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LITTLE WOMEN by LOUISA MAY ALCOTT
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FORWARD
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LOUISA MAY ALCOTT 1832-1888
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Louisa May Alcott's novel brings to life vividly the life
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of New England during the nineteenth century. A life that
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was tranquil, secure, and productive.
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It is little wonder, for she drew on her own and on her
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family's experiences for her work. As one of four daughters
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growing up in Boston.
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At the age of eight, she moved with her family to nearby
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Concord. There she spent the happiest years of her younger
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life, even though she experienced the constant threat of pov-
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erty.
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She counted as friends the children of Hawthorne and Em-
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erson. The Alcott was only a modest cottage, but the girls
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made use of a neighboring barn to perform plays written by
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Louisa May.
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She was educated at home, and became a school teacher in
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Boston. She saw her first story printed in a Boston newspaper
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at the age of twenty. Her first full-length book appeared
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two years later.
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Interrupting her career as a writer,she served as a nurse
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in a Washington hospital during the Civil War.
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The thing that pleased her most about her writing, as she
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became more and more well known, was the fact that sales of her
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books helped to make life more comfortable and less of a daily
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struggle for her parents in their later years.
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LITTLE WOMEN was published in 1869, and has gone on to be-
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come one of America's classics.
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This copy of LITTLE WOMEN has been transposed to disk and
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is supplied by NEW WAVE PUBLISHERS, 2103 N. LIBERTY STREET,
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LITTLE WOMEN
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c 1869 by
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Louisa May Alcott
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CHAPTER ONE
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"Christmas won't be Christmas without any presents," grumbled
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Jo, lying on the rug.
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"It's so dreadful to be poor!" sighed Meg, looking down at
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her old dress.
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"I don't think it's fair for some girls to have plenty of
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pretty things, and other girls nothing at all," added little Amy,
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with an injured sniff.
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"We've got Father and Mother, and each other," said Beth
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contentedly from her corner.
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The four young faces on which the firelight shone brightened
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at the cheerful words, but darkened again as Jo said sadly, "We
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haven't got Father, and shall not have him for a long time." She
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didn't say "perhaps never," but each silently added it, thinking
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of Father far away, where the fighting was.
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Nobody spoke for a minute; then Meg said in an altered tone,
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"You know the reason Mother proposed not having any presents this
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Christmas was because it is going to be a hard winter for everyone;
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and she thinks we ought not to spend money for pleasure, when
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our men are suffering so in the army. We can't do much,but we can
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make our little sacrifices, and ought to do it gladly. But I am
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afraid I don't" And Meg shook her head,as she thought regretfully
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of all the pretty things she wanted.
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"But I don't think the little we should spend would do any
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good. We've each got a dollar, and the army wouldn't be much helped
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by our giving that. I agree not to expect anything from Mother or
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you, but I do want to buy UNDINE AND SINTRAM for myself. I've
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wanted it so long," said Jo, who was a bookworm.
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"I planned to spend mine in new music," said Beth, with a
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little sigh, which no one heard but the hearth brush and kettle
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holder.
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"I shall get a nice box of Faber's drawing pencils. I
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really need them," said Amy decidedly.
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"Mother didn't say anything about our money, and she won't
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wish us to give up everything. Let's each buy what we want, and
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have a little fun. I'm sure we work hard enough to earn it," cried
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Jo, examining the heels of her shoes in a gentlemanly manner.
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"I know I do--teaching those tiresome children nearly all
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day, when I'm longing to enjoy myself at home," began Meg, in the
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complaining tone again.
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"You don't have half such a hard time as I do," said Jo.
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"How would you like to be shut up for hours with a nervous, fussy
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old lady, who keeps you trotting, is never satisfied, and worries
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you till you you're ready to fly out the window or cry?"
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"It's naughty to fret, but I do think washing dishes and
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keeping things tidy is the worst work in the world. It makes me
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cross, and my hands get so stiff, I can't practice well at all."
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And Beth looked at her rough hands with a sigh that any one could
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hear that time.
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"I don't believe any of you suffer as I do," cried Amy, "for
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you don't have to go to school with impertinent girls, who plague
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you if you don't know your lessons, and laugh at your dresses, and
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label your father if he isn't rich, and insult you when your nose
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isn't nice."
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"If you mean libel, I'd say so, and not talk about labels, as
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if Papa was a pickle bottle," advised Jo, laughing.
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"I know what I mean, and you needn't be statirical about it.
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It's proper to use good words, and improve your vocabilary,"
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returned Amy, with dignity.
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"Don't peck at one another, children. Don't you wish we
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had the money Papa lost when we were little, Jo? Dear me! How
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happy and good we'd be, if we had no worries!" said Meg, who
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could remember better times.
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"You said the other day you thought we were a deal happier
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than the King children, for they were fighting and fretting all
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the time, in spite of their money."
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"So I did, Beth. Well, I think we are. For though we do
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have to work, we make fun of ourselves, and are a pretty jolly
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set, as Jo would say."
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"Jo does use such slang words!" observed Amy, with a
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reproving look at the long figure stretched on the rug.
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Jo immediately sat up, put her hands in her pockets, and
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began to whistle.
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"Don't, Jo. It's so boyish!"
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"That's why I do it."
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"I detest rude, unladylike girls!"
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"I hate affected, niminy-piminy chits!"
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"Birds in their little nests agree," sang Beth, the
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peacemaker, with such a funny face that both sharp voices
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softened to a laugh, and the "pecking" ended for that time.
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"Really, girls, you are both to be blamed," said Meg,
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beginning to lecture in her elder-sisterly fashion."You are old
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enough to leave off boyish tricks, and to behave better,
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Josephine. It didn't matter so much when you were a little
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girl, but now you are so tall,and turn up your hair, you should
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remember that you are a young lady."
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"I'm not! And if turning up my hair makes me one, I'll
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wear it in two tails till I'm twenty," cried Jo, pulling off
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her net, and shaking down a chestnut mane. "I hate to think
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I've got to grow up, and be Miss March, and wear long gowns,
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and look as prim as a China Aster! It's bad enough to be a
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girl, anyway, when I like boy's games and work and manners! I
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can't get over my disappointment in not being a boy. And it's
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worse than ever now, for I'm dying to go and fight with Papa.
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And I can only stay home and knit, like a poky old woman!"
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And Jo shook the blue army sock till the needles rattled
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like castanets, and her ball bounded across the room.
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"Poor Jo! It's too bad, but it can't be helped. So you
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must try to be contented with making your name boyish, and
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playing brother to us girls," said Beth, stroking the rough
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head with a hand that all the dish washing and dusting in the
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world could not make ungentle in its touch.
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"As for you, Amy," continued Meg, "you are altogether
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to particular and prim. Your airs are funny now, but you'll
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grow up an affected little goose, if you don't take care. I
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I like your nice manners and refined ways of speaking, when
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you don't try to be elegant. But your absurd words are as bad
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as Jo's slang."
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"If Jo is a tomboy and Amy a goose, what am I, please?"
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asked Beth, ready to share the lecture.
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"You're a dear, and nothing else," answered Meg warmly,
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and no one contradicted her, for the `Mouse' was the pet of the
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family.
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As young readers like to know `how people look', we will
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take this moment to give them a little sketch of the four
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sisters, who sat knitting away in the twilight, while the
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December snow fell quietly without, and the fire crackled
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cheerfully within. It was a comfortable room,though the carpet
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was faded and the furniture very plain, for a good picture or
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two hung on the walls, books filled the recesses, chrysanthemums
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and Christmas roses bloomed in the windows, and a pleasant atmos-
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phere of home peace pervaded it.
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Margaret, the eldest of the four, was sixteen, and very pretty,
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being plump and fair, with large eyes, plenty of soft brown hair, a
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sweet mouth, and white hands,of which she was rather vain. Fifteen-
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year-old Jo was very tall, thin, and brown, and reminded one of a
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colt, for she never seemed to know what to do with her long limbs,
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which were very much in her way. She had a decided mouth, a comical
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nose, and sharp, gray eyes, which appeared to see everything, and
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were by turns fierce,funny, or thoughtful. Her long, thick hair
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was her one beauty, but it was usually bundled into a net, to be
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out of her way. Round shoulders had Jo, big hands and feet, a fly-
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away look to her clothes, and the uncomfortable appearance of a
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girl who was rapidly shooting up into a woman and didn't like it.
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Elizabeth, or Beth, as everyone called her, was a rosy, smooth-
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haired, bright-eyed girl of thirteen, with a shy manner, a timid
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voice, and a ;peaceful expression which was seldom disturbed. Her
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father called her `Little Miss Tranquility', and the name suited
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her excellently, for she seemed to live in a happy world of her
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own, only venturing out to meet the few whom she trusted and loved.
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Amy, though the youngest, was a most important person, in her own
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opinion at least. A regular snow maiden, with blue eyes, and
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yellow hair curling on her shoulders, pale and slender, and always
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carrying herself like a young lady mindful of her manners. What
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the characters of the four sisters were we will leave to be found
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out.
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The clock struck six and, having swept up the hearth, Beth
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put a pair of slippers down to warm. Somehow the sight of the old
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shoes had a good effect upon the girls, for Mother was coming, and
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everyone brightened to welcome her. Meg stopped lecturing, and
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lighted the lamp, Amy got out of the easy chair without being asked,
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and Jo forgot how tired she was as she sat up to hold the slippers
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nearer to the blaze.
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"They are quite worn out. Marmee must have a new pair."
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"I thought I'd get her some with my dollar," said Beth.
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"No, I shall!" cried Amy.
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"I'm the oldest," began Meg, but Jo cut in with a decided,
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"I'm the man of the family now Papa is away, and I shall provide
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the slippers, for he told me to take special care of Mother while
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he was gone."
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"I'll tell you what we'll do," said Beth, "let's each get her
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something for Christmas,land not get anything for ourselves."
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"That's like you, dear! What will we get?" exclaimed Jo.
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Everyone thought soberly for a minute, then Meg announced, as
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if the idea was suggested by the sight of her own pretty hands, "I
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shall give her a nice pair of gloves."
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"Army shoes, best to be had," cried Jo.
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"Some handkerchiefs, all hemmed," said Beth.
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"I'll get a little bottle of cologne. She likes it, and it
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won't cost much, so I'll have some left to buy my pencils," added
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Amy.
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"How will we give the things?" asked Meg.
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"Put them on the table, and bring her in and see her open
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the bundles. Don't you remember how we used to do on our birth-
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days?" answered Jo.
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"I used to be so frightened when it was my turn to sit in the
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chair with the crown on, and see you all come marching round to
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give the presents, with a kiss. I liked the things and the kisses,
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but it was dreadful to have you sit looking at me while I opened
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the bundles," said Beth, who was toasting her face and the bread
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for tea at the same time.
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"Let Marmee think we are getting things for ourselves, and
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then surprise her. We must go shopping tomorrow afternoon, Meg.
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There is so much to do about the play for Christmas night," said
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Jo, marching up and down, with her hands behind her back, and her
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nose in the air.
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"I don't mean to act any more after this time. I'm getting
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too old for such things," observed Meg, who was as much a child
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as ever about `dressing-up' frolics.
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"You won't stop, I know, as long as you can trail round in a
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white gown with your hair down, and wear gold-paper jewelry. You
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are the best actress we've got, and there'll be an end of every-
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thing if you quit the boards," said Jo. "We ought to rehearse
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tonight. Come here,Amy, and do the fainting scene, for you are as
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stiff as a poker in that."
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"I can't help it. I never saw anyone faint, and I don't choose
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to make myself all black and blue, tumbling flat as you do. If I
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can go down easily, I'll drop. If I can't, I shall fall into a
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chair and be graceful. I don't care if Hugo does come at me with
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a pistol," returned Amy, who was not gifted with dramatic power,
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but was chosen because she was small enough to be borne out shrieking
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by the villain of the piece.
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"Do it this way. Clasp your hands so, and stagger across the
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room, crying frantically, `Roderigo` Save me! Save me! and away
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went Jo, with a melodramatic scream which was truly thrilling.
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Amy followed, but she poked her hands out stiffly before her,
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and jerked herself along as if she went by machinery, and her "Ow!"
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was more suggestive of pins being run into her than of fear and
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anguish. Jo gave a despairing groan, and Meg laughed outright,
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while Beth let her bread burn as she watched the fun with interest.
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"It's no use! Do the best you can when the time comes, and if
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the audience laughs, don't blame me. Come on, Meg."
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"Then things went smoothly, for Don Pedro defied the world in
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a speech of two pages without a single break. Hagar, the witch,
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chanted an awful incantation over her kettleful of simmering toads,
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with weird effect. Roderigo rent his chains asunder manfully, and
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Hugo died in agonies of remorse and arsenic, with a wild,"Ha! Ha!"
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"It's the best we've had yet," said Meg, as the dead villain
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sat up and rubbed his elbows.
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"I don't see how you can write and act such splendid things,
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Jo. You're a regular Shakespeare!" exclaimed Beth, who firmly
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believed that her sisters were gifted with wonderful genius in all
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things.
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"Not quite," replied Jo modestly. "I do think THE WITCHES CURSE,
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an Operatic Tragedy is rather a nice thing, but I'd like to try
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McBETH, if we only had a trapdoor for Banquo. I always wanted to
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do the killing part. `Is that a dagger that I see before me?"
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muttered Jo, rolling her eyes and clutching at the air, as she had
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seen a famous tragedian do.
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"No, it's the toasting fork, with Mother's shoe on it instead
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of the bread. Beth's stage-struck!" cried Meg, and the rehearsal
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ended in a general burst of laughter.
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"Glad to find you so merry, my girls," said a cheery voice at
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the door, and actors and audience turned to welcome a tall, motherly
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lady with a `can I help you' look about her which was truly delightful.
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She was not elegantly dressed, but a noble-looking woman, and the
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girls thought the gray cloak and unfashionable bonnet covered the most
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splendid mother in the world.
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"Well, dearies, how have you got on today? There was so much to
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do, getting the boxes ready to go tomorrow, that I didn't come home
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to dinner. Has anyone called, Beth? How is your cold, Meg? Jo,
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you look tired to death. Come and kiss me, baby."
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While making these maternal inquiries Mrs. March got her wet
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things off, her warm slippers on, and sitting down in the easy
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chair, drew Amy to her lap, preparing to enjoy the happiest hour
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of her busy day. The girls flew about, trying to make things
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comfortable, each in her own way. Meg arranged the tea table, Jo
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brought wood and set chairs, dropping, over-turning,and clattering
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everything she touched. Beth trotted to and fro between parlor
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kitchen, quiet and busy, while Amy gave directions to everyone, as
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she sat with her hands folded.
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As they gathered about the table, Mrs. March said, with a
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particularly happy face, "I've got a treat for you after supper."
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A quick, bright smile went round like a streak of sunshine.
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Beth clapped her hands, regardless of the biscuit she held,and
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Jo tossed up her napkin, crying, "A letter! A letter! Three
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cheers for Father!"
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"Yes, a nice long letter. He is well, and thinks he shall
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get through the cold season better than we feared. He sends all
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sorts of loving wishes for Christmas, and an especial message
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to you girls," said Mrs. March, patting her pocket as if she
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had got a treasure there.
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"Hurry and get done! Don't stop to quirk your little finger
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and simper over your plate, Amy," cried Jo, choking on her tea
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and dropping her bread, butter side down, on the carpet in her
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haste to get at the treat.
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Beth ate no more, but crept away to sit in her shadowy corner
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and brood over the delight to come, till the others were ready.
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"I think it was so splendid in Father to go as chaplain
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when he was too old to be drafted, and not strong enough for
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a soldier," said Meg warmly.
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"Don't I wish I could go as a drummer, a vivan--what's its
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name? Or a nurse, so I could be near him and help him," exclaimed
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Jo, with a groan.
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"It must be very disagreeable to sleep in a tent, and eat
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all sorts of bad-tasting things, and drink out of a tin mug,"
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sighed Amy.
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"When will he come home, Marmee? asked Beth, with a little
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quiver in her voice.
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"Not for many months, dear, unless he is sick. He will stay
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and do his work faithfully as long as he can, and we won't ask
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for him back a minute sooner than he can be spared. Now come and
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hear the letter."
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They all drew to the fire, Mother in the big chair with Beth
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at her feet, Meg and Amy perched on either arm of the chair, and
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Jo leaning on the back, where no one would see any sign of emotion
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if the letter should happen to be touching. Very few letters were
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written in those hard times that were not touching, especially
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those which fathers sent home. In this one little was said of the
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hardships endured, the dangers faced, or the homesickness con-
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quered. It was a cheerful, hopeful letter, full of lively descrip-
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tions of camp life, marches, and military news, and only at the end
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did the writer's heart over-flow with fatherly love and longing for
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the little girls at home.
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" Give them all of my dear love and a kiss. Tell them I think
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of them by day, pray for them by night, and find my best comfort
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in their affection at all times. A year seems very long to wait
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before I see them, but remind them that while we wait we may all
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work, so that these hard days need not be wasted. I know they will
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remember all I said to them, that they will be loving children to
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you, will do their duty faithfully, fight their bosom enemies bravely,
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and conquer themselves so beautifully that when I come back to them
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I may be fonder and prouder than ever of my little women."
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Everybody sniffed when they came to that part. Jo wasn't
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ashamed of the great tear that dropped off the end of her nose, and
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Amy never minded the rumpling of her curls as she hid her face on
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her mother's shoulder and sobbed out, "I am a selfish girl! But
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I'll truly try to be better, so he mayn't be disappointed in me
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by-and-by."
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We all will," cried Meg. "I think too much of my looks and
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hate to work, but won't any more, if I can help it."
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"I'll try and be what he loves to call me, `a little woman'
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and not be rough and wild, but do my duty here instead of wanting
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to be somewhere else," said Jo, thinking that keeping her temper
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at home was a much harder task than facing a rebel or two down South.
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Beth said nothing, but wiped away her tears with the blue army
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sock and began to knit with all her might, losing no time in doing
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the duty that lay nearest her, while she resolved in her quiet
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little soul to be all that Father hoped to find her when the year
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brought round the happy coming home.
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Mrs. March broke the silence that followed Jo's words, by
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saying in her cheery voice, "Do you remember how you used to play
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Pilgrims Progress when you were little things? Nothing delighted
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you more than to have me tie my piece bags on your backs for burdens,
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give you hats and sticks and rolls of paper, and let you travel
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through the house from the cellar, which was the City of Destruction,
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up, up, to the housetop, where you had all the lovely things you
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could collect to make a Celestial City."
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"What fun it was, especially going by the lions, fighting
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Apollyon, and passing through the valley where the hob-goblins
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were," said Jo.
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"I liked the place where the bundles fell off and tumbled
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downstairs," said Meg.
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"I don't remember much about it, except that I was afraid of
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the cellar and the dark entry, and always liked the cake and milk
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we had up at the top. If I wasn't too old for such things, I'd
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rather like to play it over again," said Amy, who began to talk
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of renouncing childish things at the mature age of twelve.
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"We never are too old for this, my dear, because it is a play
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we are playing all the time in one way or another. Out burdens are
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here, our road is before us, and the longing for goodness and
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happiness is the guide that leads us through many troubles and mis-
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takes to the peace which is a true Celestial City. Now, my little
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pilgrims, suppose you begin again, not in play, but in earnest,
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and see how far on you can get before Father comes home."
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"Really, Mother? Where are our bundles?" asked Amy, who was
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a very literal young lady.
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"Each of you told what your burden was just now, except Beth.
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I rather think she hasn't got any," said her mother.
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"Yes, I have. Mine is dishes and dusters, and envying girls
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with nice pianos, and being afraid of people."
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Beth's bundle was such a funny one that everybody wanted to
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laugh, but nobody did, for it would have hurt her feelings very
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much.
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"Let us do it," said Meg thoughtfully. "It is only another
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name for trying to be good, and the story may help us, for though
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we do want to be good, it's hard work and we forget, and don't do
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our best."
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"We were in the Slough of Despond tonight, and Mother came
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and pulled us out as Help did in the book. We ought to have our
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roll of directions, like Christian. What shall we do about that?"
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asked Jo, delighted with the fancy which lent a little romance to
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the very dull task of doing her duty.
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"Look under your pillows christmas morning, and you will
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find your guidebook," replied Mrs. March.
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They talked over the new plan while old Hannah cleared the
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table, then out came the four little work baskets, and the needles
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|
flew as the girls made sheets for Aunt March. It was uninteresting
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sewing, but tonight no one grumbled. They adopted Jo's plan of
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dividing the long seams into four parts, and calling the quarters
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|
Europe, Asia, Africa, and America, and in that way got on capitally,
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|
especially when they talked about the different countries as they
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|
stitched their way through them.
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At nine they stopped work, and sang, as usual, before they
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went to bed. No one but Beth could get much music out of the old
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piano, but she had a way of softly touching the yellow keys and
|
|
making a pleasant accompaniment to the simple songs they sang. Meg
|
|
had a voice like a flute, and she and herr mother led the little
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|
choir. Amy chirped like a cricket, and Jo wandered through the airs
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|
at her own sweet will, always coming out at the wrong place with a
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croak or a quaver that spoiled the most pensive tune. They had
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|
always done this from the time they could lisp . . .
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Crinkle, crinkle, 'ittle 'tar,
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and it had become a household custom,, for the mother was a born
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|
singer. The first sound in the morning was her voice as she went
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|
about the house singing like a lark, and the last sound at night
|
|
was the same cheery sound, for the girls never grew too old for
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that familiar lullaby.
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CHAPTER TWO
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Jo was the first to wake in the gray dawn of Christmas morn-
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ing. No stockings hung at the fireplace, and for a moment she
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|
felt as much disappointed as she did long ago, when her little
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sock fell down because it was crammed so full of goodies. Then
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|
she remembered her mother's promise and, slipping her hand under
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her pillow, drew out a little crimson-covered book. She knew
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it very well, for it was that beautiful old story of the best
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|
life ever lived, and Jo felt that it was a true guidebook for
|
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any pilgrim going on a long journey. She woke Meg with a "Merry
|
|
Christmas," and bade her see what was under her pillow. A green-
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|
covered book appeared, with the same picture inside, and a few
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|
words written by their mother, which made their one present very
|
|
precious in their eyes. Presently Beth and Amy woke to rummage
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and find their little books also, one dove-colored, the other
|
|
blue, and all sat looking at and talking about them, while the
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east grew rosy with the coming day.
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In spite of her small vanities, Margaret had a sweet and
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|
pious nature, which unconsciously influenced her sisters, espec-
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|
ially Jo, who loved her very tenderly, and obeyed her because
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her advice was so gently given.
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"Girls," said Meg seriously, looking from the tumbled head
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|
beside her to the two little night-capped ones in the room beyond,
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|
"Mother wants us to read and love and mind these books, and we
|
|
must begin at once. We used to be faithful about it, but since
|
|
Father went away and all this war trouble unsettled us, we have
|
|
neglected many things. You can do as you please, but I shall keep
|
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my book on the table here and read a little every morning as soon
|
|
as I wake, for I know it will do me good and help me through the
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|
day."
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Then she opened her new book and began to read. Jo put her
|
|
arm round her and, leaning cheek to cheek, read also, with the
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|
quiet expression so seldom seen on her restless face.
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"How good Meg is! Come, Amy, let's do as they do. I'll
|
|
help you with the hard words, and they'' explain things if we
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|
don't understand," whispered Beth, very much impressed by the
|
|
pretty books and her sisters, example.
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"I'm glad mine is blue," said Amy. and then the rooms were
|
|
very still while the pages were softly turned, and the winter
|
|
sunshine crept in to touch the bright heads and serious faces
|
|
with a Christmas greeting.
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|
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|
"Where is Mother?" asked Meg, as she and Jo ran down to
|
|
thank her for their gifts, half an hour later.
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|
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|
"Goodness only knows. some poor creeter came a-beggin', and
|
|
your ma went straight off to see what was needed. There never was
|
|
such a woman for givin' away vittles and drink, clothes and firin',"
|
|
replied Hannah, who had lived with the family since Meg was born,
|
|
and was considered by them all more as a friend than a servant.
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|
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|
"She will be back soon, I think, so fry your cakes, and have
|
|
everything ready," said Meg, looking over the presents which were
|
|
collected in a basket and kept under the sofa, ready to be pro-
|
|
duced at the proper time. "why, where is Amy's bottle of cologne?"
|
|
she added, as the little flask did not appear.
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|
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|
"She took it out a minute ago, and went off with it to put a
|
|
ribbon on it, or some such notion," replied Jo, dancing about the
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|
room to take the first stiffness off the new army slippers.
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|
"How nice my handkerchiefs look, don't they? Hannah washed
|
|
and ironed them for me, and I marked them all myself," said Beth,
|
|
looking proudly at the somewhat uneven letters which had cost her
|
|
such labor.
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|
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|
"Bless the child! She's gone and put `Mother' on them in-
|
|
stead of `M. March'. How funny!" cried Jo, taking one up.
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|
"Isn't that right? I thought it was better to do it so,
|
|
because Meg's initials are M.M., and I don't want anyone to use
|
|
these but Marmee," said Beth;, looking troubled.
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|
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|
"It's all right, dear, and a very pretty idea, quite sensible
|
|
too, for no one can ever mistake now. It will please her very much,
|
|
I know," said Meg, with a frown for Jo and a smile for Beth.
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|
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|
"There's Mother. Hide the basket, quick!" cried Jo, as a door
|
|
slammed and steps sounded in the hall.
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|
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|
Amy came in hastily, and looked rather abashed when she saw
|
|
her sisters all waiting for her.
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|
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|
"Where have you been, and what are you hiding behind you?"
|
|
asked Meg, surprised to see, by her hood and cloak, that lazy Amy
|
|
had been out so early.
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|
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|
"Don't laugh at me, Jo! I didn't mean anyone should know till
|
|
the time came. I only meant to change the little bottle for a big
|
|
one, and I gave all my money to get it, and I'm truly trying not
|
|
to be selfish any more."
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|
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|
As she spoke, Amy showed the handsome flask which replaced
|
|
the cheap one, and looked so earnest and humble in her little
|
|
effort to forget herself that Meg hugged her on the spot, and Jo
|
|
pronounced her `a trump', while Beth ran to the window, and picked
|
|
her finest rose to ornament the stately bottle.
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|
|
|
"You see I felt ashamed of my present, after reading and talking
|
|
about being good this morning, so I ran round the corner and changed
|
|
it the minute I was up, and I'm so glad, for mine is the handsomest
|
|
now."
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|
|
|
Another bang of the street door sent the basket under the sofa,
|
|
and the girls to the table, eager for breakfast.
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|
|
|
"Merry Christmas, Marmee! Many of them! Thank you for our
|
|
books. We read some, and mean to every day," they all cried in
|
|
chorus.
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|
|
|
"Merry Christmas, little daughters! I'm glad you began at
|
|
once, and hope you will keep on. But I want to say one word
|
|
before we sit down. Not far away from here lies a poor woman
|
|
with a little newborn baby. Six children are huddled into one bed
|
|
to keep from freezing, for they have no fire. There is nothing to
|
|
eat over there, and the oldest boy came to tell me they were suffer-
|
|
ing hunger and cold. My girls, will you give them your breakfast
|
|
as a Christmas present?"
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|
|
|
They were all unusually hungry, having waited nearly an hour,
|
|
and for a minute no one spoke, only a minute, for Jo exclaimed im-
|
|
petuously, "I'm so glad you came before we began!"
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|
|
|
"May I go and help carry the things to the poor little children?"
|
|
asked Beth eagerly.
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|
|
|
"I shall take the cream and the muffings," added Amy, heroically
|
|
giving up the article she most liked.
|
|
|
|
Meg was already covering the buckwheats, and piling the bread
|
|
into one big plate.
|
|
|
|
"I thought you'd do it," said Mrs. March, smiling as if satisfied.
|
|
"You shall all go and help me, and when we come back we will have bread
|
|
and milk for breakfast, and make it up at dinnertime."
|
|
|
|
They were soon ready, and the procession set out. Fortunately
|
|
it was early, and they went through back streets, so few people saw
|
|
them, and no one laughed at the queer party.
|
|
|
|
A poor, bare, miserable room it was, with broken windows, no
|
|
fire, ragged bedclothes, a sick mother, wailing baby, and a group
|
|
of pale, hungry children cuddled under one old quilt, trying to
|
|
keep warm.
|
|
|
|
How the big eyes stared and the blue lips smiled as the girls
|
|
went in.
|
|
|
|
"Ach, mein Gott! It is good angels come to us!" said the poor
|
|
woman, crying for joy.
|
|
|
|
"Funny angels in hoods and mittens," said Jo, and set them to
|
|
laughing.
|
|
|
|
In a few minutes it really did seem as if kind spirits had been
|
|
at work there. Hannah, who had carried wood, made a fire, and
|
|
stopped up the broken panes with old hats and her own cloak. Mrs.
|
|
March gave the mother tea and gruel, and comforted her with promises
|
|
of help, while she dressed the little baby as tenderly as if it had
|
|
been her own. The girls meantime spread the table, set the children
|
|
round the fire, and fed them like so many hungry birds, laughing,
|
|
talking, and trying to understand the funny broken English.
|
|
|
|
"Das ist gut!" "Die Engel-kinder!" cried the poor things as
|
|
they ate and warmed their purple hands at the comfortable blaze.
|
|
|
|
The girls had never been called angel children before, and
|
|
thought it very agreeable, especially Jo, who had been considered
|
|
a `Sancho' ever since she was born. That was a very happy break-
|
|
fast, though they didn't get any of it. And when they went away,
|
|
leaving comfort behind, I think there were not in all the city
|
|
four merrier people than the hungry little girls who gave away
|
|
their breakfasts and contented themselves with bread and milk
|
|
on Christmas morning.
|
|
|
|
"That's loving our neighbor better than ourselves, and I
|
|
like it," said Meg, as they set out their presents while their
|
|
mother was upstairs collecting clothes for the poor Hummels.
|
|
|
|
Not a very splendid show, but there was a great deal of
|
|
love done up in the few little bundles, and the tall vase of
|
|
red roses, white chrysanthemums, and trailing vines, which
|
|
stood in the middle, gave quite an elegant air to the table.
|
|
|
|
"She's coming! Strike up, Beth! Open the door, Amy! Three
|
|
cheers for Marmee!" cried Jo, prancing about while Meg went to
|
|
conduct Mother to the seat of honor.
|
|
|
|
Beth played her gayest march, amy threw open the door, and
|
|
Meg enacted escort with great dignity. Mrs. March was both
|
|
surprised and touched, and smiled with her eyes full as she
|
|
examined her presents and read the little notes which accompanied
|
|
them. The slippers went on at once, a new handkerchief was slipped
|
|
into her pocket, well scented with Amy's cologne, the rose was
|
|
fastened in her bosom, and the nice gloves were pronounced a perfect
|
|
fit.
|
|
|
|
There was a good deal of laughing and kissing and explaining,
|
|
in the simple, loving fashion which makes these home festivals so
|
|
pleasant at the time, so sweet to remember long afterward, and
|
|
then all fell to work.
|
|
|
|
The morning charities and ceremonies took so much time that
|
|
the rest of the day was devoted to preparations for the evening
|
|
festivities. Being still too young to go often to the theater,
|
|
and not rich enough to afford any great outlay for private per-
|
|
formances, the girls put their wits to work, and necessity being
|
|
the mother of invention, made whatever they needed. Very clever
|
|
were some of their productions, pasteboard guitars, antique lamps
|
|
made of old-fashioned butter boats covered with silver paper,
|
|
gorgeous robes of old cotton, glittering with tin spangles from
|
|
a pickle factory, and armor covered with the same useful diamond
|
|
shaped bits left inn sheets when the lids of preserve pots were
|
|
cut out. The big chamber was the scene of many innocent revels.
|
|
|
|
No gentleman were admitted, so Jo played male parts to her
|
|
heart's content and took immense satisfaction in a pair of russet
|
|
leather boots given her by a friend, who knew a lady who knew an
|
|
actor. These boots, an old foil, and a slashed doublet once used
|
|
by an artist for some picture, were Jo's chief treasures and
|
|
appeared on all occasions. The smallness of the company made it
|
|
necessary for the two principal actors to take several parts
|
|
apiece, and they certainly deserved some credit for the hard work
|
|
they did in learning three or four different parts, whisking in
|
|
and out of various costumes, and managing the stage besides. It
|
|
was excellent drill for their memories, a harmless amusement, and
|
|
employed many hours which otherwise would have been idle, lonely,
|
|
or spent in less profitable society.
|
|
|
|
On christmas night, a dozen girls piled onto the bed which
|
|
was the dress circle, and sat before the blue and yellow chintz
|
|
curtains in a most flattering state of expectancy. There was a
|
|
good deal of rustling and whispering behind the curtain, a trifle
|
|
of lamp smoke,and an occasional giggle from Amy, who was apt to
|
|
get hysterical in the excitement of the moment. Presently a bell
|
|
sounded, the curtains flew apart, and the OPERATIC TRAGEDY began.
|
|
|
|
"A gloomy wood," according to the one playbill, was repre-
|
|
sented by a few shrubs in pots, green baize on the floor, and a
|
|
cave in the distance. This cave was made with a clothes horse
|
|
for a roof, bureaus for walls, and in it was a small furnace in
|
|
full blast, with a black pot on it and an old witch bending over
|
|
it. The stage was dark and the glow of the furnace had a fine
|
|
effect, especially as real steam issued from the kettle when the
|
|
witch took off the cover. A moment was allowed for the first
|
|
thrill to subside, then Hugo, the villain, stalked in with a
|
|
clanking sword at his side, a slouching hat, black beard, mys-
|
|
terious cloak, and the boots. After pacing to and fro in much
|
|
agitation, he struck his forehead, and burst out in a wild
|
|
strain, singing of his hatred to Roderigo, his love for Zara,
|
|
and his pleasing resolution to kill the one and win the other.
|
|
The gruff tones of Hugo's voice, with an occasional shout when
|
|
his feelings overcame him, were very impressive, and the audience
|
|
applauded the moment he paused for breath. bowing with the air
|
|
of one accustomed to public praise, he stole to the cavern and
|
|
ordered Hagar to come forth with a commanding, "What ho, minion!
|
|
I need thee!"
|
|
|
|
Out came Meg, with gray horsehair hanging about her face,
|
|
a red and black robe, a staff, and cabalistic signs upon her
|
|
cloak. Hugo demanded a potion to make Zara adore him, and one
|
|
destroy Roderigo. Hagar, in a fine dramatic melody, promised
|
|
both, and proceeded to call up the spirit who would bring the
|
|
love philter.
|
|
|
|
Hither, hither,from thy home,
|
|
Airy sprite, I bid thee come!
|
|
Born of roses, fed on dew,
|
|
Charms and potions canst thou brew?
|
|
Bring me here, with elfin speed,
|
|
The fragrant philter which I need.
|
|
Make it sweet and swift and strong,
|
|
Spirit, answer now my song!
|
|
|
|
A soft strain of music sounded, and then at the back of the
|
|
cave appeared a little figure in cloudy white, with glittering
|
|
wings, golden hair, and a garland of roses on its head. Waving
|
|
a wand, it sang . . .
|
|
|
|
Hither I come,
|
|
From my airy home,
|
|
Afar in the silver moon.
|
|
Take the magic spell,
|
|
And use it well,
|
|
Or its power will vanish soon!
|
|
|
|
And dropping a small, gilded bottle at the witch's feet, the
|
|
spirit vanished. Another chant from Hagar produced another apparition,
|
|
not a lovely one, for with a bang an ugly black imp appeared and,
|
|
having croaked a reply, tossed a dark bottle at Hugo and disappeared
|
|
with a mocking laugh. Having warbled his thanks and put the potions
|
|
in his boots, Hugo departed, and Hagar informed the audience that
|
|
as he had killed a few of her friends in times past, she had cursed
|
|
him, and intends to thwart his plans, and be revenged on him. Then
|
|
the curtain fell, and the audience reposed and ate candy while dis-
|
|
cussing the merits of the play.
|
|
|
|
A good deal of hammering went on before the curtain rose again,
|
|
but when it became evident what a masterpiece of stage carpentery
|
|
had been got up, no one murmured at the delay. It was truly superb.
|
|
A tower rose to the ceiling, halfway up appeared a window with a
|
|
lamp burning in it, and behind the white curtain appeared Zara in
|
|
a lovely blue and silver dress, waiting for Roderigo. He came in
|
|
gorgeous array, with plumed cap, red cloak, chestnut lovelocks, a
|
|
guitar, and the boots, of course. Kneeling at the foot of the tower,
|
|
he sang a serenade in melting tones. Zara replied and, after a
|
|
musical dialogue, consented to fly. Then came the grand effect of
|
|
the play. Roderigo produced a rope ladder, with five steps to it,
|
|
threw up one end, and invited Zara to descend. Timidly she crept
|
|
from her lattice, put her hand on Roderigo's shoulder, and was
|
|
about to leap gracfully down when "Alas! Alas for Zara!" she
|
|
forgot her train. It caught in the window, the tower tottered,
|
|
leaned forward, fell with a crash, and buried the unhappy lovers
|
|
in the ruins.
|
|
|
|
A universal shriek arose as the russet boots waved wildly
|
|
from the wreck and a golden head emerged, exclaiming, "I told you
|
|
so! I told you so!" With wonderful presence of mind, Don Pedro,
|
|
the cruel sire, rushed in, dragged out his daughter, with a hasty
|
|
aside . . .
|
|
|
|
"Don't laugh! Act as if it was all right!" and, ordering
|
|
Roderigo up, banished him form the kingdom with wrath and scorn.
|
|
Though decidedly shaken by the fall from the tower upon him,
|
|
Roderigo defied the old gentleman and refused to stir. This
|
|
dauntless example fired Zara. She also defied her sire, and he
|
|
ordered them both to the deepest dungeons of the castle. A stout
|
|
little retainer came in with chains and led them away, looking very
|
|
much frightened and evidently forgetting the speech he ought to
|
|
have made.
|
|
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Act third was the castle hall, and here Hagar appeared, having
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come to free the lovers and finish Hugo. She hears him coming and
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hides, sees him put the potions into two cups of wine and bid the
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the timid little servant, "Bear them to the captives in their cells,
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and tell them I shall come anon." The servant takes Hugo aside to
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tell him something, and Hagar changes the cups for two others which
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are harmless. Ferdinando, the `minion', carries them away, and
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Hagar puts back the cup which holds the poison meant for Roderigo.
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Hugo, getting thirsty after a long warble, drinks it, loses his wits,
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and after a good deal of clutching and stamping, falls flat and dies,
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while Hagar informs him what she has done in a song of exquisite
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power and melody.
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This was a truly thrilling scene, though some persons might
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have thought that the sudden tumbling down of a quantity of long red
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hair rather marred the effect of the villain's death. He was called
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before the curtain, and with great propriety appeared, leading Hagar,
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whose singing was considered more wonderful than all the rest of the
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performance put together.
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Act fourth displayed the despairing Roderigo on the point of
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stabbing himself because he has been told that Zara has deserted him.
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Just as the dagger is at his heart, a lovely song is sung under his
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window, informing him that Zara is true but in danger, and he can
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save her if he will. A key is thrown in, which unlocks the door,
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and in a spasm of rapture he tears off his chains and rushes away
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to find and rescue his lady love.
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Act fifth opened with a stormy scene between Zara and Don Pedro.
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He wishes her to go into a convent, but she won't hear of it, and
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after a touching appeal, is about to faint when Roderigo dashes in
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and demands her hand. Don Pedro refuses, because he is not rich.
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They shout and gesticulate tremendously but cannot agree, and Rod-
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rigo is about to bear away the exhausted Zara, when the timid
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|
servant enters with a letter and a bag from Hagar, who has myster-
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iously disappeared. The latter informs the party that she bequeths
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untold wealth to the young pair and an awful doom to Don Pedro, if
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he doesn't make them happy. The bag is opened, and several quarts of
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tin money shower down upon the stage till it is quite glorified with
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the glitter. This entirely softens the stern sire. He consents
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|
without a murmur, all join in a joyful chorus, and the curtain falls
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upon the lovers kneeling to receive Don Pedro's blessing in attitudes
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of the most romantic grace.
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Tumultuous applause followed but received an unexpected check,
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|
for the cot bed, on which the dress circle was built, suddenly shut
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|
up and extinguished the enthusiastic audience. Roderigo and Don
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|
Pedro flew to the rescue, and all were taken out unhurt, though many
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|
were speechless with laughter. the excitement had hardly subsided
|
|
when Hannah appeared, with "Mrs. March's compliments, and would the
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|
ladies walk down to supper."
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|
This was a surprise even to the actors, and when they saw the
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|
table, they looked at one another in rapturous amazement. It was
|
|
like Marmee to get up a little treat for them, but anything so fine
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|
as this was unheard of since the departed days of plenty. There was
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|
ice cream, actually two dishes of it, pink and white, and cake and
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|
fruit and distracting french bonbons and, in the middle of the
|
|
table, four great bouquets of hot house flowers.
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|
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|
It quite took their breath away, and they stared first at the
|
|
table and then at their mother, who looked as if she enjoyed it
|
|
immensely.
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|
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|
"Is it fairies?" asked Amy.
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|
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"Santa Claus," said Beth.
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|
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|
"Mother did it." And Meg smiled her sweetest, in spite of her
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gray beard and white eyebrows.
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|
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|
"Aunt March had a good fit and sent the supper," cried Jo, with
|
|
a sudden inspiration.
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"All wrong. Old Mr. Laurence sent it," replied Mrs. March.
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|
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|
"The Laurence boy's grandfather! What in the world put such a
|
|
thing into his head? We don't know him!' exclaimed Meg.
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|
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|
"Hannah told one of his servants about your breakfast party.
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|
He is an odd old gentleman, but that pleased him. He knew my father
|
|
years ago, and he sent me a polite note this afternoon, saying he
|
|
hoped I would allow him to express his friendly feeling toward my
|
|
children by sending them a few trifles in honor of the day. I
|
|
could not refuse, and so you have a little feast at night to make
|
|
up for the bread-and-milk breakfast."
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|
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|
"That boy; put it into his head, I know he did! He's a capital
|
|
fellow, and I wish we could get acquainted. He looks as if he'd
|
|
like to know us but he's bashful, and Meg is so prim she won't let
|
|
me speak to him when we pass," said Jo, as the plates went round,
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|
and the ice began to melt out of sight, with ohs and ahs of satisfaction.
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|
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|
"You mean the people who live in the big house next door, don't
|
|
you?" asked one of the girls. "My mother knows old Mr. Laurence,
|
|
but says he's very proud and doesn't like to mix with his neighbors.
|
|
He keeps his grandson shut up, when he isn't riding or walking with
|
|
his tutor, and makes him study very hard. We invited him to our
|
|
party, but he didn't come. Mother says he's very nice, though he
|
|
never speaks to us girls."
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|
|
|
"Our cat ran away once, and he brought her back, and we
|
|
talked over the fence, and were getting on capitally, all about
|
|
cricket, and so on, when he saw Meg coming, and walked off. I
|
|
mean to know him some day, for he needs fun, I'm sure he does,"
|
|
said Jo decidedly.
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|
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|
"I like his manners, and he looks like a little gentleman, so
|
|
I've no objection to your knowing him, if a proper opportunity comes.
|
|
He brought the flowers himself, and I should have asked him in, if
|
|
I had been sure what was going on upstairs. He looked so wistful
|
|
as he went away, hearing the frolic and evidently having none of
|
|
his own."
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|
|
|
"It's a mercy you didn't , Mother!" laughed Jo, looking at
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|
her boots. "But we'll have another play sometime that he can
|
|
see. Perhaps he'll help act. Wouldn't that be jolly?"
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|
|
|
"I never had such a fine bouquet before! How pretty it is!"
|
|
And Meg examined her flowers with great interest.
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|
|
|
"They are lovely. But Beth's roses are sweeter to me," said
|
|
Mrs. March, smelling the half-dead posy in her belt.
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|
|
|
Beth nestled up to her, and whispered softly, "I wish I
|
|
could send my bunch to Father. I'm afraid he isn't having such
|
|
a merry Christmas as we are."
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|
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|
CHAPTER THREE
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|
"Jo! Jo! Where are you?" cried Meg at the foot of the garret
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|
stairs.
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|
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|
"Here!" answered a husky voice from above, and, running up,
|
|
Meg found her sister eating apples and crying over the HEIR OF
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|
REDCLYFFE, wrapped up in a comforter on an old three-legged sofa
|
|
by the sunny window. This was Jo's favorite refuge, and here she
|
|
loved to retire with half a dozen russets and a nice book, to enjoy
|
|
the quiet and the society of a pet rat who lived near by and didn't
|
|
mind her a particle. As Meg appeared, Scrabble whisked into his
|
|
hole. Jo shook the tears off her cheeks and waited to hear the news.
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|
|
|
"Such fun! Only see! A regular note of invitation from Mrs.
|
|
Gardiner for tomorrow night!" cried Meg, waving the precious paper
|
|
and then proceeding to read it with girlish delight.
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|
|
|
"`Mrs. Gardiner would be happy to see Miss March and Miss Jo-
|
|
sephine at a little dance on New Year's Eve.' Marmee is willing we
|
|
should go, now what shall we wear?"
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|
|
|
"What's the use of asking that, when you know we shall wear
|
|
our poplins, because we haven't got anything else?" answered Jo
|
|
with her mouth full.
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|
|
|
"If I only had a silk!" sighed Meg. "Mother says I may when
|
|
I'm eighteen perhaps, but two years is an everlasting time to wait."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure our pops look like silk, and they are nice enough for
|
|
us. Yours is as good as new, but I forgot the burn and the tear in
|
|
mine. Whatever shall I do? The burn shows badly, and I can't take
|
|
any out."
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|
|
|
"You must sit still all you can and keep your back out of sight.
|
|
The front is all right. I shall have a new ribbon for my hair, and
|
|
Marmee will lend me her little pearl pin, and my new slippers are
|
|
lovely, and my gloves will do, though they aren't as nice as I'd like."
|
|
|
|
"Mine are spoiled with lemonade, and I can't get any new ones,
|
|
so I shall have to go without," said Jo, who never troubled herself
|
|
much about dress.
|
|
|
|
"You must have gloves, or I won't go," cried Meg decidedly.
|
|
"Gloves are more important than anything else. You can't dance
|
|
without them, and if you don't I should be so mortified."
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|
|
|
"Then I'll stay still. I don't care much for company dancing.
|
|
It's no fun to go sailing round. I like to fly about and cut capers."
|
|
|
|
"You can't ask Mother for new ones, they are so expensive, and
|
|
you are so careless. She said when you spoiled the others that she
|
|
shouldn't get you any more this winter. Can't you make them do?"
|
|
|
|
"I can hold them crumpled up in my hand, so no one will know
|
|
how stained they are. That's all I can do. No! I'll tell you how
|
|
we can manage, each wear one good one and carry a bad one. Don't
|
|
you see?"
|
|
|
|
"Your hands are bigger than mine, and you will stretch my glove
|
|
dreadfully," began Meg, whose gloves were a tender point with her.
|
|
|
|
"Then I'll go without. I don't care what people say!" cried Jo,
|
|
taking up her book.
|
|
|
|
"You may have it, you may! Only don't stain it, and do behave
|
|
nicely. Don't put your hands behind you, or stare, or say `Christopher
|
|
Columbus!' will you?"
|
|
|
|
"Don't worry about me. I'll be as prim ad I can and not get
|
|
into any scrapes, if I can help it. Now go and answer your note,
|
|
and let me finish this splendid story."
|
|
|
|
So Meg went away to `accept with thanks', look over her dress,
|
|
and sing blithely as she did up her one real lace frill, while Jo
|
|
finished her story, her four apples, and had a game of romps with
|
|
Scrabble.
|
|
|
|
On New Year's Eve the parlor was deserted, for the two younger
|
|
girls played dressing maids and the two elder were absorbed in the
|
|
all-important business of `getting ready for the party'. Simple
|
|
as the toilets were, there was a great deal of running up and down,
|
|
laughing and talking, and at one time a strong smell of burned hair
|
|
pervaded the house. Meg wanted a few curls about her face, and Jo
|
|
undertook to pinch the papered locks with a pair of hot tongs.
|
|
|
|
"Ought they to smoke like that?" asked Beth from her perch
|
|
on the bed.
|
|
|
|
"It's the dampness drying," replied Jo.
|
|
|
|
"What a queer smell! It's like burned feathers," observed Amy,
|
|
smoothing her own pretty curls with a superior air.
|
|
|
|
"There, now I'll take off the papers and you'll see a cloud
|
|
of little ringlets," said Jo, putting down the tongs.
|
|
|
|
She did take off the papers, but no cloud of ringlets appeared,
|
|
for the hair came with the papers, and the horrified hairdresser
|
|
laid a row of little scorched bundles on the bureau before her victim.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, oh, oh! What have you done? I'm spoiled! I can't go! My
|
|
hair, oh, my hair!" wailed Meg, looking with despair at the uneven
|
|
frizzle on her forehead.
|
|
|
|
"Just my luck! You shouldn't have asked me to do it. I always
|
|
spoil everything. I'm so sorry, but the tongs were too hot, and so
|
|
I've made a mess," groaned poor Jo, regarding the little black
|
|
pancakes with tears of regret.
|
|
|
|
"It isn't spoiled. Just frizzle it, and tie your ribbon so
|
|
the ends come on your forehead a bit, and it will look like the
|
|
last fashion. I've seen many girls do it so," said Amy consolingly.
|
|
|
|
"Serves me right for trying to be fine. I wish I'd let my hair
|
|
alone," cried Meg petulantly.
|
|
|
|
"So do I, it was so smooth and pretty. But it will soon grow
|
|
out again," said Beth, coming to kiss and comfort the shorn sheep.
|
|
|
|
After various lesser mishaps, Meg was finished at last, and
|
|
by the united exertions of the entire family Jo's hair was got up
|
|
and her dress on. They looked very well in their simple suits,
|
|
Meg's in silvery drab, with a blue velvet snood, lace frills, and
|
|
the pearl pin. Jo in maroon, with a stiff, gentlemanly linen
|
|
collar, and a white chrysanthemum or two for her only ornament.
|
|
Each put on one nice light glove, and carried one soiled one, and
|
|
all pronounced the effect "quite easy and fine". Meg's high-heeled
|
|
slippers were very tight and hurt her, though she would not own it,
|
|
and Jo's nineteen hairpins all seemed stuck straight into her head,
|
|
which was not exactly comfortable, but, dear me, let us be elegant
|
|
or die.
|
|
|
|
"Have a good time, dearies!" said Mrs. March, as the sisters
|
|
went daintily down the walk. "Don't eat much supper, and come
|
|
away at eleven when I send Hannah for you." As the gate clashed
|
|
behind them, a voice cried from a window . . .
|
|
|
|
"Girls, girls! Have you you both got nice pocket handkerchiefs?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes, spandy nice, and Meg has cologne on hers," cried Jo,
|
|
adding with a laugh as they went on, "I do believe Marmee would ask
|
|
that if we were all running away from an earthquake.
|
|
|
|
"It is one of her aristocratic tastes, and quite proper, for a
|
|
real lady is always known by neat boots, gloves, and handkerchief,"
|
|
replied Meg, who had a good many little `aristocratic tastes' of
|
|
her own.
|
|
|
|
"Now don't forget to keep the bad breadth out of sight, Jo.
|
|
Is my sash right? And does my hair look very bad?" said Meg, as
|
|
she turned from the glass in Mrs. Gardiner's dressing room after
|
|
a prolonged prink.
|
|
|
|
"I know I shall forget. If you see me doing anything wrong,
|
|
just remind me by a wink, will you?" returned Jo, giving her
|
|
collar a twitch and her head a hasty brush.
|
|
|
|
"No, winking isn't ladylike. I'll lift my eyebrows if any
|
|
thing is wrong, and nod if you are all right. Now hold your
|
|
shoulder straight, and take short steps, and don't shake hands if
|
|
you are introduced to anyone. It isn't the thing."
|
|
|
|
"How do you learn all the proper ways? I never can. Isn't
|
|
that music gay?"
|
|
|
|
Down they went, feeling a trifle timid, for they seldom went
|
|
to parties, and informal as this little gathering was, it was an
|
|
event to them. Mrs. Gardiner, a stately old lady, greeted them
|
|
kindly and handed them over to the eldest of her six daughters.
|
|
Meg knew Sallie and was at her ease very soon, but Jo, who didn't
|
|
care much for girls or girlish gossip, stood about, with her back
|
|
carefully against the wall, and felt as much out of place as a
|
|
colt in a flower garden. Half a dozen jovial lads were talking
|
|
about skates in another part of the room, and she longed to go and
|
|
join them, for skating was one of the joys of her life. She tele-
|
|
graphed her wish to Meg, but the eyebrows went up so alarmingly
|
|
that she dared not stir. No one came to talk to her, and one by
|
|
one the group dwindled away till she was left alone. She could
|
|
not roam about and amuse herself, for the burned breadth would
|
|
show, so she stared at people rather forlornly till the dancing
|
|
began. Meg was asked at once, and the tight slippers tripped
|
|
about so briskly that none would have guessed the pain their
|
|
wearer suffered smilingly. Jo saw a big red headed youth
|
|
approaching her corner, and fearing he meant to engage her, she
|
|
slipped into a curtained recess, intending to peep and enjoy
|
|
herself in peace. Unfortunately, another bashful person had
|
|
chosen the same refuge, for, as the curtain fell behind her,
|
|
she found herself face to face with the `Laurence boy'.
|
|
|
|
"Dear me, I didn't know anyone was here!" stammered Jo,
|
|
preparing to back out as speedily as she had bounced in.
|
|
|
|
But the boy laughed and said pleasantly, though he looked
|
|
a little startled, "Don't mind me, stay if you like."
|
|
|
|
"Shan't I disturb you?"
|
|
|
|
"Not a bit. I only came here because I don't know many
|
|
people and felt rather strange at first, you know."
|
|
|
|
"So did I. Don't go away, please, unless you'd rather."
|
|
|
|
The boy sat down again and looked at his pumps, till Jo
|
|
said, trying to be polite and easy, "I think I've had the pleasure
|
|
of seeing you before. You live near us, don't you?"
|
|
|
|
"Next door." And he looked up and laughed outright, for Jo's
|
|
prim manner was rather funny when he remembered how they had chatted
|
|
about cricket when he brought the cat home.
|
|
|
|
That put Jo at her ease and she laughed too, as she said, in
|
|
her heartiest way, "We did have such a good time over your nice
|
|
Christmas present."
|
|
|
|
"Grandpa sent it."
|
|
|
|
"But you put it into his head, didn't you, now?"
|
|
|
|
"How is your cat, Miss March?" asked the boy, trying to look
|
|
sober while his black eyes shone with fun.
|
|
|
|
"Nicely, thank you, Mr. Laurence. But I am not Miss March, I'm
|
|
only Jo," returned the young lady.
|
|
|
|
"I'm not Mr. Laurence, I'm only Laurie."
|
|
|
|
"Laurie Laurence, what an odd name."
|
|
|
|
"My first name is theodore, but I don't like it, for the
|
|
fellows called me Dora, so I made the say Laurie instead."
|
|
|
|
"I hate my name, too, so sentimental! I wish every one would
|
|
say Jo instead of Josephine. How did you make the boys stop calling
|
|
you Dora?"
|
|
|
|
"I thrashed `em."
|
|
|
|
"I can't thrash Aunt March, so I suppose I shall have to bear
|
|
it." And Jo resigned herself with a sigh.
|
|
|
|
"Don't you like to dance, Miss Jo?" asked Laurie, looking
|
|
as if he thought the name suited her.
|
|
|
|
"I like it well enough if there is plenty of room, and every-
|
|
one is lively. In a place like this I'm sure to upset something,
|
|
tread on people's toes, or do something dreadful, so I keep out
|
|
of mischief and let Meg sail about. Don't you dance?"
|
|
|
|
"Sometimes. You see I've been abroad a good many years, and
|
|
haven't been into company enough yet to know how you do things here."
|
|
|
|
"Abroad!." cried Jo. "Oh, tell me about it! I love dearly to
|
|
hear people describe their travels."
|
|
|
|
Laurie didn't seem to know where to begin, but Jo's eager
|
|
questions soon set him going, and he told her how he had been at
|
|
school in Vevay, where the boys never wore hats and had a fleet of
|
|
boats on the lake, and for holiday fun went on walking trips about
|
|
Switzerland with their teachers.
|
|
|
|
"Don't I wish I'd been there!" cried Jo. "Did you go to Paris?"
|
|
|
|
"We spent last winter there."
|
|
|
|
"Can you talk French?"
|
|
|
|
"We were not allowed to speak anything else at Vevay."
|
|
|
|
"Do say some! I can read it, but can't pronounce."
|
|
|
|
"Quel nom a cetter jeune demoiselle en les pantoulles jolis?"
|
|
|
|
"How nicely you do it! Let me see . . . you said, `Who is the
|
|
young lady in the pretty slippers', didn't you?"
|
|
|
|
"Oui, mademoiselle."
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|
|
|
"It's my sister Margaret, and you knew it was! Do you think
|
|
she is pretty?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, she makes me think of the German girls, she looks so
|
|
fresh and quiet, and dances like a lady."
|
|
|
|
Jo quite glowed with pleasure at this boyish praise of her
|
|
sister, and stored it up to repeat to Meg. Both peeped and
|
|
critisized and chatted till they felt like old acquaintances. Laurie's
|
|
bashfulness soon wore off, for Jo's gentlemanly demeanor amused and
|
|
set him at his ease, and Jo was her merry self again, because her
|
|
dress was forgotten and nobody lifted their eyebrows at her. She
|
|
liked the `Laurence boy' better than ever and took several good
|
|
looks at him, so that she might describe him to the girls, for they
|
|
had no brothers, very few male cousins, and boys were almost unknown
|
|
creatures to them.
|
|
|
|
"Curly black hair, brown skin, big black eyes, handsome nose,
|
|
fine teeth, small hands and feet, taller than I am, very polite,
|
|
for a boy, and altogether jolly. Wonder how old he is?"
|
|
|
|
It was on the tip of Jo's tongue to ask, but she checked
|
|
herself in time and, with unusual tact, tried to find out in a
|
|
round-about way.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose you are going to college soon? I see you pegging
|
|
away at your books, no, I mean studying hard." And Jo blushed
|
|
at the dreadful `pegging' which had escaped her.
|
|
|
|
Laurie smiled but didn't seem shocked, and answered with a
|
|
shrug. "Not for a year or two. I won't go before seventeen,
|
|
anyway."
|
|
|
|
"Aren't you but fifteen?" asked Jo, looking at the tall lad,
|
|
whom she had imagined seventeen already.
|
|
|
|
"Sixteen, next month."
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|
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"How I wish I was going to college! You don't look as if
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you liked it."
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"I hate it! Nothing but grinding or skylarking. And I don't
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like the way fellows do either, in this country."
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"What do you like?"
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"To live in Italy, and to enjoy myself in my own way."
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Jo wanted very much to ask what his own way was, but his
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black brows looked rather threatening as he knit them, so she
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changed the subject by saying, as her foot kept time, "That's a
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splendid polka! Why don't you go and try it?"
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"If you will come too," he answered, with a gallant little bow.
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"I can't, for I told meg I wouldn't, because . . ." There Jo
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stopped, and looked undecided whether to tell or to laugh.
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"Because, what?"
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"You won't tell?"
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"Never!"
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"Well, I have a bad trick of standing before the fire, and so
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I burn my frocks, and I scorched this one, and though it's nicely
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mended, it shows, and Meg told me to keep still so no one would
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see it. You may laugh, if you want to. It is funny, I know."
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But Laurie didn't laugh. He only looked dawn a minute, and
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the expression of his face puzzled Jo when he said very gently,
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"Never mind that. I'll tell you how we can manage. There's a long
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hall out there, and we can dance grandly, and no one will see us.
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Please come."
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Jo thanked him and gladly went, wishing she had two neat gloves
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when she saw the nice, pearl-colored ones her partner wore. The
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hall was empty, and they had a grand polka, for Laurie danced well,
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and taught her the German step, which delighted Jo,being full of
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swing and spring> When the music stopped, they sat down on the
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stairs to get their breath, and Laurie was in the midst of an account
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of a students' festival at Heidelberg when Meg appeared in search of
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her sister. She beckoned, and Jo reluctantly followed her into a
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side room, where she found her on a sofa, holding her foot, and
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looking pale.
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"I've sprained my ankle. That stupid high heel turned and
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gave me a sad wrench. It aches so, I can hardly stand, and I don't
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know how I'm ever going to get home," she said, rocking to and fro
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in pain.
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"I knew you'd hurt your feet with those silly shoes. I'm
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sorry. But I don't see what you can do, except get a carriage, or
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stay here all night," answered Jo, softly rubbing the poor ankle as
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she spoke.
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"I can't have a carriage without its costing ever so much. I
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dare say I can't get one at all, for most people come in their own,
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and it's a long way to the stable, and no one to send."
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"I'll go."
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"No, indeed! It's past nine, and dark as Egypt. I can't stop
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here, for the house is full. Sallie has some girls staying with her.
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I'll rest till Hannah comes, and then do the best I can."
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"I'll ask Laurie. He will go," said Jo," looking relieved as
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the idea occurred to her.
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"Mercy, no! Don't ask or tell anyone. Get me my rubbers, and
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put these slippers with our things. I can't dance anymore, but as
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soon as supper is over, watch for Hannah and tell me the minute she
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comes."
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"They are going out to supper now. I'll stay with you. I'd
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rather."
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"No, dear, run along, and bring me some coffee. I'm so tired
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I can't stir."
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So Meg reclined, with rubbers well hidden, and Jo went blund-
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ering away to the dining room, which she found after going into a
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china closet, and opening the door of a room where old Mr. Gardiner
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was taking a little private refreshment. Making a dart at the
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table, she secured the coffee, which she immediately spilled,
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thereby making the front of her dress as bad as the back.
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"Oh, dear, what a blunderbuss I am!" exclaimed Jo, finish-
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ing Meg's glove by scrubbing her gown with it.
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"Can I help you?" said a friendly voice. And there was Laurie,
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with a full cup in one hand and a plate of ice in the other.
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"I was trying to get something for Meg, who is very tired, and
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someone shook me, and here I am in a nice state," answered Jo,
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glancing dismally from the stained skirt to the coffee-colored glove.
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"Too bad! I was looking for someone to give this to. May I
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take it to your sister?"
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"Oh, thank you! I'll show you where she is. I don't offer to
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take it myself, for I should only get into another scrape if I did."
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Jo led the way, and as if used to waiting on ladies, Laurie
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drew up a little table, brought a second installment of coffee and
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ice for Jo, and was so obliging that even particular Meg pronounced
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him a `nice boy'. They had a merry time over the bonbons and mottoes,
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and were in the midst of a quiet game of BUZZ, with two or three
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other young people who had strayed in, when Hannah appeared. Meg
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forgot her foot and rose so quickly that she was forced to catch
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hold of Jo, with an exclamation of pain.
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"Hush! Don't say anything," she whispered, adding aloud, "It's
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nothing. I turned my foot a little, that's all," and limped upstairs
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to put her things on.
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Hannah scolded, Meg cried, and Jo was at her wits' end, till
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se decided to take things into her own hands. Slipping out, she ran
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down and, finding a servant, asked if he could get her a carriage.
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|
It happened to be a hired waiter who knew nothing about the neigh-
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borhood and Jo was looking round for help when Laurie, who had heard
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what she said, came up and offered his grandfather's carriage, which
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|
had just come for him, he said.
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"It's so early! You can't mean to go yet?" began Jo. looking
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relieved but hesitating to accept the offer.
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"I always go early, I do, truly! Please let me take you home.
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|
It's all on my way, you know, and it rains, they say."
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|
That settled it, and telling him of Meg's mishap, Jo gratefully
|
|
accepted and rushed up to bring down the rest of the party. Hannah
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|
hated rain as much as a cat does so she made no trouble, and they
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|
rolled away in the luxurious close carriage, feeling very festive
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|
and elegant. Laurie went on the box so Meg could keep her foot up,
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|
and the girls talked over their party in freedom.
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"I had a capital time. Did you?' asked Jo, rumpling up her
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|
hair, and making herself comfortable.
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"Yes, till I hurt myself. Sallie's friend, Annie Moffat, took
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|
a fancy to me, and asked me to come and spend a week with her when
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|
Sallie does. She is going in the spring when the opera comes, and
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it will be perfectly splendid, if Mother only lets me go," answered
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Meg, cheering up at the thought.
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"I saw you dancing with the red headed man I ran away from. Was
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|
he nice?"
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"Oh. very! His hair is auburn, not red, and he was very polite,
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|
and I had a delicious redowa with him."
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"He looked like a grasshopper in a fit when he did the new step.
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|
Laurie and I couldn't help laughing. Did you hear us?"
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"No, but it was very rude. What were you about all that time,
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hidden away there?"
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Jo told her adventures, and by the time she had finished they
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|
were at home. With many thanks, they said good night and crept in,
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|
hoping to disturb no one, but the instant their door creaked, two
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|
little nightcaps bobbed up, and two sleepy but eager voices cried out . . .
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"Tell about the party! Tell about the party!"
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With what Meg called `a great want of manners' Jo had saved some
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|
bonbons for the little girls, and they soon subsided, after hearing
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|
the most thrilling events of the evening.
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"I declare, it really seems like being a fine young lady, to
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|
come home from the party in a carriage and sit in my dressing gown
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|
wit a maid to wait on me," said Meg, as Jo bound up her foot with
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arnica and brushed her hair.
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|
"I don't believe fine young ladies enjoy themselves a bit more
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|
than we do, in spite of our burned hair, old gowns, one glove apiece
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|
and tight slippers that sprain our ankles when we are silly enough
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|
to wear them," And I think Jo was quite right.
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CHAPTER 4
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"Oh, dear, how hard it does seem to take up our packs
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|
and go on," sighed Meg the morning after the party, for now
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|
the holidays were over, the week of merrymaking did not fit
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|
her for going on easily with the task she never liked.
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|
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|
"I wish it was Christmas or New Year's all the time.
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|
Wouldn't it be fun?" answered Jo, yawning dismally.
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|
"We shouldn't enjoy ourselves half so much as we do now.
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|
But it does seem so nice to have little suppers and bouquets,
|
|
and go to parties, and drive home, and read and rest,and not
|
|
work. It's like other people, you know, and I always envy
|
|
girls who do such things, I'm so fond of luxury," said Meg,
|
|
trying to decide which of two shabby gowns was the least
|
|
shabby.
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|
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|
"Well, we can't have it, so don't let us grumble but
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|
shoulder our bundles and trudge along as cheerfully as Mar-
|
|
mee does. I'm sure Aunt March is a regular Old Man of the
|
|
Sea to me, but I suppose when I've learned to carry her with-
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|
out complaining, she will tumble off, or get so light that I
|
|
shan't mind her."
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|
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|
This idea tickled Jo's fancy and put her in good
|
|
spirits, but Meg didn't brighten, for her burden, consisting
|
|
of four spoiled children, seemed heavier than ever. She had
|
|
not heart enough even to make herself pretty as usual by
|
|
putting on a blue neck ribbon and dressing her hair in the
|
|
most becoming way.
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|
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|
"Where's the use of looking nice, when no one sees me
|
|
but those cross midgets, and no one cares whether I'm pretty
|
|
or not?" she muttered, shutting her drawer with a jerk. "I
|
|
shall have to toil and moil all my days, with only little
|
|
bits of fun now and then, and get old and ugly and sour, be-
|
|
cause I'm poor and can't enjoy my life as other girls do.
|
|
It's a shame!"
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|
|
|
So Meg went down, wearing an injured look,and wasn't at
|
|
all agreeable at breakfast time. Everyone seemed rather out
|
|
of sorts and inclined to croak.
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|
|
|
Beth had a headache and lay on the sofa, trying to com-
|
|
fort herself with the cat and three kittens. Amy was frett-
|
|
ing because her lessons were not learned, and she couldn't
|
|
find her rubbers. Jo would whistle and make a great racket
|
|
getting ready.
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|
|
|
Mrs. March was very busy trying to finish a letter,
|
|
which must go at once, and Hannah had the grumps, for being
|
|
up late didn't suit her.
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|
|
|
"There never was such a cross family!" cried Jo, losing
|
|
her temper when she had upset an inkstand, broken both boot
|
|
lacings, and sat down upon her hat.
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|
|
|
"You're the crossest person in it!" returned Amy, wash-
|
|
ing out the sum that was all wrong with the tears that had
|
|
fallen on her slate.
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|
|
|
"Beth, if you don't keep these horrid cats down cellar
|
|
I'll have them drowned," exclaimed Meg angrily as she tried
|
|
to get rid of the kitten which had scrambled up her back and
|
|
stuck like a burr just out of reach.
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|
|
|
Jo laughed, Meg scolded, Beth implored, and Amy wailed
|
|
because she couldn't remember how much nine times twelve was.
|
|
|
|
"Girls, girls, do be quiet one minute! I must get this
|
|
off by the early mail, and you drive me distracted with your
|
|
worry," cried Mrs. March, crossing out the third spoiled sen-
|
|
tence in her letter.
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|
|
|
There was a momentary lull, broken by Hannah, who stalk-
|
|
ed in, laid two hot turnovers on the table, and stalked out
|
|
again. These turnovers were an institution, and the girls
|
|
called them `muffs',for they had no others and found the hot
|
|
pies very comforting to their hands on cold mornings.
|
|
|
|
Hannah never forgot to make them, no matter how busy or
|
|
grumpy she might be, for the walk was long and bleak. The
|
|
poor things got no other lunch and were seldom home before
|
|
two.
|
|
|
|
"Cuddle your cats and get over your headache, Bethy.
|
|
Goodbye, Marmee. We are a set of rascals this morning, but
|
|
we'll come home regular angels. Now then, Meg!" And Jo
|
|
tramped away, feeling that the pilgrims were not setting out
|
|
as they ought to do.
|
|
|
|
They always looked back before turning the corner, for
|
|
their mother was always at the window to nod and smile, and
|
|
wave her hand to them. Somehow it seemed as if they couldn't
|
|
have got through the day without that, for whatever their
|
|
mood might be, the last glimpse of that motherly face was
|
|
sure to affect them like sunshine.
|
|
|
|
"If Marmee shook her fist instead of kissing her hand
|
|
to us, it would serve us right, for more ungrateful wretches
|
|
than we are were never seen," cried Jo, taking a remorseful
|
|
satisfaction in the snowy walk and bitter wind.
|
|
|
|
"Don't use such dreadful expressions," replied Meg from
|
|
the depths of the veil in which she had shrouded herself
|
|
like a nun sick of the world.
|
|
|
|
"I like good strong words that mean something," replied
|
|
Jo, catching her hat as it took a leap off her head prepara-
|
|
tory to flying away altogether.
|
|
|
|
"Call yourself any names you like, but I am neither a
|
|
rascal nor a wretch and I don't choose to be called so."
|
|
|
|
"You're a blighted being, and decidedly cross today be-
|
|
cause you can't sit in the lap of luxury all the time. Poor
|
|
dear, just wait till I make my fortune, and you shall revel
|
|
in carriages and ice cream and high-heeled slippers, and
|
|
posies, and red-headed boys to dance with."
|
|
|
|
"How ridiculous you are, Jo!" But Meg laughed at the
|
|
nonsense and felt better in spite of herself.
|
|
|
|
"Lucky for you I am, for if I put on crushed airs and
|
|
tried to be dismal, as you do, we should be in a nice state.
|
|
Thank goodness, I can always find something funny to keep me
|
|
up. Don't croak any more, but come home jolly, there's a
|
|
dear."
|
|
|
|
Jo gave her sister an encouraging pat on the shoulder
|
|
as they parted for the day, each going a different way, each
|
|
hugging her little warm turnover, and each trying to be
|
|
cheerful in spite of wintry weather, hard work, and the un-
|
|
satisfied desires of pleasure-loving youth.
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|
|
|
When Mr. March lost his property in trying to help an
|
|
unfortunate friend,the two oldest girls begged to be allowed
|
|
to do something toward their own support, at least. Believ-
|
|
ing that they could not begin too early to cultivate energy,
|
|
industry, and independence, their parents consented, and
|
|
both fell to work with the hearty good will which in spite
|
|
of all obstacles is sure to succeed at last.
|
|
|
|
Margaret found a place as nursery governess and felt
|
|
rich with her small salary. As she said, she was `fond of
|
|
luxury', and her chief trouble was poverty. She found it
|
|
harder to bear than the others because she could remember a
|
|
time when home was beautiful,life full of ease and pleasure,
|
|
and want of any kind unknown. She tried not to be envious
|
|
or discontented, but it was very natural that the young girl
|
|
should long for pretty things, gay friends, accomplishments,
|
|
and a happy life. At the Kings' she daily saw all she want-
|
|
ed, for the children's older sisters were just out, and Meg
|
|
caught frequent glimpses of dainty ball dresses and bouquets,
|
|
heard lively gossip about theaters, concerts, sleighing par-
|
|
ties, and merrymakings of all kinds, and saw money lavished
|
|
on trifles which would have been so precious to her. Poor
|
|
Meg seldom complained,but a sense of injustice made her feel
|
|
bitter toward everyone sometimes,for she had not yet learned
|
|
to know how rich she was in the blessings which alone can
|
|
make life happy.
|
|
|
|
Jo happened to suit Aunt March, who was lame and needed
|
|
an active person to wait upon her. The childless old lady
|
|
had offered to adopt one of the girls when the troubles came,
|
|
and was much offended because her offer was declined. Other
|
|
friends told the Marches that they had lost all chance of
|
|
being remembered in the rich old lady's will, but the
|
|
unworldly Marches only said . . .
|
|
|
|
"We can't give up our girls for a dozen fortunes. Rich
|
|
or poor, we will keep together and be happy in one another."
|
|
|
|
The old lady wouldn't speak to them for a time, but hap-
|
|
pening to meet Jo at at a friend's, something in her comical
|
|
face and blunt manners struck the old lady's fancy, and she
|
|
proposed to take her for a companion. This did not suit Jo
|
|
at all, but she accepted the place since nothing better app-
|
|
eared and, to every one's surprise, got on remarkably well
|
|
with her irascible relative. There was an occasional temp-
|
|
est, and once Jo marched home, declaring she couldn't bear
|
|
it longer, but Aunt March always cleared up quickly, and
|
|
sent for her to come back again with such urgency that she
|
|
could not refuse, for in her heart she rather liked the
|
|
peppery old lady.
|
|
|
|
I suspect that the real attraction was a large library
|
|
of fine books, which was left to dust and spiders since
|
|
Uncle March died. Jo remembered the kind old gentleman, who
|
|
used to let her build railroads and bridges with his big
|
|
dictionaries, tell her stories about queer pictures in his
|
|
Latin books, and buy her cards of gingerbread whenever he
|
|
met her in the street. The dim, dusty room, with the busts
|
|
staring down from the tall bookcases, the cozy chairs, the
|
|
globes, and best of all, the wilderness of books in which
|
|
she could wander where she liked, made the library a region
|
|
of bliss to her.
|
|
|
|
The moment Aunt March took her nap, or was busy with
|
|
company, Jo hurried to this quiet place,and curling herself
|
|
up in the easy chair, devoured poetry, romance, history,
|
|
travels, and pictures like a regular bookworm. But, like
|
|
all happiness, it did not last long, for as sure as she had
|
|
just reached the heart of the story, the sweetest verse of
|
|
a song, or the most perilous adventure of her traveler, a
|
|
shrill voice called, "Josy-phine! Josy-phine! and she had
|
|
to leave her paradise to wind yarn, wash the poodle, or
|
|
read Belsham's Essays by the hour together.
|
|
|
|
Jo's ambition was to do something very splendid. What
|
|
it was, she had no idea as yet,but left it for time to tell
|
|
her, and meanwhile, found her greatest affliction in the
|
|
fact that she couldn't read, run, and ride as much as she
|
|
liked. A quick temper, sharp tongue, and restless spirit
|
|
were always getting her into scrapes, and her life was a
|
|
series of ups and downs, which were both comic and pathetic.
|
|
But the training she received at Aunt March's was just what
|
|
she needed, and the thought that she was doing something to
|
|
support herself made her happy in spite of the perpetual
|
|
"Josy-phine!"
|
|
|
|
Beth was too bashful to go to school.It had been tried,
|
|
but she suffered so much that it was given up, and she did
|
|
her lessons at home with her father. Even when he went away,
|
|
and her mother was called to devote her skill and energy to
|
|
Soldiers' Aid Societies, Beth went faithfully on by herself
|
|
and did the best she could. She was a housewifely little
|
|
creature, and helped Hannah keep home neat and comfortable
|
|
for the workers, never thinking of any reward but to be
|
|
loved. Long, quiet days she spent, not lonely nor idle, for
|
|
her little world was peopled with imaginary friends,and she
|
|
was by nature a busy bee. There were six dolls to be taken
|
|
up and dressed every morning, for Beth was a child still
|
|
and and loved her pets as well as ever. Not one whole or
|
|
handsome one among them, all were outcasts till Beth took
|
|
them in, for when her sisters outgrew these idols, they
|
|
passed to her because Amy would have nothing old or ugly.
|
|
Beth cherished them all the more tenderly for that very
|
|
reason, and set up a hospital for infirm dolls. No pins
|
|
were ever stuck into their cotton vitals, no harsh words or
|
|
blows were ever given them, no neglect ever saddened the
|
|
heart or the most repulsive, but all were fed and clothed,
|
|
nursed and caressed with an affection which never failed.
|
|
One forlorn fragment of dollanity had belonged to Jo and,
|
|
having led a tempestuous life, was left a wreck in the rag
|
|
bag, from which dreary poorhouse it was rescued by Beth
|
|
and taken to her refuge. Having no top to its head, she
|
|
tied on a neat little cap, and as both arms and legs were
|
|
gone,she hid these deficiencies by folding it in a blanket
|
|
and devoting her best bed to this chronic invalid. If any-
|
|
had known the care lavished on that dolly, I think it
|
|
would have touched their hearts, even while they laughed.
|
|
She brought it bits of bouquets, she read to it, took it
|
|
out to breathe fresh air, hidden under her coat, she sang
|
|
it lullabies and never went to be without kissing its dirty
|
|
face and whispering tenderly, "I hope you'll have a good
|
|
night, my poor dear."
|
|
|
|
Beth had her troubles as well as the others, and not
|
|
being an angel but a very human little girl, she often `wept
|
|
a little weep' as Jo said, because she couldn't take music
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lessons and have a fine piano. She loved music so dearly,
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tried so hard to learn, and practiced away so patiently at
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the jingling old instrument, that it did seem as if someone
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(not to hint Aunt March) ought to help her. Nobody did,
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however, and nobody saw Beth wipe the tears off the yellow
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keys, that wouldn't keep in tune, when she was all alone.
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She sang like a little lark about her work, never was too
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tired for Marmee and the girls, and day after day said
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hopefully to herself, " I know I'll get my music some time,
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if I'm good."
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There are many Beths in the world, shy and quiet, sitting
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in corners till needed, and living for others so cheerfully
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that no one sees the sacrifices till the little cricket on
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the hearth stops chirping, and the sweet, sunshiny presence
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vanishes, leaving silence and shadow behind.
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If anybody had asked Amy what the greatest trial of her
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life was, she would have answered at once, "My nose." When
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she was a baby,Jo had accidently dropped her into the coal hod,
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and Amy insisted that the fall had ruined her nose forever. It
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was not big nor red, like poor `Petrea's', it was only rather
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flat, and all the pinching in the world could not give it an
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aristocratic point. No one minded it but herself, and it was
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doing its best to grow, but Amy felt deeply the want of a
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Grecian nose, and drew whole sheets of handsome ones to console
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herself.
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"Little Raphael," as her sisters called her, had a decided
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talent for drawing, and was never so happy as when copying
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flowers, designing fairies, or illustrating stories with queer
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specimens of art. Her teachers complained that instead of
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doing her sums she covered her slate with animals, the blank
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pages of her atlas were used to copy maps on, and caricatures
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of the most ludicrous description came fluttering out of all
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her books at unlucky moments. She got through her lessons as
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well as she could, and managed to escape reprimands by being
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a model of deportment. She was a great favorite with her mates,
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being good-tempered and possessing the happy art of pleasing
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without effort. Her little airs and graces were much admired,
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so were her accomplishments, for besides her drawing, she could
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play twelve tunes, crochet, and read French without mispronounc-
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ing more than two-thirds of the words. She had a plaintive
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way of saying, "When Papa was rich we did so-and-so," which
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was very touching, and her long words were considered `perfectly
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elegant' by the girls.
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Amy was in a fair way to be spoiled, for everyone petted
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her, and her small vanities and selfishnesses were growing nicely.
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|
One thing, however, rather quenched the vanities. She had to wear
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her cousin's clothes. Now Florence's mama hadn't a particle of
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|
taste, and Amy suffered deeply at having to wear a red instead of
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a blue bonnet, unbecoming gowns, and fussy aprons that did not
|
|
fit. Everything was good, well made, and little worn, but Amy's
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artistic eyes were much afflicted, especially this winter, when
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her school dress was a dull purple with yellow dots and no
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trimming.
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"My only comfort," she said to Meg, with tears in her eyes,
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|
"is that Mother doesn't take tucks in my dresses whenever I'm
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|
naughty, as Maria Parks's mother does. My dear, it's really
|
|
dreadful, for sometimes she is so bad her frock is up to her
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|
knees, and she can't come to school. When I think of this
|
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deggerredation, I fell that I can bear even my flat nose and
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purple gown with yellow skyrockets on it."
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Meg was Amy's confidante and monitor, and by some strange
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|
attraction of opposites Jo was gentle Beth's. To Jo alone did
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the shy child tell her thoughts, and over her big harum-scarum
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|
sister Beth unconsciously exercised more influence than anyone
|
|
in the family. The two older girls were a great deal to one
|
|
another, but each took one of the younger sisters into her
|
|
keeping and watched over her in her own way, `playing mother'
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|
they called it, and put their sisters in the places of
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discarded dolls with the maternal instinct of litte women.
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"Has anybody got anything to tell? It's been such a dismal
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|
day I'm really dying for some amusement," said Meg, as they sat
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sewing together that evening.
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"I had a queer time with Aunt today, and, as I got the best
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of it,I'll tell you about it," began Jo, who dearly loved to tell
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|
stories. "I was reading that everlasting Belsham, and droning
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|
away as I always do, for Aunt soon drops off, and then I take out
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some nice book, and read like fury till she wakes up. I actually
|
|
made myself sleepy, and before she began to nod, I gave such a
|
|
gape that she asked me what I meant by opening my mouth wide
|
|
enough to take the whole book in at once.
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|
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"I wish I could, and be done with it," said I, trying not to
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|
be saucy.
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|
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|
"Then she gave me a long lecture on my sins, and told me to
|
|
sit and think them over while she just `lost' herself for a moment.
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|
She never finds herself very soon, so the minute her cap began to
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|
bob like a top-heavy dahlia, I whipped the VICAR OF WAKEFIELD out
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|
of my pocket, and read away, with one eye on him and one on Aunt.
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|
I'd just got to where they all tumbled into the water when I
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|
forgot and laughed out loud. Aunt woke up and, being more
|
|
good-natured after her nap, told me to read a bit and show what
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|
frivolous work I preferred to the worthy and instructive Belsham.
|
|
I did my very best, and she liked it, though she only said . . .
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|
"I don't understand what it's all about. Go back and begin
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|
it, child."
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|
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|
"Back I went, and made the Primroses as interesting as ever I
|
|
could. Once I was wicked enough to stop in a thrilling place, and
|
|
say meekly, "I'm afraid it tires you, ma'am. Shan't I stop now?"
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|
"She caught up her knitting, which had dropped out of her
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|
hands, gave me a sharp look through her specs, and said, in her
|
|
short way, `Finish the chapter, and don't be impertinent, miss'."
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|
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|
"Did she own she liked it?" asked Meg.
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|
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|
"Oh, bless you, no! But she let old Belsham rest, and when I
|
|
ran back after my gloves this afternoon, there she was, so hard at
|
|
the Vicar that she didn't hear me laugh as I danced a jig in the hall
|
|
because of the good time coming. What a pleasant life she might have
|
|
if only she chose! I don't envy her much, in spite of her money, for
|
|
after all rich people have about as many worries as poor ones, I
|
|
think," added Jo.
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|
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|
"That reminds me," said Meg, "that I've got something to tell.
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|
It isn't funny, like Jo's story, but I thought about it a good deal
|
|
as I came home. At the Kings' today I found everybody in a flurry,
|
|
and one of the children said that her oldest brother had done some-
|
|
thing dreadful, and Papa had sent him away. I heard Mrs. King
|
|
crying and Mr. King talking very loud, and Grace and Ellen turned
|
|
away their faces when they passed me, so I shouldn't see how red and
|
|
swollen their eyes were. I didn't ask any questions, of course, but
|
|
I felt so sorry for them and was rather glad I hadn't any wild
|
|
brothers to do wicked things and disgrace the family."
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|
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|
"I think being disgraced in school is a great deal tryinger
|
|
than anything bad boys can do," said Amy, shaking her head, as if
|
|
her experience of life had been a deep one. "Susie Perkins came
|
|
to school today with a lovely red carnelian ring. I wanted it
|
|
dreadfully, and wished I was her with all my might. Well, she
|
|
drew a picture of Mr. Davis, with a monstrous nose and a hump,
|
|
and the words, `Young ladies, my eye is upon you!' coming out of
|
|
his mouth in a balloon thing. We were laughing over it when all
|
|
of a sudden his eye was on us, and he ordered Susie to bring up
|
|
her slate. She was parrylized with fright, but she went, and oh,
|
|
what do you think he did? He took her by the ear--the ear! Just
|
|
fancy how horrid!--and led her to the recitation platform, and
|
|
made her stand there half and hour, holding the slate so everyone
|
|
could see."
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|
|
|
"Didn't the girls laugh at the picture?" asked Jo, who
|
|
relished the scrape.
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|
|
|
"Laugh? Not one! They sat still as mice, and Susie cried
|
|
quarts, I know she did. I didn't envy her then, for I felt that
|
|
millions of carnelian rings wouldn't have made me happy after that.
|
|
I never, never should have got over such a agonizing mortification."
|
|
And Amy went on with her work, in the proud consciousness of virtue
|
|
and the successful utterance of two long words in a breath.
|
|
|
|
"I saw something I liked this morning, and I meant to tell it
|
|
at dinner, but I forgot," said Beth, putting Jo's topsy-turvy basket
|
|
in order as she talked. "When I went to get some oysters for Hannah,
|
|
Mr. Laurence was in the fish shop, but he didn't see me, for I kept
|
|
behind the fish barrel, and he was busy with Mr. Cutter the fishman.
|
|
A poor woman came in with a pail a mop, and asked Mr. Cutter if he
|
|
would let her do some scrubbing for a bit of fish, because she
|
|
hadn't any dinner for her children, and had been disappointed of a
|
|
day's work. Mr. Cutter was in a hurry and said `No', rather
|
|
crossly, so she was going away, looking hungry and sorry, when Mr.
|
|
Laurence hooked up a big fish with the crooked end of his cane and
|
|
held it out to her. She was so glad and surprised she took it
|
|
right into her arms, and thanked him over and over. He told her to
|
|
`go along and cook it', and she hurried off, so happy! Wasn't it
|
|
good of him? Oh, she did look so funny, hugging the big, slippery
|
|
fish, and hoping Mr. Laurence's bed in heaven would be `aisy'."
|
|
|
|
When they had laughed at Beth's story, they asked their mother
|
|
for one, and after a moments thought, she said soberly, "As I sat
|
|
cutting out blue flannel jackets today at the rooms, I felt very
|
|
anxious about Father, and thought how lonely and helpless we should
|
|
be , if anything happened to him. It was not a wise thing to do,
|
|
but I kept on worrying till an old man came in with an order for some
|
|
clothes. He sat down near me, and I began to talk to him, for he
|
|
looked poor and tired and anxious.
|
|
|
|
"`Have you sons in the army?' I asked,for the note he brought
|
|
was not to me.
|
|
"Yes, ma'am. I had four, but two were killed, one is a prisoner,
|
|
and I'm going to the other, who is very sick in a Washington hospital.'
|
|
he answered quietly.
|
|
|
|
"`You have done a great deal for your country, sir,' I said,
|
|
feeling respect now, instead of pity.
|
|
|
|
"`Not a mite more than I ought, ma'am. I'd go myself, if I was
|
|
any use. As I ain't, I give my boys, and give 'em free.'
|
|
|
|
"He spoke so cheerfully, looked so sincere, and seemed so glad
|
|
to give his all, that I was ashamed of myself. I'd given one man and
|
|
thought it too much, while he gave four without grudging them. I had
|
|
all my girls to comfort me at home, and his last son was waiting,
|
|
miles away, to say good-by to him, perhaps! I felt so rich, so happy
|
|
thinking of my blessings, that I made him a nice bundle, gave him
|
|
some money, and thanked him heartily for the lesson he had taught me."
|
|
|
|
"Tell another story, Mother, one with a moral to it, like this.
|
|
I like to think about them afterward, if they are real and not too
|
|
preachy," said Jo, after a minute's silence.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. March smiled and began at once, for she had told stories to
|
|
this little audience for many years, and knew how to please them.
|
|
|
|
"Once upon a time, there were four girls, who had enough to eat
|
|
and drink and wear, a good many comforts and pleasures, kind friends
|
|
and parents who loved them dearly, and yet they were not contented."
|
|
(Here the listeners stole sly looks at one another, and began to sew diligently.) "These girls were anxious to be good and made many
|
|
excellent resolutions, but they did not keep them very well, and were
|
|
constantly saying, `If only we had this,' or `If we could only do
|
|
that,' quite forgetting how much they already had, and how many
|
|
things they actually could do. So they asked an old woman what spell
|
|
they could use to make them happy, and she said, `When you feel
|
|
discontented, think over your blessings, and be grateful.'" (Here Jo
|
|
looked up quickly, as if about to speak, but changed her mind, seeing
|
|
that the story was not done yet.)
|
|
|
|
"Being sensible girls, they decided to try her advice, and soon
|
|
were surprised to see how well off they were. One discovered that
|
|
money couldn't keep shame and sorrow out of rich people's houses,
|
|
another that, though she was poor, she was a great deal happier, with
|
|
her youth, health, and good spirits, than a certain fretful, feeble
|
|
old lady who couldn't enjoy her comforts, a third that, disagreeable
|
|
as it was to help get dinner, it was harder still to go begging for
|
|
it and the fourth, that even carnelian rings were not so valuable as
|
|
good behavior. So they agreed to stop complaining, to enjoy the
|
|
blessings already possessed, and try to deserve them, lest they
|
|
should be taken away entirely, instead of increased, and I believe
|
|
they were never disappointed or sorry that they took the old woman's
|
|
advice."
|
|
|
|
"Now, Marmee, that is very cunning of you to turn our own
|
|
stories against us, and give us a sermon instead of a romance!"
|
|
cried Meg.
|
|
|
|
"I like that kind of sermon. It's the sort Father used to tell
|
|
us," said Beth thoughtfully, putting the needles straight on Jo's
|
|
cushion.
|
|
|
|
"I don't complain near as much as the others do, and I shall be
|
|
more careful than ever now, for I've had warning from Susies's down-
|
|
fall," said Amy morally.
|
|
|
|
"We needed that lesson, and we won't forget it. If we do so,
|
|
you just say to us, as old Chloe did in UNCLE TOM, `Tink ob yer
|
|
marcies, chillen! `Tink ob yer marcies!'" added Jo, who could not,
|
|
for the life of her, help getting a morsel of fun out of the little
|
|
sermon, though she took it to heart as much as any of them.
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER FIVE
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|
|
|
"What in the world are you going to do now, Jo." asked
|
|
Meg one snowy afternoon,as her sister came tramping through
|
|
the hall, in rubber boots, old sack, and hood, with a broom
|
|
in one hand and a shovel in the other.
|
|
|
|
"Going out for exercise," answered Jo with a mischie-
|
|
vous twinkle in her eyes.
|
|
|
|
"I should think two long walks this morning would have
|
|
been enough! It's cold and dull out, and I advise you to
|
|
stay warm and dry by the fire, as I do," said Meg with a
|
|
shiver.
|
|
|
|
"Never take advice! Can't keep still all day, and not
|
|
being a pussycat, I don't like to doze by the fire. I like
|
|
adventures, and I'm going to find some."
|
|
|
|
Meg went back to toast her feet and read IVANHOE, and Jo
|
|
began to dig paths with great energy. The snow was light, and
|
|
with her broom she soon swept a path all round the garden, for
|
|
Beth to walk in when the sun came out and the invalid dolls
|
|
needed air. Now, the garden separated the Marches' house from
|
|
that of Mr. Laurence. Both stood in a suburb of the city, which
|
|
was still countrylike, with groves and lawns, large gardens, and
|
|
quiet streets. A low hedge parted the two estates. On one side
|
|
was an old, brown house, looking rather bare and shabby, robbed
|
|
of the vines that in summer covered its walls and the flowers,
|
|
which then surrounded it. On the other side was a stately stone
|
|
mansion, plainly betokening every sort of comfort and luxury, from
|
|
the big coach house and well-kept grounds to the conservatory and
|
|
the glimpses of lovely things one caught between the rich curtains.
|
|
|
|
Yet it seemed a lonely, lifeless sort of house, for no children
|
|
frolicked on the lawn, no motherly face ever smiled at the windows,
|
|
and few people went in and out, except the old gentleman and his
|
|
grandson.
|
|
|
|
To Jo's lively fancy, this fine house seemed a kind of enchanted
|
|
palace, full of splendors and delights which no one enjoyed. She
|
|
had long wanted to behold these hidden glories, and to know the
|
|
Laurence boy, who looked as if he would like to be known, if he only
|
|
knew how to begin. Since the party, she had been more eager than ever,
|
|
and had planned many ways of making friends with him, but he had not
|
|
been seen lately, and Jo began to think he had gone away, when she
|
|
one day spied a brown face at an upper window, looking wistfully down
|
|
into their garden, where Beth and Amy were snow-balling one another.
|
|
|
|
"That boy is suffering for society and fun," she said to herself.
|
|
"His grandpa does not know what's good for him, and keeps him shut up
|
|
all alone. He needs a party of jolly boys to play with, or somebody
|
|
young and lively. I've a great mind to go over and tell the old
|
|
gentleman so!"
|
|
|
|
The idea amused Jo. who liked to do daring things and was
|
|
always scandalizing Meg by her queer performances. The plan of
|
|
`going over' was not forgotten. And when the snowy afternoon came,
|
|
Jo resolved to try what could be done. She saw Mr. Lawrence drive off,
|
|
and then sallied out to dig her way down to the hedge, where she
|
|
paused and took a survey. All quiet, curtains down at the lower win-
|
|
dows, servants out of sight, and nothing human visible but a curly
|
|
black head leaning on a thin hand at the upper window.
|
|
|
|
"There he is," thought Jo, "Poor boy! All alone and sick this
|
|
dismal day. It's a shame! I'll toss up a snowball and make him look
|
|
out, and then say a kind word to him."
|
|
|
|
Up went a handful of soft snow, and the head turned at once,
|
|
showing a face which lost its listless look in a minute, as the big
|
|
eyes brightened and the mouth began to smile. Jo nodded and laughed,
|
|
and flourished her broom as she called out . . .
|
|
|
|
"How do you do? Are you sick?"
|
|
|
|
Laurie opened the window, and croaked out as hoarsely as a raven . . .
|
|
|
|
"Better, thank you. I've had a bad cold, and been shut up a
|
|
week."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sorry. What do you amuse yourself with?"
|
|
|
|
"Nothing. It's dull as tombs up here."
|
|
|
|
"Don't you read?"
|
|
|
|
"Not much. They won't let me."
|
|
|
|
"Can't somebody read to you?"
|
|
|
|
"Grandpa does sometimes, but my books don't interest him, and
|
|
I hate to ask Brooke all the time."
|
|
|
|
"Have someone come and see you then."
|
|
|
|
"There isn't anyone I'd like to see. Boys make such a row, and
|
|
my head is weak."
|
|
|
|
"Isn't there some nice girl who'd read and amuse you? Girls
|
|
are quiet and like to play nurse."
|
|
|
|
"Don't know any."
|
|
|
|
"You know us," began Jo, then laughed and stopped.
|
|
|
|
"So I do! Will you come, please?" cried Laurie.
|
|
|
|
"I'm not quiet and nice, but I'll come, if Mother will let me.
|
|
I'll go ask her. Shut the window, like a good boy, and wait till I
|
|
come."
|
|
|
|
With that, Jo shouldered her broom and marched into the house,
|
|
wondering what they would all say to her. Laurie was in a flutter
|
|
of excitement at the idea of having company, and flew about to get
|
|
ready, for as Mrs. March said, he was `a little gentleman'. and did
|
|
honor to the coming guest by brushing his curly pate, putting on a
|
|
fresh color, and trying tidy up the room, which in spite of half a
|
|
dozen servants, was anything but neat. Presently there came a loud
|
|
ring, than a decided voice, asking for `Mr. laurie', and a surprised-
|
|
looking servant came running up to announce a young lady.
|
|
|
|
"All right, show her up, it's Miss Jo,"said Laurie, going to the
|
|
door of his little parlor to meet Jo, who appeared, looking rosy and
|
|
quite at her ease, with a covered dish in one hand and Beth's three
|
|
kittens in the other.
|
|
|
|
"Here I am, bag and baggage," she said briskly. "Mother sent her
|
|
love, and was glad if I could do anything for you. Meg wanted me to
|
|
bring some of her blancmange, she makes it very nicely, and Beth thought
|
|
her cats would be comforting. I knew you'd laugh at them, but I couldn't
|
|
refuse, she was so anxious to do something."
|
|
|
|
It so happened that Beth's funny loan was just the thing, for
|
|
in laughing over the kits, Laurie forgot his bashfulness, and grew
|
|
sociable at once.
|
|
|
|
"That looks too pretty to eat," he said, smiling with pleasure,
|
|
as Jo uncovered the dish, and showed the blancmange, surrounded by a
|
|
garland of green leaves, and the scarlet flowers of Amy's pet geranium.
|
|
|
|
"It isn't anything, only they all felt kindly and wanted to show
|
|
it. Tell the girl to put it away for your tea. It's so simple you can
|
|
eat it, and being soft, it will slip down without hurting your sore
|
|
throat. What a cozy room this is!"
|
|
|
|
"It might be it it was kept nice, but the maids are lazy,and
|
|
I don't know how to make them mind. It worries me though."
|
|
|
|
"I'll right it up in two minutes, for it only needs to have the
|
|
hearth brushed, so--and the things made straight on the mantelpiece,
|
|
so--and the books put here, and the bottles there, and your sofa
|
|
turned from the light, and the pillows plumped up a bit. Now then,
|
|
you're fixed."
|
|
|
|
And so he was, for, as she laughed and talked, Jo had whisked
|
|
things into place and given quite a different air to the room. Laurie
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watched her in respectful silence, and when she beckoned him to his
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sofa, he sat down with a sigh of satisfaction, saying gratefully . . .
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"How kind you are! Yes, that's what it wanted. Now please take
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the big chair and let me do something to amuse my company."
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"No, I came to amuse you. Shall I read aloud?" and Jo looked
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affectionately toward some inviting books near by.
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"Thank you! I've read all those, and if you don't mind, I'd
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rather talk," answered Laurie.
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"Not a bit. I'll talk all day if you'll only set me going.
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Beth says I never know when to stop."
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"Is Beth the rosy one, who stays at home good deal and some-
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times goes out with a little basket?" asked Laurie with interest.
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"Yes, that's Beth. She's my girl, and a regular good one she
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is, too."
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"The pretty one is Meg, and the curly-haired one is Amy, I be-
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lieve?"
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Laurie colored up, but answered frankly, "Why, you see I often
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hear you calling to one another, and when I'm alone up here, I can't
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help looking over at your house, you always seem to be having such
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good times. I beg your pardon for being so rude, but sometimes you
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forget to put down the curtain at the window where the flowers are.
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And when the lamps are lighted, it's like looking at a picture to
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see the fire, and you all around the table with your mother. Her
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face is right opposite, and it looks so sweet behind the flowers,
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I can't help watching it. I haven't got any mother, you know."
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And Laurie poked the fire to hide a little twitching of the lips
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that he could not control.
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The solitary, hungry look in his eyes went straight to Jo's
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warm heart. she had been so simply taught that there was no
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nonsense in her head, and at fifteen she was as innocent and frank
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as any child. Laurie was sick and lonely, and feeling how rich she
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was in home and happiness, she gladly tried to share it with him.
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Her face was very friendly and her sharp voice unusually gentle as
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she said . . .
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"We'll never draw that curtain any more, and I give you leave
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to look as much as you like. I just wish, though, instead of peeping,
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you'd come over and see us. Mother is so splendid, she'd do you heaps
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of good, and Beth would sing to you if I begged her to, and Amy would
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dance. Meg and I would make you laugh over our funny stage
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properties, and we'd have jolly times. Wouldn't your grandpa let you?"
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"I think he would, if your mother asked him. He's very kind,
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though he does not look so, and he lets me do what I like, pretty much,
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only he's afraid I might be a bother to strangers," began Laurie,
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brightening more and more.
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"We are not strangers, we are neighbors, and you needn't think
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you'd be a bother. We want to know you, and I've been trying to do
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it this ever so long. We haven't been here a great while, you know,
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but we have got acquainted with all our neighbors but you."
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"You see, Grandpa lives among his books, and doesn't mind much
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what happens outside. Mr. Brooke, my tutor, doesn't stay here, you
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know, and I have no one to go about with me, so I just stop at home
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and get on as I can."
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"That's bad. You ought to make an effort and go visiting
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everywhere you are asked, then you'll have plenty of friends, and
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pleasant places to go to. Never mind being bashful. It won't last
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long if you keep going."
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Laurie turned red again, but wasn't offended at being accused
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of bashfulness, for there was so much good will in Jo it was
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impossible not to take her blunt speeches as kindly as they were
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meant.
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"Do you like your school?" asked the boy, changing the subject,
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after a little pause, during which he stared at the fire and Jo
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looked about her, well pleased.
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"Don't go to school, I'm a businessman--girl, I mean. I go to
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wait on my great-aunt, and a dear, cross old soul she is, too,"
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answered Jo.
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Laurie opened his mouth to ask another question, but remembering
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just in time that it wasn't manners to make too many inquiries into
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people's affairs, he shut it again, and looked uncomfortable.
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Jo liked his good breeding, and didn't mind having a laugh at
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Aunt March, so she gave him a lively description of the fidgety
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old lady, her fat poodle, the parrot that talked Spanish, and the
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library where she reveled.
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Laurie enjoyed that immensely, and when she told about the
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prim old gentleman who came once to woo Aunt March, and in the
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middle of a fine speech, how Poll had tweaked his wig off to his
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great dismay, the boy lay back and laughed till the tears ran
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down his cheeks, and a maid popped her head in to see what was
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the matter.
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"Oh! That does me no end of good. Tell on, please," he
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said, taking his face out of the sofa cushion, red and shining
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with merriment.
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Much elated with her success, Jo did `tell on', all about
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their plays and plans, their hopes and fears for Father, and
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the most interesting events of the little world in which the
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sisters lived. Then they got to talking about books, and to
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Jo's delight, she found that Laurie loved them as well as she
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did, and had read even more than herself.
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"If you like them so much, come down and see ours. Grand-
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father is out, so you needn't be afraid," said Laurie, getting
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up.
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"I'm not afraid of anything," returned Jo, with a toss of
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the head.
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"I don't believe you are!" exclaimed the boy, looking at her
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with much admiration, though he privately thought she would have
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good reason to be a trifle afraid of the old gentleman, if she
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met hem in some of his moods.
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The atmosphere of the whole house being summerlike, Laurie
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led the way from room to room, letting Jo stop to examine what-
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|
ever struck her fancy. And so, at last they came to the library,
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where she clapped her hands and pranced, as she always did when
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especially delighted. It was lined with books, and there were
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pictures and statues, and distracting little cabinets full of
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|
coins and curiosities, and Sleepy Hollow chairs, and queer tables,
|
|
and bronzes, and best of all, a great open fireplace with quaint
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tiles all round it.
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"What richness!" sighed Jo, sinking into the depth of a
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|
velour chair and gazing about her with an air of intense satis-
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|
faction. "Theodore Laurence, you ought to be the happiest boy in
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the world," she added impressively.
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"A fellow can't live on books," said Laurie, shaking his head
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as he perched on a table opposite.
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Before he could more, a bell rang, and Jo flew up, exclaiming
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with alarm, "Mercy me! It's your grandpa!"
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"Well, what if it is? You are not afraid of anything, you
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|
know," returned the boy, looking wicked.
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"I think I am a little bit afraid of him, but I don't know
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|
why I should be. Marmee said I might come, and I don't think
|
|
you're any the worse for it," said Jo, composing herself, though
|
|
she kept her eyes on the door.
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"I'm a great deal better for it, and ever so much obliged.
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|
I'm only afraid you are very tired of talking to me. It was so
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|
pleasant, I couldn't bear to stop," said Laurie gratefully.
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"The doctor to see you, sir," and the maid beckoned as she
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|
spoke.
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"Would you mind if I left you for a minute? I suppose I
|
|
must see him," said Laurie.
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"Don't mind me. I'm happy as a cricket here," answered Jo.
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|
Laurie went away, and his guest amused herself in her own way.
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|
She was standing before a fine portrait of the old gentleman when
|
|
the door opened again, and without turning, she said decidedly, "I'm
|
|
sure now that I shouldn't be afraid of him, for he's got kind eyes,
|
|
though his mouth is grim, and he looks as if he had a tremendous will
|
|
of his own. He isn't as handsome as my grandfather, but I like him."
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|
"Thank you, ma'am," said a gruff voice behind her, and there,
|
|
to her great dismay, stood old Mr. Laurence.
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|
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|
Poor Jo blushed till she couldn't blush any redder, and her
|
|
heart began to beat uncomfortably fast as she thought what she had
|
|
said. For a minute a wild desire to run away possessed her, but
|
|
that was cowardly, and the girls would laugh at her, so she resolved
|
|
to stay and get out of the scrape as she could. A second look showed
|
|
her that the living eyes, under the bushy eyebrows, were kinder even
|
|
than the painted ones, and there was a sly twinkle in them, which
|
|
lessened her fear a good deal. The gruff voice was gruffer than ever,
|
|
as the old gentleman said abruptly, after the dreadful pause, "So
|
|
you're not afraid of me, hey?"
|
|
|
|
"Not much, sir."
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|
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|
"And you don't think me as handsome as your grandfather?"
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|
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|
"Not quite, sir."
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|
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|
"And I've got a tremendous will, have I?"
|
|
|
|
"I only said I thought so."
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|
|
|
"But you like me in spite of it?"
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|
|
|
"Yes, I do, sir."
|
|
|
|
That answer pleased the old gentleman. He gave a short laugh,
|
|
shook hands with her, and, putting his finger under her chin, turned
|
|
up her face, examined it gravely, and let it go, saying with a nod,
|
|
"You've got your grandfather's spirit, if you haven't his face. He
|
|
was a fine man, my dear, but what is better, he was a brave and an
|
|
honest one, and I was proud to be his friend."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, sir," And Jo was quite comfortable after that, for
|
|
it suited her exactly.
|
|
|
|
"What have you been doing to this boy of mine, hey?" was the
|
|
next question, sharply put.
|
|
|
|
"Only trying to be neighborly, sir." And Jo to how her visit
|
|
came about.
|
|
|
|
"You think he needs cheering up a bit, do you?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, sir, he seems a little lonely, and young folks would do
|
|
him good perhaps. We are only girls, but we should be glad to
|
|
help if we could, for we don't forget the splendid Christmas present
|
|
you sent us," said Jo eagerly.
|
|
|
|
"Tut, tut, tut! That was the boy's affair. How is the poor
|
|
woman?"
|
|
|
|
"Doing nicely, sir." And off went Jo, talking very fast, as
|
|
she told all about the Hummels, in whom her mother had interested
|
|
richer friends than they were.
|
|
|
|
"Just her father's way of doing good. I shall come and see
|
|
your mother some fine day. Tell her so. There's the tea bell,
|
|
we have it early on the boy's account. Come down and go on being
|
|
neighborly."
|
|
|
|
"If you'd like to have me, sir."
|
|
|
|
"Shouldn't ask you, if I didn't." And Mr. Laurence offered
|
|
her his arm with old-fashioned courtesy.
|
|
|
|
"What would Meg say to this?" thought Jo, as she was marched
|
|
away, while her eyes danced with fun as she imagined herself telling
|
|
the story at home.
|
|
|
|
"Hey! Why, what the dickens has come to the fellow?" said the
|
|
old gentleman, as Laurie came running downstairs and brought up with
|
|
a start of surprise at the astounding sight of Jo arm in arm with
|
|
his redoubtable grandfather.
|
|
|
|
"I didn't know you'd come, sir," he began, as Jo gave him a
|
|
triumphant little glance.
|
|
|
|
"That's evident, by the way you racket downstairs. Come to
|
|
your tea, sir, and behave like a gentleman." And having pulled
|
|
the boy's hair by way of a caress, Mr. Laurence walked on, while
|
|
Laurie went through a series of comic evolutions behind their
|
|
backs, which nearly produced an explosion of laughter from Jo.
|
|
|
|
The old gentleman did not say much as he drank his four
|
|
cups of tea, but he watched the young people, who soon chatted
|
|
away like old friends, and the change in his grandson did not
|
|
escape him. There was color, light, and life in the boy's face
|
|
now, vivacity in his manner, and genuine merriment in his laugh.
|
|
|
|
"She's right, the lad is lonely. I'll see what these little
|
|
girls can do for him," thought Mr. Laurence, as he looked and
|
|
listened. He liked Jo, for her odd, blunt ways suited him, and
|
|
she seemed to understand the boy almost as well as if she had
|
|
been one herself.
|
|
|
|
If the Laurences had been what Jo called `prim and poky',
|
|
she would not have got on at all, for such people always made
|
|
her shy and awkward. But finding them free and easy, she was
|
|
so herself, and made a good impression. When they rose she
|
|
proposed to go, but Laurie said he had something more to show
|
|
her, and took her away to the conservatory, which had been
|
|
lighted for her benefit. It seemed quite fairylike to Jo, as
|
|
she went up and down the walks, enjoying the blooming walls on
|
|
either side, the soft light, the damp sweet air, and the wonderful
|
|
vines and trees that hung about her, while her new friend cut the
|
|
finest flowers till his hands were full. Then he tied them up,
|
|
saying, with the happy look Jo liked to see, "Please give these
|
|
to your mother, and tell her I like the medicine she sent me very
|
|
much."
|
|
|
|
They found Mr. Laurence standing before the fire in the great
|
|
drawing room, by Jo's attention was entirely absorbed by a grand
|
|
piano, which stood open.
|
|
|
|
"Do you play?" she asked, turning to Laurie with a respectful
|
|
expression.
|
|
|
|
"Sometimes," he answered modestly.
|
|
|
|
"Please do now. I want to hear it, so I can tell Beth."
|
|
|
|
"Won't you first?"
|
|
|
|
"Don't know how. Too stupid to learn, but I love music dearly."
|
|
|
|
So Laurie played and Jo listened, with her nose luxuriously
|
|
buried in heliotrope and tea roses. Her respect and regard for
|
|
the `Laurence' boy increased very much, for he played remarkably well
|
|
and didn't put on any airs. She wished Beth could hear him, but
|
|
she did not say so, only praised him till he was quite abashed, and
|
|
his grandfather came to his rescue.
|
|
|
|
"That will do, that will do, young lady. too many sugarplums
|
|
are not good for him. His music isn't bad, but I hope he will do
|
|
as well in more important things. Going? well, I'm much obliged
|
|
to you, and I hope you'll come again. My respects to your mother.
|
|
Good night, Doctor Jo."
|
|
|
|
He shook hands kindly, but looked as if something did not
|
|
please him. When they got into the hall, Jo asked Laurie if she
|
|
had said something amiss. He shook his head.
|
|
|
|
"No, it was me. He doesn't like to hear me play."
|
|
|
|
"Why not?"
|
|
|
|
"I'll tell you some day. John is going home with you, as I
|
|
can't."
|
|
|
|
"No need of that. I am not a young lady, and it's only a
|
|
step. Take care of yourself, won't you?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, but you will come again, I hope?"
|
|
|
|
"If you promise to come and see us after you are well."
|
|
|
|
"I will."
|
|
|
|
"Good night, Laurie!"
|
|
|
|
"Good night, Jo, good night!"
|
|
|
|
When all the afternoon's adventures had been told, the family
|
|
felt inclined to go visiting in a body, for each found something
|
|
very attractive in the big house on the other side of the hedge.
|
|
Mrs. March wanted to talk of her father with the old man who had
|
|
not forgotten him, Meg longed to walk in the conservatory, Beth
|
|
sighed for the grand piano. and Amy was eager to see the fine
|
|
pictures and statues.
|
|
|
|
"Mother, why didn't Mr. Laurence like to have Laurie play?"
|
|
asked Jo, who was of an inquiring disposition.
|
|
|
|
"I am not sure, but I think it was because his son, Laurie's
|
|
father, married an Italian lady, a musician, which displeased the
|
|
old man, who is very proud. The lady was good and lovely and
|
|
accomplished, but he did not like her, and never saw his son after
|
|
he married. They both died when Laurie was a little child, and
|
|
then his grandfather took him home. I fancy the boy, who was born
|
|
in Italy, is not very strong, and the old man is afraid of losing
|
|
him, which makes him so careful. Laurie comes naturally by his
|
|
love of music, for he is like his mother, and I dare say his grand-
|
|
father fears that he may want to be a musician. At any rate, his
|
|
skill reminds him of the woman he did not like, and so he `glowered'
|
|
as Jo said."
|
|
|
|
"Dear me, how romantic!" exclaimed Meg.
|
|
|
|
"How silly!" said Jo. "Let him be a musician if he wants to,
|
|
and not plague his life out sending him to college, when he hates
|
|
to go."
|
|
|
|
"That's why he has such handsome black eyes and pretty manners,
|
|
I suppose. Italians are always nice, " said Meg, who was a little
|
|
sentimental.
|
|
|
|
"What do you know about his eyes and his manners? You never
|
|
spoke to him, hardly," cried Jo, who was not sentimental.
|
|
|
|
"I saw him at the party, and what you tell shows that he knows
|
|
how to behave. That was a nice little speech about the medicine
|
|
Mother sent him."
|
|
|
|
"He meant the blanc mange, I suppose."
|
|
|
|
"How stupid you are, child! He meant you, of course."
|
|
|
|
"Did he?" And Jo opened her eyes as if it had never occurred
|
|
to her before.
|
|
|
|
"I never saw such a girl! You don't know a compliment when
|
|
you get it," said Meg, with the air of a young lady who knew all
|
|
about the matter.
|
|
|
|
"I think they are great nonsense, and I'll thank you not to
|
|
be silly and spoil my fun. Laurie's a nice boy and I like him,
|
|
and I won't have any sentimental stuff about compliments and such
|
|
rubbish. We'll all be good to him because he hasn't got any mother,
|
|
and he may come over and see us, mayn't he, Marmee?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Jo, your little friend is very welcome, and I hope Meg
|
|
will remember that children should be children as long as they can."
|
|
|
|
"I don't call myself a child, and I'm not in my teens yet,"
|
|
observed Amy. "What do you say, Beth?"
|
|
|
|
"I was thinking about our `PILGRIM'S PROGRESS'," answered Beth,
|
|
who had not heard a word. "How we got out of the Slough and through
|
|
the Wicket Gate by resolving to be good, and up the steep hill by
|
|
trying, and that maybe the house over there, full of splendid things,
|
|
is going to be our Palace Beautiful."
|
|
|
|
"We have got to get by the lions first," said Jo, as if she
|
|
rather liked the prospect.
|
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|
CHAPTER SIX
|
|
|
|
The big house did prove a Palace Beautiful, though it took
|
|
some time for all to get in, and Beth found it very hard to pass
|
|
the lions. Old Mr. Laurence was the biggest one, but after he
|
|
had called, said something funny or kind to each one of the girls,
|
|
and talked over old times with their mother, nobody felt much
|
|
afraid of him, except timid Beth. The other lion was the fact that
|
|
they were poor and Laurie rich, for this made them shy of accepting
|
|
favors which they could not return. But, after a while, they found
|
|
that he considered them the benefactors, and could not do enough to
|
|
show how grateful he was for Mrs. March's motherly welcome, their
|
|
cheerful society, and the comfort he took in that humble home of
|
|
theirs. So they soon forgot their pride and interchanged kindnesses
|
|
without stopping to think which was the greater.
|
|
|
|
All sorts of pleasant things happened about that time, for the
|
|
new friendship flourished like grass in spring. Every one liked
|
|
Laurie, and he privately informed his tutor that "the Marches were
|
|
regularly splendid girls." With the delightful enthusiasm of youth,
|
|
they took the solitary boy into their midst and made much of him,
|
|
and he found something very charming in the innocent companionship
|
|
of these simple-hearted girls. Never having known mother or sisters,
|
|
he was quick to feel the influences they brought about him, and
|
|
their busy, lively ways made him ashamed of the indolent life he led.
|
|
He was tired of books, and found people so interesting now that Mr.
|
|
Brooke was obliged to make very unsatisfactory reports, for Laurie
|
|
was always playing truant and running over to the Marches'.
|
|
|
|
"Never mind, let him take a holiday, and make it up afterward,"
|
|
said the old gentleman. "The good lady next door says he is studying
|
|
too hard and needs young society, amusement, and exercise. I suspect
|
|
she is right, and that I've been coddling the fellow as if I'd been
|
|
his grandmother. Let him do what he likes, as long as he is happy.
|
|
He can't get into mischief in that little nunnery over there, and
|
|
Mrs. March is doing more for him than we can."
|
|
|
|
What good times they had, to be sure. Such plays and tableaux,
|
|
such sleigh rides and skating frolics, such pleasant evenings in
|
|
the old parlor, and now and then such gay little parties at the
|
|
great house. Meg could walk in the conservatory whenever she liked
|
|
and revel in bouquets, Jo browsed over the new library voraciously,
|
|
and convulsed the old gentleman with her criticisms, Amy copied
|
|
pictures and enjoyed beauty to her heart's content, and Laurie
|
|
played `lord of the manor' in the most delightful style.
|
|
|
|
But Beth, though yearning for the grand piano, could not
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pluck up courage to go to the `Mansion of Bliss', as Meg called
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it. She went once with Jo, but the old gentleman, not being
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aware of her infirmity, stared at her so hard from under his
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heavy eyebrows, and said "Hey!" so loud, that he frightened her
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so much her `feet chattered on the floor', she never told her
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mother, and she ran away, declaring she would never go there
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any more, not even for the dear piano. No persuasions or entice-
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ments could overcome her fear, till, the fact coming to Mr.
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Laurence's ear in some mysterious way, he set about mending
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matters. During one of the brief calls he made, he artfully
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led the conversation to music, and talked away about great
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singers whom he had seen, fine organs he had heard, and told
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such charming anecdotes that Beth found it impossible to stay
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in her distant corner, but crept nearer and nearer, as if
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fascinated. At the back of his chair she stopped and stood
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listening, with her great eyes wide open and her cheeks red
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with excitement of this unusual performance. Taking no more
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notice of her than if she had been a fly, Mr. Laurence talked on
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about Laurie's lessons and teachers. And presently, as if the
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idea had just occurred to him, he said to Mrs. March . . .
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"The boy neglects his music now, and I'm glad of it, for
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he was getting too fond of it. But the piano suffers for want
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of use. Wouldn't some of your girls like to run over, and
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practice on it now and then, just to keep it in tune, you know,
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ma`am?"
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Beth took a step forward, and pressed her hands tightly
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together to keep from clapping them, for this was an irresistible
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temptation, and the thought of practicing on that splendid
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instrument quite took her breath away. Before Mrs. March could
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reply, Mr. Laurence went on with an odd little nod and smile. . .
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"They needn't see or speak to anyone, but run in at any time.
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For I'm shut up in my study at the other end of the house, Laurie
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is out a great deal, and the servants are never near the drawing
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room after nine o'clock."
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Here he rose, as if going, and Beth made up her mind to speak,
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for that last arrangement left nothing to be desired. "Please, tell
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the young ladies what I say, and if they don't care to come, why,
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never mind." Here a little hand slipped into his, and Beth looked
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up at him with a face full of gratitude, as she said, in her earnest
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yet timid way . . .
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"Oh sir, they do care, very very much!"
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"Are you the musical girl?" he asked, without any startling
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"Hey!" as he looked down at her very kindly.
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"I'm Beth. I love it dearly, and I'll come, if you are quite
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sure nobody will hear me, and be disturbed," she added, fearing to
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be rude, and trembling at her own boldness as she spoke.
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"Not a soul, my dear. The house is empty half the day, so
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come and drum away as much as you like, and I shall be obliged to
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you."
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"How kind you are, sir!"
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Beth blushed like a rose under the friendly look he wore, but
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she was not frightened now, and gave the hand a grateful squeeze
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because she had no words to thank him for the precious gift he had
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given her. The old gentleman softly stroked the hair off her fore-
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head, and, stooping down, he kissed herr, saying, in a tone few
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people ever heard . . .
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"I had a little girl once, with eyes like these. God bless you,
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my dear! Good day. madam." And away he went, in a great hurry.
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Beth had a rapture with her mother, and then rushed up to
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impart the glorious news to her family of invalids, as the girls
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were not home. How blithely she sang that evening, and how they
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all laughed at her because she woke Amy in the night by playing
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the piano on her face in her sleep. Next day, having seen both
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the old and young gentleman out of the house, Beth, after two or
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three retreats, fairly got in at the side door, and made her way
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as noiselessly as any mouse to the drawing room where her idol
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stood. Quite by accident, of course, some pretty, easy music lay
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on the piano, and with trembling fingers and frequent stops to
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listen and look about, Beth at last touched the great instrument,
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and straightway forgot her fear, herself, and everything else but
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the unspeakable delight which the music gave her, for it was like
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the voice of a beloved friend.
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She stayed till Hannah came to take her home to dinner, but she
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had no appetite,and could only sit and smile upon everyone in a general
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state of beatitude.
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After that, the little brown hood slipped through the hedge
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nearly every day, and the great drawing room was haunted by a tuneful
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spirit that came and went unseen. She never knew that Mr. Laurence
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opened his study door to hear the old-fashioned airs he liked. She
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never saw Laurie mount guard in the hall to warn the servants away.
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She never suspected that the exercise books and new songs which she
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found in the rack were put there for her especial benefit, and when
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he talked to her about music at home, she only thought how kind he
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was to tell things that helped her so much. So she enjoyed herself
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heartily, and found, what isn't always the case, that her granted
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wish was all she had hoped. Perhaps it was because she was so grateful
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for this blessing that a greater was given her. At any rate she
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deserved both.
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"Mother, I'm going to work Mr. Laurence a pair of slippers. He
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is so kind to me, I must thank him, and I don't know any other way.
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Can I do it?" asked Beth, a few weeks after that eventful call of his.
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"Yes, dear. It will please him very much, and be a nice way of
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thanking him. The girls will help you about them, and I will pay for
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the making up," replied Mrs. March, who took peculiar pleasure in
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granting Beth's requests because she so seldom asked anything for
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herself.
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After many serious discussions with Meg and Jo, the pattern was
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chosen, the materials bought, and the slippers begun. A cluster of
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grave yet cheerful pansies on a deeper purple ground was pronounced
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very appropriate and pretty, and beth worked away early and late, with
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occasional lifts over hard parts. She was a nimble little needlewoman,
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|
and they were finished before anyone got tired of them. Then she wrote
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a short, simple note, and with Laurie's help, got them smuggled onto
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the study table one morning before the old gentleman was up.
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When this excitement was over, Beth waited to see what would
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|
happen. All day passed a a part of the next before any acknowledge-
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|
ment arrived, and she was beginning to fear she had offended her
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|
crochety friend. On the afternoon of the second day, she went out
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|
to do an errand, and give poor Joanna, the invalid doll, her daily
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|
exercise. As she came up the street, on her return, she saw three,
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|
yes, four heads popping in and out of the parlor windows, and the
|
|
moment they saw her, several hands were waved, and several joyful
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|
voices screamed . . .
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"Here's a letter from the old gentleman! Come quick, and read
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|
it!"
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"Oh, Beth, he's sent you . . ." began Amy, gesticulating with
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unseemly energy, but she got no further, for Jo quenched her by
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slamming down the window.
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Beth hurried on in a flutter of suspense. At the door her
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|
sisters seized and bore her to the parlor in a triumphal procession,
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|
all pointing and all saying at once, "Look there! Look there!" Beth
|
|
did look, and turned pale with delight and surprise, for there stood
|
|
a little cabinet piano, with a letter lying on the glossy lid, directed
|
|
like a sign board to "Miss Elizabeth March."
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|
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|
"For me?" gasped Beth, holding onto Jo and feeling as if she
|
|
should tumble down, it was such an overwhelming thing altogether.
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|
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"Yes, all for you, my precious! Isn't it splendid of him? Don't
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|
you think he's the dearest old man in the world? Here's the key in
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|
the letter. We didn't open it, but we are dying to know what he says,"
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|
cried Jo, hugging her sister and offering the note.
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"You read it! I can't, I feel so queer! Oh, it is too lovely!"
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|
and Beth hid her face in Jo's apron, quite upset by her present.
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|
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Jo opened the paper and began to laugh, for the first worked she
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|
saw were . . .
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"Miss March:
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"Dear Madam--"
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|
"How nice it sounds! I wish someone would write to me so!" said
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Amy, who thought the old-fashioned address very elegant.
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"`I have had many pairs of slippers in my life, but I never had
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|
any that suited me so well as yours,'" continues Jo. "`Heartsease is
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|
my favorite flower, and these will always remind me of the gentle
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|
giver. I like to pay my debts, so I know you will allow `the old
|
|
gentleman' to send you something which once belonged to the little
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|
grand daughter he lost. With hearty thanks and best wishes, I remain
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|
"`Your grateful friend and humble servant,
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|
"`JAMES LAURENCE'
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"There, Beth, that's an honor to be proud of, I'm sure! Laurie
|
|
told me how fond Mr.Laurence used to be of the child who died, and
|
|
how he kept all her little things carefully. Just think, he's given
|
|
you her piano. That comes of having big blue eyes and loving music,"
|
|
said Jo, trying to soothe Beth, who trembled and looked more excited
|
|
than she had ever been before.
