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The Return of the Native
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by Thomas Hardy
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PREFACE
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The date at which the following events are assumed to
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have occurred may be set down as between 1840 and 1850,
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when the old watering place herein called "Budmouth" still
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retained sufficient afterglow from its Georgian gaiety
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and prestige to lend it an absorbing attractiveness to
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the romantic and imaginative soul of a lonely dweller inland.
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Under the general name of "Egdon Heath," which has been
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given to the sombre scene of the story, are united
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or typified heaths of various real names, to the number
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of at least a dozen; these being virtually one in character
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and aspect, though their original unity, or partial unity,
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is now somewhat disguised by intrusive strips and slices
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brought under the plough with varying degrees of success,
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or planted to woodland.
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It is pleasant to dream that some spot in the extensive
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tract whose southwestern quarter is here described,
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may be the heath of that traditionary King of Wessex--Lear.
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July, 1895.
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"To sorrow
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I bade good morrow,
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And thought to leave her far away behind;
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But cheerly, cheerly,
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She loves me dearly;
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She is so constant to me, and so kind.
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I would deceive her,
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And so leave her,
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But ah! she is so constant and so kind."
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book one
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THE THREE WOMEN
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1 - A Face on Which Time Makes but Little Impression
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A Saturday afternoon in November was approaching the time
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of twilight, and the vast tract of unenclosed wild known
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as Egdon Heath embrowned itself moment by moment.
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Overhead the hollow stretch of whitish cloud shutting
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out the sky was as a tent which had the whole heath
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for its floor.
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The heaven being spread with this pallid screen and the
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earth with the darkest vegetation, their meeting-line
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at the horizon was clearly marked. In such contrast
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the heath wore the appearance of an instalment of night
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which had taken up its place before its astronomical hour
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was come: darkness had to a great extent arrived hereon,
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while day stood distinct in the sky. Looking upwards,
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a furze-cutter would have been inclined to continue work;
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looking down, he would have decided to finish his
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faggot and go home. The distant rims of the world
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and of the firmament seemed to be a division in time no
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less than a division in matter. The face of the heath
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by its mere complexion added half an hour to evening;
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it could in like manner retard the dawn, sadden noon,
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anticipate the frowning of storms scarcely generated,
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and intensify the opacity of a moonless midnight to a cause
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of shaking and dread.
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In fact, precisely at this transitional point of its
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nightly roll into darkness the great and particular glory
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of the Egdon waste began, and nobody could be said to
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understand the heath who had not been there at such a time.
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It could best be felt when it could not clearly be seen,
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its complete effect and explanation lying in this and the
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succeeding hours before the next dawn; then, and only then,
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did it tell its true tale. The spot was, indeed, a near
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relation of night, and when night showed itself an apparent
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tendency to gravitate together could be perceived in its
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shades and the scene. The sombre stretch of rounds
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and hollows seemed to rise and meet the evening gloom
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in pure sympathy, the heath exhaling darkness as rapidly
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as the heavens precipitated it. And so the obscurity
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in the air and the obscurity in the land closed together
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in a black fraternization towards which each advanced halfway.
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The place became full of a watchful intentness now;
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for when other things sank blooding to sleep the heath
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appeared slowly to awake and listen. Every night
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its Titanic form seemed to await something; but it
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had waited thus, unmoved, during so many centuries,
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through the crises of so many things, that it could only
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be imagined to await one last crisis--the final overthrow.
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It was a spot which returned upon the memory of those who
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loved it with an aspect of peculiar and kindly congruity.
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Smiling champaigns of flowers and fruit hardly do this,
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for they are permanently harmonious only with an existence
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of better reputation as to its issues than the present.
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Twilight combined with the scenery of Egdon Heath
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to evolve a thing majestic without severity, impressive
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without showiness, emphatic in its admonitions, grand in
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its simplicity. The qualifications which frequently
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invest the facade of a prison with far more dignity
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than is found in the facade of a palace double its size
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lent to this heath a sublimity in which spots renowned
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for beauty of the accepted kind are utterly wanting.
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Fair prospects wed happily with fair times; but alas,
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if times be not fair! Men have oftener suffered from,
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the mockery of a place too smiling for their reason than
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from the oppression of surroundings oversadly tinged.
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Haggard Egdon appealed to a subtler and scarcer instinct,
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to a more recently learnt emotion, than that which responds
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to the sort of beauty called charming and fair.
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Indeed, it is a question if the exclusive reign of this
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orthodox beauty is not approaching its last quarter.
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The new Vale of Tempe may be a gaunt waste in Thule;
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human souls may find themselves in closer and closer harmony
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with external things wearing a sombreness distasteful
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to our race when it was young. The time seems near,
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if it has not actually arrived, when the chastened
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sublimity of a moor, a sea, or a mountain will be all
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of nature that is absolutely in keeping with the moods
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of the more thinking among mankind. And ultimately,
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to the commonest tourist, spots like Iceland may become
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what the vineyards and myrtle gardens of South Europe
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are to him now; and Heidelberg and Baden be passed
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unheeded as he hastens from the Alps to the sand dunes
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of Scheveningen.
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The most thoroughgoing ascetic could feel that he had
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a natural right to wander on Egdon--he was keeping within
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the line of legitimate indulgence when he laid himself
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open to influences such as these. Colours and beauties
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so far subdued were, at least, the birthright of all.
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Only in summer days of highest feather did its mood
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touch the level of gaiety. Intensity was more usually
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reached by way of the solemn than by way of the brilliant,
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and such a sort of intensity was often arrived at during
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winter darkness, tempests, and mists. Then Egdon was aroused
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to reciprocity; for the storm was its lover, and the wind
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its friend. Then it became the home of strange phantoms;
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and it was found to be the hitherto unrecognized original
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of those wild regions of obscurity which are vaguely felt
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to be compassing us about in midnight dreams of flight
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and disaster, and are never thought of after the dream
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till revived by scenes like this.
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It was at present a place perfectly accordant with
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man's nature--neither ghastly, hateful, nor ugly;
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neither commonplace, unmeaning, nor tame; but, like man,
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slighted and enduring; and withal singularly colossal
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and mysterious in its swarthy monotony. As with some
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persons who have long lived apart, solitude seemed
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to look out of its countenance. It had a lonely face,
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suggesting tragical possibilities.
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This obscure, obsolete, superseded country figures in Domesday.
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Its condition is recorded therein as that of heathy, furzy,
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briary wilderness--"Bruaria." Then follows the length
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and breadth in leagues; and, though some uncertainty exists
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as to the exact extent of this ancient lineal measure,
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it appears from the figures that the area of Egdon
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down to the present day has but little diminished.
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"Turbaria Bruaria"--the right of cutting heath-turf--occurs
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in charters relating to the district. "Overgrown with
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heth and mosse," says Leland of the same dark sweep of country.
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Here at least were intelligible facts regarding
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landscape--far-reaching proofs productive of genuine
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satisfaction. The untameable, Ishmaelitish thing that Egdon
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now was it always had been. Civilization was its enemy;
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and ever since the beginning of vegetation its soil
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had worn the same antique brown dress, the natural
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and invariable garment of the particular formation.
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In its venerable one coat lay a certain vein of satire
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on human vanity in clothes. A person on a heath in
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raiment of modern cut and colours has more or less an
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anomalous look. We seem to want the oldest and simplest
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human clothing where the clothing of the earth is so primitive.
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To recline on a stump of thorn in the central valley
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of Egdon, between afternoon and night, as now, where the
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eye could reach nothing of the world outside the summits
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and shoulders of heathland which filled the whole
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circumference of its glance, and to know that everything
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around and underneath had been from prehistoric times as
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unaltered as the stars overhead, gave ballast to the mind
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adrift on change, and harassed by the irrepressible New.
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The great inviolate place had an ancient permanence which
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the sea cannot claim. Who can say of a particular sea
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that it is old? Distilled by the sun, kneaded by the moon,
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it is renewed in a year, in a day, or in an hour.
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The sea changed, the fields changed, the rivers,
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the villages, and the people changed, yet Egdon remained.
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Those surfaces were neither so steep as to be destructible
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by weather, nor so flat as to be the victims of floods
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and deposits. With the exception of an aged highway,
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and a still more aged barrow presently to be referred
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to--themselves almost crystallized to natural products
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by long continuance--even the trifling irregularities
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were not caused by pickaxe, plough, or spade, but remained
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as the very finger-touches of the last geological change.
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The above-mentioned highway traversed the lower levels
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of the heath, from one horizon to another. In many
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portions of its course it overlaid an old vicinal way,
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which branched from the great Western road of the Romans,
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the Via Iceniana, or Ikenild Street, hard by.
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On the evening under consideration it would have been
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noticed that, though the gloom had increased sufficiently
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to confuse the minor features of the heath, the white
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surface of the road remained almost as clear as ever.
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2 - Humanity Appears upon the Scene, Hand in Hand with Trouble
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Along the road walked an old man. He was white-headed
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as a mountain, bowed in the shoulders, and faded
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in general aspect. He wore a glazed hat, an ancient
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boat-cloak, and shoes; his brass buttons bearing an
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anchor upon their face. In his hand was a silver-headed
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walking stick, which he used as a veritable third leg,
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perseveringly dotting the ground with its point at every
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few inches' interval. One would have said that he had been,
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in his day, a naval officer of some sort or other.
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Before him stretched the long, laborious road, dry, empty,
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and white. It was quite open to the heath on each side,
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and bisected that vast dark surface like the parting-line
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on a head of black hair, diminishing and bending away
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on the furthest horizon.
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The old man frequently stretched his eyes ahead to gaze
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over the tract that he had yet to traverse. At length
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he discerned, a long distance in front of him, a moving spot,
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which appeared to be a vehicle, and it proved to be going
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the same way as that in which he himself was journeying.
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It was the single atom of life that the scene contained,
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and it only served to render the general loneliness
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more evident. Its rate of advance was slow, and the old
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man gained upon it sensibly.
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When he drew nearer he perceived it to be a spring van,
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ordinary in shape, but singular in colour, this being a
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lurid red. The driver walked beside it; and, like his van,
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he was completely red. One dye of that tincture covered
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his clothes, the cap upon his head, his boots, his face,
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and his hands. He was not temporarily overlaid with
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the colour; it permeated him.
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The old man knew the meaning of this. The traveller
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with the cart was a reddleman--a person whose vocation
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it was to supply farmers with redding for their sheep.
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He was one of a class rapidly becoming extinct in Wessex,
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filling at present in the rural world the place which,
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during the last century, the dodo occupied in the world
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of animals. He is a curious, interesting, and nearly
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perished link between obsolete forms of life and those which
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generally prevail.
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The decayed officer, by degrees, came up alongside his
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fellow-wayfarer, and wished him good evening. The reddleman
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turned his head, and replied in sad and occupied tones.
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He was young, and his face, if not exactly handsome,
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approached so near to handsome that nobody would have
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contradicted an assertion that it really was so in its
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natural colour. His eye, which glared so strangely
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through his stain, was in itself attractive--keen
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as that of a bird of prey, and blue as autumn mist.
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He had neither whisker nor moustache, which allowed the soft
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curves of the lower part of his face to be apparent.
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His lips were thin, and though, as it seemed, compressed
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by thought, there was a pleasant twitch at their corners
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now and then. He was clothed throughout in a tight-fitting
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suit of corduroy, excellent in quality, not much worn,
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and well-chosen for its purpose, but deprived of its
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original colour by his trade. It showed to advantage the
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good shape of his figure. A certain well-to-do air about
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the man suggested that he was not poor for his degree.
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The natural query of an observer would have been,
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Why should such a promising being as this have hidden
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his prepossessing exterior by adopting that singular occupation?
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After replying to the old man's greeting he showed no
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inclination to continue in talk, although they still
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walked side by side, for the elder traveller seemed
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to desire company. There were no sounds but that of the
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booming wind upon the stretch of tawny herbage around them,
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the crackling wheels, the tread of the men, and the
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footsteps of the two shaggy ponies which drew the van.
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They were small, hardy animals, of a breed between Galloway
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and Exmoor, and were known as "heath-croppers" here.
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Now, as they thus pursued their way, the reddleman occasionally
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left his companion's side, and, stepping behind the van,
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looked into its interior through a small window. The look
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was always anxious. He would then return to the old man,
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who made another remark about the state of the country
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and so on, to which the reddleman again abstractedly
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replied, and then again they would lapse into silence.
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The silence conveyed to neither any sense of awkwardness;
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in these lonely places wayfarers, after a first greeting,
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frequently plod on for miles without speech; contiguity amounts
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to a tacit conversation where, otherwise than in cities,
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such contiguity can be put an end to on the merest inclination,
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and where not to put an end to it is intercourse in itself.
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Possibly these two might not have spoken again till their parting,
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had it not been for the reddleman's visits to his van.
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When he returned from his fifth time of looking in the old
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man said, "You have something inside there besides your load?"
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"Yes."
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"Somebody who wants looking after?"
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"Yes."
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Not long after this a faint cry sounded from the interior.
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The reddleman hastened to the back, looked in, and came
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away again.
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"You have a child there, my man?"
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"No, sir, I have a woman."
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"The deuce you have! Why did she cry out?"
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"Oh, she has fallen asleep, and not being used to traveling,
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she's uneasy, and keeps dreaming."
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"A young woman?"
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"Yes, a young woman."
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"That would have interested me forty years ago.
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Perhaps she's your wife?"
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"My wife!" said the other bitterly. "She's above mating
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with such as I. But there's no reason why I should tell
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you about that."
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"That's true. And there's no reason why you should not.
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What harm can I do to you or to her?"
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The reddleman looked in the old man's face. "Well, sir,"
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he said at last, "I knew her before today, though perhaps
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it would have been better if I had not. But she's
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nothing to me, and I am nothing to her; and she wouldn't
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have been in my van if any better carriage had been there
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to take her."
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"Where, may I ask?"
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"At Anglebury."
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"I know the town well. What was she doing there?"
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"Oh, not much--to gossip about. However, she's tired to death now,
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and not at all well, and that's what makes her so restless.
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She dropped off into a nap about an hour ago, and 'twill do her good."
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"A nice-looking girl, no doubt?"
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"You would say so."
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The other traveller turned his eyes with interest
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towards the van window, and, without withdrawing them,
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said, "I presume I might look in upon her?"
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"No," said the reddleman abruptly. "It is getting too
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dark for you to see much of her; and, more than that,
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I have no right to allow you. Thank God she sleeps so well,
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I hope she won't wake till she's home."
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"Who is she? One of the neighbourhood?"
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"'Tis no matter who, excuse me."
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"It is not that girl of Blooms-End, who has been talked
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about more or less lately? If so, I know her; and I can
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guess what has happened."
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"'Tis no matter....Now, sir, I am sorry to say that we
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shall soon have to part company. My ponies are tired,
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and I have further to go, and I am going to rest them
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under this bank for an hour."
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The elder traveller nodded his head indifferently,
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and the reddleman turned his horses and van in upon
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the turf, saying, "Good night." The old man replied,
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and proceeded on his way as before.
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The reddleman watched his form as it diminished to a
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speck on the road and became absorbed in the thickening
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films of night. He then took some hay from a truss
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which was slung up under the van, and, throwing a portion
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of it in front of the horses, made a pad of the rest,
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which he laid on the ground beside his vehicle.
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Upon this he sat down, leaning his back against the wheel.
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From the interior a low soft breathing came to his ear.
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It appeared to satisfy him, and he musingly surveyed
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the scene, as if considering the next step that he
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should take.
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To do things musingly, and by small degrees, seemed, indeed,
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to be a duty in the Egdon valleys at this transitional hour,
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for there was that in the condition of the heath itself
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which resembled protracted and halting dubiousness.
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It was the quality of the repose appertaining to the scene.
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This was not the repose of actual stagnation, but the
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apparent repose of incredible slowness. A condition
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of healthy life so nearly resembling the torpor of death
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is a noticeable thing of its sort; to exhibit the inertness
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of the desert, and at the same time to be exercising powers
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akin to those of the meadow, and even of the forest,
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awakened in those who thought of it the attentiveness
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usually engendered by understatement and reserve.
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The scene before the reddleman's eyes was a gradual series
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of ascents from the level of the road backward into the
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heart of the heath. It embraced hillocks, pits, ridges,
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acclivities, one behind the other, till all was finished
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by a high hill cutting against the still light sky.
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The traveller's eye hovered about these things for a time,
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and finally settled upon one noteworthy object up there.
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It was a barrow. This bossy projection of earth above
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its natural level occupied the loftiest ground of the
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loneliest height that the heath contained. Although from
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the vale it appeared but as a wart on an Atlantean brow,
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its actual bulk was great. It formed the pole and axis
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of this heathery world.
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As the resting man looked at the barrow he became aware
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that its summit, hitherto the highest object in the whole
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prospect round, was surmounted by something higher. It rose
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from the semiglobular mound like a spike from a helmet.
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The first instinct of an imaginative stranger might have
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been to suppose it the person of one of the Celts who
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built the barrow, so far had all of modern date withdrawn
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from the scene. It seemed a sort of last man among them,
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musing for a moment before dropping into eternal night
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with the rest of his race.
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There the form stood, motionless as the hill beneath.
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Above the plain rose the hill, above the hill rose
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the barrow, and above the barrow rose the figure.
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Above the figure was nothing that could be mapped elsewhere
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than on a celestial globe.
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Such a perfect, delicate, and necessary finish did
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the figure give to the dark pile of hills that it seemed
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to be the only obvious justification of their outline.
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Without it, there was the dome without the lantern; with it
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the architectural demands of the mass were satisfied.
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The scene was strangely homogeneous, in that the vale,
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the upland, the barrow, and the figure above it amounted
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only to unity. Looking at this or that member of the group
|
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was not observing a complete thing, but a fraction of
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a thing.
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The form was so much like an organic part of the
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|
entire motionless structure that to see it move would
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have impressed the mind as a strange phenomenon.
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Immobility being the chief characteristic of that whole
|
|
which the person formed portion of, the discontinuance
|
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of immobility in any quarter suggested confusion.
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Yet that is what happened. The figure perceptibly gave
|
|
up its fixity, shifted a step or two, and turned round.
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As if alarmed, it descended on the right side of the barrow,
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with the glide of a water-drop down a bud, and then vanished.
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The movement had been sufficient to show more clearly
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the characteristics of the figure, and that it was a
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woman's.
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The reason of her sudden displacement now appeared.
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With her dropping out of sight on the right side, a newcomer,
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bearing a burden, protruded into the sky on the left side,
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ascended the tumulus, and deposited the burden on the top.
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A second followed, then a third, a fourth, a fifth,
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and ultimately the whole barrow was peopled with
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|
burdened figures.
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|
The only intelligible meaning in this sky-backed pantomime
|
|
of silhouettes was that the woman had no relation to the forms
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|
who had taken her place, was sedulously avoiding these,
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|
and had come thither for another object than theirs.
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|
The imagination of the observer clung by preference
|
|
to that vanished, solitary figure, as to something
|
|
more interesting, more important, more likely to have a
|
|
history worth knowing than these newcomers, and unconsciously
|
|
regarded them as intruders. But they remained,
|
|
and established themselves; and the lonely person who hitherto
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had been queen of the solitude did not at present seem likely
|
|
to return.
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3 - The Custom of the Country
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Had a looker-on been posted in the immediate vicinity
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of the barrow, he would have learned that these persons
|
|
were boys and men of the neighbouring hamlets.
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|
Each, as he ascended the barrow, had been heavily laden
|
|
with furze faggots, carried upon the shoulder by means
|
|
of a long stake sharpened at each end for impaling them
|
|
easily--two in front and two behind. They came from
|
|
a part of the heath a quarter of a mile to the rear,
|
|
where furze almost exclusively prevailed as a product.
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|
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Every individual was so involved in furze by his method
|
|
of carrying the faggots that he appeared like a bush on
|
|
legs till he had thrown them down. The party had marched
|
|
in trail, like a travelling flock of sheep; that is to say,
|
|
the strongest first, the weak and young behind.
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|
|
|
The loads were all laid together, and a pyramid of furze
|
|
thirty feet in circumference now occupied the crown
|
|
of the tumulus, which was known as Rainbarrow for many
|
|
miles round. Some made themselves busy with matches,
|
|
and in selecting the driest tufts of furze, others in
|
|
loosening the bramble bonds which held the faggots together.
|
|
Others, again, while this was in progress, lifted their
|
|
eyes and swept the vast expanse of country commanded
|
|
by their position, now lying nearly obliterated by shade.
|
|
In the valleys of the heath nothing save its own wild
|
|
face was visible at any time of day; but this spot
|
|
commanded a horizon enclosing a tract of far extent,
|
|
and in many cases lying beyond the heath country.
|
|
None of its features could be seen now, but the whole
|
|
made itself felt as a vague stretch of remoteness.
|
|
|
|
While the men and lads were building the pile,
|
|
a change took place in the mass of shade which denoted
|
|
the distant landscape. Red suns and tufts of fire one
|
|
by one began to arise, flecking the whole country round.
|
|
They were the bonfires of other parishes and hamlets
|
|
that were engaged in the same sort of commemoration.
|
|
Some were distant, and stood in a dense atmosphere,
|
|
so that bundles of pale straw-like beams radiated around
|
|
them in the shape of a fan. Some were large and near,
|
|
glowing scarlet-red from the shade, like wounds in a black hide.
|
|
Some were Maenades, with winy faces and blown hair.
|
|
These tinctured the silent bosom of the clouds above
|
|
them and lit up their ephemeral caves, which seemed
|
|
thenceforth to become scalding caldrons. Perhaps as many
|
|
as thirty bonfires could be counted within the whole
|
|
bounds of the district; and as the hour may be told on
|
|
a clock-face when the figures themselves are invisible,
|
|
so did the men recognize the locality of each fire by its
|
|
angle and direction, though nothing of the scenery could
|
|
be viewed.
|
|
|
|
The first tall flame from Rainbarrow sprang into the sky,
|
|
attracting all eyes that had been fixed on the distant
|
|
conflagrations back to their own attempt in the same kind.
|
|
The cheerful blaze streaked the inner surface of the human
|
|
circle--now increased by other stragglers, male and female--with
|
|
its own gold livery, and even overlaid the dark turf
|
|
around with a lively luminousness, which softened off into
|
|
obscurity where the barrow rounded downwards out of sight.
|
|
It showed the barrow to be the segment of a globe,
|
|
as perfect as on the day when it was thrown up, even the
|
|
little ditch remaining from which the earth was dug.
|
|
Not a plough had ever disturbed a grain of that stubborn soil.
|
|
In the heath's barrenness to the farmer lay its fertility
|
|
to the historian. There had been no obliteration,
|
|
because there had been no tending.
|
|
|
|
It seemed as if the bonfire-makers were standing in some
|
|
radiant upper story of the world, detached from and
|
|
independent of the dark stretches below. The heath down
|
|
there was now a vast abyss, and no longer a continuation
|
|
of what they stood on; for their eyes, adapted to the blaze,
|
|
could see nothing of the deeps beyond its influence.
|
|
Occasionally, it is true, a more vigorous flare than usual
|
|
from their faggots sent darting lights like aides-de-camp
|
|
down the inclines to some distant bush, pool, or patch
|
|
of white sand, kindling these to replies of the same colour,
|
|
till all was lost in darkness again. Then the whole black
|
|
phenomenon beneath represented Limbo as viewed from the brink
|
|
by the sublime Florentine in his vision, and the muttered
|
|
articulations of the wind in the hollows were as complaints
|
|
and petitions from the "souls of mighty worth" suspended therein.
|
|
|
|
It was as if these men and boys had suddenly dived into
|
|
past ages, and fetched therefrom an hour and deed which had
|
|
before been familiar with this spot. The ashes of the
|
|
original British pyre which blazed from that summit lay
|
|
fresh and undisturbed in the barrow beneath their tread.
|
|
The flames from funeral piles long ago kindled there had
|
|
shone down upon the lowlands as these were shining now.
|
|
Festival fires to Thor and Woden had followed on the same
|
|
ground and duly had their day. Indeed, it is pretty
|
|
well known that such blazes as this the heathmen were now
|
|
enjoying are rather the lineal descendants from jumbled
|
|
Druidical rites and Saxon ceremonies than the invention
|
|
of popular feeling about Gunpowder Plot.
|
|
|
|
Moreover to light a fire is the instinctive and resistant
|
|
act of man when, at the winter ingress, the curfew is
|
|
sounded throughout Nature. It indicates a spontaneous,
|
|
Promethean rebelliousness against that fiat that this
|
|
recurrent season shall bring foul times, cold darkness,
|
|
misery and death. Black chaos comes, and the fettered gods
|
|
of the earth say, Let there be light.
|
|
|
|
The brilliant lights and sooty shades which struggled
|
|
upon the skin and clothes of the persons standing round
|
|
caused their lineaments and general contours to be drawn
|
|
with Dureresque vigour and dash. Yet the permanent moral
|
|
expression of each face it was impossible to discover,
|
|
for as the nimble flames towered, nodded, and swooped
|
|
through the surrounding air, the blots of shade and flakes
|
|
of light upon the countenances of the group changed shape
|
|
and position endlessly. All was unstable; quivering as leaves,
|
|
evanescent as lightning. Shadowy eye-sockets, deep
|
|
as those of a death's head, suddenly turned into pits of
|
|
lustre: a lantern-jaw was cavernous, then it was shining;
|
|
wrinkles were emphasized to ravines, or obliterated
|
|
entirely by a changed ray. Nostrils were dark wells;
|
|
sinews in old necks were gilt mouldings; things with no
|
|
particular polish on them were glazed; bright objects,
|
|
such as the tip of a furze-hook one of the men carried,
|
|
were as glass; eyeballs glowed like little lanterns.
|
|
Those whom Nature had depicted as merely quaint
|
|
became grotesque, the grotesque became preternatural;
|
|
for all was in extremity.
|
|
|
|
Hence it may be that the face of an old man, who had like
|
|
others been called to the heights by the rising flames,
|
|
was not really the mere nose and chin that it appeared
|
|
to be, but an appreciable quantity of human countenance.
|
|
He stood complacently sunning himself in the heat.
|
|
With a speaker, or stake, he tossed the outlying scraps of fuel
|
|
into the conflagration, looking at the midst of the pile,
|
|
occasionally lifting his eyes to measure the height
|
|
of the flame, or to follow the great sparks which rose
|
|
with it and sailed away into darkness. The beaming sight,
|
|
and the penetrating warmth, seemed to breed in him a
|
|
cumulative cheerfulness, which soon amounted to delight.
|
|
With his stick in his hand he began to jig a private minuet,
|
|
a bunch of copper seals shining and swinging like a
|
|
pendulum from under his waistcoat: he also began to sing,
|
|
in the voice of a bee up a flue--
|
|
|
|
|
|
"The king' call'd down' his no-bles all',
|
|
By one', by two', by three';
|
|
Earl Mar'-shal, I'll' go shrive'-the queen',
|
|
And thou' shalt wend' with me'.
|
|
|
|
"A boon', a boon', quoth Earl' Mar-shal',
|
|
And fell' on his bend'-ded knee',
|
|
That what'-so-e'er' the queen' shall say',
|
|
No harm' there-of' may be'."
|
|
|
|
|
|
Want of breath prevented a continuance of the song;
|
|
and the breakdown attracted the attention of a firm-
|
|
standing man of middle age, who kept each corner of his
|
|
crescent-shaped mouth rigorously drawn back into his cheek,
|
|
as if to do away with any suspicion of mirthfulness
|
|
which might erroneously have attached to him.
|
|
|
|
"A fair stave, Grandfer Cantle; but I am afeard 'tis too
|
|
much for the mouldy weasand of such a old man as you,"
|
|
he said to the wrinkled reveller. "Dostn't wish th'
|
|
wast three sixes again, Grandfer, as you was when you first
|
|
learnt to sing it?"
|
|
|
|
"Hey?" said Grandfer Cantle, stopping in his dance.
|
|
|
|
"Dostn't wish wast young again, I say? There's a hole
|
|
in thy poor bellows nowadays seemingly."
|
|
|
|
"But there's good art in me? If I couldn't make
|
|
a little wind go a long ways I should seem no younger
|
|
than the most aged man, should I, Timothy?"
|
|
|
|
"And how about the new-married folks down there at the
|
|
Quiet Woman Inn?" the other inquired, pointing towards
|
|
a dim light in the direction of the distant highway,
|
|
but considerably apart from where the reddleman was at
|
|
that moment resting. "What's the rights of the matter
|
|
about 'em? You ought to know, being an understanding man."
|
|
|
|
"But a little rakish, hey? I own to it. Master Cantle
|
|
is that, or he's nothing. Yet 'tis a gay fault,
|
|
neigbbour Fairway, that age will cure."
|
|
|
|
"I heard that they were coming home tonight. By this
|
|
time they must have come. What besides?"
|
|
|
|
"The next thing is for us to go and wish 'em joy,
|
|
I suppose?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, no."
|
|
|
|
"No? Now, I thought we must. I must, or 'twould be
|
|
very unlike me--the first in every spree that's going!
|
|
|
|
|
|
"Do thou' put on' a fri'-ar's coat',
|
|
And I'll' put on' a-no'-ther,
|
|
And we' will to' Queen Ele'anor go',
|
|
Like Fri'ar and' his bro'ther.
|
|
|
|
|
|
I met Mis'ess Yeobright, the young bride's aunt,
|
|
last night, and she told me that her son Clym was coming
|
|
home a' Christmas. Wonderful clever, 'a believe--ah, I
|
|
should like to have all that's under that young man's hair.
|
|
Well, then, I spoke to her in my well-known merry way,
|
|
and she said, 'O that what's shaped so venerable should
|
|
talk like a fool!'--that's what she said to me. I don't
|
|
care for her, be jowned if I do, and so I told her.
|
|
'Be jowned if I care for 'ee,' I said. I had her there--hey?"
|
|
|
|
"I rather think she had you," said Fairway.
|
|
|
|
"No," said Grandfer Cantle, his countenance slightly flagging.
|
|
"'Tisn't so bad as that with me?"
|
|
|
|
"Seemingly 'tis, however, is it because of the wedding
|
|
that Clym is coming home a' Christmas--to make a new
|
|
arrangement because his mother is now left in the house alone?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes--that's it. But, Timothy, hearken to me,"
|
|
said the Grandfer earnestly. "Though known as such a joker,
|
|
I be an understanding man if you catch me serious, and I am
|
|
serious now. I can tell 'ee lots about the married couple.
|
|
Yes, this morning at six o'clock they went up the country
|
|
to do the job, and neither vell nor mark have been seen
|
|
of 'em since, though I reckon that this afternoon has
|
|
brought 'em home again man and woman--wife, that is.
|
|
Isn't it spoke like a man, Timothy, and wasn't Mis'ess
|
|
Yeobright wrong about me?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it will do. I didn't know the two had walked
|
|
together since last fall, when her aunt forbad the banns.
|
|
How long has this new set-to been in mangling then? Do
|
|
you know, Humphrey?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, how long?" said Grandfer Cantle smartly,
|
|
likewise turning to Humphrey. "I ask that question."
|
|
|
|
"Ever since her aunt altered her mind, and said she might have
|
|
the man after all," replied Humphrey, without removing his
|
|
eyes from the fire. He was a somewhat solemn young fellow,
|
|
and carried the hook and leather gloves of a furze-cutter,
|
|
his legs, by reason of that occupation, being sheathed
|
|
in bulging leggings as stiff as the Philistine's greaves
|
|
of brass. "That's why they went away to be married,
|
|
I count. You see, after kicking up such a nunny-watch
|
|
and forbidding the banns 'twould have made Mis'ess
|
|
Yeobright seem foolish-like to have a banging wedding
|
|
in the same parish all as if she'd never gainsaid it."
|
|
|
|
"Exactly--seem foolish-like; and that's very bad for the
|
|
poor things that be so, though I only guess as much,
|
|
to be sure," said Grandfer Cantle, still strenuously
|
|
preserving a sensible bearing and mien.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, well, I was at church that day," said Fairway,
|
|
"which was a very curious thing to happen."
|
|
|
|
"If 'twasn't my name's Simple," said the
|
|
Grandfer emphatically. "I ha'n't been there to-year;
|
|
and now the winter is a-coming on I won't say I shall."
|
|
|
|
"I ha'n't been these three years," said Humphrey;
|
|
"for I'm so dead sleepy of a Sunday; and 'tis so terrible
|
|
far to get there; and when you do get there 'tis such
|
|
a mortal poor chance that you'll be chose for up above,
|
|
when so many bain't, that I bide at home and don't go
|
|
at all."
|
|
|
|
"I not only happened to be there," said Fairway,
|
|
with a fresh collection of emphasis, "but I was sitting
|
|
in the same pew as Mis'ess Yeobright. And though you
|
|
may not see it as such, it fairly made my blood run
|
|
cold to hear her. Yes, it is a curious thing; but it
|
|
made my blood run cold, for I was close at her elbow."
|
|
The speaker looked round upon the bystanders, now drawing
|
|
closer to hear him, with his lips gathered tighter than
|
|
ever in the rigorousness of his descriptive moderation.
|
|
|
|
"'Tis a serious job to have things happen to 'ee there,"
|
|
said a woman behind.
|
|
|
|
"'Ye are to declare it,' was the parson's words,"
|
|
Fairway continued. "And then up stood a woman at my
|
|
side--a-touching of me. 'Well, be damned if there isn't Mis'ess
|
|
Yeobright a-standing up,' I said to myself. Yes, neighbours,
|
|
though I was in the temple of prayer that's what I said.
|
|
'Tis against my conscience to curse and swear in company,
|
|
and I hope any woman here will overlook it. Still what
|
|
I did say I did say, and 'twould be a lie if I didn't own it."
|
|
|
|
"So 'twould, neighbour Fairway."
|
|
|
|
"'Be damned if there isn't Mis'ess Yeobright a-standing up,'
|
|
I said," the narrator repeated, giving out the bad word
|
|
with the same passionless severity of face as before,
|
|
which proved how entirely necessity and not gusto had to
|
|
do with the iteration. "And the next thing I heard was,
|
|
'I forbid the banns,' from her. 'I'll speak to you
|
|
after the service,' said the parson, in quite a homely
|
|
way--yes, turning all at once into a common man no holier
|
|
than you or I. Ah, her face was pale! Maybe you can
|
|
call to mind that monument in Weatherbury church--the
|
|
cross-legged soldier that have had his arm knocked away
|
|
by the schoolchildren? Well, he would about have matched
|
|
that woman's face, when she said, 'I forbid the banns.'"
|
|
|
|
The audience cleared their throats and tossed a few stalks
|
|
into the fire, not because these deeds were urgent,
|
|
but to give themselves time to weigh the moral of the story.
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure when I heard they'd been forbid I felt as glad
|
|
as if anybody had gied me sixpence," said an earnest
|
|
voice--that of Olly Dowden, a woman who lived by making
|
|
heath brooms, or besoms. Her nature was to be civil
|
|
to enemies as well as to friends, and grateful to all
|
|
the world for letting her remain alive.
|
|
|
|
"And now the maid have married him just the same,"
|
|
said Humphrey.
|
|
|
|
"After that Mis'ess Yeobright came round and was
|
|
quite agreeable," Fairway resumed, with an unheeding air,
|
|
to show that his words were no appendage to Humphrey's,
|
|
but the result of independent reflection.
|
|
|
|
"Supposing they were ashamed, I don't see why they shouldn't
|
|
have done it here-right," said a wide-spread woman whose
|
|
stays creaked like shoes whenever she stooped or turned.
|
|
"'Tis well to call the neighbours together and to hae
|
|
a good racket once now and then; and it may as well be
|
|
when there's a wedding as at tide-times. I don't care
|
|
for close ways."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, now, you'd hardly believe it, but I don't care
|
|
for gay weddings," said Timothy Fairway, his eyes again
|
|
travelling round. "I hardly blame Thomasin Yeobright and
|
|
neighbour Wildeve for doing it quiet, if I must own it.
|
|
A wedding at home means five and six-handed reels by the hour;
|
|
and they do a man's legs no good when he's over forty."
|
|
|
|
"True. Once at the woman's house you can hardly say nay
|
|
to being one in a jig, knowing all the time that you
|
|
be expected to make yourself worth your victuals."
|
|
|
|
"You be bound to dance at Christmas because 'tis the time o'
|
|
year; you must dance at weddings because 'tis the time o' life.
|
|
At christenings folk will even smuggle in a reel or two,
|
|
if 'tis no further on than the first or second chiel.
|
|
And this is not naming the songs you've got to sing....For
|
|
my part I like a good hearty funeral as well as anything.
|
|
You've as splendid victuals and drink as at other parties,
|
|
and even better. And it don't wear your legs to stumps
|
|
in talking over a poor fellow's ways as it do to stand up
|
|
in hornpipes."
|
|
|
|
"Nine folks out of ten would own 'twas going too far
|
|
to dance then, I suppose?" suggested Grandfer Cantle.
|
|
|
|
"'Tis the only sort of party a staid man can feel safe
|
|
at after the mug have been round a few times."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I can't understand a quiet ladylike little body like
|
|
Tamsin Yeobright caring to be married in such a mean way,"
|
|
said Susan Nunsuch, the wide woman, who preferred the
|
|
original subject. "'Tis worse than the poorest do.
|
|
And I shouldn't have cared about the man, though some
|
|
may say he's good-looking."
|
|
|
|
"To give him his due he's a clever, learned fellow in his
|
|
way--a'most as clever as Clym Yeobright used to be.
|
|
He was brought up to better things than keeping the
|
|
Quiet Woman. An engineer--that's what the man was,
|
|
as we know; but he threw away his chance, and so 'a took
|
|
a public house to live. His learning was no use to him
|
|
at all."
|
|
|
|
"Very often the case," said Olly, the besom-maker. "And yet
|
|
how people do strive after it and get it! The class of folk
|
|
that couldn't use to make a round O to save their bones from
|
|
the pit can write their names now without a sputter of the pen,
|
|
oftentimes without a single blot--what do I say?--why,
|
|
almost without a desk to lean their stomachs and elbows upon."
|
|
|
|
"True--'tis amazing what a polish the world have been
|
|
brought to," said Humphrey.
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"Why, afore I went a soldier in the Bang-up Locals (as
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we was called), in the year four," chimed in Grandfer
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Cantle brightly, "I didn't know no more what the world
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was like than the commonest man among ye. And now,
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jown it all, I won't say what I bain't fit for, hey?"
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"Couldst sign the book, no doubt," said Fairway, "if wast
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young enough to join hands with a woman again, like Wildeve
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and Mis'ess Tamsin, which is more than Humph there could do,
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for he follows his father in learning. Ah, Humph, well I
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can mind when I was married how I zid thy father's mark
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staring me in the face as I went to put down my name.
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He and your mother were the couple married just afore we
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were and there stood they father's cross with arms stretched
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out like a great banging scarecrow. What a terrible
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black cross that was--thy father's very likeness in en!
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To save my soul I couldn't help laughing when I zid en,
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though all the time I was as hot as dog-days, what with
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the marrying, and what with the woman a-hanging to me,
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and what with Jack Changley and a lot more chaps grinning
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at me through church window. But the next moment a
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strawmote would have knocked me down, for I called to mind
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that if thy father and mother had had high words once,
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they'd been at it twenty times since they'd been man
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and wife, and I zid myself as the next poor stunpoll
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to get into the same mess....Ah--well, what a day 'twas!"
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"Wildeve is older than Tamsin Yeobright by a good-few summers.
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A pretty maid too she is. A young woman with a home
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must be a fool to tear her smock for a man like that."
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The speaker, a peat- or turf-cutter, who had newly
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joined the group, carried across his shoulder
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the singular heart-shaped spade of large dimensions
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used in that species of labour, and its well-whetted
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edge gleamed like a silver bow in the beams of the fire.
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"A hundred maidens would have had him if he'd asked 'em,"
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said the wide woman.
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"Didst ever know a man, neighbour, that no woman at all
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would marry?" inquired Humphrey.
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"I never did," said the turf-cutter.
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"Nor I," said another.
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"Nor I," said Grandfer Cantle.
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"Well, now, I did once," said Timothy Fairway, adding more
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firmness to one of his legs. "I did know of such a man.
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But only once, mind." He gave his throat a thorough rake round,
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as if it were the duty of every person not to be mistaken
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through thickness of voice. "Yes, I knew of such a man,"
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he said.
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"And what ghastly gallicrow might the poor fellow have
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been like, Master Fairway?" asked the turf-cutter.
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"Well, 'a was neither a deaf man, nor a dumb man,
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nor a blind man. What 'a was I don't say."
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"Is he known in these parts?" said Olly Dowden.
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"Hardly," said Timothy; "but I name no name....Come,
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keep the fire up there, youngsters."
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"Whatever is Christian Cantle's teeth a-chattering for?"
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said a boy from amid the smoke and shades on the other side
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of the blaze. "Be ye a-cold, Christian?"
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A thin jibbering voice was heard to reply, "No, not at all."
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"Come forward, Christian, and show yourself. I didn't
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know you were here," said Fairway, with a humane look
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across towards that quarter.
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Thus requested, a faltering man, with reedy hair,
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no shoulders, and a great quantity of wrist and ankle
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beyond his clothes, advanced a step or two by his own will,
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and was pushed by the will of others half a dozen steps more.
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He was Grandfer Cantle's youngest son.
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"What be ye quaking for, Christian?" said the turf-
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cutter kindly.
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"I'm the man."
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"What man?"
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"The man no woman will marry."
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"The deuce you be!" said Timothy Fairway, enlarging his
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gaze to cover Christian's whole surface and a great
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deal more, Grandfer Cantle meanwhile staring as a hen
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stares at the duck she has hatched.
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"Yes, I be he; and it makes me afeard," said Christian.
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"D'ye think 'twill hurt me? I shall always say I don't care,
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and swear to it, though I do care all the while."
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"Well, be damned if this isn't the queerest start ever
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I know'd," said Mr. Fairway. "I didn't mean you at all.
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There's another in the country, then! Why did ye reveal
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yer misfortune, Christian?"
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"'Twas to be if 'twas, I suppose. I can't help it,
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can I?" He turned upon them his painfully circular eyes,
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surrounded by concentric lines like targets.
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"No, that's true. But 'tis a melancholy thing,
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|
and my blood ran cold when you spoke, for I felt there
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were two poor fellows where I had thought only one.
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'Tis a sad thing for ye, Christian. How'st know the women
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|
won't hae thee?"
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"I've asked 'em."
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"Sure I should never have thought you had the face.
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Well, and what did the last one say to ye? Nothing
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|
that can't be got over, perhaps, after all?"
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"'Get out of my sight, you slack-twisted, slim-looking
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maphrotight fool,' was the woman's words to me."
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"Not encouraging, I own," said Fairway. "'Get out of
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my sight, you slack-twisted, slim-looking maphrotight fool,'
|
|
is rather a hard way of saying No. But even that might
|
|
be overcome by time and patience, so as to let a few
|
|
grey hairs show themselves in the hussy's head.
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|
How old be you, Christian?"
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|
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"Thirty-one last tatie-digging, Mister Fairway."
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"Not a boy--not a boy. Still there's hope yet."
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|
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"That's my age by baptism, because that's put down in the
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great book of the Judgment that they keep in church vestry;
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|
but Mother told me I was born some time afore I was christened."
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"Ah!"
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"But she couldn't tell when, to save her life,
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except that there was no moon."
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|
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"No moon--that's bad. Hey, neighbours, that's bad for him!"
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"Yes, 'tis bad," said Grandfer Cantle, shaking his head.
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|
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"Mother know'd 'twas no moon, for she asked another
|
|
woman that had an almanac, as she did whenever a boy
|
|
was born to her, because of the saying, 'No moon,
|
|
no man,' which made her afeard every man-child she had.
|
|
Do ye really think it serious, Mister Fairway, that there
|
|
was no moon?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. 'No moon, no man.' 'Tis one of the truest sayings
|
|
ever spit out. The boy never comes to anything that's
|
|
born at new moon. A bad job for thee, Christian, that you
|
|
should have showed your nose then of all days in the month."
|
|
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|
"I suppose the moon was terrible full when you were born?"
|
|
said Christian, with a look of hopeless admiration
|
|
at Fairway.
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|
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|
"Well, 'a was not new," Mr. Fairway replied, with a
|
|
disinterested gaze.
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|
|
|
"I'd sooner go without drink at Lammas-tide than be
|
|
a man of no moon," continued Christian, in the same
|
|
shattered recitative. "'Tis said I be only the rames
|
|
of a man, and no good for my race at all; and I suppose
|
|
that's the cause o't."
|
|
|
|
"Ay," said Grandfer Cantle, somewhat subdued in spirit;
|
|
"and yet his mother cried for scores of hours when 'a
|
|
was a boy, for fear he should outgrow hisself and go for
|
|
a soldier."
|
|
|
|
"Well, there's many just as bad as he." said Fairway.
|
|
|
|
"Wethers must live their time as well as other sheep,
|
|
poor soul."
|
|
|
|
"So perhaps I shall rub on? Ought I to be afeared o'
|
|
nights, Master Fairway?"
|
|
|
|
"You'll have to lie alone all your life; and 'tis not to
|
|
married couples but to single sleepers that a ghost shows
|
|
himself when 'a do come. One has been seen lately, too.
|
|
A very strange one."
|
|
|
|
"No--don't talk about it if 'tis agreeable of ye not to!
|
|
'Twill make my skin crawl when I think of it in bed alone.
|
|
But you will--ah, you will, I know, Timothy; and I shall
|
|
dream all night o't! A very strange one? What sort of
|
|
a spirit did ye mean when ye said, a very strange one,
|
|
Timothy?--no, no--don't tell me."
|
|
|
|
"I don't half believe in spirits myself. But I think
|
|
it ghostly enough--what I was told. 'Twas a little boy
|
|
that zid it."
|
|
|
|
"What was it like?--no, don't--"
|
|
|
|
"A red one. Yes, most ghosts be white; but this
|
|
is as if it had been dipped in blood."
|
|
|
|
Christian drew a deep breath without letting it expand
|
|
his body, and Humphrey said, "Where has it been seen?"
|
|
|
|
"Not exactly here; but in this same heth. But 'tisn't
|
|
a thing to talk about. What do ye say," continued Fairway
|
|
in brisker tones, and turning upon them as if the idea
|
|
had not been Grandfer Cantle's--"what do you say to giving
|
|
the new man and wife a bit of a song tonight afore we
|
|
go to bed--being their wedding-day? When folks are just
|
|
married 'tis as well to look glad o't, since looking
|
|
sorry won't unjoin 'em. I am no drinker, as we know,
|
|
but when the womenfolk and youngsters have gone home we
|
|
can drop down across to the Quiet Woman, and strike up
|
|
a ballet in front of the married folks' door. 'Twill please
|
|
the young wife, and that's what I should like to do,
|
|
for many's the skinful I've had at her hands when she
|
|
lived with her aunt at Blooms-End."
|
|
|
|
"Hey? And so we will!" said Grandfer Cantle, turning so
|
|
briskly that his copper seals swung extravagantly.
|
|
"I'm as dry as a kex with biding up here in the wind,
|
|
and I haven't seen the colour of drink since nammet-
|
|
time today. 'Tis said that the last brew at the Woman
|
|
is very pretty drinking. And, neighbours, if we should be
|
|
a little late in the finishing, why, tomorrow's Sunday,
|
|
and we can sleep it off?"
|
|
|
|
"Grandfer Cantle! you take things very careless
|
|
for an old man," said the wide woman.
|
|
|
|
"I take things careless; I do--too careless to please the
|
|
women! Klk! I'll sing the 'Jovial Crew,' or any other song,
|
|
when a weak old man would cry his eyes out. Jown it;
|
|
I am up for anything.
|
|
|
|
|
|
"The king' look'd o'-ver his left' shoul-der',
|
|
And a grim' look look'-ed hee',
|
|
Earl Mar'-shal, he said', but for' my oath'
|
|
Or hang'-ed thou' shouldst bee'."
|
|
|
|
|
|
"Well, that's what we'll do," said Fairway. "We'll give
|
|
'em a song, an' it please the Lord. What's the good of
|
|
Thomasin's cousin Clym a-coming home after the deed's done?
|
|
He should have come afore, if so be he wanted to stop it,
|
|
and marry her himself."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps he's coming to bide with his mother a little time,
|
|
as she must feel lonely now the maid's gone."
|
|
|
|
"Now, 'tis very odd, but I never feel lonely--no, not at all,"
|
|
said Grandfer Cantle. "I am as brave in the nighttime
|
|
as a' admiral!"
|
|
|
|
The bonfire was by this time beginning to sink low,
|
|
for the fuel had not been of that substantial sort which can
|
|
support a blaze long. Most of the other fires within the wide
|
|
horizon were also dwindling weak. Attentive observation
|
|
of their brightness, colour, and length of existence
|
|
would have revealed the quality of the material burnt,
|
|
and through that, to some extent the natural produce
|
|
of the district in which each bonfire was situate.
|
|
The clear, kingly effulgence that had characterized the
|
|
majority expressed a heath and furze country like their own,
|
|
which in one direction extended an unlimited number of miles;
|
|
the rapid flares and extinctions at other points of the
|
|
compass showed the lightest of fuel--straw, beanstalks,
|
|
and the usual waste from arable land. The most enduring
|
|
of all--steady unaltering eyes like Planets--signified wood,
|
|
such as hazel-branches, thorn-faggots, and stout billets.
|
|
Fires of the last-mentioned materials were rare, and though
|
|
comparatively small in magnitude beside the transient blazes,
|
|
now began to get the best of them by mere long continuance.
|
|
The great ones had perished, but these remained.
|
|
They occupied the remotest visible positions--sky-backed
|
|
summits rising out of rich coppice and plantation districts
|
|
to the north, where the soil was different, and heath
|
|
foreign and strange.
|
|
|
|
Save one; and this was the nearest of any, the moon of the
|
|
whole shining throng. It lay in a direction precisely
|
|
opposite to that of the little window in the vale below.
|
|
Its nearness was such that, notwithstanding its
|
|
actual smallness, its glow infinitely transcended theirs.
|
|
|
|
This quiet eye had attracted attention from time to time;
|
|
and when their own fire had become sunken and dim it
|
|
attracted more; some even of the wood fires more recently
|
|
lighted had reached their decline, but no change was
|
|
perceptible here.
|
|
|
|
"To be sure, how near that fire is!" said Fairway.
|
|
"Seemingly. I can see a fellow of some sort walking round it.
|
|
Little and good must be said of that fire, surely."
|
|
|
|
"I can throw a stone there," said the boy.
|
|
|
|
"And so can I!" said Grandfer Cantle.
|
|
|
|
"No, no, you can't, my sonnies. That fire is not much
|
|
less than a mile off, for all that 'a seems so near."
|
|
|
|
"'Tis in the heath, but no furze," said the turf-cutter.
|
|
|
|
"'Tis cleft-wood, that's what 'tis," said Timothy Fairway.
|
|
"Nothing would burn like that except clean timber. And 'tis
|
|
on the knap afore the old captain's house at Mistover.
|
|
Such a queer mortal as that man is! To have a little
|
|
fire inside your own bank and ditch, that nobody else
|
|
may enjoy it or come anigh it! And what a zany an old chap
|
|
must be, to light a bonfire when there's no youngsters
|
|
to please."
|
|
|
|
"Cap'n Vye has been for a long walk today, and is quite
|
|
tired out," said Grandfer Cantle, "so 'tisn't likely
|
|
to be he."
|
|
|
|
"And he would hardly afford good fuel like that,"
|
|
said the wide woman.
|
|
|
|
"Then it must be his granddaughter," said Fairway.
|
|
"Not that a body of her age can want a fire much."
|
|
|
|
"She is very strange in her ways, living up there by herself,
|
|
and such things please her," said Susan.
|
|
|
|
"She's a well-favoured maid enough," said Humphrey the
|
|
furze-cutter, "especially when she's got one of her dandy gowns on."
|
|
|
|
"That's true," said Fairway. "Well, let her bonfire burn
|
|
an't will. Ours is well-nigh out by the look o't."
|
|
|
|
"How dark 'tis now the fire's gone down!" said Christian Cantle,
|
|
looking behind him with his hare eyes. "Don't ye think we'd
|
|
better get home-along, neighbours? The heth isn't haunted,
|
|
I know; but we'd better get home....Ah, what was that?"
|
|
|
|
"Only the wind," said the turf-cutter.
|
|
|
|
"I don't think Fifth-of-Novembers ought to be kept up
|
|
by night except in towns. It should be by day in outstep,
|
|
ill-accounted places like this!"
|
|
|
|
"Nonsense, Christian. Lift up your spirits like a man! Susy,
|
|
dear, you and I will have a jig--hey, my honey?--before
|
|
'tis quite too dark to see how well-favoured you be still,
|
|
though so many summers have passed since your husband,
|
|
a son of a witch, snapped you up from me."
|
|
|
|
This was addressed to Susan Nunsuch; and the next
|
|
circumstance of which the beholders were conscious
|
|
was a vision of the matron's broad form whisking off
|
|
towards the space whereon the fire had been kindled.
|
|
She was lifted bodily by Mr. Fairway's arm, which had
|
|
been flung round her waist before she had become aware
|
|
of his intention. The site of the fire was now merely
|
|
a circle of ashes flecked with red embers and sparks,
|
|
the furze having burnt completely away. Once within
|
|
the circle he whirled her round and round in a dance.
|
|
She was a woman noisily constructed; in addition to her
|
|
enclosing framework of whalebone and lath, she wore
|
|
pattens summer and winter, in wet weather and in dry,
|
|
to preserve her boots from wear; and when Fairway began
|
|
to jump about with her, the clicking of the pattens,
|
|
the creaking of the stays, and her screams of surprise,
|
|
formed a very audible concert.
|
|
|
|
"I'll crack thy numskull for thee, you mandy chap!"
|
|
said Mrs. Nunsuch, as she helplessly danced round with him,
|
|
her feet playing like drumsticks among the sparks.
|
|
"My ankles were all in a fever before, from walking
|
|
through that prickly furze, and now you must make 'em
|
|
worse with these vlankers!"
|
|
|
|
The vagary of Timothy Fairway was infectious. The turf-cutter
|
|
seized old Olly Dowden, and, somewhat more gently,
|
|
poussetted with her likewise. The young men were not slow
|
|
to imitate the example of their elders, and seized the maids;
|
|
Grandfer Cantle and his stick jigged in the form of a
|
|
three-legged object among the rest; and in half a minute
|
|
all that could be seen on Rainbarrow was a whirling
|
|
of dark shapes amid a boiling confusion of sparks,
|
|
which leapt around the dancers as high as their waists.
|
|
The chief noises were women's shrill cries, men's laughter,
|
|
Susan's stays and pattens, Olly Dowden's "heu-heu-heu!"
|
|
and the strumming of the wind upon the furze-bushes, which
|
|
formed a kind of tune to the demoniac measure they trod.
|
|
Christian alone stood aloof, uneasily rocking himself
|
|
as he murmured, "They ought not to do it--how the vlankers
|
|
do fly! 'tis tempting the Wicked one, 'tis."
|
|
|
|
"What was that?" said one of the lads, stopping.
|
|
|
|
"Ah--where?" said Christian, hastily closing up to the rest.
|
|
|
|
The dancers all lessened their speed.
|
|
|
|
"'Twas behind you, Christian, that I heard it--down here."
|
|
|
|
"Yes--'tis behind me!" Christian said. "Matthew, Mark,
|
|
Luke, and John, bless the bed that I lie on; four angels guard--"
|
|
|
|
"Hold your tongue. What is it?" said Fairway.
|
|
|
|
"Hoi-i-i-i!" cried a voice from the darkness.
|
|
|
|
"Halloo-o-o-o!" said Fairway.
|
|
|
|
"Is there any cart track up across here to Mis'ess
|
|
Yeobright's, of Blooms-End?" came to them in the same voice,
|
|
as a long, slim indistinct figure approached the barrow.
|
|
|
|
"Ought we not to run home as hard as we can, neighbours,
|
|
as 'tis getting late?" said Christian. "Not run away
|
|
from one another, you know; run close together, I mean."
|
|
"Scrape up a few stray locks of furze, and make a blaze,
|
|
so that we can see who the man is," said Fairway.
|
|
|
|
When the flame arose it revealed a young man in tight
|
|
raiment, and red from top to toe. "Is there a track
|
|
across here to Mis'ess Yeobright's house?" he repeated.
|
|
|
|
"Ay--keep along the path down there."
|
|
|
|
"I mean a way two horses and a van can travel over?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, yes; you can get up the vale below here with time.
|
|
The track is rough, but if you've got a light your horses
|
|
may pick along wi' care. Have ye brought your cart far up,
|
|
neighbour reddleman?"
|
|
|
|
"I've left it in the bottom, about half a mile back,
|
|
I stepped on in front to make sure of the way, as 'tis
|
|
night-time, and I han't been here for so long."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, well you can get up," said Fairway. "What a turn it
|
|
did give me when I saw him!" he added to the whole group,
|
|
the reddleman included. "Lord's sake, I thought,
|
|
whatever fiery mommet is this come to trouble us? No
|
|
slight to your looks, reddleman, for ye bain't bad-looking
|
|
in the groundwork, though the finish is queer. My meaning
|
|
is just to say how curious I felt. I half thought it
|
|
'twas the devil or the red ghost the boy told of."
|
|
|
|
"It gied me a turn likewise," said Susan Nunsuch, "for I
|
|
had a dream last night of a death's head."
|
|
|
|
"Don't ye talk o't no more," said Christian. "If he had
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a handkerchief over his head he'd look for all the world
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like the Devil in the picture of the Temptation."
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"Well, thank you for telling me," said the young reddleman,
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smiling faintly. "And good night t'ye all."
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He withdrew from their sight down the barrow.
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"I fancy I've seen that young man's face before,"
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said Humphrey. "But where, or how, or what his name is,
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I don't know."
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The reddleman had not been gone more than a few
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minutes when another person approached the partially
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revived bonfire. It proved to be a well-known and
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respected widow of the neighbourhood, of a standing which
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can only be expressed by the word genteel. Her face,
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encompassed by the blackness of the receding heath,
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showed whitely, and with-out half-lights, like a cameo.
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She was a woman of middle-age, with well-formed features
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of the type usually found where perspicacity is the chief
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quality enthroned within. At moments she seemed to be
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regarding issues from a Nebo denied to others around.
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She had something of an estranged mien; the solitude
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exhaled from the heath was concentrated in this face that
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had risen from it. The air with which she looked at the
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heathmen betokened a certain unconcern at their presence,
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or at what might be their opinions of her for walking in
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that lonely spot at such an hour, thus indirectly implying
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that in some respect or other they were not up to her level.
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The explanation lay in the fact that though her husband
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had been a small farmer she herself was a curate's daughter,
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who had once dreamt of doing better things.
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Persons with any weight of character carry, like planets,
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their atmospheres along with them in their orbits;
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and the matron who entered now upon the scene could,
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and usually did, bring her own tone into a company.
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Her normal manner among the heathfolk had that reticence
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which results from the consciousness of superior
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communicative power. But the effect of coming into
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society and light after lonely wandering in darkness
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is a sociability in the comer above its usual pitch,
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expressed in the features even more than in words.
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"Why, 'tis Mis'ess Yeobright," said Fairway. "Mis'ess Yeobright,
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not ten minutes ago a man was here asking for you--a reddleman."
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"What did he want?" said she.
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"He didn't tell us."
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"Something to sell, I suppose; what it can be I am
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at a loss to understand."
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"I am glad to hear that your son Mr. Clym is coming home
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at Christmas, ma'am," said Sam, the turf-cutter. "What
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a dog he used to be for bonfires!"
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"Yes. I believe he is coming," she said.
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"He must be a fine fellow by this time," said Fairway.
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"He is a man now," she replied quietly.
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"'Tis very lonesome for 'ee in the heth tonight,
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mis'ess," said Christian, coming from the seclusion he
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had hitherto maintained. "Mind you don't get lost.
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Egdon Heth is a bad place to get lost in, and the winds
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do huffle queerer tonight than ever I heard 'em afore.
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Them that know Egdon best have been pixy-led here at times."
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"Is that you, Christian?" said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"What made you hide away from me?"
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"'Twas that I didn't know you in this light, mis'ess;
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and being a man of the mournfullest make, I was scared
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a little, that's all. Oftentimes if you could see
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how terrible down I get in my mind, 'twould make
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'ee quite nervous for fear I should die by my hand."
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"You don't take after your father," said Mrs. Yeobright,
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looking towards the fire, where Grandfer Cantle, with some
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want of originality, was dancing by himself among the sparks,
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as the others had done before.
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"Now, Grandfer," said Timothy Fairway, "we are ashamed
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of ye. A reverent old patriarch man as you be--seventy
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if a day--to go hornpiping like that by yourself!"
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"A harrowing old man, Mis'ess Yeobright,"
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|
said Christian despondingly. "I wouldn't
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live with him a week, so playward as he is, if I could get away."
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"'Twould be more seemly in ye to stand still and welcome
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Mis'ess Yeobright, and you the venerablest here,
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Grandfer Cantle," said the besom-woman.
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"Faith, and so it would," said the reveller checking
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|
himself repentantly. "I've such a bad memory,
|
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Mis'ess Yeobright, that I forget how I'm looked up to
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|
by the rest of 'em. My spirits must be wonderful good,
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|
you'll say? But not always. 'Tis a weight upon a man
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|
to be looked up to as commander, and I often feel it."
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"I am sorry to stop the talk," said Mrs. Yeobright. "But I must
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|
be leaving you now. I was passing down the Anglebury Road,
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|
towards my niece's new home, who is returning tonight with
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her husband; and seeing the bonfire and hearing Olly's voice
|
|
among the rest I came up here to learn what was going on.
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I should like her to walk with me, as her way is mine."
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"Ay, sure, ma'am, I'm just thinking of moving," said Olly.
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"Why, you'll be safe to meet the reddleman that I told ye of,"
|
|
said Fairway. "He's only gone back to get his van.
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|
We heard that your niece and her husband were coming
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|
straight home as soon as they were married, and we are
|
|
going down there shortly, to give 'em a song o' welcome."
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"Thank you indeed," said Mrs. Yeobright.
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|
"But we shall take a shorter cut through the furze than you
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|
can go with long clothes; so we won't trouble you to wait."
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|
"Very well--are you ready, Olly?"
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|
"Yes, ma'am. And there's a light shining from your
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|
niece's window, see. It will help to keep us in the path."
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|
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|
She indicated the faint light at the bottom of the valley
|
|
which Fairway had pointed out; and the two women descended
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the tumulus.
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4 - The Halt on the Turnpike Road
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Down, downward they went, and yet further down--their
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|
descent at each step seeming to outmeasure their advance.
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|
Their skirts were scratched noisily by the furze,
|
|
their shoulders brushed by the ferns, which, though dead
|
|
and dry, stood erect as when alive, no sufficient winter
|
|
weather having as yet arrived to beat them down.
|
|
Their Tartarean situation might by some have been called
|
|
an imprudent one for two unattended women. But these
|
|
shaggy recesses were at all seasons a familiar surrounding
|
|
to Olly and Mrs. Yeobright; and the addition of darkness
|
|
lends no frightfulness to the face of a friend.
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|
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|
"And so Tamsin has married him at last," said Olly,
|
|
when the incline had become so much less steep that their
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|
foot-steps no longer required undivided attention.
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|
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|
Mrs. Yeobright answered slowly, "Yes; at last."
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|
|
|
"How you will miss her--living with 'ee as a daughter,
|
|
as she always have."
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|
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|
"I do miss her."
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|
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|
Olly, though without the tact to perceive when remarks
|
|
were untimely, was saved by her very simplicity from
|
|
rendering them offensive. Questions that would have
|
|
been resented in others she could ask with impunity.
|
|
This accounted for Mrs. Yeobright's acquiescence in the
|
|
revival of an evidently sore subject.
|
|
|
|
"I was quite strook to hear you'd agreed to it,
|
|
ma'am, that I was," continued the besom-maker.
|
|
|
|
"You were not more struck by it than I should have been
|
|
last year this time, Olly. There are a good many sides
|
|
to that wedding. I could not tell you all of them,
|
|
even if I tried."
|
|
|
|
"I felt myself that he was hardly solid-going enough
|
|
to mate with your family. Keeping an inn--what is it?
|
|
But 'a's clever, that's true, and they say he was an
|
|
engineering gentleman once, but has come down by being
|
|
too outwardly given."
|
|
|
|
"I saw that, upon the whole, it would be better she
|
|
should marry where she wished."
|
|
|
|
"Poor little thing, her feelings got the better of her,
|
|
no doubt. 'Tis nature. Well, they may call him what they
|
|
will--he've several acres of heth-ground broke up here,
|
|
besides the public house, and the heth-croppers, and his
|
|
manners be quite like a gentleman's. And what's done cannot
|
|
be undone."
|
|
|
|
"It cannot," said Mrs. Yeobright. "See, here's
|
|
the wagon-track at last. Now we shall get along better."
|
|
|
|
The wedding subject was no further dwelt upon;
|
|
and soon a faint diverging path was reached, where they
|
|
parted company, Olly first begging her companion to remind
|
|
Mr. Wildeve that he had not sent her sick husband the
|
|
bottle of wine promised on the occasion of his marriage.
|
|
The besom-maker turned to the left towards her own house,
|
|
behind a spur of the hill, and Mrs. Yeobright followed
|
|
the straight track, which further on joined the highway by
|
|
the Quiet Woman Inn, whither she supposed her niece to have
|
|
returned with Wildeve from their wedding at Anglebury that day.
|
|
|
|
She first reached Wildeve's Patch, as it was called,
|
|
a plot of land redeemed from the heath, and after long
|
|
and laborious years brought into cultivation. The man who
|
|
had discovered that it could be tilled died of the labour;
|
|
the man who succeeded him in possession ruined himself
|
|
in fertilizing it. Wildeve came like Amerigo Vespucci,
|
|
and received the honours due to those who had gone before.
|
|
|
|
When Mrs. Yeobright had drawn near to the inn,
|
|
and was about to enter, she saw a horse and vehicle
|
|
some two hundred yards beyond it, coming towards her,
|
|
a man walking alongside with a lantern in his hand.
|
|
It was soon evident that this was the reddleman who had
|
|
inquired for her. Instead of entering the inn at once,
|
|
she walked by it and towards the van.
|
|
|
|
The conveyance came close, and the man was about to pass
|
|
her with little notice, when she turned to him and said,
|
|
"I think you have been inquiring for me? I am Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
of Blooms-End."
|
|
|
|
The reddleman started, and held up his finger.
|
|
He stopped the horses, and beckoned to her to withdraw
|
|
with him a few yards aside, which she did, wondering.
|
|
|
|
"You don't know me, ma'am, I suppose?" he said.
|
|
|
|
"I do not," said she. "Why, yes, I do! You are young
|
|
Venn--your father was a dairyman somewhere here?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; and I knew your niece, Miss Tamsin, a little.
|
|
I have something bad to tell you."
|
|
|
|
"About her--no! She has just come home, I believe,
|
|
with her husband. They arranged to return this
|
|
afternoon--to the inn beyond here."
|
|
|
|
"She's not there."
|
|
|
|
"How do you know?"
|
|
|
|
"Because she's here. She's in my van," he added slowly.
|
|
|
|
"What new trouble has come?" murmured Mrs. Yeobright,
|
|
putting her hand over her eyes.
|
|
|
|
"I can't explain much, ma'am. All I know is that, as I
|
|
was going along the road this morning, about a mile out
|
|
of Anglebury, I heard something trotting after me like a doe,
|
|
and looking round there she was, white as death itself.
|
|
'Oh, Diggory Venn!' she said, 'I thought 'twas you--will
|
|
you help me? I am in trouble.'"
|
|
|
|
"How did she know your Christian name?" said Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
doubtingly.
|
|
|
|
"I had met her as a lad before I went away in this trade.
|
|
She asked then if she might ride, and then down she fell
|
|
in a faint. I picked her up and put her in, and there
|
|
she has been ever since. She has cried a good deal,
|
|
but she has hardly spoke; all she has told me being
|
|
that she was to have been married this morning.
|
|
I tried to get her to eat something, but she couldn't;
|
|
and at last she fell asleep."
|
|
|
|
"Let me see her at once," said Mrs. Yeobright,
|
|
hastening towards the van.
|
|
|
|
The reddleman followed with the lantern, and, stepping
|
|
up first, assisted Mrs. Yeobright to mount beside him.
|
|
On the door being opened she perceived at the end
|
|
of the van an extemporized couch, around which was hung
|
|
apparently all the drapery that the reddleman possessed,
|
|
to keep the occupant of the little couch from contact
|
|
with the red materials of his trade. A young girl
|
|
lay thereon, covered with a cloak. She was asleep,
|
|
and the light of the lantern fell upon her features.
|
|
|
|
A fair, sweet, and honest country face was revealed,
|
|
reposing in a nest of wavy chestnut hair. It was between
|
|
pretty and beautiful. Though her eyes were closed,
|
|
one could easily imagine the light necessarily shining in them
|
|
as the culmination of the luminous workmanship around.
|
|
The groundwork of the face was hopefulness; but over it
|
|
now I ay like a foreign substance a film of anxiety
|
|
and grief. The grief had been there so shortly as to
|
|
have abstracted nothing of the bloom, and had as yet but
|
|
given a dignity to what it might eventually undermine.
|
|
The scarlet of her lips had not had time to abate,
|
|
and just now it appeared still more intense by the absence
|
|
of the neighbouring and more transient colour of her cheek.
|
|
The lips frequently parted, with a murmur of words.
|
|
She seemed to belong rightly to a madrigal--to require
|
|
viewing through rhyme and harmony.
|
|
|
|
One thing at least was obvious: she was not made to be
|
|
looked at thus. The reddleman had appeared conscious
|
|
of as much, and, while Mrs. Yeobright looked in upon her,
|
|
he cast his eyes aside with a delicacy which well became him.
|
|
The sleeper apparently thought so too, for the next moment
|
|
she opened her own.
|
|
|
|
The lips then parted with something of anticipation,
|
|
something more of doubt; and her several thoughts and fractions
|
|
of thoughts, as signalled by the changes on her face,
|
|
were exhibited by the light to the utmost nicety.
|
|
An ingenuous, transparent life was disclosed, as if the
|
|
flow of her existence could be seen passing within her.
|
|
She understood the scene in a moment.
|
|
|
|
"O yes, it is I, Aunt," she cried. "I know how frightened
|
|
you are, and how you cannot believe it; but all the same,
|
|
it is I who have come home like this!"
|
|
|
|
"Tamsin, Tamsin!" said Mrs. Yeobright, stooping over
|
|
the young woman and kissing her. "O my dear girl!"
|
|
|
|
Thomasin was now on the verge of a sob, but by an unexpected
|
|
self-command she uttered no sound. With a gentle panting
|
|
breath she sat upright.
|
|
|
|
"I did not expect to see you in this state, any more
|
|
than you me," she went on quickly. "Where am I, Aunt?"
|
|
|
|
"Nearly home, my dear. In Egdon Bottom. What dreadful
|
|
thing is it?"
|
|
|
|
"I'll tell you in a moment. So near, are we? Then I
|
|
will get out and walk. I want to go home by the path."
|
|
|
|
"But this kind man who has done so much will, I am sure,
|
|
take you right on to my house?" said the aunt, turning to
|
|
the reddleman, who had withdrawn from the front of the van
|
|
on the awakening of the girl, and stood in the road.
|
|
|
|
"Why should you think it necessary to ask me? I will,
|
|
of course," said he.
|
|
|
|
"He is indeed kind," murmured Thomasin. "I was once
|
|
acquainted with him, Aunt, and when I saw him today I thought
|
|
I should prefer his van to any conveyance of a stranger.
|
|
But I'll walk now. Reddleman, stop the horses, please."
|
|
|
|
The man regarded her with tender reluctance, but stopped
|
|
them
|
|
|
|
Aunt and niece then descended from the van, Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
saying to its owner, "I quite recognize you now.
|
|
What made you change from the nice business your father
|
|
left you?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, I did," he said, and looked at Thomasin,
|
|
who blushed a little. "Then you'll not be wanting
|
|
me any more tonight, ma'am?"
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright glanced around at the dark sky, at the hills,
|
|
at the perishing bonfires, and at the lighted window
|
|
of the inn they had neared. "I think not," she said,
|
|
"since Thomasin wishes to walk. We can soon run up
|
|
the path and reach home--we know it well."
|
|
|
|
And after a few further words they parted, the reddleman
|
|
moving onwards with his van, and the two women remaining
|
|
standing in the road. As soon as the vehicle and its
|
|
driver had withdrawn so far as to be beyond all possible
|
|
reach of her voice, Mrs. Yeobright turned to her niece.
|
|
|
|
"Now, Thomasin," she said sternly, "what's the meaning
|
|
of this disgraceful performance?"
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
5 - Perplexity among Honest People
|
|
|
|
|
|
Thomasin looked as if quite overcome by her aunt's change
|
|
of manner. "It means just what it seems to mean: I
|
|
am--not married," she replied faintly. "Excuse me--for
|
|
humiliating you, Aunt, by this mishap--I am sorry for it.
|
|
But I cannot help it."
|
|
|
|
"Me? Think of yourself first."
|
|
|
|
"It was nobody's fault. When we got there the parson
|
|
wouldn't marry us because of some trifling irregularity
|
|
in the license."
|
|
|
|
"What irregularity?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know. Mr. Wildeve can explain. I did not think
|
|
when I went away this morning that I should come back
|
|
like this." It being dark, Thomasin allowed her emotion
|
|
to escape her by the silent way of tears, which could
|
|
roll down her cheek unseen.
|
|
|
|
"I could almost say that it serves you right--if I did not
|
|
feel that you don't deserve it," continued Mrs. Yeobright,
|
|
who, possessing two distinct moods in close contiguity,
|
|
a gentle mood and an angry, flew from one to the other
|
|
without the least warning. "Remember, Thomasin,
|
|
this business was none of my seeking; from the very first,
|
|
when you began to feel foolish about that man, I warned
|
|
you he would not make you happy. I felt it so strongly
|
|
that I did what I would never have believed myself
|
|
capable of doing--stood up in the church, and made myself
|
|
the public talk for weeks. But having once consented,
|
|
I don't submit to these fancies without good reason.
|
|
Marry him you must after this."
|
|
|
|
"Do you think I wish to do otherwise for one moment?"
|
|
said Thomasin, with a heavy sigh. "I know how wrong
|
|
it was of me to love him, but don't pain me by talking
|
|
like that, Aunt! You would not have had me stay there
|
|
with him, would you?--and your house is the only home I
|
|
have to return to. He says we can be married in a day
|
|
or two."
|
|
|
|
"I wish he had never seen you."
|
|
|
|
"Very well; then I will be the miserablest woman in the world,
|
|
and not let him see me again. No, I won't have him!"
|
|
|
|
"It is too late to speak so. Come with me. I am
|
|
going to the inn to see if he has returned. Of course
|
|
I shall get to the bottom of this story at once.
|
|
Mr. Wildeve must not suppose he can play tricks upon me,
|
|
or any belonging to me."
|
|
|
|
"It was not that. The license was wrong, and he couldn't
|
|
get another the same day. He will tell you in a moment
|
|
how it was, if he comes."
|
|
|
|
"Why didn't he bring you back?"
|
|
|
|
"That was me!" again sobbed Thomasin. "When I found we
|
|
could not be married I didn't like to come back with him,
|
|
and I was very ill. Then I saw Diggory Venn, and was glad
|
|
to get him to take me home. I cannot explain it any better,
|
|
and you must be angry with me if you will."
|
|
|
|
"I shall see about that," said Mrs. Yeobright; and they
|
|
turned towards the inn, known in the neighbourhood
|
|
as the Quiet Woman, the sign of which represented
|
|
the figure of a matron carrying her head under her arm,
|
|
beneath which gruesome design was written the couplet
|
|
so well known to frequenters of the inn:--
|
|
|
|
|
|
SINCE THE WOMAN'S QUIET
|
|
LET NO MAN BREED A RIOT.[1]
|
|
|
|
|
|
[1] The inn which really bore this sign and legend
|
|
stood some miles to the northwest of the present scene,
|
|
wherein the house more immediately referred to is now no
|
|
longer an inn; and the surroundings are much changed.
|
|
But another inn, some of whose features are also embodied
|
|
in this description, the RED LION at Winfrith,
|
|
still remains as a haven for the wayfarer (1912).
|
|
|
|
|
|
The front of the house was towards the heath and Rainbarrow,
|
|
whose dark shape seemed to threaten it from the sky.
|
|
Upon the door was a neglected brass plate, bearing the
|
|
unexpected inscription, "Mr. Wildeve, Engineer"--a useless
|
|
yet cherished relic from the time when he had been started
|
|
in that profession in an office at Budmouth by those who
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had hoped much from him, and had been disappointed.
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The garden was at the back, and behind this ran a still
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deep stream, forming the margin of the heath in that direction,
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meadow-land appearing beyond the stream.
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But the thick obscurity permitted only skylines to be
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visible of any scene at present. The water at the back
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of the house could be heard, idly spinning whirpools
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in its creep between the rows of dry feather-headed reeds
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which formed a stockade along each bank. Their presence
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was denoted by sounds as of a congregation praying humbly,
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produced by their rubbing against each other in the slow wind.
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The window, whence the candlelight had shone up the vale
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to the eyes of the bonfire group, was uncurtained,
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but the sill lay too high for a pedestrian on the outside
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to look over it into the room. A vast shadow, in which
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could be dimly traced portions of a masculine contour,
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blotted half the ceiling.
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"He seems to be at home," said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"Must I come in, too, Aunt?" asked Thomasin faintly.
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"I suppose not; it would be wrong."
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"You must come, certainly--to confront him, so that he
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may make no false representations to me. We shall not
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be five minutes in the house, and then we'll walk home."
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Entering the open passage, she tapped at the door
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of the private parlour, unfastened it, and looked in.
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The back and shoulders of a man came between Mrs. Yeobright's
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eyes and the fire. Wildeve, whose form it was,
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immediately turned, arose, and advanced to meet his visitors.
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He was quite a young man, and of the two properties,
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form and motion, the latter first attracted the eye
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in him. The grace of his movement was singular--it
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was the pantomimic expression of a lady-killing career.
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Next came into notice the more material qualities,
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among which was a profuse crop of hair impending
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over the top of his face, lending to his forehead
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the high-cornered outline of an early Gothic shield;
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and a neck which was smooth and round as a cylinder.
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The lower half of his figure was of light build.
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Altogether he was one in whom no man would have seen
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anything to admire, and in whom no woman would have seen
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anything to dislike.
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He discerned the young girl's form in the passage,
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and said, "Thomasin, then, has reached home.
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How could you leave me in that way, darling?" And turning
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to Mrs. Yeobright--"It was useless to argue with her.
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She would go, and go alone."
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"But what's the meaning of it all?" demanded Mrs. Yeobright haughtily.
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"Take a seat," said Wildeve, placing chairs for the two women.
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"Well, it was a very stupid mistake, but such mistakes
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will happen. The license was useless at Anglebury.
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It was made out for Budmouth, but as I didn't read it I
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wasn't aware of that."
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"But you had been staying at Anglebury?"
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"No. I had been at Budmouth--till two days ago--and
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that was where I had intended to take her; but when
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I came to fetch her we decided upon Anglebury,
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forgetting that a new license would be necessary.
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There was not time to get to Budmouth afterwards."
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"I think you are very much to blame," said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"It was quite my fault we chose Anglebury," Thomasin pleaded.
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"I proposed it because I was not known there."
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"I know so well that I am to blame that you need not
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|
remind me of it," replied Wildeve shortly.
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"Such things don't happen for nothing," said the aunt.
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|
"It is a great slight to me and my family; and when it
|
|
gets known there will be a very unpleasant time for us.
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|
How can she look her friends in the face tomorrow? It
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is a very great injury, and one I cannot easily forgive.
|
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It may even reflect on her character."
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|
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"Nonsense," said Wildeve.
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Thomasin's large eyes had flown from the face of one
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to the face of the other during this discussion, and she
|
|
now said anxiously, "Will you allow me, Aunt, to talk it
|
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over alone with Damon for five minutes? Will you, Damon?"
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"Certainly, dear," said Wildeve, "if your aunt will excuse us."
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He led her into an adjoining room, leaving Mrs. Yeobright
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by the fire.
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|
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|
As soon as they were alone, and the door closed,
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Thomasin said, turning up her pale, tearful face
|
|
to him, "It is killing me, this, Damon! I did not mean
|
|
to part from you in anger at Anglebury this morning;
|
|
but I was frightened and hardly knew what I said.
|
|
I've not let Aunt know how much I suffered today; and it
|
|
is so hard to command my face and voice, and to smile
|
|
as if it were a slight thing to me; but I try to do so,
|
|
that she may not be still more indignant with you.
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|
I know you could not help it, dear, whatever Aunt
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|
may think."
|
|
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|
"She is very unpleasant."
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|
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|
"Yes," Thomasin murmured, "and I suppose I seem
|
|
so now....Damon, what do you mean to do about me?"
|
|
|
|
"Do about you?"
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|
|
|
"Yes. Those who don't like you whisper things which at
|
|
moments make me doubt you. We mean to marry, I suppose,
|
|
don't we?"
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|
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|
"Of course we do. We have only to go to Budmouth on Monday,
|
|
and we marry at once."
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|
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|
"Then do let us go!--O Damon, what you make me say!"
|
|
She hid her face in her handkerchief. "Here am I asking
|
|
you to marry me, when by rights you ought to be on your
|
|
knees imploring me, your cruel mistress, not to refuse you,
|
|
and saying it would break your heart if I did.
|
|
I used to think it would be pretty and sweet like that;
|
|
but how different!"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, real life is never at all like that."
|
|
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|
"But I don't care personally if it never takes place,"
|
|
she added with a little dignity; "no, I can live without you.
|
|
It is Aunt I think of. She is so proud, and thinks
|
|
so much of her family respectability, that she will be
|
|
cut down with mortification if this story should get
|
|
abroad before--it is done. My cousin Clym, too, will be
|
|
much wounded."
|
|
|
|
"Then he will be very unreasonable. In fact, you are
|
|
all rather unreasonable."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin coloured a little, and not with love. But whatever
|
|
the momentary feeling which caused that flush in her,
|
|
it went as it came, and she humbly said, "I never mean
|
|
to be, if I can help it. I merely feel that you have
|
|
my aunt to some extent in your power at last."
|
|
|
|
"As a matter of justice it is almost due to me," said Wildeve.
|
|
"Think what I have gone through to win her consent;
|
|
the insult that it is to any man to have the banns
|
|
forbidden--the double insult to a man unlucky enough to be
|
|
cursed with sensitiveness, and blue demons, and Heaven
|
|
knows what, as I am. I can never forget those banns.
|
|
A harsher man would rejoice now in the power I have of
|
|
turning upon your aunt by going no further in the business."
|
|
|
|
She looked wistfully at him with her sorrowful eyes as he said
|
|
those words, and her aspect showed that more than one person
|
|
in the room could deplore the possession of sensitiveness.
|
|
Seeing that she was really suffering he seemed disturbed
|
|
and added, "This is merely a reflection you know.
|
|
I have not the least intention to refuse to complete
|
|
the marriage, Tamsie mine--I could not bear it."
|
|
|
|
"You could not, I know!" said the fair girl, brightening.
|
|
"You, who cannot bear the sight of pain in even an insect,
|
|
or any disagreeable sound, or unpleasant smell even,
|
|
will not long cause pain to me and mine."
|
|
|
|
"I will not, if I can help it."
|
|
|
|
"Your hand upon it, Damon."
|
|
|
|
He carelessly gave her his hand.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, by my crown, what's that?" he said suddenly.
|
|
|
|
There fell upon their ears the sound of numerous
|
|
voices singing in front of the house. Among these,
|
|
two made themselves prominent by their peculiarity: one
|
|
was a very strong bass, the other a wheezy thin piping.
|
|
Thomasin recognized them as belonging to Timothy Fairway
|
|
and Grandfer Cantle respectively.
|
|
|
|
"What does it mean--it is not skimmity-riding, I hope?"
|
|
she said, with a frightened gaze at Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"Of course not; no, it is that the heath-folk have come
|
|
to sing to us a welcome. This is intolerable!" He began
|
|
pacing about, the men outside singing cheerily--
|
|
|
|
|
|
"He told' her that she' was the joy' of his life', And if'
|
|
she'd con-sent' he would make her his wife'; She could'
|
|
not refuse' him; to church' so they went', Young Will
|
|
was forgot', and young Sue' was content'; And then'
|
|
was she kiss'd' and set down' on his knee', No man'
|
|
in the world' was so lov'-ing as he'!"
|
|
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright burst in from the outer room.
|
|
"Thomasin, Thomasin!" she said, looking indignantly at Wildeve;
|
|
"here's a pretty exposure! Let us escape at once. Come!"
|
|
|
|
It was, however, too late to get away by the passage.
|
|
A rugged knocking had begun upon the door of the front room.
|
|
Wildeve, who had gone to the window, came back.
|
|
|
|
"Stop!" he said imperiously, putting his hand upon
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright's arm. "We are regularly besieged.
|
|
There are fifty of them out there if there's one.
|
|
You stay in this room with Thomasin; I'll go out and
|
|
face them. You must stay now, for my sake, till they
|
|
are gone, so that it may seem as if all was right.
|
|
Come, Tamsie dear, don't go making a scene--we must marry
|
|
after this; that you can see as well as I. Sit still,
|
|
that's all--and don't speak much. I'll manage them.
|
|
Blundering fools!"
|
|
|
|
He pressed the agitated girl into a seat, returned to the
|
|
outer room and opened the door. Immediately outside,
|
|
in the passage, appeared Grandfer Cantle singing in
|
|
concert with those still standing in front of the house.
|
|
He came into the room and nodded abstractedly to Wildeve,
|
|
his lips still parted, and his features excruciatingly
|
|
strained in the emission of the chorus. This being ended,
|
|
he said heartily, "Here's welcome to the new-made couple,
|
|
and God bless 'em!"
|
|
|
|
"Thank you," said Wildeve, with dry resentment, his face
|
|
as gloomy as a thunderstorm.
|
|
|
|
At the Grandfer's heels now came the rest of the group,
|
|
which included Fairway, Christian, Sam the turf-cutter,
|
|
Humphrey, and a dozen others. All smiled upon Wildeve,
|
|
and upon his tables and chairs likewise, from a general
|
|
sense of friendliness towards the articles as well
|
|
as towards their owner.
|
|
|
|
"We be not here afore Mrs. Yeobright after all,"
|
|
said Fairway, recognizing the matron's bonnet through
|
|
the glass partition which divided the public apartment
|
|
they had entered from the room where the women sat.
|
|
"We struck down across, d'ye see, Mr. Wildeve, and she
|
|
went round by the path."
|
|
|
|
"And I see the young bride's little head!" said Grandfer,
|
|
peeping in the same direction, and discerning Thomasin,
|
|
who was waiting beside her aunt in a miserable and awkward way.
|
|
"Not quite settled in yet--well, well, there's plenty
|
|
of time."
|
|
|
|
Wildeve made no reply; and probably feeling that the sooner
|
|
he treated them the sooner they would go, he produced
|
|
a stone jar, which threw a warm halo over matters at once.
|
|
|
|
"That's a drop of the right sort, I can see,"
|
|
said Grandfer Cantle, with the air of a man too well-
|
|
mannered to show any hurry to taste it.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said Wildeve, "'tis some old mead. I hope you
|
|
will like it."
|
|
|
|
"O ay!" replied the guests, in the hearty tones natural
|
|
when the words demanded by politeness coincide with those
|
|
of deepest feeling. "There isn't a prettier drink under the sun."
|
|
|
|
"I'll take my oath there isn't," added Grandfer Cantle.
|
|
"All that can be said against mead is that 'tis
|
|
rather heady, and apt to lie about a man a good while.
|
|
But tomorrow's Sunday, thank God."
|
|
|
|
"I feel'd for all the world like some bold soldier after
|
|
I had had some once," said Christian.
|
|
|
|
"You shall feel so again," said Wildeve, with condescension,
|
|
"Cups or glasses, gentlemen?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, if you don't mind, we'll have the beaker, and pass
|
|
'en round; 'tis better than heling it out in dribbles."
|
|
|
|
"Jown the slippery glasses," said Grandfer Cantle.
|
|
"What's the good of a thing that you can't put down in
|
|
the ashes to warm, hey, neighbours; that's what I ask?"
|
|
|
|
"Right, Grandfer," said Sam; and the mead then circulated.
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Timothy Fairway, feeling demands upon his praise
|
|
in some form or other, "'tis a worthy thing to be married,
|
|
Mr. Wildeve; and the woman you've got is a dimant,
|
|
so says I. Yes," he continued, to Grandfer Cantle,
|
|
raising his voice so as to be heard through the partition,
|
|
"her father (inclining his head towards the inner room)
|
|
was as good a feller as ever lived. He always had his
|
|
great indignation ready against anything underhand."
|
|
|
|
"Is that very dangerous?" said Christian.
|
|
|
|
"And there were few in these parts that were upsides with him,"
|
|
said Sam. "Whenever a club walked he'd play the clarinet
|
|
in the band that marched before 'em as if he'd never
|
|
touched anything but a clarinet all his life. And then,
|
|
when they got to church door he'd throw down the clarinet,
|
|
mount the gallery, snatch up the bass viol, and rozum
|
|
away as if he'd never played anything but a bass viol.
|
|
Folk would say--folk that knowed what a true stave
|
|
was--'Surely, surely that's never the same man that I saw
|
|
handling the clarinet so masterly by now!"
|
|
|
|
"I can mind it," said the furze-cutter. "'Twas a wonderful
|
|
thing that one body could hold it all and never mix
|
|
the fingering."
|
|
|
|
"There was Kingsbere church likewise," Fairway recommenced,
|
|
as one opening a new vein of the same mine of interest.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve breathed the breath of one intolerably bored,
|
|
and glanced through the partition at the prisoners.
|
|
|
|
"He used to walk over there of a Sunday afternoon to visit
|
|
his old acquaintance Andrew Brown, the first clarinet there;
|
|
a good man enough, but rather screechy in his music,
|
|
if you can mind?"
|
|
|
|
"'A was."
|
|
|
|
"And neighbour Yeobright would take Andrey's place for some
|
|
part of the service, to let Andrey have a bit of a nap,
|
|
as any friend would naturally do."
|
|
|
|
"As any friend would," said Grandfer Cantle, the other
|
|
listeners expressing the same accord by the shorter way
|
|
of nodding their heads.
|
|
|
|
"No sooner was Andrey asleep and the first whiff
|
|
of neighbour Yeobright's wind had got inside Andrey's
|
|
clarinet than everyone in church feeled in a moment
|
|
there was a great soul among 'em. All heads would turn,
|
|
and they'd say, 'Ah, I thought 'twas he!' One Sunday I
|
|
can well mind--a bass viol day that time, and Yeobright
|
|
had brought his own. 'Twas the Hundred-and-thirty-third
|
|
to 'Lydia'; and when they'd come to 'Ran down his
|
|
beard and o'er his robes its costly moisture shed,'
|
|
neighbour Yeobright, who had just warmed to his work,
|
|
drove his bow into them strings that glorious grand
|
|
that he e'en a'most sawed the bass viol into two pieces.
|
|
Every winder in church rattled as if 'twere a thunderstorm.
|
|
Old Pa'son Williams lifted his hands in his great holy
|
|
surplice as natural as if he'd been in common clothes,
|
|
and seemed to say hisself, 'O for such a man in our parish!'
|
|
But not a soul in Kingsbere could hold a candle to Yeobright."
|
|
|
|
"Was it quite safe when the winder shook?" Christian inquired.
|
|
|
|
He received no answer, all for the moment sitting
|
|
rapt in admiration of the performance described.
|
|
As with Farinelli's singing before the princesses,
|
|
Sheridan's renowned Begum Speech, and other such examples,
|
|
the fortunate condition of its being for ever lost to
|
|
the world invested the deceased Mr. Yeobright's tour
|
|
de force on that memorable afternoon with a cumulative
|
|
glory which comparative criticism, had that been possible,
|
|
might considerably have shorn down.
|
|
|
|
"He was the last you'd have expected to drop off
|
|
in the prime of life," said Humphrey.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, well; he was looking for the earth some months
|
|
afore he went. At that time women used to run for
|
|
smocks and gown-pieces at Greenhill Fair, and my wife
|
|
that is now, being a long-legged slittering maid,
|
|
hardly husband-high, went with the rest of the maidens,
|
|
for 'a was a good, runner afore she got so heavy.
|
|
When she came home I said--we were then just beginning
|
|
to walk together--'What have ye got, my honey?'
|
|
'I've won--well, I've won--a gown-piece,' says she,
|
|
her colours coming up in a moment. 'Tis a smock for a crown,
|
|
I thought; and so it turned out. Ay, when I think what
|
|
she'll say to me now without a mossel of red in her face,
|
|
it do seem strange that 'a wouldn't say such a little thing
|
|
then....However, then she went on, and that's what made
|
|
me bring up the story. Well, whatever clothes I've won,
|
|
white or figured, for eyes to see or for eyes not to see'
|
|
('a could do a pretty stroke of modesty in those days),
|
|
'I'd sooner have lost it than have seen what I have.
|
|
Poor Mr. Yeobright was took bad directly he reached the
|
|
fair ground, and was forced to go home again.' That was
|
|
the last time he ever went out of the parish."
|
|
|
|
"'A faltered on from one day to another, and then we
|
|
heard he was gone."
|
|
|
|
"D'ye think he had great pain when 'a died?" said Christian.
|
|
|
|
"O no--quite different. Nor any pain of mind.
|
|
He was lucky enough to be God A'mighty's own man."
|
|
|
|
"And other folk--d'ye think 'twill be much pain to 'em,
|
|
Mister Fairway?"
|
|
|
|
"That depends on whether they be afeard."
|
|
|
|
"I bain't afeard at all, I thank God!" said Christian strenuously.
|
|
"I'm glad I bain't, for then 'twon't pain me....I
|
|
don't think I be afeard--or if I be I can't help it,
|
|
and I don't deserve to suffer. I wish I was not afeard at all!"
|
|
|
|
There was a solemn silence, and looking from the window,
|
|
which was unshuttered and unblinded, Timothy said,
|
|
"Well, what a fess little bonfire that one is, out by
|
|
Cap'n Vye's! 'Tis burning just the same now as ever,
|
|
upon my life."
|
|
|
|
All glances went through the window, and nobody noticed
|
|
that Wildeve disguised a brief, telltale look.
|
|
Far away up the sombre valley of heath, and to the
|
|
right of Rainbarrow, could indeed be seen the light,
|
|
small, but steady and persistent as before.
|
|
|
|
"It was lighted before ours was," Fairway continued;
|
|
"and yet every one in the country round is out afore
|
|
'n."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps there's meaning in it!" murmured Christian.
|
|
|
|
"How meaning?" said Wildeve sharply.
|
|
|
|
Christian was too scattered to reply, and Timothy helped him.
|
|
|
|
"He means, sir, that the lonesome dark-eyed creature
|
|
up there that some say is a witch--ever I should call
|
|
a fine young woman such a name--is always up to some odd
|
|
conceit or other; and so perhaps 'tis she."
|
|
|
|
"I'd be very glad to ask her in wedlock, if she'd hae me
|
|
and take the risk of her wild dark eyes ill-wishing me,"
|
|
said Grandfer Cantle staunchly.
|
|
|
|
"Don't ye say it, Father!" implored Christian.
|
|
|
|
"Well, be dazed if he who do marry the maid won't hae
|
|
an uncommon picture for his best parlour," said Fairway
|
|
in a liquid tone, placing down the cup of mead at the end
|
|
of a good pull.
|
|
|
|
"And a partner as deep as the North Star," said Sam,
|
|
taking up the cup and finishing the little that remained.
|
|
"Well, really, now I think we must be moving," said Humphrey,
|
|
observing the emptiness of the vessel.
|
|
|
|
"But we'll gie 'em another song?" said Grandfer Cantle.
|
|
"I'm as full of notes as a bird!"
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, Grandfer," said Wildeve. "But we will not
|
|
trouble you now. Some other day must do for that--when
|
|
I have a party."
|
|
|
|
"Be jown'd if I don't learn ten new songs for't, or I
|
|
won't learn a line!" said Grandfer Cantle. "And you may
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be sure I won't disappoint ye by biding away, Mr. Wildeve."
