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7080 lines
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1861
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SILAS MARNER
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by George Eliot
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PART ONE
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CHAPTER ONE
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IN the days when the spinning-wheels hummed busily in the
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farmhouses- and even great ladies, clothed in silk and thread-lace,
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had their toy spinning-wheels of polished oak- there might be seen, in
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districts far away among the lanes, or deep in the bosom of the hills,
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certain pallid undersized men, who, by the side of the brawny
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country-folk, looked like the remnants of a disinherited race. The
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shepherd's dog barked fiercely when one of these alien-looking men
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appeared on the upland, dark against the early winter sunset; for what
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dog likes a figure bent under a heavy bag?- and these pale men
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rarely stirred abroad without that mysterious burden. The shepherd
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himself, though he had good reason to believe that the bag held
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nothing but flaxen thread, or else the long rolls of strong linen spun
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from that thread, was not quite sure that this trade of weaving,
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indispensable though it was, could be carried on entirely without
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the help of the Evil One. In that far-off time superstition clung
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easily round every person or thing that was at all unwonted, or even
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intermittent and occasional merely, like the visits of the pedlar or
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the knife-grinder. No one knew where wandering men had their homes
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or their origin; and how was a man to be explained unless you at least
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knew somebody who knew his father and mother? To the peasants of old
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times, the world outside their own direct experience was a region of
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vagueness and mystery: to their untravelled thought a state of
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wandering was a conception as dim as the winter life of the swallows
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that came back with the spring; and even a settler, if he came from
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distant parts, hardly ever ceased to be viewed with a remnant of
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distrust, which would have prevented any surprise if a long course
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of inoffensive conduct on his part had ended in the commission of a
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crime; especially if he had any reputation for knowledge, or showed
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any skill in handicraft. All cleverness, whether in the rapid use of
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that difficult instrument the tongue, or in some other art
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unfamiliar to villagers, was in itself suspicious: honest folks,
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born and bred in a visible manner, were mostly not overwise or clever-
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at least, not beyond such a matter as knowing the signs of the
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weather; and the process by which rapidity and dexterity of any kind
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were acquired was so wholly hidden, that they partook of the nature of
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conjuring. In this way it came to pass that those scattered
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linen-weavers- emigrants from the town into the country- were to the
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last regarded as aliens by their rustic neighbours, and usually
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contracted the eccentric habits which belong to a state of loneliness.
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In the early years of this century, such a linen-weaver, named
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Silas Marner, worked at his vocation in a stone cottage that stood
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among the nutty hedgerows near the village of Raveloe, and not far
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from the edge of a deserted stone-pit. The questionable sound of
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Silas's loom, so unlike the natural cheerful trotting of the winnowing
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machine, or the simple rhythm of the flail, had a half-fearful
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fascination for the Raveloe boys, who would often leave off their
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nutting or birds'-nesting to peep in at the window of the stone
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cottage, counter-balancing a certain awe at the mysterious action of
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the loom, by a pleasant sense of scornful superiority, drawn from
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the mockery of its alternating noises, along with the bent,
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treadmill attitude of the weaver. But sometimes it happened that
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Marner, pausing to adjust an irregularity in his thread, became
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aware of the small scoundrels, and, though chary of his time, he liked
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their intrusion so ill that he would descend from his loom, and,
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opening the door, would fix on them a gaze that was always enough to
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make them take to their legs in terror. For how was it possible to
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believe that those large brown protuberant eyes in Silas Marner's pale
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face really saw nothing very distinctly that was not close to them,
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and not rather that their dreadful stare could dart cramp, or rickets,
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or a wry mouth at any boy who happened to be in the rear? They had,
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perhaps, heard their fathers and mothers hint that Silas Marner
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could cure folks' rheumatism if he had a mind, and add, still more
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darkly, that if you could only speak the devil fair enough, he might
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save you the cost of the doctor. Such strange lingering echoes of
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the old demon-worship might perhaps even now be caught by the diligent
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listener among the grey-haired peasantry; for the rude mind with
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difficulty associates the idea of power and benignity. A shadowy
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conception of power that by much persuasion can be induced to
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refrain from inflicting harm, is the shape most easily taken by the
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sense of the Invisible in the minds of men who have always been
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pressed close by primitive wants, and to whom a life of hard toil
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has never been illuminated by any enthusiastic religious faith. To
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them pain and mishap present a far wider range of possibilities than
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gladness and enjoyment: their imagination is almost barren of the
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images that feed desire and hope, but is all overgrown by
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recollections that are a perpetual pasture to fear. 'Is there anything
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you can fancy that you would like to eat?' I once said to an old
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labouring man, who was in his last illness, and who had refused all
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the food his wife had offered him. 'No,' he answered, 'I've never been
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used to nothing but common victual, and I can't eat that.'
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Experience had bred no fancies in him that could raise the phantasm of
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appetite.
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And Raveloe was a village where many of the old echoes lingered,
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undrowned by new voices. Not that it was one of those barren
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parishes lying on the outskirts of civilization- inhabited by meagre
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sheep and thinly-scattered shepherds: on the contrary, it lay in the
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rich central plain of what we are pleased to call Merry England, and
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held farms which, speaking from a spiritual point of view, paid
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highly-desirable tithes. But it was nestled in a snug well-wooded
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hollow, quite an hour's journey on horseback from any turnpike,
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where it was never reached by the vibrations of the coach-horn, or
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of public opinion. It was an important-looking village, with a fine
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old church and large churchyard in the heart of it, and two or three
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large brick-and-stone homesteads, with well-walled orchards and
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ornamental weathercocks, standing close upon the road, and lifting
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more imposing fronts than the rectory, which peeped from among the
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trees on the other side of the churchyard; a village which showed at
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once the summits of its social life, and told the practised eye that
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there was no great park and manor house in the vicinity, but that
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there were several chiefs in Raveloe who could farm badly quite at
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their ease, drawing enough money from their bad farming, in those
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war times, to live in a rollicking fashion, and keep a jolly
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Christmas, Whitsun, and Easter tide.
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It was fifteen years since Silas Marner had first come to
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Raveloe; he was then simply a pallid young man, with prominent,
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short-sighted brown eyes, whose appearance would have had nothing
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strange for people of average culture and experience, but for the
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villagers near whom he had come to settle it had mysterious
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peculiarities which corresponded with the exceptional nature of his
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occupation, and his advent from an unknown region called
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'North'ard'. So had his way of life: he invited no comer to step
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across his door-sill, and he never strolled into the village to
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drink a pint at the Rainbow, or to gossip at the wheel-wright's: he
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sought no man or woman, save for the purposes of his calling, or in
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order to supply himself with necessaries; and it was soon clear to the
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Raveloe lasses that he would never urge one of them to accept him
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against her will- quite as if he had heard them declare that they
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would never marry a dead man come to life again. This view of Marner's
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personality was not without another ground than his pale face and
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unexampled eyes; for Jem Rodney, the mole-catcher, averred that, one
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evening as he was returning homeward, he saw Silas Marner leaning
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against a stile with a heavy bag on his back, instead of resting the
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bag on the stile as a man in his senses would have done; and that,
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on coming up to him, he saw that Marner's eyes were set like a dead
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man's, and he spoke to him, and shook him, and his limbs were stiff,
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and his hands clutched the bag as if they'd been made of iron; but
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just as he had made up his mind that the weaver was dead, he came
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all right again, like, as you might say, in the winking of an eye, and
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said 'Good-night', and walked off. All this Jem swore he had seen,
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more by token, that it was the very day he had been mole-catching on
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Squire Cass's land, down by the old saw-pit. Some said Marner must
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have been in a 'fit', a word which seemed to explain things
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otherwise incredible; but the argumentative Mr Macey, clerk of the
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parish, shook his head, and asked if anybody was ever known to go
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off in a fit and not fall down. A fit was a stroke, wasn't it? and
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it was in the nature of a stroke to partly take away the use of a
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man's limbs and throw him on the parish, if he'd got no children to
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look to. No, no; it was no stroke that would let a man stand on his
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legs, like a horse between the shafts, and then walk off as soon as
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you can say 'Gee!' But there might be such a thing as a man's soul
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being loose from his body, and going out and in, like a bird out of
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its nest and back; and that was how folks got overwise, for they
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went to school in this shell-less state to those who could teach
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them more than their neighbours could learn with their five senses and
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the parson. And where did Master Marner get his knowledge of herbs
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from- and charms, too, if he liked to give them away? Jem Rodney's
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story was no more than what might have been expected by anybody who
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had seen how Marner had cured Sally Oates, and made her sleep like a
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baby, when her heart had been beating enough to burst her body, for
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two months and more, while she had been under the doctor's care. He
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might cure more folks if he would; but he was worth speaking fair,
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if it was only to keep him from doing you a mischief.
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It was partly to this vague fear that Marner was indebted for
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protecting him from the persecution that his singularities might
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have drawn upon him, but still more to the fact that, the old
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linen-weaver in the neighbouring parish of Tarley being dead, his
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handicraft made him a highly welcome settler to the richer
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housewives of the district, and even to the more provident
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cottagers, who had their little stock of yarn at the year's end; and
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their sense of his usefulness would have counteracted any repugnance
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or suspicion which was not confirmed by a deficiency in the quality or
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the tale of the cloth he wove for them. And the years had rolled on
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without producing any change in the impressions of the neighbours
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concerning Marner, except the change from novelty to habit. At the end
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of fifteen years the Raveloe men said just the same things about Silas
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Marner as at the beginning: they did not say them quite so often,
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but they believed them much more strongly when they did say them.
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There was only one important addition which the years had brought:
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it was, that Master Marner had laid by a fine sight of money
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somewhere, and that he could buy up 'bigger men' than himself.
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But while opinion concerning him had remained nearly stationary,
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and his daily habits had presented scarcely any visible change,
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Marner's inward life had been a history and a metamorphosis, as that
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of every fervid nature must be when it has fled, or been condemned, to
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solitude. His life, before he came to Raveloe, had been filled with
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the movement, the mental activity, and the close fellowship, which, in
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that day as in this, marked the life of an artisan early
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incorporated in a narrow religious sect, where the poorest layman
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has the chance of distinguishing himself by gifts of speech, and
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has, at the very least, the weight of a silent voter in the government
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of his community. Marner was highly thought of in that little hidden
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world, known to itself as the church assembling in Lantern Yard; he
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was believed to be a young man of exemplary life and ardent faith; and
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a peculiar interest had been centred in him ever since he had
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fallen, at a prayer-meeting, into a mysterious rigidity and suspension
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of consciousness, which, lasting for an hour or more, had been
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mistaken for death. To have sought a medical explanation for this
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phenomenon would have been held by Silas himself, as well as by his
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minister and fellow-members, a wilful self-exclusion from the
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spiritual significance that might lie therein. Silas was evidently a
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brother selected for a peculiar discipline, and though the effort to
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interpret this discipline was discouraged by the absence, on his part,
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of any spiritual vision during his outward trance, yet it was believed
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by himself and others that its effect was seen in an accession of
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light and fervour. A less truthful man than he might have been tempted
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into the subsequent creation of a vision in the form of resurgent
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memory; a less sane man might have believed in such a creation; but
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Silas was both sane and honest, though, as with many honest and
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fervent men, culture had not defined any channels for his sense of
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mystery, and so it spread itself over the proper pathway of inquiry
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and knowledge. He had inherited from his mother some acquaintance with
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medicinal herbs and their preparation- a little store of wisdom
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which she had imparted to him as a solemn bequest- but of late years
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he had had doubts about the lawfulness of applying this knowledge,
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believing that herbs could have no efficacy without prayer, and that
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prayer might suffice without herbs; so that the inherited delight he
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had in wandering in the fields in search of foxglove and dandelion and
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coltsfoot, began to wear to him the character of a temptation.
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Among the members of his church there was one young man, a little
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older than himself, with whom he had long lived in such close
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friendship that it was the custom of their Lantern Yard brethren to
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call them David and Jonathan. The real name of the friend was
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William Dane, and he, too, was regarded as a shining instance of
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youthful piety, though somewhat given to over-severity towards
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weaker brethren, and to be so dazzled by his own light as to hold
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himself wiser than his teachers. But whatever blemishes others might
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discern in William, to his friend's mind he was faultless; for
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Marner had one of those impressible self-doubting natures, which, at
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an inexperienced age, admire imperativeness and lean on contradiction.
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The expression of trusting simplicity in Marner's face, heightened
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by that absence of special observation, that defenceless, deer-like
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gaze which belongs to large prominent eyes, was strongly contrasted by
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the self-complacent suppression of inward triumph that lurked in the
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narrow slanting eyes and compressed lips of William Dane. One of the
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most frequent topics of conversation between the two friends was
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Assurance of salvation: Silas confessed that he could never arrive
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at anything higher than hope mingled with fear, and listened with
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longing wonder when William declared that he had possessed unshaken
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assurance ever since, in the period of his conversion, he had
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dreamed that he saw the words 'calling and election sure' standing
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by themselves on a white page in the open Bible. Such colloquies
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have occupied many a pair of pale-faced weavers, whose unnurtured
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souls have been like young winged things, fluttering forsaken in the
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twilight.
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It had seemed to the unsuspecting Silas that the friendship had
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suffered no chill even from his formation of another attachment of a
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closer kind. For some months he had been engaged to a young
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servant-woman, waiting only for a little increase to their mutual
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savings in order to their marriage; and it was a great delight to
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him that Sarah did not object to William's occasional presence in
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their Sunday interviews. It was at this point in their history that
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Silas's cataleptic fit occurred during the prayer-meeting; and
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amidst the various queries and expressions of interest addressed to
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him by his fellow-members, William's suggestion alone jarred with
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the general sympathy towards a brother thus singled out for special
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dealings. He observed that, to him, this trance looked more like a
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visitation of Satan than a proof of divine favour, and exhorted his
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friend to see that he hid no accursed thing within his soul. Silas,
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feeling bound to accept rebuke and admonition as a brotherly office,
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felt no resentment, but only pain, at his friend's doubts concerning
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him; and to this was soon added some anxiety at the perception that
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Sarah's manner towards him began to exhibit a strange fluctuation
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between an effort at an increased manifestation of regard and
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involuntary signs of shrinking and dislike. He asked her if she wished
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to break off their engagement; but she denied this: their engagement
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was known to the church, and had been recognized in the
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prayer-meetings; it could not be broken off without strict
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investigation, and Sarah could render no reason that would be
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sanctioned by the feeling of the community. At this time the senior
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deacon was taken dangerously ill, and, being a childless widower, he
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was tended night and day by some of the younger brethren or sisters.
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Silas frequently took his turn in the night-watching with William, the
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one relieving the other at two in the morning. The old man, contrary
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to expectation, seemed to be on the way to recovery, when one night
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Silas, sitting up by his bedside, observed that his usually audible
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breathing had ceased. The candle was burning low, and he had to lift
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it to see the patient's face distinctly. Examination convinced him
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that the deacon was dead- had been dead some time, for the limbs
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were rigid. Silas asked himself if he had been asleep, and looked at
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the clock: it was already four in the morning. How was it that William
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had not come? In much anxiety he went to seek for help, and soon there
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were several friends assembled in the house, the minister among
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them, while Silas went away to his work, wishing he could have met
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William to know the reason of his non-appearance. But at six
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o'clock, as he was thinking of going to seek his friend, William came,
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and with him the minister. They came to summon him to Lantern Yard, to
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meet the church members there; and to his inquiry concerning the cause
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of the summons the only reply was, 'You will hear.' Nothing further
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was said until Silas was seated in the vestry, in front of the
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minister, with the eyes of those who to him represented God's people
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fixed solemnly upon him. Then the minister, taking out a pocket-knife,
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showed it to Silas, and asked him if he knew where he had left that
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knife? Silas said, he did not know that he had left it anywhere out of
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his own pocket- but he was trembling at this strange interrogation. He
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was then exhorted not to hide his sin, but to confess and repent.
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The knife had been found in the bureau by the departed deacon's
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bedside- found in the place where the little bag of church money had
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lain, which the minister himself had seen the day before. Some hand
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had removed that bag; and whose hand could it be, if not that of the
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man to whom the knife belonged? For some time Silas was mute with
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astonishment: then he said, 'God will clear me: I know nothing about
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the knife being there, or the money being gone. Search me and my
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dwelling: you will find nothing but three pound five of my own
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savings, which William Dane knows I have had these six months.' At
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this William groaned, but the minister said, 'The proof is heavy
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against you, brother Marner. The money was taken in the night last
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past, and no man was with our departed brother but you, for William
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Dane declares to us that he was hindered by sudden sickness from going
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to take his place as usual, and you yourself said that he had not
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come; and, moreover, you neglected the dead body.'
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'I must have slept,' said Silas. Then, after a pause, he added, 'Or
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I must have had another visitation like that which you have all seen
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me under, so that the thief must have come and gone while I was not in
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the body, but out of the body. But, I say again, search me and my
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dwelling, for I have been nowhere else.'
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The search was made, and it ended- in William Dane's finding the
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well-known bag, empty, tucked behind the chest of drawers in Silas's
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chamber! On this William exhorted his friend to confess, and not to
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hide his sin any longer. Silas turned a look of keen reproach on
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him, and said, 'William, for nine years that we have gone in and out
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together, have you ever known me tell a lie? But God will clear me.'
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'Brother,' said William, 'how do I know what you may have done in
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the secret chambers of your heart, to give Satan an advantage over
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you?'
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Silas was still looking at his friend. Suddenly a deep flush came
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over his face, and he was about to speak impetuously, when he seemed
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checked again by some inward shock, that sent the flush back and
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made him tremble. But at last he spoke feebly, looking at William.
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'I remember now- the knife wasn't in my pocket.'
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William said, 'I know nothing of what you mean.' The other
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persons present, however, began to inquire where Silas meant to say
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that the knife was, but he would give no further explanation: he
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only said, 'I am sore stricken; I can say nothing. God will clear me.'
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On their return to the vestry there was further deliberation. Any
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resort to legal measures for ascertaining the culprit was contrary
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to the principles of the Church: prosecution was held by them to be
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forbidden to Christians, even if it had been a case in which there was
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no scandal to the community. But they were bound to take other
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measures for finding out the truth, and they resolved on praying and
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drawing lots. This resolution can be a ground of surprise only to
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those who are unacquainted with that obscure religious life which
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has gone on in the alleys of our towns. Silas knelt with his brethren,
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relying on his own innocence being certified by immediate divine
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interference, but feeling that there was sorrow and mourning behind
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for him even then- that his trust in man had been cruelly bruised. The
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lots declared that Silas Marner was guilty. He was solemnly
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suspended from church-membership, and called upon to render up the
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stolen money: only on confession, as the sign of repentance, could
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he be received once more within the fold of the church. Marner
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listened in silence. At last, when everyone rose to depart, he went
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towards William Dane and said, in a voice shaken by agitation-
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'The last time I remember using my knife, was when I took it out to
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cut a strap for you. I don't remember putting it in my pocket again.
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You stole the money, and you have woven a plot to lay the sin at my
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door. But you may prosper, for all that: there is no just God that
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governs the earth righteously, but a God of lies, that bears witness
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against the innocent.'
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There was a general shudder at this blasphemy.
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William said meekly, 'I leave our brethren to judge whether this is
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the voice of Satan or not. I can do nothing but pray for you, Silas.'
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Poor Marner went out with that despair in his soul- that shaken
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trust in God and man, which is little short of madness to a loving
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nature. In the bitterness of his wounded spirit, he said to himself,
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'She will cast me off too.' And he reflected that, if she did not
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believe the testimony against him, her whole faith must be upset, as
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his was. To people accustomed to reason about the forms in which their
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religious feeling has incorporated itself, it is difficult to enter
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into that simple, untaught state of mind in which the form and the
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feeling have never been severed by an act of reflection. We are apt to
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think it inevitable that a man in Marner's position should have
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begun to question the validity of an appeal to the divine judgment
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by drawing lots; but to him this would have been an effort of
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independent thought such as he had never known; and he must have
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made the effort at a moment when all his energies were turned into the
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anguish of disappointed faith. If there is an angel who records the
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sorrows of men as well as their sins, he knows how many and deep are
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the sorrows that spring from false ideas for which no man is culpable.
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Marner went home, and for a whole day sat alone, stunned by
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despair, without any impulse to go to Sarah and attempt to win her
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belief in his innocence. The second day he took refuge from
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benumbing unbelief, by getting into his loom and working away as
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usual; and before many hours were past, the minister and one of the
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deacons came to him with the message from Sarah, that she held her
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engagement to him at an end. Silas received the message mutely, and
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then turned away from the messengers to work at his loom again. In
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little more than a month from that time, Sarah was married to
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William Dane; and not long afterwards it was known to the brethren
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in Lantern Yard that Silas Marner had departed from the town.
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CHAPTER TWO
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EVEN people whose lives have been made various by learning,
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sometimes find it hard to keep a fast hold on their habitual views
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of life, on their faith in the Invisible- nay, on the sense that their
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past joys and sorrows are a real experience, when they are suddenly
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transported to a new land, where the beings around them know nothing
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of their history, and share none of their ideas- where their mother
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earth shows another lap, and human life has other forms than those
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on which their souls have been nourished. Minds that have been
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unhinged from their old faith and love, have perhaps sought this
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Lethean influence of exile, in which the past becomes dreamy because
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its symbols have all vanished, and the present too is dreamy because
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it is linked with no memories. But even their experience may hardly
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enable them thoroughly to imagine what was the effect on a simple
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weaver like Silas Marner, when he left his own country and people
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and came to settle in Raveloe. Nothing could be more unlike his native
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town, set within sight of the widespread hill-sides, than this low,
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wooded region, where he felt hidden even from the heavens by the
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screening trees and hedgerows. There was nothing here, when he rose in
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the deep morning quiet and looked out on the dewy brambles and rank
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tufted grass, that seemed to have any relation with that life centring
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in Lantern Yard, which had once been to him the altar-place of high
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dispensations. The white-washed walls; the little pews where
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well-known figures entered with a subdued rustling, and where first
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one well-known voice and then another, pitched in a peculiar key of
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petition, uttered phrases at once occult and familiar, like the amulet
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worn on the heart; the pulpit where the minister delivered
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unquestioned doctrine, and swayed to and fro, and handled the book
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in a long accustomed manner; the very pauses between the couplets of
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the hymn, as it was given out, and the recurrent swell of voices in
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song: these things had been the channel of divine influences to
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Marner- they were the fostering home of his religious emotions- they
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were Christianity and God's kingdom upon earth. A weaver who finds
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hard words in his hymn-book knows nothing of abstractions; as the
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little child knows nothing of parental love, but only knows one face
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and one lap towards which it stretches its arms for refuge and
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nurture.
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And what could be more unlike that Lantern Yard world than the
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world in Raveloe?- orchards looking lazy with neglected plenty; the
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large church in the wide churchyard, which men gazed at lounging at
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their own doors in service-time; the purple-faced farmers jogging
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along the lanes or turning in at the Rainbow; homesteads, where men
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supped heavily and slept in the light of the evening hearth, and where
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women seemed to be laying up a stock of linen for the life to come.
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There were no lips in Raveloe from which a word could fall that
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would stir Silas Marner's benumbed faith to a sense of pain. In the
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early ages of the world, we know, it was believed that each
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territory was inhabited and ruled by its own divinities, so that a man
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could cross the bordering heights and be out of the reach of his
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native gods, whose presence was confined to the streams and the groves
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and the hills among which he had lived from his birth. And poor
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Silas was vaguely conscious of something not unlike the feeling of
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primitive men, when they fled thus, in fear or in sullenness, from the
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face of an unpropitious deity. It seemed to him that the Power in
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which he had vainly trusted among the streets and in the
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prayer-meetings, was very far away from this land in which he had
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taken refuge, where men lived in careless abundance, knowing and
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needing nothing of that trust, which, for him, had been turned to
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bitterness. The little light he possessed spread its beams so
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narrowly, that frustrated belief was a curtain broad enough to
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create for him the blackness of night.
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His first movement after the shock had been to work in his loom;
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and he went on with this unremittingly, never asking himself why,
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now he was come to Raveloe, he worked far on into the night to
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finish the tale of Mrs Osgood's table-linen sooner than she
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expected- without contemplating beforehand the money she would put
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into his hand for the work. He seemed to weave, like the spider,
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from pure impulse, without reflection. Every man's work, pursued
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steadily, tends in this way to become an end in itself, and so to
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bridge over the loveless chasms of his life. Silas's hand satisfied
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itself with throwing the shuttle, and his eye with seeing the little
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squares in the cloth complete themselves under his effort. Then
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there were the calls of hunger; and Silas, in his solitude, had to
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provide his own breakfast, dinner and supper, to fetch his own water
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|
from the well, and put his own kettle on the fire; and all these
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immediate promptings helped, along with the weaving, to reduce his
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life to the unquestioning activity of a spinning insect. He hated
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the thought of the past; there was nothing that called out his love
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and fellowship toward the strangers he had come amongst; and the
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future was all dark, for there was no Unseen Love that cared for
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him. Thought was arrested by utter bewilderment, now its old narrow
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pathway was closed, and affection seemed to have died under the bruise
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that had fallen on its keenest nerves.
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But at last Mrs Osgood's table-linen was finished, and Silas was
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paid in gold. His earnings in his native town, where he worked for a
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wholesale dealer, had been after a lower rate; he had been paid
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weekly, and of his weekly earnings a large proportion had gone to
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objects of piety and charity. Now, for the first time in his life,
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he had five bright guineas put into his hand; no man expected a
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share of them, and he loved no man that he should offer him a share.
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But what were the guineas to him who saw no vista beyond countless
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days of weaving? It was needless for him to ask that, for it was
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pleasant to him to feel them in his palm, and look at their bright
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faces, which were all his own: it was another element of life, like
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the weaving and the satisfaction of hunger, subsisting quite aloof
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from the life of belief and love from which he had been cut off. The
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weaver's hand had known the touch of hard-won money even before the
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palm had grown to its full breadth; for twenty years, mysterious money
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had stood to him as the symbol of earthly good, and the immediate
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object of toil. He had seemed to love it little in the years when
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every penny had its purpose for him; for he loved the purpose then.
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But now, when all purpose was gone, that habit of looking towards
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the money and grasping it with a sense of fulfilled effort made a loam
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that was deep enough for the seeds of desire; and as Silas walked
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homeward across the fields in the twilight, he drew out the money, and
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thought it was brighter in the gathering gloom.
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About this time an incident happened which seemed to open a
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possibility of some fellowship with his neighbours. One day, taking
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a pair of shoes to be mended, he saw the cobbler's wife seated by
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the fire, suffering from the terrible symptoms of heart-disease and
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|
dropsy, which he had witnessed as the precursors of his mother's
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|
death. He felt a rush of pity at the mingled sight and remembrance,
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|
and, recalling the relief his mother had found from a simple
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preparation of foxglove, he promised Sally Oates to bring her
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|
something that would ease her, since the doctor did her no good. In
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|
this office of charity, Silas felt, for the first time since he had
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come to Raveloe, a sense of unity between his past and present life,
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|
which might have been the beginning of his rescue from the insect-like
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|
existence into which his nature had shrunk. But Sally Oates's
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|
disease had raised her into a personage of much interest and
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|
importance among the neighbours, and the fact of her having found
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|
relief from drinking Silas Marner's 'stuff' became a matter of general
|
|
discourse. When Doctor Kimble gave physic, it was natural that it
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|
should have an effect; but when a weaver, who came from nobody knew
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|
where, worked wonders with a bottle of brown waters, the occult
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|
character of the process was evident. Such a sort of thing had not
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|
been known since the Wise Woman at Tarley died; and she had charms
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|
as well as 'stuff': everybody went to her when their children had
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|
fits. Silas Marner must be a person of the same sort, for how did he
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|
know what would bring back Sally Oates's breath, if he didn't know a
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|
fine sight more than that? The Wise Woman had words that she
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|
muttered to herself, so that you couldn't hear what they were, and
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|
if she tied a bit of red thread round the child's toe the while, it
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|
would keep off the water in the head. There were women in Raveloe,
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|
at that present time, who had worn one of the Wise Woman's little bags
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|
round their necks, and, in consequence, had never had an idiot
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|
child, as Ann Coulter had. Silas Marner could very likely do as
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|
much, and more; and now it was all clear how he should have come
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|
from unknown parts, and be so 'comical-looking'. But Sally Oates
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|
must mind and not tell the doctor, for he would be sure to set his
|
|
face against Marner: he was always angry about the Wise Woman, and
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|
used to threaten those who went to her that they should have none of
|
|
his help any more.
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Silas now found himself and his cottage suddenly beset by mothers
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|
who wanted him to charm away the whooping-cough, or bring back the
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|
milk, and by men who wanted stuff against the rheumatics or the
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|
knots in the hands; and, to secure themselves against a refusal, the
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|
applicants brought silver in their palms. Silas might have driven a
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|
profitable trade in charms as well as in his small list of drugs;
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|
but money on this condition was no temptation to him: he had never
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|
known an impulse towards falsity, and he drove one after another
|
|
away with growing irritation, for the news of him as a wise man had
|
|
spread even to Tarley, and it was long before people ceased to take
|
|
long walks for the sake of asking his aid. But the hope in his
|
|
wisdom was at length changed into dread, for no one believed him
|
|
when he said he knew no charms and could work no cures, and every
|
|
man and woman who had an accident or a new attack after applying to
|
|
him, set the misfortune down to Master Marner's ill-will and irritated
|
|
glances. Thus it came to pass that his movement of pity towards
|
|
Sally Oates, which had given him a transient sense of brotherhood,
|
|
heightened the repulsion between him and his neighbours, and made
|
|
his isolation more complete.
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|
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|
Gradually the guineas, the crowns and the half-crowns grew to a
|
|
heap, and Marner drew less and less for his own wants, trying to solve
|
|
the problem of keeping himself strong enough to work sixteen hours
|
|
a-day on as small an outlay as possible. Have not men, shut up in
|
|
solitary imprisonment, found an interest in marking the moments by
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|
straight strokes of a certain length on the wall, until the growth
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|
of the sum of straight strokes, arranged in triangles, has become a
|
|
mastering purpose? Do we not wile away moments of inanity or
|
|
fatigued waiting by repeating some trivial movement or sound, until
|
|
the repetition has bred a want, which is incipient habit? That will
|
|
help us to understand how the love of accumulating money grows an
|
|
absorbing passion in men whose imaginations, even in the very
|
|
beginning of their hoard, showed them no purpose beyond it. Marner
|
|
wanted the heaps of ten to grow into a square, and then into a
|
|
larger square; and every added guinea, while it was itself a
|
|
satisfaction, bred a new desire. In this strange world, made a
|
|
hopeless riddle to him, he might, if he had had a less intense nature,
|
|
have sat weaving, weaving- looking towards the end of his pattern,
|
|
or towards the end of his web, till he forgot the riddle, and
|
|
everything else but his immediate sensations; but the money had come
|
|
to mark off his weaving into periods, and the money not only grew, but
|
|
it remained with him. He began to think it was conscious of him, as
|
|
his loom was, and he would on no account have exchanged those coins,
|
|
which had become his familiars, for other coins with unknown faces. He
|
|
handled them, he counted them, till their form and colour were like
|
|
the satisfaction of a thirst to him; but it was only in the night,
|
|
when his work was done, that he drew them out to enjoy their
|
|
companionship. He had taken up some bricks in his floor underneath his
|
|
loom, and here he had made a hole in which he set the iron pot that
|
|
contained his guineas and silver coins, covering the bricks with
|
|
sand whenever he replaced them. Not that the idea of being robbed
|
|
presented itself often or strongly to his mind: hoarding was common in
|
|
country districts in those days; there were old labourers in the
|
|
parish of Raveloe who were known to have their savings by them,
|
|
probably inside their flock beds; but their rustic neighbours,
|
|
though not all of them as honest as their ancestors in the days of
|
|
King Alfred, had not imaginations bold enough to lay a plan of
|
|
burglary. How could they have spent the money in their own village
|
|
without betraying themselves? They would be obliged to 'run away'- a
|
|
course as dark and dubious as a balloon journey.
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|
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|
So, year after year, Silas Marner had lived in this solitude, his
|
|
guineas rising in the iron pot, and his life narrowing and hardening
|
|
itself more and more into a mere pulsation of desire and
|
|
satisfaction that had no relation to any other being. His life had
|
|
reduced itself to the mere functions of weaving and hoarding,
|
|
without any contemplation of an end towards which the functions
|
|
tended. The same sort of process has perhaps been undergone by wiser
|
|
men, when they have been cut off from faith and love- only, instead of
|
|
a loom and a heap of guineas, they have had some erudite research,
|
|
some ingenious project, or some well-knit theory. Strangely Marner's
|
|
face and figure shrank and bent themselves into a constant
|
|
mechanical relation to the objects of his life, so that he produced
|
|
the same sort of impression as a handle or a crooked tube, which has
|
|
no meaning standing apart. The prominent eyes that used to look
|
|
trusting and dreamy, now looked as if they had been made to see only
|
|
one kind of thing that was very small, like tiny grain, for which they
|
|
hunted everywhere: and he was so withered and yellow, that, though
|
|
he was not yet forty, the children always called him 'Old Master
|
|
Marner'.
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|
Yet even in this stage of withering a little incident happened,
|
|
which showed that the sap of affection was not all gone. It was one of
|
|
his daily tasks to fetch his water from a well a couple of fields off,
|
|
and for this purpose, ever since he came to Raveloe, he had had a
|
|
brown earthenware pot, which he held as his most precious utensil,
|
|
among the very few conveniences he had granted himself. It had been
|
|
his companion for twelve years, always standing on the same spot,
|
|
always lending its handle to him in the early morning, so that its
|
|
form had an expression for him of willing helpfulness, and the impress
|
|
of its handle on his palm gave a satisfaction mingled with that of
|
|
having the fresh clear water. One day as he was returning from the
|
|
well, he stumbled against the step of the stile, and his brown pot,
|
|
falling with force against the stones that overarched the ditch
|
|
below him, was broken in three pieces. Silas picked up the pieces
|
|
and carried them home with grief in his heart. The brown pot could
|
|
never be of use to him any more, but he stuck the bits together and
|
|
propped the ruin in its old place for a memorial.
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|
This is the history of Silas Marner until the fifteenth year
|
|
after he came to Raveloe. The livelong day he sat in his loom, his ear
|
|
filled with its monotony, his eyes bent close down on the slow
|
|
growth of sameness in the brownish web, his muscles moving with such
|
|
even repetition that their pause seemed almost as much a constraint as
|
|
the holding of his breath. But at night came his revelry: at night
|
|
he closed his shutters, and made fast his doors, and drew out his
|
|
gold. Long ago the heap of coins had become too large for the iron pot
|
|
to hold them, and he had made for them two thick leather bags, which
|
|
wasted no room in their resting-place, but lent themselves flexibly to
|
|
every corner. How the guineas shone as they came pouring out of the
|
|
dark leather mouths! The silver bore no large proportion in amount
|
|
to the gold, because the long pieces of linen which formed his chief
|
|
work were always partly paid for in gold, and out of the silver he
|
|
supplied his own bodily wants, choosing always the shillings and
|
|
sixpences to spend in this way. He loved the guineas best, but he
|
|
would not change the silver- the crowns and half-crowns that were
|
|
his own earnings, begotten by his labour; he loved them all. He spread
|
|
them out in heaps and bathed his hands in them; then he counted them
|
|
and set them up in regular piles, and felt their rounded outline
|
|
between his thumb and fingers, and thought fondly of the guineas
|
|
that were only half-earned by the work in his loom, as if they had
|
|
been unborn children- thought of the guineas that were coming slowly
|
|
through the coming years, through all his life, which spread far
|
|
away before him, the end quite hidden by countless days of weaving. No
|
|
wonder his thoughts were still with his loom and his money when he
|
|
made his journeys through the fields and the lanes to fetch and
|
|
carry home his work, so that his steps never wandered to the
|
|
hedge-banks and the lane-side in search of the once familiar herbs:
|
|
these too belonged to the past, from which his life had shrunk away,
|
|
like a rivulet that has sunk far down from the grassy fringe of its
|
|
old breadth into a little shivering thread, that cuts a groove for
|
|
itself in the barren sand.
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|
But about the Christmas of that fifteenth year, a second great
|
|
change came over Marner's life, and his history became blent in a
|
|
singular manner with the life of his neighbours.
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CHAPTER THREE
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|
THE greatest man in Raveloe was Squire Cass, who lived in the large
|
|
red house, with the handsome flight of stone steps in front and the
|
|
high stables behind it, nearly opposite the church. He was only one
|
|
among several landed parishioners, but he alone was honoured with
|
|
the title of squire; for though Mr Osgood's family was also understood
|
|
to be of timeless origin- the Raveloe imagination having never
|
|
ventured back to that fearful blank when there were no Osgoods- still,
|
|
he merely owned the farm he occupied; whereas Squire Cass had a tenant
|
|
or two, who complained of the game to him quite as if he had been a
|
|
lord.
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|
|
|
It was still that glorious war-time which was felt to be a peculiar
|
|
favour of Providence towards the landed interest, and the fall of
|
|
prices had not yet come to carry the race of small squires and
|
|
yeomen down that road to ruin for which extravagant habits and bad
|
|
husbandry were plentifully anointing their wheels. I am speaking now
|
|
in relation to Raveloe and the parishes that resembled it; for our
|
|
old-fashioned country life had many different aspects, as all life
|
|
must have when it is spread over a various surface, and breathed on
|
|
variously by multitudinous currents, from the winds of heaven to the
|
|
thoughts of men, which are for ever moving and crossing each other,
|
|
with incalculable results. Raveloe lay low among the bushy trees and
|
|
the rutted lanes, aloof from the currents of industrial energy and
|
|
Puritan earnestness: the rich ate and drank freely, and accepted
|
|
gout and apoplexy as things that ran mysteriously in respectable
|
|
families, and the poor thought that the rich were entirely in the
|
|
right of it to lead a jolly life; besides, their feasting caused a
|
|
multiplication of orts, which were the heirlooms of the poor. Betty
|
|
Jay scented the boiling of Squire Cass's hams, but her longing was
|
|
arrested by the unctuous liquor in which they were boiled; and when
|
|
the seasons brought round the great merrymakings, they were regarded
|
|
on all hands as a fine thing for the poor. For the Raveloe feasts were
|
|
like the rounds of beef- and the barrels of ale- they were on a
|
|
large scale, and lasted a good while, especially in the winter-time.
|
|
When ladies had packed up their best gowns and top-knots in bandboxes,
|
|
and had incurred the risk of fording streams on pillions with the
|
|
precious burden in rainy or snowy weather, when there was no knowing
|
|
how high the water would rise, it was not to be supposed that they
|
|
looked forward to a brief pleasure. On this ground it was always
|
|
contrived in the dark seasons, when there was little work to be
|
|
done, and the hours were long, that several neighbours should keep
|
|
open house in succession. When Squire Cass's standing dishes
|
|
diminished in plenty and freshness, his guests had nothing to do but
|
|
to walk a little higher up the village to Mr Osgood's at the Orchards,
|
|
and they found hams and chines uncut, pork-pies with the scent of
|
|
the fire in them, spun butter in all its freshness- everything, in
|
|
fact, that appetites at leisure could desire, in perhaps greater
|
|
perfection, though not in greater abundance, than at Squire Cass's.
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|
|
|
For the Squire's wife had died long ago, and the Red House was
|
|
without that presence of the wife and mother which is the fountain
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of wholesome love and fear in parlour and kitchen; and this helped
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to account not only for there being more profusion than finished
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excellence in the holiday provisions, but also for the frequency
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with which the proud Squire condescended to preside in the parlour
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of the Rainbow rather than under the shadow of his own dark
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wainscot; perhaps, also, for the fact that his sons had turned out
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rather ill. Raveloe was not a place where moral censure was severe,
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but it was thought a weakness in the Squire that he had kept all his
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sons at home in idleness; and though some licence was to be allowed to
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young men whose fathers could afford it, people shook their heads at
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the courses of the second son, Dunstan, commonly called Dunsey Cass,
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whose taste for swopping and betting might turn out to be a sowing
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of something worse than wild oats. To be sure, the neighbours said, it
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was no matter what became of Dunsey- a spiteful jeering fellow, who
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seemed to enjoy his drink the more when other people went dry-
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always provided that his doings did not bring trouble on a family like
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Squire Cass's, with a monument in the church, and tankards older
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than King George. But it would be a thousand pities if Mr Godfrey, the
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eldest, a fine, open-faced, good-natured young man, who was to come
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into the land some day, should take to going along the same road as
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his brother, as he had seemed to do of late. If he went on in that
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way, he would lose Miss Nancy Lammeter; for it was well known that she
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had looked very shyly on him ever since last Whitsuntide twelve-month,
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when there was so much talk about his being away from home days and
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days together. There was something wrong, more than common-- that was
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quite clear; for Mr Godfrey didn't look half so fresh-coloured and
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open as he used to do. At one time everybody was saying, what a
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handsome couple he and Miss Nancy Lammeter would make! and if she
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could come to be mistress at the Red House there would be a fine
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change, for the Lammeters had been brought up in that way, that they
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never suffered a pinch of salt to be wasted, and yet everybody in
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their household had of the best, according to his place. Such a
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daughter-in-law would be a saving to the old Squire, if she never
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brought a penny to her fortune, for it was to be feared that,
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notwithstanding his incomings, there were more holes in his pocket
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than the one where he put his own hand in. But if Mr Godfrey didn't
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turn over a new leaf, he might say 'Good-bye' to Miss Nancy Lammeter.
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It was the once hopeful Godfrey who was standing, with his hands in
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his side-pockets and his back to the fire, in the dark wainscoted
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parlour, one late November afternoon, in that fifteenth year of
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Silas Marner's life at Raveloe. The fading grey light fell dimly on
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the walls decorated with guns, whips and foxes' brushes, on coats
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and hats flung on the chairs, on tankards sending forth a scent of
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flat ale, and on a half-choked fire, with pipes propped up in the
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chimney-corners: signs of a domestic life destitute of any hallowing
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charm, with which the look of gloomy vexation on Godfrey's blond
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face was in sad accordance. He seemed to be waiting and listening
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for someone's approach, and presently the sound of a heavy step,
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with an accompanying whistle, was heard across the large empty
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entrance-hall.
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The door opened, and a thick-set, heavy-looking young man
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entered, with the flushed face and the gratuitously elated bearing
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which mark the first stage of intoxication. It was Dunsey, and at
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the sight of him Godfrey's face parted with some of the gloom to
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take on the more active expression of hatred. The handsome brown
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spaniel that lay on the hearth retreated under the chair in the
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chimney-corner.
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'Well, Master Godfrey, what do you want with me?' said Dunsey, in a
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mocking tone. 'You're my elders and betters, you know; I was obliged
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to come when you sent for me.'
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'Why, this is what I want- and just shake yourself sober and
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listen, will you?' said Godfrey, savagely. He had himself been
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drinking more than was good for him, trying to turn his gloom into
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uncalculating anger. 'I want to tell you, I must hand over that rent
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of Fowler's to the Squire, or else tell him I gave it you; for he's
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threatening to distrain for it, and it'll all be out soon, whether I
|
|
tell him or not. He said, just now, before he went out, he should send
|
|
word to Cox to distrain, if Fowler didn't come and pay up his
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arrears this week. The Squire's short o' cash, and in no humour to
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|
stand any nonsense; and you know what he threatened, if ever he
|
|
found you making away with his money again. So, see and get the money,
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and pretty quickly, will you?'
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|
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'Oh!' said Dunsey, sneeringly, coming nearer to his brother and
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looking into his face. 'Suppose, now, you get the money yourself,
|
|
and save me the trouble, eh? Since you was so kind as to hand it
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|
over to me, you'll not refuse me the kindness to pay it back for me:
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it was your brotherly love made you do it, you know.'
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|
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Godfrey bit his lips and clenched his fist. 'Don't come near me
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|
with that look, else I'll knock you down.'
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|
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'Oh, no, you won't,' said Dunsey, turning away on his heel,
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|
however. 'Because I'm such a good-natured brother, you know. I might
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|
get you turned out of house and home, and cut off with a shilling
|
|
any day. I might tell the Squire how his handsome son was married to
|
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that nice young woman, Molly Farren, and was very unhappy because he
|
|
couldn't live with his drunken wife, and I should slip into your place
|
|
as comfortable as could be. But, you see, I don't do it- I'm so easy
|
|
and good-natured. You'll take any trouble for me. You'll get the
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|
hundred pounds for me- I know you will.'
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|
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'How can I get the money?' said Godfrey, quivering. 'I haven't a
|
|
shilling to bless myself with. And it's a lie that you'd slip into
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|
my place: you'd get yourself turned out too, that's all. For if you
|
|
begin telling tales, I'll follow. Bob's my father's favourite- you
|
|
know that very well. He'd only think himself well rid of you.'
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|
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|
'Never mind,' said Dunsey, nodding his head sideways as he looked
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|
out of the window. 'It 'ud be very pleasant to me to go in your
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|
company- you're such a handsome brother, and we've always been so fond
|
|
of quarrelling with one another, I shouldn't know what to do without
|
|
you. But you'd like better for us both to stay at home together; I
|
|
know you would. So you'll manage to get that little sum o' money,
|
|
and I'll bid you good-bye, though I'm sorry to part.'
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|
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|
Dunstan was moving off, but Godfrey rushed after him and seized him
|
|
by the arm, saying, with an oath:
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|
|
|
'I tell you, I have no money: I can get no money.'
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'Borrow of old Kimble.'
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|
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'I tell you, he won't lend me any more, and I shan't ask him.'
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|
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'Well then, sell Wildfire.'
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|
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'Yes, that's easy talking. I must have the money directly.'
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|
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'Well, you've only got to ride him to the hunt tomorrow. There'll
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|
be Bryce and Keating there, for sure. You'll get more bids than one.'
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|
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'I daresay, and get back home at eight o'clock, splashed up to
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|
the chin. I'm going to Mrs Osgood's birthday dance.'
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|
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'Oho!' said Dunsey, turning his head on one side, and trying to
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|
speak in a small mincing treble. 'And there's sweet Miss Nancy coming;
|
|
and we shall dance with her, and promise never to be naughty again,
|
|
and be taken into favour, and--'
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|
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'Hold your tongue about Miss Nancy, you fool,' said Godfrey,
|
|
turning red, 'else I'll throttle you.'
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|
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|
'What for?' said Dunsey, still in an artificial tone, but taking
|
|
a whip from the table and beating the butt-end of it on his palm.
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|
'You've a very good chance. I'd advise you to creep up her sleeve
|
|
again: it 'ud be saving time if Molly should happen to take a drop too
|
|
much laudanum some day, and make a widower of you. Miss Nancy wouldn't
|
|
mind being a second, if she didn't know it. And you've got a
|
|
good-natured brother, who'll keep your secret well, because you'll
|
|
be so very obliging to him.'