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|
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|
"See the cunning brackets to hold candles, and the nice green
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|
sild, puckered up, with a gold rose in the middle, and the pretty
|
|
rack and stool, all complete," added Meg, opening the instrument
|
|
and displaying its beauties.
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|
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|
"`Your humble servant, James Laurence'. Only think of his
|
|
writing that to you. I'll tell the girls. They'll think it's
|
|
splendid," said Amy, much impressed by the note.
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|
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|
"Try it, honey. Let's hear the sound of the baby pianny,"
|
|
said Hannah, who always took a share in the family joys and sorrows.
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|
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|
So Beth tried it, and everyone pronounced it the most remarkable
|
|
piano ever heard. It had evidently been newly tuned and put in apple-
|
|
pie order, but, perfect as it was, I think the real charm lay in the
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|
happiest of all happy faces which leaned over it, as Beth lovingly
|
|
touched the beautiful black and white keys and pressed the bright
|
|
pedals.
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|
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|
"You'll have to go and thank him," said Jo, by way of a joke,
|
|
for the idea of the child's really going never entered her head.
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|
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|
"Yes, I mean to. I guess I'll go no, before I get frightened
|
|
thinking about it." And, to the utter amazement of the assembled
|
|
family, Beth walked deliberately down the garden, through the
|
|
hedge, and in at the Laurences' door.
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|
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|
"Well, I wish I may die if it ain't the queerest thing I ever
|
|
see! The pianny has turned her head! She'd never have gone in
|
|
her right mind," cried Hannah, staring after her, while the girls
|
|
were rendered quite speechless by the miracle.
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|
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|
They would have been still more amazed if they had seen what
|
|
Beth did afterward. If you will believe me, she went and knocked
|
|
at the study door before she gave herself time to think, and when
|
|
a gruff voice called out, "come in!" she did go in, right up to
|
|
Mr. Laurence, who looked quite taken aback, and held out her hand,
|
|
saying, with only a small quaver in her voice, "I came to thank you,
|
|
sir, for. . ." But she didn't finish, for he looked so friendly that
|
|
she forgot her speech and, only remembering that he had lost the
|
|
little girl he loved, she put both arms round his neck and kissed
|
|
him.
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|
|
|
If the roof of the house had suddenly flown off, the old
|
|
gentleman wouldn't have been more astonished. But he liked it.
|
|
Oh, dear, yes, he liked it amazingly! And was so touched and
|
|
pleased by that confiding little kiss that all his crustiness
|
|
vanished, and he just set her on his knee, and laid his
|
|
wrinkled cheek against her rosy one, feeling as if he had got his
|
|
own little grand daughter back again. Beth ceased to fear him
|
|
from that moment, and sat there talking to him as cozily as if
|
|
she had known him all her life, for love casts out fear, and
|
|
gratitude can conquer pride. When she went home, he walked with
|
|
her to her own gate, shook hands cordially, and touched his hat
|
|
as he marched back again, looking very stately and erect, like
|
|
a handsome, soldierly old gentleman, as he was.
|
|
|
|
When the girls saw that performance, Jo began to dance a jig,
|
|
by way of expressing her satisfaction, Amy nearly fell out of the
|
|
window in her surprise, and Meg exclaimed, with up-lifted hands,
|
|
"Well, I do believe the world is coming to an end.
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|
CHAPTER SEVEN
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|
"That boy is a perfect cyclops, isn't he?" said Amy one day,
|
|
as Laurie clattered by on horseback, with a flourish of his whip
|
|
as he passed.
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|
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|
"How dare you say so, when he's got both his eyes? And
|
|
very handsome ones they are, too," cried Jo, who resented any
|
|
slighting remarks about her friend.
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|
|
|
"I didn't day anything about his eyes, and I don't see why
|
|
you need fire up when I admire his riding."
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|
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|
"Oh, my goodness! That little goose means a centaur, and she
|
|
called him a Cyclops," exclaimed Jo, with a burst of laughter.
|
|
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|
"You needn't be so rude, it's only a `lapse of lingy', as Mr.
|
|
Davis says," retorted Amy, finishing Jo with her Latin. "I just
|
|
wish I had a little of the money Laurie spends on that horse," she
|
|
added, as if to herself, yet hoping her sisters would hear.
|
|
|
|
"Why?" asked Meg kindly, for Jo had gone off in another laugh
|
|
at Amy's second blunder.
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|
|
|
"I need it so much. I'm dreadfully in debt, and it won't be
|
|
my turn to have the rag money for a month."
|
|
|
|
"In debt, Amy? What do you mean?" And Meg looked sober.
|
|
|
|
"Why, I owe at least a dozen pickled limes, and I can't pay
|
|
them, you know, till I have money, for Marmee forbade my having
|
|
anything charged at the shop."
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|
|
|
"Tell me all about it. Are limes the fashion now? It used
|
|
to be pricking bits of rubber to make balls." And Meg tried to
|
|
keep her countenance, Amy looked so grave and important.
|
|
|
|
"Why, you see, the girls are always buying them, and unless
|
|
you want to be thought mean, you must do it too. It's nothing
|
|
but limes now, for everyone is sucking them in their desks in
|
|
schooltime, and trading them off for pencils, bead rings, paper
|
|
dolls, or something else, at recess. If one girl likes another,
|
|
she gives her a lime. If she's mad with her, she eats one before
|
|
her face, and doesn't offer even a suck. They treat by turns,
|
|
and I've had ever so many but haven't returned them, and I ought
|
|
for they are debts of honor, you know."
|
|
|
|
"How much will pay them off and restore your credit?" asked
|
|
Meg, taking out her purse."
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|
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|
"A quarter would more than do it, and leave a few cents over
|
|
for a treat for you. Don't you like limes?"
|
|
|
|
"Not much. You may have my share. Here's the money. Make it
|
|
last as long as you can, for it isn't very plenty, you know."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, thank you! It must be so nice to have pocket money! I'll
|
|
have a grand feast, for I haven't tasted a lime this week. I felt
|
|
delicate about taking any, as I couldn't return them, and I'm
|
|
actually suffering for one."
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|
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|
Next day Amy was rather late at school, but could not resist the
|
|
temptation of displaying, with pardonable pride, a moist brown-paper
|
|
parcel, before she consigned it to the inmost recesses of her desk.
|
|
During the next few minutes the rumor that Amy March had got twenty-
|
|
four delicious limes (she ate one on the way) and was going to
|
|
treat circulated through her `set', and the attentions of her friends
|
|
became quite overwhelming. Katy Brown invited her to her next party
|
|
on the spot. Mary Kinglsey insisted on lending her her watch till
|
|
recess, and Jenny Snow, a satirical young lady, who had basely twitted
|
|
Amy upon her limeless state, promptly buried the hatchet and offered
|
|
to furnish answers to certain appalling sums. But Amy had not for-
|
|
gotten Miss Snow's cutting remarks about `some persons whose noses
|
|
were not too flat to smell other people's limes, and stuck-up people
|
|
who were not too proud to ask for them', and she instantly crushed
|
|
`that Snow girl's' hopes by the withering telegram, "You needn't be
|
|
so polite all of a sudden, for you won't get any."
|
|
|
|
A distinguished personage happened to visit the school that
|
|
morning, and Amy's beautifully drawn maps received praise, which
|
|
honor to her foe rankled in the soul of Miss Snow, and caused Miss
|
|
March to assume the airs of a studious young peacock. But, alas,
|
|
alas! Pride goes before a fall, and the revengeful Snow turned the
|
|
tables with disastrous success. No sooner had the guest paid the
|
|
usual stale compliments and bowed himself out, than Jenny, under
|
|
pretense of asking an important question, informed Mr. Davis, the
|
|
teacher, that Amy March had pickled limes in her desk.
|
|
|
|
Now Mr. Davis had declared limes a contraband article, and
|
|
solemnly vowed to publicly ferrule the first person who was found
|
|
breaking the law. This much-enduring man had succeeded in banishing
|
|
chewing gum after a long and stormy war, had made a bonfire of the
|
|
confiscated novels and newspapers, had suppressed a private post
|
|
office, had forbidden distortions of the face, nicknames, and cari-
|
|
catures, and done all that one man could do to keep half a hundred
|
|
rebellious girls in order. Boys are trying enough to human patience,
|
|
goodness knows, but girls are infinitely more so, especially to
|
|
nervous gentlemen with tyrannical tempers and no more talent for
|
|
teaching than Dr. Blimber. Mr. Davis knew any quantity of Greek,
|
|
Latin, algebra, and ologies of all sorts so he was called a fine
|
|
teacher, and manners, morals, feelings, and examples were not con-
|
|
sidered of any particular importance. It was a most unfortunate
|
|
moment for denouncing Amy, and Jenny knew it. Mr. Davis had
|
|
evidently taken his coffee too strong that morning, there was an
|
|
east wind, which always affected his neuralgia, and his pupils had
|
|
not done him the credit which he felt he deserved. Therefore, to
|
|
use the expressive, if not elegant, language of a schoolgirl, "He
|
|
was as nervous as a witch and as cross as a bear". The word `limes'
|
|
was like fire to powder, his yellow face flushed, and he rapped on
|
|
his desk with an energy which made Jenny skip to her seat with
|
|
unusual rapidity.
|
|
|
|
"Young ladies, attention, if you please!"
|
|
|
|
At the stern order the buzz ceased, and fifty pairs of blue,
|
|
black, gray, and brown eyes were obediently fixed upon his awful
|
|
countenance.
|
|
|
|
"Miss March, come to the desk."
|
|
|
|
Amy rose to comply with outward composure, but a secret fear
|
|
oppressed her, for the limes weighed upon her conscience.
|
|
|
|
"Bring with you the limes you have in your desk," was the
|
|
unexpected command which arrested her before she got out of her seat.
|
|
|
|
"Don't take all." whispered her neighbor, a young lady of great
|
|
presence of mind.
|
|
|
|
Amy hastily shook out half a dozen and laid the rest down before
|
|
Mr. Davis, feeling that any man possessing a human heart would relent
|
|
when that delicious perfume met his nose. Unfortunately, Mr. Davis
|
|
particularly detested the odor of the fashionable pickle, and disgust
|
|
added to his wrath.
|
|
|
|
"Is that all?"
|
|
|
|
"Not quite," stammered Amy.
|
|
|
|
"Bring the rest immediately."
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|
|
|
With a despairing glance at her set, she obeyed.
|
|
|
|
"You are sure there are no more?'
|
|
|
|
"I never lie, sir."
|
|
|
|
"So I see. Now take these disgusting things two by two, and
|
|
throw them out of the window."
|
|
|
|
There was a simultaneous sigh, which created quite a little gust,
|
|
as the last hope fled, and the treat was ravished from their longing
|
|
lips. Scarlet with shame and anger, Amy went to and fro six dreadful
|
|
times, and as each doomed couple, looking oh, so plump and juicy, fell
|
|
from her reluctant hands, a shout from the street completed the anguish
|
|
of the girls, for it told them that their feast was being exulted over
|
|
by the little Irish children, who were their sworn foes. This--this
|
|
was too much. All flashed indignant or appealing glances at the in-
|
|
exorable Davis, and one passionate lime lover burst into tears.
|
|
|
|
As Amy returned from her last trip, Mr. Davis gave a portentous
|
|
"Hem!" and said, in his most impressive manner . . .
|
|
|
|
"Young ladies, you remember what I said to you a week ago. I
|
|
am sorry this has happened, but I never allow my rules to be infringed,
|
|
and I never break my word. Miss March, hold out your hand."
|
|
|
|
Amy started, and put both hands behind her, turning on him an
|
|
imploring look which pleaded for her better than the words she could
|
|
not utter. She was rather a favorite with `old Davis', as, of course,
|
|
he was called, and it's my private belief that he would have broken
|
|
his word if the indignation of one irrepressible young lady had not
|
|
found vent in a hiss. That hiss, faint as it was, irritated the
|
|
irascible gentleman, and sealed the culprit's fate.
|
|
|
|
"Your hand, Miss March!" was the only answer her mute appeal
|
|
received, and too proud to cry or beseech, Amy set her teeth, threw
|
|
bach her head defiantly, and bore without flinching several tingling
|
|
blows on her little palm. They were neither many nor heavy,but that
|
|
made no difference to her. For the first time in her life she had
|
|
been struck, and the disgrace, in her eyes, was as deep as if he had
|
|
knocked her down.
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|
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"You will now stand on the platform till recess," said Mr. Davis,
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resolved to do the thing thoroughly, since he had begun.
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That was dreadful. It would have been bad enough to go to her
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seat, and see the pitying faces of her friends, or the satisfied
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ones of her few enemies, but to face the whole school, with that
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shame fresh upon her, seemed impossible, and for a second she felt
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as if she could only drop down where she stood, and break her heart
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with crying. A bitter sense of wrong and the thought of Jenny Snow
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helped her to bear it, and, taking the ignominious place, she fixed
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her eyes on the stove funnel above what now seemed a sea of faces,
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and stood there, so motionless and white that the girls found it
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hard to study with that pathetic figure before them.
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During the fifteen minutes that followed, the proud and sensitive
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little girl suffered a shame and pain which she never forgot. To
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others it might seem a ludicrous or trivial affair, but to her it was
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a hard experience, for during the twelve years of her life she had been
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governed by love alone, and a blow of that sort had never touched her
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before. The smart of her hand and the ache of her heart were forgotten
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in the sting of the thought, "I shall have to tell at home, and they
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will be so disappointed in me!"
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The fifteen minutes seemed an hour, but they came to an end at
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last, and the word `Recess!' had never seemed so welcome to her before.
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"You can go, Miss March," said Mr. Davis, looking, as he felt,
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uncomfortable.
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He did not soon forget the reproachful glance Amy gave him, as
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she went, without a word to anyone, straight into the anteroom,
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snatched her things, and left the place "forever," as she passionately
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declared to herself. She was in a sad state when she got home, and
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when the older girls arrived, some time later, an indignation meeting
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was held at once. Mrs. March did not say much but looked disturbed,
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and comforted her afflicted little daughter in her tenderest manner.
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Meg bathed the insulted hand with glycerine and tears, Beth felt
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that even her beloved kittens would fail as a balm for griefs like
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this, Jo wrathfully proposed that Mr. Davis be arrested without delay,
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and Hannah shook her fist at the `villain' and pounded potatoes for
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dinner as if she had him under her pestle.
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No notice was taken of Amy's flight, except by her mates, but
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the sharp-eyed demoiselles discovered that Mr. Davis was quite be-
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nignant in the afternoon, also unusually nervous. Just before
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school closed, Jo appeared, wearing a grim expression as she
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stalked up to the desk, and delivered a letter from her mother,
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then collected Amy's property, and departed, carefully scraping
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the mud from her boots on the door mat, as if she shook that dust
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of the place off her feet.
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"Yes, you can have a vacation from school, but I want you to
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study a little every day with Beth," said Mrs. March that evening.
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"I don't approve of corporal punishment, especially for girls. I
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dislike Mr. Davis's manner of teaching and don't think the girls
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you associate with are doing you any good, so I shall ask your
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father's advice before I send you anywhere else."
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"That's good! I wish all the girls would leave, and spoil
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his old school. It's perfectly maddening to think of those lovely
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limes," sighed Amy, with the air of a martyr.
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"I am not sorry you lost them, for you broke the rules, and
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deserved some punishment for disobedience," was the severe reply,
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which rather disappointed the young lady, who expected nothing but
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sympathy.
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"Do you mean you are glad I was disgraced before the whole
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school?" cried Amy.
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"I should not have chosen that way of mending a fault,"
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replied her mother, "but I'm not sure that it won't do you more
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good than a molder method. You are getting to be rather conceited,
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my dear, and it is quite time you set about correcting it. You
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have a good many little gifts and virtues,but there is no need of
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parading them, for conceit spoils the finest genius. There is not
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much danger that real talent or goodness will be overlooked long,
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even if it is, the consciousness of possessing and using it well
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should satisfy one, and the great charm of all power is modesty."
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"So it is!" cried Laurie, who was playing chess in a corner
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|
with Jo. "I knew a girl once, who had a really remarkable talent
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for music, and she didn't know it, never guessed what sweet little
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things she composed when she was alone, and wouldn't have believed
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it if anyone had told her."
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"I wish I'd known that nice girl. Maybe she would have helped
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me, I'm so stupid," said Beth, who stood beside him, listening
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eagerly.
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"You do know her, and she helps you better than anyone else
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could," answered Laurie, looking at her with such mischievous
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|
meaning in his merry black eyes that Beth suddenly turned very
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red, and hid her face in the sofa cushion, quite overcome by such
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an unexpected discovery.
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Jo let Laurie win the game to pay for that praise of her Beth,
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who could not be prevailed upon to play for them after her compl-
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iment. So Laurie did his best, and sang delightfully, being in a
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particularly lively humor, for to the Marches he seldom showed the
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moody side of his character. When he was gone, amy, who had been
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pensive all evening, said suddenly, as if busy over some new idea,
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"Is Laurie an accomplished boy?"
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"Yes, he has had an excellent education, and has much talent.
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He will make a fine man, if not spoiled by petting," replied her
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mother.
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"And he isn't conceited, is he?" asked Amy.
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"Not in the least. That is why he is so charming and we all
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like him so much."
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"I see. It's nice to have accomplishments and be elegant, but
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not to show off or get perked up," said Amy thoughtfully.
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"These things are always seen and felt in a person's manner
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and conversations, if modestly used, but it is not necessary to
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display them," said Mrs. March.
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"Any more than it's proper to wear all your bonnets and gowns
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and ribbons at once, that folks may know you've got them," added Jo,
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and the lecture ended in a laugh.
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CHAPTER EIGHT
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"Girls, where are you going?" asked Amy, coming into their
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room one Saturday afternoon, and finding them getting ready to
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go out with an air of secrecy which excited her curiosity.
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"Never mind. Little girls shouldn't ask questions," returned
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Jo sharply.
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Now if there is anything mortifying to out feelings when we
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|
are young, it is to be told that, and to be bidden to "run away,
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dear" is still more trying to us. Amy bridled up at this insult,
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|
and determined to find out the secret, if she teased for an hour.
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|
Turning to Meg, who never refused her anything very long, she said
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coaxingly, "Do tell me! I should think you might let me go, too,
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|
for Beth is fussing over her piano, and I haven't got anything to
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|
do, and am so lonely."
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"I can't, dear, because you aren't invited," began Meg, but
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Jo broke in impatiently, "Now, Meg, be quiet or you will spoil it
|
|
all. You can't go, Amy, so don't be a baby and whine about it."
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"You are going somewhere with Laurie, I know you are. You
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|
were whispering and laughing together on the sofa last night, and
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|
you stopped when I came in. Aren't you going with him?"
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"Yes, we are. Now do be still, and stop bothering."
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Amy held her tongue, but used her eyes, and saw Meg slip a
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fan into her pocket.
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"I know! I know! You're going to the theater to see the
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|
SEVEN CASTLES!" she cried, adding resolutely, "and I shall go,
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|
for Mother said I might see it, and I've got my rag money, and
|
|
it was mean not to tell me in time."
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"Just listen to me a minute, and be a good child," said Meg
|
|
soothingly. "Mother doesn't wish you to go this week, because
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|
your eyes are not well enough yet to bear the light of this
|
|
fairy piece. Next week you can go with Beth and Hannah, and
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|
have a nice time."
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|
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"I don't like that half as well as going with you and Laurie.
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|
Please let me. I've been sick with this cold so long, and shut
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|
up, I'm dying for some fun. Do, Meg! I'll be ever so good,"
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|
pleaded Amy, looking as pathetic as she could.
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"Suppose we take her. I don't believe Mother would mind,
|
|
if we bundle her up well," began Meg.
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"If she goes I shan't, and if I don't, Laurie won't like it,
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|
and it will be very rude, after he invited only us, to go and
|
|
drag in Amy. I should think she'd hate to poke herself where
|
|
she isn't wanted," said Jo crossly, for she disliked the trouble
|
|
of overseeing a fidgety child when she wanted to enjoy herself.
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|
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Her tone and manner angered Amy, who began to put her boots
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|
on, saying, in her most aggravating way, "I shall go. Meg says I
|
|
may, and if I pay for myself, Laurie hasn't anything to do with it."
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"You can't sit with us, for our seats are reserved, and you
|
|
mustn't sit alone, so Laurie will give you his place, and that
|
|
will spoil our pleasure. Or he'll get another seat for you, and
|
|
that isn't proper when you weren't asked. You shan't stir a
|
|
step, so you may just stay where you are," scolded Jo, crosser
|
|
than ever, having just pricked her finger in her hurry.
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|
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|
Sitting on the floor with one boot on, Amy began to cry
|
|
and Meg to reason with her, when Laurie called from below, and
|
|
the two girls hurried down, leaving their sister wailing. For
|
|
now and then she forgot her grown-up ways and acted like a
|
|
spoiled child. Just as the party was setting out, Amy called
|
|
over the banisters in a threatening tone, "You'll be sorry for
|
|
this, Jo March, see if you ain't."
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|
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|
"Fiddlesticks!" returned Jo, slamming the door.
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|
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|
They had a charming time, for THE SEVEN CASTLES OF THE
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|
DIAMOND LAKE was as brilliant and wonderful as heart could wish.
|
|
But in spite of the comical red imps, sparkling elves, and the
|
|
gorgeous princes and princesses, Jo's pleasure had a drop of
|
|
bitterness in it. The fairy queen's yellow curls reminded her
|
|
of Amy, and between the acts she amused herself with wondering
|
|
what her sister would do to make her `sorry for it'. She and
|
|
Amy had had many lively skirmishes in the course of their lives,
|
|
for both had quick tempers and were apt to be violent when fairly
|
|
roused. Amy teased Jo, and Jo irritated Amy, and semioccasional
|
|
explosions occurred, of which both were much ashamed afterward.
|
|
Although the oldest, Jo had the least self-control, and had hard
|
|
times trying to curb the fiery spirit which was continually getting
|
|
her into trouble. Her anger never lasted long, and having humbly
|
|
confessed her fault, she sincerely repented and tried to do better.
|
|
Her sisters used to say that they rather liked to get Jo into a
|
|
fury because she was such an angel afterward. Poor Jo tried
|
|
desperately to be good, but her bosom enemy was always ready to
|
|
flame up and defeat her, and it took years of patient effort to
|
|
subdue it.
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|
|
|
When they got home, they found amy reading in the parlor.
|
|
She assumed an injured air as they came in, never lifted her eyes
|
|
from her book, or asked a single question. Perhaps curiosity
|
|
might have conquered resentment, if Beth had not been there to
|
|
inquire and receive a glowing description of the play. On going
|
|
up to put away her best hat, Jo's first look was toward the
|
|
bureau, for in their last quarrel Amy had soothed her feelings
|
|
by turning Jo's top drawer upside down on the floor. Everything
|
|
was in its place, however, and after a hasty glance into her
|
|
various closets, bags, and boxes, Jo decided that Amy had
|
|
forgiven and forgotten her wrongs.
|
|
|
|
There Jo was mistaken, for next day she made a discovery
|
|
which produced a tempest. Meg, Beth, and Amy were sitting together,
|
|
late in the afternoon, when Jo burst into the room, looking excited
|
|
and demanding breathlessly, "Has anyone taken my book?"
|
|
|
|
Meg and Beth said, "No." at once, and looked surprised. Amy
|
|
poked the fire and said nothing. Jo saw her color rise and was
|
|
down upon her in a minute.
|
|
|
|
"Amy, you've got it!"
|
|
|
|
"No, I haven't."
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|
|
|
"You know where it is, then!"
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|
|
|
"No, I don't."
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|
|
|
"That's a fib!" cried Jo, taking her by the shoulders, and
|
|
looking fierce enough to frighten a much braver child than Amy.
|
|
|
|
"It isn't. I haven't got it, don't know where it is now, and
|
|
don't care."
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|
|
|
"You know something about it, and you'd better tell at once,
|
|
or I'll make you." And Jo gave her a slight shake.
|
|
|
|
"Scold as much as you like, you'll never see your silly old
|
|
book again," cried Amy, getting excited in her turn.
|
|
|
|
"why not?"
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|
|
|
"I burned it up."
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|
|
|
"What! My little book I was so fond of, and worked over, and
|
|
meant to finish before Father got home? Have you really burned it?"
|
|
said Jo, turning very pale, while her eyes kindled and her hands
|
|
clutched Amy nervously.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I did! I told you I'd make you pay for being so cross
|
|
yesterday, and I have, so . . ."
|
|
|
|
Amy got no farther, for Jo's hot temper mastered her, and
|
|
she shook Amy till her teeth chattered in her head, crying in a
|
|
passion of grief and anger . . .
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|
|
|
"You wicked, wicked girl! I never can write it again, and
|
|
I'll never forgive you as long as I live."
|
|
|
|
Meg flew to rescue Amy, and Beth to pacify Jo, but Jo was
|
|
quite beside herself, and with a parting box on her sister's ear,
|
|
she rushed out of the room up to the old sofa in the garret, and
|
|
finished her fight alone.
|
|
|
|
The storm cleared up below, for Mrs. March came home, and,
|
|
having heard the story, soon brought Amy to a sense of the wrong
|
|
she had done her sister. Jo's book was the pride of her heart,
|
|
and was regarded by her family as a literary sprout of great
|
|
promise. It was only half a dozen little fairy tales, but Jo
|
|
had worked over them patiently, putting her whole heart into
|
|
her work, hoping to make something good enough to print. She
|
|
had just copied them with great care, and had destroyed the old
|
|
manuscript, so that Amy's bonfire had consumed the loving work
|
|
of several years. It seemed a small loss to others, but to Jo
|
|
it was a dreadful calamity, and she felt that it never could be
|
|
made up to her. Beth mourned as for a departed kitten, and Meg
|
|
refused to defend her pet. Mrs. March looked grave and grieved,
|
|
and Amy felt that no one would love her till she had asked pardon
|
|
for the act which she now regretted more than any of them.
|
|
|
|
When the tea bell rang, Jo appeared, looking so grim and
|
|
unapproachable that it took all Amy's courage to say meekly . . .
|
|
|
|
"Please forgive me, Jo. I'm very, very sorry."
|
|
|
|
"I never shall forgive you," was Jo's stern answer, and
|
|
from that moment she ignored Amy entirely.
|
|
|
|
No one spoke of the great trouble, not even Mrs. March, for
|
|
all had learned by experience that when Jo was in that mood words
|
|
were wasted, and the wisest course was to wait till some little
|
|
accident, or her own generous nature, softened Jo's resentment
|
|
and healed the breach. It was not a happy evening, for though
|
|
they sewed as usual, while their mother read aloud from Bremer,
|
|
Scott, or Edgeworth, something was wanting, and the sweet home
|
|
peace was disturbed. They felt this most when singing time came,
|
|
for Beth could only play, Jo stood dumb as a stone, and Amy broke
|
|
down, so Meg and Mother sang alone. But in spite of their efforts
|
|
to be as cheery as larks, the flutelike voices did not seem to
|
|
chord as well as usual, and all felt out of tune.
|
|
|
|
As Jo received her good-night kiss, Mrs. March whispered gently,
|
|
"My dear, don't let the sun go down upon your anger. Forgive each
|
|
other, help each other, and begin again tomorrow."
|
|
|
|
Jo wanted to lay her head down on that motherly bosom, and
|
|
cry her grief and anger all away, but tears were an unmanly weak-
|
|
ness, and she felt so deeply injured that she really couldn't
|
|
quite forgive yet. So she winked hard, shook her head, and said
|
|
gruffly because Amy was listening, "It was an abominable thing,
|
|
and she doesn't deserve to be forgiven."
|
|
|
|
With that she marched off to bed, and there was no merry
|
|
or confidential gossip that night.
|
|
|
|
Amy was much offended that her overtures of peace had been
|
|
repulsed, and began to wish she had not humbled herself, to feel
|
|
more injured than ever, and to plume herself on her superior
|
|
virtue in a way which was particularly exasperating. Jo still
|
|
looked like a thunder cloud, and nothing went well all day. It
|
|
was bitter cold in the morning, she dropped her precious turnover
|
|
in the gutter, Aunt March had an attack of the fidgets, Meg was
|
|
sensitive, Beth would look grieved and wistful when she got home,
|
|
and Amy kept making remarks about people who were always talking
|
|
about being good and yet wouldn't even try when other people set
|
|
them a virtuous example.
|
|
|
|
"Everybody is so hateful, I'll ask Laurie to go skating. He
|
|
is always kind and jolly, and will put me to rights, I know," said
|
|
Jo to herself, and off she went.
|
|
|
|
Amy heard the clash of skates, and looked out with an impatient
|
|
exclamation.
|
|
|
|
"There! She promised I should go next time, for this is the
|
|
last ice we shall have. But it's no use to ask such a crosspatch
|
|
to take me."
|
|
|
|
"Don't say that. You were very naughty, and it is hard to
|
|
forgive the loss of her precious little book, but I think she
|
|
might do it now, and I guess she will, if you try her at the
|
|
right minute," said Meg. "Go after them. Don't say anything till
|
|
Jo has got good-natured with Laurie, than take a quiet minute and
|
|
just kiss her, or do some kind thing, and I'm sure she'll be
|
|
friends again with all her heart."
|
|
|
|
"I'll try," said Amy, for the advice suited her, and after a
|
|
flurry to get ready, she ran after the friends, who were just
|
|
disappearing over the hill.
|
|
|
|
It was not far to the river, but both were ready before Amy
|
|
reached them. Jo saw her coming, and turned her back. Laurie did
|
|
not see, for he was carefully skating along the shore, sounding the
|
|
ice, for a warm spell had preceded the cold snap.
|
|
|
|
"I'll go on to the first bend, and see if it's all right before
|
|
we begin to race," Amy heard him say, as he shot away, looking like
|
|
a young Russian in his fur-trimmed coat and cap.
|
|
|
|
Jo heard Amy panting after her run, stamping her feet and
|
|
blowing on her fingers as she tried to put her skates on, but Jo
|
|
never turned and went slowly zigzagging down the river, taking a
|
|
bitter, unhappy sort of satisfaction in her sister's troubles.
|
|
She had cherished her anger till it grew strong and took possession
|
|
of her, as evil thoughts and feelings always do unless cast out at
|
|
once. As Laurie turned the bend, he shouted back . . .
|
|
|
|
"Keep near the shore. It isn't safe in the middle."
|
|
|
|
Jo heard, but Amy was struggling to her feet and did not catch
|
|
a word. Jo glanced over her shoulder, and the little demon she was
|
|
harboring said in her ear . . .
|
|
|
|
"No matter whether she heard or not, let her take care of
|
|
herself."
|
|
|
|
Laurie had vanished round the bend, Jo was just at the turn,
|
|
and Amy, far behind, striking out toward the the smoother ice in
|
|
the middle of the river. For a minute Jo stood still with a
|
|
strange feeling in her heart, then she resolved to go on,but
|
|
something held and turned her round, just in time to see Amy throw
|
|
up her hands and go down, with a sudden crash of rotten ice, the
|
|
splash of water, and a cry that made Jo's heart stand still with
|
|
fear. She tried to call Laurie, but her voice was gone. She tried
|
|
to rush forward, but her feet seemed to have no strength in them,
|
|
and for a second, she could only stand motionless, staring with a
|
|
terror-stricken face at the little blue hood above the black water.
|
|
Something rushed swiftly by her, and Laurie's voice cried out . . .
|
|
|
|
"Bring a rail. Quick, quick!"
|
|
|
|
How she did it, she never knew, but for the next few minutes
|
|
she worked as if possessed, blindly obeying Laurie, who was quite
|
|
self-possessed, and lying flat, held Amy up by his arm and hockey
|
|
stick till Jo dragged a rail from the fence, and together they
|
|
got the child out, more frightened than hurt.
|
|
|
|
"Now then, we must walk her home as fast as we can. Pile our
|
|
things on her, while I get off these confounded skates," cried
|
|
Laurie, wrapping his coat round Amy, and tugging away at the straps
|
|
which never seemed so intricate before.
|
|
|
|
Shivering, dripping, and crying, they got Amy home, and after
|
|
an exciting time of it, she fell asleep, rolled in blankets before
|
|
a hot fire. During the bustle Jo had scarcely spoken but flown
|
|
about, looking pale and wild, with her things half off, her dress
|
|
torn, and her hands cut and bruised by ice and rails and refrac-
|
|
tory buckles. When Amy was comfortably asleep, the house quiet,
|
|
and Mrs. March sitting by the bed, she called Jo to her and began
|
|
to bind up the hurt hands.
|
|
|
|
"Are you sure she is safe?" whispered Jo, looking remorse-
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fully at the golden head, which might have been swept away from
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her sight forever under the treacherous ice.
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"Quite safe, dear. she is not hurt, and won't even take cold,
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I think, you were so sensible in covering and getting her home
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quickly," replied her mother cheerfully.
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"Laurie did it all. I only let her go. Mother, if she should
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die, it would be my fault." And Jo dropped down beside the bed in
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a passion of penitent tears, telling all that had happened, bitterly
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condemning her hardness of heart, and sobbing out her gratitude for
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being spared the heavy punishment which might have come upon her.
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"It's my dreadful temper! I try to cure it, I think I have,
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and then it breaks out worse than ever. OH, Mother, what shall I
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do? What shall I do?" cried poor Jo, in despair.
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"Watch and pray, dear, never get tired of trying, and never
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think it is impossible to conquer your fault," said Mrs. March,
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drawing the blowzy head to her shoulder and kissing the wet cheek
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so tenderly that Jo cried even harder.
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"You don't know, you can't guess how bad it is! It seems as
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if I could do anything when I'm in a passion. I get so savage, I
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could hurt anyone and enjoy it. I'm afraid I shall do something
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dreadful some day, and spoil my life, and make everybody hate me.
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Oh, Mother, help me, do help me!"
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"I will, my child, I will. Don't cry so bitterly, but remember
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this day, and resolve with all your soul that you will never know
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another like it. Jo, dear, we all have our temptations, some far
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greater than yours, and it often takes us all our lives to conquer
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them. You think your temper is the worst in the world,but mine
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used to be just like it."
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"Yours, Mother? Why, you are never angry!" And for the
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moment Jo forgot remorse in surprise.
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"I've been trying to cure it for forty years, and have only
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succeeded in controlling it. I am angry nearly every day of my
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life, Jo, but I have learned not to show it, and I still hope to
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learn not to feel it, though it may take me another forty years
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to do so."
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The patience and the humility of the face she loved so well
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was a better lesson to Jo than the wisest lecture, the sharpest
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reproof. She felt comforted at once by the sympathy and confi-
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dence given her. The knowledge that her mother had a fault like
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hers, and tried to mend it, made her own easier to bear and
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strengthened her resolution to cure it, though forty years seemed
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rather a long time to watch and pray to a girl of fifteen.
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"Mother, are you angry when you fold your lips tight together
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and go out of the room sometimes, when Aunt March scolds or people
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worry you?" asked Jo, feeling nearer and dearer to her mother
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than ever before.
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"Yes, I've learned to check the hasty words that rise to my
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lips, and when I feel that they mean to break out against my will,
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I just go away for a minute, and give myself a little shake for
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being so weak and wicked," answered Mrs. March with a sigh and a
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smile, as she smoothed and fastened up Jo's disheveled hair.
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"How did you learn to keep still? That is what troubles me,
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for the sharp words fly out before I know what I'm about, and the
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more I say the worse I get, till it's a pleasure to hurt people's
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feelings and say dreadful things. Tell me how you do it, Marmee
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dear."
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"My good mother used to help me . . ."
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"As you do us . . ." interrupted Jo, with a grateful kiss.
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"But I lost her when I was a little older than you are, and
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for years had to struggle on alone, for I was too proud to confess
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my weakness to anyone else. I had a hard time, Jo, and shed a good
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many bitter tears over my failures, for in spite of my efforts I
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never seemed to get on. Then your father came, and I was so happy
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that i found it easy to be good. But by-and-by, when I had four
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little daughters round me and we were poor, then the old trouble
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began again, for I am not patient by nature, and it tried me very
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much to see my children wanting anything."
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"Poor Mother! What helped you then?"
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"Your father, Jo. He never loses patience, never doubts or
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complains, but always hopes, and works and waits so cheerfully
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that one is ashamed to do otherwise before him. He helped and
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comforted me, and showed me that I must try to practice all the
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virtues I would have my little girls possess, for I was their
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example. It was easier to try for your sakes than for my own.
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A startled or surprised look from one of you when I spoke sharply
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rebuked me more than any words could have done, and the love,
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respect, and confidence of my children was the sweetest reward I
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could receive for my efforts to be the woman I would have them
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copy."
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"Oh, Mother, if I'm ever half as good as you, I shall be
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satisfied," cried Jo, much touched.
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"I hope you will be a great deal better, dear, but you must
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keep watch over your `bosom enemy', as father calls it, or it
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may sadden, if not spoil your life. You have had a warning.
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Remember it, and try with heart and soul to master this quick
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temper, before it brings you greater sorrow and regret than you
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have known today."
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"I will try, Mother, I truly will. But you must help me,
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remind me, and keep me from flying out. I used to see Father
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sometimes put his finger on his lips, and look at you with a
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very kind but sober face, and you always folded your lips tight
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and went away. Was he reminding you then?" asked Jo softly.
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"Yes. I asked him to help me so, and he never forgot it,
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but saved me from many a sharp word by that little gesture
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and kind look."
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Jo saw that her mother's eyes filled and her lips trembled
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as she spoke, and fearing that she had said too much, she
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whispered anxiously, "Was it wrong to watch you and to speak of
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it? I didn't mean to be rude, but it's so comfortable to say all
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I think to you, and feel so safe and happy here."
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"Mu Jo, you may say anything to your mother, for it is my
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greatest happiness and pride to feel that my girls confide in me
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and know how much I love them."
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"I thought I'd grieved you."
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"No, dear, but speaking of Father reminded me how much I
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miss him, how much I owe him, and how faithfully I should watch
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and work to keep his little daughters safe and good for him."
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"Yet you told him to go, Mother, and didn't cry when he
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|
went, and never complain now, or seem as if you needed any help,"
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said Jo, wondering.
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"I gave my best to the country I love, and kept my tears
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|
till he was gone. Why should I complain, when we both have
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|
merely done our duty and will surely be the happier for it in
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the end? If I don't seem to need help, it is because I have a
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better friend, even than Father, to comfort and sustain me. My
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|
child, the troubles and temptations of your life are beginning
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|
and may be many, but you can overcome and outlive them all if
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|
you learn to feel the strength and tenderness of your Heavenly
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|
Father as you do that of your earthly one. The more you love
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|
and trust Him, and the less you will depend on human power and
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|
wisdom. His love and care never tire or change, can never be
|
|
taken from you, but my become the source of lifelong peace,
|
|
happiness, and strength. Believe this heartily, and go to God
|
|
with all your little cares, and hopes, and sins, and sorrows, as
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|
freely and confidingly as you come to your mother."
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Jo's only answer was to hold her mother close, and in the
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|
silence which followed the sincerest prayer she had ever prayed
|
|
left her heart without words. For in that sad yet happy hour,
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|
she had learned not only the bitterness of remorse and despair,
|
|
but the sweetness of self-denial and self-control, and led by
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her mother's hand, she had drawn nearer to the Friend who always
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|
welcomes every child with a love stronger than that of any father,
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|
tenderer than that of any mother.
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Amy stirred and sighed in her sleep, and as if eager to begin
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|
at once to mend her fault,l Jo looked up with an expression on her
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|
face which it had never worn before.
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"I let the sun go down on my anger. I wouldn't forgive her,
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|
and today, if it hadn't been for Laurie, it might have been too
|
|
late! How could I be so wicked?" said Jo, half aloud, as she
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|
leaned over her sister softly stroking the wet hair scattered on
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the pillow.
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As if she heard, Amy opened her eyes, and held out her arms,
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with a smile that went straight to Jo's heart. Neither said a
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|
word, but they hugged one another close, in spite of the blankets,
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and everything was forgiven and forgotten in one hearty kiss.
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CHAPTER NINE
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"I do think it was the most fortunate thing in the world that
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those children should have the measles just now," said Meg, one
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April day, as she stood packing the `go abroady' trunk in her room,
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|
surrounded by her sisters.
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"And so nice of Annie Moffat not to forget her promise. A
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whole fortnight of fun will be regularly splendid," replied Jo,
|
|
looking like a windmill as she folded skirts with her long arms.
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"And such lovely weather, I'm so glad of that," added Beth,
|
|
tidily sorting neck and hair ribbons in her best box, lent for
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|
the great occasion.
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"I wish I was going to have a fine time and wear all these
|
|
nice things," said Amy with her mouth full of pins, as she
|
|
artistically replenished her sister's cushion.
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|
"I wish you were all going, but as you can't, I shall keep
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|
my adventures to tell you when I come back. I'm sure it's the
|
|
least I can do when you have been so kind, lending me things
|
|
and helping me get ready," said Meg, glancing round the room
|
|
at the very simple outfit, which seemed nearly perfect in their
|
|
eyes.
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|
|
|
"What did Mother give you out of the treasure box?" asked
|
|
Amy, who had not been present at the opening of a certain cedar
|
|
chest in which Mrs. March kept a few relics of past splendor, as
|
|
gifts for her girls when the proper time came.
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|
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|
"A pair of silk stockings, that pretty carved fan, and a
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|
lovely blue sash. I wanted the violet silk, but there isn't
|
|
time to make it over, so I must be contented with my old tarlatan."
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|
"It will look nice over my new muslin skirt, and the sash will
|
|
set it off beautifully. I wish I hadn't smashed my coral bracelet,
|
|
for you might have had it," said Jo, who loved to give and lend,
|
|
but whose possessions were usually too dilapidated to be of much
|
|
use.
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|
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|
"There is a lovely old-fashioned pearl set in the treasure
|
|
chest, but Mother said real flowers were the prettiest ornament
|
|
for a young girl, and Laurie promised to send me all I want,"
|
|
replied Meg. "Now, let me see, there's my new gray walking suit,
|
|
just curl up the feather in my hat, Beth, then my poplin for
|
|
Sunday and the small party, it looks heavy for spring, doesn't
|
|
it? The violet silk would be so nice. Oh, dear!"
|
|
|
|
"Never mind, you've got the tarlatan for the big party, and
|
|
you always look like an angel in white," said Amy, brooding
|
|
over the little store of finery in which her soul delighted.
|
|
|
|
"It isn't low-necked, and it doesn't sweep enough, but it
|
|
will have to do. My blue housedress looks so well, turned and
|
|
freshly trimmed, that I feel as if I'd got a new one. My silk
|
|
sacque isn't a bit the fashion, and my bonnet doesn't look like
|
|
Sallie's. I didn't like to say anything, but I was sadly dis-
|
|
appointed in my umbrella. I told Mother black with a white
|
|
handle, but she forgot and bought a green one with a yellowish
|
|
handle. It's strong and neat, so I ought not to complain, but I
|
|
know I shall feel ashamed of it beside Annie's silk one with a
|
|
gold top," sighed Meg, surveying the little umbrella with great
|
|
disfavor.
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|
|
|
"Change it," advised Jo.
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|
|
|
"I won't be so silly, or hurt Marmee's feelings, when she
|
|
took so much pains to get my things. It's a nonsensical notion
|
|
of mine, and I'm not going to give up to it. My silk stockings
|
|
and two pairs of new gloves are my comfort. You are a dear to
|
|
lend me yours, Jo. I feel so rich and sort of elegant, with
|
|
two new pairs, and the old ones cleaned up for common." And
|
|
Meg took a refreshing peep at her glove box.
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|
|
|
"Annie Moffat has blue and pink bows on her nightcaps.
|
|
Would you put some on mine?" she asked, as Beth brought up a
|
|
pile of snowy muslins, fresh from Hannah's hands.
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|
|
|
"No, I wouldn't, for the smart caps won't match the plain
|
|
gowns without any trimming on them. Poor folks shouldn't rig,"
|
|
said Jo decidedly.
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|
|
|
"I wonder if I shall ever be happy enough to have real lace
|
|
on my clothes and bows on my caps?" said Meg impatiently.
|
|
|
|
"You said the other day that you'd be perfectly happy if
|
|
you could only go to Annie Moffat's," observed Beth in her quiet
|
|
way.
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|
|
|
"So I did! Well, I am happy, and I won't fret, but it does
|
|
seem as if the more one gets the more one wants, doesn't it? There
|
|
now, the trays are ready, and everything in but my ball dress,
|
|
which I shall leave for Mother to pack," said Meg, cheering up, as
|
|
she glanced from the half-filled trunk to the many times pressed
|
|
and mended white tarlatan, which she called her `ball dress' with
|
|
an important air.
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|
|
|
The next day was fine, and Meg departed in style for a fort-
|
|
night of novelty and pleasure. Mrs. March had consented to the
|
|
visit rather reluctantly, fearing that Margaret would come back
|
|
more discontented than she went. But she begged so hard, and
|
|
Sallie had promised to take good care of her, and a little pleasure
|
|
seemed so delightful after a winter of irksome work that the mother
|
|
yielded, and the daughter went to take her first taste of fashion-
|
|
able life.
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|
|
|
The Moffats were very fashionable, and simple Meg was rather
|
|
daunted, at first, by the splendor of the house and the elegance
|
|
of its occupants. But they were kindly people, in spite of the
|
|
frivolous life they led, and soon put their guest at her ease.
|
|
Perhaps Meg felt, without understanding why, that they were not
|
|
particularly cultivated or intelligent people, and that all their
|
|
gilding could not quite conceal the ordinary material of which
|
|
they were made. It certainly was agreeable to fare sumptuously,
|
|
drive in a fine carriage, wear her best frock every day, and do
|
|
nothing but enjoy herself. It suited her exactly, and soon she
|
|
began to imitate the manners and conversation of those about her,
|
|
to put on little airs and graces, use French phrases, crimp her
|
|
hair, take in her dresses, and talk about the fashions as well as
|
|
she could. The more she saw of Annie Moffat's pretty things, the
|
|
more she envied her and sighed to be rich. Home now looked bare
|
|
and dismal as she thought of it, work grew harder than ever, and
|
|
she felt that she was a very destitute and much-injured girl, in
|
|
spite of the new gloves and silk stockings.
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|
|
|
She had not much time for repining, however, for the three
|
|
young girls were busily employed in `having a good time'. They
|
|
shopped, walked, rode, and called all day, went to theaters and
|
|
operas or frolicked at home in the evening, for Annie had many
|
|
friends and knew how to entertain them. Her older sisters were
|
|
very fine young ladies, and one was engaged, which was extremely
|
|
interesting and romantic, Meg thought. Mr. Moffat was a fat,
|
|
jolly old gentleman, who knew her father, and Mrs. Moffat, a fat,
|
|
jolly old lady, who took as great a fancy to Meg as her daughter
|
|
had done. Everyone petted her, and `Daisey', as they called her,
|
|
was in a fair way to have her head turned.
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|
|
|
When the evening for the small party came, she found that
|
|
the poplin wouldn't do at all, for the other girls were putting
|
|
on thin dresses and making themselves very fine indeed. So out
|
|
came the tarlatan, looking older, limper, and shabbier than ever
|
|
beside Sallie's crisp new one. Meg saw the girls glance at it
|
|
and then at one another, and her cheeks began to burn, for with
|
|
all her gentleness she was very proud. No one said a word about
|
|
it, but Sallie offered to dress her hair, and Annie to tie her
|
|
sash, and Belle, the engaged sister, praised her white arms. But
|
|
in their kindness Meg saw only pity for her poverty, and her
|
|
heart felt very heavy as she stood by herself, while the others
|
|
laughed, chattered, and flew about like gauzy butterflies. The
|
|
hard, bitter feeling was getting pretty bad, when the maid
|
|
brought in a box of flowers. Before she could speak, Annie had
|
|
the cover off, and all were exclaiming at the lovely roses, heath,
|
|
and fern within.
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|
|
|
"It's for Belle, of course, George always sends her some,
|
|
but these are altogether ravishing," cried Annie, with a great
|
|
sniff.
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|
|
|
"They are for Miss March, the man said. And here's a note,"
|
|
put in the maid, holding it to Meg.
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|
|
|
"What fun! Who are they from? Didn't know you had a lover,"
|
|
cried the girls, fluttering about Meg in a high state of curiosity
|
|
and surprise.
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|
|
|
"The note is from Mother, and the flowers from Laurie," said
|
|
Meg simply, yet much gratified that he had not forgotten her.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, indeed!" said Annie with a funny look, as Meg slipped
|
|
the note into her pocket as a sort of talisman against envy,
|
|
vanity, and false pride, for the few loving words had done her
|
|
good, and the flowers cheered her up by their beauty.
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|
|
|
Feeling almost happy again,she laid by a few ferns and roses
|
|
for herself, and quickly made up the rest in dainty bouquets for
|
|
the breasts, hair, or skirts of her friends, offering them so
|
|
prettily that Clara, the elder sister, told her she was `the
|
|
sweetest little thing she ever saw', and they looked quite
|
|
charmed with her small attention. Somehow the kind act finished
|
|
her despondency, and when all the rest went to show themselves
|
|
to Mrs. Moffat, she saw a happy, bright-eyed face in the mirror,
|
|
as she laid her ferns against her rippling hair and fastened
|
|
the roses in the dress that didn't strike her as so very shabby
|
|
now.
|
|
|
|
She enjoyed herself very much that evening, for she danced
|
|
to her heart's content. Everyone was very kind, and she had
|
|
three compliments. Annie made her sing, and some one said she
|
|
had a remarkably fine voice. Major Lincoln asked who `the fresh
|
|
little girl with the beautiful eyes' was, and Mr. Moffat insisted
|
|
on dancing with her because she `didn't dawdle, but had some spring
|
|
in her', as he gracefully expressed it. So altogether she had a
|
|
very nice time, till she overheard a bit of conversation, which
|
|
disturbed her extremely. She was sitting just inside the conserv-
|
|
atory, waiting for her partner to bring her an ice, when she
|
|
heard a voice ask on the other side of the flowery wall . . .
|
|
|
|
"How old is he?"
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|
|
|
"Sixteen or seventeen, I should say," replied another voice.
|
|
|
|
"It would be a grand thing for one of those girls, wouldn't
|
|
it? Sallie says they are very intimate now, and the old man quite
|
|
dotes on them."
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. M. has made her plans, I dare say, and will play her
|
|
cards well, early as it is. The girl evidently doesn't think of it
|
|
yet," said Mrs. Moffat.
|
|
|
|
"She told that fib about her momma, as if she did know, and
|
|
colored up when the flowers came quite prettily. Poor thing!
|
|
She'd be so nice if she was only got up in style. Do you think
|
|
she'd be offended if we offered to lend her a dress for Thursday?"
|
|
asked another voice.
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|
|
|
"She's proud, but I don't believe she'd mind, for that dowdy
|
|
tarlatan is all she has got. She may tear it tonight, and that
|
|
will be a good excuse for offering a decent one."
|
|
|
|
Here Meg's partner appeared, to find her looking much flushed
|
|
and rather agitated. She was proud, and her pride was useful
|
|
just then, for it helped her hide her mortification, anger, and
|
|
disgust at what she had just heard. For, innocent and unsuspicious
|
|
as she was, she could not help understanding the gossip of her
|
|
friends. She tried to forget it, but could not, and kept repeating
|
|
to herself, "Mrs. M. has made her plans," "that fib about her
|
|
mamma," and 'dowdy tarlatan," till she was ready to cry and rush
|
|
home to tell her troubles and ask for advice. As that was imposs-
|
|
ible, she did her best to seem gay, and being rather excited, she
|
|
succeeded so well that no one dreamed what an effort she was making.
|
|
She was very glad when it was all over and she was quiet in her bed,
|
|
where she could think and wonder and fume till her head ached and
|
|
her hot cheeks were cooled by a few natural tears. Those foolish,
|
|
yet well meant words, had opened a new world to Meg, and much
|
|
disturbed the peace of the old one in which till now she had lived
|
|
as happily as a child. Her innocent friendship with Laurie was
|
|
spoiled by the silly speeches she had overheard. Her faith in her
|
|
mother was a little shaken by the worldly plans attributed to her
|
|
by Mrs. Moffat, who judged others by herself, and the sensible
|
|
resolution to be contented with the simple wardrobe which suited
|
|
a poor man's daughter was weakened by the unnecessary pity of
|
|
girls who thought a shabby dress one of the greatest calamities
|
|
under heaven.
|
|
|
|
Poor Meg had a restless night, and got up heavy-eyed, unhappy,
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half resentful toward her friends, and half ashamed of herself for
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not speaking out frankly and setting everything right. Everybody
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dawdled that morning, and it was noon before the girls found
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energy enough even to take up their worsted work. Something in
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the manner of her friends struck Meg at once. They treated her
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with more respect, she thought, took quite a tender interest in
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what she said, and looked at her with eyes that plainly betrayed
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curiosity. All this surprised and flattered her, though she did
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not understand it till Miss Belle looked up from her writing, and
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said, with a sentimental air . . .
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"Daisy, dear, I've sent an invitation to your friend, Mr.
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Laurence, for Thursday. We should like to know him, and it's only
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a proper compliment to you."
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Meg colored, but a mischievous fancy to tease the girls made
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her reply demurely, "You are very kind, but I'm afraid he won't
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come."
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"Why not, Cherie?" asked Miss Belle.
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"He's too old."
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"My child, what do you mean? What is his age, I beg to
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know!" cried Miss Clara.
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"Nearly seventy, I believe," answered Meg, counting stitches
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to hide the merriment in her eyes.
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"You sly creature! Of course we meant the young man,"
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exclaimed Miss Belle, laughing.
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"There isn't any, Laurie is only a little boy." And Meg
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laughed also at the queer look which the sisters exchanged as she
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thus described her supposed lover.
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"About you age," Nan said.
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"Nearer my sister Jo's, I am seventeen in August," returned
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Meg, tossing her head.
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"It's very nice of him to send you flowers, isn't it?" said
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Annie, looking wise about nothing.
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"Yes, he often does, to all of us, for their house is full, and
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we are so fond of them. My mother and old Mr. Laurence are friends,
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you know, so it is quite natural that we children should play to-
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gether." And Meg hoped they would say no more.
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"It's evident Daisy isn't out yet," said Miss Clara to Belle
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with a nod.
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"Quite a pastoral state of innocence all round," returned
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Miss Belle with a shrug.
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"I'm going out to get some little matters for my girls. Can
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I do anything for you, young ladies?" asked Mrs. Moffat, lumbering
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in like an elephant in silk and lace.
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"No, thank you, ma'am," replied Sallie. "I've got my new
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pink silk for Thursday and don't want a thing."
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"Nor I . . ." began Meg, but stopped because it occurred to
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her that she did want several things and could not have them.
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"What shall you wear?" asked Sallie.
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"My old white one again, if I can mend it fit to be seen, it
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got sadly torn last night," said Meg, trying to speak quite easily,
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but feeling very uncomfortable.
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"Why don't you send home for another?" said Sallie, who was
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not an observing young lady.
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"I haven't got any other." It cost Meg an effort to say that,
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but Sallie did not see it and exclaimed in amiable surprise, "Only
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that?" How funny . . ." She did not finish her speech, for Belle
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shook her head at her and broke in, saying kindly . . .
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"Not at all. Where is the use of having a lot of dresses
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when she isn't out yet? There's no need of sending home, Daisy,
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even if you had a dozen, for I've got a sweet blue silk laid away,
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which I've outgrown, and you shall wear it to please me, won't
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you, dear?"
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"You are very kind, but I don't mind my old dress if you
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don't, it does well enough for a little girl like me," said Meg.
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"Now do let me please myself by dressing you up in style.
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I admire to do it, and you'd be a regular little beauty with a
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touch here and there. I shan't let anyone see you till you are
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done, and then we'll burst upon them like Cinderella and her
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godmother going to the ball," said Belle in her persuasive tone.
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Meg couldn't refuse the offer so kindly made, for a desire to
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see if she would be `a little beauty' after touching up caused
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her to accept and forget all her former uncomfortable feelings
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toward the Moffats.
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On the Thursday evening, Belle shut herself up with her maid,
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and between them they turned Meg into a fine lady. They crimped
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and curled her hair, they polished her neck and arms with some
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fragrant powder, touched her lips with coralline salve to make
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them redder, and Hortense would have added `a soupcon of rouge',
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|
if Meg had not rebelled. They laced her into a sky-blue dress,
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|
which was so tight she could hardly breathe and so low in the
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|
neck that modest Meg blushed at herself in the mirror. A set
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of silver filagree was added, bracelets, necklace, brooch, and
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even earrings, for Hortense tied them on with a bit of pink
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silk which did not show. A cluster of tea-rose buds at the
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|
bosom and a ruche, reconciled Meg to the display of her pretty,
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|
white shoulders, and a pair of high-heeled silk boots satisfied
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|
the last wish of her heart. A lace handkerchief, a plumy fan,
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|
and a bouquet in a shoulder holder finished her off, and Miss
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Belle surveyed her with the satisfaction of a little girl with
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|
a newly dressed doll.
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"Mademoiselle is chatmante, tres jolie, is she not?" cried
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Hortense, clasping her hands in an affected rapture.
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"Come and show yourself," said Miss Belle, leading the way
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|
to the room where the others were waiting.
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|
As Meg went rustling after, with her long skirts trailing,
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|
her earrings tinkling, her curls waving, and her heart beating,
|
|
she felt as if her fun had really begun at last, for the mirror
|
|
had plainly told her that she was `a little beauty'. Her friends
|
|
repeated the pleasing phrase enthusiastically, and for several
|
|
minutes she stood, like a jackdaw in the fable, enjoying her
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|
borrowed plumes, while the rest chattered like a party of magpies.
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|
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"While I dress, do you drill her, Nan, in the management of her
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skirt and those French heels, or she will trip herself up. Take
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|
your silver butterfly, and catch up that long curl on the left side
|
|
of her head, Clara, and don't any of you disturb the charming work
|
|
of my hands," said Belle, as she hurried away, looking well pleased
|
|
with her success.
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|
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|
"You don't look a bit like yourself, but you are very nice.
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|
I'm nowhere beside you, for Belle has heaps of taste, and you're
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|
quite French, I assure you. Let your flowers hang, don't be so
|
|
careful of them, and be sure you don't trip," returned Sallie, trying
|
|
not to care that Meg was prettier than herself.
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|
Keeping that warning carefully in mind, Margaret got safely
|
|
downstairs and sailed into the drawing rooms where the Moffats and
|
|
a few early guests were assembled. She very soon discovered that
|
|
there is a charm about fine clothes which attracts a certain class
|
|
of people and secures their respect. Several young ladies, who
|
|
had taken no notice of her before, were very affectionate all of
|
|
a sudden. Several young gentlemen, who had only stared at her at
|
|
the other party, now not only stared, but asked to be introduced,
|
|
and said all manner of foolish but agreeable things to her, and
|
|
several old ladies, who sat on the sofas, and criticized the rest
|
|
of the party, inquired who she was with an air of interest. She
|
|
heard Mrs. Moffat reply to one of them . . .
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|
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|
"Daisy March--father a colonel in the army--one of our first
|
|
families, but reverses of fortune, you know; intimate friends of
|
|
the Laurences; sweet creature, I assure you; my Ned is quite wild
|
|
about her."
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|
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|
"Dear me!" said the old lady, putting up her glass for
|
|
another observation of Meg, who tried to look as if she had not
|
|
heard and been rather shocked at Mrs. Moffat's fibs.
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|
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|
The `queer feeling' did not pass away, but she imagined
|
|
herself acting the new part of fine lady and so got on pretty
|
|
well, though the tight dress gave her a side-ache, the train kept
|
|
getting under her feet, and she was in constant fear lest her
|
|
earrings should fly off and get lost or broken. She was flirting
|
|
her fan and laughing at the feeble jokes of a young gentleman
|
|
who tried to be witty, when she suddenly stopped laughing and
|
|
looked confused, for just opposite, she saw Laurie. He was
|
|
staring at her with undisguised surprise, and disapproval also,
|
|
she thought, for though he bowed and smiled, yet something in
|
|
his honest eyes made her blush and wish she had her old dress on.
|
|
To complete her confusion, she saw Belle nudge Annie, and both
|
|
glance from her to Laurie, who, she was happy to see, looked
|
|
unusually boyish and shy.
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|
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|
"Silly creatures, to put such thoughts into my head. I won't
|
|
care for it, or let it change me a bit," thought Meg, and rustled
|
|
across the room to shake hands with her friend.
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|
|
|
"I'm glad you came, I was afraid you wouldn't." she said,
|
|
with her most grown-up air.
|
|
|
|
"Jo wanted me to come, and tell her how you looked, so I
|
|
did," answered Laurie, without turning his eyes upon her, though
|
|
he half smiled at her maternal tone.
|
|
|
|
"What shall you tell her?" asked Meg, full of curiosity to
|
|
know his opinion of her, yet feeling ill at ease with him for the
|
|
first time.
|
|
|
|
"I shall say I didn't know you, for you look so grown-up and
|
|
unlike yourself, I'm quite afraid of you," he said, fumbling at
|
|
his glove button.
|
|
|
|
"How absurd of you! The girls dressed me up for fun, and I
|
|
rather like it. Wouldn't Jo stare if she saw me?" said Meg, bent
|
|
on making him say whether he thought her improved or not.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I think she would," returned Laurie gravely.
|
|
|
|
"Don't you like me so?' asked Meg.
|
|
|
|
"No, I don't," was the blunt reply.
|
|
|
|
"Why not?" in an anxious tone.
|
|
|
|
He glanced at her frizzled head, bare shoulders, and fantas-
|
|
tically trimmed dress with an expression that abashed her more
|
|
than his answer, which had not particle of his usual politeness
|
|
in it.
|
|
|
|
"I don't like fuss and feathers."
|
|
|
|
That was altogether too much from a lad younger than herself,
|
|
and Meg walked away, saying petulantly, "You are the rudest boy I
|
|
ever saw."
|
|
|
|
Feeling very much ruffled, she went and stood at a quiet window
|
|
to cool her cheeks, for the tight dress gave her an uncomfortably
|
|
brilliant color. As she stood there, Major Lincoln passed by, and
|
|
a minute after she heard him saying to his mother . . .
|
|
|
|
"They are making a fool of that little girl. I wanted you
|
|
to see her, but they have spoiled her entirely. She's nothing
|
|
but a doll tonight."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, dear!" sighed Meg. "I wish I'd been sensible and worn
|
|
my own things, then I should not have disgusted other people, or
|
|
felt so uncomfortable and ashamed of myself."
|
|
|
|
She leaned her forehead on the cool pane, and stood half
|
|
hidden by the curtains, never minding that her favorite waltz
|
|
had begun, till some one touched her, and turning, she saw
|
|
Laurie, looking penitent, as he said, with his very best bow
|
|
and his hand out . . .
|
|
|
|
"Please forgive my rudeness, and come and dance with me."
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid it will be to disagreeable to you," said Meg,
|
|
trying to look offended and failing entirely.
|
|
|
|
"Not a bit of it, I'm dying to do it. Come, I'll be good.
|
|
I don't like your gown, but I do think you are just splendid."
|
|
And he waved his hands, as if words failed to express his
|
|
admiration.
|
|
|
|
Meg smiled and relented, and whispered as they stood waiting
|
|
to catch the time, "Take care my skirt doesn't trip you up. It's
|
|
the plague of my life and I was a goose to wear it."
|
|
|
|
"Pin it round your neck, and then it will be useful," said
|
|
Laurie, looking down at the little blue boots, which he evidently
|
|
approved of.
|
|
|
|
Away they went fleetly and gracefully, for having practiced
|
|
at home, they were well matched, and the blithe young couple were
|
|
a pleasant sight to see, as they twirled merrily round and round,
|
|
feeling more friendly than ever after their small tiff.
|
|
|
|
"Laurie,I want you to do me a favor, will you?' said Meg,
|
|
as he stood fanning her when her breath gave out, which it did
|
|
very soon though she would not own why.
|
|
|
|
"Won't I!" said Laurie, with alacrity.
|
|
|
|
"Please don't tell them at home about my dress tonight.
|
|
They won't understand the joke, and it will worry Mother.'
|
|
|
|
"Then why did you do it?" said Laurie's eyes, so plainly
|
|
that Meg hastily added . . .
|
|
|
|
"I shall tell them myself all about it, and `fess' to Mother
|
|
how silly I've been. But I'd rather do it myself. So you'll not
|
|
tell, will you?"
|
|
|
|
"I give you my word I won't, only what shall I say when
|
|
they ask me?"
|
|
|
|
"Just say I looked pretty well and was having a good time."
|
|
|
|
"I'll say the first with all my heart, but how about the
|
|
other? You don't look as if you were having a good time. Are
|
|
you?' And Laurie looked at her with an expression which made her
|
|
answer in a whisper . . .
|
|
|
|
"No, not just now. Don't think I'm horrid. I only wanted
|
|
a little fun, but this sort doesn't pay, I find, and I'm getting
|
|
tired of it."
|
|
|
|
"Here comes Ned Moffat. What does he want?" said Laurie,
|
|
knitting his black brows as if he did not regard his young host
|
|
in the light of a pleasant addition to the party.
|
|
|
|
"He put his name down for three dances, and I suppose he's
|
|
coming for them. What a bore!" said Meg, assuming a languid air
|
|
which amused Laurie immensely.
|
|
|
|
He did not speak to her again till suppertime, when he saw
|
|
her drinking champagne with Ned and his friend Fisher, who were
|
|
behaving `like a pair of fools', as Laurie said to himself, for
|
|
he felt a brotherly sort of right to watch over the Marches and
|
|
fight their battles whenever a defender was needed.
|
|
|
|
"You'll have a splitting headache tomorrow, if you drink
|
|
much of that. I wouldn't, Meg, your mother doesn't like it, you
|
|
know," he whispered, leaning over her chair, as Ned turned to
|
|
refill her glass and Fisher stooped to pick up her fan.
|
|
|
|
"I'm not Meg tonight, I'm `a doll' who does all sorts of
|
|
crazy things. Tomorrow I shall put away my `fuss and feathers'
|
|
and be desperately good again," se answered with an affected
|
|
little laugh.
|
|
|
|
"Wish tomorrow was here,then," muttered Laurie, walking off,
|
|
ill-pleased at the change he saw in her.
|
|
|
|
Meg danced and flirted, chattered and giggled, as the other
|
|
girls did. After supper she undertook the German, and blundered
|
|
through it, nearly upsetting her partner with her long skirt, and
|
|
romping in a way that scandalized Laurie, who looked on and medi-
|
|
tated a lecture. But he got no chance to deliver it, for Meg kept
|
|
away from him till he came to say good night.
|
|
|
|
"Remember!" she said, trying to smile, for the splitting
|
|
headache had already begun.
|
|
|
|
"Silence a` la mort," replied Laurie, with a melodramatic
|
|
flourish, as he went away.
|
|
|
|
This little bit of byplay excited Annie's curiosity, but Meg
|
|
was too tired for gossip and went to bed, feeling as if she had
|
|
been to a masquerade and hadn't enjoyed herself as much as she
|
|
expected. She was sick all the next day, and on Saturday went home,
|
|
quite used up with her fortnight's fun and feeling that she had
|
|
`sat in the lap of luxury' long enough.
|
|
|
|
"It does seem pleasant to be quiet, and not have company
|
|
manners on all the time. Home is a nice place, though it isn't
|
|
splendid," said Meg, looking about her with a restful expression,
|
|
as she sat with her mother and Jo on the Sunday evening.
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad to hear you say so, dear, for I was afraid home
|
|
would seem dull and poor to you after your fine quarters," replied
|
|
her mother, who had given her many anxious looks that day. For
|
|
motherly eyes are quick to see any change in children's faces.
|
|
|
|
Meg had told her adventures gayly and said over and over what
|
|
a charming time she had had, but something still seemed to weigh
|
|
upon her spirits, and when the younger girls were gone to bed, she
|
|
sat thoughtfully staring at the fire, saying little and looking
|
|
worried. As the clock struck nine and Jo proposed bed, Meg
|
|
suddenly left her chair and, taking Beth's stool, leaned her elbows
|
|
on her mother's knee, saying bravely . . .
|
|
|
|
"Marmee, I want to `fess'."
|
|
|
|
"I thought so. What is it, dear?"
|
|
|
|
"Shall I go away?" asked Jo discreetly.
|
|
|
|
"Of course not. Don't I always tell you everything? I was
|
|
ashamed to speak of it before the younger children, but I want you
|
|
to know all the dreadful things I did at the Moffats'."
|
|
|
|
"We are prepared," said Mrs. March, smiling but looking a
|
|
little anxious.
|
|
|
|
"I told you they dressed me up, but I didn't tell you that
|
|
they powdered and squeezed and frizzled, and made me look like a
|
|
fashion plate. Laurie thought I wasn't proper. I know he did,
|
|
though he didn't say so, and one man called me `a doll'. I knew
|
|
it was silly, but they flattered me and said I was a beauty, and
|
|
quantities of nonsense, so I let them make a fool of me."
|
|
|
|
"Is that all?" asked Jo, as Mrs. March looked silently at
|
|
the downcast face of her pretty daughter, and could not find it
|
|
in her heart to blame her little follies.
|
|
|
|
"No, I drank champagne and romped and tried to flirt, and
|
|
was altogether abominable," said Meg self-reproachfully.
|
|
|
|
"There is something more, I think." And Mrs. March smoothed
|
|
the soft cheek,which suddenly grew rosy as Meg answered slowly . . .
|
|
|
|
"Yes. It's very silly, but I want to tell it, because I hate
|
|
to have people say and think such things about us and Laurie."
|
|
|
|
Then she told the various bits of gossip she had heard at the
|
|
Moffats', and as she spoke, Jo saw her mother fold her lips tightly,
|
|
as if ill pleased that such ideas should be put into Meg's innocent
|
|
mind.
|
|
|
|
"Well, if that isn't the greatest rubbish I ever heard," cried
|
|
Jo indignantly. "Why didn't you pop out and tell them so on the
|
|
spot?'
|
|
|
|
"I couldn't, it was so embarrassing for me. I couldn't help
|
|
hearing at first, and then I was so angry and ashamed, I didn't
|
|
remember that I ought to go away."
|
|
|
|
"Just wait till I see Annie Moffat, and I'll show you how to
|
|
settle such ridiculous stuff. The idea of having `plans' and being
|
|
kind to Laurie because he's rich and may marry us by-and-by! Won't
|
|
he shout when I tell him what those silly things say about us poor
|
|
children?" And Jo laughed, as if on second thoughts the thing
|
|
struck her as a good joke.
|
|
|
|
"If you tell Laurie, I'll never forgive you! She mustn't,
|
|
must she, Mother?" said Meg, looking distressed.
|
|
|
|
"No, never repeat that foolish gossip, and forget it as soon
|
|
as you can," said Mrs. March gravely. "I was very unwise to let
|
|
you go among people of whom I know so little, kind, I dare say,
|
|
but worldly, ill-bred, and full of these vulgar ideas about young
|
|
people. I am more sorry than I can express for the mischief this
|
|
visit may have done you, Meg."
|
|
|
|
"Don't be sorry, I won't let it hurt me. I'll forget all the
|
|
bad and remember only the good, for I did enjoy a great deal, and
|
|
thank you very much for letting me go. I'll not be sentimental or
|
|
dissatisfied, Mother. I know I'm a silly little girl, and I'll
|
|
stay with you till I'm fit to take care of myself. But it is nice
|
|
to be praised and admired, and I can't help saying I like it," said
|
|
Meg, looking half ashamed of the confession.
|
|
|
|
"That is perfectly natural, and quite harmless, if the liking
|
|
does not become a passion and lead one to do foolish or unmaidenly
|
|
things. Learn to know and value the praise which is worth having,
|
|
and to excite the admiration of excellent people by being modest
|
|
as well as pretty, Meg."
|
|
|
|
Margaret sat thinking a moment, while Jo stood with her hands
|
|
behind her, looking both interested and a little perplexed, for it
|
|
was a new thing to see Meg blushing and talking about admiration,
|
|
lovers, and things of that sort. And Jo felt as if during that
|
|
fortnight her sister had grown up amazingly, and was drifting away
|
|
from her into a world where she could not follow.
|
|
|
|
"Mother, do you have `plans', as Mrs. Moffat said?" asked Meg
|
|
bashfully.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, my dear, I have a great many, all mothers do, but mine
|
|
differ somewhat from Mrs. Moffat's, I suspect. I will tell you
|
|
some of them, for the time has come when a word may set this
|
|
romantic little head and heart of yours right, on a very serious
|
|
subject. You are young, Meg, but not too young to understand me,
|
|
and mothers' lips are the fittest to speak of such things to girls
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like you. Jo, your turn will come in time, perhaps, so listen to
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my `plans' and help me carry them out, if they are good."
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Jo went and sat on one arm of the chair, looking as if she
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thought they were about to join in some very solemn affair. Hold-
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ing a hand of each, and watching the two young faces wistfully,
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Mrs. March said, in her serious yet cheery way . . .
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"I want my daughters to be beautiful, accomplished, and good.
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To be admired, loved, and respected. To have a happy youth, to
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be well and wisely married, and to lead useful, pleasant lives,
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with as little care and sorrow to try them as God sees fit to send.
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To be loved and chosen by a good man is the best and sweetest thing
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which can happen to a woman, and I sincerely hope my girls may
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know this beautiful experience. It is natural to think of it, Meg,
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right to hope and wait for it, and wise to prepare for it, so that
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when the happy time comes, you may feel ready for the duties and
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worthy of the joy. My dear girls, I am ambitious for you, but not
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to have you make a dash in the world, marry rich men merely because
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they are rich, or have splendid houses, which are not homes because
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love is wanting. Money is a needful and precious thing, and when
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well used, a noble thing, but I never want you to think it is the
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first or only prize to strive for. I'd rather see you poor men's
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wives, if you were happy, beloved, contented, than queens on thrones,
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without self-respect and peace."
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"Poor girls don't stand any chance, Belle says, unless they
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put themselves forward," sighed Meg.
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"Then we'll be old maids," said Jo stoutly.
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"right, Jo. Better be happy old maids than unhappy wives, or
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unmaidenly girls, running about to find husbands," said Mrs. March
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decidedly. "Don't be troubled, Meg, poverty seldom daunts a sincere
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lover. Some of the best and most honored women I know were poor
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girls, but so love-worthy that they were not allowed to be old maids.
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Leave these things to time. Make this home happy, so that you may
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be fit for homes of your own, if they are offered you, and contented
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here if they are not. One thing remember, my girls. Mother is
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always ready to be your confidante, Father to be your friend, and
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both of hope and trust that our daughters, whether married or single,
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will be the pride and comfort of out lives."
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"We will, Marmee, we will!" cried both, with all their hearts,
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as she bade them good night.
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CHAPTER TEN
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As spring came on, a new set of amusements became the
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fashion, and the lengthening days gave long afternoons for
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work and play of all sorts. The garden had to be put in order,
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and each sister had a quarter of the little plot to do what she
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liked with. Hannah used to say, "I'd know which each of them
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gardings belonged to, ef I see 'em in Chiny," and so she might,
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for the girls' tastes differed as much as their characters. Meg's
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had roses and heliotrope, myrtle, and a little orange tree in it.
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Jo's bed was never alike two seasons, for she was always trying
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experiments. This year it was to be a plantation of sun flowers,
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the seeds of which cheerful land aspiring plant were to feed
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Aunt Cockle-top and her family of chicks. Beth had old-fashioned
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fragrant flowers in her garden, sweet peas and mignonette,
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larkspur, pinks, pansies, and southernwood, with chickweed for
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the birds and catnip for the pussies. Amy had a bower in hers,
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rather small and earwiggy, but very pretty to look at, with
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honeysuckle and morning-glories hanging their colored horns and
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bells in graceful wreaths all over it, tall white lilies, delicate
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ferns, and as many brilliant, picturesque plants as would consent
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to blossom there.
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Gardening, walks, rows on the river, and flower hunts em-
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|
ployed the fine days, and for rainy ones, they had house diver-
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sions, some old, some new, all more or less original. One of
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|
these was the `P.C', for as secret societies were the fashion,
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|
it was thought proper to have one, and as all of the girls
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|
admired Dickens, they called themselves the Pickwick Club. With
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|
a few interruptions, they had kept this up for a year, and met
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|
every Saturday evening in the big garret, on which occasions the
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|
ceremonies were as follows: Three chairs were arranged in a row
|
|
before a table on which was a lamp, also four white badges, with
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|
a big `P.C.' in different colors on each, and the weekly news-
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|
paper called, THE PICKWICK PORTFOLIO, to which all contributed
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something, while Jo, who reveled in pens and ink, was the editor.
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|
At seven o'clock, the four members ascended to the clubroom,
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|
tied their badges round their heads, and took their seats with
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|
great solemnity. Meg, as the eldest, was Samuel Pickwick, Jo,
|
|
being of a literary turn, Augustus Snodgrass, Beth, because she
|
|
was round and rosy, Tracy Tupman, and Amy, who was always trying
|
|
to do what she couldn't, was Nathaniel Winkle. Pickwick, the
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|
president, read the paper, which was filled with original tales,
|
|
poetry, local news, funny advertisements, and hints, in which
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|
they good-naturedly reminded each other of their faults and
|
|
short comings. On one occasion, Mr. Pickwick put on a pair
|
|
of spectacles without any glass, rapped upon the table, hemmed,
|
|
and having stared hard at Mr. Snodgrass, who was tilting back
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in his chair, till he arranged himself properly, began to read:
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____________________________________________________
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"THE PICKWICK PORTFOLIO"
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_____________________________________________________
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MAY 20, 18---
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POET'S CORNER
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_____________________________________________________
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ANNIVERSARY ODE
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___________
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Again we meet to celebrate
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With badge and solemn rite,
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Our fifty-second anniversary,
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|
In Pickwick Hall, tonight.
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We all are here in perfect health,
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|
None gone from our small band:
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Again we see each well-known face,
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|
And press each friendly hand.
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|
Our Pickwick, always at his post,
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|
With reverence we greet,
|
|
As, spectacles on nose, he reads
|
|
Our well-filled weekly sheet.
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|
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|
Although he suffers from a cold,
|
|
We joy to hear him speak,
|
|
For words of wisdom from him fall,
|
|
In spite of croak or squeak.
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|
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|
Old six-foot Snodgrass looms on high,
|
|
With elephantine grace,
|
|
And beams upon the company,
|
|
With brown and jovial face.
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|
Poetic fire lights up his eye,
|
|
He struggles 'gainst his lot.
|
|
Behold ambition on his brow,
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|
And on his nose, a blot.
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|
Next our peaceful Tupman comes,
|
|
So rosy, plump, and sweet,
|
|
Who chokes with laughter at the puns,
|
|
And tumbles off his seat.
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|
Prim little Winkle too is here,
|
|
With every hair in place,
|
|
A model of propriety,
|
|
Though he hates to wash his face.
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|
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|
The year is gone, we still unite
|
|
To joke and laugh and read,
|
|
And tread the path of literature
|
|
That doth to glory lead.
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|
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Long may our paper prosper well,
|
|
Our club unbroken be,
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|
And coming years their blessings pour
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|
On the useful, gay `P. C.'.
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A. SNODGRASS
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________
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THE MASKED MARRIAGE
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(A Tale Of Venice)
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|
Gondola after gondola swept up to the marble
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|
steps, and left its lovely load to swell the brill-
|
|
iant throng that filled the stately halls of Count
|
|
Adelon. Knights and ladies, elves and pages, monks
|
|
and flower girls, all mingled gaily in the dance.
|
|
Sweet voices and rich melody filled the air, and so
|
|
with mirth and music the masquerade went on.
|
|
"Has your Highness seen the Lady viola tonight?"
|
|
asked a gallant troubadour of the fairy queen who
|
|
floated down the hall upon his arm.
|
|
"Yes, is she not lovely, though so sad! Her
|
|
dress is well chosen, too, for in a week she weds
|
|
Count Antonio, whom she passionately hates."
|
|
"By my faith, I envy him. Yonder he comes,
|
|
arrayed like a bridegroom, except the black mask.
|
|
When that is off we shall see how he regards the
|
|
fair maid whose heart he cannot win, though her
|
|
stern father bestows her hand," returned the troub-
|
|
adour.
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|
"Tis whispered that she loves the young English
|
|
artist who haunts her steps, and is spurned by the
|
|
old Count," said the lady, as they joined the dance.
|
|
The revel was at its height when a priest
|
|
appeared, and withdrawing the young pair to an alcove,
|
|
hung with purple velvet, he motioned them to kneel.
|
|
Instant silence fell on the gay throng, and not a
|
|
sound, but he dash of fountains or the rustle of
|
|
orange groves sleeping in the moonlight, broke the
|
|
hush, as Count de Adelon spoke thus:
|
|
"My lords and ladies, pardon the ruse by which
|
|
I have gathered you here to witness the marriage of
|
|
my daughter. Father, we wait your services."
|
|
All eyes turned toward the bridal party, and a
|
|
murmur of amazement went through the throng, for
|
|
neither bride nor groom removed their masks. Curiosity
|
|
and wonder possessed all hearts, but respect restrained
|
|
all tongues till the holy rite was over. Then the
|
|
eager spectators gathered round the count, demanding
|
|
an explanation.
|
|
"Gladly would I give it if I could, but I only
|
|
know that it was the whim of my timid Viola, and I
|
|
yielded to it. Now, my children, let the play end.
|
|
Unmask and receive my blessing."
|
|
But neither bent the knee,for the young bride-
|
|
groom replied in a tone that startled all listeners
|
|
as the mask fell, disclosing the noble face of Ferd-
|
|
inand Devereux, the artist lover, and leaning on the
|
|
breast where now flashed the star of an English earl
|
|
was the lovely Viola, radiant with joy and beauty.
|
|
"My lord, you scornfully bade me claim your
|
|
daughter when I could boast as high a name and vast a
|
|
fortune as the Count antonio. I can do more, for even
|
|
your ambitious soul cannot refuse the Earl of Devereux
|
|
and De Vere, when he gives his ancient name and bound-
|
|
less wealth in return for the beloved hand of this fair
|
|
lady, now my wife.
|
|
The count stood like one changed to stone, and
|
|
turning to the bewildered crowd, Ferdinand added, with
|
|
a gay smile of triumph, "To you, my gallant friends, I
|
|
can only wish that your wooing may prosper as mine has
|
|
done, and that you may all win as fair a bride as I have
|
|
by this masked marriage."
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|
S. PICKWICK
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___________
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|
|
|
Why is the P. C. like the Tower of Babel?
|
|
It is full of unruly members.
|
|
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|
___________
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|
|
THE HISTORY OF A SQUASH
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_____
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|
Once upon a time a farmer planted a little seed.
|
|
in his garden, and after a while it sprouted and be-
|
|
came a vine and bore many squashes. One day in Octo-
|
|
ber, when they were ripe, he picked one and took it
|
|
to market. A gorcerman bought and put it in his shop.
|
|
That same morning, a little girl in a brown hat
|
|
and blue dress, with a round face and snub nose, went
|
|
and bought it for her mother. She lugged it home, cut
|
|
it up, and boiled it in the big pot, mashed some of it
|
|
salt and butter, for dinner. And to the rest she added
|
|
a pint of milk, two eggs, four spoons of sugar, nutmeg,
|
|
and some crackers, put it in a deep dish, and baked it
|
|
till it was brown and nice, and next day it was eaten
|
|
by a family named March.
|
|
T. TUPMAN
|
|
|
|
_____________
|
|
|
|
Mr. Pickwick, Sir:-
|
|
I address you upon the subject of sin the sinner
|
|
I mean is a man named Winkle who makes trouble in his
|
|
club by laughing and sometimes won't write his piece in
|
|
this fine paper I hope you will pardon his badness and
|
|
let him send a French fable because he can't write out
|
|
of his head as he has so many lessons to do and no brains
|
|
in future I will try to take time by the fetlock and
|
|
prepare some work which will be all commy la fo that
|
|
means all right I am in haste as it is nearly school
|
|
time
|
|
Yours respectably,
|
|
|
|
N. WINKLE
|
|
|
|
[The above is a manly and handsome aknowledgment of past
|
|
misdemeanors. If our young friend studied punctuation, it
|
|
would be well.]
|
|
|
|
_________
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|
|
|
A SAD ACCIDENT
|
|
|
|
__________
|
|
|
|
On Friday last, we were startled by a violent shock
|
|
in our basement, followed by cries of distress. On rush-
|
|
ing in a body to the cellar, we discovered our beloved
|
|
President prostrate upon the floor, having tripped and
|
|
fallen while getting wood for domestic purposes. A per-
|
|
fect scene of ruin met our eyes, for in his fall Mr.
|
|
Pickwick had plunged his head and shoulders into a tub
|
|
of water, upset a keg of soft soap upon his manly form,
|
|
and torn his garments badly. On being removed from this
|
|
perilous situation, it was discovered that he had suffered
|
|
no injury but several bruises, and we are happy to add, is
|
|
now doing well.
|
|
ED.
|
|
|
|
______________________________________
|
|
|
|
THE PUBLIC BEREAVEMENT
|
|
|
|
It is our painful duty to record the sudden and
|
|
mysterious disappearance of our cherished friend, Mrs.
|
|
Snowball Pat Paw. This lovely and beloved cat was the
|
|
pet of a large circle of warm and admiring friends; for
|
|
her beauty attracted all eyes, her graces and virtues
|
|
endeared her to all hearts, and her loss is deeply felt
|
|
by the whole community.
|
|
When last seen, she was sitting at the gate, watch-
|
|
ing the butcher's cart, and it is feared that some villain,
|
|
tempted by her charms, basely stole her. Weeks have passed,
|
|
but no trace of her has been discovered, and we relinquish
|
|
all hope, tie a black ribbon to her basket, set aside her
|
|
dish, and weep for her as one lost to us forever.
|
|
|
|
_________
|
|
|
|
A sympathizing friend sends the following gem:
|
|
________
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|
|
A LAMENT
|
|
(FOR S. B. PAT PAW)
|
|
|
|
We mourn the loss of our little pet,
|
|
And sigh o'er her hapless fate,
|
|
For never more by the fire she'll sit,
|
|
Nor play by the old green gate.
|
|
|
|
The little grave where her infant sleeps
|
|
Is 'neath the chestnut tree.
|
|
But o'er her grave we may not weep,
|
|
We know not where it may be.
|
|
|
|
Her empty bed, her idle ball,
|
|
Will never see her more;
|
|
No gentle tap, no loving purr
|
|
Is heard at the parlor door.
|
|
|
|
Another cat comes after her mice,
|
|
A cat with a dirty face,
|
|
But she does not hunt as our darling did,
|
|
Nor play with her airy grace.
|
|
|
|
Her stealthy paws tread the very hall
|
|
Where Snowball used to play,
|
|
But she only spits at the dogs our pet
|
|
So gallantly drove away.
|
|
|
|
She is useful and mild, and does her best,
|
|
But she is not fair to see,
|
|
And we cannot give her your place dear,
|
|
Nor worship her as we worship thee.
|
|
A.S.
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|
|
|
__________________________________________
|
|
|
|
ADVERTISEMENTS
|
|
__________________________________________
|
|
|
|
Miss Oranthy Bluggage, the accomplished
|
|
strong-minded lecturer, will deliver her
|
|
famous lecture on "WOMAN AND HER POSITION"
|
|
at Pickwick Hall, next Saturday Evening,
|
|
after the usual performances.
|
|
|
|
___________________________________________
|
|
|
|
A weekly meeting will be held at Kitchen
|
|
place, to teach young ladies how to cook.
|
|
Hannah Brown will preside, and all are
|
|
invited to attend.
|
|
|
|
____________________________________________
|
|
|
|
The DUSTPAN SOCIETY will meet on Wednesday
|
|
next, and parade in the upper story of the
|
|
Club House. All members to appear in uniform
|
|
and shoulder their brooms at nine precisely.
|
|
|
|
____________________________________________
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Beth Bouncer will open her new assort-
|
|
ment of Doll's Millinery next week. The
|
|
latest Paris fashions have arrived, and
|
|
orders are respectfully solicited.
|
|
|
|
____________________________________________
|
|
|
|
A new play will appear at the Barnville
|
|
Theatre,in the course of a few weeks,which
|
|
will surpass anything ever seen on the Amer-
|
|
ican stage. THE GREEK SLAVE, or CONSTAN-
|
|
TINE THE AVENGER, is the name of this thrill-
|
|
ing drama.!!!
|
|
|
|
_____________________________________________
|
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|
|
HINTS
|
|
|
|
If S.P. didn't use so much soap on his hands,
|
|
he wouldn't always be late at breakfast. A.S.
|
|
is requested not to whistle in the street. T.T
|
|
please don't forget Amy's napkin. N.W. must
|
|
not fret because his dress has not nine tucks.
|
|
|
|
_______________________________________________
|
|
|
|
WEEKLY REPORT
|
|
|
|
Meg--Good.
|
|
Jo--Bad.
|
|
Beth--Very Good.
|
|
Amy--Middling.
|
|
|
|
___________________________________________________________________
|
|
|
|
As the President finished reading the paper (which I beg
|
|
leave to assure my readers is a bona fide copy of one written
|
|
by bona fide girls once upon a time), a round of applause
|
|
followed, and then Mr. Snodgrass rose to make a proposition.
|
|
|
|
"Mr. President and gentlemen," he began, assuming a par-
|
|
liamentary attitude and tone, "I wish to propose the admission
|
|
of a new member--one who highly deserves the honor, would be
|
|
deeply grateful for it, and would add immensely to the spirit
|
|
of the club, the literary value of the paper, and be no end
|
|
jolly and nice. I propose Mr. Theodore Laurence as an honorary
|
|
member of the P. C. Come now, do have him."
|
|
|
|
Jo's sudden change of tone made the girls laugh, but all
|
|
looked rather anxious, and no one said a word as Snodgrass
|
|
took his seat.
|
|
|
|
"We'll put it to a vote," said the President. "All in
|
|
favor of this motion please to manifest it by saying, `Aye'."
|
|
|
|
"Contrary-minded say, `No'."
|
|
|
|
Meg and Amy were contrary-minded, and Mr. Winkle rose to
|
|
say with great elegance, "We don't wish any boys, they only
|
|
joke and bounce about. This is a ladies' club, and we wish to
|
|
be private and proper."
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid he'll laugh at our paper, and make fun of us
|
|
afterward," observed Pickwick, pulling the little curl on her
|
|
forehead, as she always did when doubtful.
|
|
|
|
Up rose Snodgrass, very much in earnest. "Sir, I give you
|
|
my word as a gentleman, Laurie won't do anything of the sort. He
|
|
likes to write, and he'll give a tone to our contributions and
|
|
keep us from being sentimental, don't you see? We can do so little
|
|
for him, and he does so much for us, I think the least we can do
|
|
is to offer him a place here, and make him welcome if he comes."
|
|
|
|
This artful allusion to benefits conferred brought Tupman to
|
|
his feet, looking as if he had quite made up his mind.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, we ought to do it, even if we are afraid. I say he may
|
|
come, and his grandpa, too, if he likes."
|
|
|
|
This spirited burst from Beth electrified the club, and Jo
|
|
left her seat to shake hands approvingly. "Now then, vote again.
|
|
Everybody remember it's our Laurie, and say, `Aye!'" cried Snod-
|
|
grass excitedly.
|
|
|
|
"Aye! Aye! Aye!" replied three voices at once.
|
|
|
|
"Good! Bless you! Now, as there's nothing like `taking time
|
|
by the fetlock', as Winkle characteristically observes, allow me
|
|
to present the new member." And, to the dismay of the rest of the
|
|
club, Jo threw open the door of the closet, and displayed Laurie
|
|
sitting on a rag bag, flushed and twinkling with suppressed laughter.
|
|
|
|
"You rogue! You traitor! Jo, how could you?" cried the three
|
|
girls, as Snodgrass led her friend triumphantly forth, and producing
|
|
both a chair and a badge, installed him in a jiffy.
|
|
|
|
"The coolness of you two rascals is amazing," began Mr. Pick-
|
|
wick, trying to get up an awful frown and only succeeding in pro-
|
|
ducing an amiable smile. But the new member was equal to the
|
|
occasion, and rising, with a grateful salutation to the Chair, said
|
|
in the most engaging manner, "Mr. President and ladies--I beg pardon,
|
|
gentlemen--allow me to introduce myself as Sam Weller, the very
|
|
humble servant of the club."
|
|
|
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"Good! Good!" cried Jo, pounding with the handle of the old
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warming pan on which she leaned.
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"My faithful friend and noble patron," continued Laurie with
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a wave of the hand, "who has so flatteringly presented me, is not
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to be blamed for the base stratagem of tonight. I planned it, and
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she only gave in after lots of teasing."
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"Come now, don't lay it all on yourself. You know I proposed
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the cupboard," broke in Snodgrass, who was enjoying the joke
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amazingly.
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"Never mind what she says. I'm the wretch that did it, sir,"
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said the new member, with a Welleresque nod to Mr. Pickwick. "But
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on my honor, I never will do so again, and henceforth devote myself
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to the interest of this immortal club."
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"Hear! Hear!" cried Jo, clashing the lid of the warming pan
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like a cymbal.
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"Go on, go on!" added Winkle and Tupman, while the President
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bowed benignly.
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"I merely wish to say, that as a slight token of my gratitude
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for the honor done me, and as a means of promoting friendly relations
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between adjoining nations, I have set up a post office in the hedge
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in the lower corner of the garden, a fine, spacious building with
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padlocks on the doors and every convenience for the mails, also the
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females, if I may be allowed the expression. It's the old martin
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house, but I've stopped up the door and made the roof open, so it
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will hold all sorts of things, and save our valuable time. Letters,
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manuscripts, books, and bundles can be passed in there, and as each
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nation has a key, it will be uncommonly nice, I fancy. Allow me to
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present the club key, and with many thanks for your favor, take my
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seat."
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Great applause as Mr. Weller deposited a little key on the
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table and subsided, the warming pan clashed and waved wildly, and
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it was some time before order could be restored. A long discussion
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followed, and everyone came out surprising, for everyone did her
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best. So it was an unusually lively meeting, and did not adjourn
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till a late hour, when it broke up with three shrill cheers for the
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new member. No one ever regretted the admittance of Sam Weller, for
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a more devoted, well-behaved, and jovial member no club could have.
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He certainly did add `spirit' to the meetings, and `a tone' to the
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paper, for his orations convulsed his hearers and his contributions
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were excellent, being patriotic, classical, comical, or dramatic,
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but never sentimental. Jo regarded them as worthy of Bacon, Milton,
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or Shakespeare, and remodeled her own works with good effect, she
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thought.
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The P. O. was a capital little institution, and flourished
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wonderfully, for nearly as many queer things passed through it as
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through the real post office. Tragedies and cravats, poetry and
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pickles, garden seeds and long letters, music and gingerbread,
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rubbers, invitations, scoldings, and puppies. The old gentleman
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liked the fun, and amused himself by sending odd bundles, mys-
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terious messages, and funny telegrams, and his gardener, who was
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smitten with Hannah's charms, actually sent a love letter to Jo's
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care. How they laughed when the secret came out, never dreaming
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how many love letters that little post office would hold in the
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years to come.
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CHAPTER ELEVEN
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"The first of June! The Kings are off to the seashore to-
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morrow, and I'm free. Three months' vacation--how I shall enjoy
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it!" exclaimed Meg, coming home one warm day to find Jo laid
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upon the sofa in an unusual state of exhaustion, while Beth took
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off her dusty boots, and Amy made lemonade for the refreshment
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of the whole party.
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"Aunt March went today, for which, oh, be joyful!" said
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Jo. "I was mortally afraid she'd ask me to go with her. If she
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had,I should have felt as if I ought to do it, but Plumfield is
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about as gay as a churchyard, you know, and I'd rather be excused.
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We had a flurry getting the old lady off, and I had a fright every
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time she spoke to me, for I was in such a hurry to be through that
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I was uncommonly helpful and sweet, and feared she'd find it im-
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possible to part from me. I quaked till she was fairly in the
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carriage, and had a final fright, for as it drove of, she popped
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out her head, saying, `Josyphine, won't you--?' I didn't hear any
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more, for I basely turned and fled. I did actually run, and
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whisked round the corner whee I felt safe."
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"Poor old Jo! She came in looking as if bears were after her,"
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said Beth, as she cuddled her sister's feet with a motherly air.
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"Aunt March is a regular samphire, is she not?" observed Amy,
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tasting her mixture critically.
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"She means vampire, not seaweed,but it doesn't matter. It's
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too warm to be particular about one's parts of speech," murmured
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Jo.
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"What shall you do all your vacation?" asked Amy, changing
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the subject with tact.
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"I shall lie abed late, and do nothing," replied Meg, from
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the depths of the rocking chair. "I've been routed up early all
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winter and had to spend my days working for other people, so now
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I'm going to rest and revel to my heart's content."
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"No," said Jo, "that dozy way wouldn't suit me. I've laid
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in a heap of books, and I'm going to improve my shining hours
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reading on my perch in the old apple tree, when I'm not having
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l. . ."
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"Don't say `larks!'" implored Amy, as a return snub for the
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samphire' correction.
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"I'll say `nightingales' then, with Laurie. That's proper
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and appropriate, since he's a warbler."
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"Don't let us do any lessons, Beth, for a while, but play
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all the time and rest, as the girls mean to," proposed Amy.
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"Well, I will,if Mother doesn't mind. I want to learn some
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new songs, and my children need fitting up for the summer. They
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|
are dreadfully out of order and really suffering for clothes."
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"May we, Mother?" asked Meg, turning to Mrs. March, who
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|
sat sewing in what they called `Marmee's corner'.
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"You may try your experiment for a week and see how you like
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it. I think by Saturday night you will find that all play and no
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|
work is as bad as all work and no play."
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"Oh, dear, no! It will be delicious, I'm sure," said Meg
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complacently.
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"I now propose a toast, as my `friend and pardner, Sairy
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|
Gamp', says. Fun forever, and no grubbing!" cried Jo, rising,
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glass in hand, as the lemonade went round.
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They all drank it merrily, and began the experiment by
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|
lounging for the rest of the day. Next morning, Meg did not
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|
appear till ten o'clock. Her solitary breakfast did not taste
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|
nice, and the room seemed lonely and untidy, for Jo had not
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|
filled the vases, Beth had not dusted, and Amy's books lay
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|
scattered about. Nothing was neat and pleasant but `Marmee's
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|
corner', which looked as usual. And there Meg sat, to `rest and
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|
read', which meant to yawn and imagine what pretty summer dresses
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|
she would get with her salary. Jo spent the morning on the river
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|
with Laurie and the afternoon reading and crying over THE WIDE,
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|
WIDE WORLD, up in the apple tree. Beth began by rummaging every-
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|
thing out of the big closet where her family resided, but getting
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|
tired before half done, she left her establishment topsy-turvy
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|
and went to her music, rejoicing that she had no dishes to wash.
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|
Amy arranged her bower, put on her best white frock, smoothed her
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|
curls, and sat down to draw under the honeysuckle, hoping someone
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|
would see and inquire who the young artist was. As no one appeared
|
|
but an inquisitive daddy-longlegs, who examined her work with
|
|
interest, she went to walk, got caught in a shower, and came home
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|
dripping.
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|
At teatime they compared notes, and all agreed that it had
|
|
been a delightful, though unusually long day. Meg, who went shop-
|
|
ping in the afternoon and got a `sweet blue muslin, had discovered,
|
|
after she had cut the breadths off, that it wouldn't wash, which
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|
mishap made her slightly cross. Jo had burned the skin off her
|
|
nose boating, and got a raging headache by reading too long. Beth
|
|
was worried by the confusion of her closet and the difficulty of
|
|
learning three or four songs at once, and Amy deeply regretted the
|
|
damage done her frock, for Katy Brown's party was to be the next
|
|
day and now like Flora McFlimsey, she had `nothing to wear'. But
|
|
these were mere trifles, and they assured their mother that the
|
|
experiment was working finely. She smiled, said nothing, and with
|
|
Hannah's help did their neglected work, keeping home pleasant and
|
|
the domestic machinery running smoothly. It was astonishing what
|
|
a peculiar and uncomfortable state of things was produced by the
|
|
`resting and reveling' process. The days kept getting longer and
|
|
longer, the weather was unusually variable and so were tempers, and
|
|
unsettled feeling possessed everyone, and Satan found plenty of
|
|
mischief for the idle hands to do. As the height of luxury, Meg
|
|
put out some of her sewing, and then found time hang so heavily that
|
|
she fell to snipping and spoiling her clothes in her attempts to
|
|
furbish them up a`la Moffat. Jo read till her eyes gave out and
|
|
she was sick of books, got so fidgety that even good-natured Laurie
|
|
had a quarrel with her, and so reduced in spirits that she desper-
|
|
ately wished she had gone with Aunt March. Beth got on pretty well,
|
|
for she was constantly forgetting that it was to be all play and
|
|
no work, and fell back into her old ways now and then. But something
|
|
in the air affected her, and more than once her tranquility was much
|
|
disturbed, so much so that on one occasion she actually shook poor
|
|
dear Joanna and told her she was a fright'. Amy fared worst of all,
|
|
for her resources were small, and when her sisters left her to amuse
|
|
herself, she soon found that accomplished and important little self
|
|
a great burden. She didn't like dolls, fairy tales were childish,
|
|
and one couldn't draw all the time. Tea parties didn't amount to
|
|
much neither did picnics unless very well conducted. "If one could
|
|
have a fine house, full of nice girls, or go traveling, the summer
|
|
would be delightful, but to stay at home with three selfish sisters
|
|
and a grown-up boy was enough to try the patience of a Boaz," com-
|
|
plained Miss Malaprop, after several days devoted to pleasure,
|
|
fretting, and ennui.
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|
|
|
No one would own that they were tired of the experiment, but
|
|
by Friday night each acknowledged to herself that she was glad the
|
|
week was nearly done. Hoping to impress the lesson more deeply,
|
|
Mrs. March, who had a good deal of humor, resolved to finish off
|
|
the trial in an appropriate manner, so she gave Hannah a holiday and
|
|
let the girls enjoy the full effect of the play system.
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|
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|
When they got up on Saturday morning, there was no fire in
|
|
the kitchen, no breakfast in the dining room, and no mother any-
|
|
where to be seen.
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|
|
|
"Mercy on us! What has happened?" cried Jo, staring about
|
|
her in dismay.
|
|
|
|
Meg ran upstairs and soon came back again, looking relieved
|
|
but rather bewildered, and a little ashamed.
|
|
|
|
"Mother isn't sick, only very tired, and she says she is
|
|
going to stay quietly in her room all day and let us do the best
|
|
we can. It's a very queer thing for her to do, she doesn't act
|
|
a bit like herself. But she says it has been a hard week for
|
|
her, so we mustn't grumble but take care of ourselves."
|
|
|
|
"That's easy enough, and I like the idea, I'm aching for
|
|
something to do, that is, some new amusement, you know," added
|
|
Jo quickly.
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|
|
|
In fact it was an immense relief to them all to have a little
|
|
work, and they took hold with a will, but soon realized the truth
|
|
of Hannah's saying, "Housekeeping ain't no joke." There was plenty
|
|
of food in the larder, and while Beth and Amy set the table, Meg and
|
|
Jo got breakfast, wondering as they did why servants ever talked
|
|
about hard work.
|
|
|
|
"I shall take some up to Mother, though she said we were not
|
|
to think of her, for she'd take care of herself," said Meg, who
|
|
presided and felt quite matronly behind the teapot.
|
|
|
|
So a tray was fitted out before anyone began, and taken up
|
|
with the cook's compliments. The boiled tea was very bitter, the
|
|
omelet scorched, and the biscuits speckled with saleratus, but
|
|
Mrs. March received her repast with thanks and laughed heartily
|
|
over it after Jo was gone.
|
|
|
|
"Poor little souls, they will have a hard time, I'm afraid,
|
|
but they won't suffer, and it will do them good," she said, pro-
|
|
ducing the more palatable viands with which she had provided
|
|
herself, and disposing of the bad breakfast, so that their feel-
|
|
ings might not be hurt, a motherly little deception for which
|
|
they were grateful.
|
|
|
|
Many were the complaints below, and great the chagrin of
|
|
the head cook at her failures. "Never mind, I'll get the dinner
|
|
and be servant, you be mistress, keep your hands nice, see
|
|
company, and give orders," said Jo, who knew still less than Meg,
|
|
about culinary affairs.
|
|
|
|
This obliging offer was gladly accepted, and Margaret retired
|
|
to the parlor, which she hastily put in order by whisking the
|
|
litter under the sofa and shutting the blinds to save the trouble
|
|
of dusting. Jo, with perfect faith in her own powers and a
|
|
friendly desire to make up the quarrel, immediately put a note in
|
|
the office, inviting Laurie to dinner.
|
|
|
|
"You'd better see what you have got before you think of having
|
|
company," said Meg, when informed of the hospitable but rash act.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, there's corned beef and plenty of poatoes, and I shall
|
|
get some asparagus and a lobster, `for a relish', as Hannah says.
|
|
We'll have lettuce and make a salad. I don't know how, but the
|
|
book tells. I'll have blancmange and strawberries for dessert,
|
|
and coffee too, if you want to be elegant."
|
|
|
|
"Don't try too many messes, Jo, for you can't make anything
|
|
but gingerbread and molasses candy fit to eat. I wash my hands
|
|
of the dinner party, and since you have asked Laurie on your own
|
|
responsibility, you may just take care of him."
|
|
|
|
"I don't want you to do anything but be civil to him and help
|
|
to the pudding. You'll give me your advice if I get in a muddle,
|
|
won't you?" asked Jo, rather hurt.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, but I don't know much, except about bread and a few
|
|
trifles. You had better ask Mother's leave before you order any-
|
|
thing," returned Meg prudently.
|
|
|
|
"Of course I shall. I'm not a fool." And Jo went off in a
|
|
huff at the doubts expressed of her powers.
|
|
|
|
"Get what you like, and don't disturb me. I'm going out to
|
|
dinner and can't worry about things at home," said Mrs. March, when
|
|
Jo spoke to her. "I never enjoyed housekeeping, and I'm going to
|
|
take a vacation today, and read, write, go visiting, and amuse
|
|
myself."
|
|
|
|
The unusual spectacle of her busy mother rocking comfortably
|
|
and reading early in the morning made Jo feel as if some unnatural
|
|
phenomenon had occurred, for an eclipse, an earthquake, or a vol-
|
|
canic eruption would hardly have seemed stranger.
|
|
|
|
"Everything is out of sorts, somehow," she said to herself,
|
|
going downstairs. "There's Beth crying, that's a sure sign that
|
|
something is wrong in this family. If Amy is bothering, I'll
|
|
shake her."
|
|
|
|
Feeling very much out of sorts herself, Jo hurried into the
|
|
parlor to find Beth sobbing over Pip, the canary, who lay dead in
|
|
the cage with his little claws pathetically extended, as if implor-
|
|
ing the food for want of which he had died.
|
|
|
|
"It's all my fault, I forgot him, there isn't a seed or a
|
|
drop left. Oh, Pip! Oh, Pip! How could I be so cruel to you?"
|
|
cried Beth, taking the poor thing in her hands and trying to
|
|
restore him.
|
|
|
|
Jo peeped into his half-open eye, felt his little heart, and
|
|
finding him stiff and cold, shook her head, and offered her domino
|
|
box for a coffin.
|
|
|
|
"Put him in the oven, and maybe his will get warm and revive,"
|
|
said Amy hopefully.
|
|
|
|
"He's been starved, and he shan't be baked now he's dead. I'll
|
|
make him a shroud, and he shall be buried in the garden, and I'll
|
|
never have another bird, never, my Pip! For I am too bad to own
|
|
one," murmured Beth, sitting on the floor with her pet folded in
|
|
her hands.
|
|
|
|
"The funeral shall be this afternoon, and we will all go. Now,
|
|
don't cry, Bethy. It's a pity, but nothing goes right this week,
|
|
and Pip has had the worst of the experiment. Make the shroud, and
|
|
lay him in my box, and after the dinner party, we'll have a nice
|
|
little funeral," said Jo, beginning to feel as if she had undertaken
|
|
a good deal.
|
|
|
|
Leaving the others to console Beth, she departed to the kitchen,
|
|
which was in a most discouraging state of confusion. Putting on a
|
|
big apron, she fell to work and got the dishes piled up ready for
|
|
washing, when she discovered that the fire was out.
|
|
|
|
"Here's a sweet prospect!" muttered Jo, slamming the stove
|
|
door open, and poking vigorously among the cinders.
|
|
|
|
Having rekindled the fire, she thought she would go to market
|
|
while the water heated. The walk revived her spirits, and flattering
|
|
herself that she had made good bargins, she trudged home again, after
|
|
buying a very young lobster, some very old asparagus, and two boxes
|
|
of acid strawberries. By the time she got cleared up, the dinner
|
|
arrived and the stove was red-hot. Hannah had left a pan of bread
|
|
to rise, Meg had worked it up early, set it on the hearth for a
|
|
second rising, and forgotten it. Meg was entertaining Sallie
|
|
Gardiner in the parlor, when the door flew open and a floury,crocky,
|
|
flushed, and disheveled figure appeared, demanding tartly . . .
|
|
|
|
"I say, isn't bread `riz' enough when it runs over the pans?"
|
|
|
|
Sallie began to laugh, but Meg nodded and lifted her eyebrows
|
|
as high as they would go, which caused the apparition to vanish and
|
|
put the sour bread into the oven without further delay. Mrs. March
|
|
went out, after peeping here and there to see how matters went, also
|
|
saying a word of comfort to Beth, who sat making a winding sheet,
|
|
while the dear departed lay in state in the domino box. A strange
|
|
sense of helplessness fell upon the girls as the gray bonnet van-
|
|
ished round the corner, and despair seized them when a few minutes
|
|
later Miss Crocker appeared, and said she'd come to dinner. Now
|
|
this lady was a thin, yellow spinster, with a sharp nose and
|
|
inquisitive eyes, who saw everything and gossiped about all she saw.
|
|
They disliked her, but had been taught to be kind to her, simply
|
|
because she was old and poor and had few friends. So Meg gave her
|
|
the easy chair and tried to entertain her, while she asked questions,
|
|
critsized everything, and told stories of the people whom she knew.
|
|
|
|
Language cannot describe the anxieties, experiences, and exertions
|
|
which Jo underwent that morning, and the dinner she served up became a
|
|
standing joke. Fearing to ask any more advice, she did her best alone,
|
|
and discovered that something more than energy and good will is necess-
|
|
ary to make a cook. She boiled the asparagus for an hour and was
|
|
grieved to find the heads cooked off and the stalks harder than ever.
|
|
The bread burned black, for the salad dressing so aggravated her that
|
|
she could not make it fit to ear. The lobster was a scarlet mystery to
|
|
her, but she hammered and poked till it was unshelled and its meager
|
|
proportions concealed in a grove of lettuce leaves. The potatoes had
|
|
to be hurried, not to keep the asparagus waiting, and were not done
|
|
at the last. The blancmange was lumpy, and the strawberries not as
|
|
ripe as they looked, having been skilfully `deaconed'.
|
|
|
|
"Well, they can eat beef and bread and butter, if they are
|
|
hungry, only it's mortifying to have to spend your whole morning for
|
|
nothing," thought Jo, as she rang the bell half an hour later than
|
|
usual, and stood, hot, tired, and dispirited, surveying the feast
|
|
spread before Laurie, accustomed to all sorts of elegance, and Miss
|
|
Crocker, whose tattling tongue would report them far and wide.
|
|
|
|
Poor Jo would gladly have gone under the table, as one thing
|
|
after another was tasted and left, while Amy giggled, Meg looked
|
|
distressed, Miss Crocker pursed her lips, and Laurie talked and
|
|
laughed with all his might to give a cheerful tone to the festive
|
|
scene. Jo's one strong point was the fruit,for she had sugared it
|
|
well, and had a pitcher of rich cream to eat with it. Her hot cheeks
|
|
cooled a trifle, and she drew a long breath as the pretty glass
|
|
plates went round, and everyone looked graciously at the little rosy
|
|
islands floating in a sea of cream. Miss Crocker tasted first, made
|
|
a wry face, and drank some water hastily. Jo, who refused, thinking
|
|
there might not be enough, for they dwindled sadly after the picking
|
|
over, glanced at Laurie, but he was eating away manfully, though there
|
|
was a slight pucker about his mouth and he kept his eye fixed on his
|
|
plate. Amy, who was fond of delicate fare, took a heaping spoonful,
|
|
choked, hid her face in her napkin, and left the table precipitately.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, what is it?" exclaimed Jo, trembling.
|
|
|
|
"Salt instead of sugar, and the cream is sour," replied Meg
|
|
with a tragic gesture.
|
|
|
|
Jo uttered a groan and fell back in her chair, remembering that
|
|
she had given a last hasty powdering to the berries out of one of
|
|
the two boxes on the kitchen table, and had neglected to put the
|
|
milk in the refrigerator. She turned scarlet and was on the verge
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of crying, when she met Laurie's eyes, which would look merry in
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spite of his heroic efforts. The comical side of the affair suddenly
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struck her, and she laughed till the tears ran down her cheeks. So
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did everyone else, even `Croaker' as the girls called the old lady,
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and the unfortunate dinner ended gaily, with bread and butter, olives
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and fun.
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"I haven't strength of mind enough to clear up now, so we will
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sober ourselves with a funeral," said Jo, as they rose, and Miss
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Crocker made ready to go, being eager to tell the new story at
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another friend's dinner table.
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They did sober themselves for Beth's sake. Laurie dug a grave
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under the ferns in the grove, little Pip was laid in, with many tears
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by his tender-hearted mistress, and covered with moss, while a wreath
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of violets and chickweed was hung on the stone which bore his epitaph,
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composed by Jo while she struggled with the dinner.
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Here lies Pip March,
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Who died the 7th of June;
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Loved and lamented sore,
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And not forgotten soon.
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At the conclusion of the ceremonies, Beth retired to her room,
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overcome with emotion and lobster, but there was no place of repose,
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for the beds were not made, and she found her grief much assuaged
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by beating up the pillows and putting things in order. Meg helped
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Jo clear away the remains of the feast, which took half the afternoon
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and left them so tired that they agreed to be contented with tea and
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toast for supper.
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Laurie took Amy to drive, which was a deed of charity, for the
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sour cream seemed to have had a bad effect upon her temper. Mrs.
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March came home to find the three older girls hard at work in the
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middle of the afternoon, and a glance at the closet gave her an idea
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of the success of one part of the experiment.
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Before the housewives could rest, several people called, and
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there was a scramble to get ready to see them. Then tea must be got,
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errands done, and one or two necessary bits of sewing neglected until
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the last minute. As twilight fell, dewy and still, one by one they
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gathered on the porch where the June roses were budding beautifully,
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and each groaned or sighed as she sat down, as if tired or troubled.
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"What a dreadful day this has been!" began Jo, usually the first
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to speak.
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"It has seemed shorter than usual, but so uncomfortable," said
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Meg.
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"Not a bit like home," added Amy.
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"It can't seem so without Marmee and little Pip," sighed Beth,
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glancing with full eyes at the empty cage above her head.
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"Here's Mother, dear, and you shall have another bird tomorrow,
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if you want it."
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As she spoke, Mrs. March came and took her place among them,
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looking as if her holiday had not been much pleasanter than theirs.
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"Are you satisfied with your experiment, girls, or do you want
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another week of it?" she asked, as Beth nestled up to her and the
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rest turned toward her with brightening faces, as flowers turn
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toward the sun.
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"I don't!" cried Jo decidedly.
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"Nor I," echoed the others.
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"You think then, that it is better to have a few duties and
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live a little for others, do you?"
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"Lounging and larking doesn't pay," observed Jo, shaking her
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head. "I'm tired of it and mean to go to work at something right
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off."
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"Suppose you learn plain cooking. That's a useful accomplish-
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ment, which no woman should be without," said Mrs. March, laughing
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inaudibly at the recollection of Jo's dinner party,, for she had
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met Miss Crocker and heard her account of it.
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"Mother, did you go away and let everything be, just to see how
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we'd get on?" cried Meg, who had had suspicions all day.
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"Yes, I wanted you to see how the comfort of all depends on
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each doing her share faithfully. While Hannah and I did your work,
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you got on pretty well, though I don't think you were very happy
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or amiable. So I thought, as a little lesson, I would show you
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what happens when everyone thinks only of herself. Don't you feel
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that it is pleasanter to help one another, to have daily duties
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which make leisure sweet when it comes, and to bear and forbear,
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that home may be comfortable and lovely to us all?"
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"We do, Mother we do!" cried the girls.
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"Then let me advise you to take up your little burdens again,
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for though they seem heavy sometimes, they are good for us, and
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lighten as we learn to carry them. Work is wholesome, and there
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is plenty for everyone. It keeps us from ennui and mischief, is
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good for health and spirits, and gives us a sense of power and
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independence better than money or fashion."
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"We'll work like bees, and love it too, see if we don't,"
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said Jo. "I'll learn plain cooking for my holiday task, and the
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dinner party I have shall be a success."
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"I'll make the set of shirts for father, instead of letting
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you do it, Marmee. I can and I will, though I'm not fond of sewing.
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That will be better than fussing over my own things, which are plenty
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nice enough as they are." said Meg.
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"I'll do my lessons every day, and not spend so much time with
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my music and dolls. I am a stupid thing, and ought to be studying,
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not playing," was Beth's resolution, while Amy followed their example
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by heroically declaring, "I shall learn to make buttonholes, and
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attend to my parts of speech."
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"Very good! Then I am quite satisfied with the experiment, and
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fancy that we shall not have to repeat it, only don't go to the other
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extreme and delve like slaves. Have regular hours for work and play,
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make each day both useful and pleasant, and prove that you understand
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the worth of time by employing it well. Then youth will be delightful,
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old age will bring few regrets, and life become a beautiful success, in
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spite of poverty."
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"We'll remember, Mother!" And they did.
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CHAPTER TWELVE
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Beth was postmistress, for, being most at home, she could
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attend to it regularly, and dearly liked the daily task of un-
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locking the little door and distributing the mail. One July day
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she came in with her hands full, and went about the house leaving
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letters and parcels like the penny post.
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"Here's your posy, Mother! Laurie never forgets that," she
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said, putting the fresh nosegay in the vase that stood in `Marmee's
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corner', and was kept supplied by the affectionate boy.
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"Miss Meg March, one letter and a glove," continued Beth,
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delivering the articles to her sister, who sat near her mother,
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stitching wristbands.
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"Why, I left a pair over there, and here is only one," said
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Meg, looking at the gray cotton glove. "Didn't you drop the
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other in the garden?"
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"No, I'm sure I didn't, for there was only one in the office."
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"I hate to have odd gloves! Never mind, the other may be
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found. My letter is only a translation of the German song I
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wanted. I think Mr. Brooke did it, for this isn't Laurie's
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writing."
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Mrs. March glanced at Meg, who was looking very pretty in
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her gingham morning gown, with the little curls blowing about her
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forehead, and very womanly, as she sat sewing at her little work-
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table, full of tidy white rolls, so unconscious of the thought in
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her mother's mind as she sewed and sang, while her fingers flew
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and her thoughts were busied with girlish fancies as innocent
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and fresh as the pansies in her belt, that Mrs. March smiled and
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was satisfied.
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"Two letters for Doctor Jo, a book, and a funny old hat,
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which covered the whole post office and stuck outside," said
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Beth, laughing as she went into the study where Jo sat writing.
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"What a sly fellow Laurie is! I said I wished bigger hats
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were the fashion, because I burn my face every hot day. He said,
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`Why mind the fashion? Wear a big hat, and be comfortable!' I
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said I would if I had one, and he has sent me this to try me. I'll
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wear it for fun, and show him I don't care for the fashion." And
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hanging the antique broadbrim on a bust of Plato, Jo read her
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letters.
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One from her mother made her cheeks glow and her eyes fill,
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for it said to her . . .
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My Dear:
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I write a little word to tell you with how much satisfaction
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I watch your efforts to control your temper. You say nothing
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about your trials, failures, or successes, and think, perhaps,
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that no one sees them but the Friend whose help you daily ask,
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if I may trust the well-worn cover of your guidebook. I, too,
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have seen them all, and heartily believe in the sincerity of
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your resolution, since it begins to bear fruit. Go on, dear,
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patiently and bravely, and always believe that no one sympa-
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thizes more tenderly with you than your loving . . .
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Mother
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"That does me good! That's worth millions of money and
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pecks of praise. Oh, Marmee, I do try! I will keep on trying,
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and not get tired, since I have you to help me."
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Laying her head on her arms, Jo wet her little romance with
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|
a few happy tears. for she had thought that no one saw and appre-
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|
ciated her efforts to be good, and this assurance was doubly
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|
precious, doubly encouraging, because unexpected and from the
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|
person whose commendation she most valued. Feeling stronger than
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|
ever to meet and subdue her Apollyon, she pinned the note inside her
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|
frock, as a shield and a reminder, lest she be taken unaware, and
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|
proceeded to open her other letter, quite ready for either good or
|
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bad news. In a big, dashing hand, Laurie wrote . . .
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Dear Jo,
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What ho!
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Some english girls and boys are coming to see me tomorrow
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|
and I want to have a jolly time. If it's fine, I'm going to pitch
|
|
my tent in Longmeadow, and row up the whole crew to lunch and
|
|
croquet--have a fire, make messes, gypsy fashion, and all sorts
|
|
of larks. They are nice people, and like such things. Brooke will
|
|
go to keep us boys steady, and Kate Vaughn will play propriety for
|
|
the girls. I want you all to come, can't let Beth off at any price,
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|
and nobody shall worry her. Don't bother about rations, I'll see
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|
to that and everything else, only do come, there's a good fellow!
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In a tearing hurry,
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Yours ever, Laurie.
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"Here's richness!" cried Jo, flying in to tell the news to
|
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Meg.
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"Of course we can go, Mother? It will be such a help to
|
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Laurie, for I can row, and Meg see to the lunch, and the children
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|
be useful in some way."
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"I hope the Vaughns are not fine grown-up people. Do you
|
|
know anything about them, Jo?" asked Meg.
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"Only that there are four of them. Kate is older than you,
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Fred and Frank (twins) about my age, and a little girl (Grace), who
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|
is nine or ten. Laurie knew them abroad, and liked the boys. I
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|
fancied, from the way he primmed up his mouth in speaking of her,
|
|
that he didn't admire Kate much."
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|
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"I'm so glad my French print is clean, it's just the thing
|
|
and so becoming!" observed Meg complacently. "Have you anything
|
|
decent, Jo?"
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"Scarlet and gray boating suit, good enough for me. I shall
|
|
row and tramp about, so I don't want any starch to think of. You'll
|
|
come, Betty?"
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"If you won't let any boys talk to me."
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"Not a boy!"
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|
"I like to please Laurie, and I'm not afraid of Mr. Brooke,
|
|
he is so kind. But I don't want to play, or sing, or say anything.
|
|
I'll work hard and not trouble anyone, and you'll take care of me,
|
|
Jo, so I'll go."
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|
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"That's my good girl. You do try to fight off your shyness,
|
|
and I love you for it. Fighting faults isn't easy, as I know, and
|
|
a cheery word kind of gives a lift. Thank you, Mother," And Jo
|
|
gave the thin cheek a grateful kiss, more precious to Mrs. March
|
|
than if it had given back the rosy roundness of her youth.
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|
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|
"I had a box of chocolate drops, and the picture I wanted to
|
|
copy," said Amy, showing her mail.
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"And I got a note from Mr. Laurence, asking me to come over
|
|
and play to him tonight, before the lamps are lighted, and I shall
|
|
go," added Beth, whose friendship with the old gentleman prospered
|
|
finely.
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|
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|
"Now let's fly round, and do double duty today, so that we can
|
|
play tomorrow with free minds," said Jo, preparing to replace her
|
|
pen with a broom.
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|
|
|
When the sun peeped into the girls' room early next morning
|
|
to promise them a fine day, he saw a comical sight. Each had
|
|
made such preparation for the fete as seemed necessary and proper.
|
|
Meg had an extra row of little curlpapers across her forehead, Jo
|
|
had copiously anointed her afflicted face with cold cream, Beth
|
|
had taken Joanna to bed with her to atone for the approaching
|
|
separation, and Amy had capped the climax by putting a colthespin
|
|
on her nose to uplift the offending feature. It was one of the
|
|
kind artists use to hold the paper on their drawing boards,there-
|
|
fore quite appropriate and effective for the purpose it was now
|
|
being put. This funny spectacle appeared to amuse the sun, for
|
|
he burst out with such radiance that Jo woke up and roused her
|
|
sisters by a hearty laugh at Amy's ornament.
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|
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|
Sunshine and laughter were good omens for a pleasure party,
|
|
and soon a lively bustle began in both houses. Beth, who was
|
|
ready first, kept reporting what went on next door, and enlivened
|
|
her sisters' toilets by frequent telegrams from the window.
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|
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|
"There goes the man with the tent! I see Mrs. Barker doing
|
|
up the lunch in a hamper and a great basket. Now Mr. Laurence is
|
|
looking up at the sky and the weathercock. I wish he would go
|
|
too. There's Laurie, looking like a sailor, nice boy! Oh, mercy
|
|
me! Here's a carriage full of people, a tall lady, a little girl,
|
|
and two dreadful boys. One is lame, poor thing, he's got a crutch.
|
|
Laurie didn't tell us that. Be quick, girls! It's getting late.
|
|
Why, there is Ned Moffat, I do declare. Meg, isn't that the man
|
|
who bowed to you one day when we were shopping?"
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|
|
|
"So it is. How queer that he should come. I thought he was
|
|
at the mountains. There is Sallie. I'm glad she got back in time.
|
|
Am I all right, Jo?" cried Meg in a flutter.
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|
|
|
"A regular daisy. Hold up your dress and put your hat on
|
|
straight, it looks sentimental tipped that way and will fly off
|
|
at the first puff. Now then, come on!"
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|
|
|
"Oh, Jo, you are not going to wear that awful hat? It's too
|
|
absurd! You shall not make a guy of yourself," remonstrated Meg,
|
|
as Jo tied down with a red ribbon the broad-brimmed, old-fashioned
|
|
leghorn Laurie had sent for a joke.
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|
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|
"I just will, though, for it's capital, so shady, light, and
|
|
big. It will make fun, and I don't mind being a guy if I'm comfor-
|
|
table." With that Jo marched straight away and the rest followed,
|
|
a bright little band of sisters, all looking their best in summer
|
|
suits, with happy faces under the jaunty hatbrims.