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"I quite believe you," said that gentleman.
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All then took their leave, wishing their entertainer long
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life and happiness as a married man, with recapitulations
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which occupied some time. Wildeve attended them to the door,
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beyond which the deep-dyed upward stretch of heath stood
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awaiting them, an amplitude of darkness reigning from their
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feet almost to the zenith, where a definite form first
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became visible in the lowering forehead of Rainbarrow.
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Diving into the dense obscurity in a line headed by Sam
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the turf-cutter, they pursued their trackless way home.
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When the scratching of the furze against their leggings
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had fainted upon the ear, Wildeve returned to the room
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where he had left Thomasin and her aunt. The women
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were gone.
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They could only have left the house in one way,
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by the back window; and this was open.
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Wildeve laughed to himself, remained a moment thinking,
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and idly returned to the front room. Here his glance fell
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upon a bottle of wine which stood on the mantelpiece.
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"Ah--old Dowden!" he murmured; and going to the kitchen
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door shouted, "Is anybody here who can take something to
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old Dowden?"
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There was no reply. The room was empty, the lad who acted
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as his factotum having gone to bed. Wildeve came back
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put on his hat, took the bottle, and left the house,
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turning the key in the door, for there was no guest at
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the inn tonight. As soon as he was on the road the little
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bonfire on Mistover Knap again met his eye.
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"Still waiting, are you, my lady?" he murmured.
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However, he did not proceed that way just then;
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but leaving the hill to the left of him, he stumbled
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over a rutted road that brought him to a cottage which,
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like all other habitations on the heath at this hour,
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was only saved from being visible by a faint shine from its
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bedroom window. This house was the home of Olly Dowden,
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the besom-maker, and he entered.
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The lower room was in darkness; but by feeling his way he
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found a table, whereon he placed the bottle, and a minute
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later emerged again upon the heath. He stood and looked
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northeast at the undying little fire--high up above him,
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though not so high as Rainbarrow.
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We have been told what happens when a woman deliberates;
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and the epigram is not always terminable with woman,
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provided that one be in the case, and that a fair one.
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Wildeve stood, and stood longer, and breathed perplexedly,
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and then said to himself with resignation, "Yes--by Heaven,
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I must go to her, I suppose!"
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Instead of turning in the direction of home he pressed
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on rapidly by a path under Rainbarrow towards what was
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evidently a signal light.
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6 - The Figure against the Sky
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When the whole Egdon concourse had left the site
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of the bonfire to its accustomed loneliness, a closely
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wrapped female figure approached the barrow from that
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quarter of the heath in which the little fire lay.
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Had the reddleman been watching he might have recognized
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her as the woman who had first stood there so singularly,
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and vanished at the approach of strangers. She ascended
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to her old position at the top, where the red coals
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of the perishing fire greeted her like living eyes
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in the corpse of day. There she stood still around her
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stretching the vast night atmosphere, whose incomplete
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darkness in comparison with the total darkness of the heath
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below it might have represented a venial beside a mortal sin.
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That she was tall and straight in build, that she was
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lady-like in her movements, was all that could be learnt
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of her just now, her form being wrapped in a shawl folded in
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the old cornerwise fashion, and her head in a large kerchief,
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a protection not superfluous at this hour and place.
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Her back was towards the wind, which blew from the northwest;
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but whether she had avoided that aspect because of the
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chilly gusts which played about her exceptional position,
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or because her interest lay in the southeast, did not
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at first appear.
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Her reason for standing so dead still as the pivot
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of this circle of heath-country was just as obscure.
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Her extraordinary fixity, her conspicuous loneliness,
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her heedlessness of night, betokened among other things
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an utter absence of fear. A tract of country unaltered
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from that sinister condition which made Caesar anxious every
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year to get clear of its glooms before the autumnal equinox,
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a kind of landscape and weather which leads travellers from
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the South to describe our island as Homer's Cimmerian land,
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was not, on the face of it, friendly to women.
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It might reasonably have been supposed that she was listening
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to the wind, which rose somewhat as the night advanced,
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and laid hold of the attention. The wind, indeed, seemed made
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for the scene, as the scene seemed made for the hour.
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Part of its tone was quite special; what was heard there
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could be heard nowhere else. Gusts in innumerable series
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followed each other from the northwest, and when each one
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of them raced past the sound of its progress resolved
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into three. Treble, tenor, and bass notes were to be
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found therein. The general ricochet of the whole over
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pits and prominences had the gravest pitch of the chime.
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Next there could be heard the baritone buzz of a holly tree.
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Below these in force, above them in pitch, a dwindled voice
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strove hard at a husky tune, which was the peculiar local
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sound alluded to. Thinner and less immediately traceable
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|
than the other two, it was far more impressive than either.
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In it lay what may be called the linguistic peculiarity
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of the heath; and being audible nowhere on earth off a heath,
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it afforded a shadow of reason for the woman's tenseness,
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which continued as unbroken as ever.
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Throughout the blowing of these plaintive November winds
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that note bore a great resemblance to the ruins of human
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song which remain to the throat of fourscore and ten.
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It was a worn whisper, dry and papery, and it brushed
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so distinctly across the ear that, by the accustomed,
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|
the material minutiae in which it originated could
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|
be realized as by touch. It was the united products
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|
of infinitesimal vegetable causes, and these were neither
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|
stems, leaves, fruit, blades, prickles, lichen, nor moss.
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They were the mummied heathbells of the past summer,
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|
originally tender and purple, now washed colourless by
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Michaelmas rains, and dried to dead skins by October suns.
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|
So low was an individual sound from these that a
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|
combination of hundreds only just emerged from silence,
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and the myriads of the whole declivity reached the woman's
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ear but as a shrivelled and intermittent recitative.
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Yet scarcely a single accent among the many afloat tonight
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|
could have such power to impress a listener with thoughts
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|
of its origin. One inwardly saw the infinity of those
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combined multitudes; and perceived that each of the tiny
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trumpets was seized on entered, scoured and emerged from
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by the wind as thoroughly as if it were as vast as a crater.
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"The spirit moved them." A meaning of the phrase forced itself
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|
upon the attention; and an emotional listener's fetichistic
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|
mood might have ended in one of more advanced quality.
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|
It was not, after all, that the left-hand expanse of old
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blooms spoke, or the right-hand, or those of the slope
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|
in front; but it was the single person of something
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|
else speaking through each at once.
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Suddenly, on the barrow, there mingled with all this wild
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|
rhetoric of night a sound which modulated so naturally
|
|
into the rest that its beginning and ending were hardly
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|
to be distinguished. The bluffs, and the bushes,
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|
and the heather-bells had broken silence; at last, so did
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the woman; and her articulation was but as another phrase
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|
of the same discourse as theirs. Thrown out on the winds
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it became twined in with them, and with them it flew away.
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What she uttered was a lengthened sighing, apparently at
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|
something in her mind which had led to her presence here.
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There was a spasmodic abandonment about it as if,
|
|
in allowing herself to utter the sound. the woman's
|
|
brain had authorized what it could not regulate.
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|
One point was evident in this; that she had been existing
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|
in a suppressed state, and not in one of languor,
|
|
or stagnation.
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|
Far away down the valley the faint shine from the window
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|
of the inn still lasted on; and a few additional
|
|
moments proved that the window, or what was within it,
|
|
had more to do with the woman's sigh than had either
|
|
her own actions or the scene immediately around.
|
|
She lifted her left hand, which held a closed telescope.
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|
This she rapidly extended, as if she were well accustomed
|
|
to the operation, and raising it to her eye directed it
|
|
towards the light beaming from the inn.
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The handkerchief which had hooded her head was now a
|
|
little thrown back, her face being somewhat elevated.
|
|
A profile was visible against the dull monochrome of
|
|
cloud around her; and it was as though side shadows from
|
|
the features of Sappho and Mrs. Siddons had converged
|
|
upwards from the tomb to form an image like neither but
|
|
suggesting both. This, however, was mere superficiality.
|
|
In respect of character a face may make certain admissions
|
|
by its outline; but it fully confesses only in its changes.
|
|
So much is this the case that what is called the play of the
|
|
features often helps more in understanding a man or woman
|
|
than the earnest labours of all the other members together.
|
|
Thus the night revealed little of her whose form it was embracing,
|
|
for the mobile parts of her countenance could not be seen.
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|
At last she gave up her spying attitude, closed the telescope,
|
|
and turned to the decaying embers. From these no appreciable
|
|
beams now radiated, except when a more than usually
|
|
smart gust brushed over their faces and raised a fitful
|
|
glow which came and went like the blush of a girl.
|
|
She stooped over the silent circle, and selecting from the
|
|
brands a piece of stick which bore the largest live coal
|
|
at its end, brought it to where she had been standing before.
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|
|
|
She held the brand to the ground, blowing the red coal
|
|
with her mouth at the same time; till it faintly illuminated
|
|
the sod, and revealed a small object, which turned out
|
|
to be an hourglass, though she wore a watch. She blew
|
|
long enough to show that the sand had all slipped through.
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|
|
|
"Ah!" she said, as if surprised.
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|
The light raised by her breath had been very fitful,
|
|
and a momentary irradiation of flesh was all that it had
|
|
disclosed of her face. That consisted of two matchless
|
|
lips and a cheek only, her head being still enveloped.
|
|
She threw away the stick, took the glass in her hand,
|
|
the telescope under her arm, and moved on.
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|
|
|
Along the ridge ran a faint foot-track, which the
|
|
lady followed. Those who knew it well called it a path;
|
|
and, while a mere visitor would have passed it unnoticed
|
|
even by day, the regular haunters of the heath were at no
|
|
loss for it at midnight. The whole secret of following
|
|
these incipient paths, when there was not light enough
|
|
in the atmosphere to show a turnpike road, lay in the
|
|
development of the sense of touch in the feet, which comes
|
|
with years of night-rambling in little-trodden spots.
|
|
To a walker practised in such places a difference between
|
|
impact on maiden herbage, and on the crippled stalks
|
|
of a slight footway, is perceptible through the thickest boot or shoe.
|
|
|
|
The solitary figure who walked this beat took no notice
|
|
of the windy tune still played on the dead heathbells.
|
|
She did not turn her head to look at a group of dark
|
|
creatures further on, who fled from her presence as she
|
|
skirted a ravine where they fed. They were about a score
|
|
of the small wild ponies known as heath-croppers. They
|
|
roamed at large on the undulations of Egdon, but in numbers
|
|
too few to detract much from the solitude.
|
|
|
|
The pedestrian noticed nothing just now, and a clue
|
|
to her abstraction was afforded by a trivial incident.
|
|
A bramble caught hold of her skirt, and checked her progress.
|
|
Instead of putting it off and hastening along, she yielded
|
|
herself up to the pull, and stood passively still.
|
|
When she began to extricate herself it was by turning
|
|
round and round, and so unwinding the prickly switch.
|
|
She was in a desponding reverie.
|
|
|
|
Her course was in the direction of the small undying fire
|
|
which had drawn the attention of the men on Rainbarrow
|
|
and of Wildeve in the valley below. A faint illumination
|
|
from its rays began to glow upon her face, and the fire
|
|
soon revealed itself to be lit, not on the level ground,
|
|
but on a salient corner or redan of earth, at the junction
|
|
of two converging bank fences. Outside was a ditch,
|
|
dry except immediately under the fire, where there was
|
|
a large pool, bearded all round by heather and rushes.
|
|
In the smooth water of the pool the fire appeared
|
|
upside down.
|
|
|
|
The banks meeting behind were bare of a hedge,
|
|
save such as was formed by disconnected tufts of furze,
|
|
standing upon stems along the top, like impaled heads
|
|
above a city wall. A white mast, fitted up with spars
|
|
and other nautical tackle, could be seen rising against
|
|
the dark clouds whenever the flames played brightly enough
|
|
to reach it. Altogether the scene had much the appearance
|
|
of a fortification upon which had been kindled a beacon fire.
|
|
|
|
Nobody was visible; but ever and anon a whitish something
|
|
moved above the bank from behind, and vanished again.
|
|
This was a small human hand, in the act of lifting pieces
|
|
of fuel into the fire, but for all that could be seen the hand,
|
|
like that which troubled Belshazzar, was there alone.
|
|
Occasionally an ember rolled off the bank, and dropped
|
|
with a hiss into the pool.
|
|
|
|
At one side of the pool rough steps built of clods enabled
|
|
everyone who wished to do so to mount the bank; which the
|
|
woman did. Within was a paddock in an uncultivated state,
|
|
though bearing evidence of having once been tilled;
|
|
but the heath and fern had insidiously crept in,
|
|
and were reasserting their old supremacy. Further ahead
|
|
were dimly visible an irregular dwelling-house, garden,
|
|
and outbuildings, backed by a clump of firs.
|
|
|
|
The young lady--for youth had revealed its presence in her
|
|
buoyant bound up the bank--walked along the top instead
|
|
of descending inside, and came to the corner where the fire
|
|
was burning. One reason for the permanence of the blaze
|
|
was now manifest: the fuel consisted of hard pieces
|
|
of wood, cleft and sawn--the knotty boles of old thorn
|
|
trees which grew in twos and threes about the hillsides.
|
|
A yet unconsumed pile of these lay in the inner angle
|
|
of the bank; and from this corner the upturned face of a
|
|
little boy greeted her eves. He was dilatorily throwing
|
|
up a piece of wood into the fire every now and then,
|
|
a business which seemed to have engaged him a considerable
|
|
part of the evening, for his face was somewhat weary.
|
|
|
|
"I am glad you have come, Miss Eustacia," he said,
|
|
with a sigh of relief. "I don't like biding by myself."
|
|
|
|
"Nonsense. I have only been a little way for a walk.
|
|
I have been gone only twenty minutes."
|
|
|
|
"It seemed long," murmured the sad boy. "And you have
|
|
been so many times."
|
|
|
|
"Why, I thought you would be pleased to have a bonfire.
|
|
Are you not much obliged to me for making you one?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; but there's nobody here to play wi' me."
|
|
|
|
"I suppose nobody has come while I've been away?"
|
|
|
|
"Nobody except your grandfather--he looked out of doors
|
|
once for 'ee. I told him you were walking round upon
|
|
the hill to look at the other bonfires."
|
|
|
|
"A good boy."
|
|
|
|
"I think I hear him coming again, miss."
|
|
|
|
An old man came into the remoter light of the fire from
|
|
the direction of the homestead. He was the same who had
|
|
overtaken the reddleman on the road that afternoon.
|
|
He looked wistfully to the top of the bank at the woman
|
|
who stood there, and his teeth, which were quite unimpaired,
|
|
showed like parian from his parted lips.
|
|
|
|
"When are you coming indoors, Eustacia?" he asked.
|
|
"'Tis almost bedtime. I've been home these two hours,
|
|
and am tired out. Surely 'tis somewhat childish of you to stay
|
|
out playing at bonfires so long, and wasting such fuel.
|
|
My precious thorn roots, the rarest of all firing,
|
|
that I laid by on purpose for Christmas--you have burnt 'em
|
|
nearly all!"
|
|
|
|
"I promised Johnny a bonfire, and it pleases him not
|
|
to let it go out just yet," said Eustacia, in a way
|
|
which told at once that she was absolute queen here.
|
|
"Grandfather, you go in to bed. I shall follow you soon.
|
|
You like the fire, don't you, Johnny?"
|
|
|
|
The boy looked up doubtfully at her and murmured,
|
|
"I don't think I want it any longer."
|
|
|
|
Her grandfather had turned back again, and did not hear
|
|
the boy's reply. As soon as the white-haired man
|
|
had vanished she said in a tone of pique to the child,
|
|
"Ungrateful little boy, how can you contradict me?
|
|
Never shall you have a bonfire again unless you keep it
|
|
up now. Come, tell me you like to do things for me,
|
|
and don't deny it."
|
|
|
|
The repressed child said, "Yes, I do, miss," and continued
|
|
to stir the fire perfunctorily.
|
|
|
|
"Stay a little longer and I will give you a crooked six-pence,"
|
|
said Eustacia, more gently. "Put in one piece of wood
|
|
every two or three minutes, but not too much at once.
|
|
I am going to walk along the ridge a little longer,
|
|
but I shall keep on coming to you. And if you hear a frog
|
|
jump into the pond with a flounce like a stone thrown in,
|
|
be sure you run and tell me, because it is a sign of rain."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Eustacia."
|
|
|
|
"Miss Vye, sir."
|
|
|
|
"Miss Vy--stacia."
|
|
|
|
"That will do. Now put in one stick more."
|
|
|
|
The little slave went on feeding the fire as before.
|
|
He seemed a mere automaton, galvanized into moving and
|
|
speaking by the wayward Eustacia's will. He might have been
|
|
the brass statue which Albertus Magnus is said to have
|
|
animated just so far as to make it chatter, and move,
|
|
and be his servant.
|
|
|
|
Before going on her walk again the young girl stood
|
|
still on the bank for a few instants and listened.
|
|
It was to the full as lonely a place as Rainbarrow, though at
|
|
rather a lower level; and it was more sheltered from wind
|
|
and weather on account of the few firs to the north.
|
|
The bank which enclosed the homestead, and protected it
|
|
from the lawless state of the world without, was formed
|
|
of thick square clods, dug from the ditch on the outside,
|
|
and built up with a slight batter or incline, which forms
|
|
no slight defense where hedges will not grow because of
|
|
the wind and the wilderness, and where wall materials
|
|
are unattainable. Otherwise the situation was quite open,
|
|
commanding the whole length of the valley which reached
|
|
to the river behind Wildeve's house. High above this
|
|
to the right, and much nearer thitherward than the Quiet
|
|
Woman Inn, the blurred contour of Rainbarrow obstructed
|
|
the sky.
|
|
|
|
After her attentive survey of the wild slopes and hollow
|
|
ravines a gesture of impatience escaped Eustacia.
|
|
She vented petulant words every now and then, but there
|
|
were sighs between her words, and sudden listenings
|
|
between her sighs. Descending from her perch she again
|
|
sauntered off towards Rainbarrow, though this time she
|
|
did not go the whole way.
|
|
|
|
Twice she reappeared at intervals of a few minutes
|
|
and each time she said--
|
|
|
|
"Not any flounce into the pond yet, little man?"
|
|
|
|
"No, Miss Eustacia," the child replied.
|
|
|
|
"Well," she said at last, "I shall soon be going in,
|
|
and then I will give you the crooked sixpence, and let you
|
|
go home."
|
|
|
|
"Thank'ee, Miss Eustacia," said the tired stoker,
|
|
breathing more easily. And Eustacia again strolled away
|
|
from the fire, but this time not towards Rainbarrow.
|
|
She skirted the bank and went round to the wicket before
|
|
the house, where she stood motionless, looking at the scene.
|
|
|
|
Fifty yards off rose the corner of the two converging banks,
|
|
with the fire upon it; within the bank, lifting up to the
|
|
fire one stick at a time, just as before, the figure of
|
|
the little child. She idly watched him as he occasionally
|
|
climbed up in the nook of the bank and stood beside
|
|
the brands. The wind blew the smoke, and the child's hair,
|
|
and the corner of his pinafore, all in the same direction;
|
|
the breeze died, and the pinafore and hair lay still,
|
|
and the smoke went up straight.
|
|
|
|
While Eustacia looked on from this distance the boy's
|
|
form visibly started--he slid down the bank and ran
|
|
across towards the white gate.
|
|
|
|
"Well?" said Eustacia.
|
|
|
|
"A hopfrog have jumped into the pond. Yes, I heard 'en!"
|
|
|
|
"Then it is going to rain, and you had better go home.
|
|
You will not be afraid?" She spoke hurriedly, as if her
|
|
heart had leapt into her throat at the boy's words.
|
|
|
|
"No, because I shall hae the crooked sixpence."
|
|
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"Yes. here it is. Now run as fast as you can--not that
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way--through the garden here. No other boy in the heath
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has had such a bonfire as yours."
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The boy, who clearly had had too much of a good thing,
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marched away into the shadows with alacrity. When he
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was gone Eustacia, leaving her telescope and hourglass
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by the gate, brushed forward from the wicket towards
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the angle of the bank, under the fire.
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Here, screened by the outwork, she waited. In a few
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moments a splash was audible from the pond outside.
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Had the child been there he would have said that a second
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frog had jumped in; but by most people the sound would
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have been likened to the fall of a stone into the water.
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Eustacia stepped upon the bank.
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"Yes?" she said, and held her breath.
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Thereupon the contour of a man became dimly visible against
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the low-reaching sky over the valley, beyond the outer
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margin of the pool. He came round it and leapt upon
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the bank beside her. A low laugh escaped her--the third
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utterance which the girl had indulged in tonight. The first,
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when she stood upon Rainbarrow, had expressed anxiety;
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the second, on the ridge, had expressed impatience;
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the present was one of triumphant pleasure. She let
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her joyous eyes rest upon him without speaking, as upon
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some wondrous thing she had created out of chaos.
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"I have come," said the man, who was Wildeve.
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"You give me no peace. Why do you not leave me alone?
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I have seen your bonfire all the evening." The words
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were not without emotion, and retained their level tone
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as if by a careful equipoise between imminent extremes.
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At this unexpectedly repressing manner in her lover
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the girl seemed to repress herself also. "Of course you
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have seen my fire," she answered with languid calmness,
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artificially maintained. "Why shouldn't I have a bonfire
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on the Fifth of November, like other denizens of the heath?"
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"I knew it was meant for me."
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"How did you know it? I have had no word with you
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since you--you chose her, and walked about with her,
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and deserted me entirely, as if I had never been yours
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life and soul so irretrievably!"
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"Eustacia! could I forget that last autumn at this same day
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of the month and at this same place you lighted exactly
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such a fire as a signal for me to come and see you? Why
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should there have been a bonfire again by Captain Vye's
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house if not for the same purpose?"
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"Yes, yes--I own it," she cried under her breath, with a drowsy
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fervour of manner and tone which was quite peculiar to her.
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"Don't begin speaking to me as you did, Damon; you will
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drive me to say words I would not wish to say to you.
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I had given you up, and resolved not to think of you any more;
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and then I heard the news, and I came out and got the fire
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ready because I thought that you had been faithful to me."
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"What have you heard to make you think that?"
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said Wildeve, astonished.
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"That you did not marry her!" she murmured exultingly.
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"And I knew it was because you loved me best, and couldn't
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do it....Damon, you have been cruel to me to go away,
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and I have said I would never forgive you. I do not think
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I can forgive you entirely, even now--it is too much for a
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woman of any spirit to quite overlook."
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"If I had known you wished to call me up here only
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to reproach me, I wouldn't have come."
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"But I don't mind it, and I do forgive you now that you
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have not married her, and have come back to me!"
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"Who told you that I had not married her?"
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"My grandfather. He took a long walk today, and as he
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was coming home he overtook some person who told him
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of a broken-off wedding--he thought it might be yours,
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and I knew it was."
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"Does anybody else know?"
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"I suppose not. Now Damon, do you see why I lit my signal
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fire? You did not think I would have lit it if I had
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imagined you to have become the husband of this woman.
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It is insulting my pride to suppose that."
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Wildeve was silent; it was evident that he had supposed
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as much.
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"Did you indeed think I believed you were married?"
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she again demanded earnestly. "Then you wronged me;
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and upon my life and heart I can hardly bear to recognize
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that you have such ill thoughts of me! Damon, you are not
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worthy of me--I see it, and yet I love you. Never mind,
|
|
let it go--I must bear your mean opinion as best I may....It
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|
is true, is it not," she added with ill-concealed anxiety,
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|
on his making no demonstration, "that you could not bring
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yourself to give me up, and are still going to love me best
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of all?"
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"Yes; or why should I have come?" he said touchily.
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"Not that fidelity will be any great merit in me after your
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kind speech about my unworthiness, which should have been
|
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said by myself if by anybody, and comes with an ill grace
|
|
from you. However, the curse of inflammability is upon me,
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|
and I must live under it, and take any snub from a woman.
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|
It has brought me down from engineering to innkeeping--what
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|
lower stage it has in store for me I have yet to learn."
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He continued to look upon her gloomily.
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She seized the moment, and throwing back the shawl so
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|
that the firelight shone full upon her face and throat,
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|
said with a smile, "Have you seen anything better than
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that in your travels?"
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Eustacia was not one to commit herself to such a position
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|
without good ground. He said quietly, "No."
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"Not even on the shoulders of Thomasin?"
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"Thomasin is a pleasing and innocent woman."
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"That's nothing to do with it," she cried with
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|
quick passionateness. "We will leave her out;
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|
there are only you and me now to think of." After a long
|
|
look at him she resumed with the old quiescent warmth,
|
|
"Must I go on weakly confessing to you things a woman
|
|
ought to conceal; and own that no words can express
|
|
how gloomy I have been because of that dreadful belief
|
|
I held till two hours ago--that you had quite deserted me?"
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|
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|
"I am sorry I caused you that pain."
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|
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"But perhaps it is not wholly because of you that I get gloomy,"
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|
she archly added. "It is in my nature to feel like that.
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|
It was born in my blood, I suppose."
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|
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|
"Hypochondriasis."
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|
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|
"Or else it was coming into this wild heath. I was happy
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|
enough at Budmouth. O the times, O the days at Budmouth!
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|
But Egdon will be brighter again now."
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|
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"I hope it will," said Wildeve moodily. "Do you know
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|
the consequence of this recall to me, my old darling? I
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|
shall come to see you again as before, at Rainbarrow."
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"Of course you will."
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"And yet I declare that until I got here tonight I intended,
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|
after this one good-bye, never to meet you again."
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|
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|
"I don't thank you for that," she said, turning away,
|
|
while indignation spread through her like subterranean heat.
|
|
"You may come again to Rainbarrow if you like, but you
|
|
won't see me; and you may call, but I shall not listen;
|
|
and you may tempt me, but I won't give myself to you
|
|
any more."
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|
|
|
"You have said as much before, sweet; but such natures
|
|
as yours don't so easily adhere to their words.
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|
Neither, for the matter of that, do such natures as mine."
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|
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|
"This is the pleasure I have won by my trouble,"
|
|
she whispered bitterly. "Why did I try to recall you? Damon,
|
|
a strange warring takes place in my mind occasionally.
|
|
I think when I become calm after you woundings, 'Do I embrace
|
|
a cloud of common fog after all?' You are a chameleon,
|
|
and now you are at your worst colour. Go home, or I shall
|
|
hate you!"
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|
|
|
He looked absently towards Rainbarrow while one might
|
|
have counted twenty, and said, as if he did not much mind
|
|
all this, "Yes, I will go home. Do you mean to see me again?"
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|
|
|
"If you own to me that the wedding is broken off because
|
|
you love me best."
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|
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|
"I don't think it would be good policy," said Wildeve, smiling.
|
|
"You would get to know the extent of your power too clearly."
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|
|
|
"But tell me!"
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|
|
|
"You know."
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|
|
|
"Where is she now?"
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|
|
|
"I don't know. I prefer not to speak of her to you.
|
|
I have not yet married her; I have come in obedience to
|
|
your call. That is enough."
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|
|
|
"I merely lit that fire because I was dull, and thought
|
|
I would get a little excitement by calling you up and
|
|
triumphing over you as the Witch of Endor called up Samuel.
|
|
I determined you should come; and you have come! I have
|
|
shown my power. A mile and half hither, and a mile and half
|
|
back again to your home--three miles in the dark for me.
|
|
Have I not shown my power?"
|
|
|
|
He shook his head at her. "I know you too well, my Eustacia;
|
|
I know you too well. There isn't a note in you which I
|
|
don't know; and that hot little bosom couldn't play such
|
|
a cold-blooded trick to save its life. I saw a woman
|
|
on Rainbarrow at dusk looking down towards my house.
|
|
I think I drew out you before you drew out me."
|
|
|
|
The revived embers of an old passion glowed clearly
|
|
in Wildeve now; and he leant forward as if about to put
|
|
his face towards her cheek.
|
|
|
|
"O no," she said, intractably moving to the other side
|
|
of the decayed fire. "What did you mean by that?"
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps I may kiss your hand?"
|
|
|
|
"No, you may not."
|
|
|
|
"Then I may shake your hand?"
|
|
|
|
"No."
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|
|
|
"Then I wish you good night without caring for either.
|
|
Good-bye, good-bye."
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|
|
|
She returned no answer, and with the bow of a dancing-
|
|
master he vanished on the other side of the pool as he
|
|
had come.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia sighed--it was no fragile maiden sigh, but a
|
|
sigh which shook her like a shiver. Whenever a flash
|
|
of reason darted like an electric light upon her lover-
|
|
-as it sometimes would--and showed his imperfections,
|
|
she shivered thus. But it was over in a second,
|
|
and she loved on. She knew that he trifled with her;
|
|
but she loved on. She scattered the half-burnt brands,
|
|
went indoors immediately, and up to her bedroom without
|
|
a light. Amid the rustles which denoted her to be undressing
|
|
in the darkness other heavy breaths frequently came;
|
|
and the same kind of shudder occasionally moved through
|
|
her when, ten minutes later, she lay on her bed asleep.
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|
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|
7 - Queen of Night
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|
|
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|
Eustacia Vye was the raw material of a divinity. On Olympus
|
|
she would have done well with a little preparation.
|
|
She had the passions and instincts which make a model goddess,
|
|
that is, those which make not quite a model woman.
|
|
Had it been possible for the earth and mankind to be entirely
|
|
in her grasp for a while, she had handled the distaff,
|
|
the spindle, and the shears at her own free will, few in
|
|
the world would have noticed the change of government.
|
|
There would have been the same inequality of lot, the same
|
|
heaping up of favours here, of contumely there, the same
|
|
generosity before justice, the same perpetual dilemmas,
|
|
the same captious alteration of caresses and blows that we
|
|
endure now.
|
|
|
|
She was in person full-limbed and somewhat heavy;
|
|
without ruddiness, as without pallor; and soft to the
|
|
touch as a cloud. To see her hair was to fancy that a
|
|
whole winter did not contain darkness enough to form
|
|
its shadow--it closed over her forehead like nightfall
|
|
extinguishing the western glow.
|
|
|
|
Her nerves extended into those tresses, and her temper
|
|
could always be softened by stroking them down. When her
|
|
hair was brushed she would instantly sink into stillness
|
|
and look like the Sphinx. If, in passing under one of
|
|
the Egdon banks, any of its thick skeins were caught,
|
|
as they sometimes were, by a prickly tuft of the large
|
|
Ulex Europoeus--which will act as a sort of hairbrush--she
|
|
would go back a few steps, and pass against it a second time.
|
|
|
|
She had pagan eyes, full of nocturnal mysteries,
|
|
and their light, as it came and went, and came again,
|
|
was partially hampered by their oppressive lids and lashes;
|
|
and of these the under lid was much fuller than it usually
|
|
is with English women. This enabled her to indulge
|
|
in reverie without seeming to do so--she might have been
|
|
believed capable of sleeping without closing them up.
|
|
Assuming that the souls of men and women were visible essences,
|
|
you could fancy the colour of Eustacia's soul to be flamelike.
|
|
The sparks from it that rose into her dark pupils gave
|
|
the same impression.
|
|
|
|
The mouth seemed formed less to speak than to quiver,
|
|
less to quiver than to kiss. Some might have added,
|
|
less to kiss than to curl. Viewed sideways, the closing-line
|
|
of her lips formed, with almost geometric precision,
|
|
the curve so well known in the arts of design as the
|
|
cima-recta, or ogee. The sight of such a flexible
|
|
bend as that on grim Egdon was quite an apparition.
|
|
It was felt at once that the mouth did not come over
|
|
from Sleswig with a band of Saxon pirates whose lips
|
|
met like the two halves of a muffin. One had fancied
|
|
that such lip-curves were mostly lurking underground
|
|
in the South as fragments of forgotten marbles. So fine
|
|
were the lines of her lips that, though full, each corner
|
|
of her mouth was as clearly cut as the point of a spear.
|
|
This keenness of corner was only blunted when she was
|
|
given over to sudden fits of gloom, one of the phases
|
|
of the night-side of sentiment which she knew too well
|
|
for her years.
|
|
|
|
Her presence brought memories of such things as Bourbon
|
|
roses, rubies, and tropical midnight; her moods recalled
|
|
lotus-eaters and the march in Athalie; her motions,
|
|
the ebb and flow of the sea; her voice, the viola.
|
|
In a dim light, and with a slight rearrangement of her hair,
|
|
her general figure might have stood for that of either
|
|
of the higher female deities. The new moon behind her head,
|
|
an old helmet upon it, a diadem of accidental dewdrops
|
|
round her brow, would have been adjuncts sufficient to
|
|
strike the note of Artemis, Athena, or Hera respectively,
|
|
with as close an approximation to the antique as that
|
|
which passes muster on many respected canvases.
|
|
|
|
But celestial imperiousness, love, wrath, and fervour had
|
|
proved to be somewhat thrown away on netherward Egdon.
|
|
Her power was limited, and the consciousness of this
|
|
limitation had biassed her development. Egdon was
|
|
her Hades, and since coming there she had imbibed
|
|
much of what was dark in its tone, though inwardly
|
|
and eternally unreconciled thereto. Her appearance
|
|
accorded well with this smouldering rebelliousness,
|
|
and the shady splendour of her beauty was the real
|
|
surface of the sad and stifled warmth within her. A true
|
|
Tartarean dignity sat upon her brow, and not factitiously
|
|
or with marks of constraint, for it had grown in her with years.
|
|
|
|
Across the upper part of her head she wore a thin
|
|
fillet of black velvet, restraining the luxuriance
|
|
of her shady hair, in a way which added much to this
|
|
class of majesty by irregularly clouding her forehead.
|
|
"Nothing can embellish a beautiful face more than
|
|
a narrow band drawn over the brow," says Richter.
|
|
Some of the neighbouring girls wore coloured ribbon for the
|
|
same purpose, and sported metallic ornaments elsewhere;
|
|
but if anyone suggested coloured ribbon and metallic
|
|
ornaments to Eustacia Vye she laughed and went on.
|
|
|
|
Why did a woman of this sort live on Egdon Heath? Budmouth
|
|
was her native place, a fashionable seaside resort
|
|
at that date. She was the daughter of the bandmaster
|
|
of a regiment which had been quartered there--a Corfiote
|
|
by birth, and a fine musician--who met his future wife
|
|
during her trip thither with her father the captain,
|
|
a man of good family. The marriage was scarcely in accord
|
|
with the old man's wishes, for the bandmaster's pockets
|
|
were as light as his occupation. But the musician did
|
|
his best; adopted his wife's name, made England permanently
|
|
his home, took great trouble with his child's education,
|
|
the expenses of which were defrayed by the grandfather,
|
|
and throve as the chief local musician till her mother's
|
|
death, when he left off thriving, drank, and died also.
|
|
The girl was left to the care of her grandfather, who,
|
|
since three of his ribs became broken in a shipwreck,
|
|
had lived in this airy perch on Egdon, a spot which had
|
|
taken his fancy because the house was to be had for
|
|
next to nothing, and because a remote blue tinge on the
|
|
horizon between the hills, visible from the cottage door,
|
|
was traditionally believed to be the English Channel.
|
|
She hated the change; she felt like one banished;
|
|
but here she was forced to abide.
|
|
|
|
Thus it happened that in Eustacia's brain were juxtaposed
|
|
the strangest assortment of ideas, from old time and from new.
|
|
There was no middle distance in her perspective--romantic
|
|
recollections of sunny afternoons on an esplanade,
|
|
with military bands, officers, and gallants around, stood like
|
|
gilded letters upon the dark tablet of surrounding Egdon.
|
|
Every bizarre effect that could result from the random
|
|
intertwining of watering-place glitter with the grand
|
|
solemnity of a heath, was to be found in her. Seeing nothing
|
|
of human life now, she imagined all the more of what she had seen.
|
|
|
|
Where did her dignity come from? By a latent vein
|
|
from Alcinous' line, her father hailing from Phaeacia's
|
|
isle?--or from Fitzalan and De Vere, her maternal grandfather
|
|
having had a cousin in the peerage? Perhaps it was the
|
|
gift of Heaven--a happy convergence of natural laws.
|
|
Among other things opportunity had of late years been denied
|
|
her of learning to be undignified, for she lived lonely.
|
|
Isolation on a heath renders vulgarity well-nigh impossible.
|
|
It would have been as easy for the heath-ponies, bats,
|
|
and snakes to be vulgar as for her. A narrow life
|
|
in Budmouth might have completely demeaned her.
|
|
|
|
The only way to look queenly without realms or hearts
|
|
to queen it over is to look as if you had lost them;
|
|
and Eustacia did that to a triumph. In the captain's
|
|
cottage she could suggest mansions she had never seen.
|
|
Perhaps that was because she frequented a vaster mansion
|
|
than any of them, the open hills. Like the summer condition
|
|
of the place around her, she was an embodiment of the
|
|
phrase "a populous solitude"--apparently so listless,
|
|
void, and quiet, she was really busy and full.
|
|
|
|
To be loved to madness--such was her great desire.
|
|
Love was to her the one cordial which could drive away
|
|
the eating loneliness of her days. And she seemed to long
|
|
for the abstraction called passionate love more than for
|
|
any particular lover.
|
|
|
|
She could show a most reproachful look at times, but it
|
|
was directed less against human beings than against certain
|
|
creatures of her mind, the chief of these being Destiny,
|
|
through whose interference she dimly fancied it arose
|
|
that love alighted only on gliding youth--that any love
|
|
she might win would sink simultaneously with the sand
|
|
in the glass. She thought of it with an ever-growing
|
|
consciousness of cruelty, which tended to breed actions
|
|
of reckless unconventionality, framed to snatch a year's,
|
|
a week's, even an hour's passion from anywhere while it
|
|
could be won. Through want of it she had sung without
|
|
being merry, possessed without enjoying, outshone
|
|
without triumphing. Her loneliness deepened her desire.
|
|
On Egdon, coldest and meanest kisses were at famine prices,
|
|
and where was a mouth matching hers to be found?
|
|
|
|
Fidelity in love for fidelity's sake had less attraction
|
|
for her than for most women; fidelity because of love's grip
|
|
had much. A blaze of love, and extinction, was better than
|
|
a lantern glimmer of the same which should last long years.
|
|
On this head she knew by prevision what most women learn
|
|
only by experience--she had mentally walked round love,
|
|
told the towers thereof, considered its palaces, and concluded
|
|
that love was but a doleful joy. Yet she desired it,
|
|
as one in a desert would be thankful for brackish water.
|
|
|
|
She often repeated her prayers; not at particular times, but,
|
|
like the unaffectedly devout, when she desired to pray.
|
|
Her prayer was always spontaneous, and often ran thus,
|
|
"O deliver my heart from this fearful gloom and loneliness;
|
|
send me great love from somewhere, else I shall die."
|
|
|
|
Her high gods were William the Conqueror, Strafford,
|
|
and Napoleon Buonaparte, as they had appeared in the Lady's
|
|
History used at the establishment in which she was educated.
|
|
Had she been a mother she would have christened her boys
|
|
such names as Saul or Sisera in preference to Jacob or David,
|
|
neither of whom she admired. At school she had used to side
|
|
with the Philistines in several battles, and had wondered
|
|
if Pontius Pilate were as handsome as he was frank and fair.
|
|
|
|
Thus she was a girl of some forwardness of mind, indeed,
|
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weighed in relation to her situation among the very
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rearward of thinkers, very original. Her instincts
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towards social non-comformity were at the root of this.
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In the matter of holidays, her mood was that of horses who,
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when turned out to grass, enjoy looking upon their kind
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at work on the highway. She only valued rest to herself
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when it came in the midst of other people's labour.
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Hence she hated Sundays when all was at rest, and often
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said they would be the death of her. To see the heathmen
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in their Sunday condition, that is, with their hands
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in their pockets, their boots newly oiled, and not laced
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up (a particularly Sunday sign), walking leisurely among
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the turves and furze-faggots they had cut during the week,
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and kicking them critically as if their use were unknown,
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was a fearful heaviness to her. To relieve the tedium
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of this untimely day she would overhaul the cupboards
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containing her grandfather's old charts and other rubbish,
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humming Saturday-night ballads of the country people the while.
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But on Saturday nights she would frequently sing a psalm,
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and it was always on a weekday that she read the Bible,
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that she might be unoppressed with a sense of doing
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her duty.
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Such views of life were to some extent the natural
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begettings of her situation upon her nature. To dwell
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on a heath without studying its meanings was like wedding
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a foreigner without learning his tongue. The subtle
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beauties of the heath were lost to Eustacia; she only
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caught its vapours. An environment which would have made
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a contented woman a poet, a suffering woman a devotee,
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a pious woman a psalmist, even a giddy woman thoughtful,
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made a rebellious woman saturnine.
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Eustacia had got beyond the vision of some marriage
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of inexpressible glory; yet, though her emotions were
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in full vigour, she cared for no meaner union. Thus we
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see her in a strange state of isolation. To have lost
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the godlike conceit that we may do what we will, and not
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to have acquired a homely zest for doing what we can,
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shows a grandeur of temper which cannot be objected to in
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the abstract, for it denotes a mind that, though disappointed,
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forswears compromise. But, if congenial to philosophy,
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it is apt to be dangerous to the commonwealth. In a world
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where doing means marrying, and the commonwealth is one
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of hearts and hands, the same peril attends the condition.
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And so we see our Eustacia--for at times she was not
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altogether unlovable--arriving at that stage of enlightenment
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which feels that nothing is worth while, and filling up
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the spare hours of her existence by idealizing Wildeve
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for want of a better object. This was the sole reason
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of his ascendency: she knew it herself. At moments her
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pride rebelled against her passion for him, and she even
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|
had longed to be free. But there was only one circumstance
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which could dislodge him, and that was the advent of a greater man.
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For the rest, she suffered much from depression of spirits,
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and took slow walks to recover them, in which she carried
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her grandfather's telescope and her grandmother's
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hourglass--the latter because of a peculiar pleasure she
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|
derived from watching a material representation of time's
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gradual glide away. She seldom schemed, but when she
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|
did scheme, her plans showed rather the comprehensive
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|
strategy of a general than the small arts called womanish,
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though she could utter oracles of Delphian ambiguity
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when she did not choose to be direct. In heaven she
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will probably sit between the Heloises and the Cleopatras.
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8 - Those Who Are Found Where There Is Said to Be Nobody
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As soon as the sad little boy had withdrawn from the fire
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he clasped the money tight in the palm of his hand,
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as if thereby to fortify his courage, and began to run.
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There was really little danger in allowing a child to go
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home alone on this part of Egdon Heath. The distance to
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|
the boy's house was not more than three-eighths of a mile,
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his father's cottage, and one other a few yards further on,
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|
forming part of the small hamlet of Mistover Knap: the
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third and only remaining house was that of Captain Vye
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and Eustacia, which stood quite away from the small cottages.
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and was the loneliest of lonely houses on these thinly
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|
populated slopes.
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He ran until he was out of breath, and then, becoming
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|
more courageous, walked leisurely along, singing in an old
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voice a little song about a sailor-boy and a fair one,
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|
and bright gold in store. In the middle of this the child
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|
stopped--from a pit under the hill ahead of him shone a light,
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|
whence proceeded a cloud of floating dust and a smacking noise.
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Only unusual sights and sounds frightened the boy.
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|
The shrivelled voice of the heath did not alarm him,
|
|
for that was familiar. The thornbushes which arose
|
|
in his path from time to time were less satisfactory,
|
|
for they whistled gloomily, and had a ghastly habit
|
|
after dark of putting on the shapes of jumping madmen,
|
|
sprawling giants, and hideous cripples. Lights were not
|
|
uncommon this evening, but the nature of all of them
|
|
was different from this. Discretion rather than terror
|
|
prompted the boy to turn back instead of passing the light,
|
|
with a view of asking Miss Eustacia Vye to let her servant
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|
accompany him home.
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When the boy had reascended to the top of the valley
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|
he found the fire to be still burning on the bank,
|
|
though lower than before. Beside it, instead of Eustacia's
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|
solitary form, he saw two persons, the second being a man.
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|
The boy crept along under the bank to ascertain from
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|
the nature of the proceedings if it would be prudent
|
|
to interrupt so splendid a creature as Miss Eustacia
|
|
on his poor trivial account.
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|
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After listening under the bank for some minutes to the talk
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|
he turned in a perplexed and doubting manner and began
|
|
to withdraw as silently as he had come. That he did not,
|
|
upon the whole, think it advisable to interrupt her
|
|
conversation with Wildeve, without being prepared to bear
|
|
the whole weight of her displeasure, was obvious.
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|
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Here was a Scyllaeo-Charybdean position for a poor boy.
|
|
Pausing when again safe from discovery, he finally
|
|
decided to face the pit phenomenon as the lesser evil.
|
|
With a heavy sigh he retraced the slope, and followed
|
|
the path he had followed before.
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|
|
|
The light had gone, the rising dust had disappeared--he hoped
|
|
for ever. He marched resolutely along, and found nothing
|
|
to alarm him till, coming within a few yards of the sandpit,
|
|
he heard a slight noise in front, which led him to halt.
|
|
The halt was but momentary, for the noise resolved itself
|
|
into the steady bites of two animals grazing.
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|
|
|
"Two he'th-croppers down here," he said aloud.
|
|
"I have never known 'em come down so far afore."
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|
|
|
The animals were in the direct line of his path,
|
|
but that the child thought little of; he had played
|
|
round the fetlocks of horses from his infancy.
|
|
On coming nearer, however, the boy was somewhat surprised
|
|
to find that the little creatures did not run off,
|
|
and that each wore a clog, to prevent his going astray;
|
|
this signified that they had been broken in. He could
|
|
now see the interior of the pit, which, being in the side
|
|
of the hill, had a level entrance. In the innermost
|
|
corner the square outline of a van appeared, with its
|
|
back towards him. A light came from the interior,
|
|
and threw a moving shadow upon the vertical face of gravel
|
|
at the further side of the pit into which the vehicle faced.
|
|
|
|
The child assumed that this was the cart of a gipsy,
|
|
and his dread of those wanderers reached but to that
|
|
mild pitch which titillates rather than pains.
|
|
Only a few inches of mud wall kept him and his family
|
|
from being gipsies themselves. He skirted the gravel
|
|
pit at a respectful distance, ascended the slope,
|
|
and came forward upon the brow, in order to look into
|
|
the open door of the van and see the original of the shadow.
|
|
|
|
The picture alarmed the boy. By a little stove inside
|
|
the van sat a figure red from head to heels--the man who
|
|
had been Thomasin's friend. He was darning a stocking,
|
|
which was red like the rest of him. Moreover, as he
|
|
darned he smoked a pipe, the stem and bowl of which were
|
|
red also.
|
|
|
|
At this moment one of the heath-croppers feeding in the
|
|
outer shadows was audibly shaking off the clog attached
|
|
to its foot. Aroused by the sound, the reddleman laid
|
|
down his stocking, lit a lantern which hung beside him,
|
|
and came out from the van. In sticking up the candle
|
|
he lifted the lantern to his face, and the light shone
|
|
into the whites of his eyes and upon his ivory teeth,
|
|
which, in contrast with the red surrounding, lent him
|
|
a startling aspect enough to the gaze of a juvenile.
|
|
The boy knew too well for his peace of mind upon whose lair
|
|
he had lighted. Uglier persons than gipsies were known
|
|
to cross Egdon at times, and a reddleman was one of them.
|
|
|
|
"How I wish 'twas only a gipsy!" he murmured.
|
|
|
|
The man was by this time coming back from the horses.
|
|
In his fear of being seen the boy rendered detection certain
|
|
by nervous motion. The heather and peat stratum overhung
|
|
the brow of the pit in mats, hiding the actual verge.
|
|
The boy had stepped beyond the solid ground; the heather
|
|
now gave way, and down he rolled over the scarp of grey sand
|
|
to the very foot of the man.
|
|
|
|
The red man opened the lantern and turned it upon
|
|
the figure of the prostrate boy.
|
|
|
|
"Who be ye?" he said.
|
|
|
|
"Johnny Nunsuch, master!"
|
|
|
|
"What were you doing up there?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know."
|
|
|
|
"Watching me, I suppose?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, master."
|
|
|
|
"What did you watch me for?"
|
|
|
|
"Because I was coming home from Miss Vye's bonfire."
|
|
|
|
"Beest hurt?"
|
|
|
|
"No."
|
|
|
|
"Why, yes, you be--your hand is bleeding. Come under
|
|
my tilt and let me tie it up."
|
|
|
|
"Please let me look for my sixpence."
|
|
|
|
"How did you come by that?"
|
|
|
|
"Miss Vye gied it to me for keeping up her bonfire."
|
|
|
|
The sixpence was found, and the man went to the van,
|
|
the boy behind, almost holding his breath.
|
|
|
|
The man took a piece of rag from a satchel containing
|
|
sewing materials, tore off a strip, which, like everything
|
|
else, was tinged red, and proceeded to bind up the wound.
|
|
|
|
"My eyes have got foggy-like--please may I sit down,
|
|
master?" said the boy.
|
|
|
|
"To be sure, poor chap. 'Tis enough to make you feel fainty.
|
|
Sit on that bundle."
|
|
|
|
The man finished tying up the gash, and the boy said,
|
|
"I think I'll go home now, master."
|
|
|
|
"You are rather afraid of me. Do you know what I be?"
|
|
|
|
The child surveyed his vermilion figure up and down
|
|
with much misgiving and finally said, "Yes."
|
|
|
|
"Well, what?"
|
|
|
|
"The reddleman!" he faltered.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, that's what I be. Though there's more than one.
|
|
You little children think there's only one cuckoo, one fox,
|
|
one giant, one devil, and one reddleman, when there's lots
|
|
of us all."
|
|
|
|
"Is there? You won't carry me off in your bags, will ye,
|
|
master? 'Tis said that the reddleman will sometimes."
|
|
|
|
"Nonsense. All that reddlemen do is sell reddle.
|
|
You see all these bags at the back of my cart? They are
|
|
not full of little boys--only full of red stuff."
|
|
|
|
"Was you born a reddleman?"
|
|
|
|
"No, I took to it. I should be as white as you if I
|
|
were to give up the trade--that is, I should be white
|
|
in time--perhaps six months; not at first, because 'tis
|
|
grow'd into my skin and won't wash out. Now, you'll never
|
|
be afraid of a reddleman again, will ye?"
|
|
|
|
"No, never. Willy Orchard said he seed a red ghost
|
|
here t'other day--perhaps that was you?"
|
|
|
|
"I was here t'other day."
|
|
|
|
"Were you making that dusty light I saw by now?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh yes, I was beating out some bags. And have you had a good
|
|
bonfire up there? I saw the light. Why did Miss Vye want
|
|
a bonfire so bad that she should give you sixpence to keep it up?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know. I was tired, but she made me bide
|
|
and keep up the fire just the same, while she kept
|
|
going up across Rainbarrow way."
|
|
|
|
"And how long did that last?"
|
|
|
|
"Until a hopfrog jumped into the pond."
|
|
|
|
The reddleman suddenly ceased to talk idly. "A hopfrog?"
|
|
he inquired. "Hopfrogs don't jump into ponds this time
|
|
of year."
|
|
|
|
"They do, for I heard one."
|
|
|
|
"Certain-sure?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. She told me afore that I should hear'n; and so I did.
|
|
They say she's clever and deep, and perhaps she charmed
|
|
'en to come."
|
|
|
|
"And what then?"
|
|
|
|
"Then I came down here, and I was afeard, and I went back;
|
|
but I didn't like to speak to her, because of the gentleman,
|
|
and I came on here again."
|
|
|
|
"A gentleman--ah! What did she say to him, my man?"
|
|
|
|
"Told him she supposed he had not married the other woman
|
|
because he liked his old sweetheart best; and things
|
|
like that."
|
|
|
|
"What did the gentleman say to her, my sonny?"
|
|
|
|
"He only said he did like her best, and how he was coming
|
|
to see her again under Rainbarrow o' nights."
|
|
|
|
"Ha!" cried the reddleman, slapping his hand against the side
|
|
of his van so that the whole fabric shook under the blow.
|
|
"That's the secret o't!"
|
|
|
|
The little boy jumped clean from the stool.
|
|
|
|
"My man, don't you be afraid," said the dealer in red,
|
|
suddenly becoming gentle. "I forgot you were here.
|
|
That's only a curious way reddlemen have of going mad
|
|
for a moment; but they don't hurt anybody. And what did
|
|
the lady say then?"
|
|
|
|
"I can't mind. Please, Master Reddleman, may I go
|
|
home-along now?"
|
|
|
|
"Ay, to be sure you may. I'll go a bit of ways with you."
|
|
|
|
He conducted the boy out of the gravel pit and into the path
|
|
leading to his mother's cottage. When the little figure
|
|
had vanished in the darkness the reddleman returned,
|
|
resumed his seat by the fire, and proceeded to darn again.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
9 - Love Leads a Shrewd Man into Strategy
|
|
|
|
|
|
Reddlemen of the old school are now but seldom seen.
|
|
Since the introduction of railways Wessex farmers have
|
|
managed to do without these Mephistophelian visitants,
|
|
and the bright pigment so largely used by shepherds in
|
|
preparing sheep for the fair is obtained by other routes.
|
|
Even those who yet survive are losing the poetry of existence
|
|
which characterized them when the pursuit of the trade
|
|
meant periodical journeys to the pit whence the material
|
|
was dug, a regular camping out from month to month,
|
|
except in the depth of winter, a peregrination among farms
|
|
which could be counted by the hundred, and in spite of this
|
|
Arab existence the preservation of that respectability
|
|
which is insured by the never-failing production of a
|
|
well-lined purse.
|
|
|
|
Reddle spreads its lively hues over everything it lights on,
|
|
and stamps unmistakably, as with the mark of Cain,
|
|
any person who has handled it half an hour.
|
|
|
|
A child's first sight of a reddleman was an epoch in
|
|
his life. That blood-coloured figure was a sublimation
|
|
of all the horrid dreams which had afflicted the juvenile
|
|
spirit since imagination began. "The reddleman is coming
|
|
for you!" had been the formulated threat of Wessex mothers
|
|
for many generations. He was successfully supplanted
|
|
for a while, at the beginning of the present century,
|
|
by Buonaparte; but as process of time rendered the latter
|
|
personage stale and ineffective the older phrase resumed
|
|
its early prominence. And now the reddleman has in his
|
|
turn followed Buonaparte to the land of worn-out bogeys,
|
|
and his place is filled by modern inventions.
|
|
|
|
The reddleman lived like a gipsy; but gipsies he scorned.
|
|
He was about as thriving as travelling basket and mat makers;
|
|
but he had nothing to do with them. He was more decently
|
|
born and brought up than the cattledrovers who passed
|
|
and repassed him in his wanderings; but they merely nodded
|
|
to him. His stock was more valuable than that of pedlars;
|
|
but they did not think so, and passed his cart with eyes
|
|
straight ahead. He was such an unnatural colour to look
|
|
at that the men of roundabouts and waxwork shows seemed
|
|
gentlemen beside him; but he considered them low company,
|
|
and remained aloof. Among all these squatters and folks
|
|
of the road the reddleman continually found himself; yet he
|
|
was not of them. His occupation tended to isolate him,
|
|
and isolated he was mostly seen to be.
|
|
|
|
It was sometimes suggested that reddlemen were criminals
|
|
for whose misdeeds other men wrongfully suffered--that in
|
|
escaping the law they had not escaped their own consciences,
|
|
and had taken to the trade as a lifelong penance.
|
|
Else why should they have chosen it? In the present case
|
|
such a question would have been particularly apposite.
|
|
The reddleman who had entered Egdon that afternoon was
|
|
an instance of the pleasing being wasted to form the
|
|
ground-work of the singular, when an ugly foundation would
|
|
have done just as well for that purpose. The one point
|
|
that was forbidding about this reddleman was his colour.
|
|
Freed from that he would have been as agreeable a specimen
|
|
of rustic manhood as one would often see. A keen observer
|
|
might have been inclined to think--which was, indeed,
|
|
partly the truth--that he had relinquished his proper station
|
|
in life for want of interest in it. Moreover, after looking
|
|
at him one would have hazarded the guess that good nature,
|
|
and an acuteness as extreme as it could be without
|
|
verging on craft, formed the framework of his character.
|
|
|
|
While he darned the stocking his face became rigid
|
|
with thought. Softer expressions followed this, and then
|
|
again recurred the tender sadness which had sat upon
|
|
him during his drive along the highway that afternoon.
|
|
Presently his needle stopped. He laid down the stocking,
|
|
arose from his seat, and took a leathern pouch from a hook
|
|
in the corner of the van. This contained among other
|
|
articles a brown-paper packet, which, to judge from the
|
|
hinge-like character of its worn folds, seemed to have
|
|
been carefully opened and closed a good many times.
|
|
He sat down on a three-legged milking stool that formed
|
|
the only seat in the van, and, examining his packet
|
|
by the light of a candle, took thence an old letter
|
|
and spread it open. The writing had originally been
|
|
traced on white paper, but the letter had now assumed
|
|
a pale red tinge from the accident of its situation;
|
|
and the black strokes of writing thereon looked like the
|
|
twigs of a winter hedge against a vermilion sunset.
|
|
The letter bore a date some two years previous to that time,
|
|
and was signed "Thomasin Yeobright." It ran as follows:--
|
|
|
|
|
|
DEAR DIGGORY VENN,--The question you put when you
|
|
overtook me coming home from Pond-close gave me such
|
|
a surprise that I am afraid I did not make you exactly
|
|
understand what I meant. Of course, if my aunt had
|
|
not met me I could have explained all then at once,
|
|
but as it was there was no chance. I have been quite
|
|
uneasy since, as you know I do not wish to pain you,
|
|
yet I fear I shall be doing so now in contradicting
|
|
what I seemed to say then. I cannot, Diggory, marry you,
|
|
or think of letting you call me your sweetheart.
|
|
I could not, indeed, Diggory. I hope you will not
|
|
much mind my saying this, and feel in a great pain.
|
|
It makes me very sad when I think it may, for I like you
|
|
very much, and I always put you next to my cousin Clym
|
|
in my mind. There are so many reasons why we cannot
|
|
be married that I can hardly name them all in a letter.
|
|
I did not in the least expect that you were going to
|
|
speak on such a thing when you followed me, because I
|
|
had never thought of you in the sense of a lover at all.
|
|
You must not becall me for laughing when you spoke;
|
|
you mistook when you thought I laughed at you as a
|
|
foolish man. I laughed because the idea was so odd,
|
|
and not at you at all. The great reason with my own
|
|
personal self for not letting you court me is, that I
|
|
do not feel the things a woman ought to feel who consents
|
|
to walk with you with the meaning of being your wife.
|
|
It is not as you think, that I have another in my mind,
|
|
for I do not encourage anybody, and never have in my life.
|
|
Another reason is my aunt. She would not, I know, agree to it,
|
|
even if I wished to have you. She likes you very well,
|
|
but she will want me to look a little higher than a small
|
|
dairy-farmer, and marry a professional man. I hope you
|
|
will not set your heart against me for writing plainly,
|
|
but I felt you might try to see me again, and it is better
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that we should not meet. I shall always think of you
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as a good man, and be anxious for your well-doing. I send
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this by Jane Orchard's little maid,--And remain Diggory,
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your faithful friend,
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THOMASIN YEOBRIGHT.
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To MR. VENN, Dairy-farmer.
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Since the arrival of that letter, on a certain autumn
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morning long ago, the reddleman and Thomasin had not met
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till today. During the interval he had shifted his position
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even further from hers than it had originally been,
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by adopting the reddle trade; though he was really
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in very good circumstances still. Indeed, seeing that
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his expenditure was only one-fourth of his income,
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he might have been called a prosperous man.
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Rejected suitors take to roaming as naturally as unhived bees;
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and the business to which he had cynically devoted himself
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was in many ways congenial to Venn. But his wanderings,
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by mere stress of old emotions, had frequently taken
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an Egdon direction, though he never intruded upon her
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who attracted him thither. To be in Thomasin's heath,
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and near her, yet unseen, was the one ewe-lamb of pleasure
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left to him.
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Then came the incident of that day, and the reddleman,
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still loving her well, was excited by this accidental
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service to her at a critical juncture to vow an active
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devotion to her cause, instead of, as hitherto, sighing and
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holding aloof. After what had happened it was impossible
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that he should not doubt the honesty of Wildeve's intentions.
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But her hope was apparently centred upon him; and dismissing
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his regrets Venn determined to aid her to be happy in
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her own chosen way. That this way was, of all others,
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the most distressing to himself, was awkward enough;
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but the reddleman's love was generous.
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His first active step in watching over Thomasin's interests
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was taken about seven o'clock the next evening and was
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dictated by the news which he had learnt from the sad boy.
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That Eustacia was somehow the cause of Wildeve's carelessness
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in relation to the marriage had at once been Venn's
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conclusion on hearing of the secret meeting between them.
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It did not occur to his mind that Eustacia's love signal
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to Wildeve was the tender effect upon the deserted beauty
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of the intelligence which her grandfather had brought home.
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His instinct was to regard her as a conspirator against
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rather than as an antecedent obstacle to Thomasin's happiness.
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During the day he had been exceedingly anxious to learn
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the condition of Thomasin, but he did not venture
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to intrude upon a threshold to which he was a stranger,
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particularly at such an unpleasant moment as this.
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He had occupied his time in moving with his ponies
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and load to a new point in the heath, eastward to his
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previous station; and here he selected a nook with a
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careful eye to shelter from wind and rain, which seemed
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to mean that his stay there was to be a comparatively
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extended one. After this he returned on foot some part
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of the way that he had come; and, it being now dark,
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he diverged to the left till he stood behind a holly bush
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on the edge of a pit not twenty yards from Rainbarrow.
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He watched for a meeting there, but he watched in vain.
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Nobody except himself came near the spot that night.
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But the loss of his labour produced little effect upon
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the reddleman. He had stood in the shoes of Tantalus,
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and seemed to look upon a certain mass of disappointment
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as the natural preface to all realizations, without which
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preface they would give cause for alarm.
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The same hour the next evening found him again at the
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same place; but Eustacia and Wildeve, the expected trysters,
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did not appear.
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He pursued precisely the same course yet four nights longer,
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and without success. But on the next, being the day-week
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of their previous meeting, he saw a female shape floating
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along the ridge and the outline of a young man ascending
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from the valley. They met in the little ditch encircling
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the tumulus--the original excavation from which it
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had been thrown up by the ancient British people.
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The reddleman, stung with suspicion of wrong to Thomasin,
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was aroused to strategy in a moment. He instantly left
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the bush and crept forward on his hands and knees.
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When he had got as close as he might safely venture without
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discovery he found that, owing to a cross-wind, the
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conversation of the trysting pair could not be overheard.
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Near him, as in divers places about the heath, were areas
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strewn with large turves, which lay edgeways and upside
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down awaiting removal by Timothy Fairway, previous to
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the winter weather. He took two of these as he lay,
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and dragged them over him till one covered his head
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and shoulders, the other his back and legs. The reddleman
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would now have been quite invisible, even by daylight;
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the turves, standing upon him with the heather upwards,
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looked precisely as if they were growing. He crept
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along again, and the turves upon his back crept with him.
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Had he approached without any covering the chances
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are that he would not have been perceived in the dusk;
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approaching thus, it was as though he burrowed underground.
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In this manner he came quite close to where the two
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were standing.
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"Wish to consult me on the matter?" reached his ears
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in the rich, impetuous accents of Eustacia Vye.
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"Consult me? It is an indignity to me to talk so--I won't
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bear it any longer!" She began weeping. "I have loved you,
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and have shown you that I loved you, much to my regret;
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and yet you can come and say in that frigid way that you
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wish to consult with me whether it would not be better
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to marry Thomasin. Better--of course it would be.
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Marry her--she is nearer to your own position in life than
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I am!"
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"Yes, yes; that's very well," said Wildeve peremptorily.
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"But we must look at things as they are. Whatever blame
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may attach to me for having brought it about,
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Thomasin's position is at present much worse than yours.
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I simply tell you that I am in a strait."
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"But you shall not tell me! You must see that it is only
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harassing me. Damon, you have not acted well; you have
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sunk in my opinion. You have not valued my courtesy--the
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courtesy of a lady in loving you--who used to think
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of far more ambitious things. But it was Thomasin's fault.
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She won you away from me, and she deserves to suffer for it.
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Where is she staying now? Not that I care, nor where I
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am myself. Ah, if I were dead and gone how glad she would
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be! Where is she, I ask?"
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"Thomasin is now staying at her aunt's shut up in a bedroom,
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and keeping out of everybody's sight," he said indifferently.
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"I don't think you care much about her even now,"
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said Eustacia with sudden joyousness, "for if you did you
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wouldn't talk so coolly about her. Do you talk so coolly
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to her about me? Ah, I expect you do! Why did you originally
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go away from me? I don't think I can ever forgive you,
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except on one condition, that whenever you desert me,
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you come back again, sorry that you served me so."
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"I never wish to desert you."
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"I do not thank you for that. I should hate it to be
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all smooth. Indeed, I think I like you to desert me
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a little once now and then. Love is the dismallest thing
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where the lover is quite honest. O, it is a shame to
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say so; but it is true!" She indulged in a little laugh.
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"My low spirits begin at the very idea. Don't you offer
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me tame love, or away you go!"
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"I wish Tamsie were not such a confoundedly good little woman,"
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said Wildeve, "so that I could be faithful to you without
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injuring a worthy person. It is I who am the sinner
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after all; I am not worth the little finger of either of you."
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"But you must not sacrifice yourself to her from
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any sense of justice," replied Eustacia quickly.
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"If you do not love her it is the most merciful thing
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in the long run to leave her as she is. That's always
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the best way. There, now I have been unwomanly, I suppose.
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When you have left me I am always angry with myself
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for things that I have said to you."
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Wildeve walked a pace or two among the heather without replying.
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The pause was filled up by the intonation of a pollard
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thorn a little way to windward, the breezes filtering
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through its unyielding twigs as through a strainer.
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It was as if the night sang dirges with clenched teeth.
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She continued, half sorrowfully, "Since meeting you last,
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it has occurred to me once or twice that perhaps it
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was not for love of me you did not marry her. Tell me,
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Damon--I'll try to bear it. Had I nothing whatever to do
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with the matter?"
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"Do you press me to tell?"
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"Yes, I must know. I see I have been too ready to believe
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in my own power."
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"Well, the immediate reason was that the license would
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not do for the place, and before I could get another she
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ran away. Up to that point you had nothing to do with it.
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Since then her aunt has spoken to me in a tone which I
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don't at all like."
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"Yes, yes! I am nothing in it--I am nothing in it.
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You only trifle with me. Heaven, what can I, Eustacia Vye,
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be made of to think so much of you!"
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"Nonsense; do not be so passionate....Eustacia, how we
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roved among these bushes last year, when the hot days
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had got cool, and the shades of the hills kept us almost
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invisible in the hollows!"
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She remained in moody silence till she said, "Yes; and
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how I used to laugh at you for daring to look up to me!
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But you have well made me suffer for that since."
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"Yes, you served me cruelly enough until I thought I had
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found someone fairer than you. A blessed find for me, Eustacia."
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"Do you still think you found somebody fairer?"
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"Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. The scales are balanced
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so nicely that a feather would turn them."
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"But don't you really care whether I meet you or whether
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I don't?" she said slowly.
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"I care a little, but not enough to break my rest,"
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replied the young man languidly. "No, all that's past.
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I find there are two flowers where I thought there
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was only one. Perhaps there are three, or four, or any
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number as good as the first....Mine is a curious fate.
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Who would have thought that all this could happen
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to me?"
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She interrupted with a suppressed fire of which either
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love or anger seemed an equally possible issue, "Do you
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love me now?"
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"Who can say?"
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"Tell me; I will know it!"
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"I do, and I do not," said he mischievously. "That is,
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I have my times and my seasons. One moment you are too tall,
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another moment you are too do-nothing, another too melancholy,
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another too dark, another I don't know what, except--that you
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are not the whole world to me that you used to be, my dear.
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But you are a pleasant lady to know and nice to meet,
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and I dare say as sweet as ever--almost."
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Eustacia was silent, and she turned from him, till she said,
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in a voice of suspended mightiness, "I am for a walk,
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and this is my way."
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"Well, I can do worse than follow you."
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"You know you can't do otherwise, for all your moods
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and changes!" she answered defiantly. "Say what you will;
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|
try as you may; keep away from me all that you can--you
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|
will never forget me. You will love me all your life long.
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You would jump to marry me!"
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"So I would!" said Wildeve. "Such strange thoughts
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as I've had from time to time, Eustacia; and they come
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to me this moment. You hate the heath as much as ever;
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that I know."
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"I do," she murmured deeply. "'Tis my cross, my shame,
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and will be my death!"
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"I abhor it too," said he. "How mournfully the wind
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blows round us now!"
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She did not answer. Its tone was indeed solemn and pervasive.
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|
Compound utterances addressed themselves to their senses, and it
|
|
was possible to view by ear the features of the neighbourhood.
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Acoustic pictures were returned from the darkened scenery;
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they could hear where the tracts of heather began and ended;
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where the furze was growing stalky and tall; where it had
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|
been recently cut; in what direction the fir-clump lay,
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and how near was the pit in which the hollies grew;
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for these differing features had their voices no less
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|
than their shapes and colours.
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"God, how lonely it is!" resumed Wildeve. "What are
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picturesque ravines and mists to us who see nothing else?"
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Why should we stay here? Will you go with me to America?
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I have kindred in Wisconsin."
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"That wants consideration."
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"It seems impossible to do well here, unless one were
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a wild bird or a landscape-painter. Well?"
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"Give me time," she softly said, taking his hand.
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"America is so far away. Are you going to walk with me
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a little way?"
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As Eustacia uttered the latter words she retired from
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the base of the barrow, and Wildeve followed her,
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so that the reddleman could hear no more.
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He lifted the turves and arose. Their black figures sank
|
|
and disappeared from against the sky. They were as two
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horns which the sluggish heath had put forth from its crown,
|
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like a mollusc, and had now again drawn in.
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The reddleman's walk across the vale, and over into the
|
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next where his cart lay, was not sprightly for a slim young
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fellow of twenty-four. His spirit was perturbed to aching.
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The breezes that blew around his mouth in that walk
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carried off upon them the accents of a commination.
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He entered the van, where there was a fire in a stove.
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Without lighting his candle he sat down at once on
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the three-legged stool, and pondered on what he had
|
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seen and heard touching that still-loved one of his.
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He uttered a sound which was neither sigh nor sob, but was
|
|
even more indicative than either of a troubled mind.
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"My Tamsie," he whispered heavily. "What can be done? Yes,
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I will see that Eustacia Vye."
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10 - A Desperate Attempt at Persuasion
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The next morning, at the time when the height of the
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sun appeared very insignificant from any part of the
|
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heath as compared with the altitude of Rainbarrow,
|
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and when all the little hills in the lower levels
|
|
were like an archipelago in a fog-formed Aegean,
|
|
the reddleman came from the brambled nook which he
|
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had adopted as his quarters and ascended the slopes of Mistover Knap.
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Though these shaggy hills were apparently so solitary,
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|
several keen round eyes were always ready on such a
|
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wintry morning as this to converge upon a passer-by.
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Feathered species sojourned here in hiding which would
|
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have created wonder if found elsewhere. A bustard
|
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haunted the spot, and not many years before this five
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and twenty might have been seen in Egdon at one time.
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Marsh-harriers looked up from the valley by Wildeve's.
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A cream-coloured courser had used to visit this hill,
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a bird so rare that not more than a dozen have ever been
|
|
seen in England; but a barbarian rested neither night
|
|
nor day till he had shot the African truant, and after
|
|
that event cream-coloured coursers thought fit to enter
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Egdon no more.
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A traveller who should walk and observe any of these
|
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visitants as Venn observed them now could feel himself
|
|
to be in direct communication with regions unknown to man.
|
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Here in front of him was a wild mallard--just arrived from
|
|
the home of the north wind. The creature brought within him
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an amplitude of Northern knowledge. Glacial catastrophes,
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snowstorm episodes, glittering auroral effects, Polaris in
|
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the zenith, Franklin underfoot--the category of his commonplaces
|
|
was wonderful. But the bird, like many other philosophers,
|
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seemed as he looked at the reddleman to think that a present
|
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moment of comfortable reality was worth a decade of memories.
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Venn passed on through these towards the house of the
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isolated beauty who lived up among them and despised them.
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The day was Sunday; but as going to church, except to be
|
|
married or buried, was exceptional at Egdon, this made
|
|
little difference. He had determined upon the bold stroke
|
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of asking for an interview with Miss Vye--to attack her
|
|
position as Thomasin's rival either by art or by storm,
|
|
showing therein, somewhat too conspicuously, the want of
|
|
gallantry characteristic of a certain astute sort of men,
|
|
from clowns to kings. The great Frederick making war
|
|
on the beautiful Archduchess, Napoleon refusing terms
|
|
to the beautiful Queen of Prussia, were not more dead
|
|
to difference of sex than the reddleman was, in his
|
|
peculiar way, in planning the displacement of Eustacia.
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To call at the captain's cottage was always more or
|
|
less an undertaking for the inferior inhabitants.
|
|
Though occasionally chatty, his moods were erratic,
|
|
and nobody could be certain how he would behave at any
|
|
particular moment. Eustacia was reserved, and lived very much
|
|
to herself. Except the daughter of one of the cotters,
|
|
who was their servant, and a lad who worked in the garden
|
|
and stable, scarcely anyone but themselves ever entered
|
|
the house. They were the only genteel people of the
|
|
district except the Yeobrights, and though far from rich,
|
|
they did not feel that necessity for preserving a friendly
|
|
face towards every man, bird, and beast which influenced
|
|
their poorer neighbours.
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|
|
When the reddleman entered the garden the old man was
|
|
looking through his glass at the stain of blue sea in
|
|
the distant landscape, the little anchors on his buttons
|
|
twinkling in the sun. He recognized Venn as his companion
|
|
on the highway, but made no remark on that circumstance,
|
|
merely saying, "Ah, reddleman--you here? Have a glass
|
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of grog?"
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|
|
Venn declined, on the plea of it being too early, and stated
|
|
that his business was with Miss Vye. The captain surveyed
|
|
him from cap to waistcoat and from waistcoat to leggings
|
|
for a few moments, and finally asked him to go indoors.
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|
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Miss Vye was not to be seen by anybody just then;
|
|
and the reddleman waited in the window-bench of the kitchen,
|
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his hands hanging across his divergent knees, and his cap
|
|
hanging from his hands.
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|
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"I suppose the young lady is not up yet?" he presently
|
|
said to the servant.
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|
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"Not quite yet. Folks never call upon ladies at this
|
|
time of day."
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|
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"Then I'll step outside," said Venn. "If she is willing
|
|
to see me, will she please send out word, and I'll come in."
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|
|
The reddleman left the house and loitered on the
|
|
hill adjoining. A considerable time elapsed, and no
|
|
request for his presence was brought. He was beginning
|
|
to think that his scheme had failed, when he beheld the
|
|
form of Eustacia herself coming leisurely towards him.
|
|
A sense of novelty in giving audience to that singular
|
|
figure had been sufficient to draw her forth.
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She seemed to feel, after a bare look at Diggory Venn,
|
|
that the man had come on a strange errand, and that he was
|
|
not so mean as she had thought him; for her close approach
|
|
did not cause him to writhe uneasily, or shift his feet,
|
|
or show any of those little signs which escape an ingenuous
|
|
rustic at the advent of the uncommon in womankind.
|
|
On his inquiring if he might have a conversation with
|
|
her she replied, "Yes, walk beside me," and continued
|
|
to move on.
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|
|
Before they had gone far it occurred to the perspicacious
|
|
reddleman that he would have acted more wisely
|
|
by appearing less unimpressionable, and he resolved
|
|
to correct the error as soon as he could find opportunity.
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|
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"I have made so bold, miss, as to step across and tell
|
|
you some strange news which has come to my ears about
|
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that man."
|
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|
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"Ah! what man?"
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|
|
He jerked his elbow to the southeast--the direction
|
|
of the Quiet Woman.
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|
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Eustacia turned quickly to him. "Do you mean Mr. Wildeve?"
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|
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"Yes, there is trouble in a household on account of him,
|
|
and I have come to let you know of it, because I believe
|
|
you might have power to drive it away."
|
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|
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"I? What is the trouble?"
|
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|
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"It is quite a secret. It is that he may refuse to marry
|
|
Thomasin Yeobright after all."
|
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|
|
Eustacia, though set inwardly pulsing by his words,
|
|
was equal to her part in such a drama as this.
|
|
She replied coldly, "I do not wish to listen to this,
|
|
and you must not expect me to interfere."
|
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|
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"But, miss, you will hear one word?"
|
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"I cannot. I am not interested in the marriage, and even
|
|
if I were I could not compel Mr. Wildeve to do my bidding."
|
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|
"As the only lady on the heath I think you might," said Venn
|
|
with subtle indirectness. "This is how the case stands.
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Mr. Wildeve would marry Thomasin at once, and make all
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matters smooth, if so be there were not another woman
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in the case. This other woman is some person he has
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picked up with, and meets on the heath occasionally,
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I believe. He will never marry her, and yet through
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her he may never marry the woman who loves him dearly.
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Now, if you, miss, who have so much sway over us menfolk,
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were to insist that he should treat your young neighbour
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Tamsin with honourable kindness and give up the other woman,
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he would perhaps do it, and save her a good deal of misery."
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"Ah, my life!" said Eustacia, with a laugh which unclosed
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her lips so that the sun shone into her mouth as into
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a tulip, and lent it a similar scarlet fire. "You think
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too much of my influence over menfolk indeed, reddleman.
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If I had such a power as you imagine I would go straight
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and use it for the good of anybody who has been kind
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to me--which Thomasin Yeobright has not particularly,
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to my knowledge."
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"Can it be that you really don't know of it--how much
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she had always thought of you?"
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"I have never heard a word of it. Although we live
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only two miles apart I have never been inside her aunt's
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house in my life."
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The superciliousness that lurked in her manner told Venn
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that thus far he had utterly failed. He inwardly sighed
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and felt it necessary to unmask his second argument.
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"Well, leaving that out of the question, 'tis in your power,
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I assure you, Miss Vye, to do a great deal of good
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to another woman."
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She shook her head.
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"Your comeliness is law with Mr. Wildeve. It is law
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with all men who see 'ee. They say, 'This well-
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favoured lady coming--what's her name? How handsome!'
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Handsomer than Thomasin Yeobright," the reddleman persisted,
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saying to himself, "God forgive a rascal for lying!" And she
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was handsomer, but the reddleman was far from thinking so.
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There was a certain obscurity in Eustacia's beauty,
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and Venn's eye was not trained. In her winter dress, as now,
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she was like the tiger-beetle, which, when observed in
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dull situations, seems to be of the quietest neutral colour,
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but under a full illumination blazes with dazzling splendour.
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Eustacia could not help replying, though conscious that she
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endangered her dignity thereby. "Many women are lovelier
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than Thomasin," she said, "so not much attaches to that."
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The reddleman suffered the wound and went on: "He is a man
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who notices the looks of women, and you could twist him
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to your will like withywind, if you only had the mind."
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"Surely what she cannot do who has been so much with him
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I cannot do living up here away from him."
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The reddleman wheeled and looked her in the face.
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"Miss Vye!" he said.
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"Why do you say that--as if you doubted me?" She spoke faintly,
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and her breathing was quick. "The idea of your speaking in
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that tone to me!" she added, with a forced smile of hauteur.
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"What could have been in your mind to lead you to speak like that?"
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"Miss Vye, why should you make believe that you don't know
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this man?--I know why, certainly. He is beneath you,
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and you are ashamed."
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"You are mistaken. What do you mean?"
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The reddleman had decided to play the card of truth.
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"I was at the meeting by Rainbarrow last night and heard
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every word," he said. "The woman that stands between
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Wildeve and Thomasin is yourself."
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It was a disconcerting lift of the curtain, and the
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mortification of Candaules' wife glowed in her.
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The moment had arrived when her lip would tremble in spite
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of herself, and when the gasp could no longer be kept down.
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"I am unwell," she said hurriedly. "No--it is not that--I
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am not in a humour to hear you further. Leave me, please."
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"I must speak, Miss Vye, in spite of paining you.
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What I would put before you is this. However it may come
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about--whether she is to blame, or you--her case is without
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doubt worse than yours. Your giving up Mr. Wildeve will
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be a real advantage to you, for how could you marry him?
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Now she cannot get off so easily--everybody will blame
|
|
her if she loses him. Then I ask you--not because her
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right is best, but because her situation is worst--to
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give him up to her."
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"No--I won't, I won't!" she said impetuously, quite forgetful
|
|
of her previous manner towards the reddleman as an underling.
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"Nobody has ever been served so! It was going on well--I
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will not be beaten down--by an inferior woman like her.
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It is very well for you to come and plead for her,
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|
but is she not herself the cause of all her own trouble?
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Am I not to show favour to any person I may choose without
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asking permission of a parcel of cottagers? She has come
|
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between me and my inclination, and now that she finds
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herself rightly punished she gets you to plead for her!"
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"Indeed," said Venn earnestly, "she knows nothing whatever
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about it. It is only I who ask you to give him up.
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It will be better for her and you both. People will say
|
|
bad things if they find out that a lady secretly meets
|
|
a man who has ill-used another woman."
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"I have NOT injured her--he was mine before he was
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hers! He came back--because--because he liked me best!"
|
|
she said wildly. "But I lose all self-respect in talking
|
|
to you. What am I giving way to!"
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|
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"I can keep secrets," said Venn gently. "You need not fear.
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I am the only man who knows of your meetings with him.
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There is but one thing more to speak of, and then I will
|
|
be gone. I heard you say to him that you hated living
|
|
here--that Egdon Heath was a jail to you."
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|
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|
"I did say so. There is a sort of beauty in the scenery,
|
|
I know; but it is a jail to me. The man you mention does
|
|
not save me from that feeling, though he lives here.
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|
I should have cared nothing for him had there been a better
|
|
person near."
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|
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|
The reddleman looked hopeful; after these words from
|
|
her his third attempt seemed promising. "As we have
|
|
now opened our minds a bit, miss," he said, "I'll tell
|
|
you what I have got to propose. Since I have taken
|
|
to the reddle trade I travel a good deal, as you know."
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|
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She inclined her head, and swept round so that her eyes
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|
rested in the misty vale beneath them.
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"And in my travels I go near Budmouth. Now Budmouth is
|
|
a wonderful place--wonderful--a great salt sheening sea
|
|
bending into the land like a bow--thousands of gentlepeople
|
|
walking up and down--bands of music playing--officers
|
|
by sea and officers by land walking among the rest--out
|
|
of every ten folks you meet nine of 'em in love."
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|
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|
"I know it," she said disdainfully. "I know Budmouth
|
|
better than you. I was born there. My father came to
|
|
be a military musician there from abroad. Ah, my soul,
|
|
Budmouth! I wish I was there now."
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|
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|
The reddleman was surprised to see how a slow fire could
|
|
blaze on occasion. "If you were, miss," he replied,
|
|
"in a week's time you would think no more of Wildeve
|
|
than of one of those he'th-croppers that we see yond.
|
|
Now, I could get you there."
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|
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|
"How?" said Eustacia, with intense curiosity in her
|
|
heavy eyes.
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|
|
|
"My uncle has been for five and twenty years the trusty
|
|
man of a rich widow-lady who has a beautiful house
|
|
facing the sea. This lady has become old and lame,
|
|
and she wants a young company-keeper to read and sing
|
|
to her, but can't get one to her mind to save her life,
|
|
though she've advertised in the papers, and tried half
|
|
a dozen. She would jump to get you, and Uncle would make
|
|
it all easy."
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|
|
|
"I should have to work, perhaps?"
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|
|
|
"No, not real work--you'd have a little to do, such as reading
|
|
and that. You would not be wanted till New Year's Day."
|
|
|
|
"I knew it meant work," she said, drooping to languor again.
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|
|
|
"I confess there would be a trifle to do in the way of
|
|
amusing her; but though idle people might call it work,
|
|
working people would call it play. Think of the company
|
|
and the life you'd lead, miss; the gaiety you'd see,
|
|
and the gentleman you'd marry. My uncle is to inquire
|
|
for a trustworthy young lady from the country, as she don't
|
|
like town girls."
|
|
|
|
"It is to wear myself out to please her! and I won't go.
|
|
O, if I could live in a gay town as a lady should,
|
|
and go my own ways, and do my own doings, I'd give
|
|
the wrinkled half of my life! Yes, reddleman, that would I."
|
|
|
|
"Help me to get Thomasin happy, miss, and the chance
|
|
shall be yours," urged her companion.
|
|
|
|
"Chance--'tis no chance," she said proudly. "What can
|
|
a poor man like you offer me, indeed?--I am going indoors.
|
|
I have nothing more to say. Don't your horses want feeding,
|
|
or your reddlebags want mending, or don't you want
|
|
to find buyers for your goods, that you stay idling here
|
|
like this?"
|
|
|
|
Venn spoke not another word. With his hands behind him
|
|
he turned away, that she might not see the hopeless
|
|
disappointment in his face. The mental clearness and power
|
|
he had found in this lonely girl had indeed filled his manner
|
|
with misgiving even from the first few minutes of close
|
|
quarters with her. Her youth and situation had led him
|
|
to expect a simplicity quite at the beck of his method.
|
|
But a system of inducement which might have carried weaker
|
|
country lasses along with it had merely repelled Eustacia.
|
|
As a rule, the word Budmouth meant fascination on Egdon.
|
|
That Royal port and watering place, if truly mirrored in the
|
|
minds of the heathfolk, must have combined, in a charming
|
|
and indescribable manner a Carthaginian bustle of building
|
|
with Tarentine luxuriousness and Baian health and beauty.
|
|
Eustacia felt little less extravagantly about the place;
|
|
but she would not sink her independence to get there.
|
|
|
|
When Diggory Venn had gone quite away, Eustacia walked
|
|
to the bank and looked down the wild and picturesque
|
|
vale towards the sun, which was also in the direction
|
|
of Wildeve's. The mist had now so far collapsed that
|
|
the tips of the trees and bushes around his house
|
|
could just be discerned, as if boring upwards through
|
|
a vast white cobweb which cloaked them from the day.
|
|
There was no doubt that her mind was inclined thitherward;
|
|
indefinitely, fancifully--twining and untwining about
|
|
him as the single object within her horizon on which
|
|
dreams might crystallize. The man who had begun by
|
|
being merely her amusement, and would never have been
|
|
more than her hobby but for his skill in deserting
|
|
her at the right moments, was now again her desire.
|
|
Cessation in his love-making had revivified her love.
|
|
Such feeling as Eustacia had idly given to Wildeve was dammed
|
|
into a flood by Thomasin. She had used to tease Wildeve,
|
|
but that was before another had favoured him. Often a drop
|
|
of irony into an indifferent situation renders the whole piquant.
|
|
|
|
"I will never give him up--never!" she said impetuously.
|
|
|
|
The reddleman's hint that rumour might show her to disadvantage
|
|
had no permanent terror for Eustacia. She was as unconcerned
|
|
at that contingency as a goddess at a lack of linen.
|
|
This did not originate in inherent shamelessness,
|
|
but in her living too far from the world to feel the impact
|
|
of public opinion. Zenobia in the desert could hardly have
|
|
cared what was said about her at Rome. As far as social
|
|
ethics were concerned Eustacia approached the savage state,
|
|
though in emotion she was all the while an epicure.
|
|
She had advanced to the secret recesses of sensuousness,
|
|
yet had hardly crossed the threshold of conventionality.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
11 - The Dishonesty of an Honest Woman
|
|
|
|
|
|
The reddleman had left Eustacia's presence with desponding
|
|
views on Thomasin's future happiness; but he was awakened
|
|
to the fact that one other channel remained untried
|
|
by seeing, as he followed the way to his van, the form
|
|
of Mrs. Yeobright slowly walking towards the Quiet Woman.
|
|
He went across to her; and could almost perceive in her
|
|
anxious face that this journey of hers to Wildeve was
|
|
undertaken with the same object as his own to Eustacia.
|
|
|
|
She did not conceal the fact. "Then," said the reddleman,
|
|
"you may as well leave it alone, Mrs. Yeobright."
|
|
|
|
"I half think so myself," she said. "But nothing else
|
|
remains to be done besides pressing the question upon him."
|
|
|
|
"I should like to say a word first," said Venn firmly.
|
|
"Mr. Wildeve is not the only man who has asked Thomasin
|
|
to marry him; and why should not another have a chance?
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright, I should be glad to marry your niece.
|
|
and would have done it any time these last two years.
|
|
There, now it is out, and I have never told anybody before
|
|
but herself."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright was not demonstrative, but her eyes
|
|
involuntarily glanced towards his singular though shapely figure.
|
|
|
|
"Looks are not everything," said the reddleman,
|
|
noticing the glance. "There's many a calling that don't
|
|
bring in so much as mine, if it comes to money; and perhaps
|
|
I am not so much worse off than Wildeve. There is nobody
|
|
so poor as these professional fellows who have failed;
|
|
and if you shouldn't like my redness--well, I am not red
|
|
by birth, you know; I only took to this business for a freak;
|
|
and I might turn my hand to something else in good time."
|
|
|
|
"I am much obliged to you for your interest in my niece;
|
|
but I fear there would be objections. More than that,
|
|
she is devoted to this man."
|
|
|
|
"True; or I shouldn't have done what I have this morning."
|
|
|
|
"Otherwise there would be no pain in the case, and you
|
|
would not see me going to his house now. What was
|
|
Thomasin's answer when you told her of your feelings?"
|
|
|
|
"She wrote that you would object to me; and other things."
|
|
|
|
"She was in a measure right. You must not take this
|
|
unkindly--I merely state it as a truth. You have been
|
|
good to her, and we do not forget it. But as she
|
|
was unwilling on her own account to be your wife,
|
|
that settles the point without my wishes being concerned."
|
|
|
|
"Yes. But there is a difference between then and now,
|
|
ma'am. She is distressed now, and I have thought that if
|
|
you were to talk to her about me, and think favourably of
|
|
me yourself, there might be a chance of winning her round,
|
|
and getting her quite independent of this Wildeve's
|
|
backward and forward play, and his not knowing whether
|
|
he'll have her or no."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright shook her head. "Thomasin thinks, and I
|
|
think with her, that she ought to be Wildeve's wife,
|
|
if she means to appear before the world without a slur
|
|
upon her name. If they marry soon, everybody will believe
|
|
that an accident did really prevent the wedding. If not,
|
|
it may cast a shade upon her character--at any rate make
|
|
her ridiculous. In short, if it is anyhow possible they
|
|
must marry now."
|
|
|
|
"I thought that till half an hour ago. But, after all,
|
|
why should her going off with him to Anglebury for a few
|
|
hours do her any harm? Anybody who knows how pure she
|
|
is will feel any such thought to be quite unjust.
|
|
I have been trying this morning to help on this marriage with
|
|
Wildeve--yes, I, ma'am--in the belief that I ought to do it,
|
|
because she was so wrapped up in him. But I much question
|
|
if I was right, after all. However, nothing came of it.
|
|
And now I offer myself."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright appeared disinclined to enter further
|
|
into the question. "I fear I must go on," she said.
|
|
"I do not see that anything else can be done."
|
|
|
|
And she went on. But though this conversation did
|
|
not divert Thomasin's aunt from her purposed interview
|
|
with Wildeve, it made a considerable difference in her
|
|
mode of conducting that interview. She thanked God
|
|
for the weapon which the reddleman had put into her hands.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve was at home when she reached the inn. He showed
|
|
her silently into the parlour, and closed the door.
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright began--
|
|
|
|
"I have thought it my duty to call today. A new proposal
|
|
has been made to me, which has rather astonished me.
|
|
It will affect Thomasin greatly; and I have decided that it
|
|
should at least be mentioned to you."
|
|
|
|
"Yes? What is it?" he said civilly.
|
|
|
|
"It is, of course, in reference to her future. You may
|
|
not be aware that another man has shown himself anxious to
|
|
marry Thomasin. Now, though I have not encouraged him yet,
|
|
I cannot conscientiously refuse him a chance any longer.
|
|
I don't wish to be short with you; but I must be fair
|
|
to him and to her."
|
|
|
|
"Who is the man?" said Wildeve with surprise.
|
|
|
|
"One who has been in love with her longer than she
|
|
has with you. He proposed to her two years ago.
|
|
At that time she refused him."
|
|
|
|
"Well?"
|
|
|
|
"He has seen her lately, and has asked me for permission
|
|
to pay his addresses to her. She may not refuse him twice."
|
|
|
|
"What is his name?"
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright declined to say. "He is a man Thomasin likes,"
|
|
she added, "and one whose constancy she respects at least.
|
|
It seems to me that what she refused then she would be glad
|
|
to get now. She is much annoyed at her awkward position."
|
|
|
|
"She never once told me of this old lover."
|
|
|
|
"The gentlest women are not such fools as to show EVERY card."
|
|
|
|
"Well, if she wants him I suppose she must have him."
|
|
|
|
"It is easy enough to say that; but you don't see
|
|
the difficulty. He wants her much more than she wants him;
|
|
and before I can encourage anything of the sort I must have
|
|
a clear understanding from you that you will not interfere
|
|
to injure an arrangement which I promote in the belief
|
|
that it is for the best. Suppose, when they are engaged,
|
|
and everything is smoothly arranged for their marriage,
|
|
that you should step between them and renew your suit? You
|
|
might not win her back, but you might cause much unhappiness."
|
|
|
|
"Of course I should do no such thing," said Wildeve "But
|
|
they are not engaged yet. How do you know that Thomasin
|
|
would accept him?"
|
|
|
|
"That's a question I have carefully put to myself;
|
|
and upon the whole the probabilities are in favour
|
|
of her accepting him in time. I flatter myself that I
|
|
have some influence over her. She is pliable, and I
|
|
can be strong in my recommendations of him."
|
|
|
|
"And in your disparagement of me at the same time."
|
|
|
|
"Well, you may depend upon my not praising you,"
|
|
she said drily. "And if this seems like manoeuvring,
|
|
you must remember that her position is peculiar,
|
|
and that she has been hardly used. I shall also be
|
|
helped in making the match by her own desire to escape
|
|
from the humiliation of her present state; and a woman's
|
|
pride in these cases will lead her a very great way.
|
|
A little managing may be required to bring her round;
|
|
but I am equal to that, provided that you agree to the one
|
|
thing indispensable; that is, to make a distinct declaration
|
|
that she is to think no more of you as a possible husband.
|
|
That will pique her into accepting him."
|
|
|
|
"I can hardly say that just now, Mrs. Yeobright.
|
|
It is so sudden."
|
|
|
|
"And so my whole plan is interfered with! It is very
|
|
inconvenient that you refuse to help my family even to the
|
|
small extent of saying distinctly you will have nothing to
|
|
do with us."
|
|
|
|
Wildeve reflected uncomfortably. "I confess I was not
|
|
prepared for this," he said. "Of course I'll give
|
|
her up if you wish, if it is necessary. But I thought
|
|
I might be her husband."
|
|
|
|
"We have heard that before."
|
|
|
|
"Now, Mrs. Yeobright, don't let us disagree. Give me
|
|
a fair time. I don't want to stand in the way of any
|
|
better chance she may have; only I wish you had let me
|
|
know earlier. I will write to you or call in a day or two.
|
|
Will that suffice?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes," she replied, "provided you promise not to communicate
|
|
with Thomasin without my knowledge."
|
|
|
|
"I promise that," he said. And the interview then terminated,
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright returning homeward as she had come.
|
|
|
|
By far the greatest effect of her simple strategy
|
|
on that day was, as often happens, in a quarter quite
|
|
outside her view when arranging it. In the first place,
|
|
her visit sent Wildeve the same evening after dark
|
|
to Eustacia's house at Mistover.
|
|
|
|
At this hour the lonely dwelling was closely blinded
|
|
and shuttered from the chill and darkness without.
|
|
Wildeve's clandestine plan with her was to take a little
|
|
gravel in his hand and hold it to the crevice at the
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top of the window shutter, which was on the outside,
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so that it should fall with a gentle rustle,
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resembling that of a mouse, between shutter and glass.
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This precaution in attracting her attention was to avoid
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arousing the suspicions of her grandfather.
