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[ The Paradox ] [ By Joseph ]
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The Paradox
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by Joseph
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One and every living soul would forget him. He knew for sure. A chinese
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saying he had read somewhere summed up his insights pretty well. Put your
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hand in a bucket of water, splash around; when you see the last waves die
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out, you understand how many traces you leave behind when you die. Of course,
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if you splash harder, the waves remain longer; but not forever. Like the
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ancient thinkers of China, he had come to the conclusion that it was no use
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splashing around.
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Dinner time. His woman served him his last meal without knowing about it.
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Rather depressing entertainment. Friday evening, and you just have to put
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in a little extra. So fucking ordinary. A bottle of wine to go with the
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meal, well, maybe not so ordinary after all. Most people have a good
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but embarrassing booze entailing the evening dinner, staring at the shows
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on television; ending the night with some soft porn. When the brain has
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contracted into a pink raisin inside the cranium and the eyes are as red as
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the cheap wine that went with the meal - it is time for the late night
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education programs. Naturally. And you are satisfied with it. Because you
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know you are waiting for the right moment. Some day, or more like one day,
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you will show them all. But not today. Today, they are showing that great
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film on television and, hey, maybe you even got to screw your spouse
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afterwards. Naturally, one keeps the job. The wheel of squirrels, too hard
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to learn, it is hard to know, hard to understand. Especially when you notice
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that you would not have a lot of company. If you know, you can, you do -
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well, then you cannot stand it any more.
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That was one of the reasons. Another was that he could not find an end to
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his sorrows. When he occasionally joined the people outside his home he did
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not find happy people. He saw the disabled. Old, ugly and stupid. Those
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which are despised. He saw sorrowness in the them, not pity, but something
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worse - outsiders. He could identify himself with those people. Those in
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a wheelchair. Those with a lazy eye. Those whom did not understand
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mathematics. You laugh at them. You laugh at them because they cannot do the
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things you can do. The laughing masses never ask themselves this question:
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these people, whom no one wants to have anything to do with, how do they
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compensate their shortcomings? Which talents, which we ignore, have they
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developed?
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But this was something that deeply disturbed him. Who gives a shit? All
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these despised people - in front of whom can they demonstrate their talents?
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The worst part was probably that those which despised were in majority,
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followed by those who felt sorry and then those who could not really see the
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difference. Those who could not see why a physical handicap could be a
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problem at all. Those who only saw the person. Not the leg, not the lazy
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eye. This group of people was so small that it almost did not exist. Anyway,
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he could not look these physical and social freaks in their eyes. He was
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ashamed of his fellows and himself.
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A more powerful reason was that he was always afraid. He could not go
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out at nights. He had seen and heard enough. You could die for a cigarette
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or a glass of beer. The very existence of people that performed such
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horrible deeds scared him. He was not ready to play with his life for a
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glass of beer or his cigarettes.
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And therefore, out of these simple and slightly neurotic reasons, he
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would do something these people would never be allowed to do to him. He was
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well aware of the paradox.
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