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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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begging for love in a suicide threat
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he watched her sleep. she looked so quiet,
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so peaceful. he examined her throat,
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watching the soft pulse of blood just
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beneath her skin. her skin was pale, and
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a thin sheet of sweat slicked her skin.
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he held his hand over her mouth, just
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a few centimeters from her lips. he
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sighed with relief when her warm breath
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reached his palm.
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she was going to live.
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he stared apprehensively at the empty
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bottle on the floor. he loved his sister
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dearly, but he did not know how much more
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of this he could take. he looked away from
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the bottle and watched the breeze push the
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curtains away from the window. he closed
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his eyes tightly and wondered what else
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she had done.
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might as well find out.
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he had noticed earlier that blood had
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seeped through her white sheets. the phone
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that she had used to call him with was
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beneath them, the cord snaking
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menacingly from the wall jack. he took
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a deep breath and lifted the sheet.
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his throat closed.
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both of her arms had been sliced
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beyond recognition. there was more gash
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than skin visible, and a small pool of
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blood had collected beneath each arm.
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the razor had been cast aside. she was so
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beautiful.. how could she destroy
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herself this way?
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damn her.
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he rose from the bed and retrieved the
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first aid kit from the bathroom. he
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gently bandaged her wounds and checked
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her pulse. it looked like everything was
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going to be ok. he put fresh sheets over
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her and sat in the chair next to her bed.
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her journal was on the table next to him.
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guiltily he took the journal from the
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table and began to read. perhaps he
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could help her if he knew what she was
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thinking. suddenly he was absorbed in
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the details of his sister's life. he
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read about everything that had ever
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happened to her. he knew her innermost
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thoughts, and they made him feel dirty.
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hours passed.
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he wandered the house aimlessly as dawn
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broke. he never knew. he had no idea what
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had happened to his sister, and he never
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protected her. it was his fault. he would
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never forgive himself. no wonder she
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embraced death so freely.
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elaine woke, wincing at the stiffness of
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the caked blood on her arms.
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she rose. the house was silent. she looked
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around her room. something was different.
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(her journal. he had read her journal.)
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she ran from the room, hurriedly searching
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each room in the house. she finally found
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him in her den.
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"jake? jake, are you awake?"
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silence.
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she walked around one side of the chair
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and screamed. half of his head was missing,
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the rest of it splattered wildly on the
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desk. the gun glinted peacefully in the
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morning light, lightly dusted with
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bits of brain and skull.
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she was free.
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Palpable Obscure
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