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|
|
|
Laurie ran to meet and present them to his friends in the
|
|
most cordial manner. The lawn was the reception room, and for
|
|
several minutes a lively scene was enacted there. Meg was
|
|
grateful to see that Miss Kate, though twenty, was dressed with
|
|
a simplicity which American girls would do well to imitate, and
|
|
who was much flattered by Mr. Ned's assurances that he came
|
|
especially to see her. Jo understood why Laurie `primmed up his
|
|
mouth' when speaking of Kate, for that young lady had a stand-
|
|
off-don't-touch-me air, which contrasted strongly with the free
|
|
and easy demeanor of the other girls. Beth took an observation
|
|
of the new boys and decided that the lame one was not `dreadful',
|
|
but gentle and feeble, and she would be kind to him on that
|
|
account. Amy found Grace a well-mannered, merry, little person,
|
|
and after staring dumbly at one another for a few minutes, they
|
|
suddenly became very good friends.
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|
Tents, lunch, and croquet utensils having been sent on
|
|
beforehand, the party was soon embarked, and the two boats
|
|
pushed off together, leaving Mr. Laurence waving his hat on the
|
|
shore. Laurie and Jo rowed one boat, Mr. Brooke and Ned the
|
|
other, while Fred Vaughn, the riotous twin, did his best to
|
|
upset both by paddling about in a wherry like a disturbed water
|
|
bug. Jo's funny hat deserved a vote of thanks, for it was of
|
|
general utility. It broke the ice in the beginning by producing
|
|
a laugh, it created quite a refreshing breeze, flapping to and
|
|
fro as she rowed, and would make an excellent umbrella for the
|
|
whole party, if a shower came up, she said. Miss Kate decided
|
|
that she was `odd', but rather clever, and smiled upon her from
|
|
afar.
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|
|
Meg, in the other boat, was delightfully situated, face to
|
|
face with the rowers, who both admired the prospect and feathered
|
|
their oars with uncommon `skill and dexterity'. Mr. Brooke was
|
|
a grave, silent young man, with handsome brown eyes and a pleasant
|
|
voice. Meg liked his quiet manners and considered him a walking
|
|
encyclopedia of useful knowledge. He never talked to her much, but
|
|
he looked at her a good deal, and she felt sure that he did not
|
|
regard her with aversion. Ned, being in college, of course put
|
|
on all the airs which freshmen think it their bounden duty to
|
|
assume. He was not very wise, but very good-natured, and altogether
|
|
an excellent person to carry on a picnic. Sallie Gardiner was
|
|
absorbed in keeping her white pique dress clean and chattering with
|
|
the ubiquitous Fred, who kept Beth in constant terror by his pranks.
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|
It was not far to Longmeadow, but the tent was pitched and
|
|
the wickets down by the time they arrived. A pleasant green field,
|
|
with three wide-spreading oaks in the middle and a smooth strip of
|
|
turf for croquet.
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|
|
|
"Welcome to Camp Laurence!" said the young host, as they
|
|
landed with exclamations of delight.
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|
"Brooke is commander in chief, I am commissary general, the
|
|
other fellows are staff officers, and you, ladies, are company.
|
|
The tent is for your especial benefit and that oak is your drawing
|
|
room, this is the messroom and the third is the camp kitchen. Now,
|
|
let's have a game before it gets hot, and then we'll see about
|
|
dinner."
|
|
|
|
Frank, Beth, Amy, and Grace sat down to watch the game
|
|
played by the other eight. Mr. Brooke chose Meg, Kate, and Fred.
|
|
Laurie took Sallie, Jo, and Ned. The English played well, but
|
|
the Americans played better, and contested every inch of the
|
|
ground as strongly as if the spirit of `76 inspired them. Jo and
|
|
Fred had several skirmishes and once narrowly escaped high words.
|
|
Jo was through the last wicket and had missed the stroke, which
|
|
failure ruffled her a good deal. Fred was close behind her and
|
|
his turn came before hers. He gave a stroke, his ball hit the
|
|
wicket, and stopped an inch on the wrong side. No one was very
|
|
near, and running up to examine, he gave it a sly nudge with his
|
|
toe, which put it just an inch on the right side.
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|
"I'm through! Now, Miss Jo, I'll settle you, and get in
|
|
first," cried the young gentleman, swinging his mallet for another
|
|
blow.
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|
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|
"You pushed it. I saw you. It's my turn now," said Jo
|
|
sharply.
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|
|
|
"Upon my word, I didn't move it. It rolled a bit, perhaps,
|
|
but that is allowed. So, stand off please, and let me have a go
|
|
at the stake."
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|
|
|
"We don't cheat in America, but you can, if you choose," said
|
|
Jo angrily.
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|
|
|
"Yankees are a deal the most tricky, everybody knows. There
|
|
you go!" returned Fred, croqueting her ball far away.
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|
|
|
Jo opened her lips to say something rude, but checked herself
|
|
in time, colored up to her forehead and stood a minute, hammering
|
|
down a wicket with all her might, while Fred hit the stake and
|
|
declared himself out with much exultation. She went off to get her
|
|
ball, and was a long time finding it among the bushes, but she came
|
|
back, looking cool and quiet, and waited her turn patiently. It
|
|
took several strokes to regain the place she had lost, and when she
|
|
got there, the other side had nearly won, for Kate's ball was the
|
|
last but one and lay near the stake.
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|
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|
"By George, it's all up with us! Goodbye, Kate. Miss Jo
|
|
owes me one, so you are finished," cried Fred excitedly, as they
|
|
all drew near to see the finish.
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|
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|
"Yankees have a trick of being generous to their enemies,"
|
|
said Jo, with a look that made the lad redden, "especially when
|
|
they beat them," she added, as, leaving Kate's ball untouched, she
|
|
won the game by a clever stroke.
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|
|
|
Laurie threw up his hat, then remembered that it wouldn't do
|
|
to exult over the defeat of his guests, and stopped in the middle
|
|
of the cheer to whisper to his friend, "Good for you, Jo! He did
|
|
cheat, I saw him. We can't tell him so,but he won't do it again,
|
|
take my word for it."
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|
|
|
Meg drew her aside, under pretense of pinning up a loose
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braid, and said approvingly, "It was dreadfully provoking, but you
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kept your temper, and I'm so glad, Jo."
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"Don't praise me, Meg, for I could box his ears this minute.
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I should certainly have boiled over if I hadn't stayed among the
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nettles till I got my rage under control enough to hold my tongue..
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It's simmering now, so I hope he'll keep out of my way," returned
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Jo, biting her lips as she glowered at Fred from under her big hat.
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"Time for lunch," said Mr. Brooke, looking at his watch.
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"Commissary general, will you make the fire and get water, while
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Miss March, Miss Sallie, and I spread the table? Who can make good
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coffee?"
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"Jo can," said Meg, glad to recommend her sister. So Jo,
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feeling that her late lessons in cookery were to do her honor, went
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to preside over the coffeepot, while the children collected dry
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sticks, and the boys made a fire and got water from a spring near
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by. Miss Kate sketched and Frank talked to Beth, who was making
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little mats of braided rushes to serve as plates.
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The commander in chief and his aides soon spread the table-
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cloth with an inviting array of eatables and drinkables, prettily
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decorated with green leaves. Jo announced that the coffee was
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ready, and everyone settled themselves to a hearty meal, for youth
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is seldom dyspeptic, and exercise develops wholesome appetites. A
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very merry lunch it was, for everything seemed fresh and funny, and
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frequent peals of laughter startled a venerable horse who fed near
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by. There was a pleasing inequality in the table, which produced
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many mishaps to cups and plates, acorns dropped in the milk, little
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black ants partook of the refreshments without being invited, and
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fuzzy caterpillars swung down from the tree to see what was going
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on. Three white-headed children peeped over the fence, and an
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objectionable dog barked at them from the other side of the river
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with all his might and main.
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"There's salt here," said Laurie, as he handed Jo a saucer
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of berries.
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"Thank you, I prefer spiders," she replied, fishing up two
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unwary little ones who had gone to a creamy death. "How dare
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you remind me of that horrid dinner party, when your's is so
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nice in every way?' added Jo, as they both laughed and ate out
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of one plate, the china having run short.
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"I had an uncommonly good time that day, and haven't got
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over it yet. This is no credit to me, you know, I don't do
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anything. It's you and Meg and Brooke who make it all go, and
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I'm no end obliged to you. what shall we do when we can't eat
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anymore?" asked Laurie, feeling that his trump card had been
|
|
played when lunch was over.
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"Have games till it's cooler. I brought Authors, and I dare
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say Miss Kate knows something new and nice. Go and ask her. She's
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company, and you ought to stay with her more."
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"Aren't you company too? I thought she'd suit Brooke, but
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he keeps talking to Meg, and Kate just stares at them through that
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ridiculous glass of hers'. I'm going, so you needn't try to preach
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propriety, for you can't do it, Jo."
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|
|
Miss Kate did know several new games, and as the girls would
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|
not, and the boys could not, eat any more, they all adjourned to
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|
the drawing room to play Rig-marole.
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|
"One person begins a story, any nonsense you like, and tells
|
|
as long as he pleases, only taking care to stop short at some
|
|
exciting point, when the next takes it up and does the same. It's
|
|
very funny when well done, and makes a perfect jumble of tragical
|
|
comical stuff to laugh over. Please start it, Mr. Brooke," said
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|
Kate, with a commanding air, which surprised Meg, who treated the
|
|
tutor with as much respect as any other gentleman.
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|
|
|
Lying on the grass at the feet of the two young ladies, Mr.
|
|
Brooke obediently began the story, with the handsome brown eyes
|
|
steadily fixed upon the sunshiny river.
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|
|
|
"Once on a time, a knight went out into the world to seek
|
|
his fortune, for he had nothing but his sword and his shield.
|
|
He traveled a long while, nearly eight-and-twenty years, and
|
|
had a hard time of it, till he came to the palace of a good old
|
|
king, who had offered a reward to anyone who could tame and train
|
|
a fine but unbroken colt, of which he was very fond. The knight
|
|
agreed to try, and got on slowly but surely, for the colt was a
|
|
gallant fellow, and soon learned to love his new master, though
|
|
he was freakish and wild. Every day, when he gave his lessons to
|
|
this pet of the king's, the knight rode him through the city, and
|
|
as he rode, he looked everywhere for a certain beautiful face,
|
|
which he had seen many times in his dreams, but never found. One
|
|
day, as he went prancing down a quiet street, he saw at the window
|
|
of a ruinous castle the lovely face. He was delighted, inquired
|
|
who lived in this old castle, and was told that several captive
|
|
princesses were kept there by a spell, and spun all day to lay
|
|
up money to buy their liberty. The knight wished intensely that
|
|
he could free them, but he was poor and could only go by each
|
|
day, watching for the sweet face and longing to see it out in
|
|
the sunshine. At last he resolved to get into the castle and
|
|
ask how he could help them. He went and knocked. The great
|
|
door flew open, and he beheld . .."
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|
|
|
"A ravishingly lovely lady, who exclaimed, with a cry of
|
|
rapture, `At last! At last!'" continued Kate, who had read
|
|
French novels, and admired the style. "`Tis she!' cried Count
|
|
Gustave, and fell at her feet in an ecstasy of joy. `Oh, rise!'
|
|
she said, extending a hand of marble fairness. `Never! Till you
|
|
tell me how I may rescue you,' swore the knight, still kneeling.
|
|
`Alas, my cruel fate condemns me to remain here till my tyrant
|
|
is destroyed.' `Where is the villain?' `In the mauve salon. Go,
|
|
brave heart, and save me from despair.' `I obey, and return
|
|
victorious or dead!' With these thrilling words he rushed away,
|
|
and flinging open the door of the mauve salon, was about to enter,
|
|
when he received . . ."
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|
|
|
"A stunning blow from the big Greek lexicon, which an old
|
|
fellow in a black gown fired at him," said Ned. "Instantly, Sir
|
|
What's-his-name recovered himself, pitched the tyrant out of the
|
|
window, and turned to join the lady, victorious, but with a bump
|
|
on his brow, found the door locked, tore up the curtains, made a
|
|
rope ladder, got halfway down when the ladder broke, and he went
|
|
headfirst into the moat, sixty feet below. Could swim like a
|
|
duck, paddled round the castle till he came to a little door
|
|
guarded by two stout fellows, knocked their heads together till
|
|
they cracked like a couple of nuts, then, by a trifling exertion
|
|
of his prodigious strength, he smashed in the door, went up a
|
|
pair of stone steps covered with dust a foot thick, toads as big
|
|
as your fist, and spiders that would frighten you into hysterics,
|
|
MIss March. At the top of these steps he came plump upon a sight
|
|
that took his breath away and chilled his blood . . ."
|
|
|
|
"A tall figure, all in white with a veil over its face and a
|
|
lamp in its wasted hand," went on Meg. "It beckoned, gliding
|
|
noiselessly before him down a corridor as dark and cold as any
|
|
tomb. Shadowy effigies in armor stood on either side,a dead
|
|
silence reigned, the lamp burned blue, and the ghostly figure ever
|
|
and anon turned its face toward him, showing the glitter of awful
|
|
eyes through its white veil. They reached a curtained door, behind
|
|
which sounded lovely music. He sprang forward to enter, but the
|
|
specter plucked him back, and waved threateningly before him a . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Snuffbox," said Jo, in a sepulchral tone, which convulsed the
|
|
audience. "`Thankee,' said the knight politely, as he took a pinch
|
|
and sneezed seven times so violently that his head fell off. `Ha!
|
|
Ha!' laughed the ghost, and having peeped through the keyhole at the
|
|
princesses spinning away for dear life, the evil spirit picked up
|
|
her victim and put him in a large tin box, where there were eleven
|
|
other knights packed together without their heads, like sardines,
|
|
who all rose and began to . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Dance a hornpipe," cut in Fred, as Jo paused for breath, "and,
|
|
as they danced, the rubbishy old castle turned to a man-of-war in
|
|
full sail. `Up with the jib, reef the tops'l halliards, helm hard
|
|
alee, and man the guns!' roared the captain, as a Portuguese pirate
|
|
hove in sight, with a flag black as ink flying from her foremast.
|
|
`Go in and win, my hearties!' says the captain, and a tremendous
|
|
fight began. Of course the British beat, they always do."
|
|
|
|
"No, they don't!" cried Jo, aside.
|
|
|
|
"Having taken the pirate captain prisoner, sailed slap over
|
|
the schooner, whose decks were piled high with dead and whose
|
|
lee scuppers ran blood, for the order had been `Cutlasses, and
|
|
die hard!' `Bosun's mate, take a bight of the flying-jib sheet,
|
|
and start this villain if he doesn't confess his sins double
|
|
quick,' said the British captain. The Portuguese held his tongue
|
|
like a brick, and walked the plank, while the jolly tars cheered
|
|
like mad. But the sly dog dived, came up under the man-of-war,
|
|
scuttled her, and down she went, with all sail set, `To the
|
|
bottom of the sea, sea, sea' where . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, gracious! What shall I say?" cried Sallie, as Fred
|
|
ended his rigmarole, in which he had jumbled together pell-mell
|
|
nautical phrases and facts out of one of his favorite books.
|
|
"Well, they went to the bottom, and a nice mermaid welcomed them,
|
|
but was much grieved on finding the box of headless knights, and
|
|
kindly pickled them in brine, hoping to discover the mystery
|
|
about them, for being a woman, she was curious. By-and-by a diver
|
|
came down, and the mermaid said, `I'll give you a box of pearls
|
|
if you can take it up,' for she wanted to restore the poor things
|
|
to life, and couldn't raise the heavy load herself. So the diver
|
|
hoisted it up, and was much disappointed on opening it to find
|
|
no pearls. He left it in a great lonely field, where it was
|
|
found by a . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Little goose girl, who kept a hundred fat geese in the field,"
|
|
said Amy, when Sallie's invention gave out. "The little girl was
|
|
sorry for them, and asked an old woman what she should do to help
|
|
them. `Your geese will tell you, they know everything.' said the
|
|
old woman. So she asked what she should use for new heads, since
|
|
the old ones were lost, and all the geese opened their hundred
|
|
mouths and screamed . . ."
|
|
|
|
"`Cabbages!'" continued Laurie promptly. "`Just the thing,'
|
|
said the girl, and ran to get twelve fine ones from her garden.
|
|
She put them on, the knights revived at once, thanked her, and
|
|
went on their way rejoicing, never knowing the difference, for
|
|
there were so many other heads like them in the world that no one
|
|
thought anything of it. The knight in whom I'm interest went back
|
|
to find the pretty face, and learned that the princesses had spun
|
|
themselves free and all gone and married, but one. He was in a
|
|
great state of mind at that, and mounting the colt, who stood by
|
|
him through thick and thin, rushed to the castle to see which was
|
|
left. Peeping over the hedge, he saw the queen of his affections
|
|
picking flowers in her garden. `Will you give me a rose?' said
|
|
he. `You must come and get it. I can't come to you, it isn't
|
|
proper,' said she, as sweet as honey. He tried to climb over
|
|
the hedge, but it seemed to grow higher and higher. Then he
|
|
tried to push through, but it grew thicker and thicker, and he
|
|
was in despair. So he patiently broke twig after twig till he
|
|
had made a little hole through which he peeped, saying implor-
|
|
ingly, `Let me in! Let me in!' But the pretty princess did not
|
|
seem to understand, for she picked her roses quietly, and left
|
|
him to fight his way in. Whether he did or not, Frank will tell
|
|
you."
|
|
|
|
"I can't. I'm not playing, I never do," said Frank, dismayed
|
|
at the sentimental predicament out of which he was to rescue the
|
|
absurd couple. Beth had disappeared behind Jo, and Grace was
|
|
asleep.
|
|
|
|
"So the poor knight is to be left sticking in the hedge, is
|
|
he?" asked Mr. Brooke, still watching the river, and playing
|
|
with the wild rose in his buttonhole.
|
|
|
|
"I guess the princess gave him a posy, and opened the gate
|
|
after a while," said Laurie, smiling to himself, as he threw
|
|
acorns at his tutor.
|
|
|
|
"What a piece of nonsense we have made! With practice we
|
|
might do something quite clever. Do you know Truth?"
|
|
|
|
"I hope so," said Meg soberly.
|
|
|
|
"The game, I mean?"
|
|
|
|
"what is it?" said Fred.
|
|
|
|
"Why, you pile up your hands, choose a number, and draw out
|
|
in turn, and the person who draws at the number has to answer
|
|
truly any question put by the rest. It's great fun."
|
|
|
|
"Let's try it," said Jo, who liked new experiments.
|
|
|
|
Miss Kate and Mr. Booke, Meg, and Ned declined, but Fred,
|
|
Sallie, Jo, and Laurie piled and drew, and the lot fell to Laurie.
|
|
|
|
"Who are your heroes?" asked Jo.
|
|
|
|
"Grandfather and Napoleon."
|
|
|
|
"Which lady here do you think prettiest?" said Sallie.
|
|
|
|
"Margaret."
|
|
|
|
"Which do you like best?" from Fred.
|
|
|
|
"Jo, of course."
|
|
|
|
"What silly questions you ask!" And Jo gave a disdainful
|
|
shrug as the rest laughed at Laurie's matter-of-fact tone.
|
|
|
|
"Try again. Truth isn't a bad game," said Fred.
|
|
|
|
"It's a very good one for you," retorted Jo in a low voice.
|
|
Her turn came next.
|
|
|
|
"What is your greatest fault?' asked Fred, by way of testing
|
|
in her the virtue he lacked himself.
|
|
|
|
"A quick temper."
|
|
|
|
"What do you most wish for?" said Laurie.
|
|
|
|
"A pair of boot lacings," returned Jo, guessing and defeat-
|
|
ing his purpose.
|
|
|
|
"Not a true answer. You must say what you really do want
|
|
most."
|
|
|
|
"Genius. Don't you wish you could give it to me, Laurie?"
|
|
And she slyly smiled in his disappointed face.
|
|
|
|
"What virtues do you most admire in a man?" asked Sallie.
|
|
|
|
"Courage and honesty."
|
|
|
|
"Now my turn," said Fred, as his hand came last.
|
|
|
|
"Let's give it to him," whispered Laurie to Jo, who nodded
|
|
and asked at once . . .
|
|
|
|
"Didn't you cheat at croquet?'
|
|
|
|
"Well, yes, a little bit."
|
|
|
|
"Good! Didn't you take your story out of THE SEA LION?"
|
|
said Laurie.
|
|
|
|
"Rather."
|
|
|
|
"Don't you think the English nation perfect in every respect?"
|
|
asked Sallie.
|
|
|
|
"I should be ashamed of myself if I didn't."
|
|
|
|
"He's a true John Bull. Now, Miss Sallie, you shall have
|
|
a chance without waiting to draw. I'll harrrow up your feelings
|
|
first by asking if you don't think you are something of a flirt,"
|
|
said Laurie, as Jo nodded to Fred as a sign that peace was declared.
|
|
|
|
"You impertinent boy! Of course I'm not," exclaimed Sallie,
|
|
with an air that proved the contrary.
|
|
|
|
"What do you hate most?" asked Fred.
|
|
|
|
"Spiders and rice pudding."
|
|
|
|
"What do you like best?" asked Jo.
|
|
|
|
"Dancing and French gloves."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I think Truth is a very silly play. Let's have a
|
|
sensible game of Authors to refresh our minds," proposed Jo.
|
|
|
|
Ned, frank, and the little girls joined in this, and while it
|
|
went on, the three elders sat apart, talking. Miss Kate took out
|
|
her sketch again, and Margaret watched her, while Mr. Brooke lay
|
|
on the grass with a book, which he did not read.
|
|
|
|
"How beautifully you do it! I wish I could draw," said Meg,
|
|
with mingled admiration and regret in her voice.
|
|
|
|
"Why don't you learn? I should think you had taste and talent
|
|
for it," replied Miss Kate graciously.
|
|
|
|
"I haven't time."
|
|
|
|
"Your mamma prefers other accomplishments, I fancy. So did
|
|
mine, but I proved to her that I had talent by taking a few lessons
|
|
privately, and then she was quite willing I should go on. Can't
|
|
you do the same with your governess?"
|
|
|
|
"I have none."
|
|
|
|
"I forgot young ladies in America go to school more than with
|
|
us. Very fine schools they are, too, Papa says. You go to a
|
|
private one, I suppose?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't go at all. I am a governess myself."
|
|
|
|
"Oh. indeed!" said Miss Kate, but she might as well have said,
|
|
"Dear me, how dreadful!" for her tone implied it, and something in
|
|
her face made Meg color, and wish she had not been so frank.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Brooke looked up and said quickly, Young ladies in America
|
|
love independence as much as their ancestors did, and are admired
|
|
and respected for supporting themselves."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes, of course it's very nice and proper in them to do
|
|
so. We have many most respectable and worthy young women who do
|
|
the same and are employed by the nobility, because, being the
|
|
daughters of gentlemen, they are both well bred and accomplished,
|
|
you know," said Miss Kate in a patronizing tone that hurt Meg's
|
|
pride, and made her work seem not only more distasteful, but
|
|
degrading.
|
|
|
|
"Did the German song suit, Miss March?" inquired Mr. Brooke,
|
|
breaking an awkward pause.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes! It was very sweet, and I'm much obliged to who-
|
|
ever translated it for me." And Meg's downcast face brightened as
|
|
she spoke.
|
|
|
|
"Don't you read German?" asked Miss Kate with a look of sur-
|
|
prise.
|
|
|
|
"Not very well. My father, who taught me, is away, and I
|
|
don't get on very fast alone, for I've no one to correct my
|
|
pronunciation."
|
|
|
|
"Try a little now. Here is Schiller's MARY STUART and a
|
|
tutor who loves to teach." And Mr. Brooke laid his book on her
|
|
lap with an inviting smile.
|
|
|
|
"It's so hard I'm afraid to try," said Meg, grateful, but
|
|
bashful in the presence of the accomplished young lady beside
|
|
her.
|
|
|
|
"I'll read a bit to encourage you." And Miss Kate read one
|
|
of the most beautiful passages in a perfectly correct but per-
|
|
fectly expressionless manner.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Brooke made no comment as she returned the book to Meg,
|
|
who said innocently, "I thought it was poetry."
|
|
|
|
"Some of it is. Try this passage."
|
|
|
|
There was a queer smile about Mr. Brooke's mouth as he
|
|
opened at poor Mary's lament.
|
|
|
|
Meg obediently following the long grass-blade which her new
|
|
tutor used to point with, read slowly and timidly, unconsciously
|
|
making poetry of the hard words by the soft intonation of her
|
|
musical voice. Down the page went the green guide, and presently,
|
|
forgetting her listener in the beauty of the sad scene, Meg read
|
|
as if alone, giving a little touch of tragedy to the words of the
|
|
unhappy queen. If she had seen the brown eyes then, she would
|
|
have stopped short, but she never looked up, and the lesson was
|
|
not spoiled for her.
|
|
|
|
"Very well indeed!" said Mr. Brooke, as she paused, quite
|
|
ignoring her many mistakes, and looking as if he did indeed love
|
|
to teach.
|
|
|
|
Miss Kate put up her glass, and, having taken a survey of
|
|
the little tableau before her, shut her sketch book, saying with
|
|
condescension, "You've a nice accent and in time will be a clever
|
|
reader. I advise you to learn, for German is a valuable accom-
|
|
plishment to teachers. I must look after Grace, she is romping."
|
|
And Miss Kate strolled away, adding to herself with a shrug, "I
|
|
didn't come to chaperone a governess, though she is young and
|
|
pretty. What odd people these Yankees are. I'm afraid Laurie
|
|
will be quite spoiled among them."
|
|
|
|
"I forgot that English people rather turn up their noses at
|
|
governesses and don't treat them as we do," said Meg, looking
|
|
after the retreating figure with an annoyed expression.
|
|
|
|
"Tutors also have rather a hard time of it there, as I know
|
|
to my sorrow. There's no place like America for us workers, Miss
|
|
Margaret." And Mr. Brooke looked so contented and cheerful that
|
|
Meg was ashamed to lament her hard lot.
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad I live in it then. I don't like my work, but I get
|
|
a good deal of satisfaction out of it after all, so I won't com-
|
|
plain. I only wished I liked teaching as you do."
|
|
|
|
"I think you would if you had Laurie for a pupil. I shall
|
|
be very sorry to lose him next year," said Mr. Brooke, busily
|
|
punching holes in the turf.
|
|
|
|
"Going to college, I suppose?" Meg's lips asked the question,
|
|
but her eyes added, "And what becomes of you?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it's high time he went, for he is ready, and as soon as
|
|
he is off, I shall turn soldier. I am needed."
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"I am glad of that!" exclaimed Meg. "I should think every
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young man would want to go, though it is hard for the mothers
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and sisters who stay at home," she added sorrowfully.
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"I have neither, and very few friends to care whether I live
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or die," said Mr. Brooke rather bitterly as he absently put the
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dead rose in the hole he had made and covered it up, like a
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little grave.
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"Laurie and his grandfather would care a great deal, and we
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should all be very sorry to have any harm happen to you," said
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Meg heartily.
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"Thank you, that sounds pleasant," began Mr. Brooke, looking
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cheerful again, but before he could finish his speech, Ned, mounted
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on the old horse, came lumbering up to display his equestrian skill
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before the young ladies, and there was no more quiet that day.
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"Don't you love to ride?" asked Grace of Amy, as they stood
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resting after a race round the field with the others, led by Ned.
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"I dote upon it. My sister, Meg, used to ride when Papa was
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rich, but we don't keep any horses now, except Ellen Tree," added
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Amy, laughing.
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"Tell me about Ellen Tree. Is it a donkey?" asked Grace
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curiously.
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"Why, you see, Jo is crazy about horses and so am I, but
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we've only got an old sidesaddle and no horse. Out in our
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garden is an apple tree that has a nice low branch, so Jo put
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the saddle on it, fixed some reins on the part that turns up,
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and we bounce away on Ellen Tree whenever we like."
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"How funny!" laughed Grace. "I have a pony at home, and
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ride nearly every day in the park with Fred and Kate. It's very
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nice, for my friends go too, and the Row is full of ladies and
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gentlemen."
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"Dear, how charming! I hope I shall go abroad some day,
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but I'd rather go to Rome than the row," said Amy, who had
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not the remotest idea what the Row was and wouldn't have asked
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for the world.
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Frank, sitting just behind the little girls, heard what they
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were saying, and pushed his crutch away from him with an impatient
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|
gesture as he watched the active lads going through all sorts of
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|
comical gymnastics. Beth, who was collecting the scattered
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Author cards, looked up and said, in her shy yet friendly way,
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"I'm afraid you are tired. Can I do anything for you?"
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"Talk to me, please. It's dull, sitting by myself," answered
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Frank, who had evidently been used to being made much of at home.
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If he asked her to deliver a Latin oration, it would not
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have seemed a more impossible task to bashful Beth, but there
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|
was no place to run to, no Jo to hide behind now, and the poor
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boy looked so wistfully at her that she bravely resolved to try.
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|
"What do you like to talk about?" she asked, fumbling over
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the cards and dropping half as she tried to tie them up.
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"Well, I like to hear about cricket and boating and hunting,"
|
|
said Frank, who had not yet learned to suit his amusements to
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his strength.
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My heart! What shall I do? I don't know anything about them,
|
|
thought Beth, and forgetting the boy's misfortune in her flurry,
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she said, hoping to make him talk, "I never saw any hunting, but
|
|
I suppose you know all about it."
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"I did once, but I can never hunt again, for I got hurt leap-
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|
ing a confounded five-barred gate, so there are no more horses and
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|
hounds for me," said Frank with a sigh that made Beth hate herself
|
|
for her innocent blunder.
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|
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"Your deer are much prettier than our ugly buffaloes," she
|
|
said, turning to the prairies for help and feeling glad that she
|
|
had read one of the boys' books in which Jo delighted.
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|
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|
Buffaloes proved soothing and satisfactory, and in her eager-
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|
ness to amuse another, Beth forgot herself, and was quite uncon-
|
|
scious of her sisters' surprise and delight at the unusual spectacle
|
|
of Beth talking away to one of the dreadful boys, against whom she
|
|
had begged protection.
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|
"Bless her heart! She pities him, so she is good to him,"
|
|
said Jo, beaming at her from the croquet ground.
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"I always said she was a little saint," added Meg, as if
|
|
there could be no further doubt of it.
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|
"I haven't heard Frank laugh so much for ever so long," said
|
|
Grace to Amy, as they sat discussing dolls and making tea sets
|
|
out of the acorn cups.
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|
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|
"My sister Beth is a very fastidious girl, when she likes to
|
|
be," said Amy, well pleased at Beth's success. She meant `facin-
|
|
ating', but as Grace didn't know the exact meaning of either word,
|
|
fastidious sounded well and made a good impression.
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|
|
|
An impromptu circus, fox and geese, and an amicable game of
|
|
croquet finished the afternoon. At sunset the tent was struck,
|
|
hampers packed, wickets pulled up, boats loaded, and the whole
|
|
party floated down the river, singing at the tops of their voices.
|
|
Ned, getting sentimental, warbled a serenade with the pensive
|
|
refrain . . .
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|
|
Alone, alone, ah! Woe, alone,
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|
|
|
and at the lines . . .
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|
|
We each are young, we each have a heart,
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|
Oh, why should we stand thus coldly apart?
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|
|
|
he looked at Meg with such a lackadiasical expression that she
|
|
laughed outright and spoiled his song.
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|
|
|
"How can you be so cruel to me?" he whispered, under cover
|
|
of a lively chorus. "You've kept close to that starched-up
|
|
Englishwoman all day, and now you snub me."
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|
|
|
"I didn't mean to, but you looked so funny I really couldn't
|
|
help it," replied Meg, passing over the first part of his reproach,
|
|
for it was quite true that she had shunned him, remembering the
|
|
Moffat party and the talk after it.
|
|
|
|
Ned was offended and turned to Sallie for consolation, saying
|
|
to her rather pettishly, "There isn't a bit of flirt in that girl,
|
|
is there?"
|
|
|
|
"Not a particle, but she's a dear," returned Sallie, defending
|
|
her friend even while confessing her shortcomings.
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|
|
|
"She's not a stricken deer anyway," said Ned, trying to be
|
|
witty, and succeeding as well as very young gentlemen usually do.
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|
|
|
On the lawn where it had gathered, the little party separated
|
|
with cordial good nights and good-bys, for the Vaughns were going
|
|
to Canada. As the four sisters went home through the garden, Miss
|
|
Kate looked after them, saying, without the patronizing tone in
|
|
her voice, "In spite of their demonstrative manners, American girls
|
|
are very nice when one knows them."
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|
|
|
"I quite agree with you," said Mr. Brooke.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
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|
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|
Laurie lay luxuriously swinging to and fro in his hammock
|
|
one warm September afternoon, wondering what his neighbors were
|
|
about, but too lazy to go and find out. He was in one of his
|
|
moods, for the day had been both unprofitable and unsatisfactory,
|
|
and he was wishing he could live it over again. The hot weather
|
|
made him indolent, and he had shirked his studies, tried Mr.
|
|
Brooke's patience to the utmost, displeased his grandfather by
|
|
practicing half the afternoon, frightened the maidservants half
|
|
out of their wits by mischievously hinting that one of his dogs
|
|
was going mad, and, after high words with the stableman about
|
|
some fancied neglect of his horse, he had flung himself into
|
|
his hammock to fume over the stupidity of the world in general,
|
|
till the peace of the lovely day quieted him in spite of himself.
|
|
Staring up into the green gloom of the horse-chestnut trees above
|
|
him, he dreamed dreams of all sorts, and was just imagining him-
|
|
self tossing on the ocean in a voyage round the world, when the
|
|
sound of voices brought him ashore in a flash. Peeping through
|
|
the meshes of the hammock, he saw the Marches coming out, as if
|
|
bound on some expedition.
|
|
|
|
"What in the world are those girls about now?" thought
|
|
Laurie, opening his sleepy eyes to take a good look, for there
|
|
was something rather peculiar in the appearance of his neigh-
|
|
bors. Each wore a large, flapping hat, a brown linen pouch
|
|
slung over one shoulder, and carried a long staff. Meg had a
|
|
cushion, Jo a book, Beth a basket, and Amy a portfolio. All
|
|
walked quietly through the garden, out at the little back gate,
|
|
and began to climb the hill that lay between the house and river.
|
|
|
|
"Well, that's cool," said Laurie to himself, "to have a picnic
|
|
and never ask me! They can't be going in the boat, for they
|
|
haven't got the key. Perhaps they forgot it. I'll take it to them,
|
|
and see what's going on."
|
|
|
|
Though possessed of half a dozen hats, it took him some time
|
|
to find one, then there was a hunt for the key, which was at last
|
|
discovered in his pocket, so that the girls were quite out of sight
|
|
when leaped the fence and ran after them. Taking the shortest way
|
|
to the boathouse, he waited for them to appear, but no one came,
|
|
and he went up the hill to take an observation. A grove of pines
|
|
covered one part of it, and from the heart of this green spot came
|
|
a clearer sound than the soft sigh of the pines or the drowsy chirp
|
|
of the crickets.
|
|
|
|
"Here's a landscape!" thought Laurie, peeping through the
|
|
bushes, and looking wide-awake and good-natured already.
|
|
|
|
It was a rather pretty little picture, for the sisters sat
|
|
together in the shady nook, with sun and shadow flickering over
|
|
them, the aromatic wind lifting their hair and cooling their hot
|
|
cheeks, and all the little wood people going on with their affairs
|
|
as if these were no strangers but old friends. Meg sat upon her
|
|
cushion, sewing daintily with her white hands, and looking as fresh
|
|
and sweet as a rose in her pink dress among the green. Beth was
|
|
sorting the cones that lay thick under the hemlock near by, for
|
|
she made pretty things with them. Amy was sketching a group of
|
|
ferns, and Jo was knitting as she read aloud. A shadow passed
|
|
over the boy's face as he watched them, feeling that he ought to
|
|
go away because uninvited, yet lingering because home seemed very
|
|
lonely and this quiet party in the woods most attractive to his
|
|
restless spirit. He stood so still that a squirrel, busy with it's
|
|
harvesting, ran dawn a pine close beside him, saw him suddenly
|
|
and skipped back, scolding so shrilly that Beth looked up, espied
|
|
the wistful face behind the birches,and beckoned with a reassuring
|
|
smile.
|
|
|
|
"May I come in, please? Or shall I be a bother?" he asked,
|
|
advancing slowly.
|
|
|
|
Meg lifted her eyebrows, but Jo scowled at her defiantly and
|
|
said at once, "Of course you may. We should have asked you before,
|
|
only we thought you wouldn't care for such a girl's game as this."
|
|
|
|
"I always like your games, but if Meg doesn't want me, I'll
|
|
go away."
|
|
|
|
"I've no objection, if you do something. It's against the
|
|
rules to be idle here," replied Meg gravely but graciously.
|
|
|
|
"Much obliged. I'll do anything if you'll let me stop a bit,
|
|
for it's as dull as the Desert of Sahara down there. Shall I sew,
|
|
read, cone, draw, or do all at once? Bring on your bears. I'm
|
|
ready." And Laurie sat down with a submissive expression delight-
|
|
ful to behold.
|
|
|
|
"Finish this story while I set my heel," said Jo, handing him
|
|
the book.
|
|
|
|
"Yes'm." was the meek answer, as he began, doing his best to
|
|
prove his gratitude for the favor of admission into the `Busy Bee
|
|
Society'.
|
|
|
|
The story was not a long one, and when it was finished, he
|
|
ventured to ask a few questions as a reward of merit.
|
|
|
|
"Please, ma'am, could I inquire if this highly instructive
|
|
and charming institution is a new one?"
|
|
|
|
"Would you tell him?" asked Meg of her sisters.
|
|
|
|
"He'll laugh," said Amy warningly.
|
|
|
|
"Who cares?" said Jo.
|
|
|
|
"I guess he'll like it," added Beth.
|
|
|
|
"Of course I shall! I give you my word I won't laugh. Tell
|
|
away, Jo, and don't be afraid."
|
|
|
|
"The idea of being afraid of you! Well, you see we used to
|
|
play Pilgrim's Progress, and we have been going on with it in
|
|
earnest, all winter and summer."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I know," said Laurie, nodding wisely.
|
|
|
|
"Who told you?" demanded Jo.
|
|
|
|
"Spirits."
|
|
|
|
"No, I did. I wanted to amuse him one night when you were
|
|
all away, and he was rather dismal. He did like it, so don't
|
|
scold, Jo," said Beth meekly.
|
|
|
|
"You can't keep a secret. Never mind, it saves trouble now."
|
|
|
|
"Go on, please," said Laurie, as Jo became absorbed in her
|
|
work, looking a trifle displeased.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, didn't she tell you about this new plan of ours? Well,
|
|
we have tried not to waste our holiday, but each has had a task
|
|
and worked at it with a will. The vacation is nearly over, the
|
|
stints are all done, and we are ever so glad that we didn't dawdle."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I should think so," and Laurie thought regretfully of
|
|
his own idle days.
|
|
|
|
"Mother likes to have us out-of-doors as much as possible, so
|
|
we bring our work here and have nice times. For the fun of it we
|
|
bring our things in these bags, wear the old hats, use poles to
|
|
climb the hill, and play pilgrims, as we used to do years ago. We
|
|
call this hill the Delectable Mountain, for we can look far away
|
|
and see the country where we hope to live some time."
|
|
|
|
Jo pointed, and Laurie sat up to examine, for through an
|
|
opening in the wood one could look cross the wide, blue river,
|
|
the meadows on the other side, far over the outskirts of the
|
|
great city, to the green hills that rose to meet the sky. The
|
|
sun was low, and the heavens glowed with the splendor of an
|
|
autumn sunset. Gold and purple clouds lay on the hilltops,
|
|
and rising high into the ruddy light were silvery white peaks
|
|
that shone like the airy spires of some Celestial City.
|
|
|
|
"How beautiful that is!" said Laurie softly, for he was quick
|
|
to see and feel beauty of any kind.
|
|
|
|
"It's often so, and we like to watch it, for it is never the
|
|
same, but always splendid," replied Amy, wishing she could paint it.
|
|
|
|
"Jo talks about the country where we hope to live some time--
|
|
the real country, she means, with pigs and chickens and haymaking.
|
|
It would be nice, but I wish the beautiful country up there was real,
|
|
and we could ever go to it," said Beth musingly.
|
|
|
|
"There is a lovelier country even than that, where we shall go,
|
|
by-and-by, when we are good enough," answered Meg with her sweetest
|
|
voice.
|
|
|
|
"It seems so long to wait, so hard to do. I want to fly away
|
|
at once, as those swallows fly, and go in at that splendid gate."
|
|
|
|
"You'll get there, Beth, sooner or later, no fear of that,"
|
|
said Jo. "I'm the one that will have to fight and work, and climb
|
|
and wait, and maybe never get in after all."
|
|
|
|
"you'll have me for company, if that's any comfort. I shall
|
|
have to do a deal of traveling before I come in sight of your
|
|
Celestial City. If I arrive late, you'll say a good word for me,
|
|
won't you, Beth?"
|
|
|
|
Something in the boy's face troubled his little friend, but
|
|
she said cheerfully, with her quiet eyes on the changing clouds,
|
|
"If people really want to go, and really try all their lives, I
|
|
think they will get in, for I don't believe there are any locks
|
|
on that door or any guards at the gate. I always imagine it is
|
|
as it is in the picture, where the shining ones stretch out their
|
|
hands to welcome poor Christian as he comes up from the river.
|
|
|
|
"Wouldn't it be fun if all the castles in the air which we
|
|
make could come true, and we could live in them?" said Jo, after
|
|
a little pause.
|
|
|
|
"I've made such quantities it would be hard to choose which
|
|
I'd have," said Laurie, lying flat and throwing cones at the
|
|
squirrel who had betrayed him.
|
|
|
|
"You'd have to take your favorite one. What is it?" asked
|
|
Meg.
|
|
|
|
"If I tell mine, will you tell yours?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, if the girls will too."
|
|
|
|
"We will. Now, Laurie."
|
|
|
|
"After I'd seen as much of the world as I want to, I'd like
|
|
to settle in Germany and have just as much music as I choose. I'm
|
|
to be a famous musician myself, and all creation is to rush to hear
|
|
me. And I'm never to be bothered about money or business, but just
|
|
enjoy myself and live for what I like. That's my favorite castle.
|
|
What's yours, Meg?"
|
|
|
|
Margaret seemed to find it a little hard to tell hers, and
|
|
waved a brake before her face, as if to disperse imaginary gnats,
|
|
while she said slowly, "I should like a lovely house, full of all
|
|
sorts of luxurious things--nice food, pretty clothes, handsome
|
|
furniture, pleasant people, and heaps of money. I am to be
|
|
mistress of it, and manage it as I like, with plenty of servants,
|
|
so I never need work a bit. How I should enjoy it! For I wouldn't
|
|
be idle, but do good, and make everyone love me dearly."
|
|
|
|
"Wouldn't you have a master for your castle in the air?" asked
|
|
Laurie slyly.
|
|
|
|
"I said `pleasant people', you know," And Meg carefully tied
|
|
up her shoe as she spoke, so that no one saw her face.
|
|
|
|
"Why don't you say you'd have a splendid, wise, good husband
|
|
and some angelic little children? You know your castle wouldn't
|
|
be perfect without," said blunt Jo, who had no tender fancies yet,
|
|
and rather scorned romance, except in books.
|
|
|
|
"You'd have nothing but horses, inkstands, and novels in
|
|
yours," answered Meg petulantly.
|
|
|
|
"Wouldn't I though? I'd have a stable full of Arabian steeds,
|
|
rooms piled high with books, and I'd write out of a magic inkstand,
|
|
so that my works should be as famous as Laurie's music. I want to
|
|
do something splendid before I go into my castle, something heroic
|
|
or wonderful that won't be forgotten after I'm dead. I don't know
|
|
what, but I'm on the watch for it, and mean to astonish you all
|
|
some day. I think I shall write books, and get rich and famous,
|
|
that would suit me, so that is my favorite dream."
|
|
|
|
"Mine is to stay at home safe with Father and Mother, and
|
|
help take care of the family," said Beth contentedly.
|
|
|
|
"Don't you wish for anything else?" asked Laurie.
|
|
|
|
"Since I had my little piano, I am perfectly satisfied. I
|
|
only wish we may all keep well and be together, nothing else."
|
|
|
|
"I have ever so many wishes, but the pet one is to be an
|
|
artist, and go to Rome, and do fine pictures, and be the best
|
|
artist in the whole world," was Amy's modest desire.
|
|
|
|
"We're an ambitious set, aren't we? Every one of us, but
|
|
Beth, wants to be rich and famous, and gorgeous in every respect.
|
|
I do wonder if any of us will ever get our wishes," said Laurie,
|
|
chewing grass like a meditative calf.
|
|
|
|
"I've got the key to my castle in the air, but whether I can
|
|
unlock the door remains to be seen," observed Jo mysteriously.
|
|
|
|
"I've got the key to mine, but I'm not allowed to try it.
|
|
Hang college!" muttered Laurie with an impatient sigh.
|
|
|
|
"Here's mine!" and Amy waved her pencil.
|
|
|
|
"I haven't got any," said Meg forlornly.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you have," said Laurie at once.
|
|
|
|
"Where?"
|
|
|
|
"In your face."
|
|
|
|
"Nonsense, that's of no use."
|
|
|
|
"Wait and see if it doesn't bring you something worth having,"
|
|
replied the boy, laughing at the thought of a charming little
|
|
secret which he fancied he knew.
|
|
|
|
Meg colored behind the brake, but asked no questions and
|
|
looked across the river with the same expectant expression which
|
|
Mr. Brooke had worn when he told the story of the knight.
|
|
|
|
"If we are all alive ten years hence, let's meet, and see how
|
|
many of us have got our wishes, or how much nearer we are then than
|
|
now," said Jo, always ready with a plan.
|
|
|
|
"Bless me! How old I shall be, twenty-seven!" exclaimed Meg,
|
|
who felt grown up already, having just reached seventeen.
|
|
|
|
"You and I will be twenty-six, Teddy, Beth twenty-four, and
|
|
Amy twenty-two. What a venerable party!" said Jo.
|
|
|
|
"I hope I shall have done something to be proud of by that
|
|
time, but I'm such a lazy dog, I'm afraid I shall dawdle, Jo."
|
|
|
|
"You need a motive, Mother says, and when you get it, she is
|
|
sure you'll work splendidly."
|
|
|
|
"Is she? By Jupiter, I will, if I only get the chance!" cried
|
|
Laurie, sitting up with sudden energy. "I ought to be satisfied to
|
|
please Grandfather, and I do try, but it's working against the grain,
|
|
you see, and comes hard. He wants me to be an India merchant, as he
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|
was, and I'd rather be shot. I hate tea and sild and spices, and
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every sort of rubbish his old ships bring, and I don't care how soon
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they go to the bottom when I own them. Going to college ought to
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satisfy him, for if I give him four years he ought to let me off
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from the business. But he's set, and I've got to do just as he did,
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unless I break away and please myself, as my father did. If there
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was anyone left to stay with the old gentleman, I'd do it tomorrow."
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Laurie spoke excitedly, and looked ready to carry his threat
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into execution on the slightest provocation, for he was growing up
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very fast and, in spite of his indolent ways, had a young man's
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hatred of subjection, a young man's restless longing to try the
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world for himself.
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"I advise you to sail away in one of your ships, and never
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come home again till you have tried your own way," said Jo, whose
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imagination was fired by the thought of such a daring exploit, and
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whose sympathy was excited by what she called `Teddy's Wrongs'.
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"That's not right, Jo. You mustn't talk in that way, and Laurie
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mustn't take your bad advice. You should do just what your grand-
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father wishes, my dear boy," said Meg in her most maternal tone. "do
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your best at college, and when he sees that you try to please him,
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I'm sure he won't be hard on you or unjust to you. As you say, there
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is no one else to stay with and love him, and you'd never forgive
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yourself if you left him without his permission. Don't be dismal or
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fret, but do your duty and you'll get your reward, as good Mr. Brooke
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has, by being respected and loved."
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"What do you know about him?" asked Laurie, grateful for the
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good advice, but objecting to the lecture, and glad to turn the
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conversation from himself after his unusual outbreak.
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"Only what your grandpa told us about him, how he took good
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care of his own mother till she died, and wouldn't go abroad as
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tutor to some nice person because he wouldn't leave her. And how
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he provides now for an old woman who nursed his mother, and never
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tells anyone, but is just as generous and patient and good as he
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can be."
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"So he is, dear old fellow!" said Laurie heartily, as Meg
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paused, looking flushed and earnest with her story. "It's like
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Grandpa to find out all about him without letting him know, and
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to tell all his goodness to others, so that they might like him.
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Brooke couldn't understand why your mother was so kind to him,
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asking him over with me and treating him in her beautiful friendly
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way. He thought she was just perfect, and talked about it for
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days and days, and went on about you all in flaming style. If ever
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I do get my wish, you see what I'll do for Booke."
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"Begin to do something now by not plaguing his life out,"
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said Meg sharply.
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"How do you know I do, Miss?"
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"I can always tell by his face when he goes away. If you
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have been good, he looks satisfied and walks briskly. If you
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have plagued him, he's sober and walks slowly, as if he wanted
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to go back and do his work better."
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"Well, I like that? So you keep an account of my good and
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bad marks in Brooke's face, do you? I see him bow and smile as
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he passes your window, but I didn't know you'd got up a telegraph."
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"We haven't. Don't be angry, and oh, don't tell him I said
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anything! It was only to show that I cared how you get on, and
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what is said here is said in confidence, you know," cried Meg,
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much alarmed at the thought of what might follow from her care-
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less speech.
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"I don't tell tales," replied Laurie, with his `high and mighty'
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air, as Jo called a certain expression which he occasionally wore.
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"Only if Brooke is going to be a thermometer, I must mind and have
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fair weather for him to report."
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"Please don't be offended. I didn't meant to preach or tell
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tales or be silly. I only thought Jo was encouraging you in a
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|
feeling which you'd be sorry for by-and-by. You are so kind to
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us, we feel as if you were our brother and say just what we think.
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|
Forgive me, I meant it kindly." And Meg offered her hand with a
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gesture both affectionate and timid.
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Ashamed of his momentary pique, Laurie squeezed the kind
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|
little hand, and said frankly, "I'm the one to be forgiven. I'm
|
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cross and have been out of sorts all day. I like to have you
|
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tell me my faults and be sisterly, so don't mind if I am grumpy
|
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sometimes. I thank you all the same."
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Bent on showing that he was not offended, he made himself as
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|
agreeable as possible, wound cotton for Meg, recited poetry to
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|
please Jo, shook down cones for Beth, and helped Amy with her
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ferns, proving himself a fit person to belong to the `Busy Bee
|
|
Society'. In the midst of an animated discussion on the domestic
|
|
habits of turtles (one of those amiable creatures having strolled
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|
up from the river), the faint sound of a bell warned them that
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Hannah had put the tea `to draw', and they would just have time
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to get home to supper.
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"May I come again?" asked Laurie.
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"Yes, if your are good, and love your book, as the boys in
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the primer are told to do," said Meg, smiling.
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"i'll try."
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"Then you may come, and I'll teach you to knit as the Scotch-
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|
men do. There's a demand for socks just now," added Jo, waving
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|
hers like a big blue worsted banner as they parted at the gate.
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|
That night, when Beth played to Mr. Laurence in the twilight,
|
|
Laurie, standing in the shadow of the curtain, listened to the
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little David, whose simple music always quieted his moody spirit,
|
|
and watched the old man, who sat with his gray head on his hand,
|
|
thinking tender thoughts of the dead child he had loved so much.
|
|
Remembering the conversation of the afternoon, the boy said to
|
|
himself, with the resolve to make the sacrifice cheerfully, "I'll
|
|
let my castle go, and stay with the dear old gentleman while he
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|
needs me, for I am all he has."
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CHAPTER FOURTEEN
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Jo was very busy in the garret, for the October days began
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|
to grow chilly, and the afternoons were short. For two or three
|
|
hours the sun lay warmly in the high window, showing Jo seated
|
|
on the old sofa, writing busily, with her papers spread out
|
|
upon a trunk before her, while Scrabble, the pet rat, promen-
|
|
aded the beams overhead, accompanied by his oldest son, a fine
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|
young fellow, who was evidently very proud of his whiskers.
|
|
Quite absorbed in her work, Jo scribbled away till the last
|
|
page was filled, when she signed her name with a flourish and
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|
threw down her pen, exclaiming . . .
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"There, I've done my best! If this won't suit I shall have
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|
to wait till I can do better."
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|
Lying back on the sofa, she read the manuscript carefully
|
|
through, making dashes here and there, and putting in many
|
|
exclamation points, which looked like little balloons. Then she
|
|
tied it up with a smart red ribbon, and sat a minute looking at
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|
it with a sober, wistful expression, which plainly showed how
|
|
ernest her work had been. Jo's desk up here was an old tin
|
|
kitchen which hung against the wall. It it she kept her papers,
|
|
and a few books, safely shut away from Scrabble, who, being
|
|
likewise of a literary turn,was fond of making a circulating
|
|
library of such books as were left in his way by eating the
|
|
leaves. From this tin receptacle Jo produced another manuscript,
|
|
and putting both in her pocket, crept quietly downstairs, leaving
|
|
her friends to nibble on her pens and taste her ink.
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|
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|
She put on her hat and jacket as noiselessly as possible, and
|
|
going to the back entry window, got out upon the roof of a low
|
|
porch, swung herself down to the grassy bank, and took a roundabout
|
|
way to the road. Once there, she composed herself, hailed a passing
|
|
omnibus, and rolled away to town, looking very merry and mysterious.
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|
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|
If anyone had been watching her, he would have thought her
|
|
movements decidedly peculiar, for on alighting, she went off at a
|
|
great pace till she reached a certain number in a certain busy
|
|
street. Having found the place with some difficulty, she went
|
|
into the doorway, looked up the dirty stairs, and after standing
|
|
stock still a minute, suddenly dived into the street and walked
|
|
away as rapidly as she came. This maneuver she repeated several
|
|
times, to the great amusement of a black-eyed young gentleman
|
|
lounging in the window of a building opposite. On returning for
|
|
the third time, Jo gave herself a shake, pulled her hat over her
|
|
eyes, and walked up the stairs, looking as if she were going to
|
|
have all her teeth out.
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|
|
|
There was a dentist's sign, among others, which adorned the
|
|
entrance, and after staring a moment at the pair of artificial
|
|
jaws which slowly opened and shut to draw attention to a fine
|
|
set of teeth, the young gentleman put on his coat, took his hat,
|
|
and went down to post himself in the opposite doorway, saying
|
|
with a smile and a shiver, "It's like her to come alone, but if
|
|
she has a bad time she'll need someone to help her home."
|
|
|
|
In ten minutes Jo came running downstairs with a very red
|
|
face and the general appearance of a person who had just passed
|
|
through a trying ordeal of some sort. When she saw the young
|
|
gentleman she looked anything but pleased, and passed him with a
|
|
nod. But he followed, asking with an air of sympathy, "Did you
|
|
have a bad time?"
|
|
|
|
"Not very."
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|
|
|
"You got through quickly."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, thank goodness!"
|
|
|
|
"Why did you go alone?"
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|
|
|
"Didn't want anyone to know."
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|
|
|
"You're the oddest fellow I ever saw. How many did you
|
|
have out?"
|
|
|
|
Jo looked at her friend as if she did not understand him, then
|
|
began to laugh as if mightily amused at something.
|
|
|
|
"There are two which I want to have come out, but I must wait
|
|
a week."
|
|
|
|
"What are you laughing at? You are up to some mischief, Jo,"
|
|
said Laurie, looking mystified.
|
|
|
|
"So are you. What were you doing, sir, up in that billiard
|
|
saloon?"
|
|
|
|
"Begging your pardon, ma'am, it wasn't a billiard saloon, but
|
|
a gymnasium, and I was taking a lesson in fencing."
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad of that."
|
|
|
|
"why?"
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|
|
|
"You can teach me, and then when we play HAMLET, you can be
|
|
Laertes, and we'll make a fine thing of the fencing scene."
|
|
|
|
"Laurie burst out with a hearty boy's laugh, which made
|
|
several passers-by smile in spite of themselves.
|
|
|
|
"I'll teach you whether we play HAMLET or not. It's grand
|
|
fun and will straighten you up capitally. But I don't believe
|
|
that was your only reason for saying `I'm glad' in that decided
|
|
way, was it now?"
|
|
|
|
"No, I was glad that you were not in the saloon, because I
|
|
hope you never go to such places. Do you?"
|
|
|
|
"Not often."
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|
|
|
"I wish you wouldn't."
|
|
|
|
"It's no harm, Jo. I have billiards at home, but it's no fun
|
|
unless you have good players, so, as I'm fond of it, I come some-
|
|
times and have a game with Ned Moffat or some of the other fellows."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, dear, I'm so sorry, for you'll get to liking it better and
|
|
better, and will waste time and money, and grow like those dreadful
|
|
boys. I did hope you'd stay respectable and be a satisfaction to
|
|
your friends," said Jo, shaking her head.
|
|
|
|
"Can't a fellow take a little innocent amusement now and then
|
|
without losing his respectability?" asked Laurie, looking nettled.
|
|
|
|
"That depends upon how and where he takes it. I don't like
|
|
Ned and his set, and wish you'd keep out of it. Mother won't let
|
|
us have him at our house, though he wants to come. And if you
|
|
grow like him she won't be willing to have us frolic together as
|
|
we do now."
|
|
|
|
"Won't she?" asked Laurie anxiously.
|
|
|
|
"No, she can't bear fashionable young men, and she'd shut us
|
|
all up in bandboxes rather than have us associate with them."
|
|
|
|
"Well, she needn't get out her bandboxes yet. I'm not a
|
|
fashionable party and don't mean to be, but I do like harmless
|
|
larks now and then, don't you?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, nobody minds them, so lark away, but don't get wild,
|
|
will you? Or there will be an end of all our good times."
|
|
|
|
"I'll be a double distilled saint."
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|
|
|
"I can't bear saints. Just be a simple, honest, respectable
|
|
boy, and we'll never desert you. I don't know what I should do
|
|
if you acted like Mr. King's son. He had plenty of money, but
|
|
didn't know how to spend it, and got tipsy and gambled, and ran
|
|
away, and forged his father's name, I believe, and was altogether
|
|
horrid."
|
|
|
|
"You think I'm likely to do the same? Much obliged."
|
|
|
|
"No, I don't--oh, dear, no!--but I hear people talking about
|
|
money being such a temptation, and I sometimes wish you were poor.
|
|
I shouldn't worry then."
|
|
|
|
"Do you worry about me, Jo?"
|
|
|
|
"A little, when you look moody and discontented, as you some-
|
|
times do, for you've got such a strong will, if you once get started
|
|
wrong, I'm afraid it would be hard to stop you."
|
|
|
|
Laurie walked in silence a few minutes, and Jo watched him,
|
|
wishing she had held her tongue, for his eyes looked angry, though
|
|
his lips smiled as if at her warnings.
|
|
|
|
"Are you going to deliver lectures all the way home?" he
|
|
asked presently.
|
|
|
|
"Of course not. Why?"
|
|
|
|
"Because if you are, I'll take a bus. If you're not, I'd like
|
|
to walk with you and tell you something very interesting."
|
|
|
|
"I won't preach any more, and I'd like to hear the news
|
|
immensely."
|
|
|
|
"Very well, then, come on. It's a secret, and if I tell you,
|
|
you must tell me yours."
|
|
|
|
"I haven't got any," began Jo, but stopped suddenly, remember-
|
|
ing that she had.
|
|
|
|
"You know you have--you can't hide anything, so up and fess,
|
|
or I won't tell," cried Laurie.
|
|
|
|
"Is your secret a nice one?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, isn't it! All about people you know, and such fun! You
|
|
ought to hear it, and I've been aching to tell it this long time.
|
|
Come, you begin."
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|
|
|
"You'll not say anything about it at home, will you?"
|
|
|
|
"Not a word."
|
|
|
|
"And you won't tease me in private?"
|
|
|
|
"I never tease."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you do. You get everything you want out of people. I
|
|
don't know how you do it, but you are a born wheedler."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you. Fire away."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I've left two stories with a newspaperman, and he's to
|
|
give his answer next week," whispered Jo, in her confidant's ear.
|
|
|
|
"Hurrah for Miss March, the celebrated American authoress!"
|
|
cried Laurie, throwing up his hat and catching it again, to the
|
|
great delight of two ducks, four cats, five hens, and half a
|
|
dozen Irish children, for they were out of the city now.
|
|
|
|
"Hush! It won't come to anything, I dare say, but I couldn't
|
|
rest till I had tried, and I said nothing about it because I didn't
|
|
want anyone else to be disappointed."
|
|
|
|
"It won't fail. Why, Jo, your stories are works of Shake-
|
|
speare compared to half the rubbish that is published every day.
|
|
Won't it be fun to see them in print, and shan't we feel proud of
|
|
our authoress?"
|
|
|
|
Jo's eyes sparkled, for it is always pleasant to be believed
|
|
in, and a friend's praise is always sweeter than a dozen newspaper
|
|
puffs.
|
|
|
|
"Where's your secret? Play fair, Teddy, or I'll never believe
|
|
you again," she said, trying to extinguish the brilliant hopes that
|
|
blazed up at a word of encouragement.
|
|
|
|
"I may get into a scrape for telling, but I didn't promise
|
|
not to, so I will, for I never feel easy in my mind till I've told
|
|
you any plummy bit of news I get. I know where Meg's glove is."
|
|
|
|
"Is that all? said Jo, looking disappointed, as Laurie nodded
|
|
and twinkled with a face full of mysterious intelligence.
|
|
|
|
"It's quite enough for the present, as you'll agree when I
|
|
tell you where it is."
|
|
|
|
"Tell, then."
|
|
|
|
Laurie bent, and whispered three words in Jo's ear, which
|
|
produced a comical change. She stood and stared at him for a
|
|
minute, looking both surprised and displeased, then walked on,
|
|
saying sharply, "How do you know?"
|
|
|
|
"Saw it."
|
|
|
|
"Where?'
|
|
|
|
"Pocket."
|
|
|
|
"All this time?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, isn't that romantic?"
|
|
|
|
"No, it's horrid."
|
|
|
|
"Don't you like it?"
|
|
|
|
"Of course I don't. It's ridiculous, it won't be allowed. My
|
|
patience! What would Meg say?"
|
|
|
|
"You are not to tell anyone. Mind that."
|
|
|
|
"I didn't promise."
|
|
|
|
"That was understood, and I trusted you."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I won't for the present, anyway, but I'm disgusted, and
|
|
wish you hadn't told me."
|
|
|
|
"I thought you'd be pleased."
|
|
|
|
"At the idea of anybody coming to take Meg away? No, thank you."
|
|
|
|
"You'll feel better about it when somebody comes to take you
|
|
away."
|
|
|
|
"I'd like to see anyone try it," cried Jo fiercely.
|
|
|
|
"So should I!" And Laurie chuckled at the idea.
|
|
|
|
"I don't think secrets agree with me, I feel rumpled up in
|
|
my mind since you told me that," said Jo rather ungratefully.
|
|
|
|
"Race down this hill with me, and you'll be all right,"
|
|
suggested Laurie.
|
|
|
|
No one was in sight, the smooth road sloped invitingly before
|
|
her, and finding the temptation irresistible, Jo darted away, soon
|
|
leaving hat and comb behind her and scattering hairpins as she ran.
|
|
Laurie reached the goal first and was quite satisfied with the
|
|
success of his treatment, for his Atalanta came panting up with
|
|
flying hair, bright eyes, ruddy cheeks, and no signs of dissatis-
|
|
faction in her face.
|
|
|
|
"I wish I was a horse, then I could run for miles in this
|
|
splendid air, and not lose my breath. It was capital, but see
|
|
what a guy it's made me. Go, pick up my things, like a cherub,
|
|
as you are," said Jo, dropping down under a maple tree, which
|
|
was carpeting the bank with crimson leaves.
|
|
|
|
Laurie leisurely departed to recover the lost property, and
|
|
Jo bundled up her braids, hoping no one would pass by till she
|
|
was tidy again. But someone did pass, and who should it be but
|
|
Meg, looking particularly ladylike in her state and festival
|
|
suit, for she had been making calls.
|
|
|
|
"What in the world are you doing here?" she asked, regarding
|
|
her disheveled sister with well-bred surprise.
|
|
|
|
"Getting leaves," meekly answered Jo, sorting the rosy handful
|
|
she had just swept up.
|
|
|
|
"And hairpins," added Laurie, throwing half a dozen into Jo's
|
|
lap. "They grow on this road, Meg, so do combs and brown straw
|
|
hats."
|
|
|
|
"You have been running, Jo. How could you? When will you stop
|
|
such romping ways?" said Meg reprovingly, as she settled her cuffs
|
|
and smoothed her hair, with which the wind had taken liberties.
|
|
|
|
"Never till I'm stiff and old and have to use a crutch. Don't
|
|
try to make me grow up before my time, Meg. It's hard enough to
|
|
have you change all of a sudden. Let me be a little girl as long
|
|
as I can."
|
|
|
|
As she spoke, Jo bent over the leaves to hide the trembling
|
|
of her lips, for lately she had felt that Margaret was fast getting
|
|
to be a woman, and Laurie's secret made her dread the separation
|
|
which must surely come some time and now seemed very near. He saw
|
|
the trouble in her face and drew Meg's attention from it by asking
|
|
quickly, "Where have you been calling, all so fine?"
|
|
|
|
"At the Gardiners', and Sallie has been telling me all about
|
|
Belle Moffat's wedding. It was very splendid, and they have gone
|
|
to spend the winter in Paris. Just think how delightful that
|
|
must be!"
|
|
|
|
"Do you envy her, Meg?" said Laurie.
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid I do."
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad of it!" muttered Jo, tying on her hat with a jerk.
|
|
|
|
"Why?" asked Meg, looking surprised.
|
|
|
|
"Because if you care much about riches, you will never go and
|
|
marry a poor man," said Jo, frowning at Laurie, who was mutely
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warning her to mind what she said.
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"I shall never `go and marry' anyone," observed Meg, walking
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on with great dignity while the others followed, laughing, whisper-
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ing, skipping stones, and `behaving like children', as Meg said to
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herself, though she might have been tempted to join them if she
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had not had her best dress on.
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For a week or two, Jo behaved so queerly that her sisters
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were quite bewildered. She rushed to the door when the postman
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rang, was rude to Mr. Brooke whenever they met, would sit looking
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at Meg with a woe-begone face, occasionally jumping up to shake
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and then kiss her in a very mysterious manner. Laurie and she
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were always making signs to one another, and talking about
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`Spread Eagles' till the girls declared they had both lost their
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wits. On the second Saturday after Jo got out of the window, Meg,
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as she sat sewing at her window, was scandalized by the sight of
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Laurie chasing Jo all over the garden and finally capturing her
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in Amy's bower. What went on there, Meg could not see, but shrieks
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of laughter were heard, followed by the murmur of voices and a
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great flapping of newspapers.
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"What shall we do with that girl? She never will behave like
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a young lady," sighed Meg, as she watched the race with a disapprov-
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ing face.
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"I hope she won't. She is so funny and dear as she is," said
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Beth, who had never betrayed that she was a little hurt at Jo's
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having secrets with anyone but her.
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"It's very trying, but we never can make her commy la fo,"
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added Amy, who sat making some new frills for herself, with her
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curls tied up in a very becoming way., two agreeable things that
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made her feel unusually elegant and ladylike.
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In a few minutes Jo bounced in, laid herself on the sofa,
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and affected to read.
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"Have you anything interesting there?" asked Meg, with cond-
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escension.
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"Nothing but a story, won't amount to much, I guess," returned
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Jo, carefully keeping the name of the paper out of sight.
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"You'd better read it aloud. That will amuse us and keep you
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out of mischief," said Amy in her most grown-up tone.
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"What's the name?" asked Beth, wondering why Jo kept her face
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behind the sheet.
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"The Rival Painters."
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"That sounds well. Read it," said Meg.
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With a loud "Hem!" and a long breath, Jo began to read very
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fast. The girls listened with interest, for the tale was romantic,
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and somewhat pathetic, as most of the characters died in the end.
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"I like that about the splendid picture," was Amy's approving
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|
remark, as Jo paused.
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"I prefer the lovering part. Viola and Angelo are two of our
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favorite names, isn't that queer?" said Meg, wiping her eyes, for
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the lovering part was tragical.
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"Who wrote it?" asked Beth, who had caught a glimpse of Jo's
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face.
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The reader suddenly sat up, cast away the paper, displaying
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a flushed countenance, and with a funny mixture of solemnity and
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|
excitement replied in a loud voice, "Your sister."
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"You?" cried Meg, dropping her work.
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"It's very good," said Amy critically.
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"I knew it! I knew it! Oh, my Jo, I am so proud!" And Beth
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|
ran to hug her sister and exult over this splendid success.
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Dear me, how delighted they all were, to be sure! How Meg
|
|
wouldn't believe it till she saw the words. "Miss Josephine
|
|
March," actually printed in the paper. How graciously Amy
|
|
critisized the artistic parts of the story, and offered hints for
|
|
a sequel, which unfortunately couldn't be carried out, as the
|
|
hero and heroine were dead. How Beth got excited, and skipped
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|
and sang with joy. How Hannah came in to exclaim, "Sakes alive,
|
|
well I never!" in great astonishment at `that Jo's doin's'. How
|
|
proud Mrs. March was when she knew it. How Jo laughed, with
|
|
tears in her eyes, as she declared she might as well be a peacock
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|
and done with it. and how th `Spread Eagle' might be said to
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flap his wings triumphantly over the House of March, as the
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paper passed from hand to hand.
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"Tell us about it." "When did it come?" "How much did you
|
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get for it?" "What will Father say?" "Won't Laurie laugh?" cried
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the family, all in one breath as they clustered about Jo, for
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these foolish, affectionate people mad a jubilee of every little
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|
household joy.
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|
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|
"Stop jabbering, girls, and I'll tell you everything,"
|
|
said Jo, wondering if Miss Burney felt any grander over her
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|
EVILINA than she did over her `Rival Painters'. Having told
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|
how she disposed of her tales, Jo added, "And when I went to
|
|
get my answer, the man said he liked them both, but didn't
|
|
pay beginners, only let them print in his paper, and noticed
|
|
the stories. It was good practice, he said, and when the be-
|
|
ginners improved, anyone would pay. So I let him have the two
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|
stories, and today this was sent to me, and Laurie caught me
|
|
with it and insisted on seeing it, so I let him. And he said
|
|
it was good, and I shall write more, and he's going to get the
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|
next paid for, and I am so happy, for in time I may be able to
|
|
support myself and help the girls."
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|
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Jo's breath gave out here, and wrapping her head in the
|
|
paper, she bedewed her little story with a few natural tears,
|
|
for to be independent and earn the praise of those she loved
|
|
were the dearest wishes of her heart, and this seemed to be the
|
|
first step toward that happy end.
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CHAPTER FIFTEEN
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"November is the most disagreeable month in the whole year,"
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said Margaret, standing at the window one dull afternoon, look-
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|
ing out at the frostbitten garden.
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"That's the reason I was born in it," observed Jo pensively,
|
|
quite unconscious of the blot on her nose.
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|
"If something very pleasant should happen now, we should
|
|
think it a delightful month," said Beth, who took a hopeful view
|
|
of everything, even November.
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|
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|
"I dare say, but nothing pleasant ever does happen in this
|
|
family," said Meg, who was out of sorts. "We go grubbing along
|
|
day after day, without a bit of change, and very little fun. We
|
|
might as well be in a treadmill."
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|
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|
"My patience, how blue we are!" cried Jo. "I don't much
|
|
wonder, poor dear, for you see other girls having splendid times,
|
|
while you grind, grind, year in and year out. Oh, don't I wish
|
|
I could manage things for you as I do for my heroines! You're
|
|
pretty enough and good enough already, so I'd have some rich relation
|
|
leave you a fortune unexpectedly. Then you'd dash out as an heiress,
|
|
scorn everyone who has slighted you, go abroad, and come home my Lady
|
|
Something in a blaze of splendor and elegance."
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|
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|
"People don't have fortunes left them in that style nowadays,
|
|
men have to work and women marry for money. It's a dreadfully unjust
|
|
world," said Meg bitterly.
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|
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|
"Jo and I are going to make fortunes for you all. Just wait ten
|
|
years, and see if we don't," said Amy, who sat in a corner making mud
|
|
pies, as Hannah called her little clay models of birds, fruit, and
|
|
faces.
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|
"Can't wait, and I'm afraid I haven't much faith in ink and dirt,
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|
though I'm grateful for your good intentions.
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|
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|
Meg sighed, and turned to the frostbitten garden again. Jo
|
|
groaned and leaned both elbows on the table in a despondent attitude,
|
|
but Amy spatted away energetically, and Beth, who sat at the other
|
|
window, said, smiling, "Two pleasant things are going to happen
|
|
right away. Marmee is coming down the street, and Laurie is tramping
|
|
through the garden as if he had something nice to tell."
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|
|
|
In they both came, Mrs. March with her usual question, "Any letter
|
|
from Father, girls?" and Laurie to say in his persuasive way, "Won't
|
|
some of you come for a drive? I've been working away at mathematics
|
|
till my head is in a muddle, and I'm going to freshen my wits by a
|
|
brisk turn. It's a dull day, but the air isn't bad, and I'm going to
|
|
take Brooke home, so it will be gay inside, if it isn't out. Come,
|
|
Jo, you and Beth will go, won't you?"
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|
|
|
"Of course we will."
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|
|
|
"Much obliged, but I'm busy." And Meg whisked out her workbasket,
|
|
for she had agreed with her mother that it was best, for her at least,
|
|
not to drive too often with the young gentleman.
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|
|
|
"We three will be ready in a minute," cried Amy, running away to
|
|
wash her hands.
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|
|
|
"Can I do anything for you, Madam Mother?" asked Laurie, leaning
|
|
over Mrs. March's chair with the affectionate look and tone he always
|
|
gave her.
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|
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|
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|
"No, thank you, except call at the office, if you'll be so kind,
|
|
dear. It's our day for a letter, and the postman hasn't been. Father
|
|
is as regular as the sun, but there's some delay on the way, perhaps."
|
|
|
|
A sharp ring interrupted her, and a minute after Hannah came in
|
|
with a letter.
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|
|
|
"It's one of them horrid telegraph things, mum," she said,
|
|
handling it as if she was afraid it would explode and do some damage.
|
|
|
|
At the word `telegraph', Mrs. March snatched it, read the two
|
|
lines it contained, and dropped back into her chair as white as if
|
|
the little paper had sent a bullet to her heart. Laurie dashed
|
|
downstairs for water, while Meg and Hannah supported her, and Jo read
|
|
aloud, in a frightened voice . . .
|
|
|
|
Mrs. March:
|
|
Your husband is very ill. Come at once.
|
|
S. HALE
|
|
Blank Hospital, Washington.
|
|
|
|
How still the room was as they listened breathlessly, how
|
|
strangely the day darkened outside, and how suddenly the whole world
|
|
seemed to change, as the girls gathered about their mother, feeling
|
|
as if all the happiness and support of their lives was about to be
|
|
taken from them.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. March was herself again directly, read the message over,
|
|
and stretched out her arms to her daughters, saying, in a tone they
|
|
never forgot, "I shall go at once, but it may be too late. Oh,
|
|
children, children, help me to bear it!"
|
|
|
|
For several minutes there was nothing but the sound of sobbing
|
|
in the room, mingled with broken words of comfort, tender assurances
|
|
of help, and hopeful whispers that died away in tears. Poor Hannah
|
|
was the first to recover, and with unconscious wisdom she set all the
|
|
rest a good example, for with her, work was panacea for most
|
|
afflictions.
|
|
|
|
"The Lord keep the dear man! I won't waste no time a-cryin',
|
|
but git your things ready right away, mum," she said heartily, as she
|
|
wiped her face on her apron, gave her mistress a warm shake of the
|
|
hand with her own hard one, and went away to work like three women
|
|
in one.
|
|
|
|
"She's right, there's no time for tears now. Be calm, girls,
|
|
and let me think."
|
|
|
|
They tried to be calm, poor things, as their mother sat up,
|
|
looking pale but steady, and put away her grief to think and plan
|
|
for them.
|
|
|
|
"Where's Laurie?' she asked presently, when she had collected
|
|
her thoughts and decided on the first duties to be done.
|
|
|
|
"Here, ma'am. Oh, let me do something!" cried the boy, hurry-
|
|
ing from the next room whither he had withdrawn, feeling that their
|
|
first sorrow was too sacred for even his friendly eyes to see.
|
|
|
|
"Send a telegram saying I will come at once. The next train
|
|
goes early in the morning. I'll take that."
|
|
|
|
"What else? The horses are ready. I can go anywhere, do
|
|
anything," he said, looking ready to fly to the ends of the earth.
|
|
|
|
"Leave a note at Aunt March's. Jo, give me that pen and paper."
|
|
|
|
Tearing off the blank side of one of her newly copied pages,
|
|
Jo drew the table before her mother, well knowing that money for the
|
|
long, sad journey must be borrowed, and feeling as if she could do
|
|
anything to add to a little to the sum for her father.
|
|
|
|
"Now go, dear, but don't kill yourself driving at a desperate
|
|
pace. There is no need of that."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. March's warning was evidently thrown away, for five minutes
|
|
later Laurie tore by the window on his own fleet horse, riding as if
|
|
for his life.
|
|
|
|
"Jo, run to the rooms, and tell Mrs. King that I can't come.
|
|
On the way get these things. I'll put them down, they'll be needed
|
|
and I must go prepared for nursing. Hospital stores are not always
|
|
good. Beth, go and ask Mr. Laurence for a couple of bottles of old
|
|
wine. I'm not too proud to beg for Father. He shall have the best
|
|
of everything. Amy, tell Hannah to get down the black trunk, and
|
|
Meg, come and help me find my things, for I'm half bewildered."
|
|
|
|
Writing, thinking, and directing all at once might well be-
|
|
wilder the poor lady, and Meg begged her to sit quietly in her
|
|
room for a little while, and let them work. Everyone scattered
|
|
like leaves before a gust of wind, and the quiet, happy household
|
|
was broken up as suddenly as if the paper had been an evil spell.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Laurence came hurrying back with Beth, bringing every
|
|
comfort the kind old gentleman could think of for the invalid, and
|
|
friendliest promises of protection for the girls during the mother's
|
|
absence, which comforted her very much. There was nothing he didn't
|
|
offer, from his own dressing gown to himself as escort. But the
|
|
last was impossible. Mrs. March would not hear of the old gentle-
|
|
man's undertaking the long journey, yet an expression of relief was
|
|
visible when he spoke of it, for anxiety ill fits one for traveling.
|
|
He saw the look, knit his heavy eyebrows, rubbed his hands, and
|
|
marched abruptly away, saying he'd be back directly. No one had
|
|
time to think of him again till, as Meg ran through the entry, with
|
|
a pair of rubbers in one hand and a cup of tea in the other, she
|
|
came suddenly upon Mr. Brooke.
|
|
|
|
"I'm very sorry to hear of this, Miss March," he said, in the
|
|
kind, quiet tone which sounded very pleasantly to her perturbed
|
|
spirit. "I came to offer myself as escort to your mother. Mr.
|
|
Laurence has commissions for me in Washington, and it will give me
|
|
real satisfaction to be of service to her there."
|
|
|
|
Down dropped the rubbers, and the tea was very near following,
|
|
as Meg put out her hand, with a face so full of gratitude that Mr.
|
|
Brooke would have felt repaid for a much greater sacrifice than
|
|
the trifling one of time and comfort which he was about to take.
|
|
|
|
"How kind you all are! Mother will accept, I'm sure, and it
|
|
will be such a relief to know that she has someone to take care of
|
|
her. Thank you very, very much!"
|
|
|
|
Meg spoke earnestly, and forgot herself entirely till some-
|
|
thing in the brown eyes looking down at her made her remember the
|
|
cooling tea, and lead the way into the parlor, saying she would
|
|
call her mother.
|
|
|
|
Everything was arranged by the time Laurie returned with a
|
|
note from Aunt March, enclosing the desired sum, and a few lines
|
|
repeating what she had often said before, that she had always told
|
|
them it was absurd for March to go into the army, always predicted
|
|
that no good would come of it, and she hoped they would take her
|
|
advice the next time. Mrs. March put the note in the fire, the
|
|
money in her purse, and went on with her preparations, with her
|
|
lips folded tightly in a way which Jo would have understood if she
|
|
had been there.
|
|
|
|
The short afternoon wore away. All other errands were done,
|
|
and Meg and her mother busy at some necessary needlework, while
|
|
Beth and Amy goth tea, and Hannah finished her ironing with what
|
|
she called a `slap and a bang', but still Jo did not come. They
|
|
began to get anxious, and Laurie went off to find her, for no one
|
|
knew what freak Jo might take into her head. He missed her, how-
|
|
ever, and she came walking in with a very queer expression of
|
|
countenance, for there was a mixture of fun and fear, satisfaction
|
|
and regret in it, which puzzled the family as much as did the roll
|
|
of bills she laid before her mother, saying with a little choke in
|
|
her voice, "That's my contribution toward making Father comfortable
|
|
and bringing him home!"
|
|
|
|
"My dear, where did you get it? Twenty-five dollars! Jo, I
|
|
hope you haven't done anything rash?"
|
|
|
|
"No, it's mine honestly. I didn't beg, borrow, or steal it. I
|
|
earned it, and I don't think you'll blame me, for I only sold what
|
|
was my own."
|
|
|
|
As she spoke, Jo took off her bonnet, and a general outcry arose,
|
|
for all her abundant hair was cut short.
|
|
|
|
"Your hair! Your beautiful hair!" "Oh, Jo, how could you? Your
|
|
one beauty." "My dear girl, there was no need of this." "She doesn't
|
|
look like my Jo any more, but I love her dearly for it!"
|
|
|
|
As everyone exclaimed, and Beth hugged the cropped head tenderly,
|
|
Jo assumed an indifferent air, which did not deceive anyone a particle,
|
|
and said, rumpling up the brown bush and trying to look as if she liked
|
|
it, "It doesn't affect the fate of the nation, so don't wail, Beth. It
|
|
will be good for my vanity, I getting too proud of my wig. It will do
|
|
my brains good to have that mop taken off. My head feels deliciously
|
|
light and cool, and the barber said I could soon have a curly crop,
|
|
which will be boyish, becoming, and easy to keep in order. I'm satis-
|
|
fied, so please take the money and let's have supper."
|
|
|
|
"Tell me all about it, Jo. I am not quite satisfied, but I can't
|
|
blame you, for I know how willingly you sacrificed your vanity, as
|
|
you call it, to your love. But, my dear, it was not necessary, and
|
|
I'm afraid you will regret it one of these days," said Mrs. March.
|
|
|
|
"No, I won't!" returned Jo stoutly, feeling much relieved that
|
|
her prank was not entirely condemned.
|
|
|
|
"What made you do it?" asked Amy, who would as soon have thought
|
|
of cutting off her head as her pretty hair.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I was wild to to something for Father," replied Jo, as
|
|
they gathered about the table, for healthy young people can eat even
|
|
in the midst of trouble. "I hate to borrow as much as Mother does,
|
|
and I knew Aunt March would croak, she always does, if you ask for
|
|
a ninepence. Meg gave all her quarterly salary toward the rent, and
|
|
I only got some clothes with mine, so I felt wicked, and was bound
|
|
to have some money, if I sold the nose off my face to get it."
|
|
|
|
"You needn't feel wicked, my child! You had no winter things and
|
|
got the simplest with your own hard earnings," said Mrs. March with a
|
|
look that warmed Jo's heart.
|
|
|
|
"I hadn't the least idea of selling my hair at first, but as I
|
|
went along I kept thinking what I could do, and feeling as if I'd
|
|
like to dive into some of the rich stores and help myself. In a
|
|
barber's window I saw tails of hair with the prices marked, and one
|
|
black tail, not so thick as mine, was forty dollars. It came to me
|
|
all of a sudden that I had one thing to make money out of, and with-
|
|
out stopping to think, I walked in, asked if they bought hair, and
|
|
what they would give for mine."
|
|
|
|
"I don't see how you dared to do it," said Beth in a tone of awe.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, he was a little man who looked as if he merely lived to oil
|
|
his hair. He rather stared at first, as if he wasn't used to having
|
|
girls bounce into his shop and ask him to buy their hair. He said he
|
|
didn't care about mine, it wasn't the fashionable color, and he never
|
|
paid much for it in the first place. The work he put it into it made
|
|
it dear, and so on. It was getting late, and I was afraid if it
|
|
wasn't done right away that I shouldn't have it done at all, and you
|
|
know when I start to do a thing, I hate to give it up. So I begged
|
|
him to take it, and told him why I was in such a hurry. It was
|
|
silly, I dare say, but it changed his mind, for I got rather excited,
|
|
and told the story in my topsy-turvy way, and his wife heard, and
|
|
said so kindly, `Take it, Thomas, and oblige the young lady. I'd do
|
|
as much for our Jimmy any day if I had a spire of hair worth selling."
|
|
|
|
"Who was Jimmy?" asked Amy, who liked to have things explained
|
|
as they went along.
|
|
|
|
"Her son, she said, who was in the army. How friendly such
|
|
things make strangers feel, don't they? She talked away all the
|
|
time the man clipped, and diverted my mind nicely."
|
|
|
|
"Didn't you feel dreadfully when the first cut came?" asked
|
|
Meg, with a shiver.
|
|
|
|
"I took a last look at my hair while the man got his things,
|
|
and that was the end of it. I never snivel over trifles like that.
|
|
I will confess, though, I felt queer when I saw the dear old hair
|
|
laid out on the table, and felt only the short rough ends of my head.
|
|
It almost seemed as if I'd an arm or leg off. The woman saw me look
|
|
at it, and picked out a long lock for me to keep. I'll give it to
|
|
you, Marmee, just to remember past glories by, for a crop is so
|
|
comfortable I don't think I shall ever have a mane again."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. March folded the wavy chestnut lock, and laid it away with
|
|
a short gray one in her desk. She only said, "Thank you, deary,"
|
|
but something in her face made the girls change the subject, and
|
|
talk as cheerfully as they could about Mr. Brooke's kindness, the
|
|
prospect of a fine day tomorrow, and the happy times they would have
|
|
when Father came home to be nursed.
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No one wanted to go to bed when at ten o'clock Mrs. March put
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by the last finished job, and said, "Come girls." Beth went to the
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piano and played the father's favorite hymn. All began bravely, but
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broke down one by one till Beth was left alone, singing with all her
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heart, for to her music was always a sweet consoler.
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"Go to bed and don't talk, for we must be up early and shall
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need all the sleep we can get. Good night, my darlings," said Mrs.
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March, as the hymn ended, for no one cared to try another.
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They kissed her quietly, and went to bed as silently as if the
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dear invalid lay in the next room. Beth and Amy soon fell asleep in
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spite of the great trouble, but Meg lay awake, thinking the most
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serious thoughts she had ever known in her short life. Jo lay motion-
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less, and her sister fancied that she was asleep, till a stifled sob
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made her exclaim, as she touched a wet cheek . . .
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"Jo, dear, what is it? Are you crying about father?"
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"No, not now."
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"What then?"
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"My . . . My hair!" burst out poor Jo, trying vainly to smother
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her emotion in the pillow.
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It did not seem at all comical to Meg, who kissed and caressed
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the afflicted heroine in the tenderest manner.
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"I'm not sorry," protested Jo, with a choke. "I'd do it again
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tomorrow, if I could. It's only the vain part of me that goes and
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cries in this silly way. Don't tell anyone, it's all over now. I
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thought you were asleep, so I just made a little private moan for my
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one beauty. How came you to be awake?"
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"I can't sleep, I'm so anxious," said Meg.
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"Think about something pleasant, and you'll soon drop off."
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"I tried it, but felt wider awake than ever."
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"What did you think of?"
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"Handsome faces--eyes particularly," answered Meg, smiling to
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herself in the dark.
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"What color do you like best?"
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"Brown, that is, sometimes. Blue are lovely."
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Jo, laughed, and Meg sharply ordered her not to talk, then
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amiably promised to make her hair curl, and fell asleep to dream of
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living in her castle in the air.
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The clocks were striking midnight and the rooms were very still
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as a figure glided quietly from bed to bed, smoothing a coverlet here,
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settling a pillow there, and pausing to look long and tenderly at each
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unconscious face, to kiss each with lips that mutely blessed, and to
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pray the fervent prayers which only mothers utter. As she lifted the
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curtain to look out into the dreary night, the moon broke suddenly
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from behind the clouds and shone upon her like a bright, benignant
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face, which seemed to whisper in the silence," Be comforted, dear
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soul! There is always light behind the clouds."
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CHAPTER SIXTEEN
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In the cold gray dawn the sisters lit their lamp and read
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their chapter with an earnestness never felt before. For now
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the shadow of a real trouble had come, the little books were full
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of help and comfort, and as they dressed, they agreed to say good-
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bye cheerfully and hopefully, and send their mother on her anxious
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journey unsaddened by tears or complaints from them. Everything
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seemed very strange when they went down, so dim and still outside,
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so full of light and bustle within. Breakfast at that early hour
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seemed odd, and even Hannah's familiar face looked unnatural as she
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flew about her kitchen with her nightcap on. The big trunk stood
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ready in the hall, Mother's cloak and bonnet lay on the sofa, and
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Mother herself sat trying to eat, but looking so pale and worn
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with sleeplessness and anxiety that the girls found it very hard
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to keep their resolution. Meg's eyes kept filling in spite of
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herself, Jo was obliged to hide her face in the kitchen roller
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more than once, ant the little girls wore a grave, troubled express-
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ion, as if sorrow was a new experience to them.
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Nobody talked much, but as the time drew very near and they
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sat waiting for the carriage, Mrs. March said to the girls, who
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were all busied about her, one folding her shawl, another smooth-
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ing out the strings of her bonnet, a third putting on her overshoes,
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and a forth fastening up her travelling bag . . .
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"Children, I leave you to Hannah's care and Mr. Laurence's
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protection. Hannah is faithfulness itself, and our good neighbor
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will guard you as if you were his own. I have no fears for you,
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yet I am anxious that you should take this trouble rightly. Don't
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grieve and fret when I am gone, or think that you can be idle and
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comfort yourselves by being idle and trying to forget. Go on
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with your work as usual, for work is a blessed solace. Hope and
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keep busy, and whatever happens, remember that you never can be
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fatherless."
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"Yes, Mother."
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"Meg, dear, be prudent, watch over your sisters, consult
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Hannah, and in any perplexity, go to Mr. Laurence. Be patient, Jo,
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don't get despondent or do rash things, write to me often, and be
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my brave girl, ready to help and cheer all. Beth, comfort yourself
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with your music, and be faithful to the little home duties, and You
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Amy, help all you can, be obedient, and keep happy safe at home."
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"We will, Mother! We will!"
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The rattle of an approaching carriage made them all start and
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listen. That was the hard minute, but the girls stood it well. No
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one cried, no one ran away or uttered a lamentation, though their
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hearts were very heavy as they sent loving messages to Father, rem-
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embering, as they spoke that it might be too late to deliver them.
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They kissed their mother quietly, clung about her tenderly, and
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tried to wave their hands cheerfully when she drove away.
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Laurie and his grandfather came over to see her off, and Mr.
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Brooke looked so strong and sensible and kind that the girls
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christened him `Mr. Greatheart' on the spot.
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"Goodby, my darlings! God bless and keep us all!" whispered
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Mrs. March, as she kissed one dear little face after the other,
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and hurried into the carriage.
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As she rolled away, the sun came out, and looking back, she
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|
saw it shining on the group at the gate like a good omen. They
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|
saw it also, and smiled and waved their hands, and the last thing
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|
she beheld as she turned the corner was the four bright faces, and
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behind them like a bodyguard, old Mr. Laurence, faithful Hannah,
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and devoted Laurie.
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"How kind everyone is to us!" she said, turning to find fresh
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|
proof of it in the respectful sympathy of the young man's face.
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"I don't see how they can help it," returned Mr. Brooke, laugh-
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|
ing so infectiously that Mrs. March could not help smiling. And so
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|
the journey began with the good omens of sunshine, smiles, and
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cheerful words.
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"I feel as if there had been an earthquake," said Jo, as their
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neighbors went home to breakfast, leaving them to rest and refresh
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themselves.
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"It seems as if half the house was gone," added Meg forlornly.
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Beth opened her lips to say something, but could only point to
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the pile of nicely mended hose which lay on Mother's table, showing
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that even in her last hurried moments she had thought and worked
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|
for them. It was a little thing, but it went straight to their
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|
hearts, and in spite of their brave resolutions, they all broke
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down and cried bitterly.
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Hannah wisely allowed them to relieve their feelings, and
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|
when the shower showed signs of clearing up, she came to the
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rescue, armed with a coffeepot.
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"Now, ny dear young ladies, remember what your ma said, and
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don't fret. Come and have a cup of coffee all round, and then
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|
let's fall to work and be a credit to the family."
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Coffee was a treat, and Hannah showed great tact in making it
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that morning. No one could resist her persuasive nods, or the
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|
fragrant invitation issuing from the nose of the coffee pot. They
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drew up to the table, exchanged their handkerchiefs for napkins,
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|
and in ten minutes were all right again.
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"`Hope and keep busy', that's the motto for us, so let's see
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|
who will remember it best. I shall go to Aunt March, as usual.
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Oh, won't she lecture though!" said Jo, as she sipped with return-
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|
ing spirit.
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"I shall go to my Kings, though I'd much rather stay at home
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|
and attend to things here," said Meg, wishing she hadn't made her
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|
eyes so red.
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"No need of that. Beth and I can keep house perfectly well,"
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|
put in Amy, with an important air.
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"Hannah will tell us what to do, and we'll have everything
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|
nice when you come home," added Beth, getting out her mop and dish
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|
tub without delay.
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"I think anxiety is very interesting," observed Amy, eating
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|
sugar pensively.
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The girls couldn't help laughing, and felt better for it,
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|
though Meg shook her head at the young lady who could find consol-
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|
ation in a sugar bowl.
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The sight of the turnovers made Jo sober again, and when the
|
|
two went out to their daily tasks, they looked sorrowfully back
|
|
at the window where they were accustomed to see their mother's
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|
face. It was gone, but Beth had remembered the little household
|
|
ceremony, and there she was, nodding away at them like a rosy-
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|
faced mandarin.
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|
"That's so like my Beth!" said Jo, waving her hat, with a
|
|
grateful face. "Goodbye, Meggy, I hope the Kings won't strain
|
|
today. Don't fret about Father, dear," she added, as they parted.
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|
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|
"And I hope Aunt March won't croak. Your hair is becoming,
|
|
and it looks very boyish and nice," returned Meg, trying not to
|
|
smile at the curly head, which looked comically small on her tall
|
|
sister's shoulders.
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|
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|
"That's my only comfort." And, touching her hat a` la Laurie,
|
|
away went Jo, feeling like a shorn sheep on a wintry day.
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|
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|
News from their father comforted the girls very much, for
|
|
though dangerously ill, the presence of the best and tenderest of
|
|
nurses had already done him good. Mr. Brooke sent a bulletin every
|
|
day, and as the head of the family, Meg insisted on reading the
|
|
dispatches, which grew more cheerful as the week passed. At first,
|
|
everyone was eager to write, and plump envelopes were carefully
|
|
poked into the letter box by one or other of the sisters, who felt
|
|
rather important with their Washington correspondence. As one of
|
|
these packets contained characteristic notes from the party, we will
|
|
rob an imaginary mail, and read them.
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|
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|
My dearest Mother:
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|
|
|
It is impossible to tell you how happy your last letter made
|
|
us, for the news was so good we couldn't help laughing and crying
|
|
over it. How very kind Mr. Brooke is, and how fortunate that Mr.
|
|
Laurence's business detains him near you so long, since he is so
|
|
useful to you and Father. The girls are all as good as gold. Jo
|
|
helps me with the sewing, and insists on doing all sorts of hard
|
|
jobs. I should be afraid she might overdo, if I didn't know her
|
|
`moral fit' wouldn't last long. Beth is as regular about her tasks
|
|
as a clock, and never forgets what you told her. She grieves about
|
|
Father, and looks sober except when she is at her little piano. Amy
|
|
minds me nicely, and I take great care of her. She does her own
|
|
hair, and I am teaching her to make buttonholes and mend her stock-
|
|
ings. She tries very hard, and I know you will be pleased with her
|
|
improvement when you come. Mr. Laurence watches over us like a
|
|
motherly old hen, as Jo says, and Laurie is very kind and neighborly.
|
|
He and Jo keep us merry, for we get pretty blue sometimes, and feel
|
|
like orphans, with you so far away. Hannah is a perfect saint. She
|
|
does not scold at all, and always calls me Miss Margaret, which is
|
|
quite proper, you know, and treats me with respect. We are all
|
|
well and busy, but we long, day and night, to have you back. Give
|
|
my dearest love to Father, and believe me, ever your own . . .
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|
|
|
MEG
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|
This note, prettily written on scented paper, was a great
|
|
contrast to the next, which was scribbled on a big sheet of thin
|
|
foreign paper, ornamented with blots and all manner of flourishes
|
|
and curly-tailed letters.
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|
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|
My precious Marmee:
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|
|
|
Three cheers for dear Father! Brooke was a trump to telegraph
|
|
right off, and let us know the minute he was better. I rushed up
|
|
garret when the letter came, and tried to thank god for being so
|
|
good to us, but I could only cry, and say, "I'm glad! I'm glad!"
|
|
Didn't that do as well as a regular prayer? For I felt a great
|
|
many in my heart. We have such funny times, and now I can enjoy
|
|
them, for everyone is so desperately good, it's like living in a
|
|
nest of turtledoves. You'd laugh to see Meg head the table and
|
|
try to be motherish. She gets prettier every day, and I'm in love
|
|
with her sometimes. The children are regular archangels, and I--
|
|
well, I'm Jo, and never shall be anything else. Oh, I must tell
|
|
you that I came near having a quarrel with Laurie. I freed my mind
|
|
about a silly little thing, and he was offended. I was right, but
|
|
didn't speak as I ought, and he marched home, saying he wouldn't
|
|
come again till I begged pardon. I declared I wouldn't and got mad.
|
|
It lasted all day. I felt bad and wanted you very much. Laurie and
|
|
I are both so proud, it's hard to beg pardon. But I thought he'd
|
|
come to it, for I was in the right. He didn't come, and just at
|
|
night I remembered what you said when Amy fell into the river. I
|
|
read my little book, felt better, resolved not to let the sun set
|
|
on my anger, and ran over to tell Laurie I was sorry. I met him
|
|
at the gate, coming for the same thing. We both laughed, begged
|
|
each other's pardon, and felt all good and comfortable again.
|
|
|
|
I made a `pome' yesterday, when I was helping Hannah wash,
|
|
and as Father likes my silly little things, I put it in to amuse
|
|
him. Give him my lovingest hug that ever was, and kiss yourself
|
|
a dozen times for your . . .
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|
|
|
TOPSY-TURVY JO
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|
A SONG FROM THE SUDS
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|
|
Queen of my tub, I merrily sing,
|
|
While the white foam rises high,
|
|
And sturdily wash and rinse and wring,
|
|
And fasten the clothes to dry.
|
|
Then out in the free fresh air they swing,
|
|
Under the sunny sky.
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|
|
|
I wish we could wash from out hearts and souls
|
|
The stains of the week away,
|
|
And let water and air by their magic make
|
|
Ourselves as pure as they.
|
|
Then on the earth there would be indeed,
|
|
A glorious washing day!
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|
|
|
Along the path of a useful life,
|
|
Will heartsease ever bloom.
|
|
The busy mind has no time to think
|
|
Of sorrow or care or gloom.
|
|
And anxious thoughts may be swept away,
|
|
As we bravely wield a broom.
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|
|
|
I am glad a task to me is given,
|
|
To labor at day by day,
|
|
For it brings me health and strength and hope,
|
|
And I cheerfully learn to say,
|
|
"Head, you may think, Heart, you may feel,
|
|
But, Hand, you shall work alway!"
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|
|
|
Dear Mother,
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|
|
|
There is only room for me to send my love, and some pressed
|
|
pansies from the root I have been keeping safe in the house for
|
|
Father to see. I read every morning, try to be good all day, and
|
|
sing myself to sleep with Father's tune. I can't sing `LAND OF
|
|
THE LEAL' now, it makes me cry. Everyone is very kind, and we are
|
|
as happy as we can be without you. Amy wants the rest of the page,
|
|
so I must stop. I didn't forget to cover the holders, and I wind
|
|
the clock and air the rooms every day.
|
|
|
|
Kiss dear Father on the cheek he calls mine. Oh, do come soon
|
|
to your loving . ..
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|
|
LITTLE BETH
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|
Ma Chere Mamma,
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|
|
|
We are all well I do my lessons always and never corroberate
|
|
the girls--Meg says I mean contradick so I put in both words and
|
|
you can take the properest. Meg is a great comfort to me and lets
|
|
me have jelly every night at tea its so good for me Jo says because
|
|
it keeps me sweet tempered. Laurie is not as respeckful as he ought
|
|
to be now I am almost in my teens, he calls me Chick and hurts my
|
|
feelings by talking French to me very fast when I say Merci or Bon
|
|
jour as Hattie King does. The sleeves of my blue dress were all
|
|
worn out, and Meg put in new ones, but the full front came wrong
|
|
and they are more blue than the dress. I felt bad but did not fret
|
|
I bear my troubles well but I do wish Hannah would put more starch
|
|
in my aprons and have buckwheats every day. Can't she? Didn't I
|
|
make that interrigation point nice? Meg says my punchtuation and
|
|
spelling are disgraceful and I am mortyfied but dear me I have so
|
|
many things to do, I can't stop. Adieu, I send heaps of love to
|
|
Papa. Your affectionate daughter . ..
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|
|
AMY CURTIS MARCH
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|
|
Dear Mis March,
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|
|
|
I jes drop a line to say we git on fust rate. The girls is
|
|
clever and fly round right smart. Miss Meg is going to make a
|
|
proper good housekeeper. She hes the liking for it, and gits the
|
|
hang of things surprisin quick. Jo doos beat all for goin ahead,
|
|
but she don't stop to cal'k'late fust, and you never know where
|
|
she's like to bring up. She done out a tub of clothes on Monday,
|
|
but she starched 'em afore they was wrenched, and blued a pink
|
|
calico dress till I thought I should a died a laughin. Beth is the
|
|
best of little creeters, and a sight of help to me, bein so fore-
|
|
handed and dependable. She tries to learn everything, and really
|
|
goes to market beyond her years, likewise keeps accounts, with my
|
|
help, quite wonderful. We have got on very economical so fur. I
|
|
don't let the girls hev coffee only once a week, accordin to your
|
|
wish, and keep em on plain wholesome vittles. Amy does well with-
|
|
out frettin, wearin her best clothes and eatin sweet stuff. Mr.
|
|
Laurie is as full of didoes as usual, and turns the house upside
|
|
down frequent, but he heartens the girls, so I let em hev full
|
|
swing. The old gentleman send heaps of things, and is rather
|
|
wearin, but means wal, and it aint my place to say nothin. My
|
|
bread is riz, so no more at this time. I send my duty to Mr.
|
|
March, and hope he's seen the last of his Pewmonia.
|
|
|
|
Yours respectful,
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|
|
|
HANNAH MULLET
|
|
|
|
Head Nurse of Ward No. 2,
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|
|
|
All serene on the Rappahannock, troops in fine condition,
|
|
commisary department well conducted, the Home Guard under Colonel
|
|
Teddy always on duty, Commander in Chief General Laurence reviews
|
|
the army daily, Quartermaster Mullet keeps order in camp, and Major
|
|
Lion does picket duty at night. A salute of twenty-four guns was
|
|
fired on reciept of good news from Washington, and a dress parade
|
|
took place at headquarters. Commander in chief sends best wishes,
|
|
in which he is heartily joined by . . .
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|
|
COLONEL TEDDY
|
|
|
|
Dear Madam:
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|
|
|
The little girls are all well. Beth and my boy report daily.
|
|
Hannah is a model servant, and guards pretty Meg like a dragon.
|
|
Glad the fine weather holds. Pray make Brooke useful, and draw
|
|
on me for funds if expenses exceed your estimate. Don't let your
|
|
husband want anything. Thank God he is mending.
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|
|
|
Your sincere friend and servant,
|
|
JAMES LAURENCE
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|
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
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|
|
|
For a week the amount of virtue in the old house would have
|
|
supplied the neighborhood. It was really amazing, for everyone
|
|
seemed in a heavenly frame of mind, and self-denial was all the
|
|
fashion. Relieved of their first anxiety about their father,
|
|
girls insensibly relaxed their praiseworthy efforts a little,
|
|
and began to fall back into old ways. They did not forget
|
|
their motto, but hoping and keeping busy seemed to grow easier,
|
|
and after such tremendous exertions, they felt that Endeavor
|
|
deserved a holiday, and gave it a good many.
|
|
|
|
Jo caught a bad cold through neglect to cover the shorn
|
|
head enough, and was ordered to stay at home till she was better,
|
|
for Aunt March didn't like to hear people read with colds in
|
|
their heads. Jo liked this, and after an energetic rummage from
|
|
garret to cellar, subsided on the sofa to nurse her cold with
|
|
arsenicum and books. Amy found that housework and art did not
|
|
go well together, and returned to her mud pies. Meg went daily
|
|
to her pupils, and sewed, or thought she did, at home, but much
|
|
time was spent in writing long letters to her mother, or reading
|
|
the Washington dispatches over and over. Beth kept on, with only
|
|
slight relapses into idleness or grieving.
|
|
|
|
All the little duties were faithfully done each day, and
|
|
many of her sisters' also, for they were forgetful, and the house
|
|
seemed like a clock whose pendulum was gone a-visiting. When her
|
|
heart got heavy with longings for Mother or fears for Father, she
|
|
went away into a certain closet, hid her face in the folds of a
|
|
dear old gown, and made her little moan and prayed her little
|
|
prayer quietly by herself. Nobody knew what cheered her up after
|
|
a sober fit, but everyone felt how sweet and helpful Beth was, and
|
|
fell into a way of going to her for comfort or advice in their
|
|
small affairs.
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All were unconscious that this experience was a test of
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character, and when the first excitement was over, felt that they
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had done well and deserved praise. So they did, but their mis-
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take was in ceasing to do well, and they learned this lesson
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through much anxiety and regret.
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"Meg, I wish you'd go and see the Hummels. You know Mother
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told us not to forget them." said Beth, ten days after Mrs. March's
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departure.
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"I'm too tired to go this afternoon," re;lied Meg, rocking
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comfortably as she sewed.
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"Can't you, Jo?' asked Beth.
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"Too stormy for me with my cold."
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"I thought it was almost well."
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"It's well enough for me to go out with Laurie, but not well
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enough to go to the Hummels'," said Jo, laughing, but looking a
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little ashamed of her inconsistency.
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"Why don't you go yourself?" asked Meg.
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"I have been every day, but the baby is sick, and I don't
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know what to do for it. Mrs. Hummel goes away to work, and Lott-
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chen takes care of it. But it gets sicker and sicker, and I think
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you or Hannah ought to go."
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Beth spoke earnestly, and Meg promised she would go tomorrow.
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"Ask Hannah for some nice little mess, and take it round, Beth,
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the air will do you good," said Jo, adding apologetically, "I'd go
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but I want to finish my writing."
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"My head aches and I'm tired, so I thought maybe some of you
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would go," said Beth.
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"Amy will be in presently, and she will run down for us,
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suggested Meg.
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So Beth lay down on the sofa, the others returned to their work,
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and the Hummels were forgotten. An hour passed. Amy did not come,
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Meg went to her room to try on a new dress, Jo was absorbed in her
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story, and Hannah was sound asleep before the kitchen fire,when
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Beth quietly put on her hood, filled her basket with odds and ends
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for the poor children, and went out into the chilly air with a heavy
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head and a grieved look in her patient eyes. It was late when she
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came back, and no one saw her creep upstairs and shut herself into
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her mother's room. Half an hour after, Jo went to `Mother's closet'
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for something, and there found little Beth sitting on the medicine
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chest, looking very grave, with red eyes and a camphor bottle in
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her hand.
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"Christopher Columbus! What's the matter?" cried Jo, as Beth
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put out her hand as if to warn her off, and asked quickly, "You've
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had the scarlet fever, havent't you?"
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"Years ago, when Meg did. Why?'
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"Then I'll tell you. Oh, Jo, the baby's dead!"
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"What baby?"
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"Mrs. Hummel's. It died in my lap before she got home," cried
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Beth with a sob.
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"My poor dear, how dreadful for you! I ought to have gone,"
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said Jo, taking her sister in her arms as she sat down in her
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mother's bit chair, with a remorseful face.
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"It wasn't dreadful, Jo, only so sad! I saw in a minute it
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was sicker, but Lottchen said her mother had gone for a doctor, so
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I took Baby and let Lotty rest. It seemed asleep, but all of a
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sudden if gave a little cry and trembled, and then lay very still.
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I tried to warm its feet, and Lotty gave it some milk, but it didn't
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stir, and I knew it was dead."
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"Don't cry, dear! What did you do?"
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"I just sat and held it softly till Mrs. Hummel came with the
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doctor. He said it was dead, and looked at Heinrich and Minna, who
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have sore throats. `Scarlet fever, ma'am. Ought to have called me
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before,' he said crossly. Mrs. Hummel told him she was poor, and
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had tried to cure baby herself, but now it was too late, and she
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could only ask him to help the others and trust to charity for his
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pay. He smiled then, and was kinder, but it was very sad, and I
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cried with them till he turned round all of a sudden, and told me
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to go home and take belladonna right away, or I'd have the fever."
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"No, you won't!" cried Jo, hugging her close, with a frightened
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look. "Oh, Beth, if you should be sick I never could forgive myself!
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What shall we do?"
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"Don't be frightened, I guess I shan't have it badly. I looked
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in Mother's book, and saw that it begins with headache, sore throat,
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and queer feelings like mine, so I did take some belladonna, and I
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feel better," said Beth, laying her cold hands on her hot forehead
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and trying to look well.
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"If Mother was only at home!" exclaimed Jo, seizing the book,
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and feeling that Washington was an immense way off. She read a page,
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looked at Beth, felt her head, peeped into her throat, and then
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said gravely, "You've been over the baby every day for more than a
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week, and among the others who are going to have it, so I'm afraid
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you are going to have it, Beth. I'll call Hannah, she knows all
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about sickness."
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"Don't let Amy come. She never had it, and I should hate to
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give it to her. Can't you and Meg have it over again?" asked Beth,
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anxiously.
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"I guess not. Don't care if I do. Serve me right, selfish pig,
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to let you go, and stay writing rubbish myself!" muttered Jo, as she
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went to consult Hannah.
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The good soul was wide awake in a minute, and took the lead at
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once, assuring that there was no need to worry; every one had scarlet
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|
fever, and if rightly treated, nobody died, all of which Jo believed,
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|
and felt much relieved as they went up to call Meg.
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"Now I'll tell you what we'll do," said Hannah, when she had
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examined and questioned Beth, "we will have Dr. Bangs, just to take
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a look at you, dear, and see that we start right. Then we'll send
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Amy off to Aunt March's for a spell, to keep her out of harm's way,
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and one of you girls can stay at home and amuse Beth for a day or two."
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"I shall stay, of course, I'm oldest," began Meg, looking anxious
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and self-reproachful.
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"I shall, because it's my fault she is sick. I told Mother I'd
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do the errands, and I haven't," said Jo decidedly.
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"Which will you have, Beth? There ain't no need of but one,"
|
|
said Hannah.
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"Jo, please." And Beth leaned her head against her sister with
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a contented look, which effectually settled that point.
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|
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"I'll go and tell Amy," said Meg, feeling a little hurt, yet
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|
rather relieved on the whole, for she did not like nursing, and Jo
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|
did.
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Amy rebelled outright, and passionately declared that she had
|
|
rather have the fever than go to Aunt March. Meg reasoned, pleaded,
|
|
and commanded, all in vain. Amy protested that she would not go,
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|
and Meg left her in despair to ask Hannah what should be done. Before
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she came back, Laurie walked into the parlor to find Amy sobbing, with
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her head in the sofa cushions. She told her story, expecting to be
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consoled, but Laurie only put his hands in his pockets and walked
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|
about the room, whistling softly, as he knit his brows in deep
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|
thought. Presently he sat down beside her, and said, in his most
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|
wheedlesome tone, "Now be a sensible little woman, and do as they say.
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|
No, don't cry, but hear what a jolly plan I've got. You go to Aunt
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|
March's, and I'll come and take you out every day, driving or walking,
|
|
and we'll have capital times. Won't that be better than moping here?"
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|
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"I don't wish to be sent off as if I was in the way," began Amy,
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|
in an injured voice.
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"Bless your heart, child, it's to keep you well. You don't
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|
want to be sick, do you?"
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"No, I'm sure I don't, but I dare say I shall be, for I've been
|
|
with Beth all the time."
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|
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"That's the very reason you ought to go away at once, so that
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|
you may escape it. Change of air and care will keep you well, I
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|
dare say, or if it does not entirely, you will have the fever more
|
|
lightly. I advise you to be off as soon as you can, for scarlet fever
|
|
is no joke, miss."
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|
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"But it's dull at Aunt March's, and she is so cross," said Amy,
|
|
looking rather frightened.
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|
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|
"It won't be dull with me popping; in every day to tell you how
|
|
Beth is, and take you out gallivanting. The old lady likes me, and
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|
I'll be as sweet as possible to her, so she won't peck at us, what-
|
|
ever we do."
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|
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"Will you take me out in the trotting wagon with Puck?"
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"On my honor as a gentleman."
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|
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|
"And come every single day?"
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"See if I don't/"
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|
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|
"And bring me back the minute Beth is well?"
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|
"The identical minute."
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|
|
|
"And go to the theater, truly?"
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|
|
|
"A dozen theaters, if we may."
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|
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|
"Well--I guess I will," said Amy slowly.
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|
|
|
"Good girl! Call Meg, and tell her you'll give in," said
|
|
Laurie, with an approving pat, which annoyed Amy more than the
|
|
`giving in'.
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|
|
|
Meg and Jo came running down to behold the miracle which had
|
|
been wrought, and Amy, feeling very precious and self-sacrificing,
|
|
promised to go, if the doctor said Beth was going to be ill.
|
|
|
|
"How is the little dear?" asked Laurie, for Beth was his
|
|
especial pet, and he felt more anxious about her than he liked to
|
|
show.
|
|
|
|
"She is lying down on Mother's bed, and feels better. The
|
|
baby's death troubled her, but I dare say she has only got cold.
|
|
Hannah says she thinks so, but she looks worried, and that makes me
|
|
fidgety," answered Meg.
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|
|
|
"What a trying world it is!" said Jo, rumpling up her hair in
|
|
a fretful way. "No sooner do we get out of one trouble than down
|
|
comes another. There doesn't seem to be anything to hold on to
|
|
when Mother's gone, so I'm all at sea."
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|
|
|
"Well, don't make a porcupine of yourself, it isn't becoming.
|
|
Settle your wig, Jo, and tell me if I shall telegraph to your mother,
|
|
or do anything?" asked Laurie, who never had been reconciled to the
|
|
loss of his friend's one beauty.
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|
|
|
"That is what troubles me," said Meg. "I think we ought to tell
|
|
her if Beth is really ill, but Hannah says we mustn't, for Mother
|
|
can't leave Father, and it will only make them anxious. Beth won't
|
|
be sick long, and Hannah knows just what to do, and Mother said we
|
|
were to mind her, so I suppose we must, but it doesn't seem quite
|
|
right to me."
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|
|
|
"Hum, well, I can't say. Suppose you ask Grandfather after
|
|
the doctor has been."
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|
|
|
"We will. Jo, go and get Dr. Bangs at once," commanded Meg.
|
|
"We can't decide anything till he has been."
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|
|
|
"Stay where you are, Jo. I'm errand boy to this establish-
|
|
ment," said Laurie, taking up his cap.
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid you are busy," began Meg.
|
|
|
|
"No, I've done my lessons for the day."
|
|
|
|
"Do you study in vacation time?" asked Jo.
|
|
|
|
"I follow the good example my neighbors set me," was Laurie's
|
|
answer, as he swung himself out of the room.
|
|
|
|
"I have great hopes for my boy," observed Jo, watching him
|
|
fly over the fence with an approving smile.
|
|
|
|
"He does very well, for a boy," was Meg's somewhat ungracious
|
|
answer, for the subject did not interest her.
|
|
|
|
Dr. Bangs came, said Beth had symptoms of the fever, but he
|
|
thought she would have it lightly, though he looked sober over the
|
|
Hummel story. Amy was ordered off at once, and provided with some-
|
|
thing to ward off danger, she departed in great state, with Jo and
|
|
Laurie as escort.
|
|
|
|
Aunt March received them with her usual hospitality.
|
|
|
|
"What do you want now?" she asked, looking sharply over her
|
|
spectacles, while the parrot, sitting on the back of her chair,
|
|
called out . . .
|
|
|
|
"Go away. No boys allowed her."
|
|
|
|
Laurie retired to the window, and Jo told her story.
|
|
|
|
"No more than I expected, if you are allowed to go poking
|
|
about among poor folks. Amy can stay and make herself useful
|
|
if she isn't sick, which I've no doubt she will be, looks like
|
|
it now. Don't cry, child, it worries me to hear people sniff."
|
|
|
|
Amy was on the point of crying, but Laurie slyly pulled the
|
|
parrot's tail, which caused Polly to utter an astonished croak and
|
|
call out, "Bless my boots!" in such a funny way, that she laughed
|
|
instead.
|
|
|
|
"What do you hear from your mother?" asked the old lady
|
|
gruffly.
|
|
|
|
"Father is much better," replied Jo, trying to keep sober.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, is her? Well, that won't last long, I fancy. March
|
|
never had any stamina," was the cheerful reply.
|
|
|
|
"Ha, ha! Never say die, take a pinch of snuff, goodbye, good-
|
|
bye!" squalled Polly, dancing on her perch, and clawing at the old
|
|
lady's cap as Laurie tweaked him in the rear.
|
|
|
|
"Hold your tongue, you disrespectful old bird! And, Jo, you'd
|
|
better go at once. It isn't proper to be gadding about so late with
|
|
a rattlepated boy like . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Hold your tongue, you disrespectful old bird!" cried Polly,
|
|
tumbling off the chair with a bounce, and running to peck the
|
|
`rattlepated' boy, who was shaking with laughter at the last speech.
|
|
|
|
"I don't think I can bear it, but I'll try," thought Amy, as
|
|
she was left alone with Aunt March.
|
|
|
|
"Get along, you fright!" screamed Polly, and at that rude speech
|
|
Amy could not restrain a sniff.
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|
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
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|
|
Beth did have the fever, and was much sicker than anyone but
|
|
Hannah and the doctor suspected. The girls knew nothing about ill-
|
|
ness, and Mr. Laurence was not allowed to see her, so Hannah had
|
|
everything her own way, and busy Dr. Bangs did his best, but left a
|
|
good deal to the excellent nurse. Meg stayed at home, lest she
|
|
should infect the Kings, and kept house, feeling very anxious and a
|
|
little guilty when she wrote letters in which no mention was made of
|
|
Beth's illness. She could not think it right to deceive her mother,
|
|
but she had been bidden to mind Hannah, and Hannah wouldn't hear of
|
|
`Mrs. March bein' told, and worried just for sech a trifle.'
|
|
|
|
Jo devoted herself to Beth day and night, not a hard task, for
|
|
Beth was very patient, and bore her pain uncomplainingly as long as
|
|
she could control herself. But there came a time when during the
|
|
fever fits she began to talk in a hoarse, broken voice, to play on
|
|
the coverlet as if on her beloved little piano, and try to sing with
|
|
a throat so swollen that there was no music left, a time when she
|
|
did not know the familiar faces around her, but addressed them by
|
|
wrong names, and called imploringly for her mother. Then Jo grew
|
|
frightened, Meg begged to be allowed to write the truth, and even
|
|
Hannah said she `would think of it, though there was no danger
|
|
yet'. A letter from Washington added to their trouble, for Mr.
|
|
March had had a relapse, and could not think of coming home for a
|
|
long while.
|
|
|
|
How dark the days seemed now, how sad and lonely the house,
|
|
and how heavy were the hearts of the sisters as they worked and
|
|
waited, while the shadow of death hovered over the once happy home.
|
|
Then it was that Margaret, sitting alone with tears dropping often
|
|
on her work, felt how rich she had been in things more precious
|
|
than any luxuries money could buy--in love, protection,, peace, and
|
|
health, the real blessings of life. Then it was that Jo, living in
|
|
the darkened room, with that suffering little sister always before
|
|
her eyes and that pathetic voice sounding in her ears, learned to
|
|
see the beauty and to sweetness of Beth's nature, to feel how deep
|
|
and tender a place she filled in all hearts, and to acknowledge the
|
|
worth of Beth's unselfish ambition to live for others, and make
|
|
home happy by that exercise of those simple virtues which all may
|
|
possess, and which all should love and value more than talent, wealth,
|
|
or beauty. And Amy, in her exile, longed eagerly to be at home, that
|
|
she might work for Beth, feeling now that no service would be hard or
|
|
irksome, and remembering, with regretful grief, how many neglected
|
|
tasks those willing hands had done for her. Laurie haunted the house
|
|
like a restless ghost, and Mr. Laurence locke the grand piano, because
|
|
he could not bear to be reminded of the young neighbor who used to
|
|
make the twilight pleasant for him. Everyone missed Beth. The milk-
|
|
man, baker, grocer, and butcher inquired how she did, poor Mrs.
|
|
Hummel came to beg pardon for her thoughtlessness and to get a shroud
|
|
for Minna, the neighbors sent all sorts of comforts and good wishes,
|
|
and even those who knew her best were surprised to find how many
|
|
friends shy little Beth had made.
|
|
|
|
Meanwhile she lay on her bed with old Joanna at her side, for
|
|
even in her wanderings she did not forget her forlorn protege. She
|
|
longed for her cats, but would not have them brought, lest they
|
|
should get sick, and in her quiet hours she was full of anxiety
|
|
about Jo. She sent loving messages to Amy, bade them tell her mother
|
|
that she would write soon, and often begged for pencil and paper to
|
|
try to say a word, that Father might not think she had neglected him.
|
|
But soon even these intervals of consciousness ended, and she lay
|
|
hour after hour, tossing to and fro, with incoherent words on her
|
|
lips, or sank into a heavy sleep which brought her no refreshment.
|
|
Dr. Bangs came twice a day, Hannah sat up at night, Meg kept a
|
|
telegram in her desk all ready to send off at any minute, and Jo
|
|
never stirred from Beth's side.
|
|
|
|
The first of December was a wintry day indeed to them, for a
|
|
bitter wind blew, snow fell fast, and the year seemed getting ready
|
|
for its death. When Dr. Bangs came that morning, he looked long at
|
|
Beth, held the hot hand in both his own for a minute, and laid it
|
|
gently down, saying, in a low voice to Hannah, "If Mrs. March can
|
|
leave her husband she'd better be sent for."
|
|
|
|
Hannah nodded without speaking, for her lips twitched nervously,
|
|
Meg dropped down into a chair as the strength seemed to go out of
|
|
her limbs at the sound of those words, and Jo, standing with a pale
|
|
face for a minute, ran to the parlor, snatched up the telegram, and
|
|
throwing on her things, rushed out into the storm. She was soon
|
|
back, and while noiselessly taking off her cloak, Laurie came in
|
|
with a letter, saying that Mr. March was mending again. Jo read
|
|
it thankfully, but the heavy weight did not seem lifted off her
|
|
heart, and her face was so full of misery that Laurie asked quickly,
|
|
"What is it? Is Beth worse?"
|
|
|
|
"I've sent for Mother," said Jo, tugging at her rubber boots
|
|
with a tragic expression.
|
|
|
|
"Good for you, Jo! Did you do it on your own responsibility?"
|
|
asked Laurie, as he seated her in the hall chair and took off the
|
|
rebellious boots, seeing how her hands shook.
|
|
|
|
"No. The doctor told us to."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, Jo, it's not so bad as that?" cried Laurie, with a
|
|
startled face.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it is. She doesn't know us, she doesn't even talk about
|
|
the flocks of green doves, as she calls the vine leaves on the wall.
|
|
She doesn't look like my Beth, and there's nobody to help us bear it.
|
|
Mother and father both gone, and God seems so far away I can't find
|
|
Him."
|
|
|
|
As the tears streamed fast down poor Jo's cheeks, she stretched
|
|
out her hand in a helpless sort of way, as if groping in the dark,
|
|
and Laurie took it in his, whispering as well as he could with a
|
|
lump in his throat, "I'm here. Hold on tome, Jo, dear!"
|
|
|
|
She could not speak, but she did `hold on', and the warm grasp
|
|
of the friendly human hand comforted her sore heart, and seemed to
|
|
lead her nearer to the Divine arm which alone could uphold her in
|
|
her trouble.
|
|
|
|
Laurie longed to say something tender and comfortable, but no
|
|
fitting words came to him, so he stood silent, gently stroking her
|
|
bent head as her mother used to do. It was the best thing he could
|
|
have done, far more soothing than the most eloquent words, for Jo
|
|
felt the unspoken sympathy, and in the silence learned the sweet
|
|
solace which affection administers to sorrow. Soon she dried the
|
|
tears which had relieved her, and looked up with a grateful face.
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, Teddy, I'm better now. I don't feel so forlorn,
|
|
and will try to bear it if it comes."
|
|
|
|
"Keep hoping for the best, that will help you, Jo. Soon your
|
|
mother will be here, and then everything will be all right."
|
|
|
|
"I'm so glad Father is better. Now she won't feel so bad about
|
|
leaving him. Oh, me! It does seem as if all the troubles came in
|
|
a heap, and I got the heaviest part on my shoulders," sighed Jo,
|
|
spreading her wet handkerchief over her knees to dry.
|
|
|
|
"Doesn't Meg pull fair?" asked Laurie, looking indignant.
|
|
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"Oh, yes, she tries to, but she can't love Bethy as I do, and
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she won't miss her as I shall. Beth is my conscience, and I can't
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give her up. I can't! I can't!"
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Down went Jo's face into the wet handkerchief, and she cried
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despairingly, for she had kept up bravely till now and never shed
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a tear. Laurie drew his hand across his eyes, but could not speak
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till he had subdued the choky feeling in his throat and steadied his
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lips. It might be unmanly, but he couldn't help it, and I am glad
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of it. Presently, as Jo's sobs quieted, he said hopefully, "I
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don't think she will die. She's so good, and we all love her so
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much, I don't believe God will take her away yet."
