbows on the edge of the arms and his hands interlocked.
|
|
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"She's going to give me some gloves," said Pansy.
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|
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|
"You needn't tell that to every one, my dear," Madame Merle
|
|
observed.
|
|
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|
"You're very kind to her," said Osmond. "She's supposed to have
|
|
everything she needs."
|
|
|
|
"I should think she had had enough of the nuns."
|
|
|
|
"If we're going to discuss that matter she had better go out of
|
|
the room."
|
|
|
|
"Let her stay," said Madame Merle. "We'll talk of something else."
|
|
|
|
"If you like I won't listen," Pansy suggested with an appearance
|
|
of candour which imposed conviction.
|
|
|
|
"You may listen, charming child, because you won't understand,"
|
|
her father replied. The child sat down, deferentially, near the open
|
|
door, within sight of the garden, into which she directed her
|
|
innocent, wistful eyes; and Mr. Osmond went on irrelevantly,
|
|
addressing himself to his other companion. "You're looking
|
|
particularly well."
|
|
|
|
"I think I always look the same," said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"You always are the same. You don't vary. You're a wonderful woman."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I think I am."
|
|
|
|
"You sometimes change your mind, however. You told me on your return
|
|
from England that you wouldn't leave Rome again for the present."
|
|
|
|
"I'm pleased that you remember so well what I say. That was my
|
|
intention. But I've come to Florence to meet some friends who have
|
|
lately arrived and as to whose movements I was at that time
|
|
uncertain."
|
|
|
|
"That reason's characteristic. You're always doing something for
|
|
your friends."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle smiled straight at her host. "It's less
|
|
characteristic than your comment upon it- which is perfectly
|
|
insincere. I don't, however, make a crime of that," she added,
|
|
"because if you don't believe what you say there's no reason why you
|
|
should. I don't ruin myself for my friends; I don't deserve your
|
|
praise. I care greatly for myself."
|
|
|
|
"Exactly; but yourself includes so many other selves- so much of
|
|
every one else and of everything. I never knew a person whose life
|
|
touched so many other lives."
|
|
|
|
"What do you call one's life?" asked Madame Merle. "One's
|
|
appearance, one's movements, one's engagements, one's society?"
|
|
|
|
"I call your life your ambitions," said Osmond.
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle looked a moment at Pansy. "I wonder if she
|
|
understands that," she murmured.
|
|
|
|
"You see she can't stay with us!" And Pansy's father gave rather a
|
|
joyless smile. "Go into the garden, mignonne, and pluck a flower or
|
|
two for Madame Merle," he went on in French.
|
|
|
|
"That's just what I wanted to do," Pansy exclaimed, rising with
|
|
promptness and noiselessly departing. Her father followed her to the
|
|
open door, stood a moment watching her, and then came back, but
|
|
remained standing, or rather strolling to and from as if to
|
|
cultivate a sense of freedom which in another attitude might be
|
|
wanting.
|
|
|
|
"My ambitions are principally for you," said Madame Merle, looking
|
|
up at him with a certain courage.
|
|
|
|
"That comes back to what I say. I'm part of your life- I and a
|
|
thousand others. You're not selfish- I can't admit that. If you were
|
|
selfish, what should I be? What epithet would properly describe me?"
|
|
|
|
"You're indolent. For me that's your worst fault."
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid it's really my best."
|
|
|
|
"You don't care," said Madame Merle gravely.
|
|
|
|
"No; I don't think I care much. What sort of a fault do you call
|
|
that? My indolence, at any rate, was one of the reasons I didn't go to
|
|
Rome. But it was only one of them."
|
|
|
|
"It's not of importance- to me at least- that you didn't go;
|
|
though I should have been glad to see you. I'm glad you're not in Rome
|
|
now- which you might be, would probably be, if you had gone there a
|
|
month ago. There's something I should like you to do at present in
|
|
Florence."
|
|
|
|
"Please remember my indolence," said Osmond.
|
|
|
|
"I do remember it; but I beg you to forget it. In that way you'll
|
|
have both the virtue and the reward. This is not a great labour, and
|
|
it may prove a real interest. How long is it since you made a new
|
|
acquaintance?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't think I've made any since I made yours."
|
|
|
|
"It's time then you should make another. There's a friend of mine
|
|
I want you to know."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Osmond, in his walk, had gone back to the open door again and
|
|
was looking at his daughter as she moved about in the intense
|
|
sunshine. "What good will it do me?" he asked with a sort of genial
|
|
crudity.
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle waited. "It will amuse you." There was nothing crude in
|
|
this rejoinder; it had been thoroughly well considered.
|
|
|
|
"If you say that, you know, I believe it," said Osmond, coming
|
|
toward her. "There are some points in which my confidence in you is
|
|
complete. I'm perfectly aware, for instance, that you know good
|
|
society from bad."
|
|
|
|
"Society is all bad."
|
|
|
|
"Pardon me. That isn't- the knowledge I impute to you- a common sort
|
|
of wisdom. You've gained it in the right way- experimentally; you've
|
|
compared an immense number of more or less impossible people with each
|
|
other."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I invite you to profit by my knowledge."
|
|
|
|
"To profit? Are you very sure that I shall?"
|
|
|
|
"It's what I hope. It will depend on yourself. If I could only
|
|
induce you to make an effort!"
|
|
|
|
"Ah, there you are! I knew something tiresome was coming. What in
|
|
the world- that's likely to turn up here- is worth an effort?"
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle flushed as with a wounded intention. "Don't be foolish,
|
|
Osmond. No one knows better than you what is worth an effort.
|
|
Haven't I seen you in old days?"
|
|
|
|
"I recognize some things. But they're none of them probable in
|
|
this poor life."
|
|
|
|
"It's the effort that makes them probable," said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"There's something in that. Who then is your friend?"
|
|
|
|
"The person I came to Florence to see. She's a niece of Mrs.
|
|
Touchett, whom you'll not have forgotten."
|
|
|
|
"A niece? The word niece suggests youth and ignorance. I see what
|
|
you're coming to."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, she's young- twenty-three years old. She's a great friend of
|
|
mine. I met her for the first time in England, several months ago, and
|
|
we struck up a grand alliance. I like her immensely, and I do what I
|
|
don't do every day- I admire her. You'll do the same."
|
|
|
|
"Not if I can help it."
|
|
|
|
"Precisely. But you won't be able to help it."
|
|
|
|
"Is she beautiful, clever, rich, splendid, universally intelligent
|
|
and unprecedentedly virtuous? It's only on those conditions that I
|
|
care to make her acquaintance. You know I asked you some time ago
|
|
never to speak to me of a creature who shouldn't correspond to that
|
|
description. I know plenty of dingy people; I don't want to know any
|
|
more."
|
|
|
|
"Miss Archer isn't dingy; she's as bright as the morning. She
|
|
corresponds to your description; it's for that I wish you to know her.
|
|
She fills all your requirements."
|
|
|
|
"More or less, of course."
|
|
|
|
"No; quite literally. She's beautiful, accomplished, generous and,
|
|
for an American, well-born. She's also very clever and very amiable,
|
|
and she has a handsome fortune."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Osmond listened to this in silence, appearing to turn it over in
|
|
his mind with his eyes on his informant. "What do you want to do
|
|
with her?" he asked at last.
|
|
|
|
"What you see. Put her in your way."
|
|
|
|
"Isn't she meant for something better than that?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't pretend to know what people are meant for," said Madame
|
|
Merle. "I only know what I can do with them."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sorry for Miss Archer!" Osmond declared.
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle got up. "If that's a beginning of interest in her I
|
|
take note of it."
|
|
|
|
The two stood there face to face; she settled her mantilla,
|
|
looking down at it as she did so. "You're looking very well," Osmond
|
|
repeated still less relevantly than before. "You have some idea.
|
|
You're never so well as when you've got an idea; they're always
|
|
becoming to you."
|
|
|
|
In the manner and tone of these two persons, on first meeting at any
|
|
juncture, and especially when they met in the presence of others,
|
|
was something indirect and circumspect, as if they had approached each
|
|
other obliquely and addressed each other by implication. The effect of
|
|
each appeared to be to intensify to an appreciable degree the
|
|
self-consciousness of the other. Madame Merle of course carried off
|
|
any embarrassment better than her friend; but even Madame Merle had
|
|
not on this occasion the form she would have liked to have- the
|
|
perfect self-possession she would have wished to wear for her host.
|
|
The point to be made is, however, that at a certain moment the element
|
|
between them, whatever it was, always levelled itself and left them
|
|
more closely face to face than either ever was with any one else. This
|
|
was what had happened now. They stood there knowing each other well
|
|
and each on the whole willing to accept the satisfaction of knowing as
|
|
a compensation for the inconvenience- whatever it might be- of being
|
|
known. "I wish very much you were not so heartless," Madame Merle
|
|
quietly said. "It has always been against you, and it will be
|
|
against you now."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not so heartless as you think. Every now and then something
|
|
touches me- as for instance your saying just now that your ambitions
|
|
are for me. I don't understand it; I don't see how or why they
|
|
should be. But it touches me, all the same."
|
|
|
|
"You'll probably understand it even less as time goes on. There
|
|
are some things you'll never understand. There's no particular need
|
|
you should."
|
|
|
|
"You, after all, are the most remarkable of women," said Osmond.
|
|
"You have more in you than almost any one. I don't see why you think
|
|
Mrs. Touchett's niece should matter very much to me, when- when-"
|
|
But he paused a moment.
|
|
|
|
"When I myself have mattered so little?"
|
|
|
|
"That of course is not what I meant to say. When I've known and
|
|
appreciated such a woman as you."
|
|
|
|
"Isabel Archer's better than I," said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
Her companion gave a laugh. "How little you must think of her to say
|
|
that!"
|
|
|
|
"Do you suppose I'm capable of jealousy? Please answer me that."
|
|
|
|
"With regard to me? No; on the whole I don't."
|
|
|
|
"Come and see me then, two days hence. I'm staying at Mrs.
|
|
Touchett's- Palazzo Crescentini- and the girl will be there."
|
|
|
|
"Why didn't you ask me that at first simply, without speaking of the
|
|
girl?" said Osmond. "You could have had her there at any rate."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle looked at him in the manner of a woman whom no question
|
|
he could ever put would find unprepared. "Do you wish to know why?
|
|
Because I've spoken of you to her."
|
|
|
|
Osmond frowned and turned away. "I'd rather not know that." Then
|
|
in a moment he pointed out the easel supporting the little
|
|
water-colour drawing. "Have you seen what's there- my last?"
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle drew near and considered. "Is it the Venetian Alps- one
|
|
of your last year's sketches?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes- but how you guess everything!"
|
|
|
|
She looked a moment longer, then turned away. "You know I don't care
|
|
for your drawings."
|
|
|
|
"I know it, yet I'm always surprised at it. They're really so much
|
|
better than most people's."
|
|
|
|
"That may very well be. But as the only thing you do- well, it's
|
|
so little. I should have liked you to do so many other things: those
|
|
were my ambitions."
|
|
|
|
"Yes; you've told me many times- things that were impossible."
|
|
|
|
"Things that were impossible," said Madame Merle. And then in
|
|
quite a different tone: "In itself your little picture's very good."
|
|
She looked about the room- at the old cabinets, pictures,
|
|
tapestries, surfaces of faded silk. "Your rooms at least are
|
|
perfect. I'm struck with that afresh whenever I come back; I know none
|
|
better anywhere. You understand this sort of thing as nobody
|
|
anywhere does. You've such adorable taste."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sick of my adorable taste," said Gilbert Osmond.
|
|
|
|
"You must nevertheless let Miss Archer come and see it. I've told
|
|
her about it."
|
|
|
|
"I don't object to showing my things- when people are not idiots."
|
|
|
|
"You do it delightfully. As cicerone of your museum you appear to
|
|
particular advantage."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Osmond, in return for this compliment, simply looked at once
|
|
colder and more attentive. "Did you say she was rich?"
|
|
|
|
"She has seventy thousand pounds."
|
|
|
|
"En ecus bien comptes?"
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"There's no doubt whatever about her fortune. I've seen it, as I may
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say."
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"Satisfactory woman!- I mean you. And if I go to see her shall I see
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the mother?"
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"The mother? She has none- nor father either."
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"The aunt then- whom did you say?- Mrs. Touchett."
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"I can easily keep her out of the way."
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"I don't object to her," said Osmond; "I rather like Mrs.
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Touchett. She has a sort of old-fashioned character that's passing
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away- a vivid identity. But that long jackanapes the son- is he
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about the place?"
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"He's there, but he won't trouble you."
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"He's a good deal of a donkey."
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"I think you're mistaken. He's a very clever man. But he's not
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fond of being about when I'm there, because he doesn't like me."
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"What could be more asinine than that? Did you say she has looks?"
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Osmond went on.
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"Yes; but I won't say it again, lest you should be disappointed in
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them. Come and make a beginning; that's all I ask of you."
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"A beginning of what?"
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Madame Merle was silent a little. "I want you of course to marry
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her."
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"The beginning of the end? Well, I'll see for myself. Have you
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told her that?"
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"For what do you take me? She's not so coarse a piece of
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machinery- nor am I."
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"Really," said Osmond after some meditation, "I don't understand
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your ambitions."
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"I think you'll understand this one after you've seen Miss Archer.
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Suspend your judgement." Madame Merle, as she spoke, had drawn near
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the open door of the garden, where she stood a moment looking out.
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"Pansy has really grown pretty," she presently added.
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"So it seemed to me."
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"But she has had enough of the convent."
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"I don't know," said Osmond. "I like what they've made of her.
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It's very charming."
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"That's not the convent. It's the child's nature."
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"It's the combination, I think. She's as pure as a pearl."
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"Why doesn't she come back with my flowers then?" Madame Merle
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asked. "She's not in a hurry."
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"We'll go and get them."
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"She doesn't like me," the visitor murmured as she raised her
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parasol and they passed into the garden.
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CHAPTER 23
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Madame Merle, who had come to Florence on Mrs. Touchett's arrival at
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the invitation of this lady- Mrs. Touchett offering her for a month
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the hospitality of Palazzo Crescentini- the judicious Madame Merle
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spoke to Isabel afresh about Gilbert Osmond and expressed the hope she
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might know him; making, however, no such point of the matter as we
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have seen her do in recommending the girl herself to Mr. Osmond's
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attention. The reason of this was perhaps that Isabel offered no
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resistance whatever to Madame Merle's proposal. In Italy, as in
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England, the lady had a multitude of friends, both among the natives
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of the country and its heterogeneous visitors. She had mentioned to
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Isabel most of the people the girl would find it well to "meet"- of
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course, she said, Isabel could know whomever in the wide world she
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would- and had placed Mr. Osmond near the top of the list. He was an
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old friend of her own; she had known him these dozen years; he was one
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of the cleverest and most agreeable men- well, in Europe simply. He
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was altogether above the respectable average; quite another affair. He
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wasn't a professional charmer- far from it, and the effect he produced
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depended a good deal on the state of his nerves and his spirits.
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When not in the right mood he could fall as low as any one, saved only
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by his looking at such hours rather like a demoralized prince in
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exile. But if he cared or was interested or rightly challenged- just
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exactly rightly it had to be- then one felt his cleverness and his
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distinction. Those qualities didn't depend, in him, as in so many
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people, on his not committing or exposing himself. He had his
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perversities- which indeed Isabel would find to be the case with all
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the men really worth knowing- and didn't cause his light to shine
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equally for all persons. Madame Merle, however, thought she could
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undertake that for Isabel he would be brilliant. He was easily
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bored, too easily, and dull people always put him out; but a quick and
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cultivated girl like Isabel would give him a stimulus which was too
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absent from his life. At any rate he was a person not to miss. One
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shouldn't attempt to live in Italy without making a friend of
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Gilbert Osmond, who knew more about the country than any one except
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two or three German professors. And if they had more knowledge than he
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it was he who had most perception and taste- being artistic through
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and through. Isabel remembered that her friend had spoken of him
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during their plunge, at Gardencourt, into the deeps of talk, and
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wondered a little what was the nature of the tie binding these
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superior spirits. She felt that Madame Merle's ties always somehow had
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histories, and such an impression was part of the interest created
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by this inordinate woman. As regards her relations with Mr. Osmond,
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however, she hinted at nothing but a long-established calm friendship.
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Isabel said she should be happy to know a person who had enjoyed so
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high a confidence for so many years. "You ought to see a great many
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men," Madame Merle remarked; "you ought to see as many as possible, so
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as to get used to them."
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"Used to them?" Isabel repeated with that solemn stare which
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sometimes seemed to proclaim her deficient in the sense of comedy.
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"Why, I'm not afraid of them- I'm as used to them as the cook to the
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butcher-boys."
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"Used to them, I mean, so as to despise them. That's what one
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comes to with most of them. You'll pick out, for your society, the few
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whom you don't despise."
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This was a note of cynicism that Madame Merle didn't often allow
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herself to sound; but Isabel was not alarmed, for she had never
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supposed that as one saw more of the world the sentiment of respect
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became the most active of one's emotions. It was excited, none the
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less, by the beautiful city of Florence, which pleased her not less
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than Madame Merle had promised; and if her unassisted perception had
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not been able to gauge its charms she had clever companions as priests
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to the mystery. She was in no want indeed of aesthetic illumination,
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for Ralph found it a joy that renewed his own early passion to act
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as cicerone to his eager young kinswoman. Madame Merle remained at
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home; she had seen the treasures of Florence again and again and had
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always something else to do. But she talked of all things with
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remarkable vividness of memory- she recalled the right-hand corner
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of the large Perugino and the position of the hands of the Saint
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Elizabeth in the picture next to it. She had her opinions as to the
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character of many famous works of art, differing often from Ralph with
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great sharpness and defending her interpretations with as much
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ingenuity as good-humour. Isabel listened to the discussions taking
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place between the two with a sense that she might derive much
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benefit from them and that they were among the advantages she couldn't
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have enjoyed for instance in Albany. In the clear May mornings
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before the formal breakfast- this repast at Mrs. Touchett's was served
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at twelve o'clock- she wandered with her cousin through the narrow and
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sombre Florentine streets, resting a while in the thicker dusk of some
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historic church or the vaulted chambers of some dispeopled convent.
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She went to the galleries and palaces; she looked at the pictures
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and statues that had hitherto been great names to her, and exchanged
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for a knowledge which was sometimes a limitation a presentiment
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which proved usually to have been a blank. She performed all those
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acts of mental prostration in which, on a first visit to Italy,
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youth and enthusiasm so freely indulge; she felt her heart beat in the
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presence of immortal genius and knew the sweetness of rising tears
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in eyes to which faded fresco and darkened marble grew dim. But the
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return, every day, was even pleasanter than the going forth; the
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return into the wide, monumental court of the great house in which
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Mrs. Touchett, many years before, had established herself, and into
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the high, cool rooms where the carven rafters and pompous frescoes
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of the sixteenth century looked down on the familiar commodities of
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the age of advertisement. Mrs. Touchett inhabited an historic building
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in a narrow street whose very name recalled the strife of mediaeval
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factions; and found compensation for the darkness of her frontage in
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the modicity of her rent and the brightness of a garden where nature
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itself looked as archaic as the rugged architecture of the palace
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and which cleared and scented the rooms in regular use. To live in
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such a place was, for Isabel, to hold to her ear all day a shell of
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the sea of the past. This vague eternal rumour kept her imagination
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awake.
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Gilbert Osmond came to see Madame Merle, who presented him to the
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young lady lurking at the other side of the room. Isabel took on
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this occasion little part in the talk; she scarcely even smiled when
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the others turned to her invitingly; she sat there as if she had
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been at the play and had paid even a large sum for her place. Mrs.
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Touchett was not present, and these two had it, for the effect of
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brilliancy, all their own way. They talked of the Florentine, the
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Roman, the cosmopolite world, and might have been distinguished
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performers figuring for a charity. It all had the rich readiness
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that would have come from rehearsal. Madame Merle appealed to her as
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if she had been on the stage, but she could ignore any learnt cue
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without spoiling the scene- though of course she thus put dreadfully
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in the wrong the friend who had told Mr. Osmond she could be
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depended on. This was no matter for once; even if more had been
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involved she could have made no attempt to shine. There was
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something in the visitor that checked her and held her in suspense-
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made it more important she should get an impression of him than that
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she should produce one herself. Besides, she had little skill in
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producing an impression which she knew to be expected: nothing could
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be happier, in general, than to seem dazzling, but she had a
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perverse unwillingness to glitter by arrangement. Mr. Osmond, to do
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him justice, had a well-bred air of expecting nothing, a quiet ease
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that covered everything, even the first show of his own wit. This
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was the more grateful as his face, his head, was sensitive; he was not
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handsome, but he was fine, as fine as one of the drawings in the
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long gallery above the bridge of the Uffizi. And his very voice was
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fine- the more strangely that, with its clearness, it yet somehow
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wasn't sweet. This had had really to do with making her abstain from
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interference. His utterance was the vibration of glass, and if she had
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put out her finger she might have changed the pitch and spoiled the
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concert. Yet before he went she had to speak.
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"Madame Merle," he said, "consents to come up to my hill-top some
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day next week and drink tea in my garden. It would give me much
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pleasure if you would come with her. It's thought rather pretty-
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there's what they call a general view. My daughter too would be so
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glad- or rather, for she's too young to have strong emotions, I should
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be so glad- so very glad." And Mr. Osmond paused with a slight air
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of embarrassment, leaving his sentence unfinished.
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"I should be so happy if you could know my daughter," he went on a
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moment afterwards.
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Isabel replied that she should be delighted to see Miss Osmond and
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that if Madame Merle would show her the way to the hill-top she should
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be very grateful. Upon this assurance the visitor took his leave;
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after which Isabel fully expected her friend would scold her for
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having been so stupid. But to her surprise that lady, who indeed never
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fell into the mere matter-of-course, said to her in a few moments:
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"You were charming, my dear; you were just as one would have wished
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you. You're never disappointing."
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A rebuke might possibly have been irritating, though it is much more
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|
probable that Isabel would have taken it in good part; but, strange to
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say, the words that Madame Merle actually used caused her the first
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|
feeling of displeasure she had known this ally to excite. "That's more
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than I intended," she answered coldly. "I'm under no obligation that I
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know of to charm Mr. Osmond."
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Madame Merle perceptibly flushed, but we know it was not her habit
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to retract. "My dear child, I didn't speak for him, poor man; I
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spoke for yourself. It's not of course a question as to his liking
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you; it matters little whether he likes you or not! But I thought
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you liked him."
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"I did," said Isabel honestly. "But I don't see what that matters
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either."
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"Everything that concerns you matters to me," Madame Merle
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returned with her weary nobleness; "especially when at the same time
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another old friend's concerned."
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Whatever Isabel's obligations may have been to Mr. Osmond, it must
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|
be admitted that she found them sufficient to lead her to put to Ralph
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sundry questions about him. She thought Ralph's judgements distorted
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by his trials, but she flattered herself she had learned to make
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allowance for that.
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"Do I know him?" said her cousin. "Oh, yes, I 'know' him; not
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well, but on the whole enough. I've never cultivated his society,
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and he apparently has never found mine indispensable to his happiness.
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Who is he, what is he? He's a vague, unexplained American who has been
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living these thirty years, or less, in Italy. Why do I call him
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unexplained? Only as a cover for my ignorance; I don't know his
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antecedents, his family, his origin. For all I do know he may be a
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prince in disguise; he rather looks like one, by the way- like a
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prince who has abdicated in a fit of fastidiousness and has been in
|
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a state of disgust ever since. He used to live in Rome; but of late
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years he has taken up his abode here; I remember hearing him say
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that Rome has grown vulgar. He has a great dread of vulgarity;
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that's his special line; he hasn't any other that I know of. He
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lives on his income, which I suspect of not being vulgarly large. He's
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a poor but honest gentleman- that's what he calls himself. He
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married young and lost his wife, and I believe he has a daughter. He
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|
also has a sister, who's married to some small Count or other, of
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these parts; I remember meeting her of old. She's nicer than he, I
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|
should think, but rather impossible. I remember there used to be
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some stories about her. I don't think I recommend you to know her. But
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why don't you ask Madame Merle about these people? She knows them
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all much better than I."
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"I ask you because I want your opinion as well as hers," said
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Isabel.
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"A fig for my opinion! If you fall in love with Mr. Osmond what will
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you care for that?"
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"Not much, probably. But meanwhile it has a certain importance.
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The more information one has about one's dangers the better."
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"I don't agree to that- it may make them dangers. We know too much
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about people in these days; we hear too much. Our ears, our minds, our
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|
mouths, are stuffed with personalities. Don't mind anything any one
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tells you about any one else. Judge every one and everything for
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|
yourself."
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"That's what I try to do," said Isabel; "but when you do that people
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call you conceited."
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"You're not to mind them- that's precisely my argument; not to
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mind what they say about yourself any more than what they say about
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your friend or your enemy."
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Isabel considered. "I think you're right; but there are some
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things I can't help minding: for instance when my friend's attacked or
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when I myself am praised."
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"Of course you're always at liberty to judge the critic. Judge
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people as critics, however," Ralph added, "and you'll condemn them
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all!"
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"I shall see Mr. Osmond for myself," said Isabel. "I've promised
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to pay him a visit."
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"To pay him a visit?"
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"To go and see his view, his pictures, his daughter- I don't know
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exactly what. Madame Merle's to take me; she tells me a great many
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ladies call on him."
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"Ah, with Madame Merle you may go anywhere, de confiance," said
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Ralph. "She knows none but the best people."
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Isabel said no more about Mr. Osmond, but she presently remarked
|
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to her cousin that she was not satisfied with his tone about Madame
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|
Merle. "It seems to me you insinuate things about her. I don't know
|
|
what you mean, but if you've any grounds for disliking her I think you
|
|
should either mention them frankly or else say nothing at all."
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Ralph, however, resented this charge with more apparent
|
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earnestness than he commonly used. "I speak of Madame Merle exactly as
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I speak to her: with an even exaggerated respect."
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"Exaggerated, precisely. That's what I complain of."
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"I do so because Madame Merle's merits are exaggerated."
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"By whom, pray? By me? If so I do her a poor service."
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"No, no; by herself."
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"Ah, I protest!" Isabel earnestly cried. "If ever there was a
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woman who made small claims-!"
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"You put your finger on it," Ralph interrupted. "Her modesty's
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exaggerated. She has no business with small claims- she has a
|
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perfect right to make large ones."
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"Her merits are large then. You contradict yourself."
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"Her merits are immense," said Ralph. "She's indescribably
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blameless; a pathless desert of virtue; the only woman I know who
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never gives one a chance."
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"A chance for what?"
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"Well, say to call her a fool! She's the only woman I know who has
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but that one little fault."
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Isabel turned away with impatience. "I don't understand you;
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you're too paradoxical for my plain mind."
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"Let me explain. When I say she exaggerates I don't mean it in the
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vulgar sense- that she boasts, overstates, gives too fine an account
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of herself. I mean literally that she pushes the search for perfection
|
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too far- that her merits are in themselves overstrained. She's too
|
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good, too kind, too clever, too learned, too accomplished, too
|
|
everything. She's too complete, in a word. I confess to you that she
|
|
acts on my nerves and that I feel about her a good deal as that
|
|
intensely human Athenian felt about Aristides the Just."
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Isabel looked hard at her cousin; but the mocking spirit, if it
|
|
lurked in his words, failed on this occasion to peep from his face.
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|
"Do you wish Madame Merle to be banished?"
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"By no means. She's much too good company. I delight in Madame
|
|
Merle," said Ralph Touchett simply.
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"You're very odious, sir!" Isabel exclaimed. And then she asked
|
|
him if he knew anything that was not to the honour of her brilliant
|
|
friend.
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"Nothing whatever. Don't you see that's just what I mean? On the
|
|
character of every one else you may find some little black speck; if I
|
|
were to take half an hour to it, some day, I've no doubt I should be
|
|
able to find one on yours. For my own, of course, I'm spotted like a
|
|
leopard. But on Madame Merle's nothing, nothing, nothing!"
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|
"That's just what I think!" said Isabel with a toss of her head.
|
|
"That is why I like her so much."
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"She's a capital person for you to know. Since you wish to see the
|
|
world you couldn't have a better guide."
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|
"I suppose you mean by that that she's worldly?"
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"Worldly? No," said Ralph, "she's the great round world itself!"
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|
It had certainly not, as Isabel for the moment took it into her head
|
|
to believe, been a refinement of malice in him to say that he
|
|
delighted in Madame Merle. Ralph Touchett took his refreshment
|
|
wherever he could find it, and he would not have forgotten himself
|
|
if he had been left wholly unbeguiled by such a mistress of the social
|
|
art. There are deep-lying sympathies and antipathies, and it may
|
|
have been that, in spite of the administered justice she enjoyed at
|
|
his hands, her absence from his mother's house would not have made
|
|
life barren to him. But Ralph Touchett had learned more or less
|
|
inscrutably to attend, and there could have been nothing so
|
|
"sustained" to attend to as the general performance of Madame Merle.
|
|
He tasted her in sips, he let her stand, with an opportuneness she
|
|
herself could not have surpassed. There were moments when he felt
|
|
almost sorry for her; and these, oddly enough, were the moments when
|
|
his kindness was least demonstrative. He was sure she had been
|
|
yearningly ambitious and that what she had visibly accomplished was
|
|
far below her secret measure. She had got herself into perfect
|
|
training, but had won none of the prizes. She was always plain
|
|
Madame Merle, the widow of a Swiss negociant, with a small income
|
|
and a large acquaintance, who stayed with people a great deal and
|
|
was almost as universally "liked" as some new volume of smooth
|
|
twaddle. The contrast between this position and any one of some
|
|
half-dozen others that he supposed to have at various moments
|
|
engaged her hope had an element of the tragical. His mother thought he
|
|
got on beautifully with their genial guest; to Mrs. Touchett's sense
|
|
two persons who dealt so largely in too-ingenious theories of conduct-
|
|
that is of their own- would have much in common. He had given due
|
|
consideration to Isabel's intimacy with her eminent friend, having
|
|
long since made up his mind that he could not, without opposition,
|
|
keep his cousin to himself; and he made the best of it, as he had done
|
|
of worse things. He believed it would take care of itself; it wouldn't
|
|
last forever. Neither of these two superior persons knew the other
|
|
as well as she supposed, and when each had made an important discovery
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or two there would be, if not a rupture, at least a relaxation.
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Meanwhile he was quite willing to admit that the conversation of the
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elder lady was an advantage to the younger, who had a great deal to
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learn and would doubtless learn it better from Madame Merle than
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from some other instructors of the young. It was not probable that
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Isabel would be injured.
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CHAPTER 24
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It would certainly have been hard to see what injury could arise
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to her from the visit she presently paid to Mr. Osmond's hill-top.
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Nothing could have been more charming than this occasion- a soft
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afternoon in the full maturity of the Tuscan spring. The companions
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drove out of the Roman Gate, beneath the enormous blank superstructure
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which crowns the fine clear arch of that portal and makes it nakedly
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impressive, and wound between high-walled lanes into which the
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wealth of blossoming orchards overdrooped and flung a fragrance, until
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they reached the small superurban piazza, of crooked shape, where
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the long brown wall of the villa occupied in part by Mr. Osmond formed
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a principal, or at least a very imposing, object. Isabel went with her
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friend through a wide, high court, where a clear shadow rested below
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and a pair of light-arched galleries, facing each other above,
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caught the upper sunshine upon their slim columns and the flowering
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plants in which they were dressed. There was something grave and
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strong in the place; it looked somehow as if, once you were in, you
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would need an act of energy to get out. For Isabel, however, there was
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of course as yet no thought of getting out, but only of advancing. Mr.
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Osmond met her in the cold ante-chamber- it was cold even in the month
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of May- and ushered her, with her conductress, into the apartment to
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which we have already been introduced. Madame Merle was in front,
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and while Isabel lingered a little, talking with him, she went forward
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familiarly and greeted two persons who were seated in the saloon.
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One of these was little Pansy, on whom she bestowed a kiss; the
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other was a lady whom Mr. Osmond indicated to Isabel as his sister,
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the Countess Gemini.
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"And that's my little girl," he said, "who has just come out of
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her convent."
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Pansy had on a scant white dress, and her fair hair was neatly
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arranged in a net; she wore her small shoes tied sandal-fashion
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about her ankles. She made Isabel a little conventual curtsey and then
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came to be kissed. The Countess Gemini simply nodded without getting
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up: Isabel could see she was a woman of high fashion. She was thin and
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dark and not at all pretty, having features that suggested some
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tropical bird- a long beak-like nose, small, quickly-moving eyes and a
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mouth and chin that receded extremely. Her expression, however, thanks
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to various intensities of emphasis and wonder, of horror and joy,
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was not inhuman, and, as regards her appearance, it was plain she
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understood herself and made the most of her points. Her attire,
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voluminous and delicate, bristling with elegance, had the look of
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shimmering plumage, and her attitudes were as light and sudden as
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those of a creature who perched upon twigs. She had a great deal of
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manner; Isabel, who had never known any one with so much manner,
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immediately classed her as the most affected of women. She
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remembered that Ralph had not recommended her as an acquaintance;
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but she was ready to acknowledge that to a casual view the Countess
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Gemini revealed no depths. Her demonstrations suggested the violent
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waving of some flag of general truce- white silk with fluttering
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streamers.
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"You'll believe I'm glad to see you when I tell you it's only
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because I knew you were to be here that I came myself. I don't come
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and see my brother- I make him come and see me. This hill of his is
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impossible- I don't see what possesses him. Really, Osmond, you'll
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be the ruin of my horses some day, and if it hurts them you'll have to
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give me another pair. I heard them wheezing to-day; I assure you I
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did. It's very disagreeable to hear one's horses wheezing when one's
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sitting in the carriage; it sounds too as if they weren't what they
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should be. But I've always had good horses; whatever else I may have
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lacked I've always managed that. My husband doesn't know much, but I
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think he knows a horse. In general Italians don't, but my husband goes
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in, according to his poor light, for everything English. My horses are
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English- so it's all the greater pity they should be ruined. I must
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tell you," she went on, directly addressing Isabel, "that Osmond
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doesn't often invite me; I don't think he likes to have me. It was
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quite my own idea, coming to-day. I like to see new people, and I'm
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sure you're very new. But don't sit there; that chair's not what it
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looks. There are some very good seats here, but there are also some
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horrors."
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These remarks were delivered with a series of little jerks and
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pecks, of roulades of shrillness, and in an accent that was as some
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fond recall of good English, or rather of good American, in adversity.
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"I don't like to have you, my dear?" said her brother. "I'm sure
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you're invaluable."
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"I don't see any horrors anywhere," Isabel returned, looking about
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her. "Everything seems to me beautiful and precious."
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"I've a few good things," Mr. Osmond allowed; "indeed I've nothing
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very bad. But I've not what I should have liked."
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He stood there a little awkwardly, smiling and glancing about; his
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manner was an odd mixture of the detached and the involved. He
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seemed to hint that nothing but the right "values" was of any
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consequence. Isabel made a rapid induction: perfect simplicity was not
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the badge of his family. Even the little girl from the convent, who,
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in her prim white dress, with her small submissive face and her
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hands locked before her, stood there as if she were about to partake
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of her first communion, even Mr. Osmond's diminutive daughter had a
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kind of finish that was not entirely artless.
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"You'd have liked a few things from the Uffizi and the Pitti- that's
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what you'd have liked," said Madame Merle.
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"Poor Osmond, with his old curtains and crucifixes!" the Countess
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Gemini exclaimed: she appeared to call her brother only by his
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family-name. Her ejaculation had no particular object; she smiled at
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Isabel as she made it and looked at her from head to foot.
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Her brother had not heard her; he seemed to be thinking what he
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could say to Isabel:
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"Won't you have some tea?- you must be very tired," he at last
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bethought himself of remarking.
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"No, indeed, I'm not tired; what have I done to tire me?" Isabel
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felt a certain need of being very direct, of pretending to nothing;
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there was something in the air, in her general impression of things-
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she could hardly have said what it was- that deprived her of all
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disposition to put herself forward. The place, the occasion, the
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combination of people, signified more than lay on the surface; she
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would try to understand- she would not simply utter graceful
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platitudes. Poor Isabel was doubtless not aware that many women
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would have uttered graceful platitudes to cover the working of their
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observation. It must be confessed that her pride was a trifle alarmed.
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A man she had heard spoken of in terms that excited interest and who
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was evidently capable of distinguishing himself, had invited her, a
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young lady not lavish of her favours, to come to his house. Now that
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she had done so the burden of the entertainment rested naturally on
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his wit. Isabel was not rendered less observant, and for the moment,
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we judge, she was not rendered more indulgent, by perceiving that
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Mr. Osmond carried his burden less complacently than might have been
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expected. "What a fool I was to have let myself so needlessly in-!"
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she could fancy his exclaiming to himself.
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"You'll be tired when you go home, if he shows you all his
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bibelots and gives you a lecture on each," said the Countess Gemini.
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"I'm not afraid of that; but if I'm tired I shall at least have
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learned something."
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"Very little, I suspect. But my sister's dreadfully afraid of
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learning anything," said Mr. Osmond.
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"Oh, I confess to that; I don't want to know anything more- I know
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too much already. The more you know the more unhappy you are."
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"You should not undervalue knowledge before Pansy, who has not
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finished her education," Madame Merle interposed with a smile.
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"Pansy will never know any harm," said the child's father.
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"Pansy's a little convent-flower."
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"Oh, the convents, the convents!" cried the Countess with a
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flutter of her ruffles. "Speak to me of the convents! You may learn
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anything there; I'm a convent-flower myself. I don't pretend to be
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good, but the nuns do. Don't you see what I mean?" she went on,
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appealing to Isabel.
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Isabel was not sure she saw, and she answered that she was very
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bad at following arguments. The Countess then declared that she
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herself detested arguments, but that this was her brother's taste-
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he would always discuss. "For me," she said, "one should like a
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thing or one shouldn't; one can't like everything, of course. But
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one shouldn't attempt to reason it out- you never know where it may
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lead you. There are some very good feelings that may have bad reasons,
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don't you know? And then there are very bad feelings, sometimes,
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that have good reasons. Don't you see what I mean? I don't care
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anything about reasons, but I know what I like."
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"Ah, that's the great thing," said Isabel, smiling and suspecting
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that her acquaintance with this lightly-flitting personage would not
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lead to intellectual repose. If the Countess objected to argument
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Isabel at this moment had as little taste for it, and she put out
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her hand to Pansy with a pleasant sense that such a gesture
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committed her to nothing that would admit of a divergence of views.
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Gilbert Osmond apparently took a rather hopeless view of his
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sister's tone; he turned the conversation to another topic. He
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presently sat down on the other side of his daughter, who had shyly
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brushed Isabel's fingers with her own; but he ended by drawing her out
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of her chair and making her stand between his knees, leaning against
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him while he passed his arm round her slimness. The child fixed her
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eyes on Isabel with a still, disinterested gaze which seemed void of
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an intention, yet conscious of an attraction. Mr. Osmond talked of
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many things; Madame Merle had said he could be agreeable when he
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chose, and to-day, after a little, he appeared not only to have chosen
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but to have determined. Madame Merle and the Countess Gemini sat a
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little apart, conversing in the effortless manner of persons who
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knew each other well enough to take their ease; but every now and then
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Isabel heard the Countess, at something said by her companion,
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plunge into the latter's lucidity as a poodle splashes after a
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thrown stick. It was as if Madame Merle were seeing how far she
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would go. Mr. Osmond talked of Florence, of Italy, of the pleasure
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of living in that country and of the abatements to the pleasure. There
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were both satisfactions and drawbacks; the drawbacks were numerous;
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strangers were too apt to see such a world as all romantic. It met the
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case soothingly for the human, for the social failure- by which he
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meant the people who couldn't "realize," as they said, on their
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sensibility: they could keep it about them there, in their poverty,
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without ridicule, as you might keep an heirloom or an inconvenient
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entailed place that brought you in nothing. Thus there were advantages
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in living in the country which contained the greatest sum of beauty.
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Certain impressions you could get only there. Others, favourable to
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life, you never got, and you got some that were very bad. But from
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time to time you got one of a quality that made up for everything.
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Italy, all the same, had spoiled a great many people; he was even
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fatuous enough to believe at times that he himself might have been a
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better man if he had spent less of his life there. It made one idle
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and dilettantish and second-rate; it had no discipline for the
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character, didn't cultivate in you, otherwise expressed, the
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|
successful social and other "cheek" that flourished in Paris and
|
|
London. "We're sweetly provincial," said Mr. Osmond, "and I'm
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perfectly aware that I myself am as rusty as a key that has no lock to
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fit it. It polishes me up a little to talk with you- not that I
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venture to pretend I can turn that very complicated lock I suspect
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your intellect of being! But you'll be going away before I've seen you
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three times, and I shall perhaps never see you after that. That's what
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it is to live in a country that people come to. When they're
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disagreeable here it's bad enough; when they're agreeable it's still
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worse. As soon as you like them they're off again! I've been
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deceived too often; I've ceased to form attachments, to permit
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myself to feel attractions. You mean to stay- to settle? That would be
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really comfortable. Ah yes, your aunt's a sort of guarantee; I believe
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she may be depended on. Oh, she's an old Florentine; I mean
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literally an old one; not a modern outsider. She's a contemporary of
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the Medici; she must have been present at the burning of Savonarola,
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and I'm not sure she didn't throw a handful of chips into the flame.
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Her face is very much like some faces in the early pictures; little,
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dry, definite faces that must have had a good deal of expression,
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but almost always the same one. Indeed I can show you her portrait
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in a fresco of Ghirlandaio's. I hope you don't object to my speaking
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that way of your aunt, eh? I've an idea you don't. Perhaps you think
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that's even worse. I assure you there's no want of respect in it, to
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either of you. You know I'm a particular admirer of Mrs. Touchett."
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While Isabel's host exerted himself to entertain her in this
|
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somewhat confidential fashion she looked occasionally at Madame Merle,
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|
who met her eyes with an inattentive smile in which, on this occasion,
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there was no infelicitous intimation that our heroine appeared to
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advantage. Madame Merle eventually proposed to the Countess Gemini
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that they should go into the garden, and the Countess, rising and
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shaking out her feathers, began to rustle toward the door. "Poor
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Miss Archer!" she exclaimed, surveying the other group with expressive
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|
compassion. "She has been brought quite into the family."
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"Miss Archer can certainly have nothing but sympathy for a family to
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which you belong," Mr. Osmond answered, with a laugh which, though
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it had something of a mocking ring, had also a finer patience.
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"I don't know what you mean by that! I'm sure she'll see no harm
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in me but what you tell her. I'm better than he says, Miss Archer,"
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the Countess went on. "I'm only rather an idiot and a bore. Is that
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all he has said? Ah then, you keep him in good-humour. Has he opened
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|
on one of his favourite subjects? I give you notice that there are two
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|
or three that he treats a fond. In that case you had better take off
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your bonnet."
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"I don't think I know what Mr. Osmond's favourite subjects are,"
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said Isabel, who had risen to her feet.
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The Countess assumed for an instant an attitude of intense
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meditation, pressing one of her hands, with the finger-tips gathered
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together, to her forehead. "I'll tell you in a moment. One's
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Machiavelli; the other's Vittoria Colonna; the next is Metastasio."
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"Ah, with me," said Madame Merle, passing her arm into the
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Countess Gemini's as if to guide her course to the garden, "Mr.
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Osmond's never so historical."
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"Oh you," the Countess answered as they moved away, "you yourself
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are Machiavelli- you yourself are Vittoria Colonna!"
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"We shall hear next that poor Madame Merle is Metastasio!" Gilbert
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Osmond resignedly sighed.
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Isabel had got up on the assumption that they too were to go into
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the garden; but her host stood there with no apparent inclination to
|
|
leave the room, his hands in the pockets of his jacket and his
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daughter, who had now locked her arm into one of his own, clinging
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to him and looking up while her eyes moved from his own face to
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Isabel's. Isabel waited, with a certain unuttered contentedness, to
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|
have her movements directed; she liked Mr. Osmond's talk, his company:
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|
she had what always gave her a very private thrill, the
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|
consciousness of a new relation. Through the open doors of the great
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room she saw Madame Merle and the Countess stroll across the fine
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grass of the garden; then she turned, and her eyes wandered over the
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things scattered about her. The understanding had been that Mr. Osmond
|
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should show her his treasures; his pictures and cabinets all looked
|
|
like treasures. Isabel after a moment went toward one of the
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|
pictures to see it better; but just as she had done so he said to
|
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her abruptly: "Miss Archer, what do you think of my sister?"
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She faced him with some surprise. "Ah, don't ask me that- I've
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seen your sister too little."
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"Yes, you've seen her very little; but you must have observed that
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there is not a great deal of her to see. What do you think of our
|
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family tone?" he went on with his cool smile. "I should like to know
|
|
how it strikes a fresh, unprejudiced mind. I know what you're going to
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|
say- you've had almost no observation of it. Of course this is only
|
|
a glimpse. But just take notice, in future, if you have a chance. I
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|
sometimes think we've got into a rather bad way, living off here among
|
|
things and people not our own, without responsibilities or
|
|
attachments, with nothing to hold us together or keep us up;
|
|
marrying foreigners, forming artificial tastes, playing tricks with
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|
our natural mission. Let me add, though, that I say that much more for
|
|
myself than for my sister. She's a very honest lady- more so than
|
|
she seems. She's rather unhappy, and as she's not of a serious turn
|
|
she doesn't tend to show it tragically: she shows it comically
|
|
instead. She has got a horrid husband, though I'm not sure she makes
|
|
the best of him. Of course, however, a horrid husband's an awkward
|
|
thing. Madame Merle gives her excellent advice, but it's a good deal
|
|
like giving a child a dictionary to learn a language with. He can look
|
|
out the words, but he can't put them together. My sister needs a
|
|
grammar, but unfortunately she's not grammatical. Pardon my
|
|
troubling you with these details; my sister was very right in saying
|
|
you've been taken into the family. Let me take down that picture;
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|
you want more light."
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|
He took down the picture, carried it toward the window, related some
|
|
curious facts about it. She looked at the other works of art, and he
|
|
gave her such further information as might appear most acceptable to a
|
|
young lady making a call on a summer afternoon. His pictures, his
|
|
medallions and tapestries were interesting; but after a while Isabel
|
|
felt the owner much more so, and independently of them, thickly as
|
|
they seemed to overhang him. He resembled no one she had ever seen;
|
|
most of the people she knew might be divided into groups of half a
|
|
dozen specimens. There were one or two exceptions to this; she could
|
|
think for instance of no group that would contain her aunt Lydia.
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|
There were other people who were, relatively speaking, original-
|
|
original, as one might say, by courtesy- such as Mr. Goodwood, as
|
|
her cousin Ralph, as Henrietta Stackpole, as Lord Warburton, as Madame
|
|
Merle. But in essentials, when one came to look at them, these
|
|
individuals belonged to types already present to her mind. Her mind
|
|
contained no class offering a natural place to Mr. Osmond- he was a
|
|
specimen apart. It was not that she recognized all these truths at the
|
|
hour, but they were falling into order before her. For the moment
|
|
she only said to herself that this "new relation" would perhaps
|
|
prove her very most distinguished. Madame Merle had had that note of
|
|
rarity, but what quite other power it immediately gained when
|
|
sounded by a man! It was not so much what he said and did, but
|
|
rather what he withheld, that marked him for her as by one of those
|
|
signs of the highly curious that he was showing her on the underside
|
|
of old plates and in the corner of sixteenth-century drawings: he
|
|
indulged in no striking deflections from common usage, he was an
|
|
original without being an eccentric. She had never met a person of
|
|
so fine a grain. The peculiarity was physical, to begin with, and it
|
|
extended to impalpabilities. His dense, delicate hair, his
|
|
overdrawn, retouched features, his clear complexion, ripe without
|
|
being coarse, the very evenness of the growth of his beard, and that
|
|
light, smooth slenderness of structure which made the movement of a
|
|
single one of his fingers produce the effect of an expressive gesture-
|
|
these personal points struck our sensitive young woman as signs of
|
|
quality, of intensity, somehow as promises of interest. He was
|
|
certainly fastidious and critical; he was probably irritable. His
|
|
sensibility had governed him- possibly governed him too much; it had
|
|
made him impatient of vulgar troubles and had led him to live by
|
|
himself, in a sorted, sifted, arranged world, thinking about art and
|
|
beauty and history. He had consulted his taste in everything- his
|
|
taste alone perhaps, as a sick man consciously incurable consults at
|
|
last only his lawyer: that was what made him so different from every
|
|
one else. Ralph had something of this same quality, this appearance of
|
|
thinking that life was a matter of connoisseurship; but in Ralph it
|
|
was an anomaly, a kind of humorous excrescence, whereas in Mr.
|
|
Osmond it was the keynote, and everything was in harmony with it.
|
|
She was certainly far from understanding him completely; his meaning
|
|
was not at all times obvious. It was hard to see what he meant for
|
|
instance by speaking of his provincial side- which was exactly the
|
|
side she would have taken him most to lack. Was it a harmless paradox,
|
|
intended to puzzle her? or was it the last refinement of high culture?
|
|
She trusted she should learn in time; it would be very interesting
|
|
to learn. If it was provincial to have that harmony, what then was the
|
|
finish of the capital? And she could put this question in spite of
|
|
so feeling her host a sly personage; since such shyness as his- the
|
|
shyness of ticklish nerves and fine perceptions- was perfectly
|
|
consistent with the best breeding. Indeed it was almost a proof of
|
|
standards and touchstones other than the vulgar: he must be so sure
|
|
the vulgar would be first on the ground. He wasn't a man of easy
|
|
assurance, who chatted and gossiped with the fluency of a
|
|
superficial nature; he was critical of himself as well as of others,
|
|
and, exacting a good deal of others, to think them agreeable, probably
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took a rather ironical view of what he himself offered: a proof into
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the bargain that he was not grossly conceited. If he had not been
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shy he wouldn't have effected that gradual, subtle, successful
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conversion of it to which she owed both what pleased her in him and
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what mystified her. If he had suddenly asked her what she thought of
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the Countess Gemini, that was doubtless a proof that he was interested
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in her; it could scarcely be as a help to knowledge of his own sister.
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That he should be so interested showed an enquiring mind; but it was a
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little singular he should sacrifice his fraternal feeling to his
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curiosity. This was the most eccentric thing he had done.
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There were two other rooms, beyond the one in which she had been
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received, equally full of romantic objects, and in these apartments
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Isabel spent a quarter of an hour. Everything was in the last degree
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curious and precious, and Mr. Osmond continued to be the kindest of
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ciceroni as he led her from one fine piece to another and still held
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his little girl by the hand. His kindness almost surprised our young
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friend, who wondered why he should take so much trouble for her; and
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she was oppressed at last with the accumulation of beauty and
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knowledge to which she found herself introduced. There was enough
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for the present; she had ceased to attend to what he said; she
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listened to him with attentive eyes, but was not thinking of what he
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told her. He probably thought her quicker, cleverer in every way, more
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prepared, than she was. Madame Merle would have pleasantly
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exaggerated; which was a pity, because in the end he would be sure
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to find out, and then perhaps even her real intelligence wouldn't
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reconcile him to his mistake. A part of Isabel's fatigue came from the
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effort to appear as intelligent as she believed Madame Merle had
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described her, and from the fear (very unusual with her) of
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exposing- not her ignorance; for that she cared comparatively
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little- but her possible grossness of perception. It would have
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annoyed her to express a liking for something he, in his superior
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enlightenment, would think she oughtn't to like; or to pass by
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something at which the truly initiated mind would arrest itself. She
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had no wish to fall into that grotesqueness- in which she had seen
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women (and it was a warning) serenely, yet ignobly, flounder. She
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was very careful therefore as to what she said, as to what she noticed
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or failed to notice; more careful than she had ever been before.
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They came back into the first of the rooms, where the tea had been
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served; but as the two other ladies were still on the terrace, and
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as Isabel had not yet been made acquainted with the view, the
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paramount distinction of the place, Mr. Osmond directed her steps into
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the garden without more delay. Madame Merle and the Countess had had
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chairs brought out, and as the afternoon was lovely the Countess
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proposed they should take their tea in the open air. Pansy therefore
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was sent to bid the servant bring out the preparations. The sun had
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got low, the golden light took a deeper tone, and on the mountains and
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the plain that stretched beneath them the masses of purple shadow
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glowed as richly as the places that were still exposed. The scene
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had an extraordinary charm. The air was almost solemnly still, and the
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large expanse of the landscape, with its gardenlike culture and
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nobleness of outline, its teeming valley and delicately-fretted hills,
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its peculiarly human-looking touches of habitation, lay there in
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splendid harmony and classic grace. "You seem so well pleased that I
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think you can be trusted to come back," Osmond said as he led his
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companion to one of the angles of the terrace.
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"I shall certainly come back," she returned, "in spite of what you
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say about its being bad to live in Italy. What was that you said about
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one's natural mission? I wonder if I should forsake my natural mission
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if I were to settle in Florence."
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"A woman's natural mission is to be where she's most appreciated."
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"The point's to find out where that is."
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"Very true- she often wastes a great deal of time in the enquiry.
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People ought to make it very plain to her."
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"Such a matter would have to be made very plain to me," smiled
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Isabel.
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"I'm glad, at any rate, to hear you talk of settling. Madame Merle
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had given me an idea that you were of a rather roving disposition. I
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thought she spoke of your having some plan of going round the world."
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"I'm rather ashamed of my plans; I make a new one every day."
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"I don't see why you should be ashamed; it's the greatest of
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pleasures."
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"It seems frivolous, I think," said Isabel. "One ought to choose
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something very deliberately, and be faithful to that."
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"By that rule then, I've not been frivolous."
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"Have you never made plans?"
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"Yes, I made one years ago, and I'm acting on it to-day."
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"It must have been a very pleasant one," Isabel permitted herself to
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observe.
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"It was very simple. It was to be as quiet as possible."
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"As quiet?" the girl repeated.
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"Not to worry- not to strive nor struggle. To resign myself. To be
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|
content with little." He spoke these sentences slowly, with short
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|
pauses between, and his intelligent regard was fixed on his
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|
visitor's with the conscious air of a man who has brought himself to
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confess something.
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"Do you call that simple?" she asked with mild irony.
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"Yes, because it's negative."
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"Has your life been negative?"
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"Call it affirmative if you like. Only it has affirmed my
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|
indifference. Mind you, not my natural indifference- I had none. But
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my studied, my wilful renunciation."
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She scarcely understood him; it seemed a question whether he were
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|
joking or not. Why should a man who struck her as having a great
|
|
fund of reserve suddenly bring himself to be so confidential? This was
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|
his affair, however, and his confidences were interesting. "I don't
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|
see why you should have renounced," she said in a moment.
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"Because I could do nothing. I had no prospects, I was poor, and I
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|
was not a man of genius. I had no talents even; I took my measure
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|
early in life. I was simply the most fastidious young gentleman
|
|
living. There were two or three people in the world I envied- the
|
|
Emperor of Russia, for instance, and the Sultan of Turkey! There
|
|
were even moments when I envied the Pope of Rome- for the
|
|
consideration he enjoys. I should have been delighted to be considered
|
|
to that extent; but since that couldn't be I didn't care for
|
|
anything less, and I made up my mind not to go in for honours. The
|
|
leanest gentleman can always consider himself, and fortunately I
|
|
was, though lean, a gentleman. I could do nothing in Italy- I couldn't
|
|
even be an Italian patriot. To do that I should have had to get out of
|
|
the country; and I was too fond of it to leave it, to say nothing of
|
|
my being too well satisfied with it, on the whole, as it then was,
|
|
to wish it altered. So I've passed a great many years here on that
|
|
quiet plan I spoke of. I've not been at all unhappy. I don't mean to
|
|
say I've cared for nothing; but the things I've cared for have been
|
|
definite- limited. The events of my life have been absolutely
|
|
unperceived by any one save myself; getting an old silver crucifix
|
|
at a bargain (I've never bought anything dear, of course), or
|
|
discovering, as I once did, a sketch by Correggio on a panel daubed
|
|
over by some inspired idiot."
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|
This would have been rather a dry account of Mr. Osmond's' career if
|
|
Isabel had fully believed it; but her imagination supplied the human
|
|
element which she was sure had not been wanting. His life had been
|
|
mingled with other lives more than he admitted; naturally she couldn't
|
|
expect him to enter into this. For the present she abstained from
|
|
provoking further revelations; to intimate that he had not told her
|
|
everything would be more familiar and less considerate than she now
|
|
desired to be- would in fact be uproariously vulgar. He had
|
|
certainly told her quite enough. It was her present inclination,
|
|
however, to express a measured sympathy for the success with which
|
|
he had preserved his independence. "That's a very pleasant life,"
|
|
she said, "to renounce everything but Correggio!"
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|
|
|
"Oh, I've made in my way a good thing of it. Don't imagine I'm
|
|
whining about it. It's one's own fault if one isn't happy."
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|
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This was large; she kept down to something smaller. "Have you
|
|
lived here always?"
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|
|
|
"No, not always. I lived a long time at Naples, and many years in
|
|
Rome. But I've been here a good while. Perhaps I shall have to change,
|
|
however; to do something else. I've no longer myself to think of. My
|
|
daughter's growing up and may very possibly not care so much for the
|
|
Correggios and crucifixes as I. I shall have to do what's best for
|
|
Pansy."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, do that," said Isabel. "She's such a dear little girl."
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|
|
"Ah," cried Gilbert Osmond beautifully, "she's a little saint of
|
|
heaven! She is my great happiness!"
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CHAPTER 25
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|
While this sufficiently intimate colloquy (prolonged for some time
|
|
after we cease to follow it) went forward Madame Merle and her
|
|
companion, breaking a silence of some duration, had begun to
|
|
exchange remarks. They were sitting in an attitude of unexpressed
|
|
expectancy; an attitude especially marked on the part of the
|
|
Countess Gemini, who, being of a more nervous temperament than her
|
|
friend, practised with less success the art of disguising
|
|
impatience. What these ladies were waiting for would not have been
|
|
apparent and was perhaps not very definite to their own minds.
|
|
Madame Merle waited for Osmond to release their young friend from
|
|
her tete-a-tete, and the Countess waited because Madame Merle did. The
|
|
Countess, moreover, by waiting, found the time ripe for one of her
|
|
pretty perversities. She might have desired for some minutes to
|
|
place it. Her brother wandered with Isabel to the end of the garden,
|
|
to which point her eyes followed them.
|
|
|
|
"My dear," she then observed to her companion, "you'll excuse me
|
|
if I don't congratulate you!"
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|
|
|
"Very willingly, for I don't in the least know why you should."
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|
|
|
"Haven't you a little plan that you think rather well of?" And the
|
|
Countess nodded at the sequestered couple.
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|
|
|
Madame Merle's eyes took the same direction; then she looked
|
|
serenely at her neighbour. "You know I never understand you very
|
|
well," she smiled.
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|
|
|
"No one can understand better than you when you wish. I see that
|
|
just now you don't wish."
|
|
|
|
"You say things to me that no one else does," said Madame Merle
|
|
gravely, yet without bitterness.
|
|
|
|
"You mean things you don't like? Doesn't Osmond sometimes say such
|
|
things?"
|
|
|
|
"What your brother says has a point."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, a poisoned one sometimes. If you mean that I'm not so clever
|
|
as he you mustn't think I shall suffer from your sense of our
|
|
difference. But it will be much better that you should understand me."
|
|
|
|
"Why so?" asked Madame Merle. "To what will it conduce?"
|
|
|
|
"If I don't approve of your plan you ought to know it in order to
|
|
appreciate the danger of my interfering with it."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle looked as if she were ready to admit that there might
|
|
be something in this; but in a moment she said quietly: "You think
|
|
me more calculating than I am."
|
|
|
|
"It's not your calculating I think ill of; it's your calculating
|
|
wrong. You've done so in this case."
|
|
|
|
"You must have made extensive calculations yourself to discover
|
|
that."
|
|
|
|
"No, I've not had time. I've seen the girl but this once," said
|
|
the Countess, "and the conviction has suddenly come to me. I like
|
|
her very much."
|
|
|
|
"So do I," Madame Merle mentioned.
|
|
|
|
"You've a strange way of showing it."
|
|
|
|
"Surely I've given her the advantage of making your acquaintance."
|
|
|
|
"That indeed," piped the Countess, "is perhaps the best thing that
|
|
could happen to her!"
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle said nothing for some time. The Countess's manner was
|
|
odious, was really low; but it was an old story, and with her eyes
|
|
upon the violet slope of Monte Morello she gave herself up to
|
|
reflection. "My dear lady," she finally resumed, "I advise you not
|
|
to agitate yourself. The matter you allude to concerns three persons
|
|
much stronger of purpose than yourself."
|
|
|
|
"Three persons? You and Osmond of course. But is Miss Archer also
|
|
very strong of purpose?"
|
|
|
|
"Quite as much so as we."
|
|
|
|
"Ah then," said the Countess radiantly, "if I convince her it's
|
|
her interest to resist you she'll do so successfully!"
|
|
|
|
"Resist us? Why do you express yourself so coarsely? She's not
|
|
exposed to compulsion or deception."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not sure of that. You're capable of anything, you and Osmond. I
|
|
don't mean Osmond by himself, and I don't mean you by yourself. But
|
|
together you're dangerous- like some chemical combination."
|
|
|
|
"You had better leave us alone then," smiled Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"I don't mean to touch you- but I shall talk to that girl."
|
|
|
|
"My poor Amy," Madame Merle murmured, "I don't see what has got into
|
|
your head."
|
|
|
|
"I take an interest in her- that's what has got into my head. I like
|
|
her."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle hesitated a moment. "I don't think she likes you."
|
|
|
|
The Countess's bright little eyes expanded and her face was set in a
|
|
grimace. "Ah, you are dangerous- even by yourself!"
|
|
|
|
"If you want her to like you don't abuse your brother to her,"
|
|
said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"I don't suppose you pretend she has fallen in love with him in
|
|
two interviews."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle looked a moment at Isabel and at the master of the
|
|
house. He was leaning against the parapet, facing her, his arms
|
|
folded; and she at present was evidently not lost in the mere
|
|
impersonal view, persistently as she gazed at it. As Madame Merle
|
|
watched her she lowered her eyes; she was listening, possibly with a
|
|
certain embarrassment, while she pressed the point of her parasol into
|
|
the path. Madame Merle rose from her chair. "Yes, I think so!" she
|
|
pronounced.
|
|
|
|
The shabby footboy, summoned by Pansy- he might, tarnished as to
|
|
livery and quaint as to type, have issued from some stray sketch of
|
|
old-time manners, been "put in" by the brush of a Longhi or a Goya-
|
|
had come out with a small table and placed it on the grass, and then
|
|
had gone back and fetched the tea-tray; after which he had again
|
|
disappeared, to return with a couple of chairs. Pansy had watched
|
|
these proceedings with the deepest interest, standing with her small
|
|
hands folded together upon the front of her scanty frock; but she
|
|
had not presumed to offer assistance. When the tea-table had been
|
|
arranged, however, she gently approached her aunt.
|
|
|
|
"Do you think papa would object to my making the tea?"
|
|
|
|
The Countess looked at her with a deliberately critical gaze and
|
|
without answering her question.
|
|
|
|
"My poor niece," she said, "is that your best frock?"
|
|
|
|
"Ah no," Pansy answered, "it's just a little toilette for common
|
|
occasions."
|
|
|
|
"Do you call it a common occasion when I come to see you?- to say
|
|
nothing of Madame Merle and the pretty lady yonder."
|
|
|
|
Pansy reflected a moment, turning gravely from one of the persons
|
|
mentioned to the other. Then her face broke into its perfect smile. "I
|
|
have a pretty dress, but even that one's very simple. Why should I
|
|
expose it beside your beautiful things?"
|
|
|
|
"Because it's the prettiest you have; for me you must always wear
|
|
the prettiest. Please put it on the next time. It seems to me they
|
|
don't dress you so well as they might."
|
|
|
|
The child sparingly stroked down her antiquated skirt. "It's a
|
|
good little dress to make tea- don't you think? Don't you believe papa
|
|
would allow me?"
|
|
|
|
"Impossible for me to say, my child," said the Countess. "For me,
|
|
your father's ideas are unfathomable. Madame Merle understands them
|
|
better. Ask her."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle smiled with her usual grace. "It's a weighty
|
|
question- let me think. It seems to me it would please your father
|
|
to see a careful little daughter making his tea. It's the proper
|
|
duty of the daughter of the house- when she grows up."
|
|
|
|
"So it seems to me, Madame Merle!" Pansy cried. "You shall see how
|
|
well I'll make it. A spoonful for each." And she began to busy herself
|
|
at the table.
|
|
|
|
"Two spoonfuls for me," said the Countess, who, with Madame Merle,
|
|
remained for some moments watching her. "Listen to me, Pansy," the
|
|
Countess resumed at last. "I should like to know what you think of
|
|
your visitor."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, she's not mine- she's papa's," Pansy objected.
|
|
|
|
"Miss Archer came to see you as well," said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"I'm very happy to hear that. She has been very polite to me."
|
|
|
|
"Do you like her then?" the Countess asked.
|
|
|
|
"She's charming- charming," Pansy repeated in her little neat
|
|
conversational tone. "She pleases me thoroughly."
|
|
|
|
"And how do you think she pleases your father?"
|
|
|
|
"Ah really, Countess!" murmured Madame Merle dissuasively. "Go and
|
|
call them to tea," she went on to the child.
|
|
|
|
"You'll see if they don't like it!" Pansy declared; and departed
|
|
to summon the others, who had still lingered at the end of the
|
|
terrace.
|
|
|
|
"If Miss Archer's to become her mother it's surely interesting to
|
|
know if the child likes her," said the Countess.
|
|
|
|
"If your brother marries again it won't be for Pansy's sake," Madame
|
|
Merle replied. "She'll soon be sixteen, and after that she'll begin to
|
|
need a husband rather than a stepmother."
|
|
|
|
"And will you provide the husband as well?"
|
|
|
|
"I shall certainly take an interest in her marrying fortunately. I
|
|
imagine you'll do the same."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed I shan't!" cried the Countess. "Why should I, of all
|
|
women, set such a price on a husband?"
|
|
|
|
"You didn't marry fortunately; that's what I'm speaking of. When I
|
|
say a husband I mean a good one."
|
|
|
|
"There are no good ones. Osmond won't be a good one."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle closed her eyes a moment. "You're irritated just now; I
|
|
don't know why," she presently said. "I don't think you'll really
|
|
object either to your brother's or to your niece's marrying when the
|
|
time comes for them to do so; and as regards Pansy I'm confident
|
|
that we shall some day have the pleasure of looking for a husband
|
|
for her together. Your large acquaintance will be a great help."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I'm irritated," the Countess answered. "You often irritate me.
|
|
Your own coolness is fabulous. You're a strange woman."
|
|
|
|
"It's much better that we should always act together," Madame
|
|
Merle went on.
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean that as a threat?" asked the Countess rising.
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle shook her head as for quiet amusement. "No indeed,
|
|
you've not my coolness!"
|
|
|
|
Isabel and Mr. Osmond were now slowly coming toward them and
|
|
Isabel had taken Pansy by the hand. "Do you pretend to believe he'd
|
|
make her happy?" the Countess demanded.
|
|
|
|
"If he should marry Miss Archer I suppose he'd behave like a
|
|
gentleman.
|
|
|
|
The Countess jerked herself into a succession of attitudes. "Do
|
|
you mean as most gentlemen behave? That would be much to be thankful
|
|
for! Of course Osmond's a gentleman; his own sister needn't be
|
|
reminded of that. But does he think he can marry any girl he happens
|
|
to pick out? Osmond's a gentleman, of course; but I must say I've
|
|
never, no, no, never, seen any one of Osmond's pretensions! What
|
|
they're all founded on is more than I can say. I'm his own sister; I
|
|
might be supposed to know. Who is he, if you please? What has he
|
|
ever done? If there had been anything particularly grand in his
|
|
origin- if he were made of some superior clay- I presume I should have
|
|
got some inkling of it. If there had been any great honours or
|
|
splendours in the family I should certainly have made the most of
|
|
them: they would have been quite in my line. But there's nothing,
|
|
nothing, nothing. One's parents were charming people of course; but so
|
|
were yours, I've no doubt. Every one's a charming person now-a-days.
|
|
Even I'm a charming person; don't laugh, it has literally been said.
|
|
As for Osmond, he has always appeared to believe that he's descended
|
|
from the gods."
|
|
|
|
"You may say what you please," said Madame Merle, who had listened
|
|
to this quick outbreak none the less attentively, we may believe,
|
|
because her eye wandered away from the speaker and her hands busied
|
|
themselves with adjusting the knots of ribbon on her dress. "You
|
|
Osmonds are a fine race- your blood must flow from some very pure
|
|
source. Your brother, like an intelligent man, has had the
|
|
conviction of it if he has not had the proofs. You're modest about it,
|
|
but you yourself are extremely distinguished. What do you say about
|
|
your niece? The child's a little princess. Nevertheless," Madame Merle
|
|
added, "it won't be an easy matter for Osmond to marry Miss Archer.
|
|
Yet he can try."
|
|
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"I hope she'll refuse him. It will take him down a little."
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"We mustn't forget that he is one of the cleverest of men."
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"I've heard you say that before, but I haven't yet discovered what
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he has done."
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"What he has done? He has done nothing that has had to be undone.
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And he has known how to wait."
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"To wait for Miss Archer's money? How much of it is there?"
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"That's not what I mean," said Madame Merle. "Miss Archer has
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seventy thousand pounds."
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"Well, it's a pity she's so charming," the Countess declared. "To be
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sacrificed, any girl would do. She needn't be superior."
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"If she weren't superior your brother would never look at her. He
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must have the best."
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"Yes," returned the Countess as they went forward a little to meet
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the others, "he's very hard to satisfy. That makes me tremble for
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her happiness!"
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CHAPTER 26
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Gilbert Osmond came to see Isabel again; that is he came to
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Palazzo Crescentini. He had other friends there as well, and to Mrs.
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Touchett and Madame Merle he was always impartially civil; but the
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former of these ladies noted the fact that in the course of a
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fortnight he called five times, and compared it with another fact that
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she found no difficulty in remembering. Two visits a year had hitherto
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constituted his regular tribute to Mrs. Touchett's worth, and she
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had never observed him select for such visits those moments, of almost
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periodical recurrence, when Madame Merle was under her roof. It was
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not for Madame Merle that he came; these two were old friends and he
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never put himself out for her. He was not fond of Ralph- Ralph had
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told her so- and it was not supposable that Mr. Osmond had suddenly
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taken a fancy to her son. Ralph was imperturbable- Ralph had a kind of
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loose-fitting urbanity that wrapped him about like an ill-made
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overcoat, but of which he never divested himself; he thought Mr.
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Osmond very good company and was willing at any time to look at him in
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the light of hospitality. But he didn't flatter himself that the
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desire to repair a past injustice was the motive of their visitor's
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calls; he read the situation more clearly. Isabel was the
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attraction, and in all conscience a sufficient one. Osmond was a
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critic, a student of the exquisite, and it was natural he should be
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curious of so rare an apparition. So when his mother observed to him
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that it was plain what Mr. Osmond was thinking of, Ralph replied
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that he was quite of her opinion. Mrs. Touchett had from far back
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found a place on her scant list for this gentleman, though wondering
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dimly by what art and what process- so negative and so wise as they
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were- he had everywhere effectively imposed himself. As he had never
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been an importunate visitor he had had no chance to be offensive,
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and he was recommended to her by his appearance of being as well
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able to do without her as she was to do without him- a quality that
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always, oddly enough, affected her as providing ground for a
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relation with her. It gave her no satisfaction, however, to think that
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he had taken it into his head to marry her niece. Such an alliance, on
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Isabel's part, would have an air of almost morbid perversity. Mrs.
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Touchett easily remembered that the girl had refused an English
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peer; and that a young lady with whom Lord Warburton had not
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successfully wrestled should content herself with an obscure
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American dilettante, a middle-aged widower with an uncanny child and
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an ambiguous income, this answered to nothing in Mrs. Touchett's
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conception of success. She took, it will be observed, not the
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sentimental, but the political, view of matrimony- a view which has
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always had much to recommend it. "I trust she won't have the folly
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to listen to him," she said to her son; to which Ralph replied that
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Isabel's listening was one thing and Isabel's answering quite another.
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He knew she had listened to several parties, as his father would
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have said, but had made them listen in return; and he found much
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entertainment in the idea that in these few months of his knowing
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her he should observe a fresh suitor at her gate. She had wanted to
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see life, and fortune was serving her to her taste; a succession of
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fine gentlemen going down on their knees to her would do as well as
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anything else. Ralph looked forward to a fourth, a fifth, a tenth
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besieger; he had no conviction she would stop at a third. She would
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keep the gate ajar and open a parley; she would certainly not allow
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number three to come in. He expressed this view, somewhat after this
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fashion, to his mother, who looked at him as if he had been dancing
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a jig. He had such a fanciful, pictorial way of saying things that
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he might as well address her in the deaf-mute's alphabet.
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"I don't think I know what you mean," she said; "you use too many
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figures of speech; I could never understand allegories. The two
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words in the language I most respect are Yes and No. If Isabel wants
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to marry Mr. Osmond she'll do so in spite of all your comparisons. Let
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her alone to find a fine one herself for anything she undertakes. I
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know very little about the young man in America; I don't think she
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spends much of her time in thinking of him, and I suspect he has got
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tired of waiting for her. There's nothing in life to prevent her
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marrying Mr. Osmond if she only looks at him in a certain way.
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That's all very well; no one approves more than I of one's pleasing
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one's self. But she takes her pleasure in such odd things; she's
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capable of marrying Mr. Osmond for the beauty of his opinions or for
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his autograph of Michael Angelo. She wants to be disinterested: as
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if she were the only person who's in danger of not being so! Will he
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be so disinterested when he has the spending of her money? That was
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her idea before your father's death, and it has acquired new charms
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for her since. She ought to marry some one of whose
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disinterestedness she shall herself be sure; and there would be no
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such proof of that as his having a fortune of his own."
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"My dear mother, I'm not afraid," Ralph answered. "She's making
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fools of us all. She'll please herself, of course; but she'll do so by
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studying human nature at close quarters and yet retaining her liberty.
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She has started on an exploring expedition, and I don't think she'll
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change her course, at the outset, at a signal from Gilbert Osmond. She
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may have slackened speed for an hour, but before we know it she'll
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be steaming away again. Excuse another metaphor."
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Mrs. Touchett excused it perhaps, but was not so much reassured as
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to withhold from Madame Merle the expression of her fears. "You who
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know everything," she said, "you must know this: whether that
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curious creature's really making love to my niece."
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"Gilbert Osmond?" Madame Merle widened her clear eyes and, with a
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full intelligence, "Heaven help us," she exclaimed, "that's an idea!"
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"Hadn't it occurred to you?"
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"You make me feel an idiot, but I confess it hadn't. I wonder,"
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she added, "if it has occurred to Isabel."
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"Oh, I shall now ask her," said Mrs. Touchett.
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Madame Merle reflected. "Don't put it into her head. The thing would
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be to ask Mr. Osmond."
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"I can't do that," said Mrs. Touchett. "I won't have him enquire
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of me- as he perfectly may with that air of his, given Isabel's
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situation- what business it is of mine."
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"I'll ask him myself," Madame Merle bravely declared.
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"But what business- for him- is it of yours?"
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"It's being none whatever is just why I can afford to speak. It's so
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much less my business than any one's else that he can put me off
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with anything he chooses. But it will be by the way he does this
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that I shall know."
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"Pray let me hear then," said Mrs. Touchett, "of the fruits of
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your penetration. If I can't speak to him, however, at least I can
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speak to Isabel."
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Her companion sounded at this the note of warning. "Don't be too
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quick with her. Don't inflame her imagination."
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"I never did anything in my life to any one's imagination. But I'm
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always sure of her doing something- well, not of my kind."
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"No, you wouldn't like this," Madame Merle observed without the
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point of interrogation.
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"Why in the world should I, pray? Mr. Osmond has nothing the least
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solid to offer."
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Again Madame Merle was silent while her thoughtful smile drew up her
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mouth even more charmingly than usual toward the left corner. "Let
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us distinguish. Gilbert Osmond's certainly not the first comer. He's a
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man who in favourable conditions might very well make a great
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impression. He has made a great impression, to my knowledge, more than
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once."
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"Don't tell me about his probably quite cold-blooded love-affairs;
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they're nothing to me!" Mrs. Touchett cried. "What you say's precisely
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why I wish he would cease his visits. He has nothing in the world that
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I know of but a dozen or two of early masters and a more or less
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pert little daughter."
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"The early masters are now worth a good deal of money," said
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Madame Merle, "and the daughter's a very young and very innocent and
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very harmless person."
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"In other words she's an insipid little chit. Is that what you mean?
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Having no fortune she can't hope to marry as they marry here; so
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that Isabel will have to furnish her either with a maintenance or with
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a dowry."
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"Isabel probably wouldn't object to being kind to her. I think she
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likes the poor child."
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"Another reason then for Mr. Osmond's stopping at home! Otherwise, a
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week hence, we shall have my niece arriving at the conviction that her
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mission in life's to prove that a stepmother may sacrifice herself-
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and that, to prove it, she must first become one."
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"She would make a charming stepmother," smiled Madame Merle; "but
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I quite agree with you that she had better not decide upon her mission
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too hastily. Changing the form of one's mission's almost as
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difficult as changing the shape of one's nose: there they are, each,
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in the middle of one's face and one's character- one has to begin
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too far back. But I'll investigate and report to you."
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All this went on quite over Isabel's head; she had no suspicions
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that her relations with Mr. Osmond were being discussed. Madame
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Merle had said nothing to put her on her guard; she alluded no more
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pointedly to him than to the other gentlemen of Florence, native and
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foreign, who now arrived in considerable numbers to pay their respects
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to Miss Archer's aunt. Isabel thought him interesting- she came back
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to that; she liked so to think of him. She had carried away an image
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from her visit to his hill-top which her subsequent knowledge of him
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did nothing to efface and which put on for her a particular harmony
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with other supposed and divined things, histories within histories:
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the image of a quiet, clever, sensitive, distinguished man,
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strolling on a moss-grown terrace above the sweet Val d'Arno and
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holding by the hand a little girl whose bell-like clearness gave a new
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grace to childhood. The picture had no flourishes, but she liked its
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lowness of tone and the atmosphere of summer twilight that pervaded
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it. It spoke of the kind of personal issue that touched her most
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nearly; of the choice between objects, subjects, contacts- what
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might she call them?- of a thin and those of a rich association; of
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a lonely, studious life in a lovely land; of an old sorrow that
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sometimes ached to-day; of a feeling of pride that was perhaps
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exaggerated, but that had an element of nobleness; of a care for
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beauty and perfection so natural and so cultivated together that the
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career appeared to stretch beneath it in the disposed vistas and
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with the ranges of steps and terraces and fountains of a formal
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Italian garden- allowing only for arid places freshened by the natural
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dews of a quaint half-anxious, half-helpless fatherhood. At Palazzo
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Crescentini Mr. Osmond's manner remained the same; diffident at first-
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oh self-conscious beyond doubt! and full of the effort (visible only
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|
to a sympathetic eye) to overcome this disadvantage; an effort which
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usually resulted in a great deal of easy, lively, very positive,
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rather aggressive, always suggestive talk. Mr. Osmond's talk was not
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injured by the indication of an eagerness to shine; Isabel found no
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difficulty in believing that a person was sincere who had so many of
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the signs of strong conviction- as for instance an explicit and
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graceful appreciation of anything that might be said on his own side
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of the question, said perhaps by Miss Archer in especial. What
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continued to please this young woman was that while he talked so for
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amusement he didn't talk, as she had heard people, for "effect." He
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uttered his ideas as if, odd as they often appeared, he were used to
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them and had lived with them; old polished knobs and heads and
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|
handles, of precious substance, that could be fitted if necessary to
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new walking-sticks- not switches plucked in destitution from the
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common tree and then too elegantly waved about. One day he brought his
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small daughter with him, and she rejoiced to renew acquaintance with
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the child, who, as she presented her forehead to be kissed by every
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|
member of the circle, reminded her vividly of an ingenue in a French
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|
play. Isabel had never seen a little person of this pattern;
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American girls were very different- different too were the maidens
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of England. Pansy was so formed and finished for her tiny place in the
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world, and yet in imagination, as one could see, so innocent and
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|
infantine. She sat on the sofa by Isabel; she wore a small grenadine
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mantle and a pair of the useful gloves that Madame Merle had given
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her- little grey gloves with a single button. She was like a sheet
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|
of blank paper- the ideal jeune fille of foreign fiction. Isabel hoped
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that so fair and smooth a page would be covered with an edifying text.
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The Countess Gemini also came to call upon her, but the Countess was
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|
quite another affair. She was by no means a blank sheet; she had
|
|
been written over in a variety of hands, and Mrs. Touchett, who felt
|
|
by no means honoured by her visit, pronounced that a number of
|
|
unmistakeable blots were to be seen upon her surface. The Countess
|
|
gave rise indeed to some discussion between the mistress of the
|
|
house and the visitor from Rome, in which Madame Merle (who was not
|
|
such a fool as to irritate people by always agreeing with them)
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|
availed herself felicitously enough of that large licence of dissent
|
|
which her hostess permitted as freely as she practised it. Mrs.
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|
Touchett had declared it a piece of audacity that this highly
|
|
compromised character should have presented herself at such a time
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|
of day at the door of a house in which she was esteemed so little as
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|
she must long have known herself to be at Palazzo Crescentini.
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Isabel had been made acquainted with the estimate prevailing under
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that roof: it represented Mr. Osmond's sister as a lady who had so
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|
mismanaged her improprieties that they had ceased to hang together
|
|
at all- which was at the least what one asked of such matters- and had
|
|
become the mere floating fragments of a wrecked renown, incommoding
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|
social circulation. She had been married by her mother- a more
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|
administrative person, with an appreciation of foreign titles which
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|
the daughter, to do her justice, had probably by this time thrown off-
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|
to Italian nobleman who had perhaps given her some excuse for
|
|
attempting to quench the consciousness of outrage. The Countess,
|
|
however, had consoled herself outrageously, and the list of her
|
|
excuses had now lost itself in the labyrinth of her adventures. Mrs.
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|
Touchett had never consented to receive her, though the Countess had
|
|
made overtures of old. Florence was not an austere city; but, as
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|
Mrs. Touchett said, she had to draw the line somewhere.
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Madame Merle defended the luckless lady with a great deal of zeal
|
|
and wit. She couldn't see why Mrs. Touchett should make a scapegoat of
|
|
a woman who had really done no harm, who had only done good in the
|
|
wrong way. One must certainly draw the line, but while one was about
|
|
it one should draw it straight: it was a very crooked chalk-mark
|
|
that would exclude the Countess Gemini. In that case Mrs. Touchett had
|
|
better shut up her house; this perhaps would be the best course so
|
|
long as she remained in Florence. One must be fair and not make
|
|
arbitrary differences: the Countess had doubtless been imprudent,
|
|
she had not been so clever as other women. She was a good creature,
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|
not clever at all; but since when had that been a ground of
|
|
exclusion from the best society? For ever so long now one had heard
|
|
nothing about her, and there could be no better proof of her having
|
|
renounced the error of her ways than her desire to become a member
|
|
of Mrs. Touchett's circle. Isabel could contribute nothing to this
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interesting dispute, not even a patient attention; she contented
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herself with having given a friendly welcome to the unfortunate
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|
lady, who, whatever her defects, had at least the merit of being Mr.
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Osmond's sister. As she liked the brother Isabel thought it proper
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|
to try and like the sister: in spite of the growing complexity of
|
|
things she was still capable of these primitive sequences. She had not
|
|
received the happiest impression of the Countess on meeting her at the
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|
villa, but was thankful for an opportunity to repair the accident. Had
|
|
not Mr. Osmond remarked that she was a respectable person? To have
|
|
proceeded from Gilbert Osmond this was a crude proposition, but Madame
|
|
Merle bestowed upon it a certain improving polish. She told Isabel
|
|
more about the poor Countess than Mr. Osmond had done, and related the
|
|
history of her marriage and its consequences. The Count was a member
|
|
of an ancient Tuscan family, but of such small estate that he had been
|
|
glad to accept Amy Osmond, in spite of the questionable beauty which
|
|
had yet not hampered her career, with the modest dowry her mother
|
|
was able to offer- a sum about equivalent to that which had already
|
|
formed her brother's share of their patrimony. Count Gemini since
|
|
then, however, had inherited money, and now they were well enough off,
|
|
as Italians went, though Amy was horribly extravagant. The Count was a
|
|
low-lived brute; he had given his wife every pretext. She had no
|
|
children; she had lost three within a year of their birth. Her mother,
|
|
who had bristled with pretensions to elegant learning and published
|
|
descriptive poems and corresponded on Italian subjects with the
|
|
English weekly journals, her mother had died three years after the
|
|
Countess's marriage, the father, lost in the grey American dawn of the
|
|
situation, but reputed originally rich and wild, having died much
|
|
earlier. One could see this in Gilbert Osmond, Madame Merle held-
|
|
see that he had been brought up by a woman; though, to do him justice,
|
|
one would suppose it had been by a more sensible woman than the
|
|
American Corinne, as Mrs. Osmond had liked to be called. She had
|
|
brought her children to Italy after her husband's death, and Mrs.
|
|
Touchett remembered her during the year that followed her arrival. She
|
|
thought her a horrible snob; but this was an irregularity of judgement
|
|
on Mrs. Touchett's part, for she, like Mrs. Osmond, approved of
|
|
political marriages. The Countess was very good company and not really
|
|
the featherhead she seemed; all one had to do with her was to
|
|
observe the simple condition of not believing a word she said.
|
|
Madame Merle had always made the best of her for her brother's sake;
|
|
he appreciated any kindness shown to Amy, because (if it had to be
|
|
confessed for him) he rather felt she let down their common name.
|
|
Naturally he couldn't like her style, her shrillness, her egotism, her
|
|
violations of taste and above all of truth: she acted badly on his
|
|
nerves, she was not his sort of woman. What was his sort of woman? Oh,
|
|
the very opposite of the Countess, a woman to whom the truth should be
|
|
habitually sacred. Isabel was unable to estimate the number of times
|
|
her visitor had, in half an hour, profaned it: the Countess indeed had
|
|
given her an impression of rather silly sincerity. She had talked
|
|
almost exclusively about herself; how much she should like to know
|
|
Miss Archer; how thankful she should be for a real friend; how base
|
|
the people in Florence were; how tired she was of the place; how
|
|
much she should like to live somewhere else- in Paris, in London, in
|
|
Washington; how impossible it was to get anything nice to wear in
|
|
Italy except a little old lace; how dear the world was growing
|
|
everywhere; what a life of suffering and privation she had led. Madame
|
|
Merle listened with interest to Isabel's account of this passage,
|
|
but she had not needed it to feel exempt from anxiety. On the whole
|
|
she was not afraid of the Countess, and she could afford to do what
|
|
was altogether best- not to appear so.
