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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Dialogue of Eyes
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Typical 50's diner, upbeat staff, lazy Sunday afternoon. John and
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I are sitting there with drinks only, lunch a few hours in our past. He is
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learning Russian in between sips of lemonade, trying to keep an eye on the
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room. No more lemonade, only water and 62 pages left in the Russian
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picture book.
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Here I sit with a whirlwind in my mind and a feeling of uneasiness
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all about. Twenty four hours of history behind the trepidation, a full
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day that doesn't need to be spoken of. I fancy myself somewhat of a casual
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writer but I can't write what's on my mind, let alone sift through the
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disorder of my mind. We all know what's up, just a matter of us breaking
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through the fear and admitting the obvious. Mostly because our subsconscience
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hides our true desire.
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She is catching me staring at her more than I am catching her
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returning the favor. I say favor because of the mutual interest that is
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readily apparent. Why her? Last night I was sipping my diet coke when I
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couldn't stop myself from drawing a comparison. Her facial features are that
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of the women in Michael Parkes artwork. His work is slightly exaggerated
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as most art is. She has those features and they speak volumes in a sense.
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Despite the appearance of youth, the look tries to conceal a subtle wisdom
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that derives the naivete' inherent in age.
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It's always dangerous making snap judgements about the intelligence
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or wisdom of someone. If you expect one thing and find another, you typically
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hold it against the person even though it is your own build up that caused
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the dissapointment. She is avoiding that routine by having one of her
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co-workers check me out, talk to me, size me up, and if needed, rake me over
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the coals. I don't have that option. Even a casual inquiry will get back
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to her faster than I get the answer. Why is it so awkward to start a
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conversation? Or a relationship for that matter?
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Been thinking recently, of just about everything under the moon.
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I have my castle, my son, my hobby, my library, my army. Translated:
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my apartment, my cat, my computers, my books, my friends. The only thing I
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need or want is a queen to share my wealth. Nothing serious really, just
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someone that actually cares, can show a slice of understanding, and
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someone that simply enjoys my company.
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Of course, you will never see the real file, as it is handwritten
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on a yellow pad. The black ink barely forming words because of the general
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slopiness of my handwriting. Part of it because I only type any more and
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never have a chance to write. The other lending factor is my nervousness.
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I can't express my desire for us to meet.
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Maybe another day...
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.dis.
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