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|
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|
'I'll tell you what it is,' said Godfrey, quivering, and pale
|
|
again. 'My patience is pretty near at an end. If you'd a little more
|
|
sharpness in you, you might know that you may urge a man a bit too
|
|
far, and make one leap as easy as another. I don't know but what it is
|
|
so now: I may as well tell the Squire everything myself- I should
|
|
get you off my back, if I got nothing else. And, after all, he'll know
|
|
some time. She's been threatening to come herself and tell him. So,
|
|
don't flatter yourself that your secrecy's worth any price you
|
|
choose to ask. You drain me of money till I've got nothing to pacify
|
|
her with, and she'll do as she threatens some day. It's all one.
|
|
I'll tell my father everything myself, and you may go to the devil.'
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|
|
|
Dunsey perceived that he had overshot his mark, and that there
|
|
was a point at which even the hesitating Godfrey might be driven
|
|
into decision. But he said, with an air of unconcern: 'As you
|
|
please; but I'll have a draught of ale first.' And ringing the bell,
|
|
he threw himself across two chairs, and began to rap the window-seat
|
|
with the handle of his whip.
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|
|
|
Godfrey stood, still with his back to the fire, uneasily moving his
|
|
fingers among the contents of his side-pockets, and looking at the
|
|
floor. That big muscular frame of his held plenty of animal courage,
|
|
but helped him to no decision when the dangers to be braved were
|
|
such as could neither be knocked down nor throttled. His natural
|
|
irresolution and moral cowardice were exaggerated by a position in
|
|
which dreaded consequences seemed to press equally on all sides, and
|
|
his irritation had no sooner provoked him to defy Dunstan and
|
|
anticipate all possible betrayals, than the miseries he must bring
|
|
on himself by such a step seemed more unendurable to him than the
|
|
present evil. The results of confession were not contingent, they were
|
|
certain; whereas betrayal was not certain. From the near vision of
|
|
that certainty he fell back on suspense and vacillation with a sense
|
|
of repose. The disinherited son of a small squire, equally disinclined
|
|
to dig and to beg, was almost as helpless as an uprooted tree,
|
|
which, by the favour of earth and sky, has grown to a handsome bulk on
|
|
the spot where it first shot upward. Perhaps it would have been
|
|
possible to think of digging with some cheerfulness if Nancy
|
|
Lammeter were to be won on those terms; but, since he must irrevocably
|
|
lose her as well as the inheritance, and must break every tie but
|
|
the one that degraded him and left him without motive for trying to
|
|
recover his better self, he could imagine no future for himself on the
|
|
other side of confession but that of 'listing for a soldier'- the most
|
|
desperate step, short of suicide, in the eyes of respectable families.
|
|
No! he would rather trust to casualties than to his own resolve-
|
|
rather go on sitting at the feast and sipping the wine he loved,
|
|
though with the sword hanging over him and terror in his heart, than
|
|
rush away into the cold darkness where there was no pleasure left. The
|
|
utmost concession to Dunstan about the horse began to seem easy,
|
|
compared with the fulfilment of his own threat. But his pride would
|
|
not let him recommence the conversation otherwise than by continuing
|
|
the quarrel. Dunstan was waiting for this, and took his ale in shorter
|
|
draughts than usual.
|
|
|
|
'It's just like you,' Godfrey burst out, in a bitter tone, 'to talk
|
|
about my selling Wildfire in that cool way- the last thing I've got to
|
|
call my own, and the best bit of horse-flesh I ever had in my life.
|
|
And if you'd got a spark of pride in you, you'd be ashamed to see
|
|
the stables emptied, and everybody sneering about it. But it's my
|
|
belief you'd sell yourself, if it was only for the pleasure of
|
|
making somebody feel he'd got a bad bargain.'
|
|
|
|
'Aye, aye,' said Dunstan, very placably, 'you do me justice, I see.
|
|
You know I'm a jewel for 'ticing people into bargains. For which
|
|
reason I advise you to let me sell Wildfire. I'd ride him to the
|
|
hunt tomorrow for you, with pleasure. I shouldn't look so handsome
|
|
as you in the saddle, but it's the horse they'll bid for, and not
|
|
the rider.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, I daresay- trust my horse to you!'
|
|
|
|
'As you please,' said Dunstan, rapping the window-seat again with
|
|
an air of great unconcern. 'It's you have got to pay Fowler's money;
|
|
it's none of my business. You received the money from him when you
|
|
went to Bramcote, and you told the Squire it wasn't paid. I'd
|
|
nothing to do with that; you chose to be so obliging as give it me,
|
|
that was all. If you don't want to pay the money, let it alone; it's
|
|
all one to me. But I was willing to accommodate you by undertaking
|
|
to sell the horse, seeing it's not convenient to you to go so far
|
|
tomorrow.'
|
|
|
|
Godfrey was silent for some moments. He would have liked to
|
|
spring on Dunstan, wrench the whip from his hand, and flog him to
|
|
within an inch of his life; and no bodily fear could have deterred
|
|
him; but he was mastered by another sort of fear, which was fed by
|
|
feelings stronger even than his resentment. When he spoke again, it
|
|
was in a half-conciliatory tone.
|
|
|
|
'Well, you mean no nonsense about the horse, eh? You'll sell him
|
|
all fair, and hand over the money? If you don't, you know,
|
|
everything'll go to smash, for I've got nothing else to trust to.
|
|
And you'll have less pleasure in pulling the house over my head,
|
|
when your own skull's to be broken too.'
|
|
|
|
'Aye, aye,' said Dunstan, rising, 'all right. I thought you'd
|
|
come round. I'm the fellow to bring old Bryce up to the scratch.
|
|
I'll get you a hundred and twenty for him, if I get you a penny.'
|
|
|
|
'But it'll perhaps rain cats and dogs tomorrow, as it did
|
|
yesterday, and then you can't go,' said Godfrey, hardly knowing
|
|
whether he wished for that obstacle or not.
|
|
|
|
'Not it,' said Dunstan. 'I'm always lucky in my weather. It might
|
|
rain if you wanted to go yourself. You never hold trumps, you know-
|
|
I always do. You've got the beauty, you see, and I've got the luck, so
|
|
you must keep me by you for your crooked sixpence; you'll ne-ver get
|
|
along without me.'
|
|
|
|
'Confound you, hold your tongue,' said Godfrey, impetuously. 'And
|
|
take care to keep sober tomorrow, else you'll get pitched on your head
|
|
coming home, and Wildfire might be the worse for it.'
|
|
|
|
'Make your tender heart easy,' said Dunstan, opening the door. 'You
|
|
never knew me see double when I'd got a bargain to make; it 'ud
|
|
spoil the fun. Besides, whenever I fall, I'm warranted to fall on my
|
|
legs.'
|
|
|
|
With that, Dunstan slammed the door behind him, and left Godfrey to
|
|
that bitter rumination on his personal circumstances which was now
|
|
unbroken from day to day save by the excitement of sporting, drinking,
|
|
card-playing, or the rarer and less oblivious pleasure of seeing
|
|
Miss Nancy Lammeter. The subtle and varied pains springing from the
|
|
higher sensibility that accompanies higher culture, are perhaps less
|
|
pitiable than that dreary absence of impersonal enjoyment and
|
|
consolation which leaves ruder minds to the perpetual urgent
|
|
companionship of their own griefs and discontents. The lives of
|
|
those rural forefathers, whom we are apt to think very prosaic
|
|
figures- men whose only work was to ride round their land, getting
|
|
heavier and heavier in their saddles, and who passed the rest of their
|
|
days in the half-listless gratification of senses dulled by
|
|
monotony- had a certain pathos in them nevertheless. Calamities came
|
|
to them too, and their early errors carried hard consequences: perhaps
|
|
the love of some sweet maiden, the image of purity, order, and calm,
|
|
had opened their eyes to the vision of a life in which the days
|
|
would not seem too long, even without rioting; but the maiden was
|
|
lost, and the vision passed away, and then what was left to them,
|
|
especially when they had become too heavy for the hunt, or for
|
|
carrying a gun over the furrows, but to drink and get merry, or to
|
|
drink and get angry, so that they might be independent of variety, and
|
|
say over again with eager emphasis the things they had said already
|
|
any time that twelvemonth? Assuredly, among these flushed and
|
|
dull-eyed men there were some whom- thanks to their native
|
|
human-kindness- even riot could never drive into brutality; men who,
|
|
when their cheeks were fresh, had felt the keen point of sorrow or
|
|
remorse, had been pierced by the reeds they leaned on, or had
|
|
lightly put their limbs in fetters from which no struggle could
|
|
loose them; and under these sad circumstances, common to us all, their
|
|
thoughts could find no resting-place outside the ever-trodden round of
|
|
their own petty history.
|
|
|
|
That, at least, was the condition of Godfrey Cass in this
|
|
six-and-twentieth year of his life. A movement of compunction,
|
|
helped by those small indefinable influences which every personal
|
|
relation exerts on a pliant nature, had urged him into a secret
|
|
marriage, which was a blight on his life. It was an ugly story of
|
|
low passion, delusion, and waking from delusion, which needs not to be
|
|
dragged from the privacy of Godfrey's bitter memory. He had long known
|
|
that the delusion was partly due to a trap laid for him by Dunstan,
|
|
who saw in his brother's degrading marriage the means of gratifying at
|
|
once his jealous hate and his cupidity. And if Godfrey could have felt
|
|
himself simply a victim, the iron bit that destiny had put into his
|
|
mouth would have chafed him less intolerably. If the curses he
|
|
muttered half aloud when he was alone had had no other object than
|
|
Dunstan's diabolical cunning, he might have shrunk less from the
|
|
consequences of avowal. But he had something else to curse- his own
|
|
vicious folly, which now seemed as mad and unaccountable to him as
|
|
almost all our follies and vices do when their promptings have long
|
|
passed away. For four years he had thought of Nancy Lammeter, and
|
|
wooed her with tacit patient worship, as the woman who made him
|
|
think of the future with joy: she would be his wife, and would make
|
|
home lovely to him, as his father's home had never been; and it
|
|
would be easy, when she was always near, to shake off those foolish
|
|
habits that were no pleasures, but only a feverish way of annulling
|
|
vacancy. Godfrey's was an essentially domestic nature, bred up in a
|
|
home where the hearth had no smiles, and where the daily habits were
|
|
not chastised by the presence of household order; his easy disposition
|
|
made him fall in unresistingly with the family courses, but the need
|
|
of some tender permanent affection, the longing for some influence
|
|
that would make the good he preferred easy to pursue, caused the
|
|
neatness, purity, and liberal orderliness of the Lammeter household,
|
|
sunned by the smile of Nancy, to seem like those fresh bright hours of
|
|
the morning, when temptations go to sleep, and leave the ear open to
|
|
the voice of the good angel, inviting to industry, sobriety, and
|
|
peace. And yet the hope of this paradise had not been enough to save
|
|
him from a course which shut him out of it for ever. Instead of
|
|
keeping fast hold of the strong silken rope by which Nancy would
|
|
have drawn him safe to the green banks, where it was easy to step
|
|
firmly, he had let himself be dragged back into mud and slime, in
|
|
which it was useless to struggle. He had made ties for himself which
|
|
robbed him of all wholesome motive, and were a constant exasperation.
|
|
|
|
Still, there was one position worse than the present: it was the
|
|
position he would be in when the ugly secret was disclosed; and the
|
|
desire that continually triumphed over every other was that of warding
|
|
off the evil day, when he would have to bear the consequences of his
|
|
father's violent resentment for the wound inflicted on his family
|
|
pride- would have, perhaps, to turn his back on that hereditary ease
|
|
and dignity which, after all, was a sort of reason for living, and
|
|
would carry with him the certainty that he was banished for ever
|
|
from the sight and esteem of Nancy Lammeter. The longer the
|
|
interval, the more chance there was of deliverance from some, at
|
|
least, of the hateful consequences to which he had sold himself- the
|
|
more opportunities remained for him to snatch the strange
|
|
gratification of seeing Nancy, and gathering some faint indications of
|
|
her lingering regard. Towards this gratification he was impelled,
|
|
fitfully, every now and then, after having passed weeks in which he
|
|
had avoided her as the far-off, bright-winged prize, that only made
|
|
him spring forward, and find his chain all the more galling. One of
|
|
those fits of yearning was on him now, and it would have been strong
|
|
enough to have persuaded him to trust Wildfire to Dunstan rather
|
|
than disappoint the yearning, even if he had not had another reason
|
|
for his disinclination towards the morrow's hunt. That other reason
|
|
was the fact that the morning's meet was near Batherley, the
|
|
market-town where the unhappy woman lived, whose image became more
|
|
odious to him every day; and to his thoughts the whole vicinage was
|
|
haunted by her. The yoke a man creates for himself by wrong-doing will
|
|
breed hate in the kindliest nature; and the good-humoured,
|
|
affectionate-hearted Godfrey Cass, was fast becoming a bitter man,
|
|
visited by cruel wishes, that seemed to enter, and depart, and enter
|
|
again, like demons who had found in him a ready-garnished home.
|
|
|
|
What was he to do this evening to pass the time? He might as well
|
|
go to the Rainbow, and hear the talk about the cock-fighting:
|
|
everybody was there, and what else was there to be done? Though, for
|
|
his own part, he did not care a button for cock-fighting. Snuff, the
|
|
brown spaniel, who had placed herself in front of him, and had been
|
|
watching him for some time, now jumped up in impatience for the
|
|
expected caress. But Godfrey thrust her away without looking at her,
|
|
and left the room, followed humbly by the unresenting Snuff- perhaps
|
|
because she saw no other career open to her.
|
|
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|
CHAPTER FOUR
|
|
|
|
DUNSTAN CASS, setting off in the raw morning, at the judiciously quiet
|
|
pace of a man who is obliged to ride to cover on his hunter, had to
|
|
take his way along the lane, which, at its farther extremity, passed
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by the piece of unenclosed ground called the Stone-pit, where stood
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the cottage, once a stone-cutter's shed, now for fifteen years
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inhabited by Silas Marner. The spot looked very dreary at this season,
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with the moist trodden clay about it, and the red, muddy water high up
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in the deserted quarry. That was Dunstan's first thought as he
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approached it; the second was, that the old fool of a weaver, whose
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loom he heard rattling already, had a great deal of money hidden
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somewhere. How was it that he, Dunstan Cass, who had often heard
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talk of Marner's miserliness, had never thought of suggesting to
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Godfrey that he should frighten or persuade the old fellow into
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lending the money on the excellent security of the young Squire's
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prospects? The resource occurred to him now as so easy and
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agreeable, especially as Marner's hoard was likely to be large
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enough to leave Godfrey a handsome surplus beyond his immediate needs,
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and enable him to accommodate his faithful brother, that he had almost
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turned the horse's head towards home again. Godfrey would be ready
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enough to accept the suggestion: he would snatch eagerly at a plan
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that might save him from parting with Wildfire. But when Dunstan's
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meditation reached this point, the inclination to go on grew strong
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and prevailed. He didn't want to give Godfrey that pleasure: he
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preferred that Master Godfrey should be vexed. Moreover, Dunstan
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enjoyed the self-important consciousness of having a horse to sell,
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and the opportunity of driving a bargain, swaggering, and, possibly,
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taking somebody in. He might have all the satisfaction attendant on
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selling his brother's horse, and not the less have the further
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satisfaction of setting Godfrey to borrow Marner's money. So he rode
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on to cover.
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Bryce and Keating were there, as Dunstan was quite sure they
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would be- he was such a lucky fellow.
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'Hey-day,' said Bryce, who had long had his eye on Wildfire,
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'you're on your brother's horse today: how's that?'
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'Oh, I've swopped with him,' said Dunstan, whose delight in
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lying, grandly independent of utility, was not to be diminished by the
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likelihood that his hearer would not believe him- 'Wildfire's mine
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now.'
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'What! has he swopped with you for that big-boned hack of yours?'
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said Bryce, quite aware that he should get another lie in answer.
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'Oh, there was a little account between us,' said Dunsey,
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carelessly, 'and Wildfire made it even. I accommodated him by taking
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the horse, though it was against my will, for I'd got an itch for a
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mare o' Jortin's- as rare a bit o' blood as ever you threw your leg
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across. But I shall keep Wildfire, now I've got him; though I'd a
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bid of a hundred and fifty for him the other day, from a man over at
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Flitton- he's buying for Lord Cromleck- a fellow with a cast in his
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eye, and a green waistcoat. But I mean to stick to Wildfire: I
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shan't get a better at a fence in a hurry. The mare's got more
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blood, but she's a bit too weak in the hindquarters.'
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Bryce of course divined that Dunstan wanted to sell the horse,
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and Dunstan knew that he divined it (horse-dealing is only one of many
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human transactions carried on in this ingenious manner); and they both
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considered that the bargain was in its first stage, when Bryce replied
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ironically:
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'I wonder at that now; I wonder you mean to keep him; for I never
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heard of a man who didn't want to sell his horse getting a bid of half
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as much again as the horse was worth. You'll be lucky if you get a
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hundred.'
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Keating rode up now, and the transaction became more complicated.
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It ended in the purchase of the horse by Bryce for a hundred and
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twenty, to be paid on the delivery of Wildfire, safe and sound, at the
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Batherley stables. It did occur to Dunsey that it might be wise for
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him to give up the day's hunting, proceed at once to Batherley, and,
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having waited for Bryce's return, hire a horse to carry him home
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with the money in his pocket. But the inclination for a run,
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encouraged by confidence in his luck, and by a draught of brandy
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from his pocket-pistol at the conclusion of the bargain, was not
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easy to overcome, especially with a horse under him that would take
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the fences to the admiration of the field. Dunstan, however, took
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one fence too many, and 'staked' his horse. His own ill-favoured
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person, which was quite unmarketable, escaped without injury, but poor
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Wildfire, unconscious of his price, turned on his flank, and painfully
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panted his last. It happened that Dunstan, a short time before, having
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had to get down to arrange his stirrup, had muttered a good many
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curses at this interruption, which had thrown him in the rear of the
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hunt near the moment of glory, and under this exasperation had taken
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the fences more blindly. He would soon have been up with the hounds
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again, when the fatal accident happened; and hence he was between
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eager riders in advance, not troubling themselves about what
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happened behind them, and far-off stragglers, who were as likely as
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not to pass quite aloof from the line of road in which Wildfire had
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fallen. Dunstan, whose nature it was to care more for immediate
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annoyances than for remote consequences, no sooner recovered his legs,
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and saw that it was all over with Wildfire, than he felt a
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satisfaction at the absence of witnesses to a position which no
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swaggering could make enviable. Reinforcing himself, after his
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shake, with a little brandy and much swearing, he walked as fast as he
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could to a coppice on his right hand, through which it occurred to him
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that he could make his way to Batherley without danger of encountering
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any member of the hunt. His first intention was to hire a horse
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there and ride home forthwith, for to walk many miles without a gun in
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his hand, and along an ordinary road, was as much out of the
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question to him as to other spirited young men of his kind. He did not
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much mind about taking the bad news to Godfrey, for he had to offer
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him at the same time the resource of Marner's money; and if Godfrey
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kicked, as he always did, at the notion of making a fresh debt, from
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which he himself got the smallest share of advantage, why, he wouldn't
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kick long: Dunstan felt sure he could worry Godfrey into anything. The
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idea of Marner's money kept growing in vividness now the want of it
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had become immediate; the prospect of having to make his appearance
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with the muddy boots of a pedestrian at Batherley, and encounter the
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grinning queries of stablemen, stood unpleasantly in the way of his
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impatience to be back at Raveloe and carry out his felicitous plan;
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and a casual visitation of his waistcoat pocket, as he was ruminating,
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awakened his memory to the fact that the two or three small coins
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his fore-finger encountered there were of too pale a colour to cover
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that small debt, without payment of which Jennings had declared he
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would never do any more business with Dunsey Cass. After all,
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according to the direction in which the run had brought him, he was
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not so very much farther from home than he was from Batherley; but
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Dunsey, not being remarkable for clearness of head, was only led to
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this conclusion by the gradual perception that there were other
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|
reasons for choosing the unprecedented course of walking home. It
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was now nearly four o'clock, and a mist was gathering: the sooner he
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got into the road the better. He remembered having crossed the road
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and seen the finger-post only a little while before Wildfire broke
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down; so, buttoning his coat, twisting the lash of his hunting whip
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compactly round the handle, and rapping the tops of his boots with a
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self-possessed air, as if to assure himself that he was not at all
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taken by surprise, he set off with the sense that he was undertaking a
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remarkable feat of bodily exertion, which somehow, and at some time,
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he should be able to dress up and magnify to the admiration of a
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select circle at the Rainbow. When a young gentleman like Dunsey is
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reduced to so exceptional a mode of locomotion as walking, a whip in
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his hand is a desirable corrective to a too bewildering dreamy sense
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of unwontedness in his position; and Dunstan, as he went along through
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the gathering mist, was always rapping his whip somewhere. It was
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Godfrey's whip, which he had chosen to take without leave because it
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had a gold handle; of course no one could see, when Dunstan held it,
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that the name Godfrey Cass was cut in deep letters on that gold
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handle- they could only see that it was a very handsome whip. Dunsey
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|
was not without fear that he might meet some acquaintance in whose
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|
eyes he would cut a pitiable figure, for mist is no screen when people
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|
get close to each other; but when he at last found himself in the
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well-known Raveloe lanes without having met a soul, he silently
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|
remarked that that was part of his usual good luck. But now the
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mist, helped by the evening darkness, was more of a screen than he
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|
desired, for it hid the ruts into which his feet were liable to
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slip- hid everything, so that he had to guide his steps by dragging
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his whip along the low bushes in advance of the hedgerow. He must
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soon, he thought, be getting near the opening at the Stone-pits: he
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should find it out by the break in the hedgerow. He found it out,
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|
however, by another circumstance which he had not expected- namely, by
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certain gleams of light, which he presently guessed to proceed from
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Silas Marner's cottage. That cottage and the money hidden within it
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|
had been in his mind continually, during his walk, and he had been
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|
imagining ways of cajoling and tempting the weaver to part with the
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|
immediate possession of his money for the sake of receiving
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|
interest. Dunstan felt as if there must be a little frightening
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|
added to the cajolery, for his own arithmetical convictions were not
|
|
clear enough to afford him any forcible demonstration as to the
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|
advantages of interest; and as for security, he regarded it vaguely as
|
|
a means of cheating a man, by making him believe that he would be
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|
paid. Altogether, the operation on the miser's mind was a task that
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|
Godfrey would be sure to hand over to his more daring and cunning
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|
brother: Dunstan had made up his mind to that; and by the time he
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|
saw the light gleaming through the chinks of Marner's shutters, the
|
|
idea of a dialogue with the weaver had become so familiar to him, that
|
|
it occurred to him as quite a natural thing to make the acquaintance
|
|
forthwith. There might be several conveniences attending this
|
|
course: the weaver had possibly got a lantern, and Dunstan was tired
|
|
of feeling his way. He was still nearly three-quarters of a mile
|
|
from home, and the lane was becoming unpleasantly slippery, for the
|
|
mist was passing into rain. He turned up the bank, not without some
|
|
fear lest he might miss the right way, since he was not certain
|
|
whether the light were in front or on the side of the cottage. But
|
|
he felt the ground before him cautiously with his whip-handle, and
|
|
at last arrived safely at the door. He knocked loudly, rather enjoying
|
|
the idea that the old fellow would be frightened at the sudden
|
|
noise. He heard no movement in reply: all was silence in the
|
|
cottage. Was the weaver gone to bed, then? If so, why had he left a
|
|
light? That was a strange forgetfulness in a miser. Dunstan knocked
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|
still more loudly, and, without pausing for a reply, pushed his
|
|
fingers through the latch-hole, intending to shake the door and pull
|
|
the latch-string up and down, not doubting that the door was fastened.
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|
But, to his surprise, at this double motion the door opened, and he
|
|
found himself in front of a bright fire, which lit up every corner
|
|
of the cottage- the bed, the loom, the three chairs, and the table-
|
|
and showed him that Marner was not there.
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|
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|
Nothing at that moment could be much more inviting to Dunsey than
|
|
the bright fire on the brick hearth: he walked in and seated himself
|
|
by it at once. There was something in front of the fire, too, that
|
|
would have been inviting to a hungry man, if it had been in a
|
|
different stage of cooking. It was a small bit of pork suspended
|
|
from the kettle-hanger by a string passed through a large door-key, in
|
|
a way known to primitive house-keepers unpossessed of jacks. But the
|
|
pork had been hung at the farthest extremity of the hanger, apparently
|
|
to prevent the roasting from proceeding too rapidly during the owner's
|
|
absence. The old staring simpleton had hot meat for his supper,
|
|
then? thought Dunstan. People had always said he lived on mouldy
|
|
bread, on purpose to check his appetite. But where could he be at this
|
|
time, and on such an evening, leaving his supper in this stage of
|
|
preparation, and his door unfastened? Dunstan's own recent
|
|
difficulty in making his way suggested to him that the weaver had
|
|
perhaps gone outside his cottage to fetch in fuel, or for some such
|
|
brief purpose, and had slipped into the Stone-pit. That was an
|
|
interesting idea to Dunstan, carrying consequences of entire
|
|
novelty. If the weaver was dead, who had a right to his money? Who
|
|
would know where his money was hidden? Who would know that anybody had
|
|
come to take it away? He went no farther into the subtleties of
|
|
evidence: the pressing question, 'Where is the money?' now took such
|
|
entire possession of him as to make him quite forget that the weaver's
|
|
death was not a certainty. A dull mind, once arriving at an
|
|
inference that flatters a desire, is rarely able to retain the
|
|
impression that the notion from which the inference started was purely
|
|
problematic. And Dunstan's mind was as dull as the mind of a
|
|
possible felon usually is. There were only three hiding-places where
|
|
he had ever heard of cottagers' hoards being found: the thatch, the
|
|
bed, and a hole in the floor. Marner's cottage had no thatch; and
|
|
Dunstan's first act, after a train of thought made rapid by the
|
|
stimulus of cupidity, was to go up to the bed; but while he did so,
|
|
his eyes travelled eagerly over the floor, where the bricks,
|
|
distinct in the fire-light, were discernible under the sprinkling of
|
|
sand. But not everywhere; for there was one spot, and one only,
|
|
which was quite covered with sand, and sand showing the marks of
|
|
fingers which had apparently been careful to spread it over a given
|
|
space. It was near the treddles of the loom. In an instant Dunstan
|
|
darted to that spot, swept away the sand with his whip, and, inserting
|
|
the thin end of the hook between the bricks, found that they were
|
|
loose. In haste he lifted up two bricks, and saw what he had no
|
|
doubt was the object of his search; for what could there be but
|
|
money in those two leathern bags? And, from their weight, they must be
|
|
filled with guineas. Dunstan felt round the hole, to be certain that
|
|
it held no more; then hastily replaced the bricks, and spread the sand
|
|
over them. Hardly more than five minutes had passed since he entered
|
|
the cottage, but it seemed to Dunstan like a long while; and though he
|
|
was without any distinct recognition of the possibility that Marner
|
|
might be alive, and might re-enter the cottage at any moment, he
|
|
felt an undefinable dread laying hold on him, as he rose to his feet
|
|
with the bags in his hand. He would hasten out into the darkness,
|
|
and then consider what he should do with the bags. He closed the
|
|
door behind him immediately, that he might shut in the stream of
|
|
light: a few steps would be enough to carry him beyond betrayal by the
|
|
gleams from the shutter-chinks and the latch-hole. The rain and
|
|
darkness had got thicker, and he was glad of it; though it was awkward
|
|
walking with both hands filled, so that it was as much as he could
|
|
do to grasp his whip along with one of the bags. But when he had
|
|
gone a yard or two, he might take his time. So he stepped forward into
|
|
the darkness.
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CHAPTER FIVE
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WHEN Dunstan Cass turned his back on the cottage, Silas Marner was not
|
|
more than a hundred yards away from it, plodding along from the
|
|
village with a sack thrown round his shoulders as an overcoat, and
|
|
with a horn lantern in his hand. His legs were weary, but his mind was
|
|
at ease, free from the presentiment of change. The sense of security
|
|
more frequently springs from habit than from conviction, and for
|
|
this reason it often subsists after such a change in the conditions as
|
|
might have been expected to suggest alarm. The lapse of time during
|
|
which a given event has not happened, is, in this logic of habit,
|
|
constantly alleged as a reason why the event should never happen, even
|
|
when the lapse of time is precisely the added condition which makes
|
|
the event imminent. A man will tell you that he has worked in a mine
|
|
for forty years unhurt by an accident, as a reason why he should
|
|
apprehend no danger, though the roof is beginning to sink; and it is
|
|
often observable, that the older a man gets, the more difficult it
|
|
is to him to retain a believing conception of his own death. This
|
|
influence of habit was necessarily strong in a man whose life was so
|
|
monotonous as Marner's- who saw no new people and heard of no new
|
|
events to keep alive in him the idea of the unexpected and the
|
|
changeful; and it explains, simply enough, why his mind could be at
|
|
ease, though he had left his house and his treasure more defenceless
|
|
than usual. Silas was thinking with double complacency of his
|
|
supper: first, because it would be hot and savoury; and, secondly,
|
|
because it would cost him nothing. For the little bit of pork was a
|
|
present from that excellent housewife, Miss Priscilla Lammeter, to
|
|
whom he had this day carried home a handsome piece of linen; and it
|
|
was only on occasion of a present like this, that Silas indulged
|
|
himself with roast meat. Supper was his favourite meal, because it
|
|
came at his time of revelry, when his heart warmed over his gold;
|
|
whenever he had roast-meat, he always chose to have it for supper. But
|
|
this evening, he had no sooner ingeniously knotted his string fast
|
|
round his bit of pork, twisted the string according to rule over his
|
|
door-key, passed it through the handle, and made it fast on the
|
|
hanger, than he remembered that a piece of very fine twine was
|
|
indispensable to his 'setting up' a new piece of work in his loom
|
|
early in the morning. It had slipped his memory, because, in coming
|
|
from Mr Lammeter's, he had not had to pass through the village; but to
|
|
lose time by going on errands in the morning was out of the
|
|
question. It was a nasty fog to turn out into, but there were things
|
|
Silas loved better than his own comfort; so, drawing his pork to the
|
|
extremity of the hanger, and arming himself with his lantern and his
|
|
old sack, he set out on what, in ordinary weather, would have been a
|
|
twenty minutes' errand. He could not have locked his door without
|
|
undoing his well-knotted string and retarding his supper; it was not
|
|
worth his while to make that sacrifice. What thief would find his
|
|
way to the Stone-pits on such a night as this? and why should he
|
|
come on this particular night, when he had never come through all
|
|
the fifteen years before? These questions were not distinctly
|
|
present in Silas's mind; they merely serve to represent the
|
|
vaguely-felt foundation of his freedom from anxiety.
|
|
|
|
He reached his door in much satisfaction that his errand was
|
|
done: he opened it, and to his short-sighted eyes everything
|
|
remained as he had left it, except that the fire sent out a welcome
|
|
increase of heat. He trod about the floor while putting by his lantern
|
|
and throwing aside his hat and sack, so as to merge the marks of
|
|
Dunstan's feet on the sand in the marks of his own nailed boots.
|
|
Then he moved his pork nearer to the fire, and sat down to the
|
|
agreeable business of tending the meat and warming himself at the same
|
|
time.
|
|
|
|
Any one who had looked at him as the red light shone upon his
|
|
pale face, strange straining eyes, and meagre form, would perhaps have
|
|
understood the mixture of contemptuous pity, dread, and suspicion with
|
|
which he was regarded by his neighbours in Raveloe. Yet few men
|
|
could be more harmless than poor Marner. In his truthful simple
|
|
soul, not even the growing greed and worship of gold could beget any
|
|
vice directly injurious to others. The light of his faith quite put
|
|
out, and his affections made desolate, he had clung with all the force
|
|
of his nature to his work and his money; and like all objects to which
|
|
a man devotes himself, they had fashioned him into correspondence with
|
|
themselves. His loom, as he wrought in it without ceasing, had in
|
|
its turn wrought on him, and confirmed more and more the monotonous
|
|
craving for its monotonous response. His gold, as he hung over it
|
|
and saw it grow, gathered his power of loving together into a hard
|
|
isolation like its own.
|
|
|
|
As soon as he was warm he began to think it would be a long while
|
|
to wait till after supper before he drew out his guineas, and it would
|
|
be pleasant to see them on the table before him as he ate his unwonted
|
|
feast. For joy is the best of wine, and Silas's guineas were a
|
|
golden wine of that sort.
|
|
|
|
He rose and placed his candle unsuspectingly on the floor near
|
|
his loom, swept away the sand without noticing any change, and removed
|
|
the bricks. The sight of the empty hole made his heart leap violently,
|
|
but the belief that his gold was gone could not come at once- only
|
|
terror, and the eager effort to put an end to the terror. He passed
|
|
his trembling hand all about the hole, trying to think it possible
|
|
that his eyes had deceived him; then he held the candle in the hole
|
|
and examined it curiously, trembling more and more. At last he shook
|
|
so violently that he let fall the candle, and lifted his hands to
|
|
his head, trying to steady himself, that he might think. Had he put
|
|
his gold somewhere else, by a sudden resolution last night, and then
|
|
forgotten it? A man falling into dark waters seeks a momentary footing
|
|
even on sliding stones; and Silas, by acting as if he believed in
|
|
false hopes, warded off the moment of despair. He searched in every
|
|
corner, he turned his bed over, and shook it, and kneaded it; he
|
|
looked in his brick oven where he laid his sticks. When there was no
|
|
other place to be searched, he kneeled down again and felt once more
|
|
all round the hole. There was no untried refuge left for a moment's
|
|
shelter from the terrible truth.
|
|
|
|
Yes, there was a sort of refuge which always come with the
|
|
prostration of thought under an overpowering passion: it was that
|
|
expectation of impossibilities, that belief in contradictory images,
|
|
which is still distinct from madness, because it is capable of being
|
|
dissipated by the external fact. Silas got up from his knees
|
|
trembling, and looked round at the table: didn't the gold lie there
|
|
after all? The table was bare. Then he turned and looked behind him-
|
|
looked all round his dwelling, seeming to strain his brown eyes
|
|
after some possible appearance of the bags, where he had already
|
|
sought them in vain. He could see every object in his cottage- and his
|
|
gold was not there.
|
|
|
|
Again he put his trembling hands to his head, and gave a wild
|
|
ringing scream, the cry of desolation. For a few moments after, he
|
|
stood motionless; but the cry had relieved him from the first
|
|
maddening pressure of the truth. He turned and tottered towards his
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loom, and got into the seat where he worked, instinctively seeking
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this as the strongest assurance of reality.
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And now that all the false hopes had vanished, and the first
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shock of certainty was past, the idea of a thief began to present
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itself, and he entertained it eagerly, because a thief might be caught
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and made to restore the gold. The thought brought some new strength
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with it, and he started from his loom to the door. As he opened it the
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rain beat in upon him, for it was falling more and more heavily. There
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were no footsteps to be tracked on such a night- footsteps? When had
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the thief come? During Silas's absence in the daytime the door had
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been locked, and there had been no marks of any inroad on his return
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by daylight. And in the evening, too, he said to himself, everything
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was the same as when he had left it. The sand and bricks looked as
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if they had not been moved. Was it a thief who had taken the bags?
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or was it a cruel power that no hands could reach, which had delighted
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in making him a second time desolate? He shrank from this vaguer
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dread, and fixed his mind with struggling effort on the robber with
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hands, who could be reached by hands. His thoughts glanced at all
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the neighbours who had made any remarks, or asked any questions
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which he might now regard as a ground of suspicion. There was Jem
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Rodney, a known poacher, and otherwise disreputable: he had often
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met Marner in his journeys across the fields, and had said something
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jestingly about the weaver's money; nay, he had once irritated Marner,
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by lingering at the fire when he called to light his pipe, instead
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of going about his business. Jem Rodney was the man- there was ease in
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the thought. Jem could be found and made to restore the money:
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Marner did not want to punish him, but only to get back his gold which
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had gone from him, and left his soul like a forlorn traveller on an
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unknown desert. The robber must be laid hold of. Marner's ideas of
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legal authority were confused, but he felt that he must go and
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proclaim his loss; and the great people in the village- the clergyman,
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the constable, and Squire Cass- would make Jem Rodney, or somebody
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else, deliver up the stolen money. He rushed out in the rain, under
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the stimulus of this hope, forgetting to cover his head, not caring to
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fasten his door; for he felt as if he had nothing left to lose. He ran
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swiftly till want of breath compelled him to slacken his pace as he
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was entering the village at the turning close to the Rainbow.
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The Rainbow, in Marner's view, was a place of luxurious resort
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for rich and stout husbands, whose wives had superfluous stores of
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linen; it was the place where he was likely to find the powers and
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dignities of Raveloe, and where he could most speedily make his loss
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public. He lifted the latch, and turned into the bright bar or kitchen
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on the right hand, where the less lofty customers of the house were in
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the habit of assembling, the parlour on the left being reserved for
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the more select society in which Squire Cass frequently enjoyed the
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double pleasure of conviviality and condescension. But the parlour was
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dark tonight, the chief personages who ornamented its circle being all
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at Mrs Osgood's birthday dance, as Godfrey Cass was. And in
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consequence of this, the party on the high-screened seats in the
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kitchen was more numerous than usual; several personages, who would
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otherwise have been admitted into the parlour and enlarged the
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opportunity of hectoring and condescension for their betters, being
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content this evening to vary their enjoyment by taking their
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spirits-and-water where they could themselves hector and condescend in
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company that called for beer.
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CHAPTER SIX
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THE conversation, which was at a high pitch of animation when Silas
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approached the door of the Rainbow, had, as usual, been slow and
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intermittent when the company first assembled. The pipes began to be
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puffed in a silence which had an air of severity; the more important
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customers, who drank spirits and sat nearest the fire, staring at each
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other as if a bet were depending on the first man who winked; while
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the beer-drinkers, chiefly men in fustian jackets and smock-frocks,
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kept their eyelids down and rubbed their hands across their mouths, as
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if their draughts of beer were a funereal duty attended with
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embarrassing sadness. At last Mr Snell, the landlord, a man of a
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neutral disposition, accustomed to stand aloof from human
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differences as those of beings who were all alike in need of liquor,
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broke silence, by saying in a doubtful tone to his cousin the butcher:
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'Some folks 'ud say that was a fine beast you druv in yesterday,
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Bob?'
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The butcher, a jolly, smiling, red-haired man, was not disposed
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to answer rashly. He gave a few puffs before he spat and replied, 'And
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they wouldn't be fur wrong, John.'
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After this feeble delusive thaw, the silence set in as severely
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as before.
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'Was it a red Durham?' said the farrier, taking up the thread of
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discourse after the lapse of a few minutes.
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The farrier looked at the landlord, and the landlord looked at
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the butcher, as the person who must take the responsibility of
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answering.
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'Red it was,' said the butcher, in his good-humoured husky
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treble- 'and a Durham it was.'
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'Then you needn't tell me who you bought it of,' said the
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farrier, looking round with some triumph; 'I know who it is has got
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the red Durhams o' this country-side. And she'd a white star on her
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brow, I'll bet a penny?' The farrier leaned forward with his hands
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on his knees as he put this question, and his eyes twinkled knowingly.
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'Well; yes- she might,' said the butcher, slowly, considering
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that he was giving a decided affirmative. 'I don't say contrairy.'
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'I knew that very well,' said the farrier, throwing himself
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backward again, and speaking defiantly; 'if I don't know Mr Lammeter's
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cows, I should like to know who does- that's all. And as for the cow
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you've bought, bargain or no bargain, I've been at the drenching of
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her- contradick me who will.'
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The farrier looked fierce, and the mild butcher's conversational
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spirit was roused a little.
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'I'm not for contradicking no man,' he said; 'I'm for peace and
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quietness. Some are for cutting long ribs- I'm for cutting 'em
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short, myself; but I don't quarrel with 'em. All I say is, it's a
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lovely carkiss- and anybody as was reasonable, it 'ud bring tears into
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their eyes to look at it.'
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'Well, it's the cow as I drenched, whatever it is,' pursued the
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farrier, angrily; 'and it was Mr Lammeter's cow, else you told a lie
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when you said it was a red Durham.'
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'I tell no lies,' said the butcher, with the same mild huskiness as
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before; 'and I contradick none- not if a man was to swear himself
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black: he's no meat o' mine nor none o' my bargains. All I say is,
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it's a lovely carkiss. And what I say, I'll stick to; but I'll quarrel
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wi' no man.'
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'No,' said the farrier, with bitter sarcasm, looking at the company
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generally; 'and p'rhaps you aren't pig-headed; and p'rhaps you
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didn't say the cow was a red Durham; and p'rhaps you didn't say
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she'd got a star on her brow- stick to that, now you're at it.'
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'Come, come,' said the landlord; 'let the cow alone. The truth lies
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atween you: you're both right and both wrong, as I allays says. And as
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for the cow's being Mr Lammeter's, I say nothing to that; but this I
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say, as the Rainbow's the Rainbow. And for the matter o' that, if
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the talk is to be o' the Lammeters, you know the most upo' that
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head, eh, Mr Macey? You remember when first Mr Lammeter's father
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|
come into these parts, and took the Warrens?'
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Mr Macey, tailor and parish-clerk, the latter of which functions
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rheumatism had of late obliged him to share with a small-featured
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young man who sat opposite him, held his white head on one side, and
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twirled his thumbs with an air of complacency, slightly seasoned
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with criticism. He smiled pityingly, in answer to the landlord's
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appeal, and said-
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'Aye, aye; I know, I know; but I let other folks talk. I've laid by
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now, and gev up to the young uns. Ask them as have been to school at
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Tarley: they've learnt pernouncing; that's come up since my day.'
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'If you're pointing at me, Mr Macey,' said the deputy clerk, with
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an air of anxious propriety, 'I'm nowise a man to speak out of my
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place. As the psalm says-
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I know what's right, nor only so,
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But also practise what I know.'
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'Well, then, I wish you'd keep hold o' the tune when it's set for
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you; if you're for practising, I wish you'd practise that,' said a
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large jocose-looking man, an excellent wheelwright in his week-day
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capacity, but on Sundays leader of the choir. He winked, as he
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spoke, at two of the company, who were known officially as 'the
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bassoon' and 'the key-bugle', in the confidence that he was expressing
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|
the sense of the musical profession in Raveloe.
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Mr Tookey, the deputy-clerk, who shared the unpopularity common
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|
to deputies, turned very red, but replied, with careful moderation-
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'Mr Winthrop, if you'll bring me any proof as I'm in the wrong, I'm
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not the man to say I won't alter. But there's people set up their
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|
own ears for a standard, and expect the whole choir to follow 'em.
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There may be two opinions, I hope.'
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'Aye, aye,' said Mr Macey, who felt very well satisfied with this
|
|
attack on youthful presumption: 'you're right there, Tookey: there's
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allays two 'pinions; there's the 'pinion a man has of himsen, and
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|
there's the 'pinion other folks have on him. There'd be two 'pinions
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|
about a cracked bell, if the bell could hear itself.'
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'Well, Mr Macey,' said poor Tookey, serious amidst the general
|
|
laughter, 'I undertook to partially fill up the office of parish-clerk
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|
by Mr Crackenthorp's desire, whenever your infirmities should make you
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|
unfitting; and it's one of the rights thereof to sing in the choir-
|
|
else why have you done the same yourself?
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'Ah! but the old gentleman and you are two folks,' said Ben
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|
Winthrop. 'The old gentleman's got a gift. Why, the Squire used to
|
|
invite him to take a glass, only to hear him sing the "Red Rovier";
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|
didn't he, Mr Macey? It's a nat'ral gift. There's my little lad Aaron,
|
|
he's got a gift- he can sing a tune off straight, like a throstle. But
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|
as for you, Master Tookey, you'd better stick to your "Amens": your
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|
voice is well enough when you keep it up in your nose. It's your
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|
inside as isn't right made for music: it's no better nor a hollow
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|
stalk.'
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This kind of unflinching frankness was the most piquant form of
|
|
joke to the company at the Rainbow, and Ben Winthrop's insult was felt
|
|
by everybody to have capped Mr Macey's epigram.
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|
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'I see what it is plain enough,' said Mr Tookey, unable to keep
|
|
cool any longer. 'There's a consperacy to turn me out o' the choir, as
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|
I shouldn't share the Christmas money- that's where it is. But I shall
|
|
speak to Mr Crackenthorp; I'll not be put upon by no man.'
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'Nay, nay, Tookey,' said Ben Winthrop. 'We'll pay you your share to
|
|
keep out of it- that's what we'll do. There's things folks 'ud pay
|
|
to be rid on, besides varmin.'
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'Come, come,' said the landlord, who felt that paying people for
|
|
their absence was a principle dangerous to society; 'a joke's a
|
|
joke. We're all good friends here, I hope. We must give and take.
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|
You're both right and you're both wrong, as I say. I agree wi' Mr
|
|
Macey here, as there's two opinions; and if mine was asked, I should
|
|
say they're both right. Tookey's right and Winthrop's right, and
|
|
they've only got to split the difference and make themselves even.'
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|
The farrier was puffing his pipe rather fiercely, in some
|
|
contempt at this trivial discussion. He had no ear for music
|
|
himself, and never went to church, as being of the medical profession,
|
|
and likely to be in requisition for delicate cows. But the butcher,
|
|
having music in his soul, had listened with a divided desire for
|
|
Tookey's defeat, and for the preservation of the peace.
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|
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|
'To be sure,' he said, following up the landlord's conciliatory
|
|
view, 'we're fond of our old clerk; it's nat'ral, and him used to be
|
|
such a singer, and got a brother as is known for the first fiddler
|
|
in this countryside. Eh, it's a pity but what Solomon lived in our
|
|
village, and could give us a tune when we liked; eh, Mr Macey? I'd
|
|
keep him in liver and lights for nothing- that I would.'
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'Aye, aye,' said Mr Macey, in the height of complacency, 'our
|
|
family's been known for musicianers as far back as anybody can tell.
|
|
But them things are dying out, as I tell Solomon every time he comes
|
|
round; there's no voices like what there used to be, and there's
|
|
nobody remembers what we remember, if it isn't the old crows.'
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'Aye, you remember when first Mr Lammeter's father came into
|
|
these parts, don't you, Mr Macey?' said the landlord.