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|
|
|
Isabel had meanwhile another visitor, whom it was not, even behind
|
|
her back, so easy a matter to patronize. Henrietta Stackpole, who
|
|
had left Paris after Mrs. Touchett's departure for San Remo and had
|
|
worked her way down, as she said, through the cities of North Italy,
|
|
reached the banks of the Arno about the middle of May. Madame Merle
|
|
surveyed her with a single glance, took her in from head to foot,
|
|
and after a pang of despair determined to endure her. She determined
|
|
indeed to delight in her. She mightn't be inhaled as a rose, but she
|
|
might be grasped as a nettle. Madame Merle genially squeezed her
|
|
into insignificance, and Isabel felt that in foreseeing this
|
|
liberality she had done justice to her friend's intelligence.
|
|
Henrietta's arrival had been announced by Mr. Bantling, who, coming
|
|
down from Nice while she was at Venice, and expecting to find her in
|
|
Florence, which she had not yet reached, called at Palazzo Crescentini
|
|
to express his disappointment. Henrietta's own advent occurred two
|
|
days later and produced in Mr. Bantling an emotion amply accounted for
|
|
by the fact that he had not seen her since the termination of the
|
|
episode at Versailles. The humorous view of his situation was
|
|
generally taken, but it was uttered only by Ralph Touchett, who, in
|
|
the privacy of his own apartment, when Bantling smoked a cigar
|
|
there, indulged in goodness knew what strong comedy on the subject
|
|
of the all-judging one and her British backer. This gentleman took the
|
|
joke in perfectly good part and candidly confessed that he regarded
|
|
the affair as a positive intellectual adventure. He liked Miss
|
|
Stackpole extremely; he thought she had a wonderful head on her
|
|
shoulders, and found great comfort in the society of a woman who was
|
|
not perpetually thinking about what would be said and how what she
|
|
did, how what they did- and they had done things!- would look. Miss
|
|
Stackpole never cared how anything looked, and, if she didn't care,
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pray why should he? But his curiosity had been roused; he wanted
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awfully to see if she ever would care. He was prepared to go as far as
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she- he didn't see why he should break down first.
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Henrietta showed no signs of breaking down. Her prospects had
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brightened on her leaving England, and she was now in the full
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enjoyment of her copious resources. She had indeed been obliged to
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sacrifice her hopes with regard to the inner life; the social
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question, on the Continent, bristled with difficulties even more
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numerous than those she had encountered in England. But on the
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Continent there was the outer life, which was palpable and visible
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at every turn, and more easily convertible to literary uses than the
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customs of those opaque islanders. Out of doors in foreign lands, as
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she ingeniously remarked, one seemed to see the right side of the
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tapestry; out of doors in England one seemed to see the wrong side,
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which gave one no notion of the figure. The admission costs her
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historian a pang, but Henrietta, despairing of more occult things, was
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now paying much attention to the outer life. She had been studying
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it for two months at Venice, from which city she sent to the
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Interviewer a conscientious account of the gondolas, the Piazza, the
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Bridge of Sighs, the pigeons and the young boatman who chanted
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Tasso. The Interviewer was perhaps disappointed, but Henrietta was
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at least seeing Europe. Her present purpose was to get down to Rome
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before the malaria should come on- he apparently supposed that it
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began on a fixed day; and with this design she was to spend at present
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but few days in Florence. Mr. Bantling was to go with her to Rome, and
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she pointed out to Isabel that as he had been there before, as he
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was a military man and as he had had a classical education- he had
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been bred at Eton, where they study nothing but Latin and
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Whyte-Melville, said Miss Stackpole- he would be a most useful
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companion in the city of the Caesars. At this juncture Ralph had the
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happy idea of proposing to Isabel that she also, under his own escort,
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should make a pilgrimage to Rome. She expected to pass a portion of
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the next winter there- that was very well; but meantime there was no
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harm in surveying the field. There were ten days left of the beautiful
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month of May- the most precious month of all to the true Rome lover.
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Isabel would become a Rome-lover; that was a foregone conclusion.
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She was provided with a trusty companion of her own sex, whose
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society, thanks to the fact of other calls on this lady's attention,
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would probably not be oppressive. Madame Merle would remain with
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Mrs. Touchett; she had left Rome for the summer and wouldn't care to
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return. She professed herself delighted to be left at peace in
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Florence; she had locked up her apartment and sent her cook home to
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Palestrina. She urged Isabel, however, to assent to Ralph's
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proposal, and assured her that a good introduction to Rome was not a
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thing to be despised. Isabel in truth needed no urging, and the
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party of four arranged its little journey. Mrs. Touchett, on this
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occasion, had resigned herself to the absence of a duenna; we have
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seen that she now inclined to the belief that her niece should stand
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alone. One of Isabel's preparations consisted of her seeing Gilbert
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Osmond before she started and mentioning her intention to him.
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"I should like to be in Rome with you," he commented. "I should like
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to see you on that wonderful ground."
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She scarcely faltered. "You might come then."
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"But you'll have a lot of people with you."
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"Ah," Isabel admitted, "of course I shall not be alone."
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For a moment he said nothing more. "You'll like it," he went on at
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last. They've spoiled it, but you'll rave about it."
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"Ought I to dislike it because, poor old dear- the Niobe of Nations,
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you know- it has been spoiled?" she asked.
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"No, I think not. It has been spoiled so often," he smiled: "If I
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were to go, what should I do with my little girl?"
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"Can't you leave her at the villa?"
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"I don't know that I like that- though there's a very good old woman
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who looks after her. I can't afford a governess."
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"Bring her with you then," said Isabel promptly.
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Mr. Osmond looked grave. "She has been in Rome all winter, at her
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convent; and she's too young to make journeys of pleasure."
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"You don't like bringing her forward?" Isabel enquired.
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"No, I think young girls should be kept out of the world."
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"I was brought up on a different system."
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"You? Oh, with you it succeeded, because you- you were exceptional."
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"I don't see why," said Isabel, who, however, was not sure there was
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not some truth in the speech.
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Mr. Osmond didn't explain; he simply went on: "If I thought it would
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make her resemble you to join a social group in Rome I'd take her
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there tomorrow."
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"Don't make her resemble me," said Isabel. "Keep her like herself."
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"I might send her to my sister," Mr. Osmond observed. He had
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almost the air of asking advice; he seemed to like to talk over his
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domestic matters with Miss Archer.
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"Yes," she concurred; "I think that wouldn't do much towards
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making her resemble me!"
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After she had left Florence Gilbert Osmond met Madame Merle at the
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Countess Gemini's. There were other people present; the Countess's
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drawing-room was usually well filled, and the talk had been general,
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but after a while Osmond left his place and came and sat on an ottoman
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half-behind, half-beside Madame Merle's chair: "She wants me to go
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to Rome with her," he remarked in a low voice.
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"To go with her?"
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"To be there while she's there. She proposed it."
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"I suppose you mean that you proposed it and she assented."
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"Of course I gave her a chance. But she's encouraging- she's very
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encouraging."
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"I rejoice to hear it- but don't cry victory too soon. Of course
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you'll go to Rome."
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"Ah," said Osmond, "it makes one work, this idea of yours!"
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"Don't pretend you don't enjoy it- you're very ungrateful. You've
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not been so well occupied these many years."
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"The way you take it's beautiful," said Osmond. "I ought to be
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grateful for that."
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"Not too much so, however," Madame Merle answered. She talked with
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her usual smile, leaning back in her chair and looking round the room.
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"You've made a very good impression, and I've seen for myself that
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you've received one. You've not come to Mrs. Touchett's seven times to
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oblige me."
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"The girl's not disagreeable," Osmond quietly conceded.
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Madame Merle dropped her eye on him a moment, during which her
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lips closed with a certain firmness. "Is that all you can find to
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say about that fine creature?"
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"All? Isn't it enough? Of how many people have you heard me say
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more?"
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She made no answer to this, but still presented her talkative
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grace to the room. "You're unfathomable," she murmured at last. "I'm
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frightened at the abyss into which I shall have cast her."
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He took it almost gaily. "You can't draw back- you've gone too far."
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"Very good; but you must do the rest yourself."
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"I shall do it," said Gilbert Osmond.
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Madame Merle remained silent and he changed his place again; but
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when she rose to go he also took leave. Mrs. Touchett's victoria was
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|
awaiting her guest in the court, and after he had helped his friend
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into it he stood there detaining her. "You're very indiscreet," she
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|
said rather wearily; you shouldn't have moved when I did."
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He had taken off his hat; he passed his hand over his forehead. "I
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always forget; I'm out of the habit."
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"You're quite unfathomable," she repeated, glancing up at the
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windows of the house, a modern structure in the new part of the town.
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He paid no heed to this remark, but spoke in his own sense. "She's
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really very charming. I've scarcely known any one more graceful."
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"It does me good to hear you say that. The better you like her the
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better for me."
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"I like her very much. She's all you described her, and into the
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bargain capable, I feel, of great devotion. She has only one fault."
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"What's that?"
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"Too many ideas."
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"I warned you she was clever."
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"Fortunately they're very bad ones," said Osmond.
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"Why is that fortunate?"
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"Dame, if they must be sacrificed!"
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Madame Merle leaned back, looking straight before her; then she
|
|
spoke to the coachman. But her friend again detained her. "If I go
|
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to Rome what shall I do with Pansy?"
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"I'll go and see her," said Madame Merle.
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CHAPTER 27
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I may not attempt to report in its fulness our young woman's
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|
response to the deep appeal of Rome, to analyze her feelings as she
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|
trod the pavement of the Forum or to number her pulsations as she
|
|
crossed the threshold of Saint Peter's. It is enough to say that her
|
|
impression was such as might have been expected of a person of her
|
|
freshness and her eagerness. She had always been fond of history,
|
|
and here was history in the stones of the street and the atoms of
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|
the sunshine. She had an imagination that kindled at the mention of
|
|
great deeds, and wherever she turned some great deed had been acted.
|
|
These things strongly moved her, but moved her all inwardly. It seemed
|
|
to her companions that she talked less than usual, and Ralph Touchett,
|
|
when he appeared to be looking listlessly and awkwardly over her head,
|
|
was really dropping on her an intensity of observation. By her own
|
|
measure she was very happy; she would even have been willing to take
|
|
these hours for the happiest she was ever to know. The sense of the
|
|
terrible human past was heavy to her, but that of something altogether
|
|
contemporary would suddenly give it wings that it could wave in the
|
|
blue. Her consciousness was so mixed that she scarcely knew where
|
|
the different parts of it would lead her, and she went about in a
|
|
repressed ecstasy of contemplation, seeing often in the things she
|
|
looked at a great deal more than was there, and yet not seeing many of
|
|
the items enumerated in her Murray. Rome, as Ralph said, confessed
|
|
to the psychological moment. The herd of reechoing tourists had
|
|
departed and most of the solemn places had relapsed into solemnity.
|
|
The sky was a blaze of blue, and the plash of the fountains in their
|
|
mossy niches had lost its chill and doubled its music. On the
|
|
corners of the warm, bright streets one stumbled on bundles of
|
|
flowers. Our friends had gone one afternoon- it was the third of their
|
|
stay- to look at the latest excavations in the Forum, these labours
|
|
having been for some time previous largely extended. They had
|
|
descended from the modern street to the level of the Sacred Way, along
|
|
which they wandered with a reverence of step which was not the same on
|
|
the part of each. Henrietta Stackpole was struck with the fact that
|
|
ancient Rome had been paved a good deal like New York, and even
|
|
found an analogy between the deep chariot-ruts traceable in the
|
|
antique street and the over-jangled iron grooves which express the
|
|
intensity of American life. The sun had begun to sink, the air was a
|
|
golden haze, and the long shadows of broken column and vague
|
|
pedestal leaned across the field of ruin. Henrietta wandered away with
|
|
Mr. Bantling, whom it was apparently delightful to her to hear speak
|
|
of Julius Caesar as a "cheeky old boy," and Ralph addressed such
|
|
elucidations as he was prepared to offer to the attentive ear of our
|
|
heroine. One of the humble archaeologists who hover about the place
|
|
had put himself at the disposal of the two, and repeated his lesson
|
|
with a fluency which the decline of the season had done nothing to
|
|
impair. A process of digging was on view in a remote corner of the
|
|
Forum, and he presently remarked that if it should please the
|
|
signori to go and watch it a little they might see something of
|
|
interest. The proposal commended itself more to Ralph than to
|
|
Isabel, weary with much wandering; so that she admonished her
|
|
companion to satisfy his curiosity while she patiently awaited his
|
|
return. The hour and the place were much to her taste- she should
|
|
enjoy being briefly alone. Ralph accordingly went off with the
|
|
cicerone while Isabel sat down on a prostrate column near the
|
|
foundations of the Capitol. She wanted a short solitude, but she was
|
|
not long to enjoy it. Keen as was her interest in the rugged relics of
|
|
the Roman past that lay scattered about her and in which the corrosion
|
|
of centuries had still left so much of individual life, her
|
|
thoughts, after resting a while on these things, had wandered, by a
|
|
concatenation of stages it might require some subtlety to trace, to
|
|
regions and objects charged with a more active appeal. From the
|
|
Roman past to Isabel Archer's future was a long stride, but her
|
|
imagination had taken it in a single flight and now hovered in slow
|
|
circles over the nearer and richer field. She was so absorbed in her
|
|
thoughts, as she bent her eyes upon a row of cracked but not
|
|
dislocated slabs covering the ground at her feet, that she had not
|
|
heard the sound of approaching footsteps before a shadow was thrown
|
|
across the line of her vision. She looked up and saw a gentleman- a
|
|
gentleman who was not Ralph come back to say that the excavations were
|
|
a bore. This personage was startled as she was startled; he stood
|
|
there baring his head to her perceptibly pale surprise.
|
|
|
|
"Lord Warburton!" Isabel exclaimed as she rose.
|
|
|
|
"I had no idea it was you. I turned that corner and came upon you."
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|
|
|
She looked about her to explain. "I'm alone, but my companions
|
|
have just left me. My cousin's gone to look at the work over there."
|
|
|
|
"Ah yes; I see." And Lord Warburton's eyes wandered vaguely in the
|
|
direction she had indicated. He stood firmly before her now; he had
|
|
recovered his balance and seemed to wish to show it, though very
|
|
kindly. "Don't let me disturb you," he went on, looking at her
|
|
dejected pillar. "I'm afraid you're tired."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I'm rather tired." She hesitated a moment, but sat down again.
|
|
"Don't let me interrupt you," she added.
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|
|
|
"Oh dear, I'm quite alone, I've nothing on earth to do. I had no
|
|
idea you were in Rome. I've just come from the East. I'm only
|
|
passing through."
|
|
|
|
"You've been making a long journey," said Isabel, who had learned
|
|
from Ralph that Lord Warburton was absent from England.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I came abroad for six months- soon after I saw you last.
|
|
I've been in Turkey and Asia Minor; I came the other day from Athens."
|
|
He managed not to be awkward, but he wasn't easy, and after a longer
|
|
look at the girl he came down to nature. "Do you wish me to leave you,
|
|
or will you let me stay a little?"
|
|
|
|
She took it all humanely. "I don't wish you to leave me, Lord
|
|
Warburton; I'm very glad to see you."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you for saying that. May I sit down?"
|
|
|
|
The fluted shaft on which she had taken her seat would have afforded
|
|
a resting-place to several persons, and there was plenty of room
|
|
even for a highly-developed Englishman. This fine specimen of that
|
|
great class seated himself near our young lady, and in the course of
|
|
five minutes he had asked her several questions, taken rather at
|
|
random and to which, as he put some of them twice over, he
|
|
apparently somewhat missed catching the answer; had given her too some
|
|
information about himself which was not wasted upon her calmer
|
|
feminine sense. He repeated more than once that he had not expected to
|
|
meet her, and it was evident that the encounter touched him in a way
|
|
that would have made preparation advisable. He began abruptly to
|
|
pass from the impunity of things to their solemnity, and from their
|
|
being delightful to their being impossible. He was splendidly
|
|
sunburnt; even his multitudinous beard had been burnished by the
|
|
fire of Asia. He was dressed in the loose-fitting, heterogeneous
|
|
garments in which the English traveller in foreign lands is wont to
|
|
consult his comfort and affirm his nationality; and with his
|
|
pleasant steady eyes, his bronzed complexion, fresh beneath its
|
|
seasoning, his manly figure, his minimizing manner and his general air
|
|
of being a gentleman and an explorer, he was such a representative
|
|
of the British race as need not in any clime have been disavowed by
|
|
those who have a kindness for it. Isabel noted these things and was
|
|
glad she had always liked him. He had kept, evidently in spite of
|
|
shocks, every one of his merits- these properties partaking of the
|
|
essence of great decent houses, as one might put it; resembling
|
|
their innermost fixtures and ornaments, not subject to vulgar shifting
|
|
and removable only by some whole break-up. They talked of the
|
|
matters naturally in order; her uncle's death, Ralph's state of
|
|
health, the way she had passed her winter, her visit to Rome, her
|
|
return to Florence, her plans for the summer, the hotel she was
|
|
staying at; and then of Lord Warburton's own adventures, movements,
|
|
intentions, impressions and present domicile. At last there was a
|
|
silence, and it said so much more than either had said that it
|
|
scarce needed his final words. "I've written to you several times."
|
|
|
|
"Written to me? I've never had your letters."
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|
|
|
"I never sent them. I burned them up."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," laughed Isabel, "it was better that you should do that than
|
|
I!"
|
|
|
|
"I thought you wouldn't care for them," he went on with a simplicity
|
|
that touched her. "It seemed to me that after all I had no right to
|
|
trouble you with letters."
|
|
|
|
"I should have been very glad to have news of you. You know how I
|
|
hoped that- that-" But she stopped; there would be such a flatness
|
|
in the utterance of her thought.
|
|
|
|
"I know what you're going to say. You hoped we should always
|
|
remain good friends." This formula, as Lord Warburton uttered it,
|
|
was certainly flat enough; but then he was interested in making it
|
|
appear so.
|
|
|
|
She found herself reduced simply to "Please don't talk of all that";
|
|
a speech which hardly struck her as improvement on the other.
|
|
|
|
"It's a small consolation to allow me!" her companion exclaimed with
|
|
force.
|
|
|
|
"I can't pretend to console you," said the girl, who, all still as
|
|
she sat there, threw herself back with a sort of inward triumph on the
|
|
answer that had satisfied him so little six months before. He was
|
|
pleasant, he was powerful, he was gallant; there was no better man
|
|
than he. But her answer remained.
|
|
|
|
"It's very well you don't try to console me; it wouldn't be in
|
|
your power," she heard him say through the medium of her strange
|
|
elation.
|
|
|
|
"I hoped we should meet again, because I had no fear you would
|
|
attempt to make me feel I had wronged you. But when you do that- the
|
|
pain's greater than the pleasure." And she got up with a small
|
|
conscious majesty, looking for her companions.
|
|
|
|
"I don't want to make you feel that; of course I can't say that. I
|
|
only just want you to know one or two things- in fairness to myself,
|
|
as it were. I won't return to the subject again. I felt very
|
|
strongly what I expressed to you last year; I couldn't think of
|
|
anything else. I tried to forget- energetically, systematically. I
|
|
tried to take an interest in somebody else. I tell you this because
|
|
I want you to know I did my duty. I didn't succeed. It was for the
|
|
same purpose I went abroad- as far away as possible. They say
|
|
travelling distracts the mind, but it didn't distract mine. I've
|
|
thought of you perpetually, ever since I last saw you. I'm exactly the
|
|
same. I love you just as much, and everything I said to you then is
|
|
just as true. This instant at which I speak to you shows me again
|
|
exactly how, to my great misfortune, you just insuperably charm me.
|
|
There- I can't say less. I don't mean, however, to insist; it's only
|
|
for a moment. I may add that when I came upon you a few minutes since,
|
|
without the smallest idea of seeing you, I was, upon my honour, in the
|
|
very act of wishing I knew where you were." He had recovered his
|
|
self-control, and while he spoke it became complete. He might have
|
|
been addressing a small committee- making all quietly and clearly a
|
|
statement of importance; aided by an occasional look at a paper of
|
|
notes concealed in his hat, which he had not again put on. And the
|
|
committee, assuredly, would have felt the point proved.
|
|
|
|
"I've often thought of you, Lord Warburton," Isabel answered. "You
|
|
may be sure I shall always do that." And she added in a tone of
|
|
which she tried to keep up the kindness and keep down the meaning:
|
|
"There's no harm in that on either side."
|
|
|
|
They walked along together, and she was prompt to ask about his
|
|
sisters and request him to let them know she had done so. He made
|
|
for the moment no further reference to their great question, but
|
|
dipped again into shallower and safer waters. But he wished to know
|
|
when she was to leave Rome, and on her mentioning the limit of her
|
|
stay declared he was glad it was still so distant.
|
|
|
|
"Why do you say that if you yourself are only passing through?"
|
|
she enquired with some anxiety.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, when I said I was passing through I didn't mean that one
|
|
would treat Rome as if it were Clapham Junction. To pass through
|
|
Rome is to stop a week or two."
|
|
|
|
"Say frankly that you mean to stay as long as I do!"
|
|
|
|
His flushed smile, for a little, seemed to sound her. "You won't
|
|
like that. You're afraid you'll see too much of me."
|
|
|
|
"It doesn't matter what I like. I certainly can't expect you to
|
|
leave this delightful place on my account. But I confess I'm afraid of
|
|
you."
|
|
|
|
"Afraid I'll begin again? I promise to be very careful."
|
|
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They had gradually stopped and they stood a moment face to face.
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"Poor Lord Warburton!" she said with a compassion intended to be
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good for both of them.
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"Poor Lord Warburton indeed! But I'll be careful."
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"You may be unhappy, but you shall not make me so. That I can't
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allow."
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"If I believed I could make you unhappy I think I should try it." At
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this she walked in advance and he also proceeded. "I'll never say a
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word to displease you."
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"Very good. If you do, our friendship's at an end."
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"Perhaps some day- after a while- you'll give me leave."
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"Give you leave to make me unhappy?"
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He hesitated. "To tell you again-" But he checked himself. "I'll
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keep it down. I'll keep it down always."
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Ralph Touchett had been joined in his visit to the excavation by
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Miss Stackpole and her attendant, and these three now emerged from
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among the mounds of earth and stone collected round the aperture and
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came into sight of Isabel and her companion. Poor Ralph hailed his
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friend with joy qualified by wonder, and Henrietta exclaimed in a high
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voice "Gracious, there's that lord!" Ralph and his English neighbour
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greeted with the austerity with which, after long separation,
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English neighbours greet, and Miss Stackpole rested her large
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intellectual gaze upon the sunburnt traveller. But she soon
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established her relation to the crisis. "I don't suppose you
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remember me, sir."
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"Indeed I do remember you," said Lord Warburton. "I asked you to
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come and see me, and you never came."
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"I don't go everywhere I'm asked," Miss Stackpole answered coldly.
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"Ah well, I won't ask you again," laughed the master of Lockleigh.
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"If you do I'll go; so be sure!"
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Lord Warburton, for all his hilarity, seemed sure enough. Mr.
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Bantling had stood by without claiming a recognition, but he now
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took occasion to nod to his lordship, who answered him with a friendly
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"Oh, you here, Bantling?" and a hand-shake.
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"Well," said Henrietta, "I didn't know you knew him!"
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"I guess you don't know every one I know," Mr. Bantling rejoined
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facetiously.
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"I thought that when an Englishman knew a lord he always told you."
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"Ah, I'm afraid Bantling was ashamed of me," Lord Warburton
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laughed again. Isabel took pleasure in that note; she gave a small
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sigh of relief as they kept their course homeward.
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The next day was Sunday; she spent her morning over two long
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letters- one to her sister Lily, the other to Madame Merle; but in
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neither of these epistles did she mention the fact that a rejected
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suitor had threatened her with another appeal. Of a Sunday afternoon
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all good Romans (and the best Romans are often the northern
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barbarians) follow the custom of going to vespers at Saint Peter's;
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and it had been agreed among our friends that they would drive
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together to the great church. After lunch, an hour before the carriage
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came, Lord Warburton presented himself at the Hotel de Paris and
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paid a visit to the two ladies, Ralph Touchett and Mr. Bantling having
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gone out together. The visitor seemed to have wished to give Isabel
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a proof of his intention to keep the promise made her the evening
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before; he was both discreet and frank- not even dumbly importunate or
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remotely intense. He thus left her to judge what a mere good friend he
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could be. He talked about his travels, about Persia, about Turkey, and
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when Miss Stackpole asked him whether it would "pay" for her to
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visit those countries assured her they offered a great field to female
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enterprise. Isabel did him justice, but she wondered what his
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purpose was and what he expected to gain even by proving the
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superior strain of his sincerity. If he expected to melt her by
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showing what a good fellow he was, he might spare himself the trouble.
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She knew the superior strain of everything about him, and nothing he
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could now do was required to light the view. Moreover his being in
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Rome at all affected her as a complication of the wrong sort- she
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liked so complications of the right. Nevertheless, when, on bringing
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his call to a close, he said he too should be at Saint Peter's and
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should look out for her and her friends, she was obliged to reply that
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he must follow his convenience.
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In the church, as she strolled over its tesselated acres, he was the
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first person she encountered. She had not been one of the superior
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tourists who are "disappointed" in Saint Peter's and find it smaller
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than its fame; the first time she passed beneath the huge leathern
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curtain that strains and bangs at the entrance, the first time she
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found herself beneath the far-arching dome and saw the light drizzle
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down through the air thickened with incense and with the reflections
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of marble and gilt, of mosaic and bronze, her conception of
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greatness rose and dizzily rose. After this it never lacked space to
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soar. She gazed and wondered like a child or a peasant, she paid her
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silent tribute to the seated sublime. Lord Warburton walked beside her
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and talked of Saint Sophia of Constantinople; she feared for
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instance that he would end by calling attention to his exemplary
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conduct. The service had not yet begun, but at Saint Peter's there
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|
is much to observe, and as there is something almost profane in the
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vastness of the place, which seems meant as much for physical as for
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spiritual exercise, the different figures and groups, the mingled
|
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worshippers and spectators, may follow their various intentions
|
|
without conflict or scandal. In that splendid immensity individual
|
|
indiscretion carries but a short distance. Isabel and her
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|
companions, however, were guilty of none; for though Henrietta was
|
|
obliged in candour to declare that Michael Angelo's dome suffered by
|
|
comparison with that of the Capitol at Washington, she addressed her
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|
protest chiefly to Mr. Bantling's ear and reserved it in its more
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|
accentuated form for the columns of the Interviewer. Isabel made the
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|
circuit of the church with his lordship, and as they drew near the
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choir on the left of the entrance the voices of the Pope's singers
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|
were borne to them over the heads of the large number of persons
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clustered outside the doors. They paused a while on the skirts of this
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|
crowd, composed in equal measure of Roman cockneys and inquisitive
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|
strangers, and while they stood there the sacred concert went forward.
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|
Ralph, with Henrietta and Mr. Bantling, was apparently within, where
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Isabel, looking behind the dense group in front of her, saw the
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afternoon light, silvered by clouds of incense that seemed to mingle
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|
with the splendid chant, slope through the embossed recesses of high
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|
windows. After a while the singing stopped and then Lord Warburton
|
|
seemed disposed to move off with her. Isabel could only accompany him;
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|
whereupon she found herself confronted with Gilbert Osmond, who
|
|
appeared to have been standing at a short distance behind her. He
|
|
now approached with all the forms- he appeared to have multiplied them
|
|
on this occasion to suit the place.
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"So you decided to come?" she said as she put out her hand.
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"Yes, I came last night and called this afternoon at your hotel.
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They told me you had come here, and I looked about for you."
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"The others are inside," she decided to say.
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"I didn't come for the others," he promptly returned.
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She looked away; Lord Warburton was watching them; perhaps he had
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|
heard this. Suddenly she remembered it to be just what he had said
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|
to her the morning he came to Gardencourt to ask her to marry him. Mr.
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Osmond's words had brought the colour to her cheek, and this
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|
reminiscence had not the effect of dispelling it. She repaired any
|
|
betrayal by mentioning to each companion the name of the other, and
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|
fortunately at this moment Mr. Bantling emerged from the choir,
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|
cleaving the crowd with British valour and followed by Miss
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|
Stackpole and Ralph Touchett. I say fortunately, because this is
|
|
perhaps a superficial view of the matter; since on perceiving the
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|
gentleman from Florence Ralph Touchett appeared to take the case as
|
|
not committing him to joy. He didn't hang back, however, from
|
|
civility, and presently observed to Isabel, with due benevolence, that
|
|
she would soon have all her friends about her. Miss Stackpole had
|
|
met Mr. Osmond in Florence, but she had already found occasion to
|
|
say to Isabel that she liked him no better than her other admirers-
|
|
than Mr. Touchett and Lord Warburton, and even than little Mr.
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|
Rosier in Paris. "I don't know what it's in you," she had been pleased
|
|
to remark, "but for a nice-girl you do attract the most unnatural
|
|
people. Mr. Goodwood's the only one I've any respect for, and he's
|
|
just the one you don't appreciate."
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|
"What's your opinion of Saint Peter's?" Mr. Osmond was meanwhile
|
|
enquiring of our young lady.
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"It's very large and very bright," she contented herself with
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|
replying.
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"It's too large; it makes one feel like an atom."
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"Isn't that the right way to feel in the greatest of human temples?"
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|
she asked with rather a liking for her phrase.
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"I suppose it's the right way to feel everywhere, when one is
|
|
nobody. But I like it in a church as little as anywhere else."
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|
"You ought indeed to be a Pope!" Isabel exclaimed, remembering
|
|
something he had referred to in Florence.
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"Ah, I should have enjoyed that!" said Gilbert Osmond.
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|
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|
Lord Warburton meanwhile had joined Ralph Touchett, and the two
|
|
strolled away together. "Who's the fellow speaking to Miss Archer?"
|
|
his lordship demanded.
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|
"His name's Gilbert Osmond- he lives in Florence," Ralph said.
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|
"What is he besides?"
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"Nothing at all. Oh yes, he's an American; but one forgets that-
|
|
he's so little of one."
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|
|
"Has he known Miss Archer long?"
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|
"Three or four weeks."
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|
"Does she like him?"
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|
"She's trying to find out."
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"And will she?"
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|
"Find out-?" Ralph asked.
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|
"Will she like him?"
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|
|
"Do you mean will she accept him?"
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|
"Yes," said Lord Warburton after an instant; "I suppose that's
|
|
what I horribly mean."
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|
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|
"Perhaps not if one does nothing to prevent it," Ralph replied.
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|
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|
His lordship stared a moment, but apprehended. "Then we must be
|
|
perfectly quiet?"
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|
|
|
"As quiet as the grave. And only on the chance!" Ralph added.
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|
|
|
"The chance she may?"
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|
|
|
"The chance she may not?"
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|
|
|
Lord Warburton took this at first in silence, but he spoke again.
|
|
"Is he awfully clever?"
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|
"Awfully," said Ralph.
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|
|
His companion thought. "And what else?"
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|
|
|
"What more do you want?" Ralph groaned.
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean what more does she?"
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|
|
|
Ralph took him by the arm to turn him: they had to rejoin the
|
|
others. "She wants nothing that we can give her."
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|
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|
"Ah well, if she won't have You-!" said his lordship handsomely as
|
|
they went.
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|
CHAPTER 28
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|
On the morrow, in the evening, Lord Warburton went again to see
|
|
his friends at their hotel, and at this establishment he learned
|
|
that they had gone to the opera. He drove to the opera with the idea
|
|
of paying them a visit in their box after the easy Italian fashion;
|
|
and when he had obtained his admittance- it was one of the secondary
|
|
theatres- looked about the large, bare, ill-lighted house. An act
|
|
had just terminated and he was at liberty to pursue his quest. After
|
|
scanning two or three tiers of boxes he perceived in one of the
|
|
largest of these receptacles a lady whom he easily recognized. Miss
|
|
Archer was seated facing the stage and partly screened by the
|
|
curtain of the box; and beside her, leaning back in his chair, was Mr.
|
|
Gilbert Osmond. They appeared to have the place to themselves, and
|
|
Warburton supposed their companions had taken advantage of the
|
|
recess to enjoy the relative coolness of the lobby. He stood a while
|
|
with his eyes on the interesting pair; he asked himself if he should
|
|
go up and interrupt the harmony. At last he judged that Isabel had
|
|
seen him, and this accident determined him. There should be no
|
|
marked holding off. He took his way to the upper regions and on the
|
|
staircase met Ralph Touchett slowly descending, his hat at the
|
|
inclination of ennui and his hands where they usually were.
|
|
|
|
"I saw you below a moment since and was going down to you. I feel
|
|
lonely and want company," was Ralph's greeting.
|
|
|
|
"You've some that's very good which you've yet deserted."
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean my cousin? Oh, she has a visitor and doesn't want me.
|
|
Then Miss Stackpole and Bantling have gone out to a cafe to eat an
|
|
ice- Miss Stackpole delights in an ice. I didn't think they wanted
|
|
me either. The opera's very bad; the women look like laundresses and
|
|
sing like peacocks. I feel very low."
|
|
|
|
"You had better go home," Lord Warburton said without affectation.
|
|
|
|
"And leave my young lady in this sad place? Ah no, I must watch over
|
|
her."
|
|
|
|
"She seems to have plenty of friends."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, that's why I must watch," said Ralph with the same large
|
|
mock-melancholy.
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|
|
|
"If she doesn't want you it's probable she doesn't want me."
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|
|
|
"No, you're different. Go to the box and stay there while I walk
|
|
about."
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton went to the box, where Isabel's welcome was as to a
|
|
friend so honourably old that he vaguely asked himself what queer
|
|
temporal province she was annexing. He exchanged greetings with Mr.
|
|
Osmond, to whom he had been introduced the day before and who, after
|
|
he came in, sat blandly apart and silent, as if repudiating competence
|
|
in the subjects of allusion now probable. It struck her second visitor
|
|
that Miss Archer had, in operatic conditions, a radiance, even a
|
|
slight exaltation; as she was, however, at all times a
|
|
keenly-glancing, quickly-moving, completely animated young woman, he
|
|
may have been mistaken on this point. Her talk with him moreover
|
|
pointed to presence of mind; it expressed a kindness so ingenious
|
|
and deliberate as to indicate that she was in undisturbed possession
|
|
of her faculties. Poor Lord Warburton had moments of bewilderment. She
|
|
had discouraged him, formally, as much as a woman could; what business
|
|
had she then with such arts and such felicities, above all with such
|
|
tones of reparation- preparation? Her voice had tricks of sweetness,
|
|
but why play them on him? The others came back; the bare, familiar,
|
|
trivial opera began again. The box was large, and there was room for
|
|
him to remain if he would sit a little behind and in the dark. He
|
|
did so for half an hour, while Mr. Osmond remained in front, leaning
|
|
forward, his elbows on his knees, just behind Isabel. Lord Warburton
|
|
heard nothing, and from his gloomy corner saw nothing but the clear
|
|
profile of this young lady defined against the dim illumination of the
|
|
house. When there was another interval no one moved. Mr. Osmond talked
|
|
to Isabel, and Lord Warburton kept his corner. He did so but for a
|
|
short time, however; after which he got up and bade good-night to
|
|
the ladies. Isabel said nothing to detain him, but it didn't prevent
|
|
his being puzzled again. Why should she mark so one of his values-
|
|
quite the wrong one- when she would have nothing to do with another,
|
|
which was quite the right? He was angry with himself for being
|
|
puzzled, and then angry for being angry. Verdi's music did little to
|
|
comfort him, and he left the theatre and walked homeward, without
|
|
knowing his way, through the tortuous, tragic streets of Rome, where
|
|
heavier sorrows than his had been carried under the stars.
|
|
|
|
"What's the character of that gentleman?" Osmond asked of Isabel
|
|
after he had retired.
|
|
|
|
"Irreproachable- don't you see it?"
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|
|
|
"He owns about half England; that's his character," Henrietta
|
|
remarked. "That's what they call a free country!"
|
|
|
|
"Ah, he's a great proprietor? Happy man!" said Gilbert Osmond.
|
|
|
|
"Do you call that happiness- the ownership of wretched human
|
|
beings?" cried Miss Stackpole. "He owns his tenants and has
|
|
thousands of them. It's pleasant to own something, but inanimate
|
|
objects are enough for me. I don't insist on flesh and blood and minds
|
|
and consciences."
|
|
|
|
"It seems to me you own a human being or two," Mr. Bantling
|
|
suggested jocosely. "I wonder if Warburton orders his tenants about as
|
|
you do me."
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|
|
|
"Lord Warburton's a great radical," Isabel said. "He has very
|
|
advanced opinions."
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|
|
|
"He has very advanced stone walls. His park's enclosed by a gigantic
|
|
iron fence, some thirty miles round," Henrietta announced for the
|
|
information of Mr. Osmond. "I should like him to converse with a few
|
|
of our Boston radicals."
|
|
|
|
"Don't they approve of iron fences?" asked Mr. Bantling.
|
|
|
|
"Only to shut up wicked conservatives. I always feel as if I were
|
|
talking to you over something with a neat top-finish of broken glass."
|
|
|
|
"Do you know him well, this unreformed reformer?" Osmond went on,
|
|
questioning Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"Well enough for all the use I have for him."
|
|
|
|
"And how much of a use is that?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, I like to like him."
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|
|
|
"'Liking to like'- why, it makes a passion!" said Osmond.
|
|
|
|
"No"- she considered- "keep that for liking to dislike."
|
|
|
|
"Do you wish to provoke me then," Osmond laughed, "to a passion
|
|
for him?"
|
|
|
|
She said nothing for a moment, but then met the light question
|
|
with a disproportionate gravity. "No, Mr. Osmond; I don't think I
|
|
should ever dare to provoke you. Lord Warburton, at any rate," she
|
|
more easily added, "is a very nice man."
|
|
|
|
"Of great ability?" her friend enquired.
|
|
|
|
"Of excellent ability, and as good as he looks."
|
|
|
|
"As good as he's good-looking do you mean? He's very good-looking.
|
|
How detestably fortunate!- to be a great English magnate, to be clever
|
|
and handsome into the bargain, and, by way of finishing off, to
|
|
enjoy your high favour! That's a man I could envy."
|
|
|
|
Isabel considered him with interest. "You seem to me to be always
|
|
envying some one. Yesterday it was the Pope; today it's poor Lord
|
|
Warburton."
|
|
|
|
"My envy's not dangerous; it wouldn't hurt a mouse. I don't want
|
|
to destroy the people- I only want to be them. You see it would
|
|
destroy only myself."
|
|
|
|
"You'd like to be the Pope?" said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"I should love it- but I should have gone in for it earlier. But
|
|
why"- Osmond reverted- "do you speak of your friend as poor?"
|
|
|
|
"Women- when they are very, very good- sometimes pity men after
|
|
they've hurt them; that's their great way of showing kindness," said
|
|
Ralph, joining in the conversation for the first time and with a
|
|
cynicism so transparently ingenious as to be virtually innocent.
|
|
|
|
"Pray, have I hurt Lord Warburton?" Isabel asked, raising her
|
|
eyebrows as if the idea were perfectly fresh.
|
|
|
|
"It serves him right if you have," said Henrietta while the
|
|
curtain rose for the ballet.
|
|
|
|
Isabel saw no more of her attributive victim for the next
|
|
twenty-four hours, but on the second day after the visit to the
|
|
opera she encountered him in the gallery of the Capitol, where he
|
|
stood before the lion of the collection, the statue of the Dying
|
|
Gladiator. She had come in with her companions, among whom, on this
|
|
occasion again, Gilbert Osmond had his place, and the party, having
|
|
ascended the staircase, entered the first and finest of the rooms.
|
|
Lord Warburton addressed her alertly enough, but said in a moment that
|
|
he was leaving the gallery. "And I'm leaving Rome," he added. "I
|
|
must bid you good-bye." Isabel, inconsequently enough, was now sorry
|
|
to hear it. This was perhaps because she had ceased to be afraid of
|
|
his renewing his suit; she was thinking of something else. She was
|
|
on the point of naming her regret, but she checked herself and
|
|
simply wished him a happy journey; which made him look at her rather
|
|
unlightedly. "I'm afraid you'll think me very 'volatile.' I told you
|
|
the other day I wanted so much to stop."
|
|
|
|
"Oh no; you could easily change your mind."
|
|
|
|
"That's what I have done."
|
|
|
|
"Bon voyage then."
|
|
|
|
"You're in a great hurry to get rid of me," said his lordship
|
|
quite dismally.
|
|
|
|
"Not in the least. But I hate partings."
|
|
|
|
"You don't care what I do," he went on pitifully.
|
|
|
|
Isabel looked at him a moment. "Ah," she said, "you're not keeping
|
|
your promise!"
|
|
|
|
He coloured like a boy of fifteen. "If I'm not, then it's because
|
|
I can't; and that's why I'm going."
|
|
|
|
"Good-bye then."
|
|
|
|
"Good-bye." He lingered still, however. "When shall I see you
|
|
again?"
|
|
|
|
Isabel hesitated, but soon, as if she had had a happy inspiration:
|
|
"Some day after you're married."
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|
|
|
"That will never be. It will be after you are."
|
|
|
|
"That will do as well," she smiled.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, quite as well. Good-bye."
|
|
|
|
They shook hands, and he left her alone in the glorious room,
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among the shining antique marbles. She sat down in the centre of the
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circle of these presences, regarding them vaguely, resting her eyes on
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their beautiful blank faces; listening, as it were, to their eternal
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silence. It is impossible, in Rome at least, to look long at a great
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company of Greek sculptures without feeling the effect of their
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noble quietude; which, as with a high door closed for the ceremony,
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slowly drops on the spirit the large white mantle of peace. I say in
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Rome especially, because the Roman air is an exquisite medium for such
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impressions. The golden sunshine mingles with them, the deep stillness
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of the past, so vivid yet, though it is nothing but a void full of
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names, seems to throw a solemn spell upon them. The blinds were partly
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closed in the windows of the Capitol, and a clear, warm shadow
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rested on the figures and made them more mildly human. Isabel sat
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there a long time, under the charm of their motionless grace,
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wondering to what, of their experience, their absent eyes were open,
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and how, to our ears, their alien lips would sound. The dark red walls
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of the room threw them into relief; the polished marble floor
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reflected their beauty. She had seen them all before, but her
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enjoyment repeated itself, and it was all the greater because she
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was glad again, for the time, to be alone. At last, however, her
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attention lapsed, drawn off by a deeper tide of life. An occasional
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tourist came in, stopped and stared a moment at the Dying Gladiator,
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and then passed out of the other door, creaking over the smooth
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pavement. At the end of half an hour Gilbert Osmond reappeared,
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apparently in advance of his companions. He strolled toward her
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slowly, with his hands behind him and his usual enquiring, yet not
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quite appealing smile. "I'm surprised to find you alone, I thought you
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had company."
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"So I have- the best." And she glanced at the Antinous and the Faun.
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"Do you call them better company than an English peer?"
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"Ah, my English peer left me some time ago." She got up, speaking
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with intention a little dryly.
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Mr. Osmond noted her dryness, which contributed for him to the
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interest of his question. "I'm afraid that what I heard the other
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evening is true: you're rather cruel to that nobleman."
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Isabel looked a moment at the vanquished Gladiator. "It's not
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true. I'm scrupulously kind."
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"That's exactly what I mean!" Gilbert Osmond returned, and with such
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happy hilarity that his joke needs to be explained. We know that he
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was fond of originals, of rarities, of the superior and the exquisite;
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and now that he had seen Lord Warburton, whom he thought a very fine
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example of his race and order, he perceived a new attraction in the
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idea of taking to himself a young lady who had qualified herself to
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figure in his collection of choice objects by declining so noble a
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hand. Gilbert Osmond had a high appreciation of this particular
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patriciate; not so much for its distinction, which he thought easily
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surpassable, as for its solid actuality. He had never forgiven his
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star for not appointing him to an English dukedom, and he could
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measure the unexpectedness of such conduct as Isabel's. It would be
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proper that the woman he might marry should have done something of
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that sort.
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CHAPTER 29
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Ralph Touchett, in talk with his excellent friend, had rather
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markedly qualified, as we know, his recognition of Gilbert Osmond's
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personal merits; but he might really have felt himself illiberal in
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the light of that gentleman's conduct during the rest of the visit
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to Rome. Osmond spent a portion of each day with Isabel and her
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companions, and ended by affecting them as the easiest of men to
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live with. Who wouldn't have seen that he could command, as it were,
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both tact and gaiety?- which perhaps was exactly why Ralph had made
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his old-time look of superficial sociability a reproach to him. Even
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Isabel's invidious kinsman was obliged to admit that he was just now a
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delightful associate. His good-humour was imperturbable, his knowledge
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of the right fact, his production of the right word, as convenient
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as the friendly flicker of a match for your cigarette. Clearly he
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was amused- as amused as a man could be who was so little ever
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surprised, and that made him almost applausive. It was not that his
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spirits were visibly high- he would never, in the concert of pleasure,
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touch the big drum by so much as a knuckle: he had a mortal dislike to
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the high, ragged note, to what he called random ravings. He thought
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Miss Archer sometimes of too precipitate a readiness. It was pity
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she had that fault, because if she had not had it she would really
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have had none; she would have been as smooth to his general need of
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her as handled ivory to the palm. If he was not personally loud,
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however, he was deep, and during these closing days of the Roman May
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he knew a complacency that matched with slow irregular walks under the
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pines of the Villa Borghese, among the small sweet meadow-flowers
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and the mossy marbles. He was pleased with everything; he had never
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before been pleased with so many things at once. Old impressions,
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old enjoyments, renewed themselves; one evening, going home to his
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room at the inn, he wrote down a little sonnet to which he prefixed
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the title of "Rome Revisited." A day or two later he showed this piece
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of correct and ingenious verse to Isabel, explaining to her that it
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was an Italian fashion to commemorate the occasions of life by a
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tribute to the muse.
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He took his pleasures in general singly; he was too often- he
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would have admitted that- too sorely aware of something wrong,
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something ugly; the fertilizing dew of a conceivable felicity too
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seldom descended on his spirit. But at present he was happy- happier
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than he had perhaps ever been in his life, and the feeling had a large
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foundation. This was simply the sense of success- the most agreeable
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emotion of the human heart. Osmond had never had too much of it; in
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this respect he had the irritation of satiety, as he knew perfectly
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well and often reminded himself. "Ah no, I've not been spoiled;
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certainly I've not been spoiled," he used inwardly to repeat. "If I do
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succeed before I die I shall thoroughly have earned it." He was too
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apt to reason as if "earning" this boon consisted above all of
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covertly aching for it and might be confined to that exercise.
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Absolutely void of it, also, his career had not been; he might
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indeed have suggested to a spectator here and there that he was
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resting on vague laurels. But his triumphs were, some of them, now too
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old; others had been too easy. The present one had been less arduous
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than might have been expected, but had been easy- that is had been
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rapid- only because he had made an altogether exceptional effort, a
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greater effort than he had believed it in him to make. The desire to
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have something or other to show for his "parts"- to show somehow or
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|
other- had been the dream of his youth; but as the years went on the
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conditions attached to any marked proof of rarity had affected him
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more and more as gross and detestable; like the swallowing of mugs
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of beer to advertise what one could "stand." If an anonymous drawing
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on a museum wall had been conscious and watchful it might have known
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this peculiar pleasure of being at last and all of a sudden
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identified- as from the hand of a great master- by the so high and
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so unnoticed fact of style. His "style" was what the girl had
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discovered with a little help; and now, beside herself enjoying it,
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she should publish it to the world without his having any of the
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trouble. She should do the thing for him, and he would not have waited
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in vain.
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Shortly before the time fixed in advance for her departure this
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young lady received from Mrs. Touchett a telegram running as
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follows: "Leave Florence 4th June for Bellaggio, and take you if you
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have not other views. But can't wait if you dawdle in Rome." The
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dawdling in Rome was very pleasant, but Isabel had different views,
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and she let her aunt know she would immediately join her. She told
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Gilbert Osmond that she had done so, and he replied that, spending
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many of his summers as well as his winters in Italy, he himself
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would loiter a little longer in the cool shadow of Saint Peter's. He
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would not return to Florence for ten days more, and in that time she
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would have started for Bellaggio. It might be months in this case
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before he should see her again. This exchange took place in the
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large decorated sitting-room occupied by our friends at the hotel;
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it was late in the evening, and Ralph Touchett was to take his
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cousin back to Florence on the morrow. Osmond had found the girl
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alone; Miss Stackpole had contracted a friendship with a delightful
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American family on the fourth floor and had mounted the interminable
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staircase to pay them a visit. Henrietta contracted friendships, in
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travelling, with great freedom, and had formed in railway-carriages
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several that were among her most valued ties. Ralph was making
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arrangements for the morrow's journey, and Isabel sat alone in a
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wilderness of yellow upholstery. The chairs and sofas were orange; the
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walls and windows were draped in purple and gilt. The mirrors, the
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pictures had great flamboyant frames; the ceiling was deeply vaulted
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and painted over with naked muses and cherubs. For Osmond the place
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was ugly to distress; the false colours, the sham splendour were
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like vulgar, bragging, lying talk. Isabel had taken in hand a volume
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of Ampere, presented, on their arrival in Rome, by Ralph; but though
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she held it in her lap with her finger vaguely kept in the place she
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was not impatient to pursue her study. A lamp covered with a
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drooping veil of pink tissue-paper burned on the table beside her
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and diffused a strange pale rosiness over the scene.
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"You say you'll come back; but who knows?" Gilbert Osmond said. "I
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think you're much more likely to start on your voyage round the world.
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You're under no obligation to come back; you can do exactly what you
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choose; you can roam through space."
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"Well, Italy's a part of space," Isabel answered. "I can take it
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on the way.
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"On the way round the world? No, don't do that. Don't put us in a
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parenthesis- give us a chapter to ourselves. I don't want to see you
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on your travels. I'd rather see you when they're over. I should like
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to see you when you're tired and satiated," Osmond added in a
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moment. "I shall prefer you in that state."
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Isabel, with her eyes bent, fingered the pages of M. Ampere. "You
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turn things into ridicule without seeming to do it, though not, I
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|
think, without intending it. You've no respect for my travels- you
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think them ridiculous."
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"Where do you find that?"
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She went on in the same tone, fretting the edge of her book with the
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paper-knife. "You see my ignorance, my blunders, the way I wander
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about as if the world belonged to me, simply because- because it has
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been put into my power to do so. You don't think a woman ought to do
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that. You think it bold and ungraceful."
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"I think it beautiful," said Osmond. "You know my opinions- I've
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treated you to enough of them. Don't you remember my telling you
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that one ought to make one's life a work of art? You looked rather
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|
shocked at first; but then I told you that it was exactly what you
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|
seemed to me to be trying to do with your own."
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She looked up from her book. "What you despise most in the world
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is bad, is stupid art."
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"Possibly. But yours seem to me very clear and very good."
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"If I were to go to Japan next winter you would laugh at me," she
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went on.
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Osmond gave a smile- a keen one, but not a laugh, for the tone of
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|
their conversation was not jocose. Isabel had in fact her solemnity;
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|
he had seen it before. "You have an imagination that startles one!"
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"That's exactly what I say. You think such an idea absurd."
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"I would give my little finger to go to Japan; it's one of the
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countries I want most to see. Can't you believe that, with my taste
|
|
for old lacquer?"
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"I haven't a taste for old lacquer to excuse me," said Isabel.
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"You've a better excuse- the means of going. You're quite wrong in
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your theory that I laugh at you. I don't know what has put it into
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your head."
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"It wouldn't be remarkable if you did think it ridiculous that I
|
|
should have the means to travel when you've not; for you know
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|
everything, and I know nothing."
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"The more reason why you should travel and learn," smiled Osmond.
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"Besides," he added as if it were a point to be made, "I don't know
|
|
everything."
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Isabel was not struck with the oddity of his saying this gravely;
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|
she was thinking that the pleasantest incident of her life- so it
|
|
pleased her to qualify these too few days in Rome, which she might
|
|
musingly have likened to the figure of some small princess of one of
|
|
the ages of dress over-muffled in a mantle of state and dragging a
|
|
train that it took pages or historians to hold up- that this
|
|
felicity was coming to an end. That most of the interest of the time
|
|
had been owing to Mr. Osmond was a reflexion she was not just now at
|
|
pains to make; she had already done the point abundant justice. But
|
|
she said to herself that if there were a danger they should never meet
|
|
again, perhaps after all it would be as well. Happy things don't
|
|
repeat themselves, and her adventure wore already the changed, the
|
|
seaward face of some romantic island from which, after feasting on
|
|
purple grapes, she was putting off while the breeze rose. She might
|
|
come back to Italy and find him different- this strange man who
|
|
pleased her just as he was; and it would be better not to come than
|
|
run the risk of that. But if she was not to come the greater the
|
|
pity that the chapter was closed; she felt for a moment a pang that
|
|
touched the source of tears. The sensation kept her silent, and
|
|
Gilbert Osmond was silent too; he was looking at her. "Go everywhere,"
|
|
he said at last, in a low, kind voice; "do everything; get
|
|
everything out of life. Be happy- be triumphant."
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|
|
"What do you mean by being triumphant?"
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"Well, doing what you like."
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"To triumph, then, it seems to me, is to fail! Doing all the vain
|
|
things one likes is often very tiresome."
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|
|
|
"Exactly," said Osmond with his quiet quickness. "As I intimated
|
|
just now, you'll be tired some day." He paused a moment and then he
|
|
went on: "I don't know whether I had better not wait till then for
|
|
something I want to say to you."
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|
|
|
"Ah, I can't advise you without knowing what it is. But I'm horrid
|
|
when I'm tired," Isabel added with due inconsequence.
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|
"I don't believe that. You're angry, sometimes- that I can
|
|
believe, though I've never seen it. But I'm sure you're never
|
|
'cross.'"
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"Not even when I lose my temper?"
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|
|
"You don't lose it- you find it, and that must be beautiful." Osmond
|
|
spoke with a noble earnestness. "They must be great moments to see."
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"If I could only find it now!" Isabel nervously cried.
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"I'm not afraid; I should fold my arms and admire you. I'm
|
|
speaking very seriously." He leaned forward, a hand on each knee;
|
|
for some moments he bent his eyes on the floor. "What I wish to say to
|
|
you," he went on at last, looking up, "is that I find I'm in love with
|
|
you."
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She instantly rose. "Ah, keep that till I am tired!"
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|
|
"Tired of hearing it from others?" He sat there raising his eyes
|
|
to her. "No, you may heed it now or never, as you please. But after
|
|
all I must say it now." She had turned away, but in the movement she
|
|
had stopped herself and dropped her gaze upon him. The two remained
|
|
a while in this situation, exchanging a long look- the large,
|
|
conscious look of the critical hours of life. Then he got up and
|
|
came near her, deeply respectful, as if he were afraid he had been too
|
|
familiar. "I'm absolutely in love with you."
|
|
|
|
He had repeated the announcement in a tone of almost impersonal
|
|
discretion, like a man who expected very little from it but who
|
|
spoke for his own needed relief. The tears came into her eyes: this
|
|
time they obeyed the sharpness of the pang that suggested to her
|
|
somehow the slipping of a fine bolt- backward, forward, she couldn't
|
|
have said which. The words he had uttered made him, as he stood there,
|
|
beautiful and generous, invested him as with the golden air of early
|
|
autumn; but, morally speaking, she retreated before them- facing him
|
|
still- as she had retreated in the other cases before a like
|
|
encounter. "Oh don't say that, please," she answered with an intensity
|
|
that expressed the dread of having, in this case too, to choose and
|
|
decide. What made her dread great was precisely the force which, as it
|
|
would seem, ought to have banished all dread- the sense of something
|
|
within herself, deep down, that she supposed to be inspired and
|
|
trustful passion. It was there like a large sum stored in a bank-
|
|
which there was a terror in having to begin to spend. If she touched
|
|
it, it would all come out.
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|
|
|
"I haven't the idea that it will matter much to you," said Osmond.
|
|
"I've too little to offer you. What I have- it's enough for me; but
|
|
it's not enough for you. I've neither fortune, nor fame, nor extrinsic
|
|
advantages of any kind. So I offer nothing. I only tell you because
|
|
I think it can't offend you, and some day or other it may give you
|
|
pleasure. It gives me pleasure, I assure you," he went on, standing
|
|
there before her, considerately inclined to her, turning his hat,
|
|
which he had taken up, slowly round with a movement which had all
|
|
the decent tremor of awkwardness and none of its oddity, and
|
|
presenting to her his firm, refined, slightly ravaged face. "It
|
|
gives me no pain, because it's perfectly simple. For me you'll
|
|
always be the most important woman in the world."
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|
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|
Isabel looked at herself in this character- looked intently,
|
|
thinking she filled it with a certain grace. But what she said was not
|
|
an expression of any such complacency. "You don't offend me; but you
|
|
ought to remember that, without being offended, one may be incommoded,
|
|
troubled." "Incommoded": she heard herself saying that, and it
|
|
struck her as a ridiculous word. But it was what stupidly came to her.
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"I remember perfectly. Of course you're surprised and startled.
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|
But if it's nothing but that, it will pass away. And it will perhaps
|
|
leave something that I may not be ashamed of."
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|
"I don't know what it may leave. You see at all events that I'm
|
|
not overwhelmed," said Isabel with rather a pale smile. "I'm not too
|
|
troubled to think. And I think that I'm glad we're separating- that
|
|
I leave Rome to-morrow."
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|
"Of course I don't agree with you there."
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"I don't at all know you," she added abruptly; and then she coloured
|
|
as she heard herself saying what she had said almost a year before
|
|
to Lord Warburton.
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"If you were not going away you'd know me better."
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"I shall do that some other time."
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"I hope so. I'm very easy to know."
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|
"No, no," she emphatically answered- "there you're not sincere.
|
|
You're not easy to know; no one could be less so."
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|
|
"Well," he laughed, "I said that because I know myself. It may be
|
|
a boast, but I do."
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"Very likely; but you're very wise."
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|
"So are you, Miss Archer!" Osmond exclaimed.
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|
"I don't feel so just now. Still, I'm wise enough to think you had
|
|
better go. Good-night."
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|
|
"God bless you!" said Gilbert Osmond, taking the hand which she
|
|
failed to surrender. After which he added: "If we meet again you'll
|
|
find me as you leave me. If we don't I shall be so all the same."
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|
"Thank you very much. Good-bye."
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|
|
There was something quietly firm about Isabel's visitor; he might go
|
|
of his own movement, but wouldn't be dismissed. "There's one thing
|
|
more. I haven't asked anything of you- not even a thought in the
|
|
future; you must do me that justice. But there's a little service I
|
|
should like to ask. I shall not return home for several days; Rome's
|
|
delightful, and it's a good place for a man in my state of mind. Oh, I
|
|
know you're sorry to leave it; but you're right to do what your aunt
|
|
wishes."
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|
|
|
"She doesn't even wish it!" Isabel broke out strangely.
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|
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|
Osmond was apparently on the point of saying something that would
|
|
match these words, but he changed his mind and rejoined simply: "Ah
|
|
well, it's proper you should go with her, very proper. Do everything
|
|
that's proper; I go in for that. Excuse my being so patronizing. You
|
|
say you don't know me, but when you do you'll discover what a
|
|
worship I have for propriety."
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|
|
|
"You're not conventional?" Isabel gravely asked.
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|
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|
"I like the way you utter that word! No, I'm not conventional: I'm
|
|
convention itself. You don't understand that?" And he paused a moment,
|
|
smiling. "I should like to explain it." Then with a sudden, quick,
|
|
bright naturalness, "Do come back again," he pleaded. "There are so
|
|
many things we might talk about."
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|
She stood there with lowered eyes. "What service did you speak of
|
|
just now?"
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|
"Go and see my little daughter before you leave Florence. She's
|
|
alone at the villa; I decided not to send her to my sister, who hasn't
|
|
at all my ideas. Tell her she must love her poor father very much,"
|
|
said Gilbert Osmond gently.
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|
|
"It will be a great pleasure to me to go," Isabel answered. "I'll
|
|
tell her what you say. Once more good-bye."
|
|
|
|
On this he took a rapid, respectful leave. When he had gone she
|
|
stood a moment looking about her and seated herself slowly and with an
|
|
air of deliberation. She sat there till her companions came back, with
|
|
folded hands, gazing at the ugly carpet. Her agitation- for it had not
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diminished- was very still, very deep. What had happened was something
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that for a week past her imagination had been going forward to meet;
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but here, when it came, she stopped- that sublime principle somehow
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broke down. The working of this young lady's spirit was strange, and I
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can only give it to you as I see it, not hoping to make it seem
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altogether natural. Her imagination, as I say, now hung back: there
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was a last vague space it couldn't cross- a dusky, uncertain tract
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which looked ambiguous and even slightly treacherous, like a
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moorland seen in the winter twilight. But she was to cross it yet.
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CHAPTER 30
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She returned on the morrow to Florence, under her cousin's escort,
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and Ralph Touchett, though usually restive under railway discipline,
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thought very well of the successive hours passed in the train that
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hurried his companion away from the city now distinguished by
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Gilbert Osmond's preference- hours that were to form the first stage
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in a larger scheme of travel. Miss Stackpole had remained behind;
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she was planning a little trip to Naples, to be carried out with Mr.
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Bantling's aid. Isabel was to have three days in Florence before the
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4th of June, the date of Mrs. Touchett's departure, and she determined
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to devote the last of these to her promise to call on Pansy Osmond.
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Her plan, however, seemed for a moment likely to modify itself in
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deference to an idea of Madame Merle's. This lady was still at Casa
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Touchett; but she too was on the point of leaving Florence, her next
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station being an ancient castle in the mountains of Tuscany, the
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residence of a noble family of that country, whose acquaintance (she
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had known them, as she said, "forever") seemed to Isabel, in the light
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of certain photographs of their immense crenellated dwelling which her
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friend was able to show her, a precious privilege. She mentioned to
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this fortunate woman that Mr. Osmond had asked her to take a look at
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his daughter, but didn't mention that he had also made her a
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declaration of love.
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"Ah, comme cela se trouve!" Madame Merle exclaimed. "I myself have
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been thinking it would be a kindness to pay the child a little visit
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before I go off."
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"We can go together then," Isabel reasonably said: "reasonably"
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because the proposal was not uttered in the spirit of enthusiasm.
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She had prefigured her small pilgrimage as made in solitude; she
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should like it better so. She was nevertheless prepared to sacrifice
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this mystic sentiment to her great consideration for her friend.
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That personage finely meditated. "After all, why should we both
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go; having, each of us, so much to do during these last hours?"
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"Very good; I can easily go alone."
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"I don't know about your going alone- to the house of a handsome
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bachelor. He has been married- but so long ago!"
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Isabel stared. "When Mr. Osmond's away what does it matter?"
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"They don't know he's away, you see."
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"They? Whom do you mean?"
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"Every one. But perhaps it doesn't signify."
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"If you were going why shouldn't I?" Isabel asked.
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"Because I'm an old frump and you're a beautiful young woman."
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"Granting all that, you've not promised."
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"How much you think of your promises!" said the elder woman in
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mild mockery.
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"I think a great deal of my promises. Does that surprise you?"
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"You're right," Madame Merle audibly reflected. "I really think
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you wish to be kind to the child."
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"I wish very much to be kind to her."
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"Go and see her then; no one will be the wiser. And tell her I'd
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have come if you hadn't. Or rather," Madame Merle added, "don't tell
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her. She won't care."
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As Isabel drove, in the publicity of an open vehicle, along the
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winding way which led to Mr. Osmond's hill-top, she wondered what
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her friend had meant by no one's being the wiser. Once in a while,
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at large intervals, this lady, whose voyaging discretion, as a general
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thing, was rather of the open sea than of the risky channel, dropped a
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remark of ambiguous quality, struck a note that sounded false. What
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cared Isabel Archer for the vulgar judgements of obscure people? and
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did Madame Merle suppose that she was capable of doing a thing at
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all if it had to be sneakingly done? Of course not: she must have
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meant something else- something which in the press of the hours that
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preceded her departure she had not had time to explain. Isabel would
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return to this some day; there were sorts of things as to which she
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liked to be clear. She heard Pansy strumming at the piano in another
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place as she herself was ushered into Mr. Osmond's drawing-room; the
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little girl was "practising," and Isabel was pleased to think she
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performed this duty with rigour. She immediately came in, smoothing
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down her frock, and did the honours of her father's house with a
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wide-eyed earnestness of courtesy. Isabel sat there half an hour,
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and Pansy rose to the occasion as the small, winged fairy in the
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pantomime soars by the aid of the dissimulated wire- not chattering,
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but conversing, and showing the same respectful interest in Isabel's
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affairs that Isabel was so good to take in hers. Isabel wondered at
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her; she had never had so directly presented to her nose the white
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flower of cultivated sweetness. How well the child had been taught,
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said our admiring young woman; how prettily she had been directed
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and fashioned; and yet how simple, how natural, how innocent she had
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been kept! Isabel was fond, ever, of the question of character and
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quality, of sounding, as who should say, the deep personal mystery,
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and it had pleased her, up to this time, to be in doubt as to
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whether this tender slip were not really all-knowing. Was the
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extremity of her candour but the perfection of self-consciousness? Was
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it put on to please her father's visitor, or was it the direct
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expression of an unspotted nature? The hour that Isabel spent in Mr.
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Osmond's beautiful empty, dusky rooms- the windows had been
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half-darkened, to keep out the heat, and here and there, through an
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easy crevice, the splendid summer day peeped in, lighting a gleam of
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faded colour or tarnished gilt in the rich gloom- her interview with
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the daughter of the house, I say, effectually settled this question.
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Pansy was really a blank page, a pure white surface, successfully kept
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so; she had neither art, nor guile, nor temper, nor talent- only two
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or three small exquisite instincts: for knowing a friend, for avoiding
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a mistake, for taking care of an old toy or a new frock. Yet to be
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so tender was to be touching withal, and she could be felt as an
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easy victim of fate. She would have no will, no power to resist, no
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sense of her own importance; she would easily be mystified, easily
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crushed: her force would be all in knowing when and where to cling.
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She moved about the place with her visitor, who had asked leave to
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walk through the other rooms again, where Pansy gave her judgement
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on several works of art. She spoke of her prospects, her
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occupations, her father's intentions; she was not egotistical, but
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felt the propriety of supplying the information so distinguished a
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guest would naturally expect.
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"Please tell me," she said, "did papa, in Rome, go to see Madame
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Catherine? He told me he would if he had time. Perhaps he had not
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time. Papa likes a great deal of time. He wished to speak about my
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education; it isn't finished yet, you know. I don't know what they can
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do with me more; but it appears it's far from finished. Papa told me
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one day he thought he would finish it himself; for the last year or
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two, at the convent, the masters that teach the tall girls are so very
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dear. Papa's not rich, and I should be very sorry if he were to pay
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much money for me, because I don't think I'm worth it. I don't learn
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quickly enough, and I have no memory. For what I'm told, yes-
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especially when it's pleasant; but not for what I learn in a book.
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There was a young girl who was my best friend, and they took her
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away from the convent, when she was fourteen, to make- how do you
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say it in English?- to make a dot. You don't say it in English? I hope
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it isn't wrong; I only mean they wished to keep the money to marry
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her. I don't know whether it is for that that papa wishes to keep
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the money- to marry me. It costs so much to marry!" Pansy went on with
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a sigh; "I think papa might make that economy. At any rate I'm too
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young to think about it yet, and I don't care for any gentleman; I
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mean for any but him. If he were not my papa I should like to marry
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him! I would rather be his daughter than the wife of-of some strange
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person. I miss him very much, but not so much as you might think,
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for I've been so much away from him. Papa has always been
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principally for holidays. I miss Madame Catherine almost more; but you
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|
must not tell him that. You shall not see him again? I'm very sorry,
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and he'll be sorry too. Of everyone who comes here I like you the
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best. That's not a great compliment, for there are not many people. It
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was very kind of you to come to-day- so far from your house; for I'm
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really as yet only a child. Oh, yes, I've only the occupations of a
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|
child. When did you give them up, the occupations of a child? I should
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|
like to know how old you are, but I don't know whether it's right to
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ask. At the convent they told us that we must never ask the age. I
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|
don't like to do anything that's not expected; it looks as if one
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had not been properly taught. I myself- I should never like to be
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taken by surprise. Papa left directions for everything. I go to bed
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|
very early. When the sun goes off that side I go into the garden. Papa
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|
left strict orders that I was not to get scorched. I always enjoy
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|
the view; the mountains are so graceful. In Rome, from the convent, we
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|
saw nothing but roofs and bell-towers. I practice three hours. I don't
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play very well. You play yourself? I wish very much you'd play
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something for me; papa has the idea that I should hear good music.
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Madame Merle has played for me several times; that's what I like
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|
best about Madame Merle; she has great facility. I shall never have
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|
facility. And I've no voice- just a small sound like the squeak of a
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slate-pencil making flourishes."
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Isabel gratified this respectful wish, drew off her gloves and sat
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down to the piano, while Pansy, standing beside her, watched her white
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|
hands move quickly over the keys. When she stopped she kissed the
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|
child good-bye, held her close, looked at her long. "Be very good,"
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she said; "give pleasure to your father."
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"I think that's what I live for," Pansy answered. "He has not much
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|
pleasure; he's rather a sad man."
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Isabel listened to this assertion with an interest which she felt it
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|
almost a torment to be obliged to conceal. It was her pride that
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|
obliged her, and a certain sense of decency; there were still other
|
|
things in her head which she felt a strong impulse, instantly checked,
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|
to say to Pansy about her father; there were things it would have
|
|
given her pleasure to hear the child, to make the child, say. But
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|
she no sooner became conscious of these things than her imagination
|
|
was hushed with horror at the idea of taking advantage of the little
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|
girl- it was of this she would have accused herself- and of exhaling
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|
into that air where he might still have a subtle sense for it any
|
|
breath of her charmed state. She had come- she had come; but she had
|
|
stayed only an hour. She rose quickly from the music-stool; even then,
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|
however, she lingered a moment, still holding her small companion,
|
|
drawing the child's sweet slimness closer and looking down at her
|
|
almost in envy. She was obliged to confess it to herself- she would
|
|
have taken a passionate pleasure in talking of Gilbert Osmond to
|
|
this innocent, diminutive creature who was so near him. But she said
|
|
no other word; she only kissed Pansy once again. They went together
|
|
through the vestibule, to the door that opened on the court; and there
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|
her young hostess stopped, looking rather wistfully beyond. "I may
|
|
go no further. I've promised papa not to pass this door."
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"You're right to obey him; he'll never ask you anything
|
|
unreasonable."
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"I shall always obey him. But when will you come again?"
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"Not for a long time, I'm afraid."
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"As soon as you can, I hope. I'm only a little girl," said Pansy,
|
|
"but I shall always expect you." And the small figure stood in the
|
|
high, dark doorway, watching Isabel cross the clear, grey court and
|
|
disappear into the brightness beyond the big portone, which gave a
|
|
wider dazzle as it opened.
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CHAPTER 31
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|
|
Isabel came back to Florence, but only after several months; an
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|
interval sufficiently replete with incident. It is not, however,
|
|
during this interval that we are closely concerned with her; our
|
|
attention is engaged again on a certain day in the late spring-time,
|
|
shortly after her return to Palazzo Crescentini and a year from the
|
|
date of the incidents just narrated. She was alone on this occasion,
|
|
in one of the smaller of the numerous rooms devoted by Mrs. Touchett
|
|
to social uses, and there was that in her expression and attitude
|
|
which would have suggested that she was expecting a visitor. The
|
|
tall window was open, and though its green shutters were partly
|
|
drawn the bright air of the garden had come in through a broad
|
|
interstice and filled the room with warmth and perfume. Our young
|
|
woman stood near it for some time, her hands clasped behind her; she
|
|
gazed abroad with the vagueness of unrest. Too troubled for
|
|
attention she moved in a vain circle. Yet it could not be in her
|
|
thought to catch a glimpse of her visitor before he should pass into
|
|
the house, since the entrance to the palace was not through the
|
|
garden, in which stillness and privacy always reigned. She wished
|
|
rather to forestall his arrival by a process of conjecture, and to
|
|
judge by the expression of her face this attempt gave her plenty to
|
|
do. Grave she found herself, and positively more weighted, as by the
|
|
experience of the lapse of the year she had spent in seeing the world.
|
|
She had ranged, she would have said, through space and surveyed much
|
|
of mankind, and was therefore now, in her own eyes, a very different
|
|
person from the frivolous young woman from Albany who had begun to
|
|
take the measure of Europe on the lawn at Gardencourt a couple of
|
|
years before. She flattered herself she had harvested wisdom and
|
|
learned a great deal more of life than this light-minded creature
|
|
had even suspected. If her thoughts just now had inclined themselves
|
|
to retrospect, instead of fluttering their wings nervously about the
|
|
present, they would have evoked a multitude of interesting pictures.
|
|
These pictures would have been both landscapes and figure-pieces;
|
|
the latter, however, would have been the more numerous. With several
|
|
of the images that might have been projected on such a field we are
|
|
already acquainted. There would be for instance the conciliatory Lily,
|
|
our heroine's sister and Edmund Ludlow's wife, who had come out from
|
|
New York to spend five months with her relative. She had left her
|
|
husband behind her, but had brought her children, to whom Isabel now
|
|
played with equal munificence and tenderness the part of
|
|
maiden-aunt. Mr. Ludlow, toward the last, had been able to snatch a
|
|
few weeks from his forensic triumphs and, crossing the ocean with
|
|
extreme rapidity, had spent a month with the two ladies in Paris
|
|
before taking his wife home. The little Ludlows had not yet, even from
|
|
the American point of view, reached the proper tourist-age; so that
|
|
while her sister was with her Isabel had confined her movements to a
|
|
narrow circle. Lily and the babies had joined her in Switzerland in
|
|
the month of July, and they had spent a summer of fine weather in an
|
|
Alpine valley where the flowers were thick in the meadows and the
|
|
shade of great chestnuts made a resting place for such upward
|
|
wanderings as might be undertaken by ladies and children on warm
|
|
afternoons. They had afterwards reached the French capital, which
|
|
was worshipped, and with costly ceremonies, by Lily, but thought of as
|
|
noisily vacant by Isabel, who in these days made use of her memory
|
|
of Rome as she might have done, in a hot and crowded room, of a
|
|
phial of something pungent hidden in her handkerchief.
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|
|
Mrs. Ludlow sacrificed, as I say, to Paris, yet had doubts and
|
|
wonderments not allayed at that altar; and after her husband had
|
|
joined her found further chagrin in his failure to throw himself
|
|
into these speculations. They all had Isabel for subject; but Edmund
|
|
Ludlow, as he had always done before, declined to be surprised, or
|
|
distressed, or mystified, or elated, at anything his sister-in-law
|
|
might have done or have failed to do. Mrs. Ludlow's mental motions
|
|
were sufficiently various. At one moment she thought it would be so
|
|
natural for that young woman to come home and take a house in New
|
|
York- the Rossiters', for instance, which had an elegant
|
|
conservatory and was just round the corner from her own; at another
|
|
she couldn't conceal her surprise at the girl's not marrying some
|
|
member of one of the great aristocracies. On the whole, as I have
|
|
said, she had fallen from high communion with the probabilities. She
|
|
had taken more satisfaction in Isabel's accession of fortune than if
|
|
the money had been left to herself; it had seemed to her to offer just
|
|
the proper setting for her sister's slightly meagre, but scarce the
|
|
less eminent figure. Isabel had developed less, however, than Lily had
|
|
thought likely- development, to Lily's understanding, being somehow
|
|
mysteriously connected with morning calls and evening-parties.
|
|
Intellectually, doubtless, she had made immense strides; but she
|
|
appeared to have achieved few of those social conquests of which
|
|
Mrs. Ludlow had expected to admire the trophies. Lily's conception
|
|
of such achievements was extremely vague; but this was exactly what
|
|
she had expected of Isabel-to give it form and body. Isabel could have
|
|
done as well as she had done in New York; and Mrs. Ludlow appealed
|
|
to her husband to know whether there was any privilege she enjoyed
|
|
in Europe which the society of that city might not offer her. We
|
|
know ourselves that Isabel had made conquests- whether inferior or not
|
|
to those she might have effected in her native land it would be a
|
|
delicate matter to decide; and it is not altogether with a feeling
|
|
of complacency that I again mention that she had not rendered these
|
|
honourable victories public. She had not told her sister the history
|
|
of Lord Warburton, nor had she given her a hint of Mr. Osmond's
|
|
state of mind; and she had had no better reason for her silence than
|
|
that she didn't wish to speak. It was more romantic to say nothing,
|
|
and, drinking deep, in secret, of romance, she was as little
|
|
disposed to ask poor Lily's advice as she would have been to close
|
|
that rare volume forever. But Lily knew nothing of these
|
|
discriminations, and could only pronounce her sister's career a
|
|
strange anti-climax- an impression confirmed by the fact that Isabel's
|
|
silence about Mr. Osmond, for instance, was in direct proportion to
|
|
the frequency with which he occupied her thoughts. As this happened
|
|
very often it sometimes appeared to Mrs. Ludlow that she had lost
|
|
her courage. So uncanny a result of so exhilarating an incident as
|
|
inheriting a fortune was of course perplexing to the cheerful Lily; it
|
|
added to her general sense that Isabel was not at all like other
|
|
people.
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|
|
|
Our young lady's courage, however, might have been taken as reaching
|
|
its height after her relations had gone home. She could imagine braver
|
|
things than spending the winter in Paris- Paris had sides by which
|
|
it so resembled New York, Paris was like smart, neat prose- and her
|
|
close correspondence with Madame Merle did much to stimulate such
|
|
flights. She had never had a keener sense of freedom, of the
|
|
absolute boldness and wantonness of liberty, than when she turned away
|
|
from the platform at the Euston Station on one of the last days of
|
|
November, after the departure of the train that was to convey poor
|
|
Lily, her husband and her children to their ship at Liverpool. It
|
|
had been good for her to regale; she was very conscious of that; she
|
|
was very observant, as we know, of what was good for her, and her
|
|
effort was constantly to find something that was good enough. To
|
|
profit by the present advantage till the latest moment she had made
|
|
the journey from Paris with the unenvied travellers. She would have
|
|
accompanied them to Liverpool as well, only Edmund Ludlow had asked
|
|
her, as a favour, not to do so; it made Lily so fidgety and she
|
|
asked such impossible questions. Isabel watched the train move away;
|
|
she kissed her hand to the elder of her small nephews, a demonstrative
|
|
child who leaned dangerously far out of the window of the carriage and
|
|
made separation an occasion of violent hilarity, and then she walked
|
|
back into the foggy London street. The world lay before her- she could
|
|
do whatever she chose. There was a deep thrill in it all, but for
|
|
the present her choice was tolerably discreet; she chose simply to
|
|
walk back from Euston Square to her hotel. The early dusk of a
|
|
November afternoon had already closed in; the street-lamps, in the
|
|
thick, brown air, looked weak and red; our heroine was unattended
|
|
and Euston Square was a long way from Piccadilly. But Isabel performed
|
|
the journey with a positive enjoyment of its dangers and lost her
|
|
way almost on purpose, in order to get more sensations, so that she
|
|
was disappointed when an obliging policeman easily set her right
|
|
again. She was so fond of the spectacle of human life that she enjoyed
|
|
even the aspect of gathering dusk in the London streets- the moving
|
|
crowds, the hurrying cabs, the lighted shops, the flaring stalls,
|
|
the dark, shining dampness of everything. That evening, at her
|
|
hotel, she wrote to Madame Merle that she should start in a day or two
|
|
for Rome. She made her way down to Rome without touching at
|
|
Florence- having gone first to Venice and then proceeded southward
|
|
by Ancona. She accomplished this journey without other assistance than
|
|
that of her servant, for her natural protectors were not now on the
|
|
ground. Ralph Touchett was spending the winter at Corfu, and Miss
|
|
Stackpole, in the September previous, had been recalled to America
|
|
by a telegram from the Interviewer. This journal offered its brilliant
|
|
correspondent a fresher field for her genius than the mouldering
|
|
cities of Europe, and Henrietta was cheered on her way by a promise
|
|
from Mr. Bantling that he would soon come over to see her. Isabel
|
|
wrote to Mrs. Touchett to apologize for not presenting herself just
|
|
yet in Florence, and her aunt replied characteristically enough.
|
|
Apologies, Mrs. Touchett intimated, were of no more use to her than
|
|
bubbles, and she herself never dealt in such articles. One either
|
|
did the thing or one didn't, and what one "would" have done belonged
|
|
to the sphere of the irrelevant, like the idea of a future life or
|
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of the origin of things. Her letter was frank, but (a rare case with
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Mrs. Touchett) not so frank as it pretended. She easily forgave her
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niece for not stopping at Florence, because she took it for a sign
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that Gilbert Osmond was less in question there than formerly. She
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watched of course to see if he would now find a pretext for going to
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Rome, and derived some comfort from learning that he had not been
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guilty of an absence.
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Isabel, on her side, had not been a fortnight in Rome before she
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proposed to Madame Merle that they should make a little pilgrimage
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to the East. Madame Merle remarked that her friend was restless, but
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she added that she herself had always been consumed with the desire to
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visit Athens and Constantinople. The two ladies accordingly embarked
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on this expedition, and spent three months in Greece, in Turkey, in
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Egypt. Isabel found much to interest her in these countries, though
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Madame Merle continued to remark that even among the most classic
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sites, the scenes most calculated to suggest repose and reflexion, a
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certain incoherence prevailed in her. Isabel travelled rapidly and
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recklessly; she was like a thirsty person draining cup after cup.
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Madame Merle meanwhile, as lady-in-waiting to a princess circulating
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incognita, panted a little in her rear. It was on Isabel's
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invitation she had come, and she imparted all due dignity to the
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girl's uncountenanced state. She played her part with the tact that
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might have been expected of her, effacing herself and accepting the
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position of a companion whose expenses were profusely paid. The
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situation, however, had no hardships, and people who met this reserved
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though striking pair on their travels would not have been able to tell
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you which was patroness and which client. To say that Madame Merle
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improved on acquaintance states meagrely the impression she made on
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her friend, who had found her from the first so ample and so easy.
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At the end of an intimacy of three months Isabel felt she knew her
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better; her character had revealed itself, and the admirable woman had
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also at last redeemed her promise of relating her history from her own
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point of view-a consummation the more desirable as Isabel had
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already heard it related from the point of view of others. This
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history was so sad a one (in so far as it concerned the late M. Merle,
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a positive adventurer, she might say, though originally so
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plausible, who had taken advantage, years before, of her youth and
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of an inexperience in which doubtless those who knew her only now
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would find it difficult to believe); it abounded so in startling and
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lamentable incidents that her companion wondered a person so
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eprouvee could have kept so much of her freshness, her interest in
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life. Into this freshness of Madame Merle's she obtained a
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considerable insight; she seemed to see it as professional, as
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slightly mechanical, carried about in its case like the fiddle of
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the virtuoso, or blanketed and bridled like the "favourite" of the
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jockey. She liked her as much as ever, but there was a corner of the
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curtain that never was lifted; it was as if she had remained after all
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something of a public performer, condemned to emerge only in character
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and in costume. She had once said that she came from a distance,
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that she belonged to the "old, old" world, and Isabel never lost the
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impression that she was the product of a different moral or social
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clime from her own, that she had grown up under other stars.
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She believed then that at bottom she had a different morality. Of
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course the morality of civilized persons has always much in common;
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but our young woman had a sense in her of values gone wrong or, as
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they said at the shops, marked down. She considered, with the
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presumption of youth, that a morality differing from her own must be
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inferior to it; and this conviction was an aid to detecting an
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occasional flash of cruelty, an occasional lapse from candour, in
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the conversation of a person who had raised delicate kindness to an
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art and whose pride was too high for the narrow ways of deception. Her
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conception of human motives might, in certain lights, have been
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acquired at the court of some kingdom in decadence, and there were
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several in her list of which our heroine had not even heard. She had
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not heard of everything, that was very plain; and there were evidently
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things in the world of which it was not advantageous to hear. She
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had once or twice had a positive scare; since it so affected her to
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have to exclaim, of her friend, "Heaven forgive her, she doesn't
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understand me!" Absurd as it may seem this discovery operated as a
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shock, left her with a vague dismay in which there was even an element
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of foreboding. The dismay of course subsided, in the light of some
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sudden proof of Madame Merle's remarkable intelligence; but it stood
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for a high-water-mark in the ebb and flow of confidence. Madame
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Merle had once declared her belief that when a friendship ceases to
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grow it immediately begins to decline-there being no point of
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equilibrium between liking more and liking less. A stationary
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affection, in other words, was impossible-it must move one way or
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the other. However that might be, the girl had in these days a
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thousand uses for her sense of the romantic, which was more active
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than it had ever been. I do not allude to the impulse it received as
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she gazed at the Pyramids in the course of an excursion from Cairo, or
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as she stood among the broken columns of the Acropolis and fixed her
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eyes upon the point designated to her as the Strait of Salamis; deep
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and memorable as these emotions had remained. She came back by the
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last of March from Egypt and Greece and made another stay in Rome. A
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few days after her arrival Gilbert Osmond descended from Florence
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and remained three weeks, during which the fact of her being with
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his old friend Madame Merle, in whose house she had gone to lodge,
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made it virtually inevitable that he should see her every day. When
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the last of April came she wrote to Mrs. Touchett that she should
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now rejoice to accept an invitation given long before, and went to pay
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a visit at Palazzo Crescentini, Madame Merle on this occasion
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remaining in Rome. She found her aunt alone; her cousin was still at
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Corfu. Ralph, however, was expected in Florence from day to day, and
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Isabel, who had not seen him for upwards of a year, was prepared to
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give him the most affectionate welcome.
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CHAPTER 32
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It was not of him, nevertheless, that she was thinking while she
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stood at the window near which we found her a while ago, and it was
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not of any of the matters I have rapidly sketched. She was not
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turned to the past, but to the immediate, impending hour. She had
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reason to expect a scene, and she was not fond of scenes. She was
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not asking herself what she should say to her visitor; this question
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had already been answered. What he would say to her-that was the
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interesting issue. It could be nothing in the least soothing-she had
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warrant for this, and the conviction doubtless showed in the cloud
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on her brow. For the rest, however, all clearness reigned in her;
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she had put away her mourning and she walked in no small shimmering
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splendour. She only felt older-ever so much, and as if she were "worth
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more" for it, like some curious piece in an antiquary's collection.
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She was not at any rate left indefinitely to her apprehensions, for
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a servant at last stood before her with a card on his tray. "Let the
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gentleman come in," she said, and continued to gaze out of the
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window after the footman had retired. It was only when she had heard
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the door close behind the person who presently entered that she looked
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round.
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Caspar Goodwood stood there- stood and received a moment, from
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head to foot, the bright, dry gaze with which she rather withheld than
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offered a greeting. Whether his sense of maturity had kept pace with
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Isabel's we shall perhaps presently ascertain; let me say meanwhile
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that to her critical glance he showed nothing of the injury of time.
