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-:- girlie17's... -:- -:- -:-
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"for such chaotic misch-masch potpourri,
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what are we to expect but poetry?"
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-:- t.s. eliot
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-:- predictability's a bitch - by girlie17
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here it is boys and girls, the introductory issue of mystery! an
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e-zine dedicated to the expression and exploitation of all those wonderful
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poems we write -:- because face it -:- our world's pretty fucked up. so
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let's talk about it!
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from that annoying boyfriend or girlfriend to the psycho stalker,
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you know we've all felt it. and we'd all go crazy if we didn't try to
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figure out exactly why we let these things get to us. here are a couple
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of little poems i've written because no one can tell me they know how i
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feel, and it's almost useless to try and explain it.
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"unless you can see inside my head, you can't possibly understand."
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-less than jake
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so for all you girls out there tired of holding it all inside, i'm
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just here to say that people will listen if you speak loud enough. you
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just have to get their attention :) and that's not hard to do... so before
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i turn the music on for my strip tease i'd just like to say that's there's
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fun to be had for all... but just as much pain in the end.
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lots of tasty poetry, so eat up!
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-:- table of contents
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(1) to forget you...
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(2) anticipation
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(3) don't hurt me
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(4) tell me
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(5) and i wonder
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(6) the only true pain i've felt
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and its cause is you
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(7) daily debate
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(8) change of heart
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(9) it feels good
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(10) uncertainty
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(11) there is no trust
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(12) uncertain future
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(13) and then what...
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(14) things change
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-:- to forget you...
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the world around me
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crumbled down
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my thoughts i wish
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i could erase
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i want things to be
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the way they were
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before i saw your face
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you were just an illusion
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the way i wanted you to be
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but now i see you're no different
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just pure complexity
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so try and let me down
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without too much bother
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i can't be hurt anymore
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all i'd wanted was us
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-:- anticipation
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forty days and forty nights
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it seemed i'd waited for you
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the days were short
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but the nights grew long
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because i always wanted more
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so tell me what you want from me
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and then i will tell you...
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are stories are too different
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to ever follow through
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-:- don't hurt me
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my love is starved
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my lust is crazed
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i can only say this
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in so many ways
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just tell me you need me
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and then i can wait
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but if not you'll puch me
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to my next mistake
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i'm trying to wait
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to share it with you
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but these feelings inside
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i know they aren't thru
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i need you to see me
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take the risk
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you've told me you want me
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in so many words
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but the distance betwee us
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holds us apart
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just one thing i have to say
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whatever happens
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don't break my heart
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-:- tell me
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i sit here and wait
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for your message to come
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to know what you think
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to know what you feel
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the key to your thoughts
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i want it so bad
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i just need the truth
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to woman from man
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i try to tell you
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just what i feel
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but i won't come out
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so what's the fuckin' deal
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-:- and i wonder
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i hear your voice
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over the phone
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and it's hard to tell
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just what i'm being told
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i need an answer
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can't waste anymore time
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i still wait for you
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but i don't know why
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i met you twice
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you took my soul
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now i have
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no place to go
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empty promises
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unfullfilled dreams
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i'm not quite as you
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think i seem
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the world seems empty
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without you by my side
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i lay in bed and i start to cry
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i still wait for you
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but i don't know why
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you keep up my hopes
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and seem to try
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but you just can't say it
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and i wonder why
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-:- the only true pain i've felt and its cause is you
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for once in my life
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i felt it was right
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innocence
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it was different
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something new
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truth
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we didn't lie
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or try to be fake
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reality
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but then i left
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and went away
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pain
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three states away
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we sit each day
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lust
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i wait for him
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and turn others away
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why
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we promise to meet
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make future plans
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feelings
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so my hopes are there
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but still he's not
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faith
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so still i write
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and he replies
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love
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so i need him
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can't do without
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-:- daily debate
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not long ago
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i was on top of the world
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couldn't want more
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so many places to go
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but now it's changed
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so quickly gone
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i've never felt
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so all alone
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in a corner
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i curl up
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and see what's on the shelf
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who says that all
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the easy answers are gone
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i've got a few right here
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resting in my palm
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no more ups
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and no more downs
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the problems repeat
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go round and round
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so i comfort myself
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it'll all be over soon
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i drown my sorrows
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with one last tune
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my hands are empty
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my body's numb
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i start to feel warm
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and wait for the end to come
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-:- change of heart
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for all the times you'd told me
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you'd never love anyone more
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for the the things you gave to me
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you knew i'd never ask for
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i'd given in to your sweet requests
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and never thought you sore
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but i never thought it'd end like this
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and now i just feel like a whore
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-:- it feels good
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for all the times
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i've thought of you
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i'd only hoped that
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you'd think of me too
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only wishes
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only dreams
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but that was just
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the way it seemed
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i didn't think
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you'd have the time
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to indulge my wants
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and hear my rhyme
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and then you surprised me
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late one night
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we shared our thoughts
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and it was right
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but now it's hard
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for me to say
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why exactly i feel this way
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but it doesn't matter
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i don't care
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i'm not wearing underwear
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-:- uncertainty
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i wait for you
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and catch your eye
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but never get
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a simple hi
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i used to think
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that u wanted me
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but now i feel
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just too lonely...
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i call your name
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you look my way
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you still smile
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but i'm afraid to say...
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so let me know
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how u feel
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so i can try
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and start to heal
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but maybe we
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still have a chance
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but i'm afraid
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to stop and ask.
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-:- there is no trust
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you seemed happy with me
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a new adventure to look forward to
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everything was new
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so many promises, future plans
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was this an act?
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why do you seem so changed?
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i'm not supposed to be here alone
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yoi should be with me
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i sacrificed for you
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threw away another for you
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so now who do i find comfort with?
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you leave me with nothing
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at a time when we should have been rich
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i can't get an answer from you
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or myself
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i'm still confused about
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the turns my life has taken
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no more promises
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no more dreams
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it's just easier to rely on myself
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no more disappointment
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no more surprises
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alone i find myself
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faced with the truth
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from far away
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you smile at me
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share your dreams...
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and fantasies
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it's the closest thing
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i've found to love
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but it still remains...
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will you be the same
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when i see you again
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will your smile have changed
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by the time i see you again
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will you wait for me
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so far away
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what do you want from me...
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so far away
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i expect so much from you
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i destroy myself
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so i give up
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and turn inward
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have i found another happiness?
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or just proved myself a hypocrite
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so many questions
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i'll never get to answer
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maybe if i ignore them,
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my problems will go away
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just like you
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unexpected meeting
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we find each other
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cheerful greeting
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we turn away from another...
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we're pushed together
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renew our past
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talk to one another
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a future? we asked
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a sudden complication
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of which i'm not aware
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i'm afraid to ask the question
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i'd never even dare
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my irresponsible ignorance
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foolish pride and spite
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keep me from the truth
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who knows what's right
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this happened in our past
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our only other encounter
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we should have learned
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from our last mistake
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i guess neither of us has changed
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things have changed so quickly
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but i don't seem to mind
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i guess i wasn't ready
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to see what i could find
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or maybe i just wouldn't wait
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for the plans i had inside
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you were an excuse to put things off
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a reason to brush aside
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but now i know what i want
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and it's not you...
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so i guess i lied
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i thought my feelings were real
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maybe they were -:- i'll never know
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so until i tell you
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anything goes...
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888 Y88" 888o
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"life is a mystery,
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everyone must stand alone."
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-:- madonna
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mystery #1 was written by girlie17 and edited by mogel.
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mystery e'zine (c) copyright 1997. all rights reserved.
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please direct all correspondance & submissions to mogel@dto.net.
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