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°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°FURRY ORPHAN OF WAR°°°°°°°°°°°°°°°Allen Ruffin
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We could not pronounce his name, so we called him Kim. Our
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houseboy. Actually, Kim was a member of a group who had signed up
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to work for the GI's to avoid being drafted into his own army. In
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1952 Korea, that was as good as a sentence of death.
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He did pretty well. He slept in a tent with the other Korean
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helpers who had cots, blankets, sleeping bags, clothing, plenty of
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food, and no combat duty. They were the kitchen K.P.'s, a task
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loathed by all GI's, helpers who carried five-gallon cans of coffee
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to each of our dugouts in the mornings and brought food and coffee
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to those on duty, carried in the water and fuel cans--well,
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usually, but not always and sometimes we had to lug these
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ourselves--and did other useful chores such as washing and ironing,
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and airing out sleeping bags. Very useful to have around. When any
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shooting started, they vanished. Utterly. And who could blame them.
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After all, as we often said kiddingly, "Hey, a guy could get killed
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around here." Some did.
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The Korean helpers were paid small sums from the company fund.
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To have a houseboy, the twelve of us in the dugout chipped in about
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a dollar a month equivalent in Korean Wan--which was like play
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money to us--or maybe a little more if Kim got in a snit over
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working too hard. He made more on the side by crafting personal
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footlockers from scrap wood. They were beautifully made. He was an
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artist with the crude, handmade pull-saw, bent nails, some leather
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and sand. Yep, sand. We didn't have any sandpaper, so he rubbed the
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wood surface smooth with damp rags and fine sand. Then he rubbed it
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to a sheen with oil he scrounged from somewhere or other. I paid
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him five bucks American for mine, which was a fortune compared to
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the value of Wan, which was changing day by day.
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He made our dirty, dreary, always-frightened lives more
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comfortable over the months of summer. In time, I became temporary
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Sergeant of the Guard, a post which rotated among all the new
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arrivals who had been there longest without a regular assignment.
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During night rounds, I often saw a scrawny, snarling Doberman
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Pinscher stalking our perimeters. This was a trained military guard
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dog that had become loose when his handler, a member of the
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division mine replaced, was killed. Coming up this valley, that
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division was ambushed from the mountains on each side and lost a
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thousand men for every yard of ground taken. They were withdrawn to
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Japan and replaced by the division I joined as a replacement, an
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activated National Guard unit. Very laid back. They left food out
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for the dog, but never tried to befriend it. They were afraid.
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In time, I coaxed the dog into coming near. Then to accepting
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bits of meat from my hand. Then to allowing me to rub its breast
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and stroke its ears and muzzle. I knew Dobermans. The aunt back
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home who raised my fiance had three of them. Yessir, I knew
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Dobermans, but I couldn't make a friend of this one. Ever hear of
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shell shock? Battle fatigue? This animal had it. Whenever there
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was an explosion, even of distant artillery fire, the dog was gone
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in a flash and didn't reappear for days. I always loved dogs, and
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had a Dalmatian back home that I had trained to hunt. They are the
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old bird dogs of Dalmatia, you know. Wished I'd had him in Korea,
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too. There were pheasants and ducks all over the place.
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One morning, I was astonished to see as the sun rose that the
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rice paddies were covered bank-to-bank with mallards. At the first
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break of light, they all started quacking at once. If I hadn't seen
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them first, it would have scared the shit out of me. The Chinese
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army we faced made queer noises before an attack. You never knew.
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In Korea, the sun is up in an instant. You see a little bit of
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the sun over the mountain with just ever so little light, and it
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sort of hangs there for a while. Then in the blink of an eye, it is
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up well above the horizon and everything is bathed in full light.
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No sort of half-light like mornings at home when I was running my
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trapline before school. Something to do with refraction over an
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edge, that edge being the mountain. I looked it up.
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Shortly after, the ducks would all take flight at once. It was
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a marvelous sight, thousands and thousands of mallards from all the
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paddies in the valley zipping up and down, the low sun glistening
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on their twinkling wings. I could tell mallards from other ducks
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from a distance ever after that by how fast their wings were
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beating. And quacking. Duck music. It gets you if you are an
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outdoors type. I'd give anything to hear that many at once again.
