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```````````````````` "Fun Intro!" -by James Hetfield.
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` Nihilism Monthly ' "Mogel and bF: read me!"
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` ' "Nihilism is Realism today!"
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` Issue #01 ' "Nihilism Trivia!"
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` ' "Nihilist Cafe" ___ ` '
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` ' "Why this issue sucks" __O_/ '
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Well, to start things off, I'll begin by showing a little
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chat I had with the sysop of The Land of Rape and Honey, Rattle. That
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should clear a few things up about why this 'zine is going to exist.
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JH> Ok. Kewl. Hi Rattle. I'm James Hetfield.
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RA> yea?
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JH> I got some lame news, I'm done with this new zine stuff.
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RA> why?
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JH> Because I'm trired of dealing with people with egos as big as mine. I
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JH> don't think 3 of us could stand each other for too long. So I'm cutting
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JH> out, a la pip the angry youth style.
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RA> ugh.. i think ya shoudl at least stick w/ it for another few weeks/days..
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RA> things will work out.. they have to.. they must..
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JH> Nah, I realized something... there's a reason that this stuff isn't
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JH> working, and that groups don't get GIGANTIC of overnight... beacause we're
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JH> all dreamers... this entire new zine is a just a big dream of mogel's to
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JH> 'finally show' cDc that that he's a someone.. it's an obsession almost...
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JH> and I think it's a silly thing to try to do, considering cDc is 9 years
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JH> older than this new zine will be.
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RA> yea.. true.. so, what are you going to do then?
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JH> Well, You're right now part of the big experiement... this entire convo is
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JH> being capped... for the first issue of the mystery zine.. I don't know
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JH> what it will be yet. I have an idea however. I'm going to start a zine
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JH> that has one member; me. And I'm not going to allow submissions, unless
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JH> they're about the zine or something I can easily play off of. I won't
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JH> allow people in the group. It will be all mine. mine. haha. Sounds
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JH> conceited, doesn't it? Well, I was thinking, what IS the point of text
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JH> groups... to get the stuff to the public, right? Well, what is the point
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JH> of having 1000 BAD submissions ALL of the time that never gets to the
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JH> public anyway? It's kind of like "the rich stay rich and the poor stay
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JH> poor" in that effect, no one ever gets better because they either give up
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JH> (like many people in chicago did when they couldn't get in bigger groups
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JH> like BLaH) or keep trying, which is their own spirit fighting against the
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JH> odds. And that's what this new zine will be about. Me fighting against
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JH> the odds. If I can keep it going, it should be pretty good, and it would
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JH> be all mine, so I'd concstantly be writing and becoming a better author.
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RA> capped? uhh.. fuck y0u? :P.. its not a bad idea.. i mean, as long
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RA> as you keep writing.. i would have liked to see everyone (you, mog, bf,
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RA> etc..) workign on one zine.. but if you feel you will do your best
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RA> alone.. then do it.. who gives a fuck..
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JH> That's what I think... and right now, this new zine has already become
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JH> about missing deadlines, kind of like HoE was.. it's just a big pattern..
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JH> I want to break that pattern before it's too late and I'm caught up in
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JH> the scary pattern that east-coast zines seem to have (hoe, pez, etc)
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JH> about not getting submissions, about not being happy with their zines,
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JH> etc... At least if I don't like my zine I can blame it on myself instead
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JH> of 'da scene'
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RA> yea... you are going solo.. har har.. sounds like an ansi scene thing..
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RA> :P <just kidding>.. uhh.. sure.. i wish you luck..
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So, as you can easily see, I was feeling a big too annoyed and
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way too political at the moment this 'zine found its creation. The name
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of this 'zine was one of the ones suggested to Mogel and Black Francis for
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'THE BIG PROJECT' zine that was denied. I really liked it, as you can
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see. I feel it has a few layers to it, which every good name has. But,
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more to that in an essay coming up. As for now, This 'zine consists of one
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writers thoughts, ideas, and belefs. If you can't handle that, hey, don't
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read it. But if you can, please enjoy.
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This little area is directed mainly at Mogel and Black Francis,
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but hey, anyone can read it, it's a free country afterall.
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This 'zine was not created out of spite. This 'zine was created
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for the main purpose of me to be able to spread my diseases and beliefs
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about anything and everything. I was beginning to feel like 'THE BIG
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PROJECT' being worked on was not fitting those needs of mine. I learned
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long ago not to try to be like Swamp Rattle, or Guido Sanchez, or anyone,
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to try to just be myself. It's hard enough to do that as it is. I will
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continue on being the 'zine munching critic I always was and always will
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be. And, I wish you both good luck on your newest creation, although
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I have a feeling it will become a monster before it becomes a work of
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art. I simply hope you can figure out a way to contain all the angst
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pouring out from within yourselves. :)
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Happy Trails, peace, love, and mangoes.
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Let's take a little peek at the world we live in, shall we?
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(peek-a-boo!)
