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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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Regret
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So there you are, pouring your heart out. Telling her you care about her more
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than anything, that you've loved her for the past two years, and that you
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don't want to destroy a friendship of four years because of this revelation.
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And she says she wants to stay friends, because that's what you are to her,
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a good friend. And you call her up to hear her voice, feel her presence,
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knowing that she can comfort you, but you hear the way her voice dips from
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its initial bouncy "hello?" to the "oh, hi" when she hears you on the other
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end. She tries to make conversation, but you feel so miserable that you can't
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form a coherent thought, and you forget what you had to say, and you realize
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that there's nothing more to say anyway, and you hang up.
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You remember the times when you would call her up and she would keep you
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talking for two hours.
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You remember the first time you revealed your feelings to someone. It took
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you three years to get over her that time. But you aren't, really, the
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feelings have just been tamped down, crushed into the background with the
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rest of your old baggage, and you wonder how long it will be this time before
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you can get your emotions locked away again, safe from prying eyes.
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You tell yourself that it will never happen again, that nothing in the world
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is worth this much hell, but you're wrong. It will happen again. And again.
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And again. And you know that you have managed to destroy a friendship built
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on trust and mutual respect, because she had no idea of your feelings. You
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hid them too well, and she doesn't trust you any more, because when you hid
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them, you were lying to her. She doesn't trust you any more. She thinks you
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tried to move in on her because she just broke up with her fiancee.
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And she doesn't trust you any more.
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You regret the way things always seem to turn out, and you wonder:
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Where did all the years go?
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-Legion
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= Questions, Comments, Bitches, Ideas, Rants, Death Threats, etc etc... =
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= Internet : jericho@dimensional.com (Mail is welcomed) =
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= gote land +27.31.441115 =
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= Damnation 212.861.0580 that stupid place 215.985.0462 =
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= E.L.F. (NUP) 314.272.3426 Misery 318.625.4532 =
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= Paradise Lost 414.476.3181 Black SunShine 513.891.3465 =
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= underworld_1995.com 514.683.1894 Digital Fallout 516.378.6640 =
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= PSYCHOSiS 613.836.7211 Bad Trip 615.870.8805 =
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= Plan 9 716.881.3663 suicidal chaos 718.592.1083 =
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= Damaged 801.944.7353 The Death Star Bar 805.872.3151 =
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= Purple Hell 806.791.0747 Atrocity Exhibition 905.796.3385 =
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= Phoenix Modernz 908.830.8265 The Keg 914.234.9674 =
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