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The soft words, "I hear; wait for me," in Eustacia's
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voice from within told him that she was alone.
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He waited in his customary manner by walking round the
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enclosure and idling by the pool, for Wildeve was never asked
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into the house by his proud though condescending mistress.
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She showed no sign of coming out in a hurry. The time
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wore on, and he began to grow impatient. In the course
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of twenty minutes she appeared from round the corner,
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and advanced as if merely taking an airing.
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"You would not have kept me so long had you known what I
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come about," he said with bitterness. "Still, you are
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worth waiting for."
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"What has happened?" said Eustacia. "I did not know you
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were in trouble. I too am gloomy enough."
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"I am not in trouble," said he. "It is merely that affairs
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have come to a head, and I must take a clear course."
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"What course is that?" she asked with attentive interest.
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"And can you forget so soon what I proposed to you the
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other night? Why, take you from this place, and carry
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you away with me abroad."
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"I have not forgotten. But why have you come so unexpectedly
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to repeat the question, when you only promised to come
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next Saturday? I thought I was to have plenty of time
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to consider."
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"Yes, but the situation is different now."
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"Explain to me."
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"I don't want to explain, for I may pain you."
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"But I must know the reason of this hurry."
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"It is simply my ardour, dear Eustacia. Everything is
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smooth now."
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"Then why are you so ruffled?"
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"I am not aware of it. All is as it should be.
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Mrs. Yeobright--but she is nothing to us."
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"Ah, I knew she had something to do with it! Come,
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I don't like reserve."
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"No--she has nothing. She only says she wishes me to give
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up Thomasin because another man is anxious to marry her.
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The woman, now she no longer needs me, actually shows off!"
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Wildeve's vexation has escaped him in spite of himself.
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Eustacia was silent a long while. "You are in the awkward
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position of an official who is no longer wanted,"
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she said in a changed tone.
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"It seems so. But I have not yet seen Thomasin."
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"And that irritates you. Don't deny it, Damon. You are
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actually nettled by this slight from an unexpected quarter."
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"Well?"
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"And you come to get me because you cannot get her.
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This is certainly a new position altogether. I am to be
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a stop-gap."
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"Please remember that I proposed the same thing the other day."
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Eustacia again remained in a sort of stupefied silence.
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What curious feeling was this coming over her? Was it
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really possible that her interest in Wildeve had been
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so entirely the result of antagonism that the glory
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and the dream departed from the man with the first sound
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that he was no longer coveted by her rival? She was, then,
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secure of him at last. Thomasin no longer required him.
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What a humiliating victory! He loved her best, she thought;
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and yet--dared she to murmur such treacherous criticism ever
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so softly?--what was the man worth whom a woman inferior to
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herself did not value? The sentiment which lurks more or less
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in all animate nature--that of not desiring the undesired
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of others--was lively as a passion in the supersubtle,
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epicurean heart of Eustacia. Her social superiority
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over him, which hitherto had scarcely ever impressed her,
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became unpleasantly insistent, and for the first time
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she felt that she had stooped in loving him.
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"Well, darling, you agree?" said Wildeve.
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"If it could be London, or even Budmouth, instead of America,"
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she murmured languidly. "Well, I will think.
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It is too great a thing for me to decide offhand.
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I wish I hated the heath less--or loved you more."
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"You can be painfully frank. You loved me a month ago
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warmly enough to go anywhere with me."
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"And you loved Thomasin."
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"Yes, perhaps that was where the reason lay," he returned,
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with almost a sneer. "I don't hate her now."
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"Exactly. The only thing is that you can no longer get her."
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"Come--no taunts, Eustacia, or we shall quarrel.
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If you don't agree to go with me, and agree shortly,
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I shall go by myself."
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"Or try Thomasin again. Damon, how strange it seems
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that you could have married her or me indifferently,
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and only have come to me because I am--cheapest! Yes,
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yes--it is true. There was a time when I should have
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exclaimed against a man of that sort, and been quite wild;
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but it is all past now."
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"Will you go, dearest? Come secretly with me to Bristol,
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marry me, and turn our backs upon this dog-hole of England
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for ever? Say Yes."
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"I want to get away from here at almost any cost,"
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she said with weariness, "but I don't like to go with you.
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Give me more time to decide."
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"I have already," said Wildeve. "Well, I give you one
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more week."
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"A little longer, so that I may tell you decisively.
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I have to consider so many things. Fancy Thomasin being
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anxious to get rid of you! I cannot forget it."
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"Never mind that. Say Monday week. I will be here
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precisely at this time."
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"Let it be at Rainbarrow," said she. "This is too near home;
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my grandfather may be walking out."
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"Thank you, dear. On Monday week at this time I will
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be at the Barrow. Till then good-bye."
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"Good-bye. No, no, you must not touch me now.
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Shaking hands is enough till I have made up my mind."
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Eustacia watched his shadowy form till it had disappeared.
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She placed her hand to her forehead and breathed heavily;
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and then her rich, romantic lips parted under that homely
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impulse--a yawn. She was immediately angry at having
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betrayed even to herself the possible evanescence of her
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passion for him. She could not admit at once that she
|
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might have overestimated Wildeve, for to perceive his
|
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mediocrity now was to admit her own great folly heretofore.
|
|
And the discovery that she was the owner of a disposition
|
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so purely that of the dog in the manger had something in it
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which at first made her ashamed.
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The fruit of Mrs. Yeobright's diplomacy was indeed remarkable,
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though not as yet of the kind she had anticipated.
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It had appreciably influenced Wildeve, but it was
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influencing Eustacia far more. Her lover was no longer
|
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to her an exciting man whom many women strove for,
|
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and herself could only retain by striving with them.
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He was a superfluity.
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She went indoors in that peculiar state of misery which
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|
is not exactly grief, and which especially attends the
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|
dawnings of reason in the latter days of an ill-judged,
|
|
transient love. To be conscious that the end of the dream
|
|
is approaching, and yet has not absolutely come, is one
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|
of the most wearisome as well as the most curious stages
|
|
along the course between the beginning of a passion and its end.
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Her grandfather had returned, and was busily engaged in
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|
pouring some gallons of newly arrived rum into the square
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bottles of his square cellaret. Whenever these home
|
|
supplies were exhausted he would go to the Quiet Woman,
|
|
and, standing with his back to the fire, grog in hand,
|
|
tell remarkable stories of how he had lived seven years
|
|
under the waterline of his ship, and other naval wonders,
|
|
to the natives, who hoped too earnestly for a treat
|
|
of ale from the teller to exhibit any doubts of his truth.
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He had been there this evening. "I suppose you have heard
|
|
the Egdon news, Eustacia?" he said, without looking up
|
|
from the bottles. "The men have been talking about it
|
|
at the Woman as if it were of national importance."
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"I have heard none," she said.
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"Young Clym Yeobright, as they call him, is coming
|
|
home next week to spend Christmas with his mother.
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|
He is a fine fellow by this time, it seems. I suppose
|
|
you remember him?"
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"I never saw him in my life."
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"Ah, true; he left before you came here. I well remember
|
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him as a promising boy."
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"Where has he been living all these years?"
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"In that rookery of pomp and vanity, Paris, I believe."
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book two
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THE ARRIVAL
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1 - Tidings of the Comer
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On the fine days at this time of the year, and earlier,
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certain ephemeral operations were apt to disturb,
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|
in their trifling way, the majestic calm of Egdon Heath.
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|
They were activities which, beside those of a town, a village,
|
|
or even a farm, would have appeared as the ferment of
|
|
stagnation merely, a creeping of the flesh of somnolence.
|
|
But here, away from comparisons, shut in by the stable hills,
|
|
among which mere walking had the novelty of pageantry,
|
|
and where any man could imagine himself to be Adam without
|
|
the least difficulty, they attracted the attention of
|
|
every bird within eyeshot, every reptile not yet asleep,
|
|
and set the surrounding rabbits curiously watching from
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hillocks at a safe distance.
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The performance was that of bringing together and building
|
|
into a stack the furze faggots which Humphrey had been
|
|
cutting for the captain's use during the foregoing
|
|
fine days. The stack was at the end of the dwelling,
|
|
and the men engaged in building it were Humphrey and Sam,
|
|
the old man looking on.
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|
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|
It was a fine and quiet afternoon, about three o'clock;
|
|
but the winter solstice having stealthily come on,
|
|
the lowness of the sun caused the hour to seem later
|
|
than it actually was, there being little here to remind
|
|
an inhabitant that he must unlearn his summer experience
|
|
of the sky as a dial. In the course of many days and
|
|
weeks sunrise had advanced its quarters from northeast
|
|
to southeast, sunset had receded from northwest to southwest;
|
|
but Egdon had hardly heeded the change.
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|
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|
Eustacia was indoors in the dining-room, which was really
|
|
more like a kitchen, having a stone floor and a gaping
|
|
chimney-corner. The air was still, and while she lingered
|
|
a moment here alone sounds of voices in conversation
|
|
came to her ears directly down the chimney. She entered
|
|
the recess, and, listening, looked up the old irregular shaft,
|
|
with its cavernous hollows, where the smoke blundered
|
|
about on its way to the square bit of sky at the top,
|
|
from which the daylight struck down with a pallid glare
|
|
upon the tatters of soot draping the flue as seaweed
|
|
drapes a rocky fissure.
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|
She remembered: the furze-stack was not far from the chimney,
|
|
and the voices were those of the workers.
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|
Her grandfather joined in the conversation. "That lad ought
|
|
never to have left home. His father's occupation would
|
|
have suited him best, and the boy should have followed on.
|
|
I don't believe in these new moves in families.
|
|
My father was a sailor, so was I, and so should my son
|
|
have been if I had had one."
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|
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|
"The place he's been living at is Paris," said Humphrey,
|
|
"and they tell me 'tis where the king's head was cut off
|
|
years ago. My poor mother used to tell me about that business.
|
|
'Hummy,' she used to say, 'I was a young maid then,
|
|
and as I was at home ironing Mother's caps one afternoon
|
|
the parson came in and said, "They've cut the king's
|
|
head off, Jane; and what 'twill be next God knows."'"
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"A good many of us knew as well as He before long,"
|
|
said the captain, chuckling. "I lived seven years
|
|
under water on account of it in my boyhood--in that
|
|
damned surgery of the Triumph, seeing men brought
|
|
down to the cockpit with their legs and arms blown to
|
|
Jericho....And so the young man has settled in Paris.
|
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Manager to a diamond merchant, or some such thing,
|
|
is he not?"
|
|
|
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"Yes, sir, that's it. 'Tis a blazing great business
|
|
that he belongs to, so I've heard his mother say--like
|
|
a king's palace, as far as diments go."
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"I can well mind when he left home," said Sam.
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"'Tis a good thing for the feller," said Humphrey.
|
|
"A sight of times better to be selling diments than nobbling
|
|
about here."
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|
|
|
"It must cost a good few shillings to deal at such a place."
|
|
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|
"A good few indeed, my man," replied the captain.
|
|
"Yes, you may make away with a deal of money and be neither
|
|
drunkard nor glutton."
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|
|
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"They say, too, that Clym Yeobright is become a real
|
|
perusing man, with the strangest notions about things.
|
|
There, that's because he went to school early,
|
|
such as the school was."
|
|
|
|
"Strange notions, has he?" said the old man. "Ah, there's
|
|
too much of that sending to school in these days! It
|
|
only does harm. Every gatepost and barn's door you come
|
|
to is sure to have some bad word or other chalked upon
|
|
it by the young rascals--a woman can hardly pass for
|
|
shame sometimes. If they'd never been taught how to write
|
|
they wouldn't have been able to scribble such villainy.
|
|
Their fathers couldn't do it, and the country was all
|
|
the better for it."
|
|
|
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"Now, I should think, Cap'n, that Miss Eustacia had about
|
|
as much in her head that comes from books as anybody
|
|
about here?"
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|
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"Perhaps if Miss Eustacia, too, had less romantic
|
|
nonsense in her head it would be better for her,"
|
|
said the captain shortly; after which he walked away.
|
|
|
|
"I say, Sam," observed Humphrey when the old man was gone,
|
|
"she and Clym Yeobright would make a very pretty
|
|
pigeon-pair--hey? If they wouldn't I'll be dazed! Both
|
|
of one mind about niceties for certain, and learned
|
|
in print, and always thinking about high doctrine--there
|
|
couldn't be a better couple if they were made o' purpose.
|
|
Clym's family is as good as hers. His father was a farmer,
|
|
that's true; but his mother was a sort of lady, as we know.
|
|
Nothing would please me better than to see them two man and wife."
|
|
|
|
"They'd look very natty, arm-in-crook together,
|
|
and their best clothes on, whether or no, if he's
|
|
at all the well-favoured fellow he used to be."
|
|
|
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"They would, Humphrey. Well, I should like to see the chap
|
|
terrible much after so many years. If I knew for certain
|
|
when he was coming I'd stroll out three or four miles
|
|
to meet him and help carry anything for'n; though I
|
|
suppose he's altered from the boy he was. They say he
|
|
can talk French as fast as a maid can eat blackberries;
|
|
and if so, depend upon it we who have stayed at home
|
|
shall seem no more than scroff in his eyes."
|
|
|
|
"Coming across the water to Budmouth by steamer, isn't he?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; but how he's coming from Budmouth I don't know."
|
|
|
|
"That's a bad trouble about his cousin Thomasin.
|
|
I wonder such a nice-notioned fellow as Clym likes to come
|
|
home into it. What a nunnywatch we were in, to be sure,
|
|
when we heard they weren't married at all, after singing
|
|
to 'em as man and wife that night! Be dazed if I should
|
|
like a relation of mine to have been made such a fool
|
|
of by a man. It makes the family look small."
|
|
|
|
"Yes. Poor maid, her heart has ached enough about it.
|
|
Her health is suffering from it, I hear, for she will
|
|
bide entirely indoors. We never see her out now,
|
|
scampering over the furze with a face as red as a rose,
|
|
as she used to do."
|
|
|
|
"I've heard she wouldn't have Wildeve now if he asked her."
|
|
|
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"You have? 'Tis news to me."
|
|
|
|
While the furze-gatherers had desultorily conversed
|
|
thus Eustacia's face gradually bent to the hearth
|
|
in a profound reverie, her toe unconsciously tapping
|
|
the dry turf which lay burning at her feet.
|
|
|
|
The subject of their discourse had been keenly interesting
|
|
to her. A young and clever man was coming into that lonely
|
|
heath from, of all contrasting places in the world, Paris.
|
|
It was like a man coming from heaven. More singular still,
|
|
the heathmen had instinctively coupled her and this
|
|
man together in their minds as a pair born for each other.
|
|
|
|
That five minutes of overhearing furnished Eustacia
|
|
with visions enough to fill the whole blank afternoon.
|
|
Such sudden alternations from mental vacuity do sometimes
|
|
occur thus quietly. She could never have believed in
|
|
the morning that her colourless inner world would before
|
|
night become as animated as water under a microscope,
|
|
and that without the arrival of a single visitor.
|
|
The words of Sam and Humphrey on the harmony between
|
|
the unknown and herself had on her mind the effect of the
|
|
invading Bard's prelude in the Castle of Indolence,
|
|
at which myriads of imprisoned shapes arose where had
|
|
previously appeared the stillness of a void.
|
|
|
|
Involved in these imaginings she knew nothing of time.
|
|
When she became conscious of externals it was dusk.
|
|
The furze-rick was finished; the men had gone home.
|
|
Eustacia went upstairs, thinking that she would take
|
|
a walk at this her usual time; and she determined
|
|
that her walk should be in the direction of Blooms-End,
|
|
the birthplace of young Yeobright and the present home
|
|
of his mother. She had no reason for walking elsewhere,
|
|
and why should she not go that way? The scene of the
|
|
daydream is sufficient for a pilgrimage at nineteen.
|
|
To look at the palings before the Yeobrights'
|
|
house had the dignity of a necessary performance.
|
|
Strange that such a piece of idling should have seemed an
|
|
important errand.
|
|
|
|
She put on her bonnet, and, leaving the house, descended the
|
|
hill on the side towards Blooms-End, where she walked slowly
|
|
along the valley for a distance of a mile and a half.
|
|
This brought her to a spot in which the green bottom
|
|
of the dale began to widen, the furze bushes to recede yet
|
|
further from the path on each side, till they were diminished
|
|
to an isolated one here and there by the increasing
|
|
fertility of the soil. Beyond the irregular carpet of
|
|
grass was a row of white palings, which marked the verge
|
|
of the heath in this latitude. They showed upon the dusky
|
|
scene that they bordered as distinctly as white lace
|
|
on velvet. Behind the white palings was a little garden;
|
|
behind the garden an old, irregular, thatched house,
|
|
facing the heath, and commanding a full view of the valley.
|
|
This was the obscure, removed spot to which was about
|
|
to return a man whose latter life had been passed in the
|
|
French capital--the centre and vortex of the fashionable world.
|
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|
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|
|
2 - The People at Blooms-End Make Ready
|
|
|
|
|
|
All that afternoon the expected arrival of the subject
|
|
of Eustacia's ruminations created a bustle of preparation
|
|
at Blooms-End. Thomasin had been persuaded by her aunt,
|
|
and by an instinctive impulse of loyalty towards her cousin Clym,
|
|
to bestir herself on his account with an alacrity unusual
|
|
in her during these most sorrowful days of her life.
|
|
At the time that Eustacia was listening to the rick-makers'
|
|
conversation on Clym's return, Thomasin was climbing into
|
|
a loft over her aunt's fuelhouse, where the store-apples
|
|
were kept, to search out the best and largest of them
|
|
for the coming holiday-time.
|
|
|
|
The loft was lighted by a semicircular hole,
|
|
through which the pigeons crept to their lodgings in the
|
|
same high quarters of the premises; and from this hole
|
|
the sun shone in a bright yellow patch upon the figure
|
|
of the maiden as she knelt and plunged her naked arms
|
|
into the soft brown fern, which, from its abundance,
|
|
was used on Egdon in packing away stores of all kinds.
|
|
The pigeons were flying about her head with the
|
|
greatest unconcern, and the face of her aunt was just
|
|
visible above the floor of the loft, lit by a few stray
|
|
motes of light, as she stood halfway up the ladder,
|
|
looking at a spot into which she was not climber enough to venture.
|
|
|
|
"Now a few russets, Tamsin. He used to like them almost
|
|
as well as ribstones."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin turned and rolled aside the fern from another nook,
|
|
where more mellow fruit greeted her with its ripe smell.
|
|
Before picking them out she stopped a moment.
|
|
|
|
"Dear Clym, I wonder how your face looks now?" she said,
|
|
gazing abstractedly at the pigeon-hole. which admitted
|
|
the sunlight so directly upon her brown hair and transparent
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tissues that it almost seemed to shine through her.
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"If he could have been dear to you in another way,"
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said Mrs. Yeobright from the ladder, "this might have been
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a happy meeting."
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"Is there any use in saying what can do no good, Aunt?"
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"Yes," said her aunt, with some warmth. "To thoroughly
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fill the air with the past misfortune, so that other girls
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may take warning and keep clear of it."
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Thomasin lowered her face to the apples again.
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"I am a warning to others, just as thieves and drunkards
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and gamblers are," she said in a low voice. "What a
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class to belong to! Do I really belong to them? 'Tis
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absurd! Yet why, Aunt, does everybody keep on making me
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think that I do, by the way they behave towards me? Why
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don't people judge me by my acts? Now, look at me as I
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kneel here, picking up these apples--do I look like a
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lost woman?...I wish all good women were as good as I!"
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she added vehemently.
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"Strangers don't see you as I do," said Mrs. Yeobright;
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"they judge from false report. Well, it is a silly job,
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and I am partly to blame."
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"How quickly a rash thing can be done!" replied the girl.
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Her lips were quivering, and tears so crowded themselves
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into her eyes that she could hardly distinguish apples
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from fern as she continued industriously searching to hide
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her weakness.
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"As soon as you have finished getting the apples,"
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her aunt said, descending the ladder, "come down,
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and we'll go for the holly. There is nobody on the heath
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this afternoon, and you need not fear being stared at.
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We must get some berries, or Clym will never believe in
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our preparations."
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Thomasin came down when the apples were collected,
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and together they went through the white palings to
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the heath beyond. The open hills were airy and clear,
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and the remote atmosphere appeared, as it often appears
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on a fine winter day, in distinct planes of illumination
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independently toned, the rays which lit the nearer tracts
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of landscape streaming visibly across those further off;
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a stratum of ensaffroned light was imposed on a stratum
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of deep blue, and behind these lay still remoter scenes
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wrapped in frigid grey.
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They reached the place where the hollies grew,
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which was in a conical pit, so that the tops of the trees
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were not much above the general level of the ground.
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Thomasin stepped up into a fork of one of the bushes,
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as she had done under happier circumstances on many
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similar occasions, and with a small chopper that they
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had brought she began to lop off the heavily berried boughs.
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"Don't scratch your face," said her aunt, who stood at
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the edge of the pit, regarding the girl as she held on amid
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the glistening green and scarlet masses of the tree.
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"Will you walk with me to meet him this evening?"
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"I should like to. Else it would seem as if I had
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forgotten him," said Thomasin, tossing out a bough.
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"Not that that would matter much; I belong to one man;
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nothing can alter that. And that man I must marry,
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for my pride's sake."
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"I am afraid--" began Mrs. Yeobright.
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"Ah, you think, 'That weak girl--how is she going to get
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a man to marry her when she chooses?' But let me tell you
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one thing, Aunt: Mr. Wildeve is not a profligate man,
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any more than I am an improper woman. He has an
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unfortunate manner, and doesn't try to make people
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like him if they don't wish to do it of their own accord."
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"Thomasin," said Mrs. Yeobright quietly, fixing her eye
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upon her niece, "do you think you deceive me in your
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defence of Mr. Wildeve?"
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"How do you mean?"
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"I have long had a suspicion that your love for him has
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changed its colour since you have found him not to be
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the saint you thought him, and that you act a part to me."
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"He wished to marry me, and I wish to marry him."
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"Now, I put it to you: would you at this present moment
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agree to be his wife if that had not happened to entangle
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you with him?"
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Thomasin looked into the tree and appeared much disturbed.
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"Aunt," she said presently, "I have, I think, a right to
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refuse to answer that question."
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"Yes, you have."
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"You may think what you choose. I have never implied
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|
to you by word or deed that I have grown to think otherwise
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of him, and I never will. And I shall marry him."
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"Well, wait till he repeats his offer. I think he
|
|
may do it, now that he knows--something I told him.
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|
I don't for a moment dispute that it is the most proper
|
|
thing for you to marry him. Much as I have objected to him
|
|
in bygone days, I agree with you now, you may be sure.
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It is the only way out of a false position, and a very
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|
galling one."
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"What did you tell him?"
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"That he was standing in the way of another lover of yours."
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"Aunt," said Thomasin, with round eyes, "what DO you mean?"
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"Don't be alarmed; it was my duty. I can say no more
|
|
about it now, but when it is over I will tell you exactly
|
|
what I said, and why I said it."
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|
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Thomasin was perforce content.
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"And you will keep the secret of my would-be marriage
|
|
from Clym for the present?" she next asked.
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|
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"I have given my word to. But what is the use of it?
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|
He must soon know what has happened. A mere look
|
|
at your face will show him that something is wrong."
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|
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Thomasin turned and regarded her aunt from the tree.
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|
"Now, hearken to me," she said, her delicate voice expanding
|
|
into firmness by a force which was other than physical.
|
|
"Tell him nothing. If he finds out that I am not worthy
|
|
to be his cousin, let him. But, since he loved me once,
|
|
we will not pain him by telling him my trouble too soon.
|
|
The air is full of the story, I know; but gossips will
|
|
not dare to speak of it to him for the first few days.
|
|
His closeness to me is the very thing that will hinder the tale
|
|
from reaching him early. If I am not made safe from sneers
|
|
in a week or two I will tell him myself."
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|
|
|
The earnestness with which Thomasin spoke prevented
|
|
further objections. Her aunt simply said, "Very well.
|
|
He should by rights have been told at the time that the
|
|
wedding was going to be. He will never forgive you
|
|
for your secrecy."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, he will, when he knows it was because I wished
|
|
to spare him, and that I did not expect him home so soon.
|
|
And you must not let me stand in the way of your
|
|
Christmas party. Putting it off would only make matters worse."
|
|
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|
"Of course I shall not. I do not wish to show myself beaten
|
|
before all Egdon, and the sport of a man like Wildeve.
|
|
We have enough berries now, I think, and we had better
|
|
take them home. By the time we have decked the house
|
|
with this and hung up the mistletoe, we must think
|
|
of starting to meet him."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin came out of the tree, shook from her hair
|
|
and dress the loose berries which had fallen thereon,
|
|
and went down the hill with her aunt, each woman
|
|
bearing half the gathered boughs. It was now nearly
|
|
four o'clock, and the sunlight was leaving the vales.
|
|
When the west grew red the two relatives came again
|
|
from the house and plunged into the heath in a different
|
|
direction from the first, towards a point in the distant
|
|
highway along which the expected man was to return.
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|
3 - How a Little Sound Produced a Great Dream
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Eustacia stood just within the heath, straining her eyes
|
|
in the direction of Mrs. Yeobright's house and premises.
|
|
No light, sound, or movement was perceptible there.
|
|
The evening was chilly; the spot was dark and lonely.
|
|
She inferred that the guest had not yet come; and after
|
|
lingering ten or fifteen minutes she turned again
|
|
towards home.
|
|
|
|
She had not far retraced her steps when sounds in front
|
|
of her betokened the approach of persons in conversation
|
|
along the same path. Soon their heads became visible
|
|
against the sky. They were walking slowly; and though it
|
|
was too dark for much discovery of character from aspect,
|
|
the gait of them showed that they were not workers on
|
|
the heath. Eustacia stepped a little out of the foot-track
|
|
to let them pass. They were two women and a man;
|
|
and the voices of the women were those of Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
and Thomasin.
|
|
|
|
They went by her, and at the moment of passing appeared
|
|
to discern her dusky form. There came to her ears
|
|
in a masculine voice, "Good night!"
|
|
|
|
She murmured a reply, glided by them, and turned round.
|
|
She could not, for a moment, believe that chance,
|
|
unrequested, had brought into her presence the soul
|
|
of the house she had gone to inspect, the man without
|
|
whom her inspection would not have been thought of.
|
|
|
|
She strained her eyes to see them, but was unable.
|
|
Such was her intentness, however, that it seemed
|
|
as if her ears were performing the functions of seeing
|
|
as well as hearing. This extension of power can almost
|
|
be believed in at such moments. The deaf Dr. Kitto was
|
|
probably under the influence of a parallel fancy when he
|
|
described his body as having become, by long endeavour,
|
|
so sensitive to vibrations that he had gained the power
|
|
of perceiving by it as by ears.
|
|
|
|
She could follow every word that the ramblers uttered.
|
|
They were talking no secrets. They were merely indulging
|
|
in the ordinary vivacious chat of relatives who have long
|
|
been parted in person though not in soul. But it was not
|
|
to the words that Eustacia listened; she could not even
|
|
have recalled, a few minutes later, what the words were.
|
|
It was to the alternating voice that gave out about one-tenth
|
|
of them--the voice that had wished her good night.
|
|
Sometimes this throat uttered Yes, sometimes it uttered No;
|
|
sometimes it made inquiries about a time worn denizen
|
|
of the place. Once it surprised her notions by remarking
|
|
upon the friendliness and geniality written in the faces of
|
|
the hills around.
|
|
|
|
The three voices passed on, and decayed and died out upon her ear.
|
|
Thus much had been granted her; and all besides withheld.
|
|
No event could have been more exciting. During the greater
|
|
part of the afternoon she had been entrancing herself
|
|
by imagining the fascination which must attend a man come
|
|
direct from beautiful Paris--laden with its atmosphere,
|
|
familiar with its charms. And this man had greeted her.
|
|
|
|
With the departure of the figures the profuse articulations
|
|
of the women wasted away from her memory; but the accents
|
|
of the other stayed on. Was there anything in the voice
|
|
of Mrs. Yeobright's son--for Clym it was--startling as a
|
|
sound? No; it was simply comprehensive. All emotional
|
|
things were possible to the speaker of that "good night."
|
|
Eustacia's imagination supplied the rest--except the solution
|
|
to one riddle. What COULD the tastes of that man
|
|
be who saw friendliness and geniality in these shaggy hills?
|
|
|
|
On such occasions as this a thousand ideas pass through
|
|
a highly charged woman's head; and they indicate themselves
|
|
on her face; but the changes, though actual, are minute.
|
|
Eustacia's features went through a rhythmical succession
|
|
of them. She glowed; remembering the mendacity
|
|
of the imagination, she flagged; then she freshened;
|
|
then she fired; then she cooled again. It was a cycle
|
|
of aspects, produced by a cycle of visions.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia entered her own house; she was excited.
|
|
Her grandfather was enjoying himself over the fire,
|
|
raking about the ashes and exposing the red-hot surface
|
|
of the turves, so that their lurid glare irradiated the
|
|
chimney-corner with the hues of a furnace.
|
|
|
|
"Why is it that we are never friendly with the Yeobrights?"
|
|
she said, coming forward and stretching her soft hands
|
|
over the warmth. "I wish we were. They seem to be very
|
|
nice people."
|
|
|
|
"Be hanged if I know why," said the captain. "I liked
|
|
the old man well enough, though he was as rough as a hedge.
|
|
But you would never have cared to go there, even if you
|
|
might have, I am well sure."
|
|
|
|
"Why shouldn't I?"
|
|
|
|
"Your town tastes would find them far too countrified.
|
|
They sit in the kitchen, drink mead and elder-wine, and
|
|
sand the floor to keep it clean. A sensible way of life;
|
|
but how would you like it?"
|
|
|
|
"I thought Mrs. Yeobright was a ladylike woman?
|
|
A curate's daughter, was she not?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; but she was obliged to live as her husband did;
|
|
and I suppose she has taken kindly to it by this time.
|
|
Ah, I recollect that I once accidentally offended her,
|
|
and I have never seen her since."
|
|
|
|
That night was an eventful one to Eustacia's brain,
|
|
and one which she hardly ever forgot. She dreamt a dream;
|
|
and few human beings, from Nebuchadnezzar to the
|
|
Swaffham tinker, ever dreamt a more remarkable one.
|
|
Such an elaborately developed, perplexing, exciting dream
|
|
was certainly never dreamed by a girl in Eustacia's
|
|
situation before. It had as many ramifications
|
|
as the Cretan labyrinth, as many fluctuations as the
|
|
northern lights, as much colour as a parterre in June,
|
|
and was as crowded with figures as a coronation.
|
|
To Queen Scheherazade the dream might have seemed not far
|
|
removed from commonplace; and to a girl just returned
|
|
from all the courts of Europe it might have seemed
|
|
not more than interesting. But amid the circumstances
|
|
of Eustacia's life it was as wonderful as a dream could be.
|
|
|
|
There was, however, gradually evolved from its transformation
|
|
scenes a less extravagant episode, in which the heath dimly
|
|
appeared behind the general brilliancy of the action.
|
|
She was dancing to wondrous music, and her partner was
|
|
the man in silver armour who had accompanied her through
|
|
the previous fantastic changes, the visor of his helmet
|
|
being closed. The mazes of the dance were ecstatic.
|
|
Soft whispering came into her ear from under the
|
|
radiant helmet, and she felt like a woman in Paradise.
|
|
Suddenly these two wheeled out from the mass of dancers,
|
|
dived into one of the pools of the heath, and came out
|
|
somewhere into an iridescent hollow, arched with rainbows.
|
|
"It must be here," said the voice by her side, and blushingly
|
|
looking up she saw him removing his casque to kiss her.
|
|
At that moment there was a cracking noise, and his figure
|
|
fell into fragments like a pack of cards.
|
|
|
|
She cried aloud. "O that I had seen his face!"
|
|
|
|
Eustacia awoke. The cracking had been that of the window
|
|
shutter downstairs, which the maid-servant was opening
|
|
to let in the day, now slowly increasing to Nature's
|
|
meagre allowance at this sickly time of the year.
|
|
"O that I had seen his face!" she said again. "'Twas meant
|
|
for Mr. Yeobright!"
|
|
|
|
When she became cooler she perceived that many of the
|
|
phases of the dream had naturally arisen out of the images
|
|
and fancies of the day before. But this detracted
|
|
little from its interest, which lay in the excellent
|
|
fuel it provided for newly kindled fervour. She was
|
|
at the modulating point between indifference and love,
|
|
at the stage called "having a fancy for." It occurs once
|
|
in the history of the most gigantic passions, and it
|
|
is a period when they are in the hands of the weakest will.
|
|
|
|
The perfervid woman was by this time half in love
|
|
with a vision. The fantastic nature of her passion,
|
|
which lowered her as an intellect, raised her as a soul.
|
|
If she had had a little more self-control she would have
|
|
attenuated the emotion to nothing by sheer reasoning,
|
|
and so have killed it off. If she had had a little less
|
|
pride she might have gone and circumambulated the Yeobrights'
|
|
premises at Blooms-End at any maidenly sacrifice until she
|
|
had seen him. But Eustacia did neither of these things.
|
|
She acted as the most exemplary might have acted,
|
|
being so influenced; she took an airing twice or thrice a day
|
|
upon the Egdon hills, and kept her eyes employed.
|
|
|
|
The first occasion passed, and he did not come that way.
|
|
|
|
She promenaded a second time, and was again the sole
|
|
wanderer there.
|
|
|
|
The third time there was a dense fog; she looked around,
|
|
but without much hope. Even if he had been walking within
|
|
twenty yards of her she could not have seen him.
|
|
|
|
At the fourth attempt to encounter him it began to rain
|
|
in torrents, and she turned back.
|
|
|
|
The fifth sally was in the afternoon; it was fine,
|
|
and she remained out long, walking to the very top of
|
|
the valley in which Blooms-End lay. She saw the white
|
|
paling about half a mile off; but he did not appear.
|
|
It was almost with heart-sickness that she came home
|
|
and with a sense of shame at her weakness. She resolved
|
|
to look for the man from Paris no more.
|
|
|
|
But Providence is nothing if not coquettish; and no sooner
|
|
had Eustacia formed this resolve than the opportunity
|
|
came which, while sought, had been entirely withholden.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
4 - Eustacia Is Led on to an Adventure
|
|
|
|
|
|
In the evening of this last day of expectation, which was
|
|
the twenty-third of December, Eustacia was at home alone.
|
|
She had passed the recent hour in lamenting over a rumour
|
|
newly come to her ears--that Yeobright's visit to his
|
|
mother was to be of short duration, and would end some
|
|
time the next week. "Naturally," she said to herself.
|
|
A man in the full swing of his activities in a gay city
|
|
could not afford to linger long on Egdon Heath. That she
|
|
would behold face to face the owner of the awakening voice
|
|
within the limits of such a holiday was most unlikely,
|
|
unless she were to haunt the environs of his mother's house
|
|
like a robin, to do which was difficult and unseemly.
|
|
|
|
The customary expedient of provincial girls and men
|
|
in such circumstances is churchgoing. In an ordinary
|
|
village or country town one can safely calculate that,
|
|
either on Christmas day or the Sunday contiguous,
|
|
any native home for the holidays, who has not through age
|
|
or ennui lost the appetite for seeing and being seen,
|
|
will turn up in some pew or other, shining with hope,
|
|
self-consciousness, and new clothes. Thus the congregation
|
|
on Christmas morning is mostly a Tussaud collection
|
|
of celebrities who have been born in the neighbourhood.
|
|
Hither the mistress, left neglected at home all the year,
|
|
can steal and observe the development of the returned
|
|
lover who has forgotten her, and think as she watches
|
|
him over her prayer book that he may throb with a
|
|
renewed fidelity when novelties have lost their charm.
|
|
And hither a comparatively recent settler like Eustacia
|
|
may betake herself to scrutinize the person of a native
|
|
son who left home before her advent upon the scene,
|
|
and consider if the friendship of his parents be worth
|
|
cultivating during his next absence in order to secure a
|
|
knowledge of him on his next return.
|
|
|
|
But these tender schemes were not feasible among the scattered
|
|
inhabitants of Egdon Heath. In name they were parishioners,
|
|
but virtually they belonged to no parish at all.
|
|
People who came to these few isolated houses to keep
|
|
Christmas with their friends remained in their friends'
|
|
chimney-corners drinking mead and other comforting liquors
|
|
till they left again for good and all. Rain, snow, ice,
|
|
mud everywhere around, they did not care to trudge two or three
|
|
miles to sit wet-footed and splashed to the nape of their
|
|
necks among those who, though in some measure neighbours,
|
|
lived close to the church, and entered it clean and dry.
|
|
Eustacia knew it was ten to one that Clym Yeobright would
|
|
go to no church at all during his few days of leave,
|
|
and that it would be a waste of labour for her to go driving
|
|
the pony and gig over a bad road in hope to see him there.
|
|
|
|
It was dusk, and she was sitting by the fire in the dining-room
|
|
or hall, which they occupied at this time of the year
|
|
in preference to the parlour, because of its large hearth,
|
|
constructed for turf-fires, a fuel the captain was partial
|
|
to in the winter season. The only visible articles
|
|
in the room were those on the window-sill, which showed
|
|
their shapes against the low sky, the middle article being
|
|
the old hourglass, and the other two a pair of ancient
|
|
British urns which had been dug from a barrow near,
|
|
and were used as flowerpots for two razor-leaved cactuses.
|
|
Somebody knocked at the door. The servant was out;
|
|
so was her grandfather. The person, after waiting a minute,
|
|
came in and tapped at the door of the room.
|
|
|
|
"Who's there?" said Eustacia.
|
|
|
|
"Please, Cap'n Vye, will you let us----"
|
|
|
|
Eustacia arose and went to the door. "I cannot allow
|
|
you to come in so boldly. You should have waited."
|
|
|
|
"The cap'n said I might come in without any fuss,"
|
|
was answered in a lad's pleasant voice.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, did he?" said Eustacia more gently. "What do
|
|
you want, Charley?"
|
|
|
|
"Please will your grandfather lend us his fuelhouse
|
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to try over our parts in, tonight at seven o'clock?"
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"What, are you one of the Egdon mummers for this year?"
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"Yes, miss. The cap'n used to let the old mummers
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practise here."
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"I know it. Yes, you may use the fuelhouse if you like,"
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said Eustacia languidly.
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The choice of Captain Vye's fuelhouse as the scene
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of rehearsal was dictated by the fact that his dwelling
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was nearly in the centre of the heath. The fuelhouse
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was as roomy as a barn, and was a most desirable place
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for such a purpose. The lads who formed the company
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of players lived at different scattered points around,
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and by meeting in this spot the distances to be traversed
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by all the comers would be about equally proportioned.
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For mummers and mumming Eustacia had the greatest contempt.
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The mummers themselves were not afflicted with any such
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feeling for their art, though at the same time they
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were not enthusiastic. A traditional pastime is to be
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distinguished from a mere revival in no more striking
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feature than in this, that while in the revival all is
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excitement and fervour, the survival is carried on with
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a stolidity and absence of stir which sets one wondering
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why a thing that is done so perfunctorily should be kept
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up at all. Like Balaam and other unwilling prophets,
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the agents seem moved by an inner compulsion to say
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and do their allotted parts whether they will or no.
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This unweeting manner of performance is the true ring
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by which, in this refurbishing age, a fossilized survival
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may be known from a spurious reproduction.
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The piece was the well-known play of Saint George, and
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all who were behind the scenes assisted in the preparations,
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including the women of each household. Without the
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co-operation of sisters and sweethearts the dresses
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were likely to be a failure; but on the other hand,
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this class of assistance was not without its drawbacks.
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The girls could never be brought to respect tradition
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in designing and decorating the armour; they insisted on
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attaching loops and bows of silk and velvet in any situation
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pleasing to their taste. Gorget, gusset, basinet, cuirass,
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gauntlet, sleeve, all alike in the view of these feminine
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eyes were practicable spaces whereon to sew scraps of
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fluttering colour.
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It might be that Joe, who fought on the side of Christendom,
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had a sweetheart, and that Jim, who fought on the side
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of the Moslem, had one likewise. During the making
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of the costumes it would come to the knowledge of Joe's
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sweetheart that Jim's was putting brilliant silk scallops
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at the bottom of her lover's surcoat, in addition to the
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ribbons of the visor, the bars of which, being invariably
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formed of coloured strips about half an inch wide
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hanging before the face, were mostly of that material.
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Joe's sweetheart straight-way placed brilliant silk on the
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scallops of the hem in question, and, going a little further,
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added ribbon tufts to the shoulder pieces. Jim's, not
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to be outdone, would affix bows and rosettes everywhere.
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The result was that in the end the Valiant Soldier,
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of the Christian army, was distinguished by no peculiarity
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of accoutrement from the Turkish Knight; and what was worse,
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on a casual view Saint George himself might be mistaken
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for his deadly enemy, the Saracen. The guisers themselves,
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though inwardly regretting this confusion of persons,
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could not afford to offend those by whose assistance they
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so largely profited, and the innovations were allowed
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to stand.
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There was, it is true, a limit to this tendency to uniformity.
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The Leech or Doctor preserved his character intact--his
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darker habiliments, peculiar hat, and the bottle of
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physic slung under his arm, could never be mistaken.
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And the same might be said of the conventional figure
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of Father Christmas, with his gigantic club, an older man,
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who accompanied the band as general protector in long
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night journeys from parish to parish, and was bearer
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of the purse.
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Seven o'clock, the hour of the rehearsal, came round, and in
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a short time Eustacia could hear voices in the fuelhouse.
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To dissipate in some trifling measure her abiding sense
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of the murkiness of human life she went to the "linhay"
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or lean-to shed, which formed the root-store of their
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dwelling and abutted on the fuelhouse. Here was a small
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rough hole in the mud wall, originally made for pigeons,
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through which the interior of the next shed could be viewed.
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A light came from it now; and Eustacia stepped upon a stool
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to look in upon the scene.
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On a ledge in the fuelhouse stood three tall rushlights
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and by the light of them seven or eight lads were
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marching about, haranguing, and confusing each other,
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in endeavours to perfect themselves in the play.
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Humphrey and Sam, the furze-and turf-cutters, were
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there looking on, so also was Timothy Fairway, who leant
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against the wall and prompted the boys from memory,
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interspersing among the set words remarks and anecdotes
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of the superior days when he and others were the Egdon
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mummers-elect that these lads were now.
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"Well, ye be as well up to it as ever ye will be," he said.
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"Not that such mumming would have passed in our time.
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Harry as the Saracen should strut a bit more, and John needn't
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holler his inside out. Beyond that perhaps you'll do.
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Have you got all your clothes ready?"
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"We shall by Monday."
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"Your first outing will be Monday night, I suppose?"
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"Yes. At Mrs. Yeobright's."
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"Oh, Mrs. Yeobright's. What makes her want to see ye? I
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should think a middle-aged woman was tired of mumming."
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"She's got up a bit of a party, because 'tis the first
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Christmas that her son Clym has been home for a long time."
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"To be sure, to be sure--her party! I am going myself.
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I almost forgot it, upon my life."
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Eustacia's face flagged. There was to be a party at
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the Yeobrights'; she, naturally, had nothing to do with it.
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|
She was a stranger to all such local gatherings, and had
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|
always held them as scarcely appertaining to her sphere.
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|
But had she been going, what an opportunity would have
|
|
been afforded her of seeing the man whose influence
|
|
was penetrating her like summer sun! To increase that
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|
influence was coveted excitement; to cast it off might be
|
|
to regain serenity; to leave it as it stood was tantalizing.
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The lads and men prepared to leave the premises, and Eustacia
|
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returned to her fireside. She was immersed in thought,
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|
but not for long. In a few minutes the lad Charley,
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|
who had come to ask permission to use the place,
|
|
returned with the key to the kitchen. Eustacia heard him,
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|
and opening the door into the passage said, "Charley, come here."
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The lad was surprised. He entered the front room not
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|
without blushing; for he, like many, had felt the power
|
|
of this girl's face and form.
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She pointed to a seat by the fire, and entered
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|
the other side of the chimney-corner herself.
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|
It could be seen in her face that whatever motive
|
|
she might have had in asking the youth indoors would soon appear.
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"Which part do you play, Charley--the Turkish Knight,
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do you not?" inquired the beauty, looking across the smoke
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|
of the fire to him on the other side.
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"Yes, miss, the Turkish Knight," he replied diffidently.
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"Is yours a long part?"
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"Nine speeches, about."
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"Can you repeat them to me? If so I should like to hear them."
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The lad smiled into the glowing turf and began--
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"Here come I, a Turkish Knight,
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|
Who learnt in Turkish land to fight,"
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|
continuing the discourse throughout the scenes to the
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|
concluding catastrophe of his fall by the hand of Saint George.
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Eustacia had occasionally heard the part recited before.
|
|
When the lad ended she began, precisely in the same words,
|
|
and ranted on without hitch or divergence till she too
|
|
reached the end. It was the same thing, yet how different.
|
|
Like in form, it had the added softness and finish
|
|
of a Raffaelle after Perugino, which, while faithfully
|
|
reproducing the original subject, entirely distances the
|
|
original art.
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|
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|
Charley's eyes rounded with surprise. "Well, you be
|
|
a clever lady!" he said, in admiration. "I've been
|
|
three weeks learning mine."
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|
"I have heard it before," she quietly observed.
|
|
"Now, would you do anything to please me, Charley?"
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|
|
"I'd do a good deal, miss."
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|
"Would you let me play your part for one night?"
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|
"Oh, miss! But your woman's gown--you couldn't."
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|
|
"I can get boy's clothes--at least all that would be wanted
|
|
besides the mumming dress. What should I have to give
|
|
you to lend me your things, to let me take your place
|
|
for an hour or two on Monday night, and on no account
|
|
to say a word about who or what I am? You would, of course,
|
|
have to excuse yourself from playing that night, and to say
|
|
that somebody--a cousin of Miss Vye's--would act for you.
|
|
The other mummers have never spoken to me in their lives
|
|
so that it would be safe enough; and if it were not,
|
|
I should not mind. Now, what must I give you to agree
|
|
to this? Half a crown?"
|
|
|
|
The youth shook his head
|
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|
|
"Five shillings?"
|
|
|
|
He shook his head again. "Money won't do it," he said,
|
|
brushing the iron head of the firedog with the hollow
|
|
of his hand.
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|
|
|
"What will, then, Charley?" said Eustacia in a disappointed tone.
|
|
|
|
"You know what you forbade me at the Maypoling, miss,"
|
|
murmured the lad, without looking at her, and still
|
|
stroking the firedog's head.
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|
|
|
"Yes," said Eustacia, with a little more hauteur.
|
|
"You wanted to join hands with me in the ring, if I recollect?"
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|
|
|
"Half an hour of that, and I'll agree, miss."
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|
|
|
Eustacia regarded the youth steadfastly. He was three years
|
|
younger than herself, but apparently not backward for his age.
|
|
"Half an hour of what?" she said, though she guessed what.
|
|
|
|
"Holding your hand in mine."
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|
|
|
She was silent. "Make it a quarter of an hour," she said
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Miss Eustacia--I will, if I may kiss it too.
|
|
A quarter of an hour. And I'll swear to do the best I
|
|
can to let you take my place without anybody knowing.
|
|
Don't you think somebody might know your tongue, miss?"
|
|
|
|
"It is possible. But I will put a pebble in my mouth
|
|
to make is less likely. Very well; you shall be allowed
|
|
to have my hand as soon as you bring the dress and your
|
|
sword and staff. I don't want you any longer now."
|
|
|
|
Charley departed, and Eustacia felt more and more interest
|
|
in life. Here was something to do: here was some one
|
|
to see, and a charmingly adventurous way to see him.
|
|
"Ah," she said to herself, "want of an object to live
|
|
for--that's all is the matter with me!"
|
|
|
|
Eustacia's manner was as a rule of a slumberous sort,
|
|
her passions being of the massive rather than the vivacious kind.
|
|
But when aroused she would make a dash which, just for
|
|
the time, was not unlike the move of a naturally lively person.
|
|
|
|
On the question of recognition she was somewhat indifferent.
|
|
By the acting lads themselves she was not likely to be known.
|
|
With the guests who might be assembled she was hardly so secure.
|
|
Yet detection, after all, would be no such dreadful thing.
|
|
The fact only could be detected, her true motive never.
|
|
It would be instantly set down as the passing freak
|
|
of a girl whose ways were already considered singular.
|
|
That she was doing for an earnest reason what would most
|
|
naturally be done in jest was at any rate a safe secret.
|
|
|
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|
|
The next evening Eustacia stood punctually at the fuelhouse
|
|
door, waiting for the dusk which was to bring Charley
|
|
with the trappings. Her grandfather was at home tonight,
|
|
and she would be unable to ask her confederate indoors.
|
|
|
|
He appeared on the dark ridge of heathland, like a fly
|
|
on a Negro, bearing the articles with him, and came up
|
|
breathless with his walk.
|
|
|
|
"Here are the things," he whispered, placing them upon
|
|
the threshold. "And now, Miss Eustacia--"
|
|
|
|
"The payment. It is quite ready. I am as good as my word."
|
|
|
|
She leant against the door-post, and gave him her hand.
|
|
Charley took it in both his own with a tenderness
|
|
beyond description, unless it was like that of a child
|
|
holding a captured sparrow.
|
|
|
|
"Why, there's a glove on it!" he said in a deprecating way.
|
|
|
|
"I have been walking," she observed.
|
|
|
|
"But, miss!"
|
|
|
|
"Well--it is hardly fair." She pulled off the glove,
|
|
and gave him her bare hand.
|
|
|
|
They stood together minute after minute, without
|
|
further speech, each looking at the blackening scene,
|
|
and each thinking his and her own thoughts.
|
|
|
|
"I think I won't use it all up tonight," said Charley devotedly,
|
|
when six or eight minutes had been passed by him caressing
|
|
her hand. "May I have the other few minutes another time?"
|
|
|
|
"As you like," said she without the least emotion.
|
|
"But it must be over in a week. Now, there is only one
|
|
thing I want you to do--to wait while I put on the dress,
|
|
and then to see if I do my part properly. But let me look
|
|
first indoors."
|
|
|
|
She vanished for a minute or two, and went in.
|
|
Her grandfather was safely asleep in his chair. "Now, then,"
|
|
she said, on returning, "walk down the garden a little way,
|
|
and when I am ready I'll call you."
|
|
|
|
Charley walked and waited, and presently heard a soft whistle.
|
|
He returned to the fuelhouse door.
|
|
|
|
"Did you whistle, Miss Vye?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; come in," reached him in Eustacia's voice from a
|
|
back quarter. "I must not strike a light till the door
|
|
is shut, or it may be seen shining. Push your hat into the
|
|
hole through to the wash-house, if you can feel your way across."
|
|
|
|
Charley did as commanded, and she struck the light revealing
|
|
herself to be changed in sex, brilliant in colours,
|
|
and armed from top to toe. Perhaps she quailed a little
|
|
under Charley's vigorous gaze, but whether any shyness
|
|
at her male attire appeared upon her countenance could
|
|
not be seen by reason of the strips of ribbon which used
|
|
to cover the face in mumming costumes, representing the
|
|
barred visor of the mediaeval helmet.
|
|
|
|
"It fits pretty well," she said, looking down at the
|
|
white overalls, "except that the tunic, or whatever
|
|
you call it, is long in the sleeve. The bottom
|
|
of the overalls I can turn up inside. Now pay attention."
|
|
|
|
Eustacia then proceeded in her delivery, striking the
|
|
sword against the staff or lance at the minatory phrases,
|
|
in the orthodox mumming manner, and strutting up and down.
|
|
Charley seasoned his admiration with criticism of the
|
|
gentlest kind, for the touch of Eustacia's hand yet
|
|
remained with him.
|
|
|
|
"And now for your excuse to the others," she said.
|
|
"Where do you meet before you go to Mrs. Yeobright's?"
|
|
|
|
"We thought of meeting here, miss, if you have nothing
|
|
to say against it. At eight o'clock, so as to get there
|
|
by nine."
|
|
|
|
"Yes. Well, you of course must not appear. I will march
|
|
in about five minutes late, ready-dressed, and tell them
|
|
that you can't come. I have decided that the best plan
|
|
will be for you to be sent somewhere by me, to make
|
|
a real thing of the excuse. Our two heath-croppers
|
|
are in the habit of straying into the meads, and tomorrow
|
|
evening you can go and see if they are gone there.
|
|
I'll manage the rest. Now you may leave me."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, miss. But I think I'll have one minute more
|
|
of what I am owed, if you don't mind."
|
|
|
|
Eustacia gave him her hand as before.
|
|
|
|
"One minute," she said, and counted on till she reached
|
|
seven or eight minutes. Hand and person she then
|
|
withdrew to a distance of several feet, and recovered
|
|
some of her old dignity. The contract completed,
|
|
she raised between them a barrier impenetrable as a wall.
|
|
|
|
"There, 'tis all gone; and I didn't mean quite all,"
|
|
he said, with a sigh.
|
|
|
|
"You had good measure," said she, turning away.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, miss. Well, 'tis over, and now I'll get home-along."
|
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5 - Through the Moonlight
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|
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|
|
The next evening the mummers were assembled in the same spot,
|
|
awaiting the entrance of the Turkish Knight.
|
|
|
|
"Twenty minutes after eight by the Quiet Woman, and Charley
|
|
not come."
|
|
|
|
"Ten minutes past by Blooms-End."
|
|
|
|
"It wants ten minutes to, by Grandfer Cantle's watch."
|
|
|
|
"And 'tis five minutes past by the captain's clock."
|
|
|
|
On Egdon there was no absolute hour of the day. The time
|
|
at any moment was a number of varying doctrines professed
|
|
by the different hamlets, some of them having originally
|
|
grown up from a common root, and then become divided
|
|
by secession, some having been alien from the beginning.
|
|
West Egdon believed in Blooms-End time, East Egdon
|
|
in the time of the Quiet Woman Inn. Grandfer Cantle's
|
|
watch had numbered many followers in years gone by,
|
|
but since he had grown older faiths were shaken.
|
|
Thus, the mummers having gathered hither from scattered
|
|
points each came with his own tenets on early and late;
|
|
and they waited a little longer as a compromise.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia had watched the assemblage through the hole;
|
|
and seeing that now was the proper moment to enter,
|
|
she went from the "linhay" and boldly pulled the bobbin
|
|
of the fuelhouse door. Her grandfather was safe at the
|
|
Quiet Woman.
|
|
|
|
"Here's Charley at last! How late you be, Charley."
|
|
|
|
"'Tis not Charley," said the Turkish Knight from within
|
|
his visor. "'Tis a cousin of Miss Vye's, come to take
|
|
Charley's place from curiosity. He was obliged to go and
|
|
look for the heath-croppers that have got into the meads,
|
|
and I agreed to take his place, as he knew he couldn't come
|
|
back here again tonight. I know the part as well as he."
|
|
|
|
Her graceful gait, elegant figure, and dignified manner
|
|
in general won the mummers to the opinion that they
|
|
had gained by the exchange, if the newcomer were perfect
|
|
in his part.
|
|
|
|
"It don't matter--if you be not too young," said Saint George.
|
|
Eustacia's voice had sounded somewhat more juvenile
|
|
and fluty than Charley's.
|
|
|
|
"I know every word of it, I tell you," said Eustacia decisively.
|
|
Dash being all that was required to carry her triumphantly through,
|
|
she adopted as much as was necessary. "Go ahead, lads,
|
|
with the try-over. I'll challenge any of you to find a mistake in me."
|
|
|
|
The play was hastily rehearsed, whereupon the other mummers
|
|
were delighted with the new knight. They extinguished
|
|
the candles at half-past eight, and set out upon the heath
|
|
in the direction of Mrs. Yeobright's house at Bloom's-End.
|
|
|
|
There was a slight hoarfrost that night, and the moon,
|
|
though not more than half full, threw a spirited and enticing
|
|
brightness upon the fantastic figures of the mumming band,
|
|
whose plumes and ribbons rustled in their walk like
|
|
autumn leaves. Their path was not over Rainbarrow now,
|
|
but down a valley which left that ancient elevation
|
|
a little to the east. The bottom of the vale was green
|
|
to a width of ten yards or thereabouts, and the shining
|
|
facets of frost upon the blades of grass seemed to move
|
|
on with the shadows of those they surrounded. The masses
|
|
of furze and heath to the right and left were dark as ever;
|
|
a mere half-moon was powerless to silver such sable
|
|
features as theirs.
|
|
|
|
Half-an-hour of walking and talking brought them to the spot
|
|
in the valley where the grass riband widened and led down to
|
|
the front of the house. At sight of the place Eustacia who had
|
|
felt a few passing doubts during her walk with the youths,
|
|
again was glad that the adventure had been undertaken.
|
|
She had come out to see a man who might possibly have the
|
|
power to deliver her soul from a most deadly oppression.
|
|
What was Wildeve? Interesting, but inadequate.
|
|
Perhaps she would see a sufficient hero tonight.
|
|
|
|
As they drew nearer to the front of the house the mummers became
|
|
aware that music and dancing were briskly flourishing within.
|
|
Every now and then a long low note from the serpent,
|
|
which was the chief wind instrument played at these times,
|
|
advanced further into the heath than the thin treble part,
|
|
and reached their ears alone; and next a more than usual
|
|
loud tread from a dancer would come the same way.
|
|
With nearer approach these fragmentary sounds became
|
|
pieced together, and were found to be the salient points
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of the tune called "Nancy's Fancy."
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He was there, of course. Who was she that he danced with?
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Perhaps some unknown woman, far beneath herself in culture,
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was by the most subtle of lures sealing his fate this
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very instant. To dance with a man is to concentrate
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a twelvemonth's regulation fire upon him in the fragment
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of an hour. To pass to courtship without acquaintance,
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to pass to marriage without courtship, is a skipping of
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terms reserved for those alone who tread this royal road.
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She would see how his heart lay by keen observation of
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them all.
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The enterprising lady followed the mumming company through
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the gate in the white paling, and stood before the open porch.
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The house was encrusted with heavy thatchings, which dropped
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between the upper windows; the front, upon which the
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moonbeams directly played, had originally been white;
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but a huge pyracanth now darkened the greater portion.
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It became at once evident that the dance was proceeding immediately
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within the surface of the door, no apartment intervening.
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The brushing of skirts and elbows, sometimes the bumping
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of shoulders, could be heard against the very panels.
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Eustacia, though living within two miles of the place,
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had never seen the interior of this quaint old habitation.
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Between Captain Vye and the Yeobrights there had never
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existed much acquaintance, the former having come as a
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stranger and purchased the long-empty house at Mistover
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Knap not long before the death of Mrs. Yeobright's husband;
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and with that event and the departure of her son
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such friendship as had grown up became quite broken off.
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"Is there no passage inside the door, then?" asked Eustacia
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as they stood within the porch.
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"No," said the lad who played the Saracen. "The door
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opens right upon the front sitting-room, where the spree's
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going on."
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"So that we cannot open the door without stopping the dance."
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"That's it. Here we must bide till they have done,
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for they always bolt the back door after dark."
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"They won't be much longer," said Father Christmas.
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This assertion, however, was hardly borne out by the event.
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Again the instruments ended the tune; again they
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recommenced with as much fire and pathos as if it were
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the first strain. The air was now that one without
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any particular beginning, middle, or end, which perhaps,
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among all the dances which throng an inspired fiddler's fancy,
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best conveys the idea of the interminable--the celebrated
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"Devil's Dream." The fury of personal movement that was
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kindled by the fury of the notes could be approximately
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imagined by these outsiders under the moon, from the
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occasional kicks of toes and heels against the door,
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whenever the whirl round had been of more than customary velocity.
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The first five minutes of listening was interesting enough
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to the mummers. The five minutes extended to ten minutes,
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and these to a quarter of an hour; but no signs of ceasing were
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audible in the lively "Dream." The bumping against the door,
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the laughter, the stamping, were all as vigorous as ever,
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and the pleasure in being outside lessened considerably.
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"Why does Mrs. Yeobright give parties of this sort?"
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Eustacia asked, a little surprised to hear merriment
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so pronounced.
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"It is not one of her bettermost parlour-parties. She's
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asked the plain neighbours and workpeople without drawing
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any lines, just to give 'em a good supper and such like.
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Her son and she wait upon the folks."
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"I see," said Eustacia.
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"'Tis the last strain, I think," said Saint George,
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with his ear to the panel. "A young man and woman have
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just swung into this corner, and he's saying to her,
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'Ah, the pity; 'tis over for us this time, my own.'"
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"Thank God," said the Turkish Knight, stamping, and taking
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from the wall the conventional lance that each of the
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mummers carried. Her boots being thinner than those of
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the young men, the hoar had damped her feet and made them cold.
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"Upon my song 'tis another ten minutes for us,"
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said the Valiant Soldier, looking through the keyhole
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as the tune modulated into another without stopping.
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"Grandfer Cantle is standing in this corner, waiting his turn."
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"'Twon't be long; 'tis a six-handed reel," said the Doctor.
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"Why not go in, dancing or no? They sent for us,"
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said the Saracen.
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"Certainly not," said Eustacia authoritatively, as she paced
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smartly up and down from door to gate to warm herself.
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"We should burst into the middle of them and stop the dance,
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and that would be unmannerly."
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"He thinks himself somebody because he has had a bit
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more schooling than we," said the Doctor.
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"You may go to the deuce!" said Eustacia.
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There was a whispered conversation between three or four
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of them, and one turned to her.
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"Will you tell us one thing?" he said, not without gentleness.
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"Be you Miss Vye? We think you must be."
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"You may think what you like," said Eustacia slowly.
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"But honourable lads will not tell tales upon a lady."
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"We'll say nothing, miss. That's upon our honour."
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"Thank you," she replied.
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At this moment the fiddles finished off with a screech,
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and the serpent emitted a last note that nearly lifted
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the roof. When, from the comparative quiet within,
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the mummers judged that the dancers had taken their seats,
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Father Christmas advanced, lifted the latch, and put his head
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inside the door.
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"Ah, the mummers, the mummers!" cried several guests at once.
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"Clear a space for the mummers."
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Humpbacked Father Christmas then made a complete entry,
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swinging his huge club, and in a general way clearing the
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|
stage for the actors proper, while he informed the company
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in smart verse that he was come, welcome or welcome not;
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concluding his speech with
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"Make room, make room, my gallant boys,
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And give us space to rhyme;
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We've come to show Saint George's play,
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Upon this Christmas time."
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The guests were now arranging themselves at one end of the room,
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|
the fiddler was mending a string, the serpent-player
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was emptying his mouthpiece, and the play began.
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|
First of those outside the Valiant Soldier entered,
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|
in the interest of Saint George--
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"Here come I, the Valiant Soldier;
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Slasher is my name";
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and so on. This speech concluded with a challenge
|
|
to the infidel, at the end of which it was Eustacia's
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|
duty to enter as the Turkish Knight. She, with the
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|
rest who were not yet on, had hitherto remained
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|
in the moonlight which streamed under the porch.
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|
With no apparent effort or backwardness she came in, beginning--
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"Here come I, a Turkish Knight,
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Who learnt in Turkish land to fight;
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I'll fight this man with courage bold:
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If his blood's hot I'll make it cold!"
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During her declamation Eustacia held her head erect,
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|
and spoke as roughly as she could, feeling pretty secure
|
|
from observation. But the concentration upon her part
|
|
necessary to prevent discovery, the newness of the scene,
|
|
the shine of the candles, and the confusing effect upon
|
|
her vision of the ribboned visor which hid her features,
|
|
left her absolutely unable to perceive who were present
|
|
as spectators. On the further side of a table bearing
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|
candles she could faintly discern faces, and that was all.
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|
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Meanwhile Jim Starks as the Valiant Soldier had
|
|
come forward, and, with a glare upon the Turk, replied--
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"If, then, thou art that Turkish Knight,
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Draw out thy sword, and let us fight!"
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And fight they did; the issue of the combat being that the
|
|
Valiant Soldier was slain by a preternaturally inadequate
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|
thrust from Eustacia, Jim, in his ardour for genuine
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|
histrionic art, coming down like a log upon the stone
|
|
floor with force enough to dislocate his shoulder.
|
|
Then, after more words from the Turkish Knight,
|
|
rather too faintly delivered, and statements that he'd
|
|
fight Saint George and all his crew, Saint George
|
|
himself magnificently entered with the well-known flourish--
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"Here come I, Saint George, the valiant man,
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|
With naked sword and spear in hand,
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|
Who fought the dragon and brought him to the slaughter,
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|
And by this won fair Sabra, the King of Egypt's
|
|
daughter;
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|
What mortal man would dare to stand
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|
Before me with my sword in hand?"
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|
This was the lad who had first recognized Eustacia;
|
|
and when she now, as the Turk, replied with suitable defiance,
|
|
and at once began the combat, the young fellow took especial
|
|
care to use his sword as gently as possible. Being wounded,
|
|
the Knight fell upon one knee, according to the direction.
|
|
The Doctor now entered, restored the Knight by giving him
|
|
a draught from the bottle which he carried, and the fight
|
|
was again resumed, the Turk sinking by degrees until
|
|
quite overcome--dying as hard in this venerable drama
|
|
as he is said to do at the present day.
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|
|
|
This gradual sinking to the earth was, in fact,
|
|
one reason why Eustacia had thought that the part of
|
|
the Turkish Knight, though not the shortest, would suit
|
|
her best. A direct fall from upright to horizontal,
|
|
which was the end of the other fighting characters,
|
|
was not an elegant or decorous part for a girl.
|
|
But it was easy to die like a Turk, by a dogged decline.
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|
|
|
Eustacia was now among the number of the slain, though not
|
|
on the floor, for she had managed to sink into a sloping
|
|
position against the clock-case, so that her head was
|
|
well elevated. The play proceeded between Saint George,
|
|
the Saracen, the Doctor, and Father Christmas; and Eustacia,
|
|
having no more to do, for the first time found leisure
|
|
to observe the scene round, and to search for the form
|
|
that had drawn her hither.
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|
6 - The Two Stand Face to Face
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The room had been arranged with a view to the dancing,
|
|
the large oak table having been moved back till it stood
|
|
as a breastwork to the fireplace. At each end, behind,
|
|
and in the chimney-corner were grouped the guests,
|
|
many of them being warm-faced and panting, among whom
|
|
Eustacia cursorily recognized some well-to-do persons
|
|
from beyond the heath. Thomasin, as she had expected,
|
|
was not visible, and Eustacia recollected that a
|
|
light had shone from an upper window when they were
|
|
outside--the window, probably, of Thomasin's room.
|
|
A nose, chin, hands, knees, and toes projected from the seat
|
|
within the chimney opening, which members she found to unite
|
|
in the person of Grandfer Cantle, Mrs. Yeobright's occasional
|
|
assistant in the garden, and therefore one of the invited.
|
|
The smoke went up from an Etna of peat in front of him,
|
|
played round the notches of the chimney-crook, struck
|
|
against the salt-box, and got lost among the flitches.
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|
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|
Another part of the room soon riveted her gaze.
|
|
At the other side of the chimney stood the settle,
|
|
which is the necessary supplement to a fire so open
|
|
that nothing less than a strong breeze will carry up
|
|
the smoke. It is, to the hearths of old-fashioned
|
|
cavernous fireplaces, what the east belt of trees is to the
|
|
exposed country estate, or the north wall to the garden.
|
|
Outside the settle candles gutter, locks of hair wave,
|
|
young women shiver, and old men sneeze. Inside is Paradise.
|
|
Not a symptom of a draught disturbs the air; the sitters'
|
|
backs are as warm as their faces, and songs and old tales
|
|
are drawn from the occupants by the comfortable heat,
|
|
like fruit from melon plants in a frame.
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|
|
|
It was, however, not with those who sat in the settle that
|
|
Eustacia was concerned. A face showed itself with marked
|
|
distinctness against the dark-tanned wood of the upper part.
|
|
The owner, who was leaning against the settle's outer end,
|
|
was Clement Yeobright, or Clym, as he was called here;
|
|
she knew it could be nobody else. The spectacle constituted
|
|
an area of two feet in Rembrandt's intensest manner.
|
|
A strange power in the lounger's appearance lay in
|
|
the fact that, though his whole figure was visible,
|
|
the observer's eye was only aware of his face.
|
|
|
|
To one of middle age the countenance was that of a young man,
|
|
though a youth might hardly have seen any necessity
|
|
for the term of immaturity. But it was really one of
|
|
those faces which convey less the idea of so many years
|
|
as its age than of so much experience as its store.
|
|
The number of their years may have adequately summed
|
|
up Jared, Mahalaleel, and the rest of the antediluvians,
|
|
but the age of a modern man is to be measured by the
|
|
intensity of his history.
|
|
|
|
The face was well shaped, even excellently. But the mind
|
|
within was beginning to use it as a mere waste tablet whereon
|
|
to trace its idiosyncrasies as they developed themselves.
|
|
The beauty here visible would in no long time be ruthlessly
|
|
over-run by its parasite, thought, which might just as
|
|
well have fed upon a plainer exterior where there was
|
|
nothing it could harm. Had Heaven preserved Yeobright
|
|
from a wearing habit of meditation, people would have said,
|
|
"A handsome man." Had his brain unfolded under sharper
|
|
contours they would have said, "A thoughtful man." But an
|
|
inner strenuousness was preying upon an outer symmetry,
|
|
and they rated his look as singular.
|
|
|
|
Hence people who began by beholding him ended by perusing him.
|
|
His countenance was overlaid with legible meanings.
|
|
Without being thought-worn he yet had certain marks
|
|
derived from a perception of his surroundings, such as
|
|
are not unfrequently found on men at the end of the four
|
|
or five years of endeavour which follow the close
|
|
of placid pupilage. He already showed that thought
|
|
is a disease of flesh, and indirectly bore evidence
|
|
that ideal physical beauty is incompatible with emotional
|
|
development and a full recognition of the coil of things.
|
|
Mental luminousness must be fed with the oil of life,
|
|
even though there is already a physical need for it;
|
|
and the pitiful sight of two demands on one supply was
|
|
just showing itself here.
|
|
|
|
When standing before certain men the philosopher regrets
|
|
that thinkers are but perishable tissue, the artist
|
|
that perishable tissue has to think. Thus to deplore,
|
|
each from his point of view, the mutually destructive
|
|
interdependence of spirit and flesh would have been
|
|
instinctive with these in critically observing Yeobright.
|
|
|
|
As for his look, it was a natural cheerfulness striving
|
|
against depression from without, and not quite succeeding.
|
|
The look suggested isolation, but it revealed something more.
|
|
As is usual with bright natures, the deity that lies
|
|
ignominiously chained within an ephemeral human carcase
|
|
shone out of him like a ray.
|
|
|
|
The effect upon Eustacia was palpable. The extraordinary
|
|
pitch of excitement that she had reached beforehand would,
|
|
indeed, have caused her to be influenced by the most
|
|
commonplace man. She was troubled at Yeobright's presence.
|
|
|
|
The remainder of the play ended--the Saracen's head
|
|
was cut off, and Saint George stood as victor.
|
|
Nobody commented, any more than they would have commented
|
|
on the fact of mushrooms coming in autumn or snowdrops
|
|
in spring. They took the piece as phlegmatically as did
|
|
the actors themselves. It was a phase of cheerfulness
|
|
which was, as a matter of course, to be passed through
|
|
every Christmas; and there was no more to be said.
|
|
|
|
They sang the plaintive chant which follows the play,
|
|
during which all the dead men rise to their feet in a silent
|
|
and awful manner, like the ghosts of Napoleon's soldiers
|
|
in the Midnight Review. Afterwards the door opened,
|
|
and Fairway appeared on the threshold, accompanied by
|
|
Christian and another. They had been waiting outside
|
|
for the conclusion of the play, as the players had waited
|
|
for the conclusion of the dance.
|
|
|
|
"Come in, come in," said Mrs. Yeobright; and Clym went
|
|
forward to welcome them. "How is it you are so late?
|
|
Grandfer Cantle has been here ever so long, and we thought
|
|
you'd have come with him, as you live so near one another."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I should have come earlier," Mr. Fairway said
|
|
and paused to look along the beam of the ceiling for a
|
|
nail to hang his hat on; but, finding his accustomed
|
|
one to be occupied by the mistletoe, and all the nails
|
|
in the walls to be burdened with bunches of holly, he at
|
|
last relieved himself of the hat by ticklishly balancing
|
|
it between the candle-box and the head of the clock-case.
|
|
"I should have come earlier, ma'am," he resumed, with a
|
|
more composed air, "but I know what parties be, and how
|
|
there's none too much room in folks' houses at such times,
|
|
so I thought I wouldn't come till you'd got settled a bit."
|
|
|
|
"And I thought so too, Mrs. Yeobright," said Christian
|
|
earnestly, "but Father there was so eager that he had no
|
|
manners at all, and left home almost afore 'twas dark.
|
|
I told him 'twas barely decent in a' old man to come
|
|
so oversoon; but words be wind."
|
|
|
|
"Klk! I wasn't going to bide waiting about, till half
|
|
the game was over! I'm as light as a kite when anything's
|
|
going on!" crowed Grandfer Cantle from the chimneyseat.
|
|
|
|
Fairway had meanwhile concluded a critical gaze at Yeobright.
|
|
"Now, you may not believe it," he said to the rest of the room,
|
|
"but I should never have knowed this gentleman if I had
|
|
met him anywhere off his own he'th--he's altered so much."
|
|
|
|
"You too have altered, and for the better, I think Timothy,"
|
|
said Yeobright, surveying the firm figure of Fairway.
|
|
|
|
"Master Yeobright, look me over too. I have altered
|
|
for the better, haven't I, hey?" said Grandfer Cantle,
|
|
rising and placing himself something above half a foot
|
|
from Clym's eye, to induce the most searching criticism.
|
|
|
|
"To be sure we will," said Fairway, taking the candle and
|
|
moving it over the surface of the Grandfer's countenance,
|
|
the subject of his scrutiny irradiating himself with light
|
|
and pleasant smiles, and giving himself jerks of juvenility.
|
|
|
|
"You haven't changed much," said Yeobright.
|
|
|
|
"If there's any difference, Grandfer is younger,"
|
|
appended Fairway decisively.
|
|
|
|
"And yet not my own doing, and I feel no pride in it,"
|
|
said the pleased ancient. "But I can't be cured of my vagaries;
|
|
them I plead guilty to. Yes, Master Cantle always was that,
|
|
as we know. But I am nothing by the side of you,
|
|
Mister Clym."
|
|
|
|
"Nor any o' us," said Humphrey, in a low rich tone
|
|
of admiration, not intended to reach anybody's ears.
|
|
|
|
"Really, there would have been nobody here who could
|
|
have stood as decent second to him, or even third,
|
|
if I hadn't been a soldier in the Bang-up Locals (as we
|
|
was called for our smartness)," said Grandfer Cantle.
|
|
"And even as 'tis we all look a little scammish beside him.
|
|
But in the year four 'twas said there wasn't a finer figure
|
|
in the whole South Wessex than I, as I looked when dashing
|
|
past the shop-winders with the rest of our company on
|
|
the day we ran out o' Budmouth because it was thoughted
|
|
that Boney had landed round the point. There was I,
|
|
straight as a young poplar, wi' my firelock, and my bagnet,
|
|
and my spatterdashes, and my stock sawing my jaws off,
|
|
and my accoutrements sheening like the seven stars! Yes,
|
|
neighbours, I was a pretty sight in my soldiering days.
|
|
You ought to have seen me in four!"
|
|
|
|
"'Tis his mother's side where Master Clym's figure comes from,
|
|
bless ye," said Timothy. "I know'd her brothers well.
|
|
Longer coffins were never made in the whole country
|
|
of South Wessex, and 'tis said that poor George's knees
|
|
were crumpled up a little e'en as 'twas."
|
|
|
|
"Coffins, where?" inquired Christian, drawing nearer.
|
|
"Have the ghost of one appeared to anybody, Master Fairway?"
|
|
|
|
"No, no. Don't let your mind so mislead your ears,
|
|
Christian; and be a man," said Timothy reproachfully.
|
|
|
|
"I will." said Christian. "But now I think o't my
|
|
shadder last night seemed just the shape of a coffin.
|
|
What is it a sign of when your shade's like a coffin,
|
|
neighbours? It can't be nothing to be afeared of,
|
|
I suppose?"
|
|
|
|
"Afeared, no!" said the Grandfer. "Faith, I was never
|
|
afeard of nothing except Boney, or I shouldn't ha'
|
|
been the soldier I was. Yes, 'tis a thousand pities you
|
|
didn't see me in four!"
|
|
|
|
By this time the mummers were preparing to leave;
|
|
but Mrs. Yeobright stopped them by asking them to sit
|
|
down and have a little supper. To this invitation
|
|
Father Christmas, in the name of them all, readily agreed.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia was happy in the opportunity of staying a little longer.
|
|
The cold and frosty night without was doubly frigid to her.
|
|
But the lingering was not without its difficulties.
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright, for want of room in the larger apartment,
|
|
placed a bench for the mummers halfway through the pantry door,
|
|
which opened from the sitting-room. Here they seated
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|
themselves in a row, the door being left open--thus they
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were still virtually in the same apartment. Mrs. Yeobright
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now murmured a few words to her son, who crossed the room
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to the pantry door, striking his head against the mistletoe
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as he passed, and brought the mummers beef and bread,
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cake pastry, mead, and elder-wine, the waiting being
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done by him and his mother, that the little maid-servant
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might sit as guest. The mummers doffed their helmets,
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and began to eat and drink.
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"But you will surely have some?" said Clym to the Turkish
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Knight, as he stood before that warrior, tray in hand.
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She had refused, and still sat covered, only the sparkle
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of her eyes being visible between the ribbons which covered her face.
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"None, thank you," replied Eustacia.
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"He's quite a youngster," said the Saracen apologetically,
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"and you must excuse him. He's not one of the old set,
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but have jined us because t'other couldn't come."
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"But he will take something?" persisted Yeobright.
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"Try a glass of mead or elder-wine."
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"Yes, you had better try that," said the Saracen.
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"It will keep the cold out going home-along."
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Though Eustacia could not eat without uncovering her face
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she could drink easily enough beneath her disguise.
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The elder-wine was accordingly accepted, and the glass
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vanished inside the ribbons.
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At moments during this performance Eustacia was half
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|
in doubt about the security of her position; yet it
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|
had a fearful joy. A series of attentions paid to her,
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and yet not to her but to some imaginary person,
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by the first man she had ever been inclined to adore,
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complicated her emotions indescribably. She had loved
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him partly because he was exceptional in this scene,
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partly because she had determined to love him, chiefly
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|
because she was in desperate need of loving somebody
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after wearying of Wildeve. Believing that she must love
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him in spite of herself, she had been influenced after
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|
the fashion of the second Lord Lyttleton and other persons,
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|
who have dreamed that they were to die on a certain day,
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|
and by stress of a morbid imagination have actually brought
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about that event. Once let a maiden admit the possibility
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of her being stricken with love for someone at a certain
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hour and place, and the thing is as good as done.
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Did anything at this moment suggest to Yeobright the sex
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|
of the creature whom that fantastic guise inclosed,
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|
how extended was her scope both in feeling and in making
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|
others feel, and how far her compass transcended that
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|
of her companions in the band? When the disguised Queen
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|
of Love appeared before Aeneas a preternatural perfume
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|
accompanied her presence and betrayed her quality.
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|
If such a mysterious emanation ever was projected by the
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|
emotions of an earthly woman upon their object, it must
|
|
have signified Eustacia's presence to Yeobright now.
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He looked at her wistfully, then seemed to fall into
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|
a reverie, as if he were forgetting what he observed.
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|
The momentary situation ended, he passed on, and Eustacia
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sipped her wine without knowing what she drank.
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|
The man for whom she had pre-determined to nourish
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a passion went into the small room, and across it to the
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|
further extremity.
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The mummers, as has been stated, were seated on a bench,
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|
one end of which extended into the small apartment,
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or pantry, for want of space in the outer room.
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|
Eustacia, partly from shyness, had chosen the midmost seat,
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|
which thus commanded a view of the interior of the pantry
|
|
as well as the room containing the guests. When Clym
|
|
passed down the pantry her eyes followed him in the gloom
|
|
which prevailed there. At the remote end was a door which,
|
|
just as he was about to open it for himself, was opened
|
|
by somebody within; and light streamed forth.
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|
|
|
The person was Thomasin, with a candle, looking anxious,
|
|
pale, and interesting. Yeobright appeared glad to see her,
|
|
and pressed her hand. "That's right, Tamsie," he said
|
|
heartily, as though recalled to himself by the sight
|
|
of her, "you have decided to come down. I am glad of it."
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"Hush--no, no," she said quickly. "I only came to speak
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|
to you."
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|
"But why not join us?"
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"I cannot. At least I would rather not. I am not
|
|
well enough, and we shall have plenty of time together
|
|
now you are going to be home a good long holiday."
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|
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"It isn't nearly so pleasant without you. Are you
|
|
really ill?"
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|
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|
"Just a little, my old cousin--here," she said,
|
|
playfully sweeping her hand across her heart.
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|
|
|
"Ah, Mother should have asked somebody else to be
|
|
present tonight, perhaps?"
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|
|
|
"O no, indeed. I merely stepped down, Clym, to ask you--"
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|
Here he followed her through the doorway into the private
|
|
room beyond, and, the door closing, Eustacia and the
|
|
mummer who sat next to her, the only other witness
|
|
of the performance, saw and heard no more.
|
|
|
|
The heat flew to Eustacia's head and cheeks. She instantly
|
|
guessed that Clym, having been home only these two or
|
|
three days, had not as yet been made acquainted with
|
|
Thomasin's painful situation with regard to Wildeve;
|
|
and seeing her living there just as she had been living
|
|
before he left home, he naturally suspected nothing.
|
|
Eustacia felt a wild jealousy of Thomasin on the instant.
|
|
Though Thomasin might possibly have tender sentiments
|
|
towards another man as yet, how long could they be expected
|
|
to last when she was shut up here with this interesting and
|
|
travelled cousin of hers? There was no knowing what affection
|
|
might not soon break out between the two, so constantly
|
|
in each other's society, and not a distracting object near.
|
|
Clym's boyish love for her might have languished,
|
|
but it might easily be revived again.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia was nettled by her own contrivances. What a
|
|
sheer waste of herself to be dressed thus while another
|
|
was shining to advantage! Had she known the full effect
|
|
of the encounter she would have moved heaven and earth
|
|
to get here in a natural manner. The power of her face
|
|
all lost, the charm of her emotions all disguised,
|
|
the fascinations of her coquetry denied existence,
|
|
nothing but a voice left to her; she had a sense of the
|
|
doom of Echo. "Nobody here respects me," she said.
|
|
She had overlooked the fact that, in coming as a boy among
|
|
other boys, she would be treated as a boy. The slight,
|
|
though of her own causing, and self-explanatory, she
|
|
was unable to dismiss as unwittingly shown, so sensitive
|
|
had the situation made her.
|
|
|
|
Women have done much for themselves in histrionic dress.
|
|
To look far below those who, like a certain fair
|
|
personator of Polly Peachum early in the last century,
|
|
and another of Lydia Languish early in this, [1] have
|
|
won not only love but ducal coronets into the bargain,
|
|
whole shoals of them have reached to the initial
|
|
satisfaction of getting love almost whence they would.
|
|
But the Turkish Knight was denied even the chance of
|
|
achieving this by the fluttering ribbons which she dared
|
|
not brush aside.
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|
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|
[1] Written in 1877.
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|
|
|
Yeobright returned to the room without his cousin.
|
|
When within two or three feet of Eustacia he stopped,
|
|
as if again arrested by a thought. He was gazing at her.
|
|
She looked another way, disconcerted, and wondered how long
|
|
this purgatory was to last. After lingering a few seconds he
|
|
passed on again.
|
|
|
|
To court their own discomfiture by love is a common instinct
|
|
with certain perfervid women. Conflicting sensations
|
|
of love, fear, and shame reduced Eustacia to a state
|
|
of the utmost uneasiness. To escape was her great and
|
|
immediate desire. The other mummers appeared to be in no
|
|
hurry to leave; and murmuring to the lad who sat next to
|
|
her that she preferred waiting for them outside the house,
|
|
she moved to the door as imperceptibly as possible,
|
|
opened it, and slipped out.
|
|
|
|
The calm, lone scene reassured her. She went forward
|
|
to the palings and leant over them, looking at the moon.
|
|
She had stood thus but a little time when the door again opened.
|
|
Expecting to see the remainder of the band Eustacia turned;
|
|
but no--Clym Yeobright came out as softly as she had done,
|
|
and closed the door behind him.
|
|
|
|
He advanced and stood beside her. "I have an odd opinion,"
|
|
he said, "and should like to ask you a question. Are you
|
|
a woman--or am I wrong?"
|
|
|
|
"I am a woman."
|
|
|
|
His eyes lingered on her with great interest. "Do girls
|
|
often play as mummers now? They never used to."
|
|
|
|
"They don't now."
|
|
|
|
"Why did you?"
|
|
|
|
"To get excitement and shake off depression," she said
|
|
in low tones.
|
|
|
|
"What depressed you?"
|
|
|
|
"Life."
|
|
|
|
"That's a cause of depression a good many have to put
|
|
up with."
|
|
|
|
"Yes."
|
|
|
|
A long silence. "And do you find excitement?" asked Clym
|
|
at last.
|
|
|
|
"At this moment, perhaps."
|
|
|
|
"Then you are vexed at being discovered?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; though I thought I might be."
|
|
|
|
"I would gladly have asked you to our party had I known
|
|
you wished to come. Have I ever been acquainted with you
|
|
in my youth?"
|
|
|
|
"Never."
|
|
|
|
"Won't you come in again, and stay as long as you like?"
|
|
|
|
"No. I wish not to be further recognized."
|
|
|
|
"Well, you are safe with me." After remaining in thought a
|
|
minute he added gently, "I will not intrude upon you longer.
|
|
It is a strange way of meeting, and I will not ask why
|
|
I find a cultivated woman playing such a part as this."
|
|
She did not volunteer the reason which he seemed to hope for,
|
|
and he wished her good night, going thence round to the
|
|
back of the house, where he walked up and down by himself
|
|
for some time before re-entering.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia, warmed with an inner fire, could not wait for
|
|
her companions after this. She flung back the ribbons
|
|
from her face, opened the gate, and at once struck into
|
|
the heath. She did not hasten along. Her grandfather
|
|
was in bed at this hour, for she so frequently walked
|
|
upon the hills on moonlight nights that he took no notice
|
|
of her comings and goings, and, enjoying himself in his
|
|
own way, left her to do likewise. A more important
|
|
subject than that of getting indoors now engrossed her.
|
|
Yeobright, if he had the least curiosity, would infallibly
|
|
discover her name. What then? She first felt a sort of
|
|
exultation at the way in which the adventure had terminated,
|
|
even though at moments between her exultations she was
|
|
abashed and blushful. Then this consideration recurred
|
|
to chill her: What was the use of her exploit? She was
|
|
at present a total stranger to the Yeobright family.
|
|
The unreasonable nimbus of romance with which she had
|
|
encircled that man might be her misery. How could she
|
|
allow herself to become so infatuated with a stranger? And
|
|
to fill the cup of her sorrow there would be Thomasin,
|
|
living day after day in inflammable proximity to him;
|
|
for she had just learnt that, contrary to her first belief,
|
|
he was going to stay at home some considerable time.
|
|
|
|
She reached the wicket at Mistover Knap, but before
|
|
opening it she turned and faced the heath once more.
|
|
The form of Rainbarrow stood above the hills, and the moon
|
|
stood above Rainbarrow. The air was charged with silence
|
|
and frost. The scene reminded Eustacia of a circumstance
|
|
which till that moment she had totally forgotten.
|
|
She had promised to meet Wildeve by the Barrow this very
|
|
night at eight, to give a final answer to his pleading
|
|
for an elopement.
|
|
|
|
She herself had fixed the evening and the hour.
|
|
He had probably come to the spot, waited there in the cold,
|
|
and been greatly disappointed.
|
|
|
|
"Well, so much the better--it did not hurt him,"
|
|
she said serenely. Wildeve had at present the rayless
|
|
outline of the sun through smoked glass, and she could
|
|
say such things as that with the greatest facility.
|
|
|
|
She remained deeply pondering; and Thomasin's winning
|
|
manner towards her cousin arose again upon Eustacia's mind.
|
|
|
|
"O that she had been married to Damon before this!"
|
|
she said. "And she would if it hadn't been for me! If I
|
|
had only known--if I had only known!"
|
|
|
|
Eustacia once more lifted her deep stormy eyes to
|
|
the moonlight, and, sighing that tragic sigh of hers
|
|
which was so much like a shudder, entered the shadow
|
|
of the roof. She threw off her trappings in the outhouse,
|
|
rolled them up, and went indoors to her chamber.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
7 - A Coalition between Beauty and Oddness
|
|
|
|
|
|
The old captain's prevailing indifference to his
|
|
granddaughter's movements left her free as a bird to follow
|
|
her own courses; but it so happened that he did take upon
|
|
himself the next morning to ask her why she had walked out so late.
|
|
|
|
"Only in search of events, Grandfather," she said,
|
|
looking out of the window with that drowsy latency of
|
|
manner which discovered so much force behind it whenever
|
|
the trigger was pressed.
|
|
|
|
"Search of events--one would think you were one of the
|
|
bucks I knew at one-and-twenty."
|
|
|
|
"It is lonely here."
|
|
|
|
"So much the better. If I were living in a town my
|
|
whole time would be taken up in looking after you.
|
|
I fully expected you would have been home when I returned
|
|
from the Woman."
|
|
|
|
"I won't conceal what I did. I wanted an adventure,
|
|
and I went with the mummers. I played the part of the
|
|
Turkish Knight."
|
|
|
|
"No, never? Ha, ha! Good gad! I didn't expect it
|
|
of you, Eustacia."
|
|
|
|
"It was my first performance, and it certainly will be
|
|
my last. Now I have told you--and remember it is a secret."
|
|
|
|
"Of course. But, Eustacia, you never did--ha! ha! Dammy,
|
|
how 'twould have pleased me forty years ago! But remember,
|
|
no more of it, my girl. You may walk on the heath night
|
|
or day, as you choose, so that you don't bother me;
|
|
but no figuring in breeches again."
|
|
|
|
"You need have no fear for me, Grandpapa."
|
|
|
|
Here the conversation ceased, Eustacia's moral training
|
|
never exceeding in severity a dialogue of this sort,
|
|
which, if it ever became profitable to good works,
|
|
would be a result not dear at the price. But her thoughts
|
|
soon strayed far from her own personality; and, full of a
|
|
passionate and indescribable solicitude for one to whom
|
|
she was not even a name, she went forth into the amplitude
|
|
of tanned wild around her, restless as Ahasuerus the Jew.
|
|
She was about half a mile from her residence when she
|
|
beheld a sinister redness arising from a ravine a little
|
|
way in advance--dull and lurid like a flame in sunlight
|
|
and she guessed it to signify Diggory Venn.
|
|
|
|
When the farmers who had wished to buy in a new stock
|
|
of reddle during the last month had inquired where Venn
|
|
was to be found, people replied, "On Egdon Heath."
|
|
Day after day the answer was the same. Now, since Egdon
|
|
was populated with heath-croppers and furze-cutters rather
|
|
than with sheep and shepherds, and the downs where most
|
|
of the latter were to be found lay some to the north,
|
|
some to the west of Egdon, his reason for camping
|
|
about there like Israel in Zin was not apparent.
|
|
The position was central and occasionally desirable.
|
|
But the sale of reddle was not Diggory's primary object
|
|
in remaining on the heath, particularly at so late a period
|
|
of the year, when most travellers of his class had gone
|
|
into winter quarters.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia looked at the lonely man. Wildeve had told her
|
|
at their last meeting that Venn had been thrust forward
|
|
by Mrs. Yeobright as one ready and anxious to take his
|
|
place as Thomasin's betrothed. His figure was perfect,
|
|
his face young and well outlined, his eye bright,
|
|
his intelligence keen, and his position one which he could
|
|
readily better if he chose. But in spite of possibilities it
|
|
was not likely that Thomasin would accept this Ishmaelitish
|
|
creature while she had a cousin like Yeobright at her elbow,
|
|
and Wildeve at the same time not absolutely indifferent.
|
|
Eustacia was not long in guessing that poor Mrs. Yeobright,
|
|
in her anxiety for her niece's future, had mentioned
|
|
this lover to stimulate the zeal of the other.
|
|
Eustacia was on the side of the Yeobrights now,
|
|
and entered into the spirit of the aunt's desire.
|
|
|
|
"Good morning, miss," said the reddleman, taking off
|
|
his cap of hareskin, and apparently bearing her no ill-
|
|
will from recollection of their last meeting.
|
|
|
|
"Good morning, reddleman," she said, hardly troubling
|
|
to lift her heavily shaded eyes to his. "I did not know
|
|
you were so near. Is your van here too?"
|
|
|
|
Venn moved his elbow towards a hollow in which a dense
|
|
brake of purple-stemmed brambles had grown to such vast
|
|
dimensions as almost to form a dell. Brambles, though
|
|
churlish when handled, are kindly shelter in early winter,
|
|
being the latest of the deciduous bushes to lose their leaves.
|
|
|
|
The roof and chimney of Venn's caravan showed behind
|
|
the tracery and tangles of the brake.
|
|
|
|
"You remain near this part?" she asked with more interest.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I have business here."
|
|
|
|
"Not altogether the selling of reddle?"
|
|
|
|
"It has nothing to do with that."
|
|
|
|
"It has to do with Miss Yeobright?"
|
|
|
|
Her face seemed to ask for an armed peace, and he therefore
|
|
said frankly, "Yes, miss; it is on account of her."
|
|
|
|
"On account of your approaching marriage with her?"
|
|
|
|
Venn flushed through his stain. "Don't make sport of me,
|
|
Miss Vye," he said.
|
|
|
|
"It isn't true?"
|
|
|
|
"Certainly not."
|
|
|
|
She was thus convinced that the reddleman was a mere
|
|
pis aller in Mrs. Yeobright's mind; one, moreover,
|
|
who had not even been informed of his promotion to
|
|
that lowly standing. "It was a mere notion of mine,"
|
|
she said quietly; and was about to pass by without
|
|
further speech, when, looking round to the right, she saw
|
|
a painfully well-known figure serpentining upwards by one
|
|
of the little paths which led to the top where she stood.
|
|
Owing to the necessary windings of his course his back
|
|
was at present towards them. She glanced quickly round;
|
|
to escape that man there was only one way. Turning to Venn,
|
|
she said, "Would you allow me to rest a few minutes
|
|
in your van? The banks are damp for sitting on."
|
|
|
|
"Certainly, miss; I'll make a place for you."
|
|
|
|
She followed him behind the dell of brambles to his wheeled
|
|
dwelling into which Venn mounted, placing the three-legged
|
|
stool just within the door.
|
|
|
|
"That is the best I can do for you," he said, stepping down
|
|
and retiring to the path, where he resumed the smoking
|
|
of his pipe as he walked up and down.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia bounded into the vehicle and sat on the stool,
|
|
ensconced from view on the side towards the trackway.
|
|
Soon she heard the brushing of other feet than the
|
|
reddleman's, a not very friendly "Good day" uttered by
|
|
two men in passing each other, and then the dwindling
|
|
of the foot-fall of one of them in a direction onwards.
|
|
Eustacia stretched her neck forward till she caught
|
|
a glimpse of a receding back and shoulders; and she
|
|
felt a wretched twinge of misery, she knew not why.
|
|
It was the sickening feeling which, if the changed
|
|
heart has any generosity at all in its composition,
|
|
accompanies the sudden sight of a once-loved one who is
|
|
beloved no more.
|
|
|
|
When Eustacia descended to proceed on her way
|
|
the reddleman came near. "That was Mr. Wildeve
|
|
who passed, miss," he said slowly, and expressed by
|
|
his face that he expected her to feel vexed at having
|
|
been sitting unseen.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I saw him coming up the hill," replied Eustacia.
|
|
"Why should you tell me that?" It was a bold question,
|
|
considering the reddleman's knowledge of her past love;
|
|
but her undemonstrative manner had power to repress the
|
|
opinions of those she treated as remote from her.
|
|
|
|
"I am glad to hear that you can ask it," said the
|
|
reddleman bluntly. "And, now I think of it, it agrees
|
|
with what I saw last night."
|
|
|
|
"Ah--what was that?" Eustacia wished to leave him,
|
|
but wished to know.