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'I should think I did,' said the old man, who had now gone
|
|
through that complimentary process necessary to bring him up to the
|
|
point of narration, 'and a fine old gentleman he was- as fine, and
|
|
finer nor the Mr Lammeter as now is. He came from a bit north'ard,
|
|
so far as I could ever make out. But there's nobody rightly knows
|
|
about those parts: only it couldn't be far north'ard, nor much
|
|
different from this country, for he brought a fine breed o' sheep with
|
|
him, so there must be pastures there, and everything reasonable. We
|
|
heared tell as he'd sold his own land to come and take the Warrens,
|
|
and that seemed odd for a man as had land of his own, to come and rent
|
|
a farm in a strange place. But they say it was along of his wife's
|
|
dying; though there's reasons in things as nobody knows on- that's
|
|
pretty much what I've made out; though some folks are so wise, they'll
|
|
find you fifty reasons straight off, and all the while the real
|
|
reason's winking at 'em in the corner, and they niver see't.
|
|
Howsomever, it was soon seen as we'd got a new parish'ner as know'd
|
|
the rights and customs o' things, and kep a good house, and was well
|
|
looked on by everybody. And the young man- that's the Mr Lammeter as
|
|
now is, for he'd niver a sister- soon begun to court Miss Osgood,
|
|
that's the sister o' the Mr Osgood as now is, and a fine handsome lass
|
|
she was- eh, you can't think- they pretend this young lass is like
|
|
her, but that's the way wi' people as don't know what come before 'em.
|
|
I should know, for I helped the old rector, Mr Drumlow as was, I
|
|
helped him marry 'em.'
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|
Here Mr Macey paused; he always gave his narrative in
|
|
instalments, expecting to be questioned according to precedent.
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'Aye, and a partic'lar thing happened, didn't it, Mr Macey, so as
|
|
you were likely to remember that marriage?' said the landlord, in a
|
|
congratulatory tone.
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|
'I should think there did- a very partic'lar thing,' said Mr Macey,
|
|
nodding sideways. 'For Mr Drumlow- poor old gentleman, I was fond on
|
|
him, though he'd got a bit confused in his head, what wi' age and
|
|
wi' taking a drop o' summat warm when the service come of a cold
|
|
morning. And young Mr Lammeter, he'd have no way but he must be
|
|
married in janiwary, which, to be sure, 's a unreasonable time to be
|
|
married in, for it isn't like a christening or a burying, as you can't
|
|
help; and so Mr Drumlow- poor old gentleman, I was fond on him- but
|
|
when he come to put the questions, he put 'em by the rule o'
|
|
contrairy, like, and he says, "Wilt thou have this man to thy wedded
|
|
wife?" says he, and then he says, "Wilt thou have this woman to thy
|
|
wedded husband?" says he. But the partic'larest thing of all is, as
|
|
nobody took any notice on it but me, and they answered straight off
|
|
"yes", like as if it had been me saying "Amen" i' the right place,
|
|
without listening to what went before.'
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'But you knew what was going on well enough, didn't you, Mr
|
|
Macey? You were live enough, eh?' said the butcher.
|
|
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'Lor bless you!' said Mr Macey, pausing, and smiling in pity at the
|
|
impotence of his hearers' imagination- 'why, I was all of a tremble:
|
|
it was as if I'd been a coat pulled by the two tails, like; for I
|
|
couldn't stop the parson, I couldn't take upon me to do that; and
|
|
yet I said to myself, I says, "Suppose they shouldn't be fast married,
|
|
'cause the words are contrairy?" and my head went working like a mill,
|
|
for I was allays uncommon for turning things over and seeing all round
|
|
'em; and I says to myself, "Is't the meanin' or the words as makes
|
|
folks fast i' wedlock?" For the parson meant right, and the bride
|
|
and bridegroom meant right. But then, when I come to think on it,
|
|
meanin' goes but a little way i' most things, for you may mean to
|
|
stick things together and your glue may be bad, and then where are
|
|
you? And so I says to mysen, "It isn't the meanin', it's the glue."
|
|
And I was worreted as if I'd got three bells to pull at once, when
|
|
we got into the vestry, and they begun to sign their names. But
|
|
where's the use o' talking?- you can't think what goes on in a 'cute
|
|
man's inside.'
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|
'But you held in for all that, didn't you, Mr Macey?' said the
|
|
landlord.
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'Aye, I held in tight till I was by mysen wi' Mr Drumlow, and
|
|
then I out wi' everything, but respectful, as I allays did. And he
|
|
made light on it, and he says, "Pooh, pooh, Macey, make yourself
|
|
easy," he says, "it's neither the meaning nor the words- it's the
|
|
regester does it- that's the glue." So you see he settled it easy; for
|
|
parsons and doctors know everything by heart, like, so as they
|
|
aren't worreted wi' thinking what's the rights and wrongs o' things,
|
|
as I'n been many and many's the time. And sure enough the wedding
|
|
turned out all right, on'y poor Mrs Lammeter- that's Miss Osgood as
|
|
was- died afore the lasses were growed up; but for prosperity and
|
|
everything respectable, there's no family more looked on.'
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|
Every one of Mr Macey's audience had heard this story many times,
|
|
but it was listened to as if it had been a favourite tune, and at
|
|
certain points the puffing of the pipes was momentarily suspended,
|
|
that the listeners might give their whole minds to the expected words.
|
|
But there was more to come; and Mr Snell, the landlord, duly put the
|
|
leading question.
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|
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|
'Why, old Mr Lammeter had a pretty fortin, didn't they say, when he
|
|
come into these parts?'
|
|
|
|
'Well, yes,' said Mr Macey; 'but I daresay it's as much as this
|
|
Mr Lammeter's done to keep it whole. For there was allays a talk as
|
|
nobody could get rich on the Warrens: though he holds it cheap, for
|
|
it's what they call Charity Land.'
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|
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|
'Aye, and there's few folks know so well as you how it come to be
|
|
Charity Land, eh, Mr Macey?' said the butcher.
|
|
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|
'How should they?' said the old clerk, with some contempt. 'Why, my
|
|
grandfather made the grooms' livery for that Mr Cliff as came and
|
|
built the big stables at the Warrens. Why, they're stables four
|
|
times as big as Squire Cass's, for he thought o' nothing but hosses
|
|
and hunting, Cliff didn't- a Lunnon tailor, some folks said, as had
|
|
gone mad wi' cheating. For he couldn't ride; lor bless you! they
|
|
said he'd got no more grip o' the hoss than if his legs had been cross
|
|
sticks: my grandfather heared old Squire Cass say so many and many a
|
|
time. But ride he would, as if old Harry had been a-driving him; and
|
|
he'd a son, a lad o' sixteen; and nothing would his father have him
|
|
do, but he must ride and ride- though the lad was frighted, they said.
|
|
And it was a common saying as the father wanted to ride the tailor out
|
|
o' the lad, and make a gentleman on him- not but what I'm a tailor
|
|
myself, but in respect as God made me such, I'm proud on it, for
|
|
"Macey tailor", 's been wrote up over our door since afore the Queen's
|
|
heads went out on the shillings. But Cliff, he was ashamed o' being
|
|
called a tailor, and he was sore vexed as his riding was laughed at,
|
|
and nobody o' the gentlefolks hereabout could abide him. Howsomever,
|
|
the poor lad got sickly and died, and the father didn't live long
|
|
after him, for he got queerer nor ever, and they said he used to go
|
|
out i' the dead o' the night, wi' a lantern in his hand, to the
|
|
stables, and set a lot o' lights burning, for he got as he couldn't
|
|
sleep; and there he'd stand, cracking his whip and looking at his
|
|
hosses; and they said it was a mercy as the stables didn't get burnt
|
|
down wi' the poor dumb creaturs in 'em. But at last he died raving,
|
|
and they found as he'd left all his property, Warrens and all, to a
|
|
Lunnon Charity, and that's how the Warrens came to be Charity land;
|
|
though, as for the stables, Mr Lammeter never uses 'em- they're out o'
|
|
all charicter- lor bless you! if you was to set the doors a-banging in
|
|
'em, it 'ud sound like thunder half o'er the parish.'
|
|
|
|
'Aye, but there's more going on in the stables than what folks
|
|
see by daylight, eh, Mr Macey?' said the landlord.
|
|
|
|
'Aye, aye; go that way of a dark night, that's all,' said Mr
|
|
Macey winking mysteriously, 'and then make believe, if you like, as
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you didn't see lights i' the stables, nor hear the stamping o' the
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hosses, nor the cracking o' the whips, and howling, too, if it's
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tow'rt daybreak. "Cliff's Holiday" has been the name of it ever sin' I
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were a boy; that's to say, some said as it was the holiday Old Harry
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gev him from roasting, like. That's what my father told me, and he was
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a reasonable man, though there's folks nowadays know what happened
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afore they were born better nor they know their own business.'
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'What do you say to that, eh, Dowlas?' said the landlord, turning
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to the farrier, who was swelling with impatience for his cue. 'There's
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a nut for you to crack.'
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Mr Dowlas was the negative spirit in the company, and was proud
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of his position.
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'Say? I say what a man should say as doesn't shut his eyes to
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look at a finger-post. I say, as I'm ready to wager any man ten pound,
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if he'll stand out wi' me any dry night in the pasture before the
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Warren stables, as we shall neither see lights nor hear noises, if
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it isn't the blowing of our own noses. That's what I say, and I've
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said it many a time; but there's nobody'ull ventur a ten-pun' note
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on their ghos'es as they make so sure of.'
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'Why, Dowlas, that's easy betting, that is,' said Ben Winthrop.
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'You might as well bet a man as he wouldn't catch the rheumatise if he
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stood up to 's neck in the pool of a frosty night. It 'ud be fine
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fun for a man to win his bet as he'd catch the rheumatise. Folks as
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believe in Cliff's Holiday aren't agoing to ventur near it for a
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matter o' ten pound.'
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'If Master Dowlas wants to know the truth on it,' said Mr Macey,
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with a sarcastic smile, tapping his thumbs together, 'he's no call
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to lay any bet- let him go and stan' by himself- there's nobody 'ull
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hinder him; and then he can let the parish'ners know if they're
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wrong.'
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'Thank you! I'm obliged to you,' said the farrier, with a snort
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of scorn. 'If folks are fools, it's no business o' mine. I don't
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want to make out the truth about ghos'es: I know it a'ready. But I'm
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not against a bet- everything fair and open. Let any man bet me ten
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pound as I shall see Cliff's Holiday, and I'll go and stand by myself.
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I want no company. I'd as lief do it as I'd fill this pipe.'
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'Ah, but who's to watch you, Dowlas, and see you do it? That's no
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fair bet,' said the butcher.
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'No fair bet?' replied Mr Dowlas, angrily. 'I should like to hear
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any man stand up and say I want to be unfair. Come now, Master
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Lundy, I should like to hear you say it.'
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'Very like you would,' said the butcher. 'But it's no business o'
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mine. You're none o' my bargains, and I aren't a-going to try and
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'bate your price. If anybody'll bid for you at your own vallying,
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let him. I'm for peace and quietness, I am.'
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'Yes, that's what every yapping cur is, when you hold a stick up at
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him,' said the farrier. 'But I'm afraid o' neither man nor ghost,
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and I'm ready to lay a fair bet- I aren't a turn-tail cur.'
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'Aye, but there's this in it, Dowlas,' said the landlord,
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speaking in a tone of much candour and tolerance. 'There's folks, i'
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my opinion, they can't see ghos'es, not if they stood as plain as a
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pike-staff before 'em. And there's reason i' that. For there's my
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wife, now, can't smell, not if she'd the strongest of cheese under her
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nose. I never see'd a ghost myself, but then I says to myself, "Very
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like I haven't got the smell for 'em." I mean, putting a ghost for a
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smell, or else contrairi-ways. And so, I'm for holding with both
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sides; for, as I say, the truth lies between 'em. And if Dowlas was to
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go and stand, and say he'd never seen a wink o' Cliff's Holiday all
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|
the night through, I'd back him; and if anybody said as Cliff's
|
|
Holiday was certain sure, for all that, I'd back him too. For the
|
|
smell's what I go by.'
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The landlord's analogical argument was not well received by the
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farrier- a man intensely opposed to compromise.
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'Tut, tut,' he said, setting down his glass with refreshed
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irritation; 'what's the smell got to do with it? Did ever a ghost give
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a man a black eye? That's what I should like to know. If ghos'es
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want me to believe in 'em, let 'em leave off skulking i' the dark
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|
and i' lone places- let 'em come where there's company and candles.'
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'As if ghos'es 'ud want to be believed in by anybody so
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|
ignirant!' said Mr Macey, in deep disgust at the farrier's crass
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incompetence to apprehend the conditions of ghostly phenomena.
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CHAPTER SEVEN
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YET the next moment there seemed to be some evidence that ghosts had a
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more condescending disposition than Mr Macey attributed to them; for
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the pale thin figure of Silas Marner was suddenly seen standing in the
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warm light, uttering no word, but looking round at the company with
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|
his strange unearthly eyes. The long pipes gave a simultaneous
|
|
movement, like the antennae of startled insects, and every man
|
|
present, not excepting even the sceptical farrier, had an impression
|
|
that he saw, not Silas Marner in the flesh, but an apparition; for the
|
|
door by which Silas had entered was hidden by the high-screened seats,
|
|
and no one had noticed his approach. Mr Macey, sitting a long way
|
|
off the ghost, might be supposed to have felt an argumentative
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|
triumph, which would tend to neutralize his share of the general
|
|
alarm. Had he not always said that when Silas Marner was in that
|
|
strange trance of his, his soul went loose from his body? Here was the
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|
demonstration: nevertheless, on the whole, he would have been as
|
|
well contented without it. For a few moments there was a dead silence,
|
|
Marner's want of breath and agitation not allowing him to speak. The
|
|
landlord, under the habitual sense that he was bound to keep his house
|
|
open to all company, and confident in the protection of his unbroken
|
|
neutrality, at last took on himself the task of adjuring the ghost.
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'Master Marner,' he said, in a conciliatory tone, 'what's lacking
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|
to you? What's your business here?'
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'Robbed!' said Silas, gaspingly. 'I've been robbed! I want the
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|
constable- and the Justice- and Squire Cass- and Mr Crackenthorp.'
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'Lay hold on him, Jem Rodney,' said the landlord, the idea of a
|
|
ghost subsiding; 'he's off his head, I doubt. He's wet through.'
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Jem Rodney was the outermost man, and sat conveniently near
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Marner's standing-place; but he declined to give his services.
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|
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'Come and lay hold on him yourself, Mr Snell, if you've a mind,'
|
|
said Jem, rather sullenly. 'He's been robbed, and murdered too, for
|
|
what I know,' he added, in a muttering tone.
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'Jem Rodney!' said Silas, turning and fixing his strange eyes on
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|
the suspected man.
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'Aye, Master Marner, what do you want wi' me?' said Jem,
|
|
trembling a little, and seizing his drinking-can as a defensive
|
|
weapon.
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'If it was you stole my money,' said Silas, clasping his hands
|
|
entreatingly, and raising his voice to a cry, 'give it me back- and
|
|
I won't meddle with you. I won't set the constable on you. Give it
|
|
me back, and I'll let you- I'll let you have a guinea.'
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|
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'Me stole your money!' said Jem, angrily. 'I'll pitch this can at
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|
your eye if you talk o' my stealing your money.'
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|
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|
'Come, come, Master Marner,' said the landlord, now rising
|
|
resolutely, and seizing Marner by the shoulder, 'if you've got any
|
|
information to lay, speak it out sensible, and show as you're in
|
|
your right mind, if you expect anybody to listen to you. You're as wet
|
|
as a drownded rat. Sit down and dry yourself, and speak straight
|
|
forrard.'
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|
|
|
'Ah, to be sure, man,' said the farrier, who began to feel that
|
|
he had not been quite on a par with himself and the occasion. 'Let's
|
|
have no more staring and screaming, else we'll have you strapped for a
|
|
madman. That was why I didn't speak at the first- thinks I, the
|
|
man's run mad.'
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|
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|
'Aye, aye, make him sit down,' said several voices at once, well
|
|
pleased that the reality of ghosts remained still an open question.
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|
|
|
The landlord forced Marner to take off his coat, and then to sit
|
|
down on a chair aloof from everyone else, in the centre of the circle,
|
|
and in the direct rays of the fire. The weaver, too feeble to have any
|
|
distinct purpose beyond that of getting help to recover his money,
|
|
submitted unresistingly. The transient fears of the company were now
|
|
forgotten in their strong curiosity, and all faces were turned towards
|
|
Silas, when the landlord, having seated himself again, said:
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|
|
|
'Now then, Master Marner, what's this you've got to say, as
|
|
you've been robbed? speak out.'
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|
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|
'He'd better not say again as it was me robbed him,' cried Jem
|
|
Rodney, hastily. 'What could I ha' done with his money? I could as
|
|
easy steal the parson's surplice, and wear it.'
|
|
|
|
'Hold your tongue, Jem, and let's hear what he's got to say,'
|
|
said the landlord. 'Now then, Master Marner.'
|
|
|
|
Silas now told his story under frequent questioning, as the
|
|
mysterious character of the robbery became evident.
|
|
|
|
This strangely novel situation of opening his trouble to his
|
|
Raveloe neighbours, of sitting in the warmth of a hearth not his
|
|
own, and feeling the presence of faces and voices which were his
|
|
nearest promise of help, had doubtless its influence on Marner, in
|
|
spite of his passionate preoccupation with his loss. Our consciousness
|
|
rarely registers the beginning of a growth within us any more than
|
|
without us: there have been many circulations of the sap before we
|
|
detect the smallest sign of the bud.
|
|
|
|
The slight suspicion with which his hearers at first listened to
|
|
him, gradually melted away before the convincing simplicity of his
|
|
distress: it was impossible for the neighbours to doubt that Marner
|
|
was telling the truth, not because they were capable of arguing at
|
|
once from the nature of his statements to the absence of any motive
|
|
for making them falsely, but because, as Mr Macey observed, 'Folks
|
|
as had the devil to back 'em were not likely to be so mushed' as
|
|
poor Silas was. Rather, from the strange fact that the robber had left
|
|
no traces, and had happened to know the nick of time, utterly
|
|
incalculable by mortal agents, when Silas would go away from home
|
|
without locking his door, the more probable conclusion seemed to be,
|
|
that his disreputable intimacy in that quarter, if it ever existed,
|
|
had been broken up, and that, in consequence, this ill turn had been
|
|
done to Marner by somebody it was quite in vain to set the constable
|
|
after. Why this preternatural felon should be obliged to wait till the
|
|
door was left unlocked, was a question which did not present itself.
|
|
|
|
'It isn't Jem Rodney as has done this work, Master Marner,' said
|
|
the landlord. 'You musn't be a-casting your eye at poor Jem. There may
|
|
be a bit of a reckoning against Jem for the matter of a hare or so, if
|
|
anybody was bound to keep their eyes staring open, and niver to
|
|
wink- but Jem's been a-sitting here drinking his can, like the
|
|
decentest man i' the parish, since before you left your house,
|
|
Master Marner, by your own account.'
|
|
|
|
'Aye, aye,' said Mr Macey; 'let's have no accusing o' the innicent.
|
|
That isn't the law. There must be folks to swear again' a man before
|
|
he can be ta'en up. Let's have no accusing o' the innicent, Master
|
|
Marner.'
|
|
|
|
Memory was not so utterly torpid in Silas that it could not be
|
|
awakened by these words. With a movement of compunction, as new and
|
|
strange to him as everything else within the last hour, he started
|
|
from his chair, and went close up to Jem, looking at him as if he
|
|
wanted to assure himself of the expression in his face.
|
|
|
|
'I was wrong,' he said- 'yes, yes- I ought to have thought. There's
|
|
nothing to witness against you, Jem. Only you'd been into my house
|
|
oftener than anybody else, and so you came into my head. I don't
|
|
accuse you- I won't accuse anybody- only,' he added, lifting up his
|
|
hands to his head, and turning away with bewildered misery, 'I try-
|
|
I try to think where my money can be.'
|
|
|
|
'Aye, aye, they're gone where it's hot enough to melt 'em, I
|
|
doubt,' said Mr Macey.
|
|
|
|
'Tchuh!' said the farrier. And then he asked, with a
|
|
cross-examining air, 'How much money might there be in the bags,
|
|
Master Marner?'
|
|
|
|
'Two hundred and seventy-two pounds, twelve and sixpence, last
|
|
night when I counted it,' said Silas, seating himself again, with a
|
|
groan.
|
|
|
|
'Pooh! why, they'd be none so heavy to carry. Some tramp's been in,
|
|
that's all; and as for the no footmarks, and the bricks and the sand
|
|
being all right- why, your eyes are pretty much like a insect's,
|
|
Master Marner; they're obliged to look so close, you can't see much at
|
|
a time. It's my opinion as, if I'd been you, or you'd been me- for
|
|
it comes to the same thing- you wouldn't have thought you'd found
|
|
everything as you left it. But what I vote is, as two of the
|
|
sensiblest o' the company should go with you to Master Kench, the
|
|
constable's- he's ill i' bed, I know that much- and get him to appoint
|
|
one of us his deppity; for that's the law, and I don't think anybody
|
|
'ull take upon him to contradick me there. it isn't much of a walk
|
|
to Kench's; and then, if it's me as is deppity, I'll go back with you,
|
|
Master Marner, and examine your primises; and if anybody's got any
|
|
fault to find with that, I'll thank him to stand up and say it out
|
|
like a man.'
|
|
|
|
By this pregnant speech the farrier had re-established his
|
|
self-complacency, and waited with confidence to hear himself named
|
|
as one of the superlatively sensible men.
|
|
|
|
'Let us see how the night is, though,' said the landlord, who
|
|
also considered himself personally concerned in this proposition.
|
|
'Why, it rains heavy still,' he said, returning from the door.
|
|
|
|
'Well, I'm not the man to be afraid o' the rain,' said the farrier.
|
|
'For it'll look bad when Justice Malam hears as respectable men like
|
|
us had a information laid before 'em and took no steps.'
|
|
|
|
The landlord agreed with this view, and after taking the sense of
|
|
the company, and duly rehearsing a small ceremony known in high
|
|
ecclesiastical life as the nolo episcopari, he consented to take on
|
|
himself the chill dignity of going to Kench's. But to the farrier's
|
|
strong disgust, Mr Macey now started an objection to his proposing
|
|
himself as a deputy-constable; for that oracular old gentleman,
|
|
claiming to know the law, stated, as a fact delivered to him by his
|
|
father, that no doctor could be a constable.
|
|
|
|
'And you're a doctor, I reckon, though you're only a cow-doctor-
|
|
for a fly's a fly, though it may be a hoss-fly,' concluded Mr Macey,
|
|
wondering a little at his own ''cuteness'.
|
|
|
|
There was a hot debate upon this, the farrier being of course
|
|
indisposed to renounce the quality of doctor, but contending that a
|
|
doctor could be a constable if he liked- the law meant, he needn't
|
|
be one if he didn't like. Mr Macey thought this was nonsense, since
|
|
the law was not likely to be fonder of doctors than of other folks.
|
|
Moreover, if it was in the nature of doctors more than of other men
|
|
not to like being constables, how came Mr Dowlas to be so eager to act
|
|
in that capacity?
|
|
|
|
'I don't want to act the constable,' said the farrier, driven
|
|
into a corner by this merciless reasoning; 'and there's no man can say
|
|
it of me, if he'd tell the truth. But if there's to be any jealousy
|
|
and envying about going to Kench's in the rain, let them go as like
|
|
it- you won't get me to go, I can tell you.'
|
|
|
|
By the landlord's intervention, however, the dispute was
|
|
accommodated. Mr Dowlas consented to go as a second person disinclined
|
|
to act officially; and so poor Silas, furnished with some old
|
|
coverings, turned out with his two companions into the rain again,
|
|
thinking of the long night-hours before him, not as those do who
|
|
long to rest, but as those who expect to 'watch for the morning'.
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|
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|
CHAPTER EIGHT
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|
|
WHEN Godfrey Cass returned from Mrs Osgood's party at midnight, he was
|
|
not much surprised to learn that Dunsey had not come home. Perhaps
|
|
he had not sold Wildfire, and was waiting for another chance- perhaps,
|
|
on that foggy afternoon, he had preferred housing himself at the Red
|
|
Lion at Batherley for the night, if the run had kept him in that
|
|
neighbourhood; for he was not likely to feel much concern about
|
|
leaving his brother in suspense. Godfrey's mind was too full of
|
|
Nancy Lammeter's looks and behaviour, too full of the exasperation
|
|
against himself and his lot, which the sight of her always produced in
|
|
him, for him to give much thought to Wildfire or to the
|
|
probabilities of Dunstan's conduct.
|
|
|
|
The next morning the whole village was excited by the story of
|
|
the robbery, and Godfrey, like everyone else, was occupied in
|
|
gathering and discussing news about it, and in visiting the
|
|
Stone-pits. The rain had washed away all possibility of distinguishing
|
|
footmarks, but a close investigation of the spot had disclosed, in the
|
|
direction opposite to the village, a tinder-box, with a flint and
|
|
steel, half sunk in the mud. It was not Silas's tinder-box, for the
|
|
only one he had ever had was still standing on his shelf; and the
|
|
inference generally accepted was, that the tinder-box in the ditch was
|
|
somehow connected with the robbery. A small minority shook their
|
|
heads, and intimated their opinion that it was not a robbery to have
|
|
much light thrown on it by tinder-boxes, that Master Marner's tale had
|
|
a queer look with it, and that such things had been known as a man's
|
|
doing himself a mischief, and then setting the justice to look for the
|
|
doer. But when questioned closely as to their grounds for this
|
|
opinion, and what Master Marner had to gain by such false pretences,
|
|
they only shook their heads as before, and observed that there was
|
|
no knowing what some folks counted gain; moreover, that everybody
|
|
had a right to their own opinions, grounds or no grounds, and that the
|
|
weaver, as everybody knew, partly crazy. Mr Macey, though he joined in
|
|
the defence of Marner against all suspicions of deceit, also
|
|
pooh-poohed the tinder-box; indeed, repudiated it as a rather
|
|
impious suggestion, tending to imply that everything must be done by
|
|
human hands, and that there was no power which could make away with
|
|
the guineas without moving the bricks. Nevertheless, he turned round
|
|
rather sharply on Mr Tookey, when the zealous deputy, feeling that
|
|
this was a view of the case peculiarly suited to a parish-clerk,
|
|
carried it still farther, and doubted whether it was right to
|
|
inquire into a robbery at all when the circumstances were so
|
|
mysterious.
|
|
|
|
'As if,' concluded Mr Tookey- 'as if there was nothing but what
|
|
could be made out by justices and constables.'
|
|
|
|
'Now, don't you be for overshooting the mark, Tookey,' said Mr
|
|
Macey, nodding his head aside, admonishingly. 'That's what you're
|
|
allays at; if I throw a stone and hit, you think there's summat better
|
|
than hitting, and you try to throw a stone beyond. What I said was
|
|
against the tinder-box: I said nothing against justices and
|
|
constables, for they're o' King George's making, and it 'ud be
|
|
ill-becoming a man in a parish office to fly out again' King George.'
|
|
|
|
While these discussions were going on amongst the group outside the
|
|
Rainbow, a higher consultation was being carried on within, under
|
|
the presidency of Mr Crackenthorp, the rector, assisted by Squire Cass
|
|
and other substantial parishioners. It had just occurred to Mr
|
|
Snell, the landlord- he being, as he observed, a man accustomed to put
|
|
two and two together- to connect with the tinder-box which, as
|
|
deputy-constable, he himself had had the honourable distinction of
|
|
finding, certain recollections of a pedlar who had called to drink
|
|
at the house about a month before, and had actually stated that he
|
|
carried a tinder-box about with him to light his pipe. Here, surely,
|
|
was a clue to be followed out. And as memory, when duly impregnated
|
|
with ascertained facts, is sometimes surprisingly fertile, Mr Snell
|
|
gradually recovered a vivid impression of the effect produced on him
|
|
by the pedlar's countenance and conversation. He had a 'look with
|
|
his eye' which fell unpleasantly on Mr Snell's sensitive organism.
|
|
To be sure, he didn't say anything particular- no, except that about
|
|
the tinder-box- but it isn't what a man says, it's the way he says it.
|
|
Moreover, he had a swarthy foreignness of complexion which boded
|
|
little honesty.
|
|
|
|
'Did he wear ear-rings?' Mr Crackenthorp wished to know, having
|
|
some acquaintance with foreign customs.
|
|
|
|
'Well- stay- let me see,' said Mr Snell, like a docile
|
|
clairvoyante, who would really not make a mistake if she could help
|
|
it. After stretching the corners of his mouth and contracting his
|
|
eyes, as if he were trying to see the ear-rings, he appeared to give
|
|
up the effort, and said, 'Well, he'd got ear-rings in his box to sell,
|
|
so it's nat'ral to suppose he might wear 'em. But he called at every
|
|
house, a'most, in the village: there's somebody else, mayhap, saw
|
|
'em in his ears, though I can't take upon me rightly to say.'
|
|
|
|
Mr Snell was correct in his surmise, that somebody else would
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remember the pedlar's ear-rings. For, on the spread of inquiry among
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the villagers, it was stated with gathering emphasis, that the
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parson had wanted to know whether the pedlar wore ear-rings in his
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ears, and an impression was created that a great deal depended on
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the eliciting of this fact. Of course everyone who heard the question,
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not having any distinct image of the pedlar as without ear-rings,
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immediately had an image of him with ear-rings, larger or smaller,
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as the case might be; and the image was presently taken for a vivid
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recollection, so that the glazier's wife, a well-intentioned woman,
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not given to lying, and whose house was among the cleanest in the
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village, was ready to declare, as sure as ever she meant to take the
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sacrament, the very next Christmas that was ever coming, that she
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had seen big ear-rings, in the shape of the young moon, in the
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pedlar's two ears; while Jinny Oates, the cobbler's daughter, being
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a more imaginative person, stated not only that she had seen them too,
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but that they had made her blood creep, as it did at that very
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moment while there she stood.
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Also, by way of throwing further light on this clue of the
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tinder-box, a collection was made of all the articles purchased from
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the pedlar at various houses and carried to the Rainbow to be
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exhibited there. In fact, there was a general feeling in the
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village, that for the clearing-up of this robbery there must be a
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great deal done at the Rainbow, and that no man need offer his wife an
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excuse for going there while it was the scene of severe public duties.
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Some disappointment was felt, and perhaps a little indignation
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also, when it became known that Silas Marner, on being questioned by
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the Squire and the parson, had retained no other recollection of the
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pedlar than that he had called at his door, but had not entered his
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house, having turned away at once when Silas, holding the door ajar,
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had said that he wanted nothing. This had been Silas's testimony,
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though he clutched strongly at the idea of the pedlar's being the
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culprit, if only because it gave him a definite image of a
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whereabout for his gold, after it had been taken away from its
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hiding-place: he could see it now in the pedlar's box. But it was
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observed with some irritation in the village, that anybody but a
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'blind creatur' like Marner would have seen the man prowling about,
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for how came he to leave his tinder-box in the ditch close by, if he
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hadn't been lingering there? Doubtless, he had made his observations
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when he saw Marner at the door. Anybody might know- and only look at
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him- that the weaver was a half-crazy miser. It was a wonder the
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pedlar hadn't murdered him; men of that sort, with rings in their
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ears, had been known for murderers often and often; there had been one
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tried at the 'sizes, not so long ago but what there were people living
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who remembered it.
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Godfrey Cass, indeed, entering the Rainbow during one of Mr Snell's
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frequently repeated recitals of his testimony, had treated it lightly,
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stating that he himself had bought a pen-knife of the pedlar, and
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thought him a merry grinning fellow enough; it was all nonsense, he
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|
said, about the man's evil looks. But this was spoken of in the
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village as the random talk of youth, 'as if it was only Mr Snell who
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had seen something odd about the pedlar!' On the contrary, there
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were at least half-a-dozen who were ready to go before Justice
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Malam, and give in much more striking testimony than any the
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landlord could furnish. It was to be hoped Mr Godfrey would not go
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to Tarley and throw cold water on what Mr Snell said there, and so
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|
prevent the justice from drawing up a warrant. He was suspected of
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intending this, when, after mid-day, he was seen setting off on
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horseback in the direction of Tarley.
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But by this time Godfrey's interest in the robbery had faded before
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his growing anxiety about Dunstan and Wildfire, and he was going,
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not to Tarley, but to Batherley, unable to rest in uncertainty about
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them any longer. The possibility that Dunstan had played him the
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|
ugly trick of riding away with Wildfire, to return at the end of a
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month, when he had gambled away or otherwise squandered the price of
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the horse, was a fear that urged itself upon him more, even, than
|
|
the thought of an accidental injury; and now that the dance at Mrs
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Osgood's was past, he was irritated with himself that he had trusted
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his horse to Dunstan. Instead of trying to still his fears, he
|
|
encouraged them, with that superstitious impression which clings to us
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all, that if we expect evil very strongly it is the less likely to
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come; and when he heard a horse approaching at a trot, and saw a hat
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rising above a hedge beyond an angle of the lane, he felt as if his
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conjuration had succeeded. But no sooner did the horse come within
|
|
sight, than his heart sank again. It was not Wildfire; and in a few
|
|
moments more he discerned that the rider was not Dunstan, but Bryce,
|
|
who pulled up to speak, with a face that implied something
|
|
disagreeable.
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'Well, Mr Godfrey, that's a lucky brother of yours, that Master
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Dunsey, isn't he?'
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'What do you mean?' said Godfrey, hastily.
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'Why, hasn't he been home yet?' said Bryce.
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'Home? no. What has happened? Be quick. What has he done with my
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horse?'
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'Ah, I thought it was yours, though he pretended you had parted
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with it to him.'
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'Has he thrown him down and broken his knees?' said Godfrey,
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flushed with exasperation.
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'Worse than that,' said Bryce. 'You see, I'd made a bargain with
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him to buy the horse for a hundred and twenty- a swinging price, but I
|
|
always liked the horse. And what does he do but go and stake him-
|
|
fly at a hedge with stakes in it, atop of a bank with a ditch before
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it. The horse had been dead a pretty good while when he was found.
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So he hasn't been home since, has he?'
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'Home? no,' said Godfrey, 'and he'd better keep away. Confound me
|
|
for a fool! I might have known this would be the end of it.'
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|
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'Well, to tell you the truth,' said Bryce, 'after I'd bargained for
|
|
the horse, it did come into my head that he might be riding and
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selling the horse without your knowledge, for I didn't believe it
|
|
was his own. I knew Master Dunsey was up to his tricks sometimes.
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|
But where can he be gone? He's never been seen at Batherley. He
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couldn't have been hurt, for he must have walked off.'
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|
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'Hurt?' said Godfrey, bitterly. 'He'll never be hurt- he's made
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|
to hurt other people.'
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|
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'And so you did give him leave to sell the horse, eh?' said Bryce.
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|
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'Yes; I wanted to part with the horse- he was always a little too
|
|
hard in the mouth for me,' said Godfrey; his pride making him wince
|
|
under the idea that Bryce guessed the sale to be a matter of
|
|
necessity. 'I was going to see after him- I thought some mischief
|
|
had happened. I'll go back now,' he added, turning the horse's head,
|
|
and wishing he could get rid of Bryce; for he felt that the
|
|
long-dreaded crisis in his life was close upon him. 'You're coming
|
|
on to Raveloe, aren't you?'
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|
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'Well, no, not now,' said Bryce. 'I was coming round there, for I
|
|
had to go to Flitton, and I thought I might as well take you in my
|
|
way, and just let you know all I knew myself about the horse. I
|
|
suppose Master Dunsey didn't like to show himself till the ill news
|
|
had blown over a bit. He's perhaps gone to pay a visit at the Three
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|
Crowns, by Whitbridge- I know he's fond of the house.'
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|
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'Perhaps he is,' said Godfrey, rather absently. Then rousing
|
|
himself, he said, with an effort at carelessness, 'We shall hear of
|
|
him soon enough, I'll be bound.'
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|
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'Well, here's my turning,' said Bryce, not surprised to perceive
|
|
that Godfrey was rather 'down'; 'so I'll bid you good day, and wish
|
|
I may bring you better news another time.'
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|
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Godfrey rode along slowly, representing to himself the scene of
|
|
confession to his father from which he felt that there was now no
|
|
longer any escape. The revelation about the money must be made the
|
|
very next morning; and if he withheld the rest, Dunstan would be
|
|
sure to come back shortly, and finding that he must bear the brunt
|
|
of his father's anger, would tell the whole story out of spite, even
|
|
though he had nothing to gain by it. There was one step, perhaps, by
|
|
which he might still win Dunstan's silence and put off the evil day:
|
|
he might tell his father that he had himself spent the money paid to
|
|
him by Fowler; and as he had never been guilty of such an offence
|
|
before, the affair would blow over after a little storming. But
|
|
Godfrey could not bend himself to this. He felt that in letting
|
|
Dunstan have the money, he had already been guilty of a breach of
|
|
trust hardly less culpable than that of spending the money directly
|
|
for his own behoof; and yet there was a distinction between the two
|
|
acts which made him feel that the one was so much more blackening than
|
|
the other as to be intolerable to him.
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|
|
|
'I don't pretend to be a good fellow,' he said to himself; 'but I'm
|
|
not a scoundrel- at least, I'll stop short somewhere. I'll bear the
|
|
consequences of what I have done sooner than make believe I've done
|
|
what I never would have done. I'd never have spent the money for my
|
|
own pleasure- I was tortured into it.'
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|
|
|
Through the remainder of this day Godfrey, with only occasional
|
|
fluctuations, kept his will bent in the direction of a complete avowal
|
|
to his father, and he withheld the story of Wildfire's loss till the
|
|
next morning, that it might serve him as an introduction to heavier
|
|
matter. The old Squire was accustomed to his son's frequent absence
|
|
from home, and thought neither Dunstan's nor Wildfire's non-appearance
|
|
a matter calling for remark. Godfrey said to himself again and
|
|
again, that if he let slip this one opportunity of confession, he
|
|
might never have another; the revelation might be made even in a
|
|
more odious way than by Dunstan's malignity: she might come, as she
|
|
had threatened to do. And then he tried to make the scene easier to
|
|
himself by rehearsal: he made up his mind how he would pass from the
|
|
admission of his weakness in letting Dunstan have the money to the
|
|
fact that Dunstan had a hold on him which he had been unable to
|
|
shake off, and how he would work up his father to expect something
|
|
very bad before he told him the fact. The old Squire was an implacable
|
|
man: he made resolutions in violent anger, but he was not to be
|
|
moved from them after his anger had subsided- as fiery volcanic
|
|
matters cool and harden into rock. Like many violent and implacable
|
|
men, he allowed evils to grow under favour of his own heedlessness,
|
|
till they pressed upon him with exasperating force, and then he turned
|
|
round with fierce severity and became unrelentingly hard. This was his
|
|
system with his tenants: he allowed them to get into arrears,
|
|
neglect their fences, reduce their stock, sell their straw, and
|
|
otherwise go the wrong way,- and then, when he became short of money
|
|
in consequence of this indulgence, he took the hardest measures and
|
|
would listen to no appeal. Godfrey knew all this, and felt it with the
|
|
greater force because he had constantly suffered annoyance from
|
|
witnessing his father's sudden fits of unrelentingness, for which
|
|
his own habitual irresolution deprived him of all sympathy. (He was
|
|
not critical on the faulty indulgence which preceded these fits;
|
|
that seemed to him natural enough.) Still there was just the chance,
|
|
Godfrey thought, that his father's pride might see this marriage in
|
|
a light that would induce him to hush it up, rather than turn his
|
|
son out and make the family the talk of the country for ten miles
|
|
round.
|
|
|
|
This was the view of the case that Godfrey managed to keep before
|
|
him pretty closely till midnight, and he went to sleep thinking that
|
|
he had done with inward debating. But when he awoke in the still
|
|
morning darkness he found it impossible to reawaken his evening
|
|
thoughts; it was as if they had been tired out and were not to be
|
|
roused to further work. Instead of arguments for confession, he
|
|
could now feel the presence of nothing but its evil consequences:
|
|
the old dread of disgrace came back- the old shrinking from the
|
|
thought of raising a hopeless barrier between himself and Nancy- the
|
|
old disposition to rely on chances which might be favourable to him,
|
|
and save him from betrayal. Why, after all, should he cut off the hope
|
|
of them by his own act? He had seen the matter in a wrong light
|
|
yesterday. He had been in a rage with Dunstan, and had thought of
|
|
nothing but a thorough break-up of their mutual understanding; but
|
|
what it would be really wisest for him to do, was to try and soften
|
|
his father's anger against Dunsey, and keep things as nearly as
|
|
possible in their old condition. If Dunsey did not come back for a few
|
|
days (and Godfrey did not know but that the rascal had enough money in
|
|
his pocket to enable him to keep away still longer), everything
|
|
might blow over.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER NINE
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|
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|
GODFREY rose and took his own breakfast earlier than usual, but
|
|
lingered in the wainscoted parlour till his younger brothers had
|
|
finished their meal and gone out, awaiting his father, who always went
|
|
out and had a walk with his managing-man before breakfast. Everyone
|
|
breakfasted at a different hour in the Red House, and the Squire was
|
|
always the latest, giving a long chance to a rather feeble morning
|
|
appetite before he tried it. The table had been spread with
|
|
substantial eatables nearly two hours before he presented himself- a
|
|
tall, stout man of sixty, with a face in which the knit brow and
|
|
rather hard glance seemed contradicted by the slack and feeble
|
|
mouth. His person showed marks of habitual neglect, his dress was
|
|
slovenly; and yet there was something in the presence of the old
|
|
Squire distinguishable from that of the ordinary farmers in the
|
|
parish, who were perhaps every whit as refined as he, but, having
|
|
slouched their way through life with a consciousness of being in the
|
|
vicinity of their 'betters', wanted that self-possession and
|
|
authoritativeness of voice and carriage which belonged to a man who
|
|
thought of superiors as remote existences, with whom he had personally
|
|
little more to do than with America or the stars. The Squire had
|
|
been used to parish homage all his life, used to the pre-supposition
|
|
that his family, his tankards, and everything that was his, were the
|
|
oldest and best; and as he never associated with any gentry higher
|
|
than himself, his opinion was not disturbed by comparison.
|
|
|
|
He glanced at his son as he entered the room, and said, 'What, sir!
|
|
haven't you had your breakfast yet?' but there was no pleasant morning
|
|
greeting between them; not because of any unfriendliness, but
|
|
because the sweet flower of courtesy is not a growth of such homes
|
|
as the Red House.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, sir,' said Godfrey, 'I've had my breakfast, but I was waiting
|
|
to speak to you.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah! well,' said the Squire, throwing himself indifferently into
|
|
his chair, and speaking in a ponderous coughing fashion, which was
|
|
felt in Raveloe to be a sort of privilege of his rank, while he cut
|
|
a piece of beef, and held it up before the deer-hound that had come in
|
|
with him, 'Ring the bell for my ale, will you? You youngsters'
|
|
business is your own pleasure, mostly. There's no hurry about it for
|
|
anybody but yourselves.'
|
|
|
|
The Squire's life was quite as idle as his sons', but it was a
|
|
fiction kept up by himself and his contemporaries in Raveloe that
|
|
youth was exclusively the period of folly, and that their aged
|
|
wisdom was constantly in a state of endurance mitigated by sarcasm.
|
|
Godfrey waited, before he spoke again, until the ale had been
|
|
brought and the door closed- an interval during which Fleet, the
|
|
deer-hound, had consumed enough bits of beef to make a poor man's
|
|
holiday dinner.
|
|
|
|
'There's been a cursed piece of ill-luck with Wildfire,' he
|
|
began; 'happened the day before yesterday.'
|
|
|
|
'What! broke his knees?' said the Squire, after taking a draught of
|
|
ale. 'I thought you knew how to ride better than that, sir. I never
|
|
threw a horse down in my life. If I had, I might ha' whistled for
|
|
another, for my father wasn't quite so ready to unstring as some other
|
|
fathers I know of. But they must turn over a new leaf- they must. What
|
|
with mortgages and arrears, I'm as short o' cash as a roadside pauper.
|
|
And that fool Kimble says the newspaper's talking about peace. Why,
|
|
the country wouldn't have a leg to stand on. Prices 'ud run down
|
|
like a jack, and I should never get my arrears, not if I sold all
|
|
the fellows up. And there's that damned Fowler, I won't put up with
|
|
him any longer; I've told Winthrop to go to Cox this very day. The
|
|
lying scoundrel told me he'd be sure to pay me a hundred last month.
|
|
He takes advantage because he's on that outlying farm, and thinks I
|
|
shall forget him.'
|
|
|
|
The Squire had delivered this speech in a coughing and
|
|
interrupted manner, but with no pause long enough for Godfrey to
|
|
make it a pretext for taking up the word again. He felt that his
|
|
father meant to ward off any request for money on the ground of the
|
|
misfortune with Wildfire, and that the emphasis he had thus been led
|
|
to lay on his shortness of cash and his arrears was likely to
|
|
produce an attitude of mind the most unfavourable for his own
|
|
disclosure. But he must go on, now he had begun.
|
|
|
|
'It's worse than breaking the horse's knees- he's been staked and
|
|
killed,' lie said, as soon as his father was silent, and had begun
|
|
to cut his meat. 'But I wasn't thinking of asking you to buy me
|
|
another horse; I was only thinking I had lost the means of paying
|
|
you with the price of Wildfire, as I'd meant to do. Dunsey took him to
|
|
the hunt to sell him for me the other day, and after he'd made a
|
|
bargain for a hundred and twenty with Bryce, he went after the hounds,
|
|
and took some fool's leap or other, that did for the horse at once. If
|
|
it hadn't been for that, I should have paid you a hundred pounds
|
|
this morning.'
|
|
|
|
The Squire had laid down his knife and fork, and was staring at his
|
|
son in amazement, not being sufficiently quick of brain to form a
|
|
probable guess as to what could have caused so strange an inversion of
|
|
the paternal and filial relations as this proposition of his son to
|
|
pay him a hundred pounds.
|
|
|
|
'The truth is, sir- I'm very sorry- I was quite to blame,' said
|
|
Godfrey. 'Fowler did pay that hundred pounds. He paid it to me, when I
|
|
was over there one day last month. And Dunsey bothered me for the
|
|
money, and I let him have it, because I hoped I should be able to
|
|
pay it you before this.'
|
|
|
|
The Squire was purple with anger before his son had done
|
|
speaking, and found utterance difficult. 'You let Dunsey have it, sir?
|
|
And how long have you been so thick with Dunsey that you must collogue
|
|
with him to embezzle my money? Are you turning out a scamp? I tell
|
|
you, I won't have it. I'll turn the whole pack of you out of the house
|
|
together, and marry again. I'd have you to remember, sir, my
|
|
property's got no entail on it; since my grandfather's time the Casses
|
|
can do as they like with their land. Remember that, sir. Let Dunsey
|
|
have the money! Why should you let Dunsey have the money? There's some
|
|
lie at the bottom of it.'
|
|
|
|
'There's no lie, sir,' said Godfrey. 'I wouldn't have spent the
|
|
money myself, but Dunsey bothered me, and I was a fool and let him
|
|
have it. But I meant to pay it, whether he did or not. That's the
|
|
whole story. I never meant to embezzle money, and I'm not the man to
|
|
do it. You never knew me do a dishonest trick, sir.'
|
|
|
|
'Where's Dunsey, then? What do you stand talking there for? Go
|
|
and fetch Dunsey, as I tell you, and let him give account of what he
|
|
wanted the money for, and what's he's done with it. He shall repent
|
|
it. I'll turn him out. I said I would, and I'll do it. He shan't brave
|
|
me. Go and fetch him.'
|
|
|
|
'Dunsey isn't come back, sir.'
|
|
|
|
'What! did he break his own neck then?' said the Squire, with
|
|
some disgust at the idea that, in that case, he could not fulfil his
|
|
threat.
|
|
|
|
'No, he wasn't hurt, I believe, for the horse was found dead, and
|
|
Dunsey must have walked off. I daresay we shall see him again by and
|
|
by. I don't know where he is.'
|
|
|
|
'And what must you be letting him have my money for? Answer me
|
|
that,' said the Squire, attacking Godfrey again, since Dunsey was
|
|
not within reach.
|
|
|
|
'Well, sir, I don't know,' said Godfrey, hesitatingly. That was a
|
|
feeble evasion, but Godfrey was not fond of lying, and, not being
|
|
sufficiently aware that no sort of duplicity can long flourish without
|
|
the help of vocal falsehoods, he was quite unprepared with invented
|
|
motives.
|
|
|
|
'You don't know? I tell you what it is, sir. You've been up to some
|
|
trick, and you've been bribing him not to tell,' said the Squire, with
|
|
a sudden acuteness which startled Godfrey, who felt his heart beat
|
|
violently at the nearness of his father's guess. The sudden alarm
|
|
pushed him on to take the next step- a very slight impulse suffices
|
|
for that on a downward road.
|
|
|
|
'Why, sir,' he said, trying to speak with careless ease, 'it was
|
|
a little affair between me and Dunsey; it's no matter to anybody else.
|
|
it's hardly worth while to pry into young men's fooleries: it wouldn't
|
|
have made any difference to you, sir, if I'd not had the bad luck to
|
|
lose Wildfire. I should have paid you the money.'
|
|
|
|
'Fooleries! Pshaw! it's time you'd done with fooleries. And I'd
|
|
have you know, sir, you must ha' done with 'em,' said the Squire,
|
|
frowning and casting an angry glance at his son. 'Your goings-on are
|
|
not what I shall find money for any longer. There's my grandfather had
|
|
his stables full o' horses, and kept a good house too, and in worse
|
|
times, by what I can make out; and so might I, if I hadn't four
|
|
good-for-nothing fellows to hang on me like horse-leeches. I've been
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too good a father to you all- that's what it is. But I shall pull
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up, sir.'