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"The good and dear people always do die," groaned Jo, but she
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stopped crying, for her friend's words cheered her up in spite of
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her own doubts and fears.
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"Poor girl, you're worn out. It isn't like you to be forlorn.
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Stop a bit. I'll hearten you up in a jiffy."
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Laurie went off two stairs at a time, and Jo laid her wearied
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head down on Beth's little brown hood, which no one had thought of
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moving from the table where she left it. It must have possessed
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some magic, for the submissive spirit of its gentle owner seemed
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to enter into Jo, and when Laurie came running down with a glass
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of wine, she took it with a smile, and said bravely, "I drink--
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Health to my Beth! You are a good doctor, Teddy, and such a comfort-
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able friend. How can I ever pay you?" she added, as the wine
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refreshed her body, as the kind words had done her troubled mind.
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"I'll send my bill, by-and-by, and tonight I'll give you some-
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thing that will warm the cockles of your heart better than quarts
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of wine," said Laurie, beaming at her with a face of suppressed
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satisfaction at something.
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"what is it?" cried Jo, forgetting her woes for a minute in
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her wonder.
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"I telegraphed to your mother yesterday, and Brooke answered
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she'd come at once, and she'll be here tonight, and everything will
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be all right. Aren't you glad I did it?"
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Laurie spoke very fast, and turned red and excited all in a
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minute, for he had kept his plot a secret, for fear of disappoint-
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ing the girls or harming Beth. Jo grew quite white, flew out of
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her chair, and the moment he stopped speaking she electrified him
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by throwing her arms round his neck, and crying out, with a joyful
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cry, "Oh, Laurie! Oh, Mother! I am so glad!" She did not weep
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again, but laughed hysterically, and trembled and clung to her
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friend as if she was a little bewildered by the sudden news.
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Laurie, though decidedly amazed, behaved with great pres-
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ence of mind. He patted her back soothingly, and finding that she
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was recovering, followed it up by a bashful kiss or two, which
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brought Jo round at once. Holding on to the banisters, she put
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him gently away, saying breathlessly, "Oh, don't! I didn't mean
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to, it was dreadful of me, but you were such a dear to go and do
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it in spite of Hannah that I couldn't help flying at you. Tell
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me all about it, and don't give me wine again, it makes me act so."
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"I don't mind," laughed Laurie, as he settled his tie. "Why,
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you see I got fidgety, and so did Grandpa. We thought Hannah was
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overdoing the authority business, and your mother ought to know.
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She'd never forgive us if Beth . . . Well, if anything happened,
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you know. So I got grandpa to say it was high time we did something,
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and off I pelted to the office yesterday, for the doctor looked sober,
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and Hannah most took my head off when I proposed a telegram. I never
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can bear to be `lorded over', so that settled my mind, and I did it.
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Your mother will come, I know, and the late train is in at two A.M.
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I shall go for her, and you've only got to bottle up your rapture,
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and keep Beth quiet till that blessed lady gets here."
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"Laurie, you're an angel! How shall I ever thank you?"
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"Fly at me again. I rather liked it," said Laurie, looking
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mischievous, a thing he had not done for a fortnight.
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"No, thank you. I'll do it by proxy, when your grandpa comes.
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Don't tease, but go home and rest, for you'll be up half the night.
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Bless you, Teddy, bless you!"
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Jo had backed into a corner, and as she finished her speech,
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she vanished precipitately into the kitchen, where she sat down
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upon a dresser and told the assembled cats that she was "happy,
|
|
oh, so happy!" while Laurie departed, feeling that he had made a
|
|
rather neat thing of it.
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|
"That's the interferingest chap I ever see, but I forgive
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|
him and do hope Mrs. March is coming right away," said Hannah,
|
|
with an air of relief, when Jo told the good news.
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|
Meg had a quiet rapture, and then brooded over the letter,
|
|
while Jo set the sickroom in order, and Hannah `knocked up a
|
|
couple of pies in case of company unexpected". A breath of
|
|
fresh air seemed to blow through the house, and something better
|
|
than sunshine brightened the quiet rooms. Everything appeared
|
|
to feel the hopeful change. Beth's bird began to chirp again,
|
|
and a half-blown rose was discovered on Amy's bush in the window.
|
|
The fires seemed to burn with unusual cheeriness, and every time
|
|
the girls met, their pale faces broke into smiles as they hugged
|
|
one another, whispering encouragingly, "Mother's coming, dear!
|
|
Mother's coming!" Every one rejoiced but Beth. She lay in that
|
|
heavy stupor, alike unconscious of hope and joy, doubt and danger.
|
|
It was a piteous sight, the once rosy face so changed and vacant,
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|
the once busy hands so weak and wasted, the once smiling lips
|
|
quite dumb, and the once pretty, well-kept hair scattered rough
|
|
and tangled on the pillow. All day she say so, only rousing now
|
|
and then to mutter, "Water!" with lips so parched they could
|
|
hardly shape the word. All day Jo and Meg hovered over her,
|
|
watching, waiting, hoping, and trusting in God and Mother, and
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|
all day the snow fell, the bitter wind raged, and the hours
|
|
dragged slowly by. But night came at last, and every time
|
|
the clock struck, the sisters, still sitting on either side of
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the bed, looked at each other with brightening eyes, for each
|
|
hour brought help nearer. The doctor had been in to say that
|
|
some change, for better or worse, would probably take place
|
|
about midnight, at which time he would return.
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|
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Hannah, quite worn out, lay down on the sofa at the bed's
|
|
foot and fell fast asleep, Mr. Laurence marched to and fro in the
|
|
parlor, feeling that he would rather face a rebel battery than
|
|
Mrs. March's countenance as she entered. Laurie lay on the rug,
|
|
pretending to rest, but staring into the fire with the thoughtful
|
|
look which made his black eyes beautifully soft and clear.
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|
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|
The girls never forgot that night, for no sleep came to them
|
|
as they kept their watch, with that dreadful sense of powerless-
|
|
ness which comes to us in hours like those.
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|
"If God spares Beth, I never will complain again," whispered
|
|
Meg earnestly.
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|
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|
"If god spares Beth, I'll try to love and serve Him all my
|
|
life," answered Jo, with equal fervor.
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|
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|
"I wish I had no heart, it aches so," sighed Meg, after a
|
|
pause.
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|
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|
"If life is often as hard as this, I don't see how we ever
|
|
shall get through it," added her sister despondently.
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|
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|
Here the clock struck twelve, and both forgot themselves in
|
|
watching Beth, for they fancied a change passed over her wan face.
|
|
The house was still as death, and nothing but the wailing of the
|
|
wind broke the deep hush. Weary Hannah slept on, and no one but
|
|
the sisters saw the pale shadow which seemed to fall upon the
|
|
little bed. An hour went by, and nothing happened except Laurie's
|
|
quiet departure for the station. Another hour, still no one came,
|
|
and anxious fears of delay in the storm, or accidents by the way,
|
|
or, worst of all, a great grief at Washington, haunted the girls.
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|
|
|
It was past two, when Jo, who stood at the window thinking
|
|
how dreary the world looked in its winding sheet of snow, heard
|
|
a movement by the bed, and turning quickly, saw Meg kneeling
|
|
before their mother's easy chair with her face hidden. A dreadful
|
|
fear passed coldly over Jo, as she thought, "Beth is dead, and Meg
|
|
is afraid to tell me."
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|
|
|
She was back at her post in an instant, and to her excited
|
|
eyes a great change seemed to have taken place. The fever flush
|
|
and the look of pain were gone, and the beloved little face looked
|
|
so pale and peaceful in its utter repose that Jo felt no desire to
|
|
weep or to lament. Leaning low over this dearest of her sisters,
|
|
she kissed the damp forehead with her heart on her lips, and softly
|
|
whispered, "Goodby, my Beth. Goodby!"
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|
|
|
As if awaked by the stir, Hannah started out of her sleep,
|
|
hurried to the bed, looked at Beth, felt her hands, listened at
|
|
her lips, and then, throwing her apron over her head, sat down
|
|
to rock to and fro, exclaiming, under her breath, "The fever's
|
|
turned, she's sleepin' nat'ral, her skin's damp, and she breathes
|
|
easy. Praise be given! Oh, my goodness me!"
|
|
|
|
Before the girls could believe the happy truth, the doctor
|
|
came to confirm it. He was a homely man, but they thought his
|
|
face quite heavenly when he smiled and said, with a fatherly look
|
|
at them, "Yes, my dears, I think the little girl will pull through
|
|
this time. Keep the house quiet, let her sleep, and when she wakes,
|
|
give her . . ."
|
|
|
|
What they were to give, neither heard, for both crept into
|
|
the dark hall, and, sitting on the stairs, held each other close,
|
|
rejoicing with hearts too full for words. When they went back to
|
|
be kissed and cuddled by faithful Hannah, they found Beth lying,,
|
|
as she used to do, with her cheek pillowed on her hand, the
|
|
dreadful pallor gone, and breathing quietly, as if just fallen
|
|
asleep.
|
|
|
|
"If Mother would only come now!" said Jo, as the winter night
|
|
began to wane.
|
|
|
|
"See," said Meg, coming up with a white, half-opened rose,
|
|
"I thought this would hardly be ready to lay in Beth's hand to-
|
|
morrow if she--went away from us. But it has blossomed in the
|
|
night, and now I mean to put it in my vase here, so that when
|
|
the darling wakes, the first thing she sees will be the little
|
|
rose, and Mother's face."
|
|
|
|
Never had the sun risen so beautifully, and never had the
|
|
world seemed so lovely as it did to the heavy eyes of Meg and Jo,
|
|
as they looked out in the early morning, when their long, sad
|
|
vigil was done.
|
|
|
|
"It looks like a fairy world," said Meg, smiling to herself,
|
|
as she stood behind the curtain, watching the dazzling sight.
|
|
|
|
"Hark!" cried Jo, starting to her feet.
|
|
|
|
Yes, there was a sound of bells at the door below, a cry
|
|
from Hannah, and then Laurie's voice saying in a joyful whisper,
|
|
"Girls, she's come! She's come!"
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER NINETEEN
|
|
|
|
While these things were happening at home, Amy was having
|
|
hard times at Aunt March's. She felt her exile deeply, and
|
|
for the first time in her life, realized how much she was be-
|
|
loved and petted at home. Aunt March never petted any one. She
|
|
did not approve of it, but she meant to be kind, for the well-
|
|
behaved little girl pleased her very much, and Aunt March had
|
|
a soft place in her old heart for her nephew's children, though
|
|
she didn't think it proper to confess it. She really did her
|
|
best to make Amy happy, but, dear me, what mistakes she made.
|
|
Some old people keep young at heart in spite of wrinkles and
|
|
gray hairs, can sympathize with children's little cares and
|
|
joys, make them feel at home, and can hide wise lessons under
|
|
pleasant plays, giving and receiving friendship in the sweetest
|
|
way. But Aunt March had not this gift, and she worried Amy very
|
|
much with her rules and orders, her prim ways, and long, prosy
|
|
talks. Finding the child more docile and amiable than her sister,
|
|
the old lady felt it her duty to try and counteract, as far as
|
|
possible, the bad effects of home freedom and indulgence. So she
|
|
took Amy by the hand, and taught her as she herself had been
|
|
taught sixty years ago, a process which carried dismay to Amy's
|
|
soul, and made her feel like a fly in the web of a very strict
|
|
spider.
|
|
|
|
She had to wash the cups every morning, and polish up the
|
|
old-fashioned spoons, the fat silver teapot, and the glasses till
|
|
they shone. Then she must dust the room, and what a trying job
|
|
that was. Not a speck escaped Aunt March's eye, and all the
|
|
furniture had claw legs and much carving, which was never dusted
|
|
to suit. Then Polly had to be fed, the lap dog combed, and a
|
|
dozen trips upstairs and down to get things or deliver orders,
|
|
for the old lady was very lame and seldom left her big chair. After
|
|
these tiresome labors, she must do her lessons, which was a daily
|
|
trial of every virtue she possessed. Then she was allowed one
|
|
hour for exercise or play, and didn't she enjoy it?
|
|
|
|
Laurie came every day, and wheedled Aunt March till Amy was
|
|
allowed to go out with him, when they walked and rode and had
|
|
capital times. After dinner, she had to read aloud, and sit still
|
|
while the old lady slept, which she usually did for an hour, as
|
|
she dropped off over the first page. Then patchwork or towels
|
|
appeared, and Amy sewed with outward meekness and inward rebell-
|
|
ion till dusk, when she was allowed to amuse herself as she liked
|
|
till teatime. The evenings were the worst of all, for Aunt March
|
|
fell to telling long stories about her youth, which were so un-
|
|
utterably dull that Amy was always ready to go to be, intending
|
|
to cry over her hard fate, but usually going to sleep before
|
|
she had squeezed out more than a tear or two.
|
|
|
|
If it had not been for Laurie, and old Esther, the maid,
|
|
she felt that she never could have got through that dreadful
|
|
time. The parrot alone was enough to drive her distracted, for
|
|
he soon felt that she did not admire him, and revenged himself
|
|
by being as mischievous as possible. He pulled her hair when-
|
|
ever she came near him, upset his bread and milk to plague her
|
|
when she had newly cleaned his cage, made Mop bark by pecking
|
|
at him while Madam dozed, called her names before company, and
|
|
behaved in all respects like an reprehensible old bird. Then she
|
|
could not endure the dog, a fat, cross beast who snarled and
|
|
yelped at her when she made his toilet, and who lay on his back
|
|
with all his legs in the air and a most idiotic expression of
|
|
countenance when he wanted something to eat, which was about a
|
|
dozen times a day. The cook was bad-tempered, the old coachman
|
|
was deaf, and Esther the only one who ever took any notice of
|
|
the young lady.
|
|
|
|
Esther was a Frenchwoman, who had lived with`Madame', as
|
|
she called her mistress, for many years, and who rather tyrann-
|
|
ized over the old lady, who could not get along without her. Her
|
|
real name was Estelle, but Aunt March ordered her to change it,
|
|
and she obeyed, on condition that she was never asked to change
|
|
her religion. She took a fancy to Mademoiselle, and amused her
|
|
very much with odd stories of her life in France, when Amy sat
|
|
with her while she got up Madam's laces. She also allowed her to
|
|
roam about the great house, and examine the curious and pretty
|
|
things stored away in the big wardrobes and the ancient chests,
|
|
for Aunt March hoarded like a magpie. Amy's chief delight was
|
|
an Indian cabinet, full of queer drawers, little pigeonholes,
|
|
and secret places, in which were kept all sorts of ornaments,
|
|
some precious, some merely curious, all more or less antique. To
|
|
examine and arrange these things gave Amy great satisfaction,
|
|
especially the jewel cases, in which on velvet cushions reposed
|
|
the ornaments which had adorned a belle forty years ago. There
|
|
was the garnet set which Aunt March wore when she came out, the
|
|
pearls her father gave her on her wedding day, her lover's diamonds,
|
|
the jet mourning rings and pins, the queer lockets, with portraits
|
|
of dead friends and weeping willows made of hair inside,the baby
|
|
bracelets her one little daughter had worn, Uncle March's big
|
|
watch, with the red seal so many childish hands had played with,
|
|
and in a box all by itself lay Aunt March's wedding ring, too small
|
|
now for her fat finger, but put carefully away like the most prec-
|
|
ious jewel of them all.
|
|
|
|
"Which would Mademoiselle choose if she had her will?" asked
|
|
Esther, wo always sat near to watch over and lock up the valuables.
|
|
|
|
"I like the diamonds best, but there is no necklace among them,
|
|
and I'm fond of necklaces, they are so becoming. I should choose
|
|
this if I might," replied Amy, looking with great admiration at a
|
|
string of gold and ebony beads from which hung a heavy cross of
|
|
the same.
|
|
|
|
"I, too, covet that, but not as a necklace. Ah, no! To me it
|
|
is a rosary, and as such I should use it like a good catholic," said
|
|
Esther, eyeing the handsome thing wistfully.
|
|
|
|
"Is it meant to use as you use the string of good-smelling
|
|
wooden beads hanging over your glass?" asked Amy.
|
|
|
|
"Truly, yes, to pray with. It would be pleasing to the saints
|
|
if one used so fine a rosary as this, instead of wearing it as a
|
|
vain bijou."
|
|
|
|
"You seem to take a great deal of comfort in your prayers,
|
|
Esther, and always come down looking quiet and satisfied. I wish
|
|
I could."
|
|
|
|
"If Mademoiselle was a Catholic, she would find true comfort,
|
|
but as that is not to be, it would be well if you went apart each
|
|
day to meditate and pray, as did the good mistress whom I served
|
|
before Madame. She had a little chapel, and in it found solace-
|
|
ment for much trouble."
|
|
|
|
"Would it be right for me to do so too?" asked Amy, who in
|
|
her loneliness felt the need of help of some sort, and found that
|
|
she was apt to forget her little book, now that Beth was not there
|
|
to remind her of it.
|
|
|
|
"It would be excellent and charming, and I shall gladly
|
|
arrange the little dressing room for you if you like it. Say
|
|
nothing to Madame, but when she sleeps go you and sit alone a
|
|
while to think good thoughts, and pray the dear God preserve
|
|
your sister."
|
|
|
|
Esther was truly pious, and quite sincere in her advice, for
|
|
she had an affectionate heart, and felt much for the sisters in
|
|
their anxiety. Amy liked the idea, and gave her leave to arrange
|
|
the light closet next her room, hoping it would do her good.
|
|
|
|
"I wish I knew where all these pretty things would go when
|
|
Aunt March dies," she said, as she slowly replaced the shining
|
|
rosary and shut the jewel cases one by one.
|
|
|
|
"To you and your sisters. I know it, Madame confides in me.
|
|
I witnessed her will, and it is to be so," whispered Esther smiling.
|
|
|
|
|
|
"How nice! But I wish she'd let us have them now. Procras-
|
|
tination is not agreeable," observed Amy, taking a last look at
|
|
the diamonds.
|
|
|
|
"It is too soon yet for the young ladies to wear these things.
|
|
The first one who is affianced will have the pearls, Madame has said
|
|
it, and I have a fancy that the little turquoise ring will be given
|
|
to you when you go, for Madame approves your good behavior and
|
|
charming manners."
|
|
|
|
"Do you think so? Oh, I'll be a lamb, if I can only have that
|
|
lovely ring! It's ever so much prettier than Kitty Bryant's. I do
|
|
like Aunt March after all." And Amy tried on the blue ring with a
|
|
delighted face and a firm resolve to earn it.
|
|
|
|
From that day she was a model of obedience, and the old lady
|
|
complacently admired the success of her training. Esther fitted
|
|
up the closet with a little table, placed a footstool before it,
|
|
and over it a picture taken from one of the shut-up rooms. She
|
|
thought it was of no great value, but, being appropriate, she
|
|
borrowed it, well knowing that Madame would never know it, nor
|
|
care if she did. It was, however, a very valuable copy of one of
|
|
the famous pictures of the world, and Amy's beauty-loving eyes were
|
|
never tired of looking up at the sweet face of the Divine Mother,
|
|
while her tender thoughts of her own were busy at her heart. On
|
|
the table she laid her little testament and hymnbook, kept a vase
|
|
always full of the best flowers Laurie brought her, and came every
|
|
day to `sit alone' thinking good thoughts, and praying the dear
|
|
God to preserve her sister. Esther had given her a rosary of black
|
|
beads with a silver cross, but Amy hung it up and did not use it,
|
|
feeling doubtful as to its fitness for Protestant prayers.
|
|
|
|
The little girl was very sincere in all this, for being left
|
|
alone outside the safe home nest, she felt the need of some kind
|
|
hand to hold by so sorely that she instinctively turned to the
|
|
strong and tender Friend, whose fatherly love most closely surr-
|
|
ounds His little children. She missed her mother's help to under-
|
|
stand and rule herself, but having been taught where to look,
|
|
she did her best to find the way and walk in it confidingly. But
|
|
Amy was a young pilgrim, and just now her burden seemed very heavy.
|
|
She tried to forget herself, to keep cheerful, and be satisfied with
|
|
doing right, though no one saw or praised her for it. In her first
|
|
effort at being very, very good, she decided to make her will, as
|
|
Aunt March had done, so that if she did fall ill and die, her poss-
|
|
essions might be justly and generously divided. It cost her a pang
|
|
even to think of giving up the little treasures which in her eyes
|
|
were as precious as the old lady's jewels.
|
|
|
|
During one of her play hours she wrote out the important
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document as well as she could, with some help from Esther as
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to certain legal terms, and when the good-natured Frenchwoman
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had signed her name, Amy felt relieved and laid it by to show
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Laurie, whom she wanted as a second witness. As it was a rainy
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day, she went upstairs to amuse herself in one of the large
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chambers, and took Polly with her for company. In this room
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there was a wardrobe full of old-fashioned costumes with which
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Esther allowed her to play, and it was her favorite amusement to
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array herself in the faded brocades, and parade up and down before
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the long mirror, making stately curtsies, and sweeping her train
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about with a rustle which delighted her ears. So busy was she on
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this day that she did not hear Laurie's ring nor see his face
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peeping in at her as she gravely promenaded to and fro, flirting
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her fan and tossing her head, on which she wore a great pink turban,
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contrasting oddly with her blue brocade dress and yellow quilted
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petticoat. She was obliged to walk carefully, for she had on high-
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heeled shoes, and, as Laurie told Jo afterward, it was a comical
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sight to see her mince along in her gay suit, with Polly sidilng
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and bridling just behind her, imitating her as well as he could,
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and occasionally stopping to laugh or exclaim, "Ain't we fine?
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Get along, you fright! Hold your tongue! Kiss me, dear! Ha! Ha!"
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Having with difficulty restrained an explosion of merriment,
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lest it should offend her majesty, Laurie tapped and was graciously
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received.
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"Sit down and rest while I put these things away, then I want
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to consult you about a very serious matter," said Amy, when she
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had shown her splendor and driven Polly into a corner. "That bird
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is the trial of my life," she continued, removing the pink mountain
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from her head, while Laurie seated himself astride a chair. "Yes-
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terday, when Aunt was asleep and I was trying to be as still as a
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mouse, Polly began to squall and flap about in his cage, so I went
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to let him out, and found a big spider there. I poked it out, and
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it ran under the bookcase. Polly marched straight after it, stooped
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down and peeped under the bookcase, saying, in his funny way, with a
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cock of his eye, `Come out and take a walk, my dear.' I couldn't
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help laughing, which made Poll swear, and Aunt woke up and scolded
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us both."
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"Did the spider accept the old fellow's invitation?" asked Laurie,
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yawning.
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"Yes, out it came, and away ran Polly, frightened to death, and
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scrambled up on Aunt's chair, calling out, `Catch her! Catch her!
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Catch her!' as I chased the spider."
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"That's a lie! Oh, lor!" cried the parrot, pecking at Laurie's
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toes.
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"I'd wring your neck if you were mine, you old torment," cried
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Laurie, shaking his fist at the bird, who put his head on one side
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and gravely croaked, "Allyluyer! Bless your buttons, dear!"
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"Now I'm ready," said Amy, shutting the wardrobe and taking a
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piece of paper out of her pocket. "I want you to read that, please,
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and tell me if it is legal and right. I felt I ought to do it, for
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life is uncertain and I don't want any ill feeling over my tomb."
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Laurie bit his lips, and turning a little from the pensive
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speaker, read the following document, with praiseworthy gravity,
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considering the spelling:
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MY LAST WILL AND TESTIMENT
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I, Amy Curtis March, being in my sane mind, go give and
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bequeethe all my earthly property--viz.to wit:--namely
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To my father, my best pictures, sketches, maps, and works
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of art, including frames. Also my $100, to do what he likes with.
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To my mother, all my clothes, except the blue apron with
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pockets--also my likeness, and my medal, with much love.
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To my dear sister Margaret, I give my turkquoise ring (if I
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get it), also my green box with the doves on it, also my; piece
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of real lace for her neck, and my sketch of her as a memorial of
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her 'little girl'.
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To Jo I leave my breastpin, the one mended with sealing wax,
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also my bronze inkstand--she lost the cover--and my most precious
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plaster rabbit, because I am sorry I burned up her story.
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To Beth (if she lives after me) I give my dolls and the
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little bureau, my fan, my linen collars and my new slippers if
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she can wear them being thin when she gets well. And I herewith
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also leave her my regret that I ever made fun of old Joanna.
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To my friend and neighbor Theodore Laurence I bequeethe my
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paper mashay portfolio, my clay model of a horse though he did
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say it hadn't any neck. Also in return for his great kindness
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in the hour of affliction any one of my artistic works he likes,
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Noter Dame is the best.
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To our venerable benefactor Mr. Laurence I leave my purple
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box with a looking glass in the cover which will be nice for
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his pens and remind him of the departed girl who thanks him
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for his favors to her family, especially Beth.
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I wish my favorite playmate Kitty Bryant to have the blue
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silk apron and my gold-bead ring with a kiss.
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To Hannah I give the bandbox she wanted and all the patch-
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work I leave hoping she `will remember me, when it you see'.
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And now having disposed of my most valuable property I hope
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all will be satisfied and not blame the dead. I forgive every-
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one, and trust we may all meet when the trump shall sound. Amen.
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To this will and testiment I set my hand and seal on this
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20th day of Nov. Anni Domino 1861.
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AMY CURTIS MARCH
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WITNESSES:
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ESTELLE VALNOR,
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THEODORE LAURENCE.
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The last name was written in pencil, and Amy explained
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that he was to rewrite it in ink and seal it up for her properly.
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"What put it into your head? Did anyone tell you about Beth's
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giving away her things?" asked Laurie soberly, as Amy laid a bit
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of red tape, with sealing wax, a taper, and a standish before him.
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She explained and then asked anxiously, "What about Beth?"
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"I'm sorry I spoke, but as I did, I'll tell you. She felt so
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ill one day that she told Jo she wanted to give her piano to Meg,
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her cats to you, and the poor old doll to Jo, who would love it for
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her sake. She was sorry she had so little to give, and left locks
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of hair to the rest of us, and her best love to Grandpa. She never
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thought of a will."
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Laurie was signing and sealing as he spoke, and did not look
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up till a great tear dropped on the paper. Amy's face was full
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of trouble, but she only said, "Don't people put sort of post-
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scripts to their wills, sometimes?"
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"Yes, `codicils', they call them."
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"Put one in mine then, that I wish all my curls cut off, and
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given round to my friends. I forgot it, but I want it done though
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it will spoil my looks."
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Laurie added it, smiling at Amy's last and greatest sacrifice.
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Then he amused her for an hour, and was much interested in all her
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|
trials. But when he came to go, Amy held him back to whisper with
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trembling lips, "Is there really any danger about Beth?"
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"I'm afraid there is, but we must hope for the best, so don't
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cry, dear." And Laurie put his arm about her with a brotherly
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|
gesture which was very comforting.
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When he had gone, she went to her little chapel, and sitting
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in the twilight, prayed for Beth, with streaming tears and an
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aching heart, feeling that a million turquoise rings would not
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console her for the loss of her gentle little sister.
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CHAPTER TWENTY
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I don't think I have any words in which to tell the meeting
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of the mother and daughters. Such hours are beautiful to live,
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but very hard to describe, so I will leave it to the imagination
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of my readers, merely saying that the house was full of genuine
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|
happiness, and that Meg's tender hope was realized, for when Beth
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woke from that long, healing sleep, the first objects on which
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her eyes fell were the little rose and Mother's face. Too weak
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|
to wonder at anything, she only smiled and nestled close in the
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loving arms about her, feeling that the hungry longing was sat-
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|
isfied at last. Then she slept again, and the girls waited upon
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their mother, for she would not unclasp the thin hand which
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clung to hers even in sleep.
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Hannah had `dished up' and astonishing breakfast for the
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traveler, finding it impossible to vent her excitement in any
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|
other way, and Meg and Jo fed their mother like dutiful young
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storks, while they listened to her whispered account of Father's
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|
state, Mr. Brooke's promise to stay and nurse him, the delays
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|
which the storm occasioned on the homeward journey, and the
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unspeakable comfort Laurie's hopeful face had given her when she
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arrived, worn out with fatigue, anxiety, and cold.
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What a strange yet pleasant day that was. So brilliant and
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|
gay without, for all the world seemed abroad to welcome the first
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|
snow. So quiet and reposeful within, for everyone slept, spent
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|
with watching, and a Sabbath stillness reigned through the house,
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|
while nodding Hannah mounted guard at the door. With a blissful
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|
sense of burdens lifted off, Meg and Jo closed their weary eyes,
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|
and lay at rest, like storm-beaten boats safe at anchor in a
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|
quiet harbor. Mrs. March would not leave Beth's side, but rested
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|
in the big chair, waking often to look at, touch, and brood over
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her child, like a miser over some recovered treasure.
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Laurie meanwhile posted off to comfort Amy, and told his
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story so well that Aunt March actually `sniffed' herself, and
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never once said "I told you so". Amy came out so strong on
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this occasion that I think the good thoughts in the little chapel
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really began to bear fruit. She dried her tears quickly, restrain-
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|
ed her impatience to see her mother, and never even thought of the
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turquoise ring, when the old lady heartily agreed in Laurie's
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|
opinion, that she behaved `like a capital little woman'. Even
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Polly seemed impressed, for he called her a good girl, blessed
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|
her buttons, and begged her to "come and take a walk, dear", in
|
|
his most affable tone. She would very gladly have gone out to
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|
enjoy the bright wintry weather, but discovering that Laurie
|
|
was dropping with sleep in spite of manful efforts to conceal
|
|
the fact, she persuaded him to rest on the sofa, while she wrote
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|
a note to her mother. She was a long time about it, and when she
|
|
returned, he was stretched out with both arms under his head,
|
|
sound asleep, while Aunt March had pulled down the curtains and
|
|
sat doing nothing in an unusual fit of benignity.
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|
After a while, they began to think he was not going to wake
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|
up till night, and I'm not sure that he would, had he not been
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|
effectually roused by Amy's cry of joy at sight of her mother.
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There probably were a good many happy little girls in and about
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|
the city that day, but it is my private opinion that Amy was the
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|
happiest of all, when she sat in her mother's lap and told her
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trials, receiving consolation and compensation in the shape of
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approving smiles and fond caresses. They were alone together
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|
in the chapel, to which her mother did not object when its
|
|
purpose was explained to her.
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"On the contrary, I like it very much, dear," looking from
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|
the dusty rosary to the well-worn little book, and the lovely
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|
picture with its garland of evergreen. "It is an excellent plan
|
|
to have some place where we can go to be quiet, when things vex
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|
or grieve us. There are a good many hard times in this life of
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|
ours, but we can always bear them if we ask help in the right
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|
way. I think my little girl is learning this."
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"Yes, Mother, and when I go home I mean to have a corner
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|
in the big closet to put my books and the copy of that picture
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|
which I've tried to make. The woman's face is not good, it's
|
|
too beautiful for me to draw, but the baby is done better, and
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|
I love it very much. I like to think He was a little child once,
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for then I don't seem so far away, and that helps me."
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As Amy pointed to the smiling Christ child on his Mother's
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knee, Mrs. March saw something on the lifted hand that made her
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smile. She said nothing, but Amy understood the look, and after
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|
a minute's pause, she added gravely, "I wanted to speak to you
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|
about this, but I forgot it. Aunt gave me the ring today. She
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|
called me to her and kissed me, and put it on my finger, and
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|
said I was a credit to her, and she'd like to keep me always.
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|
She gave that funny guard to keep the turquoise on, as it's too
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|
big. I'd like to wear them Mother, can I?"
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"They are very pretty, but I think you're rather too young
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|
for such ornaments, Amy," said Mrs. March, looking at the plump
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little hand, with the band of sky-blue stones on the forefinger,
|
|
and the quaint guard formed of two tiny golden hands clasped
|
|
together.
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"I'll try not to be vain," said Amy. "I don't think I like
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it only because it's so pretty, but I want to wear it as the girl
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|
in the story wore her bracelet, to remind me of something."
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|
"Do you mean Aunt March?" asked her mother, laughing.
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|
"No, to remind me not to be selfish." Amy looked so
|
|
earnest and sincere about it that her mother stopped laughing,
|
|
and listened respectfully to the little plan.
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|
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|
"I've thought a great deal lately about my `bundle of
|
|
naughties', and being selfish is the largest one in it, so I'm
|
|
going to try hard to cure it, if I can. Beth isn't selfish, and
|
|
that's the reason everyone loves her and feels so bad at the
|
|
thoughts of losing her. People wouldn't feel so bat about me
|
|
if I was sick, and I don't deserve to have them, but I'd like
|
|
to be loved and missed by a great many friends, so I'm going
|
|
to try and be like Beth all I can. I'm apt to forget my res-
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|
olutions, but if I had something always about me to remind me,
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|
I guess I should do better. May we try this way?"
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|
"Yes, but I have more faith in the corner of the big closet.
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Wear your ring, dear, and do your best. I think you will prosper,
|
|
for the sincere wish to be good is half the battle. Now I must
|
|
go back to Beth. Keep up your heart, little daughter, and we will
|
|
soon have you home again."
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|
That evening while Meg was writing to her father to report
|
|
the traveler's safe arrival, Jo slipped upstairs into Beth's room,
|
|
and finding her mother in her usual place, stood a minute twisting
|
|
her fingers in her hair, with a worried gesture and an undecided
|
|
look.
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|
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|
"What is it, deary?' asked Mrs. March, holding out her hand,
|
|
with a face which invited confidence.
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|
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|
"I want to tell you something, Mother."
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"About Meg?"
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|
"How quickly you guessed! Yes, it's about her, and though
|
|
it's a little thing, it fidgets me."
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|
"Beth is asleep. Speak low, and tell me all about it. That
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|
Moffat hasn't been here, I hope?" asked Mrs. March rather sharply.
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|
"No. I should have shut the door in his face if he had,"
|
|
said Jo, settling herself on the floor at her mother's feet. "Last
|
|
summer Meg left a pair of gloves over at the Laurences' and only
|
|
one was returned. We forgot about it, till Teddy told me that Mr.
|
|
Brooke owned that he liked Meg but didn't dare say so, she was so
|
|
young and he so poor. Now, isn't it a dreadful state of things?"
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|
"Do you think Meg cares for him?" asked Mrs. March, with an
|
|
anxious look.
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|
"Mercy me! I don't know anything about love and such non-
|
|
sense!" cried Jo, with a funny mixture of interest and contempt.
|
|
"In novels, the girls show it by starting and blushing, fainting
|
|
away, growing thin, and acting like fools. Now Meg does not do
|
|
anything of the sort. She eats and drinks and sleeps like a
|
|
sensible creature, she looks straight in my face when I talk
|
|
about that man, and only blushes a little bit when Teddy jokes
|
|
about lovers. I forbid him to do it, but he doesn't mind me as
|
|
he ought."
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|
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|
"Then you fancy that Meg is not interested in John?'
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"Who?" cried Jo, staring.
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"Mr. Brooke. I call him `John' now. We fell into the way
|
|
of doing so at the hospital, and he likes it."
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|
"Oh, dear! I know you'll take his part. He's been good to
|
|
Father, and you won't send him away, but let Meg marry him, if
|
|
she wants to. Mean thing! To go petting Papa and helping you,
|
|
just to wheedle you into liking him." And Jo pulled her hair
|
|
again with a wrathful tweak.
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|
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|
"My dear, don't get angry about it, and I will tell you how
|
|
it happened. John went with me at Mr. Laurence's request, and
|
|
was so devoted to poor Father that we couldn't help getting fond
|
|
of him. He was perfectly open and honorable about Meg, for he
|
|
told us he loved her, but would earn a comfortable home before
|
|
he asked her to marry him. He only wanted our leave to love her
|
|
and work for her, and the right to make her love him if he could.
|
|
He is a truly excellent young man, and we could not refuse to
|
|
listen to him, but I will not consent to Meg's engaging herself
|
|
so young."
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|
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|
"Of course not. It would be idiotic! I knew there was
|
|
mischief brewing. I felt it, and now it's worse than I imagined.
|
|
I just wish I could marry Meg myself, and keep her safe in the
|
|
family."
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|
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|
This odd arrangement made Mrs. March smile, but she said
|
|
gravely, "Jo, I confide in you and don't wish you to say anything
|
|
to Meg yet. When John comes back, and I see them together, I can
|
|
judge better of her feelings toward him."
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|
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|
"She'll see those handsome eyes that she talks about, and
|
|
then it will be all up with her. She's got such a soft heart,
|
|
it will melt like butter in the sun if anyone looks sentimentlly
|
|
at her. She read the short reports he sent more than she did
|
|
your letters, and pinched me when I spoke of it, and likes brown
|
|
eyes, and doesn't think John an ugly name, and she'll go and fall
|
|
in love, and there's an end of peace and fun, and cozy times to-
|
|
gether. I see it all! They'll go lovering around the house, and
|
|
we shall have to dodge. Meg will be absorbed and no good to me
|
|
any more. Brooke will scratch up a fortune somehow, carry her off,
|
|
and make a hole in the family, and I shall break my heart, and
|
|
everything will be abominably uncomfortable. Oh, dear me! Why
|
|
weren't we all boys, then there wouldn't be any bother."
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|
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|
Jo leaned her chin on her knees in a disconsolate attitude
|
|
and shook her fist at the reprehensible John. Mrs. March sighed,
|
|
and Jo looked up with an air of relief.
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|
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"You don't like it, Mother? I'm glad of it. Let's send him
|
|
about his business, and not tell Meg a word of it, but all be
|
|
happy together as we always have been."
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|
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|
"I did wrong to sigh, Jo. It is natural and right you should
|
|
all go to homes of your own in time, but I do want to keep my girls
|
|
as long as I can, and I am sorry that this happened so soon, for
|
|
Meg is only seventeen and it will be some years before John can
|
|
make a home for her. Your father and I have agreed that she shall
|
|
not bind herself in any way, nor be married, before twenty. If
|
|
she and John love one another, they can wait, and test the love
|
|
by doing so. She is conscientious, and I have no fear of her
|
|
treating him unkindly. My pretty, tender hearted girl! I hope
|
|
things will go happily with her."
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|
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|
"Hadn't you rather have her marry a rich man?" asked Jo, as
|
|
her mother's voice faltered a little over the last words.
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|
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|
"Money is a good and useful thing, Jo, and I hope my girls
|
|
will never feel the need of it too bitterly not be tempted by
|
|
too much. I should like to know that John was firmly established
|
|
in some good business, which gave him an income large enough to
|
|
keep free from debt and make Meg comfortable. I'm not ambitious
|
|
for a splendid fortune, a fashionable position, or a great name
|
|
for my girls. If rank and money come with love and virtue, also,
|
|
I should accept them gratefully, and enjoy your good fortune, but
|
|
I know, by experience, how much genuine happiness can be had in
|
|
a plain little house, where the daily bread is earned, and some
|
|
privations give sweetness to the few pleasures. I am content to
|
|
see Meg begin humbly, for if I am not mistaken, she will be rich
|
|
in the possession of a good man's heart, and that is better than
|
|
a fortune."
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|
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|
"I understand, Mother, and quite agree, but I'm disappointed
|
|
about Meg, for I'd planned to have her marry Teddy by-and-by and
|
|
sit in the lap of luxury all her days. Wouldn't it be nice?"
|
|
asked Jo, looking up with a brighter face.
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|
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|
"He is younger than she, you know," began Mrs. March, but Jo
|
|
broke in . . .
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|
|
|
"Only a little, he's old for his age, and tall, and can be
|
|
quite grown-up in his manners if he likes. Then he's rich and
|
|
generous and good, and loves us all, and I say it's a pity my
|
|
plan is spoiled."
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|
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|
"I'm afraid Laurie is hardly grown-up enough for Meg, and
|
|
altogether too much of a weathercock just now for anyone to
|
|
depend on. Don't make plans, Jo, but let time and their own
|
|
hearts mate your friends. We can't meddle safely in such
|
|
matters, and had better not get `romantic rubbish' as you
|
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call it, into our heads, lest it spoil our friendship."
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"Well, I won't, but I hate to see things going all criss-
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cross and getting snarled up, when a pull her and a snip there
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would straighten it out. I wish wearing flatirons on our heads
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would keep us from growing up. But buds will be roses, and
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kittens cats, more's the pity!"
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"What's that about flatirons and cats?" asked Meg, as she
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crept into the room with the finished letter in her hand.
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"Only one of my stupid speeches. I'm going to bed. Come,
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Peggy," said Jo, unfolding herself like an animated puzzle.
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"Quite right, and beautifully written. Please add that I
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send my love to John," said Mrs. March, as she glanced over
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the letter and gave it back.
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"Do you call him `John'?" asked Meg, smiling, with her
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innocent eyes looking down into her mother's.
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"Yes, he has been like a son to us, and we are very fond
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of him," replied Mrs. March, returning the look with a keen
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one.
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"I'm glad of that, he is so lonely. Good night, Mother,
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dear. It is so inexpressibly comfortable to have you here,"
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was Meg's answer.
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The kiss her mother gave her was a very tender one, and
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as she went away, Mrs. March said, with a mixture of satis-
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faction and regret, "She does not love John yet, but will
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soon learn to.
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CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
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Jo's face was a study next day, for the secret rather weighed
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upon her, and she found it hard not to look mysterious and impor-
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tant. Meg observed it, but did not trouble herself to make
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inquiries, for she had learned that the best way to manage Jo was
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by the law of contraries, so she felt sure of being told every-
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thing if she did not ask. She was rather surprised, therefore,
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when the silence remained unbroken, and Jo assumed a patronizing
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air, which decidedly aggravated Meg, who in turn assumed an air
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of dignified reserve and devoted herself to her mother. This left
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Jo to her own devices, for Mrs. March had taken her place as nurse,
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and bade her rest, exercise, and amuse herself after her long
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confinement. Amy being gone, Laurie was her only refuge, and much
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as she enjoyed his society, she rather dreaded him just then, for
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he was an incorrigible tease, and she feared he would coax the
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secret from her.
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She was quite right, for the mischief-loving lad no sooner
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suspected a mystery than he set himself to find it out, and led
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Jo a trying life of it. He wheedled, bribed, ridiculed, threat-
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ened, and scolded; affected indifference, that he might surprise
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the truth from her; declared her knew, then that he didn't care;
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and at last, by dint of perseverance, he satisfied himself that
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it concerned Meg and Mr. Brooke. Feeling indignant that he was
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not taken into his tutor's confidence, he set his wits to work
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to devise some proper retaliation for the slight.
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Meg meanwhile had apparently forgotten the matter and was
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absorbed in preparations for her father's return, but all of a
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sudden a change seemed to come over her, and, for a day or two,
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she was quite unlike herself. She started when spoken to,
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blushed when looked at, was very quiet, and sat over her sewing,
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with a timid, troubled look on her face. To her mother's inquiries
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she answered that she was quite well, and Jo's she silenced by
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begging to be let alone.
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"She feels it in the air--love, I mean--and she's going very
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fast. She's got most of the symptoms--is twittery and cross,
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doesn't eat, lies awake, and mopes in corners. I caught her
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singing that song he gave her, and once she said `John', as you
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do, and then turned as red as a poppy. whatever shall we do?"
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said Jo, looking ready for any measures, however violent.
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"Nothing but wait. Let her alone, be kind and patient, and
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Father's coming will settle everything," replied her mother.
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"Here's a note to you, Meg, all sealed up. How odd! Teddy
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never seals mine," said Jo next day, as she distributed the
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contents of the little post office.
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Mrs. March and Jo were deep in their own affairs, when a
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sound from Meg made them look up to see her staring at her
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note with a frightened face.
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"My child, what is it?" cried her mother, running to her,
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while Jo tried to take the paper which had done the mischief.
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"It's all a mistake, he didn't send it. Oh, Jo, how could
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you do it?" and Meg hid her face in her hands, crying as if her
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heart were quite broken.
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"Me! I've done nothing! What's she talking about?" cried
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Jo, bewildered.
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Meg's mild eyes kindled with anger as she pulled a crumpled
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note from her pocket and threw it at Jo, saying reproachfully,
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"You wrote it, and that bad boy helped you. How could you be
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|
so rude, so mean, and cruel to us both?"
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Jo hardly heard her, for she and her mother were reading the
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note, which was written in a peculiar hand.
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"My Dearest Margaret-
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"I can no longer restrain my passion, and must know my fate
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before I return. I dare not tell your parents yet, but I think
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|
they would consent if they knew that we adored one another. Mr.
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Laurence will help me to some good place, and then, my sweet
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girl, you will make me happy. I implore you to say nothing to
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your family yet, but to send one word of hope through Laurie to,
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"Your devoted John."
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"Oh, the little villain! That's the way he meant to pay me
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for keeping my word to Mother. I'll give him a hearty scolding
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and bring him over to beg pardon," cried Jo, burning to execute
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immediate justice. But her mother held her back, saying, with
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|
a look she seldom wore . . .
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"Stop, Jo, you must clear yourself first. You have played
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so many pranks that I am afraid you have had a hand in this."
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"On my word, Mother, I haven't! I never saw that note
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before, and don't know anything about it, as true as I live!"
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said Jo, so earnestly that they believed her. "If I had taken
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part in it I'd have done it better than this, and have written
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|
a sensible note. I should think you'd have known Mr. Brooke
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|
wouldn't write such stuff as that," she added, scornfully toss-
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|
ing down the paper.
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"It's like his writing," faltered Meg, comparing it with the
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note in her hand.
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"Oh, Meg, you didn't answer it?" cried Mrs. March quickly.
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"Yes, I did!" and Meg hid her face again, overcome with
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shame.
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"Here's a scrape! Do let me bring that wicked boy over to
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|
explain and be lectured. I can't rest till I get hold of him."
|
|
And Jo made for the door again.
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|
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|
"Hush! Let me handle this, for it is worse than I thought.
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|
Margaret, tell me the whole story," commanded Mrs. March, sitting
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|
down by Meg, yet keeping hold of Jo, lest she should fly off.
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"I received the first letter from Laurie, who didn't look
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|
as if he knew anything about it," began Meg, without looking up.
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|
"I was worried at first and meant to tell you, then I remembered
|
|
how you liked Mr. Brooke, so I thought you wouldn't mind if I
|
|
kept my little secret for a few days. I'm so silly that I liked
|
|
to think no one knew, and while I was deciding what to say, I
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|
felt like the girls in books, who have such things to do. Forgive
|
|
me, Mother, I'm paid for my silliness now. I never can look him
|
|
in the face again."
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|
"What did you say to him?' asked Mrs. March.
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|
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|
"I only said I was too young to do anything about it yet,
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|
that I didn't wish to have secrets from you, and he must speak
|
|
to father. I was very grateful for his kindness, and would be
|
|
his friend, but nothing more, for a long while."
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|
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|
Mrs. March smiled, as if well pleased, and Jo clapped her
|
|
hands, exclaiming, with a laugh, "You are almost equal to
|
|
Caroline Percy, who was a pattern of prudence! Tell on, Meg.
|
|
What did he say to that?"
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|
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|
"He writes in a different way entirely, telling me that he
|
|
never sent any love letter at all, and is very sorry that my
|
|
roguish sister, Jo, should take liberties with our names. It's
|
|
very kind and respectful, but think how dreadful for me!"
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|
|
|
Meg leaned against her mother, looking the image of despair,
|
|
and Jo tramped about the room, calling Laurie names. All of a
|
|
sudden she stopped, caught up the two notes, and after looking
|
|
at them closely, said decidedly, "I don't believe Brooke ever
|
|
saw either of these letters. Teddy wrote both, and keeps yours
|
|
to crow over me with because I wouldn't tell him my secret."
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|
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|
"Don't have any secrets, Jo. Tell it to Mother and keep
|
|
out of trouble, as I should have done," said Meg warningly.
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|
|
|
"Bless you, child! Mother told me."
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|
|
|
"That will do, Jo. I'll comfort Meg while you go and get
|
|
Laurie. I shall sift the matter to the bottom, and put a stop
|
|
to such pranks at once."
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|
|
|
Away ran Jo, and Mrs. March gently told Meg Mr. Brooke's
|
|
real feelings. "Now, dear, what are your own? Do you love him
|
|
enough to wait till her can make a home for you, or will you
|
|
keep yourself quite free for the present?"
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|
|
|
"I've been so scared and worried, I don't want to have
|
|
anything to do with lovers for a long while, perhaps never,"
|
|
answered Meg petulantly. "If John doesn't know anything about
|
|
this nonsense, don't tell him, and make Jo and Laurie hold their
|
|
tongues. I won't be deceived and plagued and made a fool of.
|
|
It's a shame!"
|
|
|
|
Seeing Meg's usually gentle temper was roused and her
|
|
pride hurt by this mischievous joke, Mrs. March soothed her
|
|
by promises of entire silence and great discretion for the
|
|
future. The instant Laurie's step was heard in the hall, Meg
|
|
fled into the study, and Mrs. March received the culprit alone.
|
|
Jo had not told him why he was wanted, fearing he wouldn't come,
|
|
but he knew the minute he saw Mrs. March's face, and stood
|
|
twirling his hat with a guilty air which convicted him at once.
|
|
Jo was dismissed, but chose to march up and down the hall like
|
|
a sentinel, having some fear that the prisoner might bolt. The
|
|
sound of voices in the parlor rose and fell for half an hour,
|
|
but what happened during that interview the girls never knew.
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|
|
|
When they were called in, Laurie was standing by their
|
|
mother with such a penitent face that Jo forgave him on the
|
|
spot, but did not think it wise to betray the fact. Meg received
|
|
his humble apology, and was much comforted by the assurance that
|
|
Brooke knew nothing of the joke.
|
|
|
|
"I'll never tell him to my dying day, wild horses shan't
|
|
drag it out of me, so you'll forgive me, Meg, and I'll do any-
|
|
thing to show how out-and-out sorry I am," he added, looking
|
|
very much ashamed of himself.
|
|
|
|
"I'll try,but it was a very ungentlemanly thing to do, I
|
|
didn't think you could be so sly and malicious, Laurie," replied
|
|
Meg, trying to hid her maidenly confusion under a gravely re-
|
|
proachful air.
|
|
|
|
"It was altogether abominable, and I don't deserve to be
|
|
spoken to for a month, but you will, though, won't you?" And
|
|
Laurie folded his hands together with such and imploring gesture,
|
|
as he spoke in his irresistibly persuasive tone, that it was
|
|
impossible to frown upon him in spite of his scandalous behavior.
|
|
|
|
Meg pardoned him, and Mrs. March's grave face relaxed, in
|
|
spite of her efforts to keep sober, when she heard him declare
|
|
that he would atone for his sins by all sorts of penances, and
|
|
abase himself like a worm before the injured damsel.
|
|
|
|
Jo stood aloof, meanwhile, trying to harden her heart
|
|
against him, and succeeding only in primming up her face into
|
|
an expression of entire disapprobation. Laurie looked at her
|
|
once or twice, but as she showed no sign of relenting, he felt
|
|
injured, and turned his back on her till the others were done
|
|
with him, when he made her a low bow and walked off without a
|
|
word.
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|
|
|
As soon as he had gone, she wished she had been more for-
|
|
giving, and when Meg and her mother went upstairs, she felt
|
|
lonely and longed for Teddy. After resisting for some time,
|
|
she yielded to the impulse, and armed with a book to return,
|
|
went over to the big house.
|
|
|
|
"Is Mr. Laurence in?" asked Jo, of a housemaid, who was
|
|
coming downstairs.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Miss, but I don't believe he's seeable just yet."
|
|
|
|
"Why not? Is he ill?"
|
|
|
|
"La, no Miss, but he's had a scene with Mr. Laurie, who is
|
|
in one of his tantrums about something, which vexes the old gen-
|
|
tleman, so I dursn't go nigh him."
|
|
|
|
"Where is Laurie?'
|
|
|
|
"Shut up in his room, and he won't answer, though I've been
|
|
a-tapping. I don't know what's to become of the dinner, for it's
|
|
ready, and there's no one to eat it."
|
|
|
|
"I'll go and see what the matter is. I'm not afraid of either
|
|
of them."
|
|
|
|
Up went Jo, and knocked smartly on the door of Laurie's
|
|
little study.
|
|
|
|
"Stop that, or I'll open the door and make you!" called out
|
|
the young gentleman in a threatening tone.
|
|
|
|
Jo immediately knocked again. The door flew open, and in
|
|
she bounced before Laurie could recover from his surprise. Seeing
|
|
that he really was out of temper, Jo, who knew how to manage him,
|
|
assumed a contrite expression, and going artistically down upon
|
|
her knees, said meekly, "Please forgive me for being so cross. I
|
|
came to make it up, and can't go away till I have."
|
|
|
|
"It's all right. Get up, and don't be a goose, Jo," was the
|
|
cavalier reply to her petition.
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, I will. Could I ask what's the matter? You don't
|
|
look exactly easy in your mind."
|
|
|
|
"I've been shaken, and I won't bear it!" growled Laurie in-
|
|
dignantly.
|
|
|
|
"Who did it?" demanded Jo.
|
|
|
|
"Grandfather. If it had been anyone else I'd have . . ."
|
|
And the injured youth finished his sentence by an energetic ges-
|
|
ture of the right arm.
|
|
|
|
"That's nothing. I often shake you, and you don't mind,"
|
|
said Jo soothingly.
|
|
|
|
"Pooh! You're a girl, and it's fun, but I'll allow no man
|
|
to shake me!"
|
|
|
|
"I don't think anyone would care to try it, if you looked
|
|
as much like a thundercloud as you do now. Why were you treated
|
|
so?"
|
|
|
|
"Just because I wouldn't say what your mother wanted me for.
|
|
I'd promised not to tell, and of course I wasn't going to break
|
|
my word."
|
|
|
|
"Couldn't you satisfy your grandpa in any other way?"
|
|
|
|
"No, he would have the truth, the whole truth,and nothing
|
|
but the truth. I'd have told my part of the scrape, if I could
|
|
without bringing Meg in. As I couldn't, I held my tongue, and
|
|
bore the scolding till the old gentleman collared me. Then I
|
|
bolted, for fear I should forget myself."
|
|
|
|
"It wasn't nice, but he's sorry, I know, so go down and
|
|
make up. I'll help you."
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|
|
|
"Hanged if I do! I'm not going to be lectured and pum-
|
|
melled by everyone, just for a bit of a frolic. I was sorry
|
|
about Meg, and begged pardon like a man, but I won't do it
|
|
again, when I wasn't in the wrong."
|
|
|
|
"He didn't know that."
|
|
|
|
"He ought to trust me, and not act as if I was a baby. It's
|
|
no use, Jo, he's got to learn that I'm able to take care of my-
|
|
self, and don't need anyone's apron string to hold on by."
|
|
|
|
"What pepper pots you are! " sighed Jo. "How do you mean
|
|
to settle this affair?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, he ought to beg pardon, and believe me when I say I
|
|
can't tell him what the fuss's about."
|
|
|
|
"Bless you! He won't do that."
|
|
|
|
"I won't go down till he does."
|
|
|
|
"Now, Teddy, be sensible. Let it pass, and I'll explain
|
|
what I can. You can't stay here, so what's the use of being
|
|
melodramatic?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't intend to stay here long, anyway. I'll slip off and
|
|
take a journey somewhere, and when Grandpa misses me he'll come
|
|
round fast enough."
|
|
|
|
"I dare say, but you ought not to go and worry him."
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|
|
|
"Don't preach. I'll go to Washington and see Brooke. It's
|
|
gay there, and I'll enjoy myself after the troubles."
|
|
|
|
"What fun you'd have! I wish I could run off too," said
|
|
Jo, forgetting her part of mentor in lively visions of martial
|
|
life at the capital.
|
|
|
|
"Come on, then! Why not? You go and surprise your father,
|
|
and I'll stir up old Brooke. It would be a glorious joke. Let's
|
|
do it, Jo. We'll leave a letter saying we are all right, and trot
|
|
off at once. I've got money enough. It will do you good, and no
|
|
harm, as you go to your father."
|
|
|
|
For a moment Jo looked as if she would agree, for wild as
|
|
the plan was, it just suited her. She was tired of care and
|
|
confinement, longed for change, and thoughts of her father
|
|
blended temptingly with the novel charms of camps and hospi-
|
|
tals, liberty and fun. Her eyes kindled as they turned wist-
|
|
fully toward the window, but they fell on the old house opposite,
|
|
and she shook her head with sorrowful decision.
|
|
|
|
"If I was a boy, we'd run away together, and have a capital
|
|
time, but as I'm a miserable girl, I must be proper and stop at
|
|
home. Don't tempt me, Teddy, it's a crazy plan."
|
|
|
|
"That's the fun of it," began Laurie, who had got a willful
|
|
fit on him and was possessed to break out of bounds in some way.
|
|
|
|
"Hold your tongue!" cried Jo, covering her ears. "`Prunes
|
|
and prisms' are my doom, and I may as well make up my mind to
|
|
it. I came here to moralize, not to hear things that make me
|
|
skip to think of."
|
|
|
|
"I know Meg would wet-blanket such a proposal, but I
|
|
thought you had more spirit," began Laurie insinuatingly.
|
|
|
|
"Bad boy, be quiet! Sit down and think of your own sins,
|
|
don't go making me add to mine. If I get your grandpa to
|
|
apologize for the shaking, will you give up running away?"
|
|
asked Jo seriously.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, but you won't do it," answered Laurie, who wished
|
|
to make up, but felt that his outraged dignity must be appeas-
|
|
ed first.
|
|
|
|
"If I can manage the young one, I can the old one," mut-
|
|
tered Jo, as she walked away, leaving Laurie bent over a railroad
|
|
map with his head propped up on both hands.
|
|
|
|
"Come in!" And Mr. Laurence's gruff voice sounded gruffer
|
|
than ever, as Jo tapped at his door.
|
|
|
|
"It's only me, Sir, come to return a book," she said blandly,
|
|
as she entered.
|
|
|
|
"Want any more?" asked the old gentleman, looking grim and
|
|
vexed, but trying not to show it.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, please. I like old Sam so well, I think I'll try the
|
|
second volume," returned Jo, hoping to propitiate him by accept-
|
|
ing a second dose of Boswell's JOHNSON, as he had recommended
|
|
that lively work.
|
|
|
|
The shaggy eyebrows unbent a little as he rolled the steps
|
|
toward the shelf where the Johnsonian literature was placed. Jo
|
|
skipped up, and sitting on the top step, affected to be searching
|
|
for her book, but was really wondering how best to introduce the
|
|
dangerous object of her visit. Mr. Laurence seemed to suspect
|
|
that something was brewing in her mind, for after taking several
|
|
brisk turns about the room, he faced round on her, speaking so
|
|
abruptly that RASSELAS tumbled face downward on the floor.
|
|
|
|
"What has that boy been about? Don't try to shield him. I
|
|
know he has been in mischief by the way he acted when he came
|
|
home. I can't get a word from him, and when I threatened to
|
|
shake the truth out of him he bolted upstairs and locked himself
|
|
into his room."
|
|
|
|
"He did wrong, but we forgave him, and all promised not to
|
|
say a word to anyone," began Jo reluctantly.
|
|
|
|
"That won't do. He shall not shelter himself behind a prom-
|
|
ise from you softhearted girls. If he's done anything amiss, he
|
|
shall confess, beg pardon, and be punished. Out with it, Jo. I
|
|
won't be kept in the dark."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Laurence looked so alarming and spoke so sharply that Jo
|
|
would have gladly run away, if she could, but she was perched aloft
|
|
on the steps, and he stood at the foot, a lion in the path, so she
|
|
had to stay and brave it out.
|
|
|
|
"Indeed, Sir, I cannot tell. Mother forbade it. Laurie has
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confessed, asked pardon, and been punished quite enough. We don't
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keep silence to shield him, but someone else, and it will make
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more trouble if you interfere. Please don't. It was partly my
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fault, but it's all right now. So let's forget it, and talk about
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the RAMBLER or something pleasant."
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"Hang the RAMBLER! Come down and give me your word that
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this harum-scarum boy of mine hasn't done anything ungrateful or
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impertinent. If he has, after all your kindness to him, I'll
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thrash him with my own hands."
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The threat sounded awful, but did not alarm Jo, for she knew
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the irascible old gentleman would never lift a finger against his
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grandson, whatever he might say to the contrary. She obediently
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descended, and made as light of the prank as she could without
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betraying Meg or forgetting the truth.
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"Hum . . . ha . . . well, if the boy held his tongue be-
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cause he promised, and not from obstinacy, I'll forgive him. He's
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a stubborn fellow and hard to manage," said Mr. Laurence, rubbing
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up his hair till it looked as if he had been out in a gale, and
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smoothing the frown from his brow with an air of relief.
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"So am I, but a kind word will govern me when all the king's
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horses and all the king's men couldn't," said Jo, trying to say
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a kind word for her friend, who seemed to get out of one scrape
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only to fall into another.
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"You think I'm not kind to him, hey?" was the sharp answer.
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"Oh, dear no, Sir. You are rather too kind sometimes, and
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then just a trifle hasty when he tries your patience. Don't you
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think you are?"
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Jo was determined to have it out now, and tried to look
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quite placid, though she quaked a little after her bold speech.
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To her great relief and surprise, the old gentleman only threw
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his spectacles onto the table with a rattle and exclaimed frank-
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ly . ..
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"You're right, girl, I am! I love the boy, but he tries my
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patience past bearing, and I know how it will end, if we go on so."
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"I'll tell you, he'll run away." Jo was sorry for that speech
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the minute it was made. She meant to warn him that Laurie would
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not bear much restraint, and hoped he would be more forebearing
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with the lad.
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Mr. Laurence's ruddy face changed suddenly, and he sat down,
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with a troubled glance at the picture of a handsome man, which
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hung over his table. It was Laurie's father, who had run away
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in his youth, and married against the imperious old man's will.
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Jo fancied her remembered and regretted the past, and she wished
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she had held her tongue.
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"He won't do it unless he is very much worried, and only
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threatens it sometimes, when he gets tired of studying. I often
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think I should like to, especially since my hair was cut, so if
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you ever miss us, you may advertise for two boys and look among
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the ships bound for India."
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She laughed as she spoke, and Mr. Laurence looked relieved,
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evidently taking the whole as a joke.
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"You hussy, how dare you talk in that way? Where's your
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respect for me, and your proper bringing up? Bless the boys
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and girls! What torments they are, yet we can't do without
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them," he said, pinching her cheeks good-humoredly. "Go and
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bring that boy down to his dinner, tell him it's all right, and
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|
advise him not to put on tragedy airs with his grandfather. I
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won't bear it."
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"He won't come, Sir. He feels badly because you didn't be-
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lieve him when he said he couldn't tell. I think the shaking
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hurt his feelings very much."
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Jo tried to look pathetic but must have failed, for Mr.
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Laurence began to laugh, and she knew the day was won.
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"I'm sorry for that, and ought to thank him for not shaking
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me, I suppose. What the dickens does the fellow expect?" And
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the old gentleman looked a trifle ashamed of his own testiness.
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"If I were you, I'd write him an apology, Sir. He says he
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|
won't come down till he has one, and talks about Washington, and
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goes on in an absurd way. A formal apology will make him see
|
|
how foolish he is, and bring him down quite amiable. Try it. He
|
|
likes fun, and this was is better than talking. I'll carry it
|
|
up, and teach him his duty."
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Mr. Laurence gave her a sharp look, and put on his specta-
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cles, saying slowly, "You're a sly puss, but I don't mind being
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|
managed by you and Beth. Here, give me a bit of paper, and let
|
|
us have done with this nonsense."
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The note was written in the terms which one gentleman would
|
|
use to another after offering some deep insult. Jo dropped a kiss
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|
on the top of Mr. Laurence's bald head, and ran up to slip the
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|
apology under Laurie's door, advising him through the keyhole to
|
|
be submissive, decorous, and a few other agreeable impossibilities.
|
|
Finding the door locked again, she left the note to do its work,
|
|
and was going quietly away, when the young gentleman slid down
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the banisters, and waited for her at the bottom, saying, with his
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|
most virtuous expression of countenance, "What a good fellow you
|
|
are, Jo! Did you get blown up?" he added, laughing.
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"No, he was pretty mild, on the whole."
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"AH! I got it all round. Even you cast me off over there,
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|
and I felt just ready to go to the deuce," he began apologetically.
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"Don't talk that way, turn over a new leaf and begin again,
|
|
Teddy, my son."
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"I keep turning over new leaves, and spoiling them, as I
|
|
used to spoil my copybooks, and I make so many beginnings there
|
|
never will be an end," he said dolefully.
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|
"Go and eat your dinner, you'll feel better after it. Men
|
|
always croak when they are hungry," and Jo whisked out at the
|
|
front door after that.
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|
"That's a `label' on my `sect'," answered Laurie, quoting
|
|
Amy, as he went to partake of humble pie dutifully with his
|
|
grandfather, who was quite saintly in temper and overwhelmingly
|
|
respectful in manner all the rest of the day.
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|
Everyone thought the matter ended and the little cloud
|
|
blown over, but the mischief was done, for though others forgot
|
|
it, Meg remembered. She never alluded to a certain person, but
|
|
she thought of him a good deal, dreamed dreams more than ever,
|
|
and once Jo, rummaging her sister's desk for stamps, found a
|
|
bit of paper scribbled over with the words, `Mrs. John Brooke',
|
|
whereat she groaned tragically and cast it into the fire, feeling
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|
that Laurie's prank had hastened the evil day for her.
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CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
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Like sunshine after a storm were the peaceful weeks which
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|
followed. The invalids improved rapidly, and Mr. March began
|
|
to talk or returning early in the new year. Beth was soon able
|
|
to lie on the study sofa all day, amusing herself with the well-
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|
beloved cats at first, and in time with doll's sewing, which had
|
|
fallen sadly behindhand. Her once active limbs were so stiff
|
|
and feeble that Jo took her for a daily airing about the house
|
|
in her strong arms. Meg cheerfully blackened and burned her
|
|
white hands cooking delicate messes for `the dear', while Amy,
|
|
a loyal slave of the ring, celebrated her return by giving
|
|
away as many of her treasures as she could prevail on her sisters
|
|
to accept.
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|
|
|
As Christmas approached, the usual mysteries began to haunt
|
|
the house, and Jo frequently convulsed the family by proposing
|
|
utterly impossible or magnificently absurd ceremonies, in honor
|
|
of this unusually merry Christmas. Laurie was equally impract-
|
|
icable, and would have had bonfires, skyrockets, and triumphal
|
|
arches, if he had had his own way. After many skirmishes and
|
|
snubbings, the ambitious pair were considered effectually quenched
|
|
and went about with forlorn faces, which were rather belied by
|
|
explosions of laughter when the two got together.
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|
|
|
Several days of unusually mild weather fitly ushered in a
|
|
splendid Christmas Day. Hannah `felt in her bones' that it was
|
|
going to be an unusually fine day, and she proved herself a
|
|
true prophetess, for everybody and everything seemed bound to
|
|
produce a grand success. To begin with, Mr. March wrote that
|
|
he should soon be with them, then Beth felt uncommonly well
|
|
that morning, and, being dressed in her mother's gift, a soft
|
|
crimson merino wrapper, was borne in high triumph to the window
|
|
to behold the offering of Jo and Laurie. The Unquenchables had
|
|
done their best to be worthy of the name, for like elves they
|
|
had worked by night and conjured up a comical surprise. Out in
|
|
the garden stood a stately snow maiden, crowned with holly,
|
|
bearing a basket of fruit and flowers in one hand, a great roll
|
|
of music in the other, a perfect rainbow of an Afghan round her
|
|
chilly shoulders, and a Christmas carol issuing from her lips
|
|
on a pink paper streamer.
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|
THE JUNGFRAU TO BETH
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|
God bless you, dear Queen Bess!
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|
May nothing you dismay,
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|
But health and peace and happiness
|
|
Be yours, this Christmas day.
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|
|
|
Here's fruit to feed our busy bee,
|
|
And flowers for her nose.
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|
Here's music for her pianee,
|
|
An afghan for her toes,
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|
|
|
A portrait of Joanna, see,
|
|
By Raphael No. 2,
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|
Who laboured with great industry
|
|
To make it fair and true.
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|
|
|
Accept a ribbon red, I beg,
|
|
For Madam Purrer's tail,
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|
And ice cream made by lovely Peg,
|
|
A Mont Blanc in a pail.
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|
|
|
Their dearest love my makers laid
|
|
Within my breast of snow.
|
|
Accept it, and the Alpine maid,
|
|
From Laurie and from Jo.
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|
|
|
How Beth laughed when she saw it, how Laurie ran up and
|
|
down to bring in the gifts, and what ridiculous speeches Jo
|
|
made as she presented them.
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|
|
|
"I'm so full of happiness, that if Father was only here, I
|
|
couldn't hold one drop more," said Beth, quite sighing with con-
|
|
tentment as Jo carried her off to the study to rest after the
|
|
excitement, and to refresh herself with some of the delicious
|
|
grapes the `Jungfrau' had sent her.
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|
|
|
"So am I," added Jo, slapping the pocket wherein reposed
|
|
the long-desired UNDINE AND SINTRAM.
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure I am," echoed Amy, poring over the engraved copy
|
|
of the Madonna and Child, which her mother had given her in a
|
|
pretty frame.
|
|
|
|
"Of course I am!" cried Meg, smoothing the silvery folds of
|
|
her first sild dress, for Mr. Laurence had insisted on giving it.
|
|
|
|
"How can I be otherwise?" said Mrs. March gratefully, as her
|
|
eyes went from her husband's letter to Beth's smiling face, and
|
|
her hand carressed the brooch made of gray and golden, chestnut
|
|
and dark brown hair, which the girls had just fastened on her
|
|
breast.
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|
|
|
Now and then, in this workaday world, things do happen in
|
|
the delightful storybook fashion, and what a comfort it is. Half
|
|
an hour after everyone had said they were so happy they could
|
|
only hold one drop more, the drop came. Laurie opened the parlor
|
|
door and popped his head in very quietly. He might just as well
|
|
have turned a somersault and uttered an Indian war whoop, for his
|
|
face was so full of suppressed excitement and his voice so treach-
|
|
erously joyful that everyone jumped up, though he only said, in a
|
|
queer, breathless voice, "Here's another Christmas present for the
|
|
March family."
|
|
|
|
Before the words were well out of his mouth, he was whisked
|
|
away somehow, and in his place appeared a tall man, muffled up to
|
|
the eyes, leaning on the arm of another tall man, who tried to say
|
|
something and couldn't. Of course there was a general stampede,
|
|
and for several minutes everybody seemed to lose their wits, for
|
|
the strangest things were done, and no one said a word.
|
|
|
|
Mr. March became invisible in the embrace of four pairs of
|
|
loving arms. Jo disgraced herself by nearly fainting away, and
|
|
had to be doctored by Laurie in the china closet. Mr. Brooke
|
|
kissed Meg entirely by mistake, as he somewhat incoherently ex-
|
|
plained. And Amy, the dignified, tumbled over a stool, and never
|
|
stopping to get up, hugged and cried over her father's boots in
|
|
the most touching manner. Mrs. March was the first to recover
|
|
herself, and held up her hand with a warning, "Hush! Remember
|
|
Beth."
|
|
|
|
But it was too late. The study door flew open, the little
|
|
red wrapper appeared on the threshold, joy put strength into the
|
|
feeble limbs, and Beth ran straight into her father's arms. Never
|
|
mind what happened just after that, for the full hearts overflowed,
|
|
washing away the bitterness of the past and leaving only the sweet-
|
|
ness of the present.
|
|
|
|
It was not at all romantic, but a hearty laugh set everybody
|
|
straight again, for Hannah was discovered behind the door, sobbing
|
|
over the fat turkey, which she had forgotten to put down when she
|
|
rushed up from the kitchen. As the laugh subsided, Mrs. March began
|
|
to thank Mr. Brooke for his faithful care of her husband, at which
|
|
Mr. Brooke suddenly remembered that Mr. March needed rest, and
|
|
seizing Laurie, he precipitately retired. Then the two invalids
|
|
were ordered to repose, which they did, by both sitting in one
|
|
big chair and talking hard.
|
|
|
|
Mr. March told how he had longed to surprise them, and how,
|
|
when the fine weather came, he had been allowed by his doctor, to
|
|
take advantage of it, how devoted Brooke had been, and how he was
|
|
altogether a most estimable and upright young man. Why Mr. March
|
|
paused a minute just there, and after a glance at Meg, who was
|
|
violently poking the fire, looked at his wife with an inquiring
|
|
lift of the eyebrows, I leave you to imagine. Also why Mrs.
|
|
March gently nodded her head and asked, rather abruptly, if he
|
|
wouldn't like to have something to eat. Jo saw and understood
|
|
the look, and she stalked grimly away to get wine and beef tea,
|
|
muttering to herself as she slammed the door, "I hate estimable
|
|
young men with brown eyes!"
|
|
|
|
There never was such a Christmas dinner as they had that day.
|
|
The fat turkey was a sight to behold, when Hannah sent him up,
|
|
stuffed, browned, and decorated. So was the plum pudding, which
|
|
melted in one's mouth, likewise the jellies, in which Amy reveled
|
|
like a fly in a honeypot. Everything turned out well, which was
|
|
a mercy, Hannah said, "For my mind was that flustered, Mum, that
|
|
it's a merrycle I didn't roast the pudding, and stuff the turkey
|
|
with raisins, let alone bilin' of it in a cloth."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Laurence and his grandson dined with them, also Mr.
|
|
Brooke, at whom Jo glowered darkly, to Laurie's infinite amusement.
|
|
Two easy chairs stood side by side at the head of the table, in
|
|
which sat Beth and her father, feasting modestly on chicken and a
|
|
little fruit. They drank healths, told stories, sang songs,
|
|
`reminisced', as the old folks say, and had a thoroughly good time.
|
|
A sleigh ride had been planned, but the girls would not leave their
|
|
father, so the guests departed early, and as twilight gathered, the
|
|
happy family sat together round the fire.
|
|
|
|
"Just a year ago we were groaning over the dismal Christmas we
|
|
expected to have. Do you remember?" asked Jo, breaking a short
|
|
pause which had followed a long conversation about many things.
|
|
|
|
"Rather a pleasant year on the whole!" said Meg, smiling at
|
|
the fire, and congratulating herself on having treated Mr. Brooke
|
|
with dignity.
|
|
|
|
"I think it's been a pretty hard one," observed Amy, watching
|
|
the light shine on her ring with thoughtful eyes.
|
|
|
|
"i'm glad it's over, because we've got you back," whispered
|
|
Beth, who sat on her father's knee.
|
|
|
|
"Rather a rough road for you to travel, my little pilgrims,
|
|
especially the latter part of it. But you have got on bravely,
|
|
and I think the burdens are in a fair way to tumble off very soon,"
|
|
said Mr. March, looking with fatherly satisfaction at the four
|
|
young faces gathered round him.
|
|
|
|
"How do you know? Did Mother tell you?' asked Jo.
|
|
|
|
"Not much. Straws show which way the wind blows, and I've
|
|
made several discoveries today."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, tell us what they are!" cried Meg, who sat beside him.
|
|
|
|
"Here is one." And taking up the hand which lay on the arm
|
|
of his chair, he pointed to the roughened forefinger, a burn on
|
|
the back, and two or three little hard spots on the palm. "I
|
|
remember a time when this hand was white and smooth, and your
|
|
first care was to keep it so. It was very pretty then, but to
|
|
me it is much prettier now, for in this seeming blemishes I read
|
|
a little history. A burnt offering has been made to vanity, this
|
|
hardened palm has earned something better than blisters, and I'm
|
|
sure the sewing done by these pricked fingers will last a long
|
|
time, so much good will went into the stitches. Meg, my dear,
|
|
I value the womanly skill which keeps home happy more than white
|
|
hands or fashionable accomplishments. I'm proud to shake this
|
|
good, industrious little hand, and hope I shall not soon be
|
|
asked to give it away."
|
|
|
|
If Meg had wanted a reward for hours of patient labor, she
|
|
received it in the hearty pressure of her father's hand and the
|
|
approving smile he gave her.
|
|
|
|
"What about Jo? Please say something nice, for she has tried
|
|
so hard and been so very, very good to me," said Beth in her father's
|
|
ear.
|
|
|
|
He laughed and looked across at the tall girl who sat opposite,
|
|
with and unusually mild expression in her face.
|
|
|
|
"In spite of the curly crop, I don't see the `son Jo' whom I
|
|
left a year ago," said Mr. March. "I see a young lady who pins
|
|
her collar straight, laces her boots neatly, and neither whistles,
|
|
talks slang, nor lies on the rug as she used to do. Her face is
|
|
rather thin and pale just now, with watching and anxiety, but I
|
|
like to look at it, for it has grown gentler, and her voice is
|
|
lower. She doesn't bounce, but moves quietly, and takes care of
|
|
a certain little person in a motherly way which delights me. I
|
|
rather miss my wild girl, but if I get a strong, helpful, tender-
|
|
hearted woman in her place, I shall feel quite satisfied. I don't
|
|
know whether the shearing sobered our black sheep, but I do know
|
|
that in all Washington I couldn't find anything beautiful enough
|
|
to be bought with the five-and-twenty dollars my good girl sent me."
|
|
|
|
Jo's keen eyes were rather dim for a minute, and her thin
|
|
face grew rosy in the firelight as she received her father's praise,
|
|
feeling that she did deserve a portion of it.
|
|
|
|
"Now, Beth," said Amy, longing for her turn, but ready to wait.
|
|
|
|
"There's so little of her, I'm afraid to say much, for fear
|
|
she will slip away altogether, though she is not so shy as she used
|
|
to be," began their father cheerfully. But recollecting how nearly
|
|
he had lost her, he held her close, saying tenderly, with her cheek
|
|
against his own, "I've got you safe, my Beth, and I'll keep you so,
|
|
please God."
|
|
|
|
After a minute's silence, he looked down at Amy, who sat on
|
|
the cricket at his feet, and said, with a caress of the shining
|
|
hair . . .
|
|
|
|
"I observed that Amy took drumsticks at dinner, ran errands
|
|
for her mother all the afternoon, gave Meg her place tonight, and
|
|
has waited on every on with patience and good humor. I also ob-
|
|
serve that she does not fret much nor look in the glass, and has
|
|
not even mentioned a very pretty ring which she wears, so I con-
|
|
clude that she has learned to think of other people more and of
|
|
herself less, and has decided to try and mold her character as
|
|
carefully as she molds her little clay figures. I am glad of
|
|
this, for though I should be very proud of a graceful statue made
|
|
by her, I shall be infinitely prouder of a lovable daughter with
|
|
a talent for making life beautiful to herself and others."
|
|
|
|
"What are you thinking of, Beth?" asked Jo, when Amy had
|
|
thanked her father and told about her ring.
|
|
|
|
"I read in PILGRIM'S PROGRESS today how, after many troubles,
|
|
christian and Hopeful came to a pleasant green meadow where lilies
|
|
bloomed all year round, and there they rested happily, as we do
|
|
now, before they went on to their journey's end," answered Beth,
|
|
adding, as she slipped out of her father's arms and went to the
|
|
instrument, "It's singing time now, and I want to be in my old
|
|
place. I'll try to sing the song of the shepherd boy which the
|
|
Pilgrims heard. I made the music for Father, because he likes
|
|
the verses."
|
|
|
|
So, sitting at the dear little piano, Beth softly touched the
|
|
keys, and in the sweet voice they had never thought to hear again,
|
|
sang to her own accompaniment the quaint hymn, which was a sing-
|
|
ularly fitting song for her.
|
|
|
|
He that is down need fear no fall,
|
|
He that is low no pride.
|
|
He that is humble ever shall
|
|
Have God to be his guide.
|
|
|
|
I am content with what I have,
|
|
Little be it, or much.
|
|
And, Lord! Contentment still I crave,
|
|
Because Thou savest such.
|
|
|
|
Fulness to them a burden is,
|
|
That go on pilgrimage.
|
|
Here little, and hereafter bliss,
|
|
Is best from age to age!
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
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|
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Like bees swarming after their queen, mother and daughters
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hovered about Mr. March the next day, neglecting everything to
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look at, wait upon, and listen to the new invalid, who was in a
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fair way to be killed by kindness. As he sat propped up in a
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big chair by Beth's sofa, with the other three close by, and
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Hannah popping in her head now and then `to peek at the dear
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|
man', nothing seemed needed to complete their happiness. But
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something was needed, and the elder ones felt it, though none
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|
confessed the fact. Mr. and Mrs. March looked at one another
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with an anxious expression, as their eyes followed Meg. Jo
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|
had sudden fits of sobriety, and was seen to shake her fist at
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Mr. Brooke's umbrella, which had been left in the hall. Meg
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was absent-minded, shy, and silent, started when the bell rang,
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and colored when John's name was mentioned. Amy said, "Every-
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one seemed waiting for something, and couldn't settle down,
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which was queer, since Father was safe at home," and Beth
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innocently wondered why their neighbors didn't run over as
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usual.
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Laurie went by in the afternoon, and seeing Meg at the
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window, seemed suddenly possessed with a melodramatic fit, for
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he fell down on one knee in the snow, beat his breast, tore his
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hair, and clasped his hands imploringly, as if begging some boon.
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And when Meg told him to behave himself and go away, he wrung
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imaginary tears out of his handkerchief, and staggered round the
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corner as if in utter despair.
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"What does the goose mean?" said Meg, laughing and trying to
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look unconscious.
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"He's showing you how your John will go on by-and-by. Touch-
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in, isn't it?" answered Jo scornfully.
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"Don't say my John, it isn't proper or true," but Meg's voice
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lingered over the words as if they sounded pleasant to her. "Please
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don't plague me, Jo, I've told you I don't care much about him, and
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there isn't to be anything said, but we are all to be friendly, and
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go on as before."
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|
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"We can't, for something has been said, and Laurie's mischief
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has spoiled you for me. I see it, and so does Mother. You are not
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|
like your old self a bit, and seem ever so far away from me. I
|
|
don't mean to plague you and will bear it like a man, but I do wish
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it was all settled. I hate to wait, so if you mean ever to do it,
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make haste and have it over quickly," said Jo pettishly.
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"I can't say anything till he speaks, and he won't, because
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Father said I was too young," began Meg, bending over her work
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with a queer little smile, which suggested that she did not quite
|
|
agree with her father on that point.
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|
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"If he did speak, you wouldn't know what to say, but would
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cry or blush, or let him have his own way, instead of giving a
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good, decided no."
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|
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|
"I'm not so silly and weak as you think. I know just what
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I should say, for I've planned it all, so I needn't be taken
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|
unawares. There's no knowing what may happen, and I wished to
|
|
be prepared."
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|
|
|
Jo couldn't help smiling at the important air which Meg had
|
|
unconsciously assumed and which was as becoming as the pretty
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|
color varying in her cheeks.
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|
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"Would you mind telling me what you'd say?" asked Jo more
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|
respectfully.
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|
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|
"Not at all. You are sixteen now, quite old enough to be
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|
my confidente, and my experience will be useful to you by-and-by,
|
|
perhaps, in your own affairs of this sort."
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|
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|
"Don't mean to have any. It's fun to watch other people
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|
philander, but I should feel like a fool doing it myself," said
|
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Jo, looking alarmed at the thought.
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|
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|
"I think not, if you liked anyone very much, and he liked
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|
you." Meg spoke as if to herself, and glanced out at the lane
|
|
where she had often seen lovers walking together in the summer
|
|
twilight.
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|
|
|
"I thought you were going to tell your speech to that man,"
|
|
said Jo, rudely shortening her sister's little reverie.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I should merely say, quite calmly and decidedly, `Thank
|
|
you, Mr. Brooke, you are very kind, but I agree with Father that
|
|
I am too young to enter into any engagement at present, so please
|
|
say no more, but let us be friends as we were."
|
|
|
|
"Hum, that's stiff and cool enough! I don't believe you'll
|
|
ever say it, and I know he won't be satisfied if you do. If he
|
|
goes on like the rejected lovers in books, you'll give in, rather
|
|
than hurt his feelings."
|
|
|
|
"No, I won't. I shall tell him I've made up my mind, and
|
|
shall walk out of the room with dignity."
|
|
|
|
Meg rose as she spoke, and was just going to rehearse the
|
|
dignified exit, when a step in the hall made her fly into her
|
|
seat and begin to sew as fast as if her life depended on finish-
|
|
ing that particular seam in a given time. Jo smothered a laugh
|
|
at the sudden change, and when someone gave a modest tap, opened
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|
the door with a grim aspect which was anything but hospitable.
|
|
|
|
"Good afternoon. I came to get my umbrella, that is, to see
|
|
how your father finds himself today," said Mr. Brooke, getting a
|
|
trifle confused as his eyes went from one telltale face to the
|
|
other.
|
|
|
|
"It's very well, he's in the rack. I'll get him, and tell it
|
|
you are here." And having jumbled her father and the umbrella well
|
|
together in her reply, Jo slipped out of the room to give Meg a
|
|
chance to make her speech and air her dignity. But the instant she
|
|
vanished, Meg began to sidle toward the door, murmuring . . .
|
|
|
|
"Mother will like to see you. Pray sit down, I'll call her."
|
|
|
|
"Don't go. Are you afraid of me, Margaret?" And Mr. Brooke
|
|
looked so hurt that Meg thought she must have done something very
|
|
rude. She blushed up to the little curls on her forehead, for he
|
|
had never called her Margaret before, and she was surprised to
|
|
find how natural and sweet it seemed to hear him say it. Anxious
|
|
to appear friendly and at her ease, she put out her hand with a
|
|
confiding gesture, and said gratefully . . .
|
|
|
|
"How can I be afraid when you have been so kind to Father?
|
|
I only wish I could thank you for it."
|
|
|
|
"Shall I tell you how?" asked Mr. Brooke, holding the small
|
|
hand fast in both his own, and looking down at Meg with so much
|
|
love in the brown eyes that her heart began to flutter, and she
|
|
both longed to run away and to stop and listen.
|
|
|
|
"Oh no, please don't, I'd rather not," she said, trying to
|
|
withdraw her hand, and looking frightened in spite of her denial.
|
|
|
|
"I won't trouble you. I only want to know if you care for
|
|
me a little, Meg. I love you so much, dear," added Mr. Brooke
|
|
tenderly.
|
|
|
|
This was the moment for the calm, proper speech, but Meg
|
|
didn't make it. She forgot every word of it, hung her head, and
|
|
answered, "I don't know," so softly that John had to stoop down
|
|
to catch the foolish little reply.
|
|
|
|
He seemed to think it was worth the trouble, for he smiled
|
|
to himself as if quite satisfied, pressed the plump hand grate-
|
|
fully, and said in his most persuasive tone, "Will you try and
|
|
find out? I want to know so much, for I can't go to work with
|
|
any heart until I learn whether I am to have my reward in the end
|
|
or not."
|
|
|
|
"I'm too young," faltered Meg, wondering was she was so
|
|
fluttered, yet rather enjoying it.
|
|
|
|
"I'll wait, and in the meantime, you could be learning to
|
|
like me. Would it be a very hard lesson, dear?"
|
|
|
|
"Not if I chose to learn it, but . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Please choose to learn, Meg. I love you to teach, and this
|
|
is easier than German," broke in John, getting possession of the
|
|
other hand, so that she had no way of hiding her face as he bent
|
|
to look into it.
|
|
|
|
His tone was properly beseeching, but stealing a shy look
|
|
at him, Meg saw that his eyes were merry as well as tender, and
|
|
that he wore the satisfied smile of one who had no doubt of his
|
|
success. This nettled her. Annie Moffat's foolish lessons in
|
|
coquetry came into her mind, and the love of power, which sleeps
|
|
in the bosoms of the best of little women, woke up all of a
|
|
sudden and took possession of her. She felt excited and
|
|
strange, and not knowing what else to do, followed a capri-
|
|
cious impulse, and, withdrawing her hands, said petulantly,
|
|
"I don't choose. Please go away and let me be!"
|
|
|
|
Poor Mr. Brooke looked as if his lovely castle in the air
|
|
was tumbling about his ears, for he had never seen Meg in such
|
|
a mood before, and it rather bewildered him.
|
|
|
|
"Do you really mean that?" he asked anxiously, following
|
|
her as she walked away.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I do. I don't want to be worried about such things.
|
|
Father says I needn't, it's too soon and I'd rather not."
|
|
|
|
"Mayn't I hope you'll change your mind by-and-by? I'll
|
|
wait and say nothing till you have had more time. Don't play
|
|
with me, Meg. I didn't think that of you."
|
|
|
|
"Don't think of me at all. I'd rather you wouldn't," said
|
|
Meg, taking a naughty satisfaction in trying her lover's patience
|
|
and her own power.
|
|
|
|
He was grave and pale now, and looked decidedly more like
|
|
the novel heroes whom she admired, but he neither slapped his
|
|
forehead nor tramped about the room as they did. He just stood
|
|
looking at her so wistfully, so tenderly, that she found her
|
|
heart relenting in spite of herself. What would have happened
|
|
next I cannot say, if Aunt March had not come hobbling in at
|
|
this interesting minute.
|
|
|
|
The old lady couldn't resist her longing to see her nephew,
|
|
for she had met Laurie as she took her airing, and hearing of
|
|
Mr. March's arrival, drove straight out to see him. The family
|
|
were all busy in the back part of the house, and she had made
|
|
her way quietly in, hoping to surprise them. She did surprise
|
|
two of them so much that Meg started as if she had seen a
|
|
ghost, and Mr. Brooke vanished into the study.
|
|
|
|
"Bless me, what's all this?" cried the old lady with a rap
|
|
of her cane as she glanced from the pale young gentleman to the
|
|
scarlet young lady.
|
|
|
|
"It's Father's friend. I'm so surprised to see you!" stam-
|
|
mered Meg, feeling that she was in for a lecture now.
|
|
|
|
"That's evident," returned Aunt March, sitting down. "But
|
|
what is Father's friend saying to make you look like a peony?
|
|
There's mischief going on, and I insist upon knowing what it
|
|
is," with another rap.
|
|
|
|
"We were only talking. Mr. Brooke came for his umbrella,"
|
|
began Meg, wishing that Mr. Brooke and the umbrella were safely
|
|
out of the house.
|
|
|
|
"Brooke? That boy's tutor? Ah! I understand now. I know
|
|
all about it. Jo blundered into a wrong message in one of your
|
|
Father's letters, and I made her tell me. You haven't gone and
|
|
accepted him, child?" cried Aunt March, looking scandalized.
|
|
|
|
"Hush! He'll hear. Shan't I call Mother?" said Meg, much
|
|
troubled.
|
|
|
|
"Not yet. I've something to say to you, and I must free my
|
|
mind at once. Tell me, do you mean to marry this Cook? If you
|
|
do, not one penny of my money ever goes to you. Remember that,
|
|
and be a sensible girl," said the old lady impressively.
|
|
|
|
Now Aunt March possessed in perfection the art of rousing
|
|
the spirit of opposition in the gentlest people, and enjoyed
|
|
doing it. The best of us have a spice of perversity in us,
|
|
especially when we are young and in love. If Aunt March had
|
|
begged Meg to accept John Brooke, she would probably have
|
|
declared she couldn't think of it, but as she was preemptorily
|
|
ordered not to like him, she immediately made up her mind that
|
|
she would. Inclination as well as perversity made the decision
|
|
easy, and being already much excited, Meg opposed the old lady
|
|
with unusual spirit.
|
|
|
|
"I shall marry whom I please, Aunt March, and you can
|
|
leave your money to anyone you like," she said, nodding her
|
|
head with a resolute air.
|
|
|
|
"Highty-tighty! Is that the way you take my advice, Miss?
|
|
You'll be sorry for it by-and-by, when you've tried love in a
|
|
cottage and found it a failure."
|
|
|
|
"It can't be a worse one than some people find in big
|
|
houses," retorted Meg.
|
|
|
|
Aunt March put on her glasses and took a look at the girl,
|
|
for she did not know her in this new mood. Meg hardly knew
|
|
herself, she felt so brave and independent, so glad to defend
|
|
John and assert her right to love him, if she liked. Aunt March
|
|
saw that she had begun wrong, and after a little pause, made a
|
|
fresh start, saying as mildly as she could, "Now, Meg, my dear,
|
|
be reasonable and take my advice. I mean it kindly, and don't
|
|
want you to spoil your whole life by making a mistake at the
|
|
beginning. You ought to marry well and help your family. It's
|
|
your duty to make a rich match and it ought to be impressed
|
|
upon you."
|
|
|
|
"Father and Mother don't think so. They like John though
|
|
he is poor."
|
|
|
|
"Your parents, my dear, have no more worldly wisdom than a
|
|
pair of babies."
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad of it," cried Meg stoutly.
|
|
|
|
Aunt March took no notice, but went on with her lecture.
|
|
"This Rook is poor and hasn't got any rich relations, has he?"
|
|
|
|
"No, but he has many warm friends."
|
|
|
|
"You can't live on friends, try it and see how cool they'll
|
|
grow. He hasn't any business, has he?"
|
|
|
|
"Not yet. Mr. Laurence is going to help him."
|
|
|
|
"That won't last long. James Laurence is a crotchety old
|
|
fellow and not to be depended on. So you intend to marry a man
|
|
without money, position, or business, and go on working harder
|
|
than you do now, when you might be comfortable all your days
|
|
by minding me and doing better? I thought you had more sense,
|
|
Meg."
|
|
|
|
"I couldn't do better if I waited half my life! John is
|
|
good and wise, he's got heaps of talent, he's willing to work
|
|
and sure to get on, he's so energetic and brave. Everyone likes
|
|
and respects him, and I'm proud to think he cares for me, though
|
|
I'm so poor and young and silly," said Meg, looking prettier than
|
|
ever in her earnestness.
|
|
|
|
"He knows you have got rich relations, child. That's the
|
|
secret of his liking, I suspect."
|
|
|
|
"Aunt March, how dare you say such a thing? John is above
|
|
such meanness, and I won't listen to you a minute if you talk so,"
|
|
cried Meg indignantly, forgetting everything but the injustice of
|
|
the old lady's suspicions. "My John wouldn't marry for money, any
|
|
more than I would. We are willing to work and we mean to wait. I'm
|
|
not afraid of being poor, for I've been happy so far, and I know I
|
|
shall be with him because he loves me, and I . . ."
|
|
|
|
Meg stopped there, remembering all of a sudden that she hadn't
|
|
made up her mind, that she had told `her John' to go away, and that
|
|
he might be overhearing her inconsistent remarks.
|
|
|
|
Aunt March was very angry, for she had set her heart on having
|
|
her pretty niece make a fine match, and something in the girl's
|
|
happy young face made the lonely old woman feel both sad and sour.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I wash my hands of the whole affair! You are a willful
|
|
child, and you've lost more than you know by this piece of folly.
|
|
No, I won't stop. I'm disappointed in you, and haven't spirits to
|
|
see your father now. Don't expect anything from me when you are
|
|
married. Your Mr. Book's friends must take care of you. I'm done
|
|
with you forever."
|
|
|
|
And slamming the door in Meg's face, Aunt March drove off in
|
|
high dudgeon. She seemed to take all the girl's courage with her,
|
|
for when left alone, Meg stood for a moment, undecided whether to
|
|
laugh or cry. Before she could make up her mind, she was taken
|
|
possession of by Mr. Brooke, who said all in one breath, "I couldn't
|
|
help hearing, Meg. Thank you for defending me, and Aunt March for
|
|
proving that you do care for me a little bit."
|
|
|
|
"I didn't know how much till she abused you," began Meg.
|
|
|
|
"And I needn't go away, but my stay and be happy, may I, dear?"
|
|
|
|
Here was another fine chance to make the crushing speech and
|
|
the stately exit, but Meg never thought of doing either, and dis-
|
|
graced herself forever in Jo's eyes by meekly whispering, "Yes,
|
|
John," and hiding her face on Mr. Brooke's waistcoat.
|
|
|
|
Fifteen minutes after Aunt March's departure, Jo came softly
|
|
downstairs, paused an instant at the parlor door, and hearing no
|
|
sound within, nodded and smiled with a satisfied expression, saying
|
|
to herself, "She has seen him away as we planned, and that affair
|
|
is settled. I'll go and hear the fun, and have a good laugh over
|
|
it."
|
|
|
|
But poor Jo never got her laugh, for she was transfixed upon
|
|
the threshold by a spectacle which held her there, staring with
|
|
her mouth nearly as wide open as her eyes. Going in to exult over
|
|
a fallen enemy and to praise a strong-minded sister for the banish-
|
|
ment of an objectionable lover, it certainly was a shock to behold
|
|
the aforesaid enemy serenely sitting on the sofa, with the strong-
|
|
minded sister enthroned upon his knee and wearing an expression of
|
|
the most abject submission. Jo gave a sort of gasp, as if a cold
|
|
shower bath had suddenly fallen upon her, for such an unexpected
|
|
turning of the tables actually took her breath away. At the odd
|
|
sound the lovers turned and saw her. Meg jumped up, looking both
|
|
proud and shy, but `that man', as Jo called him, actually laughed
|
|
and said coolly, as he kissed the astonished newcomer, "Sister Jo,
|
|
congratulate us!"
|
|
|
|
That was adding insult to injury, it was altogether too much,
|
|
and making some wild demonstration with her hands, Jo vanished
|
|
without a word. Rushing upstairs, she startled the invalids by
|
|
exclaiming tragically as she burst into the room, "Oh, do somebody
|
|
go down quick! John Brooke is acting dreadfully, and Meg likes it!"
|
|
|
|
Mr. and Mrs. March left the room with speed, and casting herself
|
|
upon the be, Jo cried and scolded tempestuously as she told the awful
|
|
news to Beth and Amy. The little girls, however, considered it a
|
|
most agreeable and interesting event, and Jo got little comfort from
|
|
them, so she went up to her refuge in the garret, and confided her
|
|
troubles to the rats.
|
|
|
|
Nobody ever knew what went on in the parlor that afternoon, but
|
|
a great deal of talking was done, and quiet Mr. Brooke astonished his
|
|
friends by the eloquence and spirit with which he pleaded his suit,
|
|
told his plans, and persuaded them to arrange everything just as he
|
|
wanted it.
|
|
|
|
The tea bell rang before he had finished describing the paradise
|
|
which he meant to earn for Meg, and he proudly took her in to supper,
|
|
both looking so happy that Jo hadn't the heart to be jealous or dismal.
|
|
Amy was very much impressed by John's devotion and Meg's dignity, Beth
|
|
beamed at them from a distance, while Mr. and Mrs. March surveyed the
|
|
young couple with such tender satisfaction that it was perfectly
|
|
evident Aunt March was right in calling them as `unworldly as a pair
|
|
of babies'. No one ate much, but everyone looked very happy, and the
|
|
old room seemed to brighten up amazingly when the first romance of
|
|
the family began there.
|
|
|
|
"You can't say nothing pleasant ever happens now, can you, Meg?"
|
|
said Amy, trying to decide how she would group the lovers in a sketch
|
|
she was planning to make.
|
|
|
|
"No, I'm sure I can't. How much has happened since I said that!
|
|
It seems a year ago," answered Meg, who was in a blissful dream
|
|
lifted far above such common things as bread and butter.
|
|
|
|
"The joys come close upon the sorrows this time, and I rather
|
|
think the changes have begun," said Mrs. March. "In most families
|
|
there comes, now and then, a year full of events. This has been such
|
|
a one, but it ends well, after all."
|
|
|
|
"Hope the next will end better," muttered Jo, who found it very
|
|
hard to see Meg absorbed in a stranger before her face, for Jo loved
|
|
a few persons very dearly and dreaded to have their affection lost
|
|
or lessened in any way.
|
|
|
|
"I hope the third year from this will end better. I mean it
|
|
shall, if I live to work out my plans," said Mr. Brooke, smiling at
|
|
Meg, as if everything had become possible to him now.
|
|
|
|
"Doesn't it seem very long to wait?" asked Amy, who was in a
|
|
hurry for the wedding.
|
|
|
|
"I've got so much to learn before I shall be ready, it seems
|
|
a short time to me," answered Meg, with a sweet gravity in her face
|
|
never seen there before.
|
|
|
|
"You have only to wait, I am to do the work," said John begin-
|
|
ning his labors by picking up Meg's napkin, with an expression which
|
|
caused Jo to shake her head, and then say to herself with an air of
|
|
relief as the front door banged, "Here comes Laurie. Now we shall
|
|
have some sensible conversation."
|
|
|
|
But Jo was mistaken, for Laurie came prancing in, overflowing
|
|
with good spirits, bearing a great bridal-looking bouquet for `Mrs.
|
|
John Brooke', and evidently laboring under the delusion that the
|
|
whole affair had been brought about by his excellent management.
|
|
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"I knew Brooke would have it all his own way, he always does,
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for when he makes up his mind to accomplish anything, it's done
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though the sky falls," said Laurie, when he had presented his
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offering and his congratulations.
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"Much obliged for that recommendation. I take it as a good
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omen for the future and invite you to my wedding on the spot,"
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answered Mr. Brooke, who felt at peace with all mankind, even his
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mischievous pupil.
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"I'll come if I'm at the ens of the earth, for the sight of
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Jo's face alone on that occasion would be worth a long journey.
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You don't look festive, ma'am, what's the matter?" asked Laurie,
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following her into a corner of the parlor, whither all had adjourned
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to greet Mr. Laurence.
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"I don't approve of the match, but I've made up my mind to bear
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it, and shall not say a word against it," said Jo solemnly. "You
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can't know how hard it is for me to give up Meg," she continued
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with a little quiver in her voice.
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"You don't give her up. You only go halves," said Laurie
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consolingly.
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"It can never be the same again. I've lost my dearest friend,"
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sighed Jo.
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"You've got me, anyhow. I'm not good for much, I know, but
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I'll stand by you, Jo, all the days of my life. Upon my word I will!"
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And Laurie meant what he said.
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"I know you will, and I'm ever so much obliged. You are always
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a great comfort to me, Teddy," returned Jo, gratefully shaking hands.
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"Well, now, don't be dismal, there's a good fellow. It's all
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right you see. Meg is happy, Brooke will fly round and get settled
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immediately, Grandpa will attend to him, and it will be very jolly
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to see Meg in her own little house. We'll have capital times after
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she is gone, for I shall be through college before long, and then
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we'll go abroad on some nice trip or other. Wouldn't that console you?"
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"I rather think it would, but there's no knowing what may happen
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in three years," said Jo thoughtfully.
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"That's true. Don't you wish you could take a look forward and
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wee where we shall all be then? I do," returned Laurie.
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"I think not, for I might see something sad, and everyone looks
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so happy now, I don't believe they could be much improved." And Jo's
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eyes went slowly round the room, brightening as they looked, for the
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prospect was a pleasant one.
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Father and Mother sat together, quietly reliving the first
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chapter of the romance which for them began some twenty years ago.
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Amy was drawing the lovers,who sat apart in a beautiful world of
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their own, the light of which touched their faces with a grace the
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little artist could not copy. Beth lay on her sofa, talking cheerily
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with her old friend, who held her little hand as if he felt that it
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possessed the power to lead him along the peaceful way she walked.
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Jo lounged in her favorite low seat, with the grave quiet look which
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best became her, and Laurie, leaning on the back of her chair, his
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chin on a level with her curly head, smiled with his friendliest
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aspect, and nodded at her in the long glass which reflected them
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both.
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So the curtain falls upon Meg, Jo, Beth, and Amy. Whether it
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ever rises again, depends upon the reception give the first act of
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the domestic drama called LITTLE WOMEN.
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LITTLE WOMEN PART 2
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CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
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In order that we may start afresh and go to Meg's wedding
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with free minds, it will be well to begin with a little gossip
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about the Marches. And here let me premise that if any of the
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elders think there is too much `lovering' in the story, as I fear
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they may (I'm not afraid the young folks will make that objection),
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I can only say with Mrs. March, "What can you expect when I have
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four gay girls in the house, and a dashing young neighbor over the
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way?"
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The three years that have passed have brought but few changes
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to the quiet family. The war is over, and Mr. March safely at
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home,busy with his books and the small parish which found in him
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a minister by nature as by grace, a quiet, studious man, rich in
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the wisdom that is better than learning, the charity which calls
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all mankind `brother', the piety that blossoms into character,
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making it august and lovely.
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These attributes, in spite of poverty and the strict integrity
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which shut him out from the more worldly successes, attracted to
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him many admirable persons, as naturally as sweet herbs draw bees,
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and as naturally he gave them the honey into which fifty years of
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hard experience had distilled no bitter drop. Earnest young men
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found the gray-headed scholar as young at heart as they, thoughtful
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or troubled women instinctively brought their doubts to him, sure
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of finding the gentlest sympathy, the wisest counsel. Sinners told
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their sins to the pure-hearted old man and were both rebuked and
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saved. Gifted men found a companion in him. Ambitious men caught
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glimpses of nobler ambitions than their own, and even worldlings
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confessed that his beliefs were beautiful and true, although `they
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wouldn't pay'.
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To outsiders the five energetic women seemed to rule the house,
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and so they did in many things, but the quiet scholar, sitting among
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his books, was still the head of the family, the household conscience,
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anchor, and comforter, for to him the busy, anxious women always
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turned in troublous times, finding him, in the truest sense of those
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sacred words, husband and father.
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The girls gave their hearts into their mother's keeping, their
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souls into their father's, and to both parents, who lived and labored
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so faithfully for them, they gave a love that grew with their growth
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and bound them tenderly together by the sweetest tie which blesses
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life and outlives death.
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Mrs. March is as brisk and cheery, though rather grayer, than
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when we saw her last, and just now so absorbed in Meg's affairs that
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the hospitals and homes still full of wounded `boys' and soldiers'
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widows, decidedly miss the motherly missionary's visits.
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John Brooke did his duty manfully for a year, got wounded, was
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sent home, and not allowed to return. He received no stars or bars,
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but he deserved them, for he cheerfully risked all he had, and life
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and love are very precious when both are in full bloom. Perfectly
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|
resigned to his discharge, he devoted himself to getting well, pre-
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|
paring for business, and earning a home for Meg. With the good
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|
sense and sturdy independence that characterized him, he refused
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|
Mr. Laurence's more generous offers, and accepted the place of book-
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keeper, feeling better satisfied to begin with an honestly earned
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salary than by running any risks with borrowed money.
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Meg had spent the time in working as well as waiting, growing
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womanly in character, wise in housewifely arts, and prettier than
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|
ever, for love is a great beautifier. She had her girlish ambitions
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|
and hopes, and felt some disappointment at the humble way in which
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the new life must begin. Ned Moffat had just married Sallie Gardi-
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ner, and Meg couldn't help contrasting their fine house and carriage,
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|
many gifts, and splendid outfit with her own, and secretly wishing
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|
she could have the same. But somehow envy and discontent soon van-
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|
ished when she thought of all the patient love and labor John had
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|
put into the little home awaiting her, and when they sat together in
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the twilight, talking over their small plans, the future always grew
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so beautiful and bright that she forgot Sallie's splendor and felt
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herself the richest, happiest girl in Christendom.
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Jo never went back to Aunt March, for the old lady took such
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a fancy to AMy that she bribed her with the offer of drawing lessons
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|
from one of the best teachers going, and for the sake of this advan-
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tage, Amy would have served a far harder mistress. So she gave her
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|
mornings to duty, her afternoons to pleasure, and prospered finely.
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Jo meantime devoted herself to literature and Beth, who remained
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delicate long after the fever was a thing of the past. Not an in-
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|
valid exactly, but never again the rosy, healthy creature she had
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|
been, yet always hopeful, happy, and serene, and busy with the quiet
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|
duties she loved, everyone's friend, and an angel in the house, long
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|
before those who loved her most had learned to know it.
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As long as THE SPREAD EAGLE paid her a dollar a column for her
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`rubbish', as she called it, Jo felt herself a woman of means, and
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spun her little romances diligently. But great plans fermented in
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|
her busy brain and ambitious mind, and the old tin kitchen in the
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garret held a slowly increasing pile of blotted manuscript, which
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was one day to place the name of March upon the roll of fame.
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Laurie, having dutifully gone to college to please his grand-
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|
father, was now getting through it in the easiest possible manner
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|
to please himself. A universal favorite, thanks to money, manners,
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|
much talent, and the kindest heart that ever got its owner into
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|
scrapes by trying to get other people out of them, he stood in
|
|
great danger of being spoiled, and probably would have been, like
|
|
many another promising boy, if he had not possessed a talisman
|
|
against evil in the memory of the kind old man who was bound up in
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|
his success, the motherly friend who watched over him as if he were
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|
her son, and last, but not least by any means, the knowledge that
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four innocent girls loved, admired, and believed in him with all
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|
their hearts.
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Being only `a glorious human boy', of course he frolicked and
|
|
flirted, grew dandified, aquatic, sentimental, or gymnastic, as
|
|
college fashions ordained, hazed and was hazed, talked slang, and
|
|
more than once came perilously near suspension and expulsion. But
|
|
as high spirits and the love of fun were the causes of these pranks,
|
|
he always managed to save himself by frank confession, honorable
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|
atonement, or the irresistible power of persuasion which he possessed
|
|
in perfection. In fact, he rather prided himself on his narrow
|
|
escapes, and liked to thrill the girls with graphic accounts of his
|
|
triumphs over wrathful tutors, dignified professors, and vanquished
|
|
enemies. The `men of my class', were heroes in the eyes of the girls,
|
|
who never wearied of the exploits of `our fellows', and were frequently
|
|
allowed to bask in the smiles of these great creatures, when Laurie
|
|
brought them home with him.
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|
Amy especially enjoyed this high honor, and became quite a belle
|
|
among them, for her ladyship early felt and learned to use the gift
|
|
of fascination with which she was endowed. Meg was too much absorbed
|
|
in her private and particular John to care for any other lords of
|
|
creation, and Beth too shy to do more than peep at them and wonder
|
|
how Amy dared to order them about so, but Jo felt quite in her own
|
|
element, and found it very difficult to refrain from imitating the
|
|
gentlemanly attitudes, phrases, and feats, which seemed more natural
|
|
to her than the decorums prescribed for young ladies. They all liked
|
|
Jo immensely, but never fell in love with her, though very few escaped
|
|
without paying the tribute of a sentimental sigh or two at Amy's
|
|
shrine. And speaking of sentiment brings us very naturally to the
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|
`Dovecote'.
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|
That was the name of the little brown house Mr. Brooke had pre-
|
|
pared for Meg's first home. Laurie had christened it, saying it was
|
|
highly appropriate to the gentle lovers who `went on together like a
|
|
pair of turtledoves, with first a bill and then a coo'. It was a
|
|
tiny house, with a little garden behind and a lawn about as big as a
|
|
pocket handkerchief in the front. Here Meg meant to have a fountain,
|
|
shrubbery, and a profusion of lovely flowers, though just at present
|
|
the fountain was represented by a weather-beaten urn, very like a
|
|
dilapidated slopbowl, the shrubbery consisted of several young larches,
|
|
undecided whether to live or die, and the profusion of flowers was
|
|
merely hinted by regiments of sticks to show where seeds were planted.
|
|
But inside, it was altogether charming, and the happy bride saw no
|
|
fault from garret to cellar. To be sure, the hall was so narrow it
|
|
was fortunate that they had no piano, for one never could have been
|
|
got in whole, the dining room was so small that six people were a
|
|
tight fit, and the kitchen stairs seemed built for the express pur-
|
|
pose of precipitating both servants and china pell-mell into the
|
|
coalbin. But once get used to these slight blemishes and nothing
|
|
could be more complete, for good sense and good taste had presided
|
|
over the furnishing, and the result was highly satisfactory. There
|
|
were no marble-topped tables, long mirrors, or lace curtains in the
|
|
little parlor, but simple furniture, plenty of books, a fine picture
|
|
or two, a stand of flowers in the bay window, and, scattered all
|
|
about, the pretty gifts which came from friendly hands and were the
|
|
fairer for the loving messages they brought.
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|
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|
I don't think the Parian Psyche Laurie gave lost any of its
|
|
beauty because John put up the bracket it stood upon, that any
|
|
upholsterer could have draped the plain muslin curtains more grace-
|
|
fully than Amy's artistic hand, or that any store-room was ever
|
|
better provided with good wishes, merry words, and happy hopes
|
|
than that in which Jo and her mother put away Meg's few boxes,
|
|
barrels, and bundles, and I am morally certain that the spandy new
|
|
kitchen never could have looked so cozy and neat if Hannah had not
|
|
arranged every pot and pan a dozen times over, and laid the fire
|
|
all ready for lighting the minute `Mis. Brooke came home'. I also
|
|
doubt if any young matron ever began life with so rich a supply of
|
|
dusters, holders, and piece bags,for Beth made enough to last till
|
|
the silver wedding came round, and invented three different kinds
|
|
of dishcloths for the express service of the bridal china.
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|
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|
People who hire all these things done for them never know
|
|
what they lose, for the homeliest tasks get beautified if loving
|
|
hands do them, and Meg found so many proofs of this that every-
|
|
thing in her small nest, from the kitchen roller to the silver
|
|
vase on her parlor table, was eloquent of home love and tender
|
|
forethought.
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|
|
|
What happy times they had planning together, what solemn
|
|
shopping excursions, what funny mistakes they made, and what
|
|
shouts of laughter arose over Laurie's ridiculous bargains. In
|
|
his love of jokes, this young gentleman, though nearly through
|
|
college, was a much of a boy as ever. His last whim had been to
|
|
bring with him on his weekly visits some new, useful, and ingenious
|
|
article for the young housekeeper. Now a bag of remarkable clothes-
|
|
pins, next, a wonderful nutmeg grater which fell to pieces at the
|
|
first trial, a knife cleaner that spoiled all the knives, or a
|
|
sweeper that picked the nap neatly off the carpet and left the dirt,
|
|
labor-saving soap that took the skin off one's hands, infallible
|
|
cements which stuck firmly to nothing but the fingers of the de-
|
|
luded buyer, and every kind of tinware, from a toy savings bank for
|
|
odd pennies, to a wonderful boiler which would wash articles in its
|
|
own steam with every prospect of exploding in the process.
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|
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|
In vain Meg begged him to stop. John laughed at him, and Jo
|
|
called him `Mr. Toodles'. He was possessed with a mania for pat-
|
|
ronizing Yankee ingenuity, and seeing his friends fitly furnished
|
|
forth. So each week beheld some fresh absurdity.
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|
|
|
Everything was done at last, even to Amy's arranging different
|
|
colored soaps to match the different colored rooms, and Beth's sett-
|
|
ing the table for the first meal.
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|
|
|
"Are you satisfied? Does it seem like home, and do you feel
|
|
as if you should be happy here?" asked Mrs. March, as she and her
|
|
daughter went through the new kingdom arm in arm, for just then
|
|
they seemed to cling together more tenderly than ever.
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|
|
|
"Yes, Mother, perfectly satisfied, thanks to you all, and so
|
|
happy that I can't talk about it," with a look that was far better
|
|
than words.
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|
|
|
"If she only had a servant or two it would be all right," said
|
|
Amy, coming out of the parlor, where she had been trying to decide
|
|
whether the bronze Mercury looked best on the whatnot or the mantle-
|
|
piece.
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|
|
|
"Mother and I have talked that over, and I have made up my
|
|
mind to try her way first. There will be so little to do that with
|
|
Lotty to run my errands and help me here and there, I shall only
|
|
have enough work to keep me from getting lazy or homesick," answered
|
|
Meg tranquilly.
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|
|
|
"Sallie Moffat has four," began Amy.
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|
|
|
"If Meg had four, the house wouldn't hold them, and master and
|
|
missis would have to camp in the garden," broke in Jo, who, enveloped
|
|
in a big blue pinafore, was giving the last polish to the door handles.
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|
|
|
"Sallie isn't a poor man's wife, and many maids are in keeping
|
|
with her fine establishment. Meg and John begin humbly, but I have
|
|
a feeling that there will be quite as much happiness in the little
|
|
house as in the big one. It's a great mistake for young girls like
|
|
Meg to leave themselves nothing to do but dress, give orders, and
|
|
gossip. When I was first married, I used to long for my new clothes
|
|
to wear out or get torn, so that i might have the pleasure of mending
|
|
them, for I got heartily sick of doing fancywork and tending my poc-
|
|
ket handkerchief."
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|
|
|
"Why didn't you go into the kitchen and make messes, as Sallie
|
|
says she does to amuse herself, though they never turn out well and
|
|
the servants laugh at her," said Meg.
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|
|
|
"I did after a while, not to `mess' but to learn of Hannah how
|
|
things should be done, that my servants need not laugh at me. It
|
|
was play then, but there came a time when I was truly grateful that
|
|
I not only possessed the will but the power to cook wholesome food
|
|
for my little girls, and help myself when I could no longer afford
|
|
to hire help. You begin at the other end, Meg, dear, but the lessons
|
|
you learn now will be of use to you by-and-by when John is a richer
|
|
man, for the mistress of a house, however splendid, should know how
|
|
work ought to be done, if she wishes to be well and honestly served."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Mother, I'm sure of that," said Meg, listening respect-
|
|
fully to the little lecture, for the best of women will hold forth
|
|
upon the all absorbing subject of house keeping. "Do you know I
|
|
like this room most of all in my baby house," added Meg, a minute
|
|
after, as they went upstairs and she looked into her well-stored
|
|
linen closet.
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|
|
Beth was there, laying the snowy piles smoothly on the shelves
|
|
and exulting over the goodly array. All three laughed as Meg spoke,
|
|
for that linen closet was a joke. You see, having said that if Meg
|
|
married `that Brooke' she shouldn't have a cent of her money, Aunt
|
|
March was rather in a quandary when time had appeased her wrath and
|
|
made her repent her vow. She never broke her word, and was much
|
|
exercised in her mind how to get round it, and at last devised a
|
|
plan whereby she could satisfy herself. Mrs. Carrol, Florence's
|
|
mamma, was ordered to buy, have made, and marked a generous supply
|
|
of house and table linen, and send it as her present, all of which
|
|
was faithfully done, but the secret leaked out, and was greatly
|
|
enjoyed by the family, for Aunt March tried to look utterly uncon-
|
|
scious, and insisted that she could give nothing but the old-
|
|
fashioned pearls long promised to the first bride.
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|
|
|
"That's a housewifely taste which I am glad to see. I had a
|
|
young friend who set up housekeeping with six sheets, but she had
|
|
finger bowls for company and that satisfied her," said Mrs. March,
|
|
patting the damask tablecloths, with a truly feminine appreciation
|
|
of their fineness.
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|
|
|
"I haven't a single finger bowl, but this is a setout that will
|
|
last me all my days, Hannah says." And Meg looked quite contented,
|
|
as well she might.
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|
|
|
A tall, broad-shouldered young fellow, with a cropped head, a
|
|
felt basin of a hat, and a flyaway coat, came tramping down the
|
|
road at a great pace, walked over the low fence without stopping to
|
|
open the gate, straight up to Mrs. March, with both hands out and
|
|
a hearty . ..
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|
|
|
"Here I am, Mother! Yes, it's all right."
|
|
|
|
The last words were in answer to the look the elder lady gave
|
|
him, a kindly questioning look which the handsome eyes met so
|
|
frankly that the little ceremony closed, as usual, with a motherly
|
|
kiss.
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|
|
|
"For Mrs. John Brooke, with the maker's congratulations and
|
|
compliments. Bless you, Beth! What a refreshing spectacle you
|
|
are, Jo. Amy, you are getting altogether too handsome for a
|
|
single lady."
|
|
|
|
As Laurie spoke, he delivered a brown paper parcel to Meg,
|
|
pilled Beth's hair ribbon, stared at Jo's bib pinafore, and fell
|
|
into an attitude of mock rapture before Amy, then shook hands all
|
|
round, and everyone began to talk.
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|
|
|
"Where is John?" asked Meg anxiously.
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|
|
|
"Stopped to get the license for tomorrow, ma'am."
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|
|
|
"Which side won the last match, Teddy?" inquired Jo, who per-
|
|
sisted in feeling an interest in manly sports despite her nineteen
|
|
years.
|
|
|
|
"Ours, of course. Wish you'd been there to see."
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|
|
|
"How is the lovely Miss Randal?" asked Amy with a significant
|
|
smile.
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|
|
|
"More cruel than ever. Don't you see how I'm pining away?"
|
|
And Laurie gave his broad chest a sounding slap and heaved a
|
|
melodramatic sigh.
|
|
|
|
"What's the last joke? Undo the bundle and see, Meg," said
|
|
Beth, eying the knobby parcel with curiosity.
|
|
|
|
"It's a useful thing to have in the house in case of fire
|
|
or thieves," observed Laurie, as a watchman's rattle appeared,
|
|
amid the laughter of the girls.
|
|
|
|
"Any time when John is away and you get frightened, Mrs.
|
|
Meg, just swing that out of the front window, and it will rouse
|
|
the neighborhood in a jiffy. Nice thing, isn't it?" And Laurie
|
|
gave them a sample of its powers that made them cover up their ears.
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|
|
|
"There's gratitude for you! And speaking of gratitude reminds
|
|
me to mention that you may thank Hannah for saving your wedding cake
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from destruction. I saw it going into your house as I came by, and
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if she hadn't defended it manfully I'd have had a pick at it, for it
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looked like a remarkably plummy one."
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"I wonder if you will ever grow up, Laurie," said Meg in a
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matronly tone.
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"I'm doing my best, ma'am, but can't get much higher, I'm afraid,
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as six feet is about all men can do in these degenerate days," res-
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ponded the young gentleman, whose head was about level with the little
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chandelier.
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"I suppose it would be profanation to eat anything in this spick-
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and-span bower, so as I'm tremendously hungry, I propose an adjourn-
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ment," he added presently.
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"Mother and I are going to wait for John. There are some last
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things to settle," said Meg, bustling away.
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"Beth and I are going over to Kitty Bryant's to get more flowers
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for tomorrow," added Amy, tying a picturesque hat over her picturesque
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curls, and enjoying the effect as much as anybody.
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"Come, Jo, don't desert a fellow. I'm in such a state of exhaus-
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tion I can't get home without help. Don't take off your apron,
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whatever you do, it's peculiarly becoming," said Laurie, as Jo bestowed
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his especial aversion in her capacious pocket and offered her arm to
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support his feeble steps.
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"Now, Teddy, I want to talk seriously to you about tomorrow,"
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began Jo, as they strolled away together. "You must promise to
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behave well, and not cut up any pranks, and spoil our plans."
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"Not a prank."
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"And don't say funny things when we ought to be sober."
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"I never do. You are the one for that."
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"And I implore you not to look at me during the ceremony. I
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shall certainly laugh if you do."
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"You won't see me, you'll be crying so hard that the thick fog
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round you will obscure the prospect."
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"I never cry unless for some great affliction."
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"Such as fellows going to college, hey?" cut in Laurie, with
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suggestive laugh.
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"Don't be a peacock. I only moaned a trifle to keep the girls
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company."
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"Exactly. I say, Jo, how is Grandpa this week? Pretty amiable?"
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"Very. Why, have you got into a scrape and want to know how
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he'll take it?" asked Jo rather sharply.
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"Now, Jo, do you think I'd look your mother in the face and say
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`All right', if it wasn't?" And Laurie stopped short, with an injured
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air.
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"No, I don't."
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"Then don't go and be suspicious. I only want some money," said
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Laurie, walking on again, appeased by her hearty tone.
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"You spend a great deal, Teddy."
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"Bless you, I don't spend it, it spends itself somehow, and is
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gone before I know it."
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"You are so generous and kind-hearted that you let people borrow,
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and can't say `No' to anyone. We heard about Henshaw and all you did
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for him. If you always spent money in that way, no one would blame
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you," said Jo warmly.
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"Oh, he made a mountain out of a molehill. You wouldn't have me
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let that fine fellow work himself to death just for want of a little
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help, when he is worth a dozen of us lazy chaps, would you?"
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"Of course not, but I don't see the use of your having seventeen
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waistcoats, endless neckties, and a new hat every time you come home.
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I thought you'd got over the dandy period, but every now and then it
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breaks out in a new spot. Just now it's the fashion to be hideous,
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to make your head look like a scrubbing brush, wear a strait jacket,
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orange gloves, and clumping square-toed boots. If it was cheap
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ugliness, I'd say nothing, but it costs as much as the other, and I
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don't get any satisfaction out of it."
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Laurie threw back his head, and laughed so heartily at this
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attack, that the felt hat fell off, and Jo walked on it, which
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insult only afforded him an opportunity for expatiating on the ad-
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vantages of a rough-and-ready costume, as he folded up the maltreated
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hat, and stuffed it into his pocket.
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"Don't lecture any more, there's a good soul! I have enough
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all through the week, and like to enjoy myself when I come home.
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I'll get myself up regardless of expense tomorrow and be a satis-
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faction to my friends."
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"I'll leave you in peace if you'll only let your hair grow.
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I'm not aristocratic, but I do object to being seen with a person
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who looks like a young prize fighter," observed Jo severely.
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"This unassuming style promotes study, that's why we adopt it,"
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returned Laurie, who certainly could not be accused of vanity, having
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voluntarily sacrificed a handsome curly crop to the demand for quarter-
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inch-long stubble.
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"By the way, Jo, I think that little Parker is really getting
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desperate about Amy. He talks of her constantly, writes poetry, and
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moons about in a most suspicious manner. He'd better nip his little
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passion in the bud, hadn't he?" added Laurie, in a confidential,
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elder brotherly tone, after a minute's silence.
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"Of course he had. We don't want any more marrying in this
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|
family for years to come. Mercy on us, what are the children think-
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ing of?" And Jo looked as much scandalized as if Amy and little
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Parker were not yet in their teens.
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"It's a fast age, and I don't know what we are coming to, ma'am.
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You are a mere infant, but you'll go next, Jo, and we'll be left
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lamenting," said Laurie, shaking his head over the degeneracy of the
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|
times.
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"Don't be alarmed. I'm not one of the agreeable sort. Nobody
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|
will want me, and it's a mercy, for there should always be one old
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|
maid in a family."
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"You won't give anyone a chance," said Laurie, with a sidelong
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|
glance and a little more color than before in his sunburned face.
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|
"You won't show the soft side of your character, and if a fellow
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|
gets a peep at it by accident and can't help showing that he likes
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it, you treat him as Mrs. Gummidge did her sweetheart, throw cold
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|
water over him, and get so thorny no one dares touch or look at you."
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"I don't like that sort of thing. I'm too busy to be worried
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|
with nonsense, and I think it's dreadful to break up families so.
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|
Now don't say any more about it. Meg's wedding has turned all our
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|
heads, and we talk of nothing but lovers and such absurdities. I
|
|
don't wish to get cross, so let's change the subject." And Jo
|
|
looked quite ready to fling cold water on the slightest provocation.
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Whatever his feelings might have been, Laurie found a vent for
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|
them in a long low whistle and the fearful prediction as they parted
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at the gate, "Mark my words, Jo, you'll go next."
