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| | c o m m u n i c a t i o n s | |
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...presents... Dumb and Isolated
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by Franken Gibe
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>>> a cDc publication.......1994 <<<
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-cDc- CULT OF THE DEAD COW -cDc-
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|____digital_media____digital_culture____digital_media____digital_culture____|
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Today I followed some guy around. I was in my car, driving aimlessly, and
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saw him walking down the side of the road. It's weird to be a pedestrian in
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Lubbock, Texas. I sometimes walk places, even though it's totally impractical
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and all. So he caught my eye. He was way pretty. Lotsa hair, Metallica
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t-shirt. I made a right, went around a few blocks, so I'd get a better look.
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Maybe I was hoping to talk to him. I don't know what I was thinking. It was
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impulsive loneliness. After I followed him a bit, I started realizing what a
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fuckin' freak I am. Lame and obsessive.
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Later, at the vid store (ah, shit, I left the tape in the car), there was
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this chick at the counter. Steel blue eyes. Totally arrogant eyes, so fuckin'
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arrogant and young and pretty and smooth. Argh. I was bugging. I kept
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staring. I was being publicly slimy and creepy, and I fuckin' couldn't help
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it. Y'know, what if she falls for me, and hops the counter, and we fuck in the
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Hastings. Or that guy asks for a ride, and we go and fuck at his house and
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become best friends and share all sorts of stuff in common, even though we were
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strangers moments before.
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That's the whole thing that bugs all sorts of shit out of me. I feel so
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disconnected. The whole world seems so goddamned disconnected. Lonely people
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watch lonely movies they rent from lonely clerks at the vid. store. I walk
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around late late at night, and I see the shimmer of tv's behind closed window
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blinds, or a light on in some far corner of a house, and I'll think about the
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person there, probably someone young, maybe pretty or hep or whatever. And I
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feel even lonelier, knowing how hard it is to fall in love, or make sense, or
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get connected, when you're disconnected, and sorta anti-social, and have been
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for so many years that it's become the way you are.
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So I wander around, hoping against probability and logic that I'll just
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bump into someone, and we'll fuck forever, and we'll click. Like some fuckin'
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subatomic particle, buzzing around, dumb and isolated, wanting so bad to bump
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into something, and explode.
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_______ __________________________________________________________________
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/ _ _ \|Demon Roach Undrgrnd.806/794-4362|Kingdom of Shit.....806/794-1842|
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((___)) |Cool Beans!..........415/648-PUNK|Polka AE {PW:KILL}..806/794-4362|
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[ x x ] |Metalland Southwest..713/579-2276|ATDT East...........617/350-STIF|
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\ / |The Works............617/861-8976|Ripco ][............312/528-5020|
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(' ') | Save yourself! Go outside! DO SOMETHING! |
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(U) |==================================================================|
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.ooM |Copyright (c) 1994 cDc communications and Franken Gibe. |
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\_______/|All Rights Reserved. 08/01/1994-#273|
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