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In our beautifully capitalistic society, ANGST sells. Turn on MTV,
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one of the biggest breeding grounds for ANGST in the country. A Soundgarden
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video "Black Hole Sun" is on the screen. Blood is flowing through the sky.
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Little dolls are being roasted over an open flame. And, of course, the
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lead singer is standing there, wind in his hair, looking like a hero of
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our times.
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Where, exactly, did all this shit come from? Well, that's a little
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complex. But, essentially, today's most popular art genres to rip off are
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a combination of nihilism and absurdism.
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Yes, I know you don't understand. That's why I'll go on.
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Nihilism is the belief that there is "nothing to be done", to quote
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a famous Samuel Beckett play. Throughout history, philosophers and artists
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have strived to find the secrets of life and why things are the way they are.
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This is why there are different genres of art. For instance, during the
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industrial revolution, some people looked around and said "Gee, these
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machines could destroy the world!". They tended to dream about the wonders
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of nature and the evils of industrialization. They were called the
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Romantics and the Transendentalists. Both of these genres were formed
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because of a backlash against the world they lived in.
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Similarly, in the modern age, we have lived in a world where
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a few buttons could destroy mankind. In the midst of possible world
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annihilation, two distinct and opposing beliefs formed; existentialism
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and nihilism. Existentialism questions our existence, the whys, the
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hows, and the whos. But more importantly, existentialism is based on the
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belief that things CAN be helped and changed, though it make be unlikely.
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Albert Camus, one of the most famous existentialists, was constantly
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working for nazi resistence groups, printing underground newspapers, and
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many other political activities that made him a strong impact on the
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World War II era. His writings are dark, depressing, but they have a
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message within them that mankind can save itself from itself.
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Nihilism is almost a direct opposite from this. I do not know
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exactly the beginnings of nihilism, it's probably been around in one form
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or another since the dawn of time. Nihilism looks at the chances of world
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destruction, and says "oh, I guess we're all going to die then". There
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is no hope in nihilism. Nihilists usually are athiests. We live simply
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because we exist. We need no goals, no aspirations, because we'll die
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anyway. Those are the roots of nihilism.
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Absurdism, mentioned previously, was started as a type of theatre
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in the post WW][ era. Samuel Beckett, an irishman, was one of the first
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and foremost absurdists. Eugene Ionesco is also an absurdist, although
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most of his plays tend to make too much sense for me to consider it true
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absurdism.
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The most famous absurdist play, "Waiting for Godot" by Samuel
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Beckett, is basically about two men who stand around the middle of nowhere
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waiting for a guy named Godot. Many people believe this to simply mean God.
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We wait around from a message from God all our lives, until we die. During
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this time, we encounter strange people, such as the characters Pozzo and
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Lucky, but otherwise we don't do much else.
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The absurdism lies in the actuall dialogue between the two, however.
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Half of the time it simple makes little to no sense. The idea behind this
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is that it is actually more like real life; people do not always have
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conversations about something. Most of the time we just open and close our
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mouths and sounds come out that don't really form concepts or beliefs.
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Anyway, back to the 90s. Bands, such as Soundgarden, use the
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visual absurdism of their videos to produce a lasting effect on the mind.
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The videos fly from one thing to another, each sight one that would not
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be seen as usual or natural. Each a disgusting representation of normal
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day life.
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The nihilism in modern alternative music is equally representative.
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Very few songs are about how life is shiny and bright. Which is fine, not
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all of life is a big fun time. But most alternative music takes it a little
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too far. Take Nine Inch Nails, the perfect example. "God is Dead /
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And no one cares / if there is a hell / I'll see you there!" are lyrics
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of a song (Heresy) which are quoted often. There is absolutely no
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explanation behind them, they're just SCREAMED into your face between
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loud and obnoxious industrial riffs and drum beats.
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The point I'm trying to make is that most alternative songs these
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days do not tell an entire story. "You're gonna have to hold on" said
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one hundred times in a song isn't telling a story through music. It's just
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words. Now, there are a few exceptions. I'd say Tori Amos does an
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excellent job of telling a story through her music. Soul Asylum, on
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occasion, does this as well. Most bands, however, Do not fulfill this
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qualification if they're trying to say something with their music.
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Saying "More human than human" twelve-thousand times in a song isn't
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a message. It's a catchy phrase being thrown at someone without analysis,
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without thought. It's just as bad as 1950s teeny bopper music in that
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respect. "Breaking up is hard to do" tells me about as much as most
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Offspring songs do. There really isn't art in it.
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Just like nihilism, alternative music does not look at all signs
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of a coin. Both of them tend to have a message that there's nothing we
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can do to save ourselves. But they do not REALLY look at what they are
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observing, otherwise they'd understand differently.
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Nihilism Trivia time!
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See if you can answer these questions about Nihilism Quarterly!
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1) If you saw a beautiful girl being raped on the street, what would you do?
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a) I'd find help for her quick! Call the police!
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b) I'd try to help her out myself, knowing the police wouldn't get
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there in time.