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Wildeve stayed at Rainbarrow a long time waiting
|
|
for a lady who didn't come."
|
|
|
|
"You waited too, it seems?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I always do. I was glad to see him disappointed.
|
|
He will be there again tonight."
|
|
|
|
"To be again disappointed. The truth is, reddleman, that that lady,
|
|
so far from wishing to stand in the way of Thomasin's
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marriage with Mr. Wildeve, would be very glad to promote it."
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Venn felt much astonishment at this avowal, though he did
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not show it clearly; that exhibition may greet remarks
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which are one remove from expectation, but it is usually
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withheld in complicated cases of two removes and upwards.
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"Indeed, miss," he replied.
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"How do you know that Mr. Wildeve will come to Rainbarrow
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again tonight?" she asked.
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"I heard him say to himself that he would. He's in
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a regular temper."
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Eustacia looked for a moment what she felt, and she murmured,
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lifting her deep dark eyes anxiously to his, "I wish I
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knew what to do. I don't want to be uncivil to him;
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but I don't wish to see him again; and I have some few
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little things to return to him."
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"If you choose to send 'em by me, miss, and a note
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to tell him that you wish to say no more to him,
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I'll take it for you quite privately. That would
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be the most straightforward way of letting him know your mind."
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"Very well," said Eustacia. "Come towards my house,
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and I will bring it out to you."
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She went on, and as the path was an infinitely small
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parting in the shaggy locks of the heath, the reddleman
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followed exactly in her trail. She saw from a distance
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that the captain was on the bank sweeping the horizon
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with his telescope; and bidding Venn to wait where he
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stood she entered the house alone.
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In ten minutes she returned with a parcel and a note,
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and said, in placing them in his hand, "Why are you so
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ready to take these for me?"
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"Can you ask that?"
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"I suppose you think to serve Thomasin in some way by it.
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Are you as anxious as ever to help on her marriage?"
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Venn was a little moved. "I would sooner have married
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her myself," he said in a low voice. "But what I feel
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is that if she cannot be happy without him I will do
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my duty in helping her to get him, as a man ought."
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Eustacia looked curiously at the singular man who spoke thus.
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What a strange sort of love, to be entirely free
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from that quality of selfishness which is frequently
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the chief constituent of the passion, and sometimes
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its only one! The reddleman's disinterestedness was
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so well deserving of respect that it overshot respect
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by being barely comprehended; and she almost thought it absurd.
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"Then we are both of one mind at last," she said.
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"Yes," replied Venn gloomily. "But if you would
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tell me, miss, why you take such an interest in her,
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I should be easier. It is so sudden and strange."
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Eustacia appeared at a loss. "I cannot tell you that,
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reddleman," she said coldly.
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Venn said no more. He pocketed the letter, and,
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bowing to Eustacia, went away.
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Rainbarrow had again become blended with night when
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Wildeve ascended the long acclivity at its base.
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On his reaching the top a shape grew up from the earth
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immediately behind him. It was that of Eustacia's emissary.
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He slapped Wildeve on the shoulder. The feverish young
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inn-keeper and ex-engineer started like Satan at the touch
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of Ithuriel's spear.
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"The meeting is always at eight o'clock, at this place,"
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said Venn, "and here we are--we three."
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"We three?" said Wildeve, looking quickly round.
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"Yes; you, and I, and she. This is she." He held up
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the letter and parcel.
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Wildeve took them wonderingly. "I don't quite see
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what this means," he said. "How do you come here?
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There must be some mistake."
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"It will be cleared from your mind when you have read
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the letter. Lanterns for one." The reddleman struck a light,
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kindled an inch of tallow-candle which he had brought,
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and sheltered it with his cap.
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"Who are you?" said Wildeve, discerning by the candle-
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|
light an obscure rubicundity of person in his companion.
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|
"You are the reddleman I saw on the hill this morning--why,
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you are the man who----"
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"Please read the letter."
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"If you had come from the other one I shouldn't have
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been surprised," murmured Wildeve as he opened the letter
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and read. His face grew serious.
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TO MR. WILDEVE.
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After some thought I have decided once and for all that we
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|
must hold no further communication. The more I consider
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|
the matter the more I am convinced that there must
|
|
be an end to our acquaintance. Had you been uniformly
|
|
faithful to me throughout these two years you might
|
|
now have some ground for accusing me of heartlessness;
|
|
but if you calmly consider what I bore during the period
|
|
of your desertion, and how I passively put up with your
|
|
courtship of another without once interfering, you will,
|
|
I think, own that I have a right to consult my own
|
|
feelings when you come back to me again. That these are
|
|
not what they were towards you may, perhaps, be a fault
|
|
in me, but it is one which you can scarcely reproach
|
|
me for when you remember how you left me for Thomasin.
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|
The little articles you gave me in the early part of our
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|
friendship are returned by the bearer of this letter.
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|
They should rightly have been sent back when I first heard
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of your engagement to her.
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EUSTACIA.
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By the time that Wildeve reached her name the blankness
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|
with which he had read the first half of the letter
|
|
intensified to mortification. "I am made a great fool of,
|
|
one way and another," he said pettishly. "Do you know
|
|
what is in this letter?"
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|
The reddleman hummed a tune.
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|
"Can't you answer me?" asked Wildeve warmly.
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|
"Ru-um-tum-tum," sang the reddleman.
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|
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|
Wildeve stood looking on the ground beside Venn's feet,
|
|
till he allowed his eyes to travel upwards over Diggory's form,
|
|
as illuminated by the candle, to his head and face.
|
|
"Ha-ha! Well, I suppose I deserve it, considering how I have
|
|
played with them both," he said at last, as much to himself
|
|
as to Venn. "But of all the odd things that ever I knew,
|
|
the oddest is that you should so run counter to your own
|
|
interests as to bring this to me."
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|
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|
"My interests?"
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|
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|
"Certainly. 'Twas your interest not to do anything
|
|
which would send me courting Thomasin again, now she
|
|
has accepted you--or something like it. Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
says you are to marry her. 'Tisn't true, then?"
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|
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|
"Good Lord! I heard of this before, but didn't believe it.
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|
When did she say so?"
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|
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|
Wildeve began humming as the reddleman had done.
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|
"I don't believe it now," cried Venn.
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|
"Ru-um-tum-tum," sang Wildeve.
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|
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|
"O Lord--how we can imitate!" said Venn contemptuously.
|
|
"I'll have this out. I'll go straight to her."
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|
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|
Diggory withdrew with an emphatic step, Wildeve's eye
|
|
passing over his form in withering derision, as if he
|
|
were no more than a heath-cropper. When the reddleman's
|
|
figure could no longer be seen, Wildeve himself descended
|
|
and plunged into the rayless hollow of the vale.
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|
|
|
To lose the two women--he who had been the well-beloved
|
|
of both--was too ironical an issue to be endured.
|
|
He could only decently save himself by Thomasin;
|
|
and once he became her husband, Eustacia's repentance,
|
|
he thought, would set in for a long and bitter term.
|
|
It was no wonder that Wildeve, ignorant of the new man
|
|
at the back of the scene, should have supposed Eustacia
|
|
to be playing a part. To believe that the letter was not
|
|
the result of some momentary pique, to infer that she really
|
|
gave him up to Thomasin, would have required previous
|
|
knowledge of her transfiguration by that man's influence.
|
|
Who was to know that she had grown generous in the greediness
|
|
of a new passion, that in coveting one cousin she was
|
|
dealing liberally with another, that in her eagerness to
|
|
appropriate she gave way?
|
|
|
|
Full of this resolve to marry in haste, and wring
|
|
the heart of the proud girl, Wildeve went his way.
|
|
|
|
Meanwhile Diggory Venn had returned to his van,
|
|
where he stood looking thoughtfully into the stove.
|
|
A new vista was opened up to him. But, however promising
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright's views of him might be as a candidate for her
|
|
niece's hand, one condition was indispensable to the favour
|
|
of Thomasin herself, and that was a renunciation of his
|
|
present wild mode of life. In this he saw little difficulty.
|
|
|
|
He could not afford to wait till the next day before seeing
|
|
Thomasin and detailing his plan. He speedily plunged
|
|
himself into toilet operations, pulled a suit of cloth
|
|
clothes from a box, and in about twenty minutes stood before
|
|
the van-lantern as a reddleman in nothing but his face,
|
|
the vermilion shades of which were not to be removed in
|
|
a day. Closing the door and fastening it with a padlock,
|
|
Venn set off towards Blooms-End.
|
|
|
|
He had reached the white palings and laid his hand
|
|
upon the gate when the door of the house opened,
|
|
and quickly closed again. A female form had glided in.
|
|
At the same time a man, who had seemingly been standing
|
|
with the woman in the porch, came forward from the house
|
|
till he was face to face with Venn. It was Wildeve again.
|
|
|
|
"Man alive, you've been quick at it," said Diggory sarcastically.
|
|
|
|
"And you slow, as you will find," said Wildeve.
|
|
"And," lowering his voice, "you may as well go
|
|
back again now. I've claimed her, and got her.
|
|
Good night, reddleman!" Thereupon Wildeve walked away.
|
|
|
|
Venn's heart sank within him, though it had not risen
|
|
unduly high. He stood leaning over the palings in
|
|
an indecisive mood for nearly a quarter of an hour.
|
|
Then he went up the garden path, knocked, and asked
|
|
for Mrs. Yeobright.
|
|
|
|
Instead of requesting him to enter she came to the porch.
|
|
A discourse was carried on between them in low measured
|
|
tones for the space of ten minutes or more. At the end
|
|
of the time Mrs. Yeobright went in, and Venn sadly retraced
|
|
his steps into the heath. When he had again regained
|
|
his van he lit the lantern, and with an apathetic face
|
|
at once began to pull off his best clothes, till in the
|
|
course of a few minutes he reappeared as the confirmed
|
|
and irretrievable reddleman that he had seemed before.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
8 - Firmness Is Discovered in a Gentle Heart
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|
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|
|
|
On that evening the interior of Blooms-End, though cosy
|
|
and comfortable, had been rather silent. Clym Yeobright
|
|
was not at home. Since the Christmas party he had gone
|
|
on a few days' visit to a friend about ten miles off.
|
|
|
|
The shadowy form seen by Venn to part from Wildeve
|
|
in the porch, and quickly withdraw into the house,
|
|
was Thomasin's. On entering she threw down a cloak which
|
|
had been carelessly wrapped round her, and came forward
|
|
to the light, where Mrs. Yeobright sat at her work-table,
|
|
drawn up within the settle, so that part of it projected
|
|
into the chimney-corner.
|
|
|
|
"I don't like your going out after dark alone, Tamsin,"
|
|
said her aunt quietly, without looking up from her work.
|
|
"I have only been just outside the door."
|
|
|
|
"Well?" inquired Mrs. Yeobright, struck by a change
|
|
in the tone of Thomasin's voice, and observing her.
|
|
Thomasin's cheek was flushed to a pitch far beyond
|
|
that which it had reached before her troubles, and her
|
|
eyes glittered.
|
|
|
|
"It was HE who knocked," she said.
|
|
|
|
"I thought as much."
|
|
|
|
"He wishes the marriage to be at once."
|
|
|
|
"Indeed! What--is he anxious?" Mrs. Yeobright directed
|
|
a searching look upon her niece. "Why did not Mr. Wildeve
|
|
come in?"
|
|
|
|
"He did not wish to. You are not friends with him, he says.
|
|
He would like the wedding to be the day after tomorrow,
|
|
quite privately; at the church of his parish--not
|
|
at ours."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! And what did you say?"
|
|
|
|
"I agreed to it," Thomasin answered firmly. "I am a
|
|
practical woman now. I don't believe in hearts at all.
|
|
I would marry him under any circumstances since--since
|
|
Clym's letter."
|
|
|
|
A letter was lying on Mrs. Yeobright's work-basket, and
|
|
at Thomasin's words her aunt reopened it, and silently
|
|
read for the tenth time that day:--
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
What is the meaning of this silly story that people are
|
|
circulating about Thomasin and Mr. Wildeve? I should call
|
|
such a scandal humiliating if there was the least chance
|
|
of its being true. How could such a gross falsehood
|
|
have arisen? It is said that one should go abroad
|
|
to hear news of home, and I appear to have done it.
|
|
Of course I contradict the tale everywhere; but it is
|
|
very vexing, and I wonder how it could have originated.
|
|
It is too ridiculous that such a girl as Thomasin could
|
|
so mortify us as to get jilted on the wedding day.
|
|
What has she done?
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
"Yes," Mrs. Yeobright said sadly, putting down the letter.
|
|
"If you think you can marry him, do so. And since Mr. Wildeve
|
|
wishes it to be unceremonious, let it be that too.
|
|
I can do nothing. It is all in your own hands now.
|
|
My power over your welfare came to an end when you left
|
|
this house to go with him to Anglebury." She continued,
|
|
half in bitterness, "I may almost ask, why do you consult
|
|
me in the matter at all? If you had gone and married
|
|
him without saying a word to me, I could hardly have
|
|
been angry--simply because, poor girl, you can't do a
|
|
better thing."
|
|
|
|
"Don't say that and dishearten me."
|
|
|
|
"You are right--I will not."
|
|
|
|
"I do not plead for him, Aunt. Human nature is weak,
|
|
and I am not a blind woman to insist that he is perfect.
|
|
I did think so, but I don't now. But I know my course,
|
|
and you know that I know it. I hope for the best."
|
|
|
|
"And so do I, and we will both continue to," said Mrs. Yeobright,
|
|
rising and kissing her. "Then the wedding, if it comes off,
|
|
will be on the morning of the very day Clym comes home?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. I decided that it ought to be over before he came.
|
|
After that you can look him in the face, and so can I. Our
|
|
concealments will matter nothing."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright moved her head in thoughtful assent,
|
|
and presently said, "Do you wish me to give you away?
|
|
I am willing to undertake that, you know, if you wish,
|
|
as I was last time. After once forbidding the banns I
|
|
think I can do no less."
|
|
|
|
"I don't think I will ask you to come," said Thomasin
|
|
reluctantly, but with decision. "It would be unpleasant,
|
|
I am almost sure. Better let there be only strangers present,
|
|
and none of my relations at all. I would rather have it so.
|
|
I do not wish to do anything which may touch your credit,
|
|
and I feel that I should be uncomfortable if you were there,
|
|
after what has passed. I am only your niece, and there
|
|
is no necessity why you should concern yourself more about me."
|
|
|
|
"Well, he has beaten us," her aunt said. "It really
|
|
seems as if he had been playing with you in this way
|
|
in revenge for my humbling him as I did by standing
|
|
up against him at first."
|
|
|
|
"O no, Aunt," murmured Thomasin.
|
|
|
|
They said no more on the subject then. Diggory Venn's knock
|
|
came soon after; and Mrs. Yeobright, on returning from
|
|
her interview with him in the porch, carelessly observed,
|
|
"Another lover has come to ask for you."
|
|
|
|
"No?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, that queer young man Venn."
|
|
|
|
"Asks to pay his addresses to me?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes; and I told him he was too late."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin looked silently into the candle-flame. "Poor Diggory!"
|
|
she said, and then aroused herself to other things.
|
|
|
|
The next day was passed in mere mechanical deeds of preparation,
|
|
both the women being anxious to immerse themselves in
|
|
these to escape the emotional aspect of the situation.
|
|
Some wearing apparel and other articles were collected
|
|
anew for Thomasin, and remarks on domestic details were
|
|
frequently made, so as to obscure any inner misgivings
|
|
about her future as Wildeve's wife.
|
|
|
|
The appointed morning came. The arrangement with Wildeve
|
|
was that he should meet her at the church to guard against
|
|
any unpleasant curiosity which might have affected them
|
|
had they been seen walking off together in the usual
|
|
country way.
|
|
|
|
Aunt and niece stood together in the bedroom where the bride
|
|
was dressing. The sun, where it could catch it, made a
|
|
mirror of Thomasin's hair, which she always wore braided.
|
|
It was braided according to a calendar system--the more
|
|
important the day the more numerous the strands in the braid.
|
|
On ordinary working-days she braided it in threes;
|
|
on ordinary Sundays in fours; at Maypolings, gipsyings,
|
|
and the like, she braided it in fives. Years ago she had
|
|
said that when she married she would braid it in sevens.
|
|
She had braided it in sevens today.
|
|
|
|
"I have been thinking that I will wear my blue silk after all,"
|
|
she said. "It is my wedding day, even though there may
|
|
be something sad about the time. I mean," she added,
|
|
anxious to correct any wrong impression, "not sad in itself,
|
|
but in its having had great disappointment and trouble
|
|
before it."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright breathed in a way which might have been called
|
|
a sigh. "I almost wish Clym had been at home," she said.
|
|
"Of course you chose the time because of his absence."
|
|
|
|
"Partly. I have felt that I acted unfairly to him in not
|
|
telling him all; but, as it was done not to grieve him,
|
|
I thought I would carry out the plan to its end, and tell
|
|
the whole story when the sky was clear."
|
|
|
|
"You are a practical little woman," said Mrs. Yeobright, smiling.
|
|
"I wish you and he--no, I don't wish anything. There, it is
|
|
nine o'clock," she interrupted, hearing a whizz and a dinging
|
|
downstairs.
|
|
|
|
"I told Damon I would leave at nine," said Thomasin,
|
|
hastening out of the room.
|
|
|
|
Her aunt followed. When Thomasin was going up the little
|
|
walk from the door to the wicket-gate, Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
looked reluctantly at her, and said, "It is a shame
|
|
to let you go alone."
|
|
|
|
"It is necessary," said Thomasin.
|
|
|
|
"At any rate," added her aunt with forced cheerfulness, "I shall
|
|
call upon you this afternoon, and bring the cake with me.
|
|
If Clym has returned by that time he will perhaps come too.
|
|
I wish to show Mr. Wildeve that I bear him no ill-will.
|
|
Let the past be forgotten. Well, God bless you! There,
|
|
I don't believe in old superstitions, but I'll do it."
|
|
She threw a slipper at the retreating figure of the girl,
|
|
who turned, smiled, and went on again.
|
|
|
|
A few steps further, and she looked back. "Did you
|
|
call me, Aunt?" she tremulously inquired. "Good-bye!"
|
|
|
|
Moved by an uncontrollable feeling as she looked upon
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright's worn, wet face, she ran back, when her
|
|
aunt came forward, and they met again. "O--Tamsie," said
|
|
the elder, weeping, "I don't like to let you go."
|
|
|
|
"I--I am--" Thomasin began, giving way likewise.
|
|
But, quelling her grief, she said "Good-bye!" again and went on.
|
|
|
|
Then Mrs. Yeobright saw a little figure wending its way
|
|
between the scratching furze-bushes, and diminishing far up
|
|
the valley--a pale-blue spot in a vast field of neutral brown,
|
|
solitary and undefended except by the power of her own hope.
|
|
|
|
But the worst feature in the case was one which did
|
|
not appear in the landscape; it was the man.
|
|
|
|
The hour chosen for the ceremony by Thomasin and Wildeve had
|
|
been so timed as to enable her to escape the awkwardness of
|
|
meeting her cousin Clym, who was returning the same morning.
|
|
To own to the partial truth of what he had heard would be
|
|
distressing as long as the humiliating position resulting
|
|
from the event was unimproved. It was only after a second
|
|
and successful journey to the altar that she could lift
|
|
up her head and prove the failure of the first attempt
|
|
a pure accident.
|
|
|
|
She had not been gone from Blooms-End more than half
|
|
an hour when Yeobright came by the meads from the other
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direction and entered the house.
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"I had an early breakfast," he said to his mother after
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greeting her. "Now I could eat a little more."
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They sat down to the repeated meal, and he went on in
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a low, anxious voice, apparently imagining that Thomasin
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had not yet come downstairs, "What's this I have heard
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about Thomasin and Mr. Wildeve?"
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"It is true in many points," said Mrs. Yeobright quietly;
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"but it is all right now, I hope." She looked at the clock.
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"True?"
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"Thomasin is gone to him today."
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Clym pushed away his breakfast. "Then there is a scandal
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of some sort, and that's what's the matter with Thomasin.
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Was it this that made her ill?"
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"Yes. Not a scandal--a misfortune. I will tell you all
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about it, Clym. You must not be angry, but you must listen,
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and you'll find that what we have done has been done
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for the best."
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She then told him the circumstances. All that he had known
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of the affair before he returned from Paris was that there
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had existed an attachment between Thomasin and Wildeve,
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which his mother had at first discountenanced, but had since,
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owing to the arguments of Thomasin, looked upon in a little
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more favourable light. When she, therefore, proceeded
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to explain all he was greatly surprised and troubled.
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"And she determined that the wedding should be over
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before you came back," said Mrs. Yeobright, "that there
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might be no chance of her meeting you, and having a very
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painful time of it. That's why she has gone to him;
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they have arranged to be married this morning."
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"But I can't understand it," said Yeobright, rising.
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"'Tis so unlike her. I can see why you did not write
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to me after her unfortunate return home. But why didn't
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you let me know when the wedding was going to be--the
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first time?"
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"Well, I felt vexed with her just then. She seemed to me
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to be obstinate; and when I found that you were nothing
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in her mind I vowed that she should be nothing in yours.
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I felt that she was only my niece after all; I told her she
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might marry, but that I should take no interest in it,
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and should not bother you about it either."
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"It wouldn't have been bothering me. Mother, you did wrong."
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"I thought it might disturb you in your business, and that
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you might throw up your situation, or injure your prospects
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in some way because of it, so I said nothing. Of course,
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if they had married at that time in a proper manner,
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I should have told you at once."
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"Tamsin actually being married while we are sitting here!"
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"Yes. Unless some accident happens again, as it did
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the first time. It may, considering he's the same man."
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"Yes, and I believe it will. Was it right to let her go?
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Suppose Wildeve is really a bad fellow?"
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"Then he won't come, and she'll come home again."
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"You should have looked more into it."
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"It is useless to say that," his mother answered with an
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impatient look of sorrow. "You don't know how bad it has
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been here with us all these weeks, Clym. You don't know
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what a mortification anything of that sort is to a woman.
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You don't know the sleepless nights we've had in this house,
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and the almost bitter words that have passed between us
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since that Fifth of November. I hope never to pass seven
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such weeks again. Tamsin has not gone outside the door,
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and I have been ashamed to look anybody in the face;
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and now you blame me for letting her do the only thing that
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can be done to set that trouble straight."
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"No," he said slowly. "Upon the whole I don't blame you.
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But just consider how sudden it seems to me. Here was I,
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knowing nothing; and then I am told all at once that Tamsie
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is gone to be married. Well, I suppose there was nothing
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better to do. Do you know, Mother," he continued after
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a moment or two, looking suddenly interested in his own
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past history, "I once thought of Tamsin as a sweetheart? Yes,
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I did. How odd boys are! And when I came home and saw
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her this time she seemed so much more affectionate
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than usual, that I was quite reminded of those days,
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particularly on the night of the party, when she was unwell.
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We had the party just the same--was not that rather cruel
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to her?"
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"It made no difference. I had arranged to give one, and it
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was not worth while to make more gloom than necessary.
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To begin by shutting ourselves up and telling you of Tamsin's
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misfortunes would have been a poor sort of welcome."
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Clym remained thinking. "I almost wish you had not had
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that party," he said; "and for other reasons. But I will
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tell you in a day or two. We must think of Tamsin now."
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They lapsed into silence. "I'll tell you what,"
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said Yeobright again, in a tone which showed some slumbering
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feeling still. "I don't think it kind to Tamsin to let
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her be married like this, and neither of us there to keep
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up her spirits or care a bit about her. She hasn't
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disgraced herself, or done anything to deserve that.
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It is bad enough that the wedding should be so hurried
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and unceremonious, without our keeping away from it
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in addition. Upon my soul, 'tis almost a shame.
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I'll go."
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"It is over by this time," said his mother with a sigh;
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"unless they were late, or he--"
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"Then I shall be soon enough to see them come out.
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I don't quite like your keeping me in ignorance, Mother,
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after all. Really, I half hope he has failed to meet her!"
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"And ruined her character?"
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"Nonsense--that wouldn't ruin Thomasin."
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He took up his hat and hastily left the house.
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Mrs. Yeobright looked rather unhappy, and sat still,
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deep in thought. But she was not long left alone.
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A few minutes later Clym came back again, and in his company
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came Diggory Venn.
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"I find there isn't time for me to get there," said Clym.
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"Is she married?" Mrs. Yeobright inquired, turning to the
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reddleman a face in which a strange strife of wishes,
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for and against, was apparent.
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Venn bowed. "She is, ma'am."
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"How strange it sounds," murmured Clym.
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"And he didn't disappoint her this time?" said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"He did not. And there is now no slight on her name.
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I was hastening ath'art to tell you at once, as I saw you
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were not there."
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"How came you to be there? How did you know it?"
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she asked.
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"I have been in that neighbourhood for some time, and I
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saw them go in," said the reddleman. "Wildeve came up
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to the door, punctual as the clock. I didn't expect
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it of him." He did not add, as he might have added,
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that how he came to be in that neighbourhood was not
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|
by accident; that, since Wildeve's resumption of his right
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to Thomasin, Venn, with the thoroughness which was part
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of his character, had determined to see the end of the episode.
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"Who was there?" said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"Nobody hardly. I stood right out of the way, and she
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did not see me." The reddleman spoke huskily, and looked
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into the garden.
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"Who gave her away?"
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"Miss Vye."
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"How very remarkable! Miss Vye! It is to be considered
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an honour, I suppose?"
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"Who's Miss Vye?" said Clym.
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"Captain Vye's granddaughter, of Mistover Knap."
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"A proud girl from Budmouth," said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"One not much to my liking. People say she's a witch,
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but of course that's absurd."
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The reddleman kept to himself his acquaintance with that
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fair personage, and also that Eustacia was there because he
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went to fetch her, in accordance with a promise he had given
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as soon as he learnt that the marriage was to take place.
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He merely said, in continuation of the story----
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"I was sitting on the churchyard wall when they came up,
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one from one way, the other from the other; and Miss Vye
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was walking thereabouts, looking at the headstones.
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|
As soon as they had gone in I went to the door, feeling I
|
|
should like to see it, as I knew her so well. I pulled
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|
off my boots because they were so noisy, and went up into
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the gallery. I saw then that the parson and clerk were
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|
already there."
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"How came Miss Vye to have anything to do with it,
|
|
if she was only on a walk that way?"
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"Because there was nobody else. She had gone into the church
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|
just before me, not into the gallery. The parson looked
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|
round before beginning, and as she was the only one near he
|
|
beckoned to her, and she went up to the rails. After that,
|
|
when it came to signing the book, she pushed up her veil
|
|
and signed; and Tamsin seemed to thank her for her kindness."
|
|
The reddleman told the tale thoughtfully for there
|
|
lingered upon his vision the changing colour of Wildeve,
|
|
when Eustacia lifted the thick veil which had concealed
|
|
her from recognition and looked calmly into his face.
|
|
"And then," said Diggory sadly, "I came away, for her
|
|
history as Tamsin Yeobright was over."
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"I offered to go," said Mrs. Yeobright regretfully.
|
|
"But she said it was not necessary."
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"Well, it is no matter," said the reddleman. "The thing
|
|
is done at last as it was meant to be at first, and God
|
|
send her happiness. Now I'll wish you good morning."
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He placed his cap on his head and went out.
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|
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|
From that instant of leaving Mrs. Yeobright's door,
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|
the reddleman was seen no more in or about Egdon Heath
|
|
for a space of many months. He vanished entirely.
|
|
The nook among the brambles where his van had been
|
|
standing was as vacant as ever the next morning,
|
|
and scarcely a sign remained to show that he had been there,
|
|
excepting a few straws, and a little redness on the turf,
|
|
which was washed away by the next storm of rain.
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|
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|
The report that Diggory had brought of the wedding,
|
|
correct as far as it went, was deficient in one
|
|
significant particular, which had escaped him through his
|
|
being at some distance back in the church. When Thomasin
|
|
was tremblingly engaged in signing her name Wildeve
|
|
had flung towards Eustacia a glance that said plainly,
|
|
"I have punished you now." She had replied in a low
|
|
tone--and he little thought how truly--"You mistake;
|
|
it gives me sincerest pleasure to see her your wife today."
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book three
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THE FASCINATION
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1 - "My Mind to Me a Kingdom Is"
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In Clym Yeobright's face could be dimly seen the typical
|
|
countenance of the future. Should there be a classic period
|
|
to art hereafter, its Pheidias may produce such faces.
|
|
The view of life as a thing to be put up with, replacing that
|
|
zest for existence which was so intense in early civilizations,
|
|
must ultimately enter so thoroughly into the constitution
|
|
of the advanced races that its facial expression will become
|
|
accepted as a new artistic departure. People already feel
|
|
that a man who lives without disturbing a curve of feature,
|
|
or setting a mark of mental concern anywhere upon himself,
|
|
is too far removed from modern perceptiveness to be a
|
|
modern type. Physically beautiful men--the glory of the
|
|
race when it was young--are almost an anachronism now;
|
|
and we may wonder whether, at some time or other,
|
|
physically beautiful women may not be an anachronism likewise.
|
|
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|
The truth seems to be that a long line of disillusive
|
|
centuries has permanently displaced the Hellenic idea
|
|
of life, or whatever it may be called. What the Greeks
|
|
only suspected we know well; what their Aeschylus
|
|
imagined our nursery children feel. That old-fashioned
|
|
revelling in the general situation grows less and less
|
|
possible as we uncover the defects of natural laws,
|
|
and see the quandary that man is in by their operation.
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|
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|
The lineaments which will get embodied in ideals based
|
|
upon this new recognition will probably be akin to
|
|
those of Yeobright. The observer's eye was arrested,
|
|
not by his face as a picture, but by his face as a page;
|
|
not by what it was, but by what it recorded. His features
|
|
were attractive in the light of symbols, as sounds
|
|
intrinsically common become attractive in language,
|
|
and as shapes intrinsically simple become interesting
|
|
in writing.
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|
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|
He had been a lad of whom something was expected.
|
|
Beyond this all had been chaos. That he would be
|
|
successful in an original way, or that he would go to
|
|
the dogs in an original way, seemed equally probable.
|
|
The only absolute certainty about him was that he would
|
|
not stand still in the circumstances amid which he was born.
|
|
|
|
Hence, when his name was casually mentioned by neighbouring
|
|
yeomen, the listener said, "Ah, Clym Yeobright--what is he
|
|
doing now?" When the instinctive question about a person is,
|
|
What is he doing? it is felt that he will be found to be,
|
|
like most of us, doing nothing in particular. There is
|
|
an indefinite sense that he must be invading some region
|
|
of singularity, good or bad. The devout hope is that he
|
|
is doing well. The secret faith is that he is making
|
|
a mess of it. Half a dozen comfortable market-men, who
|
|
were habitual callers at the Quiet Woman as they passed
|
|
by in their carts, were partial to the topic. In fact,
|
|
though they were not Egdon men, they could hardly avoid
|
|
it while they sucked their long clay tubes and regarded
|
|
the heath through the window. Clym had been so inwoven
|
|
with the heath in his boyhood that hardly anybody could
|
|
look upon it without thinking of him. So the subject
|
|
recurred: if he were making a fortune and a name,
|
|
so much the better for him; if he were making a tragical
|
|
figure in the world, so much the better for a narrative.
|
|
|
|
The fact was that Yeobright's fame had spread to an awkward
|
|
extent before he left home. "It is bad when your fame
|
|
outruns your means," said the Spanish Jesuit Gracian.
|
|
At the age of six he had asked a Scripture riddle: "Who
|
|
was the first man known to wear breeches?" and applause
|
|
had resounded from the very verge of the heath. At seven
|
|
he painted the Battle of Waterloo with tiger-lily pollen
|
|
and black-currant juice, in the absence of water-colours. By
|
|
the time he reached twelve he had in this manner been heard
|
|
of as artist and scholar for at least two miles round.
|
|
An individual whose fame spreads three or four thousand
|
|
yards in the time taken by the fame of others similarly
|
|
situated to travel six or eight hundred, must of necessity
|
|
have something in him. Possibly Clym's fame, like Homer's,
|
|
owed something to the accidents of his situation;
|
|
nevertheless famous he was.
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|
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|
He grew up and was helped out in life. That waggery
|
|
of fate which started Clive as a writing clerk,
|
|
Gay as a linen-draper, Keats as a surgeon, and a thousand
|
|
others in a thousand other odd ways, banished the wild
|
|
and ascetic heath lad to a trade whose sole concern was
|
|
with the especial symbols of self-indulgence and vainglory.
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|
The details of this choice of a business for him it is not
|
|
necessary to give. At the death of his father a neighbouring
|
|
gentleman had kindly undertaken to give the boy a start,
|
|
and this assumed the form of sending him to Budmouth.
|
|
Yeobright did not wish to go there, but it was the only
|
|
feasible opening. Thence he went to London; and thence,
|
|
shortly after, to Paris, where he had remained till now.
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|
Something being expected of him, he had not been at home
|
|
many days before a great curiosity as to why he stayed
|
|
on so long began to arise in the heath. The natural
|
|
term of a holiday had passed, yet he still remained.
|
|
On the Sunday morning following the week of Thomasin's
|
|
marriage a discussion on this subject was in progress
|
|
at a hair-cutting before Fairway's house. Here the local
|
|
barbering was always done at this hour on this day,
|
|
to be followed by the great Sunday wash of the inhabitants
|
|
at noon, which in its turn was followed by the great
|
|
Sunday dressing an hour later. On Egdon Heath Sunday
|
|
proper did not begin till dinner-time, and even then it
|
|
was a somewhat battered specimen of the day.
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|
These Sunday-morning hair-cuttings were performed by Fairway;
|
|
the victim sitting on a chopping-block in front of the house,
|
|
without a coat, and the neighbours gossiping around,
|
|
idly observing the locks of hair as they rose upon the wind
|
|
after the snip, and flew away out of sight to the four
|
|
quarters of the heavens. Summer and winter the scene was
|
|
the same, unless the wind were more than usually blusterous,
|
|
when the stool was shifted a few feet round the corner.
|
|
To complain of cold in sitting out of doors, hatless
|
|
and coatless, while Fairway told true stories between
|
|
the cuts of the scissors, would have been to pronounce
|
|
yourself no man at once. To flinch, exclaim, or move
|
|
a muscle of the face at the small stabs under the ear
|
|
received from those instruments, or at scarifications
|
|
of the neck by the comb, would have been thought a gross
|
|
breach of good manners, considering that Fairway did it
|
|
all for nothing. A bleeding about the poll on Sunday
|
|
afternoons was amply accounted for by the explanation.
|
|
"I have had my hair cut, you know."
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|
The conversation on Yeobright had been started by a
|
|
distant view of the young man rambling leisurely across
|
|
the heath before them.
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|
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|
"A man who is doing well elsewhere wouldn't bide
|
|
here two or three weeks for nothing," said Fairway.
|
|
"He's got some project in 's head--depend upon that."
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"Well, 'a can't keep a diment shop here," said Sam.
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|
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|
"I don't see why he should have had them two heavy boxes
|
|
home if he had not been going to bide; and what there
|
|
is for him to do here the Lord in heaven knows."
|
|
|
|
Before many more surmises could be indulged in Yeobright
|
|
had come near; and seeing the hair-cutting group he turned
|
|
aside to join them. Marching up, and looking critically
|
|
at their faces for a moment, he said, without introduction,
|
|
"Now, folks, let me guess what you have been talking about."
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|
"Ay, sure, if you will," said Sam.
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"About me."
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"Now, it is a thing I shouldn't have dreamed of doing,
|
|
otherwise," said Fairway in a tone of integrity; "but since
|
|
you have named it, Master Yeobright, I'll own that we was
|
|
talking about 'ee. We were wondering what could keep you home
|
|
here mollyhorning about when you have made such a world-wide
|
|
name for yourself in the nick-nack trade--now, that's the truth o't."
|
|
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|
"I'll tell you," said Yeobright. with unexpected earnestness.
|
|
"I am not sorry to have the opportunity. I've come
|
|
home because, all things considered, I can be a trifle less
|
|
useless here than anywhere else. But I have only lately
|
|
found this out. When I first got away from home I thought
|
|
this place was not worth troubling about. I thought our
|
|
life here was contemptible. To oil your boots instead
|
|
of blacking them, to dust your coat with a switch instead
|
|
of a brush--was there ever anything more ridiculous? I said."
|
|
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|
"So 'tis; so 'tis!"
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"No, no--you are wrong; it isn't."
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"Beg your pardon, we thought that was your maning?"
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|
|
|
"Well, as my views changed my course became very depressing.
|
|
I found that I was trying to be like people who had hardly
|
|
anything in common with myself. I was endeavouring
|
|
to put off one sort of life for another sort of life,
|
|
which was not better than the life I had known before.
|
|
It was simply different."
|
|
|
|
"True; a sight different," said Fairway.
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|
"Yes, Paris must be a taking place," said Humphrey.
|
|
"Grand shop-winders, trumpets, and drums; and here be we
|
|
out of doors in all winds and weathers--"
|
|
|
|
"But you mistake me," pleaded Clym. "All this was
|
|
very depressing. But not so depressing as something I
|
|
next perceived--that my business was the idlest, vainest,
|
|
most effeminate business that ever a man could be put to.
|
|
That decided me--I would give it up and try to follow
|
|
some rational occupation among the people I knew best,
|
|
and to whom I could be of most use. I have come home;
|
|
and this is how I mean to carry out my plan. I shall
|
|
keep a school as near to Egdon as possible, so as to be
|
|
able to walk over here and have a night-school in my
|
|
mother's house. But I must study a little at first,
|
|
to get properly qualified. Now, neighbours, I must go."
|
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|
And Clym resumed his walk across the heath.
|
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|
"He'll never carry it out in the world," said Fairway.
|
|
"In a few weeks he'll learn to see things otherwise."
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|
"'Tis good-hearted of the young man," said another.
|
|
"But, for my part, I think he had better mind his business."
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2 - The New Course Causes Disappointment
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Yeobright loved his kind. He had a conviction that the
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want of most men was knowledge of a sort which brings
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wisdom rather than affluence. He wished to raise
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the class at the expense of individuals rather than
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individuals at the expense of the class. What was more,
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he was ready at once to be the first unit sacrificed.
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In passing from the bucolic to the intellectual life
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the intermediate stages are usually two at least,
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frequently many more; and one of those stages is almost
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sure to be worldly advanced. We can hardly imagine
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bucolic placidity quickening to intellectual aims without
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imagining social aims as the transitional phase.
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Yeobright's local peculiarity was that in striving at high
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thinking he still cleaved to plain living--nay, wild and
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meagre living in many respects, and brotherliness with clowns.
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He was a John the Baptist who took ennoblement rather than
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repentance for his text. Mentally he was in a provincial future,
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that is, he was in many points abreast with the central
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town thinkers of his date. Much of this development he
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may have owed to his studious life in Paris, where he
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had become acquainted with ethical systems popular at the time.
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In consequence of this relatively advanced position,
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Yeobright might have been called unfortunate.
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The rural world was not ripe for him. A man should
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be only partially before his time--to be completely
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to the vanward in aspirations is fatal to fame.
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Had Philip's warlike son been intellectually so far ahead
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as to have attempted civilization without bloodshed,
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he would have been twice the godlike hero that he seemed,
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but nobody would have heard of an Alexander.
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In the interests of renown the forwardness should lie chiefly
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in the capacity to handle things. Successful propagandists
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have succeeded because the doctrine they bring into form
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is that which their listeners have for some time felt
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without being able to shape. A man who advocates aesthetic
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effort and deprecates social effort is only likely to be
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understood by a class to which social effort has become
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a stale matter. To argue upon the possibility of culture
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before luxury to the bucolic world may be to argue truly,
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but it is an attempt to disturb a sequence to which
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humanity has been long accustomed. Yeobright preaching
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to the Egdon eremites that they might rise to a serene
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comprehensiveness without going through the process
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of enriching themselves was not unlike arguing to ancient
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Chaldeans that in ascending from earth to the pure empyrean
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it was not necessary to pass first into the intervening heaven
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of ether.
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Was Yeobright's mind well-proportioned? No. A well
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proportioned mind is one which shows no particular bias;
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one of which we may safely say that it will never cause
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its owner to be confined as a madman, tortured as a heretic,
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or crucified as a blasphemer. Also, on the other hand,
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that it will never cause him to be applauded as
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a prophet, revered as a priest, or exalted as a king.
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Its usual blessings are happiness and mediocrity.
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It produces the poetry of Rogers, the paintings of West,
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the statecraft of North, the spiritual guidance of Tomline;
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enabling its possessors to find their way to wealth,
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to wind up well, to step with dignity off the stage,
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to die comfortably in their beds, and to get the decent
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monument which, in many cases, they deserve. It never
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would have allowed Yeobright to do such a ridiculous thing
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as throw up his business to benefit his fellow-creatures.
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He walked along towards home without attending to paths.
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If anyone knew the heath well it was Clym. He was permeated
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with its scenes, with its substance, and with its odours.
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He might be said to be its product. His eyes had first
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opened thereon; with its appearance all the first images ,
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of his memory were mingled, his estimate of life had
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been coloured by it: his toys had been the flint knives
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and arrow-heads which he found there, wondering why
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stones should "grow" to such odd shapes; his flowers,
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the purple bells and yellow furze: his animal kingdom,
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the snakes and croppers; his society, its human haunters.
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Take all the varying hates felt by Eustacia Vye towards
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the heath, and translate them into loves, and you have the
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heart of Clym. He gazed upon the wide prospect as he walked,
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and was glad.
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To many persons this Egdon was a place which had slipped
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out of its century generations ago, to intrude as an
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uncouth object into this. It was an obsolete thing,
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and few cared to study it. How could this be otherwise
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in the days of square fields, plashed hedges,
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and meadows watered on a plan so rectangular that on a
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fine day they looked like silver gridirons? The farmer,
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in his ride, who could smile at artificial grasses,
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look with solicitude at the coming corn, and sigh
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with sadness at the fly-eaten turnips, bestowed upon
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the distant upland of heath nothing better than a frown.
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But as for Yeobright, when he looked from the heights
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on his way he could not help indulging in a barbarous
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satisfaction at observing that, in some of the attempts
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at reclamation from the waste, tillage, after holding
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on for a year or two, had receded again in despair,
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the ferns and furze-tufts stubbornly reasserting themselves.
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He descended into the valley, and soon reached his home
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at Blooms-End. His mother was snipping dead leaves from
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the window-plants. She looked up at him as if she did
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not understand the meaning of his long stay with her;
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her face had worn that look for several days. He could
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perceive that the curiosity which had been shown by the
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hair-cutting group amounted in his mother to concern.
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But she had asked no question with her lips, even when
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the arrival of his trunk suggested that he was not going
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to leave her soon. Her silence besought an explanation
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of him more loudly than words.
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"I am not going back to Paris again, Mother," he said.
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"At least, in my old capacity. I have given up the business."
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Mrs. Yeobright turned in pained surprise. "I thought
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something was amiss, because of the boxes. I wonder you
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did not tell me sooner."
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"I ought to have done it. But I have been in doubt
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whether you would be pleased with my plan. I was not
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quite clear on a few points myself. I am going to take
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an entirely new course."
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"I am astonished, Clym. How can you want to do better
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than you've been doing?"
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"Very easily. But I shall not do better in the way
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you mean; I suppose it will be called doing worse.
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But I hate that business of mine, and I want to do some
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worthy thing before I die. As a schoolmaster I think
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to do it--a school-master to the poor and ignorant,
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to teach them what nobody else will."
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"After all the trouble that has been taken to give you
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a start, and when there is nothing to do but to keep
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straight on towards affluence, you say you will be a poor
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man's schoolmaster. Your fancies will be your ruin, Clym."
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Mrs. Yeobright spoke calmly, but the force of feeling
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behind the words was but too apparent to one who knew
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her as well as her son did. He did not answer.
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There was in his face that hopelessness of being understood
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which comes when the objector is constitutionally beyond
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the reach of a logic that, even under favouring conditions,
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is almost too coarse a vehicle for the subtlety of the argument.
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No more was said on the subject till the end of dinner.
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His mother then began, as if there had been no interval
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since the morning. "It disturbs me, Clym, to find
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that you have come home with such thoughts as those.
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I hadn't the least idea that you meant to go backward
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in the world by your own free choice. Of course,
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I have always supposed you were going to push straight on,
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as other men do--all who deserve the name--when they have
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been put in a good way of doing well."
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"I cannot help it," said Clym, in a troubled tone.
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"Mother, I hate the flashy business. Talk about men
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who deserve the name, can any man deserving the name
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waste his time in that effeminate way, when he sees half
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the world going to ruin for want of somebody to buckle
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to and teach them how to breast the misery they are born
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to? I get up every morning and see the whole creation
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groaning and travailing in pain, as St. Paul says,
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and yet there am I, trafficking in glittering splendours
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with wealthy women and titled libertines, and pandering
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to the meanest vanities--I, who have health and strength
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enough for anything. I have been troubled in my mind
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about it all the year, and the end is that I cannot do it
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any more."
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"Why can't you do it as well as others?"
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"I don't know, except that there are many things other
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people care for which I don't; and that's partly why I
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think I ought to do this. For one thing, my body does
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not require much of me. I cannot enjoy delicacies;
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good things are wasted upon me. Well, I ought to turn
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that defect to advantage, and by being able to do without
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what other people require I can spend what such things
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cost upon anybody else."
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Now, Yeobright, having inherited some of these very
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instincts from the woman before him, could not fail
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to awaken a reciprocity in her through her feelings,
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if not by arguments, disguise it as she might for his good.
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She spoke with less assurance. "And yet you might
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have been a wealthy man if you had only persevered.
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Manager to that large diamond establishment--what better
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can a man wish for? What a post of trust and respect!
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I suppose you will be like your father; like him,
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you are getting weary of doing well."
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"No," said her son, "I am not weary of that, though I am
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weary of what you mean by it. Mother, what is doing well?"
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Mrs. Yeobright was far too thoughtful a woman to be
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content with ready definitions, and, like the "What
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is wisdom?" of Plato's Socrates, and the "What is truth?"
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of Pontius Pilate, Yeobright's burning question received
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no answer.
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The silence was broken by the clash of the garden gate,
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a tap at the door, and its opening. Christian Cantle
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appeared in the room in his Sunday clothes.
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It was the custom on Egdon to begin the preface to a story
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before absolutely entering the house, so as to be well
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in for the body of the narrative by the time visitor
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and visited stood face to face. Christian had been
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saying to them while the door was leaving its latch,
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"To think that I, who go from home but once in a while,
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and hardly then, should have been there this morning!"
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"'Tis news you have brought us, then, Christian?"
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said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"Ay, sure, about a witch, and ye must overlook my time o'
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day; for, says I, 'I must go and tell 'em, though they
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won't have half done dinner.' I assure ye it made me shake
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like a driven leaf. Do ye think any harm will come o't?"
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"Well--what?"
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"This morning at church we was all standing up,
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and the pa'son said, 'Let us pray.' 'Well,' thinks I,
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'one may as well kneel as stand'; so down I went; and,
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more than that, all the rest were as willing to oblige
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the man as I. We hadn't been hard at it for more than a
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minute when a most terrible screech sounded through church,
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as if somebody had just gied up their heart's blood.
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All the folk jumped up and then we found that Susan
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Nunsuch had pricked Miss Vye with a long stocking-needle,
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as she had threatened to do as soon as ever she could
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get the young lady to church, where she don't come
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very often. She've waited for this chance for weeks,
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so as to draw her blood and put an end to the bewitching
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of Susan's children that has been carried on so long.
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Sue followed her into church, sat next to her, and as soon
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as she could find a chance in went the stocking-needle
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into my lady's arm."
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"Good heaven, how horrid!" said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"Sue pricked her that deep that the maid fainted away;
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and as I was afeard there might be some tumult among us,
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I got behind the bass viol and didn't see no more.
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But they carried her out into the air, 'tis said;
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but when they looked round for Sue she was gone.
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What a scream that girl gied, poor thing! There were the
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pa'son in his surplice holding up his hand and saying,
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'Sit down, my good people, sit down!' But the deuce a bit
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would they sit down. O, and what d'ye think I found out,
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Mrs. Yeobright? The pa'son wears a suit of clothes under his
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surplice!--I could see his black sleeves when he held up
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his arm."
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"'Tis a cruel thing," said Yeobright.
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"Yes," said his mother.
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"The nation ought to look into it," said Christian.
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"Here's Humphrey coming, I think."
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In came Humphrey. "Well, have ye heard the news?
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But I see you have. 'Tis a very strange thing that
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whenever one of Egdon folk goes to church some rum job
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or other is sure to be doing. The last time one of us
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was there was when neighbour Fairway went in the fall;
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and that was the day you forbad the banns, Mrs. Yeobright."
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"Has this cruelly treated girl been able to walk home?"
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said Clym.
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"They say she got better, and went home very well.
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And now I've told it I must be moving homeward myself."
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"And I," said Humphrey. "Truly now we shall see if there's
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anything in what folks say about her."
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When they were gone into the heath again Yeobright said
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quietly to his mother, "Do you think I have turned teacher
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too soon?"
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"It is right that there should be schoolmasters,
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and missionaries, and all such men," she replied.
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"But it is right, too, that I should try to lift you out
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of this life into something richer, and that you should
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not come back again, and be as if I had not tried at all."
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Later in the day Sam, the turf-cutter, entered.
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"I've come a-borrowing, Mrs. Yeobright. I suppose you
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have heard what's been happening to the beauty on the hill?"
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"Yes, Sam: half a dozen have been telling us."
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"Beauty?" said Clym.
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"Yes, tolerably well-favoured," Sam replied. "Lord! all
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the country owns that 'tis one of the strangest things
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in the world that such a woman should have come to live
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up there."
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"Dark or fair?"
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"Now, though I've seen her twenty times, that's a thing
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I cannot call to mind."
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"Darker than Tamsin," murmured Mrs. Yeobright.
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"A woman who seems to care for nothing at all, as you
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may say."
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"She is melancholy, then?" inquired Clym.
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"She mopes about by herself, and don't mix in with the people."
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"Is she a young lady inclined for adventures?"
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"Not to my knowledge."
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"Doesn't join in with the lads in their games, to get
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some sort of excitement in this lonely place?"
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"No."
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"Mumming, for instance?"
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"No. Her notions be different. I should rather say her
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thoughts were far away from here, with lords and ladies
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she'll never know, and mansions she'll never see again."
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Observing that Clym appeared singularly interested
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Mrs. Yeobright said rather uneasily to Sam, "You see
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more in her than most of us do. Miss Vye is to my
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mind too idle to be charming. I have never heard
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that she is of any use to herself or to other people.
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Good girls don't get treated as witches even on Egdon."
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"Nonsense--that proves nothing either way," said Yeobright.
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"Well, of course I don't understand such niceties,"
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said Sam, withdrawing from a possibly unpleasant argument;
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"and what she is we must wait for time to tell us.
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The business that I have really called about is this,
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to borrow the longest and strongest rope you have.
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The captain's bucket has dropped into the well,
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and they are in want of water; and as all the chaps
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are at home today we think we can get it out for him.
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We have three cart-ropes already, but they won't reach to
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the bottom."
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Mrs. Yeobright told him that he might have whatever ropes
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he could find in the outhouse, and Sam went out to search.
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When he passed by the door Clym joined him, and accompanied
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him to the gate.
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"Is this young witch-lady going to stay long at Mistover?"
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he asked.
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"I should say so."
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"What a cruel shame to ill-use her, She must have suffered
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greatly--more in mind than in body."
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"'Twas a graceless trick--such a handsome girl, too.
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You ought to see her, Mr. Yeobright, being a young man
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come from far, and with a little more to show for your
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years than most of us."
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"Do you think she would like to teach children?"
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said Clym.
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Sam shook his head. "Quite a different sort of body
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from that, I reckon."
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"O, it was merely something which occurred to me.
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It would of course be necessary to see her and talk it
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over--not an easy thing, by the way, for my family and hers
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are not very friendly."
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"I'll tell you how you mid see her, Mr. Yeobright,"
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said Sam. "We are going to grapple for the bucket at six
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o'clock tonight at her house, and you could lend a hand.
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There's five or six coming, but the well is deep, and another
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might be useful, if you don't mind appearing in that shape.
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She's sure to be walking round."
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"I'll think of it," said Yeobright; and they parted.
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He thought of it a good deal; but nothing more was
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said about Eustacia inside the house at that time.
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Whether this romantic martyr to superstition and the
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melancholy mummer he had conversed with under the full
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moon were one and the same person remained as yet a problem.
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3 - The First Act in a Timeworn Drama
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The afternoon was fine, and Yeobright walked on the heath
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for an hour with his mother. When they reached the lofty
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ridge which divided the valley of Blooms-End from the
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adjoining valley they stood still and looked round.
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The Quiet Woman Inn was visible on the low margin of
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the heath in one direction, and afar on the other hand
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rose Mistover Knap.
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"You mean to call on Thomasin?" he inquired.
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"Yes. But you need not come this time," said his mother.
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"In that case I'll branch off here, Mother. I am going
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to Mistover."
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Mrs. Yeobright turned to him inquiringly.
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"I am going to help them get the bucket out of the
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captain's well," he continued. "As it is so very deep
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I may be useful. And I should like to see this Miss
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Vye--not so much for her good looks as for another reason."
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"Must you go?" his mother asked.
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"I thought to."
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And they parted. "There is no help for it," murmured Clym's
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mother gloomily as he withdrew. "They are sure to see
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each other. I wish Sam would carry his news to other
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houses than mine."
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Clym's retreating figure got smaller and smaller
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as it rose and fell over the hillocks on his way.
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"He is tender-hearted," said Mrs. Yeobright to herself
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while she watched him; "otherwise it would matter little.
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How he's going on!"
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He was, indeed, walking with a will over the furze,
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as straight as a line, as if his life depended upon it.
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His mother drew a long breath, and, abandoning the visit
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to Thomasin, turned back. The evening films began to make
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nebulous pictures of the valleys, but the high lands
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still were raked by the declining rays of the winter sun,
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which glanced on Clym as he walked forward, eyed by every
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rabbit and field-fare around, a long shadow advancing in
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front of him.
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On drawing near to the furze-covered bank and ditch which
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fortified the captain's dwelling he could hear voices within,
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signifying that operations had been already begun.
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At the side-entrance gate he stopped and looked over.
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Half a dozen able-bodied men were standing in a line from the
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well-mouth, holding a rope which passed over the well-roller
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into the depths below. Fairway, with a piece of smaller
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rope round his body, made fast to one of the standards,
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to guard against accidents, was leaning over the opening,
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his right hand clasping the vertical rope that descended
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into the well.
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"Now, silence, folks," said Fairway.
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The talking ceased, and Fairway gave a circular motion
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to the rope, as if he were stirring batter. At the end
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of a minute a dull splashing reverberated from the bottom
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of the well; the helical twist he had imparted to the rope
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had reached the grapnel below.
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"Haul!" said Fairway; and the men who held the rope began
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to gather it over the wheel.
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"I think we've got sommat," said one of the haulers-in.
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"Then pull steady," said Fairway.
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They gathered up more and more, till a regular dripping
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into the well could be heard below. It grew smarter
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with the increasing height of the bucket, and presently
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a hundred and fifty feet of rope had been pulled in.
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Fairway then lit a lantern, tied it to another cord,
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and began lowering it into the well beside the first:
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Clym came forward and looked down. Strange humid leaves,
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which knew nothing of the seasons of the year,
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and quaint-natured mosses were revealed on the wellside
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as the lantern descended; till its rays fell upon a
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confused mass of rope and bucket dangling in the dank,
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dark air.
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"We've only got en by the edge of the hoop--steady,
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for God's sake!" said Fairway.
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They pulled with the greatest gentleness, till the wet
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bucket appeared about two yards below them, like a dead
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friend come to earth again. Three or four hands were
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stretched out, then jerk went the rope, whizz went the wheel,
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the two foremost haulers fell backward, the beating
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of a falling body was heard, receding down the sides
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of the well, and a thunderous uproar arose at the bottom.
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The bucket was gone again.
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"Damn the bucket!" said Fairway.
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"Lower again," said Sam.
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"I'm as stiff as a ram's horn stooping so long,"
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said Fairway, standing up and stretching himself till
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his joints creaked.
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"Rest a few minutes, Timothy," said Yeobright.
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"I'll take your place."
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The grapnel was again lowered. Its smart impact upon
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the distant water reached their ears like a kiss,
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whereupon Yeobright knelt down, and leaning over the well
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began dragging the grapnel round and round as Fairway
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had done.
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"Tie a rope round him--it is dangerous!" cried a soft
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and anxious voice somewhere above them.
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Everybody turned. The speaker was a woman, gazing down
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upon the group from an upper window, whose panes blazed
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in the ruddy glare from the west. Her lips were parted
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and she appeared for the moment to forget where she was.
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The rope was accordingly tied round his waist, and the
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|
work proceeded. At the next haul the weight was not heavy,
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and it was discovered that they had only secured a coil
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of the rope detached from the bucket. The tangled
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|
mass was thrown into the background. Humphrey took
|
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Yeobright's place, and the grapnel was lowered again.
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|
|
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Yeobright retired to the heap of recovered rope in a
|
|
meditative mood. Of the identity between the lady's voice
|
|
and that of the melancholy mummer he had not a moment's doubt.
|
|
"How thoughtful of her!" he said to himself.
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|
Eustacia, who had reddened when she perceived the effect
|
|
of her exclamation upon the group below, was no longer
|
|
to be seen at the window, though Yeobright scanned
|
|
it wistfully. While he stood there the men at the well
|
|
succeeded in getting up the bucket without a mishap.
|
|
One of them went to inquire for the captain, to learn
|
|
what orders he wished to give for mending the well-tackle.
|
|
The captain proved to be away from home, and Eustacia
|
|
appeared at the door and came out. She had lapsed into
|
|
an easy and dignified calm, far removed from the intensity
|
|
of life in her words of solicitude for Clym's safety.
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|
|
|
"Will it be possible to draw water here tonight?"
|
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she inquired.
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|
|
|
"No, miss; the bottom of the bucket is clean knocked out.
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And as we can do no more now we'll leave off, and come
|
|
again tomorrow morning."
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"No water," she murmured, turning away.
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"I can send you up some from Blooms-End," said Clym,
|
|
coming forward and raising his hat as the men retired.
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|
|
Yeobright and Eustacia looked at each other for one instant,
|
|
as if each had in mind those few moments during
|
|
which a certain moonlight scene was common to both.
|
|
With the glance the calm fixity of her features sublimed
|
|
itself to an expression of refinement and warmth;
|
|
it was like garish noon rising to the dignity of sunset
|
|
in a couple of seconds.
|
|
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|
"Thank you; it will hardly be necessary," she replied.
|
|
|
|
"But if you have no water?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, it is what I call no water," she said, blushing,
|
|
and lifting her long-lashed eyelids as if to lift them
|
|
were a work requiring consideration. "But my grandfather
|
|
calls it water enough. I'll show you what I mean."
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|
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|
She moved away a few yards, and Clym followed. When she
|
|
reached the corner of the enclosure, where the steps
|
|
were formed for mounting the boundary bank, she sprang up
|
|
with a lightness which seemed strange after her listless
|
|
movement towards the well. It incidentally showed
|
|
that her apparent languor did not arise from lack of force.
|
|
|
|
Clym ascended behind her, and noticed a circular burnt
|
|
patch at the top of the bank. "Ashes?" he said.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said Eustacia. "We had a little bonfire here
|
|
last Fifth of November, and those are the marks of it."
|
|
|
|
On that spot had stood the fire she had kindled
|
|
to attract Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"That's the only kind of water we have," she continued,
|
|
tossing a stone into the pool, which lay on the outside
|
|
of the bank like the white of an eye without its pupil.
|
|
The stone fell with a flounce, but no Wildeve appeared
|
|
on the other side, as on a previous occasion there.
|
|
"My grandfather says he lived for more than twenty years
|
|
at sea on water twice as bad as that," she went on,
|
|
"and considers it quite good enough for us here on
|
|
an emergency."
|
|
|
|
"Well, as a matter of fact there are no impurities
|
|
in the water of these pools at this time of the year.
|
|
It has only just rained into them."
|
|
|
|
She shook her head. "I am managing to exist in a wilderness,
|
|
but I cannot drink from a pond," she said.
|
|
|
|
Clym looked towards the well, which was now deserted,
|
|
the men having gone home. "It is a long way to send
|
|
for spring-water," he said, after a silence.
|
|
"But since you don't like this in the pond, I'll try
|
|
to get you some myself." He went back to the well.
|
|
"Yes, I think I could do it by tying on this pail."
|
|
|
|
"But, since I would not trouble the men to get it,
|
|
I cannot in conscience let you."
|
|
|
|
"I don't mind the trouble at all."
|
|
|
|
He made fast the pail to the long coil of rope, put it over
|
|
the wheel, and allowed it to descend by letting the rope slip
|
|
through his hands. Before it had gone far, however, he checked it.
|
|
|
|
"I must make fast the end first, or we may lose the whole,"
|
|
he said to Eustacia, who had drawn near. "Could you hold
|
|
this a moment, while I do it--or shall I call your servant?"
|
|
|
|
"I can hold it," said Eustacia; and he placed the rope
|
|
in her hands, going then to search for the end.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose I may let it slip down?" she inquired.
|
|
|
|
"I would advise you not to let it go far," said Clym.
|
|
"It will get much heavier, you will find."
|
|
|
|
However, Eustacia had begun to pay out. While he was
|
|
tying she cried, "I cannot stop it!"
|
|
|
|
Clym ran to her side, and found he could only check the
|
|
rope by twisting the loose part round the upright post,
|
|
when it stopped with a jerk. "Has it hurt you?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes," she replied.
|
|
|
|
"Very much?"
|
|
|
|
"No; I think not." She opened her hands. One of them
|
|
was bleeding; the rope had dragged off the skin.
|
|
Eustacia wrapped it in her handkerchief.
|
|
|
|
"You should have let go," said Yeobright. "Why didn't you?"
|
|
|
|
"You said I was to hold on....This is the second time
|
|
I have been wounded today."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, yes; I have heard of it. I blush for my native Egdon.
|
|
Was it a serious injury you received in church, Miss Vye?"
|
|
|
|
There was such an abundance of sympathy in Clym's tone
|
|
that Eustacia slowly drew up her sleeve and disclosed
|
|
her round white arm. A bright red spot appeared on its
|
|
smooth surface, like a ruby on Parian marble.
|
|
|
|
"There it is," she said, putting her finger against the spot.
|
|
|
|
"It was dastardly of the woman," said Clym. "Will not
|
|
Captain Vye get her punished?"
|
|
|
|
"He is gone from home on that very business. I did
|
|
not know that I had such a magic reputation."
|
|
|
|
"And you fainted?" said Clym, looking at the scarlet
|
|
little puncture as if he would like to kiss it and make
|
|
it well.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, it frightened me. I had not been to church for
|
|
a long time. And now I shall not go again for ever so
|
|
long--perhaps never. I cannot face their eyes after this.
|
|
Don't you think it dreadfully humiliating? I wished
|
|
I was dead for hours after, but I don't mind now."
|
|
|
|
"I have come to clean away these cobwebs," said Yeobright.
|
|
"Would you like to help me--by high-class teaching? We
|
|
might benefit them much."
|
|
|
|
"I don't quite feel anxious to. I have not much love
|
|
for my fellow-creatures. Sometimes I quite hate them."
|
|
|
|
"Still I think that if you were to hear my scheme you might
|
|
take an interest in it. There is no use in hating people--if
|
|
you hate anything, you should hate what produced them."
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean Nature? I hate her already. But I shall
|
|
be glad to hear your scheme at any time."
|
|
|
|
The situation had now worked itself out, and the next
|
|
natural thing was for them to part. Clym knew this
|
|
well enough, and Eustacia made a move of conclusion;
|
|
yet he looked at her as if he had one word more to say.
|
|
Perhaps if he had not lived in Paris it would never have
|
|
been uttered.
|
|
|
|
"We have met before," he said, regarding her with rather
|
|
more interest than was necessary.
|
|
|
|
"I do not own it," said Eustacia, with a repressed,
|
|
still look.
|
|
|
|
"But I may think what I like."
|
|
|
|
"Yes."
|
|
|
|
"You are lonely here."
|
|
|
|
"I cannot endure the heath, except in its purple season.
|
|
The heath is a cruel taskmaster to me."
|
|
|
|
"Can you say so?" he asked. "To my mind it is most
|
|
exhilarating, and strengthening, and soothing. I would
|
|
rather live on these hills than anywhere else in the world."
|
|
|
|
"It is well enough for artists; but I never would learn
|
|
to draw."
|
|
|
|
"And there is a very curious druidical stone just out there."
|
|
He threw a pebble in the direction signified. "Do you
|
|
often go to see it?"
|
|
|
|
"I was not even aware there existed any such curious
|
|
druidical stone. I am aware that there are boulevards
|
|
in Paris."
|
|
|
|
Yeobright looked thoughtfully on the ground.
|
|
"That means much," he said.
|
|
|
|
"It does indeed," said Eustacia.
|
|
|
|
"I remember when I had the same longing for town bustle.
|
|
Five years of a great city would be a perfect cure
|
|
for that."
|
|
|
|
"Heaven send me such a cure! Now, Mr. Yeobright,
|
|
I will go indoors and plaster my wounded hand."
|
|
|
|
They separated, and Eustacia vanished in the increasing shade.
|
|
She seemed full of many things. Her past was a blank,
|
|
her life had begun. The effect upon Clym of this
|
|
meeting he did not fully discover till some time after.
|
|
During his walk home his most intelligible sensation
|
|
was that his scheme had somehow become glorified.
|
|
A beautiful woman had been intertwined with it.
|
|
|
|
On reaching the house he went up to the room which was to
|
|
be made his study, and occupied himself during the evening
|
|
in unpacking his books from the boxes and arranging them
|
|
on shelves. From another box he drew a lamp and a can
|
|
of oil. He trimmed the lamp, arranged his table,
|
|
and said, "Now, I am ready to begin."
|
|
|
|
He rose early the next morning, read two hours before
|
|
breakfast by the light of his lamp--read all the morning,
|
|
all the afternoon. Just when the sun was going down his
|
|
eyes felt weary, and he leant back in his chair.
|
|
|
|
His room overlooked the front of the premises and the valley
|
|
of the heath beyond. The lowest beams of the winter
|
|
sun threw the shadow of the house over the palings,
|
|
across the grass margin of the heath, and far up the vale,
|
|
where the chimney outlines and those of the surrounding
|
|
tree-tops stretched forth in long dark prongs. Having been
|
|
seated at work all day, he decided to take a turn upon
|
|
the hills before it got dark; and, going out forthwith,
|
|
he struck across the heath towards Mistover.
|
|
|
|
It was an hour and a half later when he again appeared at
|
|
the garden gate. The shutters of the house were closed,
|
|
and Christian Cantle, who had been wheeling manure about
|
|
the garden all day, had gone home. On entering he found
|
|
that his mother, after waiting a long time for him,
|
|
had finished her meal.
|
|
|
|
"Where have you been, Clym?" she immediately said.
|
|
"Why didn't you tell me that you were going away at
|
|
this time?"
|
|
|
|
"I have been on the heath."
|
|
|
|
"You'll meet Eustacia Vye if you go up there."
|
|
|
|
Clym paused a minute. "Yes, I met her this evening,"
|
|
he said, as though it were spoken under the sheer necessity
|
|
of preserving honesty.
|
|
|
|
"I wondered if you had."
|
|
|
|
"It was no appointment."
|
|
|
|
"No; such meetings never are."
|
|
|
|
"But you are not angry, Mother?"
|
|
|
|
"I can hardly say that I am not. Angry? No. But when I
|
|
consider the usual nature of the drag which causes men
|
|
of promise to disappoint the world I feel uneasy."
|
|
|
|
"You deserve credit for the feeling, Mother. But I can
|
|
assure you that you need not be disturbed by it on my account."
|
|
|
|
"When I think of you and your new crotchets," said Mrs. Yeobright,
|
|
with some emphasis, "I naturally don't feel so comfortable
|
|
as I did a twelvemonth ago. It is incredible to me
|
|
that a man accustomed to the attractive women of Paris
|
|
and elsewhere should be so easily worked upon by a girl
|
|
in a heath. You could just as well have walked another way."
|
|
|
|
"I had been studying all day."
|
|
|
|
"Well, yes," she added more hopefully, "I have been thinking
|
|
that you might get on as a schoolmaster, and rise that way,
|
|
since you really are determined to hate the course you
|
|
were pursuing."
|
|
|
|
Yeobright was unwilling to disturb this idea, though his
|
|
scheme was far enough removed from one wherein the education
|
|
of youth should be made a mere channel of social ascent.
|
|
He had no desires of that sort. He had reached the stage
|
|
in a young man's life when the grimness of the general
|
|
human situation first becomes clear; and the realization
|
|
of this causes ambition to halt awhile. In France it
|
|
is not uncustomary to commit suicide at this stage;
|
|
in England we do much better, or much worse, as the case
|
|
may be.
|
|
|
|
The love between the young man and his mother was
|
|
strangely invisible now. Of love it may be said,
|
|
the less earthly the less demonstrative. In its absolutely
|
|
indestructible form it reaches a profundity in which all
|
|
exhibition of itself is painful. It was so with these.
|
|
Had conversations between them been overheard,
|
|
people would have said, "How cold they are to each other!"
|
|
|
|
His theory and his wishes about devoting his future
|
|
to teaching had made an impression on Mrs. Yeobright.
|
|
Indeed, how could it be otherwise when he was a part
|
|
of her--when their discourses were as if carried on
|
|
between the right and the left hands of the same body?
|
|
He had despaired of reaching her by argument; and it
|
|
was almost as a discovery to him that he could reach her
|
|
by a magnetism which was as superior to words as words are to yells.
|
|
|
|
Strangely enough he began to feel now that it would
|
|
not be so hard to persuade her who was his best friend
|
|
that comparative poverty was essentially the higher
|
|
course for him, as to reconcile to his feelings the act
|
|
of persuading her. From every provident point of view
|
|
his mother was so undoubtedly right, that he was not
|
|
without a sickness of heart in finding he could shake her.
|
|
|
|
She had a singular insight into life, considering that she
|
|
had never mixed with it. There are instances of persons who,
|
|
without clear ideas of the things they criticize have
|
|
yet had clear ideas of the relations of those things.
|
|
Blacklock, a poet blind from his birth, could describe
|
|
visual objects with accuracy; Professor Sanderson,
|
|
who was also blind, gave excellent lectures on colour,
|
|
and taught others the theory of ideas which they had and
|
|
he had not. In the social sphere these gifted ones are
|
|
mostly women; they can watch a world which they never saw,
|
|
and estimate forces of which they have only heard.
|
|
We call it intuition.
|
|
|
|
What was the great world to Mrs. Yeobright? A multitude whose
|
|
tendencies could be perceived, though not its essences.
|
|
Communities were seen by her as from a distance;
|
|
she saw them as we see the throngs which cover the
|
|
canvases of Sallaert, Van Alsloot, and others of that
|
|
school--vast masses of beings, jostling, zigzagging,
|
|
and processioning in definite directions, but whose features
|
|
are indistinguishable by the very comprehensiveness of the view.
|
|
|
|
One could see that, as far as it had gone, her life was
|
|
very complete on its reflective side. The philosophy of
|
|
her nature, and its limitation by circumstances, was almost
|
|
written in her movements. They had a majestic foundation,
|
|
though they were far from being majestic; and they had
|
|
a ground-work of assurance, but they were not assured.
|
|
As her once elastic walk had become deadened by time,
|
|
so had her natural pride of life been hindered in its
|
|
blooming by her necessities.
|
|
|
|
The next slight touch in the shaping of Clym's destiny
|
|
occurred a few days after. A barrow was opened on the heath,
|
|
and Yeobright attended the operation, remaining away
|
|
from his study during several hours. In the afternoon
|
|
Christian returned from a journey in the same direction,
|
|
and Mrs. Yeobright questioned him.
|
|
|
|
"They have dug a hole, and they have found things like flowerpots
|
|
upside down, Mis'ess Yeobright; and inside these be real
|
|
charnel bones. They have carried 'em off to men's houses;
|
|
but I shouldn't like to sleep where they will bide.
|
|
Dead folks have been known to come and claim their own.
|
|
Mr. Yeobright had got one pot of the bones, and was going
|
|
to bring 'em home--real skellington bones--but 'twas
|
|
ordered otherwise. You'll be relieved to hear that he gave
|
|
away his pot and all, on second thoughts; and a blessed thing
|
|
for ye, Mis'ess Yeobright, considering the wind o' nights."
|
|
|
|
"Gave it away?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. To Miss Vye. She has a cannibal taste for such
|
|
churchyard furniture seemingly."
|
|
|
|
"Miss Vye was there too?"
|
|
|
|
"Ay, 'a b'lieve she was."
|
|
|
|
When Clym came home, which was shortly after, his mother said,
|
|
in a curious tone, "The urn you had meant for me you
|
|
gave away."
|
|
|
|
Yeobright made no reply; the current of her feeling
|
|
was too pronounced to admit it.
|
|
|
|
The early weeks of the year passed on. Yeobright certainly
|
|
studied at home, but he also walked much abroad,
|
|
and the direction of his walk was always towards
|
|
some point of a line between Mistover and Rainbarrow.
|
|
|
|
The month of March arrived, and the heath showed its first
|
|
signs of awakening from winter trance. The awakening
|
|
was almost feline in its stealthiness. The pool outside
|
|
the bank by Eustacia's dwelling, which seemed as dead
|
|
and desolate as ever to an observer who moved and made
|
|
noises in his observation, would gradually disclose
|
|
a state of great animation when silently watched awhile.
|
|
A timid animal world had come to life for the season.
|
|
Little tadpoles and efts began to bubble up through
|
|
the water, and to race along beneath it; toads made noises
|
|
like very young ducks, and advanced to the margin in twos
|
|
and threes; overhead, bumblebees flew hither and thither
|
|
in the thickening light, their drone coming and going
|
|
like the sound of a gong.
|
|
|
|
On an evening such as this Yeobright descended into
|
|
the Blooms-End valley from beside that very pool,
|
|
where he had been standing with another person quite
|
|
silently and quite long enough to hear all this puny stir
|
|
of resurrection in nature; yet he had not heard it.
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His walk was rapid as he came down, and he went with a
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springy trend. Before entering upon his mother's premises
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he stopped and breathed. The light which shone forth
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on him from the window revealed that his face was flushed
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and his eye bright. What it did not show was something
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which lingered upon his lips like a seal set there.
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The abiding presence of this impress was so real that he
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hardly dared to enter the house, for it seemed as if his
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mother might say, "What red spot is that glowing upon
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your mouth so vividly?"
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But he entered soon after. The tea was ready, and he sat
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down opposite his mother. She did not speak many words;
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and as for him, something had been just done and some
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|
words had been just said on the hill which prevented him
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from beginning a desultory chat. His mother's taciturnity
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was not without ominousness, but he appeared not to care.
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He knew why she said so little, but he could not remove
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the cause of her bearing towards him. These half-silent
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|
sittings were far from uncommon with them now. At last
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Yeobright made a beginning of what was intended to strike
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at the whole root of the matter.
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"Five days have we sat like this at meals with scarcely
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a word. What's the use of it, Mother?"
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"None," said she, in a heart-swollen tone. "But there
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is only too good a reason."
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"Not when you know all. I have been wanting to speak
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about this, and I am glad the subject is begun. The reason,
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of course, is Eustacia Vye. Well, I confess I have seen
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her lately, and have seen her a good many times."
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"Yes, yes; and I know what that amounts to. It troubles
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me, Clym. You are wasting your life here; and it is solely
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on account of her. If it had not been for that woman
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you would never have entertained this teaching scheme at all."
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Clym looked hard at his mother. "You know that is not it,"
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he said.
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"Well, I know you had decided to attempt it before you
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saw her; but that would have ended in intentions. It was
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very well to talk of, but ridiculous to put in practice.
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I fully expected that in the course of a month or two
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you would have seen the folly of such self-sacrifice,
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and would have been by this time back again to Paris
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in some business or other. I can understand objections
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to the diamond trade--I really was thinking that it
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might be inadequate to the life of a man like you
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|
even though it might have made you a millionaire.
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But now I see how mistaken you are about this girl
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I doubt if you could be correct about other things."
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"How am I mistaken in her?"
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"She is lazy and dissatisfied. But that is not all of it.
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Supposing her to be as good a woman as any you can find,
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which she certainly is not, why do you wish to connect
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yourself with anybody at present?"
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"Well, there are practical reasons," Clym began, and then
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almost broke off under an overpowering sense of the weight
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of argument which could be brought against his statement.
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"If I take a school an educated woman would be invaluable
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as a help to me."
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"What! you really mean to marry her?"
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"It would be premature to state that plainly. But consider
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what obvious advantages there would be in doing it. She----"
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"Don't suppose she has any money. She hasn't a farthing."
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"She is excellently educated, and would make a good
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|
matron in a boarding-school. I candidly own that I
|
|
have modified my views a little, in deference to you;
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|
and it should satisfy you. I no longer adhere to my
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|
intention of giving with my own mouth rudimentary education
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|
to the lowest class. I can do better. I can establish
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a good private school for farmers' sons, and without
|
|
stopping the school I can manage to pass examinations.
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|
By this means, and by the assistance of a wife like her----"
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"Oh, Clym!"
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"I shall ultimately, I hope, be at the head of one
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|
of the best schools in the county."
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Yeobright had enunciated the word "her" with a fervour which,
|
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in conversation with a mother, was absurdly indiscreet.
|
|
Hardly a maternal heart within the four seas could
|
|
in such circumstances, have helped being irritated at
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that ill-timed betrayal of feeling for a new woman.
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"You are blinded, Clym," she said warmly. "It was
|
|
a bad day for you when you first set eyes on her.
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|
And your scheme is merely a castle in the air built
|
|
on purpose to justify this folly which has seized you,
|
|
and to salve your conscience on the irrational situation
|
|
you are in."
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|
"Mother, that's not true," he firmly answered.
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|
|
|
"Can you maintain that I sit and tell untruths, when all
|
|
I wish to do is to save you from sorrow? For shame,
|
|
Clym! But it is all through that woman--a hussy!"
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|
Clym reddened like fire and rose. He placed his hand
|
|
upon his mother's shoulder and said, in a tone which hung
|
|
strangely between entreaty and command, "I won't hear it.
|
|
I may be led to answer you in a way which we shall
|
|
both regret."
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|
|
|
His mother parted her lips to begin some other vehement truth,
|
|
but on looking at him she saw that in his face which led her
|
|
to leave the words unsaid. Yeobright walked once or twice
|
|
across the room, and then suddenly went out of the house.
|
|
It was eleven o'clock when he came in, though he had
|
|
not been further than the precincts of the garden.
|
|
His mother was gone to bed. A light was left burning
|
|
on the table, and supper was spread. Without stopping
|
|
for any food he secured the doors and went upstairs.
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|
4 - An Hour of Bliss and Many Hours of Sadness
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The next day was gloomy enough at Blooms-End. Yeobright
|
|
remained in his study, sitting over the open books;
|
|
but the work of those hours was miserably scant.
|
|
Determined that there should be nothing in his conduct
|
|
towards his mother resembling sullenness, he had occasionally
|
|
spoken to her on passing matters, and would take no notice
|
|
of the brevity of her replies. With the same resolve to keep
|
|
up a show of conversation he said, about seven o'clock
|
|
in the evening, "There's an eclipse of the moon tonight.
|
|
I am going out to see it." And, putting on his overcoat,
|
|
he left her.
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|
|
|
The low moon was not as yet visible from the front of the house,
|
|
and Yeobright climbed out of the valley until he stood
|
|
in the full flood of her light. But even now he walked on,
|
|
and his steps were in the direction of Rainbarrow.
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|
|
|
In half an hour he stood at the top. The sky was clear from
|
|
verge to verge, and the moon flung her rays over the whole heath,
|
|
but without sensibly lighting it, except where paths and
|
|
water-courses had laid bare the white flints and glistening
|
|
quartz sand, which made streaks upon the general shade.
|
|
After standing awhile he stooped and felt the heather.
|
|
It was dry, and he flung himself down upon the barrow,
|
|
his face towards the moon, which depicted a small image
|
|
of herself in each of his eyes.
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|
|
|
He had often come up here without stating his purpose
|
|
to his mother; but this was the first time that he had been
|
|
ostensibly frank as to his purpose while really concealing it.
|
|
It was a moral situation which, three months earlier,
|
|
he could hardly have credited of himself. In returning
|
|
to labour in this sequestered spot he had anticipated
|
|
an escape from the chafing of social necessities;
|
|
yet behold they were here also. More than ever he
|
|
longed to be in some world where personal ambition was
|
|
not the only recognized form of progress--such, perhaps,
|
|
as might have been the case at some time or other in the
|
|
silvery globe then shining upon him. His eye travelled
|
|
over the length and breadth of that distant country--over
|
|
the Bay of Rainbows, the sombre Sea of Crises, the Ocean
|
|
of Storms, the Lake of Dreams, the vast Walled Plains,
|
|
and the wondrous Ring Mountains--till he almost felt
|
|
himself to be voyaging bodily through its wild scenes,
|
|
standing on its hollow hills, traversing its deserts,
|
|
descending its vales and old sea bottoms, or mounting
|
|
to the edges of its craters.
|
|
|
|
While he watched the far-removed landscape a tawny stain
|
|
grew into being on the lower verge--the eclipse had begun.
|
|
This marked a preconcerted moment--for the remote celestial
|
|
phenomenon had been pressed into sublunary service as
|
|
a lover's signal. Yeobright's mind flew back to earth
|
|
at the sight; he arose, shook himself and listened.
|
|
Minute after minute passed by, perhaps ten minutes passed,
|
|
and the shadow on the moon perceptibly widened.
|
|
He heard a rustling on his left hand, a cloaked figure
|
|
with an upturned face appeared at the base of the Barrow,
|
|
and Clym descended. In a moment the figure was in his arms,
|
|
and his lips upon hers.
|
|
|
|
"My Eustacia!"
|
|
|
|
"Clym, dearest!"
|
|
|
|
Such a situation had less than three months brought forth.
|
|
|
|
They remained long without a single utterance, for no
|
|
language could reach the level of their condition--words
|
|
were as the rusty implements of a by-gone barbarous epoch,
|
|
and only to be occasionally tolerated.
|
|
|
|
"I began to wonder why you did not come," said Yeobright,
|
|
when she had withdrawn a little from his embrace.
|
|
|
|
"You said ten minutes after the first mark of shade
|
|
on the edge of the moon, and that's what it is now."
|
|
|
|
"Well, let us only think that here we are."
|
|
|
|
Then, holding each other's hand, they were again silent,
|
|
and the shadow on the moon's disc grew a little larger.
|
|
|
|
"Has it seemed long since you last saw me?" she asked.
|
|
|
|
"It has seemed sad."
|
|
|
|
"And not long? That's because you occupy yourself, and so
|
|
blind yourself to my absence. To me, who can do nothing,
|
|
it has been like living under stagnant water."
|
|
|
|
"I would rather bear tediousness, dear, than have time
|
|
made short by such means as have shortened mine."
|
|
|
|
"In what way is that? You have been thinking you wished
|
|
you did not love me."
|
|
|
|
"How can a man wish that, and yet love on? No, Eustacia."
|
|
|
|
"Men can, women cannot."
|
|
|
|
"Well, whatever I may have thought, one thing is certain--I
|
|
do love you--past all compass and description. I love you
|
|
to oppressiveness--I, who have never before felt more than
|
|
a pleasant passing fancy for any woman I have ever seen.
|
|
Let me look right into your moonlit face and dwell on
|
|
every line and curve in it! Only a few hairbreadths make
|
|
the difference between this face and faces I have seen
|
|
many times before I knew you; yet what a difference--the
|
|
difference between everything and nothing at all.
|
|
One touch on that mouth again! there, and there, and there.
|
|
Your eyes seem heavy, Eustacia."
|
|
|
|
"No, it is my general way of looking. I think it arises
|
|
from my feeling sometimes an agonizing pity for myself
|
|
that I ever was born."
|
|
|
|
"You don't feel it now?"
|
|
|
|
"No. Yet I know that we shall not love like this always.
|
|
Nothing can ensure the continuance of love. It will
|
|
evaporate like a spirit, and so I feel full of fears."
|
|
|
|
"You need not."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, you don't know. You have seen more than I,
|
|
and have been into cities and among people that I have
|
|
only heard of, and have lived more years than I; but yet
|
|
I am older at this than you. I loved another man once,
|
|
and now I love you."
|
|
|
|
"In God's mercy don't talk so, Eustacia!"
|
|
|
|
"But I do not think I shall be the one who wearies first.
|
|
It will, I fear, end in this way: your mother will find out
|
|
that you meet me, and she will influence you against me!"
|
|
|
|
"That can never be. She knows of these meetings already."
|
|
|
|
"And she speaks against me?"
|
|
|
|
"I will not say."
|
|
|
|
"There, go away! Obey her. I shall ruin you. It is foolish
|
|
of you to meet me like this. Kiss me, and go away forever.
|
|
Forever--do you hear?--forever!"
|
|
|
|
"Not I."
|
|
|
|
"It is your only chance. Many a man's love has been
|
|
a curse to him."
|
|
|
|
"You are desperate, full of fancies, and wilful;
|
|
and you misunderstand. I have an additional reason
|
|
for seeing you tonight besides love of you. For though,
|
|
unlike you, I feel our affection may be eternal.
|
|
I feel with you in this, that our present mode of existence
|
|
cannot last."
|
|
|
|
"Oh! 'tis your mother. Yes, that's it! I knew it."
|
|
|
|
"Never mind what it is. Believe this, I cannot let
|
|
myself lose you. I must have you always with me.
|
|
This very evening I do not like to let you go.
|
|
There is only one cure for this anxiety, dearest--you must
|
|
be my wife."
|
|
|
|
She started--then endeavoured to say calmly, "Cynics say
|
|
that cures the anxiety by curing the love."
|
|
|
|
"But you must answer me. Shall I claim you some day--I
|
|
don't mean at once?"
|
|
|
|
"I must think," Eustacia murmured. "At present speak
|
|
of Paris to me. Is there any place like it on earth?"
|
|
|
|
"It is very beautiful. But will you be mine?"
|
|
|
|
"I will be nobody else's in the world--does that satisfy you?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, for the present."
|
|
|
|
"Now tell me of the Tuileries, and the Louvre,"
|
|
she continued evasively.
|
|
|
|
"I hate talking of Paris! Well, I remember one sunny room
|
|
in the Louvre which would make a fitting place for you to live
|
|
in--the Galerie d'Apollon. Its windows are mainly east;
|
|
and in the early morning, when the sun is bright,
|
|
the whole apartment is in a perfect blaze of splendour.
|
|
The rays bristle and dart from the encrustations of gilding
|
|
to the magnificent inlaid coffers, from the coffers to
|
|
the gold and silver plate, from the plate to the jewels
|
|
and precious stones, from these to the enamels, till there
|
|
is a perfect network of light which quite dazzles the eye.
|
|
But now, about our marriage----"
|
|
|
|
"And Versailles--the King's Gallery is some such
|
|
gorgeous room, is it not?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. But what's the use of talking of gorgeous rooms?
|
|
By the way, the Little Trianon would suit us beautifully
|
|
to live in, and you might walk in the gardens in the
|
|
moonlight and think you were in some English shrubbery;
|
|
It is laid out in English fashion."
|
|
|
|
"I should hate to think that!"
|
|
|
|
"Then you could keep to the lawn in front of the Grand Palace.
|
|
All about there you would doubtless feel in a world
|
|
of historical romance."
|
|
|
|
He went on, since it was all new to her, and described
|
|
Fontainebleau, St. Cloud, the Bois, and many other
|
|
familiar haunts of the Parisians; till she said--
|
|
|
|
"When used you to go to these places?"
|
|
|
|
"On Sundays."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, yes. I dislike English Sundays. How I should chime
|
|
in with their manners over there! Dear Clym, you'll go
|
|
back again?"
|
|
|
|
Clym shook his head, and looked at the eclipse.
|
|
|
|
"If you'll go back again I'll--be something,"
|
|
she said tenderly, putting her head near his breast.
|
|
"If you'll agree I'll give my promise, without making
|
|
you wait a minute longer."
|
|
|
|
"How extraordinary that you and my mother should be
|
|
of one mind about this!" said Yeobright. "I have vowed
|
|
not to go back, Eustacia. It is not the place I dislike;
|
|
it is the occupation."
|
|
|
|
"But you can go in some other capacity."
|
|
|
|
"No. Besides, it would interfere with my scheme.
|
|
Don't press that, Eustacia. Will you marry me?"
|
|
|
|
"I cannot tell."
|
|
|
|
"Now--never mind Paris; it is no better than other spots.
|
|
Promise, sweet!"
|
|
|
|
"You will never adhere to your education plan, I am
|
|
quite sure; and then it will be all right for me;
|
|
and so I promise to be yours for ever and ever."
|
|
|
|
Clym brought her face towards his by a gentle pressure
|
|
of the hand, and kissed her.
|
|
|
|
"Ah! but you don't know what you have got in me," she said.
|
|
"Sometimes I think there is not that in Eustacia Vye
|
|
which will make a good homespun wife. Well, let it go--see
|
|
how our time is slipping, slipping, slipping!" She pointed
|
|
towards the half-eclipsed moon.
|
|
|
|
"You are too mournful."
|
|
|
|
"No. Only I dread to think of anything beyond the present.
|
|
What is, we know. We are together now, and it is unknown
|
|
how long we shall be so; the unknown always fills my mind
|
|
with terrible possibilities, even when I may reasonably
|
|
expect it to be cheerful....Clym, the eclipsed moonlight
|
|
shines upon your face with a strange foreign colour,
|
|
and shows its shape as if it were cut out in gold.
|
|
That means that you should be doing better things
|
|
than this."
|
|
|
|
"You are ambitious, Eustacia--no, not exactly ambitious,
|
|
luxurious. I ought to be of the same vein, to make
|
|
you happy, I suppose. And yet, far from that, I could
|
|
live and die in a hermitage here, with proper work to do."
|
|
|
|
There was that in his tone which implied distrust of his
|
|
position as a solicitous lover, a doubt if he were acting
|
|
fairly towards one whose tastes touched his own only
|
|
at rare and infrequent points. She saw his meaning,
|
|
and whispered, in a low, full accent of eager assurance
|
|
"Don't mistake me, Clym--though I should like Paris,
|
|
I love you for yourself alone. To be your wife and live
|
|
in Paris would be heaven to me; but I would rather live
|
|
with you in a hermitage here than not be yours at all.
|
|
It is gain to me either way, and very great gain.
|
|
There's my too candid confession."
|
|
|
|
"Spoken like a woman. And now I must soon leave you.
|
|
I'll walk with you towards your house."
|
|
|
|
"But must you go home yet?" she asked. "Yes, the sand has
|
|
nearly slipped away, I see, and the eclipse is creeping
|
|
on more and more. Don't go yet! Stop till the hour has
|
|
run itself out; then I will not press you any more.
|
|
You will go home and sleep well; I keep sighing in my
|
|
sleep! Do you ever dream of me?"
|
|
|
|
"I cannot recollect a clear dream of you."
|
|
|
|
"I see your face in every scene of my dreams, and hear
|
|
your voice in every sound. I wish I did not. It is
|
|
too much what I feel. They say such love never lasts.
|
|
But it must! And yet once, I remember, I saw an officer
|
|
of the Hussars ride down the street at Budmouth,
|
|
and though he was a total stranger and never spoke to me,
|
|
I loved him till I thought I should really die of love--
|
|
but I didn't die, and at last I left off caring for him.
|
|
How terrible it would be if a time should come when I could
|
|
not love you, my Clym!"
|
|
|
|
"Please don't say such reckless things. When we see such
|
|
a time at hand we will say, 'I have outlived my faith
|
|
and purpose,' and die. There, the hour has expired--now
|
|
let us walk on."
|
|
|
|
Hand in hand they went along the path towards Mistover.
|
|
When they were near the house he said, "It is too late
|
|
for me to see your grandfather tonight. Do you think he
|
|
will object to it?"
|
|
|
|
"I will speak to him. I am so accustomed to be my own
|
|
mistress that it did not occur to me that we should have
|
|
to ask him."
|
|
|
|
Then they lingeringly separated, and Clym descended
|
|
towards Blooms-End.
|
|
|
|
And as he walked further and further from the charmed
|
|
atmosphere of his Olympian girl his face grew sad with
|
|
a new sort of sadness. A perception of the dilemma in
|
|
which his love had placed him came back in full force.
|
|
In spite of Eustacia's apparent willingness to wait
|
|
through the period of an unpromising engagement, till he
|
|
should be established in his new pursuit, he could not
|
|
but perceive at moments that she loved him rather as a
|
|
visitant from a gay world to which she rightly belonged
|
|
than as a man with a purpose opposed to that recent past
|
|
of his which so interested her. It meant that, though she
|
|
made no conditions as to his return to the French capital,
|
|
this was what she secretly longed for in the event of marriage;
|
|
and it robbed him of many an otherwise pleasant hour.
|
|
Along with that came the widening breach between himself
|
|
and his mother. Whenever any little occurrence had brought
|
|
into more prominence than usual the disappointment that he
|
|
was causing her it had sent him on lone and moody walks;
|
|
or he was kept awake a great part of the night by the
|
|
turmoil of spirit which such a recognition created.
|
|
If Mrs. Yeobright could only have been led to see what a
|
|
sound and worthy purpose this purpose of his was and how
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little it was being affected by his devotions to Eustacia,
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how differently would she regard him!
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Thus as his sight grew accustomed to the first
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blinding halo kindled about him by love and beauty,
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Yeobright began to perceive what a strait he was in.
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Sometimes he wished that he had never known Eustacia,
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immediately to retract the wish as brutal. Three antagonistic
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growths had to be kept alive: his mother's trust in him,
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his plan for becoming a teacher, and Eustacia's happiness.
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His fervid nature could not afford to relinquish one
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of these, though two of the three were as many as he
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could hope to preserve. Though his love was as chaste
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as that of Petrarch for his Laura, it had made fetters
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of what previously was only a difficulty. A position which
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was not too simple when he stood whole-hearted had become
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indescribably complicated by the addition of Eustacia.
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Just when his mother was beginning to tolerate one scheme
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he had introduced another still bitterer than the first,
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and the combination was more than she could bear.
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5 - Sharp Words Are Spoken, and a Crisis Ensues
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When Yeobright was not with Eustacia he was sitting slavishly
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over his books; when he was not reading he was meeting her.
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These meetings were carried on with the greatest secrecy.
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One afternoon his mother came home from a morning visit
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to Thomasin. He could see from a disturbance in the lines
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of her face that something had happened.
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"I have been told an incomprehensible thing,"
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she said mournfully. "The captain has let out
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at the Woman that you and Eustacia Vye are engaged to be married."
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"We are," said Yeobright. "But it may not be yet
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for a very long time."
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"I should hardly think it WOULD be yet for a very
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long time! You will take her to Paris, I suppose?"
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She spoke with weary hopelessness.
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"I am not going back to Paris."
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"What will you do with a wife, then?"
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"Keep a school in Budmouth, as I have told you."
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"That's incredible! The place is overrun with schoolmasters.
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You have no special qualifications. What possible chance
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is there for such as you?"
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"There is no chance of getting rich. But with my system
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of education, which is as new as it is true, I shall
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do a great deal of good to my fellow-creatures."
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"Dreams, dreams! If there had been any system left to be
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invented they would have found it out at the universities
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long before this time."
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"Never, Mother. They cannot find it out, because their
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teachers don't come in contact with the class which
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demands such a system--that is, those who have had no
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preliminary training. My plan is one for instilling high
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knowledge into empty minds without first cramming them
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with what has to be uncrammed again before true study begins."
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"I might have believed you if you had kept yourself free
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from entanglements; but this woman--if she had been
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a good girl it would have been bad enough; but being----"
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"She is a good girl."
