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CONSUMMATED DREAMS
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a novel by Melanie Martin Vessels
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All rights reserved, 1987.
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She felt as if she were drowning, being swept downward into a
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whirlpool, a void of terror and darkness. Waves of nausea
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engulfed her small frame making her swallow convulsively. As
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her eyes grew wider, the pupils began to dilate with the
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surrounding blackness. She heard the high pitched wail of a
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siren somewhere close by and thought, thank God someone called
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an ambulance, as she crumbled disjointedly to the floor.
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* * * * *
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It wasn't fear that made the hair on Suzy's neck raise, it was
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the cool breeze from the window, opened (praise the Lord) after
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passion. Warm, pulsating, sweat producing passion. She looked
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sullenly at the man lying on the king-sized brass bed, asleep
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and (again, praise the Lord) not snoring --- yet, but tossing
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fitfully, as if his dreams were devouring him. Suzie mused
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about their relationship and a sour grimace etched itself where
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a dazzling smile usually appeared. Their relationship had moved
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much faster than she anticipated, and now she was beginning to
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have a few bad thoughts about the future. Married only three
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months, and yes, she thought, the honeymoon is definitely over!
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Suzie turned toward the window to let the cool night's breeze
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caress her forehead. Wrapped only in a thin, peach negligee,
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she shivered a little and decided to close the window to just a
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crack (just to keep the air flowing - good for the health -
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gotta keep that body in shape if you want to make the cover of
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Cosmo!). Damn air conditioner had gone out for the third time
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in three weeks, guess it was time to spend the money and get it
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fixed right.
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It was then, just as she was turning away from the window, a
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brief flash of white and blue light. She turned back. Her eyes
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became solidly fixed on the car (a white Mercedes?) as it came
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up the road at a tremendous speed. She couldn't turn away; her
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eyes remained staring, fascinated, awaiting the outcome, and
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then she shuddered as the white car crashed with abandon into
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the wall at the end of the street; the rose brick crumbling and
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mingling with the shattered glass of the car's windows.
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Some trash cans had flow up into the air and now the garbage lay
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scattered carelessly (peacefully?) upon the asphalt of the
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street. Bright orange and yellow flames burst forth to
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compliment the first streaks of pinkish-grey dawn. Suzie
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dropped to the floor like a rag doll being discarded by a small
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child and sat dazed, one hand on her throat, the other hand
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lying listlessly at her side. She'd never seen an accident
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before, but that wasn't why she convulsively shuddered. Suzie's
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shuddering began when she realized, as she was trying to call
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out Richard's name, that no voice would escape her throat.
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Suzie Warner, age twenty-three, cover-girl and slowly budding
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starlet was mute.
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It was the explosion that woke Richard (or was it the dream of
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an explosion?). He couldn't remember now, but he had suddenly
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flown out of bed; his feet hitting the plushly carpeted floor
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with a slightly unwelcome shock. The noise had shattered his
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dream-induced consciousness , and her ran to the window to stare
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out at the dead-end street watching the flames flicker brightly.
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I was (damn, 5:58 a.m.) too early to really believe that he
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wasn't dreaming, until he felt a tugging on his leg. Richard
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looked down at Suzie's terror-filled eyes, her hand on her
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throat, screaming in silence.
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* * * * *
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Maybe, Marcie thought, maybe I am pretty.
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No, it was no use. She remembered the neighbor boys howling
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like dogs when she passed them on her walk earlier that evening.
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"People are really cruel," she stated aloud to her reflection in
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the bathroom mirror.
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Marcie was plain, and she had bad skin, not really acne bad but
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not smooth and pretty like Jenny Marshall next door. Marcie's
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hair was an auburn red, a little below shoulder length ("Keep it
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growing," her mother lovingly admonished, "long red hair is very
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pretty."). Her figure wasn't too bad, a little chubby around
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the hips and thighs but not (gross) fat by any means. Marcie's
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personality was pert and friendly; but, at sixteen, no one
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(especially the boys at Prescott High School) wanted to really
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strike up a conversation with her. She just wasn't attractive
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enough. Theater fascinated her, and she good on stage, really
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good - she knew that. But the prettier girls always got the
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attention of the director first, and the boys' gazes garnered a
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close second. Marcie had to work for her leading roles, and
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those were mostly middle to old aged women.