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CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
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The June roses over the porch were awake bright and early on
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that morning, rejoicing with all their hearts in the cloudless sun-
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|
shine, like friendly little neighbors, as they were. Quite flushed
|
|
with excitement were their ruddy faces, as they swung in the wind,
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|
whispering to one another what they had seen, for some peeped in at
|
|
the dining room windows where the feast was spread, some climbed up
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|
to nod and smile at the sisters as they dressed the bride, others
|
|
waved a welcome to those who came and went on various errands in
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|
garden, porch, and hall, and all, from the rosiest full-blown
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|
flower to the palest baby bud, offered their tribute of beauty and
|
|
fragrance to the gentle mistress who had loved and tended them so
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|
long.
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|
Meg looked very like a rose herself, for all that was best and
|
|
sweetest in heart and soul seemed to bloom into her face that day,
|
|
making it fair and tender, with a charm more beautiful than beauty.
|
|
Neither silk, lace, nor orange flowers would she have. "I don't
|
|
want a fashionable wedding, but only those about me whom I love,
|
|
and to them I wish to look and be my familiar self."
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|
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|
So she made her wedding gown herself, sewing into it the tender
|
|
hopes and innocent romances of a girlish heart. her sisters braided
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|
up her pretty hair, and the only ornaments she wore were the lilies
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|
of the valley, which `her John' liked best of all the flowers that
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|
grew.
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|
"You do look just like our own dear Meg, only so very sweet
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|
and lovely that I should hug you if it wouldn't crumple your dress,"
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|
cried Amy, surveying her with delight when all was done.
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|
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|
"Then I am satisfied. But please hug and kiss me, everyone,
|
|
and don't mind my dress. I want a great many crumples of this
|
|
sort put into it today." And Meg opened her arms to her sisters,
|
|
who clung about her with April faces for a minute, feeling that
|
|
the new love had not changed the old.
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|
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|
"Now I'm going to tie John's cravat for him, and then to stay
|
|
a few minutes with Father quietly in the study." And Meg ran
|
|
down to perform these little ceremonies, and then to follow her
|
|
mother wherever she went, conscious that in spite of the smiles
|
|
on the motherly face, there was a secret sorrow hid in the motherly
|
|
heart at the flight of the first bird from the nest.
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|
|
|
As the younger girls stand together, giving the last touches
|
|
to their simple toilet, it may be a good time to tell of a few
|
|
changes which three years have wrought in their appearance, for
|
|
all are looking their best just now.
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|
|
|
Jo's angles are much softened, she has learned to carry her-
|
|
self with ease, if not grace. The curly crop has lengthened into
|
|
a thick coil, more becoming to the small head atop of the tall
|
|
figure. There is a fresh color in her brown cheeks, a soft shine
|
|
in her eyes, and only gentle words fall from her sharp tongue
|
|
today.
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|
|
|
Beth has grown slender, pale, and more quiet than ever. The
|
|
beautiful, kind eyes are larger, and in them lies an expression
|
|
that saddens one, although it is not sad itself. It is the shadow
|
|
of pain which touches the young face with such pathetic patience,
|
|
but Beth seldom complains and always speaks hopefully of `being
|
|
better soon'.
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|
|
|
Amy is with truth considered `the flower of the family', for
|
|
at sixteen she has the air and bearing of a full-grown woman, not
|
|
beautiful, but possessed of that indescribable charm called grace.
|
|
One saw it in the lines of her figure, the make and motion of her
|
|
hands, the flow of her dress, the droop of her hair, unconscious
|
|
yet harmonious, and as attractive to many as beauty itself. Amy's
|
|
nose still afflicted her, for it never would grow Grecian, so did
|
|
her mouth, being too wide,and having a decided chin. These off-
|
|
ending features gave character to her whole face, but she never
|
|
could see it, and consoled herself with her wonderfully fair com-
|
|
plexion, keen blue eyes, and curls more golden and abundant than
|
|
ever.
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|
|
|
All three wore suits of thin silver gray (their best gowns for
|
|
the summer), with blush roses in hair and bosom, and all three
|
|
looked just what they were, fresh-faced, happy-hearted girls, pausing
|
|
a moment in their busy lives to read with wistful eyes the sweetest
|
|
chapter in the romance of womanhood.
|
|
|
|
There were to be no ceremonious performances, everything was
|
|
to be as natural and homelike as possible, so when Aunt March
|
|
arrived, she was scandalized to see the bride come running to wel-
|
|
come and lead her in, to find the bridegroom fastening up a garland
|
|
that had fallen down, and to catch a glimpse of the paternal minister
|
|
marching upstairs with a grave countenance and a wine bottle under
|
|
each arm.
|
|
|
|
"Upon my word, here's a state of things!" cried the old lady,
|
|
taking the seat of honor prepared for her, and settling the folds
|
|
of her lavender moire with a great rustle. "You oughtn't to be
|
|
seen till the last minute, child."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not a show, Aunty, and no one is coming to stare at me,
|
|
to criticize my dress, or count the cost of my luncheon. I'm too
|
|
happy to care what anyone says or thinks, and I'm going to have
|
|
my little wedding just as I like it. John, dear, here's your
|
|
hammer." And away went Meg to help `that man' in his highly im-
|
|
proper employment.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Brooke didn't even say, "Thank you," but as he stooped
|
|
for the unromantic tool, he kissed his little bride behind the
|
|
folding door, with a look that made Aunt March whisk out her
|
|
pocket handkerchief with a sudden dew in her sharp old eyes.
|
|
|
|
A crash, a cry, and a laugh from Laurie, accompanied by the
|
|
indecorous exclamation, "Jupiter Ammon! Jo's upset the cake again!"
|
|
caused a momentary flurry, which was hardly over when a flock of
|
|
cousins arrived, and `the party came in', as Beth used to say when
|
|
a child.
|
|
|
|
"Don't let that young giant come near me, he worries me worse
|
|
than mosquitoes," whispered the old lady to Amy, as the rooms filled
|
|
and Laurie's black head towered above the rest.
|
|
|
|
"He has promised to be very good today, and he can be perfectly
|
|
elegant if he likes," returned Amy, and gliding away to warn Her-
|
|
cules to beware of the dragon, which warning caused him to haunt the
|
|
old lady with a devotion that nearly distracted her.
|
|
|
|
There was no bridal procession, but a sudden silence fell upon
|
|
the room as Mr. March and the young couple took their places under
|
|
the green arch. Mother and sisters gathered close, as if loath to
|
|
give Meg up. The fatherly voice broke more than once, which only
|
|
seemed to make the service more beautiful and solemn. The bride-
|
|
groom's hand trembled visibly, and no one heard his replies. But
|
|
Meg looked straight up in her husband's eyes, and said, "I will!"
|
|
with such tender trust in her own face and voice that her mother's
|
|
heart rejoiced and Aunt March sniffed audibly.
|
|
|
|
Jo did not cry, though she was very near it once, and was only
|
|
saved from a demonstration by the consciousness that Laurie was
|
|
staring fixedly at her, with a comical mixture of merriment and
|
|
emotion in his wicked black eyes. Beth kept her face hidden on her
|
|
mother's shoulder, but Amy stood like a graceful statue, with a
|
|
most becoming ray of sunshine touching her white forehead and the
|
|
flower in her hair.
|
|
|
|
It wasn't at all the thing, I'm afraid,but the minute she was
|
|
fairly married, Meg cried, "The first kiss for Marmee!" and turning,
|
|
gave it with her heart on her lips. During the next fifteen minutes
|
|
she looked more like a rose than ever, for everyone availed them-
|
|
selves of their privileges to the fullest extent, from Mr. Laurence
|
|
to old Hannah, who, adorned with a headdress fearfully and wonder-
|
|
fully made, fell upon her in the hall, crying with a sob and a
|
|
chuckle, "Bless you, deary, a hundred times! The cake ain't hurt
|
|
a mite, and everything looks lovely."
|
|
|
|
Everybody cleared up after that, and said something brilliant,
|
|
or tried to, which did just as well, for laughter is ready when
|
|
hearts are light. There was no display of gifts, for they were
|
|
already in the little house, nor was there an elaborate breakfast,
|
|
but a plentiful lunch of cake and fruit, dressed with flowers. Mr.
|
|
Laurence and Aunt March shrugged and smiled at one another when
|
|
water, lemonade, and coffee were found to be to only sorts of nec-
|
|
tar which the three Hebes carried around. No one said anything,
|
|
till Laurie, who insisted on serving the bride, appeared before her,
|
|
with a loaded salver in his hand and a puzzled expression on his
|
|
face.
|
|
|
|
"Has Jo smashed all the bottles by accident?" he whispered,
|
|
"or am I merely laboring under a delusion that I saw some lying
|
|
about loose this morning?"
|
|
|
|
"No, your grandfather kindly offered us his best, and Aunt
|
|
March actually sent some, but Father put away a little for Beth,
|
|
and dispatched the rest to the Soldier's Home. You know he thinks
|
|
that wine should be used only in illness, and Mother says that
|
|
neither she nor her daughters will ever offer it to any young man
|
|
under her roof."
|
|
|
|
Meg spoke seriously and expected to see Laurie frown or laugh,
|
|
but he did neither, for after a quick look at her, he said, in
|
|
his impetuous way, "I like that! For I've seen enough harm done
|
|
to wish other women would think as you do."
|
|
|
|
"You are not made wise by experience, I hope?" And there was
|
|
an anxious accent in Meg's voice.
|
|
|
|
"No. I give you my word for it. Don't think too well of me,
|
|
either, this is not one of my temptations. Being brought up where
|
|
wine is as common as water and almost as harmless, I don't care for
|
|
it, but when a pretty girl offers it, one doesn't like to refuse,
|
|
you see."
|
|
|
|
"But you will, for the sake of others, if not for your own.
|
|
Come, Laurie, promise, and give me one more reason to call this the
|
|
happiest day of my life."
|
|
|
|
A demand so sudden and so serious made the young man hesitate
|
|
a moment, for ridicule is often harder to bear than self-denial.
|
|
Meg knew that if he gave the promise he would keep it at all costs,
|
|
and feeling her power, used it as a woman may for her friend's good.
|
|
She did not speak, but she looked up at him with a face made very
|
|
eloquent by happiness, and a smile which said, "No one can refuse
|
|
me anything today."
|
|
|
|
Laurie certainly could not, and with an answering smile, he
|
|
gave her his hand, saying heartily, "I promise, Mrs. Brooke!"
|
|
|
|
"I thank you, very, very much."
|
|
|
|
"And I drink `long life to your resolution', Teddy," cried Jo,
|
|
baptizing him with a splash of lemonade, as she waved her glass and
|
|
beamed approvingly upon him.
|
|
|
|
So the toast was drunk, the pledge made and loyally kept in
|
|
spite of many temptations, for with instinctive wisdom, the girls
|
|
seized a happy moment to do their friend a service, for which he
|
|
thanked them all his life.
|
|
|
|
After lunch, people strolled about, by twos and threes, through
|
|
the house and garden, enjoying the sunshine without and within. Meg
|
|
and John happened to be standing together in the middle of the grass
|
|
plot, when Laurie was seized with an inspiration which put the finish-
|
|
ing touch to this unfashionable wedding.
|
|
|
|
"All the married people take hands and dance round the new-made
|
|
husband and wife, as the Germans do, while we bachelors and spinsters
|
|
prance in couples outside!" cried Laurie, promenading down the path
|
|
with Amy, with such infectious spirit and skill that everyone else
|
|
followed their example without a murmur. Mr. and Mrs. March, Aunt
|
|
and Uncle Carrol began it, others rapidly joined in, even Sallie
|
|
Moffat, after a moment's hesitation, threw her train over her arm
|
|
and whisked Ned into the ring. But the crowning joke was Mr. Laur-
|
|
ence and Aunt March, for when the stately old gentleman chass'ed
|
|
solemnly up to the old lady, she just tucked her cane under arm, and
|
|
hopped briskly away to join hands with the rest and dance about the
|
|
bridal pair, while the young folks pervaded the garden like butter-
|
|
flies on a midsummer day.
|
|
|
|
Want of breath brought the impromptu ball to a close, and then
|
|
people began to go.
|
|
|
|
"I wish you well, my dear, I heartily wish you well, but I think
|
|
you'll be sorry for it," said Aunt March to Meg, adding to the bride-
|
|
groom, as he led her to the carriage, "You've got a treasure, young
|
|
man, see that you deserve it."
|
|
|
|
"That is the prettiest wedding I've been to for an age, Ned, and
|
|
I don't see why, for there wasn't a bit of style about it," observed
|
|
Mrs. Moffat to her husband, as they drove away.
|
|
|
|
"Laurie, my lad, if you ever want to indulge in this sort of
|
|
thing, get one of those little girls to help you, and I shall be
|
|
perfectly satisfied," said Mr. Laurence, settling himself in his
|
|
easy chair to rest after the excitement of the morning.
|
|
|
|
"I'll do my best to gratify you, Sir," was Laurie's unusually
|
|
dutiful reply, as he carefully unpinned the posy Jo had put in his
|
|
buttonhole.
|
|
|
|
The little house was not far away, and the only bridal journey
|
|
Meg had was the quiet walk with John from the old home to the new.
|
|
When she came down, looking like a pretty Quakeress in her dove-
|
|
colored suit and straw bonnet tied with white, they all gathered
|
|
about her to say goodby, as tenderly as if she had been going to
|
|
make the grand tour.
|
|
|
|
"Don't feel that I am separated from you, Marmee dear, or that
|
|
I love you any the less for loving John so much," she said, clinging
|
|
to her mother, with full eyes for a moment. "I shall come every day,
|
|
Father, and expect to keep my old place in all your hearts, though I
|
|
am married. Beth is going to be with me a great deal, and the other
|
|
girls will drop in now and then to laugh at my housekeeping struggles.
|
|
Thank you all for my happy wedding day. Goodby, goodby!"
|
|
|
|
They stood watching her, with faces full of love and hope and
|
|
tender pride as she walked away, leaning on her husband's arm, with
|
|
her hands full of flowers and the June sunshine brightening her happy
|
|
face--and so Meg's married life began.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
|
|
|
|
It takes people a long time to learn the difference between
|
|
talent and genius, especially ambitious young men and women. Amy
|
|
was learning this distinction through much tribulation, for mis-
|
|
taking enthusiasm for inspiration, she attempted every branch of
|
|
art with youthful audacity. For a long time there was a lull in
|
|
the `mud-pie' business, and she devoted herself to the finest
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pen-and-ink drawing, in which she showed such taste and skill that
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her graceful handiwork proved both pleasant and profitable. But
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over-strained eyes caused pen and ink to be laid aside for a bold
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attempt at poker sketching.
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While this attack lasted, the family lived in constant fear
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of a conflagration, for the odor of burning wood pervaded the
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house at all hours, smoke issued from attic and shed with alarm-
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ing frequency, red-hot pokers lay about promiscuously, and Hannah
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never went to bed without a pail of water and the dinner bell at
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her door in case of fire. Raphael's face was found boldly executed
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on the underside of the moulding board,and Bacchus on the head of a
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beer barrel. A chanting cherub adorned the cover of the sugar bucket,
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and attempts to portray Romeo and Juliet supplied kindling for some
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time.
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From fire to oil was a natural transition for burned fingers,
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and Amy fell to painting with undiminished ardor. An artist friend
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fitted her out with his castoff palettes, brushes, and colors, and
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she daubed away, producing pastoral and marine views such as were
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never seen on land or sea. Her monstrosities in the way of cattle
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would have taken prizes at an agricultural fair, and the perilous
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pitching of her vessels would have produced seasickness in the most
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nautical observer, if the utter disregard to all known rules of
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shipbuilding and rigging had not convulsed him with laughter at the
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first glance. Swarthy boys and dark-eyed Madonnas, staring at you
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from one corner of the studio, suggested Murillo. Oily brown shadows
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of faces with a lurid streak in the wrong place, meant Rembrandt.
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Buxom ladies and dropiscal infants, Rubens, and Turner appeared in
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tempests of blue thunder, orange lightning, brown rain, and purple
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clouds, with a tomato-colored splash in the middle, which might be
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the sun or a bouy,a sailor's shirt or a king's robe, as the spec-
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tator pleased.
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Charcoal portraits came next, and the entire family hung in a
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row, looking as wild and crocky as if just evoked from a coalbin.
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Softened into crayon sketches, they did better, for the likenesses
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were good, and Amy's hair, Jo's nose, Meg's mouth, and Laurie's
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eyes were pronounced `wonderfully fine'. A return to clay and
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plaster followed, and ghostly casts of her acquaintances haunted
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corners of the house, or tumbled off closet shelves onto people's
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heads. Children were enticed in as models, till their incoherent
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accounts of her mysterious doings caused Miss Amy to be regarded in
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the light of a young ogress. Her efforts in this line, however,
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were brought to an abrupt close by an untoward accident, which
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quenched her ardor. Other models failing her for a time, she under-
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took to cast her own pretty foot, and the family were one day alarmed
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by an unearthly bumping and screaming and running to the rescue,
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found the young enthusiast hopping wildly about the shed with her
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foot held fast in a pan full of plaster, which had hardened with
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unexpected rapidity. With much difficulty and some danger she was
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dug out, for Jo was so overcome with laughter while she excavated
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that her knife went too far, cut the poor foot, and left a lasting
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memorial of one artistic attempt, at least.
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After this Amy subsided, till a mania for sketching from nature
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set her to haunting river, field, and wood, for picturesque studies,
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and sighing for ruins to copy. She caught endless colds sitting on
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damp grass to book `delicious bit', composed of a stone, a stump, one
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mushroom, and a broken mullein stalk, or `a heavenly mass of clouds',
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|
that looked like a choice display of featherbeds when done. She sac-
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|
rificed her complexion floating on the river in the midsummer sun to
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study light and shade, and got a wrinkle over her nose trying after
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`points of sight', or whatever the squint-and-string performance is
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called.
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If `genius is eternal patience', as Michelangelo affirms, Amy
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had some claim to the divine attribute, for she persevered in spite
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of all obstacles, failures, and discouragements, firmly believing
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that in time she should do something worthy to be called `high art'.
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She was learning, doing, and enjoying other things, meanwhile,
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for she had resolved to be an attractive and accomplished woman,
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|
even if she never became a great artist. Here she succeeded better,
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|
for she was one of those happily created beings who please without
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|
effort, make friends everywhere, and take life so gracefully and
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|
easily that less fortunate souls are tempted to believe that such
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|
are born under a lucky star. Everybody liked her, for among her
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good gifts was tact. She had an instinctive sense of what was
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pleasing and proper, always said the right thing to the right person,
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|
did just what suited the time and place, and was so self-possessed
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that her sisters used to say, "If Amy went to court without any
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rehearsal beforehand, she'd know exactly what to do."
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One of her weaknesses was a desire to move in `our best society',
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|
without being quite sure what the best really was. Money, position,
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fashionable accomplishments, and elegant manners were most desirable
|
|
things in her eyes, and she liked to associate with those who poss-
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|
essed them, often mistaking the false for the true, and admiring what
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|
was not admirable. Never forgetting that by birth she was a gentle-
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|
woman, she cultivated her aristocratic tastes and feelings, so that
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when the opportunity came she might be ready to take the place from
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|
which poverty now excluded her.
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"My lady," as her friends called her, sincerely desired to be
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a genuine lady, and was so at heart, but had yet to learn that money
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|
cannot buy refinement of nature, that rank does not always confer
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|
nobility, and that true breeding makes itself felt in spite of ex-
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|
ternal drawbacks.
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"I want to ask a favor of you, Mamma," Amy said, coming in
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with an important air one day.
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"Well, little girl, what is it?" replied her mother, in whose
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eyes the stately young lady still remained `the baby'.
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"Our drawing class breaks up next week, and before the girls
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|
separate for the summer, I want to ask them out here for a day. They
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|
are wild to see the river, sketch the broken bridge, and copy some
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|
of the things they admire in my book. They have been very kind to
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|
me in many ways, and I am grateful, for they are all rich and I know
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|
I am poor, yet they never made any difference."
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"Why should they?" And Mrs. March put the question with what
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|
the girls called her `Maria Theresa air'.
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"You know as well as I that it does make a difference with
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nearly everyone, so don't ruffle up like a dear, motherly hen, when
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|
your chickens get pecked by smarter birds. The ugly duckling turned
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|
out a swan, you know." And Amy smiled without bitterness, for she
|
|
possessed a happy temper and hopeful spirit.
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Mrs. March laughed, and smoothed down her maternal pride as
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|
she asked, "Well, my swan, what is your plan?"
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"I should like to ask the girls out to lunch next week, to take
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them for a drive to the places they want to see, a row on the river,
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|
perhaps, and make a little artistic fete for them."
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"That looks feasible. What do you want for lunch? Cake, sand-
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|
wiches, fruit, and coffee will be all that is necessary, I suppose?"
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"Oh, dear, no! We must have cold tongue and chicken, French
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|
chocolate and ice cream, besides. The girls are used to such things,
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|
and I want my lunch to be proper and elegant, though I do work for
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my living."
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"How many young ladies are there?" asked her mother, beginning
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|
to look sober.
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"Twelve or fourteen in the class, but I dare say they won't all
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come."
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"Bless me, child, you will have to charter an omnibus to carry
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|
them about."
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"Why, Mother, how can you think of such a thing? Not more than
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|
six or eight will probably come, so I shall hire a beach wagon and
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|
borrow Mr. Laurence's cherry-bounce." (Hannah's pronunciation of
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|
charabanc.)
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|
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"All of this will be expensive, Amy."
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|
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"Not very. I've calculated the cost, and I'll pay for it myself."
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|
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"Don't you think, dear, that as these girls are used to such
|
|
things, and the best we can do will be nothing new, that some simpler
|
|
plan would be pleasanter to them, as a change if nothing more, and
|
|
much better for us than buying or borrowing what we don't need, and
|
|
attempting a style not in keeping with our circumstances?"
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"If I can't have it as I like, I don't care to have it at all.
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|
I know that I can carry it out perfectly well, if you and the girls
|
|
will help a little, and I don't see why I can't if I'm willing to pay
|
|
for it," said Amy, with the decision which opposition was apt to
|
|
change into obstinacy.
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|
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|
Mrs. March knew that experience was an excellent teacher, and
|
|
when it was possible she left her children to learn alone the lessons
|
|
which she would gladly have made easier, if they had not objected to
|
|
taking advice as much as they did salts and senna.
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|
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|
"Very well, Amy, if your heart is set upon it, and you see your
|
|
way through without too great an outlay of money, time, and temper,
|
|
I'll say no more. Talk it over with the girls, and whichever way
|
|
you decide, I'll do my best to help you."
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|
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"Thanks, Mother, you are always so kind." And away went Amy to
|
|
lay her plan before her sisters.
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|
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|
Meg agreed at once, and promised to her aid, gladly offering
|
|
anything she possessed, from her little house itself to her very
|
|
best saltspoons. But Jo frowned upon the whole project and would
|
|
have nothing to do with it at first.
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|
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|
"Why in the world should you spend your money, worry your family,
|
|
and turn the house upside down for a parcel of girls who don't care a
|
|
sixpence for you? I thought you had too much pride and sense to
|
|
truckle to any mortal woman just because she wears French boots and
|
|
rides in a coupe," said Jo, who, being called from the tragic climax
|
|
of her novel, was not in the best mood for social enterprises.
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|
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|
"I don't truckle, and I hate being patronized as much as you do!"
|
|
returned Amy indignantly, for the two still jangled when such ques-
|
|
tions arose. "The girls do care for me, and I for them, and there's a
|
|
great deal of kindness and sense and talent among them, in spite of
|
|
what you call fashionable nonsense. You don't care to make people
|
|
like you, to go into good society, and cultivate your manners and
|
|
tastes. I do, and I mean to make the most of every chance that comes.
|
|
You can go through the world with your elbows out and your nose in the
|
|
air, and call it independence, if you like. That's not my way."
|
|
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|
When Amy had whetted her tongue and freed her mind she usually
|
|
got the best of it, for she seldom failed to have common sense on her
|
|
side, while Jo carried her love of liberty and hate of conventional-
|
|
ities to such an unlimited extent that she naturally found herself
|
|
worsted in an argument. Amy's definition of Jo's idea of independ-
|
|
ence was such a good hit that both burst out laughing, and the dis-
|
|
cussion took a more amiable turn. Much against her will, Jo at length
|
|
consented to sacrifice a day to Mrs. Grundy, and help her sister
|
|
through what she regarded as `a nonsensical business'.
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|
|
|
The invitations were sent, nearly all accepted, and the follow-
|
|
ing Monday was set apart for the grand event. Hannah was out of
|
|
humor because her week's work was deranged, and prophesied that "ef
|
|
the washin' and ironin' warn't done reg'lar, nothin' would go well
|
|
anywheres". This hitch in the mainspring of the domestic machinery
|
|
had a bad effect upon the whole concern, but Amy's motto was `Nil
|
|
desperandum', and having made up her mind what to do, she proceeded
|
|
to do it in spite of all obstacles. To begin with, Hannah's cooking
|
|
didn't turn out well. The chicken was tough, the tongue too salt,
|
|
and the chocolate wouldn't froth properly. Then the cake and ice cost
|
|
more than Amy expected, so did the wagon, and various other expenses,
|
|
which seemed trifling at the outset, counted up rather alarmingly
|
|
afterward. Beth got a cold and took to her bed. Meg had an unusual
|
|
number of callers to keep her at home, and Jo was in such a divided
|
|
state of mind that her breakages, accidents, and mistakes were un-
|
|
commonly numerous, serious, and trying.
|
|
|
|
It it was not fair on Monday, the young ladies were to come on
|
|
Tuesday, and arrangement which aggravated Jo and Hannah to the last
|
|
degree. On Monday morning the weather was in that undecided state
|
|
which is more exasperating than a steady pour. It drizzled a little,
|
|
shone a little, blew a little, and didn't make up its mind till it
|
|
was too late for anyone else to make up theirs. Amy was up at dawn,
|
|
hustling people out of their beds and through their breakfasts, that
|
|
the house might be got in order. The parlor struck her as looking
|
|
uncommonly shabby, but without stopping to sigh for what she had not,
|
|
she skillfully made the best of what she had, arranging chairs over
|
|
the worn places in the carpet, covering stains on the walls with home-
|
|
made statuary, which gave an artistic air to the room, as did the
|
|
lovely vases of flowers Jo scattered about.
|
|
|
|
The lunch looked charming, and as she surveyed it, she sincerely
|
|
hoped it would taste well, and that the borrowed glass, china, and
|
|
silver would get safely home again. The carriages were promised, Meg
|
|
and Mother were all ready to do the honors, Beth was able to help
|
|
Hannah behind the scenes, Jo had engaged to be as lively and amiable
|
|
as an absent mind, and aching head, and a very decided disapproval of
|
|
everybody and everything would allow, and as she wearily dressed, Amy
|
|
cheered herself with anticipations of the happy moment when, lunch
|
|
safely over, she should drive away with her friends for an afternoon
|
|
of artistic delights, for the `cherry bounce' and the broken bridge
|
|
were her strong points.
|
|
|
|
Then came the hours of suspense, during which she vibrated from
|
|
parlor to porch, while public opinion varied like the weathercock. A
|
|
smart shower at eleven had evidently quenched the enthusiasm of the
|
|
young ladies who were to arrive at twelve, for nobody came, and at two
|
|
the exhausted family sat down in a blaze of sunshine to consume the
|
|
perishable portions of the feast, that nothing might be lost.
|
|
|
|
"No doubt about the weather today, they will certainly come, so
|
|
we must fly round and be ready for them," said Amy, as the sun woke
|
|
her next morning. She spoke briskly, but in her secret soul she wished
|
|
she had said nothing about Tuesday, for her interest like her cake was
|
|
getting a little stale.
|
|
|
|
"I can't get any lobsters, so you will have to do without salad
|
|
today," said Mr. March, coming in half an hour later, with an express-
|
|
ion of placid despair.
|
|
|
|
"Use the chicken then, the toughness won't matter in a salad," ad-
|
|
vised his wife.
|
|
|
|
"Hannah left it on the kitchen table a minute, and the kittens got
|
|
at it. I'm very sorry, amy," added Beth, who was still a patroness of
|
|
cats.
|
|
|
|
"Then I must have a lobster, for tongue alone won't do," said Amy
|
|
decidedly.
|
|
|
|
"Shall I rush into town and demand one?" asked Jo, with the mag-
|
|
nanimity of a martyr.
|
|
|
|
"You'd come bringing it home under your arm without any paper,
|
|
just to try me. I'll go myself," answered Amy, whose temper was be-
|
|
ginning to fail.
|
|
|
|
Shrouded in a thick veil and armed with a genteel traveling basket,
|
|
she departed, feeling that a cool drive would soothe her ruffled spirit
|
|
and fit her for the labors of the day. After some delay, the object of
|
|
her desire was procured, likewise a bottle of dressing to prevent fur-
|
|
ther loss of time at home, and off she drove again, well pleased with
|
|
her own forethought.
|
|
|
|
As the omnibus contained only one other passenger, a sleepy old
|
|
lady, Amy pocketed her veil and beguiled the tedium of the way by
|
|
trying to find out where all her money had gone to. So busy was she
|
|
with her card full of refractory figures that she did not observe a
|
|
newcomer, who entered without stopping the vehicle, till a masculine
|
|
voice said, "Good morning, Miss March," and, looking up, she beheld
|
|
one of Laurie's most elegant college friends. Fervently hoping that
|
|
he would get out before she did, Amy utterly ignored the basket at her
|
|
feet, and congratulating herself that she had on her new traveling
|
|
dress, returned the young man's greeting with her usual suavity and
|
|
spirit.
|
|
|
|
They got on excellently, for Amy's chief care was soon set at
|
|
rest by learning that the gentleman would leave first, and she was
|
|
chatting away in a peculiarly lofty strain, when the old lady got out.
|
|
In stumbling to the door, she upset the basket, and--oh horror!--the
|
|
lobster, in all its vulgar size and brilliancy, was revealed to the
|
|
highborn eyes of a Tudor.
|
|
|
|
"By Jove, she's forgotten her dinner!" cried the unconscious
|
|
youth, poking the scarlet monster into its place with his cane, and
|
|
preparing to hand out the basket after the old lady.
|
|
|
|
"Please don't--it's--it's mine," murmured Amy, with a face nearly
|
|
as red as her fish.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, really, I beg pardon. It's an uncommonly fine one, isn't it?"
|
|
said Tudor, with great presence of mind, and an air of sober interest
|
|
that did credit to his breeding.
|
|
|
|
Amy recovered herself in a breath, set her basket boldly on the
|
|
seat, and said, laughing, "Don't you wish you were to have some of the
|
|
salad he's going to make, and to see the charming young ladies who are
|
|
to eat it?"
|
|
|
|
Now that was tact, for two of the ruling foibles of the masculine
|
|
mind were touched. The lobster was instantly surrounded by a halo of
|
|
pleasing reminiscences, and curiosity about `the charming young ladies'
|
|
diverted his mind from the comical mishap.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose he'll laugh and joke over it with Laurie, but I shan't
|
|
see them, that's a comfort," thought Amy, as Tudor bowed and departed.
|
|
|
|
She did not mention this meeting at home (though she discovered
|
|
that, thanks to the upset, her new dress was much damaged by the riv-
|
|
ulets of dressing that meandered down the skirt), but went through
|
|
with the preparations which now seemed more irksome than before, and
|
|
at twelve o'clock all was ready again. feeling that the neighbors
|
|
were interested in her movements, she wished to efface the memory of
|
|
yesterday's failure by a grand success today, so she ordered the
|
|
`cherry bounce', and drove away in state to meet and escort her guests
|
|
to the banquet.
|
|
|
|
"There's the rumble, they're coming! I'll go onto the porch and
|
|
meet them. It looks hospitable, and I want the poor child to have a
|
|
good time after all her trouble," said Mrs. March, suiting the action
|
|
to the word. But after one glance, she retired, with an indescribable
|
|
expression, for looking quite lost in the big carriage, sat Amy and
|
|
one young lady.
|
|
|
|
"Run, Beth, and help Hannah clear half the things off the table.
|
|
It will be too absurd to put a luncheon for twelve before a single
|
|
girl," cried Jo, hurrying away to the lower regions, too excited to
|
|
stop even for a laugh.
|
|
|
|
In came Amy, quite calm and delightfully cordial to the one
|
|
guest who had kept her promise. The rest of the family, being of
|
|
a dramatic turn, played their parts equally well, and Miss Eliott
|
|
found them a most hilarious set, for it was impossible to control
|
|
entirely the merriment which possessed them. The remodeled lunch
|
|
being gaily partaken of, the studio and garden visited, and art
|
|
discussed with enthusiasm, Amy ordered a buggy (alas for the elegant
|
|
cherry-bounce), and drove her friend quietly about the neighborhood
|
|
till sunset, when `the party went out'.
|
|
|
|
As she came walking in, looking very tired but as composed as
|
|
ever, she observed that every vestige of the unfortunate fete had
|
|
disappeared, except a suspicious pucker about the corners of Jo's
|
|
mouth.
|
|
|
|
"You've had a loverly afternoon for your drive, dear," said
|
|
her mother, as respectfully as if the whole twelve had come.
|
|
|
|
"Miss Eliott is a very sweet girl, and seemed to enjoy herself,
|
|
I thought," observed Beth, with unusual warmth.
|
|
|
|
"Could you spare me some of your cake? I really need some, I
|
|
have so much company, and I can't make such delicious stuff as yours,"
|
|
asked Meg soberly.
|
|
|
|
"Take it all. I'm the only one here who likes sweet things, and
|
|
it will mold before I can dispose of it," answered Amy, thinking with
|
|
a sigh of the generous store she had laid in for such an end as this.
|
|
|
|
"It's a pity Laurie isn't here to help us," began Jo, as they sat
|
|
down to ice cream and salad for the second time in two days.
|
|
|
|
A warning look from her mother checked any further remarks, and
|
|
the whole family ate in heroic silence, till Mr. March mildly observed,
|
|
"salad was one of the favorite dishes of the ancients, and Evelyn . . ."
|
|
Here a general explosion of laughter cut short the `history of salads',
|
|
to the great surprise of the learned gentleman.
|
|
|
|
"Bundle everything into a basket and send it to the Hummels. Germans
|
|
like messes. I'm sick of the sight of this, and there's no reason you
|
|
should all die of a surfeit because I've been a fool," cried Amy, wiping
|
|
her eyes.
|
|
|
|
"I thought I should have died when I saw you two girls rattling
|
|
about in the what-you-call-it, like two little kernels in a very big
|
|
nutshell, and Mother waiting in state to receive the throng," sighed
|
|
Jo, quite spent with laughter.
|
|
|
|
"I'm very sorry you were disappointed, dear, but we all did our
|
|
best to satisfy you," said Mrs. March, in a tone full of motherly
|
|
regret.
|
|
|
|
"I am satisfied. I've done what I undertook, and it's not my
|
|
fault that it failed. I comfort myself with that," said Amy with a
|
|
little quiver in her voice. "I thank you all very much for helping
|
|
me, and I'll thank you still more if you won't allude to it for a
|
|
month, at least."
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|
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No one did for several months, but the word `fete' always pro-
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duced a general smile, and Laurie's birthday gift to Amy was a tiny
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coral lobster in the shape of a charm for her watch guard.
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CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
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Fortune suddenly smiled upon Jo, and dropped a good luck
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penny in her path. Not a golden penny, exactly, but I doubt
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if half a million would have given more real happiness then did
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the little sum that came to her in this wise.
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Every few weeks she would shut herself up in her room, put
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on her scribbling suit, and `fall into a vortex', as she expressed
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it, writing away at her novel with all her heart and soul, for till
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that was finished she could find no peace. Her `scribbling suit'
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consisted of a black woolen pinafore on which she could wipe her
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pen at will, and a cap of the same material, adorned with a cheer-
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ful red bow, into which she bundled her hair when the decks were
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cleared for action. This cap was a beacon to the inquiring eyes of
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her family, who during these periods kept their distance, merely
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popping in their heads semi-occasionally to ask, with interest,
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"Does genius burn, Jo?" They did not always venture even to ask
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this question, but took an observation of the cap, and judged
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accordingly. If this expressive article of dress was drawn low
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upon the forehead, it was a sign that hard work was going on, in
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exciting moments it was pushed rakishly askew, and when despair
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seized the author it was plucked wholly off, and cast upon the
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floor, and cast upon the floor. At such times the intruder silently
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withdrew, and not until the red bow was seen gaily erect upon the
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gifted brow, did anyone dare address Jo.
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She did not think herself a genius by any means, but when the
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writing fit came on, she gave herself up to it with entire abandon,
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and led a blissful life, unconscious of want, care, or bad weather,
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while she sat safe and happy in an imaginary world, full of friends
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almost as real and dear to her as any in the flesh. Sleep forsook
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her eyes, meals stood untasted, day and night were all too short to
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enjoy the happiness which blessed her only at such times, and made
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these hours worth living, even if they bore no other fruit. The de-
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vine afflatus usually lasted a week or two, and then she emerged
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from her `vortex', hungry, sleepy, cross, or despondent.
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She was just recovering from one of these attacks when she was
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prevailed upon to escort Miss Crocker to a lecture, and in return
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for her virtue was rewarded with a new idea. It was a People's
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Course, the lecture on the Pyramids, and Jo rather wondered at the
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choice of such a subject for such an audience, but took it for grant-
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ed that some great social evil would be remedied or some great want
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supplied by unfolding the glories of the Pharaohs to an audience
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whose thoughts were busy with the price of coal and flour, and whose
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lives were spent in trying to solve harder riddles than that of the
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Sphinx.
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They were early, and while Miss Crocker set the heel of her
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stocking, Jo amused herself by examining the faces of the people who
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occupied the seat with them. On her left were two matrons, with
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massive foreheads and bonnets to match, discussing Women's Rights and
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making tatting. Beyond sat a pair of humble lovers, artlessly hold-
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ing each other by the hand, a somber spinster eating peppermints out
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of a paper bag, and an old gentleman taking his preparatory nap be-
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hind a yellow bandanna. On her right, her only neighbor was a stud-
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ious looking lad absorbed in a newspaper.
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It was a pictorial sheet, and Jo examined the work of art nearest
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her, idly wondering what fortuitous concatenation of circumstances
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needed the melodramatic illustration of an Indian in full war costume,
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tumbling over a precipice with a wolf at his throat, while two infur-
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iated young gentlemen, with unnaturally small feet and big eyes, were
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stabbing each other close by, and a disheveled female was flying away
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in the background with her mouth wide open. Pausing to turn a page,
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the lad saw her looking and, with boyish good nature offered half his
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paper, saying bluntly, "want to read it? That's a first-rate story."
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Jo accepted it with a smile, for she had never outgrown her lik-
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ing for lads, and soon found herself involved in the usual labyrinth
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of love, mystery, and murder, for the story belonged to that class of
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light literature in which the passions have a holiday, and when the
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author's invention fails, a grand catastrophe clears the stage of one
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half the dramatis personae, leaving the other half to exult over their
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downfall.
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"Prime, isn't it?" asked the boy, as her eye went down the last
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paragraph of her portion.
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"I think you and I could do as well as that if we tried," return-
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ed Jo, amused at his admiration of the trash.
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"I should think I was a pretty lucky chap if I could. She makes
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a good living out of such stories, they say." And he pointed to the
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name of Mrs. S.L.A.N.G. Northbury, under the title of the tale.
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"Do you know her?" asked Jo, with sudden interest.
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"No, but I read all her pieces, and I know a fellow who works in
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the office where this paper is printed."
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"Do you say she makes a good living out of stories like this?"
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And Jo looked more respectfully at the agitated group and thickly
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sprinkled exclamation points that adorned the page.
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"Guess she does! She knows just what folks like, and gets paid
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well for writing it."
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Here the lecture began, but Jo heard very little of it, for while
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Professor Sands was prosing away about Belzoni, Cheops, scarabei, and
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hieroglyphics, she was covertly taking down the address of the paper,
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|
and boldly resolving to try for the hundred-dollar prize offered in
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its columns for a sensational story. By the time the lecture ended
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|
and the audience awoke, she had built up a splendid fortune for her-
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|
self (not the first founded on paper), and was already deep in the
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concoction of her story, being unable to decide whether the duel
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should come before the elopement or after the murder.
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she said nothing of her plan at home, but fell to work next day,
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much to the disquiet of her mother, who always looked a little anxious
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|
when `genius took to burning'. Jo had never tried this style before,
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|
contenting herself with very mild romances for THE SPREAD EAGLE. Her
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|
experience and miscellaneous reading were of service now, for they
|
|
gave her some idea of dramatic effect, and supplied plot, language,
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|
and costumes. Her story was as full of desperation and despair as her
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|
limited acquaintance with those uncomfortable emotions enabled her to
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|
make it, and having located it in Lisbon, she wound up with an earth-
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|
quake, as a striking and appropriate denouement. The manuscript was
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|
privately dispatched, accompanied by a note, modestly saying that if
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|
the tale didn't get the prize, which the writer hardly dared expect,
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|
she would be very glad to receive any sum it might be considered worth.
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Six weeks is a long time to wait, and a still longer time
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|
for a girl to keep a secret, but Jo did both, and was just begin-
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|
ning to give up all hope of ever seeing her manuscript again,
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|
when a letter arrived which almost took her breath away, for on
|
|
opening it, a check for a hundred dollars fell into her lap. For
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|
a minute she stared at it as if it had been a snake, then she read
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|
her letter and began to cry. If the amiable gentleman who wrote
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|
that kindly note could have known what intense happiness he was
|
|
giving a fellow creature, I think he would devote his leisure hours,
|
|
if he has any, to that amusement, for Jo valued the letter more than
|
|
the money, because it was encouraging, and after years of effort it
|
|
was so pleasant to find that she had learned to do something, though
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|
it was only to write a sensation story.
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A prouder young woman was seldom seen than she, when, having
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|
composed herself, she electrified the family by appearing before them
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|
with the letter in one hand, the check in the other, announcing that
|
|
she had won the prize. Of course there was a great jubilee, and when
|
|
the story came everyone read and praised it, though after her father
|
|
had told her that the language was good, the romance fresh and hearty,
|
|
and the tragedy quite thrilling, he shook his head, and said in his
|
|
unworldly way . . .
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|
"You can do better than this, Jo. Aim at the highest, and never
|
|
mind the money."
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|
"I think the money is the best part of it. What will you do with
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|
such a fortune?" asked Amy, regarding the magic slip of paper with a
|
|
reverential eye.
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|
"Send Beth and Mother to the seaside for a month or two," answered
|
|
Jo promptly.
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To the seaside they went, after much discussion, and though Beth
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|
didn't come home as plump and rosy as could be desired, she was much
|
|
better, while Mrs. March declared she felt ten years younger. So Jo
|
|
was satisfied with the investment of her prize money, and fell to work
|
|
with a cheery spirit, bent on earning more of those delightful checks.
|
|
She did earn several that year, and began to feel herself a power in
|
|
the house, for by the magic of a pen, her `rubbish' turned into com-
|
|
forts for them all. THE DUKE'S DAUGHTER paid the butcher's bill, A
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|
PHANTOM HAND put down a new carpet, and the CURSE OF THE COVENTRYS
|
|
proved the blessing of the Marches in the way of groceries and gowns.
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|
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|
Wealth is certainly a most desirable thing, but poverty has its
|
|
sunny side, and one of the sweet uses of adversity is the genuine sat-
|
|
isfaction which comes from hearty work of head or hand, and to the
|
|
inspiration of necessity, we owe half the wise, beautiful, and useful
|
|
blessings of the world. Jo enjoyed a taste of this satisfaction,
|
|
and ceased to envy richer girls, taking great comfort in the knowledge
|
|
that she could supply her own wants, and need ask no one for a penny.
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|
|
|
Little notice was taken of her stories, but they found a market,
|
|
and encouraged by this fact, she resolved to make a bold stroke for
|
|
fame and fortune. Having copied her novel for the fourth time, read
|
|
it to all her confidential friends, and submitted it with fear and
|
|
trembling to three publishers, she at last disposed of it, on condi-
|
|
tion that she would cut it down one third, and omit all the parts
|
|
which she particularly admired.
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|
|
|
"Now I must either bundle it back in to my tin kitchen to mold,
|
|
pay for printing it myself, or chop it up to suit purchasers and get
|
|
what I can for it. Fame is a very good thing to have in the house,
|
|
but cash is more convenient, so I wish to take the sense of the meet-
|
|
ing on this important subject," said Jo, calling a family council.
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|
|
|
"Don't spoil your book, my girl, for there is more in it than
|
|
you know, and the idea is well worked out. Let it wait and ripen,"
|
|
was her father's advice, and he practiced what he preached, having
|
|
waited patiently thirty years for fruit of his own to ripen, and
|
|
being in no haste to gather it even now when it was sweet and mellow.
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|
|
|
"It seems to me that Jo will profit more by taking the trial
|
|
than by waiting," said Mrs. March. "Criticism is the best test of
|
|
such work, for it will show her both unsuspected merits and faults,
|
|
and help her to do better next time. We are too partial, but the
|
|
praise and blame of outsiders will prove useful, even if she gets
|
|
but little money."
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|
|
|
"Yes," said Jo, knitting her brows, "that's just it. I've been
|
|
fussing over the thing so long, I really don't know whether it's good,
|
|
bad, or indifferent. It will be a great help to have cool, impartial
|
|
persons take a look at it, and tell me what they think of it."
|
|
|
|
"I wouldn't leave a word out of it. You'll spoil it if you do,
|
|
for the interest of the story is more in the minds than in the actions
|
|
of the people, and it will be all a muddle if you don't explain as you
|
|
go on," said Meg, who firmly believed that this book was the most re-
|
|
markable novel ever written.
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|
|
|
"But Mr. Allen says, `Leave out the explanations, make it brief
|
|
and dramatic, and let the characters tell the story'," interrupted
|
|
Jo, turning to the publisher's note.
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|
|
|
"Do as he tells you. He knows what will sale, and we don't.
|
|
Make a good, popular book, and get as much money as you can. By-and-
|
|
by, when you've got a name, you can afford to digress, and have
|
|
philosophical and metaphysical people in your novels," said Amy, who
|
|
took a strictly practical view of the subject.
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|
|
|
"Well," said Jo, laughing, "if my people are `philosophical and
|
|
metaphysical', it isn't my fault, for I know nothing about such
|
|
things, except what I hear father say;, sometimes. If I've got some
|
|
of his wise ideas jumbled up with my romance, so much the better for
|
|
me. Now, Beth, what do you say?"
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|
|
|
"I should so like to see it printed soon," was all Beth said,
|
|
and smiled in saying it. But there was an unconscious emphasis on
|
|
the last word, and a wistful look in the eyes that never lost their
|
|
childlike candor, which chilled Jo's heart for a minute with a for-
|
|
boding fear, and decided her to make her little venture `soon'.
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|
|
|
So, with Spartan firmness, the young authoress laid her first-
|
|
born on her table, and chopped it up as ruthlessly as any ogre. In
|
|
the hope of pleasing everyone, she took everyone's advice, and like
|
|
the old man and his donkey in the fable suited nobody.
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|
|
|
Her father liked the metaphysical streak which had unconscious-
|
|
ly got into it, so that was allowed to remain though she had her
|
|
doubts about it. Her mother thought that there was a trifle too much
|
|
description. Out, therefore it came, and with it many necessary
|
|
links in the story. Meg admired the tragedy, so Jo piled up the
|
|
agony to suit her, while Amy objected to the fun, and, with the
|
|
best intentions in life, Jo quenched the spritly scenes which
|
|
relieved the somber character of the story. Then, to complicate
|
|
the ruin, she cut it down one third, and confidingly sent the
|
|
poor little romance, like a picked robin, out into the big, busy
|
|
world to try its fate.
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|
|
|
Well, it was printed, and she got three hundred dollars for
|
|
it, likewise plenty of praise and blame, both so much greater than
|
|
she expected that she was thrown into a state of bewilderment from
|
|
which it took her some time to recover.
|
|
|
|
"You said, Mother, that criticism would help me. But how can
|
|
it,when it's so contradictory that I don't know whether I've written
|
|
a promising book or broken all the ten commandments?" cried poor
|
|
Jo, turning over a heap of notices, the perusal of which filled her
|
|
with pride and joy one minute, wrath and dismay the next. "This
|
|
man says, `An exquisite book, full of truth, beauty, and earnest-
|
|
ness. All is sweet, pure, and healthy.'" continued the perplexed
|
|
authoress. "The next, `The theory of the book is bad, full of
|
|
morbid fancies, spiritualistic ideas, and unnatural characters.'
|
|
Now, as I had no theory of any kind, don't believe in Spiritualism,
|
|
and copied my characters from life, I don't see how this critic can
|
|
be right. Another says, `It's one of the best American novels which
|
|
has appeared for years.' (I know better than that), and the next
|
|
asserts that `Though it is original, and written with great force
|
|
and feeling, it is a dangerous book.' 'Tisn't! Some make fun of it,
|
|
some overpraise, and nearly all insist that I had a deep theory to
|
|
expound, when I only wrote it for the pleasure and the money. I
|
|
wish I'd printed the whole or not at all, for I do hate to be so
|
|
misjudged."
|
|
|
|
Her family and friends administered comfort and commendation
|
|
liberally. Yet it was a hard time for sensitive, high-spirited Jo,
|
|
who meant so well and had apparently done so ill. But it did her
|
|
good, for those whose opinion had real value gave her the critism
|
|
which is an author's best education, and when the first soreness
|
|
was over,she could laugh at her poor little book, yet believe in
|
|
it still, and feel herself the wiser and stronger for the buffet-
|
|
ing she had received.
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|
|
|
"Not being a genius, like Keats, it won't kill me," she said
|
|
stoutly, "and I've got the joke on my side, after all, for the parts
|
|
that were taken straight out of real life are denounced as impossible
|
|
and absurd, and the scenes that I made up out of my own silly head
|
|
are pronounced `charmingly natural, tender, and true'. So I'll
|
|
comfort myself with that, and when I'm ready, I'll up again and take
|
|
another."
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|
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|
CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
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|
|
Like most other young matrons, Meg began her married life
|
|
with the determination to be a model housekeeper. John should
|
|
find home a paradise, he should always see a smiling face,
|
|
should fare sumptuously every day, and never know the loss of
|
|
a button. She brought so much love, energy, and cheerfulness
|
|
to the work that she could not but succeed, in spite of some
|
|
obstacles. Her paradise was not a tranquil one, for the little
|
|
woman fussed, was over-anxious to please, and bustled about like
|
|
a true Martha, cumbered with many cares. She was too tired, some-
|
|
times, even to smile, John grew dyspeptic after a course of dainty
|
|
dishes and ungratefully demanded plain fare. As for buttons, she
|
|
soon learned to wonder where they went, to shake her head over the
|
|
carelessness of men, and to threaten to make him sew them on him-
|
|
self, and see if his work would stand impatient and clumsy fingers
|
|
any better than hers.
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|
|
|
They were very happy, even after they discovered that they
|
|
couldn't live on love alone. John did not find Meg's beauty dimin-
|
|
ished, though she beamed at him from behind the familiar coffee pot.
|
|
Nor did Meg miss any of the romance from the daily parting, when her
|
|
husband followed up his kiss with the tender inquiry, "Shall I send
|
|
some veal or mutton for dinner, darling?" The little house ceased
|
|
to be a glorified bower, but it became a home, and the young couple
|
|
soon felt that it was a change for the better. At first they play-
|
|
ed keep-house, and frolicked over it like children. Then John took
|
|
steadily to business, feeling the cares of the head of a family upon
|
|
his shoulders, and Meg laid by her cambric wrappers, put on a big
|
|
apron, and fell to work, as before said, with more energy than dis-
|
|
cretion.
|
|
|
|
While the cooking mania lasted she went through Mrs. Cornelius's
|
|
Receipt Book as if it were a mathematical exercise, working out the
|
|
problems with patience and care. Sometimes her family were invited
|
|
in to help eat up a too bounteous feast of successes, or Lotty would
|
|
be privately dispatched with a batch of failures, which were to be
|
|
concealed from all eyes in the convenient stomachs of the little
|
|
Hummels. An evening with John over the account books usually pro-
|
|
duced a temporary lull in the culinary enthusiasm, and a frugal fit
|
|
would ensue, during which the poor man was put through a course of
|
|
bread pudding, hash, and warmed-over coffee, which tried his soul,
|
|
although he bore it with praiseworthy fortitude. Before the golden
|
|
mean was found, however, Meg added to her domestic possessions what
|
|
young couples seldom get on long without, a family jar.
|
|
|
|
Fired a with housewifely wish to see her storeroom stocked with
|
|
homemade preserves, she undertook to put up her own currant jelly.
|
|
John was requested to order home a dozen or so of little pots and an
|
|
extra quantity of sugar, for their own currants were ripe and were
|
|
to be attended to at once. As John firmly believed that `my wife'
|
|
was equal to anything, and took a natural pride in her skill, he
|
|
resolved that she should be gratified, and their only crop of fruit
|
|
laid by in a most pleasing form for winter use. Home came four
|
|
dozen delightful little pots, half a barrel of sugar, and a small
|
|
boy to pick the currants for her. With her pretty hair tucked into
|
|
a little cap, arms bared to the elbow, and a checked apron which
|
|
had a coquettish look in spite of the bib, the young housewife fell
|
|
to work, feeling no doubts about her success, for hadn't she seen
|
|
Hannah do it hundreds of times? The array of pots rather amazed her
|
|
at first, but John was so fond of jelly, and the nice little jars
|
|
would look so well on the top shelf, that Meg resolved to fill them
|
|
all, and spend a long day picking, boiling, straining, and fussing
|
|
over her jelly. She did her best, she asked advice of Mrs. Corne-
|
|
lius, she racked her brain to remember what Hannah did that she left
|
|
undone, she reboiled, resugared, and restrained, but that dreadful
|
|
stuff wouldn't `jell'.
|
|
|
|
She longed to run home, bib and all, and ask Mother to lend her
|
|
a hand, but John and she had agreed that they would never annoy any-
|
|
one with their private worries, experiments, or quarrels. They had
|
|
laughed over that last word as if the idea it suggested was a most
|
|
preposterous one, but they had held to their resolve, and whenever
|
|
they could get on without help they did so, and no one interfered,
|
|
for Mrs. March had advised the plan. So Meg wrestled alone with the
|
|
refractory sweetmeats all that hot summer day, and at five o'clock
|
|
sat down in her topsy-turvey kitchen, wrung her bedaubed hands,
|
|
lifted up her voice and wept.
|
|
|
|
Now, in the first flush of the new life, she had often said,
|
|
"My husband shall always feel free to bring a friend home whenever
|
|
he likes. I shall always be prepared. There shall be no flurry, no
|
|
scolding, no discomfort, but a neat house, a cheerful wife, and a
|
|
good dinner. John, dear, never stop to ask my leave, invite whom
|
|
you please, and be sure of a welcome from me."
|
|
|
|
How charming that was, to be sure! John quite glowed with
|
|
pride to hear her say it, and felt what a blessed thing it was to
|
|
have a superior wife. But, although they had had company from time
|
|
to time, it never happened to be unexpected, and Meg had never had
|
|
an opportunity to distinguish herself till now. It always happens
|
|
so in this vale of tears, there is an inevitability about such things
|
|
which we can only wonder at, deplore, and bear as we best can.
|
|
|
|
If John had not forgotten all about the jelly, it really would
|
|
have been unpardonable in him to choose that day, of all the days in
|
|
the year, to bring a friend home to dinner unexpectedly. Congratu-
|
|
lating himself that a handsome repast had been ordered that morning,
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|
feeling sure that it would be ready to the minute, and indulging in
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pleasant anticipations of the charming effect it would produce, when
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his pretty wife came running out to meet him, he escorted his friend
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to his mansion, with the irrepressible satisfaction of a young host
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and husband.
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It is a world of disappointments, as John discovered when he
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reached the Dovecote. the front door usually stood hospitably open.
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Now it was not only shut, but locked, and yesterday's mud still
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adorned the steps. The parlor windows were closed and curtained,
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no picture of the pretty wife sewing on the piazza, in white, with
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a distracting little bow in her hair, or a bright-eyed hostess,
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smiling a shy welcome as she greeted her guest. Nothing of the sort,
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for not a soul appeared but a sanginary-looking boy asleep under the
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current bushes.
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"I'm afraid something has happened. Step into the garden, Scott,
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while I look up Mrs. Brooke," said John, alarmed at the silence and
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solitude.
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Round the house he hurried, led by a pungent smell of burned
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sugar, and Mr. Scott strolled after him, with a queer look on his
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face. He paused discreetly at a distance when Brooke disappeared,
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but he could both see and hear, and being a bachelor, enjoyed the
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prospect mightily.
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In the kitchen reigned confusion and despair. One edition of
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jelly was trickled from pot to pot, another lay upon the floor,
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and a third was burning gaily on the stove. Lotty, with Teutonic
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phlegm, was calmly eating bread and currant wine, for the jelly was
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still in a hopelessly liquid state, while Mrs. Brooke, with her apron
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over her head, sat sobbing dismally.
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"My dearest girl, what is the matter?" cried John, rushing in,
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with awful visions of scalded hands, sudden news of affliction, and
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secret consternation at the thought of the guest in the garden.
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"Oh, John, I am so tired and hot and cross and worried! I've
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been at it till I'm all worn out. Do come and help me or I shall
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die!" And the exhausted housewife cast herself upon his breast,
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giving him a sweet welcome in every sense of the word, for her
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pinafore had been baptized at the same time as the floor.
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"What worries you dear? Has anything dreadful happened?"
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asked the anxious John, tenderly kissing the crown of the little
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cap, which was all askew.
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"Yes," sobbed Meg despairingly.
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"Tell me quick, then. Don't cry. I can bear anything better
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than that. Out with it, love."
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"The . . .The jelly won't jell and I don't know what to do!"
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John Brooke laughed then as he never dared to laugh afterward,
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and the derisive Scott smiled involuntarily as he heard the hearty
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peal, which put the finishing stroke to poor Meg's woe.
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"Is that all? Fling it out of the window, and don't bother any
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|
more about it. I'll buy you quarts if you want it, but for heaven's
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sake don't have hysterics, for I've brought Jack Scott home to dinner,
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and . . ."
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|
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John got no further, for Meg cast him off, and clasped her hands
|
|
with a tragic gesture as she fell into a chair, exclaiming in a tone
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|
of mingled indignation, reproach, and dismay . . .
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"A man to dinner, and everything in a mess! John Brooke, how
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|
could you do such a thing?"
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|
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|
"Hush, he's in the garden! I forgot the confounded jelly, but
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|
it can't be helped now," said John, surveying the prospect with an
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anxious eye.
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|
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|
"You ought to have sent word, or told me this morning, and you
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|
ought to have remembered how busy I was," continued Meg petulantly,
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|
for even turtledoves will peck when ruffled.
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|
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|
"I didn't know it this morning, and there was no time to send
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word, for I met him on the way out. I never thought of asking leave,
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when you have always told me to do as I liked. I never tried it
|
|
before, and hang me if I ever do again!" added John, with an aggriev-
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|
ed air.
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|
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"I should hope not! Take him away at once. I can't see him,
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|
and there isn't any dinner."
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|
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|
"Well, I like that! Where's the beef and vegetables I sent
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|
home, and the pudding you promised?" cried John, rushing to the
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|
larder.
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|
"I hadn't time to cook anything. I meant to dine at Mother's.
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|
I'm sorry, but I was so busy," and Meg's tears began again.
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|
|
|
John was a mild man, but he was human, and after a long day's
|
|
work to come home tired, hungry, and hopeful, to find a chaotic
|
|
house, an empty table, and a cross wife was not exactly conductive
|
|
to repose of mind or manner. He restrained himself however, and the
|
|
little squall would have blown over, but for one unlucky word.
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|
|
|
"It's a scrape, I acknowledge, but if you will lend a hand,
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|
we'll pull through and have a good time yet. Don't cry, dear, but
|
|
just exert yourself a bit, and fix us up something to eat. We're
|
|
both as hungry as hunters, so we shan't mind what it is. Give us
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|
the cold meat, and bread and cheese. We won't ask for jelly."
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|
|
|
He meant it to be a good-natured joke, but that one word sealed
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|
his fate. Meg thought it was too cruel to hint about her sad failure,
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|
and the last atom of patience vanished as he spoke.
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|
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|
"You must get yourself out of the scrape as you can. I'm too
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|
used up to `exert' myself for anyone. It's like a man to propose
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|
a bone and vulgar bread and cheese for company. I won't have any-
|
|
thing of the sort in my house. Take that Scott up to Mother's, and
|
|
tell him I'm away, sick, dead, anything. I won't see him, and you
|
|
two can laugh at me and my jelly as much as you like. You won't
|
|
have anything else here." And having delivered her defiance all
|
|
on one breath, Meg cast away her pinafore and precipitately left the
|
|
field to bemoan herself in her own room.
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|
|
|
What those two creatures did in her absence, she never knew,
|
|
but Mr. scott was not taken `up to Mother's', and when Meg descended,
|
|
after they had strolled away together, she found traces of a promis-
|
|
cuous lunch which filled her with horror. Lotty reported that they
|
|
had eaten "a much, and greatly laughed, and the master bid her throw
|
|
away all the sweet stuff, and hide the pots."
|
|
|
|
Meg longed to go and tell Mother, but a sense of shame at her
|
|
own short comings, of loyalty to John, "who might be cruel, but
|
|
nobody should know it," restrained her, and after a summary cleaning
|
|
up, she dressed herself prettily, and sat down to wait for John to
|
|
come and be forgiven.
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|
|
|
Unfortunately, John didn't come, not seeing the matter in that
|
|
light. He had carried it off as a good joke with Scott, excused his
|
|
little wife as well as he could, and played the host so hospitably
|
|
that his friend enjoyed the impromptu dinner, and promised to come
|
|
again, but John was angry, though he did not show it, he felt that
|
|
Meg had deserted him in his hour of need. "It wasn't fair to tell
|
|
a man to bring folks home any time, with perfect freedom, and when
|
|
he took you at your word, to flame up and blame him, and leave him
|
|
in the lurch, to be laughed at or pitied. No, by George, it wasn't!
|
|
And Meg must know it."
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|
|
|
He had fumed inwardly during the feast, but when the flurry was
|
|
over and he strolled home after seeing Scott off, a milder mood came
|
|
over him. "Poor little thing! It was hard upon her when she tried so
|
|
heartily to please me. She was wrong, of course, but then she was
|
|
young. I must be patient and teach her." He hoped she had not gone
|
|
home--he hated gossip and interference. For a minute he was ruffled
|
|
again at the mere thought of it, and then the fear that Meg would cry
|
|
herself sick softened his heart, and sent him on at a quicker pace,
|
|
resolving to be calm and kind, but firm, quite firm, and show her
|
|
where she had failed in her duty to her spouse.
|
|
|
|
Meg likewise resolved to be `calm and kind, but firm', and show
|
|
him his duty. She longed to run to meet him, and beg pardon, and be
|
|
kissed and comforted, as she was sure of being, but, of course, she
|
|
did nothing of the sort, and when she saw John coming, began to hum
|
|
quite naturally, as she rocked and sewed, like a lady of leisure in
|
|
her best parlor.
|
|
|
|
John was a little disappointed not to find a tender Niobe, but
|
|
feeling that his dignity demanded the first apology, he made none,
|
|
only came leisurely in and laid himself upon the sofa with the sing-
|
|
ularly relevant remark, "We are going to have a new moon, my dear."
|
|
|
|
"I've no objection," was Meg's equally soothing remark. A few
|
|
other topics of general interest were introduced by Mr. Brooke and
|
|
wet-blanketed by Mrs. Brooke, and conversation languished. John
|
|
went to one window, unfolded his paper, and wrapped himself in it,
|
|
figuratively speaking. Meg went to the other window, and sewed as
|
|
if new rosettes for slippers were among the necessaries of life.
|
|
Neither spoke. Both looked quite `calm and firm', and both felt
|
|
desperately uncomfortable.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, dear," thought Meg, "married life is very trying, and
|
|
does need infinite patience as well as love, as Mother says." The
|
|
word `Mother' suggested other maternal counsels given long ago, and
|
|
received with unbelieving protests.
|
|
|
|
"John is a good man, but he has his faults, and you must learn
|
|
to see and bear with them, remembering your own. He is very decided,
|
|
but never will be obstinate, if you reason kindly, not oppose impat-
|
|
iently. He is very accurate, and particular about the truth--a good
|
|
trait, though you call him `fussy'. Never deceive him by look or
|
|
word, Meg, and he will give you the confidence you deserve, the
|
|
support you need. He has a temper, not like ours--one flash and then
|
|
all over--but the white, still anger that is seldom stirred, but
|
|
once kindled is hard to quench. Be careful, be very careful, not to
|
|
wake his anger against yourself, for peace and happiness depend on
|
|
keeping his respect. Watch yourself, be the first to ask pardon if
|
|
you both err, and guard against the little piques, misunderstandings,
|
|
and hasty words that often pave the way for bitter sorrow and regret."
|
|
|
|
These words came back to Meg, as she sat sewing in the sunset,
|
|
especially the last. This was the first serious disagreement, her
|
|
own hasty speeches sounded both silly and unkind, as she recalled
|
|
them, her own anger looked childish now, and thoughts of poor John
|
|
coming home to such a scene quite melted her heart. She glanced at
|
|
him with tears in her eyes, but he did not see them. She put down
|
|
her work and got up, thinking, "I will be the first to say, `For-
|
|
give me', but he did not seem to hear her. She went very slowly
|
|
across the room, for pride was hard to swallow, and stood by him,
|
|
but he did not turn his head. For a minute she felt as if she
|
|
really couldn't do it, then came the thought, This is the beginn-
|
|
ing. I'll do my part, and have nothing to reproach myself with,"
|
|
and stooping sown, she softly kissed her husband on the forehead.
|
|
Of course that settled it. The penitent kiss was better than a
|
|
world of words, and John had her on his knee in a minute, saying
|
|
tenderly . . .
|
|
|
|
"It was too bad to laugh at the poor little jelly pots. For-
|
|
give me, dear. I never will again!"
|
|
|
|
But he did, oh bless you, yes, hundreds of times, and so did
|
|
Meg, both declaring that it was the sweetest jelly they ever made,
|
|
for family peace was preserved in that little family jar.
|
|
|
|
After this, Meg had Mr. Scott to dinner by special invitation,
|
|
and served him up a pleasant feast without a cooked wife for the
|
|
first course, on which occasion she was so gay and gracious, and
|
|
made everything go off so charmingly, that Mr. Scott told John he
|
|
was a lucky fellow, and shook his head over the hardships of bach-
|
|
elorhood all the way home.
|
|
|
|
In the autumn, new trials and experiences came to Meg. Sallie
|
|
Moffat renewed her friendship, was always running out for a dish of
|
|
gossip at the little house, or inviting `that poor dear' to come in
|
|
and spend the day at the big house. It was pleasant, for in dull
|
|
weather Meg often felt lonely. All were busy at home, John absent
|
|
till night, and nothing to do but sew, or read, or potter about. So
|
|
it naturally fell out that Meg got into the way of gadding and gossip-
|
|
ing with her friend. Seeing Sallie's pretty things made her long for
|
|
such, and pity herself because she had not got them. Sallie was very
|
|
kind, and often offered her the coveted trifles, but Meg declined
|
|
them, knowing that John wouldn't like it, and then this foolish little
|
|
woman went and did what John disliked even worse.
|
|
|
|
She knew her husband's income, and she loved to feel that he
|
|
trusted her, not only with his happiness, but what some men seem to
|
|
value more--his money. She knew where it was, was free to take what
|
|
she liked, and all he asked was that she should keep account of every
|
|
penny, pay bills once a month, and remember that she was a poor man's
|
|
wife. Till now she had done well, been prudent and exact, kept her
|
|
little account books neatly, and showed them to him monthly without
|
|
fear. But that autumn the serpent got into Meg's paradise, and tempt-
|
|
ed her like many a modern Eve, not with apples, but with dress. Meg
|
|
didn't like to be pitied and made to feel poor. It irritated her,
|
|
but she was ashamed to confess it, and now and then she tried to con-
|
|
sole herself by buying something pretty, so that Sallie needn't think
|
|
she had to economize. She always felt wicked after it, for the pretty
|
|
things were seldom necessaries, but then they cost so little, it wasn't
|
|
worth worrying about, so the trifles increased unconsciously, and in
|
|
the shopping excursions she was no longer a passive looker-on.
|
|
|
|
But the trifles cost more than one would imagine, and when she
|
|
cast up her accounts at the end of the month the sum total rather
|
|
scared her. John was busy that month and left the bills to her, the
|
|
next month he was absent, but the third he had a grand quarterly
|
|
settling up, and Meg never forgot it. A few days before she had done
|
|
a dreadful thing, and it weighed upon her conscience. Sallie had
|
|
been buying silks, and Meg longed for a new one, just a handsome light
|
|
one for parties, her black silk was so common, and thin things for
|
|
evening wear were only proper for girls. Aunt March usually gave the
|
|
sisters a present of twenty-five dollars apiece at New Year's. That
|
|
was only a month to wait, and here was a lovely violet silk going at
|
|
a bargain, and she had the money, if she only dared to take it. John
|
|
always said what was his was hers, but would he think it right to
|
|
spend not only the prospective five-and-twenty, but another five-and-
|
|
twenty out of the household fund? That was the question. Sallie
|
|
had urged her to do it, had offered to lend the money, and with the
|
|
best intentions in life had tempted Meg beyond her strength. In an
|
|
evil moment the shopman held up the lovely, shimmering folds, and
|
|
said, "A bargain, I assure, you, ma'am." She answered, "I'll take
|
|
it," and it was cut off and paid for, and Sallie had exulted, and
|
|
she had laughed as if it were a thing of no consequence, and driven
|
|
away, feeling as if she had stolen something, and the police were
|
|
after her.
|
|
|
|
When she got home, she tried to assuage the pangs of remorse
|
|
by spreading forth the lovely silk, but it looked less silvery now,
|
|
didn't become her, after all, and the words `fifty dollars' seemed
|
|
stamped like a pattern down each breadth. She put it away, but it
|
|
haunted her, not delightfully as a new dress should, but dreadfully
|
|
like the ghost of a folly that was not easily laid. When John got
|
|
out his books that night, Meg's heart sank, and for the first time
|
|
in her married life, she was afraid of her husband. The kind, brown
|
|
eyes looked as if they could be stern, and though he was unusually
|
|
merry, she fancied he had found her out, but didn't mean to let her
|
|
know it. The house bills were all paid, the books all in order.
|
|
John had praised her, and was undoing the old pocketbook which they
|
|
called the `bank', when Meg, knowing that it was quite empty, stopped
|
|
his hand, saying nervously . . .
|
|
|
|
"You haven't seen my private expense book yet."
|
|
|
|
John never asked to see it, but she always insisted on his doing
|
|
so, and used to enjoy his masculine amazement at the queer things women
|
|
wanted, and made him guess what piping was, demand fiercely the mean-
|
|
ing of a hug-me-tight, or wonder how a little thing composed of three
|
|
rosebuds, a bit of velvet, and a pair of strings, could possibly be
|
|
a bonnet, and cost six dollars. That night he looked as if he would
|
|
like the fun of quizzing her figures and pretending to be horrified
|
|
at her extravagance, as he often did, being particularly proud of
|
|
his prudent wife.
|
|
|
|
The little book was brought slowly out and laid down before him.
|
|
Meg got behind his chair under pretense of smoothing the wrinkles
|
|
out of his tired forehead, and standing there, she said, with her
|
|
panic increasing with every word . ..
|
|
|
|
"John, dear, I'm ashamed to show you my book, for I've really
|
|
been dreadfully extravagant lately. I go about so much I must have
|
|
things, you know, and Sallie advised my getting it, so I did, and
|
|
my New Year's money will partly pay for it, but I was sorry after
|
|
I had done it, for I knew you'd think it wrong in me."
|
|
|
|
John laughed, and drew her round beside him, saying good-
|
|
humoredly, "Don't go and hide. I won't beat you if you have got
|
|
a pair of killing boots. I'm rather proud of my wife's feet, and
|
|
don't mind if she does pay eight or nine dollars for her boots, if
|
|
they are good ones."
|
|
|
|
That had been one of her last `trifles', and John's eye had
|
|
fallen on it as he spoke. "Oh, what will he say when he comes to
|
|
that awful fifty dollars!" thought Meg, with a shiver.
|
|
|
|
"It's worse than boots, it's a silk dress," she said, with the
|
|
calmness of desperation, for she wanted the worst over.
|
|
|
|
"Well, dear, what is the `dem'd total', as Mr. Mantalini says?"
|
|
|
|
That didn't sound like John, and she knew he was looking up at
|
|
her with the straightforward look that she had always been ready to
|
|
meet and answer with one as frank till now. She turned the page and
|
|
her head at the same time, pointing to the sum which would have been
|
|
bad enough without the fifty, but which was appalling to her with
|
|
that added. For a minute the room was very still, then John said
|
|
slowly--but she could feel it cost him an effort to express no dis-
|
|
pleasure-- . . .
|
|
|
|
"Well, I don't know that fifty is much for a dress, with all
|
|
the furbelows and notions you have to have to finish it off these
|
|
days."
|
|
|
|
"It isn't made or trimmed," sighed Meg, faintly, for a sudden
|
|
recollection of the cost still to be incurred quite overwhelmed her.
|
|
|
|
"Twenty-five yards of silk seems a good deal to cover one small
|
|
woman, but I've no doubt my wife will look as fine as Ned Moffat's
|
|
when she gets it on," said John dryly.
|
|
|
|
"I know you are angry, John, but I can't help it. I don't mean
|
|
to waste your money, and I didn't think those little things would
|
|
count up so. I can't resist them when I see Sallie buying all she
|
|
wants, and pitying me because I don't. I try to be contented, but
|
|
it is hard, and I'm tired of being poor."
|
|
|
|
The last words were spoken so low she thought he did not hear
|
|
them, but he did, and they wounded him deeply, for he had denied
|
|
himself many pleasures for Meg's sake. She could have bitten her
|
|
tongue out the minute she had said it, for John pushed the books
|
|
away and got up, saying with a little quiver in his voice, "I was
|
|
afraid of this. I do my best, Meg." If he had scolded her, or
|
|
even shaken her, it would not have broken her heart like those few
|
|
words. She ran to him and held him close, crying, with repentant
|
|
tears, "Oh, John, my dear, kind, hard-working boy. I didn't mean
|
|
it! It was so wicked, so untrue and ungrateful, how could I say it!
|
|
Oh, how could I say it!"
|
|
|
|
He was very kind, forgave her readily, and did not utter one
|
|
reproach, but Meg knew that she had done and said a thing which
|
|
would not be forgotten soon, although he might never allude to it
|
|
again. She had promised to love him for better or worse, and then
|
|
she, his wife, had reproached him with his poverty, after spending
|
|
his earnings recklessly. It was dreadful, and the worst of it was
|
|
John went on so quietly afterward, just as if nothing had happened,
|
|
except that he stayed in town later, and worked at night when she
|
|
had gone to cry herself to sleep. A week or remorse nearly made
|
|
Meg sick, and the discovery that John had countermanded the order
|
|
for his new greatcoat reduced her to a state of despair which was
|
|
pathetic to behold. He had simply said, in answer to her surprised
|
|
inquiries as to the change, "I can't afford it, my dear."
|
|
|
|
Meg said no more, but a few minutes after he found her in the
|
|
hall with her face buried in the old greatcoat, crying as if her
|
|
heart would break.
|
|
|
|
They had a long talk that night, and Meg learned to love her
|
|
husband better for his poverty, because it seemed to have made a
|
|
man of him, given him the strength and courage to fight his own
|
|
way, and taught him a tender patience with which to bear and com-
|
|
fort the natural longings and failures of those he loved.
|
|
|
|
Next day she put her pride in her pocket, went to Sallie, told
|
|
the truth, and asked her to buy the silk as a favor. The good-
|
|
natured Mrs. Moffat willingly did so, and had the delicacy not to
|
|
make her a present of it immediately afterward. Then Meg ordered
|
|
home the greatcoat, and when John arrived, she put it on, and asked
|
|
him how he liked her new silk gown. One can imagine what answer he
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made, how he received his present, and what a blissful state of
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things ensued. John came home early, Meg gadded no more, and that
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greatcoat was put on in the morning by a very happy husband, and
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taken off at night by a most devoted little wife. So the year
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rolled round, and at midsummer there came to Meg a new experience,
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the deepest and tenderest of a woman's life.
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Laurie came sneaking into the kitchen of the Dovecote one
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Saturday, with an excited face, and was received with the clash
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of cymbals, for Hannah clapped her hands with a saucepan in one
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and the cover in the other.
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"How's the little mamma? Where is everybody? Why didn't
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you tell me before I came home?" began Laurie in a loud whisper.
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"Happy as a queen, the dear! Every soul of `em is upstairs
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a worshipin'. We didn't want no hurrycanes round. Now you go
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into the parlor, and I'll send `em down to you," with which some-
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what involved reply Hannah vanished, chuckling ecstatically.
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Presently Jo appeared, proudly bearing a flannel bundle laid
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forth upon a large pillow. Jo's face was very sober, but her eyes
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twinkled, and there was an odd sound in her voice of repressed
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emotion of some sort.
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"Shut your eyes and hold out your arms," she said invitingly.
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Laurie backed precipitately into a corner, and put his hands
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behind him with an imploring gesture. "No, thank you. I'd rather
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not. I shall drop it or smash it, as sure as fate."
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"Then you shan't see your nevvy," said Jo decidedly, turning
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as if to go.
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"I will, I will! Only you must be responsible for damages."
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And obeying orders, Laurie heroically shut his eyes while some-
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thing was put into his arms. A peal of laughter from Jo, Amy,
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Mrs. March, Hannah, and John caused him to open them the next
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minute, to find himself invested with two babies instead of one.
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No wonder they laughed, for the expression of his face was
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droll enough to convulse a Quaker, as he stood and stared wildly
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from the unconscious innocents to the hilarious spectators with
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such dismay that Jo sat down on the floor and screamed.
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"Twins, by Jupiter!" was all he said for a minute, then
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turning to the women with an appealing look that was comically
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piteous, he added, "Take `em quick, somebody! I'm going to
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laugh, and I shall drop `em."
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Jo rescued his babies, and marched up and down, with one
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on each are, as if already initiated into the mysteries of baby-
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tending, while Laurie laughed till the tears ran down his cheeks.
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"It's the best joke of the season, isn't it? I wouldn't have
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told you, for I set my heart on surprising you, and I flatter my-
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self I've done it," said Jo, when she got her breath.
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"I never was more staggered in my life. Isn't it fun? Are
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they boys? What are you going to name them? Let's have another
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look. Hold me up, Jo, for upon my life it's one too many for me,"
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returned Laurie, regarding the infants with the air of a big,
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benevolent Newfoundland looking at a pair of infantile kittens.
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"Boy and girl. Aren't they beauties?" said the proud papa,
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beaming upon the little red squirmers as if they were unfledged
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angels.
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"Most remarkable children I ever saw. Which is which?" and
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Laurie bent like a well-sweep to examine the prodigies.
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"Amy put a blue ribbon on the boy and a pink on the girl,
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French fashion, so you can always tell. Besides, one has blue
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eyes and one brown. Kiss them, Uncle Teddy," said wicked Jo.
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"I'm afraid they mightn't like it," began Laurie, with un-
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|
usual timidity in such matters.
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"Of course they will, they are used to it now. Do it this
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minute, sir!" commanded JO, fearing he might propose a proxy.
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Laurie screwed up his face and obeyed with a gingerly peck
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at each little cheek that produced another laugh, and made the
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babies squeal.
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"There, I knew they didn't like it! That's the boy, see
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him kick, he hits out with his fists like a good one. Now then,
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young Brooke, pitch into a man of your own size, will you?" cried
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Laurie, delighted with a poke in the face from a tiny fist, flapp-
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ing aimlessly about.
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"He's to be named John Laurence, and the girl Margaret, after
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mother and grandmother. We shall call her Daisey, so as not to
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have two Megs, and I suppose the mannie will be Jack, unless we
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find a better name," said Amy, with aunt-like interest.
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"Name him Demijohn, and call him Demi for short," said Laurie
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"Daisy and Demi, just the thing! I knew Teddy would do it,"
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cried Jo clapping her hands.
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Teddy certainly had done it that time, for the babies were
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`Daisy' and `Demi' to the end of the chapter.
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CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
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"Come, Jo, it's time."
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"For what?"
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"You don't mean to say you have forgotten that you promised
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to make half a dozen calls with me today?"
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"I've done a good many rash and foolish things in my life,
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but I don't think I ever was mad enough to say I'd make six calls
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in one day, when a single one upsets me for a week."
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"Yes, you did, it was a bargain between us. I was to finish
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the crayon of Beth for you, and you were to go properly with me,
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and return our neighbors' visits."
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"If it was fair, that was in the bond, and I stand to the
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letter of my bond, Shylock. There is a pile of clouds in the east,
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it's not fair, and I don't go."
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"Now, that's shirking. It's a lovely day, no prospect of rain,
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and you pride yourself on keeping; promises, so be honorable, come
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|
and do your duty, and then be at peace for another six months."
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At that minute Jo was particularly absorbed in dressmaking,
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for she was mantua-maker general to the family, and took especial
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|
credit to herself because she could use a needle as well as a pen.
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|
It was very provoking to be arrested in the act of a first trying-
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on, and ordered out to make calls in her best array on a warm
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July day. She hated calls of the formal sort, and never made any
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till Amy compelled her with a bargain, bribe, or promise. In the
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|
present instance there was no escape, and having clashed her scissors
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|
rebelliously, while protesting that she smelled thunder, she gave in,
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|
put away her work, and taking up her hat and gloves with an air of
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|
resignation, told Amy the victim was ready.
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"Jo March, you are perverse enough to provoke a saint! You
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don't intend to make calls in that state, I hope,: cried Amy, sur-
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|
veying her with amazement.
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"Why not? I'm neat and cool and comfortable, quite proper
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|
for a dusty walk on a warm day. If people care more for my
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|
clothes than they do for me, I don't wish to see them. You can
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|
dress for both, and be as elegant as you please. It pays for
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|
you to be fine. It doesn't for me, and furbelows only worry me."
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"Oh, dear!" sighed Amy, "now she's in a contrary fit, and
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|
will drive me distracted before I can get her properly ready.
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|
I'm sure it's no pleasure to me to go today, but it's a debt we
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|
owe society, and there's no one to pay it but you and me. I'll
|
|
do anything for you, Jo, if you'll only dress yourself nicely,
|
|
and come and help me do the civil. You can talk so well, look
|
|
so aristocratic in your best things, and behave so beautifully,
|
|
if you try, that I'm proud of you. I'm afraid to go alone, do
|
|
come and take care of me."
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"You're an artful little puss to flatter and wheedle your
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cross old sister in that way. The idea of my being aristocratic
|
|
and well-bred, and your being afraid to go anywhere alone! I
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|
don't know which is the most absurd. Well, I'll go if I must,
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|
and do my best. You shall be commander of the expedition, and
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|
I'll obey blindly, will that satisfy you?" said Jo, with a sudden
|
|
change from perversity to lamblike submission.
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|
"You're a perfect cherub! Now put on all your best things,
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|
and I'll tell you how to behave at each place, so that you will
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|
make a good impression. I want people to like you, and they
|
|
would if you'd only try to be a little more agreeable. Do your
|
|
hair the pretty way, and put the pink rose in your bonnet. It's
|
|
becoming, and you look too sober in your plain suit. Take your
|
|
light gloves and the embroidered handkerchief. We'll stop at
|
|
Meg's, and borrow her white sunshade, and then you can have my
|
|
dove-colored one."
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|
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|
While Amy dressed, she issued her orders, and Jo obeyed
|
|
them, not without entering her protest, however, for she sighed
|
|
as she rustled into her new organdie, frowned darkly at herself
|
|
as she tied her bonnet strings in an irreproachable bow, wrest-
|
|
led viciously with pins as she put on her collar, wrinkled up
|
|
her features generally as she shook out the handkerchief, whose
|
|
embroidery was as irritating to her nose as the present mission
|
|
was to her feelings, and when she had squeezed her hands into
|
|
tight gloves with three buttons and a tassel, as the last touch
|
|
of elegance, she turned to Amy with an imbecile expression of
|
|
countenance, saying meekly . . .
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|
|
|
"I'm perfectly miserable, but if you consider me presentable,
|
|
I die happy."
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|
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|
"You're highly satisfactory. turn slowly round, and let me
|
|
get a careful view." Jo revolved, and Amy gave a touch here and
|
|
there, then fell back, with her head on one side, observing gra-
|
|
ciously, "Yes, you'll do. Your head is all I could ask, for that
|
|
white bonnet with the rose is quite ravishing. Hold back your
|
|
shoulders, and carry your hands easily, no matter if your gloves
|
|
do pinch. There's one thing you can do well, Jo, that is, wear a
|
|
shawl. I can't, but it's very nice to see you, and I'm so glad
|
|
Aunt March gave you that lovely one. It's simple, but handsome,
|
|
and those folds over the arm are really artistic. Is the point of
|
|
my mantle in the middle, and have I looped my dress evenly? I like
|
|
to show my boots, for my feet are pretty, though my nose isn't."
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|
|
|
"You are a thing of beauty and a joy forever," said Jo, look-
|
|
ing through her hand with the air of a connoisseur at the blue feather
|
|
against the golden hair. "Am I to drag my best dress through the
|
|
dust, or loop it up, please, ma'am?"
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|
|
|
"Hold it yup when you walk, but drop it in the house. The
|
|
sweeping style suits you best, and you must learn to trail your
|
|
skirts gracefully. You haven't half buttoned one cuff, do it at
|
|
once. You'll never look finished if you are not careful about the
|
|
little details, for they make yup the pleasing whole."
|
|
|
|
Jo sighed, and proceeded to burst the buttons off her glove,
|
|
in doing up her cuff, but at last both were ready, and sailed away,
|
|
looking as `pretty as picters', Hannah said, as she hung out of the
|
|
upper window to watch them.
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|
|
|
"Now, Jo dear, the Chesters consider themselves very elegant
|
|
people, so I want you to put on your best deportment. Don't make
|
|
any of your abrupt remarks, or do anything odd, will you? Just be
|
|
calm, cool, and quiet, that's safe and ladylike, and you can easily
|
|
do it for fifteen minutes," said Amy, as they approached the first
|
|
place, having borrowed the white parasol and been inspected by Meg,
|
|
with a baby on each arm.
|
|
|
|
"Let me see. `Calm, cool, and quiet', yes, I think I can
|
|
promise that. I've played the part of a prim young lady on the
|
|
stage, and I'll try it off. My powers are great, as you shall see,
|
|
so be easy in your mind, my child."
|
|
|
|
Amy looked relieved, but naughty Jo took her at her word, for
|
|
during the first call she sat with every limb gracefully composed,
|
|
every fold correctly draped, calm as a summer sea, cool as a snow-
|
|
bank, and as silent as the sphinx. In vain Mrs. Chester alluded to
|
|
her `charming novel', and the Misses Chester introduced parties,
|
|
picnics, the opera, and the fashions. Each and all were answered
|
|
by a smile, a bow, and a demure "Yes" or "No" with the chill on. In
|
|
vain Amy telegraphed the word `talk', tried to draw her out, and
|
|
administered covert pokes with her foot. Jo sat as if blandly uncon-
|
|
cious of it all, with deportment like Maud's face, `icily regular,
|
|
splendidly null'.
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|
|
|
"What a haughty, uninteresting creature that oldest Miss March
|
|
is!" was the unfortunately audible remark of one of the ladies, as
|
|
the door closed upon their guests. Jo laughed noiselessly all
|
|
through the hall, but Amy looked disgusted at the failure of her
|
|
instructions, and very naturally laid the blame upon Jo.
|
|
|
|
"How could you mistake me so? I merely meant you to be properly
|
|
dignified and composed, and you made yourself a perfect stock and
|
|
stone. Try to be sociable at the Lamb's'. Gossip as other girls do,
|
|
and be interested in dress and flirtations and whatever nonsense
|
|
comes up. They move in the best society, are valuable persons for
|
|
us to know, and I wouldn't fail to make a good impression there for
|
|
anything."
|
|
|
|
"I'll be agreeable. I'll gossip and giggle, and have horrors
|
|
and raptures over any trifle you like. I rather enjoy this, and
|
|
now I'll imitate what is called `a charming girl'. I can do it,
|
|
for I have May Chester as a model, and I'll improve upon her. See
|
|
if the Lambs don't say, `What a lively, nice creature that Jo March
|
|
is!"
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|
|
|
Amy felt anxious, as well she might, for when Jo turned freak-
|
|
ish there was no knowing where she would stop. Amy's face was a
|
|
study when she saw her sister skim into the next drawing room, kiss
|
|
all the young ladies with effusion, beam graciously upon the young
|
|
gentlemen, and join in the chat with a spirit which amazed the be-
|
|
holder. Amy was taken possession of by Mrs. Lamb, with whom she
|
|
was a favorite, and forced to hear a long account of Lucretia's
|
|
last attack, while three delightful young gentlemen hovered near,
|
|
waiting for a pause when they might rush in and rescue her. So
|
|
situated, she was powerless to check Jo, who seemed possessed by
|
|
a spirit of mischief, and talked away as volubly as the lady. A
|
|
knot of heads gathered about her, and Amy strained her ears to hear
|
|
what was going on, for broken sentences filled her with curiosity,
|
|
and frequent peals of laughter made her wild to share the fun. One
|
|
may imagine her suffering on overhearing fragments of this sort of
|
|
conversation.
|
|
|
|
"She rides splendidly. who taught her?"
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|
|
|
"No one. She used to practice mounting, holding the reins, and
|
|
sitting straight on an old saddle in a tree. Now she rides anything,
|
|
for she doesn't know what fear is, and the stableman lets her have
|
|
horses cheap because she trains them to carry ladies so well. She
|
|
has such a passion for it, I often tell her if everything else fails,
|
|
she can be a horsebreaker, and get her living so."
|
|
|
|
At this awful speech Amy contained herself with difficulty, for
|
|
the impression was being given that she was rather a fast young lady,
|
|
which was her especial aversion. But what could she do? For the
|
|
old lady was in the middle of her story, and long before it was done,
|
|
Jo was off again, make more droll revelations and committing still
|
|
more fearful blunders.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Amy was in despair that day, for all the good beasts were
|
|
gone, and of three left, one was lame, one blind, and the other so
|
|
balky that you had to put dirt in his mouth before he would start.
|
|
Nice animal for a pleasure party, wasn't it?"
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|
|
|
"Which did she choose?" asked one of the laughing gentlemen,
|
|
who enjoyed the subject.
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|
|
|
"None of them. She heard of a young horse at the farm house
|
|
over the river, and though a lady had never ridden him, she re-
|
|
solved to try, because he was handsome and spirited. Her struggles
|
|
were really pathetic. There was no one to bring the horse to the
|
|
saddle, so she took the saddle to the horse. My dear creature, she
|
|
actually rowed it over the river, put it on her head, and marched
|
|
up to the barn to the utter amazement of the old man!"
|
|
|
|
"Did she ride the horse?'
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|
|
|
"Of course she did, and had a capital time. I expected to see
|
|
her brought home in fragments, but she managed him perfectly, and
|
|
was the life of the party."
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|
|
|
"Well, I call that plucky!" And young Mr. Lamb turned an approv-
|
|
ing glance upon Amy, wondering what his mother could be saying to
|
|
make the girl look so red and uncomfortable.
|
|
|
|
She was still redder and more uncomfortable a moment after,
|
|
when a sudden turn in the conversation introduced the subject of
|
|
dress. One of the young ladies asked Jo where she got the pretty
|
|
drab hat she wore to the picnic and stupid Jo, instead of mention-
|
|
ing the place where it was bought two years ago, must needs answer
|
|
with unnecessary frankness, "Oh, Amy painted it. You can't buy
|
|
those soft shades, so we paint ours any color we like. It's a great
|
|
comfort to have an artistic sister."
|
|
|
|
"Isn't that an original idea?" cried Miss Lamb, who found Jo
|
|
great fun.
|
|
|
|
"That's nothing compared to some of her brilliant performances.
|
|
There's nothing the child can't do. Why, she wanted a pair of blue
|
|
boots for Sallie's party, so she just painted her soiled white ones
|
|
the loveliest shade of sky blue you ever saw, and they looked exactly
|
|
like satin," added Jo, with an air of pride in her sister's accom-
|
|
plishments that exasperated Amy till she felt that it would be a relief
|
|
to throw her cardcase at her.
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|
|
|
"We read a story of yours the other day, and enjoyed it very
|
|
much," observed the elder Miss Lamb, wishing to compliment the lit-
|
|
erary lady, who did not look the character just then, it must be
|
|
confessed.
|
|
|
|
Any mention of her `works' always had a bad effect upon Jo,
|
|
who either grew rigid and looked offended, or changed the subject
|
|
with a brusque remark, as now. "Sorry you could find nothing better
|
|
to read. I write that rubbish because it sells, and ordinary people
|
|
like it. Are you going to New York this winter?'
|
|
|
|
As Miss Lamb had `enjoyed' the story, this speech was not
|
|
exactly grateful or complimentary. The minute it was made Jo saw
|
|
her mistake, but fearing to make the matter worse, suddenly remem-
|
|
bered that it was for her to make the first move toward departure,
|
|
and did so with an abruptness that left three people with half-
|
|
finished sentences in their mouths.
|
|
|
|
"Amy, we must go. Good-by, dear, do come and see us. We are
|
|
pining for a visit. I don't dare to ask you, Mr. Lamb, but if you
|
|
should come, I don't think I shall have the heart to send you away."
|
|
|
|
Jo said this with such a droll imitation of May Chester's
|
|
gushing style that Amy got out of the room as rapidly as poss-
|
|
ible, feeling a strong desire to laugh and cry at the same time.
|
|
|
|
"Didn't I do well?" asked Jo, with a satisfied air as they
|
|
walked away.
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|
|
|
"Nothing could have been worse," was Amy's crushing reply.
|
|
"What possessed you to tell those stories about my saddle, and
|
|
the hats and boots, and all the rest of it?"
|
|
|
|
"Why, it's funny, and amuses people. They know we are
|
|
poor, so it's no use pretending that we have grooms, buy three
|
|
or four hats a season, and have things as easy and fine as they
|
|
do."
|
|
|
|
"You needn't go and tell them all our little shifts, and
|
|
expose our; poverty in that perfectly unnecessary way. You haven't
|
|
a bit of proper pride, and never will learn when to hold your
|
|
tongue and when to speak," said Amy despairingly.
|
|
|
|
Poor Jo looked abashed, and silently chafed the end of her
|
|
nose with the stiff handkerchief, as if performing a penance for
|
|
her misdemeanors.
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|
|
|
"How shall I behave here?" she asked, as they approached the
|
|
third mansion.
|
|
|
|
"Just as you please. I wash my hands of you," was Amy's short
|
|
answer.
|
|
|
|
"Then I'll enjoy myself. The boys are at home, and we'll have
|
|
a comfortable time. Goodness knows I need a little change, for
|
|
elegance has a bad effect upon my constitution," returned Jo gruffly,
|
|
being disturbed by her failure to suit.
|
|
|
|
An enthusiastic welcome from three big boys and several pretty
|
|
children speedily soothed her ruffled feelings, and leaving Amy to
|
|
entertain the hostess and Mr. Tudor, who happened to be calling
|
|
likewise, Jo devoted herself to the young folks and found the
|
|
change refreshing. She listened to college stories with deep int-
|
|
erest, caressed pointers and poodles without a murmur, agreed
|
|
heartily that "Tom Brown was a brick," regardless of the improper
|
|
form of praise, and when one lad proposed a visit to his turtle tank,
|
|
she went with an alacrity which caused Mamma to smile upon her, as
|
|
that motherly lady settled the cap which was left in a ruinous con-
|
|
dition by filial hugs, bearlike but affectionate, and dearer to
|
|
her than the most faultless coiffure from the hands of an inspired
|
|
Frenchwoman.
|
|
|
|
Leaving her sister to her own devices, Amy proceeded to enjoy
|
|
herself to her heart's content. Mr. Tudor's uncle had married an
|
|
English lady who was third cousin to a living lord, and Amy regarded
|
|
the whole family with great respect, for in spite of her American
|
|
birth and breeding, she possessed that reverence for titles which
|
|
haunts the best of us--that unacknowledged loyalty to the early
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faith in kings which set the most democratic nation under the sun
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in ferment at the coming of a royal yellow-haired laddie, some years
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ago, and which still has something to do with the love the young
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country bears the old, like that of a big son for an imperious little
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mother, who held him while she could, and let him go with a farewell
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scolding when he rebelled. But even the satisfaction of talking with
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a distant connection of the British nobility did not render Amy for-
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getful of time, and when the proper number of minutes had passed, she
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reluctantly tore herself from this aristocratic society, and looked
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about for Jo, fervently hoping that her incorrigible sister would not
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be found in any position which should bring disgrace upon the name
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of March.
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It might have been worse, but Amy considered it bad. For Jo
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sat on the grass, with an encampment of boys about her, and a dirty-
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footed dog reposing on the skirt of her state and festival dress, as
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she related one of Laurie's pranks to her admiring audience. One
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small child was poking turtles with Amy's cherished parasol, a sec-
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ond was eating gingerbread over Jo's best bonnet, and a third playing
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ball with her gloves. but all were enjoying themselves, and when Jo
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collected her damaged property to go, her escort accompanied her,
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begging her to come again, "It was such fun to hear about Laurie's
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larks."
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"Capital boys, aren't they? I feel quite young and brisk again
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after that." said Jo, strolling along with her hands behind her,
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partly from habit, partly to conceal the bespattered parasol.
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"Why do you always avoid Mr. Tudor?" asked Amy, wisely refrain-
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ing from any comment upon Jo's dilapidated appearance.
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"Don't like him, he puts on airs, snubs his sisters, worries
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his father, a nd doesn't speak respectfully of his mother. Laurie
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says he is fast, and I don't consider him a desirable acquaintance,
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so I let him alone."
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"You might treat him civilly, at least. You gave him a cool
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nod, and just now you bowed and smiled in the politest way to
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Tommy Chamberlain, whose father keeps a grocery store. If you
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had just reversed the nod and the bow, it would have been right,"
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said Amy reprovingly.
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"No, it wouldn't," returned Jo, "I neither like, respect, nor
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admire Tudor, though his grandfather's uncle's nephew's niece was
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a third cousin to a lord. Tommy is poor and bashful and good and
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very clever. I think well of him, and like to show that I do, for
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he is a gentleman in spite of the brown paper parcels."
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"It's no use trying to argue with you," began Amy.
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"Not the least, my dear," interrupted Jo, "so let us look
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amiable, and drop a card here, as the Kings are evidently out,
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for which I'm deeply grateful."
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The family cardcase having done its duty the girls walked
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on, and Jo uttered another thanksgiving on reaching the fifth
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house, and being told that the young ladies were engaged.
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"now let us go home, and never mind Aunt March today. We
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can run down there any time, and it's really a pity to trail
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through the dust in our best bibs and tuckers, when we are
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tired and cross."
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"Speak for yourself, if you please. Aunt March likes to have us
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pay her the compliment of coming in style, and making a formal call.
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It's a little thing to do, but it gives her pleasure, and I don't
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believe it will hurt your things half so much as letting dirty dogs
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and clumping boys spoil them. Stoop down, and let me take the
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crumbs off of your bonnet."
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"What a good girl you are, Amy!" said Jo, with a repentant
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glance from her own damaged costume to that of her sister, which
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was fresh and spotless still. "I wish it was as easy for me to do
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little things to please people as it is for you. I think of them,
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but it takes too much time to do them, so I wait for a chance to
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confer a great favor, and let the small ones slip, but they tell
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|
best in the end, I fancy."
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Amy smiled and was mollified at once, saying with a maternal
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air, "Women should learn to be agreeable, particularly poor ones,
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for they have no other way of repaying the kindnesses they receive.
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If you'd remember that, and practice it, you'd be better liked
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than I am, because there is more of you."
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"I'm a crotchety old thing, and always shall be, but I'm
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|
willing to own that you are right, only it's easier for me to
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risk my life for a person than to be pleasant to him when I don't
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feel like it. It's a great misfortune to have such strong likes
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and dislikes, isn't it?"
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"It's a greater not to be able to hide them. I don't mind
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saying that I don't approve of Tudor any more than you do, but I'm
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|
not called upon to tell him so. Neither are you, and there is no
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|
use in making yourself disagreeable because he is."
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"But I think girls ought to show when they disapprove of
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young men, and how can they do it except by their manners?
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|
Preaching does not do any good, as I know to my sorrow, since I've
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|
had Teddie to manage. But there are many little ways in which I can
|
|
influence him without a word, and I say we ought to do it to others
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|
if we can."
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"Teddy is a remarkable boy, and can't be taken as a sample
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|
of other boys," said Amy, in a tone of solemn conviction, which
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|
would have convulsed the `remarkable boy' if he had heard it. "If
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we were belles, or women of wealth and position, we might do some-
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|
thing, perhaps, but for us to frown at one set of young gentlemen
|
|
because we don't approve of them, and smile upon another set be-
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|
cause we do, wouldn't have a particle of effect, and we should
|
|
only be considered odd and puritanical."
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"So we are to countenance things and people which we detest,
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merely because we are not belles and millionaires, are we? That's
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|
a nice sort of morality."
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|
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"I can't argue about it, I only know that it's the way of
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the world, and people who set themselves against it only get
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laughed at for their pains. I don't like reformers, and I hope
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|
you never try to be one."
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|
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"I do like them, and I shall be one if I can, for in spite of
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the laughing the world would never get on without them. We can't
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|
agree about that. for you belong to the old set, and I to the new.
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|
You will get on the best, but I shall have the liveliest time of it.
|
|
I should rather enjoy the brickbats and hooting, I think."
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|
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"Well, compose yourself now, and don't worry Aunt with your
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|
new ideas."
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|
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|
"I'll try not to, but I'm always possessed to burst out with
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|
some particularly blunt speech or revolutionary sentiment before
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|
her. It's my doom, and I can't help it."
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They found Aunt Carrol with the old lady, both absorbed in
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|
some very interesting subject, but they dropped it as the girls
|
|
came in, with a conscious look which betrayed that they had been
|
|
talking about their nieces. Jo was not in a good humor, and the
|
|
perverse fit returned, but Amy, who had virtuously done her duty,
|
|
kept her temper and pleased everybody, was in a most angelic frame
|
|
of mind. This amiable spirit was felt at once, and both aunts `my
|
|
deared' her affectionately, looking what they afterward said emphat-
|
|
ically, "That child improves every day."
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|
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"Are you going to help about the fair, dear?" asked Mrs. Carrol,
|
|
as Amy sat down beside her with the confiding air elderly people like
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|
so well in the young.
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"Yes, aunt. Mrs. Chester asked me if I would, and I offered to
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tend a table, as I have nothing but my time to give."
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"I'm not," put in Jo decidedly. "I hate to be patronized, and
|
|
the Chesters think it's a great favor to allow us to help with their
|
|
highly connected fair. I wonder you consented, Amy, they only want
|
|
you to work."
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|
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"I am willing to work. It's for the freedmen as well as the
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|
Chesters, and I think it very kind of them to let me share the
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|
labor and the fun. Patronage does not trouble me when it is well
|
|
meant."
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|
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"Quite right and proper. I like your grateful spirit, my dear.
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|
It's a pleasure to help people who appreciate our efforts. Some do
|
|
not, and that is trying," observed Aunt March, looking over her
|
|
spectacles at Jo, who sat apart, rocking herself, with a somewhat
|
|
morose expression.
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|
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|
If Jo had only known what a great happiness was wavering in
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|
the balance for one of them, she would have turned dove-like in a
|
|
minute, but unfortunately, we don't have windows in our breasts,
|
|
and cannot see what goes on in the minds of our friends. Better
|
|
for us that we cannot as a general thing, but now and then it
|
|
would be such a comfort, such a saving of time and temper. By her
|
|
next speech, Jo deprived herself of several years of pleasure, and
|
|
received a timely lesson in the art of holding her tongue.
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|
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|
"I don't like favors, they oppress and make me feel like a
|
|
slave. I'd rather do everything for myself, and be perfectly
|
|
independent."
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|
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|
"Ahem!" coughed Aunt Carrol softly, with a look at Aunt
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|
March.
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|
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|
"I told you so," said Aunt March, with a decided nod to Aunt
|
|
Carrol.
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|
|
|
Mercifully unconscious of what she had done, Jo sat with her
|
|
nose in the air, and a revolutionary aspect which was anything but
|
|
inviting.
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|
|
|
"Do you speak French, dear?" asked Mrs. Carrol, laying a
|
|
hand on Amy's.
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|
|
|
"Pretty well, thanks to Aunt March, who lets Esther talk to
|
|
me as often as I like," replied amy, with a grateful look, which
|
|
caused the old lady to smile affably.
|
|
|
|
"How are you about languages?" asked Mrs. Carrol of JO.
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|
|
|
"Don't know a word. I'm very stupid about studying anything,
|
|
can't bear French, it's such a slippery, silly sort of language,"
|
|
was the brusque reply.
|
|
|
|
Another look passed between the ladies, and Aunt March said
|
|
to Amy, 'You are quite strong and well no, dear, I believe? Eyes
|
|
don't trouble you any more, do they?"
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|
|
|
"Not at all, thank you, ma'am. I'm very well, and mean to do
|
|
great things next winter, so that I may be ready for Rome, whenever
|
|
that joyful time arrives."
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|
|
|
"Good girl! You deserve to go, and I'm sure you will some
|
|
day," said Aunt March, with an approving; pat on the head, as Amy
|
|
picked up her ball for her.
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|
|
|
Crosspatch, draw the latch,
|
|
Sit by the fire and spin,
|
|
|
|
squalled Polly, bending down from his perch on the back of her
|
|
chair to peep into Jo's face, with such a comical air of imper-
|
|
tinent inquiry that it was impossible to help laughing.
|
|
|
|
"Most observing bird," said the old lady.
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|
|
|
"Come and take a walk, my dear?" cried Polly, hopping toward
|
|
the china closet, with a look suggestive of a lump of sugar.
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, I will. Come Amy." And Jo brought the visit to
|
|
an end, feeling more strongly than ever that calls did have a bad
|
|
effect upon her constitution. She shook hands in a gentlemanly
|
|
manner, but Amy kissed both the aunts, and the girls departed,
|
|
leaving behind them the impression of shadow and sunshine, which
|
|
impression caused Aunt March to say, as they vanished . . .
|
|
|
|
"You'd better do it, Mary. I'll supply the money. And Aunt
|
|
Carrol to reply decidedly, "I certainly will, if her father and
|
|
mother consent."
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|
CHAPTER THIRTY
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|
Mrs. Chester's fair was so very elegant and select that it
|
|
was considered a great honor by the young ladies of the neigh-
|
|
borhood to be invited to take a table, and everyone was much
|
|
interest in the matter. Amy was asked, but Jo was not, which
|
|
was fortunate for all parties, as her elbows were decidedly
|
|
akimbo at this period of her life, and it took a good many hard
|
|
knocks to teach her how to get on easily. The `haughty, unin-
|
|
teresting creature' was let severely alone, but Amy's talent and
|
|
taste were duly complimented by the offer of the art table, and
|
|
she exerted herself to prepare and secure appropriate and valu-
|
|
able contributions to it.
|
|
|
|
Everything went on smoothly till the day before the fair
|
|
opened, then there occurred one of the little skirmishes which
|
|
it is almost impossible to avoid, when some five-and-twenty
|
|
women, old and young, with all their private piques and preju-
|
|
dices, try to work together.
|
|
|
|
May Chester was rather jealous of Amy because the latter
|
|
was a greater favorite than herself, and just at this time
|
|
several trifling circumstances occurred to increase the feeling.
|
|
Amy's dainty pen-and-ink work entirely eclipsed May's painted
|
|
vases--that was one thorn. Then the all conquering Tudor had
|
|
danced four times with Amy at a late party and only once with
|
|
May--that was thorn number two. But the chief grievance that
|
|
rankled in her soul, and gave an excuse for her unfriendly con-
|
|
duct, was a rumor which some obliging gossip had whispered to
|
|
her, that the March girls had made fun of her at the Lambs'.
|
|
All the blame of this should have fallen upon Jo, for her
|
|
naughty imitation had been too lifelike to escape detection,
|
|
and the frolicsome Lambs had permitted the joke to escape. No
|
|
hint of this had reached the culprits, however, and Amy's dismay
|
|
can be imagined,when, the very evening before the fair, as she
|
|
was putting the last touches to her pretty table, Mrs. Chester,
|
|
who, of course, resented the supposed ridicule of her daughter,
|
|
said, in a bland tone, but with a cold look . . .
|
|
|
|
"I find, dear, that there is some feeling among the young
|
|
ladies about my giving this table to anyone but my girls. As
|
|
this is the most prominent, and some say the most attractive
|
|
table of all, and they are the chief getters-up of the fair, it
|
|
is thought best for them to take this place. I'm sorry, but I
|
|
know you are too sincerely interested in the cause to mind a
|
|
little personal disappointment, and you shall have another table
|
|
if you like."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Chester fancied beforehand that it would be easy to
|
|
deliver this little speech, but when the time came, she found
|
|
it rather difficult to utter it naturally, with Amy's unsuspic-
|
|
ious eyes looking straight at her full of surprise and trouble.
|
|
|
|
"Amy felt that there was something behind this, but would
|
|
not guess what, and said quietly, feeling hurt, and showing that
|
|
she did, "Perhaps you had rather I took no table at all?"
|
|
|
|
"Now, my dear, don't have any ill feeling, I beg. It's
|
|
merely a matter of expediency, you see, my girls will naturally
|
|
take the lead, and this table is considered their proper place.
|
|
I think it very appropriate to you, and feel very grateful for
|
|
your efforts to make it so pretty, but we must give up our pri-
|
|
vate wishes, of course, and I will see that you have a good place
|
|
elsewhere. Wouldn't you like the flower table? The little girls
|
|
undertook it, but they are discouraged. You could make a charm-
|
|
ing thing of it, and the flower table is always attractive you
|
|
know."
|
|
|
|
"Especially to gentlemen," added May, with a look which en-
|
|
lightened Amy as to one cause of her sudden fall from favor. She
|
|
colored angrily, but took no other notice of that girlish sarcasm,
|
|
and answered with unexpected amiability . . .
|
|
|
|
"It shall be as you please, Mrs. Chester. I'll give up my
|
|
place here at once, and attend to the flowers, if you like."
|
|
|
|
"You can put your own things on your own table, if you
|
|
prefer," began May, feeling a little conscience-stricken, as she
|
|
looked at the pretty racks, the painted shells, and quaint ill-
|
|
uminations Amy had so carefully made and so gracefully arranged.
|
|
She meant it kindly, but Amy mistook her meaning, and said quickly . ..
|
|
|
|
"Oh, certainly, if they are in your way," and sweeping her
|
|
contributions into her apron, pell-mell, she walked off, feeling
|
|
that herself and her works of art had been insulted past forgive-
|
|
ness.
|
|
|
|
"Now she's mad. Oh, dear, I wish I hadn't asked you to speak,
|
|
Mama," said May, looking disconsolately at the empty spaces on her
|
|
table.
|
|
|
|
"Girls' quarrels are soon over," returned her mother, feeling
|
|
a trifle ashamed of her own part in this one, as well she might.
|
|
|
|
The little girls hailed Amy and her treasures with delight,
|
|
which cordial reception somewhat soothed her perturbed spirit, and
|
|
she fell to work, determined to succeed florally, if she could not
|
|
artistically. But everything seemed against her. It was late, and
|
|
she was tired. Everyone was too busy with their own affairs to help
|
|
her, and the little girls were only hindrances, for the dears fussed
|
|
and chattered like so many magpies, making a great deal of confusion
|
|
in their artless efforts to preserve the most perfect order. The
|
|
evergreen arch wouldn't stay firm after she got it up, but wiggled
|
|
and threatened to tumble down on her head when the hanging baskets
|
|
were filled. Her best tile got a splash of water, which left a sephia
|
|
tear on the Cupid's cheek. She bruised her hands with hammering, and
|
|
got cold working in a draft, which last affliction filled her with
|
|
apprehensions for the morrow. Any girl reader who has suffered like
|
|
afflictions will sympathize with poor Amy and wish her well through
|
|
her task.
|
|
|
|
There was great indignation at home when she told her story
|
|
that evening. Her mother said it was a shame, but told her she
|
|
had done right. Beth declared she wouldn't go to the fair at all,
|
|
and Jo demanded why she didn't take all her pretty things and leave
|
|
those mean people to get on without her.
|
|
|
|
"Because they are mean is no reason why i should be. I hate
|
|
such things, and though I think I've a right to be hurt, I don't
|
|
intend to show it. They will feel that more than angry speeches
|
|
or huffy actions, won't they, Marmee?"
|
|
|
|
"That's the right spirit, my dear. A kiss for a blow is always
|
|
best, though it's not very easy to give it sometimes," said her
|
|
mother, with the air of one who had learned the difference between
|
|
preaching and practicing.
|
|
|
|
In spite of various very natural temptations to resent and
|
|
retaliate, Amy adhered to her resolution all the next day, bent
|
|
on conquering her enemy by kindness. She began well, thanks to a
|
|
silent reminder that came to her unexpectedly, but most opportunely.
|
|
As she arranged her table that morning, while the little girls were
|
|
in the anteroom filling the baskets, she took up her pet production,
|
|
a little book, the antique cover of which her father had found among
|
|
his treasures, and in which on leaves of vellum she had beautifully
|
|
illuminated different texts. As she turned the pages rich in dainty
|
|
devices with very pardonable pride, her eye fell upon one verse that
|
|
made her stop and think. Framed in a brilliant scrollwork of scarlet,
|
|
blue and gold, with little spirits of good will helping one another
|
|
up and down among the thorns and flowers, were the words, "Thou shalt
|
|
love thy neighbor as thyself."
|
|
|
|
"I ought, but I don't," thought Amy, as her eye went from the
|
|
bright page to May's discontented face behind the big vases, that
|
|
could not hide the vacancies her pretty work had once filled. Amy
|
|
stood a minute, turning the leaves in her hand, reading on each some
|
|
sweet rebuke for all heartburnings and uncharitableness of spirit.
|
|
Many wise and true sermons are preached us every day by unconscious
|
|
ministers in street, school, office, or home. Even a fair table
|
|
may become a pulpit, if it can offer the good and helpful words
|
|
which are never out of season. Amy's conscience preached her a
|
|
little sermon from that text, then and there, and she did what many
|
|
of us do not always do, took the sermon to heart, and straightway
|
|
put it in practice.
|
|
|
|
A group of girls were standing about May's table, admiring
|
|
the pretty things, and talking over the change of saleswomen. They
|
|
dropped their voices, but Amy knew they were speaking of her, hear-
|
|
ing one side of the story and judging accordingly. It was not plea-
|
|
sant, but a better spirit had come over her, and presently a chance
|
|
offered for proving it. She heard May say sorrowfully . . .
|
|
|
|
"It's too bad, for there is no time to make other things, and
|
|
I don't want to fill up with odds and ends. The table was just
|
|
complete then. Now it's spoiled."
|
|
|
|
"I dare say she'd put them back if you asked her," suggested
|
|
someone.
|
|
|
|
"How could I after all the fuss?" began May, but she did not
|
|
finish, for Amy's voice came across the hall, saying pleasantly . . .
|
|
|
|
"You may have them, and welcome, without asking, if you want
|
|
them. I was just thinking I'd offer to put them back, for they
|
|
belong to your table rather than mine. Here they are, please take
|
|
them, and forgive me if I was hasty in carrying them away last night."
|
|
|
|
As she spoke, Amy returned her contribution, with a nod and a
|
|
smile, and hurried away again, feeling that it was easier to do a
|
|
friendly thing than it was to stay and be thanked for it.
|
|
|
|
"Now, I call that lovely of her, don't you?" cried one girl.
|
|
|
|
May's answer was inaudible, but another young lady, whose
|
|
temper was evidently a little soured by making lemonade, added,
|
|
with a disagreeable laugh, "Very lovely, for she knew she wouldn't
|
|
sell them at her own table."
|
|
|
|
Now, that was hard. When we make little sacrifices we like
|
|
to have them appreciated, at least, and for a minute Amy was sorry
|
|
she had done it, feeling that virtue was not always its won reward.
|
|
But it is, as she presently discovered, for her spirits began to
|
|
rise, and her table to blossom under her skillful hands, the girls
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were very kind, and that one little act seemed to have cleared the
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atmosphere amazingly.
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It was a very long day and a hard one for Amy, as she sat be-
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hind her table, often quite alone, for the little girls deserted
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very soon. Few cared to buy flowers in summer, and her bouquets
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began to droop long before night.
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The art table was the most attractive in the room. There was
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a crowd about it all day long, and the tenders were constantly fly-
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ing to and fro with important faces and rattling money boxes. Amy
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often looked wistfully across, longing to be there, where she felt
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at home and happy, instead of in a corner with nothing to do. It
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might seem no hardship to some of us, but to a pretty, blithe young
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girl, it was not only tedious, but very trying, and the thought of
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Laurie and his friends made it a real martyrdom.
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She did not go home till night, and then she looked so pale
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and quiet that they knew the day had been a hard one, though she
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made no complaint, and did not even tell what she had done. Her
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mother gave her an extra cordial cup of tea. Beth helped her dress,
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and made a charming little wreath for her hair, while Jo astonished
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her family by getting herself up with unusual care, and hinting
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darkly that the tables were about to be turned.
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"Don't do anything rude, pray Jo. I won't have any fuss made,
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so let it all pass and behave yourself," begged Amy, as she departed
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early, hoping to find a reinforcement of flowers to refresh her poor
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little table.
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"I merely intend to make myself entrancingly agreeable to ever
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one I know, and to keep them in your corner as long as possible.
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Teddy and his boys will lend a hand, and we'll have a good time
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yet." returned Jo, leaning over the gate to watch for Laurie. Pre-
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sently the familiar tramp was heard in the dusk, and she ran out to
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meet him.
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"Is that my boy?"
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"As sure as this is my girl!" And Laurie tucked her hand under
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his arm with the air of a man whose every wish was gratified.
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"Oh, teddy, such doings!" And Jo told Amy's wrongs with sisterly
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zeal.
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"A flock of our fellows are going to drive over by-and-by, and
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I'll be hanged if I don't make them buy every flower she's got, and
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camp down before her table afterward," said Laurie, espousing her
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cause with warmth.
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"The flowers are not at all nice, Amy says, and the fresh ones
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may not arrive in time. I don't wish to be unjust or suspicious, but
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I shouldn't wonder if they never came at all. When people do one
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mean thing they are very likely to do another," observed Jo in a
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disgusted tone.
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"Didn't Hayes give you the best out of our gardens? I told
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him to."
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"I didn't know that, he forgot, I suppose, and, as your grand-
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pa was poorly, I didn't like to worry him by asking, though I did
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want some."
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"Now, Jo, how could you think there was any need of asking?
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They are just as much yours as mine. Don't we always go halves in
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everything?" began Laurie, in the tone that always made Jo turn
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thorny.
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"Gracious, I hope not! Half of some of your things wouldn't
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suit me at all. But we mustn't stand philandering here. I've got
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to help Amy, so you go and make yourself splendid, and if you'll
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be so very kind as to let Hayes take a few nice flowers up to the
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Hall, I'll bless you forever."
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"Couldn't you do it now?" asked Laurie, so suggestively that
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Jo shut the gate in his face with inhospitable haste, and called
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through the bars, "Go away, Teddy, I'm busy."
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Thanks to the conspirators, the tables were turned that night,
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for Hayes sent up a wilderness of flowers, with a loverly basket
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arranged in his best manner for a centerpiece. Then the March family
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|
turned out en masse, and Jo exerted herself to some purpose, for
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people not only came, but stayed, laughing at her nonsense, admiring
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Amy's taste, and apparently enjoying themselves very much. Laurie
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|
and his friends gallantly threw themselves into the breach,bought
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|
up the bouquets, encamped before the table, and made that corner
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|
the liveliest spot in the room. Amy was in her element now, and out
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|
of gratitude, if nothing more, was as spritely and gracious as poss-
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|
ible, coming to the conclusion, about that time, that virtue was
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it's own reward, after all.
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Jo behaved herself with exemplary propriety, and when Amy was
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|
happily surrounded by her guard of honor, Jo circulated about the
|
|
hall, picking up various bits of gossip, which enlightened her up-
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|
on the subject of the Chester change of base. She reproached herself
|
|
for her share of the ill feeling and resolved to exonerate Amy as
|
|
soon as possible. She also discovered what Amy had done about the
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|
things in the morning,and considered her a model of magnanimity. As
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she passed the art table, she glanced over it for her sister's
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|
things, but saw no sign of them. "Tucked away out of sight, I dare
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|
say," thought Jo, who could forgiver her own wrongs, but hotly re-
|
|
sented any insult offered her family.
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"Good evening, Miss Jo. How does Amy get on?" asked May with
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|
a conciliatory air, for she wanted to show that she also could be
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|
generous.
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"She has sold everything she had that was worth selling, and
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now she is enjoying herself. The flower table is always attractive,
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you know, `especially to gentlemen'."
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Jo couldn't resist giving that little slap, but May took it
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|
so meekly she regretted it a minute after, and fell to praising
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the great vases, which still remained unsold.
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"Is Amy's illumination anywhere about" I took a fancy to
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buy that for Father," said Jo, very anxious to learn the fate of
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her sister's work.
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|
"Everything of Amy's sold long ago. I took care that the
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|
right people saw them, and they made a nice little sum of money
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|
for us," returned May, who had overcome sundry small temptations,
|
|
as well as Amy had, that day.
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Much gratified, Jo rushed back to tell the good news, and
|
|
Amy looked both touched and surprised by the report of May's
|
|
word and manner.
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|
"Now, gentlemen, I want you to go and do your duty by the
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|
other tables as generously as you have by mine, especially the
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|
art table," she said, ordering out `Teddy's own', as the girls
|
|
called the college friends.
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|
"`Charge, Chester, charge!' is the motto for that table, but
|
|
do your duty like men, and you'll get your money's worth of art
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|
in every sense of the word," said the irrepressible Jo, as the
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devoted phalanx prepared to take the field.
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"To hear is to obey, but March is fairer far than May," said
|
|
little Parker, making a frantic effort to be both witty and tender,
|
|
and getting promptly quenched by Laurie, who said . . .
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|
"Very well, my son, for a small boy!" and walked him off, with
|
|
a paternal pat on the head.
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|
"Buy the vases," whispered Amy to Laurie, as a final heaping
|
|
of coals of fire on her enemy's head.
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|
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|
To May's great delight, Mr. Laurence not only bought the vases,
|
|
but pervaded the hall with one under each arm. The other gentlemen
|
|
speculated with equal rashness in all sorts of frail trifles, and
|
|
wandered helplessly about afterward, burdened with wax flowers,
|
|
painted fans, filigree portfolios, and other useful and approp-
|
|
riate purchases.
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|
Aunt Carrol was there, heard the story, looked pleased, and
|
|
said something to Mrs. March in a corner, which made the latter
|
|
lady beam with satisfaction, and watch Amy with a face full of
|
|
mingled pride and anxiety, though she did not betray the cause
|
|
of her pleasure till several days later.
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|
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|
The fair was pronounced a success, and when May bade Amy
|
|
goodnight, she did not gush as usual, but gave her an affection-
|
|
ate kiss, and a look which said `forgive and forget'. That satis-
|
|
fied Amy, and when she got home she found the vases paraded on
|
|
the parlor chimney piece with a great bouquet in each. "The
|
|
reward of merit for a magnanimous March," as Laurie announced
|
|
with a flourish.
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|
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|
"You've a deal more principle and generosity and nobleness
|
|
of character than I ever gave you credit for, Amy. You've be-
|
|
haved sweetly, and I respect you with all my heart," said Jo
|
|
warmly, as they brushed their hair together late that night.
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|
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|
"Yes, we all do, and love her for being so ready to forgive.
|
|
It must have been dreadfully hard, after working so long and set-
|
|
ting your heart on selling your own pretty things. I don't believe
|
|
I could have done it as kindly as you did," added Beth from her
|
|
pillow.
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|
"Why, girls, you needn't praise me so. I only did as I'd
|
|
be done by. You laugh at me when I say I want to be a lady, but
|
|
I mean a true gentlewoman in mind and manners, and I try to do
|
|
it as far as I know how. I can't explain exactly, but I want to
|
|
be above the little meannesses and follies and faults that spoil
|
|
so many women. I'm far from it now, but I do my best, and hope in
|
|
time to be what Mother is."
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|
|
|
Amy spoke earnestly, and Jo said, with a cordial hug, "I
|
|
understand now what you mean, and I'll never laugh at you again.
|
|
You are getting on faster than you think, and I'll take lessons
|
|
of you in true politeness, for you've learned the secret, I be-
|
|
lieve. Try away, deary, you'll get your reward some day, and
|
|
no one will be more delighted than I shall."
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|
|
|
A week later Amy did get her reward, and poor Jo found it
|
|
hard to be delighted. A letter came from Aunt Carrol, and Mrs.
|
|
March's face was illuminated to such a degree when she read it
|
|
that Jo and Beth, who were with her, demanded what the glad
|
|
tiding were.
|
|
|
|
"Aunt Carrol is going abroad next month, and wants . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Me to go with her!" burst in Jo, flying out of her chair
|
|
in an uncontrollable rapture.
|
|
|
|
"No, dear, not you. It's Amy."
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|
|
|
"Oh, Mother! She's too young, it's my turn first. I've
|
|
wanted it so long. It would do me so much good, and be so alto-
|
|
gether splendid. I must go!"
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|
|
|
"I'm afraid it's impossible, Jo. Aunt says Amy, decidedly,
|
|
and it is not for us to dictate when she offers such a favor."
|
|
|
|
"It's always so. Amy has all the fun and I have all the work.
|
|
It isn't fair, oh, it isn't fair!" cried Jo passionately.