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"So you think. A Corfu bandmaster's daughter! What has
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her life been? Her surname even is not her true one."
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"She is Captain Vye's granddaughter, and her father merely
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took her mother's name. And she is a lady by instinct."
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"They call him 'captain,' but anybody is captain."
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"He was in the Royal Navy!"
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"No doubt he has been to sea in some tub or other.
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Why doesn't he look after her? No lady would rove about
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the heath at all hours of the day and night as she does.
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But that's not all of it. There was something queer between
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her and Thomasin's husband at one time--I am as sure of it
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as that I stand here."
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"Eustacia has told me. He did pay her a little
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attention a year ago; but there's no harm in that.
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I like her all the better."
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"Clym," said his mother with firmness, "I have no
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proofs against her, unfortunately. But if she makes
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you a good wife, there has never been a bad one."
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"Believe me, you are almost exasperating,"
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said Yeobright vehemently. "And this very day I had
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intended to arrange a meeting between you. But you
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give me no peace; you try to thwart my wishes in everything."
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"I hate the thought of any son of mine marrying badly! I
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|
wish I had never lived to see this; it is too much for
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me--it is more than I dreamt!" She turned to the window.
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Her breath was coming quickly, and her lips were pale,
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parted, and trembling.
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"Mother," said Clym, "whatever you do, you will always
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be dear to me--that you know. But one thing I have a
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right to say, which is, that at my age I am old enough
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to know what is best for me."
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Mrs. Yeobright remained for some time silent and shaken,
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as if she could say no more. Then she replied, "Best? Is it
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best for you to injure your prospects for such a voluptuous,
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idle woman as that? Don't you see that by the very fact
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of your choosing her you prove that you do not know
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what is best for you? You give up your whole thought--you
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set your whole soul--to please a woman."
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"I do. And that woman is you."
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"How can you treat me so flippantly!" said his mother,
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turning again to him with a tearful look.
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"You are unnatural, Clym, and I did not expect it."
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"Very likely," said he cheerlessly. "You did not know
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the measure you were going to mete me, and therefore did
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not know the measure that would be returned to you again."
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"You answer me; you think only of her. You stick to her
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in all things."
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"That proves her to be worthy. I have never yet supported
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what is bad. And I do not care only for her. I care
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for you and for myself, and for anything that is good.
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When a woman once dislikes another she is merciless!"
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"O Clym! please don't go setting down as my fault what is
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|
your obstinate wrongheadedness. If you wished to connect
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yourself with an unworthy person why did you come home
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here to do it? Why didn't you do it in Paris?--it is more
|
|
the fashion there. You have come only to distress me,
|
|
a lonely woman, and shorten my days! I wish that you
|
|
would bestow your presence where you bestow your love!"
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Clym said huskily, "You are my mother. I will say no
|
|
more--beyond this, that I beg your pardon for having thought
|
|
this my home. I will no longer inflict myself upon you;
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I'll go." And he went out with tears in his eyes.
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It was a sunny afternoon at the beginning of summer,
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|
and the moist hollows of the heath had passed from their
|
|
brown to their green stage. Yeobright walked to the edge
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|
of the basin which extended down from Mistover and Rainbarrow.
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|
By this time he was calm, and he looked over the landscape.
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|
In the minor valleys, between the hillocks which
|
|
diversified the contour of the vale, the fresh young
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|
ferns were luxuriantly growing up, ultimately to reach
|
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a height of five or six feet. He descended a little way,
|
|
flung himself down in a spot where a path emerged from one
|
|
of the small hollows, and waited. Hither it was that he
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|
had promised Eustacia to bring his mother this afternoon,
|
|
that they might meet and be friends. His attempt had utterly failed.
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|
He was in a nest of vivid green. The ferny vegetation
|
|
round him, though so abundant, was quite uniform--it
|
|
was a grove of machine-made foliage, a world of green
|
|
triangles with saw-edges, and not a single flower.
|
|
The air was warm with a vaporous warmth, and the stillness
|
|
was unbroken. Lizards, grasshoppers, and ants were
|
|
the only living things to be beheld. The scene seemed
|
|
to belong to the ancient world of the carboniferous period,
|
|
when the forms of plants were few, and of the fern kind;
|
|
when there was neither bud nor blossom, nothing but a
|
|
monotonous extent of leafage, amid which no bird sang.
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|
When he had reclined for some considerable time,
|
|
gloomily pondering, he discerned above the ferns a
|
|
drawn bonnet of white silk approaching from the left,
|
|
and Yeobright knew directly that it covered the head
|
|
of her he loved. His heart awoke from its apathy to a
|
|
warm excitement, and, jumping to his feet, he said aloud,
|
|
"I knew she was sure to come."
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|
|
|
She vanished in a hollow for a few moments, and then
|
|
her whole form unfolded itself from the brake.
|
|
|
|
"Only you here?" she exclaimed, with a disappointed air,
|
|
whose hollowness was proved by her rising redness and her
|
|
half-guilty low laugh. "Where is Mrs. Yeobright?"
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|
|
|
"She has not come," he replied in a subdued tone.
|
|
|
|
"I wish I had known that you would be here alone,"
|
|
she said seriously, "and that we were going to have such
|
|
an idle, pleasant time as this. Pleasure not known
|
|
beforehand is half wasted; to anticipate it is to double it.
|
|
I have not thought once today of having you all to myself
|
|
this afternoon, and the actual moment of a thing is so soon gone."
|
|
|
|
"It is indeed."
|
|
|
|
"Poor Clym!" she continued, looking tenderly into his face.
|
|
"You are sad. Something has happened at your home.
|
|
Never mind what is--let us only look at what seems."
|
|
|
|
"But, darling, what shall we do?" said he.
|
|
|
|
"Still go on as we do now--just live on from meeting
|
|
to meeting, never minding about another day. You, I know,
|
|
are always thinking of that--I can see you are. But you
|
|
must not--will you, dear Clym?"
|
|
|
|
"You are just like all women. They are ever content to build
|
|
their lives on any incidental position that offers itself;
|
|
whilst men would fain make a globe to suit them.
|
|
Listen to this, Eustacia. There is a subject I have
|
|
determined to put off no longer. Your sentiment on
|
|
the wisdom of Carpe diem does not impress me today.
|
|
Our present mode of life must shortly be brought to an end."
|
|
|
|
"It is your mother!"
|
|
|
|
"It is. I love you none the less in telling you;
|
|
it is only right you should know."
|
|
|
|
"I have feared my bliss," she said, with the merest motion
|
|
of her lips. "It has been too intense and consuming."
|
|
|
|
"There is hope yet. There are forty years of work in me yet,
|
|
and why should you despair? I am only at an awkward turning.
|
|
I wish people wouldn't be so ready to think that there
|
|
is no progress without uniformity."
|
|
|
|
"Ah--your mind runs off to the philosophical side of it.
|
|
Well, these sad and hopeless obstacles are welcome in
|
|
one sense, for they enable us to look with indifference
|
|
upon the cruel satires that Fate loves to indulge in.
|
|
I have heard of people, who, upon coming suddenly
|
|
into happiness, have died from anxiety lest they should
|
|
not live to enjoy it. I felt myself in that whimsical
|
|
state of uneasiness lately; but I shall be spared it now.
|
|
Let us walk on."
|
|
|
|
Clym took the hand which was already bared for him--it
|
|
was a favourite way with them to walk bare hand in bare
|
|
hand--and led her through the ferns. They formed a very
|
|
comely picture of love at full flush, as they walked along
|
|
the valley that late afternoon, the sun sloping down on
|
|
their right, and throwing their thin spectral shadows,
|
|
tall as poplar trees, far out across the furze and fern.
|
|
Eustacia went with her head thrown back fancifully,
|
|
a certain glad and voluptuous air of triumph pervading her
|
|
eyes at having won by her own unaided self a man who was
|
|
her perfect complement in attainment, appearance, and age.
|
|
On the young man's part, the paleness of face which he had
|
|
brought with him from Paris, and the incipient marks of time
|
|
and thought, were less perceptible than when he returned,
|
|
the healthful and energetic sturdiness which was his by
|
|
nature having partially recovered its original proportions.
|
|
They wandered onward till they reached the nether
|
|
margin of the heath, where it became marshy and merged
|
|
in moorland.
|
|
|
|
"I must part from you here, Clym," said Eustacia.
|
|
|
|
They stood still and prepared to bid each other farewell.
|
|
Everything before them was on a perfect level.
|
|
The sun, resting on the horizon line, streamed across
|
|
the ground from between copper-coloured and lilac clouds,
|
|
stretched out in flats beneath a sky of pale soft green.
|
|
All dark objects on the earth that lay towards the sun
|
|
were overspread by a purple haze, against which groups
|
|
of wailing gnats shone out, rising upwards and dancing about
|
|
like sparks of fire.
|
|
|
|
"O! this leaving you is too hard to bear!"
|
|
exclaimed Eustacia in a sudden whisper of anguish.
|
|
"Your mother will influence you too much; I shall not be
|
|
judged fairly, it will get afloat that I am not a good girl,
|
|
and the witch story will be added to make me blacker!"
|
|
|
|
"They cannot. Nobody dares to speak disrespectfully
|
|
of you or of me."
|
|
|
|
"Oh how I wish I was sure of never losing you--that you
|
|
could not be able to desert me anyhow!"
|
|
|
|
Clym stood silent a moment. His feelings were high,
|
|
the moment was passionate, and he cut the knot.
|
|
|
|
"You shall be sure of me, darling," he said, folding her
|
|
in his arms. "We will be married at once."
|
|
|
|
"O Clym!"
|
|
|
|
"Do you agree to it?"
|
|
|
|
"If--if we can."
|
|
|
|
"We certainly can, both being of full age. And I have
|
|
not followed my occupation all these years without having
|
|
accumulated money; and if you will agree to live in a tiny
|
|
cottage somewhere on the heath, until I take a house in
|
|
Budmouth for the school, we can do it at a very little expense."
|
|
|
|
"How long shall we have to live in the tiny cottage, Clym?"
|
|
|
|
"About six months. At the end of that time I shall
|
|
have finished my reading--yes, we will do it, and this
|
|
heart-aching will be over. We shall, of course, live in
|
|
absolute seclusion, and our married life will only begin
|
|
to outward view when we take the house in Budmouth,
|
|
where I have already addressed a letter on the matter.
|
|
Would your grandfather allow you?"
|
|
|
|
"I think he would--on the understanding that it should
|
|
not last longer than six months."
|
|
|
|
"I will guarantee that, if no misfortune happens."
|
|
|
|
"If no misfortune happens," she repeated slowly.
|
|
|
|
"Which is not likely. Dearest, fix the exact day."
|
|
|
|
And then they consulted on the question, and the day
|
|
was chosen. It was to be a fortnight from that time.
|
|
|
|
This was the end of their talk, and Eustacia left him.
|
|
Clym watched her as she retired towards the sun.
|
|
The luminous rays wrapped her up with her increasing distance,
|
|
and the rustle of her dress over the sprouting sedge
|
|
and grass died away. As he watched, the dead flat of
|
|
the scenery overpowered him, though he was fully alive
|
|
to the beauty of that untarnished early summer green
|
|
which was worn for the nonce by the poorest blade.
|
|
There was something in its oppressive horizontality
|
|
which too much reminded him of the arena of life; it gave
|
|
him a sense of bare equality with, and no superiority to,
|
|
a single living thing under the sun.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia was now no longer the goddess but the woman to him,
|
|
a being to fight for, support, help, be maligned for.
|
|
Now that he had reached a cooler moment he would have
|
|
preferred a less hasty marriage; but the card was laid,
|
|
and he determined to abide by the game. Whether Eustacia
|
|
was to add one other to the list of those who love too hotly
|
|
to love long and well, the forthcoming event was certainly
|
|
a ready way of proving.
|
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|
|
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|
|
6 - Yeobright Goes, and the Breach Is Complete
|
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|
|
|
|
All that evening smart sounds denoting an active packing up
|
|
came from Yeobright's room to the ears of his mother downstairs.
|
|
|
|
Next morning he departed from the house and again proceeded
|
|
across the heath. A long day's march was before him,
|
|
his object being to secure a dwelling to which he might
|
|
take Eustacia when she became his wife. Such a house,
|
|
small, secluded, and with its windows boarded up, he had
|
|
casually observed a month earlier, about two miles beyond
|
|
the village of East Egdon, and six miles distant altogether;
|
|
and thither he directed his steps today.
|
|
|
|
The weather was far different from that of the evening before.
|
|
The yellow and vapoury sunset which had wrapped up
|
|
Eustacia from his parting gaze had presaged change.
|
|
It was one of those not infrequent days of an English June
|
|
which are as wet and boisterous as November. The cold clouds
|
|
hastened on in a body, as if painted on a moving slide.
|
|
Vapours from other continents arrived upon the wind,
|
|
which curled and parted round him as he walked on.
|
|
|
|
At length Clym reached the margin of a fir and beech
|
|
plantation that had been enclosed from heath land in
|
|
the year of his birth. Here the trees, laden heavily
|
|
with their new and humid leaves, were now suffering
|
|
more damage than during the highest winds of winter,
|
|
when the boughs are especially disencumbered to do battle
|
|
with the storm. The wet young beeches were undergoing
|
|
amputations, bruises, cripplings, and harsh lacerations,
|
|
from which the wasting sap would bleed for many a day
|
|
to come, and which would leave scars visible till the day
|
|
of their burning. Each stem was wrenched at the root,
|
|
where it moved like a bone in its socket, and at every
|
|
onset of the gale convulsive sounds came from the branches,
|
|
as if pain were felt. In a neighbouring brake a finch
|
|
was trying to sing; but the wind blew under his feathers
|
|
till they stood on end, twisted round his little tail,
|
|
and made him give up his song.
|
|
|
|
Yet a few yards to Yeobright's left, on the open heath,
|
|
how ineffectively gnashed the storm! Those gusts which
|
|
tore the trees merely waved the furze and heather in a
|
|
light caress. Egdon was made for such times as these.
|
|
|
|
Yeobright reached the empty house about midday.
|
|
It was almost as lonely as that of Eustacia's grandfather,
|
|
but the fact that it stood near a heath was disguised
|
|
by a belt of firs which almost enclosed the premises.
|
|
He journeyed on about a mile further to the village in which
|
|
the owner lived, and, returning with him to the house,
|
|
arrangements were completed, and the man undertook that one
|
|
room at least should be ready for occupation the next day.
|
|
Clym's intention was to live there alone until Eustacia
|
|
should join him on their wedding-day.
|
|
|
|
Then he turned to pursue his way homeward through the
|
|
drizzle that had so greatly transformed the scene.
|
|
The ferns, among which he had lain in comfort yesterday,
|
|
were dripping moisture from every frond, wetting his legs
|
|
through as he brushed past; and the fur of the rabbits
|
|
leaping before him was clotted into dark locks by the same
|
|
watery surrounding.
|
|
|
|
He reached home damp and weary enough after his ten-
|
|
mile walk. It had hardly been a propitious beginning,
|
|
but he had chosen his course, and would show no swerving.
|
|
The evening and the following morning were spent in
|
|
concluding arrangements for his departure. To stay at
|
|
home a minute longer than necessary after having once
|
|
come to his determination would be, he felt, only to give
|
|
new pain to his mother by some word, look, or deed.
|
|
|
|
He had hired a conveyance and sent off his goods
|
|
by two o'clock that day. The next step was to get
|
|
some furniture, which, after serving for temporary use
|
|
in the cottage, would be available for the house at
|
|
Budmouth when increased by goods of a better description.
|
|
A mart extensive enough for the purpose existed at Anglebury,
|
|
some miles beyond the spot chosen for his residence,
|
|
and there he resolved to pass the coming night.
|
|
|
|
It now only remained to wish his mother good-bye. She was
|
|
sitting by the window as usual when he came downstairs.
|
|
|
|
"Mother, I am going to leave you," he said, holding out
|
|
his hand.
|
|
|
|
"I thought you were, by your packing," replied Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
in a voice from which every particle of emotion was painfully
|
|
excluded.
|
|
|
|
"And you will part friends with me?"
|
|
|
|
"Certainly, Clym."
|
|
|
|
"I am going to be married on the twenty-fifth."
|
|
|
|
"I thought you were going to be married."
|
|
|
|
"And then--and then you must come and see us. You will
|
|
understand me better after that, and our situation
|
|
will not be so wretched as it is now."
|
|
|
|
"I do not think it likely I shall come to see you."
|
|
|
|
"Then it will not be my fault or Eustacia's, Mother.
|
|
Good-bye!"
|
|
|
|
He kissed her cheek, and departed in great misery, which was
|
|
several hours in lessening itself to a controllable level.
|
|
The position had been such that nothing more could be
|
|
said without, in the first place, breaking down a barrier;
|
|
and that was not to be done.
|
|
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No sooner had Yeobright gone from his mother's house than
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her face changed its rigid aspect for one of blank despair.
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After a while she wept, and her tears brought some relief.
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During the rest of the day she did nothing but walk up and
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down the garden path in a state bordering on stupefaction.
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Night came, and with it but little rest. The next day,
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with an instinct to do something which should reduce
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prostration to mournfulness, she went to her son's room,
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and with her own hands arranged it in order, for an imaginary
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time when he should return again. She gave some attention
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to her flowers, but it was perfunctorily bestowed, for they
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no longer charmed her.
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It was a great relief when, early in the afternoon,
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Thomasin paid her an unexpected visit. This was not the first
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meeting between the relatives since Thomasin's marriage;
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and past blunders having been in a rough way rectified,
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they could always greet each other with pleasure and ease.
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The oblique band of sunlight which followed her through
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the door became the young wife well. It illuminated her
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as her presence illuminated the heath. In her movements,
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in her gaze, she reminded the beholder of the feathered
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creatures who lived around her home. All similes and
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allegories concerning her began and ended with birds.
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There was as much variety in her motions as in their flight.
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When she was musing she was a kestrel, which hangs
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in the air by an invisible motion of its wings.
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When she was in a high wind her light body was blown
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against trees and banks like a heron's. When she was
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frightened she darted noiselessly like a kingfisher.
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When she was serene she skimmed like a swallow, and that is
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how she was moving now.
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"You are looking very blithe, upon my word, Tamsie,"
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said Mrs. Yeobright, with a sad smile. "How is Damon?"
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"He is very well."
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"Is he kind to you, Thomasin?" And Mrs. Yeobright observed
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her narrowly.
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"Pretty fairly."
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"Is that honestly said?"
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"Yes, Aunt. I would tell you if he were unkind."
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She added, blushing, and with hesitation, "He--I don't
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know if I ought to complain to you about this, but I am
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not quite sure what to do. I want some money, you know,
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Aunt--some to buy little things for myself--and he
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doesn't give me any. I don't like to ask him; and yet,
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perhaps, he doesn't give it me because he doesn't know.
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Ought I to mention it to him, Aunt?"
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"Of course you ought. Have you never said a word
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on the matter?"
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"You see, I had some of my own," said Thomasin evasively,
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"and I have not wanted any of his until lately. I did
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just say something about it last week; but he seems--not
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to remember."
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"He must be made to remember. You are aware that I have
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a little box full of spade-guineas, which your uncle put
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into my hands to divide between yourself and Clym whenever
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I chose. Perhaps the time has come when it should be done.
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They can be turned into sovereigns at any moment."
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"I think I should like to have my share--that is, if you
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don't mind."
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"You shall, if necessary. But it is only proper that
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you should first tell your husband distinctly that you
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are without any, and see what he will do."
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"Very well, I will....Aunt, I have heard about Clym.
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I know you are in trouble about him, and that's why I
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have come."
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Mrs. Yeobright turned away, and her features worked
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in her attempt to conceal her feelings. Then she ceased
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to make any attempt, and said, weeping, "O Thomasin,
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do you think he hates me? How can he bear to grieve me so,
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when I have lived only for him through all these years?"
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"Hate you--no," said Thomasin soothingly. "It is only
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that he loves her too well. Look at it quietly--do.
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It is not so very bad of him. Do you know, I thought
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it not the worst match he could have made. Miss Vye's
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family is a good one on her mother's side; and her father
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was a romantic wanderer--a sort of Greek Ulysses."
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"It is no use, Thomasin; it is no use. Your intention
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is good; but I will not trouble you to argue. I have gone
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through the whole that can be said on either side times,
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and many times. Clym and I have not parted in anger;
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we have parted in a worse way. It is not a passionate
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quarrel that would have broken my heart; it is the steady
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opposition and persistence in going wrong that he has shown.
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O Thomasin, he was so good as a little boy--so tender
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and kind!"
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"He was, I know."
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"I did not think one whom I called mine would grow up
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to treat me like this. He spoke to me as if I opposed
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him to injure him. As though I could wish him ill!"
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"There are worse women in the world than Eustacia Vye."
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"There are too many better that's the agony of it.
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It was she, Thomasin, and she only, who led your husband
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to act as he did--I would swear it!"
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"No," said Thomasin eagerly. "It was before he knew me
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that he thought of her, and it was nothing but a mere flirtation."
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"Very well; we will let it be so. There is little use
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|
in unravelling that now. Sons must be blind if they will.
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Why is it that a woman can see from a distance what a man
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|
cannot see close? Clym must do as he will--he is nothing
|
|
more to me. And this is maternity--to give one's best
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|
years and best love to ensure the fate of being despised!"
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|
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"You are too unyielding. Think how many mothers there
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|
are whose sons have brought them to public shame by real
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|
crimes before you feel so deeply a case like this."
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|
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"Thomasin, don't lecture me--I can't have it. It is
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|
the excess above what we expect that makes the force
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|
of the blow, and that may not be greater in their case
|
|
than in mine--they may have foreseen the worst....I am
|
|
wrongly made, Thomasin," she added, with a mournful smile.
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|
"Some widows can guard against the wounds their children
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|
give them by turning their hearts to another husband
|
|
and beginning life again. But I always was a poor, weak,
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|
one-idea'd creature--I had not the compass of heart nor
|
|
the enterprise for that. Just as forlorn and stupefied
|
|
as I was when my husband's spirit flew away I have sat
|
|
ever since--never attempting to mend matters at all.
|
|
I was comparatively a young woman then, and I might have
|
|
had another family by this time, and have been comforted
|
|
by them for the failure of this one son."
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|
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"It is more noble in you that you did not."
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|
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"The more noble, the less wise."
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|
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"Forget it, and be soothed, dear Aunt. And I shall
|
|
not leave you alone for long. I shall come and see you
|
|
every day."
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|
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|
And for one week Thomasin literally fulfilled her word.
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|
She endeavoured to make light of the wedding; and brought
|
|
news of the preparations, and that she was invited
|
|
to be present. The next week she was rather unwell,
|
|
and did not appear. Nothing had as yet been done about
|
|
the guineas, for Thomasin feared to address her husband
|
|
again on the subject, and Mrs. Yeobright had insisted
|
|
upon this.
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|
|
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|
One day just before this time Wildeve was standing at
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the door of the Quiet Woman. In addition to the upward
|
|
path through the heath to Rainbarrow and Mistover,
|
|
there was a road which branched from the highway a short
|
|
distance below the inn, and ascended to Mistover by a
|
|
circuitous and easy incline. This was the only route
|
|
on that side for vehicles to the captain's retreat.
|
|
A light cart from the nearest town descended the road,
|
|
and the lad who was driving pulled up in front of the inn
|
|
for something to drink.
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|
|
|
"You come from Mistover?" said Wildeve.
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|
|
|
"Yes. They are taking in good things up there. Going to
|
|
be a wedding." And the driver buried his face in his mug.
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|
|
|
Wildeve had not received an inkling of the fact before,
|
|
and a sudden expression of pain overspread his face.
|
|
He turned for a moment into the passage to hide it.
|
|
Then he came back again.
|
|
|
|
"Do you mean Miss Vye?" he said. "How is it--that she
|
|
can be married so soon?"
|
|
|
|
"By the will of God and a ready young man, I suppose."
|
|
|
|
"You don't mean Mr. Yeobright?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. He has been creeping about with her all the spring."
|
|
|
|
"I suppose--she was immensely taken with him?"
|
|
|
|
"She is crazy about him, so their general servant
|
|
of all work tells me. And that lad Charley that looks
|
|
after the horse is all in a daze about it. The stun-
|
|
poll has got fond-like of her."
|
|
|
|
"Is she lively--is she glad? Going to be married so soon--well!"
|
|
|
|
"It isn't so very soon."
|
|
|
|
"No; not so very soon."
|
|
|
|
Wildeve went indoors to the empty room, a curious heartache
|
|
within him. He rested his elbow upon the mantelpiece
|
|
and his face upon his hand. When Thomasin entered
|
|
the room he did not tell her of what he had heard.
|
|
The old longing for Eustacia had reappeared in his
|
|
soul--and it was mainly because he had discovered
|
|
that it was another man's intention to possess her.
|
|
|
|
To be yearning for the difficult, to be weary of that offered;
|
|
to care for the remote, to dislike the near; it was Wildeve's
|
|
nature always. This is the true mark of the man of sentiment.
|
|
Though Wildeve's fevered feeling had not been elaborated
|
|
to real poetical compass, it was of the standard sort.
|
|
His might have been called the Rousseau of Egdon.
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|
|
|
|
|
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|
7 - The Morning and the Evening of a Day
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|
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|
The wedding morning came. Nobody would have imagined from
|
|
appearances that Blooms-End had any interest in Mistover
|
|
that day. A solemn stillness prevailed around the house
|
|
of Clym's mother, and there was no more animation indoors.
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright, who had declined to attend the ceremony,
|
|
sat by the breakfast table in the old room which communicated
|
|
immediately with the porch, her eyes listlessly directed
|
|
towards the open door. It was the room in which,
|
|
six months earlier, the merry Christmas party had met,
|
|
to which Eustacia came secretly and as a stranger.
|
|
The only living thing that entered now was a sparrow;
|
|
and seeing no movements to cause alarm, he hopped boldly round
|
|
the room, endeavoured to go out by the window, and fluttered
|
|
among the pot-flowers. This roused the lonely sitter,
|
|
who got up, released the bird, and went to the door.
|
|
She was expecting Thomasin, who had written the night
|
|
before to state that the time had come when she would wish
|
|
to have the money and that she would if possible call
|
|
this day.
|
|
|
|
Yet Thomasin occupied Mrs. Yeobright's thoughts but
|
|
slightly as she looked up the valley of the heath,
|
|
alive with butterflies, and with grasshoppers whose
|
|
husky noises on every side formed a whispered chorus.
|
|
A domestic drama, for which the preparations were now
|
|
being made a mile or two off, was but little less vividly
|
|
present to her eyes than if enacted before her. She tried
|
|
to dismiss the vision, and walked about the garden plot;
|
|
but her eyes ever and anon sought out the direction of the
|
|
parish church to which Mistover belonged, and her excited fancy
|
|
clove the hills which divided the building from her eyes.
|
|
The morning wore away. Eleven o'clock struck--could
|
|
it be that the wedding was then in progress? It must
|
|
be so. She went on imagining the scene at the church,
|
|
which he had by this time approached with his bride.
|
|
She pictured the little group of children by the gate
|
|
as the pony carriage drove up in which, as Thomasin
|
|
had learnt, they were going to perform the short journey.
|
|
Then she saw them enter and proceed to the chancel and kneel;
|
|
and the service seemed to go on.
|
|
|
|
She covered her face with her hands. "O, it is a mistake!"
|
|
she groaned. "And he will rue it some day, and think
|
|
of me!"
|
|
|
|
While she remained thus, overcome by her forebodings,
|
|
the old clock indoors whizzed forth twelve strokes.
|
|
Soon after, faint sounds floated to her ear from afar
|
|
over the hills. The breeze came from that quarter,
|
|
and it had brought with it the notes of distant bells,
|
|
gaily starting off in a peal: one, two, three, four, five.
|
|
The ringers at East Egdon were announcing the nuptials of
|
|
Eustacia and her son.
|
|
|
|
"Then it is over," she murmured. "Well, well! and life
|
|
too will be over soon. And why should I go on scalding my
|
|
face like this? Cry about one thing in life, cry about all;
|
|
one thread runs through the whole piece. And yet we say,
|
|
'a time to laugh!'"
|
|
|
|
Towards evening Wildeve came. Since Thomasin's marriage
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright had shown him that grim friendliness which
|
|
at last arises in all such cases of undesired affinity.
|
|
The vision of what ought to have been is thrown aside in
|
|
sheer weariness, and browbeaten human endeavour listlessly
|
|
makes the best of the fact that is. Wildeve, to do
|
|
him justice, had behaved very courteously to his wife's aunt;
|
|
and it was with no surprise that she saw him enter now.
|
|
|
|
"Thomasin has not been able to come, as she promised to do,"
|
|
he replied to her inquiry, which had been anxious,
|
|
for she knew that her niece was badly in want of money.
|
|
|
|
"The captain came down last night and personally pressed
|
|
her to join them today. So, not to be unpleasant,
|
|
she determined to go. They fetched her in the pony-chaise,
|
|
and are going to bring her back."
|
|
|
|
"Then it is done," said Mrs. Yeobright. "Have they gone
|
|
to their new home?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know. I have had no news from Mistover since
|
|
Thomasin left to go."
|
|
|
|
"You did not go with her?" said she, as if there might
|
|
be good reasons why.
|
|
|
|
"I could not," said Wildeve, reddening slightly.
|
|
"We could not both leave the house; it was rather
|
|
a busy morning, on account of Anglebury Great Market.
|
|
I believe you have something to give to Thomasin? If
|
|
you like, I will take it."
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright hesitated, and wondered if Wildeve knew
|
|
what the something was. "Did she tell you of this?"
|
|
she inquired.
|
|
|
|
"Not particularly. She casually dropped a remark about
|
|
having arranged to fetch some article or other."
|
|
|
|
"It is hardly necessary to send it. She can have it
|
|
whenever she chooses to come."
|
|
|
|
"That won't be yet. In the present state of her health
|
|
she must not go on walking so much as she has done."
|
|
He added, with a faint twang of sarcasm, "What wonderful
|
|
thing is it that I cannot be trusted to take?"
|
|
|
|
"Nothing worth troubling you with."
|
|
|
|
"One would think you doubted my honesty," he said,
|
|
with a laugh, though his colour rose in a quick
|
|
resentfulness frequent with him.
|
|
|
|
"You need think no such thing," said she drily.
|
|
"It is simply that I, in common with the rest of the world,
|
|
feel that there are certain things which had better be
|
|
done by certain people than by others."
|
|
|
|
"As you like, as you like," said Wildeve laconically.
|
|
"It is not worth arguing about. Well, I think I must turn
|
|
homeward again, as the inn must not be left long in charge
|
|
of the lad and the maid only."
|
|
|
|
He went his way, his farewell being scarcely so courteous
|
|
as his greeting. But Mrs. Yeobright knew him thoroughly
|
|
by this time, and took little notice of his manner,
|
|
good or bad.
|
|
|
|
When Wildeve was gone Mrs. Yeobright stood and considered
|
|
what would be the best course to adopt with regard to
|
|
the guineas, which she had not liked to entrust to Wildeve.
|
|
It was hardly credible that Thomasin had told him
|
|
to ask for them, when the necessity for them had arisen
|
|
from the difficulty of obtaining money at his hands.
|
|
At the same time Thomasin really wanted them, and might be
|
|
unable to come to Blooms-End for another week at least.
|
|
To take or send the money to her at the inn would be impolite,
|
|
since Wildeve would pretty surely be present, or would
|
|
discover the transaction; and if, as her aunt suspected,
|
|
he treated her less kindly than she deserved to be treated,
|
|
he might then get the whole sum out of her gentle hands.
|
|
But on this particular evening Thomasin was at Mistover,
|
|
and anything might be conveyed to her there without the
|
|
knowledge of her husband. Upon the whole the opportunity was
|
|
worth taking advantage of.
|
|
|
|
Her son, too, was there, and was now married.
|
|
There could be no more proper moment to render him his
|
|
share of the money than the present. And the chance
|
|
that would be afforded her, by sending him this gift,
|
|
of showing how far she was from bearing him ill-will,
|
|
cheered the sad mother's heart.
|
|
|
|
She went upstairs and took from a locked drawer a little box,
|
|
out of which she poured a hoard of broad unworn guineas
|
|
that had lain there many a year. There were a hundred
|
|
in all, and she divided them into two heaps, fifty in each.
|
|
Tying up these in small canvas bags, she went down to the
|
|
garden and called to Christian Cantle, who was loitering
|
|
about in hope of a supper which was not really owed him.
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright gave him the moneybags, charged him to go
|
|
to Mistover, and on no account to deliver them into any one's
|
|
hands save her son's and Thomasin's. On further thought
|
|
she deemed it advisable to tell Christian precisely what
|
|
the two bags contained, that he might be fully impressed
|
|
with their importance. Christian pocketed the moneybags,
|
|
promised the greatest carefulness, and set out on his way.
|
|
|
|
"You need not hurry," said Mrs. Yeobright. "It will
|
|
be better not to get there till after dusk, and then
|
|
nobody will notice you. Come back here to supper,
|
|
if it is not too late."
|
|
|
|
It was nearly nine o'clock when he began to ascend the vale
|
|
towards Mistover; but the long days of summer being at
|
|
their climax, the first obscurity of evening had only just
|
|
begun to tan the landscape. At this point of his journey
|
|
Christian heard voices, and found that they proceeded from
|
|
a company of men and women who were traversing a hollow
|
|
ahead of him, the tops only of their heads being visible.
|
|
|
|
He paused and thought of the money he carried. It was almost
|
|
too early even for Christian seriously to fear robbery;
|
|
nevertheless he took a precaution which ever since his
|
|
boyhood he had adopted whenever he carried more than
|
|
two or three shillings upon his person--a precaution
|
|
somewhat like that of the owner of the Pitt Diamond when
|
|
filled with similar misgivings. He took off his boots,
|
|
untied the guineas, and emptied the contents of one little
|
|
bag into the right boot, and of the other into the left,
|
|
spreading them as flatly as possible over the bottom
|
|
of each, which was really a spacious coffer by no means
|
|
limited to the size of the foot. Pulling them on again
|
|
and lacing them to the very top, he proceeded on his way,
|
|
more easy in his head than under his soles.
|
|
|
|
His path converged towards that of the noisy company,
|
|
and on coming nearer he found to his relief that they
|
|
were several Egdon people whom he knew very well,
|
|
while with them walked Fairway, of Blooms-End.
|
|
|
|
"What! Christian going too?" said Fairway as soon as he
|
|
recognized the newcomer. "You've got no young woman nor
|
|
wife to your name to gie a gown-piece to, I'm sure."
|
|
|
|
"What d'ye mean?" said Christian.
|
|
|
|
"Why, the raffle. The one we go to every year.
|
|
Going to the raffle as well as ourselves?"
|
|
|
|
"Never knew a word o't. Is it like cudgel playing or
|
|
other sportful forms of bloodshed? I don't want to go,
|
|
thank you, Mister Fairway, and no offence."
|
|
|
|
"Christian don't know the fun o't, and 'twould be a fine
|
|
sight for him," said a buxom woman. "There's no danger
|
|
at all, Christian. Every man puts in a shilling apiece,
|
|
and one wins a gown-piece for his wife or sweetheart
|
|
if he's got one."
|
|
|
|
"Well, as that's not my fortune there's no meaning in it
|
|
to me. But I should like to see the fun, if there's
|
|
nothing of the black art in it, and if a man may look
|
|
on without cost or getting into any dangerous wrangle?"
|
|
|
|
"There will be no uproar at all," said Timothy.
|
|
"Sure, Christian, if you'd like to come we'll see there's
|
|
no harm done."
|
|
|
|
"And no ba'dy gaieties, I suppose? You see, neighbours,
|
|
if so, it would be setting father a bad example, as he
|
|
is so light moral'd. But a gown-piece for a shilling,
|
|
and no black art--'tis worth looking in to see, and it
|
|
wouldn't hinder me half an hour. Yes, I'll come, if you'll
|
|
step a little way towards Mistover with me afterwards,
|
|
supposing night should have closed in, and nobody else
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is going that way?"
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One or two promised; and Christian, diverging from his
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direct path, turned round to the right with his companions
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towards the Quiet Woman.
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When they entered the large common room of the inn
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they found assembled there about ten men from among
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the neighbouring population, and the group was
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|
increased by the new contingent to double that number.
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Most of them were sitting round the room in seats divided
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|
by wooden elbows like those of crude cathedral stalls,
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which were carved with the initials of many an illustrious
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drunkard of former times who had passed his days and his
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|
nights between them, and now lay as an alcoholic cinder
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|
in the nearest churchyard. Among the cups on the long
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table before the sitters lay an open parcel of light
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drapery--the gown-piece, as it was called--which was
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to be raffled for. Wildeve was standing with his back
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|
to the fireplace smoking a cigar; and the promoter of
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the raffle, a packman from a distant town, was expatiating
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upon the value of the fabric as material for a summer dress.
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"Now, gentlemen," he continued, as the newcomers drew up
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to the table, "there's five have entered, and we want
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four more to make up the number. I think, by the faces
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of those gentlemen who have just come in, that they are
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shrewd enough to take advantage of this rare opportunity
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of beautifying their ladies at a very trifling expense."
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|
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Fairway, Sam, and another placed their shillings
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on the table, and the man turned to Christian.
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|
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"No, sir," said Christian, drawing back, with a quick gaze
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|
of misgiving. "I am only a poor chap come to look on,
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an it please ye, sir. I don't so much as know how you
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|
do it. If so be I was sure of getting it I would put
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down the shilling; but I couldn't otherwise."
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"I think you might almost be sure," said the pedlar.
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|
"In fact, now I look into your face, even if I can't say
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you are sure to win, I can say that I never saw anything
|
|
look more like winning in my life."
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|
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"You'll anyhow have the same chance as the rest of us,"
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said Sam.
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"And the extra luck of being the last comer," said another.
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"And I was born wi' a caul, and perhaps can be no more
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|
ruined than drowned?" Christian added, beginning to give way.
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|
|
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Ultimately Christian laid down his shilling, the raffle began,
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|
and the dice went round. When it came to Christian's turn
|
|
he took the box with a trembling hand, shook it fearfully,
|
|
and threw a pair-royal. Three of the others had thrown
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common low pairs, and all the rest mere points.
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|
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|
"The gentleman looked like winning, as I said," observed the
|
|
chapman blandly. "Take it, sir; the article is yours."
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|
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|
"Haw-haw-haw!" said Fairway. "I'm damned if this isn't
|
|
the quarest start that ever I knowed!"
|
|
|
|
"Mine?" asked Christian, with a vacant stare from his
|
|
target eyes. "I--I haven't got neither maid, wife,
|
|
nor widder belonging to me at all, and I'm afeard it
|
|
will make me laughed at to ha'e it, Master Traveller.
|
|
What with being curious to join in I never thought of that!
|
|
What shall I do wi' a woman's clothes in MY bedroom,
|
|
and not lose my decency!"
|
|
|
|
"Keep 'em, to be sure," said Fairway, "if it is only
|
|
for luck. Perhaps 'twill tempt some woman that thy poor
|
|
carcase had no power over when standing empty-handed."
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|
|
|
"Keep it, certainly," said Wildeve, who had idly watched
|
|
the scene from a distance.
|
|
|
|
The table was then cleared of the articles, and the men
|
|
began to drink.
|
|
|
|
"Well, to be sure!" said Christian, half to himself.
|
|
"To think I should have been born so lucky as this,
|
|
and not have found it out until now! What curious creatures
|
|
these dice be--powerful rulers of us all, and yet at my
|
|
command! I am sure I never need be afeared of anything
|
|
after this." He handled the dice fondly one by one.
|
|
"Why, sir," he said in a confidential whisper to Wildeve,
|
|
who was near his left hand, "if I could only use this power
|
|
that's in me of multiplying money I might do some good
|
|
to a near relation of yours, seeing what I've got about me
|
|
of hers--eh?" He tapped one of his money-laden boots upon
|
|
the floor.
|
|
|
|
"What do you mean?" said Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"That's a secret. Well, I must be going now." He looked
|
|
anxiously towards Fairway.
|
|
|
|
"Where are you going?" Wildeve asked.
|
|
|
|
"To Mistover Knap. I have to see Mrs. Thomasin there--
|
|
that's all."
|
|
|
|
"I am going there, too, to fetch Mrs. Wildeve. We can
|
|
walk together."
|
|
|
|
Wildeve became lost in thought, and a look of inward
|
|
illumination came into his eyes. It was money for his
|
|
wife that Mrs. Yeobright could not trust him with.
|
|
"Yet she could trust this fellow," he said to himself.
|
|
"Why doesn't that which belongs to the wife belong to the
|
|
husband too?"
|
|
|
|
He called to the pot-boy to bring him his hat, and said,
|
|
"Now, Christian, I am ready."
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Wildeve," said Christian timidly, as he turned to
|
|
leave the room, "would you mind lending me them wonderful
|
|
little things that carry my luck inside 'em, that I
|
|
might practise a bit by myself, you know?" He looked
|
|
wistfully at the dice and box lying on the mantlepiece.
|
|
|
|
"Certainly," said Wildeve carelessly. "They were only cut
|
|
out by some lad with his knife, and are worth nothing."
|
|
And Christian went back and privately pocketed them.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve opened the door and looked out. The night was
|
|
warm and cloudy. "By Gad! 'tis dark," he continued.
|
|
"But I suppose we shall find our way."
|
|
|
|
"If we should lose the path it might be awkward,"
|
|
said Christian. "A lantern is the only shield that will
|
|
make it safe for us."
|
|
|
|
"Let's have a lantern by all means." The stable lantern
|
|
was fetched and lighted. Christian took up his gownpiece,
|
|
and the two set out to ascend the hill.
|
|
|
|
Within the room the men fell into chat till their
|
|
attention was for a moment drawn to the chimney-corner.
|
|
This was large, and, in addition to its proper recess,
|
|
contained within its jambs, like many on Egdon,
|
|
a receding seat, so that a person might sit there
|
|
absolutely unobserved, provided there was no fire to light
|
|
him up, as was the case now and throughout the summer.
|
|
From the niche a single object protruded into the light
|
|
from the candles on the table. It was a clay pipe,
|
|
and its colour was reddish. The men had been attracted
|
|
to this object by a voice behind the pipe asking for a light.
|
|
|
|
"Upon my life, it fairly startled me when the man spoke!"
|
|
said Fairway, handing a candle. "Oh--'tis the reddleman!
|
|
You've kept a quiet tongue, young man."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I had nothing to say," observed Venn. In a few
|
|
minutes he arose and wished the company good night.
|
|
|
|
Meanwhile Wildeve and Christian had plunged into the heath.
|
|
|
|
It was a stagnant, warm, and misty night, full of all the
|
|
heavy perfumes of new vegetation not yet dried by hot sun,
|
|
and among these particularly the scent of the fern.
|
|
The lantern, dangling from Christian's hand, brushed the
|
|
feathery fronds in passing by, disturbing moths and
|
|
other winged insects, which flew out and alighted upon
|
|
its horny panes.
|
|
|
|
"So you have money to carry to Mrs. Wildeve?"
|
|
said Christian's companion, after a silence. "Don't you
|
|
think it very odd that it shouldn't be given to me?"
|
|
|
|
"As man and wife be one flesh, 'twould have been all
|
|
the same, I should think," said Christian. "But my strict
|
|
documents was, to give the money into Mrs. Wildeve's
|
|
hand--and 'tis well to do things right."
|
|
|
|
"No doubt," said Wildeve. Any person who had known the
|
|
circumstances might have perceived that Wildeve was mortified
|
|
by the discovery that the matter in transit was money,
|
|
and not, as he had supposed when at Blooms-End, some fancy
|
|
nick-nack which only interested the two women themselves.
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright's refusal implied that his honour was not
|
|
considered to be of sufficiently good quality to make
|
|
him a safer bearer of his wife's property.
|
|
|
|
"How very warm it is tonight, Christian!" he said,
|
|
panting, when they were nearly under Rainbarrow.
|
|
"Let us sit down for a few minutes, for Heaven's sake."
|
|
|
|
Wildeve flung himself down on the soft ferns;
|
|
and Christian, placing the lantern and parcel on
|
|
the ground, perched himself in a cramped position hard by,
|
|
his knees almost touching his chin. He presently thrust
|
|
one hand into his coat-pocket and began shaking it about.
|
|
|
|
"What are you rattling in there?" said Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"Only the dice, sir," said Christian, quickly withdrawing
|
|
his hand. "What magical machines these little things be,
|
|
Mr. Wildeve! 'Tis a game I should never get tired of.
|
|
Would you mind my taking 'em out and looking at 'em for
|
|
a minute, to see how they are made? I didn't like to look
|
|
close before the other men, for fear they should think it
|
|
bad manners in me." Christian took them out and examined
|
|
them in the hollow of his hand by the lantern light.
|
|
"That these little things should carry such luck,
|
|
and such charm, and such a spell, and such power in 'em,
|
|
passes all I ever heard or zeed," he went on, with a
|
|
fascinated gaze at the dice, which, as is frequently
|
|
the case in country places, were made of wood, the points
|
|
being burnt upon each face with the end of a wire.
|
|
|
|
"They are a great deal in a small compass, You think?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. Do ye suppose they really be the devil's playthings,
|
|
Mr. Wildeve? If so, 'tis no good sign that I be such
|
|
a lucky man."
|
|
|
|
"You ought to win some money, now that you've got them.
|
|
Any woman would marry you then. Now is your time,
|
|
Christian, and I would recommend you not to let it slip.
|
|
Some men are born to luck, some are not. I belong to the
|
|
latter class."
|
|
|
|
"Did you ever know anybody who was born to it besides myself?"
|
|
|
|
"O yes. I once heard of an Italian, who sat down at a gaming
|
|
table with only a louis, (that's a foreign sovereign),
|
|
in his pocket. He played on for twenty-four hours,
|
|
and won ten thousand pounds, stripping the bank he had
|
|
played against. Then there was another man who had lost
|
|
a thousand pounds, and went to the broker's next day
|
|
to sell stock, that he might pay the debt. The man to
|
|
whom he owed the money went with him in a hackney-coach;
|
|
and to pass the time they tossed who should pay the fare.
|
|
The ruined man won, and the other was tempted to continue
|
|
the game, and they played all the way. When the coachman
|
|
stopped he was told to drive home again: the whole thousand
|
|
pounds had been won back by the man who was going to sell."
|
|
|
|
"Ha--ha--splendid!" exclaimed Christian. "Go on--go on!"
|
|
|
|
"Then there was a man of London, who was only a waiter at
|
|
White's clubhouse. He began playing first half-crown stakes,
|
|
and then higher and higher, till he became very rich,
|
|
got an appointment in India, and rose to be Governor
|
|
of Madras. His daughter married a member of Parliament,
|
|
and the Bishop of Carlisle stood godfather to one of
|
|
the children."
|
|
|
|
"Wonderfull wonderfull"
|
|
|
|
"And once there was a young man in America who gambled till
|
|
he had lost his last dollar. He staked his watch and chain,
|
|
and lost as before; staked his umbrella, lost again;
|
|
staked his hat, lost again; staked his coat and stood in his
|
|
shirt-sleeves, lost again. Began taking off his breeches,
|
|
and then a looker-on gave him a trifle for his pluck.
|
|
With this he won. Won back his coat, won back his hat,
|
|
won back his umbrella, his watch, his money, and went
|
|
out of the door a rich man."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, 'tis too good--it takes away my breath! Mr. Wildeve,
|
|
I think I will try another shilling with you, as I am one
|
|
of that sort; no danger can come o't, and you can afford
|
|
to lose."
|
|
|
|
"Very well," said Wildeve, rising. Searching about
|
|
with the lantern, he found a large flat stone, which he
|
|
placed between himself and Christian, and sat down again.
|
|
The lantern was opened to give more light, and it's rays
|
|
directed upon the stone. Christian put down a shilling,
|
|
Wildeve another, and each threw. Christian won.
|
|
They played for two, Christian won again.
|
|
|
|
"Let us try four," said Wildeve. They played for four.
|
|
This time the stakes were won by Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, those little accidents will, of course, sometimes happen,
|
|
to the luckiest man," he observed.
|
|
|
|
"And now I have no more money!" explained Christian excitedly.
|
|
"And yet, if I could go on, I should get it back again,
|
|
and more. I wish this was mine." He struck his boot upon
|
|
the ground, so that the guineas chinked within.
|
|
|
|
"What! you have not put Mrs. Wildeve's money there?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. 'Tis for safety. Is it any harm to raffle with a
|
|
married lady's money when, if I win, I shall only keep
|
|
my winnings, and give her her own all the same; and if
|
|
t'other man wins, her money will go to the lawful owner?"
|
|
|
|
"None at all."
|
|
|
|
Wildeve had been brooding ever since they started on the mean
|
|
estimation in which he was held by his wife's friends;
|
|
and it cut his heart severely. As the minutes passed he
|
|
had gradually drifted into a revengeful intention without
|
|
knowing the precise moment of forming it. This was to
|
|
teach Mrs. Yeobright a lesson, as he considered it to be;
|
|
in other words, to show her if he could that her niece's
|
|
husband was the proper guardian of her niece's money.
|
|
|
|
"Well, here goes!" said Christian, beginning to unlace
|
|
one boot. "I shall dream of it nights and nights,
|
|
I suppose; but I shall always swear my flesh don't crawl
|
|
when I think o't!"
|
|
|
|
He thrust his hand into the boot and withdrew one
|
|
of poor Thomasin's precious guineas, piping hot.
|
|
Wildeve had already placed a sovereign on the stone.
|
|
The game was then resumed. Wildeve won first,
|
|
and Christian ventured another, winning himself this time.
|
|
The game fluctuated, but the average was in Wildeve's favour.
|
|
Both men became so absorbed in the game that they took
|
|
no heed of anything but the pigmy objects immediately
|
|
beneath their eyes, the flat stone, the open lantern,
|
|
the dice, and the few illuminated fern-leaves which lay
|
|
under the light, were the whole world to them.
|
|
|
|
At length Christian lost rapidly; and presently,
|
|
to his horror, the whole fifty guineas belonging
|
|
to Thomasin had been handed over to his adversary.
|
|
|
|
"I don't care--I don't care!" he moaned, and desperately
|
|
set about untying his left boot to get at the other fifty.
|
|
"The devil will toss me into the flames on his three-pronged
|
|
fork for this night's work, I know! But perhaps I shall
|
|
win yet, and then I'll get a wife to sit up with me o'
|
|
nights and I won't be afeard, I won't! Here's another for'ee,
|
|
my man!" He slapped another guinea down upon the stone,
|
|
and the dice-box was rattled again.
|
|
|
|
Time passed on. Wildeve began to be as excited as
|
|
Christian himself. When commencing the game his intention
|
|
had been nothing further than a bitter practical joke on
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright. To win the money, fairly or otherwise,
|
|
and to hand it contemptuously to Thomasin in her
|
|
aunt's presence, had been the dim outline of his purpose.
|
|
But men are drawn from their intentions even in the course
|
|
of carrying them out, and it was extremely doubtful,
|
|
by the time the twentieth guinea had been reached,
|
|
whether Wildeve was conscious of any other intention
|
|
than that of winning for his own personal benefit.
|
|
Moreover, he was now no longer gambling for his wife's money,
|
|
but for Yeobright's; though of this fact Christian,
|
|
in his apprehensiveness, did not inform him till afterwards.
|
|
|
|
It was nearly eleven o'clock, when, with almost a shriek,
|
|
Christian placed Yeobright's last gleaming guinea upon
|
|
the stone. In thirty seconds it had gone the way of
|
|
its companions.
|
|
|
|
Christian turned and flung himself on the ferns
|
|
in a convulsion of remorse, "O, what shall I do
|
|
with my wretched self?" he groaned. "What shall
|
|
I do? Will any good Heaven hae mercy upon my wicked soul?"
|
|
|
|
"Do? Live on just the same."
|
|
|
|
"I won't live on just the same! I'll die! I say you
|
|
are a--a----"
|
|
|
|
"A man sharper than my neighbour."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, a man sharper than my neighbour; a regular sharper!"
|
|
|
|
"Poor chips-in-porridge, you are very unmannerly."
|
|
|
|
"I don't know about that! And I say you be unmannerly!
|
|
You've got money that isn't your own. Half the guineas
|
|
are poor Mr. Clym's."
|
|
|
|
"How's that?"
|
|
|
|
"Because I had to gie fifty of 'em to him. Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
said so."
|
|
|
|
"Oh?...Well, 'twould have been more graceful of her
|
|
to have given them to his wife Eustacia. But they
|
|
are in my hands now."
|
|
|
|
Christian pulled on his boots, and with heavy breathings,
|
|
which could be heard to some distance, dragged his
|
|
limbs together, arose, and tottered away out of sight.
|
|
Wildeve set about shutting the lantern to return to the house,
|
|
for he deemed it too late to go to Mistover to meet his wife,
|
|
who was to be driven home in the captain's four-wheel.
|
|
While he was closing the little horn door a figure rose
|
|
from behind a neighbouring bush and came forward into
|
|
the lantern light. It was the reddleman approaching.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
8 - A New Force Disturbs the Current
|
|
|
|
|
|
Wildeve stared. Venn looked coolly towards Wildeve, and,
|
|
without a word being spoken, he deliberately sat himself
|
|
down where Christian had been seated, thrust his hand into
|
|
his pocket, drew out a sovereign, and laid it on the stone.
|
|
|
|
"You have been watching us from behind that bush?"
|
|
said Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
The reddleman nodded. "Down with your stake," he said.
|
|
"Or haven't you pluck enough to go on?"
|
|
|
|
Now, gambling is a species of amusement which is much more
|
|
easily begun with full pockets than left off with the same;
|
|
and though Wildeve in a cooler temper might have prudently
|
|
declined this invitation, the excitement of his recent
|
|
success carried him completely away. He placed one of
|
|
the guineas on a slab beside the reddleman's sovereign.
|
|
"Mine is a guinea," he said.
|
|
|
|
"A guinea that's not your own," said Venn sarcastically.
|
|
|
|
"It is my own," answered Wildeve haughtily. "It is my
|
|
wife's, and what is hers is mine."
|
|
|
|
"Very well; let's make a beginning." He shook the box,
|
|
and threw eight, ten, and nine; the three casts amounted
|
|
to twenty-seven.
|
|
|
|
This encouraged Wildeve. He took the box; and his
|
|
three casts amounted to forty-five.
|
|
|
|
Down went another of the reddleman's sovereigns against
|
|
his first one which Wildeve laid. This time Wildeve threw
|
|
fifty-one points, but no pair. The reddleman looked grim,
|
|
threw a raffle of aces, and pocketed the stakes.
|
|
|
|
"Here you are again," said Wildeve contemptuously.
|
|
"Double the stakes." He laid two of Thomasin's guineas,
|
|
and the reddleman his two pounds. Venn won again.
|
|
New stakes were laid on the stone, and the gamblers proceeded
|
|
as before.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve was a nervous and excitable man, and the game
|
|
was beginning to tell upon his temper. He writhed,
|
|
fumed, shifted his seat, and the beating of his heart
|
|
was almost audible. Venn sat with lips impassively closed
|
|
and eyes reduced to a pair of unimportant twinkles;
|
|
he scarcely appeared to breathe. He might have been an Arab,
|
|
or an automaton; he would have been like a red sandstone
|
|
statue but for the motion of his arm with the dice-box.
|
|
|
|
The game fluctuated, now in favour of one, now in favour
|
|
of the other, without any great advantage on the side
|
|
of either. Nearly twenty minutes were passed thus.
|
|
The light of the candle had by this time attracted
|
|
heath-flies, moths, and other winged creatures of night,
|
|
which floated round the lantern, flew into the flame,
|
|
or beat about the faces of the two players.
|
|
|
|
But neither of the men paid much attention to these things,
|
|
their eyes being concentrated upon the little flat stone,
|
|
which to them was an arena vast and important as a battlefield.
|
|
By this time a change had come over the game; the reddleman
|
|
won continually. At length sixty guineas--Thomasin's
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fifty, and ten of Clym's--had passed into his hands.
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Wildeve was reckless, frantic, exasperated.
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"'Won back his coat,'" said Venn slily.
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Another throw, and the money went the same way.
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"'Won back his hat,'" continued Venn.
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"Oh, oh!" said Wildeve.
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"'Won back his watch, won back his money, and went out
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of the door a rich man,'" added Venn sentence by sentence,
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as stake after stake passed over to him.
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"Five more!" shouted Wildeve, dashing down the money.
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"And three casts be hanged--one shall decide."
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The red automaton opposite lapsed into silence, nodded,
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and followed his example. Wildeve rattled the box,
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and threw a pair of sixes and five points. He clapped
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his hands; "I have done it this time--hurrah!"
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"There are two playing, and only one has thrown,"
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said the reddleman, quietly bringing down the box.
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The eyes of each were then so intently converged upon
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the stone that one could fancy their beams were visible,
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like rays in a fog.
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Venn lifted the box, and behold a triplet of sixes
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was disclosed.
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Wildeve was full of fury. While the reddleman was grasping
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the stakes Wildeve seized the dice and hurled them, box and all,
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into the darkness, uttering a fearful imprecation.
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Then he arose and began stamping up and down like a madman.
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"It is all over, then?" said Venn.
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"No, no!" cried Wildeve. "I mean to have another chance yet.
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I must!"
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"But, my good man, what have you done with the dice?"
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"I threw them away--it was a momentary irritation.
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What a fool I am! Here--come and help me to look for
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them--we must find them again."
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Wildeve snatched up the lantern and began anxiously
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prowling among the furze and fern.
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"You are not likely to find them there,"
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said Venn, following. "What did you do such a crazy
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thing as that for? Here's the box. The dice can't be far off."
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Wildeve turned the light eagerly upon the spot where Venn
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had found the box, and mauled the herbage right and left.
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In the course of a few minutes one of the dice was found.
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They searched on for some time, but no other was to
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be seen.
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"Never mind," said Wildeve; "let's play with one."
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"Agreed," said Venn.
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Down they sat again, and recommenced with single guinea stakes;
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and the play went on smartly. But Fortune had unmistakably
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fallen in love with the reddleman tonight. He won steadily,
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till he was the owner of fourteen more of the gold pieces.
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Seventy-nine of the hundred guineas were his, Wildeve
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possessing only twenty-one. The aspect of the two opponents
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|
was now singular. Apart from motions, a complete diorama
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|
of the fluctuations of the game went on in their eyes.
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A diminutive candle-flame was mirrored in each pupil,
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and it would have been possible to distinguish therein
|
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between the moods of hope and the moods of abandonment,
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|
even as regards the reddleman, though his facial muscles
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|
betrayed nothing at all. Wildeve played on with the
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recklessness of despair.
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"What's that?" he suddenly exclaimed, hearing a rustle;
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and they both looked up.
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They were surrounded by dusky forms between four and
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five feet high, standing a few paces beyond the rays
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of the lantern. A moment's inspection revealed that
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the encircling figures were heath-croppers, their heads
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|
being all towards the players, at whom they gazed intently.
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"Hoosh!" said Wildeve, and the whole forty or fifty animals
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at once turned and galloped away. Play was again resumed.
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Ten minutes passed away. Then a large death's head moth
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advanced from the obscure outer air, wheeled twice round
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the lantern, flew straight at the candle, and extinguished
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it by the force of the blow. Wildeve had just thrown,
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|
but had not lifted the box to see what he had cast;
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|
and now it was impossible.
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|
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"What the infernal!" he shrieked. "Now, what shall we
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|
do? Perhaps I have thrown six--have you any matches?"
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"None," said Venn.
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|
|
|
"Christian had some--I wonder where he is. Christian!"
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|
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|
But there was no reply to Wildeve's shout, save a mournful
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|
whining from the herons which were nesting lower down
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|
the vale. Both men looked blankly round without rising.
|
|
As their eyes grew accustomed to the darkness they
|
|
perceived faint greenish points of light among the grass
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|
and fern. These lights dotted the hillside like stars
|
|
of a low magnitude.
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|
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|
"Ah--glowworms," said Wildeve. "Wait a minute.
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|
We can continue the game."
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|
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|
Venn sat still, and his companion went hither and thither
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|
till he had gathered thirteen glowworms--as many as he could
|
|
find in a space of four or five minutes--upon a fox-glove
|
|
leaf which he pulled for the purpose. The reddleman vented
|
|
a low humorous laugh when he saw his adversary return
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|
with these. "Determined to go on, then?" he said drily.
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|
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|
"I always am!" said Wildeve angrily. And shaking the
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|
glowworms from the leaf he ranged them with a trembling hand
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|
in a circle on the stone, leaving a space in the middle
|
|
for the descent of the dice-box, over which the thirteen
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|
tiny lamps threw a pale phosphoric shine. The game was
|
|
again renewed. It happened to be that season of the year
|
|
at which glowworms put forth their greatest brilliancy,
|
|
and the light they yielded was more than ample for
|
|
the purpose, since it is possible on such nights to read
|
|
the handwriting of a letter by the light of two or three.
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|
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|
The incongruity between the men's deeds and their
|
|
environment was great. Amid the soft juicy vegetation
|
|
of the hollow in which they sat, the motionless and the
|
|
uninhabited solitude, intruded the chink of guineas,
|
|
the rattle of dice, the exclamations of the reckless players.
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|
|
|
Wildeve had lifted the box as soon as the lights were obtained,
|
|
and the solitary die proclaimed that the game was still
|
|
against him.
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|
|
|
"I won't play any more--you've been tampering with the dice,"
|
|
he shouted.
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|
|
|
"How--when they were your own?" said the reddleman.
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|
|
|
"We'll change the game: the lowest point shall win
|
|
the stake--it may cut off my ill luck. Do you refuse?"
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|
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|
"No--go on," said Venn.
|
|
|
|
"O, there they are again--damn them!" cried Wildeve,
|
|
looking up. The heath-croppers had returned noiselessly,
|
|
and were looking on with erect heads just as before,
|
|
their timid eyes fixed upon the scene, as if they were
|
|
wondering what mankind and candlelight could have to do in
|
|
these haunts at this untoward hour.
|
|
|
|
"What a plague those creatures are--staring at me so!"
|
|
he said, and flung a stone, which scattered them;
|
|
when the game was continued as before.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve had now ten guineas left; and each laid five.
|
|
Wildeve threw three points; Venn two, and raked in the coins.
|
|
The other seized the die, and clenched his teeth upon
|
|
it in sheer rage, as if he would bite it in pieces.
|
|
"Never give in--here are my last five!" he cried,
|
|
throwing them down.
|
|
|
|
"Hang the glowworms--they are going out. Why don't you burn,
|
|
you little fools? Stir them up with a thorn."
|
|
|
|
He probed the glowworms with a bit of stick, and rolled
|
|
them over, till the bright side of their tails was upwards.
|
|
|
|
"There's light enough. Throw on," said Venn.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve brought down the box within the shining circle
|
|
and looked eagerly. He had thrown ace. "Well done!--I
|
|
said it would turn, and it has turned." Venn said nothing;
|
|
but his hand shook slightly.
|
|
|
|
He threw ace also.
|
|
|
|
"O!" said Wildeve. "Curse me!"
|
|
|
|
The die smacked the stone a second time. It was ace again.
|
|
Venn looked gloomy, threw--the die was seen to be lying
|
|
in two pieces, the cleft sides uppermost.
|
|
|
|
"I've thrown nothing at all," he said.
|
|
|
|
"Serves me right--I split the die with my teeth.
|
|
Here--take your money. Blank is less than one."
|
|
|
|
"I don't wish it."
|
|
|
|
"Take it, I say--you've won it!" And Wildeve threw the stakes
|
|
against the reddleman's chest. Venn gathered them up,
|
|
arose, and withdrew from the hollow, Wildeve sitting stupefied.
|
|
|
|
When he had come to himself he also arose, and, with the
|
|
extinguished lantern in his hand, went towards the highroad.
|
|
On reaching it he stood still. The silence of night
|
|
pervaded the whole heath except in one direction; and that
|
|
was towards Mistover. There he could hear the noise of
|
|
light wheels, and presently saw two carriagelamps descending
|
|
the hill. Wildeve screened himself under a bush and waited.
|
|
|
|
The vehicle came on and passed before him. It was a
|
|
hired carriage, and behind the coachman were two persons
|
|
whom he knew well. There sat Eustacia and Yeobright,
|
|
the arm of the latter being round her waist.
|
|
They turned the sharp corner at the bottom towards
|
|
the temporary home which Clym had hired and furnished,
|
|
about five miles to the eastward.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve forgot the loss of the money at the sight
|
|
of his lost love, whose preciousness in his eyes was
|
|
increasing in geometrical progression with each new
|
|
incident that reminded him of their hopeless division.
|
|
Brimming with the subtilized misery that he was capable
|
|
of feeling, he followed the opposite way towards the inn.
|
|
|
|
About the same moment that Wildeve stepped into the
|
|
highway Venn also had reached it at a point a hundred
|
|
yards further on; and he, hearing the same wheels,
|
|
likewise waited till the carriage should come up.
|
|
When he saw who sat therein he seemed to be disappointed.
|
|
Reflecting a minute or two, during which interval the
|
|
carriage rolled on, he crossed the road, and took a short
|
|
cut through the furze and heath to a point where the
|
|
turnpike road bent round in ascending a hill. He was now
|
|
again in front of the carriage, which presently came up
|
|
at a walking pace. Venn stepped forward and showed himself.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia started when the lamp shone upon him, and Clym's
|
|
arm was involuntarily withdrawn from her waist. He said,
|
|
"What, Diggory? You are having a lonely walk."
|
|
|
|
"Yes--I beg your pardon for stopping you," said Venn.
|
|
"But I am waiting about for Mrs. Wildeve: I have something
|
|
to give her from Mrs. Yeobright. Can you tell me if she's
|
|
gone home from the party yet?"
|
|
|
|
"No. But she will be leaving soon. You may possibly meet
|
|
her at the corner."
|
|
|
|
Venn made a farewell obeisance, and walked back to his
|
|
former position, where the byroad from Mistover joined
|
|
the highway. Here he remained fixed for nearly half an hour,
|
|
and then another pair of lights came down the hill.
|
|
It was the old-fashioned wheeled nondescript belonging to
|
|
the captain, and Thomasin sat in it alone, driven by Charley.
|
|
|
|
The reddleman came up as they slowly turned the corner.
|
|
"I beg pardon for stopping you, Mrs. Wildeve," he said.
|
|
"But I have something to give you privately from Mrs. Yeobright."
|
|
He handed a small parcel; it consisted of the hundred
|
|
guineas he had just won, roughly twisted up in a piece
|
|
of paper.
|
|
|
|
Thomasin recovered from her surprise, and took the packet.
|
|
"That's all, ma'am--I wish you good night," he said,
|
|
and vanished from her view.
|
|
|
|
Thus Venn, in his anxiety to rectify matters, had placed
|
|
in Thomasin's hands not only the fifty guineas which
|
|
rightly belonged to her, but also the fifty intended
|
|
for her cousin Clym. His mistake had been based upon
|
|
Wildeve's words at the opening of the game, when he
|
|
indignantly denied that the guinea was not his own.
|
|
It had not been comprehended by the reddleman that at
|
|
halfway through the performance the game was continued
|
|
with the money of another person; and it was an error
|
|
which afterwards helped to cause more misfortune
|
|
than treble the loss in money value could have done.
|
|
|
|
The night was now somewhat advanced; and Venn plunged deeper
|
|
into the heath, till he came to a ravine where his van was
|
|
standing--a spot not more than two hundred yards from the site
|
|
of the gambling bout. He entered this movable home of his,
|
|
lit his lantern, and, before closing his door for the night,
|
|
stood reflecting on the circumstances of the preceding hours.
|
|
While he stood the dawn grew visible in the northeast quarter
|
|
of the heavens, which, the clouds having cleared off,
|
|
was bright with a soft sheen at this midsummer time,
|
|
though it was only between one and two o'clock. Venn,
|
|
thoroughly weary, then shut his door and flung himself
|
|
down to sleep.
|
|
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|
|
book four
|
|
|
|
THE CLOSED DOOR
|
|
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|
|
1 - The Rencounter by the Pool
|
|
|
|
|
|
The July sun shone over Egdon and fired its crimson
|
|
heather to scarlet. It was the one season of the year,
|
|
and the one weather of the season, in which the heath
|
|
was gorgeous. This flowering period represented the second
|
|
or noontide division in the cycle of those superficial
|
|
changes which alone were possible here; it followed
|
|
the green or young-fern period, representing the morn,
|
|
and preceded the brown period, when the heathbells
|
|
and ferns would wear the russet tinges of evening; to be
|
|
in turn displaced by the dark hue of the winter period,
|
|
representing night.
|
|
|
|
Clym and Eustacia, in their little house at Alderworth,
|
|
beyond East Egdon, were living on with a monotony which
|
|
was delightful to them. The heath and changes of weather
|
|
were quite blotted out from their eyes for the present.
|
|
They were enclosed in a sort of luminous mist, which hid
|
|
from them surroundings of any inharmonious colour,
|
|
and gave to all things the character of light. When it
|
|
rained they were charmed, because they could remain
|
|
indoors together all day with such a show of reason;
|
|
when it was fine they were charmed, because they could
|
|
sit together on the hills. They were like those double
|
|
stars which revolve round and round each other, and from
|
|
a distance appear to be one. The absolute solitude in
|
|
which they lived intensified their reciprocal thoughts;
|
|
yet some might have said that it had the disadvantage
|
|
of consuming their mutual affections at a fearfully
|
|
prodigal rate. Yeobright did not fear for his own part;
|
|
but recollection of Eustacia's old speech about the
|
|
evanescence of love, now apparently forgotten by her,
|
|
sometimes caused him to ask himself a question; and he
|
|
recoiled at the thought that the quality of finiteness was
|
|
not foreign to Eden.
|
|
|
|
When three or four weeks had been passed thus,
|
|
Yeobright resumed his reading in earnest. To make up
|
|
for lost time he studied indefatigably, for he wished
|
|
to enter his new profession with the least possible delay.
|
|
|
|
Now, Eustacia's dream had always been that, once married
|
|
to Clym, she would have the power of inducing him to return
|
|
to Paris. He had carefully withheld all promise to do so;
|
|
but would he be proof against her coaxing and argument?
|
|
She had calculated to such a degree on the probability
|
|
of success that she had represented Paris, and not Budmouth,
|
|
to her grandfather as in all likelihood their future home.
|
|
Her hopes were bound up in this dream. In the quiet days
|
|
since their marriage, when Yeobright had been poring
|
|
over her lips, her eyes, and the lines of her face,
|
|
she had mused and mused on the subject, even while in the
|
|
act of returning his gaze; and now the sight of the books,
|
|
indicating a future which was antagonistic to her dream,
|
|
struck her with a positively painful jar. She was hoping for
|
|
the time when, as the mistress of some pretty establishment,
|
|
however small, near a Parisian Boulevard, she would be
|
|
passing her days on the skirts at least of the gay world,
|
|
and catching stray wafts from those town pleasures she
|
|
was so well fitted to enjoy. Yet Yeobright was as firm
|
|
in the contrary intention as if the tendency of marriage
|
|
were rather to develop the fantasies of young philanthropy
|
|
than to sweep them away.
|
|
|
|
Her anxiety reached a high pitch; but there was something
|
|
in Clym's undeviating manner which made her hesitate
|
|
before sounding him on the subject. At this point
|
|
in their experience, however, an incident helped her.
|
|
It occurred one evening about six weeks after their union,
|
|
and arose entirely out of the unconscious misapplication
|
|
of Venn of the fifty guineas intended for Yeobright.
|
|
|
|
A day or two after the receipt of the money Thomasin
|
|
had sent a note to her aunt to thank her. She had been
|
|
surprised at the largeness of the amount; but as no sum
|
|
had ever been mentioned she set that down to her late
|
|
uncle's generosity. She had been strictly charged
|
|
by her aunt to say nothing to her husband of this gift;
|
|
and Wildeve, as was natural enough, had not brought himself
|
|
to mention to his wife a single particular of the midnight
|
|
scene in the heath. Christian's terror, in like manner,
|
|
had tied his tongue on the share he took in that proceeding;
|
|
and hoping that by some means or other the money had gone
|
|
to its proper destination, he simply asserted as much,
|
|
without giving details.
|
|
|
|
Therefore, when a week or two had passed away, Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
began to wonder why she never heard from her son of the
|
|
receipt of the present; and to add gloom to her perplexity
|
|
came the possibility that resentment might be the cause
|
|
of his silence. She could hardly believe as much,
|
|
but why did he not write? She questioned Christian,
|
|
and the confusion in his answers would at once have led
|
|
her to believe that something was wrong, had not one-half
|
|
of his story been corroborated by Thomasin's note.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright was in this state of uncertainty when she
|
|
was informed one morning that her son's wife was visiting her
|
|
grandfather at Mistover. She determined to walk up the hill,
|
|
see Eustacia, and ascertain from her daughter-in-law's lips
|
|
whether the family guineas, which were to Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
what family jewels are to wealthier dowagers, had miscarried or not.
|
|
|
|
When Christian learnt where she was going his concern
|
|
reached its height. At the moment of her departure he could
|
|
prevaricate no longer, and, confessing to the gambling,
|
|
told her the truth as far as he knew it--that the guineas
|
|
had been won by Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"What, is he going to keep them?" Mrs. Yeobright cried.
|
|
|
|
"I hope and trust not!" moaned Christian. "He's a good man,
|
|
and perhaps will do right things. He said you ought
|
|
to have gied Mr. Clym's share to Eustacia, and that's
|
|
perhaps what he'll do himself."
|
|
|
|
To Mrs. Yeobright, as soon as she could calmly reflect,
|
|
there was much likelihood in this, for she could hardly
|
|
believe that Wildeve would really appropriate money
|
|
belonging to her son. The intermediate course of giving it
|
|
to Eustacia was the sort of thing to please Wildeve's fancy.
|
|
But it filled the mother with anger none the less.
|
|
That Wildeve should have got command of the guineas
|
|
after all, and should rearrange the disposal of them,
|
|
placing Clym's share in Clym's wife's hands, because she
|
|
had been his own sweetheart, and might be so still,
|
|
was as irritating a pain as any that Mrs. Yeobright had
|
|
ever borne.
|
|
|
|
She instantly dismissed the wretched Christian from her
|
|
employ for his conduct in the affair; but, feeling quite
|
|
helpless and unable to do without him, told him afterwards
|
|
that he might stay a little longer if he chose.
|
|
Then she hastened off to Eustacia, moved by a much less
|
|
promising emotion towards her daughter-in-law than she
|
|
had felt half an hour earlier, when planning her journey.
|
|
At that time it was to inquire in a friendly spirit if there
|
|
had been any accidental loss; now it was to ask plainly
|
|
if Wildeve had privately given her money which had been
|
|
intended as a sacred gift to Clym.
|
|
|
|
She started at two o'clock, and her meeting with Eustacia
|
|
was hastened by the appearance of the young lady beside
|
|
the pool and bank which bordered her grandfather's premises,
|
|
where she stood surveying the scene, and perhaps thinking
|
|
of the romantic enactments it had witnessed in past days.
|
|
When Mrs. Yeobright approached, Eustacia surveyed her
|
|
with the calm stare of a stranger.
|
|
|
|
The mother-in-law was the first to speak. "I was coming
|
|
to see you," she said.
|
|
|
|
"Indeed!" said Eustacia with surprise, for Mrs. Yeobright,
|
|
much to the girl's mortification, had refused to be present
|
|
at the wedding. "I did not at all expect you."
|
|
|
|
"I was coming on business only," said the visitor,
|
|
more coldly than at first. "Will you excuse my asking
|
|
this--Have you received a gift from Thomasin's husband?"
|
|
|
|
"A gift?"
|
|
|
|
"I mean money!"
|
|
|
|
"What--I myself?"
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"Well, I meant yourself, privately--though I was not going
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to put it in that way."
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"Money from Mr. Wildeve? No--never! Madam, what do you
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mean by that?" Eustacia fired up all too quickly,
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for her own consciousness of the old attachment between
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herself and Wildeve led her to jump to the conclusion
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that Mrs. Yeobright also knew of it, and might have come
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to accuse her of receiving dishonourable presents from him now.
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"I simply ask the question," said Mrs. Yeobright.
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"I have been----"
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"You ought to have better opinions of me--I feared you
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were against me from the first!" exclaimed Eustacia
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"No. I was simply for Clym," replied Mrs. Yeobright,
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with too much emphasis in her earnestness. "It is the
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instinct of everyone to look after their own."
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"How can you imply that he required guarding against me?"
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cried Eustacia, passionate tears in her eyes. "I have
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not injured him by marrying him! What sin have I done
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that you should think so ill of me? You had no right to
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speak against me to him when I have never wronged you."
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"I only did what was fair under the circumstances,"
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said Mrs. Yeobright more softly. "I would rather not have
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gone into this question at present, but you compel me.
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I am not ashamed to tell you the honest truth. I was firmly
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convinced that he ought not to marry you--therefore I
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tried to dissuade him by all the means in my power. But it
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is done now, and I have no idea of complaining any more.
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I am ready to welcome you."
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"Ah, yes, it is very well to see things in that business
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point of view," murmured Eustacia with a smothered fire
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of feeling. "But why should you think there is anything
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between me and Mr. Wildeve? I have a spirit as well
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as you. I am indignant; and so would any woman be.
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It was a condescension in me to be Clym's wife, and not
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a manoeuvre, let me remind you; and therefore I will
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not be treated as a schemer whom it becomes necessary
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to bear with because she has crept into the family."
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"Oh!" said Mrs. Yeobright, vainly endeavouring to control
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her anger. "I have never heard anything to show that my
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son's lineage is not as good as the Vyes'--perhaps better.
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It is amusing to hear you talk of condescension."
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"It was condescension, nevertheless," said Eustacia vehemently.
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"And if I had known then what I know now, that I should
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be living in this wild heath a month after my marriage,
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I--I should have thought twice before agreeing."
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"It would be better not to say that; it might not
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sound truthful. I am not aware that any deception
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was used on his part--I know there was not--whatever
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might have been the case on the other side."
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"This is too exasperating!" answered the younger woman huskily,
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her face crimsoning, and her eyes darting light.
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"How can you dare to speak to me like that? I insist upon
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repeating to you that had I known that my life would
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from my marriage up to this time have been as it is,
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I should have said NO. I don't complain. I have never
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uttered a sound of such a thing to him; but it is true.
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I hope therefore that in the future you will be silent on
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my eagerness. If you injure me now you injure yourself."
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"Injure you? Do you think I am an evil-disposed person?"
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"You injured me before my marriage, and you have now
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suspected me of secretly favouring another man for money!"
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"I could not help what I thought. But I have never spoken
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of you outside my house."
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"You spoke of me within it, to Clym, and you could not
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do worse."
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"I did my duty."
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"And I'll do mine."
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"A part of which will possibly be to set him against
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his mother. It is always so. But why should I not bear
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it as others have borne it before me!"
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"I understand you," said Eustacia, breathless with emotion.
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"You think me capable of every bad thing. Who can be
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worse than a wife who encourages a lover, and poisons
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her husband's mind against his relative? Yet that is now
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the character given to me. Will you not come and drag
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him out of my hands?"
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Mrs. Yeobright gave back heat for heat.
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"Don't rage at me, madam! It ill becomes your beauty,
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and I am not worth the injury you may do it on my account,
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I assure you. I am only a poor old woman who has lost
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a son."
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"If you had treated me honourably you would have had
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him still." Eustacia said, while scalding tears trickled
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from her eyes. "You have brought yourself to folly;
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you have caused a division which can never be healed!"
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"I have done nothing. This audacity from a young woman
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is more than I can bear."
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"It was asked for; you have suspected me, and you have made
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me speak of my husband in a way I would not have done.
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You will let him know that I have spoken thus, and it will
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cause misery between us. Will you go away from me? You
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are no friend!"
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"I will go when I have spoken a word. If anyone says I
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have come here to question you without good grounds for it,
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that person speaks untruly. If anyone says that I
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attempted to stop your marriage by any but honest means,
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that person, too, does not speak the truth. I have fallen
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on an evil time; God has been unjust to me in letting
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you insult me! Probably my son's happiness does not lie
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on this side of the grave, for he is a foolish man
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who neglects the advice of his parent. You, Eustacia,
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stand on the edge of a precipice without knowing it.
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Only show my son one-half the temper you have shown
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me today--and you may before long--and you will find
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that though he is as gentle as a child with you now,
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he can be as hard as steel!"
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The excited mother then withdrew, and Eustacia, panting,
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stood looking into the pool.
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2 - He Is Set upon by Adversities but He Sings a Song
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The result of that unpropitious interview was that Eustacia,
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instead of passing the afternoon with her grandfather,
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hastily returned home to Clym, where she arrived three hours
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earlier than she had been expected.
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She came indoors with her face flushed, and her eyes
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still showing traces of her recent excitement.
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Yeobright looked up astonished; he had never seen
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her in any way approaching to that state before.
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She passed him by, and would have gone upstairs unnoticed,
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but Clym was so concerned that he immediately followed her.
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"What is the matter, Eustacia?" he said. She was standing
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on the hearthrug in the bedroom, looking upon the floor,
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her hands clasped in front of her, her bonnet yet unremoved.
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For a moment she did not answer; and then she replied
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in a low voice--
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"I have seen your mother; and I will never see her again!"
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A weight fell like a stone upon Clym. That same morning,
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when Eustacia had arranged to go and see her grandfather,
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Clym had expressed a wish that she would drive down to
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Blooms-End and inquire for her mother-in-law, or adopt
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any other means she might think fit to bring about
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a reconciliation. She had set out gaily; and he had hoped
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for much.
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"Why is this?" he asked.
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"I cannot tell--I cannot remember. I met your mother.
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And I will never meet her again."
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"Why?"
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"What do I know about Mr. Wildeve now? I won't have
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wicked opinions passed on me by anybody. O! it was too
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humiliating to be asked if I had received any money
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from him, or encouraged him, or something of the sort--
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I don't exactly know what!"
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"How could she have asked you that?"
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"She did."
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"Then there must have been some meaning in it. What did
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my mother say besides?"
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"I don't know what she said, except in so far as this,
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that we both said words which can never be forgiven!"
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"Oh, there must be some misapprehension. Whose fault
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was it that her meaning was not made clear?"
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"I would rather not say. It may have been the fault of
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the circumstances, which were awkward at the very least.
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O Clym--I cannot help expressing it--this is an unpleasant
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position that you have placed me in. But you must improve
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it--yes, say you will--for I hate it all now! Yes,
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take me to Paris, and go on with your old occupation,
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Clym! I don't mind how humbly we live there at first,
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|
if it can only be Paris, and not Egdon Heath."
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"But I have quite given up that idea," said Yeobright,
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|
with surprise. "Surely I never led you to expect such
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a thing?"
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"I own it. Yet there are thoughts which cannot be kept
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|
out of mind, and that one was mine. Must I not have
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a voice in the matter, now I am your wife and the sharer
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|
of your doom?"
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"Well, there are things which are placed beyond the pale
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of discussion; and I thought this was specially so,
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and by mutual agreement."
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"Clym, I am unhappy at what I hear," she said in a low voice;
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|
and her eyes drooped, and she turned away.
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This indication of an unexpected mine of hope in Eustacia's
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|
bosom disconcerted her husband. It was the first time
|
|
that he had confronted the fact of the indirectness
|
|
of a woman's movement towards her desire. But his
|
|
intention was unshaken, though he loved Eustacia well.
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|
All the effect that her remark had upon him was a resolve
|
|
to chain himself more closely than ever to his books,
|
|
so as to be the sooner enabled to appeal to substantial
|
|
results from another course in arguing against her whim.
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|
Next day the mystery of the guineas was explained.
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Thomasin paid them a hurried visit, and Clym's share was
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|
delivered up to him by her own hands. Eustacia was not
|
|
present at the time.
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"Then this is what my mother meant," exclaimed Clym.
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|
"Thomasin, do you know that they have had a bitter quarrel?"
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|
There was a little more reticence now than formerly in Thomasin's
|
|
manner towards her cousin. It is the effect of marriage
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|
to engender in several directions some of the reserve it
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|
annihilates in one. "Your mother told me," she said quietly.
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|
"She came back to my house after seeing Eustacia."
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"The worst thing I dreaded has come to pass. Was Mother
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|
much disturbed when she came to you, Thomasin?"
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"Yes."
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"Very much indeed?"
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"Yes."
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Clym leant his elbow upon the post of the garden gate,
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|
and covered his eyes with his hand.
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|
"Don't trouble about it, Clym. They may get to be friends."
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He shook his head. "Not two people with inflammable
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|
natures like theirs. Well, what must be will be."
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|
"One thing is cheerful in it--the guineas are not lost."
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"I would rather have lost them twice over than have had
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this happen."
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Amid these jarring events Yeobright felt one thing to be
|
|
indispensable--that he should speedily make some show
|
|
of progress in his scholastic plans. With this view
|
|
he read far into the small hours during many nights.
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|
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|
One morning, after a severer strain than usual, he awoke with
|
|
a strange sensation in his eyes. The sun was shining directly
|
|
upon the window-blind, and at his first glance thitherward
|
|
a sharp pain obliged him to close his eyelids quickly.
|
|
At every new attempt to look about him the same morbid
|
|
sensibility to light was manifested, and excoriating tears
|
|
ran down his cheeks. He was obliged to tie a bandage
|
|
over his brow while dressing; and during the day it could
|
|
not be abandoned. Eustacia was thoroughly alarmed.
|
|
On finding that the case was no better the next morning
|
|
they decided to send to Anglebury for a surgeon.
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|
|
|
Towards evening he arrived, and pronounced the disease
|
|
to be acute inflammation induced by Clym's night studies,
|
|
continued in spite of a cold previously caught, which had
|
|
weakened his eyes for the time.
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|
|
Fretting with impatience at this interruption to a task he was
|
|
so anxious to hasten, Clym was transformed into an invalid.
|
|
He was shut up in a room from which all light was excluded,
|
|
and his condition would have been one of absolute
|
|
misery had not Eustacia read to him by the glimmer of a
|
|
shaded lamp. He hoped that the worst would soon be over;
|
|
but at the surgeon's third visit he learnt to his dismay
|
|
that although he might venture out of doors with shaded
|
|
eyes in the course of a month, all thought of pursuing
|
|
his work, or of reading print of any description,
|
|
would have to be given up for a long time to come.
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|
|
|
One week and another week wore on, and nothing
|
|
seemed to lighten the gloom of the young couple.
|
|
Dreadful imaginings occurred to Eustacia, but she
|
|
carefully refrained from uttering them to her husband.
|
|
Suppose he should become blind, or, at all events,
|
|
never recover sufficient strength of sight to engage
|
|
in an occupation which would be congenial to her feelings,
|
|
and conduce to her removal from this lonely dwelling among
|
|
the hills? That dream of beautiful Paris was not likely
|
|
to cohere into substance in the presence of this misfortune.
|
|
As day after day passed by, and he got no better,
|
|
her mind ran more and more in this mournful groove,
|
|
and she would go away from him into the garden and weep
|
|
despairing tears.
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|
|
|
Yeobright thought he would send for his mother;
|
|
and then he thought he would not. Knowledge of his state
|
|
could only make her the more unhappy; and the seclusion
|
|
of their life was such that she would hardly be likely
|
|
to learn the news except through a special messenger.
|
|
Endeavouring to take the trouble as philosophically
|
|
as possible, he waited on till the third week had arrived,
|
|
when he went into the open air for the first time since
|
|
the attack. The surgeon visited him again at this stage,
|
|
and Clym urged him to express a distinct opinion.
|
|
The young man learnt with added surprise that the date at
|
|
which he might expect to resume his labours was as uncertain
|
|
as ever, his eyes being in that peculiar state which,
|
|
though affording him sight enough for walking about,
|
|
would not admit of their being strained upon any definite
|
|
object without incurring the risk of reproducing ophthalmia
|
|
in its acute form.
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|
Clym was very grave at the intelligence, but not despairing.
|
|
A quiet firmness, and even cheerfulness, took possession
|
|
of him. He was not to be blind; that was enough.
|
|
To be doomed to behold the world through smoked glass
|
|
for an indefinite period was bad enough, and fatal
|
|
to any kind of advance; but Yeobright was an absolute
|
|
stoic in the face of mishaps which only affected his
|
|
social standing; and, apart from Eustacia, the humblest
|
|
walk of life would satisfy him if it could be made to work
|
|
in with some form of his culture scheme. To keep a cottage
|
|
night-school was one such form; and his affliction did
|
|
not master his spirit as it might otherwise have done.
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|
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|
He walked through the warm sun westward into those tracts
|
|
of Egdon with which he was best acquainted, being those
|
|
lying nearer to his old home. He saw before him in one
|
|
of the valleys the gleaming of whetted iron, and advancing,
|
|
dimly perceived that the shine came from the tool of a
|
|
man who was cutting furze. The worker recognized Clym,
|
|
and Yeobright learnt from the voice that the speaker
|
|
was Humphrey.
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|
|
Humphrey expressed his sorrow at Clym's condition,
|
|
and added, "Now, if yours was low-class work like mine,
|
|
you could go on with it just the same."
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|
|
|
"Yes, I could," said Yeobright musingly. "How much
|
|
do you get for cutting these faggots?"
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|
|
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"Half-a-crown a hundred, and in these long days I can
|
|
live very well on the wages."
|
|
|
|
During the whole of Yeobright's walk home to Alderworth he
|
|
was lost in reflections which were not of an unpleasant kind.
|
|
On his coming up to the house Eustacia spoke to him
|
|
from the open window, and he went across to her.
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|
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"Darling," he said, "I am much happier. And if my mother
|
|
were reconciled to me and to you I should, I think,
|
|
be happy quite."
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"I fear that will never be," she said, looking afar
|
|
with her beautiful stormy eyes. "How CAN you say
|
|
'I am happier,' and nothing changed?"
|
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|
|
"It arises from my having at last discovered something I
|
|
can do, and get a living at, in this time of misfortune."
|
|
|
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"Yes?"
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"I am going to be a furze- and turf-cutter."
|
|
|
|
"No, Clym!" she said, the slight hopefulness previously
|
|
apparent in her face going off again, and leaving her
|
|
worse than before.
|
|
|
|
"Surely I shall. Is it not very unwise in us to go
|
|
on spending the little money we've got when I can keep
|
|
down expenditures by an honest occupation? The outdoor
|
|
exercise will do me good, and who knows but that in a few
|
|
months I shall be able to go on with my reading again?"
|
|
|
|
"But my grandfather offers to assist us, if we require assistance."
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|
|
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"We don't require it. If I go furze-cutting we shall
|
|
be fairly well off."
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|
|
|
"In comparison with slaves, and the Israelites in Egypt,
|
|
and such people!" A bitter tear rolled down Eustacia's face,
|
|
which he did not see. There had been nonchalance
|
|
in his tone, showing her that he felt no absolute grief
|
|
at a consummation which to her was a positive horror.
|
|
|
|
The very next day Yeobright went to Humphrey's cottage,
|
|
and borrowed of him leggings, gloves, a whetstone, and a hook,
|
|
to use till he should be able to purchase some for himself.
|
|
Then he sallied forth with his new fellow-labourer and
|
|
old acquaintance, and selecting a spot where the furze grew
|
|
thickest he struck the first blow in his adopted calling.
|
|
His sight, like the wings in Rasselas, though useless
|
|
to him for his grand purpose, sufficed for this strait,
|
|
and he found that when a little practice should have hardened
|
|
his palms against blistering he would be able to work
|
|
with ease.
|
|
|
|
Day after day he rose with the sun, buckled on his leggings,
|
|
and went off to the rendezvous with Humphrey. His custom
|
|
was to work from four o'clock in the morning till noon;
|
|
then, when the heat of the day was at its highest,
|
|
to go home and sleep for an hour or two; afterwards coming
|
|
out again and working till dusk at nine.
|
|
|
|
This man from Paris was now so disguised by his
|
|
leather accoutrements, and by the goggles he was obliged
|
|
to wear over his eyes, that his closest friend might
|
|
have passed by without recognizing him. He was a brown
|
|
spot in the midst of an expanse of olive-green gorse,
|
|
and nothing more. Though frequently depressed in
|
|
spirit when not actually at work, owing to thoughts
|
|
of Eustacia's position and his mother's estrangement,
|
|
when in the full swing of labour he was cheerfully disposed and calm.
|
|
|
|
His daily life was of a curious microscopic sort,
|
|
his whole world being limited to a circuit of a few
|
|
feet from his person. His familiars were creeping and
|
|
winged things, and they seemed to enroll him in their band.
|
|
Bees hummed around his ears with an intimate air,
|
|
and tugged at the heath and furze-flowers at his side
|
|
in such numbers as to weigh them down to the sod.
|
|
The strange amber-coloured butterflies which Egdon produced,
|
|
and which were never seen elsewhere, quivered in the breath
|
|
of his lips, alighted upon his bowed back, and sported
|
|
with the glittering point of his hook as he flourished
|
|
it up and down. Tribes of emerald-green grasshoppers
|
|
leaped over his feet, falling awkwardly on their backs,
|
|
heads, or hips, like unskilful acrobats, as chance
|
|
might rule; or engaged themselves in noisy flirtations
|
|
under the fern-fronds with silent ones of homely hue.
|
|
Huge flies, ignorant of larders and wire-netting, and
|
|
quite in a savage state, buzzed about him without knowing
|
|
that he was a man. In and out of the fern-dells snakes
|
|
glided in their most brilliant blue and yellow guise,
|
|
it being the season immediately following the shedding
|
|
of their old skins, when their colours are brightest.
|
|
Litters of young rabbits came out from their forms to sun
|
|
themselves upon hillocks, the hot beams blazing through
|
|
the delicate tissue of each thin-fleshed ear, and firing
|
|
it to a blood-red transparency in which the veins could
|
|
be seen. None of them feared him. The monotony of his
|
|
occupation soothed him, and was in itself a pleasure.
|
|
A forced limitation of effort offered a justification
|
|
of homely courses to an unambitious man, whose conscience
|
|
would hardly have allowed him to remain in such obscurity
|
|
while his powers were unimpeded. Hence Yeobright sometimes
|
|
sang to himself, and when obliged to accompany Humphrey
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in search of brambles for faggot-bonds he would amuse his
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companion with sketches of Parisian life and character,
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and so while away the time.
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On one of these warm afternoons Eustacia walked out alone
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in the direction of Yeobright's place of work. He was
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busily chopping away at the furze, a long row of faggots
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which stretched downward from his position representing
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the labour of the day. He did not observe her approach,
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and she stood close to him, and heard his undercurrent
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of song.
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It shocked her. To see him there, a poor afflicted man,
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earning money by the sweat of his brow, had at first moved
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her to tears; but to hear him sing and not at all rebel
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against an occupation which, however satisfactory to himself,
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was degrading to her, as an educated lady-wife, wounded
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her through. Unconscious of her presence, he still went
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on singing:--
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"Le point du jour
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A nos bosquets rend toute leur parure;
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Flore est plus belle a son retour;
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L'oiseau reprend doux chant d'amour;
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Tout celebre dans la nature
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Le point du jour.
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"Le point du jour
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Cause parfois, cause douleur extreme;
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Que l'espace des nuits est court
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Pour le berger brulant d'amour,
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Force de quitter ce qu'il aime
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Au point du jour!"
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It was bitterly plain to Eustacia that he did not care much
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about social failure; and the proud fair woman bowed her
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head and wept in sick despair at thought of the blasting
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effect upon her own life of that mood and condition in him.
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Then she came forward.
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"I would starve rather than do it!" she exclaimed vehemently.
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"And you can sing! I will go and live with my grandfather again!"
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"Eustacia! I did not see you, though I noticed
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something moving," he said gently. He came forward,
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pulled off his huge leather glove, and took her hand.
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"Why do you speak in such a strange way? It is only a
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little old song which struck my fancy when I was in Paris,
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and now just applies to my life with you. Has your love
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for me all died, then, because my appearance is no longer
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that of a fine gentleman?"
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"Dearest, you must not question me unpleasantly, or it
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may make me not love you."
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"Do you believe it possible that I would run the risk
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of doing that?"
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"Well, you follow out your own ideas, and won't
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give in to mine when I wish you to leave off this
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shameful labour. Is there anything you dislike in me
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that you act so contrarily to my wishes? I am your wife,
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and why will you not listen? Yes, I am your wife indeed!"
