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= F.U.C.K. - Fucked Up College Kids - Born Jan. 24th, 1993 - F.U.C.K. =
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The Anatomy of Love
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"As I gaze upon your face,
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My strong-willed heart begins to race.
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Emotions in captivity,
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Break their bonds and long for thee.
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And as I gaze into your eyes,
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Behind my back time lights and flies,
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But I care not for time gone by,
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And for your love long now, long I."
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-illusionary (c) 1995
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A simple poem. Written in a moment of passion and longing
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for a beautiful and captivating woman. I was in love to describe the
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moment in its base case. But as I look back on this I ask myself
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what love really is? Is it a brief physical experience, or a deep
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emotional involvement?
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Many people in society have different views of this so-called
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"love". One such view is love as a physical and lustful emotion. To
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be involved physically with a woman is love. Others believe that
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love is that of kinship, totally disassociated from lust and longing.
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Still others believe that love is a deep and dark emotion that has
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ruled the hearts of mankind for ages. Yet others believe that love
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has no place in society today.
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With so many different classifications of love one must
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determine for himself what love is. I have based my definition of
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love off of my experiences in life. I have been in relationships
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of kinship or friendship. I have seen the dark side of love. I
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have been exposed to the physical side of love. But I find that love
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is much, much more than anything that can be contemplated by mankind.
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As I continue, I will focus my discussion on love to the
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romantic aspect of love. The interchange of love between two people
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of the opposite sex. If you find my definition of romantic love to
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be lacking or incorrect then maybe you should not be reading this
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file, as you can gain nothing from it. For everyone else, let's
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continue...
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In my poem I describe emotions that come forth as I look at
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the face of my lover. My heart, which has been weathered to love and
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involvements is released from its confinement and intertwines with
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that of another. For the first time I love with no reservation. I
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have lost all preception of time and order and all I care about it
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whether or not that love is returned.
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The question I want to raise is whether or not this love can
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ever be returned fully. As my relationship with this woman developed
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I found myself constantly thinking about her. Hardly an hour went by
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when I did not question what she was thinking about, or what she was
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doing. My mind continually rolled back to the past and time spent
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with her. I was lost. There was no understanding of this love. I
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was, and to a degree still am, captured by this woman.
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As time progressed I fell deeper and deeper into the abyss of
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emotional attachment. The bottom was not in sight and I kept falling
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fast. Unfortunately she was distancing herself from me. One of the
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most important things in my life was slowly moving outside of my
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grasp. I had no control over what she was doing. No matter what I
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did to show her my love, nor how much I sacrificed for her, I never
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felt an equal reciprocation of my emotions.
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And now she's gone... and all I can do is ponder what I can
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learn from the destruction of my heart. I look to the future,
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thinking about what lies ahead of me. Can I go on? Maybe. I will
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work hard to rid myself of this ball and chain that forever drags me
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down, but will I ever rid myself of her memory? Probably not.
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What can I learn? I can realize that love will never allow
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itself to be conquered by the feeble attempts of mankind. It always
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has its own twisted initiative to accomplish. Eventually, mankind
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will be destroyed by his desire to caputure that which no cage can
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contain. No one can ever be satisfied by the creature that love
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personifies. Therefore, do not expect anything in the future. Do
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not hope for the acceptance and unconditional love that you offer to
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others. It will never be returned until you are in the cradle of
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heaven...
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<EFBFBD>illusionary<EFBFBD>
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