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Underground eXperts United
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[ I'm Trying ] [ By Eric Chaet ]
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I'M TRYING
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by Eric Chaet
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I'm trying to be of the past, present, & future.
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I'm trying to be of humanity, of life, of the universe.
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I'm examining these lenses prescribed for my eyes
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when there was nothing wrong with my eyes,
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& these filters between my eyes & ears
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& everything happening & being said in the world.
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I'm trying to understand the troubles of my bent & quiet elders,
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& to enter into the testing & calling & laughing play of children--
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as I enter the resistance & release of Coltrane's saxophone & Bach's organ.
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I'm trying to comprehend the passions
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of those who insist on acting as tho they are always leading,
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& of those who bitterly, heavily do what they feel they must do,
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& those who cheerfully do what they find they must,
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delight in whatever hasn't been ruined,
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& find the strength to be kind
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to one another & to those who fall, distraught, into their midst.
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I'm trying to right myself--
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I've been staggering--hit from left, right, behind,
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opposed, lied to, honest reactions & information withheld
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by parents, siblings, those I called my friends, lovers,
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by agents--some deceived themselves--of corporations & governments,
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& those whose only job is to expose the raw truth for my evaluation.
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I'm trying to right myself while I still have time, energy, & capacity
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to comprehend what has previously eluded me
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& to contribute an improvement that will thrill me--
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a thrill like birth, first sex, or dying--
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& warm the hearts of those cold with anxiety
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or for lack of coats or bread, or a road, shoes, a vehicle, a vessel.
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I'm trying to comprehend myself & everyone else & where we are
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& what has happened so far & what is happening now
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&--carefully, so as not merely to pass on compulsions instilled in me
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at the kitchen table, in school, on the job, during elections,
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from maniacs no matter how respectable in books or seen on screens,
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justifications of wars & of plundering the waters, soils, & breezes,
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of doing whatever they did to whoever they did it, to achieve prominence--
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carefully, yet lustily, joyfully--do what I can, for your good & mine, too--
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for the good of whoever is living & whoever is to come--
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for everyone's good, except those who have set themselves to gain
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at the expense of anyone who inconveniently gets in their way.
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uXu #592 Underground eXperts United 2001 uXu #592
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http://uXu.org/
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