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| | c o m m u n i c a t i o n s | |
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...presents... Fatal Attraction for Real
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by G.A. Ellsworth
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>>> a cDc publication.......1990 <<<
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-cDc- CULT OF THE DEAD COW -cDc-
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So I got the job. Cool! I get to work with all of these really great
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looking women. Cool! I'll finally start to get over that last person who
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fucked with my mind....
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Hmm... Julee doesn't talk much. She's not bad looking, I wonder if
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she's got some kind of hate for people or something... (--hahaha--).. .nah!!
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Wonder what she's like... "Really? You're engaged? Wow! What a trip, do you
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think you are really old enough to tie yourself down? Pretty scary huh?"
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"Julee, do you think you could give me a ride home? Really? Great, so
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tell me more about this fiancee -- oops... sorry I know you hate that word....
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Ok, tell me more about your boyfriend...."
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"Doggy style huh? <embarrassed yet turned on..> Yeah, I like it too.
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Y'know, I didn't think we'd be talking about sex all that much considering you
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are getting married and all.... Yeah, I love oral sex too... heh heh... much
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better to give than receive... heh heh heh."
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"You smell pretty nice yourself.... So you think you really want me
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huh? What about Tom? Ok, I won't mention him again...I'm just a little
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weirded out by this"
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Yeah, this is definitely strange... but what the heck... if she's too
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horny for one guy... and she doesn't feel guilty about it, what could it hurt?
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And wow... she could like fullfill some of my fantasies and all that.... I
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mean, she's so giving of herself. She loves to give me head... she likes it
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when I come in her mouth... she even wants me to fuck her in the ass... god
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this is like a dream come true....
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"Yes of course you are important to me... you wouldn't be here if you
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weren't." Wait, do I really mean this? Maybe I shouldn't say this without
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thinking it through. "Yes, really... what do you think I'd lie just to get
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into your pants?" Well, she's kinda doing the same thing... I don't think she
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really means that she LOVES me, she's just saying what she's feeling at the
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moment. "Oh god yes that feels good. Please don't stop. Where are you
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going?"
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"Why did you leave last time? Really? You were testing me to find out
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if I was lying? Did I let you down? Great... yeah, I want to make you come
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too." Oh man... why am I thinking with my dick? How can I let myself do this?
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"Yes this is definitely a good thing... you really want me to fuck you in the
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ass, huh? Wow, I've always thought it would be pretty cool, you like it huh?
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I think I will...." Am I really hurting her? Why is she crying like that...
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I'd better just keep goi... no wait... I'd better stop. "Julee? Julee, are
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you ok? I'm sorry I didn't want to hurt you... I didn't mean to... I thought
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you wanted me to. I'm sorry... I love you Julee." Goddamnit... there I go
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again... do you really love her? Why the hell did you say it then? What are
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you doing?
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"Buy you a fifth of Schnapps huh? That would do it... won't hurt so
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much huh? Great...." Why didn't I think of this before... get her drunk.
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"You know that I get all weak when you touch me like that... yes it feels
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great... yes you are the best ever at oral sex... I mean it." (I really do)
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"God where did you learn this? Fuck yes... that's exactly right... wow!"
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Seems like I've had more to drink than she has... wow... I'm starting
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to feel pretty fucked up. "Yes... you are my best friend Julee... no of course
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not... I'd never tell my friends about this... yes yes... you could come to me
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anytime you had a problem... god you are so good at this... you make me feel
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so... wonderful...." Then why does my soul feel like she's drinking my blood?
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"Oh Julee I really do love you...." Black out.
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My god... what did she do to me last night? How could I have made all
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those promises? How could I have said all that? Damn, I can hardly remember
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what I said. I remember her coming over and telling me not to tell anyone what
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to say... god, it's like she drugged me and brain-washed me or something... I'm
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really scared. What does she really want? How could she say that she loves
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me? How could I say I love her? This is so insane! How much of my soul did I
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bare to her? Why would I let down my defenses like that? It's like she used
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me... but I let her... I'm really scared now... it's like she's got so much
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control. Why is this getting to me? What did I do wrong?
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I'm away from her now. It's been 2 years. But I'm still afraid of
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her. Somehow she got inside my brain and I ended up saying and feeling a bunch
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of things I had no control over. Whenever the phone rings and it's for me, I
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ask "Who is it?"
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"Some woman, she didn't give a name." My heart races. My face flushes
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and I feel whatever it was planted inside me come to life again. My fantasies
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are haunted by her. I will be having sex with someone else and her name will
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pop into my mind. I'm afraid of her. I have never met anyone like her, and I
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hope I never have to go through this again. I feel like I've been raped.
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_ _ ____________________________________________________________________
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/((___))\|The Dead Zone........214/522-5321|Demon Roach Undrgrnd..806/794-4362|
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[ x x ] |NIHILISM.............415/285-9453|The People Farm.......916/673-8412|
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\ / |Tequila Willy's GSC..209/526-3194|The Bombay............714/897-0412|
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(' ') |Lunatic Labs.........213/655-0691|The Works.............617/861-8976|
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.ooM |(c)1990 cDc communications by G.A. Ellsworth. 06/22/90-#142|
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\_______/|All Rights Pissed Away. |
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