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Straight, strong and hard, there was nothing in his appearance that
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spoke positively either of youth or of age; if he had neither
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innocence nor weakness, so he had no practical philosophy. His jaw
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|
showed the same voluntary cast as in earlier days; but a crisis like
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the present had in it of course something grim. He had the air of a
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man who had travelled hard; he said nothing at first, as if he had
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been out of breath. This gave Isabel time to make a reflexion: "Poor
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fellow, what great things he's capable of, and what a pity he should
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waste so dreadfully his splendid force! What a pity too that one can't
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satisfy everybody!" It gave her time to do more-to say at the end of a
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minute: "I can't tell you how I hoped you wouldn't come!"
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"I've no doubt of that." And he looked about him for a seat. Not
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only had he come, but he meant to settle.
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"You must be very tired," said Isabel, seating herself, and
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generously, as she thought, to give him his opportunity.
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"No, I'm not at all tired. Did you ever know me to be tired?"
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"Never; I wish I had! When did you arrive?"
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"Last night, very late; in a kind of snail-train they call the
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express. These Italian trains go at about the rate of an American
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funeral."
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"That's in keeping- you must have felt as if you were coming to bury
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me!" And she forced a smile of encouragement to an easy view of
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their situation. She had reasoned the matter well out, making it
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|
perfectly clear that she broke no faith and falsified no contract; but
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for all this she was afraid of her visitor. She was ashamed of her
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fear; but she was devoutly thankful there was nothing else to be
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ashamed of. He looked at her with his stiff insistence, an
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insistence in which there was such a want of tact; especially when the
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dull dark beam in his eye rested on her as a physical weight.
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"No, I didn't feel that; I couldn't think of you as dead. I wish I
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could! he candidly declared.
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"I thank you immensely."
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"I'd rather think of you as dead than as married to another man."
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"That's very selfish of you!" she returned with the ardour of a real
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conviction. "If you're not happy yourself others have yet a right to
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be."
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"Very likely it's selfish; but I don't in the least mind your saying
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so. I don't mind anything you can say now- I don't feel it. The
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cruellest things you could think of would be mere pin-pricks. After
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what you've done I shall never feel anything- I mean anything but
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that. That I shall feel all my life."
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Mr. Goodwood made these detached assertions with dry deliberateness,
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in his hard, slow American tone, which flung no atmospheric colour
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over propositions intrinsically crude. The tone made Isabel angry
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|
rather than touched her; but her anger perhaps was fortunate, inasmuch
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as it gave her a further reason for controlling herself It was under
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the pressure of this control that she became, after a little,
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irrelevant. "When did you leave New York?"
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He threw up his head as if calculating. "Seventeen days ago."
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"You must have travelled fast in spite of your slow trains."
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"I came as fast as I could. I'd have come five days ago if I had
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been able."
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"It wouldn't have made any difference, Mr. Goodwood," she coldly
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smiled.
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"Not to you- no. But to me."
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"You gain nothing that I see."
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"That's for me to judge!"
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"Of course. To me it seems that you only torment yourself." And
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then, to change the subject, she asked him if he had seen Henrietta
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Stackpole. He looked as if he had not come from Boston to Florence
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|
to talk of Henrietta Stackpole; but he answered, distinctly enough,
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|
that this young lady had been with him just before he left America.
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"She came to see you?" Isabel then demanded.
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"Yes, she was in Boston, and she called at my office. It was the day
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I had got your letter."
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"Did you tell her?" Isabel asked with a certain anxiety.
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"Oh no," said Caspar Goodwood simply; "I didn't want to do that.
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She'll hear it quick enough; she hears everything."
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"I shall write to her, and then she'll write to me and scold me,"
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Isabel declared, trying to smile again.
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Caspar, however, remained sternly grave. "I guess she'll come
|
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right out," he said.
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"On purpose to scold me?"
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"I don't know. She seemed to think she had not seen Europe
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thoroughly."
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"I'm glad you tell me that," Isabel said. "I must prepare for her."
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Mr. Goodwood fixed his eyes for a moment on the floor; then at last,
|
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raising them, "Does she know Mr. Osmond?" he enquired.
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"A little. And she doesn't like him. But of course I don't marry
|
|
to please Henrietta," she added. It would have been better for poor
|
|
Caspar if she had tried a little more to gratify Miss Stackpole; but
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|
he didn't say so; he only asked, presently, when her marriage would
|
|
take place. To which she made answer that she didn't know yet. "I
|
|
can only say it will be soon. I've told no one but yourself and one
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|
other person-an old friend of Mr. Osmond's."
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"Is it a marriage your friends won't like?" he demanded.
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"I really haven't an idea. As I say, I don't marry for my friends."
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He went on, making no exclamation, no comment, only asking
|
|
questions, doing it quite without delicacy. "Who and what then is
|
|
Mr. Gilbert Osmond?"
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"Who and what? Nobody and nothing but a very good and very
|
|
honourable man. He's not in business," said Isabel. "He's not rich;
|
|
he's not known for anything in particular."
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|
She disliked Mr. Goodwood's questions, but she said to herself
|
|
that she owed it to him to satisfy him as far as possible. The
|
|
satisfaction poor Caspar exhibited was, however, small; he sat very
|
|
upright, gazing at her. "Where does he come from? Where does he
|
|
belong?"
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|
|
She had never been so little pleased with the way he said "belawng."
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"He comes from nowhere. He has spent most of his life in Italy."
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"You said in your letter he was American. Hasn't he a native place?"
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"Yes, but he has forgotten it. He left it as a small boy."
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"Has he never gone back?"
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"Why should he go back?" Isabel asked, flushing all defensively. "He
|
|
has no profession."
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"He might have gone back for his pleasure. Doesn't he like the
|
|
United States?"
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|
|
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"He doesn't know them. Then he's very quiet and very simple-he
|
|
contents himself with Italy."
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|
|
"With Italy and with you," said Mr. Goodwood with gloomy plainness
|
|
and no appearance of trying to make an epigram. "What has he ever
|
|
done?" he added abruptly.
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"That I should marry him? Nothing at all," Isabel replied while
|
|
her patience helped itself by turning a little to hardness. "If he had
|
|
done great things would you forgive me any better? Give me up, Mr.
|
|
Goodwood; I'm marrying a perfect nonentity. Don't try to take an
|
|
interest in him. You can't."
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|
|
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"I can't appreciate him; that's what you mean. And you don't mean in
|
|
the least that he's a perfect nonentity. You think he's grand, you
|
|
think he's great, though no one else thinks so."
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|
|
Isabel's colour deepened; she felt this really acute of her
|
|
companion, and it was certainly a proof of the aid that passion
|
|
might render perceptions she had never taken for fine. "Why do you
|
|
always come back to what others think? I can't discuss Mr. Osmond with
|
|
you."
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"Of course not," said Caspar reasonably. And he sat there with his
|
|
air of stiff helplessness, as if not only this were true, but there
|
|
were nothing else that they might discuss.
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|
|
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"You see how little you gain," she accordingly broke out-"how little
|
|
comfort or satisfaction I can give you."
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"I didn't expect you to give me much."
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"I don't understand then why you came."
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"I came because I wanted to see you once more even just as you are."
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"I appreciate that; but if you had waited a while, sooner or later
|
|
we should have been sure to meet, and our meeting would have been
|
|
pleasanter for each of us than this."
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|
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"Waited till after you're married? That's just what I didn't want to
|
|
do.
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You'll be different then."
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"Not very. I shall still be a great friend of yours. You'll see."
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"That will make it all the worse," said Mr. Goodwood grimly.
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"Ah, you're unaccommodating! I can't promise to dislike you in order
|
|
to help you to resign yourself."
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"I shouldn't care if you did!"
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Isabel got up with a movement of repressed impatience and walked
|
|
to the window, where she remained a moment looking out. When she
|
|
turned round her visitor was still motionless in his place. She came
|
|
toward him again and stopped, resting her hand on the back of the
|
|
chair she had just quitted. "Do you mean you came simply to look at
|
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me? That's better for you perhaps than for me."
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"I wished to hear the sound of your voice," he said.
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"You've heard it, and you see it says nothing very sweet."
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"It gives me pleasure, all the same." And with this he got up.
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She had felt pain and displeasure on receiving early that day the
|
|
news he was in Florence and by her leave would come within an hour
|
|
to see her. She had been vexed and distressed, though she had sent
|
|
back word by his messenger that he might come when he would. She had
|
|
not been better pleased when she saw him; his being there at all was
|
|
so full of heavy implications. It implied things she could never
|
|
assent to-rights, reproaches, remonstrance, rebuke, the expectation of
|
|
making her change her purpose. These things, however, if implied,
|
|
had not been expressed; and now our young lady, strangely enough,
|
|
began to resent her visitor's remarkable self-control. There was a
|
|
dumb misery about him that irritated her; there was a manly staying of
|
|
his hand that made her heart beat faster. She felt her agitation
|
|
rising, and she said to herself that she was angry in the way a
|
|
woman is angry when she has been in the wrong. She was not in the
|
|
wrong; she had fortunately not that bitterness to swallow; but, all
|
|
the same, she wished he would denounce her a little. She had wished
|
|
his visit would be short; it had no purpose, no propriety; yet now
|
|
that he seemed to be turning away she felt a sudden horror of his
|
|
leaving her without uttering a word that would give her an opportunity
|
|
to defend herself more than she had done in writing to him a month
|
|
before, in a few carefully chosen words, to announce her engagement.
|
|
If she were not in the wrong, however, why should she desire to defend
|
|
herself? It was an excess of generosity on Isabel's part to desire
|
|
that Mr. Goodwood should be angry. And if he had not meanwhile held
|
|
himself hard it might have made him so to hear the tone in which she
|
|
suddenly exclaimed, as if she were accusing him of having accused her:
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|
"I've not deceived you! I was perfectly free!"
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|
"Yes, I know that," said Caspar.
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"I gave you full warning that I'd do as I chose."
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"You said you'd probably never marry, and you said it with such a
|
|
manner that I pretty well believed it."
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She considered this an instant. "No one can be more surprised than
|
|
myself at my present intention."
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"You told me that if I heard you were engaged I was not to believe
|
|
it," Caspar went on. "I heard it twenty days ago from yourself, but
|
|
I remembered what you had said. I thought there might be some mistake,
|
|
and that's partly why I came."
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"If you wish me to repeat it by word of mouth, that's soon done.
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There's no mistake whatever."
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"I saw that as soon as I came into the room."
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"What good would it do you that I shouldn't marry?" she asked with a
|
|
certain fierceness.
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"I should like it better than this."
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"You're very selfish, as I said before."
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"I know that. I'm selfish as iron."
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"Even iron sometimes melts! If you'll be reasonable I'll see you
|
|
again."
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"Don't you call me reasonable now?"
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"I don't know what to say to you," she answered with sudden
|
|
humility.
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"I shan't trouble you for a long time," the young man went on. He
|
|
made a step towards the door, but he stopped. "Another reason why I
|
|
came was that I wanted to hear what you would say in explanation of
|
|
your having changed your mind."
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Her humbleness as suddenly deserted her. "In explanation? Do you
|
|
think I'm bound to explain?"
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He gave her one of his long dumb looks. "You were very positive. I
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|
did believe it."
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"So did I. Do you think I could explain if I would?"
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"No, I suppose not. Well," he added, "I've done what I wished.
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I've seen you."
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"How little you make of these terrible journeys," she felt the
|
|
poverty of her presently replying.
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"If you're afraid I'm knocked up-in any such way as that-you may
|
|
be at your ease about it." He turned away, this time in earnest, and
|
|
no handshake, no sign of parting, was exchanged between them. At the
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|
door he stopped with his hand on the knob. "I shall leave Florence
|
|
to-morrow," he said without a quaver.
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"I'm delighted to hear it!" she answered passionately. Five
|
|
minutes after he had gone out she burst into tears.
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CHAPTER 33
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|
Her fit of weeping, however, was soon smothered, and the signs of it
|
|
had vanished when, an hour later, she broke the news to her aunt. I
|
|
use this expression because she had been sure Mrs. Touchett would
|
|
not be pleased; Isabel had only waited to tell her till she had seen
|
|
Mr.
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Goodwood. She had an odd impression that it would not be
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honourable to make the fact public before she should have heard what
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Mr. Goodwood would say about it. He had said rather less than she
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expected, and she now had a somewhat angry sense of having lost
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time. But she would lose no more; she waited till Mrs. Touchett came
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into the drawing-room before the mid-day breakfast, and then she
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began. "Aunt Lydia, I've something to tell you."
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Mrs. Touchett gave a little jump and looked at her almost
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fiercely: "You needn't tell me; I know what it is."
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"I don't know how you know."
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"The same way that I know when the window's open-by feeling a
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draught. You're going to marry that man."
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"What man do you mean?" Isabel enquired with great dignity.
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"Madame Merle's friend-Mr. Osmond."
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"I don't know why you call him Madame Merle's friend. Is that the
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principal thing he's known by?"
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"If he's not her friend he ought to after what she has done for him!
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cried Mrs. Touchett. "I shouldn't have expected it of her; I'm
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disappointed."
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"If you mean that Madame Merle has had anything to do with my
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engagement you're greatly mistaken," Isabel declared with a sort of
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ardent coldness.
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"You mean that your attractions were sufficient, without the
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gentleman having had to be lashed up? You're quite right. They're
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immense, your attractions, and he would never have presumed to think
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of you if she hadn't put him up to it. He has a very good opinion of
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himself, but he was not a man to take trouble. Madame Merle took the
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trouble for him."
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"He has taken a great deal for himself!" cried Isabel with a
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voluntary laugh.
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Mrs. Touchett gave a sharp nod. "I think he must, after all, to have
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made you like him so much."
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"I thought he even pleased you."
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"He did, at one time; and that's why I'm angry with him."
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"Be angry with me, not with him," said the girl.
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"Oh, I'm always angry with you; that's no satisfaction! Was it for
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this that you refused Lord Warburton?"
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"Please don't go back to that. Why shouldn't I like Mr. Osmond,
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since others have done so?"
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"Others, at their wildest moments, never wanted to marry him.
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There's nothing of him," Mrs. Touchett explained.
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"Then he can't hurt me," said Isabel.
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"Do you think you're going to be happy? No one's happy, in such
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doings, you should know."
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"I shall set the fashion then. What does one marry for?"
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"What you will marry for, heaven only knows. People usually marry as
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they go into partnership-to set up a house. But in your partnership
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you'll bring everything."
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"Is it that Mr. Osmond isn't rich? Is that what you're talking
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about?" Isabel asked.
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"He has no money; he has no name; he has no importance. I value such
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things and I have the courage to say it; I think they're very
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precious. Many other people think the same, and they show it. But they
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give some other reason."
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Isabel hesitated a little. "I think I value everything that's
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valuable. I care very much for money, and that's why I wish Mr. Osmond
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to have a little."
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"Give it to him then; but marry some one else."
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"His name's good enough for me," the girl went on. "It's a very
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pretty name. Have I such a fine one myself?"
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"All the more reason you should improve on it. There are only a
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dozen American names. Do you marry him out of charity?"
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"It was my duty to tell you, Aunt Lydia, but I don't think it's my
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duty to explain to you. Even if it were I shouldn't be able. So please
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don't remonstrate; in talking about it you have me at a
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disadvantage. I can't talk about it."
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"I don't remonstrate, I simply answer you: I must give some sign
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of intelligence. I saw it coming, and I said nothing. I never meddle."
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"You never do, and I'm greatly obliged to you. You've been very
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considerate."
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"It was not considerate-it was convenient," said Mrs. Touchett. "But
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I shall talk to Madame Merle."
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"I don't see why you keep bringing her in. She has been a very
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good friend to me."
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"Possibly; but she has been a poor one to me."
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"What has she done to you?"
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"She has deceived me. She had as good as promised me to prevent your
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engagement."
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"She couldn't have prevented it."
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"She can do anything; that's what I've always liked her for. I
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knew she could play any part; but I understood that she played them
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one by one. I didn't understand that she would play two at the same
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time."
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"I don't know what part she may have played to you," Isabel said;
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"that's between yourselves. To me she has been honest and kind and
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devoted."
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"Devoted, of course; she wished you to marry her candidate. She told
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me she was watching you only in order to interpose."
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"She said that to please you," the girl answered; conscious,
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however, of the inadequacy of the explanation.
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"To please me by deceiving me? She knows me better. Am I pleased
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to-day?"
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"I don't think you're ever much pleased," Isabel was obliged to
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reply. "If Madame Merle knew you would learn the truth what had she to
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gain by insincerity?"
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"She gained time, as you see. While I waited for her to interfere
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you were marching away, and she was really beating the drum."
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"That's very well. But by your own admission you saw I was marching,
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and even if she had given the alarm you wouldn't have tried to stop
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me."
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"No, but some one else would."
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"Whom do you mean?" Isabel asked, looking very hard at her aunt.
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Mrs. Touchett's little bright eyes, active as they usually were,
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sustained her gaze rather than returned it. "Would you have listened
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to Ralph?"
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"Not if he had abused Mr. Osmond."
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"Ralph doesn't abuse people; you know that perfectly. He cares
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very much for you."
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"I know he does," said Isabel; "and I shall feel the value of it
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now, for he knows that whatever I do I do with reason."
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"He never believed you would do this. I told him you were capable of
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it, and he argued the other way."
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"He did it for the sake of argument," the girl smiled. "You don't
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accuse him of having deceived you; why should you accuse Madame
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Merle?"
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"He never pretended he'd prevent it."
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"I'm glad of that!" cried Isabel gaily. "I wish very much," she
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presently added, "that when he comes you'd tell him first of my
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engagement."
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"Of course I'll mention it," said Mrs. Touchett. "I shall say
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nothing more to you about it, but I give you notice I shall talk to
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others."
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"That's as you please. I only meant that it's rather better the
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announcement should come from you than from me."
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"I quite agree with you; it's much more proper!" And on this the
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aunt and the niece went to breakfast, where Mrs. Touchett, as good
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as her word, made no allusion to Gilbert Osmond. After an interval
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of silence, however, she asked her companion from whom she had
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received a visit an hour before.
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"From an old friend-an American gentleman," Isabel said with a
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colour in her cheek.
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"An American gentleman of course. It's only an American gentleman
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who calls at ten o'clock in the morning."
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"It was half-past ten; he was in a great hurry; he goes away this
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evening."
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"Couldn't he have come yesterday, at the usual time?"
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"He only arrived last night."
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"He spends but twenty-four hours in Florence?" Mrs. Touchett
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cried. "He's an American gentleman truly."
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"He is indeed," said Isabel, thinking with perverse admiration of
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what Caspar Goodwood had done for her.
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Two days afterward Ralph arrived; but though Isabel was sure that
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Mrs. Touchett had lost no time in imparting to him the great fact,
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he showed at first no open knowledge of it. Their prompted talk was
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naturally of his health; Isabel had many questions to ask about Corfu.
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|
She had been shocked by his appearance when he came into the room; she
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|
had forgotten how ill he looked. In spite of Corfu he looked very
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|
ill to-day, and she wondered if he were really worse or if she were
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|
simply disaccustomed to living with an invalid. Poor Ralph made no
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|
nearer approach to conventional beauty as he advanced in life, and the
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|
now apparently complete loss of his health had done little to mitigate
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|
the natural oddity of his person. Blighted and battered, but still
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|
responsive and still ironic, his face was like a lighted lantern
|
|
patched with paper and unsteadily held; his thin whisker languished
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|
upon a lean cheek; the exorbitant curve of his nose defined itself
|
|
more sharply. Lean he was altogether, lean and long and loose-jointed;
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|
an accidental cohesion of relaxed angles. His brown velvet jacket
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|
had become perennial; his hands had fixed themselves in his pockets;
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|
he shambled and stumbled and shuffled in a manner that denoted great
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|
physical helplessness. It was perhaps this whimsical gait that
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|
helped to mark his character more than ever as that of the humorous
|
|
invalid-the invalid for whom even his own disabilities are part of the
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|
general joke. They might well indeed with Ralph have been the chief
|
|
cause of the want of seriousness marking his view of a world in
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|
which the reason for his own continued presence was past finding
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|
out. Isabel had grown fond of his ugliness; his awkwardness had become
|
|
dear to her. They had been sweetened by association; they struck her
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|
as the very terms on which it had been given him to be charming. He
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|
was so charming that her sense of his being ill had hitherto had a
|
|
sort of comfort in it; the state of his health had seemed not a
|
|
limitation, but a kind of intellectual advantage; it absolved him from
|
|
all professional and official emotions and left him the luxury of
|
|
being exclusively personal. The personality so resulting was
|
|
delightful; he had remained proof against the staleness of disease; he
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|
had had to consent to be deplorably ill, yet had somehow escaped being
|
|
formally sick. Such had been the girl's impression of her cousin;
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|
and when she had pitied him it was only on reflection. As she
|
|
reflected a good deal she had allowed him a certain amount of
|
|
compassion; but she always had a dread of wasting that essence-a
|
|
precious article, worth more to the giver than to any one else. Now,
|
|
however, it took no great sensibility to feel that poor Ralph's tenure
|
|
of life was less elastic than it should be. He was a bright, free,
|
|
generous spirit, he had all the illumination of wisdom and none of its
|
|
pedantry, and yet he was distressfully dying.
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|
Isabel noted afresh that life was certainly hard for some people,
|
|
and she felt a delicate glow of shame as she thought how easy it now
|
|
promised to become for herself. She was prepared to learn that Ralph
|
|
was not pleased with her engagement; but she was not prepared, in
|
|
spite of her affection for him, to let this fact spoil the
|
|
situation. She was not even prepared, or so she thought, to resent his
|
|
want of sympathy; for it would be his privilege-it would be indeed his
|
|
natural line-to find fault with any step she might take toward
|
|
marriage. One's cousin always pretended to hate one's husband; that
|
|
was traditional, classical; it was a part of one's cousin's always
|
|
pretending to adore one. Ralph was nothing if not critical; and though
|
|
she would certainly, other things being equal, have been as glad to
|
|
marry to please him as to please any one, it would be absurd to regard
|
|
as important that her choice should square with his views. What were
|
|
his views after all? He had pretended to believe she had better have
|
|
married Lord Warburton; but this was only because she had refused that
|
|
excellent man. If she had accepted him Ralph would certainly have
|
|
taken another tone; he always took the opposite. You could criticize
|
|
any marriage; it was the essence of a marriage to be open to
|
|
criticism. How well she herself, should she only give her mind to
|
|
it, might criticize this union of her own! She had other employment,
|
|
however, and Ralph was welcome to relieve her of the care. Isabel
|
|
was prepared to be most patient and most indulgent. He must have
|
|
seen that, and this made it the more odd he should say nothing.
|
|
After three days had elapsed without his speaking our young woman
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|
wearied of waiting; dislike it as he would, he might at least go
|
|
through the form. We, who know more about poor Ralph than his
|
|
cousin, may easily believe that during the hours that followed his
|
|
arrival at Palazzo Crescentini he had privately gone through many
|
|
forms. His mother had literally greeted him with the great news, which
|
|
had been even more sensibly chilling than Mrs. Touchett's maternal
|
|
kiss. Ralph was shocked and humiliated; his calculations had been
|
|
false and the person in the world in whom he was most interested was
|
|
lost. He drifted about the house like a rudderless vessel in a rocky
|
|
stream, or sat in the garden of the palace on a great cane chair,
|
|
his long legs extended, his head thrown back and his hat pulled over
|
|
his eyes. He felt cold about the heart; he had never liked anything
|
|
less. What could he do, what could he say? If the girl were
|
|
irreclaimable could he pretend to like it? To attempt to reclaim her
|
|
was permissible only if the attempt should succeed. To try to persuade
|
|
her of anything sordid or sinister in the man to whose deep art she
|
|
had succumbed would be decently discreet only in the event of her
|
|
being persuaded. Otherwise he should simply have damned himself. It
|
|
cost him an equal effort to speak his thought and to dissemble; he
|
|
could neither assent with sincerity nor protest with hope. Meanwhile
|
|
he knew-or rather he supposed-that the affianced pair were daily
|
|
renewing their mutual vows. Osmond at this moment showed himself
|
|
little at Palazzo Crescentini; but Isabel met him every day elsewhere,
|
|
as she was free to do after their engagement had been made public. She
|
|
had taken a carriage by the month, so as not to be indebted to her
|
|
aunt for the means of pursuing a course of which Mrs. Touchett
|
|
disapproved, and she drove in the morning to the Cascine. This
|
|
suburban wilderness, during the early hours, was void of all
|
|
intruders, and our young lady, joined by her lover in its quietest
|
|
part, strolled with him a while through the grey Italian shade and
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listened to the nightingales.
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CHAPTER 34
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One morning, on her return from her drive, some half-hour before
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luncheon, she quitted her vehicle in the court of the palace and,
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instead of ascending the great staircase, crossed the court, passed
|
|
beneath another archway and entered the garden. A sweeter spot at this
|
|
moment could not have been imagined. The stillness of noontide hung
|
|
over it, and the warm shade, enclosed and still, made bowers like
|
|
spacious caves. Ralph was sitting there in the clear gloom, at the
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|
base of a statue of Terpsichore-a dancing nymph with taper fingers and
|
|
inflated draperies in the manner of Bernini; the extreme relaxation of
|
|
his attitude suggested at first to Isabel that he was asleep. Her
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|
light footstep on the grass had not roused him, and before turning
|
|
away she stood for a moment looking at him. During this instant he
|
|
opened his eyes; upon which she sat down on a rustic chair that
|
|
matched with his own. Though in her irritation she had accused him
|
|
of indifference she was not blind to the fact that he had visibly
|
|
had something to brood over. But she had explained his air of
|
|
absence partly by the languor of his increased weakness, partly by
|
|
worries connected with the property inherited from his father-the
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|
fruit of eccentric arrangements of which Mrs. Touchett disapproved and
|
|
which, as she had told Isabel, now encountered opposition from the
|
|
other partners in the bank. He ought to have gone to England, his
|
|
mother said, instead of coming to Florence; he had not been there
|
|
for months, and took no more interest in the bank than in the state of
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Patagonia.
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|
"I'm sorry I waked you," Isabel said; "you look too tired."
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"I feel too tired. But I was not asleep. I was thinking of you."
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"Are you tired of that?"
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"Very much so. It leads to nothing. The road's long and I never
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arrive."
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"What do you wish to arrive at?" she put to him, closing her
|
|
parasol.
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"At the point of expressing to myself properly what I think of
|
|
your engagement."
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"Don't think too much of it," she lightly returned.
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|
"Do you mean that it's none of my business?"
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|
"Beyond a certain point, yes."
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"That's the point I want to fix. I had an idea you may have found me
|
|
wanting in good manners. I've never congratulated you."
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|
"Of course I've noticed that. I wondered why you were silent."
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|
"There have been a good many reasons. I'll tell you now," Ralph
|
|
said. He pulled off his hat and laid it on the ground; then he sat
|
|
looking at her. He leaned back under the protection of Bernini, his
|
|
head against his marble pedestal, his arms dropped on either side of
|
|
him, his hands laid upon the rests of his wide chair. He looked
|
|
awkward, uncomfortable; he hesitated long. Isabel said nothing; when
|
|
people were embarrassed she was usually sorry for them, but she was
|
|
determined not to help Ralph to utter a word that should not be to the
|
|
honour of her high decision. "I think I've hardly got over my
|
|
surprise," he went on at last. "You were the last person I expected to
|
|
see caught."
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"I don't know why you call it caught."
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"Because you're going to be put into a cage."
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"If I like my cage, that needn't trouble you," she answered.
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"That's what I wonder at; that's what I've been thinking of."
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"If you've been thinking you may imagine how I've thought! I'm
|
|
satisfied that I'm doing well."
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|
"You must have changed immensely. A year ago you valued your liberty
|
|
beyond everything. You wanted only to see life."
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|
"I've seen it," said Isabel. "It doesn't look to me now, I admit,
|
|
such an inviting expanse."
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|
|
"I don't pretend it is; only I had an idea that you took a genial
|
|
view of it and wanted to survey the whole field."
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|
"I've seen that one can't do anything so general. One must choose
|
|
a corner and cultivate that."
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|
"That's what I think. And one must choose as good a corner as
|
|
possible. I had an idea, all winter, while I read your delightful
|
|
letters, that you were choosing. You said nothing about it, and your
|
|
silence put me off my guard."
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|
"It was not a matter I was likely to write to you about. Besides,
|
|
I knew nothing of the future. It has all come lately. If you had
|
|
been on your guard, however," Isabel asked, "what would you have
|
|
done?"
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|
|
"I should have said 'Wait a little longer.'
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"Wait for what?"
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"Well, for a little more light," said Ralph with rather an absurd
|
|
smile, while his hands found their way into his pockets.
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"Where should my light have come from? From you?"
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|
"I might have struck a spark or two."
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|
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Isabel had drawn off her gloves; she smoothed them out as they lay
|
|
upon her knee. The mildness of this movement was accidental, for her
|
|
expression was not conciliatory. "You're beating about the bush,
|
|
Ralph. You wish to say you don't like Mr. Osmond, and yet you're
|
|
afraid."
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|
|
'Willing to wound and yet afraid to strike'? I'm willing to wound
|
|
him, yes-but not to wound you. I'm afraid of you, not of him. If you
|
|
marry him it won't be a fortunate way for me to have spoken."
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|
"If I marry him! Have you had any expectation of dissuading me?"
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|
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"Of course that seems to you too fatuous."
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|
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"No," said Isabel after a little; "it seems to me too touching."
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|
|
"That's the same thing. It makes me so ridiculous that you pity me."
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|
She stroked out her long gloves again. "I know you've a great
|
|
affection for me. I can't get rid of that."
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|
|
"For heaven's sake don't try. Keep that well in sight. It will
|
|
convince you how intensely I want you to do well."
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|
|
"And how little you trust me!"
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|
|
There was a moment's silence; the warm noon-tide seemed to listen.
|
|
"I trust you, but I don't trust him," said Ralph.
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|
|
She raised her eyes and gave him a wide, deep look. "You've said
|
|
it now, and I'm glad you've made it so clear. But you'll suffer by
|
|
it."
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|
|
"Not if you're just."
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|
|
"I'm very just," said Isabel. "What better proof of it can there
|
|
be than that I'm not angry with you? I don't know what's the matter
|
|
with me, but I'm not. I was when you began, but it has passed away.
|
|
Perhaps I ought to be angry, but Mr. Osmond wouldn't think so. He
|
|
wants me to know everything; that's what I like him for. You've
|
|
nothing to gain, I know that. I've never been so nice to you, as a
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girl, that you should have much reason for wishing me to remain one.
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You give very good advice; you've often done so. No, I'm very quiet;
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I've always believed in your wisdom," she went on, boasting of her
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quietness, yet speaking with a kind of contained exaltation. It was
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her passionate desire to be just; it touched Ralph to the heart,
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affected him like a caress from a creature he had injured. He wished
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to interrupt, to reassure her; for a moment he was absurdly
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inconsistent; he would have retracted what he had said. But she gave
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him no chance; she went on, having caught a glimpse, as she thought,
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of the heroic line and desiring to advance in that direction. "I see
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you've some special idea; I should like very much to hear it. I'm sure
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it's disinterested; I feel that. It seems a strange thing to argue
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about, and of course I ought to tell you definitely that if you expect
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to dissuade me you may give it up. You'll not move me an inch; it's
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too late. As you say, I'm caught. Certainly it won't be pleasant for
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you to remember this, but your pain will be in your own thoughts. I
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shall never reproach you."
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"I don't think you ever will," said Ralph. "It's not in the least
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the sort of marriage I thought you'd make."
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"What sort of marriage was that, pray?"
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"Well, I can hardly say. I hadn't exactly a positive view of it, but
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I had a negative. I didn't think you'd decide for-well, for that
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type."
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"What's the matter with Mr. Osmond's type, if it be one? His being
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so independent, so individual, is what I most see in him," the girl
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declared. "What do you know against him? You know him scarcely at
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all."
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"Yes," Ralph said, "I know him very little, and I confess I
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haven't facts and items to prove him a villain. But all the same I
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can't help feeling that you're running a grave risk."
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"Marriage is always a grave risk, and his risk's as grave as mine."
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"That's his affair! If he's afraid, let him back out. I wish to
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God he would."
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Isabel reclined in her chair, folding her arms and gazing a while at
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her cousin. "I don't think I understand you," she said at last coldly.
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"I don't know what you're talking about."
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"I believed you'd marry a man of more importance."
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Cold, I say, her tone had been, but at this a colour like a flame
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leaped into her face. "Of more importance to whom? It seems to me
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enough that one's husband should be of importance to one's self!"
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Ralph blushed as well; his attitude embarrassed him. Physically
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speaking he proceeded to change it; he straightened himself, then
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leaned forward, resting a hand on each knee. He fixed his eyes on
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the ground; he had an air of the most respectful deliberation. "I'll
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tell you in a moment what I mean," he presently said. He felt
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agitated, intensely eager; now that he had opened the discussion he
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wished to discharge his mind. But he wished also to be superlatively
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gentle.
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Isabel waited a little-then she went on with majesty. "In everything
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that makes one care for people Mr. Osmond is pre-eminent. There may be
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nobler natures, but I've never had the pleasure of meeting one. Mr.
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Osmond's is the finest I know; he's good enough for me, and
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interesting enough, and clever enough. I'm far more struck with what
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he has and what he represents than with what he may lack."
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"I had treated myself to a charming vision of your future," Ralph
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observed without answering this: "I had amused myself with planning
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out a high destiny for you. There was to be nothing of this sort in
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it. You were not to come down so easily or so soon."
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"Come down, you say?"
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"Well, that renders my sense of what has happened to you. You seemed
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to me to be soaring far up in the blue-to be, sailing in the bright
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light, over the heads of men. Suddenly some one tosses up a faded
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rosebud-a missile that should never have reached you-and straight
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you drop to the ground. It hurts me," said Ralph audaciously, "hurts
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me as if I had fallen myself!"
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The look of pain and bewilderment deepened in his companion's
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face. "I don't understand you in the least," she repeated. "You say
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you amused yourself with a project for my career-I don't understand
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that. Don't amuse yourself too much, or I shall think you're doing
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it at my expense."
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Ralph shook his head. "I'm not afraid of your not believing that
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I've had great ideas for you."
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"What do you mean by my soaring and sailing?" she pursued. "I've
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never moved on a higher plane than I'm moving on now. There's
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nothing higher for a girl than to marry a-a person she likes," said
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poor Isabel, wandering into the didactic.
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"It's your liking the person we speak of that I venture to
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criticize, my dear cousin. I should have said that the man for you
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would have been a more active, larger, freer sort of nature." Ralph
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hesitated, then added: "I can't get over the sense that Osmond is
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somehow-well, small." He had uttered the last word with no great
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assurance; he was afraid she would flash out again. But to his
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surprise she was quiet; she had the air of considering.
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"Small?" She made it sound immense.
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"I think he's narrow, selfish. He takes himself so seriously!
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"He has a great respect for himself; I don't blame him for that,"
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said Isabel. "It makes one more sure to respect others."
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Ralph for a moment felt almost reassured by her reasonable tone.
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"Yes, but everything is relative; one ought to feel one's relation
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to things-to others. I don't think Mr. Osmond does that."
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"I've chiefly to do with his relation to me. In that he's
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excellent."
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"He's the incarnation of taste," Ralph went on, thinking hard how he
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could best express Gilbert Osmond's sinister attributes without
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putting himself in the wrong by seeming to describe him coarsely. He
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wished to describe him impersonally, scientifically. "He judges and
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measures, approves and condemns, altogether by that."
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"It's a happy thing then that his taste should be exquisite."
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"It's exquisite, indeed, since it has led him to select you as his
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bride. But have you ever seen such a taste-a really exquisite
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one-ruffled?"
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"I hope it may never be my fortune to fail to gratify my husband's."
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At these words a sudden passion leaped to Ralph's lips. "Ah,
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that's wilful, that's unworthy of you! You were not meant to be
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measured in that way-you were meant for something better than to
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keep guard over the sensibilities of a sterile dilettante!"
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Isabel rose quickly and he did the same, so that they stood for a
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|
moment looking at each other as if he had flung down a defiance or
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an insult. But "You go too far," she simply breathed.
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"I've said what I had on my mind-and I've said it because I love
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you!"
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Isabel turned pale: was he too on that tiresome list? She had a
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sudden wish to strike him off. "Ah then, you're not disinterested!"
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"I love you, but I love without hope," said Ralph quickly, forcing a
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smile and feeling that in that last declaration he had expressed
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more than he intended.
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Isabel moved away and stood looking into the sunny stillness of
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the garden; but after a little she turned back to him. "I'm afraid
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your talk then is the wildness of despair! I don't understand it-but
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it doesn't matter. I'm not arguing with you; it's impossible I should;
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I've only tried to listen to you. I'm much obliged to you for
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|
attempting to explain," she said gently, as if the anger with which
|
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she had just sprung up had already subsided. "It's very good of you to
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try to warn me, if you're really alarmed; but I won't promise to think
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|
of what you've said: I shall forget it as soon as possible. Try and
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|
forget it yourself; you've done your duty, and no man can do more. I
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|
can't explain to you what I feel, what I believe, and I wouldn't if
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|
I could." She paused a moment and then went on with an inconsequence
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|
that Ralph observed even in the midst of his eagerness to discover
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|
some symptom of concession. "I can't enter into your idea of Mr.
|
|
Osmond; I can't do it justice, because I see him in quite another way.
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|
He's not important-no, he's not important; he's a man to whom
|
|
importance is supremely indifferent. If that's what you mean when
|
|
you call him 'small,' then he's as small as you please. I call that
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|
large-it's the largest thing I know. I won't pretend to argue with you
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about a person I'm going to marry," Isabel repeated. "I'm not in the
|
|
least concerned to defend Mr. Osmond; he's not so weak as to need my
|
|
defence. I should think it would seem strange even to yourself that
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|
I should talk of him so quietly and coldly, as if he were any one
|
|
else. I wouldn't talk of him at all to any one but you; and you, after
|
|
what you've said-I may just answer you once for all. Pray, would you
|
|
wish me to make a mercenary marriage-what they call a marriage of
|
|
ambition? I've only one ambition-to be free to follow out a good
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|
feeling. I had others once, but they've passed away. Do you complain
|
|
of Mr. Osmond because he's not rich? That's just what I like him
|
|
for. I've fortunately money enough; I've never felt so thankful for it
|
|
as to-day. There have been moments when I should like to go and
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|
kneel down by your father's grave: he did perhaps a better thing
|
|
than he knew when he put it into my power to marry a poor man-a man
|
|
who has borne his poverty with such dignity, with such indifference.
|
|
Mr. Osmond has never scrambled nor struggled he has cared for no
|
|
worldly prize. If that's to be narrow, if that's to be selfish, then
|
|
it's very well. I'm not frightened by such words, I'm not even
|
|
displeased; I'm only sorry that you should make a mistake. Others
|
|
might have done so, but I'm surprised that you should. You might
|
|
know a gentleman when you see one-you might know a fine mind. Mr.
|
|
Osmond makes no mistakes! He knows everything, he understands
|
|
everything, he has the kindest, gentlest, highest spirit. You've got
|
|
hold of some false idea. It's a pity, but I can't help it; it
|
|
regards you more than me." Isabel paused a moment, looking at her
|
|
cousin with an eye illumined by a sentiment which contradicted the
|
|
careful calmness of her manner-a mingled sentiment, to which the angry
|
|
pain excited by his words and the wounded pride of having needed to
|
|
justify a choice of which she felt only the nobleness and purity,
|
|
equally contributed. Though she paused Ralph said nothing; he saw
|
|
she had more to say. She was grand, but she was highly solicitous; she
|
|
was indifferent, but she was all in a passion. "What sort of a
|
|
person should you have liked me to marry?" she asked suddenly. "You
|
|
talk about one's soaring and sailing, but if one marries at all one
|
|
touches the earth. One has human feelings and needs, one has a heart
|
|
in one's bosom, and one must marry a particular individual. Your
|
|
mother has never forgiven me for not having come to a better
|
|
understanding with Lord Warburton, and she's horrified at my
|
|
contenting myself with a person who has none of his great
|
|
advantages-no property, no title, no honours, no houses, nor lands,
|
|
nor position, nor reputation, nor brilliant belongings of any sort.
|
|
It's the total absence of all these things that pleases me. Mr.
|
|
Osmond's simply a very lonely, a very cultivated and a very honest
|
|
man-he's not a prodigious proprietor."
|
|
|
|
Ralph had listened with great attention, as if everything she said
|
|
merited deep consideration; but in truth he was only half thinking
|
|
of the things she said, he was for the rest simply accommodating
|
|
himself to the weight of his total impression-the impression of her
|
|
ardent good faith. She was wrong, but she believed; she was deluded,
|
|
but she was dismally consistent. It was wonderfully characteristic
|
|
of her that, having invented a fine theory about Gilbert Osmond, she
|
|
loved him not for what he really possessed, but for his very poverties
|
|
dressed out as honours. Ralph remembered what be had said to his
|
|
father about wishing to put it into her power to meet the requirements
|
|
of her imagination. He had done so, and the girl had taken full
|
|
advantage of luxury. Poor Ralph felt sick; he felt ashamed. Isabel had
|
|
uttered her last words with a low solemnity of conviction which
|
|
virtually terminated the discussion, and she closed it formally by
|
|
turning away and walking back to the house. Ralph walked beside her,
|
|
and they passed into the court together and reached the big staircase.
|
|
Here he stopped and Isabel paused, turning on him a face of
|
|
elation-absolutely and perversely of gratitude. His opposition had
|
|
made her own conception of her conduct clearer to her. "Shall you
|
|
not come up to breakfast?" she asked.
|
|
|
|
"No; I want no breakfast; I'm not hungry."
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|
|
|
"You ought to eat," said the girl; "you live on air."
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|
|
|
"I do, very much, and I shall go back into the garden and take
|
|
another mouthful. I came thus far simply to say this. I told you
|
|
last year that if you were to get into trouble I should feel
|
|
terribly sold. That's how I feel to-day."
|
|
|
|
"Do you think I'm in trouble?"
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|
|
|
"One's in trouble when one's in error."
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|
|
|
"Very well," said Isabel; "I shall never complain of my trouble to
|
|
you!
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|
And she moved up the staircase.
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|
|
|
Ralph, standing there with his hands in his pockets followed her
|
|
with his eyes; then the lurking chill of the high-walled court
|
|
struck him and made him shiver, so that he returned to the garden to
|
|
breakfast on the Florentine sunshine.
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CHAPTER 35
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Isabel, when she strolled in the Cascine with her lover, felt no
|
|
impulse to tell him how little he was approved at Palazzo Crescentini.
|
|
The discreet opposition offered to her marriage by her aunt and her
|
|
cousin made on the whole no great impression upon her; the moral of it
|
|
was simply that they disliked Gilbert Osmond. This dislike was not
|
|
alarming to Isabel; she scarcely even regretted it; for it served
|
|
mainly to throw into higher relief the fact, in every way so
|
|
honourable, that she married to please herself. One did other things
|
|
to please other people; one did this for a more personal satisfaction;
|
|
and Isabel's satisfaction was confirmed by her lover's admirable
|
|
good conduct. Gilbert Osmond was in love, and he had never deserved
|
|
less than during these still, bright days, each of them numbered,
|
|
which preceded the fulfilment of his hopes, the harsh criticism passed
|
|
upon him by Ralph Touchett. The chief impression produced on
|
|
Isabel's spirit by this criticism was that the passion of love
|
|
separated its victim terribly from every one but the loved object. She
|
|
felt herself disjoined from every one she had ever known before-from
|
|
her two sisters, who wrote to express a dutiful hope that she would be
|
|
happy, and a surprise, somewhat more vague, at her not having chosen a
|
|
consort who was the hero of a richer accumulation of anecdote; from
|
|
Henrietta, who, she was sure, would come out, too late, on purpose
|
|
to remonstrate; from Lord Warburton, who would certainly console
|
|
himself, and from Caspar Goodwood, who perhaps would not; from her
|
|
aunt, who had cold, shallow ideas about marriage, for which she was
|
|
not sorry to display her contempt; and from Ralph, whose talk about
|
|
having great views for her was surely but a whimsical cover for a
|
|
personal disappointment. Ralph apparently wished her not to marry at
|
|
all-that was what it really meant-because he was amused with the
|
|
spectacle of her adventures as a single woman. His disappointment made
|
|
him say angry things about the man she had preferred even to him:
|
|
Isabel flattered herself that she believed Ralph had been angry. It
|
|
was the more easy for her to believe this because, as I say, she had
|
|
now little free or unemployed emotion for minor needs, and accepted as
|
|
an incident, in fact quite as an ornament, of her lot the idea that to
|
|
prefer Gilbert Osmond as she preferred him was perforce to break all
|
|
other ties. She tasted of the sweets of this preference, and they made
|
|
her conscious, almost with awe, of the invidious and remorseless
|
|
tide of the charmed and possessed condition, great as was the
|
|
traditional honour and imputed virtue of being in love. It was the
|
|
tragic part of happiness; one's right was always made of the wrong
|
|
of some one else.
|
|
|
|
The elation of success, which surely now flamed high in Osmond,
|
|
emitted meanwhile very little smoke for so brilliant a blaze.
|
|
Contentment, on his part, took no vulgar form; excitement, in the most
|
|
self-conscious of men, was a kind of ecstasy of self-control. This
|
|
disposition, however, made him an admirable lover; it gave him a
|
|
constant view of the smitten and dedicated state. He never forgot
|
|
himself, as I say; and so he never forgot to be graceful and tender,
|
|
to wear the appearance-which presented indeed no difficulty-of stirred
|
|
senses and deep intentions. He was immensely pleased with his young
|
|
lady; Madame Merle had made him a present of incalculable value.
|
|
What could be a finer thing to live with than a high spirit attuned to
|
|
softness? For would not the softness be all for one's self, and the
|
|
strenuousness for society, which admired the air of superiority?
|
|
What could be a happier gift in a companion than a quick, fanciful
|
|
mind which saved one repetitions and reflected one's thought on a
|
|
polished, elegant surface? Osmond hated to see his thought
|
|
reproduced literally-that made it look stale and stupid; he
|
|
preferred it to be freshened in the reproduction even as "words" by
|
|
music. His egotism had never taken the crude form of desiring a dull
|
|
wife; this lady's intelligence was to be a silver plate, not an
|
|
earthen one-a plate that he might heap up with ripe fruits, to which
|
|
it would give a decorative value, so that talk might become for him
|
|
a sort of served dessert. He found the silver quality in this
|
|
perfection in Isabel; he could tap her imagination with his knuckle
|
|
and make it ring. He knew perfectly, though he had not been told, that
|
|
their union enjoyed little favour with the girl's relations; but he
|
|
had always treated her so completely as an independent person that
|
|
it hardly seemed necessary to express regret for the attitude of her
|
|
family. Nevertheless, one morning, he made an abrupt allusion to it.
|
|
"It's the difference in our fortune they don't like," he said. "They
|
|
think I'm in love with your money."
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|
|
|
"Are you speaking of my aunt-of my cousin?" Isabel asked. "How do
|
|
you know what they think?"
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|
|
|
"You've not told me they're pleased, and when I wrote to Mrs.
|
|
Touchett the other day she never answered my note. If they had been
|
|
delighted I should have had some sign of it, and the fact of my
|
|
being poor and you rich is the most obvious explanation of their
|
|
reserve. But of course when a poor man marries a rich girl he must
|
|
be prepared for imputations. I don't mind them; I only care for one
|
|
thing-for your not having the shadow of a doubt. I don't care what
|
|
people of whom I ask nothing think-I'm not even capable perhaps of
|
|
wanting to know. I've never so concerned myself, God forgive me, and
|
|
why should I begin to-day, when I have taken to myself a
|
|
compensation for everything? I won't pretend I'm sorry you're rich;
|
|
I'm delighted. I delight in everything that's yours-whether it be
|
|
money or virtue. Money's a horrid thing to follow, but a charming
|
|
thing to meet. It seems to me, however, that I've sufficiently
|
|
proved the limits of my itch for it: I never in my life tried to
|
|
earn a penny, and I ought to be less subject to suspicion than most of
|
|
the people one sees grubbing and grabbing. I suppose it's their
|
|
business to suspect-that of your family; it's proper on the whole they
|
|
should. They'll like me better some day; so will you, for that matter.
|
|
Meanwhile my business is not to make myself bad blood, but simply to
|
|
be thankful for life and love." "It has made me better, loving you,"
|
|
he said on another occasion; "it has made me wiser and easier and I
|
|
won't pretend to deny-brighter and nicer and even stronger. I used
|
|
to want a great many things before and to be angry I didn't have them.
|
|
Theoretically I was satisfied, as I once told you. I flattered
|
|
myself I had limited my wants. But I was subject to irritation; I used
|
|
to have morbid, sterile, hateful fits of hunger, of desire. Now I'm
|
|
really satisfied, because I can't think of anything better. It's
|
|
just as when one has been trying to spell out a book in the twilight
|
|
and suddenly the lamp comes in. I had been putting out my eyes over
|
|
the book of life and finding nothing to reward me for my pains; but
|
|
now that I can read it properly I see it's a delightful story. My dear
|
|
girl, I can't tell you how life seems to stretch there before
|
|
us-what a long summer afternoon awaits us. It's the latter half of
|
|
an Italian day-with a golden haze, and the shadows just lengthening,
|
|
and that divine delicacy in the light, the air, the landscape, which I
|
|
have loved all my life and which you love to-day. Upon my honour, I
|
|
don't see why we shouldn't get on. We've got what we like-to say
|
|
nothing of having each other. We've the faculty of admiration and
|
|
several capital convictions. We're not stupid, we're not mean, we're
|
|
not under bonds to any kind of ignorance or dreariness. You're
|
|
remarkably fresh, and I'm remarkably well-seasoned. We've my poor
|
|
child to amuse us; we'll try and make up some little life for her.
|
|
It's all soft and mellow-it has the Italian colouring."
|
|
|
|
They made a good many plans, but they left themselves also a good
|
|
deal of latitude; it was a matter of course, however, that they should
|
|
live for the present in Italy. It was in Italy that they had met,
|
|
Italy had been a party to their first impressions of each other, and
|
|
Italy should be a party to their happiness. Osmond had the
|
|
attachment of old acquaintance and Isabel the stimulus of new, which
|
|
seemed to assure her a future at a high level of consciousness of
|
|
the beautiful. The desire for unlimited expansion had been succeeded
|
|
in her soul by the sense that life was vacant without some private
|
|
duty that might gather one's energies to a point. She had told Ralph
|
|
she had "seen life" in a year or two and that she was already tired,
|
|
not of the act of living, but of that of observing. What had become of
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all her ardours, her aspirations, her theories, her high estimate of
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her independence and her incipient conviction that she should never
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marry? These things had been absorbed in a more primitive need-a
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need the answer to which brushed away numberless questions, yet
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gratified infinite desires. It simplified the situation at a stroke,
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it came down from above like the light of the stars, and it needed
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no explanation. There was explanation enough in the fact that he was
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her lover, her own, and that she should be able to be of use to him.
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She could surrender to him with a kind of humility, she could marry
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him with a kind of pride; she was not only taking, she was giving.
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He brought Pansy with him two or three times to the Cascine-Pansy
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who was very little taller than a year before, and not much older.
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That she would always be a child was the conviction expressed by her
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father, who held her by the hand when she was in her sixteenth year
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and told her to go and play while he sat down a little with the pretty
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lady. Pansy wore a short dress and a long coat; her hat always
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seemed too big for her. She found pleasure in walking off, with quick,
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short steps, to the end of the alley, and then in walking back with
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a smile that seemed an appeal for approbation. Isabel approved in
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abundance, and the abundance had the personal touch that the child's
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affectionate nature craved. She watched her indications as if for
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herself also much depended on them-Pansy already so represented part
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of the service she could render, part of the responsibility she
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could face. Her father took so the childish view of her that he had
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not yet explained to her the new relation in which he stood to the
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elegant Miss Archer. "She doesn't know," he said to Isabel; "she
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doesn't guess; she thinks it perfectly natural that you and I should
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come and walk here together simply as good friends. There seems to
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me something enchantingly innocent in that; it's the way I like her to
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be. No, I'm not a failure, as I used to think; I've succeeded in two
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things. I'm to marry the woman I adore, and I've brought up my
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child, as I wished, in the old way."
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He was very fond, in all things, of the "old way"; that had struck
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Isabel as one of his fine, quiet, sincere notes. "It occurs to me that
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you'll not know whether you've succeeded until you've told her," she
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said. "You must see how she takes your news. She may be
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horrified-she may be jealous."
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"I'm not afraid of that; she's too fond of you on her own account. I
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should like to leave her in the dark a little longer-to see if it will
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come into her head that if we're not engaged we ought to be."
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Isabel was impressed by Osmond's artistic, the plastic view, as it
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somehow appeared, of Pansy's innocence-her own appreciation of it
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being more anxiously moral. She was perhaps not the less pleased
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when he told her a few days later that he had communicated the fact to
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his daughter, who had made such a pretty little speech-"Oh, then I
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shall have a beautiful sister!"
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She was neither surprised nor alarmed; she had not cried, as he
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expected.
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"Perhaps she had guessed it," said Isabel.
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"Don't say that; I should be disgusted if I believed that. I thought
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it would be just a little shock; but the way she took it proves that
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her good manners are paramount. That's also what I wished. You shall
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see for yourself; to-morrow she shall make you her congratulations
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in person."
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The meeting, on the morrow, took place at the Countess Gemini's,
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whither Pansy had been conducted by her father, who knew that Isabel
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was to come in the afternoon to return a visit made her by the
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Countess on learning that they were to become sisters-in-law.
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Calling at Casa Touchett the visitor had not found Isabel at home; but
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after our young woman had been ushered into the Countess's
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drawing-room Pansy arrived to say that her aunt would presently
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appear. Pansy was spending the day with that lady, who thought her
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of an age to begin to learn how to carry herself in company. It was
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Isabel's view that the little girl might have given lessons in
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deportment to her relative, and nothing could have justified this
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conviction more than the manner in which Pansy acquitted herself while
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they waited together for the Countess. Her father's decision, the year
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before, had finally been to send her back to the convent to receive
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the last graces, and Madame Catherine had evidently carried out her
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theory that Pansy was to be fitted for the great world.
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"Papa has told me that you've kindly consented to marry him," said
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this excellent woman's pupil. "It's very delightful; I think you'll
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suit very well."
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"You think I shall suit you?"
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"You'll suit me beautifully; but what I mean is that you and papa
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will suit each other. You're both so quiet and so serious. You're
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not so quiet as he-or even as Madame Merle; but you're more quiet than
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many others. He should not for instance have a wife like my aunt.
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She's always in motion, in agitation-to-day especially; you'll see
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when she comes in. They told us at the convent it was wrong to judge
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our elders, but I suppose there's no harm if we judge them favourably.
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You'll be a delightful companion for papa."
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"For you too, I hope," Isabel said.
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"I speak first of him on purpose. I've told you already what I
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myself think of you; I liked you from the first. I admire you so
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much that I think it will be a good fortune to have you always
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before me. You'll be my model; I shall try to imitate you though I'm
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afraid it will be very feeble. I'm very glad for papa-he needed
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something more than me. Without you I don't see how he could have
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got it. You'll be my stepmother, but we mustn't use that word. They're
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always said to be cruel; but I don't think you'll ever so much as
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pinch or even push me. I'm not afraid at all."
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"My good little Pansy," said Isabel gently, "I shall be ever so kind
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to you." A vague, inconsequent vision of her coming in some odd way to
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need it had intervened with the effect of a chill.
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"Very well then, I've nothing to fear," the child returned with
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her note of prepared promptitude. What teaching she had had, it seemed
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to suggest-or what penalties for non-performance she dreaded!
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Her description of her aunt had not been incorrect; the Countess
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Gemini was further than ever from having folded her wings. She entered
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the room with a flutter through the air and kissed Isabel first on the
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forehead and then on each cheek as if according to some ancient
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|
prescribed rite. She drew the visitor to a sofa and, looking at her
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|
with a variety of turns of the head, began to talk very much as if,
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seated brush in hand before an easel, she were applying a series of
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|
considered touches to a composition of figures already sketched in.
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|
"If you expect me to congratulate you I must beg you to excuse me. I
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|
don't suppose you care if I do or not; I believe you're supposed not
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|
to care-through being so clever-for all sorts of ordinary things.
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|
But I care myself if I tell fibs; I never tell them unless there's
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something rather good to be gained. I don't see what's to be gained
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|
with you- especially as you wouldn't believe me. I don't make
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|
professions any more than I make paper flowers or flouncey
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|
lampshades-I don't know how. My lampshades would be sure to take fire,
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|
my roses and my fibs to be larger than life. I'm very glad for my
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|
own sake that you're to marry Osmond; but I won't pretend I'm glad for
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|
yours. You're very brilliant-you know that's the way you're always
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|
spoken of; you're an heiress and very good-looking and original, not
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|
banal; so it's a good thing to have you in the family. Our family's
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|
very good, you know; Osmond will have told you that; and my mother was
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|
rather distinguished-she was called the American Corinne. But we're
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|
dreadfully fallen, I think, and perhaps you'll pick us up. I've
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|
great confidence in you; there are ever so many things I want to
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|
talk to you about. I never congratulate any girl on marrying; I
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|
think they ought to make it somehow not quite so awful a steel trap. I
|
|
suppose Pansy oughtn't to hear all this; but that's what she has
|
|
come to me for-to acquire the tone of society. There's no harm in
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|
her knowing what horrors she may be in for. When first I got an idea
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|
that my brother had designs on you I thought of writing to you, to
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|
recommend you, in the strongest terms, not to listen to him. Then I
|
|
thought it would be disloyal, and I hate anything of that kind.
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|
Besides, as I say, I was enchanted for myself; and after all I'm
|
|
very selfish. By the way, you won't respect me, not one little mite,
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|
and we shall never be intimate. I should like it, but you won't.
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|
Some day, all the same, we shall be better friends than you will
|
|
believe at first. My husband will come and see you, though, as you
|
|
probably know, he's on no sort of terms with Osmond. He's very fond of
|
|
going to see pretty women, but I'm not afraid of you. In the first
|
|
place I don't care what he does. In the second, you won't care a straw
|
|
for him; he won't be a bit, at any time, your affair, and, stupid as
|
|
he is, he'll see you're not his. Some day, if you can stand it, I'll
|
|
tell you all about him. Do you think my niece ought to go out of the
|
|
room? Pansy, go and practise a little in my boudoir."
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"Let her stay, please," said Isabel. "I would rather hear nothing
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that Pansy may not!"
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CHAPTER 36
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One afternoon of the autumn of 1876, toward dusk, a young man of
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|
pleasing appearance rang at the door of a small apartment on the third
|
|
floor of an old Roman house. On its being opened he enquired for
|
|
Madame Merle; whereupon the servant, a neat, plain woman, with a
|
|
French face and a lady's maid's manner, ushered him into a
|
|
diminutive drawing-room and requested the favour of his name. "Mr.
|
|
Edward Rosier," said the young man, who sat down to wait till his
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|
hostess should appear.
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|
The reader will perhaps not have forgotten that Mr. Rosier was an
|
|
ornament of the American circle in Paris, but it may also be
|
|
remembered that he sometimes vanished from its horizon. He had spent a
|
|
portion of several winters at Pau, and as he was a gentleman of
|
|
constituted habits he might have continued for years to pay his annual
|
|
visit to this charming resort. In the summer of 1876, however, an
|
|
incident befell him which changed the current not only of his
|
|
thoughts, but of his customary sequences. He passed a month in the
|
|
Upper Engadine and encountered at Saint Moritz a charming young
|
|
girl. To this little person he began to pay, on the spot, particular
|
|
attention: she struck him as exactly the household angel he had long
|
|
been looking for. He was never precipitate, he was nothing if not
|
|
discreet, so he forbore for the present to declare his passion; but it
|
|
seemed to him when they parted-the young lady to go down into Italy
|
|
and her admirer to proceed to Geneva, where he was under bonds to join
|
|
other friends that he should be romantically wretched if he were not
|
|
to see her again. The simplest way to do so was to go in the autumn to
|
|
Rome, where Miss Osmond was domiciled with her family. Mr. Rosier
|
|
started on his pilgrimage to the Italian capital and reached it on the
|
|
first of November. It was a pleasant thing to do, but for the young
|
|
man there was a strain of the heroic in the enterprise. He might
|
|
expose himself, unseasoned, to the poison of the Roman air, which in
|
|
November lay, notoriously, much in wait. Fortune, however, favours the
|
|
brave; and this adventurer, who took three grains of quinine a day,
|
|
had at the end of a month no cause to deplore his temerity. He had
|
|
made to a certain extent good use of his time; he had devoted it in
|
|
vain to finding a flaw in Pansy Osmond's composition. She was
|
|
admirably finished; she had had the last touch; she was really a
|
|
consummate piece. He thought of her in amorous meditation a good
|
|
deal as he might have thought of a Dresden-china shepherdess. Miss
|
|
Osmond, indeed, in the bloom of her juvenility, had a hint of the
|
|
rococo which Rosier, whose taste was predominantly for that manner,
|
|
could not fail to appreciate. That he esteemed the productions of
|
|
comparatively frivolous periods would have been apparent from the
|
|
attention he bestowed upon Madame Merle's drawing-room, which,
|
|
although furnished with specimens of every style, was especially
|
|
rich in articles of the last two centuries. He had immediately put a
|
|
glass into one eye and looked round; and then "By Jove, she has some
|
|
jolly good things!" he had yearningly murmured. The room was small and
|
|
densely filled with furniture; it gave an impression of faded silk and
|
|
little statuettes which might totter if one moved. Rosier got up and
|
|
wandered about with his careful tread, bending over the tables charged
|
|
with knick-knacks and the cushions embossed with princely arms. When
|
|
Madame Merle came in she found him standing before the fireplace
|
|
with his nose very close to the great lace flounce attached to the
|
|
damask cover of the mantel. He had lifted it delicately, as if he were
|
|
smelling it.
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|
|
|
"It's old Venetian," she said; "it's rather good."
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|
|
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"It's too good for this; you ought to wear it."
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|
|
|
"They tell me you have some better in Paris, in the same situation."
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|
|
|
"Ah, but I can't wear mine," smiled the visitor.
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|
|
|
"I don't see why you shouldn't! I've better lace than that to wear."
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|
|
|
His eyes wandered, lingeringly, round the room again. "You've some
|
|
very good things."
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|
|
|
"Yes, but I hate them."
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|
|
|
"Do you want to get rid of them?" the young man quickly asked.
|
|
|
|
"No, it's good to have something to hate: one works it off!"
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|
|
|
"I love my things," said Mr. Rosier as he sat there flushed with all
|
|
his recognitions. "But it's not about them, nor about yours, that I
|
|
came to talk to you."
|
|
|
|
He paused a moment and then, with greater softness: "I care more for
|
|
Miss Osmond than for all the bibelots in Europe!"
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|
|
|
Madame Merle opened wide eyes. "Did you come to tell me that?"
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|
|
|
"I came to ask your advice."
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|
|
|
She looked at him with a friendly frown, stroking her chin with
|
|
her large white hand. "A man in love, you know, doesn't ask advice."
|
|
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|
"Why not, if he's in a difficult position? That's often the case
|
|
with a man in love. I've been in love before, and I know. But never so
|
|
much as this time-really never so much. I should like particularly
|
|
to know what you think of my prospects. I'm afraid that for Mr. Osmond
|
|
I'm not-well, a real collector's piece."
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|
|
|
"Do you wish me to intercede?" Madame Merle asked with her fine arms
|
|
folded and her handsome mouth drawn up to the left.
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|
|
|
"If you could say a good word for me I should be greatly obliged.
|
|
There will be no use in my troubling Miss Osmond unless I have good
|
|
reason to believe her father will consent."
|
|
|
|
"You're very considerate; that's in your favour. But you assume in
|
|
rather an off-hand way that I think you a prize."
|
|
|
|
"You've been very kind to me," said the young man. "That's why I
|
|
came."
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|
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|
"I'm always kind to people who have good Louis Quatorze. It's very
|
|
rare now, and there's no telling what one may get by it." With which
|
|
the left-hand corner of Madame Merle's mouth gave expression to the
|
|
joke.
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|
|
|
But he looked, in spite of it, literally apprehensive and
|
|
consistently strenuous. "Ah, I thought you liked me for myself!"
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|
|
|
"I like you very much; but, if you please, we won't analyze.
|
|
Pardon me if I seem patronizing, but I think you a perfect little
|
|
gentleman. I must tell you, however, that I've not the marrying of
|
|
Pansy Osmond."
|
|
|
|
"I didn't suppose that. But you've seemed to me intimate with her
|
|
family, and I thought you might have influence."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle considered. "Whom do you call her family?"
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|
|
|
"Why, her father; and-how do you say it in English?-her bellemere."
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|
|
|
"Mr. Osmond's her father, certainly; but his wife can scarcely be
|
|
termed a member of her family. Mrs. Osmond has nothing to do with
|
|
marrying her." "I'm sorry for that," said Rosier with an amiable
|
|
sigh of good faith. "I think Mrs. Osmond would favour me."
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|
|
|
"Very likely-if her husband doesn't."
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|
|
|
He raised his eyebrows. "Does she take the opposite line from him?"
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|
|
|
"In everything. They think quite differently."
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|
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|
"Well," said Rosier, "I'm sorry for that; but it's none of my
|
|
business.
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|
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|
She's very fond of Pansy."
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|
|
"Yes, she's very fond of Pansy."
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|
|
"And Pansy has a great affection for her. She has told me how she
|
|
loves her as if she were her own mother."
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|
|
|
"You must, after all, have had some very intimate talk with the poor
|
|
child," said Madame Merle. "Have you declared your sentiments?"
|
|
|
|
"Never!" cried Rosier, lifting his neatly-gloved hand. "Never till
|
|
I've assured myself of those of the parents."
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|
|
|
"You always wait for that? You've excellent principles; you
|
|
observe the proprieties."
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|
|
|
"I think you're laughing at me," the young man murmured, dropping
|
|
back in his chair and feeling his small moustache. "I didn't expect
|
|
that of you, Madame Merle."
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|
|
|
She shook her head calmly, like a person who saw things as she saw
|
|
them. "You don't do me justice. I think your conduct in excellent
|
|
taste and the best you could adopt. Yes, that's what I think."
|
|
|
|
"I wouldn't agitate her-only to agitate her; I love her too much for
|
|
that," said Ned Rosier.
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|
|
|
"I'm glad, after all, that you've told me," Madame Merle went on.
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|
|
|
"Leave it to me a little; I think I can help you."
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|
|
|
"I said you were the person to come to!" her visitor cried with
|
|
prompt elation.
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|
|
|
"You were very clever," Madame Merle returned more dryly. "When I
|
|
say I can help you I mean once assuming your cause to be good. Let
|
|
us think a little if it is."
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|
|
|
"I'm awfully decent, you know," said Rosier earnestly. "I won't
|
|
say I've no faults, but I'll say I've no vices."
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|
|
|
"All that's negative, and it always depends, also, on what people
|
|
call vices. What's the positive side? What's the virtuous? What have
|
|
you got besides your Spanish lace and your Dresden teacups?"
|
|
|
|
"I've a comfortable little fortune-about forty thousand francs a
|
|
year. With the talent I have for arranging, we can live beautifully on
|
|
such an income."
|
|
|
|
"Beautifully, no. Sufficiently, yes. Even that depends on where
|
|
you live."
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|
|
|
"Well, in Paris. I would undertake it in Paris."
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|
|
|
Madame Merle's mouth rose to the left. "It wouldn't be famous; you'd
|
|
have to make use of the teacups, and they'd get broken."
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|
|
|
"We don't want to be famous. If Miss Osmond should have everything
|
|
pretty it would be enough. When one's as pretty as she one can
|
|
afford-well, quite cheap faience. She ought never to wear anything but
|
|
muslin-without the sprig," said Rosier reflectively.
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|
|
|
"Wouldn't you even allow her the sprig? She'd be much obliged to you
|
|
at any rate for that theory."
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|
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|
"It's the correct one, I assure you; and I'm sure she'd enter into
|
|
it. She understands all that; that's why I love her."
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|
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"She's a very good little girl, and most tidy-also extremely
|
|
graceful.
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|
But her father, to the best of my belief, can give her nothing."
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|
|
Rosier scarce demurred. "I don't in the least desire that he should.
|
|
But I may remark, all the same, that he lives like a rich man."
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|
|
"The money's his wife's; she brought him a large fortune."
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|
"Mrs. Osmond then is very fond of her stepdaughter; she may do
|
|
something."
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|
|
|
"For a love-sick swain you have your eyes about you!" Madame Merle
|
|
exclaimed with a laugh.
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|
|
|
"I esteem a dot very much. I can do without it, but I esteem it."
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Osmond," Madame Merle went on, "will probably prefer to keep
|
|
her money for her own children."
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|
|
"Her own children? Surely she has none."
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|
|
|
"She may have yet. She had a poor little boy, who died two years
|
|
ago, six months after his birth. Others therefore may come."
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|
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|
"I hope they will, if it will make her happy. She's a splendid
|
|
woman." Madame Merle failed to burst into speech. "Ah, about her
|
|
there's much to be said. Splendid as you like! We've not exactly
|
|
made out that you're a parti. The absence of vices is hardly a
|
|
source of income."
|
|
|
|
"Pardon me, I think it may be," said Rosier quite lucidly. "You'll
|
|
be a touching couple, living on your innocence!" "I think you
|
|
underrate me."
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|
|
|
"You're not so innocent as that? Seriously," said Madame Merle,
|
|
"of course forty thousand francs a year and a nice character are a
|
|
combination to be considered. I don't say it's to be jumped at, but
|
|
there might be a worse offer. Mr. Osmond, however, will probably
|
|
incline to believe he can do better."
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|
|
|
"He can do so perhaps; but what can his daughter do? She can't do
|
|
better than marry the man she loves. For she does, you know," Rosier
|
|
added eagerly.
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|
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"She does-I know it."
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"Ah," cried the young man, "I said you were the person to come to."
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"But I don't know how you know it, if you haven't asked her," Madame
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Merle went on.
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"In such a case there's no need of asking and telling; as you say,
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we're an innocent couple. How did you know it?"
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"I who am not innocent? By being very crafty. Leave it to me; I'll
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find out for you."
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Rosier got up and stood smoothing his hat. "You say that rather
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coldly.
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Don't simply find out how it is, but try to make it as it should
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be."
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"I'll do my best. I'll try to make the most of your advantages."
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"Thank you so very much. Meanwhile then I'll say a word to Mrs.
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Osmond."
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"Gardez-vous-en bien!" And Madame Merle was on her feet. "Don't
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set her going, or you'll spoil everything."
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Rosier gazed into his hat; he wondered whether his hostess had
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been after all the right person to come to. "I don't think I
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understand you. I'm an old friend of Mrs. Osmond, and I think she
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would like me to succeed."
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"Be an old friend as much as you like; the more old friends she
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has the better, for she doesn't get on very well with some of her new.
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But don't for the present try to make her take up the cudgels for you.
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Her husband may have other views, and, as a person who wishes her
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well, I advise you not to multiply points of difference between them."
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Poor Rosier's face assumed an expression of alarm; a suit for the
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hand of Pansy Osmond was even a more complicated business than his
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taste for proper transitions had allowed. But the extreme good sense
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which he concealed under a surface suggesting that of a careful
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owner's "best set" came to his assistance. "I don't see that I'm bound
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to consider Mr. Osmond so very much!" he exclaimed.
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"No, but you should consider her. You say you're an old friend.
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Would you make her suffer?"
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"Not for the world."
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"Then be very careful, and let the matter alone till I've taken a
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few soundings."
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"Let the matter alone, dear Madame Merle? Remember that I'm in
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love."
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"Oh, you won't burn up! Why did you come to me, if you're not to
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heed what I say?"
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"You're very kind; I'll be very good," the young man promised.
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"But I'm afraid Mr. Osmond's pretty hard," he added in his mild
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voice as he went to the door.
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Madame Merle gave a short laugh. "It has been said before. But his
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wife isn't easy either."
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"Ah, she's a splendid woman!" Ned Rosier repeated, for departure.
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He resolved that his conduct should be worthy of an aspirant who was
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already a model of discretion; but he saw nothing in any pledge he had
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given Madame Merle that made it improper he should keep himself in
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spirits by an occasional visit to Miss Osmond's home. He reflected
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constantly on what his adviser had said to him, and turned over in his
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mind the impression of her rather circumspect tone. He had gone to her
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de confiance, as they put it in Paris; but it was possible he had been
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precipitate. He found difficulty in thinking of himself as rash-he had
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incurred this reproach so rarely; but it certainly was true that he
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had known Madame Merle only for the last month, and that his
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thinking her a delightful woman was not, when one came to look into
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it, a reason for assuming that she would be eager to push Pansy Osmond
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into his arms, gracefully arranged as these members might be to
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receive her. She had indeed shown him benevolence, and she was a
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person of consideration among the girl's people, where she had a
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rather striking appearance (Rosier had more than once wondered how she
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managed it) of being intimate without being familiar. But possibly
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he had exaggerated these advantages. There was no particular reason
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why she should take trouble for him; a charming woman was charming
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to every one, and Rosier felt rather a fool when he thought of his
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having appealed to her on the ground that she had distinguished him.
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Very likely-though she had appeared to say it in joke-she was really
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only thinking of his bibelots. Had it come into her head that he might
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offer her two or three of the gems of his collection? If she would
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only help him to marry Miss Osmond he would present her with his whole
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museum. He could hardly say so to her outright; it would seem too
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gross a bribe. But he should like her to believe it.
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It was with these thoughts that he went again to Mrs. Osmond's, Mrs.
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Osmond having an "evening"-she had taken the Thursday of each week
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when his presence could be accounted for on general principles of
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civility. The object of Mr. Rosier's well-regulated affection dwelt in
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a high house in the very heart of Rome; a dark and massive structure
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overlooking a sunny piazzetta in the neighbourhood of the Farnese
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Palace. In a palace, too, little Pansy lived-a palace by Roman
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measure, but a dungeon to poor Rosier's apprehensive mind. It seemed
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to him of evil omen that the young lady he wished to marry, and
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whose fastidious father he doubted of his ability to conciliate,
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should be immured in a kind of domestic fortress, a pile which bore
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a stern old Roman name, which smelt of historic deeds, of crime and
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craft and violence, which was mentioned in "Murray" and visited by
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tourists who looked, on a vague survey, disappointed and depressed,
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and which had frescoes by Caravaggio in the piano nobile and a row
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of mutilated statues and dusty urns in the wide, nobly-arched loggia
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overhanging the damp court where a fountain gushed out of a mossy
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niche. In a less preoccupied frame of mind he could have done
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justice to the Palazzo Roccanera; he could have entered into the
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sentiment of Mrs. Osmond, who had once told him that on settling
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themselves in Rome she and her husband had chosen this habitation
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for the love of local colour. It had local colour enough, and though
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he knew less about architecture than about Limoges enamels he could
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see that the proportions of the windows and even the details of the
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cornice had quite the grand air. But Rosier was haunted by the
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conviction that at picturesque periods young girls had been shut up
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there to keep them from their true loves, and then, under the threat
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of being thrown into convents, had been forced into unholy
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marriages. There was one point, however, to which he always did
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justice when once he found himself in Mrs. Osmond's warm, rich-looking
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reception-rooms, which were on the second floor. He acknowledged
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that these people were very strong in "good things." It was a taste of
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Osmond's own-not at all of hers; this she had told him the first
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time he came to the house, when, after asking himself for a quarter of
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an hour whether they had even better "French" than he in Paris, he was
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obliged on the spot to admit that they had, very much, and
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vanquished his envy, as a gentleman should, to the point of expressing
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to his hostess his pure admiration of her treasures. He learned from
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Mrs. Osmond that her husband had made a large collection before
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their marriage and that, though he had annexed a number of fine pieces
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within the last three years, he had achieved his greatest finds at a
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time when he had not the advantage of her advice. Rosier interpreted
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this information according to principles of his own. For "advice" read
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"cash," he said to himself; and the fact that Gilbert Osmond had
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landed his highest prizes during his impecunious season confirmed
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his most cherished doctrine-the doctrine that a collector may freely
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be poor if he be only patient. In general, when Rosier presented
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himself on a Thursday evening, his first recognition was for the walls
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of the saloon; there were three or four objects his eyes really
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yearned for. But after his talk with Madame Merle he felt the
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extreme seriousness of his position; and now, when he came in, he
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looked about for the daughter of the house with such eagerness as
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might be permitted a gentleman whose smile, as he crossed a threshold,
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always took everything comfortable for granted.
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CHAPTER 37
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Pansy was not in the first of the rooms, a large apartment with a
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concave ceiling and walls covered with old red damask; it was here
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Mrs. Osmond usually sat-though she was not in her most customary place
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to-night-and that a circle of more special intimates gathered about
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the fire. The room was flushed with subdued, diffused brightness; it
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contained the larger things and-almost always-an odour of flowers.
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Pansy on this occasion was presumably in the next of the series, the
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resort of younger visitors, where tea was served. Osmond stood
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before the chimney, leaning back with his hands behind him; he had one
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foot up and was warming the sole. Half a dozen persons, scattered near
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him, were talking together; but he was not in the conversation; his
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eyes had an expression, frequent with them, that seemed to represent
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them as engaged with objects more worth their while than the
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appearances actually thrust upon them. Rosier, coming in
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unannounced, failed to attract his attention; but the young man, who
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was very punctilious, though he was even exceptionally conscious
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that it was the wife, not the husband, he had come to see, went up
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to shake hands with him. Osmond put out his left hand, without
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changing his attitude.
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"How d'ye do? My wife's somewhere about."
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"Never fear; I shall find her," said Rosier cheerfully.
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Osmond, however, took him in; he had never in his life felt
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himself so efficiently looked at. "Madame Merle has told him, and he
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doesn't like it," he privately reasoned. He had hoped Madame Merle
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would be there, but she was not in sight; perhaps she was in one of
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the other rooms or would come later. He had never especially delighted
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in Gilbert Osmond, having a fancy he gave himself airs. But Rosier was
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not quickly resentful, and where politeness was concerned had ever a
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strong need of being quite in the right. He looked round him and
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smiled, all without help, and then in a moment, "I saw a jolly good
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piece of Capo di Monte to-day," he said.
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Osmond answered nothing at first; but presently, while he warmed his
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boot-sole, "I don't care a fig for Capo di Monte!" he returned.
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"I hope you're not losing your interest?"
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"In old pots and plates? Yes, I'm losing my interest."
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Rosier for an instant forgot the delicacy of his position. "You're
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not thinking of parting with a-a piece or two?"
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"No, I'm not thinking of parting with anything at all, Mr.
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Rosier," said Osmond, with his eyes still on the eyes of his visitor.
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"Ah, you want to keep, but not to add," Rosier remarked brightly.
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"Exactly. I've nothing I wish to match."
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Poor Rosier was aware he had blushed; he was distressed at his
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want of assurance. "Ah, well, I have!" was all he could murmur; and he
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knew his murmur was partly lost as he turned away. He took his
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course to the adjoining room and met Mrs. Osmond coming out of the
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deep doorway. She was dressed in black velvet; she looked high and
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splendid, as he had said, and yet oh so radiantly gentle! We know what
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Mr. Rosier thought of her and the terms in which, to Madame Merle,
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he had expressed his admiration. Like his appreciation of her dear
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little stepdaughter it was based partly on his eye for decorative
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character, his instinct for authenticity; but also on a sense for
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uncatalogued values, for that secret of a "lustre" beyond any recorded
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losing or rediscovering, which his devotion to brittle wares had still
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not disqualified him to recognize. Mrs. Osmond, at present, might well
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have gratified such tastes. The years had touched her only to enrich
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her; the flower of her youth had not faded, it only hung more
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quietly on its stem. She had lost something of that quick eagerness to
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which her husband had privately taken exception-she had more the air
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of being able to wait. Now, at all events, framed in the gilded
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doorway, she struck our young man as the picture of a gracious lady.
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"You see I'm very regular," he said. "But who should be if I'm not?"
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"Yes, I've known you longer than any one here. But we mustn't
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indulge in tender reminiscences. I want to introduce you to a young
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lady."
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"Ah, please, what young lady?" Rosier was immensely obliging; but
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this was not what he had come for.
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"She sits there by the fire in pink and has no one to speak to."
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Rosier hesitated a moment. "Can't Mr. Osmond speak to her? He's
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within six feet of her."
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Mrs. Osmond also hesitated. "She's not very lively, and be doesn't
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like dull people."
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"But she's good enough for me? Ah now, that's hard!"
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"I only mean that you've ideas for two. And then you're so
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obliging."
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"So is your husband."
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"No, he's not-to me." And Mrs. Osmond vaguely smiled.
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"That's a sign he should be doubly so to other women."
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"So I tell him," she said, still smiling.
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"You see I want some tea," Rosier went on, looking wistfully beyond.
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"That's perfect. Go and give some to my young lady."
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"Very good; but after that I'll abandon her to her fate. The
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simple truth is I'm dying to have a little talk with Miss Osmond."
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"Ah," said Isabel, turning away, "I can't help you there!"
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Five minutes later, while he handed a tea-cup to the damsel in pink,
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whom he had conducted into the other room, he wondered whether, in
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making to Mrs. Osmond the profession I have just quoted, he had broken
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the spirit of his promise to Madame Merle. Such a question was capable
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of occupying this young man's mind for a considerable time. At last,
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however, he became-comparatively speaking-reckless; he cared little
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what promises he might break. The fate to which he had threatened to
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abandon the damsel in pink proved to be none so terrible; for Pansy
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Osmond, who had given him the tea for his companion-Pansy was as
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fond as ever of making tea-presently came and talked to her. Into this
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mild colloquy Edward Rosier entered little; he sat by moodily,
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watching his small sweetheart. If we look at her now through his
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eyes we shall at first not see much to remind us of the obedient
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little girl who, at Florence, three years before, was sent to walk
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short distances in the Cascine while her father and Miss Archer talked
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together of matters sacred to elder people. But after a moment we
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shall perceive that if at nineteen Pansy has become a young lady she
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doesn't really fill out the part; that if she has grown very pretty
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she lacks in a deplorable degree the quality known and esteemed in the
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appearance of females as style; and that if she is dressed with
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great freshness she wears her smart attire with an undisguised
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appearance of saving it-very much as if it were lent her for the
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occasion. Edward Rosier, it would seem, would have been just the man
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to note these defects; and in point of fact there was not a quality of
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this young lady, of any sort, that he had not noted. Only he called
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her qualities by names of his own-some of which indeed were happy
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enough. "No, she's unique-she's absolutely unique," he used to say
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to himself; and you may be sure that not for an instant would he
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have admitted to you that she was wanting in style. Style? Why, she
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had the style of a little princess; if you couldn't see it you had
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no eye. It was not modern, it was not conscious, it would produce no
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impression in Broadway; the small, serious damsel, in her stiff little
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dress, only looked like an Infanta of Velasquez. This was enough for
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Edward Rosier, who thought her delightfully old-fashioned. Her anxious
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eyes, her charming lips, her slip of a figure, were as touching as a
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childish prayer. He had now an acute desire to know just to what point
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she liked him-a desire which made him fidget as he sat in his chair.
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It made him feel hot, so that he had to pat his forehead with his
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handkerchief; he had never been so uncomfortable. She was such a
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perfect jeune fille, and one couldn't make of a jeune fille the
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enquiry requisite for throwing light on such a point. A jeune fille
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was what Rosier had always dreamed of-a jeune fille who should yet not
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be French, for he had felt that this nationality would complicate
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the question. He was sure Pansy had never looked at a newspaper and
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that, in the way of novels, if she had read Sir Walter Scott it was
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the very most. An American jeune fille-what could be better than that?
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She would be frank and gay, and yet would not have walked alone, nor
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have received letters from men, nor have been taken to the theatre
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to see the comedy of manners. Rosier could not deny that, as the
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matter stood, it would be a breach of hospitality to appeal directly
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to this unsophisticated creature; but he was now in imminent danger of
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asking himself if hospitality were the most sacred thing in the world.
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Was not the sentiment that he entertained for Miss Osmond of
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infinitely greater importance? Of greater importance to him-yes; but
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not probably to the master of the house. There was one comfort; even
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if this gentleman had been placed on his guard by Madame Merle he
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would not have extended the warning to Pansy; it would not have been
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part of his policy to let her know that a prepossessing young man
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was in love with her. But he was in love with her, the prepossessing
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young man; and all these restrictions of circumstance had ended by
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irritating him. What had Gilbert Osmond meant by giving him two
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fingers of his left hand? If Osmond was rude, surely he himself
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might be bold. He felt extremely bold after the dull girl in so vain a
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disguise of rose-colour had responded to the call of her mother, who
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came in to say, with a significant simper at Rosier, that she must
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carry her off to other triumphs. The mother and daughter departed
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together, and now it depended only upon him that he should be
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virtually alone with Pansy. He had never been alone with her before;
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he had never been alone with a jeune fille. It was a great moment;
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poor Rosier began to pat his forehead again. There was another room
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beyond the one in which they stood-a small room that had been thrown
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open and lighted, but that, the company not being numerous, had
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remained empty all the evening. It was empty yet; it was upholstered
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in pale yellow; there were several lamps; through the open door it
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looked the very temple of authorized love. Rosier gazed a moment
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through this aperture; he was afraid that Pansy would run away, and
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felt almost capable of stretching out a hand to detain her. But she
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lingered where the other maiden had left them, making no motion to
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join a knot of visitors on the far side of the room. For a little it
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occurred to him that she was frightened-too frightened perhaps to
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move; but a second glance assured him she was not, and he then
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reflected that she was too innocent indeed for that. After a supreme
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hesitation he asked her if he might go and look at the yellow room,
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which seemed so attractive yet so virginal. He had been there
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already with Osmond, to inspect the furniture, which was of the
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First French Empire, and especially to admire the clock (which he
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didn't really admire), an immense classic structure of that period. He
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therefore felt that he had now begun to manoeuvre.
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"Certainly, you may go," said Pansy; "and if you like I'll show
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you." She was not in the least frightened.
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"That's just what I hoped you'd say; you're so very kind," Rosier
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murmured.
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They went in together; Rosier really thought the room very ugly, and
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it seemed cold. The same idea appeared to have struck Pansy. "It's not
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for winter evenings; it's for summer," she said. "It's papa's taste;
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he has so much."
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He had a good deal, Rosier thought; but some of it was very bad.
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He looked about him; he hardly knew what to say in such a situation.
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"Doesn't Mrs. Osmond care how her rooms are done? Has she no
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taste? he asked.
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"Oh yes, a great deal; but it's more for literature," said
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Pansy-"and for conversation. But papa cares also for those things. I
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think he knows everything."
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Rosier was silent a little. "There's one thing I'm sure he knows!"
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he broke out presently. "He knows that when I come here it's, with all
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respect to him, with all respect to Mrs. Osmond, who's so
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charming-it's really," said the young man, "to see you!"
