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Newsgroups: alt.drugs.psychedelics
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While certainly the possibility exists that psychedelics can make one more
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cynical to religious beliefs, I believe, in most cases, including my own,
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that they have the opposite effect.
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I was a die-hard atheist/rationalist/skeptic for about a decade. After Trip 1,
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I was convinced of the need to begin to meditate. By trip 2 I had my
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first honest-to-goodness spiritual vision, trips 3 and 4 reaffirmed my
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connection to nature and the ectstasy of pagan rites, trip 5 showed me the
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awesome potential of spirituality, yet warned me what would happen if I went
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too far. Trip 6, I went too far, but learned a lot. Trip 7 was my first on
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shrooms and reminded me how screwed up everything was. Trip 8 was a
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celebration of my having taken 5 classes, passed them all, as well as been
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completely enmeshed in psychedelics use. Trip 9 was with a very close
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friend where we reminisced about the past 'n' stuff, trip 10 was SUPPOSED to be
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my farewell to acid for a long time. Finally, much later, trip 11 reminded
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me how I much acid has done for my life...it was also perhaps, my most profound
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trip since number 2.
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Trip 2 was the ringer. Breaking every rule, I ran out to the woods with
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nothing but a blanket. They told me not to do it. I never saw a person
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until the tail end. To this day I'm not exactly sure what happened,
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except that at one point I found myself on the top of a very tall, thin
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tree, swaying in the breeze. I was crying, caressing the tree like a
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madman. At one point a new thought flashed across my mind "Of COURSE trees
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have spirits." At that point the forest became alive. I climbed down the
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tree, found a sacred grove, collapsed, looked up, and saw a frog thing looking
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back at me. At first I thought it was just a boulder, but then it blinked,
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and began turning skeletal. Its face showed an infinite amount of emotion.
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It wandered around in the woods like a woodland creature, eying me as would
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a deer. The trees became alive and skeletal too. It was absolute ecstasy.
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By the time I came around, I blinked, and it was night-time. Scary.
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Since then, I've never really been able to recreate the experience. To
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this day I can't even find the site where it happened.
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What played with my mind, was that my first spiritual expereience, also
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happened to be my second acid trip. The intersection is VERY rare as I
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later found out the hard way. But with isolation, fasting, and believing,
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psychedelics can be a legit spiritual aid, used by shamans and tribesmen
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for millenia.
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People who knew me a mere year ago would have been aghast at how much I've
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changed. About the only thing that's stayed the same is that I'm still a
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CS major, though not with the same future-o-phoric zeal I once had.
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--Bengo
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