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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Goodbyes
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As any of you who read this zine on a regular basis know, I am a
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fairly regular writer for F.U.C.K. as well as the editor's girlfriend.
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Neither of these things is true any longer. I hope you have enjoyed the
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files I have written as much as I enjoyed writing them, and, if you feel
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inclined, settle in for my last file here about goodbyes.
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An essential part of life is all about endings. Some are celebrated,
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others are times of sadness; more often, each ending has a little bit of
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both. From the moment you end your term inside of your mother's womb you
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are already experiencing the surprise and fears associated with ending one
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thing and beginning another. Each milestone of life is associated with an
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ending - becoming a teenager, graduating from high school, turning 20,
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graduating from college... all of these constitute moments of joy and
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sadness over things to come and things that have passed. Then there is the
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the End, where you become yet another well dressed part of the earth's
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soil.
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The nice thing about endings is that there are beginnings that
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follow. If a relationship ends, you can look forward to beginning a new
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one. If you lose your job, you can get excited about finding a new one.
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But all of this is very hard to think about while you are experiencing
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them. I know this better than anybody. I have led a troubled life full of
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endings and not so great beginnings, and at the peak of each one I wonder
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how I will make it through it. Even as I write this I feel like a kitten
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out in the rain wondering where her mother is. Still, I know that a time
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will come when I can look back on this as just another one of life's
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mistakes, as a time where I learned more about myself and how the world
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works. This how we should all see endings - as a time for reflection upon
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what made the end come, and how you can prevent this sort of ending
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again.
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My father always said that everyone gets a pound of shit in their
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lives, and whoever is responsible for handing it out sure doesn't spread
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it out evenly over a lifetime. I think that way about endings, too. We can
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deal with deaths and lost loves and lost jobs because we know that
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everything works out for the best in the end, no matter what. Sometimes
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all the endings clump together, and it seems like we can't take anymore,
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but most of us do our best to move on. I like to look back on the endings
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I have endured and think about the things that I never would have
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experienced if the ending hadn't happened. So yes, in a way I am glad I
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packed up and moved out here to Colorado, because I would have missed so
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much in life if I hadn't. I wouldn't have come out here in the first place
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if I hadn't ended a relationship back home, so that ending was good, too.
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All it takes is a different perspective and the world looks a lot
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different.
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So, the next time you think you can't hack the goodbye shit
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anymore, take some time to really think about what goodbyes mean. They're
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almost always for the best, no matter how painful.
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DeMoNiKa
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PS: It was nice writing for all of you. Keep reading F.U.C.K. and
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other zines, and keep thinking and questioning everything. Goodbye,
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everyone.
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= Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, etc etc... =
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