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"To see me?" And Pansy raised her vaguely-troubled eyes.
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"To see you; that's what I come for," Rosier repeated, feeling the
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intoxication of a rupture with authority.
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Pansy stood looking at him, simply, intently, openly; a blush was
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not needed to make her face more modest. "I thought it was for that."
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"And it was not disagreeable to you?"
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"I couldn't tell; I didn't know. You never told me," said Pansy.
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"I was afraid of offending you."
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"You don't offend me," the young girl murmured, smiling as if an
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angel had kissed her.
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"You like me then, Pansy?" Rosier asked very gently, feeling very
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happy.
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"Yes-I like you."
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They had walked to the chimney-piece where the big cold Empire clock
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was perched; they were well within the room and beyond observation
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from without. The tone in which she had said these four words seemed
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to him the very breath of nature, and his only answer could be to take
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her hand and hold it a moment. Then he raised it to his lips. She
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submitted, still with her pure, trusting smile, in which there was
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something ineffably passive. She liked him-she had liked him all the
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while; now anything might happen! She was ready-she had been ready
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always, waiting for him to speak. If he had not spoken she would
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have waited for ever; but when the word came she dropped like the
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peach from the shaken tree. Rosier felt that if he should draw her
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toward him and hold her to his heart she would submit without a
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murmur, would rest there without a question. It was true that this
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would be a rash experiment in a yellow Empire salottino. She had known
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it was for her he came, and yet like what a perfect little lady she
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had carried it off!
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"You're very dear to me," he murmured, trying to believe that
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there was after all such a thing as hospitality.
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She looked a moment at her hand, where he had kissed it. "Did you
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say papa knows?"
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"You told me just now he knows everything."
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"I think you must make sure," said Pansy.
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"Ah, my dear, when once I'm sure of you!" Rosier murmured in her
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ear; whereupon she turned back to the other rooms with a little air of
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consistency which seemed to imply that their appeal should be
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immediate.
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The other rooms meanwhile had become conscious of the arrival of
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Madame Merle, who, wherever she went, produced an impression when
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she entered. How she did it the most attentive spectator could not
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have told you, for she neither spoke loud, nor laughed profusely,
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nor moved rapidly, nor dressed with splendour, nor appealed in any
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appreciable manner to the audience. Large, fair, smiling, serene,
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there was something in her very tranquillity that diffused itself, and
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when people looked around it was because of a sudden quiet. On this
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occasion she had done the quietest thing she could do; after embracing
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Mrs. Osmond, which was more striking, she had sat down on a small sofa
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to commune with the master of the house. There was a brief exchange of
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commonplaces between these two-they always paid, in public, a
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certain formal tribute to the commonplace-and then Madame Merle, whose
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eyes had been wandering, asked if little Mr. Rosier had come this
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evening.
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"He came nearly an hour ago-but he has disappeared," Osmond said.
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"And where's Pansy?"
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"In the other room. There are several people there."
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"He's probably among them," said Madame Merle.
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"Do you wish to see him?" Osmond asked in a provokingly pointless
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tone.
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Madame Merle looked at him a moment; she knew each of his tones to
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the eighth of a note. "Yes, I should like to say to him that I've told
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you what he wants, and that it interests you but feebly."
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"Don't tell him that. He'll try to interest me more-which is exactly
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what I don't want. Tell him I hate his proposal."
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"But you don't hate it."
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"It doesn't signify; I don't love it. I let him see that, myself,
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this evening; I was rude to him on purpose. That sort of thing's a
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great bore. There's no hurry."
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"I'll tell him that you'll take time and think it over."
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"No, don't do that. He'll hang on."
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"If I discourage him he'll do the same."
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"Yes, but in the one case he'll try to talk and explain-which
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would be exceedingly tiresome. In the other he'll probably hold his
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tongue and go in for some deeper game. That will leave me quiet. I
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hate talking with a donkey."
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"Is that what you call poor Mr. Rosier?"
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"Oh, he's a nuisance-with his eternal majolica."
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Madame Merle dropped her eyes; she had a faint smile. "He's a
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gentleman, he has a charming temper; and, after all, an income of
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forty thousand francs!"
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"It's misery-'genteel' misery," Osmond broke in. "It's not what I've
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dreamed of for Pansy."
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"Very good then. He has promised me not to speak to her."
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"Do you believe him?" Osmond asked absent-mindedly.
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"Perfectly. Pansy has thought a great deal about him; but I don't
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suppose you consider that that matters."
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"I don't consider it matters at all; but neither do I believe she
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has thought of him."
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"That opinion's more convenient," said Madame Merle quietly.
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"Has she told you she's in love with him?"
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"For what do you take her? And for what do you take me?" Madame
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Merle added in a moment.
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Osmond had raised his foot and was resting his slim ankle on the
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other knee; he clasped his ankle in his hand familiarly-his long, fine
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forefinger and thumb could make a ring for it-and gazed a while before
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him. "This kind of thing doesn't find me unprepared. It's what I
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educated her for. It was all for this-that when such a case should
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come up she should do what I prefer."
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"I'm not afraid that she'll not do it."
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"Well then, where's the hitch?"
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"I don't see any. But, all the same, I recommend you not to get
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rid of Mr.
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Rosier. Keep him on hand; he may be useful."
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"I can't keep him. Keep him yourself."
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"Very good; I'll put him into a corner and allow him so much a day."
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Madame Merle had, for the most part, while they talked, been
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glancing about her; it was her habit in this situation, just as it was
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her habit to interpose a good many blank-looking pauses. A long drop
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followed the last words I have quoted; and before it had ended she saw
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Pansy come out of the adjoining room, followed by Edward Rosier. The
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girl advanced a few steps and then stopped and stood looking at Madame
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Merle and at her father.
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"He has spoken to her," Madame Merle went on to Osmond.
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Her companion never turned his head. "So much for your belief in his
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promises. He ought to be horse-whipped."
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"He intends to confess, poor little man!"
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Osmond got up; he had now taken a sharp look at his daughter. "It
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doesn't matter," he murmured, turning away.
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Pansy after a moment came up to Madame Merle with her little
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manner of unfamiliar politeness. This lady's reception of her was
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not more intimate; she simply, as she rose from the sofa, gave her a
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friendly smile.
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"You're very late," the young creature gently said.
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"My dear child, I'm never later than I intend to be."
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Madame Merle had not got up to be gracious to Pansy; she moved
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toward Edward Rosier. He came to meet her and, very quickly, as if
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to get it off his mind, "I've spoken to her!" he whispered.
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"I know it, Mr. Rosier."
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"Did she tell you?"
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"Yes, she told me. Behave properly for the rest of the evening,
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and come and see me to-morrow at a quarter past five." She was severe,
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and in the manner in which she turned her back to him there was a
|
|
degree of contempt which caused him to mutter a decent imprecation.
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He had no intention of speaking to Osmond; it was neither the time
|
|
nor the place. But he instinctively wandered toward Isabel, who sat
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|
talking with an old lady. He sat down on the other side of her; the
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old lady was Italian, and Rosier took for granted she understood no
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|
English. "You said just now you wouldn't help me," he began to Mrs.
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Osmond. "Perhaps you'll feel differently when you know-when you know-!
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Isabel met his hesitation. "When I know what?"
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"That she's all right."
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"What do you mean by that?"
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"Well, that we've come to an understanding."
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"She's all wrong," said Isabel. "It won't do."
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Poor Rosier gazed at her half-pleadingly, half-angrily; a sudden
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|
flush testified to his sense of injury. "I've never been treated
|
|
so," he said. "What is there against me, after all? That's not the way
|
|
I'm usually considered. I could have married twenty times."
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"It's a pity you didn't. I don't mean twenty times, but once
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|
comfortably," Isabel added, smiling kindly. "You're not rich enough
|
|
for Pansy." "She doesn't care a straw for one's money."
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"No, but her father does."
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"Ah yes, he has proved that!" cried the young man.
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Isabel got up, turning away from him, leaving her old lady without
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|
ceremony; and he occupied himself for the next ten minutes in
|
|
pretending to look at Gilbert Osmond's collection of miniatures, which
|
|
were neatly arranged on a series of small velvet screens. But he
|
|
looked without seeing; his cheek burned; he was too full of his
|
|
sense of injury. It was certain that he had never been treated that
|
|
way before; he was not used to being thought not good enough. He
|
|
knew how good he was, and if such a fallacy had not been so pernicious
|
|
he could have laughed at it. He searched again for Pansy, but she
|
|
had disappeared, and his main desire was now to get out of the
|
|
house. Before doing so he spoke once more to Isabel; it was not
|
|
agreeable to him to reflect that he had just said a rude thing to
|
|
her-the only point that would now justify a low view of him.
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|
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|
"I referred to Mr. Osmond as I shouldn't have done, a while ago," he
|
|
began. "But you must remember my situation."
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|
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"I don't remember what you said," she answered coldly.
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|
"Ah, you're offended, and now you'll never help me."
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|
She was silent an instant, and then with a change of tone: "It's not
|
|
that I won't; I simply can't!" Her manner was almost passionate.
|
|
|
|
"If you could, just a little, I'd never again speak of your
|
|
husband save as an angel."
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|
|
|
"The inducement's great," said Isabel gravely-inscrutably, as he
|
|
afterwards, to himself, called it; and she gave him, straight in the
|
|
eyes, a look which was also inscrutable. It made him remember
|
|
somehow that he had known her as a child; and yet it was keener than
|
|
he liked, and he took himself off.
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|
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|
CHAPTER 38
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|
He went to see Madame Merle on the morrow, and to his surprise she
|
|
let him off rather easily. But she made him promise that he would stop
|
|
there till something should have been decided. Mr. Osmond had had
|
|
higher expectations; it was very true that as he had no intention of
|
|
giving his daughter a portion such expectations were open to criticism
|
|
or even, if one would, to ridicule. But she would advise Mr. Rosier
|
|
not to take that tone; if he would possess his soul in patience he
|
|
might arrive at his felicity. Mr. Osmond was not favourable to his
|
|
suit, but it wouldn't be a miracle if he should gradually come
|
|
round. Pansy would never defy her father, he might depend on that;
|
|
so nothing was to be gained by precipitation. Mr. Osmond needed to
|
|
accustom his mind to an offer of a sort that he had not hitherto
|
|
entertained, and this result must come of itself-it was useless to try
|
|
to force it. Rosier remarked that his own situation would be in the
|
|
meanwhile the most uncomfortable in the world, and Mad Merle assured
|
|
him that she felt for him. But, as she justly declared, one couldn't
|
|
have everything one wanted; she had learned that lesson for herself.
|
|
There would be no use in his writing to Gilbert Osmond, who had
|
|
charged her to tell him as much. He wished the matter dropped for a
|
|
few weeks and would himself write when he should have anything to
|
|
communicate that it might please Mr. Rosier to hear.
|
|
|
|
"He doesn't like your having spoken to Pansy. Ah, he doesn't like it
|
|
at all," said Madame Merle.
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|
|
|
"I'm perfectly willing to give him a chance to tell me so!
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|
|
|
"If you do that he'll tell you more than you care to hear. Go to the
|
|
house, for the next month, as little as possible, and leave the rest
|
|
to me."
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|
|
|
"As little as possible? Who's to measure the possibility?"
|
|
|
|
"Let me measure it. Go on Thursday evenings with the rest of the
|
|
world, but don't go at all at odd times, and don't fret about Pansy.
|
|
I'll see that she understands everything. She's a calm little
|
|
nature; she'll take it quietly."
|
|
|
|
Edward Rosier fretted about Pansy a good deal, but he did as he
|
|
was advised, and awaited another Thursday evening before returning
|
|
to Palazzo Roccanera. There had been a party at dinner, so that though
|
|
he went early the company was already tolerably numerous. Osmond, as
|
|
usual, was in the first room, near the fire, staring straight at the
|
|
door, so that, not to be distinctly uncivil, Rosier had to go and
|
|
speak to him.
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad that you can take a hint," Pansy's father said, slightly
|
|
closing his keen, conscious eyes.
|
|
|
|
"I take no hints. But I took a message, as I supposed it to be."
|
|
|
|
"You took it? Where did you take it?"
|
|
|
|
It seemed to poor Rosier he was being insulted, and he waited a
|
|
moment, asking himself how much a true lover ought to submit to.
|
|
"Madame Merle gave me, as I understood it, a message from you-to the
|
|
effect that you declined to give me the opportunity I desire, the
|
|
opportunity to explain my wishes to you." And he flattered himself
|
|
he spoke rather sternly.
|
|
|
|
"I don't see what Madame Merle has to do with it. Why did you
|
|
apply to Madame Merle?"
|
|
|
|
"I asked her for an opinion-for nothing more. I did so because she
|
|
had seemed to me to know you very well."
|
|
|
|
"She doesn't know me so well as she thinks," said Osmond.
|
|
|
|
"I'm sorry for that, because she has given me some little ground for
|
|
hope."
|
|
|
|
Osmond stared into the fire a moment. "I set a great price on my
|
|
daughter."
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|
|
|
"You can't set a higher one than I do. Don't I prove it by wishing
|
|
to marry her?"
|
|
|
|
"I wish to marry her very well," Osmond went on with a dry
|
|
impertinence which, in another mood, poor Rosier would have admired.
|
|
|
|
"Of course I pretend she'd marry well in marrying me. She couldn't
|
|
marry a man who loves her more-or whom, I may venture to add, she
|
|
loves more."
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|
|
|
"I'm not bound to accept your theories as to whom my daughter
|
|
loves"-and Osmond looked up with a quick, cold smile.
|
|
|
|
"I'm not theorizing. Your daughter has spoken."
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|
|
|
"Not to me," Osmond continued, now bending forward a little and
|
|
dropping his eyes to his boot-toes.
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|
|
|
"I have her promise, sir!" cried Rosier with the sharpness of
|
|
exasperation.
|
|
|
|
As their voices had been pitched very low before, such a note
|
|
attracted some attention from the company. Osmond waited till this
|
|
little movement had subsided; then he said, all undisturbed: "I
|
|
think she has no recollection of having given it."
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|
|
|
They had been standing with their faces to the fire, and after he
|
|
had uttered these last words the master of the house turned round
|
|
again to the room. Before Rosier had time to reply he perceived that a
|
|
gentleman-a stranger-had just come in, unannounced, according to the
|
|
Roman custom, and was about to present himself to his host. The latter
|
|
smiled blandly, but somewhat blankly; the visitor had a handsome
|
|
face and a large, fair beard, and was evidently an Englishman.
|
|
|
|
"You apparently don't recognize me," he said with a smile that
|
|
expressed more than Osmond's.
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|
|
|
"Ah yes, now I do. I expected so little to see you."
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|
|
|
Rosier departed and went in direct pursuit of Pansy. He sought
|
|
her, as usual, in the neighbouring room, but he again encountered Mrs.
|
|
Osmond in his path. He gave his hostess no greeting-he was too
|
|
righteously indignant, but said to her crudely: "Your husband's
|
|
awfully cold-blooded."
|
|
|
|
She gave the same mystical smile he had noticed before. "You can't
|
|
expect every one to be as hot as yourself."
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|
|
|
"I don't pretend to be cold, but I'm cool. What has he been doing to
|
|
his daughter?"
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|
|
|
"I've no idea."
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|
|
|
"Don't you take any interest?" Rosier demanded with his sense that
|
|
she too was irritating.
|
|
|
|
For a moment she answered nothing; then, "No!" she said abruptly and
|
|
with a quickened light in her eyes which directly contradicted the
|
|
word.
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|
|
|
"Pardon me if I don't believe that. Where's Miss Osmond?"
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|
|
|
"In the corner, making tea. Please leave her there."
|
|
|
|
Rosier instantly discovered his friend, who had been hidden by
|
|
intervening groups. He watched her, but her own attention was entirely
|
|
given to her occupation. "What on earth has he done to her?" he
|
|
asked again imploringly. "He declares to me she has given me up."
|
|
|
|
"She has not given you up," Isabel said in a low tone and without
|
|
looking at him.
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|
|
|
"Ah, thank you for that! Now I'll leave her alone as long as you
|
|
think proper!"
|
|
|
|
He had hardly spoken when he saw her change colour, and became aware
|
|
that Osmond was coming toward her accompanied by the gentleman who had
|
|
just entered. He judged the latter, in spite of the advantage of
|
|
good looks and evident social experience, a little embarrassed.
|
|
"Isabel," said her husband, "I bring you an old friend."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Osmond's face, though it wore a smile, was, like her old
|
|
friend's, not perfectly confident. "I'm very happy to see Lord
|
|
Warburton," she said. Rosier turned away and, now that his talk with
|
|
her had been interrupted, felt absolved from the little pledge he
|
|
had just taken. He had a quick impression that Mrs. Osmond wouldn't
|
|
notice what he did.
|
|
|
|
Isabel in fact, to do him justice, for some time quite ceased to
|
|
observe him. She had been startled; she hardly knew if she felt a
|
|
pleasure or a pain. Lord Warburton, however, now that he was face to
|
|
face with her, was plainly quite sure of his own sense of the
|
|
matter; though his grey eyes had still their fine original property of
|
|
keeping recognition and attestation strictly sincere. He was "heavier"
|
|
than of yore and looked older; he stood there very solidly and
|
|
sensibly.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose you didn't expect to see me," he said; "I've but just
|
|
arrived. Literally, I only got here this evening. You see I've lost no
|
|
time in coming to pay you my respects. I knew you were at home on
|
|
Thursdays."
|
|
|
|
"You see the fame of your Thursdays has spread to England," Osmond
|
|
remarked to his wife.
|
|
|
|
"It's very kind of Lord Warburton to come so soon; we're greatly
|
|
flattered," Isabel said.
|
|
|
|
"Ah well, it's better than stopping in one of those horrible
|
|
inns," Osmond went on.
|
|
|
|
"The hotel seems very good; I think it's the same at which I saw you
|
|
four years since. You know it was here in Rome that we first met; it's
|
|
a long time ago. Do you remember where I bade you good-bye?" his
|
|
lordship asked of his hostess. "It was in the Capitol, in the first
|
|
room."
|
|
|
|
"I remember that myself," said Osmond. "I was there at the time."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I remember you there. I was very sorry to leave Rome-so
|
|
sorry that, somehow or other, it became almost a dismal memory, and
|
|
I've never cared to come back till to-day. But I knew you were
|
|
living here," her old friend went on to Isabel, "and I assure you I've
|
|
often thought of you. It must be a charming place to live in," he
|
|
added with a look, round him, at her established home, in which she
|
|
might have caught the dim ghost of his old ruefulness.
|
|
|
|
"We should have been glad to see you at any time," Osmond observed
|
|
with propriety.
|
|
|
|
"Thank you very much. I haven't been out of England since then. Till
|
|
a month ago I really supposed my travels over."
|
|
|
|
"I've heard of you from time to time," said Isabel, who had already,
|
|
with her rare capacity for such inward feats, taken the measure of
|
|
what meeting him again meant for her.
|
|
|
|
"I hope you've heard no harm. My life has been a remarkably complete
|
|
blank."
|
|
|
|
"Like the good reigns in history," Osmond suggested. He appeared
|
|
to think his duties as a host now terminated-he had performed them
|
|
so conscientiously. Nothing could have been more adequate, more nicely
|
|
measured, than his courtesy to his wife's old friend. It was
|
|
punctilious, it was explicit, it was everything but natural-a
|
|
deficiency which Lord Warburton, who, himself, had on the whole a good
|
|
deal of nature, may be supposed to have perceived. "I'll leave you and
|
|
Mrs. Osmond together," he added. "You have reminiscences into which
|
|
I don't enter."
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid you lose a good deal!" Lord Warburton called after
|
|
him, as he moved away, in a tone which perhaps betrayed overmuch an
|
|
appreciation of his generosity. Then the visitor turned on Isabel
|
|
the deeper, the deepest, consciousness of his look, which gradually
|
|
became more serious. "I'm really very glad to see you."
|
|
|
|
"It's very pleasant. You're very kind."
|
|
|
|
"Do you know that you're changed-a little?"
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|
|
|
She just hesitated. "Yes-a good deal."
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|
|
|
"I don't mean for the worse, of course; and yet how can I say for
|
|
the better?"
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|
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"I think I shall have no scruple in saying that to you," she bravely
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returned.
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"Ah well, for me-it's a long time. It would be a pity there
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shouldn't be something to show for it." They sat down and she asked
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him about his sisters, with other enquiries of a somewhat
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perfunctory kind. He answered her questions as if they interested him,
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and in a few moments she saw-or believed she saw-that he would press
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with less of his whole weight than of yore. Time had breathed upon his
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heart and, without chilling it, given it a relieved sense of having
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taken the air. Isabel felt her usual esteem for Time rise at a
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bound. Her friend's manner was certainly that of a contented man,
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one who would rather like people, or like her at least, to know him
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for such.
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"There's something I must tell you without more delay," he resumed.
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"I've brought Ralph Touchett with me."
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"Brought him with you?" Isabel's surprise was great.
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"He's at the hotel; he was too tired to come out and has gone to
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bed."
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"I'll go to see him," she immediately said.
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"That's exactly what I hoped you'd do. I had an idea you hadn't seen
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much of him since your marriage, that in fact your relations were
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a-a little more formal. That's why I hesitated-like an awkward
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Briton."
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"I'm as fond of Ralph as ever," Isabel answered. "But why has he
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come to Rome?" The declaration was very gentle, the question a
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little sharp.
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"Because he's very far gone, Mrs. Osmond."
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"Rome then is no place for him. I heard from him that he had
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determined to give up his custom of wintering abroad and to remain
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in England, indoors, in what he called an artificial climate."
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"Poor fellow, he doesn't succeed with the artificial! I went to
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see him three weeks ago, at Gardencourt, and found him thoroughly ill.
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He has been getting worse every year, and now he has no strength left.
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He smokes no more cigarettes! He had got up an artificial climate
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indeed; the house was as hot as Calcutta. Nevertheless he had suddenly
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taken it into his head to start for Sicily. I didn't believe in
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it-neither did the doctors, nor any of his friends. His mother, as I
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suppose you know, is in America, so there was no one to prevent him.
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He stuck to his idea that it would be the saving of him to spend the
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winter at Catania. He said he could take servants and furniture, could
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make himself comfortable, but in point of fact he hasn't brought
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anything. I wanted him at least to go by sea, to save fatigue; but
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he said he hated the sea and wished to stop at Rome. After that,
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though I thought it all rubbish, I made up my mind to come with him.
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I'm acting as-what do you call it in America? a kind of moderator.
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Poor Ralph's very moderate now. We left England a fortnight ago, and
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he has been very bad on the way. He can't keep warm, and the further
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south we come the more he feels the cold. He has got rather a good
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man, but I'm afraid he's beyond human help. I wanted him to take
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with him some clever fellow-=I mean some sharp young doctor; but he
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wouldn't hear of it. If you don't mind my saying so, I think it was
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a most extraordinary time for Mrs. Touchett to decide on going to
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America."
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Isabel had listened eagerly; her face was full of pain and wonder.
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"My aunt does that at fixed periods and lets nothing turn her aside.
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When the date comes round she starts; I think she'd have started if
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Ralph had been dying."
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"I sometimes think he is dying," Lord Warburton said.
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Isabel sprang up. "I'll go to him then now."
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He checked her; he was a little disconcerted at the quick effect
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of his words. "I don't mean I thought so to-night. On the contrary,
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to-day, in the train, he seemed particularly well; the idea of our
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reaching Rome-he's very fond of Rome, you know-gave him strength. An
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hour ago, when I bade him good-night, he told me he was very tired,
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but very happy. Go to him in the morning; that's all I mean. I
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didn't tell him I was coming here; I didn't decide to till after we
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had separated. Then I remembered he had told me you had an evening,
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and that it was this very Thursday. It occurred to me to come in and
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tell you he's here, and let you know you had perhaps better not wait
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for him to call. I think he said he hadn't written to you." There
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was no need of Isabel's declaring that she would act upon Lord
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Warburton's information; she looked, as she sat there, like a winged
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creature held back. "Let alone that I wanted to see you myself," her
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visitor gallantly added.
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"I don't understand Ralph's plan; it seems to me very wild," she
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said.
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"I was glad to think of him between those thick walls at
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Gardencourt."
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"He was completely alone there; the thick walls were his only
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company."
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"You went to see him; you've been extremely kind."
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"Oh dear, I had nothing to do," said Lord Warburton.
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"We hear, on the contrary, that you're doing great things. Every one
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speaks of you as a great statesman, and I'm perpetually seeing your
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name in the Times, which, by the way, doesn't appear to hold it in
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reverence. You're apparently as wild a radical as ever."
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"I don't feel nearly so wild; you know the world has come round to
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me. Touchett and I have kept up a sort of parliamentary debate all the
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way from London. I tell him he's the last of the Tories, and he
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calls me the King of the Goths-says I have, down to the details of
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my personal appearance, every sign of the brute. So you see there's
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life in him yet."
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Isabel had many questions to ask about Ralph, but she abstained from
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asking them all. She would see for herself on the morrow. She
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|
perceived that after a little Lord Warburton would tire of that
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|
subject-he had a conception of other possible topics. She was more and
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|
more able to say to herself that he had recovered, and, what is more
|
|
to the point, she was able to say it without bitterness. He had been
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for her, of old, such an image of urgency, of insistence, of something
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|
to be resisted and reasoned with, that his reappearance at first
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menaced her with a new trouble. But she was now reassured; she could
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|
see he only wished to live with her on good terms, that she was to
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|
understand he had forgiven her and was incapable of the bad taste of
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making pointed allusions. This was not a form of revenge, of course;
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she had no suspicion of his wishing to punish her by an exhibition
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|
of disillusionment; she did him the justice to believe it had simply
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|
occurred to him that she would now take a good-natured interest in
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knowing he was resigned. It was the resignation of a healthy, manly
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nature, in which sentimental wounds could never fester. British
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|
politics had cured him; she had known they would. She gave an
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|
envious thought to the happier lot of men, who are always free to
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plunge into the healing waters of action. Lord Warburton of course
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|
spoke of the past, but he spoke of it without implications; he even
|
|
went so far as to allude to their former meeting in Rome as a very
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|
jolly time. And he told her he had been immensely interested in
|
|
hearing of her marriage and that it was a great pleasure for him to
|
|
make Mr. Osmond's acquaintance-since he could hardly be said to have
|
|
made it on the other occasion. He had not written to her at the time
|
|
of that passage in her history, but he didn't apologize to her for
|
|
this. The only thing he implied was that they were old friends,
|
|
intimate friends. It was very much as an intimate friend that he
|
|
said to her, suddenly, after a short pause which he had occupied in
|
|
smiling, as he looked about him, like a person amused, at a provincial
|
|
entertainment, by some innocent game of guesses
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-"Well now, I suppose you're very happy and all that sort of thing?"
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Isabel answered with a quick laugh; the tone of his remark struck
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her almost as the accent of comedy. "Do you suppose if I were not
|
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I'd tell you?" "Well, I don't know. I don't see why not."
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"I do then. Fortunately, however, I'm very happy."
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"You've got an awfully good house."
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"Yes, it's very pleasant. But that's not my merit-it's my
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|
husband's."
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"You mean he has arranged it?"
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"Yes, it was nothing when we came."
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"He must be very clever."
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"He has a genius for upholstery," said Isabel.
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"There's a great rage for that sort of thing now. But you must
|
|
have a taste of your own."
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"I enjoy things when they're done, but I've no ideas. I can never
|
|
propose anything."
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|
"Do you mean you accept what others propose?"
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"Very willingly, for the most part."
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"That's a good thing to know. I shall propose to you something."
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"It will be very kind. I must say, however, that I've in a few small
|
|
ways a certain initiative. I should like for instance to introduce you
|
|
to some of these people."
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|
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|
"Oh, please don't; I prefer sitting here. Unless it be to that young
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|
lady in the blue dress. She has a charming face."
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|
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|
"The one talking to the rosy young man? That's my husband's
|
|
daughter."
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|
"Lucky man, your husband. What a dear little maid!
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"You must make her acquaintance."
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|
"In a moment-with pleasure. I like looking at her from here." He
|
|
ceased to look at her, however, very soon; his eyes constantly
|
|
reverted to Mrs. Osmond. "Do you know I was wrong just now in saying
|
|
you had changed?" he presently went on. "You seem to me, after all,
|
|
very much the same."
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|
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|
"And yet I find it a great change to be married," said Isabel with
|
|
mild gaiety.
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|
|
"It affects most people more than it has affected you. You see I
|
|
haven't gone in for that."
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|
|
|
"It rather surprises me."
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|
|
|
"You ought to understand it, Mrs. Osmond. But I do want to marry,"
|
|
he added more simply.
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|
|
|
"It ought to be very easy," Isabel said, rising-after which she
|
|
reflected, with a pang perhaps too visible, that she was hardly the
|
|
person to say this. It was perhaps because Lord Warburton divined
|
|
the pang that he generously forbore to call her attention to her not
|
|
having contributed then to the facility.
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|
|
|
Edward Rosier had meanwhile seated himself on an ottoman beside
|
|
Pansy's tea-table. He pretended at first to talk to her about trifles,
|
|
and she asked him who was the new gentleman conversing with her
|
|
stepmother.
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|
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"He's an English lord," said Rosier. "I don't know more."
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|
|
"I wonder if he'll have some tea. The English are so fond of tea."
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|
|
"Never mind that; I've something particular to say to you."
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|
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"Don't speak so loud-every one will hear," said Pansy.
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|
|
"They won't hear if you continue to look that way; as if your only
|
|
thought in life was the wish the kettle would boil."
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|
|
"It has just been filled; the servants never know!"-she sighed
|
|
with the weight of her responsibility.
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|
|
|
"Do you know what your father said to me just now? That you didn't
|
|
mean what you said a week ago."
|
|
|
|
"I don't mean everything I say. How can a young girl do that? But
|
|
I mean what I say to you."
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|
|
|
"He told me you had forgotten me."
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|
|
|
"Ah no, I don't forget," said Pansy, showing her pretty teeth in a
|
|
fixed smile.
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|
|
|
"Then everything's just the very same?"
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|
|
|
"Ah no, not the very same. Papa has been terribly severe."
|
|
|
|
"What has he done to you?"
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|
|
|
"He asked me what you had done to me, and I told him everything.
|
|
Then he forbade me to marry you."
|
|
|
|
"You needn't mind that."
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|
|
|
"Oh yes, I must indeed. I can't disobey papa."
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|
|
"Not for one who loves you as I do, and whom you pretend to love?"
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|
|
|
She raised the lid of the tea-pot, gazing into this vessel for a
|
|
moment; then she dropped six words into its aromatic depths. "I love
|
|
you just as much."
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|
|
|
"What good will that do me?"
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Pansy, raising her sweet, vague eyes, "I don't know
|
|
that."
|
|
|
|
"You disappoint me," groaned poor Rosier.
|
|
|
|
She was silent a little; she handed a tea-cup to a servant.
|
|
"Please don't talk any more."
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|
|
|
"Is this to be all my satisfaction?"
|
|
|
|
"Papa said I was not to talk with you."
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|
|
|
"Do you sacrifice me like that? Ah, it's too much!
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|
|
|
"I wish you'd wait a little," said the girl in a voice just distinct
|
|
enough to betray a quaver.
|
|
|
|
"Of course I'll wait if you'll give me hope. But you take my life
|
|
away."
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|
|
|
"I'll not give you up-oh no!" Pansy went on.
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|
|
|
"He'll try and make you marry some one else."
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|
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|
"I'll never do that."
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|
|
|
"What then are we to wait for?"
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|
|
She hesitated again. "I'll speak to Mrs. Osmond and she'll help us."
|
|
It was in this manner that she for the most part designated her
|
|
stepmother.
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|
|
|
"She won't help us much. She's afraid."
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|
|
|
"Afraid of what?"
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|
|
|
"Of your father, I suppose."
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|
|
Pansy shook her little head. "She's not afraid of any one. We must
|
|
have patience."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, that's an awful word," Rosier groaned; he was deeply
|
|
disconcerted. Oblivious of the customs of good society, he dropped his
|
|
head into his hands and, supporting it with a melancholy grace, sat
|
|
staring at the carpet. Presently he became aware of a good deal of
|
|
movement about him and, as he looked up, saw Pansy making a curtsey-it
|
|
was still her little curtsey of the convent-to the English lord whom
|
|
Mrs. Osmond had introduced.
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CHAPTER 39
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|
|
It will probably not surprise the reflective reader that Ralph
|
|
Touchett should have seen less of his cousin since her marriage than
|
|
he had done before that event of which he took such a view as could
|
|
hardly prove a confirmation of intimacy. He had uttered his thought,
|
|
as we know, and after this had held his peace, Isabel not having
|
|
invited him to resume a discussion which marked an era in their
|
|
relations. That discussion had made a difference-the difference he
|
|
feared rather than the one he hoped. It had not chilled the girl's
|
|
zeal in carrying out her engagement, but it had come dangerously
|
|
near to spoiling a friendship. No reference was ever again made
|
|
between them to Ralph's opinion of Gilbert Osmond, and by
|
|
surrounding this topic with a sacred silence they managed to
|
|
preserve a semblance of reciprocal frankness. But there was a
|
|
difference, as Ralph often said to himself-there was a difference. She
|
|
had not forgiven him, she never would forgive him: that was all he had
|
|
gained. She thought she had forgiven him; she believed she didn't
|
|
care; and as she was both very generous and very proud these
|
|
convictions represented a certain reality. But whether or no the event
|
|
should justify him he would virtually have done her a wrong, and the
|
|
wrong was of the sort that women remember best. As Osmond's wife she
|
|
could never again be his friend. If in this character she should enjoy
|
|
the felicity she expected, she would have nothing but contempt for the
|
|
man who had attempted, in advance, to undermine a blessing so dear;
|
|
and if on the other hand his warning should be justified the vow she
|
|
had taken that he should never know it would lay upon her spirit
|
|
such a burden as to make her hate him. So dismal had been, during
|
|
the year that followed his cousin's marriage, Ralph's prevision of the
|
|
future; and if his meditations appear morbid we must remember he was
|
|
not in the bloom of health. He consoled himself as he might by
|
|
behaving (as he deemed) beautifully, and was present at the ceremony
|
|
by which Isabel was united to Mr. Osmond, and which was performed in
|
|
Florence in the month of June. He learned from his mother that
|
|
Isabel at first had thought of celebrating her nuptials in her
|
|
native land, but that as simplicity was what she chiefly desired to
|
|
secure she had finally decided, in spite of Osmond's professed
|
|
willingness to make a journey of any length, that this
|
|
characteristic would be best embodied in their being married by the
|
|
nearest clergyman in the shortest time. The thing was done therefore
|
|
at the little American chapel, on a very hot day, in the presence only
|
|
of Mrs. Touchett and her son, of Pansy Osmond and the Countess Gemini.
|
|
That severity in the proceedings of which I just spoke was in part the
|
|
result of the absence of two persons who might have been looked for on
|
|
the occasion and who would have lent it a certain richness. Madame
|
|
Merle had been invited, but Madame Merle, who was unable to leave
|
|
Rome, had written a gracious letter of excuses. Henrietta Stackpole
|
|
had not been invited, as her departure from America, announced to
|
|
Isabel by Mr. Goodwood, was in fact frustrated by the duties of her
|
|
profession; but she had sent a letter, less gracious than Madame
|
|
Merle's, intimating that, had she been able to cross the Atlantic, she
|
|
would have been present not only as a witness but as a critic. Her
|
|
return to Europe had taken place somewhat later, and she had
|
|
effected a meeting with Isabel in the autumn, in Paris, when she had
|
|
indulged-perhaps a trifle too freely-her critical genius. Poor Osmond,
|
|
who was chiefly the subject of it, had protested so sharply that
|
|
Henrietta was obliged to declare to Isabel that she had taken a step
|
|
which put a barrier between them. "It isn't in the least that you've
|
|
married-it is that you have married him," she had deemed it her duty
|
|
to remark; agreeing, it will be seen, much more with Ralph Touchett
|
|
than she suspected, though she had few of his hesitations and
|
|
compunctions. Henrietta's second visit to Europe, however, was not
|
|
apparently to have been made in vain; for just at the moment when
|
|
Osmond had declared to Isabel that he really must object to that
|
|
newspaper-woman, and Isabel had answered that it seemed to her he took
|
|
Henrietta too hard, the good Mr. Bantling had appeared upon the
|
|
scene and proposed that they should take a run down to Spain.
|
|
Henrietta's letters from Spain had proved the most acceptable she
|
|
had yet published, and there had been one in especial, dated from
|
|
the Alhambra and entitled "Moors and Moonlight," which generally
|
|
passed for her masterpiece. Isabel had been secretly disappointed at
|
|
her husband's not seeing his way simply to take the poor girl for
|
|
funny. She even wondered if his sense of fun, or of the funny-which
|
|
would be his sense of humour, wouldn't it?-were by chance defective.
|
|
Of course she herself looked at the matter as a person whose present
|
|
happiness had nothing to grudge to Henrietta's violated conscience.
|
|
Osmond had thought their alliance a kind of monstrosity; he couldn't
|
|
imagine what they had in common. For him, Mr. Bantling's fellow
|
|
tourist was simply the most vulgar of women, and he had also
|
|
pronounced her the most abandoned. Against this latter clause of the
|
|
verdict Isabel had appealed with an ardour that had made him wonder
|
|
afresh at the oddity of some of his wife's tastes. Isabel could
|
|
explain it only by saying that she liked to know people who were as
|
|
different as possible from herself. "Why then don't you make the
|
|
acquaintance of your washerwoman?" Osmond had enquired; to which
|
|
Isabel had answered that she was afraid her washerwoman wouldn't
|
|
care for her. Now Henrietta cared so much.
|
|
|
|
Ralph had seen nothing of her for the greater part of the two
|
|
years that had followed her marriage; the winter that formed the
|
|
beginning of her residence in Rome he had spent again at San Remo,
|
|
where he had been joined in the spring by his mother, who afterwards
|
|
had gone with him to England, to see what they were doing at the
|
|
bank-an operation she couldn't induce him to perform. Ralph had
|
|
taken a lease of his house at San Remo, a small villa which he had
|
|
occupied still another winter; but late in the month of April of
|
|
this second year he had come down to Rome. It was the first time since
|
|
her marriage that he had stood face to face with Isabel; his desire to
|
|
see her again was then of the keenest. She had written to him from
|
|
time to time, but her letters told him nothing he wanted to know. He
|
|
had asked his mother what she was making of her life, and his mother
|
|
had simply answered that she supposed she was making the best of it.
|
|
Mrs. Touchett had not the imagination that communes with the unseen,
|
|
and she now pretended to no intimacy with her niece, whom she rarely
|
|
encountered. This young woman appeared to be living in a
|
|
sufficiently honourable way, but Mrs. Touchett still remained of the
|
|
opinion that her marriage had been a shabby affair. It had given her
|
|
no pleasure to think of Isabel's establishment, which she was sure was
|
|
a very lame business. From time to time, in Florence, she rubbed
|
|
against the Countess Gemini, doing her best always to minimize the
|
|
contact; and the Countess reminded her of Osmond, who made her think
|
|
of Isabel. The Countess was less talked of in these days; but Mrs.
|
|
Touchett augured no good of that: it only proved how she had been
|
|
talked of before. There was a more direct suggestion of Isabel in
|
|
the person of Madame Merle; but Madame Merle's relations with Mrs.
|
|
Touchett had undergone a perceptible change. Isabel's aunt had told
|
|
her, without circumlocution, that she had played too ingenious a part;
|
|
and Madame Merle, who never quarrelled with any one, who appeared to
|
|
think no one worth it, and who had performed the miracle of living,
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more or less, for several years with Mrs. Touchett and showing no
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symptom of irritation-Madame Merle now took a very high tone and
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declared that this was an accusation from which she couldn't stoop
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to defend herself. She added, however (without stooping), that her
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behaviour had been only too simple, that she had believed only what
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she saw, that she saw Isabel was not eager to marry and Osmond not
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eager to please (his repeated visits had been nothing; he was boring
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himself to death on his hill-top and he came merely for amusement).
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Isabel had kept her sentiments to herself, and her journey to Greece
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and Egypt had effectually thrown dust in her companion's eyes.
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Madame Merle accepted the event-she was unprepared to think of it as a
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scandal; but that she had played any part in it, double or single, was
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an imputation against which she proudly protested. It was doubtless in
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consequence of Mrs. Touchett's attitude, and of the injury it
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offered to habits consecrated by many charming seasons, that Madame
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Merle had, after this, chosen to pass many months in England, where
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her credit was quite unimpaired. Mrs. Touchett had done her a wrong;
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there are some things that can't be forgiven. But Madame Merle
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suffered in silence; there was always something exquisite in her
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dignity.
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Ralph, as I say, had wished to see for himself; but while engaged in
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this pursuit he had yet felt afresh what a fool he had been to put the
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girl on her guard. He had played the wrong card, and now he had lost
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the game. He should see nothing, he should learn nothing; for him
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she would always wear a mask. His true line would have been to profess
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delight in her union, so that later, when, as Ralph phrased it, the
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bottom should fall out of it, she might have the pleasure of saying to
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him that he had been a goose. He would gladly have consented to pass
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for a goose in order to know Isabel's real situation. At present,
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however, she neither taunted him with his fallacies nor pretended that
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her own confidence was justified; if she wore a mask it completely
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covered her face. There was something fixed and mechanical in the
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serenity painted on it; this was not an expression, Ralph said-it
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was a representation, it was even an advertisement. She had lost her
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child; that was a sorrow, but it was a sorrow she scarcely spoke of;
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there was more to say about it than she could say to Ralph. It
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belonged to the past, moreover; it had occurred six months before
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and she had already laid aside the tokens of mourning. She appeared to
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be leading the life of the world; Ralph heard her spoken of as
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having a "charming position." He observed that she produced the
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impression of being peculiarly enviable, that it was supposed, among
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many people, to be a privilege even to know her. Her house was not
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open to every one, and she had an evening in the week to which
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people were not invited as a matter of course. She lived with a
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certain magnificence, but you needed to be a member of her circle to
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perceive it; for there was nothing to gape at, nothing to criticize,
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nothing even to admire, in the daily proceedings of Mr. and Mrs.
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Osmond. Ralph, in all this, recognized the hand of the master; for
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he knew that Isabel had no faculty for producing studied
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impressions. She struck him as having a great love of movement, of
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gaiety, of late hours, of long rides, of fatigue; an eagerness to be
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entertained, to be interested, even to be bored, to make
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acquaintances, to see people who were talked about, to explore the
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neighbourhood of Rome, to enter into relation with certain of the
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mustiest relics of its old society. In all this there was much less
|
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discrimination than in that desire for comprehensiveness of
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development on which he had been used to exercise his wit. There was a
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kind of violence in some of her impulses, of crudity in some of her
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experiments, which took him by surprise: it seemed to him that she
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even spoke faster, moved faster, breathed faster, than before her
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marriage. Certainly she had fallen into exaggerations-she who used
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to care so much for the pure truth; and whereas of old she had a great
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delight in good-humoured argument, in intellectual play (she never
|
|
looked so charming as when in the genial heat of discussion she
|
|
received a crushing blow full in the face and brushed it away as a
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|
feather), she appeared now to think there was nothing worth people's
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either differing about or agreeing upon. Of old she had been
|
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curious, and now she was indifferent, and yet in spite of her
|
|
indifference her activity was greater than ever. Slender still, but
|
|
lovelier than before, she had gained no great maturity of aspect;
|
|
yet there was an amplitude and a brilliancy in her personal
|
|
arrangements that gave a touch of insolence to her beauty. Poor
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human-hearted Isabel, what perversity had bitten her? Her light step
|
|
drew a mas of drapery behind it; her intelligent head sustained a
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majesty of ornament. The free, keen girl had become quite another
|
|
person; what he saw was the fine lady who was supposed to represent
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|
something. What did Isabel represent? Ralph asked himself; and he
|
|
could only answer by saying that she represented Gilbert Osmond. "Good
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|
heavens, what a function!" he then woefully exclaimed. He was lost
|
|
in wonder at the mystery of things.
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He recognized Osmond, as I say; he recognized him at every turn.
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He saw how he kept all things within limits; how he adjusted,
|
|
regulated, animated their manner of life. Osmond was in his element;
|
|
at last he had material to work with. He always had an eye to
|
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effect, and his effects were deeply calculated. They were produced
|
|
by no vulgar means, but the motive was as vulgar as the art was great.
|
|
To surround his interior with a sort of invidious sanctity, to
|
|
tantalize society with a sense of exclusion, to make people believe
|
|
his house was different from every other, to impart to the face that
|
|
he presented to the world a cold originality-this was the ingenious
|
|
effort of the personage to whom Isabel had attributed a superior
|
|
morality. "He works with superior material," Ralph said to himself;
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|
"it's rich abundance compared with his former resources." Ralph was
|
|
a clever man; but Ralph had never-to his own sense-been so clever as
|
|
when he observed, in petto, that under the guise of caring only for
|
|
intrinsic values Osmond lived exclusively for the world. Far from
|
|
being its master as he pretended to be, he was its very humble
|
|
servant, and the degree of its attention was his only measure of
|
|
success. He lived with his eye on it from morning till night, and
|
|
the world was so stupid it never suspected the trick. Everything he
|
|
did was pose-pose so subtly considered that if one were not on the
|
|
lookout one mistook it for impulse. Ralph had never met a man who
|
|
lived so much in the land of consideration. His tastes, his studies,
|
|
his accomplishments, his collections, were all for a purpose. His life
|
|
on his hilltop at Florence had been the conscious attitude of years.
|
|
His solitude, his ennui, his love for his daughter, his good
|
|
manners, his bad manners, were so many features of a mental image
|
|
constantly present to him as a model of impertinence and
|
|
mystification. His ambition was not to please the world, but to please
|
|
himself by exciting the world's curiosity and then declining to
|
|
satisfy it. It had made him feel great, ever, to play the world a
|
|
trick. The thing he had done in his life most directly to please
|
|
himself was his marrying Miss Archer; though in this case indeed the
|
|
gullible world was in a manner embodied in poor Isabel, who had been
|
|
mystified to the top of her bent. Ralph of course found a fitness in
|
|
being consistent; he had embraced a creed, and as he had suffered
|
|
for it he could not in honour forsake it. I give this little sketch of
|
|
its articles for what they may at the time have been worth. It was
|
|
certain that he was very skilful in fitting the facts to his
|
|
theory-even the fact that during the month he spent in Rome at this
|
|
period the husband of the woman he loved appeared to regard him not in
|
|
the least as an enemy.
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|
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|
For Gilbert Osmond Ralph had not now that importance. It was not
|
|
that he had the importance of a friend; it was rather that he had none
|
|
at all. He was Isabel's cousin and he was rather unpleasantly ill-it
|
|
was on this basis that Osmond treated with him. He made the proper
|
|
enquiries, asked about his health, about Mrs. Touchett, about his
|
|
opinion of winter climates, whether he were comfortable at his
|
|
hotel. He addressed him, on the few occasions of their meeting, not
|
|
a word that was not necessary; but his manner had always the
|
|
urbanity proper to conscious success in the presence of conscious
|
|
failure. For all this, Ralph had had, toward the end, a sharp inward
|
|
vision of Osmond's making it of small ease to his wife that she should
|
|
continue to receive Mr. Touchett. He was not jealous-he had not that
|
|
excuse; no one could be jealous of Ralph. But he made Isabel pay for
|
|
her old-time kindness, of which so much was still left; and as Ralph
|
|
had no idea of her paying too much, so when his suspicion had become
|
|
sharp, he had taken himself off. In doing so he had deprived Isabel of
|
|
a very interesting occupation: she had been constantly wondering
|
|
what fine principle was keeping him alive. She had decided that it was
|
|
his love of conversation; his conversation had been better than
|
|
ever. He had given up walking; he was no longer a humorous stroller.
|
|
He sat all day in a chair-almost any chair would serve, and was so
|
|
dependent on what you would do for him that, had not his talk been
|
|
highly contemplative, you might have thought he was blind. The
|
|
reader already knows more about him than Isabel was ever to know,
|
|
and the reader may therefore be given the key to the mystery. What
|
|
kept Ralph alive was simply the fact that he had not yet seen enough
|
|
of the person in the world in whom he was most interested: he was
|
|
not yet satisfied. There was more to come; he couldn't make up his
|
|
mind to lose that. He wanted to see what she would make of her
|
|
husband-or what her husband would make of her. This was only the first
|
|
act of the drama, and he was determined to sit out the performance.
|
|
His determination had held good; it had kept him going some eighteen
|
|
months more, till the time of his return to Rome with Lord
|
|
Warburton. It had given him indeed such an air of intending to live
|
|
indefinitely that Mrs. Touchett, though more accessible to
|
|
confusions of thought in the matter of this strange, unremunerative-
|
|
and unremunerated- son of hers than she had ever been before, had,
|
|
as we have learned, not scrupled to embark for a distant land. If
|
|
Ralph had been kept alive by suspense it was with a good deal of the
|
|
same emotion-the excitement of wondering in what state she should find
|
|
him-that Isabel mounted to his apartment the day after Lord
|
|
Warburton had notified her of his arrival in Rome.
|
|
|
|
She spent an hour with him; it was the first of several visits.
|
|
Gilbert Osmond called on him punctually, and on their sending their
|
|
carriage for him Ralph came more than once to Palazzo Roccanera. A
|
|
fortnight elapsed, at the end of which Ralph announced to Lord
|
|
Warburton that he thought after all he wouldn't go to Sicily. The
|
|
two men had been dining together after a day spent by the latter in
|
|
ranging about the Campagna. They had left the table, and Warburton,
|
|
before the chimney, was lighting a cigar, which he instantly removed
|
|
from his lips.
|
|
|
|
"Won't go to Sicily? Where then will you go?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, I guess I won't go anywhere," said Ralph, from the sofa,
|
|
all shamelessly.
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean you'll return to England?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh dear no; I'll stay in Rome."
|
|
|
|
"Rome won't do for you. Rome's not warm enough."
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|
|
|
"It will have to do. I'll make it do. See how well I've been."
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton looked at him a while, puffing a cigar and as if
|
|
trying to see it. "You've been better than you were on the journey,
|
|
certainly. I wonder how you lived through that. But I don't understand
|
|
your condition. I recommend you to try Sicily."
|
|
|
|
"I can't try," said poor Ralph. "I've done trying. I can't move
|
|
further. I can't face that journey. Fancy me between Scylla and
|
|
Charybdis! I don't want to die on the Sicilian plains-to be snatched
|
|
away, like Proserpine in the same locality, to the Plutonian shades."
|
|
|
|
"What the deuce then did you come for?" his lordship enquired.
|
|
|
|
"Because the idea took me. I see it won't do. It really doesn't
|
|
matter where I am now. I've exhausted all remedies, I've swallowed all
|
|
climates. As I'm here I'll stay. I haven't a single cousin in
|
|
Sicily-much less a married one."
|
|
|
|
"Your cousin's certainly an inducement. But what does the doctor
|
|
say?"
|
|
|
|
"I haven't asked him, and I don't care a fig. If I die here Mrs.
|
|
Osmond will bury me. But I shall not die here."
|
|
|
|
"I hope not." Lord Warburton continued to smoke reflectively. "Well,
|
|
I must say," he resumed, "for myself I'm very glad you don't insist on
|
|
Sicily. I had a horror of that journey."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, but for you it needn't have mattered. I had no idea of dragging
|
|
you in my train."
|
|
|
|
"I certainly didn't mean to let you go alone."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Warburton, I never expected you to come further than this,"
|
|
|
|
Ralph cried.
|
|
|
|
"I should have gone with you and seen you settled," said Lord
|
|
Warburton.
|
|
|
|
"You're a very good Christian. You're a very kind man."
|
|
|
|
"Then I should have come back here."
|
|
|
|
"And then you'd have gone to England."
|
|
|
|
"No, no; I should have stayed."
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Ralph, "if that's what we are both up to, I don't see
|
|
where Sicily comes in!"
|
|
|
|
His companion was silent; he sat staring at the fire. At last,
|
|
looking up, "I say, tell me this," he broke out; "did you really
|
|
mean to go to Sicily when we started?"
|
|
|
|
"Ah, vous m'en demandez trop! Let me put a question first. Did you
|
|
come with me quite-platonically?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know what you mean by that. I wanted to come abroad."
|
|
|
|
"I suspect we've each been playing our little game."
|
|
|
|
"Speak for yourself. I made no secret whatever of my desiring to
|
|
be here a while."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I remember you said you wished to see the Minister of
|
|
Foreign Affairs."
|
|
|
|
"I've seen him three times. He's very amusing."
|
|
|
|
"I think you've forgotten what you came for," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps I have," his companion answered rather gravely.
|
|
|
|
These two were gentlemen of a race which is not distinguished by the
|
|
absence of reserve, and they had travelled together from London to
|
|
Rome without an allusion to matters that were uppermost in the mind of
|
|
each. There was an old subject they had once discussed, but it had
|
|
lost its recognized place in their attention, and even after their
|
|
arrival in Rome, where many things led back to it, they had kept the
|
|
same half-diffident, half-confident silence.
|
|
|
|
"I recommend you to get the doctor's consent, all the same," Lord
|
|
Warburton went on, abruptly, after an interval.
|
|
|
|
"The doctor's consent will spoil it. I never have it when I can help
|
|
it."
|
|
|
|
"What then does Mrs. Osmond think?" Ralph's friend demanded.
|
|
|
|
"I've not told her. She'll probably say that Rome's too cold and
|
|
even offer to go with me to Catania. She's capable of that."
|
|
|
|
"In your place I should like it."
|
|
|
|
"Her husband won't like it."
|
|
|
|
"Ah well, I can fancy that; though it seems to me you're not bound
|
|
to mind his likings. They're his affair."
|
|
|
|
"I don't want to make any more trouble between them," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"Is there so much already?"
|
|
|
|
"There's complete preparation for it. Her going off with me would
|
|
make the explosion. Osmond isn't fond of his wife's cousin."
|
|
|
|
"Then of course he'd make a row. But won't he make a row if you stop
|
|
here?"
|
|
|
|
"That's what I want to see. He made one the last time I was in Rome,
|
|
and then I thought it my duty to disappear. Now I think it's my duty
|
|
to stop and defend her."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Touchett, your defensive powers-!" Lord Warburton began
|
|
with a smile. But he saw something in his companion's face that
|
|
checked him.
|
|
|
|
"Your duty, in these premises, seems to me rather a nice
|
|
question," he observed instead.
|
|
|
|
Ralph for a short time answered nothing. "It's true my defensive
|
|
powers are small," he returned at last; "but as my aggressive ones are
|
|
still smaller Osmond may after all not think me worth his gunpowder.
|
|
At any rate," he added, "there are things I'm curious to see."
|
|
|
|
"You're sacrificing your health to your curiosity then?"
|
|
|
|
"I'm not much interested in my health, and I'm deeply interested
|
|
in Mrs. Osmond."
|
|
|
|
"So am I. But not as I once was," Lord Warburton added quickly. This
|
|
was one of the allusions he had not hitherto found occasion to make.
|
|
|
|
"Does she strike you as very happy?" Ralph enquired, emboldened by
|
|
this confidence.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I don't know; I've hardly thought. She told me the other
|
|
night she was happy."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, she told you, of course," Ralph exclaimed, smiling.
|
|
|
|
"I don't know that. It seems to me I was rather the sort of person
|
|
she might have complained to."
|
|
|
|
"Complained? She'll never complain. She has done it-what she has
|
|
done-and she knows it. She'll complain to you least of all. She's very
|
|
careful."
|
|
|
|
"She needn't be. I don't mean to make love to her again."
|
|
|
|
"I'm delighted to hear it. There can be no doubt at least of your
|
|
duty."
|
|
|
|
"Ah no," said Lord Warburton gravely; "none!"
|
|
|
|
"Permit me to ask," Ralph went on, "whether it's to bring out the
|
|
fact that you don't mean to make love to her that you're so very civil
|
|
to the little girl?"
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton gave a slight start; he got up and stood before the
|
|
fire, looking at it hard. "Does that strike you as very ridiculous?"
|
|
|
|
"Ridiculous? Not in the least, if you really like her."
|
|
|
|
"I think her a delightful little person. I don't know when a girl of
|
|
that age has pleased me more."
|
|
|
|
"She's a charming creature. Ah, she at least is genuine."
|
|
|
|
"Of course there's the difference in our ages-more than twenty
|
|
years."
|
|
|
|
"My dear Warburton," said Ralph, "are you serious?"
|
|
|
|
"Perfectly serious-as far as I've got."
|
|
|
|
"I'm very glad. And, heaven help us," cried Ralph, "how cheered-up
|
|
old Osmond will be!"
|
|
|
|
His companion frowned. "I say, don't spoil it. I shouldn't propose
|
|
for his daughter to please him."
|
|
|
|
"He'll have the perversity to be pleased all the same."
|
|
|
|
"He's not so fond of me as that," said his lordship.
|
|
|
|
"As that? My dear Warburton, the drawback of your position is that
|
|
people needn't be fond of you at all to wish to be connected with you.
|
|
Now, with me in such a case, I should have the happy confidence that
|
|
they loved me."
|
|
|
|
Lord Warburton seemed scarcely in the mood for doing justice to
|
|
general axioms-he was thinking of a special case. "Do you judge she'll
|
|
be pleased?"
|
|
|
|
"The girl herself? Delighted, surely." "No, no; I mean Mrs. Osmond."
|
|
|
|
Ralph looked at him a moment. "My dear fellow, what has she to do
|
|
with it?"
|
|
|
|
"Whatever she chooses. She's very fond of Pansy."
|
|
|
|
"Very true-very true." And Ralph slowly got up. "It's an interesting
|
|
question-how far her fondness for Pansy will carry her." He stood
|
|
there a moment with his hands in his pockets and rather a clouded
|
|
brow. "I hope, you know, that you're very-very sure. The deuce!" he
|
|
broke off. "I don't know how to say it."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you do; you know how to say everything."
|
|
|
|
"Well, it's awkward. I hope you're sure that among Miss Osmond's
|
|
merits her being-a-so near her stepmother isn't a leading one?"
|
|
|
|
"Good heavens, Touchett!" cried Lord Warburton angrily, "for what do
|
|
you take me?"
|
|
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|
CHAPTER 40
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|
|
|
Isabel had not seen much of Madame Merle since her marriage, this
|
|
lady having indulged in frequent absences from Rome. At one time she
|
|
had spent six months in England; at another she had passed a portion
|
|
of a winter in Paris. She had made numerous visits to distant
|
|
friends and gave countenance to the idea that for the future she
|
|
should be a less inveterate Roman than in the past. As she had been
|
|
inveterate in the past only in the sense of constantly having an
|
|
apartment in one of the sunniest niches of the Pincian- an apartment
|
|
which often stood empty-this suggested a prospect of almost constant
|
|
absence; a danger which Isabel at one period had been much inclined to
|
|
deplore. Familiarity had modified in some degree her first
|
|
impression of Madame Merle, but it had not essentially altered it;
|
|
there was still much wonder of admiration in it. That personage was
|
|
armed at all points; it was a pleasure to see a character so
|
|
completely equipped for the social battle. She carried her flag
|
|
discreetly, but her weapons were polished steel, and she used them
|
|
with a skill which struck Isabel as more and more that of a veteran.
|
|
She was never weary, never overcome with disgust; she never appeared
|
|
to need rest or consolation. She had her own ideas; she had of old
|
|
exposed a great many of them to Isabel, who knew also that under an
|
|
appearance of extreme self-control her highly-cultivated friend
|
|
concealed a rich sensibility. But her will was mistress of her life;
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there was something gallant in the way she kept going. It was as if
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she had learned the secret of it-as if the art of life were some
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clever trick she had guessed. Isabel, as she herself grew older,
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became acquainted with revulsions, with disgusts; there were days when
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the world looked black and she asked herself with some sharpness
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what it was that she was pretending to live for. Her old habit had
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been to live by enthusiasm, to fall in love with suddenly-perceived
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possibilities, with the idea of some new adventure. As a younger
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person she had been used to proceed from one little exaltation to
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the other: there were scarcely any dull places between. But Madame
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Merle had suppressed enthusiasm; she fell in love now-a-days with
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nothing; she lived entirely by reason and by wisdom. There were
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hours when Isabel would have given anything for lessons in this art;
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if her brilliant friend had been near she would have made an appeal to
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her. She had become aware more than before of the advantage of being
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like that-of having made one's self a firm surface, a sort of corselet
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of silver.
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But, as I say, it was not till the winter during which we lately
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renewed acquaintance with our heroine that the personage in question
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made again a continuous stay in Rome. Isabel now saw more of her
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than she had done since her marriage; but by this time Isabel's
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needs and inclinations had considerably changed. It was not at present
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to Madame Merle that she would have applied for instruction; she had
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lost the desire to know this lady's clever trick. If she had
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troubles she must keep them to herself, and if life was difficult it
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would not make it easier to confess herself beaten. Madame Merle was
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doubtless of great use to herself and an ornament to any circle; but
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was she-would she be-of use to others in periods of refined
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embarrassment? The best way to profit by her friend-this indeed Isabel
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had always thought-was to imitate her, to be as firm and bright as
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she. She recognized no embarrassments, and Isabel, considering this
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fact, determined for the fiftieth time to brush aside her own. It
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seemed to her too, on the renewal of an intercourse which had
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virtually been interrupted, that her old ally was different, was
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almost detached-pushing to the extreme a certain rather artificial
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fear of being indiscreet. Ralph Touchett, we know, had been of the
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opinion that she was prone to exaggeration, to forcing the note-was
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apt, in the vulgar phrase, to overdo it. Isabel had never admitted
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this charge-had never indeed quite understood it; Madame Merle's
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conduct, to her perception, always bore the stamp of good taste, was
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always "quiet." But in this matter of not wishing to intrude upon
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the inner life of the Osmond family it at last occurred to our young
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woman that she overdid a little. That of course was not the best
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taste; that was rather violent. She remembered too much that Isabel
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was married; that she had now other interests; that though she, Madame
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Merle, had known Gilbert Osmond and his little Pansy very well, better
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almost than any one, she was not after all of the inner circle. She
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was on her guard; she never spoke of their affairs till she was asked,
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even pressed when her opinion was wanted; she had a dread of seeming
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to meddle. Madame Merle was as candid as we know, and one day she
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candidly expressed this dread to Isabel.
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"I must be on my guard," she said; "I might so easily, without
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suspecting it, offend you. You would be right to be offended, even
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if my intention should have been of the purest. I must not forget that
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I knew your husband long before you did; I must not let that betray
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me. If you were a silly woman you might be jealous. You're not a silly
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woman; I know that perfectly. But neither am I; therefore I'm
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determined not to get into trouble. A little harm's very soon done;
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a mistake's made before one knows it. Of course if I had wished to
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make love to your husband I had ten years to do it in, and nothing
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to prevent; so it isn't likely I shall begin to-day, when I'm so
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much less attractive than I was. But if I were to annoy you by seeming
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to take a place that doesn't belong to me, you wouldn't make that
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reflection; you'd simply say I was forgetting certain differences. I'm
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determined not to forget them. Certainly a good friend isn't always
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thinking of that; one doesn't suspect one's friends of injustice. I
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don't suspect you, my dear, in the least; but I suspect human
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nature. Don't think I make myself uncomfortable; I'm not always
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watching myself. I think I sufficiently prove it in talking to you
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as I do now. All I wish to say is, however, that if you were to be
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jealous-that's the form it would take-I should be sure to think it was
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a little my fault. It certainly wouldn't be your husband's."
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Isabel had had three years to think over Mrs. Touchett's theory that
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Madame Merle had made Gilbert Osmond's marriage. We know how she had
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at first received it. Madame Merle might have made Gilbert Osmond's
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marriage, but she certainly had not made Isabel Archer's. That was the
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work of-Isabel scarcely knew what: of nature, providence, fortune,
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of the eternal mystery of things. It was true her aunt's complaint had
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been not so much of Madame Merle's activity as of her duplicity: she
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had brought about the strange event and then she had denied her guilt.
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Such guilt would not have been great, to Isabel's mind; she couldn't
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make a crime of Madame Merle's having been the producing cause of
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the most important friendship she had ever formed. This had occurred
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to her just before her marriage, after her little discussion with
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her aunt and at a time when she was still capable of that large inward
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reference, the tone almost of the philosophic historian, to her
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scant young annals. If Madame Merle had desired her change of state
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she could only say it had been a very happy thought. With her,
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moreover, she had been perfectly straightforward; she had never
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concealed her high opinion of Gilbert Osmond. After their union Isabel
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discovered that her husband took a less convenient view of the matter;
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he seldom consented to finger, in talk, this roundest and smoothest
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bead of their social rosary.
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"Don't you like Madame Merle?" Isabel had once said to him. "She
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thinks a great deal of you."
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"I'll tell you once for all," Osmond had answered. "I liked her once
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better than I do to-day. I'm tired of her, and I'm rather ashamed of
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it. She's so almost unnaturally good! I'm glad she's not in Italy;
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it makes for relaxation-for a sort of moral detente. Don't talk of her
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too much; it seems to bring her back. She'll come back in plenty of
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time."
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Madame Merle, in fact, had come back before it was too late-too
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late, I mean, to recover whatever advantage she might have lost. But
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meantime, if, as I have said, she was sensibly different, Isabel's
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|
feelings were also not quite the same. Her consciousness of the
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|
situation was as acute as of old, but it was much less satisfying. A
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|
dissatisfied mind, whatever else it may miss, is rarely in want of
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|
reasons; they bloom as thick as buttercups in June. The fact of Madame
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Merle's having had a hand in Gilbert Osmond's marriage ceased to be
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|
one of her titles to consideration; it might have been written,
|
|
after all, that there was not so much to thank her for. As time went
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|
on there was less and less, and Isabel once said to herself that
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perhaps without her these things would not have been. That
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|
reflection indeed was instantly stifled; she knew an immediate
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|
horror at having made it. "Whatever happens to me let me not be
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|
unjust," she said; "Let me bear my burdens myself and not shift them
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|
upon others!" This disposition was tested, eventually, by that
|
|
ingenious apology for her present conduct which Madame Merle saw fit
|
|
to make and of which I have given a sketch; for there was something
|
|
irritating-there was almost an air of mockery-in her neat
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|
discriminations and clear convictions. In Isabel's mind to-day there
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|
was nothing clear; there was a confusion of regrets, a complication of
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|
fears. She felt helpless as she turned away from her friend, who had
|
|
just made the statements I have quoted: Madame Merle knew so little
|
|
what she was thinking of! She was herself moreover so unable to
|
|
explain. jealous of her-jealous of her with Gilbert? The idea just
|
|
then suggested no near reality.
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|
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She almost wished jealousy had been possible; it would have made
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|
in a manner for refreshment. Wasn't it in a manner one of the symptoms
|
|
of happiness? Madame Merle, however, was wise, so wise that she
|
|
might have been pretending to know Isabel better than Isabel knew
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|
herself. This young woman had always been fertile in
|
|
resolutions-many of them of an elevated character; but at no period
|
|
had they flourished (in the privacy of her heart) more richly than
|
|
to-day. It is true that they all had a family likeness; they might
|
|
have been summed up in the determination that if she was to be unhappy
|
|
it should not be by a fault of her own. Her poor winged spirit had
|
|
always had a great desire to do its best, and it had not as yet been
|
|
seriously discouraged. It wished, therefore, to hold fast to
|
|
justice-not to pay itself by petty revenges. To associate Madame Merle
|
|
with its disappointment would be a petty revenge-especially as the
|
|
pleasure to be derived from that would be perfectly insincere. It
|
|
might feed her sense of bitterness, but it would not loosen her bonds.
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|
It was impossible to pretend that she had not acted with her eyes
|
|
open; if ever a girl was a free agent she had been. A girl in love was
|
|
doubtless not a free agent; but the sole source of her mistake had
|
|
been within herself. There had been no plot, no snare; she had
|
|
looked and considered and chosen. When a woman had made such a
|
|
mistake, there was only one way to repair it-just immensely (oh,
|
|
with the highest grandeur! to accept it. One folly was enough,
|
|
especially when it was to last for ever; a second one would not much
|
|
set it off. In this vow of reticence there was a certain nobleness
|
|
which kept Isabel going; but Madame Merle had been right, for all
|
|
that, in taking her precautions.
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|
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One day about a month after Ralph Touchett's arrival in Rome
|
|
Isabel came back from a walk with Pansy. It was not only a part of her
|
|
general determination to be just that she was at present very thankful
|
|
for Pansy-it was also a part of her tenderness for things that were
|
|
pure and weak. Pansy was dear to her, and there was nothing else in
|
|
her life that had the rightness of the young creature's attachment
|
|
or the sweetness of her own clearness about it. It was like a soft
|
|
presence-like a small hand in her own; on Pansy's part it was more
|
|
than an affection-it was a kind of ardent coercive faith. On her own
|
|
side her sense of the girl's dependence was more than a pleasure; it
|
|
operated as a definite reason when motives threatened to fail her. She
|
|
had said to herself that we must take our duty where we find it, and
|
|
that we must look for it as much as possible. Pansy's sympathy was a
|
|
direct admonition; it seemed to say that here was an opportunity,
|
|
not eminent perhaps, but unmistakeable. Yet an opportunity for what
|
|
Isabel could hardly have said; in general, to be more for the child
|
|
than the child was able to be for herself. Isabel could have smiled,
|
|
in these days, to remember that her little companion had once been
|
|
ambiguous, for she now perceived that Pansy's ambiguities were
|
|
simply her own grossness of vision. She had been unable to believe any
|
|
one could care so much-so extraordinarily much-to please. But since
|
|
then she had seen this delicate faculty in operation, and now she knew
|
|
what to think of it. It was the whole creature-it was a sort of
|
|
genius. Pansy had no pride to interfere with it, and though she was
|
|
constantly extending her conquests she took no credit for them. The
|
|
two were constantly together; Mrs. Osmond was rarely seen without
|
|
her stepdaughter. Isabel liked her company; it had the effect of one's
|
|
carrying a nosegay composed all of the same flower. And then not to
|
|
neglect Pansy, not under any provocation to neglect her-this she had
|
|
made an article of religion. The young girl had every appearance of
|
|
being happier in Isabel's society than in that of any one save her
|
|
father, whom she admired with an intensity justified by the fact that,
|
|
as paternity was an exquisite pleasure to Gilbert Osmond, he had
|
|
always been luxuriously mild. Isabel knew how Pansy liked to be with
|
|
her and how she studied the means of pleasing her. She had decided
|
|
that the best way of pleasing her was negative, and consisted in not
|
|
giving her trouble-a conviction which certainly could have had no
|
|
reference to trouble already existing. She was therefore ingeniously
|
|
passive and almost imaginatively docile; she was careful even to
|
|
moderate the eagerness with which she assented to Isabel's
|
|
propositions and which might have implied that she could have
|
|
thought otherwise. She never interrupted, never asked social
|
|
questions, and though she delighted in approbation, to the point of
|
|
turning pale when it came to her, never held out her hand for it.
|
|
She only looked toward it wistfully-an attitude which, as she grew
|
|
older, made her eyes the prettiest in the world. When during the
|
|
second winter at Palazzo Roccanera she began to go to parties, to
|
|
dances, she always, at a reasonable hour, lest Mrs. Osmond should be
|
|
tired, was the first to propose departure. Isabel appreciated the
|
|
sacrifice of the late dances, for she knew her little companion had
|
|
a passionate pleasure in this exercise, taking her steps to the
|
|
music like a conscientious fairy. Society, moreover, had no
|
|
drawbacks for her; she liked even the tiresome parts-the heat of
|
|
ball-rooms, the dulness of dinners, the crush at the door, the awkward
|
|
waiting for the carriage. During the day, in this vehicle, beside
|
|
her stepmother, she sat in a small fixed, appreciative posture,
|
|
bending forward and faintly smiling, as if she had been taken to drive
|
|
for the first time.
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|
|
|
On the day I speak of they had been driven out of one of the gates
|
|
of the city and at the end of half an hour had left the carriage to
|
|
await them by the roadside while they walked away over the short grass
|
|
of the Campagna, which even in the winter months is sprinkled with
|
|
delicate flowers. This was almost a daily habit with Isabel, who was
|
|
fond of a walk and had a swift length of step, though not so swift a
|
|
one as on her first coming to Europe. It was not the form of
|
|
exercise that Pansy loved best, but she liked it, because she liked
|
|
everything; and she moved with a shorter undulation beside her
|
|
father's wife, who afterwards, on their return to Rome, paid a tribute
|
|
to her preferences by making the circuit of the Pincian or the Villa
|
|
Borghese. She had gathered a handful of flowers in a sunny hollow, far
|
|
from the walls of Rome, and on reaching Palazzo Roccanera she went
|
|
straight to her room, to put them into water. Isabel passed into the
|
|
drawing-room, the one she herself usually occupied, the second in
|
|
order from the large ante-chamber which was entered from the staircase
|
|
and in which even Gilbert Osmond's rich devices had not been able to
|
|
correct a look of rather grand nudity. just beyond the threshold of
|
|
the drawing-room she stopped short, the reason for her doing so
|
|
being that she had received an impression. The impression had, in
|
|
strictness, nothing unprecedented; but she felt it as something new,
|
|
and the soundlessness of her step gave her time to take in the scene
|
|
before she interrupted it. Madame Merle was there in her bonnet, and
|
|
Gilbert Osmond was talking to her; for a minute they were unaware
|
|
she had come in. Isabel had often seen that before, certainly; but
|
|
what she had not seen, or at least had not noticed, was that their
|
|
colloquy had for the moment converted itself into a sort of familiar
|
|
silence, from which she instantly perceived that her entrance would
|
|
startle them. Madame Merle was standing on the rug, a little way
|
|
from the fire; Osmond was in a deep chair, leaning back and looking at
|
|
her. Her head was erect, as usual, but her eyes were bent on his. What
|
|
struck Isabel first was that he was sitting while Madame Merle
|
|
stood; there was an anomaly in this that arrested her. Then she
|
|
perceived that they had arrived at a desultory pause in their exchange
|
|
of ideas and were musing, face to face, with the freedom of old
|
|
friends who sometimes exchange ideas without uttering them. There
|
|
was nothing to shock in this; they were old friends in fact. But the
|
|
thing made an image, lasting only a moment, like a sudden flicker of
|
|
light. Their relative positions, their absorbed mutual gaze, struck
|
|
her as something detected. But it was all over by the time she had
|
|
fairly seen it. Madame Merle had seen her and had welcomed her without
|
|
moving; her husband, on the other hand, had instantly jumped up. He
|
|
presently murmured something about wanting a walk and, after having
|
|
asked their visitor to excuse him, left the room.
|
|
|
|
"I came to see you, thinking you would have come in; and as you
|
|
hadn't I waited for you," Madame Merle said.
|
|
|
|
"Didn't he ask you to sit down?" Isabel asked with a smile.
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle looked about her. "Ah, it's very true; I was going
|
|
away."
|
|
|
|
"You must stay now."
|
|
|
|
"Certainly. I came for a reason; I've something on my mind."
|
|
|
|
"I've told you that before," Isabel said-"that it takes something
|
|
extraordinary to bring you to this house."
|
|
|
|
"And you know what I've told you; that whether I come or whether I
|
|
stay away, I've always the same motive-the affection I bear you."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you've told me that."
|
|
|
|
"You look just now as if you didn't believe it," said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"Ah," Isabel answered, "the profundity of your motives, that's the
|
|
last thing I doubt!"
|
|
|
|
"You doubt sooner of the sincerity of my words."
|
|
|
|
Isabel shook her head gravely. "I know you've always been kind to
|
|
me."
|
|
|
|
"As often as you would let me. You don't always take it; then one
|
|
has to let you alone. It's not to do you a kindness, however, that
|
|
I've come to-day; it's quite another affair. I've come to get rid of a
|
|
trouble of my own-to make it over to you. I've been talking to your
|
|
husband about it."
|
|
|
|
"I'm surprised at that; he doesn't like troubles."
|
|
|
|
"Especially other people's; I know very well. But neither do you,
|
|
I suppose. At any rate, whether you do or not, you must help me.
|
|
It's about poor Mr. Rosier."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Isabel reflectively, "it's his trouble then, not yours."
|
|
|
|
"He has succeeded in saddling me with it. He comes to see me ten
|
|
times a week, to talk about Pansy."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, he wants to marry her. I know all about it."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle hesitated. "I gathered from your husband that perhaps
|
|
you didn't."
|
|
|
|
"How should he know what I know? He has never spoken to me of the
|
|
matter."
|
|
|
|
"It's probably because he doesn't know how to speak of it."
|
|
|
|
"It's nevertheless the sort of question in which he's rarely at
|
|
fault."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, because as a general thing he knows perfectly well what to
|
|
think.
|
|
|
|
To-day he doesn't."
|
|
|
|
"Haven't you been telling him?" Isabel asked.
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle gave a bright, voluntary smile. "Do you know you're a
|
|
little dry?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; I can't help it. Mr. Rosier has also talked to me."
|
|
|
|
"In that there's some reason. You're so near the child."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Isabel, "for all the comfort I've given him! If you think
|
|
me dry, I wonder what he thinks."
|
|
|
|
"I believe he thinks you can do more than you have done."
|
|
|
|
"I can do nothing."
|
|
|
|
"You can do more at least than I. I don't know what mysterious
|
|
connection he may have discovered between me and Pansy; but he came to
|
|
me from the first, as if I held his fortune in my hand. Now he keeps
|
|
coming back, to spur me up, to know what hope there is, to pour out
|
|
his feelings."
|
|
|
|
"He's very much in love," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"Very much-for him."
|
|
|
|
"Very much for Pansy, you might say as well."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle dropped her eyes a moment. "Don't you think she's
|
|
attractive?"
|
|
|
|
"The dearest little person possible-but very limited."
|
|
|
|
"She ought to be all the easier for Mr. Rosier to love. Mr. Rosier's
|
|
not unlimited."
|
|
|
|
"No," said Isabel, "he has about the extent of one's
|
|
pocket-handkerchief-the small ones with lace borders." Her humour
|
|
had lately turned a good deal to sarcasm, but in a moment she was
|
|
ashamed of exercising it on so innocent an object as Pansy's suitor.
|
|
"He's very kind, very honest," she presently added; "and he's not such
|
|
a fool as he seems."
|
|
|
|
"He assures me that she delights in him," said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"I don't know; I've not asked her."
|
|
|
|
"You've never sounded her a little?"
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|
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|
"It's not my place; it's her father's."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, you're too literal!" said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"I must judge for myself."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle gave her smile again. "It isn't easy to help you."
|
|
|
|
"To help me?" said Isabel very seriously. "What do you mean?"
|
|
|
|
"It's easy to displease you. Don't you see how wise I am to be
|
|
careful? I notify you, at any rate, as I notified Osmond, that I
|
|
wash my hands of the love-affairs of Miss Pansy and Mr. Edward Rosier.
|
|
Je n'y peux rien, moi! I can't talk to Pansy about him. Especially,"
|
|
added Madame Merle, "as I don't think him a paragon of husbands."
|
|
|
|
Isabel reflected a little; after which, with a smile, "You don't
|
|
wash your hands then!" she said. After which again she added in
|
|
another tone: "You can't-you're too much interested."
|
|
|
|
Madame Merle slowly rose; she had given Isabel a look as rapid as
|
|
the intimation that had gleamed before our heroine a few moments
|
|
before. Only this time the latter saw nothing. "Ask him the next time,
|
|
and you'll see."
|
|
|
|
"I can't ask him; he has ceased to come to the house. Gilbert has
|
|
let him know that he's not welcome."
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|
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"Ah yes," said Madame Merle, "I forgot that-though it's the burden
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of his lamentation. He says Osmond has insulted him. All the same,"
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she went on, "Osmond doesn't dislike him so much as he thinks." She
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had got up as if to close the conversation, but she lingered,
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looking about her, and had evidently more to say. Isabel perceived
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this and even saw the point she had in view; but Isabel also had her
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own reasons for not opening the way.
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"That must have pleased him, if you've told him," she answered,
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smiling.
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"Certainly I've told him; as far as that goes I've encouraged him.
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I've preached patience, have said that his case isn't desperate if
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he'll only hold his tongue and be quiet. Unfortunately he has taken it
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into his head to be jealous."
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"Jealous?
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"Jealous of Lord Warburton, who, he says, is always here."
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Isabel, who was tired, had remained sitting; but at this she also
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rose. "Ah!" she exclaimed simply, moving slowly to the fireplace.
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Madame Merle observed her as she passed and while she stood a moment
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before the mantel-glass and pushed into its place a wandering tress of
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hair.
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"Poor Mr. Rosier keeps saying there's nothing impossible in Lord
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Warburton's falling in love with Pansy," Madame Merle went on.
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Isabel was silent a little; she turned away from the glass.
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"It's true-there's nothing impossible," she returned at last,
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gravely and more gently.
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"So I've had to admit to Mr. Rosier. So, too, your husband thinks."
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"That I don't know."
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"Ask him and you'll see."
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"I shall not ask him," said Isabel.
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"Pardon me; I forgot you had pointed that out. Of course," Madame
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Merle added, "you've had infinitely more observation of Lord
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Warburton's behaviour than I."
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"I see no reason why I shouldn't tell you that he likes my
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stepdaughter very much."
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Madame Merle gave one of her quick looks again. "Likes her, you
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mean-Mr. Rosier means?"
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"I don't know how Mr. Rosier means; but Lord Warburton has let me
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know that he's charmed with Pansy."
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"And you've never told Osmond?" This observation was immediate,
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precipitate; it almost burst from Madame Merle's lips.
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Isabel's eyes rested on her. "I suppose he'll know in time; Lord
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Warburton has a tongue and knows how to express himself."
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Madame Merle instantly became conscious that she had spoken more
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quickly than usual, and the reflection brought the colour to her
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cheek. She gave the treacherous impulse time to subside and then
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said as if she had been thinking it over a little: "That would be
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better than marrying poor Mr. Rosier."
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"Much better, I think."
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"It would be very delightful; it would be a great marriage. It's
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really very kind of him."
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"Very kind of him?"
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"To drop his eyes on a simple little girl."
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"I don't see that."
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"It's very good of you. But after all, Pansy Osmond-"
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"After all, Pansy Osmond's the most attractive person he has ever
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known!" Isabel exclaimed.
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Madame Merle stared, and indeed she was justly bewildered. "Ah, a
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moment ago I thought you seemed rather to disparage her."
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"I said she was limited. And so she is. And so's Lord Warburton."
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"So are we all, if you come to that. If it's no more than Pansy
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deserves, all the better. But if she fixes her affections on Mr.
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Rosier I won't admit that she deserves it. That will be too perverse."
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"Mr. Rosier's a nuisance!" Isabel cried abruptly.
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"I quite agree with you, and I'm delighted to know that I'm not
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expected to feed his flame. For the future, when he calls on me, my
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door shall be closed to him." And gathering her mantle together Madame
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Merle prepared to depart. She was checked, however, on her progress to
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the door, by an inconsequent request from Isabel.
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"All the same, you know, be kind to him."
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She lifted her shoulders and eyebrows and stood looking at her
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friend. "I don't understand your contradictions! Decidedly I shan't be
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kind to him, for it will be a false kindness. I want to see her
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married to Lord Warburton."
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"You had better wait till he asks her."
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"If what you say's true, he'll ask her. Especially," said Madame
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Merle in a moment, "if you make him."
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"If I make him?"
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"It's quite in your power. You've great influence with him."
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Isabel frowned a little. "Where did you learn that?"
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"Mrs. Touchett told me. Not you-never!" said Madame Merle, smiling.
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"I certainly never told you anything of the sort."
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"You might have done far as opportunity went-when we were by way
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of being confidential with each other. But you really told me very
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little; I've often thought so since."
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Isabel had thought so too, and sometimes with a certain
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satisfaction. But she didn't admit it now-perhaps because she wished
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not to appear to exult in it. "You seem to have had an excellent
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informant in my aunt," she simply returned.
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"She let me know you had declined an offer of marriage from Lord
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Warburton, because she was greatly vexed and was full of the
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subject. Of course I think you've done better in doing as you did. But
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if you wouldn't marry Lord Warburton yourself, make him the reparation
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of helping him to marry some one else."
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Isabel listened to this with a face that persisted in not reflecting
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the bright expressiveness of Madame Merle's. But in a moment she said,
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reasonably and gently enough: "I should be very glad indeed if, as
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regards Pansy, it could be arranged." Upon which her companion, who
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seemed to regard this as a speech of good omen, embraced her more
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tenderly than might have been expected and triumphantly withdrew.
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CHAPTER 41
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Osmond touched on this matter that evening for the first time;
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coming very late into the drawing-room, where she was sitting alone.
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They had spent the evening at home, and Pansy had gone to bed; he
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himself had been sitting since dinner in a small apartment in which he
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had arranged his books and which he called his study. At ten o'clock
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Lord Warburton had come in, as he always did when he knew from
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Isabel that she was to be at home; he was going somewhere else and
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he sat for half an hour. Isabel, after asking him for news of Ralph,
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said very little to him, on purpose; she wished him to talk with her
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stepdaughter. She pretended to read; she even went after a little to
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the piano; she asked herself if she mightn't leave the room. She had
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come little by little to think well of the idea of Pansy's becoming
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the wife of the master of beautiful Lockleigh, though at first it
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had not presented itself in a manner to excite her enthusiasm.
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Madame Merle, that afternoon, had applied the match to an accumulation
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of inflammable material. When Isabel was unhappy she always looked
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about her-partly from impulse and partly by theory-for some form of
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positive exertion. She could never rid herself of the sense that
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unhappiness was a state of disease-of suffering as opposed to doing.
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To "do"-it hardly mattered what-would therefore be an escape,
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perhaps in some degree a remedy. Besides, she wished to convince
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herself that she had done everything possible to content her
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husband; she was determined not to be haunted by visions of his wife's
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limpness under appeal. It would please him greatly to see Pansy
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married to an English nobleman, and justly please him, since this
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nobleman was so sound a character. It seemed to Isabel that if she
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could make it her duty to bring about such an event she should play
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the part of a good wife. She wanted to be that; she wanted to be
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able to believe sincerely, and with proof of it, that she had been
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that. Then such an undertaking had other recommendations. It would
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occupy her, and she desired occupation. It would even amuse her, and
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if she could really amuse herself she perhaps might be saved.
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Lastly, it would be a service to Lord Warburton, who evidently pleased
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himself greatly with the charming girl. It was a little "weird" he
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should-being what he was; but there was no accounting for such
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impressions. Pansy might captivate any one-any one at least but Lord
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Warburton. Isabel would have thought her too small, too slight,
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perhaps even too artificial for that. There was always a little of the
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doll about her, and that was not what he had been looking for.
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Still, who could say what men ever were looking for? They looked for
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what they found; they knew what pleased them only when they saw it. No
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theory was valid in such matters, and nothing was more unaccountable
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|
or more natural than anything else. If he had cared for her it might
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|
seem odd he should care for Pansy, who was so different; but he had
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|
not cared for her so much as he had supposed. Or if he had, he had
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|
completely got over it, and it was natural that, as that affair had
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|
failed, he should think something of quite another sort might succeed.