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Godfrey was silent. He was not likely to be very penetrating in his
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judgments, but he had always had a sense that his father's
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indulgence had not been kindness, and had had a vague longing for some
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discipline that would have checked his own errant weakness, and helped
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his better will. The Squire ate his bread and meat hastily, took a
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deep draught of ale, then turned his chair from the table, and began
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to speak again.
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'It'll be all the worse for you, you know- you'd need try and
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help me keep things together.'
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'Well, sir, I've often offered to take the management of things,
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but you know you've taken it ill always, and seemed to think I
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wanted to push you out of your place.'
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'I know nothing o' your offering or o' my taking it ill,' said
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the Squire, whose memory consisted in certain strong impressions
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unmodified by detail; 'but I know, one while you seemed to be thinking
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o' marrying, and I didn't offer to put any obstacles in your way, as
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some fathers would. I'd as lieve you married Lammeter's daughter as
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anybody. I suppose, if I'd said you nay, you'd ha' kept on with it;
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but, for want o' contradiction you've changed your mind. You're a
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shilly-shally fellow: you take after your poor mother. She never had a
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will of her own; a woman has no call for one, if she's got a proper
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man for her husband. But your wife had need have one, for you hardly
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know your own mind enough to make both your legs walk one way. The
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lass hasn't said downright she won't have you, has she?'
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'No,' said Godfrey, feeling very hot and uncomfortable; 'but I
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don't think she will.'
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'Think! why, haven't you the courage to ask her? Do you stick to
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it, you want to have her- that's the thing?'
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'There's no other woman I want to marry,' said Godfrey, evasively.
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'Well, then, let me make the offer for you, that's all, if you
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haven't the pluck to do it yourself. Lammeter isn't likely to be loath
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for his daughter to marry into my family, I should think. And as for
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the pretty lass, she wouldn't have her cousin- and there's nobody
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else, as I see, could ha' stood in your way.'
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'I'd rather let it be, please sir, at present,' said Godfrey, in
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alarm. 'I think she's a little offended with me just now, and I should
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like to speak for myself. A man must manage these things for himself.'
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'Well, speak then and manage it, and see if you can't turn over a
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new leaf. That's what a man must do when he thinks o' marrying.'
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'I don't see how I can think of it at present, sir. You wouldn't
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like to settle me on one of the farms, I suppose, and I don't think
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she'd come to live in this house with all my brothers. It's a
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different sort of life to what she's been used to.'
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'Not come to live in this house? Don't tell me. You ask her, that's
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all,' said the Squire, with a short, scornful laugh.
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'I'd rather let the thing be, at present, sir,' said Godfrey. 'I
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hope you won't try to hurry it on by saying anything.'
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'I shall do what I choose,' said the Squire, 'and I shall let you
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know I'm master; else you may turn out and find an estate to drop into
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somewhere else. Go out and tell Winthrop not to go to Cox's, but
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wait for me. And tell 'em to get my horse saddled. And stop: look
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out and get that hack o' Dunsey's sold, and hand me the money, will
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you? He'll keep no more hacks at my expense. And if you know where
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he's sneaking- I daresay you do- you may tell him to spare himself the
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journey o' coming back home. Let him turn ostler, and keep himself. He
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shan't hang on me any more.'
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'I don't know where he is, sir; and if I did, it isn't my place
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to tell him to keep away,' said Godfrey, moving towards the door.
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'Confound it, sir, don't stay arguing, but go and order my
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horse,' said the Squire, taking up a pipe.
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Godfrey left the room, hardly knowing whether he were more relieved
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by the sense that the interview was ended without having made any
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change in his position, or more uneasy that he had entangled himself
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still further in prevarication and deceit. What had passed about his
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proposing to Nancy had raised a new alarm, lest by some after-dinner
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words of his father's to Mr Lammeter he should be thrown into the
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embarrassment of being obliged to absolutely decline her when she
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seemed to be within his reach. He fled to his usual refuge, that of
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hoping for some unforeseen turn of fortune, some favourable chance
|
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which would save him from unpleasant consequences- perhaps even
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"justify his insincerity by manifesting its prudence. And in this
|
|
point of trusting to some throw of fortune's dice, Godfrey can
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|
hardly be called specially old-fashioned. Favourable Chance, I
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|
fancy, is the god of all men who follow their own devices instead of
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obeying a law they believe in. Let even a polished man of these days
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get into a position he is ashamed to avow, and his mind will be bent
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on all the possible issues that may deliver him from the calculable
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results of that position. Let him live outside his income, or shirk
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the resolute honest work that brings wages, and he will presently find
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himself dreaming of a possible benefactor, a possible simpleton who
|
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may be cajoled into using his interest, a possible state of mind in
|
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some possible person not yet forthcoming. Let him neglect the
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responsibilities of his office, and he will inevitably anchor
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himself on the chance, that the thing left undone may turn out not
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to be of the supposed importance. Let him betray his friend's
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confidence, and he will adore that same cunning complexity called
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Chance, which gives him the hope that his friend will never know;
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let him forsake a decent craft that he may pursue the gentilities of a
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profession to which nature never called him, and his religion will
|
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infallibly be the worship of blessed Chance, which he will believe
|
|
in as the mighty creator of success. The evil principle deprecated
|
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in that religion, is the orderly sequence by which the seed brings
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forth a crop after its kind.
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CHAPTER TEN
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JUSTICE MALAM was naturally regarded in Tarley and Raveloe as a man of
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capacious mind, seeing that he could draw much wider conclusions
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|
without evidence than could be expected of his neighbours who were not
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|
on the Commission of the Peace. Such a man was not likely to neglect
|
|
the clue of the tinder-box, and an inquiry was set on foot
|
|
concerning a pedlar, name unknown, with curly black hair and a foreign
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|
complexion, carrying a box of cutlery and jewellery, and wearing large
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|
rings in his ears. But either because inquiry was too slow-footed to
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|
overtake him, or because the description applied to so many pedlars
|
|
that inquiry did not know how to choose among them, weeks passed away,
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|
and there was no other result concerning the robbery than a gradual
|
|
cessation of the excitement it had caused in Raveloe. Dunstan Cass's
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|
absence was hardly a subject of remark: he had once before had a
|
|
quarrel with his father, and had gone off, nobody knew whither, to
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|
return at the end of six weeks, take up his old quarters
|
|
unforbidden, and swagger as usual. His own family, who equally
|
|
expected this issue, with the sole difference that the Squire was
|
|
determined this time to forbid him the old quarters, never mentioned
|
|
his absence; and when his uncle Kimble or Mr Osgood noticed it, the
|
|
story of his having killed Wildfire, and committed some offence
|
|
against his father, was enough to prevent surprise. To connect the
|
|
fact of Dunsey's disappearance with that of the robbery occurring on
|
|
the same day, lay quite away from the track of everyone's thought-
|
|
even Godfrey's, who had better reason than anyone else to know what
|
|
his brother was capable of. He remembered no mention of the weaver
|
|
between them since the time, twelve years ago, when it was their
|
|
boyish sport to deride him; and, besides, his imagination constantly
|
|
created an alibi for Dunstan: he saw him continually in some congenial
|
|
haunt, to which he had walked off on leaving Wildfire- saw him
|
|
sponging on chance acquaintances, and meditating a return home to
|
|
the old amusement of tormenting his elder brother. Even if any brain
|
|
in Raveloe had put the said two facts together, I doubt whether a
|
|
combination so injurious to the prescriptive respectability of a
|
|
family with a mural monument and venerable tankards, would not have
|
|
been suppressed as of unsound tendency. But Christmas puddings, brawn,
|
|
and abundance of spirituous liquors, throwing the mental originality
|
|
into the channel of nightmare, are great preservatives against a
|
|
dangerous spontaneity of waking thought.
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|
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|
When the robbery was talked of at the Rainbow and elsewhere, in
|
|
good company, the balance continued to waver between the rational
|
|
explanation founded on the tinder-box, and the theory of an
|
|
impenetrable mystery that mocked investigation. The advocates of the
|
|
tinder-box-and-pedlar view considered the other side a muddle-headed
|
|
and credulous set, who, because they themselves were wall-eyed,
|
|
supposed everybody else to have the same blank outlook; and the
|
|
adherents of the inexplicable, more than hinted that their antagonists
|
|
were animals inclined to crow before they had found any corn- mere
|
|
skimming-dishes in point of depth- whose clear-sightedness consisted
|
|
in supposing there was nothing behind a barn-door because they
|
|
couldn't see through it; so that, though their controversy did not
|
|
serve to elicit the fact concerning the robbery, it elicited some true
|
|
opinions of collateral importance.
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|
|
|
But while poor Silas's loss served thus to brush the slow current
|
|
of Raveloe conversation, Silas himself was feeling the withering
|
|
desolation of that bereavement, about which his neighbours were
|
|
arguing at their ease. To anyone who had observed him before he lost
|
|
his gold, it might have seemed that so withered and shrunken a life as
|
|
his could hardly be susceptible of a bruise, could hardly endure any
|
|
subtraction but such as would put an end to it altogether. But in
|
|
reality it had been an eager life, filled with immediate purpose,
|
|
which fenced him in from the wide, cheerless unknown. It had been a
|
|
clinging life; and though the object round which its fibres had
|
|
clung was a dead disrupted thing, it satisfied the need for
|
|
clinging. But now the fence was broken down- the support was
|
|
snatched away. Marner's thoughts could no longer move in their old
|
|
round, and were baffled by a blank like that which meets a plodding
|
|
ant when the earth has broken away on its homeward path. The loom
|
|
was there, and the weaving, and the growing pattern in the cloth;
|
|
but the bright treasure in the hole under his feet was gone; the
|
|
prospect of handling and counting it was gone: the evening had no
|
|
phantasm of delight to still the poor soul's craving. The thought of
|
|
the money he would get by his actual work could bring no joy, for
|
|
its meagre image was only a fresh reminder of his loss; and hope was
|
|
too heavily crushed by the sudden blow for his imagination to dwell on
|
|
the growth of a new hoard from that small beginning.
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|
|
|
He filled up the blank with grief. As he sat weaving, he every
|
|
now and then moaned low, like one in pain: it was the sign that his
|
|
thoughts had come round again to the sudden chasm- to the empty
|
|
evening-time. And all the evening, as he sat in his loneliness by
|
|
his dull fire, he leaned his elbows on his knees, and clasped his head
|
|
with his hands, and moaned very low- not as one who seeks to be heard.
|
|
|
|
And yet he was not utterly forsaken in his trouble. The repulsion
|
|
Marner had always created in his neighbours was partly dissipated by
|
|
the new light in which this misfortune had shown him. Instead of a man
|
|
who had more cunning than honest folks could come by, and, what was
|
|
worse, had not the inclination to use that cunning in a neighbourly
|
|
way, it was now apparent that Silas had not cunning enough to keep his
|
|
own. He was generally spoken of as a 'poor mushed creatur'; and that
|
|
avoidance of his neighbours, which had before been referred to his
|
|
ill-will, and to a probable addiction to worse company, was now
|
|
considered mere craziness.
|
|
|
|
This change to a kindlier feeling was shown in various ways. The
|
|
odour of Christmas cooking being on the wind, it was the season when
|
|
superfluous pork and black puddings are suggestive of charity in
|
|
well-to-do families; and Silas's misfortune had brought him
|
|
uppermost in the memory of housekeepers like Mrs Osgood. Mr
|
|
Crackenthorp, too, while he admonished Silas that his money had
|
|
probably been taken from him because he thought too much of it, and
|
|
never came to church, enforced the doctrine by a present of pigs'
|
|
pettitoes, well calculated to dissipate unfounded prejudices against
|
|
the clerical character. Neighbours, who had nothing but verbal
|
|
consolation to give, showed a disposition not only to greet Silas, and
|
|
discuss his misfortune at some length when they encountered him in the
|
|
village, but also to take the trouble of calling at his cottage, and
|
|
getting him to repeat all the details on the very spot; and then
|
|
they would try to cheer him by saying: 'Well, Master Marner, you're no
|
|
worse off nor other poor folks, after all; and if you was to be
|
|
crippled, the parish 'ud give you a 'lowance.'
|
|
|
|
I suppose one reason why we are seldom able to comfort our
|
|
neighbours with our words is, that our goodwill gets adulterated, in
|
|
spite of ourselves, before it can pass our lips. We can send black
|
|
puddings and pettitoes without giving them a flavour of our egoism;
|
|
but language is a stream that is almost sure to smack of a mingled
|
|
soil. There was a fair proportion of kindness in Raveloe; but it was
|
|
often of a beery and bungling sort, and took the shape least allied to
|
|
the complimentary and hypocritical.
|
|
|
|
Mr Macey, for example, coming one evening expressly to let Silas
|
|
know that recent events had given him the advantage of standing more
|
|
favourably in the opinion of a man whose judgment was not formed
|
|
lightly, opened the conversation by saying, as soon as he had seated
|
|
himself and adjusted his thumbs:
|
|
|
|
'Come, Master Marner, why, you've no call to sit a-moaning.
|
|
You're a deal better off to ha' lost your money, nor to ha' kep it
|
|
by foul means. I used to think, when you first come into these
|
|
parts, as you were no better nor you should be; you were younger a
|
|
deal than what you are now; but you were allays a staring, white-faced
|
|
creatur, partly like a bald-faced calf, as I may say. But there's no
|
|
knowing: it isn't every queer-looksed thing as Old Harry's had the
|
|
making of- I mean, speaking o' toads and such; for they're often
|
|
harmless, like, and useful against varmin. And it's pretty much the
|
|
same wi' you, as fur as I can see. Though as to the yarbs and stuff to
|
|
cure the breathing, if you brought that sort o' knowledge from distant
|
|
parts, you might ha' been a bit freer of it. And if the knowledge
|
|
wasn't well come by, why, you might ha' made up for it by coming to
|
|
church reg'lar; for, as for the children as the Wise Woman charmed,
|
|
I've been at the christening of 'em again and again, and they took the
|
|
water just as well. And that's reasonable; for if Old Harry's a mind
|
|
to do a bit o' kindness for a holiday, like, who's got anything
|
|
against it? That's my thinking; and I've been clerk of this parish
|
|
forty year, and I know, when the parson and me does the cussing of a
|
|
Ash-Wednesday, there's no cussing o' folks as have a mind to be
|
|
cured without a doctor, let Kimble say what he will. And so, Master
|
|
Marner, as I was saying- for there's windings i' things as they may
|
|
carry you to the fur end o' the prayer-book afore you get back to 'em-
|
|
my advice is, as you keep up your sperrits; for as for thinking you're
|
|
a deep 'un, and ha' got more inside you nor 'ull bear daylight, I'm
|
|
not o' that opinion at all, and so I tell the neighbours. For, says I,
|
|
you talk o' Master Marner making out a tale- why, it's nonsense,
|
|
that is: it 'ud take a 'cute man to make a tale like that; and, says
|
|
I, he looked as scared as a rabbit.'
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|
|
|
During this discursive address Silas had continued motionless in
|
|
his previous attitude, leaning his elbows on his knees, and pressing
|
|
his hands against his head. Mr Macey, not doubting that he had been
|
|
listened to, paused, in the expectation of some appreciatory reply,
|
|
but Marner remained silent. He had a sense that the old man meant to
|
|
be good-natured and neighbourly; but the kindness fell on him as
|
|
sunshine falls on the wretched- he had no heart to taste it, and
|
|
felt that it was very far off him.
|
|
|
|
'Come, Master Marner, have you got nothing to say to that?' said Mr
|
|
Macey at last, with a slight accent of impatience.
|
|
|
|
'Oh,' said Marner, slowly, shaking his head between his hands, 'I
|
|
thank you- thank you- kindly.'
|
|
|
|
'Aye, aye, to be sure: I thought you would,' said Mr Macey; 'and my
|
|
advice is- have you got a Sunday suit?'
|
|
|
|
'No,' said Marner.
|
|
|
|
'I doubted it was so,' said Mr Macey. 'Now, let me advise you to
|
|
get a Sunday suit: there's Tookey, he's a poor creatur, but he's got
|
|
my tailoring business, and some o' my money in it, and he shall make a
|
|
suit at a low price, and give you trust, and then you can come to
|
|
church, and be a bit neighbourly. Why you've never heared me say
|
|
"Amen" since you come into these parts, and I recommend you to lose no
|
|
time, for it'll be poor work when Tookey has it all to himself, for
|
|
I mayn't be equil to stand i' the desk at all, come another winter.'
|
|
Here Mr Macey paused, perhaps expecting some sign of emotion in his
|
|
hearer; but not observing any, he went on. 'And as for the money for
|
|
the suit o' clothes, why, you get a matter of a pound a-week at your
|
|
weaving, Master Marner, and you're a young man, eh, for all you look
|
|
so mushed. Why, you couldn't ha' been five-and-twenty when you come
|
|
into these parts, eh?'
|
|
|
|
Silas started a little at the change to a questioning tone, and
|
|
answered mildly, 'I don't know; I can't rightly say- it's a long while
|
|
since.'
|
|
|
|
After receiving such an answer as this, it is not surprising that
|
|
Mr Macey observed, later on in the evening at the Rainbow, that
|
|
Marner's head was 'all of a muddle', and that it was to be doubted
|
|
if he ever knew when Sunday came round, which showed him a worse
|
|
heathen than many a dog.
|
|
|
|
Another of Silas's comforters, besides Mr Macey, came to him with a
|
|
mind highly charged on the same topic. This was Mrs Winthrop, the
|
|
wheelwright's wife. The inhabitants of Raveloe were not severely
|
|
regular in their churchgoing, and perhaps there was hardly a person in
|
|
the parish who would not have held that to go to church every Sunday
|
|
in the calendar would have shown a greedy desire to stand well with
|
|
Heaven, and get an undue advantage over their neighbours- a wish to be
|
|
better than the 'common run', that would have implied a reflection
|
|
on those who had had godfathers and godmothers as well as
|
|
themselves, and had an equal right to the burying-service. At the same
|
|
time, it was understood to be requisite for all who were not household
|
|
servants, or young men, to take the sacrament at one of the great
|
|
festivals: Squire Cass himself took it on Christmas-day; while those
|
|
who were held to be 'good livers' went to church with a greater,
|
|
though still with moderate frequency.
|
|
|
|
Mrs Winthrop was one of these: she was in all respects a woman of
|
|
scrupulous conscience, so eager for duties, that life seemed to
|
|
offer them too scantily unless she rose at half-past four, though this
|
|
threw a scarcity of work over the more advanced hours of the
|
|
morning, which it was a constant problem with her to remove. Yet she
|
|
had not the vixenish temper which is sometimes supposed to be a
|
|
necessary condition of such habits: she was a very mild, patient
|
|
woman, whose nature it was to seek out all the sadder and more serious
|
|
elements of life, and pasture her mind upon them. She was the person
|
|
always first thought of in Raveloe when there was illness or death
|
|
in a family, when leeches were to be applied, or there was a sudden
|
|
disappointment in a monthly nurse. She was a 'comfortable woman'-
|
|
good-looking, fresh-complexioned, having her lips always slightly
|
|
screwed, as if she felt herself in a sick-room with the doctor or
|
|
the clergyman present. But she was never whimpering; no one had seen
|
|
her shed tears; she was simply grave and inclined to shake her head
|
|
and sigh, almost imperceptibly, like a funereal mourner who is not a
|
|
relation. It seemed surprising that Ben Winthrop, who loved his
|
|
quart-pot and his joke, got along so well with Dolly; but she took her
|
|
husband's jokes and joviality as patiently as everything else,
|
|
considering that 'men would be so', and viewing the stronger sex in
|
|
the light of animals whom it had pleased Heaven to make naturally
|
|
troublesome, like bulls and turkey-cocks.
|
|
|
|
This good wholesome woman could hardly fail to have her mind
|
|
drawn strongly towards Silas Marner, now that he appeared in the light
|
|
of a sufferer; and one Sunday afternoon she took her little boy
|
|
Aaron with her, and went to call on Silas, carrying in her hand some
|
|
small lard-cakes, flat paste-like articles, much esteemed in
|
|
Raveloe. Aaron, an apple-cheeked youngster of seven, with a clean
|
|
starched frill, which looked like a plate for the apples, needed all
|
|
his adventurous curiosity to embolden him against the possibility that
|
|
the big-eyed weaver might do him some bodily injury; and his dubiety
|
|
was much increased when, on arriving at the Stone-pits, they heard the
|
|
mysterious sound of the loom.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, it is as I thought,' said Mrs Winthrop, sadly.
|
|
|
|
They had to knock loudly before Silas heard them; but when he did
|
|
come to the door, he showed no impatience, as he would once have done,
|
|
at a visit that had been unasked for and unexpected. Formerly, his
|
|
heart had been as a locked casket with its treasure inside; but now
|
|
the casket was empty, and the lock was broken. Left groping in
|
|
darkness, with his prop utterly gone, Silas had inevitably a sense,
|
|
though a dull and half-despairing one, that if any help came to him it
|
|
must come from without; and there was a slight stirring of expectation
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|
at the sight of his fellow-men, a faint consciousness of dependence on
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their goodwill. He opened the door wide to admit Dolly, but without
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otherwise returning her greeting than by moving the armchair a few
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inches as a sign that she was to sit down in it. Dolly, as soon as she
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was seated, removed the white cloth that covered her lard-cakes, and
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said in her gravest way:
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'I'd a baking yisterday, Master Marner, and the lard-cakes turned
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out better nor common, and I'd ha' asked you to accept some, if
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you'd thought well. I don't eat such things myself, for a bit o'
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bread's what I like from one year's end to the other; but men's
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stomichs are made so comical, they want a change- they do, I know, God
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help 'em.'
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Dolly sighed gently as she held out the cakes to Silas, who thanked
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her kindly, and looked very close at them, absently, being
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accustomed to look so at everything he took into his hand- eyed all
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the while by the wondering bright orbs of the small Aaron, who had
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made an outwork of his mother's chair, and was peeping round from
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behind it.
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'There's letters pricked on 'em,' said Dolly. 'I can't read 'em
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myself, and there's nobody, not Mr Macey himself, rightly knows what
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they mean; but they've a good meaning, for they're the same as is on
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the pulpit-cloth at church. What are they, Aaron, my dear?'
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Aaron retreated completely behind his outwork.
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'Oh, go, that's naughty,' said his mother, mildly. 'Well,
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whativer the letters are, they've a good meaning; and it's a stamp
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as has been in our house, Ben says, ever since he was a little un, and
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his mother used to put it on the cakes, and I've allays put it on too;
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for if there's any good, we've need of it i' this world.'
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'It's I.H.S.' said Silas, at which proof of learning Aaron peeped
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round the chair again.
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'Well, to be sure, you can read 'em off,' said Dolly. 'Ben's read
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'em to me many and many a time, but they slip out o' my mind again;
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the more's the pity, for they're good letters, else they wouldn't be
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in the church; and so I prick 'em on all the loaves and all the cakes,
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though sometimes they won't hold, because o' the rising- for, as I
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said, if there's any good to be got, we've need on it i' this world-
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that we have; and I hope they'll bring good to you, Master Marner, for
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it's wi' that will I brought you the cakes; and you see the letters
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have held better nor common.'
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Silas was as unable to interpret the letters as Dolly, but there
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was no possibility of misunderstanding the desire to give comfort that
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made itself heard in her quiet tones. He said, with more feeling
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than before- 'Thank you- thank you kindly.' But he laid down the
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cake and seated himself absently- drearily unconscious of any distinct
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benefit towards which the cake and the letters, or even Dolly's
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kindness, could tend for him.
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'Ah, if there's good anywhere, we've need of it,' repeated Dolly,
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who did not lightly forsake a serviceable phrase. She looked at
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Silas pityingly as she went on. 'But you didn't hear the
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church-bells this morning, Master Marner. I doubt you didn't know it
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was Sunday. Living so lone here, you lose your count, I daresay; and
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then, when your loom makes a noise, you can't hear the bells, more
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partic'lar now the frost kills the sound.'
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'Yes, I did; I heard 'em,' said Silas, to whom Sunday bells were
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a mere accident of the day, and not part of its sacredness. There
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had been no bells in Lantern Yard.
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'Dear heart!' said Dolly, pausing before she spoke again. 'But what
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a pity it is you should work of a Sunday, and not clean yourself- if
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you didn't go to church; for if you'd a roasting bit, it might be as
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you couldn't leave it, being a lone man. But there's the bakehus, if
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you could make up your mind to spend a twopence on the oven now and
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then,- not every week, in course- I shouldn't like to do that myself,-
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you might carry your bit o' dinner there, for it's nothing but right
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to have a bit o' summat hot of a Sunday, and not to make it as you
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can't know your dinner from Saturday. But now, upo' Christmas-day,
|
|
this blessed Christmas as is ever coming, if you was to take your
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dinner to the bakehus, and go to church, and see the holly and the
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yew, and hear the anthim, and then take the sacramen', you'd be a deal
|
|
the better, and you'd know which end you stood on, and you could put
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your trust i' Them as knows better nor we do, seein' you'd ha' done
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|
what it lies on us all to do.'
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Dolly's exhortation, which was an unusually long effort of speech
|
|
for her, was uttered in the soothing persuasive tone with which she
|
|
would have tried to prevail on a sick man to take his medicine, or a
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basin of gruel for which he had no appetite. Silas had never before
|
|
been closely urged on the point of his absence from church, which
|
|
had only been thought of as a part of his general queerness; and he
|
|
was too direct and simple to evade Dolly's appeal.
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'Nay, nay,' he said, 'I know nothing o' church. I've never been
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to church.'
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'No!' said Dolly, in a low tone of wonderment. Then bethinking
|
|
herself of Silas's advent from an unknown country, she said, 'Could it
|
|
ha' been as they'd no church where you was born?'
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'Oh, yes,' said Silas, meditatively, sitting in his usual posture
|
|
of leaning on his knees, and supporting his head. 'There was churches-
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|
a many- it was a big town. But I knew nothing of 'em- I went to
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chapel.'
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Dolly was much puzzled at this new word, but she was rather
|
|
afraid of inquiring further, lest 'chapel' might mean some haunt of
|
|
wickedness. After a little thought, she said:
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'Well, Master Marner, it's niver too late to turn over a new
|
|
leaf, and if you've niver had no church, there's no telling the good
|
|
it'll do you. For I feel so set up and comfortable as niver was,
|
|
when I've been and heard the prayers, and the singing to the praise
|
|
and glory o' God, as Mr Macey gives out- and Mr Crackenthorp saying
|
|
good words, and more particular on Sacramen' Day; and if a bit o'
|
|
trouble comes, I feel as I can put up wi' it, for I've looked for help
|
|
i' the right quarter, and gev myself up to Them as we must all give
|
|
ourselves up to at the last; and if we'n done our part, it isn't to be
|
|
believed as Them as are above us 'ull be worse nor we are, and come
|
|
short o' Theirn.'
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|
Poor Dolly's exposition of her simple Raveloe theology fell
|
|
rather unmeaningly on Silas's ears, for there was no word in it that
|
|
could rouse a memory of what he had known as religion, and his
|
|
comprehension was quite baffled by the plural pronoun, which was no
|
|
heresy of Dolly's, but only her way of avoiding a presumptuous
|
|
familiarity. He remained silent, not feeling inclined to assent to the
|
|
part of Dolly's speech which he fully understood- her recommendation
|
|
that he should go to church. Indeed, Silas was so unaccustomed to talk
|
|
beyond the brief questions and answers necessary for the transaction
|
|
of his simple business, that words did not easily come to him
|
|
without the urgency of a distinct purpose.
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|
|
|
But now, little Aaron, having become used to the weaver's awful
|
|
presence, had advanced to his mother's side, and Silas, seeming to
|
|
notice him for the first time, tried to return Dolly's signs of
|
|
goodwill by offering the lad a bit of lard-cake. Aaron shrank back a
|
|
little, and rubbed his head against his mother's shoulder, but still
|
|
thought the piece of cake worth the risk of putting his hand out for
|
|
it.
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|
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|
'Oh, for shame, Aaron,' said his mother, taking him on her lap,
|
|
however; 'why, you don't want cake again yet awhile. He's wonderful
|
|
hearty,' she went on, with a little sigh- 'that he is, God knows. He's
|
|
my youngest, and we spoil him sadly, for either me or the father
|
|
must allays hev him in our sight- that we must.'
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|
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|
She stroked Aaron's brown head, and thought it must do Master
|
|
Marner good to see such a 'pictur of a child'. But Marner, on the
|
|
other side of the hearth, saw the neat-featured rosy face as a mere
|
|
dim round, with two dark spots in it.
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|
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'And he's got a voice like a bird- you wouldn't think,' Dolly
|
|
went on; 'he can sing a Christmas carril as his father's taught him;
|
|
and I take it for a token as he'll come to good, as he can learn the
|
|
good tunes so quick. Come, Aaron, stan' up and sing the carril to
|
|
Master Marner, come.'
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|
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|
Aaron replied by rubbing his forehead against his mother's
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|
shoulder.
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|
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|
'Oh, that's naughty,' said Dolly, gently. 'Stan' up, when mother
|
|
tells you, and let me hold the cake till you've done.'
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|
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|
Aaron was not indisposed to display his talents, even to an ogre,
|
|
under protecting circumstances; and after a few more signs of coyness,
|
|
consisting chiefly in rubbing the backs of his hands over his eyes,
|
|
and then peeping between them at Master Marner, to see if he looked
|
|
anxious for the 'carril', he at length allowed his head to be duly
|
|
adjusted, and standing behind the table, which let him appear above it
|
|
only as far as his broad frill, so that he looked like a cherubic head
|
|
untroubled with a body, he began with a clear chirp, and in a melody
|
|
that had the rhythm of an industrious hammer,
|
|
|
|
'God rest you, merry gentlemen,
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|
|
|
Let nothing you dismay,
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|
|
|
For Jesus Christ our Savior
|
|
|
|
Was born on Christmas-day.'
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|
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|
Dolly listened with a devout look, glancing at Marner in some
|
|
confidence that this strain would help to allure him to church.
|
|
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|
'That's Christmas music,' she said, when Aaron had ended, and had
|
|
secured his piece of cake again. 'There's no other music equil to
|
|
the Christmas music- "Hark the erol angils sing." And you may judge
|
|
what it is at church, Master Marner, with the bassoon and the
|
|
voices, as you can't help thinking you've got to a better place
|
|
a'ready- for I wouldn't speak ill o' this world, seeing as Them put us
|
|
in it as knows best; but what wi' the drink, and the quarrelling,
|
|
and the bad illnesses, and the hard dying, as I've seen times and
|
|
times, one's thankful to hear of a better. The boy sings pretty, don't
|
|
he, Master Marner?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes,' said Silas, absently, 'very pretty.'
|
|
|
|
The Christmas carol, with its hammer-like rhythm, had fallen on his
|
|
ears as strange music, quite unlike a hymn, and could have none of the
|
|
effect Dolly contemplated. But he wanted to show her that he was
|
|
grateful, and the only mode that occurred to him was to offer Aaron
|
|
a bit more cake.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, no, thank you, Master Marner,' said Dolly, holding down
|
|
Aaron's willing hands. 'We must be going home now. And so I wish you
|
|
good-bye, Master Marner; and if you ever feel anyways bad in your
|
|
inside, as you can't fend for yourself, I'll come and clean up for
|
|
you, and get you a bit o' victual, and willing. But I beg and pray
|
|
of you to leave off weaving of a Sunday, for it's bad for soul and
|
|
body- and the money as comes i' that way 'ull be a bad bed to lie down
|
|
on at the last, if it doesn't fly away, nobody knows where, like the
|
|
white frost. And you'll excuse me being that free with you, Master
|
|
Marner, for I wish you well- I do. Make your bow, Aaron.'
|
|
|
|
Silas said 'Good-bye, and thank you, kindly', as he opened the door
|
|
for Dolly, but he couldn't help feeling relieved when she was gone-
|
|
relieved that he might weave again and moan at his ease. Her simple
|
|
view of life and its comforts, by which she had tried to cheer him,
|
|
was only like a report of unknown objects, which his imagination could
|
|
not fashion. The fountains of human love and divine faith had not
|
|
yet been unlocked and his soul was still the shrunken rivulet, with
|
|
only this difference, that its little groove of sand was blocked up,
|
|
and it wandered confusedly against dark obstruction.
|
|
|
|
And so, notwithstanding the honest persuasions of Mr Macey and
|
|
Dolly Winthrop, Silas spent his Christmas-day in loneliness, eating
|
|
his meat in sadness of heart, though the meat had come to him as a
|
|
neighbourly present. In the morning he looked out on the black frost
|
|
that seemed to press cruelly on every blade of grass, while the
|
|
half-icy red pool shivered under the bitter wind; but towards
|
|
evening the snow began to fall, and curtained from him even that
|
|
dreary outlook, shutting him close up with his narrow grief. And he
|
|
sat in his robbed home through the livelong evening, not caring to
|
|
close his shutters or lock his door, pressing his head between his
|
|
hands and moaning, till the cold grasped him and told him that his
|
|
fire was grey.
|
|
|
|
Nobody in this world but himself knew that he was the same Silas
|
|
Marner who had once loved his fellow with tender love, and trusted
|
|
in an unseen goodness. Even to himself that past experience had become
|
|
dim. But in Raveloe village the bells rang merrily, and the church was
|
|
fuller than all through the rest of the year, with red faces among the
|
|
abundant dark-green boughs- faces prepared for a longer service than
|
|
usual by an odorous breakfast of toast and ale. Those green boughs,
|
|
the hymn and anthem never heard but at Christmas- even the
|
|
Athanasian Creed, which was discriminated from the others only as
|
|
being longer and of exceptional virtue, since it was only read on rare
|
|
occasions- brought a vague exulting sense, for which the grown men
|
|
could as little have found words as the children, that something great
|
|
and mysterious had been done for them in heaven above, and in earth
|
|
below, which they were appropriating by their presence. And then the
|
|
red faces made their way through the black biting frost to their own
|
|
homes, feeling themselves free for the rest of the day to eat,
|
|
drink, and be merry, and using that Christian freedom without
|
|
diffidence.
|
|
|
|
At Squire Cass's family party that day nobody mentioned Dunstan-
|
|
nobody was sorry for his absence, or feared it would be too long.
|
|
The doctor and his wife, uncle and aunt Kimble, were there, and the
|
|
annual Christmas talk was carried through without any omissions,
|
|
rising to the climax of Mr Kimble's experience when he walked the
|
|
London hospitals thirty years back, together with striking
|
|
professional anecdotes then gathered. Whereupon cards followed, with
|
|
aunt Kimble's annual failure to follow suit, and uncle Kimble's
|
|
irascibility concerning the odd trick which was rarely explicable to
|
|
him, when it was not on his side, without a general visitation of
|
|
tricks to see that they were formed on sound principles: the whole
|
|
being accompanied by a strong steaming odour of spirits-and-water.
|
|
|
|
But the party on Christmas-day, being a strictly family party,
|
|
was not the pre-eminently brilliant celebration of the season at the
|
|
Red House. It was the great dance on New Year's Eve that made the
|
|
glory of Squire Cass's hospitality, as of his forefathers', time out
|
|
of mind. This was the occasion when all the society of Raveloe and
|
|
Tarley, whether old acquaintances separated by long rutty distances,
|
|
or cooled acquaintances separated by misunderstandings concerning
|
|
runaway calves, or acquaintances founded on intermittent
|
|
condescension, counted on meeting and on comporting themselves with
|
|
mutual appropriateness. This was the occasion on which fair dames
|
|
who came on pillions sent their bandboxes before them, supplied with
|
|
more than their evening costume; for the feast was not to end with a
|
|
single evening, like a paltry entertainment, where the whole supply of
|
|
eatables is put on the table at once, and bedding is scanty. The Red
|
|
House was provisioned as if for a siege; and as for the spare
|
|
feather-beds ready to be laid on floors, they were as plentiful as
|
|
might naturally be expected in a family that had killed its own
|
|
geese for many generations.
|
|
|
|
Godfrey Cass was looking forward to this New Year's Eve with a
|
|
foolish reckless longing, that made him half deaf to his importunate
|
|
companion, Anxiety.
|
|
|
|
'Dunsey will becoming home soon: there will be a great blow-up, and
|
|
how will you bribe his spite to silence?' said Anxiety.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, he won't come home before New Year's Eve, perhaps,' said
|
|
Godfrey; 'and I shall sit by Nancy then, and dance with her, and get a
|
|
kind look from her in spite of herself.'
|
|
|
|
'But money is wanted in another quarter,' said Anxiety, in a louder
|
|
voice, 'and how will you get it without selling your mother's
|
|
diamond pin? And if you don't get it...?'
|
|
|
|
'Well, but something may happen to make things easier. At any rate,
|
|
there's one pleasure for me close at hand: Nancy is coming.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, and suppose your father should bring matters to a pass that
|
|
will oblige you to decline marrying her- and to give your reasons?'
|
|
|
|
'Hold your tongue, and don't worry me. I can see Nancy's eyes, just
|
|
as they will look at me, and feel her hand in mine already?'
|
|
|
|
But Anxiety went on, though in noisy Christmas company; refusing to
|
|
be utterly quieted even by much drinking.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER ELEVEN
|
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|
|
SOME women, I grant, would not appear to advantage seated on a
|
|
pillion, and attired in a drab joseph and a drab beaver-bonnet, with a
|
|
crown resembling a small stew-pan; for a garment suggesting a
|
|
coachman's greatcoat, cut out under an exiguity of cloth that would
|
|
only allow of miniature capes, is not well adapted to conceal
|
|
deficiencies of contour, nor is drab a colour that will throw sallow
|
|
cheeks into lively contrast. It was all the greater triumph to Miss
|
|
Nancy Lammeter's beauty that she looked thoroughly bewitching in
|
|
that costume, as, seated on a pillion behind her tall, erect father,
|
|
she held one arm round him, and looked down, with open-eyed anxiety,
|
|
at the treacherous snow-covered pools and puddles, which sent up
|
|
formidable splashings of mud under the stamp of Dobbin's foot. A
|
|
painter would, perhaps, have preferred her in those moments when she
|
|
was free from self-consciousness; but certainly the bloom on her
|
|
cheeks was at its highest point of contrast with the surrounding
|
|
drab when she arrived at the door of the Red House, and saw Mr Godfrey
|
|
Cass ready to lift her from the pillion. She wished her sister
|
|
Priscilla had come up at the same time with the servant, for then
|
|
she would have contrived that Mr Godfrey should have lifted off
|
|
Priscilla first, and, in the meantime, she would have persuaded her
|
|
father to go round to the horseblock instead of alighting at the
|
|
doorsteps. It was very painful, when you had made it quite dear to a
|
|
young man that you were determined not to marry him, however much he
|
|
might wish it, that he would still continue to pay you marked
|
|
attentions; besides, why didn't he always show the same attentions, if
|
|
he meant them sincerely, instead of being so strange as Mr Godfrey
|
|
Cass was, sometimes behaving as if he didn't want to speak to her, and
|
|
taking no notice of her for weeks and weeks, and then, all of a
|
|
sudden, almost making love again? Moreover, it was quite plain he
|
|
had no real love for her, else he would not let people have that to
|
|
say of him which they did say. Did he suppose that Miss Nancy Lammeter
|
|
was to be won by any man, squire or no squire, who led a bad life?
|
|
That was not what she had been used to see in her own father, who
|
|
was the soberest and best man in that country-side, only a little
|
|
hot and hasty now and then, if things were not done to the minute.
|
|
|
|
All these thoughts rushed through Miss Nancy's mind, in their
|
|
habitual succession, in the moments between her first sight of Mr
|
|
Godfrey Cass standing at the door and her own arrival there.
|
|
Happily, the Squire came out too, and gave a loud greeting to the
|
|
father, so that, somehow, under cover of this noise, she seemed to
|
|
find concealment for her confusion and neglect of any suitably
|
|
formal behaviour, while she was being lifted from the pillion by
|
|
strong arms, which seemed to find her ridiculously small and light.
|
|
And there was the best reason for hastening into the house at once,
|
|
since the snow was beginning to fall again, and threatening an
|
|
unpleasant journey for such guests as were still on the road. These
|
|
were a small minority; for already the afternoon was beginning to
|
|
decline, and there would not be too much time for the ladies who
|
|
came from a distance to attire themselves in readiness for the early
|
|
tea which was to inspirit them for the dance.
|
|
|
|
There was a buzz of voices through the house, as Miss Nancy
|
|
entered, mingled with the scrape of a fiddle preluding in the kitchen;
|
|
but the Lammeters were guests whose arrival had evidently been thought
|
|
of so much that it had been watched for from the windows, for Mrs
|
|
Kimble, who did the honours at the Red House on these great occasions,
|
|
came forward to meet Miss Nancy in the hall, and conduct her upstairs.
|
|
Mrs Kimble was the Squire's sister, as well as the doctor's wife- a
|
|
double dignity, with which her diameter was in direct proportion; so
|
|
that, a journey upstairs being rather fatiguing to her, she did not
|
|
oppose Miss Nancy's request to be allowed to find her way alone to the
|
|
Blue Room, where the Miss Lammeters' bandboxes had been deposited on
|
|
their arrival in the morning.
|
|
|
|
There was hardly a bedroom in the house where feminine
|
|
compliments were not passing and feminine toilettes going forward,
|
|
in various stages, in space made scanty by extra beds spread upon
|
|
the floor; and Miss Nancy, as she entered the Blue Room, had to make
|
|
her little formal curtsy to a group of six. On the one hand, there
|
|
were ladies no less important than the two Miss Gunns, the wine
|
|
merchant's daughters from Lytherly, dressed in the height of
|
|
fashion, with the tightest skirts and the shortest waists, and gazed
|
|
at by Miss Ladbrook (of the Old Pastures) with a shyness not
|
|
unsustained by inward criticism. Partly, Miss Ladbrook felt that her
|
|
own skirt must be regarded as unduly lax by the Miss Gunns, and
|
|
partly, that it was a pity the Miss Gunns did not show that judgment
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|
which she herself would show if she were in their place, by stopping a
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little on this side of the fashion. On the other hand, Mrs Ladbrook
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was standing in skullcap and front, with her turban in her hand,
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curtsying and smiling blandly and saying 'After you, ma'am' to another
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lady in similar circumstances, who had politely offered the precedence
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at the looking-glass.
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But Miss Nancy had no sooner made her curtsy than an elderly lady
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came forward, whose full white muslin kerchief, and mob-cap round
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her curls of smooth grey hair, were in daring contrast with the puffed
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yellow satins and top-knotted caps of her neighbours. She approached
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Miss Nancy with much primness, and said, with a slow, treble suavity:
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'Niece, I hope I see you well in health.' Miss Nancy kissed her
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aunt's cheek dutifully, and answered, with the same sort of amiable
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primness, 'Quite well, I thank you, aunt, and I hope I see you the
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same.'
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'Thank you, niece, I keep my health for the present. And how is
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my brother-in-law?'
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These dutiful questions and answers were continued until it was
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ascertained in detail that the Lammeters were all as well as usual,
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and the Osgoods likewise, also that niece Priscilla must certainly
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arrive shortly, and that travelling on pillions in snowy weather was
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unpleasant, though a joseph was a great protection. Then Nancy was
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formally introduced to her aunt's visitors, the Miss Gunns, as being
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the daughters of a mother known to their mother, though now for the
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first time induced to make a journey into these parts; and these
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ladies were so taken by surprise at finding such a lovely face and
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figure in an out-of-the-way country place, that they began to feel
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some curiosity about the dress she would put on when she took off
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her joseph. Miss Nancy, whose thoughts were always conducted with
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the propriety and moderation conspicuous in her manners, remarked to
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herself that the Miss Gunns were rather hard-featured than
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otherwise, and that such very low dresses as they wore might have been
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attributed to vanity if their shoulders had been pretty, but that,
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being as they were, it was not reasonable to suppose that they
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showed their necks from a love of display, but rather from some
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obligation not inconsistent with sense and modesty. She felt
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convinced, as she opened her box, that this must be her aunt
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Osgood's opinion, for Miss Nancy's mind resembled her aunt's to a
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degree that everybody said was surprising, considering the kinship was
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on Mr Osgood's side; and though you might not have supposed it from
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the formality of their greeting, there was a devoted attachment and
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mutual admiration between aunt and niece. Even Miss Nancy's refusal of
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her cousin Gilbert Osgood (on the ground solely that he was her
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cousin), though it had grieved her aunt greatly, had not in the
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|
least cooled the preference which had determined her to leave Nancy
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several of her hereditary ornaments, let Gilbert's future wife be whom
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she might.
