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The Project Gutenberg Etext of The Damnation of Theron Ware
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by Harold Frederic
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PART I
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CHAPTER I
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No such throng had ever before been seen in the building
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during all its eight years of existence. People were
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wedged together most uncomfortably upon the seats;
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they stood packed in the aisles and overflowed the galleries;
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at the back, in the shadows underneath these galleries,
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they formed broad, dense masses about the doors,
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through which it would be hopeless to attempt a passage.
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The light, given out from numerous tin-lined circles
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of flaring gas-jets arranged on the ceiling,
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fell full upon a thousand uplifted faces--some framed
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in bonnets or juvenile curls, others bearded or crowned
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with shining baldness--but all alike under the spell
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of a dominant emotion which held features in abstracted
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suspense and focussed every eye upon a common objective point.
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The excitement of expectancy reigned upon each row
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of countenances, was visible in every attitude--
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nay, seemed a part of the close, overheated atmosphere itself.
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An observer, looking over these compact lines of faces
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and noting the uniform concentration of eagerness
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they exhibited, might have guessed that they were watching
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for either the jury's verdict in some peculiarly absorbing
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criminal trial, or the announcement of the lucky numbers
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in a great lottery. These two expressions seemed
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to alternate, and even to mingle vaguely, upon the
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upturned lineaments of the waiting throng--the hope
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of some unnamed stroke of fortune and the dread of some adverse decree.
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But a glance forward at the object of this universal
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gaze would have sufficed to shatter both hypotheses.
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Here was neither a court of justice nor a tombola.
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It was instead the closing session of the annual
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Nedahma Conference of the Methodist Episcopal Church,
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and the Bishop was about to read out the list
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of ministerial appointments for the coming year.
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This list was evidently written in a hand strange to him,
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and the slow, near-sighted old gentleman, having at last
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sufficiently rubbed the glasses of his spectacles, and then
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adjusted them over his nose with annoying deliberation,
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was now silently rehearsing his task to himself--
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the while the clergymen round about ground their teeth
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and restlessly shuffled their feet in impatience.
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Upon a closer inspection of the assemblage, there were a
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great many of these clergymen. A dozen or more dignified,
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and for the most part elderly, brethren sat grouped
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about the Bishop in the pulpit. As many others,
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not quite so staid in mien, and indeed with here and there
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almost a suggestion of frivolity in their postures,
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were seated on the steps leading down from this platform.
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A score of their fellows sat facing the audience, on chairs
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tightly wedged into the space railed off round the pulpit;
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and then came five or six rows of pews, stretching across
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the whole breadth of the church, and almost solidly filled
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with preachers of the Word.
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There were very old men among these--bent and decrepit
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veterans who had known Lorenzo Dow, and had been ordained
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by elders who remembered Francis Asbury and even Whitefield.
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They sat now in front places, leaning forward with trembling
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and misshapen hands behind their hairy ears, waiting to
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hear their names read out on the superannuated list,
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it might be for the last time.
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The sight of these venerable Fathers in Israel was good
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to the eyes, conjuring up, as it did, pictures of a time
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when a plain and homely people had been served by a fervent
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and devoted clergy--by preachers who lacked in learning
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and polish, no doubt, but who gave their lives without dream
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of earthly reward to poverty and to the danger and wearing toil
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of itinerant missions through the rude frontier settlements.
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These pictures had for their primitive accessories log-huts,
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rough household implements, coarse clothes, and patched
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old saddles which told of weary years of journeying;
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but to even the least sympathetic vision there shone
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upon them the glorified light of the Cross and Crown.
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Reverend survivors of the heroic times, their very
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presence there--sitting meekly at the altar-rail to hear
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again the published record of their uselessness and of their
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dependence upon church charity--was in the nature of a benediction.
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The large majority of those surrounding these patriarchs
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were middle-aged men, generally of a robust type,
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with burly shoulders, and bushing beards framing shaven
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upper lips, and who looked for the most part like honest
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and prosperous farmers attired in their Sunday clothes.
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As exceptions to this rule, there were scattered stray
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specimens of a more urban class, worthies with neatly
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trimmed whiskers, white neckcloths, and even indications
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of hair-oil--all eloquent of citified charges; and now and
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again the eye singled out a striking and scholarly face,
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at once strong and simple, and instinctively referred it
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to the faculty of one of the several theological seminaries
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belonging to the Conference.
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The effect of these faces as a whole was toward goodness,
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candor, and imperturbable self-complacency rather than
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learning or mental astuteness; and curiously enough it wore
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its pleasantest aspect on the countenances of the older men.
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The impress of zeal and moral worth seemed to diminish
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by regular gradations as one passed to younger faces;
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and among the very beginners, who had been ordained only within
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the past day or two, this decline was peculiarly marked.
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It was almost a relief to note the relative smallness
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of their number, so plainly was it to be seen that they
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were not the men their forbears had been.
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And if those aged, worn-out preachers facing the pulpit
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had gazed instead backward over the congregation,
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it may be that here too their old eyes would have detected
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a difference--what at least they would have deemed a decline.
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But nothing was further from the minds of the members of the
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First M. E. Church of Tecumseh than the suggestion that they
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were not an improvement on those who had gone before them.
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They were undoubtedly the smartest and most important
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congregation within the limits of the Nedahma Conference,
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and this new church edifice of theirs represented alike
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a scale of outlay and a standard of progressive taste
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in devotional architecture unique in the Methodism of that
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whole section of the State. They had a right to be proud
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of themselves, too. They belonged to the substantial
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order of the community, with perhaps not so many very rich
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men as the Presbyterians had, but on the other hand
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with far fewer extremely poor folk than the Baptists
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were encumbered with. The pews in the first four rows
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of their church rented for one hundred dollars apiece--
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quite up to the Presbyterian highwater mark--and they
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now had almost abolished free pews altogether. The oyster
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suppers given by their Ladies' Aid Society in the basement
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of the church during the winter had established rank
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among the fashionable events in Tecumseh's social calendar.
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A comprehensive and satisfied perception of these advantages
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was uppermost in the minds of this local audience,
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as they waited for the Bishop to begin his reading.
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They had entertained this Bishop and his Presiding Elders,
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and the rank and file of common preachers, in a style
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which could not have been remotely approached by any
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other congregation in the Conference. Where else,
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one would like to know, could the Bishop have been domiciled
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in a Methodist house where he might have a sitting-room
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all to himself, with his bedroom leading out of it?
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Every clergyman present had been provided for in a
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private residence--even down to the Licensed Exhorters,
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who were not really ministers at all when you came to think
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of it, and who might well thank their stars that the
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Conference had assembled among such open-handed people.
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There existed a dim feeling that these Licensed Exhorters--
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an uncouth crew, with country store-keepers and lumbermen
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and even a horse-doctor among their number--had taken
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rather too much for granted, and were not exhibiting quite
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the proper degree of gratitude over their reception.
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But a more important issue hung now imminent in the balance--
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was Tecumseh to be fairly and honorably rewarded for her
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hospitality by being given the pastor of her choice?
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All were agreed--at least among those who paid pew-rents--
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upon the great importance of a change in the pulpit
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of the First M. E. Church. A change in persons must
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of course take place, for their present pastor had
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exhausted the three-year maximum of the itinerant system,
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but there was needed much more than that. For a handsome
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and expensive church building like this, and with such
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a modern and go-ahead congregation, it was simply a vital
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necessity to secure an attractive and fashionable preacher.
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They had held their own against the Presbyterians
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these past few years only by the most strenuous efforts,
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and under the depressing disadvantage of a minister
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who preached dreary out-of-date sermons, and who lacked
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even the most rudimentary sense of social distinctions.
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The Presbyterians had captured the new cashier of the
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Adams County Bank, who had always gone to the Methodist
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Church in the town he came from, but now was lost
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solely because of this tiresome old fossil of theirs;
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and there were numerous other instances of the same sort,
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scarcely less grievous. That this state of things must
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be altered was clear.
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The unusually large local attendance upon the sessions
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of the Conference had given some of the more guileless
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of visiting brethren a high notion of Tecumseh's piety;
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and perhaps even the most sophisticated stranger never
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quite realized how strictly it was to be explained by the
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anxiety to pick out a suitable champion for the fierce
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Presbyterian competition. Big gatherings assembled evening
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after evening to hear the sermons of those selected to preach,
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and the church had been almost impossibly crowded at each of
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the three Sunday services. Opinions had naturally differed
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a good deal during the earlier stages of this scrutiny,
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but after last night's sermon there could be but one feeling.
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The man for Tecumseh was the Reverend Theron Ware.
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The choice was an admirable one, from points of view much
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more exalted than those of the local congregation.
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You could see Mr. Ware sitting there at the end of the
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row inside the altar-rail--the tall, slender young
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man with the broad white brow, thoughtful eyes,
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and features moulded into that regularity of strength
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which used to characterize the American Senatorial type
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in those far-away days of clean-shaven faces and moderate
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incomes before the War. The bright-faced, comely,
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and vivacious young woman in the second side pew was
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his wife--and Tecumseh noted with approbation that she
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knew how to dress. There were really no two better or
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worthier people in the building than this young couple,
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who sat waiting along with the rest to hear their fate.
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But unhappily they had come to know of the effort being
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made to bring them to Tecumseh; and their simple pride
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in the triumph of the husband's fine sermon had become
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swallowed up in a terribly anxious conflict of hope
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and fear. Neither of them could maintain a satisfactory
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show of composure as the decisive moment approached.
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The vision of translation from poverty and obscurity
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to such a splendid post as this--truly it was too dazzling
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for tranquil nerves.
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The tedious Bishop had at last begun to call his roll
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of names, and the good people of Tecumseh mentally
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|
ticked them off, one by one, as the list expanded.
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|
They felt that it was like this Bishop--an unimportant
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and commonplace figure in Methodism, not to be mentioned
|
|
in the same breath with Simpson and Janes and Kingsley--
|
|
that he should begin with the backwoods counties,
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|
and thrust all these remote and pitifully rustic stations
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ahead of their own metropolitan charge. To these they
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listened but listlessly--indifferent alike to the joy
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|
and to the dismay which he was scattering among the divines
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before him.
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The announcements were being doled out with stumbling hesitation.
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After each one a little half-rustling movement through
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the crowded rows of clergymen passed mute judgment upon
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the cruel blow this brother had received, the reward justly
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given to this other, the favoritism by which a third
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|
had profited. The Presiding Elders, whose work all this was,
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|
stared with gloomy and impersonal abstraction down upon
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the rows of blackcoated humanity spread before them.
|
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The ministers returned this fixed and perfunctory gaze
|
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with pale, set faces, only feebly masking the emotions
|
|
which each new name stirred somewhere among them.
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The Bishop droned on laboriously, mispronouncing words
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and repeating himself as if he were reading a catalogue
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|
of unfamiliar seeds.
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"First church of Tecumseh--Brother Abram G. Tisdale!"
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|
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|
There was no doubt about it! These were actually the
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|
words that had been uttered. After all this outlay,
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all this lavish hospitality, all this sacrifice of time
|
|
and patience in sitting through those sermons, to draw
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from the grab-bag nothing better than--a Tisdale!
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|
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A hum of outraged astonishment--half groan, half wrathful
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|
snort bounded along from pew to pew throughout the body
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|
of the church. An echo of it reached the Bishop, and so
|
|
confused him that he haltingly repeated the obnoxious line.
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|
Every local eye turned as by intuition to where the
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calamitous Tisdale sat, and fastened malignantly upon him.
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|
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|
Could anything be worse? This Brother Tisdale was past fifty--
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|
a spindling, rickety, gaunt old man, with a long horse-like
|
|
head and vacantly solemn face, who kept one or the
|
|
other of his hands continually fumbling his bony jaw.
|
|
He had been withdrawn from routine service for a number
|
|
of years, doing a little insurance canvassing on his
|
|
own account, and also travelling for the Book Concern.
|
|
Now that he wished to return to parochial work, the richest
|
|
prize in the whole list, Tecumseh, was given to him--
|
|
to him who had never been asked to preach at a Conference,
|
|
and whose archaic nasal singing of "Greenland's Icy
|
|
Mountains " had made even the Licensed Exhorters grin!
|
|
It was too intolerably dreadful to think of!
|
|
|
|
An embittered whisper to the effect that Tisdale was
|
|
the Bishop's cousin ran round from pew to pew. This did
|
|
not happen to be true, but indignant Tecumseh gave it
|
|
entire credit. The throngs about the doors dwindled as
|
|
by magic, and the aisles cleared. Local interest was dead;
|
|
and even some of the pewholders rose and made their way out.
|
|
One of these murmured audibly to his neighbors as he
|
|
departed that HIS pew could be had now for sixty dollars.
|
|
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|
So it happened that when, a little later on,
|
|
the appointment of Theron Ware to Octavius was read out,
|
|
none of the people of Tecumseh either noted or cared.
|
|
They had been deeply interested in him so long as it seemed
|
|
likely that he was to come to them--before their clearly
|
|
expressed desire for him had been so monstrously ignored.
|
|
But now what became of him was no earthly concern of theirs.
|
|
|
|
After the Doxology had been sung and the Conference
|
|
formally declared ended, the Wares would fain have escaped
|
|
from the flood of handshakings and boisterous farewells
|
|
which spread over the front part of the church. But the
|
|
clergymen were unusually insistent upon demonstrations of
|
|
cordiality among themselves--the more, perhaps, because it
|
|
was evident that the friendliness of their local hosts
|
|
had suddenly evaporated--and, of all men in the world,
|
|
the present incumbent of the Octavius pulpit now bore
|
|
down upon them with noisy effusiveness, and defied evasion.
|
|
|
|
"Brother Ware--we have never been interduced--but let
|
|
me clasp your hand! And--Sister Ware, I presume--
|
|
yours too!"
|
|
|
|
He was a portly man, who held his head back so that his
|
|
face seemed all jowl and mouth and sandy chin-whisker.
|
|
He smiled broadly upon them with half-closed eyes,
|
|
and shook hands again.
|
|
|
|
"I said to 'em," he went on with loud pretence of heartiness,
|
|
"the minute I heerd your name called out for our
|
|
dear Octavius, "I must go over an' interduce myself."
|
|
It will be a heavy cross to part with those dear people,
|
|
Brother Ware, but if anything could wean me to the notion,
|
|
so to speak, it would be the knowledge that you are to take
|
|
up my labors in their midst. Perhaps--ah--perhaps they
|
|
ARE jest a trifle close in money matters, but they come
|
|
out strong on revivals. They'll need a good deal o'
|
|
stirrin' up about parsonage expenses, but, oh! such
|
|
seasons of grace as we've experienced there together!"
|
|
He shook his head, and closed his eyes altogether,
|
|
as if transported by his memories.
|
|
|
|
Brother Ware smiled faintly in decorous response,
|
|
and bowed in silence; but his wife resented the unctuous
|
|
beaming of content on the other's wide countenance,
|
|
and could not restrain her tongue.
|
|
|
|
"You seem to bear up tolerably well under this heavy cross,
|
|
as you call it," she said sharply.
|
|
|
|
"The will o' the Lord, Sister Ware--the will o' the Lord!"
|
|
he responded, disposed for the instant to put on his
|
|
pompous manner with her, and then deciding to smile again
|
|
as he moved off. The circumstance that he was to get
|
|
an additional three hundred dollars yearly in his new
|
|
place was not mentioned between them.
|
|
|
|
By a mutual impulse the young couple, when they had at last
|
|
gained the cool open air, crossed the street to the side
|
|
where over-hanging trees shaded the infrequent lamps,
|
|
and they might be comparatively alone. The wife had
|
|
taken her husband's arm, and pressed closely upon it
|
|
as they walked. For a time no word passed, but finally
|
|
he said, in a grave voice,--
|
|
|
|
"It is hard upon you, poor girl."
|
|
|
|
Then she stopped short, buried her face against his shoulder,
|
|
and fell to sobbing.
|
|
|
|
He strove with gentle, whispered remonstrance to win
|
|
her from this mood, and after a few moments she lifted
|
|
her head and they resumed their walk, she wiping her eyes
|
|
as they went.
|
|
|
|
"I couldn't keep it in a minute longer!" she said,
|
|
catching her breath between phrases. "Oh, WHY do they
|
|
behave so badly to us, Theron?"
|
|
|
|
He smiled down momentarily upon her as they moved along,
|
|
and patted her hand.
|
|
|
|
"Somebody must have the poor places, Alice," he said consolingly.
|
|
"I am a young man yet, remember. We must take our turn,
|
|
and be patient. For 'we know that all things work together for good.'"
|
|
|
|
"And your sermon was so head-and-shoulders above all
|
|
the others!" she went on breathlessly. "Everybody said so!
|
|
And Mrs. Parshall heard it so DIRECT that you were to
|
|
be sent here, and I know she told everybody how much I
|
|
was lotting on it--I wish we could go right off tonight
|
|
without going to her house--I shall be ashamed to look
|
|
her in the face--and of course she knows we're poked
|
|
off to that miserable Octavius.--Why, Theron, they tell
|
|
me it's a worse place even than we've got now!"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, not at all," he put in reassuringly. "It has
|
|
grown to be a large town--oh, quite twice the size
|
|
of Tyre. It's a great Irish place, I've heard.
|
|
Our own church seems to be a good deal run down there.
|
|
We must build it up again; and the salary is better--
|
|
a little."
|
|
|
|
But he too was depressed, and they walked on toward their
|
|
temporary lodging in a silence full of mutual grief.
|
|
It was not until they had come within sight of this goal
|
|
that he prefaced by a little sigh of resignation these
|
|
further words,--
|
|
|
|
"Come--let us make the best of it, my girl! After all,
|
|
we are in the hands of the Lord."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, don't, Theron!" she said hastily. "Don't talk to me
|
|
about the Lord tonight; I can't bear it!"
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER II
|
|
|
|
|
|
"Theron! Come out here! This is the funniest thing we
|
|
have heard yet!"
|
|
|
|
Mrs. Ware stood on the platform of her new kitchen stoop.
|
|
The bright flood of May-morning sunshine completely enveloped
|
|
her girlish form, clad in a simple, fresh-starched calico gown,
|
|
and shone in golden patches upon her light-brown hair.
|
|
She had a smile on her face, as she looked down at the milk
|
|
boy standing on the bottom step--a smile of a doubtful sort,
|
|
stormily mirthful.
|
|
|
|
"Come out a minute, Theron!" she called again;
|
|
and in obedience to the summons the tall lank figure
|
|
of her husband appeared in the open doorway behind her.
|
|
A long loose, open dressing-gown dangled to his knees,
|
|
and his sallow, clean-shaven, thoughtful face wore a morning
|
|
undress expression of youthful good-nature. He leaned
|
|
against the door-sill, crossed his large carpet slippers,
|
|
and looked up into the sky, drawing a long satisfied breath.
|
|
|
|
"What a beautiful morning!" he exclaimed. "The elms
|
|
over there are full of robins. We must get up earlier
|
|
these mornings, and take some walks."
|
|
|
|
His wife indicated the boy with the milk-pail on his arm,
|
|
by a wave of her hand.
|
|
|
|
"Guess what he tells me!" she said. "It wasn't a mistake
|
|
at all, our getting no milk yesterday or the Sunday before.
|
|
It seems that that's the custom here, at least so far
|
|
as the parsonage is concerned."
|
|
|
|
"What's the matter, boy?" asked the young minister,
|
|
drawling his words a little, and putting a sense of placid
|
|
irony into them. "Don't the cows give milk on Sunday, then?"
|
|
|
|
The boy was not going to be chaffed. "Oh, I'll bring you
|
|
milk fast enough on Sundays, if you give me the word,"
|
|
he said with nonchalance. "Only it won't last long."
|
|
|
|
"How do you mean--'won't last long'?", asked Mrs. Ware, briskly.
|
|
|
|
The boy liked her--both for herself, and for the doughnuts
|
|
fried with her own hands, which she gave him on his
|
|
morning round. He dropped his half-defiant tone.
|
|
|
|
"The thing of it's this," he explained. "Every new
|
|
minister starts in saying we can deliver to this house
|
|
on Sundays, an' then gives us notice to stop before
|
|
the month's out. It's the trustees that does it."
|
|
|
|
The Rev. Theron Ware uncrossed his feet and moved out on
|
|
to the stoop beside his wife. "What's that you say?"
|
|
he interjected. "Don't THEY take milk on Sundays?"
|
|
|
|
"Nope!" answered the boy.
|
|
|
|
The young couple looked each other in the face
|
|
for a puzzled moment, then broke into a laugh.
|
|
|
|
"Well, we'll try it, anyway," said the preacher.
|
|
"You can go on bringing it Sundays till--till--"
|
|
|
|
"Till you cave in an' tell me to stop," put in the boy.
|
|
"All right!" and he was off on the instant, the dipper
|
|
jangling loud incredulity in his pail as he went.
|
|
|
|
The Wares exchanged another glance as he disappeared
|
|
round the corner of the house, and another mutual laugh
|
|
seemed imminent. Then the wife's face clouded over,
|
|
and she thrust her under-lip a trifle forward out of its
|
|
place in the straight and gently firm profile.
|
|
|
|
"It's just what Wendell Phillips said," she declared.
|
|
"'The Puritan's idea of hell is a place where everybody has
|
|
to mind his own business.'"
|
|
|
|
The young minister stroked his chin thoughtfully, and let
|
|
his gaze wander over the backyard in silence. The garden
|
|
parts had not been spaded up, but lay, a useless stretch
|
|
of muddy earth, broken only by last year's cabbage-stumps
|
|
and the general litter of dead roots and vegetation.
|
|
The door of the tenantless chicken-coop hung wide open.
|
|
Before it was a great heap of ashes and cinders, soaked into
|
|
grimy hardness by the recent spring rains, and nearer still
|
|
an ancient chopping-block, round which were scattered old
|
|
weather-beaten hardwood knots which had defied the axe,
|
|
parts of broken barrels and packing-boxes, and a nameless
|
|
debris of tin cans, clam-shells, and general rubbish.
|
|
It was pleasanter to lift the eyes, and look across
|
|
the neighbors' fences to the green, waving tops of the elms
|
|
on the street beyond. How lofty and beautiful they were
|
|
in the morning sunlight, and with what matchless charm
|
|
came the song of the robins, freshly installed in their
|
|
haunts among the new pale-green leaves! Above them,
|
|
in the fresh, scented air, glowed the great blue dome,
|
|
radiant with light and the purification of spring.
|
|
|
|
Theron lifted his thin, long-fingered hand, and passed it
|
|
in a slow arch of movement to comprehend this glorious
|
|
upper picture.
|
|
|
|
"What matter anyone's ideas of hell," he said, in soft,
|
|
grave tones, "when we have that to look at, and listen to,
|
|
and fill our lungs with? It seems to me that we never FEEL
|
|
quite so sure of God's goodness at other times as we do
|
|
in these wonderful new mornings of spring."
|
|
|
|
The wife followed his gesture, and her eyes rested for
|
|
a brief moment, with pleased interest, upon the trees
|
|
and the sky. Then they reverted, with a harsher scrutiny,
|
|
to the immediate foreground.
|
|
|
|
"Those Van Sizers ought to be downright ashamed of themselves,"
|
|
she said, "to leave everything in such a muss as this.
|
|
You MUST see about getting a man to clean up the yard,
|
|
Theron. It's no use your thinking of doing it yourself.
|
|
In the first place, it wouldn't look quite the thing,
|
|
and, second, you'd never get at it in all your born days.
|
|
Or if a man would cost too much, we might get a boy.
|
|
I daresay Harvey would come around, after he'd finished
|
|
with his milk-route in the forenoon. We could give him
|
|
his dinner, you know, and I'd bake him some cookies.
|
|
He's got the greatest sweet-tooth you ever heard of.
|
|
And then perhaps if we gave him a quarter, or say half a dollar,
|
|
he'd be quite satisfied. I'll speak to him in the morning.
|
|
We can save a dollar or so that way."
|
|
|
|
"I suppose every little does help," commented Mr. Ware,
|
|
with a doleful lack of conviction. Then his face brightened.
|
|
"I tell you what let's do!" he exclaimed. "Get on your
|
|
street dress, and we'll take a long walk, way out into
|
|
the country. You've never seen the basin, where they
|
|
float the log-rafts in, or the big sawmills. The hills
|
|
beyond give you almost mountain effects, they are so steep;
|
|
and they say there's a sulphur spring among the slate
|
|
on the hill-side, somewhere, with trees all about it;
|
|
and we could take some sandwiches with us--"
|
|
|
|
"You forget," put in Mrs. Ware,--"those trustees are
|
|
coming at eleven."
|
|
|
|
"So they are!" assented the young minister, with something
|
|
like a sigh. He cast another reluctant, lingering glance
|
|
at the sunlit elm boughs, and, turning, went indoors.
|
|
|
|
He loitered for an aimless minute in the kitchen,
|
|
where his wife, her sleeves rolled to the elbow,
|
|
now resumed the interrupted washing of the breakfast dishes--
|
|
perhaps with vague visions of that ever-receding time
|
|
to come when they might have a hired girl to do such work.
|
|
Then he wandered off into the room beyond, which served
|
|
them alike as living-room and study, and let his eye run
|
|
along the two rows of books that constituted his library.
|
|
He saw nothing which he wanted to read. Finally he did
|
|
take down "Paley's Evidences," and seated himself in the
|
|
big armchair--that costly and oversized anomaly among
|
|
his humble house-hold gods; but the book lay unopened on
|
|
his knee, and his eyelids half closed themselves in sign
|
|
of revery.
|
|
|
|
This was his third charge--this Octavius which they
|
|
both knew they were going to dislike so much.
|
|
|
|
The first had been in the pleasant dairy and hop country
|
|
many miles to the south, on another watershed and among
|
|
a different kind of people. Perhaps, in truth, the grinding
|
|
labor, the poverty of ideas, the systematic selfishness
|
|
of later rural experience, had not been lacking there;
|
|
but they played no part in the memories which now he
|
|
passed in tender review. He recalled instead the warm
|
|
sunshine on the fertile expanse of fields; the sleek,
|
|
well-fed herds of "milkers" coming lowing down the road
|
|
under the maples; the prosperous and hospitable farmhouses,
|
|
with their orchards in blossom and their spacious red barns;
|
|
the bountiful boiled dinners which cheery housewives
|
|
served up with their own skilled hands. Of course,
|
|
he admitted to himself, it would not be the same if he
|
|
were to go back there again. He was conscious of having
|
|
moved along--was it, after all, an advance?--to a point
|
|
where it was unpleasant to sit at table with the unfragrant
|
|
hired man, and still worse to encounter the bucolic
|
|
confusion between the functions of knives and forks.
|
|
But in those happy days--young, zealous, himself farm-bred--
|
|
these trifles had been invisible to him, and life there
|
|
among those kindly husbandmen had seemed, by contrast
|
|
with the gaunt surroundings and gloomy rule of the
|
|
theological seminary, luxuriously abundant and free.
|
|
|
|
It was there too that the crowning blessedness of
|
|
his youth--nay, should he not say of all his days?--
|
|
had come to him. There he had first seen Alice Hastings,--
|
|
the bright-eyed, frank-faced, serenely self-reliant girl,
|
|
who now, less than four years thereafter, could be heard
|
|
washing the dishes out in the parsonage kitchen.
|
|
|
|
How wonderful she had seemed to him then! How beautiful
|
|
and all-beneficent the miracle still appeared!
|
|
Though herself the daughter of a farmer, her presence
|
|
on a visit within the borders of his remote country
|
|
charge had seemed to make everything, there a hundred
|
|
times more countrified than it had ever been before.
|
|
She was fresh from the refinements of a town seminary:
|
|
she read books; it was known that she could play upon
|
|
the piano. Her clothes, her manners, her way of speaking,
|
|
the readiness of her thoughts and sprightly tongue--
|
|
not least, perhaps, the imposing current understanding
|
|
as to her father's wealth--placed her on a glorified
|
|
pinnacle far away from the girls of the neighborhood.
|
|
These honest and good-hearted creatures indeed called
|
|
ceaseless attention to her superiority by their deference
|
|
and open-mouthed admiration, and treated it as the most
|
|
natural thing in the world that their young minister should be
|
|
visibly "taken" with her.
|
|
|
|
Theron Ware, in truth, left this first pastorate of his
|
|
the following spring, in a transfiguring halo of romance.
|
|
His new appointment was to Tyre--a somewhat distant
|
|
village of traditional local pride and substance--and he
|
|
was to be married only a day or so before entering upon
|
|
his pastoral duties there. The good people among whom he
|
|
had begun his ministry took kindly credit to themselves
|
|
that he had met his bride while she was "visiting round"
|
|
their countryside. In part by jocose inquiries addressed
|
|
to the expectant groom, in part by the confidences of the
|
|
postmaster at the corners concerning the bulk and frequency
|
|
of the correspondence passing between Theron and the now
|
|
remote Alice--they had followed the progress of the courtship
|
|
through the autumn and winter with friendly zest.
|
|
When he returned from the Conference, to say good-bye
|
|
and confess the happiness that awaited him, they gave
|
|
him a "donation"--quite as if he were a married pastor
|
|
with a home of his own, instead of a shy young bachelor,
|
|
who received his guests and their contributions in the
|
|
house where he boarded.
|
|
|
|
He went away with tears of mingled regret and proud joy
|
|
in his eyes, thinking a good deal upon their predictions
|
|
of a distinguished career before him, feeling infinitely
|
|
strengthened and upborne by the hearty fervor of their
|
|
God-speed, and taking with him nearly two wagon-loads
|
|
of vegetables, apples, canned preserves, assorted furniture,
|
|
glass dishes, cheeses, pieced bedquilts, honey, feathers,
|
|
and kitchen utensils.
|
|
|
|
Of the three years' term in Tyre, it was pleasantest
|
|
to dwell upon the beginning.
|
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The young couple--after being married out at Alice's home
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in an adjoining county, under the depressing conditions
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of a hopelessly bedridden mother, and a father and brothers
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whose perceptions were obviously closed to the advantages
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of a matrimonial connection with Methodism--came straight to
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the house which their new congregation rented as a parsonage.
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The impulse of reaction from the rather grim cheerlessness
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of their wedding lent fresh gayety to their lighthearted,
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whimsical start at housekeeping. They had never laughed
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so much in all their lives as they did now in these
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first months--over their weird ignorance of domestic details;
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with its mishaps, mistakes, and entertaining discoveries;
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over the comical super-abundances and shortcomings
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of their "donation" outfit; over the thousand and one
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quaint experiences of their novel relation to each other,
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to the congregation, and to the world of Tyre at large.
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Theron, indeed, might be said never to have laughed before.
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Up to that time no friendly student of his character,
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cataloguing his admirable qualities, would have thought
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of including among them a sense of humor, much less a bent
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toward levity. Neither his early strenuous battle to get
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away from the farm and achieve such education as should
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serve to open to him the gates of professional life,
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nor the later wave of religious enthusiasm which caught
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him up as he stood on the border-land of manhood,
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and swept him off into a veritable new world of views
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and aspirations, had been a likely school of merriment.
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People had prized him for his innocent candor and
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guileless mind, for his good heart, his pious zeal,
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his modesty about gifts notably above the average,
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but it had occurred to none to suspect in him a latent
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funny side.
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But who could be solemn where Alice was?--Alice in a
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quandary over the complications of her cooking stove;
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Alice boiling her potatoes all day, and her eggs for half
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an hour; Alice ordering twenty pounds of steak and half
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a pound of sugar, and striving to extract a breakfast
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beverage from the unground coffee-bean? Clearly not
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so tenderly fond and sympathetic a husband as Theron.
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He began by laughing because she laughed, and grew
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by swift stages to comprehend, then frankly to share,
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her amusement. From this it seemed only a step to the
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development of a humor of his own, doubling, as it were,
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their sportive resources. He found himself discovering
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a new droll aspect in men and things; his phraseology took
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on a dryly playful form, fittingly to present conceits
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which danced up, unabashed, quite into the presence
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|
of lofty and majestic truths. He got from this nothing
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|
but satisfaction; it obviously involved increased claims
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to popularity among his parishioners, and consequently
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|
magnified powers of usefulness, and it made life so much more
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|
a joy and a thing to be thankful for. Often, in the midst
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of the exchange of merry quip and whimsical suggestion,
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bright blossoms on that tree of strength and knowledge
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which he felt expanding now with a mighty outward pushing
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in all directions, he would lapse into deep gravity,
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and ponder with a swelling heart the vast unspeakable marvel
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|
of his blessedness, in being thus enriched and humanized
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by daily communion with the most worshipful of womankind.
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This happy and good young couple took the affections of
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Tyre by storm. The Methodist Church there had at no time
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|
held its head very high among the denominations, and for
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|
some years back had been in a deplorably sinking state,
|
|
owing first to the secession of the Free Methodists
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|
and then to the incumbency of a pastor who scandalized
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the community by marrying a black man to a white woman.
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|
But the Wares changed all this. Within a month the report
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|
of Theron's charm and force in the pulpit was crowding
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the church building to its utmost capacity--and that,
|
|
too, with some of Tyre's best people. Equally winning
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|
was the atmosphere of jollity and juvenile high spirits
|
|
which pervaded the parsonage under these new conditions,
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|
and which Theron and Alice seemed to diffuse wherever
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they went.
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|
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Thus swimmingly their first year sped, amid universal acclaim.
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|
Mrs. Ware had a recognized social place, quite outside
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the restricted limits of Methodism, and shone in it with
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an unflagging brilliancy altogether beyond the traditions
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|
of Tyre. Delightful as she was in other people's houses,
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|
she was still more naively fascinating in her own quaint
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and somewhat harum-scarum domicile; and the drab,
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two-storied, tin-roofed little parsonage might well have
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|
rattled its clapboards to see if it was not in dreamland--
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so gay was the company, so light were the hearts,
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|
which it sheltered in these new days. As for Theron,
|
|
the period was one of incredible fructification and output.
|
|
He scarcely recognized for his own the mind which now was
|
|
reaching out on all sides with the arms of an octopus,
|
|
exploring unsuspected mines of thought, bringing in
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|
rich treasures of deduction, assimilating, building,
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|
propounding as if by some force quite independent of him.
|
|
He could not look without blinking timidity at the radiance
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|
of the path stretched out before him, leading upward
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|
to dazzling heights of greatness.
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|
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At the end of this first year the Wares suddenly discovered
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that they were eight hundred dollars in debt.
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|
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|
The second year was spent in arriving, by slow stages and
|
|
with a cruel wealth of pathetic detail, at a realization
|
|
of what being eight hundred dollars in debt meant.
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|
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|
It was not in their elastic and buoyant natures to grasp
|
|
the full significance of the thing at once, or easily.
|
|
Their position in the social structure, too, was all
|
|
against clear-sightedness in material matters.
|
|
A general, for example, uniformed and in the saddle,
|
|
advancing through the streets with his staff in the proud
|
|
wake of his division's massed walls of bayonets, cannot be
|
|
imagined as quailing at the glance thrown at him by his
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|
tailor on the sidewalk. Similarly, a man invested with
|
|
sacerdotal authority, who baptizes, marries, and buries,
|
|
who delivers judgments from the pulpit which may not be
|
|
questioned in his hearing, and who receives from all his
|
|
fellow-men a special deference of manner and speech,
|
|
is in the nature of things prone to see the grocer's
|
|
book and the butcher's bill through the little end
|
|
of the telescope.
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|
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|
The Wares at the outset had thought it right to trade
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|
as exclusively as possible with members of their own
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|
church society. This loyalty became a principal element
|
|
of martyrdom. Theron had his creditors seated in serried
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|
rows before him, Sunday after Sunday. Alice had her
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|
critics consolidated among those whom it was her chief duty
|
|
to visit and profess friendship for. These situations
|
|
now began, by regular gradations, to unfold their terrors.
|
|
At the first intimation of discontent, the Wares made
|
|
what seemed to them a sweeping reduction in expenditure.
|
|
When they heard that Brother Potter had spoken of them
|
|
as "poor pay," they dismissed their hired girl.
|
|
A little later, Theron brought himself to drop a laboriously
|
|
casual suggestion as to a possible increase of salary,
|
|
and saw with sinking spirits the faces of the stewards
|
|
freeze with dumb disapprobation. Then Alice paid a visit
|
|
to her parents, only to find her brothers doggedly
|
|
hostile to the notion of her being helped, and her father
|
|
so much under their influence that the paltry sum he
|
|
dared offer barely covered the expenses of her journey.
|
|
With another turn of the screw, they sold the piano she
|
|
had brought with her from home, and cut themselves down
|
|
to the bare necessities of life, neither receiving company
|
|
nor going out. They never laughed now, and even smiles
|
|
grew rare.
|
|
|
|
By this time Theron's sermons, preached under that stony
|
|
glare of people to whom he owed money, had degenerated
|
|
to a pitiful level of commonplace. As a consequence,
|
|
the attendance became once more confined to the insufficient
|
|
membership of the church, and the trustees complained
|
|
of grievously diminished receipts. When the Wares,
|
|
grown desperate, ventured upon the experiment of trading
|
|
outside the bounds of the congregation, the trustees
|
|
complained again, this time peremptorily.
|
|
|
|
Thus the second year dragged itself miserably to an end.
|
|
Nor was relief possible, because the Presiding Elder knew
|
|
something of the circumstances, and felt it his duty
|
|
to send Theron back for a third year, to pay his debts,
|
|
and drain the cup of disciplinary medicine to its dregs.
|
|
|
|
The worst has been told. Beginning in utter blackness,
|
|
this third year, in the second month, brought a change as welcome
|
|
as it was unlooked for. An elderly and important citizen
|
|
of Tyre, by name Abram Beekman, whom Theron knew slightly,
|
|
and had on occasions seen sitting in one of the back
|
|
pews near the door, called one morning at the parsonage,
|
|
and electrified its inhabitants by expressing a desire
|
|
to wipe off all their old scores for them, and give them
|
|
a fresh start in life. As he put the suggestion, they could
|
|
find no excuse for rejecting it. He had watched them,
|
|
and heard a good deal about them, and took a fatherly sort
|
|
of interest in them. He did not deprecate their regarding
|
|
the aid he proffered them in the nature of a loan,
|
|
but they were to make themselves perfectly easy about it,
|
|
and never return it at all unless they could spare it
|
|
sometime with entire convenience, and felt that they wanted
|
|
to do so. As this amazing windfall finally took shape,
|
|
it enabled the Wares to live respectably through the year,
|
|
and to leave Tyre with something over one hundred dollars
|
|
in hand.
|
|
|
|
It enabled them, too, to revive in a chastened form their
|
|
old dream of ultimate success and distinction for Theron.
|
|
He had demonstrated clearly enough to himself, during that
|
|
brief season of unrestrained effulgence, that he had within
|
|
him the making of a great pulpit orator. He set to work now,
|
|
with resolute purpose, to puzzle out and master all the
|
|
principles which underlie this art, and all the tricks
|
|
that adorn its superstructure. He studied it, fastened his
|
|
thoughts upon it, talked daily with Alice about it.
|
|
In the pulpit, addressing those people who had so darkened
|
|
his life and crushed the first happiness out of his home,
|
|
he withheld himself from any oratorical display which
|
|
could afford them gratification. He put aside, as well;
|
|
the thought of attracting once more the non-Methodists
|
|
of Tyre, whose early enthusiasm had spread such pitfalls
|
|
for his unwary feet. He practised effects now by piecemeal,
|
|
with an alert ear, and calculation in every tone.
|
|
An ambition, at once embittered and tearfully solicitous,
|
|
possessed him.
|
|
|
|
He reflected now, this morning, with a certain incredulous
|
|
interest, upon that unworthy epoch in his life history,
|
|
which seemed so far behind him, and yet had come to a close
|
|
only a few weeks ago. The opportunity had been given him,
|
|
there at the Tecumseh Conference, to reveal his quality.
|
|
He had risen to its full limit of possibilities,
|
|
and preached a great sermon in a manner which he at least
|
|
knew was unapproachable. He had made his most powerful
|
|
bid for the prize place, had trebly deserved success--
|
|
and had been banished instead to Octavius!
|
|
|
|
The curious thing was that he did not resent his failure.
|
|
Alice had taken it hard, but he himself was conscious of a
|
|
sense of spiritual gain. The influence of the Conference,
|
|
with its songs and seasons of prayer and high pressure
|
|
of emotional excitement, was still strong upon him.
|
|
It seemed years and years since the religious side of him
|
|
had been so stirred into motion. He felt, as he lay
|
|
back in the chair, and folded his hands over the book
|
|
on his knee, that he had indeed come forth from the fire
|
|
purified and strengthened. The ministry to souls diseased
|
|
beckoned him with a new and urgent significance. He smiled
|
|
to remember that Mr. Beekman, speaking in his shrewd and
|
|
pointed way, had asked him whether, looking it all over,
|
|
he didn't think it would be better for him to study law,
|
|
with a view to sliding out of the ministry when a good
|
|
chance offered. It amazed him now to recall that he had
|
|
taken this hint seriously, and even gone to the length
|
|
of finding out what books law-students began upon.
|
|
|
|
Thank God! all that was past and gone now. The Call sounded,
|
|
resonant and imperative, in his ears, and there was no
|
|
impulse of his heart, no fibre of his being, which did
|
|
not stir in devout response. He closed his eyes, to be
|
|
the more wholly alone with the Spirit, that moved him.
|
|
|
|
The jangling of a bell in the hallway broke sharply upon
|
|
his meditations, and on the instant his wife thrust
|
|
in her head from the kitchen.
|
|
|
|
"You'll have to go to the door, Theron!" she warned him,
|
|
in a loud, swift whisper. "I'm not fit to be seen.
|
|
It is the trustees."
|
|
|
|
"All right," he said, and rose slowly from sprawling
|
|
recumbency to his feet. "I'll go."
|
|
|
|
"And don't forget," she added strenuously; "I believe
|
|
in Levi Gorringe! I've seen him go past here with his rod
|
|
and fish-basket twice in eight days, and that's a good sign.
|
|
He's got a soft side somewhere. And just keep a stiff
|
|
upper lip about the gas, and don't you let them jew you
|
|
down a solitary cent on that sidewalk."
|
|
|
|
"All right," said Theron, again, and moved reluctantly
|
|
toward the hall door.
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|
|
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|
CHAPTER III
|
|
|
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|
|
When the three trustees had been shown in by the Rev. Mr. Ware,
|
|
and had taken seats, an awkward little pause ensued.
|
|
The young minister looked doubtingly from one face
|
|
to another, the while they glanced with inquiring interest
|
|
about the room, noting the pictures and appraising
|
|
the furniture in their minds.
|
|
|
|
The obvious leader of the party, Loren Pierce, a rich
|
|
quarryman, was an old man of medium size and mean attire,
|
|
with a square, beardless face as hard and impassive
|
|
in expression as one of his blocks of limestone.
|
|
The irregular, thin-lipped mouth, slightly sunken,
|
|
and shut with vice-like firmness, the short snub nose,
|
|
and the little eyes squinting from half-closed lids
|
|
beneath slightly marked brows, seemed scarcely to attain
|
|
to the dignity of features, but evaded attention instead,
|
|
as if feeling that they were only there at all from
|
|
plain necessity, and ought not to be taken into account.
|
|
Mr. Pierce's face did not know how to smile--what was the use
|
|
of smiles?--but its whole surface radiated secretiveness.
|
|
Portrayed on canvas by a master brush, with a ruff
|
|
or a red robe for masquerade, generations of imaginative
|
|
amateurs would have seen in it vast reaching plots,
|
|
the skeletons of a dozen dynastic cupboards, the guarded
|
|
mysteries of half a century's international diplomacy.
|
|
The amateurs would have been wrong again. There was
|
|
nothing behind Mr. Pierce's juiceless countenance more
|
|
weighty than a general determination to exact seven per
|
|
cent for his money, and some specific notions about
|
|
capturing certain brickyards which were interfering with
|
|
his quarry-sales. But Octavius watched him shamble along
|
|
its sidewalks quite as the Vienna of dead and forgotten
|
|
yesterday might have watched Metternich.
|
|
|
|
Erastus Winch was of a breezier sort--a florid, stout,
|
|
and sandy man, who spent most of his life driving over
|
|
evil country roads in a buggy, securing orders for dairy
|
|
furniture and certain allied lines of farm utensils.
|
|
This practice had given him a loud voice and a deceptively
|
|
hearty manner, to which the other avocation of cheese-buyer,
|
|
which he pursued at the Board of Trade meetings every
|
|
Monday afternoon, had added a considerable command of
|
|
persuasive yet non-committal language. To look at him,
|
|
still more to hear him, one would have sworn he was a
|
|
good fellow, a trifle rough and noisy, perhaps, but all
|
|
right at bottom. But the County Clerk of Dearborn County
|
|
could have told you of agriculturists who knew Erastus
|
|
from long and unhappy experience, and who held him to be
|
|
even a tighter man than Loren Pierce in the matter of a mortgage.
|
|
|
|
The third trustee, Levi Gorringe, set one wondering at the
|
|
very first glance what on earth he was doing in that company.
|
|
Those who had known him longest had the least notion;
|
|
but it may be added that no one knew him well.
|
|
He was a lawyer, and had lived in Octavius for upwards
|
|
of ten years; that is to say, since early manhood.
|
|
He had an office on the main street, just under the
|
|
principal photograph gallery. Doubtless he was sometimes
|
|
in this office; but his fellow-townsmen saw him more often
|
|
in the street doorway, with the stairs behind him, and the
|
|
flaring show-cases of the photographer on either side,
|
|
standing with his hands in his pockets and an unlighted
|
|
cigar in his mouth, looking at nothing in particular.
|
|
About every other day he went off after breakfast
|
|
into the country roundabout, sometimes with a rod,
|
|
sometimes with a gun, but always alone. He was a bachelor,
|
|
and slept in a room at the back of his office, cooking some
|
|
of his meals himself, getting others at a restaurant
|
|
close by. Though he had little visible practice,
|
|
he was understood to be well-to-do and even more,
|
|
and people tacitly inferred that he "shaved notes."
|
|
The Methodists of Octavius looked upon him as a queer fish,
|
|
and through nearly a dozen years had never quite outgrown
|
|
their hebdomadal tendency to surprise at seeing him enter
|
|
their church. He had never, it is true, professed religion,
|
|
but they had elected him as a trustee now for a number
|
|
of terms, all the same--partly because he was their
|
|
only lawyer, partly because he, like both his colleagues,
|
|
held a mortgage on the church edifice and lot.
|
|
In person, Mr. Gorringe was a slender man, with a skin
|
|
of a clear, uniform citron tint, black waving hair,
|
|
and dark gray eyes, and a thin, high-featured face.
|
|
He wore a mustache and pointed chin-tuft; and, though he
|
|
was of New England parentage and had never been further
|
|
south than Ocean Grove, he presented a general effect
|
|
of old Mississippian traditions and tastes startlingly at
|
|
variance with the standards of Dearborn County Methodism.
|
|
Nothing could convince some of the elder sisters that he was
|
|
not a drinking man.
|
|
|
|
The three visitors had completed their survey of the room now;
|
|
and Loren Pierce emitted a dry, harsh little cough, as a
|
|
signal that business was about to begin. At this sound,
|
|
Winch drew up his feet, and Gorringe untied a parcel
|
|
of account-books and papers that he held on his knee.
|
|
Theron felt that his countenance must be exhibiting to the
|
|
assembled brethren an unfortunate sense of helplessness
|
|
in their hands. He tried to look more resolute,
|
|
and forced his lips into a smile.
|
|
|
|
"Brother Gorringe allus acts as Seckertary,"
|
|
said Erastus Winch, beaming broadly upon the minister,
|
|
as if the mere mention of the fact promoted jollity.
|
|
"That's it, Brother Gorringe,--take your seat at Brother
|
|
Ware's desk. Mind the Dominie's pen don't play tricks
|
|
on you, an' start off writin' out sermons instid of figgers."
|
|
The humorist turned to Theron as the lawyer walked over
|
|
to the desk at the window. "I allus have to caution him
|
|
about that," he remarked with great joviality. "An' do YOU
|
|
look out afterwards, Brother Ware, or else you'll catch
|
|
that pen o' yours scribblin' lawyer's lingo in place o'
|
|
the Word."
|
|
|
|
Theron felt bound to exhibit a grin in acknowledgment
|
|
of this pleasantry. The lawyer's change of position had
|
|
involved some shifting of the others' chairs, and the young
|
|
minister found himself directly confronted by Brother
|
|
Pierce's hard and colorless old visage. Its little eyes
|
|
were watching him, as through a mask, and under their
|
|
influence the smile of politeness fled from his lips.
|
|
The lawyer on his right, the cheese-buyer to the left,
|
|
seemed to recede into distance as he for the moment returned
|
|
the gaze of the quarryman. He waited now for him to speak,
|
|
as if the others were of no importance.
|
|
|
|
"We are a plain sort o' folks up in these parts,"
|
|
said Brother Pierce, after a slight further pause.
|
|
His voice was as dry and rasping as his cough, and its
|
|
intonations were those of authority. "We walk here,"
|
|
he went on, eying the minister with a sour regard,
|
|
"in a meek an' humble spirit, in the straight an'
|
|
narrow way which leadeth unto life. We ain't gone traipsin'
|
|
after strange gods, like some people that call themselves
|
|
Methodists in other places. We stick by the Discipline an'
|
|
the ways of our fathers in Israel. No new-fangled notions
|
|
can go down here. Your wife'd better take them flowers
|
|
out of her bunnit afore next Sunday."
|
|
|
|
Silence possessed the room for a few moments,
|
|
the while Theron, pale-faced and with brows knit,
|
|
studied the pattern of the ingrain carpet. Then he lifted
|
|
his head, and nodded it in assent. "Yes," he said;
|
|
"we will do nothing by which our 'brother stumbleth,
|
|
or is offended, or is made weak.'"
|
|
|
|
Brother Pierce's parchment face showed no sign of surprise
|
|
or pleasure at this easy submission. "Another thing:
|
|
We don't want no book-learnin' or dictionary words in
|
|
our pulpit," he went on coldly. "Some folks may stomach
|
|
'em; we won't. Them two sermons o' yours, p'r'aps they'd
|
|
do down in some city place; but they're like your wife's
|
|
bunnit here, they're too flowery to suit us. What we
|
|
want to hear is the plain, old-fashioned Word of God,
|
|
without any palaver or 'hems and ha's." They tell me
|
|
there's some parts where hell's treated as played-out--
|
|
where our ministers don't like to talk much about it
|
|
because people don't want to hear about it. Such preachers
|
|
ought to be put out. They ain't Methodists at all.
|
|
What we want here, sir, is straight-out, flat-footed hell--
|
|
the burnin' lake o' fire an' brim-stone. Pour it into
|
|
'em, hot an' strong. We can't have too much of it.
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Work in them awful deathbeds of Voltaire an' Tom Paine,
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with the Devil right there in the room, reachin' for 'em, an'
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they yellin' for fright; that's what fills the anxious seat an'
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brings in souls hand over fist."
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Theron's tongue dallied for an instant with the temptation
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to comment upon these old-wife fables, which were so dear
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to the rural religious heart when he and I were boys.
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But it seemed wiser to only nod again, and let his mentor
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go on.
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"We ain't had no trouble with the Free Methodists here,"
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continued Brother Pierce, "jest because we kept to the
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old paths, an' seek for salvation in the good old way.
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Everybody can shout "Amen!" as loud and as long as
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the Spirit moves him, with us. Some one was sayin'
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you thought we ought to have a choir and an organ.
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No, sirree! No such tom-foolery for us! You'll only stir
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up feelin' agin yourself by hintin' at such things.
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And then, too, our folks don't take no stock in all
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that pack o' nonsense about science, such as tellin'
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the age of the earth by crackin' up stones. I've b'en
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in the quarry line all my life, an' I know it's all humbug!
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Why, they say some folks are goin' round now preachin'
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that our grandfathers were all monkeys. That comes
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from departin' from the ways of our forefathers, an puttin'
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in organs an' choirs, an' deckin' our women-folks out
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with gewgaws, an' apin' the fashions of the worldly.
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I shouldn't wonder if them kind did have some monkey blood
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in 'em. You'll find we're a different sort here."
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The young minister preserved silence for a little, until it
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became apparent that the old trustee had had his say out.
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Even then he raised his head slowly, and at last made
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answer in a hesitating and irresolute way
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"You have been very frank," he said. "I am obliged to you.
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A clergyman coming to a new charge cannot be better served
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than by having laid before him a clear statement of the
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views and--and spiritual tendencies--of his new flock,
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quite at the outset. I feel it to be of especial value
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in this case, because I am young in years and in my ministry,
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and am conscious of a great weakness of the flesh.
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I can see how daily contact with a people so attached
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to the old, simple, primitive Methodism of Wesley
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and Asbury may be a source of much strength to me.
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I may take it," he added upon second thought, with an
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inquiring glance at Mr. Winch, "that Brother Pierce's
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description of our charge, and its tastes and needs,
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meets with your approval?"
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Erastus Winch nodded his head and smiled expansively.
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"Whatever Brother Pierce says, goes!" he declared.
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The lawyer, sitting behind at the desk by the window,
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said nothing.
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"The place is jest overrun with Irish," Brother Pierce
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began again. "They've got two Catholic churches here
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now to our one, and they do jest as they blamed please
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at the Charter elections. It'd be a good idee to pitch
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into Catholics in general whenever you can. You could
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make a hit that way. I say the State ought to make 'em
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pay taxes on their church property. They've no right
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to be exempted, because they ain't Christians at all.
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They're idolaters, that's what they are! I know 'em!
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I've had 'em in my quarries for years, an' they ain't got
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no idee of decency or fair dealin'. Every time the price
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of stone went up, every man of 'em would jine to screw
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more wages out o' me. Why, they used to keep account o'
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the amount o' business I done, an' figger up my profits, an'
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have the face to come an' talk to me about 'em, as if
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that had anything to do with wages. It's my belief their
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priests put 'em up to it. People don't begin to reelize--
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that church of idolatry 'll be the ruin o' this country,
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if it ain't checked in time. Jest you go at 'em hammer
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'n' tongs! I've got Eyetalians in the quarries now.
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They're sensible fellows: they know when they're well off--
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a dollar a day, an' they're satisfied, an' everything goes
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smooth."
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"But they're Catholics, the same as the Irish," suddenly
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interjected the lawyer, from his place by the window.
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Theron pricked up his ears at the sound of his voice.
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There was an anti-Pierce note in it, so to speak, which it
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did him good to hear. The consciousness of sympathy
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began on the instant to inspire him with courage.
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"I know some people SAY they are," Brother Pierce
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guardedly retorted "but I've summered an' wintered both
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kinds, an' I hold to it they're different. I grant ye,
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the Eyetalians ARE some given to jabbin' knives into
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each other, but they never git up strikes, an' they don't
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grumble about wages. Why, look at the way they live--
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jest some weeds an' yarbs dug up on the roadside, an'
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stewed in a kettle with a piece o' fat the size o'
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your finger, an' a loaf o' bread, an' they're happy as a king.
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|
There's some sense in THAT; but the Irish, they've got
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to have meat an' potatoes an' butter jest as if--as if--"
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"As if they'd b'en used to 'em at home," put in Mr. Winch,
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to help his colleague out.
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|
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The lawyer ostentatiously drew up his chair to the desk,
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and began turning over the leaves of his biggest book.
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|
"It's getting on toward noon, gentlemen," he said, in an
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impatient voice.
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|
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|
The business meeting which followed was for a considerable
|
|
time confined to hearing extracts from the books and papers
|
|
read in a swift and formal fashion by Mr. Gorringe.
|
|
If this was intended to inform the new pastor of the exact
|
|
financial situation in Octavius, it lamentably failed
|
|
of its purpose. Theron had little knowledge of figures;
|
|
and though he tried hard to listen, and to assume an air
|
|
of comprehension, he did not understand much of what he heard.
|
|
In a general way he gathered that the church property was
|
|
put down at $12,000, on which there was a debt of $4,800.
|
|
The annual expenses were $2,250, of which the principal
|
|
items were $800 for his salary, $170 for the rent
|
|
of the parsonage, and $319 for interest on the debt.
|
|
It seemed that last year the receipts had fallen just under
|
|
$2,000, and they now confronted the necessity of making
|
|
good this deficit during the coming year, as well as
|
|
increasing the regular revenues. Without much discussion,
|
|
it was agreed that they should endeavor to secure the
|
|
services of a celebrated "debt-raiser," early in the autumn,
|
|
and utilize him in the closing days of a revival.
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|
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|
Theron knew this "debt-raiser," and had seen him at work--
|
|
a burly, bustling, vulgar man who took possession
|
|
of the pulpit as if it were an auctioneer's block,
|
|
and pursued the task of exciting liberality in the bosoms
|
|
of the congregation by alternating prayer, anecdote, song,
|
|
and cheap buffoonery in a manner truly sickening.
|
|
Would it not be preferable, he feebly suggested,
|
|
to raise the money by a festival, or fair, or some
|
|
other form of entertainment which the ladies could manage?
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|
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Brother Pierce shook his head with contemptuous emphasis.
|
|
"Our women-folks ain't that kind," he said. "They did try
|
|
to hold a sociable once, but nobody came, and we didn't
|
|
raise more 'n three or four dollars. It ain't their line.
|
|
They lack the worldly arts. As the Discipline commands,
|
|
they avoid the evil of putting on gold and costly apparel,
|
|
and taking such diversions as cannot be used in the name of
|
|
the Lord Jesus."
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|
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|
"Well--of course--if you prefer the 'debt-raiser'--"
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|
Theron began, and took the itemized account from Gorringe's
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|
knee as an excuse for not finishing the hateful sentence.
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|
|
|
He looked down the foolscap sheet, line by line,
|
|
with no special sense of what it signified, until his
|
|
eye caught upon this little section of the report,
|
|
bracketed by itself in the Secretary's neat hand:
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|
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|
INTEREST CHARGE.
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|
First mortgage (1873) .. $1,000 ... (E. Winch) @7.. $ 70
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|
Second mortgage (1776).. 1,700 ... (L. Gorringe) @6.. 102
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|
Third mortgage (1878)... 2,100 ... (L. Pierce) @7.. 147
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|
------- -----
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|
$4,800 $319
|
|
|
|
It was no news to him that the three mortgages on
|
|
the church property were held by the three trustees.
|
|
But as he looked once more, another feature of the thing
|
|
struck him as curious.
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|
|
|
"I notice that the rates of interest vary," he remarked
|
|
without thinking, and then wished the words unsaid,
|
|
for the two trustees in view moved uneasily on their seats.
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|
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|
"Oh, that's nothing," exclaimed Erastus Winch, with a
|
|
boisterous display of jollity. "It's only Brother
|
|
Gorringe's pleasant little way of making a contribution
|
|
to our funds. You will notice that, at the date
|
|
of all these mortgages, the State rate of interest was
|
|
seven per cent. Since then it's b'en lowered to six.
|
|
Well, when that happened, you see, Brother Gorringe,
|
|
not being a professin' member, and so not bound by our rules,
|
|
he could just as well as not let his interest down a cent.
|
|
But Brother Pierce an' me, we talked it over, an' we made
|
|
up our minds we were tied hand an' foot by our contract.
|
|
You know how strong the Discipline lays it down that
|
|
we must be bound to the letter of our agreements.
|
|
That bein' so, we seen it in the light of duty not to change
|
|
what we'd set our hands to. That's how it is, Brother Ware."
|
|
|
|
"I understand," said Theron, with an effort at polite
|
|
calmness of tone. "And--is there anything else?"
|
|
|
|
"There's this," broke in Brother Pierce: "we're commanded
|
|
to be law-abiding people, an' seven per cent WAS the law an'
|
|
would be now if them ragamuffins in the Legislation--"
|
|
|
|
"Surely we needn't go further into that," interrupted
|
|
the minister, conscious of a growing stiffness
|
|
in his moral spine. "Have we any other business before us?"
|
|
|
|
Brother Pierce's little eyes snapped, and the wrinkles
|
|
in his forehead deepened angrily. "Business?" he demanded.
|
|
"Yes, plenty of it. We've got to reduce expenses.
|
|
We're nigh onto $300 behind-hand this minute. Besides your
|
|
house-rent, you get $800 free an' clear--that is $15.38
|
|
every week, an' only you an' your wife to keep out of it.
|
|
Why, when I was your age, young man, and after that too,
|
|
I was glad to get $4 a week."
|
|
|
|
"I don't think my salary is under discussion, Mr. Pierce--"
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|
|
|
"BROTHER Pierce!" suggested Winch, in a half-shuckling undertone.
|
|
|
|
"Brother Pierce, then!" echoed Theron, impatiently.
|
|
"The Quarterly Conference and the Estimating Committee
|
|
deal with that. The trustees have no more to do with it
|
|
than the man in the moon."
|
|
|
|
"Come, come, Brother Ware," put in Erastus Winch,
|
|
"we mustn't have no hard feelin's. Brotherly love is
|
|
what we're all lookin' after. Brother Pierce's meanin'
|
|
wasn't agin your drawin' your full salary, every cent
|
|
of it, only--only there are certain little things connected
|
|
with the parsonage here that we feel you ought to bear.
|
|
F'r instance, there's the new sidewalk we had to lay
|
|
in front of the house here only a month ago. Of course,
|
|
if the treasury was flush we wouldn't say a word about it.
|
|
An' then there's the gas bill here. Seein' as you get
|
|
your rent for nothin', it don't seem much to ask that you
|
|
should see to lightin' the place yourself."
|
|
|
|
"No, I don't think that either is a proper charge upon me,"
|
|
interposed Theron. "I decline to pay them."
|
|
|
|
"We can have the gas shut off," remarked Brother Pierce, coldly.
|
|
|
|
"As soon as you like," responded the minister, sitting erect
|
|
and tapping the carpet nervously with his foot. Only you
|
|
must understand that I will take the whole matter to the
|
|
Quarterly Conference in July. I already see a good many
|
|
other interesting questions about the financial management
|
|
of this church which might be appropriately discussed there."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, come, Brother Ware!" broke in Trustee Winch, with a
|
|
somewhat agitated assumption of good-feeling. "Surely
|
|
these are matters we ought to settle amongst ourselves.
|
|
We never yet asked outsiders to meddle with our business here.
|
|
It's our motto, Brother Ware. I say, if you've got a motto,
|
|
stand by it."
|
|
|
|
"Well, my motto," said Theron, "is to be behaved decently
|
|
to by those with whom I have to deal; and I also propose
|
|
to stand by it."
|
|
|
|
Brother Pierce rose gingerly to his feet, with the
|
|
hesitation of an old man not sure about his knees.
|
|
When he had straightened himself, he put on his hat,
|
|
and eyed the minister sternly from beneath its brim.
|
|
|
|
"The Lord gives us crosses grievous to our natur',"
|
|
he said, "an' we're told to bear 'em cheerfully as long
|
|
as they're on our backs; but there ain't nothin' said agin
|
|
our unloadin' 'em in the ditch the minute we git the chance.
|
|
I guess you won't last here more 'n a twelvemonth."
|
|
|
|
He pulled his soft and discolored old hat down over his
|
|
brows with a significantly hostile nod, and, turning,
|
|
stumped toward the hall-door without offering to shake hands.
|
|
|
|
The other trustees had risen likewise, in tacit recognition
|
|
that the meeting was over. Winch clasped the minister's
|
|
hand in his own broad, hard palm, and squeezed it in an
|
|
exuberant grip. "Don't mind his little ways, Brother Ware,"
|
|
he urged in a loud, unctuous whisper, with a grinning
|
|
backward nod: "he's a trifle skittish sometimes when you
|
|
don't give him free rein; but he's all wool an' a yard
|
|
wide when it comes to right-down hard-pan religion.
|
|
My love to Sister Ware;" and he followed the senior
|
|
trustee into the hall.
|
|
|
|
Mr. Gorringe had been tying up his books and papers.
|
|
He came now with the bulky parcel under his arm, and his hat
|
|
and stick in the other hand. He could give little but his
|
|
thumb to Theron to shake. His face wore a grave expression,
|
|
and not a line relaxed as, catching the minister's look,
|
|
he slowly covered his left eye in a deliberate wink.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
"Well?--and how did it go off?" asked Alice, from where
|
|
she knelt by the oven door, a few minutes later.
|
|
|
|
For answer, Theron threw himself wearily into the big
|
|
old farm rocking-chair on the other side of the stove,
|
|
and shook his head with a lengthened sigh.
|
|
|
|
"If it wasn't for that man Gorringe of yours,"
|
|
he said dejectedly, "I think I should feel like going off--
|
|
and learning a trade."
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|
Chapter IV
|
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|
|
|
On the following Sunday, young Mrs. Ware sat alone in the
|
|
preacher's pew through the morning service, and everybody
|
|
noted that the roses had been taken from her bonnet.
|
|
In the evening she was absent, and after the doxology
|
|
and benediction several people, under the pretence of
|
|
solicitude for her health, tried to pump her husband as to
|
|
the reason. He answered their inquiries civilly enough,
|
|
but with brevity: she had stayed at home because she
|
|
did not feel like coming out--this and nothing more.
|
|
|
|
The congregation dispersed under a gossip-laden cloud
|
|
of consciousness that there must be something queer
|
|
about Sister Ware. There was a tolerably general
|
|
agreement, however, that the two sermons of the day
|
|
had been excellent. Not even Loren Pierce's railing
|
|
commentary on the pastor's introduction of an outlandish
|
|
word like "epitome"--clearly forbidden by the Discipline's
|
|
injunction to plain language understood of the people--
|
|
availed to sap the satisfaction of the majority.
|
|
|
|
Theron himself comprehended that he had pleased the bulk
|
|
of his auditors; the knowledge left him curiously hot
|
|
and cold. On the one hand, there was joy in the apparent
|
|
prospect that the congregation would back him up in a
|
|
stand against the trustees, if worst came to worst.
|
|
But, on the other hand, the bonnet episode entered his soul.
|
|
It had been a source of bitter humiliation to him to see
|
|
his wife sitting there beneath the pulpit, shorn by despotic
|
|
order of the adornments natural to her pretty head.
|
|
But he had even greater pain in contemplating the effect
|
|
it had produced on Alice herself. She had said not
|
|
a word on the subject, but her every glance and gesture
|
|
seemed to him eloquent of deep feeling about it.
|
|
He made sure that she blamed him for having defended
|
|
his own gas and sidewalk rights with successful vigor,
|
|
but permitted the sacrifice of her poor little inoffensive
|
|
roses without a protest. In this view of the matter,
|
|
indeed, he blamed himself. Was it too late to make the
|
|
error good? He ventured a hint on this Sunday evening,
|
|
when he returned to the parsonage and found her reading
|
|
an old weekly newspaper by the light of the kitchen lamp,
|
|
to the effect that he fancied there would be no great
|
|
danger in putting those roses back into her bonnet.
|
|
Without lifting her eyes from the paper, she answered
|
|
that she had no earthly desire to wear roses in her bonnet,
|
|
and went on with her reading.
|
|
|
|
At breakfast the next morning Theron found himself
|
|
in command of an unusual fund of humorous good spirits,
|
|
and was at pains to make the most of it, passing whimsical
|
|
comments on subjects which the opening day suggested,
|
|
recalling quaint and comical memories of the past,
|
|
and striving his best to force Alice into a laugh.
|
|
Formerly her merry temper had always ignited at the merest
|
|
spark of gayety. Now she gave his jokes only a dutiful
|
|
half-smile, and uttered scarcely a word in response
|
|
to his running fire of talk. When the meal was finished,
|
|
she went silently to work to clear away the dishes.
|
|
|
|
Theron turned over in his mind the project of offering
|
|
to help her, as he had done so often in those dear
|
|
old days when they laughingly began life together.
|
|
Something decided this project in the negative for him,
|
|
and after lingering moments he put on his hat and went out
|
|
for a walk.
|
|
|
|
Not even the most doleful and trying hour of his bitter
|
|
experience in Tyre had depressed him like this.
|
|
Looking back upon these past troubles, he persuaded himself
|
|
that he had borne them all with a light and cheerful heart,
|
|
simply because Alice had been one with him in every
|
|
thought and emotion. How perfect, how ideally complete,
|
|
their sympathy had always been! With what absolute
|
|
unity of mind and soul they had trod that difficult
|
|
path together! And now--henceforth--was it to be different?
|
|
The mere suggestion of such a thing chilled his veins.
|
|
He said aloud to himself as he walked that life would
|
|
be an intolerable curse if Alice were to cease sharing it
|
|
with him in every conceivable phase.
|
|
|
|
He had made his way out of town, and tramped along the
|
|
country hill-road for a considerable distance, before a
|
|
merciful light began to lessen the shadows in the picture
|
|
of gloom with which his mind tortured itself. All at once
|
|
he stopped short, lifted his head, and looked about him.
|
|
The broad valley lay warm and tranquil in the May sunshine
|
|
at his feet. In the thicket up the side-hill above him
|
|
a gray squirrel was chattering shrilly, and the birds sang
|
|
in a tireless choral confusion. Theron smiled, and drew
|
|
a long breath. The gay clamor of the woodland songsters,
|
|
the placid radiance of the landscape, were suddenly
|
|
taken in and made a part of his new mood. He listened,
|
|
smiled once more, and then started in a leisurely way
|
|
back toward Octavius.
|
|
|
|
How could he have been so ridiculous as to fancy that Alice--
|
|
his Alice--had been changed into someone else? He marvelled
|
|
now at his own perverse folly. She was overworked--
|
|
tired out--that was all. The task of moving in, of setting
|
|
the new household to rights, had been too much for her.
|
|
She must have a rest. They must get in a hired girl.
|
|
|
|
Once this decision about a servant fixed itself in the young
|
|
minister's mind, it drove out the last vestage of discomfort.
|
|
He strode along now in great content, revolving idly
|
|
a dozen different plans for gilding and beautifying this
|
|
new life of leisure into which his sanguine thoughts
|
|
projected Alice. One of these particularly pleased him,
|
|
and waxed in definiteness as he turned it over and over.
|
|
He would get another piano for her, in place of that which had
|
|
been sacrificed in Tyre. That beneficient modern invention,
|
|
the instalment plan, made this quite feasible--so easy,
|
|
in fact, that it almost seemed as if he should find his
|
|
wife playing on the new instrument when he got home.
|
|
He would stop in at the music store and see about it that
|
|
very day.
|
|
|
|
Of course, now that these important resolutions had been taken,
|
|
it would be a good thing if he could do something to bring
|
|
in some extra money. This was by no means a new notion.
|
|
He had mused over the possibility in a formless way ever
|
|
since that memorable discovery of indebtedness in Tyre,
|
|
and had long ago recognized the hopelessness of endeavor
|
|
in every channel save that of literature. Latterly his fancy
|
|
had been stimulated by reading an account of the profits
|
|
which Canon Farrar had derived from his "Life of Christ."
|
|
If such a book could command such a bewildering multitude
|
|
of readers, Theron felt there ought to be a chance for him.
|
|
So clear did constant rumination render this assumption
|
|
that the young pastor in time had come to regard
|
|
this prospective book of his as a substantial asset,
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which could be realized without trouble whenever he got
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around to it.
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He had not, it is true, gone to the length of seriously
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considering what should be the subject of his book.
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That had not seemed to him to matter much, so long as it
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was scriptural. Familiarity with the process of extracting
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a fixed amount of spiritual and intellectual meat from
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any casual text, week after week, had given him an idea
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that any one of many subjects would do, when the time came
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for him to make a choice. He realized now that the time
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for a selection had arrived, and almost simultaneously
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found himself with a ready-made decision in his mind.
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The book should be about Abraham!
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Theron Ware was extremely interested in the mechanism
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of his own brain, and followed its workings with a
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lively curiosity. Nothing could be more remarkable,
|
|
he thought, than to thus discover that, on the instant
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of his formulating a desire to know what he should
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write upon, lo, and behold! there his mind, quite on
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its own initiative, had the answer waiting for him!
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When he had gone a little further, and the powerful
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range of possibilities in the son's revolt against the
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idolatry of his father, the image-maker, in the exodus
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from the unholy city of Ur, and in the influence of the
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new nomadic life upon the little deistic family group,
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|
had begun to unfold itself before him, he felt that the hand
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of Providence was plainly discernible in the matter.
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The book was to be blessed from its very inception.
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Walking homeward briskly now, with his eyes on the sidewalk
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and his mind all aglow with crowding suggestions for the
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new work, and impatience to be at it, he came abruptly
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upon a group of men and boys who occupied the whole path,
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and were moving forward so noiselessly that he had not
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|
heard them coming. He almost ran into the leader of this
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little procession, and began a stammering apology,
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the final words of which were left unspoken, so solemnly
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heedless of him and his talk were all the faces he saw.
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In the centre of the group were four working-men,
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bearing between them an extemporized litter of two poles
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and a blanket hastily secured across them with spikes.
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Most of what this litter held was covered by another blanket,
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|
rounded in coarse folds over a shapeless bulk. From beneath
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its farther end protruded a big broom-like black beard,
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thrown upward at such an angle as to hide everything
|
|
beyond to those in front. The tall young minister,
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|
stepping aside and standing tip-toe, could see
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sloping downward behind this hedge of beard a pinched
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and chalk-like face, with wide-open, staring eyes.
|
|
Its lips, of a dull lilac hue, were moving ceaselessly,
|
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and made a dry, clicking sound.
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Theron instinctively joined himself to those who followed
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the litter--a motley dozen of street idlers, chiefly boys.
|
|
One of these in whispers explained to him that the man
|
|
was one of Jerry Madden's workmen in the wagon-shops,
|
|
who had been deployed to trim an elm-tree in front
|
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of his employer's house, and, being unused to such work,
|
|
had fallen from the top and broken all his bones.
|
|
They would have cared for him at Madden's house, but he
|
|
had insisted upon being taken home. His name was MacEvoy,
|
|
and he was Joey MacEvoy's father, and likewise Jim's
|
|
and Hughey's and Martin's. After a pause the lad,
|
|
a bright-eyed, freckled, barefooted wee Irishman,
|
|
volunteered the further information that his big brother
|
|
had run to bring "Father Forbess," on the chance that he
|
|
might be in time to administer "extry munction."
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|
|
|
The way of the silent little procession led through
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back streets--where women hanging up clothes in the
|
|
yards hurried to the gates, their aprons full of
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clothes-pins, to stare open-mouthed at the passers-by--
|
|
and came to a halt at last in an irregular and muddy lane,
|
|
before one of a half dozen shanties reared among
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|
the ash-heaps and debris of the town's most bedraggled outskirts.
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|
|
|
A stout, middle-aged, red-armed woman, already warned by some
|
|
messenger of calamity, stood waiting on the roadside bank.
|
|
There were whimpering children clinging to her skirts,
|
|
and a surrounding cluster of women of the neighborhood,
|
|
some of the more elderly of whom, shrivelled little
|
|
crones in tidy caps, and with their aprons to their eyes,
|
|
were beginning in a low-murmured minor the wail
|
|
which presently should rise into the keen of death.
|
|
Mrs. MacEvoy herself made no moan, and her broad ruddy
|
|
face was stern in expression rather than sorrowful.
|
|
When the litter stopped beside her, she laid a hand
|
|
for an instant on her husband's wet brow, and looked--
|
|
one could have sworn impassively--into his staring eyes.
|
|
Then, still without a word, she waved the bearers toward
|
|
the door, and led the way herself.