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Enthusiasm, as I say, had not come at first to Isabel, but it came
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to-day and made her feel almost happy. It was astonishing what
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|
happiness she could still find in the idea of procuring a pleasure for
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|
her husband. It was a pity, however, that Edward Rosier had crossed
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their path!
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At this reflection the light that had suddenly gleamed upon that
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|
path lost something of its brightness. Isabel was unfortunately as
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|
sure that Pansy thought Mr. Rosier the nicest of all the young men
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sure as if she had held an interview with her on the subject. It was
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|
very tiresome she should be so sure, when she had carefully
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|
abstained from informing herself; almost as tiresome as that poor
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|
Mr. Rosier should have taken it into his own head. He was certainly
|
|
very inferior to Lord Warburton. It was not the difference in
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|
fortune so much as the difference in the men; the young American was
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|
really so light a weight. He was much more of the type of the
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|
useless fine gentleman than the English nobleman. It was true that
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|
there was no particular reason why Pansy should marry a statesman;
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|
still, if a statesman admired her, that was his affair, and she
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|
would make a perfect little pearl of a peeress.
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|
It may seem to the reader that Mrs. Osmond had grown of a sudden
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|
strangely cynical, for she ended by saying to herself that this
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|
difficulty could probably be arranged. An impediment that was embodied
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|
in poor Rosier could not anyhow present itself as a dangerous one;
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|
there were always means of levelling secondary obstacles. Isabel was
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|
perfectly aware that she had not taken the measure of Pansy's
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|
tenacity, which might prove to be inconveniently great; but she
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|
inclined to see her as rather letting go, under suggestion, than as
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|
clutching under deprecation-since she had certainly the faculty of
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|
assent developed in a very much higher degree than that of protest.
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|
She would cling, yes, she would cling; but it really mattered to her
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|
very little what she clung to. Lord Warburton would do as well as
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|
Mr. Rosier-especially as she seemed quite to like him; she had
|
|
expressed this sentiment to Isabel without a single reservation; she
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|
had said she thought his conversation most interesting-he had told her
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|
all about India. His manner to Pansy had been of the rightest and
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|
easiest-Isabel noticed that for herself, as she also observed that
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|
he talked to her not in the least in a patronizing way, reminding
|
|
himself of her youth and simplicity, but quite as if she understood
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|
his subjects with that sufficiency with which she followed those of
|
|
the fashionable operas. This went far enough for attention to the
|
|
music and the barytone. He was careful only to be kind-he was as
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|
kind as he had been to another fluttered young chit at Gardencourt.
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|
A girl might well be touched by that; she remembered how she herself
|
|
had been touched, and said to herself that if she had been as simple
|
|
as Pansy the impression would have been deeper still. She had not been
|
|
simple when she refused him; that operation had been as complicated
|
|
as, later, her acceptance of Osmond had been. Pansy, however, in spite
|
|
of her simplicity, really did understand, and was glad that Lord
|
|
Warburton should talk to her, not about her partners and bouquets, but
|
|
about the state of Italy, the condition of the peasantry, the famous
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|
grist-tax, the pellagra, his impressions of Roman society. She
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|
looked at him, as she drew her needle through her tapestry, with sweet
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submissive eyes, and when she lowered them she gave little quiet
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|
oblique glances at his person, his hands, his feet, his clothes, as if
|
|
she were considering him. Even his person, Isabel might have
|
|
reminded her, was better than Mr. Rosier's. But Isabel contented
|
|
herself at such moments with wondering where this gentleman was; he
|
|
came no more at all to Palazzo Roccanera. It was surprising, as I say,
|
|
the hold it had taken of her-the idea of assisting her husband to be
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|
pleased.
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It was surprising for a variety of reasons which I shall presently
|
|
touch upon. On the evening I speak of, while Lord Warburton sat there,
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|
she had been on the point of taking the great step of going out of the
|
|
room and leaving her companions alone. I say the great step, because
|
|
it was in this light that Gilbert Osmond would have regarded it, and
|
|
Isabel was trying as much as possible to take her husband's view.
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|
She succeeded after a fashion, but she fell short of the point I
|
|
mention. After all she couldn't rise to it; something held her and
|
|
made this impossible. It was not exactly that it would be base or
|
|
insidious; for women as a general thing practise such manoeuvres
|
|
with a perfectly good conscience, and Isabel was instinctively much
|
|
more true than false to the common genius of her sex. There was a
|
|
vague doubt that interposed-a sense that she was not quite sure. So
|
|
she remained in the drawing-room, and after a while Lord Warburton
|
|
went off to his party, of which he promised to give Pansy a full
|
|
account on the morrow. After he had gone she wondered if she had
|
|
prevented something which would have happened if she had absented
|
|
herself for a quarter of an hour; and then she pronounced-always
|
|
mentally-that when their distinguished visitor should wish her to go
|
|
away he would easily find means to let her know it. Pansy said nothing
|
|
whatever about him after he had gone, and Isabel studiously said
|
|
nothing, as she had taken a vow of reserve until after he should
|
|
have declared himself. He was a little longer in coming to this than
|
|
might seem to accord with the description he had given Isabel of his
|
|
feelings. Pansy went to bed, and Isabel had to admit that she could
|
|
not now guess what her stepdaughter was thinking of. Her transparent
|
|
little companion was for the moment not to be seen through.
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|
|
|
She remained alone, looking at the fire, until, at the end of half
|
|
an hour, her husband came in. He moved about a while in silence and
|
|
then sat down; he looked at the fire like herself. But she now had
|
|
transferred her eyes from the flickering flame in the chimney to
|
|
Osmond's face, and she watched him while he kept his silence. Covert
|
|
observation had become a habit with her; an instinct, of which it is
|
|
not an exaggeration to say that it was allied to that of self-defence,
|
|
had made it habitual. She wished as much as possible to know his
|
|
thoughts, to know what he would say, beforehand, so that she might
|
|
prepare her answer. Preparing answers had not been her strong point of
|
|
old; she had rarely in this respect got further than thinking
|
|
afterwards of clever things she might have said. But she had learned
|
|
caution-learned it in a measure from her husband's very countenance.
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|
It was the same face she had looked into with eyes equally earnest
|
|
perhaps, but less penetrating, on the terrace of a Florentine villa;
|
|
except that Osmond had grown slightly stouter since his marriage. He
|
|
still, however, might strike one as very distinguished.
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|
"Has Lord Warburton been here?" he presently asked.
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"Yes, he stayed half an hour."
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"Did he see Pansy?"
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"Yes; he sat on the sofa beside her."
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"Did he talk with her much?"
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"He talked almost only to her."
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"It seems to me he's attentive. Isn't that what you call it?"
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"I don't call it anything," said Isabel; "I've waited for you to
|
|
give it a name."
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|
|
"That's a consideration you don't always show," Osmond answered
|
|
after a moment.
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|
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"I've determined, this time, to try and act as you'd like. I've so
|
|
often failed of that."
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|
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|
Osmond turned his head slowly, looking at her. "Are you trying to
|
|
quarrel with me?"
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"No, I'm trying to live at peace."
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"Nothing's more easy; you know I don't quarrel myself."
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"What do you call it when you try to make me angry?" Isabel asked.
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"I don't try; if I've done so it has been the most natural thing
|
|
in the world. Moreover I'm not in the least trying now."
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|
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Isabel smiled. "It doesn't matter. I've determined never to be angry
|
|
again."
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|
"That's an excellent resolve. Your temper isn't good."
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"No-it's not good." She pushed away the book she had been reading
|
|
and took up the band of tapestry Pansy had left on the table.
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|
"That's partly why I've not spoken to you about this business of
|
|
my daughter's," Osmond said, designating Pansy in the manner that
|
|
was most frequent with him. "I was afraid I should encounter
|
|
opposition-that you too would have views on the subject. I've sent
|
|
little Rosier about his business."
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|
|
|
"You were afraid I'd plead for Mr. Rosier? Haven't you noticed
|
|
that I've never spoken to you of him?"
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"I've never given you a chance. We've so little conversation in
|
|
these days. I know he was an old friend of yours."
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|
|
|
"Yes; he's an old friend of mine." Isabel cared little more for
|
|
him than for the tapestry that she held in her hand; but it was true
|
|
that he was an old friend and that with her husband she felt a
|
|
desire not to extenuate such ties. He had a way of expressing contempt
|
|
for them which fortified her loyalty to them, even when, as in the
|
|
present case, they were in themselves insignificant. She sometimes
|
|
felt a sort of passion of tenderness for memories which had no other
|
|
merit than that they belonged to her unmarried life. "But as regards
|
|
Pansy," she added in a moment, "I've given him no encouragement."
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|
"That's fortunate," Osmond observed.
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|
"Fortunate for me, I suppose you mean. For him it matters little."
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|
"There's no use talking of him," Osmond said. "As I tell you, I've
|
|
turned him out."
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|
"Yes; but a lover outside's always a lover. He's sometimes even more
|
|
of one. Mr. Rosier still has hope."
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|
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|
"He's welcome to the comfort of it! My daughter has only to sit
|
|
perfectly quiet to become Lady Warburton."
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|
|
|
"Should you like that?" Isabel asked with a simplicity which was not
|
|
so affected as it may appear. She was resolved to assume nothing,
|
|
for Osmond had a way of unexpectedly turning her assumptions against
|
|
her. The intensity with which he would like his daughter to become
|
|
Lady Warburton had been the very basis of her own recent
|
|
reflections. But that was for herself; she would recognize nothing
|
|
until Osmond should have put it into words; she would not take for
|
|
granted with him that he thought Lord Warburton a prize worth an
|
|
amount of effort that was unusual among the Osmonds. It was
|
|
Gilbert's constant intimation that for him nothing in life was a
|
|
prize; that he treated as from equal to equal with the most
|
|
distinguished people in the world, and that his daughter had only to
|
|
look about her to pick out a prince. It cost him therefore a lapse
|
|
from consistency to say explicitly that he yearned for Lord
|
|
Warburton and that if this nobleman should escape his equivalent might
|
|
not be found; with which moreover it was another of his customary
|
|
implications that he was never inconsistent. He would have liked his
|
|
wife to glide over the point. But strangely enough, now that she was
|
|
face to face with him and although an hour before she had almost
|
|
invented a scheme for pleasing him, Isabel was not accommodating,
|
|
would not glide. And yet she knew exactly the effect on his mind of
|
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her question: it would operate as an humiliation. Never mind; he was
|
|
terribly capable of humiliating her-all the more so that he was also
|
|
capable of waiting for great opportunities and of showing sometimes an
|
|
almost unaccountable indifference to small ones. Isabel perhaps took a
|
|
small opportunity because she would not have availed herself of a
|
|
great one.
|
|
|
|
Osmond at present acquitted himself very honourably. "I should
|
|
like it extremely; it would be a great marriage. And then Lord
|
|
Warburton has another advantage: he's an old friend of yours. It would
|
|
be pleasant for him to come into the family. It's very odd Pansy's
|
|
admirers should all be your old friends."
|
|
|
|
"It's natural that they should come to see me. In coming to see me
|
|
they see Pansy. Seeing her it's natural they should fall in love
|
|
with her."
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|
|
|
"So I think. But you're not bound to do so."
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|
|
|
"If she should marry Lord Warburton I should be very glad," Isabel
|
|
went on frankly. "He's an excellent man. You say, however, that she
|
|
has only to sit perfectly still. Perhaps she won't sit perfectly
|
|
still. If she loses Mr. Rosier she may jump up!"
|
|
|
|
Osmond appeared to give no heed to this; he sat gazing at the fire.
|
|
|
|
"Pansy would like to be a great lady," he remarked in a moment
|
|
with a certain tenderness of tone. "She wishes above all to please,"
|
|
he added.
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|
|
"To please Mr. Rosier, perhaps."
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"No, to please me."
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"Me too a little, I think," said Isabel.
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"Yes, she has a great opinion of you. But she'll do what I like."
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"If you're sure of that, it's very well," she went on.
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"Meantime," said Osmond, "I should like our distinguished visitor to
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speak."
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"He has spoken-to me. He has told me it would be a great pleasure to
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him to believe she could care for him."
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Osmond turned his head quickly, but at first he said nothing.
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Then, "Why didn't you tell me that?" he asked sharply.
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"There was no opportunity. You know how we live. I've taken the
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first chance that has offered."
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"Did you speak to him of Rosier?"
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"Oh yes, a little."
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"That was hardly necessary."
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"I thought it best he should know, so that, so that-" And Isabel
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paused.
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"So that what?"
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"So that he might act accordingly."
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"So that he might back out, do you mean?"
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"No, so that he might advance while there's yet time."
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"That's not the effect it seems to have had."
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"You should have patience," said Isabel. "You know Englishmen are
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shy."
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"This one's not. He was not when he made love to you."
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She had been afraid Osmond would speak of that; it was
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disagreeable to her. "I beg your pardon; he was extremely so," she
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returned.
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He answered nothing for some time; he took up a book and fingered
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the pages while she sat silent and occupied herself with Pansy's
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tapestry. "You must have a great deal of influence with him," Osmond
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went on at last. "The moment you really wish it you can bring him to
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the point."
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This was more offensive still; but she felt the great naturalness of
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his saying it, and it was after all extremely like what she had said
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to herself. "Why should I have influence?" she asked. "What have I
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ever done to put him under an obligation to me?"
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"You refused to marry him," said Osmond with his eyes on his book.
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"I must not presume too much on that," she replied.
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He threw down the book presently and got up, standing before the
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fire with his hands behind him. "Well, I hold that it lies in your
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hands. I shall leave it there. With a little good-will you may
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manage it. Think that over and remember how much I count on you." He
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waited a little, to give her time to answer; but she answered nothing,
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and he presently strolled out of the room.
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CHAPTER 42
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She had answered nothing because his words had put the situation
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before her and she was absorbed in looking at it. There was
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something in them that suddenly made vibrations deep, so that she
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had been afraid to trust herself to speak. After he had gone she
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leaned back in her chair and closed her eyes; and for a long time, far
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into the night and still further, she sat in the still drawing-room,
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given up to her meditation. A servant came in to attend to the fire,
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and she bade him bring fresh candles and then go to bed. Osmond had
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told her to think of what he had said; and she did so indeed, and of
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many other things. The suggestion from another that she had a definite
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influence on Lord Warburton-this had given her the start that
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accompanies unexpected recognition. Was it true that there was
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something still between them that might be a handle to make him
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declare himself to Pansy-a susceptibility, on his part, to approval, a
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desire to do what would please her? Isabel had hitherto not asked
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herself the question, because she had not been forced; but now that it
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was directly presented to her she saw the answer, and the answer
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frightened her. Yes, there was something-something on Lord Warburton's
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part. When he had first come to Rome she believed the link that united
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them to be completely snapped; but little by little she had been
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reminded that it had yet a palpable existence. It was as thin as a
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hair, but there were moments when she seemed to hear it vibrate. For
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herself nothing was changed; what she once thought of him she always
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thought; it was needless this feeling should change; it seemed to
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her in fact a better feeling than ever. But he? had he still the
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idea that she might be more to him than other women? Had he the wish
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to profit by the memory of the few moments of intimacy through which
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they had once passed? Isabel knew she had read some of the signs of
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such a disposition. But what were his hopes, his pretensions, and in
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what strange way were they mingled with his evidently very sincere
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appreciation of poor Pansy? Was he in love with Gilbert Osmond's wife,
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and if so what comfort did he expect to derive from it? If he was in
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love with Pansy he was not in love with her stepmother, and if he
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was in love with her stepmother he was not in love with Pansy. Was she
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to cultivate the advantage she possessed in order to make him commit
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himself to Pansy, knowing he would do so for her sake and not for
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the small creature's own-was this the service her husband had asked of
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her? This at any rate was the duty with which she found herself
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confronted-from the moment she admitted to herself that her old friend
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had still an uneradicated predilection for her society. It was not
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an agreeable task; it was in fact a repulsive one. She asked herself
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with dismay whether Lord Warburton were pretending to be in love
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with Pansy in order to cultivate another satisfaction and what might
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be called other chances. Of this refinement of duplicity she presently
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acquitted him; she preferred to believe him in perfect good faith. But
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if his admiration for Pansy were a delusion this was scarcely better
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than its being an affectation. Isabel wandered among these ugly
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possibilities until she had completely lost her way; some of them,
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as she suddenly encountered them, seemed ugly enough. Then she broke
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out of the labyrinth, rubbing her eyes, and declared that her
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imagination surely did her little honour and that her husband's did
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him even less. Lord Warburton was as disinterested as he need be,
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and she was no more to him than she need wish. She would rest upon
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this till the contrary should be proved; proved more effectually
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than by a cynical intimation of Osmond's.
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Such a resolution, however, brought her this evening but little
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peace, for her soul was haunted with terrors which crowded to the
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foreground of thought as quickly as a place was made for them. What
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had suddenly set them into livelier motion she hardly knew, unless
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it were the strange impression she had received in the afternoon of
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her husband's being in more direct communication with Madame Merle
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than she suspected. That impression came back to her from time to
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time, and now she wondered it had never come before. Besides this, her
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short interview with Osmond half an hour ago was a striking example of
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his faculty for making everything wither that he touched, spoiling
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everything for her that he looked at. It was very well to undertake to
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give him a proof of loyalty; the real fact was that the knowledge of
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his expecting a thing raised a presumption against it. It was as if he
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had had the evil eye; as if his presence were a blight and his
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favour a misfortune. Was the fault in himself, or only in the deep
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mistrust she had conceived for him? This mistrust was now the clearest
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result of their short married life; a gulf had opened between them
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over which they looked at each other with eyes that were on either
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side a declaration of the deception suffered. It was a strange
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opposition, of the like of which she had never dreamed-an opposition
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in which the vital principle of the one was a thing of contempt to the
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other. It was not her fault-she had practised no deception; she had
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only admired and believed. She had taken all the first steps in the
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purest confidence, and then she had suddenly found the infinite
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vista of a multiplied life to be a dark, narrow alley with a dead wall
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at the end. Instead of leading to the high places of happiness, from
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which the world would seem to lie below one, so that one could look
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down with a sense of exaltation and advantage, and judge and choose
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and pity, it led rather downward and earthward, into realms of
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restriction and depression where the sound of other lives, easier
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and freer, was heard as from above, and where it served to deepen
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the feeling of failure. It was her deep distrust of her husband-this
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was what darkened the world. That is a sentiment easily indicated, but
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not so easily explained, and so composite in its character that much
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time and still more suffering had been needed to bring it to its
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actual perfection. Suffering, with Isabel, was an active condition; it
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was not a chill, a stupor, a despair; it was a passion of thought,
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of speculation, of response to every pressure. She flattered herself
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that she had kept her failing faith to herself, however-that no one
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suspected it but Osmond. Oh, he knew it, and there were times when she
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thought he enjoyed it. It had come gradually-it was not till the first
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year of their life together, so admirably intimate at first, had
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closed that she had taken the alarm. Then the shadows had begun to
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gather; it was as if Osmond deliberately, almost malignantly, had
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put the lights out one by one. The dusk at first was vague and thin,
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and she could still see her way in it. But it steadily deepened, and
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if now and again it had occasionally lifted there were certain corners
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of her prospect that were impenetrably black. These shadows were not
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an emanation from her own mind: she was very sure of that; she had
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done her best to be just and temperate, to see only the truth. They
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were a part, they were a kind of creation and consequence, of her
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husband's very presence. They were not his misdeeds, his turpitudes;
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she accused him of nothing-that is but of one thing, which was not a
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crime. She knew of no wrong he had done; he was not violent, he was
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not cruel: she simply believed he hated her. That was all she
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accused him of, and the miserable part of it was precisely that it was
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not a crime, for against a crime she might have found redress. He
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had discovered that she was so different, that she was not what he had
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believed she would prove to be. He had thought at first he could
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change her, and she had done her best to be what he would like. But
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she was, after all, herself-she couldn't help that; and now there
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was no use pretending, wearing a mask or a dress, for he knew her
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and had made up his mind. She was not afraid of him; she had no
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apprehension he would hurt her; for the ill-will he bore her was not
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of that sort. He would if possible never give her a pretext, never put
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himself in the wrong. Isabel, scanning the future with dry, fixed
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eyes, saw that he would have the better of her there. She would give
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him many pretexts, she would often put herself in the wrong. There
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were times when she almost pitied him; for if she had not deceived him
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in intention she understood how completely she must have done so in
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fact. She had effaced herself when he first knew her; she had made
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herself small, pretending there was less of her than there really was.
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It was because she had been under the extraordinary charm that he,
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on his side, had taken pains to put forth. He was not changed; he
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had not disguised himself, during the year of his courtship, any
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more than she. But she had seen only half his nature then, as one
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saw the disk of the moon when it was partly masked by the shadow of
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the earth. She saw the full moon now-she saw the whole man. She had
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kept still, as it were, so that he should have a free field, and yet
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in spite of this she had mistaken a part for the whole.
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Ah, she had been immensely under the charm! It had not passed
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away; it was there still: she still knew perfectly what it was that
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made Osmond delightful when he chose to be. He had wished to be when
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he made love to her, and as she had wished to be charmed it was not
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wonderful he had succeeded. He had succeeded because he had been
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sincere; it never occurred to her now to deny him that. He admired
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her-he had told her why: because she was the most imaginative woman he
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had known. It might very well have been true; for during those
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months she had imagined a world of things that had no substance. She
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had had a more wondrous vision of him, fed through charmed senses
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and oh such a stirred fancy!-she had not read him right. A certain
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combination of features had touched her, and in them she had seen
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the most striking of figures. That he was poor and lonely and yet that
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somehow he was noble-that was what had interested her and seemed to
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give her opportunity. There had been an indefinable beauty about
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him-in his situation, in his mind, in his face. She had felt at the
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same time that he was helpless and ineffectual, but the feeling had
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taken the form of a tenderness which was the very flower of respect.
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He was like a sceptical voyager strolling on the beach while he waited
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for the tide, looking seaward yet not putting to sea. It was in all
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this she had found her occasion. She would launch his boat for him;
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she would be his providence; it would be a good thing to love him. And
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she had loved him, she had so anxiously and yet so ardently given
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herself-a good deal for what she found in him, but a good deal also
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for what she brought him and what might enrich the gift. As she looked
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back at the passion of those full weeks she perceived in it a kind
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of maternal strain-the happiness of a woman who felt that she was a
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contributor, that she came with charged hands. But for her money, as
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she saw to-day, she would never have done it. And then her mind
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wandered off to poor Mr. Touchett, sleeping under English turf, the
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beneficent author of infinite woe! For this was the fantastic fact. At
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bottom her money had been a burden, had been on her mind, which was
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filled with the desire to transfer the weight of it to some other
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conscience, to some more prepared receptacle. What would lighten her
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own conscience more effectually than to make it over to the man with
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the best taste in the world? Unless she should have given it to a
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hospital there would have been nothing better she could do with it;
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and there was no charitable institution in which she had been as
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much interested as in Gilbert Osmond. He would use her fortune in a
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way that would make her think better of it and rub off a certain
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grossness attaching to the good luck of an unexpected inheritance.
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There had been nothing very delicate in inheriting seventy thousand
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pounds; the delicacy had been all in Mr. Touchett's leaving them to
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her. But to marry Gilbert Osmond and bring him such a portion-in
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that there would be delicacy for her as well. There would be less
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for him-that was true; but that was his affair, and if he loved her he
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wouldn't object to her being rich. Had he not had the courage to say
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he was glad she was rich?
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Isabel's cheek burned when she asked herself if she had really
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married on a factitious theory, in order to do something finely
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appreciable with her money. But she was able to answer quickly
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enough that this was only half the story. It was because a certain
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ardour took possession of her-a sense of the earnestness of his
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affection and a delight in his personal qualities. He was better
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than any one else. This supreme conviction had filled her life for
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months, and enough of it still remained to prove to her that she could
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not have done otherwise. The finest-in the sense of being the
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subtlest-manly organism she had ever known had become her property,
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and the recognition of her having but to put out her hands and take it
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had been originally a sort of act of devotion. She had not been
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mistaken about the beauty of his mind; she knew that organ perfectly
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now. She had lived with it, she had lived in it almost-it appeared
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to have become her habitation. If she had been captured it had taken a
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firm hand to seize her; that reflection perhaps had some worth. A mind
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more ingenious, more pliant, more cultivated, more trained to
|
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admirable exercises, she had not encountered; and it was this
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exquisite instrument she had now to reckon with. She lost herself in
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infinite dismay when she thought of the magnitude of his deception. It
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was a wonder, perhaps, in view of this, that he didn't hate her
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|
more. She remembered perfectly the first sign he had given of it-it
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|
had been like the bell that was to ring up the curtain upon the real
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|
drama of their life. He said to her one day that she had too many
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ideas and that she must get rid of them. He had told her that already,
|
|
before their marriage; but then she had not noticed it: it had come
|
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back to her only afterwards. This time she might well have noticed it,
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because he had really meant it. The words had been nothing
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superficially; but when in the light of deepening experience she had
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looked into them they had then appeared portentous. He had really
|
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meant it-he would have liked her to have nothing of her own but her
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pretty appearance. She had known she had too many ideas; she had
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more even than he had supposed, many more than she had expressed to
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him when he had asked her to marry him. Yes, she had been
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hypocritical; she had liked him so much; She had too many ideas for
|
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herself; but that was just what one married for, to share them with
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some one else. One couldn't pluck them up by the roots, though of
|
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course one might suppress them, be careful not to utter them. It had
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not been this, however, his objecting to her opinions; this had been
|
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nothing. She had no opinions-none that she would not have been eager
|
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to sacrifice in the satisfaction of feeling herself loved for it. What
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he had meant had been the whole thing-her character, the way she felt,
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the way she judged. This was what she had kept in reserve; this was
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what he had not known until he had found himself-with the door
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closed behind, as it were-set down face to face with it. She had a
|
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certain way of looking at life which he took as a personal offence.
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Heaven knew that now at least it was a very humble, accommodating way!
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The strange thing was that she should not have suspected from the
|
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first that his own had been so different. She had thought it so large,
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so enlightened, so perfectly that of an honest man and a gentleman.
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Hadn't he assured her that he had no superstitions, no dull
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limitations, no prejudices that had lost their freshness? Hadn't he
|
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all the appearance of a man living in the open air of the world,
|
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indifferent to small considerations, caring only for truth and
|
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knowledge and believing that two intelligent people ought to look
|
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for them together and, whether they found them or not, find at least
|
|
some happiness in the search? He had told her he loved the
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conventional; but there was a sense in which this seemed a noble
|
|
declaration. In that sense, that of the love of harmony and order
|
|
and decency and of all the stately offices of life, she went with
|
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him freely, and his warning had contained nothing ominous. But when,
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as the months had elapsed, she had followed him further and he had led
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her into the mansion of his own habitation, then, then she had seen
|
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where she really was.
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She could live it over again, the incredulous terror with which
|
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she had taken the measure of her dwelling. Between those four walls
|
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she had lived ever since; they were to surround her for the rest of
|
|
her life. It was the house of darkness, the house of dumbness, the
|
|
house of suffocation. Osmond's beautiful mind gave it neither light
|
|
nor air; Osmond's beautiful mind indeed seemed to peep down from a
|
|
small high window and mock at her. Of course it had not been
|
|
physical suffering; for physical suffering there might have been a
|
|
remedy. She could come and go; she had her liberty; her husband was
|
|
perfectly polite. He took himself so seriously; it was something
|
|
appalling. Under all his culture, his cleverness, his amenity, under
|
|
his good-nature, his facility, his knowledge of life, his egotism
|
|
lay hidden like a serpent in a bank of flowers. She had taken him
|
|
seriously, but she had not taken him so seriously as that. How could
|
|
she-especially when she had known him better? She was to think of
|
|
him as he thought of himself as the first gentleman in Europe. So it
|
|
was that she had thought of him at first, and that indeed was the
|
|
reason she had married him. But when she began to see what it
|
|
implied she drew back; there was more in the bond than she had meant
|
|
to put her name to. It implied a sovereign contempt for every one
|
|
but some three or four very exalted people whom he envied, and for
|
|
everything in the world but half a dozen ideas of his own. That was
|
|
very well; she would have gone with him even there a long distance;
|
|
for he pointed out to her so much of the baseness and shabbiness of
|
|
life, opened her eyes so wide to the stupidity, the depravity, the
|
|
ignorance of mankind, that she had been properly impressed with the
|
|
infinite vulgarity of things and of the virtue of keeping one's self
|
|
unspotted by it. But this base, ignoble world, it appeared, was
|
|
after all what one was to live for; one was to keep it for ever in
|
|
one's eye, in order not to enlighten or convert or redeem it, but to
|
|
extract from it some recognition of one's own superiority. On the
|
|
one hand it was despicable, but on the other it afforded a standard.
|
|
Osmond had talked to Isabel about his renunciation, his
|
|
indifference, the ease with which he dispensed with the usual aids
|
|
to success; and all this had seemed to her admirable. She had
|
|
thought it a grand indifference, an exquisite independence. But
|
|
indifference was really the last of his qualities; she had never
|
|
seen any one who thought so much of others. For herself, avowedly, the
|
|
world had always interested her and the study of her fellow
|
|
creatures been her constant passion. She would have been willing,
|
|
however, to renounce all her curiosities and sympathies for the sake
|
|
of a personal life, if the person concerned had only been able to make
|
|
her believe it was a gain! This at least was her present conviction;
|
|
and the thing certainly would have been easier than to care for
|
|
society as Osmond cared for it.
|
|
|
|
He was unable to live without it, and she saw that he had never
|
|
really done so; he had looked at it out of his window even when he
|
|
appeared to be most detached from it. He had his ideal, just as she
|
|
had tried to have hers; only it was strange that people should seek
|
|
for justice in such different quarters. His ideal was a conception
|
|
of high prosperity and propriety, of the aristocratic life, which
|
|
she now saw that he deemed himself always, in essence at least, to
|
|
have led. He had never lapsed from it for an hour; he would never have
|
|
recovered from the shame of doing so. That again was very well; here
|
|
too she would have agreed; but they attached such different ideas,
|
|
such different associations and desires, to the same formulas. Her
|
|
notion of the aristocratic life was simply the union of great
|
|
knowledge with great liberty; the knowledge would give one a sense
|
|
of duty and the liberty a sense of enjoyment. But for Osmond it was
|
|
altogether a thing of forms, a conscious, calculated attitude. He
|
|
was fond of the old, the consecrated, the transmitted; so was she, but
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she pretended to do what she chose with it. He had an immense esteem
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for tradition; he had told her once that the best thing in the world
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was to have it, but that if one was so unfortunate as not to have it
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one must immediately proceed to make it. She knew that he meant by
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this that she hadn't it, but that he was better off; though from
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what source he had derived his traditions she never learned. He had
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a very large collection of them, however; that was very certain, and
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after a little she began to see. The great thing was to act in
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accordance with them; the great thing not only for him but for her.
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Isabel had an undefined conviction that to serve for another person
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than their proprietor traditions must be of a thoroughly superior
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kind; but she nevertheless assented to this intimation that she too
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must march to the stately music that floated down from unknown periods
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in her husband's past; she who of old had been so free of step, so
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desultory, so devious, so much the reverse of processional. There were
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certain things they must do, a certain posture they must take, certain
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people they must know and not know. When she saw this rigid system
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close about her, draped though it was in pictured tapestries, that
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sense of darkness and suffocation of which I have spoken took
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possession of her; she seemed shut up with an odour of mould and
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decay. She had resisted of course; at first very humorously,
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ironically, tenderly; then, as the situation grew more serious,
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eagerly, passionately, pleadingly. She had pleaded the cause of
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freedom, of doing as they chose, of not caring for the aspect and
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denomination of their life-the cause of other instincts and
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longings, of quite another ideal.
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Then it was that her husband's personality, touched as it never
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had been, stepped forth and stood erect. The things she had said
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were answered only by his scorn, and she could see he was ineffably
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ashamed of her-did he think of her-that she was base, vulgar, ignoble?
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He at least knew now that she had no traditions! It had not been in
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his prevision of things that she should reveal such flatness; her
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sentiments were worthy of a radical newspaper or a Unitarian preacher.
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The real offence, as she ultimately perceived, was her having a mind
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of her own at all. Her mind was to be his-attached to his own like a
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small garden-plot to a deer-park. He would rake the soil gently and
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water the flowers; he would weed the beds and gather an occasional
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nosegay. It would be a pretty piece of property for a proprietor
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already far-reaching. He didn't wish her to be stupid. On the
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contrary, it was because she was clever that she had pleased him.
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But he expected her intelligence to operate altogether in his
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favour, and so far from desiring her mind to be a blank he had
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flattered himself that it would be richly receptive. He had expected
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his wife to feel with him and for him, to enter into his opinions, his
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ambitions, his preferences; and Isabel was obliged to confess that
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this was no great insolence on the part of a man so accomplished and a
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husband originally at least so tender. But there were certain things
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she could never take in. To begin with, they were hideously unclean.
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She was not a daughter of the Puritans, but for all that she
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believed in such a thing as chastity and even as decency. It would
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appear that Osmond was far from doing anything of the sort; some of
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his traditions made her push back her skirts. Did all women have
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lovers? Did they all lie and even the best have their price? Were
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there only three or four that didn't deceive their husbands? When
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Isabel heard such things she felt a greater scorn for them than for
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the gossip of a village parlour-a scorn that kept its freshness in a
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very tainted air. There was the taint of her sister-in-law: did her
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husband judge only by the Countess Gemini? This lady very often
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lied, and she had practised deceptions that were not simply verbal. It
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was enough to find these facts assumed among Osmond's traditions-it
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was enough without giving them such a general extension. It was her
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scorn of his assumptions, it was this that made him draw himself up.
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He had plenty of contempt, and it was proper his wife should be as
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well furnished; but that she should turn the hot light of her
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disdain upon his own conception of things-this was a danger he had not
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allowed for. He believed he should have regulated her emotions
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before she came to it; and Isabel could easily imagine how his ears
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had scorched on his discovering he had been too confident. When one
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had a wife who gave one that sensation there was nothing left but to
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hate her.
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She was morally certain now that this feeling of hatred, which at
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first had been a refuge and a refreshment, had become the occupation
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and comfort of his life. The feeling was deep, because it was sincere;
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|
he had had the revelation that she could after all dispense with
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him. If to herself the idea was startling, if it presented itself at
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first as a kind of infidelity, a capacity for pollution, what infinite
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|
effect might it not be expected to have had upon him? It was very
|
|
simple; he despised her; she had no traditions and the moral horizon
|
|
of a Unitarian minister. Poor Isabel, who had never been able to
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|
understand Unitarianism! This was the certitude she had been living
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|
with now for a time that she had ceased to measure. What was
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|
coming-what was before them? That was her constant question. What
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|
would he do-what ought she to do? When a man hated his wife what did
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it lead to? She didn't hate him, that she was sure of, for every
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|
little while she felt a passionate wish to give him a pleasant
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surprise. Very often, however, she felt afraid, and it used to come
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|
over her, as I have intimated, that she had deceived him at the very
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first. They were strangely married, at all events, and it was a
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horrible life. Until that morning he had scarcely spoken to her for
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a week; his manner was as dry as a burned-out fire. She knew there was
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a special reason; he was displeased at Ralph Touchett's staying on
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in Rome. He thought she saw too much of her cousin-he had told her a
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|
week before it was indecent she should go to him at his hotel. He
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|
would have said more than this if Ralph's invalid state had not
|
|
appeared to make it brutal to denounce him; but having had to
|
|
contain himself had only deepened his disgust. Isabel read all this as
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|
she would have read the hour on the clock-face; she was as perfectly
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|
aware that the sight of her interest in her cousin stirred her
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|
husband's rage as if Osmond had locked her into her room-which she was
|
|
sure was what he wanted to do. It was her honest belief that on the
|
|
whole she was not defiant, but she certainly couldn't pretend to be
|
|
indifferent to Ralph. She believed he was dying at last and that she
|
|
should never see him again, and this gave her a tenderness for him
|
|
that she had never known before. Nothing was a pleasure to her now;
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|
how could anything be a pleasure to a woman who knew that she had
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|
thrown away her life? There was an everlasting weight on her
|
|
heart-there was a livid light on everything. But Ralph's little
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|
visit was a lamp in the darkness; for the hour that she sat with him
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|
her ache for herself became somehow her ache for him. She felt
|
|
to-day as if he had been her brother. She had never had a brother, but
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|
if she had and she were in trouble and he were dying, he would be dear
|
|
to her as Ralph was. Ah yes, if Gilbert was jealous of her there was
|
|
perhaps some reason; it didn't make Gilbert look better to sit for
|
|
half an hour with Ralph. It was not that they talked of him-it was not
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|
that she complained. His name was never uttered between them. It was
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|
simply that Ralph was generous and that her husband was not. There was
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|
something in Ralph's talk, in his smile, in the mere fact of his being
|
|
in Rome, that made the blasted circle round which she walked more
|
|
spacious. He made her feel the' good of the world; he made her feel
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|
what might have been. He was after all as intelligent as
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|
Osmond-quite apart from his being better. And thus it seemed to her an
|
|
act of devotion to conceal her misery from him. She concealed it
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|
elaborately; she was perpetually, in their talk, hanging out
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|
curtains and arranging screens. It lived before her again-it had never
|
|
had time to die-that morning in the garden at Florence when he had
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|
warned her against Osmond. She had only to close her eyes to see the
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|
place, to hear his voice, to feel the warm, sweet air. How could he
|
|
have known? What a mystery, what a wonder of wisdom! As intelligent as
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|
Gilbert? He was much more intelligent-to arrive at such a judgement as
|
|
that. Gilbert had never been so deep, so just. She had told him then
|
|
that from her at least he should never know if he was right; and
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|
this was what she was taking care had now. It gave her plenty to do;
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|
there was passion, exaltation, religion in it. Women find their
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|
religion sometimes in strange exercises, and Isabel at present, in
|
|
playing a part before her cousin, had an idea that she was doing him a
|
|
kindness. It would have been a kindness perhaps if he had been for a
|
|
single instant a dupe. As it was, the kindness consisted mainly in
|
|
trying to make him believe that he had once wounded her greatly and
|
|
that the event had put him to shame, but that, as she was very
|
|
generous and he was so ill, she bore him no grudge and even
|
|
considerately forbore to flaunt her happiness in his face. Ralph
|
|
smiled to himself, as he lay on his sofa, at this extraordinary form
|
|
of consideration; but he forgave her for having forgiven him. She
|
|
didn't wish him to have the pain of knowing she was unhappy: that
|
|
was the great thing, and it didn't matter that such knowledge would
|
|
rather have righted him.
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For herself, she lingered in the soundless saloon long after the
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|
fire had gone out. There was no danger of her feeling the cold; she
|
|
was in a fever. She heard the small hours strike, and then the great
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|
ones, but her vigil took no heed of time. Her mind, assailed by
|
|
visions, was in a state of extraordinary activity, and her visions
|
|
might as well come to her there, where she sat up to meet them, as
|
|
on her pillow, to make a mockery of rest. As I have said, she believed
|
|
she was not defiant, and what could be a better proof of it than
|
|
that she should linger there half the night, trying to persuade
|
|
herself that there was no reason why Pansy shouldn't be married as you
|
|
would put a letter in the post-office? When the clock struck four
|
|
she got up; she was going to bed at last, for the lamp had long
|
|
since gone out and the candles burned down to their sockets. But
|
|
even then she stopped again in the middle of the room and stood
|
|
there gazing at a remembered vision-that of her husband and Madame
|
|
Merle unconsciously and familiarly associated.
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CHAPTER 43
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Three nights after this she took Pansy to a great party, to which
|
|
Osmond, who never went to dances, did not accompany them. Pansy was as
|
|
ready for a dance as ever; was not of a generalizing turn and had
|
|
not extended to other pleasures the interdict she had seen placed on
|
|
those of love. If she was biding her time or hoping to circumvent
|
|
her father she must have had a prevision of success. Isabel thought
|
|
this unlikely; it was much more likely that Pansy had simply
|
|
determined to be a good girl. She had never had such a chance, and she
|
|
had a proper esteem for chances. She carried herself no less
|
|
attentively than usual and kept no less anxious an eye upon her
|
|
vaporous skirts; she held her bouquet very tight and counted over
|
|
the flowers for the twentieth time. She made Isabel feel old; it
|
|
seemed so long since she had been in a flutter about a ball. Pansy,
|
|
who was greatly admired, was never in want of partners, and very
|
|
soon after their arrival she gave Isabel, who was not dancing, her
|
|
bouquet to hold. Isabel had rendered her this service for some minutes
|
|
when she became aware of the near presence of Edward Rosier. He
|
|
stood before her; he had lost his affable smile and wore a look of
|
|
almost military resolution. The change in his appearance would have
|
|
made Isabel smile if she had not felt his case to be at bottom a
|
|
hard one: he had always smelt so much more of heliotrope than of
|
|
gunpowder. He looked at her a moment somewhat fiercely, as if to
|
|
notify her he was dangerous, and then dropped his eyes on her bouquet.
|
|
After he had inspected it his glance softened and he said quickly:
|
|
"It's all pansies; it must be hers!"
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|
|
|
Isabel smiled kindly. "Yes, it's hers; she gave it to me to hold."
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|
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"May I hold it a little, Mrs. Osmond?" the poor young man asked.
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"No, I can't trust you; I'm afraid you wouldn't give it back."
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"I'm not sure that I should; I should leave the house with it
|
|
instantly.
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|
But may I not at least have a single flower?"
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|
|
Isabel hesitated a moment, and then, smiling still, held out the
|
|
bouquet.
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|
|
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"Choose one yourself. It's frightful what I'm doing for you."
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"Ah, if you do no more than this, Mrs. Osmond!" Rosier exclaimed
|
|
with his glass in one eye, carefully choosing his flower.
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|
|
|
"Don't put it into your button-hole," she said. "Don't for the
|
|
world!
|
|
|
|
"I should like her to see it. She has refused to dance with me,
|
|
but I wish to show her that I believe in her still."
|
|
|
|
"It's very well to show it to her, but it's out of place to show
|
|
it to others. Her father has told her not to dance with you."
|
|
|
|
"And is that all you can do for me? I expected more from you, Mrs.
|
|
Osmond," said the young man in a tone of fine general reference.
|
|
"You know our acquaintance goes back very far-quite into the days of
|
|
our innocent childhood."
|
|
|
|
"Don't make me out too old," Isabel patiently answered. "You come
|
|
back to that very often, and I've never denied it. But I must tell you
|
|
that, old friends as we are, if you had done me the honour to ask me
|
|
to marry you I should have refused you on the spot."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, you don't esteem me then. Say at once that you think me a
|
|
mere Parisian trifler!"
|
|
|
|
"I esteem you very much, but I'm not in love with you. What I mean
|
|
by that, of course, is that I'm not in love with you for Pansy."
|
|
|
|
"Very good; I see. You pity me-that's all." And Edward Rosier looked
|
|
all round, inconsequently, with his single glass. It was a
|
|
revelation to him that people shouldn't be more pleased; but he was at
|
|
least too proud to show that the deficiency struck him as general.
|
|
|
|
Isabel for a moment said nothing. His manner and appearance had
|
|
not the dignity of the deepest tragedy; his little glass, among
|
|
other things, was against that. But she suddenly felt touched; her own
|
|
unhappiness, after all, had something in common with his, and it
|
|
came over her, more than before, that here, in recognizable, if not in
|
|
romantic form, was the most affecting thing in the world-young love
|
|
struggling with adversity. "Would you really be very kind to her?" she
|
|
finally asked in a low tone.
|
|
|
|
He dropped his eyes devoutly and raised the little flower that he
|
|
held in his fingers to his lips. Then he looked at her. "You pity
|
|
me; but don't you pity her a little?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know; I'm not sure. She'll always enjoy life."
|
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|
|
"It will depend on what you call life!" Mr. Rosier effectively said.
|
|
"She won't enjoy being tortured."
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|
|
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"There'll be nothing of that."
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|
|
|
"I'm glad to hear it. She knows what she's about. You'll see."
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|
|
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"I think she does, and she'll never disobey her father. But she's
|
|
coming back to me," Isabel added, "and I must beg you to go away."
|
|
|
|
Rosier lingered a moment till Pansy came in sight on the arm of
|
|
her cavalier; he stood just long enough to look her in the face.
|
|
Then he walked away, holding up his head; and the manner in which he
|
|
achieved this sacrifice to expediency convinced Isabel he was very
|
|
much in love.
|
|
|
|
Pansy, who seldom got disarranged in dancing, looking perfectly
|
|
fresh and cool after this exercise, waited a moment and then took back
|
|
her bouquet. Isabel watched her and saw she was counting the
|
|
flowers; whereupon she said to herself that decidedly there were
|
|
deeper forces at play than she had recognized. Pansy had seen Rosier
|
|
turn away, but she said nothing to Isabel about him; she talked only
|
|
of her partner, after he had made his bow and retired; of the music,
|
|
the floor, the rare misfortune of having already torn her dress.
|
|
Isabel was sure, however, she had discovered her lover to have
|
|
abstracted a flower; though this knowledge was not needed to account
|
|
for the dutiful grace with which she responded to the appeal of her
|
|
next partner. That perfect amenity under acute constraint was part
|
|
of a larger system. She was again led forth by a flushed young man,
|
|
this time carrying her bouquet; and she had not been absent many
|
|
minutes when Isabel saw Lord Warburton advancing through the crowd. He
|
|
presently drew near and bade her good-evening; she had not seen him
|
|
since the day before. He looked about him, and then "Where's the
|
|
little maid?" he asked. It was in this manner that he had formed the
|
|
harmless habit of alluding to Miss Osmond.
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|
|
|
"She's dancing," said Isabel. "You'll see her somewhere."
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|
|
He looked among the dancers and at last caught Pansy's eye. "She
|
|
sees me, but she won't notice me," he then remarked. "Are you not
|
|
dancing?"
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|
|
|
"As you see, I'm a wall-flower."
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|
|
|
"Won't you dance with me?"
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|
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"Thank you; I'd rather you should dance with the little maid."
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|
|
|
"One needn't prevent the other-especially as she's engaged."
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|
|
|
"She's not engaged for everything, and you can reserve yourself. She
|
|
dances very hard, and you'll be the fresher."
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|
|
|
"She dances beautifully," said Lord Warburton, following her with
|
|
his eyes. "Ah, at last," he added, "she has given me a smile." He
|
|
stood there with his handsome, easy, important physiognomy; and as
|
|
Isabel observed him it came over her, as it had done before, that it
|
|
was strange a man of his mettle should take an interest in a little
|
|
maid. It struck her as a great incongruity; neither Pansy's small
|
|
fascinations, nor his own kindness, his good-nature, not even his need
|
|
for amusement, which was extreme and constant, were sufficient to
|
|
account for it. "I should like to dance with you," he went on in a
|
|
moment, turning back to Isabel; "but I think I like even better to
|
|
talk with you."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it's better, and it's more worthy of your dignity. Great
|
|
statesmen oughtn't to waltz."
|
|
|
|
"Don't be cruel. Why did you recommend me then to dance with Miss
|
|
Osmond?"
|
|
|
|
"Ah, that's different. If you danced with her it would look simply
|
|
like a piece of kindness-as if you were doing it for her amusement. If
|
|
you dance with me you'll look as if you were doing it for your own."
|
|
|
|
"And pray haven't I a right to amuse myself?"
|
|
|
|
"No, not with the affairs of the British Empire on your hands."
|
|
|
|
"The British Empire be hanged! You're always laughing at it."
|
|
|
|
"Amuse yourself with talking to me," said Isabel.
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|
|
|
"I'm not sure it's really a recreation. You're too pointed; I've
|
|
always to be defending myself. And you strike me as more than
|
|
usually dangerous to-night. Will you absolutely not dance?"
|
|
|
|
"I can't leave my place. Pansy must find me here."
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|
|
|
He was silent a little. "You're wonderfully good to her," he said
|
|
suddenly.
|
|
|
|
Isabel stared a little and smiled. "Can you imagine one's not
|
|
being?"
|
|
|
|
"No indeed. I know how one is charmed with her. But you must have
|
|
done a great deal for her."
|
|
|
|
"I've taken her out with me," said Isabel, smiling still. "And
|
|
I've seen that she has proper clothes."
|
|
|
|
"Your society must have been a great benefit to her. You've talked
|
|
to her, advised her, helped her to develop."
|
|
|
|
"Ah yes, if she isn't the rose she has lived near it."
|
|
|
|
She laughed, and her companion did as much; but there was a
|
|
certain visible preoccupation in his face which interfered with
|
|
complete hilarity. "We all try to live as near it as we can," he
|
|
said after a moment's hesitation.
|
|
|
|
Isabel turned away; Pansy was about to be restored to her, and she
|
|
welcomed the diversion. We know how much she liked Lord Warburton; she
|
|
thought him pleasanter even than the sum of his merits warranted;
|
|
there was something in his friendship that appeared a kind of resource
|
|
in case of indefinite need; it was like having a large balance at
|
|
the bank. She felt happier when he was in the room; there was
|
|
something reassuring in his approach; the sound of his voice
|
|
reminded her of the beneficence of nature. Yet for all that it
|
|
didn't suit her that he should be too near her, that he should take
|
|
too much of her good-will for granted. She was afraid of that; she
|
|
averted herself from it; she wished he wouldn't. She felt that if he
|
|
should come too near, as it were, it might be in her to flash out
|
|
and bid him keep his distance. Pansy came back to Isabel with
|
|
another rent in her skirt, which was the inevitable consequence of the
|
|
first and which she displayed to Isabel with serious eyes. There
|
|
were too many gentlemen in uniform; they wore those dreadful spurs,
|
|
which were fatal to the dresses of little maids. It hereupon became
|
|
apparent that the resources of women are innumerable. Isabel devoted
|
|
herself to Pansy's desecrated drapery; she fumbled for a pin and
|
|
repaired the injury; she smiled and listened to her account of her
|
|
adventures. Her attention, her sympathy were immediate and active; and
|
|
they were in direct proportion to a sentiment with which they were
|
|
in no way connected-a lively conjecture as to whether Lord Warburton
|
|
might be trying to make love to her. It was not simply his words
|
|
just then; it was others as well; it was the reference and the
|
|
continuity. This was what she thought about while she pinned up
|
|
Pansy's dress. If it were so, as she feared, he was of course
|
|
unwitting; he himself had not taken account of his intention. But this
|
|
made it none the more auspicious, made the situation none the less
|
|
impossible. The sooner he should get back into right relations with
|
|
things the better. He immediately began to talk to Pansy-on whom it
|
|
was certainly mystifying to see that he dropped a smile of chastened
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devotion. Pansy replied, as usual, with a little air of
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conscientious aspiration; he had to bend toward her a good deal in
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conversation, and her eyes, as usual, wandered up and down his
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robust person as if he had offered it to her for exhibition. She
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always seemed a little frightened; yet her fright was not of the
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painful character that suggests dislike; on the contrary, she looked
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as if she knew that he knew she liked him. Isabel left them together a
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little and wandered toward a friend whom she saw near and with whom
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she talked till the music of the following dance began, for which
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she knew Pansy to be also engaged. The girl joined her presently, with
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a little fluttered flush, and Isabel, who scrupulously took Osmond's
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view of his daughter's complete dependence, consigned her, as a
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precious and momentary loan, to her appointed partner. About all
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this matter she had her own imaginations, her own reserves; there were
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moments when Pansy's extreme adhesiveness made each of them, to her
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sense, look foolish. But Osmond had given her a sort of tableau of her
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position as his daughter's duenna, which consisted of gracious
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alternations of concession and contraction; and there were
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directions of his which she liked to think she obeyed to the letter.
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Perhaps, as regards some of them, it was because her doing so appeared
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to reduce them to the absurd.
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After Pansy had been led away, she found Lord Warburton drawing near
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her again. She rested her eyes on him steadily; she wished she could
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sound his thoughts. But he had no appearance of confusion. "She has
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promised to dance with me later," he said.
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"I'm glad of that. I suppose you've engaged her for the cotillion."
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At this he looked a little awkward. "No, I didn't ask her for
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that. It's a quadrille."
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"Ah, you're not clever!" said Isabel almost angrily. "I told her
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to keep the cotillion in case you should ask for it."
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"Poor little maid, fancy that!" And Lord Warburton laughed frankly.
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"Of course I will if you like."
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"If I like? Oh, if you dance with her only because I like it-!
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"I'm afraid I bore her. She seems to have a lot of young fellows
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on her book."
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Isabel dropped her eyes, reflecting rapidly; Lord Warburton stood
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there looking at her and she felt his eyes on her face. She felt
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much inclined to ask him to remove them. She didn't do so, however;
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she only said to him, after a minute, with her own raised:
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"Please let me understand."
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"Understand what?"
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"You told me ten days ago that you'd like to marry my stepdaughter.
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You've not forgotten it!"
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"Forgotten it? I wrote to Mr. Osmond about it this morning."
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"Ah," said Isabel, "he didn't mention to me that he had heard from
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you."
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Lord Warburton stammered a little. "I-I didn't send my letter."
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"Perhaps you forgot that."
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"No, I wasn't satisfied with it. It's an awkward sort of letter to
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write, you know. But I shall send it to-night."
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"At three o'clock in the morning?"
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"I mean later, in the course of the day."
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"Very good. You still wish then to marry her?"
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"Very much indeed."
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"Aren't you afraid that you'll bore her?" And as her companion
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stared at this enquiry Isabel added: "If she can't dance with you
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for half an hour how will she be able to dance with you for life?"
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"Ah," said Lord Warburton readily, "I'll let her dance with other
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people! About the cotillion, the fact is I thought that you-that you-"
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"That I would do it with you? I told you I'd do nothing."
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"Exactly; so that while it's going on I might find some quiet corner
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where we may sit down and talk."
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"Oh," said Isabel gravely, "you're much too considerate of me."
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When the cotillion came Pansy was found to have engaged herself,
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thinking, in perfect humility, that Lord Warburton had no
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intentions. Isabel recommended him to seek another partner, but he
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assured her that he would dance with no one but herself. As,
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however, she had, in spite of the remonstrances of her hostess,
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declined other invitations on the ground that she was not dancing at
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all, it was not possible for her to make an exception in Lord
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Warburton's favour.
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"After all I don't care to dance," he said; "it's a barbarous
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amusement: I'd much rather talk." And he intimated that he had
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discovered exactly the corner he had been looking for-a quiet nook
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in one of the smaller rooms, where the music would come to them
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faintly and not interfere with conversation. Isabel had decided to let
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him carry out his idea; she wished to be satisfied. She wandered
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away from the ball-room with him, though she knew her husband
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desired she should not lose sight of his daughter. It was with his
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daughter's pretendant, however; that would make it right for Osmond.
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On her way out of the ball-room she came upon Edward Rosier, who was
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standing in a doorway, with folded arms, looking at the dance in the
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attitude of a young man without illusions. She stopped a moment and
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asked him if he were not dancing.
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"Certainly not, if I can't dance with her!" he answered.
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"You had better go away then," said Isabel with the manner of good
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counsel.
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"I shall not go till she does!" And he let Lord Warburton pass
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without giving him a look.
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This nobleman, however, had noticed the melancholy youth, and he
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asked Isabel who her dismal friend was, remarking that he had seen him
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somewhere before.
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"It's the young man I've told you about, who's in love with Pansy."
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"Ah yes, I remember. He looks rather bad."
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"He has reason. My husband won't listen to him."
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"What's the matter with him?" Lord Warburton enquired. "He seems
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very harmless."
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"He hasn't money enough, and he isn't very clever."
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Lord Warburton listened with interest; he seemed struck with this
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account of Edward Rosier. "Dear me; he looked a well-set-up young
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fellow."
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"So he is, but my husband's very particular."
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"Oh, I see." And Lord Warburton paused a moment. "How much money has
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he got?" he then ventured to ask.
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"Some forty thousand francs a year."
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"Sixteen hundred pounds? Ah, but that's very good, you know."
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"So I think. My husband, however, has larger ideas."
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"Yes; I've noticed that your husband has very large ideas. Is he
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really an idiot, the young man?"
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"An idiot? Not in the least; he's charming. When he was twelve years
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old I myself was in love with him."
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"He doesn't look much more than twelve to-day," Lord Warburton
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rejoined vaguely, looking about him. Then with more point, "Don't
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you think we might sit here?" he asked.
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"Wherever you please." The room was a sort of boudoir, pervaded by a
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subdued, rose-coloured light; a lady and gentleman moved out of it
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as our friends came in.
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"It's very kind of you to take such an interest in Mr. Rosier,"
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Isabel said.
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"He seems to me rather ill-treated. He had a face a yard long. I
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wondered what ailed him."
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"You're a just man," said Isabel. "You've a kind thought even for
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a rival."
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Lord Warburton suddenly turned with a stare. "A rival! Do you call
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him my rival?"
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"Surely-if you both wish to marry the same person."
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"Yes-but since he has no chance!"
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"I like you, however that may be, for putting yourself in his place.
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It shows imagination."
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"You like me for it?" And Lord Warburton looked at her with an
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uncertain eye. "I think you mean you're laughing at me for it."
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"Yes, I'm laughing at you a little. But I like you as somebody to
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laugh at."
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"Ah well, then, let me enter into his situation a little more.
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What do you suppose one could do for him?"
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"Since I have been praising your imagination I'll leave you to
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imagine that yourself," Isabel said. "Pansy too would like you for
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that."
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"Miss Osmond? Ah, she, I flatter myself, likes me already."
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"Very much, I think."
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He waited a little; he was still questioning her face. "Well then, I
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don't understand you. You don't mean that she cares for him?"
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"Surely I've told you I thought she did."
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A quick blush sprang to his brow. "You told me she would have no
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wish apart from her father's, and as I've gathered that he would
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favour me-!" He paused a little and then suggested "Don't you see?"
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through his blush.
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"Yes, I told you she has an immense wish to please her father, and
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that it would probably take her very far."
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"That seems to me a very proper feeling," said Lord Warburton.
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"Certainly; it's a very proper feeling." Isabel remained silent
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|
for some moments; the room continued empty; the sound of the music
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|
reached them with its richness softened by the interposing apartments.
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|
Then at last she said: "But it hardly strikes me as the sort of
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|
feeling to which a man would wish to be indebted for a wife."
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"I don't know; if the wife's a good one and he thinks she does well!
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"Yes, of course you must think that."
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"I do; I can't help it. You call that very British, of course."
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"No, I don't. I think Pansy would do wonderfully well to marry
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|
you, and I don't know who should know it better than you. But you're
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|
not in love."
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"Ah, yes I am, Mrs. Osmond!"
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Isabel shook her head. "You like to think you are while you sit here
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|
with me. But that's not how you strike me."
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"I'm not like the young man in the doorway. I admit that. But what
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|
makes it so unnatural? Could any one in the world be more loveable
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|
than Miss Osmond?"
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"No one, possibly. But love has nothing to do with good reasons."
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"I don't agree with you. I'm delighted to have good reasons."
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"Of course you are. If you were really in love you wouldn't care a
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|
straw for them."
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"Ah, really in love-really in love!" Lord Warburton exclaimed,
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|
folding his arms, leaning back his head and stretching himself a
|
|
little. "You must remember that I'm forty-two years old. I won't
|
|
pretend I'm as I once "Well, if you're sure," said Isabel, "it's all
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|
right."
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|
He answered nothing; he sat there, with his head back, looking
|
|
before him. Abruptly, however, he changed his position; he turned
|
|
quickly to his friend. "Why are you so unwilling, so sceptical?"
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|
She met his eyes, and for a moment they looked straight at each
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|
other. If she wished to be satisfied she saw something that
|
|
satisfied her; she saw in his expression the gleam of an idea that she
|
|
was uneasy on her own account-that she was perhaps even in fear. It
|
|
showed a suspicion, not a hope, but such as it was it told her what
|
|
she wanted to know. Not for an instant should he suspect her of
|
|
detecting in his proposal of marrying her stepdaughter an
|
|
implication of increased nearness to herself, or of thinking it, on
|
|
such a betrayal, ominous. In that brief, extremely personal gaze,
|
|
however, deeper meanings passed between them than they were
|
|
conscious of at the moment.
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|
"My dear Lord Warburton," she said, smiling, "you may do, as far
|
|
as I'm concerned, whatever comes into your head."
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|
And with this she got up and wandered into the adjoining room,
|
|
where, within her companion's view, she was immediately addressed by a
|
|
pair of gentlemen, high personages in the Roman world, who met her
|
|
as if they had been looking for her. While she talked with them she
|
|
found herself regretting she had moved; it looked a little like
|
|
running away-all the more as Lord Warburton didn't follow her. She was
|
|
glad of this, however, and at any rate she was satisfied. She was so
|
|
well satisfied that when, in passing back into the ball-room, she
|
|
found Edward Rosier still planted in the doorway, she stopped and
|
|
spoke to him again. "You did right not to go away. I've some comfort
|
|
for you."
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|
|
|
"I need it," the young man softly wailed, "when I see you so awfully
|
|
thick with him!"
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"Don't speak of him; I'll do what I can for you. I'm afraid it won't
|
|
be much, but what I can I'll do."
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|
He looked at her with gloomy obliqueness. "What has suddenly brought
|
|
you round?"
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|
|
"The sense that you are an inconvenience in doorways!" she answered,
|
|
smiling as she passed him. Half an hour later she took leave, with
|
|
Pansy, and at the foot of the staircase the two ladies, with many
|
|
other departing guests, waited a while for their carriage. just as
|
|
it approached Lord Warburton came out of the house and assisted them
|
|
to reach their vehicle. He stood a moment at the door, asking Pansy if
|
|
she had amused herself; and she, having answered him, fell back with a
|
|
little air of fatigue. Then Isabel, at the window, detaining him by
|
|
a movement of her finger, murmured gently: "Don't forget to send
|
|
your letter to her father!"
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CHAPTER 44
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The Countess Gemini was often extremely bored-bored, in her own
|
|
phrase, to extinction. She had not been extinguished, however, and she
|
|
struggled bravely enough with her destiny, which had been to marry
|
|
an unaccommodating Florentine who insisted upon living in his native
|
|
town, where he enjoyed such consideration as might attach to a
|
|
gentleman whose talent for losing at cards had not the merit of
|
|
being incidental to an obliging disposition. The Count Gemini was
|
|
not liked even by those who won from him; and he bore a name, which,
|
|
having a measurable value in Florence, was, like the local coin of the
|
|
old Italian states, without currency in other parts of the
|
|
peninsula. In Rome he was simply a very dull Florentine, and it is not
|
|
remarkable that he should not have cared to pay frequent visits to a
|
|
place where, to carry it off, his dulness needed more explanation than
|
|
was convenient. The Countess lived with her eyes upon Rome, and it was
|
|
the constant grievance of her life that she had not an habitation
|
|
there. She was ashamed to say how seldom she had been allowed to visit
|
|
that city; it scarcely made the matter better that there were other
|
|
members of the Florentine nobility who never had been there at all.
|
|
She went whenever she could; that was all she could say. Or rather not
|
|
all, but all she said she could say. In fact she had much more to
|
|
say about it, and had often set forth the reasons why she hated
|
|
Florence and wished to end her days in the shadow of Saint Peter's.
|
|
They are reasons, however, that do not closely concern us, and were
|
|
usually summed up in the declaration that Rome, in short, was the
|
|
Eternal City and that Florence was simply a pretty little place like
|
|
any other. The Countess apparently needed to connect the idea of
|
|
eternity with her amusements. She was convinced that society was
|
|
infinitely more interesting in Rome, where you met celebrities all
|
|
winter at evening parties. At Florence there were no celebrities; none
|
|
at least that one had heard of. Since her brother's marriage her
|
|
impatience had greatly increased; she was so sure his wife had a
|
|
more brilliant life than herself. She was not so intellectual as
|
|
Isabel, but she was intellectual enough to do justice to Rome-not to
|
|
the ruins and the catacombs, not even perhaps to the monuments and
|
|
museums, the church ceremonies and the scenery; but certainly to all
|
|
the rest. She heard a great deal about her sister-in-law and knew
|
|
perfectly that Isabel was having a beautiful time. She had indeed seen
|
|
it for herself on the only occasion on which she had enjoyed the
|
|
hospitality of Palazzo Roccanera. She had spent a week there during
|
|
the first winter of her brother's marriage, but she had not been
|
|
encouraged to renew this satisfaction. Osmond didn't want her-that she
|
|
was perfectly aware of; but she would have gone all the same, for
|
|
after all she didn't care two straws about Osmond. It was her
|
|
husband who wouldn't let her, and the money question was always a
|
|
trouble. Isabel had been very nice; the Countess, who had liked her
|
|
sister-in-law from the first, had not been blinded by envy to Isabel's
|
|
personal merits. She had always observed that she got on better with
|
|
clever women than with silly ones like herself; the silly ones could
|
|
never understand her wisdom, whereas the clever ones-the really clever
|
|
ones-always understood her silliness. It appeared to her that,
|
|
different as they were in appearance and general style, Isabel and she
|
|
had somewhere a patch of common ground that they would set their
|
|
feet upon at last. It was not very large, but it was firm, and they
|
|
should both know it when once they had really touched it. And then she
|
|
lived, with Mrs. Osmond, under the influence of a pleasant surprise;
|
|
she was constantly expecting that Isabel would "look down" on her, and
|
|
she as constantly saw this operation postponed. She asked herself when
|
|
it would begin, like fire-works, or Lent, or the opera season; not
|
|
that she cared much, but she wondered what kept it in abeyance. Her
|
|
sister-in-law regarded her with none but level glances and expressed
|
|
for the poor Countess as little contempt as admiration. In reality
|
|
Isabel would as soon have thought of despising her as of passing a
|
|
moral judgement on a grasshopper. She was not indifferent to her
|
|
husband's sister, however; she was rather a little afraid of her.
|
|
She wondered at her; she thought her very extraordinary. The
|
|
Countess seemed to her to have no soul; she was like a bright rare
|
|
shell, with a polished surface and a remarkably pink lip, in which
|
|
something would rattle when you shook it. This rattle was apparently
|
|
the Countess's spiritual principle, a little loose nut that tumbled
|
|
about inside of her. She was too odd for disdain, too anomalous for
|
|
comparisons. Isabel would have invited her again (there was no
|
|
question of inviting the Count); but Osmond, after his marriage, had
|
|
not scrupled to say frankly that Amy was a fool of the worst species-a
|
|
fool whose folly had the irrepressibility of genius. He said at
|
|
another time that she had no heart; and he added in a moment that
|
|
she had given it all away-in small pieces, like a frosted
|
|
wedding-cake. The fact of not having been asked was of course
|
|
another obstacle to the Countess's going again to Rome; but at the
|
|
period with which this history has now to deal she was in receipt of
|
|
an invitation to spend several weeks at Palazzo Roccanera. The
|
|
proposal had come from Osmond himself, who wrote to his sister that
|
|
she must be prepared to be very quiet. Whether or no she found in this
|
|
phrase all the meaning he had put into it I am unable to say; but
|
|
she accepted the invitation on any terms. She was curious, moreover;
|
|
for one of the impressions of her former visit had been that her
|
|
brother had found his match. Before the marriage she had been sorry
|
|
for Isabel, so sorry as to have had serious thoughts-if any of the
|
|
Countess's thoughts were serious-of putting her on her guard. But
|
|
she had let that pass, and after a little she was reassured. Osmond
|
|
was as lofty as ever, but his wife would not be an easy victim. The
|
|
Countess was not very exact at measurements, but it seemed to her that
|
|
if Isabel should draw herself up she would be the taller spirit of the
|
|
two. What she wanted to learn now was whether Isabel had drawn herself
|
|
up; it would give her immense pleasure to see Osmond overtopped.
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|
|
|
Several days before she was to start for Rome a servant brought
|
|
her the card of a visitor-a card with the simple superscription
|
|
"Henrietta C. Stackpole." The Countess pressed her finger-tips to
|
|
her forehead; she didn't remember to have known any such Henrietta
|
|
as that. The servant then remarked that the lady had requested him
|
|
to say that if the Countess should not recognize her name she would
|
|
know her well enough on seeing her. By the time she appeared before
|
|
her visitor she had in fact reminded herself that there was once a
|
|
literary lady at Mrs. Touchett's; the only woman of letters she had
|
|
ever encountered-that is the only modern one, since she was the
|
|
daughter of a defunct poetess. She recognized Miss Stackpole
|
|
immediately, the more so that Miss Stackpole seemed perfectly
|
|
unchanged; and the Countess, who was thoroughly good-natured,
|
|
thought it rather fine to be called on by a person of that sort of
|
|
distinction. She wondered if Miss Stackpole had come on account of her
|
|
mother-whether she had heard of the American Corinne. Her mother was
|
|
not at all like Isabel's friend; the Countess could see at a glance
|
|
that this lady was much more contemporary; and she received an
|
|
impression of the improvements that were taking place-chiefly in
|
|
distant countries-in the character (the professional character) of
|
|
literary ladies. Her mother had been used to wear a Roman scarf thrown
|
|
over a pair of shoulders timorously bared of their tight black
|
|
velvet (oh the old clothes! and a gold laurel-wreath set upon a
|
|
multitude of glossy ringlets. She had spoken softly and vaguely,
|
|
with the accent of her "Creole" ancestors, as she always confessed;
|
|
she sighed a great deal and was not at all enterprising. But
|
|
Henrietta, the Countess could see, was always closely buttoned and
|
|
compactly braided; there was something brisk and business-like in
|
|
her appearance; her manner was almost conscientiously familiar. It was
|
|
as impossible to imagine her ever vaguely sighing as to imagine a
|
|
letter posted without its address. The Countess could not but feel
|
|
that the correspondent of the Interviewer was much more in the
|
|
movement than the American Corinne. She explained that she had
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called on the Countess because she was the only person she knew in
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Florence, and that when she visited a foreign city she liked to see
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something more than superficial travellers. She knew Mrs. Touchett,
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but Mrs. Touchett was in America, and even if she had been in Florence
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Henrietta would not have put herself out for her, since Mrs.
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Touchett was not one of her admirations.
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"Do you mean by that that I am?" the Countess graciously asked.
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"Well, I like you better than I do her," said Miss Stackpole. "I
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seem to remember that when I saw you before you were very interesting.
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I don't know whether it was an accident or whether it's your usual
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style. At any rate I was a good deal struck with what you said. I made
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use of it afterwards in print."
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"Dear me!" cried the Countess, staring and half alarmed; "I had no
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idea I ever said anything remarkable! I wish I had known it at the
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time."
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"It was about the position of woman in this city," Miss Stackpole
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remarked. "You threw a good deal of light upon it."
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"The position of woman's very uncomfortable. Is that what you
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mean? And you wrote it down and published it?" the Countess went on.
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"Ah, do let me see it!"
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"I'll write to them to send you the paper if you like," Henrietta
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said. "I didn't mention your name; I only said a lady of high rank.
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And then I quoted your views."
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The Countess threw herself hastily backward, tossing up her
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clasped hands. "Do you know I'm rather sorry you didn't mention my
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name? I should have rather liked to see my name in the papers. I
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forget what my views were; I have so many! But I'm not ashamed of
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them. I'm not at all like my brother-I suppose you know my brother? He
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thinks it a kind of scandal to be put in the papers; if you were to
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quote him he'd never forgive you.
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"He needn't be afraid; I shall never refer to him," said Miss
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Stackpole with bland dryness. "That's another reason," she added, "why
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I wanted to come to see you. You know Mr. Osmond married my dearest
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friend."
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"Ah, yes; you were a friend of Isabel's. I was trying to think
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what I knew about you."
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quite willing to be known by that," Henrietta declared. "But that
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isn't what your brother likes to know me by. He has tried to break
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up my relations with Isabel."
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"Don't permit it," said the Countess.
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"That's what I want to talk about. I'm going to Rome."
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"So am I!" the Countess cried. "We'll go together."
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"With great pleasure. And when I write about my journey I'll mention
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you by name as my companion."
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The Countess sprang from her chair and came and sat on the sofa
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beside her visitor. "Ah, you must send me the paper! My husband
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won't like it, but he need never see it. Besides, he doesn't know
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how to read."
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Henrietta's large eyes became immense. "Doesn't know how to read?
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May I put that into my letter?
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"Into your letter?"
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"In the Interviewer. That's my paper."
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"Oh yes, if you like; with his name. Are you going to stay with
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Isabel?"
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Henrietta held up her head, gazing a little in silence at her
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hostess. "She has not asked me. I wrote to her I was coming, and she
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answered that she would engage a room for me at a pension. She gave no
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reason."
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The Countess listened with extreme interest. "The reason's
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Osmond," she pregnantly remarked.
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"Isabel ought to make a stand," said Miss Stackpole. "I'm afraid she
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has changed a great deal. I told her she would."
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"I'm sorry to hear it; I hoped she would have her own way. Why
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doesn't my brother like you?" the Countess ingenuously added.
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"I don't know and I don't care. He's perfectly welcome not to like
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me; I don't want every one to like me; I should think less of myself
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if some people did. A journalist can't hope to do much good unless
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he gets a good deal hated; that's the way he knows how his work goes
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on. And it's just the same for a lady. But I didn't expect it of
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Isabel."
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"Do you mean that she hates you?" the Countess enquired.
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"I don't know; I want to see. That's what I'm going to Rome for."
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"Dear me, what a tiresome errand!" the Countess exclaimed.
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"She doesn't write to me in the same way; it's easy to see there's a
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difference. If you know anything," Miss Stackpole went on, "I should
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like to hear it beforehand, so as to decide on the line I shall take."
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The Countess thrust out her under lip and gave a gradual shrug. "I
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know very little; I see and hear very little of Osmond. He doesn't
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like me any better than he appears to like you."
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"Yet you're not a lady correspondent," said Henrietta pensively.
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"Oh, he has plenty of reasons. Nevertheless they've invited me-I'm
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to stay in the house!" And the Countess smiled almost fiercely; her
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exultation, for the moment, took little account of Miss Stackpole's
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disappointment.
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This lady, however, regarded it very placidly. "I shouldn't have
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gone if she had asked me. That is I think I shouldn't; and I'm glad
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I hadn't to make up my mind. It would have been a very difficult
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question. I shouldn't have liked to turn away from her, and yet I
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shouldn't have been happy under her roof. A pension will suit me
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very well. But that's not all."
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"Rome's very good just now," said the Countess; "there are all sorts
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of brilliant people. Did you ever hear of Lord Warburton?"
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"Hear of him? I know him very well. Do you consider him very
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brilliant?" Henrietta enquired.
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"I don't know him, but I'm told he's extremely grand seigneur.
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He's making love to Isabel."
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"Making love to her?"
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"So I'm told; I don't know the details," said the Countess
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lightly. "But Isabel's pretty safe."
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Henrietta gazed earnestly at her companion; for a moment she said
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nothing. "When do you go to Rome?" she enquired abruptly.
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"Not for a week, I'm afraid."
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"I shall go to-morrow," Henrietta said. "I think I had better not
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wait."
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"Dear me, I'm sorry; I'm having some dresses made. I'm told Isabel
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receives immensely. But I shall see you there; I shall call on you
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at your pension." Henrietta sat still-she was lost in thought; and
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suddenly the Countess cried: "Ah, but if you don't go with me you
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can't describe our journey!"
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Miss Stackpole seemed unmoved by this consideration; she was
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thinking of something else and presently expressed it. "I'm not sure
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that I understand you about Lord Warburton."
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"Understand me? I mean he's very nice, that's all."
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"Do you consider it nice to make love to married women?" Henrietta
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enquired with unprecedented distinctness.
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The Countess stared, and then with a little violent laugh: "It's
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certain all the nice men do it. Get married and you'll see!" she
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added.
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"That idea would be enough to prevent me," said Miss Stackpole. "I
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should want my own husband; I shouldn't want any one else's. Do you
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mean that Isabel's guilty-guilty-?" And she paused a little,
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choosing her expression.
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"Do I mean she's guilty? Oh dear no, not yet, I hope. I only mean
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that Osmond's very tiresome and that Lord Warburton, as I hear, is a
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great deal at the house. I'm afraid you're scandalized."
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"No, I'm just anxious," Henrietta said.
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"Ah, you're not very complimentary to Isabel! You should have more
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confidence. I'll tell you," the Countess added quickly: "if it will be
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a comfort to you I engage to draw him off."
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Miss Stackpole answered at first only with the deeper solemnity of
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her gaze. "You don't understand me," she said after a while. "I
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haven't the idea you seem to suppose. I'm not afraid for Isabel-in
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that way. I'm only afraid she's unhappy-that's what I want to get at."
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The Countess gave a dozen turns of the head; she looked impatient
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and sarcastic. "That may very well be; for my part I should like to
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know whether Osmond is." Miss Stackpole had begun a little to bore
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her.
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"If she's really changed that must be at the bottom of it,"
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Henrietta went on.
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"You'll see; she'll tell you," said the Countess.
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"Ah, she may not tell me-that's what I'm afraid of!" "Well, if
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Osmond isn't amusing himself-in his own old way-I flatter myself I
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shall discover it," the Countess rejoined.
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"I don't care for that," said Henrietta.
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"I do immensely! If Isabel's unhappy I'm very sorry for her, but I
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can't help it. I might tell her something that would make her worse,
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but I can't tell her anything that would console her. What did she
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go and marry him for? If she had listened to me she'd have got rid
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of him. I'll forgive her, however, if I find she has made things hot
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for him! If she has simply allowed him to trample upon her I don't
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know that I shall even pity her. But I don't think that's very likely.
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I count upon finding that if she's miserable she has at least made him
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so."
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Henrietta got up; these seemed to her, naturally, very dreadful
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|
expectations. She honestly believed she had no desire to see Mr.
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Osmond unhappy; and indeed he could not be, for her the subject of a
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|
flight of fancy. She was on the whole rather disappointed in the
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Countess, whose mind moved in a narrower circle than she had imagined,
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though with a capacity for coarseness even there. "It will be better
|
|
if they love each other," she said for edification.
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"They can't. He can't love any one."
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"I presumed that was the case. But it only aggravates my fear for
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Isabel.
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I shall positively start to-morrow."
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"Isabel certainly has devotees," said the Countess, smiling very
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vividly.
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"I declare I don't pity her."
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"It may be I can't assist her," Miss Stackpole pursued, as if it
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were well not to have illusions.
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"You can have wanted to, at any rate; that's something. I believe
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that's what you came from America for," the Countess suddenly added.
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"Yes, I wanted to look after her," Henrietta said serenely.
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Her hostess stood there smiling at her with small bright eyes and an
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eager-looking nose; with cheeks into each of which a flush had come.
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"Ah, that's very pretty- c'est bien gentil! Isn't it what they call
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friendship?"
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"I don't know what they call it. I thought I had better come."
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"She's very happy-she's very fortunate," the Countess went on.
|
|
"She has others besides." And then she broke out passionately.
|
|
"She's more fortunate than I! I'm as unhappy as she-I've a very bad
|
|
husband; he's a great deal worse than Osmond. And I've no friends. I
|
|
thought I had, but they're gone. No one, man or woman, would do for me
|
|
what you've done for her."
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Henrietta was touched; there was nature in this bitter effusion. She
|
|
gazed at her companion a moment, and then: "Look here, Countess,
|
|
I'll do anything for you that you like. I'll wait over and travel with
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|
you."
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"Never mind," the Countess answered with a quick change of tone:
|
|
only describe me in the newspaper!"
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|
Henrietta, before leaving her, however, was obliged to make her
|
|
understand that she could give no fictitious representation of her
|
|
journey to Rome. Miss Stackpole was a strictly veracious reporter.
|
|
On quitting her she took the way to the Lung' Arno, the sunny quay
|
|
beside the yellow river where the bright-faced inns familiar to
|
|
tourists stand all in a row. She had learned her way before this
|
|
through the streets of Florence (she was very quick in such
|
|
matters), and was therefore able to turn with great decision of step
|
|
out of the little square which forms the approach to the bridge of the
|
|
Holy Trinity. She proceeded to the left, toward the Ponte Vecchio, and
|
|
stopped in front of one of the hotels which overlook that delightful
|
|
structure. Here she drew forth a small pocket-book, took from it a
|
|
card and a pencil and, after meditating a moment, wrote a few words.
|
|
It is our privilege to look over her shoulder, and if we exercise it
|
|
we may read the brief query: "Could I see you this evening for a few
|
|
moments on a very important matter?" Henrietta added that she should
|
|
start on the morrow for Rome. Armed with this little document she
|
|
approached the porter, who now had taken up his station in the
|
|
doorway, and asked if Mr. Goodwood were at home. The porter replied,
|
|
as porters always reply, that he had gone out about twenty minutes
|
|
before; whereupon Henrietta presented her card and begged it might
|
|
be handed him on his return. She left the inn and pursued her course
|
|
along the quay to the severe portico of the Uffizi, through which
|
|
she presently reached the entrance of the famous gallery of paintings.
|
|
Making her way in, she ascended the high staircase which leads to
|
|
the upper chambers. The long corridor, glazed on one side and
|
|
decorated with antique busts, which gives admission to these
|
|
apartments, presented an empty vista in which the bright winter
|
|
light twinkled upon the marble floor. The gallery is very cold and
|
|
during the midwinter weeks but scantily visited. Miss Stackpole may
|
|
appear more ardent in her quest of artistic beauty than she has
|
|
hitherto struck us as being, but she had after all her preferences and
|
|
admirations. One of the latter was the little Correggio of the
|
|
Tribune-the Virgin kneeling down before the sacred infant, who lies in
|
|
a litter of straw, and clapping her hands to him while he
|
|
delightedly laughs and crows. Henrietta had a special devotion to this
|
|
intimate scene-she thought it the most beautiful picture in the world.
|
|
On her way, at present, from New York to Rome, she was spending but
|
|
three days in Florence, and yet reminded herself that they must not
|
|
elapse without her paying another visit to her favourite work of
|
|
art. She had a great sense of beauty in all ways, and it involved a
|
|
good many intellectual obligations. She was about to turn into the
|
|
Tribune when a gentleman came out of it; whereupon she gave a little
|
|
exclamation and stood before Caspar Goodwood.
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|
|
|
"I've just been at your hotel," she said. "I left a card for you."
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|
"I'm very much honoured," Caspar Goodwood answered as if he really
|
|
meant it.
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|
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|
"It was not to honour you I did it; I've called on you before and
|
|
I know you don't like it. It was to talk to you a little about
|
|
something."
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|
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|
He looked for a moment at the buckle in her hat. "I shall be very
|
|
glad to hear what you wish to say."
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|
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|
"You don't like to talk with me," said Henrietta. "But I don't
|
|
care for that; I don't talk for your amusement. I wrote a word to
|
|
ask you to come and see me; but since I've met you here this will do
|
|
as well."
|
|
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|
"I was just going away," Goodwood stated; "but of course I'll stop."
|
|
He was civil, but not enthusiastic.
|
|
|
|
Henrietta, however, never looked for great professions, and she
|
|
was so much in earnest that she was thankful he would listen to her on
|
|
any terms. She asked him first, none the less, if he had seen all
|
|
the pictures.
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|
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|
"All I want to. I've been here an hour."
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|
"I wonder if you've seen my Correggio," said Henrietta. "I came up
|
|
on purpose to have a look at it." She went into the Tribune and he
|
|
slowly accompanied her.
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|
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"I suppose I've seen it, but I didn't know it was yours. I don't
|
|
remember pictures-especially that sort." She had pointed out her
|
|
favourite work, and he asked her if it was about Correggio she
|
|
wished to talk with him.
|
|
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|
"No," said Henrietta, it's about something less harmonious!" They
|
|
the small, brilliant room, a splendid cabinet of treasures, to
|
|
themselves; there was only a custode hovering about the Medicean
|
|
Venus. "I want you to do me a favour," Miss Stackpole went on.
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|
|
|
Caspar Goodwood frowned a little, but he expressed no
|
|
embarrassment at the sense of not looking eager. His face was that
|
|
of a much older man than our earlier friend. "I'm sure it's
|
|
something I shan't like," he said rather loudly.
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|
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|
"No, I don't think you'll like it. If you did it would be no
|
|
favour."
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|
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|
"Well, let's hear it," he went on in the tone of a man quite
|
|
conscious of his patience.
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|
|
|
"You may say there's no particular reason why you should do me a
|
|
favour. Indeed I only know of one: the fact that if you'd let me I'd
|
|
gladly do you one." Her soft, exact tone, in which there was no
|
|
attempt at effect, had an extreme sincerity; and her companion, though
|
|
he presented rather a hard surface, couldn't help being touched by it.
|
|
When he was touched he rarely showed it, however, by the usual
|
|
signs; he neither blushed, nor looked away, nor looked conscious. He
|
|
only fixed his attention more directly; he seemed to consider with
|
|
added firmness. Henrietta continued therefore disinterestedly, without
|
|
the sense of an advantage. "I may say now, indeed-it seems a good
|
|
time-that if I've ever annoyed you (and I think sometimes I have) it's
|
|
because I knew I was willing to suffer annoyance for you. I've
|
|
troubled you- doubtless. But I'd take trouble for you."
|
|
|
|
Goodwood hesitated. "You're taking trouble now."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I am-some. I want you to consider whether it's better on the
|
|
whole that you should go to Rome."
|
|
|
|
"I thought you were going to say that!" he answered rather
|
|
artlessly. "You have considered it then?"
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|
|
|
"Of course I have, very carefully. I've looked all round it.
|
|
Otherwise I shouldn't have come so far as this. That's what I stayed
|
|
in Paris two months for. I was thinking it over."
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|
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|
"I'm afraid you decided as you liked. You decided it was best
|
|
because you were so much attracted."
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|
|
|
"Best for whom, do you mean?" Goodwood demanded.
|
|
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|
"Well, for yourself first. For Mrs. Osmond next."
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"Oh, it won't do her any good! I don't flatter myself that."
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|
"Won't it do her some harm?-that's the question."
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"I don't see what it will matter to her. I'm nothing to Mrs. Osmond.
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But if you want to know, I do want to see her myself."
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|
"Yes, and that's why you go."
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|
|
"Of course it is. Could there be a better reason?"
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|
"How will it help you?-that's what I want to know," said Miss
|
|
Stackpole.
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|
|
|
"That's just what I can't tell you. It's just what I was thinking
|
|
about in Paris."
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|
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|
"It will make you more discontented."
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|
"Why do you say 'more' so?" Goodwood asked rather sternly. "How do
|
|
you know I'm discontented?"
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|
"Well," said Henrietta, hesitating a little, "you seem never to have
|
|
cared for another."
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|
"How do you know what I care for?" he cried with a big blush.
|
|
"Just now I care to go to Rome."