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid it's partly your own fault, dear. When Aunt spoke
|
|
to me the other day, she regretted your blunt manners and too in-
|
|
dependent spirit, and here she writes, as if quoting something you
|
|
had said--`I planned at first to ask Jo, but as `favors burden her',
|
|
and she `hates French', I think I won't venture to invite her. Amy
|
|
is more docile, will make a good companion for Flo, and receive
|
|
gratefully any help the trip may give her."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, my tongue, my abominable tongue! Why can't I learn to
|
|
keep it quiet?' groaned Jo, remembering words which had been
|
|
her undoing. When she had heard the explanation of the quoted
|
|
phrases, Mrs. March said sorrowfully . . .
|
|
|
|
"I wish you could have gone, but there is no hope of it this
|
|
time, so try to bear it cheerfully, and don't sadden Amy's plea-
|
|
sure by reproaches or regrets."
|
|
|
|
"I'll try," said Jo, winking hard as she knelt down to pick
|
|
up the basket she had joyfully upset. "I'll take a leaf out of
|
|
her book, and try not only to seem glad, but to be so, and not
|
|
grudge her one minute of happiness. But it won't be easy, for
|
|
it is a dreadful disappointment." And poor Jo bedewed the little
|
|
fat pincushion she held with several very bitter tears.
|
|
|
|
"Jo, dear, I'm very selfish, but I couldn't spare you, and
|
|
I'm glad you are not going quite yet," whispered Beth, embracing
|
|
her, basket and all, with such a clinging touch and loving face
|
|
that Jo felt comforted in spite of the sharp regret that made her
|
|
want to box her own ears, and humbly beg Aunt Carrol to burden
|
|
her with this favor, and see how gratefully she would bear it.
|
|
|
|
By the time Amy came in, Jo was able to take her part in
|
|
the family jubilation, not quite as heartily as usual, perhaps,
|
|
but without repinings at Amy's good fortune. The young lady
|
|
herself received the news as tidings of great joy, went about
|
|
in a solemn sort of rapture, and began to sort her colors and
|
|
pack her pencils that evening, leaving such trifles as clothes,
|
|
money, and passports to those less absorbed in visions of art
|
|
than herself.
|
|
|
|
"It isn't a mere pleasure trip to me, girls," she said im-
|
|
pressively, as she scraped her best palette. "It will decide my
|
|
career, for if I have any genius, I shall find it out in Rome,
|
|
and will do something to prove it."
|
|
|
|
"Suppose you haven't?" said Jo, sewing away, with red eyes,
|
|
at the new collars which were to be handed over to Amy.
|
|
|
|
"Then I shall come home and teach drawing for my living,"
|
|
replied the aspirant for fame, with philosophic composure. But
|
|
she made a wry face at the prospect, and scratched away at her
|
|
palette as if bent on vigorous measures before she gave up her
|
|
hopes.
|
|
|
|
"No, you won't. You hate hard work, and you'll marry some
|
|
rich man, and come home to sit in the lap of luxury all your
|
|
days," said Jo.
|
|
|
|
"Your predictions sometimes come to pass, but I don't be-
|
|
lieve that one will. I'm sure I wish it would, for if I can't be
|
|
an artist myself, I should like to be able to help those who are,"
|
|
said Amy, smiling, as if the part of Lady Bountiful would suit
|
|
her better than that of a poor drawing teacher.
|
|
|
|
"Hum!" said Jo, with a sigh. "If you wish it you'll have it,
|
|
for your wishes are always granted--mine never."
|
|
|
|
"Would you like to go?" asked Amy, thoughtfully patting her
|
|
nose with her knife.
|
|
|
|
"Rather!"
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|
|
|
"Well, in a year or two I'll send for you, and we'll dig in
|
|
the Forum for relics, and carry out all the plans we've made so
|
|
many times."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you. I'll remind you of your promise when that joyful
|
|
day comes, if it ever does," returned Jo, accepting the vague but
|
|
magnificent offer as gratefully as she could.
|
|
|
|
"There was not much time for preparation, and the house was
|
|
in a ferment till Amy was off. Jo bore up very well till the
|
|
last flutter of blue ribbon vanished, when she retired to her
|
|
refuge, the garret, and cried till she couldn't cry any more.
|
|
Amy likewise bore up stoutly till the steamer sailed. Then
|
|
just as the gangway was about to be withdrawn, it suddenly came
|
|
over her that a whole ocean was soon to roll between her and
|
|
those who loved her best, and she clung to Laurie, the last
|
|
lingerer, saying with a sob . . .
|
|
|
|
"Oh, take care of them for me, and if anything should
|
|
happen. . . "
|
|
|
|
"I will, dear, I will, and if anything happens, I'll come
|
|
and comfort you," whispered Laurie, little dreaming that he would
|
|
be called upon to keep his word.
|
|
|
|
So Amy sailed away to find the Old World, which is always
|
|
new and beautiful to young eyes, while her father and friend
|
|
watched her from the shore, fervently hoping that none but gentle
|
|
fortunes would befall the happy-hearted girl, who waved her hand
|
|
to them till they could see nothing but the summer sunshine daz-
|
|
zling on the sea.
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|
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
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London
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|
|
Dearest People,
|
|
Here I really sit at a front window of the Bath Hotel,
|
|
Piccadilly. It's not a fashionable place, but Uncle stopped
|
|
here years ago, and won't go anywhere else. However, we don't
|
|
mean to stay long, so it's no great matter. Oh, I can't begin
|
|
to tell you how I enjoy it all! I never can, so I'll only give
|
|
you bits out of my notebook, for I've done nothing but sketch
|
|
and scribble since I started.
|
|
|
|
I sent a line from Halifax, when I felt pretty miserable,
|
|
but after that I got on delightfully, seldom ill, on deck all
|
|
day, with plenty of pleasant people to amuse me. Everyone was
|
|
very kind to me, especially the officers. Don't laugh, Jo, gent-
|
|
lemen really are very necessary aboard ship, to hold on to, or to
|
|
wait upon one, and as they have nothing to do, it's a mercy to
|
|
make them useful, otherwise they would smoke themselves to death,
|
|
I'm afraid.
|
|
|
|
Aunt and Flo were poorly all the way, and liked to be let
|
|
alone, so when I had done what I could for them, I went and
|
|
enjoyed myself. Such walks on deck, such sunsets, such splendid
|
|
air and waves! It was almost as exciting as riding a fast horse,
|
|
when we went rushing on so grandly. I wish Beth could have come,
|
|
it would have done her so much good. As for Jo, she would have
|
|
gone up and sat on the maintop jib, or whatever the high thing
|
|
is called, made friends with the engineers, and tooted on the
|
|
captain's speaking trumpet, she'd have been in such a state of
|
|
rapture.
|
|
|
|
It was all heavenly, but I was glad to see the Irish coast,
|
|
and found it very lovely, so green and sunny, with brown cabins
|
|
here and there, ruins on some of the hills, and gentlemen's
|
|
countryseats in the valleys, with deer feeding in the parks.
|
|
It was early in the morning, but I didn't regret getting up to
|
|
see it, for the bay was full of little boats, the shore so pic-
|
|
turesque, and a rosy sky overhead. I never shall forget it.
|
|
|
|
At Queenstown on of my new acquaintances left us, Mr.
|
|
Lennox, and when I said something about the Lakes of Killarney,
|
|
he sighed and and, with a look at me . . .
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|
|
|
"Oh, have you e'er heard of Kate Kearney?
|
|
She lives on the banks of Killarney;
|
|
From the glance of her eye,
|
|
Shun danger and fly,
|
|
For fatal's the glance of Kate Kearney."
|
|
|
|
Wasn't that nonsensical?
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|
|
|
We only stopped at Liverpool a few hours. It's a dirty,
|
|
noisy place, and I was glad to leave it. Uncle rushed out and
|
|
bought a pair of dogskin gloves, some ugly, thick shoes, and an
|
|
umbrella, and got shaved `a la mutton chop, the first thing.
|
|
Then he flattered himself that he looked like a true Briton,
|
|
but the first time he had the mud cleaned off his shoes, the
|
|
little bootblack knew that an American stood in them, and said,
|
|
with a grin, "There yer har, sir. I've given `em the latest
|
|
Yankee shine." It amused Uncle immensely. Oh, I must tell you
|
|
what that absurd Lennox did! He got his friend Ward, who came
|
|
on with us, to order a bouquet for me, and the first thing I
|
|
saw in my room was a lovely one, with "Robert Lennox's compli-
|
|
ments," on the card. Wasn't that fun, girls? I like traveling.
|
|
|
|
I never shall get to London if I don't hurry. The trip was
|
|
like riding through a long picture gallery, full of lovely land-
|
|
scapes. The farmhouses were my delight, with thatched roofs,
|
|
ivy up to the eaves, latticed windows, and stout women with rosy
|
|
children at the doors. The very cattle looked more tranquil
|
|
than ours, as they stood knee-deep in clover, and the hens had
|
|
a contented cluck, as if they never got nervous like Yankee
|
|
biddies. Such perfect color I never saw, the grass so green, sky
|
|
so blue, grain so yellow, woods so dark, I was in a rapture all
|
|
the way. So was Flo, and we kept bouncing from one side to the
|
|
other, trying to see everything while we were whisking along at
|
|
the rate of sixty miles an hour. Aunt was tired and went to sleep,
|
|
but Uncle read his guidebook, and wouldn't be astonished at any-
|
|
thing. This is the way we went on. Amy, flying up--"Oh, that
|
|
must be Kenilworth, that gray place among the trees!" Flo, dart-
|
|
ing to my window--"How sweet! We must go there sometime, won't we
|
|
Papa?" Uncle, calmly admiring his boots--"No, my dear, not unless
|
|
you want beer, that's a brewery."
|
|
|
|
A pause--then Flo cried out, "Bless me, there's a gallows and
|
|
a man going up." "Where, where?" shrieks Amy, staring out at two
|
|
tall posts with a crossbeam and some dangling chains. "A colliery,"
|
|
remarks Uncle, with a twinkle of the eye. "Here's a lovely flock
|
|
of lambs all lying down," says Amy. "See, Papa, aren't they
|
|
pretty?" added Flo sentimentally. "Geese, young ladies," returns
|
|
Uncle, in a tone that keeps us quiet till Flo settles down to
|
|
enjoy the FLIRTATIONS OF CAPTAIN CAVENDISH, and I have the scenery
|
|
all to myself.
|
|
|
|
Of course it rained when we got to London, and there was
|
|
nothing to be seen but fog and umbrellas. We rested, unpacked,
|
|
and shopped a little between the showers. Aunt Mary got me some
|
|
new things, for I came off in such a hurry I wasn't half ready.
|
|
A white hat and blue feather, a muslin dress to match, and the
|
|
loveliest mantle you ever saw. Shopping in Regent Street is
|
|
perfectly splendid. Things seem so cheap, nice ribbons only
|
|
sixpence a yard. I laid in a stock, but shall get my gloves
|
|
in Paris. Doesn't that sound sort of elegant and rich?
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|
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Flo and I, for the fun of it, ordered a hansom cab, while
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Aunt and Uncle were out, and went for a drive, though we learned
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afterward that it wasn't the thing for young ladies to ride in
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them alone. It was so droll! For when we were shut in by the
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wooden apron, the man drove so fast that Flo was frightened, and
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told me to stop him. but he was up outside behind somewhere,
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and I couldn't get at him. He didn't hear me call, nor see me
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flap my parasol in front, and there we were, quite helpless,
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rattling away, and whirling around corners at a breakneck pace.
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At last, in my despair, I saw a little door in the roof, and on
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poking it open, a red eye appeared, and a beery voice said . . .
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"Now, then, mum?"
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I gave my order as soberly as I could, and slamming down
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the door, with an "Aye, aye, mum," the man made his horse walk,
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as if going to a funeral. I poked again and said, "A little
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faster," then off he went, helter-skelter as before, and we
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resigned ourselves to our fate.
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Today was fair, and we went to Hyde Park, close by, for we
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are more aristocratic than we look. The Duke of Devonshire lives
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near. I often see his footmen lounging at the back gate, and
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the Duke of Wellington's house is not far off. Such sights as I
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saw, my dear! It was as good as Punch, for there were fat dow-
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agers rolling about in their red and yellow coaches, with gorgeous
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Jeameses in silk stockings and velvet coats, up behind, and pow-
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dered coachmen in front. Smart maids, with the rosiest children
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I ever saw, handsome girls, looking half asleep, dandies in queer
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English hats and lavender kids lounging about, and tall soldiers,
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in short red jackets and muffin caps stuck on one side, looking
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so funny I longed to sketch them.
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Rotten Row means `Route de Roi', or the king's way, but
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now it's more like a riding school than anything else. The
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horses are splendid, and the men, especially the grooms, ride
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well, but the women are stiff, and bounce, which isn't accord-
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ing to our rules. I longed to show them a tearing American
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gallop, for they trotted solemnly up and down, in their scant
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habits and high hats, looking like the women in a toy Noah's
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Ark. Everyone rides--old men, stout ladies, little children--
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and the young folks do a deal of flirting here, I say a pair
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exchange rose buds, for it's the thing to wear one in the
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button-hole, and I thought it rather a nice little idea.
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In the P.M. to Westminster Abbey, but don't expect me to
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describe it, that's impossible, so I'll only say it was sublime!
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This evening we are going to see Fechter, which will be an app-
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ropriate end to the happiest day of my life.
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It's very late, but I can't let my letter go in the morn-
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ing without telling you what happened last evening. Who do
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you think came in, as we were at tea? Laurie's English friends,
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Fred and Frank Vaughn! I was so surprised, for I shouldn't have
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known them but for the cards. both are tall fellows with whisk-
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ers, Fred handsome in the English style, and Frank much better,
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|
for he only limps slightly, and uses no crutches. They had heard
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from Laurie where we were to be, and came to ask us to their
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house, but Uncle won't go, so we shall return the call, and see
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them as we can. They went to the theater with us, and we did
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|
have such a good time, for Frank devoted himself to Flo, and
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Fred and I talked over past, present, and future fun as if we
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|
had know each other all our days. Tell Beth Frank asked for her,
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|
and was sorry to hear of her ill health. Fred laughed when I
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|
spoke of Jo, and sent his `respectful compliments to the big hat'.
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Neither of them had forgotten Camp Laurence, or the fun we had
|
|
there. What ages ago it seems, doesn't it?
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Aunt is tapping on the wall for the third time, so I must
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stop. I really feel like a dissipated London fine lady, writing
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here so late, with my room full of pretty things, and my head
|
|
a jumble of parks, theaters, new gowns, and gallant creatures
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|
who say "Ah!" and twirl their blond mustaches with the true
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English lordliness. I long to see you all, and in spite of my
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nonsense am, as ever, your loving . . .
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AMY
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PARIS
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Dear girls,
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In my last I told you about our London visit, how kind the
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Vaughns were, and what pleasant parties they made for us. I en-
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|
joyed the trips to Hampton Court and the Kensington Museum more
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|
than anything else, for at Hampton I saw Raphael's cartoons, and
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|
at the Museum, rooms full of pictures by Turner, Lawrence, Rey-
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|
nolds, Hogarth, and the other great creatures. The day in Rich-
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|
mond Park was charming, for we had a regular English picnic, and
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|
I had more splendid oaks and groups of deer than I could copy,
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|
also heard a nightingale, and saw larks go up. We `did' London
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|
to our heart's content, thanks to Fred and Frank, and were sorry
|
|
to go away, for though English people are slow to take you in,
|
|
when they once make up their minds to do it they cannot be out-
|
|
done in hospitality, I think. The Vaughns hope to meet us in
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|
Rome next winter, and I shall be dreadfully disappointed if they
|
|
don't, for Grace and I are great friends, and the boys very
|
|
nice fellows, especially Fred.
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|
Well, we were hardly settled here, when he turned up again,
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|
saying he had come for a holiday, and was going to Switzerland.
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|
Aunt looked sober at first, but he was so cool about it she
|
|
couldn't say a word. And now we get on nicely, and are very
|
|
glad he came, for he speaks French like a native, and I don't
|
|
know what we should do without him. Uncle doesn't know ten
|
|
words, and insists on talking English very loud, as if it
|
|
would make people understand him. Aunt's pronunciation is
|
|
old-fashioned, and Flo and I, though we flattered ourselves
|
|
that we knew a good deal, find we don't, and are very grateful
|
|
to have Fred do the `parley vooing', as Uncle calls it.
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|
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|
Such delightful times as we are having! Sight-seeing from
|
|
morning till night, stopping for nice lunches in the gay cafes,
|
|
and meeting with all sorts of droll adventures. Rainy days I
|
|
spend in the Louvre, revelling in pictures. Jo would turn up
|
|
her naughty nose at some of the finest, because she has no
|
|
soul for art, but I have, and I'm cultivation eye and taste
|
|
as fast as I can. She would like the relics of great people
|
|
better, for I've seen her Napoleon's cocked hat and gray
|
|
coat, his baby's cradle and his old toothbrush, also Marie
|
|
Antoinette's little shoe, the ring of Saint Denis, Charlemagne's
|
|
sword, and many other interesting things. I'll talk for hours
|
|
about them when I come, but haven't time to write.
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|
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|
The Palais Royale is a heavenly place, so full of bijouterie
|
|
and lovely things that I'm nearly distracted because I can't
|
|
buy them. Fred wanted to get me some, but of course I didn't
|
|
allow it. Then the Bois and Champs Elysees are tres magnifique.
|
|
I've seen the imperial family several times, the emperor an ugly,
|
|
hard-looking man, the empress pale and pretty, but dressed in
|
|
bad taste, I thought--purple dress, green hat, and yellow gloves.
|
|
Little Nap is a handsome boy, who sits chatting to his tutor,
|
|
and kissed his hand to the people as he passes in his four-horse
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|
barouche, with postilions in red satin jackets and a mounted
|
|
guard before and behind.
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|
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|
We often walk in the Tuileries Gardens, for they are
|
|
lovely, though the antique Luxembourg Gardens suit me better.
|
|
Pere la Chaise is very curious, for many of the tombs are
|
|
like small rooms, and looking in, one sees a table, with
|
|
images or pictures of the dead, and chairs for the mourners
|
|
to sit in when they come to lament. That is so Frenchy.
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|
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|
Our rooms are on the Rue de Rivoli, and sitting on the
|
|
balcony, we look up and down the long, brilliant street. It
|
|
is so pleasant that we spend our evenings talking there when
|
|
too tired with our day's work to go out. Fred is very enter-
|
|
taining, and is altogether the most agreeable young man I
|
|
ever knew--except Laurie, whose manners are more charming. I
|
|
wish Fred was dark, for I don't fancy light men, however, the
|
|
Vaughns are very rich and come of an excellent family, so I
|
|
won't find fault with their yellow hair, as my own is yellower.
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|
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|
Next week we are off to Germany and Switzerland, and as
|
|
we shall travel fast, I shall only be able to give you hasty
|
|
letters. I keep my diary, and try to `remember correctly and
|
|
describe clearly all that I see and admire', as Father advised.
|
|
It is good practice for me, and with my sketchbook will give
|
|
you a better idea of my tour than these scribbles.
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|
|
|
Adieu, I embrace you tenderly.
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|
VOTRE AMIE
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|
HEIDELBERG
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|
My dear Mamma,
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|
|
|
Having a quiet hour before we leave for Berne, I'll try to
|
|
tell you what has happened, for some of it is very important,
|
|
as you will see.
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|
|
|
The sail up the Rhine was perfect, and I just sat and en-
|
|
joyed it with all my might. Get Father's old guidebooks and
|
|
read about it. I haven't words beautiful enough to describe it.
|
|
At Coblenz we had a lovely time, for some students from Bonn,
|
|
with whom Fred got acquainted on the boat, gave us a serenade.
|
|
It was a moonlight night, and about one o'clock Flo and I were
|
|
waked by the most delicious music under our windows. We flew up,
|
|
and hid behind the curtains, but sly peeps showed us Fred and
|
|
the students singing away down below. It was the most romantic
|
|
thing I ever saw--the river, the bridge of boats, the great fort-
|
|
ress opposite, moonlight everywhere, and music fit to melt a
|
|
heart of stone.
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|
|
|
When they were done we threw down some flowers, and saw
|
|
them scramble for them, kiss their hands to the invisible ladies,
|
|
and go laughing away, to smoke and drink beer, I suppose. Next
|
|
morning Fred showed me one of the crumpled flowers in his vest
|
|
pocket, and looked very sentimental. I laughed at him, and said
|
|
I didn't throw it, but Flo, which seemed to disgust him, for he
|
|
tossed it out of the window, and turned sensible again. I'm
|
|
afraid I'm going to have trouble with that boy, it begins to
|
|
look like it.
|
|
|
|
The baths at Nassau were very gay, so was Baden-Baden,
|
|
where Fred lost some money, and I scolded him. He needs some-
|
|
one to look after him when Frank is not with him. Kate said
|
|
once she hoped he'd marry soon, and I quite agree with her
|
|
that it would be well for him. Frankfurt was delightful. I
|
|
saw Goeth's house, Schiller's statue, and Dannecker's famous
|
|
ARIADNE. It was very lovely, but I should have enjoyed it
|
|
more if I had known the story better. I didn't like to ask, as
|
|
everyone knew it or pretended they did. I wish Jo would tell
|
|
me all about it. I ought to have read more, for I find I don't
|
|
know anything, and it mortifies me.
|
|
|
|
Now comes the serious part, for it happened here, and Fred
|
|
has just gone. He has been so kind and jolly that we all got
|
|
quite fond of him. I never thought of anything but a traveling
|
|
friendship till the serenade night. Since then I've begun to
|
|
feel that the moonlight walks, balcony talks, and daily adven-
|
|
tures were something more to him than fun. I haven't flirted,
|
|
Mother, truly, but remembered what you said to me, and have done
|
|
my very best. I can't help it if people like me. I don't try to
|
|
make them, and it worries me if I don't care for them, though Jo
|
|
says I haven't got any heart. Now I know Mother will shake her
|
|
head, and the girls say, "Oh, the mercenary little wretch!", but
|
|
I've made up my mind, and if Fred asks me, I shall accept him,
|
|
though I'm not madly in love. I like him, and we get on comfort-
|
|
ably together. He is handsome, young, clever enough, and very
|
|
rich--ever so much richer than the Laurences. I don't think his
|
|
family would object, and I should be very happy, for they are all
|
|
kind, well-bred, generous people, and they like me. Fred, as the
|
|
eldest twin, will have the estate, I suppose, and such a splendid
|
|
one it is! A city house in a fashionable street, not so showy
|
|
as our big houses, but twice as comfortable and full of solid
|
|
luxury, such as English people believe in. I like it, for it's
|
|
genuine. I've seen the plate, the family jewels, the old servants,
|
|
and pictures of the country place, with its park, great house,
|
|
lovely grounds, and fine horses. Oh, it would be all I should
|
|
ask! And I'd rather have it than any title such as girls snap
|
|
up so readily, and find nothing behind. I may be mercenary,
|
|
but I hate poverty, and don't mean to bear it a minute longer
|
|
than I can help. One of us must marry well. Meg didn't, Jo
|
|
won't, Beth can't yet, so I shall, and make everything okay all
|
|
round. I wouldn't marry a man I hated or despised. You may be
|
|
sure of that, and though Fred is not my model hero, he does very
|
|
well, and in time I should get fond enough of him if he was very
|
|
fond of me, and let me do just as I liked. So I've been turning
|
|
the matter over in my mind the last week, for it was impossible to
|
|
help seeing that Fred liked me. He said nothing, but little things
|
|
showed it. He never goes with Flo, always gets on my side of the
|
|
carriage, table, or promenade, looks sentimental when we are alone,
|
|
and frowns at anyone else who ventures to speak tome. Yesterday
|
|
at dinner, when an Austrian officer stared at us and then said
|
|
something to his friend, a rakish-looking baron, about `ein wond-
|
|
erschones Blondchen', Fred looked as fierce as a lion, and cut his
|
|
meat so savagely it nearly flew off his plate. He isn't one of the
|
|
cool, stiff Englishmen, but is rather peppery, for he has Scotch
|
|
blood in him, as one might guess from his bonnie blue eyes.
|
|
|
|
Well, last evening we went up to the castle about sunset, at
|
|
least all of us but Fred, who was to meet us there after going to
|
|
the Post Restante for letters. We had a charming time poking
|
|
about the ruins, the vaults where the monster tun is, and the
|
|
beautiful gardens made by the elector long ago for his English
|
|
wife. I liked the great terrace best, for the view was divine,
|
|
so while the rest went to see the rooms inside, I sat there trying
|
|
to sketch the gray stone lion's head on the wall, with scarlet
|
|
woodbine sprays hanging round it. I felt as if I'd got into a
|
|
romance, sitting there, watching the Meckar rolling through the
|
|
valley, listening to the music of the Austrian band below, and
|
|
waiting for my lover, like a real storybook girl. I had a feeling
|
|
that something was going to happen and I was ready for it. I
|
|
didn't feel blushy or quakey, but quite cool and only a little
|
|
excited.
|
|
|
|
By-and-by I heard Fred's voice, and then he came hurrying
|
|
through the great arch to find me. He looked so troubled that I
|
|
forgot all about myself, and asked what the matter was. He said
|
|
he'd just got a letter begging him to come home, for Frank was
|
|
very ill. So he was going at once on the night train and only
|
|
had time to say good-by. I was very sorry for him, and dis-
|
|
appointed for myself, but only for a minute because he said, as
|
|
he shook hands, and said it in a way that I could not mistake,
|
|
"I shall soon come back, you won't forget me, Amy?"
|
|
|
|
I didn't promise, but I looked at him, and he seemed satis-
|
|
fied, and there was no time for anything but messages and good-
|
|
byes, for he was off in an hour, and we all miss him very much.
|
|
I know he wanted to speak, but I think, from something he once
|
|
hinted, that he had promised his father not to do anything of
|
|
the sort yet a while, for is is a rash boy, and the old gentle-
|
|
man dreads a foreign daughter-in-law. We shall soon meet in
|
|
Rome, and then, if I don't change my mind, I'll say "Yes, thank
|
|
you," when he says "Will you, please?"
|
|
|
|
Of course this is all very private, but I wished you to
|
|
know what was going on. Don't be anxious about me, remember I
|
|
am your `prudent Amy', and be sure I will do nothing rashly.
|
|
Send me as much advice as you like. I'll use it if I can. I
|
|
wish I could see you for a good talk, Marmee. Love and trust me.
|
|
|
|
Ever your AMY
|
|
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|
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
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|
|
"Jo, I'm anxious about Beth."
|
|
|
|
"Why, Mother, she has seemed unusually well since the
|
|
babies came."
|
|
|
|
"It's not her health that troubles me now, it's her spirits.
|
|
I'm sure there is something on her mind, and I want you to dis-
|
|
cover what it is."
|
|
|
|
"What makes you think so, Mother?"
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|
|
|
"She sits alone a good deal, and doesn't talk to her father
|
|
as much as she used. I found her crying over the babies the
|
|
other day. When she sings, the songs are always sad ones, and
|
|
now and then I see a look in her face that I don't understand.
|
|
This isn't like Beth, and it worries me."
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|
|
|
"Have you asked her about it?'
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|
|
|
"I have tried once or twice, but she either evaded my
|
|
questions or looked so distressed that I stopped. I never
|
|
force my children's confidence, and I seldom have to wait
|
|
for long."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. March glanced at Jo as she spoke, but the face
|
|
opposite seemed quite unconscious of any secret disquiet-
|
|
ude but Beth's, and after sewing thoughtfully for a minute, Jo
|
|
said, "I think she is growing up, and so begins to dream dreams,
|
|
and have hopes and fears and fidgets, without knowing why or
|
|
being able to explain them. Why, Mother, Beth's eighteen, but
|
|
we don't realize it, and treat her like a child, forgetting
|
|
she's a woman."
|
|
|
|
"So she is. Dear heart, how fast you do grow up," re-
|
|
turned her mother with a sigh and a smile.
|
|
|
|
"Can't be helped, Marmee, so you must resign yourself to
|
|
all sorts of worries, and let your birds hop out of the nest,
|
|
one by one. I promise never to hop very far, if that is any
|
|
comfort to you."
|
|
|
|
"It's a great comfort, Jo. I always feel strong when you
|
|
are at home, now Meg is gone. Beth is too feeble and Amy too
|
|
young to depend upon, but when the tug comes, you are always
|
|
ready."
|
|
|
|
"Why, you know I don't mind hard jobs much, and there
|
|
must always be one scrub in a family. Amy is splendid in fine
|
|
works and I'm not, but I feel in my element when all the car-
|
|
pets are to be taken up, or half the family fall sick at once.
|
|
Amy is distinguishing herself abroad, but if anything is amiss
|
|
at home, I'm your man."
|
|
|
|
"I leave Beth to your hands, then, for she will open her
|
|
tender little heart to her Jo sooner than to anyone else. Be
|
|
very kind, and don't let her think anyone watches or talks
|
|
about; her. If she only would get quite strong and cheerful
|
|
again, I shouldn't have a wish in the world."
|
|
|
|
"Happy woman! I've got heaps."
|
|
|
|
"My dear, what are they?"
|
|
|
|
"I'll settle Bethy's troubles, and then I'll tell you mine.
|
|
They are not very wearing, so they'll keep." And Jo stitched away,
|
|
with a wise nod which set her mother's heart at rest about her for
|
|
the present at least.
|
|
|
|
While apparently absorbed in her own affairs, Jo watched
|
|
Beth, and after many conflicting conjectures, finally settled
|
|
upon one which seemed to explain the change in her. A slight
|
|
incident gave Jo the clue to the mystery, she thought, and
|
|
lively fancy, loving heart did the rest. She was affecting
|
|
to write busily one Saturday afternoon, when she and Beth were
|
|
alone together. Yet as she scribbled, she kept her eye on her
|
|
sister, who seemed unusually quiet. Sitting at the window, Beth's
|
|
work often dropped into her lap, and she leaned her head upon her
|
|
hand, in a dejected attitude, while her eyes rested on the dull,
|
|
autumnal landscape. Suddenly some one passed below, whistling
|
|
like an operatic blackbird, and a voice called out, "All serene!
|
|
Coming in tonight."
|
|
|
|
Beth started, leaned forward, smiled and nodded, watched the
|
|
passer-by till his quick tramp died away, then said softly as if
|
|
to herself, "How strong and well and happy that dear boy looks."
|
|
|
|
"Hum!" said Jo, still intent upon her sister's face, for the
|
|
bright color faded as quickly as it came, the smile vanished, and
|
|
presently a tear lay shining on the window ledge. Beth whisked
|
|
it off, and in her half-averted face read a tender sorrow that
|
|
made her own eyes fill. Fearing to betray herself, she slipped
|
|
away, murmuring something about needing more paper.
|
|
|
|
"Mercy on me, Beth loves Laurie!" she said, sitting down in
|
|
her own room, pale with the shock of the discovery which she
|
|
believed she had just made. "I never dreamed of such a thing.
|
|
What will Mother say? I wonder if her . . ." there Jo stopped
|
|
and turned scarlet with a sudden thought. "If he shouldn't love
|
|
back again, how dreadful it would be. He must. I'll make him!"
|
|
And she shook her head threateningly at the picture of the mis-
|
|
chievous-looking boy laughing at her from the wall. "Oh dear, we
|
|
are growing up with a vengeance. Here's Meg married and a mamma,
|
|
Amy flourishing away at Paris, and Beth in love. I'm the only
|
|
one that has sense enough to keep out of mischief." Jo thought
|
|
intently for a minute with her eyes fixed on the picture, then
|
|
she smoothed out her wrinkled forehead and said, with a decided
|
|
nod at the face opposite, "No thank you, sir, you're very
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charming, but you've no more stability than a weathercock. So
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you needn't write touching notes and smile in that insinuating
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way, for it won't do a bit of good, and I won't have it."
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Then she sighed, and fell into a reverie from which she
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did not wake till the early twilight sent her down to take new
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observations, which only confirmed her suspicion. Though
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Laurie flirted with Amy and joked with Jo, his manner to Beth
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had always been peculiarly kind and gentle, but so was every-
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body's. Therefore, no one thought of imagining that he cared
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more for her than for the others. Indeed, a general impression
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had prevailed in the family of late that `our boy' was getting
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fonder than ever of Jo, who, however, wouldn't hear a word upon
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the subject and scolded violently if anyone dared to suggest it.
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If they had known the various tender passages which had been
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nipped in the bud, they would have had the immense satisfaction
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of saying, "I told you so." But Jo hated `philandering', and
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wouldn't allow it, always having a joke or a smile ready at the
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least sign of impending danger.
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When Laurie first went to college, he fell in love about
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once a month, but these small flames were as brief as ardent,
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did no damage, and much amused Jo, who took great interest in
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the alternations of hop, despair, and resignation, which were
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confided to her in their weekly conferences. But there came a
|
|
time when Laurie ceased to worship at many shrines, hinted
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darkly at one all-absorbing passion, and indulged occasionally
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in Byronic fits of gloom. Then he avoided the tender subject
|
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altogether, wrote philosophical notes to Jo, turned studious,
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and gave out that he was going to `dig', intending to graduate
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in a blaze of glory. This suited the young lady better than
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twilight confidences, tender pressures of the hand,, and
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eloquent glances of the eye, for with Jo, brain developed
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earlier than heart, and she preferred imaginary heroes to
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real ones, because when tired of them, the former could be
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shut up in the tin kitchen till called for, and the latter
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were less manageable.
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Things were in this state when the grand discovery was
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made, and Jo watched Laurie that night as she had never done
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before. If she had not got the new idea into her head, she
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would have seen nothing unusual in the fact that Beth was
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very quiet, and Laurie very kind to her. But having given the
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rein to her lively fancy, it galloped away with her at a great
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pace, and common sense, being rather weakened by a long course
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or romance writing, did not come to the rescue. As usual Beth
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lay on the sofa and Laurie sat in a low chair close by, amusing
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her with all sorts of gossip, for she depended on her weekly
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`spin', and he never disappointed her. But that evening Jo
|
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fancied that Beth's eyes rested on the lively, dark face
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beside her with peculiar pleasure, and that she listened with
|
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intense interest to an account of some exciting cricket match,
|
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though the phrases, `caught off a tice', `stumped off his ground'',
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and `the leg hit for three', were as intelligible to her as
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Sanskrit. She also fancied, having set her heart upon seeing it,
|
|
that she saw a certain increase of gentleness in Laurie's manner,
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that he dropped his voice now and then, laughed less than usual,
|
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was a little absent--minded, and settled the afghan over Beth's
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feet with an assiduity that was really almost tender.
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"Who knows? Stranger things have happened," thought Jo,
|
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as she fussed about the room. "She will make quite an angel
|
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of him, and he will make life delightfully easy and pleasant
|
|
for the dear, if they only love each other. I don't see how he
|
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can help it,and I do believe he would if the rest of us were out of
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the way."
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As everyone was out of the way but herself, Jo began to
|
|
feel that she ought to dispose of herself with all speed. But
|
|
where should she go? And burning to lay herself upon the shrine
|
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of sisterly devotion, she sat down to settle that point.
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Now, the old sofa was a regular patriarch of a sofa--long,
|
|
broad, well-cushioned, and low, a trifle shabby, as well it might
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be, for the girls had slept and sprawled on it as babies,
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fished over the back, rode on the arms, and had menageries
|
|
under it as children, and rested tired heads, dreamed dreams,
|
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and listened to tender talk on it as young women. They all loved
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it, for it was a family refuge, and one corner had always been
|
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Jo's favorite lounging place. Among the many pillows that adorned
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the venerable couch was one, hard, round, covered with prickly
|
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horsehair, and furnished with a knobby button at each end. This
|
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repulsive pillow was her especial property, being used as a weapon
|
|
of defense, a barricade, or a stern preventive of too much slumber.
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|
Laurie knew this pillow well, and had cause to regard it with
|
|
deep aversion, having been unmercifully pummeled with it in former
|
|
days when romping was allowed, and now frequently debarred by it
|
|
from the seat he most coveted next ot Jo in the sofa corner. If
|
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`the sausage' as the called it, stood on end, it was a sign that
|
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he might approach and repose, but if it lay flat across the sofa,
|
|
woe to man, woman, or child who dared disturb it! That evening
|
|
Jo forgot to barricade her corner, and had not been in her seat
|
|
five minutes, before a massive form appeared beside her, and with
|
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both arms spread over the sofa back, both long legs stretched out
|
|
before him, Laurie exclaimed, with a sigh of satisfaction . . .
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|
"Now, this is filling at the price."
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"No slang," snapped Jo, slamming down the pillow. But it was
|
|
too late, there was no room for it, and coasting onto the floor,
|
|
it disappeared in a most mysterious manner.
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"Come, Jo, don't be thorny. After studying himself to a
|
|
skeleton all the week, a fellow deserves petting and ought to get
|
|
it."
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|
|
"Beth will pet you. I'm busy."
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|
|
"No, she's not to be bothered with me, but you like that sort
|
|
of thing, unless you've suddenly lost your taste for it. Have you?
|
|
Do you hate your boy, and want to fire pillows at him?"
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|
|
Anything more wheedlesome than that touching appeal was seldom
|
|
heard, but Jo quenched `her boy' by turning on him with a stern
|
|
query, "How many bouquets have you sent Miss Randal this week?"
|
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|
|
"Not one, upon my word. She's engaged. Now then."
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|
"I'm glad of it, that's one of your foolish extravagances,
|
|
sending flowers and things to girls for whom you don't care two
|
|
pins," continued Jo reprovingly.
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|
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|
"Sensible girls for whom I do care whole papers of pins won't
|
|
let me send them `flowers and things', so what can I do? My feel-
|
|
ings need a` vent'."
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|
|
|
"Mother doesn't approve of flirting even in fun, and you do
|
|
flirt desperately, Teddy."
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|
|
"I'd give anything if I could answer, `So do you'. As I can't,
|
|
I'll merely say that I don't see any harm in that pleasant little
|
|
game, if all parties understand that it's only play."
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|
|
|
"Well, it does look pleasant, but I can't learn how it's done.
|
|
I've tried, because one feels awkward in company not to do as
|
|
everybody else id doing, but I don't seem to get on", said Jo,
|
|
forgetting to play mentor.
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|
|
|
"Take lessons of Amy, she has a regular talent for it."
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|
"Yes, she does it very prettily, and never seems to go too
|
|
far. I suppose it's natural to some people to please without
|
|
trying, and others to always say and do the wrong thing in the
|
|
wrong place."
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|
|
|
"I'm glad you can't flirt. It's really refreshing to see a
|
|
sensible, straightforward girl, who can be jolly and kind without
|
|
making a fool of herself. Between ourselves, Jo, some of the
|
|
girls I know really do go on at such a rate I'm ashamed of them.
|
|
They don't mean any harm, I'm sure, but if they knew how we
|
|
fellows talked about them afterward, they'd mend their ways, I
|
|
fancy."
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|
|
|
"They do the same, and as their tongues are the sharpest,
|
|
you fellows get the worst of it, for you are as silly as they,
|
|
every bit. If you behaved properly, they would, but knowing
|
|
you like their nonsense, they keep it up, and then you blame
|
|
them."
|
|
|
|
"Much you know about it, ma'am," said Laurie in a super-
|
|
ior tone. "We don't like romps and flirts, though we may act
|
|
as if we did sometimes. The pretty, modest girls are never
|
|
talked about, except respectfully, among gentleman. Bless
|
|
your innocent soul! If you could be in my place for a month
|
|
you'd see things that would astonish you a trifle. Upon my
|
|
word, when I see one of those harum-scarum girls, I always
|
|
want to say with our friend Cock Robin . . .
|
|
|
|
"Out upon you, fie upon you,
|
|
Bold-faced jig!"
|
|
|
|
It was impossible to help laughing at the funny conflict
|
|
between Laurie's chivalrous reluctance to speak ill of woman-
|
|
kind, and his very natural dislike of the unfeminine folly of
|
|
which fashionable society showed him many samples. Jo knew
|
|
that `young Laurence' was regarded as a most eligible parti
|
|
by worldly mamas, was much smiled upon by their daughters,
|
|
and flattered enough by ladies of all ages to make a cox-
|
|
comb of him, so she watched him rather jealously, fearing
|
|
he would be spoiled, and rejoiced more than she confessed
|
|
to find that he still believed in modest girls. Returning
|
|
suddenly to her admonitory tone, she said, dropping her
|
|
voice, "If you must have a `went', Teddy, go and devote
|
|
yourself to one of the `pretty, modest girls' whom you do
|
|
respect, and not waste your time with the silly ones."
|
|
|
|
"You really advise it?" And Laurie looked at her with
|
|
an odd mixture of anxiety and merriment in his face.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I do, but you'd better wait till you are through
|
|
college, on the whole, and be fitting yourself for the place
|
|
meantime. You're not half good enough for--well, whoever
|
|
the modest girl may be." And Jo looked a little queer like-
|
|
wise, for a name had almost escaped her.
|
|
|
|
"That I'm not!" acquiesced Laurie, with an expression of
|
|
humility quite new to him, as he dropped his eyes and absently
|
|
wound Jo's apron tassel round his finger.
|
|
|
|
"Mercy on us, this will never do," thought Jo, adding
|
|
aloud, "Go and sing to me. I'm dying for some music, and
|
|
always like yours."
|
|
|
|
"I'd rather stay here, thank you."
|
|
|
|
"Well, you can't, there isn't room. Go and make yourself
|
|
useful, since you are too big to be ornamental. I thought you
|
|
hated to be tied to a woman's apron string?" retorted Jo,
|
|
quoting certain rebellious words of his own.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, that depends on who wears the apron!" and Laurie
|
|
gave an audacious tweak at the tassel.
|
|
|
|
"Are you going?" demanded Jo, diving for the pillow.
|
|
|
|
He fled at once, and the minute it was well, "Up with the
|
|
bonnets of bonnie Dundee," she slipped away to return no more
|
|
till the young gentleman departed in high dudgeon.
|
|
|
|
Jo lay long awake that night, and was just dropping off
|
|
when the sound of a stifled sob made her fly to Beth's bed-
|
|
side, with the anxious inquiry, "What is it, dear?"
|
|
|
|
"I thought you were asleep," sobbed Beth.
|
|
|
|
"Is it the old pain, my precious?'
|
|
|
|
"No, it's a new one, but I can bear it." And Beth tried
|
|
to check her tears.
|
|
|
|
"Tell me all about it, and let me cure it as I often did
|
|
the other."
|
|
|
|
"You can't, there is no cure." There Beth's voice gave
|
|
way, and clinging to her sister, she cried so despairingly
|
|
that Jo was frightened.
|
|
|
|
"Where is it? Shall I call Mother?"
|
|
|
|
"No, no, don't call her, don't tell her. I shall be
|
|
better soon. Lie down here and `poor' my head. I'll be
|
|
quiet and go to sleep, indeed I will."
|
|
|
|
Jo obeyed, but as her hand went softly to and fro across
|
|
Beth's hot forehead and wet eyelids, her heart was very full
|
|
and she longed to speak. But young as she was, Jo had learned
|
|
that hearts, like flowers, cannot be rudely handled, but must
|
|
open naturally, so though she believed she knew the cause of
|
|
Beth's new pain, she only said, in her tenderest tone, "Does
|
|
anything trouble you, deary?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Jo," after a long pause.
|
|
|
|
"Wouldn't it comfort you to tell me what it is?"
|
|
|
|
"not now, not yet."
|
|
|
|
"Then I won't ask, but remember, Bethy,that Mother and
|
|
Jo are always glad to hear and help you, if they can."
|
|
|
|
"I know it. I'll tell you by-and-by."
|
|
|
|
"Is the pain better now?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes, much better, you are so comfortable, Jo."
|
|
|
|
"Go to sleep, dear. I'll stay with you."
|
|
|
|
So cheek to cheek they fell asleep, and on the morrow
|
|
Beth seemed quite herself again, for at eighteen neither heads
|
|
nor hearts ache long, and a loving word can medicine most ills.
|
|
|
|
But Jo had made up her mind, and after pondering over a
|
|
project for some days, she confided it to her mother.
|
|
|
|
"You asked me the other day what my wishes were. I'll
|
|
tell you one of them, Marmee," she began, as they sat along
|
|
together. "I want to go away somewhere this winter for a
|
|
change."
|
|
|
|
"Why, Jo?" And her mother looked up quickly, as if the
|
|
words suggested a double meaning.
|
|
|
|
With her eyes on her work Jo answered soberly, "I want
|
|
something new. I feel restless and anxious to be seeing,
|
|
doing, and learning more than I am. I brood too much over
|
|
my own small affairs, and need stirring up, so as I can be
|
|
spared this winter, I'd like to hop a little way and try my
|
|
wings."
|
|
|
|
"Where will you hop?"
|
|
|
|
"To New York. I had a bright idea yesterday, and this is
|
|
it. You know Mrs. Kirke wrote to you for some respectable
|
|
young person to teach her children and sew. It's rather hard
|
|
to find just the thing, but I think I should suit if I tried."
|
|
|
|
"My dear, go out to service in that great boarding house!"
|
|
And Mrs. March looked surprised, but not displeased.
|
|
|
|
"It's not exactly going out to service, for Mrs. Kirke is
|
|
your friend--the kindest soul that ever lived--and would make
|
|
things pleasant for me, I know. Her family is separate from
|
|
the rest, and no one knows me there. Don't care if they do.
|
|
It's honest work, and I'm not ashamed of it."
|
|
|
|
"Nor I. But your writing?"
|
|
|
|
"All the better for the change. I shall see and hear new
|
|
things, get new ideas, and even if I haven't much time there,
|
|
I shall bring home quantities of material for my rubbish."
|
|
|
|
"I have no doubt of it, but are these your only reasons for
|
|
this sudden fancy?'
|
|
|
|
"No, Mother."
|
|
|
|
"May I know the others?"
|
|
|
|
Jo looked up and Jo looked down, then said slowly, with
|
|
sudden color in her cheeks. "It may be vain and wrong to
|
|
say it, but--I'm afraid--Laurie is getting too fond of me."
|
|
|
|
"Then you don't care for him in the way it is evident he
|
|
begins to care for you?' And Mrs. March looked anxious as she
|
|
put the question.
|
|
|
|
"Mercy, no! I love the dear boy, as I always have, and
|
|
am immensely proud of him, but as for anything more, it's out
|
|
of the question."
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad of that, Jo."
|
|
|
|
"Why, please?'
|
|
|
|
"Because, dear, I don't think you suited to one another. As
|
|
friends you are very happy, and your frequent quarrels soon blow
|
|
over, but I fear you would both rebel if you were mated for life.
|
|
You are too much alike and too fond of freedom, not to mention
|
|
hot tempers and strong wills, to get on happily together, in a
|
|
relation which needs infinite patience and forbearance, as well
|
|
as love."
|
|
|
|
"That's just the feeling I had, though I couldn't express it.
|
|
I'm glad you think he is only beginning to care for me. It would
|
|
trouble me sadly to make him unhappy, for I couldn't fall in love
|
|
with the dear old fellow merely out of gratitude, could I?"
|
|
|
|
"You are sure of his feeling for you?"
|
|
|
|
The color deepened in Jo's cheeks as she answered, with
|
|
the look of mingled pleasure, pride, and pain which young
|
|
girls wear when speaking of first lovers, "I'm afraid it is
|
|
so, Mother. He hasn't said anything, but he looks a great deal.
|
|
I think I had better go away before it comes to anything."
|
|
|
|
"I agree with you, and if it can be managed you shall go."
|
|
|
|
Jo looked relieved, and after a pause, said, smiling, "How
|
|
Mrs. Moffat would wonder at your want of management, if she
|
|
knew, and how she will rejoice that Annie may still hope."
|
|
|
|
"AH, Jo, mothers may differ in their management, but the
|
|
hope is the same in all--the desire to see their children happy.
|
|
Meg is so, and I am content with her success. You I leave to
|
|
enjoy your liberty till you tire of it, for only then will you
|
|
find that there is something sweeter. Amy is my chief care
|
|
now, but her good sense will help ;her. For Beth, I indulge
|
|
no hopes except that she may be well. By the way, she seems
|
|
brighter this last day or two. Have you spoken to her?'
|
|
|
|
"Yes, she owned she had a trouble, and promised to tell
|
|
me by-and-by. I said no more, for I think I know it," And
|
|
Jo told her little story.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. March shook her head, and did not take so romantic
|
|
a view of the case, but looked grave, and repeated her opinion
|
|
that for Laurie's sake Jo should go away for a time.
|
|
|
|
"Let us say nothing about it to him till the plan is settled,
|
|
then I'll run away before he can collect his wits and be tragic.
|
|
Beth must think I'm going to please myself, as I am, for I can't
|
|
talk about Laurie to her. But she can pet and comfort him after
|
|
I'm gone, and so cure him of this romantic notion. He's been
|
|
through so many little trials of the sort, he's used to it, and
|
|
will soon get over his lovelornity."
|
|
|
|
Jo spoke hopefully, but could not rid herself of the fore-
|
|
boding fear that this `little trial' would be harder than the
|
|
others, and that Laurie would not get over his `lovelornity'
|
|
as easily as heretofore.
|
|
|
|
The plan was talked over in a family council and agreed
|
|
upon, for Mrs. Kirke gladly accepted Jo, and promised to
|
|
make a pleasant home for her. The teaching would render
|
|
her independent, and such leisure as she got might be made
|
|
profitable by writing, while the new scenes and society would
|
|
be both useful and agreeable. Jo liked the prospect and was
|
|
eager to be gone, for the home nest was growing too narrow
|
|
for her restless nature and adventurous spirit. When all was
|
|
settled, with fear and trembling she told Laurie, but to her
|
|
surprise he took it very quietly. He had been graver than
|
|
usual of late, but very pleasant, and when jokingly accused
|
|
of turning over a new leaf, he answered soberly, "So I am,
|
|
and I mean this one shall stay turned."
|
|
|
|
Jo was very much relieved that one of his virtuous fits
|
|
should come on just then, and made her preparations with a
|
|
lightened heart, for Beth seemed more cheerful, and hoped
|
|
she was doing the best for all.
|
|
|
|
"One thing I leave in your especial care," she said, the
|
|
night before she left.
|
|
|
|
"You mean your papers?" asked Beth.
|
|
|
|
"No, my boy. Be very good to him, won't you?"
|
|
|
|
"Of course I will, but I can't fill your place, and he'll
|
|
miss you sadly."
|
|
|
|
"It won't hurt him, so remember, I leave him in your
|
|
charge, to plague, pet, and keep in order."
|
|
|
|
"I'll do my best, for your sake," promised Beth, wondering
|
|
why Jo looked at her so queerly.
|
|
|
|
When Laurie said good-by, he whispered significantly, "It
|
|
won't do a bit of good, Jo. My eye is on you, so mind what you
|
|
do, or I'll come and bring you home."
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
|
|
|
|
New York, November
|
|
|
|
Dear Marmee and Beth,
|
|
|
|
I'm going to write you a regular volume, for I've got heaps
|
|
to tell, though I'm not a fine young lady traveling on the con-
|
|
tinent. When I lost sight of Father's dear old face, I felt a
|
|
trifle blue, and might have shed a briny drop or two, if an
|
|
Irish lady with four small children, all crying more or less,
|
|
hadn't diverted my mind, for I amused myself by dropping ginger-
|
|
bread nuts over the seat every time they opened their mouths
|
|
to roar.
|
|
|
|
Soon the sun came out, and taking it as a good omen, I
|
|
cleared up likewise and enjoyed my journey with all my heart.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Kirke welcomed me so kindly I felt at home at once,
|
|
even in that big house full of strangers. She gave me a funny
|
|
little sky parlor--all she had, but there is a stove in it, and a
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|
nice table in a sunny window, so I can sit here and write when-
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ever I like. A fine view and a church tower opposite atone for
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the many stairs, and I took a fancy to my den on the spot. The
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nursery, where I am to teach and sew, is a pleasant room next
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Mrs. Kirke's private parlor, and the two little girls are pretty
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children, rather spoiled, I fancy, but they took to me after
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telling them THE SEVEN BAD PIGS, and I've no doubt I shall make
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a model governess.
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I am to have my meals with the children, if I prefer it to
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the great table, and for the present I do, for I am bashful,
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though no one will believe it.
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"Now, my dear, make yourself at home," said Mrs. K. in her
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motherly way, "I'm on the drive from morning to night, as you
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may suppose with such a family, but a great anxiety will be off
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my mind if I know the children are safe with you. My rooms are
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always open to you, and your own shall be as comfortable as I
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can make it. There are some pleasant people in the house if you
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feel sociable, and your evenings are always free. Come to me
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if anything goes wrong, and be as happy as you can. There's the
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tea bell, I must run and change my cap." And off she bustled,
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leaving me to settle myself in my new nest.
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As I went downstairs soon after, I saw something I liked.
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The flights are very long in this tall house, and as I stood
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waiting at the head of the third one for a little servant girl
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to lumber up, I saw a gentleman come along behind her, take the
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heavy hod of coal out of her hand, carry it all the way up, put
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it down at a door near by, and walk away, saying, with a kind
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nod and a foreign accent, "It goes better so. The little back
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is too young to haf such heaviness."
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Wasn't it good of him? I like such things, for as Father
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says, trifles show character. When I mentioned it to Mrs. K.,
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that evening, she laughed, and said, "That must have been
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Professor Bhaer, he's always doing things of that sort."
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Mrs. K. told me he was from Berlin, very learned and good,
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|
but poor as a church mouse, and gives lessons to support himself
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|
and two little orphan nephews whom he is educating here, accord-
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|
ing to the wishes of his sister, who married an American. Not
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|
a very romantic story, but it interested me, and I was glad to
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hear that Mrs. K. lends him her parlor for some of his scholars.
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There is a glass door between it and the nursery, and I mean to
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peep at him, and then I'll tell you how he looks. He's almost
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forty, so it's no harm, Marmee.
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After tea and a go-to-bed romp with the little girls, I
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attacked the big workbasket, and had a quiet evening chatting
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with my new friend. I shall keep a journal-letter, and send it
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once a week, so goodnight, and more tomorrow.
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Tuesday Eve
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|
Had a lively time in my seminary this morning, for the
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|
children acted like Sancho, and at one time I really thought I
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|
should shake them all round. Some good angel inspired me to
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|
try gymnastics,and I kept it up till they were glad to sit down
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|
and keep still. After luncheon, the girl took them out for a
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|
walk, and I went to my needlework like little Mabel `with a
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|
willing mind'. I was thanking my stars that I'd learned to
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|
make nice buttonholes, when the parlor door opened and shut,
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|
and someone began to hum, KENNST DU DAS LAND, like a big bum-
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|
blebee. It was dreadfully improper, I know, but I couldn't
|
|
resist the temptation, and lifting one end of the curtain
|
|
before the glass door, I peeped in. Professor Bhaer was there,
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|
and while he arranged his books, I took a good look at him. A
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|
regular German--rather stout, with brown hair tumbled all over
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|
his head, a bushy beard, good nose, the kindest eyes I ever
|
|
saw, and a splendid big voice that does one's ears good, after
|
|
our sharp or slipshod American gabble. His clothes were rusty,
|
|
his hands were large, and he hadn't a really handsome feature
|
|
in his face, except his beautiful teeth, yet I liked him, for
|
|
he had a fine head, his linen was very nice, and he looked
|
|
like a gentleman, though two buttons were off his coat and
|
|
there was a patch on one shoe. He looked sober in spite of
|
|
his humming, till he went to the window to turn the hyacinth
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|
bulbs toward the sun, and stroke the cat, who received him
|
|
like an old friend. Then he smiled, and when a tap came at
|
|
the door, called out in a loud, brisk tone, "Herein!"
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|
|
I was just going to run, when I caught sight of a morsel of
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|
a child carrying a big book, and stopped, to see what was going
|
|
on.
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|
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|
"Me wants me Bhaer," said the mite, slamming down her book
|
|
and running to meet him.
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|
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|
"Thou shalt haf thy Bhaer. Come, then, and take a goot
|
|
hug from him, my Tina," said the Professor, catching her up
|
|
with a laugh, and holding her so high over his head that she
|
|
had to stoop her little face to kiss him.
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|
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|
"Now me mus tuddy my lessin," went on the funny little
|
|
thing. So he put her up at the table, opened the great dic-
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|
tionary she had brought, and gave her a paper and pencil, and
|
|
she scribbled away, turning a leaf now and then, and passing
|
|
her little fat finger down the page, as if finding a word,
|
|
so soberly that I nearly betrayed myself by a laugh, while
|
|
Mr. Bhaer stood stroking her pretty hair with a fatherly look
|
|
that made me think she must be his own, though she looked more
|
|
French than German.
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|
|
|
Another knock and the appearance of two young ladies sent
|
|
me back to my work, and there I virtuously remained through all
|
|
the noise and gabbling that went on next door. One of the girls
|
|
kept laughing affectedly, and saying, "Now Professor," in a
|
|
coquettish tone, and the other pronounced her German with an
|
|
accent that must have made it hard for him to keep sober.
|
|
|
|
Both seemed to try his patience sorely, for more than once
|
|
I heard him say emphatically, "No, no, it is not so, you haf
|
|
not attend to what I say,"" and once there was a loud rap, as
|
|
if he struck the table with his book, followed by the despair-
|
|
ing exclamation, ""Prut! It all goes bad this day."
|
|
|
|
Poor man, I pitied him, and when the girls were gone, took
|
|
just one more peep to see if he survived it. He seemed to have
|
|
thrown himself back in his chair, tired out, and sat there with
|
|
his eyes shut till the clock struck two, when he jumped up, put
|
|
his books in his pocket, as if ready for another lesson, and
|
|
taking little Tina who had fallen asleep on the sofa in his
|
|
arms, he carried her quietly away. I fancy he has a hard life
|
|
of it. Mrs. Kirke asked me if I wouldn't go down to the five
|
|
o'clock dinner, and feeling a little bit homesick, I thought
|
|
I would, just to see what sort of people are under the same
|
|
roof with me. So I made myself respectable and tried to slip
|
|
in behind Mrs. Kirke, but as she is short and I'm tall, my
|
|
efforts at concealment were rather a failure. She gave me a
|
|
seat by her, and after my face cooled off, I plucked up cour-
|
|
age and looked about me. The long table was full, and every--
|
|
one intent on getting their dinner, the gentlemen especially,
|
|
who seemed to be eating on time, for they bolted in every
|
|
sense of the word, vanishing as soon as they were done. There
|
|
was the usual assortment of young men absorbed in themselves,
|
|
young couples absorbed in each other, married ladies in their
|
|
babies, and old gentlemen in politics. I don't think I shall
|
|
care to have much to do with any of them, except one sweet-
|
|
faced maiden lady, who looks as if she had something in her.
|
|
|
|
Cast away at the very bottom of the table was the Pro-
|
|
fessor, shouting answers to the questions of a very inquisitive,
|
|
deaf old gentleman on one side, and talking philosophy with
|
|
a Frenchman on the other. If Amy had been here, she'd have
|
|
turned her back on him forever because, sad to relate, he had
|
|
a great appetite, and shoveled in his dinner in a manner which
|
|
would have horrified `her ladyship'. I didn't mind, for I like
|
|
`to see folks eat with a relish', as Hannah says, and the poor
|
|
man must have needed a deal of food after teaching idiots all
|
|
day.
|
|
|
|
As I went upstairs after dinner, two of the young men
|
|
were settling their hats before the hall mirror, and I heard
|
|
one say low to the other, ""Who's the new party?""
|
|
|
|
"Governess, or something of that sort."
|
|
|
|
"What the deuce is she at our table for?"
|
|
|
|
"Friend of the old lady's."
|
|
|
|
"Handsome head, but no style."
|
|
|
|
"Not a bit of it. Give us a light and come on."
|
|
|
|
I felt angry at first, and then I didn't care, for a gov-
|
|
erness is as good as a clerk, and I've got sense, if I haven't
|
|
style, which is more than some people have, judging from the
|
|
remarks of the elegant beings who clattered away, smoking like
|
|
bad chimneys. I hate ordinary people!
|
|
|
|
Thursday
|
|
|
|
Yesterday was a quiet day spent in teaching, sewing, and
|
|
writing in my little room, which is very cozy, with a light and
|
|
fire. I picked up a few bits of news and was introduced to the
|
|
Professor. It seems that Tina is the child of the Frenchwoman
|
|
who does the fine ironing in the laundry here. The little thing
|
|
has lost her heart to Mr. Bhaer, and follows him about the house
|
|
like a dog whenever he is at home, which delights him, as he is
|
|
very fond of children, though a `bacheldore'. Kitty and Minnie
|
|
Kirk likewise regard him with affection, and tell all sorts of
|
|
stories about the plays he invents, the presents he brings, and
|
|
the splendid tales he tells. The younger men quiz him, it seems,
|
|
call him Old Fritz, Lager Beer, Ursa Major, and make all manner
|
|
of jokes on his name. But he enjoys it like a boy, Mrs. Kirke
|
|
says, and takes it so good-naturedly that they all like him in
|
|
spite of his foreign ways.
|
|
|
|
The maiden lady is a Miss Norton, rich, cultivated, and
|
|
kind. She spoke to me at dinner today (for I went to table
|
|
again, it's such fun to watch people), and asked me to come
|
|
and see her at her room. She has fine books and pictures,
|
|
knows interesting persons, and seems friendly, so I shall make
|
|
myself agreeable, for I do want to get into good society, only
|
|
it isn't the same sort that Amy likes.
|
|
|
|
I was in our parlor last evening when Mr. Bhaer came in
|
|
with some newspapers for Mrs. Kirke. She wasn't there, but
|
|
Minnie, who is a little old woman, introduced me very prettily.
|
|
"This is Mamma's friend, Miss March."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, and she's jolly and we like her lots," added Kitty,
|
|
who is and `enfant terrible'.
|
|
|
|
We both bowed, and then we laughed, for the prim intro-
|
|
duction and the blunt addition were rather a comical contrast.
|
|
|
|
""Ah, yes, I hear these naughty ones go to vex you, Mees
|
|
Marsch. If so again, call at me and I come," he said, with a
|
|
threatening frown that delighted the little wretches.
|
|
|
|
I promised I would, and he departed, but it seems as if I
|
|
was doomed to see a good deal of him, for today as I passed
|
|
his door on my way out, by accident I knocked against it with
|
|
my umbrella. It flew open, and there he stood in his dressing
|
|
gown, with a big blue sock on one hand and a darning needle
|
|
in the other. He didn't seem at all ashamed of it, for when
|
|
I explained and hurried on, he waved his hand, sock and all,
|
|
saying in his loud, cheerful way . . .
|
|
|
|
""You haf a fine day to make your walk. Bon voyage,
|
|
Mademoiselle.""
|
|
|
|
I laughed all the way downstairs, but it was a little path-
|
|
etic, also to think of the poor man having to mend his own clothes.
|
|
The German gentlemen embroider, I know, but darning hose is
|
|
another thing and not so pretty.
|
|
|
|
Nothing has happened to write about, except a call on Miss
|
|
Norton, who has a room full of pretty things, and who was very
|
|
charming, for she showed me all her treasures, and asked me if
|
|
I would sometimes go with her to lectures and concerts, as her
|
|
escort, if I enjoyed them. She put it as a favor, but I'm sure
|
|
Mrs. Kirke has told her about us, and she does it out of kind-
|
|
ness to me. I'm as proud as Lucifer, but such favors from such
|
|
people don't burden me, and I accepted gratefully.
|
|
|
|
When I got back to the nursery there was such an uproar
|
|
in the parlor that I looked in, and there was Mr. Bhaer down
|
|
on his hands and knees, with Tina on his back, Kitty leading
|
|
him with a jump rope, and Minnie feeding two small boys with
|
|
seedcakes, as they roared and ramped in cages built of chairs.
|
|
|
|
"We are playing nargerie,"" explained Kitty.
|
|
|
|
"Dis is mine effalunt!" added Tina, holding on by the
|
|
Professor's hair.
|
|
|
|
"Mamma always allows us to do what we like Saturday aft-
|
|
ernoon, when Franz and Emil come, doesn't she, Mr. Bhaer?"
|
|
said Minnie.
|
|
|
|
The `effalunt' sat up, looking as much in earnest as any
|
|
of them, and said soberly to me, "I gif you my wort it is so,
|
|
if we make too large a noise you shall say Hush! to us, and we
|
|
go more softly."
|
|
|
|
I promised to do so, but left the door open and enjoyed the
|
|
fun as much as they did, for a more glorious frolic I never wit-
|
|
nessed. they played tag and soldiers, danced and sang, and when
|
|
it began to grow dark they all piled onto the sofa about the
|
|
Professor, while he told charming fairy stories of the storks
|
|
on the chimney tops, and the little `koblods', who ride the
|
|
snowflakes as they fall. I wish Americans were as simple and
|
|
natural as Germans, don't you?
|
|
|
|
I'm so fond of writing, I should go spinning on forever if
|
|
motives of economy didn't stop me, for though I've used thin
|
|
paper and written fine, I tremble to think of the stamps this
|
|
long letter will need. Pray forward Amy's as soon as you can
|
|
spare them. My small news will sound very flat after her
|
|
splendors, but you will like them, I know. Is Teddy studying
|
|
so hard that he can't find time to write to his friends? Take
|
|
good care of him for me, Beth, and tell me all about the babies,
|
|
and give heaps of love to everyone. From your faithful Jo.
|
|
|
|
P.S. On reading over my letter, it strikes me as rather
|
|
Bhaery, but I am always interested in odd people, and I really
|
|
had nothing else to write about. Bless you!
|
|
|
|
DECEMBER
|
|
|
|
My Precious Betsey,
|
|
|
|
As this is to be a scribble-scrabble letter, I direct it to
|
|
you, for it may amuse you, and give you some idea of my goings
|
|
on, for though quiet, they are rather amusing, for which, oh,
|
|
be joyful! After what Amy would call Herculaneum efforts, in
|
|
the way of mental and moral agriculture, my young ideas begin
|
|
to shoot and my little twigs to bend as I could wish. They are
|
|
not so interesting tome as Tina and the boys, but I do my duty
|
|
by them, and they are fond of me. Franz and Emil are jolly
|
|
little lads, quite after my own heart, for the mixture of
|
|
German and American spirit in the produces a constant state of
|
|
effervescence. Saturday afternoons are riotous times, whether
|
|
spent in the house or out, for on pleasant days they all go to
|
|
walk, like a seminary, with the Professor and myself to keep
|
|
order, and then such fun!
|
|
|
|
We are very good friends now, and I've begun to take
|
|
lessons. I really couldn't help it, and it all came about in
|
|
such a droll way that I must tell you. To begin at the begin-
|
|
ning, Mrs. Kirke called to me one day as I passed Mr. Bhaer's
|
|
room where she was rummaging.
|
|
|
|
"Did you ever see such a den, my dear? Just come and
|
|
help me put these books to rights, for I've turned everything
|
|
upside down, trying to discover what he has done with the six
|
|
new handkerchiefs I gave him not long ago."
|
|
|
|
I went in, and while we worked I looked about me, for it
|
|
was `a den' to be sure. Books and papers everywhere, a broken
|
|
meerschaum, and an old flute over the mantlepiece as if done
|
|
with, a ragged bird without any tail chirped on one window
|
|
seat, and a box of white mice adorned the other. Half-finished
|
|
boats and bits of string lay among the manuscripts. Dirty
|
|
little boots stood drying before the fire, and traces of the
|
|
dearly beloved boys, for whom he makes a slave of himself,
|
|
were to be seen all over the room. After a grand rummage
|
|
three of the missing articles were found, one over the bird
|
|
cage, one covered with ink, and a third burned brown, having
|
|
been used as a holder.
|
|
|
|
"Such a man!" laughed good-natured Mrs. K., as she put the
|
|
relics in the rag bay. "I suppose the others are torn up to
|
|
rig ships, bandage cut fingers, or make kite tails. It's
|
|
dreadful, but I can't scold him. He's so absent-minded and good-
|
|
natured, he lets those boys ride over him roughshod. I agreed
|
|
to do his washing and mending, but he forgets to give out his
|
|
things and I forget to look them over, so he comes to a sad pass
|
|
sometimes."
|
|
|
|
"Let me mend them," said I. "I don't mind it, and he needn't
|
|
know. I'd like to, he's so kind to me about bringing my letters
|
|
and lending books."
|
|
|
|
So I have got his things in order, and knit heels into two
|
|
pairs of the socks, for they were boggled out of shape with his
|
|
queer darns. Nothing was said, and I hoped he wouldn't find it
|
|
out, but one day last week he caught me at it. Hearing the
|
|
lessons he gives to others has interested and amused me so much
|
|
that I took a fancy to lear, for Tina runs in and out, leaving
|
|
the door open, and I can hear. I had been sitting near this
|
|
door, finishing off the last sock, and trying to understand what
|
|
he said to a new scholar, who is as stupid as I am. The girl
|
|
had gone, and I thought he had also, it was so still, and I was
|
|
busily gabbling over a verb, and rocking to and fro in a most
|
|
absurd way, when a little crow made me look up, and there was
|
|
Mr. Bhaer looking and laughing quietly, while he made signs to
|
|
Tina not to betray him.
|
|
|
|
"So!" he said, as I stopped and stared like a goose, "you
|
|
peep at me, I peep at you, and this is not bad, but see, I am
|
|
not pleasanting when I say, haf you a wish for German?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, but you are too busy. I am too stupid to learn," I
|
|
blundered out, as red as a peony.
|
|
|
|
"Prut! We will make the time, and we fail not to find the
|
|
sense. At efening I shall gif a little lesson with much glad-
|
|
ness, for look you, Mees Marsch, I haf this debt to pay." And
|
|
he pointed to my work `Yes,' they say to one another, these so
|
|
kind ladies, `he is a stupid old fellow, he will see not what we
|
|
do, he will never observe that his sock heels go not in holes
|
|
any more, he will think his buttons grow out new when they fall,
|
|
and believe that strings make theirselves.' "Ah! But I haf an
|
|
eye, and I see much. I haf a heart, and I feel thanks for this.
|
|
Come, a little lesson then and now, or no more good fairy works
|
|
for me and mine."
|
|
|
|
Of course I couldn't say anything after that, and as it
|
|
really is a splendid opportunity, I made the bargain, and we
|
|
began. I took four lessons, and then I stuck fast in a gram-
|
|
matical bog. The Professor was very patient with me, but it
|
|
must have been torment to him, and now and then he'd look at me
|
|
with such an expression of mild despair that it was a toss-up
|
|
with me whether to laugh or cry. I tried both ways, and when
|
|
it came to a sniff or utter mortification and woe, he just
|
|
threw the grammar on to the floor and marched out of the room.
|
|
I felt myself disgraced and deserted forever, but didn't blame
|
|
him a particle, and was scrambling my papers together, meaning
|
|
to rush upstairs and shake myself hard, when in he came, as
|
|
brisk and beaming as if I'd covered myself in glory.
|
|
|
|
"Now we shall try a new way. You and I will read these
|
|
pleasant little MARCHEN together, and dig no more in that dry
|
|
book, that goes in the corner for making us trouble."
|
|
|
|
He spoke so kindly, and opened Hans Andersons's fairy
|
|
tales so invitingly before me, that I was more ashamed than
|
|
ever, and went at my lesson in a neck-or-nothing style that
|
|
seemed to amuse him immensely. I forgot my bashfulness, and
|
|
pegged away (no other word will express it) with all my might,
|
|
tumbling over long words, pronouncing according to inspiration
|
|
of the minute, and doing my very best. When I finished reading
|
|
my first page, and stopped for breath, he clapped his hands and
|
|
cried out in his hearty way, "Das ist gut!' Now we go well! My
|
|
turn. I do him in German, gif me your ear." And away he went,
|
|
rumbling out the words with his strong voice and a relish which
|
|
was good to see as well as hear. Fortunately the story was the
|
|
CONSTANT TIN SOLDIER, which is droll, you know, so I could laugh,
|
|
and I did, though I didn't understand half he read, for I couldn't
|
|
help it, he was so earnest, I so excited, and the whole thing so
|
|
comical.
|
|
|
|
After that we got on better, and now I read my lessons
|
|
pretty well, for this way of studying suits me, and I can see
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that the grammar gets tucked into the tales and poetry as one
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gives pills in jelly. I like it very much, and he doesn't seem
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tired of it yet, which is very good of him, isn't it? I mean
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to give him something on Christmas, for I dare not offer money.
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Tell me something nice, Marmee.
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I'm glad Laurie seems so happy and busy, that he has given
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up smoking and lets his hair grow. You see Beth manages him
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better than I did. I'm not jealous, dear, do your best, only
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don't make a saint of him. I'm afraid I couldn't like him
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without a spice of human naughtiness. Read him bits of my
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letters. I haven't time to write much, and that will do just
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as well. Thank Heaven Beth continues so comfortable.
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JANUARY
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A Happy New Year to you all, my dearest family, which of
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course includes Mr. L. and a young man by the name of Teddy.
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I can't tell you how much I enjoyed your Christmas bundle,
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for i didn't get it till night and had given up hoping. Your
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letter came in the morning, but you said nothing about a
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parcel, meaning it for a surprise, so I was disappointed,
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for I'd had a `kind of feeling' that you wouldn't forget me.
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I felt a little low in my mind as I sat up in my room after
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tea, and when the big, muddy, battered-looking bundle was
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brought to me, I just hugged it and pranced. It was so
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homey and refreshing that I sat down on the floor and read
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and looked and ate and laughed and cried, in my usual absurd
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way. The things were just what I wanted, and all the better
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for being made instead of bought. Beth's new `ink bib' was
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capital, and Hannah's box of hard gingerbread will be a
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treasure. I'll be sure and wear the nice flannels you sent,
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Marmee, and read carefully the books Father has marked. Thank
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you all, heaps and heaps!
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Speaking of books reminds me that I'm getting rich in that
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line, for on New Year's Day Mr. Bhaer gave me a fine Shakes-
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peare. It is one he values much, and I've often admired it,
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set up in the place of honor with his German Bible, Plato,
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Homer, and Milton, so you may imagine how I felt when he brought
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it down, without its cover, and showed me my own name in it,
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"from my friend Friedrich Bhaer".
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"You say often you wish a library. Here I gif you one, for
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between these lids (he meant covers) is many books in one. Read
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him well, and he will help you much, for the study of character
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|
in this book will help you to read it in the world and paint it
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with your pen."
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I thanked him as well as I could, and talk now about `my
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library', as if I had a hundred books. I never knew how much
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|
there was in Shakespeare before, but then I never had a Bhaer
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|
to explain it to me. Now don't laugh at his horrid name. It
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|
isn't pronounced either Bear or Beer, as people will say it,
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|
but something between the two, as only Germans can give it.
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|
I'm glad you both like what I tell you about him, and hope you
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|
will know him some day. Mother would admire his warm heart,
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|
Father his wise head. I admire both, and feel rich in my new
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`friend Friedrich Bhaer'.
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Not having much money, or knowing what he'd like, I got
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|
several little things, and put them about the room, where he
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|
would find them unexpectedly. They were useful, pretty, or
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|
funny, a new standish on his table, a little vase for his
|
|
flower, he always has one, or a bit of green in a glass, to
|
|
keep him fresh, he says, and a holder for his blower, so
|
|
that he needn't burn up what Amy calls `mouchoirs'. I made
|
|
it like those Beth invented, a big butterfly with a fat body,
|
|
and black and yellow wings, worsted feelers, and bead eyes.
|
|
It took his fancy immensely, and he put it on his mantlepiece
|
|
as an article of virtue, so it was rather a failure after all.
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|
Poor as he is, he didn't forget a servant or a child in the
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|
house, and not a soul here, from the French laundrywoman to
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|
Miss Norton forgot him. I was so glad of that.
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|
They got up a masquerade, and had a gay time New Year's
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|
Eve. I didn't mean to go down, having no dress. But at the
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|
last minute, Mrs. Kirke remembered some old brocades, and Miss
|
|
Norton lent me lace and feathers. So I dressed up as Mrs.
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|
Malaprop, and sailed in with a mask on. No one knew me, for I
|
|
disguised my voice, and no one dreamed of the silent, haughty
|
|
Miss March (for they think I am very stiff and cool, most of
|
|
them, and so I am to whippersnappers) could dance and dress,
|
|
and burst out into a `nice derangement of epitaphs, like an
|
|
allegory on the banks of the Nile'. I enjoyed it very much,
|
|
and when we unmasked it was fun to see them stare at me. I
|
|
heard one of the young men tell another that he knew I'd been
|
|
an actress, in fact, he thought he remembered seeing me at
|
|
one of the minor theaters. Meg will relish that joke. Mr.
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|
Bhaer was Nick Bottom, and Tina was Titania, a perfect little
|
|
fairy in his arms. To see them dance was `quite a landscape',
|
|
to use a Teddyism.
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|
I had a very happy New Year, after all, and when I thought
|
|
it over in my room, I felt as if I was getting on a little in
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|
spite of my many failures, for I'm cheerful all the time now,
|
|
work with a will, and take more interest in other people than
|
|
I used to, which is satisfactory. Bless you all! Ever your
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|
loving . . . Jo
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CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
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Though very happy in the social atmosphere about her, and
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|
very busy with the daily work that earned her bread and made it
|
|
sweeter for the effort, Jo still found time for literary labors.
|
|
The purpose which now took possession of her was a natural one
|
|
to a poor and ambitious girl, but the means she took to gain
|
|
her end were not the best. She saw that money conferred power,
|
|
therefore, she resolved to have, not to be used for herself alone,
|
|
but for those whom she loved more than life.
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|
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|
The dream of filling home with comforts, giving Beth every-
|
|
thing she wanted,from strawberries in winter to an organ in her
|
|
bedroom, going abroad herself, and always having more than enough,
|
|
so that she might indulge in the luxury of charity, had been for
|
|
years Jo's most cherished castle in the air.
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|
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|
The prize-story experience had seemed to open a way which
|
|
might, after long traveling and much uphill work, lead to this
|
|
delightful chateau en Espagne. But the novel disaster quenched
|
|
her courage for a time, for public opinion is a giant which has
|
|
frightened stouter-hearted Jacks on bigger beanstalks than hers.
|
|
Like that immortal hero, she reposed awhile after the first
|
|
attempt, which resulted in a tumble and the least lovely of the
|
|
giant's treasures, if I remember rightly. But the `up again
|
|
and take another' spirit was as strong in Jo as in Jack, so
|
|
she scrambled up on the shady side this time and got more
|
|
booty, but nearly left behind her what was far more precious
|
|
than the moneybags.
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|
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|
She took to writing sensation stories, for in those dark
|
|
ages, even all-perfect America read rubbish. She told no one,
|
|
but concocted a `thrilling tale', and boldly carried it her-
|
|
self to Mr. Dashwood, editor of the WEEKLY VOLCANO. She had
|
|
never read SARTOR RESARTUS, but she had a womanly instinct
|
|
that clothes possess an influence more powerful over many
|
|
than the worth of character or the magic of manners. So she
|
|
dressed herself in her best, and trying to persuade herself
|
|
that she was neither excited nor nervous, bravely climbed two
|
|
pairs of dark and dirty stairs to find herself in a disorderly
|
|
room, a cloud of cigar smoke, and the presence of three gen-
|
|
tlemen, sitting with their heels rather higher than their hats,
|
|
which articles of dress none of them took the trouble to remove
|
|
on her appearance. somewhat daunted by this reception, Jo hes-
|
|
itated on the threshold, murmuring in much embarrassment . . .
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|
|
|
"Excuse me, I was looking for the WEEKLY VOLCANO office.
|
|
I wished to see Mr. Dashwood."
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|
|
|
Down went the highest pair of heels, up rose the smokiest
|
|
gentleman, and carefully cherishing his cigar between his
|
|
fingers, he advanced with a nod and a countenance expressive
|
|
of nothing but sleep. Feeling that she must get through the
|
|
matter somehow, Jo produced her manuscript and, blushing
|
|
redder and redder with each sentence, blundered out fragments
|
|
of the little speech carefully prepared for the occasion.
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|
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|
"A friend of mine desired me to offer--a story--just as
|
|
an experiment--would like your opinion--be glad to write more
|
|
if this suits."
|
|
|
|
While she blushed and blundered, Mr. Dashwood had taken
|
|
the manuscript, and was turning over the leaves with a pair
|
|
of rather dirty fingers, and casting critical glances up and
|
|
down the neat pages.
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|
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|
"Not a first attempt, I take it?" observing that the
|
|
pages were numbered, covered only on one side, and not tied
|
|
up with a ribbon--sure sign of a novice.
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|
|
|
"No, sir. She has had some experience, and got a prize
|
|
for a tale in the BLARNEYSTONE BANNER."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, did she?" And Mr. Dashwood gave JO a quick look,
|
|
which seemed to take note of everything she had on, from the
|
|
bow in her bonnet to the buttons on her boots. "Well, you
|
|
can leave it, if you like. We've more of this sort of thing
|
|
on hand than we know what to do with at present, but I'll run
|
|
my eye over it, and give you an answer next week."
|
|
|
|
Now, Jo did not like to leave it, for Mr. Dashwood didn't
|
|
suit her at all, but, under the circumstances, there was nothing
|
|
for her to do but bow and walk away, looking particularly tall
|
|
and dignified, as she was apt to do when nettled or abashed.
|
|
Just then she was both, for it was perfectly evident from the
|
|
knowing glances exchanged among the gentlemen that her little
|
|
fiction of `my friend' was considered a good joke, and a
|
|
laugh, produced by some inaudible remark of the editor, as
|
|
he closed the door, completed her discomfiture. Half re-
|
|
solving never to return, she went home, and worked off her
|
|
irritation by stitching pinafores vigorously, and in an
|
|
hour or two was cool enough to laugh over the scene and long
|
|
for next week.
|
|
|
|
When she went again, Mr. Dashwood was alone, whereat she
|
|
rejoiced. Mr. Dashwood was much wider awake than before,
|
|
which was agreeable and Mr. Dashwood was not too deeply ab-
|
|
sorbed in a cigar to remember his manners, so the second
|
|
interview was much more comfortable than the first.
|
|
|
|
"We'll take this (editors never say I), if you don't
|
|
object to a few alterations. It's too long, but omitting
|
|
the passages I've marked will make it just the right length,"
|
|
he said, in a businesslike tone.
|
|
|
|
Jo hardly knew her own MS again, so crumpled and under-
|
|
scored were its pages and paragraphs, but feeling as a tender
|
|
patent might on being asked to cut off her baby's legs in
|
|
order that it might fit into a new cradle, she looked at the
|
|
marked passages and was surprised to find that all the moral
|
|
reflections--which she had carefully put in as ballast for
|
|
much romance--had been stricken out.
|
|
|
|
"But, Sir, I thought every story should have some sort of
|
|
a moral, so I took care to have a few of my sinners repent."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Dashwoods's editorial gravity relaxed into a smile, for
|
|
Jo had forgotten her `friend', and spoken as only an author
|
|
could.
|
|
|
|
"People want to be amused, not preached at, you know. Morals
|
|
don't sell nowadays." Which was not quite a correct statement,
|
|
by the way.
|
|
|
|
"You think it would do with these alterations, then?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it's a new plot, and pretty well worked up--language
|
|
good, and so on," was Mr. Dashwood's affable reply.
|
|
|
|
"What do you--that is, what compensation--" began Jo, not
|
|
exactly knowing how to express herself.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes, well, we give from twenty-five to thirty for
|
|
things of this sort. Pay when it comes out," returned Mr. Dash-
|
|
wood, as if that point had escaped him. Such trifles do escape
|
|
the editorial mind, it is said.
|
|
|
|
"Very well, you can have it," said Jo, handing back the
|
|
story with a satisfied air, for after the dollar-a-column work,
|
|
even twenty-five seemed good pay.
|
|
|
|
"Shall I tell my friend you will take another if she has one
|
|
better than this?" asked Jo, unconscious of her little slip of
|
|
the tongue, and emboldened by her success.
|
|
|
|
"Well, we'll look at it. Can't promise to take it. Tell her
|
|
to make it short and spicy, and never mind the moral. What name
|
|
would your friend like to put on it?" in a careless tone.
|
|
|
|
"None at all, if you please, she doesn't wish her name to
|
|
appear and has no nom de plume," said Jo, blushing in spite of
|
|
herself.
|
|
|
|
"Just as she likes, of course. The tale will be out next week.
|
|
Will you call for the money, or shall I send it?" asked Mr. Dashwood,
|
|
who felt a natural desire to know who his new contributor might be.
|
|
|
|
"I'll call. Good morning, Sir."
|
|
|
|
As she departed, Mr. Dashwood put up his feet, with the grace-
|
|
ful remark, "Poor and proud, as usual, but she'll do."
|
|
|
|
Following Mr. Dashwood's directions, and making Mrs. Northbury
|
|
her model, Jo rashly took a plunge into the frothy sea of sensa-
|
|
tional literature, but thanks to the life preserver thrown her by
|
|
a friend, she came up again not much the worse for her ducking.
|
|
|
|
Like most young scribblers, she went abroad for her charac-
|
|
ters and scenery, and banditti, counts, gypsies, nuns, and duch-
|
|
esses appeared upon her stage, and played their parts with as
|
|
much accuracy and spirit as could be expected. Her readers
|
|
were not particular about such trifles as grammar, punctuation,
|
|
and probability, and Mr. Dashwood graciously permitted her to
|
|
fill his columns at the lowest prices, not thinking it necess-
|
|
ary to tell her that the real cause of his hospitality was the
|
|
fact that one of his hacks, on being offered higher wages, had
|
|
basely left him in the lurch.
|
|
|
|
She soon became interested in her work, for her emaciated
|
|
purse grew stout, and the little hoard she was making to take
|
|
Beth to the mountains next summer grew slowly but surely as
|
|
the weeks passed. One thing disturbed her satisfaction, and
|
|
that was that she did not tell them at home. She had a feeling
|
|
that Father and Mother would not approve, and preferred to have
|
|
her own way first, and beg pardon afterward. It was easy to
|
|
keep her secret, for no name appeared with her stories. Mr.
|
|
Dashwood had of course found it out very soon, but promised
|
|
to be dumb, and for a wonder kept his word.
|
|
|
|
She thought it would do her no harm, for she sincerely
|
|
meant to write nothing of which she would be ashamed, and
|
|
quieted all pricks of conscience by anticipations of the
|
|
happy minute when she should show her earnings and laugh over
|
|
her well-kept secret.
|
|
|
|
But Mr. Dashwood rejected any but thrilling tales, and as
|
|
thrills could not be produced except by harrowing up the souls
|
|
of the readers, history and romance, land and sea, science and
|
|
art, police records and lunatic asylums, had to be ransacked
|
|
for the purpose. Jo soon found that her innocent experience
|
|
had given her but few glimpses of the tragic world which
|
|
underlies society, so regarding it in a business light, she set
|
|
about supplying her deficiencies with characteristic energy.
|
|
Eager to find material for stories, and bent on making them
|
|
original in plot, if not masterly in execution, she searched
|
|
newspapers for accidents, incidents, and crimes. She excited
|
|
the suspicions of public librarians by asking for works on
|
|
poisons. She studied faces in the street, and characters,
|
|
good, bad, and indifferent, all about her. She delved in
|
|
the dust of ancient times for facts or fictions so old that
|
|
they were as good as new, and introduced herself to folly, sin,
|
|
and misery, as well as her limited opportunities allowed. She
|
|
thought she was prospering finely, but unconsciously she was
|
|
beginning to desecrate some of the womanliest attributes of a
|
|
woman's character. She was living in bad society, and imagin-
|
|
ary though it was, its influence affected her, for she was
|
|
feeding heart and fancy on dangerous and unsubstantial food,
|
|
and was fast brushing the innocent bloom from her nature by
|
|
a premature acquaintance with the darker side of life, which
|
|
comes soon enough to all of us.
|
|
|
|
She was beginning to feel rather than see this, for much
|
|
describing of other people's passions and feelings set her
|
|
to studying and speculating about her own. a morbid amusement
|
|
in which healthy young minds do not voluntarily indulge. Wrong-
|
|
doing always brings its own punishment, and when Jo most
|
|
needed hers, she got it.
|
|
|
|
I don't know whether the study of Shakespeare helped her
|
|
to read character, or the natural instinct of a woman for what
|
|
was honest, brave, and strong, but while endowing her imaginary
|
|
heroes with every perfection under the sun, Jo was discovering
|
|
a live hero, who interested her in spite of many human imper-
|
|
fections. Mr. Bhaer, in one of their conversations, had advised
|
|
her to study simple, true, and lovely characters, wherever she
|
|
found them, as good training for a writer. Jo took him at his
|
|
word, for she coolly turned round and studied him--a proceeding
|
|
which would have much surprised him, had he know it, for the
|
|
worthy Professor was very humble in his own conceit.
|
|
|
|
Why everybody liked him was what puzzled Jo, at first. He
|
|
was neither rich nor great, young nor handsome, in no respect
|
|
what is called fascinating, imposing, or brilliant, and yet
|
|
he was as attractive as a genial fire, and people seemed to
|
|
gather about him as naturally as about a warm hearth. He was
|
|
poor, yet always appeared to be giving something away; a
|
|
stranger, yet everyone was his friend; no longer young, but
|
|
as happy-hearted as a boy; plain and peculiar, yet his face
|
|
looked beautiful to many, and his oddities were freely for-
|
|
given for his sake. Jo often watched him, trying to discover
|
|
the charm, and at last decided that it was benevolence which
|
|
worked the miracle. If he had any sorrow, `it sat with its
|
|
head under its wing', and he turned only his sunny side to the
|
|
world. There were lines upon his forehead, but Time seemed
|
|
to have touched him gently, remembering how kind he was to
|
|
others. The pleasant curves about his mouth were the mem-
|
|
orials of many friendly words and cheery laughs, his eyes
|
|
were never cold or hard, and his big hand had a warm, strong
|
|
grasp that was more expressive than words.
|
|
|
|
His very clothes seemed to partake of the hospitable nature
|
|
of the wearer. They looked as if they were at ease, and liked
|
|
to make him comfortable. His capacious waistcoat was sugges-
|
|
tive of a large heart underneath. His rusty coat had a social
|
|
air, and the baggy pockets plainly proved that little hands
|
|
often went in empty and came out full. His very boots were
|
|
benevolent, and his collars never stiff and raspy like other
|
|
people's.
|
|
|
|
"That's it!" said Jo to herself, when she at length dis-
|
|
covered that genuine good will toward one's fellow men could
|
|
beautify and dignify even a stout German teacher, who shoveled
|
|
in his dinner, darned his own socks, and was burdened with the
|
|
name of Bhaer.
|
|
|
|
Jo valued goodness highly, but she also possessed a most
|
|
feminine respect for intellect, and a little discovery which
|
|
she made about the Professor added much to her regard for him.
|
|
He never spoke of himself, and no one ever knew that in his
|
|
native city he had been a man much honored and esteemed for
|
|
learning and integrity, till a countryman came to see him.
|
|
He never spoke of himself, and in a conversation with Miss
|
|
Norton divulged the pleasing fact. From her Jo learned it,
|
|
and liked it all the better because Mr. Bhaer had never told
|
|
it. She felt proud to know that he was an honored Professor
|
|
in Berlin, though only a poor language-master in America,
|
|
and his homely, hard-working life was much beautified by the
|
|
spice of romance which this discovery gave it.
|
|
|
|
Another and a better gift than intellect was shown her in
|
|
a most unexpected manner. Miss Norton had the entree into
|
|
most society, which Jo would have had no chance of seeing but
|
|
for her. The solitary woman felt an interest in the ambitious
|
|
girl, and kindly conferred many favors of this sort both on Jo
|
|
and the Professor. She took them with her one night to a select
|
|
symposium, held in honor of several celebrities.
|
|
|
|
Jo went prepared to bow down and adore the mighty ones
|
|
whom she had worshiped with youthful enthusiasm afar off. But
|
|
her reverence for genius received a severe shock that night,
|
|
and it took her some time to recover from the discovery that
|
|
the great creatures were only men and women after all. Imagine
|
|
her dismay, on stealing a glance of timid admiration at the
|
|
poet whose lines suggested an ethereal being fed on `spirit,
|
|
fire, and dew', to behold him devouring his supper with an
|
|
ardor which flushed his intellectual countenance. Turning
|
|
as from a fallen idol, she made other discoveries which
|
|
rapidly dispelled her romantic illusions. The great novelist
|
|
vibrated between two decanters with the regularity of a pen-
|
|
dulum; the famous divine flirted openly with one of the
|
|
Madame de Staels of the age, who looked daggers at another
|
|
Corinne, who was amiably satirizing her, after outmaneuvering
|
|
her in efforts to absorb the profound philosopher, who imbibed
|
|
tea Johnsonianly and appeared to slumber, the loquacity of the
|
|
lady rendering speech impossible. The scientific celebrities,
|
|
forgetting their mollusks and glacial periods, gossiped about
|
|
art, while devoting themselves to oysters and ices with char-
|
|
acteristic energy; the young musician, who was charming the
|
|
city like a second Orpheus, talked horses; and the specimen
|
|
of the British nobility present happened to be the most ordi-
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nary man of the party.
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Before the evening was half over, Jo felt so completely
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disillusioned, that she sat down in a corner to recover herself.
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Mr. Bhaer soon joined her, looking rather out of his element,
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and presently several of the philosophers, each mounted on his
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hobby, came ambling up to hold an intellectual tournament in
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the recess. The conversations were miles beyond Jo's compre-
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hension, but she enjoyed it, though Kant and Hegel were unknown
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gods, the Subjective and Objective unintelligible terms, and
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the only thing `evolved from her inner consciousness' was a
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bad headache after it was all over. It dawned upon her gradually
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that the world was being picked to pieces, and put together on
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new and, according to the talkers, on infinitely better princ-
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iples than before, that religion was in a fair way to be
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reasoned into nothingness, and intellect was to be the only
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God. Jo knew nothing about philosophy or metaphysics of any
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sort, but a curious excitement, half pleasurable, half pain-
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ful, came over her as she listened with a sense of being turned
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adrift into time and space, like a young balloon out on a hol-
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iday.
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She looked round to see how the Professor liked it, and
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found him looking at her with the grimest expression she had
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ever seen him wear. He shook his head and beckoned her to
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come away, but she was fascinated just then by the freedom
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of Speculative Philosophy, and kept her seat, trying to find
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out what the wise gentlemen intended to rely upon after
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they had annihilated all the old beliefs.
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Now, Mr. Bhaer was a diffident man and slow to offer his
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own opinions, not because they were unsettled, but too sin-
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cere and earnest to be lightly spoken. As he glanced from Jo
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to several other young people, attracted by the brilliancy
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of the philosophic pyrotechnics,he knit his brows and longed
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to speak, fearing that some inflammable young soul would be
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led astray by the rockets, to find when the display was over
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that they had only an empty stick or a scorched hand.
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He bore it as long as he could, but when he was appealed
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to for an opinion, he blazed up with honest indignation and
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defended religion with all the eloquence of truth--an elo-
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quence which made his broken English musical and his plain
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face beautiful. He had a hard fight, for the wise men argued
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well, but he didn't know when he was beaten and stood to his
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colors like a man. Somehow, as he talked, the world got
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right again to Jo. The old beliefs, that had lasted so long,
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seemed better than the new. God was not a blind force, and
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immortality was not a pretty fable, but a blessed fact. She
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|
felt as if she had solid ground under her feet again, and
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when Mr. Bhaer paused, outtalked but not one whit convinced,
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Jo wanted to clap her hands and thank him.
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She did neither, but she remembered the scene, and gave
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the Professor her heartiest respect, for she knew it cost him
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|
an effort to speak out then and there, because his conscience
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|
would not let him be silent. She began to see that character
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is a better possession than money, rank, intellect, or beauty,
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and to feel that if greatness is what a wise man has defined
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it to be, `truth, reverence, and good will', then her friend
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friedrich Bhaer was not only good, but great.
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This belief strengthened daily. She valued his esteem,
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she coveted his respect, she wanted to be worthy of his friend-
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ship, and just when the wish was sincerest, she came near to
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losing everything. It all grew out of a cocked hat, for one
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|
evening the Professor came in to give Jo her lesson with a
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paper soldier cap on his head, which Tina had put there and
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he had forgotten to take off.
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"It's evident he doesn't look in his glass before coming
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down," thought Jo, with a smile, as he said "Goot efening,"
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and sat soberly down, quite unconscious of the ludicrous
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contrast between his subject and his headgear, for he was
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going to read her the DEATH OF WALLENSTEIN.
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She said nothing at first, for she liked to hear him laugh
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out his big, hearty laugh when anything funny happened, so she
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left him to discover it for himself, and presently forgot all
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|
about it, for to hear a German read Schiller is rather an ab-
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|
sorbing occupation. After the reading came the lesson, which
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was a lively one, for Jo was in a gay mood that night, and
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the cocked hat kept her eyes dancing with merriment. The
|
|
Professor didn't know what to make of her, and stopped at
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|
last to ask with an air of mild surprise that was irre-
|
|
sistible . . .
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"Mees Marsch, for what do you laugh in your master's
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|
face? Haf you no respect for me, that you go on so bad?"
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"How can I be respectful, Sir, when you forget to take
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your hat off?" said Jo.
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|
Lifting his hand to his head, the absent-minded Professor
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|
gravely felt and removed the little cocked hat, looked at it a
|
|
minute, and then threw back his head and laughed like a merry
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|
bass viol.
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|
"Ah! I see him now, it is that imp Tina who makes me a
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|
fool with my cap. Well,it is nothing, but see you, if this
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|
lesson goes not well, you too shall wear him."
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|
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|
But the lesson did not go at all for a few minutes be-
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|
cause Mr. Bhaer caught sight of a picture on the hat, and
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|
unfolding it, said with great disgust, "I wish these papers
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|
did not come in the house. They are not for children to see,
|
|
nor young people to read. It is not well, and I haf no pat-
|
|
ience with those who make this harm."
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Jo glanced at the sheet and saw a pleasing illustration
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|
composed of a lunatic, a corpse, a villian, and a viper. She
|
|
did not like it, but the impulse that made her turn it over
|
|
was not one of displeasure but fear, because for a minute
|
|
she fancied the paper was the VOLCANO. It was not, however,
|
|
and her panic subsided as she remembered that even if it
|
|
had been and one of her own tales in it, there would have
|
|
been no name to betray her. She had betrayed herself, how-
|
|
ever, by a look and a blush, for though an absent man, the
|
|
Professor saw a good deal more than people fancied. He
|
|
knew that Jo wrote, and had met her down among the news-
|
|
paper offices more than once, but as she never spoke of it,
|
|
he asked no questions in spite of a strong desire to see her
|
|
work. Now it occurred to him that she was doing what she
|
|
was ashamed to own, and it troubled him. He did not say to
|
|
himself, "It is none of my business. I've no right to say
|
|
anything," as many people would have done. He only remem-
|
|
bered that she was young and poor, a girl far away from
|
|
mother's love and father's care, and he was moved to help
|
|
her with an impulse as quick and natural as that which
|
|
would prompt him to put out his hand to save a baby from
|
|
a puddle. All this flashed through his mind in a minute,
|
|
but not a trace of it appeared in his face, and by the
|
|
time the paper was turned, and Jo's needle threaded, he
|
|
was ready to say quite naturally, but very gravely . . .
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|
|
|
"Yes, you are right to put it from you. I do not think
|
|
that good young girls should see such things. They are made
|
|
pleasant to some, but I would more rather give my boys gun-
|
|
powder to play with than this bad trash."
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|
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|
"All may not be bad, only silly, you know, and if there
|
|
is a demand for it, I don't see any harm in supplying it.
|
|
Many very respectable people make an honest living out of
|
|
what are called sensation stories," said Jo, scratching
|
|
gathers so energetically that a row of little slits followed
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|
her pin.
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|
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|
"There is a demand for whisky, but I think you and I do
|
|
not care to sell it. If the respectable people knew what harm
|
|
they did, they would not feel that the living was honest. They
|
|
haf no right to put poison in the sugarplum, and let the small
|
|
ones eat it. No, they should think a little, and sweep mud in
|
|
the street before they do this thing."
|
|
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|
Mr. Bhaer spoke warmly, and walked to the fire, crumpling
|
|
the paper in his hands. Jo sat still, looking as if the fire
|
|
had come to her, for her cheeks burned long after the cocked
|
|
hat had turned to smoke and gone harmlessly up the chimney.
|
|
|
|
"I should like much to send all the rest after him," mut-
|
|
tered the Professor, coming back with a relieved air.
|
|
|
|
Jo thought what a blaze her pile of papers upstairs would
|
|
make, and her hard-earned money lay rather heavily on her con-
|
|
science at that minute. Then she thought consolingly to her-
|
|
self, "Mine are not like that, they are only silly, never
|
|
bad, so I won't be worried," and taking up her book, she said,
|
|
with a studious face, "Shall we go on, Sir? I'll be very
|
|
good and proper now."
|
|
|
|
"I shall hope so," was all he said, but he meant more than
|
|
she imagined, and the grave, kind look he gave her made her
|
|
feel as if the words WEEKLY VOLCANO were printed in large
|
|
type on her forehead.
|
|
|
|
As soon as she went to her room, she got out her papers,
|
|
and carefully reread every one of her stories. Being a little
|
|
shortsighted, Mr. Bhaer sometimes used eye glasses, and Jo
|
|
had tried them once, smiling to see how they magnified the
|
|
fine print of her book. Now she seemed to have on the Pro-
|
|
fessor's mental or moral spectacles also, for the faults of
|
|
these poor stories glared at her dreadfully and filled her
|
|
with dismay.
|
|
|
|
"They are trash, and will soon be worse trash if I go
|
|
on, for each is more sensational than the last. I've gone
|
|
blindly on, hurting myself and other people, for the sake of
|
|
money. I know it's so, for I can't read this stuff in sober
|
|
earnest without being horribly ashamed of it, and what should
|
|
I do if they were seen at home or Mr. Bhaer got hold of them?"
|
|
|
|
Jo turned hot at the bare idea, and stuffed the whole bun-
|
|
dle into her stove, nearly setting the chimney afire with the
|
|
blaze.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, that's the best place for such inflammable nonsense.
|
|
I'd better burn the house down, I suppose, than let other
|
|
people blow themselves up with my gunpowder," she thought as
|
|
she watched the DEMON OF THE JURA whisk away, a little black
|
|
cinder with fiery eyes.
|
|
|
|
But when nothing remained of all her three month's work
|
|
except a heap of ashes and the money in her lap, Jo looked
|
|
sober, as she sat on the floor, wondering what she ought to
|
|
do about her wages.
|
|
|
|
"I think I haven't done much harm yet, and may keep this
|
|
to pay for my time," she said, after a long meditation, adding
|
|
impatiently, "I almost wish I hadn't any conscience, it's so
|
|
inconvenient. If I didn't care about doing right, and didn't
|
|
feel uncomfortable when doing wrong, I should get on capitally.
|
|
I can't help wishing sometimes, that Mother and Father hadn't
|
|
been so particular about such things."
|
|
|
|
Ah, Jo, instead of wishing that, thank God that `Father
|
|
and Mother were particular'. and pity from your heart those
|
|
who have no such guardians to hedge them round with prin-
|
|
ciples which may seem like prison walls to impatient youth,
|
|
but which will prove sure foundations to build character upon
|
|
in womanhood.
|
|
|
|
Jo wrote no more sensational stories, deciding that the
|
|
money did not pay for her share of the sensation, but going
|
|
to the other extreme, as is the way with people of her stamp,
|
|
she took a course of Mrs. Sherwood, Miss Edgeworth, and Han-
|
|
nah More, and then produced a tale which might have been
|
|
more properly called an essay or a sermon, so intensely moral
|
|
was it. She had her doubts about it from the beginning, for
|
|
her lively fancy and girlish romance felt as ill at ease in the
|
|
new style as she would have done masquerading in the stiff
|
|
and cumbrous costume of the last century. She sent this di-
|
|
dactic gem to several markets, but it found no purchaser,
|
|
and she was inclined to agree with Mr. Dashwood that morals
|
|
didn't sell.
|
|
|
|
Then she tried a child's story, which she could easily have
|
|
disposed of if she had not been mercenary enough to demand filthy
|
|
lucre for it. The only person who offered enough to make it
|
|
worth her while to try juvenile literature was a worthy gentle-
|
|
man who felt it his mission to convert all the world to his
|
|
particular belief. But much as she liked to write for child-
|
|
ren, Jo could not consent to depict all her naughty boys as
|
|
being eaten by bears or tossed by mad bulls because they did
|
|
not go to a particular Sabbath school, nor all the good infants
|
|
who did go as rewarded by every kind of bliss, from gilded
|
|
gingerbread to escorts of angels when they departed this life
|
|
with psalms or sermons on their lisping tongues. So nothing
|
|
came of these trials, land Jo corked up her inkstand, and
|
|
said in a fit of very wholesome humility . . .
|
|
|
|
"I don't know anything. I'll wait until I do before I try
|
|
again, and meantime, `sweep mud in the street' if I can't do
|
|
better, that's honest, at least." Which decision proved that
|
|
her second tumble down the beanstalk had done her some good.
|
|
|
|
While these internal revolutions were going on, her ex-
|
|
ternal life had been as busy and uneventful as usual, and if
|
|
she sometimes looked serious or a little sad no one observed
|
|
it but Professor Bhaer. He did it so quietly that Jo never
|
|
knew he was watching to see if she would accept and profit by
|
|
his reproof, but she stood the test, and he was satisfied, for
|
|
though no words passed between them, he knew that she had
|
|
given up writing. Not only did he guess it by the fact that
|
|
the second finger of her right hand was no longer inky, but
|
|
she spent her evenings downstairs now, was met no more among
|
|
newspaper offices, and studied with a dogged patience, which
|
|
assured him that she was bent on occupying her mind with
|
|
something useful, if not pleasant.
|
|
|
|
He helped her in many ways, proving himself a true friend,
|
|
and Jo was happy, for while her pen lay idle, she was learning
|
|
other lessons besides German, and laying a foundation for the
|
|
sensation story of her own life.
|
|
|
|
It was a pleasant winter and a long one, for she did not
|
|
leave Mrs. Kirke till June. Everyone seemed sorry when the time
|
|
came. The children were inconsolable, and Mr. Bhaer's hair
|
|
stuck straight up all over his head, for he always rumpled it
|
|
wildly when disturbed in mind.
|
|
|
|
"Going home? Ah, you are happy that you haf a home to go
|
|
in," he said, when she told him, and sat silently pulling his
|
|
beard in the corner, while she held a little levee on that last
|
|
evening.
|
|
|
|
She was going early, so she bade them all goodbye overnight,
|
|
and when his turn came, she said warmly, "Now, Sir, you won't
|
|
forget to come and see us, if you ever travel our way, will you?
|
|
I'll never forgive you if you do, for I want them all to know my
|
|
friend."
|
|
|
|
"Do you? Shall I come?" he asked, looking down at her with
|
|
an eager expression which she did not see.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, come next month. Laurie graduates then, and you'd
|
|
enjoy commencement as something new."
|
|
|
|
"That is your best friend, of whom you speak?" he said in
|
|
an altered tone.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, my boy Teddy. I'm very proud of him and should like
|
|
you to see him."
|
|
|
|
Jo looked up then, quite unconscious of anything but her
|
|
own pleasure in the prospect of showing them to one another.
|
|
Something in Mr. Bhaer's face suddenly recalled the fact that
|
|
she might find Laurie more than a `best friend', and simply
|
|
because she particularly wished not to look as if anything was
|
|
the matter, she involuntarily began to blush, and the more she
|
|
tried not to, the redder she grew. If it had not been for Tina
|
|
on her knee. She didn't know what would have become of her.
|
|
Fortunately the child was moved to hug her, so she managed to
|
|
hide her face an instant, hoping the Professor did not see it.
|
|
But he did, and his own changed again from that momentary anx-
|
|
iety to its usual expression, as he said cordially . . .
|
|
|
|
"I fear I shall not make the time for that, but I wish the
|
|
friend much success, and you all happiness. Gott bless you!" And
|
|
with that, he shook hands warmly, shouldered Tina, and went away.
|
|
|
|
But after the boys were abed, he sat long before his fire
|
|
with the tired look on his face and the `heimweh', or home-
|
|
sickness, lying heavy at his heart. Once, when he remembered
|
|
Jo as she sat with the little child in her lap and that new
|
|
softness in her face, he leaned his head on his hands a minute,
|
|
and then roamed about the room, as if in search of something
|
|
that he could not find.
|
|
|
|
"It is not for me, I must not hope it now," he said to him-
|
|
self, with a sigh that was almost a groan. Then, as if reproach-
|
|
ing himself for the longing that he could not repress, he went
|
|
and kissed the two tousled heads upon the pillow, took down his
|
|
seldom-used meerschaum, and opened his Plato.
|
|
|
|
He did his best and did it manfully, but I don't think he
|
|
found that a pair of rampant boys, a pipe, or even the divine
|
|
Plato, were very satisfactory substitutes for wife and child
|
|
at home.
|
|
|
|
Early as it was, he was at the station next morning to see
|
|
Jo off, and thanks to him, she began her solitary journey with
|
|
the pleasant memory of a familiar face smiling its farewell, a
|
|
bunch of violets to keep her company, and best of all, the happy
|
|
thought, "Well, the winter's gone, and I've written no books,
|
|
earned no fortune, but I've made a friend worth having and I'll
|
|
try to keep him all my life."
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
|
|
|
|
Whatever his motive might have been, Laurie studied to
|
|
some purpose that year, for he graduated with honor, and
|
|
gave the Latin oration with the grace of a Phillips and the
|
|
eloquence of a Demosthenes, so his friends said. They were
|
|
all there, his grandfather--oh, so proud--Mr. and Mrs. March,
|
|
John and Meg, Jo and Beth, and all exulted over him with the
|
|
sincere admiration which boys make light of at the time, but
|
|
fail to win from the world by any after-triumphs.
|
|
|
|
"I've got to stay for this confounded supper, but I shall
|
|
be home early tomorrow. You'll come and meet me as usual,
|
|
girls?" Laurie said, as he put the sisters into the carriage
|
|
after the joys of the day were over. He said `girls', but he
|
|
meant Jo, for she was the only one who kept up the old custom.
|
|
She had not the heart to refuse her splendid, successful boy
|
|
anything, and answered warmly . . .
|
|
|
|
"I'll come, Teddy, rain or shine, and march before you,
|
|
playing `Hail the conquering hero comes' on a jew's-harp."
|
|
|
|
Laurie thanked her with a look that made her think in a
|
|
sudden panic, "Oh, deary me! I know he'll say something, and
|
|
then what shall I do?"
|
|
|
|
Evening meditation and morning work somewhat allayed her
|
|
fears, and having decided that she wouldn't be vain enough
|
|
to think people were going to propose when she had given them
|
|
every reason to know what her answer would be, she set forth
|
|
at the appointed time, hoping Teddy wouldn't do anything to
|
|
make her hurt his poor feelings. A call at Meg's, and a
|
|
refreshing sniff and sip at the Daisy and Demijohn, still
|
|
further fortified her for the tete-a-tete, but when she saw
|
|
a stalwart figure looming in the distance, she had a strong
|
|
desire to turn about and run away.
|
|
|
|
"Where's the jew's-harp, Jo?" cried Laurie, as soon as
|
|
he was within speaking distance.
|
|
|
|
"I forgot it." And Jo took heart again, for that salutation
|
|
could not be called loverlike.
|
|
|
|
She always used to take his arm on these occasions, now
|
|
she did not, and he made no complaint, which was a bad sign,
|
|
but talked on rapidly about all sorts of faraway subjects,
|
|
till they turned from the road into the little path that led
|
|
homeward through the grove. Then he walked more slowly, sudd-
|
|
enly lost his fine flow of language, and now and then a dread-
|
|
ful pause occurred. To rescue the conversation from one of
|
|
the wells of silence into which it kept falling, Jo said
|
|
hastily, "Now you must have a good long holiday!"
|
|
|
|
"I intend to."
|
|
|
|
Something in his resolute tone made Jo look up quickly to
|
|
find him looking down at her with an expression that assured
|
|
her the dreaded moment had come, and made her put out her hand
|
|
with an imploring, "No, Teddy. Please don't!"
|
|
|
|
"I will, and you must hear me. It's no use, Jo, we've got
|
|
to have it out, and the sooner the better for both of us," he
|
|
answered, getting flushed and excited all at once.
|
|
|
|
"Say what you like then. I'll listen," said Jo, with a
|
|
desperate sort of patience.
|
|
|
|
Laurie was a young lover, but he was in earnest, and meant
|
|
to `have it out', if he died in the attempt, so he plunged into
|
|
the subject with characteristic impetuousity, saying in a voice
|
|
that would get choky now and then, in spite of manful efforts to
|
|
keep it steady . ..
|
|
|
|
"I've loved you ever since I've known you, Jo, couldn't help
|
|
it, you've been so good to me. I've tried to show it, but you
|
|
wouldn't let me. Now I'm going to make you hear, and give me an
|
|
answer, for I can't go on so any longer."
|
|
|
|
"I wanted to save you this. I thought you'd understand . . .
|
|
began Jo, finding it a great deal harder than she expected.
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"I know you did, but the girls are so queer you never know
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what they mean. They say no when they mean yes, and drive a
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man out of his wits just for the fun of it," returned Laurie,
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entrenching himself behind an undeniable fact.
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"I don't. I never wanted to make you care for me so, and
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I went away to keep you from it if I could."
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"I thought so. It was like you, but it was no use. I
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only loved you all the more, and I worked hard to please you,
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and I gave up billiards and everything you didn't like, and
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waited and never complained, for I hoped you'd love me, though
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I'm not half good enough . . ." Here there was a choke that
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couldn't be controlled, so he decapitated buttercups while he
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cleared his `confounded throat'.
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"You, you are, you're a great deal too good for me, and
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I'm so grateful to you, and so proud and fond of you, I don't
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know why I can't love you as you want me to. I've tried, but
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I can't change the feeling, and it would be a lie to say I do
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when I don't."
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"Really, truly, Jo?"
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He stopped short, and caught both her hands as he put
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his question with a look that she did not soon forget.
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"Really, truly, dear.""
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They were in the grove now, close by the stile, and when
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the last words fell reluctantly from Jo's lips, Laurie dropped
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her hands and turned as if to go on, but for once in his life
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the fence was too much for him. So he just laid his head down
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on the mossy post, and stood so still that Jo was frightened.
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"Oh, Teddy, I'm sorry, so desperately sorry, I could kill
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myself if it would do any good! I wish you wouldn't take it
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so hard, I can't help it. You know it's impossible for people
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to make themselves love other people if they don't," cried Jo
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inelegantly but remorsefully, as she softly patted his shoul-
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der, remembering the time when he had comforted her so long
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ago.
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"They do sometimes," said a muffled voice from the post.
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"I don't believe it's the right sort of love, and I'd
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rather not try it," was the decided answer.
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There was a long pause, while a blackbird sung blithely on
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the willow by the river, and the tall grass rustled in the wind.
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Presently Jo said very soberly, as she sat down on the step of
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the stile, "Laurie, I want to tell you something."
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He started as if he had been shot, threw up his head, and
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cried out in a fierce tone, "Don't tell me that, Jo, I can't bear
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it now!"
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"Tell what?" she asked, wondering at his violence.
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"That you love that old man."
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"What old man?" demanded Jo, thinking he must mean his
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grandfather.
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"That devilish Professor you were always writing about.
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If you say you love him, I know I shall do something desper-
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ate." And he looked as if he would keep his word, as he clenched
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his hands with a wrathful spark in his eyes.
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Jo wanted to laugh, but restrained herself and said warmly,
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for she too, was getting excited with all this, "Don't swear,
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Teddy! He isn't old, nor anything bad, but good and kind, and
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the best friend I've got, next to you. Pray, don't fly into
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a passion. I want to be kind, but I know I shall get angry if
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you abuse my Professor. I haven't the least idea of loving
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him or anybody else."
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"But you will after a while, and then what will become of
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me?"
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"You'll love someone else too, like a sensible boy, and
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forget all this trouble."
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"I can't love anyone else, and I'll never forget you, Jo,
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Never! Never!" with a stamp to emphasize his passionate words.
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"What shall I do with him?" sighed Jo, finding that emotions
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were more unmanagable than she expected. "You haven't heard
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what I wanted to tell you. Sit down and listen, for indeed I
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want to do right and make you happy," she said, hoping to soothe
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him with a little reason, which proved that she knew nothing
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about love.
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Seeing a ray of hope in that last speech, Laurie threw him-
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self down on the grass at her feet, leaned his arm on the lower
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step of the stile, and looked up at her with an expectant face.
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Now that arrangement was not conducive to calm speech or clear
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thought on Jo's part, for how could she say hard things to her
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boy while he watched her with eyes full of love and longing,
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and lashes still wet with the bitter drop or two her hardness
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of heart had wrung from him? She gently turned his head away,
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saying, as she stroked the wavy hair which had been allowed to
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grow for her sake--how touching that was, to be sure!
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"I agree with Mother that you and I are not suited to each
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other, because our quick tempers and strong wills would prob-
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|
ably make us very miserable, if we were so foolish as to . . ."
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Jo paused a little over the last word, but Laurie uttered it
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with a rapturous expression.
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"Marry--no we shouldn't! If you loved me, Jo, I should
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be a perfect saint, for you could make me anything you like."
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"No, I can't. I've tried and failed, and I won't risk
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our happiness by such a serious experiment. We don't agree and
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we never shall, so we'll be good friends all our lives, but we
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won't go and do anything rash."
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"Yes, we will if we get the chance," muttered Laurie re-
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belliously.
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"Now do be reasonable, and take a sensible view of the
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case," implored Jo, almost at her wit's end.
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"I won't be reasonable. I don't want to take what you
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call `a sensible view'. It won't help me, and it only makes
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it harder. I don't believe you've got any heart."
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"I wish I hadn't."
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There was a little quiver in Jo's voice, and thinking it a
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good omen, Laurie turned round, bringing all his persuasive
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|
powers to bear as he said, in the wheedlesome tone that had
|
|
never been so dangerously wheedlesome before, "Don't disappoint
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us, dear! Everyone expects it. Grandpa has set his heart upon
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|
it, your people like it, and I can't get on without you. Say
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|
you will, and let's be happy. Do, do!"
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Not until months afterward did Jo understand how she had
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|
the strength of mind to hold fast to the resolution she had
|
|
made when she decided that she did not love her boy, and
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|
never could. It was very hard to do, but she did it, knowing
|
|
that delay was both useless and cruel.
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"I can't say `yes' truly, so I won't say it at all. You'll
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see that I'm right, by-and-by, and thank me for it . . ." she
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|
began solemnly.
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"I'll be hanged if I do!" And Laurie bounced up off the
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|
grass, burning with indignation at the very idea.
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"Yes, you will!" persisted Jo. "You'll get over this after
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|
a while, and find some lovely accomplished girl, who will adore
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you, and make a fine mistress for your fine house. I shouldn't.
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|
I'm homely and awkward and odd and old, and you'd be ashamed
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|
of me, and we should quarrel--we can't help it even now, you see--
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|
and I shouldn't like elegant society and you would, and you'd
|
|
hate my scribbling, and I couldn't get on without it, and we
|
|
should be unhappy, and wish we hadn't done it, and everything
|
|
would be horrid!"
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|
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|
"Anything more?" asked asked Laurie, finding it hard to
|
|
listen patiently to this prophetic burst.
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|
"Nothing more, except that I don't believe I shall ever
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|
marry. I'm happy as I am, and love my liberty too well to
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|
be in a hurry to give it up for any mortal man."
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|
"I know better!" broke in Laurie. "You think so now,
|
|
but there'll come a time when you will care for somebody, and
|
|
you'll love him tremendously, and live and die for him. I
|
|
know you will, it's your way, and I shall have to stand by
|
|
and see it." And the despairing lover cast his hat upon the
|
|
ground with a gesture that would have seemed comical, if his
|
|
face had not been so tragic.
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|
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|
"Yes, I will live and die for him, if her ever comes and
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|
makes me love him in spite of myself, and you must do the best
|
|
you can!" cried Jo, losing patience with poor Teddy. "I've
|
|
done my best, but you won't be reasonable, and it's selfish
|
|
of you to keep teasing for what I can't give. I shall always
|
|
be fond of you, very fond indeed, as a friend, but I'll never
|
|
marry you, and the sooner you believe it the better for both
|
|
of us--so now!"
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|
|
|
That speech was like gunpowder. Laurie looked at her a
|
|
minute as if he did not quite know what to do with himself,
|
|
then turned sharply away, saying in a desperate sort of tone,
|
|
"You'll be sorry some day, Jo."
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|
|
|
"Oh, where are you going?" she cried, for his face fright-
|
|
ened her.
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|
"To the devil!" was the consoling answer.
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|
|
|
For a minute Jo's heart stood still, as he swung himself
|
|
down the bank toward the river, but it takes much folly, sin
|
|
or misery to send a young man to a violent death, and Laurie
|
|
was not one of the weak sort who are conquered by a single
|
|
failure. He had no thought of a melodramatic plunge, but
|
|
some blind instinct led him to fling hat and coat into his boat,
|
|
and row away with all his might, making better time up the
|
|
river than he had done in any race. Jo drew a long breath and
|
|
unclasped her hands as she watched the poor fellow trying to
|
|
outstrip the trouble which he carried in his heart.
|
|
|
|
"That will do him good, and he'll come home in such a
|
|
tender, penitent state of mind, that I shan't dare to see him."
|
|
she said, adding, as she went slowly home, feeling as if she
|
|
had murdered some innocent thing, and buried it under the
|
|
leaves. "Now I must go and prepare Mr. Laurence to be very
|
|
kind to my poor boy. I wish he'd love Beth, perhaps he may
|
|
in time, but I begin to think I was mistaken about her. Oh
|
|
dear! How can girls like to have lovers and refuse them? I
|
|
think it's dreadful."
|
|
|
|
Being sure that no one could do it so well as herself, she
|
|
went straight to Mr. Laurence, told the hard story bravely
|
|
through, and then broke down, crying so dismally over her own
|
|
insensibility that the kind old gentleman, though sorely dis-
|
|
appointed, did not utter a reproach. He found it difficult
|
|
to understand how any girl could help loving Laurie, and hoped
|
|
she would change her mind, but he knew even better than Jo
|
|
that love cannot be forced, so he shook his head sadly and
|
|
resolved to carry his boy out of harm's way, for Young Im-
|
|
petuosity's parting words to Jo disturbed him more than he
|
|
would confess.
|
|
|
|
When Laurie came home, dead tired but quite composed, his
|
|
grandfather met him as if he knew nothing, and kept up the
|
|
delusion very successfully for an hour or two. But when they
|
|
sat together in the twilight, the time they used to enjoy so
|
|
much, it was hard work for the old man to ramble on as usual,
|
|
and harder still for the young one to listen to praises of
|
|
the last year's success, which to him now seemed like love's
|
|
labor lost. He bore it as long as he could, then went to
|
|
his piano and began to play. The window's were open, and Jo,
|
|
walking in the garden with Beth, for once understood music
|
|
better than her sister, for he played the `SONATA PATHETIQUE',
|
|
and played it as he never did before.
|
|
|
|
"That's very fine, I dare say, but it's sad enough to make
|
|
one cry. Give us something gayer, lad," said Mr. Laurence,
|
|
whose kind old heart was full of sympathy, which he longed to
|
|
show but knew not how.
|
|
|
|
Laurie dashed into a livelier strain, played stormily for
|
|
several minutes, and would have got through bravely, if in a
|
|
momentary lull Mrs. March's voice had not been heard calling,
|
|
"Jo, dear, come in. I want you."
|
|
|
|
Just what Laurie longed to say, with a different meaning!
|
|
As he listened, he lost his place, the music ended with a broken
|
|
chord, and the musician sat silent in the dark.
|
|
|
|
"I can't stand this," muttered the old gentleman. Up he
|
|
got, groped his way to the piano, laid a kind hand on either
|
|
of the broad shoulders, and said, as gently as a woman, "I
|
|
know, my boy, I know."
|
|
|
|
No answer for an instant, then Laurie asked sharply, "Who
|
|
told you?"
|
|
|
|
"Jo herself."
|
|
|
|
"Then there's an end of it!" And he shook off his grand-
|
|
father's hands with an impatient motion, for though grateful
|
|
for the sympathy, his man's pride could not bear a man's pity.
|
|
|
|
"Not quite. I want to say one thing, and then there shall
|
|
be an end of it," returned Mr. Laurence with unusual mildness.
|
|
"You won't care to stay at home now, perhaps?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't intend to run away from a girl. Jo can't prevent
|
|
my seeing her, and I shall stay and do it as long as I like,"
|
|
interrupted Laurie in a defiant tone.
|
|
|
|
"Not if you are the gentleman I think you. I'm disap-
|
|
pointed, but the girl can't help it, and the only thing left
|
|
for you to do is to go away for a time. Where will you go?"
|
|
|
|
"Anywhere. I don't care what becomes of me." And Laurie
|
|
got up with a reckless laugh that grated on his grandfather's
|
|
ear.
|
|
|
|
"Take it like a man, and don't do anything rash, for God's
|
|
sake. Why not go abroad, as you planned, and forget it?"
|
|
|
|
"I can't."
|
|
|
|
"But you've been wild to go, and I promised you should
|
|
when you got through college."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, but I didn't mean to go alone!" And Laurie walked
|
|
fast through the room with an expression which it was well
|
|
his grandfather did not see.
|
|
|
|
"I don't ask you to go alone. There's someone ready and
|
|
glad to go with you, anywhere in the world."
|
|
|
|
"Who, Sir?' stopping to listen.
|
|
|
|
"Myself."
|
|
|
|
Laurie came back as quickly as he went, and put out his
|
|
hand, saying huskily, "I'm a selfish brute, but--you know--
|
|
Grandfather--"
|
|
|
|
"Lord help me, yes, I do know, for I've been through it all
|
|
before, once in my own young days, and then with your father.
|
|
Now, my dear boy, just sit quietly down and hear my plan. It's
|
|
all settled, and can be carried out at once," said Mr. Laurence,
|
|
keeping hold of the young man, as if fearful that he would break
|
|
away as his father had done before him.
|
|
|
|
"Well, sir, what is it?" And Laurie sat down, without a
|
|
sign of interest in face or voice.
|
|
|
|
"There is business in London that needs looking after. I
|
|
meant you should attend to it, but I can do it better myself,
|
|
and things here will get on very well with Brooke to manage
|
|
them. My partners do almost everything, I'm merely holding
|
|
on until you take my place, and can be off at any time."
|
|
|
|
"But you hate traveling, Sir. I can't ask it of you at
|
|
your age," began Laurie, who was grateful for the sacrifice,
|
|
but much preferred to go alone, if he went at all.
|
|
|
|
The old gentleman knew that perfectly well, and particu-
|
|
larly desired to prevent it, for the mood in which he found his
|
|
grandson assured him that it would not be wise to leave him to
|
|
his own devices. So, stifling a natural regret at the thought
|
|
of the home comforts he would leave behind him, he said stoutly,
|
|
Bless your soul, I'm not superannuated yet. I quite enjoy the
|
|
idea. It will do me good, and my old bones won't suffer, for
|
|
traveling nowadays is almost as easy as sitting in a chair."
|
|
|
|
A restless movement from Laurie suggested that his chair
|
|
was not easy, or that he did not like the plan, and made the
|
|
old man add hastily, "I don't mean to be a marplot or a bur-
|
|
den. I go because I think you'd feel happier than if I was
|
|
left behind. I don't intend to gad about with you, but leave
|
|
you free to go where you like, while I amuse myself in my own
|
|
way. I've friends in London and Paris, and should like to
|
|
visit them. Meantime you can go to Italy, Germany, Switzer-
|
|
land, where you will, and enjoy pictures, music, scenery,
|
|
and adventures to your heart's content."
|
|
|
|
Now, Laurie felt just then that his heart was entirely
|
|
broken and the world a howling wilderness, but at the sound
|
|
of certain words which the old gentleman artfully introduced
|
|
into his closing sentence, the broken heart gave an unexpected
|
|
leap, and a green oasis or two suddenly appeared in the howling
|
|
wilderness. He sighed, and then said, in a spiritless tone,
|
|
"Just as you like, Sir. It doesn't matter where I go or what
|
|
I do."
|
|
|
|
"It does to me, remember that, my lad. I give you entire
|
|
liberty, but I trust you to make an honest use of it. Promise
|
|
me that, Laurie."
|
|
|
|
"Anything you like, Sir."
|
|
|
|
"Good," thought the old gentleman. "You don't care now,
|
|
but there'll come a time when that promise will keep you out
|
|
of mischief, or I'm much mistaken."
|
|
|
|
Being an energetic individual, Mr. Laurence struck while
|
|
the iron was hot, and before the blighted being recovered spirit
|
|
enough to rebel, they were off. During the time necessary for
|
|
preparation, Laurie bore himself as young gentleman usually do
|
|
in such cases. He was moody, irritable, and pensive by turns,
|
|
lost his appetite, neglected his dress and devoted much time
|
|
to playing tempestuously on his piano, avoided Jo, but con-
|
|
soled himself by staring at her from his window, with a tragic
|
|
face that haunted her dreams by night and oppressed her with a
|
|
heavy sense of guilt by day. Unlike some sufferers, he never
|
|
spoke of his unrequited passion, and would allow no one, not
|
|
even Mrs. March, to attempt consolation or offer sympathy. On
|
|
some accounts, this was a relief to his friends, but the weeks
|
|
before his departure were very uncomfortable, and everyone re-
|
|
joiced that the `poor, dear fellow was going away to forget his
|
|
trouble, and come home happy'. Of course, he smiled darkly at
|
|
their delusion, but passed it by with the sad superiority of
|
|
one who knew that his fidelity like his love was unalterable.
|
|
|
|
When the parting came he affected high spirits, to conceal
|
|
certain inconvenient emotions which seemed inclined to assert
|
|
themselves. This gaiety did not impose upon anybody, but they
|
|
tried to look as if it did for his sake, and he got on very well
|
|
till Mrs. March kissed him, whit a whisper full of motherly
|
|
solicitude. Then feeling that he was going very fast, he hastily
|
|
embraced them all round, not forgetting the afflicted Hannah, and
|
|
ran downstairs as if for his life. Jo followed a minute after to
|
|
wave her hand to him if he looked round. He did look round, came
|
|
back, put his arms about her as she stood on the step above him,
|
|
and looked up at her with a face that made his short appeal elo-
|
|
quent and pathetic.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, Jo, can't you?"
|
|
|
|
"Teddy, dear, I wish I could!"
|
|
|
|
That was all, except a little pause. Then Laurie straightened
|
|
himself up, said, "It's all right, never mind," and went away with-
|
|
out another word. Ah, but it wasn't all right, and Jo did mind, for
|
|
while the curly head lay on her arm a minute after her hard answer,
|
|
she felt as if she had stabbed her dearest friend, and when he left
|
|
her without a look behind him, she knew that the boy Laurie never
|
|
would come again.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
|
|
|
|
When Jo came home that spring, she had been struck with
|
|
the change in Beth. No one spoke of it or seemed aware of it,
|
|
for it had come too gradually to startle those who saw her
|
|
daily, but to eyes sharpened by absence, it was very plain and
|
|
a heavy weight fell on Jo's heart as she saw her sister's face.
|
|
It was no paler and but littler thinner than in the autumn, yet
|
|
there was a strange, transparent look about it, as if the mortal
|
|
was being slowly refined away, and the immortal shining through
|
|
the frail flesh with an indescribably pathetic beauty. Jo saw
|
|
and felt it, but said nothing at the time, and soon the first
|
|
impression lost much of its power, for Beth seemed happy, no
|
|
one appeared to doubt that she was better, and presently in
|
|
other cares Jo fora time forgot her fear.
|
|
|
|
But when Laurie was gone, and peace prevailed again, the
|
|
vague anxiety returned and haunted her. She had confessed
|
|
her sins and been forgiven, but when she showed her savings
|
|
and proposed a mountain trip, Beth had thanked her heartily,
|
|
but begged not to go so far away from home. Another little
|
|
visit to the seashore would suit her better, and as Grandma
|
|
could not be prevailed upon to leave the babies, Jo took Beth
|
|
down to the quiet place, where she could live much in the
|
|
open air, and let the fresh sea breezes blow a little color
|
|
into her pale cheeks.
|
|
|
|
It was not a fashionable place, but even among the pleasant
|
|
people there, the girls made few friends, preferring to live for
|
|
one another. Beth was too shy to enjoy society, and Jo too
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wrapped up in her to care for anyone else. So they were all in
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all to each other, and came and went, quite unconscious of the
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interest they exited in those about them, who watched with sym-
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pathetic eyes the strong sister and the feeble one, always
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together, as if they felt instinctively that a long separation
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was not far away.