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She remembered Mrs. Rinkland saying, after her audition for
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Barefoot in the Park, "You read the part perfectly, but you just
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don't look like a Corey." Just don't look . . . young, and sexy
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and ATTRACTIVE! Marcie wished fervently that she would wake up
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one morning, look in the mirror and find a beautiful face
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looking back at her - like Jenny Marshall next door, or one of
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the models she unsuccessfully tried to imitate, like Suzie
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Rutherford.
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Truth to tell, Marcie was average looking, and she could have
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turned heads all the way down Main Street if she would only
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ditch her jeans for dresses and some classier pants outfits, and
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have a little more confidence in herself. Jenny could have told
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her, and her mother tried time and again, but Marcie stuck to
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jeans, because, well because she liked them, and if people liked
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her, well, Marcie pouted to her reflection in the mirror, they
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would just have to like her for herself! And so Marcie walked
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the halls of Prescott High in her faded jeans and tee-shirts,
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her head shyly pointed in the direction of her toes.
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Finally turning away from the mirror, Marcie walked into her
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bedroom to lie down on her bed and hug her old stuffed dog,
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Muffin. It was getting dark outside, the sun setting with a
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golden glow, the sky a beautiful shade of pinkish-grey. Marcie
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jumped off her bed and moved to the window, Muffin clutched
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securely against her chest. She later thought that it must have
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been the flash from the car's mirror that caught her eye, but
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all she could see at that moment was a white mercedes speeding
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up the street toward the end of the cul-du-sac. In the next
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instant, it crashed and burst into flames, the brilliant glow
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overpowering the approaching dusk. Marcie Middleton, aspiring
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actress and insecure high school student, fainted. She woke up
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in bed, and when she tried to call out for her mother discovered
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she couldn't speak a word.
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* * * * *
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Sally sat down to finish addressing the envelop she was trying
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to get into the mail box before the postman came. Damn zip
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codes, she thought as she neatly penned the 76053 for Hurst,
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Texas. It was the third time she had looked it up, and she was
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surprised that she couldn't remember it. Then she added her
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return address, finishing with the zip for Montville, N.J.
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"Damn zip codes," she said aloud.
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Her mother yelled from down stairs, "What did you say, honey?"
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Sally laughed, "Nothing, Mom!"
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She slapped a stamp on the envelop and ran out to the mail box
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just as the mail truck was pulling up to the driveway.
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"Caught ya," Sally said smiling.
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"Lucky this time," Al smiled back, "Hey, are you busy tonight?"
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"No, what time should you pick me up?"
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"7:30 - sharp!! Last time I had to wait for fifteen minutes,
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and we almost missed the start of the movie."
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"All right, all right, don't start nagging, Al, we aren't quite
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married yet!"
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"Gotta go, babe, see you tonight." Ralph gave her a quick smack
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on the mouth and headed up the street.
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Sally turned back toward the house. Six more months, she
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thought, six more months until I'm free from this crazy house
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and starting a crazy house of my own. She remembered her letter
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to Annie. She know how hard it was going to be for Annie to
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accept her intended wedding plans. She had shared all her
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private thoughts with Ann ever since their first meeting in the
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sixth grade. Ten years later they were still sharing their
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closest thoughts, as best friends do, but she had forgotten
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Annie during the first week of her engagement. Forgotten her
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best friend when she asked her college roommate, Joyce, to be
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her maid-of-honor. Annie . . . with whom she'd shared her most
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intimate secrets. (How's your sex life? Only my best friend
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knows for sure!)
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And now she was sorry. She hadn't heard from Joyce in two
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months. Beauty pageant Joyce, bent on winning the title of Miss
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Georgia. Sally expected that the next time she would hear from
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Joyce would be at school this fall, their last semester. Joyce
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was a fashion major and Sally an English major. They were
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fairly good friends. Joyce knew Al from school; she had even
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dated him once, but Joyce just wasn't Annie. No, Sally mused,
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she definitely wasn't! Well, six months was a long time away.
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At that time, Sally didn't realize the full implications of her
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thoughts.
