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Ú-Ä-ù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Ä-¿
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³ welcome to dancing monica 'zine issue one ³
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À-Ä-ù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Äù-Ä-Ù
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disgust@vnet.net
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"what's this about?"
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this is about absolutely nothing. i'm bored, i have no
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'zine to write for (nobody likes my writings), and i don't
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really have a life. let's eliminate the "really" from the
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last line to clear it up for you a little bit. i DON'T
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have a life.
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let's see... i've been bbsing since the age of 11«. i
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discovered the internet about 6-7 months ago, so i'm
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relatively new to the net. i've enjoyed internet because
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so many files are within grasp now. i used to have to
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call LD for ansi packs and such, but now i can get them
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off a site or #ansi. i also discovered 'zines, which
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have been keeping me up past 2am 'cause i've been reading
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so many of them.
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if lit = poems then lit = sucks. i mean, i like writing
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poetry, but reading them in an ANSI pack is really boring.
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partly because most of the 'poets' can't write worth a shit
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and partly because it's just boring. if there are any
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stories included in the pack, i'll read them and that's usually
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pretty interesting ("rage" by valgamon is probably my all
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time favorite. reminds me of a stephen king short story i
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read once).
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anyways i'm rambling on and on so now i think i'm going to
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include a few of my writings which all of the 'zine editors
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have decided not to use.
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religion
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Here's the scenerio--I'm on a trip to Europe with about 3 kids from
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my school as well as a Science Teacher who's a bit strange. The trip is
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being conducted by the EF Tours (educational foundation). I've just taken
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a seven hour flight and I've landed in Amsterdam. I'm very excited, but
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also very tired. I am told that I will be meeting 25+ new people here who
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will also be part of my tour.
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Seven of them had already arrived, they were from Michigan. A very
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cool bunch of people. I was told that the rest of the group would arrive
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in about four hours. In the meantime, the tour director has allowed me to
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go to our hotel and shower. Yay.
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Four hours later I meet the rest of the group. Half of them are from
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very small scattered towns in Canada. The other half is from a Christian
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based school in Newfoundland. I have no problem with religion, I consider
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myself a religious guy, just in a different unique way. There are only
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two things I cannot stand about religion--other religion bashing and
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extremists.
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That night we got to "meet" everybody. I don't think it was such a
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good idea, for I got in a religious discussion with a bunch of extremist
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kids (i call them the christian coalition). They were all 15-17 years old
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and were damning me to hell.
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Alright, it started off with them asking my name and then my faith.
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I replied that I didn't believe in organized religion, so I was a bit of a
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loner. They exchanged strange glances and then asked me if I had to choose
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a religion, what would it be? I wasn't sure so I replied,"buddism/hindu"..
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I was being a bit sarcastic but they all acted as if I had dropped
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the bomb. I asked them if they thought Christianity was the only religion
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that was "right". They all replied no, they had nothing against the beliefs
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of other religions. I wanted to test them on this, I didn't believe them..
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So I told them of a friend I had that was jewish. (i made up this "friend")
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I told them that he was considering a switch to Christianity, but he wasn't
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sure.
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They started picking apart the jewish faith, telling me that they were
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all stupid in believing that Jesus was just a "good prophet" and not the son
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of god. They said to me,"how can you consider someone good when they lie to
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you about being the prophet of god?". This made little sense to me, so I
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just said,"umm you have a point (yeah right).. thanks, I'll tell him what
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you've just told me"... I didn't bother picking out any imperfections that
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I see in the Christian religion (Moses lived to be how many years old? 600?)
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I said this in hopes that they'd leave me alone. They didn't though,
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they seemed fascinated that I wasn't Christian. They wanted to pick me
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apart, I could feel it. They then asked the question that I'm always asked
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by Christian people. I think it's printed in the back of the bible for them
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to ask to non-believers..
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"Do you believe in the big bang theory?"
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I'm personally not sure whether I do or not, but I responded yes for
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some odd reason. I think I wanted to start a battle/discussion of Science
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vs. Religion.
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"The theory seems ok to us except for one small thing... who CREATED
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the stuff that blew up?" they asked me.
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Now how the fuck should I know? but I knew what they were getting at.
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so being the blasphemus (can't even spell the word) guy I am, I responded
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"umm you want me to say that GOD created it, eh? well I could say that, but
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let's take this a little further.. if god created the stuff that blew up,
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who created god? did he have a father? and who created him?"
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This kinda took them off guard and they really couldn't say anything
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except,"you must believe! you must have faith...". The teacher from their
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school that had brought them on the trip cut in and told me "god tells the
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truth, you must believe.." then they left.
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Umm.. I don't want to put down Christianity, I just want to put down
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narrow-minded Christians. I personally don't think that any religion is
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wrong, I just think the way people express it is wrong. I mean, look at
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the Crusades. God doesn't like killing, right? Thou Shall Not Kill, eh?
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So why start a war in his name?
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People are confused. People need faith. I agree. People need
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something to believe in. I think it should be a private display of
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affection though. I pray every night, I believe in God, I believe in Jesus.
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I feel like they understand me and hear me out. I feel like they agree with
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me. Who's to say that one religion is better than another? That's probably
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my biggest gripe.
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reminders
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Reminders of the past. I hate coming across them, because my past
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has ummm been a waste of time...a waste of mind. Actually, the girls of
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my past have been a waste of time. I just came across something one of
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them gave me before I went on Spring Break vacation (i wasn't going to
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be around to watch them cheat on me).
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The object in question is this piece of shit furry thing. She says
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that she bought it in Italy. God, I hope not. It's ugly , and worst of
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all, she must have spilt her perfume on it or something cause it smells
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just like her. Actually, she's the type of girl who would spill it there
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on purpose so I would think of her before I passed out from the fumes.
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Well, it's been a year since the two of us went out, and I just found
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it in my desk. I know this sounds too good to be true (note the sarcasm),
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but her boyfriend just broke up with her. I received a call from her
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yesterday. She wanted to apologize for being a bitch while we were going
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out (took her a whole year to apologize). She also wanted to tell me that
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she had a new outlook on love. She said it was similar to my own opinions.
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"Why are you telling me this?" was flashing over and over in my head,
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but I'm too nice of a guy to say anything. So I put up with her shit,
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occasionally nodding off, until she had to go... I thought that was the
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last of her, but she called me again today to "continue our (one-sided)
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discussion".
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My point is--throw out any reminders of shit you don't want to
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remember. It'll come back and annoy the shit out of you.
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"there's traps inside us all and the night is so tall" - silver jews
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ok i admit, those kind of sucked, but think about it. i
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haven't written in over two years and those are my second
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and first attempts at writing (in that order). oh well..
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i'm just really bored. i wouldn't mind a little feedback,
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like how i could improve and such. man this sounds like
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i'm in slow motion. perhaps that's just how i'm feeling
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right now. write e-mail to the address at the top of this
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text file to send comments/death threats/etc...
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greets:
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black francis (pez is great), edicius (see, i spelled
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it right, jonas rocks), stephen malkmus (yeah right,
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like you'll read this. this is one of the most well
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read boys out there).
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