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|
Henrietta looked at him in silence, with a sad yet luminous
|
|
expression. "Well," she observed at last, "I only wanted to tell you
|
|
what I think; I had it on my mind. Of course you think it's none of my
|
|
business. But nothing is any one's business on that principle."
|
|
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|
"It's very kind of you; I'm greatly obliged to you for your
|
|
interest," said Caspar Goodwood. "I shall go to Rome and I shan't hurt
|
|
Mrs. Osmond."
|
|
|
|
"You won't hurt her, perhaps. But will you help her?-that's the real
|
|
issue."
|
|
|
|
"Is she in need of help?" he asked slowly, with a penetrating look.
|
|
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|
"Most women always are," said Henrietta with conscientious
|
|
evasiveness and generalizing less hopefully than usual. "If you go
|
|
to Rome," she added, "I hope you'll be a true friend-not a selfish
|
|
one!" And she turned off and began to look at the pictures.
|
|
|
|
Caspar Goodwood let her go and stood watching her while she wandered
|
|
round the room; but after a moment he rejoined her. "You've heard
|
|
something about her here," he then resumed. "I should like to know
|
|
what you've heard."
|
|
|
|
Henrietta had never prevaricated in her life, and, though on this
|
|
occasion there might have been a fitness in doing so, she decided,
|
|
after thinking some minutes, to make no superficial exception. "Yes,
|
|
I've heard," she answered; "but as I don't want you to go to Rome I
|
|
won't tell you."
|
|
|
|
"Just as you please. I shall see for myself," he said. Then
|
|
inconsistently, for him, "You've heard she's unhappy!" he added.
|
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|
"Oh, you won't see that!" Henrietta exclaimed.
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|
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|
"I hope not. When do you start?"
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"To-morrow, by the evening train. And you?"
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Goodwood hung back; he had no desire to make his journey to Rome
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in Miss Stackpole's company. His indifference to this advantage was
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not of the same character as Gilbert Osmond's, but it had at this
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moment an equal distinctness. It was rather a tribute to Miss
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Stackpole's virtues than a reference to her faults. He thought her
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very remarkable, very brilliant, and he had, in theory, no objection
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to the class to which she belonged. Lady correspondents appeared to
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him a part of the natural scheme of things in a progressive country,
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and though he never read their letters he supposed that they
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ministered somehow to social prosperity. But it was this very eminence
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of their position that made him wish Miss Stackpole didn't take so
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much for granted. She took for granted that he was always ready for
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some allusion to Mrs. Osmond; she had done so when they met in
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Paris, six weeks after his arrival in Europe, and she had repeated the
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assumption with every successive opportunity. He had no wish
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whatever to allude to Mrs. Osmond; he was not always thinking of
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her; he was perfectly sure of that. He was the most reserved, the
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least colloquial of men, and this enquiring authoress was constantly
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flashing her lantern into the quiet darkness of his soul. He wished
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she didn't care so much; he even wished, though it might seem rather
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brutal of him, that she would leave him alone. In spite of this,
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however, he just now made other reflections-which show how widely
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different, in effect, his ill-humour was from Gilbert Osmond's. He
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desired to go immediately to Rome; he would have liked to go alone, in
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the night-train. He hated the European railway-carriages, in which one
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sat for hours in a vise, knee to knee and nose to nose with a
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foreigner to whom one presently found one's self objecting with all
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the added vehemence of one's wish to have the window open; and if they
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were worse at night even than by day, at least at night one could
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sleep and dream of an American saloon-car. But he couldn't take a
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night-train when Miss Stackpole was starting in the morning; it struck
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him that this would be an insult to an unprotected woman. Nor could he
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wait until after she had gone unless he should wait longer than he had
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patience for. It wouldn't do to start the next day. She worried him;
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she oppressed him; the idea of spending the day in a European
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railway-carriage with her offered a complication of irritations.
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Still, she was a lady travelling alone; it was his duty to put himself
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out for her. There could be no two questions about that; it was a
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perfectly clear necessity. He looked extremely grave for some
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moments and then said, wholly without the flourish of gallantry but in
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a tone of extreme distinctness, "Of course if you're going to-morrow
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I'll go too, as I may be of assistance to you."
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"Well, Mr. Goodwood, I should hope so!" Henrietta returned
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imperturbably.
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CHAPTER 45
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I have already had reason to say that Isabel knew her husband to
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be displeased by the continuance of Ralph's visit to Rome. That
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knowledge was very present to her as she went to her cousin's hotel
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the day after she had invited Lord Warburton to give a tangible
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proof of his sincerity; and at this moment, as at others, she had a
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sufficient perception of the sources of Osmond's opposition. He wished
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her to have no freedom of mind, and he knew perfectly well that
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Ralph was an apostle of freedom. It was just because he was this,
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Isabel said to herself, that it was a refreshment to go and see him.
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It will be perceived that she partook of this refreshment in spite
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of her husband's aversion to it, that is partook of it, as she
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flattered herself, discreetly. She had not as yet undertaken to act in
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direct opposition to his wishes; he was her appointed and inscribed
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master; she gazed at moments with a sort of incredulous blankness at
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this fact. It weighed upon her imagination, however; constantly
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present to her mind were all the traditionary decencies and sanctities
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of marriage. The idea of violating them filled her with shame as
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well as with dread, for on giving herself away she had lost sight of
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this contingency in the perfect belief that her husband's intentions
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were as generous as her own. She seemed to see, none the less, the
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rapid approach of the day when she should have to take back
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something she had solemnly bestown. Such a ceremony would be odious
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and monstrous; she tried to shut her eyes to it meanwhile. Osmond
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would do nothing to help it by beginning first; he would put that
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burden upon her to the end. He had not yet formally forbidden her to
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call upon Ralph; but she felt sure that unless Ralph should very
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soon depart this prohibition would come. How could poor Ralph
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depart? The weather as yet made it impossible. She could perfectly
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understand her husband's wish for the event; she didn't, to be just,
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see how he could like her to be with her cousin. Ralph never said a
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word against him, but Osmond's sore, mute protest was none the less
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founded. If he should positively interpose, if he should put forth his
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authority, she would have to decide, and that wouldn't be easy. The
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prospect made her heart beat and her cheeks burn, as I say, in
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advance; there were moments when, in her wish to avoid an open
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rupture, she found herself wishing Ralph would start even at a risk.
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And it was of no use that, when catching herself in this state of
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mind, she called herself a feeble spirit, a coward. It was not that
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she loved Ralph less, but that almost anything seemed preferable to
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repudiating the most serious act-the single sacred act-of her life.
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That appeared to make the whole future hideous. To break with Osmond
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once would be to break for ever; any open acknowledgement of
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irreconcilable needs would be an admission that their whole attempt
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had proved a failure. For them there could be no condonement, no
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compromise, no easy forgetfulness, no formal readjustment. They had
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attempted only one thing, but that one thing was to have been
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exquisite. Once they missed it nothing else would do; there was no
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conceivable substitute for that success. For the moment, Isabel went
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to the Hotel de Paris as often as she thought well; the measure of
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propriety was in the canon of taste, and there couldn't have been a
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better proof that morality was, so to speak, a matter of earnest
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appreciation. Isabel's application of that measure had been
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particularly free to-day, for in addition to the general truth that
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she couldn't leave Ralph to die alone she had something important to
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ask of him. This indeed was Gilbert's business as well as her own.
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She came very soon to what she wished to speak of. "I want you to
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answer me a question. It's about Lord Warburton."
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"I think I guess your question," Ralph answered from his
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arm-chair, out of which his thin legs protruded at greater length than
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ever.
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"Very possibly you guess it. Please then answer it."
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"Oh, I don't say I can do that."
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"You're intimate with him," she said; "you've a great deal of
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observation of him."
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"Very true. But think how he must dissimulate!"
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"Why should he dissimulate? That's not his nature."
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"Ah, you must remember that the circumstances are peculiar," said
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Ralph with an air of private amusement.
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"To a certain extent-yes. But is he really in love?"
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"Very much, I think. I can make that out."
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"Ah!" said Isabel with a certain dryness.
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Ralph looked at her as if his mild hilarity had been touched with
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mystification. "You say that as if you were disappointed."
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Isabel got up, slowly smoothing her gloves and eyeing them
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thoughtfully.
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"It's after all no business of mine."
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"You're very philosophic," said her cousin. And then in a moment:
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"May I enquire what you're talking about?"
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Isabel stared. "I thought you knew. Lord Warburton tells me he
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wants, of all things in the world, to marry Pansy. I've told you
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that before, without eliciting a comment from you. You might risk
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one this morning, I think. Is it your belief that he really cares
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for her?"
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"Ah, for Pansy, no!" cried Ralph very positively.
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"But you said just now he did."
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Ralph waited a moment. "That he cared for you, Mrs. Osmond."
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Isabel shook her head gravely. "That's nonsense, you know."
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"Of course it is. But the nonsense is Warburton's, not mine."
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"That would be very tiresome." She spoke, as she flattered
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herself, with much subtlety.
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"I ought to tell you indeed," Ralph went on, "that to me he has
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denied it."
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"It's very good of you to talk about it together! Has he also told
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you that he's in love with Pansy?"
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"He has spoken very well of her-very properly. He has let me know,
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of course, that he thinks she would do very well at Lockleigh."
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"Does he really think it?"
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"Ah, what Warburton really thinks-!" said Ralph.
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Isabel fell to smoothing her gloves again; they were long, loose
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gloves on which she could freely expend herself. Soon, however, she
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looked up, and then, "Ah, Ralph, you give me no help!" she cried
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abruptly and passionately.
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It was the first time she had alluded to the need for help, and
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the words shook her cousin with their violence. He gave a long
|
|
murmur of relief, of pity, of tenderness; it seemed to him that at
|
|
last the gulf between them had been bridged. It was this that made him
|
|
exclaim in a moment: "How unhappy you must be!"
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He had no sooner spoken than she recovered her self-possession,
|
|
and the first use she made of it was to pretend she had not heard him.
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|
"When I talk of your helping me I talk great nonsense," she said
|
|
with a quick smile. "The idea of my troubling you with my domestic
|
|
embarrassments! The matter's very simple; Lord Warburton must get on
|
|
by himself. I can't undertake to see him through."
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"He ought to succeed easily," said Ralph.
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Isabel debated. "Yes-but he has not always succeeded."
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"Very true. You know, however, how that always surprised me. Is Miss
|
|
Osmond capable of giving us a surprise?"
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"It will come from him, rather. I seem to see that after all he'll
|
|
let the matter drop."
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"He'll do nothing dishonourable," said Ralph.
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|
"I'm very sure of that. Nothing can be more honourable than for
|
|
him to leave the poor child alone. She cares for another person, and
|
|
it's cruel to attempt to bribe her by magnificent offers to give him
|
|
up."
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|
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"Cruel to the other person perhaps-the one she cares for. But
|
|
Warburton isn't obliged to mind that."
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"No, cruel to her," said Isabel. "She would be very unhappy if she
|
|
were to allow herself to be persuaded to desert poor Mr. Rosier.
|
|
That idea seems to amuse you; of course you're not in love with him.
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|
He has the merit-for Pansy-of being in love with Pansy. She can see at
|
|
a glance that Lord Warburton isn't."
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|
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|
"He'd be very good to her," said Ralph.
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|
"He has been good to her already. Fortunately, however, he has not
|
|
said a word to disturb her. He could come and bid her good-bye
|
|
to-morrow with perfect propriety."
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|
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|
"How would your husband like that?"
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|
"Not at all; and he may be right in not liking it. Only he must
|
|
obtain satisfaction himself."
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|
"Has he commissioned you to obtain it?" Ralph ventured to ask.
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|
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|
"It was natural that as an old friend of Lord Warburton's-an older
|
|
friend, that is, than Gilbert-I should take an interest in his
|
|
intentions."
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|
|
"Take an interest in his renouncing them, you mean?"
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|
Isabel hesitated, frowning a little. "Let me understand. Are you
|
|
pleading his cause?"
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|
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|
"Not in the least. I'm very glad he shouldn't become your
|
|
stepdaughter's husband. It makes such a very queer relation to you!"
|
|
said Ralph, smiling. "But I'm rather nervous lest your husband
|
|
should think you haven't pushed him enough."
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|
|
|
Isabel found herself able to smile as well as he. "He knows me
|
|
well enough not to have expected me to push. He himself has no
|
|
intention of pushing, I presume. I'm not afraid I shall not be able to
|
|
justify myself!" she said lightly.
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|
|
|
Her mask had dropped for an instant, but she had put it on again, to
|
|
Ralph's infinite disappointment. He had caught a glimpse of her
|
|
natural face and he wished immensely to look into it. He had an almost
|
|
savage desire to hear her complain of her husband-hear her say that
|
|
she should be held accountable for Lord Warburton's defection. Ralph
|
|
was certain that this was her situation; he knew by instinct, in
|
|
advance, the form that in such an event Osmond's displeasure would
|
|
take. It could only take the meanest and cruellest. He would have
|
|
liked to warn Isabel of it-to let her see at least how he judged for
|
|
her and how he knew. It little mattered that Isabel would know much
|
|
better; it was for his own satisfaction more than for hers that he
|
|
longed to show her he was not deceived. He tried and tried again to
|
|
make her betray Osmond; he felt cold-blooded, cruel, dishonourable
|
|
almost, in doing so. But it scarcely mattered, for he only failed.
|
|
What had she come for then, and why did she seem almost to offer him a
|
|
chance to violate their tacit convention? Why did she ask him his
|
|
advice if she gave him no liberty to answer her? How could they talk
|
|
of her domestic embarrassments, as it pleased her humorously to
|
|
designate them, if the principal factor was not to be mentioned? These
|
|
contradictions were themselves but an indication of her trouble, and
|
|
her cry for help, just before, was the only thing he was bound to
|
|
consider. "You'll be decidedly at variance, all the same," he said
|
|
in a moment. And as she answered nothing, looking as if she scarce
|
|
understood, "You'll find yourselves thinking very differently," he
|
|
continued.
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|
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|
"That may easily happen, among the most united couples!" She took up
|
|
her parasol; he saw she was nervous, afraid of what he might say.
|
|
"It's a matter we can hardly quarrel about, however," she added;
|
|
"for almost all the interest is on his side. That's very natural.
|
|
Pansy's after all his daughter-not mine." And she put out her hand
|
|
to wish him good-bye.
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|
|
|
Ralph took an inward resolution that she shouldn't leave him without
|
|
his letting her know that he knew everything: it seemed too great an
|
|
opportunity to lose. "Do you know what his interest will make him
|
|
say?" he asked as he took her hand. She shook her head, rather
|
|
dryly-not discouragingly-and he went on. "It will make him say that
|
|
your want of zeal is owing to jealousy." He stopped a moment; her face
|
|
made him afraid.
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|
|
|
"To jealousy?"
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|
|
|
"To jealousy of his daughter."
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|
|
|
She blushed red and threw back her head. "You're not kind," she said
|
|
in a voice that he had never heard on her lips.
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|
|
|
"Be frank with me and you'll see," he answered.
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|
|
|
But she made no reply; she only pulled her hand out of his own,
|
|
which he tried still to hold, and rapidly withdrew from the room.
|
|
She made up her mind to speak to Pansy, and she took an occasion on
|
|
the same day, going to the girl's room before dinner. Pansy was
|
|
already dressed; she was always in advance of the time: it seemed to
|
|
illustrate her pretty patience and the graceful stillness with which
|
|
she could sit and wait. At present she was seated, in her fresh array,
|
|
before the bed-room fire; she had blown out her candles on the
|
|
completion of her toilet, in accordance with the economical habits
|
|
in which she had been brought up and which she was now more careful
|
|
than ever to observe; so that the room was lighted only by a couple of
|
|
logs. The rooms in Palazzo Roccanera were as spacious as they were
|
|
numerous, and Pansy's virginal bower was an immense chamber with a
|
|
dark, heavily-timbered ceiling. Its diminutive mistress, in the
|
|
midst of it, appeared but a speck of humanity, and as she got up, with
|
|
quick deference, to welcome Isabel, the latter was more than ever
|
|
struck with her shy sincerity. Isabel had a difficult task-the only
|
|
thing was to perform it as simply as possible. She felt bitter and
|
|
angry, but she warned herself against betraying this heat. She was
|
|
afraid even of looking too grave, or at least too stern; she was
|
|
afraid of causing alarm. But Pansy seemed to have guessed she had come
|
|
more or less as a confessor; for after she had moved the chair in
|
|
which she had been sitting a little nearer to the fire and Isabel
|
|
had taken her place in it, she kneeled down on a cushion in front of
|
|
her, looking up and resting her clasped hands on her stepmother's
|
|
knees. What Isabel wished to do was to hear from her own lips that her
|
|
mind was not occupied with Lord Warburton; but if she desired the
|
|
assurance she felt herself by no means at liberty to provoke it. The
|
|
girl's father would have qualified this as rank treachery; and
|
|
indeed Isabel knew that if Pansy should display the smallest germ of a
|
|
disposition to encourage Lord Warburton her own duty was to hold her
|
|
tongue. It was difficult to interrogate without appearing to
|
|
suggest; Pansy's supreme simplicity, an innocence even more complete
|
|
than Isabel had yet judged it, gave to the most tentative enquiry
|
|
something of the effect of an admonition. As she knelt there in the
|
|
vague firelight, with her pretty dress dimly shining, her hands folded
|
|
half in appeal and half in submission, her soft eyes, raised and
|
|
fixed, full of the seriousness of the situation, she looked to
|
|
Isabel like a childish martyr decked out for sacrifice and scarcely
|
|
presuming even to hope to avert it. When Isabel said to her that she
|
|
had never yet spoken to her of what might have been going on in
|
|
relation to her getting married, but that her silence had not been
|
|
indifference or ignorance, had only been the desire to leave her at
|
|
liberty, Pansy bent forward, raised her face nearer and nearer, and
|
|
with a little murmur which evidently expressed a deep longing,
|
|
answered that she had greatly wished her to speak and that she
|
|
begged her to advise her now.
|
|
|
|
"It's difficult for me to advise you," Isabel returned. "I don't
|
|
know how I can undertake that. That's for your father; you must get
|
|
his advice and, above all, you must act on it."
|
|
|
|
At this Pansy dropped her eyes; for a moment she said nothing. "I
|
|
think I should like your advice better than papa's," she presently
|
|
remarked.
|
|
|
|
"That's not as it should be," said Isabel coldly. "I love you very
|
|
much, but your father loves you better."
|
|
|
|
"It isn't because you love me-it's because you're a lady," Pansy
|
|
answered with the air of saying something very reasonable. "A lady can
|
|
advise a young girl better than a man."
|
|
|
|
"I advise you then to pay the greatest respect to your father's
|
|
wishes."
|
|
|
|
"Ah yes," said the child eagerly, "I must do that."
|
|
|
|
"But if I speak to you now about your getting married it's not for
|
|
your own sake, it's for mine," Isabel went on. "If I try to learn from
|
|
you what you expect, what you desire, it's only that I may act
|
|
accordingly."
|
|
|
|
Pansy stared, and then very quickly, "Will you do everything I
|
|
want?" she asked.
|
|
|
|
"Before I say yes I must know what such things are."
|
|
|
|
Pansy presently told her that the only thing she wanted in life
|
|
was to marry Mr. Rosier. He had asked her and she had told him she
|
|
would do so if her papa would allow it. Now her papa wouldn't allow
|
|
it.
|
|
|
|
"Very well then, it's impossible," Isabel pronounced.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it's impossible," said Pansy without a sigh and with the
|
|
same extreme attention in her clear little face.
|
|
|
|
"You must think of something else then," Isabel went on; but
|
|
Pansy, sighing at this, told her that she had attempted that feat
|
|
without the least success.
|
|
|
|
"You think of those who think of you," she said with a faint
|
|
smile. "I know Mr. Rosier thinks of me."
|
|
|
|
"He ought not to," said Isabel loftily. "Your father has expressly
|
|
requested he shouldn't."
|
|
|
|
"He can't help it, because he knows I think of him."
|
|
|
|
"You shouldn't think of him. There's some excuse for him, perhaps;
|
|
but there's none for you."
|
|
|
|
"I wish you would try to find one," the girl exclaimed as if she
|
|
were praying to the Madonna.
|
|
|
|
"I should be very sorry to attempt it," said the Madonna with
|
|
unusual frigidity. "If you knew some one else was thinking of you,
|
|
would you think of him?"
|
|
|
|
"No one can think of me as Mr. Rosier does; no one has the right."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, but I don't admit Mr. Rosier's right!" Isabel hypocritically
|
|
cried.
|
|
|
|
Pansy only gazed at her, evidently much puzzled; and Isabel,
|
|
taking advantage of it, began to represent to her the wretched
|
|
consequences of disobeying her father. At this Pansy stopped her
|
|
with the assurance that she would never disobey him, would never marry
|
|
without his consent. And she announced, in the serenest, simplest
|
|
tone, that, though she might never marry Mr. Rosier, she would never
|
|
cease to think of him. She appeared to have accepted the idea of
|
|
eternal singleness; but Isabel of course was free to reflect that
|
|
she had no conception of its meaning. She was perfectly sincere; she
|
|
was prepared to give up her lover. This might seem an important step
|
|
toward taking another, but for Pansy, evidently, it failed to lead
|
|
in that direction. She felt no bitterness toward her father; there was
|
|
no bitterness in her heart; there was only the sweetness of fidelity
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to Edward Rosier, and a strange, exquisite intimation that she could
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prove it better by remaining single than even by marrying him.
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"Your father would like you to make a better marriage," said Isabel.
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"Mr. Rosier's fortune is not at all large."
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"How do you mean better-if that would be good enough? And I have
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myself so little money; why should I look for a fortune?"
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"Your having so little is a reason for looking for more." With which
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Isabel was grateful for the dimness of the room; she felt as if her
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face were hideously insincere. It was what she was doing for Osmond;
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it was what one had to do for Osmond! Pansy's solemn eyes, fixed on
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her own, almost embarrassed her; she was ashamed to think she had made
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so light of the girl's preference.
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"What should you like me to do?" her companion softly demanded.
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The question was a terrible one, and Isabel took refuge in
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timorous vagueness. "To remember all the pleasure it's in your power
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to give your father."
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"To marry some one else, you mean-if he should ask me?"
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For a moment Isabel's answer caused itself to be waited for; then
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she heard herself utter it in the stillness that Pansy's attention
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seemed to make.
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"Yes-to marry some one else."
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The child's eyes grew more penetrating; Isabel believed she was
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doubting her sincerity, and the impression took force from her
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slowly getting up from her cushion. She stood there a moment with
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her small hands unclasped and then quavered out: "Well, I hope no
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one will ask me!"
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"There has been a question of that. Some one else would have been
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ready to ask you."
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don't think he can have been ready," said Pansy.
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"It would appear so-if he had been sure he'd succeed."
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"If he had been sure? Then he wasn't ready!"
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Isabel thought this rather sharp; she also got up and stood a moment
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looking into the fire. "Lord Warburton has shown you great attention,"
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she resumed; "of course you know it's of him I speak." She found
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herself, against her expectation, almost placed in the position of
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justifying herself; which led her to introduce this nobleman more
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crudely than she had intended.
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"He has been very kind to me, and I like him very much. But if you
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mean that he'll propose for me I think you're mistaken."
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"Perhaps I am. But your father would like it extremely."
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Pansy shook her head with a little wise smile. "Lord Warburton won't
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propose simply to please papa."
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"Your father would like you to encourage him," Isabel went on
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mechanically.
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"How can I encourage him?"
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don't know. Your father must tell you that."
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Pansy said nothing for a moment; she only continued to smile as if
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she were in possession of a bright assurance. "There's no danger-no
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danger!" she declared at last.
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There was a conviction in the way she said this, and a felicity in
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her believing it, which conduced to Isabel's awkwardness. She felt
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accused of dishonesty, and the idea was disgusting. To repair her
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self-respect she was on the point of saying that Lord Warburton had
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let her know that there was a danger. But she didn't; she only said-in
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her embarrassment rather wide of the mark-that he surely had been most
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kind, most friendly.
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"Yes, he has been very kind," Pansy answered. "That's what I like
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him for."
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"Why then is the difficulty so great?"
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"I've always felt sure of his knowing that I don't want-what did you
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say I should do?-to encourage him. He knows I don't want to marry, and
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he wants me to know that he therefore won't trouble me. That's the
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meaning of his kindness. It's as if he said to me: 'I like you very
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much, but if it doesn't please you I'll never say it again.' I think
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that's very kind, very noble," Pansy went on with deepening
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positiveness. "That is all we've said to each other. And he doesn't
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care for me either. Ah no, there's no danger."
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Isabel was touched with wonder at the depths of perception of
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which this submissive little person was capable; she felt afraid of
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Pansy's wisdom-began almost to retreat before it. "You must tell
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your father that," she remarked reservedly.
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"I think I'd rather not," Pansy unreservedly answered.
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"You oughtn't to let him have false hopes."
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"Perhaps not; but it will be good for me that he should. So long
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as he believes that Lord Warburton intends anything of the kind you
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say, papa won't propose any one else. And that will be an advantage
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for me," said the child very lucidly.
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There was something brilliant in her lucidity, and it made her
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companion draw a long breath. It relieved this friend of a heavy
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responsibility. Pansy had a sufficient illumination of her own, and
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Isabel felt that she herself just now had no light to spare from her
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small stock. Nevertheless it still clung to her that she must be loyal
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to Osmond, that she was on her honour in dealing with his daughter.
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Under the influence of this sentiment she threw out another suggestion
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before she retired-a suggestion with which it seemed to her that she
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should have done her utmost. "Your father takes for granted at least
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that you would like to marry a nobleman."
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Pansy stood in the open doorway; she had drawn back the curtain
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for Isabel to pass. "I think Mr. Rosier looks like one!" she
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remarked very gravely.
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CHAPTER 46
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Lord Warburton was not seen in Mrs. Osmond's drawing-room for
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several days, and Isabel couldn't fail to observe that her husband
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said nothing to her about having received a letter from him. She
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couldn't fail to observe, either, that Osmond was in a state of
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expectancy and that, though it was not agreeable to him to betray
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it, he thought their distinguished friend kept him waiting quite too
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long. At the end of four days he alluded to his absence.
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"What has become of Warburton? What does he mean by treating one
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like a tradesman with a bill?"
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"I know nothing about him," Isabel said. "I saw him last Friday at
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the German ball. He told me then that he meant to write to you."
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"He has never written to me."
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"So I supposed, from your not having told me."
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"He's an odd fish," said Osmond comprehensively. And on Isabel's
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making no rejoinder he went on to enquire whether it took his lordship
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five days to indite a letter. "Does he form his words with such
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difficulty?"
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"I don't know," Isabel was reduced to replying. "I've never had a
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letter from him."
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"Never had a letter? I had an idea that you were at one time in
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intimate correspondence."
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She answered that this had not been the case, and let the
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conversation drop. On the morrow, however, coming into the
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drawing-room late in the afternoon, her husband took it up again.
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"When Lord Warburton told you of his intention of writing what did
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you say to him?" he asked.
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She just faltered. "I think I told him not to forget it."
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"Did you believe there was a danger of that?"
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"As you say, he's an odd fish."
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"Apparently he has forgotten it," said Osmond. "Be so good as to
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remind "Should you like me to write to him?" she demanded.
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"I've no objection whatever."
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"You expect too much of me."
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"Ah yes, I expect a great deal of you."
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"I'm afraid I shall disappoint you," said Isabel.
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"My expectations have survived a good deal of disappointment."
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"Of course I know that. Think how I must have disappointed myself!
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If you really wish hands laid on Lord Warburton you must lay them
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yourself."
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For a couple of minutes Osmond answered nothing; then he said: "That
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won't be easy, with you working against me."
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Isabel started; she felt herself beginning to tremble. He had a
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way of looking at her through half-closed eyelids, as if he were
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thinking of her but scarcely saw her, which seemed to her to have a
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wonderfully cruel intention. It appeared to recognize her as a
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disagreeable necessity of thought, but to ignore her for the time as a
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presence. That effect had never been so marked as now. "I think you
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accuse me of something very base," she returned.
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"I accuse you of not being trustworthy. If he doesn't after all come
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forward it will be because you've kept him off. I don't know that it's
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base: it is the kind of thing a woman always thinks she may do. I've
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no doubt you've the finest ideas about it."
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"I told you I would do what I could," she went on.
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"Yes, that gained you time."
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It came over her, after he had said this, that she had once
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thought him beautiful. "How much you must want to make sure of him!"
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she exclaimed in a moment.
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She had no sooner spoken than she perceived the full reach of her
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words, of which she had not been conscious in uttering them. They made
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a comparison between Osmond and herself, recalled the fact that she
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had once held this coveted treasure in her hand and felt herself
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rich enough to let it fall. A momentary exultation took possession
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of her-a horrible delight in having wounded him; for his face
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|
instantly told her that none of the force of her exclamation was lost.
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He expressed nothing otherwise, however; he only said quickly: "Yes, I
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want it immensely."
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At this moment a servant came in to usher a visitor, and he was
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followed the next by Lord Warburton, who received a visible check on
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seeing Osmond. He looked rapidly from the master of the house to the
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mistress; a movement that seemed to denote a reluctance to interrupt
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|
or even a perception of ominous conditions. Then he advanced, with his
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English address, in which a vague shyness seemed to offer itself as an
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|
element of good breeding; in which the only defect was a difficulty in
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achieving transitions. Osmond was embarrassed; he found nothing to
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say; but Isabel remarked, promptly enough, that they had been in the
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act of talking about their visitor. Upon this her husband added that
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they hadn't known what was become of him-they had been afraid he had
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gone away. "No," he explained, smiling and looking at Osmond; "I'm
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only on the point of going." And then he mentioned that he found
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himself suddenly recalled to England: he should start on the morrow or
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the day after. "I'm awfully sorry to leave poor Touchett!" he ended by
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exclaiming.
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For a moment neither of his companions spoke; Osmond only leaned
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back in his chair, listening. Isabel didn't look at him; she could
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only fancy how he looked. Her eyes were on their visitor's face, where
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they were the more free to rest that those of his lordship carefully
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|
avoided them. Yet Isabel was sure that had she met his glance she
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would have found it expressive. "You had better take poor Touchett
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with you," she heard her husband say, lightly enough, in a moment.
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"He had better wait for warmer weather," Lord Warburton answered. "I
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shouldn't advise him to travel just now."
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He sat there a quarter of an hour, talking as if he might not soon
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see them again-unless indeed they should come to England, a course
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he strongly recommended. Why shouldn't they come to England in the
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autumn?-that struck him as a very happy thought. It would give him
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|
such pleasure to do what he could for them-to have them come and spend
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|
a month with him. Osmond, by his own admission, had been to England
|
|
but once; which was an absurd state of things for a man of his leisure
|
|
and intelligence. It was just the country for him-he would be sure
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|
to get on well there. Then Lord Warburton asked Isabel if she
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|
remembered what a good time she had had there and if she didn't want
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|
to try it again. Didn't she want to see Gardencourt once more?
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|
Gardencourt was really very good. Touchett didn't take proper care
|
|
of it, but it was the sort of place you could hardly spoil by
|
|
letting it alone. Why didn't they come and pay Touchett a visit? He
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|
surely must have asked them. Hadn't asked them? What an ill-mannered
|
|
wretch!-and Lord Warburton promised to give the master of
|
|
Gardencourt a piece of his mind. Of course it was a mere accident;
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|
he would be delighted to have them. Spending a month with Touchett and
|
|
a month with himself, and seeing all the rest of the people they
|
|
must know there, they really wouldn't find it half bad. Lord Warburton
|
|
added that it would amuse Miss Osmond as well, who had told him that
|
|
she had never been to England and whom he had assured it was a country
|
|
she deserved to see. Of course she didn't need to go to England to
|
|
be admired-that was her fate everywhere; but she would be an immense
|
|
success there, she certainly would, if that was any inducement. He
|
|
asked if she were not at home: couldn't he say good-bye? Not that he
|
|
liked good-byes-he always funked them. When he left England the
|
|
other day he hadn't said good-bye to a two-legged creature. He had had
|
|
half a mind to leave Rome without troubling Mrs. Osmond for a final
|
|
interview. What could be more dreary than final interviews? One
|
|
never said the things one wanted-one remembered them all an hour
|
|
afterwards. On the other hand one usually said a lot of things one
|
|
shouldn't, simply from a sense that one had to say something. Such a
|
|
sense was upsetting; it muddled one's wits. He had it at present,
|
|
and that was the effect it produced on him. If Mrs. Osmond didn't
|
|
think he spoke as he ought she must set it down to agitation; it was
|
|
no light thing to part with Mrs. Osmond. He was really very sorry to
|
|
be going. He had thought of writing to her instead of calling-but he
|
|
would write to her at any rate, to tell her a lot of things that would
|
|
be sure to occur to him as soon as he had left the house. They must
|
|
think seriously about coming to Lockleigh.
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|
|
If there was anything awkward in the conditions of his visit or in
|
|
the announcement of his departure it failed to come to the surface.
|
|
Lord Warburton talked about his agitation; but he showed it in no
|
|
other manner, and Isabel saw that since he had determined on a retreat
|
|
he was capable of executing it gallantly. She was very glad for him;
|
|
she liked him quite well enough to wish him to appear to carry a thing
|
|
off. He would do that on any occasion-not from impudence but simply
|
|
from the habit of success; and Isabel felt it out of her husband's
|
|
power to frustrate this faculty. A complex operation, as she sat
|
|
there, went on in her mind. On one side she listened to their visitor;
|
|
said what was proper to him; read, more or less, between the lines
|
|
of what he said himself; and wondered how he would have spoken if he
|
|
had found her alone. On the other she had a perfect consciousness of
|
|
Osmond's emotion. She felt almost sorry for him; he was condemned to
|
|
the sharp pain of loss without the relief of cursing. He had had a
|
|
great hope, and now, as he saw it vanish into smoke, he was obliged to
|
|
sit and smile and twirl his thumbs. Not that he troubled himself to
|
|
smile very brightly; he treated their friend on the whole to as vacant
|
|
a countenance as so clever a man could very well wear. It was indeed a
|
|
part of Osmond's cleverness that he could look consummately
|
|
uncompromised. His present appearance, however, was not a confession
|
|
of disappointment; it was simply a part of Osmond's habitual system,
|
|
which was to be inexpressive exactly in proportion as he was really
|
|
intent. He had been intent on this prize from the first; but he had
|
|
never allowed his eagerness to irradiate his refined face. He had
|
|
treated his possible son-in-law as he treated every one-with an air of
|
|
being interested in him only for his own advantage, not for any profit
|
|
to a person already so generally, so perfectly provided as Gilbert
|
|
Osmond. He would give no sign now of an inward rage which was the
|
|
result of a vanished prospect of gain-not the faintest nor subtlest.
|
|
Isabel could be sure of that, if it was any satisfaction to her.
|
|
Strangely, very strangely, it was a satisfaction; she wished Lord
|
|
Warburton to triumph before her husband, and at the same time she
|
|
wished her husband to be very superior before Lord Warburton.
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|
Osmond, in his way, was admirable; he had, like their visitor, the
|
|
advantage of an acquired habit. It was not that of succeeding, but
|
|
it was something almost as good-that of not attempting. As he leaned
|
|
back in his place, listening but vaguely to the other's friendly
|
|
offers and suppressed explanations if it were only proper to assume
|
|
that they were addressed essentially to his wife-he had at least
|
|
(since so little else was left him) the comfort of thinking how well
|
|
he personally had kept out of it, and how the air of indifference,
|
|
which he was now able to wear, had the added beauty of consistency. It
|
|
was something to be able to look as if the leave-taker's movements had
|
|
no relation to his own mind. The latter did well, certainly; but
|
|
Osmond's performance was in its very nature more finished. Lord
|
|
Warburton's position was after all an easy one; there was no reason in
|
|
the world why he shouldn't leave Rome. He had had beneficent
|
|
inclinations, but they had stopped short of fruition; he had never
|
|
committed himself, and his honour was safe. Osmond appeared to take
|
|
but a moderate interest in the proposal that they should go and stay
|
|
with him and in his allusion to the success Pansy might extract from
|
|
their visit. He murmured a recognition, but left Isabel to say that it
|
|
was a matter requiring grave consideration. Isabel, even while she
|
|
made this remark, could see the great vista which had suddenly
|
|
opened out in her husband's mind, with Pansy's little figure
|
|
marching up the middle of it.
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|
|
|
Lord Warburton had asked leave to bid good-bye to Pansy, but neither
|
|
Isabel nor Osmond had made any motion to send for her. He had the
|
|
air of giving out that his visit must be short; he sat on a small
|
|
chair, as if it were only for a moment, keeping his hat in his hand.
|
|
But he stayed and stayed; Isabel wondered what he was waiting for. She
|
|
believed it was not to see Pansy; she had an impression that on the
|
|
whole he would rather not see Pansy. It was of course to see herself
|
|
alone-he had something to say to her. Isabel had no great wish to hear
|
|
it, for she was afraid it would be an explanation, and she could
|
|
perfectly dispense with explanations. Osmond, however, presently got
|
|
up, like a man of good taste to whom it had occurred that so
|
|
inveterate a visitor might wish to say just the last word of all to
|
|
the ladies. "I've a letter to write before dinner," he said; "you must
|
|
excuse me. I'll see if my daughter's disengaged, and if she is she
|
|
shall know you're here. Of course when you come to Rome you'll
|
|
always look us up. Mrs. Osmond will talk to you about the English
|
|
expedition: she decides all those things."
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|
|
|
The nod with which, instead of a hand-shake, he wound up this little
|
|
speech was perhaps rather a meagre form of salutation; but on the
|
|
whole it was all the occasion demanded. Isabel reflected that after he
|
|
left the room Lord Warburton would have no pretext for saying, "Your
|
|
husband's very angry"; which would have been extremely disagreeable to
|
|
her. Nevertheless, if he had done so, she would have said: "Oh,
|
|
don't be anxious. He doesn't hate you: it's me that he hates!"
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|
|
|
It was only when they had been left alone together that her friend
|
|
showed a certain vague awkwardness-sitting down in another chair,
|
|
handling two or three of the objects that were near him. "I hope he'll
|
|
make Miss Osmond come," he presently remarked. "I want very much to
|
|
see her."
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|
|
|
"I'm glad it's the last time," said Isabel.
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|
"So am I. She doesn't care for me."
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|
"No, she doesn't care for you."
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|
"I don't wonder at it," he returned. Then he added with
|
|
inconsequence:
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|
|
"You'll come to England, won't you?"
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|
|
"I think we had better not."
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|
|
|
"Ah, you owe me a visit. Don't you remember that you were to have
|
|
come to Lockleigh once, and you never did?"
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|
|
|
"Everything's changed since then," said Isabel.
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|
|
|
"Not changed for the worse, surely-as far as we're concerned. To see
|
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you under my roof"-and he hung fire but an instant-"would be a great
|
|
satisfaction."
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|
|
|
She had feared an explanation; but that was the only one that
|
|
occurred. They talked a little of Ralph, and in another moment Pansy
|
|
came in, already dressed for dinner and with a little red spot in
|
|
either cheek. She shook hands with Lord Warburton and stood looking up
|
|
into his face with a fixed smile-a smile that Isabel knew, though
|
|
his lordship probably never suspected it, to be near akin to a burst
|
|
of tears.
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|
|
|
"I'm going away," he said. "I want to bid you good-bye."
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|
|
|
"Good-bye, Lord Warburton." Her voice perceptibly trembled.
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|
|
"And I want to tell you how much I wish you may be very happy."
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|
"Thank you, Lord Warburton," Pansy answered.
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|
|
|
He lingered a moment and gave a glance at Isabel. "You ought to be
|
|
very happy-you've got a guardian angel."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure I shall be happy," said Pansy in the tone of a person
|
|
whose certainties were always cheerful.
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|
|
|
"Such a conviction as that will take you a great way. But if it
|
|
should ever fail you, remember-remember-" And her interlocutor
|
|
stammered a little. "Think of me sometimes, you know!" he said with
|
|
a vague laugh. Then he shook hands with Isabel in silence, and
|
|
presently he was gone.
|
|
|
|
When he had left the room she expected an effusion of tears from her
|
|
stepdaughter; but Pansy in fact treated her to something very
|
|
different.
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"I think you are my guardian angel!" she exclaimed very sweetly.
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Isabel shook her head. "I'm not an angel of any kind. I'm at the
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most your good friend."
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"You're a very good friend then-to have asked papa to be gentle with
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me."
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"I've asked your father nothing," said Isabel wondering.
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"He told me just now to come to the drawing-room, and then he gave
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me a very kind kiss."
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"Ah," said Isabel, "that was quite his own idea!
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She recognized the idea perfectly; it was very characteristic, and
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she was to see a great deal more of it. Even with Pansy he couldn't
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put himself the least in the wrong. They were dining out that day, and
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after their dinner they went to another entertainment; so that it
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was not till late in the evening that Isabel saw him alone. When Pansy
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kissed him before going to bed he returned her embrace with even
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more than his usual munificence, and Isabel wondered if he meant it as
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a hint that his daughter had been injured by the machinations of her
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stepmother. It was a partial expression, at any rate, of what he
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continued to expect of his wife. She was about to follow Pansy, but he
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remarked that he wished she would remain; he had something to say to
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her. Then he walked about the drawing-room a little, while she stood
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waiting in her cloak.
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"I don't understand what you wish to do," he said in a moment. "I
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should like to know-so that I may know how to act."
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"Just now I wish to go to bed. I'm very tired."
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"Sit down and rest; I shall not keep you long. Not there-take a
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comfortable place." And he arranged a multitude of cushions that
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were scattered in picturesque disorder upon a vast divan. This was
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not, however, where she seated herself; she dropped into the nearest
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chair. The fire had gone out; the lights in the great room were few.
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She drew her cloak about her; she felt mortally cold. "I think
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you're trying to humiliate me," Osmond went on. "It's a most absurd
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undertaking."
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"I haven't the least idea what you mean," she returned.
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"You've played a very deep game; you've managed it beautifully."
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"What is it that I've managed?"
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"You've not quite settled it, however; we shall see him again."
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And he stopped in front of her, with his hands in his pockets, looking
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down at her thoughtfully, in his usual way, which seemed meant to
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let her know that she was not an object, but only a rather
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disagreeable incident, of thought.
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"If you mean that Lord Warburton's under an obligation to come
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back you're wrong," Isabel said. "He's under none whatever."
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"That's just what I complain of. But when I say he'll come back I
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don't mean he'll come from a sense of duty."
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"There's nothing else to make him. I think he has quite exhausted
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Rome."
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"Ah no, that's a shallow judgement. Rome's inexhaustible." And
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Osmond began to walk about again. "However, about that perhaps there's
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no hurry," he added. "It's rather a good idea of his that we should go
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to England. If it were not for the fear of finding your cousin there I
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think I should try to persuade you."
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"It may be that you'll not find my cousin," said Isabel.
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"I should like to be sure of it. However, I shall be as sure as
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possible. At the same time I should like to see his house, that you
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told me so much about at one time: what do you call it?-Gardencourt.
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It must be a charming thing. And then, you know, I've a devotion to
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the memory of your uncle: you made me take a great fancy to him. I
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should like to see where he lived and died. That indeed is a detail.
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Your friend was right. Pansy ought to see England."
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"I've no doubt she would enjoy it," said Isabel.
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"But that's a long time hence; next autumn's far off," Osmond
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continued; "and meantime there are things that more nearly interest
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us. Do you think me so very proud?" he suddenly asked.
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"I think you very strange."
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"You don't understand me."
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"No, not even when you insult me."
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"I don't insult you; I'm incapable of it. I merely speak of
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certain facts, and if the allusion's an injury to you the fault's
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not mine. It's surely a fact that you have kept all this matter
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quite in your own hands."
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"Are you going back to Lord Warburton?" Isabel asked. "I'm very
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tired of his name."
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"You shall hear it again before we've done with it."
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She had spoken of his insulting her, but it suddenly seemed to her
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that this ceased to be a pain. He was going down-down; the vision of
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such a fall made her almost giddy: that was the only pain. He was
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too strange, too different; he didn't touch her. Still, the working of
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his morbid passion was extraordinary, and she felt a rising
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curiosity to know in what light he saw himself justified. "I might say
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to you that I judge you've nothing to say to me that's worth hearing,"
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she returned in a moment. "But I should perhaps be wrong. There's a
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thing that would be worth my hearing-to know in the plainest words
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of what it is you accuse me."
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"Of having prevented Pansy's marriage to Warburton. Are those
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words plain enough?"
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"On the contrary, I took a great interest in it. I told you so;
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and when you told me that you counted on me-that I think was what
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you said-I accepted the obligation. I was a fool to do so, but I did
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it."
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"You pretended to do it, and you even pretended reluctance to make
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me more willing to trust you. Then you began to use your ingenuity
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to get him out of the way."
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"I think I see what you mean," said Isabel.
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"Where's the letter you told me he had written me?" her husband
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demanded.
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"I haven't the least idea; I haven't asked him."
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"You stopped it on the way," said Osmond.
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Isabel slowly got up; standing there in her white cloak, which
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covered her to her feet, she might have represented the angel of
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disdain, first cousin to that of pity. "Oh, Gilbert, for a man who was
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so fine-!" she exclaimed in a long murmur.
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"I was never so fine as you. You've done everything you wanted.
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You've got him out of the way without appearing to do so, and you've
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placed me in the position in which you wished to see me-that of a
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man who has tried to marry his daughter to a lord, but has grotesquely
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failed."
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"Pansy doesn't care for him. She's very glad he's gone," Isabel
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said.
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"That has nothing to do with the matter."
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"And he doesn't care for Pansy."
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"That won't do; you told me he did. I don't know why you wanted this
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particular satisfaction," Osmond continued; "you might have taken some
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other. It doesn't seem to me that I've been presumptuous-that I have
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|
taken too much for granted. I've been very modest about it, very
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quiet. The idea didn't originate with me. He began to show that he
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liked her before I ever thought of it. I left it all to you."
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"Yes, you were very glad to leave it to me. After this you must
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attend to such things yourself."
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He looked at her a moment; then he turned away. "I thought you
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were very fond of my daughter."
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"I've never been more so than to-day."
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"Your affection is attended with immense limitations. However,
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that perhaps is natural."
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"Is this all you wished to say to me?" Isabel asked, taking a candle
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that stood on one of the tables.
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"Are you satisfied? Am I sufficiently disappointed?"
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"I don't think that on the whole you're disappointed. You've had
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another opportunity to try to stupefy me."
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"It's not that. It's proved that Pansy can aim high."
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"Poor little Pansy!" said Isabel as she turned away with her candle.
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CHAPTER 47
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It was from Henrietta Stackpole that she learned how Caspar Goodwood
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had come to Rome; an event that took place three days after Lord
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|
Warburton's departure. This latter fact had been preceded by an
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|
incident of mg I some importance to Isabel-the temporary absence, once
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|
again, of Madame Merle, who had gone to Naples to stay with a
|
|
friend, the happy possessor of a villa at Posilippo. Madame Merle
|
|
had ceased to minister to Isabel's happiness, who found herself
|
|
wondering whether the most discreet of women might not also by
|
|
chance be the most dangerous. Sometimes, at night, she had strange
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|
visions; she seemed to see her husband and her friend-his friend-in
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|
dim, indistinguishable combination. It seemed to her that she had
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|
not done with her; this lady had something in reserve. Isabel's
|
|
imagination applied itself actively to this elusive point, but every
|
|
now and then it was checked by a nameless dread, so that when the
|
|
charming woman was away from Rome she had almost a consciousness of
|
|
respite. She had already learned from Miss Stackpole that Caspar
|
|
Goodwood was in Europe, Henrietta having written to make it known to
|
|
her immediately after meeting him in Paris. He himself never wrote
|
|
to Isabel, and though he was in Europe she thought it very possible he
|
|
might not desire to see her. Their last interview, before her
|
|
marriage, had had quite the character of a complete rupture; if she
|
|
remembered rightly he had said he wished to take his last look at her.
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|
Since then he had been the most discordant survival of her earlier
|
|
time-the only one in fact with which a permanent pain was
|
|
associated. He had left her that morning with a sense of the most
|
|
superfluous of shocks: it was like a collision between vessels in
|
|
broad daylight. There had been no mist, no hidden current to excuse
|
|
it, and she herself had only wished to steer wide. He had bumped
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|
against her prow, however, while her hand was on the tiller, and-to
|
|
complete the metaphor-had given the lighter vessel a strain which
|
|
still occasionally betrayed itself in a faint creaking. It had been
|
|
horrid to see him, because he represented the only serious harm that
|
|
(to her belief) she had ever done in the world: he was the only person
|
|
with an unsatisfied claim on her. She had made him unhappy, she
|
|
couldn't help it; and his unhappiness was a grim reality. She had
|
|
cried with rage, after he had left her, at-she hardly knew what: she
|
|
tried to think it had been at his want of consideration. He had come
|
|
to her with his unhappiness when her own bliss was so perfect; he
|
|
had done his best to darken the brightness of those pure rays. He
|
|
had not been violent, and yet there had been a violence in the
|
|
impression. There had been a violence at any rate in something
|
|
somewhere; perhaps it was only in her own fit of weeping and in that
|
|
after-sense of the same which had lasted three or four days.
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|
|
|
The effect of his final appeal had in short faded away, and all
|
|
the first year of her marriage he had dropped out of her books. He was
|
|
a thankless subject of reference; it was disagreeable to have to think
|
|
of a person who was sore and sombre about you and whom you could yet
|
|
do nothing to relieve. It would have been different if she had been
|
|
able to doubt, even a little, of his unreconciled state, as she
|
|
doubted of Lord Warburton's; unfortunately it was beyond question, and
|
|
this aggressive, uncompromising look of it was just what made it
|
|
unattractive. She could never say to herself that here was a
|
|
sufferer who had compensations, as she was able to say in the case
|
|
of her English suitor. She had no faith in Mr. Goodwood's
|
|
compensations and no esteem for them. A cotton-factory was not a
|
|
compensation for anything-least of all for having failed to marry
|
|
Isabel Archer. And yet, beyond that, she hardly knew what he
|
|
had-save of course his intrinsic qualities. Oh, he was intrinsic
|
|
enough; she never thought of his even looking for artificial aids.
|
|
If he extended his business-that, to the best of her belief, was the
|
|
only form exertion could take with him-it would be because it was an
|
|
enterprising thing, or good for the business; not in the least because
|
|
he might hope it would overlay the past. This gave his figure a kind
|
|
of bareness and bleakness which made the accident of meeting it in
|
|
memory or in apprehension a peculiar concussion; it was deficient in
|
|
the social drapery commonly muffling, in an overcivilized age, the
|
|
sharpness of human contacts. His perfect silence, moreover, the fact
|
|
that she never heard from him and very seldom heard any mention of
|
|
him, deepened this impression of his loneliness. She asked Lily for
|
|
news of him, from time to time; but Lily knew nothing of Boston-her
|
|
imagination was all bounded on the east by Madison Avenue. As time
|
|
went on Isabel had thought of him oftener, and with fewer
|
|
restrictions; she had had more than once the idea of writing to him.
|
|
She had never told her husband about him-never let Osmond know of
|
|
his visits to her in Florence; a reserve not dictated in the early
|
|
period by a want of confidence in Osmond, but simply by the
|
|
consideration that the young man's disappointment was not her secret
|
|
but his own. It would be wrong of her, she had believed, to convey
|
|
it to another, and Mr. Goodwood's affairs could have, after all,
|
|
little interest for Gilbert. When it had come to the point she had
|
|
never written to him; it seemed to her that, considering his
|
|
grievance, the least she could do was to let him alone. Nevertheless
|
|
she would have been glad to be in some way nearer to him. It was not
|
|
that it ever occurred to her that she might have married him; even
|
|
after the consequences of her actual union had grown vivid to her that
|
|
particular reflection, though she indulged in so many, had not had the
|
|
assurance to present itself. But on finding herself in trouble he
|
|
had become a member of that circle of things with which she wished
|
|
to set herself right. I have mentioned how passionately she needed
|
|
to feel that her unhappiness should not have come to her through her
|
|
own fault. She had no near prospect of dying, and yet she wished to
|
|
make her peace with the world-to put her spiritual affairs in order.
|
|
It came back to her from time to time that there was an account
|
|
still to be settled with Caspar, and she saw herself disposed or
|
|
able to settle it to-day on terms easier for him than ever before.
|
|
Still, when she learned he was coming to Rome she felt all afraid;
|
|
it would be more disagreeable for him than for any one else to make
|
|
out-since he would make it out, as over a falsified balance-sheet or
|
|
something of that sort-the intimate disarray of her affairs. Deep in
|
|
her breast she believed that he had invested his all in her happiness,
|
|
while the others had invested only a part. He was one more person from
|
|
whom she should have to conceal her stress. She was reassured,
|
|
however, after he arrived in Rome, for he spent several days without
|
|
coming to see her.
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|
|
|
Henrietta Stackpole, it may well be imagined, was much more
|
|
punctual, and Isabel was largely favoured with the society of her
|
|
friend. She threw herself into it, for now that she had made such a
|
|
point of keeping her conscience clear, that was one way of proving she
|
|
had not been superficial-the more so as the years, in their flight,
|
|
had rather enriched than blighted those peculiarities which had been
|
|
humorously criticized by persons less interested than Isabel, and
|
|
which were still marked enough to give loyalty a spice of heroism.
|
|
Henrietta was as keen and quick and fresh as ever, and as neat and
|
|
bright and fair. Her remarkably open eyes, lighted like great glazed
|
|
railway-stations, had put up no shutters; her attire had lost none
|
|
of its crispness, her opinions none of their national reference. She
|
|
was by no means quite unchanged, however; it struck Isabel she had
|
|
grown vague. Of old she had never been vague; though undertaking
|
|
many enquiries at once, she had managed to be entire and pointed about
|
|
each. She had a reason for everything she did; she fairly bristled
|
|
with motives. Formerly, when she came to Europe it was because she
|
|
wished to see it, but now, having already seen it, she had no such
|
|
excuse. She didn't for a moment pretend that the desire to examine
|
|
decaying civilizations had anything to do with her present enterprise;
|
|
her journey was rather an expression of her independence of the old
|
|
world than of a sense of further obligations to it. "It's nothing to
|
|
come to Europe," she said to Isabel; "it doesn't seem to me one
|
|
needs so many reasons for that. It is something to stay at home;
|
|
this is much more important." It was not therefore with a sense of
|
|
doing anything very important that she treated herself to another
|
|
pilgrimage to Rome; she had seen the place before and carefully
|
|
inspected it; her present act was simply a sign of familiarity, of her
|
|
knowing all about it, of her having as good a right as any one else to
|
|
be there. This was all very well, and Henrietta was restless; she
|
|
had a perfect right to be restless too, if one came to that. But she
|
|
had after all a better reason for coming to Rome than that she cared
|
|
for it so little. Her friend easily recognized it, and with it the
|
|
worth of the other's fidelity. She had crossed the stormy ocean in
|
|
midwinter because she had guessed that Isabel was sad. Henrietta
|
|
guessed a great deal, but she had never guessed so happily as that.
|
|
Isabel's satisfactions just now were few, but even if they had been
|
|
more numerous there would still have been something of individual
|
|
joy in her sense of being justified in having always thought highly of
|
|
Henrietta. She had made large concessions with regard to her, and
|
|
had yet insisted that, with all abatements, she was very valuable.
|
|
It was not her own triumph, however, that she found good; it was
|
|
simply the relief of confessing to this confidant, the first person to
|
|
whom she had owned it, that she was not in the least at her ease.
|
|
Henrietta had herself approached this point with the smallest possible
|
|
delay, and had accused her to her face of being wretched. She was a
|
|
woman, she was a sister; she was not Ralph, nor Lord Warburton, nor
|
|
Caspar Goodwood, and Isabel could speak.
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|
|
|
"Yes, I'm wretched," she said very mildly. She hated to hear herself
|
|
say it; she tried to say it as judicially as possible.
|
|
|
|
"What does he do to you?" Henrietta asked, frowning as if she were
|
|
enquiring into the operations of a quack doctor.
|
|
|
|
"He does nothing. But he doesn't like me."
|
|
|
|
"He's very hard to please!" cried Miss Stackpole. "Why don't you
|
|
leave him?"
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|
|
|
"I can't change that way," Isabel said.
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|
|
|
"Why not, I should like to know? You won't confess that you've
|
|
made a mistake. You're too proud."
|
|
|
|
"I don't know whether I'm too proud. But I can't publish my mistake.
|
|
I don't think that's decent. I'd much rather die."
|
|
|
|
"You won't think so always," said Henrietta.
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|
|
|
"I don't know what great unhappiness might bring me to; but it seems
|
|
to me I shall always be ashamed. One must accept one's deeds. I
|
|
married him before all the world; I was perfectly free; it was
|
|
impossible to do anything more deliberate. One can't change that way,"
|
|
Isabel repeated.
|
|
|
|
"You have changed, in spite of the impossibility. I hope you don't
|
|
mean to say you like him."
|
|
|
|
Isabel debated. "No, I don't like him. I can tell you, because I'm
|
|
weary of my secret. But that's enough; I can't announce it on the
|
|
housetops."
|
|
|
|
Henrietta gave a laugh. "Don't you think you're rather too
|
|
considerate?"
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|
|
|
"It's not of him that I'm considerate-it's of myself!" Isabel
|
|
answered.
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|
|
|
It was not surprising Gilbert Osmond should not have taken comfort
|
|
in Miss Stackpole; his instinct had naturally set him in opposition to
|
|
a young lady capable of advising his wife to withdraw from the
|
|
conjugal roof.
|
|
|
|
When she arrived in Rome he had said to Isabel that he hoped she
|
|
would leave her friend the interviewer alone; and Isabel had
|
|
answered that he at least had nothing to fear from her. She said to
|
|
Henrietta that as Osmond didn't like her she couldn't invite her to
|
|
dine, but they could easily see each other in other ways. Isabel
|
|
received Miss Stackpole freely in her own sitting-room, and took her
|
|
repeatedly to drive, face to face with Pansy, who, bending a little
|
|
forward, on the opposite seat of the carriage, gazed at the celebrated
|
|
authoress with a respectful attention which Henrietta occasionally
|
|
found irritating. She complained to Isabel that Miss Osmond had a
|
|
little look as if she should remember everything one said. "I don't
|
|
want to be remembered that way," Miss Stackpole declared; "I
|
|
consider that my conversation refers only to the moment, like the
|
|
morning papers. Your stepdaughter, as she sits there, looks as if
|
|
she kept all the back numbers and would bring them out some day
|
|
against me." She could not teach herself to think favourably of Pansy,
|
|
whose absence of initiative, of conversation, of personal claims,
|
|
seemed to her, in a girl of twenty, unnatural and even uncanny. Isabel
|
|
presently saw that Osmond would have liked her to urge a little the
|
|
cause of her friend, insist a little upon his receiving her, so that
|
|
he might appear to suffer for good manners' sake. Her immediate
|
|
acceptance of his objections put him too much in the wrong-it being in
|
|
effect one of the disadvantages of expressing contempt that you cannot
|
|
enjoy at the same time the credit of expressing sympathy. Osmond
|
|
held to his credit, and yet he held to his objections-all of which
|
|
were elements difficult to reconcile. The right thing would have
|
|
been that Miss Stackpole should come to dine at Palazzo Roccanera once
|
|
or twice, so that (in spite of his superficial civility, always so
|
|
great) she might judge for herself how little pleasure it gave him.
|
|
From the moment, however, that both the ladies were so
|
|
unaccommodating, there was nothing for Osmond but to wish the lady
|
|
from New York would take herself off. It was surprising how little
|
|
satisfaction he got from his wife's friends; he took occasion to
|
|
call Isabel's attention to it.
|
|
|
|
"You're certainly not fortunate in your intimates; I wish you
|
|
might make a new collection," he said to her one morning in
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reference to nothing visible at the moment, but in a tone of ripe
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reflection which deprived the remark of all brutal abruptness. "It's
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as if you had taken the trouble to pick out the people in the world
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that I have least in common with. Your cousin I have always thought
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a conceited ass-besides his being the most ill-favoured animal I know.
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Then it's insufferably tiresome that one can't tell him so; one must
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spare him on account of his health. His health seems to me the best
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part of him; it gives him privileges enjoyed by no one else. If he's
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so desperately ill there's only one way to prove it; but he seems to
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have no mind for that. I can't say much more for the great
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Warburton. When one really thinks of it, the cool insolence of that
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performance was something rare! He comes and looks at one's daughter
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as if she were a suite of apartments; he tries the door-handles and
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looks out of the windows, raps on the walls and almost thinks he'll
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take the place. Will you be so good as to draw up a lease? Then, on
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the whole, he decides that the rooms are too small; he doesn't think
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he could live on a third floor; he must look out for a piano nobile.
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And he goes away after having got a month's lodging in the poor little
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apartment for nothing. Miss Stackpole, however, is your most wonderful
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invention. She strikes me as a kind of monster. One hasn't a nerve
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in one's body that she doesn't set quivering. You know I never have
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admitted that she's a woman. Do you know what she reminds me of? Of
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a new steel pen-the most odious thing in nature. She talks as a
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steel pen writes; aren't her letters, by the way, on ruled paper?
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She thinks and moves and walks and looks exactly as she talks. You may
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say that she doesn't hurt me, inasmuch as I don't see her. I don't see
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her, but I hear her; I hear her all day long. Her voice is in my ears;
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I can't get rid of it. I know exactly what she says, and every
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inflexion of the tone in which she says it. She says charming things
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about me, and they give you great comfort. I don't like at all to
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think she talks about me-I feel as I should feel if I knew the footman
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were wearing my hat."
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Henrietta talked about Gilbert Osmond, as his wife assured him,
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rather less than he suspected. She had plenty of other subjects, in
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two of which the reader may be supposed to be especially interested.
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She let her friend know that Caspar Goodwood had discovered for
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himself that she was unhappy, though indeed her ingenuity was unable
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to suggest what comfort he hoped to give her by coming to Rome and yet
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not calling on her. They met him twice in the street, but he had no
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appearance of seeing them; they were driving, and he had a habit of
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looking straight in front of him, as if he proposed to take in but one
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|
object at a time. Isabel could have fancied she had seen him the day
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|
before; it must have been with just that face and step that he had
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|
walked out of Mrs. Touchett's door at the close of their last
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|
interview. He was dressed just as he had been dressed on that day,
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Isabel remembered the colour of his cravat; and yet in spite of this
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familiar look there was a strangeness in his figure too, something
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that made her feel it afresh to be rather terrible he should have come
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to Rome. He looked bigger and more overtopping than of old, and in
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those days he certainly reached high enough. She noticed that the
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|
people whom he passed looked back after him; but he went straight
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|
forward, lifting above them a face like a February sky.
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Miss Stackpole's other topic was very different; she gave Isabel the
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|
latest news about Mr. Bantling. He had been out in the United States
|
|
the year before, and she was happy to say she had been able to show
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|
him considerable attention. She didn't know how much he had enjoyed
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|
it, but she would undertake to say it had done him good; he wasn't the
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|
same man when he left as he had been when he came. It had opened his
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|
eyes and shown him that England wasn't everything. He had been very
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|
much liked in most places, and thought extremely simple-more simple
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|
than the English were commonly supposed to be. There were people who
|
|
had thought him affected; she didn't know whether they meant that
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|
his simplicity was an affectation. Some of his questions were too
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|
discouraging; he thought all the chambermaids were farmers'
|
|
daughters-or all the farmers' daughters were chambermaids-she couldn't
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|
exactly remember which. He hadn't seemed able to grasp the great
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|
school system; it had been really too much for him. On the whole he
|
|
had behaved as if there were too much of everything-a if he could only
|
|
take in a small part. The part he had chosen was the hotel system
|
|
and the river navigation. He had seemed really fascinated with the
|
|
hotels; he had a photograph of every one he had visited. But the river
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|
steamers were his principal interest; he wanted to do nothing but sail
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|
on the big boats. They had travelled together from New York to
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|
Milwaukee, stopping at the most interesting cities on the route; and
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|
whenever they started afresh he had wanted to know if they could go by
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|
the steamer. He seemed to have no idea of geography-had an
|
|
impression that Baltimore was a Western city and was perpetually
|
|
expecting to arrive at the Mississippi. He appeared never to have
|
|
heard of any river in America but the Mississippi and was unprepared
|
|
to recognize the existence of the Hudson, though obliged to confess at
|
|
last that it was fully equal to the Rhine. They had spent some
|
|
pleasant hours in the palace-cars; he was always ordering ice-cream
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|
from the coloured man. He could never get used to that idea-that you
|
|
could get ice-cream in the cars. Of course you couldn't, nor fans, nor
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|
candy, nor anything in the English cars! He found the heat quite
|
|
overwhelming, and she had told him she indeed expected it was the
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|
biggest he had ever experienced. He was now in England,
|
|
hunting-"hunting round" Henrietta called it. These amusements were
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|
those of the American red men; we had left that behind long ago, the
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|
pleasures of the chase. It seemed to be generally believed in
|
|
England that we wore tomahawks and feathers; but such a costume was
|
|
more in keeping with English habits. Mr. Bantling would not have
|
|
time to join her in Italy, but when she should go to Paris again he
|
|
expected to come over. He wanted very much to see Versailles again; he
|
|
was very fond of the ancient regime.
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|
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|
They didn't agree about that, but that was what she liked Versailles
|
|
for, that you could see the ancient rigime had been swept away.
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|
There were no dukes and marquises there now; she remembered on the
|
|
contrary one day when there were five American families, walking all
|
|
round. Mr. Bantling was very anxious that she should take up the
|
|
subject of England again, and he thought she might get on better
|
|
with it now; England had changed a good deal within two or three
|
|
years. He was determined that if she went there he should go to see
|
|
his sister, Lady Pensil, and that this time the invitation should come
|
|
to her straight. The mystery about that other one had never been
|
|
explained.
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|
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|
Caspar Goodwood came at last to Palazzo Roccanera; he had written
|
|
Isabel a note beforehand, to ask leave. This was promptly granted; she
|
|
would be at home at six o'clock that afternoon. She spent the day
|
|
wondering what he was coming for-what good he expected to get of it.
|
|
He had presented himself hitherto as a person destitute of the faculty
|
|
of compromise, who would take what he had asked for or take nothing.
|
|
Isabel's hospitality, however, raised no questions, and she found no
|
|
great difficulty in appearing happy enough to deceive him. It was
|
|
her conviction at least that she deceived him, made him say to himself
|
|
that he had been misinformed. But she also saw, so she believed,
|
|
that he was not disappointed, as some other men, she was sure, would
|
|
have been; he had not come to Rome to look for an opportunity. She
|
|
never found out what he had come for; he offered her no explanation;
|
|
there could be none but the very simple one that he wanted to see her.
|
|
In other words he had come for his amusement. Isabel followed up
|
|
this induction with a good deal of eagerness, and was delighted to
|
|
have found a formula that would lay the ghost of this gentleman's
|
|
ancient grievance. If he had come to Rome for his amusement this was
|
|
exactly what she wanted; for if he cared for amusement he had got over
|
|
his heartache. If he had got over his heartache everything was as it
|
|
should be and her responsibilities were at an end. It was true that he
|
|
took his recreation a little stiffly, but he had never been loose
|
|
and easy and she had every reason to believe he was satisfied with
|
|
what he saw. Henrietta was not in his confidence, though he was in
|
|
hers, and Isabel consequently received no side-light upon his state of
|
|
mind. He was open to little conversation on general topics; it came
|
|
back to her that she had said of him once, years before, "Mr. Goodwood
|
|
speaks a good deal, but he doesn't talk." He spoke a good deal now,
|
|
but he talked perhaps as little as ever; considering, that is, how
|
|
much there was in Rome to talk about. His arrival was not calculated
|
|
to simplify her relations with her husband, for if Mr. Osmond didn't
|
|
like her friends Mr. Goodwood had no claim upon his attention save
|
|
as having been one of the first of them. There was nothing for her
|
|
to say of him but that he was the very oldest; this rather meagre
|
|
synthesis exhausted the facts. She had been obliged to introduce him
|
|
to Gilbert; it was impossible she should not ask him to dinner, to her
|
|
Thursday evenings, of which she had grown very weary, but to which her
|
|
husband still held for the sake not so much of inviting people as of
|
|
not inviting them.
|
|
|
|
To the Thursdays Mr. Goodwood came regularly, solemnly, rather
|
|
early; he appeared to regard them with a good deal of gravity.
|
|
Isabel every now and then had a moment of anger; there was something
|
|
so literal about him; she thought he might know that she didn't know
|
|
what to do with him. But she couldn't call him stupid; he was not that
|
|
in the least; he was only extraordinarily honest. To be as honest as
|
|
that made a man very different from most people; one had to be
|
|
almost equally honest with him. She made this latter reflection at the
|
|
very time she was flattering herself she had persuaded him that she
|
|
was the most light-hearted of women. He never threw any doubt on
|
|
this point, never asked her any personal questions. He got on much
|
|
better with Osmond than had seemed probable. Osmond had a great
|
|
dislike to being counted on; in such a case he had an irresistible
|
|
need of disappointing you. It was in virtue of this principle that
|
|
he gave himself the entertainment of taking a fancy to a perpendicular
|
|
Bostonian whom he had been depended upon to treat with coldness. He
|
|
asked Isabel if Mr. Goodwood also had wanted to marry her, and
|
|
expressed surprise at her not having accepted him. It would have
|
|
been an excellent thing, like living under some tall belfry which
|
|
would strike all the hours and make a queer vibration in the upper
|
|
air. He declared he liked to talk with the great Goodwood; it wasn't
|
|
easy at first, you had to climb up an interminable steep staircase, up
|
|
to the top of the tower; but when you got there you had a big view and
|
|
felt a little fresh breeze. Osmond, as we know, had delightful
|
|
qualities, and he gave Caspar Goodwood the benefit of them all. Isabel
|
|
could see that Mr. Goodwood thought better of her husband than he
|
|
had ever wished to; he had given her the impression that morning in
|
|
Florence of being inaccessible to a good impression. Gilbert asked him
|
|
repeatedly to dinner, and Mr. Goodwood smoked a cigar with him
|
|
afterwards and even desired to be shown his collections. Gilbert
|
|
said to Isabel that he was very original; he was as strong and of as
|
|
good a style as an English portmanteau-he had plenty of straps and
|
|
buckles which would never wear out, and a capital patent lock.
|
|
Caspar Goodwood took to riding on the Campagna and devoted much time
|
|
to this exercise; it was therefore mainly in the evening that Isabel
|
|
saw him. She bethought herself of saying to him one day that if he
|
|
were willing he could render her a service. And then she added
|
|
smiling:
|
|
|
|
"I don't know, however, what right I have to ask a service of you."
|
|
|
|
"You're the person in the world who has most right," he answered.
|
|
|
|
"I've given you assurances that I've never given any one else."
|
|
|
|
The service was that he should go and see her cousin Ralph, who
|
|
was ill at the Hotel de Paris, alone, and be as kind to him as
|
|
possible. Mr. Goodwood had never seen him, but he would know who the
|
|
poor fellow was; if she was not mistaken Ralph had once invited him to
|
|
Gardencourt. Caspar remembered the invitation perfectly, and, though
|
|
he was not supposed to be a man of imagination, had enough to put
|
|
himself in the place of a poor gentleman who lay dying at a Roman inn.
|
|
He called at the Hotel de Paris and, on being shown into the
|
|
presence of the master of Gardencourt, found Miss Stackpole sitting
|
|
beside his sofa. A singular change had in fact occurred in this lady's
|
|
relations with Ralph Touchett. She had not been asked by Isabel to
|
|
go and see him, but on hearing that he was too ill to come out had
|
|
immediately gone of her own motion. After this she had paid him a
|
|
daily visit-always under the conviction that they were great
|
|
enemies. "Oh yes, we're intimate enemies," Ralph used to say; and he
|
|
accused her freely-as freely as the humour of it would allow-of coming
|
|
to worry him to death. In reality they became excellent friends,
|
|
Henrietta much wondering that she should never have liked him
|
|
before. Ralph liked her exactly as much as he had always done; he
|
|
had never doubted for a moment that she was an excellent fellow.
|
|
They talked about everything and always differed; about everything,
|
|
that is, but Isabel-a topic as to which Ralph always had a thin
|
|
forefinger on his lips. Mr. Bantling on the other hand proved a
|
|
great resource; Ralph was capable of discussing Mr. Bantling with
|
|
Henrietta for hours. Discussion was stimulated of course by their
|
|
inevitable difference of view-Ralph having amused himself with
|
|
taking the ground that the genial ex-guardsman was a regular
|
|
Machiavelli. Caspar Goodwood could contribute nothing to such a
|
|
debate; but after he had been left alone with his host he found
|
|
there were various other matters they could take up. It must be
|
|
admitted that the lady who had just gone out was not one of these;
|
|
Caspar granted all Miss Stackpole's merits in advance, but had no
|
|
further remark to make about her. Neither, after the first
|
|
allusions, did the two men expatiate upon Mrs. Osmond-a theme in which
|
|
Goodwood perceived as many dangers as Ralph. He felt very sorry for
|
|
that unclassable personage; he couldn't bear to see a pleasant man, so
|
|
pleasant for all his queerness, so beyond anything to be done. There
|
|
was always something to be done, for Goodwood, and he did it in this
|
|
case by repeating several times his visit to the Hotel de Paris. It
|
|
seemed to Isabel that she had been very clever; she had artfully
|
|
disposed of the superfluous Caspar. She had given him an occupation;
|
|
she had converted him into a caretaker of Ralph. She had a plan of
|
|
making him travel northward with her cousin as soon as the first
|
|
mild weather should allow it. Lord Warburton had brought Ralph to Rome
|
|
and Mr. Goodwood should take him away. There seemed a happy symmetry
|
|
in this, and she was now intensely eager that Ralph should depart. She
|
|
had a constant fear he would die there before her eyes and a horror of
|
|
the occurrence of this event at an inn, by her door, which he had so
|
|
rarely entered. Ralph must sink to his last rest in his own dear
|
|
house, in one of those deep, dim chambers of Gardencourt where the
|
|
dark ivy would cluster round the edges of the glimmering window. There
|
|
seemed to Isabel in these days something sacred in Gardencourt; no
|
|
chapter of the past was more perfectly irrecoverable. When she thought
|
|
of the months she had spent there the tears rose to her eyes. She
|
|
flattered herself, as I say, upon her ingenuity, but she had need of
|
|
all she could muster; for several events occurred which seemed to
|
|
confront and defy her. The Countess Gemini arrived from
|
|
Florence-arrived with her trunks, her dresses, her chatter, her
|
|
falsehoods, her frivolity, the strange, the unholy legend of the
|
|
number of her lovers. Edward Rosier, who had been away somewhere-no
|
|
one, not even Pansy, knew where-reappeared in Rome and began to
|
|
write her long letters, which she never answered. Madame Merle
|
|
returned from Naples and said to her with a strange smile: "What on
|
|
earth did you do with Lord Warburton?" As if it were any business of
|
|
hers!
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|
|
|
CHAPTER 48
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|
|
One day, toward the end of February, Ralph Touchett made up his mind
|
|
to return to England. He had his own reasons for this decision,
|
|
which he was not bound to communicate; but Henrietta Stackpole, to
|
|
whom he mentioned his intention, flattered herself that she guessed
|
|
them. She forebore to express them, however; she only said, after a
|
|
moment, as she sat by his sofa:
|
|
|
|
"I suppose you know you can't go alone?"
|
|
|
|
"I've no idea of doing that," Ralph answered. "I shall have people
|
|
with me."
|
|
|
|
"What do you mean by 'people'? Servants whom you pay?"
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Ralph jocosely, "after all, they're human beings."
|
|
|
|
"Are there any women among them?" Miss Stackpole desired to know.
|
|
|
|
"You speak as if I had a dozen! No, I confess I haven't a
|
|
soubrette in my employment."
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Henrietta calmly, "you can't go to England that way.
|
|
You must have a woman's care."
|
|
|
|
"I've had so much of yours for the past fortnight that it will
|
|
last me a good while."
|
|
|
|
"You've not had enough of it yet. I guess I'll go with you," said
|
|
Henrietta.
|
|
|
|
"Go with me?" Ralph slowly raised himself from his sofa.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I know you don't like me, but I'll go with you all the same.
|
|
It would be better for your health to lie down again."
|
|
|
|
Ralph looked at her a little; then he slowly relapsed. "I like you
|
|
very much," he said in a moment.
|
|
|
|
Miss Stackpole gave one of her infrequent laughs. "You needn't think
|
|
that by saying that you can buy me off. I'll go with you, and what
|
|
is more I'll take care of you."
|
|
|
|
"You're a very good woman," said Ralph.
|
|
|
|
"Wait till I get you safely home before you say that. It won't be
|
|
easy.
|
|
|
|
But you had better go, all the same."
|
|
|
|
Before she left him, Ralph said to her: "Do you really mean to
|
|
take care of me?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, I mean to try."
|
|
|
|
"I notify you then that I submit. Oh, I submit!" And it was
|
|
perhaps a sign of submission that a few minutes after she had left him
|
|
alone he burst into a loud fit of laughter. It seemed to him so
|
|
inconsequent, such a conclusive proof of his having abdicated all
|
|
functions and renounced all exercise, that he should start on a
|
|
journey across Europe under the supervision of Miss Stackpole. And the
|
|
great oddity was that the prospect pleased him; he was gratefully,
|
|
luxuriously passive. He felt even impatient to start; and indeed he
|
|
had an immense longing to see his own house again. The end of
|
|
everything was at hand; it seemed to him he could stretch out his
|
|
arm and touch the goal. But he wanted to die at home; it was the
|
|
only wish he had left-to extend himself in the large quiet room
|
|
where he had last seen his father lie, and close his eyes upon the
|
|
summer dawn.
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|
|
|
That same day Caspar Goodwood came to see him, and he informed his
|
|
visitor that Miss Stackpole had taken him up and was to conduct him
|
|
back to England. "Ah then," said Caspar, "I'm afraid I shall be a
|
|
fifth wheel to the coach. Mrs. Osmond has made me promise to go with
|
|
you."
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|
|
|
"Good heavens-it's the golden age! You're all too kind."
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|
|
|
"The kindness on my part is to her; it's hardly to you."
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|
|
|
"Granting that, she's kind," smiled Ralph.
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|
|
|
"To get people to go with you? Yes, that's a sort of kindness,"
|
|
Goodwood answered without lending himself to the joke. "For myself,
|
|
however," he added, "I'll go as far as to say that I would much rather
|
|
travel with you and Miss Stackpole than with Miss Stackpole alone."
|
|
|
|
"And you'd rather stay here than do either," said Ralph. "There's
|
|
really no need of your coming. Henrietta's extraordinarily efficient."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure of that. But I've promised Mrs. Osmond."
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|
|
|
"You can easily get her to let you off."
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|
|
|
"She wouldn't let me off for the world. She wants me to look after
|
|
you, but that isn't the principal thing. The principal thing is that
|
|
she wants me to leave Rome."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, you see too much in it," Ralph suggested.
|
|
|
|
"I bore her," Goodwood went on; "she has nothing to say to me, so
|
|
she invented that."
|
|
|
|
"Oh then, if it's a convenience to her I certainly will take you
|
|
with me. Though I don't see why it should be a convenience," Ralph
|
|
added in a moment.
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Caspar Goodwood simply, "she thinks I'm watching her."
|
|
|
|
"Watching her?"
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|
|
|
"Trying to make out if she's happy."
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|
|
|
"That's easy to make out," said Ralph. "She's the most visibly happy
|
|
woman I know."
|
|
|
|
"Exactly so; I'm satisfied," Goodwood answered dryly. For all his
|
|
dryness, however, he had more to say. "I've been watching her; I was
|
|
an old friend and it seemed to me I had the right. She pretends to
|
|
be happy; that was what she undertook to be; and I thought I should
|
|
like to see for myself what it amounts to. I've seen," he continued
|
|
with a harsh ring in his voice, "and I don't want to see any more. I'm
|
|
now quite ready to go."
|
|
|
|
"Do you know it strikes me as about time you should?" Ralph
|
|
rejoined. And this was the only conversation these gentlemen had about
|
|
Isabel Osmond.
|
|
|
|
Henrietta made her preparations for departure, and among them she
|
|
found it proper to say a few words to the Countess Gemini, who
|
|
returned at Miss Stackpole's pension the visit which this lady had
|
|
paid her in Florence.
|
|
|
|
"You were very wrong about Lord Warburton," she remarked to the
|
|
Countess. "I think it right you should know that."
|
|
|
|
"About his making love to Isabel? My poor lady, he was at her
|
|
house three times a day. He has left traces of his passage!" the
|
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Countess cried.
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"He wished to marry your niece; that's why he came to the house."
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The Countess stared, and then with an inconsiderate laugh: "Is
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that the story that Isabel tells? It isn't bad, as such things go.
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If he wishes to marry my niece, pray why doesn't he do it? Perhaps
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he has gone to buy the wedding-ring and will come back with it next
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month, after I'm gone."
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"No, he'll not come back. Miss Osmond doesn't wish to marry him."
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"She's very accommodating! I knew she was fond of Isabel, but I
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didn't know she carried it so far."
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"I don't understand you," said Henrietta coldly, and reflecting that
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the Countess was unpleasantly perverse. "I really must stick to my
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point-that Isabel never encouraged the attentions of Lord Warburton."
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"My dear friend, what do you and I know about it? All we know is
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that my brother's capable of everything."
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"I don't know what your brother's capable of," said Henrietta with
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dignity.
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"It's not her encouraging Warburton that I complain of; it's her
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sending him away. I want particularly to see him. Do you suppose she
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thought I would make him faithless?" the Countess continued with
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audacious insistence. "However, she's only keeping him, one can feel
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that. The house is full of him there; he's quite in the air. Oh yes,
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he has left traces; I'm sure I shall see him yet."
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"Well," said Henrietta after a little, with one of those
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inspirations which had made the fortune of her letters to the
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Interviewer, "perhaps he'll be more successful with you than with
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Isabel!"
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When she told her friend of the offer she had made Ralph Isabel
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replied that she could have done nothing that would have pleased her
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more. It had always been her faith that at bottom Ralph and this young
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woman were made to understand each other. "I don't care whether he
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understands me or not," Henrietta declared. "The great thing is that
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he shouldn't die in the cars."
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"He won't do that," Isabel said, shaking her head with an
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extension of faith.
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"He won't if I can help it. I see you want us all to go. I don't
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know what you want to do."
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"I want to be alone," said Isabel.
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"You won't be that so long as you've so much company at home."
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"Ah, they're part of the comedy. You others are spectators."
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"Do you call it a comedy, Isabel Archer?" Henrietta rather grimly
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asked.
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"The tragedy then if you like. You're all looking at me; it makes me
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uncomfortable."
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Henrietta engaged in this act for a while. "You're like the stricken
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deer, seeking the innermost shade. Oh, you do give me such a sense
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of helplessness!" she broke out.
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"I'm not at all helpless. There are many things I mean to do."
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"It's not you I'm speaking of; it's myself. It's too much, having
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come on purpose, to leave you just as I find you."
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"You don't do that; you leave me much refreshed," Isabel said.
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"Very mild refreshment-sour lemonade! I want you to promise me
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something."
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"I can't do that. I shall never make another promise. I made such
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a solemn one four years ago, and I've succeeded so ill in keeping it."
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"You've had no encouragement. In this case I should give you the
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greatest. Leave your husband before the worst comes; that's what I
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want you to promise."
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"The worst? What do you call the worst?"
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"Before your character gets spoiled."
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"Do you mean my disposition? It won't get spoiled," Isabel answered,
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smiling. "I'm taking very good care of it. I'm extremely struck,"
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she added, turning away, "with the off-hand way in which you speak
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of a woman's leaving her husband. It's easy to see you've never had
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one!"
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"Well," said Henrietta as if she were beginning an argument,
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"nothing is more common in our Western cities, and it's to them, after
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all, that we must look in the future." Her argument, however, does not
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concern this history, which has too many other threads to unwind.
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She announced to Ralph Touchett that she was ready to leave Rome by
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any train he might designate, and Ralph immediately pulled himself
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together for departure. Isabel went to see him at the last, and he
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made the same remark that Henrietta had made. It struck him that
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Isabel was uncommonly glad to get rid of them all.
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For all answer to this she gently laid her hand on his, and said
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in a low tone, with a quick smile: "My dear Ralph-!"
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It was answer enough, and he was quite contented. But he went on
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in the same way, jocosely, ingenuously: "I've seen less of you than
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I might, but it's better than nothing. And then I've heard a great
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deal about you."
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"I don't know from whom, leading the life you've done."
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"From the voices of the air! Oh, from no one else; I never let other
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people speak of you. They always say you're 'charming,' and that's
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so flat."
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"I might have seen more of you certainly," Isabel said. "But when
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one's married one has so much occupation."
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"Fortunately I'm not married. When you come to see me in England I
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shall be able to entertain you with all the freedom of a bachelor." He
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continued to talk as if they should certainly meet again, and
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succeeded in making the assumption appear almost just. He made no
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allusion to his term being near, to the probability that he should not
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outlast the summer. If he preferred it so, Isabel was willing
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enough; the reality was sufficiently distinct without their erecting
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finger-posts in conversation. That had been well enough for the
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earlier time, though about this, as about his other affairs, Ralph had
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never been egotistic. Isabel spoke of his journey, of the stages
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into which he should divide it, of the precautions he should take.
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"Henrietta's my greatest precaution," he went on. "The conscience of
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that woman's sublime."
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"Certainly she'll be very conscientious."
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"Will be? She has been! It's only because she thinks it's her duty
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that she goes with me. There's a conception of duty for you."
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"Yes, it's a generous one," said Isabel, "and it makes me deeply
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ashamed.
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I ought to go with you, you know."
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"Your husband wouldn't like that."
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"No, he wouldn't like it. But I might go, all the same."
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"I'm startled by the boldness of your imagination. Fancy my being
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a cause of disagreement between a lady and her husband!"
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"That's why I don't go," said Isabel simply-yet not very lucidly.
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Ralph understood well enough, however. "I should think so, with
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all those occupations you speak of."
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"It isn't that. I'm afraid," said Isabel. After a pause she
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repeated, as if to make herself, rather than him, hear the words: "I'm
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afraid."
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Ralph could hardly tell what her tone meant; it was so strangely
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deliberate-apparently so void of emotion. Did she wish to do public
|
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penance for a fault of which she had not been convicted? or were her
|
|
words simply an attempt at enlightened self-analysis? However this
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might be, Ralph could not resist so easy an opportunity. "Afraid of
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your husband?"
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"Afraid of myself! " she said, getting up. She stood there a
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|
moment and then added: "If I were afraid of my husband that would be
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simply my duty. That's what women are expected to be."
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"Ah yes," laughed Ralph; "but to make up for it there's always
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some man awfully afraid of some woman!"
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She gave no heed to this pleasantry, but suddenly took a different
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|
turn. "With Henrietta at the head of your little band," she
|
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exclaimed abruptly, "there will be nothing left for Mr. Goodwood!"
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"Ah, my dear Isabel," Ralph answered, "he's used to that. There is
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|
nothing left for Mr. Goodwood."
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She coloured and then observed, quickly, that she must leave him.
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They stood together a moment; both her hands were in both of his.
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"You've been my best friend," she said.
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"It was for you that I wanted-that I wanted to live. But I'm of no
|
|
use to you."
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Then it came over her more poignantly that she should not see him
|
|
again. She could not accept that; she could not part with him that
|
|
way. "If you should send for me I'd come," she said at last.