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* * * * *
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He really wanted to ask her to the Spring Formal, but what if
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she turned him down? John Hutchinson, "Hutch" to his friends,
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was a hefty six foot four inches tall and as 'good old boy' as
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being raised in southern Tennessee could make him. He never
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really cottoned up to living near Chicago, just too many people,
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too much pollution, and what really (as they say up North) 'blew
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his mind' were the sub-divisions. Naperville, Illinois, once
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the "sleepy town for executives" had gained 35,000 inhabitants
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in the last ten years and more were on the way. All the farm
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land on Hobson Road had gone residential or commercial, and it
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seemed like it was never going to stop. John had only been in
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town for two years, and more than anything in the world, he
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wanted to go home to Tennessee. But since his pap had gotten
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that long-awaited promotion with the lumber company (a promotion
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which warranted an office and a pert young secretary), he had
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been dragged along to this strange part of the country, and he
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was darn uncomfortable about it all. The only salvation was the
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Pioneer Park, a large wooded area with a portion of the DuPage
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River branching off into it - the only place in town that he
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felt truly at home.
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John like Marcie; he knew she was smart, but not overtly
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intellectual, and although she wasn't the prettiest girl in his
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History class, she was obviously the kindest and most sincere -
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really down to earth, and John liked that quality. John
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instinctively felt that Marcie would understand his desire to
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get back to his papaw's farm, chopping wood and riding horses,
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wild and free, clean air and NATURE - all the nature you could
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very dream of. But what if she turned him down? He decided to
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try anyway, and he walked the half-mile to her house on the
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pretext of borrowing her History notes.
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* * * * *
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At forty, Tom felt pretty damn good! He had just finished
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cycling three miles from his house to the University and now he
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felt ready to work. Rolling a sheet of 'onion skin' into the
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typewriter, he began on his Great American Novel (for the
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fourteenth time!).
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"Only this time, I'm gonna do it!" Tom stated aloud.
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Looking around this office, it seemed as if the large bookcases
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filled with English texts, novels and other miscellaneous books
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silently mocked his statement. As if to strike back, Tom banged
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a line off onto his old, manual Royal 250. No electric shit for
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him. He enjoyed the way the typewriter keys felt under the
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pressure of his fingers, like making pure and simple love.
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He had almost completed his first paragraph when a quick knock
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on the door interrupted his thoughts like a rifle shot. Lisa's
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pretty brunette head popped up from around the door jab.
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"Busy?" she asked, knowing she would bother him whether he was
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or not.
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"Nah, come on in Lee." Tom gave up the novel writing for
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another day.
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At twenty-three, Lisa couldn't exactly pass herself off as a
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virgin, but then neither would she call herself an experienced
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lover. Only one man had violated her sacred nesting ground, and
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that had been a long time (five years) ago. It wasn't that she
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lacked for lovers, she was attractive (huge brown eyes, a small
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straight nose, and a very well-rounded figure - let's face it,
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whenever a man looked at her, his eyes automatically focused on
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her 40D bust!), intelligent, and just plain nice. Her biggest
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fault could be equated with her biggest asset (depending upon
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which way you looked at it) - she was, sometimes brutally,
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honest. But Lee just didn't care enough about the men who vied
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for her attentions, and certainly not enough to hop into bed
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with one of them. So, everyone thought she was a lesbian,
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everyone except Sharon and Tom. Sharon was her roommate,
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straight as they come, and Tom, well . . . you could say Tom was
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her closes friend. She was more than a little in love with him;
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however, he was married, and that, for Lee, edged too close to
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her views on morality - although she didn't consider herself, in
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the least, a god-fearing Christian. Tom was 'out-of-bounds'
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(DAMN, DAMN, DAMN).
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"Well, what have you been up to today?"
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"Working the Great American Novel into the great American
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trashcan," Tom grumbled, picking up his pipe and starting to
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fiddle with a pack of Bokkem-Riff.
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"That's incentive," Lisa shot back as she pulled a pack of Ritz
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cigarettes out of her purse.
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"So what are you up to today?" Tom turned the question back on
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Lisa.
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"Oh, resting in between classes, and thinking of cutting Geology
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which started about ten minutes ago." Lisa laughed, more at
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Tom's stern facial reaction than her own joke.
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"Come on, Tom, don't be such a prude. I'm not flunking out, and
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once in a while isn't going to hurt anything; besides, I had one
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hell of a night last night. My God, I never thought nightmares
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plagued adults . . ."
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Tom raised one eyebrow at her.
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"Well, I'm not exactly a child anymore, you know."
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"You could have fooled me, Lee." Tom smiled. "Did you eat
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something?"