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|
|
|
Theron, somewhat wonderingly, found himself, a minute later,
|
|
inside a dark and ill-smelling room, the air of which was
|
|
humid with the steam from a boiler of clothes on the stove,
|
|
and not in other ways improved by the presence of a jostling
|
|
score of women, all straining their gaze upon the open
|
|
door of the only other apartment--the bed-chamber. Through
|
|
this they could see the workmen laying MacEvoy on the bed,
|
|
and standing awkwardly about thereafter, getting in the
|
|
way of the wife and old Maggie Quirk as they strove
|
|
to remove the garments from his crushed limbs. As the
|
|
neighbors watched what could be seen of these proceedings,
|
|
they whispered among themselves eulogies of the injured
|
|
man's industry and good temper, his habit of bringing
|
|
his money home to his wife, and the way he kept his Father
|
|
Mathew pledge and attended to his religious duties.
|
|
They admitted freely that, by the light of his example,
|
|
their own husbands and sons left much to be desired,
|
|
and from this wandered easily off into domestic
|
|
digressions of their own. But all the while their eyes
|
|
were bent upon the bedroom door; and Theron made out,
|
|
after he had grown accustomed to the gloom and the smell,
|
|
that many of them were telling their beads even while they
|
|
kept the muttered conversation alive. None of them paid
|
|
any attention to him, or seemed to regard his presence
|
|
there as unusual.
|
|
|
|
Presently he saw enter through the sunlit street doorway
|
|
a person of a different class. The bright light shone
|
|
for a passing instant upon a fashionable, flowered hat,
|
|
and upon some remarkably brilliant shade of red hair
|
|
beneath it. In another moment there had edged along
|
|
through the throng, to almost within touch of him, a tall
|
|
young woman, the owner of this hat and wonderful hair.
|
|
She was clad in light and pleasing spring attire,
|
|
and carried a parasol with a long oxidized silver
|
|
handle of a quaint pattern. She looked at him,
|
|
and he saw that her face was of a lengthened oval,
|
|
with a luminous rose-tinted skin, full red lips,
|
|
and big brown, frank eyes with heavy auburn lashes.
|
|
She made a grave little inclination of her head toward him,
|
|
and he bowed in response. Since her arrival, he noted,
|
|
the chattering of the others had entirely ceased.
|
|
|
|
"I followed the others in, in the hope that I might be
|
|
of some assistance," he ventured to explain to her in a
|
|
low murmur, feeling that at last here was some one to whom
|
|
an explanation of his presence in this Romish house was due.
|
|
"I hope they won't feel that I have intruded."
|
|
|
|
She nodded her head as if she quite understood.
|
|
"They'll take the will for the deed," she whispered back.
|
|
"Father Forbes will be here in a minute. Do you know is it
|
|
too late?"
|
|
|
|
Even as she spoke, the outer doorway was darkened by the
|
|
commanding bulk of a newcomer's figure. The flash of a silk hat,
|
|
and the deferential way in which the assembled neighbors
|
|
fell back to clear a passage, made his identity clear.
|
|
Theron felt his blood tingle in an unaccustomed way as this
|
|
priest of a strange church advanced across the room--
|
|
a broad-shouldered, portly man of more than middle height,
|
|
with a shapely, strong-lined face of almost waxen pallor,
|
|
and a firm, commanding tread. He carried in his hands,
|
|
besides his hat, a small leather-bound case. To this
|
|
and to him the women courtesied and bowed their heads as
|
|
he passed.
|
|
|
|
"Come with me," whispered the tall girl with the parasol
|
|
to Theron; and he found himself pushing along in her
|
|
wake until they intercepted the priest just outside
|
|
the bedroom door. She touched Father Forbes on the arm.
|
|
|
|
"Just to tell you that I am here," she said. The priest
|
|
nodded with a grave face, and passed into the other room.
|
|
In a minute or two the workmen, Mrs. MacEvoy, and her helper
|
|
came out, and the door was shut behind them.
|
|
|
|
"He is making his confession," explained the young lady.
|
|
"Stay here for a minute."
|
|
|
|
She moved over to where the woman of the house stood,
|
|
glum-faced and tearless, and whispered something to her.
|
|
A confused movement among the crowd followed, and out
|
|
of it presently resulted a small table, covered with a
|
|
white cloth, and bearing on it two unlighted candles,
|
|
a basin of water, and a spoon, which was brought forward
|
|
and placed in readiness before the closed door.
|
|
Some of those nearest this cleared space were kneeling now,
|
|
and murmuring a low buzz of prayer to the click of beads on
|
|
their rosaries.
|
|
|
|
The door opened, and Theron saw the priest standing in the
|
|
doorway with an uplifted hand. He wore now a surplice,
|
|
with a purple band over his shoulders, and on his pale
|
|
face there shone a tranquil and tender light.
|
|
|
|
One of the workmen fetched from the stove a brand,
|
|
lighted the two candles, and bore the table with its
|
|
contents into the bedroom. The young woman plucked
|
|
Theron's sleeve, and he dumbly followed her into the
|
|
chamber of death, making one of the group of a dozen,
|
|
headed by Mrs. MacEvoy and her children, which filled the
|
|
little room, and overflowed now outward to the street door.
|
|
He found himself bowing with the others to receive the
|
|
sprinkled holy water from the priest's white fingers;
|
|
kneeling with the others for the prayers; following in
|
|
impressed silence with the others the strange ceremonial
|
|
by which the priest traced crosses of holy oil with his
|
|
thumb upon the eyes, ears, nostrils, lips, hands, and feet
|
|
of the dying man, wiping off the oil with a piece
|
|
of cotton-batting each time after he had repeated the
|
|
invocation to forgiveness for that particular sense.
|
|
But most of all he was moved by the rich, novel sound
|
|
of the Latin as the priest rolled it forth in the
|
|
ASPERGES ME, DOMINE, and MISEREATUR VESTRI OMNIPOTENS DEUS,
|
|
with its soft Continental vowels and liquid R's. It seemed
|
|
to him that he had never really heard Latin before.
|
|
Then the astonishing young woman with the red hair
|
|
declaimed the CONFITEOR, vigorously and with a resonant
|
|
distinctness of enunciation. It was a different Latin,
|
|
harsher and more sonorous; and while it still dominated
|
|
the murmured undertone of the other's prayers, the last moment came.
|
|
|
|
Theron had stood face to face with death at many other bedsides;
|
|
no other final scene had stirred him like this.
|
|
It must have been the girl's Latin chant, with its clanging
|
|
reiteration of the great names--BEATUM MICHAELEM ARCHANGELUM,
|
|
BEATUM JOANNEM BAPTISTAM, SANCTOS APOSTOLOS PETRUM
|
|
ET PAULUM--invoked with such proud confidence in this
|
|
squalid little shanty, which so strangely affected him.
|
|
|
|
He came out with the others at last--the candles and the
|
|
folded hands over the crucifix left behind--and walked
|
|
as one in a dream. Even by the time that he had gained
|
|
the outer doorway, and stood blinking at the bright
|
|
light and filling his lungs with honest air once more,
|
|
it had begun to seem incredible to him that he had seen
|
|
and done all this.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER V
|
|
|
|
|
|
While Mr. Ware stood thus on the doorstep, through a minute
|
|
of formless musing, the priest and the girl came out, and,
|
|
somewhat to his confusion, made him one of their party.
|
|
He felt himself flushing under the idea that they would think
|
|
he had waited for them--was thrusting himself upon them.
|
|
The notion prompted him to bow frigidly in response
|
|
to Father Forbes' pleasant "I am glad to meet you, sir,"
|
|
and his outstretched hand.
|
|
|
|
"I dropped in by the--the merest accident," Theron said.
|
|
"I met them bringing the poor man home, and--and quite
|
|
without thinking, I obeyed the impulse to follow them in,
|
|
and didn't realize--"
|
|
|
|
He stopped short, annoyed by the reflection that this
|
|
was his second apology. The girl smiled placidly at him,
|
|
the while she put up her parasol.
|
|
|
|
"It did me good to see you there," she said, quite as if
|
|
she had known him all her life. "And so it did the rest
|
|
of us."
|
|
|
|
Father Forbes permitted himself a soft little chuckle,
|
|
approving rather than mirthful, and patted her on the
|
|
shoulder with the air of being fifty years her senior
|
|
instead of fifteen. To the minister's relief, he changed
|
|
the subject as the three started together toward the road.
|
|
|
|
"Then, again, no doctor was sent for!" he exclaimed,
|
|
as if resuming a familiar subject with the girl. Then he
|
|
turned to Theron. "I dare-say you have no such trouble;
|
|
but with our poorer people it is very vexing.
|
|
They will not call in a physician, but hurry off first
|
|
for the clergyman. I don't know that it is altogether
|
|
to avoid doctor's bills, but it amounts to that in effect.
|
|
Of course in this case it made no difference; but I have
|
|
had to make it a rule not to go out at night unless they
|
|
bring me a physician's card with his assurance that it
|
|
is a genuine affair. Why, only last winter, I was routed
|
|
up after midnight, and brought off in the mud and pelting
|
|
rain up one of the new streets on the hillside there,
|
|
simply because a factory girl who was laced too tight
|
|
had fainted at a dance. I slipped and fell into a puddle
|
|
in the darkness, ruined a new overcoat, and got drenched
|
|
to the skin; and when I arrived the girl had recovered
|
|
and was dancing away again, thirteen to the dozen.
|
|
It was then that I made the rule. I hope, Mr. Ware,
|
|
that Octavius is producing a pleasant impression upon you
|
|
so far?"
|
|
|
|
"I scarcely know yet," answered Theron. The genial talk
|
|
of the priest, with its whimsical anecdote, had in truth
|
|
passed over his head. His mind still had room for nothing
|
|
but that novel death-bed scene, with the winged captain
|
|
of the angelic host, the Baptist, the glorified Fisherman.
|
|
and the Preacher, all being summoned down in the pomp
|
|
of liturgical Latin to help MacEvoy to die. "If you don't
|
|
mind my saying so," he added hesitatingly, "what I have
|
|
just seen in there DID make a very powerful impression
|
|
upon me."
|
|
|
|
"It is a very ancient ceremony," said the priest;
|
|
"probably Persian, like the baptismal form, although,
|
|
for that matter, we can never dig deep enough for the
|
|
roots of these things. They all turn up Turanian if we
|
|
probe far enough. Our ways separate here, I'm afraid.
|
|
I am delighted to have made your acquaintance, Mr. Ware.
|
|
Pray look in upon me, if you can as well as not. We are
|
|
near neighbors, you know."
|
|
|
|
Father Forbes had shaken hands, and moved off up another
|
|
street some distance, before the voice of the girl
|
|
recalled Theron to himself.
|
|
|
|
"Of course you knew HIM by name," she was saying, "and he
|
|
knew you by sight, and had talked of you; but MY poor
|
|
inferior sex has to be introduced. I am Celia Madden.
|
|
My father has the wagon-shops, and I--I play the organ at
|
|
the church."
|
|
|
|
"I--I am delighted to make your acquaintance," said Theron,
|
|
conscious as he spoke that he had slavishly echoed the
|
|
formula of the priest. He could think of nothing better
|
|
to add than, "Unfortunately, we have no organ in our church."
|
|
|
|
The girl laughed, as they resumed their walk down the street.
|
|
"I'm afraid I couldn't undertake two," she said,
|
|
and laughed again. Then she spoke more seriously.
|
|
"That ceremony must have interested you a good deal,
|
|
never having seen it before. I saw that it was all new
|
|
to you, and so I made bold to take you under my wing,
|
|
so to speak."
|
|
|
|
You were very kind," said the young minister. "It was
|
|
really a great experience for me. May--may I ask,
|
|
is it a part of your functions, in the church, I mean,
|
|
to attend these last rites?"
|
|
|
|
"Mercy, no!" replied the girl, spinning the parasol on her
|
|
shoulder and smiling at the thought. "No; it was only
|
|
because MacEvoy was one of our workmen, and really came
|
|
by his death through father sending him up to trim a tree.
|
|
Ann MacEvoy will never forgive us that, the longest day
|
|
she lives. Did you notice her? She wouldn't speak to me.
|
|
After you came out, I tried to tell her that we would
|
|
look out for her and the children; but all she would say
|
|
to me was: 'An' fwat would a wheelwright, an' him the
|
|
father of a family, be doin' up a tree?'"
|
|
|
|
They had come now upon the main street of the village,
|
|
with its flagstone sidewalk overhung by a lofty canopy of
|
|
elm-boughs. Here, for the space of a block, was concentrated
|
|
such fashionable elegance of mansions and ornamental lawns
|
|
as Octavius had to offer; and it was presented with the
|
|
irregularity so characteristic of our restless civilization.
|
|
Two or three of the houses survived untouched from the
|
|
earlier days--prim, decorous structures, each with its
|
|
gabled centre and lower wings, each with its row of fluted
|
|
columns supporting the classical roof of a piazza across
|
|
its whole front, each vying with the others in the whiteness
|
|
of those wooden walls enveloping its bright green blinds.
|
|
One had to look over picket fences to see these houses,
|
|
and in doing so caught the notion that they thus railed
|
|
themselves off in pride at being able to remember before
|
|
the railroad came to the village, or the wagon-works were thought of.
|
|
|
|
Before the neighboring properties the fences had been
|
|
swept away, so that one might stroll from the sidewalk
|
|
straight across the well-trimmed sward to any one of a dozen
|
|
elaborately modern doorways. Some of the residences,
|
|
thus frankly proffering friendship to the passer-by,
|
|
were of wood painted in drabs and dusky reds,
|
|
with bulging windows which marked the native yearning
|
|
for the mediaeval, and shingles that strove to be
|
|
accounted tiles. Others--a prouder, less pretentious sort--
|
|
were of brick or stone, with terra-cotta mouldings
|
|
set into the walls, and with real slates covering
|
|
the riot of turrets and peaks and dormer peepholes overhead.
|
|
|
|
Celia Madden stopped in front of the largest and most
|
|
important-looking of these new edifices, and said,
|
|
holding out her hand: "Here I am, once more.
|
|
Good-morning, Mr. Ware."
|
|
|
|
Theron hoped that his manner did not betray the flash
|
|
of surprise he felt in discovering that his new
|
|
acquaintance lived in the biggest house in Octavius.
|
|
He remembered now that some one had pointed it out
|
|
as the abode of the owner of the wagon factories;
|
|
but it had not occurred to him before to associate this
|
|
girl with that village magnate. It was stupid of him,
|
|
of course, because she had herself mentioned her father.
|
|
He looked at her again with an awkward smile,
|
|
as he formally shook the gloved hand she gave him,
|
|
and lifted his soft hat. The strong noon sunlight,
|
|
forcing its way down between the elms, and beating upon
|
|
her parasol of lace-edged, creamy silk, made a halo
|
|
about her hair and face at once brilliant and tender.
|
|
He had not seen before how beautiful she was. She nodded
|
|
in recognition of his salute, and moved up the lawn walk,
|
|
spinning the sunshade on her shoulder.
|
|
|
|
Though the parsonage was only three blocks away,
|
|
the young minister had time to think about a good many
|
|
things before he reached home.
|
|
|
|
First of all, he had to revise in part the arrangement
|
|
of his notions about the Irish. Save for an occasional
|
|
isolated and taciturn figure among the nomadic portion
|
|
of the hired help in the farm country, Theron had scarcely
|
|
ever spoken to a person of this curiously alien race before.
|
|
He remembered now that there had been some dozen or more
|
|
Irish families in Tyre, quartered in the outskirts among
|
|
the brickyards, but he had never come in contact with any
|
|
of them, or given to their existence even a passing thought.
|
|
So far as personal acquaintance went, the Irish had been
|
|
to him only a name.
|
|
|
|
But what a sinister and repellent name! His views on
|
|
this general subject were merely those common to his
|
|
communion and his environment. He took it for granted,
|
|
for example, that in the large cities most of the poverty
|
|
and all the drunkenness, crime, and political corruption
|
|
were due to the perverse qualities of this foreign people--
|
|
qualities accentuated and emphasized in every evil direction
|
|
by the baleful influence of a false and idolatrous religion.
|
|
It is hardly too much to say that he had never encountered
|
|
a dissenting opinion on this point. His boyhood had been
|
|
spent in those bitter days when social, political, and blood
|
|
prejudices were fused at white heat in the public
|
|
crucible together. When he went to the Church Seminary,
|
|
it was a matter of course that every member of the faculty
|
|
was a Republican, and that every one of his classmates
|
|
had come from a Republican household. When, later on,
|
|
he entered the ministry, the rule was still incredulous
|
|
of exceptions. One might as well have looked in the
|
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Nedahma Conference for a divergence of opinion on the
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Trinity as for a difference in political conviction.
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Indeed, even among the laity, Theron could not feel sure
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that he had ever known a Democrat; that is, at all closely.
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He understood very little about politics, it is true.
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If he had been driven into a corner, and forced to attempt
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an explanation of this tremendous partisan unity in which he
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had a share, he would probably have first mentioned the War--
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the last shots of which were fired while he was still
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in petticoats. Certainly his second reason, however,
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|
would have been that the Irish were on the other side.
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He had never before had occasion to formulate, even in his
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own thoughts, this tacit race and religious aversion in which
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he had been bred. It rose now suddenly in front of him,
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|
as he sauntered from patch to patch of sunlight under
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the elms, like some huge, shadowy, and symbolic monument.
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|
He looked at it with wondering curiosity, as at something
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he had heard of all his life, but never seen before--
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|
an abhorrent spectacle, truly! The foundations upon
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|
which its dark bulk reared itself were ignorance, squalor,
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brutality and vice. Pigs wallowed in the mire before its base,
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and burrowing into this base were a myriad of narrow doors,
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each bearing the hateful sign of a saloon, and giving
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forth from its recesses of night the sounds of screams
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and curses. Above were sculptured rows of lowering,
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ape-like faces from Nast's and Keppler's cartoons,
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and out of these sprang into the vague upper gloom--on the
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|
one side, lamp-posts from which negroes hung by the neck,
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and on the other gibbets for dynamiters and Molly Maguires,
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and between the two glowed a spectral picture of some
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black-robed tonsured men, with leering satanic masks,
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making a bonfire of the Bible in the public schools.
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Theron stared this phantasm hard in the face, and recognized
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it for a very tolerable embodiment of what he had heretofore
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|
supposed he thought about the Irish. For an instant,
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|
the sight of it made him shiver, as if the sunny May
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|
had of a sudden lapsed back into bleak December.
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|
Then he smiled, and the bad vision went off into space.
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|
He saw instead Father Forbes, in the white and purple vestments,
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standing by poor MacEvoy's bedside, with his pale,
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chiselled, luminous, uplifted face, and he heard only
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the proud, confident clanging of the girl's recital,--
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|
BEATUM MICHAELEM ARCHANGELUM, BEATUM JOANNEM BAPTISTAM,
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PETRUM ET PAULUM--EM!--AM!--UM!--like strokes on a great
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resonant alarm-bell, attuned for the hearing of heaven.
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He caught himself on the very verge of feeling that heaven
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|
must have heard.
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Then he smiled again, and laid the matter aside, with a
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|
parting admission that it had been undoubtedly picturesque
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|
and impressive, and that it had been a valuable experience
|
|
to him to see it. At least the Irish, with all their faults,
|
|
must have a poetic strain, or they would not have clung
|
|
so tenaciously to those curious and ancient forms.
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|
He recalled having heard somewhere, or read, it might be,
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that they were a people much given to songs and music.
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|
And the young lady, that very handsome and friendly
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Miss Madden, had told him that she was a musician!
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|
He had a new pleasure in turning this over in his mind.
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|
Of all the closed doors which his choice of a career had
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|
left along his pathway, no other had for him such a magical
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|
fascination as that on which was graven the lute of Orpheus.
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He knew not even the alphabet of music, and his conceptions
|
|
of its possibilities ran but little beyond the best
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|
of the hymn-singing he had heard at Conferences, yet none
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|
the less the longing for it raised on occasion such mutiny
|
|
in his soul that more than once he had specifically prayed
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|
against it as a temptation.
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|
Dangerous though some of its tendencies might be, there was
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|
no gainsaying the fact that a love for music was in the main
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an uplifting influence--an attribute of cultivation.
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|
The world was the sweeter and more gentle for it. And this
|
|
brought him to musing upon the odd chance that the two people
|
|
of Octavius who had given him the first notion of polish
|
|
and intellectual culture in the town should be Irish.
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|
The Romish priest must have been vastly surprised at
|
|
his intrusion, yet had been at the greatest pains to act
|
|
as if it were quite the usual thing to have Methodist
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|
ministers assist at Extreme Unction. And the young woman--
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|
how gracefully, with what delicacy, had she comprehended his
|
|
position and robbed it of all its possible embarrassments!
|
|
It occurred to him that they must have passed, there in
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|
front of her home, the very tree from which the luckless
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|
wheelwright had fallen some hours before; and the fact
|
|
that she had forborne to point it out to him took form
|
|
in his mind as an added proof of her refinement of nature.
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|
The midday dinner was a little more than ready when Theron
|
|
reached home, and let himself in by the front door.
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|
On Mondays, owing to the moisture and "clutter" of the
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|
weekly washing in the kitchen, the table was laid in the
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sitting-room, and as he entered from the hall the partner
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|
of his joys bustled in by the other door, bearing the steaming
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|
platter of corned beef, dumplings, cabbages, and carrots,
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|
with arms bared to the elbows, and a red face. It gave
|
|
him great comfort, however, to note that there were no
|
|
signs of the morning's displeasure remaining on this face;
|
|
and he immediately remembered again those interrupted
|
|
projects of his about the piano and the hired girl.
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|
|
|
"Well! I'd just about begun to reckon that I was
|
|
a widow," said Alice, putting down her fragrant burden.
|
|
There was such an obvious suggestion of propitiation
|
|
in her tone that Theron went around and kissed her.
|
|
He thought of saying something about keeping out of the way
|
|
because it was "Blue Monday," but held it back lest it
|
|
should sound like a reproach.
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|
|
|
"Well, what kind of a washerwoman does THIS one turn
|
|
out to be?" he asked, after they were seated, and he had
|
|
invoked a blessing and was cutting vigorously into the meat.
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|
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"Oh, so-so," replied Alice; "she seems to be particular,
|
|
but she's mortal slow. If I hadn't stood right over her,
|
|
we shouldn't have had the clothes out till goodness knows when.
|
|
And of course she's Irish!"
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|
|
|
"Well, what of THAT?" asked the minister, with a fine unconcern.
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|
|
|
Alice looked up from her plate, with knife and fork
|
|
suspended in air. "Why, you know we were talking
|
|
only the other day of what a pity it was that none
|
|
of our own people went out washing," she said.
|
|
"That Welsh woman we heard of couldn't come, after all;
|
|
and they say, too, that she presumes dreadfully upon
|
|
the acquaintance, being a church member, you know. So we
|
|
simply had to fall back on the Irish. And even if they do
|
|
go and tell their priest everything they see and hear, why,
|
|
there's one comfort, they can tell about US and welcome.
|
|
Of course I see to it she doesn't snoop around in here."
|
|
|
|
Theron smiled. "That's all nonsense about their telling
|
|
such things to their priests," he said with easy confidence.
|
|
|
|
"Why, you told me so yourself," replied Alice, briskly.
|
|
"And I've always understood so, too; they're bound to tell
|
|
EVERYTHING in confession. That's what gives the Catholic
|
|
Church such a tremendous hold. You've spoken of it often."
|
|
|
|
"It must have been by way of a figure of speech,"
|
|
remarked Theron, not with entire directness. "Women are great
|
|
hands to separate one's observations from their context,
|
|
and so give them meanings quite unintended. They are also
|
|
great hands," he added genially, "or at least one of them is,
|
|
at making the most delicious dumplings in the world.
|
|
I believe these are the best even you ever made."
|
|
|
|
Alice was not unmindful of the compliment, but her thoughts
|
|
were on other things. "I shouldn't like that woman's priest,
|
|
for example," she said, "to know that we had no piano."
|
|
|
|
"But if he comes and stands outside our house every
|
|
night and listens--as of course he will," said Theron,
|
|
with mock gravity, "it is only a question of time when he
|
|
must reach that conclusion for himself. Our only chance,
|
|
however, is that there are some sixteen hundred other
|
|
houses for him to watch, so that he may not get around
|
|
to us for quite a spell. Why, seriously, Alice, what on
|
|
earth do you suppose Father Forbes knows or cares about
|
|
our poor little affairs, or those of any other Protestant
|
|
household in this whole village? He has his work to do,
|
|
just as I have mine--only his is ten times as exacting
|
|
in everything except sermons--and you may be sure he is
|
|
only too glad when it is over each day, without bothering
|
|
about things that are none of his business."
|
|
|
|
"All the same I'm afraid of them," said Alice,
|
|
as if argument were exhausted.
|
|
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|
CHAPTER VI
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On the following morning young Mr. Ware anticipated events
|
|
by inscribing in his diary for the day, immediately
|
|
after breakfast, these remarks: "Arranged about piano.
|
|
Began work upon book."
|
|
|
|
The date indeed deserved to be distinguished from
|
|
its fellows. Theron was so conscious of its importance
|
|
that he not only prophesied in the little morocco-bound
|
|
diary which Alice had given him for Christmas,
|
|
but returned after he had got out upon the front
|
|
steps of the parsonage to have his hat brushed afresh by her.
|
|
|
|
"Wonders will never cease," she said jocosely. "With you
|
|
getting particular about your clothes, there isn't
|
|
anything in this wide world that can't happen now!"
|
|
|
|
"One doesn't go out to bring home a piano every day,"
|
|
he made answer. "Besides, I want to make such an impression
|
|
upon the man that he will deal gently with that first cash
|
|
payment down. Do you know," he added, watching her turn
|
|
the felt brim under the wisp-broom's strokes, "I'm thinking
|
|
some of getting me a regular silk stove-pipe hat."
|
|
|
|
"Why don't you, then?" she rejoined, but without any ring
|
|
of glad acquiescence in her tone. He fancied that her
|
|
face lengthened a little, and he instantly ascribed it
|
|
to recollections of the way in which the roses had been
|
|
bullied out of her own headgear.
|
|
|
|
"You are quite sure, now, pet," he made haste to change
|
|
the subject, "that the hired girl can wait just as well
|
|
as not until fall?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, MY, yes!" Alice replied, putting the hat on his head,
|
|
and smoothing back his hair behind his ears. "She'd only
|
|
be in the way now. You see, with hot weather coming on,
|
|
there won't be much cooking. We'll take all our meals
|
|
out here, and that saves so much work that really what
|
|
remains is hardly more than taking care of a bird-cage. And,
|
|
besides, not having her will almost half pay for the piano."
|
|
|
|
"But when cold weather comes, you're sure you'll consent?"
|
|
he urged.
|
|
|
|
"Like a shot!" she assured him, and, after a happy
|
|
little caress, he started out again on his momentous mission.
|
|
|
|
"Thurston's" was a place concerning which opinions differed
|
|
in Octavius. That it typified progress, and helped more
|
|
than any other feature of the village to bring it up
|
|
to date, no one indeed disputed. One might move about
|
|
a great deal, in truth, and hear no other view expressed.
|
|
But then again one might stumble into conversation with
|
|
one small storekeeper after another, and learn that they
|
|
united in resenting the existence of "Thurston's," as
|
|
rival farmers might join to curse a protracted drought.
|
|
Each had his special flaming grievance. The little
|
|
dry-goods dealers asked mournfully how they could be
|
|
expected to compete with an establishment which could buy
|
|
bankrupt stocks at a hundred different points, and make
|
|
a profit if only one-third of the articles were sold
|
|
for more than they would cost from the jobber? The little
|
|
boot and shoe dealers, clothiers, hatters, and furriers,
|
|
the small merchants in carpets, crockery, and furniture,
|
|
the venders of hardware and household utensils, of leathern
|
|
goods and picture-frames, of wall-paper, musical instruments,
|
|
and even toys--all had the same pathetically unanswerable
|
|
question to propound. But mostly they put it to themselves,
|
|
because the others were at "Thurston's."
|
|
|
|
The Rev. Theron Ware had entertained rather strong views
|
|
on this subject, and that only a week or two ago.
|
|
One of his first acquaintances in Octavius had been
|
|
the owner of the principal book-store in the place--
|
|
a gentle and bald old man who produced the complete
|
|
impression of a bibliophile upon what the slightest
|
|
investigation showed to be only a meagre acquaintance
|
|
with publishers' circulars. But at least he had the air
|
|
of loving his business, and the young minister had enjoyed
|
|
a long talk with, or rather, at him. Out of this talk
|
|
had come the information that the store was losing money.
|
|
Not even the stationery department now showed a profit
|
|
worth mentioning. When Octavius had contained only five
|
|
thousand inhabitants, it boasted four book-stores, two of
|
|
them good ones. Now, with a population more than doubled,
|
|
only these latter two survived, and they must soon go
|
|
to the wall. The reason? It was in a nutshell. A book
|
|
which sold at retail for one dollar and a half cost the
|
|
bookseller ninety cents. If it was at all a popular book,
|
|
"Thurston's" advertised it at eighty-nine cents--
|
|
and in any case at a profit of only two or three cents.
|
|
Of course it was done to widen the establishment's patronage--
|
|
to bring people into the store. Equally of course,
|
|
it was destroying the book business and debauching the
|
|
reading tastes of the community. Without the profits from
|
|
the light and ephemeral popular literature of the season,
|
|
the book-store proper could not keep up its stock of more
|
|
solid works, and indeed could not long keep open at all.
|
|
On the other hand, "Thurston's" dealt with nothing save
|
|
the demand of the moment, and offered only the books
|
|
which were the talk of the week. Thus, in plain words,
|
|
the book trade was going to the dogs, and it was the same
|
|
with pretty nearly every other trade.
|
|
|
|
Theron was indignant at this, and on his return home
|
|
told Alice that he desired her to make no purchases
|
|
whatever at "Thurston's." He even resolved to preach
|
|
a sermon on the subject of the modern idea of admiring
|
|
the great for crushing the small, and sketched out some
|
|
notes for it which he thought solved the problem of
|
|
flaying the local abuse without mentioning it by name.
|
|
They had lain on his desk now for ten days or more,
|
|
and on only the previous Friday he had speculated upon
|
|
using them that coming Sunday.
|
|
|
|
On this bright and cheerful Tuesday morning he walked
|
|
with a blithe step unhesitatingly down the main street
|
|
to "Thurston's," and entered without any show of repugnance
|
|
the door next to the window wherein, flanked by dangling
|
|
banjos and key-bugles built in pyramids, was displayed
|
|
the sign, "Pianos on the Instalment Plan."
|
|
|
|
He was recognized by some responsible persons, and treated
|
|
with distinguished deference. They were charmed with
|
|
the intelligence that he desired a piano, and fascinated
|
|
by his wish to pay for it only a little at a time.
|
|
They had special terms for clergymen, and made him feel
|
|
as if these were being extended to him on a silver charger
|
|
by kneeling admirers.
|
|
|
|
It was so easy to buy things here that he was a trifle
|
|
disturbed to find his flowing course interrupted by his
|
|
own entire ignorance as to what kind of piano he wanted.
|
|
He looked at all they had in stock, and heard them played upon.
|
|
They differed greatly in price, and, so he fancied,
|
|
almost as much in tone. It discouraged him to note,
|
|
however, that several of those he thought the finest
|
|
in tone were among the very cheapest in the lot.
|
|
Pondering this, and staring in hopeless puzzlement
|
|
from one to another of the big black shiny monsters,
|
|
he suddenly thought of something.
|
|
|
|
"I would rather not decide for myself," he said, "I know
|
|
so little about it. If you don't mind, I will have a friend
|
|
of mine, a skilled musician, step in and make a selection.
|
|
I have so much confidence in--in her judgment."
|
|
He added hurriedly, "It will involve only a day or two's delay."
|
|
|
|
The next moment he was sorry he had spoken. What would they
|
|
think when they saw the organist of the Catholic church
|
|
come to pick out a piano for the Methodist parsonage?
|
|
And how could he decorously prefer the request to her to
|
|
undertake this task? He might not meet her again for ages,
|
|
and to his provincial notions writing would have seemed
|
|
out of the question. And would it not be disagreeable to
|
|
have her know that he was buying a piano by part payments?
|
|
Poor Alice's dread of the washerwoman's gossip occurred
|
|
to him, at this, and he smiled in spite of himself.
|
|
Then all at once the difficulty vanished. Of course it
|
|
would come all right somehow. Everything did.
|
|
|
|
He was on firmer ground, buying the materials for the new book,
|
|
over on the stationery side. His original intention had
|
|
been to bestow this patronage upon the old bookseller,
|
|
but these suavely smart people in "Thurston's" had had
|
|
the effect of putting him on his honor when they asked,
|
|
"Would there be anything else?" and he had followed
|
|
them unresistingly.
|
|
|
|
He indulged to the full his whim that everything entering into
|
|
the construction of "Abraham" should be spick-and-span. He
|
|
watched with his own eyes a whole ream of broad glazed white
|
|
paper being sliced down by the cutter into single sheets,
|
|
and thrilled with a novel ecstasy as he laid his hand
|
|
upon the spotless bulk, so wooingly did it invite him
|
|
to begin. He tried a score of pens before the right one
|
|
came to hand. When a box of these had been laid aside,
|
|
with ink and pen-holders and a little bronze inkstand,
|
|
he made a sign that the outfit was complete. Or no--
|
|
there must be some blotting-paper. He had always used
|
|
those blotting-pads given away by insurance companies--
|
|
his congregations never failed to contain one or more agents,
|
|
who had these to bestow by the armful--but the book
|
|
deserved a virgin blotter.
|
|
|
|
Theron stood by while all these things were being tied up
|
|
together in a parcel. The suggestion that they should
|
|
be sent almost hurt him. Oh, no, he would carry them
|
|
home himself. So strongly did they appeal to his sanguine
|
|
imagination that he could not forbear hinting to the man
|
|
who had shown him the pianos and was now accompanying him
|
|
to the door that this package under his arm represented
|
|
potentially the price of the piano he was going to have.
|
|
He did it in a roundabout way, with one of his droll,
|
|
hesitating smiles. The man did not understand at all,
|
|
and Theron had not the temerity to repeat the remark.
|
|
He strode home with the precious bundle as fast as
|
|
he could.
|
|
|
|
"I thought it best, after all, not to commit myself to
|
|
a selection," he explained about the piano at dinner-time. "In
|
|
such a matter as this, the opinion of an expert is everything.
|
|
I am going to have one of the principal musicians
|
|
of the town go and try them all, and tell me which we ought to have."
|
|
|
|
"And while he's about it," said Alice, "you might ask
|
|
him to make a little list of some of the new music.
|
|
I've got way behind the times, being without a piano
|
|
so long. Tell him not any VERY difficult pieces,
|
|
you know."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I know," put in Theron, almost hastily,
|
|
and began talking of other things. His conversation
|
|
was of the most rambling and desultory sort, because all
|
|
the while the two lobes of his brain, as it were,
|
|
kept up a dispute as to whether Alice ought to have been
|
|
told that this "principal musician" was of her own sex.
|
|
It would certainly have been better, at the outset,
|
|
he decided; but to mention it now would be to invest the
|
|
fact with undue importance. Yes, that was quite clear;
|
|
only the clearer it became, from one point of view,
|
|
the shadier it waxed from the other. The problem really
|
|
disturbed the young minister's mind throughout the meal,
|
|
and his abstraction became so marked at last that his wife
|
|
commented upon it.
|
|
|
|
"A penny for your thoughts!" she said, with cheerful briskness.
|
|
This ancient formula of the farm-land had always rather
|
|
jarred on Theron. It presented itself now to his mind
|
|
as a peculiarly aggravating banality.
|
|
|
|
"I am going to begin my book this afternoon,"
|
|
he remarked impressively. "There is a great deal to think about."
|
|
|
|
It turned out that there was even more to think about than he
|
|
had imagined. After hours of solitary musing at his desk,
|
|
or of pacing up and down before his open book-shelves,
|
|
Theron found the first shadows of a May-day twilight
|
|
beginning to fall upon that beautiful pile of white paper,
|
|
still unstained by ink. He saw the book he wanted to write
|
|
before him, in his mental vision, much more distinctly
|
|
than ever, but the idea of beginning it impetuously,
|
|
and hurling it off hot and glowing week by week, had faded
|
|
away like a dream.
|
|
|
|
This long afternoon, spent face to face with a project
|
|
born of his own brain but yesterday, yet already so
|
|
much bigger than himself, was really a most fruitful
|
|
time for the young clergyman. The lessons which cut
|
|
most deeply into our consciousness are those we learn
|
|
from our children. Theron, in this first day's contact
|
|
with the offspring of his fancy, found revealed to him
|
|
an unsuspected and staggering truth. It was that he
|
|
was an extremely ignorant and rudely untrained young man,
|
|
whose pretensions to intellectual authority among any
|
|
educated people would be laughed at with deserved contempt.
|
|
|
|
Strangely enough, after he had weathered the first shock,
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this discovery did not dismay Theron Ware. The very completeness
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of the conviction it carried with it, saturated his mind
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with a feeling as if the fact had really been known to him
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all along. And there came, too, after a little, an almost
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pleasurable sense of the importance of the revelation.
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He had been merely drifting in fatuous and conceited blindness.
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Now all at once his eyes were open; he knew what he
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had to do. Ignorance was a thing to be remedied, and he
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would forthwith bend all his energies to cultivating
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his mind till it should blossom like a garden.
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In this mood, Theron mentally measured himself against
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the more conspicuous of his colleagues in the Conference.
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They also were ignorant, clownishly ignorant: the difference
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was that they were doomed by native incapacity to go
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on all their lives without ever finding it out. It was
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obvious to him that his case was better. There was bright
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promise in the very fact that he had discovered his shortcomings.
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He had begun the afternoon by taking down from their
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places the various works in his meagre library which
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bore more or less relation to the task in hand.
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The threescore books which constituted his printed
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possessions were almost wholly from the press of the
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Book Concern; the few exceptions were volumes which,
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|
though published elsewhere, had come to him through
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that giant circulating agency of the General Conference,
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and wore the stamp of its approval. Perhaps it was the
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|
sight of these half-filled shelves which started this
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day's great revolution in Theron's opinions of himself.
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He had never thought much before about owning books.
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He had been too poor to buy many, and the conditions of
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canvassing about among one's parishioners which the thrifty
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Book Concern imposes upon those who would have without buying,
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|
had always repelled him. Now, suddenly, as he moved along
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the two shelves, he felt ashamed at their beggarly showing.
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"The Land and the Book," in three portly volumes,
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was the most pretentious of the aids which he finally
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|
culled from his collection. Beside it he laid
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out "Bible Lands," "Rivers and Lakes of Scripture,"
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"Bible Manners and Customs," the "Genesis and Exodus"
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volume of Whedon's Commentary, some old numbers of the
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"Methodist Quarterly Review," and a copy of "Josephus"
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which had belonged to his grandmother, and had seen
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him through many a weary Sunday afternoon in boyhood.
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He glanced casually through these, one by one, as he took
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them down, and began to fear that they were not going to be
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of so much use as he had thought. Then, seating himself,
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he read carefully through the thirteen chapters of Genesis
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which chronicle the story of the founder of Israel.
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Of course he had known this story from his earliest years.
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In almost every chapter he came now upon a phrase or an
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incident which had served him as the basis for a sermon.
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He had preached about Hagar in the wilderness,
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about Lot's wife, about the visit of the angels,
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about the intended sacrifice of Isaac, about a dozen other
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things suggested by the ancient narrative. Somehow this
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|
time it all seemed different to him. The people he read
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about were altered to his vision. Heretofore a poetic
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light had shone about them, where indeed they had not
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|
glowed in a halo of sanctification. Now, by some chance,
|
|
this light was gone, and he saw them instead as untutored and
|
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unwashed barbarians, filled with animal lusts and ferocities,
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struggling by violence and foul chicanery to secure
|
|
a foothold in a country which did not belong to them--
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all rude tramps and robbers of the uncivilized plain.
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The apparent fact that Abram was a Chaldean struck him
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|
with peculiar force. How was it, he wondered, that this
|
|
had never occurred to him before? Examining himself,
|
|
he found that he had supposed vaguely that there had been
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Jews from the beginning, or at least, say, from the flood.
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|
But, no, Abram was introduced simply as a citizen
|
|
of the Chaldean town of Ur, and there was no hint of
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|
any difference in race between him and his neighbors.
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|
It was specially mentioned that his brother, Lot's father,
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|
died in Ur, the city of his nativity. Evidently the family
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belonged there, and were Chaldeans like the rest.
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I do not cite this as at all a striking discovery, but it
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|
did have a curious effect upon Theron Ware. Up to that
|
|
very afternoon, his notion of the kind of book he wanted
|
|
to write had been founded upon a popular book called "Ruth
|
|
the Moabitess," written by a clergyman he knew very well,
|
|
the Rev. E. Ray Mifflin. This model performance troubled
|
|
itself not at all with difficult points, but went swimmingly
|
|
along through scented summer seas of pretty rhetoric,
|
|
teaching nothing, it is true, but pleasing a good deal
|
|
and selling like hot cakes. Now, all at once Theron
|
|
felt that he hated that sort of book. HIS work should
|
|
be of a vastly different order. He might fairly assume,
|
|
he thought, that if the fact that Abram was a Chaldean
|
|
was new to him, it would fall upon the world in general
|
|
as a novelty. Very well, then, there was his chance.
|
|
He would write a learned book, showing who the Chaldeans
|
|
were, and how their manners and beliefs differed from,
|
|
and influenced--
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|
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|
It was at this psychological instant that the wave of
|
|
self-condemnation suddenly burst upon and submerged the
|
|
young clergyman. It passed again, leaving him staring fixedly
|
|
at the pile of books he had taken down from the shelves,
|
|
and gasping a little, as if for breath. Then the humorous
|
|
side of the thing, perversely enough, appealed to him,
|
|
and he grinned feebly to himself at the joke of his having
|
|
imagined that he could write learnedly about the Chaldeans,
|
|
or anything else. But, no, it shouldn't remain a joke!
|
|
His long mobile face grew serious under the new resolve.
|
|
He would learn what there was to be learned about the Chaldeans.
|
|
He rose and walked up and down the room, gathering fresh
|
|
strength of purpose as this inviting field of research
|
|
spread out its vistas before him. Perhaps--yes, he would
|
|
incidentally explore the mysteries of the Moabitic past
|
|
as well, and thus put the Rev. E. Ray Mifflin to confusion
|
|
on his own subject. That would in itself be a useful thing,
|
|
because Mifflin wore kid gloves at the Conference,
|
|
and affected an intolerable superiority of dress and demeanor,
|
|
and there would be general satisfaction among the plainer
|
|
and worthier brethren at seeing him taken down a peg.
|
|
|
|
Now for the first time there rose distinctly in Theron's
|
|
mind that casual allusion which Father Forbes had made
|
|
to the Turanians. He recalled, too, his momentary feeling
|
|
of mortification at not knowing who the Turanians were,
|
|
at the time. Possibly, if he had probed this matter more deeply,
|
|
now as he walked and pondered in the little living-room,
|
|
he might have traced the whole of the afternoon's mental
|
|
experiences to that chance remark of the Romish priest.
|
|
But this speculation did not detain him. He mused instead
|
|
upon the splendid library Father Forbes must have.
|
|
|
|
"Well, how does the book come on? Have you got to 'my
|
|
Lady Keturah' yet?'"
|
|
|
|
It was Alice who spoke, opening the door from the kitchen,
|
|
and putting in her head with a pretence of great and
|
|
solemn caution, but with a correcting twinkle in her eyes.
|
|
|
|
"I haven't got to anybody yet," answered Theron, absently.
|
|
"These big things must be approached slowly."
|
|
|
|
Come out to supper, then, while the beans are hot,"
|
|
said Alice.
|
|
|
|
The young minister sat through this other meal, again in
|
|
deep abstraction. His wife pursued her little pleasantry
|
|
about Keturah, the second wife, urging him with mock gravity
|
|
to scold her roundly for daring to usurp Sarah's place,
|
|
but Theron scarcely heard her, and said next to nothing.
|
|
He ate sparingly, and fidgeted in his seat, waiting with
|
|
obvious impatience for the finish of the meal.
|
|
At last he rose abruptly.
|
|
|
|
"I've got a call to make--something with reference
|
|
to the book," he said. "I'll run out now, I think,
|
|
before it gets dark."
|
|
|
|
He put on his hat, and strode out of the house as if his
|
|
errand was of the utmost urgency. Once upon the street,
|
|
however, his pace slackened. There was still a good deal
|
|
of daylight outside, and he loitered aimlessly about,
|
|
walking with bowed head and hands clasped behind him,
|
|
until dusk fell. Then he squared his shoulders,
|
|
and started straight as the crow flies toward the residence
|
|
of Father Forbes.
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|
CHAPTER VII
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|
The new Catholic church was the largest and most imposing
|
|
public building in Octavius. Even in its unfinished condition,
|
|
with a bald roofing of weather-beaten boards marking on
|
|
the stunted tower the place where a spire was to begin
|
|
later on, it dwarfed every other edifice of the sort in
|
|
the town, just as it put them all to shame in the matter
|
|
of the throngs it drew, rain or shine, to its services.
|
|
|
|
These facts had not heretofore been a source of satisfaction
|
|
to the Rev. Theron Ware. He had even alluded to the subject
|
|
in terms which gave his wife the impression that he
|
|
actively deplored the strength and size of the Catholic
|
|
denomination in this new home of theirs, and was troubled
|
|
in his mind about Rome generally. But this evening he
|
|
walked along the extended side of the big structure,
|
|
which occupied nearly half the block, and then,
|
|
turning the corner, passed in review its wide-doored,
|
|
looming front, without any hostile emotions whatever.
|
|
In the gathering dusk it seemed more massive than ever before,
|
|
but he found himself only passively considering the odd
|
|
statement he had heard that all Catholic Church property
|
|
was deeded absolutely in the name of the Bishop of the diocese.
|
|
|
|
Only a narrow passage-way separated the church from
|
|
the pastorate--a fine new brick residence standing
|
|
flush upon the street. Theron mounted the steps,
|
|
and looked about for a bell-pull. Search revealed instead
|
|
a little ivory button set in a ring of metal work.
|
|
He picked at this for a time with his finger-nail, before
|
|
he made out the injunction, printed across it, to push.
|
|
Of course! how stupid of him! This was one of those
|
|
electric bells he had heard so much of, but which had not
|
|
as yet made their way to the class of homes he knew.
|
|
For custodians of a mediaeval superstition and fanaticism,
|
|
the Catholic clergy seemed very much up to date. This bell
|
|
made him feel rather more a countryman than ever.
|
|
|
|
The door was opened by a tall gaunt woman, who stood
|
|
in black relief against the radiance of the hall-way
|
|
while Theron, choosing his words with some diffidence,
|
|
asked if the Rev. Mr. Forbes was in.
|
|
|
|
"He is" came the hush-voiced answer. "He's at dinner, though."
|
|
|
|
It took the young minister a second or two to bring
|
|
into association in his mind this evening hour and this
|
|
midday meal. Then he began to say that he would call again--
|
|
it was nothing special--but the woman suddenly cut him
|
|
short by throwing the door wide open.
|
|
|
|
"It's Mr. Ware, is it not?" she asked, in a greatly
|
|
altered tone. "Sure, he'd not have you go away.
|
|
Come inside--do, sir!--I'll tell him."
|
|
|
|
Theron, with a dumb show of reluctance, crossed the threshold.
|
|
He noted now that the woman, who had bustled down the hall
|
|
on her errand, was gray-haired and incredibly ugly, with a
|
|
dark sour face, glowering black eyes, and a twisted mouth.
|
|
Then he saw that he was not alone in the hall-way.
|
|
Three men and two women, all poorly clad and obviously
|
|
working people, were seated in meek silence on a bench
|
|
beyond the hat-rack. They glanced up at him for an instant,
|
|
then resumed their patient study of the linoleum pattern
|
|
on the floor at their feet.
|
|
|
|
"And will you kindly step in, sir?" the elderly Gorgon
|
|
had returned to ask. She led Mr. Ware along the hall-way
|
|
to a door near the end, and opened it for him to pass
|
|
before her.
|
|
|
|
He entered a room in which for the moment he could see
|
|
nothing but a central glare of dazzling light beating
|
|
down from a great shaded lamp upon a circular patch
|
|
of white table linen. Inside this ring of illumination
|
|
points of fire sparkled from silver and porcelain,
|
|
and two bars of burning crimson tracked across the cloth
|
|
in reflection from tall glasses filled with wine.
|
|
The rest of the room was vague darkness; but the gloom
|
|
seemed saturated with novel aromatic odors, the appetizing
|
|
scent of which bore clear relation to what Theron's
|
|
blinking eyes rested upon.
|
|
|
|
He was able now to discern two figures at the table,
|
|
outside the glowing circle of the lamp. They had
|
|
both risen, and one came toward him with cordial celerity,
|
|
holding out a white plump hand in greeting. He took
|
|
this proffered hand rather limply, not wholly sure
|
|
in the half-light that this really was Father Forbes,
|
|
and began once more that everlasting apology to which he
|
|
seemed doomed in the presence of the priest. It was
|
|
broken abruptly off by the other's protesting laughter.
|
|
|
|
"My dear Mr. Ware, I beg of you," the priest urged,
|
|
chuckling with hospitable mirth, "don't, don't apologize!
|
|
I give you my word, nothing in the world could have
|
|
pleased us better than your joining us here tonight.
|
|
It was quite dramatic, your coming in as you did.
|
|
We were speaking of you at that very moment. Oh, I forgot--
|
|
let me make you acquainted with my friend--my very
|
|
particular friend, Dr. Ledsmar. Let me take your hat;
|
|
pray draw up a chair. Maggie will have a place laid for you
|
|
in a minute."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I assure you--I couldn't think of it--I've just
|
|
eaten my--my--dinner," expostulated Theron. He murmured
|
|
more inarticulate remonstrances a moment later, when the
|
|
grim old domestic appeared with plates, serviette,
|
|
and tableware for his use, but she went on spreading
|
|
them before him as if she heard nothing. Thus committed
|
|
against a decent show of resistance, the young minister did
|
|
eat a little here and there of what was set before him,
|
|
and was human enough to regret frankly that he could
|
|
not eat more. It seemed to him very remarkable cookery,
|
|
transfiguring so simple a thing as a steak, for example,
|
|
quite out of recognition, and investing the humble
|
|
potato with a charm he had never dreamed of.
|
|
He wondered from time to time if it would be polite
|
|
to ask how the potatoes were cooked, so that he might tell Alice.
|
|
|
|
The conversation at the table was not continuous,
|
|
or even enlivened. After the lapses into silence became marked,
|
|
Theron began to suspect that his refusal to drink wine had
|
|
annoyed them--the more so as he had drenched a large section
|
|
of table-cloth in his efforts to manipulate a siphon instead.
|
|
He was greatly relieved, therefore, when Father Forbes
|
|
explained in an incidental way that Dr. Ledsmar
|
|
and he customarily ate their meals almost without a word.
|
|
|
|
"It's a philosophic fad of his," the priest went on smilingly,
|
|
"and I have fallen in with it for the sake of a quiet life;
|
|
so that when we do have company--that is to say,
|
|
once in a blue moon--we display no manners to speak of"
|
|
|
|
"I had always supposed--that is, I've always heard--
|
|
that it was more healthful to talk at meals," said Theron.
|
|
"Of course--what I mean--I took it for granted all physicians
|
|
thought so."
|
|
|
|
Dr. Ledsmar laughed. "That depends so much upon the
|
|
quality of the meals!" he remarked, holding his glass
|
|
up to the light.
|
|
|
|
He seemed a man of middle age and an equable disposition.
|
|
Theron, stealing stray glances at him around the lampshade,
|
|
saw most distinctly of all a broad, impressive dome
|
|
of skull, which, though obviously the result of baldness,
|
|
gave the effect of quite belonging to the face.
|
|
There were gold-rimmed spectacles, through which shone
|
|
now and again the vivid sparkle of sharp, alert eyes,
|
|
and there was a nose of some sort not easy to classify,
|
|
at once long and thick. The rest was thin hair and short
|
|
round beard, mouse-colored where the light caught them,
|
|
but losing their outlines in the shadows of the background.
|
|
Theron had not heard of him among the physicians of Octavius.
|
|
He wondered if he might not be a doctor of something else
|
|
than medicine, and decided upon venturing the question.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes, it is medicine," replied Ledsmar. "I am a doctor
|
|
three or four times over, so far as parchments can make one.
|
|
In some other respects, though, I should think I am
|
|
probably less of a doctor than anybody else now living.
|
|
I haven't practised--that is, regularly--for many years,
|
|
and I take no interest whatever in keeping abreast
|
|
of what the profession regards as its progress. I know
|
|
nothing beyond what was being taught in the sixties,
|
|
and that I am glad to say I have mostly forgotten."
|
|
|
|
"Dear me!" said Theron. "I had always supposed that
|
|
Science was the most engrossing of pursuits--that once
|
|
a man took it up he never left it."
|
|
|
|
"But that would imply a connection between Science
|
|
and Medicine!" commented the doctor. "My dear sir,
|
|
they are not even on speaking terms."
|
|
|
|
"Shall we go upstairs?" put in the priest, rising from his chair.
|
|
"It will be more comfortable to have our coffee there--
|
|
unless indeed, Mr. Ware, tobacco is unpleasant to you?"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, my, no!" the young minister exclaimed, eager to
|
|
free himself from the suggestion of being a kill-joy.
|
|
"I don't smoke myself; but I am very fond of the odor,
|
|
I assure you."
|
|
|
|
Father Forbes led the way out. It could be seen now that he
|
|
wore a long house-gown of black silk, skilfully moulded
|
|
to his erect, shapely, and rounded form. Though he carried
|
|
this with the natural grace of a proud and beautiful belle,
|
|
there was no hint of the feminine in his bearing,
|
|
or in the contour of his pale, firm-set, handsome face.
|
|
As he moved through the hall-way, the five people
|
|
whom Theron had seen waiting rose from their bench,
|
|
and two of the women began in humble murmurs, "If you
|
|
please, Father," and "Good-evening to your Riverence;
|
|
"but the priest merely nodded and passed on up the staircase,
|
|
followed by his guests. The people sat down on their bench again.
|
|
|
|
A few minutes later, reclining at his ease in a huge low chair,
|
|
and feeling himself unaccountably at home in the most
|
|
luxuriously appointed and delightful little room he had
|
|
ever seen, the Rev. Theron Ware sipped his unaccustomed
|
|
coffee and embarked upon an explanation of his errand.
|
|
Somehow the very profusion of scholarly symbols about him--
|
|
the great dark rows of encased and crowded book-shelves
|
|
rising to the ceiling, the classical engravings upon
|
|
the wall, the revolving book-case, the reading-stand,
|
|
the mass of littered magazines, reviews, and papers
|
|
at either end of the costly and elaborate writing-desk--
|
|
seemed to make it the easier for him to explain without
|
|
reproach that he needed information about Abram. He told
|
|
them quite in detail the story of his book.
|
|
|
|
The two others sat watching him through a faint haze of
|
|
scented smoke, with polite encouragement on their faces.
|
|
Father Forbes took the added trouble to nod understandingly
|
|
at the various points of the narrative, and when it was
|
|
finished gave one of his little approving chuckles.
|
|
|
|
"This skirts very closely upon sorcery," he said smilingly.
|
|
"Do you know, there is perhaps not another man in the country
|
|
who knows Assyriology so thoroughly as our friend here,
|
|
Dr. Ledsmar."
|
|
|
|
"That's putting it too strong," remarked the Doctor.
|
|
"I only follow at a distance--a year or two behind.
|
|
But I daresay I can help you. You are quite welcome
|
|
to anything I have: my books cover the ground pretty
|
|
well up to last year. Delitzsch is very interesting;
|
|
but Baudissin's 'Studien zur Semitischen Religionsgeschichte'
|
|
would come closer to what you need. There are several
|
|
other important Germans--Schrader, Bunsen, Duncker, Hommel,
|
|
and so on."
|
|
|
|
"Unluckily I--I don't read German readily," Theron explained
|
|
with diffidence.
|
|
|
|
"That's a pity," said the doctor, "because they do the
|
|
best work--not only in this field, but in most others.
|
|
And they do so much that the mass defies translation.
|
|
Well, the best thing outside of German of course is Sayce.
|
|
I daresay you know him, though."
|
|
|
|
The Rev. Mr. Ware shook his head mournfully. I don't
|
|
seem to know any one," he murmured.
|
|
|
|
The others exchanged glances.
|
|
|
|
"But if I may ask, Mr. Ware," pursued the doctor,
|
|
regarding their guest with interest through his spectacles,
|
|
"why do you specially hit upon Abraham? He is full
|
|
of difficulties--enough, just now, at any rate, to warn
|
|
off the bravest scholar. Why not take something easier?"
|
|
|
|
Theron had recovered something of his confidence. "Oh, no,"
|
|
he said, "that is just what attracts me to Abraham.
|
|
I like the complexities and contradictions in his character.
|
|
Take for instance all that strange and picturesque episode
|
|
of Hagar: see the splendid contrast between the craft and
|
|
commercial guile of his dealings in Egypt and with Abimelech,
|
|
and the simple, straightforward godliness of his
|
|
later years. No, all those difficulties only attract me.
|
|
Do you happen to know--of course you would know--do those
|
|
German books, or the others, give anywhere any additional
|
|
details of the man himself and his sayings and doings--
|
|
little things which help, you know, to round out one's
|
|
conception of the individual?"
|
|
|
|
Again the priest and the doctor stole a furtive glance
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|
across the young minister's head. It was Father Forbes
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who replied.
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"I fear that you are taking our friend Abraham too literally,
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Mr. Ware," he said, in that gentle semblance of paternal
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tones which seemed to go so well with his gown.
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"Modern research, you know, quite wipes him out of existence
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as an individual. The word 'Abram' is merely an eponym--
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it means 'exalted father.' Practically all the names
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in the Genesis chronologies are what we call eponymous.
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Abram is not a person at all: he is a tribe, a sept,
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a clan. In the same way, Shem is not intended for a man;
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it is the name of a great division of the human race.
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Heber is simply the throwing back into allegorical substance,
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so to speak, of the Hebrews; Heth of the Hittites;
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Asshur of Assyria."
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"But this is something very new, this theory, isn't it?"
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queried Theron.
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The priest smiled and shook his head. "Bless you, no!
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My dear sir, there is nothing new. Epicurus and Lucretius
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outlined the whole Darwinian theory more than two thousand
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|
years ago. As for this eponym thing, why Saint Augustine
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called attention to it fifteen hundred years ago. In his 'De
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Civitate Dei,' he expressly says of these genealogical names,
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'GENTES NON HOMINES;' that is, 'peoples, not persons.'
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It was as obvious to him--as much a commonplace of knowledge--
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as it was to Ezekiel eight hundred years before him."
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"It seems passing strange that we should not know
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it now, then," commented Theron; "I mean, that everybody
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shouldn't know it."
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Father Forbes gave a little purring chuckle.
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"Ah, there we get upon contentious ground," he remarked.
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"Why should 'everybody' be supposed to know anything at all?
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What business is it of 'everybody's' to know things?
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The earth was just as round in the days when people
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supposed it to be flat, as it is now. So the truth
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remains always the truth, even though you give a charter
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to ten hundred thousand separate numskulls to examine
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it by the light of their private judgment, and report
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that it is as many different varieties of something else.
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But of course that whole question of private judgment
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versus authority is No-Man's-Land for us. We were speaking
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of eponyms."
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"Yes," said Theron; "it is very interesting."
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"There is a curious phase of the subject which hasn't been
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worked out much," continued the priest. "Probably the Germans
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will get at that too, sometime. They are doing the best Irish
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work in other fields, as it is. I spoke of Heber and Heth,
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in Genesis, as meaning the Hebrews and the Hittites.
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Now my own people, the Irish, have far more ancient legends
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and traditions than any other nation west of Athens;
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and you find in their myth of the Milesian invasion
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and conquest two principal leaders called Heber and Ith,
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or Heth. That is supposed to be comparatively modern--
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about the time of Solomon's Temple. But these independent
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Irish myths go back to the fall of the Tower of Babel,
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and they have there an ancestor, grandson of Japhet,
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named Fenius Farsa, and they ascribe to him the invention
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of the alphabet. They took their ancient name of Feine,
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the modern Fenian, from him. Oddly enough, that is
|
|
the name which the Romans knew the Phoenicians by,
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and to them also is ascribed the invention of the alphabet.
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|
The Irish have a holy salmon of knowledge, just like the
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Chaldean man-fish. The Druids' tree-worship is identical
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with that of the Chaldeans--those pagan groves, you know,
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which the Jews were always being punished for building.
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|
You see, there is nothing new. Everything is built on
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the ruins of something else. Just as the material earth
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is made up of countless billions of dead men's bones,
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so the mental world is all alive with the ghosts of dead
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men's thoughts and beliefs, the wraiths of dead races'
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faiths and imaginings."
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Father Forbes paused, then added with a twinkle in his eye:
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"That peroration is from an old sermon of mine, in the days
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when I used to preach. I remember rather liking it,
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at the time."
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"But you still preach?" asked the Rev. Mr. Ware,
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with lifted brows.
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"No! no more! I only talk now and again," answered the priest,
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|
with what seemed a suggestion of curtness. He made haste
|
|
to take the conversation back again. "The names of these
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|
dead-and-gone things are singularly pertinacious, though.
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|
They survive indefinitely. Take the modern name Marmaduke,
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for example. It strikes one as peculiarly modern,
|
|
up-to-date, doesn't it? Well, it is the oldest name on earth--
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|
thousands of years older than Adam. It is the ancient
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Chaldean Meridug, or Merodach. He was the young god who
|
|
interceded continually between the angry, omnipotent Ea,
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his father, and the humble and unhappy Damkina, or Earth,
|
|
who was his mother. This is interesting from another
|
|
point of view, because this Merodach or Marmaduke is,
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|
so far as we can see now, the original prototype of our
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'divine intermediary' idea. I daresay, though, that if we
|
|
could go back still other scores of centuries, we should
|
|
find whole receding series of types of this Christ-myth of ours."
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Theron Ware sat upright at the fall of these words,
|
|
and flung a swift, startled look about the room--
|
|
the instinctive glance of a man unexpectedly confronted
|
|
with peril, and casting desperately about for means of defence
|
|
and escape. For the instant his mind was aflame with this
|
|
vivid impression--that he was among sinister enemies,
|
|
at the mercy of criminals. He half rose under the impelling
|
|
stress of this feeling, with the sweat standing on his brow,
|
|
and his jaw dropped in a scared and bewildered stare.
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|
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Then, quite as suddenly, the sense of shock was gone;
|
|
and it was as if nothing at all had happened.
|
|
He drew a long breath, took another sip of his coffee,
|
|
and found himself all at once reflecting almost pleasurably
|
|
upon the charm of contact with really educated people.
|
|
He leaned back in the big chair again, and smiled to show
|
|
these men of the world how much at his ease he was.
|
|
It required an effort, he discovered, but he made it bravely,
|
|
and hoped he was succeeding.
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|
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|
"It hasn't been in my power to at all lay hold of what
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|
the world keeps on learning nowadays about its babyhood,"
|
|
he said. "All I have done is to try to preserve an
|
|
open mind, and to maintain my faith that the more we know,
|
|
the nearer we shall approach the Throne."
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|
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Dr. Ledsmar abruptly scuffled his feet on the floor,
|
|
and took out his watch. "I'm afraid--" he began.
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|
|
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"No, no! There's plenty of time," remarked the priest,
|
|
with his soft half-smile and purring tones. "You finish
|
|
your cigar here with Mr. Ware, and excuse me while I run
|
|
down and get rid of the people in the hall."
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|
|
|
Father Forbes tossed his cigar-end into the fender.
|
|
Then he took from the mantel a strange three-cornered
|
|
black-velvet cap, with a dangling silk tassel at the side,
|
|
put it on his head, and went out.
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|
|
|
Theron, being left alone with the doctor, hardly knew what
|
|
to do or say. He took up a paper from the floor beside him,
|
|
but realized that it would be impolite to go farther,
|
|
and laid it on his knee. Some trace of that earlier
|
|
momentary feeling that he was in hostile hands came back,
|
|
and worried him. He lifted himself upright in the chair,
|
|
and then became conscious that what really disturbed him
|
|
was the fact that Dr. Ledsmar had turned in his seat,
|
|
crossed his legs, and was contemplating him with a gravely
|
|
concentrated scrutiny through his spectacles.
|
|
|
|
This uncomfortable gaze kept itself up a long way
|
|
beyond the point of good manners; but the doctor seemed
|
|
not to mind that at all.
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|
CHAPTER VIII
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When Dr. Ledsmar finally spoke, it was in a kindlier tone
|
|
than the young minister had looked for. "I had half a notion
|
|
of going to hear you preach the other evening," he said;
|
|
"but at the last minute I backed out. I daresay I shall
|
|
pluck up the courage, sooner or later, and really go.
|
|
It must be fully twenty years since I last heard a sermon,
|
|
and I had supposed that that would suffice for the rest
|
|
of my life. But they tell me that you are worth while;
|
|
and, for some reason or other, I find myself curious on
|
|
the subject."
|
|
|
|
Involved and dubious though the compliment might be,
|
|
Theron felt himself flushing with satisfaction. He nodded
|
|
his acknowledgment, and changed the topic.
|
|
|
|
"I was surprised to hear Father Forbes say that he did
|
|
not preach," he remarked.
|
|
|
|
"Why should he?" asked the doctor, indifferently.
|
|
"I suppose he hasn't more than fifteen parishioners
|
|
in a thousand who would understand him if he did,
|
|
and of these probably twelve would join in a complaint
|
|
to his Bishop about the heterodox tone of his sermon.
|
|
There is no point in his going to all that pains,
|
|
merely to incur that risk. Nobody wants him to preach,
|
|
and he has reached an age where personal vanity no longer
|
|
tempts him to do so. What IS wanted of him is that he
|
|
should be the paternal, ceremonial, authoritative head
|
|
and centre of his flock, adviser, monitor, overseer,
|
|
elder brother, friend, patron, seigneur--whatever you like--
|
|
everything except a bore. They draw the line at that.
|
|
You see how diametrically opposed this Catholic point of
|
|
view is to the Protestant."
|
|
|
|
"The difference does seem extremely curious to me,"
|
|
said Theron. "Now, those people in the hall--"
|
|
|
|
"Go on," put in the doctor, as the other faltered hesitatingly.
|
|
"I know what you were going to say. It struck you
|
|
as odd that he should let them wait on the bench there,
|
|
while he came up here to smoke."
|
|
|
|
Theron smiled faintly. "I WAS thinking that my--
|
|
my parishioners wouldn't have taken it so quietly.
|
|
But of course--it is all so different!"
|
|
|
|
"As chalk from cheese!" said Dr. Ledsmar, lighting a
|
|
fresh cigar. "I daresay every one you saw there had come
|
|
either to take the pledge, or see to it that one of the
|
|
others took it. That is the chief industry in the hall,
|
|
so far as I have observed. Now discipline is an important
|
|
element in the machinery here. Coming to take the pledge
|
|
implies that you have been drunk and are now ashamed.
|
|
Both states have their values, but they are opposed.
|
|
Sitting on that bench tends to develop penitence to the
|
|
prejudice of alcoholism. But at no stage would it ever
|
|
occur to the occupant of the bench that he was the best
|
|
judge of how long he was to sit there, or that his priest
|
|
should interrupt his dinner or general personal routine,
|
|
in order to administer that pledge. Now, I daresay you
|
|
have no people at all coming to 'swear off.'"
|
|
|
|
The Rev. Mr. Ware shook his head. "No; if a man with us
|
|
got as bad as all that, he wouldn't come near the church
|
|
at all. He'd simply drop out, and there would be an end
|
|
to it."
|
|
|
|
"Quite so," interjected the doctor. "That is the
|
|
voluntary system. But these fellows can't drop out.
|
|
There's no bottom to the Catholic Church. Everything
|
|
that's in, stays in. If you don't mind my saying so--
|
|
of course I view you all impartially from the outside--
|
|
but it seems logical to me that a church should exist
|
|
for those who need its help, and not for those who by their
|
|
own profession are so good already that it is they who
|
|
help the church. Now, you turn a man out of your church
|
|
who behaves badly: that must be on the theory that his
|
|
remaining in would injure the church, and that in turn
|
|
involves the idea that it is the excellent character
|
|
of the parishioners which imparts virtue to the church.
|
|
The Catholics' conception, you see, is quite the converse.
|
|
Such virtue as they keep in stock is on tap, so to speak,
|
|
here in the church itself, and the parishioners come and
|
|
get some for themselves according to their need for it.
|
|
Some come every day, some only once a year, some perhaps
|
|
never between their baptism and their funeral. But they
|
|
all have a right here, the professional burglar every whit
|
|
as much as the speckless saint. The only stipulation
|
|
is that they oughtn't to come under false pretences:
|
|
the burglar is in honor bound not to pass himself off to his
|
|
priest as the saint. But that is merely a moral obligation,
|
|
established in the burglar's own interest. It does
|
|
him no good to come unless he feels that he is playing
|
|
the rules of the game, and one of these is confession.
|
|
If he cheats there, he knows that he is cheating
|
|
nobody but himself, and might much better have stopped
|
|
away altogether."
|
|
|
|
Theron nodded his head comprehendingly. He had a great
|
|
many views about the Romanish rite of confession which did
|
|
not at all square with this statement of the case, but this
|
|
did not seem a specially fit time for bringing them forth.
|
|
There was indeed a sense of languid repletion in his mind,
|
|
as if it had been overfed and wanted to lie down for awhile.
|
|
He contented himself with nodding again, and murmuring
|
|
reflectively, "Yes, it is all strangely different."
|
|
|
|
His tone was an invitation to silence; and the doctor turned
|
|
his attention to the cigar, studying its ash for a minute
|
|
with an air of deep meditation, and then solemnly blowing
|
|
out a slow series of smoke-rings. Theron watched him
|
|
with an indolent, placid eye, wondering lazily if it was,
|
|
after all, so very pleasant to smoke.
|
|
|
|
There fell upon this silence--with a softness so delicate
|
|
that it came almost like a progression in the hush--
|
|
the sound of sweet music. For a little, strain and source
|
|
were alike indefinite--an impalpable setting to harmony
|
|
of the mellowed light, the perfumed opalescence of the air,
|
|
the luxury and charm of the room. Then it rose as by a
|
|
sweeping curve of beauty, into a firm, calm, severe melody,
|
|
delicious to the ear, but as cold in the mind's vision
|
|
as moonlit sculpture. It went on upward with stately
|
|
collectedness of power, till the atmosphere seemed all
|
|
alive with the trembling consciousness of the presence
|
|
of lofty souls, sternly pure and pitilessly great.
|
|
|
|
Theron found himself moved as he had never been before.
|
|
He almost resented the discovery, when it was presented
|
|
to him by the prosaic, mechanical side of his brain,
|
|
that he was listening to organ-music, and that it came
|
|
through the open window from the church close by.
|
|
He would fain have reclined in his chair and closed
|
|
his eyes, and saturated himself with the uttermost fulness
|
|
of the sensation. Yet, in absurd despite of himself,
|
|
he rose and moved over to the window.
|
|
|
|
Only a narrow alley separated the pastorate from the church;
|
|
Mr. Ware could have touched with a walking-stick the
|
|
opposite wall. Indirectly facing him was the arched and
|
|
mullioned top of a great window. A dim light from within shone
|
|
through the more translucent portions of the glass below,
|
|
throwing out faint little bars of party-colored radiance
|
|
upon the blackness of the deep passage-way. He could
|
|
vaguely trace by these the outlines of some sort of picture
|
|
on the window. There were human figures in it, and--yes--
|
|
up here in the centre, nearest him, was a woman's head.
|
|
There was a halo about it, engirdling rich, flowing waves
|
|
of reddish hair, the lights in which glowed like flame.
|
|
The face itself was barely distinguishable, but its
|
|
half-suggested form raised a curious sense of resemblance
|
|
to some other face. He looked at it closely, blankly,
|
|
the noble music throbbing through his brain meanwhile.
|
|
|
|
"It's that Madden girl!" he suddenly heard a voice say
|
|
by his side. Dr. Ledsmar had followed him to the window,
|
|
and was close at his shoulder.
|
|
|
|
Theron's thoughts were upon the puzzling shadowed
|
|
lineaments on the stained glass. He saw now in a flash
|
|
the resemblance which had baffled him. "It IS like her,
|
|
of course," he said.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, unfortunately, it IS just like her," replied the doctor,
|
|
with a hostile note in his voice. "Whenever I am
|
|
dining here, she always goes in and kicks up that racket.
|
|
She knows I hate it."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, you mean that it is she who is playing," remarked Theron.
|
|
"I thought you referred to--at least--I was thinking of--"
|
|
|
|
His sentence died off in inconsequence. He had a
|
|
feeling that he did not want to talk with the doctor
|
|
about the stained-glass likeness. The music had sunk
|
|
away now into fragmentary and unconnected passages,
|
|
broken here and there by abrupt stops. Dr. Ledsmar
|
|
stretched an arm out past him and shut the window.
|
|
"Let's hear as little of the row as we can," he said,
|
|
and the two went back to their chairs.
|
|
|
|
"Pardon me for the question," the Rev. Mr. Ware said,
|
|
after a pause which began to affect him as constrained,
|
|
"but something you said about dining--you don't
|
|
live here, then? In the house, I mean?"
|
|
|
|
The doctor laughed--a characteristically abrupt,
|
|
dry little laugh, which struck Theron at once as bearing
|
|
a sort of black-sheep relationship to the priest's
|
|
habitual chuckle. "That must have been puzzling you no end,"
|
|
he said--"that notion that the pastorate kept a devil's
|
|
advocate on the premises. No, Mr. Ware, I don't live here.
|
|
I inhabit a house of my own--you may have seen it--
|
|
an old-fashioned place up beyond the race-course,
|
|
with a sort of tower at the back, and a big garden.
|
|
But I dine here three or four times a week. It is an old
|
|
arrangement of ours. Vincent and I have been friends
|
|
for many years now. We are quite alone in the world,
|
|
we two--much to our mutual satisfaction. You must come
|
|
up and see me some time; come up and have a look over
|
|
the books we were speaking of."
|
|
|
|
"I am much obliged," said Theron, without enthusiasm.
|
|
The thought of the doctor by himself did not attract
|
|
him greatly.
|
|
|
|
The reservation in his tone seemed to interest the doctor.
|
|
"I suppose you are the first man I have asked in a
|
|
dozen years," he remarked, frankly willing that the young
|
|
minister should appreciate the favor extended him.
|
|
"It must be fully that since anybody but Vincent Forbes
|
|
has been under my roof; that is, of my own species,
|
|
I mean."
|
|
|
|
"You live there quite alone," commented Theron.
|
|
|
|
"Quite--with my dogs and cats and lizards--and my Chinaman.
|
|
I mustn't forget him." The doctor noted the inquiry
|
|
in the other's lifted brows, and smilingly explained.
|
|
"He is my solitary servant. Possibly he might not appeal
|
|
to you much; but I can assure you he used to interest
|
|
Octavius a great deal when I first brought him here,
|
|
ten years ago or so. He afforded occupation for all the
|
|
idle boys in the village for a twelve-month at least.
|
|
They used to lie in wait for him all day long, with stones
|
|
or horse-chestnuts or snowballs, according to the season.
|
|
The Irishmen from the wagon-works nearly killed him
|
|
once or twice, but he patiently lived it all down.
|
|
The Chinaman has the patience to live everything down--
|
|
the Caucasian races included. He will see us all to bed,
|
|
will that gentleman with the pigtail!"
|
|
|
|
The music over in the church had lifted itself again into form
|
|
and sequence, and defied the closed window. If anything,
|
|
it was louder than before, and the sonorous roar of the
|
|
bass-pedals seemed to be shaking the very walls. It was
|
|
something with a big-lunged, exultant, triumphing swing in it--
|
|
something which ought to have been sung on the battlefield
|
|
at the close of day by the whole jubilant army of victors.
|
|
It was impossible to pretend not to be listening to it;
|
|
but the doctor submitted with an obvious scowl, and bit
|
|
off the tip of his third cigar with an annoyed air.
|
|
|
|
"You don't seem to care much for music," suggested Mr. Ware,
|
|
when a lull came.
|
|
|
|
Dr. Ledsmar looked up, lighted match in hand.
|
|
"Say musicians!" he growled. "Has it ever occurred to you,"
|
|
he went on, between puffs at the flame, "that the only
|
|
animals who make the noises we call music are of the
|
|
bird family--a debased offshoot of the reptilian creation--
|
|
the very lowest types of the vertebrata now in existence?
|
|
I insist upon the parallel among humans. I have in
|
|
my time, sir, had considerable opportunities for studying
|
|
close at hand the various orders of mammalia who devote
|
|
themselves to what they describe as the arts. It may sound
|
|
a harsh judgement, but I am convinced that musicians stand
|
|
on the very bottom rung of the ladder in the sub-cellar
|
|
of human intelligence, even lower than painters and actors."
|
|
|
|
This seemed such unqualified nonsense to the Rev. Mr. Ware
|
|
that he offered no comment whatever upon it.
|
|
He tried instead to divert his thoughts to the stormy
|
|
strains which rolled in through the vibrating brickwork,
|
|
and to picture to himself the large, capable figure of
|
|
Miss Madden seated in the half-light at the organ-board,
|
|
swaying to and fro in a splendid ecstasy of power
|
|
as she evoked at will this superb and ordered uproar.
|
|
But the doctor broke insistently in upon his musings.
|
|
|
|
"All art, so-called, is decay," he said, raising his voice.
|
|
"When a race begins to brood on the beautiful--so-called--
|
|
it is a sign of rot, of getting ready to fall from
|
|
the tree. Take the Jews--those marvellous old fellows--
|
|
who were never more than a handful, yet have imposed
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the rule of their ideas and their gods upon us for fifteen
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hundred years. Why? They were forbidden by their
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|
most fundamental law to make sculptures or pictures.
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That was at a time when the Egyptians, when the Assyrians,
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and other Semites, were running to artistic riot.
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Every great museum in the world now has whole floors
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devoted to statues from the Nile, and marvellous carvings
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from the palaces of Sargon and Assurbanipal. You can
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get the artistic remains of the Jews during that whole
|
|
period into a child's wheelbarrow. They had the sense
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and strength to penalize art; they alone survived.
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They saw the Egyptians go, the Assyrians go, the Greeks go,
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the late Romans go, the Moors in Spain go--all the artistic
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peoples perish. They remained triumphing over all.
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Now at last their long-belated apogee is here; their decline
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is at hand. I am told that in this present generation
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in Europe the Jews are producing a great lot of young
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painters and sculptors and actors, just as for a century
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they have been producing famous composers and musicians.
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That means the end of the Jews!"
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"What! have you only got as far as that?" came the welcome
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interruption of a cheery voice. Father Forbes had entered
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the room, and stood looking down with a whimsical twinkle
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in his eye from one to the other of his guests.
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"You must have been taken over the ground at a very slow pace,
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Mr. Ware," he continued, chuckling softly, "to have
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arrived merely at the collapse of the New Jerusalem.
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I fancied I had given him time enough to bring you
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straight up to the end of all of us, with that Chinaman
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of his gently slapping our graves with his pigtail.
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That's where the doctor always winds up, if he's allowed
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to run his course."
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"It has all been very interesting, extremely so, I assure you,"
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faltered Theron. It had become suddenly apparent to him
|
|
that he desired nothing so much as to make his escape--
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|
that he had indeed only been waiting for the host's return
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to do so.
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He rose at this, and explained that he must be going.
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|
No special effort being put forth to restrain him,
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|
he presently made his way out, Father Forbes hospitably
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|
following him down to the door, and putting a very gracious
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|
cordiality into his adieux.
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The night was warm and black. Theron stood still in it
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|
the moment the pastorate door had closed; the sudden
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|
darkness was so thick that it was as if he had closed
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|
his eyes. His dominant sensation was of a deep relief
|
|
and rest after some undue fatigue. It crossed his mind
|
|
that drunken men probably felt like that as they leaned
|
|
against things on their way home. He was affected himself,
|
|
he saw, by the weariness and half-nausea following
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|
a mental intoxication. The conceit pleased him,
|
|
and he smiled to himself as he turned and took the first
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|
homeward steps. It must be growing late, he thought.
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|
Alice would be wondering as she waited.
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There was a street lamp at the corner, and as he walked
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|
toward it he noted all at once that his feet were keeping
|
|
step to the movement of the music proceeding from the
|
|
organ within the church--a vaguely processional air,
|
|
marked enough in measure, but still with a dreamy effect.
|
|
It became a pleasure to identify his progress with the quaint
|
|
rhythm of sound as he sauntered along. He discovered,
|
|
as he neared the light, that he was instinctively stepping
|
|
over the seams in the flagstone sidewalk as he had done
|
|
as a boy. He smiled again at this. There was something
|
|
exceptionally juvenile and buoyant about his mood,
|
|
now that he examined it. He set it down as a reaction from
|
|
that doctor's extravagant and incendiary talk. One thing
|
|
was certain--he would never be caught up at that house
|
|
beyond the race-course, with its reptiles and its Chinaman.
|
|
Should he ever even go to the pastorate again? He decided
|
|
not to quite definitely answer THAT in the negative,
|
|
but as he felt now, the chances were all against it.
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|
|
|
Turning the corner, and walking off into the shadows
|
|
along the side of the huge church building, Theron noted,
|
|
almost at the end of the edifice, a small door--
|
|
the entrance to a porch coming out to the sidewalk--
|
|
which stood wide open. A thin, pale, vertical line
|
|
of light showed that the inner door, too, was ajar.
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|
|
|
Through this wee aperture the organ-music, reduced
|
|
and mellowed by distance, came to him again with that
|
|
same curious, intimate, personal relation which had so moved
|
|
him at the start, before the doctor closed the window.
|
|
It was as if it was being played for him alone.
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|
|
|
He paused for a doubting minute or two, with bowed head,
|
|
listening to the exquisite harmony which floated out to
|
|
caress and soothe and enfold him. There was no spiritual,
|
|
or at least pious, effect in it now. He fancied that
|
|
it must be secular music, or, if not, then something
|
|
adapted to marriage ceremonies--rich, vivid, passionate,
|
|
a celebration of beauty and the glory of possession,
|
|
with its ruling note of joy only heightened by soft,
|
|
wooing interludes, and here and there the tremor of a fond,
|
|
timid little sob.
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|
|
|
Theron turned away irresolutely, half frightened at the
|
|
undreamt-of impression this music was making upon him.
|
|
Then, all at once, he wheeled and stepped boldly into
|
|
the porch, pushing the inner door open and hearing it
|
|
rustle against its leathern frame as it swung to behind him.
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He had never been inside a Catholic church before.
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CHAPTER IX
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Jeremiah Madden was supposed to be probably the richest
|
|
man in Octavius. There was no doubt at all about his
|
|
being its least pretentious citizen.
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|
|
|
The huge and ornate modern mansion which he had built,
|
|
putting to shame every other house in the place, gave an effect
|
|
of ostentation to the Maddens as a family; it seemed only
|
|
to accentuate the air of humility which enveloped Jeremiah
|
|
as with a garment. Everybody knew some version of the many
|
|
tales afloat which, in a kindly spirit, illustrated the
|
|
incongruity between him and his splendid habitation.
|
|
Some had it that he slept in the shed. Others told whimsical
|
|
stories of his sitting alone in the kitchen evenings,
|
|
smoking his old clay pipe, and sorrowing because the
|
|
second Mrs. Madden would not suffer the pigs and chickens
|
|
to come in and bear him company. But no matter how comic
|
|
the exaggeration, these legends were invariably amiable.
|
|
It lay in no man's mouth to speak harshly of Jeremiah Madden.
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|
|
|
He had been born a Connemara peasant, and he would die one.
|
|
When he was ten years old he had seen some of his
|
|
own family, and most of his neighbors, starve to death.
|
|
He could remember looking at the stiffened figure of a woman
|
|
stretched on the stones by the roadside, with the green
|
|
stain of nettles on her white lips. A girl five years or
|
|
so older than himself, also a Madden and distantly related,
|
|
had started in despair off across the mountains to the town
|
|
where it was said the poor-law officers were dealing
|
|
out food. He could recall her coming back next day,
|
|
wild-eyed with hunger and the fever; the officers had
|
|
refused her relief because her bare legs were not wholly
|
|
shrunken to the bone. "While there's a calf on the shank,
|
|
there's no starvation," they had explained to her.
|
|
The girl died without profiting by this official apothegm.
|
|
The boy found it burned ineffaceably upon his brain.
|
|
Now, after a lapse of more than forty years, it seemed
|
|
the thing that he remembered best about Ireland.
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|
|
|
He had drifted westward as an unconsidered, unresisting item
|
|
in that vast flight of the famine years. Others whom
|
|
he rubbed against in that melancholy exodus, and deemed
|
|
of much greater promise than himself, had done badly.
|
|
Somehow he did well. He learned the wheelwright's trade,
|
|
and really that seemed all there was to tell. The rest
|
|
had been calm and sequent progression--steady employment
|
|
as a journeyman first; then marriage and a house and lot;
|
|
the modest start as a master; the move to Octavius and
|
|
cheap lumber; the growth of his business, always marked
|
|
of late years stupendous--all following naturally,
|
|
easily, one thing out of another. Jeremiah encountered
|
|
the idea among his fellows, now and again, that he was
|
|
entitled to feel proud of all this. He smiled to himself
|
|
at the thought, and then sent a sigh after the smile.
|
|
What was it all but empty and transient vanity? The score
|
|
of other Connemara boys he had known--none very fortunate,
|
|
several broken tragically in prison or the gutter,
|
|
nearly all now gone the way of flesh--were as good as he.
|
|
He could not have it in his heart to take credit for
|
|
his success; it would have been like sneering over their
|
|
poor graves.
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|
|
|
Jeremiah Madden was now fifty-three--a little man
|
|
of a reddened, weather-worn skin and a meditative,
|
|
almost saddened, aspect. He had blue eyes, but his
|
|
scanty iron-gray hair showed raven black in its shadows.
|
|
The width and prominence of his cheek-bones dominated all
|
|
one's recollections of his face. The long vertical upper-lip
|
|
and irregular teeth made, in repose, an unshapely mouth;
|
|
its smile, though, sweetened the whole countenance.
|
|
He wore a fringe of stiff, steel-colored beard, passing from
|
|
ear to ear under his chin. His week-day clothes were
|
|
as simple as his workaday manners, fitting his short
|
|
black pipe and his steadfast devotion to his business.
|
|
On Sundays he dressed with a certain rigor of respectability,
|
|
all in black, and laid aside tobacco, at least to the
|
|
public view. He never missed going to the early Low Mass,
|
|
quite alone. His family always came later, at the ten
|
|
o'clock High Mass.