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They did feel it, yet neither spoke of it, for often between
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ourselves and those nearest and dearest to us there exists a re-
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serve which it is very hard to overcome. Jo felt as if a veil
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had fallen between her heart and Beth's, but when she put out
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her hand to lift it up, there seemed something sacred in the
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silence, and she waited for Beth to speak. She wondered, and
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was thankful also, that her parents did not seem to see what
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she saw, and during the quiet weeks when the shadows grew so
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plain to her, she said nothing of it to those at home, be-
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lieving that it would tell itself when Beth came back no better.
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She wondered still more if her sister really guessed the hard
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truth, and what thoughts were passing through her mind during
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the long hours when she lay on the warm rocks with her head in
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Jo's lap, while the winds blew healthfully over her and the sea
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made music at her feet.
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One day Beth told her. Jo thought she was asleep, she lay
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so still, and putting down her book, sat looking at her with
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wistful eyes, trying to see signs of hope in the faint color on
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Beth's cheeks. But she could not find enough to satisfy her,
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for the cheeks were very thin, and the hands seemed too feeble
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to hold even the rosy little shells they had been collecting.
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It came to her then more bitterly than ever that Beth was
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slowly drifting away form her, and her arms instinctively
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tightened their hold upon the dearest treasure she possessed.
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For a minute her eyes were too dim for seeing, and when they
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cleared, Beth was looking up at her so tenderly that there was
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hardly any need for her to say, "Jo, dear, I'm glad you know
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it. I've tried to tell you, but I couldn't."
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There was no answer except her sister's cheek against her
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own, not even tears, for when most deeply moved, Jo did not
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cry. She was the weaker then,land Beth tried to comfort and
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sustain her, with her arms about her and the soothing words
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she whispered in her ear.
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"I've known it for a good while, dear, and now I'm used
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to it, it isn't hard to think of or to bear. Try to see it so
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and don't be troubled about me, because it's best, indeed it is."
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"Is this what made you so unhappy in the autumn, Beth? You
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did not feel it then, land keep it to yourself so long, did you?"
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asked Jo, refusing to see or say that it was best, but glad to
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know that Laurie had no part in Beth's trouble.
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"Yes, I gave up hoping then, but I didn't like to own it.
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I tried to think it was a sick fancy, and would not let it
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trouble anyone. But when I saw you all so well and strong and
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full of happy plans, it was hard to feel that I could never be
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like you, and then I was miserable, Jo."
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"Oh, Beth, and you didn't tell me, didn't let me comfort and
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help you? How could you shut me out, bear it all alone?"
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Jo's voice was full of tender reproach, and her heart ached
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to think of the solitary struggle that must have gone on while
|
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Beth learned to say goodbye to health, love, and live, and take
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up her cross so cheerfully.
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"Perhaps it was wrong, but I tried to do right. I wasn't sure,
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no one said anything, and I hoped I was mistaken. It would have
|
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been selfish to frighten you all when Marmee was so anxious about
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Meg, and Amy away, and you so happy with Laurie--at least I thought
|
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so then."
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"And I thought you loved him, Beth, and I went away because
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I couldn't," cried Jo, glad to say all the truth.
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Beth looked so amazed at the idea that Jo smiled in spite
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of her pain, and added softly, "Then you didn't, dearie? I was
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afraid it was so, and imagined your poor little heart full of
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|
lovelornity all that while."
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|
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"Why, Jo, how could I, when he was so fond of you?" asked
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Beth, as innocently as a child. "I do love him dearly. He is
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so good to me, how can I help It? But he could never be anything
|
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to me but my brother. I hope he truly will be, sometime."
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"Not through me," said Jo decidedly. "Amy is left for him,
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and they would suit excellently, but I have no heart for such
|
|
things, now. I don't care what becomes of anybody but you, Beth.
|
|
You must get well."
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|
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|
"I want to, oh, so much! I try, but every day I lose a little,
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|
and feel more sure that I shall never gain it back. It's like the
|
|
tide, Jo, when it turns, it goes slowly, but it can't be stopped.."
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|
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"It shall be stopped, your tide must not turn so soon, nine-
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|
teen is too young, Beth. I can't let you go. I'll work and pray
|
|
and fight against it. I'll keep you in spite of everything. There
|
|
must be ways, it can't be too late. God won't be so cruel as to
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|
take you from me," cried poor Jo rebelliously, for her spirit was
|
|
far less piously submissive than Beth's.
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|
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|
Simple, sincere people seldom speak much of their piety. It
|
|
shows itself in acts rather than in words, and has more influence
|
|
than homilies or protestations. Beth could not reason upon or
|
|
explain the faith that gave her courage and patience to give up
|
|
life, and cheerfully wait for death. Like a confiding child, she
|
|
asked no questions, but left everything to God and nature, Father
|
|
and Mother of us all, feeling sure that they, and they only,
|
|
could teach and strengthen heart and spirit for this life and
|
|
the life to come. She did not rebuke Jo with saintly speeches,
|
|
only loved her better for her passionate affection, and clung
|
|
more closely to the dear human love, from which our Father never
|
|
means us to be weaned, but through which He draws us closer to
|
|
Himself. She could not say, "I'm glad to go," for life was very
|
|
sweet for her. She could only sob out, "I try to be willing,"
|
|
while she held fast to Jo, as the first bitter wave of this
|
|
great sorrow broke over them together.
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|
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|
By and by Beth said, with recovered serenity, "You'll tell
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|
them this when we go home?"
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|
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"I think they will see it without words," sighed Jo, for now
|
|
it seemed to her that Beth changed every day.
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|
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|
"Perhaps not. I've heard that the people who love best are
|
|
often blindest to such things. If they don't see it, you will tell
|
|
them for me. I don't want any secrets, and it's kinder to prepare
|
|
them. Meg has John and the babies to comfort her, but you must
|
|
stand by Father and Mother, won't you Jo?"
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|
|
|
"If I can. But, Beth, I don't give up yet. I'm going to be-
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|
lieve that it is a sick fancy, and not let you think it's true."
|
|
said Jo, trying to speak cheerfully.
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|
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|
Beth lay a minute thinking, and then said in her quiet way,
|
|
"I don't know how to express myself, and shouldn't try to anyone
|
|
but you, because I can't speak out except to my Jo. I only mean
|
|
to say that I have a feeling that it never was intended I should
|
|
live long. I'm not like the rest of you. I never made any plans
|
|
about what I'd do when I grew up. I never thought of being marr-
|
|
ied, as you all did. I couldn't seem to imagine myself anything
|
|
but stupid little Beth, trotting about at home, of no use anywhere
|
|
but there. I never wanted to go away, and the hard part now is
|
|
the leaving you all. I'm not afraid, but it seems as if I should
|
|
be homesick for you even in heaven."
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|
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|
Jo could not speak, and for several minutes there was no
|
|
sound but the sigh of the wind and the lapping of the tide. A
|
|
white-winged gull flew by, with the flash of sunshine on its
|
|
silvery breast. Beth watched it till it vanished, and her eyes
|
|
were full of sadness. A little gray-coated sand bird came trip-
|
|
ping over the beach `peeping' softly to itself, as if enjoying
|
|
the sun and sea. It came quite close to Beth, and looked at her
|
|
with a friendly eye and sat upon a warm stone, dressing its wet
|
|
feathers, quite at home. Beth smiled and felt comforted, for
|
|
the tiny thing seemed to offer its small friendship and remind
|
|
her that a pleasant world was still to be enjoyed.
|
|
|
|
"Dear little bird! See, Jo, how tame it is. I like peeps
|
|
better than the gulls. They are not so wild and handsome, but
|
|
they seem happy, confiding little things. I used to call them
|
|
my birds last summer, and Mother said they reminded her of me
|
|
--busy, quaker-colored creatures, always near the shore, and
|
|
always chirping that contented little song of theirs. You are
|
|
the gull, Jo, strong and wild, fond of the storm and the wind,
|
|
flying far out to sea, and happy all alone. Meg is the turtle-
|
|
dove, and Amy is like the lark she write about, trying to get
|
|
up among the clouds, but always dropping down into its nest
|
|
again. Dear little girl! She's so ambitious, but her heart is
|
|
good and tender, and no matter how high she flies, she never
|
|
will forget home. I hope I shall see her again, but she seems
|
|
so far away."
|
|
|
|
"She is coming in the spring, and I mean that you shall be
|
|
all ready to see and enjoy her. I'm going to have you well and
|
|
rosy by that time." began Jo, feeling that of all the changes
|
|
in Beth, the talking change was the greatest, for it seemed to
|
|
cost no effort now, and she thought aloud in a way quite unlike
|
|
bashful Beth.
|
|
|
|
"Jo, dear, don't hope any more. It won't do any good. I'm
|
|
sure of that. We won't be miserable, but enjoy being together
|
|
while we wait. We'll have happy times, for I don't suffer much,
|
|
and I think the tide will go out easily, if you help me."
|
|
|
|
Jo leaned down to kiss the tranquil face, and with that
|
|
silent kiss, she dedicated herself soul and body to Beth.
|
|
|
|
She was right. There was no need of any words when they
|
|
got home, for Father and Mother saw plainly now what they had
|
|
prayed to be saved from seeing. Tired with her short journey,
|
|
Beth went at once to bed, saying how glad she was to be home,
|
|
and when Jo went down, she found that she would be spared the
|
|
hard task of telling Beth's secret. Her father stood leaning
|
|
his head on the mantelpiece and did not turn as she came in,
|
|
but her mother stretched out her arms as if for help, and Jo
|
|
went to comfort her without a word.
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|
|
|
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
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|
|
|
At three o'clock in the afternoon, all the fashionable world
|
|
at Nice may be seen on the Promenade des Anglais--a charming place,
|
|
for the wide walk, bordered with palms, flowers, and tropical shrubs,
|
|
is bounded on one side by the sea, on the other by the grand drive,
|
|
lined with hotels and villas, while beyond lie orange orchards and
|
|
the hills. Many nations are represented, many languages spoken, many
|
|
costumes worn, and on a sunny day the spectacle is as gay and brill-
|
|
iant as a carnival. Haughty English, lively French, sober Germans,
|
|
handsome Spaniards, ugly Russians, meek Jews, free-and-easy Americans,
|
|
all drive,sit, or saunter here, chatting over the news, and criti-
|
|
czing the latest celebrity who has arrived--Ristori or Dickens, Victor
|
|
Emmanuel or the Queen of the Sandwich Islands. The equipages are as
|
|
varied as the company and attract as much attention, especially the
|
|
low basket barouches in which ladies drive themselves, with a pair
|
|
of dashing ponies, gay nets to keep their voluminous flounces from
|
|
overflowing the diminutive vehicles, and little grooms on the perch
|
|
behind.
|
|
|
|
Along this walk, on Christmas Day, a tall young man walked
|
|
slowly, with his hands behind him, and a somewhat absent expression
|
|
of countenance. He looked like an Italian, was dressed like an
|
|
Englishman, and had the independent air of an American--a combi-
|
|
nation which caused sundry pairs of feminine eyes to look approv-
|
|
ingly after him, and sundry dandies in black velvet suits, with
|
|
rose-colored neckties, buff gloves, and orange flowers in their
|
|
buttonholes, to shrug their shoulders, and then envy him his inches.
|
|
There were plenty of pretty faces to admire, but the young man took
|
|
little notice of them, except to glance now and then at some blonde
|
|
girl in blue. Presently he strolled out of the promenade and
|
|
stood a moment at the crossing, as if undecided whether to go and
|
|
listen to the band in the Jardin Publique, or to wander along the
|
|
beach toward Castle Hill. The quick trot of ponies feet made him
|
|
look up, as one of the little carriages, containing a single
|
|
young lady, came rapidly down the street. The lady was young,
|
|
blonde, and dressed in blue. He stared a minute, then his whole
|
|
face woke up, and, waving his hat like a boy, he hurried forward
|
|
to meet her.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, Laurie, is it really you? I thought you'd never come!"
|
|
cried Amy, dropping the reins and holding out both hands, to the
|
|
great scandalization of a French mamma, who hastened her daughter's
|
|
steps, lest she should be demoralized by beholding the free manners
|
|
of these `mad English'.
|
|
|
|
"I was detained by the way, but I promised to spend Christmas
|
|
with you, and here I am."
|
|
|
|
"How is your grandfather? When did you come? Where are you
|
|
staying?"
|
|
|
|
"Very well--last night--at the Chauvain. I called at your
|
|
hotel, but you were out."
|
|
|
|
"I have so much to say, I don't know where to begin! Get
|
|
in and we can talk at our ease. I was going for a drive and
|
|
longing for company. Flo's saving up for tonight."
|
|
|
|
"What happens then, a ball?"
|
|
|
|
"A Christmas party at out hotel. There are many Americans
|
|
there, and they give it in honor of the day. You'll go with us,
|
|
of course? Aunt will be charmed."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you. Where now?" asked Laurie, leaning back and
|
|
folding his arms, a proceeding which suited Amy, who preferred
|
|
to drive, for her parasol whip and blue reins over the white
|
|
ponies backs afforded her infinite satisfaction.
|
|
|
|
"I'm going to the bankers first for letters, and then to
|
|
Castle Hill. The view is so lovely, and I like to feed the pea-
|
|
cocks. Have you ever been there?"
|
|
|
|
"Often, years ago, but I don't mind having a look at it."
|
|
|
|
"Now tell me all about yourself. The last I heard of you,
|
|
your grandfather wrote that he expected you from Berlin."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I spent a month there and then joined him in Paris,
|
|
where he has settled for the winter. He has friends there and
|
|
finds plenty to amuse him, so I go and come, and we got on cap-
|
|
itally."
|
|
|
|
"That's a sociable arrangement," said Amy, missing something
|
|
in Laurie's manner, though she couldn't tell what.
|
|
|
|
"Why, you see, he hates to travel, and I hate to keep still,
|
|
so we each suit ourselves, and there is no trouble. I am often
|
|
with him, and he enjoys my adventures, while I like to feel that
|
|
someone is glad to see me when I get back from my wanderings. Dirty
|
|
old hole, isn't it?" he added, with a look of disgust as they drove
|
|
along the boulevard to the Place Napoleon in the old city.
|
|
|
|
"The dirt is picturesque, so I don't mind. The river and the
|
|
hills are delicious, and these glimpses of the narrow cross streets
|
|
are my delight. Now we shall have to wait for that procession to
|
|
pass. It's going to the Church of St. John."
|
|
|
|
While Laurie listlessly watched the procession of priests
|
|
under their canopies, white-veiled nuns bearing lighted tapers,
|
|
and some brotherhood in blue chanting as they walked, Amy watched
|
|
him, and felt a new sort of shyness steal over her, for he was
|
|
changed,and she could not find the merry-faced boy she left in
|
|
the moody-looking man beside her. He was handsomer than ever and
|
|
greatly improved, she thought, but now that the flush of pleasure
|
|
at meeting her was over, he looked tired and spiritless--not sick,
|
|
nor exactly unhappy, but older and graver than a year or two of
|
|
prosperous life should have made him. She couldn't understand it
|
|
and did not venture to ask questions, so she shook her head and
|
|
touched up her ponies, as the procession wound away across the
|
|
arches of the Paglioni bridge and vanished in the church.
|
|
|
|
"Que pensez-vous?" she said, airing her French, which had
|
|
improved in quantity, if not in quality, since she came abroad.
|
|
|
|
"That mademoiselle has made good use of her time, and the
|
|
result is charming," replied Laurie, bowing with his hand on
|
|
his heart and an admiring look.
|
|
|
|
She blushed with pleasure, but somehow the compliment did
|
|
not satisfy her like the blunt praises he used to give her at
|
|
home, when he promenaded round her on festival occasions, and
|
|
tole her she was `altogether jolly', with a hearty smile and an
|
|
approving pat on the head. She didn't like the new tone, for
|
|
though not blase, it sounded indifferent in spite of the look.
|
|
|
|
"If that's the way he's going to grow up, I wish he's stay
|
|
a boy," she thought, with a curious sense of disappointment and
|
|
discomfort, trying meantime to seem quite easy and gay.
|
|
|
|
At Avigdor's she found the precious home letters and, giving
|
|
the reins to Laurie,read them luxuriously as they wound up the
|
|
shady road between green hedges, where tea roses bloomed as freshly
|
|
as in June.
|
|
|
|
"Beth is very poorly, Mother says. I often think I ought to
|
|
go home, but they all say `stay'. So I do, for I shall never have
|
|
another chance like this," said Amy, looking sober over one page.
|
|
|
|
"I think you are right, there. You could do nothing at home,
|
|
and it is a great comfort to them to know that you are well and
|
|
happy, and enjoying so much, my dear."
|
|
|
|
He drew a little nearer, and looked more like his old self as
|
|
he said that, and the fear that sometimes weighed on Amy's heart
|
|
was lightened, for the look, the act, the brotherly `my dear',
|
|
seemed to assure her that if any trouble did come, she would not
|
|
be alone in a strange land. Presently she laughed and showed him
|
|
a small sketch of Jo in her scribbling suit, with the bow rampantly
|
|
erect upon her cap, and issuing from her mouth the words, `Genius
|
|
burns!'.
|
|
|
|
Laurie smiled, took it, put it in his vest pocket `to keep it
|
|
from blowing away', and listened with interest to the lively letter
|
|
Amy read him.
|
|
|
|
"This will be a regularly merry Christmas to me, with presents
|
|
in the morning, you and letters in the afternoon, and a party at
|
|
night," said Amy, as they alighted among the ruins of the old fort,
|
|
and a flock of splendid peacocks came trooping about them, tamely
|
|
waiting to be fed. While Amy stood laughing on the bank above him
|
|
as she scattered crumbs to the brilliant birds, Laurie looked at her
|
|
as she had looked at him, with a natural curiosity to see what
|
|
changes time and absence had wrought. He found nothing to perplex
|
|
or disappoint, much to admire and approve, for overlooking a few
|
|
little affectations of speech and manner, she was as sprightly and
|
|
graceful as ever, with the addition of that indescribable something
|
|
in dress and bearing which we call elegance. Always mature for her
|
|
age, she had gained a certain aplomb in both carriage and conversation,
|
|
which made her seem more of a woman of the world than she was, but
|
|
her old petulance now and then showed itself, her strong will still
|
|
held its own, and her native frankness was unspoiled by foreign
|
|
polish.
|
|
|
|
Laurie did not read all this while he watched her feed the pea-
|
|
cocks, but he saw enough to satisfy and interest him, and carried
|
|
away a pretty little picture of a bright-faced girl standing in the
|
|
sunshine, which brought out the soft hue of her dress, the fresh
|
|
color of her cheeks, the golden gloss of her hair, and made her a
|
|
prominent figure in the pleasant scene.
|
|
|
|
As they came up onto the stone plateau that crowns the hill,
|
|
Amy waved her hand as if welcoming him to her favorite haunt, and
|
|
said, pointing here and there, "Do you remember the Cathedral and
|
|
the Corso, the fishermen dragging their nets in the bay, and the
|
|
lovely road to Villa Franca, Schubert's Tower, just below, and best
|
|
of all, that speck far out to sea which they say ils Corsica?"
|
|
|
|
"I remember. It's not much changed," he answered without
|
|
enthusiasm.
|
|
|
|
"What Jo would give for a sight of that famous speck!" said
|
|
Amy, feeling in good spirits and anxious to see him so also.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," was all he said,but he turned and strained his eyes to
|
|
see the island which a greater usurper than even Napoleon now made
|
|
interesting in his sight.
|
|
|
|
"Take a good look at it for her sake, and then come and tell
|
|
me what you have been doing with yourself all this while," said
|
|
Amy, seating herself, ready for a good talk.
|
|
|
|
But she did not get it, for though he joined her and answered
|
|
all her questions freely, she could only learn that he had roved
|
|
about the Continent and been to Greece. So after idling away an
|
|
hour, they drove home again, and having paid his respects to Mrs.
|
|
Carrol, Laurie left them, promising to return in the evening.
|
|
|
|
It must be recorded of Amy that she deliberately prinked that
|
|
night. Time and absence had done its work on both the young people.
|
|
She had seen her old friend in a new light, not as `our boy', but as
|
|
a handsome and agreeable man, and she was conscious of a very natural
|
|
desire to find favor in his sight. Amy knew her good points, and
|
|
made the most of them with the taste and skill which is a fortune to
|
|
a poor and pretty woman.
|
|
|
|
Tarlatan and tulle were cheap at Nice, so she enveloped herself
|
|
in them on such occasions, and following the sensible English fashion
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|
of simple dress for young girls, got up charming little toilettes
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with fresh flowers, a few trinkets, and all manner of dainty devices,
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which were both inexpensive and effective. It must be confessed
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that the artist sometimes got possession of the woman, and indulged
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in antique coiffures, statuesque attitudes, and classic draperies.
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But, dear heart, we all have out little weaknesses, and find it
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easy to pardon such in the young, who satisfy our eyes with their
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comeliness, and keep our hearts merry with their artless vanities.
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"I do want him to think I look well, and tell them so at home,"
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said Amy to herself, as she put on Flo's old white silk ball dress,
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and covered it with a cloud of fresh illusion, out of which her
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white shoulders and golden head emerged with a most artistic effect.
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Her hair she had the sense to let alone, after gathering up the
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thick waves and curls into a Hebe-like knot at the back of her head.
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"It's not the fashion, but it's becoming, and I can't afford to
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make a fright of myself," she used to say, when advised to frizzle,
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puff, or braid, as the latest style commanded.
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Having no ornaments fine enough for this important occasion,
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Amy looped her fleecy skirts with rosy clusters of azalea, and
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framed the white shoulders in delicate green vines. Remembering
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the painted boots, she surveyed her white satin slippers with
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girlish satisfaction, and chassed down the room, admiring her
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aristocratic feet all by herself.
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"My new fan just matches my flowers, my gloves fit to a charm,
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and the real lace on Aunt's mouchoir gives an air to my whole dress.
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If I only had a classical nose and mouth I should be perfectly happy,"
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she said, surveying herself with a critical eye and a candle in
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each hand.
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In spite of this affliction, she looked unusually gay and
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graceful as she glided away. She seldom ran--it did not suit her
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style, she thought, for being tall, the stately and Junoesque was
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more appropriate than the sportive or piquante. She walked up and
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down the long saloon while waiting for Laurie, and once arranged
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herself under the chandelier, which had a good effect upon her
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hair, then she thought better of it, and went away to the other
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end of the room, as if ashamed of the girlish desire to have the
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first view a propitious one. It so happened that she could not
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have done a better thing, for Laurie came in so quietly she
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|
did not hear him, and as she stood at the distant window, with
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her head half turned and one hand gathering up her dress, the
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slender, white figure against the red curtains was as effective
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as a well-placed statue.
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"Good evening, Diana!" said Laurie, with the look of satis-
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faction she liked to see in his eyes when they rested on her.
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"Good evening, Apollo!" she answered, smiling back at
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him, for he too looked unusually debonair, and the thought of
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entering the ballroom on the arm of such a personable man
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caused Amy to pity the four plain Misses Davis from the bottom
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of her heart.
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"Here are your flowers. I arranged them myself, remember-
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|
ing that you didn't like what Hannah calls a `sot-bookay', said
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Laurie, handing her a delicate nosegay, in a holder that she
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had long coveted as she daily passed it in Cardiglia's window.
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"How kind you are!" she exclaimed gratefully. "If I'd
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known you were coming I'd have had something ready for you today,
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though not as pretty as this, I'm afraid."
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"Thank you. It isn't what it should be, but you have im-
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proved it," he added, as she snapped the silver bracelet on her
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wrist.
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"Please don't."
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"I thought you liked that sort of thing."
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"Not from you, it doesn't sound natural, and I like your
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old bluntness better."
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"I'm glad of it," he answered, with a look of relief, then
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|
buttoned her gloves for her, and asked if his tie was straight,
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|
just as he used to do when they went to parties together at
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home.
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The company assembled in the long salle a manger that
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|
evening was such as one sees nowhere but on the Continent. The
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|
hospitable Americans had invited every acquaintance they had
|
|
in Nice, and having no prejudice against titles, secured a few
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|
to add luster to their Christmas ball.
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|
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|
A Russian prince condescended to sit in a corner for an
|
|
hour and talk with a massive lady, dressed like Hamlet's mother
|
|
in black velvet with a pearl bridle under her chin. A Polish
|
|
count, aged eighteen, devoted himself to the ladies, who pro-
|
|
nounced him, `a fascinating dear', and a German Serene Something,
|
|
having come to supper alone, roamed vaguely about, seeking what
|
|
he might devour. Baron Rothschild's private secretary, a large-
|
|
nosed Jew in tight boots, affably beamed upon the world, as if
|
|
his master's name crowned him with a golden halo. A stout
|
|
Frenchman, who knew the Emperor, came to indulge his mania for
|
|
dancing, and Lady de Jones, a British matron, adorned the scene
|
|
with her little family of eight. Of course, there were many
|
|
light-footed, shrill-voiced American girls, handsome, lifeless-
|
|
looking English ditto, and a few plain but piquante French
|
|
demoiselles, likewise the usual set of traveling young gentle-
|
|
men who disported themselves gaily, while mammas of all nations
|
|
lined the walls and smiled upon them benignly when they danced
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|
with their daughters.
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|
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|
Any young girl can imagine Amy's state of mind when she
|
|
`took the stage' that night, leaning on Laurie's arm. She
|
|
knew she looked well, she loved to dance, she felt that her
|
|
foot was on her native heath in a ballroom, and enjoyed the
|
|
delightful sense of power which comes when young girls first
|
|
discover the new and lovely kingdom they are born to rule by
|
|
virtue of beauty, youth, and womanhood. She did pity the
|
|
Davis girls, who were awkward, plain, and destitute of escort,
|
|
except a grim papa and three grimmer maiden aunts, and she
|
|
bowed to them in her friendliest manner as she passed, which
|
|
was good of her, as it permitted them to see her dress, and
|
|
burn with curiosity to know who her distinguished-looking
|
|
friend might be. With the first burst of the band, Amy's
|
|
color rose, her eyes began to sparkle, and her feet to tap the
|
|
floor impatiently, for she danced well and wanted Laurie to
|
|
know it. Therefore the shock she received can better be
|
|
imagined than described, when he said in a perfectly tranquil
|
|
tone, "Do you care to dance?"
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|
|
|
"One usually does at a ball."
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|
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|
Her amazed look and quick answer caused Laurie to repair
|
|
his error as fast as possible.
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|
|
|
"I meant the first dance. May I have the honor?"
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|
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|
"I can give you one if I put off the Count. He dances
|
|
devinely, but he will excuse me, as you are an old friend," said
|
|
Amy, hoping that the name would have a good effect, and show
|
|
Laurie that she was not to be trifled with.
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|
|
|
"Nice little boy, but rather a short Pole to support . ..
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|
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|
A daughter of the gods,
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|
Devinely tall, and most devinely fair,"
|
|
|
|
was all the satisfaction she got, however.
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|
|
|
The set in which they found themselves was composed of
|
|
English, and Amy was compelled to walk decorously through a
|
|
cotillion, feeling all the while as if she could dance the
|
|
tarantella with relish. Laurie resigned her to the `nice little
|
|
boy', and went to do his duty to Flo, without securing Amy for
|
|
the joys to come, which reprehensible want of forethought was
|
|
properly punished, for she immediately engaged herself till
|
|
supper, meaning to relent if he then gave any signs penitence.
|
|
She showed him her ball book with demure satisfaction when he
|
|
strolled instead of rushed up to claim her for the next, a
|
|
glorious polka redowa. But his polite regrets didn't impose
|
|
upon her, and when she galloped away with the Count, she saw
|
|
Laurie sit down by her aunt with an actual expression of relief.
|
|
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|
That was unpardonable, and Amy took no more notice of him
|
|
for a long while, except a word now and then when she came to
|
|
her chaperon between the dances for a necessary pin or a
|
|
moment's rest. Her anger had a good effect, however, for she
|
|
hid it under a smiling face, and seemed unusually blithe and
|
|
brilliant. Laurie's eyes followed her with pleasure, for she
|
|
neither romped nor sauntered, but danced with spirit and
|
|
grace, making the delightsome pastime what it should be. He
|
|
very naturally fell to studying her from this new point of
|
|
view, and before the evening was half over, had decided that
|
|
`little Amy was going to make a very charming woman'.
|
|
|
|
It was a lively scene, for soon the spirit of the social
|
|
season took possession of everyone, and Christmas merriment made
|
|
all faces shine, hearts happy, and heels light. The musicians
|
|
fiddled, tooted, and banged as if they enjoyed it, everybody
|
|
danced who could, and those who couldn't admired their
|
|
neighbors with uncommon warmth. The air was dark with Davises,
|
|
and many Jones gamboled like a flock of young giraffes. The
|
|
golden secretary darted through the room like a meteor with
|
|
a dashing frenchwoman who carped the floor with her pink satin
|
|
train. The serene Teuton found the supper table and was happy,
|
|
eating steadily through the bill of fare, and dismayed the
|
|
garcons by the ravages he committed. But the Emperor's friend
|
|
covered himself with glory, for he danced everything, whether
|
|
he knew it or not, and introduced impromptu pirouettes when the
|
|
figures bewildered him. The boyish abandon of that stout man
|
|
was charming to behold, for though he `carried weight', he
|
|
danced like an India-rubber ball. He ran, he flew, he pranced,
|
|
his face glowed, his bald head shown, his coattails waved wildly,
|
|
his pumps actually twinkled in the air, and when the music
|
|
stopped, he wiped the drops from his brow, and beamed upon his
|
|
fellow men like a French Pickwick without glasses.
|
|
|
|
Amy and her Pole distinguished themselves by equal enthu-
|
|
siasm but more graceful agility, and Laurie found himself
|
|
involuntarily keeping time to the rhythmic rise and fall of the
|
|
white slippers as they flew by as indefatigably as if winged.
|
|
When little Vladimir finally relinquished her, with assurances
|
|
that he was `desolated to leave so early', she was ready to
|
|
rest, and see how her recreant knight had borne his punishment.
|
|
|
|
It had been successful, for at three-and-twenty, blighted
|
|
affections find a balm in friendly society, and young nerves
|
|
will thrill, young blood dance, and healthy young spirits rise,
|
|
when subjected to the enchantment of beauty, light, music, and
|
|
motion. Laurie had a waked-up look as he rose to give her his
|
|
seat, and when he hurried away to bring her some supper, she
|
|
said to herself, with a satisfied smile, "Ah, I thought that
|
|
would do him good!"
|
|
|
|
"You look like Balzac's `FEMME PEINTE PAR ELLE-NENE',"
|
|
he said, as he fanned her with one hand and held her coffee
|
|
cup in the other.
|
|
|
|
"My rouge won't come off." And Amy rubbed her brilliant
|
|
cheek, and showed him her white glove with a sober simplicity
|
|
that made him laugh outright.
|
|
|
|
"What do you call this stuff?" he asked, touching a fold
|
|
of her dress that had blown over his knee.
|
|
|
|
"Illusion."
|
|
|
|
"Good name for it. It's very pretty--new thing, isn't it?"
|
|
|
|
"It's as old as the hills. You have seen it on dozens of
|
|
girls, and you never found out that it was pretty till now?
|
|
Stupide!"
|
|
|
|
"I never saw it on you before, which accounts for the mis-
|
|
take, you see."
|
|
|
|
"None of that, it is forbidden. I'd rather take coffee
|
|
than compliments just now. No, don't lounge, it makes me
|
|
nervous."
|
|
|
|
Laurie sat bold upright, and meekly took her empty plate
|
|
feeling an odd sort of pleasure in having `little Amy' order
|
|
him about, for she had lost her shyness now, and felt an
|
|
irrestible desire to trample on him, as girls have a delightful
|
|
way of doing when lords of creation show any signs of subjection.
|
|
|
|
"Where did you learn all this sort of thing?" he asked with
|
|
a quizzical look.
|
|
|
|
"As `this sort of thing' is rather a vague expression, would
|
|
you kindly explain?" returned Amy, knowing perfectly well what he
|
|
meant, but wickedly leaving him to describe what is indescribable.
|
|
|
|
"Well--the general air, the style, the self-possession, the--
|
|
the--illusion--you know", laughed Laurie, breaking down and help-
|
|
ing himself out of his quandary with the new word.
|
|
|
|
Amy was gratified, but of course didn't show it, and demurely
|
|
answered, "Foreign life polishes one in spite of one's self. I
|
|
study as well as play, and as for this"--with a little gesture
|
|
toward her dress--"why, tulle is cheap, posies to be had for
|
|
nothing, and I am used to making the most of my poor little things."
|
|
|
|
Amy rather regretted that last sentence, fearing it wasn't in
|
|
good taste, but Laurie liked her better for it, and found himself
|
|
both admiring and respecting the brave patience that made the most
|
|
of opportunity, and the cheerful spirit that covered poverty with
|
|
flowers. Amy did not know why he looked at her so kindly, now
|
|
why he filled up her book with his own name, and devoted himself
|
|
to her for the rest of the evening in the most delightful manner,
|
|
but the impulse that wrought this agreeable change was the result
|
|
of one of the new impressions which both of them were unconsciously
|
|
giving and receiving.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
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|
|
|
In France the young girls have a dull time of it till they are
|
|
married, when `Vive la liberte!' becomes their motto. In America,
|
|
as everyone knows,girls early sign the declaration of independence,
|
|
and enjoy their freedom with republican zest, but the young matrons
|
|
usually abdicate with the first heir to the throne and go into a
|
|
seclusion almost as close as a French nunnery, though by no means
|
|
as quiet. Whether they like it or not, they are virtually put
|
|
upon the shelf as soon as the wedding excitement is over, and most
|
|
of them might exclaim, as did a very pretty woman the other day,
|
|
"I'm as handsome as ever, but no one takes any notice of me be-
|
|
cause I'm married."
|
|
|
|
Not being a belle or even a fashionable lady, Meg did not
|
|
experience this affliction till her babies were a year old,
|
|
for in her little world primitive customs prevailed, and she
|
|
found herself more admired and beloved than ever.
|
|
|
|
As she was a womanly little woman, the maternal instinct
|
|
was very strong, and she was entirely absorbed in her children,
|
|
to the utter exclusion of everything and everybody else. Day
|
|
and night she brooded over them with tireless devotion and
|
|
anxiety, leaving John to the tender mercies of the help, for
|
|
an Irish lady now presided over the kitchen department. Being
|
|
a domestic man, John decidedly missed the wifely attentions he
|
|
had been accustomed to receive, but as he adored his babies, he
|
|
cheerfully relinquished his comfort for a time, supposing with
|
|
masculine ignorance that peace would soon be restored. But
|
|
three months passed, and there was no return of repose. Meg
|
|
looked worn and nervous, the babies absorbed every minute of
|
|
her time, the house was neglected, and Kitty, the cook, who took
|
|
life `aisy', kept him on short commons. When he went out in
|
|
the morning he was bewildered by small commissions for the cap-
|
|
tive mamma, if he came gaily in at night, eager to embrace his
|
|
family, he was quenched by a "Hush! They are just asleep after
|
|
worrying all day." If he proposed a little amusement at home,
|
|
"No, it would disturb the babies." If he hinted at a lecture
|
|
or a concert, he was answered with a reproachful look, and a
|
|
decided "Leave my children for pleasure, never!" His sleep was
|
|
broken by infant wails and visions of a phantom figure pacing
|
|
noiselessly to and fro in the watches of the night. His meals
|
|
were interrupted by the frequent flight of the presiding genius,
|
|
who deserted him, half-helped, if a muffled chirp sounded from
|
|
the nest above. And when he read his paper of an evening,
|
|
Demi's colic got into the shipping list and Daisy's fall affected
|
|
the price of stocks, for Mrs. Brooke was only interested in dom-
|
|
estic news.
|
|
|
|
The poor man was very uncomfortable, for the children had
|
|
bereft him of his wife, home was merely a nursery and the per-
|
|
petual `hushing' made him feel like a brutal intruder whenever
|
|
he entered the sacred precincts of Babyland. He bore it very
|
|
patiently for six months, and when no signs of amendment appeared,
|
|
he did what other paternal exiles do--tried to get a little com-
|
|
fort elsewhere. Scott had married and gone to housekeeping not
|
|
far off, and John fell into the way of running over for an hour
|
|
or two of an evening, when his own parlor was empty, and his
|
|
own wife singing lullabies that seemed to have no end. Mrs.
|
|
Scott was a lively, pretty girl, with nothing to do but be
|
|
agreeable, and she performed her mission most successfully. The
|
|
parlor was always bright and attractive, the chessboard ready,
|
|
the piano in tune, plenty of gay gossip, and a nice little supper
|
|
set forth in tempting style.
|
|
|
|
John would have preferred his own fireside if it had not
|
|
been so lonely, but as it was he gratefully took the next best
|
|
thing and enjoyed his neighbor's society.
|
|
|
|
Meg rather approved of the new arrangement at first, and
|
|
found it a relief to know that John was having a good time
|
|
instead of dozing in the parlor, or tramping about the house
|
|
and waking the children. But by-and-by, when the teething
|
|
worry was over and the idols went to sleep at proper hours,
|
|
leaving Mamma time to rest, she began to miss John, and find
|
|
her workbasket dull company, when he was not sitting opposite
|
|
in his old dressing gown, comfortably scorching his slippers
|
|
on the fender. She would not ask him to stay at home, but felt
|
|
injured because he did not know that she wanted him without
|
|
being told, entirely forgetting the many evenings he had waited
|
|
for her in vain. She was nervous and worn out with watching
|
|
and worry, and in that unreasonable frame of mind which the best
|
|
of mothers occasionally experience when domestic cares oppress
|
|
them. Want of exercise robs them of cheerfulness, and too much
|
|
devotion to that idol of American women, the teapot, makes them
|
|
feel as if they were all nerve and no muscle.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," she would say, looking in the glass, "I'm getting
|
|
old and ugly. John doesn't find me interesting any longer, so
|
|
he leaves his faded wife and goes to see his pretty neighbor,
|
|
who has no incumbrances. Well, the babies love me, they don't
|
|
care if I am thin and pale and haven't time to crimp my hair,
|
|
they are my comfort, and some day John will see what I've
|
|
gladly sacrificed for them, won't he, my precious?"
|
|
|
|
To which pathetic appeal daisy would answer with a coo,
|
|
or Demi with a crow, and Meg would put by her lamentations for
|
|
a maternal revel, which soothed her solitude for the time being.
|
|
But the pain increased as politics absorbed John, who was always
|
|
running over to discuss interesting points with Scott, quite
|
|
unconscious that Meg missed him. Not a word did she say, how-
|
|
ever, till her mother found her in tears one day, and insisted
|
|
on knowing what the matter was,for Meg's drooping spirits had
|
|
not escaped her observation.
|
|
|
|
"I wouldn't tell anyone except you, Mother, but I really
|
|
do need advice, for if John goes on much longer I might as well
|
|
be widowed," replied Mrs. Brooke, drying her tears on Daisy's
|
|
bib with an injured air.
|
|
|
|
"Goes on how, my dear?" asked her mother anxiously.
|
|
|
|
"He's away all day, and at night when I want to see him,
|
|
he is continually going over to the Scotts'. It isn't fair
|
|
that I should have the hardest work, and never any amusement.
|
|
Men are very selfish, even the best of them."
|
|
|
|
"So are women. Don't blame John till you see where you
|
|
are wrong yourself."
|
|
|
|
"But it can't be right for him to neglect me."
|
|
|
|
"Don't you neglect him?"
|
|
|
|
"Why, Mother, I thought you'd take my part!"
|
|
|
|
"So I do, as far as sympathizing goes, but I think the fault
|
|
is yours, Meg."
|
|
|
|
"I don't see how."
|
|
|
|
"Let me show you. Did John ever neglect you, as you call it,
|
|
while you made it a point to give him your society of an evening,
|
|
his only leisure time?"
|
|
|
|
"No, but I can't do it now, with two babies to tend."
|
|
|
|
"I think you could, dear, and I think you ought. May I
|
|
speak quite freely, and will you remember that it's Mother who
|
|
blames as well as Mother who sympathizes?"
|
|
|
|
"Indeed I will! Speak to me as if I were little Meg again.
|
|
I often feel as if I needed teaching more than ever since these
|
|
babies look to me for everything."
|
|
|
|
Meg drew her low chair beside her mother's, and with a little
|
|
interruption in either lap, the two women rocked and talked loving-
|
|
ly together, feeling that the tie of motherhood made them more one
|
|
than ever.
|
|
|
|
"You have only made the mistake that most young wives make--
|
|
forgotten your duty to your husband in your love for your chil-
|
|
dren. A very natural and forgivable mistake, Meg, but one that
|
|
had better be remedied before you take to different ways, for
|
|
children should draw you nearer than ever, not separate you, as
|
|
if they were all yours, and John had nothing to do but support
|
|
them. I've seen it for some weeks, but have not spoken, feeling
|
|
sure it would come right in time."
|
|
|
|
"I'm afraid it won't. If I ask him to stay, he'll think I'm
|
|
jealous, and I wouldn't insult him by such an idea. He doesn't
|
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see that I want him, and I don't know how to tell him without
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words."
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"Make it so pleasant he won't want to go away. My dear,
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he's longing for his little home, but it isn't home without you,
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and you are always in the nursery."
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"Oughtn't I to be there?"
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"Not all the time, too much confinement makes you nervous,
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and then you are unfitted for everything. Besides, you owe
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something to John as well as to the babies. Don't neglect hus-
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band for children, don't shut him out of the nursery, but teach
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him how to help in it. His place is there as well as yours, and
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the children need him. Let him feel that he has a part to do, and
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he will do it gladly and faithfully, and it will be better for you
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all."
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"You really think so, Mother?"
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"I know it, Meg, for I've tried it, and I seldom give advice
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unless I've proved its practicability. When you and Jo were little,
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I went on just as you are, feeling as if I didn't do my duty unless
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I devoted myself wholly to you. Poor Father took to his books,
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after I had refused all offers of help, and left me to try my ex-
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periment alone. I struggled along as well as I could, but Jo was
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too much for me. I nearly spoiled her by indulgence. You were
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poorly, and I worried about you till I fell sick myself. Then
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Father came to the rescue, quietly managed everything, and made
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himself so helpful that I saw my mistake, and never have been able
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to got on without him since. That is the secret of our home hap-
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|
piness. He does not let business wean him from the little cares
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and duties that affect us all, and I try not to let domestic worries
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destroy my interest in his pursuits. Each do our part alone in
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many things, but at home we work together, always."
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"It is so, Mother, and my great wish is to be to my husband
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and children what you have been to yours. Show me how, I'll do
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anything you say."
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"You were always my docile daughter. Well, dear, if I were
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you, I'd let John have more to do with the management of Demi,
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for the boy needs training, and it's none too soon to begin.
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Then I'd do what I have often proposed,, let Hannah come and
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help you. She is a capital nurse, and you may trust the precious
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babies to her while you do more housework. You need the exercise,
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Hannah would enjoy the rest, and John would find his wife again.
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Go out more, keep cheerful as well as busy, for you are the
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sunshine-maker of the family, and if you get dismal there is no
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fair weather. Then I'd try to take an interest in whatever John
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likes--talk with him, let him read to you, exchange ideas, and
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help each other in that way. Don't shut yourself up in a bandbox
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because you are a woman, but understand what is going on, and
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educate yourself to take your part in the world's work, for it
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all affects you and yours."
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"John is so sensible, I'm afraid he will think I'm stupid if
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I ask questions about politics and things."
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"I don't believe he would. Love covers a multitude of sins,
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and of whom could you ask more freely than of him? Try it, and
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see if he doesn't find your society far more agreeable than Mrs.
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Scott's suppers."
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"I will. Poor John! I'm afraid I have neglected him sadly,
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but I thought I was right, and he never said anything."
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"He tried not to be selfish, but he has felt rather forlorn,
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I fancy. This is just the time, Meg, when young married people
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are apt to grow apart, and the very time when they ought to be
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most together, for the first tenderness soon wears off, unless
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care is taken to preserve it. And no time is so beautiful and
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precious to parents as the first years of the little lives
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given to them to train. Don't let John be a stranger to the
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babies, for they will do more to keep him safe and happy in
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this world of trial and temptation than anything else, and
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through them you will learn to know and love one another as
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you should. Now, dear, good-by. Think over Mother's preach-
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ment, act upon it if it seems good, and God bless you all."
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Meg did think it over, found it good, and acted upon it,
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though the first attempt was not made exactly as she planned
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to have it. Of course the children tyrannized over her, and
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ruled the house as soon as they found out that kicking and
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squalling brought them whatever they wanted. Mamma was an
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abject slave to their caprices, but Papa was not so easily
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|
subjugated, and occasionally afflicted his tender spouse by
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|
an attempt at paternal discipline with his obstreperous son.
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|
For Demi inherited a trifle of his sire's firmness of char-
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|
acter, we won't call it obstinacy, and when he made up his
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|
little to have or to do anything, all the king's horses and
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|
all the king's men could not change that pertinacious little
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mind. Mamma thought the dear too young to be taught to con-
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quer his prejudices, but Papa believed that it never was too
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|
soon to learn obedience. So Master Demi early discovered that
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when he undertook to `wrastle' with `Parpar', he always got
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the worst of it, yet like the Englishman, baby respected the
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man who conquered him, and loved the father whose grave "No,
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|
no," was more impressive than all Mamma's love pats.
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A few days after the talk with her mother, Meg resolved
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|
to try a social evening with John, so she ordered a nice
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supper, set the parlor in order, dressed herself prettily, and
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|
put the children to bed early, that nothing should interfere
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|
with her experiment. But unfortunately Demi's most uncon-
|
|
querable prejudice was against going to bed, and that night
|
|
he decided to go on a rampage. So poor Meg sang and rocked,
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|
told stories and tried every sleep-prevoking wile she could
|
|
devise, but all in vain, the big eyes wouldn't shut, and long
|
|
after Daisy had gone to byelow, like the chubby little bunch
|
|
of good nature she was, naughty Demi lay staring at the light,
|
|
with the most discouragingly wide-awake expression of counten-
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|
ance.
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"Will Demi lie still like a good boy, while Mamma runs
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|
down and gives poor Papa his tea?" asked Meg, as the hall
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|
door softly closed, and the well-known step went tip-toeing
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|
into the dining room.
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"Me has tea!" said Demi, preparing to join in the revel.
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"No, but I'll save you some little cakies for breakfast,
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|
if you'll go bye-by like Daisy. Will you, lovey?"
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"Iss!" and Demi shut his eyes tight, as if to catch sleep
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|
and hurry the desired day.
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|
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|
Taking advantage of the propitious moment, Meg slipped
|
|
away and ran down to greet her husband with a smiling face
|
|
and the little blue bow in her hair which was his especial
|
|
admiration. He saw it at once and said with pleased surprise,
|
|
"Why, little mother, how gay we are tonight. Do you expect
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|
company?"
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"Only you, dear."
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"No, I'm tired of being dowdy, so I dressed up as a
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|
change. You always make yourself nice for table, no matter
|
|
how tired you are, so why shouldn't I when I have the time?'
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|
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|
"I do it out of respect for you, my dear," said old-
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|
fashioned John.
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|
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|
"Ditto, ditto, Mr. Brooke," laughed Meg, looking young
|
|
and pretty again, as she nodded to him over the teapot.
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|
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|
"Well, it's altogether delightful, and like old times. This
|
|
tastes right. I drink your health, dear." And John sipped his
|
|
tea with an air of reposeful rapture, which was of very short
|
|
duration however, for as he put down his cup, the door handle
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|
rattled mysteriously, and a little voice was heard, saying im-
|
|
patiently . . .
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|
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|
"Opy doy. Me's tummin!"
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|
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|
"It's that naughty boy. I told him to go to sleep alone,
|
|
and here he is, downstairs, getting his death a-cold pattering
|
|
over that canvas," said Meg, answering the call.
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|
|
|
"Mornin' now," announced Demi in joyful tone as he entered,
|
|
with his long nightgown gracefully festooned over his arm and
|
|
every curl bobbing gayly as he pranced about the table, eyeing
|
|
the `cakies' with loving glances.
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|
|
|
"No, it isn't morning yet. You must go to bed, and not
|
|
trouble poor Mamma. Then you can have the little cake with
|
|
sugar on it."
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|
|
|
"Me loves Parpar," said the artful one, preparing to climb
|
|
the paternal knee and revel in forbidden joys. But John shook
|
|
his head, and said to Meg. . .
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|
|
|
"If you told him to stay up there, and go to sleep alone,
|
|
make him do it, or he will never learn to mind you."
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|
|
|
"Yes, of course. Come, Demi." And Meg led her son away,
|
|
feeling a strong desire to spank the little marplot who hopped
|
|
beside her, laboring under the delusion that the bribe was to
|
|
be administered as soon as they reached the nursery.
|
|
|
|
Nor was he disappointed, for that shortsighted woman
|
|
actually gave him a lump of sugar, tucked him into his bed,
|
|
and forbade any more promenades till morning.
|
|
|
|
"Iss!" said Demi the perjured, blissfully sucking his sugar,
|
|
and regarding his first attempt as eminently successful.
|
|
|
|
Meg returned to her place, and supper was progressing
|
|
pleasantly, when the little ghost walked again and exposed
|
|
the maternal delinquencies by boldly demanding, "More sudar,
|
|
Marmar."
|
|
|
|
"Now this won't do," said John, hardening his heart against
|
|
the engaging little sinner. "We shall never know any peace till
|
|
that child learns togo to bed properly. You have made a slave of
|
|
yourself long enough. Give him one lesson, and then there will
|
|
be an end of it. Put him in his bed and leave him, Meg."
|
|
|
|
"He won't stay there, he never does unless I sit by him."
|
|
|
|
"I'll manage him. Demi, go upstairs, and get into your bed,
|
|
as Mamma bids you."
|
|
|
|
"S'ant!" replied the young rebel, helping himself to the
|
|
coveted `cakie', and beginning to eat the same with calm aud-
|
|
acity.
|
|
|
|
"You must never say that to Papa. I shall carry you if you
|
|
don't go yourself."
|
|
|
|
"Go 'way, me don't love Parpar." And Demi retired to his
|
|
mother's skirts for protection.
|
|
|
|
But even that refuge proved unavailing, for he was de-
|
|
livered over to the enemy, with a "Be gentle with him, John,"
|
|
which struck the culprit with dismay, for when Mamma deserted
|
|
him, then the judgment day was at hand. Bereft of his cake,
|
|
defrauded of his frolic, and borne away by a strong hand to
|
|
that detested bed, poor Demi could not restrain his wrath, but
|
|
openly defied Papa, and kicked and screamed lustily all the
|
|
way upstairs. The minute he was put into bed on one side, he
|
|
rolled out on the other, and made for the door, only to be
|
|
ignominiously caught up by the tail of his little toga and
|
|
put back again, which lively performance was kept up till the
|
|
young man's strength gave out, when he devoted himself to
|
|
roaring at the top of his voice. This vocal exercise usually
|
|
conquered Meg, but John sat as unmoved as the post which is
|
|
popularly believed to be deaf. No coaxing, no sugar, no
|
|
lullaby, no story, even the light was put out and only the
|
|
red glow of the fire enlivened the `big dark' which Demi
|
|
regarded with curiosity rather than fear. This new order
|
|
of things disgusted him, and he howled dismally for `Marmar',
|
|
as his angry passions subsided, and recollections of his
|
|
tender bondwoman returned to the captive autocrat. The
|
|
plaintive wail which succeeded the passionate roar went to
|
|
Meg's heart, and she ran up to say beseechingly . . .
|
|
|
|
"Let me stay with him, he'll be good now, John."
|
|
|
|
"No, my dear. I've told him he must go to sleep, as you
|
|
bid him, and he must, if I stay here all night."
|
|
|
|
"But he'll cry himself sick," pleaded Meg, reproaching her-
|
|
self for deserting her boy.
|
|
|
|
"No, he won't, he's so tired he will soon drop off and then
|
|
the matter is settled, for he will understand that he has got to
|
|
mind. Don't interfere, I'll manage him."
|
|
|
|
"He's my child, and I can't have his spirit broken by harsh-
|
|
ness."
|
|
|
|
"He's my child, and I won't have his temper spoiled by
|
|
indulgence. Go down, my dear, and leave the boy to me."
|
|
|
|
When John spoke in that masterful tone, Meg always obeyed,
|
|
and never regretted her docility.
|
|
|
|
"Please let me kiss him once, John?"
|
|
|
|
"Certainly. Demi, say good night to Mamma, and let her
|
|
go and rest, for she is very tired with taking care of you all
|
|
day."
|
|
|
|
Meg always insisted upon it that the kiss won the victory,
|
|
for after it was given, Demi sobbed more quietly, and lay quite
|
|
still at the bottom of the bed, whither he had wriggled in his
|
|
anguish of mind.
|
|
|
|
"Poor little man, he's worn out with sleep and crying. I'll
|
|
cover him up, and then go and set Meg's heart at rest." thought
|
|
John, creeping to the bedside, hoping to find his rebellious
|
|
heir asleep.
|
|
|
|
But he wasn't, for the moment his father peeped at him,
|
|
Demi's eyes opened, his little chin began to quiver, and he put
|
|
up his arms, saying with a penitent hiccough, "Me's dood, now."
|
|
|
|
Sitting on the stairs outside Meg wondered at the long
|
|
silence which followed the uproar, and after imagining all
|
|
sorts of impossible accidents, she slipped into the room to
|
|
set her fears at rest. Demi lay fast asleep, not in his usual
|
|
spreadeagle attitude, but in a subdued bunch, cuddled close in
|
|
the circle of his father's arm and holding his father's finger,
|
|
as if he felt that justice was tempered with mercy, and had
|
|
gone to sleep a sadder and wiser baby. So held, John had waited
|
|
with a womanly patience till the little hand relaxed its hold,
|
|
and while waiting had fallen asleep, more tired by that tussle
|
|
with his son than with his whole day's work.
|
|
|
|
As Meg stood watching the two faces on the pillow, she
|
|
smiled to herself, and then slipped away again, saying in a
|
|
satisfied tone, "I never need fear that John will be too harsh
|
|
with my babies. He does know how to manage them, and will be
|
|
a great help, for Demi is getting too much for me."
|
|
|
|
When John came down at last, expecting to find a pensive
|
|
or reproachful wife, he was agreeably surprised to find Meg
|
|
placidly trimming a bonnet, and to be greeted with the re-
|
|
quest to read something about the election, if he was not
|
|
too tired. John saw in a minute that a revolution of some
|
|
kind was going on, but wisely asked no questions, knowing
|
|
that Meg was such a transparent little person, she couldn't
|
|
keep a secret to save her life, and therefore the clue would
|
|
soon appear. He read a long debate with the most amiable
|
|
readiness and then explained it in his most lucid manner,
|
|
while Meg tried to look deeply interested, to ask intelli-
|
|
gent questions, and keep her thoughts from wandering from the
|
|
state of the nation to the state of her bonnet. In her secret
|
|
soul, however, she decided that politics were as bad as mathe-
|
|
matics, and the the mission of politicians seemed to be calling
|
|
each other names, but she kept these feminine ideas to herself,
|
|
and when John paused, shook her head and said with what she
|
|
thought diplomatic ambiguity, "Well, I really don't see what
|
|
we are coming to."
|
|
|
|
John laughed, and watched her for a minute, as she poised
|
|
a pretty little preparation of lace and flowers on her hand,
|
|
and regarded it with the genuine interest which his harangue
|
|
had failed to waken.
|
|
|
|
"She is trying to like politics for my sake, so I'll try and
|
|
like millinery for hers, that's only fair," thought John the Just,
|
|
adding aloud, "That's very pretty. Is it what you call a break-
|
|
fast cap?"
|
|
|
|
"My dear man, it's a bonnet! My very best go-to-concert-
|
|
and-theater bonnet."
|
|
|
|
"I beg your pardon, it was so small, I naturally mistook it
|
|
for one of the flyaway things you sometimes wear. How do you
|
|
keep it on?"
|
|
|
|
"these bits of lace are fastened under the chin with a rose-
|
|
bud, so." And Meg illustrated by putting on the bonnet and re-
|
|
garding him with an air of calm satisfaction that was irresistible.
|
|
|
|
"It's a love of a bonnet, but I prefer the face inside, for
|
|
it looks young and happy again." And John kissed the smiling
|
|
face, to the great detriment of the rosebud under the chin.
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad you like it, for I want you to take me to one
|
|
of the new concerts some night. I really need some music to
|
|
put me in tune. Will you, please?"
|
|
|
|
"Of course I will, with all my heart, or anywhere else you
|
|
like. You have been shut up so long, it will do you no end of
|
|
good, and I shall enjoy it, of all things. What put it into
|
|
your head, little mother?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, I had a talk with Marmee the other day, and told
|
|
her how nervous and cross and out of sorts I felt, and she
|
|
said I needed change and less care, so Hannah is to help me
|
|
with the children, and I'm to see to things about the house more,
|
|
and now and then have a little fun, just to keep me from getting
|
|
to be a fidgety, broken-down old woman before my time. It's
|
|
only an experiment, John, and I want to try it for your sake
|
|
as much as for mine, because I've neglected you shamefully
|
|
lately, and I'm going to make home what it used to be, if I
|
|
can. You don't object, I hope?"
|
|
|
|
Never mind what John said, or what a very narrow escape
|
|
the little bonnet had from utter ruin. All that we have any
|
|
business to know is that John did not appear to object, judg-
|
|
ing from the changes which gradually took place in the house
|
|
and its inmates. It was not all Paradise by any means, but
|
|
everyone was better for the division of labor system. The
|
|
children throve under the paternal rule, for accurate, sted-
|
|
fast John brought order and obedience into Babydom, while Meg
|
|
recovered her spirits and composed her nerves by plenty of
|
|
wholesome exercise, a little pleasure, and much confidential
|
|
conversation with her sensible husband. Home grew homelike
|
|
again, and John had no wish to leave it, unless he took Meg
|
|
with him. The Scotts came to the Brookes' now, and everyone
|
|
found the little house a cheerful place, full of happiness,
|
|
content, and family love. Even Sallie Moffatt liked to go
|
|
there. "It is always so quiet and pleasant here, it does me
|
|
good, Meg," she used to say, looking about her with wistful
|
|
eyes, as if trying to discover the charm, that she might use
|
|
it in her great house, full of splendid lonliness, for there
|
|
were no riotous, sunny-faced babies there, and Ned lived in
|
|
a world of lis own, where there was no place for her.
|
|
|
|
This household happiness did not come all at once, but
|
|
John and Meg had found the key to it, and each year of Marr-
|
|
ied life taught them how to use it, unlocking the treasuries
|
|
of real home love and mutual helpfulness, which the poorest
|
|
may possess, and the richest cannot buy. This is the sort
|
|
of shelf on which young wives and mothers may consent to be
|
|
laid, safe from the restless fret and fever of the world,
|
|
finding loyal lovers in the little sons and daughters who
|
|
cling to them, undaunted by sorrow, poverty, or age, walking
|
|
side by side, through fair and stormy weather, with a faithful
|
|
friend, who is, in the true sense of the good old Saxon word,
|
|
the `house-band', and learning, as Meg learned, that a woman's
|
|
happiest kingdom is home, her highest honor the art of ruling
|
|
it not as a queen, but as a wise wife and mother.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER THIRTY-NINE
|
|
|
|
Laurie went to Nice intending to stay a week, and remained
|
|
a month. He was tired of wandering about alone, and Amy's
|
|
familiar presence seemed to give a homelike charm to the
|
|
foreign scenes in which she bore a part. He rather missed the
|
|
`petting' he used to receive, and enjoyed a taste of it again,
|
|
for no attentions, however flattering, from strangers, were half
|
|
so pleasant as the sisterly adoration of the girls at home. Amy
|
|
never would pet him like the others, but she was very glad to
|
|
see him now, and quite clung to him, feeling that he was the
|
|
representative of the dear family for whom she longed more
|
|
than she would confess. They naturally took comfort in each
|
|
other's society and were much together, riding, walking, dancing,
|
|
or dawdling, for at Nice no one can be very industrious during
|
|
the gay season. But, while apparently amusing themselves in
|
|
the most careless fashion, they were half-consciously making
|
|
discoveries and forming opinions about each other. Amy rose
|
|
daily in the estimation of her friend, but he sank in hers,
|
|
and each felt the truth before a word was spoken. Amy tried
|
|
to please, and succeeded, for she was grateful for the many
|
|
pleasures he gave her, and repaid him with the little ser-
|
|
vices to which womanly women know how to lend an indescrib-
|
|
able charm. Laurie made no effort of any kind, but just let
|
|
himself drift along as comfortably as possible, trying to
|
|
forget, and feeling that all women owed him a kind word be-
|
|
cause one had been cold to him. It cost him no effort to be
|
|
generous, and he would have given Amy all the trinkets in
|
|
Nice if she would have taken them, but at the same time he
|
|
felt that he could not change the opinion she was forming of
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him, and he rather dreaded the keen blue eyes that seemed to
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watch him with such half-sorrowful, half-scornful surprise.
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"All the rest have gone to Monaco for the day. I pre-
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ferred to stay at home and write letters. They are done now,
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and I am going to Valrosa to sketch, will you come?' said Amy,
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as she joined Laurie one lovely day when he lounged in as usual
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about noon.
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"Well, yes, but isn't it rather warm for such a long walk?"
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he answered slowly, for the shaded salon looked inviting after
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the glare without.
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"I'm going to have the little carriage, and Baptiste can
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drive, so you'll have nothing to do but hold your umbrella,
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and keep your gloves nice," returned Amy, with a sarcastic
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glance at the immaculate kids, which were a weak point with
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Laurie.
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"Then I'll go with pleasure." And he put out his hand for
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her sketchbook. But she tucked it under her arm with a sharp . . .
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"Don't trouble yourself. It's no exertion to me, but you
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don't look equal to it."
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Laurie lifted his eyebrows and followed at a leisurely pace
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as she ran downstairs, but when they got into the carriage he took
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the reins himself, and left little Baptiste nothing to do but fold
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his arms and fall asleep on his perch.
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The two never quarreled. Amy was too well-bred, and just now
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Laurie was too lazy, so in a minute he peeped under her hatbrim
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with an inquiring air. She answered him with a smile, and they
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went on together in the most amicable manner.
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It was a lovely drive, along winding roads rich in the pic-
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turesque scenes that delight beauty-loving eyes. Here an ancient
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monastery, whence the solemn chanting of the monks came down to
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them. There a bare-legged shepherd, in wooden shoes, pointed hat,
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and rough jacket over one shoulder, sat piping on a stone while
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his goats skipped among the rocks or lay at his feet. Meek,
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mouse-colored donkeys, laden with panniers of freshly cut grass
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passed by, with a pretty girl in a capaline sitting between the
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green piles, or an old woman spinning with a distaff as she went.
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Brown, soft-eyed children ran out from the quaint stone hovels
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to offer nosegays, or bunches of oranges still on the bough.
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Gnarled olive trees covered the hills with their dusky foliage,
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fruit hung golden in the orchard, and great scarlet anemones
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fringed the roadside, while beyond green slopes and craggy heights,
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the Maritime Alps rose sharp and white against the blue Italian sky.
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Valrosa well deserved its name, for in that climate of per-
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petual summer roses blossomed everywhere. They overhung the
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archway, thrust themselves between the bars of the great gate
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with a sweet welcome to passers-by, and lined the avenue, winding
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through lemon trees and feathery palms up to the villa on the hill.
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Every shadowy nook, where seats invited one to stop and rest, was
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a mass of bloom, every cool grotto had its marble nymph smiling
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from a veil of flowers and every fountain reflected crimson, white,
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or pale pink roses, leaning down to smile at their own beauty.
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Roses covered the walls of the house, draped the cornices, climbed
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the pillars, and ran riot over the balustrade of the wide terrace,
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whence one looked down on the sunny Mediterranean, and the white-
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walled city on its shore.
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"This is a regular honeymoon paradise, isn't it? Did you
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ever see such roses?" asked Amy, pausing on the terrace to en-
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joy the view, and a luxurious whiff of perfume that came wander-
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ing by.
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"No, nor felt such thorns," returned Laurie, with his thumb
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in his mouth, after a vain attempt to capture a solitary scarlet
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flower that grew just beyond his reach.
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"Try lower down, and pick those that have no thorns," said
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Amy, gathering three of the tiny cream-colored ones that starred
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the wall behind her. She put them in his buttonhole as a peace
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|
offering, and he stood a minute looking down at them with a
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curious expression, for in the Italian part of his nature there
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|
was a touch of superstition, and he was just then in that state
|
|
of half-sweet, half-bitter melancholy, when imaginative young
|
|
men find significance in trifles and food for romance everywhere.
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|
He had thought of Jo in reaching after the thorny red rose, for
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vivid flowers became her, and she had often worn ones like that
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|
from the greenhouse at home. The pale roses Amy gave him were
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|
the sort that the Italians lay in dead hands, never in bridal
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|
wreaths, and for a moment he wondered if the omen was for Jo or
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|
for himself, but the next instant his American common sense got
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|
the better of sentimentality, and he laughed a heartier laugh
|
|
than Amy had heard since he came.
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"It's good advice, you'd better take it and save your fingers,"
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she said, thinking her speech amused him.
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"Thank you, I will," he answered in jest, and a few months
|
|
later he did it in earnest.
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"Laurie, when are you going to your grandfather?" she asked
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presently, as she settled herself on a rustic seat.
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"Very soon."
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"You have said that a dozen times within the last three
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|
weeks."
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"I dare say, short answers save trouble."
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"He expects you, and you really ought to go."
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"Hospitable creature! I know it."
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|
"Then why don't you do it?"
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"Natural depravity, I suppose."
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|
|
"Natural indolence, you mean. It's really dreadful!" And
|
|
Amy looked severe.
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|
"Not so bad as it seems, for I should only plague him if I
|
|
went, so I might as well stay and plague you a little longer,
|
|
you can bear it better, in fact I think it agrees with you ex-
|
|
cellently." And Laurie composed himself for a lounge on the
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|
broad ledge of the balustrade.
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Amy shook her head and opened her sketchbook with an
|
|
air of resignation, but she had made up her mind to lecture
|
|
`that boy' and in a minute she began again.
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|
|
|
"What are you doing just now?"
|
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|
"Watching lizards."
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|
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|
"No, no. I mean what do you intend and wish to do?"
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|
"Smoke a cigarette, if you'll allow me."
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|
"How provoking you are! I don't approve of cigars and I
|
|
will only allow it on condition that you let me put you into my
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|
sketch. I need a figure."
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|
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|
"With all the pleasure in life. How will you have me, full-
|
|
length or three-quarters, on my head or my heels? I should
|
|
respectfully suggest a recumbent posture, then put yourself in
|
|
also and call it `Dolce far niente'."
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|
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|
"Stay as you are, and go to sleep if you like. I intend to
|
|
work hard," said Amy in her most energetic tone.
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|
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|
"What delightful enthusiasm!" And he leaned against a tall
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|
urn with an ir of entire satisfaction.
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|
|
|
"What would Jo say if she saw you now?" asked Amy impat-
|
|
iently, hoping to stir him up by the mention of her still more
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|
energetic sister's name.
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|
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|
"As usual, `Go away, Teddy. I'm busy!'" He laughed as he
|
|
spoke, but the laugh was not natural, and a shade passed over
|
|
his face, for the utterance of the familiar name touched the
|
|
wound that was not healed yet. Both tone and shadow struck Amy,
|
|
for she had seen and heard them before, and now she looked up
|
|
in time to catch a new expression on Laurie's face--a hard bitter
|
|
look, full of pain, dissatisfaction, and regret. It was gone be-
|
|
fore she could study it and the listless expression back again.
|
|
She watched him for a moment with artistic pleasure, thinking
|
|
how like an Italian he looked, as he lay basking in the sun
|
|
with uncovered head and eyes full of southern dreaminess, for
|
|
he seemed to have forgotten her and fallen into a reverie.
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|
|
|
"You look like the effigy of a young knight asleep on his
|
|
tomb," she said, carefully tracing the well-cut profile defined
|
|
against the dark stone.
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|
|
|
"Wish I was!"
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|
|
|
"That's a foolish wish, unless you have spoiled your life.
|
|
You are so changed, I sometimes think--" There Amy stopped,
|
|
with a half-timid, half-wistful look, more significant than her
|
|
unfinished speech.
|
|
|
|
Laurie saw and understood the affectionate anxiety which
|
|
she hesitated to express, and looking straight into her eyes,
|
|
said, just as he used to say it to her mother, "It's all right,
|
|
ma'am."
|
|
|
|
That satisfied her and set at rest the doubts that had be-
|
|
gun to worry her lately. It also touched her, and she showed
|
|
that it did, by the cordial tone in which she said . . .
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad of that! I didn't think you'd been a very bad
|
|
boy, but I fancied you might have wasted money at that wicked
|
|
Baden-Baden, lost your heart to some charming Frenchwoman
|
|
with a husband, or got into some of the scrapes that young men
|
|
seem to consider a necessary part of a foreign tour. Don't
|
|
stay out there in the sun, come and lie on the grass here and
|
|
`let us be friendly', as Jo used to say when we got in the sofa
|
|
corner and told secrets."
|
|
|
|
Laurie obediently threw himself down on the turf, and
|
|
began to amuse himself by sticking daisies into the ribbons of
|
|
Amy's hat, that lay there.
|
|
|
|
"I'm all ready for the secrets." And he glanced up with
|
|
a decided expression of interest in his eyes.
|
|
|
|
"I've none to tell. You may begin."
|
|
|
|
"Haven't one to bless myself with. I thought perhaps you'd
|
|
had some news from home.."
|
|
|
|
"You have heard all that has come lately. Don't you hear
|
|
often? I fancied Jo would send you volumes."
|
|
|
|
"She's very busy. I'm roving about so, it's impossible to
|
|
be regular, you know. When do you begin your great work of art,
|
|
Raphaella?' he asked. changing the subject abruptly after
|
|
another pause, in which he had been wondering if Amy knew his
|
|
secret and wanted to talk about it.
|
|
|
|
"Never," she answered, with a despondent but decided air.
|
|
"Rome took all the vanity out of me, for after seeing the
|
|
wonders there, I felt too insignificant to live and gave up
|
|
all my foolish hopes in despair."
|
|
|
|
"Why should you, with so much energy and talent?"
|
|
|
|
"That's just why, because talent isn't genius, and no
|
|
amount of energy can make it so. I want to be great,or noth-
|
|
ing. I won't be a common-place dauber, so I don't intend to
|
|
try any more."
|
|
|
|
"And what are you going to do with yourself now, if I
|
|
may ask?"
|
|
|
|
"Polish up my other talents, and be an ornament to society,
|
|
if I get the chance."
|
|
|
|
It was a characteristic speech, and sounded daring, but
|
|
audacity becomes young people, and Amy's ambition had a good
|
|
foundation. Laurie smiled, but he liked the spirit with
|
|
which she took up a new purpose when a long-cherished one
|
|
died, and spent no time lamenting.
|
|
|
|
"Good! And here is where Fred Vaughn comes in, I fancy."
|
|
|
|
Amy preserved a discreet silence, but there was a con-
|
|
scious look in her downcast face that made Laurie sit up and
|
|
say gravely, "Now I'm going to play brother, and ask questions.
|
|
May I?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't promise to answer."
|
|
|
|
"Your face will, if your tongue won't. You aren't woman of
|
|
the world enough yet to hide your feelings, my dear. I heard
|
|
rumors about Fred and you last year, and it's my private op-
|
|
inion that if he had not been called home so suddenly and
|
|
detained so long, something would have come of it, hey?"
|
|
|
|
"That's not for me to say," was Amy's grim reply, but her
|
|
lips would smile, and there was a traitorous sparkle of the
|
|
eye which betrayed that she knew her power and enjoyed the
|
|
knowledge.
|
|
|
|
"You are not engaged, I hope?" And Laurie looked very
|
|
elder-brotherly and grave all of a sudden.
|
|
|
|
"No."
|
|
|
|
"But you will be, if he comes back and goes properly down
|
|
on his knees, won't you?"
|
|
|
|
"Very likely."
|
|
|
|
"Then you are fond of old Fred?"
|
|
|
|
"I could be, if I tried."
|
|
|
|
"But you don't intend to try till the proper moment? Bless
|
|
my soul, what unearthly prudence! He's a good fellow, Amy, but
|
|
not the man I fancied you'd like."
|
|
|
|
"He is rich, a gentleman, and has delightful manners,"
|
|
began Amy, trying to be quite cool and dignified, but feeling
|
|
a little ashamed of herself, in spite of the sincerity of her
|
|
intentions.
|
|
|
|
"I understand. Queens of society can't get on without money,
|
|
so you mean to make a good match, and start in that way? Quite
|
|
right and proper, as the world goes, but it sounds odd from the
|
|
lips of one of your mother's girls."
|
|
|
|
"True, nevertheless."
|
|
|
|
A short speech, but the quiet decision with which it was
|
|
uttered contrasted curiously with the young speaker. Laurie
|
|
felt this instinctively and laid himself down again, with a
|
|
sense of disappointment which he could not explain. His look
|
|
and silence, as well as a certain inward self-disapproval,
|
|
ruffled Amy, and made her resolve to deliver her lecture with-
|
|
out delay.
|
|
|
|
"I wish you'd do me the favor to rouse yourself a little,"
|
|
she said sharply.
|
|
|
|
"Do it for me, there's a dear girl."
|
|
|
|
"I could, if I tried." And she looked as if she would like
|
|
doing it in the most summary style.
|
|
|
|
"Try, then. I give you leave," returned Laurie, who en-
|
|
joyed having someone to tease, after his long abstinence from
|
|
his favorite pastime.
|
|
|
|
"You'd be angry in five minutes."
|
|
|
|
"I'm never angry with you. It takes two flints to make a
|
|
fire. You are as cool and soft as snow."
|
|
|
|
"You don't know what I can do. Snow produces a glow and
|
|
a tingle, if applied rightly. Your indifference is half af-
|
|
fectation, and a good stirring up would prove it."
|
|
|
|
"Stir away, it won't hurt me and it may amuse you, as the
|
|
big man said when his little wife beat him. Regard me in the
|
|
light of a husband or a carpet, and beat till you are tired,
|
|
if that sort of exercise agrees with you."
|
|
|
|
Being decidedly nettled herself, and longing to see him
|
|
shake off the apathy that so altered him, Amy sharpened both
|
|
tongue and pencil, and began.
|
|
|
|
"Flo and I have got a new name for you. It's Lazy Laur-
|
|
ence. How do you like it?"
|
|
|
|
She thought it would annoy him, but he only folded his
|
|
arms under his head, with an imperturbable, "That's not bad.
|
|
Thank you, ladies."
|
|
|
|
"Do you want to know what I honestly think of you?"
|
|
|
|
"Pining to be told."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I despise you."
|
|
|
|
If she had even said `I hate you' in a petulant or co-
|
|
quettish tone, he would have laughed and rather liked it, but
|
|
the grave, almost sad, accent in her voice made him open his
|
|
eyes, and ask quickly . . .
|
|
|
|
"Why, if you please?"
|
|
|
|
"Because, with every chance for being good, useful, and
|
|
happy, you are faulty, lazy, and miserable."
|
|
|
|
"Strong language, mademoiselle."
|
|
|
|
"If you like it, I'll go on."
|
|
|
|
"Pray do, it's quite interesting."
|
|
|
|
"I thought you'd find it so. Selfish people always like to
|
|
talk about themselves."
|
|
|
|
"Am I selfish?" The question slipped out involuntarily and
|
|
in a tone of surprise, for the one virtue on which he prided
|
|
himself was generosity.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, very selfish," continued Amy, in a calm, cool voice,
|
|
twice as effective just then as an angry one. "I'll show you
|
|
how, for I've studied you while we were frolicking, and I'm
|
|
not at all satisfied with you. Here you have been abroad
|
|
nearly six months, and done nothing but waste time and money
|
|
and disappoint your friends."
|
|
|
|
"Isn't a fellow to have any pleasure after a four-year
|
|
grind?"
|
|
|
|
"You don't look as if you'd had much. At any rate, you are
|
|
none the better for it, as far as I can see. I said when we
|
|
first met that you had improved. Now I take it all back, for I
|
|
don't think you half so nice as when I left you at home. You
|
|
have grown abominably lazy, you like gossip, and waste time on
|
|
frivolous things, you are contented to be petted and admired
|
|
by silly people, instead of being loved and respected by wise
|
|
ones. With money, talent, position, health, and beauty, ah
|
|
you like that old Vanity! But it's the truth, so I can't help
|
|
saying it, with all these splendid things to use and enjoy, you
|
|
can find nothing to do but dawdle, and instead of being the man
|
|
you ought to be, you are only . . ." There she stopped, with
|
|
a look that had both pain and pity in it.
|
|
|
|
"Saint Laurence on a gridiron," added Laurie, blandly
|
|
finishing the sentence. But the lecture began to take effect,
|
|
for there was a wide-awake sparkle in his eyes now and a
|
|
half-angry, half-injured expression replaced the former in-
|
|
difference.
|
|
|
|
"I supposed you'd take it so. You men tell us we are
|
|
angels, and say we can make you what we will, but the instant
|
|
we honestly try to do you good, you laugh at us and won't
|
|
listen, which proves how much your flattery is worth." Amy
|
|
spoke bitterly, and turned her back on the exasperating
|
|
martyr at her feet.
|
|
|
|
In a minute a hand came down over the page, so that she
|
|
could not draw, and Laurie's voice said, with a droll imitation
|
|
of a penitent child, "I will be good, oh, I will be good!"
|
|
|
|
But Amy did not laugh, for she was in earnest, and tapping
|
|
on the outspread hand with her pencil, said soberly, "Aren't
|
|
you ashamed of a hand like that? It's as soft and white as a
|
|
woman's, and looks as if it never did anything but wear Jouvin's
|
|
best gloves and pick flowers for ladies. You are not a dandy,
|
|
thank Heaven, so I'm glad to see there are no diamonds or big
|
|
seal rings on it, only the little old one Jo gave you so long
|
|
ago. Dear soul, I wish she was here to help me!"
|
|
|
|
"So do I!"
|
|
|
|
The hand vanished as suddenly as it came, and there was
|
|
energy enough in the echo of her wish to suit even Amy. She
|
|
glanced down at him with a new thought in her mind, but he
|
|
was lying with his hat half over his face, as if for shade, and
|
|
his mustache hid his mouth. She only saw his chest rise and
|
|
fall, with a long breath that might have been a sigh, and the
|
|
hand that wore the ring nestled down into the grass, as if to
|
|
hide something too precious or too tender to be spoken of.
|
|
All in a minute various hints and trifles assumed shape and
|
|
significance in Amy's mind, and told her what her sister never
|
|
had confided to her. She remembered that Laurie never spoke
|
|
voluntarily of Jo, she recalled the shadow on his face just
|
|
now, the change in his character, and the wearing of the little
|
|
old ring which was no ornament to a handsome hand. Girls are
|
|
quick to read such signs and feel their eloquence. Amy had
|
|
fancied that perhaps a love trouble was at the bottom of the
|
|
alteration, and now she was sure of it. Her keen eyes filled,
|
|
and when she spoke again, it was in a voice that could be
|
|
beautifully soft and kind when she chose to make it so.
|
|
|
|
"I know I have no right to talk so to you, Laurie, and if
|
|
you weren't the sweetest-tempered fellow in the world, you'd be
|
|
very angry with me. But we are all so fond and proud of you,
|
|
I couldn't bear to think they should be disappointed in you at
|
|
home as I have been, though, perhaps they would understand
|
|
the change better than I do."
|
|
|
|
"I think they would," came from under the hat, in a grim
|
|
tone, quite as touching as a broken one.
|
|
|
|
"They ought to have told me, and not let me go blundering
|
|
and scolding, when I should have been more kind and patient
|
|
than ever. I never did like that Miss Randal and now I hate
|
|
her!" said artful Amy, wishing to be sure of her facts this
|
|
time.
|
|
|
|
"Hang Miss Randal!" And Laurie knocked the hat off his
|
|
face with a look that left no doubt of his sentiments toward
|
|
that young lady.
|
|
|
|
"I beg pardon, I thought . . ." And there she paused
|
|
diplomatically.
|
|
|
|
"No, you didn't, you knew perfectly well I never cared for
|
|
anyone but Jo," Laurie said that in his old, impetuous tone,
|
|
and turned his face away as he spoke.
|
|
|
|
"I did think so, but as they never said anything about it,
|
|
and you came away, I supposed I was mistaken. And Jo wouldn't
|
|
be kind to you? Why, I was sure she loved you dearly."
|
|
|
|
"She was kind, but not in the right way, and it's lucky for
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her she didn't love me, if I'm the good-for-nothing fellow you
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think me. It's her fault though, and you may tell her so."
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The hard, bitter look came back again as he said that, and
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it troubled Amy, for she did not know what balm to apply.
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"I was wrong, I didn't know. I'm very sorry I was so cross,
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but I can't help wishing you'd bear it better, Teddy, dear."
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"Don't, that's her name for me!" And Laurie put up his
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hand with a quick gesture to stop the words spoken in Jo's
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half-kind, half-reproachful tone. "Wait till you've tried it
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yourself," he added in a low voice, as he pulled up the grass
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by the handful.
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"I'd take it manfully, and be respected if i couldn't be
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loved," said Amy, with the decision of one who knew nothing
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about it.
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Now, Laurie flattered himself that he had borne it remark-
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ably well, making no moan, asking no sympathy, and taking his
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trouble away to live it down alone. Amy's lecture put the
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Matter in a new light, and for the first time it did look
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weak and selfish to lose heart at the first failure, and shut
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himself up in moody indifference. He felt as if suddenly
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shaken out of a pensive dream and found it impossible to go
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to sleep again. Presently he sat up and asked slowly, "Do
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you think Jo would despise me as you do?"
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"Yes, if she saw you now. She hates lazy people. Why don't
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you do something splendid, and make her love you?"
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"I did my best, but it was no use."
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"Graduating well, you mean? That was no more than you
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ought to have done, for your grandfather's sake. It would
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have been shameful to fail after spending so much time and
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|
money, when everyone knew that you could do well."
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"I did fail, say what you will, for Jo wouldn't love me,"
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began Laurie, leaning his head on his hand in a despondent
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attitude.
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"No, you didn't, and you'll say so in the end, for it did
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you good, and proved that you could do something if you tried.
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If you'd only set about another task of some sort, you'd soon
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be your hearty, happy self again, and forget your trouble."
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"That's impossible."
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"Try it and see. You needn't shrug your shoulders, and
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think, `Much she knows about such things'. I don't pretend
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to be wise, but I am observing, and I see a great deal more
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than you'd imagine. I'm interested in other people's ex-
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|
periences and inconsistencies, and though I can't explain, I
|
|
remember and use them for my own benefit. Love Jo all your
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|
days, if you choose, but don't let it spoil you, for it's
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wicked to throw away so many good gifts because you can't
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have the one you want. There, I won't lecture any more, for
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I know you'll wake up and be a man in spite of that hard-
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|
hearted girl."
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Neither spoke for several minutes. Laurie sat turning
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the little ring on his finger, and Amy put the last touches to
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the hasty sketch she had been working at while she talked.
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Presently she put it on his knee, merely saying, "How do you
|
|
like that?"
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He looked and then he smiled, as he could not well help
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doing, for it was capitally done, the long, lazy figure on the
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grass, with listless face, half-shut eyes, and one hand holding
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a cigar, from which came the little wreath of smoke that en-
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|
circled the dreamer's head.
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|
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"How well you draw!" he said, with a genuine surprise
|
|
and pleasure at her skill, adding, with a half-laugh, "Yes,
|
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that's me."
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|
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"As you are. This is as you were." And Amy laid another
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sketch beside the one he held.
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It was not nearly so well done, but there was a life and
|
|
spirit in it which atoned for many faults, and it recalled the
|
|
past so vividly that a sudden change swept over the young
|
|
man's face as he looked. Only a rough sketch of Laurie taming
|
|
a horse. Hat and coat were off, and every line of the active
|
|
figure, resolute face, and commanding attitude was full of
|
|
energy and meaning. The handsome brute, just subdued, stood
|
|
arching his neck under the tightly drawn rein, with one foot
|
|
impatiently pawing the ground, and ears pricked up as if
|
|
listening for the voice that had mastered him. In the ruffled
|
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mane. The rider's breezy hair and erect attitude, there was a
|
|
suggestion of suddenly arrested motion, of strength, courage,
|
|
and youthful buoyancy that contrasted sharply with the supine
|
|
grace of the `DOLCE FAR NIENTE' sketch. Laurie said nothing
|
|
but as his eye went from one to the other, Amy say him flush
|
|
up and fold his lips together as if he read and accepted the
|
|
little lesson she had given him. That satisfied her, and
|
|
without waiting for him to speak, she said, in her sprightly
|
|
way . . .
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|
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|
"Don't you remember the day you played Rarey with Puck,
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|
and we all looked on? Meg and Beth were frightened, but Jo
|
|
clapped and pranced, and I sat on the fence and drew you. I
|
|
found that sketch in my portfolio the other day, touched it
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|
up, and kept it to show you."
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|
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|
"Much obliged. You've improved immensely since then,
|
|
and I congratulate you. May I venture to suggest in ` a
|
|
honeymoon paradise' that five o'clock is the dinner hour at
|
|
your hotel?"
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|
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|
Laurie rose as he spoke, returned the pictures with a smile
|
|
and a bow and looked at his watch, as if to remind her that
|
|
even moral lectures should have an end. He tried to resume his
|
|
former easy, indifferent air, but it was an affectation now, for
|
|
the rousing had been more effacious than he would confess. Amy
|
|
felt the shade of coldness in his manner, and said to herself . ..
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|
|
|
"Now, I've offended him. Well, if it does him good, I'm
|
|
glad, if it makes him hate me, I'm sorry, but it's true, and
|
|
I can't take back a word of it."
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|
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|
They laughed and chatted all the way home, and little
|
|
Baptist, up behind, thought that monsieur and madamoiselle
|
|
were in charming spirits. But both felt ill at ease. The
|
|
friendly frankness was disturbed, the sunshine had a shadow
|
|
over it, and despite their apparent gaiety, there was a secret
|
|
discontent in the heart of each.
|
|
|
|
"Shall we see you this evening, mon frere?" asked Amy, as
|
|
they parted at her aunt's door.
|
|
|
|
"Unfortunately I have an engagement. Au revoir, madam-
|
|
oiselle." And Laurie bent as if to kiss her hand, in the
|
|
foreign fashion, which became him better than many men. Some-
|
|
thing in his face made Amy say quickly and warmly . . .
|
|
|
|
"No, be yourself with me, Laurie, and part in the good
|
|
old way. I'd rather have a hearty English handshake than
|
|
all the sentimental salutations in France."
|
|
|
|
"Goodbye, dear." And with these words, uttered in the
|
|
tone she liked, Laurie left her, after a handshake almost pain-
|
|
ful in its heartiness.
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|
|
|
Next morning, instead of the usual call, Amy received a
|
|
note which made her smile at the beginning and sigh at the end.
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|
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|
My Dear Mentor,
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|
Please make my adieux to your aunt, and exult within
|
|
yourself, for `Lazy Laurence' has gone to his grandpa, like
|
|
the best of boys. A pleasant winter to you, and may the gods
|
|
grant you a blissful honeymoon at Valrosa! I think Fred
|
|
would be benefited by a rouser. Tell him so, with my con-
|
|
gratulations.
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|
Yours gratefully, TELEMACHUS
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|
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|
"Good boy! I'm glad he's gone," said Amy, with an ap-
|
|
proving smile. The next minute her face fell as she glanced
|
|
about the empty room, adding, with an involuntary sigh, "Yes,
|
|
I am glad, but how I shall miss him."
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|
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|
CHAPTER FORTY
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|
When the first bitterness was over, the family accepted
|
|
the inevitable, and tried to bear it cheerfully, helping one
|
|
another by the increased affection which comes to bind house-
|
|
holds tenderly together in times of trouble. They put away
|
|
their grief, and each did his or her part toward making that
|
|
last year a happy one.
|
|
|
|
The pleasantest room in the house was set apart for Beth,
|
|
and in it was gathered everything that she most loved, flowers,
|
|
pictures, her piano, the little worktable, and the beloved
|
|
pussies. Father's best books found their way there, Mother's
|
|
easy chair, Jo's desk, Amy's finest sketches, and every day
|
|
Meg brought her babies on a loving pilgrimage, to make sunshine
|
|
for Aunty Beth. John quietly set apart a little sum, that he
|
|
might enjoy the pleasure of keeping the invalid supplied with
|
|
the fruit she loved and longed for. Old Hannah never wearied
|
|
of concocting dainty dishes to tempt a capricious appetite,
|
|
dropping tears as she worked, and from across the sea came
|
|
little gifts and cheerful letters, seeming to bring breaths
|
|
of warmth and fragrance from lands that know no winter.
|
|
|
|
Here, cherished like a household saint in its shrine, sat
|
|
Beth, tranquil and busy as ever, for nothing could change the
|
|
sweet, unselfish nature, and even while preparing to leave
|
|
life, she tried to make it happier for those who should remain
|
|
behind. The feeble fingers were never idle, and one of her
|
|
pleasures was to make little things for the school children
|
|
daily passing to and fro, to drop a pair of mittens from her
|
|
window for a pair of purple hands, a needlebook for some small
|
|
mother of many dolls, penwipers for young penmen toiling through
|
|
forests of pothooks, scrapbooks for picture-loving eyes, and
|
|
all manner of pleasant devices, till the reluctant climbers of
|
|
the ladder of learning found their way strewn with flowers, as
|
|
it were, and came to regard the gentle giver as a sort of fairy
|
|
godmother, who sat above there, and showered down gifts miracu-
|
|
lously suited to their tastes and needs. If Beth had wanted any
|
|
reward, she found it in the bright little faces always turned up
|
|
to her window, with nods and smiles, and the droll little letters
|
|
which came to her, full of blots and gratitude.
|
|
|
|
The first few months were very happy ones, and Beth often
|
|
used to look round, and say "How beautiful this is!" as they
|
|
all sat together in her sunny room, the babies kicking and crow-
|
|
ing on the floor, mother and sisters working near, and father
|
|
reading, in his pleasant voice,from the wise old books which
|
|
seemed rich in good and comfortable words, as applicable now as
|
|
when written centuries ago, a little chapel, where a paternal
|
|
priest taught his flock the hard lessons all must learn, trying
|
|
to show them that hope can comfort love, and faith make resig-
|
|
nation possible. Simple sermons, that went straight to the souls
|
|
of those who listened, for the father's heart was in the minister's
|
|
religion, and the frequent falter in the voice gave a double
|
|
eloquence to the words he spoke or read.
|
|
|
|
It was well for all that this peaceful time was given them
|
|
as preparation for the sad hours to come, for by-and-by, Beth
|
|
said the needle was `so heavy', and put it down forever. Talking
|
|
wearied her, faces troubled her, pain claimed her for its own,
|
|
and her tranquil spirit was sorrowfully perturbed by the ills
|
|
that vexed her feeble flesh. Ah me! Such heavy days, such long,
|
|
long nights, such aching hearts and imploring prayers, when those
|
|
who loved her best were forced to see the thin hands stretched out
|
|
to them beseechingly, to hear the bitter cry, "Help me, help me!"
|
|
and to feel that there was no help. A sad eclipse of the serene
|
|
soul, a sharp struggle of the young life with death, but both were
|
|
mercifully brief, and then the natural rebellion over, the old peace
|
|
returned more beautiful than ever. With the wreck of her frail body,
|
|
Beth's soul grew strong, and though she said little, those about her
|
|
felt that she was ready, saw that the first pilgrim called was like-
|
|
wise the fittest, and waited with her on the shore, trying to see
|
|
the Shining Ones coming to receive her when she crossed the river.
|
|
|
|
Jo never left her for an hour since Beth had said "I feel
|
|
stronger when you are here." She slept on a couch in the room,
|
|
waking often to renew the fire, to feed, lift, or wait upon the
|
|
patient creature who seldom asked for anything, and `tried not to
|
|
be a trouble'. All day she haunted the room, jealous of any other
|
|
nurse, and prouder of being chosen then than of any honor her life
|
|
ever brought her. Precious and helpful hours to Jo, for now her
|
|
heart received the teaching that it needed. Lessons in patience
|
|
were so sweetly taught her that she could not fail to learn them,
|
|
charity for all, the lovely spirit that can forgive and truly
|
|
forget unkindness, the loyalty to duty that makes the hardest
|
|
easy, and the sincere faith that fears nothing, but trusts un-
|
|
doubtingly.
|
|
|
|
Often when she woke Jo found Beth reading in her well-worn
|
|
little book, heard her singing softly, to beguile the sleepless
|
|
night, or saw her lean her face upon her hands, while slow tears
|
|
dropped through the transparent fingers, and Jo would lie watch-
|
|
ing her with thoughts too deep for tears, feeling that Beth, in
|
|
her simple, unselfish way, was trying to wean herself from the
|
|
dear old life, and fit herself for the life to come, by sacred
|
|
words of comfort, quiet prayers, and the music she loved so well.
|
|
|
|
Seeing this did more for Jo than the wisest sermons, the
|
|
saintliest hymns, the most fervent prayers that any voice could
|
|
utter. For with eyes made clear by many tears, and a heart
|
|
softened by the tenderest sorrow, she recognized the beauty of
|
|
her sister's life--uneventful, unambitious, yet full of the
|
|
genuine virtues which `smell sweet, and blossom in the dust',
|
|
the self-forgetfulness that makes the humblest on earth re-
|
|
membered soonest in heaven, the true success which is possible
|
|
to all.
|
|
|
|
One night when Beth looked among the books upon her table,
|
|
to find something to make her forget the mortal weariness that
|
|
was almost as hard to bear as pain, as she turned the leaves of
|
|
her old favorite, Pilgrims's Progress, she found a little paper,
|
|
scribbled over in Jo's hand. The name caught her eye and the
|
|
blurred look of the lines made her sure that tears had fallen
|
|
on it.
|
|
|
|
"Poor Jo! She's fast asleep, so I won't wake her to ask
|
|
leave. She shows me all her things, and I don't think she'll
|
|
mind if I look at this", thought Beth, with a glance at her
|
|
sister, who lay on the rug, with the tongs beside her, ready
|
|
to wake up the minute the log fell apart.
|
|
|
|
MY BETH
|
|
|
|
Sitting patient in the shadow
|
|
Till the blessed light shall come,
|
|
A serene and saintly presence
|
|
Sanctifies our troubled home.
|
|
Earthly joys and hopes and sorrows
|
|
Break like ripples on the strand
|
|
Of the deep and solemn river
|
|
Where her willing feet now stand.
|
|
|
|
O my sister, passing from me,
|
|
Out of human care and strife,
|
|
Leave me, as a gift, those virtues
|
|
Which have beautified your life.
|
|
Dear, bequeath me that great patience
|
|
Which has power to sustain
|
|
A cheerful, uncomplaining spirit
|
|
In its prison-house of pain.
|
|
|
|
Give me, for I need it sorely,
|
|
Of that courage, wise and sweet,
|
|
Which has made the path of duty
|
|
Green beneath your willing feet.
|
|
Give me that unselfish nature,
|
|
That with charity devine
|
|
Can pardon wrong for love's dear sake--
|
|
Meek heart, forgive me mine!
|
|
|
|
Thus our parting daily loseth
|
|
Something of its bitter pain,
|
|
And while learning this hard lesson,
|
|
My great loss becomes my gain.
|
|
For the touch of grief will render
|
|
My wild nature more serene,
|
|
Give to life new aspirations,
|
|
A new trust in the unseen.
|
|
|
|
Henceforth, safe across the river,
|
|
I shall see forever more
|
|
A beloved, household spirit
|
|
Waiting for me on the shore.
|
|
Hope and faith, born of my sorrow,
|
|
Guardian angels shall become,
|
|
And the sister gone before me
|
|
By their hands shall lead me home.
|
|
|
|
Blurred and blotted, faulty and feeble as the lines were, they
|
|
brought a look of inexpressible comfort to Beth's face, for her one
|
|
regret had been that she had done so little, and this seemed to assure
|
|
her that her life had not been useless, that her death would not bring
|
|
the despair she feared. As she sat with the paper folded between her
|
|
hands, the charred log fell asunder. Jo started up, revived the blaze,
|
|
and crept to the bedside, hoping Beth slept.
|
|
|
|
"Not asleep, but so happy, dear. See, I found this and read it.
|
|
I knew you wouldn't care. Have I been all that to you, Jo?" she
|
|
asked, with wistful, humble earnestness.
|
|
|
|
"OH, Beth, so much, so much!" And Jo's head went down upon the
|
|
pillow beside her sister's.
|
|
|
|
"Then I don't feel as if I'd wasted my life. I'm not so good
|
|
as you make me, but I have tried to do right. And now, when it's
|
|
too late to begin even to do better, it's such a comfort to know
|
|
that someone loves me so much, and feels as if I'd helped them."
|
|
|
|
"More than any one in the world, Beth. I used to think I
|
|
couldn't let you go, but I'm learning to feel that I don't lose
|
|
you, that you'll be more to me than ever, and death can't part
|
|
us, though it seems to."
|
|
|
|
"I know it cannot, and I don't fear it any longer, for I'm
|
|
sure I shall be your Beth still, to love and help you more than
|
|
ever. You must take my place, Jo, and be everything to Father
|
|
and Mother when I'm gone. They will turn to you, don't fail
|
|
them, and if it's hard to work alone, remember that I don't
|
|
forget you, and that you'll be happier in doing that than writing
|
|
splendid books or seeing all the world, for love is the only thing
|
|
that we can carry with us when we go, and it makes the go easy."
|
|
|
|
"I'll try, Beth." And then and there Jo renounced her old
|
|
ambition, pledged herself to a new and better one, acknowledging
|
|
the poverty of other desires, and feeling the blessed solace of
|
|
a belief in the immortality of love.
|
|
|
|
So the spring days came and went , the sky grew clearer, the
|
|
earth greener, the flowers were up fairly early, and the birds
|
|
came back in time to say goodbye to Beth, who, like a tired but
|
|
trustful child, clung to the hands that had led her all her life,
|
|
as Father and Mother guided her tenderly through the Valley of
|
|
the Shadow, and gave her up to God.
|
|
|
|
Seldom except in books do the dying utter memorable words,
|
|
see visions, or depart with beatified countenances, and those
|
|
who have sped many parting souls know that to most the end
|
|
comes as naturally and simply as sleep. As Beth had hoped, the
|
|
`tide went out easily', and in the dark hour before dawn, on
|
|
the bosom where she had drawn her first breath, she quietly
|
|
drew her last, with no farewell but one loving look, one little
|
|
sigh.
|
|
|
|
With tears and prayers and tender hands, Mother and sisters
|
|
made her ready for the long sleep that pain would never mar again,
|
|
seeing with grateful eyes the beautiful serenity that soon replaced
|
|
the pathetic patience that had wrung their hearts so long, and
|
|
feeling with reverent joy that to their darling death was a
|
|
benignant angel, not a phantom full of dread.
|
|
|
|
When morning came, for the first time in many months the
|
|
fire was out, Jo's place was empty, and the room was very still.
|
|
But a bird sang blithely on a budding bough, close by, the snow-
|
|
drops blossomed freshly at the window, and the spring sunshine
|
|
streamed in like a benediction over the placid face upon the
|
|
pillow, a face so full of painless peace that those who loved
|
|
it best smiled through their tears, and thanked God that Beth
|
|
was well at last.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
|
|
|
|
Amy's lecture did Laurie good, though, of course, he did
|
|
not own it till long afterward. Men seldom do, for when women
|
|
are the advisers, the lords of creation don't take the advice
|
|
till they have persuaded themselves that it is just what they
|
|
intended to do. Then they act upon it, and, if it succeeds,
|
|
they give the weaker vessel half the credit of it. If it
|
|
fails, they generously give her the whole. Laurie went back
|
|
to his grandfather, and was so dutifully devoted for several
|
|
weeks that the old gentleman declared the climate of Nice had
|
|
improved him wonderfully, and he had better try it again.
|
|
There was nothing the young gentleman would have liked better,
|
|
but elephants could not have dragged him back after the scold-
|
|
ing he had received. Pride forbid, and whenever the longing
|
|
grew very strong, he fortified his resolution by repeating
|
|
the words that had made the deepest impression, "I despise
|
|
you." "Go and do something splendid that will make her love
|
|
you."
|
|
|
|
Laurie turned the matter over in his mind so often that he
|
|
soon brought himself to confess that he had been selfish and
|
|
lazy, but then when a man has a great sorrow, he should be in-
|
|
dulged in all sorts of vagaries till he has lived it down. He
|
|
felt that his blighted affections were quite dead now, and
|
|
though he should never cease to be a faithful mourner, there
|
|
was no occasion to wear his weeds ostentatiously. Jo wouldn't
|
|
love him, but he might make her respect and admire him by doing
|
|
something which should prove that a girl's no had not spoiled
|
|
his life. He had always meant to do something, and Amy's
|
|
advice was quite unnecessary. He had only been waiting till
|
|
the aforesaid blighted affections were decently interred. That
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|
being done, he felt that he was ready to `hide his stricken
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heart, and still toil on'.
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As Goethe, when he had a joy or a grief, put it into a song,
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so Laurie resolved to embalm his love sorrow in music, and to
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compose a Requiem which should harrow up Jo's soul and melt the
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heart of every hearer. Therefore the next time the old gentle-
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man found him getting restless and moody and ordered him off,
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he went to Vienna, where he had musical friends, and fell to
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work with the firm determination to distinguish himself. But
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whether the sorrow was too vast to be embodied in music, or
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music too ethereal to uplift a mortal woe, he soon discovered
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that the Requiem was beyond him just at present. It was evi-
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dent that his mind was not in working order yet, and his ideas
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needed clarifying, for often in the middle of a plaintive strain,
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he would find himself humming a dancing tune that vividly re-
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called the Christmas ball at Nice, especially the stout French-
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man, and put an effectual stop to tragic composition for the
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time being.
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Then he tried an opera, for nothing seemed impossible in
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the beginning, but here again unforeseen difficulties beset
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him. He wanted Jo for his heroine, and called upon his memory
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to supply him with tender recollections and romantic visions
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of his love. But memory turned traitor, and as if possessed
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by the perverse spirit of the girl, would only recall Jo's
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oddities, faults, and freaks, would only show her in the most
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unsentimental aspects--beating mats with her head tied up in
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a bandana, barricading herself with the sofa pillow, or throw-
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|
ing cold water over his passion a la Gummidge--and an irresis-
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table laugh spoiled the pensive picture he was endeavoring to
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paint. Jo wouldn't be put into the opera at any price, and he
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had to give her up with a "Bless that girl, what a torment she is!"
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and a clutch at his hair, as became a distracted composer.
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When he looked about him for another and a less intractable
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damsel to immortalize in melody, memory produced one with the
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most obliging readiness. This phantom wore many faces, but it
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always had golden hair, was enveloped in a diaphanous cloud, and
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floated airily before his mind's eye in a pleasing chaos of roses,
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peacocks, white ponies, and blue ribbons. He did not give the
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complacent wraith any name, but he took her for his heroine and
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grew quite fond of her, as well he might, for he gifted her with
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every gift and grace under the sun, and escorted her, unscathed,
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through trials which would have annihilated any mortal woman.
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Thanks to this inspiration, he got on swimmingly for a time,
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|
but gradually the work lost its charm, and he forgot to compose,
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|
while he sat musing, pen in hand, or roamed about the gay city
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|
to get some new ideas and refresh his mind, which seemed to be
|
|
in a somewhat unsettled state that winter. He did not do much,
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|
but he thought a great deal and was conscious of a change of
|
|
some sort going on in spite of himself. "It's genius simmering,
|
|
perhaps. I'll let it simmer, and see what comes of it," he said,
|
|
with a secret suspicion all the while that it wasn't genius, but
|
|
something far more common. Whatever it was, it simmered to
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|
some purpose, for he grew more and more discontented with his
|
|
desultory life, began to long for some real and earnest work
|
|
to go at, soul and body, and finally came to the wise conclu-
|
|
sion that everyone who loved music was not a composer. Return-
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|
ing from one of Mozart's grand operas, splendidly performed at
|
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the Royal Theatre, he looked over his own, played a few of the
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|
best parts, sat staring at the busts of Mendelssohn, Beethoven,
|
|
and bach, who stared benignly back again. Then suddenly he
|
|
tore up his music sheets, one by one, and as the last fluttered
|
|
out of his hand, he said soberly to himself . . .
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|
|
|
"She is right! Talent isn't genius, and you can't make it
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|
so. That music has taken the vanity out of my as Rome took it
|
|
out of her, and I won't be a humbug any longer. Now what shall
|
|
I do?"
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|
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|
That seemed a hard question to answer, and Laurie began to
|
|
wish he had to work for his daily bread. Now if ever, occurred
|
|
an eligible opportunity for `going to the devil', as he once
|
|
forcibly expressed it, for he had plenty of money and nothing
|
|
to do, and Satan is proverbially fond of providing employment
|
|
for full and idle hands. The poor fellow had temptations
|
|
enough from without and from within, but he withstood them
|
|
pretty well, for much as he valued liberty, he valued good
|
|
faith and confidence more, so his promise to his grandfather,
|
|
and his desire to be able to look honestly into the eyes of
|
|
the women who loved him, and say "All's well," kept him safe
|
|
and steady.
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|
|
|
Very likely some Mrs. Grundy will observe, "I don't be-
|
|
lieve it, boys will be boys, young men must sow their wild
|
|
oats, and women must not expect miracles." I dare say you
|
|
don't, Mrs. Grundy, but it's true nevertheless. Women work
|
|
a good many miracles, and I have a persuasion that they may
|
|
perform even that of raising the standard of manhood by
|
|
refusing to echo such sayings. Let the boys be boys, the
|
|
longer the better, and let the young men sow their wild oats
|
|
if they must. But mothers, sisters, and friends may help to
|
|
make the crop a small one, and keep many tares from spoiling
|
|
the harvest, by believing, and showing that they believe, in
|
|
the possibility of loyalty to the virtues which make men man-
|
|
liest in good women's eyes. If it is a feminine delusion,
|
|
leave us to enjoy it while we may, for without it half the
|
|
beauty and the romance of life is lost, and sorrowful fore-
|
|
bodings would embitter all our hopes of the brave, tender-
|
|
hearted little lads, who still love their mothers better than
|
|
themselves and are not ashamed to own it.
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|
|
|
Laurie thought that the task of forgetting his love for Jo
|
|
would absorb all his powers for years, but to his great surprise
|
|
he discovered it grew easier every day. He refused to believe
|
|
it at first, got angry with himself, and couldn't understand it,
|
|
but these hearts of ours are curious and contrary things, and
|
|
time and nature work their will in spite of us. Laurie's heart
|
|
wouldn't ache. The wound persisted in healing with a rapidity
|
|
that astonished him, and instead of trying to forget, he found
|
|
himself trying to remember. He had not foreseen this turn of
|
|
affairs, and was not prepared for it. He was disgusted with
|
|
himself, surprised at his own fickleness, and full of a
|
|
queer mixture of disappointment and relief that he could re-
|
|
cover from such a tremendous blow so soon. He carefully
|
|
stirred up the embers of his lost love, but they refused to
|
|
burst into a blaze. There was only a comfortable glow that
|
|
warmed and did him good without putting him into a fever,
|
|
and he was reluctantly obliged to confess that the boyish
|
|
passion was slowly subbsiding into a more tranquil sentiment,
|
|
very tender, a little sad and resentful still, but that was
|
|
sure to pass away in time, leaving a brotherly affection
|
|
which would last unbroken to the end.
|
|
|
|
As the word `brotherly' passed through his mind in one
|
|
of his reveries, he smiled, and glanced up at the picture of
|
|
Mozart that was before him . . .
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|
|
|
"Well, he was a great man, and when he couldn't have
|
|
one sister he took the other, and was happy."
|
|
|
|
Laurie did not utter the words, but he thought them, and
|
|
the next instant kissed the little old ring, saying to himself,
|
|
"No, I won't! I haven't forgotten, I never can. I'll try again,
|
|
and if that fails, why then . . .
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|
|
|
Leaving his sentence unfinished, he seized pen and paper
|
|
and wrote to Jo, telling her that he could not settle to any-
|
|
thing while there was the least hope of her changing her mind.
|
|
Couldn't she, wouldn't she, and let him come home and be happy?
|
|
While waiting for an answer he did nothing, but he did it
|
|
energetically, for he was in a fever of impatience. It came
|
|
at last, and settled his mind effectually on one point, for Jo
|
|
decidedly couldn't and wouldn't. She was wrapped up in Beth,
|
|
and never wished to hear the word love again. Then she begged
|
|
him to be happy with somebody else, but always keep a little
|
|
corner of his ghart for his loving sister Jo. In a postscript
|
|
she desired him not to tell Amy that Beth was worse, she was
|
|
coming home in the spring and there was no need of saddening
|
|
the remainder of her stay. That would be time enough, please
|
|
God, but Laurie must write to her often, and not let her feel
|
|
lonely, homesick or anxious.
|
|
|
|
"So I will, at once. Poor little girl, it will be a sad
|
|
going home for her, I'm afraid." And Laurie opened his desk,
|
|
as if writing to Amy had been the proper conclusion of the
|
|
sentence left unfinished some weeks before.
|
|
|
|
But he did not write the letter that day, for as he rum-
|
|
maged out his best paper, he came across something which
|
|
changed his purpose. Tumbling about in one part of the desk
|
|
among bills, passports, and business documents of various kinds
|
|
were several of Jo's letters, and in another compartment were
|
|
three notes from Amy, carefully tied up with one of her blue
|
|
ribbons and sweetly suggestive of the little dead roses put
|
|
away inside. with a half-repentant, half-amused expression,
|
|
Laurie gathered up all Jo's letters, smoothed, folded,and put
|
|
them neatly into a small drawer of the desk, stood a minute
|
|
turning the ring thoughtfully on his finger, then slowly drew
|
|
it off, laid it with the letters, locked the drawer, and went
|
|
out to hear High Mass at Saint Stefan's, feeling as if there
|
|
had been a funeral, and though not overwhelmed with affliction,
|
|
this seemed a more proper way to spend the rest of the day than
|
|
in writing letters to charming young ladies.
|
|
|
|
The letter went very soon, however, and was promptly ans-
|
|
wered, for Amy was homesick, and confessed it in the most
|
|
delightfully confiding manner. The correspondence flourished
|
|
famously, and letters flew to and fro with unfailing regularity
|
|
all through the early spring. Laurie sold his busts, made
|
|
allumettes of his opera, and went back to Paris, hoping some-
|
|
body would arrive before long. He wanted desperately to go
|
|
to Nice, but would not till he was asked, and Amy would not
|
|
ask him, for just then she was having little experiences of
|
|
her own, which made her rather wish to avoid the quizzical
|
|
eyes of `out boy'.
|
|
|
|
Fred Vaughn had returned, and put the question to which
|
|
she had once decided to answer, "Yes, thank you," but now she
|
|
said, "No, thank you," kindly but steadily, for when the time
|
|
came, her courage failed her, and she found that something
|
|
more than money and position was needed to satisfy the new
|
|
longing that filled her heart so full of tender hopes and
|
|
fears. The words, "Fred is a good fellow, but not at all
|
|
the man I fancied you would ever like," and Laurie's face
|
|
when he uttered them, kept returning to her as pertinaciously
|
|
as her own did when she said in look, if not in words, "I
|
|
shall marry for money." It troubled her to remember that
|
|
now, she wished she could take it back, it sounded so un-
|
|
womanly. She didn't want Laurie to think her a heartless,
|
|
worldly creature. She didn't care to be a queen of society
|
|
now half so much as she did to be a lovable woman. She was
|
|
so glad he didn't hate her for the dreadful things she said,
|
|
but took them so beautifully and was kinder than ever. His
|
|
letters were such a comfort, for the home letters were very
|
|
irregular and not half so satisfactory as his when they did
|
|
come. It was not only a pleasure, but a duty to answer them,
|
|
for the poor fellow was forlorn, and needed petting, since Jo
|
|
persisted in being stonyhearted. She ought to have made an
|
|
effort and tried to love him. It couldn't be very hard,
|
|
many people would be proud and glad to have such a dear boy
|
|
care for them. But Jo never would act like other girls, so
|
|
there was nothing to do but be very kind and treat him like
|
|
a brother.
|
|
|
|
If all brothers were treated as well as Laurie was at
|
|
this period, they would be a much happier race of beings than
|
|
they are. Amy never lectured now. She asked his opinion on
|
|
all subjects, she was interested in everything he did, made
|
|
charming little presents for him, and sent him two letters
|
|
a week, full of lively gossip, sisterly confidences, and cap-
|
|
tivating sketches of the lovely scenes about her. As few
|
|
brothers are complimented by having their letters carried
|
|
about in their sister's pockets, read and reread diligently,
|
|
cried over when short, kissed when long, and treasured care-
|
|
fully, we will not hint that Amy did any of these fond and
|
|
foolish things. But she certainly did grow a little pale
|
|
and pensive that spring, lost much of her relish for society,
|
|
and went out sketching alone a good deal. She never had much
|
|
to show when she came home, but was studying nature, I dare
|
|
say, while she sat for hours, with her hands folded, on the
|
|
terrace at Valrosa, or absently sketched any fancy that
|
|
occurred to her, a stalwart knight carved on a tomb, a young
|
|
man asleep in the grass, with his hat over his eyes, or a curly-
|
|
haired girl in gorgeous array, promenading down a ballroom on
|
|
the arm of a tall gentleman, both faces being left a blur
|
|
according to the last fashion in art, which was safe but not
|
|
altogether satisfactory.
|
|
|
|
Her aunt thought that she regretted her answer to Fred,
|
|
and finding denials useless and explanations impossible, Amy
|
|
left her to think what she liked, taking care that Laurie
|
|
should know that Fred had gone to Egypt. That was all, but
|
|
he understood it, and looked relieved, as he said to himself,
|
|
with a venerable air . ..
|
|
|
|
"I was sure she would think better of it. Poor old fellow!
|
|
I've been through it all, and I can sympathize."
|
|
|
|
With that he heaved a great sigh, and then, as if he had
|
|
discharged his duty to the past, put his feet up on the sofa
|
|
and enjoyed Amy's letter luxuriously.
|
|
|
|
While these changes were going on abroad, trouble had
|
|
come at home. But the letter telling that Beth was failing
|
|
never reached Amy, and when the next found her at Vevay, for
|
|
the heat had driven them from Nice in May, and they had tra-
|
|
velled slowly to Switzerland, by way of Genoa and the Italian
|
|
lakes. She bore it very well, and quietly submitted to the
|
|
family decree that she should not shorten her visit, for
|
|
since it was too late to say goodbye to Beth, she had better
|
|
stay, and let absence soften her sorrow. But her heart was
|
|
very heavy, she longed to be at home, and every day looked
|
|
wistfully across the lake, waiting for Laurie to come and
|
|
comfort her.
|
|
|
|
He did come very soon, for the same mail brought letters
|
|
to them both, but he was in Germany, and it took some days to
|
|
reach him. The moment he read it, he packed his knapsack,
|
|
bade adieu to his fellow pedestrians, and was off to keep his
|
|
promise, with a heart full of joy and sorrow, hope and sus-
|
|
pense.
|
|
|
|
He knew Vevay well, and as soon as the boat touched the
|
|
little quay, he hurried along the shore to La Tour, where the
|
|
Carrols were living en pension. The garcon was in despair
|
|
that the whole family had gone to take a promenade on the
|
|
lake, but no, the blonde mademoiselle might be in the chateau
|
|
garden. If monsier would give himself the pain of sitting
|
|
down, a flash of time should present her. But monsieur could
|
|
not wait even a `flash of time', and in the middle of the
|
|
speech departed to find mademoiselle himself.
|
|
|
|
A pleasant old garden on the borders of the lovely lake,
|
|
with chestnuts rustling overhead, ivy climbing everywhere, and
|
|
the black shadow of the tower falling far across the sunny
|
|
water. At one corner of the wide, low wall was a seat,and here
|
|
Amy often came to read or work, or console herself with the
|
|
beauty all about her. She was sitting here that day, leaning
|
|
her head on her hand, with a homesick heart and heavy eyes,
|
|
thinking of Beth and wondering why Laurie did not come. She
|
|
did not hear him cross the courtyard beyond, nor see him pause
|
|
in the archway that led from the subterranean path into the
|
|
garden. He stood a minute looking at her with new eyes, seeing
|
|
what no one had ever seen before, the tender side of Amy's char-
|
|
acter. Everything about her mutely suggested love and sorrow,
|
|
the blotted letters in her lap, the black ribbon that tied up
|
|
her hair, the womanly pain and patience in her face, even the
|
|
little ebony cross at her throat seemed pathetic to Laurie,
|
|
for he had given it to her, and she wore it as her only orna-
|
|
ment. If he had any doubts about the reception she would give
|
|
him, they were set at rest the minute she looked up and saw
|
|
him, for dropping everything, she ran to him, exclaiming in a
|
|
tone of unmistakable love and longing . . .
|
|
|
|
"Oh, Laurie, Laurie, I knew you'd come to me!"
|
|
|
|
I think everything was said and settled then, for as they
|
|
stood together quite silent for a moment, with the dark head
|
|
bent down protectingly over the light one, Amy felt that no
|
|
one could comfort and sustain her so well as Laurie, and
|
|
Laurie decided that Amy was the only woman in the world who
|
|
could fill Jo's place and make him happy. He did not tell her
|
|
so, but she was not disappointed, for both felt the truth,
|
|
were satisfied, and gladly left the rest to silence.
|
|
|
|
In a minute Amy went back to her place, and while she
|
|
dried her tears, Laurie gathered up the scattered papers,
|
|
finding in the sight of sundry well-worn letters and suggestive
|
|
sketches good omens for the future. As he sat down beside her,
|
|
amy felt shy again, and turned rosy red at the recollection of
|
|
her impulsive greeting.
|
|
|
|
"I couldn't help it, I felt so lonely and sad, and was so
|
|
very glad to see you. It was such a surprise to look up and find
|
|
you, just as I was beginning to fear you wouldn't come," she said,
|
|
trying in vain to speak quite naturally.
|
|
|
|
"I came the minute I heard. I wish I could say something
|
|
to comfort you for the loss of dear little Beth, but I can only
|
|
feel, and . . ." He could not get any further, for her too
|
|
turned bashful all of a sudden, and did not quite know what to
|
|
say. He longed to lay Amy's head down on his shoulder, and tell
|
|
her to have a good cry, but he did not dare, so took her hand
|
|
instead, and gave it a sympathetic squeeze that was better than
|
|
words.
|
|
|
|
"You needn't say anything, this comforts me," she said
|
|
softly. "Beth is well and happy, and I mustn't wish her back,
|
|
but I dread the going home, much as I long to see them all.
|
|
We won't talk about it now, for it makes me cry, and I want
|
|
to enjoy you while you stay. You needn't go right back, need
|
|
you?"
|
|
|
|
"Not if you want me, dear."
|
|
|
|
"I do, so much. Aunt and Flo are very kind, but you
|
|
seem like one of the family, and it would be so comfortable to
|
|
have you for a little while."
|
|
|
|
Amy spoke and looked so like a homesick child whose heart
|
|
was full that Laurie forgot his bashfulness all at once, and
|
|
gave her just what she wanted--the petting she was used to and
|
|
the cheerful conversation she needed.
|
|
|
|
"Poor little soul, you look as if you'd grieved yourself
|
|
half sick! I'm going to take care of you, so don't cry any
|
|
more, but come and walk about with me, the wind is too chilly
|
|
for you to sit still," he said, in the half-caressing, half-
|
|
commanding way that Amy liked, as he tied on her hat, drew
|
|
her arm through his, and began to pace up and down the
|
|
sunny walk under the new-leaved chestnuts. He felt more at
|
|
ease upon his legs, and Amy found it pleasant to have a strong
|
|
arm to lean upon, a familiar face to smile at her, and a kind
|
|
voice to talk delightfully for her alone.
|
|
|
|
The quaint old garden had sheltered many pairs of lovers,
|
|
and seemed expressly made for them, so sunny and secluded was
|
|
it, with nothing but the tower to overlook them, and the wide
|
|
lake to carry away the echo of their words, as it rippled by
|
|
below. For an hour this new pair walked and talked, or rested
|
|
on the wall, enjoying the sweet influences which gave such a
|
|
charm to time and place, and when an unromantic dinner bell
|
|
warned them away, Amy felt as if she left her burden of lon-
|
|
liness and sorrow behind her in the chateau garden.
|
|
|
|
The moment Mrs. Carrol saw the girl's altered face, she
|
|
was illuminated with a new idea, and exclaimed to herself,
|
|
"Now I understand it all--the child has been pining for young
|
|
Laurence. Bless my heart, I never thought of such a thing!"
|
|
|
|
With praiseworthy discretion, the good lady said nothing,
|
|
and betrayed no sign of enlightenment, but cordially urged
|
|
Laurie to stay and begged Amy to enjoy his society, for it
|
|
would do her more good than so much solitude. Amy was a
|
|
model of docility, and as her aunt was a good deal occupied
|
|
with Flo, she was left to entertain her friend, and did it
|
|
with more than her usual success.
|
|
|
|
At Nice, Laurie had lounged and Amy had scolded. At
|
|
Vevay, Laurie was never idle, but always walking, riding,
|
|
boating, or studying in the most energetic manner, while
|
|
Amy admired everything he did and followed his example as
|
|
far and as fast as she could. He said the change was owing
|
|
to the climate, and she did not contradict him, being glad
|
|
of a like excuse for her own recovered health and spirits.
|
|
|
|
The invigorating air did them both good, and much ex-
|
|
ercise worked wholesome changes in minds as well as bodies.
|
|
They seemed to get clearer views of life and duty up there
|
|
among the everlasting hills. The fresh winds blew away
|
|
desponding doubts, delusive fancies, and moody mists. The
|
|
warm spring sunshine brought out all sorts of aspiring ideas,
|
|
tender hopes, and happy thoughts. The lake seemed to wash
|
|
away the troubles of the past, and the grand old mountains
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|
to look benignly down upon them saying, "Little children,
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love one another."