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"I know what that tone means."
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"What tone?"
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"The tone in which you said, 'Your wife indeed.' It meant,
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'Your wife, worse luck.'"
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"It is hard in you to probe me with that remark.
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A woman may have reason, though she is not without heart,
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and if I felt 'worse luck,' it was no ignoble feeling--
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it was only too natural. There, you see that at any
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rate I do not attempt untruths. Do you remember how,
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before we were married, I warned you that I had not good
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wifely qualities?"
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"You mock me to say that now. On that point at least
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the only noble course would be to hold your tongue,
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for you are still queen of me, Eustacia, though I may no
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longer be king of you."
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"You are my husband. Does not that content you?"
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"Not unless you are my wife without regret."
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"I cannot answer you. I remember saying that I should
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be a serious matter on your hands."
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"Yes, I saw that."
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"Then you were too quick to see! No true lover would
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have seen any such thing; you are too severe upon me,
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Clym--I won't like your speaking so at all."
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"Well, I married you in spite of it, and don't regret
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doing so. How cold you seem this afternoon! and yet I
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used to think there never was a warmer heart than yours."
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"Yes, I fear we are cooling--I see it as well as you,"
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she sighed mournfully. "And how madly we loved two months
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ago! You were never tired of contemplating me, nor I
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of contemplating you. Who could have thought then that by
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this time my eyes would not seem so very bright to yours,
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nor your lips so very sweet to mine? Two months--is it
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possible? Yes, 'tis too true!"
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"You sigh, dear, as if you were sorry for it; and that's
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a hopeful sign."
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"No. I don't sigh for that. There are other things
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for me to sigh for, or any other woman in my place."
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"That your chances in life are ruined by marrying in haste
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an unfortunate man?"
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"Why will you force me, Clym, to say bitter things? I
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deserve pity as much as you. As much?--I think I deserve
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it more. For you can sing! It would be a strange hour
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which should catch me singing under such a cloud as this!
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Believe me, sweet, I could weep to a degree that would
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astonish and confound such an elastic mind as yours.
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Even had you felt careless about your own affliction,
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you might have refrained from singing out of sheer pity
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for mine. God! if I were a man in such a position I would
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curse rather than sing."
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Yeobright placed his hand upon her arm. "Now, don't
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you suppose, my inexperienced girl, that I cannot rebel,
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in high Promethean fashion, against the gods and fate
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as well as you. I have felt more steam and smoke of
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that sort than you have ever heard of. But the more I
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see of life the more do I perceive that there is nothing
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particularly great in its greatest walks, and therefore
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nothing particularly small in mine of furze-cutting.
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If I feel that the greatest blessings vouchsafed to us
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are not very valuable, how can I feel it to be any great
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hardship when they are taken away? So I sing to pass
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the time. Have you indeed lost all tenderness for me,
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that you begrudge me a few cheerful moments?"
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"I have still some tenderness left for you."
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"Your words have no longer their old flavour. And so love
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dies with good fortune!"
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"I cannot listen to this, Clym--it will end bitterly,"
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she said in a broken voice. "I will go home."
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3 - She Goes Out to Battle against Depression
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A few days later, before the month of August has expired,
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Eustacia and Yeobright sat together at their early dinner.
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Eustacia's manner had become of late almost apathetic.
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There was a forlorn look about her beautiful eyes which,
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whether she deserved it or not, would have excited
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pity in the breast of anyone who had known her during
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the full flush of her love for Clym. The feelings of
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husband and wife varied, in some measure, inversely with
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their positions. Clym, the afflicted man, was cheerful;
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and he even tried to comfort her, who had never felt a
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moment of physical suffering in her whole life.
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"Come, brighten up, dearest; we shall be all right again.
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Some day perhaps I shall see as well as ever.
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And I solemnly promise that I'll leave off cutting furze
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as soon as I have the power to do anything better.
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You cannot seriously wish me to stay idling at home
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all day?"
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"But it is so dreadful--a furze-cutter! and you a man who
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have lived about the world, and speak French, and German,
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and who are fit for what is so much better than this."
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"I suppose when you first saw me and heard about me I
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was wrapped in a sort of golden halo to your eyes--a man
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who knew glorious things, and had mixed in brilliant
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scenes--in short, an adorable, delightful, distracting hero?"
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"Yes," she said, sobbing.
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"And now I am a poor fellow in brown leather."
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"Don't taunt me. But enough of this. I will not be
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depressed any more. I am going from home this afternoon,
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unless you greatly object. There is to be a village
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picnic--a gipsying, they call it--at East Egdon, and I
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shall go."
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"To dance?"
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"Why not? You can sing."
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"Well, well, as you will. Must I come to fetch you?"
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"If you return soon enough from your work. But do not
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inconvenience yourself about it. I know the way home,
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and the heath has no terror for me."
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"And can you cling to gaiety so eagerly as to walk all
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the way to a village festival in search of it?"
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"Now, you don't like my going alone! Clym, you are
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not jealous?"
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"No. But I would come with you if it could give you
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any pleasure; though, as things stand, perhaps you
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have too much of me already. Still, I somehow wish
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that you did not want to go. Yes, perhaps I am jealous;
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and who could be jealous with more reason than I,
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a half-blind man, over such a woman as you?"
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"Don't think like it. Let me go, and don't take all
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my spirits away!"
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"I would rather lose all my own, my sweet wife. Go and
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do whatever you like. Who can forbid your indulgence
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in any whim? You have all my heart yet, I believe;
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and because you bear with me, who am in truth a drag
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upon you, I owe you thanks. Yes, go alone and shine.
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As for me, I will stick to my doom. At that kind of
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meeting people would shun me. My hook and gloves are like
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the St. Lazarus rattle of the leper, warning the world
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to get out of the way of a sight that would sadden them."
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He kissed her, put on his leggings, and went out.
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When he was gone she rested her head upon her hands
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and said to herself, "Two wasted lives--his and mine.
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And I am come to this! Will it drive me out of my mind?"
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She cast about for any possible course which offered
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|
the least improvement on the existing state of things,
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|
and could find none. She imagined how all those Budmouth
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|
ones who should learn what had become of her would say,
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"Look at the girl for whom nobody was good enough!"
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To Eustacia the situation seemed such a mockery of her hopes
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|
that death appeared the only door of relief if the satire
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of Heaven should go much further.
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Suddenly she aroused herself and exclaimed, "But I'll shake
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it off. Yes, I WILL shake it off! No one shall know
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my suffering. I'll be bitterly merry, and ironically gay,
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and I'll laugh in derision. And I'll begin by going
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to this dance on the green."
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She ascended to her bedroom and dressed herself with
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scrupulous care. To an onlooker her beauty would have
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|
made her feelings almost seem reasonable. The gloomy
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|
corner into which accident as much as indiscretion
|
|
had brought this woman might have led even a moderate
|
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partisan to feel that she had cogent reasons for asking
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the Supreme Power by what right a being of such exquisite
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finish had been placed in circumstances calculated
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to make of her charms a curse rather than a blessing.
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It was five in the afternoon when she came out from the
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house ready for her walk. There was material enough in the
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picture for twenty new conquests. The rebellious sadness
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that was rather too apparent when she sat indoors without
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a bonnet was cloaked and softened by her outdoor attire,
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|
which always had a sort of nebulousness about it,
|
|
devoid of harsh edges anywhere; so that her face looked
|
|
from its environment as from a cloud, with no noticeable
|
|
lines of demarcation between flesh and clothes. The heat
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of the day had scarcely declined as yet, and she went
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along the sunny hills at a leisurely pace, there being
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ample time for her idle expedition. Tall ferns buried
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her in their leafage whenever her path lay through them,
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|
which now formed miniature forests, though not one stem
|
|
of them would remain to bud the next year.
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The site chosen for the village festivity was one of the
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lawnlike oases which were occasionally, yet not often,
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met with on the plateaux of the heath district. The brakes
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of furze and fern terminated abruptly round the margin,
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and the grass was unbroken. A green cattletrack skirted
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the spot, without, however, emerging from the screen of fern,
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and this path Eustacia followed, in order to reconnoitre
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the group before joining it. The lusty notes of the East
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Egdon band had directed her unerringly, and she now
|
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beheld the musicians themselves, sitting in a blue wagon
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with red wheels scrubbed as bright as new, and arched
|
|
with sticks, to which boughs and flowers were tied.
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In front of this was the grand central dance of fifteen
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or twenty couples, flanked by minor dances of inferior
|
|
individuals whose gyrations were not always in strict
|
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keeping with the tune.
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The young men wore blue and white rosettes, and with a
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flush on their faces footed it to the girls, who, with the
|
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excitement and the exercise, blushed deeper than the pink
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of their numerous ribbons. Fair ones with long curls,
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fair ones with short curls, fair ones with lovelocks,
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fair ones with braids, flew round and round; and a beholder
|
|
might well have wondered how such a prepossessing set
|
|
of young women of like size, age, and disposition,
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|
could have been collected together where there were only
|
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one or two villages to choose from. In the background
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was one happy man dancing by himself, with closed eyes,
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totally oblivious of all the rest. A fire was burning under
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a pollard thorn a few paces off, over which three kettles
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hung in a row. Hard by was a table where elderly dames
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prepared tea, but Eustacia looked among them in vain for the
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cattle-dealer's wife who had suggested that she should come,
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and had promised to obtain a courteous welcome for her.
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This unexpected absence of the only local resident whom
|
|
Eustacia knew considerably damaged her scheme for an
|
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afternoon of reckless gaiety. Joining in became a matter
|
|
of difficulty, notwithstanding that, were she to advance,
|
|
cheerful dames would come forward with cups of tea and make
|
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much of her as a stranger of superior grace and knowledge
|
|
to themselves. Having watched the company through the
|
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figures of two dances, she decided to walk a little further,
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to a cottage where she might get some refreshment,
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and then return homeward in the shady time of evening.
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This she did, and by the time that she retraced her steps
|
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towards the scene of the gipsying, which it was necessary
|
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to repass on her way to Alderworth, the sun was going down.
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The air was now so still that she could hear the band
|
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afar off, and it seemed to be playing with more spirit,
|
|
if that were possible, than when she had come away.
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On reaching the hill the sun had quite disappeared;
|
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but this made little difference either to Eustacia
|
|
or to the revellers, for a round yellow moon was rising
|
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before her, though its rays had not yet outmastered those
|
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from the west. The dance was going on just the same,
|
|
but strangers had arrived and formed a ring around the figure,
|
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so that Eustacia could stand among these without a chance
|
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of being recognized.
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A whole village-full of sensuous emotion, scattered abroad
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all the year long, surged here in a focus for an hour.
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The forty hearts of those waving couples were beating as they
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had not done since, twelve months before, they had come
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together in similar jollity. For the time paganism was
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|
revived in their hearts, the pride of life was all in all,
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and they adored none other than themselves.
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How many of those impassioned but temporary embraces were
|
|
destined to become perpetual was possibly the wonder of
|
|
some of those who indulged in them, as well as of Eustacia
|
|
who looked on. She began to envy those pirouetters,
|
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to hunger for the hope and happiness which the
|
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fascination of the dance seemed to engender within them.
|
|
Desperately fond of dancing herself, one of Eustacia's
|
|
expectations of Paris had been the opportunity it might
|
|
afford her of indulgence in this favourite pastime.
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Unhappily, that expectation was now extinct within her for ever.
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Whilst she abstractedly watched them spinning and
|
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fluctuating in the increasing moonlight she suddenly
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heard her name whispered by a voice over her shoulder.
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Turning in surprise, she beheld at her elbow one whose
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|
presence instantly caused her to flush to the temples.
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It was Wildeve. Till this moment he had not met her eye
|
|
since the morning of his marriage, when she had been
|
|
loitering in the church, and had startled him by lifting
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her veil and coming forward to sign the register as witness.
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Yet why the sight of him should have instigated that sudden
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rush of blood she could not tell.
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Before she could speak he whispered, "Do you like dancing
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as much as ever?"
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"I think I do," she replied in a low voice.
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"Will you dance with me?"
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"It would be a great change for me; but will it not
|
|
seem strange?"
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"What strangeness can there be in relations dancing together?"
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"Ah--yes, relations. Perhaps none."
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"Still, if you don't like to be seen, pull down your veil;
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though there is not much risk of being known by this light.
|
|
Lots of strangers are here."
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She did as he suggested; and the act was a tacit
|
|
acknowledgment that she accepted his offer.
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Wildeve gave her his arm and took her down on the outside
|
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of the ring to the bottom of the dance, which they entered.
|
|
In two minutes more they were involved in the figure
|
|
and began working their way upwards to the top.
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|
Till they had advanced halfway thither Eustacia wished
|
|
more than once that she had not yielded to his request;
|
|
from the middle to the top she felt that, since she had come
|
|
out to seek pleasure, she was only doing a natural thing
|
|
to obtain it. Fairly launched into the ceaseless glides
|
|
and whirls which their new position as top couple opened
|
|
up to them, Eustacia's pulses began to move too quickly
|
|
for long rumination of any kind.
|
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|
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Through the length of five-and-twenty couples they threaded
|
|
their giddy way, and a new vitality entered her form.
|
|
The pale ray of evening lent a fascination to the experience.
|
|
There is a certain degree and tone of light which tends
|
|
to disturb the equilibrium of the senses, and to promote
|
|
dangerously the tenderer moods; added to movement,
|
|
it drives the emotions to rankness, the reason becoming
|
|
sleepy and unperceiving in inverse proportion; and this
|
|
light fell now upon these two from the disc of the moon.
|
|
All the dancing girls felt the symptoms, but Eustacia most
|
|
of all. The grass under their feet became trodden away,
|
|
and the hard, beaten surface of the sod, when viewed aslant
|
|
towards the moonlight, shone like a polished table.
|
|
The air became quite still, the flag above the wagon which held
|
|
the musicians clung to the pole, and the players appeared
|
|
only in outline against the sky; except when the circular
|
|
mouths of the trombone, ophicleide, and French horn gleamed
|
|
out like huge eyes from the shade of their figures.
|
|
The pretty dresses of the maids lost their subtler day
|
|
colours and showed more or less of a misty white.
|
|
Eustacia floated round and round on Wildeve's arm,
|
|
her face rapt and statuesque; her soul had passed away
|
|
from and forgotten her features, which were left empty
|
|
and quiescent, as they always are when feeling goes beyond
|
|
their register.
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|
How near she was to Wildeve! it was terrible to think of.
|
|
She could feel his breathing, and he, of course,
|
|
could feel hers. How badly she had treated him! yet,
|
|
here they were treading one measure. The enchantment
|
|
of the dance surprised her. A clear line of difference
|
|
divided like a tangible fence her experience within
|
|
this maze of motion from her experience without it.
|
|
Her beginning to dance had been like a change of atmosphere;
|
|
outside, she had been steeped in arctic frigidity
|
|
by comparison with the tropical sensations here.
|
|
She had entered the dance from the troubled hours of her
|
|
late life as one might enter a brilliant chamber after
|
|
a night walk in a wood. Wildeve by himself would have
|
|
been merely an agitation; Wildeve added to the dance,
|
|
and the moonlight, and the secrecy, began to be a delight.
|
|
Whether his personality supplied the greater part of this
|
|
sweetly compounded feeling, or whether the dance and the
|
|
scene weighed the more therein, was a nice point upon
|
|
which Eustacia herself was entirely in a cloud.
|
|
|
|
People began to say "Who are they?" but no invidious
|
|
inquiries were made. Had Eustacia mingled with the
|
|
other girls in their ordinary daily walks the case would
|
|
have been different: here she was not inconvenienced by
|
|
excessive inspection, for all were wrought to their brightest
|
|
grace by the occasion. Like the planet Mercury surrounded
|
|
by the lustre of sunset, her permanent brilliancy passed
|
|
without much notice in the temporary glory of the situation.
|
|
|
|
As for Wildeve, his feelings are easy to guess.
|
|
Obstacles were a ripening sun to his love, and he
|
|
was at this moment in a delirium of exquisite misery.
|
|
To clasp as his for five minutes what was another man's
|
|
through all the rest of the year was a kind of thing he
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of all men could appreciate. He had long since begun
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to sigh again for Eustacia; indeed, it may be asserted
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that signing the marriage register with Thomasin was the
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natural signal to his heart to return to its first quarters,
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and that the extra complication of Eustacia's marriage
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was the one addition required to make that return compulsory.
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Thus, for different reasons, what was to the rest an exhilarating
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movement was to these two a riding upon the whirlwind.
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The dance had come like an irresistible attack upon whatever
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sense of social order there was in their minds, to drive
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them back into old paths which were now doubly irregular.
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Through three dances in succession they spun their way;
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and then, fatigued with the incessant motion, Eustacia turned
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to quit the circle in which she had already remained too long.
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Wildeve led her to a grassy mound a few yards distant,
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where she sat down, her partner standing beside her.
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From the time that he addressed her at the beginning
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of the dance till now they had not exchanged a word.
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"The dance and the walking have tired you?" he said tenderly.
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"No; not greatly."
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"It is strange that we should have met here of all places,
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after missing each other so long."
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"We have missed because we tried to miss, I suppose."
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"Yes. But you began that proceeding--by breaking a promise."
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"It is scarcely worth while to talk of that now.
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We have formed other ties since then--you no less than I."
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"I am sorry to hear that your husband is ill."
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"He is not ill--only incapacitated."
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"Yes--that is what I mean. I sincerely sympathize
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with you in your trouble. Fate has treated you cruelly."
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She was silent awhile. "Have you heard that he has
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chosen to work as a furze-cutter?" she said in a low,
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mournful voice.
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"It has been mentioned to me," answered Wildeve hesitatingly.
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"But I hardly believed it."
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"It is true. What do you think of me as a furze-
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cutter's wife?"
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"I think the same as ever of you, Eustacia. Nothing of
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that sort can degrade you--you ennoble the occupation
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of your husband."
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"I wish I could feel it."
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"Is there any chance of Mr. Yeobright getting better?"
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"He thinks so. I doubt it."
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"I was quite surprised to hear that he had taken a cottage.
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I thought, in common with other people, that he would have
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taken you off to a home in Paris immediately after you had
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married him. 'What a gay, bright future she has before her!'
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I thought. He will, I suppose, return there with you,
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if his sight gets strong again?"
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Observing that she did not reply he regarded her
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more closely. She was almost weeping. Images of a
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future never to be enjoyed, the revived sense of her
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bitter disappointment, the picture of the neighbour's
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suspended ridicule which was raised by Wildeve's words,
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had been too much for proud Eustacia's equanimity.
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Wildeve could hardly control his own too forward feelings
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when he saw her silent perturbation. But he affected
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|
not to notice this, and she soon recovered her calmness.
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"You do not intend to walk home by yourself?" he asked.
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"O yes," said Eustacia. "What could hurt me on this heath,
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who have nothing?"
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"By diverging a little I can make my way home the same
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|
as yours. I shall be glad to keep you company as far
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|
as Throope Corner." Seeing that Eustacia sat on in
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|
hesitation he added, "Perhaps you think it unwise to be
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|
seen in the same road with me after the events of last summer?"
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"Indeed I think no such thing," she said haughtily.
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"I shall accept whose company I choose, for all that may be
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said by the miserable inhabitants of Egdon."
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"Then let us walk on--if you are ready. Our nearest way
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is towards that holly bush with the dark shadow that you
|
|
see down there."
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Eustacia arose, and walked beside him in the direction
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signified, brushing her way over the damping heath and fern,
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|
and followed by the strains of the merrymakers, who still kept
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|
up the dance. The moon had now waxed bright and silvery,
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|
but the heath was proof against such illumination,
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|
and there was to be observed the striking scene of a dark,
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rayless tract of country under an atmosphere charged
|
|
from its zenith to its extremities with whitest light.
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To an eye above them their two faces would have appeared
|
|
amid the expanse like two pearls on a table of ebony.
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On this account the irregularities of the path were not visible,
|
|
and Wildeve occasionally stumbled; whilst Eustacia found
|
|
it necessary to perform some graceful feats of balancing
|
|
whenever a small tuft of heather or root of furze
|
|
protruded itself through the grass of the narrow track
|
|
and entangled her feet. At these junctures in her progress
|
|
a hand was invariably stretched forward to steady her,
|
|
holding her firmly until smooth ground was again reached,
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|
when the hand was again withdrawn to a respectful distance.
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They performed the journey for the most part in silence,
|
|
and drew near to Throope Corner, a few hundred yards from
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|
which a short path branched away to Eustacia's house.
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|
By degrees they discerned coming towards them a pair of
|
|
human figures, apparently of the male sex.
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|
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|
When they came a little nearer Eustacia broke the silence
|
|
by saying, "One of those men is my husband. He promised
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|
to come to meet me."
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|
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"And the other is my greatest enemy," said Wildeve.
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|
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|
"It looks like Diggory Venn."
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"That is the man."
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"It is an awkward meeting," said she; "but such is my fortune.
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|
He knows too much about me, unless he could know more,
|
|
and so prove to himself that what he now knows counts
|
|
for nothing. Well, let it be--you must deliver me up
|
|
to them."
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|
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|
"You will think twice before you direct me to do that.
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|
Here is a man who has not forgotten an item in our meetings
|
|
at Rainbarrow--he is in company with your husband.
|
|
Which of them, seeing us together here, will believe
|
|
that our meeting and dancing at the gipsy party was
|
|
by chance?"
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|
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|
"Very well," she whispered gloomily. "Leave me before
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|
they come up."
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Wildeve bade her a tender farewell, and plunged across
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|
the fern and furze, Eustacia slowly walking on. In two
|
|
or three minutes she met her husband and his companion.
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|
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|
"My journey ends here for tonight, reddleman," said Yeobright
|
|
as soon as he perceived her. "I turn back with this lady.
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|
Good night."
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|
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|
"Good night, Mr. Yeobright," said Venn. "I hope to see
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|
you better soon."
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|
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|
The moonlight shone directly upon Venn's face as he spoke,
|
|
and revealed all its lines to Eustacia. He was looking
|
|
suspiciously at her. That Venn's keen eye had discerned
|
|
what Yeobright's feeble vision had not--a man in the act
|
|
of withdrawing from Eustacia's side--was within the limits
|
|
of the probable.
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|
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|
If Eustacia had been able to follow the reddleman she would
|
|
soon have found striking confirmation of her thought.
|
|
No sooner had Clym given her his arm and led her off
|
|
the scene than the reddleman turned back from the beaten
|
|
track towards East Egdon, whither he had been strolling
|
|
merely to accompany Clym in his walk, Diggory's van
|
|
being again in the neighbourhood. Stretching out his
|
|
long legs, he crossed the pathless portion of the heath
|
|
somewhat in the direction which Wildeve had taken.
|
|
Only a man accustomed to nocturnal rambles could at this
|
|
hour have descended those shaggy slopes with Venn's
|
|
velocity without falling headlong into a pit, or snapping
|
|
off his leg by jamming his foot into some rabbit burrow.
|
|
But Venn went on without much inconvenience to himself,
|
|
and the course of his scamper was towards the Quiet
|
|
Woman Inn. This place he reached in about half an hour,
|
|
and he was well aware that no person who had been near
|
|
Throope Corner when he started could have got down here
|
|
before him.
|
|
|
|
The lonely inn was not yet closed, though scarcely
|
|
an individual was there, the business done being chiefly
|
|
with travellers who passed the inn on long journeys,
|
|
and these had now gone on their way. Venn went to the
|
|
public room, called for a mug of ale, and inquired
|
|
of the maid in an indifferent tone if Mr. Wildeve was at home.
|
|
|
|
Thomasin sat in an inner room and heard Venn's voice.
|
|
When customers were present she seldom showed herself,
|
|
owing to her inherent dislike for the business;
|
|
but perceiving that no one else was there tonight she
|
|
came out.
|
|
|
|
"He is not at home yet, Diggory," she said pleasantly.
|
|
"But I expected him sooner. He has been to East Egdon
|
|
to buy a horse."
|
|
|
|
"Did he wear a light wideawake?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes."
|
|
|
|
"Then I saw him at Throope Corner, leading one home,"
|
|
said Venn drily. "A beauty, with a white face and a mane
|
|
as black as night. He will soon be here, no doubt."
|
|
Rising and looking for a moment at the pure, sweet face
|
|
of Thomasin, over which a shadow of sadness had passed
|
|
since the time when he had last seen her, he ventured to add,
|
|
"Mr. Wildeve seems to be often away at this time."
|
|
|
|
"O yes," cried Thomasin in what was intended to be a tone
|
|
of gaiety. "Husbands will play the truant, you know.
|
|
I wish you could tell me of some secret plan that would
|
|
help me to keep him home at my will in the evenings."
|
|
|
|
"I will consider if I know of one," replied Venn in that
|
|
same light tone which meant no lightness. And then he
|
|
bowed in a manner of his own invention and moved to go.
|
|
Thomasin offered him her hand; and without a sigh,
|
|
though with food for many, the reddleman went out.
|
|
|
|
When Wildeve returned, a quarter of an hour later Thomasin
|
|
said simply, and in the abashed manner usual with her now,
|
|
"Where is the horse, Damon?"
|
|
|
|
"O, I have not bought it, after all. The man asks too much."
|
|
|
|
"But somebody saw you at Throope Corner leading it
|
|
home--a beauty, with a white face and a mane as black
|
|
as night."
|
|
|
|
"Ah!" said Wildeve, fixing his eyes upon her; "who told
|
|
you that?"
|
|
|
|
"Venn the reddleman."
|
|
|
|
The expression of Wildeve's face became curiously condensed.
|
|
"That is a mistake--it must have been someone else,"
|
|
he said slowly and testily, for he perceived that Venn's
|
|
countermoves had begun again.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
4 - Rough Coercion Is Employed
|
|
|
|
|
|
Those words of Thomasin, which seemed so little, but meant
|
|
so much, remained in the ears of Diggory Venn: "Help me
|
|
to keep him home in the evenings."
|
|
|
|
On this occasion Venn had arrived on Egdon Heath only to cross
|
|
to the other side--he had no further connection with the
|
|
interests of the Yeobright family, and he had a business of
|
|
his own to attend to. Yet he suddenly began to feel himself
|
|
drifting into the old track of manoeuvring on Thomasin's account.
|
|
|
|
He sat in his van and considered. From Thomasin's words and
|
|
manner he had plainly gathered that Wildeve neglected her.
|
|
For whom could he neglect her if not for Eustacia? Yet it
|
|
was scarcely credible that things had come to such a head
|
|
as to indicate that Eustacia systematically encouraged him.
|
|
Venn resolved to reconnoitre somewhat carefully the lonely
|
|
road which led along the vale from Wildeve's dwelling
|
|
to Clym's house at Alderworth.
|
|
|
|
At this time, as has been seen, Wildeve was quite
|
|
innocent of any predetermined act of intrigue, and except
|
|
at the dance on the green he had not once met Eustacia
|
|
since her marriage. But that the spirit of intrigue
|
|
was in him had been shown by a recent romantic habit
|
|
of his--a habit of going out after dark and strolling
|
|
towards Alderworth, there looking at the moon and stars,
|
|
looking at Eustacia's house, and walking back at leisure.
|
|
|
|
Accordingly, when watching on the night after the festival,
|
|
the reddleman saw him ascend by the little path,
|
|
lean over the front gate of Clym's garden, sigh, and turn
|
|
to go back again. It was plain that Wildeve's intrigue
|
|
was rather ideal than real. Venn retreated before him
|
|
down the hill to a place where the path was merely
|
|
a deep groove between the heather; here he mysteriously
|
|
bent over the ground for a few minutes, and retired.
|
|
When Wildeve came on to that spot his ankle was caught
|
|
by something, and he fell headlong.
|
|
|
|
As soon as he had recovered the power of respiration
|
|
he sat up and listened. There was not a sound in the
|
|
gloom beyond the spiritless stir of the summer wind.
|
|
Feeling about for the obstacle which had flung him down,
|
|
he discovered that two tufts of heath had been tied together
|
|
across the path, forming a loop, which to a traveller
|
|
was certain overthrow. Wildeve pulled off the string
|
|
that bound them, and went on with tolerable quickness.
|
|
On reaching home he found the cord to be of a reddish colour.
|
|
It was just what he had expected.
|
|
|
|
Although his weaknesses were not specially those akin
|
|
to physical fear, this species of coup-de-Jarnac
|
|
from one he knew too well troubled the mind of Wildeve.
|
|
But his movements were unaltered thereby. A night
|
|
or two later he again went along the vale to Alderworth,
|
|
taking the precaution of keeping out of any path.
|
|
The sense that he was watched, that craft was employed
|
|
to circumvent his errant tastes, added piquancy to a journey
|
|
so entirely sentimental, so long as the danger was of no
|
|
fearful sort. He imagined that Venn and Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
were in league, and felt that there was a certain legitimacy
|
|
in combating such a coalition.
|
|
|
|
The heath tonight appeared to be totally deserted;
|
|
and Wildeve, after looking over Eustacia's garden gate
|
|
for some little time, with a cigar in his mouth, was tempted
|
|
by the fascination that emotional smuggling had for his nature
|
|
to advance towards the window, which was not quite closed,
|
|
the blind being only partly drawn down. He could see
|
|
into the room, and Eustacia was sitting there alone.
|
|
Wildeve contemplated her for a minute, and then retreating
|
|
into the heath beat the ferns lightly, whereupon moths flew
|
|
out alarmed. Securing one, he returned to the window,
|
|
and holding the moth to the chink, opened his hand.
|
|
The moth made towards the candle upon Eustacia's table,
|
|
hovered round it two or three times, and flew into
|
|
the flame.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia started up. This had been a well-known signal
|
|
in old times when Wildeve had used to come secretly wooing
|
|
to Mistover. She at once knew that Wildeve was outside,
|
|
but before she could consider what to do her husband
|
|
came in from upstairs. Eustacia's face burnt crimson
|
|
at the unexpected collision of incidents, and filled it
|
|
with an animation that it too frequently lacked.
|
|
|
|
"You have a very high colour, dearest," said Yeobright,
|
|
when he came close enough to see it. "Your appearance
|
|
would be no worse if it were always so."
|
|
|
|
"I am warm," said Eustacia. "I think I will go into
|
|
the air for a few minutes."
|
|
|
|
"Shall I go with you?"
|
|
|
|
"O no. I am only going to the gate."
|
|
|
|
She arose, but before she had time to get out of the room
|
|
a loud rapping began upon the front door.
|
|
|
|
"I'll go--I'll go," said Eustacia in an unusually quick
|
|
tone for her; and she glanced eagerly towards the window
|
|
whence the moth had flown; but nothing appeared there.
|
|
|
|
"You had better not at this time of the evening,"
|
|
he said. Clym stepped before her into the passage,
|
|
and Eustacia waited, her somnolent manner covering her
|
|
inner heat and agitation.
|
|
|
|
She listened, and Clym opened the door. No words were
|
|
uttered outside, and presently he closed it and came back,
|
|
saying, "Nobody was there. I wonder what that could have meant?"
|
|
|
|
He was left to wonder during the rest of the evening,
|
|
for no explanation offered itself, and Eustacia said nothing,
|
|
the additional fact that she knew of only adding more
|
|
mystery to the performance.
|
|
|
|
Meanwhile a little drama had been acted outside which saved
|
|
Eustacia from all possibility of compromising herself
|
|
that evening at least. Whilst Wildeve had been preparing
|
|
his moth-signal another person had come behind him up
|
|
to the gate. This man, who carried a gun in his hand,
|
|
looked on for a moment at the other's operation by
|
|
the window, walked up to the house, knocked at the door,
|
|
and then vanished round the corner and over the hedge.
|
|
|
|
"Damn him!" said Wildeve. "He has been watching me again."
|
|
|
|
As his signal had been rendered futile by this uproarious
|
|
rapping Wildeve withdrew, passed out at the gate, and walked
|
|
quickly down the path without thinking of anything except
|
|
getting away unnoticed. Halfway down the hill the path
|
|
ran near a knot of stunted hollies, which in the general
|
|
darkness of the scene stood as the pupil in a black eye.
|
|
When Wildeve reached this point a report startled his ear,
|
|
and a few spent gunshots fell among the leaves around him.
|
|
|
|
There was no doubt that he himself was the cause of that
|
|
gun's discharge; and he rushed into the clump of hollies,
|
|
beating the bushes furiously with his stick; but nobody
|
|
was there. This attack was a more serious matter than
|
|
the last, and it was some time before Wildeve recovered
|
|
his equanimity. A new and most unpleasant system of menace
|
|
had begun, and the intent appeared to be to do him grievous
|
|
bodily harm. Wildeve had looked upon Venn's first attempt
|
|
as a species of horseplay, which the reddleman had indulged
|
|
in for want of knowing better; but now the boundary
|
|
line was passed which divides the annoying from the perilous.
|
|
|
|
Had Wildeve known how thoroughly in earnest Venn
|
|
had become he might have been still more alarmed.
|
|
The reddleman had been almost exasperated by the sight
|
|
of Wildeve outside Clym's house, and he was prepared to go
|
|
to any lengths short of absolutely shooting him, to terrify
|
|
the young innkeeper out of his recalcitrant impulses.
|
|
The doubtful legitimacy of such rough coercion did not
|
|
disturb the mind of Venn. It troubles few such minds
|
|
in such cases, and sometimes this is not to be regretted.
|
|
From the impeachment of Strafford to Farmer Lynch's
|
|
short way with the scamps of Virginia there have been
|
|
many triumphs of justice which are mockeries of law.
|
|
|
|
About half a mile below Clym's secluded dwelling
|
|
lay a hamlet where lived one of the two constables
|
|
who preserved the peace in the parish of Alderworth,
|
|
and Wildeve went straight to the constable's cottage.
|
|
Almost the first thing that he saw on opening the door
|
|
was the constable's truncheon hanging to a nail, as if
|
|
to assure him that here were the means to his purpose.
|
|
On inquiry, however, of the constable's wife he learnt
|
|
that the constable was not at home. Wildeve said he
|
|
would wait.
|
|
|
|
The minutes ticked on, and the constable did not arrive.
|
|
Wildeve cooled down from his state of high indignation
|
|
to a restless dissatisfaction with himself, the scene,
|
|
the constable's wife, and the whole set of circumstances.
|
|
He arose and left the house. Altogether, the experience
|
|
of that evening had had a cooling, not to say a chilling,
|
|
effect on misdirected tenderness, and Wildeve was in no mood
|
|
to ramble again to Alderworth after nightfall in hope of a
|
|
stray glance from Eustacia.
|
|
|
|
Thus far the reddleman had been tolerably successful in his
|
|
rude contrivances for keeping down Wildeve's inclination
|
|
to rove in the evening. He had nipped in the bud the
|
|
possible meeting between Eustacia and her old lover this
|
|
very night. But he had not anticipated that the tendency
|
|
of his action would be to divert Wildeve's movement
|
|
rather than to stop it. The gambling with the guineas
|
|
had not conduced to make him a welcome guest to Clym;
|
|
but to call upon his wife's relative was natural, and he
|
|
was determined to see Eustacia. It was necessary to choose
|
|
some less untoward hour than ten o'clock at night.
|
|
"Since it is unsafe to go in the evening," he said,
|
|
"I'll go by day."
|
|
|
|
Meanwhile Venn had left the heath and gone to call upon
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright, with whom he had been on friendly terms
|
|
since she had learnt what a providential countermove he
|
|
had made towards the restitution of the family guineas.
|
|
She wondered at the lateness of his call, but had no
|
|
objection to see him.
|
|
|
|
He gave her a full account of Clym's affliction, and of the
|
|
state in which he was living; then, referring to Thomasin,
|
|
touched gently upon the apparent sadness of her days.
|
|
"Now, ma'am, depend upon it," he said, "you couldn't do
|
|
a better thing for either of 'em than to make yourself
|
|
at home in their houses, even if there should be a little
|
|
rebuff at first."
|
|
|
|
"Both she and my son disobeyed me in marrying;
|
|
therefore I have no interest in their households.
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Their troubles are of their own making." Mrs. Yeobright
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tried to speak severely; but the account of her son's
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state had moved her more than she cared to show.
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"Your visits would make Wildeve walk straighter than he
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is inclined to do, and might prevent unhappiness down
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the heath."
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"What do you mean?"
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"I saw something tonight out there which I didn't like at all.
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I wish your son's house and Mr. Wildeve's were a hundred
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miles apart instead of four or five."
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"Then there WAS an understanding between him
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and Clym's wife when he made a fool of Thomasin!"
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"We'll hope there's no understanding now."
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"And our hope will probably be very vain. O Clym!
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O Thomasin!"
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"There's no harm done yet. In fact, I've persuaded
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Wildeve to mind his own business."
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"How?"
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"O, not by talking--by a plan of mine called the silent system."
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"I hope you'll succeed."
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"I shall if you help me by calling and making friends
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with your son. You'll have a chance then of using your eyes."
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"Well, since it has come to this," said Mrs. Yeobright sadly,
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"I will own to you, reddleman, that I thought of going.
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I should be much happier if we were reconciled.
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The marriage is unalterable, my life may be cut short,
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and I should wish to die in peace. He is my only son;
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and since sons are made of such stuff I am not sorry
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I have no other. As for Thomasin, I never expected
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much from her; and she has not disappointed me.
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But I forgave her long ago; and I forgive him now.
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I'll go."
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At this very time of the reddleman's conversation
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with Mrs. Yeobright at Blooms-End another conversation
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on the same subject was languidly proceeding at Alderworth.
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All the day Clym had borne himself as if his mind were too full
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of its own matter to allow him to care about outward things,
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and his words now showed what had occupied his thoughts.
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It was just after the mysterious knocking that he began
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the theme. "Since I have been away today, Eustacia,
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I have considered that something must be done to heal up
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this ghastly breach between my dear mother and myself.
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It troubles me."
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"What do you propose to do?" said Eustacia abstractedly,
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for she could not clear away from her the excitement caused
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by Wildeve's recent manoeuvre for an interview.
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"You seem to take a very mild interest in what I propose,
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little or much," said Clym, with tolerable warmth.
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"You mistake me," she answered, reviving at his reproach.
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"I am only thinking."
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"What of?"
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"Partly of that moth whose skeleton is getting burnt up
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in the wick of the candle," she said slowly. "But you
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know I always take an interest in what you say."
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"Very well, dear. Then I think I must go and call upon
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her."...He went on with tender feeling: "It is a thing
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I am not at all too proud to do, and only a fear
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that I might irritate her has kept me away so long.
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But I must do something. It is wrong in me to allow
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this sort of thing to go on."
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"What have you to blame yourself about?"
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"She is getting old, and her life is lonely, and I am
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her only son."
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"She has Thomasin."
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"Thomasin is not her daughter; and if she were that
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would not excuse me. But this is beside the point.
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I have made up my mind to go to her, and all I wish
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to ask you is whether you will do your best to help
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me--that is, forget the past; and if she shows her
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willingness to be reconciled, meet her halfway by welcoming
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her to our house, or by accepting a welcome to hers?"
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At first Eustacia closed her lips as if she would rather
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do anything on the whole globe than what he suggested.
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But the lines of her mouth softened with thought, though not
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so far as they might have softened, and she said, "I will
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put nothing in your way; but after what has passed it,
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is asking too much that I go and make advances."
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"You never distinctly told me what did pass between you."
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"I could not do it then, nor can I now. Sometimes more
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bitterness is sown in five minutes than can be got rid
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of in a whole life; and that may be the case here."
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She paused a few moments, and added, "If you had never
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returned to your native place, Clym, what a blessing it
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would have been for you!...It has altered the destinies of----"
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"Three people."
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"Five," Eustacia thought; but she kept that in.
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5 - The Journey across the Heath
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Thursday, the thirty-first of August, was one of a series
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of days during which snug houses were stifling, and when cool
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draughts were treats; when cracks appeared in clayey gardens,
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and were called "earthquakes" by apprehensive children;
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when loose spokes were discovered in the wheels of carts
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and carriages; and when stinging insects haunted the air,
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the earth, and every drop of water that was to be found.
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In Mrs. Yeobright's garden large-leaved plants of a
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tender kind flagged by ten o'clock in the morning;
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rhubarb bent downward at eleven; and even stiff cabbages
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were limp by noon.
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It was about eleven o'clock on this day that Mrs. Yeobright
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started across the heath towards her son's house, to do
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her best in getting reconciled with him and Eustacia,
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in conformity with her words to the reddleman.
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She had hoped to be well advanced in her walk before
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the heat of the day was at its highest, but after
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setting out she found that this was not to be done.
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The sun had branded the whole heath with its mark,
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even the purple heath-flowers having put on a brownness
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under the dry blazes of the few preceding days.
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Every valley was filled with air like that of a kiln,
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and the clean quartz sand of the winter water-courses,
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which formed summer paths, had undergone a species of
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incineration since the drought had set in.
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In cool, fresh weather Mrs. Yeobright would have found
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no inconvenience in walking to Alderworth, but the present
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torrid attack made the journey a heavy undertaking
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for a woman past middle age; and at the end of the third
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mile she wished that she had hired Fairway to drive
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her a portion at least of the distance. But from the
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point at which she had arrived it was as easy to reach
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Clym's house as to get home again. So she went on,
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the air around her pulsating silently, and oppressing
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the earth with lassitude. She looked at the sky overhead,
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and saw that the sapphirine hue of the zenith in spring
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and early summer had been replaced by a metallic violet.
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Occasionally she came to a spot where independent worlds
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of ephemerons were passing their time in mad carousal,
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some in the air, some on the hot ground and vegetation,
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some in the tepid and stringy water of a nearly dried pool.
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All the shallower ponds had decreased to a vaporous mud
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|
amid which the maggoty shapes of innumerable obscure
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creatures could be indistinctly seen, heaving and wallowing
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with enjoyment. Being a woman not disinclined to philosophize
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she sometimes sat down under her umbrella to rest
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and to watch their happiness, for a certain hopefulness
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as to the result of her visit gave ease to her mind,
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|
and between important thoughts left it free to dwell
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|
on any infinitesimal matter which caught her eyes.
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Mrs. Yeobright had never before been to her son's house,
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|
and its exact position was unknown to her. She tried one
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ascending path and another, and found that they led her astray.
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Retracing her steps, she came again to an open level,
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|
where she perceived at a distance a man at work.
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She went towards him and inquired the way.
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The labourer pointed out the direction, and added, "Do you
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|
see that furze-cutter, ma'am, going up that footpath yond?"
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Mrs. Yeobright strained her eyes, and at last said
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|
that she did perceive him.
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"Well, if you follow him you can make no mistake.
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He's going to the same place, ma'am."
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She followed the figure indicated. He appeared of a
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|
russet hue, not more distinguishable from the scene around
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|
him than the green caterpillar from the leaf it feeds on.
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|
His progress when actually walking was more rapid than
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|
Mrs. Yeobright's; but she was enabled to keep at an equable
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|
distance from him by his habit of stopping whenever he
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|
came to a brake of brambles, where he paused awhile.
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|
On coming in her turn to each of these spots she found half
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|
a dozen long limp brambles which he had cut from the bush
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|
during his halt and laid out straight beside the path.
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|
They were evidently intended for furze-faggot bonds which he
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|
meant to collect on his return.
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|
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|
The silent being who thus occupied himself seemed
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|
to be of no more account in life than an insect.
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|
He appeared as a mere parasite of the heath, fretting its
|
|
surface in his daily labour as a moth frets a garment,
|
|
entirely engrossed with its products, having no knowledge
|
|
of anything in the world but fern, furze, heath, lichens, and moss.
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|
|
|
The furze-cutter was so absorbed in the business of his
|
|
journey that he never turned his head; and his leather-
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|
legged and gauntleted form at length became to her as
|
|
nothing more than a moving handpost to show her the way.
|
|
Suddenly she was attracted to his individuality by observing
|
|
peculiarities in his walk. It was a gait she had seen
|
|
somewhere before; and the gait revealed the man to her,
|
|
as the gait of Ahimaaz in the distant plain made him known
|
|
to the watchman of the king. "His walk is exactly as my
|
|
husband's used to be," she said; and then the thought
|
|
burst upon her that the furze-cutter was her son.
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|
|
|
She was scarcely able to familiarize herself with this
|
|
strange reality. She had been told that Clym was in the
|
|
habit of cutting furze, but she had supposed that he
|
|
occupied himself with the labour only at odd times,
|
|
by way of useful pastime; yet she now beheld him as a
|
|
furze-cutter and nothing more--wearing the regulation
|
|
dress of the craft, and thinking the regulation thoughts,
|
|
to judge by his motions. Planning a dozen hasty schemes
|
|
for at once preserving him and Eustacia from this mode
|
|
of life, she throbbingly followed the way, and saw him
|
|
enter his own door.
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|
|
|
At one side of Clym's house was a knoll, and on the top
|
|
of the knoll a clump of fir trees so highly thrust
|
|
up into the sky that their foliage from a distance
|
|
appeared as a black spot in the air above the crown
|
|
of the hill. On reaching this place Mrs. Yeobright felt
|
|
distressingly agitated, weary, and unwell. She ascended,
|
|
and sat down under their shade to recover herself,
|
|
and to consider how best to break the ground with Eustacia,
|
|
so as not to irritate a woman underneath whose apparent
|
|
indolence lurked passions even stronger and more active
|
|
than her own.
|
|
|
|
The trees beneath which she sat were singularly battered,
|
|
rude, and wild, and for a few minutes Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
dismissed thoughts of her own storm-broken and exhausted
|
|
state to contemplate theirs. Not a bough in the nine
|
|
trees which composed the group but was splintered, lopped,
|
|
and distorted by the fierce weather that there held them
|
|
at its mercy whenever it prevailed. Some were blasted
|
|
and split as if by lightning, black stains as from fire
|
|
marking their sides, while the ground at their feet was
|
|
strewn with dead fir-needles and heaps of cones blown
|
|
down in the gales of past years. The place was called
|
|
the Devil's Bellows, and it was only necessary to come
|
|
there on a March or November night to discover the forcible
|
|
reasons for that name. On the present heated afternoon,
|
|
when no perceptible wind was blowing, the trees kept up
|
|
a perpetual moan which one could hardly believe to be caused
|
|
by the air.
|
|
|
|
Here she sat for twenty minutes or more ere she could
|
|
summon resolution to go down to the door, her courage
|
|
being lowered to zero by her physical lassitude.
|
|
To any other person than a mother it might have seemed
|
|
a little humiliating that she, the elder of the two women,
|
|
should be the first to make advances. But Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
had well considered all that, and she only thought how best
|
|
to make her visit appear to Eustacia not abject but wise.
|
|
|
|
From her elevated position the exhausted woman could
|
|
perceive the roof of the house below, and the garden
|
|
and the whole enclosure of the little domicile. And now,
|
|
at the moment of rising, she saw a second man approaching
|
|
the gate. His manner was peculiar, hesitating, and not
|
|
that of a person come on business or by invitation.
|
|
He surveyed the house with interest, and then walked round
|
|
and scanned the outer boundary of the garden, as one might
|
|
have done had it been the birthplace of Shakespeare,
|
|
the prison of Mary Stuart, or the Chateau of Hougomont.
|
|
After passing round and again reaching the gate he went in.
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright was vexed at this, having reckoned on
|
|
finding her son and his wife by themselves; but a moment's
|
|
thought showed her that the presence of an acquaintance
|
|
would take off the awkwardness of her first appearance
|
|
in the house, by confining the talk to general matters
|
|
until she had begun to feel comfortable with them.
|
|
She came down the hill to the gate, and looked into the
|
|
hot garden.
|
|
|
|
There lay the cat asleep on the bare gravel of the path,
|
|
as if beds, rugs, and carpets were unendurable. The leaves
|
|
of the hollyhocks hung like half-closed umbrellas, the sap
|
|
almost simmered in the stems, and foliage with a smooth
|
|
surface glared like metallic mirrors. A small apple tree,
|
|
of the sort called Ratheripe, grew just inside the gate,
|
|
the only one which throve in the garden, by reason of the
|
|
lightness of the soil; and among the fallen apples on the
|
|
ground beneath were wasps rolling drunk with the juice,
|
|
or creeping about the little caves in each fruit which
|
|
they had eaten out before stupefied by its sweetness.
|
|
By the door lay Clym's furze-hook and the last handful
|
|
of faggot-bonds she had seen him gather; they had plainly
|
|
been thrown down there as he entered the house.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
6 - A Conjuncture, and Its Result upon the Pedestrian
|
|
|
|
|
|
Wildeve, as has been stated, was determined to visit
|
|
Eustacia boldly, by day, and on the easy terms of a relation,
|
|
since the reddleman had spied out and spoilt his walks
|
|
to her by night. The spell that she had thrown over him
|
|
in the moonlight dance made it impossible for a man
|
|
having no strong puritanic force within him to keep
|
|
away altogether. He merely calculated on meeting her and
|
|
her husband in an ordinary manner, chatting a little while,
|
|
and leaving again. Every outward sign was to be conventional;
|
|
but the one great fact would be there to satisfy him--he
|
|
would see her. He did not even desire Clym's absence,
|
|
since it was just possible that Eustacia might resent any
|
|
situation which could compromise her dignity as a wife,
|
|
whatever the state of her heart towards him. Women were often so.
|
|
|
|
He went accordingly; and it happened that the time of his
|
|
arrival coincided with that of Mrs. Yeobright's pause on the
|
|
hill near the house. When he had looked round the premises
|
|
in the manner she had noticed he went and knocked at the door.
|
|
There was a few minutes' interval, and then the key turned
|
|
in the lock, the door opened, and Eustacia herself confronted him.
|
|
|
|
Nobody could have imagined from her bearing now that here
|
|
stood the woman who had joined with him in the impassioned
|
|
dance of the week before, unless indeed he could have
|
|
penetrated below the surface and gauged the real depth
|
|
of that still stream.
|
|
|
|
"I hope you reached home safely?" said Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"O yes," she carelessly returned.
|
|
|
|
"And were you not tired the next day? I feared you might be."
|
|
|
|
"I was rather. You need not speak low--nobody will
|
|
over-hear us. My small servant is gone on an errand
|
|
to the village."
|
|
|
|
"Then Clym is not at home?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, he is."
|
|
|
|
"O! I thought that perhaps you had locked the door
|
|
because you were alone and were afraid of tramps."
|
|
|
|
"No--here is my husband."
|
|
|
|
They had been standing in the entry. Closing the front
|
|
door and turning the key, as before, she threw open
|
|
the door of the adjoining room and asked him to walk in.
|
|
Wildeve entered, the room appearing to be empty;
|
|
but as soon as he had advanced a few steps he started.
|
|
On the hearthrug lay Clym asleep. Beside him were
|
|
the leggings, thick boots, leather gloves, and sleeve-
|
|
waistcoat in which he worked.
|
|
|
|
"You may go in; you will not disturb him," she said,
|
|
following behind. "My reason for fastening the door
|
|
is that he may not be intruded upon by any chance comer
|
|
while lying here, if I should be in the garden or upstairs."
|
|
|
|
"Why is he sleeping there?" said Wildeve in low tones.
|
|
|
|
"He is very weary. He went out at half-past four
|
|
this morning, and has been working ever since. He cuts
|
|
furze because it is the only thing he can do that does
|
|
not put any strain upon his poor eyes." The contrast
|
|
between the sleeper's appearance and Wildeve's at this
|
|
moment was painfully apparent to Eustacia, Wildeve being
|
|
elegantly dressed in a new summer suit and light hat;
|
|
and she continued: "Ah! you don't know how differently he
|
|
appeared when I first met him, though it is such a little
|
|
while ago. His hands were as white and soft as mine;
|
|
and look at them now, how rough and brown they are!
|
|
His complexion is by nature fair, and that rusty look
|
|
he has now, all of a colour with his leather clothes,
|
|
is caused by the burning of the sun."
|
|
|
|
"Why does he go out at all!" Wildeve whispered.
|
|
|
|
"Because he hates to be idle; though what he earns
|
|
doesn't add much to our exchequer. However, he says
|
|
that when people are living upon their capital they must
|
|
keep down current expenses by turning a penny where they can."
|
|
|
|
"The fates have not been kind to you, Eustacia Yeobright."
|
|
|
|
"I have nothing to thank them for."
|
|
|
|
"Nor has he--except for their one great gift to him."
|
|
|
|
"What's that?"
|
|
|
|
Wildeve looked her in the eyes.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia blushed for the first time that day.
|
|
"Well, I am a questionable gift," she said quietly.
|
|
"I thought you meant the gift of content--which he has,
|
|
and I have not."
|
|
|
|
"I can understand content in such a case--though
|
|
how the outward situation can attract him puzzles me."
|
|
|
|
"That's because you don't know him. He's an enthusiast
|
|
about ideas, and careless about outward things.
|
|
He often reminds me of the Apostle Paul."
|
|
|
|
"I am glad to hear that he's so grand in character as that."
|
|
|
|
"Yes; but the worst of it is that though Paul was excellent
|
|
as a man in the Bible he would hardly have done in real life."
|
|
|
|
Their voices had instinctively dropped lower, though at first
|
|
they had taken no particular care to avoid awakening Clym.
|
|
"Well, if that means that your marriage is a misfortune
|
|
to you, you know who is to blame," said Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"The marriage is no misfortune in itself," she retorted
|
|
with some little petulance. "It is simply the accident
|
|
which has happened since that has been the cause of my ruin.
|
|
I have certainly got thistles for figs in a worldly sense,
|
|
but how could I tell what time would bring forth?"
|
|
|
|
"Sometimes, Eustacia, I think it is a judgment upon you.
|
|
You rightly belonged to me, you know; and I had no idea
|
|
of losing you."
|
|
|
|
"No, it was not my fault! Two could not belong to you;
|
|
and remember that, before I was aware, you turned aside
|
|
to another woman. It was cruel levity in you to do that.
|
|
I never dreamt of playing such a game on my side till you
|
|
began it on yours."
|
|
|
|
"I meant nothing by it," replied Wildeve. "It was a
|
|
mere interlude. Men are given to the trick of having a passing
|
|
fancy for somebody else in the midst of a permanent love,
|
|
which reasserts itself afterwards just as before.
|
|
On account of your rebellious manner to me I was tempted
|
|
to go further than I should have done; and when you still
|
|
would keep playing the same tantalizing part I went
|
|
further still, and married her." Turning and looking
|
|
again at the unconscious form of Clym, he murmured,
|
|
"I am afraid that you don't value your prize, Clym....He
|
|
ought to be happier than I in one thing at least.
|
|
He may know what it is to come down in the world,
|
|
and to be afflicted with a great personal calamity;
|
|
but he probably doesn't know what it is to lose the woman
|
|
he loved."
|
|
|
|
"He is not ungrateful for winning her," whispered Eustacia,
|
|
"and in that respect he is a good man. Many women
|
|
would go far for such a husband. But do I desire
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unreasonably much in wanting what is called life--
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music, poetry, passion, war, and all the beating
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and pulsing that are going on in the great arteries
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of the world? That was the shape of my youthful dream;
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but I did not get it. Yet I thought I saw the way to it in my Clym."
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"And you only married him on that account?"
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"There you mistake me. I married him because I loved him,
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but I won't say that I didn't love him partly because I
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thought I saw a promise of that life in him."
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"You have dropped into your old mournful key."
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"But I am not going to be depressed," she cried perversely.
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"I began a new system by going to that dance, and I mean
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to stick to it. Clym can sing merrily; why should not I?"
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Wildeve looked thoughtfully at her. "It is easier
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to say you will sing than to do it; though if I could I
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would encourage you in your attempt. But as life means
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nothing to me, without one thing which is now impossible,
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you will forgive me for not being able to encourage you."
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"Damon, what is the matter with you, that you speak
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like that?" she asked, raising her deep shady eyes to his.
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"That's a thing I shall never tell plainly; and perhaps if I
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try to tell you in riddles you will not care to guess them."
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Eustacia remained silent for a minute, and she said,
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"We are in a strange relationship today. You mince
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matters to an uncommon nicety. You mean, Damon, that you
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still love me. Well, that gives me sorrow, for I am not
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made so entirely happy by my marriage that I am willing
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to spurn you for the information, as I ought to do.
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But we have said too much about this. Do you mean to wait
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until my husband is awake?"
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"I thought to speak to him; but it is unnecessary,
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Eustacia, if I offend you by not forgetting you,
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you are right to mention it; but do not talk of spurning."
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She did not reply, and they stood looking musingly at Clym
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as he slept on in that profound sleep which is the result
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of physical labour carried on in circumstances that wake
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no nervous fear.
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"God, how I envy him that sweet sleep!" said Wildeve.
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"I have not slept like that since I was a boy--years and
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years ago."
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While they thus watched him a click at the gate was audible,
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and a knock came to the door. Eustacia went to a window
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and looked out.
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Her countenance changed. First she became crimson,
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and then the red subsided till it even partially left
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her lips.
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"Shall I go away?" said Wildeve, standing up.
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"I hardly know."
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"Who is it?"
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"Mrs. Yeobright. O, what she said to me that day! I
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cannot understand this visit--what does she mean? And
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she suspects that past time of ours."
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"I am in your hands. If you think she had better not see
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me here I'll go into the next room."
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"Well, yes--go."
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Wildeve at once withdrew; but before he had been half
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a minute in the adjoining apartment Eustacia came after him.
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"No," she said, "we won't have any of this. If she comes
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in she must see you--and think if she likes there's
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something wrong! But how can I open the door to her,
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when she dislikes me--wishes to see not me, but her son?
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I won't open the door!"
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Mrs. Yeobright knocked again more loudly.
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"Her knocking will, in all likelihood, awaken him,"
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continued Eustacia, "and then he will let her in himself.
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Ah--listen."
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They could hear Clym moving in the other room, as if
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disturbed by the knocking, and he uttered the word "Mother."
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"Yes--he is awake--he will go to the door,"
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she said, with a breath of relief. "Come this way.
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I have a bad name with her, and you must not be seen.
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Thus I am obliged to act by stealth, not because I do ill,
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but because others are pleased to say so."
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By this time she had taken him to the back door,
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which was open, disclosing a path leading down the garden.
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"Now, one word, Damon," she remarked as he stepped forth.
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"This is your first visit here; let it be your last.
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We have been hot lovers in our time, but it won't do now.
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Good-bye."
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"Good-bye," said Wildeve. "I have had all I came for,
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and I am satisfied."
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"What was it?"
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"A sight of you. Upon my eternal honour I came for no more."
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Wildeve kissed his hand to the beautiful girl he addressed,
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and passed into the garden, where she watched him down the path,
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over the stile at the end, and into the ferns outside,
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which brushed his hips as he went along till he became lost
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in their thickets. When he had quite gone she slowly turned,
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and directed her attention to the interior of the house.
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But it was possible that her presence might not be
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desired by Clym and his mother at this moment of their
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first meeting, or that it would be superfluous.
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At all events, she was in no hurry to meet Mrs. Yeobright.
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She resolved to wait till Clym came to look for her,
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and glided back into the garden. Here she idly occupied
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herself for a few minutes, till finding no notice was
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taken of her she retraced her steps through the house to
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the front, where she listened for voices in the parlour.
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But hearing none she opened the door and went in.
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To her astonishment Clym lay precisely as Wildeve and herself
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had left him, his sleep apparently unbroken. He had been
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disturbed and made to dream and murmur by the knocking,
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but he had not awakened. Eustacia hastened to the door,
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and in spite of her reluctance to open it to a woman who had
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spoken of her so bitterly, she unfastened it and looked out.
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Nobody was to be seen. There, by the scraper, lay Clym's
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hook and the handful of faggot-bonds he had brought home;
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in front of her were the empty path, the garden gate standing
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slightly ajar; and, beyond, the great valley of purple
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heath thrilling silently in the sun. Mrs. Yeobright
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was gone.
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Clym's mother was at this time following a path which lay
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hidden from Eustacia by a shoulder of the hill. Her walk
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thither from the garden gate had been hasty and determined,
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as of a woman who was now no less anxious to escape from
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the scene than she had previously been to enter it.
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Her eyes were fixed on the ground; within her two sights
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|
were graven--that of Clym's hook and brambles at the door,
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and that of a woman's face at a window. Her lips trembled,
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|
becoming unnaturally thin as she murmured, "'Tis too
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|
much--Clym, how can he bear to do it! He is at home;
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|
and yet he lets her shut the door against me!"
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In her anxiety to get out of the direct view of the house
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she had diverged from the straightest path homeward,
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|
and while looking about to regain it she came upon
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a little boy gathering whortleberries in a hollow.
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The boy was Johnny Nunsuch, who had been Eustacia's stoker
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|
at the bonfire, and, with the tendency of a minute body
|
|
to gravitate towards a greater, he began hovering round
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|
Mrs. Yeobright as soon as she appeared, and trotted on
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beside her without perceptible consciousness of his act.
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Mrs. Yeobright spoke to him as one in a mesmeric sleep.
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"'Tis a long way home, my child, and we shall not get there
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|
till evening."
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"I shall," said her small companion. "I am going to play
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marnels afore supper, and we go to supper at six o'clock,
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because Father comes home. Does your father come home
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at six too?"
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"No, he never comes; nor my son either, nor anybody."
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"What have made you so down? Have you seen a ooser?"
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"I have seen what's worse--a woman's face looking at me
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through a windowpane."
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|
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|
"Is that a bad sight?"
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|
"Yes. It is always a bad sight to see a woman looking
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|
out at a weary wayfarer and not letting her in."
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|
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"Once when I went to Throope Great Pond to catch effets
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I seed myself looking up at myself, and I was frightened
|
|
and jumped back like anything."
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..."If they had only shown signs of meeting my advances
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|
halfway how well it might have been done! But there is
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|
no chance. Shut out! She must have set him against me.
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|
Can there be beautiful bodies without hearts inside? I
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|
think so. I would not have done it against a neighbour's
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|
cat on such a fiery day as this!"
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|
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|
"What is it you say?"
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"Never again--never! Not even if they send for me!"
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|
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|
"You must be a very curious woman to talk like that."
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|
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|
"O no, not at all," she said, returning to the boy's prattle.
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|
"Most people who grow up and have children talk as I do.
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|
When you grow up your mother will talk as I do too."
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|
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|
"I hope she won't; because 'tis very bad to talk nonsense."
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|
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|
"Yes, child; it is nonsense, I suppose. Are you not
|
|
nearly spent with the heat?"
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|
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|
"Yes. But not so much as you be."
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|
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|
"How do you know?"
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|
|
|
"Your face is white and wet, and your head is hanging-down-like."
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|
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|
"Ah, I am exhausted from inside."
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|
|
|
"Why do you, every time you take a step, go like this?"
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|
The child in speaking gave to his motion the jerk and limp
|
|
of an invalid.
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|
|
|
"Because I have a burden which is more than I can bear."
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|
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|
The little boy remained silently pondering, and they
|
|
tottered on side by side until more than a quarter of an
|
|
hour had elapsed, when Mrs. Yeobright, whose weakness
|
|
plainly increased, said to him, "I must sit down here to rest."
|
|
|
|
When she had seated herself he looked long in her
|
|
face and said, "How funny you draw your breath--like
|
|
a lamb when you drive him till he's nearly done for.
|
|
Do you always draw your breath like that?"
|
|
|
|
"Not always." Her voice was now so low as to be scarcely
|
|
above a whisper.
|
|
|
|
"You will go to sleep there, I suppose, won't you? You
|
|
have shut your eyes already."
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|
|
|
"No. I shall not sleep much till--another day, and then
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|
I hope to have a long, long one--very long. Now can you
|
|
tell me if Rimsmoor Pond is dry this summer?"
|
|
|
|
"Rimsmoor Pond is, but Oker's Pool isn't, because he
|
|
is deep, and is never dry--'tis just over there."
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|
|
|
"Is the water clear?"
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|
|
|
"Yes, middling--except where the heath-croppers walk
|
|
into it."
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|
|
|
"Then, take this, and go as fast as you can, and dip me
|
|
up the clearest you can find. I am very faint."
|
|
|
|
She drew from the small willow reticule that she carried
|
|
in her hand an old-fashioned china teacup without
|
|
a handle; it was one of half a dozen of the same sort
|
|
lying in the reticule, which she had preserved ever
|
|
since her childhood, and had brought with her today
|
|
as a small present for Clym and Eustacia.
|
|
|
|
The boy started on his errand, and soon came back with
|
|
the water, such as it was. Mrs. Yeobright attempted
|
|
to drink, but it was so warm as to give her nausea, and she
|
|
threw it away. Afterwards she still remained sitting,
|
|
with her eyes closed.
|
|
|
|
The boy waited, played near her, caught several of the little
|
|
brown butterflies which abounded, and then said as he
|
|
waited again, "I like going on better than biding still.
|
|
Will you soon start again?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know."
|
|
|
|
"I wish I might go on by myself," he resumed,
|
|
fearing, apparently, that he was to be pressed
|
|
into some unpleasant service. "Do you want me any more, please?"
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright made no reply.
|
|
|
|
"What shall I tell Mother?" the boy continued.
|
|
|
|
"Tell her you have seen a broken-hearted woman cast off
|
|
by her son."
|
|
|
|
Before quite leaving her he threw upon her face a
|
|
wistful glance, as if he had misgivings on the generosity
|
|
of forsaking her thus. He gazed into her face in a vague,
|
|
wondering manner, like that of one examining some strange old
|
|
manuscript the key to whose characters is undiscoverable.
|
|
He was not so young as to be absolutely without a sense
|
|
that sympathy was demanded, he was not old enough to be
|
|
free from the terror felt in childhood at beholding misery
|
|
in adult quarters hither-to deemed impregnable; and whether
|
|
she were in a position to cause trouble or to suffer from it,
|
|
whether she and her affliction were something to pity
|
|
or something to fear, it was beyond him to decide.
|
|
He lowered his eyes and went on without another word.
|
|
Before he had gone half a mile he had forgotten all about her,
|
|
except that she was a woman who had sat down to rest.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright's exertions, physical and emotional,
|
|
had well-nigh prostrated her; but she continued to creep
|
|
along in short stages with long breaks between. The sun
|
|
had now got far to the west of south and stood directly
|
|
in her face, like some merciless incendiary, brand in hand,
|
|
waiting to consume her. With the departure of the boy
|
|
all visible animation disappeared from the landscape,
|
|
though the intermittent husky notes of the male grasshoppers
|
|
from every tuft of furze were enough to show that amid
|
|
the prostration of the larger animal species an unseen
|
|
insect world was busy in all the fullness of life.
|
|
|
|
In two hours she reached a slope about three-fourths the
|
|
whole distance from Alderworth to her own home, where a
|
|
little patch of shepherd's-thyme intruded upon the path;
|
|
and she sat down upon the perfumed mat it formed there.
|
|
In front of her a colony of ants had established a
|
|
thoroughfare across the way, where they toiled a never-ending
|
|
and heavy-laden throng. To look down upon them was
|
|
like observing a city street from the top of a tower.
|
|
She remembered that this bustle of ants had been in
|
|
progress for years at the same spot--doubtless those of
|
|
the old times were the ancestors of these which walked
|
|
there now. She leant back to obtain more thorough rest,
|
|
and the soft eastern portion of the sky was as great
|
|
a relief to her eyes as the thyme was to her head.
|
|
While she looked a heron arose on that side of the sky
|
|
and flew on with his face towards the sun. He had come
|
|
dripping wet from some pool in the valleys, and as he
|
|
flew the edges and lining of his wings, his thighs
|
|
and his breast were so caught by the bright sunbeams
|
|
that he appeared as if formed of burnished silver.
|
|
Up in the zenith where he was seemed a free and happy place,
|
|
away from all contact with the earthly ball to which
|
|
she was pinioned; and she wished that she could arise
|
|
uncrushed from its surface and fly as he flew then.
|
|
|
|
But, being a mother, it was inevitable that she should soon
|
|
cease to ruminate upon her own condition. Had the track
|
|
of her next thought been marked by a streak in the air,
|
|
like the path of a meteor, it would have shown a direction
|
|
contrary to the heron's, and have descended to the eastward
|
|
upon the roof of Clym's house.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
7 - The Tragic Meeting of Two Old Friends
|
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|
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|
|
He in the meantime had aroused himself from sleep, sat up,
|
|
and looked around. Eustacia was sitting in a chair hard
|
|
by him, and though she held a book in her hand she had
|
|
not looked into it for some time.
|
|
|
|
"Well, indeed!" said Clym, brushing his eyes with his hands.
|
|
"How soundly I have slept! I have had such a tremendous dream,
|
|
too--one I shall never forget."
|
|
|
|
"I thought you had been dreaming," said she.
|
|
|
|
"Yes. It was about my mother. I dreamt that I took you
|
|
to her house to make up differences, and when we got there we
|
|
couldn't get in, though she kept on crying to us for help.
|
|
However, dreams are dreams. What o'clock is it, Eustacia?"
|
|
|
|
"Half-past two."
|
|
|
|
"So late, is it? I didn't mean to stay so long. By the
|
|
time I have had something to eat it will be after three."
|
|
|
|
"Ann is not come back from the village, and I thought I
|
|
would let you sleep on till she returned."
|
|
|
|
Clym went to the window and looked out. Presently he said,
|
|
musingly, "Week after week passes, and yet Mother does not come.
|
|
I thought I should have heard something from her long before this."
|
|
|
|
Misgiving, regret, fear, resolution, ran their swift
|
|
course of expression in Eustacia's dark eyes.
|
|
She was face to face with a monstrous difficulty,
|
|
and she resolved to get free of it by postponement.
|
|
|
|
"I must certainly go to Blooms-End soon," he continued,
|
|
"and I think I had better go alone." He picked up his
|
|
leggings and gloves, threw them down again, and added,
|
|
"As dinner will be so late today I will not go back to
|
|
the heath, but work in the garden till the evening, and then,
|
|
when it will be cooler, I will walk to Blooms-End.
|
|
I am quite sure that if I make a little advance Mother
|
|
will be willing to forget all. It will be rather late
|
|
before I can get home, as I shall not be able to do the
|
|
distance either way in less than an hour and a half.
|
|
But you will not mind for one evening, dear? What are you
|
|
thinking of to make you look so abstracted?"
|
|
|
|
"I cannot tell you," she said heavily. "I wish we didn't
|
|
live here, Clym. The world seems all wrong in this place."
|
|
|
|
"Well--if we make it so. I wonder if Thomasin has been to
|
|
Blooms-End lately. I hope so. But probably not, as she is,
|
|
I believe, expecting to be confined in a month or so.
|
|
I wish I had thought of that before. Poor Mother must
|
|
indeed be very lonely."
|
|
|
|
"I don't like you going tonight."
|
|
|
|
"Why not tonight?"
|
|
|
|
"Something may be said which will terribly injure me."
|
|
|
|
"My mother is not vindictive," said Clym, his colour
|
|
faintly rising.
|
|
|
|
"But I wish you would not go," Eustacia repeated in a
|
|
low tone. "If you agree not to go tonight I promise to go
|
|
by myself to her house tomorrow, and make it up with her,
|
|
and wait till you fetch me."
|
|
|
|
"Why do you want to do that at this particular time,
|
|
when at every previous time that I have proposed it you
|
|
have refused?"
|
|
|
|
"I cannot explain further than that I should like to see
|
|
her alone before you go," she answered, with an impatient
|
|
move of her head, and looking at him with an anxiety
|
|
more frequently seen upon those of a sanguine temperament
|
|
than upon such as herself.
|
|
|
|
"Well, it is very odd that just when I had decided to go
|
|
myself you should want to do what I proposed long ago.
|
|
If I wait for you to go tomorrow another day will be lost;
|
|
and I know I shall be unable to rest another night without
|
|
having been. I want to get this settled, and will.
|
|
You must visit her afterwards--it will be all the same."
|
|
|
|
"I could even go with you now?"
|
|
|
|
"You could scarcely walk there and back without a longer
|
|
rest than I shall take. No, not tonight, Eustacia."
|
|
|
|
"Let it be as you say, then," she replied in the quiet way
|
|
of one who, though willing to ward off evil consequences
|
|
by a mild effort, would let events fall out as they
|
|
might sooner than wrestle hard to direct them.
|
|
|
|
Clym then went into the garden; and a thoughtful languor
|
|
stole over Eustacia for the remainder of the afternoon,
|
|
which her husband attributed to the heat of the weather.
|
|
|
|
In the evening he set out on the journey. Although the heat
|
|
of summer was yet intense the days had considerably shortened,
|
|
and before he had advanced a mile on his way all the
|
|
heath purples, browns, and greens had merged in a uniform
|
|
dress without airiness or graduation, and broken only by
|
|
touches of white where the little heaps of clean quartz sand
|
|
showed the entrance to a rabbit burrow, or where the white
|
|
flints of a footpath lay like a thread over the slopes.
|
|
In almost every one of the isolated and stunted thorns
|
|
which grew here and there a nighthawk revealed his presence
|
|
by whirring like the clack of a mill as long as he could
|
|
hold his breath, then stopping, flapping his wings,
|
|
wheeling round the bush, alighting, and after a silent
|
|
interval of listening beginning to whirr again. At each
|
|
brushing of Clym's feet white millermoths flew into the air
|
|
just high enough to catch upon their dusty wings the mellowed
|
|
light from the west, which now shone across the depressions
|
|
and levels of the ground without falling thereon to light them up.
|
|
|
|
Yeobright walked on amid this quiet scene with a hope that
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|
all would soon be well. Three miles on he came to a spot
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where a soft perfume was wafted across his path, and he
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stood still for a moment to inhale the familiar scent.
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It was the place at which, four hours earlier,
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his mother had sat down exhausted on the knoll covered
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with shepherd's-thyme. While he stood a sound between
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a breathing and a moan suddenly reached his ears.
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He looked to where the sound came from; but nothing
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appeared there save the verge of the hillock stretching
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against the sky in an unbroken line. He moved a few
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steps in that direction, and now he perceived a recumbent
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figure almost close to his feet.
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Among the different possibilities as to the person's
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individuality there did not for a moment occur to
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Yeobright that it might be one of his own family.
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Sometimes furze-cutters had been known to sleep
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out of doors at these times, to save a long journey
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homeward and back again; but Clym remembered the moan
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and looked closer, and saw that the form was feminine;
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and a distress came over him like cold air from a cave.
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But he was not absolutely certain that the woman was his mother
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till he stooped and beheld her face, pallid, and with closed eyes.
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His breath went, as it were, out of his body and the cry
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of anguish which would have escaped him died upon his lips.
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During the momentary interval that elapsed before he
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became conscious that something must be done all sense
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of time and place left him, and it seemed as if he and his
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mother were as when he was a child with her many years
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ago on this heath at hours similar to the present.
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Then he awoke to activity; and bending yet lower he found
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that she still breathed, and that her breath though feeble
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was regular, except when disturbed by an occasional gasp.
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"O, what is it! Mother, are you very ill--you are not dying?"
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he cried, pressing his lips to her face. "I am your Clym.
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How did you come here? What does it all mean?"
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At that moment the chasm in their lives which his love
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for Eustacia had caused was not remembered by Yeobright,
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and to him the present joined continuously with that friendly
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past that had been their experience before the division.
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She moved her lips, appeared to know him, but could not speak;
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and then Clym strove to consider how best to move her,
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as it would be necessary to get her away from the spot
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before the dews were intense. He was able-bodied,
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and his mother was thin. He clasped his arms round her,
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lifted her a little, and said, "Does that hurt you?"
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She shook her head, and he lifted her up; then, at a slow pace,
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went onward with his load. The air was now completely cool;
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|
but whenever he passed over a sandy patch of ground
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uncarpeted with vegetation there was reflected from its
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|
surface into his face the heat which it had imbibed
|
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during the day. At the beginning of his undertaking he
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|
had thought but little of the distance which yet would
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have to be traversed before Blooms-End could be reached;
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|
but though he had slept that afternoon he soon began
|
|
to feel the weight of his burden. Thus he proceeded,
|
|
like Aeneas with his father; the bats circling round his head,
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nightjars flapping their wings within a yard of his face,
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and not a human being within call.
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While he was yet nearly a mile from the house his mother
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|
exhibited signs of restlessness under the constraint
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of being borne along, as if his arms were irksome to her.
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|
He lowered her upon his knees and looked around.
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|
The point they had now reached, though far from any road,
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|
was not more than a mile from the Blooms-End cottages
|
|
occupied by Fairway, Sam, Humphrey, and the Cantles.
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|
Moreover, fifty yards off stood a hut, built of clods
|
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and covered with thin turves, but now entirely disused.
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|
The simple outline of the lonely shed was visible,
|
|
and thither he determined to direct his steps. As soon
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as he arrived he laid her down carefully by the entrance,
|
|
and then ran and cut with his pocketknife an armful of the
|
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dryest fern. Spreading this within the shed, which was
|
|
entirely open on one side, he placed his mother thereon;
|
|
then he ran with all his might towards the dwelling
|
|
of Fairway.
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|
|
|
Nearly a quarter of an hour had passed, disturbed only by the
|
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broken breathing of the sufferer, when moving figures began
|
|
to animate the line between heath and sky. In a few moments
|
|
Clym arrived with Fairway, Humphrey, and Susan Nunsuch;
|
|
Olly Dowden, who had chanced to be at Fairway's, Christian
|
|
and Grandfer Cantle following helter-skelter behind.
|
|
They had brought a lantern and matches, water, a pillow,
|
|
and a few other articles which had occurred to their minds
|
|
in the hurry of the moment. Sam had been despatched
|
|
back again for brandy, and a boy brought Fairway's pony,
|
|
upon which he rode off to the nearest medical man,
|
|
with directions to call at Wildeve's on his way, and inform
|
|
Thomasin that her aunt was unwell.
|
|
|
|
Sam and the brandy soon arrived, and it was administered
|
|
by the light of the lantern; after which she became
|
|
sufficiently conscious to signify by signs that something
|
|
was wrong with her foot. Olly Dowden at length
|
|
understood her meaning, and examined the foot indicated.
|
|
It was swollen and red. Even as they watched the red
|
|
began to assume a more livid colour, in the midst
|
|
of which appeared a scarlet speck, smaller than a pea,
|
|
and it was found to consist of a drop of blood, which rose
|
|
above the smooth flesh of her ankle in a hemisphere.
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|
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|
"I know what it is," cried Sam. "She has been stung
|
|
by an adder!"
|
|
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|
"Yes," said Clym instantly. "I remember when I was
|
|
a child seeing just such a bite. O, my poor mother!"
|
|
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|
"It was my father who was bit," said Sam. "And there's
|
|
only one way to cure it. You must rub the place
|
|
with the fat of other adders, and the only way to get
|
|
that is by frying them. That's what they did for him."
|
|
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|
"'Tis an old remedy," said Clym distrustfully, "and I
|
|
have doubts about it. But we can do nothing else till
|
|
the doctor comes."
|
|
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|
"'Tis a sure cure," said Olly Dowden, with emphasis.
|
|
"I've used it when I used to go out nursing."
|
|
|
|
"Then we must pray for daylight, to catch them,"
|
|
said Clym gloomily.
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|
|
|
"I will see what I can do," said Sam.
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|
|
|
He took a green hazel which he had used as a walking stick,
|
|
split it at the end, inserted a small pebble, and with
|
|
the lantern in his hand went out into the heath.
|
|
Clym had by this time lit a small fire, and despatched
|
|
Susan Nunsuch for a frying pan. Before she had returned
|
|
Sam came in with three adders, one briskly coiling
|
|
and uncoiling in the cleft of the stick, and the other
|
|
two hanging dead across it.
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|
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|
"I have only been able to get one alive and fresh as he
|
|
ought to be," said Sam. "These limp ones are two I
|
|
killed today at work; but as they don't die till the sun
|
|
goes down they can't be very stale meat."
|
|
|
|
The live adder regarded the assembled group with a sinister
|
|
look in its small black eye, and the beautiful brown and jet
|
|
pattern on its back seemed to intensify with indignation.
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright saw the creature, and the creature saw
|
|
her--she quivered throughout, and averted her eyes.
|
|
|
|
"Look at that," murmured Christian Cantle. "Neighbours, how
|
|
do we know but that something of the old serpent in
|
|
God's garden, that gied the apple to the young woman
|
|
with no clothes, lives on in adders and snakes still?
|
|
Look at his eye--for all the world like a villainous sort
|
|
of black currant. 'Tis to be hoped he can't ill-wish us!
|
|
There's folks in heath who've been overlooked already.
|
|
I will never kill another adder as long as I live."
|
|
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|
"Well, 'tis right to be afeard of things, if folks can't
|
|
help it," said Grandfer Cantle. "'Twould have saved me
|
|
many a brave danger in my time."
|
|
|
|
"I fancy I heard something outside the shed," said Christian.
|
|
"I wish troubles would come in the daytime, for then
|
|
a man could show his courage, and hardly beg for mercy
|
|
of the most broomstick old woman he should see, if he
|
|
was a brave man, and able to run out of her sight!"
|
|
|
|
"Even such an ignorant fellow as I should know better
|
|
than do that," said Sam.
|
|
|
|
"Well, there's calamities where we least expect it,
|
|
whether or no. Neighbours, if Mrs. Yeobright were to die,
|
|
d'ye think we should be took up and tried for the
|
|
manslaughter of a woman?"
|
|
|
|
"No, they couldn't bring it in as that," said Sam,
|
|
"unless they could prove we had been poachers at some time
|
|
of our lives. But she'll fetch round."
|
|
|
|
"Now, if I had been stung by ten adders I should hardly
|
|
have lost a day's work for't," said Grandfer Cantle.
|
|
"Such is my spirit when I am on my mettle. But perhaps
|
|
'tis natural in a man trained for war. Yes, I've gone
|
|
through a good deal; but nothing ever came amiss to me
|
|
after I joined the Locals in four." He shook his head
|
|
and smiled at a mental picture of himself in uniform.
|
|
"I was always first in the most galliantest scrapes in my
|
|
younger days!"
|
|
|
|
"I suppose that was because they always used to put
|
|
the biggest fool afore," said Fairway from the fire,
|
|
beside which he knelt, blowing it with his breath.
|
|
|
|
"D'ye think so, Timothy?" said Grandfer Cantle, coming forward
|
|
to Fairway's side with sudden depression in his face.
|
|
"Then a man may feel for years that he is good solid company,
|
|
and be wrong about himself after all?"
|
|
|
|
"Never mind that question, Grandfer. Stir your stumps
|
|
and get some more sticks. 'Tis very nonsense of an old
|
|
man to prattle so when life and death's in mangling."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes," said Grandfer Cantle, with melancholy conviction.
|
|
"Well, this is a bad night altogether for them that have
|
|
done well in their time; and if I were ever such a dab
|
|
at the hautboy or tenor viol, I shouldn't have the heart
|
|
to play tunes upon 'em now."
|
|
|
|
Susan now arrived with the frying pan, when the live
|
|
adder was killed and the heads of the three taken off.
|
|
The remainders, being cut into lengths and split open,
|
|
were tossed into the pan, which began hissing and crackling
|
|
over the fire. Soon a rill of clear oil trickled from
|
|
the carcases, whereupon Clym dipped the corner of his
|
|
handkerchief into the liquid and anointed the wound.
|
|
|
|
|
|
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|
8 - Eustacia Hears of Good Fortune, and Beholds Evil
|
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|
|
|
|
In the meantime Eustacia, left alone in her cottage
|
|
at Alderworth, had become considerably depressed by the
|
|
posture of affairs. The consequences which might result
|
|
from Clym's discovery that his mother had been turned
|
|
from his door that day were likely to be disagreeable,
|
|
and this was a quality in events which she hated as much
|
|
as the dreadful.
|
|
|
|
To be left to pass the evening by herself was irksome
|
|
to her at any time, and this evening it was more irksome
|
|
than usual by reason of the excitements of the past hours.
|
|
The two visits had stirred her into restlessness.
|
|
She was not wrought to any great pitch of uneasiness
|
|
by the probability of appearing in an ill light in the
|
|
discussion between Clym and his mother, but she was wrought
|
|
to vexation, and her slumbering activities were quickened
|
|
to the extent of wishing that she had opened the door.
|
|
She had certainly believed that Clym was awake,
|
|
and the excuse would be an honest one as far as it went;
|
|
but nothing could save her from censure in refusing
|
|
to answer at the first knock. Yet, instead of blaming
|
|
herself for the issue she laid the fault upon the shoulders
|
|
of some indistinct, colossal Prince of the World, who had
|
|
framed her situation and ruled her lot.
|
|
|
|
At this time of the year it was pleasanter to walk by
|
|
night than by day, and when Clym had been absent about
|
|
an hour she suddenly resolved to go out in the direction
|
|
of Blooms-End, on the chance of meeting him on his return.
|
|
When she reached the garden gate she heard wheels approaching,
|
|
and looking round beheld her grandfather coming up in his car.
|
|
|
|
"I can't stay a minute, thank ye," he answered
|
|
to her greeting. "I am driving to East Egdon;
|
|
but I came round here just to tell you the news.
|
|
Perhaps you have heard--about Mr. Wildeve's fortune?"
|
|
|
|
"No," said Eustacia blankly.
|
|
|
|
"Well, he has come into a fortune of eleven thousand
|
|
pounds--uncle died in Canada, just after hearing
|
|
that all his family, whom he was sending home,
|
|
had gone to the bottom in the Cassiopeia; so Wildeve
|
|
has come into everything, without in the least expecting it."
|
|
|
|
Eustacia stood motionless awhile. "How long has he known
|
|
of this?" she asked.
|
|
|
|
"Well, it was known to him this morning early, for I knew
|
|
it at ten o'clock, when Charley came back. Now, he is
|
|
what I call a lucky man. What a fool you were, Eustacia!"
|
|
|
|
"In what way?" she said, lifting her eyes in apparent calmness.
|
|
|
|
"Why, in not sticking to him when you had him."
|
|
|
|
"Had him, indeed!"
|
|
|
|
"I did not know there had ever been anything between you
|
|
till lately; and, faith, I should have been hot and strong
|
|
against it if I had known; but since it seems that there
|
|
was some sniffing between ye, why the deuce didn't you
|
|
stick to him?"
|
|
|
|
Eustacia made no reply, but she looked as if she could
|
|
say as much upon that subject as he if she chose.
|
|
|
|
"And how is your poor purblind husband?" continued the
|
|
old man. "Not a bad fellow either, as far as he goes."
|
|
|
|
"He is quite well."
|
|
|
|
"It is a good thing for his cousin what-d'ye-call-her?
|
|
By George, you ought to have been in that galley,
|
|
my girl! Now I must drive on. Do you want any assistance?
|
|
What's mine is yours, you know."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you, Grandfather, we are not in want at present,"
|
|
she said coldly. "Clym cuts furze, but he does it mostly
|
|
as a useful pastime, because he can do nothing else."
|
|
|
|
"He is paid for his pastime, isn't he? Three shillings
|
|
a hundred, I heard."
|
|
|
|
"Clym has money," she said, colouring, "but he likes
|
|
to earn a little."
|
|
|
|
"Very well; good night." And the captain drove on.
|
|
|
|
When her grandfather was gone Eustacia went on her
|
|
way mechanically; but her thoughts were no longer concerning
|
|
her mother-in-law and Clym. Wildeve, notwithstanding his
|
|
complaints against his fate, had been seized upon by destiny
|
|
and placed in the sunshine once more. Eleven thousand
|
|
pounds! From every Egdon point of view he was a rich man.
|
|
In Eustacia's eyes, too, it was an ample sum--one sufficient
|
|
to supply those wants of hers which had been stigmatized
|
|
by Clym in his more austere moods as vain and luxurious.
|
|
Though she was no lover of money she loved what money
|
|
could bring; and the new accessories she imagined around
|
|
him clothed Wildeve with a great deal of interest.
|
|
She recollected now how quietly well-dressed he had been
|
|
that morning--he had probably put on his newest suit,
|
|
regardless of damage by briars and thorns. And then she
|
|
thought of his manner towards herself.
|
|
|
|
"O I see it, I see it," she said. "How much he wishes
|
|
he had me now, that he might give me all I desire!"
|
|
|
|
In recalling the details of his glances and words--at
|
|
the time scarcely regarded--it became plain to her how
|
|
greatly they had been dictated by his knowledge of this
|
|
new event. "Had he been a man to bear a jilt ill-will he
|
|
would have told me of his good fortune in crowing tones;
|
|
instead of doing that he mentioned not a word, in deference
|
|
to my misfortunes, and merely implied that he loved
|
|
me still, as one superior to him."
|
|
|
|
Wildeve's silence that day on what had happened to him was
|
|
just the kind of behaviour calculated to make an impression
|
|
on such a woman. Those delicate touches of good taste were,
|
|
in fact, one of the strong points in his demeanour towards
|
|
the other sex. The peculiarity of Wildeve was that,
|
|
while at one time passionate, upbraiding, and resentful
|
|
towards a woman, at another he would treat her with such
|
|
unparalleled grace as to make previous neglect appear
|
|
as no discourtesy, injury as no insult, interference as a
|
|
delicate attention, and the ruin of her honour as excess
|
|
of chivalry. This man, whose admiration today Eustacia
|
|
had disregarded, whose good wishes she had scarcely
|
|
taken the trouble to accept, whom she had shown out of
|
|
the house by the back door, was the possessor of eleven
|
|
thousand pounds--a man of fair professional education,
|
|
and one who had served his articles with a civil engineer.
|
|
|
|
So intent was Eustacia upon Wildeve's fortunes that she
|
|
forgot how much closer to her own course were those of Clym;
|
|
and instead of walking on to meet him at once she sat
|
|
down upon a stone. She was disturbed in her reverie by a
|
|
voice behind, and turning her head beheld the old lover
|
|
and fortunate inheritor of wealth immediately beside her.
|
|
|
|
She remained sitting, though the fluctuation in her look
|
|
might have told any man who knew her so well as Wildeve
|
|
that she was thinking of him.
|
|
|
|
"How did you come here?" she said in her clear low tone.
|
|
"I thought you were at home."
|
|
|
|
"I went on to the village after leaving your garden;
|
|
and now I have come back again--that's all. Which way
|
|
are you walking, may I ask?"
|
|
|
|
She waved her hand in the direction of Blooms-End. "I
|
|
am going to meet my husband. I think I may possibly
|
|
have got into trouble whilst you were with me today."
|
|
|
|
"How could that be?"
|
|
|
|
"By not letting in Mrs. Yeobright."
|
|
|
|
"I hope that visit of mine did you no harm."
|
|
|
|
"None. It was not your fault," she said quietly.
|
|
|
|
By this time she had risen; and they involuntarily sauntered
|
|
on together, without speaking, for two or three minutes;
|
|
when Eustacia broke silence by saying, "I assume I must
|
|
congratulate you."
|
|
|
|
"On what? O yes; on my eleven thousand pounds,
|
|
you mean. Well, since I didn't get something else,
|
|
I must be content with getting that."
|
|
|
|
"You seem very indifferent about it. Why didn't you
|
|
tell me today when you came?" she said in the tone
|
|
of a neglected person. "I heard of it quite by accident."
|
|
|
|
"I did mean to tell you," said Wildeve. "But I--well,
|
|
I will speak frankly--I did not like to mention it
|
|
when I saw, Eustacia, that your star was not high.
|
|
The sight of a man lying wearied out with hard work,
|
|
as your husband lay, made me feel that to brag of my own
|
|
fortune to you would be greatly out of place. Yet, as you
|
|
stood there beside him, I could not help feeling too
|
|
that in many respects he was a richer man than I."
|
|
|
|
At this Eustacia said, with slumbering mischievousness,
|
|
"What, would you exchange with him--your fortune for me?"
|
|
|
|
"I certainly would," said Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
"As we are imagining what is impossible and absurd,
|
|
suppose we change the subject?"
|
|
|
|
"Very well; and I will tell you of my plans for the future,
|
|
if you care to hear them. I shall permanently invest
|
|
nine thousand pounds, keep one thousand as ready money,
|
|
and with the remaining thousand travel for a year or so."
|
|
|
|
"Travel? What a bright idea! Where will you go to?"
|
|
|
|
"From here to Paris, where I shall pass the winter and spring.
|
|
Then I shall go to Italy, Greece, Egypt, and Palestine,
|
|
before the hot weather comes on. In the summer I shall
|
|
go to America; and then, by a plan not yet settled,
|
|
I shall go to Australia and round to India. By that time
|
|
I shall have begun to have had enough of it. Then I shall
|
|
probably come back to Paris again, and there I shall stay
|
|
as long as I can afford to."
|
|
|
|
"Back to Paris again," she murmured in a voice that was
|
|
nearly a sigh. She had never once told Wildeve of the
|
|
Parisian desires which Clym's description had sown in her;
|
|
yet here was he involuntarily in a position to gratify them.
|
|
"You think a good deal of Paris?" she added.
|
|
|
|
"Yes. In my opinion it is the central beauty-spot
|
|
of the world."
|
|
|
|
"And in mine! And Thomasin will go with you?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, if she cares to. She may prefer to stay at home."
|
|
|
|
"So you will be going about, and I shall be staying here!"
|
|
|
|
"I suppose you will. But we know whose fault that is."
|
|
|
|
"I am not blaming you," she said quickly.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I thought you were. If ever you SHOULD be inclined
|
|
to blame me, think of a certain evening by Rainbarrow,
|
|
when you promised to meet me and did not. You sent me
|
|
a letter; and my heart ached to read that as I hope
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yours never will. That was one point of divergence.
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I then did something in haste....But she is a good woman,
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and I will say no more."
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"I know that the blame was on my side that time,"
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said Eustacia. "But it had not always been so.
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However, it is my misfortune to be too sudden in feeling.
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O, Damon, don't reproach me any more--I can't bear that."
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They went on silently for a distance of two or three miles,
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when Eustacia said suddenly, "Haven't you come out of
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your way, Mr. Wildeve?"
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"My way is anywhere tonight. I will go with you as far
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as the hill on which we can see Blooms-End, as it
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is getting late for you to be alone."
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"Don't trouble. I am not obliged to be out at all.
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I think I would rather you did not accompany me further.
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This sort of thing would have an odd look if known."
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"Very well, I will leave you." He took her hand unexpectedly,
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and kissed it--for the first time since her marriage.
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"What light is that on the hill?" he added, as it were to
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hide the caress.
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She looked, and saw a flickering firelight proceeding
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from the open side of a hovel a little way before them.
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The hovel, which she had hitherto always found empty,
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seemed to be inhabited now.
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"Since you have come so far," said Eustacia, "will you
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see me safely past that hut? I thought I should have met
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Clym somewhere about here, but as he doesn't appear I
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will hasten on and get to Blooms-End before he leaves."
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They advanced to the turf-shed, and when they got near it
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the firelight and the lantern inside showed distinctly enough
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the form of a woman reclining on a bed of fern, a group
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of heath men and women standing around her. Eustacia did
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not recognize Mrs. Yeobright in the reclining figure,
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nor Clym as one of the standers-by till she came close.
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Then she quickly pressed her hand up on Wildeve's arm
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and signified to him to come back from the open side
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of the shed into the shadow.
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"It is my husband and his mother," she whispered in an
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agitated voice. "What can it mean? Will you step forward
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and tell me?"
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Wildeve left her side and went to the back wall of the hut.
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Presently Eustacia perceived that he was beckoning to her,
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and she advanced and joined him.
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"It is a serious case," said Wildeve.
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From their position they could hear what was proceeding inside.
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"I cannot think where she could have been going,"
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said Clym to someone. "She had evidently walked a long way,
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but even when she was able to speak just now she would
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not tell me where. What do you really think of her?"
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"There is a great deal to fear," was gravely answered,
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in a voice which Eustacia recognized as that of the only
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surgeon in the district. "She has suffered somewhat from
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the bite of the adder; but it is exhaustion which has
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overpowered her. My impression is that her walk must
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have been exceptionally long."
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"I used to tell her not to overwalk herself this weather,"
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said Clym, with distress. "Do you think we did well in
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using the adder's fat?"
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"Well, it is a very ancient remedy--the old remedy
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of the viper-catchers, I believe," replied the doctor.
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"It is mentioned as an infallible ointment by Hoffman,
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Mead, and I think the Abbe Fontana. Undoubtedly it
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was as good a thing as you could do; though I question
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if some other oils would not have been equally efficacious."
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"Come here, come here!" was then rapidly said in anxious
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female tones, and Clym and the doctor could be heard
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rushing forward from the back part of the shed to where
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Mrs. Yeobright lay.
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"Oh, what is it?" whispered Eustacia.