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|
|
|
There had been, at one time or another, a good many
|
|
members of this family. Two wives had borne Jeremiah
|
|
Madden a total of over a dozen children. Of these there
|
|
survived now only two of the first Mrs. Madden's offspring--
|
|
Michael and Celia--and a son of the present wife, who had
|
|
been baptized Terence, but called himself Theodore.
|
|
This minority of the family inhabited the great new house
|
|
on Main Street. Jeremiah went every Sunday afternoon
|
|
by himself to kneel in the presence of the majority,
|
|
there where they lay in Saint Agnes' consecrated ground.
|
|
If the weather was good, he generally extended his
|
|
walk through the fields to an old deserted Catholic
|
|
burial-field, which had been used only in the first years
|
|
after the famine invasion, and now was clean forgotten.
|
|
The old wagon-maker liked to look over the primitive,
|
|
neglected stones which marked the graves of these earlier exiles.
|
|
Fully half of the inscriptions mentioned his County Galway--
|
|
there were two naming the very parish adjoining his.
|
|
The latest date on any stone was of the remoter 'fifties.
|
|
They had all been stricken down, here in this strange
|
|
land with its bitter winters, while the memory of their
|
|
own soft, humid, gentle west-coast air was fresh within them.
|
|
Musing upon the clumsy sculpture, with its "R.I.P.," or
|
|
"Pray for the Soul of," half to be guessed under the stain
|
|
and moss of a generation, there would seem to him but a step
|
|
from this present to that heart-rending, awful past.
|
|
What had happened between was a meaningless vision--
|
|
as impersonal as the passing of the planets overhead.
|
|
He rarely had an impulse to tears in the new cemetery,
|
|
where his ten children were. He never left this weed-grown,
|
|
forsaken old God's-acre dry-eyed.
|
|
|
|
One must not construct from all this the image of a
|
|
melancholy man, as his fellows met and knew him. Mr. Madden
|
|
kept his griefs, racial and individual, for his own use.
|
|
To the men about him in the offices and the shops he
|
|
presented day after day, year after year, an imperturbable
|
|
cheeriness of demeanor. He had been always fortunate
|
|
in the selection of lieutenants and chief helpers.
|
|
Two of these had grown now into partners, and were almost
|
|
as much a part of the big enterprise as Jeremiah himself.
|
|
They spoke often of their inability to remember any unjust
|
|
or petulant word of his--much less any unworthy deed.
|
|
Once they had seen him in a great rage, all the more impressive
|
|
because he said next to nothing. A thoughtless fellow
|
|
told a dirty story in the presence of some apprentices;
|
|
and Madden, listening to this, drove the offender implacably
|
|
from his employ. It was years now since any one who knew
|
|
him had ventured upon lewd pleasantries in his hearing.
|
|
Jokes of the sort which women might hear he was very
|
|
fond of though he had not much humor of his own.
|
|
Of books he knew nothing whatever, and he made only
|
|
the most perfunctory pretence now and again of reading
|
|
the newspapers.
|
|
|
|
The elder son Michael was very like his father--diligent,
|
|
unassuming, kindly, and simple--a plain, tall, thin red man
|
|
of nearly thirty, who toiled in paper cap and rolled-up
|
|
shirt-sleeves as the superintendent in the saw-mill,
|
|
and put on no airs whatever as the son of the master.
|
|
If there was surprise felt at his not being taken into
|
|
the firm as a partner, he gave no hint of sharing it.
|
|
He attended to his religious duties with great zeal,
|
|
and was President of the Sodality as a matter of course.
|
|
This was regarded as his blind side; and young employees
|
|
who cultivated it, and made broad their phylacteries
|
|
under his notice, certainly had an added chance of
|
|
getting on well in the works. To some few whom he knew
|
|
specially well, Michael would confess that if he had had
|
|
the brains for it, he should have wished to be a priest.
|
|
He displayed no inclination to marry.
|
|
|
|
The other son, Terence, was some eight years younger,
|
|
and seemed the product of a wholly different race.
|
|
The contrast between Michael's sandy skin and long gaunt
|
|
visage and this dark boy's handsome, rounded face,
|
|
with its prettily curling black hair, large, heavily
|
|
fringed brown eyes, and delicately modelled features,
|
|
was not more obvious than their temperamental separation.
|
|
This second lad had been away for years at school,--
|
|
indeed, at a good many schools, for no one seemed to
|
|
manage to keep him long. He had been with the Jesuits
|
|
at Georgetown, with the Christian Brothers at Manhattan;
|
|
the sectarian Mt. St. Mary's and the severely secular
|
|
Annapolis had both been tried, and proved misfits.
|
|
The young man was home again now, and save that his
|
|
name had become Theodore, he appeared in no wise
|
|
changed from the beautiful, wilful, bold, and showy boy
|
|
who had gone away in his teens. He was still rather
|
|
small for his years, but so gracefully moulded in form,
|
|
and so perfectly tailored, that the fact seemed rather
|
|
an advantage than otherwise. He never dreamed of going
|
|
near the wagon-works, but he did go a good deal--in fact,
|
|
most of the time--to the Nedahma Club. His mother spoke
|
|
often to her friends about her fears for his health.
|
|
He never spoke to his friends about his mother at all.
|
|
|
|
The second Mrs. Madden did not, indeed, appeal strongly
|
|
to the family pride. She had been a Miss Foley,
|
|
a dress-maker, and an old maid. Jeremiah had married
|
|
her after a brief widowerhood, principally because she
|
|
was the sister of his parish priest, and had a considerable
|
|
reputation for piety. It was at a time when the expansion
|
|
of his business was promising certain wealth, and suggesting
|
|
the removal to Octavius. He was conscious of a notion that
|
|
his obligations to social respectability were increasing;
|
|
it was certain that the embarrassments of a motherless
|
|
family were. Miss Foley had shown a good deal of attention
|
|
to his little children. She was not ill-looking;
|
|
she bore herself with modesty; she was the priest's sister--
|
|
the niece once removed of a vicar-general. And so it came about.
|
|
|
|
Although those most concerned did not say so, everybody
|
|
could see from the outset the pity of its ever having
|
|
come about at all. The pious and stiffly respectable
|
|
priest's sister had been harmless enough as a spinster.
|
|
It made the heart ache to contemplate her as a wife.
|
|
Incredibly narrow-minded, ignorant, suspicious, vain,
|
|
and sour-tempered, she must have driven a less equable and
|
|
well-rooted man than Jeremiah Madden to drink or flight.
|
|
He may have had his temptations, but they made no mark on
|
|
the even record of his life. He only worked the harder,
|
|
concentrating upon his business those extra hours which
|
|
another sort of home-life would have claimed instead.
|
|
The end of twenty years found him a rich man, but still
|
|
toiling pertinaciously day by day, as if he had his wage
|
|
to earn. In the great house which had been built to please,
|
|
or rather placate, his wife, he kept to himself as much
|
|
as possible. The popular story of his smoking alone
|
|
in the kitchen was more or less true; only Michael as a
|
|
rule sat with him, too weak-lunged for tobacco himself,
|
|
but reading stray scraps from the papers to the lonely
|
|
old man, and talking with him about the works,
|
|
the while Jeremiah meditatively sucked his clay pipe.
|
|
One or two evenings in the week the twain spent up in Celia's
|
|
part of the house, listening with the awe of simple,
|
|
honest mechanics to the music she played for them.
|
|
|
|
Celia was to them something indefinably less, indescribably more,
|
|
than a daughter and sister. They could not think there
|
|
had ever been anything like her before in the world;
|
|
the notion of criticising any deed or word of hers
|
|
would have appeared to them monstrous and unnatural.
|
|
|
|
She seemed to have come up to this radiant and wise and
|
|
marvellously talented womanhood of hers, to their minds,
|
|
quite spontaneously. There had been a little Celia--
|
|
a red-headed, sulky, mutinous slip of a girl, always at war
|
|
with her step-mother, and affording no special comfort
|
|
or hope to the rest of the family. Then there was a
|
|
long gap, during which the father, four times a year,
|
|
handed Michael a letter he had received from the superioress
|
|
of a distant convent, referring with cold formality
|
|
to the studies and discipline by which Miss Madden
|
|
might profit more if she had been better brought up,
|
|
and enclosing a large bill. Then all at once they beheld
|
|
a big Celia, whom they spoke of as being home again,
|
|
but who really seemed never to have been there before--
|
|
a tall, handsome, confident young woman, swift of tongue
|
|
and apprehension, appearing to know everything there was
|
|
to be known by the most learned, able to paint pictures,
|
|
carve wood, speak in divers languages, and make music for
|
|
the gods, yet with it all a very proud lady, one might say
|
|
a queen.
|
|
|
|
The miracle of such a Celia as this impressed itself
|
|
even upon the step-mother. Mrs. Madden had looked
|
|
forward with a certain grim tightening of her combative
|
|
jaws to the home-coming of the "red-head." She felt
|
|
herself much more the fine lady now than she had been
|
|
when the girl went away. She had her carriage now,
|
|
and the magnificent new house was nearly finished,
|
|
and she had a greater number of ailments, and spent
|
|
far more money on doctor's bills, than any other lady
|
|
in the whole section. The flush of pride in her greatest
|
|
achievement up to date--having the most celebrated of New
|
|
York physicians brought up to Octavius by special train--
|
|
still prickled in her blood. It was in all the papers,
|
|
and the admiration of the flatterers and "soft-sawdherers"--
|
|
wives of Irish merchants and smaller professional men
|
|
who formed her social circle--was raising visions in her
|
|
poor head of going next year with Theodore to Saratoga,
|
|
and fastening the attention of the whole fashionable
|
|
republic upon the variety and resources of her invalidism.
|
|
Mrs. Madden's fancy did not run to the length of seeing
|
|
her step-daughter also at Saratoga; it pictured her still
|
|
as the sullen and hated "red-head," moping defiantly
|
|
in corners, or courting by her insolence the punishments
|
|
which leaped against their leash in the step-mother's
|
|
mind to get at her.
|
|
|
|
The real Celia, when she came, fairly took Mrs. Madden's
|
|
breath away. The peevish little plans for annoyance and tyranny,
|
|
the resolutions born of ignorant and jealous egotism,
|
|
found themselves swept out of sight by the very first swirl
|
|
of Celia's dress-train, when she came down from her room
|
|
robed in peacock blue. The step-mother could only stare.
|
|
|
|
Now, after two years of it, Mrs. Madden still viewed her
|
|
step-daughter with round-eyed uncertainty, not unmixed
|
|
with wrathful fear. She still drove about behind two
|
|
magnificent horses; the new house had become almost
|
|
tiresome by familiarity; her pre-eminence in the interested
|
|
minds of the Dearborn County Medical Society was as
|
|
towering as ever, but somehow it was all different.
|
|
There was a note of unreality nowadays in Mrs. Donnelly's
|
|
professions of wonder at her bearing up under her
|
|
multiplied maladies; there was almost a leer of mockery
|
|
in the sympathetic smirk with which the Misses Mangan
|
|
listened to her symptoms. Even the doctors, though they
|
|
kept their faces turned toward her, obviously did not pay
|
|
much attention; the people in the street seemed no longer
|
|
to look at her and her equipage at all. Worst of all,
|
|
something of the meaning of this managed to penetrate
|
|
her own mind. She caught now and again a dim glimpse
|
|
of herself as others must have been seeing her for years--
|
|
as a stupid, ugly, boastful, and bad-tempered old nuisance.
|
|
And it was always as if she saw this in a mirror held
|
|
up by Celia.
|
|
|
|
Of open discord there had been next to none. Celia would
|
|
not permit it, and showed this so clearly from the
|
|
start that there was scarcely need for her saying it.
|
|
It seemed hardly necessary for her to put into words any
|
|
of her desires, for that matter. All existing arrangements
|
|
in the Madden household seemed to shrink automatically
|
|
and make room for her, whichever way she walked. A whole
|
|
quarter of the unfinished house set itself apart for her.
|
|
Partitions altered themselves; door-ways moved across
|
|
to opposite sides; a recess opened itself, tall and deep,
|
|
for it knew not what statue--simply because, it seemed,
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the Lady Celia willed it so.
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When the family moved into this mansion, it was with a
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consciousness that the only one who really belonged there
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was Celia. She alone could behave like one perfectly at home.
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It seemed entirely natural to the others that she should
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do just what she liked, shut them off from her portion
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of the house, take her meals there if she felt disposed,
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and keep such hours as pleased her instant whim. If she
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awakened them at midnight by her piano, or deferred her
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breakfast to the late afternoon, they felt that it must be
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all right, since Celia did it. She had one room furnished
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with only divans and huge, soft cushions, its walls covered
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with large copies of statuary not too strictly clothed,
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which she would suffer no one, not even the servants,
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to enter. Michael fancied sometimes, when he passed the
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draped entrance to this sacred chamber, that the portiere
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smelt of tobacco, but he would not have spoken of it,
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even had he been sure. Old Jeremiah, whose established habit
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it was to audit minutely the expenses of his household,
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covered over round sums to Celia's separate banking account,
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upon the mere playful hint of her holding her check-book up,
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without a dream of questioning her.
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That the step-mother had joy, or indeed anything but gall
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and wormwood, out of all this is not to be pretended.
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There lingered along in the recollection of the family some
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vague memories of her having tried to assert an authority
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over Celia's comings and goings at the outset, but they
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grouped themselves as only parts of the general disorder of
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moving and settling, which a fort-night or so quite righted.
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Mrs. Madden still permitted herself a certain license
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of hostile comment when her step-daughter was not present,
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and listened with gratification to what the women of her
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acquaintance ventured upon saying in the same spirit;
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but actual interference or remonstrance she never
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offered nowadays. The two rarely met, for that matter,
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and exchanged only the baldest and curtest forms of speech.
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Celia Madden interested all Octavius deeply. This she
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|
must have done in any case, if only because she was
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the only daughter of its richest citizen. But the bold,
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luxuriant quality of her beauty, the original and piquant
|
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freedom of her manners, the stories told in gossip about
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her lawlessness at home, her intellectual attainments,
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|
and artistic vagaries--these were even more exciting.
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The unlikelihood of her marrying any one--at least
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|
any Octavian--was felt to add a certain romantic zest
|
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to the image she made on the local perceptions.
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There was no visible young Irishman at all approaching
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the social and financial standard of the Maddens;
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it was taken for granted that a mixed marriage was quite
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out of the question in this case. She seemed to have
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more business about the church than even the priest.
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She was always playing the organ, or drilling the choir,
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or decorating the altars with flowers, or looking over
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the robes of the acolytes for rents and stains, or going
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in or out of the pastorate. Clearly this was not the sort
|
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of girl to take a Protestant husband.
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The gossip of the town concerning her was, however,
|
|
exclusively Protestant. The Irish spoke of her,
|
|
even among themselves, but seldom. There was no occasion
|
|
for them to pretend to like her: they did not know her,
|
|
except in the most distant and formal fashion.
|
|
Even the members of the choir, of both sexes, had the sense
|
|
of being held away from her at haughty arm's length.
|
|
No single parishioner dreamed of calling her friend.
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|
But when they referred to her, it was always with a cautious
|
|
and respectful reticence. For one thing, she was the daughter
|
|
of their chief man, the man they most esteemed and loved.
|
|
For another, reservations they may have had in their souls
|
|
about her touched close upon a delicately sore spot.
|
|
It could not escape their notice that their Protestant
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|
neighbors were watching her with vigilant curiosity,
|
|
and with a certain tendency to wink when her name came
|
|
into conversation along with that of Father Forbes.
|
|
It had never yet got beyond a tendency--the barest
|
|
fluttering suggestion of a tempted eyelid--but the
|
|
whole Irish population of the place felt themselves
|
|
to be waiting, with clenched fists but sinking hearts,
|
|
for the wink itself.
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|
The Rev. Theron Ware had not caught even the faintest
|
|
hint of these overtures to suspicion.
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|
|
|
When he had entered the huge, dark, cool vault of the church,
|
|
he could see nothing at first but a faint light up over
|
|
the gallery, far at the other end. Then, little by little,
|
|
his surroundings shaped themselves out of the gloom.
|
|
To his right was a rail and some broad steps rising toward
|
|
a softly confused mass of little gray vertical bars
|
|
and the pale twinkle of tiny spots of gilded reflection,
|
|
which he made out in the dusk to be the candles and
|
|
trappings of the altar. Overhead the great arches faded
|
|
away from foundations of dimly discernible capitals into
|
|
utter blackness. There was a strange medicinal odor--
|
|
as of cubeb cigarettes--in the air.
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|
|
|
After a little pause, he tiptoed noiselessly up the side
|
|
aisle toward the end of the church--toward the light above
|
|
the gallery. This radiance from a single gas-jet expanded
|
|
as he advanced, and spread itself upward over a burnished
|
|
row of monster metal pipes, which went towering into
|
|
the darkness like giants. They were roaring at him now--
|
|
a sonorous, deafening, angry bellow, which made everything
|
|
about him vibrate. The gallery balustrade hid the keyboard
|
|
and the organist from view. There were only these
|
|
jostling brazen tubes, as big round as trees and as tall,
|
|
trembling with their own furious thunder. It was for all
|
|
the world as if he had wandered into some vast tragical,
|
|
enchanted cave, and was being drawn against his will--
|
|
like fascinated bird and python--toward fate at the savage
|
|
hands of these swollen and enraged genii.
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|
|
|
He stumbled in the obscure light over a kneeling-bench,
|
|
making a considerable racket. On the instant the noise
|
|
from the organ ceased, and he saw the black figure
|
|
of a woman rise above the gallery-rail and look down.
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|
|
|
"Who is it?" the indubitable voice of Miss Madden
|
|
demanded sharply.
|
|
|
|
Theron had a sudden sheepish notion of turning and running.
|
|
With the best grace he could summon, he called out an
|
|
explanation instead.
|
|
|
|
"Wait a minute. I'm through now. I'm coming down,"
|
|
she returned. He thought there was a note of amusement
|
|
in her tone.
|
|
|
|
She came to him a moment later, accompanied by a thin,
|
|
tall man, whom Theron could barely see in the dark,
|
|
now that the organ-light too was gone. This man lighted
|
|
a match or two to enable them to make their way out.
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|
|
|
When they were on the sidewalk, Celia spoke: "Walk on ahead,
|
|
Michael!" she said. "I have some matters to speak of with Mr. Ware."
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|
CHAPTER X
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"Well, what did you think of Dr. Ledsmar?"
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The girl's abrupt question came as a relief to Theron.
|
|
They were walking along in a darkness so nearly complete
|
|
that he could see next to nothing of his companion.
|
|
For some reason, this seemed to suggest a sort of impropriety.
|
|
He had listened to the footsteps of the man ahead--
|
|
whom he guessed to be a servant--and pictured him
|
|
as intent upon getting up early next morning to tell
|
|
everybody that the Methodist minister had stolen into the
|
|
Catholic church at night to walk home with Miss Madden.
|
|
That was going to be very awkward--yes, worse than awkward!
|
|
It might mean ruin itself. She had mentioned
|
|
aloud that she had matters to talk over with him:
|
|
that of course implied confidences, and the man might
|
|
put heaven only knew what construction on that.
|
|
It was notorious that servants did ascribe the very worst
|
|
motives to those they worked for. The bare thought of
|
|
the delight an Irish servant would have in also dragging
|
|
a Protestant clergyman into the thing was sickening.
|
|
And what could she want to talk to him about, anyway?
|
|
The minute of silence stretched itself out upon his nerves
|
|
into an interminable period of anxious unhappiness.
|
|
Her mention of the doctor at last somehow, seemed to lighten
|
|
the situation.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I thought he was very smart." he made haste to answer.
|
|
"Wouldn't it be better--to--keep close to your man?
|
|
He--may--think we've gone some other way."
|
|
|
|
"It wouldn't matter if he did," remarked Celia.
|
|
She appeared to comprehend his nervousness and take pity
|
|
on it, for she added, "It is my brother Michael, as good
|
|
a soul as ever lived. He is quite used to my ways."
|
|
|
|
The Rev. Mr. Ware drew a long comforting breath.
|
|
"Oh, I see! He went with you to--bring you home."
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|
|
|
"To blow the organ," said the girl in the dark, correctingly.
|
|
"But about that doctor; did you like him?"
|
|
|
|
"Well," Theron began, "'like' is rather a strong word
|
|
for so short an acquaintance. He talked very well;
|
|
that is, fluently. But he is so different from any other
|
|
man I have come into contact with that--"
|
|
|
|
"What I wanted you to say was that you hated him,"
|
|
put in Celia, firmly.
|
|
|
|
"I don't make a practice of saying that of anybody,"
|
|
returned Theron, so much at his ease again that he put
|
|
an effect of gentle, smiling reproof into the words.
|
|
"And why specially should I make an exception for him?"
|
|
|
|
"Because he's a beast!"
|
|
|
|
Theron fancied that he understood. "I noticed that he
|
|
seemed not to have much of an ear for music," he commented,
|
|
with a little laugh. "He shut down the window when you
|
|
began to play. His doing so annoyed me, because I--
|
|
I wanted very much to hear it all. I never heard such
|
|
music before. I--I came into the church to hear more of it;
|
|
but then you stopped!"
|
|
|
|
"I will play for you some other time," Celia said,
|
|
answering the reproach in his tone. "But tonight I wanted
|
|
to talk with you instead."
|
|
|
|
She kept silent, in spite of this, so long now
|
|
that Theron was on the point of jestingly asking
|
|
when the talk was to begin. Then she put a question abruptly--
|
|
|
|
"It is a conventional way of putting it, but are you fond
|
|
of poetry, Mr. Ware?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, yes, I suppose I am," replied Theron, much mystified.
|
|
"I can't say that I am any great judge; but I like the
|
|
things that I like--and--"
|
|
|
|
"Meredith," interposed Celia, "makes one of his women,
|
|
Emilia in England, say that poetry is like talking on tiptoe;
|
|
like animals in cages, always going to one end and back again.
|
|
Does it impress you that way?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't know that it does," said he, dubiously.
|
|
It seemed, however, to be her whim to talk literature,
|
|
and he went on: "I've hardly read Meredith at all.
|
|
I once borrowed his 'Lucile,' but somehow I never got
|
|
interested in it. I heard a recitation of his once, though--
|
|
a piece about a dead wife, and the husband and another
|
|
man quarrelling as to whose portrait was in the locket
|
|
on her neck, and of their going up to settle the dispute,
|
|
and finding that it was the likeness of a third man,
|
|
a young priest--and though it was very striking,
|
|
it didn't give me a thirst to know his other poems.
|
|
I fancied I shouldn't like them. But I daresay I was wrong.
|
|
As I get older, I find that I take less narrow views
|
|
of literature--that is, of course, of light literature--
|
|
and that--that--"
|
|
|
|
Celia mercifully stopped him. "The reason I asked
|
|
you was--" she began, and then herself paused. "Or no,--
|
|
never mind that--tell me something else. Are you fond
|
|
of pictures, statuary, the beautiful things of the world?
|
|
Do great works of art, the big achievements of the big artists,
|
|
appeal to you, stir you up?"
|
|
|
|
"Alas! that is something I can only guess at myself,"
|
|
answered Theron, humbly. "I have always lived in
|
|
little places. I suppose, from your point of view,
|
|
I have never seen a good painting in my life. I can only
|
|
say this, though--that it has always weighed on my mind
|
|
as a great and sore deprivation, this being shut out from
|
|
knowing what others mean when they talk and write about art.
|
|
Perhaps that may help you to get at what you are after.
|
|
If I ever went to New York, I feel that one of the first
|
|
things I should do would be to see all the picture galleries;
|
|
is that what you meant? And--would you mind telling me--
|
|
why you--?"
|
|
|
|
"Why I asked you?" Celia supplied his halting question.
|
|
"No, I DON'T mind. I have a reason for wanting to know--
|
|
to satisfy myself whether I had guessed rightly or not--
|
|
about the kind of man you are. I mean in the matter of
|
|
temperament and bent of mind and tastes."
|
|
|
|
The girl seemed to be speaking seriously, and without
|
|
intent to offend. Theron did not find any comment ready,
|
|
but walked along by her side, wondering much what it was
|
|
all about.
|
|
|
|
"I daresay you think me 'too familiar on short acquaintance,'"
|
|
she continued, after a little.
|
|
|
|
"My dear Miss Madden!" he protested perfunctorily.
|
|
|
|
"No; it is a matter of a good deal of importance,"
|
|
she went on. "I can see that you are going to be thrown
|
|
into friendship, close contact, with Father Forbes.
|
|
He likes you, and you can't help liking him. There is nobody
|
|
else in this raw, overgrown, empty-headed place for you
|
|
and him TO like, nobody except that man, that Dr. Ledsmar.
|
|
And if you like HIM, I shall hate you! He has done
|
|
mischief enough already. I am counting on you to help
|
|
undo it, and to choke him off from doing more. It would
|
|
be different if you were an ordinary Orthodox minister,
|
|
all encased like a terrapin in prejudices and nonsense.
|
|
Of course, if you had been THAT kind, we should never have
|
|
got to know you at all. But when I saw you in MacEvoy's
|
|
cottage there, it was plain that you were one of US--
|
|
I mean a MAN, and not a marionette or a mummy.
|
|
I am talking very frankly to you, you see. I want you
|
|
on my side, against that doctor and his heartless,
|
|
bloodless science."
|
|
|
|
"I feel myself very heartily on your side," replied Theron.
|
|
She had set their progress at a slower pace, now that the
|
|
lights of the main street were drawing near, as if to prolong
|
|
their talk. All his earlier reservations had fled.
|
|
It was almost as if she were a parishioner of his own.
|
|
"I need hardly tell you that the doctor's whole attitude
|
|
toward--toward revelation--was deeply repugnant to me.
|
|
It doesn't make it any the less hateful to call it science.
|
|
I am afraid, though," he went on hesitatingly, "that there
|
|
are difficulties in the way of my helping, as you call it.
|
|
You see, the very fact of my being a Methodist minister,
|
|
and his being a Catholic priest, rather puts my interference
|
|
out of the question."
|
|
|
|
"No; that doesn't matter a button," said Celia, lightly.
|
|
"None of us think of that at all."
|
|
|
|
"There is the other embarrassment, then," pursued Theron,
|
|
diffidently, "that Father Forbes is a vastly broader and
|
|
deeper scholar--in all these matters--than I am. How could
|
|
I possibly hope to influence him by my poor arguments?
|
|
I don't know even the alphabet of the language he thinks in--
|
|
on these subjects, I mean."
|
|
|
|
"Of course you don't!" interposed the girl, with a
|
|
confidence which the other, for all his meekness,
|
|
rather winced under. "That wasn't what I meant
|
|
at all. We don't want arguments from our friends:
|
|
we want sympathies, sensibilities, emotional bonds.
|
|
The right person's silence is worth more for companionship
|
|
than the wisest talk in the world from anybody else.
|
|
It isn't your mind that is needed here, or what you know;
|
|
it is your heart, and what you feel. You are full
|
|
of poetry, of ideals, of generous, unselfish impulses.
|
|
You see the human, the warm-blooded side of things.
|
|
THAT is what is really valuable. THAT is how you
|
|
can help!"
|
|
|
|
"You overestimate me sadly," protested Theron, though with
|
|
considerable tolerance for her error in his tone.
|
|
"But you ought to tell me something about this Dr. Ledsmar.
|
|
He spoke of being an old friend of the pr--of Father Forbes."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes, they've always known each other; that is,
|
|
for many years. They were professors together in a college once,
|
|
heaven only knows how long ago. Then they separated,
|
|
"I fancy they quarrelled, too, before they parted.
|
|
The doctor came here, where some relative had left him
|
|
the place he lives in. Then in time the Bishop chanced
|
|
to send Father Forbes here--that was about three years ago,--
|
|
and the two men after a while renewed their old relations.
|
|
They dine together; that is the doctor's stronghold.
|
|
He knows more about eating than any other man alive,
|
|
I believe. He studies it as you would study a language.
|
|
He has taught old Maggie, at the pastorate there,
|
|
to cook like the mother of all the Delmonicos.
|
|
And while they sit and stuff themselves, or loll about
|
|
afterward like gorged snakes, they think it is smart
|
|
to laugh at all the sweet and beautiful things in life,
|
|
and to sneer at people who believe in ideals, and to
|
|
talk about mankind being merely a fortuitous product
|
|
of fermentation, and twaddle of that sort. It makes
|
|
me sick!"
|
|
|
|
"I can readily see," said Theron, with sympathy, "how such
|
|
a cold, material, and infidel influence as that must shock
|
|
and revolt an essentially religious temperament like yours."
|
|
|
|
Miss Madden looked up at him. They had turned into the
|
|
main street, and there was light enough for him to detect
|
|
something startlingly like a grin on her beautiful face.
|
|
|
|
"But I'm not religious at all, you know," he heard her say.
|
|
"I'm as Pagan as--anything! Of course there are forms to
|
|
be observed, and so on; I rather like them than otherwise.
|
|
I can make them serve very well for my own system; for I
|
|
am myself, you know, an out-an-out Greek."
|
|
|
|
"Why, I had supposed that you were full blooded Irish,"
|
|
the Rev. Mr. Ware found himself remarking, and then
|
|
on the instant was overwhelmed by the consciousness
|
|
that he had said a foolish thing. Precisely where
|
|
the folly lay he did not know, but it was impossible
|
|
to mistake the gesture of annoyance which his companion
|
|
had instinctively made at his words. She had widened
|
|
the distance between them now, and quickened her step.
|
|
They went on in silence till they were within a block
|
|
of her house. Several people had passed them who Theron
|
|
felt sure must have recognized them both.
|
|
|
|
"What I meant was," the girl all at once began, drawing
|
|
nearer again, and speaking with patient slowness, "that I
|
|
find myself much more in sympathy with the Greek thought,
|
|
the Greek theology of the beautiful and the strong,
|
|
the Greek philosophy of life, and all that, than what is
|
|
taught nowadays. Personally, I take much more stock
|
|
in Plato than I do in Peter. But of course it is a wholly
|
|
personal affair; I had no business to bother you with it.
|
|
And for that matter, I oughtn't to have troubled you
|
|
with any of our--"
|
|
|
|
"I assure you, Miss Madden!" the young minister began,
|
|
with fervor.
|
|
|
|
"No," she broke in, in a resigned and even downcast tone;
|
|
"let it all be as if I hadn't spoken. Don't mind anything
|
|
I have said. If it is to be, it will be. You can't say
|
|
more than that, can you?"
|
|
|
|
She looked into his face again, and her large eyes
|
|
produced an impression of deep melancholy, which Theron
|
|
found himself somehow impelled to share. Things seemed
|
|
all at once to have become very sad indeed.
|
|
|
|
"It is one of my unhappy nights," she explained,
|
|
in gloomy confidence. "I get them every once in a while--
|
|
as if some vicious planet or other was crossing in front
|
|
of my good star--and then I'm a caution to snakes.
|
|
I shut myself up--that's the only thing to do--and have it
|
|
out with myself I didn't know but the organ-music would
|
|
calm me down, but it hasn't. I shan't sleep a wink tonight,
|
|
but just rage around from one room to another,
|
|
piling all the cushions from the divans on to the floor,
|
|
and then kicking them away again. Do YOU ever have fits
|
|
like that?"
|
|
|
|
Theron was able to reply with a good conscience in
|
|
the negative. It occurred to him to add, with jocose intent:
|
|
"I am curious to know, do these fits, as you call them,
|
|
occupy a prominent part in Grecian philosophy as a general rule?"
|
|
|
|
Celia gave a little snort, which might have signified
|
|
amusement, but did not speak until they were upon her
|
|
own sidewalk. "There is my brother, waiting at the gate,"
|
|
she said then, briefly.
|
|
|
|
"Well, then, I will bid you good-night here, I think,"
|
|
Theron remarked, coming to a halt, and offering his hand.
|
|
"It must be getting very late, and my--that is--I have
|
|
to be up particularly early tomorrow. So good-night;
|
|
I hope you will be feeling ever so much better in spirits in
|
|
the morning."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, that doesn't matter," replied the girl, listlessly.
|
|
"It's a very paltry little affair, this life of ours,
|
|
at the best of it. Luckily it's soon done with--
|
|
like a bad dream."
|
|
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"Tut! Tut! I won't have you talk like that!"
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interrupted Theron, with a swift and smart assumption
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of authority. "Such talk isn't sensible, and it isn't good.
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I have no patience with it!"
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"Well, try and have a little patience with ME, anyway,
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just for tonight," said Celia, taking the reproof with
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gentlest humility, rather to her censor's surprise.
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"I really am unhappy tonight, Mr. Ware, very unhappy.
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It seems as if all at once the world had swelled out in
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size a thousandfold, and that poor me had dwindled down
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to the merest wee little red-headed atom--the most helpless
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and forlorn and lonesome of atoms at that." She seemed
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to force a sorrowful smile on her face as she added:
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"But all the same it has done me good to be with you--
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I am sure it has--and I daresay that by tomorrow I shall
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be quite out of the blues. Good-night, Mr. Ware.
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Forgive my making such an exhibition of myself I WAS
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going to be such a fine early Greek, you know, and I have
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turned out only a late Milesian--quite of the decadence.
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I shall do better next time. And good-night again,
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and ever so many thanks."
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She was walking briskly away toward the gate now,
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where the shadowy Michael still patiently stood.
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Theron strode off in the opposite direction, taking long,
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deliberate steps, and bowing his head in thought.
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He had his hands behind his back, as was his wont,
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and the sense of their recent contact with her firm,
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ungloved hands was, curiously enough, the thing which pushed
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itself uppermost in his mind. There had been a frank,
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almost manly vigor in her grasp; he said to himself
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that of course that came from her playing so much on
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the keyboard; the exercise naturally would give her large,
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robust hands.
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Suddenly he remembered about the piano; he had quite
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forgotten to solicit her aid in selecting it. He turned,
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upon the impulse, to go back. She had not entered the gate
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as yet, but stood, shiningly visible under the street lamp,
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on the sidewalk, and she was looking in his direction.
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He turned again like a shot, and started homeward.
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The front door of the parsonage was unlocked, and he
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made his way on tiptoe through the unlighted hall to the
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living-room. The stuffy air here was almost suffocating
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with the evil smell of a kerosene lamp turned down too low.
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Alice sat asleep in her old farmhouse rocking-chair, with
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an inelegant darning-basket on the table by her side.
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The whole effect of the room was as bare and squalid
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to Theron's newly informed eye as the atmosphere was
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offensive to his nostrils. He coughed sharply, and his
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wife sat up and looked at the clock. It was after eleven.
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"Where on earth have you been?" she asked, with a yawn,
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turning up the wick of her sewing-lamp again.
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"You ought never to turn down a light like that,"
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said Theron, with a complaining note in his voice.
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"It smells up the whole place. I never dreamed of your
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sitting up for me like this. You ought to have gone
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to bed."
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"But how could I guess that you were going to be so late?,"
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she retorted. "And you haven't told me where you were.
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Is this book of yours going to keep you up like this
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right along?"
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The episode of the book was buried in the young minister's
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mind beneath such a mass of subsequent experiences
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that it required an effort for him to grasp what she
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was talking about. It seemed as if months had elapsed
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since he was in earnest about that book; and yet he
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|
had left the house full of it only a few hours before.
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He shook his wits together, and made answer--
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"Oh, bless you, no! Only there arose a very curious question.
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You have no idea, literally no conception, of the
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interesting and important problems which are raised
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by the mere fact of Abraham leaving the city of Ur.
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It's amazing, I assure you. I hadn't realized it myself."
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"Well," remarked Alice, rising--and with good-humor
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and petulance struggling sleepily ill her tone--"all I've
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got to say is, that if Abraham hasn't anything better
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to do than to keep young ministers of the gospel out,
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goodness knows where, till all hours of the night,
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I wish to gracious he'd stayed in the city of Ur right
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straight along."
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"You have no idea what a scholarly man Dr. Ledsmar is,"
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Theron suddenly found himself inspired to volunteer.
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"He has the most marvellous collection of books--a whole
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library devoted to this very subject--and he has put them
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all quite freely at my disposal. Extremely kind of him,
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isn't it?"
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"Ledsmar? Ledsmar?" queried Alice. "I don't seem
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|
to remember the name. He isn't the little man with
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the birthmark, who sits in the pew behind the Lovejoys,
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|
is he? I think some one said he was a doctor."
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"Yes, a horse doctor!" said Theron, with a sniff.
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"No; you haven't seen this Dr. Ledsmar at all. I--I don't
|
|
know that he attends any church regularly. I scraped his
|
|
acquaintance quite by accident. He is really a character.
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He lives in the big house, just beyond the race-course,
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you know--the one with the tower at the back--"
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"No, I don't know. How should I? I've hardly poked
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my nose outside of the yard since I have been here."
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"Well, you shall go," said the husband, consolingly.
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"You HAVE been cooped up here too much, poor girl. I must
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|
take you out more, really. I don't know that I could take
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you to the doctor's place--without an invitation, I mean.
|
|
He is very queer about some things. He lives there all alone,
|
|
for instance, with only a Chinaman for a servant. He told
|
|
me I was almost the only man he had asked under his roof
|
|
for years. He isn't a practising physician at all, you know.
|
|
He is a scientist; he makes experiments with lizards--
|
|
and things."
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"Theron," the wife said, pausing lamp in hand on her way
|
|
to the bedroom, "do you be careful, now! For all you know
|
|
this doctor may be a loose man, or pretty near an infidel.
|
|
You've got to be mighty particular in such matters, you know,
|
|
or you'll have the trustees down on you like a 'thousand
|
|
of bricks.'"
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"I will thank the trustees to mind their own business,"
|
|
said Theron, stiffly, and the subject dropped.
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|
The bedroom window upstairs was open, and upon the fresh
|
|
night air was borne in the shrill, jangling sound of a piano,
|
|
being played off somewhere in the distance, but so
|
|
vehemently that the noise imposed itself upon the silence
|
|
far and wide. Theron listened to this as he undressed.
|
|
It proceeded from the direction of the main street,
|
|
and he knew, as by instinct, that it was the Madden girl
|
|
who was playing. The incongruity of the hour escaped
|
|
his notice. He mused instead upon the wild and tropical
|
|
tangle of moods, emotions, passions, which had grown up in
|
|
that strange temperament. He found something very pathetic
|
|
in that picture she had drawn of herself in forecast,
|
|
roaming disconsolate through her rooms the livelong night,
|
|
unable to sleep. The woful moan of insomnia seemed
|
|
to make itself heard in every strain from her piano.
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|
|
|
Alice heard it also, but being unillumined, she missed
|
|
the romantic pathos. "I call it disgraceful," she muttered
|
|
from her pillow, "for folks to be banging away on a piano
|
|
at this time of night. There ought to be a law to prevent it."
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|
|
|
"It may be some distressed soul," said Theron, gently,
|
|
"seeking relief from the curse of sleeplessness."
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|
|
|
The wife laughed, almost contemptuously.
|
|
"Distressed fiddlesticks!" was her only other comment.
|
|
|
|
The music went on for a long time--rising now to strident
|
|
heights, now sinking off to the merest tinkling murmur,
|
|
and broken ever and again by intervals of utter hush.
|
|
It did not prevent Alice from at once falling sound asleep;
|
|
but Theron lay awake, it seemed to him, for hours,
|
|
listening tranquilly, and letting his mind wander at will
|
|
through the pleasant antechambers of Sleep, where are more
|
|
unreal fantasies than Dreamland itself affords.
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PART II
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CHAPTER XI
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For some weeks the Rev. Theron Ware saw nothing of either
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|
the priest or the doctor, or the interesting Miss Madden.
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|
|
|
There were, indeed, more urgent matters to think about.
|
|
June had come; and every succeeding day brought closer to hand
|
|
the ordeal of his first Quarterly Conference in Octavius.
|
|
The waters grew distinctly rougher as his pastoral bark
|
|
neared this difficult passage.
|
|
|
|
He would have approached the great event with an easier
|
|
mind if he could have made out just how he stood
|
|
with his congregation. Unfortunately nothing in his
|
|
previous experiences helped him in the least to measure
|
|
or guess at the feelings of these curious Octavians.
|
|
Their Methodism seemed to be sound enough, and to stick
|
|
quite to the letter of the Discipline, so long as it was
|
|
expressed in formulae. It was its spirit which he felt
|
|
to be complicated by all sorts of conditions wholly novel to him.
|
|
|
|
The existence of a line of street-cars in the town,
|
|
for example, would not impress the casual thinker as
|
|
likely to prove a rock in the path of peaceful religion.
|
|
Theron, in his simplicity, had even thought, when he
|
|
first saw these bobtailed cars bumping along the rails
|
|
in the middle of the main street, that they must be
|
|
a great convenience to people living in the outskirts,
|
|
who wished to get in to church of a Sunday morning.
|
|
He was imprudent enough to mention this in conversation
|
|
with one of his new parishioners. Then he learned,
|
|
to his considerable chagrin, that when this line was built,
|
|
some years before, a bitter war of words had been fought
|
|
upon the question of its being worked on the Sabbath day.
|
|
The then occupant of the Methodist pulpit had so distinguished
|
|
himself above the rest by the solemnity and fervor of his
|
|
protests against this insolent desecration of God's day
|
|
that the Methodists of Octavius still felt themselves
|
|
peculiarly bound to hold this horse-car line, its management,
|
|
and everything connected with it, in unbending aversion.
|
|
At least once a year they were accustomed to expect a
|
|
sermon denouncing it and all its impious Sunday patrons.
|
|
Theron made a mental resolve that this year they should
|
|
be disappointed.
|
|
|
|
Another burning problem, which he had not been called
|
|
upon before to confront, he found now entangled with the
|
|
mysterious line which divided a circus from a menagerie.
|
|
Those itinerant tent-shows had never come his way heretofore,
|
|
and he knew nothing of that fine balancing proportion between
|
|
ladies in tights on horseback and cages full of deeply
|
|
educational animals, which, even as the impartial rain,
|
|
was designed to embrace alike the just and the unjust.
|
|
There had arisen inside the Methodist society of Octavius
|
|
some painful episodes, connected with members who took
|
|
their children "just to see the animals," and were convicted
|
|
of having also watched the Rose-Queen of the Arena,
|
|
in her unequalled flying leap through eight hoops,
|
|
with an ardent and unashamed eye. One of these cases
|
|
still remained on the censorial docket of the church;
|
|
and Theron understood that he was expected to name a
|
|
committee of five to examine and try it. This he neglected
|
|
to do.
|
|
|
|
He was no longer at all certain that the congregation
|
|
as a whole liked his sermons. The truth was, no doubt,
|
|
that he had learned enough to cease regarding the
|
|
congregation as a whole. He could still rely upon
|
|
carrying along with him in his discourses from the pulpit
|
|
a large majority of interested and approving faces.
|
|
But here, unhappily, was a case where the majority did
|
|
not rule. The minority, relatively small in numbers,
|
|
was prodigious in virile force.
|
|
|
|
More than twenty years had now elapsed since that minor schism
|
|
in the Methodist Episcopal Church, the result of which was
|
|
the independent body known as Free Methodists, had relieved
|
|
the parent flock of its principal disturbing element.
|
|
The rupture came fittingly at that time when all
|
|
the "isms" of the argumentative fifties were hurled
|
|
violently together into the melting-pot of civil war.
|
|
The great Methodist Church, South, had broken bodily off
|
|
on the question of State Rights. The smaller and domestic
|
|
fraction of Free Methodism separated itself upon an issue
|
|
which may be most readily described as one of civilization.
|
|
The seceders resented growth in material prosperity;
|
|
they repudiated the introduction of written sermons
|
|
and organ-music; they deplored the increasing laxity
|
|
in meddlesome piety, the introduction of polite manners
|
|
in the pulpit and classroom, and the development of even
|
|
a rudimentary desire among the younger people of the
|
|
church to be like others outside in dress and speech
|
|
and deportment. They did battle as long as they could,
|
|
inside the fold, to restore it to the severely
|
|
straight and narrow path of primitive Methodism.
|
|
When the adverse odds became too strong for them,
|
|
they quitted the church and set up a Bethel for themselves.
|
|
|
|
Octavius chanced to be one of the places where they were
|
|
able to hold their own within the church organization.
|
|
The Methodism of the town had gone along without any
|
|
local secession. It still held in full fellowship
|
|
the radicals who elsewhere had followed their unbridled
|
|
bent into the strongest emotional vagaries--where excited
|
|
brethren worked themselves up into epileptic fits, and women
|
|
whirled themselves about in weird religious ecstasies,
|
|
like dervishes of the Orient, till they fell headlong
|
|
in a state of trance. Octavian Methodism was spared
|
|
extravagances of this sort, it is true, but it paid
|
|
a price for the immunity. The people whom an open split
|
|
would have taken away remained to leaven and dominate
|
|
the whole lump. This small advanced section, with its men
|
|
of a type all the more aggressive from its narrowness,
|
|
and women who went about solemnly in plain gray garments,
|
|
with tight-fitting, unadorned, mouse-colored sunbonnets,
|
|
had not been able wholly to enforce its views upon the
|
|
social life of the church members, but of its controlling
|
|
influence upon their official and public actions there
|
|
could be no doubt.
|
|
|
|
The situation had begun to unfold itself to Theron
|
|
from the outset. He had recognized the episodes of
|
|
the forbidden Sunday milk and of the flowers in poor
|
|
Alice's bonnet as typical of much more that was to come.
|
|
No week followed without bringing some new fulfilment
|
|
of this foreboding. Now, at the end of two months,
|
|
he knew well enough that the hitherto dominant minority
|
|
was hostile to him and his ministry, and would do whatever
|
|
it could against him.
|
|
|
|
Though Theron at once decided to show fight, and did
|
|
not at all waver in that resolve, his courage was in the
|
|
main of a despondent sort. Sometimes it would flutter
|
|
up to the point of confidence, or at least hopefulness,
|
|
when he met with substantial men of the church who
|
|
obviously liked him, and whom he found himself mentally
|
|
ranging on his side, in the struggle which was to come.
|
|
But more often it was blankly apparent to him that,
|
|
the moment flags were flying and drums on the roll,
|
|
these amiable fair-weather friends would probably take
|
|
to their heels.
|
|
|
|
Still, such as they were, his sole hope lay in their support.
|
|
He must make the best of them. He set himself doggedly
|
|
to the task of gathering together all those who were
|
|
not his enemies into what, when the proper time came,
|
|
should be known as the pastor's party. There was plenty
|
|
of apostolic warrant for this. If there had not been,
|
|
Theron felt that the mere elementary demands of self-defence
|
|
would have justified his use of strategy.
|
|
|
|
The institution of pastoral calling, particularly that
|
|
inquisitorial form of it laid down in the Discipline,
|
|
had never attracted Theron. He and Alice had gone about
|
|
among their previous flocks in quite a haphazard fashion,
|
|
without thought of system, much less of deliberate purpose.
|
|
Theron made lists now, and devoted thought and examination
|
|
to the personal tastes and characteristics of the people
|
|
to be cultivated. There were some, for example, who would
|
|
expect him to talk pretty much as the Discipline ordained--
|
|
that is, to ask if they had family prayer, to inquire
|
|
after their souls, and generally to minister grace
|
|
to his hearers--and these in turn subdivided themselves
|
|
into classes, ranging from those who would wish nothing
|
|
else to those who needed only a mild spiritual flavor.
|
|
There were others whom he would please much better by not
|
|
talking shop at all. Although he could ill afford it,
|
|
he subscribed now for a daily paper that he might have
|
|
a perpetually renewed source of good conversational
|
|
topics for these more worldly calls. He also bought
|
|
several pounds of candy, pleasing in color, but warranted
|
|
to be entirely harmless, and he made a large mysterious
|
|
mark on the inside of his new silk hat to remind him
|
|
not to go out calling without some of this in his pocket
|
|
for the children.
|
|
|
|
Alice, he felt, was not helping him in this matter
|
|
as effectively as he could have wished. Her attitude
|
|
toward the church in Octavius might best be described
|
|
by the word "sulky." Great allowance was to be made,
|
|
he realized, for her humiliation over the flowers
|
|
in her bonnet. That might justify her, fairly enough,
|
|
in being kept away from meeting now and again by headaches,
|
|
or undefined megrims. But it ought not to prevent her
|
|
from going about and making friends among the kindlier
|
|
parishioners who would welcome such a thing, and whom he from
|
|
time to time indicated to her. She did go to some extent,
|
|
it is true, but she produced, in doing so, an effect
|
|
of performing a duty. He did not find traces anywhere
|
|
of her having created a brilliant social impression.
|
|
When they went out together, he was peculiarly conscious
|
|
of having to do the work unaided.
|
|
|
|
This was not at all like the Alice of former years,
|
|
of other charges. Why, she had been, beyond comparison,
|
|
the most popular young woman in Tyre. What possessed her
|
|
to mope like this in Octavius?
|
|
|
|
Theron looked at her attentively nowadays, when she was
|
|
unaware of his gaze, to try if her face offered any answer
|
|
to the riddle. It could not be suggested that she was ill.
|
|
Never in her life had she been looking so well. She had
|
|
thrown herself, all at once, and with what was to him
|
|
an unaccountable energy, into the creation and management
|
|
of a flower-garden. She was out the better part of
|
|
every day, rain or shine, digging, transplanting, pruning,
|
|
pottering generally about among her plants and shrubs.
|
|
This work in the open air had given her an aspect of physical
|
|
well-being which it was impossible to be mistaken about.
|
|
|
|
Her husband was glad, of course, that she had found some
|
|
occupation which at once pleased her and so obviously
|
|
conduced to health. This was so much a matter of course,
|
|
in fact, that he said to himself over and over again
|
|
that he was glad. Only--only, sometimes the thought WOULD
|
|
force itself upon his attention that if she did not spend
|
|
so much of her time in her own garden, she would have more
|
|
time to devote to winning friends for them in the Garden
|
|
of the Lord--friends whom they were going to need badly.
|
|
|
|
The young minister, in taking anxious stock of the chances
|
|
for and against him, turned over often in his mind the
|
|
fact that he had already won rank as a pulpit orator.
|
|
His sermons had attracted almost universal attention
|
|
at Tyre, and his achievement before the Conference
|
|
at Tecumseh, if it did fail to receive practical reward,
|
|
had admittedly distanced all the other preaching there.
|
|
It was a part of the evil luck pursuing him that here
|
|
in this perversely enigmatic Octavius his special gift
|
|
seemed to be of no use whatever. There were times,
|
|
indeed, when he was tempted to think that bad preaching
|
|
was what Octavius wanted.
|
|
|
|
Somewhere he had heard of a Presbyterian minister, in charge
|
|
of a big city church, who managed to keep well in with a
|
|
watchfully Orthodox congregation, and at the same time
|
|
establish himself in the affections of the community at large,
|
|
by simply preaching two kinds of sermons. In the morning,
|
|
when almost all who attended were his own communicants,
|
|
he gave them very cautious and edifying doctrinal discourses,
|
|
treading loyally in the path of the Westminster Confession.
|
|
To the evening assemblages, made up for the larger part
|
|
of outsiders, he addressed broadly liberal sermons,
|
|
literary in form, and full of respectful allusions
|
|
to modern science and the philosophy of the day.
|
|
Thus he filled the church at both services, and put money
|
|
in its treasury and his own fame before the world.
|
|
There was of course the obvious danger that the pious
|
|
elders who in the forenoon heard infant damnation
|
|
vigorously proclaimed, would revolt when they heard
|
|
after supper that there was some doubt about even adults
|
|
being damned at all. But either because the same people
|
|
did not attend both services, or because the minister's
|
|
perfect regularity in the morning was each week regarded
|
|
as a retraction of his latest vagaries of an evening,
|
|
no trouble ever came.
|
|
|
|
Theron had somewhat tentatively tried this on in Octavius.
|
|
It was no good. His parishioners were of the sort who
|
|
would have come to church eight times a day on Sunday,
|
|
instead of two, if occasion offered. The hope that even
|
|
a portion of them would stop away, and that their places
|
|
would be taken in the evening by less prejudiced strangers
|
|
who wished for intellectual rather than theological food,
|
|
fell by the wayside. The yearned-for strangers did
|
|
not come; the familiar faces of the morning service
|
|
all turned up in their accustomed places every evening.
|
|
They were faces which confused and disheartened Theron
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in the daytime. Under the gaslight they seemed even harder
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and more unsympathetic. He timorously experimented with
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them for an evening or two, then abandoned the effort.
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Once there had seemed the beginning of a chance. The richest
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banker in Octavius--a fat, sensual, hog-faced old bachelor--
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surprised everybody one evening by entering the church
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and taking a seat. Theron happened to know who he was;
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even if he had not known, the suppressed excitement
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visible in the congregation, the way the sisters turned
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round to look, the way the more important brethren put
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their heads together and exchanged furtive whispers--
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would have warned him that big game was in view.
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He recalled afterward with something like self-disgust
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the eager, almost tremulous pains he himself took
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to please this banker. There was a part of the sermon,
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as it had been written out, which might easily give
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offence to a single man of wealth and free notions
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of life. With the alertness of a mental gymnast,
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Theron ran ahead, excised this portion, and had ready
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when the gap was reached some very pretty general remarks,
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all the more effective and eloquent, he felt, for having
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been extemporized. People said it was a good sermon;
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and after the benediction and dispersion some of the
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officials and principal pew-holders remained to talk
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over the likelihood of a capture having been effected.
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Theron did not get away without having this mentioned
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to him, and he was conscious of sharing deeply the hope
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of the brethren--with the added reflection that it would
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be a personal triumph for himself into the bargain.
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He was ashamed of this feeling a little later, and of his
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trick with the sermon. But this chastening product of
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introspection was all the fruit which the incident bore.
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The banker never came again.
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Theron returned one afternoon, a little earlier than usual,
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from a group of pastoral calls. Alice, who was plucking weeds
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in a border at the shady side of the house, heard his step,
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and rose from her labors. He was walking slowly,
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and seemed weary. He took off his high hat, as he saw her,
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and wiped his brow. The broiling June sun was still
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high overhead. Doubtless it was its insufferable heat
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which was accountable for the worn lines in his face
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and the spiritless air which the wife's eye detected.
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She went to the gate, and kissed him as he entered.
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"I believe if I were you," she said, "I'd carry an umbrella
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such scorching days as this. Nobody'd think anything of it.
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I don't see why a minister shouldn't carry one as much
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as a woman carries a parasol."
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Theron gave her a rueful, meditative sort of smile.
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"I suppose people really do think of us as a kind
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of hybrid female," he remarked. Then, holding his hat
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in his hand, he drew a long breath of relief at finding
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himself in the shade, and looked about him.
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"Why, you've got more posies here, on this one side
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of the house alone, than mother had in her whole yard,"
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he said, after a little. "Let's see--I know that one:
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that's columbine, isn't it? And that's London pride,
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and that's ragged robin. I don't know any of the others."
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Alice recited various unfamiliar names, as she pointed
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out the several plants which bore them, and he listened
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with a kindly semblance of interest.
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They strolled thus to the rear of the house, where thick
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clumps of fragrant pinks lined both sides of the path.
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She picked some of these for him, and gave him more names
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with which to label the considerable number of other plants
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he saw about him.
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"I had no idea we were so well provided as all this,"
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he commented at last. "Those Van Sizers must have been
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tremendous hands for flowers. You were lucky in following
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such people."
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"Van Sizers!" echoed Alice, with contempt. "All they
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left was old tomato cans and clamshells. Why, I've put
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in every blessed one of these myself, all except
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those peonies, there, and one brier on the side wall."
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"Good for you!" exclaimed Theron, approvingly. Then it
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occurred to him to ask, "But where did you get them all?
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Around among our friends?"
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"Some few," responded Alice, with a note of hesitation
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in her voice. "Sister Bult gave me the verbenas, there,
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and the white pinks were a present from Miss Stevens.
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But most of them Levi Gorringe was good enough to send me--
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from his garden."
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"I didn't know that Gorringe had a garden," said Theron.
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"I thought he lived over his law-office, in the brick
|
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block, there."
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"Well, I don't know that it's exactly HIS," explained Alice;
|
|
"but it's a big garden somewhere outside, where he can
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have anything he likes." She went on with a little laugh:
|
|
"I didn't like to question him too closely, for fear he'd
|
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think I was looking a gift horse in the mouth--or else
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|
hinting for more. It was quite his own offer, you know.
|
|
He picked them all out for me, and brought them here,
|
|
and lent me a book telling me just what to do with each one.
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|
And in a few days, now, I am to have another big batch
|
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of plants--dahlias and zinnias and asters and so on;
|
|
I'm almost ashamed to take them. But it's such a change
|
|
to find some one in this Octavius who isn't all self!"
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|
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"Yes, Gorringe is a good fellow," said Theron. "I wish he
|
|
was a professing member." Then some new thought struck him.
|
|
"Alice," he exclaimed, "I believe I'll go and see him
|
|
this very afternoon. I don't know why it hasn't occurred
|
|
to me before: he's just the man whose advice I need most.
|
|
He knows these people here; he can tell me what to do."
|
|
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"Aren't you too tired now?" suggested Alice, as Theron
|
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put on his hat.
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"No, the sooner the better," he replied, moving now toward
|
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the gate.
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|
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"Well," she began, "if I were you, I wouldn't say too
|
|
much about--that is, I--but never mind."
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|
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"What is it?" asked her husband.
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|
|
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"Nothing whatever," replied Alice, positively. "It was
|
|
only some nonsense of mine;" and Theron, placidly accepting
|
|
the feminine whim, went off down the street again.
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CHAPTER XII
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The Rev. Mr. Ware found Levi Gorringe's law-office
|
|
readily enough, but its owner was not in. He probably
|
|
would be back again, though, in a quarter of an hour or so,
|
|
the boy said, and the minister at once decided to wait.
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|
|
|
Theron was interested in finding that this office-boy was no
|
|
other than Harvey--the lad who brought milk to the parsonage
|
|
every morning. He remembered now that he had heard good
|
|
things of this urchin, as to the hard work he did to help
|
|
his mother, the Widow Semple, in her struggle to keep
|
|
a roof over her head; and also bad things, in that he did
|
|
not come regularly either to church or Sunday-school. The
|
|
clergyman recalled, too, that Harvey had impressed him as a character.
|
|
|
|
"Well, sonny, are you going to be a lawyer?" he asked,
|
|
as he seated himself by the window, and looked about him,
|
|
first at the dusty litter of old papers, pamphlets,
|
|
and tape-bound documents in bundles which crowded
|
|
the stuffy chamber, and then at the boy himself.
|
|
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|
Harvey was busy at a big box--a rough pine dry-goods
|
|
box which bore the flaring label of an express company,
|
|
and also of a well-known seed firm in a Western city,
|
|
and which the boy had apparently just opened. He was
|
|
lifting from it, and placing on the table after he had
|
|
shaken off the sawdust and moss in which they were packed,
|
|
small parcels of what looked in the fading light to be
|
|
half-dried plants.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I don't know--I rather guess not," he made answer,
|
|
as he pursued his task. "So far as I can make out,
|
|
this wouldn't be the place to start in at, if I WAS going
|
|
to be a lawyer. A boy can learn here first-rate how to
|
|
load cartridges and clean a gun, and braid trout-flies on
|
|
to leaders, but I don't see much law laying around loose.
|
|
Anyway," he went on, "I couldn't afford to read law,
|
|
and not be getting any wages. I have to earn money,
|
|
you know."
|
|
|
|
Theron felt that he liked the boy. "Yes," he said,
|
|
with a kindly tone; "I've heard that you are a good,
|
|
industrious youngster. I daresay Mr. Gorringe will
|
|
see to it that you get a chance to read law, and get
|
|
wages too."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I can read all there is here and welcome,"
|
|
the boy explained, stepping toward the window to decipher
|
|
the label on a bundle of roots in his hand, "but that's no
|
|
good unless there's regular practice coming into the office
|
|
all the while. THAT'S how you learn to be a lawyer.
|
|
But Gorringe don't have what I call a practice at all.
|
|
He just sees men in the other room there, with the door shut,
|
|
and whatever there is to do he does it all himself."
|
|
|
|
The minister remembered a stray hint somewhere that
|
|
Mr. Gorringe was a money-lender--what was colloquially
|
|
called a "note-shaver." To his rustic sense, there was
|
|
something not quite nice about that occupation.
|
|
It would be indecorous, he felt, to encourage further
|
|
talk about it from the boy.
|
|
|
|
"What are you doing there?" he inquired, to change
|
|
the subject.
|
|
|
|
"Sorting out some plants," replied Harvey. "I don't know
|
|
what's got into Gorringe lately. This is the third big
|
|
box he's had since I've been here--that is, in six weeks--
|
|
besides two baskets full of rose-bushes. I don't know what he
|
|
does with them. He carries them off himself somewhere.
|
|
I've had kind of half a notion that he's figurin'
|
|
on getting married. I can't think of anything else that
|
|
would make a man spend money like water--just for flowers
|
|
and bushes. They do get foolish, you know, when they've
|
|
got marriage on the brain."
|
|
|
|
Theron found himself only imperfectly following
|
|
the theories of the young philosopher.
|
|
It was his fact that monopolized the minister's attention.
|
|
|
|
"But as I understand it," he remarked hesitatingly,
|
|
"Brother Gorringe--or rather Mr. Gorringe--gets all the
|
|
plants he wants, everything he likes, from a big garden
|
|
somewhere outside. I don't know that it is exactly his;
|
|
but I remember hearing something to that effect."
|
|
|
|
The boy slapped the last litter off his hands, and, as he
|
|
came to the window, shook his head. "These don't come
|
|
from no garden outside," he declared. "They come from
|
|
the dealers', and he pays solid cash for 'em. The invoice
|
|
for this lot alone was thirty-one dollars and sixty cents.
|
|
There it is on the table. You can see it for yourself"
|
|
|
|
Mr. Ware did not offer to look. "Very likely these
|
|
are for the garden I was speaking of," he said.
|
|
"Of course you can't go on taking plants out of a garden
|
|
indefinitely without putting others in."
|
|
|
|
"I don't know anything about any garden that he takes
|
|
plants out of," answered Harvey, and looked meditatively
|
|
for a minute or two out upon the street below. Then he
|
|
turned to the minister. "Your wife's doing a good deal
|
|
of gardening this spring, I notice," he said casually.
|
|
"You'd hardly think it was the same place, she's fixed it
|
|
up so. If she wants any extra hoeing done, I can always
|
|
get off Saturday afternoons."
|
|
|
|
"I will remember," said Theron. He also looked
|
|
out of the window; and nothing more was said until,
|
|
a few moments later, Mr. Gorringe himself came in.
|
|
|
|
The lawyer seemed both surprised and pleased at discovering
|
|
the identity of his visitor, with whom he shook hands
|
|
in almost an excess of cordiality. He spread a large
|
|
newspaper over the pile of seedling plants on the table,
|
|
pushed the packing-box under the table with his foot,
|
|
and said almost peremptorily to the boy, "You can go now!"
|
|
Then he turned again to Theron.
|
|
|
|
"Well, Mr. Ware, I'm glad to see you," he repeated,
|
|
and drew up a chair by the window. Things are going all
|
|
right with you, I hope."
|
|
|
|
Theron noted again the waving black hair, the dark skin,
|
|
and the carefully trimmed mustache and chin-tuft which
|
|
gave the lawyer's face a combined effect of romance
|
|
and smartness. No; it was the eyes, cool, shrewd,
|
|
dark-gray eyes, which suggested this latter quality.
|
|
The recollection of having seen one of them wink,
|
|
in deliberate hostility of sarcasm, when those other
|
|
trustees had their backs turned, came mercifully
|
|
at the moment to recall the young minister to his errand.
|
|
|
|
"I thought I would drop in and have a chat with you,"
|
|
he said, getting better under way as he went on.
|
|
"Quarterly Conference is only a fortnight off, and I am a
|
|
good deal at sea about what is going to happen."
|
|
|
|
"I'm not a church member, you know," interposed Gorringe.
|
|
"That shuts me out of the Quarterly Conference."
|
|
|
|
"Alas, yes!" said Theron. "I wish it didn't. I'm afraid
|
|
I'm not going to have any friends to spare there."
|
|
|
|
"What are you afraid of?" asked the lawyer, seeming now
|
|
to be wholly at his ease again "They can't eat you."
|
|
|
|
"No, they keep me too lean for that," responded Theron,
|
|
with a pensive smile. "I WAS going to ask, you know,
|
|
for an increase of salary, or an extra allowance.
|
|
I don't see how I can go on as it is. The sum fixed by
|
|
the last Quarterly Conference of the old year, and which I
|
|
am getting now, is one hundred dollars less than my
|
|
predecessor had. That isn't fair, and it isn't right.
|
|
But so far from its looking as if I could get an increase,
|
|
the prospect seems rather that they will make me pay
|
|
for the gas and that sidewalk. I never recovered more
|
|
than about half of my moving expenses, as you know,
|
|
and--and, frankly, I don't know which way to turn.
|
|
It keeps me miserable all the while."
|
|
|
|
"That's where you're wrong," said Mr. Gorringe. "If you
|
|
let things like that worry you, you'll keep a sore skin
|
|
all your life. You take my advice and just go ahead
|
|
your own gait, and let other folks do the worrying.
|
|
They ARE pretty close-fisted here, for a fact, but you
|
|
can manage to rub along somehow. If you should get
|
|
into any real difficulties, why, I guess--" the lawyer
|
|
paused to smile in a hesitating, significant way--"I
|
|
guess some road out can be found all right. The main
|
|
thing is, don't fret, and don't allow your wife to--
|
|
to fret either."
|
|
|
|
He stopped abruptly. Theron nodded in recognition of his
|
|
amiable tone, and the found the nod lengthening itself
|
|
out into almost a bow as the thought spread through his
|
|
mind that this had been nothing more nor less than a
|
|
promise to help him with money if worst came to worst.
|
|
He looked at Levi Gorringe, and said to himself that the
|
|
intuition of women was wonderful. Alice had picked him
|
|
out as a friend of theirs merely by seeing him pass the house.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," he said; "I am specially anxious to keep my wife
|
|
from worrying. She was surrounded in her girlhood by a
|
|
good deal of what, relatively, we should call luxury,
|
|
and that makes it all the harder for her to be a poor
|
|
minister's wife. I had quite decided to get her a
|
|
hired girl, come what might, but she thinks she'd rather
|
|
get on without one. Her health is better, I must admit,
|
|
than it was when we came here. She works out in her
|
|
garden a great deal, and that seems to agree with her."
|
|
|
|
"Octavius is a healthy place--that's generally admitted,"
|
|
replied the lawyer, with indifference. He seemed
|
|
not to be interested in Mrs. Ware's health, but looked
|
|
intently out through the window at the buildings opposite,
|
|
and drummed with his fingers on the arms of his chair.
|
|
|
|
Theron made haste to revert to his errand. "Of course,
|
|
your not being in the Quarterly Conference," he said,
|
|
"renders certain things impossible. But I didn't know
|
|
but you might have some knowledge of how matters are going,
|
|
what plans the officials of the church had; they seem to
|
|
have agreed to tell me nothing."
|
|
|
|
"Well, I HAVE heard this much," responded Gorringe.
|
|
"They're figuring on getting the Soulsbys here to raise
|
|
the debt and kind o' shake things up generally.
|
|
I guess that's about as good as settled. Hadn't you heard
|
|
of it?"
|
|
|
|
"Not a breath!" exclaimed Theron, mournfully. "Well," he
|
|
added upon reflection, "I'm sorry, downright sorry.
|
|
The debt-raiser seems to me about the lowest-down thing
|
|
we produce. I've heard of those Soulsbys; I think I saw HIM
|
|
indeed once at Conference, but I believe SHE is the head
|
|
of the firm."
|
|
|
|
"Yes; she wears the breeches, I understand,"
|
|
said Gorringe sententiously.
|
|
|
|
"I HAD hoped," the young minister began with a rueful sigh,
|
|
"in fact, I felt quite confident at the outset that I
|
|
could pay off this debt, and put the church generally on
|
|
a new footing, by giving extra attention to my pulpit work.
|
|
It is hardly for me to say it, but in other places where I
|
|
have been, my preaching has been rather--rather a feature
|
|
in the town itself I have always been accustomed to attract
|
|
to our services a good many non-members, and that,
|
|
as you know, helps tremendously from a money point of view.
|
|
But somehow that has failed here. I doubt if the average
|
|
congregations are a whit larger now than they were when I
|
|
came in April. I know the collections are not."
|
|
|
|
"No," commented the lawyer, slowly; "you'll never do
|
|
anything in that line in Octavius. You might, of course,
|
|
if you were to stay here and work hard at it for five
|
|
or six years--"
|
|
|
|
"Heaven forbid!" groaned Mr. Ware.
|
|
|
|
"Quite so," put in the other. "The point is that
|
|
the Methodists here are a little set by themselves.
|
|
I don't know that they like one another specially,
|
|
but I do know that they are not what you might call
|
|
popular with people outside. Now, a new preacher
|
|
at the Presbyterian church, or even the Baptist--
|
|
he might have a chance to create talk, and make a stir.
|
|
But Methodist--no! People who don't belong won't come near
|
|
the Methodist church here so long as there's any other
|
|
place with a roof on it to go to. Give a dog a bad name,
|
|
you know. Well, the Methodists here have got a bad name;
|
|
and if you could preach like Henry Ward Beecher himself you
|
|
wouldn't change it, or get folks to come and hear you."
|
|
|
|
"I see what you mean," Theron responded. "I'm not
|
|
particularly surprised myself that Octavius doesn't
|
|
love us, or look to us for intellectual stimulation.
|
|
I myself leave that pulpit more often than otherwise
|
|
feeling like a wet rag--utterly limp and discouraged.
|
|
But, if you don't mind my speaking of it, YOU don't belong,
|
|
and yet YOU come."
|
|
|
|
It was evident that the lawyer did not mind. He spoke
|
|
freely in reply. "Oh, yes, I've got into the habit of it.
|
|
I began going when I first came here, and--and so it grew
|
|
to be natural for me to go. Then, of course, being the
|
|
only lawyer you have, a considerable amount of my business
|
|
is mixed up in one way or another with your membership;
|
|
you see those are really the things which settle a man
|
|
in a rut, and keep him there."
|
|
|
|
"I suppose your people were Methodists," said Theron,
|
|
to fill in the pause, "and that is how you originally
|
|
started with us."
|
|
|
|
Levi Gorringe shook his head. He leaned back, half closed
|
|
his eyes, put his finger-tips together, and almost smiled
|
|
as if something in retrospect pleased and moved him.
|
|
|
|
"No," he said; "I went to the church first to see a girl
|
|
who used to go there. It was long before your time.
|
|
All her family moved away years ago. You wouldn't know any
|
|
of them. I was younger then, and I didn't know as much as I
|
|
do now. I worshipped the very ground that girl walked on,
|
|
and like a fool I never gave her so much as a hint of it.
|
|
Looking back now, I can see that I might have had her if I'd
|
|
asked her. But I went instead and sat around and looked
|
|
at her at church and Sunday-school and prayer-meetings
|
|
Thursday nights, and class-meetings after the sermon.
|
|
She was devoted to religion and church work; and, thinking it
|
|
would please her, I joined the church on probation.
|
|
Men can fool themselves easier than they can other people.
|
|
I actually believed at the time that I had experienced religion.
|
|
I felt myself full of all sorts of awakenings of the soul
|
|
and so forth. But it was really that girl. You see I'm
|
|
telling you the thing just as it was. I was very happy.
|
|
I think it was the happiest time of my life. I remember
|
|
there was a love-feast while I was on probation; and I sat
|
|
down in front, right beside her, and we ate the little
|
|
square chunks of bread and drank the water together, and I
|
|
held one corner of her hymn-book when we stood up and sang.
|
|
That was the nearest I ever got to her, or to full membership
|
|
in the church. That very next week, I think it was,
|
|
we learned that she had got engaged to the minister's son--
|
|
a young man who had just become a minister himself.
|
|
They got married, and went away--and I--somehow I never took
|
|
up my membership when the six months' probation was over.
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That's how it was."
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"It is very interesting," remarked Theron, softly, after a
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little silence--"and very full of human nature."
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"Well, now you see," said the lawyer, "what I mean when I
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say that there hasn't been another minister here since,
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that I should have felt like telling this story to.
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They wouldn't have understood it at all. They would
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have thought it was blasphemy for me to say straight
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out that what I took for experiencing religion was really
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a girl. But you are different. I felt that at once,
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the first time I saw you. In a pulpit or out of it,
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what I like in a human being is that he SHOULD be human."
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"It pleases me beyond measure that you should like me, then"
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returned the young minister, with frank gratification
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shining on his face. "The world is made all the sweeter
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and more lovable by these--these elements of romance.
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I am not one of those who would wish to see them banished
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or frowned upon. I don't mind admitting to you that
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there is a good deal in Methodism--I mean the strict
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practice of its letter which you find here in Octavius--
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that is personally distasteful to me. I read the other day
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of an English bishop who said boldly, publicly, that no
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modern nation could practise the principles laid down
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in the Sermon on the Mount and survive for twenty-four hours."
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"Ha, ha! That's good!" laughed the lawyer.
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"I felt that it was good, too," pursued Theron. "I am getting
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to see a great many things differently, here in Octavius.
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Our Methodist Discipline is like the Beatitudes--very helpful
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and beautiful, if treated as spiritual suggestion, but more
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or less of a stumbling-block if insisted upon literally.
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I declare!" he added, sitting up in his chair, "I never
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talked like this to a living soul before in all my life.
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Your confidences were contagious."
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The Rev. Mr. Ware rose as he spoke, and took up his hat.
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"Must you be going?" asked the lawyer, also rising.
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"Well, I'm glad I haven't shocked you. Come in oftener
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when you are passing. And if you see anything I can help
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you in, always tell me."
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The two men shook hands, with an emphatic and lingering clasp.
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"I am glad," said Theron, "that you didn't stop coming
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to church just because you lost the girl."
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Levi Gorringe answered the minister's pleasantry
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with a smile which curled his mustache upward,
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and expanded in little wrinkles at the ends of his eyes.
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"No," he said jestingly. "I'm death on collecting debts;
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and I reckon that the church still owes me a girl.
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I'll have one yet."
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So, with merriment the echoes of which pleasantly
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accompanied Theron down the stairway, the two men parted.
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CHAPTER XIII
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Though time lagged in passing with a slowness which seemed
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born of studied insolence, there did arrive at last a day
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which had something definitive about it to Theron's
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disturbed and restless mind. It was a Thursday, and the
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prayer-meeting to be held that evening would be the last
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before the Quarterly Conference, now only four days off.
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For some reason, the young minister found himself dwelling
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upon this fact, and investing it with importance.
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But yesterday the Quarterly Conference had seemed a long
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way ahead. Today brought it alarmingly close to hand.
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He had not heretofore regarded the weekly assemblage
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for prayer and song as a thing calling for preparation,
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or for any preliminary thought. Now on this Thursday
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morning he went to his desk after breakfast, which was
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a sign that he wanted the room to himself, quite as
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if he had the task of a weighty sermon before him.
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He sat at the desk all the forenoon, doing no writing,
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it is true, but remembering every once in a while,
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when his mind turned aside from the book in his hands,
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that there was that prayer-meeting in the evening.
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Sometimes he reached the point of vaguely wondering why
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this strictly commonplace affair should be forcing itself
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thus upon his attention. Then, with a kind of mental
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shiver at the recollection that this was Thursday,
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and that the great struggle came on Monday, he would go
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back to his book.
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There were a half-dozen volumes on the open desk before him.
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He had taken them out from beneath a pile of old
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"Sunday-School Advocates" and church magazines, where they
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had lain hidden from Alice's view most of the week.
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If there had been a locked drawer in the house, he would
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have used it instead to hold these books, which had come
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to him in a neat parcel, which also contained an amiable
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note from Dr. Ledsmar, recalling a pleasant evening in May,
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and expressing the hope that the accompanying works would
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be of some service. Theron had glanced at the backs of the
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uppermost two, and discovered that their author was Renan.
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Then he had hastily put the lot in the best place he
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could think of to escape his wife's observation.
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He realized now that there had been no need for this secrecy.
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Of the other four books, by Sayce, Budge, Smith, and Lenormant,
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three indeed revealed themselves to be published under
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religious auspices. As for Renan, he might have known
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that the name would be meaningless to Alice. The feeling
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|
that he himself was not much wiser in this matter than his
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wife may have led him to pass over the learned text-books
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on Chaldean antiquity, and even the volume of Renan
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which appeared to be devoted to Oriental inscriptions,
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and take up his other book, entitled in the translation,
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"Recollections of my Youth." This he rather glanced through,
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|
at the outset, following with a certain inattention
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the introductory sketches and essays, which dealt with
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an unfamiliar, and, to his notion, somewhat preposterous
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Breton racial type. Then, little by little, it dawned
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upon him that there was a connected story in all this;
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|
and suddenly he came upon it, out in the open, as it were.
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It was the story of how a deeply devout young man,
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trained from his earliest boyhood for the sacred office,
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and desiring passionately nothing but to be worthy of it,
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|
came to a point where, at infinite cost of pain to himself
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|
and of anguish to those dearest to him, he had to declare
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that he could no longer believe at all in revealed religion.
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Theron Ware read this all with an excited interest
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|
which no book had ever stirred in him before. Much of
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|
it he read over and over again, to make sure that he
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penetrated everywhere the husk of French habits of thought
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and Catholic methods in which the kernel was wrapped.
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He broke off midway in this part of the book to go out
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to the kitchen to dinner, and began the meal in silence.
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To Alice's questions he replied briefly that he was preparing
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himself for the evening's prayer-meeting. She lifted
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her brows in such frank surprise at this that he made
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a further and somewhat rambling explanation about having
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again taken up the work on his book--the book about Abraham.
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"I thought you said you'd given that up altogether,"
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she remarked.
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"Well," he said, "I WAS discouraged about it for a while.
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But a man never does anything big without getting
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discouraged over and over again while he's doing it.
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I don't say now that I shall write precisely THAT book--
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I'm merely reading scientific works about the period,
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just now--but if not that, I shall write some other book.
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Else how will you get that piano?" he added, with an attempt at
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a smile.
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"I thought you had given that up, too!" she replied ruefully.
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Then before he could speak, she went on: "Never mind
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the piano; that can wait. What I've got on my mind
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just now isn't piano; it's potatoes. Do you know,
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I saw some the other day at Rasbach's, splendid potatoes--
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these are some of them--and fifteen cents a bushel cheaper
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|
than those dried-up old things Brother Barnum keeps,
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and so I bought two bushels. And Sister Barnum met me
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|
on the street this morning, and threw it in my face that
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the Discipline commands us to trade with each other.
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|
Is there any such command?"
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"Yes," said the husband. "It's Section 33.
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Don't you remember? I looked it up in Tyre. We are
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to 'evidence our desire of salvation by doing good,
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especially to them that are of the household of faith,
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|
or groaning so to be; by employing them preferably to others;
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|
buying one of another; helping each other in business'--
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|
and so on. Yes, it's all there."
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"Well, I told her I didn't believe it was," put in Alice,
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|
"and I said that even if it was, there ought to be
|
|
another section about selling potatoes to their minister
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for more than they're worth--potatoes that turn all green
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|
when you boil them, too. I believe I'll read up that old
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|
Discipline myself, and see if it hasn't got some things
|
|
that I can talk back with."
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"The very section before that, Number 32, enjoins members
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|
against 'uncharitable or unprofitable conversation--
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|
particularly speaking evil of magistrates or ministers.'
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|
You'd have 'em there, I think." Theron had begun
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|
cheerfully enough, but the careworn, preoccupied look
|
|
returned now to his face. "I'm sorry if we've fallen out
|
|
with the Barnums," he said. "His brother-in-law, Davis,
|
|
the Sunday-school superintendent, is a member of the
|
|
Quarterly Conference, you know, and I've been hoping
|
|
that he was on my side. I've been taking a good deal
|
|
of pains to make up to him."
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He ended with a sigh, the pathos of which impressed Alice.
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|
"If you think it will do any good," she volunteered,
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|
"I'll go and call on the Davises this very afternoon.
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I'm sure to find her at home,--she's tied hand and foot
|
|
with that brood of hers--and you'd better give me some of
|
|
that candy for them."
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Theron nodded his approval and thanks, and relapsed
|
|
into silence. When the meal was over, he brought
|
|
out the confectionery to his wife, and without a word
|
|
went back to that remarkable book.
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When Alice returned toward the close of day, to prepare
|
|
the simple tea which was always laid a half-hour earlier
|
|
on Thursdays and Sundays, she found her husband where she
|
|
had left him, still busy with those new scientific works.
|
|
She recounted to him some incidents of her call upon
|
|
Mrs. Davis, as she took off her hat and put on the big
|
|
kitchen apron--how pleased Mrs. Davis seemed to be;
|
|
how her affection for her sister-in-law, the grocer's wife,
|
|
disclosed itself to be not even skin-deep; how the children
|
|
leaped upon the candy as if they had never seen any before;
|
|
and how, in her belief, Mr. Davis would be heart and soul on
|
|
Theron's side at the Conference.
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|
|
|
To her surprise, the young minister seemed not at
|
|
all interested. He hardly looked at her during
|
|
her narrative, but reclined in the easy-chair with his
|
|
head thrown back, and an abstracted gaze wandering
|
|
aimlessly about the ceiling. When she avowed her faith
|
|
in the Sunday-school superintendent's loyal partisanship,
|
|
which she did with a pardonable pride in having helped
|
|
to make it secure, her husband even closed his eyes,
|
|
and moved his head with a gesture which plainly bespoke indifference.
|
|
|
|
"I expected you'd be tickled to death," she remarked,
|
|
with evident disappointment.
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|
|
|
"I've a bad headache," he explained, after a minute's pause.
|
|
|
|
"No wonder!" Alice rejoined, sympathetically enough,
|
|
but with a note of reproof as well. "What can you expect,
|
|
staying cooped up in here all day long, poring over
|
|
those books? People are all the while remarking
|
|
that you study too much. I tell them, of course,
|
|
that you're a great hand for reading, and always were;
|
|
but I think myself it would be better if you got out more,
|
|
and took more exercise, and saw people. You know lots
|
|
and slathers more than THEY do now, or ever will, if you
|
|
never opened another book."