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"Your husband won't consent to that."
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"Oh yes, I can arrange it."
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"I shall keep that for my last pleasure!" said Ralph.
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In answer to which she simply kissed him. It was a Thursday, and
|
|
that evening Caspar Goodwood came to Palazzo Roccanera. He was among
|
|
the first to arrive, and he spent some time in conversation with
|
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Gilbert Osmond, who almost always was present when his wife
|
|
received. They sat down together, and Osmond, talkative,
|
|
communicative, expansive, seemed possessed with a kind of intellectual
|
|
gaiety. He leaned back with his legs crossed, lounging and chatting,
|
|
while Goodwood, more restless, but not at all lively, shifted his
|
|
position, played with his hat, made the little sofa creak beneath him.
|
|
Osmond's face wore a sharp, aggressive smile; he was as a man whose
|
|
perceptions have been quickened by good news. He remarked to
|
|
Goodwood that he was sorry they were to lose him; he himself should
|
|
particularly miss him. He saw so few intelligent men-they were
|
|
surprisingly scarce in Rome. He must be sure to come back; there was
|
|
something very refreshing, to an inveterate Italian like himself, in
|
|
talking with a genuine outsider.
|
|
|
|
"I'm very fond of Rome, you know," Osmond said, "but there's nothing
|
|
I like better than to meet people who haven't that superstition. The
|
|
modern world's after all very fine. Now you're thoroughly modern and
|
|
yet are not at all common. So many of the moderns we see are such very
|
|
poor stuff. If they're the children of the future we're willing to die
|
|
young. Of course the ancients too are often very tiresome. My wife and
|
|
I like everything that's really new-not the mere pretence of it.
|
|
There's nothing new, unfortunately, in ignorance and stupidity. We see
|
|
plenty of that in forms that offer themselves as a revelation of
|
|
progress, of fight. A revelation of vulgarity! There's a certain
|
|
kind of vulgarity which I believe is really new; I don't think there
|
|
ever was anything like it before. Indeed I don't find vulgarity, at
|
|
all, before the present century. You see a faint menace of it here and
|
|
there in the last, but to-day the air has grown so dense that delicate
|
|
things are literally not recognized. Now, we've liked you-!" With
|
|
which he hesitated a moment, laying his hand gently on Goodwood's knee
|
|
and smiling with a mixture of assurance and embarrassment. "I'm
|
|
going to say something extremely offensive and patronizing, but you
|
|
must let me have the satisfaction of it. We've liked you
|
|
because-because you've reconciled us a little to the future. If
|
|
there are to be a certain number of people like you-a la bonne
|
|
heure! I'm talking for my wife as well as for myself, you see. She
|
|
speaks for me, my wife; why shouldn't I speak for her? We're as
|
|
united, you know, as the candlestick and the snuffers. Am I assuming
|
|
too much when I say that I think I've understood from you that your
|
|
occupations have been-a-commercial? There's a danger in that, you
|
|
know; but it's the way you have escaped that strikes us. Excuse me
|
|
if my little compliment seems in execrable taste; fortunately my
|
|
wife doesn't hear me. What I mean is that you might have been-a-what I
|
|
was mentioning just now. The whole American world was in a
|
|
conspiracy to make you so. But you resisted, you've something about
|
|
you that saved you. And yet you're so modern, so modern; the most
|
|
modern man we know! We shall always be delighted to see you again."
|
|
|
|
I have said that Osmond was in good humour, and these remarks will
|
|
give ample evidence of the fact. They were infinitely more personal
|
|
than he usually cared to be, and if Caspar Goodwood had attended to
|
|
them more closely he might have thought that the defence of delicacy
|
|
was in rather odd hands. We may believe, however, that Osmond knew
|
|
very well what he was about, and that if he chose to use the tone of
|
|
patronage with a grossness not in his habits he had an excellent
|
|
reason for the escapade. Goodwood had only a vague sense that he was
|
|
laying it on somehow; he scarcely knew where the mixture was
|
|
applied. Indeed he scarcely knew what Osmond was talking about; he
|
|
wanted to be alone with Isabel, and that idea spoke louder to him than
|
|
her husband's perfectly-pitched voice. He watched her talking with
|
|
other people and wondered when she would be at liberty and whether
|
|
he might ask her to go into one of the other rooms. His humour was
|
|
not, like Osmond's, of the best; there was an element of dull rage
|
|
in his consciousness of things. Up to this time he had not disliked
|
|
Osmond personally; he had only thought him very well-informed and
|
|
obliging and more than he had supposed like the person whom Isabel
|
|
Archer would naturally marry. His host had won in the open field a
|
|
great advantage over him, and Goodwood had too strong a sense of
|
|
fair play to have been moved to underrate him on that account. He
|
|
had not tried positively to think well of him; this was a flight of
|
|
sentimental benevolence of which, even in the days when he came
|
|
nearest to reconciling himself to what had happened, Goodwood was
|
|
quite incapable. He accepted him as rather a brilliant personage of
|
|
the amateurish kind, afflicted with a redundancy of leisure which it
|
|
amused him to work off in little refinements of conversation. But he
|
|
only half trusted him; he could never make out why the deuce Osmond
|
|
should lavish refinements of any sort upon him. It made him suspect
|
|
that he found some private entertainment in it, and it ministered to a
|
|
general impression that his triumphant rival had in his composition
|
|
a streak of perversity. He knew indeed that Osmond could have no
|
|
reason to wish him evil; he had nothing to fear from him. He had
|
|
carried off a supreme advantage and could afford to be kind to a man
|
|
who had lost everything. It was true that Goodwood had at times grimly
|
|
wished he were dead and would have liked to kill him; but Osmond had
|
|
no means of knowing this, for practice had made the younger man
|
|
perfect in the art of appearing inaccessible to-day to any violent
|
|
emotion. He cultivated this art in order to deceive himself, but it
|
|
was others that he deceived first. He cultivated it, moreover, with
|
|
very limited success; of which there could be no better proof than the
|
|
deep, dumb irritation that reigned in his soul when he heard Osmond
|
|
speak of his wife's feelings as if he were commissioned to answer
|
|
for them.
|
|
|
|
That was all he had had an ear for in what his host said to him this
|
|
evening; he had been conscious that Osmond made more of a point even
|
|
than usual of referring to the conjugal harmony prevailing at
|
|
Palazzo Roccanera. He had been more careful than ever to speak as if
|
|
he and his wife had all things in sweet community and it were as
|
|
natural to each of them to say "we" as to say "I." In all this there
|
|
was an air of intention that had puzzled and angered our poor
|
|
Bostonian, who could only reflect for his comfort that Mrs. Osmond's
|
|
relations with her husband were none of his business. He had no
|
|
proof whatever that her husband misrepresented her, and if he judged
|
|
her by the surface of things was bound to believe that she liked her
|
|
life. She had never given him the faintest sign of discontent. Miss
|
|
Stackpole had told him that she had lost her illusions, but writing
|
|
for the papers had made Miss Stackpole sensational. She was too fond
|
|
of early news. Moreover, since her arrival in Rome she had been much
|
|
on her guard; she had pretty well ceased to flash her lantern at
|
|
him. This indeed, it may be said for her, would have been quite
|
|
against her conscience. She had now seen the reality of Isabel's
|
|
situation, and it had inspired her with a just reserve. Whatever could
|
|
be done to improve it the most useful form of assistance would not
|
|
be to inflame her former lovers with a sense of her wrongs. Miss
|
|
Stackpole continued to take a deep interest in the state of Mr.
|
|
Goodwood's feelings, but she showed it at present only by sending
|
|
him choice extracts, humorous and other, from the American journals,
|
|
of which she received several by every post and which she always
|
|
perused with a pair of scissors in her hand. The articles she cut
|
|
out she placed in an envelope addressed to Mr. Goodwood, which she
|
|
left with her own hand at his hotel. He never asked her a question
|
|
about Isabel: hadn't he come five thousand miles to see for himself?
|
|
He was thus not in the least authorized to think Mrs. Osmond
|
|
unhappy; but the very absence of authorization operated as an
|
|
irritant, ministered to the harshness with which, in spite of his
|
|
theory that he had ceased to care, he now recognized that, so far as
|
|
she was concerned, the future had nothing more for him. He had not
|
|
even the satisfaction of knowing the truth; apparently he could not
|
|
even be trusted to respect her if she were unhappy. He was hopeless,
|
|
helpless, useless. To this last character she had called his attention
|
|
by her ingenious plan for making him leave Rome. He had no objection
|
|
whatever to doing what he could for her cousin, but it made him
|
|
grind his teeth to think that of all the services she might have asked
|
|
of him this was the one she had been eager to select. There had been
|
|
no danger of her choosing one that would have kept him in Rome.
|
|
|
|
To-night what he was chiefly thinking of was that he was to
|
|
leave-her to-morrow and that he had gained nothing by coming but the
|
|
knowledge that he was as little wanted as ever. About herself he had
|
|
gained no knowledge; she was imperturbable, inscrutable, impenetrable.
|
|
He felt the old bitterness, which he had tried so hard to swallow,
|
|
rise again in his throat, and he knew there are disappointments that
|
|
last as long as life. Osmond went on talking; Goodwood was vaguely
|
|
aware that he was touching again upon his perfect intimacy with his
|
|
wife. It seemed to him for a moment that the man had a kind of demonic
|
|
imagination; it was impossible that without malice he should have
|
|
selected so unusual a topic. But what did it matter, after all,
|
|
whether he were demonic or not, and whether she loved him or hated
|
|
him? She might hate him to the death without one's gaining a straw
|
|
one's self. "You travel, by the by, with Ralph Touchett," Osmond said.
|
|
"I suppose that means you'll move slowly?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know. I shall do just as he likes."
|
|
|
|
"You're very accommodating. We're immensely obliged to you; you must
|
|
really let me say it. My wife has probably expressed to you what we
|
|
feel. Touchett has been on our minds all winter; it has looked more
|
|
than once as if he would never leave Rome. He ought never to have
|
|
come; it's worse than an imprudence for people in that state to
|
|
travel; it's a kind of indelicacy. I wouldn't for the world be under
|
|
such an obligation to Touchett as he has been to-to my wife and me.
|
|
Other people inevitably have to look after him, and every one isn't so
|
|
generous as you."
|
|
|
|
"I've nothing else to do," Caspar said dryly.
|
|
|
|
Osmond looked at him a moment askance. "You ought to marry, and then
|
|
you'd have plenty to do! It's true that in that case you wouldn't be
|
|
quite so available for deeds of mercy."
|
|
|
|
"Do you find that as a married man you're so much occupied?" the
|
|
young man mechanically asked.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, you see, being married's in itself an occupation. It isn't
|
|
always active; it's often passive; but that takes even more attention.
|
|
Then my wife and I do so many things together. We read, we study, we
|
|
make music, we walk, we drive-we talk even, as when we first knew each
|
|
other. I delight, to this hour, in my wife's conversation. If you're
|
|
ever bored take my advice and get married. Your wife indeed may bore
|
|
you, in that case; but you'll never bore yourself. You'll always
|
|
have something to say to yourself-always have a subject of
|
|
reflection."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not bored," said Goodwood. "I've plenty to think about and to
|
|
say to myself."
|
|
|
|
"More than to say to others!" Osmond exclaimed with a light laugh.
|
|
"Where shall you go next? I mean after you've consigned Touchett to
|
|
his natural caretakers-I believe his mother's at last coming back to
|
|
look after him. That little lady's superb; she neglects her duties
|
|
with a finish-! Perhaps you'll spend the summer in England?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know. I've no plans."
|
|
|
|
"Happy man! That's a little bleak, but it's very free."
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes, I'm very free."
|
|
|
|
"Free to come back to Rome I hope," said Osmond as he saw a group of
|
|
new visitors enter the room. "Remember that when you do come we
|
|
count on you!"
|
|
|
|
Goodwood had meant to go away early, but the evening elapsed without
|
|
his having a chance to speak to Isabel otherwise than as one of
|
|
several associated interlocutors. There was something perverse in
|
|
the inveteracy with which she avoided him; his unquenchable rancour
|
|
discovered an intention where there was certainly no appearance of
|
|
one. There was absolutely no appearance of one. She met his eyes
|
|
with her clear hospitable smile, which seemed almost to ask that he
|
|
would come and help her to entertain some of her visitors. To such
|
|
suggestions, however, he opposed but a stiff impatience. He wandered
|
|
about and waited; he talked to the few people he knew, who found him
|
|
for the first time rather self-contradictory. This was indeed rare
|
|
with Caspar Goodwood, though he often contradicted others. There was
|
|
often music at Palazzo Roccanera, and it was usually very good.
|
|
Under cover of the music he managed to contain himself; but toward the
|
|
end, when he saw the people beginning to go, he drew near to Isabel
|
|
and asked her in a low tone if he might not speak to her in one of the
|
|
other rooms, which he had just assured himself was empty. She smiled
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as if she wished to oblige him but found herself absolutely prevented.
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"I'm afraid it's impossible. People are saying good-night, and I
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must be where they can see me."
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"I shall wait till they are all gone then."
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She hesitated a moment.
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"Ah, that will be delightful!" she exclaimed.
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And he waited, though it took a long time yet. There were several
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people, at the end, who seemed tethered to the carpet. The Countess
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Gemini, who was never herself till midnight, as she said, displayed no
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consciousness that the entertainment was over; she had still a
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little circle of gentlemen in front of the fire, who every now and
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then broke into a united laugh. Osmond had disappeared- he never bade
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good-bye to people; and as the Countess was extending her range,
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according to her custom at this period of the evening, Isabel sent
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Pansy to bed. Isabel sat a little apart; she too appeared to wish
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her sister-in-law would sound a lower note and let the last
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loiterers depart in peace.
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"May I not say a word to you now?" Goodwood presently asked her.
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She got up immediately, smiling. "Certainly, we'll go somewhere else
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if you like." They went together, leaving the Countess with her little
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circle, and for a moment after they had crossed the threshold
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neither of them spoke. Isabel would not sit down; she stood in the
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middle of the room slowly fanning herself; she had for him the same
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familiar grace. She seemed to wait for him to speak. Now that he was
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alone with her all the passion he had never stifled surged into his
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senses; it hummed in his eyes and made things swim round him. The
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bright, empty room grew dim and blurred, and through the heaving
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veil he felt her hover before him with gleaming eyes and parted
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lips. If he had seen more distinctly he would have perceived her smile
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was fixed and a trifle forced-that she was frightened at what she
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saw in his own face. "I suppose you wish to bid me good-bye?" she
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said.
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"Yes- but I don't like it. I don't want to leave Rome," he
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answered with almost plaintive honesty.
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"I can well imagine. It's wonderfully good of you. I can't tell
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you how kind I think you."
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For a moment more he said nothing. "With a few words like that you
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make me go."
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"You must come back some day," she brightly returned. "Some day? You
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mean as long a time hence as possible." "Oh no; I don't mean all
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that."
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"What do you mean? I don't understand! But I said I'd go, and I'll
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go,"
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Goodwood added.
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"Come back whenever you like," said Isabel with attempted lightness.
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"I don't care a straw for your cousin!" Caspar broke out.
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"Is that what you wished to tell me?"
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"No, no; I didn't want to tell you anything. I wanted to ask you-"
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he paused a moment, and then-"what have you really made of your life?"
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he said, in a low, quick tone. He paused again, as if for an answer;
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but she said nothing, and he went on: "I can't understand, I can't
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penetrate you! What am I to believe-what do you want me to think?"
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Still she said nothing; she only stood looking at him, now quite
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without pretending to ease. "I'm told you're unhappy, and if you are I
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should like to know it. That would be something for me. But you
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yourself say you're happy, and you're somehow so still, so smooth,
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so hard. You're completely changed. You conceal everything; I
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haven't really come near you."
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"You come very near," Isabel said gently, but in a tone of warning.
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"And yet I don't touch you! I want to know the truth. Have you
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done well?"
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"You ask a great deal."
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"Yes-I've always asked a great deal. Of course you won't tell me.
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I shall never know if you can help it. And then it's none of my
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business." He had spoken with a visible effort to control himself,
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to give a considerate form to an inconsiderate state of mind. But
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the sense that it was his last chance, that he loved her and had
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lost her, that she would think him a fool whatever he should say,
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suddenly gave him a lash and added a deep vibration to his low
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voice. "You're perfectly inscrutable, and that's what makes me think
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you've something to hide. I tell you I don't care a straw for your
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cousin, but I don't mean that I don't like him. I mean that it isn't
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because I like him that I go away with him. I'd go if he were an idiot
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and you should have asked me. If you should ask me I'd go to Siberia
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to-morrow. Why do you want me to leave the place? You must have some
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reason for that; if you were as contented as you pretend you are you
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wouldn't care. I'd rather know the truth about you, even if it's
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damnable, than have come here for nothing. That isn't what I came for.
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I thought I shouldn't care. I came because I wanted to assure myself
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that I needn't think of you any more. I haven't thought of anything
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else, and you're quite right to wish me to go away. But if I must
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go, there's no harm in my letting myself out for a single moment, is
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there? If you're really hurt-if he hurts you-nothing I say will hurt
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you. When I tell you I love you it's simply what I came for. I thought
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it was for something else; but it was for that. I shouldn't say it
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if I didn't believe I should never see you again. It's the last
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time-let me pluck a single flower! I've no right to say that, I
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know; and you've no right to listen. But you don't listen; you never
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listen, you're always thinking of something else. After this I must
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go, of course; so I shall at least have a reason. Your asking me is no
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reason, not a real one. I can't judge by your husband," he went on
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irrelevantly, almost incoherently; "I don't understand him; he tells
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me you adore each other. Why does he tell me that? What business is it
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of mine? When I say that to you, you look strange. But you always look
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strange. Yes, you've something to hide. It's none of my
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business-very true. But I love you," said Caspar Goodwood.
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As he said, she looked strange. She turned her eyes to the door by
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which they had entered and raised her fan as if in warning. "You've
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behaved so well; don't spoil it," she uttered softly.
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"No one hears me. It's wonderful what you tried to put me off
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with. I love you as I've never loved you."
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"I know it. I knew it as soon as you consented to go."
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"You can't help it-of course not. You would if you could, but you
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can't, unfortunately. Unfortunately for me, I mean. I ask
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nothing-nothing, that is, I shouldn't. But I do ask one sole
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satisfaction: that you tell me-that you tell me-!"
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"That I tell you what?"
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"Whether I may pity you."
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"Should you like that?" Isabel asked, trying to smile again.
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"To pity you? Most assuredly! That at least would be doing
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something.
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I'd give my life to it."
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She raised her fan to her face, which it covered all except her
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eyes. They rested a moment on his. "Don't give your life to it; but
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give a thought to it every now and then." And with that she went
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back to the Countess Gemini.
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CHAPTER 49
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Madame Merle had not made her appearance at Palazzo Roccanera on the
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evening of that Thursday of which I have narrated some of the
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incidents, and Isabel, though she observed her absence, was not
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|
surprised by it. Things had passed between them which added no
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|
stimulus to sociability, and to appreciate which we must glance a
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|
little backward. It has been mentioned that Madame Merle returned from
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Naples shortly after Lord Warburton had left Rome, and that on her
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|
first meeting with Isabel (whom, to do her justice, she came
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|
immediately to see) her first utterance had been an enquiry as to
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|
the whereabouts of this nobleman, for whom she appeared to hold her
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dear friend accountable.
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"Please don't talk of him," said Isabel for answer; "we've heard
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so much of him of late."
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Madame Merle bent her head on one side a little, protestingly, and
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smiled at the left corner of her mouth. "You've heard, yes. But you
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|
must remember that I've not, in Naples. I hoped to find him here and
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to be able to congratulate Pansy."
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"You may congratulate Pansy still; but not on marrying Lord
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Warburton."
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"How you say that! Don't you know I had set my heart on it?"
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Madame Merle asked with a great deal of spirit, but still with the
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intonation of good humour.
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Isabel was discomposed, but she was determined to be good-humoured
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|
too. "You shouldn't have gone to Naples then. You should have stayed
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|
here to watch the affair."
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"I had too much confidence in you. But do you think it's too late?"
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"You had better ask Pansy," said Isabel.
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"I shall ask her what you've said to her."
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These words seemed to justify the impulse of self-defence aroused on
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|
Isabel's part by her perceiving that her visitor's attitude was a
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|
critical one. Madame Merle, as we know, had been very discreet
|
|
hitherto; she had never criticized; she had been markedly afraid of
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|
intermeddling. But apparently she had only reserved herself for this
|
|
occasion, since she now had a dangerous quickness in her eye and an
|
|
air of irritation which even her admirable ease was not able to
|
|
transmute. She had suffered a disappointment which excited Isabel's
|
|
surprise-our heroine having no knowledge of her zealous interest in
|
|
Pansy's marriage; and she betrayed it in a manner which quickened Mrs.
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|
Osmond's alarm. More clearly than ever before Isabel heard a cold,
|
|
mocking voice proceed from she knew not where, in the dim void that
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|
surrounded her, and declare that this bright, strong, definite,
|
|
worldly woman, this incarnation of the practical, the personal, the
|
|
immediate, was a powerful agent in her destiny. She was nearer to
|
|
her than Isabel had yet discovered, and her nearness was not the
|
|
charming accident she had so long supposed. The sense of accident
|
|
indeed had died within her that day when she happened to be struck
|
|
with the manner in which the wonderful lady and her own husband sat
|
|
together in private. No definite suspicion had as yet taken its place;
|
|
but it was enough to make her view this friend with a different eye,
|
|
to have been led to reflect that there was more intention in her
|
|
past behaviour than she had allowed for at the time. Ah yes, there had
|
|
been intention, there had been intention, Isabel said to herself;
|
|
and she seemed to wake from a long pernicious dream. What was it
|
|
that brought home to her that Madame Merle's intention had not been
|
|
good? Nothing but the mistrust which had lately taken body and which
|
|
married itself now to the fruitful wonder produced by her visitor's
|
|
challenge on behalf of poor Pansy. There was something in this
|
|
challenge which had at the very outset excited an answering
|
|
defiance; a nameless vitality which she could see to have been
|
|
absent from her friend's professions of delicacy and caution. Madame
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|
Merle had been unwilling to interfere, certainly, but only so long
|
|
as there was nothing to interfere with. It will perhaps seem to the
|
|
reader that Isabel went fast in casting doubt, on mere suspicion, on a
|
|
sincerity proved by several years of good offices. She moved quickly
|
|
indeed, and with reason, for a strange truth was filtering into her
|
|
soul. Madame Merle's interest was identical with Osmond's: that was
|
|
enough. "I think Pansy will tell you nothing that will make you more
|
|
angry," she said in answer to her companion's last remark.
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|
I'm not in the least angry. I've only a great desire to retrieve the
|
|
situation. Do you consider that Warburton has left us for ever?"
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|
"I can't tell you; I don't understand you. It's all over; please let
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|
it rest. Osmond has talked to me a great deal about it, and I've
|
|
nothing more to say or to hear. I've no doubt," Isabel added, "that
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|
he'll be very happy to discuss the subject with you."
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|
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|
"I know what he thinks; he came to see me last evening."
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|
"As soon as you had arrived? Then you know all about it and you
|
|
needn't apply to me for information."
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"It isn't information I want. At bottom it's sympathy. I had set
|
|
my heart on that marriage; the idea did what so few things do-it
|
|
satisfied the imagination."
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|
"Your imagination, yes. But not that of the persons concerned."
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|
"You mean by that of course that I'm not concerned. Of course not
|
|
directly. But when one's such an old friend one can't help having
|
|
something at stake. You forget how long I've known Pansy. You mean, of
|
|
course," Madame Merle added, "that you are one of the persons
|
|
concerned."
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|
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|
"No; that's the last thing I mean. I'm very weary of it all."
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|
|
|
Madame Merle hesitated a little. "Ah yes, your work's done."
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|
"Take care what you say," said Isabel very gravely.
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|
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|
"Oh, I take care; never perhaps more than when it appears least.
|
|
Your husband judges you severely."
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|
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|
Isabel made for a moment no answer to this; she felt choked with
|
|
bitterness. It was not the insolence of Madame Merle's informing her
|
|
that Osmond had been taking her into his confidence as against his
|
|
wife that struck her most; for she was not quick to believe that
|
|
this was meant for insolence. Madame Merle was very rarely insolent,
|
|
and only when it was exactly right. It was not right now, or at
|
|
least it was not right yet. What touched Isabel like a drop of
|
|
corrosive acid upon an open wound was the knowledge that Osmond
|
|
dishonoured her in his words as well as in his thoughts. "Should you
|
|
like to know how I judge him?" she asked at last.
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|
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|
"No, because you'd never tell me. And it would be painful for me
|
|
to know."
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|
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|
There was a pause, and for the first time since she had known her
|
|
Isabel thought Madame Merle disagreeable. She wished she would leave
|
|
her. "Remember how attractive Pansy is, and don't despair," she said
|
|
abruptly, with a desire that this should close their interview.
|
|
|
|
But Madame Merle's expansive presence underwent no contraction.
|
|
She only gathered her mantle about her and, with the movement,
|
|
scattered upon the air a faint, agreeable fragrance. "I don't despair;
|
|
I feel encouraged. And I didn't come to scold you; I came if
|
|
possible to learn the truth. I know you'll tell it if I ask you.
|
|
It's an immense blessing with you that one can count upon that. No,
|
|
you won't believe what a comfort I take in it."
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|
|
|
"What truth do you speak of?" Isabel asked, wondering.
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|
|
|
"Just this: whether Lord Warburton changed his mind quite of his own
|
|
movement or because you recommended it. To please himself I mean, or
|
|
to please you. Think of the confidence I must still have in you, in
|
|
spite of having lost a little of it," Madame Merle continued with a
|
|
smile, "to ask such a question as that!" She sat looking at her
|
|
friend, to judge the effect of her words, and then went on: "Now don't
|
|
be heroic, don't be unreasonable, don't take offence. It seems to me I
|
|
do you an honour in speaking so. I don't know another woman to whom
|
|
I would do it. I haven't the least idea that any other woman would
|
|
tell me the truth. And don't you see how well it is that your
|
|
husband should know it? It's true that he doesn't appear to have had
|
|
any tact whatever in trying to extract it; he has indulged in
|
|
gratuitous suppositions. But that doesn't alter the fact that it would
|
|
make a difference in his view of his daughter's prospects to know
|
|
distinctly what really occurred. If Lord Warburton simply got tired of
|
|
the poor child, that's one thing, and it's a pity. If he gave her up
|
|
to please you it's another. That's a pity too, but in a different way.
|
|
Then, in the latter case, you'd perhaps resign yourself to not being
|
|
pleased-to simply seeing your stepdaughter married. Let him off-let us
|
|
have him!"
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|
|
|
Madame Merle had proceeded very deliberately, watching her companion
|
|
and apparently thinking she could proceed safely. As she went on
|
|
Isabel grew pale; she clasped her hands more tightly in her lap. It
|
|
was not that her visitor had at last thought it the right time to be
|
|
insolent; for this was not what was most apparent. It was a worse
|
|
horror than that. "Who are you-what are you?" Isabel murmured. "What
|
|
have you to do with my husband?" It was strange that for the moment
|
|
she drew as near to him as if she had loved him.
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|
|
|
"Ah then, you take it heroically! I'm very sorry. Don't think,
|
|
however, that I shall do so."
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|
|
|
"What have you to do with me?" Isabel went on.
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|
|
|
Madame Merle slowly got up, stroking her muff, but not removing
|
|
her eyes from Isabel's face. "Everything!" she answered.
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|
|
|
Isabel sat there looking up at her, without rising; her face was
|
|
almost a prayer to be enlightened. But the light of this woman's
|
|
eyes seemed only a darkness. "Oh misery!" she murmured at last; and
|
|
she fell back, covering her face with her hands. It had come over
|
|
her like a high-surging wave that Mrs. Touchett was right. Madame
|
|
Merle had married her. Before she uncovered her face again that lady
|
|
had left the room.
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|
|
|
Isabel took a drive alone that afternoon; she wished to be far away,
|
|
under the sky, where she could descend from her carriage and tread
|
|
upon the daisies. She had long before this taken old Rome into her
|
|
confidence, for in a world of ruins the ruin of her happiness seemed a
|
|
less unnatural catastrophe. She rested her weariness upon things
|
|
that had crumbled for centuries and yet still were upright; she
|
|
dropped her secret sadness into the silence of lonely places, where
|
|
its very modern quality detached itself and grew objective, so that as
|
|
she sat in a sun-warmed angle on a winter's day, or stood in a
|
|
mouldy church to which no one came, she could almost smile at it and
|
|
think of its smallness. Small it was, in the large Roman record, and
|
|
her haunting sense of the continuity of the human lot easily carried
|
|
her from the less to the greater. She had become deeply, tenderly
|
|
acquainted with Rome; it interfused and moderated her passion. But she
|
|
had grown to think of it chiefly as the place where people had
|
|
suffered. This was what came to her in the starved churches, where the
|
|
marble columns, transferred from pagan ruins, seemed to offer her a
|
|
companionship in endurance and the musty incense to be a compound of
|
|
long-unanswered prayers. There was no gentler nor less consistent
|
|
heretic than Isabel; the firmest of worshippers, gazing at dark
|
|
altar-pictures or clustered candles, could not have felt more
|
|
intimately the suggestiveness of these objects nor have been more
|
|
liable at such moments to a spiritual visitation. Pansy, as we know,
|
|
was almost always her companion, and of late the Countess Gemini,
|
|
balancing a pink parasol, had lent brilliancy to their equipage; but
|
|
she still occasionally found herself alone when it suited her mood and
|
|
where it suited the place. On such occasions she had several
|
|
resorts; the most accessible of which perhaps was a seat on the low
|
|
parapet which edges the wide grassy space before the high, cold
|
|
front of Saint John Lateran, whence you look across the Campagna at
|
|
the far-trailing outline of the Alban Mount and at that mighty
|
|
plain, between, which is still so full of all that has passed from it.
|
|
After the departure of her cousin and his companions she roamed more
|
|
than usual; she carried her sombre spirit from one familiar shrine
|
|
to the other. Even when Pansy and the Countess were with her she
|
|
felt the touch of a vanished world. The carriage, leaving the walls of
|
|
Rome behind, rolled through narrow lanes where the wild honeysuckle
|
|
had begun to tangle itself in the hedges, or waited for her in quiet
|
|
places where the fields lay near, while she strolled further and
|
|
further over the flower-freckled turf, or sat on a stone that had once
|
|
had a use and gazed through the veil of her personal sadness at the
|
|
splendid sadness of the scene-at the dense, warm light, the far
|
|
gradations and soft confusions of colour, the motionless shepherds
|
|
in lonely attitudes, the hills where the cloud-shadows had the
|
|
lightness of a blush.
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|
|
|
On the afternoon I began with speaking of, she had taken a
|
|
resolution not to think of Madame Merle; but the resolution proved
|
|
vain, and this lady's image hovered constantly before her. She asked
|
|
herself, with an almost childlike horror of the supposition, whether
|
|
to this intimate friend of several years the great historical
|
|
epithet of wicked were to be applied. She knew the idea only by the
|
|
Bible and other literary works; to the best of her belief she had
|
|
had no personal acquaintance with wickedness. She had desired a
|
|
large acquaintance with human life, and in spite of her having
|
|
flattered herself that she cultivated it with some success this
|
|
elementary privilege had been denied her. Perhaps it was not wicked-in
|
|
the historic sense-to be even deeply false; for that was what Madame
|
|
Merle had been deeply, deeply, deeply. Isabel's Aunt Lydia had made
|
|
this discovery long before, and had mentioned it to her niece; but
|
|
Isabel had flattered herself at this time that she had a much richer
|
|
view of things, especially of the spontaneity of her own career and
|
|
the nobleness of her own interpretations, than poor
|
|
stiffly-reasoning Mrs. Touchett. Madame Merle had done what she
|
|
wanted; she had brought about the union of her two friends; a
|
|
reflection which could not fail to make it a matter of wonder that she
|
|
should so much have desired such an event. There were people who had
|
|
the match-making passion, like the votaries of art for art; but Madame
|
|
Merle, great artist as she was, was scarcely one of these. She thought
|
|
too ill of marriage, too ill even of life; she had desired that
|
|
particular marriage but had not desired others. She had therefore
|
|
had a conception of gain, and Isabel asked herself where she had found
|
|
her profit. It took her naturally a long time to discover, and even
|
|
then her discovery was imperfect. It came back to her that Madame
|
|
Merle, though she had seemed to like her from their first meeting at
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Gardencourt, had been doubly affectionate after Mr. Touchett's death
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and after learning that her young friend had been subject to the
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good old man's charity. She had found her profit not in the gross
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device of borrowing money, but in the more refined idea of introducing
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one of her intimates to the young woman's fresh and ingenuous fortune.
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She had naturally chosen her closest intimate, and it was already
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vivid enough to Isabel that Gilbert occupied this position. She
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found herself confronted in this manner with the conviction that the
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man in the world whom she had supposed to be the least sordid had
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married her, like a vulgar adventurer, for her money. Strange to
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say, it had never before occurred to her; if she had thought a good
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deal of harm of Osmond she had not done him this particular injury.
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This was the worst she could think of, and she had been saying to
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herself that the worst was still to come. A man might marry a woman
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for her money perfectly well; the thing was often done. But at least
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he should let her know. She wondered whether, since he had wanted
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her money, her money would now satisfy him. Would he take her money
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and let her go? Ah, if Mr. Touchett's great charity would but help her
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today it would be blessed indeed! It was not slow to occur to her that
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if Madame Merle had wished to do Gilbert a service his recognition
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to her of the boon must have lost its warmth. What must be his
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feelings to-day in regard to his too zealous benefactress, and what
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expression must they have found on the part of such a master of irony?
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It is a singular, but a characteristic, fact that before Isabel
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returned from her silent drive she had broken its silence by the
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soft exclamation:
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"Poor, poor Madame Merle!"
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Her compassion would perhaps have been justified if on this same
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afternoon she had been concealed behind one of the valuable curtains
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of time-softened damask which dressed the interesting little salon
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of the lady to whom it referred; the carefully-arranged apartment to
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which we once paid a visit in company with the discreet Mr. Rosier. In
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that apartment, towards six o'clock, Gilbert Osmond was seated, and
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his hostess stood before him as Isabel had seen her stand on an
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occasion commemorated in this history with an emphasis appropriate not
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so much to its apparent as to its real importance.
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"I don't believe you're unhappy; I believe you like it," said Madame
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Merle.
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"Did I say I was unhappy?" Osmond asked with a face grave enough
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to suggest that he might have been.
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"No, but you don't say the contrary, as you ought in common
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gratitude."
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"Don't talk about gratitude," he returned dryly. "And don't
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aggravate me," he added in a moment.
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Madame Merle slowly seated herself, with her arms folded and her
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white hands arranged as a support to one of them and an ornament, as
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it were, to the other. She looked exquisitely calm but impressively
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sad. "On your side, don't try to frighten me. I wonder if you guess
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some of my thoughts."
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"I trouble about them no more than I can help. I've quite enough
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of my own."
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"That's because they're so delightful."
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Osmond rested his head against the back of his chair and looked at
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his companion with a cynical directness which seemed also partly an
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expression of fatigue. "You do aggravate me," he remarked in a moment.
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"I'm very tired."
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"Eh moi donc!" cried Madame Merle.
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"With you it's because you fatigue yourself. With me it's not my own
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fault."
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"When I fatigue myself it's for you. I've given you an interest.
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That's a great gift."
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"Do you call it an interest?" Osmond enquired with detachment.
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"Certainly, since it helps you to pass your time."
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"The time has never seemed longer to me than this winter."
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"You've never looked better; you've never been so agreeable, so
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brilliant."
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"Damn my brilliancy!" he thoughtfully murmured. "How little, after
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all, you know me!"
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"If I don't know you I know nothing," smiled Madame Merle. "You've
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the feeling of complete success."
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"No, I shall not have that till I've made you stop judging me."
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"I did that long ago. I speak from old knowledge. But you express
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yourself more too."
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Osmond just hung fire. "I wish you'd express yourself less!"
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"You wish to condemn me to silence? Remember that I've never been
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a chatterbox. At any rate there are three or four things I should like
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to say to you first. Your wife doesn't know what to do with
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herself," she went on with a change of tone.
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"Pardon me; she knows perfectly. She has a line sharply drawn. She
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means to carry out her ideas."
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"Her ideas to-day must be remarkable."
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"Certainly they are. She has more of them than ever."
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"She was unable to show me any this morning," said Madame Merle.
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"She seemed in a very simple, almost in a stupid, state of mind. She
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was completely bewildered."
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"You had better say at once that she was pathetic."
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"Ah no, I don't want to encourage you too much."
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He still had his head against the cushion behind him; the ankle of
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one foot rested on the other knee. So he sat for a while. "I should
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like to know what's the matter with you," he said at last.
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"The matter-the matter-!" And here Madame Merle stopped. Then she
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went on with a sudden outbreak of passion, a burst of summer thunder
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in a clear sky: "The matter is that I would give my right hand to be
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able to weep, and that I can't!"
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"What good would it do you to weep?"
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"It would make me feel as I felt before I knew you."
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"If I've dried your tears, that's something. But I've seen you
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shed them."
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"Oh, I believe you'll make me cry still. I mean make me howl like
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a wolf. I've a great hope, I've a great need, of that. I was vile this
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morning; I was horrid," she said.
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"If Isabel was in the stupid state of mind you mention she
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probably didn't perceive it," Osmond answered.
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"It was precisely my deviltry that stupefied her. I couldn't help
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it; I was full of something bad. Perhaps it was something good; I
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don't know. You've not only dried up my tears; you've dried up my
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soul."
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"It's not I then that am responsible for my wife's condition,"
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Osmond said. "It's pleasant to think that I shall get the benefit of
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your influence upon her. Don't you know the soul is an immortal
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principle? How can it suffer alteration?"
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"I don't believe at all that it's an immortal principle. I believe
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it can perfectly be destroyed. That's what has happened to mine, which
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was a very good one to start with; and it's you I have to thank for
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it. You're very bad," she added with gravity in her emphasis.
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"Is this the way we're to end?" Osmond asked with the same studied
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coldness.
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"I don't know how we're to end. I wish I did! How do bad people
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end?-especially as to their common crimes. You have made me as bad
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as yourself."
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"I don't understand you. You seem to me quite good enough," said
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Osmond, his conscious indifference giving an extreme effect to the
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words.
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Madame Merle's self-possession tended on the contrary to diminish,
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and she was nearer losing it than on any occasion on which we have had
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the pleasure of meeting her. The glow of her eye turned sombre; her
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smile betrayed a painful effort. "Good enough for anything that I've
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done with myself? I suppose that's what you mean."
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"Good enough to be always charming!" Osmond exclaimed, smiling too.
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"Oh God!" his companion murmured; and, sitting there in her ripe
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freshness, she had recourse to the same gesture she had provoked on
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Isabel's part in the morning: she bent her face and covered it with
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her hands.
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"Are you going to weep after all?" Osmond asked; and on her
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|
remaining motionless he went on:
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"Have I ever complained to you?"
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She dropped her hand quickly. "No, you've taken your revenge
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otherwise-you have taken it on her."
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Osmond threw back his head further; he looked a while at the ceiling
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and might have been supposed to be appealing, in an informal way, to
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the heavenly powers. "Oh, the imagination of women! It's always
|
|
vulgar, at bottom. You talk of revenge like a third-rate novelist."
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"Of course you haven't complained. You've enjoyed your triumph too
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|
much."
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"I'm rather curious to know what you call my triumph."
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"You've made your wife afraid of you."
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Osmond changed his position; he leaned forward, resting his elbows
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|
on his knees and looking a while at a beautiful old Persian rug, at
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|
his feet. He had an air of refusing to accept any one's valuation of
|
|
anything, even of time, and of preferring to abide by his own; a
|
|
peculiarity which made him at moments an irritating person to converse
|
|
with. "Isabel's not afraid of me, and it's not what I wish," he said
|
|
at last. "To what do you want to provoke me when you say such things
|
|
as that?"
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|
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"I've thought over all the harm you can do me," Madame Merle
|
|
answered. "Your wife was afraid of me this morning, but in me it was
|
|
really you she feared."
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|
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"You may have said things that were in very bad taste; I'm not
|
|
responsible for that. I didn't see the use of your going to see her at
|
|
all: you're capable of acting without her. I've not made you afraid of
|
|
me that I can see," he went on; "how then should I have made her?
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|
You're at least as brave. I can't think where you've picked up such
|
|
rubbish; one might suppose you knew me by this time." He got up as
|
|
he spoke and walked to the chimney, where he stood a moment bending
|
|
his eye, as if he had seen them for the first time, on the delicate
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|
specimens of rare porcelain with which it was covered. He took up a
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|
small cup and held it in his hand; then, still holding it and
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|
leaning his arm on the mantel, he pursued: "You always see too much in
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|
everything; you overdo it; you lose sight of the real. I'm much
|
|
simpler than you think."
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|
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|
"I think you're very simple." And Madame Merle kept her eye on her
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|
cup. "I've come to that with time. I judged you, as I say, of old; but
|
|
it's only since your marriage that I've understood you. I've seen
|
|
better what you have been to your wife than I ever saw what you were
|
|
for me. Please be very careful of that precious object."
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|
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|
"It already has a wee bit of a tiny crack," said Osmond dryly as
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|
he put it down. "If you didn't understand me before I married it was
|
|
cruelly rash of you to put me into such a box. However, I took a fancy
|
|
to my box myself; I thought it would be a comfortable fit. I asked
|
|
very little; I only asked that she should like me."
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|
|
|
"That she should like you so much!"
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|
|
|
"So much, of course; in such a case one asks the maximum. That she
|
|
should adore me, if you will. Oh yes, I wanted that."
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|
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|
"I never adored you," said Madame Merle.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, but you pretended to!"
|
|
|
|
"It's true that you never accused me of being a comfortable fit,"
|
|
Madame Merle went on.
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|
|
|
"My wife has declined-declined to do anything of the sort," said
|
|
Osmond. "If you're determined to make a tragedy of that, the tragedy's
|
|
hardly for her."
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|
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|
"The tragedy's for me!" Madame Merle exclaimed, rising with a long
|
|
low sigh but having a glance at the same time for the contents of
|
|
her mantel-shelf. "It appears that I'm to be severely taught the
|
|
disadvantages of a false position."
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|
|
|
"You express yourself like a sentence in a copy-book. We must look
|
|
for our comfort where we can find it. If my wife doesn't like me, at
|
|
least my child does. I shall look for compensations in Pansy.
|
|
Fortunately I haven't a fault to find with her."
|
|
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|
"Ah," she said softly, "if I had a child-!"
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|
|
|
Osmond waited, and then, with a little formal air, "The children
|
|
of others may be a great interest!" he announced.
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|
|
|
"You're more like a copy-book than I. There's something after all
|
|
that holds us together."
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|
|
|
"Is it the idea of the harm I may do you?" Osmond asked.
|
|
|
|
"No; it's the idea of the good I may do for you. It's that,"
|
|
Madame Merle pursued, "that made me so jealous of Isabel. I want it to
|
|
be my work," she added, with her face, which had grown hard and
|
|
bitter, relaxing to its habit of smoothness.
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|
|
|
Her friend took up his hat and his umbrella, and after giving the
|
|
former article two or three strokes with his coat-cuff, "On the whole,
|
|
I think," he said, "you had better leave it to me."
|
|
|
|
After he had left her she went, the first thing, and lifted from the
|
|
mantel-shelf the attenuated coffee-cup in which he had mentioned the
|
|
existence of a crack; but she looked at it rather abstractedly.
|
|
"Have I been so vile all for nothing?" she vaguely wailed.
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|
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CHAPTER 50
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|
As the Countess Gemini was not acquainted with the ancient monuments
|
|
Isabel occasionally offered to introduce her to these interesting
|
|
relics and to give their afternoon drive an antiquarian aim. The
|
|
Countess, who professed to think her sister-in-law a prodigy of
|
|
learning, never made an objection, and gazed at masses of Roman
|
|
brickwork as patiently as if they had been mounds of modern drapery.
|
|
She had not the historic sense, though she had in some directions
|
|
the anecdotic, and as regards herself the apologetic, but she was so
|
|
delighted to be in Rome that she only desired to float with the
|
|
current. She would gladly have passed an hour every day in the damp
|
|
darkness of the Baths of Titus if it had been a condition of her
|
|
remaining at Palazzo Roccanera. Isabel, however, was not a severe
|
|
cicerone; she used to visit the ruins chiefly because they offered
|
|
an excuse for talking about other matters than the love-affairs of the
|
|
ladies of Florence, as to which her companion was never weary of
|
|
offering information. It must be added that during these visits the
|
|
Countess forbade herself every form of active research; her preference
|
|
was to sit in the carriage and exclaim that everything was most
|
|
interesting. It was in this manner that she had hitherto examined
|
|
the Coliseum, to the infinite regret of her niece, who-with all the
|
|
respect that she owed her-could not see why she should not descend
|
|
from the vehicle and enter the building. Pansy had so little chance to
|
|
ramble that her view of the case was not wholly disinterested; it
|
|
may be divined that she had a secret hope that, once inside, her
|
|
parents' guest might be induced to climb to the upper tiers. There
|
|
came a day when the Countess announced her willingness to undertake
|
|
this feat-a mild afternoon in March when the windy month expressed
|
|
itself in occasional puffs of spring. The three ladies went into the
|
|
Coliseum together, but Isabel left her companions to wander over the
|
|
place. She had often ascended to those desolate ledges from which
|
|
the Roman crowd used to bellow applause and where now the wild flowers
|
|
(when they are allowed) bloom in the deep crevices; and to-day she
|
|
felt weary and disposed to sit in the despoiled arena. It made an
|
|
intermission too, for the Countess often asked more from one's
|
|
attention than she gave in return; and Isabel believed that when she
|
|
was alone with her niece she let the dust gather for a moment on the
|
|
ancient scandals of the Arnide. She so remained below therefore, while
|
|
Pansy guided her undiscriminating aunt to the steep brick staircase at
|
|
the foot of which the custodian unlocks the tall wooden gate. The
|
|
great enclosure was half in shadow; the western sun brought out the
|
|
pale red tone of the great blocks of travertine-the latent colour that
|
|
is the only living element in the immense ruin. Here and there
|
|
wandered a peasant or a tourist, looking up at the far sky-line where,
|
|
in the clear stillness, a multitude of swallows kept circling and
|
|
plunging. Isabel presently became aware that one of the other
|
|
visitors, planted in the middle of the arena, had turned his attention
|
|
to her own person and was looking at her with a certain little poise
|
|
of the head which she had some weeks before perceived to be
|
|
characteristic of baffled but indestructible purpose. Such an
|
|
attitude, today, could belong only to Mr. Edward Rosier; and this
|
|
gentleman proved in fact to have been considering the question of
|
|
speaking to her. When he had assured himself that she was
|
|
unaccompanied he drew near, remarking that though she would not answer
|
|
his letters she would perhaps not wholly close her ears to his
|
|
spoken eloquence. She replied that her stepdaughter was close at
|
|
hand and that she could only give him five minutes; whereupon he
|
|
took out his watch and sat down upon a broken block.
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|
|
|
"It's very soon told," said Edward Rosier. "I've sold all my
|
|
bibelots!" Isabel gave instinctively an exclamation of horror; it
|
|
was as if he had told her he had had all his teeth drawn. "I've sold
|
|
them by auction at the Hotel Drouot," he went on. "The sale took place
|
|
three days ago, and they've telegraphed me the result. It's
|
|
magnificent."
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad to hear it; but I wish you had kept your pretty things."
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|
|
|
"I have the money instead-fifty thousand dollars. Will Mr. Osmond
|
|
think me rich enough now?"
|
|
|
|
"Is it for that you did it?" Isabel asked gently.
|
|
|
|
"For what else in the world could it be? That's the only thing I
|
|
think of. I went to Paris and made my arrangements. I couldn't stop
|
|
for the sale; I couldn't have seen them going off; I think it would
|
|
have killed me. But I put them into good hands, and they brought
|
|
high prices. I should tell you I have kept my enamels. Now I have
|
|
the money in my pocket, and he can't say I'm poor!" the young man
|
|
exclaimed defiantly.
|
|
|
|
"He'll say now that you're not wise," said Isabel, as if Gilbert
|
|
Osmond had never said this before.
|
|
|
|
Rosier gave her a sharp look. "Do you mean that without my
|
|
bibelots I'm nothing? Do you mean they were the best thing about me?
|
|
That's what they told me in Paris; oh they were very frank about it.
|
|
But they hadn't seen her!"
|
|
|
|
"My dear friend, you deserve to succeed," said Isabel very kindly.
|
|
|
|
"You say that so sadly that it's the same as if you said I
|
|
shouldn't." And he questioned her eyes with the clear trepidation of
|
|
his own. He had the air of a man who knows he has been the talk of
|
|
Paris for a week and is full half a head taller in consequence, but
|
|
who also has a painful suspicion that in spite of this increase of
|
|
stature one or two persons still have the perversity to think him
|
|
diminutive. "I know what happened here while I was away," he went
|
|
on. "What does Mr. Osmond expect after she has refused Lord
|
|
Warburton?"
|
|
|
|
Isabel debated. "That she'll marry another nobleman."
|
|
|
|
"What other nobleman?"
|
|
|
|
"One that he'll pick out."
|
|
|
|
Rosier slowly got up, putting his watch into his waistcoat-pocket.
|
|
|
|
"You're laughing at some one, but this time I don't think it's at
|
|
me."
|
|
|
|
"I didn't mean to laugh," said Isabel. "I laugh very seldom. Now you
|
|
had better go away."
|
|
|
|
"I feel very safe!" Rosier declared without moving. This might be;
|
|
but it evidently made him feel more so to make the announcement in
|
|
rather a loud voice, balancing himself a little complacently on his
|
|
toes and looking all round the Coliseum as if it were filled with an
|
|
audience. Suddenly Isabel saw him change colour; there was more of
|
|
an audience than he had suspected. She turned and perceived that her
|
|
two companions had returned from their excursion. "You must really
|
|
go away," she said quickly.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, my dear lady, pity me!" Edward Rosier murmured in a voice
|
|
strangely at variance with the announcement I have just quoted. And
|
|
then he added eagerly, like a man who in the midst of his misery is
|
|
seized by a happy thought: "Is that lady the Countess Gemini? I've a
|
|
great desire to be presented to her."
|
|
|
|
Isabel looked at him a moment. "She has no influence with her
|
|
brother."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, what a monster you make him out!" And Rosier faced the
|
|
Countess, who advanced, in front of Pansy, with an animation partly
|
|
due perhaps to the fact that she perceived her sister-in-law to be
|
|
engaged in conversation with a very pretty young man.
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad you've kept your enamels!" Isabel called as she left
|
|
him. She went straight to Pansy, who, on seeing Edward Rosier, had
|
|
stopped short, with lowered eyes. "We'll go back to the carriage," she
|
|
said gently.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it's getting late," Pansy returned more gently still. And
|
|
she went on without a murmur, without faltering or glancing back.
|
|
|
|
Isabel, however, allowing herself this last liberty, saw that a
|
|
meeting had immediately taken place between the Countess and Mr.
|
|
Rosier. He had removed his hat and was bowing and smiling; he had
|
|
evidently introduced himself, while the Countess's expressive back
|
|
displayed to Isabel's eye a gracious inclination. These facts, none
|
|
the less, were presently lost to sight, for Isabel and Pansy took
|
|
their places again in the carriage. Pansy, who faced her stepmother,
|
|
at first kept her eyes fixed on her lap; then she raised them and
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rested them on Isabel's. There shone out of each of them a little
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melancholy ray-a spark of timid passion which touched Isabel to the
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heart. At the same time a wave of envy passed over her soul, as she
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compared the tremulous longing, the definite ideal of the child with
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her own dry despair. "Poor little Pansy!" she affectionately said.
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"Oh never mind!" Pansy answered in the tone of eager apology.
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And then there was a silence; the Countess was a long time coming.
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"Did you show your aunt everything, and did she enjoy it?" Isabel
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asked at last.
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"Yes, I showed her everything. I think she was very much pleased."
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"And you're not tired, I hope."
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"Oh no, thank you, I'm not tired."
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The Countess still remained behind, so that Isabel requested the
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footman to go into the Coliseum and tell her they were waiting. He
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presently returned with the announcement that the Signora Contessa
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begged them not to wait-she would come home in a cab!"
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About a week after this lady's quick sympathies had enlisted
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themselves with Mr. Rosier, Isabel, going rather late to dress for
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dinner, found Pansy sitting in her room. The girl seemed to have
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been awaiting her; she got up from her low chair. "Pardon my taking
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the liberty," she said in a small voice. "It will be the last-for some
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time."
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Her voice was strange, and her eyes, widely opened, had an
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excited, frightened look. "You're not going away!" Isabel exclaimed.
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"I'm going to the convent."
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"To the convent?"
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Pansy drew nearer, till she was near enough to put her arms round
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Isabel and rest her head on her shoulder. She stood this way a moment,
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perfectly still; but her companion could feel her tremble. The
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quiver of her little body expressed everything she was unable to
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say. Isabel nevertheless pressed her. "Why are you going to the
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convent?"
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"Because papa thinks it best. He says a young girl's better, every
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now and then, for making a little retreat. He says the world, always
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the world, is very bad for a young girl. This is just a chance for a
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little seclusion-a little reflexion." Pansy spoke in short detached
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sentences, as if she could scarce trust herself; and then she added
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with a triumph of self-control: "I think papa's right; I've been so
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much in the world this winter."
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Her announcement had a strange effect on Isabel; it seemed to
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carry a larger meaning than the girl herself knew. "When was this
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decided?" she asked. "I've heard nothing of it."
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"Papa told me half an hour ago; he thought it better it shouldn't be
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too much talked about in advance. Madame Catherine's to come for me at
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a quarter past seven, and I'm only to take two frocks. It's only for a
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few weeks; I'm sure it will be very good. I shall find all those
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ladies who used to be so kind to me, and I shall see the little
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girls who are being educated. I'm very fond of little girls," said
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Pansy with an effect of diminutive grandeur. "And I'm also very fond
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of Mother Catherine. I shall be very quiet and think a great deal."
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Isabel listened to her, holding her breath; she was almost
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awe-struck.
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"Think of me sometimes."
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"Ah, come and see me soon!" cried Pansy; and the cry was very
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different from the heroic remarks of which she had just delivered
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herself.
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Isabel could say nothing more; she understood nothing; she only felt
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how little she yet knew her husband. Her answer to his daughter was
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a long, tender kiss.
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Half an hour later she learned from her maid that Madame Catherine
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had arrived in a cab and had departed again with the signorina. On
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going to the drawing-room before dinner she found the Countess
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Gemini alone, and this lady characterized the incident by
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exclaiming, with a wonderful toss of the head, "En voila, ma chere,
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une pose!" But if it was an affectation she was at a loss to see
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what her husband affected. She could only dimly perceive that he had
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more traditions than she supposed. It had become her habit to be so
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careful as to what she said to him that, strange as it may appear, she
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hesitated, for several minutes after he had come in, to allude to
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his daughter's sudden departure: she spoke of it only after they
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were seated at table. But she had forbidden herself ever to ask Osmond
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a question. All she could do was to make a declaration, and there
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was one that came very naturally. "I shall miss Pansy very much."
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He looked a while, with his head inclined a little, at the basket of
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flowers in the middle of the table. "Ah yes," he said at last, "I
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had thought of that. You must go and see her, you know; but not too
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often. I dare say you wonder why I sent her to the good sisters; but I
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doubt if I can make you understand. It doesn't matter; don't trouble
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yourself about it. That's why I had not spoken of it. I didn't believe
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you would enter into it. But I've always had the idea; I've always
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thought it a part of the education of one's daughter. One's daughter
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should be fresh and fair; she should be innocent and gentle. With
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the manners of the present time she is liable to become so dusty and
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crumpled. Pansy's a little dusty, a little dishevelled; she has
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knocked about too much. This bustling, pushing rabble that calls
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itself society-one should take her out of it occasionally. Convents
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are very quiet, very convenient, very salutary. I like to think of her
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there, in the old garden, under the arcade, among those tranquil
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virtuous women. Many of them are gentlewomen born; several of them are
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noble. She will have her books and her drawing, she will have her
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piano. I've made the most liberal arrangements. There is to be nothing
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ascetic; there's just to be a certain little sense of sequestration.
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She'll have time to think, and there's something I want her to think
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about." Osmond spoke deliberately, reasonably, still with his head
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on one side, as if he were looking at the basket of flowers. His tone,
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however, was that of a man not so much offering an explanation as
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putting a thing into words-almost into pictures-to see, himself, how
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it would look. He considered a while the picture he had evoked and
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seemed greatly pleased with it. And then he went on: "The Catholics
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are very wise after all. The convent is a great institution; we
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can't do without it; it corresponds to an essential need in
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families, in society. It's a school of good manners; it's a school
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of repose. Oh, I don't want to detach my daughter from the world,"
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he added; "I don't want to make her fix her thoughts on any other.
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This one's very well, as she should take it, and she may think of it
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as much as she likes. Only she must think of it in the right way."
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Isabel gave an extreme attention to this little sketch; she found it
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|
indeed intensely interesting. It seemed to show her how far her
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husband's desire to be effective was capable of going-to the point
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of playing theoretic tricks on the delicate organism of his
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daughter. She could not understand his purpose, no-not wholly; but she
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understood it better than he supposed or desired, inasmuch as she
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|
was convinced that the whole proceeding was an elaborate
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mystification, addressed to herself and destined to act upon her
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|
imagination. He had wanted to do something sudden and arbitrary,
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|
something unexpected and refined; to mark the difference between his
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|
sympathies and her own, and show that if he regarded his daughter as a
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precious work of art it was natural he should be more and more careful
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|
about the finishing touches. If he wished to be effective he had
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|
succeeded; the incident struck a chill into Isabel's heart. Pansy
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had known the convent in her childhood and had found a happy home
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|
there; she was fond of the good sisters, who were very fond of her,
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|
and there was therefore for the moment no definite hardship in her
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|
lot. But all the same the girl had taken fright; the impression her
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|
father desired to make would evidently be sharp enough. The old
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Protestant tradition had never faded from Isabel's imagination, and as
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her thoughts attached themselves to this striking example of her
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husband's genius-she sat looking, like him, at the basket of
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flowers-poor little Pansy became the heroine of a tragedy. Osmond
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|
wished it to be known that he shrank from nothing, and his wife
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|
found it hard to pretend to eat her dinner. There was a certain relief
|
|
presently, in hearing the high, strained voice of her sister-in-law.
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|
The Countess too, apparently, had been thinking the thing out, but had
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|
arrived at a different conclusion from Isabel.
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"It's very absurd, my dear Osmond," she said, "to invent so many
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|
pretty reasons for poor Pansy's banishment. Why don't you say at
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|
once that you want to get her out of my way? Haven't you discovered
|
|
that I think very well of Mr. Rosier? I do indeed; he seems to me
|
|
simpaticissimo. He has made me believe in true love; I never did
|
|
before! Of course you've made up your mind that with those convictions
|
|
I'm dreadful company for Pansy."
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Osmond took a sip of a glass of wine; he looked perfectly good
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|
humoured. "My dear Amy," he answered, smiling as if he were uttering a
|
|
piece of gallantry, "I don't know anything about your convictions, but
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|
if I suspected that they interfere with mine it would be much
|
|
simpler to banish you."
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CHAPTER 51
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The Countess was not banished, but she felt the insecurity of her
|
|
tenure of her brother's hospitality. A week after this incident Isabel
|
|
received a telegram from England, dated from Gardencourt and bearing
|
|
the stamp of Mrs. Touchett's authorship. "Ralph cannot last many
|
|
days," it ran, "and if convenient would like to see you. Wishes me
|
|
to say that you must come only if you've not other duties. Say, for
|
|
myself, that you used to talk a good deal about your duty and to
|
|
wonder what it was; shall be curious to see whether you've found it
|
|
out. Ralph is really dying, and there's no other company." Isabel
|
|
was prepared for this news, having received from Henrietta Stackpole a
|
|
detailed account of her journey to England with her appreciative
|
|
patient. Ralph had arrived more dead than alive, but she had managed
|
|
to convey him to Gardencourt, where he had taken to his bed, which, as
|
|
Miss Stackpole wrote, he evidently would never leave again. She
|
|
added that she had really had two patients on her hands instead of
|
|
one, inasmuch as Mr. Goodwood, who had been of no earthly use, was
|
|
quite as ailing, in a different way, as Mr. Touchett. Afterwards she
|
|
wrote that she had been obliged to surrender the field to Mrs.
|
|
Touchett, who had just returned from America and had promptly given
|
|
her to understand that she didn't wish any interviewing at
|
|
Gardencourt. Isabel had written to her aunt shortly after Ralph came
|
|
to Rome, letting her know of his critical condition and suggesting
|
|
that she should lose no time in returning to Europe. Mrs. Touchett had
|
|
telegraphed an acknowledgement of this admonition, and the only
|
|
further news Isabel received from her was the second telegram I have
|
|
just quoted.
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|
|
|
Isabel stood a moment looking at the latter missive; then, thrusting
|
|
it into her pocket, she went straight to the door of her husband's
|
|
study. Here she again paused an instant, after which she opened the
|
|
door and went in. Osmond was seated at the table near the window
|
|
with a folio volume before him, propped against a pile of books.
|
|
This volume was open at a page of small coloured plates, and Isabel
|
|
presently saw that he had been copying from it the drawing of an
|
|
antique coin. A box of water-colours and fine brushes lay before
|
|
him, and he had already transferred to a sheet of immaculate paper the
|
|
delicate, finely-tinted disk. His back was turned toward the door, but
|
|
he recognized his wife without looking round.
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|
|
|
"Excuse me for disturbing you," she said.
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|
|
|
"When I come to your room I always knock," he answered, going on
|
|
with his work.
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|
|
|
"I forgot; I had something else to think of. My cousin's dying."
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|
|
|
"Ah, I don't believe that," said Osmond, looking at his drawing
|
|
through a magnifying glass. "He was dying when we married; he'll
|
|
outlive us all."
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|
|
|
Isabel gave herself no time, no thought, to appreciate the careful
|
|
cynicism of this declaration; she simply went on quickly, full of
|
|
her own intention: "My aunt has telegraphed for me; I must go to
|
|
Gardencourt."
|
|
|
|
"Why must you go to Gardencourt?" Osmond asked in the tone of
|
|
impartial curiosity.
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|
|
|
"To see Ralph before he dies."
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|
|
|
To this, for some time, he made no rejoinder; he continued to give
|
|
his chief attention to his work, which was of a sort that would
|
|
brook no negligence.
|
|
|
|
"I don't see the need of it," he said at last. "He came to see you
|
|
here. didn't like that; I thought his being in Rome a great mistake.
|
|
But I tolerated it because it was to be the last time you should see
|
|
him. Now you tell me it's not to have been the last. Ah, you're not
|
|
grateful!"
|
|
|
|
"What am I to be grateful for?"
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|
|
|
Gilbert Osmond laid down his little implements, blew a speck of dust
|
|
from his drawing, slowly got up, and for the first time looked at
|
|
his wife. "For my not having interfered while he was here."
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes, I am. I remember perfectly how distinctly you let me know
|
|
you didn't like it. I was very glad when he went away."
|
|
|
|
"Leave him alone then. Don't run after him."
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|
|
|
Isabel turned her eyes away from him; they rested upon his little
|
|
drawing. "I must go to England," she said, with a full consciousness
|
|
that her tone might strike an irritable man of taste as stupidly
|
|
obstinate.
|
|
|
|
"I shall not like it if you do," Osmond remarked.
|
|
|
|
"Why should I mind that? You won't like it if I don't. You like
|
|
nothing do or don't do. You pretend to think I lie."
|
|
|
|
Osmond turned slightly pale; he gave a cold smile. "That's why you
|
|
must go then? Not to see your cousin, but to take a revenge on me."
|
|
|
|
"I know nothing about revenge."
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|
|
|
"I do," said Osmond. "Don't give me an occasion."
|
|
|
|
"You're only too eager to take one. You wish immensely that I
|
|
would commit some folly."
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|
|
|
"I should be gratified in that case if you disobeyed me."
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|
|
|
"If I disobeyed you?" said Isabel in a low tone which had the effect
|
|
of mildness.
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|
|
|
"Let it be clear. If you leave Rome to-day it will be a piece of the
|
|
most deliberate, the most calculated, opposition."
|
|
|
|
"How can you call it calculated? I received my aunt's telegram but
|
|
three minutes ago."
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|
|
|
"You calculate rapidly; it's a great accomplishment. I don't see why
|
|
we should prolong our discussion; you know my wish." And he stood
|
|
there as if he expected to see her withdraw.
|
|
|
|
But she never moved; she couldn't move, strange as it may seem;
|
|
she still wished to justify herself; he had the power, in an
|
|
extraordinary degree, of making her feel this need. There was
|
|
something in her imagination he could always appeal to against her
|
|
judgement. "You've no reason for such a wish," said Isabel, "and
|
|
I've every reason for going. I can't tell you how unjust you seem to
|
|
me. But I think you know. It's your own opposition that's
|
|
calculated. It's malignant."
|
|
|
|
She had never uttered her worst thought to her husband before, and
|
|
the sensation of hearing it was evidently new to Osmond. But he showed
|
|
no surprise, and his coolness was apparently a proof that he had
|
|
believed his wife would in fact be unable to resist for ever his
|
|
ingenious endeavour to draw her out. "It's all the more intense then,"
|
|
he answered. And he added almost as if he were giving her a friendly
|
|
counsel: "This is a very important matter." She recognized that; she
|
|
was fully conscious of the weight of the occasion; she knew that
|
|
between them they had arrived at a crisis. Its gravity made her
|
|
careful; she said nothing, and he went on. "You say I've no reason?
|
|
I have the very best. I dislike, from the bottom of my soul, what
|
|
you intend to do. It's dishonourable; it's indelicate; it's
|
|
indecent. Your cousin is nothing whatever to me, and I'm under no
|
|
obligation to make concessions to him. I've already made the very
|
|
handsomest. Your relations with him, while he was here, kept me on
|
|
pins and needles; but I let that pass, because from week to week I
|
|
expected him to go. I've never liked him and he has never liked me.
|
|
That's why you like him-because he hates me," said Osmond with a
|
|
quick, barely audible tremor in his voice. "I've an ideal of what my
|
|
wife should do and should not do. She should not travel across
|
|
Europe alone, in defiance of my deepest desire, to sit at the
|
|
bedside of other men. Your cousin's nothing to you; he's nothing to
|
|
us. You smile most expressively when I talk about us, but I assure you
|
|
that we, Mrs. Osmond, is all I know. I take our marriage seriously;
|
|
you appear to have found a way of not doing so. I'm not aware that
|
|
we're divorced or separated; for me we're indissolubly united. You are
|
|
nearer to me than any human creature, and I'm nearer to you. It may be
|
|
a disagreeable proximity; it's one, at any rate, of our own deliberate
|
|
making. You don't like to be reminded of that, I know; but I'm
|
|
perfectly willing, because-because-" And he paused a moment, looking
|
|
as if he had something to say which would be very much to the point.
|
|
"Because I think we should accept the consequences of our actions, and
|
|
what I value most in life is the honour of a thing!"
|
|
|
|
He spoke gravely and almost gently; the accent of sarcasm had
|
|
dropped out of his tone. It had a gravity which checked his wife's
|
|
quick emotion; the resolution with which she had entered the room
|
|
found itself caught in a mesh of fine threads. His last words were not
|
|
command, they constituted a kind of appeal; and, though she felt
|
|
that any expression of respect on his part could only be a
|
|
refinement of egotism, they represented something transcendent and
|
|
absolute, like the sign of the cross or the flag of one's country.
|
|
He spoke in the name of something sacred and precious-the observance
|
|
of a magnificent form. They were as perfectly apart in feeling as
|
|
two disillusioned lovers had ever been; but they had never yet
|
|
separated in act. Isabel had not changed; her old passion for
|
|
justice still abode within her; and now, in the very thick of her
|
|
sense of her husband's blasphemous sophistry, it began to throb to a
|
|
tune which for a moment promised him the victory. It came over her
|
|
that in his wish to preserve appearances he was after all sincere, and
|
|
that this, as far as it went, was a merit. Ten minutes before she
|
|
had felt all the joy of irreflective action-a joy to which she had
|
|
so long been a stranger; but action had been suddenly changed to
|
|
slow renunciation, transformed by the blight of Osmond's touch. If she
|
|
must renounce, however, she would let him know she was a victim rather
|
|
than a dupe. "I know you're a master of the art of mockery," she said.
|
|
"How can you speak of an indissoluble union-how can you speak of
|
|
your being contented? Where's our union when you accuse me of falsity?
|
|
Where's your contentment when you have nothing but hideous suspicion
|
|
in your heart?"
|
|
|
|
"It is in our living decently together, in spite of such drawbacks."
|
|
|
|
"We don't live decently together!" cried Isabel.
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|
|
|
"Indeed we don't if you go to England."
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|
|
|
"That's very little; that's nothing. I might do much more."
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|
|
|
He raised his eyebrows and even his shoulders a little: he had lived
|
|
long enough in Italy to catch this trick. "Ah, if you've come to
|
|
threaten me I prefer my drawing." And he walked back to his table,
|
|
where he took up the sheet of paper on which he had been working and
|
|
stood studying it. "I suppose that if I go you'll not expect me to
|
|
come back," said Isabel.
|
|
|
|
He turned quickly around, and she could see this movement at least
|
|
was not designed. He looked at her a little, and then, "Are you out of
|
|
your mind?" he enquired.
|
|
|
|
"How can it be anything but a rupture?" she went on; "especially
|
|
if all you say is true?" She was unable to see how it could be
|
|
anything but a rupture; she sincerely wished to know what else it
|
|
might be.
|
|
|
|
He sat down before his table. "I really can't argue with you on
|
|
the hypothesis of your defying me," he said. And he took up one of his
|
|
little brushes again.
|
|
|
|
She lingered but a moment longer; long enough to embrace with her
|
|
eye his whole deliberately indifferent yet most expressive figure;
|
|
after which she quickly left the room. Her faculties, her energy,
|
|
her passion, were all dispersed again; she felt as if a cold, dark
|
|
mist had suddenly encompassed her. Osmond possessed in a supreme
|
|
degree the art of eliciting any weakness. On her way back to her
|
|
room she found the Countess Gemini standing in the open doorway of a
|
|
little parlour in which a small collection of heterogeneous books
|
|
had been arranged. The Countess had an open volume in her hand; she
|
|
appeared to have been glancing down a page which failed to strike
|
|
her as interesting. At the sound of Isabel's step she raised her head.
|
|
|
|
"Ah my dear," she said, "you, who are so literary, do tell me some
|
|
amusing book to read! Everything here's of a dreariness-! Do you think
|
|
this would do me any good?"
|
|
|
|
Isabel glanced at the title of the volume she held out, but
|
|
without reading or understanding it. "I'm afraid I can't advise you.
|
|
I've had bad news. My cousin, Ralph Touchett, is dying."
|
|
|
|
The Countess threw down her book. "Ah, he was so simpatico. I'm
|
|
awfully sorry for you."
|
|
|
|
"You would be sorrier still if you knew."
|
|
|
|
"What is there to know? You look very badly," the Countess added.
|
|
|
|
"You must have been with Osmond."
|
|
|
|
Half an hour before Isabel would have listened very coldly to an
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intimation that she should ever feel a desire for the sympathy of
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her sister-in-law, and there can be no better proof of her present
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embarrassment than the fact that she almost clutched at this lady's
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fluttering attention. "I've been with Osmond," she said, while the
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Countess's bright eyes glittered at her.
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"I'm sure then he has been odious!" the Countess cried. "Did he
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say he was glad poor Mr. Touchett's dying?"
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"He said it's impossible I should go to England."
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The Countess's mind, when her interests were concerned, was agile;
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she already foresaw the extinction of any further brightness in her
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visit to Rome. Ralph Touchett would die, Isabel would go into
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mourning, and then there would be no more dinner-parties. Such a
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prospect produced for a moment in her countenance an expressive
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grimace; but this rapid, picturesque play of feature was her only
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tribute to disappointment. After all, she reflected, the game was
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almost played out; she had already overstayed her invitation. And then
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she cared enough for Isabel's trouble to forget her own, and she saw
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that Isabel's trouble was deep. It seemed deeper than the mere death
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of a cousin, and the Countess had no hesitation in connecting her
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exasperating brother with the expression of her sister-in-law's
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eyes. Her heart beat with an almost joyous expectation, for if she had
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wished to see Osmond overtopped the conditions looked favourable
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now. Of course if Isabel should go to England she herself would
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immediately leave Palazzo Roccanera; nothing would induce her to
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remain there with Osmond. Nevertheless she felt an immense desire to
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hear that Isabel would go to England.
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"Nothing's impossible for you, my dear," she said caressingly.
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"Why else are you rich and clever and good?"
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"Why indeed? I feel stupidly weak."
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"Why does Osmond say it's impossible?" the Countess asked in a
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tone which sufficiently declared that she couldn't imagine.
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From the moment she thus began to question her, however, Isabel drew
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back; she disengaged her hand, which the Countess had affectionately
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taken. But she answered this enquiry with frank bitterness. "Because
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we're so happy together that we can't separate even for a fortnight."
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"Ah," cried the Countess while Isabel turned away, "when I want to
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make a journey my husband simply tells me I can have no money!"
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Isabel went to her room, where she walked up and down for an hour.
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It may appear to some readers that she gave herself much trouble,
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and it is certain that for a woman of a high spirit she had allowed
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herself easily to be arrested. It seemed to her that only now she
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fully measured the great undertaking of matrimony. Marriage meant that
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in such a case as this, when one had to choose, one chose as a
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matter of course for one's husband. "I'm afraid-yes, I'm afraid,"
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she said to herself more than once, stopping short in her walk. But
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what she was afraid of was not her husband-his displeasure, his
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hatred, his revenge; it was not even her own later judgement of her
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conduct-a consideration which had often held her in check; it was
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simply the violence there would be in going when Osmond wished her
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to remain. A gulf of difference had opened between them, but
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nevertheless it was his desire that she should stay, it was a horror
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to him that she should go. She knew the nervous fineness with which he
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could feel an objection. What he thought of her she knew, what he
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was capable of saying to her she had felt; yet they were married,
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for all that, and marriage meant that a woman should cleave to the man
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with whom, uttering tremendous vows, she had stood at the altar. She
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sank down on her sofa at last and buried her head in a pile of
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cushions.
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When she raised her head again the Countess Gemini hovered before
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her. She had come in all unperceived; she had a strange smile on her
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thin lips and her whole face had grown in an hour a shining
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intimation. She lived assuredly, it might be said, at the window of
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her spirit, but now she was leaning far out. "I knocked," she began,
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"but you didn't answer me. So I ventured in. I've been looking at
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you for the last five minutes. You're very unhappy."
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"Yes; but I don't think you can comfort me."
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"Will you give me leave to try?" And the Countess sat down on the
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sofa beside her. She continued to smile, and there was something
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communicative and exultant in her expression. She appeared to have a
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deal to say, and it occurred to Isabel for the first time that her
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sister-in-law might say something really human. She made play with her
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glittering eyes, in which there was an unpleasant fascination.
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"After all," she soon resumed, "I must tell you, to begin with, that I
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don't understand your state of mind. You seem to have so many
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scruples, so many reasons, so many ties. When I discovered, ten
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years ago, that my husband's dearest wish was to make me miserable
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of late he has simply let me alone-ah, it was a wonderful
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simplification! My poor Isabel, you're not simple enough."
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"No, I'm not simple enough," said Isabel.
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"There's something I want you to know," the Countess
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declared-"because I think you ought to know it. Perhaps you do;
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perhaps you've guessed it. But if you have, all I can say is that I
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understand still less why you shouldn't do as you like."
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"What do you wish me to know?" Isabel felt a foreboding that made
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her heart beat faster. The Countess was about to justify herself,
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and this alone was portentous.
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But she was nevertheless disposed to play a little with her subject.
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"In your place I should have guessed it ages ago. Have you never
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really suspected?"
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"I've guessed nothing. What should I have suspected? I don't know
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what you mean.
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"That's because you've such a beastly pure mind. I never saw a woman
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with such a pure mind!" cried the Countess.
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Isabel slowly got up. "You're going to tell me something horrible."
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"You can call it by whatever name you will!" And the Countess rose
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also, while her gathered perversity grew vivid and dreadful. She stood
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a moment in a sort of glare of intention and, as seemed to Isabel even
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|
then, of ugliness; after which she said: "My first sister-in-law had
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no children."
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Isabel stared back at her; the announcement was an anticlimax. "Your
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first sister-in-law?"
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"I suppose you know at least, if one may mention it, that Osmond has
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been married before! I've never spoken to you of his wife; I thought
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it mightn't be decent or respectful. But others, less particular, must
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|
have done so. The poor little woman lived hardly three years and
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died childless. It wasn't till after her death that Pansy arrived."
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Isabel's brow had contracted to a frown; her lips were parted in
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pale, vague wonder. She was trying to follow; there seemed so much
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more to follow than she could see. "Pansy's not my husband's child
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then?"
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"Your husband's-in perfection! But no one else's husband's. Some one
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else's wife's. Ah, my good Isabel," cried the Countess, "with you
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one must dot one's i's!"
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"I don't understand. Whose wife's?" Isabel asked.
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"The wife of a horrid little Swiss who died-how long?-a dozen,
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more than fifteen, years ago. He never recognized Miss Pansy, nor,
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knowing what he was about, would have anything to say to her; and
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|
there was no reason why he should. Osmond did, and that was better;
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|
though he had to fit on afterwards the whole rigmarole of his own
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|
wife's having died in childbirth, and of his having, in grief and
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|
horror, banished the little girl from his sight for as long as
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|
possible before taking her home from nurse. His wife had really
|
|
died, you know, of quite another matter and in quite another place: in
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the Piedmontese mountains, where they had gone, one August, because
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her health appeared to require the air, but where she was suddenly
|
|
taken worse-fatally ill. The story passed, sufficiently; it was
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|
covered by the appearances so long as nobody heeded, as nobody cared
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|
to look into it. But of course I knew-without researches," the
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|
Countess lucidly proceeded; "as also, you'll understand, without a
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|
word said between us-I mean between Osmond and me. Don't you see him
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|
looking at me, in silence, that way, to settle it?-that is to settle
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|
me if I should say anything. I said nothing, right or left-never a
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|
word to a creature, if you can believe that of me: on my honour, my
|
|
dear, I speak of the thing to you now, after all this time, as I've
|
|
never, never spoken. It was to be enough for me, from the first,
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|
that the child was my niece-from the moment she was my brother's
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|
daughter. As for her veritable mother-!" But with this Pansy's
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|
wonderful aunt dropped involuntarily, from the impression of her
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|
sister-in-law's face, out of which more eyes might have seemed to look
|
|
at her than she had ever had to meet.
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She had spoken no name, yet Isabel could but check, on her own lips,
|
|
an echo of the unspoken. She sank to her seat again, hanging her head.
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"Why have you told me this?" she asked in a voice the Countess
|
|
hardly recognized.
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|
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"Because I've been so bored with your not knowing. I've been
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|
bored, frankly, my dear, with not having told you; as if, stupidly,
|
|
all this time I couldn't have managed! Ca me depasse, if you don't
|
|
mind my saying so, the things, all round you, that you've appeared
|
|
to succeed in not knowing. It's a sort of assistance-aid to innocent
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|
ignorance-that I've always been a bad hand at rendering; and in this
|
|
connexion, that of keeping quiet for my brother, my virtue has at
|
|
any rate finally found itself exhausted. It's not a black lie,
|
|
moreover, you know," the Countess inimitably added. "The facts are
|
|
exactly what I tell you."
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|
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"I had no idea," said Isabel presently; and looked up at her in a
|
|
manner that doubtless matched the apparent witlessness of this
|
|
confession.
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|
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"So I believed-though it was hard to believe. Had it never
|
|
occurred to you that he was for six or seven years her lover?"
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|
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|
"I don't know. Things have occurred to me, and perhaps that was what
|
|
they all meant."
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|
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|
"She has been wonderfully clever, she has been magnificent, about
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|
Pansy!" the Countess, before all this view of it, cried.
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|
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|
"Oh, no idea, for me," Isabel went on, "ever definitely took that
|
|
form." She appeared to be making out to herself what had been and what
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|
hadn't. "And as it is-I don't understand."
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|
|
|
She spoke as one troubled and puzzled, yet the poor Countess
|
|
seemed to have seen her revelation fall below its possibilities of
|
|
effect. She had expected to kindle some responsive blaze, but had
|
|
barely extracted a spark.
|
|
|
|
Isabel showed as scarce more impressed than she might have been,
|
|
as a young woman of approved imagination, with some fine sinister
|
|
passage of public history. "Don't you recognize how the child could
|
|
never pass for her husband's?-that is with M. Merle himself," her
|
|
companion resumed. "They had been separated too long for that, and
|
|
he had gone to some far country-I think to South America. If she had
|
|
ever had children-which I'm not sure of-she had lost them. The
|
|
conditions happened to make it workable, under stress (I mean at so
|
|
awkward a pinch), that Osmond should acknowledge the little girl.
|
|
His wife was dead-very true; but she had not been dead too long to put
|
|
a certain accommodation of dates out of the question-from the
|
|
moment, I mean, that suspicion wasn't started; which was what they had
|
|
to take care of. What was more natural than that poor Mrs. Osmond,
|
|
at a distance and for a world not troubling about trifles, should have
|
|
left behind her, poverina, the pledge of her brief happiness that
|
|
had cost her life? With the aid of a change of residence-Osmond had
|
|
been living with her at Naples at the time of their stay in the
|
|
Alps, and he in due course left it for ever-the whole history was
|
|
successfully set going. My poor sister-in-law, in her grave,
|
|
couldn't help herself, and the real mother, to save her skin,
|
|
renounced all visible property in the child."
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|
|
|
"Ah, poor, poor woman!" cried Isabel, who herewith burst into tears.
|
|
It was a long time since she had shed any; she had suffered a high
|
|
reaction from weeping. But now they flowed with an abundance in
|
|
which the Countess Gemini found only another discomfiture.
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|
|
|
"It's very kind of you to pity her!" she discordantly laughed.
|
|
"Yes indeed, you have a way of your own-!"
|
|
|
|
"He must have been false to his wife-and so very soon!" said
|
|
Isabel with a sudden check.
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|
|
|
"That's all that's wanting-that you should take up her cause!" the
|
|
Countess went on. "I quite agree with you, however, that it was much
|
|
too soon." "But to me, to me-?" And Isabel hesitated as if she had not
|
|
heard; as if her question-though it was sufficiently there in her
|
|
eyes-were all for herself.
|
|
|
|
"To you he has been faithful? Well, it depends, my dear, on what you
|
|
call faithful. When he married you he was no longer the lover of
|
|
another woman-such a lover as he had been, cara mia, between their
|
|
risks and their precautions, while the thing lasted! That state of
|
|
affairs had passed away; the lady had repented, or at all events,
|
|
for reasons of her own, drawn back: she had always had, too, a worship
|
|
of appearances so intense that even Osmond himself had got bored
|
|
with it. You may therefore imagine what it was-when he couldn't
|
|
patch it on conveniently to any of those he goes in for! But the whole
|
|
past was between them."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," Isabel mechanically echoed, "the whole past is between them."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, this later past is nothing. But for six or seven years, as I
|
|
say, they had kept it up."