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In spite of the new sorrow, it was a very happy time, so
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happy that Laurie could not bear to disturb it by a word. It
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took him a little while to recover from his surprise at the
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cure of his first, and as he had firmly believed, his last
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and only love. He consoled himself for the seeming disloyalty
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by the thought that Jo's sister was almost the same as Jo's
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self, and the conviction that it would have been impossible
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to love any other woman but Amy so soon and so well. His first
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wooing had been of the tempestuous order, and he looked back
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upon ;it as if through a long vista of years with a feeling of
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compassion blended with regret. He was not ashamed of it,
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but put it away as one of the bitter-sweet experiences of his
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life, for which he could be grateful when the pain was over.
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His second wooing, he resolved, should be as calm and simple
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as possible. There was no need of having a scene, hardly
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any need of telling Amy that he loved her, she knew it with-
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out words and had given him his answer long ago. It all came
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about so naturally that no one could complain, and he knew that
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everybody would be pleased, even Jo. But when our first little
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passion has been crushed, we are apt to be wary and slow in mak-
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ing a second trial, so Laurie let the days pass, enjoying every
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hour, and leaving to chance the utterance of the word that would
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put an end to the first and sweetest part of his new romance.
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He had rather imagined that the denoument would take place
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in the chateau garden by moonlight, and in the most graceful and
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decorus manner, but it turned out exactly the reverse, for the
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matter was settled on the lake at noonday in a few blunt words.
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They had been floating about all the morning, from gloomy St. Gin-
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golf to sunny Montreux, with the Alps of Savoy on one side, Mont
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St. Bernard and the Dent du Midi on the other, pretty Vevay in
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the valley, and Lausanne upon the hill beyond, a cloudless blue
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sky overhead, and the bluer lake below, dotted with the pictur-
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esque boats that look like white-winged gulls.
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They had been talking of Bonnivard, as they glided past
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Chillon, and of Rousseau, as they looked up at Clarens, where he
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wrote his Heloise. Neither had read it, but they knew it was a
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love story, and each privately wondered if it was half as inte-
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resting as their own. Amy had been dabbling her hand in the water
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during the little pause that fell between them, and when she looked
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up, Laurie was leaning on his oars with an expression in his eyes
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that made her say hastily, merely for the sake of saying something . .
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"You must be tired. Rest a little, and let me row. It will
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do me good, for since you came I have been altogether lazy and
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luxurious."
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"I'm not tired, but you may take an oar, if you like. There's
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room enough, though I have to sit nearly in the middle, else the
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boat won't trim," returned Laurie, as if he rather liked the arrang-
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ment.
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Feeling that she had not mended matters much, Amy took the
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offered third of a seat, shook her hair over her face, and accepted
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an oar. She rowed as well as she did many other things, and though
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she used both hands, and Laurie but one, the oars kept time, and
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the boat went smoothly through the water.
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"How well we pull together, don't we?" said Amy, who objected
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to silence just then.
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"So well that I wish we might always pull in the same boat.
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Will you,Amy?" very tenderly.
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"Yes, Laurie," very low.
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Then they both stopped rowing, and unconsciously added a
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pretty little tableau of human love and happiness to the dissolving
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views reflected in the lake.
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CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
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It was easy to promise self-abnegation when self was
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wrapped up in another, and heart and soul were purified by a
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sweet example. But when the helpful voice was silent, the
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daily lesson over, the beloved presence gone, and nothing re-
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|
mained but lonliness and grief, then Jo found her promise very
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|
hard to keep. How could she `comfort Father and Mother' when
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her own heart ached with a ceaseless longing for her sister,
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how could she `make the house cheerful' when all its light and
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warmth and beauty seemed to have deserted it when Beth left the
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old home for the new, and where in all the world could she `find
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|
some useful, happy work to do', that would take the place of the
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loving service which had been its own reward? She tried in a
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|
blind, hopeless way to do her duty, secretly rebelling against
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|
it all the while, for it seemed unjust that her few joys should
|
|
be lessened, her burdens made heavier, and life get harder and
|
|
harder as she toiled along. Some people seemed to get all sun-
|
|
shine, and some all shadow. It was not fair, for she tried more
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|
than Amy to be good, but never got any reward, only disappoint-
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|
ment, trouble and hard work.
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Poor Jo, these were dark days to her, for something like
|
|
despair came over her when she thought of spending all her life
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|
in that quiet house, devoted to humdrum cares, a few small plea-
|
|
sures, and the duty that never seemed to grow any easier. "I
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|
can't do it. I wasn't meant for a life like this, and I know I
|
|
shall break away and do something desperate if somebody doesn't
|
|
come and help me," she said to herself, when her first efforts
|
|
failed and she fell into the moody, miserable state of mind which
|
|
often comes when strong wills have to yield to the inevitable.
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But someone did come and help her, though Jo did not recognize
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|
her good angels at once because they wore familiar shapes and used
|
|
the simple spells best fitted to poor humanity. Often she started
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|
up at night, thinking Beth called her, and when the sight of the
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little empty bed made her cry with the bitter cry of unsubmissive
|
|
sorrow, "Oh, Beth, come back! Come back!" she did not stretch out
|
|
her yearning arms in vain. For, as quick to hear her sobbing as
|
|
she had been to hear her sister's faintest whisper, her mother came
|
|
to comfort her, not with words only, but the patient tenderness
|
|
that soothes by a touch, tears that were mute reminders of a greater
|
|
grief than Jo's, and broken whispers, more eloquent than prayers,
|
|
because hopeful resignation went hand-in-hand with natural sorrow.
|
|
Sacred moments, when heart talked to heart in the silence of the
|
|
night, turning affliction to a blessing, which chastened grief and
|
|
strengthned love. Feeling this, Jo's burden seemed easier to bear,
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|
duty grew sweeter, and life looked more endurable, seen from the
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safe shelter of her mother's arms.
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|
When aching heart was a little comforted, troubled mind like-
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|
wise found help, for one day she went to the study, and leaning
|
|
over the good gray head lifted to welcome her with a tranquil smile,
|
|
she said very humbly, "Father, talk to me as you did to Beth. I
|
|
need it more than she did, for I'm all wrong."
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|
"My dear, nothing can comfort me like this," he answered, with
|
|
a falter in his voice, and both arms round her, as if he too, needed
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|
help, and did not fear to ask for it.
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|
Then, sitting in Beth's little chair close beside him, Jo told
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|
her troubles, the resentful sorrow for her loss, the fruitless
|
|
efforts that discouraged her, the want of faith that made life look
|
|
so dark, and all the sad bewilderment which we call despair. She
|
|
gave him entire confidence, he gave her the help she needed, and
|
|
both found consolation in the act. For the time had come when they
|
|
could talk together not only as father and daughter, but as man and
|
|
woman, able and glad to serve each other with mutual sympathy as well
|
|
as mutual love. Happy, thoughtful times there in the old study which
|
|
Jo called `the church of one member', and from which she came with
|
|
fresh courage, recovered cheerfulness, and a more submissive spirit.
|
|
For the parents who had taught one child to meet death without fear,
|
|
were trying now to teach another to accept life without despondency
|
|
or distrust, and to use its beautiful opportunities with gratitude
|
|
and power.
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|
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|
Other helps had Jo--humble, wholesome duties and delights that
|
|
would not be denied their part in serving her, and which she slowly
|
|
learned to see and value. Brooms and dishcloths never could
|
|
be as distasteful as they once had been, for Beth had presided
|
|
over both, and something of her housewifely spirit seemed to
|
|
linger around the little mop and the old brush, never thrown
|
|
away. As she used them, Jo found herself humming the songs
|
|
Beth used to hum, imitating Beth's orderly ways, and giving the
|
|
little touches here and there that kept everything fresh and
|
|
cozy, which was the first step toward making home happy, though
|
|
she didn't know it till Hannah said with an approving squeeze
|
|
of the hand . . .
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|
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|
"You thoughtful creeter, you're determined we shan't miss
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|
that dear lamb ef you can help it. We don't say much, but we
|
|
see it, and the Lord will bless you for't, see ef He don't."
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|
|
|
As they sat sewing together, Jo discovered how much improved
|
|
her sister Meg was, how well she could talk, how much she knew
|
|
about good, womanly impulses, thoughts, and feelings, how happy
|
|
she was in husband and children, and how much they were all doing
|
|
for each other.
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|
|
|
"Marriage is an excellent thing, after all. I wonder if I
|
|
should blossom out half as well as you have, if I tried it?" said
|
|
Jo, as she constructed a kite for Demi in the topsy-turvy nursery.
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|
|
|
"It's just what you need to bring out the tender womanly half
|
|
of your nature, Jo. You are like a chestnut burr, prickly outside,
|
|
but silky-soft within, and a sweet kernal, if one can only get at
|
|
it. Love will make you show your heart one day, and then the rough
|
|
burr will fall off."
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|
|
|
"Frost opens chestnut burrs, ma`am, and it takes a good shake
|
|
to bring them down. Boys go nutting, and I don't care to be bagged
|
|
by them," returned Jo, pasting away at the kite which no wind that
|
|
blows would ever carry up, for Daisy had tied herself on as a bob.
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|
|
|
Meg laughed, for she was glad to see a glimmer of Jo's old
|
|
spirit, but she felt it her duty to enforce her opinion by every
|
|
argument in her power, and the sisterly chats were not wasted, es-
|
|
pecially as two of Meg's most effective arguments were the babies,
|
|
whom Jo loved tenderly. Grief is the best opener of some hearts,
|
|
and Jo's was nearly ready for the bag. A little more sunshine to
|
|
ripen the nut, then, not a boy's impatient shake, but a man's hand
|
|
reached up to pick it gently from the burr, and find the kernal
|
|
sound and sweet. If she suspected this, she would have shut up
|
|
tight, and been more prickly than ever, fortunately she wasn't
|
|
thinking about herself, so when the time came, down she dropped.
|
|
|
|
Now, if she had been the heroine of a moral storybook, she
|
|
ought at this period of her life to have become quite saintly,
|
|
renounced the world, and gone about doing good in a mortified
|
|
bonnet, with tracts in her pocket. But, you see, Jo wasn't a
|
|
heroine, she was only a struggling human girl like hundreds of
|
|
others, and she just acted out her nature, being sad, cross, list-
|
|
less, or energetic, as the mood suggested. It's highly virtuous
|
|
to say we'll be good, but we can't do it all at once, and it takes
|
|
a long pull, a strong pull, and a pull all together before some
|
|
of us even get our feet set in the right way. Jo had got so far,
|
|
she was learning to do her duty, and to feel unhappy if she did
|
|
not, but to do it cheerfully, ah, that was another thing! She
|
|
had often said she wanted to do something splendid, no matter how
|
|
hard, and now she had her wish, for what could be more beautiful
|
|
than to devote her life to Father and Mother, trying to make home
|
|
as happy to them as they had to her? And if difficulties were
|
|
necessary to increase the splendor of the effort, what could be
|
|
harder for a restless, ambitious girl than to give up her own
|
|
hopes, plans, and desires, and cheerfully live for others?
|
|
|
|
Providence had taken her at her word. Here was the task, not
|
|
what she had expected, but better because self had no part in it.
|
|
Now, could she do it? She decided that she would try, and in her
|
|
first attempt she found the helps I have suggested. Still another
|
|
was given her, and she took it, not as a reward, but as a comfort,
|
|
as Christian took the refreshment afforded by the little arbor
|
|
where he rested, as he climbed the hill called Difficulty.
|
|
|
|
"Why don't you write? That always used to make you happy,"
|
|
said her mother once, when the desponding fit over-shadowed Jo.
|
|
|
|
"I've no heart to write, and if I had, nobody cares for my
|
|
things."
|
|
|
|
"We do. Write something for us, and never mind the rest of
|
|
the world. Try it, dear. I'm sure it would do you good, and
|
|
please us very much."
|
|
|
|
"Don't believe I can." But Jo got out her desk and began to
|
|
overhaul her half-finished manuscripts.
|
|
|
|
An hour afterward her mother peeped in and there she was,
|
|
scratching away, with her black pinafore on, and an absorbed ex-
|
|
pression, which caused Mrs. March to smile and slip away, well
|
|
pleased with the success of her suggestion. Jo never knew how it
|
|
happened, but something got into that story that went straight to
|
|
the hearts of those who read it, for when her family had laughed
|
|
and cried over it, her father sent it, much against her will, to
|
|
one of the popular magazines, and to her utter surprise, it was
|
|
not only paid for, but others requested. Letters from several
|
|
persons, whose praise was honor, followed the appearance of the
|
|
little story, newspapers copied it, and strangers as well as friends,
|
|
admired it. For a small thing it was a great success, and Jo was
|
|
more astonished than when her novel was commended and condemned
|
|
all at once.
|
|
|
|
"I don't understand it. What can there be in a simple little
|
|
story like that to make people praise it so?" she said, quite be-
|
|
wildered.
|
|
|
|
"There is truth in it, Jo, that's the secret. Humor and pathos
|
|
make it alive, and you have found your style at last. You wrote
|
|
with not thoughts of fame and money, and put your heart into it,
|
|
my daughter. You have had the bitter, now comes the sweet. Do
|
|
your best, and grow as happy as we are in your success."
|
|
|
|
"If there is anything good or true in what I write, it isn't
|
|
mine. I owe it all to you and Mother and Beth," said Jo, more
|
|
touched by her father's words than by any amount of praise from
|
|
the world.
|
|
|
|
So taught by love and sorrow, Jo wrote her little stories,
|
|
and sent them away to make friends for themselves and her, finding
|
|
it a very charitable world to such humble wanderers, for they were
|
|
kindly welcomed, and sent home comfortable tokens to their mother,
|
|
like dutiful children whom good fortune overtakes.
|
|
|
|
When Amy and Laurie wrote of their engagement, Mrs. March
|
|
feared that Jo would find it difficult to rejoice over it, but
|
|
her fears were soon set at rest, for thought Jo looked grave at
|
|
first, she took it very quietly, and was full of hopes and plans
|
|
for `the children' before she read the letter twice. It was a
|
|
sort of written duet, wherein each glorified the other in lover-
|
|
like fashion, very pleasant to read and satisfactory to think of,
|
|
for no one had any objection to make.
|
|
|
|
"You like it, Mother?" said Jo, as they laid down the closely
|
|
written sheets and looked at one another.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I hoped it would be so, ever since Amy wrote that she
|
|
had refused Fred. I felt sure then that something better than
|
|
what you call the `mercenary spirit' had come over her, and a
|
|
hint here and there in her letters made me suspect that love
|
|
and Laurie would win the day."
|
|
|
|
"How sharp you are, Marmee, and how silent! You never said
|
|
a worked to me."
|
|
|
|
"Mothers have need of sharp eyes and discreet tongues when
|
|
they have girls to manage. I was half afraid to put the idea
|
|
into your head, lest you should write and congratulate them be-
|
|
fore the thing was settled."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not the scatterbrain I was. You may trust me. I'm
|
|
sober and sensible enough for anyone's confidante now."
|
|
|
|
"So you are, my dear, and I should have made you mine,
|
|
only I fancied it might pain you to learn that your Teddy loved
|
|
someone else."
|
|
|
|
"Now, Mother, did you really think I could be so silly and
|
|
selfish, after I'd refused his love, when it was freshest, if not
|
|
best?"
|
|
|
|
"I knew you were sincere then, Jo, but lately I have thought
|
|
that if he came back, and asked again, you might perhaps, feel like
|
|
giving another answer. Forgive me, dear, I can't help seeing that
|
|
you are very lonely, and sometimes there is a hungry look in your
|
|
eyes that goes to my heart. So I fancied that your boy might fill
|
|
the empty place if he tried now."
|
|
|
|
"No, Mother, it is better as it ia, and I'm glad Amy has learned
|
|
to love him. But you are right in one thing. I am lonely, and per-
|
|
haps if Teddy had tried again, I might have said `Yes', not because
|
|
I love him any more, but because I care more to be loved than when
|
|
he went away."
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad of that, Jo, for it shows that you are getting on.
|
|
There are plenty to love you, so try to be satisfied with Father
|
|
and Mother, sisters and brothers, friends and babies, till the
|
|
best lover of all comes to give you your reward."
|
|
|
|
"Mothers are the best lovers in the world, but I don't mind
|
|
whispering to Marmee that I'd like to try all kinds. It's very
|
|
curious, but the more I try to satisfy myself with all sorts of
|
|
natural affections, the more I seem to want. I'd no idea hearts
|
|
could take in so many. Mine is so elastic, it never seems full
|
|
now, and I used to be quite contented with my family. I don't
|
|
understand it."
|
|
|
|
"I do." And Mrs. March smiled her wise smile, as Jo turned
|
|
back the leaves to read what Amy said of Laurie.
|
|
|
|
"It is so beautiful to be loved as Laurie loves me. He isn't
|
|
sentimental, doesn't say much about it, but I see and feel it in
|
|
all he says and does, and it makes me so happy and so humble that
|
|
I don't seem to be the same girl I was. I never knew how good and
|
|
generous and tender he was till now, for he lets me read his heart,
|
|
and I find it full of noble impulses and hopes and purposes, and
|
|
am so proud to know it's mine. He says he feels as if he `could
|
|
make a prosperous voyage now with me aboard as mate, and lots of
|
|
love for ballast'. I pray he may, and try to be all he believes
|
|
me, for I love my gallant captain with all my heart and soul and
|
|
might, and never will desert him, while God lets us be together.
|
|
Oh, Mother, I never knew how much like heaven this world could be,
|
|
when two people love and live for one another!"
|
|
|
|
"And that's our cool, reserved, and worldly Amy! Truly, love
|
|
does work miracles. How very, very happy they must be!" And Jo
|
|
laid the rustling sheets together with a careful hand, as one
|
|
might shut the covers of a lovely romance, which holds the reader
|
|
fast till the end comes, and he finds himself alone in the work-
|
|
aday world again.
|
|
|
|
By-and-by Jo roamed away upstairs, for it was rainy, and she
|
|
could not walk. A restless spirit possessed her, and the old
|
|
feeling came again, not bitter as it once was, but a sorrowfully
|
|
patient wonder why one sister should have all she asked, the other
|
|
nothing. It was not true, she knew that and tried to put it away,
|
|
but the natural craving for affection was strong, and Amy's hap-
|
|
piness woke the hungry longing for someone to `love with heart
|
|
and soul, and cling to while God let them be together'.
|
|
|
|
Up in the garret, where Jo's unquiet wanderings ended stood
|
|
four little wooden chests in a row, each marked with its owners
|
|
name, and each filled with relics of the childhood and girlhood
|
|
ended now for all. Jo glanced into them, and when she came to
|
|
her own, leaned her chin on the edge, and stared absently at the
|
|
chaotic collection, till a bundle of old exercise books caught
|
|
her eye. She drew them out, turned them over, and relived that
|
|
pleasant winter at kind Mrs. Kirke's. She had smiled at first,
|
|
then she looked thoughtful, next sad, and when she came to a
|
|
little message written in the Professor's hand, her lips began
|
|
to tremble, the books slid out of her lap, and she sat looking
|
|
at the friendly words, as they took a new meaning, and touched
|
|
a tender spot in her heart.
|
|
|
|
"Wait for me, my friend. I may be a little late, but I shall
|
|
surely come."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, if he only would! So kine, so good, so patient with me
|
|
always, my dear old Fritz. I didn't value him half enough when I
|
|
had him, but now how I should love to see him, for everyone seems
|
|
going away from me, and I'm all alone."
|
|
|
|
And holding the little paper fast, as if it were a promise
|
|
yet to be fulfilled, Jo laid her head down on a comfortable rag
|
|
bag, and cried, as if in opposition to the rain pattering on the
|
|
roof.
|
|
|
|
Was it all self-pity, loneliness, or low spirits? Or was it
|
|
the waking up of a sentiment which had bided its time as patiently
|
|
as its inspirer? Who shall say?
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
|
|
|
|
Jo was alone in the twilight, lying on the old sofa, looking
|
|
at the fire, and thinking. It was her favorite way of spending
|
|
the hour of dusk. No one disturbed her, and she used to lie
|
|
there on Beth's little red pillow, planning stories, dreaming
|
|
dreams, or thinking tender thoughts of the sister who never seemed
|
|
far away. Her face looked tired, grave, and rather sad, for to-
|
|
morrow was her birthday, and she was thinking how fast the years
|
|
went by, how old she was getting, and how little she seemed to
|
|
have accomplished. Almost twenty-five, and nothing to show for
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it. Jo was mistaken in that. There was a good deal to show,
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and by-and-by she saw, and was grateful for it.
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"An old maid, that's what I'm to be. A literary spinster,
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with a pen for a spouse, a family of stories for children, and
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twenty years hence a morsel of fame, perhaps, when, like poor
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Johnson, I'm old and can't enjoy it, solitary, and can't share
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it, independent, and don't need it. Well, I needn't be a sour
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saint nor a selfish sinner, and, I dare say, old maids are very
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comfortable when they get used to it, but . . ." And there Jo
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sighed, as if the prospect was not inviting.
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It seldom is, at first, and thirty seems the end of all things
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to five-and-twenty. But it's not as bad as it looks, and one can
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get on quite happily if one has something in one's self to fall
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back upon. At twenty-five, girls begin to talk about being old
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maids, but secretly resolve that they never will be. At thirty
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they say nothing about it, but quietly accept the fact, and if
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sensible, console themselves by remembering that they have twenty
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|
more useful, happy years, in which they may be learning to grow
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old gracefully. Don't laugh at the spinsters, dear girls, for
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often very tender, tragic romances are hidden away in the hearts
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|
that beat so quietly under the sober gowns, and many silent sac-
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|
rifices of youth, health, ambition, love itself, make the faded
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faces beautiful in God's sight. Even the sad, sour sisters
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|
should be kindly dealt with, because they have missed the sweet-
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|
est part of life, if for no other reason. And looking at them
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|
with compassion, not contempt, girls in their bloom should re-
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|
member that they too may miss the blossom time. That rosy cheeks
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don't last forever, that silver threads will come in the bonnie
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|
brown hair, and that, by-and-by, kindness and respect will be as
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sweet as love and admiration now.
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Gentlemen, which means boys, be courteous to the old maids,
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no matter how poor and plain and prim, for the only chivalry
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worth having is that which is the readiest to pay deference to
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the old, protect the feeble, and serve womankind, regardless of
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rank, age, or color. Just recollect the good aunts who have not
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only lectured and fussed, but nursed and petted, too often with-
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out thanks, the scrapes they have helped you out of, the tips
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they have given you from their small store, the stitches the
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patient old fingers have set for you, the steps the willing old
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feet have taken, and gratefully pay the dear old ladies the little
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|
attentions that women love to receive as long as they live. The
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bright-eyed girls are quick to see such traits, and will like you
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|
all the better for them, and if death, almost the only power that
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can part mother and son, should rob you of yours, you will be sure
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to find a tender welcome and maternal cherishing from some Aunt
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Priscilla, who has kept the warmest corner of her lonely old heart
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|
for `the best nevvy in the world'.
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Jo must have fallen asleep (as I dare say my reader has dur-
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|
ing this little homily), for suddenly Laurie's ghost seemed to
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stand before her, a substantial, lifelike ghost, leaning over her
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with the very look he used to wear when he felt a good deal and
|
|
didn't like to show it. But, like Jenny in the ballad . . .
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She could not think it he,
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and lay staring up at him in startled silence, till he stooped
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and kissed her. Then she knew him, and flew up, crying joyfully . ..
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"Oh my Teddy! Oh my Teddy!"
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|
"Dear Jo, you are glad to see me, then?"
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"Glad! My blessed boy, words can't express my gladness.
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|
Where's Amy?"
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"Your mother has got her down at Meg's. We stopped there by
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the way, and there was no getting my wife out of their clutches."
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"Your what?" cried Jo, for Laurie uttered those two words
|
|
with an unconscious pride and satisfaction which betrayed him.
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|
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|
"Oh, the dickens! Now I've done it." And he looked so
|
|
guilty that Jo was down on him like a flash.
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"You've gone and got married!"
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"Yes, please, but I never will again." And he went down
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|
upon his knees, with a penitent clasping of hands, and a face
|
|
full of mischief, mirth, and triumph.
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|
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|
"Actually married?"
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|
"Very much so, thank you."
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|
|
"Mercy on us. What dreadful thing will you do next?" And
|
|
Jo fell into her seat with a gasp.
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|
|
|
"A characteristic, but not exactly complimentary, congrat-
|
|
ulation," returned Laurie, still in an abject attitude, but beam-
|
|
ing with satisfaction.
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|
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|
"What can you expect, when you take one's breath away, creep-
|
|
ing in like a burglar, and letting cats out of bags like that? Get
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|
up, you ridiculous boy, and tell me all about it."
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|
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|
"Not a word, unless you let me come in my old place, and
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|
promise not to barricade."
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|
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Jo laughed at that as she had not done for many a long day,
|
|
and patted the sofa invitingly, as she said in a cordial tone,
|
|
"The old pillow is up garret, and we don't need it now. So, come
|
|
and fess, Teddy."
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|
|
|
"How good it sounds to hear you say `Teddy'! No one ever calls
|
|
me that but you." And Laurie sat down with an air of great content.
|
|
|
|
"What does Amy call you?"
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|
"My lord."
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|
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|
"That's like her. Well, you look it." And Jo's eye plainly
|
|
betrayed that she found her boy comelier than ever.
|
|
|
|
The pillow was gone, but there was a barricade, nevertheless,
|
|
a natural one, raised by time absence, and change of heart. Both
|
|
felt it, and for a minute looked at one another as if that invis-
|
|
ible barrier cast a little shadow over them. It was gone directly
|
|
however, for Laurie said, with a vain attempt at dignity . . .
|
|
|
|
"Don't I look like a married man and the head of a family?"
|
|
|
|
"Not a bit, and you never will. You've grown bigger and
|
|
bonnier, but you are the same scapegrace as ever."
|
|
|
|
"Now really, Jo, you ought to treat me with more respect,"
|
|
began Laurie, who enjoyed it all immensely.
|
|
|
|
"How can I, when the mere idea of you, married and settled,
|
|
is so irresistibly funny that I can't keep sober!" answered Jo,
|
|
smiling all over her face, so infectiously that they had another
|
|
laugh, and then settled down for a good talk, quite in the plea-
|
|
sant old fashion.
|
|
|
|
"It's no use your going out in the cold to get Amy, for
|
|
they are all coming up presently. I couldn't wait. I wanted to
|
|
be the one to tell you the grand surprise, and have `first skim'
|
|
as we used to say when we squabbled about the cream."
|
|
|
|
"Of course you did, and spoiled your story by beginning at
|
|
the wrong end. Now, start right, and tell me how it all happened.
|
|
I'm pining to know."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I did it to please Amy," began Laurie,with a twinkle
|
|
that made Jo exclaim . . .
|
|
|
|
"Fib number one. Amy did it to please you. Go on, and tell
|
|
the truth, if you can, sir."
|
|
|
|
"Now she's beginning to marm it. Isn't it jolly to hear her?"
|
|
said Laurie to the fire, and the fire glowed and sparkled as if it
|
|
quite agreed. "It's all the same, you know, she and I being one.
|
|
We planned to come home with the Carrols, a month or more ago, but
|
|
they suddenly changed their minds, and decided to pass another
|
|
winter in Paris. But Grandpa wanted to come home. He went to please
|
|
me, and I couldn't let him go along, neither could I leave Amy, and
|
|
Mrs. Carrol had got English notions about chaperons and such non-
|
|
sense, and wouldn't let Amy come with us. So I just settled the
|
|
difficulty by saying, `Let's be married, and then we can do as we
|
|
like'."
|
|
|
|
"Of course you did. You always have things to suit you."
|
|
|
|
"Not always." And something in Laurie's voice made Jo say
|
|
hastily . . .
|
|
|
|
"How did you ever get Aunt to agree?"
|
|
|
|
"It was hard work, but between us, we talked her over, for we
|
|
had heaps of good reasons on our side. There wasn't time to write
|
|
and ask leave, but you all liked it, had consented to it by-and-by,
|
|
and it was only `taking time by the fetlock', as my wife says."
|
|
|
|
"Aren't we proud of those two word, and don't we like to say
|
|
them?" interrupted Jo, addressing the fire in her turn, and watch-
|
|
ing with delight the happy light it seemed to kindle in the eyes
|
|
that had been so tragically gloomy when she saw them last.
|
|
|
|
"A trifle, perhaps, she's such a captivating little woman I
|
|
can't help being proud of her. Well, then Uncle and Aunt were
|
|
there to play propriety. We were so absorbed in one another we
|
|
were of no mortal use apart, and that charming arrangement would
|
|
make everything easy all round, so we did it."
|
|
|
|
"When, where, how?" asked Jo, in a fever of feminine interest
|
|
and curiosity, for she could not realize it a particle.
|
|
|
|
"Six weeks ago, at the American consul's, in Paris, a very
|
|
quiet wedding of course, for even in our happiness we didn't for-
|
|
get dear little Beth."
|
|
|
|
Jo put her hand in his as he said that, and Laurie gently
|
|
smoothed the little red pillow, which he remembered well.
|
|
|
|
"Why didn't you let us know afterward?" asked Jo, in a
|
|
quieter tone, when they had sat quite still a minute.
|
|
|
|
"We wanted to surprise you. We thought we were coming
|
|
directly home, at first, but the dear old gentleman, as soon as
|
|
we were married, found he couldn't be ready under a month, at
|
|
least, and sent us off to spend our honeymoon wherever we liked.
|
|
Amy had once called Valrosa a regular honeymoon home, so we went
|
|
there, and were as happy as people are but once in their lives.
|
|
My faith! Wasn't it love among the roses!"
|
|
|
|
Laurie seemed to forget Jo for a minute, and Jo was glad of
|
|
it, for the fact that he told her these things so freely and so
|
|
naturally assured her that he had quite forgiven and forgotten.
|
|
She tried to draw away her hand, but as if he guessed the thought
|
|
that prompted the half-involuntary impulse, Laurie held it fast,
|
|
and said, with a manly gravity she had never seen in him before . . .
|
|
|
|
"Jo, dear, I want to say one thing, and then we'll put it by
|
|
forever. As I told you in my letter when I wrote that Amy had
|
|
been so kind to me, I never shall stop loving you, but the love
|
|
is altered, and I have learned to see that it is better as it is.
|
|
Amy and you changed places in my heart, that's all. I think it
|
|
was meant to be so, and would have come about naturally, if I had
|
|
waited, as you tried to make me, but I never could be patient, and
|
|
so I got a heartache. I was a boy then, headstrong and violent,
|
|
and it took a hard lesson to show me my mistake. For it was one,
|
|
Jo, as you said, and I found it out, after making a fool of myself.
|
|
Upon my word, I was so tumbled up in my mind, at one time, that I
|
|
didn't know which I loved best, you or Amy, and tried to love you
|
|
both alike. But I couldn't, and when I saw her in Switzerland,
|
|
everything seemed to clear up all at once. You both got into
|
|
your right places, and I felt sure that it was well off with the
|
|
old love before it was on with the new, that I could honestly
|
|
share my heart between sister Jo and wife Amy, and love them dearly.
|
|
Will you believe it, and go back to the happy old times when we
|
|
first knew one another?"
|
|
|
|
"I'll believe it, with all my heart, but, Teddy, we never can
|
|
be boy and girl again. The happy old times can't come back, and we
|
|
mustn't expect it. We are man and woman now, with sober work to do,
|
|
for playtime is over, and we must give up frolicking. I'm sure you
|
|
feel this. I see the change in you, and you'll find it in me. I
|
|
shall miss my boy, but I shall love the man as much, and admire
|
|
him more, because he means to be what I hoped he would. We can't
|
|
be little playmates any longer, but we will be brother and sister,
|
|
to love and help one another all our lives, won't we, Laurie?"
|
|
|
|
He did not say a word, but took the hand she offered him, and
|
|
laid his face down on it for a minute, feeling that out of the
|
|
grave of a boyish passion, there had risen a beautiful, strong
|
|
friendship to bless them both. Presently Jo said cheerfully, for
|
|
she didn't the coming home to be a sad one, "I can't make it true
|
|
that you children are really married and going to set up house-
|
|
keeping. Why, it seems only yesterday that I was buttoning Amy's
|
|
pinafore, and pulling your hair when you teased. Mercy me, how
|
|
time does fly!"
|
|
|
|
"As one of the children is older than yourself, you needn't
|
|
talk so like a grandma. I flatter myself I'm a `gentleman growed'
|
|
as Peggotty said of David, and when you see Amy, you'll find her
|
|
rather a precocious infant," said Laurie, looking amused at her
|
|
maternal air.
|
|
|
|
"You may be a little older in years, but I'm ever so much
|
|
older in feeling, Teddy. Women always are, and this last year has
|
|
been such a hard one that I feel forty."
|
|
|
|
"Poor Jo! We left you to bear it alone, while we went plea-
|
|
suring. You are older. Here's a line, and there's another. Unless
|
|
you smile, your eyes look sad, and when I touched the cushion, just
|
|
now, I found a tear on it. You've had a great deal to bear, and
|
|
had to bear it all alone. What a selfish beast I've been!" And
|
|
Laurie pulled his own hair, with a remorseful look.
|
|
|
|
But Jo only turned over the traitorous pillow, and answered,
|
|
in a tone which she tried to make more cheerful, "No, I had Father
|
|
and Mother to help me, and the dear babies to comfort me, and the
|
|
thought that you and Amy were safe and happy, to make the troubles
|
|
here easier to bear. I am lonely, sometimes, but I dare say it's
|
|
good for me, and . . ."
|
|
|
|
"You never shall be again," broke in Laurie, putting his arm
|
|
about her, as if to fence out every human ill. "Amy and I can't
|
|
get on without you, so you must come and teach `the children' to
|
|
keep house, and go halves in everything, just as we used to do,
|
|
and let us pet you, and all be blissfully happy and friendly
|
|
together."
|
|
|
|
"If I shouldn't be in the way, it would be very pleasant. I
|
|
begin to feel quite young already, for somehow all my troubles
|
|
seemed to fly away when you came. You always were a comfort, Teddy."
|
|
And Jo leaned her head on his shoulder, just as she did years ago,
|
|
when Beth lay ill and Laurie told her to hold on to him.
|
|
|
|
He looked down at her, wondering if she remembered the time,
|
|
but Jo was smiling to herself, as if in truth her troubles had
|
|
all vanished at his coming.
|
|
|
|
"You are the same Jo still, dropping tears about one minute,
|
|
and laughing the next. You look a little wicked now. What is it,
|
|
Grandma?"
|
|
|
|
"I was wondering how you and Amy get on together."
|
|
|
|
"Like angels!"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, of course, but which rules?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't mind telling you that she does now, at least I let
|
|
her think so, it pleases her, you know. By-and-by we shall take
|
|
turns, for marriage, they say, halves one's rights and doubles
|
|
one's duties."
|
|
|
|
"You'll go on as you begin, and Amy will rule you all the
|
|
days of your life."
|
|
|
|
"Well, she does it so imperceptibly that I don't think I shall
|
|
mind much. She is the sort of woman who knows how to rule well. In
|
|
fact, I rather like it, for she winds one round her finger as softly
|
|
and prettily as a skein of silk, and makes you feel as if she was
|
|
doing you a favor all the while."
|
|
|
|
"That ever I should live to see you a henpecked husband and
|
|
enjoying it!" cried JO, with uplifted hands.
|
|
|
|
It was good to see Laurie square his shoulders, and smile with
|
|
masculine scorn at that insinuation, as he replied, with his "high
|
|
and mighty" air, "Amy is too well-bred for that, and I am not the
|
|
sort of man to submit to it. My wife and I respect ourselves and
|
|
one another too much ever to tyrannize or quarrel."
|
|
|
|
Jo like that, and thought the new dignity very becoming, but
|
|
the boy seemed changing very fast into the man, and regret mingled
|
|
with her pleasure.
|
|
|
|
"I am sure of that. Amy and you never did quarrel as we used
|
|
to. She is the sun and I the wind, in the fable, and the sun man-
|
|
aged the man best, you remember."
|
|
|
|
"She can blow him up as well as shine on him," laughed Laurie.
|
|
"such a lecture as I got at Nice! I give you my word it was a deal
|
|
worse than any or your scoldings, a regular rouser. I'll tell you
|
|
all about it sometime, she never will, because after telling me that
|
|
she despised and was ashamed of me, she lost her heart to the de-
|
|
spicable party and married the good-for-nothing."
|
|
|
|
"What baseness! Well, if she abuses you, come to me, and I'll
|
|
defend you."
|
|
|
|
"I look as if I needed it, don't I?" said Laurie, getting up
|
|
and striking an attitude which suddenly changed from the imposing
|
|
to the rapturous, as Amy's voice was heard calling, "Where is she?
|
|
Where's my dear old Jo?"
|
|
|
|
In trooped the whole family, and everyone was hugged and kissed
|
|
all over again, and after several vain attempts, the three wanderers
|
|
were set down to be looked at and exulted over. Mr. Laurence, hale
|
|
and hearty as ever, was quite as much improved as the others by his
|
|
foreign tour, for the crustiness seemed to be nearly gone, and the
|
|
old-fashioned courtliness had received a polish which made it kind-
|
|
lier than ever. It was good to see him beam at `my children', as
|
|
he called the young pair. It was better still to see Amy pay him
|
|
the daughterly duty and affection which completely won his old heart,
|
|
and best of all, to watch Laurie revolve about the two, as if never
|
|
tired of enjoying the pretty picture they made.
|
|
|
|
The minute she put her eyes upon Amy, Meg became conscious that
|
|
her own dress hadn't a Parisian air, that young Mrs. Mofffat would be
|
|
entirely eclipsed by young Mrs. Laurence, and that `her ladyship' was
|
|
altogether a most elegant and graceful woman. Jo thought, as she
|
|
watched the pair, "How well they look together! I was right, and
|
|
Laurie has found the beautiful, accomplished girl who will become
|
|
his home better than clumsy old Jo, and be a pride, not a torment to
|
|
him." Mrs. March and her husband smiled and nodded at each other
|
|
with happy faces, for they saw that their youngest had done well,
|
|
not only in worldly things,but the better wealth of love, confid-
|
|
ence, and happiness.
|
|
|
|
For Amy's face was full of the soft brightness which betokens
|
|
a peaceful heart, her voice had a new tenderness in it, and the cool,
|
|
prim carriage was changed to a gentle dignity, both womanly and win-
|
|
ning. No little affectations marred it, and the cordial sweetness
|
|
of her manner was more charming than the new beauty or the old grace,
|
|
for it stamped her at once with the unmistakable sign of the true
|
|
gentlewoman she had hoped to become.
|
|
|
|
"Love has done much for our little girl," said her mother softly.
|
|
|
|
"She has had a good example before her all her life, my dear,"
|
|
Mr. March whispered back, with a loving look at the worn face and gray
|
|
head beside him.
|
|
|
|
Daisy found it impossible to keep her eyes off her `pitty aunty',
|
|
but attached herself like a lap dog to the wonderful chatelaine full
|
|
of delightful charms. Demi paused to consider the new relationship
|
|
before he compromised himself by the rash acceptance of a bribe, which
|
|
took the tempting form of a family of wooden bears from Berne. A flank
|
|
movement produced an unconditional surrender, however, for Laurie knew
|
|
where to have him.
|
|
|
|
"Young man, when I first had the honor of making your acquain-
|
|
tance you hit me in the face. Now I demand the satisfaction of a
|
|
gentleman," and with that the tall uncle proceeded to toss and tousle
|
|
the small nephew in a way that damaged his philosophical dignity as
|
|
much as it delighted his boyish soul.
|
|
|
|
"Blest if she ain't in silk from head to foot? Ain't it a re-
|
|
lishin' sight to see her settin' there as fine as a fiddle, anch a happy
|
|
procession as filed away into the little dining room! Mr. March
|
|
proudly escorted Mrs. Laurence. Mrs. March as proudly leaned on
|
|
the arm of `my son'. The old gentleman took Jo, with a whispered,
|
|
"You must be my girl now," and a glance at the empty corner by the
|
|
fire, that made Jo whisper back, "I'll try to fill her place, sir.
|
|
|
|
The twins pranced behind, feeling that the millennium was at
|
|
hand, for everyone was so busy with the newcomers that they were
|
|
left to revel at their own sweet will, and you may be sure they
|
|
made the most of the opportunity. Didn't they steal sips of tea,
|
|
stuff gingerbread ad libitum, get a hot biscuit apiece, and as a
|
|
crowning trespass, didn't they each whisk a captivating little tart
|
|
into their tiny pockets, there to stick and crumble treacherously,
|
|
teaching them that both human nature and a pastry are frail? Bur-
|
|
dened with the guilty consciousness of the sequestered tarts, and
|
|
fearing that Dodo's sharp eyes would pierce the thin disguise of
|
|
cambric and merino which hid their booty, the little sinners
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attached themselves to `Dranpa', who hadn't his spectacles on. Amy,
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who was handed about like refreshments, returned to the parlor on
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Father Laurence's arm. The others paired off as before, and this
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arrangement left Jo companionless. She did not mind it at the
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minute, for she lingered to answer Hannah's eager inquiry.
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"Will Miss Amy ride in her coop (coupe), and use all them
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lovely silver dishes that's stored away over yander?"
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"Shouldn't wonder if she drove six white horses, ate off gold
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plate, and wore diamonds and point lace every day. Teddy thinks
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nothing too good for her," returned Jo with infinite satisfaction.
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"No more there is! Will you have hash or fishballs for break-
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fast?" asked Hannah, who wisely mingled poetry and prose.
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"I don't care." And Jo shut the door, feeling that food was an
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uncongenial topic just then. She stood a minute looking at the
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party vanishing above, and as Demi's short plaid legs toiled up the
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last stair, a sudden sense of lonliness came over her so strongly
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that she looked about her with dim eyes, as if to find something to
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lean upon, for even Teddy had deserted her. If she had known what
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birthday gift was coming every minute nearer and nearer, she would
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not have said to herself, "I'll weep a little weep when I go to bed.
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It won't do to be dismal now." Then she drew her hand over her
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eyes, for one of her boyish habits was never to know where her hand-
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kerchief was, and had just managed to call up a smile when there
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came a knock at the porch door.
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She opened with hospitable haste, and started as if another
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ghost had come to surprise her, for there stood a tall bearded
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gentleman, beaming on her from the darkness like a midnight sun.
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"Oh, Mr. Bhaer, I am so glad to see you!" cried Jo, with a
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clutch, as if she feared the night would swallow him up before
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she could get him in.
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"And I to see Miss Marsch, but no, you haf a party," and the
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Professor paused as the sound of voices and the tap of dancing
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feet came down to them.
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"No, we haven't, only the family. My sister and friends
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have just come home, and we are all very happy. Come in, and
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make one of us."
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Though a very social man, I think Mr. Bhaer would have gone
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decorously away, and come again another day, but how could he,
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when Jo shut the door behind him, and bereft him of his hat?
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Perhaps her face had something to do with it, for she forgot
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to hide her joy at seeing him, and showed it with a frankness
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|
that proved irresistible to the solitary man, whose welcome far
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|
exceeded his boldest hopes.
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"If I shall not be Monsieur de Trop, I will so gladly see
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them all. You haf been ill, my friend?"
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He put the question abruptly, for, as Jo hung up his coat,
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the light fell on her face, and he saw a change in it.
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"Not ill, but tired and sorrowful. We have had trouble
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since I saw you last."
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"Ah, yes, I know. My heart was sore for you when I heard
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that," And he shook hands again, with such a sympathetic face
|
|
that Jo felt as if no comfort could equal the look of the kind
|
|
eyes, the grasp of the big, warm hand.
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|
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|
"Father, Mother, this is my friend, Professor Bhaer," she
|
|
said, with a face and tone of such irrepressible pride and
|
|
pleasure that she might as well have blown a trumpet and opened
|
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the door with a flourish.
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If the stranger had any doubts about his reception, they
|
|
were set at rest in a minute by the cordial welcome he received.
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|
Everyone greeted him kindly, for Jo's sake at first, but very
|
|
soon they liked him for his own. They could not help it, for
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he carried the talisman that opens all hearts, and these simple
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|
people warmed to him at once, feeling even the more friendly
|
|
because he was poor. For poverty enriches those who live above
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|
it, and is a sure passport to truly hospitable spirits. Mr.
|
|
Bhaer sat looking about him with the air of a traveler who
|
|
knocks at a strange door, and when it opens, finds himself at
|
|
home. The children went to him like bees to a honeypot, and
|
|
establishing themselves on each knee, proceeded to captivate him
|
|
by rifling his pockets, pulling his beard, and investigating his
|
|
watch, with juvenile audacity. The women telegraphed their
|
|
approval to one another, and Mr. March, feeling that he had got
|
|
a kindred spirit, opened his choicest stores for his guest's
|
|
benefit, while silent John listened and enjoyed the talk, but
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|
said not a word, and Mr. Laurence found it impossible to go to
|
|
sleep.
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|
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|
If Jo had not been otherwise engaged, Laurie's behavior
|
|
would have amused her, for a faint twinge, not of jealousy, but
|
|
something like suspicion, caused that gentleman to stand aloof
|
|
at first, and observe the newcomer with brotherly circumspection.
|
|
But it did not last long. He got interested in spite of himself,
|
|
and before he knew it, was drawn into the circle. For Mr. Bhaer
|
|
talked well in this genial atmosphere, and did himself justice.
|
|
He seldom spoke to Laurie, but he looked at him often, and a
|
|
shadow would pass across his face, as if regretting his own lost
|
|
youth, as he watched the young man in his prime. Then his eyes
|
|
would turn to Jo so wistfully that she would have surely answered
|
|
the mute inquiry if she had seen it. But Jo had her own eyes to
|
|
take care of, and feeling that they could not be trusted, she
|
|
prudently kept them on the little sock she was knitting, like a
|
|
model maiden aunt.
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|
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|
A stealthy glance now and then refreshed her like sips of
|
|
fresh water after a dusty walk, for the sidelong peeps showed
|
|
her several propitious omens. Mr. Bhaer's face had lost the
|
|
absent-minded expression, and looked all alive with interest in
|
|
the present moment, actually young and handsome, she thought,
|
|
forgetting to compare him with Laurie, as she usually did strange
|
|
men, to their great detriment. Then he seemed quite inspired,
|
|
though the burial customs of the ancients, to which the conver-
|
|
sation had strayed, might not be considered an exhilarating
|
|
topic. Jo quite glowed with triumph when Teddy got quenched in
|
|
an argument, and thought to herself, as she watched her father's
|
|
absorbed face, "How he would enjoy having such a man as my Pro-
|
|
fessor to talk with every day!" Lastly, Mr. Bhaer was dressed
|
|
in a new suit of black, which made him look more like a gentleman
|
|
than ever. His bushy hair had been cut and smoothly brushed, but
|
|
didn't stay in order long, for in exciting moments, he rumpled
|
|
it up in the droll way he used to do, and Jo liked it rampantly
|
|
erect better than flat, because she thought it gave his fine
|
|
forehead a Jove-like aspect. Poor Jo, how she did glorify that
|
|
plain man, as she sat knitting away so quietly, yet letting
|
|
nothing escape her, not even the fact that Mr. Bhaer actually
|
|
had gold sleeve-buttons in his immaculate wristbands.
|
|
|
|
"Dear old fellow! He couldn't have got himself up with
|
|
more care if he'd been going a-wooing," said Jo to herself, and
|
|
then a sudden thought born of the words made her blush so dread-
|
|
fully that she had to drop her ball, and go down after it to
|
|
hide her face.
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|
|
|
The maneuver did not succeed as well as she expected, how-
|
|
ever, for though just in the act of setting fire to a funeral
|
|
pyre, the Professor dropped his torch, metaphorically speaking,
|
|
and made a dive after the little blue ball. Of course they
|
|
bumped their heads smartly together, saw stars, and both came
|
|
up flushed and laughing, without the ball, to resume their seats,
|
|
wishing they had not left them.
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|
|
|
Nobody knew where the evening went to, for Hannah skillfully
|
|
abstracted the babies at an early hour, nodding like two rosy
|
|
poppies, and Mr. Laurence went home to rest. The others sat
|
|
round the fire, talking away, utterly regardless of the lapse
|
|
of time, till Meg, whose maternal was impressed with a firm con-
|
|
viction that Daisy had tumbled out of be, and Demi set his night-
|
|
gown afire studying the structure of matches, made a move to go.
|
|
|
|
"We must have our sing, in the good old way, for we are all
|
|
together again once more," said Jo, feeling that a good shout
|
|
would be a safe and pleasant vent for the jubilant emotions of
|
|
her soul.
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|
|
|
They were not all there. But no one found the words thougt-
|
|
less or untrue, for Beth still seemed among them, a peaceful
|
|
presence, invisible, but dearer than ever, since death could not
|
|
break the household league that love made disoluble. The little
|
|
chair stood in its old place. The tidy basket, with the bit of
|
|
work she left unfinished when the needle grew `so heavy', was
|
|
still on its accustomed shelf. The beloved instrument, seldom
|
|
touched now had not been moved, and above it Beth's face, serene
|
|
and smiling, as in the early days, looked down upon them, seeming
|
|
to say, "Be happy. I am here."
|
|
|
|
"Play something, Amy. Let them hear how much you have im-
|
|
proved," said Laurie, with pardonable pride in his promising
|
|
pupil.
|
|
|
|
But Amy whispered, with full eyes, as she twirled the faded
|
|
stool, "Not tonight, dear. I can't show off tonight."
|
|
|
|
But she did show something better than brilliancy or skill,
|
|
for she sang Beth's songs with a tender music in her voice which
|
|
the best master could not have taught, and touched the listener's
|
|
hearts with a sweeter power than any other inspiration could have
|
|
given her. The room was very still, when the clear voice failed
|
|
suddenly at the last line of Beth's favorite hymn. It was hard
|
|
to say . . .
|
|
|
|
Earth hath no sorrow that heaven cannot heal;
|
|
|
|
and Amy leaned against her husband, who stood behind her, feeling
|
|
that her welcome home was not quite perfect without Beth's kiss.
|
|
|
|
"Now, we must finish with Mignon's song, for Mr. Bhaer sings
|
|
that," said Jo, before the pause grew painful. And Mr. Bhaer
|
|
cleared his throat with a gratified "Hem!" as he stepped into the
|
|
corner where Jo stood, saying . . .
|
|
|
|
"You will sing with me? We go excellently well together."
|
|
|
|
A pleasing fiction, by the way, for Jo had no more idea of
|
|
music than a grasshopper. But she would have consented if he had
|
|
proposed to sing a whole opera, and warbled away, blissfully re-
|
|
gardless of time and tune. It didn't much matter, for Mr. Bhaer
|
|
sang like a true German, heartily and well, and Jo soon subsided
|
|
into a subdued hum, that she might listen to the mellow voice that
|
|
seemed to sing for her alone.
|
|
|
|
Know'st thou the land where the citron blooms,
|
|
|
|
used to be the Professor's favorite line, for `das land' meant
|
|
Germany to him, but now he seemed to dwell, with peculiar warmth
|
|
and melody, upon the words . . .
|
|
|
|
There, oh there, might I with thee,
|
|
O, my beloved, go
|
|
|
|
and one listener was so thrilled by the tender invitation that she
|
|
longed to say she did know the land, and would joyfully depart
|
|
thither whenever he liked
|
|
|
|
The song was considered a great success, and the singer retired
|
|
covered with laurels. But a few minutes afterward, he forgot his
|
|
manners entirely, and stared at Amy putting on her bonnet, for she
|
|
had been introduced simply as `my sister', and on one had called
|
|
her by her new name since her came. He forgot himself still fur-
|
|
ther when Laurie said, in his most gracious manner, at parting . . .
|
|
|
|
"My wife and I are very glad to meet you, sir. Please remem-
|
|
ber that there is always a welcome waiting for you over the way."
|
|
|
|
Then the Professor thanked him so heartily, and looked so
|
|
suddenly illuminated with satisfaction, that Laurie thought him
|
|
the most delightfully demonstrative old fellow he ever met.
|
|
|
|
"I too shall go, but I shall gladly come again, if you will
|
|
gif me leave, dear madame, for a little business in the city will
|
|
keep me here some days."
|
|
|
|
He spoke to Mrs. March, but he looked at Jo, and the mother's
|
|
voice gave as cordial an assent as did the daughter's eyes, for
|
|
Mrs. March was not so blind to her children's interest as Mrs.
|
|
Moffat supposed.
|
|
|
|
"I suspect that is a wise man," remarked Mr. March, with
|
|
placid satisfaction, from the hearthrug, after the last guest had
|
|
gone.
|
|
|
|
"I know he is a good one," added Mrs. March, with decided
|
|
approval, as she wound up the clock.
|
|
|
|
"I thought you'd like him," was all Jo said, as she slipped
|
|
away to her bed.
|
|
|
|
She wondered what the business was that brought Mr. Bhaer to
|
|
the city, and finally decided that he had been appointed to some
|
|
great honor, somewhere, but had been too modest to mention the
|
|
fact. If she had seen his face when, safe in his own room, he
|
|
looked at the picture of a severe and rigid young lady, with a
|
|
good deal of hair, who appeared to be gazing darkly into futurity,
|
|
it might have thrown some light upon the subject, especially when
|
|
he turned off the gas, and kissed the picture in the dark.
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
|
|
|
|
"Please, Madam Mother, could you lend me my wife for half
|
|
an hour? The luggage has come, and I've been making hay of
|
|
Amy's Paris finery, trying to find some things I want," said
|
|
Laurie, coming in the next day to find Mrs. Laurence sitting
|
|
in her mother's lap, as if being made `the baby' again.
|
|
|
|
"Certainly. Go, dear, I forgot that you have any home but
|
|
this." And Mrs. March pressed the white hand that wore the wed-
|
|
ding ring, as if asking pardon for her maternal covetousness.
|
|
|
|
"I shouldn't have come over if I could have helped it, but
|
|
I can't get on without my little woman any more than a . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Weathercock can without the wind," suggested Jo, as he
|
|
paused for a simile. Jo had grown quite her own saucy self
|
|
again since Teddy came home.
|
|
|
|
"Exactly, for Amy keeps me pointing due west most of the
|
|
time, with only an occasional whiffle round to the south, and
|
|
I haven't had an easterly spell since I was married. Don't know
|
|
anything about the north, but am altogether salubrious and balmy,
|
|
hey, my lady?"
|
|
|
|
"Lovely weather so far. I don't know how long it will last,
|
|
but I'm not afraid of storms, for I'm learning how to sail my
|
|
ship. Come home, dear, and I'll find your bootjack. I suppose
|
|
that's what you are rummaging after among my things. Men are so
|
|
helpless, Mother," said Amy, with a matronly air, which delighted
|
|
her husband.
|
|
|
|
"What are you going to do with yourselves after you get set-
|
|
tled?" asked Jo, buttoning Amy's cloak as she used to button her
|
|
pinafores.
|
|
|
|
"We have our plans. We don't mean to say much about them
|
|
yet, because we are such very new brooms, but we don't intend to
|
|
be idle. I'm going into business with a devotion that shall de-
|
|
light Grandfather, and prove to him that I'm not spoiled. I need
|
|
something of the sort to keep me steady. I'm tired of dawdling,
|
|
and mean to work like a man."
|
|
|
|
"And Amy, what is she going to do?" asked Mrs. March, well
|
|
pleased at Laurie's decision and the energy with which he spoke.
|
|
|
|
"After doing the civil all round, and airing our best bonnet,
|
|
we shall astonish you by the elegant hospitalities of our mansion,
|
|
the brilliant society we shall draw about us, and the beneficial
|
|
influence we shall exert over the world at large. That's about
|
|
it, isn't it, Madame Recamier?" asked Laurie with a quizzical
|
|
look at Amy.
|
|
|
|
"Time will show. Come away, Impertinence, and don't shock
|
|
my family by calling me names before their faces," answered Amy,
|
|
resolving that there should be a home with a good wife in it
|
|
before she set up a salon as a queen of society.
|
|
|
|
"How happy those children seem together!" observed Mr. March,
|
|
finding it difficult to become absorbed in his Aristotle after
|
|
the young couple had gone.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, and I think it will last," added Mrs. March, with the
|
|
restful expression of a pilot who has brought a ship safely into
|
|
port.
|
|
|
|
"I know it will. Happy Amy!" And Jo sighed, then smiled
|
|
brightly as Professor Bhaer opened the gate with an impatient
|
|
push.
|
|
|
|
Later in the evening, when his mind had been set at rest
|
|
about the bootjack, Laurie said suddenly to his wife, "Mrs.
|
|
Laurence."
|
|
|
|
"My Lord!"
|
|
|
|
"That man intends to marry our Jo!"
|
|
|
|
"I hope so, don't you, dear?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, my love, I consider him a trump, in the fullest sense
|
|
of that expressive word, but I do wish he was a little younger
|
|
and a good deal richer."
|
|
|
|
"Now, Laurie, don't be too fastidious and worldly-minded.
|
|
If they love one another it doesn't matter a particle how old
|
|
they are nor how poor. Women never should marry for money . . ."
|
|
Amy caught herself up short as the words escaped her, and looked
|
|
at her husband, who replied, with malicious gravity . . .
|
|
|
|
"Certainly not, though you do hear charming girls say that
|
|
they intend to do it sometimes. If my memory serves me, you
|
|
once thought it your duty to make a rich match. That accounts,
|
|
perhaps, for your marrying a good-for-nothing like me."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, my dearest boy, don't, don't say that! I forgot you
|
|
were rich when I said `Yes'. I'd have married you if you hadn't
|
|
a penny, and I sometimes wish you were poor that I might show
|
|
how much I love you." And Amy, who was very dignified in public
|
|
and very fond in private, gave convincing proofs of the truth of
|
|
her words.
|
|
|
|
"You don't really think I am such a mercenary creature as
|
|
I tried to be once, do you? It would break my heart if you
|
|
didn't believe that I'd gladly pull in the same boat with you,
|
|
even if you had to get your living by rowing on the lake."2
|
|
|
|
"Am I an idiot and a brute? How could I think so, when
|
|
you refused a richer man for me, and won't let me give you half
|
|
I want to now, when I have the right? Girls do it every day,
|
|
poor things, and are taught to think it is their only salvation,
|
|
but you had better lessons, and though I trembled for you at
|
|
one time, I was not disappointed, for the daughter was true to
|
|
the mother's teaching. I told Mamma so yesterday, and she
|
|
looked as glad and grateful as if I'd given her a check for a
|
|
million, to be spent in charity. You are not listening to my
|
|
moral remarks, Mrs. Laurence." And Laurie paused, for Amy's
|
|
eyes had an absent look, though fixed upon his face.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I am, and admiring the mple in your chin at the
|
|
same time. I don't wish to make you vain, but I must confess
|
|
that I'm prouder of my handsome husband than of all his money.
|
|
Don't laugh, but your nose is such a comfort to me." And Amy
|
|
softly caressed the well-cut feature with artistic satisfaction.
|
|
|
|
Laurie had received many compliments in his life, but never
|
|
one that suited him better, as he plainly showed though he did
|
|
laugh at his wife's peculiar taste, while she said slowly, "May
|
|
I ask you a question, dear?"
|
|
|
|
"Of course, you may."
|
|
|
|
"Shall you care if Jo does marry Mr. Bhaer?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, that's the trouble is it? I thought there was something
|
|
in the dimple that didn't quite suit you. Not being a dog in the
|
|
manger, but the happiest fellow alive, I assure you I can dance
|
|
at Jo's wedding with a heart as light as my heels. Do you doubt
|
|
it, my darling?"
|
|
|
|
Amy looked up at him, and was satisfied. Her little jealous
|
|
fear vanished forever, and she thanked him, with a face full of
|
|
love and confidence.
|
|
|
|
"I wish we could do something for that capital old Professor.
|
|
Couldn't we invent a rich relation, who shall obligingly die out
|
|
there in Germany, and leave him a tidy little fortune?" said Laurie,
|
|
when they began to pace up and down the long drawing room, arm in
|
|
arm, as they were fond of doing, in memory of the chateau garden.
|
|
|
|
"Jo would find us out, and spoil it all. She is very proud
|
|
of him, just as he is, and said yesterday that she thought pov-
|
|
erty was a beautiful thing."
|
|
|
|
"Bless her dear heart! She won't think so when she has a
|
|
literary husband, and a dozen little professors and professorins
|
|
to support. We won't interfere now, but watch our chance, and
|
|
do them a good turn in spite of themselves. I owe Jo for a part
|
|
of my education, and she believes in people's paying their hon-
|
|
est debts, so I'll get round her in that way."
|
|
|
|
"How delightful it is to be able to help others, isn't it?
|
|
That was always one of my dreams, to have the power of giving
|
|
freely, and thanks to you, the dream has come true."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, we'll do quantities of good, won't we? There's one
|
|
sort of poverty that I particularly like to help. Out-and-out
|
|
beggars get taken care of, but poor gentle folks fare badly,
|
|
because they won't ask, and people don't dare to offer charity.
|
|
Yet there are a thousand ways of helping them, if one only
|
|
knows how to do it so delicately that it does not offend. I
|
|
must say, I like to serve a decayed gentleman better than a
|
|
blarnerying beggar. I suppose it's wrong, but I do, though it
|
|
is harder."
|
|
|
|
"Because it takes a gentleman to do it," added the other
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member of the domestic admiration society.
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"Thank you, I'm afraid I don't deserve that pretty compliment.
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But I was going to say that while I was dawdling about abroad, I
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saw a good many talented young fellows making all sorts of sac-
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rifices, and enduring real hardships, that they might realize
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their dreams. Splendid fellows, some of them, working like heros,
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poor and friendless, but so full of courage, patience, and am-
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bition that I was ashamed of myself, and longed to give them a
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right good lift. Those are people whom it's a satisfaction to
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help, for if they've got genius, it's an honor to be allowed to
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serve them, and not let it be lost or delayed for want of fuel
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to keep the pot boiling. If they haven't, it's a pleasure to
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comfort the poor souls, and keep them from despair when they find
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it out."
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"Yes, indeed, and there's another class who can't ask, and
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who suffer in silence. I know something of it, for I belonged to
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it before you made a princess of me, as the king does the beggar-
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maid in the old story. Ambitious girls have a hard time, Laurie,
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and often have to see youth, health, and precious opportunities
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go by, just for want of a little help at the right minute. People
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have been very kind to me, and whenever I see girls struggling
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along, as we used to do, I want to put out my hand and help them,
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as I was helped."
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"And so you shall, like an angel as you are!" cried Laurie,
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resolving, with a glow of philanthropic zeal, to found and en-
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dow an institution for the express benefit of young women with
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artistic tendencies. "Rich people have no right to sit down
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and enjoy themselves, or let their money accumulate for others
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to waste. It's not half so sensible to leave legacies when one
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dies as it is to use the money wisely while alive, and enjoy
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making one's fellow creatures happy with it. We'll have a good
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time ourselves, and add an extra relish to our own pleasure by
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giving other people a generous taste. Will you be a little
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Dorcal, going about emptying a big basket of comforts, and
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filling it up with good deeds?"
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"With all my heart, if you will be a brave St. Martin,
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stopping as you ride gallantly through the world to share your
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cloak with the beggar."
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"It's a bargain, and we shall get the best of it!"
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So the young pair shook hands upon it, and then paced
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happily on again, feeling that their pleasant home was more
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homelike because they hoped to brighten other homes, believing
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that their own feet would walk more uprightly along the flowery
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path before them, if they smoothed rough ways for other feet,
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and feeling that their hearts were more closely knit together
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by a love which could tenderly remember those less blest than
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they.
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CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
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I cannot feel that I have done my duty as humble historian
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of the March family, without devoting at least one chapter to
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the two most precious and important members of it. Daisy and
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Demi had now arrived at years of discretion, for in this fast
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|
age babies of three or four assert their rights, and get them,
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|
too, which is more than many of their elders do. If there
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|
ever were a pair of twins in danger of being utterly spoiled
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by adoration, it was these prattling Brookes. Of course they
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were the most remarkable children ever born, as will be shown
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when I mention that they walked at eight months, talked flu-
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ently at twelve months, and at two years they took their places
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at table, and behaved with a propriety which charmed all be-
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holders. At three, Daisy demanded a `needler', and actually
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made a bag with four stitches in it. She likewise set up
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housekeeping in the sideboard, and managed a microscopic cook-
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ing stove with a skill that brought tears of pride to Hannah's
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eyes, while Demi learned his letters with his grandfather, who
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invented a new mode of teaching the alphabet by forming letters
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with his arms and legs, thus uniting gymnastics for head and
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heels. The boy early developed a mechanical genius which de-
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|
lighted his father and distracted his mother, for he tried to
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imitate every machine he saw, and kept the nursery in a chaotic
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condition, with his `sewinsheen', a mysterious structure of
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string, chairs, clothespins, and spools, for wheels to go
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`wound and wound'. Also a basket hung over the back of a chair,
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in which he vainly tried to hoist his too confiding sister, who,
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with feminine devotion, allowed her little head to be bumped till
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rescued, when the young inventor indignantly remarked, "Why,
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Marmar, dat's my lellywaiter, and me's trying to pull her up."
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Though utterly unlike in character, the twins got on re-
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|
markably well together, and seldom quarreled more than thrice
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|
a day. Of course, Demi tyrannized over Daisy, and gallantly
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|
defended her from every other aggressor, while Daisy made a
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galley slave of herself, and adored her brother as the one per-
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fect being in the world. A rosy, chubby, sunshiny little soul
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was Daisy, who found her way to everybody's heart, and nestled
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there. One of the captivating children, who seem made to be
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kissed and cuddled, adorned and adored like little goddesses,
|
|
and produced for general approval on all festive occasions.
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|
Her small virtues were so sweet that she would have been quite
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|
angelic if a few small naughtinesses had not kept her delight-
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|
fully human. It was all fair weather in her world, and every
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|
morning she scrambled up to the window in her little nightgown
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|
to look our, and say, no matter whether it rained or shone,
|
|
"Oh, pitty day, oh, pitty day!" Everyone was a friend, and she
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|
offered kisses to a stranger so confidingly that the most in-
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|
veterate bachelor relented, and baby-lovers became faithful
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|
worshipers.
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"Me loves evvybody," she once said, opening her arms, with
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her spoon in one hand, and her mug in the other, as if eager to
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|
embrace and nourish the whole world.
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As she grew, her mother began to feel that the Dovecote
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|
would be blessed by the presence of an inmate as serene and lov-
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|
ing as that which had helped to make the old house home, and to
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|
pray that she might be spared a loss like that which had lately
|
|
taught them how long they had entertained an angel unawares. Her
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|
grandfather often called her `Beth', and her grandmother watched
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|
over her with untiring devotion, as if trying to atone for some
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|
past mistake, which no eye but her own could see.
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Demi, like a true Yankee, was of an inquiring turn, wanting
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|
to know everything, and often getting much disturbed because he
|
|
could not get satisfactory answers to his perpetual "What for?"
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He also possessed a philosophic bent, to the great delight of
|
|
his grandfather, who used to hold Socratic conversations with him,
|
|
in which the precocious pupil occasionally posed his teacher, to
|
|
the undisguised satisfaction of the womenfolk.
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"What makes my legs go, Dranpa?" asked the young philosopher,
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|
surveying those active portions of his frame with a meditative air,
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|
while resting after a go-to-bed frolic one night.
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"It's your little mind, Demi," replied the sage, stroking the
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yellow head respectfully.
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"What is a little mine?"
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"It is something which makes your body move, as the spring
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made the wheels go in my watch when I showed it to you."
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"Open me. I want to see it go wound."
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"I can't do that any more than you could open the watch. God
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winds you up, and you go till He stops you."
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"Does I?" And Demi's brown eyes grew big and bright as he
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|
took in the new thought. "Is I wounded up like the watch?"
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"Yes, but I can't show you how, for it is done when we don't
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see."
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Demi felt his back, as if expecting to find it like that of
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|
the watch, and then gravely remarked, "I dess Dod does it when
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I's asleep."
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A careful explanation followed, to which he listened so at-
|
|
tentively that his anxious grandmother said, "My dear, do you
|
|
think it wise to talk about such things to that baby? He's get-
|
|
ting great bumps over his eyes, and learning to ask the most
|
|
unanswerable questions."
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"If he is old enough to ask the question he is old enough to
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|
receive true answers. I am not putting the thoughts into his
|
|
head, but helping him unfold those already there. These children
|
|
are wiser than we are, and I have no doubt the boy understands
|
|
every word I have said to him. Now, Demi, tell me where you keep
|
|
your mind."
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|
If the boy had replied like Alcibiades, "By the gods, Socrates,
|
|
I cannot tell," his grandfather would not have been surprised, but
|
|
when, after standing a moment on one leg, like a meditative young
|
|
stork, he answered, in a tone of calm conviction, "In my little
|
|
belly," the old gentleman could only join in Grandma's laugh, and
|
|
dismiss the class in metaphysics.
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|
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|
There might have been cause for maternal anxiety, if Demi had
|
|
not given convincing proofs that he was a true boy, as well as a
|
|
budding philosopher, for often, after a discussion which caused
|
|
Hannah to prophesy, with ominous nods, "That child ain't long for
|
|
this world," he would turn about and set her fears at rest by
|
|
some of the pranks with which dear, dirty, naughty little rascals
|
|
distract and delight their parent's souls.
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|
|
|
Meg made many moral rules, and tried to keep them, but what
|
|
mother was ever proof against the winning wiles, the ingenious
|
|
evasions, or the tranquil audacity of the miniature men and women
|
|
who so early show themselves accomplished Artful Dodgers?
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|
|
|
"No more raisins, Demi. They'll make you sick," says Mamma
|
|
to the young person who offers his services in the kitchen with
|
|
unfailing regularity on plum-pudding day.
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|
|
|
"Me likes to be sick."
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|
|
|
"I don't want to have you, so run away and help Daisy make
|
|
patty cakes."
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|
|
|
He reluctantly departs, but his wrongs weigh upon his spirit,
|
|
and by-and-by when an opportunity comes to redress them, he out-
|
|
wits Mamma by a shrewd bargain.
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|
|
|
"Now you have been good children, and I'll play anything you
|
|
like," says Meg, as she leads her assistant cooks upstairs, when
|
|
the pudding is safely bouncing in the pot.
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|
|
|
"Truly, Marmar?" asks Demi, with a brilliant idea in his well-
|
|
powdered head.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, truly. Anything you say," replies the shortsighted par-
|
|
ent, preparing herself to sing, "The Three Little Kittens" half a
|
|
dozen times over, or to take her family to "Buy a penny bun," re-
|
|
gardless of wind or limb. But Demi corners her by the cool reply...
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|
|
|
"Then we'll go and eat up all the raisins."
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|
|
|
Aunt Dodo was chief playmate and confidante of both children,
|
|
and the trio turned the little house topsy-turvy. Aunt Amy was as
|
|
yet only a name to them, Aunt Beth soon faded into a pleasantly
|
|
vague memory, but Aunt Dodo was a living reality, and they made the
|
|
most of her, for which compliment she was deeply grateful. But
|
|
when Mr. Bhaer came, Jo neglected her playfellows, and dismay and
|
|
desolation fell upon their little souls. Daisy, who was fond of
|
|
going about peddling kisses, lost her best customer and became
|
|
bankrupt. Demi, with infantile penetration, soon discovered that
|
|
Dodo like to play with `the bear-man' better than she did him,
|
|
but though hurt, he concealed his anguish, for he hadn't the
|
|
heart to insult a rival who kept a mine of chocolate drops in
|
|
his waistcoat pocket, and a watch that could be taken out of its
|
|
case and freely shaken by ardent admirers.
|
|
|
|
Some persons might have considered these pleasing liberties
|
|
as bribes, but Demi didn't see it in that light, and continued to
|
|
patronize the `the bear-man' with pensive affability, while Daisy
|
|
bestowed her small affections upon him at the third call, and
|
|
considered his shoulder her throne, his arm her refuge, his gifts
|
|
treasures surpassing worth.
|
|
|
|
Gentlemen are sometimes seized with sudden fits of admiration
|
|
for the young relatives of ladies whom they honor with their regard,
|
|
but this counterfeit philoprogenitiveness sits uneasily upon them,
|
|
and does not deceive anybody a particle. Mr. Bhaer's devotion was
|
|
sincere, however likewise effective--for honesty is the best policy
|
|
in love as in law. He was one of the men who are at home with chil-
|
|
dren, and looked particularly well when little faces made a pleasant
|
|
contrast with his manly one. His business, whatever it was, detained
|
|
him from day to day, but evening seldom failed to bring him out to
|
|
see--well, he always asked for Mr. March, so I suppose he was the
|
|
attraction. The excellent papa labored under the delusion that he
|
|
was, and reveled in long discussions with the kindred spirit, till
|
|
a chance remark of his more observing grandson suddenly enlightened
|
|
him.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Bhaer came in one evening to pause on the threshold of the
|
|
study, astonished by the spectacle that met his eye. Prone upon
|
|
the floor lay Mr. March, with his respectable legs in the air, and
|
|
beside him, likewise prone, was Demi, trying to imitate the atti-
|
|
tude with his own short, scarlet-stockinged legs, both grovelers
|
|
so seriously absorbed that they were unconscious of spectators,
|
|
till Mr. Bhaer laughed his sonorous laugh, and Jo cried out, with
|
|
a scandalized face . . .
|
|
|
|
"Father, Father, here's the Professor!"
|
|
|
|
Down went the black legs and up came the gray head, as the
|
|
preceptor said, with undisturbed dignity, "Good evening, Mr. Bhaer.
|
|
Excuse me for a moment. We are just finishing our lesson. Now,
|
|
Demi, make the letter and tell its name."
|
|
|
|
"I knows him!" And, after a few convulsive efforts, the red
|
|
legs tok the shape of a pair of compasses, and the intelligent
|
|
pupil triumphantly shouted, "It's a We, Dranpa, it's a We!"
|
|
|
|
"He's a born Weller," laughed Jo, as her parent gathered him-
|
|
self up, and her nephew tried to stand on his head, as the only
|
|
mode of expressing his satisfaction that school was over.
|
|
|
|
"What have you been at today, bubchen?" asked Mr. Bhaer, pick-
|
|
ing up the gymnast.
|
|
|
|
"Me went to see little Mary."
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|
|
|
"And what did you there?"
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|
|
|
"I kissed her," began Demi, with artless frankness.
|
|
|
|
"Prut! Thou beginnest early. What did the little Mary say
|
|
to that?" asked Mr. Bhaer, continuing to confess the young sinner,
|
|
who stood upon the knee, exploring the waistcoat pocket.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, she liked it, and she kissed me, and I liked it. Don't
|
|
little boys like little girls?" asked Demi, with his mouth full,
|
|
and an air of bland satisfaction.
|
|
|
|
"You precious chick! Who put that into your head?" said Jo,
|
|
enjoying the innocent revelation as much as the Professor.
|
|
|
|
"`Tisn't in mine head, it's in mine mouf," answered literal
|
|
Demi, putting out his tongue, with a chocolate drop on it, think-
|
|
ing she alluded to confectionery, not ideas.
|
|
|
|
"Thou shouldst save some for the little friend. Sweets to
|
|
the sweet, mannling." And Mr. Bhaer offered Jo some, with a look
|
|
that made her wonder if chocolate was not the nectar drunk by the
|
|
gods. Demi also saw the smile, was impressed by it, and artlessy
|
|
inquired. ..
|
|
|
|
"Do great boys like great girls, to, 'Fessor?"
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|
|
|
Like young Washington, Mr. Bhaer `couldn't tell a lie', so
|
|
he gave the somewhat vague reply that he believed they did some-
|
|
times,in a tone that made Mr. March put down his clothesbrush,
|
|
glance at Jo's retiring face, and then sink into his chair, look-
|
|
ing as if the `precocious chick' had put an idea into his head
|
|
that was both sweet and sour.
|
|
|
|
Why Dodo, when she caught him in the china closet half an
|
|
hour afterward, nearly squeezed the breath out of his little body
|
|
with a tender embrace, instead of shaking him for being there,
|
|
and why she followed up this novel performance by the unexpected
|
|
gift of a big slice of bread and jelly, remained one of the prob-
|
|
lems over which Demi puzzled his small wits, and was forced to
|
|
leave unsolved forever.
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|
|
|
CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
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|
|
While Laurie and Amy were taking conjugal strolls over velvet
|
|
carpets, as they set their house in order, and planned a blissful
|
|
future, Mr. Bhaer and Jo were enjoying promenades of a different
|
|
sort, along muddy roads and sodden fields.
|
|
|
|
"I always do take a walk toward evening, and I don't know
|
|
why I should give it up, just because I happen to meet the Pro-
|
|
fessor on his way out," said Jo to herself, after two or three
|
|
encounters, for though there were two paths to Meg's whichever
|
|
one she took she was sure to meet him., either going or return-
|
|
ing. He was always walking rapidly, and never seemed to see her
|
|
until quite close, when he would look as if his short-sighted
|
|
eyes had failed to recognize the approaching lady till that
|
|
moment. Then, if she was going to Meg's he always had something
|
|
for the babies. If her face was turned homeward, he had merely
|
|
strolled down to see the river, and was just returning, unless
|
|
they were tired of his frequent calls.
|
|
|
|
Under the circumstances, what could Jo do but greet him
|
|
civilly, and invite him in? If she was tired of his visits, she
|
|
concealed her weariness with perfect skill,and took care that
|
|
there should be coffee for supper, "as Friedrich--I mean Mr.
|
|
Bhaer--doesn't like tea."
|
|
|
|
By the second week, everyone knew perfectly well what was
|
|
going on, yet everyone tried to look as if they were stone-blind
|
|
to the changes in Jo's face. They never asked why she sang about
|
|
her work, did up her hair three times a day, and got so blooming
|
|
with her evening exercise. And no one seemed to have the slight-
|
|
est suspicion that Professor Bhaer, while talking philosophy with
|
|
the father, was giving the daughter lessons in love.
|
|
|
|
Jo couldn't even lose her heart in a decorous manner, but
|
|
sternly tried to quench her feelings, and failing to do so, led
|
|
a somewhat agitated life. She was mortally afraid of being laughed
|
|
at for surrendering, after her many and vehement declarations of
|
|
independence. Laurie was her especial dread, but thanks to the
|
|
new manager, he behaved with praiseworthy propriety, never called
|
|
Mr. Bhaer `a capital old fellow' in public, never alluded, in the
|
|
remotest manner, to Jo's improved appearance, or expressed the
|
|
least surprise at seeing the Professor's hat on the Marches' table
|
|
nearly every evening. But he exulted in private and longed for
|
|
the time to come when he could give Jo a piece of plate, with a
|
|
bear and a ragged staff on it as an appropriate coat of arms.
|
|
|
|
For a fortnight, the Professor came and went with lover-like
|
|
regularity. Then he stayed away for three whole days, and made
|
|
no sign, a proceeding which caused everybody to look sober, and
|
|
Jo to become pensive, at first, and then--alas for romance--very
|
|
cross.
|
|
|
|
"Disgusted, I dare say, and gone home as suddenly as he came.
|
|
It's nothing tome, of course, but I should think he would have
|
|
come and bid us goodbye like a gentleman," she said to herself,
|
|
with a despairing look at the gate, as she put on her things for
|
|
the customary walk one dull afternoon.
|
|
|
|
"You'd better take the little umbrella, dear. It looks like
|
|
rain," said her mother, observing that she had on her new bonnet,
|
|
but not alluding to the fact.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Marmee, do you want anything in town? I've got to
|
|
run in and get some paper," returned Jo, pulling out the bow
|
|
under her chin before the glass as an excuse for not looking at
|
|
her mother.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I want some twilled silesia, a paper of number nine
|
|
needles, and two yards of narrow lavender ribbon. Have you got
|
|
your thick boots on, and something warm under your cloak?"
|
|
|
|
"I believe so," answered Jo absently.
|
|
|
|
"If you happen to meet Mr. Bhaer, bring him home to tea.
|
|
I quite long to see the dear man," added Mrs. March.
|
|
|
|
Jo heard that, but made no answer, except to kiss her mother,
|
|
and walk rapidly away, thinking with a glow of gratitude, in spite
|
|
of her heartache, "How good she is to me! What do girls do who
|
|
haven't any mothers to help them through their troubles?"
|
|
|
|
The dry-goods stores were not down among the counting-houses,
|
|
banks, and wholesale warerooms, where gentlemen most do congregate,
|
|
but Jo found herself in that part of the city before she did a
|
|
single errand, loitering along as if waiting for someone, examin-
|
|
ing engineering instruments in one window and samples of wool in
|
|
another, with most unfeminine interest, tumbling over barrels,
|
|
being half-smothered by descending bales, and hustled unceremon-
|
|
iously by busy men who looked as if they wondered `how the deuce
|
|
she got there'. A drop of rain on her cheek recalled her thoughts
|
|
from baffled hopes to ruined ribbons. For the drops continued to
|
|
fall, and being a woman as well as a lover, she felt that, though
|
|
it was too late to save her heart, she might her bonnet. Now she
|
|
remembered the little umbrella, which she had forgotten to take
|
|
in her hurry to be off, but regret was unavailing, and nothing
|
|
could be done but borrow one or submit to to a drenching. She
|
|
looked up at the lowering sky, down at the crimson bow already
|
|
flecked with black, forward along the muddy street, then one
|
|
long, lingering look behind, at a certain grimy warehouse, with
|
|
`Hoffmann, Swartz, & Co.' over the door, and said to herself,
|
|
with a sternly reproachful air...
|
|
|
|
"It serves me right! what business had I to put on all my
|
|
best things and come philandering down here, hoping to see the
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Professor? Jo, I'm ashamed of you! No, you shall not go there
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to borrow an umbrella, or find out where he is, from his friends.
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You shall trudge away, and do your errands in the rain, and if
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you catch your death and ruin your bonnet, it's no more than
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you deserve. Now then!"
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With that she rushed across the street so impetuously that
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she narrowly escaped annihilation from a passing truck,and pre-
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cipitated herself into the arms of a stately old gentleman, who
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said, "I beg pardon, ma'am," and looked mortally offended. Some-
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what daunted, Jo righted herself, spread her handkerchief over
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the devoted ribbons, and putting temptation behind her, hurried on,
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with increasing dampness about the ankles, and much clashing of
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umbrellas overhead. The fact that a somewhat dilapidated blue
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one remained stationary above the unprotected bonnet attracted
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her attention, and looking up, she saw Mr. Bhaer looking down.
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"I feel to know the strong-minded lady who goes so bravely
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under many horse noses, and so fast through much mus. What do
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you down here, my friend?"
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"I'm shopping."
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Mr. Bhaer smiled, as he glanced from the pickle factory on
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one side to the wholesale hide and leather concern on the other,
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but her only said politely, "You haf no umbrella. May I go also,
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and take for you the bundles?"
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"Yes, thank you."
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Jo's cheeks were as red as her ribbon, and she wondered what
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he thought of her, but she didn't care, for in a minute she found
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herself walking away arm in arm with her Professor, feeling as if
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the sun had suddenly burst out with uncommon brilliancy, that
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the world was all right again, and that one thoroughly happy woman
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was paddling through the wet that day.
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"We thought you had gone," said Jo hastily, for she knew he
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was looking at her. Her bonnet wasn't big enough to hide her face,
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and she feared he might think the joy it betrayed unmaidenly.
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"Did you believe that I should go with no farewell to those
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who haf been so heavenly kind tome?" he asked so reproachfully
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that she felt as if she had insulted him by the suggestion, and
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answered heartily . . .
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"No, I didn't. I knew you were busy about your own affairs,
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but we rather missed you, Father and Mother especially."
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"And you?"
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"I'm always glad to see you, sir."
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In her anxiety to keep her voice quite calm, Jo made it rather
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cool, and the frosty little monosyllable at the end seemed to chill
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the Professor, for his smile vanished, as he said gravely . . .
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"I thank you, and come one more time before I go."
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"You are going, then?"
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"I haf no longer any business here, it is done."
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"Successfully, I hope?" said Jo, for the bitterness of dis-
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|
appointment was in that short reply of his.
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"I ought to think so, for I haf a way opened to me by which
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I can make my bread and gif my Junglings much help."
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"Tell me, please! I like to know all about the--the boys,"
|
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said Jo eagerly.
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"That is so kind, I gladly tell you. My friends find for me
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a place in a college, where I teach as at home, and earn enough
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to make the way smooth for Franz and Emil. For this I should be
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grateful, should I not?"
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"Indeed you should. How splendid it will be to have you
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doing what you like, and be able to see you often, and the boys!"
|
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cried Jo, clinging to the lads as an excuse for the satisfaction
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she could not help betraying.
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"Ah! But we shall not meet often, I fear, this place is at
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the West."
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"So far away!" And Jo left her skirts to their fate, as if
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it didn't matter now what became of her clothes or herself.
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Mr. Bhaer could read several languages, but he had not
|
|
learned to read women yet. He flattered himself that he knew
|
|
Jo pretty well, and was, therefore, much amazed by the contra-
|
|
dictions of voice, face, and manner, which she showed him in
|
|
rapid succession that day, for she was in half a dozen different
|
|
moods in the course of half an hour. When she met him she looked
|
|
surprised, though it was impossible to help suspecting that she
|
|
had come for that express purpose. When he offered her his arm,
|
|
she took it with a look that filled him with delight, but when
|
|
he asked if she missed him, she gave such a chilly, formal reply
|
|
that despair fell upon him. On learning his good fortune she
|
|
almost clapped her hands. Was the joy all for the boys? Then
|
|
on hearing his destination, she said, "So far away!" in a tone
|
|
of despair that lifted him on to a pinnacle of hope, but the
|
|
next minute she tumbled him down again by observing, like one
|
|
entirely absorbed in the matter...
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"Here's the place for my errands. Will you come in? It
|
|
won't take long."
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|
Jo rather prided herself upon her shopping capabilities,
|
|
and particularly wished to impress her escort with the neat-
|
|
ness and dispatch with which she would accomplish the business.
|
|
But owing to the flutter she was in, everything went amiss.
|
|
She upset the tray of needles, forgot the silesia was to be
|
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`twilled' till it was cut off, gave the wrong change, and
|
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covered herself with confusion by asking for lavender ribbon
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at the calico counter. Mr. Bhaer stood by, watching her blush
|
|
and blunder, and as he watched, his own bewilderment seemed to
|
|
subside, for he was beginning to see that on some occasions,
|
|
women,like dreams, go by contraries.
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|
When they came out, he put the parcel under his arm with
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|
a more cheerful aspect, and splashed through the puddles as if
|
|
he rather enjoyed it on the whole.
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|
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|
"Should we no do a little what you call shopping for the
|
|
babies, and haf a farewell feast tonight if I go for my last
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|
call at your so pleasant home?" he asked, stopping before a
|
|
window full of fruit and flowers.
|
|
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|
"What will we buy?" asked Jo, ignoring the latter part of
|
|
his speech, and sniffing the mingled odors with an affectation
|
|
of delight as they went in.
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|
|
|
"May they haf oranges and figs?" asked Mr. Bhaer, with a
|
|
paternal air.
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|
"They eat them when they can get them."
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|
"Do you care for nuts?"
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"Like a squirrel."
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|
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|
"Hamburg grapes. Yes, we shall drink to the Fatherland in
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|
those?"
|
|
|
|
Jo frowned upon that piece of extravagance, and asked why
|
|
he didn't buy a frail of dated, a cask of raisins, and a bag of
|
|
almonds, and be done with it? Whereat Mr. Bhaer confiscated her
|
|
purse, produced his own, and finished the marketing by buying
|
|
several pounds of grapes, a pot of rosy daisies, and a pretty
|
|
jar of honey, to be regarded in the light of a demijohn. Then
|
|
distorting his pockets with knobby bundles,and giving her the
|
|
flowers to hold, he put up the old umbrella, and they traveled
|
|
on again.
|
|
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|
"Miss Marsch, I haf a great favor to ask of you," began the
|
|
Professor, after a moist promenade of half a block.
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|
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|
"Yes, sir." And Jo's heart began to beat so hard she was
|
|
afraid he would hear it.
|
|
|
|
"I am bold to say it in spite of the rain, because so short
|
|
a time remains to me."
|
|
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|
"Yes, sir." And Jo nearly crushed the small flowerpot with
|
|
the sudden squeeze she gave it.
|
|
|
|
"I wish to get a little dress for my Tina, and I am too stupid
|
|
to go alone. Will you kindly gif me a word of taste and help?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, sir." And JO felt as calm and cool all of a sudden as if
|
|
she had stepped into a refrigerator.
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps also a shawl for Tina's mother, she is so poor and sick,
|
|
and the husband is such a care. Yes, yes, a thick, warm shawl
|
|
would be a friendly thing to take the little mother."
|
|
|
|
"I'll do it with pleasure, Mr. Bhaer. I'm going very fast,
|
|
and he's getting dearer every minute," added Jo to herself, then
|
|
with a mental shake she entered into the business with an energy
|
|
that was pleasant to behold.
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|
|
|
Mr. Bhaer left it all to her, so she chose a pretty gown for
|
|
Tina, and then ordered out the shawls. The clerk, being a married
|
|
man, condescended to take an interest in the couple, who appeared
|
|
to be shopping for their family.
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|
|
|
"Your lady may prefer this. It's a superior article, a most
|
|
desirable color, quite chaste and genteel," he said, shaking out
|
|
a comfortable gray shawl, and throwing it over Jo's shoulders.
|
|
|
|
"Does this suit you, Mr. Bhaer?" she asked, turning her
|
|
back to him, and feeling deeply grateful for the chance of hiding
|
|
her face.
|
|
|
|
"Excellently well, we will haf it," answered the Professor,
|
|
smiling to himself as he paid for it, while Jo continued to
|
|
rummage the counters like a confirmed bargain-hunter.
|
|
|
|
"Now shall we go home?" he asked, as if the words were
|
|
very pleasant to him.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it's late, and I'm so tired." Jo's voice was more
|
|
pathetic than she knew. For now the sun seemed to have gone
|
|
in as suddenly as it came out, and the world grew muddy and
|
|
miserable again, and for the first time she discovered that her
|
|
feet were cold, her head ached, and that her heart was colder
|
|
than the former, fuller of pain than the latter. Mr. Bhaer
|
|
was going away, he only cared for her as a friend, it was all
|
|
a mistake, and the sooner it was over the better. With this
|
|
idea in her head, she hailed an approaching omnibus with such
|
|
a hasty gesture that the daisies flew out of the pot and were
|
|
badly damaged.
|
|
|
|
"This is not our omniboos," said the Professor, waving the
|
|
loaded vehicle away, and stopping to pick up the poor little
|
|
flowers.
|
|
|
|
"I beg your pardon. I didn't see the name distinctly. Never
|
|
mind, I can walk. I'm used to plodding in the mud," returned Jo,
|
|
winking hard, because she would have died rather than openly
|
|
wipe her eyes.
|
|
MR. Bhaer saw the drops on her cheeks, though she turned her
|
|
head away. The sight seemed to touch him very much, for suddenly
|
|
stooping down, he asked in a tone that meant a great deal, "Heart's
|
|
dearest, why do you cry?"
|
|
|
|
Now, if Jo had not been new to this sort of thing she would
|
|
have said she wasn't crying, had a cold in her head, or told
|
|
any other feminine fib proper to the occasion. Instead of which,
|
|
that undignified creature answered, with an irrepressible sob,
|
|
"Because you are going away."
|
|
|
|
"Ach, mein Gott, that is so good!" cried Mr. Bhaer, managing
|
|
to clasp his hands in spite of the umbrella and the bundles, "Jo,
|
|
I haf nothing but much love to gif you. I came to see if you
|
|
could care for it, and I waited to be sure that I was something
|
|
more than a friend. Am I? Can you make a little place in your
|
|
heart for old Fritz?" he added, all in one breath.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes!" said Jo, and he was quite satisfied, for she
|
|
folded both hands over his are, and looked up at him with an
|
|
expression that plainly showed how happy she would be to walk
|
|
through life beside him, even though she had no better shelter
|
|
than the old umbrella, if he carried it.
|
|
|
|
It was certainly proposing under difficulties, for even if
|
|
he had desired to do so, Mr. Bhaer could not go down upon his
|
|
knees, on account of the mud. Neither could he offer Jo his
|
|
hand, except figuratively, for both were full. Much less could
|
|
he indulge in tender remonstrations in the open street, though
|
|
he was near it. So the only way in which he could express his
|
|
rapture was to look at her, with an expression which glorified
|
|
his face to such a degree that there actually seemed to be
|
|
little rainbows in the drops that sparkled on his beard. If
|
|
he had not loved Jo very much, I don't think he could have done
|
|
it then, for she looked far from lovely, with her skirts in a
|
|
deplorable state, her rubber boots splashed to the ankle, and
|
|
her bonnet a ruin. Fortunately, Mr. Bhaer considered her the
|
|
most beautiful woman living, and she found him more `Jove-like"
|
|
than ever, though his hatbrim was quite limp with the little
|
|
rills trickling thence upon his shoulders (for he held the
|
|
umbrella all over Jo), and every finger of his gloves needed
|
|
mending.
|
|
|
|
Passers-by probably thought them a pair of harmless lun-
|
|
atics, for they entirely forgot to hail a bus, and strolled
|
|
leisurely along, oblivious of deepening dusk and fog. Little
|
|
they cared what anybody thought, for they were enjoying the
|
|
happy hour that seldom comes but once in any life, the magi-
|
|
cal moment which bestows youth on the old, beauty on the plain,
|
|
wealth on the poor, and gives human hearts a foretaste of heaven.
|
|
The Professor looked as if he had conquered a kingdom, and the
|
|
world had nothing more to offer him in the way of bliss. While
|
|
Jo trudged beside him, feeling as if her place had always been
|
|
there, and wondering how she ever could have chosen any other
|
|
lot. Of course, she was the first to speak--intelligibly, I
|
|
mean, for the emotional remarks which followed her impetuous
|
|
"Oh, yes!" were not of a coherent or reportable character.
|
|
|
|
"Friedrich, why didn't you . . ."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, heaven, she gifs me the name that no one speaks since
|
|
Minna died!" cried the Professor, pausing in a puddle to regard
|
|
her with grateful delight.
|
|
|
|
"I always call you so to myself--I forgot, but I won't unless
|
|
you like it."
|
|
|
|
"Like it? It is more sweet to me than I can tell. Say `thou',
|
|
also, and I shall say your language is almost as beautiful as mine."
|
|
|
|
"Isn't `thou' a little sentimental?" asked Jo, privately think-
|
|
ing it a lovely monosyllable.
|
|
|
|
"Sentimental? Yes. Thank Gott, we Germans believe in sentiment,
|
|
and keep ourselves young mit it. Your English `you' is so cold, say
|
|
`thou', heart's dearest, it means so much to me," pleaded Mr. Bhaer,
|
|
more like a romantic student than a grave professor.
|
|
|
|
"Well, then, why didn't thou tell me all this sooner?" asked
|
|
Jo bashfully.
|
|
|
|
"Now I shall haf to show thee all my heart, and I so gladly
|
|
will, because thou must take care of it hereafter. See, then, my
|
|
Jo--ah, the dear, funny little name--I had a wish to tell some-
|
|
thing the day I said goodbye in New York, but I thought the hand-
|
|
some friend was betrothed to thee, and so I spoke not. Wouldst
|
|
thou have said `Yes', then, if I had spoken?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know. I'm afraid not, for I didn't have any heart
|
|
just then."
|
|
|
|
"Prut! That I do not believe. It was asleep till the fairy
|
|
prince came through the wood, and waked it up. Ah, well, `Die
|
|
erste Liebe ist die beste', but that I should not expect."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, the first love is the best, but be so contented, for I
|
|
never had another. Teddy was only a boy, and soon got over his
|
|
little fancy," said Jo, anxious to correct the Professor's mis-
|
|
take.
|
|
|
|
"Good! Then I shall rest happy, and be sure that thou givest
|
|
me all. I haf waited so long, I am grown selfish, as thou wilt
|
|
find , Professorin."
|
|
|
|
"I like that," cried Jo, delighted with her new name. "Now
|
|
tell me what brought you, at last, just when I wanted you?"
|
|
|
|
"This." And Mr. Bhaer took a little worn paper out of his
|
|
waistcoat pocket.
|
|
|
|
Jo unfolded it, and looked much abashed, for it was one of
|
|
her own contributions to a paper that paid for poetry, which
|
|
accounted for her sending it an occasional attempt.
|
|
|
|
"How could that bring you?" she asked, wondering what he
|
|
meant.
|
|
|
|
"I found it by chance. I knew it by the names and the
|
|
initials, and in it there was one little verse that seemed to
|
|
call me. Read and find him. I will see that you go not in
|
|
the wet."
|
|
|
|
IN THE GARRET
|
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|
|
Four little chests all in a row,
|
|
Dim with dust, and worn by time,
|
|
All fashioned and filled, long ago,
|
|
By children now in their prime.
|
|
Four little keys hung side by side,
|
|
With faded ribbons, brave and gay
|
|
When fastened there, with childish pride,
|
|
Long ago, on a rainy day.
|
|
Four little names, one on each lid,
|
|
Carved out by a boyish hand,
|
|
And underneath there lieth hid
|
|
Histories of the happpy band
|
|
Once playing here, and pausing oft
|
|
To hear the sweet refrain,
|
|
That came and went on the roof aloft,
|
|
In the falling summer rain.
|
|
|
|
"Meg" on the first lid, smooth and fair.
|
|
I look in with loving eyes,
|
|
For folded here, with well-known care,
|
|
A goodly gathering lies,
|
|
The record of a peaceful life--
|
|
Gifts to gentle child and girl,
|
|
A bridal gown, lines to a wife,
|
|
A tiny shoe, a baby curl.
|
|
No toys in this first chest remain,
|
|
For all are carried away,
|
|
In their old age, to join again
|
|
In another small Meg's play.
|
|
Ah, happy mother! Well I know
|
|
You hear, like a sweet refrain,
|
|
Lullabies ever soft and low
|
|
In the falling summer rain.
|
|
|
|
"Jo" on the next lid, scratched and worn,
|
|
And within a motley store
|
|
Of headless, dolls, of schoolbooks torn,
|
|
Birds and beasts that speak no more,
|
|
Spoils brought home from the fairy ground
|
|
Only trod by youthful feet,
|
|
Dreams of a future never found,
|
|
Memories of a past still sweet,
|
|
Half-writ poems, stories wild,
|
|
April letters, warm and cold,
|
|
Diaries of a wilful child,
|
|
Hints of a woman early old,
|
|
A woman in a lonely home,
|
|
Hearing, like a sad refrain--
|
|
"Be worthy, love, and love will come,"
|
|
In the falling summer rain.
|
|
|
|
My Beth! the dust is always swept
|
|
From the lid that bears your name,
|
|
As if by loving eyes that wept,
|
|
By careful hands that often came.
|
|
Death cannonized for us one saint,
|
|
Ever less human than divine,
|
|
And still we lay, with tender plaint,
|
|
Relics in this household shrine--
|
|
The silver bell, so seldom rung,
|
|
The little cap which last she wore,
|
|
The fair, dead Catherine that hung
|
|
By angels borne above her door.
|
|
The songs she sang, without lament,
|
|
In her prison-house of pain,
|
|
Forever are they sweetly blent
|
|
With the falling summer rain.
|
|
|
|
Upon the last lid's polished field--
|
|
Legend now both fair and true
|
|
A gallant knight bears on his shield,
|
|
"Amy" in letters gold and blue.
|
|
Within lie snoods that bound her hair,
|
|
Slippers that have danced their last,
|
|
Faded flowers laid by with care,
|
|
Fans whose airy toils are past,
|
|
Gay valentines, all ardent flames,
|
|
Trifles that have borne their part
|
|
In girlish hopes and fears and shames,
|
|
The record of a maiden heart
|
|
Now learning fairer, truer spells,
|
|
Hearing, like a blithe refrain,
|
|
The silver sound of bridal bells
|
|
In the falling summer rain.
|
|
|
|
Four little chests all in a row,
|
|
Dim with dust, and worn by time,
|
|
Four women, taught by weal and woe
|
|
To love and labor in their prime.
|
|
Four sisters, parted for an hour,
|
|
None lost, one only gone before,
|
|
Made by love's immortal power,
|
|
Nearest and dearest evermore.
|
|
Oh, when these hidden stores of ours
|
|
Lie open to the Father's sight,
|
|
May they be rich in golden hours,
|
|
Deeds that show fairer for the light,
|
|
Lives whose brave music long shall ring,
|
|
Like a spirit-stirring strain,
|
|
Souls that shall gladly soar and sing
|
|
In the long sunshine after rain.
|
|
|
|
"It's very bad poetry, but I felt it when I wrote it, one day
|
|
when I was very lonely, and had a good cry on a rag bag. I never
|
|
thought it would go where it could tell tales," said Jo, tearing
|
|
up the verses the Professor had treasured so long.
|
|
|
|
"Let it go, it has done it's duty, and I will haf a fresh one
|
|
when I read all the brown book in which she keeps her little
|
|
secrets," said Mr. Bhaer with a smile as he watched the fragments
|
|
fly away on the wind. "Yes," he added earnestly, "I read that,
|
|
and I think to myself, She has a sorrow, she is lonely, she would
|
|
find comfort in true love. I haf a heart full, full for her. Shall
|
|
I not go and say, "If this is not too poor a thing to gif for what
|
|
I shall hope to receive, take it in Gott's name?"
|
|
|
|
"And so you came to find that it was not too poor,but the one
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precious thing I needed," whispered Jo.
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"I had no courage to think that at first, heavenly kind as was
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your welcome to me. But soon I began to hope, and then I said, `I
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will haf her if I die for it'. and so I will!" cried Mr. Bhaer,
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with a defiant nod, as if the walls of mist closing round them were
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barriers which he was to surmount or valiantly knock down.
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Jo thought that was splendid, and resolved to be worthy of her
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knight, though he did not come prancing on a charger in gorgeous
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array.
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"What made you stay away so long?" she asked presently, finding
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it so pleasant to ask confidential questions and get delightful
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answers that she could not keep silent.
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"It was not easy, but I could not find the heart to take you
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from that so happy home until I could haf a prospect of one to
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gif you, after much time, perhaps, and hard work. How could I ask
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you to gif up so much for a poor old fellow, who has no fortune
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but a little learning?"
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"I'm glad you are poor. I couldn't bear a rich husband,"
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said Jo decidedly, adding in a softer tone, "Don't fear poverty.
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I've known it long enough to lose my dread and be happy working
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for those I love, and don't call yourself old--forty is the prime
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of life. I couldn't help loving you if you were seventy!"
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The Professor found that so touching that he would have been
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glad of his handkerchief, if he could have got at it. As her
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couldn't, Jo wiped his eyes for him, and said, laughing, as she
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took away a bundle or two...
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"I may be strong-minded, but no one can say I'm out of my
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sphere now, for woman's special mission is supposed to be drying
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tears and bearing burdens. I'm to carry my share, Friedrich,
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and help to earn the home. Make up your mind to that, or I'll
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never go," she added resolutely, as he tried to reclaim his load.
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"We shall see. Haf you patience to wait a long time, Jo?
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I must go away and do my work alone. I must help my boys first,
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because, even for you, I may not break my word to Minna. Can
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you forgif that, and be happy while we hope and wait?"
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"Yes, I know I can, for we love one another, and that makes
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all the rest easy to bear. I have my duty, also, and my work.
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I couldn't enjoy myself if I neglected them even for you, so
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there's no need of hurry or impatience. You can do your part
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out West, I can do mine here, and both be happy hoping for the
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best, and leaving the future to be as God wills."
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"Ah! Thou gifest me such hope and courage, and I haf nothing
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to gif back but a full heart and these empty hands," cried the
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Professor, quite overcome.
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Jo never, never would learn to be proper, for when he said
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that as they stood upon the steps, she just put both hands into
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his, whispering tenderly, "Not empty now," and stooping down,
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kissed her Friedrich under the umbrella. It was dreadful, but
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she would have done it if the flock of draggle-tailed sparrows
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on the hedge had been human beings, for she was very far gone
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indeed, and quite regardless of everything but her own happiness.
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Though it came in such a very simple guise, that was the crowning
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moment of both their lives, when, turning from the night and
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storm and loneliness to the household light and warmth and peace
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waiting to receive them, with a glad "Welcome home!" Jo led her
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lover in, and shut the door.
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CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
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For a year Jo and her Professor worked and waited, hoped
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and loved, met occasionally, and wrote such voluminous letters
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that the rise in the price of paper was accounted for, Laurie
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said. The second year began rather soberly, for their pros-
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pects did not brighten, and Aunt March died suddenly. But
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when their first sorrow was over--for they loved the old lady
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in spite of her sharp tongue--they found they had cause for
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rejoicing, for she had left Plumfield to Jo, which made all
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sorts of joyful things possible.
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"It's a fine old place, and will bring a handsome sum, for
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of course you intend to sell it," said Laurie, as they were all
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talking the matter over some weeks later.
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"No, I don't," was Jo's decided answer, as she petted the
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fat poodle, whom she had adopted, out of respect to his former
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mistress.
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"You don't mean to live there?"
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"Yes, I do."
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"But, my dear girl, it's an immense house, and will take a
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power of money to keep it in order. The garden and orchard alone
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need two or three men, and farming isn't in Bhaer's line, I take
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it."
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"He'll try his hand at it there, if I propose it."
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"And you expect to live on the produce of the place? Well,
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that sounds paradisiacal, but you'll find it desperate hard work."
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"The crop we are going to raise is a profitable one," And
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Jo laughed.
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"Of what is this fine crop to consist, ma'am?"
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"Boys. I want to open a school for little lads--a good,
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happy, homelike school, with me to take care of them and Fritz
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to teach them."
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"That's a truly Joian plan for you! Isn't that just like
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her?" cried Laurie, appealing to the family, who looked as much
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surprised as he.
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"I like it," said Mrs. March decidedly.
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"So do I," added her husband, who welcomed the thought of
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a chance for trying the Socratic method of education on modern
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youth.
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"It will be an immense care for Jo," said Meg, stroking
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the head or her one all-absorbing son.
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"Jo can do it, and be happy in it. It's a splendid idea.
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Tell us all about it," cried Mr. Laurence, who had been longing
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to lend the lovers a hand, but knew that they would refuse his
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help.
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"I knew you'd stand by me, sir. Amy does too--I see it in
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her eyes, though she prudently waits to turn it over in her mind
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before she speaks. Now, my dear people," continued Jo earnestly,
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"just understand that this isn't a new idea of mine, but a long-
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cherished plan. Before my Fritz came, I used to think how, when
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I'd made my fortune, and no one needed me at home, I'd hire a
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big house, and pick up some poor, forlorn little lads who hadn't
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any mothers, and take care of them, and make life jolly for them
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before it was too late. I see so many going to ruin for want of
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help at the right minute, I love so to do anything for them, I
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seem to feel their wants, and sympathize with their troubles, and
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oh, I should so like to be a mother to them!"
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Mrs. March held out her hand to Jo, who took it, smiling,
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with tears in her eyes, and went on in the old enthusiastic way,
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which they had not seen for a long while.
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"I told my plan to Fritz once, and he said it was just what
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he would like, and agreed to try it when we got rich. Bless his
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dear heart, he's been doing it all his life--helping poor boys, I
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mean, not getting rich, that he'll never be. Money doesn't stay
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in his pocket long enough to lay up any. But now, thanks to my
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good old aunt, who loved me better than I ever deserved, I'm rich,
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at least I feel so, and we can live at Plumfield perfectly well,
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if we have a flourishing school. It's just the place for boys,
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the house is big, and the furniture strong and plain. There's
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plenty of room for dozens inside, and splendid grounds outside.
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They could help in the garden and orchard. Such work is healthy,
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isn't it, sir? Then Fritz could train and teach in his own way,
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and Father will help him. I can feed and nurse and pet and scold
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them, and Mother will be my stand-by. I've always longed for lots
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of boys, and never had enough, now I can fill the house full and
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revel in the little dears to my heart's content. Think what lux-
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ury--Plumfield my own, and a wilderness of boys to enjoy it with
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me."
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As Jo waved her hands and gave a sigh of rapture, the family
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went off into a gale of merriment, and Mr. Laurence laughed till
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they thought he'd have an apoplectic fit.
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"I don't see anything funny," she said gravely, when she
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could be heard. "Nothing could be more natural and proper than
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for my Professor to open a school, and for me to prefer to reside
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in my own estate."
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"She is putting on airs already," said Laurie, who regarded
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the idea in the light of a capital joke. "But may I inquire how
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you intend to support the establishment? If all the pupils are
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little ragamuffins, I'm afraid your crop won't be profitable in
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a worldly sense, Mr. Bhaer."
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"Now don't be a wet-blanket, Teddy. Of course I shall have
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rich pupils, also--perhaps begin with such altogether. Then,
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when I've got a start, I can take in a ragamuffin or two, just
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for a relish. Rich people's children often need care and comfort,
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as well as poor. I've seen unfortunate little creatures left to
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servants, or backward ones pushed forward, when it's real cruelty.
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Some are naughty through mismanagment or neglect, and some lose
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their mothers. Besides, the best have to get through the hobble-
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dehoy age, and that's the very time they need most patience and
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kindness. People laugh at them, and hustle them about, try to
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keep them out of sight, and expect them to turn all at once from
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pretty children into fine young men. They don't complain much--
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plucky little souls--but they feel it. I've been through some-
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thing of it, and I know all about it. I've a special interest
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in such young bears, and like to show them that I see the warm,
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honest, well-meaning boys' hearts, in spite of the clumsy arms
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and legs and the topsy-turvy heads. I've had experience, too,
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for haven't I brought up one boy to be a pride and honor to his
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family?"
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"I'll testify that you tried to do it," said Laurie with a
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grateful look.
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"And I've succeeded beyond my hopes, for here you are, a
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steady, sensible businessman, doing heaps of good with your
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money, and laying up the blessings of the poor, instead of dollars.
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But you are not merely a businessman, you love good and beautiful
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things, enjoy them yourself, and let others go halves, as you
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always did in the old times. I am proud of you, Teddy, for you
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get better every year, and everyone feels it, though you won't
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let them say so. Yes, and when I have my flock, I'll just point
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to you, and say `There's your model, my lads'."
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Poor Laurie didn't know where to look, for, man though he
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was, something of the old bashfulness came over him as this burst
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|
of praise made all faces turn approvingly upon him.
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"I say, Jo, that's rather too much," he began, just in his
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|
old boyish way. "You have all done more for me than I can ever
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|
thank you for, except by doing my best not to disapoint you. You
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|
have rather cast me off lately, Jo, but I've had the best of help,
|
|
nevertheless. So, if I've got on at all, you may thank these two
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|
for it." And he laid one hand gently on his grandfather's head,
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and the other on Amy's golden one, for the three were never far
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apart.
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"I do think that families are the most beautiful things in
|
|
all the world!" burst out Jo, who was in an unusually up-lifted
|
|
frame of mind just then. "When I have one of my own, I hope it
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will be as happy as the three I know and love the best. If John
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and my Fritz were only here, it would be quite a little heaven
|
|
on earth," she added more quietly. And that night when she went
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|
to her room after a blissful evening of family counsels, hopes,
|
|
and plans, her heart was so full of happiness that she could only
|
|
calm it by kneeling beside the empty bed always near her own, and
|
|
thinking tender thoughts of Beth.
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It was a very astonishing year altogether, for things seemed
|
|
to happen in an unusually rapid and delightful manner. Almost
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|
before she knew where she was, Jo found herself married and set-
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|
tled at Plumfield. Then a family of six or seven boys sprung up
|
|
like mushrooms, and flourished surprisingly, poor boys as well as
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|
rich, for Mr. Laurence was continually finding some touching case
|
|
of destitution, and begging the Bhaers to take pity on the child,
|
|
and he would gladly pay a trifle for its support. In this way,
|
|
the sly old gentleman got round proud Jo, and furnished her with
|
|
the style of boy in which she most delighted.
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Of course it was uphill work at first, and Jo made queer
|
|
mistakes, but the wise Professor steered her safely into calmer
|
|
waters, and the most rampant ragamuffin was conquered in the end.
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|
How Jo did enjoy her `wilderness of boys', and how poor, dear
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Aunt March would have lamented had she been there to see the
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|
sacred precincts of prim, well-ordered Plumfield overrun with
|
|
Toms, Dicks, and Harrys! There was a sort of poetic justice
|
|
about it, after all, for the old lady had been the terror of
|
|
the boys for miles around, and now the exiles feasted freely
|
|
on forbidden plums, kicked up the gravel with profane boots un-
|
|
reproved, and played cricket in the big field where the irritable
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|
`cow with a crumpled horn' used to invite rash youths to come and
|
|
be tossed. It became a sort of boys' paradise, and Laurie sug-
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|
gested that it should be called the `Bhaer-garten', as a compli-
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|
ment to its master and appropriate to its inhabitants.
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It never was a fashionable school, and the Professor did not
|
|
lay up a fortune, but it was just what Jo intended it to be--`a
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|
happy, homelike place for boys, who needed teaching, care, and
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|
kindness'. Every room in the big house was soon full. Every
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|
little plot in the garden soon had its owner. A regular mena-
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|
gerie appeared in barn and shed, for pet animals were allowed.
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|
And three times a day, Jo smiled at her Fritz from the head of
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|
a long table lined on either side with rows of happy young faces,
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|
which all turned to her with affectionate eyes, confiding words,
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|
and grateful hearts, full of love for `Mother Bhaer'. She had
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|
boys enough now, and did not tire of them, though they were not
|
|
angels, by any means, and some of them caused both Professor and
|
|
Professorin much trouble and anxiety. But her faith in the good
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|
spot which exists in the heart of the naughtiest, sauciest, most
|
|
tantalizing little ragamuffin gave her patience, skill, and in
|
|
time success, for no mortal boy could hold out long with Father
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|
Bhaer shining on him as benevolently as the sun, and Mother Bhaer
|
|
forgiving him seventy times seven. Very precious to Jo was the
|
|
friendship of the lads, their penitent sniffs and whispers after
|
|
wrongdoing, their droll or touching little confidences, their
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|
pleasant enthusiasms, hopes, and plans, even their misfortunes,
|
|
for they only endeared them to her all the more. There were slow
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|
boys and bashful boys, feeble boys and riotous boys, boys that
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|
lisped and boys that stuttered, one or two lame ones, and a
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|
merry little quadroon, who could not be taken in elsewhere, but
|
|
who was welcome to the `Bhaer-garten', though some people pre-
|
|
dicted that his admission would ruin the school.
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Yes, Jo was a very happy woman there, in spite of hard work,
|
|
much anxiety, and a perpetual racket. She enjoyed it heartily and
|
|
found the applause of her boys more satisfying than any praise of
|
|
the world, for now she told no stories except to her flock of
|
|
enthusiastic believers and admirers. As the years went on, two
|
|
little lads of her own came to increase her happiness--Rob,
|
|
named for Grandpa, and Teddy, a happy-go-lucky baby, who seemed
|
|
to have inherited his papa's sunshiny temper as well as his
|
|
mother's lively spirit. How they ever grew up alive in that
|
|
whirlpool of boys was a mystery to their grandma and aunts, but
|
|
they flourished like dandelions in spring, and their rough
|
|
nurses loved and served them well.
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|
There were a great many holidays at Plumfield, and one of
|
|
the most delightful was the yearly apple-picking. For then the
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|
Marches, Laurences, Brookes. And Bhaers turned out in full force
|
|
and made a day of it. Five years after Jo's wedding, one of these
|
|
fruitful festivals occurred, a mellow October day, when the air
|
|
was full of an exhilarating freshness which made the spirits rise
|
|
and the blood dance healthily in the veins. The old orchard wore
|
|
its holiday attire. Goldenrod and asters fringed the mossy walls.
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|
Grasshoppers skipped briskly in the sere grass, and crickets chir-
|
|
ped like fairy pipers at a feast. Squirrels were busy with their
|
|
small harvesting. Birds twittered their adieux from the alders
|
|
in the lane, and every tree stood ready to send down its shower
|
|
of red or yellow apples at the first shake. Everybody was there.
|
|
Everybody laughed and sang, climbed up and tumbled down. Every-
|
|
body declared that there never had been such a perfect day or
|
|
such a jolly set to enjoy it, and everyone gave themselves up to
|
|
the simple pleasures of the hour as freely as if there were no
|
|
such things as care or sorrow in the world.
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Mr. March strolled placidly about, quoting Tusser, Cowley,
|
|
and Columella to Mr. Laurence, while enjoying . . .
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The gentle apple's winey juice.
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|
The Professor charged up and down the green aisles like a stout
|
|
Teutonic knight, with a pole for a lance, leading on the boys,
|
|
who made a hook and ladder company of themselves, and performed
|
|
wonders in the way of ground and lofty tumbling. Laurie devoted
|
|
himself to the little ones, rode his small daughter in a bushel-
|
|
basket, took Daisy up among the bird's nests, and kept adventur-
|
|
ous Rob from breaking his neck. Mrs. March and Meg sat among
|
|
the apple piles like a pair of Pomonas, sorting the contributions
|
|
that kept pouring in, while Amy with a beautiful motherly express-
|
|
ion in her face sketched the various groups, and watched over one
|
|
pale lad, who sat adoring her with his little crutch beside him.
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|
Jo was in her element that day, and rushed about, with her
|
|
gown pinned up, and her hat anywhere but on her head, and her
|
|
baby tucked under her arm, ready for any lively adventure which
|
|
might turn up. Little Teddy bore a charmed life, for nothing
|
|
ever happened to him, and Jo never felt any anxiety when he was
|
|
whisked up into a tree by one lad, galloped off on the back of
|
|
another, or supplied with sour russets by his indulgent papa,
|
|
who labored under the Germanic delusion that babies could digest
|
|
anything, from pickled cabbage to buttons, nails, and their own
|
|
small shoes. She knew that little Ted would turn up again in
|
|
time, safe and rosy, dirty and serene, and she always received
|
|
him back with a hearty welcome, for Jo loved her babies tenderly.
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|
At four o'clock a lull took place, and baskets remained
|
|
empty, while the apple pickers rested and compared rents and
|
|
bruises. Then Jo and Meg, with a detachment of the bigger boys,
|
|
set forth the supper on the grass, for an out-of-door tea was
|
|
always the crowning joy of the day. The land literally flowed
|
|
with milk and honey on such occasions, for the lads were not
|
|
required to sit at table, but allowed to partake of refreshment
|
|
as they liked--freedom being the sauce best beloved by the boy-
|
|
ish soul. They availed themselves of the rare privilege to the
|
|
fullest extent, for some tried the pleasing experiment of drink-
|
|
ing mild while standing on their heads, others lent a charm to
|
|
leapfrog by eating pie in the pauses of the game, cookies were
|
|
sown broadcast over the field, and apple turnovers roosted in
|
|
the trees like a new style of bird. The little girls had a
|
|
private tea party, and Ted roved among the edibles at his own
|
|
sweet will.
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|
When no one could eat any more, the Professor proposed the
|
|
first regular toast, which was always drunk at such times--"Aunt
|
|
March, God bless her!" A toast heartily given by the good man,
|
|
who never forgot how much he owed her, and quietly drunk by the
|
|
boys, who had been taught to keep her memory green.
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|
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|
"Now, Grandma's sixtieth birthday! Long life to her, with
|
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three times three!"
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|
That was given with a will, as you may well believe, and
|
|
the cheering once begun, it was hard to stop it. Everybody's
|
|
health was proposed, form Mr. Laurence, who was considered their
|
|
special patron, to the astonished guinea pig, who had strayed
|
|
from its proper sphere in search of its young master. Demi, as
|
|
the oldest grandchild, then presented the queen of the day with
|
|
various gifts, so numerous that they were transported to the
|
|
festive scene in a wheelbarrow. Funny presents, some of them,
|
|
but what would have been defects to other eyes were ornaments
|
|
to Grandma's--for the children's gifts were all their own. Every
|
|
stitch Daisy's patient little fingers had put into the handker-
|
|
chiefs she hemmed was better than embroidery to Mrs. March. Demi's
|
|
miracle of mechanical skill, though the cover wouldn't shut, Rob's
|
|
footstool had a wiggle in its uneven legs that she declared was
|
|
soothing, and no page of the costly book Amy's child gave her was
|
|
so fair as that on which appeared in tipsy capitals, the words--
|
|
"To dear Grandma, from her little Beth."
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|
|
|
During the ceremony the boys had mysteriously disappeared,
|
|
and when Mrs. March had tried to thank her children, and broken
|
|
down, while Teddy wiped her eyes on his pinafore, the Professor
|
|
suddenly began to sing. Then, from above him, voice after voice
|
|
took up the words, and from tree to tree echoed the music of the
|
|
unseen choir, as the boys sang with all their hearts the little
|
|
song that Jo had written, Laurie set to music, and the Professor
|
|
trained his lads to give with the best effect. This was some-
|
|
thing altogether new, and it proved a grand success, for Mrs.
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March couldn't get over her surprise, and insisted on shaking
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hands with every one of the featherless birds, from tall Franz
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and Emil to the little quadroon, who had the sweetest voice of
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all.
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After this, the boys dispersed for a final lark, leaving Mrs.
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March and her daughters under the festival tree.
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"I don't think I ever ought to call myself `unlucky Jo' again,
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when my greatest wish has been so beautifully gratified," said Mrs.
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Bhaer, taking Teddy's little fist out of the milk pitcher, in which
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he was rapturously churning.
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"And yet your life is very different from the one you pictured
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so long ago. Do you remember our castles in the air?" asked Amy,
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smiling as she watched Laurie and John playing cricket with the
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boys.
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"Dear fellows! It does my heart good to see them forget bus-
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iness and frolic for a day," answered Jo, who now spoke in a maternal
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way of all mankind. "Yes, I remember, but the life I wanted then
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seems selfish, lonely, and cold to me now. I haven't given up the
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hope that I may write a good book yet, but I can wait, and I'm
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sure it will be all the better for such experiences and illustra-
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tions as these." And Jo pointed from the lively lads in the
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distance to her father, leaning on the Professor's arm, as they
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walked to and fro in the sunshine, deep in one of the conversations
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which both enjoyed so much, and then to her mother, sitting en-
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throned among her daughters, with their children in her lap and at
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her feet, as if all found help and happiness in the face which
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never could grow old to them.
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"My castle was the most nearly realized of all. I asked for
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splendid things, to be sure, but in my heart I knew I should be
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satisfied, if I had a little home, and John, and some dear chil-
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dren like these. I've got them all, thank God, and am the
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happiest woman in the world." And Meg laid her hand on her tall
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boy's head, with a face full of tender and devout content.
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"My castle is very different from what I planned, but I would
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not alter it, though, like Jo, I don't relinquish all my artistic
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hopes, or confine myself to helping others fulfill their dreams of
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beauty. I've begun to model a figure of baby, and Laurie says it
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is the best thing I've ever done. I think so, myself, and mean
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to do it in marble, so that, whatever happens, I may at least keep
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the image of my little angel."
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As Amy spoke, a great tear dropped on the golden hair of the
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sleeping child in her arms, for her one well-beloved daughter was
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a frail little creature and the dread of losing her was the shad-
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ow over Amy's sunshine. This cross was doing much for both father
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and mother, for one love and sorrow bound them closely together.
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Amy's nature was growing sweeter, deeper, and more tender. Laurie
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was growing more serious, strong, and firm, and both were learning
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that beauty, youth, good fortune, even love itself, cannot keep
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care and pain, loss and sorrow, from the most blessed for ...
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Into each life some rain must fall,
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Some days must be dark and sad and dreary.
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"She is growing better, I am sure of it, my dear. Don't
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despond, but hope and keep happy," said Mrs. March, as tender-
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hearted Daisy stooped from her knee to lay her rosy cheek against
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her little cousin's pale one.
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"I never ought to, while I have you to cheer me up, Marmee,
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and Laurie to take more than half of every burden," replied Amy
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warmly. "He never lets me see his anxiety, but is so sweet and
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patient with me, so devoted to Beth, and such a stay and comfort
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to me always that I can't love him enough. So, in spite of my
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one cross, I can say with Meg, `Thank God, I'm a happy woman.'"
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"There's no need for me to say it, for everyone can see
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that I'm far happier than I deserve," added Jo, glancing from
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her good husband to her chubby children, tumbling on the grass
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beside her. "Fritz is getting gray and stout. I'm growing as
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thin as a shadow, and am thirty. We never shall be rich, and
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Plumfield may burn up any night, for that incorrigible Tommy
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Bangs will smoke sweet-fern cigars under the bed-clothes,
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though he's set himself afire three times already. But in
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spite of these unromantic facts, I have nothing to complain
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of, and never was so jolly in my life. Excuse the remark, but
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living among boys, I can't help using their expressions now
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and then."
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"Yes, Jo, I think your harvest will be a good one," began
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Mrs. March, frightening away a big black cricket that was
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staring Teddy out of countenance.
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"Not half so good as yours, Mother. Here it is, and we
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never can thank you enough for the patient sowing and reaping
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you have done," cried Jo, with the loving impetuosity which
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she never would outgrow.
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"I hope there will be more wheat and fewer tares every
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year," said Amy softly.
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"A large sheaf, but I know there's room in your heart for
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it, Marmee dear," added Meg's tender voice.
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Touched to the heart, Mrs. March could only stretch out
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her arms, as if to gather children and grandchildren to herself,
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and say, with face and voice full of motherly love, gratitude,
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and humility...
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"Oh, my girls, however long you may live, I never can
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wish you a greater happiness than this!"
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END OF LITTLE WOMEN
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