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|
|
|
Theron regarded her with an expression which she had never
|
|
seen on his face before. "You don't realize what you
|
|
are saying," he replied slowly. He sighed as he added,
|
|
with increased gravity, "I am the most ignorant man alive!"
|
|
|
|
Alice began a little laugh of wifely incredulity, and then
|
|
let it die away as she recognized that he was really
|
|
troubled and sad in his mind. She bent over to kiss him
|
|
lightly on the brow, and tiptoed her way out into the kitchen.
|
|
|
|
"I believe I will let you make my excuses at the prayer-meeting
|
|
this evening," he said all at once, as the supper came
|
|
to an end. He had eaten next to nothing during the meal,
|
|
and had sat in a sort of brown-study from which Alice
|
|
kindly forbore to arouse him. "I don't know--I hardly
|
|
feel equal to it. They won't take it amiss--for once--
|
|
if you explain to them that I--I am not at all well."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I do hope you're not coming down with anything!"
|
|
Alice had risen too, and was gazing at him with a solicitude
|
|
the tenderness of which at once comforted, and in some
|
|
obscure way jarred on his nerves. "Is there anything I
|
|
can do--or shall I go for a doctor? We've got mustard
|
|
in the house, and senna--I think there's some senna left--
|
|
and Jamaica ginger."
|
|
|
|
Theron shook his head wearily at her. "Oh, no,--no!"
|
|
he expostulated. "It isn't anything that needs drugs,
|
|
or doctors either. It's just mental worry and fatigue,
|
|
that's all. An evening's quiet rest in the big chair,
|
|
and early to bed--that will fix me up all right."
|
|
|
|
"But you'll read; and that will make your head worse,"
|
|
said Alice.
|
|
|
|
"No, I won't read any more," he promised her, walking slowly
|
|
into the sitting-room, and settling himself in the big chair,
|
|
the while she brought out a pillow from the adjoining
|
|
best bedroom, and adjusted it behind his head. "That's nice!
|
|
I'll just lie quiet here, and perhaps doze a little
|
|
till you come back. I feel in the mood for the rest;
|
|
it will do me all sorts of good."
|
|
|
|
He closed his eyes; and Alice, regarding his upturned
|
|
face anxiously, decided that already it looked more at
|
|
peace than awhile ago.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I hope you'll be better when I get back," she said,
|
|
as she began preparations for the evening service.
|
|
These consisted in combing stiffly back the strands of
|
|
light-brown hair which, during the day, had exuberantly
|
|
loosened themselves over her temples into something
|
|
almost like curls; in fastening down upon this rebellious
|
|
hair a plain brown-straw bonnet, guiltless of all
|
|
ornament save a binding ribbon of dull umber hue;
|
|
and in putting on a thin dark-gray shawl and a pair
|
|
of equally subdued lisle-thread gloves. Thus attired,
|
|
she made a mischievous little grimace of dislike at her
|
|
puritanical image in the looking-glass over the mantel,
|
|
and then turned to announce her departure.
|
|
|
|
"Well, I'm off," she said. Theron opened his eyes to take
|
|
in this figure of his wife dressed for prayer-meeting,
|
|
and then closed them again abruptly. "All right,"
|
|
he murmured, and then he heard the door shut behind her.
|
|
|
|
Although he had been alone all day, there seemed to be
|
|
quite a unique value and quality in this present solitude.
|
|
He stretched out his legs on the opposite chair,
|
|
and looked lazily about him, with the feeling that at
|
|
last he had secured some leisure, and could think
|
|
undisturbed to his heart's content. There were nearly
|
|
two hours of unbroken quiet before him; and the mere
|
|
fact of his having stepped aside from the routine of
|
|
his duty to procure it; marked it in his thoughts as a
|
|
special occasion, which ought in the nature of things
|
|
to yield more than the ordinary harvest of mental profit.
|
|
|
|
Theron's musings were broken in upon from time to time
|
|
by rumbling outbursts of hymn-singing from the church
|
|
next door. Surely, he said to himself, there could be no
|
|
other congregation in the Conference, or in all Methodism,
|
|
which sang so badly as these Octavians did. The noise,
|
|
as it came to him now and again, divided itself familiarly
|
|
into a main strain of hard, high, sharp, and tinny
|
|
female voices, with three or four concurrent and clashing
|
|
branch strains of part-singing by men who did not know how.
|
|
How well he already knew these voices! Through two wooden
|
|
walls he could detect the conceited and pushing note of
|
|
Brother Lovejoy, who tried always to drown the rest out,
|
|
and the lifeless, unmeasured weight of shrill clamor
|
|
which Sister Barnum hurled into every chorus, half closing
|
|
her eyes and sticking out her chin as she did so.
|
|
They drawled their hymns too, these people, till Theron
|
|
thought he understood that injunction in the Discipline
|
|
against singing too slowly. It had puzzled him heretofore;
|
|
now he felt that it must have been meant in prophecy
|
|
for Octavius.
|
|
|
|
It was impossible not to recall in contrast that other
|
|
church music he had heard, a month before, and the
|
|
whole atmosphere of that other pastoral sitting room,
|
|
from which he had listened to it. The startled and crowded
|
|
impressions of that strange evening had been lying hidden
|
|
in his mind all this while, driven into a corner by the
|
|
pressure of more ordinary, everyday matters. They came
|
|
forth now, and passed across his brain--no longer confusing
|
|
and distorted, but in orderly and intelligible sequence.
|
|
Their earlier effect had been one of frightened fascination.
|
|
Now he looked them over calmly as they lifted themselves,
|
|
one by one, and found himself not shrinking at all,
|
|
or evading anything, but dwelling upon each in turn
|
|
as a natural and welcome part of the most important
|
|
experience of his life.
|
|
|
|
The young minister had arrived, all at once, at this conclusion.
|
|
He did not question at all the means by which he had
|
|
reached it. Nothing was clearer to his mind than the
|
|
conclusion itself--that his meeting, with the priest
|
|
and the doctor was the turning-point in his career.
|
|
They had lifted him bodily out of the slough of ignorance,
|
|
of contact with low minds and sordid, narrow things,
|
|
and put him on solid ground. This book he had been reading--
|
|
this gentle, tender, lovable book, which had as much true
|
|
piety in it as any devotional book he had ever read,
|
|
and yet, unlike all devotional books, put its foot firmly
|
|
upon everything which could not be proved in human reason
|
|
to be true--must be merely one of a thousand which men
|
|
like Father Forbes and Dr. Ledsmar knew by heart.
|
|
The very thought that he was on the way now to know them,
|
|
too, made Theron tremble. The prospect wooed him,
|
|
and he thrilled in response, with the wistful and delicate
|
|
eagerness of a young lover.
|
|
|
|
Somehow, the fact that the priest and the doctor were not
|
|
religious men, and that this book which had so impressed
|
|
and stirred him was nothing more than Renan's recital
|
|
of how he, too, ceased to be a religious man, did not
|
|
take a form which Theron could look square in the face.
|
|
It wore the shape, instead, of a vague premise that there
|
|
were a great many different kinds of religions--the past
|
|
and dead races had multiplied these in their time literally
|
|
into thousands--and that each no doubt had its central
|
|
support of truth somewhere for the good men who were in it,
|
|
and that to call one of these divine and condemn all
|
|
the others was a part fit only for untutored bigots.
|
|
Renan had formally repudiated Catholicism, yet could write
|
|
in his old age with the deepest filial affection of the
|
|
Mother Church he had quitted. Father Forbes could talk
|
|
coolly about the "Christ-myth" without even ceasing to be
|
|
a priest, and apparently a very active and devoted priest.
|
|
Evidently there was an intellectual world, a world of culture
|
|
and grace, of lofty thoughts and the inspiring communion
|
|
of real knowledge, where creeds were not of importance,
|
|
and where men asked one another, not "Is your soul saved?"
|
|
but "Is your mind well furnished?" Theron had the sensation
|
|
of having been invited to become a citizen of this world.
|
|
The thought so dazzled him that his impulses were
|
|
dragging him forward to take the new oath of allegiance
|
|
before he had had time to reflect upon what it was he
|
|
was abandoning.
|
|
|
|
The droning of the Doxology from the church outside stirred
|
|
Theron suddenly out of his revery. It had grown quite dark,
|
|
and he rose and lit the gas. "Blest be the Tie that Binds,"
|
|
they were singing. He paused, with hand still in air,
|
|
to listen. That well-worn phrase arrested his attention,
|
|
and gave itself a new meaning. He was bound to those people,
|
|
it was true, but he could never again harbor the delusion
|
|
that the tie between them was blessed. There was vaguely
|
|
present in his mind the consciousness that other ties
|
|
were loosening as well. Be that as it might, one thing
|
|
was certain. He had passed definitely beyond pretending
|
|
to himself that there was anything spiritually in common
|
|
between him and the Methodist Church of Octavius.
|
|
The necessity of his keeping up the pretence with others
|
|
rose on the instant like a looming shadow before his
|
|
mental vision. He turned away from it, and bent his brain
|
|
to think of something else.
|
|
|
|
The noise of Alice opening the front door came as a
|
|
pleasant digression. A second later it became clear
|
|
from the sound of voices that she had brought some one
|
|
back with her, and Theron hastily stretched himself out
|
|
again in the armchair, with his head back in the pillow,
|
|
and his feet on the other chair. He had come mighty
|
|
near forgetting that he was an invalid, and he protected
|
|
himself the further now by assuming an air of lassitude
|
|
verging upon prostration.
|
|
|
|
"Yes; there's a light burning. It's all right," he heard
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Alice say. She entered the room, and Theron's head was too
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bad to permit him to turn it, and see who her companion was.
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"Theron dear," Alice began, "I knew you'd be glad to see HER,
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even if you were out of sorts; and I persuaded her just to run
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in for a minute. Let me introduce you to Sister Soulsby.
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Sister Soulsby--my husband."
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The Rev. Mr. Ware sat upright with an energetic start,
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and fastened upon the stranger a look which conveyed anything
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but the satisfaction his wife had been so sure about.
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It was at the first blush an undisguised scowl, and only
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some fleeting memory of that reflection about needing
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now to dissemble, prevented him from still frowning as he
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rose to his feet, and perfunctorily held out his hand.
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"Delighted, I'm sure," he mumbled. Then, looking up,
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he discovered that Sister Soulsby knew he was not delighted,
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and that she seemed not to mind in the least.
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"As your good lady said, I just ran in for a moment,"
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she remarked, shaking his limp hand with a brisk,
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business-like grasp, and dropping it. "I hate bothering
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sick people, but as we're to be thrown together a good
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deal this next week or so, I thought I'd like to lose
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no time in saying 'howdy.' I won't keep you up now.
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Your wife has been sweet enough to ask me to move my trunk
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over here in the morning, so that you'll see enough of me
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and to spare."
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Theron looked falteringly into her face, as he strove
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for words which should sufficiently mask the disgust
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this intelligence stirred within him. A debt-raiser
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in the town was bad enough! A debt-raiser quartered
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in the very parsonage!--he ground his teeth to think of it.
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Alice read his hesitation aright. "Sister Soulsby
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went to the hotel," she hastily put in; "and Loren
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Pierce was after her to come and stay at his house,
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and I ventured to tell her that I thought we could
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make her more comfortable here." She accompanied this
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by so daring a grimace and nod that her husband woke
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up to the fact that a point in Conference politics was involved.
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He squeezed a doubtful smile upon his features. "We shall
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both do our best," he said. It was not easy, but he
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forced increasing amiability into his glance and tone.
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"Is Brother Soulsby here, too?" he asked.
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The debt-raiser shook her head--again the prompt,
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decisive movement, so like a busy man of affairs.
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"No," she answered. "He's doing supply down on the Hudson
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this week, but he'll be here in time for the Sunday
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morning love-feast. I always like to come on ahead,
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and see how the land lies. Well, good-night! Your head
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will be all right in the morning."
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Precisely what she meant by this assurance, Theron did
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not attempt to guess. He received her adieu, noted the
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masterful manner in which she kissed his wife, and watched
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her pass out into the hall, with the feeling uppermost
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that this was a person who decidedly knew her way about.
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Much as he was prepared to dislike her, and much as he
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detested the vulgar methods her profession typified,
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he could not deny that she seemed a very capable sort
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of woman.
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This mental concession did not prevent his fixing upon Alice,
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when she returned to the room, a glance of obvious disapproval.
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"Theron," she broke forth, to anticipate his reproach,
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"I did it for the best. The Pierces would have got
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her if I hadn't cut in. I thought it would help
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to have her on our side. And, besides, I like her.
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She's the first sister I've seen since we've been in this
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hole that's had a kind word for me--or--or sympathized
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with me! And--and--if you're going to be offended--
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I shall cry!"
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There were real tears on her lashes, ready to make good
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the threat. "Oh, I guess I wouldn't," said Theron,
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with an approach to his old, half-playful manner.
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"If you like her, that's the chief thing."
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Alice shook her tear-drops away. "No," she replied,
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with a wistful smile; "the chief thing is to have her
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like you. She's as smart as a steel trap--that woman is--
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and if she took the notion, I believe she could help get us
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a better place."
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CHAPTER XIV
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The ensuing week went by with a buzz and whirl,
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circling about Theron Ware's dizzy consciousness like
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some huge, impalpable teetotum sent spinning under Sister
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Soulsby's resolute hands. Whenever his vagrant memory
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|
recurred to it, in after months, he began by marvelling,
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and ended with a shudder of repulsion.
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It was a week crowded with events, which seemed to him
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|
to shoot past so swiftly that in effect they came all
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of a heap. He never essayed the task, in retrospect,
|
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of arranging them in their order of sequence.
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They had, however, a definite and interdependent
|
|
chronology which it is worth the while to trace.
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Mrs. Soulsby brought her trunk round to the parsonage bright
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and early on Friday morning, and took up her lodgement
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in the best bedroom, and her headquarters in the house
|
|
at large, with a cheerful and business-like manner.
|
|
She desired nothing so much, she said, as that people
|
|
should not put themselves out on her account, or allow
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|
her to get in their way. She appeared to mean this, too,
|
|
and to have very good ideas about securing its realization.
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During both Friday and the following day, indeed, Theron saw
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her only at the family meals. There she displayed a hearty
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relish for all that was set before her which quite won
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Mrs. Ware's heart, and though she talked rather more than
|
|
Theron found himself expecting from a woman, he could not deny
|
|
that her conversation was both seemly and entertaining.
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|
She had evidently been a great traveller, and referred
|
|
to things she had seen in Savannah or Montreal or Los
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|
Angeles in as matter-of-fact fashion as he could have spoken
|
|
of a visit to Tecumseh. Theron asked her many questions
|
|
about these and other far-off cities, and her answers
|
|
were all so pat and showed so keen and clear an eye that
|
|
he began in spite of himself to think of her with a
|
|
certain admiration.
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|
She in turn plied him with inquiries about the principal
|
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pew-holders and members of his congregation--their means,
|
|
their disposition, and the measure of their devotion.
|
|
She put these queries with such intelligence, and seemed
|
|
to assimilate his replies with such an alert understanding,
|
|
that the young minister was spurred to put dashes of character
|
|
in his descriptions, and set forth the idiosyncrasies
|
|
and distinguishing earmarks of his flock with what he
|
|
felt afterward might have been too free a tongue. But at
|
|
the time her fine air of appreciation led him captive.
|
|
He gossiped about his parishioners as if he enjoyed it.
|
|
He made a specially happy thumb-nail sketch for her of
|
|
one of his trustees, Erastus Winch, the loud-mouthed,
|
|
ostentatiously jovial, and really cold-hearted cheese-buyer.
|
|
She was particularly interested in hearing about this man.
|
|
The personality of Winch seemed to have impressed her,
|
|
and she brought the talk back to him more than once,
|
|
and prompted Theron to the very threshold of indiscretion
|
|
in his confidences on the subject.
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|
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|
Save at meal-times, Sister Soulsby spent the two days out
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|
around among the Methodists of Octavius. She had little
|
|
or nothing to say about what she thus saw and heard,
|
|
but used it as the basis for still further inquiries.
|
|
She told more than once, however, of how she had been
|
|
pressed here or there to stay to dinner or supper, and how
|
|
she had excused herself. "I've knocked about too much,"
|
|
she would explain to the Wares, "not to fight shy of random
|
|
country cooking. When I find such a born cook as you are--
|
|
well I know when I'm well off." Alice flushed with pleased
|
|
pride at this, and Theron himself felt that their visitor
|
|
showed great good sense. By Saturday noon, the two
|
|
women were calling each other by their first names.
|
|
Theron learned with a certain interest that Sister Soulsby's
|
|
Christian name was Candace.
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It was only natural that he should give even more
|
|
thought to her than to her quaint and unfamiliar old
|
|
Ethiopian name. She was undoubtedly a very smart woman.
|
|
To his surprise she had never introduced in her talk any
|
|
of the stock religious and devotional phrases which official
|
|
Methodists so universally employed in mutual converse.
|
|
She might have been an insurance agent, or a school-teacher,
|
|
visiting in a purely secular household, so little parade
|
|
of cant was there about her.
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|
|
|
He caught himself wondering how old she was.
|
|
She seemed to have been pretty well over the whole
|
|
American continent, and that must take years of time.
|
|
Perhaps, however, the exertion of so much travel would tend
|
|
to age one in appearance. Her eyes were still youthful--
|
|
decidedly wise eyes, but still juvenile. They had sparkled
|
|
with almost girlish merriment at some of his jokes.
|
|
She turned them about a good deal when she spoke,
|
|
making their glances fit and illustrate the things she said.
|
|
He had never met any one whose eyes played so constant
|
|
and prominent a part in their owner's conversation.
|
|
Theron had never seen a play; but he had encountered
|
|
the portraits of famous queens of the drama several times
|
|
in illustrated papers or shop windows, and it occurred
|
|
to him that some of the more marked contortions of Sister
|
|
Soulsby's eyes--notably a trick she had of rolling
|
|
them swiftly round and plunging them, so to speak,
|
|
into an intent, yearning, one might almost say devouring,
|
|
gaze at the speaker--were probably employed by eminent
|
|
actresses like Ristori and Fanny Davenport.
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|
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|
The rest of Sister Soulsby was undoubtedly subordinated
|
|
in interest to those eyes of hers. Sometimes her face
|
|
seemed to be reviving temporarily a comeliness which
|
|
had been constant in former days; then again it would
|
|
look decidedly, organically, plain. It was the worn
|
|
and loose-skinned face of a nervous, middle-aged woman,
|
|
who had had more than her share of trouble, and drank too
|
|
much tea. She wore the collar of her dress rather low;
|
|
and Theron found himself wondering at this, because,
|
|
though long and expansive, her neck certainly showed
|
|
more cords and cavities than consorted with his vague
|
|
ideal of statuesque beauty. Then he wondered at himself
|
|
for thinking about it, and abruptly reined up his fancy,
|
|
only to find that it was playing with speculations
|
|
as to whether her yellowish complexion was due to that
|
|
tea-drinking or came to her as a legacy of Southern blood.
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|
|
|
He knew that she was born in the South because she said so.
|
|
From the same source he learned that her father had been
|
|
a wealthy planter, who was ruined by the war, and sank into
|
|
a premature grave under the weight of his accumulated losses.
|
|
The large dark rings around her eyes grew deeper still in
|
|
their shadows when she told about this, and her ordinarily
|
|
sharp voice took on a mellow cadence, with a soft,
|
|
drawling accent, turning U's into O's, and having no R's
|
|
to speak of. Theron had imbibed somewhere in early days
|
|
the conviction that the South was the land of romance,
|
|
of cavaliers and gallants and black eyes flashing behind
|
|
mantillas and outspread fans, and somehow when Sister
|
|
Soulsby used this intonation she suggested all these things.
|
|
|
|
But almost all her talk was in another key--a brisk,
|
|
direct, idiomatic manner of speech, with an intonation
|
|
hinting at no section in particular. It was merely that
|
|
of the city-dweller as distinguished from the rustic.
|
|
She was of about Alice's height, perhaps a shade taller.
|
|
It did not escape the attention of the Wares that she wore
|
|
clothes of a more stylish cut and a livelier arrangement of hues
|
|
than any Alice had ever dared own, even in lax-minded Tyre.
|
|
The two talked of this in their room on Friday night;
|
|
and Theron explained that congregations would tolerate
|
|
things of this sort with a stranger which would be sharply
|
|
resented in the case of local folk whom they controlled.
|
|
It was on this occasion that Alice in turn told Theron
|
|
she was sure Mrs. Soulsby had false teeth--a confidence
|
|
which she immediately regretted as an act of treachery
|
|
to her sex.
|
|
|
|
On Saturday afternoon, toward evening, Brother Soulsby
|
|
arrived, and was guided to the parsonage by his wife,
|
|
who had gone to the depot to meet him. They must have
|
|
talked over the situation pretty thoroughly on the way,
|
|
for by the time the new-comer had washed his face
|
|
and hands and put on a clean collar, Sister Soulsby
|
|
was ready to announce her plan of campaign in detail.
|
|
|
|
Her husband was a man of small stature and, like herself,
|
|
of uncertain age. He had a gentle, if rather dry,
|
|
clean-shaven face, and wore his dust-colored hair
|
|
long behind. His little figure was clad in black
|
|
clothes of a distinctively clerical fashion, and he
|
|
had a white neck-cloth neatly tied under his collar.
|
|
The Wares noted that he looked clean and amiable
|
|
rather than intellectually or spiritually powerful,
|
|
as he took the vacant seat between theirs, and joined
|
|
them in concentrating attention upon Mrs. Soulsby.
|
|
|
|
This lady, holding herself erect and alert on the edge
|
|
of the low, big easy-chair had the air of presiding
|
|
over a meeting.
|
|
|
|
"My idea is," she began, with an easy implication that no
|
|
one else's idea was needed, "that your Quarterly Conference,
|
|
when it meets on Monday, must be adjourned to Tuesday.
|
|
We will have the people all out tomorrow morning
|
|
to love-feast, and announcement can be made there,
|
|
and at the morning service afterward, that a series
|
|
of revival meetings are to be begun that same evening.
|
|
Mr. Soulsby and I can take charge in the evening, and we'll
|
|
see to it that THAT packs the house--fills the church
|
|
to overflowing Monday evening. Then we'll quietly turn
|
|
the meeting into a debt-raising convention, before they
|
|
know where they are, and we'll wipe off the best part
|
|
of the load. Now, don't you see," she turned her eyes
|
|
full upon Theron as she spoke, "you want to hold your
|
|
Quarterly Conference AFTER this money's been raised,
|
|
not before."
|
|
|
|
"I see what you mean," Mr. Ware responded gravely.
|
|
"But--"
|
|
|
|
"But what!" Sister Soulsby interjected, with vivacity.
|
|
|
|
"Well," said Theron, picking his words, "in the first place,
|
|
it rests with the Presiding Elder to say whether
|
|
an adjournment can be made until Tuesday, not with me."
|
|
|
|
"That's all right. Leave that to me," said the lady.
|
|
|
|
"In the second place," Theron went on, still more hesitatingly,
|
|
"there seems a certain--what shall I say?--indirection in--in--"
|
|
|
|
"In getting them together for a revival, and springing
|
|
a debt-raising on them?" Sister Soulsby put in.
|
|
"Why, man alive, that's the best part of it. You ought
|
|
to be getting some notion by this time what these Octavius
|
|
folks of yours are like. I've only been here two days,
|
|
but I've got their measure down to an allspice.
|
|
Supposing you were to announce tomorrow that the debt
|
|
was to be raised Monday. How many men with bank-accounts
|
|
would turn up, do you think? You could put them all in
|
|
your eye, sir--all in your eye!"
|
|
|
|
"Very possibly you're right," faltered the young minister.
|
|
|
|
"Right? Why, of course I'm right," she said,
|
|
with placid confidence. "You've got to take folks as you
|
|
find them; and you've got to find them the best way
|
|
you can. One place can be worked, managed, in one way,
|
|
and another needs quite a different way, and both ways
|
|
would be dead frosts--complete failures--in a third."
|
|
|
|
Brother Soulsby coughed softly here, and shuffled his feet
|
|
for an instant on the carpet. His wife resumed her remarks
|
|
with slightly abated animation, and at a slower pace.
|
|
|
|
"My experience," she said, "has shown me that the Apostle
|
|
was right. To properly serve the cause, one must be
|
|
all things to all men. I have known very queer things
|
|
indeed turn out to be means of grace. You simply CAN'T
|
|
get along without some of the wisdom of the serpent.
|
|
We are commanded to have it, for that matter. And now,
|
|
speaking of that, do you know when the Presiding Elder
|
|
arrives in town today, and where he is going to eat supper
|
|
and sleep?"
|
|
|
|
Theron shook his head. "All I know is he isn't likely
|
|
to come here," he said, and added sadly, "I'm afraid he's
|
|
not an admirer of mine."
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps that's not all his fault," commented Sister Soulsby.
|
|
"I'll tell you something. He came in on the same train
|
|
as my husband, and that old trustee Pierce of yours was
|
|
waiting for him with his buggy, and I saw like a flash
|
|
what was in the wind, and the minute the train stopped I
|
|
caught the Presiding Elder, and invited him in your name
|
|
to come right here and stay; told him you and Alice were
|
|
just set on his coming--wouldn't take no for an answer.
|
|
Of course he couldn't come--I knew well enough he had
|
|
promised old Pierce--but we got in our invitation anyway,
|
|
and it won't do you any harm. Now, that's what I call
|
|
having some gumption--wisdom of the serpent, and so on."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure," remarked Alice, "I should have been mortified
|
|
to death if he had come. We lost the extension-leaf
|
|
to our table in moving, and four is all it'll seat decently."
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby smiled winningly into the wife's honest face.
|
|
"Don't you see, dear," she explained patiently, "I only
|
|
asked him because I knew he couldn't come. A little butter
|
|
spreads a long way, if it's only intelligently warmed."
|
|
|
|
"It was certainly very ingenious of you," Theron began
|
|
almost stiffly. Then he yielded to the humanities,
|
|
and with a kindling smile added, "And it was as kind
|
|
as kind could be. I'm afraid you're wrong about it's
|
|
doing me any good, but I can see how well you meant it,
|
|
and I'm grateful."
|
|
|
|
"We COULD have sneaked in the kitchen table, perhaps,
|
|
while he was out in the garden, and put on the extra
|
|
long tablecloth," interjected Alice, musingly.
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby smiled again at Sister Ware, but without
|
|
any words this time; and Alice on the instant rose,
|
|
with the remark that she must be going out to see
|
|
about supper.
|
|
|
|
"I'm going to insist on coming out to help you,"
|
|
Mrs. Soulsby declared, "as soon as I've talked over one
|
|
little matter with your husband. Oh, yes, you must
|
|
let me this time. I insist!"
|
|
|
|
As the kitchen door closed behind Mrs. Ware, a swift
|
|
and apparently significant glance shot its way across
|
|
from Sister Soulsby's roving, eloquent eyes to the calmer
|
|
and smaller gray orbs of her husband. He rose to his feet,
|
|
made some little explanation about being a gardener himself,
|
|
and desiring to inspect more closely some rhododendrons
|
|
he had noticed in the garden, and forthwith moved
|
|
decorously out by the other door into the front hall.
|
|
They heard his footsteps on the gravel beneath the window
|
|
before Mrs. Soulsby spoke again.
|
|
|
|
"You're right about the Presiding Elder, and you're wrong,"
|
|
she said. "He isn't what one might call precisely in love
|
|
with you. Oh, I know the story--how you got into debt
|
|
at Tyre, and he stepped in and insisted on your being
|
|
denied Tecumseh and sent here instead."
|
|
|
|
"HE was responsible for that, then, was he?" broke in Theron,
|
|
with contracted brows.
|
|
|
|
"Why, don't you make any effort to find out anything at ALL
|
|
she asked pertly enough, but with such obvious good-nature
|
|
that he could not but have pleasure in her speech.
|
|
"Why, of course he did it! Who else did you suppose?"
|
|
|
|
"Well," said the young minister, despondently, "if he's
|
|
as much against me as all that, I might as well hang up
|
|
my fiddle and go home."
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby gave a little involuntary groan of impatience.
|
|
She bent forward, and, lifting her eyes, rolled them at him
|
|
in a curve of downward motion which suggested to his fancy
|
|
the image of two eagles in a concerted pounce upon a lamb.
|
|
|
|
"My friend," she began, with a new note of impressiveness
|
|
in her voice, "if you'll pardon my saying it, you haven't
|
|
got the spunk of a mouse. If you're going to lay down,
|
|
and let everybody trample over you just as they please,
|
|
you're right! You MIGHT as well go home. But now here,
|
|
this is what I wanted to say to you: Do you just keep your hands
|
|
off these next few days, and leave this whole thing to me.
|
|
I'll pull it into shipshape for you. No--wait a minute--
|
|
don't interrupt now. I have taken a liking to you.
|
|
You've got brains, and you've got human nature in you,
|
|
and heart. What you lack is SABE--common-sense. You'll
|
|
get that, too, in time, and meanwhile I'm not going to stand
|
|
by and see you cut up and fed to the dogs for want of it.
|
|
I'll get you through this scrape, and put you on your
|
|
feet again, right-side-up-with care, because, as I said,
|
|
I like you. I like your wife, too, mind. She's a good,
|
|
honest little soul, and she worships the very ground you
|
|
tread on. Of course, as long as people WILL marry in
|
|
their teens, the wrong people will get yoked up together.
|
|
But that's neither here nor there. She's a kind sweet
|
|
little body, and she's devoted to you, and it isn't every
|
|
intellectual man that gets even that much. But now
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it's a go, is it? You promise to keep quiet, do you,
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and leave the whole show absolutely to me? Shake hands
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on it."
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Sister Soulsby had risen, and stood now holding out her hand
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in a frank, manly fashion. Theron looked at the hand,
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and made mental notes that there were a good many veins
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discernible on the small wrist, and that the forearm
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seemed to swell out more than would have been expected
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in a woman producing such a general effect of leanness.
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He caught the shine of a thin bracelet-band of gold under
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the sleeve. A delicate, significant odor just hinted
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its presence in the air about this outstretched arm--
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something which was not a perfume, yet deserved as gracious
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a name.
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He rose to his feet, and took the proffered hand with a
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deliberate gesture, as if he had been cautiously weighing
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all the possible arguments for and against this momentous compact.
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"I promise," he said gravely, and the two palms squeezed
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themselves together in an earnest clasp.
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"Right you are," exclaimed the lady, once more with
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cheery vivacity. "Mind, when it's all over, I'm going
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to give you a good, serious, downright talking to--
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a regular hoeing-over. I'm not sure I shan't give
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you a sound shaking into the bargain. You need it.
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And now I'm going out to help Alice."
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The Reverend Mr. Ware remained standing after his new friend
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had left the room, and his meditative face wore an even
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unusual air of abstraction. He strolled aimlessly over,
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after a time, to the desk by the window, and stood there
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looking out at the slight figure of Brother Soulsby,
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who was bending over and attentively regarding some pink
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blossoms on a shrub through what seemed to be a pocket
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magnifying-glass.
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What remained uppermost in his mind was not this interesting
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woman's confident pledge of championship in his material
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difficulties. He found himself dwelling instead upon her
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remark about the incongruous results of early marriages.
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He wondered idly if the little man in the white tie,
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fussing out there over that rhododendron-bush, had figured
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in her thoughts as an example of these evils. Then he reflected
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that they had been mentioned in clear relation to talk about Alice.
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Now that he faced this question, it was as if he had been
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consciously ignoring and putting it aside for a long time.
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How was it, he asked himself now, that Alice, who had
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once seemed so bright and keen-witted, who had in truth
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started out immeasurably his superior in swiftness of
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apprehension and readiness in humorous quips and conceits,
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should have grown so dull? For she was undoubtedly slow
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to understand things nowadays. Her absurd lugging in of
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the extension-table problem, when the great strategic
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point of that invitation foisted upon the Presiding Elder
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came up, was only the latest sample of a score of these
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heavy-minded exhibitions that recalled themselves to him.
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And outsiders were apparently beginning to notice it.
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He knew by intuition what those phrases, "good, honest
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little soul" and "kind, sweet little body" signified,
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when another woman used them to a husband about his wife.
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The very employment of that word "little" was enough,
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|
considering that there was scarcely more than a hair's
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difference between Mrs. Soulsby and Alice, and that they
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were both rather tall than otherwise, as the stature of
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women went.
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What she had said about the chronic misfortunes of
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intellectual men in such matters gave added point to those
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|
meaning phrases. Nobody could deny that geniuses and men
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of conspicuous talent had as a rule, all through history,
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contracted unfortunate marriages. In almost every
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|
case where their wives were remembered at all, it was
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|
on account of their abnormal stupidity, or bad temper,
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|
or something of that sort. Take Xantippe, for example,
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and Shakespeare's wife, and--and--well, there was Byron,
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and Bulwer-Lytton, and ever so many others.
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Of course there was nothing to be done about it.
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These things happened, and one could only put the best
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possible face on them, and live one's appointed life
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|
as patiently and contentedly as might be. And Alice
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undoubtedly merited all the praise which had been so
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generously bestowed upon her. She was good and honest
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and kindly, and there could be no doubt whatever
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|
as to her utter devotion to him. These were tangible,
|
|
solid qualities, which must always secure respect for her.
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|
It was true that she no longer seemed to be very popular
|
|
among people. He questioned whether men, for instance,
|
|
like Father Forbes and Dr. Ledsmar would care much
|
|
about her. Visions of the wifeless and academic calm
|
|
in which these men spent their lives--an existence
|
|
consecrated to literature and knowledge and familiarity
|
|
with all the loftiest and noblest thoughts of the past--
|
|
rose and enveloped him in a cloud of depression. No such
|
|
lot would be his! He must labor along among ignorant
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|
and spiteful narrow-minded people to the end of his days,
|
|
pocketing their insults and fawning upon the harsh hands of
|
|
jealous nonentities who happened to be his official masters,
|
|
just to keep a roof over his head--or rather Alice's.
|
|
He must sacrifice everything to this, his ambitions,
|
|
his passionate desires to do real good in the world on
|
|
a large scale, his mental freedom, yes, even his chance
|
|
of having truly elevating, intellectual friendships.
|
|
For it was plain enough that the men whose friendship
|
|
would be of genuine and stimulating profit to him would
|
|
not like her. Now that he thought of it, she seemed
|
|
latterly to make no friends at all.
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|
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|
Suddenly, as he watched in a blank sort of way Brother
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|
Soulsby take out a penknife, and lop an offending twig
|
|
from a rose-bush against the fence, something occurred
|
|
to him. There was a curious exception to that rule
|
|
of Alice's isolation. She had made at least one friend.
|
|
Levi Gorringe seemed to like her extremely.
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As if his mind had been a camera, Theron snapped a
|
|
shutter down upon this odd, unbidden idea, and turned
|
|
away from the window.
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|
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|
The sounds of an active, almost strenuous conversation
|
|
in female voices came from the kitchen. Theron opened
|
|
the door noiselessly, and put in his head, conscious of
|
|
something furtive in his intention.
|
|
|
|
"You must dreen every drop of water off the spinach,
|
|
mind, before you put it over, or else--"
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|
|
|
It was Sister Soulsby's sharp and penetrating tones
|
|
which came to him. Theron closed the door again,
|
|
and surrendered himself once more to the circling whirl
|
|
of his thoughts.
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CHAPTER XV
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A love-feast at nine in the morning opened the public
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|
services of a Sunday still memorable in the annals
|
|
of Octavius Methodism.
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|
|
|
This ceremony, which four times a year preceded the sessions
|
|
of the Quarterly Conference, was not necessarily an event
|
|
of importance. It was an occasion upon which the brethren
|
|
and sisters who clung to the old-fashioned, primitive
|
|
ways of the itinerant circuit-riders, let themselves go
|
|
with emphasized independence, putting up more vehement
|
|
prayers than usual, and adding a special fervor of noise
|
|
to their "Amens!" and other interjections--and that was all.
|
|
|
|
It was Theron's first love-feast in Octavius, and as the
|
|
big class-room in the church basement began to fill up,
|
|
and he noted how the men with ultra radical views and the
|
|
women clad in the most ostentatious drabs and grays were
|
|
crowding into the front seats, he felt his spirits sinking.
|
|
He had literally to force himself from sentence to sentence,
|
|
when the time came for him to rise and open the proceedings
|
|
with an exhortation. He had eagerly offered this function
|
|
to the Presiding Elder, the Rev. Aziel P. Larrabee,
|
|
who sat in severe silence on the little platform behind him,
|
|
but had been informed that the dignitary would lead off
|
|
in giving testimony later on. So Theron, feeling all
|
|
the while the hostile eyes of the Elder burning holes
|
|
in his back, dragged himself somehow through the task.
|
|
He had never known any such difficulty of speech before.
|
|
The relief was almost overwhelming when he came to the
|
|
customary part where all are adjured to be as brief
|
|
as possible in witnessing for the Lord, because the time
|
|
belongs to all the people, and the Discipline forbids
|
|
the feast to last more than ninety minutes. He delivered
|
|
this injunction to brevity with marked earnestness,
|
|
and then sat down abruptly.
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|
|
|
There was some rather boisterous singing, during which
|
|
the stewards, beginning with the platform, passed plates
|
|
of bread cut in small cubes, and water in big plated
|
|
pitchers and tumblers, about among the congregation,
|
|
threading their way between the long wooden benches
|
|
ordinarily occupied at this hour by the children of
|
|
the Sunday-school, and helping each brother and sister
|
|
in turn. They held by the old custom, here in Octavius,
|
|
and all along the seats the sexes alternated, as they
|
|
do at a polite dinner-table.
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|
|
|
Theron impassively watched the familiar scene. The early
|
|
nervousness had passed away. He felt now that he was not
|
|
in the least afraid of these people, even with the Presiding
|
|
Elder thrown in. Folks who sang with such unintelligence,
|
|
and who threw themselves with such undignified fervor
|
|
into this childish business of the bread and water,
|
|
could not be formidable antagonists for a man of intellect.
|
|
He had never realized before what a spectacle the
|
|
Methodist love-feast probably presented to outsiders.
|
|
What must they think of it!
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|
|
|
He had noticed that the Soulsbys sat together, in the centre
|
|
and toward the front. Next to Brother Soulsby sat Alice.
|
|
He thought she looked pale and preoccupied, and set it
|
|
down in passing to her innate distaste for the somber
|
|
garments she was wearing, and for the company she perforce
|
|
found herself in. Another head was in the way, and for a
|
|
time Theron did not observe who sat beside Alice on the
|
|
other side. When at last he saw that it was Levi Gorringe,
|
|
his instinct was to wonder what the lawyer must be saying
|
|
to himself about these noisy and shallow enthusiasts.
|
|
A recurring emotion of loyalty to the simple people
|
|
among whom, after all, he had lived his whole life,
|
|
prompted him to feel that it wasn't wholly nice of Gorringe
|
|
to come and enjoy this revelation of their foolish side,
|
|
as if it were a circus. There was some vague memory in his
|
|
mind which associated Gorringe with other love-feasts,
|
|
and with a cynical attitude toward them. Oh, yes! he
|
|
had told how he went to one just for the sake of sitting
|
|
beside the girl he admired--and was pursuing.
|
|
|
|
The stewards had completed their round, and the loud,
|
|
discordant singing came to an end. There ensued a
|
|
little pause, during which Theron turned to the Presiding
|
|
Elder with a gesture of invitation to take charge of the
|
|
further proceedings. The Elder responded with another gesture,
|
|
calling his attention to something going on in front.
|
|
|
|
Brother and Sister Soulsby, to the considerable surprise
|
|
of everybody, had risen to their feet, and were standing
|
|
in their places, quite motionless, and with an air of
|
|
professional self-assurance dimly discernible under a large
|
|
show of humility. They stood thus until complete silence
|
|
had been secured. Then the woman, lifting her head,
|
|
began to sing. The words were "Rock of Ages," but no one
|
|
present had heard the tune to which she wedded them.
|
|
Her voice was full and very sweet, and had in it
|
|
tender cadences which all her hearers found touching.
|
|
She knew how to sing, and she put forth the words
|
|
so that each was distinctly intelligible. There came
|
|
a part where Brother Soulsby, lifting his head in turn,
|
|
took up a tuneful second to her air. Although the
|
|
two did not, as one could hear by listening closely,
|
|
sing the same words at the same time, they produced none
|
|
the less most moving and delightful harmonies of sound.
|
|
|
|
The experience was so novel and charming that listeners
|
|
ran ahead in their minds to fix the number of verses there
|
|
were in the hymn, and to hope that none would be left out.
|
|
Toward the end, when some of the intolerably self-conceited
|
|
local singers, fancying they had caught the tune,
|
|
started to join in, they were stopped by an indignant
|
|
"sh-h!" which rose from all parts of the class-room;
|
|
and the Soulsbys, with a patient and pensive kindliness
|
|
written on their uplifted faces, gave that verse over again.
|
|
|
|
What followed seemed obviously restrained and modified by the
|
|
effect of this unlooked-for and tranquillizing overture.
|
|
The Presiding Elder was known to enjoy visits to old-fashioned
|
|
congregations like that of Octavius, where he could
|
|
indulge to the full his inner passion for high-pitched
|
|
passionate invocations and violent spiritual demeanor,
|
|
but this time he spoke temperately, almost soothingly.
|
|
The most tempestuous of the local witnesses for the Lord
|
|
gave in their testimony in relatively pacific tones,
|
|
under the influence of the spell which good music had
|
|
laid upon the gathering. There was the deepest interest
|
|
as to what the two visitors would do in this way.
|
|
Brother Soulsby spoke first, very briefly and in well rounded
|
|
and well-chosen, if conventional, phrases. His wife,
|
|
following him, delivered in a melodious monotone some
|
|
equally hackneyed remarks. The assemblage, listening in
|
|
rapt attention, felt the suggestion of reserved power in
|
|
every sentence she uttered, and burst forth, as she dropped
|
|
into her seat, in a loud chorus of approving ejaculations.
|
|
The Soulsbys had captured Octavius with their first outer
|
|
skirmish line.
|
|
|
|
Everything seemed to move forward now with a new zest
|
|
and spontaneity. Theron had picked out for the occasion
|
|
the best of those sermons which he had prepared in Tyre,
|
|
at the time when he was justifying his ambition to be
|
|
accounted a pulpit orator. It was orthodox enough,
|
|
but had been planned as the framework for picturesque
|
|
and emotional rhetoric rather than doctrinal edification.
|
|
He had never dreamed of trying it on Octavius before,
|
|
and only on the yesterday had quavered at his own daring
|
|
in choosing it now. Nothing but the desire to show Sister
|
|
Soulsby what was in him had held him to the selection.
|
|
|
|
Something of this same desire no doubt swayed and steadied
|
|
him now in the pulpit. The labored slowness of his beginning
|
|
seemed to him to be due to nervous timidity, until suddenly,
|
|
looking down into those big eyes of Sister Soulsby's,
|
|
which were bent gravely upon him from where she sat beside
|
|
Alice in the minister's pew, he remembered that it was
|
|
instead the studied deliberation which art had taught him.
|
|
He went on, feeling more and more that the skill and
|
|
histrionic power of his best days were returning to him,
|
|
were as marked as ever--nay, had never triumphed before
|
|
as they were triumphing now. The congregation watched
|
|
and listened with open, steadfast eyes and parted lips.
|
|
For the first time in all that weary quarter, their
|
|
faces shone. The sustaining sparkle of their gaze lifted
|
|
him to a peroration unrivalled in his own recollection of himself.
|
|
|
|
He sat down, and bent his head forward upon the open Bible,
|
|
breathing hard, but suffused with a glow of satisfaction.
|
|
His ears caught the music of that sighing rustle through
|
|
the audience which bespeaks a profound impression.
|
|
He could scarcely keep the fingers of his hands,
|
|
covering his bowed face in a devotional posture as they were,
|
|
from drumming a jubilant tattoo. His pulses did this
|
|
in every vein, throbbing with excited exultation.
|
|
The insistent whim seized him, as he still bent thus
|
|
before his people, to whisper to his own heart, "At last!--
|
|
The dogs!"
|
|
|
|
The announcement that in the evening a series of revival
|
|
meetings was to be inaugurated, had been made at the
|
|
love-feast, and it was repeated now from the pulpit,
|
|
with the added statement that for the once the class-meetings
|
|
usually following this morning service would be suspended.
|
|
Then Theron came down the steps, conscious after a fashion
|
|
that the Presiding Elder had laid a propitiatory hand on his
|
|
shoulder and spoken amiably about the sermon, and that several
|
|
groups of more or less important parishioners were waiting
|
|
in the aisle and the vestibule to shake hands and tell him
|
|
how much they had enjoyed the sermon. His mind perversely
|
|
kept hold of the thought that all this came too late.
|
|
He politely smiled his way along out, and, overtaking the
|
|
Soulsbys and his wife near the parsonage gate, went in with them.
|
|
|
|
At the cold, picked-up noonday meal which was the Sunday
|
|
rule of the house, Theron rather expected that his guests
|
|
would talk about the sermon, or at any rate about the events
|
|
of the morning. A Sabbath chill seemed to have settled
|
|
upon both their tongues. They ate almost in silence,
|
|
and their sparse remarks touched upon topics far removed
|
|
from church affairs. Alice too, seemed strangely
|
|
disinclined to conversation. The husband knew her face
|
|
and its varying moods so well that he could see she
|
|
was laboring under some very powerful and deep emotion.
|
|
No doubt it was the sermon, the oratorical swing of which
|
|
still tingled in his own blood, that had so affected her.
|
|
If she had said so, it would have pleased him, but she
|
|
said nothing.
|
|
|
|
After dinner, Brother Soulsby disappeared in his bedroom,
|
|
with the remark that he guessed he would lie down awhile.
|
|
Sister Soulsby put on her bonnet, and, explaining that she
|
|
always prepared herself for an evening's work by a long
|
|
solitary walk, quitted the house. Alice, after she had put
|
|
the dinner things away, went upstairs, and stayed there.
|
|
Left to himself, Theron spent the afternoon in the
|
|
easy-chair, and, in the intervals of confused introspection,
|
|
read "Recollections of my Youth" through again from cover
|
|
to cover.
|
|
|
|
He went through the remarkable experiences attending
|
|
the opening of the revival, when evening came, as one in
|
|
a dream. Long before the hour for the service arrived,
|
|
the sexton came in to tell him that the church was already
|
|
nearly full, and that it was going to be impossible
|
|
to present any distinction in the matter of pews.
|
|
When the party from the parsonage went over--after another
|
|
cold and mostly silent meal--it was to find the interior
|
|
of the church densely packed, and people being turned
|
|
away from the doors.
|
|
|
|
Theron was supposed to preside over what followed, and he
|
|
did sit on the central chair in the pulpit, between the
|
|
Presiding Elder and Brother Soulsby, and on the several
|
|
needful occasions did rise and perfunctorily make the formal
|
|
remarks required of him. The Elder preached a short,
|
|
but vigorously phrased sermon. The Soulsbys sang three or
|
|
four times--on each occasion with familiar hymnal words set
|
|
to novel, concerted music--and then separately exhorted
|
|
the assemblage. The husband's part seemed well done.
|
|
If his speech lacked some of the fire of the divine girdings
|
|
which older Methodists recalled, it still led straight,
|
|
and with kindling fervency, up to a season of power.
|
|
The wife took up the word as he sat down. She had risen
|
|
from one of the side-seats; and, speaking as she walked,
|
|
she moved forward till she stood within the altar-rail,
|
|
immediately under the pulpit, and from this place,
|
|
facing the listening throng, she delivered her harangue.
|
|
Those who watched her words most intently got the least
|
|
sense of meaning from them. The phrases were all familiar
|
|
enough--"Jesus a very present help," "Sprinkled by the Blood,"
|
|
"Comforted by the Word," "Sanctified by the Spirit,"
|
|
"Born into the Kingdom," and a hundred others--but it
|
|
was as in the case of her singing: the words were old;
|
|
the music was new.
|
|
|
|
What Sister Soulsby said did not matter. The way she
|
|
said it--the splendid, searching sweep of her great eyes;
|
|
the vibrating roll of her voice, now full of tears, now scornful,
|
|
now boldly, jubilantly triumphant; the sympathetic swaying
|
|
of her willowy figure under the stress of her eloquence--
|
|
was all wonderful. When she had finished, and stood,
|
|
flushed and panting, beneath the shadow of the pulpit,
|
|
she held up a hand deprecatingly as the resounding "Amens!"
|
|
and "Bless the Lords!" began to well up about her.
|
|
|
|
"You have heard us sing," she said, smiling to apologize
|
|
for her shortness of breath. "Now we want to hear you sing!"
|
|
|
|
Her husband had risen as she spoke, and on the instant,
|
|
with a far greater volume of voice than they had hitherto
|
|
disclosed, the two began "From Greenland's Icy Mountains,"
|
|
in the old, familiar tune. It did not need Sister Soulsby's
|
|
urgent and dramatic gesture to lift people to their feet.
|
|
The whole assemblage sprang up, and, under the guidance
|
|
of these two powerful leading voices, thundered the hymn
|
|
out as Octavius had never heard it before.
|
|
|
|
While its echoes were still alive, the woman began
|
|
speaking again. "Don't sit down!" she cried.
|
|
"You would stand up if the President of the United
|
|
States was going by, even if he was only going fishing.
|
|
How much more should you stand up in honor of living
|
|
souls passing forward to find their Saviour!"
|
|
|
|
The psychological moment was upon them. Groans and
|
|
cries arose, and a palpable ferment stirred the throng.
|
|
The exhortation to sinners to declare themselves, to come
|
|
to the altar, was not only on the revivalist's lips:
|
|
it seemed to quiver in the very air, to be borne on every
|
|
inarticulate exclamation in the clamor of the brethren.
|
|
A young woman, with a dazed and startled look in her eyes,
|
|
rose in the body of the church tremblingly hesitated for
|
|
a moment, and then, with bowed head and blushing cheeks,
|
|
pressed her way out from the end of a crowded pew and down
|
|
the aisle to the rail. A triumphant outburst of welcoming
|
|
ejaculations swelled to the roof as she knelt there,
|
|
and under its impetus others followed her example.
|
|
With interspersed snatches of song and shouted encouragements
|
|
the excitement reached its height only when twoscore people,
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mostly young, were tightly clustered upon their knees
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about the rail, and in the space opening upon the aisle.
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Above the confusion of penitential sobs and moans, and the
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hysterical murmurings of members whose conviction of entire
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sanctity kept them in their seats, could be heard the voices
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of the Presiding Elder, the Soulsbys, and the elderly
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deacons of the church, who moved about among the kneeling
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mourners, bending over them and patting their shoulders,
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and calling out to them: "Fasten your thoughts on Jesus!"
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"Oh, the Precious Blood!" "Blessed be His Name!"
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"Seek Him, and you shall find Him!" "Cling to Jesus,
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and Him Crucified!"
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The Rev. Theron Ware did not, with the others, descend from
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the pulpit. Seated where he could not see Sister Soulsby,
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he had failed utterly to be moved by the wave of enthusiasm
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she had evoked. What he heard her say disappointed him.
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He had expected from her more originality, more spice of
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her own idiomatic, individual sort. He viewed with a cold
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sense of aloofness the evidences of her success when they
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began to come forward and abase themselves at the altar.
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The instant resolve that, come what might, he would not go
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down there among them, sprang up ready-made in his mind.
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He saw his two companions pass him and descend the pulpit
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stairs, and their action only hardened his resolution.
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If an excuse were needed, he was presiding, and the place
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to preside in was the pulpit. But he waived in his mind
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the whole question of an excuse.
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After a little, he put his hand over his face, leaning the
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elbow forward on the reading-desk. The scene below would have
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thrilled him to the marrow six months--yes, three months ago.
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He put a finger across his eyes now, to half shut it out.
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The spectacle of these silly young "mourners"--kneeling
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they knew not why, trembling at they could not tell what,
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pledging themselves frantically to dogmas and mysteries
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they knew nothing of, under the influence of a hubbub
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of outcries as meaningless in their way, and inspiring
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in much the same way, as the racket of a fife and
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drum corps--the spectacle saddened and humiliated
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him now. He was conscious of a dawning sense of shame
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at being even tacitly responsible for such a thing.
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His fancy conjured up the idea of Dr. Ledsmar coming
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in and beholding this maudlin and unseemly scene,
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and he felt his face grow hot at the bare thought.
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Looking through his fingers, Theron all at once saw
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something which caught at his breath with a sharp clutch.
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Alice had risen from the minister's pew--the most conspicuous
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one in the church--and was moving down the aisle toward
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the rail, her uplifted face chalk-like in its whiteness,
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and her eyes wide-open, looking straight ahead.
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The young pastor could scarcely credit his sight.
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He thrust aside his hand, and bent forward, only to see
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his wife sink upon her knees among the rest, and to hear
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this notable accession to the "mourners" hailed by a
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tumult of approving shouts. Then, remembering himself,
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he drew back and put up his hand, shutting out the strange
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scene altogether. To see nothing at all was a relief,
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and under cover he closed his eyes, and bit his teeth together.
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A fresh outburst of thanksgivings, spreading noisily
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through the congregation, prompted him to peer through
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his fingers again. Levi Gorringe was making his way
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down the aisle--was at the moment quite in front.
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Theron found himself watching this man with the stern
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composure of a fatalist. The clamant brethren down below
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were stirred to new excitement by the thought that the
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sceptical lawyer, so long with them, yet not of them,
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had been humbled and won by the outpourings of the Spirit.
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Theron's perceptions were keener. He knew that Gorringe
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was coming forward to kneel beside Alice; The knowledge
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left him curiously undisturbed. He saw the lawyer advance,
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gently insinuate himself past the form of some kneeling
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mourner who was in his way, and drop on his knees close
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beside the bowed figure of Alice. The two touched
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shoulders as they bent forward beneath Sister Soulsby's
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outstretched hands, held over them as in a blessing.
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Theron looked fixedly at them, and professed to himself
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that he was barely interested.
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A little afterward, he was standing up in his place,
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and reading aloud a list of names which one of the stewards
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had given him. They were the names of those who had
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asked that evening to be taken into the church as members
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on probation. The sounds of the recent excitement
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were all hushed now, save as two or three enthusiasts
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in a corner raised their voices in abrupt greeting of
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each name in its turn, but Theron felt somehow that this
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noise had been transferred to the inside of his head.
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A continuous buzzing went on there, so that the sound
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of his voice was far-off and unfamiliar in his ears.
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He read through the list--comprising some fifteen items--
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and pronounced the names with great distinctness.
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It was necessary to take pains with this, because the
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only name his blurred eyes seemed to see anywhere on the
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foolscap sheet was that of Levi Gorringe. When he had
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finished and was taking his seat, some one began speaking
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to him from the body of the church. He saw that this
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was the steward, who was explaining to him that the most
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important name of the lot--that of Brother Gorringe--
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had not been read out.
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Theron smiled and shook his head. Then, when the Presiding
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Elder touched him on the arm, and assured him that he had
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not mentioned the name in question, he replied quite simply,
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and with another smile, "I thought it was the only name
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I did read out."
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Then he sat down abruptly, and let his head fall to one side.
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There were hurried movements inside the pulpit, and people
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in the audience had begun to stand up wonderingly,
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when the Presiding Elder, with uplifted hands, confronted them.
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"We will omit the Doxology, and depart quietly after
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the benediction," he said. "Brother Ware seems to have
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been overcome by the heat."
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CHAPTER XVI
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When Theron woke next morning, Alice seemed to have dressed
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and left the room--a thing which had never happened before.
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This fact connected itself at once in his brain with the
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recollection of her having made an exhibition of herself
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the previous evening--going forward before all eyes to join
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the unconverted and penitent sinners, as if she were
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some tramp or shady female, instead of an educated lady,
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a professing member from her girlhood, and a minister's wife.
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It crossed his mind that probably she had risen and got
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away noiselessly, for very shame at looking him in the face,
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after such absurd behavior.
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Then he remembered more, and grasped the situation.
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He had fainted in church, and had been brought home and helped
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to bed. Dim memories of unaccustomed faces in the bedroom,
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of nauseous drugs and hushed voices, came to him out of the
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night-time. Now that he thought of it, he was a sick man.
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Having settled this, he went off to sleep again,
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a feverish and broken sleep, and remained in this state
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most of the time for the following twenty-four hours.
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In the brief though numerous intervals of waking, he found
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certain things clear in his mind. One was that he was
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annoyed with Alice, but would dissemble his feelings.
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Another was that it was much pleasanter to be ill than to be
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forced to attend and take part in those revival meetings.
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These two ideas came and went in a lazy, drowsy fashion,
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mixing themselves up with other vagrant fancies, yet always
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remaining on top.
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In the evening the singing from the church next door
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filled his room. The Soulsbys' part of it was worth
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keeping awake for. He turned over and deliberately
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dozed when the congregation sang.
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Alice came up a number of times during the day to ask
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how he felt, and to bring him broth or toast-water. On
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several occasions, when he heard her step, the perverse
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inclination mastered him to shut his eyes, and pretend
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to be asleep, so that she might tip-toe out again.
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She had a depressed and thoughtful air, and spoke to him
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like one whose mind was on something else. Neither of
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them alluded to what had happened the previous evening.
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Toward the close of the long day, she came to ask him
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whether he would prefer her to remain in the house,
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instead of attending the meeting.
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"Go, by all means," he said almost curtly.
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The Presiding Elder and the Sunday-school superintendent
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called early Tuesday morning at the parsonage to make
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brotherly inquiries, and Theron was feeling so much better
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|
that he himself suggested their coming upstairs to see him.
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The Elder was in good spirits; he smiled approvingly,
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and even put in a jocose word or two while the superintendent
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sketched for the invalid in a cheerful way the leading
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incidents of the previous evening.
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There had been an enormous crowd, even greater than that of
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Sunday night, and everybody had been looking forward to another
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notable and exciting season of grace. These expectations
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|
were especially heightened when Sister Soulsby ascended
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the pulpit stairs and took charge of the proceedings.
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She deferred to Paul's views about women preachers
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on Sundays, she said; but on weekdays she had just as much
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right to snatch brands from the burning as Paul, or Peter,
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or any other man. She went on like that, in a breezy,
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off-hand fashion which tickled the audience immensely,
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|
and led to the liveliest anticipations of what would
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happen when she began upon the evening's harvest of souls.
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But it was something else that happened. At a signal from
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Sister Soulsby the steward got up, and, in an unconcerned sort
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of way, went through the throng to the rear of the church,
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locked the doors, and put the keys in their pockets.
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The sister dryly explained now to the surprised congregation
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that there was a season for all things, and that on the
|
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present occasion they would suspend the glorious work
|
|
of redeeming fallen human nature, and take up instead
|
|
the equally noble task of raising some fifteen hundred
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|
dollars which the church needed in its business. The doors
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|
would only be opened again when this had been accomplished.
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The brethren were much taken aback by this trick, and they
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permitted themselves to exchange a good many scowling and
|
|
indignant glances, the while their professional visitors
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|
sang another of their delightfully novel sacred duets.
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Its charm of harmony for once fell upon unsympathetic ears.
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But then Sister Soulsby began another monologue, defending
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this way of collecting money, chaffing the assemblage
|
|
with bright-eyed impudence on their having been trapped,
|
|
and scoring, one after another, neat and jocose little
|
|
personal points on local characteristics, at which everybody
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|
but the individual touched grinned broadly. She was
|
|
so droll and cheeky, and withal effective in her talk,
|
|
that she quite won the crowd over. She told a story
|
|
about a woodchuck which fairly brought down the house.
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"A man," she began, with a quizzical twinkle in her eye,
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|
"told me once about hunting a woodchuck with a pack
|
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of dogs, and they chased it so hard that it finally
|
|
escaped only by climbing a butternut-tree. 'But,
|
|
my friend,' I said to him, 'woodchucks can't climb trees--
|
|
butternut-trees or any other kind--and you know it!'
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|
All he said in reply to me was: 'This woodchuck had to
|
|
climb a tree!' And that's the way with this congregation.
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You think you can't raise $1,500, but you've GOT to."
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So it went on. She set them all laughing; and then,
|
|
with a twist of the eyes and a change of voice, lo,
|
|
and behold, she had them nearly crying in the same breath.
|
|
Under the pressure of these jumbled emotions, brethren began
|
|
to rise up in their pews and say what they would give.
|
|
The wonderful woman had something smart and apt to say about
|
|
each fresh contribution, and used it to screw up the general
|
|
interest a notch further toward benevolent hysteria.
|
|
With songs and jokes and impromptu exhortations and
|
|
prayers she kept the thing whirling, until a sort of duel
|
|
of generosity began between two of the most unlikely men--
|
|
Erastus Winch and Levi Gorringe. Everybody had been surprised
|
|
when Winch gave his first $50; but when he rose again,
|
|
half an hour afterward, and said that, owing to the high
|
|
public position of some of the new members on probation,
|
|
he foresaw a great future for the church, and so felt
|
|
moved to give another $25, there was general amazement.
|
|
Moved by a common instinct, all eyes were turned upon
|
|
Levi Gorringe, and he, without the slightest hesitation,
|
|
stood up and said he would give $100. There was something
|
|
in his tone which must have annoyed Brother Winch, for he shot
|
|
up like a dart, and called out, "Put me down for fifty more;
|
|
"and that brought Gorringe to his feet with an added $50,
|
|
and then the two went on raising each other till the
|
|
assemblage was agape with admiring stupefaction.
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This gladiatorial combat might have been going on till now,
|
|
the Sunday-school superintendent concluded, if Winch
|
|
hadn't subsided. The amount of the contributions hadn't
|
|
been figured up yet, for Sister Soulsby kept the list;
|
|
but there had been a tremendous lot of money raised.
|
|
Of that there could be no doubt.
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|
The Presiding Elder now told Theron that the Quarterly
|
|
Conference had been adjourned yesterday till today.
|
|
He and Brother Davis were even now on their way to attend
|
|
the session in the church next door. The Elder added,
|
|
with an obvious kindly significance, that though Theron was
|
|
too ill to attend it, he guessed his absence would do him
|
|
no harm. Then the two men left the room, and Theron went
|
|
to sleep again.
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|
Another almost blank period ensued, this time lasting
|
|
for forty-eight hours. The young minister was enfolded
|
|
in the coils of a fever of some sort, which Brother Soulsby,
|
|
who had dabbled considerably in medicine, admitted that
|
|
he was puzzled about. Sometimes he thought that it
|
|
was typhoid, and then again there were symptoms which
|
|
looked suspiciously like brain fever. The Methodists
|
|
of Octavius counted no physician among their numbers,
|
|
and when, on the second day, Alice grew scared, and decided,
|
|
with Brother Soulsby's assent, to call in professional
|
|
advice, the only doctor's name she could recall was that
|
|
of Ledsmar. She was conscious of an instinctive dislike
|
|
for the vague image of him her fancy had conjured up,
|
|
but the reflection that he was Theron's friend, and so
|
|
probably would be more moderate in his charges, decided her.
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|
|
|
Brother Soulsby showed a most comforting tact and swiftness
|
|
of apprehension when Alice, in mentioning Dr. Ledsmar's
|
|
name, disclosed by her manner a fear that his being
|
|
sent for would create talk among the church people.
|
|
He volunteered at once to act as messenger himself, and,
|
|
with no better guide than her dim hints at direction,
|
|
found the doctor and brought him back to the parsonage.
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|
|
Dr. Ledsmar expressly disclaimed to Soulsby all pretence
|
|
of professional skill, and made him understand that he
|
|
went along solely because he liked Mr. Ware, and was
|
|
interested in him, and in any case would probably be of
|
|
as much use as the wisest of strange physicians--a view
|
|
which the little revivalist received with comprehending
|
|
nods of tacit acquiescence. Ledsmar came, and was taken
|
|
up to the sick-room. He sat on the bedside and talked
|
|
with Theron awhile, and then went downstairs again.
|
|
To Alice's anxious inquiries, he replied that it seemed
|
|
to him merely a case of over-work and over-worry, about
|
|
which there was not the slightest occasion for alarm.
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"But he says the strangest things," the wife put in.
|
|
"He has been quite delirious at times."
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|
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"That means only that his brain is taking a rest as well
|
|
as his body," remarked Ledsmar. "That is Nature's way
|
|
of securing an equilibrium of repose--of recuperation.
|
|
He will come out of it with his mind all the fresher
|
|
and clearer."
|
|
|
|
"I don't believe he knows shucks!" was Alice's comment
|
|
when she closed the street door upon Dr. Ledsmar.
|
|
"Anybody could have come in and looked at a sick man
|
|
and said, 'Leave him alone.' You expect something more
|
|
from a doctor. It's his business to say what to do.
|
|
And I suppose he'll charge two dollars for just telling me
|
|
that my husband was resting!"
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|
|
|
"No," said Brother Soulsby, "he said he never practised,
|
|
and that he would come only as a friend."
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"Well, it isn't my idea of a friend--not to prescribe
|
|
a single thing," protested Alice.
|
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|
|
Yet it seemed that no prescription was needed, after all.
|
|
The next morning Theron woke to find himself feeling
|
|
quite restored in spirits and nerves. He sat up in bed,
|
|
and after an instant of weakly giddiness, recognized that
|
|
he was all right again. Greatly pleased, he got up,
|
|
and proceeded to dress himself. There were little recurring
|
|
hints of faintness and vertigo, while he was shaving,
|
|
but he had the sense to refer these to the fact that he
|
|
was very, very hungry. He went downstairs, and smiled
|
|
with the pleased pride of a child at the surprise which his
|
|
appearance at the door created. Alice and the Soulsbys
|
|
were at breakfast. He joined them, and ate voraciously,
|
|
declaring that it was worth a month's illness to have things
|
|
taste so good once more.
|
|
|
|
"You still look white as a sheet," said Alice, warningly.
|
|
"If I were you, I'd be careful in my diet for a spell yet."
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|
For answer, Theron let Sister Soulsby help him again
|
|
to ham and eggs. He talked exclusively to Sister Soulsby,
|
|
or rather invited her by his manner to talk to him,
|
|
and listened and watched her with indolent content.
|
|
There was a sort of happy and purified languor in his physical
|
|
and mental being, which needed and appreciated just this--
|
|
to sit next a bright and attractive woman at a good breakfast,
|
|
and be ministered to by her sprightly conversation,
|
|
by the flash of her informing and inspiring eyes,
|
|
and the nameless sense of support and repose which her
|
|
near proximity exhaled. He felt himself figuratively
|
|
leaning against Sister Soulsby's buoyant personality,
|
|
and resting.
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|
|
Brother Soulsby, like the intelligent creature he was,
|
|
ate his breakfast in peace; but Alice would interpose
|
|
remarks from time to time. Theron was conscious of a
|
|
certain annoyance at this, and knew that he was showing
|
|
it by an exaggerated display of interest in everything
|
|
Sister Soulsby said, and persisted in it. There trembled
|
|
in the background of his thoughts ever and again the
|
|
recollection of a grievance against his wife--an offence
|
|
which she had committed--but he put it aside as something
|
|
to be grappled and dealt with when he felt again like
|
|
taking up the serious and disagreeable things of life.
|
|
For the moment, he desired only to be amused by Sister Soulsby.
|
|
Her casual mention of the fact that she and her husband
|
|
were taking their departure that very day, appealed to him
|
|
as an added reason for devoting his entire attention to her.
|
|
|
|
"You mustn't forget that famous talking-to you threatened me with--
|
|
that 'regular hoeing-over,' you know," he reminded her,
|
|
when he found himself alone with her after breakfast.
|
|
He smiled as he spoke, in frank enjoyment of the prospect.
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby nodded, and aided with a roll of her eyes
|
|
the effect of mock-menace in her uplifted forefinger.
|
|
"Oh, never fear," she cried. "You'll catch it hot and strong.
|
|
But that'll keep till afternoon. Tell me, do you feel
|
|
strong enough to go in next door and attend the trustees'
|
|
meeting this forenoon? It's rather important that you
|
|
should be there, if you can spur yourself up to it.
|
|
By the way, you haven't asked what happened at the Quarterly
|
|
Conference yesterday."
|
|
|
|
Theron sighed, and made a little grimace of repugnance.
|
|
"If you knew how little I cared!" he said. "I did hope
|
|
you'd forget all about mentioning that--and everything
|
|
else connected with--the next door. You talk so much more
|
|
interestingly about other things."
|
|
|
|
"Here's gratitude for you!" exclaimed Sister Soulsby,
|
|
with a gay simulation of despair. "Why, man alive,
|
|
do you know what I've done for you? I got around on
|
|
the Presiding Elder's blind side, I captured old Pierce,
|
|
I wound Winch right around my little finger, I worked
|
|
two or three of the class-leaders--all on your account.
|
|
The result was you went through as if you'd had your ears
|
|
pinned back, and been greased all over. You've got an
|
|
extra hundred dollars added to your salary; do you hear?
|
|
On the sixth question of the order of business the Elder ruled
|
|
that the recommendation of the last conference's estimating
|
|
committee could be revised (between ourselves he was wrong,
|
|
but that doesn't matter) , and so you're in clover.
|
|
And very friendly things were said about you, too."
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|
|
"It was very kind of you," said Theron. "I am really
|
|
extremely grateful to you." He shook her by the hand
|
|
to make up for what he realized to be a lack of fervor
|
|
in his tones.
|
|
|
|
"Well, then," Sister Soulsby replied, "you pull
|
|
yourself together, and take your place as chairman
|
|
of the trustees' meeting, and see to it that,
|
|
whatever comes up, you side with old Pierce and Winch."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, THEY'RE my friends now, are they?" asked Theron,
|
|
with a faint play of irony about his lips.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, that's your ticket this election," she answered briskly,
|
|
"and mind you vote it straight. Don't bother about
|
|
reasons now. Just take it from me, as the song says,
|
|
'that things have changed since Willie died.' That's all.
|
|
And then come back here, and this afternoon we'll have
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a good old-fashioned jaw."
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The Rev. Mr. Ware, walking with ostentatious feebleness,
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and forcing a conventional smile upon his wan face,
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duly made his unexpected appearance at the trustees'
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meeting in one of the smaller classrooms. He received their
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congratulations gravely, and shook hands with all three.
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It required an effort to do this impartially, because,
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upon sight of Levi Gorringe, there rose up suddenly
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within him an emotion of fierce dislike and enmity.
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In some enigmatic way his thoughts had kept themselves
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away from Gorringe ever since Sunday evening. Now they
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concentrated with furious energy and swiftness upon him.
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Theron seemed able in a flash of time to coordinate
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many recollections of Gorringe--the early liking Alice
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had professed for him, the mystery of those purchased
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plants in her garden, the story of the girl he had
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lost in church, his offer to lend him money, the way
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in which he had sat beside Alice at the love-feast
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and followed her to the altar-rail in the evening.
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These raced abreast through the young minister's brain,
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yet with each its own image, and its relation to the others
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clearly defined.
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He found the nerve, all the same, to take this third trustee
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by the hand, and to thank him for his congratulations,
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and even to say, with a surface smile of welcome,
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"It is BROTHER Gorringe, now, I remember."
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The work before the meeting was chiefly of a routine kind.
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In most places this would have been transacted by the stewards;
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but in Octavius these minor officials had degenerated
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into mere ceremonial abstractions, who humbly ratified,
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or by arrangement anticipated, the will of the powerful,
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mortgage-owning trustees. Theron sat languidly at
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the head of the table while these common-place matters
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passed in their course, noting the intonations of
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Gorringe's voice as he read from his secretary's book,
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and finding his ear displeased by them. No issue arose
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upon any of these trivial affairs, and the minister,
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feeling faint and weary in the heat, wondered why Sister
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Soulsby had insisted on his coming.
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All at once he sat up straight, with an instinctive warning
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in his mind that here was the thing. Gorringe had taken up
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the subject of the "debt-raising" evening, and read out its
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essentials as they had been embodied in a report of the stewards.
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The gross sum obtained, in cash and promises, was $1,860.
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The stewards had collected of this a trifle less than half,
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but hoped to get it all in during the ensuing quarter.
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There were, also, the bill of Mr. and Mrs. Soulsby for
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$150, and the increases of $100 in the pastor's salary
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and $25 in the apportioned contribution of the charge
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toward the Presiding Elder's maintenance, the two latter
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items of which the Quarterly Conference had sanctioned.
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"I want to hear the names of the subscribers and their
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amounts read out," put in Brother Pierce.
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When this was done, it became apparent that much more than
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half of the entire amount had been offered by two men.
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Levi Gorringe's $450 and Erastus Winch's $425 left only
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$985 to be divided up among some seventy or eighty other
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members of the congregation.
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Brother Pierce speedily stopped the reading of these
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subordinate names. "They're of no concern whatever,"
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he said, despite the fact that his own might have been
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reached in time. "Those first names are what I was
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getting at. Have those two first amounts, the big ones,
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be'n paid?"
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"One has--the other not," replied Gorringe.
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"PRE-cisely," remarked the senior trustee. "And I'm goin'
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to move that it needn't be paid, either. When Brother Winch,
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here, began hollerin' out those extra twenty-fives and fifties,
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that evening, it was under a complete misapprehension.
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He'd be'n on the Cheese Board that same Monday afternoon,
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and he'd done what he thought was a mighty big stroke
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of business, and he felt liberal according. I know
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just what that feelin' is myself. If I'd be'n makin'
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a mint o' money, instead o' losin' all the while, as I do,
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I'd 'a' done just the same. But the next day, lo, and behold,
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Brother Winch found that it was all a mistake--he hadn't
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made a single penny."
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"Fact is, I lost by the whole transaction," put in
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Erastus Winch, defiantly.
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"Just so," Brother Pierce went on. "He lost money.
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You have his own word for it. Well, then, I say it would
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be a burning shame for us to consent to touch one penny
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of what he offered to give, in the fullness of his heart,
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while he was laborin' under that delusion. And I move he
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be not asked for it. We've got quite as much as we need,
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without it. I put my motion."
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"That is, YOU don't put it," suggested Winch, correctingly.
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"You move it, and Brother Ware, whom we're all so glad
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to see able to come and preside--he'll put it."
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There was a moment's silence. "You've heard the motion,"
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said Theron, tentatively, and then paused for possible remarks.
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He was not going to meddle in this thing himself, and Gorringe
|
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was the only other who might have an opinion to offer.
|
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The necessities of the situation forced him to glance at
|
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the lawyer inquiringly. He did so, and turned his eyes
|
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away again like a shot. Gorringe was looking him squarely
|
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in the face, and the look was freighted with satirical contempt.
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The young minister spoke between clinched teeth.
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"All those in favor will say aye."
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Brothers Pierce and Winch put up a simultaneous
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and confident "Aye."
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"No, you don't!" interposed the lawyer, with deliberate,
|
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sneering emphasis. "I decidedly protest against Winch's
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voting. He's directly interested, and he mustn't vote.
|
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Your chairman knows that perfectly well."
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"Yes, I think Brother Winch ought not to vote," decided Theron,
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with great calmness. He saw now what was coming,
|
|
and underneath his surface composure there were sharp flutterings.
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"Very well, then," said Gorringe. "I vote no, and it's a tie.
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It rests with the chairman now to cast the deciding vote,
|
|
and say whether this interesting arrangement shall go
|
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through or not."
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"Me?" said Theron, eying the lawyer with a cool self-control
|
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which had come all at once to him. "Me? Oh, I vote Aye."
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CHAPTER XVII
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"Well, I did what you told me to do," Theron Ware remarked
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to Sister Soulsby, when at last they found themselves
|
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alone in the sitting-room after the midday meal.
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It had taken not a little strategic skirmishing to
|
|
secure the room to themselves for the hospitable Alice,
|
|
much touched by the thought of her new friend's departure
|
|
that very evening had gladly proposed to let all the work
|
|
stand over until night, and devote herself entirely
|
|
to Sister Soulsby. When, finally, Brother Soulsby
|
|
conceived and deftly executed the coup of interesting
|
|
her in the budding of roses, and then leading her off
|
|
into the garden to see with her own eyes how it was done,
|
|
Theron had a sense of being left alone with a conspirator.
|
|
The notion impelled him to plunge at once into the heart
|
|
of their mystery.
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"I did what you told me to do," he repeated, looking up
|
|
from his low easy-chair to where she sat by the desk;
|
|
"and I dare say you won't be surprised when I add that I
|
|
have no respect for myself for doing it."
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"And yet you would go and do it right over again, eh?"
|
|
the woman said, in bright, pert tones, nodding her head,
|
|
and smiling at him with roguish, comprehending eyes.
|
|
"Yes, that's the way we're built. We spend our lives doing
|
|
that sort of thing."
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|
|
"I don't know that you would precisely grasp my meaning,"
|
|
said the young minister, with a polite effort in his
|
|
words to mask the untoward side of the suggestion.
|
|
"It is a matter of conscience with me; and I am pained
|
|
and shocked at myself."
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|
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|
Sister Soulsby drummed for an absent moment with her thin,
|
|
nervous fingers on the desk-top. "I guess maybe you'd
|
|
better go and lie down again," she said gently.
|
|
"You're a sick man, still, and it's no good your worrying
|
|
your head just now with things of this sort. You'll see
|
|
them differently when you're quite yourself again."
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|
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|
"No, no," pleaded Theron. "Do let us have our talk out!
|
|
I'm all right. My mind is clear as a bell. Truly, I've
|
|
really counted on this talk with you."
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|
"But there's something else to talk about, isn't there,
|
|
besides--besides your conscience?" she asked.
|
|
Her eyes bent upon him a kindly pressure as she spoke,
|
|
which took all possible harshness from her meaning.
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|
|
|
Theron answered the glance rather than her words.
|
|
"I know that you are my friend," he said simply.
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|
|
|
Sister Soulsby straightened herself, and looked down upon
|
|
him with a new intentness. "Well, then," she began,
|
|
"let's thrash this thing out right now, and be done with it.
|
|
You say it's hurt your conscience to do just one little
|
|
hundredth part of what there was to be done here.
|
|
Ask yourself what you mean by that. Mind, I'm not quarrelling,
|
|
and I'm not thinking about anything except just your own
|
|
state of mind. You think you soiled your hands by doing
|
|
what you did. That is to say, you wanted ALL the dirty
|
|
work done by other people. That's it, isn't it?"
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|
|
|
"The Rev. Mr. Ware sat up, in turn, and looked doubtingly
|
|
into his companion's face.
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|
|
|
"Oh, we were going to be frank, you know," she added,
|
|
with a pleasant play of mingled mirth and honest liking
|
|
in her eyes.
|
|
|
|
"No," he said, picking his words, "my point would
|
|
rather be that--that there ought not to have been any
|
|
of what you yourself call this--this 'dirty work.'
|
|
THAT is my feeling."
|
|
|
|
"Now we're getting at it," said Sister Soulsby, briskly.
|
|
"My dear friend, you might just as well say that potatoes
|
|
are unclean and unfit to eat because manure is put
|
|
into the ground they grow in. Just look at the case.
|
|
Your church here was running behind every year.
|
|
Your people had got into a habit of putting in nickels
|
|
instead of dimes, and letting you sweat for the difference.
|
|
That's a habit, like tobacco, or biting your fingernails,
|
|
or anything else. Either you were all to come to smash here,
|
|
or the people had to be shaken up, stood on their heads,
|
|
broken of their habit. It's my business--mine and Soulsby's--
|
|
to do that sort of thing. We came here and we did it--
|
|
did it up brown, too. We not only raised all the money
|
|
the church needs, and to spare, but I took a personal shine
|
|
to you, and went out of my way to fix up things for you.
|
|
It isn't only the extra hundred dollars, but the whole
|
|
tone of the congregation is changed toward you now.
|
|
You'll see that they'll be asking to have you back here,
|
|
next spring. And you're solid with your Presiding Elder,
|
|
too. Well, now, tell me straight--is that worth while,
|
|
or not?"
|
|
|
|
"I've told you that I am very grateful," answered the
|
|
minister, "and I say it again, and I shall never be tired
|
|
of repeating it. But--but it was the means I had in mind."
|
|
|
|
"Quite so," rejoined the sister, patiently. "If you saw
|
|
the way a hotel dinner was cooked, you wouldn't be able
|
|
to stomach it. Did you ever see a play? In a theatre,
|
|
I mean. I supposed not. But you'll understand when I say
|
|
that the performance looks one way from where the audience sit,
|
|
and quite a different way when you are behind the scenes.
|
|
THERE you see that the trees and houses are cloth,
|
|
and the moon is tissue paper, and the flying fairy is a
|
|
middle-aged woman strung up on a rope. That doesn't prove
|
|
that the play, out in front, isn't beautiful and affecting,
|
|
and all that. It only shows that everything in this
|
|
world is produced by machinery--by organization.
|
|
The trouble is that you've been let in on the stage,
|
|
behind the scenes, so to speak, and you're so green--
|
|
if you'll pardon me--that you want to sit down and cry
|
|
because the trees ARE cloth, and the moon IS a lantern.
|
|
And I say, don't be such a goose!"
|
|
|
|
"I see what you mean," Theron said, with an answering smile.
|
|
He added, more gravely, "All the same, the Winch business
|
|
seems to me--"
|
|
|
|
"Now the Winch business is my own affair," Sister Soulsby
|
|
broke in abruptly. I take all the responsibility for that.
|
|
You need know nothing about it. You simply voted as you
|
|
did on the merits of the case as he presented them--
|
|
that's all."
|
|
|
|
"But--" Theron began, and then paused. Something had occurred
|
|
to him, and he knitted his brows to follow its course
|
|
of expansion in his mind. Suddenly he raised his head.
|
|
"Then you arranged with Winch to make those bogus offers--
|
|
just to lead others on?" he demanded.
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby's large eyes beamed down upon him in reply,
|
|
at first in open merriment, then more soberly, till their
|
|
regard was almost pensive.
|
|
|
|
"Let us talk of something else," she said. "All that is
|
|
past and gone. It has nothing to do with you, anyway.
|
|
I've got some advice to give you about keeping up this
|
|
grip you've got on your people."
|
|
|
|
The young minister had risen to his feet while she spoke.
|
|
He put his hands in his pockets, and with rounded shoulders
|
|
began slowly pacing the room. After a turn or two he came
|
|
to the desk, and leaned against it.
|
|
|
|
"I doubt if it's worth while going into that," he said,
|
|
in the solemn tone of one who feels that an irrevocable thing
|
|
is being uttered. She waited to hear more, apparently.
|
|
"I think I shall go away--give up the ministry," he added.