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Three of the ladies quickly retired, but the Miss Gunns were
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quite content that Mrs Osgood's inclination to remain with her niece
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gave them also a reason for staying to see the rustic beauty's
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toilette. And it was really a pleasure- from the first opening of
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the bandbox, where everything smelt of lavender and rose leaves, to
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the clasping of the small coral necklace that fitted closely round her
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little white neck. Everything belonging to Miss Nancy was of
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|
delicate purity and nattiness: not a crease was where it had no
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|
business to be, not a bit of her linen professed whiteness without
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|
fulfilling its profession; the very pins on her pincushion were
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|
stuck in after a pattern from which she was careful to allow no
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|
aberration; and as for her own person, it gave the same idea of
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|
perfect unvarying neatness as the body of a little bird. It is true
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|
that her light-brown hair was cropped behind like a boy's, and was
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|
dressed in front in a number of flat rings, that lay quite away from
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her face; but there was no sort of coiffure that could make Miss
|
|
Nancy's cheek and neck look otherwise than pretty; and when at last
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|
she stood complete in her silvery twilled silk, her lace tucker, her
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coral necklace, and coral ear-drops, the Miss Gunns could see
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|
nothing to criticize except her hands, which bore the traces of
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butter-making, cheese-crushing, and even still coarser work. But
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Miss Nancy was not ashamed of that, for even while she was dressing
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she narrated to her aunt how she and Priscilla had packed their
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|
boxes yesterday, because this morning was baking morning, and since
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they were leaving home, it was desirable to make a good supply of meat
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|
pies for the kitchen; and as she concluded this judicious remark,
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|
she turned to the Miss Gunns that she might not commit the rudeness of
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|
including them in the conversation. The Miss Gunns smiled stiffly, and
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|
thought what a pity it was that these rich country people, who could
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|
afford to buy such good clothes (really Miss Nancy's lace and silk
|
|
were very costly), should be brought up in utter ignorance and
|
|
vulgarity. She actually said 'mate' for 'meat', ''appen' for
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'perhaps', and 'oss' for 'horse', which, to young ladies living in
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|
good Lytherly society, who habitually said 'orse, even in domestic
|
|
privacy and only said 'appen on the right occasions, was necessarily
|
|
shocking. Miss Nancy, indeed, had never been to any school higher than
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|
Dame Tedman's: her acquaintance with profane literature hardly went
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|
beyond the rhymes she had worked in her large sampler under the lamb
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|
and the shepherdess; and in order to balance an account, she was
|
|
obliged to effect her subtraction by removing visible metallic
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|
shillings and sixpences from a visible metallic total. There is hardly
|
|
a servant-maid in these days who is not better informed than Miss
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|
Nancy; yet she had the essential attributes of a lady- high
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|
veracity, delicate honour in her dealings, deference to others, and
|
|
refined personal habits- and lest these should not suffice to convince
|
|
grammatical fair ones that her feelings can at all resemble theirs,
|
|
I will add that she was slightly proud and exacting, and as constant
|
|
in her affection towards a baseless opinion as towards an erring
|
|
lover.
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|
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|
The anxiety about sister Priscilla, which had grown rather active
|
|
by the time the coral necklace was clasped, was happily ended by the
|
|
entrance of that cheerful-looking lady herself, with a face made
|
|
blowsy by cold and damp. After the first questions and greetings,
|
|
she turned to Nancy, and surveyed her from head to foot- then
|
|
wheeled her round, to ascertain that the back view was equally
|
|
faultless.
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|
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|
'What do you think o' these gowns, aunt Osgood?' said Priscilla,
|
|
while Nancy helped her to unrobe.
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|
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|
'Very handsome indeed, niece,' said Mrs Osgood, with a slight
|
|
increase of formality. She always thought niece Priscilla too rough.
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|
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|
'I'm obliged to have the same as Nancy, you know, for all I'm
|
|
five years older and it makes me look yallow; for she never will
|
|
have anything without I have mine just like it, because she wants us
|
|
to look like sisters. And I tell her folks 'ull think it's my weakness
|
|
makes me fancy as I shall look pretty in what she looks pretty in. For
|
|
I am ugly- there's no denying that: I feature my father's family. But,
|
|
law! I don't mind, do you?' Priscilla here turned to the Miss Gunns,
|
|
rattling on in too much preoccupation with the delight of talking,
|
|
to notice that her candour was not appreciated. 'The pretty uns do for
|
|
flycatchers- they keep the men off us. I've no opinion o' the men,
|
|
Miss Gunn- I don't know what you have. And as for fretting and stewing
|
|
about what they'll think of you from morning till night, and making
|
|
your life uneasy about what they're doing when they're out o' your
|
|
sight- as I tell Nancy, it's a folly no woman need be guilty of, if
|
|
she's got a good father and a good home: let her leave it to them as
|
|
have got no fortin, and can't help themselves. As I say, Mr
|
|
Have-your-own-way is the best husband, and the only one I'd ever
|
|
promise to obey. I know it isn't pleasant, when you've been used to
|
|
living in a big way, and managing hogsheads and all that to go and put
|
|
your nose in by somebody else's fireside, or to sit down by yourself
|
|
to a scrag or a knuckle; but, thank God! my father's a sober man and
|
|
likely to live; and if you've got a man by the chimney-corner, it
|
|
doesn't matter if he's childish- the business needn't be broke up.'
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|
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|
The delicate process of getting her narrow gown over her head
|
|
without injury to her smooth curls, obliged Miss Priscilla to pause in
|
|
this rapid survey of life, and Mrs Osgood seized the opportunity of
|
|
rising and saying:
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|
|
|
'Well, niece, you'll follow us. The Miss Gunns will like to go
|
|
down.'
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|
|
|
'Sister,' said Nancy, when they were alone, 'you've offended the
|
|
Miss Gunns, I'm sure.'
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|
|
|
'What have I done, child?' said Priscilla, in some alarm.
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|
|
|
'Why, you asked them if they minded about being ugly- you're so
|
|
very blunt.'
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|
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|
'Law, did I? Well, it popped out: it's a mercy I said no more,
|
|
for I'm a bad un to live with folks when they don't like the truth.
|
|
But as for being ugly, look at me, child, in this silver-coloured
|
|
silk- I told you how it 'ud be- I look as yallow as a daffadil.
|
|
Anybody 'ud say you wanted to make a mawkin of me.'
|
|
|
|
'No, Priscy, don't say so. I begged and prayed of you not to let us
|
|
have this silk if you'd like another better. I was willing to have
|
|
your choice, you know I was,' said Nancy, in anxious self-vindication.
|
|
|
|
'Nonsense, child, you know you'd set your heart on this; and reason
|
|
good, for you're the colour o' cream. It 'ud be fine doings for you to
|
|
dress yourself to suit my skin. What I find fault with, is that notion
|
|
o' yours as I must dress myself just like you. But you do as you
|
|
like with me- you always did, from when first you begun to walk. If
|
|
you wanted to go the field's length, the field's length you'd go;
|
|
and there was no whipping you, for you looked as prim and innicent
|
|
as a daisy all the while.'
|
|
|
|
'Priscy,' said Nancy, gently, as she fastened a coral necklace,
|
|
exactly like her own, round Priscilla's neck, which was very far
|
|
from being like her own, 'I'm sure I'm willing to give way as far as
|
|
is right, but who shouldn't dress alike if it isn't sisters? Would you
|
|
have us go about looking as if we were no kin to one another- us
|
|
that have got no mother and not another sister in the world? I'd do
|
|
what was right, if I dressed in a gown dyed with cheese-colouring; and
|
|
I'd rather you'd choose, and let me wear what pleases you.'
|
|
|
|
'There you go again! You'd come round to the same thing if one
|
|
talked to you from Saturday night till Saturday morning. It'll be fine
|
|
fun to see how you'll master your husband and never raise your voice
|
|
above the singing o' the kettle all the while. I like to see the men
|
|
mastered!'
|
|
|
|
'Don't talk so, Priscy,' said Nancy, blushing. 'You know I don't
|
|
mean ever to be married.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, you never mean a fiddlestick's end!' said Priscilla, as she
|
|
arranged her discarded dress, and closed her bandbox. 'Who shall I
|
|
have to work for when father's gone, if you are to go and take notions
|
|
in your head and be an old maid, because some folks are no better than
|
|
they should be? I haven't a bit o' patience with you- sitting on an
|
|
addled egg for ever, as if there was never a fresh un in the world.
|
|
One old maid's enough out o' two sisters; and I shall do credit to a
|
|
single life, for God A'mighty meant me for it. Come, we can go down
|
|
now. I'm as ready as a mawkin can be- there's nothing awanting to
|
|
frighten the crows, now I've got my ear-droppers in.'
|
|
|
|
As the two Miss Lammeters walked into the large parlour together,
|
|
anyone who did not know the character of both, might certainly have
|
|
supposed that the reason why the square-shouldered, clumsy,
|
|
high-featured Priscilla wore a dress the facsimile of her pretty
|
|
sister's, was either the mistaken vanity of the one, or the
|
|
malicious contrivance of the other in order to set off her own rare
|
|
beauty. But the good-natured self-forgetful cheeriness and
|
|
common-sense of Priscilla would soon have dissipated the one
|
|
suspicion; and the modest calm of Nancy's speech and manners told
|
|
clearly of a mind free from all disavowed devices.
|
|
|
|
Places of honour had been kept for the Miss Lammeters near the head
|
|
of the principal tea-table in the wainscoted parlour, now looking
|
|
fresh and pleasant with handsome branches of holly, yew, and laurel,
|
|
from the abundant growths of the old garden; and Nancy felt an
|
|
inward flutter, that no firmness of purpose could prevent, when she
|
|
saw Mr Godfrey Cass advancing to lead her to a seat between himself
|
|
and Mr Crackenthorp, while Priscilla was called to the opposite side
|
|
between her father and the Squire. It certainly did make some
|
|
difference to Nancy that the lover she had given up was the young
|
|
man of quite the highest consequence in the parish- at home in a
|
|
venerable and unique parlour, which was the extremity of grandeur in
|
|
her experience, a parlour where she might one day have been
|
|
mistress, with the consciousness that she was spoken of as 'Madam
|
|
Cass', the Squire's wife. These circumstances exalted her inward drama
|
|
in her own eyes, and deepened the emphasis with which she declared
|
|
to herself that not the most dazzling rank should induce her to
|
|
marry a man whose conduct showed him careless of his character, but
|
|
that, 'love once, love always', was the motto of a true and pure
|
|
woman, and no man should ever have any right over her which would be a
|
|
call on her to destroy the dried flowers that she treasured, and
|
|
always would treasure, for Godfrey Cass's sake. And Nancy was
|
|
capable of keeping her word to herself under very trying conditions.
|
|
Nothing but a becoming blush betrayed the moving thoughts that urged
|
|
themselves upon her as she accepted the seat next to Mr
|
|
Crackenthorp; for she was so instinctively neat and adroit in all
|
|
her actions, and her pretty lips met each other with such quiet
|
|
firmness, that it would have been difficult for her to appear
|
|
agitated.
|
|
|
|
It was not the rector's practice to let a charming blush pass
|
|
without an appropriate compliment. He was not in the least lofty or
|
|
aristocratic, but simply a merry-eyed, small-featured, grey-haired
|
|
man, with his chin propped by an ample, many-creased white
|
|
neckcloth, which seemed to predominate over every other point in his
|
|
person, and somehow to impress its peculiar character on his
|
|
remarks; so that to have considered his amenities apart from his
|
|
cravat, would have been a severe, and perhaps a dangerous, effort of
|
|
abstraction.
|
|
|
|
'Ha, Miss Nancy,' he said, turning his head within his cravat,
|
|
and smiling down pleasantly upon her, 'when anybody pretends this
|
|
has been a severe winter, I shall tell them I saw the roses blooming
|
|
on New Year's Eve- eh, Godfrey, what do you say?'
|
|
|
|
Godfrey made no reply, and avoided looking at Nancy very
|
|
markedly; for though these complimentary personalities were held to be
|
|
in excellent taste in old-fashioned Raveloe society, reverent love has
|
|
a politeness of its own which it teaches to men otherwise of small
|
|
schooling. But the Squire was rather impatient at Godfrey's showing
|
|
himself a dull spark in this way. By this advanced hour of the day,
|
|
the Squire was always in higher spirits than we have seen him in at
|
|
the breakfast-table, and felt it quite pleasant to fulfil the
|
|
hereditary duty of being noisily jovial and patronizing: the large
|
|
silver snuff-box was in active service, and was offered without fail
|
|
to all neighbours from time to time, however often they might have
|
|
declined the favour. At present, the Squire had only given an
|
|
express welcome to the heads of families as they appeared; but
|
|
always as the evening deepened, his hospitality rayed out more widely,
|
|
till he had tapped the youngest guests on the back and shown a
|
|
peculiar fondness for their presence, in the full belief that they
|
|
must feel their lives made happy by their belonging to a parish
|
|
where there was such a hearty man as Squire Cass to invite them and
|
|
wish them well. Even in this early stage of the jovial mood, it was
|
|
natural that he should wish to supply his son's deficiencies by
|
|
looking and speaking for him.
|
|
|
|
'Aye, aye,' he began, offering his snuff-box to Mr Lammeter, who
|
|
for the second time bowed his head and waved his hand in stiff
|
|
rejection of the offer, 'us old fellows may wish ourselves young
|
|
tonight, when we see the mistletoe-bough in the White Parlour. It's
|
|
true, most things are gone back'ard in these last thirty years- the
|
|
country's going down since the old king fell ill. But when I look at
|
|
Miss Nancy here, I begin to think the lasses keep up their quality;
|
|
ding me if I remember a sample to match her, not when I was a fine
|
|
young fellow, and thought a deal about my pigtail. No offence to
|
|
you, madam,' he added, bending to Mrs Crackenthorp, who sat by him, 'I
|
|
didn't know you when you were as young as Miss Nancy here.'
|
|
|
|
Mrs Crackenthorp- a small blinking woman, who fidgeted
|
|
incessantly with her lace, ribbons, and gold chain, turning her head
|
|
about and making subdued noises, very much like a guinea-pig, that
|
|
twitches its nose and soliloquizes in all company indiscriminately-
|
|
now blinked and fidgeted towards the Squire, and said, 'Oh, no- no
|
|
offence.'
|
|
|
|
This emphatic compliment of the Squire's to Nancy was felt by
|
|
others besides Godfrey to have a diplomatic significance; and her
|
|
father gave a slight additional erectness to his back, as he looked
|
|
across the table at her with complacent gravity. That grave and
|
|
orderly senior was not going to bate a jot of his dignity by seeming
|
|
elated at the notion of a match between his family and the Squire's:
|
|
he was gratified by any honour paid to his daughter; but he must see
|
|
an alteration in several ways before his consent would be
|
|
vouchsafed. His spare but healthy person, and high-featured firm face,
|
|
that looked as if it had never been flushed by excess, was in strong
|
|
contrast, not only with the Squire's, but with the appearance of the
|
|
Raveloe farmers generally- in accordance with a favourite saying of
|
|
his own that 'breed was stronger than pasture'.
|
|
|
|
'Miss Nancy's wonderful like what her mother was, though; isn't
|
|
she, Kimble?' said the stout lady of that name, looking round for
|
|
her husband.
|
|
|
|
But Doctor Kimble (county apothecaries in old days enjoyed that
|
|
title without authority of diploma), being a thin and agile man, was
|
|
flitting about the room with his hands in his pockets, making
|
|
himself agreeable to his feminine patients, with medical impartiality,
|
|
and being welcomed everywhere as a doctor by hereditary right- not one
|
|
of those miserable apothecaries who canvass for practice in strange
|
|
neighbourhoods, and spend all their income in starving their one
|
|
horse, but a man of substance, able to keep an extravagant table
|
|
like the best of his patients. Time out of mind the Raveloe doctor had
|
|
been a Kimble; Kimble was inherently a doctor's name; and it was
|
|
difficult to contemplate firmly the melancholy fact that the actual
|
|
Kimble had no son, so that his practice might one day be handed over
|
|
to a successor, with the incongruous name of Taylor or Johnson. But in
|
|
that case the wiser people in Raveloe would employ Dr Blick of
|
|
Flitton- as less unnatural.
|
|
|
|
'Did you speak to me, my dear?' said the authentic doctor, coming
|
|
quickly to his wife's side; but, as if foreseeing that she would be
|
|
too much out of breath to repeat her remark, he went on immediately-
|
|
'Ha, Miss Priscilla, the sight of you revives the taste of that
|
|
super-excellent pork-pie. I hope the batch isn't near an end.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, indeed, it is, doctor,' said Priscilla; 'but I'll answer
|
|
for it the next shall be as good. My pork-pies don't turn out well
|
|
by chance.'
|
|
|
|
'Not as your doctoring does, eh, Kimble?- because folks forget to
|
|
take your physic, eh?' said the Squire, who regarded physic and
|
|
doctors as many loyal churchmen regard the church and the clergy-
|
|
tasting a joke against them when he was in health, but impatiently
|
|
eager for their aid when anything was the matter with him. He tapped
|
|
his box, and looked round with a triumphant laugh.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, she has a quick wit, my friend Priscilla has,' said the
|
|
doctor, choosing to attribute the epigram to the lady rather than
|
|
allow a brother-in-law that advantage over him. 'She saves a little
|
|
pepper to sprinkle over her talk- that's the reason why she never puts
|
|
too much into her pies. There's my wife now, she never has an answer
|
|
at her tongue's end; but if I offend her, she's sure to scarify my
|
|
throat with black pepper the next day, or else give me the colic
|
|
with watery greens. That's an awful tit-for-tat.' Here the vivacious
|
|
doctor made a pathetic grimace.
|
|
|
|
'Did you ever hear the like?' said Mrs Kimble, laughing above her
|
|
double chin with much good-humour, aside to Mrs Crackenthorp, who
|
|
blinked and nodded, and seemed to intend a smile, which, by the
|
|
correlation of forces, went off in small twitchings and noises.
|
|
|
|
'I suppose that's the sort of tit-for-tat adopted in your
|
|
profession, Kimble, if you've a grudge against a patient,' said the
|
|
rector.
|
|
|
|
'Never do have a grudge against our patients,' said Mr Kimble,
|
|
'except when they leave us: and then, you see, we haven't the chance
|
|
of prescribing for 'em. Ha, Miss Nancy,' he continued, suddenly
|
|
skipping to Nancy's side, 'you won't forget your promise? You're to
|
|
save a dance for me, you know.'
|
|
|
|
'Come, come, Kimble, don't you be too for'ard,' said the Squire.
|
|
'Give the young uns fair-play. There's my son Godfrey'll be wanting to
|
|
have a round with you if you run off with Miss Nancy. He's bespoke her
|
|
for the first dance, I'll be bound. Eh, sir! what do you say?' he
|
|
continued, throwing himself backward, and looking at Godfrey. 'Haven't
|
|
you asked Miss Nancy to open the dance with you?'
|
|
|
|
Godfrey, sorely uncomfortable under this significant insistence
|
|
about Nancy, and afraid to think where it would end by the time his
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father had set his usual hospitable example of drinking before and
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after supper, saw no course open but to turn to Nancy and say, with as
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little awkwardness as possible:
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'No; I've not asked her yet, but I hope she'll consent- if somebody
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else hasn't been before me.'
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'No, I've not engaged myself,' said Nancy, quietly, though
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blushingly. (If Mr Godfrey founded any hopes on her consenting to
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dance with him, he would soon be undeceived; but there was no need for
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her to be uncivil.)
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'Then I hope you've no objections to dancing with me,' said
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Godfrey, beginning to lose the sense that there was anything
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uncomfortable in this arrangement.
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'No, no objections,' said Nancy, in a cold tone.
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'Ah, well, you're a lucky fellow, Godfrey,' said uncle Kimble; 'but
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you're my godson, so I won't stand in your way. Else I'm not so very
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old, eh, my dear?' he went on, skipping to his wife's side again. 'You
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wouldn't mind my having a second after you were gone- not if I cried a
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good deal first?'
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'Come, come, take a cup o' tea and stop your tongue, do,' said
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good-humoured Mrs Kimble, feeling some pride in a husband who must
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be regarded as so clever and amusing by the company generally. If he
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had only not been irritable at cards!
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While safe, well-tested personalities were enlivening the tea in
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this way, the sound of the fiddle approaching within a distance at
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which it could be heard distinctly, made the young people look at each
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other with sympathetic impatience for the end of the meal.
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'Why, there's Solomon in the hall,' said the Squire, 'and playing
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my fav'rite tune, I believe- "The flaxen-headed ploughboy"- he's for
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giving us a hint as we aren't enough in a hurry to hear him play.
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Bob,' he called out to this third long-legged son, who was at the
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other end of the room, 'open the door, and tell Solomon to come in. He
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shall give us a tune here.'
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Bob obeyed, and Solomon walked in, fiddling as he walked, for he
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would on no account break off in the middle of a tune.
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'Here, Solomon,' said the Squire, with loud patronage. 'Round here,
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my man. Ah, I knew it was "The flaxen-headed ploughboy": there's no
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finer tune.'
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Solomon Macey, a small hale old man with an abundant crop of long
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white hair reaching nearly to his shoulders, advanced to the indicated
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spot, bowing reverently while he fiddled, as much as to say that he
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respected the company, though he respected the keynote more. As soon
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as he had repeated the tune and lowered his fiddle, he bowed again
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to the Squire and the rector, and said, 'I hope I see your honour
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and your reverence well, and wishing you health and long life and a
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happy New Year. And wishing the same to you, Mr Lammeter, sir; and
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to the other gentlemen, and the madams, and the young lasses.'
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As Solomon uttered the last words, he bowed in all directions
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solicitously, lest he should be wanting in due respect. But
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thereupon he immediately began to prelude, and fell into the tune
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which he knew would be taken as a special compliment by Mr Lammeter.
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'Thank ye, Solomon, thank ye,' said Mr Lammeter, when the fiddle
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paused again. 'That's "Over the hills and far away", that is. My
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father used to say to me, whenever we heard that tune, "Ah, lad, I
|
|
come from over the hills and far away." There's a many tunes I don't
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make head or tail of; but that speaks to me like the blackbird's
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whistle. I suppose it's the name: there's a deal in the name of a
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tune.'
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But Solomon was already impatient to prelude again, and presently
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broke with much spirit into 'Sir Roger de Coverley', at which there
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was a sound of chairs pushed back, and laughing voices.
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'Aye, aye, Solomon, we know what that means,' said the Squire,
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rising. 'It's time to begin the dance, eh? Lead the way, then, and
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we'll all follow you.'
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So Solomon, holding his white head on one side, and playing
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vigorously, marched forward at the head of the gay procession into the
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White Parlour, where the mistletoe-bough was hung, and multitudinous
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tallow candles made rather a brilliant effect, gleaming from among the
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berried holly-boughs, and reflected in the old-fashioned oval
|
|
mirrors fastened in the panels of the white wainscot. A quaint
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|
procession! Old Solomon, in his seedy clothes and long white locks,
|
|
seemed to be luring that decent company by the magic scream of his
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|
fiddle- luring discreet matrons in turban-shaped caps, nay, Mrs
|
|
Crackenthorp herself, the summit of whose perpendicular feather was on
|
|
a level with the Squire's shoulder- luring fair lasses complacently
|
|
conscious of very short waists and skirts blameless of front-folds-
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|
burly fathers, in large variegated waistcoats, and ruddy sons, for the
|
|
most part shy and sheepish, in short nether garments and very long
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|
coat-tails.
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|
Already, Mr Macey and a few other privileged villagers, who were
|
|
allowed to be spectators on these great occasions, were seated on
|
|
benches placed for them near the door; and great was the admiration
|
|
and satisfaction in that quarter when the couples had formed
|
|
themselves for the dance, and the Squire led off with Mrs
|
|
Crackenthorp, joining hands with the rector and Mrs Osgood. That was
|
|
as it should be- that was what everybody had been used to- and the
|
|
charter of Raveloe seemed to be renewed by the ceremony. It was not
|
|
thought of as an unbecoming levity for the old and middle-aged
|
|
people to dance a little before sitting down to cards, but rather as
|
|
part of their social duties. For what were these if not to be merry at
|
|
appropriate times, interchanging visits and poultry with due
|
|
frequency, paying each other old-established compliments in sound
|
|
traditional phrases, passing well-tried personal jokes, urging your
|
|
guests to eat and drink too much out of hospitality, and eating and
|
|
drinking too much in your neighbour's house to show that you liked
|
|
your cheer? And the parson naturally set an example in these social
|
|
duties. For it would not have been possible for the Raveloe mind,
|
|
without a peculiar revelation, to know that a clergyman should be a
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|
pale-faced memento of solemnities, instead of a reasonably faulty man,
|
|
whose exclusive authority to read prayers and preach, to christen,
|
|
marry, and bury you, necessarily co-existed with the right to sell you
|
|
the ground to be buried in, and to take tithe in kind; on which last
|
|
point, of course, there was a little grumbling, but not to the
|
|
extent of irreligion- not beyond the grumbling at the rain, which
|
|
was by no means accompanied with a spirit of impious defiance, but
|
|
with a desire that the prayer for fine weather might be read
|
|
forthwith.
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|
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|
There was no reason, then, why the rector's dancing should not be
|
|
received as part of the fitness of things quite as much as the
|
|
Squire's, or why, on the other hand, Mr Macey's official respect
|
|
should restrain him from subjecting the parson's performance to that
|
|
criticism with which minds of extraordinary acuteness must necessarily
|
|
contemplate the doings of their fallible fellow-men.
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|
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|
'The Squire's pretty springe, considering his weight,' said Mr
|
|
Macey, 'and he stamps uncommon well. But Mr Lammeter beats 'em all for
|
|
shapes: you see, he holds his head like a sodger, and he isn't so
|
|
cushiony as most o' the oldish gentle-folks- they run fat in
|
|
general; but he's got a fine leg. The parson's nimble enough, but he
|
|
hasn't got much of a leg: it's a bit too thick down'ard, and his knees
|
|
might be a bit nearer wi'out damage; but he might do worse, he might
|
|
do worse. Though he hasn't that grand way o' waving his hand as the
|
|
Squire has.'
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|
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|
'Talk o' nimbleness, look at Mrs Osgood,' said Ben Winthrop, who
|
|
was holding his son Aaron between his knees. 'She trips along with her
|
|
little steps, so as nobody can see how she goes- it's like as if she
|
|
had little wheels to her feet. She doesn't look a day older nor last
|
|
year: she's the finest-made woman as is, let the next be where she
|
|
will.'
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|
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|
'I don't heed how the women are made,' said Mr Macey, with some
|
|
contempt. 'They wear nayther coat nor breeches: you can't make much
|
|
out o' their shapes.'
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|
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|
'Fayder,' said Aaron, whose feet were busy beating out the tune,
|
|
'how does that big cock's-feather stick in Mrs Crackenthorp's yead? Is
|
|
there a little hole for it, like in my shuttle-cock?'
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|
|
|
'Hush, lad, hush; that's the way the ladies dress theirselves, that
|
|
is,' said the father, adding, however, in an undertone to Mr Macey,
|
|
'It does make her look funny, though- partly like a short-necked
|
|
bottle wi' a long quill in it. Hey, by jingo, there's the young Squire
|
|
leading off now, wi' Miss Nancy for partners. There's a lass for you!-
|
|
like a pink-and-white posy- there's nobody 'ud think as anybody
|
|
could be so pritty. I shouldn't wonder if she's Madam Cass some day,
|
|
arter all- and nobody more rightfuller, for they'd make a fine
|
|
match. You can find nothing against Master Godfrey's shapes, Macey,
|
|
I'll bet a penny.'
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|
|
|
Mr Macey screwed up his mouth, leaned his head further on one side,
|
|
and twirled his thumbs with a presto movement as his eyes followed
|
|
Godfrey up the dance. At last he summed up his opinion.
|
|
|
|
'Pretty well down'ard, but a bit too round i' the
|
|
shoulder-blades. And as for them coats as he gets from the Flitton
|
|
tailor, they're a poor cut to pay double money for.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, Mr Macey, you and me are two folks,' said Ben, slightly
|
|
indignant at this carping. 'When I've got a pot o' good ale, I like to
|
|
swaller it, and do my inside good i'stead o' smelling and staring at
|
|
it to see if I can't find faut wi' the brewing. I should like you to
|
|
pick me out a finer-limbed young fellow nor Master Godfrey- one as 'ud
|
|
knock you down easier, or's more pleasanter-looksed when he's piert
|
|
and merry.'
|
|
|
|
'Tchuh!' said Mr Macey, provoked to increased severity, 'he isn't
|
|
come to his right colour yet: he's partly like a slack-baked pie.
|
|
And I doubt he's got a soft place in his head, else why should he be
|
|
turned round the finger by that offal Dunsey as nobody's seen o' late,
|
|
and let him kill that fine hunting hoss as was the talk o' the
|
|
country? And one while he was allays after Miss Nancy, and then it all
|
|
went off again, like a smell o' hot porridge, as I may say. That
|
|
wasn't my way, when I went a-coorting.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, but mayhap Miss Nancy hung off, like, and your lass didn't,'
|
|
said Ben.
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|
|
|
'I should say she didn't,' said Mr Macey, significantly. 'Before
|
|
I said "sniff", I took care to know as she'd say "snaff", and pretty
|
|
quick too. I wasn't a-going to open my mouth, like a dog at a fly, and
|
|
snap it to again, wi' nothing to swaller.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, I think Miss Nancy's a-coming round again,' said Ben, 'for
|
|
Master Godfrey doesn't look so down-hearted tonight. And I see he's
|
|
for taking her away to sit down, now they're at the end o' the
|
|
dance: that looks like sweet-hearting that does.'
|
|
|
|
The reason why Godfrey and Nancy had left the dance was not so
|
|
tender as Ben imagined. In the close press of couples a slight
|
|
accident had happened to Nancy's dress, which, while it was short
|
|
enough to show her neat ankle in front, was long enough behind to be
|
|
caught under the stately stamp of the Squire's foot, so as to rend
|
|
certain stitches at the waist, and cause much sisterly agitation in
|
|
Priscilla's mind, as well as serious concern in Nancy's. One's
|
|
thoughts may be much occupied with love-struggles, but hardly so as to
|
|
be insensible to a disorder in the general framework of things.
|
|
Nancy had no sooner completed her duty in the figure they were dancing
|
|
than she said to Godfrey, with a deep blush, that she must go and
|
|
sit down till Priscilla could come to her; for the sisters had already
|
|
exchanged a short whisper and an open-eyed glance full of meaning.
|
|
No reason less urgent than this could have prevailed on Nancy to
|
|
give Godfrey this opportunity of sitting apart with her. As for
|
|
Godfrey, he was feeling so happy and oblivious under the long charm of
|
|
the country-dance with Nancy, that he got rather bold on the
|
|
strength of her confusion, and was capable of leading her straight
|
|
away, without leave asked, into the adjoining small parlour, where the
|
|
card-tables were set.
|
|
|
|
'Oh no, thank you,' said Nancy, coldly, as soon as she perceived
|
|
where he was going, 'not in there. I'll wait here till Priscilla's
|
|
ready to come to me. I'm sorry to bring you out of the dance and
|
|
make myself troublesome.'
|
|
|
|
'Why, you'll be more comfortable here by yourself,' said the artful
|
|
Godfrey; 'I'll leave you here till your sister can come.' He spoke
|
|
in an indifferent tone.
|
|
|
|
That was an agreeable proposition, and just what Nancy desired;
|
|
why, then, was she a little hurt that Mr Godfrey should make it?
|
|
They entered, and she seated herself on a chair against one of the
|
|
card-tables, as the stiffest and most unapproachable position she
|
|
could choose.
|
|
|
|
'Thank you, sir,' she said immediately. 'I needn't give you any
|
|
more trouble. I'm sorry you've had such an unlucky partner.'
|
|
|
|
'That's very ill-natured of you,' said Godfrey, standing by her
|
|
without any sign of intended departure, 'to be sorry you've danced
|
|
with me.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, no, sir, I don't mean to say what's ill-natured at all,'
|
|
said Nancy, looking distractingly prim and pretty. 'When gentlemen
|
|
have so many pleasures, one dance can make but very little.'
|
|
|
|
'You know that isn't true. You know one dance with you matters more
|
|
to me than all the other pleasures in the world.'
|
|
|
|
It was a long, long while since Godfrey had said anything so direct
|
|
as that, and Nancy was startled. But her instinctive dignity and
|
|
repugnance to any show of emotion made her sit perfectly still, and
|
|
only throw a little more decision into her voice as she said:
|
|
|
|
'No, indeed, Mr Godfrey, that's not known to me, and I have very
|
|
good reasons for thinking different. But if it's true, I don't wish to
|
|
hear it.'
|
|
|
|
'Would you never forgive me, then, Nancy- never think well of me,
|
|
let what would happen- would you never think the present made amends
|
|
for the past? Not if I turned a good fellow, and gave up everything
|
|
you didn't like?'
|
|
|
|
Godfrey was half conscious that this sudden opportunity of speaking
|
|
to Nancy alone had driven him beside himself; but blind feeling had
|
|
got the mastery of his tongue. Nancy really felt much agitated by
|
|
the possibility Godfrey's words suggested, but this very pressure of
|
|
emotion that she was in danger of finding too strong for her, roused
|
|
all her power of self-command.
|
|
|
|
'I should be glad to see a good change in anybody, Mr Godfrey,' she
|
|
answered, with the slightest discernible difference of tone, 'but it
|
|
'ud be better if no change was wanted.'
|
|
|
|
'You're very hard-hearted, Nancy,' said Godfrey, pettishly. 'You
|
|
might encourage me to be a better fellow. I'm very miserable- but
|
|
you've no feeling.'
|
|
|
|
'I think those have the least feeling that act wrong to begin
|
|
with,' said Nancy, sending out a flash in spite of herself. Godfrey
|
|
was delighted with that little flash, and would have liked to go on
|
|
and make her quarrel with him; Nancy was so exasperatingly quiet and
|
|
firm. She was not indifferent to him yet, though--
|
|
|
|
The entrance of Priscilla, bustling forward and saying, 'Dear heart
|
|
alive, child, let us look at this gown,' cut off Godfrey's hopes of
|
|
a quarrel.
|
|
|
|
'I suppose I must go now,' he said to Priscilla.
|
|
|
|
'It's no matter to me whether you go or stay,' said that frank
|
|
lady, searching for something in her pocket, with a preoccupied brow.
|
|
|
|
'Do you want me to go?' said Godfrey, looking at Nancy, who was now
|
|
standing up by Priscilla's order.
|
|
|
|
'As you like,' said Nancy, trying to recover all her former
|
|
coldness, and looking down carefully at the hem of her gown.
|
|
|
|
'Then I like to stay,' said Godfrey, with a reckless
|
|
determination to get as much of this joy as he could tonight, and
|
|
think nothing of the morrow.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER TWELVE
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|
|
|
WHILE Godfrey Cass was taking draughts of forgetfulness from the sweet
|
|
presence of Nancy, willingly losing all sense of that hidden bond
|
|
which at other moments galled and fretted him so as to mingle
|
|
irritation with the very sunshine, Godfrey's wife was walking with
|
|
slow uncertain steps through the snow-covered Raveloe lanes,
|
|
carrying her child in her arms.
|
|
|
|
This journey on New Year's Eve was a premeditated act of
|
|
vengeance which she had kept in her heart ever since Godfrey, in a fit
|
|
of passion, had told her he would sooner die than acknowledge her as
|
|
his wife. There would be a great party at the Red House on New
|
|
Year's Eve, she knew: her husband would be smiling and smiled upon,
|
|
hiding her existence in the darkest corner of his heart. But she would
|
|
mar his pleasure: she would go in her dingy rags, with her faded face,
|
|
once as handsome as the best, with her little child that had its
|
|
father's hair and eyes, and disclose herself to the Squire as his
|
|
eldest son's wife. It is seldom that the miserable can help
|
|
regarding their misery as a wrong inflicted by those who are less
|
|
miserable. Molly knew that the cause of her dingy rags was not her
|
|
husband's neglect, but the demon Opium to whom she was enslaved,
|
|
body and soul, except in the lingering mother's tenderness that
|
|
refused to give him her hungry child. She knew this well; and yet,
|
|
in the moments of wretched unbenumbed consciousness, the sense of
|
|
her want and degradation transformed itself continually into
|
|
bitterness towards Godfrey. He was well off; and if she had her rights
|
|
she would be well off too. The belief that he repented his marriage,
|
|
and suffered from it, only aggravated her vindictiveness. Just and
|
|
self-reproving thoughts do not come to us too thickly, even in the
|
|
purest air, and with the best lessons of heaven and earth; how
|
|
should those white-winged delicate messengers make their way to
|
|
Molly's poisoned chamber, inhabited by no higher memories than those
|
|
of a bar-maid's paradise of pink ribbons and gentlemen's jokes?
|
|
|
|
She had set out at an early hour, but had lingered on the road,
|
|
inclined by her indolence to believe that if she waited under a warm
|
|
shed the snow would cease to fall. She had waited longer than she
|
|
knew, and now that she found herself belated in the snow-hidden
|
|
ruggedness of the long lanes, even the animation of a vindictive
|
|
purpose could not keep her spirit from failing. It was seven
|
|
o'clock, and by this time she was not very far from Raveloe, but she
|
|
was not familiar enough with those monotonous lanes to know how near
|
|
she was to her journey's end. She needed comfort, and she knew but one
|
|
comforter- the familiar demon in her bosom; but she hesitated a
|
|
moment, after drawing out the black remnant, before she raised it to
|
|
her lips. In that moment the mother's love pleaded for painful
|
|
consciousness rather than oblivion- pleaded to be left in aching
|
|
weariness, rather than to have the encircling arms benumbed so that
|
|
they could not feel the dear burden. In another moment Molly had flung
|
|
something away, but it was not the black remnant- it was an empty
|
|
phial. And she walked on again under the breaking cloud, from which
|
|
there came now and then the light of a quickly-veiled star, for a
|
|
freezing wind had sprung up since the snowing had ceased. But she
|
|
walked always more and more drowsily, and clutched more and more
|
|
automatically the sleeping child at her bosom.
|
|
|
|
Slowly the demon was working his will, and cold and weariness
|
|
were his helpers. Soon she felt nothing but a supreme immediate
|
|
longing that curtained off all futurity- the longing to lie down and
|
|
sleep. She had arrived at a spot where her footsteps were no longer
|
|
checked by a hedgerow, and she had wandered vaguely, unable to
|
|
distinguish any objects, notwithstanding the wide whiteness around
|
|
her, and the growing starlight. She sank down against a straggling
|
|
furze bush, an easy pillow enough; and the bed of snow, too, was soft.
|
|
She did not feel that the bed was cold, and did not heed whether the
|
|
child would wake and cry for her. But her arms did not yet relax their
|
|
instinctive clutch; and the little one slumbered on as gently as if it
|
|
had been rocked in a lace-trimmed cradle.
|
|
|
|
But the complete torpor came at last: the fingers lost their
|
|
tension, the arms unbent; then the little head fell away from the
|
|
bosom, and the blue eyes opened wide on the cold starlight. At first
|
|
there was a little peevish cry of 'mammy', and an effort to regain the
|
|
pillowing arm and bosom; but mammy's ear was deaf, and the pillow
|
|
seemed to be slipping away backward. Suddenly, as the child rolled
|
|
downward on its mother's knees, all wet with snow, its eyes were
|
|
caught by a bright glancing light on the white ground, and, with the
|
|
ready transition of infancy, it was immediately absorbed in watching
|
|
the bright living thing running towards it, yet never arriving. That
|
|
bright living thing must be caught; and in an instant the child had
|
|
slipped on all-fours, and held out one little hand to catch the gleam.
|
|
But the gleam would not be caught in that way, and now the head was
|
|
held up to see where the cunning gleam came from. It came from a
|
|
very bright place; and the little one, rising on its legs, toddled
|
|
through the snow, the old grimy shawl in which it was wrapped trailing
|
|
behind it, and the queer little bonnet dangling at its back- toddled
|
|
on to the open door of Silas Marner's cottage, and right up to the
|
|
warm hearth, where there was a bright fire of logs and sticks, which
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|
had thoroughly warmed the old sack (Silas's greatcoat) spread out on
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the bricks to dry. The little one, accustomed to be left to itself for
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long hours without notice from its mother, squatted down on the
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sack, and spread its tiny hands towards the blaze, in perfect
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contentment, gurgling and making inarticulate communications to the
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cheerful fire, like a new-hatched gosling beginning to find itself
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comfortable. But presently the warmth had a lulling effect, and the
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little golden head sank down on the old sack, and the blue eyes were
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veiled by their delicate half-transparent lids.
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But where was Silas Marner while this stranger-visitor had come
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to his hearth? He was in the cottage, but he did not see the child.
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During the last few weeks, since he had lost his money, he had
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contracted the habit of opening his door, and looking out from time to
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time, as if he thought that his money might be somehow coming back
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to him, or that some trace, some news of it, might be mysteriously
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on the road, and be caught by the listening ear or the straining
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eye. It was chiefly at night, when he was not occupied in his loom,
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that he fell into this repetition of an act for which he could have
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assigned no definite purpose, and which can hardly be understood
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except by those who have undergone a bewildering separation from a
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supremely loved object. In the evening twilight, and later whenever
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the night was not dark, Silas looked out on that narrow prospect round
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the Stone-pits, listening and gazing, not with hope, but with mere
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yearning and unrest.
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This morning he had been told by some of his neighbours that it was
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New Year's Eve, and that he must sit up and hear the old year rung out
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and the new rung in, because that was good luck, and might bring his
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money back again. This was only a friendly Raveloe-way of jesting with
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the half-crazy oddities of a miser, but it had perhaps helped to throw
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Silas into a more than usually excited state. Since the on-coming of
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twilight he had opened his door again and again, though only to shut
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it immediately at seeing all distance veiled by the falling snow.
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But the last time he opened it the snow had ceased, and the clouds
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were parting here and there. He stood and listened, and gazed for a
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long while- there was really something on the road coming towards
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him then, but he caught no sign of it; and the stillness and the
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wide trackless snow seemed to narrow his solitude, and touched his
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yearning with the chill of despair. He went in again, and put his
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right hand on the latch of the door to close it- but he did not
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close it: he was arrested, as he had been already since his loss, by
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the invisible wand of catalepsy, and stood like a graven image, with
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wide but sightless eyes, holding open his door, powerless to resist
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either the good or evil that might enter there.
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When Marner's sensibility returned, he continued the action which
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had been arrested, and closed his door, unaware of the chasm in his
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consciousness, unaware of any intermediate change, except that the
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light had grown dim, and that he was chilled and faint. He thought
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he had been too long standing at the door and looking out. Turning
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towards the hearth, where the two logs had fallen apart, and sent
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forth only a red uncertain glimmer, he seated himself on his
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fireside chair, and was stooping to push his logs together, when, to
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his blurred vision, it seemed as if there were gold on the floor in
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|
front of the hearth. Gold!- his own gold- brought back to him as
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mysteriously as it had been taken away! He felt his heart begin to
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|
beat violently, and for a few moments he was unable to stretch out his
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hand and grasp the restored treasure. The heap of gold seemed to
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|
glow and get larger beneath his agitated gaze. He leaned forward at
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last, and stretched forth his hand; but instead of the hard coin
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with the familiar resisting outline, his fingers encountered soft warm
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curls. In utter amazement, Silas fell on his knees and bent his head
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low to examine the marvel: it was a sleeping child- a round, fair
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thing, with soft yellow rings all over its head. Could this be his
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little sister come back to him in a dream- his little sister whom he
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had carried about in his arms for a year before she died, when he
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was a small boy without shoes or stockings? That was the first thought
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|
that darted across Silas's blank wonderment. Was it a dream? He rose
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|
to his feet again, pushed his logs together, and, throwing on some
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dried leaves and sticks, raised a flame; but the flame did not
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|
disperse the vision- it only lit up more distinctly the little round
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form of the child and its shabby clothing. It was very much like his
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little sister. Silas sank into his chair powerless, under the double
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presence of an inexplicable surprise and a hurrying influx of
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memories. How and when had the child come in without his knowledge? He
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|
had never been beyond the door. But along with that question, and
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|
almost thrusting it away, there was a vision of the old home and the
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old streets leading to Lantern Yard- and within that vision another,
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|
of the thoughts which had been present with him in those far-off
|
|
scenes. The thoughts were strange to him now, like old friendships
|
|
impossible to revive; and yet he had a dreamy feeling that this
|
|
child was somehow a message come to him from that far-off life: it
|
|
stirred fibres that had never been moved in Raveloe- old quiverings of
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|
tenderness- old impressions of awe at the presentiment of some Power
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|
presiding over his life; for his imagination had not yet extricated
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|
itself from the sense of mystery in the child's sudden presence, and
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|
had formed no conjectures of ordinary natural means by which the event
|
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could have been brought about.
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But there was a cry on the hearth: the child had awakened, and
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Marner stooped to lift it on his knee. It clung round his neck, and
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|
burst louder and louder into that mingling of inarticulate cries
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|
with 'mammy' by which little children express the bewilderment of
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waking. Silas pressed it to him, and almost unconsciously uttered
|
|
sounds of hushing tenderness, while he bethought himself that some
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|
of his porridge, which had got cool by the dying fire, would do to
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|
feed the child with if it were only warmed up a little.
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|
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He had plenty to do through the next hour. The porridge,
|
|
sweetened with some dry brown sugar from an old store which he had
|
|
refrained from using for himself, stopped the cries of the little one,
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|
and made her lift her blue eyes with a wide gaze at Silas, as he put
|
|
the spoon into her mouth. Presently she slipped from his knee and
|
|
began to toddle about, but with a pretty stagger that made Silas
|
|
jump up and follow her lest she should fall against anything that
|
|
would hurt her. But she only fell in a sitting posture on the
|
|
ground, and began to pull at her boots, looking up at him with a
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|
crying face as if the boots hurt her. He took her on his knee again,
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|
but it was some time before it occurred to Silas's dull bachelor
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|
mind that the wet boots were the grievance, pressing on her warm
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|
ankles. He got them off with difficulty, and baby was at once
|
|
happily occupied with the primary mystery of her own toes, inviting
|
|
Silas, with much chuckling, to consider the mystery too. But the wet
|
|
boots had at last suggested to Silas that the child had been walking
|
|
on the snow, and this roused him from his entire oblivion of any
|
|
ordinary means by which it could have entered or been brought into his
|
|
house. Under the prompting of this new idea, and without waiting to
|
|
form conjectures, he raised the child in his arms, and went to the
|
|
door. As soon as he had opened it, there was the cry of 'mammy' again,
|
|
which Silas had not heard since the child's first hungry waking.
|
|
Bending forward, he could just discern the marks made by the little
|
|
feet on the virgin snow, and he followed their track to the furze
|
|
bushes. 'Mammy!' the little one cried again and again, stretching
|
|
itself forward so as almost to escape from Silas's arms, before he
|
|
himself was aware that there was something more than the bush before
|
|
him- that there was a human body, with the head sunk low in the furze,
|
|
and half-covered with the shaken snow.
