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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Dear Mom and Dad
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Hello, Daddy.
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What's the knife for?
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You should know, you've been twisting it in my heart for almost 23 years
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now.
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What am I going to do with it?
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Why, twist it in your heart.
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Oh look, you're bleeding now.
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This one is for abandoning me when I was 5.
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Don't fucking cry, you piece of fucking shit.
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You just have a little knife wound in your chest.
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I have my whole fucking life destroyed.
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This one is for hitting my Mommy.
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I inherited your violent tendencies, you know.
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That's why I know you're such a piece of shit.
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I have the same urge that you do but I've never given in.
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I'm not a fucking pussy like you are.
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I don't have to make up for my emotional weaknesses by beating on those
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with physical weakness.
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Look, you're bleeding even more now.
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Soon your heart will be as empty as mine.
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I could walk away right now and you'd bleed to death, but that's not
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good
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enough.
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Just like I was never good enough.
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Nothing I ever did was right, you could always find something wrong.
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The few occasions that I managed to be perfect, you simply ignored me.
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Seeing me rise above your patheticness hurt, didn't it?
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I hope this knife hurts just as bad as it did everytime you spit on my
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accomplishments.
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How does it feel to be the one getting stabbed in the heart for a
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change?
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I learned this from you, you know.
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You taught me to always control everthing.
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You're the reason I always have to be in charge, regardless of the
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costs.
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This one is for the time you kicked me out of your house because my
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severe
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depression inconvenienced you.
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Was it as inconvenient as that gaping wound in your chest?
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I'm sorry my emotional turmoil is a problem for you.
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I guess if I was a real man, I'd be able to keep my emotions hidden.
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Of course, I've never had a real man to look up to, so I guess that'll
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never be a trait I pick up.
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Oh look, you're dead now.
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Too bad it's too late for it to really do much good.
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Oh well, maybe it'll save my baby sister some pain.
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She's already started down the same path as I have.
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Hopefully I can save her from that.
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Now excuse me while I piss on your corpse.
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What's that Mommy?
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Why am I holding a bloody knife?
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Oh, that's just Daddy's blood.
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You know how you're always bitching at me about paying you back what you
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believe I owe you?
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Well, I'm about to give you back everything you ever gave me.
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What? You want to talk about this?
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That's funny, you never wanted to talk to me about anything when I was
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younger.
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You never wanted to talk when it was *my* life on the line.
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That's probably why I can't fucking talk to people now.
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The words are there but I can't figure out how to make them come out.
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You bitch at me for spending so much time on the computer but you're the
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one that fucking drove me there.
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Why do you think I spend so much time there?
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I don't have anyone to talk to here.
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I suppose it was a fair trade, though.
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You never told us a damn thing about your life and you never bothered to
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ask about ours.
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I'll be graduating from college this year.
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Are you proud of me again?
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Too bad you won't live to see it.
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Remember when I dropped out of college the first time?
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You bitched at me for making you look bad in front of your friends.
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Fuck you.
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Oops.. Did I cut you?
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Not long ago, I wanted to cut myself.
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You would have gotten too much satisfaction out of that, though.
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This is much more productive.
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Want to complain about how I'm killing you?
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Nothing else was ever right, I'm sure you can find something about your
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own
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murder to complain about.
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Did I just slit your throat?
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Guess now you'll never have to worry about talking to me again.
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I hope you're proud of yourself.
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Isn't that what you always said to me?
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Well, I hope you're proud of yourself.
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By trying to force me to be all the things you wanted to be before you
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fucked up your own life, you managed to fuck me up even more than
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yourself.
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I don't know if I'll ever have the time to pinpoint all the ways you've
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screwed me up.
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Sure, it's up to me to make sure I don't repeat your fucking mistakes,
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but
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there are so many I don't know if I can ever find them all.
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Sometimes I think it's not even worth the trouble.
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But you and Daddy both taught me to never let anyone else be right.
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So I'll be damned if I let you win.
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Was that your dying breath?
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First positive thing I've heard come out of your mouth in years.
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I'm sure somewhere you're bitching about that as well.
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-InVerse
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Dedicated to my parents
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whom almost make me wish I believed in God
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simply so
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I could see them in hell.
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