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That was their standard question before telling about their
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dreams. It started two days after they met, when Lisa bluntly
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walked up to him and stated, "I dreamed about you last night."
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He had then said, too nonchalantly, "Oh, really?" It wasn't
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condescending or arrogant (although, on several occasions, Lee
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had accused him of being both), the statement had caught him off
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guard. He was used to his students developing crushes on him,
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(hadn't he and Kathy met when she was his Creative Writing
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student ten years earlier), but no one had ever tried that line
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before, least of all two days into the new semester.
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"Yeah," she had said sweetly, "you want to know what it was
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about?"
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Before he could stop himself he asked, "Did you eat something?"
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"What?" She had looked up at him as if he were crazy.
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He repeated himself, and to wipe the puzzled expression off her
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face explained that his mother had always told him to eat
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something before repeating his dreams aloud or they might come
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true.
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"Oh," she had replied with eyes twinkling mischievously, "well,
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I've had breakfast."
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"So, what was your dream?"
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"Just that you were casting a production of Oh, Calcutta, and I
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got the lead. By the way, know what I ate for breakfast?"
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"No what?" Tom was now somewhat annoyed, yet still intrigued
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with her come on.
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"Nothing!" She turned and walked away slowly, almost willing
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him to pursue after her. Her laughter followed her down the hall
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and was so natural and appealing that he couldn't help laughing
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too. And that, plus a confession two days later of what she had
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really dreamed was the beginning of their friendship.
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Lisa had just thought that her dream was unusual (probably
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because she had remembered it so vividly, and she never
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remembered her dreams), and she had wanted to share it with him,
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to get his reaction; beside, she liked him, and she wanted to
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have, at least, one intelligent faculty member as her friend.
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All of this had been told to him during her 'confession,' simply
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and honestly. In her dream, she was walking along a street
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lined with very fancy houses in the early evening. He had
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driven by in a white car, she thought that perhaps it was a
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Mercedes, because on the radio she could hear, 'Oh, Lord, won't
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you buy me a Mercedes Benz.'
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The whole episode turned out to be a great ice breaker. Tom
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warmed to her, so much so that they had talked for the rest of
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the afternoon. He was late (very late) getting home, and Kathy
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was angry (very angry) for not receiving a phone call ("It would
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only have taken you two minutes!"). The truth was that he had
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forgotten about Kathy in those afternoon hours, something he
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believed he would never do. Forgotten Kathy and his daughter,
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Danielle, forgotten about his entire home life. He became lost
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in Lisa's deep brown eyes. After she had left his office
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("better go get a bite to eat before the cafeteria closes"), he
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was confused and actually unnerved. He felt like a teenager
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again. It made him both thrilled and angry at the same time.
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Tom shook off his memories and looked up to see Lisa's eying him
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quizzically.
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"Sorry, went away there for a few minutes," he smiled.
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"I said, I ate a full breakfast this morning: eggs, bacon, toast
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and juice - I'm trying to get healthy again."
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Tom woke suddenly. Dreaming (what?). A white Mercedes crashing
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into a wall at break-neck speed. God, yes, he thought as he
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hopped out of bed and rushed to his study. He grabbed at a
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stack of paper, spilling it onto the floor, and fed a sheet into
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his typewriter. Damn thing will probably wake the whole house,
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he muttered under his breath, but the idea was so good, so
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strange, that he just had to get it down on paper. Maybe, just
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maybe, the Great American Novel would actually get written. He
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began to type, slowly at first and then speeding up as the
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thoughts moved more swiftly through his brain.
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* * * * *
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6:00 a.m., Wednesday, March 28 - Kathy was awakened by the
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alarm, and when she heard the faint tapping of typewriter keys
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she began to laugh. She got up from bed, grabbed a robe from
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the hook on the back of the closet and walked into the kitchen
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to start some coffee, then she wandered toward the direction of
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Tom's study. What she saw made her cynical laughter overpower
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the obnoxious clicking of the typewriter keys.
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"Thank you, thank you," Tom said, somewhat annoyed by both her
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presence and her mirth, "Now stop laughing before I shove this
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typewriter down your throat and then shove you out the window!"