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|
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
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IT was after the early supper-time at the Red House, and the
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|
entertainment was in that stage when bashfulness itself had passed
|
|
into easy jollity, when gentlemen, conscious of unusual
|
|
accomplishments, could at length be prevailed on to dance a
|
|
hornpipe, and when the Squire preferred talking loudly, scattering
|
|
snuff, and patting his visitors' backs, to sitting longer at the
|
|
whist-table- a choice exasperating to uncle Kimble, who, being
|
|
always volatile in sober business hours, became intense and bitter
|
|
over cards and brandy, shuffled before his adversary's deal with a
|
|
glare of suspicion, and turned up a mean trump-card with an air of
|
|
inexpressible disgust, as if in a world where such things could happen
|
|
one might as well enter on a course of reckless profligacy. When the
|
|
evening had advanced to this pitch of freedom and enjoyment, it was
|
|
usual for the servants, the heavy duties of supper being well over, to
|
|
get their share of amusement by coming to look on at the dancing; so
|
|
that the back regions of the house were left in solitude.
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|
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|
There were two doors by which the White Parlour was entered from
|
|
the hall, and they were both standing open for the sake of air; but
|
|
the lower one was crowded with the servants and villagers, and only
|
|
the upper doorway was left free. Bob Cass was figuring in a
|
|
hornpipe, and his father, very proud of this lithe son, whom he
|
|
repeatedly declared to be just like himself in his young days, in a
|
|
tone that implied this to be the very highest stamp of juvenile merit,
|
|
was the centre of a group who had placed themselves opposite the
|
|
performer, not far from the upper door. Godfrey was standing a
|
|
little way off, not to admire his brother's dancing, but to keep sight
|
|
of Nancy, who was seated in the group, near her father. He stood
|
|
aloof, because he wished to avoid suggesting himself as a subject
|
|
for the Squire's fatherly jokes in connection with matrimony and
|
|
Miss Nancy Lammeter's beauty, which were likely to become more and
|
|
more explicit. But he had the prospect of dancing with her again
|
|
when the hornpipe was concluded, and in the meantime it was very
|
|
pleasant to get long glances at her quite unobserved.
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|
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|
But when Godfrey was lifting his eyes from one of those long
|
|
glances, they encountered an object as startling to him at that moment
|
|
as if it had been an apparition from the dead. It was an apparition
|
|
from that hidden life which lies, like a dark by-street, behind the
|
|
goodly ornamented facade that meets the sunlight and the gaze of
|
|
respectable admirers. It was his own child, carried in Silas
|
|
Marner's arms. That was his instantaneous impression, unaccompanied by
|
|
doubt, though he had not seen the child for months past; and when
|
|
the hope was rising that he might possibly be mistaken, Mr
|
|
Crackenthorp and Mr Lammeter had already advanced to Silas, in
|
|
astonishment at this strange advent. Godfrey joined them
|
|
immediately, unable to rest without hearing every word- trying to
|
|
control himself, but conscious that if anyone noticed him, they must
|
|
see that he was white-lipped and trembling.
|
|
|
|
But now all eyes at that end of the room were bent on Silas Marner;
|
|
the Squire himself had risen, and asked angrily, 'How's this?-
|
|
what's this?- what do you do coming in here in this way?'
|
|
|
|
'I'm come for the doctor- I want the doctor,' Silas had said, in
|
|
the first moment, to Mr Crackenthorp.
|
|
|
|
'Why, what's the matter, Marner?' said the rector. 'The doctor's
|
|
here; but say quietly what you want him for.'
|
|
|
|
'It's a woman,' said Silas, speaking low, and half-breathlessly,
|
|
just as Godfrey came up. 'She's dead, I think- dead in the snow at the
|
|
Stone-pits- not far from my door.'
|
|
|
|
Godfrey felt a great throb: there was one terror in his mind at
|
|
that moment: it was, that the woman might not be dead. That was an
|
|
evil terror- an ugly inmate to have found a nestling-place in
|
|
Godfrey's kindly disposition; but no disposition is a security from
|
|
evil wishes to a man whose happiness hangs on duplicity.
|
|
|
|
'Hush, hush!' said Mr Crackenthorp. 'Go out into the hall there.
|
|
I'll fetch the doctor to you. Found a woman in the snow- and thinks
|
|
she's dead,' he added, speaking low to the Squire. 'Better say as
|
|
little about it as possible: it will shock the ladies. Just tell
|
|
them a poor woman is ill from cold and hunger. I'll go and fetch
|
|
Kimble.'
|
|
|
|
By this time, however, the ladies had pressed forward, curious to
|
|
know what could have brought the solitary linen-weaver there under
|
|
such strange circumstances, and interested in the pretty child, who,
|
|
half alarmed and half attracted by the brightness and the numerous
|
|
company, now frowned and hid her face, now lifted up her head again
|
|
and looked round placably, until a touch or a coaxing word brought
|
|
back the frown, and made her bury her face with new determination.
|
|
|
|
'What child is it?' said several ladies at once, and, among the
|
|
rest, Nancy Lammeter, addressing Godfrey.
|
|
|
|
'I don't know- some poor woman's who has been found in the snow,
|
|
I believe,' was the answer Godfrey wrung from himself with a
|
|
terrible effort. ('After all, am I certain?' he hastened to add,
|
|
silently, in anticipation of his own conscience.)
|
|
|
|
'Why, you'd better leave the child here, then, Master Marner,' said
|
|
good-natured Mrs Kimble, hesitating, however, to take those dingy
|
|
clothes into contact with her own ornamented satin bodice. 'I'll
|
|
tell one o' the girls to fetch it.'
|
|
|
|
'No- no- I can't part with it, I can't let it go,' said Silas,
|
|
abruptly. 'It's come to me- I've a right to keep it.'
|
|
|
|
The proposition to take the child from him had come to Silas
|
|
quite unexpectedly, and his speech, uttered under a strong sudden
|
|
impulse, was almost like a revelation to himself: a minute before,
|
|
he had no distinct intention about the child.
|
|
|
|
'Did you ever hear the like?' said Mrs Kimble, in mild surprise, to
|
|
her neighbour.
|
|
|
|
'Now, ladies, I must trouble you to stand aside,' said Mr Kimble,
|
|
coming from the card-room, in some bitterness at the interruption, but
|
|
drilled by the long habit of his profession into obedience to
|
|
unpleasant calls, even when he was hardly sober.
|
|
|
|
'It's a nasty business turning out now, eh, Kimble?' said the
|
|
Squire. 'He might ha' gone for your young fellow- the 'prentice,
|
|
there- what's his name?'
|
|
|
|
'Might? aye- what's the use of talking about might?' growled
|
|
uncle Kimble, hastening out with Marner, and followed by Mr
|
|
Crackenthorp and Godfrey. 'Get me a pair of thick boots, Godfrey, will
|
|
you? And stay, let somebody run to Winthrop's and fetch Dolly- she's
|
|
the best woman to get. Ben was here himself before supper; is he
|
|
gone?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, sir, I met him,' said Marner; 'but I couldn't stop to tell
|
|
him anything, only I said I was going for the doctor, and he said
|
|
the doctor was at the Squire's. And I made haste and ran, and there
|
|
was nobody to be seen at the back o' the house, and so I went in to
|
|
where the company was.'
|
|
|
|
The child, no longer distracted by the bright light and the smiling
|
|
women's faces, began to cry and call for 'mammy', though always
|
|
clinging to Marner, who had apparently won her thorough confidence.
|
|
Godfrey had come back with the boots, and felt the cry as if some
|
|
fibre were drawn tight within him.
|
|
|
|
'I'll go,' he said, hastily, eager for some movement; 'I'll go
|
|
and fetch the woman- Mrs Winthrop.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, pooh- send somebody else,' said uncle Kimble, hurrying away
|
|
with Marner.
|
|
|
|
'You'll let me know if I can be of any use, Kimble,' said Mr
|
|
Crackenthorp. But the doctor was out of hearing.
|
|
|
|
Godfrey, too, had disappeared: he was gone to snatch his hat and
|
|
coat, having just reflection enough to remember that he must not
|
|
look like a madman; but he rushed out of the house into the snow
|
|
without heeding his thin shoes.
|
|
|
|
In a few minutes he was on his rapid way to the Stone-pits by the
|
|
side of Dolly, who, though feeling that she was entirely in her
|
|
place in encountering cold and snow on an errand of mercy, was much
|
|
concerned at a young gentleman's getting his feet wet under a like
|
|
impulse.
|
|
|
|
'You'd a deal better go back, sir,' said Dolly, with respectful
|
|
compassion. 'You've no call to catch cold; and I'd ask you if you'd be
|
|
so good as tell my husband to come, on your way back- he's at the
|
|
Rainbow, I doubt- if you found him anyway sober enough to be o' use.
|
|
Or else, there's Mrs Snell 'ud happen send the boy up to fetch and
|
|
carry, for there may be things wanted from the doctor's.'
|
|
|
|
'No, I'll stay, now I'm once out- I'll stay outside here,' said
|
|
Godfrey, when they came opposite Marner's cottage. 'You can come and
|
|
tell me if I can do anything.'
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|
|
|
'Well, sir, you're very good: you've a tender heart,' said Dolly,
|
|
going to the door.
|
|
|
|
Godfrey was too painfully preoccupied to feel a twinge of
|
|
self-reproach at his undeserved praise. He walked up and down,
|
|
unconscious that he was plunging ankle-deep in snow, unconscious of
|
|
everything but trembling suspense about what was going on in the
|
|
cottage, and the effect of each alternative on his future lot. No, not
|
|
quite unconscious of everything else. Deeper down, and
|
|
half-smothered by passionate desire and dread, there was the sense
|
|
that he ought not to be waiting on these alternatives; that he ought
|
|
to accept the consequences of his deeds, own the miserable wife, and
|
|
fulfil the claims of the helpless child. But he had not moral
|
|
courage enough to contemplate that active renunciation of Nancy as
|
|
possible for him; he had only conscience and heart enough to make
|
|
him for ever uneasy under the weakness that forbade the
|
|
renunciation. And at this moment his mind leaped away from all
|
|
restraint toward the sudden prospect of deliverance from his long
|
|
bondage.
|
|
|
|
'Is she dead?' said the voice that predominated over every other
|
|
within him. 'If she is, I may marry Nancy; and then I shall be a
|
|
good fellow in future, and have no secrets, and the child- shall be
|
|
taken care of somehow.' But across that vision came the other
|
|
possibility- 'She may live, and then it's all up with me.'
|
|
|
|
Godfrey never knew how long it was before the door of the cottage
|
|
opened and Mr Kimble came out. He went forward to meet his uncle,
|
|
prepared to suppress the agitation he must feel, whatever news he
|
|
was to hear.
|
|
|
|
'I waited for you, as I'd come so far,' he said, speaking first.
|
|
|
|
'Pooh, it was nonsense for you to come out: why didn't you send one
|
|
of the men? There's nothing to be done. She's dead- has been dead
|
|
for hours, I should say.'
|
|
|
|
'What sort of woman is she?' said Godfrey, feeling the blood rush
|
|
to his face.
|
|
|
|
'A young woman, but emaciated, with long black hair. Some
|
|
vagrant- quite in rags. She's got a wedding-ring on, however. They
|
|
must fetch her away to the workhouse tomorrow. Come, come along.'
|
|
|
|
'I want to look at her,' said Godfrey. 'I think I saw such a
|
|
woman yesterday. I'll overtake you in a minute or two.'
|
|
|
|
Mr Kimble went on, and Godfrey turned back to the cottage. He
|
|
cast only one glance at the dead face on the pillow, which Dolly had
|
|
smoothed with decent care; but he remembered that last look at his
|
|
unhappy hated wife so well, that at the end of sixteen years every
|
|
line in the worn face was present to him when he told the full story
|
|
of this night.
|
|
|
|
He turned immediately towards the hearth where Silas Marner sat
|
|
lulling the child. She was perfectly quiet now, but not asleep- only
|
|
soothed by sweet porridge and warmth into that wide gazing calm
|
|
which makes us older human beings, with our inward turmoil, feel a
|
|
certain awe in the presence of a little child, such as we feel
|
|
before some quiet majesty or beauty in the earth or sky- before a
|
|
steady-glowing planet, or a full-flowered eglantine, or the bending
|
|
trees over a silent pathway. The wide-open blue eyes looked up at
|
|
Godfrey's without any uneasiness or sign of recognition: the child
|
|
could make no visible audible claim on its father; and the father felt
|
|
a strange mixture of feelings, a conflict of regret and joy, that
|
|
the pulse of that little heart had no response for the half jealous
|
|
yearning in his own, when the blue eyes turned away from him slowly,
|
|
and fixed themselves on the weaver's queer face, which was bent low
|
|
down to look at them, while the small hand began to pull Marner's
|
|
withered cheek with loving disfiguration.
|
|
|
|
'You'll take the child to the parish tomorrow?' asked Godfrey,
|
|
speaking as indifferently as he could.
|
|
|
|
'Who says so?' said Marner, sharply. 'Will they make me take her?'
|
|
|
|
'Why, you wouldn't like to keep her, should you- an old bachelor
|
|
like you?'
|
|
|
|
'Till anybody shows they've a right to take her away from me,' said
|
|
Marner. 'The mother's dead, and I reckon it's got no father: it's a
|
|
lone thing- and I'm a lone thing. My money's gone, I don't know where-
|
|
and this is come from I don't know where. I know nothing- I'm partly
|
|
mazed.'
|
|
|
|
'Poor little thing!' said Godfrey. 'Let me give something towards
|
|
finding it clothes.'
|
|
|
|
He had put his hand in his pocket and found half-a-guinea, and,
|
|
thrusting it into Silas's hand, he hurried out of the cottage to
|
|
overtake Mr Kimble.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, I see it's not the same woman I saw,' he said, as he came
|
|
up. 'It's a pretty little child: the old fellow seems to want to
|
|
keep it; that's strange for a miser like him. But I gave him a
|
|
trifle to help him out: the parish isn't likely to quarrel with him
|
|
for the right to keep the child.'
|
|
|
|
'No; but I've seen the time when I might have quarrelled with him
|
|
for it myself. It's too late now, though. If the child ran into the
|
|
fire, your aunt's too fat to overtake it: she could only sit and grunt
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like an alarmed sow. But what a fool you are, Godfrey, to come out
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in your dancing shoes and stockings in this way- and you one of the
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beaux of the evening, and at your own house! What do you mean by
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such freaks, young fellow? Has Miss Nancy been cruel, and do you
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want to spite her by spoiling your pumps?'
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'Oh, everything has been disagreeable tonight. I was tired to death
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of jigging and gallanting, and that bother about the hornpipes. And
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I'd got to dance with the other Miss Gunn,' said Godfrey, glad of
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the subterfuge his uncle had suggested to him.
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The prevarication and white lies which a mind that keeps itself
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ambitiously pure is as uneasy under as a great artist under the
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false touches that no eye detects but his own, are worn as lightly
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as mere trimmings when once the actions have become a lie.
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Godfrey reappeared in the White Parlour with dry feet, and, since
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the truth must be told, with a sense of relief and gladness that was
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too strong for painful thoughts to struggle with. For could he not
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venture now, whenever opportunity offered, to say the tenderest things
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to Nancy Lammeter- to promise her and himself that he would always
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be just what she would desire to see him? There was no danger that his
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dead wife would be recognized: those were not days of active inquiry
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and wide report; and as for the registry of their marriage, that was a
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long way off, buried in unturned pages, away from everyone's
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interest but his own. Dunsey might betray him if he came back; but
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Dunsey might be won to silence.
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And when events turn out so much better for a man than he has had
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reason to dread, is it not a proof that his conduct has been less
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foolish and blameworthy than it might otherwise have appeared? When we
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are treated well, we naturally begin to think that we are not
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altogether unmeritorious, and that it is only just we should treat
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ourselves well, and not mar our own good fortune. Where, after all,
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would be the use of his confessing the past to Nancy Lammeter, and
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throwing away his happiness?- nay, hers? for he felt some confidence
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that she loved him. As for the child, he would see that it was cared
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for: he would never forsake it; he would do everything but own it.
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Perhaps it would be just as happy in life without being owned by its
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father, seeing that nobody could tell how things would turn out, and
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that- is there any other reason wanted?- well, then, that the father
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would be much happier without owning the child.
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CHAPTER FOURTEEN
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THERE was a pauper's burial that week in Raveloe, and up Kench Yard at
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Batherley it was known that the dark-haired woman with the fair child,
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who had lately come to lodge there, was gone away again. That was
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all the express note taken that Molly had disappeared from the eyes of
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men. But the unwept death which, to the general lot, seemed as trivial
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as the summer-shed leaf, was charged with the force of destiny to
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certain human lives that we know of, shaping their joys and sorrows
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even to the end.
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Silas Marner's determination to keep the 'tramp's child' was matter
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of hardly less surprising and iterated talk in the village than the
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robbery of his money. That softening of feeling towards him which
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dated from his misfortune, that merging of suspicion and dislike in
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a rather contemptuous pity for him as lone and crazy, was now
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accompanied with a more active sympathy, especially amongst the women.
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Notable mothers, who knew what it was to keep children 'whole and
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sweet'; lazy mothers, who knew what it was to be interrupted in
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folding their arms and scratching their elbows by the mischievous
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propensities of children just firm on their legs, were equally
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interested in conjecturing how a lone man would manage with a
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two-year-old child on his hands, and were equally ready with their
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suggestions: the notable chiefly telling him what he had better do,
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and the lazy ones being emphatic in telling him what he would never be
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able to do.
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Among the notable mothers, Dolly Winthrop was the one whose
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neighbourly offices were the most acceptable to Marner, for they
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were rendered without any show of bustling instruction. Silas had
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shown her the half-guinea given to him by Godfrey, and had asked her
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what he should do about getting some clothes for the child.
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'Eh, Master Marner,' said Dolly, 'there's no call to buy, no more
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nor a pair o' shoes; for I've got the little petticoats as Aaron
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wore five years ago, and it's ill spending the money on them
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baby-clothes, for the child 'ull grow like grass i' May, bless it-
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that it will.'
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And the same day Dolly brought her bundle, and displayed to Marner,
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one by one, the tiny garments in their due order of succession, most
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of them patched and darned, but clean and neat as fresh-sprung
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herbs. This was the introduction to a great ceremony with soap and
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water, from which Baby came out in new beauty, and sat on Dolly's
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knee, handling her toes and chuckling and patting her palms together
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with an air of having made several discoveries about herself, which
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she communicated by alternate sounds of 'gug-gug-gug', and 'mammy'.
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The 'mammy' was not a cry of need or uneasiness: Baby had been used to
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utter it without expecting either sound or touch to follow.
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'Anybody 'ud think the angils in heaven couldn't be prettier,' said
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Dolly, rubbing the golden curls and kissing them. 'And to think of its
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being covered wi' them dirty rags- and the poor mother- froze to
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death; but there's Them as took care of it, and brought it to your
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door, Master Marner. The door was open, and it walked in over the
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snow, like as if it had been a little starved robin. Didn't you say
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the door was open?'
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'Yes,' said Silas, meditatively. 'Yes- the door was open. The
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money's gone I don't know where, and this is come from I don't know
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where.'
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He had not mentioned to anyone his unconsciousness of the child's
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entrance, shrinking from questions which might lead to the fact he
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himself suspected- namely, that he had been in one of his trances.
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'Ah,' said Dolly, with soothing gravity, 'it's like the night and
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the morning, and the sleeping and the waking, and the rain and the
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harvest- one goes and the other comes, and we know nothing how nor
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where. We may strive and scrat and fend, but it's little we can do
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arter all- the big things come and go wi' no striving o' our'n- they
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do, that they do; and I think you're in the right on it to keep the
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little un' Master Marner, seeing as it's been sent to you, though
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there's folks as thinks different. You'll happen be a bit moithered
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with it while it's so little; but I'll come, and welcome, and see to
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it for you: I've a bit o' time to spare most days, for when one gets
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up betimes i' the morning, the clock seems to stan' still tow'rt
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ten, afore it's time to go about the victual. So, as I say, I'll
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come to see to the child for you, and welcome.'
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'Thank you... kindly,' said Silas, hesitating a little, 'I'll be
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glad if you'll tell me things. But,' he added, uneasily, leaning
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forward to look at Baby with some jealousy, as she was resting her
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head backward against Dolly's arm, and eyeing him contentedly from a
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distance- 'But I want to do things for it myself, else it may get fond
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o' somebody else, and not fond o' me. I've been used to fending for
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myself in the house- I can learn, I can learn.'
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'Eh, to be sure,' said Dolly, gently. 'I've seen men as are
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wonderful handy wi' children. The men are awk'ard and contrairy
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mostly, God help 'em- but when the drink's out of 'em, they aren't
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unsensible, though they're bad for leeching and bandaging- so fiery
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and unpatient. You see this goes first, next the skin,' proceeded
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Dolly, taking up the little shirt, and putting it on.
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'Yes,' said Marner, docilely, bringing his eyes very close, that
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they might be initiated in the mysteries; whereupon Baby seized his
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head with both her small arms, and put her lips against his face
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with purring noises.
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'See there,' said Dolly, with a woman's tender tact, 'she's fondest
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o' you. She wants to go o' your lap, I'll be bound. Go, then: take
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her, Master Marner; you can put the things on, and then you can say as
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you've done for her from the first of her coming to you.'
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Marner took her on his lap, trembling with an emotion mysterious to
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himself, at something unknown dawning on his life. Thought and feeling
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were so confused within him, that if he had tried to give them
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utterance, he could only have said that the child was come instead
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of the gold- that the gold had turned into the child. He took the
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garments from Dolly, and put them on under her teaching;
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interrupted, of course, by Baby's gymnastics.
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'There, then! why, you take to it quite easy, Master Marner,'
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said Dolly; 'but what shall you do when you're forced to sit in your
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loom? For she'll get busier and mischievouser every day- she will,
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bless her. It's lucky as you've got that high hearth i'stead of a
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grate, for that keeps the fire more out of her reach; but if you've
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got anything as can be spilt or broke, or as is fit to cut her fingers
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off, she'll be at it- and it is but right you should know.'
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Silas meditated a little while in some perplexity. 'I'll tie her to
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the leg o' the loom,' he said at last- 'tie her with a good long strip
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o' something.'
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'Well, mayhap that'll do, as it's a little gell, for they're easier
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persuaded to sit i' one place nor the lads. I know what the lads
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are; for I've had four- four I've had, God knows- and if you was to
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take and tie 'em up, they'd make a fighting and a crying as if you was
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ringing pigs. But I'll bring you my little chair, and some bits o' red
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rag and things for her to play wi'; an' she'll sit and chatter to
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'em as if they was alive. Eh, if it wasn't a sin to the lads to wish
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'em made different, bless 'em, I should ha' been glad for one of 'em
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to be a little gell; and to think as I could ha' taught her to
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|
scour, and mend, and the knitting, and everything. But I can teach 'em
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|
this little un, Master Marner, when she gets old enough.'
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'But she'll be my little un,' said Marner, rather hastily.
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'She'll be nobody else's.'
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'No, to be sure; you'll have a right to her if you're a father to
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|
her, and bring her up according. But,' added Dolly, coming to a
|
|
point which she had determined beforehand to touch upon, 'you must
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|
bring her up like christened folks's children, and take her to church,
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|
and let her learn her catechize, as my little Aaron can say off- the
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"I believe", and everything, and "hurt nobody by word or deed",- as
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|
well as if he was the clerk. That's what you must do, Master Marner,
|
|
if you'd do the right thing by the orphin child.'
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Marner's pale face flushed suddenly under a new anxiety. His mind
|
|
was too busy trying to give some definite bearing to Dolly's words for
|
|
him to think of answering her.
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'And it's my belief,' she went on, 'as the poor little creatur
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|
has never been christened, and it's nothing but right as the parson
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|
should be spoke to; and if you was noways unwilling, I'd talk to Mr
|
|
Macey about it this very day. For if the child ever went anyways
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|
wrong, and you hadn't done your part by it, Master Marner-
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|
'noculation, and everything to save it from harm- it 'ud be a thorn i'
|
|
your bed for ever o' this side the grave; and I can't think as it
|
|
'ud be easy lying down for anybody when they'd got to another world,
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|
if they hadn't done their part by the helpless children as come wi'out
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|
their own asking.'
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|
Dolly herself was disposed to be silent for some time now, for
|
|
she had spoken from the depths of her own simple belief, and was
|
|
much concerned to know whether her words would produce the desired
|
|
effect on Silas. He was puzzled and anxious, for Dolly's word
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|
'christened' conveyed no distinct meaning to him. He had only heard of
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|
baptism, and had only seen the baptism of grown-up men and women.
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'What is it as you mean by "christened"?' he said at last, timidly.
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|
'Won't folks be good to her without it?'
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'Dear, dear! Master Marner,' said Dolly, with gentle distress and
|
|
compassion. 'Had you never no father nor mother as taught you to say
|
|
your prayers, and as there's good words and good things to keep us
|
|
from harm?'
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'Yes,' said Silas, in a low voice; 'I know a deal about that-
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|
used to, used to. But your ways are different: my country was a good
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|
way off.' He paused a few moments, and then added, more decidedly,
|
|
'But I want to do everything as can be done for the child. And
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|
whatever's right for it i' this country, and you think 'ull do it
|
|
good, I'll act according, if you'll tell me.'
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'Well, then, Master Marner,' said Dolly, inwardly rejoiced, 'I'll
|
|
ask Mr Macey to speak to the parson about it; and you must fix on a
|
|
name for it, because it must have a name giv' it when it's
|
|
christened.'
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'My mother's name was Hephzibah,' said Silas, 'and my little sister
|
|
was named after her.'
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'Eh, that's a hard name,' said Dolly. 'I partly think it isn't a
|
|
christened name.'
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'It's a Bible name,' said Silas, old ideas recurring.
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'Then I've no call to speak again' it,' said Dolly, rather startled
|
|
by Silas's knowledge on this head; 'but you see I'm no scholard, and
|
|
I'm slow at catching the words. My husband says I'm allays like as
|
|
if I was putting the haft for the handle- that's what he says- for
|
|
he's very sharp, God help him. But it was awk'ard calling your
|
|
little sister by such a hard name, when you'd got nothing big to
|
|
say, like- wasn't it, Master Marner?'
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'We called her Eppie,' said Silas.
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'Well, if it was noways wrong to shorten the name, it 'ud be a deal
|
|
handier. And so I'll go now, Master Marner, and I'll speak about the
|
|
christening afore dark; and I wish you the best o' luck, and it's my
|
|
belief as it'll come to you, if you do what's right by the orphin
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|
child;- and there's the 'noculation to be seen to; and as to washing
|
|
its bits o' things, you need look to nobody but me, for I can do 'em
|
|
wi' one hand when I've got my suds about. Eh, the blessed angil!
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|
You'll let me bring my Aaron one o' these days, and he'll show her his
|
|
little cart as his father's made for him, and the black-and-white
|
|
pup as he's got a-rearing.'
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Baby was christened, the rector deciding that a double baptism
|
|
was the lesser risk to incur; and on this occasion Silas, making
|
|
himself as clean and tidy as he could, appeared for the first time
|
|
within the church, and shared in the observances held sacred by his
|
|
neighbours. He was quite unable, by means of anything he heard or saw,
|
|
to identify the Raveloe religion with his old faith: if he could at
|
|
any time in his previous life have done so, it must have been by the
|
|
aid of a strong feeling ready to vibrate with sympathy, rather than by
|
|
a comparison of phrases and ideas; and now for long years that feeling
|
|
had been dormant. He had no distinct idea about the baptism and the
|
|
church-going, except that Dolly had said it was for the good of the
|
|
child; and in this way, as the weeks grew to months, the child created
|
|
fresh and fresh links between his life and the lives from which he had
|
|
hitherto shrunk continually into narrower isolation. Unlike the gold
|
|
which needed nothing, and must be worshipped in close-locked solitude-
|
|
which was hidden away from the daylight, was deaf to the song of
|
|
birds, and started to no human tones- Eppie was a creature of
|
|
endless claims and ever-growing desires, seeking and loving
|
|
sunshine, and living sounds, and living movements; making trial of
|
|
everything, with trust in new joy, and stirring the human kindness
|
|
in all eyes that looked on her. The gold had kept his thoughts in an
|
|
ever-repeated circle, leading to nothing beyond itself; but Eppie
|
|
was an object compacted of changes and hopes that forced his
|
|
thoughts onward, and carried them far away from their old eager pacing
|
|
towards the same blank limit- carried them away to the new things that
|
|
would come with the coming years, when Eppie would have learned to
|
|
understand how her father Silas cared for her; and made him look for
|
|
images of that time in the ties and charities that bound together
|
|
the families of the neighbours. The gold had asked that he should
|
|
sit weaving longer and longer, deafened and blinded more and more to
|
|
all things except the monotony of his loom and the repetition of his
|
|
web; but Eppie called him away from his weaving, and made him think
|
|
all its pauses a holiday, reawakening his senses with her fresh
|
|
life, even to the old winter-flies that came crawling forth in the
|
|
early spring sunshine, and warming him into joy because she had joy.
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|
And when the sunshine grew strong and lasting, so that the
|
|
buttercups were thick in the meadows, Silas might be seen in the sunny
|
|
midday, or in the late afternoon when the shadows were lengthening
|
|
under the hedgerows, strolling out with uncovered head to carry
|
|
Eppie beyond the Stone-pits to where the flowers grew, till they
|
|
reached some favourite bank where he could sit down, while Eppie
|
|
toddled to pluck the flowers, and make remarks to the winged things
|
|
that murmured happily above the bright petals, calling 'Dad-dad's'
|
|
attention continually by bringing him the flowers. Then she would turn
|
|
her ear to some sudden bird-note, and Silas learned to please her by
|
|
making signs of hushed stillness, that they might listen for the
|
|
note to come again: so that when it came, she set up her small back
|
|
and laughed with gurgling triumph. Sitting on the banks in this way,
|
|
Silas began to look for the once familiar herbs again; and as the
|
|
leaves, with their unchanged outline and markings, lay on his palm,
|
|
there was a sense of crowding remembrances from which he turned away
|
|
timidly, taking refuge in Eppie's little world, that lay lightly on
|
|
his enfeebled spirit.
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|
As the child's mind was growing into knowledge, his mind was
|
|
growing into memory: as her life unfolded, his soul, long stupefied in
|
|
a cold narrow prison, was unfolding too, and trembling gradually
|
|
into full consciousness.
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|
It was an influence which must gather force with every new year:
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|
the tones that stirred Silas's heart grew articulate, and called for
|
|
more distinct answers; shapes and sounds grew clearer for Eppie's eyes
|
|
and ears, and there was more that 'Dad-dad' was imperatively
|
|
required to notice and account for. Also, by the time Eppie was
|
|
three years old, she developed a fine capacity for mischief, and for
|
|
devising ingenious ways of being troublesome, which found much
|
|
exercise, not only for Silas's patience, but for his watchfulness
|
|
and penetration. Sorely was poor Silas puzzled on such occasions by
|
|
the incompatible demands of love. Dolly Winthrop told him punishment
|
|
was good for Eppie, and that, as for rearing a child without making it
|
|
tingle a little in soft and safe places now and then, it was not to be
|
|
done.
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|
'To be sure, there's another thing you might do, Master Marner,'
|
|
added Dolly, meditatively: 'you might shut her up once i' the
|
|
coal-hole. That was what I did wi' Aaron; for I was that silly wi' the
|
|
youngest lad, as I could never bear to smack him. Not as I could
|
|
find i' my heart to let him stay i' the coal-hole more nor a minute,
|
|
but it was enough to colly him all over, so as he must be new washed
|
|
and dressed, and it was as good as a rod to him- that was. But I put
|
|
it upon your conscience, Master Marner, as there's one of 'em you must
|
|
choose- ayther smacking or the coal-hole- else she'll get so
|
|
masterful, there'll be no holding her.'
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|
|
Silas was impressed with the melancholy truth of this last
|
|
remark; but his force of mind failed before the only two penal methods
|
|
open to him, not only because it was painful to him to hurt Eppie, but
|
|
because he trembled at a moment's contention with her, lest she should
|
|
love him the less for it. Let even an affectionate Goliath get himself
|
|
tied to a small tender thing, dreading to hurt it by pulling, and
|
|
dreading still more to snap the cord, and which of the two, pray, will
|
|
be master? It was clear that Eppie, with her short toddling steps,
|
|
must lead father Silas a pretty dance on any fine morning when
|
|
circumstances favoured mischief.
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|
|
|
For example. He had wisely chosen a broad strip of linen as a means
|
|
of fastening her to his loom when he was busy: it made a broad belt
|
|
round her waist, and was long enough to allow of her reaching the
|
|
truckle-bed and sitting down on it, but not long enough for her to
|
|
attempt any dangerous climbing. One bright summer's morning Silas
|
|
had been more engrossed than usual in 'setting up' a new piece of
|
|
work, an occasion on which his scissors were in requisition. These
|
|
scissors, owing to an especial warning of Dolly's, had been kept
|
|
carefully out of Eppie's reach; but the click of them had had a
|
|
peculiar attraction for her ear, and, watching the results of that
|
|
click, she had derived the philosophic lesson that the same cause
|
|
would produce the same effect. Silas had seated himself in his loom,
|
|
and the noise of weaving had begun; but he had left his scissors on
|
|
a ledge which Eppie's arm was long enough to reach; and now, like a
|
|
small mouse, watching her opportunity, she stole quietly from her
|
|
corner, secured the scissors, and toddled to the bed again, setting up
|
|
her back as a mode of concealing the fact. She had a distinct
|
|
intention as to the use of the scissors; and having cut the linen
|
|
strip in a jagged but effectual manner, in two moments she had run out
|
|
at the open door where the sunshine was inviting her, while poor Silas
|
|
believed her to be a better child than usual. It was not until he
|
|
happened to need his scissors that the terrible fact burst upon him:
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Eppie had run out by herself- had perhaps fallen into the Stone-pit.
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Silas, shaken by the worst fear that could have befallen him, rushed
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out, calling 'Eppie!' and ran eagerly about the unenclosed space,
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exploring the dry cavities into which she might have fallen, and
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then gazing with questioning dread at the smooth red surface of the
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water. The cold drops stood on his brow. How long had she been out?
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There was one hope- that she had crept through the stile and got
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into the fields where he habitually took her to stroll. But the
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grass was high in the meadow, and there was no descrying her, if she
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were there, except by a close search that would be a trespass on Mr
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Osgood's crop. Still, that misdemeanour must be committed; and poor
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Silas, after peering all round the hedgerows, traversed the grass,
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beginning with perturbed vision to see Eppie behind every group of red
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sorrel, and to see her moving always farther off as he approached. The
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meadow was searched in vain; and he got over the stile into the next
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field, looking with dying hope towards a small pond which was now
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reduced to its summer shallowness, so as to leave a wide margin of
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good adhesive mud. Here, however, sat Eppie, discoursing cheerfully to
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her own small boot, which she was using as a bucket to convey the
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water into a deep mark, while her little naked foot was planted
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comfortably on a cushion of olive-green mud. A red-headed calf was
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observing her with alarmed doubt through the opposite hedge.
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Here was clearly a case of aberration in a christened child which
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demanded severe treatment; but Silas, overcome with convulsive joy
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at finding his treasure again, could do nothing but snatch her up, and
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cover her with half-sobbing kisses. It was not until he had carried
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her home, and had begun to think of the necessary washing, that he
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recollected the need that he should punish Eppie, and 'make her
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remember'. The idea that she might run away again and come to harm,
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gave him unusual resolution, and for the first time he determined to
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try the coal-hole- a small closet near the hearth.
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'Naughty, naughty Eppie,' he suddenly began, holding her on his
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knee, and pointing to her muddy feet and clothes- 'naughty to cut
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with the scissors, and run away. Eppie must go into the coal-hole
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for being naughty. Daddy must put her in the coal-hole.'
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He half expected that this would be shock enough, and that Eppie
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would begin to cry. But instead of that, she began to shake herself on
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his knee, as if the proposition opened a pleasing novelty. Seeing that
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he must proceed to extremities, he put her into the coal-hole, and
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held the door closed, with a trembling sense that he was using a
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strong measure. For a moment there was silence, but then came a little
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cry, 'Opy, opy!' and Silas let her out again, saying, 'Now Eppie
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'ull never be naughty again, else she must go into the coal-hole- a
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black naughty place.'
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The weaving must stand still a long while this morning, for now
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Eppie must be washed and have clean clothes on; but it was to be hoped
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that this punishment would have a lasting effect, and save time in
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future- though, perhaps, it would have been better if Eppie had
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cried more.
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In half an hour she was clean again, and Silas having turned his
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back to see what he could do with the linen band, threw it down again,
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with the reflection that Eppie would be good without fastening for the
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rest of the morning. He turned round again, and was going to place her
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in her little chair near the loom, when she peeped out at him with
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black face and hands again, and said, 'Eppie in de toal-hole!'
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This total failure of the coal-hole discipline shook Silas's belief
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in the efficacy of punishment. 'She'd take it all for fun,' he
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observed to Dolly, 'if I didn't hurt her, and that I can't do, Mrs
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Winthrop. If she makes me a bit o' trouble, I can bear it. And she's
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got no tricks but what she'll grow out of.'
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'Well, that's partly true, Master Marner,' said Dolly,
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sympathetically; 'and if you can't bring your mind to frighten her off
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touching things, you must do what you can to keep 'em out of her
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|
way. That's what I do wi' the pups as the lads are allays a-rearing.
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They will worry and gnaw- worry and gnaw they will, if it was one's
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Sunday cap as hung anywhere so as they could drag it. They know no
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difference, God help 'em: it's the pushing o' the teeth as sets them
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on, that's what it is.'
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So Eppie was reared without punishment, the burden of her
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misdeeds being borne vicariously by father Silas. The stone hut was
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made a soft nest for her, lined with downy patience: and also in the
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world that lay beyond the stone hut for her, she knew nothing of
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frowns and denials.
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Notwithstanding the difficulty of carrying her and his yarn or
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linen at the same time, Silas took her with him in most of his
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|
journeys to the farmhouses, unwilling to leave her behind at Dolly
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|
Winthrop's, who was always ready to take care of her; and little
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|
curly-headed Eppie, the weaver's child, became an object of interest
|
|
at several out-lying homesteads, as well as in the village. Hitherto
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|
he had been treated very much as if he had been a useful gnome or
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|
brownie- a queer and unaccountable creature, who must necessarily be
|
|
looked at with wondering curiosity and repulsion, and with whom one
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|
would be glad to make all greetings and bargains as brief as possible,
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|
but who must be dealt with in a propitiatory way, and occasionally
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|
have a present of pork or garden-stuff to carry home with him,
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|
seeing that without him there was no getting the yarn woven. But now
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|
Silas met with open smiling faces and cheerful questioning, as a
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|
person whose satisfactions and difficulties could be understood.
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|
Everywhere he must sit a little and talk about the child, and words of
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|
interest were always ready for him: 'Ah, Master Marner, you'll be
|
|
lucky if she takes the measles soon and easy!'- or, 'Why, there
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|
isn't many lone men 'ud ha' been wishing to take up with a little un
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|
like that: but I reckon the weaving makes you handier than men as do
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|
out-door work- you're partly as handy as a woman, for weaving comes
|
|
next to spinning.' Elderly masters and mistresses, seated
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|
observantly in large kitchen arm-chairs, shook their heads over the
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|
difficulties attendant on rearing children, felt Eppie's round arms
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|
and legs, and pronounced them remarkably firm, and told Silas that, if
|
|
she turned out well (which, however, there was no telling), it would
|
|
be a fine thing for him to have a steady lass to do for him when he
|
|
got helpless. Servant maidens were fond of carrying her out to look at
|
|
the hens and chickens, or to see if any cherries could be shaken
|
|
down in the orchard; and the small boys and girls approached her
|
|
slowly, with cautious movement and steady gaze, like little dogs
|
|
face to face with one of their own kind, till attraction had reached
|
|
the point at which the soft lips were put out for a kiss. No child was
|
|
afraid of approaching Silas when Eppie was near him: there was no
|
|
repulsion around him now, either for young or old; for the little
|
|
child had come to link him once more with the whole world. There was
|
|
love between him and the child that blent them into one, and there was
|
|
love between the child and the world- from men and women with parental
|
|
looks and tones, to the red lady-birds and the round pebbles.
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|
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|
Silas began now to think of Raveloe life entirely in relation to
|
|
Eppie: she must have everything that was a good in Raveloe; and he
|
|
listened docilely, that he might come to understand better what this
|
|
life was, from which, for fifteen years, he had stood aloof as from
|
|
a strange thing, with which he could have no communion: as some man
|
|
who has a precious plant to which he would give a nurturing home in
|
|
a new soil, thinks of the rain and sunshine, and all influences, in
|
|
relation to his nursling, and asks industriously for all knowledge
|
|
that will help him to satisfy the wants of the searching roots, or
|
|
to guard leaf and bud from invading harm. The disposition to hoard had
|
|
been utterly crushed at the very first by the loss of his
|
|
long-stored gold: the coins he earned afterwards seemed as
|
|
irrelevant as stones brought to complete a house suddenly buried by an
|
|
earthquake; the sense of bereavement was too heavy upon him for the
|
|
old thrill of satisfaction to arise again at the touch of the
|
|
newly-earned coin. And now something had come to replace his hoard
|
|
which gave a growing purpose to the earnings, drawing his hope and joy
|
|
continually onward beyond the money.
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|
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|
In old days there were angels who came and took men by the hand and
|
|
led them away from the city of destruction. We see no white-winged
|
|
angels now. But yet men are led away from threatening destruction: a
|
|
hand is put into theirs, which leads them forth gently towards a
|
|
calm and bright land, so that they look no more backward; and the hand
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|
may be a little child's.
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|
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
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THERE was one person, as you will believe, who watched with keener
|
|
though more hidden interest than any other the prosperous growth of
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|
Eppie under the weaver's care. He dared not do anything that would
|
|
imply a stronger interest in a poor man's adopted child than could
|
|
be expected from the kindliness of the young Squire, when a chance
|
|
meeting suggested a little present to a simple old fellow whom
|
|
others noticed with goodwill; but he told himself that the time
|
|
would come when he might do something towards furthering the welfare
|
|
of his daughter without incurring suspicions. Was he very uneasy in
|
|
the meantime at his inability to give his daughter her birthright? I
|
|
cannot say that he was. The child was being taken care of, and would
|
|
very likely be happy, as people in humble stations often were-
|
|
happier, perhaps, than those who are brought up in luxury.
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|
|
|
That famous ring that pricked its owner when he forgot duty and
|
|
followed desire- I wonder if it pricked very hard when he set out on
|
|
the chase, or whether it pricked but lightly then, and only pierced to
|
|
the quick when the chase had long been ended, and hope, folding her
|
|
wings, looked backward and became regret?
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|
|
|
Godfrey Cass's cheek and eye were brighter than ever now. He was so
|
|
undivided in his aims, that he seemed like a man of firmness. No
|
|
Dunsey had come back: people had made up their minds that he was
|
|
gone for a soldier, or gone 'out of the country', and no one cared
|
|
to be specific in their inquiries on a subject delicate to a
|
|
respectable family. Godfrey had ceased to see the shadow of Dunsey
|
|
across his path; and the path now lay straight forward to the
|
|
accomplishment of his best, longest-cherished wishes. Everybody said
|
|
Mr Godfrey had taken the right turn; and it was pretty clear what
|
|
would be the end of things, for there were not many days in the week
|
|
that he was not seen riding to the Warrens. Godfrey himself, when he
|
|
was asked jocosely if the day had been fixed, smiled with the pleasant
|
|
consciousness of a lover who could say 'yes', if he liked. He felt a
|
|
reformed man, delivered from temptation; and the vision of his
|
|
future life seemed to him as a promised land for which he had no cause
|
|
to fight. He saw himself with all his happiness centred on his own
|
|
hearth, where Nancy would smile on him as he played with the children.
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|
|
|
And that other child- not on the hearth- he would not forget it; he
|
|
would see that it was well provided for. That was a father's duty.