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby's eyes revealed no such shock of consternation
|
|
as he, unconsciously, had looked for. They remained quite calm;
|
|
and when she spoke, they deepened, to fit her speech,
|
|
with what he read to be a gaze of affectionate melancholy--
|
|
one might say pity. She shook her head slowly.
|
|
|
|
"No--don't let any one else hear you say that," she replied.
|
|
"My poor young friend, it's no good to even think it.
|
|
The real wisdom is to school yourself to move along smoothly,
|
|
and not fret, and get the best of what's going. I've known
|
|
others who felt as you do--of course there are times
|
|
when every young man of brains and high notions feels
|
|
that way--but there's no help for it. Those who tried
|
|
to get out only broke themselves. Those who stayed in,
|
|
and made the best of it--well, one of them will be a bishop
|
|
in another ten years."
|
|
|
|
Theron had started walking again. "But the moral degradation
|
|
of it!" he snapped out at her over his shoulder.
|
|
"I'd rather earn the meanest living, at an honest trade,
|
|
and be free from it."
|
|
|
|
"That may all be," responded Sister Soulsby. "But it isn't
|
|
a question of what you'd rather do. It's what you can do.
|
|
How could you earn a living? What trade or business do you
|
|
suppose you could take up now, and get a living out of?
|
|
Not one, my man, not one."
|
|
|
|
Theron stopped and stared at her. This view of his
|
|
capabilities came upon him with the force and effect
|
|
of a blow.
|
|
|
|
"I don't discover, myself," he began stumblingly,
|
|
"that I'm so conspicuously inferior to the men I see
|
|
about me who do make livings, and very good ones, too."
|
|
|
|
"Of course you're not," she replied with easy promptness;
|
|
"you're greatly the other way, or I shouldn't be taking this
|
|
trouble with you. But you're what you are because you're
|
|
where you are. The moment you try on being somewhere else,
|
|
you're done for. In all this world nobody else comes to
|
|
such unmerciful and universal grief as the unfrocked priest."
|
|
|
|
The phrase sent Theron's fancy roving. "I know a
|
|
Catholic priest," he said irrelevantly, "who doesn't
|
|
believe an atom in--in things."
|
|
|
|
"Very likely," said Sister Soulsby. "Most of us do.
|
|
But you don't hear him talking about going and earning
|
|
his living, I'll bet! Or if he does, he takes powerful
|
|
good care not to go, all the same. They've got horse-sense,
|
|
those priests. They're artists, too. They know how to
|
|
allow for the machinery behind the scenes."
|
|
|
|
"But it's all so different," urged the young minister;
|
|
"the same things are not expected of them. Now I sat
|
|
the other night and watched those people you got up
|
|
around the altar-rail, groaning and shouting and crying,
|
|
and the others jumping up and down with excitement,
|
|
and Sister Lovejoy--did you see her?--coming out of her pew
|
|
and regularly waltzing in the aisle, with her eyes shut,
|
|
like a whirling dervish--I positively believe it was
|
|
all that made me ill. I couldn't stand it. I can't
|
|
stand it now. I won't go back to it! Nothing shall
|
|
make me!"
|
|
|
|
"Oh-h, yes, you will," she rejoined soothingly.
|
|
"There's nothing else to do. Just put a good face on it,
|
|
and make up your mind to get through by treading on as few
|
|
corns as possible, and keeping your own toes well in,
|
|
and you'll be surprised how easy it'll all come to be.
|
|
You were speaking of the revival business. Now that exemplifies
|
|
just what I was saying--it's a part of our machinery.
|
|
Now a church is like everything else,--it's got to have a boss,
|
|
a head, an authority of some sort, that people will listen
|
|
to and mind. The Catholics are different, as you say.
|
|
Their church is chuck-full of authority--all the way
|
|
from the Pope down to the priest--and accordingly they
|
|
do as they're told. But the Protestants--your Methodists
|
|
most of all--they say 'No, we won't have any authority,
|
|
we won't obey any boss.' Very well, what happens?
|
|
We who are responsible for running the thing, and raising
|
|
the money and so on--we have to put on a spurt every once
|
|
in a while, and work up a general state of excitement;
|
|
and while it's going, don't you see that THAT is the authority,
|
|
the motive power, whatever you like to call it, by which
|
|
things are done? Other denominations don't need it.
|
|
We do, and that's why we've got it."
|
|
|
|
"But the mean dishonesty of it all!" Theron broke forth.
|
|
He moved about again, his bowed face drawn as with
|
|
bodily suffering. "The low-born tricks, the hypocrisies!
|
|
I feel as if I could never so much as look at these people
|
|
here again without disgust."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, now that's where you make your mistake,"
|
|
Sister Soulsby put in placidly. "These people
|
|
of yours are not a whit worse than other people.
|
|
They've got their good streaks and their bad streaks,
|
|
just like the rest of us. Take them by and large,
|
|
they're quite on a par with other folks the whole country through."
|
|
|
|
"I don't believe there's another congregation in the
|
|
Conference where--where this sort of thing would have
|
|
been needed, or, I might say, tolerated," insisted Theron.
|
|
|
|
"Perhaps you're right," the other assented; "but that only
|
|
shows that your people here are different from the others--
|
|
not that they're worse. You don't seem to realize:
|
|
Octavius, so far as the Methodists are concerned,
|
|
is twenty or thirty years behind the times. Now that has
|
|
its advantages and its disadvantages. The church here is
|
|
tough and coarse, and full of grit, like a grindstone;
|
|
and it does ministers from other more niminy-piminy places
|
|
all sorts of good to come here once in a while and rub
|
|
themselves up against it. It scours the rust and mildew off
|
|
from their piety, and they go back singing and shouting.
|
|
But of course it's had a different effect with you.
|
|
You're razor-steel instead of scythe-steel, and the
|
|
grinding's been too rough and violent for you. But you
|
|
see what I mean. These people here really take their
|
|
primitive Methodism seriously. To them the profession
|
|
of entire sanctification is truly a genuine thing. Well,
|
|
don't you see, when people just know that they're saved,
|
|
it doesn't seem to them to matter so much what they do.
|
|
They feel that ordinary rules may well be bent and twisted
|
|
in the interest of people so supernaturally good as they are.
|
|
That's pure human nature. It's always been like that."
|
|
|
|
Theron paused in his walk to look absently at her.
|
|
"That thought," he said, in a vague, slow way, "seems to
|
|
be springing up in my path, whichever way I turn.
|
|
It oppresses me, and yet it fascinates me--this idea
|
|
that the dead men have known more than we know, done more
|
|
than we do; that there is nothing new anywhere; that--"
|
|
|
|
"Never mind the dead men," interposed Sister Soulsby.
|
|
"Just you come and sit down here. I hate to have you
|
|
straddling about the room when I'm trying to talk to you."
|
|
|
|
Theron obeyed, and as he sank into the low seat, Sister Soulsby
|
|
drew up her chair, and put her hand on his shoulder.
|
|
Her gaze rested upon his with impressive steadiness.
|
|
|
|
"And now I want to talk seriously to you, as a friend,"
|
|
she began. "You mustn't breathe to any living soul the shadow
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of a hint of this nonsense about leaving the ministry.
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I could see how you were feeling--I saw the book you were
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reading the first time I entered this room--and that made me
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like you; only I expected to find you mixing up more worldly
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gumption with your Renan. Well, perhaps I like you all the
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better for not having it--for being so delightfully fresh.
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At any rate, that made me sail in and straighten your affairs
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for you. And now, for God's sake, keep them straight.
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Just put all notions of anything else out of your head.
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Watch your chief men and women, and be friends with them.
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Keep your eye open for what they think you ought to do,
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and do it. Have your own ideas as much as you like,
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read what you like, say 'Damn' under your breath as much
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as you like, but don't let go of your job. I've knocked
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about too much, and I've seen too many promising young
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fellows cut their own throats for pure moonshine,
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not to have a right to say that."
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Theron could not be insensible to the friendly hand on
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his shoulder, or to the strenuous sincerity of the voice
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which thus adjured him.
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"Well," he said vaguely, smiling up into her earnest eyes,
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"if we agree that it IS moonshine."
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"See here!" she exclaimed, with renewed animation,
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patting his shoulder in a brisk, automatic way, to point
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the beginnings of her confidences: "I'll tell you something.
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It's about myself. I've got a religion of my own,
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and it's got just one plank in it, and that is that the time
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to separate the sheep from the goats is on Judgment Day,
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and that it can't be done a minute before."
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The young minister took in the thought, and turned it
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about in his mind, and smiled upon it.
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"And that brings me to what I'm going to tell you,"
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Sister Soulsby continued. She leaned back in her chair,
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and crossed her knees so that one well-shaped and
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artistically shod foot poised itself close to Theron's hand.
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Her eyes dwelt upon his face with an engaging candor.
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"I began life," she said, "as a girl by running
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away from a stupid home with a man that I knew was
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married already. After that, I supported myself for a
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good many years--generally, at first, on the stage.
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I've been a front-ranker in Amazon ballets, and I've
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been leading lady in comic opera companies out West.
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I've told fortunes in one room of a mining-camp hotel
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where the biggest game of faro in the Territory went
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on in another. I've been a professional clairvoyant,
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and I've been a professional medium, and I've been within
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one vote of being indicted by a grand jury, and the money
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that bought that vote was put up by the smartest and most
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famous train-gambler between Omaha and 'Frisco, a gentleman
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who died in his boots and took three sheriff's deputies
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along with him to Kingdom-Come. Now, that's MY record."
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Theron looked earnestly at her, and said nothing.
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"And now take Soulsby," she went on. "Of course I take
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it for granted there's a good deal that he has never felt
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called upon to mention. He hasn't what you may call
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a talkative temperament. But there is also a good deal
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that I do know. He's been an actor, too, and to this
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day I'd back him against Edwin Booth himself to recite
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'Clarence's Dream.' And he's been a medium, and then he
|
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was a travelling phrenologist, and for a long time he
|
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was advance agent for a British Blondes show, and when I
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first saw him he was lecturing on female diseases--
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and he had HIS little turn with a grand jury too. In fact,
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he was what you may call a regular bad old rooster."
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Again Theron suffered the pause to lapse without comment--
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save for an amorphous sort of conversation which he felt
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to be going on between his eyes and those of Sister Soulsby.
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"Well, then," she resumed, "so much for us apart.
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Now about us together. We liked each other from the start.
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We compared notes, and we found that we had both soured
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on living by fakes, and that we were tired of the road,
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and wanted to settle down and be respectable in our old age.
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We had a little money--enough to see us through a year or two.
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Soulsby had always hungered and longed to own a garden
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and raise flowers, and had never been able to stay long
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|
enough in one place to see so much as a bean-pod ripen.
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So we took a little place in a quiet country village
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down on the Southern Tier, and he planted everything
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three deep all over the place, and I bought a roomful
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of cheap good books, and we started in. We took to it
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like ducks to water for a while, and I don't say that we
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couldn't have stood it out, just doing nothing, to this
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|
very day; but as luck would have it, during the first
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winter there was a revival at the local Methodist church,
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and we went every evening--at first just to kill time,
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and then because we found we liked the noise and excitement
|
|
and general racket of the thing. After it was all
|
|
over each of us found that the other had been mighty
|
|
near going up to the rail and joining the mourners.
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|
And another thing had occurred to each of us, too--that is,
|
|
what tremendous improvements there were possible in the
|
|
way that amateur revivalist worked up his business.
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This stuck in our crops, and we figured on it all through
|
|
the winter.--Well, to make a long story short, we finally went
|
|
into the thing ourselves."
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"Tell me one thing," interposed Theron. "I'm anxious
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|
to understand it all as we go along. Were you and he
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at any time sincerely converted?--that is, I mean,
|
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genuinely convicted of sin and conscious of--you know
|
|
what I mean!"
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"Oh, bless you, yes," responded Sister Soulsby.
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"Not only once--dozens of times--I may say every time.
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We couldn't do good work if we weren't. But that's a matter
|
|
of temperament--of emotions."
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"Precisely. That was what I was getting at," explained Theron.
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"Well, then, hear what I was getting at," she went on.
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"You were talking very loudly here about frauds and
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hypocrisies and so on, a few minutes ago. Now I say
|
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that Soulsby and I do good, and that we're good fellows.
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|
Now take him, for example. There isn't a better citizen
|
|
in all Chemung County than he is, or a kindlier neighbor,
|
|
or a better or more charitable man. I've known him to stay
|
|
up a whole winter's night in a poor Irishman's stinking
|
|
and freezing stable, trying to save his cart-horse for him,
|
|
that had been seized with some sort of fit. The man's
|
|
whole livelihood, and his family's, was in that horse;
|
|
and when it died, Soulsby bought him another, and never
|
|
told even ME about it. Now that I call real piety,
|
|
if you like."
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"So do I," put in Theron, cordially.
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"And this question of fraud," pursued his companion,--
|
|
"look at it in this light. You heard us sing. Well, now,
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|
I was a singer, of course, but Soulsby hardly knew one
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|
note from another. I taught him to sing, and he went
|
|
at it patiently and diligently, like a little man.
|
|
And I invented that scheme of finding tunes which the crowd
|
|
didn't know, and so couldn't break in on and smother.
|
|
I simply took Chopin--he is full of sixths, you know--
|
|
and I got all sorts of melodies out of his waltzes and
|
|
mazurkas and nocturnes and so on, and I trained Soulsby
|
|
just to sing those sixths so as to make the harmony,
|
|
and there you are. He couldn't sing by himself any more than
|
|
a crow, but he's got those sixths of his down to a hair.
|
|
Now that's machinery, management, organization. We take
|
|
these tunes, written by a devil-may-care Pole who was living
|
|
with George Sand openly at the time, and pass 'em off
|
|
on the brethren for hymns. It's a fraud, yes; but it's
|
|
a good fraud. So they are all good frauds. I say frankly
|
|
that I'm glad that the change and the chance came to help
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|
Soulsby and me to be good frauds."
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|
|
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"And the point is that I'm to be a good fraud, too,"
|
|
commented the young minister.
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|
|
|
She had risen, and he got to his feet as well.
|
|
He instinctively sought for her hand, and pressed it warmly,
|
|
and held it in both his, with an exuberance of gratitude
|
|
and liking in his manner.
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|
|
|
Sister Soulsby danced her eyes at him with a saucy little
|
|
shake of the head. "I'm afraid you'll never make a really
|
|
GOOD fraud," she said. "You haven't got it in you.
|
|
Your intentions are all right, but your execution is
|
|
hopelessly clumsy. I came up to your bedroom there twice
|
|
while you were sick, just to say 'howdy,' and you kept
|
|
your eyes shut, and all the while a blind horse could
|
|
have told that you were wide awake."
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"I must have thought it was my wife," said Theron.
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PART III
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CHAPTER XVIII
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When the lingering dusk finally settled down upon this
|
|
long summer evening, the train bearing the Soulsbys
|
|
homeward was already some score of miles on its way,
|
|
and the Methodists of Octavius had nearly finished their
|
|
weekly prayer-meeting.
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|
|
|
After the stirring events of the revival, it was only
|
|
to be expected that this routine, home-made affair
|
|
should suffer from a reaction. The attendance was larger
|
|
than usual, perhaps, but the proceedings were spiritless
|
|
and tame. Neither the pastor nor his wife was present
|
|
at the beginning, and the class-leader upon whom control
|
|
devolved made but feeble headway against the spell of
|
|
inertia which the hot night-air laid upon the gathering.
|
|
Long pauses intervened between the perfunctory
|
|
praise-offerings and supplications, and the hymns weariedly
|
|
raised from time to time fell again in languor by the wayside.
|
|
|
|
Alice came in just as people were beginning to hope
|
|
that some one would start the Doxology, and bring matters
|
|
to a close. Her appearance apparently suggested this
|
|
to the class-leader, for in a few moments the meeting
|
|
had been dismissed, and some of the members, on their
|
|
way out, were shaking hands with their minister's wife,
|
|
and expressing the polite hope that he was better.
|
|
The worried look in her face, and the obvious stains
|
|
of recent tears upon her cheeks imparted an added point
|
|
and fervor to these inquiries, but she replied to all in
|
|
tones of studied tranquillity that, although not feeling
|
|
well enough to attend prayer-meeting, Brother Ware was
|
|
steadily recovering strength, and confidently expected
|
|
to be in complete health by Sunday. They left her,
|
|
and could hardly wait to get into the vestibule to ask
|
|
one another in whispers what on earth she could have been
|
|
crying about.
|
|
|
|
Meanwhile Brother Ware improved his convalescent state
|
|
by pacing slowly up and down under the elms on the side
|
|
of the street opposite the Catholic church. There were
|
|
no houses here for a block and more; the sidewalk was
|
|
broken in many places, so that passers-by avoided it;
|
|
the overhanging boughs shrouded it all in obscurity;
|
|
it was preeminently a place to be alone in.
|
|
|
|
Theron had driven to the depot with his guests an hour before,
|
|
and after a period of pleasant waiting on the platform,
|
|
had said good-bye to them as the train moved away.
|
|
Then he turned to Alice, who had also accompanied them
|
|
in the carriage, and was conscious of a certain annoyance
|
|
at her having come. That long familiar talk of the
|
|
afternoon had given him the feeling that he was entitled
|
|
to bid farewell to Sister Soulsby--to both the Soulsbys--
|
|
by himself.
|
|
|
|
"I am afraid folks will think it strange--neither of us
|
|
attending the prayer-meeting," he said, with a suggestion
|
|
of reproof in his tone, as they left the station-yard.
|
|
|
|
"If we get back in time, I'll run in for a minute,"
|
|
answered Alice, with docility.
|
|
|
|
"No--no," he broke in. "I'm not equal to walking so fast.
|
|
You run on ahead, and explain matters, and I will come
|
|
along slowly."
|
|
|
|
"The hack we came in is still there in the yard,"
|
|
the wife suggested. "We could drive home in that.
|
|
I don't believe it would cost more than a quarter--
|
|
and if you're feeling badly--"
|
|
|
|
"But I am NOT feeling badly," Theron replied,
|
|
with frank impatience. "Only I feel--I feel
|
|
that being alone with my thoughts would be good for me."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, certainly--by all means!" Alice had said, and turned
|
|
sharply on her heel.
|
|
|
|
Being alone with these thoughts, Theron strolled aimlessly about,
|
|
and did not think at all. The shadows gathered, and fireflies
|
|
began to disclose their tiny gleams among the shrubbery
|
|
in the gardens. A lamp-lighter came along, and passed him,
|
|
leaving in his wake a straggling double line of lights,
|
|
glowing radiantly against the black-green of the trees.
|
|
This recalled to Theron that he had heard that the town
|
|
council lit the street lamps by the almanac, and economized
|
|
gas when moonshine was due. The idea struck him as droll,
|
|
and he dwelt upon it in various aspects, smiling at some
|
|
of its comic possibilities. Looking up in the middle
|
|
of one of these whimsical conceits, the sportive impulse
|
|
died suddenly within him. He realized that it was dark,
|
|
and that the massive black bulk reared against the sky
|
|
on the other side of the road was the Catholic church.
|
|
The other fact, that he had been there walking to and
|
|
fro for some time, was borne in upon him more slowly.
|
|
He turned, and resumed the pacing up and down with a
|
|
still more leisurely step, musing upon the curious way
|
|
in which people's minds all unconsciously follow about
|
|
where instincts and intuitions lead.
|
|
|
|
No doubt it was what Sister Soulsby had said about
|
|
Catholics which had insensibly guided his purposeless
|
|
stroll in this direction. What a woman that was!
|
|
Somehow the purport of her talk--striking, and even
|
|
astonishing as he had found it--did not stand out so clearly
|
|
in his memory as did the image of the woman herself.
|
|
She must have been extremely pretty once. For that
|
|
matter she still was a most attractive-looking woman.
|
|
It had been a genuine pleasure to have her in the house--
|
|
to see her intelligent responsive face at the table--
|
|
to have it in one's power to make drafts at will upon
|
|
the fund of sympathy and appreciation, of facile mirth
|
|
and ready tenderness in those big eyes of hers. He liked
|
|
that phrase she had used about herself--"a good fellow."
|
|
It seemed to fit her to a "t." And Soulsby was a good
|
|
fellow too. All at once it occurred to him to wonder whether
|
|
they were married or not.
|
|
|
|
But really that was no affair of his, he reflected.
|
|
A citizen of the intellectual world should be above
|
|
soiling his thoughts with mean curiosities of that sort,
|
|
and he drove the impertinent query down again under the
|
|
surface of his mind. He refused to tolerate, as well,
|
|
sundry vagrant imaginings which rose to cluster about and
|
|
literalize the romance of her youth which Sister Soulsby
|
|
had so frankly outlined. He would think upon nothing
|
|
but her as he knew her,--the kindly, quick-witted, capable
|
|
and charming woman who had made such a brilliant break
|
|
in the monotony of life at that dull parsonage of his.
|
|
The only genuine happiness in life must consist in having
|
|
bright, smart, attractive women like that always about.
|
|
|
|
The lights were visible now in the upper rooms of Father Forbes'
|
|
pastorate across the way. Theron paused for a second to
|
|
consider whether he wanted to go over and call on the priest.
|
|
He decided that mentally he was too fagged and flat for such
|
|
an undertaking. He needed another sort of companionship--
|
|
some restful, soothing human contact, which should exact
|
|
nothing from him in return, but just take charge of him,
|
|
with soft, wise words and pleasant plays of fancy,
|
|
and jokes and--and--something of the general effect created
|
|
by Sister Soulsby's eyes. The thought expanded itself,
|
|
and he saw that he had never realized before--nay,
|
|
never dreamt before--what a mighty part the comradeship
|
|
of talented, sweet-natured and beautiful women must
|
|
play in the development of genius, the achievement
|
|
of lofty aims, out in the great world of great men.
|
|
To know such women--ah, that would never fall to his hapless lot.
|
|
|
|
The priest's lamps blinked at him through the trees.
|
|
He remembered that priests were supposed to be even further
|
|
removed from the possibilities of such contact than he
|
|
was himself. His memory reverted to that horribly ugly old
|
|
woman whom Father Forbes had spoken of as his housekeeper.
|
|
Life under the same roof with such a hag must be even
|
|
worse than--worse than--
|
|
|
|
The young minister did not finish the comparison, even in the
|
|
privacy of his inner soul. He stood instead staring over
|
|
at the pastorate, in a kind of stupor of arrested thought.
|
|
The figure of a woman passed in view at the nearest window--
|
|
a tall figure with pale summer clothes of some sort,
|
|
and a broad summer hat--a flitting effect of diaphanous
|
|
shadow between him and the light which streamed from
|
|
the casement.
|
|
|
|
Theron felt a little shiver run over him, as if the delicate
|
|
coolness of the changing night-air had got into his blood.
|
|
The window was open, and his strained hearing thought
|
|
it caught the sound of faint laughter. He continued
|
|
to gaze at the place where the vision had appeared,
|
|
the while a novel and strange perception unfolded itself
|
|
upon his mind.
|
|
|
|
He had come there in the hope of encountering Celia Madden.
|
|
|
|
Now that he looked this fact in the face, there was nothing
|
|
remarkable about it. In truth, it was simplicity itself.
|
|
He was still a sick man, weak in body and dejected in spirits.
|
|
The thought of how unhappy and unstrung he was came to him
|
|
now with an insistent pathos that brought tears to his eyes.
|
|
He was only obeying the universal law of nature--the law
|
|
which prompts the pallid spindling sprout of the potato
|
|
in the cellar to strive feebly toward the light.
|
|
|
|
From where he stood in the darkness he stretched
|
|
out his hands in the direction of that open window.
|
|
The gesture was his confession to the overhanging boughs,
|
|
to the soft night-breeze, to the stars above--and it
|
|
bore back to him something of the confessional's vague
|
|
and wistful solace. He seemed already to have drawn
|
|
down into his soul a taste of the refreshment it craved.
|
|
He sighed deeply, and the hot moisture smarted again upon
|
|
his eyelids, but this time not all in grief. With his
|
|
tender compassion for himself there mingled now a flutter
|
|
of buoyant prescience, of exquisite expectancy.
|
|
|
|
Fate walked abroad this summer night. The street door
|
|
of the pastorate opened, and in the flood of illumination
|
|
which spread suddenly forth over the steps and sidewalk,
|
|
Theron saw again the tall form, with the indefinitely
|
|
light-hued flowing garments and the wide straw hat.
|
|
He heard a tuneful woman's voice call out "Good-night, Maggie,"
|
|
and caught no response save the abrupt closing of the door,
|
|
which turned everything black again with a bang.
|
|
He listened acutely for another instant, and then with long,
|
|
noiseless strides made his way down his deserted side
|
|
of the street. He moderated his pace as he turned
|
|
to cross the road at the corner, and then, still masked
|
|
by the trees, halted altogether, in a momentary tumult
|
|
of apprehension. No--yes--it was all right. The girl
|
|
sauntered out from the total darkness into the dim starlight
|
|
of the open corner.
|
|
|
|
"Why, bless me, is that you, Miss Madden?"
|
|
|
|
Celia seemed to discern readily enough, through the
|
|
accents of surprise, the identity of the tall, slim man
|
|
who addressed her from the shadows.
|
|
|
|
"Good-evening, Mr. Ware," she said, with prompt affability.
|
|
"I'm so glad to find you out again. We heard you were ill."
|
|
|
|
"I have been very ill," responded Theron, as they
|
|
shook hands and walked on together. He added, with a
|
|
quaver in his voice, "I am still far from strong.
|
|
I really ought not to be out at all. But--but the
|
|
longing for--for--well, I COULDN'T stay in any longer.
|
|
Even if it kills me, I shall be glad I came out tonight."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, we won't talk of killing," said Celia. "I don't
|
|
believe in illnesses myself"
|
|
|
|
"But you believe in collapses of the nerves," put in Theron,
|
|
with gentle sadness, "in moral and spiritual and mental
|
|
breakdowns. I remember how I was touched by the way you
|
|
told me YOU suffered from them. I had to take what you said
|
|
then for granted. I had had no experience of it myself.
|
|
But now I know what it is." He drew a long, pathetic sigh.
|
|
"Oh, DON'T I know what it is!" he repeated gloomily.
|
|
|
|
"Come, my friend, cheer up," Celia purred at him,
|
|
in soothing tones. He felt that there was a deliciously
|
|
feminine and sisterly intuition in her speech,
|
|
and in the helpful, nurse-like way in which she drew
|
|
his arm through hers. He leaned upon this support,
|
|
and was glad of it in every fibre of his being.
|
|
|
|
"Do you remember? You promised--that last time I saw you--
|
|
to play for me," he reminded her. They were passing
|
|
the little covered postern door at the side and rear of
|
|
the church as he spoke, and he made a half halt to point
|
|
the coincidence.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, there's no one to blow the organ," she said,
|
|
divining his suggestion. "And I haven't the key--
|
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and, besides, the organ is too heavy and severe
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for an invalid. It would overwhelm you tonight."
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"Not as you would know how to play it for me,"
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urged Theron, pensively. "I feel as if good music to-night
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would make me well again. I am really very ill and weak--
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and unhappy!"
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The girl seemed moved by the despairing note in his voice.
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She invited him by a sympathetic gesture to lean even more
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directly on her arm.
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"Come home with me, and I'll play Chopin to you," she said,
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in compassionate friendliness. "He is the real medicine
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for bruised and wounded nerves. You shall have as much
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of him as you like."
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The idea thus unexpectedly thrown forth spread itself
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like some vast and inexpressibly alluring vista before
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Theron's imagination. The spice of adventure in it
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fascinated his mind as well, but for a shrinking moment
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the flesh was weak.
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"I'm afraid your people would--would think it strange,"
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he faltered--and began also to recall that he had some
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people of his own who would be even more amazed.
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"Nonsense," said Celia, in fine, bold confidence, and with
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a reassuring pressure on his arm. "I allow none of my
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people to question what I do. They never dream of such
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a preposterous thing. Besides, you will see none of them.
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Mrs. Madden is at the seaside, and my father and brother
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have their own part of the house. I shan't listen for
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a minute to your not coming. Come, I'm your doctor.
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I'm to make you well again."
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There was further conversation, and Theron more or less
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knew that he was bearing a part in it, but his whole
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mind seemed concentrated, in a sort of delicious terror,
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upon the wonderful experience to which every footstep
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brought him nearer. His magnetized fancy pictured a great
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spacious parlor, such as a mansion like the Maddens'
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would of course contain, and there would be a grand piano,
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and lace curtains, and paintings in gold frames,
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and a chandelier, and velvet easy-chairs, and he would sit
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in one of these, surrounded by all the luxury of the rich,
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while Celia played to him. There would be servants about,
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he presumed, and very likely they would recognize him,
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and of course they would talk about it to Tom, Dick and
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Harry afterward. But he said to himself defiantly that he
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didn't care.
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He withdrew his arm from hers as they came upon the
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well-lighted main street. He passed no one who seemed
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to know him. Presently they came to the Madden place,
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and Celia, without waiting for the gravelled walk,
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struck obliquely across the lawn. Theron, who had been
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lagging behind with a certain circumspection, stepped
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briskly to her side now. Their progress over the soft,
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close-cropped turf in the dark together, with the scent
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of lilies and perfumed shrubs heavy on the night air,
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and the majestic bulk of the big silent house rising
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among the trees before them, gave him a thrilling sense
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of the glory of individual freedom.
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"I feel a new man already," he declared, as they swung
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along on the grass. He breathed a long sigh of content,
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and drew nearer, so that their shoulders touched now
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and again as they walked. In a minute more they were
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standing on the doorstep, and Theron heard the significant
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jingle of a bunch of keys which his companion was groping
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for in her elusive pocket. He was conscious of trembling
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a little at the sound.
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It seemed that, unlike other people, the Maddens did
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not have their parlor on the ground-floor, opening off
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the front hall. Theron stood in the complete darkness
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of this hall, till Celia had lit one of several candles
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which were in their hand-sticks on a sort of sideboard
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next the hat-rack. She beckoned him with a gesture
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of her head, and he followed her up a broad staircase,
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magnificent in its structural appointments of inlaid woods,
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and carpeted with what to his feet felt like down.
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The tiny light which his guide bore before her half revealed,
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as they passed in their ascent, tall lengths of tapestry,
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and the dull glint of armor and brazen discs in shadowed
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niches on the nearer wall. Over the stair-rail lay an open
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space of such stately dimensions, bounded by terminal lines
|
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of decoration so distant in the faint candle-flicker,
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that the young country minister could think of no word
|
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but "palatial" to fit it all.
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At the head of the flight, Celia led the way along a wide
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corridor to where it ended. Here, stretched from side to side,
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and suspended from broad hoops of a copper-like metal,
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was a thick curtain, of a uniform color which Theron at
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first thought was green, and then decided must be blue.
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She pushed its heavy folds aside, and unlocked another door.
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He passed under the curtain behind her, and closed
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the door.
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The room into which he had made his way was not at all
|
|
after the fashion of any parlor he had ever seen. In the
|
|
obscure light it was difficult to tell what it resembled.
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|
He made out what he took to be a painter's easel,
|
|
standing forth independently in the centre of things.
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There were rows of books on rude, low shelves.
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|
Against one of the two windows was a big, flat writing-table--
|
|
or was it a drawing-table?--littered with papers.
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|
Under the other window was a carpenter's bench, with a large
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mound of something at one end covered with a white cloth.
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|
On a table behind the easel rose a tall mechanical contrivance,
|
|
the chief feature of which was a thick upright spiral screw.
|
|
The floor was of bare wood stained brown. The walls of this
|
|
queer room had photographs and pictures, taken apparently
|
|
from illustrated papers, pinned up at random for their
|
|
only ornament.
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|
Celia had lighted three or four other candles on the mantel.
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She caught the dumfounded expression with which her
|
|
guest was surveying his surroundings, and gave a merry
|
|
little laugh.
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"This is my workshop," she explained. "I keep this
|
|
for the things I do badly--things I fool with. If I want
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|
to paint, or model in clay, or bind books, or write,
|
|
or draw, or turn on the lathe, or do some carpentering,
|
|
here's where I do it. All the things that make a mess
|
|
which has to be cleaned up--they are kept out here--
|
|
because this is as far as the servants are allowed
|
|
to come."
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She unlocked still another door as she spoke--a door
|
|
which was also concealed behind a curtain.
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"Now," she said, holding up the candle so that its reddish
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flare rounded with warmth the creamy fulness of her chin
|
|
and throat, and glowed upon her hair in a flame of orange
|
|
light--"now I will show you what is my very own."
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CHAPTER XIX
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Theron Ware looked about him with frankly undisguised astonishment.
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The room in which he found himself was so dark at first
|
|
that it yielded little to the eye, and that little seemed
|
|
altogether beyond his comprehension. His gaze helplessly
|
|
followed Celia and her candle about as she busied herself
|
|
in the work of illumination. When she had finished,
|
|
and pinched out the taper, there were seven lights in
|
|
the apartment--lights beaming softly through half-opaque
|
|
alternating rectangles of blue and yellow glass. They must
|
|
be set in some sort of lanterns around against the wall,
|
|
he thought, but the shape of these he could hardly make out.
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|
Gradually his sight adapted itself to this subdued light,
|
|
and he began to see other things. These queer lamps
|
|
were placed, apparently, so as to shed a special radiance
|
|
upon some statues which stood in the corners of the chamber,
|
|
and upon some pictures which were embedded in the walls.
|
|
Theron noted that the statues, the marble of which lost
|
|
its aggressive whiteness under the tinted lights,
|
|
were mostly of naked men and women; the pictures, four or
|
|
five in number, were all variations of a single theme--
|
|
the Virgin Mary and the Child.
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A less untutored vision than his would have caught
|
|
more swiftly the scheme of color and line in which
|
|
these works of art bore their share. The walls of
|
|
the room were in part of flat upright wooden columns,
|
|
terminating high above in simple capitals, and they were
|
|
all painted in pale amber and straw and primrose hues,
|
|
irregularly wavering here and there toward suggestions
|
|
of white. Between these pilasters were broader panels of
|
|
stamped leather, in gently varying shades of peacock blue.
|
|
These contrasted colors vaguely interwove and mingled
|
|
in what he could see of the shadowed ceiling far above.
|
|
They were repeated in the draperies and huge cushions
|
|
and pillows of the low, wide divan which ran about
|
|
three sides of the room. Even the floor, where it
|
|
revealed itself among the scattered rugs, was laid in a
|
|
mosaic pattern of matched woods, which, like the rugs,
|
|
gave back these same shifting blues and uncertain yellows.
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|
The fourth side of the apartment was broken in outline
|
|
at one end by the door through which they had entered,
|
|
and at the other by a broad, square opening,
|
|
hung with looped-back curtains of a thin silken stuff.
|
|
Between the two apertures rose against the wall what
|
|
Theron took at first glance to be an altar. There were
|
|
pyramidal rows of tall candles here on either side,
|
|
each masked with a little silken hood; below, in the centre,
|
|
a shelf-like projection supported what seemed a massive,
|
|
carved casket, and in the beautiful intricacies of this,
|
|
and the receding canopy of delicate ornamentation
|
|
which depended above it, the dominant color was white,
|
|
deepening away in its shadows, by tenderly minute gradations,
|
|
to the tints which ruled the rest of the room.
|
|
|
|
Celia lighted some of the high, thick tapers in these candelabra,
|
|
and opened the top of the casket. Theron saw with
|
|
surprise that she had uncovered the keyboard of a piano.
|
|
He viewed with much greater amazement her next proceeding--
|
|
which was to put a cigarette between her lips, and,
|
|
bending over one of the candles with it for an instant,
|
|
turn to him with a filmy, opalescent veil of smoke above her head.
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|
"Make yourself comfortable anywhere," she said, with a
|
|
gesture which comprehended all the divans and pillows
|
|
in the place. "Will you smoke?"
|
|
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|
"I have never tried since I was a little boy," said Theron,
|
|
"but I think I could. If you don't mind, I should like
|
|
to see."
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|
|
|
Lounging at his ease on the oriental couch, Theron
|
|
experimented cautiously upon the unaccustomed tobacco,
|
|
and looked at Celia with what he felt to be the confident
|
|
quiet of a man of the world. She had thrown aside
|
|
her hat, and in doing so had half released some of the
|
|
heavy strands of hair coiled at the back of her head.
|
|
His glance instinctively rested upon this wonderful hair
|
|
of hers. There was no mistaking the sudden fascination
|
|
its disorder had for his eye.
|
|
|
|
She stood before him with the cigarette poised daintily
|
|
between thumb and finger of a shapely hand, and smiled
|
|
comprehendingly down on her guest.
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|
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|
"I suffered the horrors of the damned with this hair
|
|
of mine when I was a child," she said. "I daresay
|
|
all children have a taste for persecuting red-heads;
|
|
but it's a specialty with Irish children. They get hold
|
|
somehow of an ancient national superstition, or legend,
|
|
that red hair was brought into Ireland by the Danes.
|
|
It's been a term of reproach with us since Brian Boru's time
|
|
to call a child a Dane. I used to be pursued and baited
|
|
with it every day of my life, until the one dream of my
|
|
ambition was to get old enough to be a Sister of Charity,
|
|
so that I might hide my hair under one of their big
|
|
beastly white linen caps. I've got rather away from that
|
|
ideal since, I'm afraid," she added, with a droll downward
|
|
curl of her lip.
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|
|
|
"Your hair is very beautiful," said Theron, in the calm
|
|
tone of a connoisseur.
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|
|
|
"I like it myself," Celia admitted, and blew a little
|
|
smoke-ring toward him. "I've made this whole room
|
|
to match it. The colors, I mean," she explained,
|
|
in deference to his uplifted brows. "Between us, we make
|
|
up what Whistler would call a symphony. That reminds me--
|
|
I was going to play for you. Let me finish the cigarette first."
|
|
|
|
Theron felt grateful for her reticence about the fact
|
|
that he had laid his own aside. "I have never seen
|
|
a room at all like this," he remarked. You are right;
|
|
it does fit you perfectly."
|
|
|
|
She nodded her sense of his appreciation. "It is what
|
|
I like," she said. "It expresses ME. I will not have
|
|
anything about me--or anybody either--that I don't like.
|
|
I suppose if an old Greek could see it, it would make
|
|
him sick, but it represents what I mean by being a Greek.
|
|
It is as near as an Irishman can get to it."
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|
|
|
"I remember your puzzling me by saying that you were
|
|
a Greek."
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|
|
|
Celia laughed, and tossed the cigarette-end away.
|
|
"I'd puzzle you more, I'm afraid, if I tried to explain
|
|
to you what I really meant by it. I divide people
|
|
up into two classes, you know--Greeks and Jews.
|
|
Once you get hold of that principle, all other divisions
|
|
and classifications, such as by race or language
|
|
or nationality, seem pure foolishness. It is the only
|
|
true division there is. It is just as true among negroes
|
|
or wild Indians who never heard of Greece or Jerusalem,
|
|
as it is among white folks. That is the beauty of it.
|
|
It works everywhere, always."
|
|
|
|
"Try it on me," urged Theron, with a twinkling eye.
|
|
"Which am I?"
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|
|
|
"Both," said the girl, with a merry nod of the head.
|
|
"But now I'll play. I told you you were to hear Chopin.
|
|
I prescribe him for you. He is the Greekiest of the Greeks.
|
|
THERE was a nation where all the people were artists,
|
|
where everybody was an intellectual aristocrat, where the
|
|
Philistine was as unknown, as extinct, as the dodo.
|
|
Chopin might have written his music for them."
|
|
|
|
"I am interested in Shopang," put in Theron, suddenly recalling
|
|
Sister Soulsby's confidences as to the source of her tunes.
|
|
"He lived with--what's his name--George something.
|
|
We were speaking about him only this afternoon."
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|
|
Celia looked down into her visitor's face at first
|
|
inquiringly, then with a latent grin about her lips.
|
|
"Yes--George something," she said, in a tone which mystified him.
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|
|
|
The Rev. Mr. Ware was sitting up, a minute afterward,
|
|
in a ferment of awakened consciousness that he had
|
|
never heard the piano played before. After a little,
|
|
he noiselessly rearranged the cushions, and settled himself
|
|
again in a recumbent posture. It was beyond his strength
|
|
to follow that first impulse, and keep his mind abreast
|
|
with what his ears took in. He sighed and lay back,
|
|
and surrendered his senses to the mere unthinking charm
|
|
of it all.
|
|
|
|
It was the Fourth Prelude that was singing in the air
|
|
about him--a simple, plaintive strain wandering at will
|
|
over a surface of steady rhythmic movement underneath,
|
|
always creeping upward through mysteries of sweetness,
|
|
always sinking again in cadences of semi-tones. With
|
|
only a moment's pause, there came the Seventh Waltz--
|
|
a rich, bold confusion which yet was not confused.
|
|
Theron's ears dwelt with eager delight upon the chasing
|
|
medley of swift, tinkling sounds, but it left his
|
|
thoughts free.
|
|
|
|
From where he reclined, he turned his head to scrutinize,
|
|
one by one, the statues in the corners. No doubt they
|
|
were beautiful--for this was a department in which he
|
|
was all humility--and one of them, the figure of a
|
|
broad-browed, stately, though thick-waisted woman,
|
|
bending slightly forward and with both arms broken off,
|
|
was decently robed from the hips downward. The others were
|
|
not robed at all. Theron stared at them with the erratic,
|
|
rippling jangle of the waltz in his ears, and felt that he
|
|
possessed a new and disturbing conception of what female
|
|
emancipation meant in these later days. Roving along
|
|
the wall, his glance rested again upon the largest of the
|
|
Virgin pictures--a full-length figure in sweeping draperies,
|
|
its radiant, aureoled head upturned in rapt adoration,
|
|
its feet resting on a crescent moon which shone forth
|
|
in bluish silver through festooned clouds of cherubs.
|
|
The incongruity between the unashamed statues and this
|
|
serene incarnation of holy womanhood jarred upon him for
|
|
the instant. Then his mind went to the piano.
|
|
|
|
Without a break the waltz had slowed and expanded into
|
|
a passage of what might be church music, an exquisitely
|
|
modulated and gently solemn chant, through which a soft,
|
|
lingering song roved capriciously, forcing the listener
|
|
to wonder where it was coming out, even while it caressed
|
|
and soothed to repose.
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|
|
He looked from the Madonna to Celia. Beyond the carelessly
|
|
drooping braids and coils of hair which blazed between
|
|
the candles, he could see the outline of her brow
|
|
and cheek, the noble contour of her lifted chin and full,
|
|
modelled throat, all pink as the most delicate rose leaf
|
|
is pink, against the cool lights of the altar-like wall.
|
|
The sight convicted him in the court of his own soul
|
|
as a prurient and mean-minded rustic. In the presence
|
|
of such a face, of such music, there ceased to be any such
|
|
thing as nudity, and statues no more needed clothes than
|
|
did those slow, deep, magnificent chords which came now,
|
|
gravely accumulating their spell upon him.
|
|
|
|
"It is all singing!" the player called out to him over
|
|
her shoulder, in a minute of rest. "That is what Chopin does--
|
|
he sings!"
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|
|
She began, with an effect of thinking of something else,
|
|
the Sixth Nocturne, and Theron at first thought she was not
|
|
playing anything in particular, so deliberately, haltingly,
|
|
did the chain of charm unwind itself into sequence.
|
|
Then it came closer to him than the others had done.
|
|
The dreamy, wistful, meditative beauty of it all at once
|
|
oppressed and inspired him. He saw Celia's shoulders sway
|
|
under the impulse of the RUBATO license--the privilege
|
|
to invest each measure with the stress of the whole,
|
|
to loiter, to weep, to run and laugh at will--and the
|
|
music she made spoke to him as with a human voice.
|
|
There was the wooing sense of roses and moonlight,
|
|
of perfumes, white skins, alluring languorous eyes,
|
|
and then--
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|
|
|
"You know this part, of course," he heard her say.
|
|
|
|
On the instant they had stepped from the dark, scented,
|
|
starlit garden, where the nightingale sang, into a great cathedral.
|
|
A sombre and lofty anthem arose, and filled the place
|
|
with the splendor of such dignified pomp of harmony and
|
|
such suggestions of measureless choral power and authority
|
|
that Theron sat abruptly up, then was drawn resistlessly
|
|
to his feet. He stood motionless in the strange room,
|
|
feeling most of all that one should kneel to hear such music.
|
|
|
|
"This you'll know too--the funeral march from the Second
|
|
Sonata," she was saying, before he realized that the end
|
|
of the other had come. He sank upon the divan again,
|
|
bending forward and clasping his hands tight around his knees.
|
|
His heart beat furiously as he listened to the weird,
|
|
mediaeval processional, with its wild, clashing chords
|
|
held down in the bondage of an orderly sadness.
|
|
There was a propelling motion in the thing--a sense of being
|
|
borne bodily along--which affected him like dizziness.
|
|
He breathed hard through the robust portions of stern,
|
|
vigorous noise, and rocked himself to and fro when, as rosy
|
|
morn breaks upon a storm-swept night, the drums are silenced
|
|
for the sweet, comforting strain of solitary melody.
|
|
The clanging minor harmonies into which the march relapses
|
|
came to their abrupt end. Theron rose once more,
|
|
and moved with a hesitating step to the piano.
|
|
|
|
"I want to rest a little," he said, with his hand
|
|
on her shoulder.
|
|
|
|
"Whew! so do I," exclaimed Celia, letting her hands fall
|
|
with an exaggerated gesture of weariness. "The sonatas take
|
|
it out of one! They are hideously difficult, you know.
|
|
They are rarely played."
|
|
|
|
"I didn't know," remarked Theron. She seemed not to mind
|
|
his hand upon her shoulder, and he kept it there.
|
|
"I didn't know anything about music at all. What I do know
|
|
now is that--that this evening is an event in my life."
|
|
|
|
She looked up at him and smiled. He read unsuspected
|
|
tendernesses and tolerances of friendship in the depths
|
|
of her eyes, which emboldened him to stir the fingers
|
|
of that audacious hand in a lingering, caressing trill
|
|
upon her shoulder. The movement was of the faintest,
|
|
but having ventured it, he drew his hand abruptly away.
|
|
|
|
"You are getting on," she said to him. There was an
|
|
enigmatic twinkle in the smile with which she continued
|
|
to regard him. "We are Hellenizing you at a great rate."
|
|
|
|
A sudden thought seemed to strike her. She shifted
|
|
her eyes toward vacancy with a swift, abstracted glance,
|
|
reflected for a moment, then let a sparkling half-wink
|
|
and the dimpling beginnings of an almost roguish smile
|
|
mark her assent to the conceit, whatever it might be.
|
|
|
|
"I will be with you in a moment," he heard her say;
|
|
and while the words were still in his ears she had risen
|
|
and passed out of sight through the broad, open doorway
|
|
to the right. The looped curtains fell together behind her.
|
|
Presently a mellow light spread over their delicately
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translucent surface--a creamy, undulating radiance which
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gave the effect of moving about among the myriad folds
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of the silk.
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Theron gazed at these curtains for a little, then straightened
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his shoulders with a gesture of decision, and, turning on his heel,
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went over and examined the statues in the further corners minutely.
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"If you would like some more, I will play you the Berceuse now."
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Her voice came to him with a delicious shock.
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He wheeled round and beheld her standing at the piano,
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with one hand resting, palm upward, on the keys. She was
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facing him. Her tall form was robed now in some shapeless,
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clinging drapery, lustrous and creamy and exquisitely soft,
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like the curtains. The wonderful hair hung free and luxuriant
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about her neck and shoulders, and glowed with an intensity
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of fiery color which made all the other hues of the room
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pale and vague. A fillet of faint, sky-like blue drew
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a gracious span through the flame of red above her temples,
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and from this there rose the gleam of jewels. Her head
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inclined gently, gravely, toward him--with the posture
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of that armless woman in marble he had been studying--
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and her brown eyes, regarding him from the shadows,
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emitted light.
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"It is a lullaby--the only one he wrote," she said, as Theron,
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pale-faced and with tightened lips, approached her.
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"No--you mustn't stand there," she added, sinking into
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the seat before the instrument; "go back and sit where
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you were."
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The most perfect of lullabies, with its swaying
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abandonment to cooing rhythm, ever and again rising
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in ripples to the point of insisting on something,
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one knows not what, and then rocking, melting away
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once more, passed, so to speak, over Theron's head.
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He leaned back upon the cushions, and watched the white,
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rounded forearm which the falling folds of this strange,
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statue-like drapery made bare.
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There was more that appealed to his mood in the Third Ballade.
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It seemed to him that there were words going along with it--
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incoherent and impulsive yet very earnest words,
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appealing to him in strenuous argument and persuasion.
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Each time he almost knew what they said, and strained after
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their meaning with a passionate desire, and then there
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would come a kind of cuckoo call, and everything would
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swing dancing off again into a mockery of inconsequence.
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Upon the silence there fell the pure, liquid, mellifluous
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melody of a soft-throated woman singing to her lover.
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"It is like Heine--simply a love-poem," said the girl,
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over her shoulder.
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Theron followed now with all his senses, as she carried
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the Ninth Nocturne onward. The stormy passage, which she
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banged finely forth, was in truth a lover's quarrel;
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and then the mild, placid flow of sweet harmonies into
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which the furore sank, dying languorously away upon
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a silence all alive with tender memories of sound--
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was that not also a part of love?
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They sat motionless through a minute--the man on the divan,
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the girl at the piano--and Theron listened for what he
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felt must be the audible thumping of his heart.
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Then, throwing back her head, with upturned face, Celia began
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what she had withheld for the last--the Sixteenth Mazurka.
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This strange foreign thing she played with her eyes closed,
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her head tilted obliquely so that Theron could see the
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rose-tinted, beautiful countenance, framed as if asleep
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|
in the billowing luxuriance of unloosed auburn hair.
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He fancied her beholding visions as she wrought the music--
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visions full of barbaric color and romantic forms.
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As his mind swam along with the gliding, tricksy phantom
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of a tune, it seemed as if he too could see these visions--
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as if he gazed at them through her eyes.
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It could not be helped. He lifted himself noiselessly to
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his feet, and stole with caution toward her. He would hear
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the rest of this weird, voluptuous fantasy standing thus,
|
|
so close behind her that he could look down upon her full,
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uplifted lace--so close that, if she moved, that glowing
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nimbus of hair would touch him.
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|
There had been some curious and awkward pauses in this
|
|
last piece, which Theron, by some side cerebration,
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|
had put down to her not watching what her fingers did.
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|
There came another of these pauses now--an odd,
|
|
unaccountable halt in what seemed the middle of everything.
|
|
He stared intently down upon her statuesque, dreaming face
|
|
during the hush, and caught his breath as he waited.
|
|
There fell at last a few faltering ascending notes,
|
|
making a half-finished strain, and then again there
|
|
was silence.
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|
|
|
Celia opened her eyes, and poured a direct, deep gaze
|
|
into the face above hers. Its pale lips were parted
|
|
in suspense, and the color had faded from its cheeks.
|
|
|
|
"That is the end," she said, and, with a turn of her lithe body,
|
|
stood swiftly up, even while the echoes of the broken
|
|
melody seemed panting in the air about her for completion.
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|
|
|
Theron put his hands to his face, and pressed them tightly
|
|
against eyes and brow for an instant. Then, throwing them
|
|
aside with an expansive downward sweep of the arms,
|
|
and holding them clenched, he returned Celia's glance.
|
|
It was as if he had never looked into a woman's eyes before.
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|
|
|
"It CAN'T be the end!" he heard himself saying,
|
|
in a low voice charged with deep significance. He held
|
|
her gaze in the grasp of his with implacable tenacity.
|
|
There was a trouble about breathing, and the mosaic
|
|
floor seemed to stir under his feet. He clung defiantly
|
|
to the one idea of not releasing her eyes.
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|
|
|
"How COULD it be the end?" he demanded, lifting an uncertain
|
|
hand to his breast as he spoke, and spreading it there
|
|
as if to control the tumultuous fluttering of his heart.
|
|
"Things don't end that way!"
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|
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|
A sharp, blinding spasm of giddiness closed upon and
|
|
shook him, while the brave words were on his lips.
|
|
He blinked and tottered under it, as it passed, and then
|
|
backed humbly to his divan and sat down, gasping a little,
|
|
and patting his hand on his heart. There was fright
|
|
written all over his whitened face.
|
|
|
|
"We--we forgot that I am a sick man," he said feebly,
|
|
answering Celia's look of surprised inquiry with a forced,
|
|
wan smile. "I was afraid my heart had gone wrong."
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|
|
She scrutinized him for a further moment, with growing
|
|
reassurance in her air. Then, piling up the pillows
|
|
and cushions behind him for support, for all the world
|
|
like a big sister again, she stepped into the inner room,
|
|
and returned with a flagon of quaint shape and a tiny glass.
|
|
She poured this latter full to the brim of a thick yellowish,
|
|
aromatic liquid, and gave it him to drink.
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|
|
|
"This Benedictine is all I happen to have," she said.
|
|
"Swallow it down. It will do you good."
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|
|
|
Theron obeyed her. It brought tears to his eyes; but,
|
|
upon reflection, it was grateful and warming. He did feel
|
|
better almost immediately. A great wave of comfort seemed
|
|
to enfold him as he settled himself back on the divan.
|
|
For that one flashing instant he had thought that he
|
|
was dying. He drew a long grateful breath of relief,
|
|
and smiled his content.
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|
|
|
Celia had seated herself beside him, a little away.
|
|
She sat with her head against the wall, and one foot curled
|
|
under her, and almost faced him.
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|
|
|
"I dare say we forced the pace a little," she remarked,
|
|
after a pause, looking down at the floor, with the puckers
|
|
of a ruminating amusement playing in the corners of her mouth.
|
|
"It doesn't do for a man to get to be a Greek all of a sudden.
|
|
He must work along up to it gradually."
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|
|
|
He remembered the music. "Oh, if I only knew how to tell you,"
|
|
he murmured ecstatically, "what a revelation your playing
|
|
has been to me! I had never imagined anything like it.
|
|
I shall think of it to my dying day."
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|
|
|
He began to remember as well the spirit that was in the air
|
|
when the music ended. The details of what he had felt
|
|
and said rose vaguely in his mind. Pondering them,
|
|
his eye roved past Celia's white-robed figure to the broad,
|
|
open doorway beyond. The curtains behind which she
|
|
had disappeared were again parted and fastened back.
|
|
A dim light was burning within, out of sight, and its faint
|
|
illumination disclosed a room filled with white marbles,
|
|
white silks, white draperies of varying sorts, which shaped
|
|
themselves, as he looked, into the canopy and trappings
|
|
of an extravagantly over-sized and sumptuous bed.
|
|
He looked away again.
|
|
|
|
"I wish you would tell me what you really mean by that Greek
|
|
idea of yours," he said with the abruptness of confusion.
|
|
|
|
Celia did not display much enthusiasm in the tone
|
|
of her answer. "Oh," she said almost indifferently,
|
|
"lots of things. Absolute freedom from moral bugbears,
|
|
for one thing. The recognition that beauty is the only
|
|
thing in life that is worth while. The courage to kick
|
|
out of one's life everything that isn't worth while;
|
|
and so on."
|
|
|
|
"But," said Theron, watching the mingled delicacy and power
|
|
of the bared arm and the shapely grace of the hand which she
|
|
had lifted to her face, "I am going to get you to teach it
|
|
ALL to me." The memories began crowding in upon him now,
|
|
and the baffling note upon which the mazurka had stopped
|
|
short chimed like a tuning-fork in his ears. "I want to
|
|
be a Greek myself, if you're one. I want to get as close
|
|
to you--to your ideal, that is, as I can. You open up
|
|
to me a whole world that I had not even dreamed existed.
|
|
We swore our friendship long ago, you know: and now,
|
|
after tonight--you and the music have decided me.
|
|
I am going to put the things out of MY life that are
|
|
not worthwhile. Only you must help me; you must tell me
|
|
how to begin."
|
|
|
|
He looked up as he spoke, to enforce the almost tender
|
|
entreaty of his words. The spectacle of a yawn,
|
|
only fractionally concealed behind those talented fingers,
|
|
chilled his soft speech, and sent a flush over his face.
|
|
He rose on the instant.
|
|
|
|
Celia was nothing abashed at his discovery. She laughed
|
|
gayly in confession of her fault, and held her hand out to
|
|
let him help her disentangle her foot from her draperies,
|
|
and get off the divan. It seemed to be her meaning that he
|
|
should continue holding her hand after she was also standing.
|
|
|
|
"You forgive me, don't you?" she urged smilingly.
|
|
"Chopin always first excites me, then sends me to sleep.
|
|
You see how YOU sleep tonight!"
|
|
|
|
The brown, velvety eyes rested upon him, from under their
|
|
heavy lids, with a languorous kindliness. Her warm,
|
|
large palm clasped his in frank liking.
|
|
|
|
"I don't want to sleep at all," Mr. Ware was impelled to say.
|
|
"I want to lie awake and think about--about everything
|
|
all over again."
|
|
|
|
She smiled drowsily. "And you're sure you feel strong
|
|
enough to walk home?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes," he replied, with a lingering dilatory note,
|
|
which deepened upon reflection into a sigh. "Oh, yes."
|
|
|
|
He followed her and her candle down the magnificent
|
|
stairway again. She blew the light out in the hall,
|
|
and, opening the front door, stood with him for a silent
|
|
moment on the threshold. Then they shook hands once more,
|
|
and with a whispered good-night, parted.
|
|
|
|
Celia, returning to the blue and yellow room, lighted a cigarette
|
|
and helped herself to some Benedictine in the glass which
|
|
Theron had used. She looked meditatively at this little glass
|
|
for a moment, turning it about in her fingers with a smile.
|
|
The smile warmed itself suddenly into a joyous laugh.
|
|
She tossed the glass aside, and, holding out her flowing
|
|
skirts with both hands, executed a swinging pirouette
|
|
in front of the gravely beautiful statue of the armless woman.
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|
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|
CHAPTER XX
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|
It was apparent to the Rev. Theron Ware, from the very
|
|
first moment of waking next morning, that both he and
|
|
the world had changed over night. The metamorphosis,
|
|
in the harsh toils of which he had been laboring blindly
|
|
so long, was accomplished. He stood forth, so to speak,
|
|
in a new skin, and looked about him, with perceptions
|
|
of quite an altered kind, upon what seemed in every way
|
|
a fresh existence. He lacked even the impulse to turn
|
|
round and inspect the cocoon from which he had emerged.
|
|
Let the past bury the past. He had no vestige of interest
|
|
in it.
|
|
|
|
The change was not premature. He found himself not in
|
|
the least confused by it, or frightened. Before he had
|
|
finished shaving, he knew himself to be easily and comfortably
|
|
at home in his new state, and master of all its requirements.
|
|
|
|
It seemed as if Alice, too, recognized that he had become
|
|
another man, when he went down and took his chair at the
|
|
breakfast table. They had exchanged no words since their
|
|
parting in the depot-yard the previous evening--an event
|
|
now faded off into remote vagueness in Theron's mind.
|
|
He smiled brilliantly in answer to the furtive,
|
|
half-sullen, half-curious glance she stole at him,
|
|
as she brought the dishes in.
|
|
|
|
"Ah! potatoes warmed up in cream!" he said, with hearty
|
|
pleasure in his tone. "What a mind-reader you are,
|
|
to be sure!"
|
|
|
|
"I'm glad you're feeling so much better," she said briefly,
|
|
taking her seat.
|
|
|
|
"Better?" he returned. "I'm a new being!"
|
|
|
|
She ventured to look him over more freely, upon this assurance.
|
|
He perceived and catalogued, one by one, the emotions
|
|
which the small brain was expressing through those shallow
|
|
blue eyes of hers. She was turning over this, that,
|
|
and the other hostile thought and childish grievance--
|
|
most of all she was dallying with the idea of asking him
|
|
where he had been till after midnight. He smiled affably
|
|
in the face of this scattering fire of peevish glances,
|
|
and did not dream of resenting any phase of them all.
|
|
|
|
"I am going down to Thurston's this morning, and order
|
|
that piano sent up today," he announced presently,
|
|
in a casual way.
|
|
|
|
"Why, Theron, can we afford it?" the wife asked,
|
|
regarding him with surprise.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, easily enough," he replied light-heartedly. "You
|
|
know they've increased my salary."
|
|
|
|
She shook her head. "No, I didn't. How should I?
|
|
You don't realize it," she went on, dolefully, "but you're
|
|
getting so you don't tell me the least thing about your
|
|
affairs nowadays."
|
|
|
|
Theron laughed aloud. "You ought to be grateful--
|
|
such melancholy affairs as mine have been till now,"
|
|
he declared--"that is, if it weren't absurd to think
|
|
such a thing." Then, more soberly, he explained:
|
|
"No, my girl, it is you who don't realize. I am carrying
|
|
big projects in my mind--big, ambitious thoughts and
|
|
plans upon which great things depend. They no doubt
|
|
make me seem preoccupied and absent-minded; but it
|
|
is a wife's part to understand, and make allowances,
|
|
and not intrude trifles which may throw everything out
|
|
of gear. Don't think I'm scolding, my girl. I only
|
|
speak to reassure you and--and help you to comprehend.
|
|
Of course I know that you wouldn't willingly embarrass my--
|
|
my career."
|
|
|
|
"Of course not," responded Alice, dubiously; "but--but--
|
|
"
|
|
|
|
"But what? Theron felt compelled by civility to say,
|
|
though on the instant he reproached himself for the weakness
|
|
of it.
|
|
|
|
"Well--I hardly know how to say it," she faltered, "but it
|
|
was nicer in the old days, before you bothered your head
|
|
about big projects, and your career, as you call it,
|
|
and were just a good, earnest, simple young servant
|
|
of the Lord. Oh, Theron!" she broke forth suddenly,
|
|
with tearful zeal, "I get sometimes lately almost scared
|
|
lest you should turn out to be a--a BACKSLIDER!"
|
|
|
|
The husband sat upright, and hardened his countenance.
|
|
But yesterday the word would have had in it all sorts
|
|
of inherited terrors for him. This morning's dawn
|
|
of a new existence revealed it as merely an empty and
|
|
stupid epithet.
|
|
|
|
"These are things not to be said," he admonished her,
|
|
after a moment's pause, and speaking with carefully
|
|
measured austerity. "Least of all are they to be said
|
|
to a clergyman--by his wife."
|
|
|
|
It was on the tip of Alice's tongue to retort, "Better by
|
|
his wife than by outsiders!" but she bit her lips,
|
|
and kept the gibe back. A rebuke of this form and gravity
|
|
was a novelty in their relations. The fear that it had
|
|
been merited troubled, even while it did not convince,
|
|
her mind, and the puzzled apprehension was to be read
|
|
plainly enough on her face.
|
|
|
|
Theron, noting it, saw a good deal more behind. Really,
|
|
it was amazing how much wiser he had grown all at once.
|
|
He had been married for years, and it was only this morning
|
|
that he suddenly discovered how a wife ought to be handled.
|
|
He continued to look sternly away into space for a little.
|
|
Then his brows relaxed slowly and under the visible
|
|
influence of melting considerations. He nodded his head,
|
|
turned toward her abruptly, and broke the silence with
|
|
labored amiability.
|
|
|
|
"Come, come--the day began so pleasantly--it was so good
|
|
to feel well again--let us talk about the piano instead.
|
|
That is," he added, with an obvious overture to playfulness,
|
|
"if the thought of having a piano is not too distasteful
|
|
to you."
|
|
|
|
Alice yielded almost effusively to his altered mood.
|
|
They went together into the sitting-room, to measure
|
|
and decide between the two available spaces which were at
|
|
their disposal, and he insisted with resolute magnanimity
|
|
on her settling this question entirely by herself.
|
|
When at last he mentioned the fact that it was Friday,
|
|
and he would look over some sermon memoranda before
|
|
he went out, Alice retired to the kitchen in openly
|
|
cheerful spirits.
|
|
|
|
Theron spread some old manuscript sermons before him
|
|
on his desk, and took down his scribbling-book as well.
|
|
But there his application flagged, and he surrendered
|
|
himself instead, chin on hand, to staring out at
|
|
the rhododendron in the yard. He recalled how he had
|
|
seen Soulsby patiently studying this identical bush.
|
|
The notion of Soulsby, not knowing at all how to sing,
|
|
yet diligently learning those sixths, brought a smile
|
|
to his mind; and then he seemed to hear Celia calling out
|
|
over her shoulder, "That's what Chopin does--he sings!"
|
|
The spirit of that wonderful music came back to him,
|
|
enfolded him in its wings. It seemed to raise itself up--
|
|
a palpable barrier between him and all that he had known
|
|
and felt and done before. That was his new birth--
|
|
that marvellous night with the piano. The conceit pleased him--
|
|
not the less because there flashed along with it the thought
|
|
that it was a poet that had been born. Yes; the former
|
|
country lout, the narrow zealot, the untutored slave
|
|
groping about in the dark after silly superstitions,
|
|
cringing at the scowl of mean Pierces and Winches,
|
|
was dead. There was an end of him, and good riddance.
|
|
In his place there had been born a Poet--he spelled the word
|
|
out now unabashed--a child of light, a lover of beauty and
|
|
sweet sounds, a recognizable brother to Renan and Chopin--
|
|
and Celia!
|
|
|
|
Out of the soothing, tenderly grateful revery, a practical
|
|
suggestion suddenly took shape. He acted upon it
|
|
without a moment's delay, getting out his letter-pad,
|
|
and writing hurriedly--
|
|
|
|
"Dear Miss Madden,--Life will be more tolerable to me
|
|
if before nightfall I can know that there is a piano
|
|
under my roof. Even if it remains dumb, it will be some
|
|
comfort to have it here and look at it, and imagine
|
|
how a great master might make it speak.
|
|
|
|
"Would it be too much to beg you to look in at Thurston's,
|
|
say at eleven this forenoon, and give me the inestimable
|
|
benefit of your judgment in selecting an instrument?
|
|
|
|
"Do not trouble to answer this, for I am leaving home now,
|
|
but shall call at Thurston's at eleven, and wait.
|
|
|
|
"Thanking you in anticipation,
|
|
|
|
"I am--"
|
|
|
|
Here Theron's fluency came to a sharp halt. There were adverbs
|
|
enough and to spare on the point of his pen, but the right
|
|
one was not easy to come at. "Gratefully," "faithfully,"
|
|
"sincerely," "truly"--each in turn struck a false note.
|
|
He felt himself not quite any of these things.
|
|
At last he decided to write just the simple word "yours,"
|
|
and then wavered between satisfaction at his boldness,
|
|
dread lest he had been over-bold, and, worst of the lot,
|
|
fear that she would not notice it one way or the other--
|
|
all the while he sealed and addressed the letter, put it
|
|
carefully in an inner pocket, and got his hat.
|
|
|
|
There was a moment's hesitation as to notifying the kitchen
|
|
of his departure. The interests of domestic discipline seemed
|
|
to point the other way. He walked softly through the hall,
|
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and let himself out by the front door without a sound.
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Down by the canal bridge he picked out an idle boy to his mind--
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a lad whose aspect appeared to promise intelligence
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as a messenger, combined with large impartiality in
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sectarian matters. He was to have ten cents on his return;
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and he might report himself to his patron at the bookstore yonder.
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Theron was grateful to the old bookseller for remaining
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at his desk in the rear. There was a tacit compliment
|
|
in the suggestion that he was not a mere customer,
|
|
demanding instant attention. Besides, there was no keeping
|
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"Thurston's" out of conversations in this place.
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Loitering along the shelves, the young minister's eye
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suddenly found itself arrested by a name on a cover.
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There were a dozen narrow volumes in uniform binding,
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huddled together under a cardboard label of "Eminent
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|
Women Series." Oddly enough, one of these bore the title
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"George Sand." Theron saw there must be some mistake,
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|
as he took the book down, and opened it. His glance
|
|
hit by accident upon the name of Chopin. Then he read
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attentively until almost the stroke of eleven.
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"We have to make ourselves acquainted with all sorts
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|
of queer phases of life," he explained in self-defence
|
|
to the old bookseller, then counting out the money for
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the book from his lean purse. He smiled as he added,
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|
"There seems something almost wrong about taking advantage
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|
of the clergyman's discount for a life of George Sand."
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"I don't know," answered the other, pleasantly. "Guess she
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wasn't so much different from the rest of 'em--except
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that she didn't mind appearances. We know about her.
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We don't know about the others."
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"I must hurry," said Theron, turning on his heel.
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The haste with which he strode out of the store,
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|
crossed the street, and made his way toward Thurston's,
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|
did not prevent his thinking much upon the astonishing
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|
things he had encountered in this book. Their relation
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|
to Celia forced itself more and more upon his mind.
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|
He could recall the twinkle in her eye, the sub-mockery
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|
in her tone, as she commented with that half-contemptuous
|
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"Yes--George something!" upon his blundering ignorance.
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His mortification at having thus exposed his dull
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rusticity was swallowed up in conjectures as to just
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what her tolerant familiarity with such things involved.
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He had never before met a young unmarried woman who would
|
|
have confessed to him any such knowledge. But then,
|
|
of course, he had never known a girl who resembled Celia
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|
in any other way. He recognized vaguely that he must
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|
provide himself with an entire new set of standards by which
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|
to measure and comprehend her. But it was for the moment
|
|
more interesting to wonder what her standards were.
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Did she object to George Sand's behavior? Or did she
|
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sympathize with that sort of thing? Did those statues,
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and the loose-flowing diaphonous toga and unbound hair,
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the cigarettes, the fiery liqueur, the deliberately
|
|
sensuous music--was he to believe that they signified--?
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"Good-morning, Mr. Ware. You have managed by a miracle
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to hit on one of my punctual days," said Celia.
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|
She was standing on the doorstep, at the entrance to the
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|
musical department of Thurston's. He had not noticed
|
|
before the fact that the sun was shining. The full glare
|
|
of its strong light, enveloping her figure as she stood,
|
|
and drawing the dazzled eye for relief to the bower
|
|
of softened color, close beneath her parasol of creamy
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silk and lace, was what struck him now first of all.
|
|
It was as if Celia had brought the sun with her.
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|
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|
Theron shook hands with her, and found joy in the perception,
|
|
that his own hand trembled. He put boldly into words
|
|
the thought that came to him.
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|
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|
"It was generous of you," he said, "to wait for me out here,
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|
where all might delight in the sight of you, instead of
|
|
squandering the privilege on a handful of clerks inside."
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|
|
|
Miss Madden beamed upon him, and nodded approval.
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|
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|
"Alcibiades never turned a prettier compliment,"
|
|
she remarked. They went in together at this, and Theron
|
|
made a note of the name.
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|
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|
During the ensuing half-hour, the young minister followed
|
|
about even more humbly than the clerks in Celia's
|
|
commanding wake. There were a good many pianos in the big
|
|
show-room overhead, and Theron found himself almost awed
|
|
by their size and brilliancy of polish, and the thought
|
|
of the tremendous sum of money they represented altogether.
|
|
Not so with the organist. She ordered them rolled around
|
|
this way or that, as if they had been so many checkers on
|
|
a draught-board. She threw back their covers with the scant
|
|
ceremony of a dispensary dentist opening paupers' mouths.
|
|
She exploited their several capacities with masterful hands,
|
|
not deigning to seat herself, but just slightly
|
|
bending forward, and sweeping her fingers up and down
|
|
their keyboards--able, domineering fingers which pounded,
|
|
tinkled, meditated, assented, condemned, all in a flash, and
|
|
amid what affected the layman's ears as a hopelessly discordant hubbub.
|
|
|
|
Theron moved about in the group, nursing her parasol
|
|
in his arms, and watching her. The exaggerated deference
|
|
which the clerks and salesmen showed to her as the rich
|
|
Miss Madden, seemed to him to be mixed with a certain
|
|
assertion of the claims of good-fellowship on the score
|
|
of her being a musician. There undoubtedly was a sense
|
|
of freemasonry between them. They alluded continually
|
|
in technical terms to matters of which he knew nothing,
|
|
and were amused at remarks of hers which to him carried
|
|
no meaning whatever. It was evident that the young
|
|
men liked her, and that their liking pleased her.
|
|
It thrilled him to think that she knew he liked her,
|
|
too, and to recall what abundant proofs she had given
|
|
that here, also, she had pleasure in the fact. He clung
|
|
insistently to the memory of these evidences. They helped
|
|
him to resist a disagreeable tendency to feel himself
|
|
an intruder, an outsider, among these pianoforte experts.
|
|
|
|
When it was all over, Celia waved the others aside,
|
|
and talked with Theron. "I suppose you want me to tell you
|
|
the truth," she said. "There's nothing here really good.
|
|
It is always much better to buy of the makers direct."
|
|
|
|
"Do they sell on the instalment plan?" he asked.
|
|
There was a wistful effect in his voice which caught
|
|
her attention.
|
|
|
|
She looked away--out through the window on the street below--
|
|
for a moment. Then her eyes returned to his, and regarded
|
|
him with a comforting, friendly, half-motherly glance,
|
|
recalling for all the world the way Sister Soulsby had
|
|
looked at him at odd times.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, you want it at once--I see," she remarked softly.
|
|
"Well, this Adelberger is the best value for the money."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Ware followed her finger, and beheld with dismay
|
|
that it pointed toward the largest instrument in the room--
|
|
a veritable leviathan among pianos. The price of this
|
|
had been mentioned as $600. He turned over the fact
|
|
that this was two-thirds his yearly salary, and found
|
|
the courage to shake his head.
|
|
|
|
"It would be too large--much too large--for the room,"
|
|
he explained. "And, besides, it is more than I like to pay--
|
|
or CAN pay, for that matter." It was pitiful to be
|
|
explaining such details, but there was no help for it.
|
|
|
|
They picked out a smaller one, which Celia said was at
|
|
least of fair quality. "Now leave all the bargaining
|
|
to me," she adjured him. "These prices that they talk
|
|
about in the piano trade are all in the air. There are
|
|
tremendous discounts, if one knows how to insist upon them.
|
|
All you have to do is to tell them to send it to your house--
|
|
you wanted it today, you said?"
|
|
|
|
"Yes--in memory of yesterday," he murmured.
|
|
|
|
She herself gave the directions, and Thurston's people,
|
|
now all salesmen again, bowed grateful acquiescence.
|
|
Then she sailed regally across the room and down the stairs,
|
|
drawing Theron in her train. The hirelings made salaams
|
|
to him as well; it would have been impossible to interpose
|
|
anything so trivial and squalid as talk about terms and dates
|
|
of payment.
|
|
|
|
"I am ever so much obliged to you," he said fervently,
|
|
in the comparative solitude of the lower floor. She had
|
|
paused to look at something in the book-department.
|
|
|
|
"Of course I was entirely at your service; don't mention it,"
|
|
she replied, reaching forth her hand in an absent way
|
|
for her parasol.
|
|
|
|
He held up instead the volume he had purchased. "Guess what
|
|
that is! You never would guess in this wide world!"
|
|
His manner was surcharged with a sense of the surreptitious.
|
|
|
|
"Well, then, there's no good trying, IS there?"
|
|
commented Celia, her glance roving again toward the shelves.
|
|
|
|
"It is a life of George Sand," whispered Theron.
|
|
"I've been reading it this morning--all the Chopin part--
|
|
while I was waiting for you."
|
|
|
|
To his surprise, there was an apparently displeased
|
|
contraction of her brows as he made this revelation.
|
|
For the instant, a dreadful fear of having offended her
|
|
seized upon and sickened him. But then her face cleared,
|
|
as by magic. She smiled, and let her eyes twinkle
|
|
in laughter at him, and lifted a forefinger in the most
|
|
winning mockery of admonition.
|
|
|
|
"Naughty! naughty!" she murmured back, with a roguishly
|
|
solemn wink.
|
|
|
|
He had no response ready for this, but mutely handed
|
|
her the parasol. The situation had suddenly grown
|
|
too confused for words, or even sequent thoughts.
|
|
Uppermost across the hurly-burly of his mind there
|
|
scudded the singular reflection that he should never hear
|
|
her play on that new piano of his. Even as it flashed
|
|
by out of sight, he recognized it for one of the griefs
|
|
of his life; and the darkness which followed seemed
|
|
nothing but a revolt against the idea of having a piano
|
|
at all. He would countermand the order. He would--
|
|
but she was speaking again.
|
|
|
|
They had strolled toward the door, and her voice was as
|
|
placidly conventional as if the talk had never strayed
|
|
from the subject of pianos. Theron with an effort
|
|
pulled himself together, and laid hold of her words.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose you will be going the other way," she was saying.
|
|
"I shall have to be at the church all day. We have just
|
|
got a new Mass over from Vienna, and I'm head over heels
|
|
in work at it. I can have Father Forbes to myself today,
|
|
too. That bear of a doctor has got the rheumatism,
|
|
and can't come out of his cave, thank Heaven!"
|
|
|
|
And then she was receding from view, up the sunlit,
|
|
busy sidewalk, and Theron, standing on the doorstep,
|
|
ruefully rubbed his chin. She had said he was going
|
|
the other way, and, after a little pause, he made her
|
|
words good, though each step he took seemed all in despite
|
|
of his personal inclinations. Some of the passers-by
|
|
bowed to him, and one or two paused as if to shake hands
|
|
and exchange greetings. He nodded responses mechanically,
|
|
but did not stop. It was as if he feared to interrupt
|
|
the process of lifting his reluctant feet and propelling
|
|
them forward, lest they should wheel and scuttle off
|
|
in the opposite direction.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XXI
|
|
|
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|
|
Deliberate as his progress was, the diminishing number of
|
|
store-fronts along the sidewalk, and the increasing proportion
|
|
of picket-fences enclosing domestic lawns, forced upon
|
|
Theron's attention the fact that he was nearing home.
|
|
It was a trifle past the hour for his midday meal.
|
|
He was not in the least hungry; still less did he feel any
|
|
desire just now to sit about in that library living-room
|
|
of his. Why should he go home at all? There was no
|
|
reason whatever--save that Alice would be expecting him.
|
|
Upon reflection, that hardly amounted to a reason.
|
|
Wives, with their limited grasp of the realities of life,
|
|
were always expecting their husbands to do things
|
|
which it turned out not to be feasible for them to do.
|
|
The customary male animal spent a considerable part of his
|
|
life in explaining to his mate why it had been necessary
|
|
to disappoint or upset her little plans for his comings
|
|
and goings. It was in the very nature of things that it
|
|
should be so.
|
|
|
|
Sustained by these considerations, Mr. Ware slackened his steps,
|
|
then halted irresolutely, and after a minute's hesitation,
|
|
entered the small temperance restaurant before which,
|
|
as by intuition, he had paused. The elderly woman who
|
|
placed on the tiny table before him the tea and rolls
|
|
he ordered, was entirely unknown to him, he felt sure,
|
|
yet none the less she smiled at him, and spoke almost
|
|
familiarly--"I suppose Mrs. Ware is at the seaside,
|
|
and you are keeping bachelor's hall?"
|
|
|
|
"Not quite that," he responded stiffly, and hurried
|
|
through the meagre and distasteful repast, to avoid
|
|
any further conversation.
|
|
|
|
There was an idea underlying her remark, however, which
|
|
recurred to him when he had paid his ten cents and got
|
|
out on the street again. There was something interesting
|
|
in the thought of Alice at the seaside. Neither of them
|
|
had ever laid eyes on salt water, but Theron took for granted
|
|
the most extravagant landsman's conception of its curative
|
|
and invigorating powers. It was apparent to him that he
|
|
was going to pay much greater attention to Alice's happiness
|
|
and well-being in the future than he had latterly done.
|
|
He had bought her, this very day, a superb new piano.
|
|
He was going to simply insist on her having a hired girl.
|
|
And this seaside notion--why, that was best of all.
|
|
|
|
His fancy built up pleasant visions of her feasting her
|
|
delighted eyes upon the marvel of a great ocean storm,
|
|
or roaming along a beach strewn with wonderful marine shells,
|
|
exhibiting an innocent joy in their beauty. The fresh
|
|
sea-breeze blew through her hair, as he saw her in mind's eye,
|
|
and brought the hardy flush of health back upon her rather
|
|
pallid cheeks. He was prepared already hardly to know her,
|
|
so robust and revivified would she have become, by the
|
|
time he went down to the depot to meet her on her return.
|
|
|
|
For his imagination stopped short of seeing himself
|
|
at the seaside. It sketched instead pictures of whole
|
|
weeks of solitary academic calm, alone with his books
|
|
and his thoughts. The facts that he had no books,
|
|
and that nobody dreamed of interfering with his thoughts,
|
|
subordinated themselves humbly to his mood. The prospect,
|
|
as he mused fondly upon it, expanded to embrace the
|
|
priest's and the doctor's libraries; the thoughts which
|
|
he longed to be alone with involved close communion
|
|
with their thoughts. It could not but prove a season
|
|
of immense mental stimulation and ethical broadening.
|
|
It would have its lofty poetic and artistic side as well;
|
|
the languorous melodies of Chopin stole over his revery,
|
|
as he dwelt upon these things, and soft azure and golden
|
|
lights modelled forth the exquisite outlines of tall
|
|
marble forms.
|
|
|
|
He opened the gate leading to Dr. Ledsmar's house. His walk
|
|
had brought him quite out of the town, and up, by a broad
|
|
main highway which yet took on all sorts of sylvan charms,
|
|
to a commanding site on the hillside. Below, in the valley,
|
|
lay Octavius, at one end half-hidden in factory smoke,
|
|
at the other, where narrow bands of water gleamed
|
|
upon the surface of a broad plain piled symmetrically
|
|
with lumber, presenting an oddly incongruous suggestion
|
|
of forest odors and the simplicity of the wilderness.
|
|
In the middle distance, on gradually rising ground,
|
|
stretched a wide belt of dense, artificial foliage,
|
|
peeping through which tiled turrets and ornamented
|
|
chimneys marked the polite residences of those who,
|
|
though they neither stoked the furnace fires to the west,
|
|
nor sawed the lumber on the east, lived in purple and fine
|
|
linen from the profits of this toil. Nearer at hand,
|
|
pastures with grazing cows on the one side of the road,
|
|
and the nigh, weather-stained board fence of the race-course
|
|
on the other, completed the jumble of primitive rusticity
|
|
and urban complications characterizing the whole picture.
|
|
|
|
Dr. Ledsmar's house, toward which Theron's impulses had been
|
|
secretly leading him ever since Celia's parting remark
|
|
about the rheumatism, was of that spacious and satisfying
|
|
order of old-fashioned houses which men of leisure and
|
|
means built for themselves while the early traditions
|
|
of a sparse and contented homogeneous population were
|
|
still strong in the Republic. There was a hospitable look
|
|
about its wide veranda, its broad, low bulk, and its big,
|
|
double front door, which did not fit at all with the sketch
|
|
of a man-hating recluse that the doctor had drawn of himself.
|
|
|
|
Theron had prepared his mind for the effect of being
|
|
admitted by a Chinaman, and was taken somewhat aback
|
|
when the door was opened by the doctor himself.
|
|
His reception was pleasant enough, almost cordial,
|
|
but the sense of awkwardness followed him into his host's
|
|
inner room and rested heavily upon his opening speech.
|
|
|
|
"I heard, quite by accident, that you were ill," he said,
|
|
laying aside his hat.
|
|
|
|
"It's nothing at all," replied Ledsmar. "Merely a stiff
|
|
shoulder that I wear from time to time in memory of my father.
|
|
It ought to be quite gone by nightfall. It was good of you
|
|
to come, all the same. Sit down if you can find a chair.
|
|
As usual, we are littered up to our eyes here. That's it--
|
|
throw those things on the floor."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Ware carefully deposited an armful of pamphlets on the
|
|
rug at his feet, and sat down. Litter was indeed the word
|
|
for what he saw about him. Bookcases, chairs, tables,
|
|
the corners of the floor, were all buried deep under
|
|
disorderly strata of papers, diagrams, and opened books.
|
|
One could hardly walk about without treading on them.
|
|
The dust which danced up into the bar of sunshine streaming in
|
|
from the window, as the doctor stepped across to another chair,
|
|
gave Theron new ideas about the value of Chinese servants.
|
|
|
|
"I must thank you, first of all, doctor," he began,
|
|
"for your kindness in coming when I was ill. 'I was sick,
|
|
and ye visited me.'"
|
|
|
|
"You mustn't think of it that way," said Ledsmar; "your friend
|
|
came for me, and of course I went; and gladly too.
|
|
There was nothing that I could do, or that anybody
|
|
could do. Very interesting man, that friend of yours.
|
|
And his wife, too--both quite out of the common.
|
|
I don't know when I've seen two such really genuine people.
|
|
I should like to have known more of them. Are they
|
|
still here?"
|
|
|
|
"They went yesterday," Theron replied. His earlier shyness
|
|
had worn off, and he felt comfortably at his ease.
|
|
"I don't know," he went on, "that the word 'genuine'
|
|
is just what would have occurred to me to describe
|
|
the Soulsbys. The, are very interesting people, as you say--
|
|
MOST interesting--and there was a time, l dare say,
|
|
when I should have believed in their sincerity. But of
|
|
course I saw them and their performance from the inside--
|
|
like one on the stage of a theatre, you know, instead of
|
|
in the audience, and--well, I understand things better
|
|
than I used to."
|
|
|
|
The doctor looked over his spectacles at him with a
|
|
suggestion of inquiry in his glance, and Theron continued:
|
|
"I had several long talks with her; she told me very
|
|
frankly the whole story of her life--and and it was
|
|
decidedly queer, I can assure you! I may say to you--
|
|
you will understand what I mean--that since my talk
|
|
with you, and the books you lent me, I see many
|
|
things differently. Indeed, when I think upon it sometimes
|
|
my old state of mind seems quite incredible to me.
|
|
I can use no word for my new state short of illumination."
|
|
|
|
Dr. Ledsmar continued to regard his guest with that calm,
|
|
interrogatory scrutiny of his. He did not seem disposed
|
|
to take up the great issue of illumination. "I suppose,"
|
|
he said after a little, "no woman can come in contact
|
|
with a priest for any length of time WITHOUT telling him
|
|
the 'story of her life,' as you call it. They all do it.
|
|
The thing amounts to a law."
|
|
|
|
The young minister's veins responded with a pleasurable
|
|
thrill to the use of the word "priest" in obvious allusion
|
|
to himself. "Perhaps in fairness I ought to explain,"
|
|
he said, "that in her case it was only done in the course
|
|
of a long talk about myself. I might say that it
|
|
was by way of kindly warning to me. She saw how I
|
|
had become unsettled in many--many of my former views--
|
|
and she was nervous lest this should lead me to--to--"
|
|
|
|
"To throw up the priesthood," the doctor interposed upon
|
|
his hesitation. "Yes, I know the tribe. Why, my dear sir,
|
|
your entire profession would have perished from the memory
|
|
of mankind, if it hadn't been for women. It is a very
|
|
curious subject. Lots of thinkers have dipped into it,
|
|
but no one has gone resolutely in with a search-light
|
|
and exploited the whole thing. Our boys, for instance,
|
|
traverse in their younger years all the stages of the
|
|
childhood of the race. They have terrifying dreams
|
|
of awful monsters and giant animals of which they have
|
|
never so much as heard in their waking hours; they pass
|
|
through the lust for digging caves, building fires,
|
|
sleeping out in the woods, hunting with bows and arrows--
|
|
all remote ancestral impulses; they play games with stones,
|
|
marbles, and so on at regular stated periods of the year
|
|
which they instinctively know, just as they were played
|
|
in the Bronze Age, and heaven only knows how much earlier.