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"I'm sorry . . . really, Tom," Kathy tried desperately to stifle
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her snickering, "but the sight of you actually typing for a
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change, and not just staring at a blank sheet of paper, is of
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real, first-class significance around here. In case you haven't
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noticed, I'm your wife . . . remember me? Besides, a man typing
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in his jockey shorts always brings on a fit of hysterical
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laughter for me."
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"All right, that bit of scarcasm will do for today. You know,
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for a woman who professes to be intelligent, you sure can't make
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a logical argument," and now it was his turn to be scarcastic,
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"at least not before you've had your morning coffee."
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Kathy turned away with tears brushing her eyelashes. Lately,
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everything they said to each other turned into a fencing
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contest, each trying to nick the other and draw blood. Kathy
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was confused and unhappy, knowing that her marriage was falling
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apart and not knowing the real cause or how to stop it. Maybe
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it was time to see a counselor, she thought, before we both
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bleed our emotions dry.
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Tom was more than irritated, he was mad, angry, hell, he was
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pissed. Lately, all Kathy could do was either nag at him or
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laugh at him. He supposed she was jealous (supposed she had
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ample reason to be) of his ability to draw his students'
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interest and enthusiam. Students often stopped by the house in
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the evenings or on the weekends just to 'shoot the bull,' and he
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loved having them. They inspired him. He felt like one of the
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gurus of the sixties; it fed his ego and his intellect, and he
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truly enjoyed it. Kathy hated it. She made snide little
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remarks to him about how they were just 'kissing a little
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faculty ass.' She usually took Danielle and disappeared into
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their bedroom to read. Tom thought it ironic that Kathy snubbed
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the very type of student she had once been herself. Perhaps it
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was insecurity, perhaps she was afraid one of those students
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would eventually replace her, perhaps she was right.
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Actually, if Tom were really honest with himself, he would have
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to admit that their marriage had begun to sour about six months
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earlier with Kathy's adament refusal to have another child.
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Their sex life had slowly dropped off a few months later, and
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when she came home one day from a workshop and announced that
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she was going to Alabama next summer to finish up her doctorate
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in English, their sex life complete ceased. It was more Tom's
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fault than hers. She tried all the tricks she could think of to
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seduce him, but he just brushed her off with a quick, "I'm
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tired, think I'll get some sleep now." She felt there was
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another woman, believed their was nothing she could do about it,
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and resolved to make the best of a bad situation until she could
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arrange for Danielle and herself to leave with some dignity and
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financial security.
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* * * * *
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Annie had always wanted to be grown up. When she was eight
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years old, she was constantly teased because of her long red
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hair ("red hot on top") but mostly because she reacted so
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perfectly to the teasing, getting flustered and upset. Didn't
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she know they were only kidding?
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She had wanted to grow up so quickly that she talked her Mom
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into buying her a training bra in the fifth grade. She bragged
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and bragged about that bra to the other girls, but it didn't
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help; by the time she reached the eighth grade, everyone was
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bustier then she was, except perhaps for Melissa Harmon. But
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Melissa was smart and pretty. Melissa had also tried to take
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her best friend away.
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Her best friend was Sally. They met in the sixth grade. Sally
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had given her a pepto-bismol tablet, because she had complained
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of having an upset stomach after P.E. class. Even in the sixth
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grade, Sally was the best artist in the class. Annie could
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remember her drawing of the Christmas manger scene, everyone
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thought it was wonderful. Sally had real talent. During their
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eighth grade year, they performed together a rudimentary version
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of The Prince and The Pauper. It was still their 'secret code'
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when they called each other ("I thought the Prince might like
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some nuts to crack and nibble on.").
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And BOYS. Annie had set her cap for Rob Shirley and no other
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boy would do. It was this silly, selfish attitude that brought
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about a dateless social life in high school. What a dreamer,
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always wanting what she couldn't have and not stopping to
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realize that there were other boys who were better than Rob,
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though maybe not as good looking. There was Scott, and Randy,
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and Andy - all of them had liked her, had wanted to go out with
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her, but she ignored them. She thought that none of them could
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measure up to Rob. Ignorant dreamer that she was - she ended up
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with none of them.
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By the time she was ready to go away to college, Annie made a
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firm decision to change her life She would forget everything in
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the past and start over again. She would be cheerful and
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interesting, flirtatious yet ladylike. She would date different
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guys, not being too picky about them. This was an opportunity
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for her to begin again with guys who hadn't grown up with her,
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who didn't know what a dismal failure she was in high school.
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