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c) I would try to understand what could make our world the place
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it had become, and try to better myself because of my new
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knowledge.
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d) nothing. maybe I'd watch. who cares.
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2) What do you think about the brady bill?
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a) it's a horrible idea. I belong to the NRA, and I believe
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it is an enfringment of my rights.
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b) I think it's a good idea. It stops people from getting guns
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fast. It might stop many murders that happen because of quickly
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purchased firearms.
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c) who cares.
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3) What is your favorite color?
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a) Green. Because I love the color of life.
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b) Red. Because I love the color of chaos.
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c) White. Because it is the color of purity.
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d) Black. Because it will be what we only see when we die.
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Nothingness. Emptyness. Blackness.
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4) What is your favorite type of music?
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a) Classical, because it takes forethought to create and it's
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beautiful to hear all those instraments in unison.
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b) Rythym and Blues, because I like to hear guys talking about
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fucking girls all the time.
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c) I don't care. whatever is most popular. And loudest.
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5) If you ruled the country, what would you goal be?
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a) Educate the masses
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b) Save the environment
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c) Shelter the homeless
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d) nothing. who cares. they're all thieves anyway.
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And.. Finally... EXTRA CREDIT to the one that Guesses correctly on this one!
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6) What are all the little ascii drawings on the top header of this 'zine?
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Can you guess what the one on the far left is supposed to be?
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Any internesting, half-right answers will be posted in the 'zine at a later
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issue and time.
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The waitress brought my cup of coffee and a small piece of
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cheesecake. The cheesecake looked as if it had been sitting out for days,
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as usual. I didn't say anything, however. What good would it do?
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"Anything else?" She asked. She didn't seem too interested if
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I wanted anything else. She probably just asked because she has to. It's
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her job. She doesn't really care, she just wants a big tip. So she can
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go home to her small apartment with her small boyfriend and live out the
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rest of her life miserable. The dream we all live out.
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"No thanks." I mutter out, as I dig my fork into the cheesecake.
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It's fairly hard, unlike fresh cheesecake, which is soft and buttery.
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A woman walks into the cafe and sits asks if she can sit down
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next to me. I say sure, I don't care. She takes the seat and throws
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herself into the novel she's reading. Some book by Hemmingway.
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The waitress comes and asks if she wants something. She asks
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if the cheesecake is any good. Of course it's not, but I'm not going
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to bother to say anything. It wouldn't help anyone. Let her figure that
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out herself. She orders some. The waitress tells her it will just be
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a minute, and walks off.
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The woman asks me if I come here often. Occasionally, I say.
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I don't bother telling her I come here everyday for the horrible cheesecake.
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She wouldn't understand anyway.
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She starts poking at her cheesecake after the first bite, because
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it tastes so bad. She doesn't seem to want to put any more in her mouth.
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She looks up at me and asks what I do for a living. I write, I tell her.
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I'm not about to go into how I'm a journalist, it would probably bore her
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to death. And me.
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What do I write about, she asks. The world, I tell her. It's a
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simple answer, hopefully she won't ask anymore. How's it looking, she
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asks. Fine, I say. She smiles. I guess she believed me. Oh well. I'm
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not about to explain to her why we live in a ceaspool.
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"Would you be interested in going back to my place? I live close
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to hear...". She wants to know if I'll go sleep with her. I barely even
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know her. She probably has diseases or something. "I can't." I tell
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her. Maybe that will quiet her up.
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"Oh... all right..." she says, and says a goodbye or two, and
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leaves. I finally get some time to myself. I finish up my coffee, and
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get ready to leave. The cafe is almost empty. That woman could have
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sat anywhere, but instead she decided to invade my space. Oh well.
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It doesn't matter anyway. It's over and done with. I pay my bill,
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and leave the cafe, knowing that I'll be back tomorrow to deal with
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the same type of people, always wanted to speak with me for some
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reason.
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There are many reasons this issue sucks, I'm just going to mention
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a few. First off, it was written in one night. This is because I wanted
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to get out the information as fast as possible, so people know what is
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going on. Secondly, I wasn't feeling exceptionally creative. The future
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issues should have a lot more creativity in them, as well as much more
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time put into them. I expect to get about one of these out every two weeks,
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give or take 13 days. So, expect to be seeing a lot more from me, whether
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you like it or not. Finally, the issues to come will not be so
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stereotypically 'nihilistic' like 'nihilist cafe' was... They will have
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actually in-depth creative writing in them, as well as editorial comments
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and critiques.
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But, for now, here's the beginning of, if not a legacy, an end to my
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udder boredom.
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Nihilism Monthly 4.00 Copyright (c) 1995 James Hetfield.
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Nihilism is NOT FREE. It is a Shareware product and you MUST REGISTER this
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text copy after the 30-day evaluation period. You will receive the
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registration zine with the latest version on it. The registration
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number will remove this ending screen of the current and future versions.
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With your VISA/MasterCard, call 1-708-251-5049
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