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But the boy goes through all this, and leaves it behind him--
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so completely that the grown man feels himself more
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a stranger among boys of his own place who are thinking
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and doing precisely the things he thought and did a few
|
|
years before, than he would among Kurds or Esquimaux.
|
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But the woman is totally different. She is infinitely
|
|
more precocious as a girl. At an age when her slow brother
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is still stubbing along somewhere in the neolithic period,
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she has flown way ahead to a kind of mediaeval stage,
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or dawn of mediaevalism, which is peculiarly her own.
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Having got there, she stays there; she dies there.
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The boy passes her, as the tortoise did the hare.
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He goes on, if he is a philosopher, and lets her remain
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in the dark ages, where she belongs. If he happens to be
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a fool, which is customary, he stops and hangs around in
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her vicinity."
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Theron smiled. "We priests," he said, and paused again
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to enjoy the words--"I suppose I oughtn't to inquire
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too closely just where we belong in the procession."
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"We are considering the question impersonally,"
|
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said the doctor. "First of all, what you regard as
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religion is especially calculated to attract women.
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They remain as superstitious today, down in the marrow
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of their bones, as they were ten thousand years ago.
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Even the cleverest of them are secretly afraid of omens,
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and respect auguries. Think of the broadest women
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you know. One of them will throw salt over her shoulder
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if she spills it. Another drinks money from her cup
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by skimming the bubbles in a spoon. Another forecasts
|
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her future by the arrangement of tea-grounds. They
|
|
make the constituency to which an institution based
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on mysteries, miracles, and the supernatural generally,
|
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would naturally appeal. Secondly, there is the personality
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of the priest."
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"Yes," assented Ware. There rose up before him,
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on the instant, the graceful, portly figure and strong,
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comely face of Father Forbes.
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"Women are not a metaphysical people. They do not
|
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easily follow abstractions. They want their dogmas
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and religious sentiments embodied in a man, just as they
|
|
do their romantic fancies. Of course you Protestants,
|
|
with your married clergy, see less of the effects of this
|
|
than celibates do, but even with you there is a great deal
|
|
in it. Why, the very institution of celibacy itself
|
|
was forced upon the early Christian Church by the scandal
|
|
of rich Roman ladies loading bishops and handsome priests
|
|
with fabulous gifts until the passion for currying favor
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with women of wealth, and marrying them or wheedling
|
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their fortunes from them, debauched the whole priesthood.
|
|
You should read your Jerome."
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|
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"I will--certainly," said the listener, resolving to
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remember the name and refer it to the old bookseller.
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|
|
|
"Well, whatever laws one sect or another makes, the woman's
|
|
attitude toward the priest survives. She desires to see
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him surrounded by flower-pots and candles, to have him
|
|
smelling of musk. She would like to curl his hair,
|
|
and weave garlands in it. Although she is not learned
|
|
enough to have ever heard of such things, she intuitively
|
|
feels in his presence a sort of backwash of the old pagan
|
|
sensuality and lascivious mysticism which enveloped
|
|
the priesthood in Greek and Roman days. Ugh! It makes
|
|
one sick!"
|
|
|
|
Dr. Ledsmar rose, as he spoke, and dismissed the topic with
|
|
a dry little laugh. "Come, let me show you round a bit,"
|
|
he said. "My shoulder is easier walking than sitting."
|
|
|
|
"Have you never written a book yourself?" asked Theron,
|
|
getting to his feet.
|
|
|
|
"I have a thing on serpent-worship," the scientist
|
|
replied--"written years ago."
|
|
|
|
"I can't tell you how I should enjoy reading it,"
|
|
urged the other.
|
|
|
|
The doctor laughed again. "You'll have to learn German,
|
|
then, I 'm afraid. It is still in circulation in Germany,
|
|
I believe, on its merits as a serious book. I haven't
|
|
a copy of the edition in English. THAT was all exhausted
|
|
by collectors who bought it for its supposed obscenity,
|
|
like Burton's 'Arabian Nights.' Come this way, and I
|
|
will show you my laboratory."
|
|
|
|
They moved out of the room, and through a passage,
|
|
Ledsmar talking as he led the way. "I took up that subject,
|
|
when I was at college, by a curious chance. I kept a young
|
|
monkey in my rooms, which had been born in captivity.
|
|
I brought home from a beer hall--it was in Germany--
|
|
some pretzels one night, and tossed one toward the monkey.
|
|
He jumped toward it, then screamed and ran back shuddering
|
|
with fright. I couldn't understand it at first. Then I
|
|
saw that the curled pretzel, lying there on the floor,
|
|
was very like a little coiled-up snake. The monkey had
|
|
never seen a snake, but it was in his blood to be afraid
|
|
of one. That incident changed my whole life for me.
|
|
Up to that evening, I had intended to be a lawyer."
|
|
|
|
Theron did not feel sure that he had understood the point
|
|
of the anecdote. He looked now, without much interest,
|
|
at some dark little tanks containing thick water, a row of small
|
|
glass cases with adders and other lesser reptiles inside,
|
|
and a general collection of boxes, jars, and similar
|
|
receptacles connected with the doctor's pursuits.
|
|
Further on was a smaller chamber, with a big empty furnace,
|
|
and shelves bearing bottles and apparatus like a drugstore.
|
|
|
|
It was pleasanter in the conservatory--a low,
|
|
spacious structure with broad pathways between the plants,
|
|
and an awning over the sunny side of the roof. The plants
|
|
were mostly orchids, he learned. He had read of them,
|
|
but never seen any before. No doubt they were curious;
|
|
but he discovered nothing to justify the great fuss
|
|
made about them. The heat grew oppressive inside,
|
|
and he was glad to emerge into the garden. He paused
|
|
under the grateful shade of a vine-clad trellis, took off
|
|
his hat, and looked about him with a sigh of relief.
|
|
Everything seemed old-fashioned and natural and delightfully
|
|
free from pretence in the big, overgrown field of flowers
|
|
and shrubs.
|
|
|
|
Theron recalled with some surprise Celia's indictment
|
|
of the doctor as a man with no poetry in his soul.
|
|
"You must be extremely fond of flowers," he remarked.
|
|
|
|
Dr. Ledsmar shrugged his well shoulder. "They have their points,"
|
|
he said briefly. "These are all dioecious here. Over beyond
|
|
are monoecious species. My work is to test the probabilities
|
|
for or against Darwin's theory that hermaphroditism
|
|
in plants is a late by-product of these earlier forms."
|
|
|
|
"And is his theory right?" asked Mr. Ware, with a polite
|
|
show of interest.
|
|
|
|
"We may know in the course of three or four hundred years,"
|
|
replied Ledsmar. He looked up into his guest's face
|
|
with a quizzical half-smile. "That is a very brief period
|
|
for observation when such a complicated question as sex
|
|
is involved," he added. "We have been studying the female
|
|
of our own species for some hundreds of thousands of years,
|
|
and we haven't arrived at the most elementary rules
|
|
governing her actions."
|
|
|
|
They had moved along to a bed of tall plants, the more
|
|
forward of which were beginning to show bloom. "Here another
|
|
task will begin next month," the doctor observed.
|
|
"These are salvias, pentstemons, and antirrhinums,
|
|
or snapdragons, planted very thick for the purpose.
|
|
Humble-bees bore holes through their base, to save
|
|
the labor of climbing in and out of the flowers,
|
|
and we don't quite know yet why some hive-bees discover
|
|
and utilize these holes at once, while others never do.
|
|
It may be merely the old-fogy conservatism of the individual,
|
|
or there may be a law in it."
|
|
|
|
These seemed very paltry things for a man of such wisdom
|
|
to bother his head about. Theron looked, as he was bidden,
|
|
at the rows of hives shining in the hot sun on a bench
|
|
along the wall, but offered no comment beyond a casual,
|
|
"My mother was always going to keep bees, but somehow she
|
|
never got around to it. They say it pays very well, though."
|
|
|
|
"The discovery of the reason why no bee will touch the
|
|
nectar of the EPIPACTIS LATIFOLIA, though it is sweet
|
|
to our taste, and wasps are greedy for it, WOULD pay,"
|
|
commented the doctor. "Not like a blue rhododendron,
|
|
in mere money, but in recognition. Lots of men have
|
|
achieved a half-column in the 'Encyclopedia Britannica'
|
|
on a smaller basis than that."
|
|
|
|
They stood now at the end of the garden, before a small,
|
|
dilapidated summer-house. On the bench inside, facing him,
|
|
Theron saw a strange recumbent figure stretched at
|
|
full length, apparently sound asleep, or it might be dead.
|
|
Looking closer, with a startled surprise, he made out
|
|
the shaven skull and outlandish garb of a Chinaman.
|
|
He turned toward his guide in the expectation of a scene.
|
|
|
|
The doctor had already taken out a note-book and pencil,
|
|
and was drawing his watch from his pocket. He stepped into
|
|
the summer-house, and, lifting the Oriental's limp arm,
|
|
took account of his pulse. Then, with head bowed low,
|
|
side-wise, he listened for the heart-action. Finally,
|
|
he somewhat brusquely pushed back one of the Chinaman's eyelids,
|
|
and made a minute inspection of what the operation disclosed.
|
|
Returning to the light, he inscribed some notes in
|
|
his book, put it back in his pocket, and came out.
|
|
In answer to Theron's marvelling stare, he pointed toward
|
|
a pipe of odd construction lying on the floor beneath
|
|
the sleeper.
|
|
|
|
"This is one of my regular afternoon duties," he explained,
|
|
again with the whimsical half-smile. "I am increasing his
|
|
dose monthly by regular stages, and the results promise
|
|
to be rather remarkable. Heretofore, observations have been
|
|
made mostly on diseased or morbidly deteriorated subjects.
|
|
This fellow of mine is strong as an ox, perfectly nourished,
|
|
and watched over intelligently. He can assimilate opium
|
|
enough to kill you and me and every other vertebrate
|
|
creature on the premises, without turning a hair, and he
|
|
hasn't got even fairly under way yet."
|
|
|
|
The thing was unpleasant, and the young minister turned away.
|
|
They walked together up the path toward the house.
|
|
His mind was full now of the hostile things which Celia
|
|
had said about the doctor. He had vaguely sympathized
|
|
with her then, upon no special knowledge of his own.
|
|
Now he felt that his sentiments were vehemently in accord
|
|
with hers. The doctor WAS a beast.
|
|
|
|
And yet--as they moved slowly along through the garden
|
|
the thought took sudden shape in his mind--it would be
|
|
only justice for him to get also the doctor's opinion
|
|
of Celia. Even while they offended and repelled him,
|
|
he could not close his eyes to the fact that the doctor's
|
|
experiments and occupations were those of a patient
|
|
and exact man of science--a philosopher. And what he
|
|
had said about women--there was certainly a great deal
|
|
of acumen and shrewd observation in that. If he would
|
|
only say what he really thought about Celia, and about
|
|
her relations with the priest! Yes, Theron recognized
|
|
now there was nothing else that he so much needed light
|
|
upon as those puzzling ties between Celia and Father Forbes.
|
|
|
|
He paused, with a simulated curiosity, about one of
|
|
the flower-beds. "Speaking of women and religion"--
|
|
he began, in as casual a tone as he could command--
|
|
"I notice curiously enough in my own case, that as I develop
|
|
in what you may call the--the other direction, my wife,
|
|
who formerly was not especially devote, is being strongly
|
|
attracted by the most unthinking and hysterical side of--
|
|
of our church system."
|
|
|
|
The doctor looked at him, nodded, and stooped to nip
|
|
some buds from a stalk in the bed.
|
|
|
|
"And another case," Theron went on--"of course it was all
|
|
so new and strange to me--but the position which Miss
|
|
Madden seems to occupy about the Catholic Church here--
|
|
I suppose you had her in mind when you spoke."
|
|
|
|
Ledsmar stood up. "My mind has better things to busy
|
|
itself with than mad asses of that description,"
|
|
he replied. "She is not worth talking about--a mere
|
|
bundle of egotism, ignorance, and red-headed lewdness.
|
|
If she were even a type, she might be worth considering;
|
|
but she is simply an abnormal sport, with a little brain
|
|
addled by notions that she is like Hypatia, and a large
|
|
impudence rendered intolerable by the fact that she
|
|
has money. Her father is a decent man. He ought to have
|
|
her whipped."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Ware drew himself erect, as he listened to these
|
|
outrageous words. It would be unmanly, he felt, to allow
|
|
such comments upon an absent friend to pass unrebuked.
|
|
Yet there was the courtesy due to a host to be considered.
|
|
His mind, fluttering between these two extremes,
|
|
alighted abruptly upon a compromise. He would speak
|
|
so as to show his disapproval, yet not so as to prevent
|
|
his finding out what he wanted to know. The desire
|
|
to hear Ledsmar talk about Celia and the priest seemed
|
|
now to have possessed him for a long time, to have
|
|
dictated his unpremeditated visit out here, to have been
|
|
growing in intensity all the while he pretended to be
|
|
interested in orchids and bees and the drugged Chinaman.
|
|
It tugged passionately at his self-control as he spoke.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot in the least assent to your characterization
|
|
of the lady," he began with rhetorical dignity.
|
|
|
|
"Bless me!" interposed the doctor, with deceptive
|
|
cheerfulness, "that is not required of you at all.
|
|
It is a strictly personal opinion, offered merely
|
|
as a contribution to the general sum of hypotheses."
|
|
|
|
"But," Theron went on, feeling his way, "of course,
|
|
I gathered that evening that you had prejudices in the matter;
|
|
but these are rather apart from the point I had in view.
|
|
We were speaking, you will remember, of the traditional
|
|
attitude of women toward priests--wanting to curl their
|
|
hair and put flowers in it, you know, and that suggested
|
|
to me some individual illustrations, and it occurred
|
|
to me to wonder just what were the relations between Miss
|
|
Madden and--and Father Forbes. She said this morning,
|
|
for instance--I happened to meet her, quite by accident--
|
|
that she was going to the church to practise a new piece,
|
|
and that she could have Father Forbes to herself all day.
|
|
Now that would be quite an impossible remark in our--that is,
|
|
in any Protestant circles--and purely as a matter of comparison,
|
|
I was curious to ask you just how much there was in it.
|
|
I ask you, because going there so much you have had exceptional
|
|
opportunities for--"
|
|
|
|
A sharp exclamation from his companion interrupted
|
|
the clergyman's hesitating monologue. It began like a
|
|
high-pitched, violent word, but dwindled suddenly into a groan
|
|
of pain. The doctor's face, too, which had on the flash
|
|
of Theron's turning seemed given over to unmixed anger,
|
|
took on an expression of bodily suffering instead.
|
|
|
|
"My shoulder has grown all at once excessively painful,"
|
|
he said hastily. "I'm afraid I must ask you to excuse me,
|
|
Mr. Ware."
|
|
|
|
Carrying the afflicted side with ostentatious caution,
|
|
he led the way without ado round the house to the front
|
|
gate on the road. He had put his left hand under his coat
|
|
to press it against his aching shoulder, and his right hung
|
|
palpably helpless. This rendered it impossible for him
|
|
to shake hands with his guest in parting.
|
|
|
|
"You're sure there's nothing I can do," said Theron,
|
|
lingering on the outer side of the gate. "I used to rub
|
|
my father's shoulders and back; I'd gladly--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, not for worlds!" groaned the doctor. His anguish
|
|
was so impressive that Theron, as he walked down the road,
|
|
quite missed the fact that there had been no invitation
|
|
to come again.
|
|
|
|
Dr. Ledsmar stood for a minute or two, his gaze meditatively
|
|
following the retreating figure. Then he went in, opening the
|
|
front door with his right hand, and carrying himself once more
|
|
as if there were no such thing as rheumatism in the world.
|
|
He wandered on through the hall into the laboratory,
|
|
and stopped in front of the row of little tanks full of water.
|
|
|
|
Some deliberation was involved in whatever his purpose might be,
|
|
for he looked from one tank to another with a pondering,
|
|
dilatory gaze. At last he plunged his hand into the opaque
|
|
fluid and drew forth a long, slim, yellowish-green lizard,
|
|
with a coiling, sinuous tail and a pointed, evil head.
|
|
The reptile squirmed and doubled itself backward around
|
|
his wrist, darting out and in with dizzy swiftness its tiny
|
|
forked tongue.
|
|
|
|
The doctor held the thing up to the light, and, scrutinizing it
|
|
through his spectacles, nodded his head in sedate approval.
|
|
A grim smile curled in his beard.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you are the type," he murmured to it, with evident
|
|
enjoyment in the conceit. "Your name isn't Johnny any more.
|
|
It's the Rev. Theron Ware."
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XXII
|
|
|
|
|
|
The annual camp-meeting of the combined Methodist
|
|
districts of Octavius and Thessaly was held this year in
|
|
the second half of September, a little later than usual.
|
|
Of the nine days devoted to this curious survival of
|
|
primitive Wesleyanism, the fifth fell upon a Saturday.
|
|
On the noon of that day the Rev. Theron Ware escaped
|
|
for some hours from the burden of work and incessant
|
|
observation which he shared with twenty other preachers,
|
|
and walked alone in the woods.
|
|
|
|
The scene upon which he turned his back was one worth
|
|
looking at. A spacious, irregularly defined clearing
|
|
in the forest lay level as a tennis-court, under the soft
|
|
haze of autumn sunlight. In the centre was a large,
|
|
roughly constructed frame building, untouched by paint,
|
|
but stained and weather-beaten with time. Behind it were some
|
|
lines of horse-sheds, and still further on in that direction,
|
|
where the trees began, the eye caught fragmentary
|
|
glimpses of low roofs and the fronts of tiny cottages,
|
|
withdrawn from full view among the saplings and underbrush.
|
|
At the other side of the clearing, fully fourscore tents
|
|
were pitched, some gray and mended, others dazzlingly
|
|
white in their newness. The more remote of these tents
|
|
fell into an orderly arrangement of semi-circular form,
|
|
facing that part of the engirdling woods where the trees
|
|
were largest, and their canopy of overhanging foliage
|
|
was lifted highest from the ground. Inside this half-ring
|
|
of tents were many rounded rows of benches, which followed
|
|
in narrowing lines the idea of an amphitheatre cut in two.
|
|
In the centre, just under the edge of the roof of boughs,
|
|
rose a wooden pagoda, in form not unlike an open-air stand
|
|
for musicians. In front of this, and leading from it
|
|
on the level of its floor, there projected a platform,
|
|
railed round with aggressively rustic woodwork.
|
|
The nearest benches came close about this platform.
|
|
|
|
At the hour when Theron started away, there were few enough
|
|
signs of life about this encampment. The four or five
|
|
hundred people who were in constant residence were eating
|
|
their dinners in the big boarding-house, or the cottages
|
|
or the tents. It was not the time of day for strangers.
|
|
Even when services were in progress by daylight,
|
|
the regular attendants did not make much of a show,
|
|
huddled in a gray-black mass at the front of the auditorium,
|
|
by comparison with the great green and blue expanses
|
|
of nature about them.
|
|
|
|
The real spectacle was in the evening when, as the
|
|
shadows gathered, big clusters of kerosene torches,
|
|
hung on the trees facing the audience were lighted.
|
|
The falling darkness magnified the glow of the lights,
|
|
and the size and importance of what they illumined.
|
|
The preacher, bending forward over the rails of the platform,
|
|
and fastening his eyes upon the abashed faces of those
|
|
on the "anxious seat" beneath him, borrowed an effect
|
|
of druidical mystery from the wall of blackness about him,
|
|
from the flickering reflections on the branches far above,
|
|
from the cool night air which stirred across the clearing.
|
|
The change was in the blood of those who saw and heard
|
|
him, too. The decorum and half-heartedness of their
|
|
devotions by day deepened under the glare of the torches
|
|
into a fervent enthusiasm, even before the services began.
|
|
And if there was in the rustic pulpit a man whose prayers
|
|
or exhortations could stir their pulses, they sang and
|
|
groaned and bellowed out their praises with an almost
|
|
barbarous license, such as befitted the wilderness.
|
|
|
|
But in the evening not all were worshippers. For a dozen
|
|
miles round on the country-side, young farm-workers and
|
|
their girls regarded the camp-meeting as perhaps the chief
|
|
event of the year--no more to be missed than the country
|
|
fair or the circus, and offering, from many points of view,
|
|
more opportunities for genuine enjoyment than either.
|
|
Their behavior when they came was pretty bad--not the less
|
|
so because all the rules established by the Presiding
|
|
Elders for the regulation of strangers took it for granted
|
|
that they would act as viciously as they knew how.
|
|
These sight-seers sometimes ventured to occupy the back benches
|
|
where the light was dim. More often they stood outside,
|
|
in the circular space between the tents and the benches,
|
|
and mingled cat-calls, drovers' yelps, and all sorts
|
|
of mocking cries and noises with the "Amens" of the
|
|
earnest congregation. Their rough horse-play on the
|
|
fringe of the sanctified gathering was grievous enough;
|
|
everybody knew that much worse things went on further
|
|
out in the surrounding darkness. Indeed, popular report
|
|
gave to these external phases of the camp-meeting an even
|
|
more evil fame than attached to the later moonlight
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husking-bees, or the least reputable of the midwinter
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dances at Dave Randall's low halfway house.
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Cynics said that the Methodists found consolation
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for this scandal in the large income they derived from
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their unruly visitors' gate-money. This was unfair.
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No doubt the money played its part, but there was something
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else far more important. The pious dwellers in the camp,
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intent upon reviving in their poor modern way the character
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and environment of the heroic early days, felt the need
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of just this hostile and scoffing mob about them to bring
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out the spirit they sought. Theirs was pre-eminently
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a fighting religion, which languished in peaceful
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fair weather, but flamed high in the storm. The throng
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of loafers and light-minded worldlings of both sexes,
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with their jeering interruptions and lewd levity of conduct,
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brought upon the scene a kind of visible personal devil,
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with whom the chosen could do battle face to face.
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The daylight services became more and more perfunctory,
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as the sojourn in the woods ran its course, and interest
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concentrated itself upon the night meetings, for the reason
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|
that THEN came the fierce wrestle with a Beelzebub of flesh
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and blood. And it was not so one-sided a contest, either!
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No evening passed without its victories for the pulpit.
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Careless or mischievous young people who were pushed into
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the foremost ranks of the mockers, and stood grinning
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and grimacing under the lights, would of a sudden feel
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a spell clamped upon them. They would hear a strange,
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quavering note in the preacher's voice, catch the sense
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of a piercing, soul-commanding gleam in his eye--
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not at all to be resisted. These occult forces would
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|
take control of them, drag them forward as in a dream
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|
to the benches under the pulpit, and abase them there like
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worms in the dust. And then the preacher would descend,
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and the elders advance, and the torch-fires would sway
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|
and dip before the wind of the mighty roar that went up
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in triumph from the brethren.
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These combats with Satan at close quarters, if they
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|
made the week-day evenings exciting, reacted with an
|
|
effect of crushing dulness upon the Sunday services.
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|
The rule was to admit no strangers to the grounds from
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Saturday night to Monday morning. Every year attempts
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|
were made to rescind or modify this rule, and this season
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at least three-fourths of the laymen in attendance had
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|
signed a petition in favor of opening the gates. The two
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Presiding Elders, supported by a dozen of the older preachers,
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resisted the change, and they had the backing of the more
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bigoted section of the congregation from Octavius.
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|
The controversy reached a point where Theron's Presiding
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Elder threatened to quit the grounds, and the leaders
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of the open-Sunday movement spoke freely of the ridiculous
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|
figure which its cranks and fanatics made poor Methodism
|
|
cut in the eyes of modern go-ahead American civilization.
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|
Then Theron Ware saw his opportunity, and preached
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|
an impromptu sermon upon the sanctity of the Sabbath,
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|
which ended all discussion. Sometimes its arguments seemed
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|
to be on one side, sometimes on the other, but always
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|
they were clothed with so serene a beauty of imagery,
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|
and moved in such a lofty and rarefied atmosphere
|
|
of spiritual exaltation, that it was impossible to link
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|
them to so sordid a thing as this question of gate-money.
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|
When he had finished, nobody wanted the gates opened.
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|
The two factions found that the difference between them had
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|
melted out of existence. They sat entranced by the charm
|
|
of the sermon; then, glancing around at the empty benches,
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|
glaringly numerous in the afternoon sunlight, they whispered
|
|
regrets that ten thousand people had not been there
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|
to hear that marvellous discourse. Theron's conquest was
|
|
of exceptional dimensions. The majority, whose project
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|
he had defeated, were strangers who appreciated and
|
|
admired his effort most. The little minority of his
|
|
own flock, though less susceptible to the influence
|
|
of graceful diction and delicately balanced rhetoric,
|
|
were proud of the distinction he had reflected upon them,
|
|
and delighted with him for having won their fight.
|
|
The Presiding Elders wrung his hand with a significant grip.
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|
The extremists of his own charge beamed friendship upon
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|
him for the first time. He was the veritable hero of the week.
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|
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|
The prestige of this achievement made it the easier
|
|
for Theron to get away by himself next day, and walk in
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|
the woods. A man of such power had a right to solitude.
|
|
Those who noted his departure from the camp remembered
|
|
with pleasure that he was to preach again on the morrow.
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|
He was going to commune with God in the depths of the forest,
|
|
that the Message next day might be clearer and more
|
|
luminous still.
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|
|
|
Theron strolled for a little, with an air of aimlessness,
|
|
until he was well outside the more or less frequented
|
|
neighborhood of the camp. Then he looked at the sun
|
|
and the lay of the land with that informing scrutiny
|
|
of which the farm-bred boy never loses the trick, turned,
|
|
and strode at a rattling pace down the hillside.
|
|
He knew nothing personally of this piece of woodland--
|
|
a spur of the great Adirondack wilderness thrust southward
|
|
into the region of homesteads and dairies and hop-fields--
|
|
but he had prepared himself by a study of the map, and he
|
|
knew where he wanted to go. Very Soon he hit upon the path
|
|
he had counted upon finding, and at this he quickened
|
|
his gait.
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|
|
|
Three months of the new life had wrought changes
|
|
in Theron. He bore himself more erectly, for one thing;
|
|
his shoulders were thrown back, and seemed thicker.
|
|
The alteration was even more obvious in his face.
|
|
The effect of lank, wistful, sallow juvenility had vanished.
|
|
It was the countenance of a mature, well-fed, and confident man,
|
|
firmer and more rounded in its outlines, and with a glow
|
|
of health on its whole surface. Under the chin were
|
|
the suggestions of fulness which bespeak an easy mind.
|
|
His clothes were new; the frock-coat fitted him, and the thin,
|
|
dark-colored autumn overcoat, with its silk lining exposed
|
|
at the breast, gave a masculine bulk and shape to his figure.
|
|
He wore a shining tall hat, and, in haste though he was,
|
|
took pains not to knock it against low-hanging branches.
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|
|
|
All had gone well--more than well--with him. The second
|
|
Quarterly Conference had passed without a ripple.
|
|
Both the attendance and the collections at his church were
|
|
larger than ever before, and the tone of the congregation
|
|
toward him was altered distinctly for the better.
|
|
As for himself, he viewed with astonished delight the progress
|
|
he had made in his own estimation. He had taken Sister
|
|
Soulsby's advice, and the results were already wonderful.
|
|
He had put aside, once and for all, the thousand foolish
|
|
trifles and childish perplexities which formerly had racked
|
|
his brain, and worried him out of sleep and strength.
|
|
He borrowed all sorts of books boldly now from the Octavius
|
|
public library, and could swim with a calm mastery
|
|
and enjoyment upon the deep waters into which Draper
|
|
and Lecky and Laing and the rest had hurled him.
|
|
He dallied pleasurably, a little languorously, with a dozen
|
|
aspects of the case against revealed religion, ranging from
|
|
the mild heterodoxy of Andover's qualms to the rude
|
|
Ingersoll's rollicking negation of God himself, as a woman
|
|
of coquetry might play with as many would-be lovers.
|
|
They amused him; they were all before him to choose;
|
|
and he was free to postpone indefinitely the act
|
|
of selection. There was a sense of the luxurious in this
|
|
position which softened bodily as well as mental fibres.
|
|
He ceased to grow indignant at things below or outside
|
|
his standards, and he bought a small book which treated
|
|
of the care of the hand and finger nails.
|
|
|
|
Alice had accepted with deference his explanation that
|
|
shapely hands played so important a part in pulpit oratory.
|
|
For that matter, she now accepted whatever he said or did
|
|
with admirable docility. It was months since he could
|
|
remember her venturing upon a critical attitude toward him.
|
|
|
|
She had not wished to leave home, for the seaside or any
|
|
other resort, during the summer, but had worked outside
|
|
in her garden more than usual. This was inexpensive, and it
|
|
seemed to do her as much good as a holiday could have done.
|
|
Her new devotional zeal was now quite an odd thing;
|
|
it had not slackened at all from the revival pitch.
|
|
At the outset she had tried several times to talk with her
|
|
husband upon this subject. He had discouraged conversation
|
|
about her soul and its welfare, at first obliquely, then,
|
|
under compulsion, with some directness. His thoughts
|
|
were absorbed, he said, by the contemplation of vast,
|
|
abstract schemes of creation and the government of the universe,
|
|
and it only diverted and embarrassed his mind to try
|
|
to fasten it upon the details of personal salvation.
|
|
Thereafter the topic was not broached between them.
|
|
|
|
She bestowed a good deal of attention, too, upon her piano.
|
|
The knack of a girlish nimbleness of touch had returned
|
|
to her after a few weeks, and she made music which Theron
|
|
supposed was very good--for her. It pleased him,
|
|
at all events, when he sat and listened to it; but he had
|
|
a far greater pleasure, as he listened, in dwelling upon
|
|
the memories of the yellow and blue room which the sounds
|
|
always brought up. Although three months had passed,
|
|
Thurston's had never asked for the first payment on the piano,
|
|
or even sent in a bill. This impressed him as being
|
|
peculiarly graceful behavior on his part, and he recognized
|
|
its delicacy by not going near Thurston's at all.
|
|
|
|
An hour's sharp walk, occasionally broken by short
|
|
cuts across open pastures, but for the most part on
|
|
forest paths, brought Theron to the brow of a small knoll,
|
|
free from underbrush, and covered sparsely with
|
|
beech-trees. The ground was soft with moss and the
|
|
powdered remains of last year's foliage; the leaves above
|
|
him were showing the first yellow stains of autumn.
|
|
A sweet smell of ripening nuts was thick upon the air,
|
|
and busy rustlings and chirpings through the stillness told
|
|
how the chipmunks and squirrels were attending to their harvest.
|
|
|
|
Theron had no ears for these noises of the woodland.
|
|
He had halted, and was searching through the little
|
|
vistas offered between the stout gray trunks of the
|
|
beeches for some sign of a more sophisticated sort.
|
|
Yes! there were certainly voices to be heard, down in
|
|
the hollow. And now, beyond all possibility of mistake,
|
|
there came up to him the low, rhythmic throb of music.
|
|
It was the merest faint murmur of music, made up almost
|
|
wholly of groaning bass notes, but it was enough.
|
|
He moved down the slope, swiftly at first, then with
|
|
increasing caution. The sounds grew louder as he advanced,
|
|
until he could hear the harmony of the other strings
|
|
in its place beside the uproar of the big fiddles,
|
|
and distinguish from both the measured noise of many feet
|
|
moving as one.
|
|
|
|
He reached a place from which, himself unobserved,
|
|
he could overlook much of what he had come to see.
|
|
|
|
The bottom of the glade below him lay out in the full sunshine,
|
|
as flat and as velvety in its fresh greenness as a garden lawn.
|
|
Its open expanse was big enough to accommodate several
|
|
distinct crowds, and here the crowds were--one massed about
|
|
an enclosure in which young men were playing at football,
|
|
another gathered further off in a horse-shoe curve at
|
|
the end of a baseball diamond, and a third thronging
|
|
at a point where the shade of overhanging woods began,
|
|
focussed upon a centre of interest which Theron could
|
|
not make out. Closer at hand, where a shallow stream
|
|
rippled along over its black-slate bed, some little boys,
|
|
with legs bared to the thighs, were paddling about,
|
|
under the charge of two men clad in long black gowns.
|
|
There were others of these frocked monitors scattered
|
|
here and there upon the scene--pallid, close-shaven,
|
|
monkish figures, who none the less wore modern hats,
|
|
and superintended with knowledge the games of the period.
|
|
Theron remembered that these were the Christian Brothers,
|
|
the semi-monastic teachers of the Catholic school.
|
|
|
|
And this was the picnic of the Catholics of Octavius.
|
|
He gazed in mingled amazement and exhilaration upon
|
|
the spectacle. There seemed to be literally thousands
|
|
of people on the open fields before him, and apparently
|
|
there were still other thousands in the fringes of the woods
|
|
round about. The noises which arose from this multitude--
|
|
the shouts of the lads in the water, the playful
|
|
squeals of the girls in the swings, the fused uproar
|
|
of the more distant crowds, and above all the diligent,
|
|
ordered strains of the dance-music proceeding from
|
|
some invisible distance in the greenwood--charmed his
|
|
ears with their suggestion of universal merriment.
|
|
He drew a long breath--half pleasure, half wistful regret--
|
|
as he remembered that other gathering in the forest
|
|
which he had left behind.
|
|
|
|
At any rate, it should be well behind him today, whatever the
|
|
morrow might bring! Evidently he was on the wrong side
|
|
of the circle for the headquarters of the festivities.
|
|
He turned and walked to the right through the beeches,
|
|
making a detour, under cover, of the crowds at play.
|
|
At last he rounded the long oval of the clearing,
|
|
and found himself at the very edge of that largest throng
|
|
of all, which had been too far away for comprehension
|
|
at the beginning. There was no mystery now. A rough,
|
|
narrow shed, fully fifty feet in length, imposed itself
|
|
in an arbitrary line across the face of this crowd,
|
|
dividing it into two compact halves. Inside this shed,
|
|
protected all round by a waist-high barrier of boards,
|
|
on top of which ran a flat, table-like covering, were twenty
|
|
men in their shirt-sleeves, toiling ceaselessly to keep
|
|
abreast of the crowd's thirst for beer. The actions
|
|
of these bartenders greatly impressed Theron. They moved
|
|
like so many machines, using one hand, apparently, to take
|
|
money and give change, and with the other incessantly
|
|
sweeping off rows of empty glasses, and tossing forward
|
|
in their place fresh, foaming glasses five at a time.
|
|
Hundreds of arms and hands were continually stretched out,
|
|
on both sides of the shed, toward this streaming bar,
|
|
and through the babel of eager cries rose without pause the
|
|
racket of mallets tapping new kegs.
|
|
|
|
Theron had never seen any considerable number of his
|
|
fellow-citizens engaged in drinking lager beer before.
|
|
His surprise at the facility of those behind the bar
|
|
began to yield, upon observation, to a profound amazement
|
|
at the thirst of those before it. The same people
|
|
seemed to be always in front, emptying the glasses
|
|
faster than the busy men inside could replenish them,
|
|
and clamoring tirelessly for more. Newcomers had to
|
|
force their way to the bar by violent efforts, and once
|
|
there they stayed until pushed bodily aside. There were
|
|
actually women to be seen here and there in the throng,
|
|
elbowing and shoving like the rest for a place at the front.
|
|
Some of the more gallant young men fought their way outward,
|
|
from time to time, carrying for safety above their heads
|
|
glasses of beer which they gave to young and pretty girls
|
|
standing on the fringe of the crowd, among the trees.
|
|
|
|
Everywhere a remarkable good-humor prevailed.
|
|
Once a sharp fight broke out, just at the end of the bar
|
|
nearest Theron, and one young man was knocked down.
|
|
A rush of the onlookers confused everything before the
|
|
minister's eyes for a minute, and then he saw the aggrieved
|
|
combatant up on his legs again, consenting under the kindly
|
|
pressure of the crowd to shake hands with his antagonist,
|
|
and join him in more beer. The incident caught his fancy.
|
|
There was something very pleasingly human, he thought,
|
|
in this primitive readiness to resort to fisticuffs,
|
|
and this frank and genial reconciliation.
|
|
|
|
Perhaps there was something contagious in this wholesale
|
|
display of thirst, for the Rev. Mr. Ware became conscious
|
|
of a notion that he should like to try a glass of beer.
|
|
He recalled having heard that lager was really a most
|
|
harmless beverage. Of course it was out of the question
|
|
that he should show himself at the bar. Perhaps some one
|
|
would bring him out a glass, as if he were a pretty girl.
|
|
He looked about for a possible messenger. Turning, he found
|
|
himself face to face with two smiling people, into whose
|
|
eyes he stared for an instant in dumfounded blankness.
|
|
Then his countenance flashed with joy, and he held out both
|
|
hands in greeting. It was Father Forbes and Celia.
|
|
|
|
"We stole down upon you unawares," said the priest,
|
|
in his cheeriest manner. He wore a brown straw hat,
|
|
and loose clothes hardly at all clerical in form,
|
|
and had Miss Madden's arm drawn lightly within his own.
|
|
"We could barely believe our eyes--that it could be you
|
|
whom we saw, here among the sinners!"
|
|
|
|
"I am in love with your sinners," responded Theron,
|
|
as he shook hands with Celia, and trusted himself to look
|
|
fully into her eyes. "I've had five days of the saints,
|
|
over in another part of the woods, and they've bored the
|
|
head off me."
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XXIII
|
|
|
|
|
|
At the command of Father Forbes, a lad who was loitering
|
|
near them went down through the throng to the bar,
|
|
and returned with three glasses of beer. It pleased
|
|
the Rev. Mr. Ware that the priest should have taken it
|
|
for granted that he would do as the others did. He knocked
|
|
his glass against theirs in compliance with a custom strange
|
|
to him, but which they seemed to understand very well.
|
|
The beer itself was not so agreeable to the taste as he
|
|
had expected, but it was cold and refreshing.
|
|
|
|
When the boy had returned with the glasses, the three
|
|
stood for a moment in silence, meditatively watching
|
|
the curious scene spread below them. Beyond the bar,
|
|
Theron could catch now through the trees regularly
|
|
recurring glimpses of four or five swings in motion.
|
|
These were nearest him, and clearest to the vision
|
|
as well, at the instant when they reached their highest
|
|
forward point. The seats were filled with girls,
|
|
some of them quite grown young women, and their curving
|
|
upward sweep through the air was disclosing at its climax
|
|
a remarkable profusion of white skirts and black stockings.
|
|
The sight struck him as indecorous in the extreme, and he
|
|
turned his eyes away. They met Celia's; and there was
|
|
something latent in their brown depths which prompted him,
|
|
after a brief dalliance of interchanging glances, to look
|
|
again at the swings.
|
|
|
|
"That old maid Curran is really too ridiculous,
|
|
with those white stockings of hers," remarked Celia;
|
|
"some friend ought to tell her to dye them."
|
|
|
|
"Or pad them," suggested Father Forbes, with a gay
|
|
little chuckle. "I daresay the question of swings and ladies'
|
|
stockings hardly arises with you, over at the camp-meeting, Mr. Ware?"
|
|
|
|
Theron laughed aloud at the conceit. "I should say not!"
|
|
he replied.
|
|
|
|
"I'm just dying to see a camp-meeting!" said Celia.
|
|
"You hear such racy accounts of what goes on at them."
|
|
|
|
"Don't go, I beg of you!" urged Theron, with doleful emphasis.
|
|
"Don't let's even talk about them. I should like to feel
|
|
this afternoon as if there was no such thing within
|
|
a thousand miles of me as a camp-meeting. Do you know,
|
|
all this interests me enormously. It is a revelation to me
|
|
to see these thousands of good, decent, ordinary people,
|
|
just frankly enjoying themselves like human beings.
|
|
I suppose that in this whole huge crowd there isn't
|
|
a single person who will mention the subject of his soul
|
|
to any other person all day long."
|
|
|
|
"I should think the assumption was a safe one," said the
|
|
priest, smilingly, "unless," he added on afterthought,
|
|
"it be by way of a genial profanity. There used to be
|
|
some old Clare men who said 'Hell to my soul!' when they
|
|
missed at quoits, but I haven't heard it for a long time.
|
|
I daresay they're all dead."
|
|
|
|
"I shall never forget that death-bed--where I saw you first,"
|
|
remarked Theron, musingly. "I date from that experience
|
|
a whole new life. I have been greatly struck lately,
|
|
in reading our 'Northern Christian Advocate' to see
|
|
in the obituary notices of prominent Methodists how over
|
|
and over again it is recorded that they got religion
|
|
in their youth through being frightened by some illness
|
|
of their own, or some epidemic about them. The cholera
|
|
year of 1832 seems to have made Methodists hand over fist.
|
|
Even to this day our most successful revivalists,
|
|
those who work conversions wholesale wherever they go,
|
|
do it more by frightful pictures of hell-fire surrounding
|
|
the sinner's death-bed than anything else. You could
|
|
hear the same thing at our camp-meeting tonight, if you
|
|
were there."
|
|
|
|
"There isn't so much difference as you think,"
|
|
said Father Forbes, dispassionately. "Your people keep
|
|
examining their souls, just as children keep pulling up
|
|
the bulbs they have planted to see are there any roots yet.
|
|
Our people are more satisfied to leave their souls alone,
|
|
once they have been planted, so to speak, by baptism.
|
|
But fear of hell governs them both, pretty much alike.
|
|
As I remember saying to you once before, there is really
|
|
nothing new under the sun. Even the saying isn't new.
|
|
Though there seem to have been the most tremendous changes
|
|
in races and civilizations and religions, stretching over
|
|
many thousands of years, yet nothing is in fact altered
|
|
very much. Where religions are concerned, the human race
|
|
are still very like savages in a dangerous wood in the dark,
|
|
telling one another ghost stories around a camp-fire. They
|
|
have always been like that."
|
|
|
|
"What nonsense!" cried Celia. "I have no patience with
|
|
such gloomy rubbish. The Greeks had a religion full
|
|
of beauty and happiness and light-heartedness, and they
|
|
weren't frightened of death at all. They made the image
|
|
of death a beautiful boy, with a torch turned down.
|
|
Their greatest philosophers openly preached and practised
|
|
the doctrine of suicide when one was tired of life.
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Our own early Church was full of these broad and beautiful
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Greek ideas. You know that yourself! And it was only
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when your miserable Jeromes and Augustines and Cyrils
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brought in the abominable meannesses and cruelties
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of the Jewish Old Testament, and stamped out the sane
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and lovely Greek elements in the Church, that Christians
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became the poor, whining, cowardly egotists they are,
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troubling about their little tin-pot souls, and scaring
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themselves in their churches by skulls and crossbones."
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"My dear Celia," interposed the priest, patting her
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shoulder gently, "we will have no Greek debate today.
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Mr. Ware has been permitted to taboo camp-meetings,
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and I claim the privilege to cry off on Greeks. Look at
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those fellows down there, trampling over one another
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to get more beer. What have they to do with Athens,
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or Athens with them? I take it, Mr. Ware," he went on,
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with a grave face but a twinkling eye, "that what we are
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observing here in front of us is symbolical of a great
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ethical and theological revolution, which in time will modify
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and control the destiny of the entire American people.
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You see those young Irishmen there, struggling like pigs at
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a trough to get their fill of German beer. That signifies
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a conquest of Teuton over Kelt more important and far-reaching
|
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in its results than the landing of Hengist and Horsa.
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The Kelt has come to grief heretofore--or at least been
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forced to play second fiddle to other races--because he
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lacked the right sort of a drink. He has in his blood an
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excess of impulsive, imaginative, even fantastic qualities.
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It is much easier for him to make a fool of himself,
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to begin with, than it is for people of slower wits and
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more sluggish temperaments. When you add whiskey to that,
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or that essence of melancholia which in Ireland they call
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'porther,' you get the Kelt at his very weakest and worst.
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These young men down there are changing all that.
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They have discovered lager. Already many of them
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can outdrink the Germans at their own beverage.
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The lager-drinking Irishman in a few generations will
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be a new type of humanity--the Kelt at his best.
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He will dominate America. He will be THE American.
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And his church--with the Italian element thrown clean out
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of it, and its Pope living, say, in Baltimore or Georgetown--
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will be the Church of America."
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"Let us have some more lager at once," put in Celia.
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"This revolution can't be hurried forward too rapidly."
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Theron could not feel sure how much of the priest's discourse
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was in jest, how much in earnest. "It seems to me,"
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he said, "that as things are going, it doesn't look much
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|
as if the America of the future will trouble itself about
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any kind of a church. The march of science must very soon
|
|
produce a universal scepticism. It is in the nature of
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human progress. What all intelligent men recognize today,
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the masses must surely come to see in time."
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Father Forbes laughed outright this time. "My dear
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Mr. Ware," he said, as they touched glasses again,
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and sipped the fresh beer that had been brought them,
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|
"of all our fictions there is none so utterly baseless
|
|
and empty as this idea that humanity progresses.
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|
The savage's natural impression is that the world he
|
|
sees about him was made for him, and that the rest
|
|
of the universe is subordinated to him and his world,
|
|
and that all the spirits and demons and gods occupy
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|
themselves exclusively with him and his affairs.
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|
That idea was the basis of every pagan religion, and it
|
|
is the basis of the Christian religion, simply because it
|
|
is the foundation of human nature. That foundation is just
|
|
as firm and unshaken today as it was in the Stone Age.
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|
It will always remain, and upon it will always be built
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some kind of a religious superstructure. 'Intelligent men,'
|
|
as you call them, really have very little influence,
|
|
even when they all pull one way. The people as a whole
|
|
soon get tired of them. They give too much trouble.
|
|
The most powerful forces in human nature are self-protection
|
|
and inertia. The middle-aged man has found out that the
|
|
chief wisdom in life is to bend to the pressures about him,
|
|
to shut up and do as others do. Even when he thinks he
|
|
has rid his own mind of superstitions, he sees that he
|
|
will best enjoy a peaceful life by leaving other peoples'
|
|
superstitions alone. That is always the ultimate view of
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|
the crowd."
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"But I don't see," observed Theron, "granting that all
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this is true, how you think the Catholic Church will come
|
|
out on top. I could understand it of Unitarianism,
|
|
or Universalism, or the Episcopal Church, where nobody
|
|
seems to have to believe particularly in anything except
|
|
the beauty of its burial service, but I should think the very
|
|
rigidity of the Catholic creed would make it impossible.
|
|
There everything is hard and fast; nothing is elastic;
|
|
there is no room for compromise."
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|
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|
"The Church is always compromising," explained the priest,
|
|
"only it does it so slowly that no one man lives long
|
|
enough to quite catch it at the trick. No; the great
|
|
secret of the Catholic Church is that it doesn't debate
|
|
with sceptics. No matter what points you make against it,
|
|
it is never betrayed into answering back. It simply says
|
|
these things are sacred mysteries, which you are quite
|
|
free to accept and be saved, or reject and be damned.
|
|
There is something intelligible and fine about an attitude
|
|
like that. When people have grown tired of their absurd
|
|
and fruitless wrangling over texts and creeds which,
|
|
humanly speaking, are all barbaric nonsense, they will
|
|
come back to repose pleasantly under the Catholic roof,
|
|
in that restful house where things are taken for granted.
|
|
There the manners are charming, the service excellent,
|
|
the decoration and upholstery most acceptable to the eye,
|
|
and the music"--he made a little mock bow here to Celia--"the
|
|
music at least is divine. There you have nothing to do but
|
|
be agreeable, and avoid scandal, and observe the convenances.
|
|
You are no more expected to express doubts about the
|
|
Immaculate Conception than you are to ask the lady whom
|
|
you take down to dinner how old she is. Now that is, as I
|
|
have said, an intelligent and rational church for people
|
|
to have. As the Irish civilize themselves--you observe
|
|
them diligently engaged in the process down below there--
|
|
and the social roughness of their church becomes softened
|
|
and ameliorated, Americans will inevitably be attracted
|
|
toward it. In the end, it will embrace them all, and be
|
|
modified by them, and in turn influence their development,
|
|
till you will have a new nation and a new national church,
|
|
each representative of the other."
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|
|
|
"And all this is to be done by lager beer!"
|
|
Theron ventured to comment, jokingly. He was conscious
|
|
of a novel perspiration around the bridge of his nose,
|
|
which was obviously another effect of the drink.
|
|
|
|
The priest passed the pleasantry by. "No," he said seriously;
|
|
"what you must see is that there must always be a church.
|
|
If one did not exist, it would be necessary to invent it.
|
|
It is needed, first and foremost, as a police force.
|
|
It is needed, secondly, so to speak, as a fire insurance.
|
|
It provides the most even temperature and pure atmosphere
|
|
for the growth of young children. It furnishes the best
|
|
obtainable social machinery for marrying off one's daughters,
|
|
getting to know the right people, patching up quarrels,
|
|
and so on. The priesthood earn their salaries as
|
|
the agents for these valuable social arrangements.
|
|
Their theology is thrown in as a sort of intellectual
|
|
diversion, like the ritual of a benevolent organization.
|
|
There are some who get excited about this part of it,
|
|
just as one hears of Free-Masons who believe that the sun
|
|
rises and sets to exemplify their ceremonies. Others take
|
|
their duties more quietly, and, understanding just
|
|
what it all amounts to, make the best of it, like you
|
|
and me."
|
|
|
|
Theron assented to the philosophy and the compliment
|
|
by a grave bow. "Yes, that is the idea--to make the best
|
|
of it," he said, and fastened his regard boldly this
|
|
time upon the swings.
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|
|
|
"We were both ordained by our bishops," continued the priest,
|
|
"at an age when those worthy old gentlemen would not have
|
|
trusted our combined wisdom to buy a horse for them."
|
|
|
|
"And I was married," broke in Theron, with an eagerness
|
|
almost vehement, "when I had only just been ordained!
|
|
At the worst, YOU had only the Church fastened upon your back,
|
|
before you were old enough to know what you wanted.
|
|
It is easy enough to make the best of THAT, but it is
|
|
different with me."
|
|
|
|
A marked silence followed this outburst. The Rev. Mr. Ware
|
|
had never spoken of his marriage to either of these
|
|
friends before; and something in their manner seemed
|
|
to suggest that they did not find the subject inviting,
|
|
now that it had been broached. He himself was filled
|
|
with a desire to say more about it. He had never clearly
|
|
realized before what a genuine grievance it was.
|
|
The moisture at the top of his nose merged itself into
|
|
tears in the corners of his eyes, as the cruel enormity
|
|
of the sacrifice he had made in his youth rose before him.
|
|
His whole life had been fettered and darkened by it.
|
|
He turned his gaze from the swings toward Celia, to claim
|
|
the sympathy he knew she would feel for him.
|
|
|
|
But Celia was otherwise engaged. A young man had
|
|
come up to her--a tall and extremely thin young man,
|
|
soberly dressed, and with a long, gaunt, hollow-eyed face,
|
|
the skin of which seemed at once florid and pale.
|
|
He had sandy hair and the rough hands of a workman;
|
|
but he was speaking to Miss Madden in the confidential
|
|
tones of an equal.
|
|
|
|
"I can do nothing at all with him," this newcomer said
|
|
to her. "He'll not be said by me. Perhaps he'd listen
|
|
to you!"
|
|
|
|
"It's likely I'll go down there!" said Celia.
|
|
"He may do what he likes for all me! Take my advice,
|
|
Michael, and just go your way, and leave him to himself.
|
|
There was a time when I would have taken out my eyes
|
|
for him, but it was love wasted and thrown away.
|
|
After the warnings he's had, if he WILL bring trouble
|
|
on himself, let's make it no affair of ours."
|
|
|
|
Theron had found himself exchanging glances of inquiry
|
|
with this young man. "Mr. Ware," said Celia, here, "let me
|
|
introduce you to my brother Michael--my full brother."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Ware remembered him now, and began, in response to the
|
|
other's formal bow, to say something about their having
|
|
met in the dark, inside the church. But Celia held up
|
|
her hand. "I'm afraid, Mr. Ware," she said hurriedly,
|
|
"that you are in for a glimpse of the family skeleton.
|
|
I will apologize for the infliction in advance."
|
|
|
|
Wonderingly, Theron followed her look, and saw another
|
|
young man who had come up the path from the crowd below,
|
|
and was close upon them. The minister recognized in him
|
|
a figure which had seemed to be the centre of almost every
|
|
group about the bar that he had studied in detail. He was
|
|
a small, dapper, elegantly attired youth, with dark hair,
|
|
and the handsome, regularly carved face of an actor.
|
|
He advanced with a smiling countenance and unsteady step--
|
|
his silk hat thrust back upon his head, his frock-coat and
|
|
vest unbuttoned, and his neckwear disarranged--and saluted
|
|
the company with amiability.
|
|
|
|
"I saw you up here, Father Forbes," he said, with a
|
|
thickened and erratic utterance. "Whyn't you come
|
|
down and join us? I'm setting 'em up for everybody.
|
|
You got to take care of the boys, you know. I'll blow
|
|
in the last cent I've got in the world for the boys,
|
|
every time, and they know it. They're solider for me
|
|
than they ever were for anybody. That's how it is.
|
|
If you stand by the boys, the boys'll stand by you.
|
|
I'm going to the Assembly for this district, and they ain't
|
|
nobody can stop me. The boys are just red hot for me.
|
|
Wish you'd come down, Father Forbes, and address a few
|
|
words to the meeting--just mention that I'm a candidate,
|
|
and say I'm bound to win, hands down. That'll make you solid
|
|
with the boys, and we'll be all good fellows together.
|
|
Come on down!"
|
|
|
|
The priest affably disengaged his arm from the clutch
|
|
which the speaker had laid upon it, and shook his head
|
|
in gentle deprecation. "No, no; you must excuse me,
|
|
Theodore," he said. "We mustn't meddle in politics, you know."
|
|
|
|
"Politics be damned!" urged Theodore, grabbing the priest's
|
|
other arm, and tugging at it stoutly to pull him down
|
|
the path. "I say, boys" he shouted to those below,
|
|
"here's Father Forbes, and he's going to come down
|
|
and address the meeting. Come on, Father! Come down,
|
|
and have a drink with the boys!"
|
|
|
|
It was Celia who sharply pulled his hand away from the
|
|
priest's arm this time. "Go away with you!" she snapped
|
|
in low, angry tones at the intruder. "You should be
|
|
ashamed of yourself! If you can't keep sober yourself,
|
|
you can at least keep your hands off the priest. I should
|
|
think you'd have more decency, when you're in such a state
|
|
as this, than to come where I am. If you've no respect
|
|
for yourself, you might have that much respect for me!
|
|
And before strangers, too!
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I mustn't come where YOU are, eh?" remarked the peccant
|
|
Theodore, straightening himself with an elaborate effort.
|
|
"You've bought these woods, have you? I've got a hundred
|
|
friends here, all the same, for every one you'll ever
|
|
have in your life, Red-head, and don't you forget it."
|
|
|
|
"Go and spend your money with them, then, and don't come
|
|
insulting decent people," said Celia.
|
|
|
|
"Before strangers, too!" the young man called out,
|
|
with beery sarcasm. "Oh, we'll take care of the
|
|
strangers all right." He had not seemed to be aware of
|
|
Theron's presence, much less his identity, before; but he
|
|
turned to him now with a knowing grin. "I'm running
|
|
for the Assembly, Mr. Ware," he said, speaking loudly
|
|
and with deliberate effort to avoid the drunken elisions
|
|
and comminglings to which his speech tended, "and I want
|
|
you to fix up the Methodists solid for me. I'm going
|
|
to drive over to the camp-meeting tonight, me and some
|
|
of the boys in a barouche, and I'll put a twenty-dollar
|
|
bill on their plate. Here it is now, if you want to see it."
|
|
|
|
As the young man began fumbling in a vest-pocket, Theron
|
|
gathered his wits together.
|
|
|
|
"You'd better not go this evening," he said, as convincingly
|
|
as he knew how; "because the gates will be closed very early,
|
|
and the Saturday-evening services are of a particularly
|
|
special nature, quite reserved for those living on the grounds."
|
|
|
|
"Rats!" said Theodore, raising his head, and abandoning
|
|
the search for the bill. "Why don't you speak out
|
|
like a man, and say you think I'm too drunk?"
|
|
|
|
"I don't think that is a question which need arise
|
|
between us, Mr. Madden," murmured Theron, confusedly.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, don't you make any mistake! A hell of a lot of
|
|
questions arise between us, Mr. Ware," cried Theodore,
|
|
with a sudden accession of vigor in tone and mien.
|
|
"And one of 'em is--go away from me, Michael!--one of 'em is,
|
|
I say, why don't you leave our girls alone? They've got
|
|
their own priests to make fools of themselves over,
|
|
without any sneak of a Protestant parson coming meddling
|
|
round them. You're a married man into the bargain;
|
|
and you've got in your house this minute a piano that my
|
|
sister bought and paid for. Oh, I've seen the entry
|
|
in Thurston's books! You have the cheek to talk to me
|
|
about being drunk--why--"
|
|
|
|
These remarks were never concluded, for Father Forbes
|
|
here clapped a hand abruptly over the offending mouth,
|
|
and flung his free arm in a tight grip around the young
|
|
man's waist. "Come with me, Michael!" he said, and the two
|
|
men led the reluctant and resisting Theodore at a sharp
|
|
pace off into the woods.
|
|
|
|
Theron and Celia stood and watched them disappear among
|
|
the undergrowth. "It's the dirty Foley blood that's in him,"
|
|
he heard her say, as if between clenched teeth.
|
|
|
|
The girl's big brown eyes, when Theron looked into them again,
|
|
were still fixed upon the screen of foliage, and dilated
|
|
like those of a Medusa mask. The blood had gone away,
|
|
and left the fair face and neck as white, it seemed to him,
|
|
as marble. Even her lips, fiercely bitten together,
|
|
appeared colorless. The picture of consuming and powerless
|
|
rage which she presented, and the shuddering tremor
|
|
which ran over her form, as visible as the quivering track
|
|
of a gust of wind across a pond, awed and frightened him.
|
|
|
|
Tenderness toward her helpless state came too, and uppermost.
|
|
He drew her arm into his, and turned their backs upon
|
|
the picnic scene.
|
|
|
|
"Let us walk a little up the path into the woods," he said,
|
|
"and get away from all this."
|
|
|
|
"The further away the better," she answered bitterly,
|
|
and he felt the shiver run through her again as she spoke.
|
|
|
|
The methodical waltz-music from that unseen dancing
|
|
platform rose again above all other sounds. They moved
|
|
up the woodland path, their steps insensibly falling
|
|
into the rhythm of its strains, and vanished from sight
|
|
among the trees.
|
|
|
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|
|
CHAPTER XXIV
|
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|
|
|
|
Theron and Celia walked in silence for some minutes,
|
|
until the noises of the throng they had left behind were lost.
|
|
The path they followed had grown indefinite among the
|
|
grass and creepers of the forest carpet; now it seemed
|
|
to end altogether in a little copse of young birches,
|
|
the delicately graceful stems of which were clustered
|
|
about a parent stump, long since decayed and overgrown
|
|
with lichens and layers of thick moss.
|
|
|
|
As the two paused, the girl suddenly sank upon her knees,
|
|
then threw herself face forward upon the soft green bark
|
|
which had formed itself above the roots of the ancient
|
|
mother-tree. Her companion looked down in pained amazement
|
|
at what he saw. Her body shook with the violence of
|
|
recurring sobs, or rather gasps of wrath and grief Her hands,
|
|
with stiffened, claw-like fingers, dug into the moss
|
|
and tangle of tiny vines, and tore them by the roots.
|
|
The half-stifled sounds of weeping that arose from where her
|
|
face grovelled in the leaves were terrible to his ears.
|
|
He knew not what to say or do, but gazed in resourceless
|
|
suspense at the strange figure she made. It seemed a
|
|
cruelly long time that she lay there, almost at his feet,
|
|
struggling fiercely with the fury that was in her.
|
|
|
|
All at once the paroxysms passed away, the sounds of wild
|
|
weeping ceased. Celia sat up, and with her handkerchief
|
|
wiped the tears and leafy fragments from her face.
|
|
She rearranged her hat and the braids of her hair with swift,
|
|
instinctive touches, brushed the woodland debris from
|
|
her front, and sprang to her feet.
|
|
|
|
"I'm all right now," she said briskly. There was palpable
|
|
effort in her light tone, and in the stormy sort of smile
|
|
which she forced upon her blotched and perturbed countenance,
|
|
but they were only too welcome to Theron's anxious mood.
|
|
|
|
"Thank God!" he blurted out, all radiant with relief.
|
|
"I feared you were going to have a fit--or something."
|
|
|
|
Celia laughed, a little artificially at first, then with a
|
|
genuine surrender to the comic side of his visible fright.
|
|
The mirth came back into the brown depths of her eyes again,
|
|
and her face cleared itself of tear-stains and the marks
|
|
of agitation. "I AM a nice quiet party for a Methodist
|
|
minister to go walking in the woods with, am I not?"
|
|
she cried, shaking her skirts and smiling at him.
|
|
|
|
"I am not a Methodist minister--please!" answered Theron--"at
|
|
least not today--and here--with you! I am just a man--
|
|
nothing more--a man who has escaped from lifelong imprisonment,
|
|
and feels for the first time what it is to be free!"
|
|
|
|
"Ah, my friend," Celia said, shaking her head slowly,
|
|
"I'm afraid you deceive yourself. You are not by any
|
|
means free. You are only looking out of the window
|
|
of your prison, as you call it. The doors are locked,
|
|
just the same."
|
|
|
|
"I will smash them!" he declared, with confidence.
|
|
"Or for that matter, I HAVE smashed them--battered them
|
|
to pieces. You don't realize what progress I have made,
|
|
what changes there have been in me since that night,
|
|
you remember that wonderful night! I am quite another being,
|
|
I assure you! And really it dates from way beyond that--
|
|
why, from the very first evening, when I came to you in
|
|
the church. The window in Father Forbes' room was open,
|
|
and I stood by it listening to the music next door,
|
|
and I could just faintly see on the dark window across
|
|
the alley-way a stained-glass picture of a woman.
|
|
I suppose it was the Virgin Mary. She had hair like yours,
|
|
and your face, too; and that is why I went into the church
|
|
and found you. Yes, that is why."
|
|
|
|
Celia regarded him with gravity. "You will get yourself
|
|
into great trouble, my friend," she said.
|
|
|
|
"That's where you're wrong," put in Theron. "Not that I'd
|
|
mind any trouble in this wide world, so long as you called
|
|
me 'my friend,' but I'm not going to get into any at all.
|
|
I know a trick worth two of that. I've learned to be a showman.
|
|
I can preach now far better than I used to, and I can get
|
|
through my work in half the time, and keep on the right
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side of my people, and get along with perfect smoothness.
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I was too green before. I took the thing seriously,
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and I let every mean-fisted curmudgeon and crazy fanatic
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worry me, and keep me on pins and needles. I don't
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do that any more. I've taken a new measure of life.
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I see now what life is really worth, and I'm going
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to have my share of it. Why should I deliberately deny
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myself all possible happiness for the rest of my days,
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simply because I made a fool of myself when I was in
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my teens? Other men are not eternally punished like that,
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for what they did as boys, and I won't submit to it either.
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I will be as free to enjoy myself as--as Father Forbes."
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Celia smiled softly, and shook her head again. "Poor man,
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to call HIM free!" she said: "why, he is bound hand and foot.
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You don't in the least realize how he is hedged about,
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the work he has to do, the thousand suspicious eyes
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that watch his every movement, eager to bring the Bishop
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down upon him. And then think of his sacrifice--
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the great sacrifice of all--to never know what love means,
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to forswear his manhood, to live a forlorn, celibate life--
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you have no idea how sadly that appeals to a woman."
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"Let us sit down here for a little," said Theron;
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"we seem at the end of the path." She seated herself
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on the root-based mound, and he reclined at her side,
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with an arm carelessly extended behind her on the moss.
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"I can see what you mean," he went on, after a pause.
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"But to me, do you know, there is an enormous fascination
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in celibacy. You forget that I know the reverse of the medal.
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I know how the mind can be cramped, the nerves harassed,
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the ambitions spoiled and rotted, the whole existence
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darkened and belittled, by--by the other thing. I have
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never talked to you before about my marriage."
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|
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"I don't think we'd better talk about it now," observed Celia.
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"There must be many more amusing topics."
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|
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He missed the spirit of her remark. "You are right,"
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he said slowly. "It is too sad a thing to talk about.
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But there! it is my load, and I bear it, and there's nothing
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more to be said."
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Theron drew a heavy sigh, and let his fingers toy
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abstractedly with a ribbon on the outer edge of Celia's
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penumbra of apparel.
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"No," she said. "We mustn't snivel, and we mustn't sulk.
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When I get into a rage it makes me ill, and I storm my way
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through it and tear things, but it doesn't last long,
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|
and I come out of it feeling all the better. I don't know
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that I've ever seen your wife. I suppose she hasn't got
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red hair?"
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"I think it's a kind of light brown," answered Theron,
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with an effect of exerting his memory.
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"It seems that you only take notice of hair
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in stained-glass windows," was Celia's comment.
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|
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"Oh-h!" he murmured reproachfully, "as if--as if--
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|
but I won't say what I was going to."
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|
|
|
"That's not fair!" she said. The little touch of whimsical
|
|
mockery which she gave to the serious declaration was
|
|
delicious to him. "You have me at such a disadvantage!
|
|
Here am I rattling out whatever comes into my head,
|
|
exposing all my lightest emotions, and laying bare my
|
|
very heart in candor, and you meditate, you turn things
|
|
over cautiously in your mind, like a second Machiavelli.
|
|
I grow afraid of you; you are so subtle and mysterious in
|
|
your reserves."
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|
|
|
Theron gave a tug at the ribbon, to show the joy he had
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|
in her delicate chaff. "No, it is you who are secretive,"
|
|
he said. "You never told me about--about the piano."
|
|
|
|
The word was out! A minute before it had seemed incredible
|
|
to him that he should ever have the courage to utter it--
|
|
but here it was. He laid firm hold upon the ribbon,
|
|
which it appeared hung from her waist, and drew himself
|
|
a trifle nearer to her. "I could never have consented
|
|
to take it, I'm afraid," he went on in a low voice,
|
|
if I had known. And even as it is, I fear it won't
|
|
be possible."
|
|
|
|
"What are you afraid of?" asked Celia. "Why shouldn't you
|
|
take it? People in your profession never do get anything
|
|
unless it's given to them, do they? I've always understood
|
|
it was like that. I've often read of donation parties--
|
|
that's what they're called, isn't it?--where everybody
|
|
is supposed to bring some gift to the minister.
|
|
Very well, then, I've simply had a donation party of my own,
|
|
that's all. Unless you mean that my being a Catholic
|
|
makes a difference. I had supposed you were quite free
|
|
from that kind of prejudice."
|
|
|
|
"So I am! Believe me, I am!" urged Theron. "When I'm
|
|
with you, it seems impossible to realize that there are
|
|
people so narrow and contracted in their natures as to take
|
|
account of such things. It is another atmosphere that I
|
|
breathe near you. How could you imagine that such a thought--
|
|
about our difference of creed--would enter my head?
|
|
In fact," he concluded with a nervous half-laugh, "there
|
|
isn't any such difference. Whatever your religion is,
|
|
it's mine too. You remember--you adopted me as a Greek."
|
|
|
|
"Did I?" she rejoined. "Well, if that's the case,
|
|
it leaves you without a leg to stand on. I challenge you
|
|
to find any instance where a Greek made any difficulties
|
|
about accepting a piano from a friend. But seriously--
|
|
while we are talking about it--you introduced the subject:
|
|
I didn't--I might as well explain to you that I had
|
|
no such intention, when I picked the instrument out.
|
|
It was later, when I was talking to Thurston's people
|
|
about the price, that the whim seized me. Now it
|
|
is the one fixed rule of my life to obey my whims.
|
|
Whatever occurs to me as a possibly pleasant thing to do,
|
|
straight like a hash, I go and do it. It is the only
|
|
way that a person with means, with plenty of money,
|
|
can preserve any freshness of character. If they stop
|
|
to think what it would be prudent to do, they get crusted
|
|
over immediately. That is the curse of rich people--
|
|
they teach themselves to distrust and restrain every
|
|
impulse toward unusual actions. They get to feel that it
|
|
is more necessary for them to be cautious and conventional
|
|
than it is for others. I would rather work at a wash-tub
|
|
than occupy that attitude toward my bank account. I fight
|
|
against any sign of it that I detect rising in my mind.
|
|
The instant a wish occurs to me, I rush to gratify it.
|
|
That is my theory of life. That accounts for the piano;
|
|
and I don't see that you've anything to say about it at
|
|
all."
|
|
|
|
It seemed very convincing, this theory of life.
|
|
Somehow, the thought of Miss Madden's riches had never
|
|
before assumed prominence in Theron's mind. Of course
|
|
her father was very wealthy, but it had not occurred to him
|
|
that the daughter's emancipation might run to the length
|
|
of a personal fortune. He knew so little of rich people and their ways!
|
|
|
|
He lifted his head, and looked up at Celia with an awakened
|
|
humility and awe in his glance. The glamour of a separate
|
|
banking-account shone upon her. Where the soft woodland
|
|
light played in among the strands of her disordered hair,
|
|
he saw the veritable gleam of gold. A mysterious new
|
|
suggestion of power blended itself with the beauty of
|
|
her face, was exhaled in the faint perfume of her garments.
|
|
He maintained a timorous hold upon the ribbon, wondering at
|
|
his hardihood in touching it, or being near her at all.
|
|
|
|
What surprises me," he heard himself saying, "is that
|
|
you are contented to stay in Octavius. I should think
|
|
that you would travel--go abroad--see the beautiful
|
|
things of the world, surround yourself with the luxuries
|
|
of big cities--and that sort of thing."
|
|
|
|
Celia regarded the forest prospect straight in front of her
|
|
with a pensive gaze. "Sometime--no doubt I will sometime,"
|
|
she said abstractedly.
|
|
|
|
"One reads so much nowadays," he went on, "of American
|
|
heiresses going to Europe and marrying dukes and noblemen.
|
|
I suppose you will do that too. Princes would fight one
|
|
another for you."
|
|
|
|
The least touch of a smile softened for an instant
|
|
the impassivity of her countenance. Then she stared
|
|
harder than ever at the vague, leafy distance. "That is
|
|
the old-fashioned idea," she said, in a musing tone,
|
|
"that women must belong to somebody, as if they were curios,
|
|
or statues, or race-horses. You don't understand,
|
|
my friend, that I have a different view. I am myself,
|
|
and I belong to myself, exactly as much as any man.
|
|
The notion that any other human being could conceivably obtain
|
|
the slightest property rights in me is as preposterous,
|
|
as ridiculous, as--what shall I say?--as the notion
|
|
of your being taken out with a chain on your neck and
|
|
sold by auction as a slave, down on the canal bridge.
|
|
I should be ashamed to be alive for another day, if any
|
|
other thought were possible to me."
|
|
|
|
"That is not the generally accepted view, I should think,"
|
|
faltered Theron.
|
|
|
|
"No more is it the accepted view that young married
|
|
Methodist ministers should sit out alone in the
|
|
woods with red-headed Irish girls. No, my friend,
|
|
let us find what the generally accepted views are,
|
|
and as fast as we find them set our heels on them.
|
|
There is no other way to live like real human beings.
|
|
What on earth is it to me that other women crawl about on
|
|
all-fours, and fawn like dogs on any hand that will buckle
|
|
a collar onto them, and toss them the leavings of the table?
|
|
I am not related to them. I have nothing to do with them.
|
|
They cannot make any rules for me. If pride and dignity
|
|
and independence are dead in them, why, so much the worse
|
|
for them! It is no affair of mine. Certainly it is no
|
|
reason why I should get down and grovel also. No; I at
|
|
least stand erect on my legs."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Ware sat up, and stared confusedly, with round eyes
|
|
and parted lips, at his companion. Instinctively his brain
|
|
dragged forth to the surface those epithets which the doctor
|
|
had hurled in bitter contempt at her--"mad ass, a mere
|
|
bundle of egotism, ignorance, and red-headed lewdness."
|
|
The words rose in their order on his memory, hard and
|
|
sharp-edged, like arrow-heads. But to sit there, quite at
|
|
her side; to breathe the same air, and behold the calm
|
|
loveliness of her profile; to touch the ribbon of her dress--
|
|
and all the while to hold these poisoned darts of abuse
|
|
levelled in thought at her breast--it was monstrous.
|
|
He could have killed the doctor at that moment.
|
|
With an effort, he drove the foul things from his mind--
|
|
scattered them back into the darkness. He felt that he
|
|
had grown pale, and wondered if she had heard the groan
|
|
that seemed to have been forced from him in the struggle.
|
|
Or was the groan imaginary?
|
|
|
|
Celia continued to sit unmoved, composedly looking
|
|
upon vacancy. Theron's eyes searched her face in vain
|
|
for any sign of consciousness that she had astounded and
|
|
bewildered him. She did not seem to be thinking of him
|
|
at all. The proud calm of her thoughtful countenance
|
|
suggested instead occupation with lofty and remote
|
|
abstractions and noble ideals. Contemplating her,
|
|
he suddenly perceived that what she had been saying
|
|
was great, wonderful, magnificent. An involuntary thrill
|
|
ran through his veins at recollection of her words.
|
|
His fancy likened it to the sensation he used to feel
|
|
as a youth, when the Fourth of July reader bawled forth
|
|
that opening clause: "When, in the course of human events,
|
|
it becomes necessary," etc. It was nothing less than
|
|
another Declaration of Independence he had been listening to.
|
|
|
|
He sank again recumbent at her side, and stretched the
|
|
arm behind her, nearer than before. "Apparently, then,
|
|
you will never marry." His voice trembled a little.
|
|
|
|
"Most certainly not!" said Celia.
|
|
|
|
"You spoke so feelingly a little while ago," he ventured along,
|
|
with hesitation, "about how sadly the notion of a priest's
|
|
sacrificing himself--never knowing what love meant--
|
|
appealed to a woman. I should think that the idea
|
|
of sacrificing herself would seem to her even sadder still."
|
|
|
|
"I don't remember that we mentioned THAT," she replied.
|
|
"How do you mean--sacrificing herself?"
|
|
|
|
Theron gathered some of the outlying folds of her dress
|
|
in his hand, and boldly patted and caressed them.
|
|
"You, so beautiful and so free, with such fine talents
|
|
and abilities," he murmured; "you, who could have the whole
|
|
world at your feet--are you, too, never going to know
|
|
what love means? Do you call that no sacrifice? To me it
|
|
is the most terrible that my imagination can conceive."
|
|
|
|
Celia laughed--a gentle, amused little laugh, in which
|
|
Theron's ears traced elements of tenderness. "You must
|
|
regulate that imagination of yours," she said playfully.
|
|
"It conceives the thing that is not. Pray, when"--and here,
|
|
turning her head, she bent down upon his face a gaze of
|
|
arch mock-seriousness--"pray, when did I describe myself
|
|
in these terms? When did I say that I should never know
|
|
what love meant?"
|
|
|
|
For answer Theron laid his head down upon his arm,
|
|
and closed his eyes, and held his face against the draperies
|
|
encircling her. "I cannot think!" he groaned.
|
|
|
|
The thing that came uppermost in his mind, as it swayed
|
|
and rocked in the tempest of emotion, was the strange
|
|
reminiscence of early childhood in it all. It was
|
|
like being a little boy again, nestling in an innocent,
|
|
unthinking transport of affection against his mother's skirts.
|
|
The tears he felt scalding his eyes were the spontaneous,
|
|
unashamed tears of a child; the tremulous and exquisite
|
|
joy which spread, wave-like, over him, at once reposeful
|
|
and yearning, was full of infantile purity and sweetness.
|
|
He had not comprehended at all before what wellsprings
|
|
of spiritual beauty, what limpid depths of idealism,
|
|
his nature contained.
|
|
|
|
"We were speaking of our respective religions,"
|
|
he heard Celia say, as imperturbably as if there
|
|
had been no digression worth mentioning.
|
|
|
|
"Yes," he assented, and moved his head so that he
|
|
looked up at her back hair, and the leaves high above,
|
|
mottled against the sky. The wish to lie there, where now
|
|
he could just catch the rose-leaf line of her under-chin
|
|
as well, was very strong upon him. "Yes?" he repeated.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot talk to you like that," she said; and he sat
|
|
up again shamefacedly.
|
|
|
|
"Yes--I think we were speaking of religions--some time ago,"
|
|
he faltered, to relieve the situation. The dreadful
|
|
thought that she might be annoyed began to oppress him.
|
|
|
|
"Well, you said whatever my religion was, it was yours too.
|
|
That entitles you at least to be told what the religion is.
|
|
Now, I am a Catholic."
|
|
|
|
Theron, much mystified, nodded his head. Could it
|
|
be possible--was there coming a deliberate suggestion
|
|
that he should become a convert? "Yes--I know," he murmured.
|
|
|
|
"But I should explain that I am only a Catholic in the sense
|
|
that its symbolism is pleasant to me. You remember what
|
|
Schopenhauer said--you cannot have the water by itself:
|
|
you must also have the jug that it is in. Very well;
|
|
the Catholic religion is my jug. I put into it the things
|
|
I like. They were all there long ago, thousands of years ago.
|
|
The Jews threw them out; we will put them back again.
|
|
We will restore art and poetry and the love of beauty,
|
|
and the gentle, spiritual, soulful life. The Greeks
|
|
had it; and Christianity would have had it too, if it
|
|
hadn't been for those brutes they call the Fathers.
|
|
They loved ugliness and dirt and the thought of hell-fire.
|
|
They hated women. In all the earlier stages of the Church,
|
|
women were very prominent in it. Jesus himself
|
|
appreciated women, and delighted to have them about him,
|
|
and talk with them and listen to them. That was
|
|
the very essence of the Greek spirit; and it breathed
|
|
into Christianity at its birth a sweetness and a grace
|
|
which twenty generations of cranks and savages like Paul
|
|
and Jerome and Tertullian weren't able to extinguish.
|
|
But the very man, Cyril, who killed Hypatia, and thus began
|
|
the dark ages, unwittingly did another thing which makes
|
|
one almost forgive him. To please the Egyptians, he secured
|
|
the Church's acceptance of the adoration of the Virgin.
|
|
It is that idea which has kept the Greek spirit alive,
|
|
and grown and grown, till at last it will rule the world.
|
|
It was only epileptic Jews who could imagine a religion without
|
|
sex in it."
|
|
|
|
"I remember the pictures of the Virgin in your room,"
|
|
said Theron, feeling more himself again. "I wondered
|
|
if they quite went with the statues."
|
|
|
|
The remark won a smile from Celia's lips.
|
|
|
|
"They get along together better than you suppose,"
|
|
she answered. "Besides, they are not all pictures of Mary.
|
|
One of them, standing on the moon, is of Isis with the infant
|
|
Horus in her arms. Another might as well be Mahamie,
|
|
bearing the miraculously born Buddha, or Olympias
|
|
with her child Alexander, or even Perictione holding
|
|
her babe Plato--all these were similar cases, you know.
|
|
Almost every religion had its Immaculate Conception.
|
|
What does it all come to, except to show us that man
|
|
turns naturally toward the worship of the maternal idea?
|
|
That is the deepest of all our instincts--love of woman,
|
|
who is at once daughter and wife and mother. It is that that
|
|
makes the world go round."
|
|
|
|
Brave thoughts shaped themselves in Theron's mind,
|
|
and shone forth in a confident yet wistful smile on his face.
|
|
|
|
"lt is a pity you cannot change estates with me for one minute,"
|
|
he said, in steady, low tone. "Then you would realize
|
|
the tremendous truth of what you have been saying.
|
|
It is only your intellect that has reached out and grasped
|
|
the idea. If you were in my place, you would discover
|
|
that your heart was bursting with it as well."
|
|
|
|
Celia turned and looked at him.
|
|
|
|
"I myself," he went on, "would not have known, half an hour ago,
|
|
what you meant by the worship of the maternal idea.
|
|
I am much older than you. I am a strong, mature man.
|
|
But when I lay down there, and shut my eyes--because the
|
|
charm and marvel of this whole experience had for the moment
|
|
overcome me--the strangest sensation seized upon me.
|
|
It was absolutely as if I were a boy again, a good,
|
|
pure-minded, fond little child, and you were the mother
|
|
that I idolized."
|
|
|
|
Celia had not taken her eyes from his face. "I find myself
|
|
liking you better at this moment," she said, with gravity,
|
|
"than I have ever liked you before."
|
|
|
|
Then, as by a sudden impulse, she sprang to her feet.
|
|
"Come!" she cried, her voice and manner all vivacity
|
|
once more, "we have been here long enough."
|
|
|
|
Upon the instant, as Theron was more laboriously getting up,
|
|
it became apparent to them both that perhaps they had been
|
|
there too long.
|
|
|
|
A boy with a gun under his arm, and two gray squirrels
|
|
tied by the tails slung across his shoulder, stood at
|
|
the entrance to the glade, some dozen paces away,
|
|
regarding them with undisguised interest. Upon the discovery
|
|
that he was in turn observed, he resumed his interrupted
|
|
progress through the woods, whistling softly as he went,
|
|
and vanished among the trees.
|
|
|
|
"Heavens above!" groaned Theron, shudderingly.
|
|
|
|
"Know him?" he went on, in answer to the glance of inquiry on
|
|
his companion's face. "I should think I did! He spades my--
|
|
my wife's garden for her. He used to bring our milk.
|
|
He works in the law office of one of my trustees--
|
|
the one who isn't friendly to me, but is very friendly
|
|
indeed with my--with Mrs. Ware. Oh, what shall I do?
|
|
It may easily mean my ruin!"
|
|
|
|
Celia looked at him attentively. The color had gone out of
|
|
his face, and with it the effect of earnestness and mental
|
|
elevation which, a minute before, had caught her fancy.
|
|
"Somehow, I fear that I do not like you quite so much
|
|
just now, my friend," she remarked.
|
|
|
|
"In God's name, don't say that!" urged Theron.
|
|
He raised his voice in agitated entreaty. "You don't
|
|
know what these people are--how they would leap at the
|
|
barest hint of a scandal about me. In my position I
|
|
am a thousand times more defenceless than any woman.
|
|
Just a single whisper, and I am done for!"
|
|
|
|
"Let me point out to you, Mr. Ware," said Celia, slowly,
|
|
"that to be seen sitting and talking with me, whatever doubts
|
|
it may raise as to a gentleman's intellectual condition,
|
|
need not necessarily blast his social reputation beyond
|
|
all hope whatever."
|
|
|
|
Theron stared at her, as if he had not grasped her meaning.
|
|
Then he winced visibly under it, and put out his hands
|
|
to implore her. "Forgive me! Forgive me!" he pleaded.
|
|
"I was beside myself for the moment with the fright
|
|
of the thing. Oh, say you do forgive me, Celia!"
|
|
He made haste to support this daring use of her name.
|
|
"I have been so happy today--so deeply, so vastly happy--
|
|
like the little child I spoke of--and that is so new in my
|
|
lonely life--that--the suddenness of the thing--it just for
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the instant unstrung me. Don't be too hard on me for it!