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The second or third morning after the ducks arrived, I was
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doing an early turn to check the guards and make sure nobody was
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asleep in case some gung-ho officer decided to leave his warm bunk
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and sneak around to find somebody he could chew out and give
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company punishment. In the first weak light, I thought I saw
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something funny down by the paddies, and so I hopped into a
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machine-gun pit with the guard where there was a telephone. I had
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to hold the bells so to make no sound when I cranked it. I cranked
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and cranked before the operator woke up and cussed me when I wanted
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to get through to the duty officer. He wasn't there, and so when
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the sun popped I could see what was going on and it was just as
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well I hadn't gotten through and been responsible for a mortar
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attack.
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There weren't supposed to be any civilians where we were. Some
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would show up every once in a while, of course, and usually get
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shot. Never knew but they might have a basket full of grenades or
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a machine gun strapped to their backs. It happened. Around the rice
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paddies there were hundreds of them. As soon as the sun became
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bright, half of them jumped up and began to run in one direction
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with paddy-size nets, while the other half ran in the other
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direction yelling, screaming, and waving their arms. It was over in
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minutes, and only a couple of hundred ducks were left to fly around
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quacking their distress.
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Where all those Koreans and the ducks disappeared to so fast,
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I never found out. They needed the protein, and were starved for
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meat. I once saw a tired, thin old horse die in the traces on a
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street in Seoul, and before you could say Jack Robinson there was
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a crowd with knives, saws, sharp scrap metal, screaming at each
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other in that funny way that sounds like clearing your throat, and
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even eating the meat warm, bloody-raw. The meat was gone in moments
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and nothing but bones left steaming in the roadway. Minutes more,
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and only a bloodstain remained. Can't blame them. War is tough.
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I never saw that poor Doberman again.
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One morning, after I had finally left the guard unit and
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gotten my regular assignment, Kim woke me early, shaking me and
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whispering, "Dog-u, Dog-u."
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I thought he meant that the Doberman was back. I dressed in a
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hurry, grabbed my grease gun and made sure I had the double-clips
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taped together stuck in it, snagged my helmet just in case, and
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followed him wearing only the floppies he had made me of bits and
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pieces of leather and chunks of tire tread for soles since he was
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rushing me too much to put on combat boots and do GI lacing. Kim
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led me away from the dugouts and up the side of the mountain, and
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I began to get a little scared. After all, he was a Korean and we
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were never sure which side any of them were on. I did radio work
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among other things, and I heard that they knew plenty of us by our
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nicknames. Kim could have been a Commie leading me into an ambush
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as easy as not. I wanted to go back, but he kept motioning me on
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and I couldn't let him see I was scared. Until I heard a puppy cry.
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Kim led me to a little hole under one of those tiny, scraggy
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pine trees that grow on the mountains. It looked like someone had
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started to dig a foxhole or maybe a tunnel there, had hit a rock or
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big root or something, and given up. Pine boughs had fallen over
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the top and needles collected on the top of that to make a
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sheltered spot. Down in the back was a nest made of leaves, bits
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and pieces of cloth, what looked like white wool. Kim reached in
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and picked up the bit of wool, which turned out to be a tiny, tiny
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little puppy. Its eyes were still closed, and its ears sealed to
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the sides of its head. But, its mouth was open and the lungs worked
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fine. It was hungry and wanted its mother. There were signs in the
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hole that she had tried to bury this pup, but maybe had to leave in
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too much of a hurry. Usually the bitch never abandons a pup
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without good cause. Maybe she had gone hunting and had gotten
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killed.
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I dipped the twisted end of my handkerchief into my canteen,
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and gave it to the pup to suck which it did again and again. Water
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helps, but is no substitute for food. I gave Kim another five
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dollars American--he refused to take Wan--to get some GI canned
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condensed milk by whatever scheme, and some eggs. Milk was
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plentiful, but eggs were a little harder. We could only get them if
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we were allowed to eat apart from the mess hall because of our
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strange duty hours with the radios, and they were counted
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carefully.
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I fed that pup with the rag twist and condensed milk for
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days and days, and washed its bottom to get it peeing and shitting
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just like a bitch would do. For a long time, it wouldn't touch eggs
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even cooked in butter, but it would lick butter off my fingertip.
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In time the eyes opened, a pale, pale blue. I kept it in a .50
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caliber ammunition box in which I'd punched air holes, and lined
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with socks and pieces of blanket. Wherever I went, so did the box
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and the pup. I had considered a number of names, but decided on
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Cal. You see, on the side of the box was stencilled Ammunition,
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cal. .50 M2 Ball. I had considered Ball, since she was a little
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ball of fur, but Cal seemed better. Yeah, she was a bitch.