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"'Twas Thomasin who spoke," said Wildeve. "Then they
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have fetched her. I wonder if I had better go in--yet
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it might do harm."
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For a long time there was utter silence among the
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group within; and it was broken at last by Clym saying,
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in an agonized voice, "O Doctor, what does it mean?"
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The doctor did not reply at once; ultimately he said,
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"She is sinking fast. Her heart was previously affected,
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and physical exhaustion has dealt the finishing blow."
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Then there was a weeping of women, then waiting,
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then hushed exclamations, then a strange gasping sound,
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then a painful stillness.
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"It is all over," said the doctor.
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Further back in the hut the cotters whispered,
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"Mrs. Yeobright is dead."
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Almost at the same moment the two watchers observed the
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form of a small old-fashioned child entering at the open
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side of the shed. Susan Nunsuch, whose boy it was,
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went forward to the opening and silently beckoned to him
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to go back.
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"I've got something to tell 'ee, Mother," he cried in a
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shrill tone. "That woman asleep there walked along with
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me today; and she said I was to say that I had seed her,
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and she was a broken-hearted woman and cast off by her son,
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and then I came on home."
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A confused sob as from a man was heard within,
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upon which Eustacia gasped faintly, "That's Clym--I
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must go to him--yet dare I do it? No--come away!"
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When they had withdrawn from the neighbourhood of
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the shed she said huskily, "I am to blame for this.
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There is evil in store for me."
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"Was she not admitted to your house after all?"
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Wildeve inquired.
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"No, and that's where it all lies! Oh, what shall I do! I
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shall not intrude upon them--I shall go straight home.
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Damon, good-bye! I cannot speak to you any more now."
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They parted company; and when Eustacia had reached
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the next hill she looked back. A melancholy procession
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was wending its way by the light of the lantern from
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the hut towards Blooms-End. Wildeve was nowhere to be seen.
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book five
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THE DISCOVERY
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1 - "Wherefore Is Light Given to Him That Is in Misery"
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One evening, about three weeks after the funeral of
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Mrs. Yeobright, when the silver face of the moon sent
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a bundle of beams directly upon the floor of Clym's house
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at Alderworth, a woman came forth from within. She reclined
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over the garden gate as if to refresh herself awhile.
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The pale lunar touches which make beauties of hags lent
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divinity to this face, already beautiful.
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She had not long been there when a man came up the road
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and with some hesitation said to her, "How is he tonight,
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ma'am, if you please?"
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"He is better, though still very unwell, Humphrey,"
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replied Eustacia.
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"Is he light-headed, ma'am?"
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"No. He is quite sensible now."
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"Do he rave about his mother just the same, poor fellow?"
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continued Humphrey.
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"Just as much, though not quite so wildly," she said
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in a low voice.
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"It was very unfortunate, ma'am, that the boy Johnny
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should ever ha' told him his mother's dying words,
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about her being broken-hearted and cast off by her son.
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'Twas enough to upset any man alive."
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Eustacia made no reply beyond that of a slight catch in
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her breath, as of one who fain would speak but could not;
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and Humphrey, declining her invitation to come in,
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went away.
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Eustacia turned, entered the house, and ascended to
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the front bedroom, where a shaded light was burning.
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In the bed lay Clym, pale, haggard, wide awake, tossing to
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one side and to the other, his eyes lit by a hot light,
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as if the fire in their pupils were burning up their substance.
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"Is it you, Eustacia?" he said as she sat down.
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"Yes, Clym. I have been down to the gate. The moon
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is shining beautifully, and there is not a leaf stirring."
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"Shining, is it? What's the moon to a man like me? Let
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it shine--let anything be, so that I never see another
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day!...Eustacia, I don't know where to look--my thoughts
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go through me like swords. O, if any man wants to make
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himself immortal by painting a picture of wretchedness,
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let him come here!"
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"Why do you say so?"
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"I cannot help feeling that I did my best to kill her."
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"No, Clym."
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"Yes, it was so; it is useless to excuse me! My conduct
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to her was too hideous--I made no advances; and she
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could not bring herself to forgive me. Now she is dead!
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If I had only shown myself willing to make it up with
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her sooner, and we had been friends, and then she had died,
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it wouldn't be so hard to bear. But I never went near
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her house, so she never came near mine, and didn't know
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how welcome she would have been--that's what troubles me.
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She did not know I was going to her house that very night,
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for she was too insensible to understand me. If she
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had only come to see me! I longed that she would.
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But it was not to be."
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There escaped from Eustacia one of those shivering
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sighs which used to shake her like a pestilent blast.
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She had not yet told.
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But Yeobright was too deeply absorbed in the ramblings
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incidental to his remorseful state to notice her.
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During his illness he had been continually talking thus.
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Despair had been added to his original grief by the
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unfortunate disclosure of the boy who had received the
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last words of Mrs. Yeobright--words too bitterly uttered
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in an hour of misapprehension. Then his distress had
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overwhelmed him, and he longed for death as a field labourer
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longs for the shade. It was the pitiful sight of a man
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standing in the very focus of sorrow. He continually
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bewailed his tardy journey to his mother's house,
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because it was an error which could never be rectified,
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and insisted that he must have been horribly perverted
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by some fiend not to have thought before that it was his
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duty to go to her, since she did not come to him. He would
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ask Eustacia to agree with him in his self-condemnation;
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and when she, seared inwardly by a secret she dared not tell,
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declared that she could not give an opinion, he would say,
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"That's because you didn't know my mother's nature.
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She was always ready to forgive if asked to do so;
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but I seemed to her to be as an obstinate child, and that
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made her unyielding. Yet not unyielding--she was proud
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and reserved, no more....Yes, I can understand why she
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held out against me so long. She was waiting for me.
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I dare say she said a hundred times in her sorrow, 'What a
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return he makes for all the sacrifices I have made for him!'
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I never went to her! When I set out to visit her it was
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too late. To think of that is nearly intolerable!"
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Sometimes his condition had been one of utter remorse,
|
|
unsoftened by a single tear of pure sorrow: and then
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he writhed as he lay, fevered far more by thought than
|
|
by physical ills. "If I could only get one assurance
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that she did not die in a belief that I was resentful,"
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|
he said one day when in this mood, "it would be better to
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think of than a hope of heaven. But that I cannot do."
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"You give yourself up too much to this wearying despair,"
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|
said Eustacia. "Other men's mothers have died."
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"That doesn't make the loss of mine less. Yet it
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is less the loss than the circumstances of the loss.
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I sinned against her, and on that account there is no
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light for me."
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"She sinned against you, I think."
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"No, she did not. I committed the guilt; and may
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the whole burden be upon my head!"
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"I think you might consider twice before you say that,"
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Eustacia replied. "Single men have, no doubt, a right
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to curse themselves as much as they please; but men with
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wives involve two in the doom they pray down."
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"I am in too sorry a state to understand what you are
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refining on," said the wretched man. "Day and night shout
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at me, 'You have helped to kill her.' But in loathing
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myself I may, I own, be unjust to you, my poor wife.
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Forgive me for it, Eustacia, for I scarcely know what I do."
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Eustacia was always anxious to avoid the sight of her
|
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husband in such a state as this, which had become as
|
|
dreadful to her as the trial scene was to Judas Iscariot.
|
|
It brought before her eyes the spectre of a worn-out
|
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woman knocking at a door which she would not open;
|
|
and she shrank from contemplating it. Yet it was better
|
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for Yeobright himself when he spoke openly of his
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sharp regret, for in silence he endured infinitely more,
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|
and would sometimes remain so long in a tense, brooding mood,
|
|
consuming himself by the gnawing of his thought, that it
|
|
was imperatively necessary to make him talk aloud, that his
|
|
grief might in some degree expend itself in the effort.
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Eustacia had not been long indoors after her look at
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the moonlight when a soft footstep came up to the house,
|
|
and Thomasin was announced by the woman downstairs.
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"Ah, Thomasin! Thank you for coming tonight," said Clym
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|
when she entered the room. "Here am I, you see.
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Such a wretched spectacle am I, that I shrink from being
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|
seen by a single friend, and almost from you."
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"You must not shrink from me, dear Clym," said Thomasin
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|
earnestly, in that sweet voice of hers which came
|
|
to a sufferer like fresh air into a Black Hole.
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"Nothing in you can ever shock me or drive me away.
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I have been here before, but you don't remember it."
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"Yes, I do; I am not delirious, Thomasin, nor have I
|
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been so at all. Don't you believe that if they say so.
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I am only in great misery at what I have done, and that,
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with the weakness, makes me seem mad. But it has not upset
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my reason. Do you think I should remember all about my
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mother's death if I were out of my mind? No such good luck.
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Two months and a half, Thomasin, the last of her life, did my
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poor mother live alone, distracted and mourning because of me;
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|
yet she was unvisited by me, though I was living only six
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miles off. Two months and a half--seventy-five days did
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the sun rise and set upon her in that deserted state
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which a dog didn't deserve! Poor people who had nothing
|
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in common with her would have cared for her, and visited
|
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her had they known her sickness and loneliness; but I,
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who should have been all to her, stayed away like a cur.
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If there is any justice in God let Him kill me now.
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He has nearly blinded me, but that is not enough.
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If He would only strike me with more pain I would believe in
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Him forever!"
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"Hush, hush! O, pray, Clym, don't, don't say it!"
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implored Thomasin, affrighted into sobs and tears;
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while Eustacia, at the other side of the room,
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|
though her pale face remained calm, writhed in her chair.
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Clym went on without heeding his cousin.
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"But I am not worth receiving further proof even of
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Heaven's reprobation. Do you think, Thomasin, that she
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knew me--that she did not die in that horrid mistaken
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notion about my not forgiving her, which I can't
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tell you how she acquired? If you could only assure
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me of that! Do you think so, Eustacia? Do speak to me."
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"I think I can assure you that she knew better at last,"
|
|
said Thomasin. The pallid Eustacia said nothing.
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"Why didn't she come to my house? I would have taken
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her in and showed her how I loved her in spite of all.
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But she never came; and I didn't go to her, and she died
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on the heath like an animal kicked out, nobody to help
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her till it was too late. If you could have seen her,
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Thomasin, as I saw her--a poor dying woman, lying in
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the dark upon the bare ground, moaning, nobody near,
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believing she was utterly deserted by all the world,
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it would have moved you to anguish, it would have moved
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a brute. And this poor woman my mother! No wonder she
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said to the child, 'You have seen a broken-hearted woman.'
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What a state she must have been brought to, to say that! and
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who can have done it but I? It is too dreadful to think of,
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and I wish I could be punished more heavily than I am.
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How long was I what they called out of my senses?"
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"A week, I think."
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"And then I became calm."
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"Yes, for four days."
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"And now I have left off being calm."
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"But try to be quiet--please do, and you will soon be strong.
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If you could remove that impression from your mind--"
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"Yes, yes," he said impatiently. "But I don't want
|
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to get strong. What's the use of my getting well? It
|
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would be better for me if I die, and it would certainly
|
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be better for Eustacia. Is Eustacia there?"
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"Yes."
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"It would be better for you, Eustacia, if I were to die?"
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"Don't press such a question, dear Clym."
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"Well, it really is but a shadowy supposition;
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for unfortunately I am going to live. I feel myself
|
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getting better. Thomasin, how long are you going to stay
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|
at the inn, now that all this money has come to your husband?"
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"Another month or two, probably; until my illness is over.
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We cannot get off till then. I think it will be a month
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|
or more."
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"Yes, yes. Of course. Ah, Cousin Tamsie, you will get over
|
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your trouble--one little month will take you through it,
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and bring something to console you; but I shall never get
|
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over mine, and no consolation will come!"
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"Clym, you are unjust to yourself. Depend upon it,
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Aunt thought kindly of you. I know that, if she had lived,
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you would have been reconciled with her."
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"But she didn't come to see me, though I asked her,
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before I married, if she would come. Had she come,
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or had I gone there, she would never have died saying,
|
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'I am a broken-hearted woman, cast off by my son.' My door
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has always been open to her--a welcome here has always
|
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awaited her. But that she never came to see."
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"You had better not talk any more now, Clym," said Eustacia
|
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faintly from the other part of the room, for the scene
|
|
was growing intolerable to her.
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"Let me talk to you instead for the little time I shall
|
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be here," Thomasin said soothingly. "Consider what a
|
|
one-sided way you have of looking at the matter, Clym.
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When she said that to the little boy you had not found her
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and taken her into your arms; and it might have been uttered
|
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in a moment of bitterness. It was rather like Aunt to say
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things in haste. She sometimes used to speak so to me.
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Though she did not come I am convinced that she thought
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of coming to see you. Do you suppose a man's mother could
|
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live two or three months without one forgiving thought?
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She forgave me; and why should she not have forgiven you?"
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"You laboured to win her round; I did nothing. I, who was
|
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going to teach people the higher secrets of happiness,
|
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did not know how to keep out of that gross misery which
|
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the most untaught are wise enough to avoid."
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"How did you get here tonight, Thomasin?" said Eustacia.
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"Damon set me down at the end of the lane. He has driven
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into East Egdon on business, and he will come and pick
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me up by-and-by."
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Accordingly they soon after heard the noise of wheels.
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Wildeve had come, and was waiting outside with his horse
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and gig.
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"Send out and tell him I will be down in two minutes,"
|
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said Thomasin.
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"I will run down myself," said Eustacia.
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She went down. Wildeve had alighted, and was standing
|
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before the horse's head when Eustacia opened the door.
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He did not turn for a moment, thinking the comer Thomasin.
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Then he looked, startled ever so little, and said one word:
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"Well?"
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"I have not yet told him," she replied in a whisper.
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"Then don't do so till he is well--it will be fatal.
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You are ill yourself."
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"I am wretched....O Damon," she said, bursting into tears,
|
|
"I--I can't tell you how unhappy I am! I can hardly
|
|
bear this. I can tell nobody of my trouble--nobody
|
|
knows of it but you."
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"Poor girl!" said Wildeve, visibly affected at her distress,
|
|
and at last led on so far as to take her hand.
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"It is hard, when you have done nothing to deserve it,
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that you should have got involved in such a web as this.
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You were not made for these sad scenes. I am to blame most.
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If I could only have saved you from it all!"
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"But, Damon, please pray tell me what I must do? To
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sit by him hour after hour, and hear him reproach
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himself as being the cause of her death, and to know
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that I am the sinner, if any human being is at all,
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drives me into cold despair. I don't know what to do.
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Should I tell him or should I not tell him? I always am
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asking myself that. O, I want to tell him; and yet I
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am afraid. If he find it out he must surely kill me,
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for nothing else will be in proportion to his feelings now.
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'Beware the fury of a patient man' sounds day by day in my
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ears as I watch him."
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"Well, wait till he is better, and trust to chance.
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And when you tell, you must only tell part--for his
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own sake."
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"Which part should I keep back?"
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Wildeve paused. "That I was in the house at the time,"
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he said in a low tone.
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"Yes; it must be concealed, seeing what has been whispered.
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How much easier are hasty actions than speeches that will
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excuse them!"
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"If he were only to die--" Wildeve murmured.
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"Do not think of it! I would not buy hope of immunity
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by so cowardly a desire even if I hated him. Now I am
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going up to him again. Thomasin bade me tell you she
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would be down in a few minutes. Good-bye."
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She returned, and Thomasin soon appeared. When she was
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seated in the gig with her husband, and the horse was turning
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to go off, Wildeve lifted his eyes to the bedroom windows.
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Looking from one of them he could discern a pale,
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tragic face watching him drive away. It was Eustacia's.
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2 - A Lurid Light Breaks in upon a Darkened Understanding
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Clym's grief became mitigated by wearing itself out.
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His strength returned, and a month after the visit of
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Thomasin he might have been seen walking about the garden.
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Endurance and despair, equanimity and gloom, the tints of
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health and the pallor of death, mingled weirdly in his face.
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He was now unnaturally silent upon all of the past that
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related to his mother; and though Eustacia knew that he
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was thinking of it none the less, she was only too glad
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to escape the topic ever to bring it up anew. When his
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mind had been weaker his heart had led him to speak out;
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but reason having now somewhat recovered itself he sank
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into taciturnity.
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One evening when he was thus standing in the garden,
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abstractedly spudding up a weed with his stick, a bony
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figure turned the corner of the house and came up to him.
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"Christian, isn't it?" said Clym. "I am glad you have
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found me out. I shall soon want you to go to Blooms-
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End and assist me in putting the house in order.
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I suppose it is all locked up as I left it?"
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"Yes, Mister Clym."
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"Have you dug up the potatoes and other roots?"
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"Yes, without a drop o' rain, thank God. But I was
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coming to tell 'ee of something else which is quite
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different from what we have lately had in the family.
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I am sent by the rich gentleman at the Woman, that we
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used to call the landlord, to tell 'ee that Mrs. Wildeve
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is doing well of a girl, which was born punctually
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at one o'clock at noon, or a few minutes more or less;
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and 'tis said that expecting of this increase is what have
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kept 'em there since they came into their money."
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"And she is getting on well, you say?"
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"Yes, sir. Only Mr. Wildeve is twanky because 'tisn't
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a boy--that's what they say in the kitchen, but I was
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not supposed to notice that."
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"Christian, now listen to me."
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"Yes, sure, Mr. Yeobright."
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"Did you see my mother the day before she died?"
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"No, I did not."
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Yeobright's face expressed disappointment.
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"But I zeed her the morning of the same day she died."
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Clym's look lighted up. "That's nearer still to my meaning,"
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he said.
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"Yes, I know 'twas the same day; for she said, 'I be going
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to see him, Christian; so I shall not want any vegetables
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brought in for dinner.'"
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"See whom?"
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"See you. She was going to your house, you understand."
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Yeobright regarded Christian with intense surprise.
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"Why did you never mention this?" he said. "Are you sure
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it was my house she was coming to?"
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"O yes. I didn't mention it because I've never zeed
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you lately. And as she didn't get there it was all nought,
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and nothing to tell."
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"And I have been wondering why she should have walked in
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the heath on that hot day! Well, did she say what she was
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coming for? It is a thing, Christian, I am very anxious to know."
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"Yes, Mister Clym. She didn't say it to me, though I
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think she did to one here and there."
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"Do you know one person to whom she spoke of it?"
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"There is one man, please, sir, but I hope you won't mention
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my name to him, as I have seen him in strange places,
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particular in dreams. One night last summer he glared
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at me like Famine and Sword, and it made me feel so low
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|
that I didn't comb out my few hairs for two days.
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He was standing, as it might be, Mister Yeobright, in the
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middle of the path to Mistover, and your mother came up,
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looking as pale--"
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"Yes, when was that?"
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"Last summer, in my dream."
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"Pooh! Who's the man?"
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"Diggory, the reddleman. He called upon her and sat
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with her the evening before she set out to see you.
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I hadn't gone home from work when he came up to the gate."
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"I must see Venn--I wish I had known it before,"
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said Clym anxiously. "I wonder why he has not come
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to tell me?"
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"He went out of Egdon Heath the next day, so would not
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be likely to know you wanted him."
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"Christian," said Clym, "you must go and find Venn.
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I am otherwise engaged, or I would go myself. Find him
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at once, and tell him I want to speak to him."
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"I am a good hand at hunting up folk by day," said Christian,
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|
looking dubiously round at the declining light;
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|
"but as to night-time, never is such a bad hand as I,
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Mister Yeobright."
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"Search the heath when you will, so that you bring him soon.
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Bring him tomorrow, if you can."
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Christian then departed. The morrow came, but no Venn.
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In the evening Christian arrived, looking very weary.
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He had been searching all day, and had heard nothing of
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the reddleman.
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"Inquire as much as you can tomorrow without neglecting
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your work," said Yeobright. "Don't come again till you
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have found him."
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The next day Yeobright set out for the old house at
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|
Blooms-End, which, with the garden, was now his own.
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|
His severe illness had hindered all preparations for his
|
|
removal thither; but it had become necessary that he
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|
should go and overlook its contents, as administrator
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|
to his mother's little property; for which purpose he
|
|
decided to pass the next night on the premises.
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He journeyed onward, not quickly or decisively, but in the slow
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|
walk of one who has been awakened from a stupefying sleep.
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|
It was early afternoon when he reached the valley.
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The expression of the place, the tone of the hour,
|
|
were precisely those of many such occasions in days gone by;
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|
and these antecedent similarities fostered the illusion that she,
|
|
who was there no longer, would come out to welcome him.
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|
The garden gate was locked and the shutters were closed,
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|
just as he himself had left them on the evening after
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|
the funeral. He unlocked the gate, and found that a spider
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|
had already constructed a large web, tying the door
|
|
to the lintel, on the supposition that it was never to be
|
|
opened again. When he had entered the house and flung
|
|
back the shutters he set about his task of overhauling
|
|
the cupboards and closets, burning papers, and considering
|
|
how best to arrange the place for Eustacia's reception,
|
|
until such time as he might be in a position to carry
|
|
out his long-delayed scheme, should that time ever arrive.
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|
As he surveyed the rooms he felt strongly disinclined
|
|
for the alterations which would have to be made in the
|
|
time-honoured furnishing of his parents and grandparents,
|
|
to suit Eustacia's modern ideas. The gaunt oak-cased clock,
|
|
with the picture of the Ascension on the door panel
|
|
and the Miraculous Draught of Fishes on the base;
|
|
his grandmother's corner cupboard with the glass door,
|
|
through which the spotted china was visible; the dumb-waiter;
|
|
the wooden tea trays; the hanging fountain with the brass
|
|
tap--whither would these venerable articles have to be
|
|
banished?
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|
|
|
He noticed that the flowers in the window had died for
|
|
want of water, and he placed them out upon the ledge,
|
|
that they might be taken away. While thus engaged he
|
|
heard footsteps on the gravel without, and somebody
|
|
knocked at the door.
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|
|
Yeobright opened it, and Venn was standing before him.
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|
|
"Good morning," said the reddleman. "Is Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
at home?"
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|
|
|
Yeobright looked upon the ground. "Then you have not
|
|
seen Christian or any of the Egdon folks?" he said.
|
|
|
|
"No. I have only just returned after a long stay away.
|
|
I called here the day before I left."
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|
|
|
"And you have heard nothing?"
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|
|
"Nothing."
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|
|
"My mother is--dead."
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|
|
"Dead!" said Venn mechanically.
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|
|
"Her home now is where I shouldn't mind having mine."
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|
|
Venn regarded him, and then said, "If I didn't see your
|
|
face I could never believe your words. Have you been ill?"
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|
|
"I had an illness."
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|
|
|
"Well, the change! When I parted from her a month ago
|
|
everything seemed to say that she was going to begin
|
|
a new life."
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|
|
|
"And what seemed came true."
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|
|
|
"You say right, no doubt. Trouble has taught you a deeper
|
|
vein of talk than mine. All I meant was regarding
|
|
her life here. She has died too soon."
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|
|
|
"Perhaps through my living too long. I have had a bitter
|
|
experience on that score this last month, Diggory.
|
|
But come in; I have been wanting to see you."
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|
|
|
He conducted the reddleman into the large room where
|
|
the dancing had taken place the previous Christmas,
|
|
and they sat down in the settle together. "There's the
|
|
cold fireplace, you see," said Clym. "When that half-
|
|
burnt log and those cinders were alight she was alive!
|
|
Little has been changed here yet. I can do nothing.
|
|
My life creeps like a snail."
|
|
|
|
"How came she to die?" said Venn.
|
|
|
|
Yeobright gave him some particulars of her illness
|
|
and death, and continued: "After this no kind of pain
|
|
will ever seem more than an indisposition to me.
|
|
I began saying that I wanted to ask you something, but I
|
|
stray from subjects like a drunken man. I am anxious
|
|
to know what my mother said to you when she last saw you.
|
|
You talked with her a long time, I think?"
|
|
|
|
"I talked with her more than half an hour."
|
|
|
|
"About me?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. And it must have been on account of what we said
|
|
that she was on the heath. Without question she was
|
|
coming to see you."
|
|
|
|
"But why should she come to see me if she felt so bitterly
|
|
against me? There's the mystery."
|
|
|
|
"Yet I know she quite forgave 'ee."
|
|
|
|
"But, Diggory--would a woman, who had quite forgiven her son,
|
|
say, when she felt herself ill on the way to his house,
|
|
that she was broken-hearted because of his ill-usage? Never!"
|
|
|
|
"What I know is that she didn't blame you at all.
|
|
She blamed herself for what had happened, and only herself.
|
|
I had it from her own lips."
|
|
|
|
"You had it from her lips that I had NOT ill-treated her;
|
|
and at the same time another had it from her lips that I
|
|
HAD ill-treated her? My mother was no impulsive woman
|
|
who changed her opinion every hour without reason.
|
|
How can it be, Venn, that she should have told such
|
|
different stories in close succession?"
|
|
|
|
"I cannot say. It is certainly odd, when she had
|
|
forgiven you, and had forgiven your wife, and was going
|
|
to see ye on purpose to make friends."
|
|
|
|
"If there was one thing wanting to bewilder me it was this
|
|
incomprehensible thing!...Diggory, if we, who remain alive,
|
|
were only allowed to hold conversation with the dead--just
|
|
once, a bare minute, even through a screen of iron bars,
|
|
as with persons in prison--what we might learn! How many
|
|
who now ride smiling would hide their heads! And this
|
|
mystery--I should then be at the bottom of it at once.
|
|
But the grave has forever shut her in; and how shall it
|
|
be found out now?"
|
|
|
|
No reply was returned by his companion, since none could
|
|
be given; and when Venn left, a few minutes later,
|
|
Clym had passed from the dullness of sorrow to the
|
|
fluctuation of carking incertitude.
|
|
|
|
He continued in the same state all the afternoon.
|
|
A bed was made up for him in the same house by a neighbour,
|
|
that he might not have to return again the next day;
|
|
and when he retired to rest in the deserted place it
|
|
was only to remain awake hour after hour thinking the
|
|
same thoughts. How to discover a solution to this riddle
|
|
of death seemed a query of more importance than highest
|
|
problems of the living. There was housed in his memory
|
|
a vivid picture of the face of a little boy as he entered
|
|
the hovel where Clym's mother lay. The round eyes,
|
|
eager gaze, the piping voice which enunciated the words,
|
|
had operated like stilettos on his brain.
|
|
|
|
A visit to the boy suggested itself as a means of gleaning
|
|
new particulars; though it might be quite unproductive.
|
|
To probe a child's mind after the lapse of six weeks,
|
|
not for facts which the child had seen and understood,
|
|
but to get at those which were in their nature beyond him,
|
|
did not promise much; yet when every obvious channel
|
|
is blocked we grope towards the small and obscure.
|
|
There was nothing else left to do; after that he would allow
|
|
the enigma to drop into the abyss of undiscoverable things.
|
|
|
|
It was about daybreak when he had reached this decision,
|
|
and he at once arose. He locked up the house and went out
|
|
into the green patch which merged in heather further on.
|
|
In front of the white garden-palings the path branched
|
|
into three like a broad arrow. The road to the right led
|
|
to the Quiet Woman and its neighbourhood; the middle track
|
|
led to Mistover Knap; the left-hand track led over the hill
|
|
to another part of Mistover, where the child lived.
|
|
On inclining into the latter path Yeobright felt
|
|
a creeping chilliness, familiar enough to most people,
|
|
and probably caused by the unsunned morning air. In after
|
|
days he thought of it as a thing of singular significance.
|
|
|
|
When Yeobright reached the cottage of Susan Nunsuch,
|
|
the mother of the boy he sought, he found that the inmates
|
|
were not yet astir. But in upland hamlets the transition
|
|
from a-bed to abroad is surprisingly swift and easy.
|
|
There no dense partition of yawns and toilets divides
|
|
humanity by night from humanity by day. Yeobright tapped
|
|
at the upper windowsill, which he could reach with his
|
|
walking stick; and in three or four minutes the woman
|
|
came down.
|
|
|
|
It was not till this moment that Clym recollected her to be
|
|
the person who had behaved so barbarously to Eustacia.
|
|
It partly explained the insuavity with which the woman
|
|
greeted him. Moreover, the boy had been ailing again;
|
|
and Susan now, as ever since the night when he had
|
|
been pressed into Eustacia's service at the bonfire,
|
|
attributed his indispositions to Eustacia's influence
|
|
as a witch. It was one of those sentiments which lurk
|
|
like moles underneath the visible surface of manners,
|
|
and may have been kept alive by Eustacia's entreaty to
|
|
the captain, at the time that he had intended to prosecute
|
|
Susan for the pricking in church, to let the matter drop;
|
|
which he accordingly had done.
|
|
|
|
Yeobright overcame his repugnance, for Susan had at least
|
|
borne his mother no ill-will. He asked kindly for the boy;
|
|
but her manner did not improve.
|
|
|
|
"I wish to see him," continued Yeobright, with some hesitation,
|
|
"to ask him if he remembers anything more of his walk
|
|
with my mother than what he has previously told."
|
|
|
|
She regarded him in a peculiar and criticizing manner.
|
|
To anybody but a half-blind man it would have said,
|
|
"You want another of the knocks which have already laid you
|
|
so low."
|
|
|
|
She called the boy downstairs, asked Clym to sit down on
|
|
a stool, and continued, "Now, Johnny, tell Mr. Yeobright
|
|
anything you can call to mind."
|
|
|
|
"You have not forgotten how you walked with the poor lady
|
|
on that hot day?" said Clym.
|
|
|
|
"No," said the boy.
|
|
|
|
"And what she said to you?"
|
|
|
|
The boy repeated the exact words he had used on entering the hut.
|
|
Yeobright rested his elbow on the table and shaded his face
|
|
with his hand; and the mother looked as if she wondered
|
|
how a man could want more of what had stung him so deeply.
|
|
|
|
"She was going to Alderworth when you first met her?"
|
|
|
|
"No; she was coming away."
|
|
|
|
"That can't be."
|
|
|
|
"Yes; she walked along with me. I was coming away, too."
|
|
|
|
"Then where did you first see her?"
|
|
|
|
"At your house."
|
|
|
|
"Attend, and speak the truth!" said Clym sternly.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, sir; at your house was where I seed her first."
|
|
|
|
Clym started up, and Susan smiled in an expectant way
|
|
which did not embellish her face; it seemed to mean,
|
|
"Something sinister is coming!"
|
|
|
|
"What did she do at my house?"
|
|
|
|
"She went and sat under the trees at the Devil's Bellows."
|
|
|
|
"Good God! this is all news to me!"
|
|
|
|
"You never told me this before?" said Susan.
|
|
|
|
"No, Mother; because I didn't like to tell 'ee I had been
|
|
so far. I was picking blackhearts, and went further
|
|
than I meant."
|
|
|
|
"What did she do then?" said Yeobright.
|
|
|
|
"Looked at a man who came up and went into your house."
|
|
|
|
"That was myself--a furze-cutter, with brambles in his hand."
|
|
|
|
"No; 'twas not you. 'Twas a gentleman. You had gone
|
|
in afore."
|
|
|
|
"Who was he?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know."
|
|
|
|
"Now tell me what happened next."
|
|
|
|
"The poor lady went and knocked at your door, and the lady
|
|
with black hair looked out of the side window at her."
|
|
|
|
The boy's mother turned to Clym and said, "This is
|
|
something you didn't expect?"
|
|
|
|
Yeobright took no more notice of her than if he had been
|
|
of stone. "Go on, go on," he said hoarsely to the boy.
|
|
|
|
"And when she saw the young lady look out of the window
|
|
the old lady knocked again; and when nobody came she took
|
|
up the furze-hook and looked at it, and put it down again,
|
|
and then she looked at the faggot-bonds; and then she
|
|
went away, and walked across to me, and blowed her breath
|
|
very hard, like this. We walked on together, she and I,
|
|
and I talked to her and she talked to me a bit, but not much,
|
|
because she couldn't blow her breath."
|
|
|
|
"O!" murmured Clym, in a low tone, and bowed his head.
|
|
"Let's have more," he said.
|
|
|
|
"She couldn't talk much, and she couldn't walk; and her
|
|
face was, O so queer!"
|
|
|
|
"How was her face?"
|
|
|
|
"Like yours is now."
|
|
|
|
The woman looked at Yeobright, and beheld him colourless,
|
|
in a cold sweat. "Isn't there meaning in it?"
|
|
she said stealthily. "What do you think of her now?"
|
|
|
|
"Silence!" said Clym fiercely. And, turning to the boy,
|
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"And then you left her to die?"
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"No," said the woman, quickly and angrily. "He did
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not leave her to die! She sent him away. Whoever says
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he forsook her says what's not true."
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"Trouble no more about that," answered Clym, with a
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quivering mouth. "What he did is a trifle in comparison
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with what he saw. Door kept shut, did you say? Kept shut,
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she looking out of window? Good heart of God!--what
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does it mean?"
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The child shrank away from the gaze of his questioner.
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"He said so," answered the mother, "and Johnny's a God-
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fearing boy and tells no lies."
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"'Cast off by my son!' No, by my best life, dear mother,
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it is not so! But by your son's, your son's--May all
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murderesses get the torment they deserve!"
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With these words Yeobright went forth from the little dwelling.
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The pupils of his eyes, fixed steadfastly on blankness,
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were vaguely lit with an icy shine; his mouth had passed
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into the phase more or less imaginatively rendered in studies
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of Oedipus. The strangest deeds were possible to his mood.
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But they were not possible to his situation. Instead of there
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being before him the pale face of Eustacia, and a masculine
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shape unknown, there was only the imperturbable countenance
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of the heath, which, having defied the cataclysmal onsets
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of centuries, reduced to insignificance by its seamed
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and antique features the wildest turmoil of a single man.
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3 - Eustacia Dresses Herself on a Black Morning
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A consciousness of a vast impassivity in all which lay
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around him took possession even of Yeobright in his wild
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walk towards Alderworth. He had once before felt in his own
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person this overpowering of the fervid by the inanimate;
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but then it had tended to enervate a passion far sweeter
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than that which at present pervaded him. It was once
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when he stood parting from Eustacia in the moist still
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levels beyond the hills.
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But dismissing all this he went onward home, and came to
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the front of his house. The blinds of Eustacia's bedroom
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were still closely drawn, for she was no early riser.
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All the life visible was in the shape of a solitary thrush
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cracking a small snail upon the door-stone for his breakfast,
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and his tapping seemed a loud noise in the general
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silence which prevailed; but on going to the door Clym
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found it unfastened, the young girl who attended upon
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Eustacia being astir in the back part of the premises.
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Yeobright entered and went straight to his wife's room.
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The noise of his arrival must have aroused her, for when
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he opened the door she was standing before the looking
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glass in her nightdress, the ends of her hair gathered
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into one hand, with which she was coiling the whole mass
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round her head, previous to beginning toilette operations.
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She was not a woman given to speaking first at a meeting,
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and she allowed Clym to walk across in silence,
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without turning her head. He came behind her, and she saw
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his face in the glass. It was ashy, haggard, and terrible.
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Instead of starting towards him in sorrowful surprise,
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as even Eustacia, undemonstrative wife as she was, would have
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done in days before she burdened herself with a secret,
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she remained motionless, looking at him in the glass.
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And while she looked the carmine flush with which warmth
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and sound sleep had suffused her cheeks and neck dissolved
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from view, and the deathlike pallor in his face flew across
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into hers. He was close enough to see this, and the sight
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instigated his tongue.
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"You know what is the matter," he said huskily.
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"I see it in your face."
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Her hand relinquished the rope of hair and dropped to
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her side, and the pile of tresses, no longer supported,
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fell from the crown of her head about her shoulders
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and over the white nightgown. She made no reply.
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"Speak to me," said Yeobright peremptorily.
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The blanching process did not cease in her, and her lips
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now became as white as her face. She turned to him
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and said, "Yes, Clym, I'll speak to you. Why do you
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return so early? Can I do anything for you?"
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"Yes, you can listen to me. It seems that my wife
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is not very well?"
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"Why?"
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"Your face, my dear; your face. Or perhaps it is
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the pale morning light which takes your colour away?
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Now I am going to reveal a secret to you. Ha-ha!"
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"O, that is ghastly!"
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"What?"
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"Your laugh."
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"There's reason for ghastliness. Eustacia, you have held
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my happiness in the hollow of your hand, and like a devil
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you have dashed it down!"
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She started back from the dressing-table, retreated a few
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steps from him, and looked him in the face. "Ah! you
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think to frighten me," she said, with a slight laugh.
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"Is it worth while? I am undefended, and alone."
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"How extraordinary!"
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"What do you mean?"
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"As there is ample time I will tell you, though you know
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well enough. I mean that it is extraordinary that you
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should be alone in my absence. Tell me, now, where is
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he who was with you on the afternoon of the thirty-
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first of August? Under the bed? Up the chimney?"
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A shudder overcame her and shook the light fabric of her
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nightdress throughout. "I do not remember dates so exactly,"
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she said. "I cannot recollect that anybody was with me
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besides yourself."
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"The day I mean," said Yeobright, his voice growing louder
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and harsher, "was the day you shut the door against my
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mother and killed her. O, it is too much--too bad!"
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He leant over the footpiece of the bedstead for a few moments,
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with his back towards her; then rising again--"Tell me,
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tell me! tell me--do you hear?" he cried, rushing up to
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her and seizing her by the loose folds of her sleeve.
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The superstratum of timidity which often overlies those who
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are daring and defiant at heart had been passed through,
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and the mettlesome substance of the woman was reached.
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The red blood inundated her face, previously so pale.
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"What are you going to do?" she said in a low voice,
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regarding him with a proud smile. "You will not alarm
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me by holding on so; but it would be a pity to tear
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my sleeve."
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Instead of letting go he drew her closer to him. "Tell me
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the particulars of--my mother's death," he said in a hard,
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panting whisper; "or--I'll--I'll--"
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"Clym," she answered slowly, "do you think you dare
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do anything to me that I dare not bear? But before you
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strike me listen. You will get nothing from me by a blow,
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even though it should kill me, as it probably will.
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But perhaps you do not wish me to speak--killing may be all
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you mean?"
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"Kill you! Do you expect it?"
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"I do."
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"Why?"
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"No less degree of rage against me will match your previous
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grief for her."
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"Phew--I shall not kill you," he said contemptuously,
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as if under a sudden change of purpose. "I did think of it;
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but--I shall not. That would be making a martyr of you,
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and sending you to where she is; and I would keep
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you away from her till the universe come to an end,
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if I could."
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"I almost wish you would kill me," said she with gloomy
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bitterness. "It is with no strong desire, I assure you,
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that I play the part I have lately played on earth.
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You are no blessing, my husband."
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"You shut the door--you looked out of the window upon
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her--you had a man in the house with you--you sent her
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away to die. The inhumanity--the treachery--I will not
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touch you--stand away from me--and confess every word!"
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"Never! I'll hold my tongue like the very death that I
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don't mind meeting, even though I can clear myself
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of half you believe by speaking. Yes. I will! Who
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of any dignity would take the trouble to clear cobwebs
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from a wild man's mind after such language as this? No;
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let him go on, and think his narrow thoughts, and run
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his head into the mire. I have other cares."
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"'Tis too much--but I must spare you."
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"Poor charity."
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"By my wretched soul you sting me, Eustacia! I can keep
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it up, and hotly too. Now, then, madam, tell me his name!"
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"Never, I am resolved."
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"How often does he write to you? Where does he put his
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|
letters--when does he meet you? Ah, his letters! Do you
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tell me his name?"
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"I do not."
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"Then I'll find it myself." His eyes had fallen upon
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a small desk that stood near, on which she was accustomed
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|
to write her letters. He went to it. It was locked.
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"Unlock this!"
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"You have no right to say it. That's mine."
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Without another word he seized the desk and dashed
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it to the floor. The hinge burst open, and a number
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of letters tumbled out.
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"Stay!" said Eustacia, stepping before him with more
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excitement than she had hitherto shown.
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"Come, come! stand away! I must see them."
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She looked at the letters as they lay, checked her feeling
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and moved indifferently aside; when he gathered them up,
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and examined them.
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By no stretch of meaning could any but a harmless construction
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|
be placed upon a single one of the letters themselves.
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The solitary exception was an empty envelope directed to her,
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and the handwriting was Wildeve's. Yeobright held it up.
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Eustacia was doggedly silent.
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"Can you read, madam? Look at this envelope. Doubtless we
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|
shall find more soon, and what was inside them.
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I shall no doubt be gratified by learning in good time
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what a well-finished and full-blown adept in a certain
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trade my lady is."
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"Do you say it to me--do you?" she gasped.
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He searched further, but found nothing more. "What was
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|
in this letter?" he said.
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"Ask the writer. Am I your hound that you should talk
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|
to me in this way?"
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"Do you brave me? do you stand me out, mistress? Answer.
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Don't look at me with those eyes if you would bewitch me
|
|
again! Sooner than that I die. You refuse to answer?"
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"I wouldn't tell you after this, if I were as innocent
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|
as the sweetest babe in heaven!"
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"Which you are not."
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"Certainly I am not absolutely," she replied. "I have not
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|
done what you suppose; but if to have done no harm at all
|
|
is the only innocence recognized, I am beyond forgiveness.
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|
But I require no help from your conscience."
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"You can resist, and resist again! Instead of hating
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you I could, I think, mourn for and pity you, if you
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were contrite, and would confess all. Forgive you I
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|
never can. I don't speak of your lover--I will give you
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|
the benefit of the doubt in that matter, for it only affects
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|
me personally. But the other--had you half-killed me,
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had it been that you wilfully took the sight away from
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these feeble eyes of mine, I could have forgiven you.
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But THAT'S too much for nature!"
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"Say no more. I will do without your pity. But I would
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have saved you from uttering what you will regret."
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"I am going away now. I shall leave you."
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"You need not go, as I am going myself. You will keep
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|
just as far away from me by staying here."
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"Call her to mind--think of her--what goodness there was
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|
in her--it showed in every line of her face! Most women,
|
|
even when but slightly annoyed, show a flicker of evil
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|
in some curl of the mouth or some corner of the cheek;
|
|
but as for her, never in her angriest moments was there
|
|
anything malicious in her look. She was angered quickly,
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|
but she forgave just as readily, and underneath her pride there
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|
was the meekness of a child. What came of it.?--what cared
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|
you? You hated her just as she was learning to love you.
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O! couldn't you see what was best for you, but must
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|
bring a curse upon me, and agony and death upon her,
|
|
by doing that cruel deed! What was the fellow's name
|
|
who was keeping you company and causing you to add cruelty
|
|
to her to your wrong to me? Was it Wildeve? Was it poor
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Thomasin's husband? Heaven, what wickedness! Lost your voice,
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|
have you? It is natural after detection of that most noble
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|
trick....Eustacia, didn't any tender thought of your own
|
|
mother lead you to think of being gentle to mine at such
|
|
a time of weariness? Did not one grain of pity enter your
|
|
heart as she turned away? Think what a vast opportunity
|
|
was then lost of beginning a forgiving and honest course.
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|
Why did not you kick him out, and let her in, and say I'll
|
|
be an honest wife and a noble woman from this hour? Had I
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told you to go and quench eternally our last flickering
|
|
chance of happiness here you could have done no worse.
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|
Well, she's asleep now; and have you a hundred gallants,
|
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neither they nor you can insult her any more."
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"You exaggerate fearfully," she said in a faint,
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weary voice; "but I cannot enter into my defence--it
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|
is not worth doing. You are nothing to me in future,
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|
and the past side of the story may as well remain untold.
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I have lost all through you, but I have not complained.
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Your blunders and misfortunes may have been a sorrow to you,
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but they have been a wrong to me. All persons of refinement
|
|
have been scared away from me since I sank into the mire
|
|
of marriage. Is this your cherishing--to put me into a hut
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like this, and keep me like the wife of a hind? You deceived
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me--not by words, but by appearances, which are less seen
|
|
through than words. But the place will serve as well
|
|
as any other--as somewhere to pass from--into my grave."
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Her words were smothered in her throat, and her head
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drooped down.
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"I don't know what you mean by that. Am I the cause of
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your sin?" (Eustacia made a trembling motion towards him.)
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"What, you can begin to shed tears and offer me your
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hand? Good God! can you? No, not I. I'll not commit
|
|
the fault of taking that." (The hand she had offered
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|
dropped nervelessly, but the tears continued flowing.)
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|
"Well, yes, I'll take it, if only for the sake of my own
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foolish kisses that were wasted there before I knew
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what I cherished. How bewitched I was! How could there
|
|
be any good in a woman that everybody spoke ill of?"
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"O, O, O!" she cried, breaking down at last; and, shaking
|
|
with sobs which choked her, she sank upon her knees.
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|
"O, will you have done! O, you are too relentless--there's
|
|
a limit to the cruelty of savages! I have held out long--but
|
|
you crush me down. I beg for mercy--I cannot bear this
|
|
any longer--it is inhuman to go further with this! If I
|
|
had--killed your--mother with my own hand--I should not
|
|
deserve such a scourging to the bone as this. O, O! God
|
|
have mercy upon a miserable woman!...You have beaten me in
|
|
this game--I beg you to stay your hand in pity!...I confess
|
|
that I--wilfully did not undo the door the first time she
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knocked--but--I should have unfastened it the second--
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if I had not thought you had gone to do it yourself.
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When I found you had not I opened it, but she was gone.
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That's the extent of my crime--towards HER. Best natures
|
|
commit bad faults sometimes, don't they?--I think they do.
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Now I will leave you--for ever and ever!"
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"Tell all, and I WILL pity you. Was the man
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in the house with you Wildeve?"
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"I cannot tell," she said desperately through her sobbing.
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"Don't insist further--I cannot tell. I am going from
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this house. We cannot both stay here."
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"You need not go--I will go. You can stay here."
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"No, I will dress, and then I will go."
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"Where?"
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"Where I came from, or ELSEWHERE."
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She hastily dressed herself, Yeobright moodily
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walking up and down the room the whole of the time.
|
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At last all her things were on. Her little hands
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|
quivered so violently as she held them to her chin
|
|
to fasten her bonnet that she could not tie the strings,
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|
and after a few moments she relinquished the attempt.
|
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Seeing this he moved forward and said, "Let me tie them."
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She assented in silence, and lifted her chin. For once
|
|
at least in her life she was totally oblivious of the
|
|
charm of her attitude. But he was not, and he turned
|
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his eyes aside, that he might not be tempted to softness.
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|
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The strings were tied; she turned from him. "Do you
|
|
still prefer going away yourself to my leaving you?"
|
|
he inquired again.
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"I do."
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|
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"Very well--let it be. And when you will confess
|
|
to the man I may pity you."
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She flung her shawl about her and went downstairs,
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|
leaving him standing in the room.
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Eustacia had not long been gone when there came a knock
|
|
at the door of the bedroom; and Yeobright said, "Well?"
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|
|
It was the servant; and she replied, "Somebody from
|
|
Mrs. Wildeve's have called to tell 'ee that the mis'ess
|
|
and the baby are getting on wonderful well, and the baby's
|
|
name is to be Eustacia Clementine." And the girl retired.
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|
"What a mockery!" said Clym. "This unhappy marriage
|
|
of mine to be perpetuated in that child's name!"
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|
4 - The Ministrations of a Half-forgotten One
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|
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|
|
Eustacia's journey was at first as vague in direction as that
|
|
of thistledown on the wind. She did not know what to do.
|
|
She wished it had been night instead of morning, that she
|
|
might at least have borne her misery without the possibility
|
|
of being seen. Tracing mile after mile along between
|
|
the dying ferns and the wet white spiders' webs, she at
|
|
length turned her steps towards her grandfather's house.
|
|
She found the front door closed and locked. Mechanically she
|
|
went round to the end where the stable was, and on looking
|
|
in at the stable door she saw Charley standing within.
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|
|
|
"Captain Vye is not at home?" she said.
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|
|
|
"No, ma'am," said the lad in a flutter of feeling;
|
|
"he's gone to Weatherbury, and won't be home till night.
|
|
And the servant is gone home for a holiday. So the house
|
|
is locked up."
|
|
|
|
Eustacia's face was not visible to Charley as she stood
|
|
at the doorway, her back being to the sky, and the stable
|
|
but indifferently lighted; but the wildness of her manner
|
|
arrested his attention. She turned and walked away across
|
|
the enclosure to the gate, and was hidden by the bank.
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|
|
|
When she had disappeared Charley, with misgiving
|
|
in his eyes, slowly came from the stable door,
|
|
and going to another point in the bank he looked over.
|
|
Eustacia was leaning against it on the outside,
|
|
her face covered with her hands, and her head pressing
|
|
the dewy heather which bearded the bank's outer side.
|
|
She appeared to be utterly indifferent to the circumstance
|
|
that her bonnet, hair, and garments were becoming wet
|
|
and disarranged by the moisture of her cold, harsh pillow.
|
|
Clearly something was wrong.
|
|
|
|
Charley had always regarded Eustacia as Eustacia had
|
|
regarded Clym when she first beheld him--as a romantic
|
|
and sweet vision, scarcely incarnate. He had been
|
|
so shut off from her by the dignity of her look and
|
|
the pride of her speech, except at that one blissful
|
|
interval when he was allowed to hold her hand, that he
|
|
had hardly deemed her a woman, wingless and earthly,
|
|
subject to household conditions and domestic jars.
|
|
The inner details of her life he had only conjectured.
|
|
She had been a lovely wonder, predestined to an orbit
|
|
in which the whole of his own was but a point; and this
|
|
sight of her leaning like a helpless, despairing creature
|
|
against a wild wet bank filled him with an amazed horror.
|
|
He could no longer remain where he was. Leaping over,
|
|
he came up, touched her with his finger, and said tenderly,
|
|
"You are poorly, ma'am. What can I do?"
|
|
|
|
Eustacia started up, and said, "Ah, Charley--you
|
|
have followed me. You did not think when I left
|
|
home in the summer that I should come back like this!"
|
|
|
|
"I did not, dear ma'am. Can I help you now?"
|
|
|
|
"I am afraid not. I wish I could get into the house.
|
|
I feel giddy--that's all."
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"Lean on my arm, ma'am, till we get to the porch, and I
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will try to open the door."
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He supported her to the porch, and there depositing her on
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a seat hastened to the back, climbed to a window by the
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help of a ladder, and descending inside opened the door.
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Next he assisted her into the room, where there was an
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old-fashioned horsehair settee as large as a donkey wagon.
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She lay down here, and Charley covered her with a cloak he
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found in the hall.
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"Shall I get you something to eat and drink?" he said.
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"If you please, Charley. But I suppose there is no fire?"
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"I can light it, ma'am."
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He vanished, and she heard a splitting of wood and a blowing
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of bellows; and presently he returned, saying, "I have
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lighted a fire in the kitchen, and now I'll light one here."
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He lit the fire, Eustacia dreamily observing him from
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her couch. When it was blazing up he said, "Shall I wheel
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you round in front of it, ma'am, as the morning is chilly?"
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"Yes, if you like."
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"Shall I go and bring the victuals now?"
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"Yes, do," she murmured languidly.
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When he had gone, and the dull sounds occasionally
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reached her ears of his movements in the kitchen,
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she forgot where she was, and had for a moment to consider
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by an effort what the sounds meant. After an interval
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which seemed short to her whose thoughts were elsewhere,
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he came in with a tray on which steamed tea and toast,
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though it was nearly lunch-time.
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"Place it on the table," she said. "I shall be ready soon."
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He did so, and retired to the door; when, however,
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he perceived that she did not move he came back a few steps.
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"Let me hold it to you, if you don't wish to get up,"
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said Charley. He brought the tray to the front of the couch,
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where he knelt down, adding, "I will hold it for you."
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Eustacia sat up and poured out a cup of tea. "You are
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very kind to me, Charley," she murmured as she sipped.
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"Well, I ought to be," said he diffidently, taking great
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trouble not to rest his eyes upon her, though this was
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their only natural position, Eustacia being immediately
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before him. "You have been kind to me."
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"How have I?" said Eustacia.
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"You let me hold your hand when you were a maiden at home."
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"Ah, so I did. Why did I do that? My mind is lost--it
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had to do with the mumming, had it not?"
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"Yes, you wanted to go in my place."
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"I remember. I do indeed remember--too well!"
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She again became utterly downcast; and Charley,
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seeing that she was not going to eat or drink any more,
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took away the tray.
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Afterwards he occasionally came in to see if the fire
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was burning, to ask her if she wanted anything, to tell
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her that the wind had shifted from south to west, to ask
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her if she would like him to gather her some blackberries;
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to all which inquiries she replied in the negative or
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with indifference.
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She remained on the settee some time longer, when she
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aroused herself and went upstairs. The room in which she
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had formerly slept still remained much as she had left it,
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and the recollection that this forced upon her of her
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own greatly changed and infinitely worsened situation
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again set on her face the undetermined and formless
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misery which it had worn on her first arrival.
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She peeped into her grandfather's room, through which
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the fresh autumn air was blowing from the open window.
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Her eye was arrested by what was a familiar sight enough,
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though it broke upon her now with a new significance.
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It was a brace of pistols, hanging near the head of her
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grandfather's bed, which he always kept there loaded,
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as a precaution against possible burglars, the house being
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very lonely. Eustacia regarded them long, as if they
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were the page of a book in which she read a new and a
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strange matter. Quickly, like one afraid of herself,
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she returned downstairs and stood in deep thought.
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"If I could only do it!" she said. "It would be doing
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much good to myself and all connected with me, and no
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harm to a single one."
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The idea seemed to gather force within her, and she
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remained in a fixed attitude nearly ten minutes,
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when a certain finality was expressed in her gaze,
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and no longer the blankness of indecision.
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She turned and went up the second time--softly and
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stealthily now--and entered her grandfather's room, her eyes
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at once seeking the head of the bed. The pistols were gone.
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The instant quashing of her purpose by their absence
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affected her brain as a sudden vacuum affects the
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body--she nearly fainted. Who had done this? There
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was only one person on the premises besides herself.
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Eustacia involuntarily turned to the open window
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which overlooked the garden as far as the bank that
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bounded it. On the summit of the latter stood Charley,
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sufficiently elevated by its height to see into the room.
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His gaze was directed eagerly and solicitously upon her.
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She went downstairs to the door and beckoned to him.
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"You have taken them away?"
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"Yes, ma'am."
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"Why did you do it?"
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"I saw you looking at them too long."
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"What has that to do with it?"
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"You have been heart-broken all the morning, as if you
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did not want to live."
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"Well?"
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"And I could not bear to leave them in your way.
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There was meaning in your look at them."
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"Where are they now?"
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"Locked up."
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"Where?"
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"In the stable."
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"Give them to me."
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"No, ma'am."
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"You refuse?"
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"I do. I care too much for you to give 'em up."
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She turned aside, her face for the first time softening
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|
from the stony immobility of the earlier day, and the
|
|
corners of her mouth resuming something of that delicacy
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|
of cut which was always lost in her moments of despair.
|
|
At last she confronted him again.
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|
"Why should I not die if I wish?" she said tremulously.
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|
"I have made a bad bargain with life, and I am weary
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|
of it--weary. And now you have hindered my escape.
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|
O, why did you, Charley! What makes death painful except
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|
the thought of others' grief?--and that is absent in my case,
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|
for not a sigh would follow me!"
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|
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|
"Ah, it is trouble that has done this! I wish in my very
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|
soul that he who brought it about might die and rot,
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|
even if 'tis transportation to say it!"
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|
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"Charley, no more of that. What do you mean to do about
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|
this you have seen?"
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|
"Keep it close as night, if you promise not to think
|
|
of it again."
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"You need not fear. The moment has passed. I promise."
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|
She then went away, entered the house, and lay down.
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|
Later in the afternoon her grandfather returned.
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|
He was about to question her categorically, but on looking
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|
at her he withheld his words.
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|
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|
"Yes, it is too bad to talk of," she slowly returned
|
|
in answer to his glance. "Can my old room be got ready
|
|
for me tonight, Grandfather? I shall want to occupy
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|
it again."
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|
He did not ask what it all meant, or why she had left
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|
her husband, but ordered the room to be prepared.
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5 - An Old Move Inadvertently Repeated
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Charley's attentions to his former mistress were unbounded.
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|
The only solace to his own trouble lay in his attempts
|
|
to relieve hers. Hour after hour he considered her wants;
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|
he thought of her presence there with a sort of gratitude,
|
|
and, while uttering imprecations on the cause of
|
|
her unhappiness, in some measure blessed the result.
|
|
Perhaps she would always remain there, he thought, and then
|
|
he would be as happy as he had been before. His dread
|
|
was lest she should think fit to return to Alderworth,
|
|
and in that dread his eyes, with all the inquisitiveness
|
|
of affection, frequently sought her face when she was
|
|
not observing him, as he would have watched the head
|
|
of a stockdove to learn if it contemplated flight.
|
|
Having once really succoured her, and possibly preserved
|
|
her from the rashest of acts, he mentally assumed
|
|
in addition a guardian's responsibility for her welfare.
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|
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|
For this reason he busily endeavoured to provide her with
|
|
pleasant distractions, bringing home curious objects which he
|
|
found in the heath, such as white trumpet-shaped mosses,
|
|
redheaded lichens, stone arrowheads used by the old tribes
|
|
on Egdon, and faceted crystals from the hollows of flints.
|
|
These he deposited on the premises in such positions
|
|
that she should see them as if by accident.
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|
|
|
A week passed, Eustacia never going out of the house.
|
|
Then she walked into the enclosed plot and looked
|
|
through her grandfather's spyglass, as she had been in
|
|
the habit of doing before her marriage. One day she saw,
|
|
at a place where the highroad crossed the distant valley,
|
|
a heavily laden wagon passing along. It was piled
|
|
with household furniture. She looked again and again,
|
|
and recognized it to be her own. In the evening her
|
|
grandfather came indoors with a rumour that Yeobright
|
|
had removed that day from Alderworth to the old house at
|
|
Blooms-End.
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|
|
|
On another occasion when reconnoitring thus she beheld
|
|
two female figures walking in the vale. The day was fine
|
|
and clear; and the persons not being more than half a mile
|
|
off she could see their every detail with the telescope.
|
|
The woman walking in front carried a white bundle in her arms,
|
|
from one end of which hung a long appendage of drapery;
|
|
and when the walkers turned, so that the sun fell more directly
|
|
upon them, Eustacia could see that the object was a baby.
|
|
She called Charley, and asked him if he knew who they were,
|
|
though she well guessed.
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Wildeve and the nurse-girl," said Charley.
|
|
|
|
"The nurse is carrying the baby?" said Eustacia.
|
|
|
|
"No, 'tis Mrs. Wildeve carrying that," he answered,
|
|
"and the nurse walks behind carrying nothing."
|
|
|
|
The lad was in good spirits that day, for the Fifth
|
|
of November had again come round, and he was planning yet
|
|
another scheme to divert her from her too absorbing thoughts.
|
|
For two successive years his mistress had seemed
|
|
to take pleasure in lighting a bonfire on the bank
|
|
overlooking the valley; but this year she had apparently
|
|
quite forgotten the day and the customary deed.
|
|
He was careful not to remind her, and went on with his
|
|
secret preparations for a cheerful surprise, the more
|
|
zealously that he had been absent last time and unable
|
|
to assist. At every vacant minute he hastened to gather
|
|
furze-stumps, thorn-tree roots, and other solid materials
|
|
from the adjacent slopes, hiding them from cursory view.
|
|
|
|
The evening came, and Eustacia was still seemingly
|
|
unconscious of the anniversary. She had gone indoors
|
|
after her survey through the glass, and had not been
|
|
visible since. As soon as it was quite dark Charley
|
|
began to build the bonfire, choosing precisely that spot
|
|
on the bank which Eustacia had chosen at previous times.
|
|
|
|
When all the surrounding bonfires had burst into
|
|
existence Charley kindled his, and arranged its fuel
|
|
so that it should not require tending for some time.
|
|
He then went back to the house, and lingered round the
|
|
door and windows till she should by some means or other
|
|
learn of his achievement and come out to witness it.
|
|
But the shutters were closed, the door remained shut,
|
|
and no heed whatever seemed to be taken of his performance.
|
|
Not liking to call her he went back and replenished the fire,
|
|
continuing to do this for more than half an hour.
|
|
It was not till his stock of fuel had greatly diminished
|
|
that he went to the back door and sent in to beg that
|
|
Mrs. Yeobright would open the window-shutters and see
|
|
the sight outside.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia, who had been sitting listlessly in the parlour,
|
|
started up at the intelligence and flung open the shutters.
|
|
Facing her on the bank blazed the fire, which at once sent
|
|
a ruddy glare into the room where she was, and overpowered
|
|
the candles.
|
|
|
|
"Well done, Charley!" said Captain Vye from the chimney-corner.
|
|
"But I hope it is not my wood that he's burning....Ah, it
|
|
was this time last year that I met with that man Venn,
|
|
bringing home Thomasin Yeobright--to be sure it was! Well,
|
|
who would have thought that girl's troubles would have
|
|
ended so well? What a snipe you were in that matter,
|
|
Eustacia! Has your husband written to you yet?"
|
|
|
|
"No," said Eustacia, looking vaguely through the window
|
|
at the fire, which just then so much engaged her mind
|
|
that she did not resent her grandfather's blunt opinion.
|
|
She could see Charley's form on the bank, shovelling and
|
|
stirring the fire; and there flashed upon her imagination
|
|
some other form which that fire might call up.
|
|
|
|
She left the room, put on her garden bonnet and cloak,
|
|
and went out. Reaching the bank, she looked over
|
|
with a wild curiosity and misgiving, when Charley said
|
|
to her, with a pleased sense of himself, "I made it o'
|
|
purpose for you, ma'am."
|
|
|
|
"Thank you," she said hastily. "But I wish you to put
|
|
it out now."
|
|
|
|
"It will soon burn down," said Charley, rather disappointed.
|
|
"Is it not a pity to knock it out?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know," she musingly answered.
|
|
|
|
They stood in silence, broken only by the crackling
|
|
of the flames, till Charley, perceiving that she did
|
|
not want to talk to him, moved reluctantly away.
|
|
|
|
Eustacia remained within the bank looking at the fire,
|
|
intending to go indoors, yet lingering still. Had she
|
|
not by her situation been inclined to hold in indifference
|
|
all things honoured of the gods and of men she would
|
|
probably have come away. But her state was so hopeless
|
|
that she could play with it. To have lost is less
|
|
disturbing than to wonder if we may possibly have won;
|
|
and Eustacia could now, like other people at such a stage,
|
|
take a standing-point outside herself, observe herself
|
|
as a disinterested spectator, and think what a sport for
|
|
Heaven this woman Eustacia was.
|
|
|
|
While she stood she heard a sound. It was the splash
|
|
of a stone in the pond.
|
|
|
|
Had Eustacia received the stone full in the bosom
|
|
her heart could not have given a more decided thump.
|
|
She had thought of the possibility of such a signal in
|
|
answer to that which had been unwittingly given by Charley;
|
|
but she had not expected it yet. How prompt Wildeve
|
|
was! Yet how could he think her capable of deliberately
|
|
wishing to renew their assignations now? An impulse to
|
|
leave the spot, a desire to stay, struggled within her;
|
|
and the desire held its own. More than that it did
|
|
not do, for she refrained even from ascending the bank
|
|
and looking over. She remained motionless, not disturbing
|
|
a muscle of her face or raising her eyes; for were she to
|
|
turn up her face the fire on the bank would shine upon it,
|
|
and Wildeve might be looking down.
|
|
|
|
There was a second splash into the pond.
|
|
|
|
Why did he stay so long without advancing and looking
|
|
over? Curiosity had its way--she ascended one or two
|
|
of the earth-steps in the bank and glanced out.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve was before her. He had come forward after throwing
|
|
the last pebble, and the fire now shone into each of their
|
|
faces from the bank stretching breast-high between them.
|
|
|
|
"I did not light it!" cried Eustacia quickly. "It was
|
|
lit without my knowledge. Don't, don't come over to me!"
|
|
|
|
"Why have you been living here all these days without
|
|
telling me? You have left your home. I fear I am something
|
|
to blame in this?"
|
|
|
|
"I did not let in his mother; that's how it is!"
|
|
|
|
"You do not deserve what you have got, Eustacia; you are
|
|
in great misery; I see it in your eyes, your mouth, and all
|
|
over you. My poor, poor girl!" He stepped over the bank.
|
|
"You are beyond everything unhappy!"
|
|
|
|
"No, no; not exactly--"
|
|
|
|
"It has been pushed too far--it is killing you--I do think it!"
|
|
|
|
Her usually quiet breathing had grown quicker with his words.
|
|
"I--I--" she began, and then burst into quivering sobs,
|
|
shaken to the very heart by the unexpected voice of pity--a
|
|
sentiment whose existence in relation to herself she had
|
|
almost forgotten.
|
|
|
|
This outbreak of weeping took Eustacia herself so much by
|
|
surprise that she could not leave off, and she turned aside
|
|
from him in some shame, though turning hid nothing from him.
|
|
She sobbed on desperately; then the outpour lessened,
|
|
and she became quieter. Wildeve had resisted the impulse
|
|
to clasp her, and stood without speaking.
|
|
|
|
"Are you not ashamed of me, who used never to be
|
|
a crying animal?" she asked in a weak whisper as she
|
|
wiped her eyes. "Why didn't you go away? I wish you
|
|
had not seen quite all that; it reveals too much by half."
|
|
|
|
"You might have wished it, because it makes me
|
|
as sad as you," he said with emotion and deference.
|
|
"As for revealing--the word is impossible between us two."
|
|
|
|
"I did not send for you--don't forget it, Damon; I am
|
|
in pain, but I did not send for you! As a wife, at least,
|
|
I've been straight."
|
|
|
|
"Never mind--I came. O, Eustacia, forgive me for the harm
|
|
I have done you in these two past years! I see more and more
|
|
that I have been your ruin."
|
|
|
|
"Not you. This place I live in."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, your generosity may naturally make you say that.
|
|
But I am the culprit. I should either have done more or
|
|
nothing at all."
|
|
|
|
"In what way?"
|
|
|
|
"I ought never to have hunted you out, or, having done it,
|
|
I ought to have persisted in retaining you.
|
|
But of course I have no right to talk of that now.
|
|
I will only ask this--can I do anything for you? Is there
|
|
anything on the face of the earth that a man can do to
|
|
make you happier than you are at present? If there is,
|
|
I will do it. You may command me, Eustacia, to the limit
|
|
of my influence; and don't forget that I am richer now.
|
|
Surely something can be done to save you from this! Such
|
|
a rare plant in such a wild place it grieves me to see.
|
|
Do you want anything bought? Do you want to go anywhere?
|
|
Do you want to escape the place altogether? Only say it,
|
|
and I'll do anything to put an end to those tears, which but
|
|
for me would never have been at all."
|
|
|
|
"We are each married to another person," she said faintly;
|
|
"and assistance from you would have an evil sound--after--after--"
|
|
|
|
"Well, there's no preventing slanderers from having
|
|
their fill at any time; but you need not be afraid.
|
|
Whatever I may feel I promise you on my word of honour never
|
|
to speak to you about--or act upon--until you say I may.
|
|
I know my duty to Thomasin quite as well as I know my duty
|
|
to you as a woman unfairly treated. What shall I assist
|
|
you in?"
|
|
|
|
"In getting away from here."
|
|
|
|
"Where do you wish to go to?"
|
|
|
|
"I have a place in my mind. If you could help me as far
|
|
as Budmouth I can do all the rest. Steamers sail from
|
|
there across the Channel, and so I can get to Paris,
|
|
where I want to be. Yes," she pleaded earnestly, "help me
|
|
to get to Budmouth harbour without my grandfather's
|
|
or my husband's knowledge, and I can do all the rest."
|
|
|
|
"Will it be safe to leave you there alone?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes. I know Budmouth well."
|
|
|
|
"Shall I go with you? I am rich now."
|
|
|
|
She was silent.
|
|
|
|
"Say yes, sweet!"
|
|
|
|
She was silent still.
|
|
|
|
"Well, let me know when you wish to go. We shall be at
|
|
our present house till December; after that we remove
|
|
to Casterbridge. Command me in anything till that time."
|
|
|
|
"I will think of this," she said hurriedly. "Whether I
|
|
can honestly make use of you as a friend, or must close
|
|
with you as a lover--that is what I must ask myself.
|
|
If I wish to go and decide to accept your company I will
|
|
signal to you some evening at eight o'clock punctually,
|
|
and this will mean that you are to be ready with a horse
|
|
and trap at twelve o'clock the same night to drive me to
|
|
Budmouth harbour in time for the morning boat."
|
|
|
|
"I will look out every night at eight, and no signal
|
|
shall escape me."
|
|
|
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"Now please go away. If I decide on this escape I can
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only meet you once more unless--I cannot go without you.
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Go--I cannot bear it longer. Go--go!"
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Wildeve slowly went up the steps and descended into the
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darkness on the other side; and as he walked he glanced back,
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till the bank blotted out her form from his further view.
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6 - Thomasin Argues with Her Cousin, and He Writes a Letter
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Yeobright was at this time at Blooms-End, hoping that
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Eustacia would return to him. The removal of furniture
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had been accomplished only that day, though Clym
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had lived in the old house for more than a week.
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He had spent the time in working about the premises,
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sweeping leaves from the garden paths, cutting dead
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stalks from the flower beds, and nailing up creepers
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which had been displaced by the autumn winds. He took
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no particular pleasure in these deeds, but they formed
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a screen between himself and despair. Moreover, it had
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become a religion with him to preserve in good condition
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all that had lapsed from his mother's hands to his own.
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During these operations he was constantly on the watch
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for Eustacia. That there should be no mistake about
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her knowing where to find him he had ordered a notice
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board to be affixed to the garden gate at Alderworth,
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signifying in white letters whither he had removed.
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When a leaf floated to the earth he turned his head,
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thinking it might be her foot-fall. A bird searching
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for worms in the mould of the flower-beds sounded like her
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hand on the latch of the gate; and at dusk, when soft,
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strange ventriloquisms came from holes in the ground,
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hollow stalks, curled dead leaves, and other crannies
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wherein breezes, worms, and insects can work their will,
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he fancied that they were Eustacia, standing without and
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breathing wishes of reconciliation.
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Up to this hour he had persevered in his resolve not to invite
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her back. At the same time the severity with which he
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had treated her lulled the sharpness of his regret for
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his mother, and awoke some of his old solicitude for his
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mother's supplanter. Harsh feelings produce harsh usage,
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and this by reaction quenches the sentiments that gave
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it birth. The more he reflected the more he softened.
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But to look upon his wife as innocence in distress
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was impossible, though he could ask himself whether he
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had given her quite time enough--if he had not come
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a little too suddenly upon her on that sombre morning.
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Now that the first flush of his anger had paled he was
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disinclined to ascribe to her more than an indiscreet
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friendship with Wildeve, for there had not appeared in her
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manner the signs of dishonour. And this once admitted,
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an absolutely dark interpretation of her act towards
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his mother was no longer forced upon him.
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On the evening of the fifth November his thoughts
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of Eustacia were intense. Echoes from those past times
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when they had exchanged tender words all the day long came
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like the diffused murmur of a seashore left miles behind.
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"Surely," he said, "she might have brought herself
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to communicate with me before now, and confess honestly
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what Wildeve was to her."
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Instead of remaining at home that night he determined to go
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and see Thomasin and her husband. If he found opportunity
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he would allude to the cause of the separation between
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Eustacia and himself, keeping silence, however, on the
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fact that there was a third person in his house when his
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mother was turned away. If it proved that Wildeve was
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innocently there he would doubtless openly mention it.
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If he were there with unjust intentions Wildeve,
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being a man of quick feeling, might possibly say something
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to reveal the extent to which Eustacia was compromised.
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But on reaching his cousin's house he found that only
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Thomasin was at home, Wildeve being at that time on his way
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towards the bonfire innocently lit by Charley at Mistover.
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Thomasin then, as always, was glad to see Clym, and took
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him to inspect the sleeping baby, carefully screening
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the candlelight from the infant's eyes with her hand.
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"Tamsin, have you heard that Eustacia is not with me.
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now?" he said when they had sat down again.
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"No," said Thomasin, alarmed.
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"And not that I have left Alderworth?"
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"No. I never hear tidings from Alderworth unless you
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bring them. What is the matter?"
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Clym in a disturbed voice related to her his visit
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to Susan Nunsuch's boy, the revelation he had made,
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and what had resulted from his charging Eustacia
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with having wilfully and heartlessly done the deed.
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He suppressed all mention of Wildeve's presence with her.
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"All this, and I not knowing it!" murmured Thomasin
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in an awestruck tone, "Terrible! What could have made
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her--O, Eustacia! And when you found it out you went
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in hot haste to her? Were you too cruel?--or is she
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really so wicked as she seems?"
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"Can a man be too cruel to his mother's enemy?"
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"I can fancy so."
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"Very well, then--I'll admit that he can. But now
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what is to be done?"
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"Make it up again--if a quarrel so deadly can ever
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be made up. I almost wish you had not told me.
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But do try to be reconciled. There are ways, after all,
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if you both wish to."
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"I don't know that we do both wish to make it up,"
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said Clym. "If she had wished it, would she not have sent
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to me by this time?"
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"You seem to wish to, and yet you have not sent to her."
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"True; but I have been tossed to and fro in doubt
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if I ought, after such strong provocation. To see
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me now, Thomasin, gives you no idea of what I have been;
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of what depths I have descended to in these few last days.
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O, it was a bitter shame to shut out my mother like that!
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Can I ever forget it, or even agree to see her again?"
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"She might not have known that anything serious would
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come of it, and perhaps she did not mean to keep Aunt
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out altogether."
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"She says herself that she did not. But the fact remains
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that keep her out she did."
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"Believe her sorry, and send for her."
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"How if she will not come?"
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"It will prove her guilty, by showing that it is her habit
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to nourish enmity. But I do not think that for a moment."
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"I will do this. I will wait for a day or two longer--
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not longer than two days certainly; and if she does
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not send to me in that time I will indeed send to her.
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I thought to have seen Wildeve here tonight. Is he
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from home?"
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Thomasin blushed a little. "No," she said. "He is merely
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gone out for a walk."
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"Why didn't he take you with him? The evening is fine.
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You want fresh air as well as he."
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"Oh, I don't care for going anywhere; besides, there is baby."
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"Yes, yes. Well, I have been thinking whether I should
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not consult your husband about this as well as you,"
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said Clym steadily.
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"I fancy I would not," she quickly answered. "It can
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do no good."
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Her cousin looked her in the face. No doubt Thomasin was
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ignorant that her husband had any share in the events of
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that tragic afternoon; but her countenance seemed to signify
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that she concealed some suspicion or thought of the reputed
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tender relations between Wildeve and Eustacia in days gone by.
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Clym, however, could make nothing of it, and he rose
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to depart, more in doubt than when he came.
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"You will write to her in a day or two?" said the young
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woman earnestly. "I do so hope the wretched separation
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may come to an end."
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"I will," said Clym; "I don't rejoice in my present state
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at all."
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And he left her and climbed over the hill to Blooms-End.
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Before going to bed he sat down and wrote the following
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letter:--
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MY DEAR EUSTACIA,--I must obey my heart without consulting
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my reason too closely. Will you come back to me? Do so,
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and the past shall never be mentioned. I was too severe;
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but O, Eustacia, the provocation! You don't know,
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you never will know, what those words of anger cost me
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which you drew down upon yourself. All that an honest
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man can promise you I promise now, which is that from me
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you shall never suffer anything on this score again.
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After all the vows we have made, Eustacia, I think we
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had better pass the remainder of our lives in trying
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to keep them. Come to me, then, even if you reproach me.
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I have thought of your sufferings that morning on which I
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parted from you; I know they were genuine, and they are as
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much as you ought to bear. Our love must still continue.
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Such hearts as ours would never have been given us but
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to be concerned with each other. I could not ask you
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back at first, Eustacia, for I was unable to persuade
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myself that he who was with you was not there as a lover.
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But if you will come and explain distracting appearances
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I do not question that you can show your honesty to me.
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Why have you not come before? Do you think I will
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not listen to you? Surely not, when you remember the
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kisses and vows we exchanged under the summer moon.
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Return then, and you shall be warmly welcomed.
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I can no longer think of you to your prejudice--I am
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but too much absorbed in justifying you.--Your husband
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as ever,
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CLYM.
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"There," he said, as he laid it in his desk, "that's a
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good thing done. If she does not come before tomorrow
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night I will send it to her."
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Meanwhile, at the house he had just left Thomasin sat
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sighing uneasily. Fidelity to her husband had that evening
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induced her to conceal all suspicion that Wildeve's
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interest in Eustacia had not ended with his marriage.
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But she knew nothing positive; and though Clym was her
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well-beloved cousin there was one nearer to her still.
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When, a little later, Wildeve returned from his walk
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to Mistover, Thomasin said, "Damon, where have you been? I
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was getting quite frightened, and thought you had fallen
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into the river. I dislike being in the house by myself."
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"Frightened?" he said, touching her cheek as if she were
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some domestic animal. "Why, I thought nothing could
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frighten you. It is that you are getting proud, I am sure,
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and don't like living here since we have risen above
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our business. Well, it is a tedious matter, this getting
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a new house; but I couldn't have set about it sooner,
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unless our ten thousand pounds had been a hundred thousand,
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when we could have afforded to despise caution."
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"No--I don't mind waiting--I would rather stay here
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twelve months longer than run any risk with baby.
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But I don't like your vanishing so in the evenings.
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There's something on your mind--I know there is, Damon.
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You go about so gloomily, and look at the heath as if it
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were somebody's gaol instead of a nice wild place to
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walk in."
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He looked towards her with pitying surprise. "What, do
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you like Egdon Heath?" he said.
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"I like what I was born near to; I admire its grim old face."
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"Pooh, my dear. You don't know what you like."
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"I am sure I do. There's only one thing unpleasant
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about Egdon."
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"What's that?"
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"You never take me with you when you walk there. Why do
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you wander so much in it yourself if you so dislike it?"
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The inquiry, though a simple one, was plainly disconcerting,
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and he sat down before replying. "I don't think you
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often see me there. Give an instance."
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"I will," she answered triumphantly. "When you went
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out this evening I thought that as baby was asleep I
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would see where you were going to so mysteriously without
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telling me. So I ran out and followed behind you.
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You stopped at the place where the road forks,
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looked round at the bonfires, and then said, 'Damn it,
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I'll go!' And you went quickly up the left-hand road.
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Then I stood and watched you."
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Wildeve frowned, afterwards saying, with a forced smile,
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"Well, what wonderful discovery did you make?"
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"There--now you are angry, and we won't talk of this
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any more." She went across to him, sat on a footstool,
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and looked up in his face.
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"Nonsense!" he said, "that's how you always back out.
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We will go on with it now we have begun. What did you
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next see? I particularly want to know."
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"Don't be like that, Damon!" she murmured. "I didn't
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see anything. You vanished out of sight, and then I
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looked round at the bonfires and came in."
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"Perhaps this is not the only time you have dogged my steps.
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Are you trying to find out something bad about me?"
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"Not at all! I have never done such a thing before,
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and I shouldn't have done it now if words had not sometimes
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been dropped about you."
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"What DO you mean?" he impatiently asked.
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"They say--they say you used to go to Alderworth in
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the evenings, and it puts into my mind what I have heard about--"
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Wildeve turned angrily and stood up in front of her.
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"Now," he said, flourishing his hand in the air,
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"just out with it, madam! I demand to know what remarks
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you have heard."
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"Well, I heard that you used to be very fond of
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Eustacia--nothing more than that, though dropped
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in a bit-by-bit way. You ought not to be angry!"
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He observed that her eyes were brimming with tears.
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"Well," he said, "there is nothing new in that, and of
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course I don't mean to be rough towards you, so you need
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not cry. Now, don't let us speak of the subject any more."
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And no more was said, Thomasin being glad enough of a reason
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for not mentioning Clym's visit to her that evening,
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and his story.
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7 - The Night of the Sixth of November
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Having resolved on flight Eustacia at times seemed
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anxious that something should happen to thwart her
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own intention. The only event that could really change
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her position was the appearance of Clym. The glory
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which had encircled him as her lover was departed now;
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yet some good simple quality of his would occasionally
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return to her memory and stir a momentary throb of hope
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that he would again present himself before her. But calmly
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considered it was not likely that such a severance as
|
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now existed would ever close up--she would have to live
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on as a painful object, isolated, and out of place.
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She had used to think of the heath alone as an uncongenial
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spot to be in; she felt it now of the whole world.
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Towards evening on the sixth her determination to go away
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again revived. About four o'clock she packed up anew
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the few small articles she had brought in her flight
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from Alderworth, and also some belonging to her which had
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been left here; the whole formed a bundle not too large
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to be carried in her hand for a distance of a mile or two.
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The scene without grew darker; mud-coloured clouds bellied
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downwards from the sky like vast hammocks slung across it,
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and with the increase of night a stormy wind arose;
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but as yet there was no rain.
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Eustacia could not rest indoors, having nothing more to do,
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and she wandered to and fro on the hill, not far from the
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house she was soon to leave. In these desultory ramblings
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she passed the cottage of Susan Nunsuch, a little lower
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down than her grandfather's. The door was ajar, and a
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riband of bright firelight fell over the ground without.
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As Eustacia crossed the firebeams she appeared for an
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instant as distinct as a figure in a phantasmagoria--a
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creature of light surrounded by an area of darkness;
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the moment passed, and she was absorbed in night again.
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A woman who was sitting inside the cottage had seen and
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recognized her in that momentary irradiation. This was
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Susan herself, occupied in preparing a posset for her
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little boy, who, often ailing, was now seriously unwell.
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Susan dropped the spoon, shook her fist at the vanished figure,
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and then proceeded with her work in a musing, absent way.
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At eight o'clock, the hour at which Eustacia had promised
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to signal Wildeve if ever she signalled at all, she looked
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around the premises to learn if the coast was clear,
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went to the furze-rick, and pulled thence a long-stemmed
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bough of that fuel. This she carried to the corner of
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the bank, and, glancing behind to see if the shutters were
|
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all closed, she struck a light, and kindled the furze.
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When it was thoroughly ablaze Eustacia took it by the stem
|
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and waved it in the air above her head till it had burned
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itself out.
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She was gratified, if gratification were possible
|
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to such a mood, by seeing a similar light in the
|
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vicinity of Wildeve's residence a minute or two later.
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Having agreed to keep watch at this hour every night,
|
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in case she should require assistance, this promptness
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proved how strictly he had held to his word.
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Four hours after the present time, that is, at midnight,
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he was to be ready to drive her to Budmouth, as prearranged.
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Eustacia returned to the house. Supper having been got
|
|
over she retired early, and sat in her bedroom waiting for
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the time to go by. The night being dark and threatening,
|
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Captain Vye had not strolled out to gossip in any cottage or
|
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to call at the inn, as was sometimes his custom on these long
|
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autumn nights; and he sat sipping grog alone downstairs.
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About ten o'clock there was a knock at the door.
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When the servant opened it the rays of the candle fell
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upon the form of Fairway.
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"I was a-forced to go to Lower Mistover tonight,"
|
|
he said, "and Mr. Yeobright asked me to leave this here
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|
on my way; but, faith, I put it in the lining of my hat,
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|
and thought no more about it till I got back and was
|
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hasping my gate before going to bed. So I have run back
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with it at once."
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He handed in a letter and went his way. The girl brought
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it to the captain, who found that it was directed
|
|
to Eustacia. He turned it over and over, and fancied
|
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that the writing was her husband's, though he could not
|
|
be sure. However, he decided to let her have it at once
|
|
if possible, and took it upstairs for that purpose;
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but on reaching the door of her room and looking
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in at the keyhole he found there was no light within,
|
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the fact being that Eustacia, without undressing,
|
|
had flung herself upon the bed, to rest and gather a
|
|
little strength for her coming journey. Her grandfather
|
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concluded from what he saw that he ought not to disturb her;
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and descending again to the parlour he placed the letter
|
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on the mantelpiece to give it to her in the morning.
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At eleven o'clock he went to bed himself, smoked for
|
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some time in his bedroom, put out his light at half-
|
|
past eleven, and then, as was his invariable custom,
|
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pulled up the blind before getting into bed, that he
|
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might see which way the wind blew on opening his eyes
|
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in the morning, his bedroom window commanding a view
|
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of the flagstaff and vane. Just as he had lain down he
|
|
was surprised to observe the white pole of the staff flash
|
|
into existence like a streak of phosphorus drawn downwards
|
|
across the shade of night without. Only one explanation
|
|
met this--a light had been suddenly thrown upon the pole
|
|
from the direction of the house. As everybody had retired
|
|
to rest the old man felt it necessary to get out of bed,
|
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open the window softly, and look to the right and left.
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Eustacia's bedroom was lighted up, and it was the shine
|
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from her window which had lighted the pole. Wondering what
|
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had aroused her, he remained undecided at the window,
|
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and was thinking of fetching the letter to slip it under
|
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her door, when he heard a slight brushing of garments
|
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on the partition dividing his room from the passage.
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The captain concluded that Eustacia, feeling wakeful,
|
|
had gone for a book, and would have dismissed the matter
|
|
as unimportant if he had not also heard her distinctly
|
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weeping as she passed.
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"She is thinking of that husband of hers," he said to himself.
|
|
"Ah, the silly goose! she had no business to marry him.
|
|
I wonder if that letter is really his?"
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|
He arose, threw his boat-cloak round him, opened the door,
|
|
and said, "Eustacia!" There was no answer. "Eustacia!" he
|
|
repeated louder, "there is a letter on the mantelpiece
|
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for you."
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|
But no response was made to this statement save an imaginary
|
|
one from the wind, which seemed to gnaw at the corners of
|
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the house, and the stroke of a few drops of rain upon the windows.
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He went on to the landing, and stood waiting nearly
|
|
five minutes. Still she did not return. He went back
|
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for a light, and prepared to follow her; but first he looked
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into her bedroom. There, on the outside of the quilt,
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was the impression of her form, showing that the bed
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had not been opened; and, what was more significant,
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she had not taken her candlestick downstairs.
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He was now thoroughly alarmed; and hastily putting on
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his clothes he descended to the front door, which he
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himself had bolted and locked. It was now unfastened.
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There was no longer any doubt that Eustacia had left
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the house at this midnight hour; and whither could
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she have gone? To follow her was almost impossible.
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Had the dwelling stood in an ordinary road, two persons
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setting out, one in each direction, might have made sure
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|
of overtaking her; but it was a hopeless task to seek
|
|
for anybody on a heath in the dark, the practicable
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|
directions for flight across it from any point being
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as numerous as the meridians radiating from the pole.
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Perplexed what to do, he looked into the parlour, and was
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vexed to find that the letter still lay there untouched.
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At half-past eleven, finding that the house was silent,
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Eustacia had lighted her candle, put on some warm
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outer wrappings, taken her bag in her hand, and,
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extinguishing the light again, descended the staircase.
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When she got into the outer air she found that it had begun
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to rain, and as she stood pausing at the door it increased,
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threatening to come on heavily. But having committed
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herself to this line of action there was no retreating
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for bad weather. Even the receipt of Clym's letter
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|
would not have stopped her now. The gloom of the night
|
|
was funereal; all nature seemed clothed in crape.
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The spiky points of the fir trees behind the house rose
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into the sky like the turrets and pinnacles of an abbey.
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Nothing below the horizon was visible save a light
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which was still burning in the cottage of Susan Nunsuch.
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Eustacia opened her umbrella and went out from the enclosure
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by the steps over the bank, after which she was beyond
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|
all danger of being perceived. Skirting the pool,
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|
she followed the path towards Rainbarrow, occasionally
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|
stumbling over twisted furze roots, tufts of rushes,
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or oozing lumps of fleshy fungi, which at this season lay
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scattered about the heath like the rotten liver and lungs
|
|
of some colossal animal. The moon and stars were closed
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|
up by cloud and rain to the degree of extinction.
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It was a night which led the traveller's thoughts
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instinctively to dwell on nocturnal scenes of disaster
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in the chronicles of the world, on all that is terrible
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|
and dark in history and legend--the last plague of Egypt,
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the destruction of Sennacherib's host, the agony in Gethsemane.
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Eustacia at length reached Rainbarrow, and stood still there
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|
to think. Never was harmony more perfect than that between
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the chaos of her mind and the chaos of the world without.
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|
A sudden recollection had flashed on her this moment--she
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had not money enough for undertaking a long journey.
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|
Amid the fluctuating sentiments of the day her
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|
unpractical mind had not dwelt on the necessity of being
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|
well-provided, and now that she thoroughly realized the
|
|
conditions she sighed bitterly and ceased to stand erect,
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|
gradually crouching down under the umbrella as if she
|
|
were drawn into the Barrow by a hand from beneath.
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|
Could it be that she was to remain a captive still?
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|
Money--she had never felt its value before. Even to
|
|
efface herself from the country means were required.
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|
To ask Wildeve for pecuniary aid without allowing him
|
|
to accompany her was impossible to a woman with a shadow
|
|
of pride left in her; to fly as his mistress--and she
|
|
knew that he loved her--was of the nature of humiliation.
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|
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|
Anyone who had stood by now would have pitied her,
|
|
not so much on account of her exposure to weather,
|
|
and isolation from all of humanity except the mouldered
|
|
remains inside the tumulus; but for that other form
|
|
of misery which was denoted by the slightly rocking
|
|
movement that her feelings imparted to her person.
|
|
Extreme unhappiness weighed visibly upon her. Between the
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|
drippings of the rain from her umbrella to her mantle,
|
|
from her mantle to the heather, from the heather to the earth,
|
|
very similar sounds could be heard coming from her lips;
|
|
and the tearfulness of the outer scene was repeated upon
|
|
her face. The wings of her soul were broken by the cruel
|
|
obstructiveness of all about her; and even had she seen
|
|
herself in a promising way of getting to Budmouth,
|
|
entering a steamer, and sailing to some opposite port,
|
|
she would have been but little more buoyant, so fearfully
|
|
malignant were other things. She uttered words aloud.
|
|
When a woman in such a situation, neither old, deaf, crazed,
|
|
nor whimsical, takes upon herself to sob and soliloquize
|
|
aloud there is something grievous the matter.
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|
|
|
"Can I go, can I go?" she moaned. "He's not GREAT
|
|
enough for me to give myself to--he does not suffice
|
|
for my desire!...If he had been a Saul or a Bonaparte--
|
|
ah! But to break my marriage vow for him--it is too poor
|
|
a luxury!...And I have no money to go alone! And if I could,
|
|
what comfort to me? I must drag on next year, as I have
|
|
dragged on this year, and the year after that as before.
|
|
How I have tried and tried to be a splendid woman,
|
|
and how destiny has been against me!...I do not deserve
|
|
my lot!" she cried in a frenzy of bitter revolt.
|
|
"O, the cruelty of putting me into this ill-conceived
|
|
world! I was capable of much; but I have been injured
|
|
and blighted and crushed by things beyond my control! O,
|
|
how hard it is of Heaven to devise such tortures for me,
|
|
who have done no harm to Heaven at all!"
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|
|
|
|
|
The distant light which Eustacia had cursorily observed in
|
|
leaving the house came, as she had divined, from the cottage
|
|
window of Susan Nunsuch. What Eustacia did not divine
|
|
was the occupation of the woman within at that moment.
|
|
Susan's sight of her passing figure earlier in the evening,
|
|
not five minutes after the sick boy's exclamation,
|
|
"Mother, I do feel so bad!" persuaded the matron that an evil
|
|
influence was certainly exercised by Eustacia's propinquity.
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|
|
|
On this account Susan did not go to bed as soon as the
|
|
evening's work was over, as she would have done at
|
|
ordinary times. To counteract the malign spell which she
|
|
imagined poor Eustacia to be working, the boy's mother
|
|
busied herself with a ghastly invention of superstition,
|
|
calculated to bring powerlessness, atrophy, and annihilation
|
|
on any human being against whom it was directed.
|
|
It was a practice well known on Egdon at that date,
|
|
and one that is not quite extinct at the present day.
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|
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|
She passed with her candle into an inner room, where,
|
|
among other utensils, were two large brown pans,
|
|
containing together perhaps a hundredweight of liquid honey,
|
|
the produce of the bees during the foregoing summer.
|
|
On a shelf over the pans was a smooth and solid yellow
|
|
mass of a hemispherical form, consisting of beeswax
|
|
from the same take of honey. Susan took down the lump,
|
|
and cutting off several thin slices, heaped them in an
|
|
iron ladle, with which she returned to the living-room,
|
|
and placed the vessel in the hot ashes of the fireplace.
|
|
As soon as the wax had softened to the plasticity
|
|
of dough she kneaded the pieces together. And now her
|
|
face became more intent. She began moulding the wax;
|
|
and it was evident from her manner of manipulation that
|
|
she was endeavouring to give it some preconceived form.
|
|
The form was human.
|
|
|
|
By warming and kneading, cutting and twisting,
|
|
dismembering and re-joining the incipient image she had in
|
|
about a quarter of an hour produced a shape which tolerably
|
|
well resembled a woman, and was about six inches high.
|
|
She laid it on the table to get cold and hard. Meanwhile she
|
|
took the candle and went upstairs to where the little boy was lying.
|
|
|
|
"Did you notice, my dear, what Mrs. Eustacia wore this
|
|
afternoon besides the dark dress?"
|
|
|
|
"A red ribbon round her neck."
|
|
|
|
"Anything else?"
|
|
|
|
"No--except sandal-shoes."
|
|
|
|
"A red ribbon and sandal-shoes," she said to herself.