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|
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|
PART TWO
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|
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
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|
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|
IT was a bright autumn Sunday, sixteen years after Silas Marner had
|
|
found his new treasure on the hearth. The bells of the old Raveloe
|
|
church were ringing the cheerful peal which told that the morning
|
|
service was ended; and out of the arched doorway in the tower came
|
|
slowly, retarded by friendly greetings and questions, the richer
|
|
parishioners who had chosen this bright Sunday morning as eligible for
|
|
church-going. It was the rural fashion of that time for the more
|
|
important members of the congregation to depart first, while their
|
|
humbler neighbours waited and looked on, stroking their bent heads
|
|
or dropping their curtsies to any large ratepayer who turned to notice
|
|
them.
|
|
|
|
Foremost among these advancing groups of well-clad people, there
|
|
are some whom we shall recognize, in spite of Time, who has laid his
|
|
hand on them all. The tall blond man of forty is not much changed in
|
|
feature from the Godfrey Cass of six-and-twenty: he is only fuller
|
|
in flesh, and has only lost the indefinable look of youth- a loss
|
|
which is marked even when the eye is undulled and the wrinkles are not
|
|
yet come. Perhaps the pretty woman, not much younger than he, who is
|
|
leaning on his arm, is more changed than her husband: the lovely bloom
|
|
that used to be always on her cheek now comes but fitfully, with the
|
|
fresh morning air or with some strong surprise; yet to all who love
|
|
human faces best for what they tell of human experience, Nancy's
|
|
beauty has a heightened interest. Often the soul is ripened into
|
|
fuller goodness while age has spread an ugly film, so that mere
|
|
glances can never divine the preciousness of the fruit. But the
|
|
years have not been so cruel to Nancy. The firm yet placid mouth,
|
|
the clear veracious glance of the brown eyes, speak now of a nature
|
|
that has been tested and has kept its highest qualities; and even
|
|
the costume, with its dainty neatness and purity, has more
|
|
significance now the coquetries of youth can have nothing to do with
|
|
it.
|
|
|
|
Mr and Mrs Godfrey Cass (any higher title has died away from
|
|
Raveloe lips since the old Squire was gathered to his fathers, and his
|
|
inheritance was divided) have turned round to look for the tall aged
|
|
man and the plainly-dressed woman who are a little behind- Nancy
|
|
having observed that they must wait for 'father and Priscilla'- and
|
|
now they all turn into a narrower path leading across the churchyard
|
|
to a small gate opposite the Red House. We will not follow them now;
|
|
for may there not be some others in this departing congregation whom
|
|
we should like to see again- some of those who are not likely to be
|
|
handsomely clad, and whom we may not recognize so easily as the master
|
|
and mistress of the Red House?
|
|
|
|
But it is impossible to mistake Silas Marner. His large brown
|
|
eyes seem to have gathered a longer vision, as is the way with eyes
|
|
that have been short-sighted in early life, and they have a less
|
|
vague, a more answering look; but in everything else one sees signs of
|
|
a frame much enfeebled by the lapse of the sixteen years. The weaver's
|
|
bent shoulders and white hair give him almost the look of advanced
|
|
age, though he is not more than five-and-fifty; but there is the
|
|
freshest blossom of youth close by his side- a blonde dimpled girl
|
|
of eighteen, who has vainly tried to chastise her curly auburn hair
|
|
into smoothness under her brown bonnet: the hair ripples as
|
|
obstinately as a brooklet under the March breeze, and the little
|
|
ringlets burst away from the restraining comb behind and show
|
|
themselves below the bonnet-crown. Eppie cannot help being rather
|
|
vexed about her hair, for there is no other girl in Raveloe who has
|
|
hair at all like it, and she thinks hair ought to be smooth. She
|
|
does not like to be blameworthy even in small things: you see how
|
|
neatly her prayer-book is folded in her spotted handkerchief.
|
|
|
|
That good-looking young fellow, in a new fustian suit, who walks
|
|
behind her, is not quite sure upon the question of hair in the
|
|
abstract, when Eppie puts it to him, and thinks that perhaps
|
|
straight hair is the best in general, but he doesn't want Eppie's hair
|
|
to be different. She surely divines that there is someone behind her
|
|
who is thinking about her very particularly, and mustering courage
|
|
to come to her side as soon as they are out in the lane, else why
|
|
should she look rather shy, and take care not to turn away her head
|
|
from her father Silas, to whom she keeps murmuring little sentences as
|
|
to who was at church and who was not at church, and how pretty the red
|
|
mountain-ash is over the Rectory wall?
|
|
|
|
'I wish we had a little garden, father, with double daisies in,
|
|
like Mrs Winthrop's,' said Eppie, when they were out in the lane;
|
|
'only they say it 'ud take a deal of digging and bringing fresh
|
|
soil- and you couldn't do that, could you, father? Anyhow, I shouldn't
|
|
like you to do it, for it 'ud be too hard work for you.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, I could do it, child, if you want a bit o' garden: these long
|
|
evenings, I could work at taking in a little bit o' the waste, just
|
|
enough for a root or two o' flowers for you; and again, i' the
|
|
morning, I could have a turn wi' the spade before I sat down to the
|
|
loom. Why didn't you tell me before as you wanted a bit o' garden?'
|
|
|
|
'I can dig it for you, Master Marner,' said the young man in
|
|
fustian, who was now by Eppie's side, entering into the conversation
|
|
without the trouble of formalities. 'It'll be play to me after I've
|
|
done my day's work, or any odd bits o' time when the work's slack. And
|
|
I'll bring you some soil from Mr Cass's garden- he'll let me, and
|
|
willing.'
|
|
|
|
'Eh, Aaron, my lad, are you there?' said Silas; 'I wasn't aware
|
|
of you; for when Eppie's talking o' things, I see nothing but what
|
|
she's a-saying. Well, if you could help me with the digging, we
|
|
might get her a bit o' garden all the sooner.'
|
|
|
|
'Then, if you'll think well and good,' said Aaron, 'I'll come to
|
|
the Stone-pits this afternoon, and we'll settle what land's to be
|
|
taken in, and I'll get up an hour earlier i' the morning, and begin on
|
|
it.'
|
|
|
|
'But not if you don't promise me not to work at the hard digging,
|
|
father,' said Eppie. 'For I shouldn't ha' said anything about it,' she
|
|
added, half-bashfully, half-roguishly, 'only Mrs Winthrop said as
|
|
Aaron 'ud be so good, and--'
|
|
|
|
'And you might ha' known it without mother telling you,' said
|
|
Aaron. 'And Master Marner knows too, I hope, as I'm able and willing
|
|
to do a turn o' work for him, and he won't do me the unkindness to
|
|
anyways take it out o' my hands.'
|
|
|
|
'There, now, father, you won't work in it till it's all easy,' said
|
|
Eppie, 'and you and me can mark out the beds, and make holes and plant
|
|
the roots. It'll be a deal livelier at the Stone-pits when we've got
|
|
some flowers, for I always think the flowers can see us and know
|
|
what we're talking about. And I'll have a bit o' rosemary, and
|
|
bergamot, and thyme, because they're so sweet-smelling; but there's no
|
|
lavender only in the gentlefolks' gardens, I think.'
|
|
|
|
'That's no reason why you shouldn't have some,' said Aaron, 'for
|
|
I can bring you slips of anything; I'm forced to cut no end of 'em
|
|
when I'm gardening, and throw 'em away mostly. There's a big bed o'
|
|
lavender at the Red House: the missis is very fond of it.'
|
|
|
|
'Well,' said Silas, gravely, 'so as you don't make free for us,
|
|
or ask anything as is worth much at the Red House: for Mr Cass's
|
|
been so good to us, and built us up the new end o' the cottage, and
|
|
given us beds and things, as I couldn't abide to be imposin' for
|
|
garden-stuff or anything else.'
|
|
|
|
'No, no, there's no imposin',' said Aaron; 'there's never a
|
|
garden in all the parish but what there's endless waste in it for want
|
|
o' somebody as could use everything up. It's what I think to myself
|
|
sometimes, as there need nobody run short o' victuals if the land
|
|
was made the most on, and there was never a morsel but what could find
|
|
its way to a mouth. It sets one thinking o' that- gardening does.
|
|
But I must go back now, else mother 'ull be in trouble as I aren't
|
|
there.'
|
|
|
|
'Bring her with you this afternoon, Aaron,' said Eppie; 'I
|
|
shouldn't like to fix about the garden, and her not know everything
|
|
from the first- should you, father?'
|
|
|
|
'Aye, bring her if you can, Aaron,' said Silas; 'she's sure to have
|
|
a word to say as'll help us to set things on their right end.'
|
|
|
|
Aaron turned back up the village, while Silas and Eppie went on
|
|
up the lonely sheltered lane.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, daddy!' she began, when they were in privacy, clasping and
|
|
squeezing Silas's arm, and skipping round to give him an energetic
|
|
kiss. 'My little old daddy! I'm so glad. I don't think I shall want
|
|
anything else when we've got a little garden; and I knew Aaron would
|
|
dig it for us,' she went on with roguish triumph- 'I knew that very
|
|
well.'
|
|
|
|
'You're a deep little puss, you are,' said Silas, with the mild
|
|
passive happiness of love-crowned age in his face; 'but you'll make
|
|
yourself fine and beholden to Aaron.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, no, I shan't,' said Eppie, laughing and frisking; 'he likes
|
|
it.'
|
|
|
|
'Come, come, let me carry your prayer-book, else you'll be dropping
|
|
it, jumping i' that way.'
|
|
|
|
Eppie was now aware that her behaviour was under observation, but
|
|
it was only the observation of a friendly donkey, browsing with a
|
|
log fastened to his foot- a meek donkey, not scornfully critical of
|
|
human trivialities, but thankful to share in them, if possible, by
|
|
getting his nose scratched; and Eppie did not fail to gratify him with
|
|
her usual notice, though it was attended with the inconvenience of his
|
|
following them, painfully, up to the very door of their home.
|
|
|
|
But the sound of a sharp bark inside, as Eppie put the key in the
|
|
door, modified the donkey's views, and he limped away again without
|
|
bidding. The sharp bark was the sign of an excited welcome that was
|
|
awaiting them from a knowing brown terrier, who, after dancing at
|
|
their legs in a hysterical manner, rushed with a worrying noise at a
|
|
tortoise-shell kitten under the loom, and then rushed back with a
|
|
sharp bark again, as much as to say, 'I have done my duty by this
|
|
feeble creature, you perceive'; while the lady-mother of the kitten
|
|
sat sunning her white bosom in the window, and looked round with a
|
|
sleepy air of expecting caresses, though she was not going to take any
|
|
trouble for them.
|
|
|
|
The presence of this happy animal life was not the only change
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|
which had come over this interior of the stone cottage. There was no
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bed now in the living-room, and the small space was well filled with
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decent furniture, all bright and clean enough to satisfy Dolly
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Winthrop's eye. The oaken table and three-cornered oaken chair were
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hardly what was likely to be seen in so poor a cottage: they had come,
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with the beds and other things, from the Red House; for Mr Godfrey
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Cass, as everyone said in the village, did very kindly by the
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weaver; and it was nothing but right a man should be looked on and
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helped by those who could afford it, when he had brought up an
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orphan child, and been father and mother to her- and had lost his
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money too, so as he had nothing but what he worked for week by week,
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and when the weaving was going down too- for there was less and less
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flax spun- and Master Marner was none so young. Nobody was jealous
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of the weaver, for he was regarded as an exceptional person, whose
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claims on neighbourly help were not to be matched in Raveloe. Any
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superstition that remained concerning him had taken an entirely new
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colour; and Mr Macey, now a very feeble old man of fourscore and
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six, never seen except in his chimney corner or sitting in the
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sunshine at his door-sill, was of opinion that when a man had done
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what Silas had done by an orphan child, it was a sign that his money
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would come to light again, or leastwise that the robber would be
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made to answer for it- for, as Mr Macey observed of himself, his
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faculties were as strong as ever.
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Silas sat down now and watched Eppie with a satisfied gaze as she
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spread the clean cloth, and set on it the potato-pie, warmed up slowly
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in a safe Sunday fashion, by being put into a dry pot over a
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slowly-dying fire, as the best substitute for an oven. For Silas would
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not consent to have a grate and oven added to his conveniences: he
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loved the old brick hearth as he had loved his brown pot- and was it
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not there when he had found Eppie? The gods of the hearth exist for us
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still; and let all new faith be tolerant of that fetishism, lest it
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bruise its own roots.
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Silas ate his dinner more silently than usual, soon laying down his
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knife and fork, and watching half-abstractedly Eppie's play with
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Snap and the cat, by which her own dining was made rather a lengthy
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business. Yet it was a sight that might well arrest wandering
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thoughts: Eppie, with the rippling radiance of her hair and the
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whiteness of her rounded chin and throat set off by the dark-blue
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cotton gown, laughing merrily as the kitten held on with her four
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claws to one shoulder, like a design for a jug-handle, while Snap on
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the right hand and puss on the other put up their paws towards a
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morsel which she held out of the reach of both- Snap occasionally
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desisting in order to remonstrate with the cat by a cogent worrying
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growl on the greediness and futility of her conduct; till Eppie
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relented, caressed them both, and divided the morsel between them.
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But at last Eppie, glancing at the clock, checked the play, and
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said, 'Oh, daddy, you're wanting to go into the sunshine to smoke your
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pipe. But I must clear away first, so as the house may be tidy when
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godmother comes. I'll make haste- I won't be long.'
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Silas had taken to smoking a pipe daily during the last two
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years, having been strongly urged to it by the sages of Raveloe, as
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a practice 'good for the fits'; and this advice was sanctioned by Dr
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|
Kimble, on the ground that it was as well to try what could do no
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|
harm- a principle which was made to answer for a great deal of work in
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that gentleman's medical practice. Silas did not highly enjoy smoking,
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and often wondered how his neighbours could be so fond of it; but a
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humble sort of acquiescence in what was held to be good, had become
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a strong habit of that new self which had been developed in him
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|
since he had found Eppie on his hearth: it had been the only clue
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his bewildered mind could hold by in cherishing this young life that
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had been sent to him out of the darkness into which his gold had
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departed. By seeking what was needful for Eppie, by sharing the effect
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|
that everything produced on her, he had himself come to appropriate
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|
the forms of custom and belief which were the mould of Raveloe life;
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and as, with reawakening sensibilities, memory also reawakened, he had
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|
begun to ponder over the elements of his old faith, and blend them
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|
with his new impressions, till he recovered a consciousness of unity
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|
between his past and present. The sense of presiding goodness and
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|
the human trust which come with all pure peace and joy, had given
|
|
him a dim impression that there had been some error, some mistake,
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|
which had thrown that dark shadow over the days of his best years; and
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as it grew more and more easy to him to open his mind to Dolly
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Winthrop, he gradually communicated to her all he could describe of
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his early life. The communication was necessarily a slow and difficult
|
|
process, for Silas's meagre power of explanation was not aided by
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|
any readiness of interpretation in Dolly, whose narrow outward
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|
experience gave her no key to strange customs, and made every
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|
novelty a source of wonder that arrested them at every step of the
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|
narrative. It was only by fragments, and at intervals which left Dolly
|
|
time to revolve what she had heard till it acquired some familiarity
|
|
for her, that Silas at last arrived at the climax of the sad story-
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|
the drawing of lots, and its false testimony concerning him; and
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|
this had to be repeated in several interviews, under new questions
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|
on her part as to the nature of this plan for detecting the guilty and
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|
clearing the innocent.
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'And yourn's the same Bible, you're sure o' that, Master Marner-
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|
the Bible as you brought wi' you from that country- it's the same as
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|
what they've got at church, and what Eppie's a-learning to read in?'
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'Yes,' said Silas, 'every bit the same; and there's drawing o' lots
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|
in the Bible, mind you,' he added, in a lower tone.
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|
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'Oh, dear, dear,' said Dolly, in a grieved voice, as if she were
|
|
hearing an unfavourable report of a sick man's case. She was silent
|
|
for some minutes; at last she said:
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|
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'There's wise folks, happen, as know how it all is; the parson
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|
knows, I'll be bound; but it takes big words to tell them things,
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|
and such as poor folks can't make much out on. I can never rightly
|
|
know the meaning o' what I hear at church, only a bit here and
|
|
there, but I know it's good words- I do. But what lies upo' your mind-
|
|
it's this, Master Marner: as, if Them above had done the right thing
|
|
by you, They'd never ha' let you be turned out for a wicked thief when
|
|
you was innicent.'
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|
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|
'Ah!' said Silas, who had now come to understand Dolly's
|
|
phraseology, 'that was what fell on me like as if it had been
|
|
red-hot iron; because, you see, there was nobody as cared for me or
|
|
clave to me above nor below. And him as I'd gone out and in wi' for
|
|
ten years and more, since when we was lads and went halves- mine own
|
|
famil'ar friend, in whom I trusted, had lifted up his heel again'
|
|
me, and worked to ruin me.'
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|
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|
'Eh, but he was a bad un- I can't think as there's another such,'
|
|
said Dolly. 'But I'm o'ercome, Master Marner; I'm like as if I'd waked
|
|
and didn't know whether it was night or morning. I feel somehow as
|
|
sure as I do when I've laid something up though I can't justly put
|
|
my hand on it, as there was a right in what happened to you, if one
|
|
could but make it out; and you'd no call to lose heart as you did. But
|
|
we'll talk on it again; for sometimes things come into my head when
|
|
I'm leeching or poulticing, or such, as I could never think on when
|
|
I was sitting still.'
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|
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|
Dolly was too useful a woman not to have many opportunities of
|
|
illumination of the kind she alluded to, and she was not long before
|
|
she recurred to the subject.
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|
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|
'Master Marner,' she said, one day that she came to bring home
|
|
Eppie's washing, 'I've been sore puzzled for a good bit wi' that
|
|
trouble o' yourn and the drawing o' lots; and it got twisted back'ards
|
|
and for'ards, as I didn't know which end to lay hold on. But it come
|
|
to me all clear like, that night when I was sitting up wi' poor
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|
Bessy Fawkes, as is dead and left her children behind, God help 'em-
|
|
it come to me as clear as daylight; but whether I've got hold on it
|
|
now, or can anyways bring it to my tongue's end, that I don't know.
|
|
For I've often a deal inside me as'll niver come out; and for what you
|
|
talk o' your folks in your old country niver saying prayers by heart
|
|
nor saying 'em out of a book, they must be wonderful cliver; for if
|
|
I didn't know "Our Father", and little bits o' good words as I can
|
|
carry out o' church wi' me, I might down o' my knees every night,
|
|
but nothing could I say.'
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|
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|
'But you can mostly say something as I can make sense on, Mrs
|
|
Winthrop,' said Silas.
|
|
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|
'Well, then, Master Marner, it come to me summat like this: I can
|
|
make nothing o' the drawing o' lots and the answer coming wrong; it
|
|
'ud mayhap take the parson to tell that, and he could only tell us
|
|
i' big words. But what come to me as clear as the daylight, it was
|
|
when I was troubling overpoor Bessy Fawkes, and it allays comes into
|
|
my head when I'm sorry for folks, and feel as I can't do a power to
|
|
help 'em, not if I was to get up i' the middle o' the night- it
|
|
comes into my head as Them above has got a deal tenderer heart nor
|
|
what I've got- for I can't be anyways better nor Them as made me,
|
|
and if anything looks hard to me, it's because there's things I
|
|
don't know on; and for the matter o' that, there may be plenty o'
|
|
things I don't know on, for it's little as I know- that it is. And so,
|
|
while I was thinking o' that, you come into my mind, Master Marner,
|
|
and it all come pouring in:-- if I felt i' my inside what was the
|
|
right and just thing by you, and them as prayed and drawed the lots,
|
|
all but that wicked un, if they'd ha' done the right thing by you if
|
|
they could, isn't there Them as was at the making on us, and knows
|
|
better and has a better will? And that's all as ever I can be sure on,
|
|
and everything else is a big puzzle to me when I think on it. For
|
|
there was the fever come and took off them as were full-growed, and
|
|
left the helpless children; and there's the breaking o' limbs; and
|
|
them as 'ud do right and be sober have to suffer by them as are
|
|
contrairy- eh, there's trouble i' this world, and there's things as we
|
|
can niver make out the rights on. And all as we've got to do is to
|
|
trusten, Master Marner- to do the right thing as fur as we know, and
|
|
to trusten. For if us as knows so little can see a bit o' good and
|
|
rights, we may be sure as there's a good and a rights bigger nor
|
|
what we can know- I feel it i' my own inside as it must be so. And
|
|
if you could but ha' gone on trustening, Master Marner, you wouldn't
|
|
ha' run away from your fellow-creaturs and been so lone.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, but that 'ud ha' been hard,' said Silas, in an undertone;
|
|
'it 'ud ha' been hard to trusten then.'
|
|
|
|
'And so it would,' said Dolly, almost with compunction; 'them
|
|
things are easier said nor done; and I'm partly ashamed o' talking.'
|
|
|
|
'Nay, nay,' said Silas, 'you're i' the right, Mrs Winthrop-
|
|
you're i' the right. There's good i' this world- I've a feeling o'
|
|
that now; and it makes a man feel as there's a good more nor he can
|
|
see, i' spite o' the trouble and the wickedness. That drawing o' the
|
|
lots is dark; but the child was sent to me: there's dealings with
|
|
us- there's dealings.'
|
|
|
|
This dialogue took place in Eppie's earlier years, when Silas had
|
|
to part with her for two hours every day, that she might learn to read
|
|
at the dame school, after he had vainly tried himself to guide her
|
|
in that first step to learning. Now that she was grown up, Silas had
|
|
often been led, in those moments of quiet outpouring which come to
|
|
people who live together in perfect love, to talk with her too of
|
|
the past, and how and why he had lived a lonely man until she had been
|
|
sent to him. For it would have been impossible for him to hide from
|
|
Eppie that she was not his own child: even if the most delicate
|
|
reticence on the point could have been expected from Raveloe gossips
|
|
in her presence, her own questions about her mother could not have
|
|
been parried, as she grew up, without that complete shrouding of the
|
|
past which would have made a painful barrier between their minds. So
|
|
Eppie had long known how her mother had died on the snowy ground,
|
|
and how she herself had been found on the hearth by father Silas,
|
|
who had taken her golden curls for his lost guineas brought back to
|
|
him. The tender and peculiar love with which Silas had reared her in
|
|
almost inseparable companionship with himself, aided by the
|
|
seclusion of their dwelling, had preserved her from the lowering
|
|
influences of the village talk and habits, and had kept her mind in
|
|
that freshness which is sometimes falsely supposed to be an invariable
|
|
attribute of rusticity. Perfect love has a breath of poetry which
|
|
can exalt the relations of the least instructed human beings; and this
|
|
breath of poetry had surrounded Eppie from the time when she had
|
|
followed the bright gleam that beckoned her to Silas's hearth; so that
|
|
it is not surprising if, in other things besides her delicate
|
|
prettiness, she was not quite a common village maiden, but had a touch
|
|
of refinement and fervour which came from no other teaching than
|
|
that of tenderly nurtured and unvitiated feeling. She was too childish
|
|
and simple for her imagination to rove into questions about her
|
|
unknown father; for a long while it did not even occur to her that she
|
|
must have had a father; and the first time that the idea of her mother
|
|
having had a husband presented itself to her, was when Silas showed
|
|
her the wedding-ring which had been taken from the wasted finger,
|
|
and had been carefully preserved by him in a little lacquered box
|
|
shaped like a shoe. He delivered this box into Eppie's charge when she
|
|
had grown up, and she often opened it to look at the ring; but still
|
|
she thought hardly at all about the father to whom it was the
|
|
symbol. Had she not a father very close to her, who loved her better
|
|
than any real fathers in the village seemed to love their daughters?
|
|
On the contrary, who her mother was, and how she came to die in that
|
|
forlornness, were questions that often pressed on Eppie's mind. Her
|
|
knowledge of Mrs Winthrop, who was her nearest friend next to Silas,
|
|
made her feel that a mother must be very precious; and she had again
|
|
and again asked Silas to tell her how her mother looked, whom she
|
|
was like, and how he had found her against the furze bush, led towards
|
|
it by the little footsteps and the outstretched arms. The furze bush
|
|
was there still; and this afternoon, when Eppie came out with Silas
|
|
into the sunshine, it was the first object that arrested her eyes
|
|
and thoughts.
|
|
|
|
'Father,' she said, in a tone of gentle gravity, which sometimes
|
|
came like a sadder, slower cadence across her playfulness, 'we shall
|
|
take the furze bush into the garden; it'll come into the corner, and
|
|
just against it I'll put snowdrops and crocuses, 'cause Aaron says
|
|
they won't die out, but'll always get more and more.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, child,' said Silas, always ready to talk when he had his
|
|
pipe in his hand, apparently enjoying the pauses more than the
|
|
puffs, 'it wouldn't do to leave out the furze bush; and there's
|
|
nothing prettier, to my thinking, when it's yallow with flowers. But
|
|
it's just come into my head what we're to do for a fence- mayhap Aaron
|
|
can help us to a thought; but a fence we must have, else the donkeys
|
|
and things 'ull come and trample everything down. And fencing's hard
|
|
to be got at, by what I can make out.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, I'll tell you, daddy,' said Eppie, clasping her hands
|
|
suddenly, after a minute's thought. 'There's lots o' loose stones
|
|
about, some of 'em not big, and we might lay 'em atop of one another
|
|
and make a wall. You and me could carry the smallest, and Aaron 'ud
|
|
carry the rest- I know he would.'
|
|
|
|
'Eh, my precious un,' said Silas, 'there isn't enough stones to
|
|
go all round; and as for you carrying, why wi' your little arms you
|
|
couldn't carry a stone no bigger than a turnip. You're dillicate made,
|
|
my dear,' he added, with a tender intonation- 'that's what Mrs
|
|
Winthrop says.'
|
|
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|
'Oh, I'm stronger than you think, daddy,' said Eppie; 'and if there
|
|
wasn't stones enough to go all round, why they'll go part o' the
|
|
way, and then it'll be easier to get sticks and things for the rest.
|
|
See here, round the big pit, what a many stones!'
|
|
|
|
She skipped forward to the pit, meaning to lift one of the stones
|
|
and exhibit her strength, but she started back in surprise.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, father, just come and look here,' she exclaimed- 'come and see
|
|
how the water's gone down since yesterday. Why, yesterday the pit
|
|
was ever so full!'
|
|
|
|
'Well, to be sure,' said Silas, coming to her side. 'Why, that's
|
|
the draining they've begun on, since harvest, i' Mr Osgood's fields, I
|
|
reckon. The foreman said to me the other day, when I passed by 'em,
|
|
"Master Marner," he said, "I shouldn't wonder if we lay your bit o'
|
|
waste as dry as a bone." It was Mr Godfrey Cass, he said, had gone
|
|
into the draining: he'd been taking these fields o' Mr Osgood.'
|
|
|
|
'How odd it'll seem to have the old pit dried up,' said Eppie,
|
|
turning away, and stooping to lift rather a large stone. 'See,
|
|
daddy, I can carry this quite well,' she said, going along with much
|
|
energy for a few steps, but presently letting it fall.
|
|
|
|
'Ah, you're fine and strong, arn't you?' said Silas, while Eppie
|
|
shook her aching arms and laughed. 'Come, come, let us go and sit down
|
|
on the bank against the stile there, and have no more lifting. You
|
|
might hurt yourself, child. You'd need have somebody to work for
|
|
you- and my arm isn't over strong.'
|
|
|
|
Silas uttered the last sentence slowly, as if it implied more
|
|
than met the ear; and Eppie, when they sat down on the bank, nestled
|
|
close to his side, and, taking hold caressingly of the arm that was
|
|
not over strong, held it on her lap, while Silas puffed again
|
|
dutifully at the pipe, which occupied his other arm. An ash in the
|
|
hedgerow behind made a fretted screen from the sun, and threw happy
|
|
playful shadows all about them.
|
|
|
|
'Father,' said Eppie, very gently, after they had been sitting in
|
|
silence a little while, 'if I was to be married, ought I to be married
|
|
with my mother's ring?'
|
|
|
|
Silas gave an almost imperceptible start, though the question
|
|
fell in with the undercurrent of thought in his own mind, and then
|
|
said, in a subdued tone, 'Why, Eppie, have you been a-thinking on it?'
|
|
|
|
'Only this last week, father,' said Eppie, ingenuously, 'since
|
|
Aaron talked to me about it.'
|
|
|
|
'And what did he say?' said Silas, still in the same subdued way,
|
|
as if he were anxious lest he should fall into the slightest tone that
|
|
was not for Eppie's good.
|
|
|
|
'He said he should like to be married, because he was a-going in
|
|
four-and-twenty, and had got a deal of gardening work, now Mr Mott's
|
|
given up; and he goes twice a-week regular to Mr Cass's, and once to
|
|
Mr Osgood's, and they're going to take him on at the Rectory.'
|
|
|
|
'And who is it as he's wanting to marry?' said Silas, with rather a
|
|
sad smile.
|
|
|
|
'Why, me, to be sure, daddy,' said Eppie, with dimpling laughter,
|
|
kissing her father's cheek; 'as if he'd want to marry anybody else!'
|
|
|
|
'And you mean to have him, do you?' said Silas.
|
|
|
|
'Yes, some time,' said Eppie, 'I don't know when. Everybody's
|
|
married some time, Aaron says. But I told him that wasn't true; for, I
|
|
said, look at father- he's never been married.'
|
|
|
|
'No, child,' said Silas, 'your father was a lone man till you was
|
|
sent to him.'
|
|
|
|
'But you'll never be lone again, father,' said Eppie, tenderly.
|
|
'That was what Aaron said- "I could never think o' taking you away
|
|
from Master Marner, Eppie." And I said, "It 'ud be no use if you
|
|
did, Aaron." And he wants us all to live together, so as you needn't
|
|
work a bit, father, only what's for your own pleasure; and he'd be
|
|
as good as a son to you- that was what he said.'
|
|
|
|
'And should you like that, Eppie?' said Silas, looking at her.
|
|
|
|
'I shouldn't mind it, father,' said Eppie, quite simply. 'And I
|
|
should like things to be so as you needn't work much. But if it wasn't
|
|
for that, I'd sooner things didn't change. I'm very happy: I like
|
|
Aaron to be fond of me, and come and see us often, and behave pretty
|
|
to you- he always does behave pretty to you, doesn't he, father?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, child, nobody could behave better,' said Silas, emphatically.
|
|
'He's his mother's lad.'
|
|
|
|
'But I don't want any change,' said Eppie. 'I should like to go
|
|
on a long, long while, just as we are. Only Aaron does want a
|
|
change; and he made me cry a bit- only a bit- because he said I didn't
|
|
care for him, for if I cared for him I should want us to be married,
|
|
as he did.'
|
|
|
|
'Eh, my blessed child,' said Silas, laying down his pipe as if it
|
|
were useless to pretend to smoke any longer, 'you're o'er young to
|
|
be married. We'll ask Mrs Winthrop- we'll ask Aaron's mother what
|
|
she thinks: if there's a right thing to do, she'll come at it. But
|
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there's this to be thought on, Eppie: things will change, whether we
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like it or not; things won't go on for a long while just as they are
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and no difference. I shall get older and helplesser, and be a burden
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on you, belike, if I don't go away from you altogether. Not as I
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mean you'd think me a burden- I know you wouldn't- but it 'ud be
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hard upon you; and when I look for'ard to that, I like to think as
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you'd have somebody else besides me- somebody young and strong,
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as'll outlast your own life, and take care on you to the end.' Silas
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paused, and, resting his wrists on his knees, lifted his hands up
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and down meditatively as he looked on the ground.
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'Then, would you like me to be married, father?' said Eppie, with a
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little trembling in her voice.
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'I'll not be the man to say no, Eppie,' said Silas, emphatically;
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'but we'll ask your godmother. She'll wish the right thing by you
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and her son too.'
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'There they come, then,' said Eppie. 'Let us go and meet 'em. Oh,
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the pipe! won't you have it lit again, father?' said Eppie, lifting
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that medicinal appliance from the ground.
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'Nay, child,' said Silas, 'I've done enough for today. I think,
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mayhap, a little of it does me more good than so much at once.'
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CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
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WHILE Silas and Eppie were seated on the bank discoursing in the
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fleckered shade of the ash tree, Miss Priscilla Lammeter was resisting
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her sister's arguments, that it would be better to stay tea at the Red
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House, and let her father have a long nap, than drive home to the
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Warrens so soon after dinner. The family party (of four only) were
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seated round the table in the dark wainscoted parlour, with the Sunday
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dessert before them, of fresh filberts, apples, and pears, duly
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ornamented with leaves by Nancy's own hand before the bells had rung
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for church.
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A great change has come over the dark wainscoted parlour since we
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saw it in Godfrey's bachelor days, and under the wifeless reign of the
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old Squire. Now all is polish, on which no yesterday's dust is ever
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allowed to settle, from the yard's width of oaken boards round the
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carpet, to the old Squire's gun and whips and walking-sticks, ranged
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on the stag's antlers above the mantelpiece. All other signs of
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sporting and outdoor occupation Nancy has removed to another room; but
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she has brought into the Red House the habit of filial reverence,
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and preserves sacredly in a place of honour these relics of her
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husband's departed father. The tankards are on the side table still,
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but the bossed silver is undimmed by handling, and there are no
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dregs to send forth unpleasant suggestions: the only prevailing
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scent is of the lavender and rose-leaves that fill the vases of
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Derbyshire spar. All is purity and order in this once dreary room,
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for, fifteen years ago, it was entered by a new presiding spirit.
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'Now, father,' said Nancy, 'is there any call for you to go home to
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tea? Mayn't you just as well stay with us?- such a beautiful evening
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as it's likely to be.'
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The old gentleman had been talking with Godfrey about the
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increasing poor-rate and the ruinous times, and had not heard the
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dialogue between his daughters.
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'My dear, you must ask Priscilla,' he said, in the once firm voice,
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now become rather broken. 'She manages me and the farm too.'
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'And reason good as I should manage you, father,' said Priscilla,
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'else you'd be giving yourself your death with rheumatism. And as
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for the farm, if anything turns out wrong, as it can't but do in these
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times, there's nothing kills a man so soon as having nobody to find
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fault with but himself. It's a deal the best way o' being master, to
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let somebody else do the ordering, and keep the blaming in your own
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hands. It 'ud save many a man a stroke, I believe.'
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'Well, well, my dear,' said her father, with a quiet laugh, 'I
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didn't say you don't manage for everybody's good.'
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'Then manage so as you may stay tea, Priscilla,' said Nancy,
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putting her hand on her sister's arm affectionately. 'Come, now; and
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we'll go round the garden while father has his nap.'
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'My dear child, he'll have a beautiful nap in the gig, for I
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shall drive. And as for staying tea, I can't hear of it; for there's
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this dairymaid, now she knows she's to be married, turned
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Michaelmas, she'd as lieve pour the new milk into the pig-trough as
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into the pans. That's the way with 'em all: it's as if they thought
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the world 'ud be new-made because they're to be married. So come and
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let me put my bonnet on, and there'll be time for us to walk round the
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garden while the horse is being put in.'
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When the sisters were treading the neatly-swept garden-walks,
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between the bright turf that contrasted pleasantly with the dark cones
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and arches and wall-like hedges of yew, Priscilla said:
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'I'm as glad as anything at your husband's making that exchange
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o' land with cousin Osgood, and beginning the dairying. It's a
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thousand pities you didn't do it before; for it'll give you
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something to fill your mind. There's nothing like a dairy if folks
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want a bit o' worrit to make the days pass. For as for rubbing
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furniture, when you can once see your face in a table there's
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nothing else to look for; but there's always something fresh with
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the dairy; for even in the depths o' winter there's some pleasure in
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conquering the butter, and making it come whether or no. My dear,'
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added Priscilla, pressing her sister's hand affectionately as they
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walked side by side, 'you'll never be low when you've got a dairy.'
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'Ah, Priscilla,' said Nancy, returning the pressure with a grateful
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glance of her clear eyes, 'but it won't make up to Godfrey: a
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dairy's not so much to a man. And it's only what he cares for that
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ever makes me low. I'm contented with the blessings we have, if he
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could be contented.'
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'It drives me past patience,' said Priscilla, impetuously, 'that
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way o' the men- always wanting and wanting, and never easy with what
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they've got: they can't sit comfortable in their chairs when they've
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neither ache nor pain, but either they must stick a pipe in their
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mouths, to make 'em better than well, or else they must be
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swallowing something strong, though they're forced to make haste
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before the next meal comes in. But, joyful be it spoken, our father
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was never that sort o' man. And if it had pleased God to make you
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ugly, like me, so as the men wouldn't ha' run after you, we might have
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kept to our own family, and had nothing to do with folks as have got
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uneasy blood in their veins.'
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'Oh, don't say so, Priscilla,' said Nancy, repenting that she had
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called forth this outburst; 'nobody has any occasion to find fault
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with Godfrey. It's natural he should be disappointed at not having any
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children: every man likes to have somebody to work for and lay by for,
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and he always counted so on making a fuss with 'em when they were
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little. There's many another man 'ud hanker more than he does. He's
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the best of husbands.'
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'Oh, I know,' said Priscilla, smiling sarcastically, 'I know the
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way o' wives; they set one on to abuse their husbands, and then they
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turn round on one and praise 'em as if they wanted to sell 'em. But
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father'll be waiting for me; we must turn now.'
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The large gig with the steady old grey was at the front door, and
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Mr Lammeter was already on the stone steps, passing the time in
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recalling to Godfrey what very fine points Speckle had when his master
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used to ride him.
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'I always would have a good horse, you know,' said the old
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gentleman, not liking that spirited time to be quite effaced from
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the memory of his juniors.
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'Mind you bring Nancy to the Warrens before the week's out, Mr
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Cass,' was Priscilla's parting injunction, as she took the reins,
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and shook them gently, by way of friendly incitement to Speckle.
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'I shall just take a turn to the fields against the Stone-pits,
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Nancy, and look at the draining,' said Godfrey.
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'You'll be in again by tea-time, dear?'
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'Oh, yes, I shall be back in an hour.'
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It was Godfrey's custom on a Sunday afternoon to do a little
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contemplative farming in a leisurely walk. Nancy seldom accompanied
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him; for the women of her generation- unless like Priscilla, they took
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to outdoor management- were not given to much walking beyond their own
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house and garden, finding sufficient exercise in domestic duties.
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So, when Priscilla was not with her, she usually sat with Mant's Bible
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before her, and after following the text with her eyes for a little
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while, she would gradually permit them to wander as her thoughts had
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already insisted on wandering.
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But Nancy's Sunday thoughts were rarely quite out of keeping with
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the devout and reverential intention implied by the book spread open
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before her. She was not theologically instructed enough to discern
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very clearly the relation between the sacred documents of the past
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which she opened without method, and her own obscure, simple life; but
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the spirit of rectitude, and the sense of responsibility for the
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effect of her conduct on others, which were strong elements in Nancy's
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character, had made it a habit with her to scrutinize her past
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feelings and actions with self-questioning solicitude. Her mind not
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being courted by a great variety of subjects, she filled the vacant
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moments by living inwardly, again and again, through all her
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remembered experience, especially through the fifteen years of her
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married time, in which her life and its significance had been doubled.
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She recalled the small details, the words, tones, and looks, in the
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critical scenes which had opened a new epoch for her, by giving her
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a deeper insight into the relations and trials of life, or which had
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called on her for some little effort of forbearance, or of painful
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adherence to an imagined or real duty- asking herself continually
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whether she had been in any respect blameable. This excessive
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rumination and self-questioning is perhaps a morbid habit inevitable
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to a mind of much moral sensibility when shut out from its due share
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of outward activity and of practical claims on its affections-
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inevitable to a noble-hearted, childless woman, when her lot is
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narrow. 'I can do so little- have I done it all well?' is the
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perpetually recurring thought; and there are no voices calling her
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away from that soliloquy, no peremptory demands to divert energy
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from vain regret or superfluous scruple.
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There was one main thread of painful experience in Nancy's
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married life, and on it hung certain deeply-felt scenes, which were
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the oftenest revived in retrospect. The short dialogue with
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Priscilla in the garden had determined the current of retrospect in
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that frequent direction this particular Sunday afternoon. The first
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wandering of her thought from the text, which she still attempted
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dutifully to follow with her eyes and silent lips, was into an
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imaginary enlargement of the defence she had set up for her husband
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against Priscilla's implied blame. The vindication of the loved object
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is the best balm affection can find for its wounds: 'A man must have
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so much on his mind,' is the belief by which a wife often supports a
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cheerful face under rough answers and unfeeling words. And Nancy's
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|
deepest wounds had all come from the perception that the absence of
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children from their hearth was dwelt on in her husband's mind as a
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privation to which he could not reconcile himself.
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Yet sweet Nancy might have been expected to feel still more
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keenly the denial of a blessing to which she had looked forward with
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all the varied expectations and preparations, solemn and prettily
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trivial, which fill the mind of a loving woman when she expects to
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become a mother. Was there not a drawer filled with the neat work of
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her hands, all unworn and untouched, just as she had arranged it there
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fourteen years ago- just, but for one little dress, which had been
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made the burial-dress? But under this immediate personal trial Nancy
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was so firmly unmurmuring, that years ago she had suddenly renounced
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the habit of visiting this drawer, lest she should in this way be
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cherishing a longing for what was not given.
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Perhaps it was this very severity towards any indulgence of what
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she held to be sinful regret in herself, that made her shrink from
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applying her own standard to her husband. 'It was very different- it
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was much worse for a man to be disappointed in that way: a woman could
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always be satisfied with devoting herself to her husband, but a man
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wanted something that would make him look forward more- and sitting by
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the fire was so much duller to him than to a woman.' And always,
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when Nancy reached this point in her meditations- trying, with
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predetermined sympathy, to see everything as Godfrey saw it- there
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|
came a renewal of self-questioning. Had she done everything in her
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|
power to lighten Godfrey's privation? Had she really been right in the
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resistance which had caused her so much pain six years ago, and
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again four years ago- the resistance to her husband's wish that they
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should adopt a child? Adoption was more remote from the ideas and
|
|
habits of that time than of our own; still Nancy had her opinion on
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it. It was as necessary to her mind to have an opinion on all
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|
topics, not exclusively masculine, that had come under her notice,
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as for her to have a precisely marked place for every article of her
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personal property: and her opinions were always principles, to be
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|
unwaveringly acted on. They were firm, not because of their basis, but
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|
because she held them with a tenacity inseparable from her mental
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|
action. On all the duties and proprieties of life, from filial
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|
behaviour to the arrangement of the evening toilette, pretty Nancy
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Lammeter, by the time she was three-and-twenty, had her unalterable
|
|
little code, and had formed every one of her habits in strict
|
|
accordance with that code. She carried these decided judgments
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|
within her in the most unobtrusive way: they rooted themselves in
|
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her mind, and grew there as quietly as grass. Years ago, we know,
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she insisted on dressing like Priscilla, because 'it was right for
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sisters to dress alike', and because 'she would do what was right if
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she wore a gown dyed with cheese-colouring'. That was a trivial but
|
|
typical instance of the mode in which Nancy's life was regulated.
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It was one of those rigid principles, and no petty egoistic
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feeling, which had been the ground of Nancy's difficult resistance
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to her husband's wish. To adopt a child, because children of your
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|
own had been denied you, was to try and choose your lot in spite of
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|
Providence: the adopted child, she was convinced, would never turn out
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well, and would be a curse to those who had wilfully and
|
|
rebelliously sought what it was clear that, for some high reason, they
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|
were better without. When you saw a thing was not meant to be, said
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Nancy, it was a bounden duty to leave off so much as wishing for it.
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And so far, perhaps, the wisest of men could scarcely make more than a
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verbal improvement in her principle. But the conditions under which
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she held it apparent that a thing was not meant to be, depended on a
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|
more peculiar mode of thinking. She would have given up making a
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|
purchase at a particular place if, on three successive times, rain, or
|
|
some other cause of Heaven's sending, had formed an obstacle; and
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|
she would have anticipated a broken limb or other heavy misfortune
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|
to anyone who persisted in spite of such indications.
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'But why should you think the child would turn out ill?' said
|
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Godfrey, in his remonstrances. 'She has thriven as well as child can
|
|
do with the weaver; and he adopted her. There isn't such a pretty
|
|
little girl anywhere else in the parish, or one fitter for the station
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|
we could give her. Where can be the likelihood of her being a curse to
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|
anybody?'
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'Yes, my dear Godfrey,' said Nancy, who was sitting with her
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hands tightly clasped together, with yearning, regretful affection
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|
in her eyes. 'The child may not turn out ill with the weaver. But,
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then, he didn't go to seek her, as we should be doing. It will be
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wrong: I feel sure it will. Don't you remember what that lady we met
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at the Royston Baths told us about the child her sister adopted?
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That was the only adopting I ever heard of: and the child was
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transported when it was twenty-three. Dear Godfrey, don't ask me to do
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what I know is wrong: I should never be happy again. I know it's
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very hard for you- it's easier for me- but it's the will of
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Providence.'
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It might seem singular that Nancy- with her religious theory pieced
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|
together out of narrow social traditions, fragments of church doctrine
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|
imperfectly understood, and girlish reasonings on her small
|
|
experience- should have arrived by herself at a way of thinking so
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|
nearly akin to that of many devout people, whose beliefs are held in
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the shape of a system quite remote from her knowledge- singular, if we
|
|
did not know that human beliefs, like all other natural growths, elude
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the barriers of system.
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Godfrey had from the first specified Eppie, then about twelve years
|
|
old, as a child suitable for them to adopt. It had never occurred to
|
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him that Silas would rather part with his life than with Eppie. Surely
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the weaver would wish the best to the child he had taken so much
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|
trouble with, and would be glad that such good fortune should happen
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to her: she would always be very grateful to him, and he would be well
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|
provided for to the end of his life- provided for as the excellent
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part he had done by the child deserved. Was it not an appropriate
|
|
thing for people in a higher station to take a charge off the hands of
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a man in a lower? It seemed an eminently appropriate thing to Godfrey,
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|
for reasons that were known only to himself; and by a common
|
|
fallacy, he imagined the measure would be easy because he had
|
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private motives for desiring it. This was rather a coarse mode of
|
|
estimating Silas's relation to Eppie; but we must remember that many
|
|
of the impressions which Godfrey was likely to gather concerning the
|
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labouring people around him would favour the idea that deep affections
|
|
can hardly go along with callous palms and scant means; and he had not
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|
had the opportunity, even if he had had the power, of entering
|
|
intimately into all that was exceptional in the weaver's experience.
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|
It was only the want of adequate knowledge that could have made it
|
|
possible for Godfrey deliberately to entertain an unfeeling project:
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his natural kindness had outlived that blighting time of cruel wishes,
|
|
and Nancy's praise of him as a husband was not founded entirely on a
|
|
wilful illusion.
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'I was right,' she said to herself, when she had recalled all their
|
|
scenes of discussion- 'I feel I was right to say him nay, though it
|
|
hurt me more than anything; but how good Godfrey has been about it!
|
|
Many men would have been very angry with me for standing out again
|
|
their wishes; and they might have thrown out that they'd had
|
|
ill-luck in marrying me; but Godfrey has never been the man to say
|
|
me an unkind word. It's only what he can't hide: everything seems so
|
|
blank to him, I know; and the land- what a difference it 'ud make to
|
|
him, when he goes to see after things, if he'd children growing up
|
|
that he was doing it all for! But I won't murmur; and perhaps if
|
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he'd married a woman who'd have had children, she'd have vexed him
|
|
in other ways.'
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This possibility was Nancy's chief comfort; and to give it
|
|
greater strength, she laboured to make it impossible that any other
|
|
wife should have had more perfect tenderness. She had been forced to
|
|
vex him by that one denial. Godfrey was not insensible to her loving
|
|
effort, and did Nancy no injustice as to the motives of her obstinacy.
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|
It was impossible to have lived with her fifteen years and not be
|
|
aware that an unselfish clinging to the right, and a sincerity clear
|
|
as the flower-born dew, were her main characteristics; indeed, Godfrey
|
|
felt this so strongly, that his own more wavering nature, too averse
|
|
to facing difficulty to be unvaryingly simple and truthful, was kept
|
|
in a certain awe of this gentle wife who watched his looks with a
|
|
yearning to obey them. It seemed to him impossible that he should ever
|
|
confess to her the truth about Eppie: she would never recover from the
|
|
repulsion the story of his earlier marriage would create, told to
|
|
her now, after that long concealment. And the child, too, he
|
|
thought, must become an object of repulsion: the very sight of her
|
|
would be painful. The shock to Nancy's mingled pride and ignorance
|
|
of the world's evil might even be too much for her delicate frame.
|
|
Since he had married her with that secret on his heart he must keep it
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|
there to the last. Whatever else he did, he could not make an
|
|
irreparable breach between himself and this long-loved wife.