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|
|
|
She was silent a little. "Why then did she want him to marry me?"
|
|
|
|
"Ah my dear, that's her superiority! Because you had money; and
|
|
because she believed you would be good to Pansy."
|
|
|
|
"Poor woman-and Pansy who doesn't like her!" cried Isabel.
|
|
|
|
"That's the reason she wanted some one whom Pansy would like. She
|
|
knows it; she knows everything."
|
|
|
|
"Will she know that you've told me this?"
|
|
|
|
"That will depend upon whether you tell her. She's prepared for
|
|
it, and do you know what she counts upon for her defence? On your
|
|
believing that I lie. Perhaps you do; don't make yourself
|
|
uncomfortable to hide it. Only, as it happens this time, I don't. I've
|
|
told plenty of little idiotic fibs, but they've never hurt any one but
|
|
myself."
|
|
|
|
Isabel sat staring at her companion's story as at a bale of
|
|
fantastic wares some strolling gypsy might have unpacked on the carpet
|
|
at her feet. "Why did Osmond never marry her?" she finally asked.
|
|
|
|
"Because she had no money." The Countess had an answer for
|
|
everything, and if she lied she lied well. "No one knows, no one has
|
|
ever known, what she lives on, or how she has got all those
|
|
beautiful things. I don't believe Osmond himself knows. Besides, she
|
|
wouldn't have married him."
|
|
|
|
"How can she have loved him then?"
|
|
|
|
"She doesn't love him in that way. She did at first, and then, I
|
|
suppose, she would have married him; but at that time her husband
|
|
was living. By the time M. Merle had rejoined-I won't say his
|
|
ancestors, because he never had any-her relations with Osmond had
|
|
changed, and she had grown more ambitious. Besides, she has never had,
|
|
about him," the Countess went on, leaving Isabel to wince for it so
|
|
tragically afterwards-she had never had, what you might call any
|
|
illusions of intelligence. She hoped she might marry a great man; that
|
|
has always been her idea. She has waited and watched and plotted and
|
|
prayed; but she has never succeeded. I don't call Madame Merle a
|
|
success, you know. I don't know what she may accomplish yet, but at
|
|
present she has very little to show. The only tangible result she
|
|
has ever achieved-except, of course, getting to know every one and
|
|
staying with them free of expense-has been her bringing you and Osmond
|
|
together. Oh, she did that, my dear; you needn't look as if you
|
|
doubted it. I've watched them for years; I know everything-everything.
|
|
I'm thought a great scatterbrain, but I've had enough application of
|
|
mind to follow up those two. She hates me, and her way of showing it
|
|
is to pretend to be for ever defending me. When people say I've had
|
|
fifteen lovers she looks horrified and declares that quite half of
|
|
them were never proved. She has been afraid of me for years, and she
|
|
has taken great comfort in the vile, false things people have said
|
|
about me. She has been afraid I'd expose her, and she threatened me
|
|
one day when Osmond began to pay his court to you. It was at his house
|
|
in Florence; do you remember that afternoon when she brought you there
|
|
and we had tea in the garden? She let me know then that if I should
|
|
tell tales two could play at that game. She pretends there's a good
|
|
deal more to tell about me than about her. It would be an
|
|
interesting comparison! I don't care a fig about what she may say,
|
|
simply because I know you don't care a fig. You can't trouble your
|
|
head about me less than you do already. So she may take her revenge as
|
|
she chooses; I don't think she'll frighten you very much. Her great
|
|
idea has been to be tremendously irreproachable-a kind of full-blown
|
|
lily-the incarnation of propriety. She has always worshipped that god.
|
|
There should be no scandal about Caesar's wife, you know; and, as I
|
|
say, she has always hoped to marry Caesar. That was one reason she
|
|
wouldn't marry Osmond; the fear that on seeing her with Pansy people
|
|
would put things together-would even see a resemblance. She has had
|
|
a terror lest the mother should betray herself. She has been awfully
|
|
careful; the mother has never done so."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes, the mother has done so," said Isabel, who had listened to
|
|
all this with a face more and more wan. "She betrayed herself to me
|
|
the other day, though I didn't recognize her. There appeared to have
|
|
been a chance of Pansy's making a great marriage, and in her
|
|
disappointment at its not coming off she almost dropped the mask."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, that's where she'd dish herself!" cried the Countess. "She
|
|
has failed so dreadfully that she's determined her daughter shall make
|
|
it up."
|
|
|
|
Isabel started at the words "her daughter," which her guest threw
|
|
off so familiarly. "It seems very wonderful," she murmured; and in
|
|
this bewildering impression she had almost lost her sense of being
|
|
personally touched by the story.
|
|
|
|
"Now don't go and turn against the poor innocent child!" the
|
|
Countess went on. "She's very nice, in spite of her deplorable origin.
|
|
I myself have liked Pansy; not, naturally, because she was hers, but
|
|
because she had become yours."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, she has become mine. And how the poor woman must have suffered
|
|
at seeing me-!" Isabel exclaimed while she flushed at the thought.
|
|
|
|
"I don't believe she has suffered; on the contrary, she has enjoyed.
|
|
Osmond's marriage has given his daughter a great little lift. Before
|
|
that she lived in a hole. And do you know what the mother thought?
|
|
That you might take such a fancy to the child that you'd do
|
|
something for her. Osmond of course could never give her a portion.
|
|
Osmond was really extremely poor; but of course you know all about
|
|
that. Ah, my dear," cried the Countess, "why did you ever inherit
|
|
money?" She stopped a moment as if she saw something singular in
|
|
Isabel's face. "Don't tell me now that you'll give her a dot. You're
|
|
capable of that, but I would refuse to believe it. Don't try to be too
|
|
good. Be a little easy and natural and nasty; feel a little wicked,
|
|
for the comfort of it, once in your life!"
|
|
|
|
"It's very strange. I suppose I ought to know, but I'm sorry,"
|
|
Isabel said. "I'm much obliged to you."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you seem to be!" cried the Countess with a mocking laugh.
|
|
"Perhaps you are-perhaps you're not. You don't take it as I should
|
|
have thought."
|
|
|
|
"How should I take it?" Isabel asked.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I should say as a woman who has been made use of" Isabel made
|
|
no answer to this; she only listened, and the Countess went on.
|
|
"They've always been bound to each other; they remained so even
|
|
after she broke off-or he did. But he has always been more for her
|
|
than she has been for him. When their little carnival was over they
|
|
made a bargain that each should give the other complete liberty, but
|
|
that each should also do everything possible to help the other on. You
|
|
may ask me how I know such a thing as that. I know it by the way
|
|
they've behaved. Now see how much better women are than men! She has
|
|
found a wife for Osmond, but Osmond has never lifted a little finger
|
|
for her. She has worked for him, plotted for him, suffered for him;
|
|
she has even more than once found money for him; and the end of it
|
|
is that he's tired of her. She's an old habit; there are moments
|
|
when he needs her, but on the whole he wouldn't miss her if she were
|
|
removed. And, what's more, to-day she knows it. So you needn't be
|
|
jealous!" the Countess added humorously.
|
|
|
|
Isabel rose from her sofa again; she felt bruised and scant of
|
|
breath; her head was humming with new knowledge. "I'm much obliged
|
|
to you," she repeated. And then she added abruptly, in quite a
|
|
different tone: "How do you know all this?"
|
|
|
|
This enquiry appeared to ruffle the Countess more than Isabel's
|
|
expression of gratitude pleased her. She gave her companion a bold
|
|
stare, with which, "Let us assume that I've invented it!" she cried.
|
|
She too, however, suddenly changed her tone and, laying her hand on
|
|
Isabel's arm, said with the penetration of her sharp bright smile:
|
|
"Now will you give up your journey?"
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Isabel started a little; she turned away. But she felt weak and in a
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moment had to lay her arm upon the mantel-shelf for support. She stood
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a minute so, and then upon her arm she dropped her dizzy head, with
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closed eyes and pale lips.
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"I've done wrong to speak-I've made you ill!" the Countess cried.
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"Ah, I must see Ralph!" Isabel wailed; not in resentment, not in the
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quick passion her companion had looked for; but in a tone of
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far-reaching, infinite sadness.
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CHAPTER 52
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There was a train for Turin and Paris that evening; and after the
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Countess had left her Isabel had a rapid and decisive conference
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with her maid, who was discreet, devoted and active. After this she
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thought (except of her journey) only of one thing. She must go and see
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Pansy; from her she couldn't turn away. She had not seen her yet, as
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Osmond had given her to understand that it was too soon to begin.
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She drove at five o'clock to a high door in a narrow street in the
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quarter of the Piazza Navona, and was admitted by the portress of
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the convent, a genial and obsequious person. Isabel had been at this
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institution before; she had come with Pansy to see the sisters. She
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knew they were good women, and she saw that the large rooms were clean
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and cheerful and that the well-used garden had sun for winter and
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shade for spring. But she disliked the place, which affronted and
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almost frightened her; not for the world would she have spent a
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night there. It produced to-day more than before the impression of a
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well-appointed prison; for it was not possible to pretend Pansy was
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free to leave it. This innocent creature had been presented to her
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in a new and violent light, but the secondary effect of the relation
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was to make her reach out a hand.
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The portress left her to wait in the parlour of the convent while
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she went to make it known that there was a visitor for the dear
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young lady. The parlour was a vast, cold apartment, with new-looking
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furniture; a large clean stove of white porcelain, unlighted, a
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collection of wax flowers under glass, and a series of engravings from
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religious pictures on the walls. On the other occasion Isabel had
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thought it less like Rome than like Philadelphia, but to-day she
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made no reflexions; the apartment only seemed to her very empty and
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very soundless. The portress returned at the end of some five minutes,
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ushering in another person. Isabel got up, expecting to see one of the
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ladies of the sisterhood, but to her extreme surprise found herself
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confronted with Madame Merle. The effect was strange, for Madame Merle
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was already so present to her vision that her appearance in the
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flesh was like suddenly, and rather awfully, seeing a painted
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picture move. Isabel had been thinking all day of her falsity, her
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audacity, her ability, her probable suffering; and these dark things
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seemed to flash with a sudden light as she entered the room. Her being
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there at all had the character of ugly evidence, of handwritings, of
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profaned relics, of grim things produced in court. It made Isabel feel
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faint; if it had been necessary to speak on the spot she would have
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been quite unable. But no such necessity was distinct to her; it
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seemed to her indeed that she had absolutely nothing to say to
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Madame Merle. In one's relations with this lady, however, there were
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never any absolute necessities; she had a manner which carried off not
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only her own deficiencies but those of other people. But she was
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different from usual: she came in slowly, behind the portress, and
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Isabel instantly perceived that she was not likely to depend upon
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her habitual resources. For her too the occasion was exceptional,
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and she had undertaken to treat it by the light of the moment. This
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gave her a peculiar gravity; she pretended not even to smile, and
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though Isabel saw that she was more than ever playing a part it seemed
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to her that on the whole the wonderful woman had never been so
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natural. She looked at her young friend from head to foot, but not
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harshly nor defiantly; with a cold gentleness rather, and an absence
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of any air of allusion to their last meeting. It was as if she had
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wished to mark a distinction. She had been irritated then, she was
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reconciled now.
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"You can leave us alone," she said to the portress; "in five minutes
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this lady will ring for you." And then she turned to Isabel, who,
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after noting what has just been mentioned, had ceased to notice and
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had let her eyes wander as far as the limits of the room would
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allow. She wished never to look at Madame Merle again. "You're
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surprised to find me here, and I'm afraid you're not pleased," this
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lady went on. "You don't see why I should have come; it's as if I
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had anticipated you. I confess I've been rather indiscreet-I ought
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to have asked your permission." There was none of the oblique movement
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of irony in this; it was said simply and mildly; but Isabel, far
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afloat on a sea of wonder and pain, could not have told herself with
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what intention it was uttered. "But I've not been sitting long,"
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Madame Merle continued; "that is I've not been long with Pansy. I came
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to see her because it occurred to me this afternoon that she must be
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rather lonely and perhaps even a little miserable. It may be good
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for a small girl; I know so little about small girls; I can't tell. At
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any rate it's a little dismal. Therefore I cam the chance. I knew of
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course that you'd come, and her father as well; still, I had not
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been told other visitors were forbidden. The good woman-what's her
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name? Madame Catherine-made no objection whatever. I stayed twenty
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minutes with Pansy; she has a charming little room, not in the least
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conventual, with a piano and flowers. She has arranged it
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delightfully; she has so much taste. Of course it's all none of my
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business, but I feel happier since I've seen her. She may even have
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a maid if she likes; but of course she has no occasion to dress. She
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wears a little black frock; she looks so charming. I went afterwards
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to see Mother Catherine, who has a very good room too; I assure you
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I don't find the poor sisters at all monastic. Mother Catherine has
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a most coquettish little toilet-table, with something that looked
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uncommonly like a bottle of eau-de-Cologne. She speaks delightfully of
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Pansy; says it's a great happiness for them to have her. She's a
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little saint of heaven and a model to the oldest of them. just as I
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was leaving Madame Catherine the portress came to say to her that
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there was a lady for the signorina. Of course I knew it must be you,
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and I asked her to let me go and receive you in her place. She
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demurred greatly-I must tell you that-and said it was her duty to
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notify the Mother Superior; it was of such high importance that you
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should be treated with respect. I requested her to let the Mother
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Superior alone and asked her how she supposed I would treat you!"
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So Madame Merle went on, with much of the brilliancy of a woman
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who had long been a mistress of the art of conversation. But there
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were phases and gradations in her speech, not one of which was lost
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upon Isabel's ear, though her eyes were absent from her companion's
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face. She had not proceeded far before Isabel noted a sudden break
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in her voice, a lapse in her continuity, which was in itself a
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complete drama. This subtle modulation marked a momentous
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discovery-the perception of an entirely new attitude on the part of
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her listener. Madame Merle had guessed in the space of an instant that
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everything was at end between them, and in the space of another
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instant she had guessed the reason why. The person who stood there was
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not the same one she had seen hitherto, but was a very different
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person-a person who knew her secret. This discovery was tremendous,
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and from the moment she made it the most accomplished of women
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faltered and lost her courage. But only for that moment. Then the
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conscious stream of her perfect manner gathered itself again and
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flowed on as smoothly as might be to the end. But it was only
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because she had the end in view that she was able to proceed. She
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had been touched with a point that made her quiver, and she needed all
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the alertness of her will to repress her agitation. Her only safety
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was in her not betraying herself. She resisted this, but the
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startled quality of her voice refused to improve she couldn't help
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it while she heard herself say she hardly knew what. The tide of her
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confidence ebbed, and she was able only just to glide into port,
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faintly grazing the bottom.
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Isabel saw it all as distinctly as if it had been reflected in a
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large clear glass. It might have been a great moment for her, for it
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might have been a moment of triumph. That Madame Merle had lost her
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pluck and saw before her the phantom of exposure-this in itself was
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a revenge, this in itself was almost the promise of a brighter day.
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And for a moment during which she stood apparently looking out of
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the window, with her back half-turned, Isabel enjoyed that
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knowledge. On the other side of the window lay the garden of the
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convent; but this is not what she saw; she saw nothing of the
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budding plants and the glowing afternoon. She saw, in the crude
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light of that revelation which had already become a part of experience
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and to which the very frailty of the vessel in which it had been
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offered her only gave an intrinsic price, the dry staring fact that
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she had been an applied handled hung-up tool, as senseless and
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convenient as mere shaped wood and iron. All the bitterness of this
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knowledge surged into her soul again; it was as if she felt on her
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lips the taste of dishonour. There was a moment during which, if she
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had turned and spoken, she would have said something that would hiss
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like a lash. But she closed her eyes, and then the hideous vision
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dropped. What remained was the cleverest woman in the world standing
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there within a few feet of her and knowing as little what to think
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as the meanest. Isabel's only revenge was to be silent still-to
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leave Madame Merle in this unprecedented situation. She left her there
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for a period that must have seemed long to this lady, who at last
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seated herself with a movement which was in itself a confession of
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helplessness. Then Isabel turned slow eyes, looking down at her.
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Madame Merle was very pale; her own eyes covered Isabel's face. She
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might see what she would, but her danger was over. Isabel would
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never accuse her, never reproach her; perhaps because she never
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would give her the opportunity to defend herself.
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"I'm come to bid Pansy good-bye," our young woman said at last. "I
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go to England to-night."
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"Go to England to-night!" Madame Merle repeated sitting there and
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looking up at her.
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"I'm going to Gardencourt. Ralph Touchett's dying."
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"Ah, you'll feel that." Madame Merle recovered herself; she had a
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chance to express sympathy. "Do you go alone?"
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"Yes; without my husband."
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Madame Merle gave a low vague murmur; a sort of recognition of the
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general sadness of things. "Mr. Touchett never liked me, but I'm sorry
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he's dying. Shall you see his mother?"
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"Yes; she has returned from America."
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"She used to be very kind to me; but she has changed. Others too
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have changed," said Madame Merle with a quiet noble pathos. She paused
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a moment, then added: "And you'll see dear old Gardencourt again!"
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"I shall not enjoy it much," Isabel answered.
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"Naturally-in your grief. But it's on the whole, of all the houses I
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know, and I know many, the one I should have liked best to live in.
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I don't venture to send a message to the people," Madame Merle
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added; "but I should like to give my love to the place."
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Isabel turned away. "I had better go to Pansy. I've not much time."
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When she looked about her for the proper egress, the door opened and
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admitted one of the ladies of the house, who advanced with a
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discreet smile, gently rubbing, under her long loose sleeves, a pair
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of plump white hands. Isabel recognized Madame Catherine, whose
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acquaintance she had already made, and begged that she would
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immediately let her see Miss Osmond. Madame Catherine looked doubly
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discreet, but smiled very blandly and said: "It will be good for her
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to see you. I'll take you to her myself" Then she directed her pleased
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guarded vision to Madame Merle.
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"Will you let me remain a little?" this lady asked. "It's so good to
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be here."
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"You may remain always if you like!" And the good sister gave a
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knowing laugh.
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She led Isabel out of the room, through several corridors, and up
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a long staircase. All these departments were solid and bare, light and
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clean; so, thought Isabel, are the great penal establishments.
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Madame Catherine gently pushed open the door of Pansy's room and
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ushered in the visitor; then stood smiling with folded hands while the
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two others met and embraced.
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"She's glad to see you," she repeated; "it will do her good." And
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she placed the best chair carefully for Isabel. But she made no
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movement to seat herself; she seemed ready to retire. "How does this
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dear child look?" she asked of Isabel, lingering a moment.
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"She looks pale," Isabel answered.
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"That's the pleasure of seeing you. She's very happy. Elle eclaire
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la maison," said the good sister.
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Pansy wore, as Madame Merle had said, a little black dress; it was
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perhaps this that made her look pale. "They're very good to me-they
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think of everything!" she exclaimed with all her customary eagerness
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to accommodate.
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"We think of you always-you're a precious charge," Madame
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Catherine remarked in the tone of a woman with whom benevolence was
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a habit and whose conception of duty was the acceptance of every care.
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It fell with a leaden weight on Isabel's ears; it seemed to
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represent the surrender of a personality, the authority of the Church.
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When Madame Catherine had left them together Pansy kneeled down
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and hid her head in her stepmother's lap. So she remained some
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moments, while Isabel gently stroked her hair. Then she got up,
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averting her face and looking about the room. "Don't you think I've
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arranged it well? I've everything I have at home."
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"It's very pretty; you're very comfortable." Isabel scarcely knew
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what she could say to her. On the one hand she couldn't let her
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think she had come to pity her, and on the other it would be a dull
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mockery to pretend to rejoice with her. So she simply added after a
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moment: "I've come to bid you good-bye. I'm going to England."
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Pansy's white little face turned red. "To England! Not to come
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back?"
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"I don't know when I shall come back."
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"Ah, I'm sorry," Pansy breathed with faintness. She spoke as if
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she had no right to criticize; but her tone expressed a depth of
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disappointment.
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"My cousin, Mr. Touchett, is very ill; he'll probably die. I wish to
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see him," Isabel said.
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"Ah yes; you told me he would die. Of course you must go. And will
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papa go?"
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"No; I shall go alone."
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For a moment the girl said nothing. Isabel had often wondered what
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she thought of the apparent relations of her father with his wife; but
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never by a glance, by an intimation, had she let it be seen that she
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deemed them deficient in an air of intimacy. She made her
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reflexions, Isabel was sure; and she must have had a conviction that
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there were husbands and wives who were more intimate than that. But
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Pansy was not indiscreet even in thought; she would as little have
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ventured to judge her gentle stepmother as to criticize her
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magnificent father. Her heart may have stood almost as still as it
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|
would have done had she seen two of the saints in the great picture in
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the convent-chapel turn their painted heads and shake them at each
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other. But as in this latter case she would (for very solemnity's
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sake) never have mentioned the awful phenomenon, so she put away all
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|
knowledge of the secrets of larger lives than her own. "You'll be very
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far away," she presently went on.
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"Yes; I shall be far away. But it will scarcely matter," Isabel
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explained; "since so long as you're here I can't be called near you."
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"Yes, but you can come and see me; though you've not come very
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often."
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"I've not come because your father forbade it. To-day I bring
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nothing with me. I can't amuse you."
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"I'm not to be amused. That's not what papa wishes."
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"Then it hardly matters whether I'm in Rome or in England."
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"You're not happy, Mrs. Osmond," said Pansy.
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"Not very. But it doesn't matter."
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"That's what I say to myself. What does it matter? But I should like
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to come out."
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"I wish indeed you might."
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"Don't leave me here," Pansy went on gently.
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Isabel said nothing for a minute; her heart beat fast. "Will you
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come away with me now?" she asked.
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Pansy looked at her pleadingly. "Did papa tell you to bring me?"
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"No; it's my own proposal."
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"I think I had better wait then. Did papa send me no message?"
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"I don't think he knew I was coming."
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"He thinks I've not had enough," said Pansy. "But I have. The ladies
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are very kind to me and the little girls come to see me. There are
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some very little ones-such charming children. Then my room-you can see
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for yourself. All that's very delightful. But I've had enough. Papa
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wished me to think a little-and I've thought a great deal."
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"What have you thought?"
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"Well, that I must never displease papa."
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"You knew that before."
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"Yes; but I know it better. I'll do anything-I'll do anything," said
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Pansy. Then, as she heard her own words, a deep, pure blush came
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|
into her face. Isabel read the meaning of it; she saw the poor girl
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|
had been vanquished. It was well that Mr. Edward Rosier had kept his
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enamels! Isabel looked into her eyes and saw there mainly a prayer
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|
to be treated easily. She laid her hand on Pansy's as if to let her
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|
know that her look conveyed diminution of esteem; for the collapse
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of the girl's momentary resistance (mute and modest thought it had
|
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been) seemed only her tribute to the truth of things. She didn't
|
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presume to judge others, but she had judged herself; she had seen
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the reality. She had no vocation for struggling with combinations;
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in the solemnity of sequestration there was something that overwhelmed
|
|
her. She bowed her pretty head to authority and only asked of
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|
authority to be merciful. Yes; it was very well that Edward Rosier had
|
|
reserved a few articles!"
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Isabel got up; her time was rapidly shortening. "Good-bye then. I
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|
leave Rome to-night."
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Pansy took hold of her dress; there was a sudden change in the
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child's face. "You look strange; you frighten me."
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"Oh, I'm very harmless," said Isabel.
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"Perhaps you won't come back?"
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"Perhaps not. I can't tell."
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"Ah, Mrs. Osmond, you won't leave me!"
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Isabel now saw she had guessed everything. "My dear child, what
|
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can I do for you?" she asked.
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"I don't know-but I'm happier when I think of you."
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"You can always think of me."
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"Not when you're so far. I'm a little afraid," said Pansy.
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"What are you afraid of?"
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"Of papa-a little. And of Madame Merle. She has just been to see
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me."
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"You must not say that," Isabel observed.
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"Oh, I'll do everything they want. Only if you're here I shall do it
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more easily."
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Isabel considered. "I won't desert you," she said at last.
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"Good-bye, my child."
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Then they held each other a moment in a silent embrace, like two
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|
sisters; and afterwards Pansy walked along the corridor with her
|
|
visitor to the top of the staircase. "Madame Merle has been here," she
|
|
remarked as they went; and as Isabel answered nothing she added
|
|
abruptly: "I don't like Madame Merle!"
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Isabel hesitated, then stopped. "You must never say that-that you
|
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don't like Madame Merle."
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Pansy looked at her in wonder; but wonder with Pansy had never
|
|
been a reason for non-compliance. "I never will again," she said
|
|
with exquisite gentleness. At the top of the staircase they had to
|
|
separate, as it appeared to be part of the mild but very definite
|
|
discipline under which Pansy lived that she should not go down. Isabel
|
|
descended, and when she reached the bottom the girl was standing
|
|
above. "You'll come back?" she called out in a voice that Isabel
|
|
remembered afterwards.
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"Yes-I'll come back."
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|
Madame Catherine met Mrs. Osmond below and conducted her to the door
|
|
of the parlour, outside of which the two stood talking a minute. "I
|
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won't go in," said the good sister. "Madame Merle's waiting for you."
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|
At this announcement Isabel stiffened; she was on the point of
|
|
asking if there were no other egress from the convent. But a
|
|
moment's reflexion assured her that she would do well not to betray to
|
|
the worthy nun her desire to avoid Pansy's other friend. Her companion
|
|
grasped her arm very gently and, fixing her a moment with wise,
|
|
benevolent eyes, said in French and almost familiarly: "Eh, bien,
|
|
chere Madame, qu'en pensez-vous?"
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"About my step-daughter? Oh, it would take long to tell you."
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"We think it's enough," Madame Catherine distinctly observed. And
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she pushed open the door of the parlour.
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Madame Merle was sitting just as Isabel had left her, like a woman
|
|
so absorbed in thought that she had not moved a little finger. As
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Madame Catherine closed the door she got up, and Isabel saw that she
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had been thinking to some purpose. She had recovered her balance;
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she was in full possession of her resources. "I found I wished to wait
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for you," she said urbanely. "But it's not to talk about Pansy."
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Isabel wondered what it could be to talk about, and in spite of
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Madame Merle's declaration she answered after a moment: "Madame
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Catherine says it's enough."
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"Yes; it also seems to me enough. I wanted to ask you another word
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about poor Mr. Touchett," Madame Merle added. "Have you reason to
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believe that he's really at his last?"
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"I've no information but a telegram. Unfortunately it only
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confirms a probability."
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"I'm going to ask you a strange question," said Madame Merle. "Are
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you very fond of your cousin?" And she gave a smile as strange as
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her utterance.
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"Yes, I'm very fond of him. But I don't understand you."
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She just hung fire. "It's rather hard to explain. Something has
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occurred to me which may not have occurred to you, and I give you
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the benefit of my idea. Your cousin did you once a great service. Have
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you never guessed it?"
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"He has done me many services."
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"Yes; but one was much above the rest. He made you a rich woman."
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"He made me? Madame Merle appearing to see herself successful, she
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went on more triumphantly: "He imparted to you that extra lustre which
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was required to make you a brilliant match. At bottom it's him
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you've to thank." She stopped; there was something in Isabel's eyes.
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"I don't understand you. It was my uncle's money."
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"Yes; it was your uncle's money, but it was your cousin's idea. He
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brought his father over to it. Ah, my dear, the sum was large!"
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Isabel stood staring; she seemed to-day to live in a world illumined
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by lurid flashes. "I don't know why you say such things. I don't
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know what you know."
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"I know nothing but what I've guessed. But I've guessed that."
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Isabel went to the door and, when she had opened it, stood a
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moment with her hand on the latch. Then she said-it was her only
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revenge: "I believed it was you I had to thank!"
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Madame Merle dropped her eyes; she stood there in a kind of proud
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penance. "You're very unhappy, I know. But I'm more so."
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"Yes; I can believe that. I think I should like never to see you
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again."
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Madame Merle raised her eyes. "I shall go to America," she quietly
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remarked while Isabel passed out.
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CHAPTER 53
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It was not with surprise, it was with a feeling which in other
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circumstances would have had much of the effect of joy, that as Isabel
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descended from the Paris Mail at Charing Cross she stepped into the
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arms, as it were-or at any rate into the hands-of Henrietta Stackpole.
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She had telegraphed to her friend from Turin, and though she had not
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definitely said to herself that Henrietta would meet her, she had felt
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her telegram would produce some helpful result. On her long journey
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from Rome her mind had been given up to vagueness; she was unable to
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question the future. She performed this journey with sightless eyes
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and took little pleasure in the countries she traversed, decked out
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though they were in the richest freshness of spring. Her thoughts
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followed their course through other countries-strange-looking,
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dimly-lighted, pathless lands, in which there was no change of
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seasons, but only, as it seemed, a perpetual dreariness of winter. She
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had plenty to think about; but it was neither reflexion nor
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conscious purpose that filled her mind. Disconnected visions passed
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through it, and sudden gleams of memory, of expectation. The past
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and the future came and went at their will, but she saw them only in
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fitful images, which rose and fell by a logic of their own. It was
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extraordinary the things she remembered. Now that she was in the
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secret, now that she knew something that so much concerned her and the
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eclipse of which had made life resemble an attempt to play whist
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with an imperfect pack of cards, the truth of things, their mutual
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relations, their meaning, and for the most part their horror, rose
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before her with a kind of architectural vastness. She remembered a
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thousand trifles; they started to life with the spontaneity of a
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shiver. She had thought them trifles at the time; now she saw that
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they had been weighted with lead. Yet even now they were trifles after
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all, for of what use was it to her to understand them? Nothing
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seemed of use to her to-day. All purpose, all intention, was
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suspended; all desire too save the single desire to reach her
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much-embracing refuge. Gardencourt had been her starting point, and to
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those muffled chambers it was at least a temporary solution to return.
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She had gone forth in her strength; she would come back in her
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weakness, and if the place had been a rest to her before, it would
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be a sanctuary now. She envied Ralph his dying, for if one were
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thinking of rest that was the most perfect of all. To cease utterly,
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to give it all up and not know anything more-this idea was as sweet as
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the vision of a cool bath in a marble tank, in a darkened chamber,
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in a hot land.
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She had moments indeed in her journey from Rome which were almost as
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good as being dead. She sat in her corner, so motionless, so
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passive, simply with the sense of being carried, so detached from hope
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and regret, that she recalled to herself one of those Etruscan figures
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couched upon the receptacle of their ashes. There was nothing to
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regret now-that was all over. Not only the time of her folly, but
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the time of her repentance was far. The only thing to regret was
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that Madame Merle had been so-well, so unimaginable. just here her
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intelligence dropped, from literal inability to say what it was that
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Madame Merle had been. Whatever it was it was for Madame Merle herself
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to regret it; and doubtless she would do so in America, where she
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had announced she was going. It concerned Isabel no more; she only had
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an impression that she should never again see Madame Merle. This
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impression carried her into the future, of which from time to time she
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|
had a mutilated glimpse. She saw herself, in the distant years,
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still in the attitude of a woman who had her life to live, and these
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intimations contradicted the spirit of the present hour. It might be
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desirable to get quite away, really away, further away than little
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|
grey-green England, but this privilege was evidently to be denied her.
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Deep in her soul-deeper than any appetite for renunciation-was the
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sense that life would be her business for a long time to come. And
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at moments there was something inspiring, almost enlivening, in the
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conviction. It was a proof of strength-it was a proof she should
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some day be happy again. It couldn't be she was to live only to
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suffer; she was still young, after all, and a great many things
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might happen to her yet. To live only to suffer-only to feel the
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injury of life repeated and enlarged-it seemed to her she was too
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valuable, too capable, for that. Then she wondered if it were vain and
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stupid to think so well of herself. When had it even been a
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guarantee to be valuable? Wasn't all history full of the destruction
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of precious things? Wasn't it much more probable that if one were fine
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one would suffer? It involved then perhaps an admission that one had a
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certain grossness; but Isabel recognized, as it passed before her
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eyes, the quick vague shadow of a long future. She should never
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escape; she should last to the end. Then the middle years wrapped
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her about again and the grey curtain of her indifference closed her
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in.
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Henrietta kissed her, as Henrietta usually kissed, as if she were
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afraid she should be caught doing it; and then Isabel stood there in
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the crowd, looking about her, looking for her servant. She asked
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nothing; she wished to wait. She had a sudden perception that she
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should be helped. She rejoiced Henrietta had come; there was something
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terrible in an arrival in London. The dusky, smoky, far-arching
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vault of the station, the strange, livid light, the dense, dark,
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pushing crowd, filled her with a nervous fear and made her put her arm
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into her friend's. She remembered she had once liked these things;
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they seemed part of a mighty spectacle in which there was something
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that touched her. She remembered how she walked away from Euston, in
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the winter dusk, in the crowded streets, five years before. She
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could not have done that to-day, and the incident came before her as
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the deed of another person.
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"It's too beautiful that you should have come," said Henrietta,
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looking at her as if she thought Isabel might be prepared to challenge
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the proposition. "If you hadn't-if you hadn't; well, I don't know,"
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remarked Miss Stackpole, hinting ominously at her powers of
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disapproval.
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Isabel looked about without seeing her maid. Her eyes rested on
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another figure, however, which she felt she had seen before; and in
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|
a moment she recognized the genial countenance of Mr. Bantling. He
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stood a little apart, and it was not in the power of the multitude
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that pressed about him to make him yield an inch of the ground he
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|
had taken-that of abstracting himself discreetly while the two
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ladies performed their embraces.
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"There's Mr. Bantling," said Isabel, gently, irrelevantly,
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scarcely caring much now whether she should find her maid or not.
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"Oh yes, he goes everywhere with me. Come here, Mr. Bantling!"
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Henrietta exclaimed. Whereupon the gallant bachelor advanced with a
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smile-a smile tempered, however, by the gravity of the occasion.
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"Isn't it lovely she has come?" Henrietta asked. "He knows all about
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it," she added; "we had quite a discussion. He said you wouldn't, I
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|
said you would."
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"I thought you always agreed," Isabel smiled in return. She felt she
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|
could smile now; she had seen in an instant, in Mr. Bantling's brave
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|
eyes, that he had good news for her. They seemed to say he wished
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|
her to remember he was an old friend of her cousin-that he understood,
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|
that it was all right. Isabel gave him her hand; she thought of him,
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|
extravagantly, as a beautiful blameless knight.
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"Oh, I always agree," said Mr. Bantling. "But she doesn't, you
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know."
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"Didn't I tell you that a maid was a nuisance?" Henrietta enquired.
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"Your young lady has probably remained at Calais."
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"I don't care," said Isabel, looking at Mr. Bantling, whom she had
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|
never found so interesting.
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"Stay with her while I go and see," Henrietta commanded, leaving the
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|
two for a moment together.
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They stood there at first in silence, and then Mr. Bantling asked
|
|
Isabel how it had been on the Channel.
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"Very fine. No, I believe it was very rough," she said, to her
|
|
companion's obvious surprise. After which she added: "You've been to
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Gardencourt, I know."
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"Now how do you know that?"
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"I can't tell you-except that you look like a person who has been to
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Gardencourt."
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"Do you think I look awfully sad? It's awfully sad there, you know."
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"I don't believe you ever look awfully sad. You look awfully
|
|
kind," said Isabel with a breadth that cost her no effort. It seemed
|
|
to her she should never again feel a superficial embarrassment.
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|
Poor Mr. Bantling, however, was still in this inferior stage. He
|
|
blushed a good deal and laughed, he assured her that he was often very
|
|
blue, and that when he was blue he was awfully fierce. "You can ask
|
|
Miss Stackpole, you know. I was at Gardencourt two days ago."
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"Did you see my cousin?"
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"Only for a little. But he had been seeing people; Warburton had
|
|
been there the day before. Ralph was just the same as usual, except
|
|
that he was in bed and that he looks tremendously ill and that he
|
|
can't speak," Mr. Bantling pursued. "He was awfully jolly and funny
|
|
all the same. He was just as clever as ever. It's awfully wretched."
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|
Even in the crowded, noisy station this simple picture was vivid.
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|
"Was that late in the day?"
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"Yes; I went on purpose. We thought you'd like to know."
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greatly obliged to you. Can I go down to-night?"
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"Ah, I don't think she'll let you go," said Mr. Bantling. "She wants
|
|
you to stop with her. I made Touchett's man promise to telegraph me
|
|
to-day, and I found the telegram an hour ago at my club. 'Quiet and
|
|
easy,' that's what it says, and it's dated two o'clock. So you see you
|
|
can wait till tomorrow. You must be awfully tired."
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"Yes, I'm awfully tired. And I thank you again."
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"Oh," said Mr. Bantling, "we were certain you would like the last
|
|
news." On which Isabel vaguely noted that he and Henrietta seemed
|
|
after all to agree. Miss Stackpole came back with Isabel's maid,
|
|
whom she had caught in the act of proving her utility. This
|
|
excellent person, instead of losing herself in the crowd, had simply
|
|
attended to her mistress's luggage, so that the latter was now at
|
|
liberty to leave the station. "You know you're not to think of going
|
|
to the country to-night," Henrietta remarked to her. "It doesn't
|
|
matter whether there's a train or not. You're to come straight to me
|
|
in Wimpole Street. There isn't a corner to be had in London, but
|
|
I've got you one all the same. It isn't a Roman palace, but it will do
|
|
for a night."
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"I'll do whatever you wish," Isabel said.
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"You'll come and answer a few questions; that's what I wish."
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|
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"She doesn't say anything about dinner, does she, Mrs. Osmond?" Mr.
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|
|
Bantling enquired jocosely.
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Henrietta fixed him a moment with her speculative gaze. "I see
|
|
you're in a great hurry to get your own. You'll be at the Paddington
|
|
Station to-morrow morning at ten."
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"Don't come for my sake, Mr. Bantling," said Isabel.
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|
"He'll come for mine," Henrietta declared as she ushered her
|
|
friend into a cab. And later, in a large dusky parlour in Wimpole
|
|
Street-to do her justice there had been dinner enough-she asked
|
|
those questions to which she had alluded at the station. "Did your
|
|
husband make you a scene about your coming?" That was Miss Stackpole's
|
|
first enquiry.
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|
|
"No; I can't say he made a scene."
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|
|
"He didn't object then?"
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|
|
"Yes, he objected very much. But it was not what you'd call a
|
|
scene."
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|
"What was it then?"
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|
|
"It was a very quiet conversation."
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|
|
Henrietta for a moment regarded her guest. "It must have been
|
|
hellish," she then remarked. And Isabel didn't deny that it had been
|
|
hellish. But she confined herself to answering Henrietta's
|
|
questions, which was easy, as they were tolerably definite. For the
|
|
present she offered her no new information. "Well," said Miss
|
|
Stackpole at last, "I've only one criticism to make. I don't see why
|
|
you promised little Miss Osmond to go back."
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|
|
"I'm not sure I myself see now," Isabel replied. "But I did then."
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|
"If you've forgotten your reason perhaps you won't return."
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Isabel waited a moment. "Perhaps I shall find another."
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"You'll certainly never find a good one."
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"In default of a better my having promised will do," Isabel
|
|
suggested.
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"Yes; that's why I hate it."
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"Don't speak of it now. I've a little time. Coming away was a
|
|
complication, but what will going back be?"
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|
|
"You must remember, after all, that he won't make you a scene!" said
|
|
Henrietta with much intention.
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|
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"He will, though," Isabel answered gravely. "It won't be the scene
|
|
of a moment; it will be a scene of the rest of my life."
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|
|
For some minutes the two women sat and considered this remainder,
|
|
and then Miss Stackpole, to change the subject, as Isabel had
|
|
requested, announced abruptly:
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|
|
"I've been to stay with Lady Pensil!"
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|
|
"Ah, the invitation came at last!"
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|
|
"Yes; it took five years. But this time she wanted to see me."
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"Naturally enough."
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"It was more natural than I think you know," said Henrietta, who
|
|
fixed her eyes on a distant point. And then she added, turning
|
|
suddenly: "Isabel Archer, I beg your pardon. You don't know why?
|
|
Because I criticized you, and yet I've gone further than you. Mr.
|
|
Osmond, at least, was born on the other side!"
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|
|
|
It was a moment before Isabel grasped her meaning; this sense was so
|
|
modestly, or at least so ingeniously, veiled. Isabel's mind was not
|
|
possessed at present with the comicality of things; but she greeted
|
|
with a quick laugh the image that her companion had raised. She
|
|
immediately recovered herself, however, and with the right excess of
|
|
intensity, "Henrietta Stackpole," she asked, "are you going to give up
|
|
your country?"
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|
|
"Yes, my poor Isabel, I am. I won't pretend to deny it; I look the
|
|
fact in the face. I'm going to marry Mr. Bantling and locate right
|
|
here in London."
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|
"It seems very strange," said Isabel, smiling now.
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|
|
"Well yes, I suppose it does. I've come to it little by little. I
|
|
think I know what I'm doing; but I don't know as I can explain."
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|
|
"One can't explain one's marriage," Isabel answered. "And yours
|
|
doesn't need to be explained. Mr. Bantling isn't a riddle."
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|
"No, he isn't a bad pun-or even a high flight of American humour. He
|
|
has a beautiful nature," Henrietta went on. "I've studied him for many
|
|
years and I see right through him. He's as clear as the style of a
|
|
good prospectus. He's not intellectual, but he appreciates
|
|
intellect. On the other hand he doesn't exaggerate its claims. I
|
|
sometimes think we do in the United States."
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|
|
|
"Ah," said Isabel, "you're changed indeed! It's the first time
|
|
I've ever heard you say anything against your native land."
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|
"I only say that we're too infatuated with mere brain-power; that,
|
|
after all, isn't a vulgar fault. But I am changed; a woman has to
|
|
change a good deal to marry."
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|
|
"I hope you'll be very happy. You will at last-over here-see
|
|
something of the inner life."
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|
|
|
Henrietta gave a little significant sigh. "That's the key to the
|
|
mystery, I believe. I couldn't endure to be kept off. Now I've as good
|
|
a right as any one!" she added with artless elation.
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|
|
|
Isabel was duly diverted, but there was a certain melancholy in
|
|
her view. Henrietta, after all, had confessed herself human and
|
|
feminine, Henrietta whom she had hitherto regarded as a light keen
|
|
flame, a disembodied voice. It was a disappointment to find she had
|
|
personal susceptibilities, that she was subject to common passions,
|
|
and that her intimacy with Mr. Bantling had not been completely
|
|
original. There was a want of originality in her marrying him-there
|
|
was even a kind of stupidity; and for a moment, to Isabel's sense, the
|
|
dreariness of the world took on a deeper tinge. A little later
|
|
indeed she reflected that Mr. Bantling himself at least was
|
|
original. But she didn't see how Henrietta could give up her
|
|
country. She herself had relaxed her hold of it, but it had never been
|
|
her country as it had been Henrietta's. She presently asked her if she
|
|
had enjoyed her visit to Lady Pensil.
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes," said Henrietta, "she didn't know what to make of me."
|
|
|
|
"And was that very enjoyable?"
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|
|
|
"Very much so, because she's supposed to be a master mind. She
|
|
thinks she knows everything; but she doesn't understand a woman of
|
|
my modern type. It would be so much easier for her if I were only a
|
|
little better or a little worse. She's so puzzled; I believe she
|
|
thinks it's my duty to go and do something immoral. She thinks it's
|
|
immoral that I should marry her brother; but, after all, that isn't
|
|
immoral enough. And she'll never understand my mixture-never!"
|
|
|
|
"She's not so intelligent as her brother then," said Isabel. "He
|
|
appears to have understood."
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|
|
|
"Oh no, he hasn't!" cried Miss Stackpole with decision. "I really
|
|
believe that's what he wants to marry me for-just to find out the
|
|
mystery and the proportions of it. That's a fixed idea-a kind of
|
|
fascination."
|
|
|
|
"It's very good in you to humour it."
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|
|
|
"Oh well," said Henrietta, "I've something to find out too!" And
|
|
Isabel saw that she had not renounced an allegiance, but planned an
|
|
attack. She was at last about to grapple in earnest with England.
|
|
|
|
Isabel also perceived, however, on the morrow, at the Paddington
|
|
Station, where she found herself, at ten o'clock, in the company
|
|
both of Miss Stackpole and Mr. Bantling, that the gentleman bore his
|
|
perplexities lightly. If he had not found out everything he had
|
|
found out at least the great point-that Miss Stackpole would not be
|
|
wanting in initiative. It was evident that in the selection of a
|
|
wife he had been on his guard against this deficiency.
|
|
|
|
"Henrietta has told me, and I'm very glad," Isabel said as she
|
|
gave him her hand.
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|
|
|
"I dare say you think it awfully odd," Mr. Bantling replied, resting
|
|
on his neat umbrella.
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|
|
|
"Yes, I think it awfully odd."
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"You can't think it so awfully odd as I do. But I've always rather
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liked striking out a line," said Mr. Bantling serenely.
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CHAPTER 54
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Isabel's arrival at Gardencourt on this second occasion was even
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quieter than it had been on the first. Ralph Touchett kept but a small
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household, and to the new servants Mrs. Osmond was a stranger; so that
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instead of being conducted to her own apartment she was coldly shown
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into the drawing-room and left to wait while her name was carried up
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to her aunt. She waited a long time; Mrs. Touchett appeared in no
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hurry to come to her. She grew impatient at last; she grew nervous and
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scared as scared as if the objects about her had begun to show for
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conscious things, watching her trouble with grotesque grimaces. The
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day was dark and cold; the dusk was thick in the corners of the wide
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brown rooms. The house was perfectly still-with a stillness that
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Isabel remembered; it had filled all the place for days before the
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death of her uncle. She left the drawing-room and wandered
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about-strolled into the library and along the gallery of pictures,
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where, in the deep silence, her footstep made an echo. Nothing was
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changed; she recognized everything she had seen years before; it might
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have been only yesterday she had stood there. She envied the
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security of valuable "pieces" which change by no hair's breadth,
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only grow in value, while their owners lose inch by inch youth,
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happiness, beauty; and she became aware that she was walking about
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as her aunt had done on the day she had come to see her in Albany. She
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was changed enough since then-that had been the beginning. It suddenly
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struck her that if her Aunt Lydia had not come that day in just that
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way and found her alone, everything might have been different. She
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might have had another life and she might have been a woman more
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blest. She stopped in the gallery in front of a small picture-a
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charming and precious Bonington-upon which her eyes rested a long
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time. But she was not looking at the picture; she was wondering
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whether if her aunt had not come that day in Albany she would have
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married Caspar Goodwood.
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Mrs. Touchett appeared at last, just after Isabel had returned to
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the big uninhabited drawing-room. She looked a good deal older, but
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her eye was as bright as ever and her head as erect; her thin lips
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seemed a repository of latent meanings. She wore a little grey dress
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of the most undecorated fashion, and Isabel wondered, as she had
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wondered the first time, if her remarkable kinswoman resembled more
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a queen-regent or the matron of a gaol. Her lips felt very thin indeed
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on Isabel's hot cheek.
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"I've kept you waiting because I've been sitting with Ralph," Mrs.
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Touchett said. "The nurse had gone to luncheon and I had taken her
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place. He has a man who's supposed to look after him, but the man's
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good for nothing; he's always looking out of the window if there
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were anything to see! I didn't wish to move, because Ralph seemed to
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be sleeping and I was afraid the sound would disturb him. I waited
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till the nurse came back. I remembered you knew the house."
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"I find I know it better even than I thought; I've been walking
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everywhere," Isabel answered. And then she asked if Ralph slept much.
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"He lies with his eyes closed; he doesn't move. But I'm not sure
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that it's always sleep."
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"Will he see me? Can he speak to me?"
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Mrs. Touchett declined the office of saying. "You can try him,"
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was the limit of her extravagance. And then she offered to conduct
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Isabel to her room. "I thought they had taken you there; but it's
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not my house, it's Ralph's; and I don't know what they do. They must
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at least have taken your luggage; I don't suppose you've brought much.
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Not that I care, however. I believe they've given you the same room
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you had before; when Ralph heard you were coming he said you must have
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that one."
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"Did he say anything else?"
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"Ah, my dear, he doesn't chatter as he used!" cried Mrs. Touchett as
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she preceded her niece up the staircase.
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It was the same room, and something told Isabel it had not been
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slept in since she occupied it. Her luggage was there and was not
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voluminous; Mrs. Touchett sat down a moment with her eyes upon it. "Is
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there really no hope?" our young woman asked as she stood before her.
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"None whatever. There never has been. It has not been a successful
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life."
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"No-it has only been a beautiful one." Isabel found herself
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already contradicting her aunt; she was irritated by her dryness.
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"I don't know what you mean by that; there's no beauty without
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health.
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That is a very odd dress to travel in."
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Isabel glanced at her garment. "I left Rome at an hour's notice; I
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took the first that came."
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"Your sisters, in America, wished to know how you dress. That seemed
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to be their principal interest. I wasn't able to tell them-but they
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seemed to have the right idea: that you never wear anything less
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than black brocade."
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"They think I'm more brilliant than I am; I'm afraid to tell them
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the truth," said Isabel. "Lily wrote me you had dined with her."
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"She invited me four times, and I went once. After the second time
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she should have let me alone. The dinner was very good; it must have
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been expensive. Her husband has a very bad manner. Did I enjoy my
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visit to America? Why should I have enjoyed it? I didn't go for my
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pleasure."
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These were interesting items, but Mrs. Touchett soon left her niece,
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whom she was to meet in half an hour at the midday meal. For this
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repast the two ladies faced each other at an abbreviated table in
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the melancholy dining-room. Here, after a little, Isabel saw her
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aunt not to be so dry as she appeared, and her old pity for the poor
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woman's inexpressiveness, her want of regret, of disappointment,
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came back to her. Unmistakeably she would have found it a blessing
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to-day to be able to feel a defeat, a mistake, even a shame or two.
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She wondered if she were not even missing those enrichments of
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consciousness and privately trying-reaching out for some aftertaste of
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life, dregs of the banquet; the testimony of pain or the cold
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recreation of remorse. On the other hand perhaps she was afraid; if
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she should begin to know remorse at all it might take her too far.
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Isabel could perceive, however, how it had come over her dimly that
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she had failed of something, that she saw herself in the future as
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an old woman without memories. Her little sharp face looked
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tragical. She told her niece that Ralph had as yet not moved, but that
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he probably would be able to see her before dinner. And then in a
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moment she added that he had seen Lord Warburton the day before; an
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announcement which startled Isabel a little, as it seemed an
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intimation that this personage was in the neighbourhood and that an
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accident might bring them together. Such an accident would not be
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happy; she had not come to England to struggle again with Lord
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Warburton. She none the less presently said to her aunt that he had
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been very kind to Ralph; she had seen something of that in Rome.
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"He has something else to think of now," Mrs. Touchett returned. And
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she paused with a gaze like a gimlet.
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Isabel saw she meant something, and instantly guessed what she
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meant. But her reply concealed her guess; her heart beat faster and
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she wished to gain a moment. "Ah yes-the House of Lords and all that."
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"He's not thinking of the Lords; he's thinking of the ladies. At
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least he's thinking of one of them; he told Ralph he's engaged to be
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married."
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"Ah, to be married!" Isabel mildly exclaimed.
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"Unless he breaks it off. He seemed to think Ralph would like to
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know. Poor Ralph can't go to the wedding, though I believe it's to
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take place very soon."
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"And who's the young lady?"
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"A member of the aristocracy; Lady Flora, Lady Felicia-something
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of that sort."
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"I'm very glad," Isabel said. "It must be a sudden decision."
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"Sudden enough, I believe; a courtship of three weeks. It has only
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just been made public."
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"I'm very glad," Isabel repeated with a larger emphasis. She knew
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her aunt was watching her-looking for the signs of some imputed
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soreness, and the desire to prevent her companion from seeing anything
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of this kind enabled her to speak in the tone of quick satisfaction,
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the tone almost of relief. Mrs. Touchett of course followed the
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tradition that ladies, even married ones, regard the marriage of their
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old lovers as an offence to themselves. Isabel's first care
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therefore was to show that however that might be in general she was
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not offended now. But meanwhile, as I say, her heart beat faster;
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and if she sat for some moments thoughtful-she presently forgot Mrs.
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Touchett's observation-it was not because she had lost an admirer. Her
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imagination had traversed half Europe; it halted, panting, and even
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trembling a little, in the city of Rome. She figured herself
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announcing to her husband that Lord Warburton was to lead a bride to
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the altar, and she was of course not aware how extremely wan she
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must have looked while she made this intellectual effort. But at
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last she collected herself and said to her aunt: "He was sure to do it
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some time or other."
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Mrs. Touchett was silent; then she gave a sharp little shake of
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the head.
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"Ah, my dear, you're beyond me!" she cried suddenly. They went on
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with their luncheon in silence; Isabel felt as if she had heard of
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Lord Warburton's death. She had known him only as a suitor, and now
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that was all over. He was dead for poor Pansy; by Pansy he might
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have lived. A servant had been hovering about; at last Mrs. Touchett
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requested him to leave them alone. She had finished her meal; she
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sat with her hands folded on the edge of the table. "I should like
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to ask you three questions," she observed when the servant had gone.
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"Three are a great many."
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"I can't do with less; I've been thinking. They're all very good
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ones."
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"That's what I'm afraid of. The best questions are the worst,"
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Isabel answered. Mrs. Touchett had pushed back her chair, and as her
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niece left the table and walked, rather consciously, to one of the
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deep windows, she felt herself followed by her eyes.
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"Have you ever been sorry you didn't marry Lord Warburton?" Mrs.
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Touchett enquired.
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Isabel shook her head slowly, but not heavily. "No, dear aunt."
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"Good. I ought to tell you that I propose to believe what you say."
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"Your believing me's an immense temptation," she declared, smiling
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still.
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"A temptation to lie? I don't recommend you to do that, for when I'm
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misinformed I'm as dangerous as a poisoned rat. I don't mean to crow
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over you."
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"It's my husband who doesn't get on with me," said Isabel.
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"I could have told him he wouldn't. I don't call that crowing over
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you," Mrs. Touchett added. "Do you still like Serena Merle?" she
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went on.
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"Not as I once did. But it doesn't matter, for she's going to
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America."
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"To America? She must have done something very bad."
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"Yes-very bad."
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"May I ask what it is?"
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"She made a convenience of me."
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"Ah," cried Mrs. Touchett, "so she did of me! She does of every
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one."
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"She'll make a convenience of America," said Isabel, smiling again
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and glad that her aunt's questions were over.
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It was not till the evening that she was able to see Ralph. He had
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been dozing all day; at least he had been lying unconscious. The
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doctor was there, but after a while went away-the local doctor, who
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had attended his father and whom Ralph liked. He came three or four
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|
times a day; he was deeply interested in his patient. Ralph had had
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Sir Matthew Hope, but he had got tired of this celebrated man, to whom
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he had asked his mother to send word he was now dead and was therefore
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without further need of medical advice. Mrs. Touchett had simply
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written to Sir Matthew that her son disliked him. On the day of
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Isabel's arrival Ralph gave no sign, as I have related, for many
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hours; but toward evening he raised himself and said he knew that
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she had come. How he knew was not apparent, inasmuch as for fear of
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exciting him no one had offered the information. Isabel came in and
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sat by his bed in the dim light; there was only a shaded candle in a
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corner of the room. She told the nurse she might he herself would
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sit with him for the rest of the evening. He had opened his eyes and
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recognized her, and had moved his hand, which lay helpless beside him,
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so that she might take it. But he was unable to speak; he closed his
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eyes again and remained perfectly still, only keeping her hand in
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his own. She sat with him a long time-till the nurse came back; but he
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gave no further sign. He might have passed away while she looked at
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him; he was already the figure and pattern of death. She had thought
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him far gone in Rome, and this was worse; there was but one change
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possible now. There was a strange tranquillity in his face; it was
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as still as the lid of a box. With this he was a mere lattice of
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bones; when he opened his eyes to greet her it was as if she were
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looking into immeasurable space. It was not till midnight that the
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nurse came back; but the hours, to Isabel, had not seemed long; it was
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exactly what she had come for. If she had come simply to wait she
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found ample occasion, for he lay three days in a kind of grateful
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|
silence. He recognized her and at moments seemed to wish to speak; but
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he found no voice. Then he closed his eyes again, as if he too were
|
|
waiting for something-for something that certainly would come. He
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was so absolutely quiet that it seemed to her what was coming had
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|
already arrived; and yet she never lost the sense that they were still
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together. But they were not always together; there were other hours
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|
that she passed in wandering through the empty house and listening for
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a voice that was not poor Ralph's. She had a constant fear; she
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thought it possible her husband would write to her. But he remained
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silent, and she only got a letter from Florence and from the
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Countess Gemini. Ralph, however, spoke at last-on the evening of the
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third day.
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"I feel better to-night," he murmured, abruptly, in the soundless
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dimness of her vigil; "I think I can say something." She sank upon her
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knees beside his pillow; took his thin hand in her own; begged him not
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to make an effort-not to tire himself. His face was of necessity
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serious-it was incapable of the muscular play of a smile; but its
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owner apparently had not lost a perception of incongruities. "What
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does it matter if I'm tired when I've all eternity to rest? There's no
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harm in making an effort when it's the very last of all. Don't
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people always feel better just before the end? I've often heard of
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that; it's what I was waiting for. Ever since you've been here I
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thought it would come. I tried two or three times; I was afraid
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you'd get tired of sitting there." He spoke slowly, with painful
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|
breaks and long pauses; his voice seemed to come from a distance. When
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he ceased he lay with his face turned to Isabel and his large
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unwinking eyes open into her own. "It was very good of you to come,"
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he went on. "I thought you would; but I wasn't sure."
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"I was not sure either till I came," said Isabel.
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"You've been like an angel beside my bed. You know they talk about
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the angel of death. It's the most beautiful of all. You've been like
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that; as if you were waiting for me."
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"I was not waiting for your death; I was waiting for-for this.
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This is not death, dear Ralph."
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"Not for you-no. There's nothing makes us feel so much alive as to
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see others die. That's the sensation of life-the sense that we remain.
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I've had it-even I. But now I'm of no use but to give it to others.
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With me it's all over." And then he paused. Isabel bowed her head
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further, till it rested on the two hands that were clasped upon his
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own. She couldn't see him now; but his far-away voice was close to her
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ear. "Isabel," he went on suddenly, "I wish it were over for you." She
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answered nothing; she had burst into sobs; she remained so, with her
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buried face. He lay silent, listening to her sobs; at last he gave a
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long groan. "Ah, what is it you have done for me?"
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"What is it you did for me?" she cried, her now extreme agitation
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half smothered by her attitude. She had lost all her shame, all wish
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to hide things. Now he must know; she wished him to know, for it
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|
brought them supremely together, and he was beyond the reach of
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pain. "You did something once-you know it. O Ralph, you've been
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everything! What have I done for you-what can I do to-day? I would die
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if you could live. But I don't wish you to live; I would die myself,
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|
not to lose you." Her voice was as broken as his own and full of tears
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and anguish.
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"You won't lose me-you'll keep me. Keep me in your heart; I shall be
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|
nearer to you than I've ever been. Dear Isabel, life is better; for in
|
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life there's love. Death is good-but there's no love."
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"I never thanked you-I never spoke-I never was what I should be!"
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Isabel went on. She felt a passionate need to cry out and accuse
|
|
herself, to let her sorrow possess her. All her troubles, for the
|
|
moment, became single and melted together into this present pain.
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|
"What must you have thought of me? Yet how could I know? I never knew,
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and I only know to-day because there are people less stupid than I."
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"Don't mind people," said Ralph. "I think I'm glad to leave people."
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She raised her head and her clasped hands; she seemed for a moment
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to pray to him.
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"Is it true-is it true?" she asked.
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"True that you've been stupid? Oh no," said Ralph with a sensible
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|
intention of wit.
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"That you made me rich-that all I have is yours?"
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He turned away his head, and for some time said nothing. Then at
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|
last: "Ah, don't speak of that-that was not happy." Slowly he moved
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|
his face toward her again, and they once more saw each other. "But for
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that-but for that-!" And he paused. "I believe I ruined you," he
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|
wailed.
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She was full of the sense that he was beyond the reach of pain; he
|
|
seemed already so little of this world. But even if she had not had it
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|
she would still have spoken, for nothing mattered now but the only
|
|
knowledge that was not pure anguish-the knowledge that they were
|
|
looking at the truth together. "He married me for the money," she
|
|
said. She wished to say everything; she was afraid he might die before
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she had done so.
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He gazed at her a little, and for the first time his fixed eyes
|
|
lowered their lids. But he raised them in a moment, and then, "He
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|
was greatly in love with you," he answered.
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"Yes, he was in love with me. But he wouldn't have married me if I
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|
had been poor. I don't hurt you in saying that. How can I? I only want
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|
you to understand. I always tried to keep you from understanding;
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but that's all over."
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"I always understood," said Ralph.
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"I thought you did, and I didn't like it. But now I like it."
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"You don't hurt me-you make me very happy." And as Ralph said this
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there was an extraordinary gladness in his voice. She bent her head
|
|
again, and pressed her lips to the back of his hand. "I always
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|
understood," he continued, "though it was so strange-so pitiful. You
|
|
wanted to look at life for yourself-but you were not allowed; you were
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|
punished for your wish. You were ground in the very mill of the
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conventional!"
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"Oh yes, I've been punished," Isabel sobbed.
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He listened to her a little, and then continued: "Was he very bad
|
|
about your coming?"
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"He made it very hard for me. But I don't care."
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"It is all over then between you?"
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"Oh no; I don't think anything's over."
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"Are you going back to him?" Ralph gasped.
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"I don't know-I can't tell. I shall stay here as long as I may. I
|
|
don't want to think-I needn't think. I don't care for anything but
|
|
you, and that's enough for the present. It will last a little yet.
|
|
Here on my knees, with you dying in my arms, I'm happier than I have
|
|
been for a long time. And I want you to be happy-not to think of
|
|
anything sad; only to feel that I'm near you and I love you. Why
|
|
should there be pain? In such hours as this what have we to do with
|
|
pain? That's not the deepest thing; there's something deeper."
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|
|
Ralph evidently found from moment to moment greater difficulty in
|
|
speaking; he had to wait longer to collect himself. At first he
|
|
appeared to make no response to these last words; he let a long time
|
|
elapse. Then he murmured simply: "You must stay here."
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|
"I should like to stay-as long as seems right."
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|
"As seems right-as seems right?" He repeated her words. "Yes, you
|
|
think a great deal about that."
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|
"Of course one must. You're very tired," said Isabel.
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|
"I'm very tired. You said just now that pain's not the deepest
|
|
thing. No-no. But it's very deep. If I could stay-"
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|
"For me you'll always be here," she softly interrupted. It was
|
|
easy to interrupt him.
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But he went on, after a moment: "It passes, after all; it's
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passing now. But love remains. I don't know why we should suffer so
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much. Perhaps I shall find out. There are many things in life.
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You're very young."
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"I feel very old," said Isabel.
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"You'll grow young again. That's how I see you. I don't believe-I
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don't believe-" But he stopped again; his strength failed him.
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She begged him to be quiet now. "We needn't speak to understand each
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other," she said.
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"I don't believe that such a generous mistake as yours can hurt
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you for more than a little."
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"Oh Ralph, I'm very happy now," she cried through her tears.
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"And remember this," he continued, "that if you've been hated you've
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also been loved. Ah but, Isabel-adored!" he just audibly and
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lingeringly breathed.
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"Oh my brother!" she cried with a movement of still deeper
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prostration.
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CHAPTER 55
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He had told her, the first evening she ever spent at Gardencourt,
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that if she should live to suffer enough she might some day see the
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ghost with which the old house was duly provided. She apparently had
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fulfilled the necessary condition; for the next morning, in the
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cold, faint dawn, she knew that a spirit was standing by her bed.
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She had lain down without undressing, it being her belief that Ralph
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would not outlast the night. She had no inclination to sleep; she
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was waiting, and such waiting was wakeful. But she closed her eyes;
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she believed that as the night wore on she should hear a knock at
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her door. She heard no knock, but at the time the darkness began
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vaguely to grow grey she started up from her pillow as abruptly as
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if she had received a summons. It seemed to her for an instant that he
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was standing there-a vague, hovering figure in the vagueness of the
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room. She stared a moment; she saw his white face-his kind eyes;
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then she saw there was nothing. She was not afraid; she was only sure.
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She quitted the place and in her certainty passed through dark
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corridors and down a flight of oaken steps that shone in the vague
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light of a hall-window. Outside Ralph's door she stopped a moment,
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listening, but she seemed to hear only the hush that filled it. She
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opened the door with a hand as gentle as if she were lifting a veil
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from the face of the dead, and saw Mrs. Touchett sitting motionless
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and upright beside the couch of her son, with one of his hands in
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her own. The doctor was on the other side, with poor Ralph's further
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wrist resting in his professional fingers. The two nurses were at
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the foot between them. Mrs. Touchett took no notice of Isabel, but the
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doctor looked at her very hard; then he gently placed Ralph's hand
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in a proper position, close beside him. The nurse looked at her very
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hard too, and no one said a word; but Isabel only looked at what she
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had come to see. It was fairer than Ralph had ever been in life, and
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there was a strange resemblance to the face of his father, which,
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six years before, she had seen lying on the same pillow. She went to
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her aunt and put her arm around her; and Mrs. Touchett, who as a
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general thing neither invited nor enjoyed caresses, submitted for a
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moment to this one, rising, as might be, to take it. But she was stiff
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and dry-eyed; her acute white face was terrible.
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"Dear Aunt Lydia," Isabel murmured.
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"Go and thank God you've no child," said Mrs. Touchett,
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disengaging herself.
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Three days after this a considerable number of people found time, at
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the height of the London "season," to take a morning train down to a
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quiet station in Berkshire and spend half an hour in a small grey
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church which stood within an easy walk. It was in the green
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burial-place of this edifice that Mrs. Touchett consigned her son to
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earth. She stood herself at the edge of the grave, and Isabel stood
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beside her; the sexton himself had not a more practical interest in
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the scene than Mrs. Touchett. It was a solemn occasion, but neither
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a harsh nor a heavy one; there was a certain geniality in the
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appearance of things. The weather had changed to fair; the day, one of
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the last of the treacherous May-time, was warm and windless, and the
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air had the brightness of the hawthorn and the blackbird. If it was
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sad to think of poor Touchett, it was not too sad, since death, for
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him, had had no violence. He had been dying so long; he was so
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ready; everything had been so expected and prepared. There were
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tears in Isabel's eyes, but they were not tears that blinded. She
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looked through them at the beauty of the day, the splendour of nature,
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the sweetness of the old English churchyard, the bowed heads of good
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friends. Lord Warburton was there, and a group of gentlemen all
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unknown to her, several of whom, as she afterwards learned, were
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connected with the bank; and there were others whom she knew. Miss
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Stackpole was among the first, with honest Mr. Bantling beside her;
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and Caspar Goodwood, lifting his head higher than the rest-bowing it
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rather less.
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During much of the time Isabel was conscious of Mr. Goodwood's gaze;
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he looked at her somewhat harder than he usually looked in public,
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while the others had fixed their eyes upon the churchyard turf. But
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she never let him see that she saw him; she thought of him only to
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wonder that he was still in England. She found she had taken for
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granted that after accompanying Ralph to Gardencourt he had gone away;
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she remembered how little it was a country that pleased him. He was
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there, however, very distinctly there; and something in his attitude
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seemed to say that he was there with a complex intention. She wouldn't
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meet his eyes, though there was doubtless sympathy in them; he made
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her rather uneasy. With the dispersal of the little group he
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disappeared, and the only person who came to speak to her-though
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several spoke to Mrs. Touchett-was Henrietta Stackpole. Henrietta
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had been crying.
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Ralph had said to Isabel that he hoped she would remain at
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Gardencourt, and she made no immediate motion to leave the place.
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She said to herself that it was but common charity to stay a little
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with her aunt. It was fortunate she had so good a formula; otherwise
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she might have been greatly in want of one. Her errand was over; she
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had done what she had left her husband to do. She had a husband in a
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foreign city, counting the hours of her absence; in such a case one
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needed an excellent motive. He was not one of the best husbands, but
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that didn't alter the case. Certain obligations were involved in the
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very fact of marriage, and were quite independent of the quantity of
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enjoyment extracted from it. Isabel thought of her husband as little
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as might be; but now that she was at a distance, beyond its spell, she
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thought with a kind of spiritual shudder of Rome. There was a
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penetrating chill in the image, and she drew back into the deepest
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shade of Gardencourt. She lived from day to day, postponing, closing
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her eyes, trying not to think. She knew she must decide, but she
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decided nothing; her coming itself had not been a decision. On that
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occasion she had simply started. Osmond gave no sound and now
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evidently would give none; he would leave it all to her. From Pansy
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she heard nothing, but that was very simple: her father had told her
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not to write.
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Mrs. Touchett accepted Isabel's company, but offered her no
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assistance; she appeared to be absorbed in considering, without
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enthusiasm but with perfect lucidity, the new conveniences of her
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own situation. Mrs. Touchett was not an optimist, but even from
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painful -occurrences she managed to extract a certain utility. This
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consisted in the reflexion that, after all, such things happened to
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other people and not to herself. Death was disagreeable, but in this
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case it was her son's death, not her own; she had never flattered
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herself that her own would be disagreeable to any one but Mrs.
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Touchett. She was better off than poor Ralph, who had left all the
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commodities of life behind him, and indeed all the security; since the
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worst of dying was, to Mrs. Touchett's mind, that it exposed one to be
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taken advantage of. For herself she was on the spot; there was nothing
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so good as that. She made known to Isabel very punctually-it was the
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evening her son was buried several of Ralph's testamentary
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arrangements. He had told her everything, had consulted her about
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everything. He left her no money; of course she had no need of
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money. He left her the furniture of Gardencourt, exclusive of the
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pictures and books and the use of the place for a year; after which it
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was to be sold. The money produced by the sale was to constitute an
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endowment for a hospital for poor persons suffering from the malady of
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which he died; and of this portion of the will Lord Warburton was
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appointed executor. The rest of his property, which was to be
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withdrawn from the bank, was disposed of in various bequests,
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several of them to those cousins in Vermont to whom his father had
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already been so bountiful. Then there were a number of small legacies.
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"Some of them are extremely peculiar," said Mrs. Touchett; "he has
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left considerable sums to persons I never heard of. He gave me a list,
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and I asked then who some of them were, and he told me they were
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people who at various times had seemed to like him. Apparently he
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thought you didn't like him, for he hasn't left you a penny. It was
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his opinion that you had been handsomely treated by his father,
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which I'm bound to say I think you were-though I don't mean that I
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ever heard him complain of it. The pictures are to be dispersed; he
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has distributed them about, one by one, as little keepsakes. The
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most valuable of the collection goes to Lord Warburton. And what do
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you think he has done with his library? It sounds like a practical
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|
joke. He has left it to your friend Miss Stackpole-'in recognition
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of her services to literature.' Does he mean her following him up from
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Rome? Was that a service to literature? It contains a great many
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rare and valuable books, and as she can't carry it about the world
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in her trunk he recommends her to sell it at auction. She will sell it
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of course at Christie's, and with the proceeds she'll set up a
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newspaper. Will that be a service to literature?"
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This question Isabel forbore to answer, as it exceeded the little
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interrogatory to which she had deemed it necessary to submit on her
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arrival. Besides, she had never been less interested in literature
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than to-day, as she found when she occasionally took down from the
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shelf one of the rare and valuable volumes of which Mrs. Touchett
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had spoken. She was quite unable to read; her attention had never been
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so little at her command. One afternoon, in the library, about a
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|
week after the ceremony in the churchyard, she was trying to fix it
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|
for an hour; but her eyes often wandered from the book in her hand
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to the open window, which looked down the long avenue. It was in
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|
this way that she saw a modest vehicle approach the door and perceived
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Lord Warburton sitting, in rather an uncomfortable attitude, in a
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|
corner of it. He had always had a high standard of courtesy, and it
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|
was therefore not remarkable, under the circumstances, that he
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|
should have taken the trouble to come down from London to call on Mrs.
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Touchett. It was of course Mrs. Touchett he had come to see, and not
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Mrs. Osmond; and to prove to herself the validity of this thesis
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Isabel presently stepped out of the house and wandered away into the
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park. Since her arrival at Gardencourt she had been but little out
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|
of doors, the weather being unfavourable for visiting the grounds.
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This evening, however, was fine, and at first it struck her as a happy
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|
thought to have come out. The theory I have just mentioned was
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plausible enough, but it brought her little rest, and if you had
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seen her pacing about you would have said she had a bad conscience.
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She was not pacified when at the end of a quarter of an hour,
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|
finding herself in view of the house, she saw Mrs. Touchett emerge
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|
from the portico accompanied by her visitor. Her aunt had evidently
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|
proposed to Lord Warburton that they should come in search of her. She
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|
was in no humour for visitors and, if she had had a chance, would have
|
|
drawn back behind one of the great trees. But she saw she had been
|
|
seen and that nothing was left her but to advance. As the lawn at
|
|
Gardencourt was a vast expanse this took some time; during which she
|
|
observed that, as he walked beside his hostess, Lord Warburton kept
|
|
his hands rather stiffly behind him and his eyes upon the ground. Both
|
|
persons apparently were silent; but Mrs. Touchett's thin little
|
|
glance, as she directed it toward Isabel, had even at a distance an
|
|
expression. It seemed to say with cutting sharpness: "Here's the
|
|
eminently amenable nobleman you might have married!" When Lord
|
|
Warburton lifted his own eyes, however, that was not what they said.
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|
They only said "This is rather awkward, you know, and I depend upon
|
|
you to help me." He was very grave, very proper and, for the first
|
|
time since Isabel had known him, greeted her without a smile. Even
|
|
in his days of distress he had always begun with a smile. He looked
|
|
extremely self-conscious.
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"Lord Warburton has been so good as to come out to see me," said
|
|
Mrs. Touchett. "He tells me he didn't know you were still here. I know
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|
he's an old friend of yours, and as I was told you were not in the
|
|
house I brought him out to see for himself."
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"Oh, I saw there was a good train at 6:40, that would get me back in
|
|
time for dinner," Mrs. Touchett's companion rather irrelevantly
|
|
explained. "I'm so glad to find you've not gone."
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"I'm not here for long, you know," Isabel said with a certain
|
|
eagerness.
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"I suppose not, but I hope it's for some weeks. You came to
|
|
England sooner than-a-than you thought?"
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"Yes, I came very suddenly."
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Mrs. Touchett turned away as if she was looking at the condition
|
|
of the grounds, which indeed was not what it should be, while Lord
|
|
Warburton hesitated a little. Isabel fancied he had been on the
|
|
point of asking about her husband-rather confusedly-and then had
|
|
checked himself. He continued immitigably grave, either because he
|
|
thought it becoming in a place over which death had just passed, or
|
|
for more personal reasons. If he was conscious of personal reasons
|
|
it was very fortunate that he had the cover of the former motive; he
|
|
could make the most of that. Isabel thought of all this. It was not
|
|
that his face was sad, for that was another matter; but it was
|
|
strangely inexpressive.
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|
|
|
"My sisters would have been so glad to come if they had known you
|
|
were still here-if they had thought you would see them," Lord
|
|
Warburton went on. "Do kindly let them see you before you leave
|
|
England."
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"It would give me great pleasure; I have such a friendly
|
|
recollection of them."
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|
|
"I don't know whether you would come to Lockleigh for a day or
|
|
two? You know there's always that old promise." And his lordship
|
|
coloured a little as he made this suggestion, which gave his face a
|
|
somewhat more familiar air. "Perhaps I'm not right in saying that just
|
|
now; of course you're not thinking of visiting. But I meant what would
|
|
hardly be a visit. My sisters are to be at Lockleigh at Whitsuntide
|
|
for five days; and if you could come then you say you're not to be
|
|
very long in England-I would see that there should be literally no one
|
|
else."
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|
|
Isabel wondered if not even the young lady he was to marry would
|
|
be there with her mamma; but she did not express this idea. "Thank you
|
|
extremely," she contented herself with saying; "I'm afraid I hardly
|
|
know about Whitsuntide."
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"But I have your promise-haven't I?-for some other time."
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|
There was an interrogation in this; but Isabel let it pass. She
|
|
looked at her interlocutor a moment, and the result of her observation
|
|
was that-M had happened before she felt sorry for him. "Take care
|
|
you don't miss your train," she said. And then she added: "I wish
|
|
you every happiness."
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|
He blushed again, more than before, and he looked at his watch.
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|
"Ah yes, 6.40; I haven't much time, but I've a fly at the door.
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|
Thank you very much." It was not apparent whether the thanks applied
|
|
to her having reminded him of his train or to the more sentimental
|
|
remark. "Good-bye, Mrs. Osmond; good-bye." He shook hands with her,
|
|
without meeting her eyes, and then he turned to Mrs. Touchett, who had
|
|
wandered back to them. With her his parting was equally brief; and
|
|
in a moment the two ladies saw him move with long steps across the
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lawn.
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"Are you very sure he's to be married?" Isabel asked of her aunt.
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"I can't be surer than he; but he seems sure. I congratulated him,
|
|
and he accepted it."
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"Ah," said Isabel, "I give it up!"-while her aunt returned to the
|
|
house and to those avocations which the visitor had interrupted.
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She gave it up, but she still thought of it-thought of it while
|
|
she strolled again under the great oaks whose shadows were long upon
|
|
the acres of turf. At the end of a few minutes she found herself
|
|
near a rustic bench, which, a moment after she had looked at it,
|
|
struck her as an object recognized. It was not simply that she had
|
|
seen it before, nor even that she had sat upon it; it was that on this
|
|
spot something important had happened to her-that the place had an air
|
|
of association. Then she remembered that she had been sitting there,
|
|
six years before, when a servant brought her from the house the letter
|
|
in which Caspar Goodwood informed her that he had followed her to
|
|
Europe; and that when she had read the letter she looked up to hear
|
|
Lord Warburton announcing that he should like to marry her. It was
|
|
indeed an historical, an interesting, bench; she stood and looked at
|
|
it as if it might have something to say to her. She wouldn't sit
|
|
down on it now-she felt rather afraid of it. She only stood before it,
|
|
and while she stood the past came back to her in one of those
|
|
rushing waves of emotion by which persons of sensibility are visited
|
|
at odd hours. The effect of this agitation was a sudden sense of being
|
|
very tired, under the influence of which she overcame her scruples and
|
|
sank into the rustic seat. I have said that she was restless and
|
|
unable to occupy herself; and whether or no, if you had seen her
|
|
there, you would have admired the justice of the former epithet, you
|
|
would at least have allowed that at this moment she was the image of a
|
|
victim of idleness. Her attitude had a singular absence of purpose;
|
|
her hands, hanging at her sides, lost themselves in the folds of her
|
|
black dress; her eyes gazed vaguely before her. There was nothing to
|
|
recall her to the house; the two ladies, in their seclusion, dined
|
|
early and had tea at an indefinite hour. How long she had sat in
|
|
this position she could not have told you; but the twilight had
|
|
grown thick when she became aware that she was not alone. She
|
|
quickly straightened herself, glancing about, and then saw what had
|
|
become of her solitude. She was sharing it with Caspar Goodwood, who
|
|
stood looking at her, a few yards off, and whose footfall on the
|
|
unresonant turf, as he came near, she had not heard. It occurred to
|
|
her in the midst of this that it was just so Lord Warburton had
|
|
surprised her of old.
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|
|
She instantly rose, and as soon as Goodwood saw he was seen he
|
|
started forward. She had had time only to rise when, with a motion
|
|
that looked like violence, but felt like-she knew not what, he grasped
|
|
her by the wrist and made her sink again into the seat. She closed her
|
|
eyes; he had not hurt her; it was only a touch, which she had
|
|
obeyed. But there was something in his face that she wished not to
|
|
see. That was the way he had looked at her the other day in the
|
|
churchyard; only at present it was worse. He said nothing at first;
|
|
she only felt him close to her-beside her on the bench and
|
|
pressingly turned to her. It almost seemed to her that no one had ever
|
|
been so close to her as that. All this, however, took but an
|
|
instant, at the end of which she had disengaged her wrist, turning her
|
|
eyes upon her visitant. "You've frightened me," she said.
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|
|
|
"I didn't mean to," he answered, "but if I did a little, no
|
|
matter. I came from London a while ago by the train, but I couldn't
|
|
come here directly. There was a man at the station who got ahead of
|
|
me. He took a fly that was there, and I heard him give the order to
|
|
drive here. I don't know who he was, but I didn't want to come with
|
|
him; I wanted to see you alone. So I've been waiting and walking
|
|
about. I've walked all over, and I was just coming to the house when I
|
|
saw you here. There was a keeper, or some one, who met me; but that
|
|
was all right, because I had made his acquaintance when I came here
|
|
with your cousin. Is that gentleman gone? Are you really alone? I want
|
|
to speak to you." Goodwood spoke very fast; he was as excited as
|
|
when they had parted in Rome. Isabel had hoped that condition would
|
|
subside; and she shrank into herself as she perceived that, on the
|
|
contrary, he had only let out sail. She had a new sensation; he had
|
|
never produced it before; it was a feeling of danger. There was indeed
|
|
something really formidable in his resolution. She gazed straight
|
|
before her; he, with a hand on each knee, leaned forward, looking
|
|
deeply into her face. The twilight seemed to darken round them. "I
|
|
want to speak to you," he repeated; "I've something particular to say.
|
|
I don't want to trouble you-as I did the other day in Rome. That was
|
|
of no use; it only distressed you. I couldn't help it; I knew I was
|
|
wrong. But I'm not wrong now; please don't think I am," he went on
|
|
with his hard, deep voice melting a moment into entreaty. "I came here
|
|
to-day for a purpose. It's very different. It was vain for me to speak
|
|
to you then; but now I can help you."
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|
|
She couldn't have told you whether it was because she was afraid, or
|
|
because such a voice in the darkness seemed of necessity a boon; but
|
|
she listened to him as she had never listened before; his words
|
|
dropped deep into her soul. They produced a sort of stillness in all
|
|
her being; and it was with an effort, in a moment, that she answered
|
|
him. "How can you help me?" she asked in a low tone, as if she were
|
|
taking what he had said seriously enough to make the enquiry in
|
|
confidence.
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|
|
|
"By inducing you to trust me. Now I know-to-day I know. Do you
|
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remember what I asked you in Rome? Then I was quite in the dark. But
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to-day I know on good authority; everything's clear to me to-day. It
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was a good thing when you made me come away with your cousin. He was a
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good man, a fine man, one of the best; he told me how the case
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stands for you. He explained everything; he guessed my sentiments.
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He was a member of your family and he left you-so long as you should
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be in England-to my care," said Goodwood as if he were making a
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great point. "Do you know what he said to me the last time I saw
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him-as he lay there where he died? He said: 'Do everything you can for
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her; do everything she'll let you.'"
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Isabel suddenly got up. "You had no business to talk about me!"
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"Why not-why not, when we talked in that way?" he demanded,
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following her fast. "And he was dying-when a man's dying it's
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different." She checked the movement she had made to leave him; she
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was listening more than ever; it was true that he was not the same
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as that last time. That had been aimless, fruitless passion, but at
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present he had an idea, which she scented in all her being. "But it
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doesn't matter!" he exclaimed, pressing her still harder, though now
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without touching a hem of her garment. "If Touchett had never opened
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his mouth I should have known all the same. I had only to look at
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you at your cousin's funeral to see what's the matter with you. You
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can't deceive me any more; for God's sake be honest with a man who's
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so honest with you. You're the most unhappy of women, and your
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husband's the deadliest of fiends."
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She turned on him as if he had struck her. "Are you mad?" she cried.
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"I've never been so sane; I see the whole thing. Don't think it's
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necessary to defend him. But I won't say another word against him;
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I'll speak only of you," Goodwood added quickly. "How can you
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pretend you're not heartbroken? You don't know what to do-you don't
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know where to turn. It's too late to play a part; didn't you leave all
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that behind you in Rome? Touchett knew all about it, and I knew it
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too-what it would cost you to come here. It will have cost you your
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life? Say it will"-and he flared almost into anger: "give me one
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word of truth! When I know such a horror as that, how can I keep
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myself from wishing to save you? What would you think of me if I
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should stand still and see you go back to your reward? 'It's awful,
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what she'll have to pay for it!'-that's what Touchett said to me. I
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may tell you that, mayn't I? He was such a near relation!" cried
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Goodwood, making his queer grim point again. "I'd sooner have been
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shot than let another man say those things to me; but he was
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different; he seemed to me to have the right. It was after he got
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home-when he saw he was dying, and when I saw it too. I understand all
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about it: you're afraid to go back. You're perfectly alone; you
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don't know where to turn. You can't turn anywhere; you know that
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perfectly. Now it is therefore that I want you to think of me."
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"To think of 'you'?" Isabel said, standing before him in the dusk.
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The idea of which she had caught a glimpse a few moments before now
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loomed large. She threw back her head a little; she stared at it as if
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it had been a comet in the sky.
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"You don't know where to turn. Turn straight to me. I want to
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persuade you to trust me," Goodwood repeated. And then he paused
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with his shining eyes. "Why should you go back-why should you go
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through that ghastly form?"
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"To get away from you!" she answered. But this expressed only a
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little of what she felt. The rest was that she had never been loved
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before. She had believed it, but this was different; this was the
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hot wind of the desert, at the approach of which the others dropped
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dead, like mere sweet airs of the garden. It wrapped her about; it
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lifted her off her feet, while the very taste of it, as of something
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potent, acrid and strange, forced open her set teeth.
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At first, in rejoinder to what she had said, it seemed to her that
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he would break out into greater violence. But after an instant he
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was perfectly quiet; he wished to prove he was sane, that he had
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reasoned it all out. "I want to prevent that, and I think I may, if
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you'll only for once listen to me. It's too monstrous of you to
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think of sinking back into that misery, of going to open your mouth to
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that poisoned air. It's you that are out of your mind. Trust me as
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if I had the care of you. Why shouldn't we be happy-when it's here
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before us, when it's so easy? I'm yours for ever-for ever and ever.
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Here I stand; I'm as firm as a rock. What have you to care about?
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You've no children; that perhaps would be an obstacle. As it is you've
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nothing to consider. You must save what you can of your life; you
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mustn't lose it all simply because you've lost a part. It would be
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an insult to you to assume that you care for the look of the thing,
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for what people will say, for the bottomless idiocy of the world.
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We've nothing to do with all that; we're quite out of it; we look at
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things as they are. You took the great step in coming away; the next
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is nothing; it's the natural one. I swear, as I stand here, that a
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woman deliberately made to suffer is-justified in anything in
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life-in going down into the streets if that will help her! I know
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how you suffer, and that's why I'm here. We can do absolutely as we
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please; to whom under the sun do we owe anything? What is it that
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holds us, what is it that has the smallest right to interfere in
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such a question as this? Such a question is between ourselves-and to
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say that is to settle it! Were we born to rot in our misery-were we
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born to be afraid? I never knew you afraid! If you'll only trust me,
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how little you will be disappointed! The world's all before us-and the
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world's very big. I know something about that."
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Isabel gave a long murmur, like a creature in pain; it was as if
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he were pressing something that hurt her. "The world's very small,"
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she said at random; she had an immense desire to appear to resist. She
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said it at random, to hear herself say something; but it was not
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what she meant. The world, in truth, had never seemed so large; it
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seemed to open out, all round her, to take the form of a mighty sea,
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where she floated in fathomless waters. She had wanted help, and
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here was help; it had come in a rushing torrent. I know not whether
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she believed everything he said; but she believed just then that to
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let him take her in his arms would be the next best thing to her
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dying. This belief, for a moment, was a kind of rapture, in which
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she felt herself sink and sink. In the movement she seemed to beat
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with her feet, in order to catch herself, to feel something to rest
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on.
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"Ah, be mine as I'm yours!" she heard her companion cry. He had
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suddenly given up argument, and his voice seemed to come, harsh and
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terrible, through a confusion of vaguer sounds.
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This however, of course, was but a subjective fact, as the
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metaphysicians say; the confusion, the noise of waters, all the rest
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of it, were in her own swimming head. In an instant she became aware
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of this. "Do me the greatest kindness of all," she panted. "I
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beseech you to go away!"
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"Ah, don't say that. Don't kill me!" he cried.
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She clasped her hands; her eyes were streaming with tears. "As you
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love me, as you pity me, leave me alone!"
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He glared at her a moment through the dusk, and the next instant she
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felt his arms about her and his lips on her own lips. His kiss was
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like white lightning, a flash that spread, and spread again, and
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stayed; and it was extraordinarily as if, while she took it, she
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felt each thing in his hard manhood that had least pleased her, each
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aggressive fact of his face, his figure, his presence, justified of
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its intense identity and made one with this act of possession. So
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had she heard of those wrecked and under water following a train of
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images before they sink. But when darkness returned she was free.
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She never looked about her; she only darted from the spot. There
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were lights in the windows of the house; they shone far across the
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lawn. In an extraordinarily short time-for the distance was
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considerable-he had moved through the darkness (for she saw nothing)
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and reached the door. Here only she paused. She looked all about
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her; she listened a little; then she put her hand on the latch. She
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had not known where to turn; but she knew now. There was a very
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straight path.
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Two days afterwards Caspar Goodwood knocked at the door of the house
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in Wimpole Street in which Henrietta Stackpole occupied furnished
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lodgings. He had hardly removed his hand from the knocker when the
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door was opened and Miss Stackpole herself stood before him. She had
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on her hat and jacket; she was on the point of going out. "Oh,
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good-morning," he said, "I was in hopes I should find Mrs. Osmond."
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Henrietta kept him waiting a moment for her reply; but there was a
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good deal of expression about Miss Stackpole even when she was silent.
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"Pray what led you to suppose she was here?"
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"I went down to Gardencourt this morning, and the servant told me
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she had come to London. He believed she was to come to you."
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Again Miss Stackpole held him-with an intention of perfect
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|
kindness-in suspense. "She came here yesterday, and spent the night.
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But this morning she started for Rome."
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Caspar Goodwood was not looking at her; his eyes were fastened on
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the doorstep. "Oh, she started-?" he stammered. And without
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|
finishing his phrase or looking up he stiffly averted himself. But
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he couldn't otherwise move.
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Henrietta had come out, closing the door behind her, and now she put
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|
out her hand and grasped his arm. "Look here, Mr. Goodwood," she said;
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|
"just you wait!"
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On which he looked up at her-but only to guess, from her face,
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|
with a revulsion, that she simply meant he was young. She stood
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|
shining at him with that cheap comfort, and it added, on the spot,
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|
thirty years to his life. She walked him away with her, however, as if
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she had given him now the key to patience.
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THE END
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