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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Friendships
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You are lucky if you have one true friend in your life, besides yourself.
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I have been lucky, in my opinion, I have had a few true friends, though, life
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has separated us, one of many ways, and we are no longer together. However,
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they will always have a piece of my heart, and their memory lives within me.
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Sometimes, I wish and curse that they had to leave my life ... to never be
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heard from again, or rarely ever heard from at all. Yet, it was only
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recently did I really realize, why that has to happen.
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If your close friends always remain the same, you would miss out on other
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great people, and their ideas and their friendship ... at least that is how
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I think of it. Because, if she would still be here, I KNOW for a fact that
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things would have gone dramatically different, because, I would have never
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gone back to an ex of mine, that was no good for me; nor would I have tried
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teaching; nor would I have reached out to others, and really discovered that
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I had a good friend, that I did not even realize was a friend, until one
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night I needed to talk with someone. And, that someone I did not want it to
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be someone that would flip out, hearing my thoughts, nor did I want someone
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that would get all emotional on me, either. Just someone that would give it
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to me straight, and would be objective, and either be supportive or negative
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but, I figured if I would reach him, and he was there, then there was a
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reason to how things had gone ... and it was since that cold, late, lonely
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December night, that I have rarely thought of suicide again. It's kind of
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funny, now that I think about it, how Trent Reznor lyrics could bring two
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people together, two people that had always been on opposing sides. But,
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when it came right down to it, we found out that we have more in common, or
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at least if not more in common, something that most people do not have, and
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that is an understanding of how to deal with the other. We do not talk
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every day, but when I have needed him, he has been there, somehow popping
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up out of nowhere. And, I would like to think I have been the same for him.
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However, then there are those friends, that you thought you'd never say
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good-bye to. Those friends that you thought you'd always have... would
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always be there for you and you for them. The friends that you had spent
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years with, ups and downs and inbetweens. Only to look at them one day,
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and see how they are treating you, and decide you are not going to take it
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anymore and it is time to say good-bye.
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Friends like that, are the hardest to leave, and the ones you must. For,
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that is one thing I have learned: If you are in a bad relationship
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(romantic, friend, work, etc.) GET OUT. There will be no angel that will
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come and save you, things are NOT going to get better, nor will they just
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disappear - instead you disappear... to be lost forever, if you do not
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leave. That is why you must get out - you, yourself. There is always a
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way to do so, that is somehow opened to you, and when it is, I just hope
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that you realize it and grasp onto it, and not let go. Because, otherwise
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it might be too late... one day.
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Friendship is something to hold high and above all else. For, if you truly
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have a true, close, good friend, that is a rarity and should be cherished,
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respected, and cared for. However, too little of the time, those are the
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very ones you say 'thank you' to the least, show how much you appreciate
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them, and those are the ones that you feel lost without. But, as time goes
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by, you do gradually find a way to go on, because, just because someone else
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disappears, does not mean that you have to. Sure, that part of your heart,
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soul, mind, that they had, goes with them, but, you are the keeper of you.
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So, it is up to you if you leave, it is up to you if you let someone else
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steal your heart or dreams away from you and walk away and just stand there
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and dissolve into nothingness... it is also up to you, if you want to keep
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taking crap from a supposed 'friend'.
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"A true friend walks in, when the others walk out." That was a quote on a
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magnet that I had gotten from someone for a present once, and I think it is
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totally true.
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How many times have you needed someone there for you, and those that you
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really thought were your friends, turn out to be the first to leave you?
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Then taking more time, you realize that your real, true friends, are those
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that perhaps you never even realize were... the friends that have stood up
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for you, and never expected anything for it. Friends that were there to take
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your back, if you were in danger, and those that would help you smile when
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you were feeling down ... those are the friends to hold on to, those are the
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friends to soar with ...
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Even though a few of my best friends in the world, I have not talked with
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in years, nor have seen in years, I still consider them friends ... because,
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there was no good-bye, and I know if the day ever comes when we meet again,
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it will seem like no time has passed, a new understanding will be there, a
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new plateau - if they are true. If not, they you'll just find yourselves
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going separate ways, not to remember the other.
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Friendship...it's a funny thing, because friendship usually means to have a
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relationship with another, however, it has to start with yourself. Because,
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you are the only one that has to always remain with yourself, so if you do
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not like yourself, then how can you expect others to?
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- Kamria
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