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Underground eXperts United
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[ Raised Carefully ] [ By Bravemoore ]
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Raised Carefully, by Bravemoore
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dedicated to H.T. and M.T.
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Here I am. At 30 years of age one might think that I've accomplished
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quite a few things in my days. On the contrary, I haven't done a
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thing in my life that I really wanted.
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When I was a child, my parents looked after me really well. Perhaps
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too well. It wasn't that I never had what I wanted, because I never
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wanted anything. My parents didn't leave any room for me to
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develop my own will. They weren't religious at all, but before I was
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even born they had decided that I would have a great childhood.
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I would not have to do all the mistakes they had gone through in their
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lives. All my needs were taken care of before I even knew I had them.
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They gave me good and healthy food, and I even had a lunch box for
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school, even though they were serving food there. I did a lot of
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sports when I grew up. I did running, canoeing, fencing and tennis.
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To this day, I'm still practising tennis twice a week.
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I was really sick only once, that was in third grade. For two days
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my fever wouldn't go down, but on the fourth day I wasn't ill
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anymore. My mom and dad took good care of me all the time, and I
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was never worried about being sick.
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Each Christmas I had a lot of presents. I actually never wished for
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anything, my parents knew me well enough to buy what I wanted. My
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grandparents sent me presents as well, but I only got the things
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that my parents agreed on was good for me. My grandparents never
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came to see me and I think it's because my mother and father
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decided it would be better if they didn't. I imagine them as being
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very nice and friendly though.
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After school, I've been working at home for my parent's company,
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crane renting. Most of our customers are construction sites and
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the police. We lift walls, safes and smashed cars most of the time.
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The business is good.
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I occasionally follow my parents to the mall when shopping, but I
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prefer staying at home. I don't have any friends to visit, and quite
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frankly I wouldn't want to go even if I had. Every Saturday and
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Sunday me, mom and my dad make a big dinner and then we eat and
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talk about the past week and things that we enjoy talking about.
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All these years they knew what I was feeling and thinking. I guess
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that made me feel secure in a way. On the other hand, I was never
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given the space needed for my own thoughts and my own feelings.
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Thoughts best thought when alone. Feelings best faced when alone.
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But I was never alone.
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This morning I woke up early and it became obvious to me that
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I was half through life. It also occurred to me that there was
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one thing my parents could never protect me from. That's when
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I for the first time ever got really angry with them. They had
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been saying for all my life that I'd be safe and whatever happened,
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they would protect me. If they had been awake they might have
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explained this to me, but it's too late for that now.
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They shouldn't have tried so hard.
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uXu #405 Underground eXperts United 1997 uXu #405
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Pay a visit to our IRC channel -> #uxu
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