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And I had hoped, too--I had had such genuine heartfelt
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pleasure in the thought--that, an hour or two ago, when you
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were unhappy, perhaps it had been some sort of consolation
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to you that I was with you."
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Celia was looking away. When he took her hand she did not
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withdraw it, but turned and nodded in musing general assent
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to what he had said. "Yes, we have both been unstrung,
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as you call it, today," she said, decidedly out of pitch.
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"Let each forgive the other, and say no more about it."
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She took his arm, and they retraced their steps
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along the path, again in silence. The labored noise
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of the orchestra, as it were, returned to meet them.
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They halted at an intersecting footpath.
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"I go back to my slavery--my double bondage," said Theron,
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letting his voice sink to a sigh. "But even if I am put
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on the rack for it, I shall have had one day of glory."
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"I think you may kiss me, in memory of that one day--
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or of a few minutes in that day," said Celia.
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Their lips brushed each other in a swift, almost perfunctory caress.
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Theron went his way at a hurried pace, the sobered tones
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of her "good-bye" beating upon his brain with every
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measure of the droning waltz-music.
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PART IV
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CHAPTER XXV
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The memory of the kiss abode with Theron. Like Aaron's rod,
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it swallowed up one by one all competing thoughts
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and recollections, and made his brain its slave.
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Even as he strode back through the woods to the
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camp-meeting, it was the kiss that kept his feet in motion,
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and guided their automatic course. All along the watches
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of the restless night, it was the kiss that bore him
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sweet company, and wandered with him from one broken
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dream of bliss to another. Next day, it was the kiss
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that made of life for him a sort of sunlit wonderland.
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He preached his sermon in the morning, and took his
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appointed part in the other services of afternoon
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and evening, apparently to everybody's satisfaction:
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to him it was all a vision.
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When the beautiful full moon rose, this Sunday evening,
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and glorified the clearing and the forest with its mellow
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harvest radiance, he could have groaned with the burden
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of his joy. He went out alone into the light, and bared
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his head to it, and stood motionless for a long time.
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In all his life, he had never been impelled as powerfully
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toward earnest and soulful thanksgiving. The impulse
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to kneel, there in the pure, tender moonlight, and lift up
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offerings of praise to God, kept uppermost in his mind.
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Some formless resignation restrained him from the
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act itself, but the spirit of it hallowed his mood.
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He gazed up at the broad luminous face of the satellite.
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"You are our God," he murmured. "Hers and mine!
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You are the most beautiful of heavenly creatures, as she is
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of the angels on earth. I am speechless with reverence for
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you both."
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It was not until the camp-meeting broke up, four days later,
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and Theron with the rest returned to town, that the material
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aspects of what had happened, and might be expected
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to happen, forced themselves upon his mind. The kiss
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was a child of the forest. So long as Theron remained
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in the camp, the image of the kiss, which was enshrined
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in his heart and ministered to by all his thoughts,
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continued enveloped in a haze of sylvan mystery,
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like a dryad. Suggestions of its beauty and holiness
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came to him in the odors of the woodland, at the sight
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of wild flowers and water-lilies. When he walked alone
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in unfamiliar parts of the forest, he carried about with him
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the half-conscious idea of somewhere coming upon a strange,
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hidden pool which mortal eye had not seen before--a deep,
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sequestered mere of spring-fed waters, walled in by rich,
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tangled growths of verdure, and bearing upon its virgin
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bosom only the shadows of the primeval wilderness,
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and the light of the eternal skies. His fancy dwelt
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upon some such nook as the enchanted home of the fairy
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that possessed his soul. The place, though he never
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found it, became real to him. As he pictured it,
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there rose sometimes from among the lily-pads, stirring
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the translucent depths and fluttering over the water's
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surface drops like gems, the wonderful form of a woman,
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with pale leaves wreathed in her luxuriant red hair,
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and a skin which gave forth light.
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With the homecoming to Octavius, his dreams began to take
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more account of realities. In a day or two he was wide awake,
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and thinking hard. The kiss was as much as ever the
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ceaseless companion of his hours, but it no longer insisted
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upon shrouding itself in vines and woodland creepers,
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or outlining itself in phosphorescent vagueness against mystic
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backgrounds of nymph-haunted glades. It advanced out into
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the noonday, and assumed tangible dimensions and substance.
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He saw that it was related to the facts of his daily life,
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and had, in turn, altered his own relations to all these facts.
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What ought he to do? What COULD he do? Apparently, nothing
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but wait. He waited for a week--then for another week.
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The conclusion that the initiative had been left to him
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began to take shape in his mind. From this it seemed
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but a step to the passionate resolve to act at once.
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Turning the situation over and over in his anxious
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thoughts, two things stood out in special prominence.
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One was that Celia loved him. The other was that the
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boy in Gorringe's law office, and possibly Gorringe,
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and heaven only knew how many others besides, had reasons
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for suspecting this to be true.
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And what about Celia? Side by side with the moving
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rapture of thinking about her as a woman, there rose
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the substantial satisfaction of contemplating her as
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Miss Madden. She had kissed him, and she was very rich.
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The things gradually linked themselves before his eyes.
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He tried a thousand varying guesses at what she proposed
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to do, and each time reined up his imagination by the
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reminder that she was confessedly a creature of whims,
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who proposed to do nothing, but was capable of all things.
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And as to the boy. If he had blabbed what he saw, it was
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incredible that somebody should not take the subject up,
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and impart a scandalous twist to it, and send it rolling
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like a snowball to gather up exaggeration and foul
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innuendo till it was big enough to overwhelm him.
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What would happen to him if a formal charge were preferred
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against him? He looked it up in the Discipline.
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Of course, if his accusers magnified their mean
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suspicions and calumnious imaginings to the point of
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formulating a charge, it would be one of immorality.
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They could prove nothing; there was nothing to prove.
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At the worst, it was an indiscretion, which would
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involve his being admonished by his Presiding Elder.
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Or if these narrow bigots confused slanders with proofs,
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and showed that they intended to convict him, then it would
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be open to him to withdraw from the ministry, in advance
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of his condemnation. His relation to the church would
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be the same as if he had been expelled, but to the outer
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world it would be different. And supposing he did withdraw
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from the ministry?
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Yes; this was the important point. What if he did
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abandon this mistaken profession of his? On its mental
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side the relief would be prodigious, unthinkable.
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But on the practical side, the bread-and-butter side?
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For some days Theron paused with a shudder when he reached
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this question. The thought of the plunge into unknown
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material responsibilities gave him a sinking heart.
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He tried to imagine himself lecturing, canvassing for
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books or insurance policies, writing for newspapers--
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and remained frightened. But suddenly one day it occurred
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to him that these qualms and forebodings were sheer folly.
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Was not Celia rich? Would she not with lightning swiftness draw
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forth that check-book, like the flashing sword of a champion
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from its scabbard, and run to his relief? Why, of course.
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It was absurd not to have thought of that before.
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He recalled her momentary anger with him, that afternoon
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in the woods, when he had cried out that discovery would
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mean ruin to him. He saw clearly enough now that she
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had been grieved at his want of faith in her protection.
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In his flurry of fright, he had lost sight of the fact that,
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if exposure and trouble came to him, she would naturally
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feel that she had been the cause of his martyrdom.
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It was plain enough now. If he got into hot water,
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it would be solely on account of his having been seen
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with her. He had walked into the woods with her--"the
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further the better" had been her own words--out of
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pure kindliness, and the desire to lead her away from
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the scene of her brother's and her own humiliation.
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But why amplify arguments? Her own warm heart would
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tell her, on the instant, how he had been sacrificed
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for her sake, and would bring her, eager and devoted,
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to his succor.
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That was all right, then. Slowly, from this point,
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suggestions expanded themselves. The future could be,
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if he willed it, one long serene triumph of love,
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and lofty intellectual companionship, and existence
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softened and enriched at every point by all that wealth
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could command, and the most exquisite tastes suggest.
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Should he will it! Ah! the question answered itself.
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But he could not enter upon this beckoning heaven of
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a future until he had freed himself. When Celia said
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to him, "Come!" he must not be in the position to reply,
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"I should like to, but unfortunately I am tied by the leg."
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He should have to leave Octavius, leave the ministry,
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leave everything. He could not begin too soon to face
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these contingencies.
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Very likely Celia had not thought it out as far as this.
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With her, it was a mere vague "sometime I may."
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But the harder masculine sense, Theron felt,
|
|
existed for the very purpose of correcting and giving
|
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point to these loose feminine notions of time and space.
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It was for him to clear away the obstacles, and map
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the plans out with definite decision.
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One warm afternoon, as he lolled in his easy-chair under
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the open window of his study, musing upon the ever-shifting
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phases of this vast, complicated, urgent problem,
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some chance words from the sidewalk in front came
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to his ears, and, coming, remained to clarify his thoughts.
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Two ladies whose voices were strange to him had stopped--
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as so many people almost daily stopped--to admire the garden
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of the parsonage. One of them expressed her pleasure
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|
in general terms. Said the other--
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"My husband declares those dahlias alone couldn't
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be matched for thirty dollars, and that some of those
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gladiolus must have cost three or four dollars apiece.
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I know we've spent simply oceans of money on our garden,
|
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and it doesn't begin to compare with this."
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"It seems like a sinful waste to me," said her companion.
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"No-o," the other hesitated. "No, I don't think quite that--
|
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if you can afford it just as well as not. But it does
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|
seem to me that I'd rather live in a little better house,
|
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and not spend it ALL on flowers. Just LOOK at that cactus!"
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The voices died away. Theron sat up, with a look of arrested
|
|
thought upon his face, then sprang to his feet and moved
|
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hurriedly through the parlor to an open front window.
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Peering out with caution he saw that the two women receding
|
|
from view were fashionably dressed and evidently came
|
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from homes of means. He stared after them in a blank
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|
way until they turned a corner.
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He went into the hall then, put on his frock-coat and hat,
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and stepped out into the garden. He was conscious
|
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of having rather avoided it heretofore--not altogether
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|
without reasons of his own, lying unexamined somewhere
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in the recesses of his mind. Now he walked slowly about,
|
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and examined the flowers with great attentiveness.
|
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The season was advancing, and he saw that many plants
|
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had gone out of bloom. But what a magnificent plenitude
|
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of blossoms still remained!
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Thirty dollars' worth of dahlias--that was what the stranger
|
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had said. Theron hardly brought himself to credit the statement;
|
|
but all the same it was apparent to even his uninformed
|
|
eye that these huge, imbricated, flowering masses,
|
|
with their extraordinary half-colors, must be unusual.
|
|
He remembered that the boy in Gorringe's office had spoken
|
|
of just one lot of plants costing thirty-one dollars and
|
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sixty cents, and there had been two other lots as well.
|
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The figures remained surprisingly distinct in his memory.
|
|
It was no good deceiving himself any longer: of course
|
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these were the plants that Gorringe had spent his money upon,
|
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here all about him.
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As he surveyed them with a sour regard, a cool breeze stirred
|
|
across the garden. The tall, over-laden flower-spikes
|
|
of gladioli bent and nodded at him; the hollyhocks and
|
|
flaming alvias, the clustered blossoms on the standard roses,
|
|
the delicately painted lilies on their stilt-like stems,
|
|
fluttered in the wind, and seemed all bowing satirically
|
|
to him. "Yes, Levi Gorringe paid for us!" He almost
|
|
heard their mocking declaration.
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Out in the back-yard, where a longer day of sunshine dwelt,
|
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there were many other flowers, and notably a bed of geraniums
|
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which literally made the eye ache. Standing at this
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rear corner of the house, he caught the droning sound of
|
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Alice's voice, humming a hymn to herself as she went about
|
|
her kitchen work. He saw her through the open window.
|
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She was sweeping, and had a sort of cap on her head
|
|
which did not add to the graces of her appearance.
|
|
He looked at her with a hard glance, recalling as a fresh
|
|
grievance the ten days of intolerable boredom he had
|
|
spent cooped up in a ridiculous little tent with her,
|
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at the camp-meeting. She must have realized at the time
|
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how odious the enforced companionship was to him.
|
|
Yes, beyond doubt she did. It came back to him now
|
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that they had spoken but rarely to each other. She had
|
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not even praised his sermon upon the Sabbath-question,
|
|
which every one else had been in raptures over. For that
|
|
matter she no longer praised anything he did, and took
|
|
obvious pains to preserve toward him a distant demeanor.
|
|
So much the better, he felt himself thinking. If she
|
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chose to behave in that offish and unwifely fashion,
|
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she could blame no one but herself for its results.
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She had seen him, and came now to the window,
|
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watering-pot and broom in hand. She put her head out,
|
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to breathe a breath of dustless air, and began as if she
|
|
would smile on him. Then her face chilled and stiffened,
|
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as she caught his look.
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|
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"Shall you be home for supper?" she asked, in her iciest tone.
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He had not thought of going out before. The question,
|
|
and the manner of it, gave immediate urgency to the idea
|
|
of going somewhere. "I may or I may not," he replied.
|
|
"It is quite impossible for me to say." He turned on his
|
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heel with this, and walked briskly out of the yard and down
|
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the street.
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It was the most natural thing that presently he should
|
|
be strolling past the Madden house, and letting a covert
|
|
glance stray over its front and the grounds about it,
|
|
as he loitered along. Every day since his return
|
|
from the woods he had given the fates this chance of
|
|
bringing Celia to meet him, without avail. He had hung
|
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about in the vicinity of the Catholic church on several
|
|
evenings as well, but to no purpose. The organ inside
|
|
was dumb, and he could detect no signs of Celia's
|
|
presence on the curtains of the pastorate next door.
|
|
This day, too, there was no one visible at the home
|
|
of the Maddens, and he walked on, a little sadly.
|
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It was weary work waiting for the signal that never came.
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But there were compensations. His mind reverted doggedly to
|
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the flowers in his garden, and to Alice's behavior toward him.
|
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They insisted upon connecting themselves in his thoughts.
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Why should Levi Gorringe, a money-lender, and therefore
|
|
the last man in the world to incur reckless expenditure,
|
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go and buy perhaps a hundred dollars, worth of flowers
|
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for his wife's garden? It was time--high time--to face
|
|
this question. And his experiencing religion afterward,
|
|
just when Alice did, and marching down to the rail to kneel
|
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beside her--that was a thing to be thought of, too.
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Meditation, it is true, hardly threw fresh light upon
|
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the matter. It was incredible, of course, that there
|
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should be anything wrong. To even shape a thought of Alice
|
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in connection with gallantry would be wholly impossible.
|
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Nor could it be said that Gorringe, in his new capacity
|
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as a professing church-member, had disclosed any sign
|
|
of ulterior motives, or of insincerity. Yet there the
|
|
facts were. While Theron pondered them, their mystery,
|
|
if they involved a mystery, baffled him altogether.
|
|
But when he had finished, he found himself all the same
|
|
convinced that neither Alice nor Gorringe would be free
|
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to blame him for anything he might do. He had grounds
|
|
for complaint against them. If he did not himself know
|
|
just what these grounds were, it was certain enough
|
|
that THEY knew. Very well, then, let them take the
|
|
responsibility for what happened.
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|
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It was indeed awkward that at the moment, as Theron
|
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chanced to emerge temporarily from his brown-study, his
|
|
eyes fell full upon the spare, well-knit form of Levi
|
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Gorringe himself, standing only a few feet away, in the
|
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staircase entrance to his law office. His lean face,
|
|
browned by the summer's exposure, had a more Arabian
|
|
aspect than ever. His hands were in his pockets, and he
|
|
held an unlighted cigar between his teeth. He looked
|
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the Rev. Mr. Ware over calmly, and nodded recognition.
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|
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Theron had halted instinctively. On the instant he would
|
|
have given a great deal not to have stopped at all.
|
|
It was stupid of him to have paused, but it would not do
|
|
now to go on without words of some sort. He moved over to
|
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the door-way, and made a half-hearted pretence of looking
|
|
at the photographs in one of the show-cases at its side.
|
|
As Mr. Gorringe did not take his hands from his pockets,
|
|
there was no occasion for any formal greeting.
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|
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"I had no idea that they took such good pictures in Octavius,"
|
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Theron remarked after a minute's silence, still bending
|
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in examination of the photographs.
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|
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"They ought to; they charge New York prices,"
|
|
observed the lawyer, sententiously.
|
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|
|
Theron found in the words confirmation of his feeling that
|
|
Gorringe was not naturally a lavish or extravagant man.
|
|
Rather was he a careful and calculating man, who spent money
|
|
only for a purpose. Though the minister continued gazing
|
|
at the stiff presentments of local beauties and swains,
|
|
his eyes seemed to see salmon-hued hollyhocks and spotted
|
|
lilies instead. Suddenly a resolve came to him.
|
|
He stood erect, and faced his trustee.
|
|
|
|
"Speaking of the price of things," he said, with an effort
|
|
of arrogance in his measured tone, "I have never had
|
|
an opportunity before of mentioning the subject of the
|
|
flowers you have so kindly furnished for my--for MY garden."
|
|
|
|
"Why mention it now?" queried Gorringe, with nonchalance.
|
|
He turned his cigar about with a movement of his lips,
|
|
and worked it into the corner of his mouth. He did not find
|
|
it necessary to look at Theron at all.
|
|
|
|
"Because--" began Mr. Ware, and then hesitated--"because--well,
|
|
it raises a question of my being under obligation,
|
|
which I--"
|
|
|
|
"Oh, no, sir," said the lawyer; "put that out of your mind.
|
|
You are no more under obligation to me than I am to you.
|
|
Oh, no, make yourself easy about that. Neither of us
|
|
owes the other anything."
|
|
|
|
"Not even good-will--I take that to be your meaning,"
|
|
retorted Theron, with some heat.
|
|
|
|
"The words are yours, sir," responded Gorringe, coolly.
|
|
"I do not object to them."
|
|
|
|
"As you like," put in the other. "If it be so, why,
|
|
then all the more reason why I should, under the circumstances--"
|
|
|
|
"Under what circumstances?" interposed the lawyer.
|
|
"Let us be clear about this thing as we go along.
|
|
To what circumstances do you refer?"
|
|
|
|
He had turned his eyes now, and looked Theron in the face.
|
|
A slight protrusion of his lower jaw had given the cigar
|
|
an upward tilt under the black mustache.
|
|
|
|
"The circumstances are that you have brought or sent
|
|
to my garden a great many very expensive flower-plants
|
|
and bushes and so on."
|
|
|
|
"And you object? I had not supposed that clergymen
|
|
in general--and you in particular--were so sensitive.
|
|
Have donation parties, then, gone out of date?"
|
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|
|
"I understand your sneer well enough," retorted Theron,
|
|
"but that can pass. The main point is, that you did me
|
|
the honor to send these plants--or to smuggle them in--
|
|
but never once deigned to hint to me that you had done so.
|
|
No one told me. Except by mere accident, I should not have
|
|
known to this day where they came from."
|
|
|
|
Mr. Gorringe twisted the cigar at another angle,
|
|
with lines of grim amusement about the corner of his mouth.
|
|
"I should have thought," he said with dry deliberation,
|
|
"that possibly this fact might have raised in your mind
|
|
the conceivable hypothesis that the plants might not be
|
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intended for you at all."
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"That is precisely it, sir," said Theron. There were
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people passing, and he was forced to keep his voice down.
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It would have been a relief, he felt, to shout. "That is it--
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they were not intended for me."
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"Well, then, what are you talking about?" The lawyer's
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speech had become abrupt almost to incivility.
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"I think my remarks have been perfectly clear,"
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said the minister, with dignity. It was a new experience
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to be addressed in that fashion. It occurred to him
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to add, "Please remember that I am not in the witness-box,
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to be bullied or insulted by a professional."
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Gorringe studied Theron's face attentively with a cold,
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searching scrutiny. "You may thank your stars you're not!"
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he said, with significance.
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What on earth could he mean? The words and the menacing
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tone greatly impressed Theron. Indeed, upon reflection,
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he found that they frightened him. The disposition to
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adopt a high tone with the lawyer was melting away.
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"I do not see," he began, and then deliberately allowed
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his voice to take on an injured and plaintive inflection--"I
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do not see why you should adopt this tone toward me--
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Brother Gorringe."
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The lawyer scowled, and bit sharply into the cigar,
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but said nothing.
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"If I have unconsciously offended you in any way," Theron went on,
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"I beg you to tell me how. I liked you from the beginning
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of my pastorate here, and the thought that latterly we
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seemed to be drifting apart has given me much pain.
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But now it is still more distressing to find you actually
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disposed to quarrel with me. Surely, Brother Gorringe,
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between a pastor and a probationer who--"
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"No," Gorringe broke in; "quarrel isn't the word for it.
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There isn't any quarrel, Mr. Ware." He stepped down from
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the door-stone to the sidewalk as he spoke, and stood face
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to face with Theron. Working-men with dinner-pails, and
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factory girls, were passing close to them, and he lowered
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his voice to a sharp, incisive half-whisper as he added,
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"It wouldn't be worth any grown man's while to quarrel
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with so poor a creature as you are."
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Theron stood confounded, with an empty stare of bewilderment
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on his face. It rose in his mind that the right thing
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to feel was rage, righteous indignation, fury; but for
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the life of him, he could not muster any manly anger.
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The character of the insult stupefied him.
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"I do not know that I have anything to say to you in reply,"
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he remarked, after what seemed to him a silence of minutes.
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His lips framed the words automatically, but they
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expressed well enough the blank vacancy of his mind.
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The suggestion that anybody deemed him a "poor creature"
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grew more astounding, incomprehensible, as it swelled in
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his brain.
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"No, I suppose not," snapped Gorringe. "You're not the
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sort to stand up to men; your form is to go round the
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corner and take it out of somebody weaker than yourself--
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a defenceless woman, for instance."
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"Oh--ho!" said Theron. The exclamation had uttered itself.
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The sound of it seemed to clarify his muddled thoughts;
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and as they ranged themselves in order, he began to understand.
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"Oh--ho!" he said again, and nodded his head in token
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of comprehension.
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The lawyer, chewing his cigar with increased activity,
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glared at him. "What do you mean?" he demanded peremptorily.
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"Mean?" said the minister. "Oh, nothing that I feel
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called upon to explain to you."
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It was passing strange, but his self-possession had all at once
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returned to him. As it became more apparent that the lawyer
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was losing his temper, Theron found the courage to turn up
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the corners of his lips in show of a bitter little smile
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of confidence. He looked into the other's dusky face,
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and flaunted this smile at it in contemptuous defiance.
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"It is not a subject that I can discuss with propriety--
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at this stage," he added.
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"Damn you! Are you talking about those flowers?"
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"Oh, I am not talking about anything in particular,"
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returned Theron, "not even the curious choice of language
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which my latest probationer seems to prefer."
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"Go and strike my name off the list!" said Gorringe,
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with rising passion. "I was a fool to ever have it there.
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To think of being a probationer of yours--my God!"
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"That will be a pity--from one point of view," remarked Theron,
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still with the ironical smile on his lips. "You seemed
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to enter upon the new life with such deliberation and fixity
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of purpose, too! I can imagine the regrets your withdrawal
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will cause, in certain quarters. I only hope that it will
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not discourage those who accompanied you to the altar,
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and shared your enthusiasm at the time." He had spoken
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throughout with studied slowness and an insolent nicety of utterance.
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"You had better go away!" broke forth Gorringe.
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"If you don't, I shall forget myself."
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"For the first time?" asked Theron. Then, warned by the flash
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in the lawyer's eye, he turned on his heel and sauntered,
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with a painstaking assumption of a mind quite at ease,
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up the street.
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Gorringe's own face twitched and his veins tingled
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as he looked after him. He spat the shapeless cigar
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out of his mouth into the gutter, and, drawing forth
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another from his pocket, clenched it between his teeth,
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his gaze following the tall form of the Methodist minister
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till it was merged in the crowd.
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"Well, I'm damned!" he said aloud to himself.
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The photographer had come down to take in his showcases for
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the night. He looked up from his task at the exclamation,
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and grinned inquiringly.
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"I've just been talking to a man," said the lawyer,
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"who's so much meaner than any other man I ever heard
|
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of that it takes my breath away. He's got a wife that's
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as pure and good as gold, and he knows it, and she
|
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worships the ground he walks on, and he knows that too.
|
|
And yet the scoundrel is around trying to sniff out some
|
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shadow of a pretext for misusing her worse than he's
|
|
already done. Yes, sir; he'd be actually tickled to death
|
|
if he could nose up some hint of a scandal about her--
|
|
something that he could pretend to believe, and work for
|
|
his own advantage to levy blackmail, or get rid of her,
|
|
or whatever suited his book. I didn't think there was such
|
|
an out-and-out cur on this whole footstool. I almost wish,
|
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by God, I'd thrown him into the canal!"
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"Yes, you lawyers must run against some pretty snide specimens,"
|
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remarked the photographer, lifting one of the cases from its sockets.
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CHAPTER XXVI
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Theron spent half an hour in aimless strolling about
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the streets. From earliest boyhood his mind had always
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|
worked most clearly when he walked alone. Every mental
|
|
process which had left a mark upon his memory and his career--
|
|
the daydreams of future academic greatness and fame
|
|
which had fashioned themselves in his brain as a farm lad;
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|
the meditations, raptures, and high resolves of his
|
|
student period at the seminary; the more notable sermons
|
|
and powerful discourse by which he had revealed the genius
|
|
that was in him to astonished and delighted assemblages--
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|
all were associated in his retrospective thoughts
|
|
with solitary rambles.
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He had a very direct and vivid consciousness now that it was
|
|
good to be on his legs, and alone. He had never in his life
|
|
been more sensible of the charm of his own companionship.
|
|
The encounter with Gorringe seemed to have cleared all
|
|
the clouds out of his brain, and restored lightness to
|
|
his heart. After such an object lesson, the impossibility
|
|
of his continuing to sacrifice himself to a notion
|
|
of duty to these low-minded and coarse-natured villagers
|
|
was beyond all argument. There could no longer be any
|
|
doubt about his moral right to turn his back upon them,
|
|
to wash his hands of the miserable combination of hypocrisy
|
|
and hysterics which they called their spiritual life.
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And the question of Gorringe and Alice, that too
|
|
stood precisely where he wanted it. Even in his
|
|
own thoughts, he preferred to pursue it no further.
|
|
Between them somewhere an offence of concealment,
|
|
it might be of conspiracy, had been committed against him.
|
|
It was no business of his to say more, or to think more.
|
|
He rested his case simply on the fact, which could not
|
|
be denied, and which he was not in the least interested
|
|
to have explained, one way or the other. The recollection
|
|
of Gorringe's obvious disturbance of mind was especially
|
|
pleasant to him. He himself had been magnanimous almost
|
|
to the point of weakness. He had gone out of his way
|
|
to call the man "brother," and to give him an opportunity
|
|
of behaving like a gentleman; but his kindly forbearance
|
|
had been wasted. Gorringe was not the man to understand
|
|
generous feelings, much less rise to their level.
|
|
He had merely shown that he would be vicious if he knew how.
|
|
It was more important and satisfactory to recall that he
|
|
had also shown a complete comprehension of the injured
|
|
husband's grievance. The fact that he had recognized it
|
|
was enough--was, in fact, everything.
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|
In the background of his thoughts Theron had carried
|
|
along a notion of going and dining with Father Forbes
|
|
when the time for the evening meal should arrive.
|
|
The idea in itself attracted him, as a fitting capstone
|
|
to his resolve not to go home to supper. It gave just
|
|
the right kind of character to his domestic revolt.
|
|
But when at last he stood on the doorstep of the pastorate,
|
|
waiting for an answer to the tinkle of the electric bell he
|
|
had heard ring inside, his mind contained only the single
|
|
thought that now he should hear something about Celia.
|
|
Perhaps he might even find her there; but he put that
|
|
suggestion aside as slightly unpleasant.
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|
The hag-faced housekeeper led him, as before,
|
|
into the dining-room. It was still daylight, and he saw
|
|
on the glance that the priest was alone at the table,
|
|
with a book beside him to read from as he ate.
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|
|
|
Father Forbes rose and came forward, greeting his visitor
|
|
with profuse urbanity and smiles. If there was a perfunctory
|
|
note in the invitation to sit down and share the meal,
|
|
Theron did not catch it. He frankly displayed his pleasure
|
|
as he laid aside his hat, and took the chair opposite his host.
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|
|
"It is really only a few months since I was here,
|
|
in this room, before," he remarked, as the priest closed
|
|
his book and tossed it to one side, and the housekeeper came
|
|
in to lay another place. "Yet it might have been years,
|
|
many long years, so tremendous is the difference
|
|
that the lapse of time has wrought in me."
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|
"I am afraid we have nothing to tempt you very much,
|
|
Mr. Ware," remarked Father Forbes, with a gesture of his
|
|
plump white hand which embraced the dishes in the centre
|
|
of the table. "May I send you a bit of this boiled mutton?
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|
I have very homely tastes when I am by myself."
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|
|
|
"I was saying," Theron observed, after some moments had
|
|
passed in silence, "that I date such a tremendous revolution
|
|
in my thoughts, my beliefs, my whole mind and character,
|
|
from my first meeting with you, my first coming here.
|
|
I don't know how to describe to you the enormous change
|
|
that has come over me; and I owe it all to you."
|
|
|
|
"I can only hope, then, that it is entirely
|
|
of a satisfactory nature," said the priest, politely smiling.
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|
|
|
"Oh, it is so splendidly satisfactory!" said Theron,
|
|
with fervor. "I look back at myself now with wonder and pity.
|
|
It seems incredible that, such a little while ago,
|
|
I should have been such an ignorant and unimaginative clod
|
|
of earth, content with such petty ambitions and actually
|
|
proud of my limitations."
|
|
|
|
"And you have larger ambitions now?" asked the other.
|
|
"Pray let me help you to some potatoes. I am afraid
|
|
that ambitions only get in our way and trip us up.
|
|
We clergymen are like street-car horses. The more
|
|
steadily we jog along between the rails, the better it is
|
|
for us."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I don't intend to remain in the ministry,"
|
|
declared Theron. The statement seemed to him a little bald,
|
|
now that he had made it; and as his companion lifted
|
|
his brows in surprise, he added stumblingly: "That is,
|
|
as I feel now, it seems to me impossible that I should
|
|
remain much longer. With you, of course, it is different.
|
|
You have a thousand things to interest and pleasantly
|
|
occupy you in your work and its ceremonies, so that mere
|
|
belief or non-belief in the dogma hardly matters.
|
|
But in our church dogma is everything. If you take
|
|
that away, or cease to have its support, the rest
|
|
is intolerable, hideous."
|
|
|
|
Father Forbes cut another slice of mutton for himself.
|
|
"It is a pretty serious business to make such a change at
|
|
your time of life. I take it for granted you will think
|
|
it all over very carefully before you commit yourself."
|
|
He said this with an almost indifferent air, which rather
|
|
chilled his listener's enthusiasm.
|
|
|
|
"Oh, yes,", Theron made answer; "I shall do nothing rash.
|
|
But I have a good many plans for the future."
|
|
|
|
Father Forbes did not ask what these were, and a brief
|
|
further period of silence fell upon the table.
|
|
|
|
"I hope everything went off smoothly at the picnic,"
|
|
Theron ventured, at last. "I have not seen any of you
|
|
since then."
|
|
|
|
The priest shook his head and sighed. "No," he said.
|
|
"It is a bad business. I have had a great deal of
|
|
unhappiness out of it this past fortnight. That young
|
|
man who was rude to you--of course it was mere drunken,
|
|
irresponsible nonsense on his part--has got himself into
|
|
a serious scrape, I'm afraid. It is being kept quite
|
|
within the family, and we hope to manage so that it will
|
|
remain there, but it has terribly upset his father and
|
|
his sister. But that, after all, is not so hard to bear
|
|
as the other affliction that has come upon the Maddens.
|
|
You remember Michael, the other brother? He seems to have
|
|
taken cold that evening, or perhaps over-exerted himself.
|
|
He has been seized with quick consumption. He will hardly
|
|
last till snow flies."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, I am GRIEVED to hear that!" Theron spoke with
|
|
tremulous earnestness. It seemed to him as if Michael
|
|
were in some way related to him.
|
|
|
|
"It is very hard upon them all," the priest went on.
|
|
"Michael is as sweet and holy a character as it is possible
|
|
for any one to think of. He is the apple of his father's eye.
|
|
They were inseparable, those two. Do you know the father,
|
|
Mr. Madden?"
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|
|
|
Theron shook his head. "I think I have seen him," he said.
|
|
"A small man, with gray whiskers."
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|
|
|
"A peasant," said Father Forbes, "but with a heart of gold.
|
|
Poor man! he has had little enough out of his riches.
|
|
Ah, the West Coast people, what tragedies I have seen among
|
|
them over here! They have rudimentary lung organizations,
|
|
like a frog's, to fit the mild, wet soft air they
|
|
live in. The sharp air here kills them off like flies
|
|
in a frost. Whole families go. I should think there
|
|
are a dozen of old Jeremiah's children in the cemetery.
|
|
If Michael could have passed his twenty-eighth year,
|
|
there would have been hope for him, at least till his
|
|
thirty-fifth. These pulmonary things seem to go by sevens,
|
|
you know."
|
|
|
|
"I didn't know," said Theron. "It is very strange--
|
|
and very sad." His startled mind was busy, all at once,
|
|
with conjectures as to Celia's age.
|
|
|
|
"The sister--Miss Madden--seems extremely strong,"
|
|
he remarked tentatively.
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|
|
|
"Celia may escape the general doom," said the priest.
|
|
His guest noted that he clenched his shapely white
|
|
hand on the table as he spoke, and that his gentle,
|
|
carefully modulated voice had a gritty hardness in its tone.
|
|
"THAT would be too dreadful to think of," he added.
|
|
|
|
Theron shuddered in silence, and strove to shut his mind
|
|
against the thought.
|
|
|
|
"She has taken Michael's illness so deeply to heart,"
|
|
the priest proceeded, "and devoted herself to him
|
|
so untiringly that I get a little nervous about her.
|
|
I have been urging her to go away and get a change of air
|
|
and scene, if only for a few days. She does not sleep well,
|
|
and that is always a bad thing."
|
|
|
|
"I think I remember her telling me once that sometimes
|
|
she had sleepless spells," said Theron. "She said that
|
|
then she banged on her piano at all hours, or dragged
|
|
the cushions about from room to room, like a wild woman.
|
|
A very interesting young lady, don't you find her so?"
|
|
|
|
Father Forbes let a wan smile play on his lips.
|
|
"What, our Celia?" he said. "Interesting! Why, Mr. Ware,
|
|
there is no one like her in the world. She is as unique as--
|
|
what shall I say?--as the Irish are among races.
|
|
Her father and mother were both born in mud-cabins, and she--
|
|
she might be the daughter of a hundred kings, except that
|
|
they seem mostly rather under-witted than otherwise.
|
|
She always impresses me as a sort of atavistic idealization
|
|
of the old Kelt at his finest and best. There in Ireland
|
|
you got a strange mixture of elementary early peoples,
|
|
walled off from the outer world by the four seas, and free
|
|
to work out their own racial amalgam on their own lines.
|
|
They brought with them at the outset a great inheritance
|
|
of Eastern mysticism. Others lost it, but the Irish,
|
|
all alone on their island, kept it alive and brooded
|
|
on it, and rooted their whole spiritual side in it.
|
|
Their religion is full of it; their blood is full of it;
|
|
our Celia is fuller of it than anybody else. The Ireland
|
|
of two thousand years ago is incarnated in her. They are
|
|
the merriest people and the saddest, the most turbulent and
|
|
the most docile, the most talented and the most unproductive,
|
|
the most practical and the most visionary, the most devout
|
|
and the most pagan. These impossible contradictions war
|
|
ceaselessly in their blood. When I look at Celia, I seem
|
|
to see in my mind's eye the fair young-ancestral mother of
|
|
them all."
|
|
|
|
Theron gazed at the speaker with open admiration.
|
|
"I love to hear you talk," he said simply.
|
|
|
|
An unbidden memory flitted upward in his mind.
|
|
Those were the very words that Alice had so often on her
|
|
lips in their old courtship days. How curious it was!
|
|
He looked at the priest, and had a quaint sensation
|
|
of feeling as a romantic woman must feel in the presence
|
|
of a specially impressive masculine personality.
|
|
It was indeed strange that this soft-voiced, portly
|
|
creature in a gown, with his white, fat hands and his
|
|
feline suavity of manner, should produce such a commanding
|
|
and unique effect of virility. No doubt this was a part
|
|
of the great sex mystery which historically surrounded
|
|
the figure of the celibate priest as with an atmosphere.
|
|
Women had always been prostrating themselves before it.
|
|
Theron, watching his companion's full, pallid face in the
|
|
lamp-light, tried to fancy himself in the priest's place,
|
|
looking down upon these worshipping female forms.
|
|
He wondered what the celibate's attitude really was.
|
|
The enigma fascinated him.
|
|
|
|
Father Forbes, after his rhetorical outburst, and been eating.
|
|
He pushed aside his cheese-plate. "I grow enthusiastic
|
|
on the subject of my race sometimes," he remarked,
|
|
with the suggestion of an apology. "But I make up
|
|
for it other times--most of the time--by scolding them.
|
|
If it were not such a noble thing to be an Irishman,
|
|
it would be ridiculous."
|
|
|
|
"Ah," said Theron, deprecatingly, "who would not be
|
|
enthusiastic in talking of Miss Madden? What you said
|
|
about her was perfect. As you spoke, I was thinking
|
|
how proud and thankful we ought to be for the privilege
|
|
of knowing her--we who do know her well--although of course
|
|
your friendship with her is vastly more intimate than mine--
|
|
than mine could ever hope to be."
|
|
|
|
The priest offered no comment, and Theron went on:
|
|
"I hardly know how to describe the remarkable impression she
|
|
makes upon me. I can't imagine to myself any other young
|
|
woman so brilliant or broad in her views, or so courageous.
|
|
Of course, her being so rich makes it easier for her to do
|
|
just what she wants to do, but her bravery is astonishing
|
|
all the same. We had a long and very sympathetic talk
|
|
in the woods, that day of the picnic, after we left you.
|
|
I don't know whether she spoke to you about it?"
|
|
|
|
Father Forbes made a movement of the head and eyes
|
|
which seemed to negative the suggestion.
|
|
|
|
"Her talk," continued Theron, "gave me quite new
|
|
ideas of the range and capacity of the female mind.
|
|
I wonder that everybody in Octavius isn't full of praise
|
|
and admiration for her talents and exceptional character.
|
|
In such a small town as this, you would think she would
|
|
be the centre of attention--the pride of the place."
|
|
|
|
"I think she has as much praise as is good for her,"
|
|
remarked the priest, quietly.
|
|
|
|
"And here's a thing that puzzles me," pursued Mr. Ware.
|
|
"I was immensely surprised to find that Dr. Ledsmar
|
|
doesn't even think she is smart--or at least he professes
|
|
the utmost intellectual contempt for her, and says
|
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he dislikes her into the bargain. But of course she
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dislikes him, too, so that's only natural. But I can't
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understand his denying her great ability."
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The priest smiled in a dubious way. "Don't borrow
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unnecessary alarm about that, Mr. Ware," he said,
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with studied smoothness of modulated tones. "These two
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good friends of mine have much enjoyment out of the idea
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that they are fighting for the mastery over my poor
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unstable character. It has grown to be a habit with them,
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and a hobby as well, and they pursue it with tireless zest.
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There are not many intellectual diversions open to us here,
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and they make the most of this one. It amuses them,
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and it is not without its charms for me, in my capacity as
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an interested observer. It is a part of the game that they
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should pretend to themselves that they detest each other.
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In reality I fancy that they like each other very much.
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At any rate, there is nothing to be disturbed about."
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His mellifluous tones had somehow the effect of suggesting
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to Theron that he was an outsider and would better mind
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his own business. Ah, if this purring pussy-cat of a
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priest only knew how little of an outsider he really was!
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The thought gave him an easy self-control.
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"Of course," he said, "our warm mutual friendship makes
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the observation of these little individual vagaries
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merely a part of a delightful whole. I should not
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dream of discussing Miss Madden's confidences to me,
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or the doctor's either, outside our own little group."
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Father Forbes reached behind him and took from a
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chair his black three-cornered cap with the tassel.
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"Unfortunately I have a sick call waiting me," he said,
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gathering up his gown and slowly rising.
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"Yes, I saw the man sitting in the hall," remarked Theron,
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getting to his feet.
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"I would ask you to go upstairs and wait," the priest
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went on, "but my return, unhappily, is quite uncertain.
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Another evening I may be more fortunate. I am leaving town
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tomorrow for some days, but when I get back--"
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The polite sentence did not complete itself. Father Forbes
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had come out into the hall, giving a cool nod to the
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working-man, who rose from the bench as they passed,
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and shook hands with his guest on the doorstep.
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When the door had closed upon Mr. Ware, the priest turned
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to the man. "You have come about those frames," he said.
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"If you will come upstairs, I will show you the prints,
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and you can give me a notion of what can be done with them.
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I rather fancy the idea of a triptych in carved old English,
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if you can manage it."
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After the workman had gone away, Father Forbes put
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on slippers and an old loose soutane, lighted a cigar,
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and, pushing an easy-chair over to the reading lamp,
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sat down with a book. Then something occurred to him,
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and he touched the house-bell at his elbow.
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"Maggie," he said gently, when the housekeeper appeared at
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the door, "I will have the coffee and FINE CHAMPAGNE up here,
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if it is no trouble. And--oh, Maggie--I was compelled this
|
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evening to turn the blameless visit of the framemaker into
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a venial sin, and that involves a needless wear and tear
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of conscience. I think that--hereafter--you understand?--
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I am not invariably at home when the Rev. Mr. Ware does
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me the honor to call."
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CHAPTER XXVII
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That night brought the first frost of the season
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worth counting. In the morning, when Theron came downstairs,
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his casual glance through the window caught a desolate
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picture of blackened dahlia stalks and shrivelled blooms.
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The gayety and color of the garden were gone,
|
|
and in their place was shabby and dishevelled ruin.
|
|
He flung the sash up and leaned out. The nipping autumn
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|
air was good to breathe. He looked about him, surveying
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the havoc the frost had wrought among the flowers, and smiled.
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At breakfast he smiled again--a mirthless and
|
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calculated smile. "I see that Brother Gorringe's
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flowers have come to grief over night," he remarked.
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Alice looked at him before she spoke, and saw on his
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face a confirmation of the hostile hint in his voice.
|
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She nodded in a constrained way, and said nothing.
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"Or rather, I should say, "Theron went on, with deliberate
|
|
words, "the late Brother Gorringe's flowers."
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"How do you mean--LATE" asked his wife, swiftly.
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"Oh, calm yourself!" replied the husband. He is not dead.
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He has only intimated to me his desire to sever his connection.
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|
I may add that he did so in a highly offensive manner."
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"I am very sorry," said Alice, in a low tone, and with
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her eyes on her plate.
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"I took it for granted you would be grieved at his backsliding,"
|
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remarked Theron, making his phrases as pointed as he could.
|
|
"He was such a promising probationer, and you took
|
|
such a keen interest in his spiritual awakening.
|
|
But the frost has nipped his zeal--along with the hundred
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|
or more dollars' worth of flowers by which he testified
|
|
his faith. I find something interesting in their having
|
|
been blasted simultaneously."
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Alice dropped all pretence of interest in her breakfast.
|
|
With a flushed face and lips tightly compressed,
|
|
she made a movement as if to rise from her chair.
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|
Then, changing her mind, she sat bolt upright and faced
|
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her husband.
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|
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"I think we had better have this out right now," she said,
|
|
in a voice which Theron hardly recognized. "You have
|
|
been hinting round the subject long enough--too long.
|
|
There are some things nobody is obliged to put up with,
|
|
and this is one of them. You will oblige me by saying out
|
|
in so many words what it is you are driving at."
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|
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The outburst astounded Theron. He laid down his knife
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|
and fork, and gazed at his wife in frank surprise.
|
|
She had so accustomed him, of late, to a demeanor almost
|
|
abject in its depressed docility that he had quite
|
|
forgotten the Alice of the old days, when she had spirit
|
|
and courage enough for two, and a notable tongue of her own.
|
|
The flash in her eyes and the lines of resolution
|
|
about her mouth and chin for a moment daunted him.
|
|
Then he observed by a flutter of the frill at her wrist
|
|
that she was trembling.
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|
"I am sure I have nothing to 'say out in so many words,'
|
|
as you put it," he replied, forcing his voice into cool,
|
|
impassive tones. "I merely commented upon a coincidence,
|
|
that was all. If, for any reason under the sun, the subject
|
|
chances to be unpleasant to you, I have no earthly desire
|
|
to pursue it."
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|
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"But I insist upon having it pursued!" returned Alice.
|
|
"I've had just all I can stand of your insinuations
|
|
and innuendoes, and it's high time we had some plain talk.
|
|
Ever since the revival, you have been dropping sly,
|
|
underhand hints about Mr. Gorringe and--and me. Now I ask
|
|
you what you mean by it."
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|
|
|
Yes, there was a shake in her voice, and he could see
|
|
how her bosom heaved in a tremor of nervousness.
|
|
It was easy for him to be very calm.
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|
|
|
"It is you who introduce these astonishing suggestions,
|
|
not I," he replied coldly. "It is you who couple
|
|
your name with his--somewhat to my surprise, I admit--
|
|
but let me suggest that we drop the subject. You are
|
|
excited just now, and you might say things that you
|
|
would prefer to leave unsaid. It would surely be better
|
|
for all concerned to say no more about it."
|
|
|
|
Alice, staring across the table at him with knitted brows,
|
|
emitted a sharp little snort of indignation.
|
|
"Well, I never! Theron, I wouldn't have thought it of you!"
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|
|
|
"There are so many things you wouldn't have thought,
|
|
on such a variety of subjects," he observed, with a
|
|
show of resuming his breakfast. "But why continue?
|
|
We are only angering each other."
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|
|
|
"Never mind that," she replied, with more control
|
|
over her speech. "I guess things have come to a pass
|
|
where a little anger won't do any harm. I have a right
|
|
to insist on knowing what you mean by your insinuations."
|
|
|
|
Theron sighed. "Why will you keep harping on the thing?"
|
|
he asked wearily. "I have displayed no curiosity.
|
|
I don't ask for any explanations. I think I mentioned
|
|
that the man had behaved insultingly to me--but that
|
|
doesn't matter. I don't bring it up as a grievance.
|
|
I am very well able to take care of myself I have no
|
|
wish to recur to the incident in any way. So far as I
|
|
am concerned, the topic is dismissed."
|
|
|
|
"Listen to me!" broke in Alice, with eager gravity.
|
|
She hesitated, as he looked up with a nod of attention,
|
|
and reflected as well as she was able among her thoughts
|
|
for a minute or two. "This is what I want to say
|
|
to you. Ever since we came to this hateful Octavius,
|
|
you and I have been drifting apart--or no, that doesn't
|
|
express it--simply rushing away from each other.
|
|
It only began last spring, and now the space between us
|
|
is so wide that we are worse than complete strangers.
|
|
For strangers at least don't hate each other, and I've had
|
|
a good many occasions lately to see that you positively do
|
|
hate me--"
|
|
|
|
"What grotesque absurdity" interposed Theron, impatiently.
|
|
|
|
"No, it isn't absurdity; it's gospel truth," retorted Alice.
|
|
"And--don't interrupt me--there have been times, too,
|
|
when I have had to ask myself if I wasn't getting almost
|
|
to hate you in return. I tell you this frankly."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, you are undoubtedly frank," commented the husband,
|
|
toying with his teaspoon. "A hypercritical person
|
|
might consider, almost too frank."
|
|
|
|
Alice scanned his face closely while he spoke, and held her
|
|
breath as if in expectant suspense. Her countenance clouded
|
|
once more. "You don't realize, Theron," she said gravely;
|
|
"your voice when you speak to me, your look, your manner,
|
|
they have all changed. You are like another man--
|
|
some man who never loved me, and doesn't even know me,
|
|
much less like me. I want to know what the end of it
|
|
is to be. Up to the time of your sickness last summer,
|
|
until after the Soulsbys went away, I didn't let myself
|
|
get downright discouraged. It seemed too monstrous for
|
|
belief that you should go away out of my life like that.
|
|
It didn't seem possible that God could allow such a thing.
|
|
It came to me that I had been lax in my Christian life,
|
|
especially in my position as a minister's wife,
|
|
and that this was my punishment. I went to the altar,
|
|
to intercede with Him, and to try to loose my burden
|
|
at His feet. But nothing has come of it. I got no help
|
|
from you."
|
|
|
|
"Really, Alice," broke in Theron, "I explained over and
|
|
over again to you how preoccupied I was--with the book--
|
|
and affairs generally."
|
|
|
|
"I got no assistance from Heaven either," she went on,
|
|
declining the diversion he offered. "I don't want to
|
|
talk impiously, but if there is a God, he has forgotten me,
|
|
his poor heart-broken hand-maiden."
|
|
|
|
"You are talking impiously, Alice," observed her husband.
|
|
"And you are doing me cruel injustice, into the bargain."
|
|
|
|
"I only wish I were!" she replied; "I only wish to God
|
|
I were!"
|
|
|
|
"Well, then, accept my complete assurance that you ARE--
|
|
that your whole conception of me, and of what you are pleased
|
|
to describe as my change toward you, is an entire and
|
|
utter mistake. Of course, the married state is no more exempt
|
|
from the universal law of growth, development, alteration,
|
|
than any other human institution. On its spiritual side,
|
|
of course, viewed either as a sacrament, or as--"
|
|
|
|
"Don't let us go into that," interposed Alice, abruptly.
|
|
"In fact, there is no good in talking any more at all.
|
|
It is as if we didn't speak the same language.
|
|
You don't understand what I say; it makes no impression
|
|
upon your mind."
|
|
|
|
"Quite to the contrary," he assured her; "I have been
|
|
deeply interested and concerned in all you have said.
|
|
I think you are laboring under a great delusion,
|
|
and I have tried my best to convince you of it;
|
|
but I have never heard you speak more intelligibly or,
|
|
I might say, effectively."
|
|
|
|
A little gleam of softness stole over Alice's face.
|
|
"If you only gave me a little more credit for intelligence,"
|
|
she said, "you would find that I am not such a blockhead
|
|
as you think I am."
|
|
|
|
"Come, come!" he said, with a smiling show of impatience.
|
|
"You really mustn't impute things to me wholesale,
|
|
like that."
|
|
|
|
She was glad to answer the smile in kind. "No; but truly,"
|
|
she pleaded, "you don't realize it, but you have grown
|
|
into a way of treating me as if I had absolutely no mind
|
|
at all."
|
|
|
|
"You have a very admirable mind," he responded,
|
|
and took up his teaspoon again. She reached for his cup,
|
|
and poured out hot coffee for him. An almost cheerful
|
|
spirit had suddenly descended upon the breakfast table.
|
|
|
|
"And now let me say the thing I have been aching to say
|
|
for months," she began in less burdened voice.
|
|
|
|
He lifted his brows. "Haven't things been discussed
|
|
pretty fully already?" he asked.
|
|
|
|
The doubtful, harassed expression clouded upon her face
|
|
at his words, and she paused. "No," she said resolutely,
|
|
after an instant's reflection; "it is my duty to
|
|
discuss this, too. It is a misunderstanding all round.
|
|
You remember that I told you Mr. Gorringe had given me
|
|
some plants, which he got from some garden or other?"
|
|
|
|
"If you really wish to go on with the subject--yes I
|
|
have a recollection of that particular falsehood of his."
|
|
|
|
"He did it with the kindest and friendliest motives in
|
|
the world!" protested Alice. "He saw how down-in-the-mouth
|
|
and moping I was here, among these strangers--
|
|
and I really was getting quite peaked and run-down--
|
|
and he said I stayed indoors too much and it would do me
|
|
all sorts of good to work in the garden, and he would
|
|
send me some plants. The next I knew, here they were,
|
|
with a book about mixing soils and planting, and so on.
|
|
When I saw him next, and thanked him, I suppose I showed
|
|
some apprehension about his having laid out money on them,
|
|
and he, just to ease my mind, invented the story about his
|
|
getting them for nothing. When I found out the truth--
|
|
I got it out of that boy, Harvey Semple--he admitted it
|
|
quite frankly--said he was wrong to deceive me."
|
|
|
|
"This was in the fine first fervor of his term of probation,
|
|
I suppose," put in Theron. He made no effort to dissemble
|
|
the sneer in his voice.
|
|
|
|
"Well," answered Alice, with a touch of acerbity,
|
|
"I have told you now, and it is off my mind. There never
|
|
would have been the slightest concealment about it,
|
|
if you hadn't begun by keeping me at arm's length,
|
|
and making it next door to impossible to speak to you
|
|
at all, and if--"
|
|
|
|
"And if he hadn't lied." Theron, as he finished her
|
|
sentence for her, rose from the table. Dallying for a
|
|
brief moment by his chair, there seemed the magnetic
|
|
premonition in the air of some further and kindlier word.
|
|
Then he turned and walked sedately into the next room,
|
|
and closed the door behind him. The talk was finished;
|
|
and Alice, left alone, passed the knuckle of her thumb
|
|
over one swimming eye and then the other, and bit her lips
|
|
and swallowed down the sob that rose in her throat.
|
|
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|
|
CHAPTER XXVIII
|
|
|
|
|
|
It was early afternoon when Theron walked out of his yard,
|
|
bestowing no glance upon the withered and tarnished
|
|
show of the garden, and started with a definite step
|
|
down the street. The tendency to ruminative loitering,
|
|
which those who saw him abroad always associated
|
|
with his tall, spare figure, was not suggested today.
|
|
He moved forward like a man with a purpose.
|
|
|
|
All the forenoon in the seclusion of the sitting-room,
|
|
with a book opened before him, he had been thinking hard.
|
|
It was not the talk with Alice that occupied his thoughts.
|
|
That rose in his mind from time to time, only as a
|
|
disagreeable blur, and he refused to dwell upon it.
|
|
It was nothing to him, he said to himself, what Gorringe's
|
|
motives in lying had been. As for Alice, he hardened
|
|
his heart against her. Just now it was her mood to try
|
|
and make up to him. But it had been something different
|
|
yesterday, and who could say what it would be tomorrow?
|
|
He really had passed the limit of patience with her shifting
|
|
emotional vagaries, now lurching in this direction,
|
|
now in that. She had had her chance to maintain a hold
|
|
upon his interest and imagination, and had let it slip.
|
|
These were the accidents of life, the inevitable harsh
|
|
happenings in the great tragedy of Nature. They could not
|
|
be helped, and there was nothing more to be said.
|
|
|
|
He had bestowed much more attention upon what the priest
|
|
had said the previous evening. He passed in review all
|
|
the glowing tributes Father Forbes had paid to Celia.
|
|
They warmed his senses as he recalled them, but they also,
|
|
in a curious, indefinite way, caused him uneasiness.
|
|
There had been a personal fervor about them which was
|
|
something more than priestly. He remembered how the
|
|
priest had turned pale and faltered when the question
|
|
whether Celia would escape the general doom of her family
|
|
came up. It was not a merely pastoral agitation that,
|
|
he felt sure.
|
|
|
|
A hundred obscure hints, doubts, stray little suspicions,
|
|
crowded upward together in his thoughts. It became apparent
|
|
to him now that from the outset he had been conscious
|
|
of something queer--yes, from that very first day when he
|
|
saw the priest and Celia together, and noted their glance
|
|
of recognition inside the house of death. He realized now,
|
|
upon reflection, that the tone of other people, his own
|
|
parishioners and his casual acquaintances in Octavius alike,
|
|
had always had a certain note of reservation in it when
|
|
it touched upon Miss Madden. Her running in and out
|
|
of the pastorate at all hours, the way the priest patted
|
|
her on the shoulder before others, the obvious dislike
|
|
the priest's ugly old housekeeper bore her, the astonishing
|
|
freedom of their talk with each other--these dark
|
|
memories loomed forth out of a mass of sinister conjecture.
|
|
|
|
He could bear the uncertainty no longer. Was it indeed
|
|
not entirely his own fault that it had existed thus long?
|
|
No man with the spirit of a mouse would have shilly-shallied
|
|
in this preposterous fashion, week after week, with the fever
|
|
of a beautiful woman's kiss in his blood, and the woman
|
|
herself living only round the corner. The whole world
|
|
had been as good as offered to him--a bewildering world
|
|
of wealth and beauty and spiritual exaltation and love--
|
|
and he, like a weak fool, had waited for it to be brought
|
|
to him on a salver, as it were, and actually forced upon
|
|
his acceptance! "That is my failing," he reflected;
|
|
"these miserable ecclesiastical bandages of mine have dwarfed
|
|
my manly side. The meanest of Thurston's clerks would
|
|
have shown a more adventurous spirit and a bolder nerve.
|
|
If I do not act at once, with courage and resolution,
|
|
everything will be lost. Already she must think me
|
|
unworthy of the honor it was in her sweet will to bestow."
|
|
Then he remembered that she was now always at home.
|
|
"Not another hour of foolish indecision!" he whispered
|
|
to himself. "I will put my destiny to the test. I will see
|
|
her today!
|
|
|
|
A middle-aged, plain-faced servant answered his ring at the
|
|
door-bell of the Madden mansion. She was palpably Irish,
|
|
and looked at him with a saddened preoccupation in her
|
|
gray eyes, holding the door only a little ajar.
|
|
|
|
Theron had got out one of his cards. "I wish to make
|
|
inquiry about young Mr. Madden--Mr. Michael Madden,"
|
|
he said, holding the card forth tentatively. "I have only
|
|
just heard of his illness, and it has been a great grief
|
|
to me."
|
|
|
|
"He is no better," answered the woman, briefly.
|
|
|
|
"I am the Rev. Mr. Ware," he went on, "and you may say that,
|
|
if he is well enough, I should be glad to see him."
|
|
|
|
The servant peered out at him with a suddenly altered
|
|
expression, then shook her head. "I don't think he would
|
|
be wishing to see YOU," she replied. It was evident
|
|
from her tone that she suspected the visitor's intentions.
|
|
|
|
Theron smiled in spite of himself. "I have not come
|
|
as a clergyman," he explained, "but as a friend of
|
|
the family. If you will tell Miss Madden that I am here,
|
|
it will do just as well. Yes, we won't bother him.
|
|
If you will kindly hand my card to his sister."
|
|
|
|
When the domestic turned at this and went in, Theron felt
|
|
like throwing his hat in the air, there where he stood.
|
|
The woman's churlish sectarian prejudices had played
|
|
ideally into his hands. In no other imaginable
|
|
way could he have asked for Celia so naturally.
|
|
He wondered a little that a servant at such a grand house
|
|
as this should leave callers standing on the doorstep.
|
|
Still more he wondered what he should say to the lady
|
|
of his dream when he came into her presence.
|
|
|
|
"Will you please to walk this way?" The woman had returned.
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She closed the door noiselessly behind him, and led the way,
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not up the sumptuous staircase, as Theron had expected,
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but along through the broad hall, past several large doors,
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to a small curtained archway at the end. She pushed
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aside this curtain, and Theron found himself in a sort
|
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of conservatory, full of the hot, vague light of sunshine
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falling through ground-glass. The air was moist and close,
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and heavy with the smell of verdure and wet earth.
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A tall bank of palms, with ferns sprawling at their base,
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reared itself directly in front of him. The floor was of mosaic,
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and he saw now that there were rugs upon it, and that there
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were chairs and sofas, and other signs of habitation.
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It was, indeed, only half a greenhouse, for the lower part
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of it was in rosewood panels, with floral paintings on them,
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like a room.
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Moving to one side of the barrier of palms, he discovered,
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to his great surprise, the figure of Michael, sitting propped
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up with pillows in a huge easy-chair. The sick man was
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looking at him with big, gravely intent eyes. His face did
|
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not show as much change as Theron had in fancy pictured.
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It had seemed almost as bony and cadaverous on the day
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of the picnic. The hands spread out on the chair-arms
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|
were very white and thin, though, and the gaze in the blue
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eyes had a spectral quality which disturbed him.
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Michael raised his right hand, and Theron, stepping forward,
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took it limply in his for an instant. Then he laid it
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down again. The touch of people about to die had always
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been repugnant to him. He could feel on his own warm
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palm the very damp of the grave.
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"I only heard from Father Forbes last evening of your--
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your ill-health," he said, somewhat hesitatingly. He seated
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himself on a bench beneath the palms, facing the invalid,
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|
but still holding his hat. "I hope very sincerely that you
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will soon be all right again."
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"My sister is lying down in her room," answered Michael.
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He had not once taken his sombre and embarrassing gaze
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|
from the other's face. The voice in which he uttered this
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uncalled-for remark was thin in fibre, cold and impassive.
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|
It fell upon Theron's ears with a suggestion of hidden meaning.
|
|
He looked uneasily into Michael's eyes, and then away again.
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They seemed to be looking straight through him, and there
|
|
was no shirking the sensation that they saw and comprehended
|
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things with an unnatural prescience.
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"I hope she is feeling better," Theron found himself saying.
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"Father Forbes mentioned that she was a little under
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the weather. I dined with him last night."
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"I am glad that you came," said Michael, after a little pause.
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His earnest, unblinking eyes seemed to supplement his
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|
tongue with speech of their own. "I do be thinking a
|
|
great deal about you. I have matters to speak of to you,
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|
now that you are here."
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|
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Theron bowed his head gently, in token of grateful attention.
|
|
He tried the experiment of looking away from Michael,
|
|
but his glance went back again irresistibly, and fastened
|
|
itself upon the sick man's gaze, and clung there.
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|
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|
"I am next door to a dead man," he went on, paying no heed
|
|
to the other's deprecatory gesture. "It is not years
|
|
or months with me, but weeks. Then I go away to stand up
|
|
for judgment on my sins, and if it is His merciful will,
|
|
I shall see God. So I say my good-byes now, and so you
|
|
will let me speak plainly, and not think ill of what I say.
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|
You are much changed, Mr. Ware, since you came to Octavius,
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|
and it is not a change for the good."
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|
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|
Theron lifted his brows in unaffected surprise, and put
|
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inquiry into his glance.
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|
|
|
"I don't know if Protestants will be saved, in God's
|
|
good time, or not," continued Michael. "I find there
|
|
are different opinions among the clergy about that,
|
|
and of course it is not for me, only a plain mechanic,
|
|
to be sure where learned and pious scholars are in doubt.
|
|
But I am sure about one thing. Those Protestants,
|
|
and others too, mind you, who profess and preach good deeds,
|
|
and themselves do bad deeds--they will never be saved.
|
|
They will have no chance at all to escape hell-fire."
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|
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|
"I think we are all agreed upon that, Mr. Madden,"
|
|
said Theron, with surface suavity.
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|
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|
"Then I say to you, Mr. Ware, you are yourself in a bad path.
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Take the warning of a dying man, sir, and turn from it!"
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|
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|
The impulse to smile tugged at Theron's facial muscles.
|
|
This was really too droll. He looked up at the ceiling,
|
|
the while he forced his countenance into a polite composure,
|
|
then turned again to Michael, with some conciliatory
|
|
commonplace ready for utterance. But he said nothing,
|
|
and all suggestion of levity left his mind, under the searching
|
|
inspection bent upon him by the young man's hollow eyes.
|
|
What did Michael suspect? What did he know? What was he
|
|
hinting at, in this strange talk of his?
|
|
|
|
"I saw you often on the street when first you came here,"
|
|
continued Michael. "I knew the man who was here before you--
|
|
that is, by sight--and he was not a good man. But your face,
|
|
when you came, pleased me. I liked to look at you.
|
|
I was tormented just then, do you see, that so many decent,
|
|
kindly people, old school-mates and friends and neighbors
|
|
of mine--and, for that matter, others all over the country
|
|
must lose their souls because they were Protestants.
|
|
At my boyhood and young manhood, that thought took the joy
|
|
out of me. Sometimes I usen't to sleep a whole night long,
|
|
for thinking that some lad I had been playing with,
|
|
perhaps in his own house, that very day, would be taken
|
|
when he died, and his mother too, when she died, and thrown
|
|
into the flames of hell for all eternity. It made me
|
|
so unhappy that finally I wouldn't go to any Protestant
|
|
boy's house, and have his mother be nice to me, and give me
|
|
cake and apples--and me thinking all the while that they
|
|
were bound to be damned, no matter how good they were
|
|
to me."
|
|
|
|
The primitive humanity of this touched Theron, and he
|
|
nodded approbation with a tender smile in his eyes,
|
|
forgetting for the moment that a personal application
|
|
of the monologue had been hinted at.
|
|
|
|
"But then later, as I grew up," the sick man went on,
|
|
"I learned that it was not altogether certain. Some of
|
|
the authorities, I found, maintained that it was doubtful,
|
|
and some said openly that there must be salvation possible
|
|
for good people who lived in ignorance of the truth
|
|
through no fault of their own. Then I had hope one day,
|
|
and no hope the next, and as I did my work I thought
|
|
it over, and in the evenings my father and I talked
|
|
it over, and we settled nothing of it at all. Of course,
|
|
how could we?"
|
|
|
|
"Did you ever discuss the question with your sister?"
|
|
it occurred suddenly to Theron to interpose. He was
|
|
conscious of some daring in doing so, and he fancied
|
|
that Michael's drawn face clouded a little at his words.
|
|
|
|
"My sister is no theologian," he answered briefly.
|
|
"Women have no call to meddle with such matters.
|
|
But I was saying--it was in the middle of these doubtings
|
|
of mine that you came here to Octavius, and I noticed
|
|
you on the streets, and once in the evening--I made
|
|
no secret of it to my people--I sat in the back of your
|
|
church and heard you preach. As I say, I liked you.
|
|
It was your face, and what I thought it showed of the man
|
|
underneath it, that helped settle my mind more than
|
|
anything else. I said to myself: "Here is a young man,
|
|
only about my own age, and he has education and talents,
|
|
and he does not seek to make money for himself,
|
|
or a great name, but he is content to live humbly on
|
|
the salary of a book-keeper, and devote all his time to
|
|
prayer and the meditation of his religion, and preaching,
|
|
and visiting the sick and the poor, and comforting them.
|
|
His very face is a pleasure and a help for those in suffering
|
|
and trouble to look at. The very sight of it makes one
|
|
believe in pure thoughts and merciful deeds. I will not
|
|
credit it that God intends damning such a man as that,
|
|
or any like him!"
|
|
|
|
Theron bowed, with a slow, hesitating gravity of manner,
|
|
and deep, not wholly complacent, attention on his face.
|
|
Evidently all this was by way of preparation for
|
|
something unpleasant.
|
|
|
|
"That was only last spring," said Michael. His tired
|
|
voice sank for a sentence or two into a meditative
|
|
half-whisper. "And it was MY last spring of all. I shall
|
|
not be growing weak any more, or drawing hard breaths,
|
|
when the first warm weather comes. It will be one season
|
|
to me hereafter, always the same." He lifted his voice
|
|
with perceptible effort. "I am talking too much.
|
|
The rest I can say in a word. Only half a year has
|
|
gone by, and you have another face on you entirely.
|
|
I had noticed the small changes before, one by one. I saw
|
|
the great change, all of a sudden, the day of the picnic.
|
|
I see it a hundred times more now, as you sit there.
|
|
If it seemed to me like the face of a saint before,
|
|
it is more like the face of a bar-keeper now!"
|
|
|
|
This was quite too much. Theron rose, flushed to the temples,
|
|
and scowled down at the helpless man in the chair.
|
|
He swallowed the sharp words which came uppermost,
|
|
and bit and moistened his lips as he forced himself to
|
|
remember that this was a dying man, and Celia's brother,
|
|
to whom she was devoted, and whom he himself felt he
|
|
wanted to be very fond of. He got the shadow of a smile
|
|
on to his countenance.
|
|
|
|
"I fear you HAVE tired yourself unduly," he said,
|
|
in as non-contentious a tone as he could manage.
|
|
He even contrived a little deprecatory laugh. I am
|
|
afraid your real quarrel is with the air of Octavius.
|
|
It agrees with me so wonderfully--I am getting as fat
|
|
as a seal. But I do hope I am not paying for it by such
|
|
a wholesale deterioration inside. If my own opinion could
|
|
be of any value, I should assure you that I feel myself
|
|
an infinitely better and broader and stronger man than I
|
|
was when I came here."
|
|
|
|
Michael shook his head dogmatically. "That is the greatest
|
|
pity of all," he said, with renewed earnestness. "You are
|
|
entirely deceived about yourself. You do not at all realize
|
|
how you have altered your direction, or where you are going.
|
|
It was a great misfortune for you, sir, that you did not keep
|
|
among your own people. That poor half-brother of mine,
|
|
though the drink was in him when he said that same to you,
|
|
never spoke a truer word. Keep among your own people,
|
|
Mr. Ware! When you go among others--you know what I mean--
|
|
you have no proper understanding of what their sayings
|
|
and doings really mean. You do not realize that they are
|
|
held up by the power of the true Church, as a little child
|
|
learning to walk is held up with a belt by its nurse.
|
|
They can say and do things, and no harm at all come to them,
|
|
which would mean destruction to you, because they have help,
|
|
and you are walking alone. And so be said by me, Mr. Ware!
|
|
Go back to the way you were brought up in, and leave
|
|
alone the people whose ways are different from yours.
|
|
You are a married man, and you are the preacher of
|
|
a religion, such as it is. There can be nothing better
|
|
for you than to go and strive to be a good husband,
|
|
and to set a good example to the people of your Church,
|
|
who look up to you--and mix yourself up no more with outside
|
|
people and outside notions that only do you mischief.
|
|
And that is what I wanted to say to you."
|
|
|
|
Theron took up his hat. "I take in all kindness what you
|
|
have felt it your duty to say to me, Mr. Madden," he said.
|
|
"I am not sure that I have altogether followed you, but I
|
|
am very sure you mean it well."
|
|
|
|
"I mean well by you," replied Michael, wearily moving
|
|
his head on the pillow, and speaking in an undertone
|
|
of languor and pain, "and I mean well by others, that are
|
|
nearer to me, and that I have a right to care more about.
|
|
When a man lies by the site of his open grave, he does
|
|
not be meaning ill to any human soul."
|
|
|
|
"Yes--thanks--quite so!" faltered Theron. He dallied
|
|
for an instant with the temptation to seek some further
|
|
explanation, but the sight of Michael's half-closed
|
|
eyes and worn-out expression decided him against it.
|
|
It did not seem to be expected, either, that he should
|
|
shake hands, and with a few perfunctory words of hope
|
|
for the invalid's recovery, which fell with a jarring note
|
|
of falsehood upon his own ears, he turned and left the room.
|
|
As he did so, Michael touched a bell on the table beside him.
|
|
|
|
Theron drew a long breath in the hall, as the curtain
|
|
fell behind him. It was an immense relief to escape
|
|
from the oppressive humidity and heat of the flower-room,
|
|
and from that ridiculous bore of a Michael as well.
|
|
|
|
The middle-aged, grave-faced servant, warned by the bell,
|
|
stood waiting to conduct him to the door.
|
|
|
|
"I am sorry to have missed Miss Madden," he said to her.
|
|
"She must be quite worn out. Perhaps later in the day--"
|
|
|
|
"She will not be seeing anybody today," returned the woman.
|
|
"She is going to New York this evening, and she is taking
|
|
some rest against the journey."
|
|
|
|
"Will she be away long?" he asked mechanically.
|
|
The servant's answer, "I have no idea," hardly penetrated
|
|
his consciousness at all.
|
|
|
|
He moved down the steps, and along the gravel to the street,
|
|
in a maze of mental confusion. When he reached the sidewalk,
|
|
under the familiar elms, he paused, and made a definite
|
|
effort to pull his thoughts together, and take stock
|
|
of what had happened, of what was going to happen;
|
|
but the thing baffled him. It was as if some drug had
|
|
stupefied his faculties.
|
|
|
|
He began to walk, and gradually saw that what he was
|
|
thinking about was the fact of Celia's departure for New
|
|
York that evening. He stared at this fact, at first in
|
|
its nakedness, then clothed with reassuring suggestions
|
|
that this was no doubt a trip she very often made.
|
|
There was a blind sense of comfort in this idea, and he
|
|
rested himself upon it. Yes, of course, she travelled
|
|
a great deal. New York must be as familiar to her
|
|
as Octavius was to him. Her going there now was quite
|
|
a matter of course--the most natural thing in the world.
|
|
|
|
Then there burst suddenly uppermost in his mind the
|
|
other fact--that Father Forbes was also going to New
|
|
York that evening. The two things spindled upward,
|
|
side by side, yet separately, in his mental vision;
|
|
then they twisted and twined themselves together.
|
|
He followed their convolutions miserably, walking as if
|
|
his eyes were shut.
|
|
|
|
In slow fashion matters defined and arranged themselves
|
|
before him. The process of tracing their sequence was
|
|
all torture, but there was no possibility, no notion,
|
|
of shirking any detail of the pain. The priest had spoken
|
|
of his efforts to persuade Celia to go away for a few days,
|
|
for rest and change of air and scene. He must have known
|
|
only too well that she was going, but of that he had been
|
|
careful to drop no hint. The possibility of accident
|
|
was too slight to be worth considering. People on such
|
|
intimate terms as Celia and the priest--people with such
|
|
facilities for seeing each other whenever they desired--
|
|
did not find themselves on the same train of cars,
|
|
with the same long journey in view, by mere chance.
|
|
|
|
Theron walked until dusk began to close in upon the
|
|
autumn day. It grew colder, as he turned his face homeward.
|
|
He wondered if it would freeze again over-night, and then
|
|
remembered the shrivelled flowers in his wife's garden.
|
|
For a moment they shaped themselves in a picture before his
|
|
mind's eye; he saw their blackened foliage, their sicklied,
|
|
drooping stalks, and wilted blooms, and as he looked,
|
|
they restored themselves to the vigor and grace and richness
|
|
of color of summer-time, as vividly as if they had been
|
|
painted on a canvas. Or no, the picture he stared at
|
|
was not on canvas, but on the glossy, varnished panel
|
|
of a luxurious sleeping-car. He shook his head angrily and
|
|
blinked his eyes again and again, to prevent their seeing,
|
|
seated together in the open window above this panel,
|
|
the two people he knew were there, gloved and habited
|
|
for the night's journey, waiting for the train to start.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
"Very much to my surprise," he found himself saying to Alice,
|
|
watching her nervously as she laid the supper-table, "I
|
|
find I must go to Albany tonight. That is, it isn't
|
|
absolutely necessary, for that matter, but I think it
|
|
may easily turn out to be greatly to my advantage to go.
|
|
Something has arisen--I can't speak about it as yet--
|
|
but the sooner I see the Bishop about it the better.
|
|
Things like that occur in a man's life, where boldly
|
|
striking out a line of action, and following it up without
|
|
an instant's delay, may make all the difference in the world
|
|
to him. Tomorrow it might be too late; and, besides, I can
|
|
be home the sooner again."
|
|
|
|
Alice's face showed surprise, but no trace of suspicion.
|
|
She spoke with studied amiability during the meal,
|
|
and deferred with such unexpected tact to his implied
|
|
desire not to be questioned as to the mysterious motives
|
|
of the journey, that his mood instinctively softened and
|
|
warmed toward her, as they finished supper.
|
|
|
|
He smiled a little. "I do hope I shan't have to go
|
|
on tomorrow to New York; but these Bishops of ours are
|
|
such gad-abouts one never knows where to catch them.
|
|
As like as not Sanderson may be down in New York,
|
|
on Book-Concern business or something; and if he is,
|
|
I shall have to chase him up. But, after all, perhaps the
|
|
trip will do me good--the change of air and scene,
|
|
you know."
|
|
|
|
"I'm sure I hope so," said Alice, honestly enough.
|
|
"If you do go on to New York, I suppose you'll go by the
|
|
river-boat. Everybody talks so much of that beautiful
|
|
sail down the Hudson."
|
|
|
|
"That's an idea!" exclaimed Theron, welcoming it
|
|
with enthusiasm. "It hadn't occurred to me. If I
|
|
do have to go, and it is as lovely as they make out,
|
|
the next time I promise I won't go without you, my girl.
|
|
I HAVE been rather out of sorts lately," he continued.
|
|
"When I come back, I daresay I shall be feeling better,
|
|
more like my old self. Then I'm going to try, Alice, to be
|
|
nicer to you than I have been of late. I'm afraid there
|
|
was only too much truth in what you said this morning."
|
|
|
|
"Never mind what I said this morning--or any other time,"
|
|
broke in Alice, softly. "Don't ever remember it again,
|
|
Theron, if only--only--"
|
|
|
|
He rose as she spoke, moved round the table to where
|
|
she sat, and, bending over her, stopped the faltering
|
|
sentence with a kiss. When was it, he wondered,
|
|
that he had last kissed her? It seemed years, ages, ago.
|
|
|
|
An hour later, with hat and overcoat on, and his valise
|
|
in his hand, he stood on the doorstep of the parsonage,
|
|
and kissed her once more before he turned and descended
|
|
into the darkness. He felt like whistling as his feet
|
|
sounded firmly on the plank sidewalk beyond the gate.
|
|
It seemed as if he had never been in such capital good
|
|
spirits before in his life.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XXIX
|
|
|
|
|
|
The train was at a standstill somewhere, and the dull,
|
|
ashen beginnings of daylight had made a first feeble start
|
|
toward effacing the lamps in the car-roof, when the new day
|
|
opened for Theron. A man who had just come in stopped
|
|
at the seat upon which he had been stretched through
|
|
the night, and, tapping him brusquely on the knee, said,
|
|
"I'm afraid I must trouble you, sir." After a moment
|
|
of sleep-burdened confusion, he sat up, and the man
|
|
took the other half of the seat and opened a newspaper,
|
|
still damp from the press. It was morning, then.
|
|
|
|
Theron rubbed a clear space upon the clouded window
|
|
with his thumb, and looked out. There was nothing to
|
|
be seen but a broad stretch of tracks, and beyond this
|
|
the shadowed outlines of wagons and machinery in a yard,
|
|
with a background of factory buildings.
|
|
|
|
The atmosphere in the car was vile beyond belief.
|
|
He thought of opening the window, but feared that the
|
|
peremptory-looking man with the paper, who had wakened him
|
|
and made him sit up, might object. They were the only people
|
|
in the car who were sitting up. Backwards and forwards,
|
|
on either side of the narrow aisle, the dim light disclosed
|
|
recumbent forms, curled uncomfortably into corners,
|
|
or sprawling at difficult angles which involved the least
|
|
interference with one another. Here and there an upturned
|
|
face gave a livid patch of surface for the mingled play
|
|
of the gray dawn and the yellow lamp-light. A ceaseless
|
|
noise of snoring was in the air.
|
|
|
|
He got up and walked to the tank of ice-water at the end
|
|
of the aisle, and took a drink from the most inaccessible
|
|
portion of the common tin-cup's rim. The happy idea of going
|
|
out on the platform struck him, and he acted upon it.
|
|
The morning air was deliciously cool and fresh by contrast,
|
|
and he filled his lungs with it again and again.
|
|
Standing here, he could discern beyond the buildings to the
|
|
right the faint purplish outlines of great rounded hills.
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Some workmen, one of them bearing a torch, were crouching
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along under the side of the train, pounding upon
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the resonant wheels with small hammers. He recalled
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having heard the same sound in the watches of the night,
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during a prolonged halt. Some one had said it was Albany.