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Once the eyes opened, she started getting curious and wanted
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to get out and try moving on her legs instead of swimming. Before
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long, Cal was eating eggs and sugar, and then bacon and Spam, which
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was about all I could get except C-rations, and though I'd eat them
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when I had to, I wouldn't have fed them to a pig back home. She
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started to grow and grow. As soon as her ears perked up, I could
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see that she was going to be a sturdy animal something like a
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short, wide-model Husky, all white with some brownish places. She
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was smart as a whip, and learned from me quickly. I took her
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everywhere with a leash and a red collar Kim had found somewhere.
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We were having some pretty busy shooting matches about then,
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but the noise never bothered Cal. One morning though, early, when
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she was about four months old, we were awakened by a terrific
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noise. Scared the pea out of everyone, and we went diving to the
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ground scrabbling for guns and helmets. During the night, a unit of
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self-propelled eight-inch howitzers had moved into prepared
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positions right behind us and began firing over our heads. It
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wasn't just the concussions, though they blew the roofs of the
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dugouts around and raised dust a foot above the floor, but the
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shells sounded like boxcars going overhead. Sideways. And every
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once in a while, a shell would lose the bearing ring which went
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anywhere it wanted, tumbling and making a peculiar "whupping"
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sound. Scary.
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It lasted an hour. Cal was trembling and wouldn't stand when
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it was over. She had been mostly under me during the shoot, and now
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wanted to dig her way under my blouse. But, she was too big and
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puppy claws are sharp. I put her down with a yell and she ran off.
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I hunted for her for hours and hours. So did everyone else who knew
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I was hiding an forbidden pet.
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I'm not going to say that I cried myself to sleep, but maybe
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I did and maybe I didn't. I had a couple of bottles of Korean
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whiskey, Lion Brand or maybe Tiger or somesuch nonsense, that I had
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left from a case I'd bought from a Yale educated Korean colonel who
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had come walking up the railroad tracks one day when I was guard
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sergeant. Later he came back in a jeep with the booze, and was
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amused to find I was from Connecticut and had been a lunch guest at
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Yale a number of times. That stuff was vicious, unaged and made
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from whatever would ferment with some added coloring. The hangover
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started before you got drunk. And I remember I got as drunk as I
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could before passing out. I don't recall much after that. I woke up
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with a terrible thirst, a worse head, and found myself laced into
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my sleeping bag.
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This was a prank we'd sometimes play on a replacement, lacing
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him in and yelling, "Raid" in the middle of the night. I thought
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the guys were joking me, but this big feller that was my best buddy
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came and sat on my chest and talked with me until he was convinced
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I was sane.
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I drank myself into oblivion while hunting for Cal. Toward
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dark, Kim came to the dugout rubbing his stomach and said, "Dog-u
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numbah one chop-chop-u."
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I snatched the skinning knife I'd brought from home from my
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belt scabbard and went for Kim. The guys dragged me off. Told me it
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had taken four of them and a lot more whiskey forced down my throat
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to subdue me; that I had the strength of ten.
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Kim was never seen again. Neither was my Kabar knife with the
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white ivory handle. In fact, we had a hell of a time getting
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another houseboy and then had to pay double and promise I would be
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gone when he had to work at the dugout. Just as well.
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Since then I have learned that Korean men believe that eating
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dogs at certain times of the year improves their sexual prowess.
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In one of the litters of German shorthaired pointers I've
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raised was an almost white male with a familiar personality. So
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smart. He was learning his commands as soon as he could walk. Had
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a sense of humor, too. Some dogs do, you know. Don't tell me you've
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never seen a dog grinning at you? Named him Cal. I told my wife I
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liked the name Calvin. She doesn't know this story. Don't talk much
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about the war, except maybe some of the funny things.
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Shorthair Cal, he was gunshy from birth and I had to sell him
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cheap. He was purchased by an accented foreigner who called a few
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days later and told me that Cal had gotten away from his garage and
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run off, and that he wanted to buy another puppy. I told that man
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that if I ever saw him again, I'd skin him. Slowly. I might have,
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too.
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My wife and I believe in reincarnation. And in heaven. And I
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figure that if I don't meet up again with all those fine, loving
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dogs I've owned, heaven is a damned poor place.
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Copyright (c)1993 Allen Ruffin
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Allen F. Ruffin, Writer, can be contacted in any P&BNet conference
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or by snailmail: P.O. Box 241, Middletown, MD 21769
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