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|
Meanwhile, why could he not make up his mind to the absence of
|
|
children from a hearth brightened by such a wife? Why did his mind fly
|
|
uneasily to that void, as if it were the sole reason why life was
|
|
not thoroughly joyous to him? I suppose it is the way with all men and
|
|
women who reach middle age without the clear perception that life
|
|
never can be thoroughly joyous: under the vague dullness of the grey
|
|
hours, dissatisfaction seeks a definite object, and finds it in the
|
|
privation of an untried good. Dissatisfaction, seated musingly on a
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childless hearth, thinks with envy of the father whose return is
|
|
greeted by young voices- seated at the meal where the little heads
|
|
rise one above another like nursery plants, it sees a black care
|
|
hovering behind every one of them, and thinks the impulses by which
|
|
men abandon freedom, and seek for ties, are surely nothing but a brief
|
|
madness. In Godfrey's case there were further reasons why his thoughts
|
|
should be continually solicited by this one point in his lot: his
|
|
conscience, never thoroughly easy about Eppie, now gave his
|
|
childless home the aspect of a retribution; and as the time passed on,
|
|
under Nancy's refusal to adopt her, any retrieval of his error
|
|
became more and more difficult.
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|
On this Sunday afternoon it was already four years since there
|
|
had been any allusion to the subject between them, and Nancy
|
|
supposed that it was for ever buried.
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'I wonder if he'll mind it less or more as he gets older,' she
|
|
thought; 'I'm afraid more. Aged people feel the miss of children: what
|
|
would father do without Priscilla? And if I die, Godfrey will be
|
|
very lonely- not holding together with his brothers much. But I
|
|
won't be over-anxious, and trying to make things out beforehand: I
|
|
must do my best for the present.'
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With that last thought Nancy roused herself from her reverie, and
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turned her eyes again towards the forsaken page. It had been
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forsaken longer than she imagined, for she was presently surprised
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by the appearance of the servant with the tea-things. It was, in fact,
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a little before the usual time for tea; but Jane had her reasons.
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'Is your master come into the yard, Jane?'
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'No 'm, he isn't,' said Jane, with a slight emphasis, of which,
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however, her mistress took no notice.
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'I don't know whether you've seen 'em, 'm,' continued Jane, after a
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pause, 'but there's folks making haste all one way, afore the front
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window. I doubt something's happened. There's niver a man to be seen
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i' the yard, else I'd send and see. I've been up into the top attic,
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but there's no seeing anything for trees. I hope nobody's hurt, that's
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all.'
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'Oh, no, I daresay there's nothing much the matter,' said Nancy.
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'It's perhaps Mr Snell's bull got out again, as he did before.'
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'I wish he mayn't gore anybody, then, that's all,' said Jane, not
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altogether despising a hypothesis which covered a few imaginary
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calamities.
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'That girl is always terrifying me,' thought Nancy; 'I wish Godfrey
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would come in.'
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She went to the front window and looked as far as she could see
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along the road, with an uneasiness which she felt to be childish, for
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there were now no such signs of excitement as Jane had spoken of, and
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Godfrey would not be likely to return by the village road, but by the
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fields. She continued to stand, however, looking at the placid
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churchyard with the long shadows of the gravestones across the bright
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green hillocks, and at the glowing autumn colours of the Rectory trees
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beyond. Before such calm external beauty the presence of a vague fear
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is more distinctly felt- like a raven flapping its slow wing across
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the sunny air. Nancy wished more and more that Godfrey would come in.
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CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
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SOME one opened the door at the other end of the room, and Nancy
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felt that it was her husband. She turned from the window with gladness
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in her eyes, for the wife's chief dread was stilled.
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'Dear, I'm so thankful you're come,' she said, going towards him.
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'I began to get--'
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She paused abruptly, for Godfrey was laying down his hat with
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trembling hands, and turned towards her with a pale face and a strange
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unanswering glance, as if he saw her indeed, but saw her as part of
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a scene invisible to herself. She laid her hand on his arm, not daring
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to speak again; but he left the touch unnoticed, and threw himself
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into his chair.
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Jane was already at the door with the hissing urn. 'Tell her to
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keep away, will you?' said Godfrey; and when the door was closed again
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he exerted himself to speak more distinctly.
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'Sit down, Nancy- there,' he said, pointing to a chair opposite
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him. 'I came back as soon as I could, to hinder anybody's telling
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you but me. I've had a great shock- but I care most about the shock
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it'll be to you.'
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'It isn't father and Priscilla?' said Nancy, with quivering lips,
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clasping her hands together tightly on her lap.
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'No, it's nobody living,' said Godfrey, unequal to the
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considerate skill with which he would have wished to make his
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revelation. 'It's Dunstan- my brother Dunstan, that we lost sight of
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sixteen years ago. We've found him- found his body- his skeleton.'
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The deep dread Godfrey's look had created in Nancy made her feel
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these words a relief. She sat in comparative calmness to hear what
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|
else he had to tell. He went on:
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'The Stone-pit has gone dry suddenly- from the draining, I suppose;
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and there he lies- has lain for sixteen years, wedged between two
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great stones. There's his watch and seals, and there's my gold-handled
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hunting whip, with my name on: he took it away, without my knowing,
|
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the day he went hunting on Wildfire, the last time he was seen.'
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Godfrey paused: it was not so easy to say what came next. 'Do you
|
|
think he drowned himself?' said Nancy, almost wondering that her
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husband should be so deeply shaken by what had happened all those
|
|
years ago to an unloved brother, of whom worse things had been
|
|
augured.
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'No, he fell in,' said Godfrey, in a low but distinct voice, as
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if he felt some deep meaning in the fact. Presently he added: 'Dunstan
|
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was the man that robbed Silas Marner.'
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The blood rushed to Nancy's face and neck at this surprise and
|
|
shame, for she had been bred up to regard even a distant kinship
|
|
with crime as a dishonour.
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|
'Oh, Godfrey!' she said, with compassion in her tone, for she had
|
|
immediately reflected that the dishonour must be felt still more
|
|
keenly by her husband.
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'There was the money in the pit,' he continued- 'all the weaver's
|
|
money. Everything's being gathered up, and they're taking the skeleton
|
|
to the Rainbow. But I came back to tell you: there was no hindering
|
|
it; you must know.'
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|
He was silent, looking on the ground for two long minutes. Nancy
|
|
would have said some words of comfort under this disgrace, but she
|
|
refrained, from an instinctive sense that there was something
|
|
behind- that Godfrey had something else to tell her. Presently he
|
|
lifted his eyes to her face, and kept them fixed on her, as he said:
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|
|
'Everything comes to light, Nancy, sooner or later. When God
|
|
Almighty wills it, our secrets are found out. I've lived with a secret
|
|
on my mind, but I'll keep it from you no longer. I wouldn't have you
|
|
know it by somebody else, and not by me- I wouldn't have you find it
|
|
out after I'm dead. I'll tell you now. It's been "I will" and "I
|
|
won't" with me all my life- I'll make sure of myself now.'
|
|
|
|
Nancy's utmost dread had returned. The eyes of the husband and wife
|
|
met with awe in them, as at a crisis which suspended affection.
|
|
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|
'Nancy,' said Godfrey, slowly, 'when I married you, I hid something
|
|
from you- something I ought to have told you. That woman Marner
|
|
found dead in the snow- Eppie's mother- that wretched woman- was my
|
|
wife: Eppie is my child.'
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|
|
|
He paused, dreading the effect of his confession. But Nancy sat
|
|
quite still, only that her eyes dropped and ceased to meet his. She
|
|
was pale and quiet as a meditative statue, clasping her hands on her
|
|
lap.
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|
|
|
'You'll never think the same of me again,' said Godfrey, after a
|
|
little while, with some tremor in his voice.
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|
|
She was silent.
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|
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|
'I oughtn't to have left the child unowned: I oughtn't to have kept
|
|
it from you. But I couldn't bear to give you up, Nancy. I was led away
|
|
into marrying her- I suffered for it.'
|
|
|
|
Still Nancy was silent, looking down; and he almost expected that
|
|
she would presently get up and say she would go to her father's. How
|
|
could she have any mercy for faults that must seem so black to her,
|
|
with her simple, severe notions?
|
|
|
|
But at last she lifted up her eyes to his again and spoke. There
|
|
was no indignation in her voice- only deep regret.
|
|
|
|
'Godfrey, if you had but told me this six years ago, we could
|
|
have done some of our duty by the child. Do you think I'd have refused
|
|
to take her in, if I'd known she was yours?'
|
|
|
|
At that moment Godfrey felt all the bitterness of an error that was
|
|
not simply futile, but had defeated its own end. He had not measured
|
|
this wife with whom he had lived so long. But she spoke again, with
|
|
more agitation.
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|
|
|
'And- Oh, Godfrey- if we'd had her from the first, if you'd taken
|
|
to her as you ought, she'd have loved me for her mother- and you'd
|
|
have been happier with me: I could better have bore my little baby
|
|
dying, and our life might have been more like what we used to think it
|
|
'ud be.'
|
|
|
|
The tears fell, and Nancy ceased to speak.
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|
|
|
'But you wouldn't have married me then, Nancy, if I'd told you,'
|
|
said Godfrey, urged, in the bitterness of his self-reproach, to
|
|
prove to himself that his conduct had not been utter folly. 'You may
|
|
think you would now, but you wouldn't then. With your pride and your
|
|
father's, you'd have hated having anything to do with me after the
|
|
talk there'd have been.'
|
|
|
|
'I can't say what I should have done about that, Godfrey. I
|
|
should never have married anybody else. But I wasn't worth doing wrong
|
|
for- nothing is in this world. Nothing is so good as it seems
|
|
beforehand- not even our marrying wasn't, you see.' There was a
|
|
faint sad smile on Nancy's face as she said the last words.
|
|
|
|
'I'm a worse man than you thought I was, Nancy,' said Godfrey,
|
|
rather tremulously. 'Can you forgive me ever?'
|
|
|
|
'The wrong to me is but little, Godfrey: you've made it up to me-
|
|
you've been good to me for fifteen years. It's another you did the
|
|
wrong to; and I doubt it can never be all made up for.'
|
|
|
|
'But we can take Eppie now,' said Godfrey. 'I won't mind the
|
|
world knowing at last. I'll be plain and open for the rest o' my
|
|
life.'
|
|
|
|
'It'll be different coming to us, now she's grown up,' said
|
|
Nancy, shaking her head sadly. 'But it's your duty to acknowledge
|
|
her and provide for her; and I'll do my part by her, and pray to God
|
|
Almighty to make her love me.'
|
|
|
|
'Then we'll go together to Silas Marner's this very night, as
|
|
soon as everything's quiet at the Stone-pits.'
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER NINETEEN
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|
|
|
BETWEEN eight and nine o'clock that evening, Eppie and Silas were
|
|
seated alone in the cottage. After the great excitement the weaver had
|
|
undergone from the events of the afternoon, he had felt a longing
|
|
for this quietude, and had even begged Mrs Winthrop and Aaron, who had
|
|
naturally lingered behind everyone else, to leave him alone with his
|
|
child. The excitement had not passed away: it had only reached that
|
|
stage when the keenness of the susceptibility makes external
|
|
stimulus intolerable- when there is no sense of weariness, but
|
|
rather an intensity of inward life, under which sleep is an
|
|
impossibility. Anyone who has watched such moments in other men
|
|
remembers the brightness of the eyes and the strange definiteness that
|
|
comes over coarse features from that transient influence. It is as
|
|
if a new fineness of ear for all spiritual voices had sent
|
|
wonder-working vibrations through the heavy mortal frame- as if
|
|
'beauty born of murmuring sound' had passed into the face of the
|
|
listener.
|
|
|
|
Silas's face showed that sort of transfiguration, as he sat in
|
|
his arm-chair and looked at Eppie. She had drawn her own chair towards
|
|
his knees, and leaned forward, holding both his hands, while she
|
|
looked up at him. On the table near them, lit by a candle, lay the
|
|
recovered gold- the old long-loved gold, ranged in orderly heaps, as
|
|
Silas used to range it in the days when it was his only joy. He had
|
|
been telling her how he used to count it every night, and how his soul
|
|
was utterly desolate till she was sent to him.
|
|
|
|
'At first, I'd a sort o' feeling come across me now and then,' he
|
|
was saying in a subdued tone, 'as if you might be changed into the
|
|
gold again; for sometimes, turn my head which way I would, I seemed to
|
|
see the gold; and I thought I should be glad if I could feel it, and
|
|
find it was come back. But that didn't last long. After a bit, I
|
|
should have thought it was a curse come again, if it had drove you
|
|
from me, for I'd got to feel the need o' your looks and your voice and
|
|
the touch o' your little fingers. You didn't know then, Eppie, when
|
|
you were such a little un- you didn't know what your old father
|
|
Silas felt for you.'
|
|
|
|
'But I know now, father,' said Eppie. 'If it hadn't been for you,
|
|
they'd have taken me to the workhouse, and there'd have been nobody to
|
|
love me.'
|
|
|
|
'Eh, my precious child, the blessing was mine. If you hadn't been
|
|
sent to save me, I should ha' gone to the grave in my misery. The
|
|
money was taken away from me in time; and you see it's been kept- kept
|
|
till it was wanted for you. It's wonderful- our life is wonderful.'
|
|
|
|
Silas sat in silence a few minutes, looking at the money. 'It takes
|
|
no hold of me now,' he said, ponderingly- 'the money doesn't. I wonder
|
|
if it ever could again- I doubt it might, if I lost you, Eppie. I
|
|
might come to think I was forsaken again, and lose the feeling that
|
|
God was good to me.'
|
|
|
|
At that moment there was a knocking at the door; and Eppie was
|
|
obliged to rise without answering Silas. Beautiful she looked, with
|
|
the tenderness of gathering tears in her eyes and a slight flush on
|
|
her cheeks, as she stepped to open the door. The flush deepened when
|
|
she saw Mr and Mrs Godfrey Cass. She made her little rustic curtsy,
|
|
and held the door wide for them to enter.
|
|
|
|
'We're disturbing you very late, my dear,' said Mrs Cass, taking
|
|
Eppie's hand, and looking in her face with an expression of anxious
|
|
interest and admiration. Nancy herself was pale and tremulous.
|
|
Eppie, after placing chairs for Mr and Mrs Cass, went to stand against
|
|
Silas, opposite to them.
|
|
|
|
'Well, Marner,' said Godfrey, trying to speak with perfect
|
|
firmness, 'it's a great comfort to me to see you with your money
|
|
again, that you've been deprived of so many years. It was one of my
|
|
family did you the wrong- the more grief to me- and I feel bound to
|
|
make up to you for it in every way. Whatever I can do for you will
|
|
be nothing but paying a debt, even if I looked no farther than the
|
|
robbery. But there are other things I'm beholden- shall be beholden to
|
|
you for, Marner.'
|
|
|
|
Godfrey checked himself. It had been agreed between him and his
|
|
wife that the subject of his fatherhood should be approached very
|
|
carefully, and that, if possible, the disclosure should be reserved
|
|
for the future, so that it might be made to Eppie gradually. Nancy had
|
|
urged this, because she felt strongly the painful light in which Eppie
|
|
must inevitably see the relation between her father and mother.
|
|
|
|
Silas, always ill at ease when he was being spoken to by 'betters',
|
|
such as Mr Cass- tall, powerful, florid men, seen chiefly on
|
|
horseback- answered with some constraint:
|
|
|
|
'Sir, I've a deal to thank you for a'ready. As for the robbery, I
|
|
count it no loss to me. And if I did, you couldn't help it: you aren't
|
|
answerable for it.'
|
|
|
|
'You may look at it in that way, Marner, but I never can; and I hope
|
|
you'll let me act according to my own feeling of what's just. I know
|
|
you're easily contented: you've been a hard-working man all your
|
|
life.'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, sir, yes,' said Marner, meditatively. 'I should ha' been
|
|
bad off without my work: it was what I held by when everything else
|
|
was gone from me.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah,' said Godfrey, applying Marner's words simply to his bodily
|
|
wants, 'it was a good trade for you in this country, because there's
|
|
been a great deal of linen-weaving to be done. But you're getting
|
|
rather past such close work, Marner: it's time you laid by and had
|
|
some rest. You look a good deal pulled down, though you're not an
|
|
old man, are you?'
|
|
|
|
'Fifty-five, as near as I can say, sir,' said Silas.
|
|
|
|
'Oh, why, you may live thirty years longer- look at old Macey!
|
|
And that money on the table, after all, is but little. It won't go far
|
|
either way- whether it's put out to interest, or you were to live on
|
|
it as long as it would last: it wouldn't go far if you'd nobody to
|
|
keep but yourself, and you've had two to keep for a good many years
|
|
now.'
|
|
|
|
'Eh, sir,' said Silas, unaffected by anything Godfrey was saying,
|
|
'I'm in no fear o' want. We shall do very well- Eppie and me 'ull do
|
|
well enough. There's few working-folks have got so much laid by as
|
|
that. I don't know what it is to gentlefolks, but I look upon it as
|
|
a deal- almost too much. And as for us, it's little we want.'
|
|
|
|
'Only the garden, father,' said Eppie, blushing up to the ears
|
|
the moment after.
|
|
|
|
'You love a garden, do you, my dear?' said Nancy, thinking that
|
|
this turn in the point of view might help her husband. 'We should
|
|
agree in that: I give a deal of time to the garden.'
|
|
|
|
'Ah, there's plenty of gardening at the Red House,' said Godfrey,
|
|
surprised at the difficulty he found in approaching a proposition
|
|
which had seemed so easy to him in the distance. 'You've done a good
|
|
part by Eppie, Marner, for sixteen years. It 'ud be a great comfort to
|
|
you to see her well provided for, wouldn't it? She looks blooming
|
|
and healthy, but not fit for any hardships: she doesn't look like a
|
|
strapping girl come of working parents. You'd like to see her taken
|
|
care of by those who can leave her well off, and make a lady of her;
|
|
she's more fit for it than for a rough life, such as she might come to
|
|
have in a few years' time.'
|
|
|
|
A slight flush came over Marner's face, and disappeared, like a
|
|
passing gleam. Eppie was simply wondering Mr Cass should talk so about
|
|
things that seemed to have nothing to do with reality; but Silas was
|
|
hurt and uneasy.
|
|
|
|
'I don't take your meaning, sir,' he answered, not having words
|
|
at command to express the mingled feelings with which he had heard
|
|
Mr Cass's words.
|
|
|
|
'Well, my meaning is this, Marner,' said Godfrey, determined to
|
|
come to the point. 'Mrs Cass and I, you know, have no children- nobody
|
|
to benefit by our good home and everything else we have- more than
|
|
enough for ourselves. And we should like to have somebody in the place
|
|
of a daughter to us- we should like to have Eppie, and treat her in
|
|
every way as our own child. It would be a great comfort to you in your
|
|
old age, I hope, to see her fortune made in that way, after you have
|
|
been at the trouble of bringing her up so well. And it's right you
|
|
should have every reward for that. And Eppie, I'm sure, will always
|
|
love you and be grateful to you: she'd come and see you very often,
|
|
and we should all be on the look-out to do everything as we could
|
|
towards making you comfortable.'
|
|
|
|
A plain man like Godfrey Cass, speaking under some embarrassment,
|
|
necessarily blunders on words that are coarser than his intentions,
|
|
and that are likely to fall gratingly on susceptible feelings. While
|
|
he had been speaking, Eppie had quietly passed her arm behind
|
|
Silas's head, and let her hand rest against it caressingly: she felt
|
|
him trembling violently. He was silent for some moments when Mr Cass
|
|
had ended- powerless under the conflict of emotions, all alike
|
|
painful. Eppie's heart was swelling at the sense that her father was
|
|
in distress; and she was just going to lean down and speak to him,
|
|
when one struggling dread at last gained the mastery over every
|
|
other in Silas, and he said, faintly:
|
|
|
|
'Eppie, my child, speak. I won't stand in your way. Thank Mr and
|
|
Mrs Cass.'
|
|
|
|
Eppie took her hand from her father's head, and came forward a
|
|
step. Her cheeks were flushed, but not with shyness this time: the
|
|
sense that her father was in doubt and suffering banished that sort of
|
|
self-consciousness. She dropped a low curtsy, first to Mrs Cass and
|
|
then to Mr Cass, and said:
|
|
|
|
'Thank you, ma'am- thank you, sir. But I can't leave my father, nor
|
|
own anybody nearer than him. And I don't want to be a lady- thank
|
|
you all the same' (here Eppie dropped another curtsy). 'I couldn't
|
|
give up the folks I've been used to.'
|
|
|
|
Eppie's lips began to tremble a little at the last words. She
|
|
retreated to her father's chair again, and held him round the neck;
|
|
while Silas, with a subdued sob, put up his hand to grasp hers.
|
|
|
|
The tears were in Nancy's eyes, but her sympathy with Eppie was,
|
|
naturally, divided with distress on her husband's account. She dared
|
|
not speak, wondering what was going on in her husband's mind.
|
|
|
|
Godfrey felt an irritation inevitable to almost all of us when we
|
|
encounter an unexpected obstacle. He had been full of his own
|
|
penitence and resolution to retrieve his error as far as the time
|
|
was left to him; he was possessed with all-important feelings, that
|
|
were to lead to a predetermined course of action which he had fixed on
|
|
as the right, and he was not prepared to enter with lively
|
|
appreciation into other people's feelings counteracting his virtuous
|
|
resolves. The agitation with which he spoke again was not quite
|
|
unmixed with anger.
|
|
|
|
'But I have a claim on you, Eppie- the strongest of all claims.
|
|
It is my duty, Marner, to own Eppie as my child, and provide for
|
|
her. She is my own child- her mother was my wife. I have a natural
|
|
claim on her that must stand before every other.'
|
|
|
|
Eppie had given a violent start, and turned quite pale. Silas, on
|
|
the contrary, who had been relieved, by Eppie's answer, from the dread
|
|
lest his mind should be in opposition to hers, felt the spirit of
|
|
resistance in him set free, not without a touch of parental
|
|
fierceness. 'Then, sir,' he answered, with an accent of bitterness
|
|
that had been silent in him since the memorable day when his
|
|
youthful hope had perished- 'then, sir, why didn't you say so
|
|
sixteen years ago, and claim her before I'd come to love her,
|
|
i'stead o' coming to take her from me now, when you might as well take
|
|
the heart out o' my body? God gave her to me because you turned your
|
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back upon her, and He looks upon her as mine: you've no right to
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her! When a man turns a blessing from his door, it falls to them as
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take it in.'
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'I know that, Marner. I was wrong. I've repented of my conduct in
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that matter,' said Godfrey, who could not help feeling the edge of
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Silas's words.
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'I'm glad to hear it, sir,' said Marner, with gathering excitement;
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'but repentance doesn't alter what's been going on for sixteen year.
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Your coming now and saying "I'm her father" doesn't alter the feelings
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inside us. It's me she's been calling her father ever since she
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could say the word.'
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'But I think you might look at the thing more reasonably,
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Marner,' said Godfrey, unexpectedly awed by the weaver's direct
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truth-speaking. 'It isn't as if she was to be taken quite away from
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you, so that you'd never see her again. She'll be very near you, and
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come to see you very often. She'll feel just the same towards you.'
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'Just the same?' said Marner, more bitterly than ever. 'How'll
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she feel just the same for me as she does now, when we eat o' the same
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bit, and drink o' the same cup, and think of the same things from
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one day's end to another? Just the same? that's idle talk. You'd cut
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us i' two.'
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Godfrey, unqualified by experience to discern the pregnancy of
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Marner's simple words, felt rather angry again. It seemed to him
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that the weaver was very selfish (a judgment readily passed by those
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who have never tested their own power of sacrifice) to oppose what was
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undoubtedly for Eppie's welfare; and he felt himself called upon,
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for her sake, to assert his authority.
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'I should have thought, Marner,' he said, severely- 'I should
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have thought your affection for Eppie would have made you rejoice in
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what was for her good, even if it did call upon you to give up
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something. You ought to remember that your own life is uncertain,
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and that she's at an age now when her lot may soon be fixed in a way
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very different from what it would be in her father's home: she may
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marry some low working-man, and then, whatever I might do for her, I
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couldn't make her well-off. You're putting yourself in the way of
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her welfare; and though I'm sorry to hurt you after what you've
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done, and what I've left undone, I feel now it's my duty to insist
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on taking care of my own daughter. I want to do my duty.'
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It would be difficult to say whether it were Silas or Eppie that
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was most deeply stirred by this last speech of Godfrey's. Thought
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had been very busy in Eppie as she listened to the contest between her
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old long-loved father and this new unfamiliar father who had
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suddenly come to fill the place of that black featureless shadow which
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had held the ring and placed it on her mother's finger. Her
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imagination had darted backward in conjectures, and forward in
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previsions, of what this revealed fatherhood implied; and there were
|
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words in Godfrey's last speech which helped to make the previsions
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especially definite. Not that these thoughts, either of past or
|
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future, determined her resolution- that was determined by the feelings
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which vibrated to every word Silas had uttered; but they raised,
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even apart from these feelings, a repulsion towards the offered lot
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and the newly-revealed father.
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Silas, on the other hand, was again stricken in conscience, and
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alarmed lest Godfrey's accusation should be true- lest he should be
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raising his own will as an obstacle to Eppie's good. For many
|
|
moments he was mute, struggling for the self-conquest necessary to the
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uttering of the difficult words. They came out tremulously.
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'I'll say no more. Let it be as you will. Speak to the child.
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I'll hinder nothing.'
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Even Nancy, with all the acute sensibility of her own affections,
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shared her husband's view, that Marner was not justifiable in his wish
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to retain Eppie, after her real father had avowed himself. She felt
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|
that it was a very hard trial for the poor weaver, but her code
|
|
allowed no question that a father by blood must have a claim above
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|
that of any foster-father. Besides, Nancy, used all her life to
|
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plenteous circumstances and the privileges of 'respectability',
|
|
could not enter into the pleasures which early nurture and habit
|
|
connect with all the little aims and efforts of the poor who are
|
|
born poor: to her mind, Eppie, in being restored to her birthright,
|
|
was entering on a too long withheld but unquestionable good. Hence she
|
|
heard Silas's last words with relief, and thought, as Godfrey did,
|
|
that their wish was achieved.
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|
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|
'Eppie, my dear,' said Godfrey, looking at his daughter, not
|
|
without some embarrassment, under the sense that she was old enough to
|
|
judge him, 'it'll always be our wish that you should show your love
|
|
and gratitude to one who's been a father to you so many years, and
|
|
we shall want to help you to make him comfortable in every way. But we
|
|
hope you'll come to love us as well; and though I haven't been what
|
|
a father should have been to you all these years, I wish to do the
|
|
utmost in my power for you for the rest of my life, and provide for
|
|
you as my only child. And you'll have the best of mothers in my
|
|
wife- that'll be a blessing you haven't known since you were old
|
|
enough to know it.'
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|
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|
'My dear, you'll be a treasure to me,' said Nancy, in her gentle
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|
voice. 'We shall want for nothing when we have our daughter.'
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|
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|
Eppie did not come forward and curtsy, as she had done before.
|
|
She held Silas's hand in hers, and grasped it firmly- it was a
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|
weaver's hand, with a palm and finger-tips that were sensitive to such
|
|
pressure- while she spoke with colder decision than before.
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|
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|
'Thank you, ma'am- thank you, sir, for your offers- they're very
|
|
great, and far above my wish. For I should have no delight in life any
|
|
more if I was forced to go away from my father, and knew he was
|
|
sitting at home, a-thinking of me and feeling lone. We've been used to
|
|
be happy together every day, and I can't think o' no happiness without
|
|
him. And he says he'd nobody i' the world till I was sent to him,
|
|
and he'd have nothing when I was gone. And he's took care of me and
|
|
loved me from the first, and I'll cleave to him as long as he lives,
|
|
and nobody shall ever come between him and me.'
|
|
|
|
'But you must make sure, Eppie,' said Silas, in a low voice- 'you
|
|
must make sure as you won't ever be sorry, because you've made your
|
|
choice to stay among poor folks, and with poor clothes and things,
|
|
when you might ha' had everything o' the best.'
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|
|
|
His sensitiveness on this point had increased as he listened to
|
|
Eppie's words of faithful affection.
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|
|
|
'I can never be sorry, father,' said Eppie. 'I shouldn't know
|
|
what to think on or to wish for with fine things about me, as I
|
|
haven't been used to. And it 'ud be poor work for me to put on things,
|
|
and ride in a gig, and sit in a place at church, as 'ud make them as
|
|
I'm fond of think me unfitting company for 'em. What could I care
|
|
for then?'
|
|
|
|
Nancy looked at Godfrey with a pained questioning glance. But his
|
|
eyes were fixed on the floor, where he was moving the end of his
|
|
stick, as if he were pondering on something absently. She thought
|
|
there was a word which might perhaps come better from her lips than
|
|
from his.
|
|
|
|
'What you say is natural, my dear child- it's natural you should
|
|
cling to those who've brought you up,' she said, mildly; 'but
|
|
there's a duty you owe to your lawful father. There's perhaps
|
|
something to be given up on more sides than one. When your father
|
|
opens his home to you, I think it's right you shouldn't turn your back
|
|
on it.'
|
|
|
|
'I can't feel as I've got any father but one,' said Eppie,
|
|
impetuously, while the tears gathered. 'I've always thought of a
|
|
little home where he'd sit i' the corner, and I should fend and do
|
|
everything for him: I can't think o' no other home. I wasn't brought
|
|
up to be a lady, and I can't turn my mind to it. I like the working
|
|
folks, and their houses, and their ways. And,' she ended passionately,
|
|
while the tears fell, 'I'm promised to marry a working man, as'll live
|
|
with father, and help me to take care of him.'
|
|
|
|
Godfrey looked up at Nancy with a flushed face and a smarting
|
|
dilation of the eyes. This frustration of a purpose towards which he
|
|
had set out under the exalted consciousness that he was about to
|
|
compensate in some degree for the greatest demerit of his life, made
|
|
him feel the air of the room stifling.
|
|
|
|
'Let us go,' he said, in an undertone.
|
|
|
|
'We won't talk of this any longer now,' said Nancy, rising.
|
|
'We're your well-wishers, my dear- and yours too, Marner. We shall
|
|
come and see you again. It's getting late now.'
|
|
|
|
In this way she covered her husband's abrupt departure, for Godfrey
|
|
had gone straight to the door, unable to say more.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER TWENTY
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|
|
|
NANCY and Godfrey walked home under the starlight in silence. When
|
|
they entered the oaken parlour, Godfrey threw himself into his
|
|
chair, while Nancy laid down her bonnet and shawl, and stood on the
|
|
hearth near her husband, unwilling to leave him even for a few
|
|
minutes, and yet fearing to utter any word lest it might jar on his
|
|
feeling. At last Godfrey turned his head towards her, and their eyes
|
|
met, dwelling in that meeting without any movement on either side.
|
|
That quiet mutual gaze of a trusting husband and wife is like the
|
|
first moment of rest or refuge from a great weariness or a great
|
|
danger- not to be interfered with by speech or action which would
|
|
distract the sensations from the fresh enjoyment of repose.
|
|
|
|
But presently he put out his hand, and as Nancy placed hers
|
|
within it, he drew her towards him, and said:
|
|
|
|
'That's ended!'
|
|
|
|
She bent to kiss him, and then said, as she stood by his side,
|
|
'Yes, I'm afraid we must give up the hope of having her for a
|
|
daughter. It wouldn't be right to want to force her to come to us
|
|
against her will. We can't alter her bringing up and what's come of
|
|
it.'
|
|
|
|
'No,' said Godfrey, with a keen decisiveness of tone, in contrast
|
|
with his usually careless and unemphatic speech- 'there's debts we
|
|
can't pay like money debts, by paying extra for the years that have
|
|
slipped by. While I've been putting off, and putting off, the trees
|
|
have been growing- it's too late now. Marner was in the right in
|
|
what he said about a man's turning away a blessing from his door: it
|
|
falls to somebody else. I wanted to pass for childless once, Nancy-
|
|
I shall pass for childless now against my wish.'
|
|
|
|
Nancy did not speak immediately, but after a little while she
|
|
asked- 'You won't make it known, then, about Eppie's being your
|
|
daughter?'
|
|
|
|
'No- where would be the good to anybody?- only harm. I must do what
|
|
I can for her in the state of life she chooses. I must see who it is
|
|
she's thinking of marrying.'
|
|
|
|
'If it won't do any good to make the thing known,' said Nancy,
|
|
who thought she might now allow herself the relief of entertaining a
|
|
feeling which she had tried to silence before, 'I should be very
|
|
thankful for father and Priscilla never to be troubled with knowing
|
|
what was done in the past, more than about Dunsey: it can't be helped,
|
|
their knowing that.'
|
|
|
|
'I shall put it in my will- I think I shall put it in my will. I
|
|
shouldn't like to leave anything to be found out, like this of
|
|
Dunsey,' said Godfrey, meditatively. 'But I can't see anything but
|
|
difficulties that 'ud come from telling it now. I must do what I can
|
|
to make her happy in her own way. I've a notion,' he added after a
|
|
moment's pause, 'it's Aaron Winthrop she meant she was engaged to. I
|
|
remember seeing him with her and Marner going away from church.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, he's very sober and industrious,' said Nancy, trying to view
|
|
the matter as cheerfully as possible.
|
|
|
|
Godfrey fell into thoughtfulness again. Presently he looked up at
|
|
Nancy sorrowfully, and said:
|
|
|
|
'She's a very pretty, nice girl, isn't she, Nancy?'
|
|
|
|
'Yes, dear; and with just your hair and eyes: I wondered it had
|
|
never struck me before.'
|
|
|
|
'I think she took a dislike to me at the thought of my being her
|
|
father: I could see a change in her manner after that.'
|
|
|
|
'She couldn't bear to think of not looking on Marner as her
|
|
father,' said Nancy, not wishing to confirm her husband's painful
|
|
impression.
|
|
|
|
'She thinks I did wrong by her mother as well as by her. She thinks
|
|
me worse than I am. But she must think it: she can never know all.
|
|
It's part of my punishment, Nancy, for my daughter to dislike me. I
|
|
should never have got into that trouble if I'd been true to you- if
|
|
I hadn't been a fool. I'd no right to expect anything but evil could
|
|
come of that marriage- and when I shirked doing a father's part too.'
|
|
|
|
Nancy was silent: her spirit of rectitude would not let her try
|
|
to soften the edge of what she felt to be a just compunction. He spoke
|
|
again after a little while, but the tone was rather changed: there was
|
|
tenderness mingled with the previous self-reproach.
|
|
|
|
'And I got you, Nancy, in spite of all; and yet I've been grumbling
|
|
and uneasy because I hadn't something else- as if I deserved it.'
|
|
|
|
'You've never been wanting to me, Godfrey,' said Nancy, with
|
|
quiet sincerity. 'My only trouble would be gone if you resigned
|
|
yourself to the lot that's been given us.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, perhaps, it isn't too late to mend a bit there. Though it is
|
|
too late to mend some things, say what they will.'
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
|
|
|
|
THE next morning, when Silas and Eppie were seated at their breakfast,
|
|
he said to her:
|
|
|
|
'Eppie, there's a thing I've had on my mind to do this two year,
|
|
and now the money's been brought back to us, we can do it. I've been
|
|
turning it over and over in the night, and I think we'll set out
|
|
tomorrow, while the fine days last. We'll leave the house and
|
|
everything for your godmother to take care on, and we'll make a little
|
|
bundle o' things and set out.'
|
|
|
|
'Where to go, daddy?' said Eppie, in much surprise.
|
|
|
|
'To my old country- to the town where I was born- up Lantern
|
|
Yard. I want to see Mr Paston, the minister: something may ha' come
|
|
out to make 'em know I was innicent o' the robbery. And Mr Paston
|
|
was a man with a deal o' light- I want to speak to him about the
|
|
drawing o' the lots. And I should like to talk to him about the
|
|
religion o' this country-side, for I partly think he doesn't know on
|
|
it.'
|
|
|
|
Eppie was very joyful, for there was the prospect not only of
|
|
wonder and delight at seeing a strange country, but also of coming
|
|
back to tell Aaron all about it. Aaron was so much wiser than she
|
|
was about most things- it would be rather pleasant to have this little
|
|
advantage over him. Mrs Winthrop, though possessed with a dim fear
|
|
of dangers attendant on so long a journey, and requiring many
|
|
assurances that it would not take them out of the region of
|
|
carrier's carts and slow waggons, was nevertheless well pleased that
|
|
Silas should revisit his own country, and find out if he had been
|
|
cleared from that false accusation.
|
|
|
|
'You'd be easier in your mind for the rest o' your life, Master
|
|
Marner,' said Dolly- 'that you would. And if there's any light to be
|
|
got up the yard as you talk on, we've need of it i' this world, and
|
|
I'd be glad on it myself, if you could bring it back.'
|
|
|
|
So, on the fourth day from that time, Silas and Eppie, in their
|
|
Sunday clothes, with a small bundle tied in a blue linen handkerchief,
|
|
were making their way through the streets of a great manufacturing
|
|
town. Silas, bewildered by the changes thirty years had brought over
|
|
his native place, had stopped several persons in succession to ask
|
|
them the name of this town, that he might be sure he was not under a
|
|
mistake about it.
|
|
|
|
'Ask for Lantern Yard, father- ask this gentleman with the
|
|
tassels on his shoulders a-standing at the shop-door; he isn't in a
|
|
hurry like the rest,' said Eppie, in some distress at her father's
|
|
bewilderment, and ill at ease, besides, amidst the noise, the
|
|
movement, and the multitude of strange indifferent faces.
|
|
|
|
'Eh, my child, he won't know anything about it,' said Silas;
|
|
'gentlefolks didn't ever go up the Yard. But happen somebody can
|
|
tell me which is the way to Prison Street, where the jail is. I know
|
|
the way out o' that as if I'd seen it yesterday.'
|
|
|
|
With some difficulty, after many turnings and new inquiries, they
|
|
reached Prison Street: and the grim walls of the jail, the first
|
|
object that answered to any image in Silas's memory, cheered him
|
|
with the certitude, which no assurance of the town's name had hitherto
|
|
given him, that he was in his native place.
|
|
|
|
'Ah,' he said, drawing a long breath, 'there's the jail, Eppie;
|
|
that's just the same: I arn't afraid now. It's the third turning on
|
|
the left hand from the jail doors, that's the way we must go.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, what a dark ugly place!' said Eppie. 'How it hides the sky!
|
|
It's worse than the Workhouse. I'm glad you don't live in this town
|
|
now, father. Is Lantern Yard like this street?'
|
|
|
|
'My precious child,' said Silas, smiling, 'it isn't a big street
|
|
like this. I never was easy i' this street myself, but I was fond o'
|
|
Lantern Yard. The shops here are all altered, I think- I can't make
|
|
'em out; but I shall know the turning, because it's the third.'
|
|
|
|
'Here it is,' he said, in a tone of satisfaction, as they came to a
|
|
narrow alley. 'And then we must go to the left again, and then
|
|
straight for'ard for a bit, up Shoe Lane; and then we shall be at
|
|
the entry next to the o'erhanging window, where there's the nick in
|
|
the road for the water to run. Eh, I can see it all.'
|
|
|
|
'Oh, father, I'm like as if I was stifled,' said Eppie. 'I couldn't
|
|
have thought as any folks lived i' this way, so close together. How
|
|
pretty the Stone-pits 'ull look when we get back!
|
|
|
|
'It looks comical to me, child, now- and smells bad. I can't
|
|
think as it usened to smell so.'
|
|
|
|
Here and there a sallow, begrimed face looked out from a gloomy
|
|
doorway at the strangers, and increased Eppie's uneasiness, so that it
|
|
was a longed-for relief when they issued from the alleys into Shoe
|
|
Lane, where there was a broader strip of sky.
|
|
|
|
'Dear heart!' said Silas, 'why, there's people coming out o' the
|
|
Yard as if they'd been to chapel at this time o' day- a weekday noon!'
|
|
|
|
Suddenly he started and stood still with a look of distressed
|
|
amazement, that alarmed Eppie. They were before an opening in front of
|
|
a large factory, from which men and women were streaming for their
|
|
midday meal.
|
|
|
|
'Father,' said Eppie, clasping his arm, 'what's the matter?'
|
|
|
|
But she had to speak again and again before Silas could answer her.
|
|
|
|
'It's gone, child,' he said, at last, in strong agitation- 'Lantern
|
|
Yard's gone. It must ha' been here, because here's the house with
|
|
the o'erhanging window- I know that- it's just the same; but they've
|
|
made this new opening; and see that big factory! It's all gone- chapel
|
|
and all.'
|
|
|
|
'Come into that little brush-shop and sit down, father- they'll let
|
|
you sit down,' said Eppie, always on the watch lest one of her
|
|
father's strange attacks should come on. 'Perhaps the people can
|
|
tell you all about it.'
|
|
|
|
But neither from the brush-maker, who had come to Shoe Lane only
|
|
ten years ago, when the factory was already built, nor from any
|
|
other source within his reach, could Silas learn anything of the old
|
|
Lantern Yard friends, or of Mr Paston, the minister.
|
|
|
|
'The old place is all swep' away,' Silas said to Dolly Winthrop
|
|
on the night of his return- 'the little graveyard and everything.
|
|
The old home's gone; I've no home but this now. I shall never know
|
|
whether they got at the truth o' the robbery, nor whether Mr Paston
|
|
could ha' given me any light about the drawing o' the lots. It's
|
|
dark to me, Mrs Winthrop, that is; I doubt it'll be dark to the last.'
|
|
|
|
'Well, yes, Master Marner,' said Dolly, who sat with a placid
|
|
listening face, now bordered by grey hairs; 'I doubt it may. It's
|
|
the will o' Them above as a many things should be dark to us; but
|
|
there's some things as I've never felt i' the dark about, and
|
|
they're mostly what comes i' the day's work. You were hard done by
|
|
that once, Master Marner, and it seems as you'll never know the rights
|
|
of it; but that doesn't hinder there being a rights, Master Marner,
|
|
for all it's dark to you and me.'
|
|
|
|
'No,' said Silas, 'no; that doesn't hinder. Since the time the
|
|
child was sent to me and I've come to love her as myself, I've had
|
|
light enough to trusten by; and, now she says she'll never leave me, I
|
|
think I shall trusten till I die.'
|
|
CONCLUSION
|
|
|
|
CONCLUSION
|
|
|
|
THERE was one time of the year which was held in Raveloe to be
|
|
especially suitable for a wedding. It was when the great lilacs and
|
|
laburnums in the old-fashioned gardens showed their purple and
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golden wealth above the lichen-tinted walls, and when there were
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calves still young enough to want bucketfuls of fragrant milk.
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People were not so busy then as they must become when the full
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cheese-making and the mowing had set in; and besides, it was a time
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when a light bridal dress could be worn with comfort and seen to
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advantage.
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Happily the sunshine fell more warmly than usual on the lilac tufts
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the morning that Eppie was married, for her dress was a very light
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one. She had often thought, though with a feeling of renunciation,
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that the perfection of a wedding-dress would be a white cotton, with
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the tiniest pink sprig at wide intervals; so that when Mrs Godfrey
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Cass begged to provide one, and asked Eppie to choose what it should
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be, previous meditation had enabled her to give a decided answer at
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once.
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Seen at a little distance as she walked across the churchyard and
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down the village, she seemed to be attired in pure white, and her hair
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looked like the dash of gold on a lily. One hand was on her
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husband's arm, and with the other she clasped the hand of her father
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Silas.
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'You won't be giving me away, father,' she had said before they
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went to church; 'you'll only be taking Aaron to be a son to you.'
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Dolly Winthrop walked behind with her husband; and there ended
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the little bridal procession.
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There were many eyes to look at it, and Miss Priscilla Lammeter was
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glad that she and her father had happened to drive up to the door of
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the Red House just in time to see this pretty sight. They had come
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to keep Nancy company today, because Mr Cass had had to go away to
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Lytherly, for special reasons. That seemed to be a pity, for otherwise
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he might have gone, as Mr Crackenthorp and Mr Osgood certainly
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would, to look on at the wedding-feast which he had ordered at the
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Rainbow, naturally feeling a great interest in the weaver who had been
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wronged by one of his own family.
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'I could ha' wished Nancy had had the luck to find a child like
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that and bring her up,' said Priscilla to her father, as they sat in
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the gig; 'I should ha' had something young to think of then, besides
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the lambs and the calves.'
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'Yes, my dear, yes,' said Mr Lammeter; 'one feels that as one
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gets older. Things look dim to old folks: they'd need have some
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young eyes about 'em, to let 'em know the world's the same as it
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used to be.'
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Nancy came out now to welcome her father and sister; and the
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wedding group had passed on beyond the Red House to the humbler part
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of the village.
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Dolly Winthrop was the first to divine that old Mr Macey, who had
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been set in his arm-chair outside his own door, would expect some
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special notice as they passed, since he was too old to be at the
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wedding-feast.
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'Mr Macey's looking for a word from us,' said Dolly; 'he'll be hurt
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if we pass him and say nothing- and him so racked with rheumatiz.'
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So they turned aside to shake hands with the old man. He had looked
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forward to the occasion, and had his premeditated speech.
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'Well, Master Marner,' he said, in a voice that quavered a good
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deal, 'I've lived to see my words come true. I was the first to say
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there was no harm in you, though your looks might be again' you; and I
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was the first to say you'd get your money back. And it's nothing but
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rightful as you should. And I'd ha' said the "Amens", and willing,
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at the holy matrimony; but Tookey's done it a good while now, and I
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hope you'll have none the worse luck.'
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In the open yard before the Rainbow, the party of guests were
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already assembled, though it was still nearly an hour before the
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appointed feast-time. But by this means they could not only enjoy
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the slow advent of their pleasure; they had also ample leisure to talk
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of Silas Marner's strange history, and arrive by due degrees at the
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conclusion that he had brought a blessing on himself by acting like
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a father to a lone motherless child. Even the farrier did not negative
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this sentiment: on the contrary, he took it up as peculiarly his
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own, and invited any hardy person present to contradict him. But he
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met with no contradiction; and all differences among the company
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were merged in a general agreement with Mr Snell's sentiment, that
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when a man had deserved his good luck, it was the part of his
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neighbours to wish him joy.
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As the bridal group approached, a hearty cheer was raised in the
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Rainbow yard; and Ben Winthrop, whose jokes had retained their
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acceptable flavour, found it agreeable to turn in there and receive
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congratulations; not requiring the proposed interval of quiet at the
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Stone-pits before joining the company.
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Eppie had a larger garden than she had ever expected there now; and
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in other ways there had been alterations at the expense of Mr Cass,
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the landlord, to suit Silas's larger family. For he and Eppie had
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declared that they would rather stay at the Stone-pits than go to
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any new home. The garden was fenced with stones on two sides, but in
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front there was an open fence, through which the flowers shone with
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answering gladness, as the four united people came within sight of
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them.
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'Oh, father,' said Eppie, 'what a pretty home ours is! I think
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nobody could be happier than we are.'
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THE END
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