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He smiled in spite of himself at the thought that Bishop
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Sanderson would never know about the visit he had missed.
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Swinging himself to the ground, he bent sidewise and looked
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forward down the long train. There were five, six,
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perhaps more, sleeping-cars on in front. Which one of them,
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he wondered--and then there came the sharp "All aboard!"
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from the other side, and he bundled up the steps again,
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and entered the car as the train slowly resumed its progress.
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He was wide-awake now, and quite at his ease. He took
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his seat, and diverted himself by winking gravely at
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a little child facing him on the next seat but one.
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There were four other children in the family party,
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encamped about the tired and still sleeping mother whose back
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was turned to Theron. He recalled now having noticed this
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poor woman last night, in the first stage of his journey--
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how she fed her brood from one of the numerous baskets
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piled under their feet, and brought water in a tin dish
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of her own from the tank to use in washing their faces
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with a rag, and loosened their clothes to dispose
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them for the night's sleep. The face of the woman,
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her manner and slatternly aspect, and the general effect
|
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of her belongings, bespoke squalid ignorance and poverty.
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Watching her, Theron had felt curiously interested
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in the performance. In one sense, it was scarcely more
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human than the spectacle of a cat licking her kittens,
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or a cow giving suck to her calf. Yet, in another,
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was there anything more human?
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The child who had wakened before the rest regarded him
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with placidity, declining to be amused by his winkings,
|
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but exhibiting no other emotion. She had been playing by
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herself with a couple of buttons tied on a string, and after
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|
giving a civil amount of attention to Theron's grimaces,
|
|
she turned again to the superior attractions of this toy.
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Her self-possession, her capacity for self-entertainment,
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the care she took not to arouse the others, all impressed
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him very much. He felt in his pocket for a small coin,
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and, reaching forward, offered it to her. She took
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it calmly, bestowed a tranquil gaze upon him for a moment,
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and went back to the buttons. Her indifference produced
|
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an unpleasant sensation upon him somehow, and he rubbed
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the steaming window clear again, and stared out of it.
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The wide river lay before him, flanked by a precipitous wall
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of cliffs which he knew instantly must be the Palisades.
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There was an advertisement painted on them which he
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|
tried in vain to read. He was surprised to find they
|
|
interested him so slightly. He had heard all his life
|
|
of the Hudson, and especially of it just at this point.
|
|
The reality seemed to him almost commonplace. His failure
|
|
to be thrilled depressed him for the moment.
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|
|
|
"I suppose those ARE the Palisades?" he asked his neighbor.
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The man glanced up from his paper, nodded, and made
|
|
as if to resume his reading. But his eye had caught
|
|
something in the prospect through the window which
|
|
arrested his attention. "By George!" he exclaimed,
|
|
and lifted himself to get a clearer view.
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|
|
|
"What is it?" asked Theron, peering forth as well.
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"Nothing; only Barclay Wendover's yacht is still there.
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There's been a hitch of some sort. They were to have
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left yesterday."
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|
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|
"Is that it--that long black thing?" queried Theron.
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|
"That can't be a yacht, can it?"
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|
"What do you think it is?" answered the other.
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|
They were looking at a slim, narrow hull, lying at anchor,
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silent and motionless on the drab expanse of water.
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|
"If that ain't a yacht, they haven't begun building any yet.
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|
They're taking her over to the Mediterranean for a cruise,
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you know--around India and Japan for the winter, and home
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by the South Sea islands. Friend o' mine's in the party.
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|
Wouldn't mind the trip myself."
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|
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|
"But do you mean to say," asked Theron, "that that little
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|
shell of a thing can sail across the ocean? Why, how many
|
|
people would she hold?"
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|
|
|
The man laughed. "Well," he said, "there's room for two
|
|
sets of quadrilles in the chief saloon, if the rest keep
|
|
their legs well up on the sofas. But there's only ten
|
|
or a dozen in the party this time. More than that rather
|
|
get in one another's way, especially with so many ladies
|
|
on board."
|
|
|
|
Theron asked no more questions, but bent his head to see
|
|
the last of this wonderful craft. The sight of it,
|
|
and what he had heard about it, suddenly gave point
|
|
and focus to his thoughts. He knew at last what it was
|
|
that had lurked, formless and undesignated, these many
|
|
days in the background of his dreams. The picture rose
|
|
in his mind now of Celia as the mistress of a yacht.
|
|
He could see her reclining in a low easy-chair upon
|
|
the polished deck, with the big white sails billowing
|
|
behind her, and the sun shining upon the deep blue waves,
|
|
and glistening through the splash of spray in the air,
|
|
and weaving a halo of glowing gold about her fair head.
|
|
Ah, how the tender visions crowded now upon him!
|
|
Eternal summer basked round this enchanted yacht of his fancy--
|
|
summer sought now in Scottish firths or Norwegian fiords,
|
|
now in quaint old Southern harbors, ablaze with the hues
|
|
of strange costumes and half-tropical flowers and fruits,
|
|
now in far-away Oriental bays and lagoons, or among
|
|
the coral reefs and palm-trees of the luxurious Pacific.
|
|
He dwelt upon these new imaginings with the fervent longing
|
|
of an inland-born boy. Every vague yearning he had ever felt
|
|
toward salt-water stirred again in his blood at the thought
|
|
of the sea--with Celia.
|
|
|
|
Why not? She had never visited any foreign land.
|
|
"Sometime," she had said, "sometime, no doubt I will."
|
|
He could hear again the wistful, musing tone of her voice.
|
|
The thought had fascinations for her, it was clear.
|
|
How irresistibly would it not appeal to her, presented with
|
|
the added charm of a roving, vagrant independence on
|
|
the high seas, free to speed in her snow-winged chariot
|
|
wherever she willed over the deep, loitering in this place,
|
|
or up-helm-and-away to another, with no more care or weight
|
|
of responsibility than the gulls tossing through the air in
|
|
her wake!
|
|
|
|
Theron felt, rather than phrased to himself, that there
|
|
would not be "ten or a dozen in the party" on that yacht.
|
|
Without defining anything in his mind, he breathed in
|
|
fancy the same bold ocean breeze which filled the sails,
|
|
and toyed with Celia's hair; he looked with her as she
|
|
sat by the rail, and saw the same waves racing past,
|
|
the same vast dome of cloud and ether that were mirrored
|
|
in her brown eyes, and there was no one else anywhere
|
|
near them. Even the men in sailors' clothes, who would
|
|
be pulling at ropes, or climbing up tarred ladders,
|
|
kept themselves considerately outside the picture.
|
|
Only Celia sat there, and at her feet, gazing up again
|
|
into her face as in the forest, the man whose whole
|
|
being had been consecrated to her service, her worship,
|
|
by the kiss.
|
|
|
|
"You've passed it now. I was trying to point out the
|
|
Jumel house to you--where Aaron Burr lived, you know."
|
|
|
|
Theron roused himself from his day-dream, and nodded with
|
|
a confused smile at his neighbor. "Thanks," he faltered;
|
|
"I didn't hear you. The train makes such a noise, and I
|
|
must have been dozing."
|
|
|
|
He looked about him. The night aspect, as of a tramps'
|
|
lodging-house, had quite disappeared from the car.
|
|
Everybody was sitting up; and the more impatient
|
|
were beginning to collect their bundles and hand-bags
|
|
from the racks and floor. An expressman came through,
|
|
jangling a huge bunch of brass checks on leathern thongs
|
|
over his arm, and held parley with passengers along
|
|
the aisle. Outside, citified streets, with stores
|
|
and factories, were alternating in the moving panorama
|
|
with open fields; and, even as he looked, these vacant
|
|
spaces ceased altogether, and successive regular lines
|
|
of pavement, between two tall rows of houses all alike,
|
|
began to stretch out, wheel to the right, and swing
|
|
off out of view, for all the world like the avenues of
|
|
hop-poles he remembered as a boy. Then was a long tunnel,
|
|
its darkness broken at stated intervals by brief bursts
|
|
of daylight from overhead, and out of this all at
|
|
once the train drew up its full length in some vast,
|
|
vaguely lighted enclosure, and stopped.
|
|
|
|
"Yes, this is New York," said the man, folding up his paper,
|
|
and springing to his feet. The narrow aisle was filled with
|
|
many others who had been prompter still; and Theron stood,
|
|
bag in hand, waiting till this energetic throng should
|
|
have pushed itself bodily past him forth from the car.
|
|
Then he himself made his way out, drifting with a sense
|
|
of helplessness in their resolute wake. There rose in his
|
|
mind the sudden conviction that he would be too late.
|
|
All the passengers in the forward sleepers would be gone
|
|
before he could get there. Yet even this terror gave him
|
|
no new power to get ahead of anybody else in the tightly
|
|
packed throng.
|
|
|
|
Once on the broad platform, the others started off briskly;
|
|
they all seemed to know just where they wanted to go,
|
|
and to feel that no instant of time was to be lost
|
|
in getting there. Theron himself caught some of this
|
|
urgent spirit, and hurled himself along in the throng
|
|
with reckless haste, knocking his bag against peoples'
|
|
legs, but never pausing for apology or comment until
|
|
he found himself abreast of the locomotive at the head
|
|
of the train. He drew aside from the main current here,
|
|
and began searching the platform, far and near, for those
|
|
he had travelled so far to find.
|
|
|
|
The platform emptied itself. Theron lingered on in
|
|
puzzled hesitation, and looked about him. In the whole
|
|
immense station, with its acres of tracks and footways,
|
|
and its incessantly shifting processions of people,
|
|
there was visible nobody else who seemed also in doubt,
|
|
or who appeared capable of sympathizing with indecision
|
|
in any form. Another train came in, some way over to
|
|
the right, and before it had fairly stopped, swarms of
|
|
eager men began boiling out of each end of each car,
|
|
literally precipitating themselves over one another,
|
|
it seemed to Theron, in their excited dash down the steps.
|
|
As they caught their footing below, they started racing
|
|
pell-mell down the platform to its end; there he saw them,
|
|
looking more than ever like clustered bees in the distance,
|
|
struggling vehemently in a dense mass up a staircase in the
|
|
remote corner of the building.
|
|
|
|
"What are those folks running for? Is there a fire?"
|
|
he asked an amiable-faced young mulatto, in the uniform
|
|
of the sleeping-car service, who passed him with some light
|
|
hand-bags.
|
|
|
|
"No; they's Harlem people, I guess--jes' catchin' the Elevated--
|
|
that's all, sir," he answered obligingly.
|
|
|
|
At the moment some passengers emerged slowly from one
|
|
of the sleeping-cars, and came loitering toward him.
|
|
|
|
"Why, are there people still in these cars?" he asked eagerly.
|
|
"Haven't they all gone?"
|
|
|
|
"Some has; some ain't," the porter replied. "They most
|
|
generally take their time about it. They ain't no hurry,
|
|
so long's they get out 'fore we're drawn round to the drill-yard."
|
|
|
|
There was still hope, then. Theron took up his bag
|
|
and walked forward, intent upon finding some place from
|
|
which he could watch unobserved the belated stragglers
|
|
issuing from the sleeping-cars. He started back all at once,
|
|
confronted by a semi-circle of violent men with whips
|
|
and badges, who stunned his hearing by a sudden vociferous
|
|
outburst of shouts and yells. They made furious gestures
|
|
at him with their whips and fists, to enforce the
|
|
incoherent babel of their voices; and in these gestures,
|
|
as in their faces and cries, there seemed a great deal
|
|
of menace and very little invitation. There was a big
|
|
policeman sauntering near by, and Theron got the idea
|
|
that it was his presence alone which protected him from
|
|
open violence at the hands of these savage hackmen.
|
|
He tightened his clutch on his valise, and, turning his back
|
|
on them and their uproar, tried to brave it out and stand
|
|
where he was. But the policeman came lounging slowly
|
|
toward him, with such authority in his swaying gait,
|
|
and such urban omniscience written all over his broad,
|
|
sandy face, that he lost heart, and beat an abrupt retreat
|
|
off to the right, where there were a number of doorways,
|
|
near which other people had ventured to put down baggage
|
|
on the floor.
|
|
|
|
Here, somewhat screened from observation, he stood
|
|
for a long time, watching at odd moments the ceaselessly
|
|
varying phases of the strange scene about him, but always
|
|
keeping an eye on the train he had himself arrived in.
|
|
It was slow and dispiriting work. A dozen times his heart
|
|
failed him, and he said to himself mournfully that he
|
|
had had his journey for nothing. Then some new figure
|
|
would appear, alighting from the steps of a sleeper,
|
|
and hope revived in his breast.
|
|
|
|
At last, when over half an hour of expectancy had been
|
|
marked off by the big clock overhead, his suspense came
|
|
to an end. He saw Father Forbes' erect and substantial
|
|
form, standing on the car platform nearest of all,
|
|
balancing himself with his white hands on the rails,
|
|
waiting for something. Then after a little he came down,
|
|
followed by a black porter, whose arms were burdened
|
|
by numerous bags and parcels. The two stood a minute
|
|
or so more in hesitation at the side of the steps.
|
|
Then Celia descended, and the three advanced.
|
|
|
|
The importance of not being discovered was uppermost
|
|
in Theron's mind, now that he saw them actually coming
|
|
toward him. He had avoided this the previous evening,
|
|
in the Octavius depot, with some skill, he flattered himself.
|
|
It gave him a pleasurable sense of being a man of affairs,
|
|
almost a detective, to be confronted by the necessity
|
|
now of baffling observation once again. He was still
|
|
rather without plans for keeping them in view, once they
|
|
left the station. He had supposed that he would be able
|
|
to hear what hotel they directed their driver to take
|
|
them to, and, failing that, he had fostered a notion,
|
|
based upon a story he had read when a boy, of throwing
|
|
himself into another carriage, and bidding his driver
|
|
to pursue them in hot haste, and on his life not fail
|
|
to track them down. These devices seemed somewhat empty,
|
|
now that the urgent moment was at hand; and as he drew
|
|
back behind some other loiterers, out of view, he sharply
|
|
racked his wits for some way of coping with this most
|
|
pressing problem.
|
|
|
|
It turned out, however, that there was no difficulty
|
|
at all. Father Forbes and Celia seemed to have no use for
|
|
the hackmen, but moved straight forward toward the street,
|
|
through the doorway next to that in which Theron cowered.
|
|
He stole round, and followed them at a safe distance,
|
|
making Celia's hat, and the portmanteau perched on
|
|
the shoulder of the porter behind her, his guides.
|
|
To his surprise, they still kept on their course when they
|
|
had reached the sidewalk, and went over the pavement
|
|
across an open square which spread itself directly in
|
|
front of the station. Hanging as far behind as he dared,
|
|
he saw them pass to the other sidewalk diagonally opposite,
|
|
proceed for a block or so along this, and then separate at
|
|
a corner. Celia and the negro lad went down a side street,
|
|
and entered the door of a vast, tall red-brick building
|
|
which occupied the whole block. The priest, turning on
|
|
his heel, came back again and went boldly up the broad
|
|
steps of the front entrance to this same structure,
|
|
which Theron now discovered to be the Murray Hill Hotel.
|
|
|
|
Fortune had indeed favored him. He not only knew where
|
|
they were, but he had been himself a witness to the furtive
|
|
way in which they entered the house by different doors.
|
|
Nothing in his own limited experience of hotels helped him
|
|
to comprehend the notion of a separate entrance for ladies
|
|
and their luggage. He did not feel quite sure about the
|
|
significance of what he had observed, in his own mind.
|
|
But it was apparent to him that there was something
|
|
underhanded about it.
|
|
|
|
After lingering awhile on the steps of the hotel,
|
|
and satisfying himself by peeps through the glass
|
|
doors that the coast was clear, he ventured inside.
|
|
The great corridor contained many people, coming, going,
|
|
or standing about, but none of them paid any attention to him.
|
|
At last he made up his mind, and beckoned a colored boy
|
|
to him from a group gathered in the shadows of the big
|
|
central staircase. Explaining that he did not at that moment
|
|
wish a room, but desired to leave his bag, the boy took
|
|
him to a cloak-room, and got him a check for the thing.
|
|
With this in his pocket he felt himself more at his ease,
|
|
and turned to walk away. Then suddenly he wheeled, and,
|
|
bending his body over the counter of the cloak-room,
|
|
astonished the attendant inside by the eagerness with
|
|
which he scrutinized the piled rows of portmanteaus,
|
|
trunks, overcoats, and bundles in the little enclosure.
|
|
|
|
"What is it you want? Here's your bag, if you're looking
|
|
for that," this man said to him.
|
|
|
|
"No, thanks; it's nothing," replied Theron,
|
|
straightening himself again. He had had a narrow escape.
|
|
Father Forbes and Celia, walking side by side, had come
|
|
down the small passage in which he stood, and had passed him
|
|
so closely that he had felt her dress brush against him.
|
|
Fortunately he had seen them in time, and by throwing himself
|
|
half into the cloak-room, had rendered recognition impossible.
|
|
|
|
He walked now in the direction they had taken, till he came
|
|
to the polite colored man at an open door on the left,
|
|
who was bowing people into the breakfast room.
|
|
Standing in the doorway, he looked about him till his eye
|
|
lighted upon his two friends, seated at a small table
|
|
by a distant window, with a black waiter, card in hand,
|
|
bending over in consultation with them.
|
|
|
|
Returning to the corridor, he made bold now to march
|
|
up to the desk and examine the register. The priest's
|
|
name was not there. He found only the brief entry,
|
|
"Miss Madden, Octavius," written, not by her, but by
|
|
Father Forbes. On the line were two numbers in pencil,
|
|
with an "and" between them. An indirect question to one
|
|
of the clerks helped him to an explanation of this.
|
|
When there were two numbers, it meant that the guest in
|
|
question had a parlor as well as a bedroom.
|
|
|
|
Here he drew a long, satisfied breath, and turned away.
|
|
The first half of his quest stood completed--and that
|
|
much more fully and easily than he had dared to hope.
|
|
He could not but feel a certain new respect for himself
|
|
as a man of resource and energy. He had demonstrated
|
|
that people could not fool with him with impunity.
|
|
|
|
It remained to decide what he would do with his discovery,
|
|
now that it had been so satisfactorily made.
|
|
As yet, he had given this hardly a thought. Even now,
|
|
it did not thrust itself forward as a thing demanding
|
|
instant attention. It was much more important, first of all,
|
|
to get a good breakfast. He had learned that there was
|
|
another and less formal eating-place, downstairs in the
|
|
basement by the bar, with an entrance from the street.
|
|
He walked down by the inner stairway instead,
|
|
feeling himself already at home in the big hotel.
|
|
He ordered an ample breakfast, and came out while it
|
|
was being served to wash and have his boots blacked,
|
|
and he gave the man a quarter of a dollar. His pockets
|
|
were filled with silver quarters, half-dollars, and dollars
|
|
almost to a burdensome point, and in his valise was a bag
|
|
full of smaller change, including many rolls of copper
|
|
cents which Alice always counted and packed up on Mondays.
|
|
In the hurry of leaving he had brought with him the church
|
|
collections for the past two weeks. It occurred to him
|
|
that he must keep a strict account of his expenditure.
|
|
Meanwhile he gave ten cents to another man in a silk-sleeved
|
|
cardigan jacket, who had merely stood by and looked at him
|
|
while his boots were being polished. There was a sense
|
|
of metropolitan affluence in the very atmosphere.
|
|
|
|
The little table in the adjoining room, on which Theron
|
|
found his meal in waiting for him, seemed a vision of
|
|
delicate napery and refined appointments in his eyes.
|
|
He was wolfishly hungry, and the dishes he looked upon
|
|
gave him back assurances by sight and smell that he
|
|
was very happy as well. The servant in attendance
|
|
had an extremely white apron and a kindly black face.
|
|
He bowed when Theron looked at him, with the air of a
|
|
lifelong admirer and humble friend.
|
|
|
|
"I suppose you'll have claret with your breakfast, sir?"
|
|
he remarked, as if it were a matter of course.
|
|
|
|
"Why, certainly," answered Theron, stretching his legs
|
|
contentedly under the table, and tucking the corner
|
|
of his napkin in his neckband.--"Certainly, my good man."
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XXX
|
|
|
|
|
|
At ten o'clock Theron, loitering near the bookstall
|
|
in the corridor, saw Father Forbes come downstairs,
|
|
pass out through the big front doors, get into a carriage,
|
|
and drive away.
|
|
|
|
This relieved him of a certain sense of responsibility,
|
|
and he retired to a corner sofa and sat down.
|
|
The detective side of him being off duty, so to speak,
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there was leisure at last for reflection upon the other
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aspects of his mission. Yes; it was high time for him
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to consider what he should do next.
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It was easier to recognize this fact, however, than to act
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upon it. His mind was full of tricksy devices for eluding
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this task of serious thought which he sought to impose
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upon it. It seemed so much pleasanter not to think at all--
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but just to drift. He found himself watching with envy
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the men who, as they came out from their breakfast,
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walked over to the bookstall, and bought cigars from the
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row of boxes nestling there among the newspaper piles.
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They had such evident delight in the work of selection;
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they took off the ends of the cigars so carefully,
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and lighted them with such meditative attention,--
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he could see that he was wofully handicapped by not
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knowing how to smoke. He had had the most wonderful
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breakfast of his life, but even in the consciousness
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of comfortable repletion which pervaded his being,
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there was an obstinate sense of something lacking.
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No doubt a good cigar was the thing needed to round out
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the perfection of such a breakfast. He half rose once,
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fired by a sudden resolution to go over and get one.
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But of course that was nonsense; it would only make
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him sick. He sat down, and determinedly set himself
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to thinking.
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The effort finally brought fruit--and of a kind which
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gave him a very unhappy quarter of an hour. The lover
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part of him was uppermost now, insistently exposing all
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its raw surfaces to the stings and scalds of jealousy.
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Up to this moment, his brain had always evaded the direct
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question of how he and the priest relatively stood in
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Celia's estimation. It forced itself remorselessly upon
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him now; and his thoughts, so far from shirking the subject,
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seemed to rise up to meet it. It was extremely unpleasant,
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all this.
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But then a calmer view asserted itself. Why go out of
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his way to invent anguish for himself? The relations
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between Celia and the priest, whatever they might be,
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were certainly of old standing. They had begun before
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his time. His own romance was a more recent affair, and must
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take its place, of course, subject to existing conditions.
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It was all right for him to come to New York, and satisfy
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his legitimate curiosity as to the exact character and scope
|
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of these conditions. But it was foolish to pretend to be
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amazed or dismayed at the discovery of their existence.
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They were a part of the situation which he, with his
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eyes wide open, had accepted. It was his function
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to triumph over them, to supplant them, to rear the
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edifice of his own victorious passion upon their ruins.
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It was to this that Celia's kiss had invited him.
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It was for this that he had come to New York. To let
|
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his purpose be hampered or thwarted now by childish
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doubts and jealousies would be ridiculous.
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|
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He rose, and holding himself very erect, walked with measured
|
|
deliberation across the corridor and up the broad staircase.
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There was an elevator near at hand, he had noticed,
|
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but he preferred the stairs. One or two of the colored
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boys clustered about the foot of the stairs looked at him,
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|
and he had a moment of dreadful apprehension lest they
|
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should stop his progress. Nothing was said, and he went on.
|
|
The numbers on the first floor were not what he wanted,
|
|
and after some wandering about he ascended to the next,
|
|
and then to the third. Every now and then he encountered
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attendants, but intuitively he bore himself with an air of
|
|
knowing what he was about which protected him from inquiry.
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|
|
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Finally he came upon the hall-way he sought. Passing along,
|
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he found the doors bearing the numbers he had memorized
|
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so well. They were quite close together, and there was
|
|
nothing to help him guess which belonged to the parlor.
|
|
He hesitated, gazing wistfully from one to the other.
|
|
In the instant of indecision, even while his alert ear
|
|
caught the sound of feet coming along toward the passage
|
|
in which he stood, a thought came to quicken his resolve.
|
|
It became apparent to him that his discovery gave him
|
|
a certain new measure of freedom with Celia, a sort of
|
|
right to take things more for granted than heretofore.
|
|
He chose a door at random, and rapped distinctly on
|
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the panel.
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"Come!"
|
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|
|
The voice he knew for Celia's. The single word, however,
|
|
recalled the usage of Father Forbes, which he had noted
|
|
more than once at the pastorate, when Maggie had knocked.
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|
|
|
He straightened his shoulders, took his hat off, and pushed
|
|
open the door. It WAS the parlor--a room of sofas,
|
|
pianos, big easy-chairs, and luxurious bric-a-brac. A tall
|
|
woman was walking up and down in it, with bowed head.
|
|
Her back was at the moment toward him; and he looked at her,
|
|
saying to himself that this was the lady of his dreams,
|
|
the enchantress of the kiss, the woman who loved him--
|
|
but somehow it did not seem to his senses to be Celia.
|
|
|
|
She turned, and moved a step or two in his direction before
|
|
she mechanically lifted her eyes and saw who was standing
|
|
in her doorway. She stopped short, and regarded him.
|
|
Her face was in the shadow, and he could make out nothing
|
|
of its expression, save that there was a general effect
|
|
of gravity about it.
|
|
|
|
"I cannot receive you," she said. "You must go away.
|
|
You have no business to come like this without sending up
|
|
your card."
|
|
|
|
Theron smiled at her. The notion of taking in earnest
|
|
her inhospitable words did not at all occur to him.
|
|
He could see now that her face had vexed and saddened lines
|
|
upon it, and the sharpness of her tone remained in his ears.
|
|
But he smiled again gently, to reassure her.
|
|
|
|
"I ought to have sent up my name, I know," he said,
|
|
"but I couldn't bear to wait. I just saw your name
|
|
on the register and--you WILL forgive me, won't you?--
|
|
I ran to you at once. I know you won't have the heart
|
|
to send me away!"
|
|
|
|
She stood where she had halted, her arms behind her,
|
|
looking him fixedly in the face. He had made a movement
|
|
to advance, and offer his hand in greeting, but her
|
|
posture checked the impulse. His courage began to falter
|
|
under her inspection.
|
|
|
|
"Must I really go down again?" he pleaded. "It's a
|
|
crushing penalty to suffer for such little indiscretion.
|
|
I was so excited to find you were here--I never stopped
|
|
to think. Don't send me away; please don't!"
|
|
|
|
Celia raised her head. "Well, shut the door, then,"
|
|
she said, "since you are so anxious to stay. You would
|
|
have done much better, though, very much better indeed,
|
|
to have taken the hint and gone away."
|
|
|
|
"Will you shake hands with me, Celia?" he asked softly,
|
|
as he came near her.
|
|
|
|
"Sit there, please!" she made answer, indicating a
|
|
chair in the middle of the room. He obeyed her,
|
|
but to his surprise, instead of seating herself as well,
|
|
she began walking up and down the length of the floor again.
|
|
After a turn or two she stopped in front of him, and looked
|
|
him full in the eye. The light from the windows was on her
|
|
countenance now, and its revelations vaguely troubled him.
|
|
It was a Celia he had never seen before who confronted him.
|
|
|
|
"I am much occupied by other matters," she said,
|
|
speaking with cold impassivity, "but still I find myself
|
|
curious to know just what limits you set to your dishonesty."
|
|
|
|
Theron stared up at her. His lips quivered, but no speech
|
|
came to them. If this was all merely fond playfulness,
|
|
it was being carried to a heart-aching point.
|
|
|
|
"I saw you hiding about in the depot at home last evening,"
|
|
she went on. "You come up here, pretending to have
|
|
discovered me by accident, but I saw you following me
|
|
from the Grand Central this morning."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I did both these things," said Theron, boldly.
|
|
A fine bravery tingled in his veins all at once.
|
|
He looked into her face and found the spirit to
|
|
disregard its frowning aspect. "Yes, I did them,"
|
|
he repeated defiantly. "That is not the hundredth part,
|
|
or the thousandth part, of what I would do for your sake.
|
|
I have got way beyond caring for any consequences.
|
|
Position, reputation, the good opinion of fools--
|
|
what are they? Life itself--what does it amount to?
|
|
Nothing at all--with you in the balance!"
|
|
|
|
"Yes--but I am not in the balance," observed Celia,
|
|
quietly. "That is where you have made your mistake."
|
|
|
|
Theron laid aside his hat. Women were curious creatures,
|
|
he reflected. Some were susceptible to one line of treatment,
|
|
some to another. His own reading of Celia had always
|
|
been that she liked opposition, of a smart, rattling,
|
|
almost cheeky, sort. One got on best with her by saying
|
|
bright things. He searched his brain now for some clever
|
|
quip that would strike sparks from the adamantine mood
|
|
which for the moment it was her whim to assume. To cover
|
|
the process, he smiled a little. Then her beauty, as she
|
|
stood before him, her queenly form clad in a more stiffly
|
|
fashionable dress than he had seen her wearing before,
|
|
appealed afresh and overwhelmingly to him. He rose to his feet.
|
|
|
|
"Have you forgotten our talk in the woods?" he murmured
|
|
with a wooing note. "Have you forgotten the kiss?"
|
|
|
|
She shook her head calmly. "I have forgotten nothing."
|
|
|
|
"Then why play with me so cruelly now?" he went on,
|
|
in a voice of tender deprecation. "I know you don't
|
|
mean it, but all the same it bruises my heart a little.
|
|
I build myself so wholly upon you, I have made existence
|
|
itself depend so completely upon your smile, upon a soft
|
|
glance in your eyes, that when they are not there, why,
|
|
I suffer, I don't know how to live at all. So be kinder
|
|
to me, Celia!"
|
|
|
|
"I was kinder, as you call it, when you came in,"
|
|
she replied. "I told you to go away. That was pure kindness--
|
|
more kindness than you deserved."
|
|
|
|
Theron looked at his hat, where it stood on the carpet
|
|
by his feet. He felt tears coming into his eyes.
|
|
"You tell me that you remember," he said, in depressed tones,
|
|
"and yet you treat me like this! Perhaps I am wrong.
|
|
No doubt it is my own fault. I suppose I ought not to have
|
|
come down here at all."
|
|
|
|
Celia nodded her head in assent to this view.
|
|
|
|
"But I swear that I was helpless in the matter,"
|
|
he burst forth. "I HAD to come! It would have been
|
|
literally impossible for me to have stayed at home,
|
|
knowing that you were here, and knowing also that--that--"
|
|
|
|
"Go on!" said Celia, thrusting forth her under-lip a trifle,
|
|
and hardening still further the gleam in her eye,
|
|
as he stumbled over his sentence and left it unfinished.
|
|
"What was the other thing that you were 'knowing'?"
|
|
|
|
"Knowing--" he took up the word hesitatingly--"knowing that
|
|
life would be insupportable to me if I could not be near you."
|
|
|
|
She curled her lip at him. "You skated over the thin
|
|
spot very well," she commented. "It was on the tip
|
|
of your tongue to mention the fact that Father Forbes
|
|
came with me. Oh, I can read you through and through,
|
|
Mr. Ware."
|
|
|
|
In a misty way Theron felt things slipping from his grasp.
|
|
The rising moisture blurred his eyes as their gaze clung
|
|
to Celia.
|
|
|
|
"Then if you do read me," he protested, "you must know
|
|
how utterly my heart and brain are filled with you.
|
|
No other man in all the world can yield himself so absolutely
|
|
to the woman he worships as I can. You have taken
|
|
possession of me so wholly, I am not in the least master
|
|
of myself any more. I don't know what I say or what I do.
|
|
I am not worthy of you, I know. No man alive could be that.
|
|
But no one else will idolize and reverence you as I do.
|
|
Believe me when I say that, Celia! And how can you blame me,
|
|
in your heart, for following you? 'Whither thou goest,
|
|
I will go, and where thou lodgest I will lodge; thy people
|
|
shall be my people, and thy God my God; where thou diest,
|
|
will I die, and there will I be buried. The Lord do
|
|
so to me, and more also, if aught but death part thee
|
|
and me!'"
|
|
|
|
Celia shrugged her shoulders, and moved a few steps away
|
|
from him. Something like despair seized upon him.
|
|
|
|
"Surely," he urged with passion, "surely I have a right
|
|
to remind you of the kiss!"
|
|
|
|
She turned. "The kiss," she said meditatively. "Yes, you
|
|
have a right to remind me of it. Oh, yes, an undoubted right.
|
|
You have another right too--the right to have the kiss
|
|
explained to you. It was of the good-bye order. It signified
|
|
that we weren't to meet again, and that just for one little
|
|
moment I permitted myself to be sorry for you. That was all."
|
|
|
|
He held himself erect under the incredible words, and gazed
|
|
blankly at her. The magnitude of what he confronted
|
|
bewildered him; his mind was incapable of taking it in.
|
|
"You mean--" he started to say, and then stopped,
|
|
helplessly staring into her face, with a dropped jaw.
|
|
It was too much to try to think what she meant.
|
|
|
|
A little side-thought sprouted in the confusion
|
|
of his brain. It grew until it spread a bitter smile
|
|
over his pale face. "I know so little about kisses,"
|
|
he said; "I am such a greenhorn at that sort of thing.
|
|
You should have had pity on my inexperience, and told
|
|
me just what brand of kiss it was I was getting.
|
|
Probably I ought to have been able to distinguish,
|
|
but you see I was brought up in the country--on a farm.
|
|
They don't have kisses in assorted varieties there."
|
|
|
|
She bowed her head slightly. "Yes, you are entitled
|
|
to say that," she assented. "I was to blame, and it
|
|
is quite fair that you should tell me so. You spoke
|
|
of your inexperience, your innocence. That was why
|
|
I kissed you in saying good-bye. It was in memory
|
|
of that innocence of yours, to which you yourself had
|
|
been busy saying good-bye ever since I first saw you.
|
|
The idea seemed to me to mean something at the moment.
|
|
I see now that it was too subtle. I do not usually err
|
|
on that side."
|
|
|
|
Theron kept his hold upon her gaze, as if it afforded
|
|
him bodily support. He felt that he ought to stoop and
|
|
take up his hat, but he dared not look away from her.
|
|
"Do you not err now, on the side of cruelty?" he asked
|
|
her piteously.
|
|
|
|
It seemed for the instant as if she were wavering,
|
|
and he swiftly thrust forth other pleas. "I admit that I
|
|
did wrong to follow you to New York. I see that now.
|
|
But it was an offence committed in entire good faith.
|
|
Think of it, Celia! I have never seen you since that day--
|
|
that day in the woods. I have waited--and waited--
|
|
with no sign from you, no chance of seeing you at all.
|
|
Think what that meant to me! Everything in the world had been
|
|
altered for me, torn up by the roots. I was a new being,
|
|
plunged into a new existence. The kiss had done that.
|
|
But until saw you again, I could not tell whether this
|
|
vast change in me and my life was for good or for bad--
|
|
whether the kiss had come to me as a blessing or a curse.
|
|
The suspense was killing me, Celia! That is why,
|
|
when I learned that you were coming here, I threw
|
|
everything to the winds and followed you. You blame
|
|
me for it, and I bow my head and accept the blame.
|
|
But are you justified in punishing me so terribly--
|
|
in going on after I have confessed my error, and cutting
|
|
my heart into little strips, putting me to death by
|
|
torture?"
|
|
|
|
"Sit down," said Celia, with a softened weariness
|
|
in her voice. She seated herself in front of him as he
|
|
sank into his chair again. "I don't want to give you
|
|
unnecessary pain, but you have insisted on forcing yourself
|
|
into a position where there isn't anything else but pain.
|
|
I warned you to go away, but you wouldn't. No matter how
|
|
gently I may try to explain things to you, you are bound
|
|
to get nothing but suffering out of the explanation.
|
|
Now shall I still go on?"
|
|
|
|
He inclined his head in token of assent, and did not
|
|
lift it again, but raised toward her a disconsolate
|
|
gaze from a pallid, drooping face.
|
|
|
|
"It is all in a single word, Mr. Ware," she proceeded,
|
|
in low tones. "I speak for others as well as myself,
|
|
mind you--we find that you are a bore."
|
|
|
|
Theron's stiffened countenance remained immovable.
|
|
He continued to stare unblinkingly up into her eyes.
|
|
|
|
"We were disposed to like you very much when we first
|
|
knew you," Celia went on. "You impressed us as an innocent,
|
|
simple, genuine young character, full of mother's milk.
|
|
It was like the smell of early spring in the country to come
|
|
in contact with you. Your honesty of nature, your sincerity
|
|
in that absurd religion of yours, your general NAIVETE of
|
|
mental and spiritual get-up, all pleased us a great deal.
|
|
We thought you were going to be a real acquisition."
|
|
|
|
"Just a moment--whom do you mean by 'we'?" He asked
|
|
the question calmly enough, but in a voice with an effect
|
|
of distance in it.
|
|
|
|
"It may not be necessary to enter into that," she replied.
|
|
"Let me go on. But then it became apparent, little by little,
|
|
that we had misjudged you. We liked you, as I have said,
|
|
because you were unsophisticated and delightfully fresh
|
|
and natural. Somehow we took it for granted you would
|
|
stay so. Rut that is just what you didn't do--just what
|
|
you hadn't the sense to try to do. Instead, we found you
|
|
inflating yourself with all sorts of egotisms and vanities.
|
|
We found you presuming upon the friendships which had been
|
|
mistakenly extended to you. Do you want instances?
|
|
You went to Dr. Ledsmar's house that very day after I
|
|
had been with you to get a piano at Thurston's, and
|
|
tried to inveigle him into talking scandal about me.
|
|
You came to me with tales about him. You went to
|
|
Father Forbes, and sought to get him to gossip about
|
|
us both. Neither of those men will ever ask you inside
|
|
his house again. But that is only one part of it.
|
|
Your whole mind became an unpleasant thing to contemplate.
|
|
You thought it would amuse and impress us to hear you
|
|
ridiculing and reviling the people of your church,
|
|
whose money supports you, and making a mock of the things
|
|
they believe in, and which you for your life wouldn't dare
|
|
let them know you didn't believe in. You talked to us
|
|
slightingly about your wife. What were you thinking of,
|
|
not to comprehend that that would disgust us? You showed
|
|
me once--do you remember?--a life of George Sand that you
|
|
had just bought,--bought because you had just discovered
|
|
that she had an unclean side to her life. You chuckled
|
|
as you spoke to me about it, and you were for all the
|
|
world like a little nasty boy, giggling over something
|
|
dirty that older people had learned not to notice.
|
|
These are merely random incidents. They are just samples,
|
|
picked hap-hazard, of the things in you which have been
|
|
opening our eyes, little by little, to our mistake.
|
|
I can understand that all the while you really fancied
|
|
that you were expanding, growing, in all directions.
|
|
What you took to be improvement was degeneration.
|
|
When you thought that you were impressing us most by your
|
|
smart sayings and doings, you were reminding us most
|
|
of the fable about the donkey trying to play lap-dog.
|
|
And it wasn't even an honest, straightforward donkey
|
|
at that!"
|
|
|
|
She uttered these last words sorrowfully, her hands
|
|
clasped in her lap, and her eyes sinking to the floor.
|
|
A silence ensued. Then Theron reached a groping hand
|
|
out for his hat, and, rising, walked with a lifeless,
|
|
automatic step to the door.
|
|
|
|
He had it half open, when the impossibility of leaving in
|
|
this way towered suddenly in his path and overwhelmed him.
|
|
He slammed the door to, and turned as if he had been
|
|
whirled round by some mighty wind. He came toward her,
|
|
with something almost menacing in the vigor of his movements,
|
|
and in the wild look upon his white, set face.
|
|
Halting before her, he covered the tailor-clad figure,
|
|
the coiled red hair, the upturned face with its simulated calm,
|
|
the big brown eyes, the rings upon the clasped fingers,
|
|
with a sweeping, comprehensive glare of passion.
|
|
|
|
"This is what you have done to me, then!"
|
|
|
|
His voice was unrecognizable in his own ears--
|
|
hoarse and broken, but with a fright-compelling something
|
|
in it which stimulated his rage. The horrible notion
|
|
of killing her, there where she sat, spread over the
|
|
chaos of his mind with an effect of unearthly light--
|
|
red and abnormally evil. It was like that first devilish
|
|
radiance ushering in Creation, of which the first-fruit
|
|
was Cain. Why should he not kill her? In all ages,
|
|
women had been slain for less. Yes--and men had
|
|
been hanged. Something rose and stuck in his dry throat;
|
|
and as he swallowed it down, the sinister flare of
|
|
murderous fascination died suddenly away into darkness.
|
|
The world was all black again--plunged in the Egyptian
|
|
night which lay upon the face of the deep while the earth
|
|
was yet without form and void. He was alone on it--
|
|
alone among awful, planetary solitudes which crushed him.
|
|
|
|
The sight of Celia, sitting motionless only a pace in front
|
|
of him, was plain enough to his eyes. It was an illusion.
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She was really a star, many millions of miles away.
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These things were hard to understand; but they were true,
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none the less. People seemed to be about him, but in fact
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he was alone. He recalled that even the little child
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in the car, playing with those two buttons on a string,
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would have nothing to do with him. Take his money, yes;
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take all he would give her--but not smile at him, not come
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within reach of him! Men closed the doors of their houses
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against him. The universe held him at arm's length as
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a nuisance.
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He was standing with one knee upon a sofa. Unconsciously he
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had moved round to the side of Celia; and as he caught
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the effect of her face now in profile, memory-pictures began
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at once building themselves in his brain--pictures of her
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standing in the darkened room of the cottage of death,
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declaiming the CONFITEOR; of her seated at the piano,
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under the pure, mellowed candle-light; of her leaning her
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chin on her hands, and gazing meditatively at the leafy
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background of the woods they were in; of her lying back,
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indolently content, in the deck-chair on the yacht
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of his fancy--that yacht which a few hours before had
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seemed so brilliantly and bewitchingly real to him,
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and now--now--!
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He sank in a heap upon the couch, and, burying his face
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among its cushions, wept and groaned aloud. His collapse
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was absolute. He sobbed with the abandonment of one who,
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in the veritable presence of death, lets go all sense
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of relation to life.
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Presently some one was touching him on the shoulder--
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an incisive, pointed touch--and he checked himself,
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and lifted his face.
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"You will have to get up, and present some sort of
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an appearance, and go away at once," Celia said to him
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in low, rapid tones. "Some gentlemen are at the door,
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whom I have been waiting for."
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As he stupidly sat up and tried to collect his faculties,
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Celia had opened the door and admitted two visitors.
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The foremost was Father Forbes; and he, with some whispered,
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smiling words, presented to her his companion, a tall,
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robust, florid man of middle-age, with a frock-coat
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and a gray mustache, sharply waxed. The three spoke
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for a moment together. Then the priest's wandering eye
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suddenly lighted upon the figure on the sofa. He stared,
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knitted his brows, and then lifted them in inquiry as he
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turned to Celia.
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"Poor man!" she said readily, in tones loud enough to
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reach Theron. "It is our neighbor, Father, the Rev. Mr. Ware.
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He hit upon my name in the register quite unexpectedly,
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and I had him come up. He is in sore distress--
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a great and sudden bereavement. He is going now.
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Won't you speak to him in the hall--a few words, Father?
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It would please him. He is terribly depressed."
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The words had drawn Theron to his feet, as by some
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mechanical process. He took up his hat and moved dumbly
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to the door. It seemed to him that Celia intended offering
|
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to shake hands; but he went past her with only some
|
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confused exchange of glances and a murmured word or two.
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The tall stranger, who drew aside to let him pass,
|
|
had acted as if he expected to be introduced.
|
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Theron, emerging into the hall, leaned against the wall
|
|
and looked dreamily at the priest, who had stepped out with him.
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"I am very sorry to learn that you are in trouble, Mr. Ware,"
|
|
Father Forbes said, gently enough, but in hurried tones.
|
|
"Miss Madden is also in trouble. I mentioned to you
|
|
that her brother had got into a serious scrape. I have
|
|
brought my old friend, General Brady, to consult with her
|
|
about the matter. He knows all the parties concerned,
|
|
and he can set things right if anybody can."
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|
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"It's a mistake about me--I 'm not in any trouble at all,"
|
|
said Theron. "I just dropped in to make a friendly call."
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The priest glanced sharply at him, noting with a swift,
|
|
informed scrutiny how he sprawled against the wall,
|
|
and what vacuity his eyes and loosened lips expressed.
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"Then you have a talent for the inopportune amounting
|
|
to positive genius," said Father Forbes, with a stormy smile.
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|
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"Tell me this, Father Forbes," the other demanded,
|
|
with impulsive suddenness, "is it true that you don't
|
|
want me in your house again? Is that the truth or not?"
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|
|
|
"The truth is always relative, Mr. Ware," replied the priest,
|
|
turning away, and closing the door of the parlor behind
|
|
him with a decisive sound.
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|
Left alone, Theron started to make his way downstairs.
|
|
He found his legs wavering under him and making zigzag
|
|
movements of their own in a bewildering fashion.
|
|
He referred this at first, in an outburst of fresh despair,
|
|
to the effects of his great grief. Then, as he held tight
|
|
to the banister and governed his descent step by step,
|
|
it occurred to him that it must be the wine he had had
|
|
for breakfast. Upon examination, he was not so unhappy,
|
|
after all.
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CHAPTER XXXI
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At the second peal of the door-bell, Brother Soulsby
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sat up in bed. It was still pitch-dark, and the memory
|
|
of the first ringing fluttered musically in his awakening
|
|
consciousness as a part of some dream he had been having.
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|
|
|
"Who the deuce can that be?" he mused aloud, in querulous
|
|
resentment at the interruption.
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"Put your head out of the window, and ask,"
|
|
suggested his wife, drowsily.
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|
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The bell-pull scraped violently in its socket,
|
|
and a third outburst of shrill reverberations clamored
|
|
through the silent house.
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|
|
"Whatever you do, I'd do it before he yanked the whole
|
|
thing to pieces," added the wife, with more decision.
|
|
|
|
Brother Soulsby was wide awake now. He sprang to the floor,
|
|
and, groping about in the obscurity, began drawing on some
|
|
of his clothes. He rapped on the window during the process,
|
|
to show that the house was astir, and a minute afterward
|
|
made his way out of the room and down the stairs,
|
|
the boards creaking under his stockinged feet as he went.
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|
Nearly a quarter of an hour passed before he returned.
|
|
Sister Soulsby, lying in sleepy quiescence, heard vague
|
|
sounds of voices at the front door, and did not feel
|
|
interested enough to lift her head and listen. A noise
|
|
of footsteps on the sidewalk followed, first receding
|
|
from the door, then turning toward it, this second
|
|
time marking the presence of more than one person.
|
|
There seemed in this the implication of a guest, and she
|
|
shook off the dozing impulses which enveloped her faculties,
|
|
and waited to hear more. There came up, after further
|
|
muttering of male voices, the undeniable chink of coins
|
|
striking against one another. Then more footsteps,
|
|
the resonant slam of a carriage door out in the street,
|
|
the grinding of wheels turning on the frosty road,
|
|
and the racket of a vehicle and horses going off at
|
|
a smart pace into the night. Somebody had come, then.
|
|
She yawned at the thought, but remained well awake,
|
|
tracing idly in her mind, as various slight sounds rose
|
|
from the lower floor, the different things Soulsby
|
|
was probably doing. Their spare room was down there,
|
|
directly underneath, but curiously enough no one seemed
|
|
to enter it. The faint murmur of conversation which from
|
|
time to time reached her came from the parlor instead.
|
|
At last she heard her husband's soft tread coming
|
|
up the staircase, and still there had been no hint
|
|
of employing the guest-chamber. What could he be about?
|
|
she wondered.
|
|
|
|
Brother Soulsby came in, bearing a small lamp in
|
|
his hand, the reddish light of which, flaring upward,
|
|
revealed an unlooked-for display of amusement on his thin,
|
|
beardless face. He advanced to the bedside, shading the
|
|
glare from her blinking eyes with his palm, and grinned.
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|
|
|
"A thousand guesses, old lady," he said, with a dry
|
|
chuckle, "and you wouldn't have a ghost of a chance.
|
|
You might guess till Hades froze over seven feet thick,
|
|
and still you wouldn't hit it."
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|
|
|
She sat up in turn. "Good gracious, man," she began,
|
|
"you don't mean--" Here the cheerful gleam in his small eyes
|
|
reassured her, and she sighed relief, then smiled confusedly.
|
|
"I half thought, just for the minute," she explained,
|
|
"it might be some bounder who'd come East to try and
|
|
blackmail me. But no, who is it--and what on earth
|
|
have you done with him?"
|
|
|
|
Brother Soulsby cackled in merriment. "It's Brother
|
|
Ware of Octavius, out on a little bat, all by himself.
|
|
He says he's been on the loose only two days; but it looks
|
|
more like a fortnight."
|
|
|
|
"OUR Brother Ware?" she regarded him with open-eyed surprise.
|
|
|
|
"Well, yes, I suppose he's OUR Brother Ware--some,"
|
|
returned Soulsby, genially. "He seems to think so, anyway."
|
|
|
|
"But tell me about it!" she urged eagerly. "What's the
|
|
matter with him? How does he explain it?"
|
|
|
|
"Well, he explains it pretty badly, if you ask me,"
|
|
said Soulsby, with a droll, joking eye and a mock-serious voice.
|
|
He seated himself on the side of the bed, facing her,
|
|
and still considerately shielding her from the light
|
|
of the lamp he held. "But don't think I suggested
|
|
any explanations. I've been a mother myself.
|
|
He's merely filled himself up to the neck with rum,
|
|
in the simple, ordinary, good old-fashioned way.
|
|
That's all. What is there to explain about that?"
|
|
|
|
She looked meditatively at him for a time, shaking her head.
|
|
"No, Soulsby," she said gravely, at last. "This isn't
|
|
any laughing matter. You may be sure something bad
|
|
has happened, to set him off like that. I'm going to get
|
|
up and dress right now. What time is it?"
|
|
|
|
"Now don't you do anything of the sort," he urged persuasively.
|
|
"It isn't five o'clock; it'll be dark for nearly an hour yet.
|
|
Just you turn over, and have another nap. He's all right.
|
|
I put him on the sofa, with the buffalo robe round him.
|
|
You'll find him there, safe and sound, when it's time
|
|
for white folks to get up. You know how it breaks you up
|
|
all day, not to get your full sleep."
|
|
|
|
"I don't care if it makes me look as old as the everlasting hills,"
|
|
she said. "Can't you understand, Soulsby? The thing
|
|
worries me--gets on my nerves. I couldn't close an eye,
|
|
if I tried. I took a great fancy to that young man.
|
|
I told you so at the time."
|
|
|
|
Soulsby nodded, and turned down the wick of his lamp
|
|
a trifle. "Yes, I know you did," he remarked in placidly
|
|
non-contentious tones. "I can't say I saw much in him myself,
|
|
but I daresay you're right." There followed a moment's silence,
|
|
during which he experimented in turning the wick up again.
|
|
"But, anyway," he went on, "there isn't anything you
|
|
can do. He'll sleep it off, and the longer he's left
|
|
alone the better. It isn't as if we had a hired girl,
|
|
who'd come down and find him there, and give the whole
|
|
thing away. He's fixed up there perfectly comfortable;
|
|
and when he's had his sleep out, and wakes up on his
|
|
own account, he'll be feeling a heap better."
|
|
|
|
The argument might have carried conviction, but on the instant
|
|
the sound of footsteps came to them from the room below.
|
|
The subdued noise rose regularly, as of one pacing to and fro.
|
|
|
|
"No, Soulsby, YOU come back to bed, and get YOUR sleep out.
|
|
I'm going downstairs. It's no good talking; I'm going."
|
|
|
|
Brother Soulsby offered no further opposition, either by
|
|
talk or demeanor, but returned contentedly to bed,
|
|
pulling the comforter over his ears, and falling into
|
|
the slow, measured respiration of tranquil slumber
|
|
before his wife was ready to leave the room.
|
|
|
|
The dim, cold gray of twilight was sifting furtively through
|
|
the lace curtains of the front windows when Mrs. Soulsby,
|
|
lamp in hand, entered the parlor. She confronted a figure
|
|
she would have hardly recognized. The man seemed to have
|
|
been submerged in a bath of disgrace. From the crown
|
|
of his head to the soles of his feet, everything about him
|
|
was altered, distorted, smeared with an intangible effect
|
|
of shame. In the vague gloom of the middle distance,
|
|
between lamp and window, she noticed that his shoulders
|
|
were crouched, like those of some shambling tramp.
|
|
The frowsy shadows of a stubble beard lay on his jaw
|
|
and throat. His clothes were crumpled and hung awry;
|
|
his boots were stained with mud. The silk hat on the piano
|
|
told its battered story with dumb eloquence.
|
|
|
|
Lifting the lamp, she moved forward a step, and threw its
|
|
light upon his face. A little groan sounded involuntarily
|
|
upon her lips. Out of a mask of unpleasant features,
|
|
swollen with drink and weighted by the physical craving
|
|
for rest and sleep, there stared at her two bloodshot eyes,
|
|
shining with the wild light of hysteria. The effect
|
|
of dishevelled hair, relaxed muscles, and rough,
|
|
half-bearded lower face lent to these eyes, as she caught
|
|
their first glance, an unnatural glare. The lamp shook
|
|
in her hand for an instant. Then, ashamed of herself,
|
|
she held out her other hand fearlessly to him.
|
|
|
|
"Tell me all about it, Theron," she said calmly,
|
|
and with a soothing, motherly intonation in her voice.
|
|
|
|
He did not take the hand she offered, but suddenly,
|
|
with a wailing moan, cast himself on his knees at her feet.
|
|
He was so tall a man that the movement could have no grace.
|
|
He abased his head awkwardly, to bury it among the folds
|
|
of the skirts at her ankles. She stood still for a moment,
|
|
looking down upon him. Then, blowing out the light,
|
|
she reached over and set the smoking lamp on the piano
|
|
near by. The daylight made things distinguishable in a wan,
|
|
uncertain way, throughout the room.
|
|
|
|
"I have come out of hell, for the sake of hearing some
|
|
human being speak to me like that!"
|
|
|
|
The thick utterance proceeded in a muffled fashion from
|
|
where his face grovelled against her dress. Its despairing
|
|
accents appealed to her, but even more was she touched
|
|
by the ungainly figure he made, sprawling on the carpet.
|
|
|
|
"Well, since you are out, stay out," she answered,
|
|
as reassuringly as she could. "But get up and take
|
|
a seat here beside me, like a sensible man, and tell
|
|
me all about it. Come! I insist!"
|
|
|
|
In obedience to her tone, and the sharp tug at his shoulder
|
|
with which she emphasized it, he got slowly to his feet,
|
|
and listlessly seated himself on the sofa to which
|
|
she pointed. He hung his head, and began catching
|
|
his breath with a periodical gasp, half hiccough, half sob.
|
|
|
|
"First of all," she said, in her brisk, matter-of-fact manner,
|
|
"don't you want to lie down there again, and have me tuck
|
|
you up snug with the buffalo robe, and go to sleep?
|
|
That would be the best thing you could do."
|
|
|
|
He shook his head disconsolately, from side to side.
|
|
"I can't!" he groaned, with a swifter recurrence of the
|
|
sob-like convulsions. "I'm dying for sleep, but I'm too--
|
|
too frightened!"
|
|
|
|
"Come, I'll sit beside you till you drop off," she said,
|
|
with masterful decision. He suffered himself to be pushed
|
|
into recumbency on the couch, and put his head with
|
|
docility on the pillow she brought from the spare room.
|
|
When she had spread the fur over him, and pushed her
|
|
chair close to the sofa, she stood by it for a little,
|
|
looking down in meditation at his demoralized face.
|
|
Under the painful surface-blur of wretchedness and
|
|
fatigued debauchery, she traced reflectively the lineaments
|
|
of the younger and cleanlier countenance she had seen a few
|
|
months before. Nothing essential had been taken away.
|
|
There was only this pestiferous overlaying of shame and
|
|
cowardice to be removed. The face underneath was still
|
|
all right.
|
|
|
|
With a soft, maternal touch, she smoothed the hair from
|
|
his forehead into order. Then she seated herself, and,
|
|
when he got his hand out from under the robe and thrust
|
|
it forth timidly, she took it in hers and held it in
|
|
a warm, sympathetic grasp. He closed his eyes at this,
|
|
and gradually the paroxysmal catch in his breathing lapsed.
|
|
The daylight strengthened, until at last tiny flecks
|
|
of sunshine twinkled in the meshes of the further
|
|
curtains at the window. She fancied him asleep,
|
|
and gently sought to disengage her hand, but his fingers
|
|
clutched at it with vehemence, and his eyes were wide open.
|
|
|
|
"I can't sleep at all," he murmured. "I want to talk."
|
|
|
|
"There 's nothing in the world to hinder you,"
|
|
she commented smilingly.
|
|
|
|
"I tell you the solemn truth," he said, lifting his
|
|
voice in dogged assertion: "the best sermon I ever
|
|
preached in my life, I preached only three weeks ago,
|
|
at the camp-meeting. It was admitted by everybody to be far
|
|
and away my finest effort! They will tell you the same!"
|
|
|
|
"It's quite likely," assented Sister Soulsby. "I quite
|
|
believe it."
|
|
|
|
"Then how can anybody say that I've degenerated, that I've
|
|
become a fool?" he demanded.
|
|
|
|
"I haven't heard anybody hint at such a thing,"
|
|
she answered quietly.
|
|
|
|
"No, of course, YOU haven't heard them!" he cried.
|
|
"I heard them, though!" Then, forcing himself to a
|
|
sitting posture, against the restraint of her hand,
|
|
he flung back the covering. "I'm burning hot already!
|
|
Yes, those were the identical words: I haven't improved;
|
|
I've degenerated. People hate me; they won't have me
|
|
in their houses. They say I'm a nuisance and a bore.
|
|
I'm like a little nasty boy. That's what they say.
|
|
Even a young man who was dying--lying right on the edge
|
|
of his open grave--told me solemnly that I reminded him
|
|
of a saint once, but I was only fit for a barkeeper now.
|
|
They say I really don't know anything at all. And I'm
|
|
not only a fool, they say, I'm a dishonest fool into
|
|
the bargain!"
|
|
|
|
"But who says such twaddle as that?" she returned consolingly.
|
|
The violence of his emotion disturbed her. "You mustn't
|
|
imagine such things. You are among friends here.
|
|
Other people are your friends, too. They have the very
|
|
highest opinion of you."
|
|
|
|
"I haven't a friend on earth but you!" he declared solemnly.
|
|
His eyes glowed fiercely, and his voice sank into a grave
|
|
intensity of tone. "I was going to kill myself. I went
|
|
on to the big bridge to throw myself off, and a policeman
|
|
saw me trying to climb over the railing, and he grabbed me
|
|
and marched me away. Then he threw me out at the entrance,
|
|
and said he would club my head off if I came there again.
|
|
And then I went and stood and let the cable-cars pass close
|
|
by me, and twenty times I thought I had the nerve to throw
|
|
myself under the next one, and then I waited for the next--
|
|
and I was afraid! And then I was in a crowd somewhere,
|
|
and the warning came to me that I was going to die.
|
|
The fool needn't go kill himself: God would take care
|
|
of that. It was my heart, you know. I've had that terrible
|
|
fluttering once before. It seized me this time, and I
|
|
fell down in the crowd, and some people walked over me,
|
|
but some one else helped me up, and let me sit down
|
|
in a big lighted hallway, the entrance to some theatre,
|
|
and some one brought me some brandy, but somebody else said
|
|
I was drunk, and they took it away again, and put me out.
|
|
They could see I was a fool, that I hadn't a friend
|
|
on earth. And when I went out, there was a big picture
|
|
of a woman in tights, and the word 'Amazons' overhead--
|
|
and then I remembered you. I knew you were my friend--
|
|
the only one I have on earth."
|
|
|
|
"It is very flattering--to be remembered like that,"
|
|
said Sister Soulsby, gently. The disposition to laugh
|
|
was smothered by a pained perception of the suffering he
|
|
was undergoing. His face had grown drawn and haggard
|
|
under the burden of his memories as he rambled on.
|
|
|
|
"So I came straight to you," he began again.
|
|
"I had just money enough left to pay my fare. The rest
|
|
is in my valise at the hotel--the Murray Hill Hotel.
|
|
It belongs to the church. I stole it from the church.
|
|
When I am dead they can get it back again!"
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby forced a smile to her lips. "What nonsense
|
|
you talk--about dying!" she exclaimed. "Why, man alive,
|
|
you'll sleep this all off like a top, if you'll only lie
|
|
down and give yourself a chance. Come, now, you must do
|
|
as you're told."
|
|
|
|
With a resolute hand, she made him lie down again,
|
|
and once more covered him with the fur. He submitted,
|
|
and did not even offer to put out his arm this time,
|
|
but looked in piteous dumbness at her for a long time.
|
|
While she sat thus in silence, the sound of Brother Soulsby
|
|
moving about upstairs became audible.
|
|
|
|
Theron heard it, and the importance of hurrying on
|
|
some further disclosure seemed to suggest itself.
|
|
"I can see you think I'm just drunk," he said, in low,
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sombre tones. "Of course that's what HE thought.
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The hackman thought so, and so did the conductor,
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and everybody. But I hoped you would know better. I was
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sure you would see that it was something worse than that.
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See here, I'll tell you. Then you'll understand.
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I've been drinking for two days and one whole night,
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on my feet all the while, wandering alone in that big
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strange New York, going through places where they murdered
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men for ten cents, mixing myself up with the worst
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people in low bar-rooms and dance-houses, and they saw I
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had money in my pocket, too, and yet nobody touched me,
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or offered to lay a finger on me. Do you know why?
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They understood that I wanted to get drunk, and couldn't.
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The Indians won't harm an idiot, or lunatic, you know.
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Well, it was the same with these vilest of the vile.
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They saw that I was a fool whom God had taken hold of,
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to break his heart first, and then to craze his brain,
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and then to fling him on a dunghill to die like a dog.
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They believe in God, those people. They're the only ones
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who do, it seems to me. And they wouldn't interfere
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|
when they saw what He was doing to me. But I tell you I
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wasn't drunk. I haven't been drunk. I'm only heart-broken,
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and crushed out of shape and life--that's all. And I've
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crawled here just to have a friend by me when--when I come
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to the end."
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"You're not talking very sensibly, or very bravely either,
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Theron Ware," remarked his companion. "It's cowardly
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to give way to notions like that."
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"Oh, I 'm not afraid to die; don't think that,"
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he remonstrated wearily. "If there is a Judgment,
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it has hit me as hard as it can already. There can't
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be any hell worse than that I've gone through.
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Here I am talking about hell," he continued, with a
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pained contraction of the muscles about his mouth--
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a stillborn, malformed smile--as if I believed in one!
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I've got way through all my beliefs, you know. I tell
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you that frankly."
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"It's none of my business," she reassured him. "I'm not
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your Bishop, or your confessor. I'm just your friend,
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your pal, that's all."
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"Look here!" he broke in, with some animation and a new
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|
intensity of glance and voice. "If I was going to live,
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|
I'd have some funny things to tell. Six months ago I was
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|
a good man. I not only seemed to be good, to others and
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|
to myself, but I was good. I had a soul; I had a conscience.
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|
I was going along doing my duty, and I was happy in it.
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|
We were poor, Alice and I, and people behaved rather hard
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|
toward us, and sometimes we were a little down in the
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|
mouth about it; but that was all. We really were happy;
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|
and I--I really was a good man. Here's the kind
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|
of joke God plays! You see me here six months after.
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|
Look at me! I haven't got an honest hair in my head.
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|
I'm a bad man through and through, that's what I am.
|
|
I look all around at myself, and there isn't an atom left
|
|
anywhere of the good man I used to be. And, mind you,
|
|
I never lifted a finger to prevent the change. I didn't
|
|
resist once; I didn't make any fight. I just walked
|
|
deliberately down-hill, with my eyes wide open. I told
|
|
myself all the while that I was climbing uphill instead,
|
|
but I knew in my heart that it was a lie. Everything about
|
|
me was a lie. I wouldn't be telling the truth,
|
|
even now, if--if I hadn't come to the end of my rope.
|
|
Now, how do you explain that? How can it be explained?
|
|
Was I really rotten to the core all the time, years ago,
|
|
when I seemed to everybody, myself and the rest, to be good
|
|
and straight and sincere? Was it all a sham, or does God
|
|
take a good man and turn him into an out-and-out bad one,
|
|
in just a few months--in the time that it takes an ear
|
|
of corn to form and ripen and go off with the mildew?
|
|
Or isn't there any God at all--but only men who live
|
|
and die like animals? And that would explain my case,
|
|
wouldn't it? I got bitten and went vicious and crazy,
|
|
and they've had to chase me out and hunt me to my death
|
|
like a mad dog! Yes, that makes it all very simple.
|
|
It isn't worth while to discuss me at all as if I
|
|
had a soul, is it? I'm just one more mongrel cur
|
|
that's gone mad, and must be put out of the way.
|
|
That's all."
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|
|
|
"See here," said Sister Soulsby, alertly, "I half believe
|
|
that a good cuffing is what you really stand in need of.
|
|
Now you stop all this nonsense, and lie quiet and keep still!
|
|
Do you hear me?"
|
|
|
|
The jocose sternness which she assumed, in words
|
|
and manner, seemed to soothe him. He almost smiled
|
|
up at her in a melancholy way, and sighed profoundly.
|
|
|
|
"I've told you MY religion before," she went on with gentleness.
|
|
"The sheep and the goats are to be separated on Judgment Day,
|
|
but not a minute sooner. In other words, as long as human
|
|
life lasts, good, bad, and indifferent are all braided up
|
|
together in every man's nature, and every woman's too.
|
|
You weren't altogether good a year ago, any more than
|
|
you're altogether bad now. You were some of both then;
|
|
you're some of both now. If you've been making an extra
|
|
sort of fool of yourself lately, why, now that you
|
|
recognize it, the only thing to do is to slow steam,
|
|
pull up, and back engine in the other direction.
|
|
In that way you'll find things will even themselves up.
|
|
It's a see-saw with all of us, Theron Ware--sometimes up;
|
|
sometimes down. But nobody is rotten clear to the core."
|
|
|
|
He closed his eyes, and lay in silence for a time.
|
|
|
|
"This is what day of the week?" he asked, at last.
|
|
|
|
"Friday, the nineteenth."
|
|
|
|
"Wednesday--that would be the seventeenth. That was
|
|
the day ordained for my slaughter. On that morning,
|
|
I was the happiest man in the world. No king could
|
|
have been so proud and confident as I was. A wonderful
|
|
romance had come to me. The most beautiful young woman
|
|
in the world, the most talented too, was waiting for me.
|
|
An express train was carrying me to her, and it
|
|
couldn't go fast enough to keep up with my eagerness.
|
|
She was very rich, and she loved me, and we were to
|
|
live in eternal summer, wherever we liked, on a big,
|
|
beautiful yacht. No one else had such a life before
|
|
him as that. It seemed almost too good for me, but I
|
|
thought I had grown and developed so much that perhaps
|
|
I would be worthy of it. Oh, how happy I was! I tell
|
|
you this because--because YOU are not like the others.
|
|
You will understand."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I understand," she said patiently. "Well--you
|
|
were being so happy."
|
|
|
|
"That was in the morning--Wednesday the seventeenth--
|
|
early in the morning. There was a little girl
|
|
in the car, playing with some buttons, and when I
|
|
tried to make friends with her, she looked at me,
|
|
and she saw, right at a glance, that I was a fool.
|
|
"Out of the mouths of babes and sucklings," you know.
|
|
She was the first to find it out. It began like that,
|
|
early in the morning. But then after that everybody
|
|
knew it. They had only to look at me and they said:
|
|
'Why, this is a fool--like a little nasty boy; we won't
|
|
let him into our houses; we find him a bore.' That is
|
|
what they said."
|
|
|
|
"Did SHE say it?" Sister Soulsby permitted herself to ask.
|
|
|
|
For answer Theron bit his lips, and drew his chin under
|
|
the fur, and pushed his scowling face into the pillow.
|
|
The spasmodic, sob-like gasps began to shake him again.
|
|
She laid a compassionate hand upon his hot brow.
|
|
|
|
"That is why I made my way here to you," he groaned piteously.
|
|
"I knew you would sympathize; I could tell it all to you.
|
|
And it was so awful, to die there alone in the strange city--
|
|
I couldn't do it--with nobody near me who liked me,
|
|
or thought well of me. Alice would hate me.
|
|
There was no one but you. I wanted to be with you--
|
|
at the last."
|
|
|
|
His quavering voice broke off in a gust of weeping,
|
|
and his face frankly surrendered itself to the distortions
|
|
of a crying child's countenance, wide-mouthed and tragically
|
|
grotesque in its abandonment of control.
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby, as her husband's boots were heard
|
|
descending the stairs, rose, and drew the robe up to half
|
|
cover his agonized visage. She patted the sufferer
|
|
softly on the head, and then went to the stair-door.
|
|
|
|
"I think he'll go to sleep now," she said, lifting her voice
|
|
to the new-comer, and with a backward nod toward the couch.
|
|
"Come out into the kitchen while I get breakfast, or into
|
|
the sitting-room, or somewhere, so as not to disturb him.
|
|
He's promised me to lie perfectly quiet, and try to sleep."
|
|
|
|
When they had passed together out of the room, she turned.
|
|
"Soulsby," she said with half-playful asperity,
|
|
"I'm disappointed in you. For a man who's knocked
|
|
about as much as you have, I must say you've picked
|
|
up an astonishingly small outfit of gumption.
|
|
That poor creature in there is no more drunk than I am.
|
|
He's been drinking--yes, drinking like a fish; but it
|
|
wasn't able to make him drunk. He's past being drunk;
|
|
he's grief-crazy. It's a case of 'woman.' Some girl has
|
|
made a fool of him, and decoyed him up in a balloon,
|
|
and let him drop. He's been hurt bad, too."
|
|
|
|
"We have all been hurt in our day and generation,"
|
|
responded Brother Soulsby, genially. "Don't you worry;
|
|
he'll sleep that off too. It takes longer than drink,
|
|
and it doesn't begin to be so pleasant, but it can be
|
|
slept off. Take my word for it, he'll be a different man
|
|
by noon."
|
|
|
|
When noon came, however, Brother Soulsby was on his way
|
|
to summon one of the village doctors. Toward nightfall,
|
|
he went out again to telegraph for Alice.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
CHAPTER XXXII
|
|
|
|
|
|
Spring fell early upon the pleasant southern slopes of
|
|
the Susquehanna country. The snow went off as by magic.
|
|
The trees budded and leaved before their time. The birds
|
|
came and set up their chorus in the elms, while winter
|
|
seemed still a thing of yesterday.
|
|
|
|
Alice, clad gravely in black, stood again upon a kitchen-stoop,
|
|
and looked across an intervening space of back-yards and
|
|
fences to where the tall boughs, fresh in their new verdure,
|
|
were silhouetted against the pure blue sky. The prospect
|
|
recalled to her irresistibly another sunlit morning,
|
|
a year ago, when she had stood in the doorway of her
|
|
own kitchen, and surveyed a scene not unlike this;
|
|
it might have been with the same carolling robins,
|
|
the same trees, the same azure segment of the tranquil,
|
|
speckless dome. Then she was looking out upon surroundings
|
|
novel and strange to her, among which she must make herself
|
|
at home as best she could. But at least the ground
|
|
was secure under her feet; at least she had a home,
|
|
and a word from her lips could summon her husband out,
|
|
to stand beside her with his arm about her, and share
|
|
her buoyant, hopeful joy in the promises of spring.
|
|
|
|
To think that that was only one little year ago--the mere
|
|
revolution of four brief seasons! And now--!
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby, wiping her hands on her apron, came briskly
|
|
out upon the stoop. Some cheerful commonplace was on
|
|
her tongue, but a glance at Alice's wistful face kept
|
|
it back. She passed an arm around her waist instead,
|
|
and stood in silence, looking at the elms.
|
|
|
|
"It brings back memories to me--all this," said Alice,
|
|
nodding her head, and not seeking to dissemble the tears
|
|
which sprang to her eyes.
|
|
|
|
"The men will be down in a minute, dear," the other
|
|
reminded her. "They'd nearly finished packing before I
|
|
put the biscuits in the oven. "We mustn't wear long
|
|
faces before folks, you know."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I know," murmured Alice. Then, with a sudden
|
|
impulse, she turned to her companion. "Candace," she
|
|
said fervently, "we're alone here for the moment;
|
|
I must tell you that if I don't talk gratitude to you,
|
|
it's simply and solely because I don't know where to begin,
|
|
or what to say. I'm just dumfounded at your goodness.
|
|
It takes my speech away. I only know this, Candace:
|
|
God will be very good to you."
|
|
|
|
"Tut! tut!" replied Sister Soulsby, "that's all right,
|
|
you dear thing. I know just how you feel. Don't dream
|
|
of being under obligation to explain it to me, or to thank
|
|
us at all. We've had all sorts of comfort out of the thing--
|
|
Soulsby and I. We used to get downright lonesome, here all
|
|
by ourselves, and we've simply had a winter of pleasant
|
|
company instead, that s all. Besides, there's solid
|
|
satisfaction in knowing that at last, for once in our lives
|
|
we've had a chance to be of some real use to somebody
|
|
who truly needed it. You can't imagine how stuck up
|
|
that makes us in our own conceit. We feel as if we were
|
|
George Peabody and Lady Burdett-Coutts, and several other
|
|
philanthropists thrown in. No, seriously, don't think
|
|
of it again. We're glad to have been able to do it all;
|
|
and if you only go ahead now, and prosper and be happy,
|
|
why, that will be the only reward we want."
|
|
|
|
"I hope we shall do well," said Alice. "Only tell
|
|
me this, Candace. You do think I was right, don't you,
|
|
in insisting on Theron's leaving the ministry altogether?
|
|
He seems convinced enough now that it was the right thing
|
|
to do; but I grow nervous sometimes lest he should find
|
|
it harder than he thought to get along in business,
|
|
and regret the change--and blame me."
|
|
|
|
"I think you may rest easy in your mind about that,"
|
|
the other responded. "Whatever else he does, he will
|
|
never want to come within gunshot of a pulpit again.
|
|
It came too near murdering him for that."
|
|
|
|
Alice looked at her doubtfully. "Something came near
|
|
murdering him, I know. But it doesn't seem to me
|
|
that I would say it was the ministry. And I guess you
|
|
know pretty well yourself what it was. Of course,
|
|
I've never asked any questions, and I've hushed up
|
|
everybody at Octavius who tried to quiz me about it--
|
|
his disappearance and my packing up and leaving, and all that--
|
|
and I've never discussed the question with you--but--"
|
|
|
|
"No, and there's no good going into it now," put in
|
|
Sister Soulsby, with amiable decisiveness. "It's all
|
|
past and gone. In fact, I hardly remember much about it
|
|
now myself. He simply got into deep water, poor soul,
|
|
and we've floated him out again, safe and sound.
|
|
That's all. But all the same, I was right in what I said.
|
|
He was a mistake in the ministry."
|
|
|
|
"But if you'd known him in previous years," urged Alice,
|
|
plaintively, "before we were sent to that awful Octavius.
|
|
He was the very ideal of all a young minister should be.
|
|
People used to simply worship him, he was such a perfect preacher,
|
|
and so pure-minded and friendly with everybody, and threw
|
|
himself into his work so. It was all that miserable,
|
|
contemptible Octavius that did the mischief."
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby slowly shook her head. "If there
|
|
hadn't been a screw loose somewhere," she said gently,
|
|
"Octavius wouldn't have hurt him. No, take my word
|
|
for it, he never was the right man for the place.
|
|
He seemed to be, no doubt, but he wasn't. When pressure
|
|
was put on him, it found out his weak spot like a shot,
|
|
and pushed on it, and--well, it came near smashing him,
|
|
that's all."
|
|
|
|
"And do you think he'll always be a--a back-slider,"
|
|
mourned Alice.
|
|
|
|
"For mercy's sake, don't ever try to have him pretend
|
|
to be anything else!" exclaimed the other. "The last
|
|
state of that man would be worse than the first.
|
|
You must make up your mind to that. And you mustn't show
|
|
that you're nervous about it. You mustn't get nervous!
|
|
You mustn't be afraid of things. Just you keep a stiff
|
|
upper lip, and say you WILL get along, you WILL be happy.
|
|
That's your only chance, Alice. He isn't going to be
|
|
an angel of light, or a saint, or anything of that sort,
|
|
and it's no good expecting it. But he'll be just an
|
|
average kind of man--a little sore about some things,
|
|
a little wiser than he was about some others. You can get
|
|
along perfectly with him, if you only keep your courage up,
|
|
and don't show the white feather."
|
|
|
|
"Yes, I know; but I've had it pretty well taken out of me,"
|
|
commented Alice. "It used to come easy to me to be cheerful
|
|
and resolute and all that; but it's different now."
|
|
|
|
Sister Soulsby stole a swift glance at the unsuspecting
|
|
face of her companion which was not all admiration,
|
|
but her voice remained patiently affectionate.
|
|
"Oh, that'll all come back to you, right enough.
|
|
You'll have your hands full, you know, finding a house,
|
|
and unpacking all your old furniture, and buying new things,
|
|
and getting your home settled. It'll keep you so busy you
|
|
won't have time to feel strange or lonesome, one bit.
|
|
You'll see how it'll tone you up. In a year's time you won't
|
|
know yourself in the looking-glass."
|
|
|
|
"Oh, my health is good enough," said Alice; "but I can't
|
|
help thinking, suppose Theron should be taken sick again,
|
|
away out there among strangers. You know he's never
|
|
appeared to me to have quite got his strength back.
|
|
These long illnesses, you know, they always leave a mark
|
|
on a man."
|
|
|
|
"Nonsense! He's strong as an ox," insisted Sister Soulsby.
|
|
"You mark my word, he'll thrive in Seattle like a green bay-tree."
|
|
|
|
"Seattle!" echoed Alice, meditatively. "It sounds
|
|
like the other end of the world, doesn't it?"
|
|
|
|
The noise of feet in the house broke upon the colloquy,
|
|
and the women went indoors, to join the breakfast party.
|
|
During the meal, it was Brother Soulsby who bore the
|
|
burden of the conversation. He was full of the future
|
|
of Seattle and the magnificent impending development
|
|
of that Pacific section. He had been out there,
|
|
years ago, when it was next door to uninhabited.
|
|
He had visited the district twice since, and the changes
|
|
discoverable each new time were more wonderful than
|
|
anything Aladdin's lamp ever wrought. He had secured
|
|
for Theron, through some of his friends in Portland,
|
|
the superintendency of a land and real estate company,
|
|
which had its headquarters in Seattle, but ambitiously linked
|
|
its affairs with the future of all Washington Territory.
|
|
In an hour's time the hack would come to take the Wares
|
|
and their baggage to the depot, the first stage in their
|
|
long journey across the continent to their new home.
|
|
Brother Soulsby amiably filled the interval with reminiscences
|
|
of the Oregon of twenty years back, with instructive
|
|
dissertations upon the soil, climate, and seasons of Puget
|
|
Sound and the Columbia valley, and, above all, with helpful
|
|
characterizations of the social life which had begun to take
|
|
form in this remotest West. He had nothing but confidence,
|
|
to all appearances, in the success of his young friend,
|
|
now embarking on this new career. He seemed so sanguine
|
|
about it that the whole atmosphere of the breakfast room
|
|
lightened up, and the parting meal, surrounded by so many
|
|
temptations to distraught broodings and silences as it was,
|
|
became almost jovial in its spirit.
|
|
|
|
At last, it was time to look for the carriage. The trunks
|
|
and hand-bags were ready in the hall, and Sister Soulsby
|
|
was tying up a package of sandwiches for Alice to keep
|
|
by her in the train.
|
|
|
|
Theron, with hat in hand, and overcoat on arm, loitered restlessly
|
|
into the kitchen, and watched this proceeding for a moment.
|
|
Then he sauntered out upon the stoop, and, lifting his head
|
|
and drawing as long a breath as he could, looked over at the elms.
|
|
|
|
Perhaps the face was older and graver; it was hard to tell.
|
|
The long winter's illness, with its recurring crises and
|
|
sustained confinement, had bleached his skin and reduced
|
|
his figure to gauntness, but there was none the less
|
|
an air of restored and secure good health about him.
|
|
Only in the eyes themselves, as they rested briefly upon
|
|
the prospect, did a substantial change suggest itself.
|
|
They did not dwell fondly upon the picture of the lofty,
|
|
spreading boughs, with their waves of sap-green leafage
|
|
stirring against the blue. They did not soften and glow
|
|
this time, at the thought of how wholly one felt sure
|
|
of God's goodness in these wonderful new mornings
|
|
of spring.
|
|
|
|
They looked instead straight through the fairest
|
|
and most moving spectacle in nature's processional,
|
|
and saw afar off, in conjectural vision, a formless
|
|
sort of place which was Seattle. They surveyed
|
|
its impalpable outlines, its undefined dimensions,
|
|
with a certain cool glitter of hard-and-fast resolve.
|
|
There rose before his fancy, out of the chaos of these
|
|
shapeless imaginings, some faces of men, then more behind
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them, then a great concourse of uplifted countenances,
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crowded close together as far as the eye could reach.
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They were attentive faces all, rapt, eager, credulous to
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a degree. Their eyes were admiringly bent upon a common
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object of excited interest. They were looking at HIM;
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they strained their ears to miss no cadence of his voice.
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Involuntarily he straightened himself, stretched forth
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his hand with the pale, thin fingers gracefully disposed,
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and passed it slowly before him from side to side,
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in a comprehensive, stately gesture. The audience rose at him,
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as he dropped his hand, and filled his day-dream with a
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mighty roar of applause, in volume like an ocean tempest,
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yet pitched for his hearing alone.
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He smiled, shook himself with a little delighted tremor,
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and turned on the stoop to the open door.
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"What Soulsby said about politics out there interested
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me enormously," he remarked to the two women. "I shouldn't
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be surprised if I found myself doing something in that line.
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I can speak, you know, if I can't do anything else.
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Talk is what tells, these days. Who knows? I may turn
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up in Washington a full-blown senator before I'm forty.
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Stranger things have happened than that, out West!"
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"We'll come down and visit you then, Soulsby and I,"
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said Sister Soulsby, cheerfully. "You shall take us to
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the White House, Alice, and introduce us."
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"Oh, it isn't likely I would come East," said Alice, pensively.
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"Most probably I'd be left to amuse myself in Seattle.
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But there--I think that's the carriage driving up to the door."
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