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Nunsuch went and searched till she found a fragment
|
|
of the narrowest red ribbon, which she took downstairs
|
|
and tied round the neck of the image. Then fetching
|
|
ink and a quilt from the rickety bureau by the window,
|
|
she blackened the feet of the image to the extent presumably
|
|
covered by shoes; and on the instep of each foot marked
|
|
cross-lines in the shape taken by the sandalstrings
|
|
of those days. Finally she tied a bit of black thread
|
|
round the upper part of the head, in faint resemblance
|
|
to a snood worn for confining the hair.
|
|
|
|
Susan held the object at arm's length and contemplated
|
|
it with a satisfaction in which there was no smile.
|
|
To anybody acquainted with the inhabitants of Egdon Heath
|
|
the image would have suggested Eustacia Yeobright.
|
|
|
|
From her workbasket in the window-seat the woman took
|
|
a paper of pins, of the old long and yellow sort,
|
|
whose heads were disposed to come off at their first usage.
|
|
These she began to thrust into the image in all directions,
|
|
with apparently excruciating energy. Probably as many
|
|
as fifty were thus inserted, some into the head of the
|
|
wax model, some into the shoulders, some into the trunk,
|
|
some upwards through the soles of the feet, till the figure
|
|
was completely permeated with pins.
|
|
|
|
She turned to the fire. It had been of turf; and though
|
|
the high heap of ashes which turf fires produce was
|
|
somewhat dark and dead on the outside, upon raking it
|
|
abroad with the shovel the inside of the mass showed a glow
|
|
of red heat. She took a few pieces of fresh turf from
|
|
the chimney-corner and built them together over the glow,
|
|
upon which the fire brightened. Seizing with the tongs
|
|
the image that she had made of Eustacia, she held it in
|
|
the heat, and watched it as it began to waste slowly away.
|
|
And while she stood thus engaged there came from between
|
|
her lips a murmur of words.
|
|
|
|
It was a strange jargon--the Lord's Prayer repeated
|
|
backwards--the incantation usual in proceedings for obtaining
|
|
unhallowed assistance against an enemy. Susan uttered
|
|
the lugubrious discourse three times slowly, and when it
|
|
was completed the image had considerably diminished.
|
|
As the wax dropped into the fire a long flame arose from
|
|
the spot, and curling its tongue round the figure ate still
|
|
further into its substance. A pin occasionally dropped
|
|
with the wax, and the embers heated it red as it lay.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
8 - Rain, Darkness, and Anxious Wanderers
|
|
|
|
|
|
While the effigy of Eustacia was melting to nothing,
|
|
and the fair woman herself was standing on Rainbarrow,
|
|
her soul in an abyss of desolation seldom plumbed by one
|
|
so young, Yeobright sat lonely at Blooms-End. He had
|
|
fulfilled his word to Thomasin by sending off Fairway
|
|
with the letter to his wife, and now waited with increased
|
|
impatience for some sound or signal of her return.
|
|
Were Eustacia still at Mistover the very least he expected
|
|
was that she would send him back a reply tonight by the
|
|
same hand; though, to leave all to her inclination,
|
|
he had cautioned Fairway not to ask for an answer.
|
|
If one were handed to him he was to bring it immediately;
|
|
if not, he was to go straight home without troubling to come
|
|
round to Blooms-End again that night.
|
|
|
|
But secretly Clym had a more pleasing hope. Eustacia might
|
|
possibly decline to use her pen--it was rather her way to
|
|
work silently--and surprise him by appearing at his door.
|
|
How fully her mind was made up to do otherwise he did
|
|
not know.
|
|
|
|
To Clym's regret it began to rain and blow hard as the
|
|
evening advanced. The wind rasped and scraped at the
|
|
corners of the house, and filliped the eavesdroppings
|
|
like peas against the panes. He walked restlessly about
|
|
the untenanted rooms, stopping strange noises in windows
|
|
and doors by jamming splinters of wood into the casements
|
|
and crevices, and pressing together the leadwork of the
|
|
quarries where it had become loosened from the glass.
|
|
It was one of those nights when cracks in the walls of
|
|
old churches widen, when ancient stains on the ceilings
|
|
of decayed manor houses are renewed and enlarged from
|
|
the size of a man's hand to an area of many feet.
|
|
The little gate in the palings before his dwelling
|
|
continually opened and clicked together again, but when he
|
|
looked out eagerly nobody was there; it was as if invisible
|
|
shapes of the dead were passing in on their way to visit him.
|
|
|
|
Between ten and eleven o'clock, finding that neither
|
|
Fairway nor anybody else came to him, he retired
|
|
to rest, and despite his anxieties soon fell asleep.
|
|
His sleep, however, was not very sound, by reason of
|
|
the expectancy he had given way to, and he was easily
|
|
awakened by a knocking which began at the door about an
|
|
hour after. Clym arose and looked out of the window.
|
|
Rain was still falling heavily, the whole expanse of heath
|
|
before him emitting a subdued hiss under the downpour.
|
|
It was too dark to see anything at all.
|
|
|
|
"Who's there?" he cried.
|
|
|
|
Light footsteps shifted their position in the porch,
|
|
and he could just distinguish in a plaintive female voice
|
|
the words, "O Clym, come down and let me in!"
|
|
|
|
He flushed hot with agitation. "Surely it is Eustacia!"
|
|
he murmured. If so, she had indeed come to him unawares.
|
|
|
|
He hastily got a light, dressed himself, and went down.
|
|
On his flinging open the door the rays of the candle fell
|
|
upon a woman closely wrapped up, who at once came forward.
|
|
|
|
"Thomasin!" he exclaimed in an indescribable tone
|
|
of disappointment. "It is Thomasin, and on such a night
|
|
as this! O, where is Eustacia?"
|
|
|
|
Thomasin it was, wet, frightened, and panting.
|
|
|
|
"Eustacia? I don't know, Clym; but I can think," she said
|
|
with much perturbation. "Let me come in and rest--I
|
|
will explain this. There is a great trouble brewing--my
|
|
husband and Eustacia!"
|
|
|
|
"What, what?"
|
|
|
|
"I think my husband is going to leave me or do something
|
|
dreadful--I don't know what--Clym, will you go and see?
|
|
I have nobody to help me but you; Eustacia has not yet
|
|
come home?"
|
|
|
|
"No."
|
|
|
|
She went on breathlessly: "Then they are going to run off
|
|
together! He came indoors tonight about eight o'clock and
|
|
said in an off-hand way, 'Tamsie, I have just found that I
|
|
must go a journey.' 'When?' I said. 'Tonight,' he said.
|
|
'Where?' I asked him. 'I cannot tell you at present,'
|
|
he said; 'I shall be back again tomorrow.' He then went
|
|
and busied himself in looking up his things, and took no
|
|
notice of me at all. I expected to see him start, but he
|
|
did not, and then it came to be ten o'clock, when he said,
|
|
'You had better go to bed.' I didn't know what to do,
|
|
and I went to bed. I believe he thought I fell asleep,
|
|
for half an hour after that he came up and unlocked the oak
|
|
chest we keep money in when we have much in the house and
|
|
took out a roll of something which I believe was banknotes,
|
|
though I was not aware that he had 'em there. These he must
|
|
have got from the bank when he went there the other day.
|
|
What does he want banknotes for, if he is only going off
|
|
for a day? When he had gone down I thought of Eustacia,
|
|
and how he had met her the night before--I know he did
|
|
meet her, Clym, for I followed him part of the way; but I
|
|
did not like to tell you when you called, and so make you
|
|
think ill of him, as I did not think it was so serious.
|
|
Then I could not stay in bed; I got up and dressed myself,
|
|
and when I heard him out in the stable I thought I would come
|
|
and tell you. So I came downstairs without any noise and
|
|
slipped out."
|
|
|
|
"Then he was not absolutely gone when you left?"
|
|
|
|
"No. Will you, dear Cousin Clym, go and try to persuade
|
|
him not to go? He takes no notice of what I say, and puts
|
|
me off with the story of his going on a journey, and will
|
|
be home tomorrow, and all that; but I don't believe it.
|
|
I think you could influence him."
|
|
|
|
"I'll go," said Clym. "O, Eustacia!"
|
|
|
|
Thomasin carried in her arms a large bundle; and having
|
|
by this time seated herself she began to unroll it,
|
|
when a baby appeared as the kernel to the husks--dry,
|
|
warm, and unconscious of travel or rough weather.
|
|
Thomasin briefly kissed the baby, and then found
|
|
time to begin crying as she said, "I brought baby,
|
|
for I was afraid what might happen to her. I suppose
|
|
it will be her death, but I couldn't leave her with Rachel!"
|
|
|
|
Clym hastily put together the logs on the hearth,
|
|
raked abroad the embers, which were scarcely yet extinct,
|
|
and blew up a flame with the bellows.
|
|
|
|
"Dry yourself," he said. "I'll go and get some more wood."
|
|
|
|
"No, no--don't stay for that. I'll make up the fire.
|
|
Will you go at once--please will you?"
|
|
|
|
Yeobright ran upstairs to finish dressing himself.
|
|
While he was gone another rapping came to the door.
|
|
This time there was no delusion that it might be Eustacia's--the
|
|
footsteps just preceding it had been heavy and slow.
|
|
Yeobright thinking it might possibly be Fairway with a note
|
|
in answer, descended again and opened the door.
|
|
|
|
"Captain Vye?" he said to a dripping figure.
|
|
|
|
"Is my granddaughter here?" said the captain.
|
|
|
|
"No."
|
|
|
|
"Then where is she?".
|
|
|
|
"I don't know."
|
|
|
|
"But you ought to know--you are her husband."
|
|
|
|
"Only in name apparently," said Clym with rising excitement.
|
|
"I believe she means to elope tonight with Wildeve.
|
|
I am just going to look to it."
|
|
|
|
"Well, she has left my house; she left about half an hour ago.
|
|
Who's sitting there?"
|
|
|
|
"My cousin Thomasin."
|
|
|
|
The captain bowed in a preoccupied way to her.
|
|
"I only hope it is no worse than an elopement," he said.
|
|
|
|
"Worse? What's worse than the worst a wife can do?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, I have been told a strange tale. Before starting
|
|
in search of her I called up Charley, my stable lad.
|
|
I missed my pistols the other day."
|
|
|
|
"Pistols?"
|
|
|
|
"He said at the time that he took them down to clean.
|
|
He has now owned that he took them because he saw Eustacia
|
|
looking curiously at them; and she afterwards owned to him
|
|
that she was thinking of taking her life, but bound him
|
|
to secrecy, and promised never to think of such a thing again.
|
|
I hardly suppose she will ever have bravado enough to use
|
|
one of them; but it shows what has been lurking in her mind;
|
|
and people who think of that sort of thing once think
|
|
of it again."
|
|
|
|
"Where are the pistols?"
|
|
|
|
"Safely locked up. O no, she won't touch them again.
|
|
But there are more ways of letting out life than through
|
|
a bullet-hole. What did you quarrel about so bitterly
|
|
with her to drive her to all this? You must have treated
|
|
her badly indeed. Well, I was always against the marriage,
|
|
and I was right."
|
|
|
|
"Are you going with me?" said Yeobright, paying no
|
|
attention to the captain's latter remark. "If so
|
|
I can tell you what we quarrelled about as we walk along."
|
|
|
|
"Where to?"
|
|
|
|
"To Wildeve's--that was her destination, depend upon it."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin here broke in, still weeping: "He said he
|
|
was only going on a sudden short journey; but if so why
|
|
did he want so much money? O, Clym, what do you think
|
|
will happen? I am afraid that you, my poor baby,
|
|
will soon have no father left to you!"
|
|
|
|
"I am off now," said Yeobright, stepping into the porch.
|
|
|
|
"I would fain go with 'ee," said the old man doubtfully.
|
|
"But I begin to be afraid that my legs will hardly carry me
|
|
there such a night as this. I am not so young as I was.
|
|
If they are interrupted in their flight she will be sure to come
|
|
back to me, and I ought to be at the house to receive her.
|
|
But be it as 'twill I can't walk to the Quiet Woman,
|
|
and that's an end on't. I'll go straight home."
|
|
|
|
"It will perhaps be best," said Clym. "Thomasin, dry
|
|
yourself, and be as comfortable as you can."
|
|
|
|
With this he closed the door upon her, and left the house
|
|
in company with Captain Vye, who parted from him outside
|
|
the gate, taking the middle path, which led to Mistover.
|
|
Clym crossed by the right-hand track towards the inn.
|
|
|
|
Thomasin, being left alone, took off some of her
|
|
wet garments, carried the baby upstairs to Clym's bed,
|
|
and then came down to the sitting-room again,
|
|
where she made a larger fire, and began drying herself.
|
|
The fire soon flared up the chimney, giving the room
|
|
an appearance of comfort that was doubled by contrast
|
|
with the drumming of the storm without, which snapped
|
|
at the windowpanes and breathed into the chimney strange
|
|
low utterances that seemed to be the prologue to some tragedy.
|
|
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|
But the least part of Thomasin was in the house,
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for her heart being at ease about the little girl
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upstairs she was mentally following Clym on his journey.
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Having indulged in this imaginary peregrination for some
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considerable interval, she became impressed with a sense
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of the intolerable slowness of time. But she sat on.
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The moment then came when she could scarcely sit longer,
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and it was like a satire on her patience to remember
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that Clym could hardly have reached the inn as yet.
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At last she went to the baby's bedside. The child was
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sleeping soundly; but her imagination of possibly disastrous
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|
events at her home, the predominance within her of the
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unseen over the seen, agitated her beyond endurance.
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She could not refrain from going down and opening the door.
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The rain still continued, the candlelight falling upon the
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nearest drops and making glistening darts of them as they
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descended across the throng of invisible ones behind.
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To plunge into that medium was to plunge into water
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slightly diluted with air. But the difficulty of returning
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to her house at this moment made her all the more
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desirous of doing so--anything was better than suspense.
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"I have come here well enough," she said, "and why
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shouldn't I go back again? It is a mistake for me to
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be away."
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She hastily fetched the infant, wrapped it up, cloaked
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herself as before, and shoveling the ashes over the fire,
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to prevent accidents, went into the open air. Pausing first
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|
to put the door key in its old place behind the shutter,
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|
she resolutely turned her face to the confronting pile
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of firmamental darkness beyond the palings, and stepped into
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its midst. But Thomasin's imagination being so actively
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|
engaged elsewhere, the night and the weather had for her
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|
no terror beyond that of their actual discomfort and difficulty.
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She was soon ascending Blooms-End valley and traversing
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the undulations on the side of the hill. The noise
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of the wind over the heath was shrill, and as if it
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|
whistled for joy at finding a night so congenial as this.
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|
Sometimes the path led her to hollows between thickets of
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tall and dripping bracken, dead, though not yet prostrate,
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which enclosed her like a pool. When they were more than
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usually tall she lifted the baby to the top of her head,
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|
that it might be out of the reach of their drenching fronds.
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|
On higher ground, where the wind was brisk and sustained,
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the rain flew in a level flight without sensible descent,
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|
so that it was beyond all power to imagine the remoteness
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of the point at which it left the bosoms of the clouds.
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|
Here self-defence was impossible, and individual drops
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|
stuck into her like the arrows into Saint Sebastian.
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|
She was enabled to avoid puddles by the nebulous paleness
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|
which signified their presence, though beside anything less
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|
dark than the heath they themselves would have appeared
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|
as blackness.
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|
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|
Yet in spite of all this Thomasin was not sorry that she
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|
had started. To her there were not, as to Eustacia,
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|
demons in the air, and malice in every bush and bough.
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|
The drops which lashed her face were not scorpions,
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|
but prosy rain; Egdon in the mass was no monster whatever,
|
|
but impersonal open ground. Her fears of the place
|
|
were rational, her dislikes of its worst moods reasonable.
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|
At this time it was in her view a windy, wet place, in which
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|
a person might experience much discomfort, lose the path
|
|
without care, and possibly catch cold.
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|
|
|
If the path is well known the difficulty at such
|
|
times of keeping therein is not altogether great,
|
|
from its familiar feel to the feet; but once lost it
|
|
is irrecoverable. Owing to her baby, who somewhat impeded
|
|
Thomasin's view forward and distracted her mind, she did
|
|
at last lose the track. This mishap occurred when she
|
|
was descending an open slope about two-thirds home.
|
|
Instead of attempting, by wandering hither and thither,
|
|
the hopeless task of finding such a mere thread,
|
|
she went straight on, trusting for guidance to her general
|
|
knowledge of the contours, which was scarcely surpassed
|
|
by Clym's or by that of the heath-croppers themselves.
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|
|
|
At length Thomasin reached a hollow and began to
|
|
discern through the rain a faint blotted radiance,
|
|
which presently assumed the oblong form of an open door.
|
|
She knew that no house stood hereabouts, and was soon aware
|
|
of the nature of the door by its height above the ground.
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|
|
|
"Why, it is Diggory Venn's van, surely!" she said.
|
|
|
|
A certain secluded spot near Rainbarrow was, she knew,
|
|
often Venn's chosen centre when staying in this neighbourhood;
|
|
and she guessed at once that she had stumbled upon this
|
|
mysterious retreat. The question arose in her mind whether
|
|
or not she should ask him to guide her into the path.
|
|
In her anxiety to reach home she decided that she would
|
|
appeal to him, notwithstanding the strangeness of appearing
|
|
before his eyes at this place and season. But when,
|
|
in pursuance of this resolve, Thomasin reached the van
|
|
and looked in she found it to be untenanted; though there
|
|
was no doubt that it was the reddleman's. The fire was
|
|
burning in the stove, the lantern hung from the nail.
|
|
Round the doorway the floor was merely sprinkled with rain,
|
|
and not saturated, which told her that the door had not long
|
|
been opened.
|
|
|
|
While she stood uncertainly looking in Thomasin heard
|
|
a footstep advancing from the darkness behind her,
|
|
and turning, beheld the well-known form in corduroy,
|
|
lurid from head to foot, the lantern beams falling upon
|
|
him through an intervening gauze of raindrops.
|
|
|
|
"I thought you went down the slope," he said,
|
|
without noticing her face. "How do you come back here again?"
|
|
|
|
"Diggory?" said Thomasin faintly.
|
|
|
|
"Who are you?" said Venn, still unperceiving. "And why
|
|
were you crying so just now?"
|
|
|
|
"O, Diggory! don't you know me?" said she. "But of course
|
|
you don't, wrapped up like this. What do you mean? I
|
|
have not been crying here, and I have not been here before."
|
|
|
|
Venn then came nearer till he could see the illuminated
|
|
side of her form.
|
|
|
|
"Mrs. Wildeve!" he exclaimed, starting. "What a time
|
|
for us to meet! And the baby too! What dreadful thing
|
|
can have brought you out on such a night as this?"
|
|
|
|
She could not immediately answer; and without asking her
|
|
permission he hopped into his van, took her by the arm,
|
|
and drew her up after him.
|
|
|
|
"What is it?" he continued when they stood within.
|
|
|
|
"I have lost my way coming from Blooms-End, and I am
|
|
in a great hurry to get home. Please show me as quickly
|
|
as you can! It is so silly of me not to know Egdon better,
|
|
and I cannot think how I came to lose the path.
|
|
Show me quickly, Diggory, please."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, of course. I will go with 'ee. But you came to me
|
|
before this, Mrs. Wildeve?"
|
|
|
|
"I only came this minute."
|
|
|
|
"That's strange. I was lying down here asleep about five
|
|
minutes ago, with the door shut to keep out the weather,
|
|
when the brushing of a woman's clothes over the heath-bushes
|
|
just outside woke me up, for I don't sleep heavy,
|
|
and at the same time I heard a sobbing or crying from
|
|
the same woman. I opened my door and held out my lantern,
|
|
and just as far as the light would reach I saw a woman;
|
|
she turned her head when the light sheened on her,
|
|
and then hurried on downhill. I hung up the lantern,
|
|
and was curious enough to pull on my things and dog her
|
|
a few steps, but I could see nothing of her any more.
|
|
That was where I had been when you came up; and when I saw you
|
|
I thought you were the same one."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps it was one of the heathfolk going home?"
|
|
|
|
"No, it couldn't be. 'Tis too late. The noise of her
|
|
gown over the he'th was of a whistling sort that nothing
|
|
but silk will make."
|
|
|
|
"It wasn't I, then. My dress is not silk, you see....Are
|
|
we anywhere in a line between Mistover and the inn?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, yes; not far out."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, I wonder if it was she! Diggory, I must go at once!"
|
|
|
|
She jumped down from the van before he was aware,
|
|
when Venn unhooked the lantern and leaped down after her.
|
|
"I'll take the baby, ma'am," he said. "You must be tired
|
|
out by the weight."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin hesitated a moment, and then delivered the baby
|
|
into Venn's hands. "Don't squeeze her, Diggory," she said,
|
|
"or hurt her little arm; and keep the cloak close over
|
|
her like this, so that the rain may not drop in her face."
|
|
|
|
"I will," said Venn earnestly. "As if I could hurt
|
|
anything belonging to you!"
|
|
|
|
"I only meant accidentally," said Thomasin.
|
|
|
|
"The baby is dry enough, but you are pretty wet,"
|
|
said the reddleman when, in closing the door of his cart
|
|
to padlock it, he noticed on the floor a ring of water
|
|
drops where her cloak had hung from her.
|
|
|
|
Thomasin followed him as he wound right and left to avoid
|
|
the larger bushes, stopping occasionally and covering
|
|
the lantern, while he looked over his shoulder to gain
|
|
some idea of the position of Rainbarrow above them,
|
|
which it was necessary to keep directly behind their backs
|
|
to preserve a proper course.
|
|
|
|
"You are sure the rain does not fall upon baby?"
|
|
|
|
"Quite sure. May I ask how old he is, ma'am?"
|
|
|
|
"He!" said Thomasin reproachfully. "Anybody can see better
|
|
than that in a moment. She is nearly two months old.
|
|
How far is it now to the inn?"
|
|
|
|
"A little over a quarter of a mile."
|
|
|
|
"Will you walk a little faster?"
|
|
|
|
"I was afraid you could not keep up."
|
|
|
|
"I am very anxious to get there. Ah, there is a light
|
|
from the window!"
|
|
|
|
"'Tis not from the window. That's a gig-lamp, to the best
|
|
of my belief."
|
|
|
|
"O!" said Thomasin in despair. "I wish I had been there
|
|
sooner--give me the baby, Diggory--you can go back now."
|
|
|
|
"I must go all the way," said Venn. "There is a quag
|
|
between us and that light, and you will walk into it up
|
|
to your neck unless I take you round."
|
|
|
|
"But the light is at the inn, and there is no quag
|
|
in front of that."
|
|
|
|
"No, the light is below the inn some two or three hundred yards."
|
|
|
|
"Never mind," said Thomasin hurriedly. "Go towards
|
|
the light, and not towards the inn."
|
|
|
|
"Yes," answered Venn, swerving round in obedience; and,
|
|
after a pause, "I wish you would tell me what this great
|
|
trouble is. I think you have proved that I can be trusted."
|
|
|
|
"There are some things that cannot be--cannot be told to--"
|
|
And then her heart rose into her throat, and she could say
|
|
no more.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
9 - Sights and Sounds Draw the Wanderers Together
|
|
|
|
|
|
Having seen Eustacia's signal from the hill at eight
|
|
o'clock, Wildeve immediately prepared to assist her
|
|
in her flight, and, as he hoped, accompany her. He was
|
|
somewhat perturbed, and his manner of informing Thomasin
|
|
that he was going on a journey was in itself sufficient
|
|
to rouse her suspicions. When she had gone to bed he
|
|
collected the few articles he would require, and went
|
|
upstairs to the money-chest, whence he took a tolerably
|
|
bountiful sum in notes, which had been advanced to him
|
|
on the property he was so soon to have in possession,
|
|
to defray expenses incidental to the removal.
|
|
|
|
He then went to the stable and coach-house to assure
|
|
himself that the horse, gig, and harness were in a fit
|
|
condition for a long drive. Nearly half an hour
|
|
was spent thus, and on returning to the house Wildeve
|
|
had no thought of Thomasin being anywhere but in bed.
|
|
He had told the stable lad not to stay up, leading the boy
|
|
to understand that his departure would be at three or four
|
|
in the morning; for this, though an exceptional hour,
|
|
was less strange than midnight, the time actually agreed on,
|
|
the packet from Budmouth sailing between one and two.
|
|
|
|
At last all was quiet, and he had nothing to do but to wait.
|
|
By no effort could he shake off the oppression of spirits
|
|
which he had experienced ever since his last meeting
|
|
with Eustacia, but he hoped there was that in his
|
|
situation which money could cure. He had persuaded
|
|
himself that to act not ungenerously towards his gentle
|
|
wife by settling on her the half of his property,
|
|
and with chivalrous devotion towards another and greater
|
|
woman by sharing her fate, was possible. And though he
|
|
meant to adhere to Eustacia's instructions to the letter,
|
|
to deposit her where she wished and to leave her,
|
|
should that be her will, the spell that she had cast
|
|
over him intensified, and his heart was beating fast
|
|
in the anticipated futility of such commands in the face
|
|
of a mutual wish that they should throw in their lot together.
|
|
|
|
He would not allow himself to dwell long upon these conjectures,
|
|
maxims, and hopes, and at twenty minutes to twelve he
|
|
again went softly to the stable, harnessed the horse,
|
|
and lit the lamps; whence, taking the horse by the head,
|
|
he led him with the covered car out of the yard
|
|
to a spot by the roadside some quarter of a mile below the inn.
|
|
|
|
Here Wildeve waited, slightly sheltered from the driving
|
|
rain by a high bank that had been cast up at this place.
|
|
Along the surface of the road where lit by the lamps
|
|
the loosened gravel and small stones scudded and clicked
|
|
together before the wind, which, leaving them in heaps,
|
|
plunged into the heath and boomed across the bushes
|
|
into darkness. Only one sound rose above this din
|
|
of weather, and that was the roaring of a ten-hatch weir
|
|
to the southward, from a river in the meads which formed
|
|
the boundary of the heath in this direction.
|
|
|
|
He lingered on in perfect stillness till he began to fancy
|
|
that the midnight hour must have struck. A very strong
|
|
doubt had arisen in his mind if Eustacia would venture
|
|
down the hill in such weather; yet knowing her nature he
|
|
felt that she might. "Poor thing! 'tis like her ill-luck,"
|
|
he murmured.
|
|
|
|
At length he turned to the lamp and looked at his watch.
|
|
To his surprise it was nearly a quarter past midnight.
|
|
He now wished that he had driven up the circuitous road
|
|
to Mistover, a plan not adopted because of the enormous
|
|
length of the route in proportion to that of the pedestrian's
|
|
path down the open hillside, and the consequent increase
|
|
of labour for the horse.
|
|
|
|
At this moment a footstep approached; but the light
|
|
of the lamps being in a different direction the comer
|
|
was not visible. The step paused, then came on again.
|
|
|
|
"Eustacia?" said Wildeve.
|
|
|
|
The person came forward, and the light fell upon
|
|
the form of Clym, glistening with wet, whom Wildeve
|
|
immediately recognized; but Wildeve, who stood behind
|
|
the lamp, was not at once recognized by Yeobright.
|
|
|
|
He stopped as if in doubt whether this waiting vehicle could
|
|
have anything to do with the flight of his wife or not.
|
|
The sight of Yeobright at once banished Wildeve's
|
|
sober feelings, who saw him again as the deadly rival
|
|
from whom Eustacia was to be kept at all hazards.
|
|
Hence Wildeve did not speak, in the hope that Clym would
|
|
pass by without particular inquiry.
|
|
|
|
While they both hung thus in hesitation a dull sound
|
|
became audible above the storm and wind. Its origin was
|
|
unmistakable--it was the fall of a body into the stream
|
|
in the adjoining mead, apparently at a point near the weir.
|
|
|
|
Both started. "Good God! can it be she?" said Clym.
|
|
|
|
"Why should it be she?" said Wildeve, in his alarm
|
|
forgetting that he had hitherto screened himself.
|
|
|
|
"Ah!--that's you, you traitor, is it?" cried Yeobright.
|
|
"Why should it be she? Because last week she would have
|
|
put an end to her life if she had been able. She ought
|
|
to have been watched! Take one of the lamps and come
|
|
with me."
|
|
|
|
Yeobright seized the one on his side and hastened on;
|
|
Wildeve did not wait to unfasten the other, but followed
|
|
at once along the meadow track to the weir, a little in
|
|
the rear of Clym.
|
|
|
|
Shadwater Weir had at its foot a large circular pool,
|
|
fifty feet in diameter, into which the water flowed
|
|
through ten huge hatches, raised and lowered by a winch
|
|
and cogs in the ordinary manner. The sides of the pool
|
|
were of masonry, to prevent the water from washing away
|
|
the bank; but the force of the stream in winter was
|
|
sometimes such as to undermine the retaining wall and
|
|
precipitate it into the hole. Clym reached the hatches,
|
|
the framework of which was shaken to its foundations
|
|
by the velocity of the current. Nothing but the froth
|
|
of the waves could be discerned in the pool below.
|
|
He got upon the plank bridge over the race, and holding
|
|
to the rail, that the wind might not blow him off,
|
|
crossed to the other side of the river. There he leant
|
|
over the wall and lowered the lamp, only to behold the
|
|
vortex formed at the curl of the returning current.
|
|
|
|
Wildeve meanwhile had arrived on the former side, and the
|
|
light from Yeobright's lamp shed a flecked and agitated
|
|
radiance across the weir pool, revealing to the ex-engineer
|
|
the tumbling courses of the currents from the hatches above.
|
|
Across this gashed and puckered mirror a dark body
|
|
was slowly borne by one of the backward currents.
|
|
|
|
"O, my darling!" exclaimed Wildeve in an agonized voice;
|
|
and, without showing sufficient presence of mind even
|
|
to throw off his greatcoat, he leaped into the boiling caldron.
|
|
|
|
Yeobright could now also discern the floating body,
|
|
though but indistinctly; and imagining from Wildeve's
|
|
plunge that there was life to be saved he was about
|
|
to leap after. Bethinking himself of a wiser plan,
|
|
he placed the lamp against a post to make it stand upright,
|
|
and running round to the lower part of the pool,
|
|
where there was no wall, he sprang in and boldly waded
|
|
upwards towards the deeper portion. Here he was taken
|
|
off his legs, and in swimming was carried round into the
|
|
centre of the basin, where he perceived Wildeve struggling.
|
|
|
|
While these hasty actions were in progress here,
|
|
Venn and Thomasin had been toiling through the lower
|
|
corner of the heath in the direction of the light.
|
|
They had not been near enough to the river to hear
|
|
the plunge, but they saw the removal of the carriage lamp,
|
|
and watched its motion into the mead. As soon as they
|
|
reached the car and horse Venn guessed that something
|
|
new was amiss, and hastened to follow in the course
|
|
of the moving light. Venn walked faster than Thomasin,
|
|
and came to the weir alone.
|
|
|
|
The lamp placed against the post by Clym still shone
|
|
across the water, and the reddleman observed something
|
|
floating motionless. Being encumbered with the infant,
|
|
he ran back to meet Thomasin.
|
|
|
|
"Take the baby, please, Mrs. Wildeve," he said hastily.
|
|
"Run home with her, call the stable lad, and make him send
|
|
down to me any men who may be living near. Somebody has
|
|
fallen into the weir."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin took the child and ran. When she came to the
|
|
covered car the horse, though fresh from the stable,
|
|
was standing perfectly still, as if conscious of misfortune.
|
|
She saw for the first time whose it was. She nearly fainted,
|
|
and would have been unable to proceed another step
|
|
but that the necessity of preserving the little girl
|
|
from harm nerved her to an amazing self-control. In this
|
|
agony of suspense she entered the house, put the baby
|
|
in a place of safety, woke the lad and the female domestic,
|
|
and ran out to give the alarm at the nearest cottage.
|
|
|
|
Diggory, having returned to the brink of the pool, observed
|
|
that the small upper hatches or floats were withdrawn.
|
|
He found one of these lying upon the grass, and taking
|
|
it under one arm, and with his lantern in his hand,
|
|
entered at the bottom of the pool as Clym had done.
|
|
As soon as he began to be in deep water he flung himself
|
|
across the hatch; thus supported he was able to keep
|
|
afloat as long as he chose, holding the lantern aloft
|
|
with his disengaged hand. Propelled by his feet,
|
|
he steered round and round the pool, ascending each time
|
|
by one of the back streams and descending in the middle
|
|
of the current.
|
|
|
|
At first he could see nothing. Then amidst the
|
|
glistening of the whirlpools and the white clots of foam
|
|
he distinguished a woman's bonnet floating alone.
|
|
His search was now under the left wall, when something
|
|
came to the surface almost close beside him. It was not,
|
|
as he had expected, a woman, but a man. The reddleman
|
|
put the ring of the lantern between his teeth, seized the
|
|
floating man by the collar, and, holding on to the hatch
|
|
with his remaining arm, struck out into the strongest race,
|
|
by which the unconscious man, the hatch, and himself were
|
|
carried down the stream. As soon as Venn found his feet
|
|
dragging over the pebbles of the shallower part below
|
|
he secured his footing and waded towards the brink.
|
|
There, where the water stood at about the height of
|
|
his waist, he flung away the hatch, and attempted to drag
|
|
forth the man. This was a matter of great difficulty,
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and he found as the reason that the legs of the unfortunate
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stranger were tightly embraced by the arms of another man,
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who had hitherto been entirely beneath the surface.
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At this moment his heart bounded to hear footsteps
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running towards him, and two men, roused by Thomasin,
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appeared at the brink above. They ran to where Venn was,
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and helped him in lifting out the apparently drowned persons,
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separating them, and laying them out upon the grass.
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Venn turned the light upon their faces. The one who had
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been uppermost was Yeobright; he who had been completely
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submerged was Wildeve.
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"Now we must search the hole again," said Venn.
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"A woman is in there somewhere. Get a pole."
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One of the men went to the footbridge and tore off the handrail.
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The reddleman and the two others then entered the water
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together from below as before, and with their united
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force probed the pool forwards to where it sloped down
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to its central depth. Venn was not mistaken in supposing
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that any person who had sunk for the last time would
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be washed down to this point, for when they had examined
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to about halfway across something impeded their thrust.
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"Pull it forward," said Venn, and they raked it in with
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the pole till it was close to their feet.
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Venn vanished under the stream, and came up with an
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armful of wet drapery enclosing a woman's cold form,
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which was all that remained of the desperate Eustacia.
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When they reached the bank there stood Thomasin, in a
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stress of grief, bending over the two unconscious ones
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who already lay there. The horse and cart were brought
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to the nearest point in the road, and it was the work
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of a few minutes only to place the three in the vehicle.
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Venn led on the horse, supporting Thomasin upon his arm,
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and the two men followed, till they reached the inn.
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The woman who had been shaken out of her sleep by Thomasin
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had hastily dressed herself and lighted a fire, the other
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servant being left to snore on in peace at the back
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of the house. The insensible forms of Eustacia, Clym,
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and Wildeve were then brought in and laid on the carpet,
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with their feet to the fire, when such restorative
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processes as could be thought of were adopted at once,
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the stableman being in the meantime sent for a doctor.
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But there seemed to be not a whiff of life in either
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of the bodies. Then Thomasin, whose stupor of grief
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|
had been thrust off awhile by frantic action, applied a
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bottle of hartshorn to Clym's nostrils, having tried
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it in vain upon the other two. He sighed.
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"Clym's alive!" she exclaimed.
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He soon breathed distinctly, and again and again did
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she attempt to revive her husband by the same means;
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but Wildeve gave no sign. There was too much reason
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to think that he and Eustacia both were for ever beyond
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the reach of stimulating perfumes. Their exertions did
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|
not relax till the doctor arrived, when one by one,
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the senseless three were taken upstairs and put into
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warm beds.
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Venn soon felt himself relieved from further attendance,
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|
and went to the door, scarcely able yet to realize the strange
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catastrophe that had befallen the family in which he took
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so great an interest. Thomasin surely would be broken
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|
down by the sudden and overwhelming nature of this event.
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|
No firm and sensible Mrs. Yeobright lived now to support
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the gentle girl through the ordeal; and, whatever an
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unimpassioned spectator might think of her loss
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of such a husband as Wildeve, there could be no doubt
|
|
that for the moment she was distracted and horrified
|
|
by the blow. As for himself, not being privileged to go
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|
to her and comfort her, he saw no reason for waiting
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|
longer in a house where he remained only as a stranger.
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He returned across the heath to his van. The fire was
|
|
not yet out, and everything remained as he had left it.
|
|
Venn now bethought himself of his clothes, which were
|
|
saturated with water to the weight of lead. He changed them,
|
|
spread them before the fire, and lay down to sleep.
|
|
But it was more than he could do to rest here while excited
|
|
by a vivid imagination of the turmoil they were in at the
|
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house he had quitted, and, blaming himself for coming away,
|
|
he dressed in another suit, locked up the door, and again
|
|
hastened across to the inn. Rain was still falling heavily
|
|
when he entered the kitchen. A bright fire was shining
|
|
from the hearth, and two women were bustling about,
|
|
one of whom was Olly Dowden.
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|
"Well, how is it going on now?" said Venn in a whisper.
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|
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|
"Mr. Yeobright is better; but Mrs. Yeobright
|
|
and Mr. Wildeve are dead and cold. The doctor
|
|
says they were quite gone before they were out of the water."
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|
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|
"Ah! I thought as much when I hauled 'em up. And Mrs. Wildeve?"
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"She is as well as can be expected. The doctor had
|
|
her put between blankets, for she was almost as wet
|
|
as they that had been in the river, poor young thing.
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|
You don't seem very dry, reddleman."
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|
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"Oh, 'tis not much. I have changed my things. This is
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|
only a little dampness I've got coming through the rain again."
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|
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"Stand by the fire. Mis'ess says you be to have whatever
|
|
you want, and she was sorry when she was told that you'd
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|
gone away."
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|
|
|
Venn drew near to the fireplace, and looked into the flames
|
|
in an absent mood. The steam came from his leggings
|
|
and ascended the chimney with the smoke, while he thought
|
|
of those who were upstairs. Two were corpses, one had barely
|
|
escaped the jaws of death, another was sick and a widow.
|
|
The last occasion on which he had lingered by that fireplace
|
|
was when the raffle was in progress; when Wildeve was alive
|
|
and well; Thomasin active and smiling in the next room;
|
|
Yeobright and Eustacia just made husband and wife,
|
|
and Mrs. Yeobright living at Blooms-End. It had seemed at that
|
|
time that the then position of affairs was good for at least
|
|
twenty years to come. Yet, of all the circle, he himself
|
|
was the only one whose situation had not materially changed.
|
|
|
|
While he ruminated a footstep descended the stairs.
|
|
It was the nurse, who brought in her hand a rolled mass
|
|
of wet paper. The woman was so engrossed with her occupation
|
|
that she hardly saw Venn. She took from a cupboard some
|
|
pieces of twine, which she strained across the fireplace,
|
|
tying the end of each piece to the firedog, previously pulled
|
|
forward for the purpose, and, unrolling the wet papers,
|
|
she began pinning them one by one to the strings in a
|
|
manner of clothes on a line.
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|
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|
"What be they?" said Venn.
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|
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|
"Poor master's banknotes," she answered. "They were found
|
|
in his pocket when they undressed him."
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|
|
|
"Then he was not coming back again for some time?"
|
|
said Venn.
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|
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|
"That we shall never know," said she.
|
|
|
|
Venn was loth to depart, for all on earth that interested
|
|
him lay under this roof. As nobody in the house had any
|
|
more sleep that night, except the two who slept for ever,
|
|
there was no reason why he should not remain. So he retired
|
|
into the niche of the fireplace where he had used to sit,
|
|
and there he continued, watching the steam from the double
|
|
row of banknotes as they waved backwards and forwards
|
|
in the draught of the chimney till their flaccidity
|
|
was changed to dry crispness throughout. Then the woman
|
|
came and unpinned them, and, folding them together,
|
|
carried the handful upstairs. Presently the doctor
|
|
appeared from above with the look of a man who could do
|
|
no more, and, pulling on his gloves, went out of the house,
|
|
the trotting of his horse soon dying away upon the road.
|
|
|
|
At four o'clock there was a gentle knock at the door.
|
|
It was from Charley, who had been sent by Captain Vye
|
|
to inquire if anything had been heard of Eustacia.
|
|
The girl who admitted him looked in his face as if she
|
|
did not know what answer to return, and showed him in to
|
|
where Venn was seated, saying to the reddleman, "Will you
|
|
tell him, please?"
|
|
|
|
Venn told. Charley's only utterance was a feeble,
|
|
indistinct sound. He stood quite still; then he burst
|
|
out spasmodically, "I shall see her once more?"
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|
|
|
"I dare say you may see her," said Diggory gravely.
|
|
"But hadn't you better run and tell Captain Vye?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes, yes. Only I do hope I shall see her just once again."
|
|
|
|
"You shall," said a low voice behind; and starting
|
|
round they beheld by the dim light, a thin, pallid,
|
|
almost spectral form, wrapped in a blanket, and looking
|
|
like Lazarus coming from the tomb.
|
|
|
|
It was Yeobright. Neither Venn nor Charley spoke,
|
|
and Clym continued, "You shall see her. There will be
|
|
time enough to tell the captain when it gets daylight.
|
|
You would like to see her too--would you not, Diggory? She
|
|
looks very beautiful now."
|
|
|
|
Venn assented by rising to his feet, and with Charley
|
|
he followed Clym to the foot of the staircase,
|
|
where he took off his boots; Charley did the same.
|
|
They followed Yeobright upstairs to the landing, where there
|
|
was a candle burning, which Yeobright took in his hand,
|
|
and with it led the way into an adjoining room.
|
|
Here he went to the bedside and folded back the sheet.
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|
|
|
They stood silently looking upon Eustacia, who, as she lay
|
|
there still in death, eclipsed all her living phases.
|
|
Pallor did not include all the quality of her complexion,
|
|
which seemed more than whiteness; it was almost light.
|
|
The expression of her finely carved mouth was pleasant,
|
|
as if a sense of dignity had just compelled her to leave
|
|
off speaking. Eternal rigidity had seized upon it in a
|
|
momentary transition between fervour and resignation.
|
|
Her black hair was looser now than either of them had ever
|
|
seen it before, and surrounded her brow like a forest.
|
|
The stateliness of look which had been almost too marked
|
|
for a dweller in a country domicile had at last found an
|
|
artistically happy background.
|
|
|
|
Nobody spoke, till at length Clym covered
|
|
her and turned aside. "Now come here," he said.
|
|
|
|
They went to a recess in the same room, and there,
|
|
on a smaller bed, lay another figure--Wildeve. Less repose
|
|
was visible in his face than in Eustacia's, but the same
|
|
luminous youthfulness overspread it, and the least
|
|
sympathetic observer would have felt at sight of him
|
|
now that he was born for a higher destiny than this.
|
|
The only sign upon him of his recent struggle for life
|
|
was in his fingertips, which were worn and sacrificed
|
|
in his dying endeavours to obtain a hold on the face
|
|
of the weir-wall.
|
|
|
|
Yeobright's manner had been so quiet, he had uttered so
|
|
few syllables since his reappearance, that Venn imagined
|
|
him resigned. It was only when they had left the room
|
|
and stood upon the landing that the true state of his
|
|
mind was apparent. Here he said, with a wild smile,
|
|
inclining his head towards the chamber in which Eustacia lay,
|
|
"She is the second woman I have killed this year.
|
|
I was a great cause of my mother's death, and I am
|
|
the chief cause of hers."
|
|
|
|
"How?" said Venn.
|
|
|
|
"I spoke cruel words to her, and she left my house.
|
|
I did not invite her back till it was too late. It is I who
|
|
ought to have drowned myself. It would have been a charity
|
|
to the living had the river overwhelmed me and borne her up.
|
|
But I cannot die. Those who ought to have lived lie dead;
|
|
and here am I alive!"
|
|
|
|
"But you can't charge yourself with crimes in that way,"
|
|
said Venn. "You may as well say that the parents be the
|
|
cause of a murder by the child, for without the parents
|
|
the child would never have been begot."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, Venn, that is very true; but you don't know
|
|
all the circumstances. If it had pleased God to put
|
|
an end to me it would have been a good thing for all.
|
|
But I am getting used to the horror of my existence.
|
|
They say that a time comes when men laugh at misery through
|
|
long acquaintance with it. Surely that time will soon
|
|
come to me!"
|
|
|
|
"Your aim has always been good," said Venn. "Why should
|
|
you say such desperate things?"
|
|
|
|
"No, they are not desperate. They are only hopeless;
|
|
and my great regret is that for what I have done no man
|
|
or law can punish me!"
|
|
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|
book six
|
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AFTERCOURSES
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1 - The Inevitable Movement Onward
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|
|
|
The story of the deaths of Eustacia and Wildeve was told
|
|
throughout Egdon, and far beyond, for many weeks and months.
|
|
All the known incidents of their love were enlarged,
|
|
distorted, touched up, and modified, till the original
|
|
reality bore but a slight resemblance to the counterfeit
|
|
presentation by surrounding tongues. Yet, upon the whole,
|
|
neither the man nor the woman lost dignity by sudden death.
|
|
Misfortune had struck them gracefully, cutting off their erratic
|
|
histories with a catastrophic dash, instead of, as with many,
|
|
attenuating each life to an uninteresting meagreness,
|
|
through long years of wrinkles, neglect, and decay.
|
|
|
|
On those most nearly concerned the effect was somewhat different.
|
|
Strangers who had heard of many such cases now merely
|
|
heard of one more; but immediately where a blow falls
|
|
no previous imaginings amount to appreciable preparation
|
|
for it. The very suddenness of her bereavement dulled,
|
|
to some extent, Thomasin's feelings; yet irrationally enough,
|
|
a consciousness that the husband she had lost ought
|
|
to have been a better man did not lessen her mourning
|
|
at all. On the contrary, this fact seemed at first
|
|
to set off the dead husband in his young wife's eyes,
|
|
and to be the necessary cloud to the rainbow.
|
|
|
|
But the horrors of the unknown had passed. Vague misgivings
|
|
about her future as a deserted wife were at an end.
|
|
The worst had once been matter of trembling conjecture;
|
|
it was now matter of reason only, a limited badness.
|
|
Her chief interest, the little Eustacia, still remained.
|
|
There was humility in her grief, no defiance in her attitude;
|
|
and when this is the case a shaken spirit is apt to
|
|
be stilled.
|
|
|
|
Could Thomasin's mournfulness now and Eustacia's serenity during
|
|
life have been reduced to common measure, they would have
|
|
touched the same mark nearly. But Thomasin's former brightness
|
|
made shadow of that which in a sombre atmosphere was light itself.
|
|
|
|
The spring came and calmed her; the summer came and soothed her;
|
|
the autumn arrived, and she began to be comforted,
|
|
for her little girl was strong and happy, growing in size
|
|
and knowledge every day. Outward events flattered Thomasin
|
|
not a little. Wildeve had died intestate, and she and
|
|
the child were his only relatives. When administration
|
|
had been granted, all the debts paid, and the residue
|
|
of her husband's uncle's property had come into her hands,
|
|
it was found that the sum waiting to be invested for her own
|
|
and the child's benefit was little less than ten thousand pounds.
|
|
|
|
Where should she live? The obvious place was Blooms-End.
|
|
The old rooms, it is true, were not much higher than the
|
|
between-decks of a frigate, necessitating a sinking in the
|
|
floor under the new clock-case she brought from the inn,
|
|
and the removal of the handsome brass knobs on its head,
|
|
before there was height for it to stand; but, such as
|
|
the rooms were, there were plenty of them, and the place
|
|
was endeared to her by every early recollection.
|
|
Clym very gladly admitted her as a tenant, confining his own
|
|
existence to two rooms at the top of the back staircase,
|
|
where he lived on quietly, shut off from Thomasin and
|
|
the three servants she had thought fit to indulge in now
|
|
that she was a mistress of money, going his own ways,
|
|
and thinking his own thoughts.
|
|
|
|
His sorrows had made some change in his outward appearance;
|
|
and yet the alteration was chiefly within. It might have
|
|
been said that he had a wrinkled mind. He had no enemies,
|
|
and he could get nobody to reproach him, which was why he
|
|
so bitterly reproached himself.
|
|
|
|
He did sometimes think he had been ill-used by fortune,
|
|
so far as to say that to be born is a palpable dilemma,
|
|
and that instead of men aiming to advance in life
|
|
with glory they should calculate how to retreat out
|
|
of it without shame. But that he and his had been
|
|
sarcastically and pitilessly handled in having such
|
|
irons thrust into their souls he did not maintain long.
|
|
It is usually so, except with the sternest of men.
|
|
Human beings, in their generous endeavour to construct
|
|
a hypothesis that shall not degrade a First Cause,
|
|
have always hesitated to conceive a dominant power of lower
|
|
moral quality than their own; and, even while they sit
|
|
down and weep by the waters of Babylon, invent excuses
|
|
for the oppression which prompts their tears.
|
|
|
|
Thus, though words of solace were vainly uttered in
|
|
his presence, he found relief in a direction of his own
|
|
choosing when left to himself. For a man of his habits
|
|
the house and the hundred and twenty pounds a year which he
|
|
had inherited from his mother were enough to supply all
|
|
worldly needs. Resources do not depend upon gross amounts,
|
|
but upon the proportion of spendings to takings.
|
|
|
|
He frequently walked the heath alone, when the past
|
|
seized upon him with its shadowy hand, and held him
|
|
there to listen to its tale. His imagination would then
|
|
people the spot with its ancient inhabitants--forgotten
|
|
Celtic tribes trod their tracks about him, and he could
|
|
almost live among them, look in their faces, and see
|
|
them standing beside the barrows which swelled around,
|
|
untouched and perfect as at the time of their erection.
|
|
Those of the dyed barbarians who had chosen the cultivable
|
|
tracts were, in comparison with those who had left their
|
|
marks here, as writers on paper beside writers on parchment.
|
|
Their records had perished long ago by the plough,
|
|
while the works of these remained. Yet they all had lived
|
|
and died unconscious of the different fates awaiting
|
|
their relics. It reminded him that unforeseen factors
|
|
operate in the evolution of immortality.
|
|
|
|
Winter again came round, with its winds, frosts, tame robins,
|
|
and sparkling starlight. The year previous Thomasin had
|
|
hardly been conscious of the season's advance; this year she
|
|
laid her heart open to external influences of every kind.
|
|
The life of this sweet cousin, her baby, and her servants,
|
|
came to Clym's senses only in the form of sounds through
|
|
a wood partition as he sat over books of exceptionally
|
|
large type; but his ear became at last so accustomed
|
|
to these slight noises from the other part of the house
|
|
that he almost could witness the scenes they signified.
|
|
A faint beat of half-seconds conjured up Thomasin rocking
|
|
the cradle, a wavering hum meant that she was singing the
|
|
baby to sleep, a crunching of sand as between millstones
|
|
raised the picture of Humphrey's, Fairway's, or Sam's
|
|
heavy feet crossing the stone floor of the kitchen;
|
|
a light boyish step, and a gay tune in a high key,
|
|
betokened a visit from Grandfer Cantle; a sudden break-off
|
|
in the Grandfer's utterances implied the application to
|
|
his lips of a mug of small beer, a bustling and slamming
|
|
of doors meant starting to go to market; for Thomasin,
|
|
in spite of her added scope of gentility, led a ludicrously
|
|
narrow life, to the end that she might save every possible
|
|
pound for her little daughter.
|
|
|
|
One summer day Clym was in the garden, immediately outside
|
|
the parlour window, which was as usual open. He was looking
|
|
at the pot-flowers on the sill; they had been revived
|
|
and restored by Thomasin to the state in which his mother
|
|
had left them. He heard a slight scream from Thomasin,
|
|
who was sitting inside the room.
|
|
|
|
"O, how you frightened me!" she said to someone who
|
|
had entered. "I thought you were the ghost of yourself."
|
|
|
|
Clym was curious enough to advance a little further
|
|
and look in at the window. To his astonishment
|
|
there stood within the room Diggory Venn, no longer
|
|
a reddleman, but exhibiting the strangely altered hues
|
|
of an ordinary Christian countenance, white shirt-front,
|
|
light flowered waistcoat, blue-spotted neckerchief,
|
|
and bottle-green coat. Nothing in this appearance was at
|
|
all singular but the fact of its great difference from
|
|
what he had formerly been. Red, and all approach to red,
|
|
was carefully excluded from every article of clothes upon him;
|
|
for what is there that persons just out of harness dread
|
|
so much as reminders of the trade which has enriched them?
|
|
|
|
Yeobright went round to the door and entered.
|
|
|
|
"I was so alarmed!" said Thomasin, smiling from one to
|
|
the other. "I couldn't believe that he had got white
|
|
of his own accord! It seemed supernatural."
|
|
|
|
"I gave up dealing in reddle last Christmas," said Venn.
|
|
"It was a profitable trade, and I found that by that
|
|
time I had made enough to take the dairy of fifty cows
|
|
that my father had in his lifetime. I always thought
|
|
of getting to that place again if I changed at all,
|
|
and now I am there."
|
|
|
|
"How did you manage to become white, Diggory?" Thomasin asked.
|
|
|
|
"I turned so by degrees, ma'am."
|
|
|
|
"You look much better than ever you did before."
|
|
|
|
Venn appeared confused; and Thomasin, seeing how
|
|
inadvertently she had spoken to a man who might possibly
|
|
have tender feelings for her still, blushed a little.
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Clym saw nothing of this, and added good-humouredly--
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"What shall we have to frighten Thomasin's baby with,
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now you have become a human being again?"
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"Sit down, Diggory," said Thomasin, "and stay to tea."
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Venn moved as if he would retire to the kitchen,
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when Thomasin said with pleasant pertness as she went
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on with some sewing, "Of course you must sit down here.
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And where does your fifty-cow dairy lie, Mr. Venn?"
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"At Stickleford--about two miles to the right of Alderworth,
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ma'am, where the meads begin. I have thought that if
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Mr. Yeobright would like to pay me a visit sometimes he
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shouldn't stay away for want of asking. I'll not bide
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to tea this afternoon, thank'ee, for I've got something
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on hand that must be settled. 'Tis Maypole-day tomorrow,
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and the Shadwater folk have clubbed with a few of your
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neighbours here to have a pole just outside your palings
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in the heath, as it is a nice green place." Venn waved
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his elbow towards the patch in front of the house.
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"I have been talking to Fairway about it," he continued,
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"and I said to him that before we put up the pole it would
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be as well to ask Mrs. Wildeve."
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"I can say nothing against it," she answered. "Our property
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does not reach an inch further than the white palings."
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"But you might not like to see a lot of folk going crazy
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round a stick, under your very nose?"
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"I shall have no objection at all."
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Venn soon after went away, and in the evening Yeobright
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strolled as far as Fairway's cottage. It was a lovely
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May sunset, and the birch trees which grew on this margin
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of the vast Egdon wilderness had put on their new leaves,
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delicate as butterflies' wings, and diaphanous as amber.
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Beside Fairway's dwelling was an open space recessed
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from the road, and here were now collected all the young
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people from within a radius of a couple of miles.
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The pole lay with one end supported on a trestle, and women
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were engaged in wreathing it from the top downwards with
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wild-flowers. The instincts of merry England lingered on
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here with exceptional vitality, and the symbolic customs
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which tradition has attached to each season of the year
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were yet a reality on Egdon. Indeed, the impulses of all
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such outlandish hamlets are pagan still--in these spots
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homage to nature, self-adoration, frantic gaieties,
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fragments of Teutonic rites to divinities whose names
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are forgotten, seem in some way or other to have survived
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mediaeval doctrine.
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Yeobright did not interrupt the preparations, and went
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home again. The next morning, when Thomasin withdrew
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the curtains of her bedroom window, there stood the Maypole
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in the middle of the green, its top cutting into the sky.
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It had sprung up in the night, or rather early morning,
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like Jack's bean-stalk. She opened the casement to get
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a better view of the garlands and posies that adorned it.
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The sweet perfume of the flowers had already spread into
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the surrounding air, which, being free from every taint,
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conducted to her lips a full measure of the fragrance
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received from the spire of blossom in its midst.
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At the top of the pole were crossed hoops decked with
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small flowers; beneath these came a milk-white zone
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of Maybloom; then a zone of bluebells, then of cowslips,
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then of lilacs, then of ragged-robins, daffodils, and so on,
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till the lowest stage was reached. Thomasin noticed
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all these, and was delighted that the May revel was to be
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so near.
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When afternoon came people began to gather on the green,
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and Yeobright was interested enough to look out upon
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them from the open window of his room. Soon after this
|
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Thomasin walked out from the door immediately below and
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turned her eyes up to her cousin's face. She was dressed
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more gaily than Yeobright had ever seen her dressed
|
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since the time of Wildeve's death, eighteen months before;
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since the day of her marriage even she had not exhibited
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herself to such advantage.
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|
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"How pretty you look today, Thomasin!" he said.
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|
"Is it because of the Maypole?"
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"Not altogether." And then she blushed and dropped her eyes,
|
|
which he did not specially observe, though her manner
|
|
seemed to him to be rather peculiar, considering that
|
|
she was only addressing himself. Could it be possible
|
|
that she had put on her summer clothes to please him?
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|
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|
He recalled her conduct towards him throughout
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|
the last few weeks, when they had often been working
|
|
together in the garden, just as they had formerly done
|
|
when they were boy and girl under his mother's eye.
|
|
What if her interest in him were not so entirely that
|
|
of a relative as it had formerly been? To Yeobright any
|
|
possibility of this sort was a serious matter; and he
|
|
almost felt troubled at the thought of it. Every pulse
|
|
of loverlike feeling which had not been stilled during
|
|
Eustacia's lifetime had gone into the grave with her.
|
|
His passion for her had occurred too far on in his
|
|
manhood to leave fuel enough on hand for another fire
|
|
of that sort, as may happen with more boyish loves.
|
|
Even supposing him capable of loving again, that love
|
|
would be a plant of slow and laboured growth, and in
|
|
the end only small and sickly, like an autumn-hatched bird.
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|
|
|
He was so distressed by this new complexity that when the
|
|
enthusiastic brass band arrived and struck up, which it
|
|
did about five o'clock, with apparently wind enough
|
|
among its members to blow down his house, he withdrew
|
|
from his rooms by the back door, went down the garden,
|
|
through the gate in the hedge, and away out of sight.
|
|
He could not bear to remain in the presence of enjoyment today,
|
|
though he had tried hard.
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|
|
|
Nothing was seen of him for four hours. When he came back
|
|
by the same path it was dusk, and the dews were coating
|
|
every green thing. The boisterous music had ceased;
|
|
but, entering the premises as he did from behind, he could
|
|
not see if the May party had all gone till he had passed
|
|
through Thomasin's division of the house to the front door.
|
|
Thomasin was standing within the porch alone.
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|
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|
She looked at him reproachfully. "You went away just
|
|
when it began, Clym," she said.
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|
|
|
"Yes. I felt I could not join in. You went out with them,
|
|
of course?"
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|
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|
"No, I did not."
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|
|
|
"You appeared to be dressed on purpose."
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|
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|
"Yes, but I could not go out alone; so many people
|
|
were there. One is there now."
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|
|
|
Yeobright strained his eyes across the dark-green patch
|
|
beyond the paling, and near the black form of the Maypole he
|
|
discerned a shadowy figure, sauntering idly up and down.
|
|
"Who is it?" he said.
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|
|
|
"Mr. Venn," said Thomasin.
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|
|
|
"You might have asked him to come in, I think, Tamsie.
|
|
He has been very kind to you first and last."
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|
|
|
"I will now," she said; and, acting on the impulse,
|
|
went through the wicket to where Venn stood under the Maypole.
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|
|
|
"It is Mr. Venn, I think?" she inquired.
|
|
|
|
Venn started as if he had not seen her--artful man that he
|
|
was--and said, "Yes."
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|
|
|
"Will you come in?"
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|
|
|
"I am afraid that I--"
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|
|
|
"I have seen you dancing this evening, and you had
|
|
the very best of the girls for your partners. Is it
|
|
that you won't come in because you wish to stand here,
|
|
and think over the past hours of enjoyment?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, that's partly it," said Mr. Venn,
|
|
with ostentatious sentiment. "But the main reason
|
|
why I am biding here like this is that I want to wait till the
|
|
moon rises."
|
|
|
|
"To see how pretty the Maypole looks in the moonlight?"
|
|
|
|
"No. To look for a glove that was dropped by one of the maidens."
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|
|
|
Thomasin was speechless with surprise. That a man who had
|
|
to walk some four or five miles to his home should wait
|
|
here for such a reason pointed to only one conclusion--the
|
|
man must be amazingly interested in that glove's owner.
|
|
|
|
"Were you dancing with her, Diggory?" she asked,
|
|
in a voice which revealed that he had made himself
|
|
considerably more interesting to her by this disclosure.
|
|
|
|
"No," he sighed.
|
|
|
|
"And you will not come in, then?"
|
|
|
|
"Not tonight, thank you, ma'am."
|
|
|
|
"Shall I lend you a lantern to look for the young
|
|
person's glove, Mr. Venn?"
|
|
|
|
"O no; it is not necessary, Mrs. Wildeve, thank you.
|
|
The moon will rise in a few minutes."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin went back to the porch. "Is he coming in?"
|
|
said Clym, who had been waiting where she had left him.
|
|
|
|
"He would rather not tonight," she said, and then passed
|
|
by him into the house; whereupon Clym too retired to his
|
|
own rooms.
|
|
|
|
When Clym was gone Thomasin crept upstairs in the dark, and,
|
|
just listening by the cot, to assure herself that the child
|
|
was asleep, she went to the window, gently lifted the corner
|
|
of the white curtain, and looked out. Venn was still there.
|
|
She watched the growth of the faint radiance appearing
|
|
in the sky by the eastern hill, till presently the edge
|
|
of the moon burst upwards and flooded the valley with light.
|
|
Diggory's form was now distinct on the green; he was moving
|
|
about in a bowed attitude, evidently scanning the grass
|
|
for the precious missing article, walking in zigzags right
|
|
and left till he should have passed over every foot of the ground.
|
|
|
|
"How very ridiculous!" Thomasin murmured to herself,
|
|
in a tone which was intended to be satirical. "To think
|
|
that a man should be so silly as to go mooning about
|
|
like that for a girl's glove! A respectable dairyman,
|
|
too, and a man of money as he is now. What a pity!"
|
|
|
|
At last Venn appeared to find it; whereupon he stood
|
|
up and raised it to his lips. Then placing it in his
|
|
breastpocket--the nearest receptacle to a man's heart
|
|
permitted by modern raiment--he ascended the valley
|
|
in a mathematically direct line towards his distant
|
|
home in the meadows.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
2 - Thomasin Walks in a Green Place by the Roman Road
|
|
|
|
|
|
Clym saw little of Thomasin for several days after this;
|
|
and when they met she was more silent than usual. At length
|
|
he asked her what she was thinking of so intently.
|
|
|
|
"I am thoroughly perplexed," she said candidly.
|
|
"I cannot for my life think who it is that Diggory Venn
|
|
is so much in love with. None of the girls at the Maypole
|
|
were good enough for him, and yet she must have been there."
|
|
|
|
Clym tried to imagine Venn's choice for a moment;
|
|
but ceasing to be interested in the question he went
|
|
on again with his gardening.
|
|
|
|
No clearing up of the mystery was granted her for some time.
|
|
But one afternoon Thomasin was upstairs getting ready
|
|
for a walk, when she had occasion to come to the landing
|
|
and call "Rachel." Rachel was a girl about thirteen,
|
|
who carried the baby out for airings; and she came upstairs
|
|
at the call.
|
|
|
|
"Have you seen one of my last new gloves about the house,
|
|
Rachel?" inquired Thomasin. "It is the fellow to this one."
|
|
|
|
Rachel did not reply.
|
|
|
|
"Why don't you answer?" said her mistress.
|
|
|
|
"I think it is lost, ma'am."
|
|
|
|
"Lost? Who lost it? I have never worn them but once."
|
|
|
|
Rachel appeared as one dreadfully troubled, and at last
|
|
began to cry. "Please, ma'am, on the day of the Maypole
|
|
I had none to wear, and I seed yours on the table,
|
|
and I thought I would borrow 'em. I did not mean
|
|
to hurt 'em at all, but one of them got lost.
|
|
Somebody gave me some money to buy another pair for you,
|
|
but I have not been able to go anywhere to get 'em."
|
|
|
|
"Who's somebody?"
|
|
|
|
"Mr. Venn."
|
|
|
|
"Did he know it was my glove?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes. I told him."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin was so surprised by the explanation that she quite
|
|
forgot to lecture the girl, who glided silently away.
|
|
Thomasin did not move further than to turn her eyes
|
|
upon the grass-plat where the Maypole had stood.
|
|
She remained thinking, then said to herself that she
|
|
would not go out that afternoon, but would work hard at
|
|
the baby's unfinished lovely plaid frock, cut on the cross
|
|
in the newest fashion. How she managed to work hard,
|
|
and yet do no more than she had done at the end of
|
|
two hours, would have been a mystery to anyone not aware
|
|
that the recent incident was of a kind likely to divert
|
|
her industry from a manual to a mental channel.
|
|
|
|
Next day she went her ways as usual, and continued her
|
|
custom of walking in the heath with no other companion
|
|
than little Eustacia, now of the age when it is a matter
|
|
of doubt with such characters whether they are intended
|
|
to walk through the world on their hands or on their feet;
|
|
so that they get into painful complications by trying both.
|
|
It was very pleasant to Thomasin, when she had carried
|
|
the child to some lonely place, to give her a little
|
|
private practice on the green turf and shepherd's-thyme,
|
|
which formed a soft mat to fall headlong upon them when
|
|
equilibrium was lost.
|
|
|
|
Once, when engaged in this system of training, and stooping
|
|
to remove bits of stick, fern-stalks, and other such
|
|
fragments from the child's path, that the journey might not
|
|
be brought to an untimely end by some insuperable barrier
|
|
a quarter of an inch high, she was alarmed by discovering
|
|
that a man on horseback was almost close beside her,
|
|
the soft natural carpet having muffled the horse's tread.
|
|
The rider, who was Venn, waved his hat in the air
|
|
and bowed gallantly.
|
|
|
|
"Diggory, give me my glove," said Thomasin, whose manner
|
|
it was under any circumstances to plunge into the midst
|
|
of a subject which engrossed her.
|
|
|
|
Venn immediately dismounted, put his hand in his breastpocket,
|
|
and handed the glove.
|
|
|
|
"Thank you. It was very good of you to take care of it."
|
|
|
|
"It is very good of you to say so."
|
|
|
|
"O no. I was quite glad to find you had it. Everybody gets
|
|
so indifferent that I was surprised to know you thought
|
|
of me."
|
|
|
|
"If you had remembered what I was once you wouldn't
|
|
have been surprised."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, no," she said quickly. "But men of your character
|
|
are mostly so independent."
|
|
|
|
"What is my character?" he asked.
|
|
|
|
"I don't exactly know," said Thomasin simply, "except it
|
|
is to cover up your feelings under a practical manner,
|
|
and only to show them when you are alone."
|
|
|
|
"Ah, how do you know that?" said Venn strategically.
|
|
|
|
"Because," said she, stopping to put the little girl,
|
|
who had managed to get herself upside down, right end
|
|
up again, "because I do."
|
|
|
|
"You mustn't judge by folks in general," said Venn.
|
|
"Still I don't know much what feelings are nowadays.
|
|
I have got so mixed up with business of one sort and t'other
|
|
that my soft sentiments are gone off in vapour like.
|
|
Yes, I am given up body and soul to the making of money.
|
|
Money is all my dream."
|
|
|
|
"O Diggory, how wicked!" said Thomasin reproachfully,
|
|
and looking at him in exact balance between taking his
|
|
words seriously and judging them as said to tease her.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, 'tis rather a rum course," said Venn, in the bland
|
|
tone of one comfortably resigned to sins he could
|
|
no longer overcome.
|
|
|
|
"You, who used to be so nice!"
|
|
|
|
"Well, that's an argument I rather like, because what a
|
|
man has once been he may be again." Thomasin blushed.
|
|
"Except that it is rather harder now," Venn continued.
|
|
|
|
"Why?" she asked.
|
|
|
|
"Because you be richer than you were at that time."
|
|
|
|
"O no--not much. I have made it nearly all over to the baby,
|
|
as it was my duty to do, except just enough to live on."
|
|
|
|
"I am rather glad of that," said Venn softly, and regarding
|
|
her from the corner of his eye, "for it makes it easier
|
|
for us to be friendly."
|
|
|
|
Thomasin blushed again, and, when a few more words
|
|
had been said of a not unpleasing kind, Venn mounted
|
|
his horse and rode on.
|
|
|
|
This conversation had passed in a hollow of the heath near
|
|
the old Roman road, a place much frequented by Thomasin.
|
|
And it might have been observed that she did not in future
|
|
walk that way less often from having met Venn there now.
|
|
Whether or not Venn abstained from riding thither because
|
|
he had met Thomasin in the same place might easily have
|
|
been guessed from her proceedings about two months later
|
|
in the same year.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
3 - The Serious Discourse of Clym with His Cousin
|
|
|
|
|
|
Throughout this period Yeobright had more or less pondered
|
|
on his duty to his cousin Thomasin. He could not help
|
|
feeling that it would be a pitiful waste of sweet
|
|
material if the tender-natured thing should be doomed
|
|
from this early stage of her life onwards to dribble
|
|
away her winsome qualities on lonely gorse and fern.
|
|
But he felt this as an economist merely, and not as a lover.
|
|
His passion for Eustacia had been a sort of conserve
|
|
of his whole life, and he had nothing more of that supreme
|
|
quality left to bestow. So far the obvious thing was
|
|
not to entertain any idea of marriage with Thomasin,
|
|
even to oblige her.
|
|
|
|
But this was not all. Years ago there had been in his
|
|
mother's mind a great fancy about Thomasin and himself.
|
|
It had not positively amounted to a desire, but it had
|
|
always been a favourite dream. That they should be man
|
|
and wife in good time, if the happiness of neither
|
|
were endangered thereby, was the fancy in question.
|
|
So that what course save one was there now left for any son
|
|
who reverenced his mother's memory as Yeobright did? It
|
|
is an unfortunate fact that any particular whim of parents,
|
|
which might have been dispersed by half an hour's
|
|
conversation during their lives, becomes sublimated
|
|
by their deaths into a fiat the most absolute, with such
|
|
results to conscientious children as those parents,
|
|
had they lived, would have been the first to decry.
|
|
|
|
Had only Yeobright's own future been involved he would
|
|
have proposed to Thomasin with a ready heart. He had
|
|
nothing to lose by carrying out a dead mother's hope.
|
|
But he dreaded to contemplate Thomasin wedded to the mere
|
|
corpse of a lover that he now felt himself to be.
|
|
He had but three activities alive in him. One was his
|
|
almost daily walk to the little graveyard wherein his
|
|
mother lay, another, his just as frequent visits by night
|
|
to the more distant enclosure which numbered his Eustacia
|
|
among its dead; the third was self-preparation for a vocation
|
|
which alone seemed likely to satisfy his cravings--that
|
|
of an itinerant preacher of the eleventh commandment.
|
|
It was difficult to believe that Thomasin would be cheered
|
|
by a husband with such tendencies as these.
|
|
|
|
Yet he resolved to ask her, and let her decide for herself.
|
|
It was even with a pleasant sense of doing his duty that
|
|
he went downstairs to her one evening for this purpose,
|
|
when the sun was printing on the valley the same long
|
|
shadow of the housetop that he had seen lying there times
|
|
out of number while his mother lived.
|
|
|
|
Thomasin was not in her room, and he found her in the
|
|
front garden. "I have long been wanting, Thomasin,"
|
|
he began, "to say something about a matter that concerns
|
|
both our futures."
|
|
|
|
"And you are going to say it now?" she remarked quickly,
|
|
colouring as she met his gaze. "Do stop a minute, Clym,
|
|
and let me speak first, for oddly enough, I have been
|
|
wanting to say something to you."
|
|
|
|
"By all means say on, Tamsie."
|
|
|
|
"I suppose nobody can overhear us?" she went on, casting her
|
|
eyes around and lowering her voice. "Well, first you
|
|
will promise me this--that you won't be angry and call
|
|
me anything harsh if you disagree with what I propose?"
|
|
|
|
Yeobright promised, and she continued: "What I want
|
|
is your advice, for you are my relation--I mean, a sort
|
|
of guardian to me--aren't you, Clym?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, yes, I suppose I am; a sort of guardian. In fact,
|
|
I am, of course," he said, altogether perplexed as to
|
|
her drift.
|
|
|
|
"I am thinking of marrying," she then observed blandly.
|
|
"But I shall not marry unless you assure me that you approve
|
|
of such a step. Why don't you speak?"
|
|
|
|
"I was taken rather by surprise. But, nevertheless, I am
|
|
very glad to hear such news. I shall approve, of course,
|
|
dear Tamsie. Who can it be? I am quite at a loss to guess.
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No I am not--'tis the old doctor!--not that I mean to call
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him old, for he is not very old after all. Ah--I noticed
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when he attended you last time!"
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"No, no," she said hastily. "'Tis Mr. Venn."
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Clym's face suddenly became grave.
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"There, now, you don't like him, and I wish I hadn't
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mentioned him!" she exclaimed almost petulantly.
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"And I shouldn't have done it, either, only he keeps
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on bothering me so till I don't know what to do!"
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Clym looked at the heath. "I like Venn well enough,"
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he answered at last. "He is a very honest and at the same
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time astute man. He is clever too, as is proved by his
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having got you to favour him. But really, Thomasin, he is
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not quite--"
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"Gentleman enough for me? That is just what I feel.
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I am sorry now that I asked you, and I won't think any
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more of him. At the same time I must marry him if I marry
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anybody--that I WILL say!"
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"I don't see that," said Clym, carefully concealing every
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clue to his own interrupted intention, which she plainly
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had not guessed. "You might marry a professional man,
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or somebody of that sort, by going into the town to live
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and forming acquaintances there."
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"I am not fit for town life--so very rural and silly
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as I always have been. Do not you yourself notice
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my countrified ways?"
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"Well, when I came home from Paris I did, a little;
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but I don't now."
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"That's because you have got countrified too. O, I couldn't
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live in a street for the world! Egdon is a ridiculous
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old place; but I have got used to it, and I couldn't
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be happy anywhere else at all."
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"Neither could I," said Clym.
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"Then how could you say that I should marry some town man?
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I am sure, say what you will, that I must marry Diggory,
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if I marry at all. He has been kinder to me than anybody else,
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and has helped me in many ways that I don't know of!"
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Thomasin almost pouted now.
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"Yes, he has," said Clym in a neutral tone. "Well, I
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wish with all my heart that I could say, marry him.
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But I cannot forget what my mother thought on that matter,
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and it goes rather against me not to respect her opinion.
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There is too much reason why we should do the little we can
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to respect it now."
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"Very well, then," sighed Thomasin. "I will say no more."
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"But you are not bound to obey my wishes. I merely say
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what I think."
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"O no--I don't want to be rebellious in that way,"
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she said sadly. "I had no business to think of him--I
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ought to have thought of my family. What dreadfully bad
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impulses there are in me!" Her lips trembled, and she
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turned away to hide a tear.
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Clym, though vexed at what seemed her unaccountable taste,
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was in a measure relieved to find that at any rate the
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marriage question in relation to himself was shelved.
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Through several succeeding days he saw her at different
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times from the window of his room moping disconsolately
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about the garden. He was half angry with her for
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choosing Venn; then he was grieved at having put himself
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in the way of Venn's happiness, who was, after all,
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as honest and persevering a young fellow as any on Egdon,
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since he had turned over a new leaf. In short, Clym did
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not know what to do.
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When next they met she said abruptly, "He is much more
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respectable now than he was then!"
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"Who? O yes--Diggory Venn."
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"Aunt only objected because he was a reddleman."
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"Well, Thomasin, perhaps I don't know all the particulars
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of my mother's wish. So you had better use your own discretion."
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"You will always feel that I slighted your mother's memory."
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"No, I will not. I shall think you are convinced that,
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had she seen Diggory in his present position, she would
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have considered him a fitting husband for you.
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Now, that's my real feeling. Don't consult me any more,
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but do as you like, Thomasin. I shall be content."
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It is to be supposed that Thomasin was convinced;
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for a few days after this, when Clym strayed into a part
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|
of the heath that he had not lately visited, Humphrey,
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who was at work there, said to him, "I am glad to see
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that Mrs. Wildeve and Venn have made it up again, seemingly."
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"Have they?" said Clym abstractedly.
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"Yes; and he do contrive to stumble upon her whenever she
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walks out on fine days with the chiel. But, Mr. Yeobright,
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I can't help feeling that your cousin ought to have
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married you. 'Tis a pity to make two chimleycorners
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where there need be only one. You could get her away from
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him now, 'tis my belief, if you were only to set about it."
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"How can I have the conscience to marry after having
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driven two women to their deaths? Don't think such
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|
a thing, Humphrey. After my experience I should consider it
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|
too much of a burlesque to go to church and take a wife.
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|
In the words of Job, 'I have made a covenant with mine eyes;
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when then should I think upon a maid?'"
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"No, Mr. Clym, don't fancy that about driving two women
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to their deaths. You shouldn't say it."
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"Well, we'll leave that out," said Yeobright. "But anyhow
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God has set a mark upon me which wouldn't look well
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in a love-making scene. I have two ideas in my head,
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|
and no others. I am going to keep a night-school;
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and I am going to turn preacher. What have you got to say
|
|
to that, Humphrey?"
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"I'll come and hear 'ee with all my heart."
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"Thanks. 'Tis all I wish."
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As Clym descended into the valley Thomasin came
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down by the other path, and met him at the gate.
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"What do you think I have to tell you, Clym?" she said,
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looking archly over her shoulder at him.
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"I can guess," he replied.
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She scrutinized his face. "Yes, you guess right.
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|
It is going to be after all. He thinks I may as well
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make up my mind, and I have got to think so too.
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|
It is to be on the twenty-fifth of next month, if you
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|
don't object."
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"Do what you think right, dear. I am only too glad that you
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|
see your way clear to happiness again. My sex owes you
|
|
every amends for the treatment you received in days gone by."*
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* The writer may state here that the original conception
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|
of the story did not design a marriage between Thomasin
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and Venn. He was to have retained his isolated and weird
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|
character to the last, and to have disappeared mysteriously
|
|
from the heath, nobody knowing whither--Thomasin remaining
|
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a widow. But certain circumstances of serial publication
|
|
led to a change of intent.
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|
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|
Readers can therefore choose between the endings,
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|
and those with an austere artistic code can assume
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the more consistent conclusion to be the true one.
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4 - Cheerfulness Again Asserts Itself at Blooms-End,
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and Clym Finds His Vocation
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Anybody who had passed through Blooms-End about eleven
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|
o'clock on the morning fixed for the wedding would have
|
|
found that, while Yeobright's house was comparatively quiet,
|
|
sounds denoting great activity came from the dwelling
|
|
of his nearest neighbour, Timothy Fairway. It was chiefly
|
|
a noise of feet, briskly crunching hither and thither over
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|
the sanded floor within. One man only was visible outside,
|
|
and he seemed to be later at an appointment than he
|
|
had intended to be, for he hastened up to the door,
|
|
lifted the latch, and walked in without ceremony.
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|
The scene within was not quite the customary one.
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|
Standing about the room was the little knot of men who formed
|
|
the chief part of the Egdon coterie, there being present
|
|
Fairway himself, Grandfer Cantle, Humphrey, Christian, and one
|
|
or two turf-cutters. It was a warm day, and the men were as
|
|
a matter of course in their shirtsleeves, except Christian,
|
|
who had always a nervous fear of parting with a scrap
|
|
of his clothing when in anybody's house but his own.
|
|
Across the stout oak table in the middle of the room
|
|
was thrown a mass of striped linen, which Grandfer
|
|
Cantle held down on one side, and Humphrey on the other,
|
|
while Fairway rubbed its surface with a yellow lump,
|
|
his face being damp and creased with the effort of the labour.
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|
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|
"Waxing a bed-tick, souls?" said the newcomer.
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|
"Yes, Sam," said Grandfer Cantle, as a man too busy to
|
|
waste words. "Shall I stretch this corner a shade tighter, Timothy?"
|
|
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|
Fairway replied, and the waxing went on with unabated vigour.
|
|
"'Tis going to be a good bed, by the look o't," continued Sam,
|
|
after an interval of silence. "Who may it be for?"
|
|
|
|
"'Tis a present for the new folks that's going to set
|
|
up housekeeping," said Christian, who stood helpless
|
|
and overcome by the majesty of the proceedings.
|
|
|
|
"Ah, to be sure; and a valuable one, 'a b'lieve."
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|
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|
"Beds be dear to fokes that don't keep geese, bain't they,
|
|
Mister Fairway?" said Christian, as to an omniscient being.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," said the furze-dealer, standing up, giving his
|
|
forehead a thorough mopping, and handing the beeswax
|
|
to Humphrey, who succeeded at the rubbing forthwith.
|
|
"Not that this couple be in want of one, but 'twas well
|
|
to show 'em a bit of friendliness at this great racketing
|
|
vagary of their lives. I set up both my own daughters
|
|
in one when they was married, and there have been feathers
|
|
enough for another in the house the last twelve months.
|
|
Now then, neighbours, I think we have laid on enough wax.
|
|
Grandfer Cantle, you turn the tick the right way outwards,
|
|
and then I'll begin to shake in the feathers."
|
|
|
|
When the bed was in proper trim Fairway and Christian
|
|
brought forward vast paper bags, stuffed to the full,
|
|
but light as balloons, and began to turn the contents
|
|
of each into the receptacle just prepared. As bag
|
|
after bag was emptied, airy tufts of down and feathers
|
|
floated about the room in increasing quantity till,
|
|
through a mishap of Christian's, who shook the contents
|
|
of one bag outside the tick, the atmosphere of the room
|
|
became dense with gigantic flakes, which descended upon
|
|
the workers like a windless snowstorm.
|
|
|
|
"I never saw such a clumsy chap as you, Christian,"
|
|
said Grandfer Cantle severely. "You might have been
|
|
the son of a man that's never been outside Blooms-End
|
|
in his life for all the wit you have. Really all the
|
|
soldiering and smartness in the world in the father seems
|
|
to count for nothing in forming the nater of the son.
|
|
As far as that chief Christian is concerned I might as well
|
|
have stayed at home and seed nothing, like all the rest
|
|
of ye here. Though, as far as myself is concerned,
|
|
a dashing spirit has counted for sommat, to be sure!"
|
|
|
|
"Don't ye let me down so, Father; I feel no bigger
|
|
than a ninepin after it. I've made but a bruckle hit,
|
|
I'm afeard."
|
|
|
|
"Come, come. Never pitch yerself in such a low key
|
|
as that, Christian; you should try more," said Fairway.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you should try more," echoed the Grandfer
|
|
with insistence, as if he had been the first to make
|
|
the suggestion. "In common conscience every man ought
|
|
either to marry or go for a soldier. 'Tis a scandal
|
|
to the nation to do neither one nor t'other. I did both,
|
|
thank God! Neither to raise men nor to lay 'em low--
|
|
that shows a poor do-nothing spirit indeed."
|
|
|
|
"I never had the nerve to stand fire," faltered Christian.
|
|
"But as to marrying, I own I've asked here and there,
|
|
though without much fruit from it. Yes, there's some house
|
|
or other that might have had a man for a master--such
|
|
as he is--that's now ruled by a woman alone. Still it
|
|
might have been awkward if I had found her; for, d'ye see,
|
|
neighbours, there'd have been nobody left at home to keep
|
|
down Father's spirits to the decent pitch that becomes
|
|
a old man."
|
|
|
|
"And you've your work cut out to do that, my son,"
|
|
said Grandfer Cantle smartly. "I wish that the dread
|
|
of infirmities was not so strong in me!--I'd start the
|
|
very first thing tomorrow to see the world over again!
|
|
But seventy-one, though nothing at home, is a high figure
|
|
for a rover....Ay, seventy-one, last Candlemasday.
|
|
Gad, I'd sooner have it in guineas than in years!"
|
|
And the old man sighed.
|
|
|
|
"Don't you be mournful, Grandfer," said Fairway. "Empt some
|
|
more feathers into the bed-tick, and keep up yer heart.
|
|
Though rather lean in the stalks you be a green-leaved old
|
|
man still. There's time enough left to ye yet to fill
|
|
whole chronicles."
|
|
|
|
"Begad, I'll go to 'em, Timothy--to the married pair!"
|
|
said Granfer Cantle in an encouraged voice, and starting
|
|
round briskly. "I'll go to 'em tonight and sing
|
|
a wedding song, hey? 'Tis like me to do so, you know;
|
|
and they'd see it as such. My 'Down in Cupid's Gardens'
|
|
was well liked in four; still, I've got others as good,
|
|
and even better. What do you say to my
|
|
|
|
|
|
She cal'-led to' her love'
|
|
From the lat'-tice a-bove,
|
|
'O come in' from the fog-gy fog'-gy dew'.'
|
|
|
|
|
|
'Twould please 'em well at such a time! Really,
|
|
now I come to think of it, I haven't turned my tongue
|
|
in my head to the shape of a real good song since Old
|
|
Midsummer night, when we had the 'Barley Mow' at the Woman;
|
|
and 'tis a pity to neglect your strong point where there's
|
|
few that have the compass for such things!"
|
|
|
|
"So 'tis, so 'tis," said Fairway. "Now gie the bed a
|
|
shake down. We've put in seventy pounds of best feathers,
|
|
and I think that's as many as the tick will fairly hold.
|
|
A bit and a drap wouldn't be amiss now, I reckon.
|
|
Christian, maul down the victuals from corner-cupboard
|
|
if canst reach, man, and I'll draw a drap o' sommat to wet
|
|
it with."
|
|
|
|
They sat down to a lunch in the midst of their work,
|
|
feathers around, above, and below them; the original
|
|
owners of which occasionally came to the open door
|
|
and cackled begrudgingly at sight of such a quantity
|
|
of their old clothes.
|
|
|
|
"Upon my soul I shall be chokt," said Fairway when,
|
|
having extracted a feather from his mouth, he found several
|
|
others floating on the mug as it was handed round.
|
|
|
|
"I've swallered several; and one had a tolerable quill,"
|
|
said Sam placidly from the corner.
|
|
|
|
"Hullo--what's that--wheels I hear coming?" Grandfer Cantle
|
|
exclaimed, jumping up and hastening to the door. "Why, 'tis
|
|
they back again--I didn't expect 'em yet this half-hour.
|
|
To be sure, how quick marrying can be done when you are in the
|
|
mind for't!"
|
|
|
|
"O yes, it can soon be DONE," said Fairway, as if
|
|
something should be added to make the statement complete.
|
|
|
|
He arose and followed the Grandfer, and the rest also went
|
|
to the door. In a moment an open fly was driven past,
|
|
in which sat Venn and Mrs. Venn, Yeobright, and a grand
|
|
relative of Venn's who had come from Budmouth for
|
|
the occasion. The fly had been hired at the nearest town,
|
|
regardless of distance and cost, there being nothing on
|
|
Egdon Heath, in Venn's opinion, dignified enough for such
|
|
an event when such a woman as Thomasin was the bride;
|
|
and the church was too remote for a walking bridal-party.
|
|
|
|
As the fly passed the group which had run out from the
|
|
homestead they shouted "Hurrah!" and waved their hands;
|
|
feathers and down floating from their hair, their sleeves,
|
|
and the folds of their garments at every motion,
|
|
and Grandfer Cantle's seals dancing merrily in the sunlight
|
|
as he twirled himself about. The driver of the fly turned
|
|
a supercilious gaze upon them; he even treated the wedded
|
|
pair themselves with something like condescension;
|
|
for in what other state than heathen could people,
|
|
rich or poor, exist who were doomed to abide in such a
|
|
world's end as Egdon? Thomasin showed no such superiority
|
|
to the group at the door, fluttering her hand as quickly
|
|
as a bird's wing towards them, and asking Diggory,
|
|
with tears in her eyes, if they ought not to alight and speak
|
|
to these kind neighbours. Venn, however, suggested that,
|
|
as they were all coming to the house in the evening,
|
|
this was hardly necessary.
|
|
|
|
After this excitement the saluting party returned to
|
|
their occupation, and the stuffing and sewing were soon
|
|
afterwards finished, when Fairway harnessed a horse,
|
|
wrapped up the cumbrous present, and drove off with it
|
|
in the cart to Venn's house at Stickleford.
|
|
|
|
|
|
Yeobright, having filled the office at the wedding
|
|
service which naturally fell to his hands, and afterwards
|
|
returned to the house with the husband and wife,
|
|
was indisposed to take part in the feasting and dancing
|
|
that wound up the evening. Thomasin was disappointed.
|
|
|
|
"I wish I could be there without dashing your spirits,"
|
|
he said. "But I might be too much like the skull at
|
|
the banquet."
|
|
|
|
"No, no."
|
|
|
|
"Well, dear, apart from that, if you would excuse me,
|
|
I should be glad. I know it seems unkind; but, dear Thomasin,
|
|
I fear I should not be happy in the company--there,
|
|
that's the truth of it. I shall always be coming to see
|
|
you at your new home, you know, so that my absence now
|
|
will not matter."
|
|
|
|
"Then I give in. Do whatever will be most comfortable
|
|
to yourself."
|
|
|
|
Clym retired to his lodging at the housetop much relieved,
|
|
and occupied himself during the afternoon in noting
|
|
down the heads of a sermon, with which he intended to
|
|
initiate all that really seemed practicable of the scheme
|
|
that had originally brought him hither, and that he
|
|
had so long kept in view under various modifications,
|
|
and through evil and good report. He had tested and weighed
|
|
his convictions again and again, and saw no reason to
|
|
alter them, though he had considerably lessened his plan.
|
|
His eyesight, by long humouring in his native air,
|
|
had grown stronger, but not sufficiently strong to warrant
|
|
his attempting his extensive educational project.
|
|
Yet he did not repine--there was still more than enough
|
|
of an unambitious sort to tax all his energies and occupy
|
|
all his hours.
|
|
|
|
Evening drew on, and sounds of life and movement in
|
|
the lower part of the domicile became more pronounced,
|
|
the gate in the palings clicking incessantly. The party was
|
|
to be an early one, and all the guests were assembled long
|
|
before it was dark. Yeobright went down the back staircase
|
|
and into the heath by another path than that in front,
|
|
intending to walk in the open air till the party was over,
|
|
when he would return to wish Thomasin and her husband good-bye
|
|
as they departed. His steps were insensibly bent towards
|
|
Mistover by the path that he had followed on that terrible
|
|
morning when he learnt the strange news from Susan's boy.
|
|
|
|
He did not turn aside to the cottage, but pushed on to an eminence,
|
|
whence he could see over the whole quarter that had once been
|
|
Eustacia's home. While he stood observing the darkening
|
|
scene somebody came up. Clym, seeing him but dimly,
|
|
would have let him pass silently, had not the pedestrian,
|
|
who was Charley, recognized the young man and spoken to him.
|
|
|
|
"Charley, I have not seen you for a length of time,"
|
|
said Yeobright. "Do you often walk this way?"
|
|
|
|
"No," the lad replied. "I don't often come outside
|
|
the bank."
|
|
|
|
"You were not at the Maypole."
|
|
|
|
"No," said Charley, in the same listless tone. "I don't
|
|
care for that sort of thing now."
|
|
|
|
"You rather liked Miss Eustacia, didn't you?"
|
|
Yeobright gently asked. Eustacia had frequently
|
|
told him of Charley's romantic attachment.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, very much. Ah, I wish--"
|
|
|
|
"Yes?"
|
|
|
|
"I wish, Mr. Yeobright, you could give me something
|
|
to keep that once belonged to her--if you don't mind."
|
|
|
|
"I shall be very happy to. It will give me very
|
|
great pleasure, Charley. Let me think what I have of hers
|
|
that you would like. But come with me to the house,
|
|
and I'll see."
|
|
|
|
They walked towards Blooms-End together. When they reached
|
|
the front it was dark, and the shutters were closed,
|
|
so that nothing of the interior could be seen.
|
|
|
|
"Come round this way," said Clym. "My entrance is at
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the back for the present."
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The two went round and ascended the crooked stair in darkness
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till Clym's sitting-room on the upper floor was reached,
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where he lit a candle, Charley entering gently behind.
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Yeobright searched his desk, and taking out a sheet
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of tissue-paper unfolded from it two or three undulating
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locks of raven hair, which fell over the paper like
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black streams. From these he selected one, wrapped it up,
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and gave it to the lad, whose eyes had filled with tears.
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He kissed the packet, put it in his pocket, and said
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in a voice of emotion, "O, Mr. Clym, how good you are
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to me!"
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"I will go a little way with you," said Clym. And amid
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the noise of merriment from below they descended.
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Their path to the front led them close to a little side window,
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whence the rays of candles streamed across the shrubs.
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The window, being screened from general observation
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by the bushes, had been left unblinded, so that a person
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in this private nook could see all that was going on
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within the room which contained the wedding guests,
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except in so far as vision was hindered by the green
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antiquity of the panes.
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"Charley, what are they doing?" said Clym. "My sight
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is weaker again tonight, and the glass of this window
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is not good."
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Charley wiped his own eyes, which were rather blurred
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with moisture, and stepped closer to the casement.
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"Mr. Venn is asking Christian Cantle to sing," he replied,
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"and Christian is moving about in his chair as if he were
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much frightened at the question, and his father has struck
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up a stave instead of him."
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"Yes, I can hear the old man's voice," said Clym.
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"So there's to be no dancing, I suppose. And is Thomasin
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in the room? I see something moving in front of the candles
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that resembles her shape, I think."
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"Yes. She do seem happy. She is red in the face,
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and laughing at something Fairway has said to her.
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O my!"
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"What noise was that?" said Clym.
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"Mr. Venn is so tall that he knocked his head against
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the beam in gieing a skip as he passed under. Mrs. Venn
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has run up quite frightened and now she's put her hand
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to his head to feel if there's a lump. And now they
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be all laughing again as if nothing had happened."
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"Do any of them seem to care about my not being there?"
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Clym asked.
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"No, not a bit in the world. Now they are all holding
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up their glasses and drinking somebody's health."
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"I wonder if it is mine?"
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"No, 'tis Mr. and Mrs. Venn's, because he is making a
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hearty sort of speech. There--now Mrs. Venn has got up,
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and is going away to put on her things, I think."
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"Well, they haven't concerned themselves about me, and it
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is quite right they should not. It is all as it should be,
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and Thomasin at least is happy. We will not stay any
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longer now, as they will soon be coming out to go home."
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He accompanied the lad into the heath on his way home,
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and, returning alone to the house a quarter of an
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hour later, found Venn and Thomasin ready to start,
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all the guests having departed in his absence.
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The wedded pair took their seats in the four-wheeled
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dogcart which Venn's head milker and handy man had driven
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from Stickleford to fetch them in; little Eustacia and
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the nurse were packed securely upon the open flap behind;
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and the milker, on an ancient overstepping pony, whose shoes
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clashed like cymbals at every tread, rode in the rear,
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in the manner of a body-servant of the last century.
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"Now we leave you in absolute possession of your own
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house again," said Thomasin as she bent down to wish
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her cousin good night. "It will be rather lonely
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for you, Clym, after the hubbub we have been making."
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"O, that's no inconvenience," said Clym, smiling rather sadly.
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And then the party drove off and vanished in the night
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shades, and Yeobright entered the house. The ticking
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of the clock was the only sound that greeted him, for not
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a soul remained; Christian, who acted as cook, valet,
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and gardener to Clym, sleeping at his father's house.
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Yeobright sat down in one of the vacant chairs,
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and remained in thought a long time. His mother's old
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chair was opposite; it had been sat in that evening by
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those who had scarcely remembered that it ever was hers.
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But to Clym she was almost a presence there, now as always.
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Whatever she was in other people's memories, in his she
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was the sublime saint whose radiance even his tenderness
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for Eustacia could not obscure. But his heart was heavy,
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that Mother had NOT crowned him in the day of his
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espousals and in the day of the gladness of his heart.
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And events had borne out the accuracy of her judgment,
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and proved the devotedness of her care. He should have
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heeded her for Eustacia's sake even more than for his own.
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"It was all my fault," he whispered. "O, my mother,
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my mother! would to God that I could live my life again,
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and endure for you what you endured for me!"
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On the Sunday after this wedding an unusual sight was
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to be seen on Rainbarrow. From a distance there simply
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appeared to be a motionless figure standing on the top
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of the tumulus, just as Eustacia had stood on that lonely
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summit some two years and a half before. But now it
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was fine warm weather, with only a summer breeze blowing,
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and early afternoon instead of dull twilight.
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Those who ascended to the immediate neighbourhood of
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the Barrow perceived that the erect form in the centre,
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piercing the sky, was not really alone. Round him upon
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the slopes of the Barrow a number of heathmen and women
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were reclining or sitting at their ease. They listened
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to the words of the man in their midst, who was preaching,
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while they abstractedly pulled heather, stripped ferns,
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or tossed pebbles down the slope. This was the first
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of a series of moral lectures or Sermons on the Mount,
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which were to be delivered from the same place every Sunday
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afternoon as long as the fine weather lasted.
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The commanding elevation of Rainbarrow had been chosen
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for two reasons: first, that it occupied a central position
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among the remote cottages around; secondly, that the
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preacher thereon could be seen from all adjacent points
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as soon as he arrived at his post, the view of him
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being thus a convenient signal to those stragglers
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who wished to draw near. The speaker was bareheaded,
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and the breeze at each waft gently lifted and lowered
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his hair, somewhat too thin for a man of his years,
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these still numbering less than thirty-three.
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He wore a shade over his eyes, and his face was pensive
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and lined; but, though these bodily features were marked
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with decay there was no defect in the tones of his voice,
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which were rich, musical, and stirring. He stated that
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his discourses to people were to be sometimes secular,
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and sometimes religious, but never dogmatic; and that
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his texts would be taken from all kinds of books.
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This afternoon the words were as follows:--
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"'And the king rose up to meet her, and bowed himself unto her,
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and sat down on his throne, and caused a seat to be set
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for the king's mother; and she sat on his right hand.
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Then she said, I desire one small petition of thee;
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I pray thee say me not nay. And the king said unto her,
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Ask, on, my mother: for I will not say thee nay.'"
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Yeobright had, in fact, found his vocation in the career
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of an itinerant open-air preacher and lecturer on morally
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unimpeachable subjects; and from this day he laboured
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incessantly in that office, speaking not only in simple
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language on Rainbarrow and in the hamlets round, but in
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a more cultivated strain elsewhere--from the steps and
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porticoes of town halls, from market-crosses, from conduits,
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|
on esplanades and on wharves, from the parapets of bridges,
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|
in barns and outhouses, and all other such places in the
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neighbouring Wessex towns and villages. He left alone
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creeds and systems of philosophy, finding enough and more
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than enough to occupy his tongue in the opinions and actions
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common to all good men. Some believed him, and some
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believed not; some said that his words were commonplace,
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others complained of his want of theological doctrine;
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while others again remarked that it was well enough
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for a man to take to preaching who could not see to do
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anything else. But everywhere he was kindly received,
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for the story of his life had become generally known.
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